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Being in my usual state, I found myself out of my body I saw myself as a small steamboat.
I was amazed to see myself reduced to this form.
My adorable Jesus came and Said to me:
"My daughter,
human life is like a steamboat that can move only by fire: if its fire is large and sharp, it advances rapidly,
if its fire is small, it moves slowly, and if its fire is extinguished, it remains motionless.
This is so for the soul:
-if the fire of love for God is great in her,
it hovers over all things on earth, always flying towards its center which is God
-If this fire is small in it,
it advances with difficulty, crawling and
covered with mud by all that is of the earth.
- if the fire is extinguished,
she remains motionless, without the life of God in her. She is as if dead to all that is divine.
My daughter
when the soul does all its actions out of love for Me and
when she wants no reward for her work other than my love, she always walks in the light of day.
It's never night for her.
She even walks in the sun that surrounds her completely enjoying her light.
His actions serve as light for his journey. They produce in it an ever new light. »
Being in my usual state, I prayed for the needs of others. Moving within me, Blessed Jesus said to me:
"Why do you pray for these people? »
And you, Lord, why do you love us? -
"I love you because you belong to me.
And when something belongs to us, we feel compelled to love it. It's like a necessity. »
Lord, I pray for these people because they belong to you. Otherwise, I wouldn't be interested."
Placing His hand on my forehead with some pressure on it, He added:
"Oh! This is because they are Mine!
That's why love of neighbor is a good thing. »
Being in my usual state, Blessed Jesus showed Himself briefly and said to me:
"My daughter, true love forgets itself and lives
interests, sufferings and all that belongs to the Beloved."
I replied, "Lord, how can we forget ourselves when we feel so much about ourselves?
It's not about something far away from us, separate from us, that can easily be forgotten."
Jesus continues:
"This is precisely the sacrifice of true love:
while one is with oneself, one must live from all that belongs to the Beloved.
Even more, if his self comes to the surface, we must strive to make this a new opportunity to consume ourselves for the beloved object.
On the other hand, if the Beloved sees that the soul gives him everything of himself, He will know how to reward her by giving her everything about himself and allowing him to live from his divine life. Thus, the one who completely forgets himself finds everything.
"It is necessary to see the difference between what we forget and what we find: We forget what is ugly and we find what is beautiful.
We forget nature and find grace.
We forget the passions and we find the virtues. We forget poverty and find wealth. We forget foolishness and find wisdom.
We forget the world and we find Heaven. »
This morning, being out of my body, I found myself with baby Jesus in my arms and in the company of a virgin who lay me on the ground to make me undergo the crucifixion,
-not with nails, but with fire,
placing burning charcoal on my hands and feet. Blessed Jesus assisted me in my suffering and He said to me:
"My daughter, there is no sacrifice without renunciation.
Sacrifice and renunciation cause the purest and most perfect love.
And as sacrifice is sacred, it consecrates my soul as a sanctuary worthy of Me.
that I may dwell there permanently.
Thus, let the sacrifice do its work in you in order to make your body and soul sacred so that everything is sacred in you.
Consecrate everything to Me. »
Being in my usual state, I saw Jesus blessed in me.
A light in my mind tells me:
"While one is nothing, one can be everything.
But how?
One becomes everything through suffering.
Suffering causes the soul to become pontiff, priest, king, prince, minister, judge, lawyer, repairer, protector, defender.
And as true suffering is that willed by God,
if the soul completely calms down in the Will of God, this appeasement, united with suffering, allows the soul to influence
-on the righteousness of God,
-on his mercy,
-on men and
-on all things.
Suffering conferred on Christ
-all qualities,
-all honours and
-all ministries
that human nature can have.
In the same way,
by participating in the sufferings of Christ, the soul participates
-the qualities,
-honours and
-to ministries
of Christ, who is the All. »
I felt impressed by what I wrote above wondering if it is true to the truth.
So as soon as I saw Jesus blessed, I said to him:
"Lord, what I have written is not correct:
how, by mere suffering, can it be so?"
He replied:
"My daughter, don't be surprised.
Indeed, no beauty equals suffering for God alone.
Two arrows escape from Me continuously.
A first part of my Heart.
It is an arrow of love that hurts all those who are on my lap, that is, those who are in my grace.
This arrow wounds, mortifies, heals, afflicts, attracts, reveals, consoles and prolongs my Passion and Redemption for those on my lap.
The other arrow comes from my throne.
I entrust it to the angels who, like my ministers, make it fly to all kinds of people, chastising them and arousing them to conversion."
As He said this, He shared His sufferings with me, telling me:
"You too participate in my Redemption."
Finding myself in my usual state, I briefly saw Jesus blessed in my interior. As if he had wanted to continue to dispel my doubts,
He said to me:
"My daughter,
I am the Very Truth.
No lie can come out of Me.
At most, these can be things that man does not understand. The soul must react to my words by putting them into practice.
In fact, each of my words is a connection to grace.
who comes out of Me and
which gives as a gift to the creature.
If she responds,
it joins this link with the others it has already acquired. If it does not,
it returns it to its Creator.
In fact
I speak only when I see
that the creature has the ability to receive my gifts.
By answering me, she acquires
not only many connections to grace,
but also many connections to divine wisdom.
In addition, she disposes me to give her even more gifts.
But, if I see that my gifts have returned, I withdraw and stand silent. »
Finding me in my usual state, my blessed Jesus came briefly and said to me:
"My daughter, every human action performed outside the Divine Will puts God out of his own creation.
Suffering itself, as holy, noble and precious as it may be in my eyes,
-if it was not born in my Will, instead of pleasing me,
-it outrages me and repugnates me."
O Will of God, how holy, adorable and kind you are! With you, we are everything, even if we have done nothing
Because You are fruitful and You give birth to all that is good for us. Without you, we are nothing, even if we do everything
Because the human will is sterile and makes everything sterile.
This morning I was unable to receive communion.
I was very distressed, though resigned. I thought that if I wasn't in the situation of being bedridden as a victim, I could definitely have received it.
I said to the Lord, "You see, the state of victim imposes on me the sacrifice of being deprived of receiving you in the sacrament. At least accept my sacrifice of deprivation as a greater act of love than if I actually received you.
Thus, to think that depriving me of you proves even more my love for you softens the bitterness of this deprivation. »
As I said this, tears flowed from my eyes.
However, O goodness of my good Jesus, as soon as I had begun to doze off, and without Him having forced me to seek Him for a long time as usual, He came and, placing His hands on my face, He stroked me, saying to me:
"My daughter, my poor daughter, courage! Your deprivation of Me excites your desire
And, through this longing, your soul breathes God.
As for God, feeling even more inflamed by this excitement of the soul, He breathes this soul.
In these reciprocal breaths between God and the soul,
the thirst for love ignites and, as love is fire, it forms purgatory for this soul.
The result for her is not only a communion a day as the Church allows, but a continual communion, just as breathing is continuous.
These are communions of the purest love in spirit only, not with the body. And since the mind is more perfect than the body, love is more intense.
This is how I reward, not the one who does not want to receive me, but the one who cannot receive me and who offers me this to satisfy me."
Finding myself in my usual state, I felt like a weight on my soul, as if the whole world was weighing on me because of my deprivation of the blessed Jesus. In my immense bitterness, I did everything to find him.
When He came, He said to me:
"My daughter, when the soul seeks me, she receives a divine ray, a divine attribute She is reborn in Me as many times as I am reborn in her."
I was amazed at these words and said to him, "Lord, what do you say?"
He added, "Oh! if you knew the flavor that all Heaven tastes when, on earth, a soul seeks God continuously, as is done in Heaven!
What is the life of the Blessed? What constitutes it?
Their continual rebirth in God and the continual rebirth of God in them.
It is the realization of: "God is always old and always new."
They never feel tired because they continually live a new life in God. »
Finding myself in my usual state, I briefly saw Jesus blessed with his Cross on his shoulders as He met His Most Holy Mother.
I said to him, "Lord, what did your Mother do at the time of this sad encounter?"
He replied:
"My daughter, she did a simple and profound act of worship. The simpler an act is, the easier it joins God.
By this simple act, she did what I myself was doing internally.
It was immensely pleasing to me, more than if she had done something bigger. True worship consists of this:
the creature dissolves in the divine sphere by uniting with God in all that He does.
Do you think that worshipping by words when the spirit is elsewhere is true worship?
In this case, the will is far from Me: I am adored by exercising one of its faculties while the others are scattered?
No, I want everything for myself, everything I have given to the creature.
Worship is the greatest act of worship that the creature can do for Me. »
This morning, I found myself out of my body examining the vault of heaven. I saw seven of the most resplendent suns, although their appearance differed from the usual sun. They had the shape of a cross planted in a heart.
I couldn't see that clearly, because the light from those suns was so great that you couldn't see inside.
However, the closer I got, the more I realized that the Queen Mother was inside. I thought, "How I would like to ask her if she wants me to try to get out of this state without waiting for the priest!"
Having approached her, that's what I asked her.
She answered me with a brief no, which somewhat mortified me The Most Holy Virgin then turned to the multitude and said, "See what she wants to do!"
Everyone replied, "No, no!"
Then, filled with kindness, she turned to me and said:
"My daughter,
be courageous on the path of suffering.
See, those seven suns that come out of my Heart
are my seven sorrows that have brought me much glory and splendor!
These suns, the fruits of my sorrows, continually sting the Most Holy Trinity which,
-feeling hurt,
continually sends me graces through seven channels.
I distribute these graces
for the glory of all Heaven,
for the relief of the souls of purgatory and
for the benefit of pilgrim souls on earth." Afterward, it disappeared and I reintegrated my body.
Finding me in my usual state, my adorable Jesus showed himself in the form of the Crucified. After sharing His sufferings with me, He said to me:
"My daughter,
through Creation, I have given my image to souls and,
through my Incarnation, I gave them my Divinity, thus deifying humanity.
As I became incarnate in humanity, my Divinity was also incarnated in the cross.
Just as the cross embodies the Divinity in the soul, it also embodies the soul in the Divinity,
-destroying in her what comes to her from nature.
There is, so to speak, the incarnation of God in the soul and of the soul in God. I was delighted to hear that the cross embodies the soul in God.
He added: "I am not talking about union, but about incarnation.
The cross penetrates so much into the soul that it becomes suffering
And where there is suffering, there is God.
For God and suffering cannot be separated.
The cross
-makes union with God more stable and
-makes separation from Him almost as difficult as separation between suffering and nature."
Having said that, He disappeared.
After a while, He returned to the aspect He had during His Passion when He was covered in opprobrium and spitting.
I said to him, "Lord, show me how I could get away from you.
these opprobriums and replace them with honors, praise and adoration."
He replied:
"My daughter, around my throne there is a void
caused by the glory that Creation owes me, but that it does not give me.
"However, he who, seeing me despised by creatures, honors me, not only for himself, but for others,
arises in this void of honors for Me.
-The one who sees me unloved and who loves me
arises in this emptiness of love for Me.
-He who sees that I fill creatures with blessings when they are not grateful to Me, and who is himself grateful to Me,
brings forth in this void of gratitude and thanks for Me.
Thus, a fragrant atmosphere is created around my throne
-which I like and
-which comes from souls who love me not only for themselves, but also for others."
This morning, finding me in my usual state, baby Jesus came. Seeing Him so small, as if He had just been born, I said to Him:
"My dear Little One, why did you come from Heaven to be born so small in this world?"
He replied:
"The reason was love.
My temporal birth was the result of an overflow of love from the Most Holy Trinity towards creatures.
Through an overflow of love from my Mother, I left the womb and, through an overflow of love, I incarnated in souls.
This overflow was the result of desire.
As soon as the soul begins to desire me, I am conceived in it. The more she progresses in her desire, the more I grow in her.
And when this desire fills its interior to the point of overflow,
I was born in the whole man - in his mind, his mouth, his works, his steps.
The devil also has his births in souls.
As soon as a soul begins to desire evil,
the devil is conceived in her with his evil works
If this desire is nourished, the devil grows and fills the soul interior with passions of the ugliest and most repugnant.
If the point of overflow is reached, man indulges in all vices.
My daughter, how many births the devil does in these sad times! If men and demons had the power,
they would destroy all my births in souls. »
After giving me great sorrow, my blessed Jesus came briefly.
He made me see many human souls within His Humanity and He said to me:
"My daughter, in Heaven all human lives are in my Humanity
as in a cloister. Their regime of life comes from Me. Being a cloister, my Humanity leads the life of every soul.
What is not my joy when souls on earth inhabit this cloister and the echo of my Humanity mixes with the echo of these human lives!
However, what is not my bitterness when disgruntled souls leave this cloister! Others remain there, but without conviction.
They do not submit to the regime of my cloister.
And, therefore, my echo does not mix with theirs."
Continuing in my usual state, baby Jesus came.
And, after placing Himself in my arms, He blessed me with His little hands and Said to me:
"My daughter, since humanity is one family,
-when someone does a good deed and offers it to God, the whole human family participates in this offering,
-which comes to me as if all offered it.
When the Three Kings gave me their gifts,
I saw all the human generations present in their persons and all participated in the merit of these offerings.
The first thing they offered me was gold.
In return, I gave them the knowledge and understanding of the truth. But do you know what gold I expect from souls?
Not material gold, no, but spiritual gold, that is,
-the gold of their will,
-the gold of their affection,
-the gold of their desires and personal tastes.
-in short, the gold of the whole interior of man.
This is all the gold of the soul that I want for Me.
Although the soul cannot easily give me such a gift without sacrificing itself.
Myrrh, like an electric wire,
-binds the interior of man,
-makes it brighter and
-gives it multiple shades of colors
which provide all kinds of beauties to the soul.
However, there needs to be a means that,
-as a perfume and a breeze coming from within the soul,
keeps colors and freshness always alive,
allows gifts to be given and to obtain gifts greater than those given, and which forces the one who receives and gives to dwell within the soul
so that she may be in continual conversation with him.
So what is this way?
It is prayer, especially inner prayer, that converts into gold
-not only interior works,
-but also external works. That is incense. »
I spent the whole last month in a lot of suffering. That's why I didn't write.
As I continue to feel very weak and suffering,
he often raises in me the fear that it is not because I cannot write, but because I do not want to write.
It is true that I feel a great deal of reluctance to write, to the point that only obedience can defeat me on this point.
To remove any doubt, I decided to write, not everything, but only a few words that I remember, in order to see if I can really write.
I remember that one day, as I felt sick,
Jesus said to me:
" My daughter, what would happen if music stopped in the world?" I asked him, "Lord, what music could stop?"
He said to me:
"My beloved, your music.
In fact, when the soul
-suffer for Me,
-that she prays, repairs, praises and gives grace continually, this is for my hearing a continual music
which prevents attention to the iniquity of the earth from being paid and thus from punishing it as appropriate.
It is also music for human minds,
who thus turn away from doing worse things.
If I took you out of this earth, wouldn't my music stop?
It wouldn't make a difference to myself, because it would only be his movement from earth to Heaven: instead of having him on earth, I would have him in Heaven. But how would the world do it?"
I thought:
"These are his usual pretexts for not bringing with Him!
There are many good souls in the world who do a lot for God. I, in the midst of them, do I, perhaps, not occupy the last place? Yet He says that if He brings me with Him, the music will stop?
There are many who make him music better than me. »
As I thought this way, He came like lightning and added:
"My daughter, what you say is true.
There are many good souls who do a lot for Me.
However, as it is difficult to find one
who gives me everything so that I can give myself totally to her!
-Some retain a little self-love, a little self-esteem,
-others a special affection, if only for a holy person,
-others retain a small vanity,
-others some attachment to the land or to their personal interests.
-In short, each soul keeps its own little thing.
Thus, what comes to me from her is not entirely divine.
His music is not capable of producing these effects for my hearing and for human minds.
Therefore, the great things that these souls do cannot
-produce the same effects and
-please me
as much as the small gestures of the soul
-who keeps nothing for herself and
-se donne tout à Moi. »
Un autre jour, alors que je continuais de me sentir souffrante, je vis
que mon confesseur priait Notre-Seigneur pour qu'il me touche là où je souffrais afin que mes souffrances se calment.
Blessed Jesus said to me:
"My daughter, your confessor wants me to touch you to alleviate your suffering. But, among all my qualities, I also have suffering.
If I touch you, your suffering may well increase rather than decrease. For the thing in which my Humanity reveled the most was suffering I delight in communicating it to those I love."
It seemed to me that Jesus touched me and that I felt more pain. So, I say:
"My sweet Good, as for me, I want nothing but your most holy Will. I don't look if I'm in pain or if I rejoice, but Your Will is everything to me."
He said to me:
"This is what I expect from you. That is enough for me and satisfies me.
It is the greatest and most honorable worship that the creature can return to me,
-what she owes me as her Creator.
When the soul does so, we can say
-that his spirit lives and thinks by my mind,
-that his eyes look by means of my eyes,
-that his mouth speaks by means of my mouth,
-that his heart loves by means of mine,
-that his hands operate through my hands,
-let his feet walk by my feet.
I can tell him, "You are my eye, my mouth, my heart, my hands and my feet."
