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Umqulu 5
Ukubiza izidalwa ukuba zibuyele kwindawo, isikhundla kunye nenjongo
abadalelwa kona nguThixo
Luisa Piccarreta
Umntwana wentando kaThixo
Nkosi, yiza kundinceda. Tame inkani yam iya kuhlala irhoxokile ebusweni bentobeko engcwele.
Ndizalise ngentando yakho engcwele nethandekayo ndide ndiphuphume, ukuze intando yam igqitywe yeyakho.
Ndiya kwandula ke ndibe nolonwabo lokuyeka ukulwa nentobeko engcwele. Ke wena, ntobelo engcwele, ndixolele ukuba ndihlala ndisilwa nawe.
Ndiphe amandla okukulandela ngokuzolileyo kuyo yonke into, nokuba ngamanye amaxesha ayibonakali isengqiqweni.
Ndingenza njani ukulwa nawe kule ngxelo yemibhalo ekufuneka ndiyenze ndithobela isivumo sam?
Kodwa kwanele, masithule, singaphindi silinde kwaye siqale ukubhala. Ummangali wam wangaphambili (1) uxakeke kakhulu, ngakumbi kunakwiminyaka awayendikhokela ngayo.
Ngenxa yokungakwazi ukuza, umntu ondivumayo ngoku ufika endaweni yakhe (2).
Andizange ndicinge ukuba kuya kwenzeka, ingakumbi njengoko ndandivuya kakhulu omnye nomnye; wayenentembelo yam epheleleyo.
Malunga nonyaka onesiqingatha ngaphambi kokuba umvumisi wam okhoyo aqale kunye nam, kwaye ngelixa ndandikwimo yam yesiqhelo, uYesu osikelelekileyo wayendixelele ukuba ndiqinisekise ukuba umntu oza kundivuma izono zam uyabukhathalela ubomi bam bangaphakathi kwaye usebenzisana naye ngokupheleleyo kwimeko yam.
Wathi kum:
"Xa ndibeka umphefumlo wexhoba kumntu ovumayo, umsebenzi wakhe ngaphakathi kwaloo mntu kufuneka uqhubeke. Uya kuxelela umntu oza kuvuma izono zakho ukuba ngenene kuya kufuneka asebenzisane nam.
Kungenjalo, ndiya kukubeka ezandleni zomnye umntu.
Nkosi, mamela, ndaphendula ndathi, "ngubani omnye oya kuba nomonde wokwamkela umnqamlezo ukuba eze yonke imihla aze azincame njengoko esenza umvumisi wam ngoku?
Ndiya kumbiza, ndiya kumkhanyisela, aze yena eze. Kuya kuba nzima ukuba awamkele lo mnqamlezo.
Ukuba akandimameli, ndiya kumthumela uMama wam. Ekubeni emthanda, akayi kuyikhanyela le nto.
(1. UDon Michele De Benedictis. 2. UDon Gennaro Di Gennaro owaba ngumvumisi wakhe kwi- 1889.)
Abo bamthanda ngokwenene abathabathi xesha lide.
Noko ke, ndiza kuhlala ndiyijongile into aya kuyenza. Mxelele yonke into endikuxelele yona.
Ngexesha elithile emva kokufika kwakhe ndamxelela yonke into, kodwa indoda ehluphekileyo, ngenxa yomsebenzi omtsha, ayizange ikwazi ukuthatha ulwalathiso lobomi bam bangaphakathi.
Bendibona ukuba ibikukungakwazi kwakhe kunokuzikhethela ngabom. Xa ndamxelela oko uYesu wayendixelele kona, wazimisela ngakumbi, kodwa ngokukhawuleza wabuyela kwimikhwa yakhe yangaphambili.
U-Yesu osikelelekileyo wakhalaza ngayo kwaye ndathetha naye kwakhona. ·
Ngenye imini yena ngokwakhe wandithumelela i-confessor entsha endawuvula kuye umphefumlo wam, ndimxelela yonke into. Wavuma ukuza ndothuka xa esithi ewe.
Kodwa lo mmangaliso wakhawuleza waphela. Andazi ukuba ndingayicacisa njani, kodwa wafika iintsuku ezimbini okanye ezintathu kuphela, emva koko wahamba.
Wanyamalala oko sisithunzi ndaqhubeka no confessor wam.
Ngale ntsasa ndibone i-confessor yam ithotywe kakhulu. Kunye naye wayeSikelelekile uYesu kunye St. Joseph .
Athi kuye:"Hamba usebenze iNkosi ikulungele ukukunika ubabalo olucelayo".
Emva koko, xa ndibona uYesu wam othandekayo ebandezeleka njengasebudeni bothando lwakhe, ndathi kuye: “Nkosi, akukhathali na kukunyamezela ubunzima obungaka?
UYesu waphendula wathi:
"Hayi, ukubandezeleka okunye akwenzi nto ngaphandle kokutshisa iNtliziyo yam ukuba yamkele enye.