"For its part, the soul can say:
"Jesus Christ is my eye, my mouth, my heart, my hands and feet."
By maintaining oneself in this union,
not only by his will,
but by his whole being,
the soul, when it dies, will have nothing more to purify.
For purgatory affects only those
-who live outside of Me,
-in whole or in part.'
I continued in my usual state although more suffering than before.
Blessed Jesus came, and from all parts of his humanity came out many small streams of light that communicated to all parts of my body.
And, from my body,
there were so many streams that communicated to the Humanity of Our Lord.
During this time, I found myself surrounded by a multitude of saints who, looking at me, said:
"If the Lord does not perform a miracle, she will no longer be able to live.
Because he lacks vital signs, the circulation of his blood is no longer normal. According to natural laws, she must die. »
And they prayed to Jesus blessed to perform a miracle so that I would continue to live.
Our Lord said to them:
"The communication of the streams you see means that everything it does,
-even natural things, is identified with my Humanity.
When I bring the soul to this point, of all that the soul and body do, nothing is scattered, everything dwells in Me.
However
-if the soul has not come to identify itself totally with my Humanity,
-many of his works are dispersed.
Since I have brought it to this point, why wouldn't I take it with Me? »
As I heard these things, I thought, "Everything is really going against me:
-obedience does not want me to die and
-they are praying to the Lord not to bring me with him.
What do they want from me?
I don't know. For, almost by force, they want me to dwell on this earth, far from my Supreme Good."
Everything afflicted me.
While I was thinking like this, Jesus said to me:
"My dear daughter, do not grieve.
Things in the world are unfolding sadly and going from bad to worse.
If the time comes to give free rein to my righteousness, I will no longer listen to anyone and I will take you."
In presence
-of the Most Holy Trinity,
-of the Queen Mother, the Most Holy Mary,
-of my guardian angel and of the whole heavenly court, and to obey my confessor,
I promise that if the Lord, in His infinite mercy, gives me the grace to die,
-then, when I find myself with my heavenly Bridegroom, I will pray and intercede
-for the triumph of the Church and
-for the confusion and conversion of his enemies.
I promise to pray for
-may the Catholic party triumph in our city,
-that the church of San Cataldo be reopened to worship and
-that my confessor be freed from his usual sufferings,
with a holy freedom of spirit and the holiness of a true apostle and
-that, if the Lord permits, at least once a month, I will come to confer with him on the heavenly things and those relating to the good of his soul.
I promise it and, as far as it is up to me, I swear.
This morning, finding myself in my usual state,
when I saw my blessed Jesus, I also saw people who were suffering. I prayed to Jesus to free them from their sufferings,
even at the cost of making me suffer in their place.
Jesus said to me:
"If you want to suffer, you can do it while you are a victim. But, after, when the victim comes to Heaven,
your city and even the rulers will see the ensuing emptiness.
Oh! How much they will then recognize the great good
that I had given them by giving them a victim soul! »
I forgot to mention what I will now write out of obedience,
-although these are not certain things, because the presence of Our Lord was missing.
I was out of my body and it seemed like I was inside a church.
where there were several venerable priests and, with them, souls from purgatory and holy people discussing about the church of San Cataldo.
They said for sure that we were going to get what we wanted. When I heard that, I said, "How can this be?
The other day, it was rumored that the Chapter had lost its cause. It is therefore not possible to obtain it through the court.
The municipality does not want to grant it and you say it will be obtained?"
They said, "Despite all these difficulties, the cause is not lost.
And even if they manage to raise their hands to demolish it, we cannot say that the cause is lost, because Saint Cataldo will know how to defend his temple well.
Poor Corato, if they could do that! »
They continued: "The first objects have been reported. The crowned Virgin is already transported to her home.
You, go before Our Lady and pray to her that she may complete granting us the grace she has begun to obtain from us."
I came out of this church to go and pray.
But, during that time, I found myself in my body.
I found myself very distressed and suffering because of the loss of my good Jesus.
As soon as I saw Him, He said to me:
"My daughter,
your soul must seek to imitate the flight of the eagle.
That is, it must seek to maintain itself in the heights, above all the low things of this earth.
It must hold itself so high that no enemy can reach it.
For the soul that lives in the heights can reach its enemies. But they cannot reach it.
Not only does she have to live in the heights,
but she must try to have the purity and visual acuity of the eagle.
By living in the heights, by the acuity of her sight, she will be able to penetrate divine things,
not in a passing way, but
-by meditating on them until they become their favorite food
-and by despising anything else.
She will also know how to penetrate into the needs of others,
not afraid to descend among them
to do them good and if necessary, to give them his life.
Through the purity of his gaze,
it will know how to make the love of God and the love of neighbor one love, rectifying everything for God.
This must be the soul that wants to please me."
This morning, I felt very suffering in addition to being afflicted by the absence of my Jesus. After giving me a lot of trouble, Jesus came briefly and said to me:
"My daughter,
sufferings and crosses are subpoenas that I send to the soul.
If it accepts these assignments (for example, a warning
pay off a debt or make an acquisition for eternal life)
resigning oneself to my Will,
by giving me thanks and
in worshipping my holy dispositions, we immediately agree.
She will avoid new subpoenas, with the involvement of lawyers, only to be sentenced to the judge.
If the soul responds with resignation and thanksgiving, it will make up for everything.
because the cross will serve as his summons, lawyer and judge
without her needing anything else to achieve possession of the Eternal Kingdom.
On the contrary, if the soul does not accept the assignment,
think about it yourself, into what abyss of misfortune and embarrassment she throws herself.
And how rigorous will the judge be in his conviction for rejecting the cross?
The cross as a judge is much
-more indulgent,
-more compassionate,
-more inclined to enrich the soul rather than judge it,
-more inclined to embellish it rather than condemn it. »
As Luisa was sick, I forced her to dictate.
Unable to disobey, she dictated the following to me with great repugnance:
As I was very suffering, I had complained to Our Lord because He had not taken me with Him to Heaven.
Blessed Jesus told me:
"My daughter, courage in your suffering!
Do not grieve because I have not yet taken you to Heaven.
You need to know that the whole of Europe rests on your shoulders. And whether his future, good or bad, depends on your suffering.
If you remain strong and constant in suffering, the things that will happen will be more bearable.
But if you are not strong and constant in suffering, or if I take you to Heaven, things will be so serious.
that Europe will be threatened with invasion and seizure by foreigners. »
Jesus also told me:
"If you dwell on earth and suffer much with desire and constancy, all that will happen with punishment in Europe will serve to make the Church triumph.
And if Europe does not take advantage of this, it will remain obstinate in sin.
And your suffering will serve as a preparation for your death without Europe having benefited. »
I was in my usual state.
After giving me a lot of trouble, Blessed Jesus came out of my interior. And, as I wanted to speak to Him, He put His finger on my mouth, saying to me:
"Shut up, shut up."
I was mortified by this and did not dare to open my mouth.
Seeing me so mortified, He added:
"My dearest daughter, because of the necessity of the times, we must remain silent. (It is Luisa's spiritual director, Father Gennaro de Gennari, who speaks here)
If you speak to me, your word will tie my hands and I will never be able to chastise properly. We will always have to start again.
Therefore, it is necessary that between you and Me there be a long moment of silence."
While He was saying this, He took out a sign on which was written:
"Decree: plagues, suffering and wars." Then He disappeared.
This morning, finding myself in my usual state, I found myself on the shoulders of a person who seemed dressed like a lamb.
She was moving forward slowly.
In front of her, there was a kind of car that was moving faster. In my interior, I said to myself:
"This person is moving slowly.
And I would like to go inside this car that is moving faster."
I don't know why, but, as soon as I thought about it,
I found myself inside this car with people who told me:
"What did you do? Why did you leave the Pastor?
This Pastor, since his life takes place in the fields, has all the medicinal herbs, beneficial or harmful.
By staying with Him, one can always be healthy.
If we see Him dressed as a lamb, it is so that He resembles the lambs so that they may approach Him without fear.
And, if He walks slowly, it is because it is safer. »
Hearing this, I thought:
"Since this is so, I would like to be with Him to tell Him about my illness."
At that very moment, I found him very close to me. All happy, I told him in his ear:
"Good Shepherd, if you are so expert, give me something for my evils. I am in such a great state of suffering!
As I wanted to speak more, He cut me off by saying:
«True resignation
not an imaginary resignation does not scrutinize things,
but she silently worships divine dispositions. »
While He was saying this, an opening was made in his sheep fleece and I saw the face of Our Lord with his head crowned with thorns.
Not knowing what to say, I kept silent, happy to be with Him.
He said, "You forgot to tell your confessor another thing about the cross." I said, "My adorable Lord, I don't remember. Repeat it to me and I will say it."
He said to me:
"My daughter, among the many fruits of the cross is joy.
Indeed, when you receive a gift, what do you do? We have a feast, we rejoice, we are happy.
Since the cross is the most precious and noble gift, and
since it is made by the greatest and most unique Person there is,
-it is this gift that pleases the most and brings the most joy, compared to all the other gifts that one can receive.
You yourself can mention other fruits of the cross. I replied:
"As you say, it can be said that
the cross is festive, radiant, joyful and desirable."
He replied, "Good! You spoke well!
However, the soul can only experience these effects.
-when she is perfectly resigned to my Will and
-when she gave me everything about her, without holding anything back.
And I, so as not to be surpassed in love by the creature,
I give him all of Me, including the Cross.
The soul, recognizing it as a gift from Me, celebrates and rejoices."
This morning, I felt all discouraged and embittered by the loss of my adorable Jesus. While I was in this state,
He made me hear his very sweet voice, saying, "Everything flows from faith. He who is strong in faith is strong in suffering.
Faith
-makes God find everywhere,
-Makes it see in every action.
Everything that comes before it is for the soul a new divine revelation.
Therefore. be strong in faith.
For if you are strong in faith in all states and circumstances, faith
-will administer forces to you and
-will ensure that you are always united with God."
This morning I was to receive the Holy Eucharist and the following thought came to my mind:
"What will my beloved Jesus say when He comes into my soul?
He will say: "How ugly, evil, cold and abominable this soul is!"
And He will make the species burn quickly
not to stay in touch with this ugly soul.
"But what do you want from me?
Although I am so bad, you must have the patience to come.
Because, anyway, I need you and I can't do without you." Meanwhile, Jesus came out of my interior and said to me:
"My daughter, don't grieve for this.
It doesn't take much to fix it.
All you need is a perfect act of resignation to My Will
so that you can be cleansed of all this nonsense you are talking about.
And I will tell you the opposite of what you think.
I will tell you:
"How beautiful you are!
I feel in you the fire of my love and the fragrance of my fragrances.
I want to make my perpetual home in you." Then He disappeared.
When my confessor came, I told him everything.
He replied that what I was saying was not accurate.
Because it is suffering that purifies the soul
and that resignation has nothing to do with it.
So, after receiving communion, I said to Jesus:
"Lord, the Father told me that what you told me is not accurate. Explain yourself better and let me know the truth."
With kindness, Jesus said to me:
"My daughter,
when we speak of willful sins, then we need suffering,
when we talk about imperfections, weaknesses, coldness or others,
where the soul has put nothing of itself, then an act of perfect resignation is enough.
Then, if necessary, the soul is purified.
For, in doing this act,
the soul meets my Divine Will which
purifies the human will and
embellishes it with its qualities.
Then the soul identifies with Me."
This morning, I was filled with the fear that,
- seeing me still so bad, Blessed Jesus leaves me. Then I felt him come out of my interior and He said to me:
"My daughter, why do you worry about useless thoughts and non-existent things? Know that you have three titles
-which, like three little strings, bind you completely to Me
so that I cannot leave you.
These titles are:
-assiduous suffering,
-perpetual reparations and
-persevering love.
If, as a creature, you persist in this,
Can the Creator be less than His creature
-by letting oneself be surpassed by it? This is impossible. »
I was in my usual state.
After giving myself a lot of trouble, I briefly saw my adorable Jesus.
He rn' said:
"You who wanted Me so much, what do you want? What do you care about the most?"
I replied, "Lord, I don't want anything My main concern is you alone."
Jesus continues:
"How, you don't want anything?
Ask Me something: holiness, my grace, virtues. For I can give you everything »
Again, I said:
"Nothing, nothing! I only want you, as well as everything you want."
Jesus continued:
"So, you don't want anything more? Me alone are enough for you? Your desires have no other life in you than Me alone? Then all your trust must be in Me alone.
Because, even if you don't want anything, you'll get everything. Then He disappeared like lightning.
I remained very saddened.
Especially because, even if I asked him with all my strength, he didn't come back. I said to myself, "I don't want anything, I only care about him, and it seems that He doesn't care about me at all. I don't understand how his good heart can achieve this?" And I was telling myself a lot of other nonsense like that.
Then He came back and said to me:
"Thank you, thank you! What is the biggest?
Whether the Creator thanks the creature or the creature thanks the Creator?
Know that when you wait for me and I delay my arrival, I thank you. When I come immediately, it is you who are obliged to thank Me.
So it seems like little to you
let your Creator put himself in the position of thanking you?" I was confused.
This morning I felt disturbed because of the absence of Blessed Jesus.
Jesus said to me:
"My daughter,
when a river is exposed to the sun's rays,
looking at it, we see the same sun as the one in the sky.
But it happens when the river is calm,
-without any wind coming to disturb its waters.
But, if the waters are disturbed,
-although the river is totally exposed to the sun, we do not see anything, everything is confused.
This is the case for the soul exposed to the rays of the divine Sun.
If it is calm,
-she sees the divine Sun in her,
-she feels her Warmth,
-she sees her Light and
-she understands the Truth.
But, if she is troubled,
-although she has the divine Sun in her,
she experiences nothing but confusion and turmoil.
If, therefore, you have at heart to remain united with Me, keep your peace as your greatest treasure. »
I continue in my usual state,
-but always with immense bitterness in my soul because of the deprivation of my blessed Jesus.
It comes at most when I can't take it anymore and
after I almost convinced myself that he will not come again. When I saw Him, He was carrying a chalice in His hand.
He told me:
"My daughter,
in addition to the food of love,
"Give Me also the bread of your patience.
Because patient and suffering love
-is a more substantial and strengthening food.
If he is not patient, love is light and without substance.
If you give me this, I will give you the sweet bread of my grace. »
While He was saying this,
He gave me to drink what was inside the chalice He held in His hand. It was like a sweet liquor that I can't identify. Then He disappeared.
Afterwards, I saw around my bed a lot of strangers:
priests and lay men and women who seemed to have come to visit me.
Several of these people said to my confessor:
"Give us an account of this soul,
-of all that the Lord has manifested to him,
-of all the graces He has given him,
For the Lord has told us
-that in 1882 He had chosen a victim.
-that the sign to recognize it was
that He has kept her to this day in the state of a young woman
-in which she was when He chose her,
-without it being affected by ageing. »
While these people were saying that, I don't know how,
I saw myself as I was when I lay down on my bed,
- even after all these years in this state of suffering.
Being in my usual state.
I found myself out of my body and saw a multitude of people
in a place where bomb sounds and gunshots could be heard. People were falling dead or injured.
Those who remained were fleeing to a nearby palace. But their enemies chased them and killed them all.
I said to myself, "How I wish the Lord would be there to tell them,
"Have mercy on these poor people."
I started looking for him and found him in the form of a small child But He grows little by little until he reaches the perfect age.
So I approached Him and said to Him:
"Kind Lord, don't you see the tragedy that is happening? So you don't want to use your mercy anymore?
Perhaps you consider this attribute useless.
-who has always glorified your incarnate Divinity so much and
-which formed a special crown on your august head, which was also capped with another crown
"that you wanted and loved so much, a crown of souls?"
While I was saying this,
Jesus said to me:
"Enough is enough, enough is enough! Don't go any further! Do you want to talk about mercy?
And justice, what will we do with it?
I have told you and I say it again to you: it is necessary that Justice take its course."
I replied:
"So there is no cure.
So why leave me on this earth,
since I can no longer soothe you or suffer in the place of my neighbor? If this is so, it is better that you make me die. »
Meanwhile, I saw another person behind the shoulders of blessed Jesus. Jesus said to me, nodding to me:
"Present yourself to my Father and see what He will tell you." Trembling, I introduced myself.
As soon as He saw me, He said to me, "Why did you come to Me?" I replied:
"Adorable goodness, infinite mercy, knowing that you are mercy itself, I have come to ask you for mercy,
-mercy for your own images,
-mercy for the works You have created,
-mercy for your creatures. »
Dieu le Père me répondit:
"So, this is the mercy you want.
But, if you want true mercy, it is after Justice has poured out that mercy will produce great and abundant fruits. »
Not knowing what to answer, I say:
"Infinitely holy Father,
when servants and people in need
-appear before their master or in front of rich people,
if they are good, even if they do not give everything that is necessary,
-they always give something.
And I who have made the right gesture to present myself before You,
-the absolute Master, the boundless Wealth, the infinite Goodness, are you not going to give to this poor woman that I am something of what she has asked of you?