Nantsi indlela yokubandezeleka kukaThixo:
ubunzima kwaye wenze ngokujonga kuphela kwiziqhamo ezivela kuyo. Emanxebeni am naseGazini lam, ndibona izizwe nezidalwa ezisindisiweyo zifumana ubabalo.
Endaweni yokuziva ndidiniwe, Intliziyo yam iva uvuyo kunye nomnqweno ovuthayo wokubandezeleka ngakumbi.
“Kumele kube njalo kuwo wonke umphefumlo.
Iimbandezelo zakhe mazibe yinxalenye yeembandezelo zam. Umphefumlo awufanele ukhangele into oyenzayo, kodwa ukhangele uzuko lukaThixo, kunye neziqhamo ezivela kwiimbandezelo zakhe kunye nemisebenzi yakhe."
Bendiphumile emzimbeni wam kwaye ndibone ukuba u-confessor wam unengxaki enkulu ngobabalo alunqwenelayo. Kwakhona uBenedict kunye noYesu oyiNgcwele
Wathi uYosefu kuye:
Ukuba uya emsebenzini, zonke iingxaki zakho buya kutshabalala; ziya kuwa njengamaxolo entlanzi.
Bendikwimeko yam yesiqhelo. Emva kokuba ndisengxakini enkulu kangangexesha elithile, ndabona uYesu wam othandekayo ezingalweni zam. Kwaphuma ukukhanya ebunzini lakhe, kwaye kulo kukhanya kwabhalwa la mazwi alandelayo:
"Uthando luyinto yonke, kunye noThixo kunye nomntu; ukuba uthando luyaphela, ubomi ngokwabo buyaphela. Nangona kunjalo, kukho iindidi ezimbini zothando: enye ingokomoya kunye nobuthixo, enye i-corporeal kunye ne-disordered. Phakathi kwezi zimbini zothando kukho enkulu umahluko.
Unokuthi lo mahluko mkhulu njengomahluko phakathi kokucinga ngento esengqondweni yakho nokwenza into ngezandla zakho. Ingqondo inokuthi, ngephanyazo, icinge ngezinto ezilikhulu, kodwa izandla zinokufeza into enye ngexesha.
“UMdali ongcwele wenza izidalwa kuphela ngenxa yoThando.
Ukuba uThixo usoloko ebonisa iimpawu zakhe kwizidalwa, luthando olumshukumisela ukuba enjenjalo.
Iimpawu zayo ziphuma kuThando.
Uthando olungafezekanga, njengolo lobutyebi neziyolo, alubuxhasi ubomi bomntu. Ezi zinto azikhokeli nje ekungcwalisweni, kodwa umntu unokugqibela ngokuzenza oothixo.
Ukuba uthando lungcwele, lukhokelela kubungcwele. Ukuba uthando lugwenxa, lukhokelela ekugwetyweni.
Ngale ntsasa, emva kweentsuku ezibuhlungu, uYesu osikelelekileyo weza waza wanxibelelana nam ngendlela eqhelekileyo.
Kangangokuba ndandicinga ukuba ndiza kuba ngowam ngonaphakade. Kodwa, ngesantya sokukhanya, yathi shwaka.
Intlungu yam yayinkulu kangangokuba ndandingathi ndiyaphambana, ingakumbi ekubeni ndandiqinisekile ukuba andisayi kuphinda ndiphulukane nayo.
Njengoko ndandiwile ngenxa yeentlungu, wabuyela kwisantya sokukhanya kwaye, ngelizwi elikhulu nelinzima, wathi kum:
"Ungubani wena ukuba ubengathi uhlala undigcina nawe?" Ndandiphambene, ndaphendula ngenkalipho:
"Ndiyinto yonke xa ndikunye nawe.
Ndiziva ngathi ngumyolelo ophuma esifubeni soMdali wawo. Ngale ntando,
-ukuba nje ihlala imanyene nawe,
-Ndifumana ubukho, ubomi, uxolo kunye nazo zonke iimpahla.
Ngaphandle kwakho, nangona kunjalo, ndiziva ndaphukile, ndilahlekile, ndingaphumli, ndingenabomi, ndinezinto ezimbi kuphela.
Ukuba nobomi kwaye ungandilahli, intando yam, ngaphandle kwakho,
- kufuneka usoloko ukhangela amabele akho e
- kufuneka uhlale apho ngonaphakade. "
UYesu wayebonakala eyiqonda yonke into.
Kodwa, kwakhona, wandibuza:
" Kodwa ungubani? "
Ndaqhubeka: "Mhlekazi, andiyonto ngaphandle kwethontsi lamanzi.
Yaye logama nje eli thontsi lamanzi lihleli elwandle, kuba ngathi lulwandle luphela.
Ihlala icocekile kwaye icacile njengamanye amanzi. Kodwa ukuba ithe yaphuma elwandle, iba ludaka
Ngenxa yobuncinci bayo, ilahlekile. "
Uye wasondela kum, wandanga wathi:
"Ntombi yam, lowo ufuna ukuhlala ehlala kwintando yam uthatha inxaxheba kuBomi bobuThixo. Nokuba angayishiya iNtando yam okomzuzwana, kuba ndamdala ngenkululeko yokuzikhethela, amandla am enza ummangaliso amvumela ukuba aqhubeke nokuthatha inxaxheba kuBungcwele. Ubomi..
Kule nxaxheba iqhubekayo, ufumana umanyano olomeleleyo kunye neNtando yobuThixo kangangokuba, nokuba wayefuna, wayengenakuyishiya.
Lo ngummangaliso oqhubekayo endiwunika lowo uhlala esenza uMyolelo wam.
Après avoir vécu plusieurs jours amers ebangela ukungabikho kuqhubeka ndihlala ndimthanda uYesu othandekayo, ndiyabona ukuba ndiyamthanda u-Avais ateint les profondeurs de affliction.
Fatiguée et sans force, j'ai pensé que Jesus ne me voulait plus dans cet état, et j'ai presque décidé de tout abandonner.
I-Pendant que je pensais ainsi, mon aimable Jesus remua en moi et me laissa savoir qu'il priait pour moi.
I compris qu'il imporait
- I-Puissance ka-Père unyana,
-sa Force d'âme et
-sa Providence uthele moi.
Emva koko wathi:
"Awuboni, Bawo?
-kuba efuna uncedo olukhulu e
-njani, emva kombulelo omkhulu,
Ngaba ufuna ukuba ngumoni ashiye iNtando yakho?"
Andikwazi ukuyichaza indlela ebuhlungu ngayo intliziyo yam xa ndisiva la mazwi kaYesu, waphuma kum, emva kokuba ndiqinisekile ukuba unguYesu wam osikelelekileyo, ndathi kuye:
"Nkosi, ingaba yintando yakho ukuba ndiphile kwesi simo njengomphefumlo wexhoba? Ekubeni ndingasaziva njengakuqala, kubonakala ngathi akusekho mfuneko ukuba eze umvuma. Ngoko ke ndiza kulisindisa eli dini".
Waqhuba uYesu wathi: "Ngoku asiyontando yam ukuba uyishiye le meko. Ngokuphathelele idini lovuma izono ndiya kumhlawula kalikhulu ngenxa yothando lwakhe".
Emva koko, ebuhlungu kakhulu, wongezelela:
“Intombi yam, amaSocialists akwazile ukuqhankqalaza eCaweni, eFransi akwenza oko esidlangalaleni.
E-Italy, ngendlela efihlakeleyo ngakumbi.
Ubulungisa bam bujonge ithuba lokuthumela izohlwayo.
Ndithe ndiphuma emzimbeni ndabona uYesu ephethe intonga ebetha ngayo abantu. Emva kokubethwa, abantu bathi saa baza bavukela.
Wathi kubo uYesu:
Ndikubethele ukuba udibane nam kwakhona. Kodwa, endaweni yokumanyana,
-ti bavukeli e
-uyandibaleka.
Ngoko ke kuyimfuneko ukudlala ixilongo ».
Wathi akutsho, waqalisa ukukhalisa ixilongo.
ndiye ndaqonda
ukuze uYehova abahlisele izibetho, amadoda;
-kunokuba uzithobe,
- ngebemkhubekisile ngakumbi, bambaleke.
Kamva ke uNdikhoyo wahlabela mgama evuthela ixilongo ukuze aphinde agwebe.
Ndatyhubela iintsuku ezininzi zokuswela nokulila.
Kwaba ngathi iNkosi indimisile ekubeni lixhoba. Enoba ndandivakalelwa njani, ndandingakwazi ukuzibamba.
Kunoko, ndandibanjwe ziintlungu ezininzi zesisu ezazindenza ndibe nexhala yaye ndandingaqondi.
Ngobo busuku, ephupheni, ndabona ingelosi indisa emyezweni. Zonke izityalo zenziwe mnyama.
Kodwa ndandingahoyanga kuba ndandicinga nje ukuba uYesu wayendilahlile.
Emva koko kwafika u-confessor wam.
Yandifumana ndiphaphile, yandixelela ukuba imidiliya ingumkhenkce.
Ndandikhathazeke kakhulu xa ndicinga ngabantu abahluphekayo kwaye ndandisoyika ukuba uYesu angandibuyisela kwimeko yam yesiqhelo ukuze ndikwazi ukohlwaya ngokukhululekileyo.
Kodwa ngale ntsasa ufikile uYesu wandibuyisela kwisimo sam sesiqhelo. Ndathi xandimbona ndamxelela:
"Nkosi, wenze ntoni izolo? Awundixelelanga nto ngayo.
Ngendikucele ukuba usirhoxise esi sohlwayo, noko asiyinxenye.
UYesu waphendula wathi:
"Ntombi yam bekunyanzelekile ukuba ndikugcine kude, kungenjalo ubundibambile ndingakhululekanga.
Beside, kukangaphi ndingayenzanga lento ubuchasile?