Isn't the master more honored and content when He gives rather than when He refuses what is necessary for His servants?"
After a moment of silence, the Father said:
"Out of love for you, I will make five instead of ten."
Having said this, the Father and the Son disappeared.
So, in many places on earth, especially in Europe,
I saw the multiplication of wars, civil wars and revolutions.
I continued in my usual state.
It seemed to me that there were people around my bed who were praying to Our Lord. But I didn't pay attention to what they wanted.
I was only paying attention to the fact
-that it was late and
-that Jesus had not yet shown Himself.
Oh! How my heart was tormented and afraid that he would not come.
I thought to myself:
"Blessed Lord, we are at the last hour and you have not yet come. Please, spare me this pain, at least make yourself seen."
As I was saying this, Jesus came out of my interior. He said to those around me:
"Creatures are not allowed to struggle with my Righteousness. This is only allowed to those who have the title of victim. Not only are they allowed to fight with my Justice, but they are also allowed to play with my Justice.
And this, because,
-when we struggle or play,
-one easily suffers blows, defeats and losses,
The victim is ready to receive the blows,
to resign oneself to defeats and losses,
-without paying attention to his loss or suffering,
-but only to the glory of God and the good of neighbor.
If I want to appease myself,
I have my victim here
who is ready to fight and to receive upon her all the fury of my Righteousness."
It is clear that the people around my bed were praying to appease the Lord. I was mortified and bitter when I heard these words of Our Lord.
This morning, being out of my body, I found myself with the Child Jesus in my arms. We were surrounded by several priests and other devout people,
many of whom indulged in vanity, luxury and fashion.
It seems to me that they said to each other the old proverb: "The habit does not make the monk."
Blessed Jesus said to me:
"My beloved, oh! That I feel robbed of the glory that creatures owe me and that they refuse me with impudence, even those who call themselves devotees! »
Hearing this, I say to the Child Jesus:
"Dear Little one of my heart, let us recite three Gloria Patri with the intention of giving the Divinity all the glory that creatures owe him.
Thus, you will receive a little repair. »
Jesus said, "Yes, yes, let us recite them." And we recited them together.
Then we recited an Ave Maria with the intention
to give the Queen Mother all the glory that creatures owe her.
Oh! How good it was to pray with Blessed Jesus! I felt so good that I told him:
"My Beloved, how I would like to make my profession of faith in your hands by reciting with you the Creed!"
Jesus answered:
«You will recite the Creed alone because it is up to you to do so and not to me.
You will say it in the name of all creatures to give me more glory and honor." So I placed my hand in Jesus' hand and recited the Creed.
Then Blessed Jesus said to me:
"My daughter,
it seems to me that I feel relieved and that the dark clouds of human ingratitude, especially those of the devotees, have moved away.
Ah! My daughter,
the external actions of creatures penetrate greatly into their interior
- by placing a garment on their soul.
When the divine touch reaches the soul,
- she does not feel it strongly because dirty clothes cover her.
Then, as she does not experience the vivacity of grace,
this one is
-either rejected,
-or unsuccessful.
Oh! How difficult it is
-to seek pleasures and luxury externally and
-to despise these things internally!
On the contrary: we love inside and we rejoice in everything around us. My daughter, see for yourself the pain of my Heart
-to see in these times my graces rejected by all kinds of people.
Whereas
the life of my creatures comes totally from Me and that
all my consolation is to assist them, they repel my Help.
You come and share my sufferings and sympathize with my bitterness. »
Having said that, He disappeared.
And I remained all afflicted by the sufferings of my adorable Jesus,
Being in my usual state,
I found myself surrounded by three virgins
-who took me and wanted to crucify me by force.
But as I had not seen Jesus blessed, all fearful, I resisted them.
Seeing my resistance, they said to me:
"Dear little sister,
do not fear because of the fact that our Bridegroom is not there. Let us begin to crucify you.
Attracted by the virtue of your sufferings, the Lord will come. We come from Heaven.
As we have seen the very serious evils that must occur in Europe, we have come to make you suffer so that they can be alleviated. »
Then they pierced my hands and feet with nails,
-but with such cruelty that I thought I was going to die. While I was suffering, Blessed Jesus came.
Looking at me with a stern eye, He said to me:
"Who commanded you to immerse yourself in these sufferings? What are you using for then?
To prevent me from being free to do what I want, and to be a continual obstacle to my Righteousness?"
I said to myself inwardly, "What does He want from me? I didn't want that either. They are the ones who incited me and He is attacking me! »
But I couldn't speak because of the pain.
Seeing the severity of Our Lord,
these virgins made me suffer more by removing and replanting the nails. They approached me to Jesus, showing him my sufferings.
The more I suffered, the more it seemed that Jesus was calming down.
When they saw him more soothed and almost softened by my sufferings, they left and left me alone with Our Lord.
Then Jesus assisted me, and to encourage me, He said to me:
"My daughter,
my Life manifests itself through Words, Works and Sufferings, but it is through suffering that it manifests itself the most."
At that moment, my confessor came to call me to obedience.
Partly because of my suffering and partly because the Lord did not leave me, I was unable to obey.
So I complained to my Jesus, saying to him:
"Lord, how is it that my confessor is here at this hour? Why did he come so early?"
Jesus answered me:
"I want him to be with us for a while, and also to participate in my graces. When someone frequents a house continuously,
he participates
-to his tears and joys,
-its poverty and wealth. This is the case with the confessor.
Didn't he participate in your mortifications and privations? Now he participates in my presence. »
It seemed to me that Jesus made him participate in his divine Force by saying to him:
« The life of God in the soul is Hope
The more the soul hopes, the more divine V there is in it.
And as the Divine Life includes
-Power, Wisdom,
-Strength, Love, etc.,
thus the soul feels watered as by as many streams as there are divine virtues. Thus, the Divine Life continues to grow in it.
But, if she does not hope
-in the spiritual realm, and
-also in the corporeal realm - for the corporeal realm also participates - the divine life will diminish until it is completely extinguished.
Therefore, hope, still hope. »
Then, with difficulty, I received Holy Communion.
Then I found myself out of my body and saw three men in the shape of wild horses who were unleashed on Europe doing a lot of massacres. It seemed that they wanted to involve much of Europe in fierce wars, like inside a net.
All trembled at the sight of these incarnate demons and many perished.
I was in my usual state and I was thinking of Our Lord the moment He arrived at Calvary,
the moment he was stripped naked, and the moment he was watered with fiel.
I told him:
"My adorable Lord, I do not see
on you only clothes of blood and wounds
for your snack and your pleasure, only fiel and bitterness.
for your honor and glory, only confusion, opprobrium and the cross.
Please, after suffering so much, do
-that I look at the things of the earth
like nothing but feces and mud,
-that I find pleasure only in you alone, and
-that my honor be nothing but the cross. »
Making himself seen, Jesus said to me:
"My daughter,
if you had done otherwise, you would have lost the purity of your eye
There would have been a veil in front of your sight preventing you from seeing Me.
In fact, the eye that delights only in the things of Heaven has the virtue of seeing Me.
While the eye that revels in the things of the earth
has the virtue of seeing things from the earth.
Because she sees things differently than what they are, and she loves them that way."
Continuing in my usual state, I lived a very great bitterness because of the continual deprivation of my adorable Jesus.
Making Himself seen, He said to me:
"My daughter,
the first bomb that must be detonated in the soul is mortification. When this bomb is thrown into the soul, it overthrows everything and immolates everything to God. In the soul, it is as if there are many palaces,
-but palaces filled with vices such as pride, disobedience, etc.
Spilling everything in the soul, the bomb of mortification
built as many other palaces, but palaces of virtues,
immolating everything and sacrificing everything to the glory of God. Having said this, Jesus disappeared.
Soon after, the demon came to molest me. Without getting scared, I told him:
"Why do you want to molest me?
If you want to show me how brave you are,
take a rod and lower me until I no longer have a drop of blood,
-provided that every drop of blood I lose is proof
-of love,
-repair and
-of glory
that I will give to my God."
He said, "I don't have a rod with me to beat you. And, if I go looking for one, you won't wait for me."
I said, "Go ahead, I'll wait for you here."
So he left and I stayed with the firm intention of waiting for him.
To my surprise, I saw that he had met another demon and they thought:
"It's useless to go back; why beat it if it must cause our loss?
It is good to make the one who does not want to suffer suffer, because he could offend God. But, with the one who wants to suffer, we hurt ourselves with our own hands. »
So the devil did not return, and I was upset.
I was in my usual state.
I was meditating and offering the Passion of Our Lord, especially His
crowning with thorns.
I prayed to Jesus for
-that He gives light to blind spirits and
-let Him make Himself known.
For it is impossible to know Jesus and not to love Him. Then my adorable Jesus came out of my interior and said to me:
"My daughter,
how many ruins pride makes in souls!
It forms a wall between the creature and God. And he turns my images into demons.
If it afflicts you as long as the creatures are blind to the point
-not to understand and
-not to see the abyss in which they find themselves, and
if it is so dear to your heart that I help them,
my Passion serves as a garment for man
-to cover his great miseries,
-to beautify him and give him back all the goods he has lost through sin.
I give it to you so that
you use it for yourself and for those you want. »
Hearing this, a great fear invades me. Given the magnitude of the gift, I feared
-not knowing how to use it
and therefore, to displease the Donor.
I said to Jesus, "Lord, I do not feel the strength to accept such a gift. I am totally unworthy of such a favour.
It is better that you dispose of it Yourself, You who are everything and who know everything. Only you know who should be applied to this precious garment.
Poor me, what do I know?
If it is necessary for it to be applied to someone and I do not do it, what severe account will you not ask me?"
Jesus answered me:
"Don't be afraid.
The Giver will give you the grace not to make this gift useless.
Do you believe that I can give you a gift to harm you? No, never! »
I did not know what to answer while remaining frightened and in suspense. I offered to listen to what lady obedience would tell me.
It goes without saying that this garment is nothing but
all that Our Lord has done,
all that He has deserved and
all that He has suffered,
as a result of which the creature
-receives this garment to cover his nudity stripped of virtues,
-receives wealth to enrich oneself,
-receives beauty to make oneself beautiful, and
-receives the remedy to all its ailments.
Having reported this to lady obedience, she told me to accept.
This morning, as blessed Jesus did not come, I felt all oppressed and tired.
When He came, He said to me:
"My daughter,
do not accept to tire yourself of suffering. But act rather as if,
-with each new hour, your sufferings began.
In fact, if the soul allows itself to be dominated by the cross,
this one destroys in it three evil kingdoms which are
-the kingdom of the world,
-the realm of the devil,
-the kingdom of the flesh.
She builds three good kingdoms there that are
-the Spiritual Realm,
-the Divine Kingdom and,
-the Eternal Kingdom. Then Jesus disappeared.
Finding me in my usual state, my Jesus was briefly seen in my interior,
-first alone and,
-then, accompanied by the other two Divine Persons, all three in deep silence.
In their presence, I continued my usual inner work.
And it seemed
-that the Son united with me,
-whereas, for my part, I was only following him.
Everything was silence and, in this silence,
I was doing nothing but identifying with God.
All my interior,
-my affections, my heartbeat,
-my desires and my breaths
became profound acts of worship to the Supreme Majesty.
After spending some time in this state,
it seemed to me that the three Divine Persons spoke, but with one voice.
They said:
"Our beloved daughter, you need
-courage,
-fidelity and
-very high attention
to follow what the Divinity operates in you.
Because, everything you do, it is not you who does it.
You do nothing but give your soul as your residence to the Godhead.
It happens to you as to a poor woman who has for dwelling only a masure that the king asks her to live there, and
that the woman grants to the king by doing whatever He wants.
Then, by the fact that the king inhabits this masure, it is filled
-wealth,
-of nobility,
-of glory and
-of all goods.
But, to whom does all this belong? To the king.
And if the king leaves this masure, what is left for the poor woman? All he has left is his poverty. »
I was continuing in my usual state
As soon as my adorable Jesus came, He said to me all sad and suffering:
"Ah! My daughter
-if the man knew himself,
-how he would be careful not to defile himself with sin!
For its beauty, nobility and specificity are so great that all the beauties and all the diversity of things created are encompassed in it.
Indeed
-all other things of nature have been created for the service of man,
-and he, he had to be superior to all.
As a result, he had to possess within himself all the qualities of other things created.
As all other things were created for man
and that this one was created only for God, to delight,
-not only did man have to encompass in himself all the created,
-but he had to surpass it to the point of being the image of the Supreme Majesty.
However, carefree of all these goods,
man is only defiling himself with the ugliest dirt." Then Jesus disappeared.
I understood that it happens to us as a poor person
-who received a garment made of gold fabric enriched with precious stones.
Since she knows little about this kind of thing and does not know its value, she
-leaves this garment exposed to dust,
-dirty it easily and
-considers it a garment of little value,
so that if it is taken away from her, she suffers little or not at all. This is our blindness to ourselves.
I was in my usual state. As soon as He came, Jesus said to me:
"My beloved daughter,
the creature is so dear to me and I love him so much
that if she understood this, her heart would burst with love.
In creating it, I made it none other than a small vessel filled with divine parcels:
it has parcels of all my Being
attributes, virtues, perfections -
according to the ability I have given him.
And this, so that I can
find in it small notes corresponding to my notes and,
thus, to be able to perfectly delight and have fun with it.
When the soul deals with material things
and let them enter his little vessel filled with the divine,
-something divine comes out of her and
-something material enters into it:
What an affront to the Godhead and what an evil to the soul!
We must be very careful not to let material things into the soul, if it is necessary to deal with them.
You, my daughter, be attentive.
Otherwise, if I see in you things that are not divine, I will no longer be seen by you.
This morning, after fighting well, Blessed Jesus came and Said to me:
"My daughter,
see all that is said about virtues and perfection. However, all this leads to a single point:
the consummation of the human will in God.
Thus
-the more the creature is consumed in God,
-more we can say that it contains everything and that it is perfect.
Virtues and good works are keys qui
-open the divine treasures to the creature and
-make him acquire more friendship, intimacy and trade with God.
However, only consumption
-makes her one thing with God and
-puts at his disposal the Divine Power.
After giving me a lot of trouble, Blessed Jesus came and Said to me:
"My daughter, human perfidy has come to the point of exhausting my mercy.
However, my goodness is so great that it constitutes the daughters of mercy, so that this attribute may not be exhausted.
These are the victim souls who are in full possession of the Divine Will.
after destroying their own will.
The vessel I have given to these souls in creating them is fully active and,
-having received a piece of my mercy, they administer it for the benefit of others.
Of course, to do this, these souls must be in Righteousness. »
I said, "Lord, who can claim to be in righteousness?"
He replied:
"He who does not commit serious sins and
refrains from voluntarily committing even the smallest venial sins. »
This morning, finding myself in my usual state,
my adorable Jesus was briefly seen and He said to me:
"My daughter, the sign that my Justice
can no longer bear man and
is about to send serious punishments,
it is when man can no longer bear himself.
Indeed, rejected by man, God withdraws from him.
He makes him feel the full weight of his nature, sin and miseries.
And man, unable to bear this weight without divine help,
-looks for a way to destroy oneself.
This is the state in which the present generation finds itself.
My days are more and more painful because of the almost continual deprivation of my adorable Jesus.
I don't know how, but I feel that my soul, and even my body, is consumed because of this separation.
What a devouring torture!
My one and only comfort is God's Will
Because, if I have lost everything, including Jesus,
Only the Will of God, holy and gentle, dwells in my power. Also, feeling that my body is also being eaten,
-I rejoice at the thought that it will not take too long to melt and,
-therefore, that one day or another, the Lord will call me to Him, which will put an end to this so hard separation.
This morning, after a lot of struggle - oh! What a struggle! Jesus came briefly and said to me:
"My daughter, life is a continuous consumption. One consumes her for pleasures,
another for creatures, another for sinning,
another for his personal interests, some for their whims.
There are all kinds of consumptions.
He who consumes everything in God will be able to say with certainty:
"Lord, my life has been consumed in love for You.
Not only did I burn myself,
but I died only out of love for You."
That is why,
if you feel continually consumed because of your separation from Me, you can say
-that you continually die in Me and
-that you suffer many deaths out of love for Me.
If your whole being is consumed for Me,
-however large this consumption may be,
-as much as you acquire divine in you. »
I continued in my usual state. As soon as Jesus was blessed, He said to me:
"My daughter,
-when the soul proposes not to sin or to do some good,
-but it does not act in accordance with that decision,
it is that
its resolutions were not taken with its full will and that
the divine Light had no real contact with his soul.
In fact
-when the will is sincere and
-when the divine Light makes known to him the evil to avoid or the good to do,
the soul has no trouble putting into practice what it has proposed to itself.
On the other hand, if the divine Light does not detect stability in the soul,
It does not send him the necessary light
-to help him avoid one thing or do another.
There may well be
-moments of bad luck or abandonment in the creature and
-also moments when she would like to change her life, but, immediately, her human will changes.
In short, instead of genuine goodwill,
there is a mixture of passions activating according to the winds.
Stability reveals the progress of divine Life in the soul. For, since God is immutable,
he who possesses God shares his immutability in the good. »
I was in my usual state when my adorable Jesus came out of my interior. He was holding my head up because I was very tired of waiting so long for him.
He said to me:
"My daughter,
for the one who truly loves Me,
everything that happens to him, internally or externally, returns to the same
because he lives everything in the Divine Will.
Of everything that happens to him, nothing worries him,
since he looks at everything as coming from the Divine Will.
For him, everything is consumed in the Divine Will. Her center and purpose are only Her.
He always moves in her as if inside a circle,
-without ever finding the way out. He makes her continual nourishment."
That said, Jesus disappeared. Later, He returned and added:
"My daughter, make sure that, for you, everything is sealed in love. If you think, you have to think in love.
If you speak, if you operate, if your heart throbs, if you desire,
-you have to do all this in love.
Even for a single desire that presents itself and is not love,
restrict him to being love. Then let him go."
While He was saying that, it seems to me
that He touched my whole being with His hand, placing many seals of love in it.
This morning, finding myself in my usual state,
Blessed Jesus came briefly and said to me:
"My daughter,
when the soul is detached from everything, it finds God in all things.
She finds Him within herself, she finds Him outside of herself. She finds Him in creatures,
so that we can say
that everything is transformed into God for the soul detached from everything.
Not only does she find God,
but she contemplates Him, feels Him, and embraces Him.
As she finds Him in everything, everything gives her the opportunity
-to worship Him,
-to pray to Him,
-to give thanks to Him,
-to attach oneself more intimately to Him.
That said, your lamentations because of my absences
are not entirely reasonable.
If you feel me in your interior, it's a sign that
-I am not only outside of you,
-but also inside you, as in my own center."
At first, I forgot to say that it was the Mother Queen who brought Jesus to me. And as I prayed to Him that He would not leave me deprived of Him,
He answered me with what I just wrote.
I continued in my usual state.
As soon as I saw my adorable Jesus, I said to him:
"My Lord and my God!"
Jesus replied, "God, God, God alone!
My daughter, Faith makes God known, but Trust makes Him found. So faith without trust is sterile faith.
Although faith possesses immense riches to enrich the soul,
if trust is absent, faith always remains poor and devoid of everything. »
While He was saying this, I felt drawn to God.
and I remained absorbed in Him like a droplet of water in the immense ocean.
Looking at Him, I saw no boundaries, neither in height nor in width.
Heaven and earth, blessed souls and pilgrim souls were all immersed in God.
I also saw
-wars like the one between Russia and Japan,
-the thousands of soldiers who died or were going to die, although, through Justice, the victory will belong to Japan.
And I have seen European nations plot wars, even against other nations in Europe.
But who could say everything I have seen of God and in God? That is why I am stopping here.
This morning, Blessed Jesus was not coming
And I, finding myself out of my body,
I came and went in search of my supreme and one Good.
Since I couldn't find it, my soul felt like it was dying every moment. Which increased my torment,
it was that while I felt like I was dying, I was not dying.
If I could have died,
I would have achieved my goal of being forever in my center which is God.
Oh! Separation, how bitter and painful you are!
There is no suffering that can be compared to you. Oh! Divine deprivation,
you consume and pierce,
you are a double-edged sword that cuts on one side and burns on the other!
The suffering you give is immense, as immense as God is immense.
While I was wandering, I found myself in Purgatory.
My pains and tears seemed to increase the suffering of these poor souls deprived of their Life which is God.
Among them, there seemed to be several priests, including one who seemed to suffer more than the others.
He said to me:
"My severe suffering comes from the fact that, in my life, I have been very attached.
-the interests of my family,
-earthly things and
-a little to a few people.
This does a lot of harm to a priest,
-to the point of forming an iron breastplate covered with mud that envelops it like a garment.
Only the fire of purgatory and the fire of God's deprivation
compared to the second, the first disappears - can destroy this breastplate.
Oh! As I suffer. My sufferings are unspeakable! Pray, pray for me! »
As for me, I felt even more tormented and I returned to my body.
Later, I live as a shadow of Jesus blessed.
He said to me:
"My daughter, what are you looking for?
For you, there is no relief and help other than Me alone."
Then He disappeared like a lightning bolt.
I thought, "Ah! He tells me that He alone is everything to me, and yet He has the courage to leave me without Him! »
Continuing in my poor state,
it seems to me that my Jesus came more than once and I saw Him as a child surrounded by a shadow.
He told me:
"My daughter, don't you feel the freshness of my Shadow? Stay in her and you will feel refreshed. »
It seemed to me that we were resting together in His shadow and that, very close to Him, I felt totally invigorated.
He went on to say:
"My beloved, if you love me, I don't want you to look at
nor within you,
or outside of you, or wondering
if you are hot or cold,
if you do a lot or little,
if you suffer or rejoice.
All this must be destroyed in you.
And you only have to ask yourself to know
-if you do all you can for Me and
-if you do everything to please Me.
Other things, however lofty, sublime or valiant they may be, cannot please Me or satisfy My Love.
Oh! How many souls
-falsify true devotion and
-desecrate the holiest works with their own will, always seeking themselves.
Even in holy things, if one seeks
his own way,
its own taste,
personal satisfaction,
if one finds oneself,
one distances oneself from God and one does not find Him. »
This morning, when He came, blessed Jesus carried me out of my body. Holding my hand, He led me under the vault of heaven,
d'où on pouvait voir les bienheureux.
On entendait leurs chants. Oh ! Comme ils nageaient en Dieu ! On voyait leur vie en Dieu et la Vie de Dieu en eux,
ce qui semblait être l'essentiel de leur félicité.
Il me sembla aussi que chaque bienheureux est
-un nouveau ciel dans cette demeure bénie
-chaque ciel distinct des autres
en conformité avec la manière dont il s'était comporté avec Dieu sur la terre.
Quelqu'un a-t-il cherché à aimer Dieu davantage sur la terre?
Il l' aimera davantage dans le Ciel et
il recevra de Dieu un amour toujours nouveau et grandissant.
Tel autre a-t-il cherché à glorifier Dieu davantage sur la terre?
Dieu béni lui donnera une gloire toujours grandissante, une gloire calquée sur la gloire divine.
Et ainsi de suite pour toutes les autres façons de se comporter avec Dieu sur la terre. On peut donc dire que ce qu'on fait pour Dieu sur la terre,
-we will continue it in Heaven,
-but with greater perfection.
In other words, the good we do on earth is not temporary, but
-it will last forever and
-he will continually shine before God and around us.
Oh! As we will be happy to see
that the glory we will give to God, and
also our own glory,
will come from this minimal good realized in a very imperfect way on earth.
If everyone could see that!
Oh! As they would strive more
-to love the Lord,
-to rent it,
-to give thanks to him, etc.,
in order to be able to do it with greater intensity in Heaven.
But, who can say everything?
It seems to me that I am saying a lot of nonsense about this blessed stay. My mind keeps the idea, but my mouth can't find the words.
Having said that, I will continue. Jesus then transported me to earth.
Oh! How horrible the misfortunes of the earth are in these sad times! Yet it seems that this is nothing compared to what is to come,
both on the secular side and on the religious side.
It seems that we will tear our good and holy mother the Church and her children to shreds.
Then Jesus brought me back into my body and said:
«Tell me a little, my daughter, what I am to you? »
I replied:
"Everything, you are everything to me, nothing enters me except You alone!"
Jesus continues:
"I am everything to you. There is nothing of you that does not come out of Me, I find all my delights in you.
Thus, by what I am all to you, you can see what you are to Me. That said, Jesus disappeared.
Continuing in my usual state, Jesus came briefly presenting Himself as
King and Lord of all things.
He had a royal crown on his head and a command scepter in his hand. He told me in Latin. I write what I could understand:
"My daughter, I am the King of kings and the Lord of lords.
To Me alone return the royal tributes that creatures owe me.
By not returning them to me,
they do not recognize me as creator and Master of everything. »
While Jesus was saying this, he seemed to be holding the world in his hand. He turned it and turned it over in goal.
-that creatures submit to his authority and kingship.
I also saw how Our Lord ruled and dominated over my soul with such mastery that I felt totally immersed in Him.
He ruled my mind, affections, and desires as if by an electric current. Jesus ruled everything and ruled over everything.
The morning was spent in great bitterness because of the deprivation of my supreme and one Good. I was out of my body.
My suffering was so great that what I found in me, I wanted to destroy it because I saw it as an impediment to finding God, my whole.
Not being able to do so, I screamed, cried and ran faster than the wind. I wanted to turn everything upside down, turn everything upside down to find the life I missed.
Oh! Deprivation, how great and ever new your bitterness is!
This bitterness being always new, the soul always experiences your suffering again. It is as if a flesh separates into many shreds, which are struggling for their lives, this life that they can only find if they find God.
which is more than their life. Who could describe the state I was in?
Meanwhile, the saints, angels and souls of purgatory
Ran and made a crown around me.
They prevented me from running, sympathized with me and assisted me.
This was useless for me.
Because I couldn't find the one who alone could alleviate my suffering and give me back my life.
Crying, I shouted louder, "Tell me where I can find it.
If you want to feel sorry for me, don't delay in showing it to me. I can't take it anymore! »
After that, Jesus came out of the depths of my soul.
pretending to sleep and not care about my poor condition.
Despite The fact that He did not care about me and slept,
-only to see Him, I breathed his life as one breathes the air. I say, "Ah! He's with me! »
However, I was not free from my pain. He didn't even pay attention to me.
Afterwards, He woke up and said to me:
"My daughter,
other tribulations can serve as penances, atonements, and satisfactions.
But only deprivation is a suffering of fire
which ignites, consumes, annihilates and stops only when human life is destroyed. By consuming, it vivifies and constitutes the divine Life. »
Being in my usual state,
I found myself surrounded by angels and saints who said to me:
"It is necessary that you suffer more
because of the things that are about to happen against the Church.
If these things do not happen now, they will come with time, but with more moderation and fewer offenses to God. »
I said, "Is suffering in my power?
If the Lord gives me suffering, I will gladly suffer."
At that moment, they seized me and led me before the throne of Our Lord so that He would make me suffer.
Coming to meet us in the form of the Crucified, blessed Jesus shared with me his sufferings.
For most of the morning, I underwent renewals of the crucifixion.
Then Jesus said to me:
"My daughter, the sufferings
deflect my righteous indignation and
renew the light of grace in human minds.
Ah! My daughter
Do you believe that it is the laity who will be the first to persecute my Church? Ah! No, it will be the religious, the leaders themselves!
Currently, they claim to be sons, pastors,
but, in reality, they are venomous snakes
-who poison themselves and
-poison others.
They will begin to tear apart this good Mother Church. And, afterwards, the laity will follow. »
Then, obedience having called me, the Lord withdrew filled with bitterness.
As I continued to struggle, my adorable Jesus came briefly. Although I felt it close to me and tried to grasp it,
He escaped me and almost prevented me from going out of my body in search of him. After struggling a lot, He made Himself seen just a little and He said to me:
"My daughter,
do not seek me outside of you,
but in you, in the depths of your soul.
Because if you go outside and don't find me, you'll suffer a lot and be unable to bear it.
If you can find me more easily, why do you want to fight harder?"
I said, "That's because I think when I don't immediately find you in me, I can find you outside. It is love that drives me to do this."
Jesus continues:
"Ah! Is it love that drives you to this?
Everything, everything must be enclosed in one word: Love.
The soul that does not enclose everything in love,
it can be said that she does not understand anything about the art of loving me.
As the soul loves Me more, the gift of suffering grows in it."
Astonished and afflicted, I interrupted Jesus and said to him:
"My Life and My Supreme Good, because I suffer little or I do not suffer at all, then I love you little or I do not love you at all?
I'm scared by the mere thought that I don't love you. My soul feels a great displeasure and I feel almost offended by you!"
Jesus answered:
"I don't intend to disappoint you
Your disappointment would weigh on my Heart more than on yours. Plus, you don't just have to look at
-bodily suffering,
-but also spiritual sufferings
-as well as your desire to suffer.
If the soul really desires to suffer, for Me it is as if it is suffering. So calm down and don't be worried, and let Me continue to talk to you.
"Have you ever observed two close friends?
Oh! How each seeks to imitate the other and reproduce it in himself!
Each reproduces the voice, the manners, the steps, the works, the clothes of the other. So he can say:
"The one who loves me is another myself.
And, thus, I cannot help but love him."
This is how I do with the soul that completely encloses me in it as in a small circle of love. I feel totally reproduced in her.
And, finding myself in her, I love her with all my Heart. I can't help but stay with her. Because, if I left it, I would leave Myself. While He was saying this, He disappeared.
After being delayed, Jesus came briefly like a bolt of lightning.
I found myself internally and externally totally filled with light.
I am unable to say what my soul has experienced and understood in this light. I will only say what Blessed Jesus told me afterwards:
"My daughter,
it is not by works that man's merit comes,
-but only by obedience to the Divine Will.
So much so that,
-everything I have done and
-all that I have suffered in my life
was realized by Obedience to the Will of the Father.
My merits are immeasurable
because they were all obtained through divine obedience.
I do not look so much at the multiplicity and greatness of works, but rather at their relationship with obedience to God,
-either directly or indirectly
through obedience to the person who represents Me. »
I was in my usual state and, in the company of my guardian angel,
I visited churches on a pilgrimage to Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament.
Inside one of the churches, I said:
"Prisoner of love, you are alone and abandoned and I come to keep you company. And while I keep you company, I want
love you for those who offend you,
praise you for those who despise you,
thank you for those in whom you pour out your graces and who do not pay you the tribute of gratitude,
console yourself for those who afflict you,
make amends for any offense against you;
In a word, I want to do for You
-everything that the creatures owe you
because you always dwell in the Most Blessed Sacrament.
I want to repeat this so many times
that there are drops of water and grains of sand in the sea. »
As I was saying this, all the water of the sea became present in my mind and I said to myself:
"My sight can't grasp
-the immensity of the sea,
-nor know the depth and weight of its immense waters. The Lord knows all this."
And I stood there, all amazed.
At that moment, Blessed Jesus said to me:
"Foolish that you are, why do you marvel so much?
What is difficult and impossible for the creature
-is possible and easy, and even natural for the Creator. As for someone who,
-looking at a glance at millions and millions of coins, would say:
"They are countless, who could count them?" But whoever put them there can immediately say: "There are so many - they are worth so much - they weigh so much."
My daughter
I know how many drops of water I have placed in the seas No one can change this, not even a single drop. I count everything, I weigh everything and I evaluate everything.
And so it is for all other things.
What wonder, then, is there in that I know everything?"
Hearing this, my wonder ceased. And I rather marveled at my stupidity.
I gave myself a lot of trouble when, unexpectedly,
I found myself totally within Our Lord.
From Jesus' head came out a luminous net
which descended into mine and bound me totally within it.
Oh! How happy I was to be inside Jesus! Everywhere I looked, I saw nothing but Jesus alone. It was my greatest happiness. Jesus, just him, and nothing else! Oh! How good I felt!
He said to me:
"Courage, my daughter,
Do you not see how the thread of my Will binds you entirely within me? If another will wanted to bind you, if it was not holy, it could not.
For, since you are inside me,
if this will were not holy, it could not enter. »
While He was saying this, He was looking at me and looking at me. Then He said to me:
"I created the soul with rare beauty;
I endowed it with a light superior to any light created. And yet, man disperses
-this beauty in ugliness,
-this light in the dark. »
I found myself a little in pain. When He came, Blessed Jesus said to me:
"My beloved daughter,
-the more iron is beaten,
-the more light it acquires and,
even if it does not contain rust, the blows serve to keep it shiny and dusty. Thus, anyone who approaches it can easily look at it as if it were a mirror.
So it is for the soul.
-The more the cross beats her,
-the more light it acquires and
-the more it is dusted of all dirt,
so that anyone who approaches it can look at it as if it were a mirror.
As a mirror, it fulfills its function, that is, it allows to see
-if the faces are dirty or clean,
-if they are beautiful or ugly.
Not only that, but I delight myself by coming to put myself in it.
Finding in the soul neither dust nor anything else that prevents me from seeing my image in it, I love it more and more."
This morning I felt all oppressed and melancholy filled my soul. It seems to me that Blessed Jesus had not made me struggle much.
Seeing me oppressed in this way, he said to me:
"My daughter, why this melancholy?
Don't you know that melancholy is to the soul what winter is to the plant?
Winter strips the plant of its foliage and prevents it from producing flowers and fruits. And if the joy and heat of spring did not come, the poor plant would remain sterile and eventually dry.
"So it is for the melancholy of the soul.
Melancholy strips the soul of divine freshness which, like rain, makes all virtues green again.
Melancholy renders the soul incapable of doing good and,
if it does, it does so more out of necessity than out of virtue.
Melancholy prevents the soul from growing in grace, and if the soul is not shaken by holy joy,
which is like spring rain
which quickly revives the plant in its development, it eventually dries. »
While he was saying that, I saw at lightning speed
-the whole Church,
-the wars that the religious have to face, and
-wars in society.
There seemed to be a general uproar.