Ngenxa yokuba umntu akafuni ukuqaphela amalungelo oMdali wakhe ».
Nangona babethetha ngesiLatini, ndandiyiqonda intsingiselo yoko babekuthetha. Ndabava ndangcangcazela ndaliva igazi lam libanda.
Ndathandaza kuYesu ukuba enze inceba.
Ndaqhubeka ndikwimeko yam ebuhlungu yokuswela.
Ubukhulu becala, uYesu wabonakala engakhange athethe nam yaye okomzuzwana nje.
Ngale ntsasa, xa ndandingekho zingqondweni, owavumayo wamnyanzela uYesu ukuba eze ngelize.
UYesu kwafuneka azibonakalise. Ukuthetha nomvuma ngentetha
enzulu kwaye ebuhlungu, wathi:
'Ufunani?'
Umfundisi wabonakala edidekile kwaye engazi ukuba athini. Ndiye ndathi:
Nkosi, mhlawumbi kungenxa yobabalo enisukuba ningaluphi na ubabalo;
UYesu wathi kuye:
Lungisa uza kuyifumana.
Unexhoba lomphefumlo kunye nawe: okukhona uhlala usondele kwingcinga kunye nenjongo, kokukhona uya kuziva womelele kwaye ukhululekile ukwenza oko ufuna ".
Ndabuza uYesu: "Nkosi kutheni ungezi?"
Waphendula wathi: “Ngaba uyafuna ukwazi ukuba kutheni?
Ndaza ndeva inkitha yamazwi ephuma kulo lonke ihlabathi, ekhwaza:
"Ukufa kuPapa!
-Lubhangise unqulo!
- Kwabulawa iicawa!
- Xhela onke amagunya:
- akukho mntu kufuneka abe ngaphezu kwethu! "
Kwaye ndive ezinye izinto ezininzi zobusathana ezinje. • INkosi yethu yongeza ngelithi:
Ntombi yam, xa athe umntu wavuma ukubabalwa, ubabalwa; xa ethe walungisa ububi, wamkela ububi;
Onke la mazwi niwevayo afika etroneni yam kwaye oku rhoqo. Kwakhona, xa uBulungisa bam bebona loo ndoda
-akafuni ububi kuphela,
-kodwa ubuza ngokuzingisa.
Ke ububi bububulungisa bam bunyanzeliswa ukuba bunike.
Oko ndikwenzela ukuba baqonde ukuba bubububi na obu bubi bakubo.
Uyabazi ngokwenene ububi xa ukubo. Yingakho ubulungisa bam buzama ukujezisa indoda ».
Bendikwimeko yam yesiqhelo.
Nje ukuba ndibone uYesu wam othandekayo, wathi kum:
“Uxolo lubeka zonke iinkanuko ngolungelelwano.
Kodwa yintoni eyoyisayo phezu kwayo yonke into, imisela okulungileyo ngokupheleleyo emphefumlweni kwaye ingcwalise yonke into?
Kubunyulu benjongo ,
oko kukuthi, ukwenza yonke into ngenjongo yokukholisa uThixo.
Ukusulungeka kwenjongo
- alawule kwaye alungise izimilo ngokwazo, kubandakanywa nokuthobela.
- ufana nomfundisi okhokela umculo womoya womphefumlo. "Oko kwatshoyo, wanyamalala ngesantya sokukhanya.
Bendiwushiyile umzimba wam.
UYesu osikelelekileyo wayesezandleni zam kwaye sasiphakathi kwabantu abaninzi. Ngeentonga, amakrele neemela, abantu bazama ukuwonakalisa uMzimba kaYesu, nangona babesenza konke okusemandleni abo, abazange bakwazi ukuwenza.
Nangona zaziphuhliswe kakuhle, izixhobo zabo zazingasenamandla okwenzakalisayo.
Mna noYesu sazisola kakhulu xa sibona ubundlavini bezi ntliziyo.
Nangona imigudu yabo ingazange iphumelele, baphinda-phinda benethemba lokuphumelela. Ukuba abazange bamenzakalisa uYesu, kwakungenxa nje yokuba babengenakumenzakalisa.
Bacaphuka kakhulu ngenxa yokuba izixhobo zabo zazingasebenzi yaye abazange bakwazi ukwanelisa umnqweno wabo wokumenzakalisa uYesu.
Kutheni singenakuyenza?
Kwezinye iimeko besinokufikelela kuye, kodwa ngoku, ngoxa esezingalweni zalo mfazi, asinakumenza nto.
Makhe sibone ukuba singamlimaza na lo mfazi, sohlukane.
Njengoko babethetha oku, uYesu wazishiya ezingalweni zam waza wabanika inkululeko yokwenza unothanda.
Ngaphambi kokuba bandibeke izandla, ndathi:
"Nkosi, ndinikela ubomi bam ngenxa yeCawa kunye noloyiso lwenyaniso. Nceda wamkele idini lam."
UYesu walamkela idini lam, baza bona,
-ngoncedo lwekrele;
- wathatha ukusika intamo yam.
Kodwa, njengoko besenza, ndabuyela emzimbeni wam.
Ndandicinga ukuba ndifikelele kwinqanaba leminqweno yam (yokufa). Kodwa, ukuphoxeka kwam, yonke into iye yayeka.
Emva kokuchitha iintsuku zokugqibela kubuhlwempu nasekubandezelekeni kukaYesu, ngale ntsasa ndiye ndazifumanisa ndingaphandle komzimba wam nomntwana onguYesu ezandleni zam.
Ndithe ke ndakumbona, ndathi kuye: "Ah! Yesu othandekayo, ekubeni undishiyile. Ubuncinane ndifundise indlela yokuziphatha kule meko.
- ukungahoywa kunye - ukunika.'
Waphendula wathi:
"Intombazana yakho.
-Yonke into oyiva ubunzima ezingalweni zakho, emilenzeni nasentliziyweni,
-Yidibanise kwiimbandezelo zam
kumanxeba eengalo, imilenze kunye nentliziyo yam ngelixa ndicengceleza ezintlanu "Uzuko kuBawo ".
Kwaye uzinikele kubulungisa bukaThixo ngokuziphindezela
- izenzo ezimbi e
- iminqweno emibi yezidalwa
uzimanya nawe kwinto endayinyamezelayo ngenxa yesithsaba sam sameva.
Yenza ngokucengceleza ezintathu "Uzuko kuBawo"
ehlawulela izono ezenziwe ngumntu ngamandla akhe amathathu,
abaye bagqwetheka kakhulu
ukuba uMfanekiso wam ekuye awunakubonwa .
Ngalo lonke ixesha ejonge
-ukugcina intando yakho imanyene neyam e
-Ndithande ngamaxesha onke.
Ngamana inkumbulo yakho ingafana nentsimbi ehlala ikhala kuwe,
ndiyakukhumbula
- yonke into endiyenzileyo kwaye ndibandezelekile ngenxa yakho kwaye
-Izibabalo ezininzi endikwenzele zona.
Enkosi kwaye ube nombulelo:
umbulelo ngundoqo ekuvuleni ubuncwane bobuthixo. Vumela ingqondo yakho icinge ngenye into :
jonga nje uThixo .
Ukuba uyayenza,
-Ndiya kufumana umfanekiso wam kuwe kwaye
-Ndiya kufumana ulwaneliseko endingenako ukulufumana kwezinye izidalwa.
Oku kufuneka ukwenze rhoqo kuba,
ukuba ityala liyaqhubeka;
ulwaneliseko kufuneka kwakhona ".
Ndathi, "Awu! Nkosi! Indlela endandimbi ngayo! Ndandizicingela.
Ntombi yam, musa ukoyika;
Xa umphefumlo undenzela yonke into, ndiyayamkela into oyenzayo. Ndikwazamkela iintuthuzelo neentuthuzelo azifumanayo ngokungathi uzinikwe kuMzimba wam obandezelekileyo.
Kwakhona, ukukukhulula kuwo onke amathandabuzo,
- nanini na uziva uthuthuzelekile e
-ukuba uziva ufuna ukuyamkela le nto, yenzele Mna kwaye uthi:
“Nkosi, ndifuna ukuthuthuzela uMzimba wakho obandezelekileyo
kwangelo xesha apho owam umzimba uthuthuzeleka”.
Ndithe ndisatsho wabe ecothoza ephuma ecaleni kwam, ndade andambona ndabe ndingasathethi naye.
Ukumka kwakhe kwandivisa ubuhlungu obungathethekiyo ndade ndangathi ndiqhawuka.
Ukuze ndimfumane, ndangena kwigumbi awayevalelwe kulo. Apho ndathi kuye: Ah! Ndoda! undishiyeleni?
Awungobomi bam?
Umphefumlo wam kunye nomzimba wam ubuthathaka kakhulu ukuba ungathwala intlungu yokuvinjwa Wena.
Ndiziva ngathi ndiyafa. Oku kufa kuphela kwentuthuzelo yam. "
Ndathi ndisathetha, uYesu wandisikelela, waphinda wathi shwaka. Ndiye ndabuyela esiqhelweni.
Ndandikwimeko yam yesiqhelo xa, andazi ukuba njani, ndabona uYesu wam othandekayo kum.
Wathi endibona ndimangalisiwe, wathi kum.
“Ntombi yam, abo bathe bandicaphukisa bayawugqwetha umfanekiso wam kubo.
Isono siyawubulala umphefumlo: sifile kuko konke okungcwele.
Ukuba, kwelinye icala, umntu usebenzisa ingqiqo yakhe ukuze andizukise, ndinokuthi kuye: "Ungamehlo am, iindlebe zam, umlomo wam, izandla zam neenyawo zam".
Ngoko ke inxulunyaniswa nentshukumo yam yokuyila.