It seemed that the Holy Father had very few religious people to bring good order to the Church, to priests and others, as well as to society.
As I saw this, Blessed Jesus said to me:
"Do you think that the triumph of the Church is far away?" I replied, "Surely!
Who could put order in the midst of so much upheaval?" Jesus repeated, "On the contrary, I tell you that it is near.
It will take a conflict, a very strong conflict. To shorten things,
I will allow everything at the same time concerning the religious and the laity.
In the midst of this conflict, this very great chaos, there will be a good and orderly conflict,
but so mortifying that men will find themselves there as if lost.
I will give them so much grace and light
-that they will recognize what is bad and
-that they will embrace the truth.
I will also make you suffer for this purpose.
If, with all this, they do not listen to me, then I will take you to Heaven and things will happen even more seriously and extend a little longer.
Then will come the much-desired triumph."
I lived a very bitter morning, almost totally deprived of my blessed Jesus.
I found myself out of my body, alone, in the midst of wars, people killed and cities besieged.
It even seemed to me that it was happening in Italy. What a fright I was experiencing!
I would have liked to escape these scary scenes, but I couldn't. A higher power held me nailed there.
Whether it is an angel or a saint, I cannot say for sure, but he said:
"Poor Italy, how war-torn it will be!"
Hearing this, I was even more frightened and reintegrated my body.
Having not yet seen the one who is my life and with all these scenes in my mind, I felt like I was dying. So, I barely saw His arm and He said to me:
"This is something that will surely happen in Italy."
Being in my usual state, I felt all oppressed. Moreover, feeling consumed body and soul, I feared that my poor state would be the work of the devil.
As soon as he came, Jesus said to me:
"My daughter, why be so upset?
Don't you know that even if all the evil forces unite, they cannot
-enter inside a heart and
-dominate it
unless the soul itself, of its own volition, opens the entrance to them?
God alone possesses this power
-to enter into hearts and
-to dominate them as he pleases. »
I said to him, "Lord, why do I feel my body and soul burn when you deprive me of you? Isn't this the evil breath that enters my soul and torments me?"
Jesus answered, "I even tell you that it is the breath of the Holy Spirit who,
-by blowing on you continuously,
-always keeps you inflamed and consumes you with her love. »
After that, I found myself out of my body. I saw the Holy Father, assisted by Our Lord,
writing a new way of behaving for priests,
-what they will have to do and
-what they should not do,
-where they should not go,
indicating the punishment to be suffered by those who do not obey.
I was thinking about what I had read in a book, namely that the motive for so many frustrated vocations is to have no sorrow after sinning. Since I don't think about that and I think only of the blessed Jesus and how to bring him in, not worrying about anything else, I was reflecting on the bad state I was in.
Finding me in my usual state, Blessed Jesus said to me: "My daughter, the attention paid not to sin is a substitute for the pain that one may feel after sinning. If someone feels sorrow when he has sinned and still commits sins, his pain is vain and fruitless. While the continual attention not to sin, not only replaces the pain in question, but causes grace so that the soul does not sin and is kept always purified. Therefore, continue to remain careful not to offend me in the slightest; it will make up for everything else."
I continued in my usual state and my adorable Jesus did not come. After going to great lengths, I felt totally discouraged. I was very worried that this morning Jesus would not come at all.
Finally, he came briefly and rn' said, "My daughter, don't you know that discouragement kills the soul more than any other defect. So, courage, courage! If discouragement kills, courage revives and is the most commendable attitude the soul can have."
Continuing in my usual state, I felt disturbed by the absence of my adorable Jesus. After giving me a lot of trouble, Jesus came and rn' said:
"My daughter,
-as soon as the soul comes out of the depths of peace,
-it leaves the divine sphere and
-it is found in the sphere either diabolical or human.
"Peace makes it possible to know
if the soul seeks God for God or for itself,
whether she acts for God, for herself, or for creatures.
If it is for God, the soul is never disturbed. We can say
-that the peace of God and the peace of the soul go together and
-that the boundaries of peace surround the soul, so that
everything is transformed into peace, even the wars themselves.
On the contrary, if the soul is disturbed,
-even about the holiest things,
-this shows that
it is not God that the soul seeks,
but his personal interests or some human purpose.
Therefore, if you don't feel calm,
-look for the true reason in your interior,
-correct what is wrong, and you will find peace. »
I was in my usual state.
After giving myself a lot of trouble, I saw Jesus pressed against me and holding my heart in his hands. Staring at me, he said:
"My daughter,
when a soul has given me his will,
-she is no longer free to do what she pleases,
-otherwise it would not be a real gift.
If true, this gift requires
-that one keeps one's will continually sacrificed to the one to whom it has been given.
This is a continual martyrdom that 1 soul offers to God.
"How about a martyr who
today offers itself to suffer anything and,
tomorrow, withdraw? You would say
-that he does not have a real disposition to martyrdom and
-that one day or another, he will deny his faith.
Also, I say to the soul
-who does not let me do what I want with his will,
-who gives me his will at one time and withdraws it at another:
"Girl, you are not willing to be martyred for me. Because true martyrdom requires continuity.
You can say you are resigned, but not martyred.
One day or another you might end up withdrawing from me by considering everything child's play.
So, be careful!
Give me full freedom to act with you in the way I like the most." »
Finding myself in my usual state, I heard a voice saying:
"There is a lamp such as
-anyone who approaches it can light as many small flames as he wants, which serve:
to form a crown of honor around the lamp and
to illuminate the one who lit these little flames. »
I thought to myself:
"How beautiful this lamp is
-which contains so much light
that it can give others as much light as they want
-without diminishing its own light! Who is its owner?"
Then I heard someone say:
"The lamp is grace and it is God who possesses it.
Approaching it demonstrates his willingness to do good. For all the good that one wants to derive from grace, one can obtain. Small flames are the virtues that,
while giving glory to God, enlighten the soul. »
Then I started thinking about the fact that
Our Lord was crowned with thorns, not once, but three times.
And as broken thorns remained inside his head and the crown was pushed in again, these broken spines penetrated even deeper.
I said to Jesus:
"My sweet Love, why did you want to suffer this painful martyrdom three times rather than one? Wouldn't one time have been enough to pay for our bad thoughts? »
Showing himself, Jesus said to me:
"My daughter,
-not only the crowning of thorns was triple,
but almost all the sufferings I have suffered during My Passion have been threefold:
-triples were the three hours of Agony in the Garden;
-triples were the floggings (I was flogged with three types of whips)
-three times they havefrightened me;
-three times I have been sentenced to death (at night, in the morning and in broad daylight);
-triples were my falls under the weight of the cross;
-triples were the nails;
-my Heart poured blood three times
"by himself in the Garden,
"Then in the act of crucifixion when I was stretched on the Cross -- so much so that my whole body was dislocated from it, and
that my Heart broke inside and shed blood,
"After my death when my side was opened by a spear."
-triples were the three hours of Agony on the cross.
How many triples there have been!
And all this was not the result of chance.
Everything was accomplished by divine ordinance
-to make complete the glory due to my Father,
-to carry out the repair that the creatures owed him, and
-to obtain benefits for creatures.
For the greatest gift the creature received from God was
to be created in his image and likeness, and
to be endowed with three powers: intelligence, memory and willpower.
And there is no sin that the creature commits.
without these three powers competing.
Therefore, the beautiful divine image that the creature possesses is defiled and disfigured.
-by his offenses to the Donor by using this triple donation.
And me
-to remake this divine image in the creature and
-to give God all the glory she owes him,
I put to use my intelligence, my memory and my will, as well as these triple sufferings,
to make complete the glory that one owes to the Father and
for the good of the creatures. »
Continuing in my usual state,
I
saw my blessed Jesus about to chastise the world.
Having prayed to Him to calm down, He said to me:
"My daughter, human ingratitude is horrifying.
The sacraments, grace and helpers which I have bestowed upon man, as well as his natural gifts,
are all lights
-to help him walk in the way of good and
-to find happiness.
But, by converting all this into darkness, man runs to his doom.
As he runs to his loss, he says he is looking for his own good. This is the situation of man.
Can there be greater blindness and ingratitude?
Girl, the only relief and the only pleasure
-that creatures can give me in these times are: to sacrifice themselves voluntarily for Me.
My sacrifice for them was perfectly voluntary.
Where I find a will that wants to sacrifice itself for Me,
I feel like I'm rewarded for what I've done for the creatures.
So if you want to relieve me and give me pleasure, sacrifice yourself voluntarily for Me."
Since my very sweet Jesus was not coming, I had a very bad morning. I was doing nothing but striving to give up on myself.
I thought to myself:
"What am I doing here?
What does it feel like to continually give up on myself?" While I was thinking like this, Jesus came like a lightning bolt and Said to me:
« The renunciation of oneself is better than the acquisition of a kingdom. »
I continued in my usual state. As soon as Jesus was blessed, He said to me:
"My daughter,
it is necessary to work in union with the humanity of Christ and with his Will,
as if the will of man and that of Christ were one,
and this only to please God.
In doing so, the soul is in continual contact with God, since the Humanity of Christ was a kind of veil covering his Divinity.
When we work through this veil, we are automatically with God.
"The one
-who does not want to work by means of the most holy Humanity of Our Lord and
-who wants to find Christ
is like someone who wants to find the fruit without finding his envelope. This is impossible. »
This morning, I found myself out of my body on a street
where there were a lot of small dogs biting each other.
At the end of the street, there was a religious who
-watched them bite,
-heard them and
-was troubled, seeing all this with his natural sight.
They spoke without scrutinizing things well and without the supernatural light that allows them to know the truth.
Meanwhile, I heard a voice saying:
«They are priests who tear each other apart. »
The religious seemed to be a visitor who,
-seeing the priests bite each other, lacked divine help.
Continuing in my usual state, and after giving me a lot of trouble, Jesus came. As soon as I saw it, I said:
"The Word became flesh and dwelt among us."
Blessed Jesus replied:
«The Word took flesh
"But He did not remain flesh.
-He remained what He was.
And as the word verb means word and
-that there is nothing that influences more than the word, so the Word was
demonstration
communication and
union between the divine and the human.
If the Word had not become flesh,
there would have been no intermediate way that could unite God and man." That said, Jesus disappeared.
I was in my usual state I lived very agitated moments,
not only because of the almost total absence of my one and only Good, but also because, being out of my body, I saw
that people were going to kill each other like dogs and
that Italy was going to be involved in a war with other nations.
I saw many soldiers leaving and, as many were going to be victims, many more were going to be called.
Who can say how overwhelmed I was.
Especially since I felt almost without suffering.
So, I began to lament internally, saying:
"What's the point of living? Jesus does not come and I miss suffering. My dearest and most inseparable companions,
Jesus and suffering have left me.
However, I continue to live, I who believed that without one or the other I would no longer be able to live, so they were inseparable from me.
Oh! God, what a change, what a painful state, what unspeakable torment, what unheard-of cruelty!
If You have left other souls deprived of You, You have never done this without suffering.
To no have You made such a vile affront.
It was only for me that this slap was so terrible, only I who deserved this unbearable punishment.
It is a just punishment for my sins. I deserved even worse." At that moment, Jesus came like a lightning bolt and Said to me with majesty:
"What's going on? Why do you say that? Isn't My Will enough for you for everything?
It would be a punishment
if I put you out of the divine sphere by depriving you of the nourishment of My Will,
which I want you to cherish more than anything.
It is necessary that you be without suffering for some time,
in order to leave some room for my Justice to chastise the world."
After giving me a lot of trouble, Blessed Jesus came and Said to me:
"My daughter,
when the soul is prepared to do a good deed,
if only to say a Hail Mary,
grace contributes to the accomplishment of this good deed.
However
-if the soul does not persevere in the pursuit of the good, it clearly shows
that it has no consideration for the gifts received, and
that she mocks grace.
How many ailments are caused by such behavior
-today yes, tomorrow no,
-if I like it, I do it,
-it takes a sacrifice to do this good and I don't feel like doing it.
It's like a person who,
-having received a gift from a friend today, returns it tomorrow.
In his goodness, the friend sends him away again,
but, after keeping the gift for some time, tired,
the person returns it again.
What will the friend say?
He will surely say: "It is clear that this person does not appreciate my gift. Whether she becomes poor or dies, I don't want to deal with her anymore."
Everything is linked to Perseverance.
The chain of my graces is linked to the perseverance of the soul in its pursuit of good. If the soul dodges, it breaks this chain.
Who can then assure him that there will be a resumption?
My purposes are fulfilled only in those
-whose actions are marked by Perseverance.
Perfection, holiness, everything is linked to Perseverance.
If the soul acts intermittently, if it lacks perseverance, this
-renders god's purposes vain and
-compromises his perfection and holiness. »
While I continue in my usual state, my bitterness is always increasing
because of the near deprivation and silence of my most holy and one Good.
Everything is shadows and evanescent lights. I feel crushed and stunned. I don't understand anything anymore.
Because the one that contains the light has moved away from me.
It is like a lightning bolt
-which briefly illuminates and
-which subsequently brings a greater darkness.
The one and only legacy left to me is the Divine Will.
After fighting well, I felt that I could not continue. Jesus came briefly and said to me:
"My daughter,
since I was man and God, my Humanity saw
-all sins,
-all punishments and
-all lost souls.
I would have liked
-bring everything together in one point,
-destroy sins and punishments, and
-save souls.
I would have liked to suffer the Passion
-not a single day,
-but every day, for
to be able to contain in Me all these sufferings and
spare the poor creatures.
I wish I had done that and I could have done it.
However, then I would have destroyed in my creatures free will.
And what would have happened to them without
their own merits and
their own will
for the fulfillment of the good?
What would my children have looked like?
Would they still have been worthy of my creative wisdom? Certainly not. !
They would have been like strangers who,
-not having worked with the other children,
-would have no rights,
-would not be entitled to any inheritance. I
They would have eaten and drunk with shame.
Because they would not have done any valid act
-to testify to their love for the father.
They could never have been worthy of the father's love.
In short, without free will,
creatures would never have been worthy of divine Love.
On the other hand, I could not contravene my Creative Wisdom.
I had to worship it as I did and
I had to resign myself to my Humanity absorbing the voids of Justice, which could not, however, be the case for my Divinity.
The voids of divine justice are filled by
the punishments of this life,
purgatory and
Hell.
If then my Humanity has resigned itself to all this,
would you perhaps like to surpass me and
not to receive voids of suffering in you, thus preventing Me from chastising people?
My daughter, conform to Me and remain quiet."
Having received the Eucharist, I was thinking of the goodness of Our Lord who gives himself as food to the poor creature that I am.
I wondered how I could respond to such a great favor.
Blessed Jesus said to me:
"My daughter,
just as I make myself the food of the creature, it can be my food
-by transforming its entire interior into food.
That is, by ensuring that
his thoughts, affections, desires,
his inclinations, his heartbeat,
his sighs, his love, etc. reach out to me.
Thus, while I communicate to the soul the fruit of my food, which is
-to divinize the soul and
-to transform it into Me -,
I can feed on the soul, that is,
-his thoughts,
-his love and
-everything else.
And the soul can say to Me:
"As you managed to make You my food and give me everything, I too made myself your food.
I have nothing else left to give To You because all that I am belongs to You." »
At that moment, I understood the immense ingratitude of the creatures who,
-while Jesus manifests the excess of love to make himself their food,
-they refuse him his food and leave Him on an empty stomach.
I was in my usual state, and as soon as He introduced Himself, my adorable Jesus said to me:
"My daughter,
when I came to earth, my Humanity was my Heaven on earth. Just as, in the vault of the sky, one can see
the multitude of stars, the sun, the moon,
the planets and the immensity, all arranged in good order,
likewise my Humanity, which was my Heaven on earth,
-made shine the order of the Divinity who dwelt there, that is to say
-the Virtues,
-the Power,
-Grace,
-Wisdom and the rest.
When, after the Resurrection,
-my Humanity ascended to Paradise, my Heaven on earth was to subsist.
This Heaven is formed of souls who give a dwelling place to my Divinity. In these souls,
-I find my Heaven on earth and
-I make shine on the outside the order of the virtues that are inside.
What an honor for the creature to offer a Heaven to its Creator! But, oh! How many deny me that!
Wouldn't you like to be my Heaven on earth? Tell me yes!"
I replied:
"Lord, I want nothing but
-to be seen in your blood, in your wounds,
-in your Humanity, in your virtues.
Only there do I want to be seen, in order to be your Heaven on earth. I want to be unknown everywhere else."
He seemed to approve my proposal and disappeared.
I was totally distressed and oppressed.
Seeing my good Jesus dripping with blood, I said to him:
"Blessed Lord, will you give me at least a drop of your blood to remedy all my ailments?
He replied:
"My daughter, that there may be a gift,
-it takes the will of the one who gives and
-the will of the one who receives.
Otherwise, if one of the two wills is lacking, the gift cannot be made. We need the union of the two wills.
Oh! How many times my grace is stifled and my blood rejected and trampled on! »
As He said this, I saw many people swarming in jesus' blood. Many came out of it,
-not wanting to remain in this blood where
-there are all the goods and all the remedies for our ills.