Ukuba uthe, endizukisa nje ngengqiqo yakhe, uyakwazi ukubabekela bucala iimbandezelo;
-ukwaneliseka e
-ukulungisa,
ikwanxulunyaniswa nesenzo sam sokuhlangula.
Kwaye ukuba uthe wazinikela ngakumbi ekwenzeni kwam kuye, uzibandakanya nesenzo sam sokungcwaliswa.
Ke ngoko, konke endikufezileyo eNdalweni, ekukhululweni nasekungcwalisweni,
Ndifaka ukuthatha inxaxheba emphefumlweni.
Yonke into ikhona ukuba umphefumlo uhambelana nesenzo sam kuyo.
Ndithe ndisekwimeko yam yesiqhelo ndawushiya umzimba wam ndambona umntwana onguYesu. Wayephethe ikomityi ezele yimbandezelo kunye nentonga ezandleni zakhe.
Athi kum:"Uyabona ke ntombam ilizwe lindisela ngokuqhubekayo kule ndebe yembandezelo".
Ndaphendula ndathi: “Nkosi, ndinike oku kubandezeleka, ukuze ungabi wedwa obandezelekileyo.”
Wandinika le drink ikrakrayo.
UPpuis, ngentonga awayeyibambe esandleni sakhe, wayichukumisa intliziyo yam, esenza umngxuma kuyo.
Kulo mngxuma kwaphuma intwana yesi siselo sikrakrayo endisityileyo. Kodwa esi siselo sasijike saba lubisi olumnandi olwaluthontsizela emlonyeni woMntwana uYesu, lumkhulula yaye lumhlaziya.
Wathi kum:
"Ntombi yam, ukuba, xa ndinika ubukrakra kunye nembandezelo emphefumlweni, idibanisa nentando yam, ndiyayithanda."
Ukuba kunjalo
-enkosi ngokubandezeleka kwakho,
- ubanikela kum njengesipho,
kwaye oku nokuba ezi mbandezelo kunye neentlungu zihlala kuye, zitshintshe kum ngobubele nangobumnandi.
Ukuba, ukusebenza kunye nokubandezeleka, umphefumlo
- zama nje ukundikholisa,
- ngaphandle kokucela nawuphi na umvuzo,
iyandonwabisa kwaye iyandihlaziya nangakumbi.
Into eyenziwa ngumphefumlo
othandekayo entliziyweni yam ,
eyona intle emehlweni am kwaye
oyena usondelene kakhulu noBuThixo,
kukuzingisa kule ndlela yokwenza izinto.
Emva koko iba yinto engaguqukiyo kokungaguquki okufanayo kukaThixo.
Ukuba, ngokuchaseneyo, umphefumlo uthi 'ewe' kanye kwaye 'hayi' omnye.
Ukuba ujonge injongo ethile ngeli xesha kunye nelinye inqaku kwixesha elizayo.
Ukuba namhlanje uzama ukukholisa uThixo aze ngomso azame ukukholisa izidalwa, ngoko umphefumlo uyafana
-kukumkanikazi ngenye imini e
- kumkhonzi okhohlakeleyo ngosuku olulandelayo;
-kumntu odla ngolunye usuku ngokutya okumnandi kwaye ngosuku olulandelayo kunye nokutya. "
Emva koko wanyamalala.
Kungekudala wabuya, wongeza:
"Ilanga likhona ukuze kuxhamle wonke umntu, kodwa ayinguye wonke umntu oxhamlayo kwimiphumo yalo.
Ngokufanayo, ilanga likaThixo linika wonk’ ubani ukukhanya kwalo, kodwa ngubani onandipha imiphumo yalo eyingenelo?
Ngubani ogcina amehlo abo evuleleke ekuKhanyeni kweNyaniso? Uninzi lwabo luhlala ebumnyameni.
Kuphela abo banenjongo eqinileyo yokundikholisa bavuya ngokuzeleyo kweli langa.
Ndithe, ndiphumile emzimbeni wam, ndaza ndambona ukumkanikazi wezulu, ndaqubuda ezinyaweni zakhe, ndathi kuye:
Umama wam othandekayo, kweyiphi imeko embi endizifumana ndikuyo, ndihluthwe ekuphela kobuncwane bam, boBomi bam. Andazi ukuba zeziphi iingcwele endizinikezele kubo.
Bendilila ke mna.
INtombi Enyulu yayivula Intliziyo yayo njengoko ibhokisi yayivulwa. Wezisa khona uMntwana uYesu, wamnika mna, esithi:
"Ntombi yam, musa ukukhala, obu bubutyebi bakho, uBomi bakho kunye nayo yonke into yakho .
Yithabathe, uyigcine kuwe ngonaphakade kwaye ugcine amehlo akho ejonge kuye kuwe.
Musa ukuba neentloni xa engakuxeleli nto okanye ukuba awunanto yokumxelela.
Gcina nje amehlo akho ejonge kuye kuwe kwaye
uya kumamela yonke into, uya kwenza yonke into kwaye uya kwaneliseka kuyo yonke into.
"Obu bubuhle bobomi bangaphakathi bomphefumlo:
akanyanzelekanga ukuba athethe kwaye akadingi mfundo; akukho nto yangaphandle emtsalayo okanye imphazamisayo.
Konke okumtsalayo kunye nazo zonke izinto zakhe zingaphakathi kuye. Ngokujonga nje kuYesu kuye, uqonda yonke into kwaye wenza yonke into.
Ngokwenjenjalo, uya kukhwela encotsheni yeKalvari apho uya kumbona uYesu, kungekhona njengomntwana, kodwa njengoMnqamlezo. Uya kuhlala naye khona.
Ngomntwana onguYesu ezandleni zakhe kunye neqela leNtombi Enyulu, kwakubonakala ngathi sihamba endleleni eya eKalvari.
Ngeli xesha, umntu othile wazama ukuhlutha uYesu kum.
Ndakhala kuKumkanikazi waseZulwini ndicela uncedo, ndisithi:
"Mama wam ndincede, kuba bafuna ukundihlutha uYesu".
Uphendule wathi:
Musani ukoyika. Umsebenzi wenu kukuba nijonge kuye amehlo enu angaphakathi ;
umntu okanye ububi, uya koyiswa.
Siqhubeleka nohambo lwethu, safika kwicawa ekwakubhiyozelwa kuyo uMthendeleko oNgcwele.
Ngexesha lomthendeleko ndasondela esibingelelweni ndiphethe uMntwana onguYesu ezingalweni zam.
Ndothuka kakhulu xa, ngoko nangoko emva kokufumana umamkeli-zindwendwe, uYesu wathi shwaka ezingalweni zam. Kungekudala emva koko, ndabuyela emzimbeni wam.
Ngale ntsasa, ndikhathazeke kakhulu kukungabikho kuka Yesu wam othandekayo.
Ndathi ndakumjonga, wathi kum, ngokungathi ndichaza intsingiselo yalo mbonakaliso:
"Ntombi yam, yini na ukuba ube neentloni ngokuba ndiyiNkosi yakho ngokupheleleyo? Xa umphefumlo ukwazi ukundenza iNkosi yengqondo yakhe, iingalo zakhe, intliziyo yakhe neenyawo zakhe, ngokufutshane, umphefumlo wakhe uphela, isono. akasenakuphinda abe ngukumkani phezu kwakhe.
Nangona kukho into engenakuzikhethela, ngokukhawuleza ulungele ukuhlanjululwa kwaye ngokukhawuleza uyala isenzo esingenakuzikhethela, kuba ndiyiNkosi yalo mphefumlo kwaye ihlala iphantsi kolawulo lwam.
Ngaphezu koko, ekubeni ndingcwele, umphefumlo ukufumanisa kunzima ukugcina ngaphakathi kuwo into engeyiyo
ayingcwele. Ngaphezu koko, ekubeni umphefumlo undinike yonke into ngexesha lobomi bakhe, kulungile ukuba ndimnike yonke into ekufeni kwakhe, ndivume ngaphandle kokulibazisa kumbono we-beatific.
Nabani na ozinikela ngokupheleleyo kuM ngexesha lobomi bakhe akayi kuchukunyiswa ngamadangatye entlambululo-miphefumlo.
Bendikwimeko yam yesiqhelo. UYesu wam othandekayo weza waza wandenza ukuba ndive iLizwi laKhe elimnandi, lindixelela: “Okukhona umphefumlo uzihluba izinto zendalo, kokukhona ufumana izinto ezingaphaya kwendalo nezingcwele.
Okukhona ezihluba uthando lwakhe lobuqu, kokukhona eluzuza ngakumbi uthando lukaThixo, kokukhona elulangazelela ngakumbi ulwazi lwenzululwazi yoluntu nokusukela iziyolo.
emhlabeni, kokukhona ezuza ulwazi lwezinto zasezulwini nokulunga.”
Ndandikhathazeke kakhulu kwaye ndiphantse ndaphambana ngenxa yokungabikho kukaYesu wam othandekayo.Ndandingazi apho ndikhoyo: emhlabeni okanye esihogweni.
Ngequbuliso, uYesu wabonakala kum waza wathi kum:
"Nabani na ohamba ngendlela yokulunga uphila ubomi bam. Nabani na ohamba ngendlela yobugwenxa uphila ngokuphikisana nam".
Wanyamalala wabuya ngokukhawuleza wongeza:
“Ngokuzalwa kwam, uBuntu bam bumiliselwe kubuThixo bam.
Nabani na okhangelayo
- ukuhlala umanyene nam ngokuthanda kwakhe, imisebenzi yakhe nentliziyo yakhe,
-ukuphila ubomi bakhe elinganisa obam, uyakhula kowam uBomi e
iphuhlisa uxhulumaniso endilwenzile kuBuntu bam kuBuThixo bam ngokongeza isebe kumthi woBuntu bam.
Ukuba, kwelinye icala, umphefumlo awudibani nam, awuphuhlisi isebe lawo kuBuntu bam.