This morning I offered all the acts of the Humanity of Our Lord
-in reparation for all our human acts
made in indifference, without a supernatural purpose, or in sin,
-in order to obtain that all creatures act in union with Jesus blessed and
-so that his void of glory may be filled,
that glory that creatures should have given back to God. While I was doing this, my adorable Jesus said to me:
"My daughter,
my Divinity incarnate in my Humanity
-descended into the abyss of all human humiliations, so as to
-that there is no human act, however modest it may be,
-that I have not sanctified and deified.
And this, to restore to man a double sovereignty,
-that which he lost in Creation, and
-that which I acquired from him through redemption.
But the ungrateful man and enemy of himself
likes to be a slave rather than a sovereign.
While he could easily,
-by uniting its actions with mine,
-make his meritorious actions of divine merit,
he wastes them by losing his status as sovereign. That said, Jesus disappeared and I reintegrated my body.
Continuing in my usual state,
I found myself out of my body and thrown on the ground in front of the sun whose rays
penetrated me inside and out and
left me as if in a state of enchantment.
After a long time, tired of this position, I dragged myself on the ground because I did not have the strength to get up and walk.
After I had become very tired, a virgin came who, taking me by the hand, led me to a room where baby Jesus was sleeping peacefully on a bed.
Happy to have found him, I placed myself very close to him, but without waking him. After some time, He woke up and began to walk on the bed.
So, fearing that he would disappear, I told him:
"Dear Treasure, you know that you are my Life. Please, don't leave me."
He said, "Let's establish how many times I have to come." I say, "My one Good, what do you say?
Life is always necessary
Therefore, you must always be there, always. »
At that moment, two priests came and the Child withdrew into the arms of one of them, giving me the order to speak with the other.
The latter asked me to give him an account of my writings
by revising them one by one. Fearful, I said to him, "Who knows how many mistakes there are!"
So, with affable seriousness, he said to me, "What? Mistakes against Christian law? I said, "No, grammar mistakes. He said, "It's not important."
As I regained confidence, I added, "I fear that everything is an illusion." Looking me in the face, he said:
"Do you think I need to review your writings to know if you are deluded or not?
By asking you two questions, I will know if it is God or if it is the devil who operates in you.
First,
-do you believe that you have deserved all the graces you have received,
-or do you believe that they were a gift from God?" I replied, "Everything is by the grace of God."
He continued: "Secondly, for all the graces that the Lord has given you,
Do you believe that you preceded grace or do you believe that grace preceded you?"
I replied, "Certainly grace has always preceded me."
He continued, "These answers show me that you are not under delusion." At this moment, I reintegrated my body.
I was very restless and in fear that Blessed Jesus would no longer want me in this state. I felt an inner strength pushing me to get out of it.
This force was so great that I could not contain it and kept repeating:
"I feel tired, I can't take it anymore."
Inside me, I heard a voice saying:
"I, too, feel tired, I can't take it anymore.
For a few days, it is necessary that you are totally suspended
of your victim status to allow them to make the decision to go to war. Then I will make you fall back into this state.
When they are at war, we will see what to do with you."
I didn't know what to do. Obedience did not want to. And, fight with it,
it's like crossing a mountain
filling the earth and
reaching the sky and where there is no way to walk, in short, an impassable mountain.
I don't know if I'm saying nonsense.
But I believe it is easier to struggle with God than with this terrible virtue of obedience.
Restless as I was, I found myself out of my body in front of a crucifix.
I said, "Lord, I can't take it anymore. My nature lets me down and I no longer have the strength to continue in my state of victim. If you want me to continue, give me strength.
Otherwise, I withdraw."
As I was saying this, a fountain of blood began to spring from the crucifix.
The blood was moving towards Heaven, and as it fell back to earth, it turned into fire. Several virgins said:
'For the France, Italy, Austria and England-
-they named other nations, but I did not understand their names well -,
-many very serious wars are being prepared, civil and governmental. »
Hearing this, I was frightened and returned to my body. I didn't know what to decide:
follow the inner strength that pushed me to leave this state or
the force of obedience that drove me to dwell there.
Both were powerful on my being so poor and so weak. Thus far
it seems that obedience prevails,
but with difficulty, and I don't know how it will end.
I kept fighting. I saw myself naked and stripped of everything.
There is perhaps no soul more miserable than mine as my misery is so extreme. What a change!
If the Lord does not perform a miracle of His Almightiness to get me out of this state, I will certainly die of misery.
Blessed Jesus came briefly and Said to me:
"My daughter, courage!
Totally losing one's personal tastes is the beginning of eternal bliss.
As the soul loses its personal tastes, divine tastes come into it.
When the soul
-has completely lost itself,
-no longer recognizes itself,
-no longer finds anything of itself, not even in spiritual things,
then God fills it with Himself and fills it with all divine joys. Then, and only then, can the soul be said to be blessed.
Indeed
-as long as she had something of herself in her possession,
-she could not be free of bitterness and fear, and God could not communicate his happiness to her.
Every soul who has arrived at the port of eternal beatitude
must necessarily have experienced this detachment - painful, yes, but necessary. Generally, it is realized at the moment of death.
Purgatory puts the finishing touches on it.
That is why, if we ask the creatures on earth
-what is the taste of God,
-what is divine beatitude,
they are unable to say a single word about it.
However
-for my beloved souls
-who have given themselves totally to Me, I do not want their beatitude
-begins only up there in Heaven,
-but let it begin here on earth.
Not only Do I want to fill them
of the happiness and glory of Heaven,
but also of the sufferings and virtues that my Humanity has experienced on earth.
That is why I strip them
-not only material tastes that the soul considers as manure,
-but also spiritual tastes,
in order to
-fill them totally with my Goods and
-to give them the beginning of true beatitude."
Finding myself in my usual state, I saw the Child Jesus with
a light in the hand and
rays coming out of his fingers. This view enchanted me.
Jesus said to me:
"My daughter, perfection is light.
The one who says he wants to achieve perfection looks like someone who would like to contain a luminous body in his hand.
As soon as he tries to do so, the light flows through his fingers, although his hand is impregnated with this light.
God is light and he alone is perfect.
The soul that wants to be perfect does nothing but grasp the glimmers of God. Sometimes the soul lives only in the Light and truth.
The more emptiness the Light encounters in the soul, the deeper it enters it.
Consequently
-the more space it occupies and
-the more she communicates to him her graces and perfections. »
I was in my usual state and I thought of the most humiliating moments that Our Lord suffered.
I felt a lot of horror.
I said to myself inwardly, "Lord,
forgive those who renew these painful moments with their weaknesses. At that moment, Blessed Jesus came and said to me:
"My daughter, what is called human weakness results most of the time
-a lack of vigilance and attention on the part of those in authority, i.e. parents and superiors.
When the creature is well monitored and
-that she is not given the freedom she wants,
weakness disappears on its own due to lack of food.
If, on the contrary, one gives in to weakness, it nourishes it and causes it to increase. »
He added:
"Ah! My daughter
virtue, light,
beauty, grace and love
permeate the soul as water permeates a dry sponge.
Likewise
sin, maintained weaknesses,
darkness, ugliness and even hatred of God permeate the soul like a sponge is soaked in mud."
I had exposed some doubts to my confessor
And my mind was not soothed by what he had told me. When He came, Blessed Jesus said to me:
"My daughter,
-he who reasons about obedience dishonors it, and
-the one who dishonors obedience dishonors God. »
As I felt more suffering than usual, my adorable Jesus came briefly and Said to me:
"My daughter, the cross is a seed of virtues. Just like the one who sows
-harvests ten, twenty, thirty and even one hundred for one, so the cross multiplies the virtues and perfections
-by beautifying them wonderfully.
The more crosses pile up around you, the more virtues are sown in your soul.
So instead of grieving yourself when a new cross comes to you, you should rejoice.
-thinking that you are acquiring another seed to enrich and complete your crown. »
I continue in my poor state of deprivation and indescribable bitterness. At most, Jesus is seen in silence.
This morning He said to me:
"My daughter, the characteristics of my children are
love of the cross,
the love of the glory of God and
love of the glory of the Church -
to the point of giving their lives.
He who does not possess these three characteristics tells himself in vain that he is my child. Whoever dares to say it is
-a liar and a traitor
-betraying God and betraying himself.
Take a look inside yourself, to see if you have these characteristics. Then He disappeared.
Being in my usual state, I felt unhappy with myself.
When blessed Jesus came, I felt overwhelmed by such contentment that I said:
"Ah! Lord, you alone are my true contentment! »
Jesus said to me:
"The first contentment of the soul is God alone.
The second is when the soul, internally and externally, looks only at God. The third is when,
maintaining itself in the divine atmosphere, the soul leaves no
-no object created,
-no creatures or
-no wealth
alter the divine image in his mind.
In fact, the mind feeds on what it thinks.
Looking only at God alone,
- the only things from here on earth that he looks at are those that God wants.
He does not care about anything else, and so he always stays with God.
"The fourth contentment is suffering for God.
Whether for a conversation between the soul and God,
-to hug each other or
-to witness to love,
God calls the soul and the soul responds,
God gives the soul to suffer and the soul willingly accepts to suffer.
She even desires to suffer more out of love for God and to be able to say to Him, "See how I love you."
This is the greatest of contentments."
This morning, as soon as Jesus blessed came, He said to me:
"My daughter, humility is a flower without thorns.
Being without thorns, one can
-take it in his hand,
-hugging him or
-put it where you want
without fear of being inconvenienced or stinging.
You can do whatever you want with it.
It strengthens and brightens the view and is maintained without thorns. »
Continuing in my usual state, I found myself out of my body with a key in my hand. I was walking on a long road and sometimes I was distracted.
As soon as I thought about the key, I found it in my hand.
I could see that this key was that of a palace in which the Child Jesus was sleeping. I could see all this from a distance and hurry up feverishly so that I could get to the palace before He woke up and started crying without me being by His side.
When I arrived, ready to climb, I found myself in my body. I remained worried.
Later, when Jesus was blessed, He said to me:
My daughter
the key you always find in your hand,
it is the key to My Will that I have given you.
Whoever holds an object in his hand can do with it what he wants."
Being a little more suffering than usual, Jesus came briefly and
He told me:
"My daughter, the cross is
-the support of the weak,
-the strength of the forts,
-the seed and the guardian of virginity! Then He disappeared.
I continued in my usual state. As soon as Jesus was blessed, He said to me:
"My daughter,
-love that does not have its principle in God cannot say true love to itself.
Virtues that do not have their principle in God are false virtues.
In fact, not everything that does not have its principle in God can be called love or virtue. These are apparent lights that eventually turn into darkness.
He added:
"A confessor who sacrifices himself a lot for a soul
does something seemingly holy and even heroic.
However, if he does this because he has obtained or hopes to obtain something, the principle of his sacrifice is not in God, but in himself and for himself.
Therefore, this cannot be called virtue. »
I was in my usual state and Blessed Jesus came for a while. I said to him, "Lord, is my state for your glory?"
He replied:
"My daughter,
My glory and satisfaction want your whole being to be in Me. »
He added:
"Everything is
-in the distrust and fear of the soul in relation to itself and
-in his trust in God." Then He disappeared.
I was in my usual state when Jesus came.
I had said before to a troubled soul:
"Seek not to remain in this state of disorder,
-not only for your own good, but
-especially out of love for Our Lord.
For the troubled soul is not only troubled in relation to itself, but it also causes trouble to Jesus Christ. »
Afterwards, I said to myself:
"What foolishness I said! Jesus can never be troubled."
Then He came and Said to me:
"My daughter, what you said was not foolishness, but truth.
Indeed, I form in every soul a divine life.
If the soul is troubled, this divine Life that I am forming is also troubled. Moreover, it prevents this divine Life from being realized perfectly. »
Then He disappeared like lightning.
Then I continued my inner acts of devotion to the Passion.
Having arrived to meet Jesus and Mary on the Way of the Cross, Jesus made himself seen again and said to me:
"My daughter,
I meet the soul continuously.
If, in this encounter, I find her on the train
-to practice virtue and
-to unite with Me,
it consoles me for the pain I have suffered
when I met my Mother so saddened because of Me. »
Being very distressed by the deprivation of my adorable Jesus, I thought to myself, "How cruel Jesus is to me! I cannot understand how His good Heart can come to do this. If perseverance pleases him so much, my perseverance does not seem to move his good heart. »
While I was telling myself this, as well as other nonsense of the same kind, Jesus came out of the blue and said to me:
"Certainly the thing I like most about my soul is perseverance. For perseverance is the seal
-eternal life and
-the development of divine life in the soul.
Just as God is always old, always new and immutable, so the persevering soul is
-still old since it has been practiced for a long time,
-always new since it is still being exercised and, without realizing it,
-it is immutable since it is constantly renewed in God.
Since, by his perseverance,
the soul makes the continual acquisition of divine life in it,
it finds in God the seal of eternal life.
Can there be a more secure seal than the one granted by God himself?"
I was in my usual state when Jesus was briefly seen with a nail planted in the Heart. As he approached my heart, he touched it with this nail and I felt mortal suffering from it.
He said to me:
"My daughter,
-it is the world that plants this nail deep in my Heart
by giving me a continual death.
Thus, by justice,
-as they give me a continual death,
-I will allow them to kill each other by killing each other like dogs."
As he said this, he made me hear screams of rebels, so much so that I was deafened for four or five days.
As I was very suffering, Jesus came back after some time and said to me:
"Today is Palm Sunday.
during which I was acclaimed as King.
All must aspire to a kingdom. To acquire the Eternal Kingdom,
-it is necessary for the creature to acquire dominion over itself
-by dominating his passions.
The only way to achieve this goal is through suffering. Because to suffer is to reign.
Suffering with patience,
-the creature puts itself back in order in
-becoming queen of herself and of the eternal Kingdom. »
I was in my usual state.
Blessed Jesus came. He was about to chastise the world and told me:
"My daughter, creatures tear my flesh and trample my blood continuously. I will allow their flesh to be torn apart and their blood to be scattered.
In these times, humanity finds itself like a dislocated bone.
To put it back in place, it is necessary that I completely unbox it. »
Then, calming down a little, he added:
"My daughter,
the soul can know if it dominates its passions if,
when she is touched by temptations or people,
it takes no account of it.
For example, if there comes to her a temptation of impurity and she dominates this passion,
-it pays no attention to it and
-its nature always remains in its place.
If, on the contrary, the soul does not dominate this passion,
she gets angry,
it grieves, and
she feels a stream of rot flowing through her body.
"Another example, suppose one person is insulted by another. If she dominates her pride, she keeps the peace.
If she does not dominate her pride, she feels a stream flowing into her
-fire,
-indignation and
-pride
which turns it upside down.
Thus
-when a passion is not dominated and
-that an opportunity arises,
the person goes off the rails. This is the case for everything else. »
My suffering was a little more intense than usual. My good Jesus came and said to me:
"My daughter, suffering brings three kinds of resurrections.
-First, it awakens the soul to grace.
-Then, by increasing, it unites the virtues and makes the soul grow in holiness.
-Finally, by continuing, she perfects the virtues,
it makes them splendid and forms a beautiful crown whose soul is glorified on earth and in Heaven. »
That said, he disappeared.
While I was continuing in my usual state, it seems to me that my adorable Jesus came out of my interior and said to me in a soft and kind voice:
"My daughter,
-all that death will do to human nature,
-why would grace not make the soul in anticipation, that is, to make it die in advance out of love for God
to everything she will have to die of one day?
"But, cannot reach this blessed death
may those who continually dwell in my grace.
For, by living with God, it becomes easier to die to all that is ephemeral.
Living with God and dying to everything else,
-the soul comes to anticipate the privileges that will enrich it at the resurrection, that is to say
-feel spiritualized, deified and incorruptible, in addition to
-participate in all the privileges of the divine life.
Moreover, there is the distinction of glory that these souls will experience in Heaven.
Their glory will differ from the glory of others as much as Heaven differs from earth. That said, he disappeared.
I was in my usual state when Blessed Jesus came. Seeing him, I don't know why, I said to him:
"Lord, the thought that I may lose your love always lacerates my soul."
He replied, "My daughter, who told you that?
My paternal goodness always provides the creature with the means it needs, as long as it does not reject them.
The way not to lose my love,
-it is to consider my love and everything that concerns me
-as something that belongs to you.
Can we lose what is ours? Certainly not. At most, if we do not have esteem for something that belongs to us, we will not have the concern to keep it in a safe place. If the soul has no esteem for something and does not keep it in a safe place, it is a sign that it does not love it; therefore, this thing no longer has a life of love for her and she cannot count it among her personal things.
But he who makes my love a personal thing, he esteems it,
it protects it and
he always keeps an eye on it.
And one cannot lose what is one's own, neither during one's life nor after one's death. »
As I continued in my usual state, Blessed Jesus came briefly and said:
"My daughter, it is said that the path of virtue is difficult to follow. It's not true.
This path is difficult to follow for the soul who does not commit to it. Because, not knowing
-nor graces
-nor the consolations she could receive from God,
-no more than his help to walk,
this path seems difficult to him and,
not moving forward, she feels the full weight of the journey.
However, for the soul that commits itself, this is very easy, because the grace that floods it strengthens it,
the beauty of virtue attracts him and
the divine Bridegroom of souls carries her leaning on his arm all along the way.
Instead of feeling the weight and difficulties of the path, the soul activates to reach the goal faster. »
I was continuing in my usual state when Blessed Jesus came.
He told me, "My daughter, fear diminishes love in the soul. Likewise
virtues that do not have their principle in love diminish love in the soul.
In all things, love deserves preference because love makes everything easy.
Virtues that do not have their principle in love are like victims on the way to the slaughterhouse, they go towards their destruction. »
This morning I was thinking of Jesus blessed all dislocated on the Cross. I said, "Ah! Lord, how tortured you have been and how your soul has been afflicted! »
At that moment, Jesus came as a shadow and said to me:
"My daughter,
I was not concerned with my sufferings, but with the purpose of my sufferings; and as I saw the Will of my Father fulfilled by my sufferings,
I found in them my sweetest rest.
In fact, fulfilling God's Will involves this good:
-while we suffer, we find the most beautiful rest.
But if one rejoices and this rejoicing is not willed by God, in this very rejoicing one finds the most cruel torment.
"The closer I got to the end of my suffering.
-while ardently desiring to fulfill my Father's Will-, the more relieved I felt and my rest became more beautiful.
Oh! How different is the way of doing souls!
If they suffer or if they work, their attention does not pay
-nor on the fruit they can obtain,
-nor on the realization of the Divine Will.
They focus entirely on what they do
-by not seeing the benefits they can get
-nor the sweet rest that god's Will brings.
They live bored and tormented.
They flee as much as possible from suffering and works
-in order to find rest,
-but they are all the more tormented. »
This morning I was out of my body and I felt that there was someone in my arms with his head resting on my shoulder. I couldn't see who he was and I forcibly pulled him away, telling him:
"Tell me at least who you are."
He replied, "I am the Whole."
Hearing that he was the All, I said, "And I am the Nothing.
You see, Lord, how right I am to say that this nothing must be united with the Whole, otherwise it will be like a handful of dust that the wind will scatter."
At that moment, I saw someone who seemed troubled and said:
"How is it that for every little thing you feel so troubled?" And I, in a light coming from Blessed Jesus, I say:
"In order not to be troubled, the soul must be well within God, it must strive totally towards Him as towards a single point, and it must look at everything else with an indifferent eye.
If she does otherwise, in everything she does, sees or hears, she is invested with a worry like a slow fever that makes her exhausted and troubled, unable to understand herself. »
Being in my usual state, I saw Jesus blessed simultaneously outside and inside me.
If I saw him on the outside as a child, I saw him on the inside as a child; if I saw him on the outside as the Crucified, I saw him on the inside as the Crucified.
I was amazed at this and Jesus said to me, "My daughter, when my image is formed inside the soul, if I want to show myself on the outside to be contemplated, I show myself in the same form.
What's wonderful about that?"
I was out of my body with the Child Jesus in my arms. I said to him, "My little darling, I am completely and always yours; please, do not allow the shadow of anything that is not yours to flow into myself."
He replied, "My daughter, when the soul is totally mine, I hear her being in me continually whispering. I continually feel his whisper flowing in my voice, in my heart, in my mind, in my hands, in my steps and even in my blood. Oh! How sweet this whisper is to me!
As I hear it, I keep repeating: "Everything, everything, everything of this soul is mine; I love him, I love him so much!" I seal in this soul the whisper of my love so that as I hear her whisper, she hears mine in all her being. Thus, if the soul hears my whisper flowing throughout its being, it is a sign that it is totally mine."
This morning, when blessed Jesus came, he threw himself into my arms as if he wanted to rest and he told me, "The soul must abandon himself in the arms of obedience as a child safely abandons himself into the arms of his mother.
He who abandons himself in the arms of obedience receives all the divine colors because one can do what one wants with the one who sleeps. One can say of the one who truly abandons himself in the arms of obedience that he sleeps, and God can make of him what he wants."
Continuing in my usual state, I said to the Lord, "Lord, what do you want from me? Manifest to me your Holy Will. He replied, "My daughter, I totally want you in me so that I can find everything in you.
By being totally in me, you will make me find in you all the creatures, you will make me find in you reparation, satisfaction, thanksgiving, praise, as well as all that the creatures owe me.
"In addition to divine life and human life, Love gave me a third life that germinated in my Humanity the lives of all creatures.
Love gave me continual deaths, beat and strengthened me, humiliated and elevated me, gave me bitterness and filled me with sweetness, tormented me and made my delights. What does this tireless love and ready for anything not include?
Everything, everything can be found in him. His life is eternal and always new. Oh! How I would like to find in you this Love to always have you in me and find everything in you!"
This morning, when He came, Blessed Jesus said to me:
"My daughter, patience nourishes perseverance because it holds in place passions and strengthens virtues.
Through patience, virtue does not experience the weariness produced by the inconstancy so prevalent in creatures.
"The patient soul does not lose heart if it is mortified or humiliated, because its patience fuels its perseverance.
If the soul is consoled or favored, it does not get too carried away either, because its perseverance keeps it in moderation.
This morning, as he came, Jesus blessed rn' said:
"My daughter, the thought of my Passion is like the baptismal font. When a cross is accompanied by the thought of my Passion,
its bitterness and weight are halved."
Then he disappeared like a lightning bolt and
I continued by worshipping and repairing internally.
He later returned and added:
"What is not my consolation to find in you what my Humanity did so many centuries ago.
In fact, the things I planned to be done by souls were first realized by me in my Humanity,
and if the soul matches, it remakes in it what I did.
But, if it does not match,
-these things remain done in me only and
-I feel an inexpressible bitterness."
Continuing in my usual state, I thought about how Jesus Christ died and told myself that he could not fear death because his Humanity, being united with his Divinity and transformed into her, was in perfect security as a person in his own palace.
And I was like, "How different it is for the soul!"
While I had this foolish thought as well as others of the kind, Blessed Jesus came and said to me:
"My daughter, the one who unites with my Humanity is at the door of my Divinity, for my Humanity is the mirror through which the soul sees my Divinity.
If someone stands in the reflections of this mirror, it is natural that his whole being is transformed into love. My daughter, everything that comes from the creature, the blinking of her eyes, the movement of her lips, her thoughts, and everything else, should be love.
My Being being totally love, where I find love, I absorb everything in myself and the soul dwells in me safely as in its own palate.
Therefore, what fear could a soul have of coming to me through his death, if it is already in me? »
Being in my usual state, I found myself out of my body and saw the Mother Queen with the Child Jesus in her arms.
She was giving him her very sweet milk.
Seeing that the Child was drinking milk from our Mother's womb, I gently removed it and began to drink. Both of them smiled and let me do it.
Afterwards, the Queen Mother said to me:
"Take your little darling and rejoice." So I took the Child in my arms. Meanwhile, we heard sounds of weapons outside, and Jesus said to me:
"This government will fall." I asked him, "When?"
Touching the tip of his finger, he replied, "Just another fingertip." I said, "Who can know how long that fingertip is for you." He added nothing.
As for me, I was not interested in continuing on this issue and I said to myself instead:
"How I would like to know the Will of God as far as I am concerned!"
Jesus said to me:
"Do you have a piece of paper?
I will write in it what my Will is as far as you are concerned."
Having no piece of paper, I went to get one and Jesus wrote:
"I declare before Heaven and earth that it is my Will that it be a victim. I declare that she gave me the gift of her body and soul and that I,
being its absolute owner,
I make it participate in the sufferings of my Passion when it pleases me. In exchange, I give him access to my Divinity and through this access,
she continually prays to me for sinners and draws a continual flow of life for them."
He wrote so many other things that I don't remember it very well. Therefore, I let it go.
Feeling confused at what Jesus had just told me, I said to him:
"Lord, forgive me if I become impertinent:
-what you wrote, I didn't want to know,
-it is enough for me that only you know.
As for me, I would like to know if it is your Will that I remain in this state. »
And, internally, I wondered
if it is His Will that my confessor has to come to call me to obedience and if the time I spend with him would not be a pure fantasy on my part.
But I didn't want to tell him that for fear of knowing too much and that if it was his Will for one thing, it would be for the other.
The Child Jesus continued to write:
"I declare that this is my Will
-that you continue in this state,
-let your confessor come and call you to obedience and
-that you waste time with him.
It is also my Will
that you fear that your state is not according to My Will. This fear purifies you of the slightest defects."
The Queen Mother and Jesus blessed me and I kissed Jesus' hand. Then I went back into my body.
I was in my usual state and I was going about my customary inner deeds when Blessed Jesus came and He said to me:
"My daughter,
my Humanity is music for the Divinity.
Because all my works were notes forming the most perfect and harmonious music for the divine ear.
And the soul that conforms to my inner and outer actions
continues to produce this music of my Humanity for my Divinity."
I was in my usual state when Blessed Jesus came and He said to me:
"My daughter,
when a confessor manifests to the soul his way of operating in it,
-he loses his taste to pursue, and the soul,
-knowing what the confessor pursues in her, becomes careless and nervous.
On the other hand, if the soul manifests its interior to others,
-her enthusiasm will diminish and she will be weakened.
If this does not happen when the soul opens to its confessor, it is because the force of the sacrament maintains the steam, increases the strength and affixes its seal to it. »
This morning I was praying for a sick priest who had been my spiritual director, and I asked myself this question:
"If he had continued to be my spiritual director, would he be crippled or not?" Blessed Jesus introduced Himself and said to me:
"My daughter, who enjoys the goods that are inside a house? Those who live there, don't they?
Even if others have already lived there,
it is only those who currently live there who enjoy it.
For example, as long as a servant stays with his master, the master pays him and allows him to enjoy the goods that are in the house.
But, if this servant leaves, the owner calls another, pays him and lets him enjoy his property.
"That's how I do it.
If something is wanted by me, but is set aside by a person,
I pass it on to another by giving her everything that was intended for the first.
Thus, if he had continued your direction in your state of victim,
he would have enjoyed the property attached to the state of the one who is currently guiding you.
Consequently, he would not have been crippled. If your current guide,
-despite his health, does not get everything he wants,
-it's that he doesn't fully do what I want
and
although he enjoys certain property,
he is deprived of some of my charisms. »
I was irritated that I couldn't do certain mortifications. It seemed to me that the Lord did not allow me to do them because He hated me.
Blessed Jesus came and said to me, "My daughter, he who truly loves me is never irritated by anything and seeks to turn everything into love. For what reason did you want to mortify yourself? Certainly out of love for me.
Well, I say to you:
-"Mortify yourself out of love for me or be relieved out of love for me,
both have the same weight in my eyes."
"The value of an action, however indifferent, increases according to the degree of love that accompanies it.
For I do not look at the action, but at the intensity of the love that accompanies it.
Therefore, I do not want irritation in you, but always peace. In the disorder,
-it is self-love that wants to manifest itself to reign or
-it is the enemy who wants to harm. »
Continuing in my usual state, I felt a little troubled.
Blessed Jesus came and said to me, "My daughter, the soul that is at peace and whose whole being stretches towards me emits droplets of light that adorn my garment.
On the other hand
-the troubled soul lets out darkness that forms an evil ornament. These agitations of the soul
-hinder the outpouring of grace and
-make the soul incapable of functioning well."
He added: "If the soul is troubled in every way, it is a sign that it is filled with itself. If it is troubled for one thing and not for another,
it is a sign that she has something of God, but that she has many voids to fill.
If nothing disturbs her, it is a sign that she is totally filled with God. Oh! How trouble harms the soul!
This can go so far as to cause the soul to reject God and completely fill itself with itself."
Continuing in my usual state, I saw the Mother Queen saying to Our Lord:
"Come, come to your garden to delight."
In saying this, she seemed to be referring to me. Hearing this, I felt full of shame and I said to myself internally: "I have nothing good in me, how could he revel in me?"
While I was thinking like this, Blessed Jesus said to me, "My daughter, why are you blushing? All the glory of a soul is associated with the fact that everything in it does not come from it, but from God.
And I, in exchange, tell this soul that everything that is mine is his."
As he said this, it seemed to me that my little garden, shaped by Jesus himself, was united with his very large garden in his Heart, that the two were one, and that we were delighting in it together. Then I came back into my body.
This morning, blessed Jesus came and said to me:
"My daughter, if in all its actions the soul acts totally and only to please God, grace enters it from all sides.
It's like a house with open balconies, doors and windows: sunlight enters it from all sides and you enjoy the fullness of the light.
This light always increases until the soul becomes totally light. But if the soul does not act in this way, the light enters only through cracks and everything is darkness in it.
"My daughter, to the one who gives me everything, I give everything.
The soul is not able to receive my whole Being at the same time,
my grace surrounds the soul with as many images as I possess of perfections and virtues.
Through the image of beauty, I communicate to the soul the light of beauty; by the image of wisdom, I communicate to him the light of wisdom; through the image of goodness, I communicate to him the light of goodness;
by the images of holiness, justice, strength and purity,
I communicate to him the light of holiness, justice, strength and purity.
And so on.
"Thus, the soul is surrounded,
-not a single sun,
-but as many suns as I have perfections.
These images surround every soul,
but it is only for the souls who correspond that these images are active.
For souls who do not match, these images are as if asleep, so that these souls derive little or no profit from them. »
I was in my usual state, and as soon as He came, Jesus carried me out of my body and made me participate in His sufferings.
Afterwards, he told me:
"My daughter,
when two people share the burden of a job, they also share the wage for that work.
With this salary, they can both do good to whomever they want.
"By sharing with me the weight of my sufferings, that is, by participating in the work of redemption,
you also come to participate in the wages for the work of the Redemption.
The reward for our sufferings being shared between you and me,
I can do good to whomever I want, and you too can do good to whomever you want.
"It's there
-the reward of those who share my sufferings,
-reward given to souls who live in the state of victim as well as to souls who are close to them.
For, being close to soul victims,
they participate more easily in the goods they own.
So, my daughter, rejoice when I make you participate more in my suffering, for the greater your reward will be."
Finding me in my usual state, my blessed Jesus said to me:
"My daughter,
-if the soul does everything for me,
-it imitates these little butterflies
which constantly revolve around a flame and end up being consumed in it.
Thus, when the soul offers me the fragrance of its actions or desires,
it revolves around my eyes, my face, my hands or my Heart, according to the offerings it makes to me.
It is consumed in the flames of my love without touching the flames of purgatory."
Having said this, Jesus disappeared, and then immediately returned to add:
"Thinking about oneself is like coming out of God and coming back into oneself. Thinking about yourself
-is never a virtue,
-but is always a vice, even if it takes on the aspect of good. »
As I came this morning, Blessed Jesus said to me:
"My daughter,
the creature must dwell in my Heart. Its virtues must
-be rooted in my Heart and
-develop in one's own heart.
Otherwise, it would have only natural and unstable virtues.
While the virtues whose roots are in my Heart and which develop in the heart of the creature are stable, adapt to all times and circumstances; they are valid for all. "Sometimes people experience unlimited charity for someone, for whom they are all fire and make real sacrifices, and for whom they would even like to give their lives. Another person shows up, a person who may be in greater need than the first, and the scene changes completely: we are cold towards her, we do not even want to make the sacrifice of listening to her or talking to her; all irritated, she is sent back. Is this charity whose root is fixed in my Heart? Certainly not! Rather, it is a vicious charity, all human, which seems to bloom at one time and dries up and disappears at another.
"Other people are obedient to a person: submissive and humble, they are like rags vis-à-vis that person, so that person can do with them what he wants. Towards another person, they are disobedient, recalcitrant and proud. Is this the obedience that came out of my Heart that obeyed everything, even its executioners? Certainly not!
"Other people are patient on certain occasions, perhaps even in the midst of severe suffering; they seem to be lambs who don't even open their mouths to complain. On other occasions, in the midst of other, perhaps smaller, sufferings, they become furious, irritated and hurl insults. Is this the patience whose root is fixed in my Heart? Of course not!
"Others are sometimes full of fervor; they pray a lot to the point of neglecting their duty of state. At another time, following a somewhat unpleasant encounter, they become cold and abandon prayer to the point of neglecting prayers of obligation. Is this the spirit of prayer by which I have come to the point of sweating blood, to experience the agony of death? Certainly not!
"One could talk like this about all the other virtues. Only the virtues rooted in my Heart and grafted into the soul are stable and resplendent. The others, while they appear as virtues, are vices. They seem luminous while they are darkness." That said, Jesus disappeared.
However, as I continued to desire, he came back and added, "The soul that desires me ceaselessly is constantly impregnated with me. And I, feeling imbued in this soul, imbue it in me, so that wherever I turn, I find it with its desires and I touch it continuously."
When he came this morning, my adorable Jesus showed me his very kind Heart. From the inside of it came luminous wires in gold, silver and red color. These threads seemed to form a net that, thread by thread, bound all human hearts. This show enchanted me. Jesus said to me: "My daughter, through these sons, my Heart attaches affections, desires, heartbeats, love, and even the life of human hearts; these hearts are in all things like my human Heart, except that mine differs in holiness.
"If, in Heaven, my desires move, the thread of desires excites their desires; if my affection moves, the thread of affection excites their affection; if I love, the thread of my love excites their love; the thread of my life brings them to life. Oh! What harmony between Heaven and earth, between my Heart and human hearts! But only those who correspond can perceive this. Those who reject me by their will do not notice anything and make the activities of my human Heart ineffective for them. »
While I was in my usual state, my adorable Jesus made me see his most holy Humanity with all his wounds and sufferings. From his wounds, and even drops of his blood, came branches laden with fruit and flowers; and it seemed to me that he communicated to me his sufferings accompanied by all these branches
full of fruits and flowers. I was amazed at the goodness of Our Lord who made me participate in all these goods. Blessed Jesus said to me, "My beloved daughter, do not be surprised by what you see, for you are not the only one. I have always had souls who, to the extent possible for a creature, respond in one way or another to the purposes of Creation, Redemption, and Sanctification. These creatures were able to accommodate all the goods intended for those whom I created, redeemed, and sanctified. If, in every era, I had not had even one person responding to this, all my work would have been frustrated, at least for a while. "It is in the order of my providence, my justice and my love that, in every age, there has been at least one creature with whom I have been able to share all my possessions and who has given me all that she owes me as a creature. Otherwise, what is the point of maintaining the world? In an instant, I would have crushed it.
"This is precisely why I choose soul victims. As divine righteousness found in me all that it should have found in every creature—that is, it found in me all the goods it would have liked to see in every creature—. Thus, I find all this in the soul victims and I share all my possessions with them. "At the time of my Passion, I had my dearest Mother who shared all my sufferings and possessions: as a creature, she was attentive to gather in her all that creatures had to offer me. I found in her all satisfaction, gratitude, thanksgiving, praise, reparation, and correspondence. Then came Madeleine and Jean. And so on in all eras of the Church. "To make these souls more pleasing to me and that I can feel attracted to give them everything, I prepare them: I ennoble their soul, their body, their features and even their voice, so that a single word from them has so much strength, is so graceful, sweet and penetrating, that it moves and softens me totally. I say, "Ah! This is the voice of my beloved! I can't help but listen to him." To do the opposite would be like wanting to deny myself what I want. If I did not want to listen to him, I would have to take away his use of speech. Send her back empty-handed, no, never! Between this soul and me, there is such a current of union that she cannot understand everything in this life, although she will understand everything with clarity in the other."
This morning, after giving myself great sorrow, I saw Our Lord crucified. I lowered the wounds of his hands, repairing and praying to him to sanctify, perfect, and purify all human works by all that he suffered in his most holy hands.
Blessed Jesus said to me, "My daughter, one thing that has aggravated the wounds of my hands and made me particularly bitter is the good works done by lacking attention, for the lack of attention diminishes the life of good works. And what lacks life is always close to death. Therefore, such works make me nauseous. Moreover, for the human eye, a good work done without attention is more scandalous than sin itself.
"It is well known that sin is darkness and that darkness does not give life. A good work should normally give light; but if it produces darkness, it offends the human eye and is a clutter on the way to good."
I was in my usual state, and as soon as he came, Blessed Jesus said to me, "My daughter, charity is true if, in doing good to one's neighbor, one does it because he is my image. Any charity that is not exercised in this atmosphere cannot be called charity. If the soul wants the merit of charity, it must never fail to see my image in its surroundings.
"My own charity never comes out of this atmosphere; I love the creature only because it is my image. If, in the creature, my image is distorted by sin, I lose the taste to love him; I even abhor him. I pay great attention to preserving plants and animals because they are used for my images. The creature must always strive to resemble its Creator. »
I was very suffering because of the deprivation of my very sweet Jesus. This morning, on this day of the Sorrows of the Most Holy Virgin Mary, after I had struggled a lot, Blessed Jesus came and said to me: "My daughter, what do you want for you to desire me so much?" I replied, "Lord, what you have in you is what I want for me." Jesus said, "My daughter, what I have are thorns, nails, and crosses." I said, "Well, that's what I want for myself." Jesus gave me His crown of thorns and made me participate in the sufferings of the cross.
Then he said to me, "All can enjoy the merits and goods produced by my Mother's sorrows. He who, unconditionally, places himself in the hands of Providence and offers himself to suffer any suffering, misery, disease or slander, in short, everything that the Lord will send him, comes to participate in the first pain of Simeon's prophecy.
He who suffers with resignation and in close union with me and who does not offend me is as if he were saving me from Herod's hands, keeping me safe and sound in the Egypt of his heart. Thus, it participates in the second pain.
He who finds himself arid and deprived of my presence and who still remains faithful to his usual practices, even taking the opportunity to love me and seek me more, comes to participate in the merits and goods that my Mother acquired when she lost me. It participates in the third pain. He who, in all circumstances, is sorry to see me gravely offended and despised, and who seeks to repair, sympathize with me and pray for those who offend me, becomes like my own Mother when I met her, she who would have freed me from my enemies if she could. It participates in the fourth pain. He who crucifies his senses out of love for my crucifixion and who seeks to copy the virtues of my crucifixion participates in the fifth pain. He who, in the name of all humanity, continually worships and embraces my wounds in an attitude of reparation, thanksgiving and the like, is as if he were holding me in his arms as my Mother did when I was taken down from the cross. It participates in the sixth pain. He who keeps himself in a state of grace and who, in his heart, gives no asylum to anyone but me is as if he were burying me in the center of his heart. He participates in the seventh pain."
This morning, I was very distressed that Jesus blessed made me suffer by his absence. Showing himself briefly, he said to me: "My daughter, I do not like to see you so sad and plunged into bitter affliction because of my deprivation. Your affliction causes me great pain, especially because it is because of me; it is as if it were my own affliction. My pain is so great that if all the afflictions of others were brought together, they would not give me as great a pain as yours alone. This results from the fact that your affliction is experienced only because of me. So show me a cheerful face and let me see that you are happy. Afterwards, he squeezed me tightly and added, "The sign that the soul is perfectly united to me is that it is united to its neighbor. Just as no discordant note must exist between those who are in the visible, no discordant note must exist between the soul and the invisible God."
While I was continuing in my usual state, Blessed Jesus came and said to me, "My daughter, self-knowledge empties the soul of itself and fills it with God. In the soul, there are many compartments, and everything that can be seen in this world has its place in these compartments, some things more and others less, according to the perceptions of the soul.
"The soul that knows itself and is filled with God, knowing that it is nothing, or rather that it is a fragile, rotten and smelly vessel, is careful not to let into it other rots from the things we see in the world. It would be very stupid one who, afflicted with an infected wound, picks up rot to place it on it.
"Knowing oneself entails the knowledge of the things of the world with their vanity, their transience, their deceptions, added to the inconstancy of the creature. This leads the soul to be careful not to let these defilements into it and, consequently, all its compartments are filled with the virtues of God."
I had read a book about virtues and I was worried because I saw no virtue in myself except that I want to love Jesus, that I want him with me, that I love him and that I want to be loved by him. It seemed to me that, apart from that, nothing of God existed in me.
Finding me in my usual state, my adorable Jesus said to me:
"My daughter, the more the soul reaches its goal by approaching the source of all the goods that is the true and perfect love of God in which everything will be submerged and where love alone will float as the engine of everything, the more the soul loses all the virtues it has practiced during its journey, relying only on love and resting from everything in love.
Don't the blessed in Heaven lose everything to love?
"The more the soul advances, the less it experiences the work of virtues because, by investing the
virtues, love transforms them into itself, keeping them at rest in it as noble princesses.
Then the soul no longer perceives the virtues.
These are found in love more beautiful, purer, more perfect, more enriched. If the soul perceived them, it would be a sign that they are separated from love.
"Suppose, for example, that a soul receives an order and obeys.
-to acquire virtue,
-to sacrifice one's own will or
-for any other reason of the kind.
By doing so,
-he perceives that he exercises obedience,
-she feels the pain, the sacrifice that the virtue of obedience imposes on her.
Suppose another soul executes himself not out of obedience to the person who commands, but knowing that God would be unhappy with his disobedience.
She sees God in the person who commands.
Through her love for God, she sacrifices everything and obeys.
She does not realize that she obeys, but only that she loves.
"Courage then in your journey. The further you go,
the more you taste, even here on earth, the eternal bliss of one and true love. »
This morning, finding me in my usual state, Jesus came unexpectedly and said to me:
"My daughter, what stupidity!
Even in holy things, they think about how to satisfy themselves. If, in holy things, my creatures make me flee,
how will I find a place in their actions?
"What a mistake!
The important thing is to care about the way
-to fill his actions with love,
-to gather as many things as possible to increase his love and
-to stand as close to me as possible
to drink from the source of my love, to immerse oneself in my love.
How blundering they are! They do everything wrong! »
That said, Jesus disappeared.
I was in my usual state, and after much trouble, Jesus was blessed and showed himself briefly. Being about to send plagues, he said to me:
"My daughter, sin is a fire and my righteousness is a fire. How my justice must always
-maintain balance and
receive in it no profane fire, then,
-when the fire of sin wants to mingle with the fire of righteousness,
-my righteousness pours out its fire on the earth
by converting it into a fire of punishments. »
As I considered my misery and the weakness of human nature, I found myself abominable and imagined how much more I could be abominable in god's eyes. I thought to myself:
"Lord, how ugly human nature has become!" Jesus showed himself briefly and said to me:
"My daughter, nothing came out of my hands that wasn't good.
In particular, I created beautiful and noble human nature.
If the soul sees it muddy, rotten, weak and abominable, it is useful to him as manure is useful to the earth.
"Someone who wouldn't understand this might say, 'He's stupid who pollutes the earth with this dirt! "
However, whoever understands knows that this dirt serves
-to fertilize the earth,
-to grow the plants and
-to make the fruits more beautiful and tasty.
I created human nature with these miseries
so that all the virtues may flourish in her.
Otherwise, the human being could not exercise the true virtues. »
I then saw in spirit human nature as full of holes in which there was manure and mud.
From there came branches laden with flowers and fruits.
Thus, I understood that everything is in the use that we make of things, including our own miseries.
Finding myself in my usual state, I was very distressed by the deprivation of my adorable Jesus and I said:
"Ah! Lord, I only want you, I find no contentment outside of you, You rn· left so cruelly! »
Coming out of my interior, Jesus said to me:
"That's fine, I'm your only contentment.
I find all my contentment in you so that if I had no one else, you alone would make me happy.
My daughter, have some patience until the wars begin. Then we will do as before. »
Without thinking, I say, "Lord, let them begin."
But immediately I added, "Lord, I was wrong."
Jesus said, "Your will must be mine.
Thou shalt not want anything, in which the holy things are not in conformity with my Will. I want you to always circulate in the circle of my Will without ever leaving it, so that you thus become the owner of myself.
I want war? You too.
For the soul that behaves in this way, I make my being a circle around it in such a way as to make it live from me and within me. »
Then he disappeared.
I thought of the Passion of Our Lord and I said to myself:
«Comme j'aimerais entrer dans l'intérieur de Jésus-Christ pour voir tout ce qu'il faisait,
afin de savoir
ce qui était le plus agréable à son Cœur et
pour pouvoir par la suite me conformer à cela de manière
-à amoindrir ses souffrances et
-à lui être agréable le plus possible.»
Pendant que je pensais à cela, Jésus béni remua dans mon intérieur et me dit:
«Ma fille, dans mes souffrances, j'étais préoccupé
-d'abord de plaire à mon cher Père en tout et pour tous et,
-ensuite, de racheter les âmes.
La chose qui était la plus agréable à mon Cœur était
-de voir la satisfaction de mon Père
de me voir souffrir par amour pour lui.
Everything was meant for him - not a single breath or sigh was lost.
This satisfaction of my Father
was enough to make me satisfied with all that I suffered,
although the sufferings of my Passion were for the redemption of creatures.
My Father's satisfaction was so great
that he poured into my Humanity the treasures of his Divinity.
Accompany my Passion in this way. You will give me more pleasure.
After giving me a lot of trouble, Jesus came briefly and said to me:
"My daughter,
to the soul that is resigned to my Will,
it happens as to someone who, approaching to see a beautiful food up close, feels the desire to eat it.
As a result, he comes to eat it and it turns into his flesh and blood.
If he had not seen this food, he would not have wanted it, would not have eaten it and, therefore, would have remained on an empty stomach.
So it is for the resigned soul.
Through her resignation, she perceives a divine light. It removes what prevented him from seeing God.
Seeing God, the soul desires to enjoy Him
By this enjoyment, she feels as if she is eating it,
in such a way that she feels totally transformed into God.
Therefore
-the first step is to resign oneself,
-the second is to desire God and to do in all his Will,
-the third is to make God his daily food and,
-the fourth, to consume his will in that of God.
But, if we do not take the first step, we remain fasting from God. »
I continued in my usual state As soon as he came, Blessed Jesus said to me:
"My daughter,
when the creature does good,
a light emanates from it and goes to the Creator This light
-gives glory to the Creator of light and
-embellishes the soul with divine beauty."
Then I saw my confessor take the book written by me to read it. He was accompanied by Our Lord who says:
"My Word is rain
It is fruitful as rain is fertile for the earth.
We can know
if what is written in this book is the rain of my Word
-if
-it is fertile and
-germinates virtue."
I continued in my usual state and thought of the Passion of Jesus blessed.
Showing himself in the form of the Crucified,
he made me participate a little in his sufferings and said to me:
"My daughter,
I wanted to be lifted up and crucified on the cross so that the souls who want me,
can find me.
*If someone wants me as Master
because he feels the need to be taught, I lower myself to teach him
-as much the little things
-that the highest things to make it scholarly.
*If someone groans in abandonment and oblivion and looks for a father,
let him come to the foot of my cross
I will make myself his Father by giving him
-my wounds as a dwelling,
-my blood as a beverage,
-my flesh as food and
-my kingdom as an inheritance.
*If someone is infirm,
he finds me as a doctor giving him
-not only healing,
-but also safe remedies so as not to become crippled again.
*If someone is oppressed by slander and contempt,
he finds me as his defender
which goes so far as to transform these slanders and contempts into divine honors.
And so on.
"In short, anyone who wants me
-as a judge,
-as a friend,
-as a spouse,
-as a lawyer,
-as a priest, etc. finds me as such.
That's why I wanted my hands and feet to be nailed:
so as not to oppose in any way what we want,
so that they can do with me what they want.
However, woe to the one who,
-seeing that I can't even move a finger,
-dare to offend me. »
I said to him, "Lord, who are the ones who offend you the most?" He replied:
"Those who give me the most suffering are the religious.
These, living in my Humanity,
torment me and tear my flesh from within,
While those who live outside of my Humanity, tear me apart from afar."
I continued in my usual state and was in prayer when Jesus was blessed. He hugged me tightly and said to me: "My daughter, prayer is music in my ear, especially when it comes from a soul totally adjusted to my Will in such a way that one perceives in it a continual attitude of life in the Divine Will.
"It's as if there is another God in this soul playing this music to me. Oh! How pleasant it is for me to find someone who is my equal and gives me divine honors. Only those who live in My Will can reach this point. All other souls, even if they do a lot and pray a lot, present me with human things and prayers, not divine. Therefore, they do not have this power and appeal to my ear. »
I was in my usual state, and when Jesus blessed came, he said to me, "My daughter, I am not happy with souls who emit only glimmers; I want their thoughts to be light, their words to be light, their desires to be light, their works to be light, their steps to be light, and all this light to form a sun in which my image is totally formed.
"It happens when a soul does everything, absolutely everything for me. Then it becomes totally light. And as one who wants to enter the sunlight finds no obstacle to get there, so I find no obstacle in this sun that the creature forms with all its being. On the other hand, in the one who is not totally light, I encounter many obstacles to form my image. »
Finding me in my usual state, Blessed Jesus came briefly and said, "No one can resist the truth or say that the truth is not the truth. As bad or stupid as a person may be, he cannot say that white is black and black is white, light is dark, and darkness is light. Only he who loves the truth embraces it and puts it into practice. He who does not love the truth is troubled and tormented by it. Then he disappeared like a bolt of lightning.
Soon after, he returned and added, "My daughter, he who lives in the sphere of my Will is in the abode of all riches, and he who lives outside this sphere is in the dwelling place of all riches.
in the abode of all miseries. That is why it is said in the Gospel that we will give to the one who has and that we will take away the little he has from the one who does not have.
"In fact, since he who lives in the sphere of my Will is in the abode of all riches, it is not surprising that he is increasingly rich in all goods. For the one who lives in me as in his own house, could I be stingy? On the contrary, would I not sometimes give him one favor, sometimes another, until I have shared with him all my possessions? Of course it is.
"On the other hand, for him who is in the abode of all miseries, apart from my Will, his own will is by itself the greatest of miseries and the destroyer of all goods. It is therefore not surprising that if this soul has some goods, goods without contact with my Will, these goods are taken from him, since they are useless to him.
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