Nabani na ongafuniyo ukuba kunye nam akanabo ubomi: ulahlekile kwaye uyonakaliswa.
Waphinda wanyamalala.
Emva koko ndawushiya umzimba wam ndaza ndazifumana ndingaphakathi kwigadi yerozi.
Ezinye iirozi zazintle kakhulu kwaye zenziwe kakuhle. amagqabi awo aba sisiqingatha
Ukuvula.
Ezinye iirozi zaphulukana namagqabi azo ngempepho nje encinci de kwasala isikhondo sazo kuphela.
Umfana othile, endingamaziyo, wathi kum:
« Iirozi zokuqala zimela imiphefumlo ehlala ngaphakathi.
-Le miphefumlo ibonisa ubuhle, ukuhlaziyeka kunye nokuqina okuthintela iipetals zabo (ubuhle) ukuba bawele emhlabeni.
-Inyaniso yokuba iipetali zabo zivaliwe ngesiqingatha zibonisa ukuvuleka abakwenzayo kwihlabathi langaphandle.
BenoBomi ngaphakathi kubo, baqholwe ~ ngesisa esingcwele. Njengezikhanyiso, zikhanya phambi koThixo nabantu.
" Imizuzwana epinki imele imiphefumlo engenamsebenzi: into encinci entle abayenzayo yenziwa emehlweni abo bonke.
- Amagqabi azo avuleke kakhulu afanekisela%
abangenaye uThixo nothando lwaKhe njengenjongo yabo kuphela.
-Iipetali zazo (ubuhle bazo) zincanyathiselwe ngokubuthathaka:
kamsinya nje ukuba umoya wokuzingca, ulonwabo, ukuzithanda okanye intlonipho yomntu iqala ukuvuthuza,
bayawa; kushiyeke ameva ahlaba isazela sabo.” Emva koko ndawumanya umzimba wam kwakhona.
Ndacamngca ngeyure kaPassion
- apho uYesu washiya uMama wakhe ukuya ekufeni,
- ngokuchanekileyo ngakumbi ngalo mzuzu xa uYesu noMariya besikelelana.
Ndazilungisa ezo
ongayibongiyo iNkosi ezintweni zonke, kwaye
nto leyo ede imkhubekise.
Ndaphinda ndathandazela ukuba uThixo andise iintsikelelo
-esiyidingayo
-ukusigcina elubabalweni.
Kwaye ndazama ukulungisa oko kusilelayo eluzukweni lukaThixo.
- ngenxa yokungahoywa kwezidalwa
ukumbonga uThixo kuyo yonke into.
Ndithe ndisenza oku, ndeva uYesu echukumiseka kum, esithi kum:
"Intombazana yakho,
-xa ucinga ngentsikelelo endayinika uMama,
khumbulani ukuba ndizithamsanqelisa zonke izidalwa.
Yasikelelwa yonke into:
iingcinga zabo, amazwi abo,
ukubetha kwentliziyo yabo, amanyathelo abo kunye
izenzo zabo bazenze ngenxa yam.
Ngokuqinisekileyo yonke into yayiphawulwe yintsikelelo yam.
Konke okuhle okunokwenziwa sisidalwa sele kufezekiswe buBuntu bam. Ngaloo ndlela, yonke into yayisenziwa ndim.
Waqhubeka wathi:
"Ubomi bam ngokwenene buya emhlabeni,
- hayi kuphela kwiSakramente esikelelekileyo,
-kodwa nakwimiphefumlo ehlala elubabalweni lwam.
Izidalwa azikwazi ukwamkela yonke into endiyenzileyo. Izakhono zabo zilinganiselwe.
Ndiyayithanda lento
Ngomphefumlo onjalo ndiqhubeka nokuzilungisa,
kule ndumiso yam,
kwenye, enkosi yam,
kwenye inzondelelo yam ngobungcwele bemiphefumlo;
kokunye iimbandezelo zam, njalo njalo .
Ngokomgangatho apho imiphefumlo idityaniswa kuM, ndiphuhlisa uBomi bam kubo.
Khawufane ucinge ukuba izidalwa zindibangela intlungu enjani,
ngelixa ndifuna ukwenza phakathi kwabo,
sukundihoya .
Ethubeni, uye wanyamalala ndazalisa umzimba wam.
Bendikwimeko yam yesiqhelo. Ndithe ndakumbona uYesu, wathi kum:
"Enoba iingelosi ziyakwazi ukulondoloza imiphefumlo,
benze imisebenzi yabo e
abawushiyanga lo msebenzi wawuphathiswe nguThixo.
Nangona kunjalo
-ukunyamekela kwabo,
- umdla wabo kunye
-ubukho babo,
babona imiphefumlo ilahleka, bahlala bekwindawo yabo.
Ngaba yinyaniso leyo
- kuxhomekeke kwimpumelelo okanye ukusilela kwabo,
nika uzuko olungakumbi okanye uzuko oluncinane kuThixo.
Kuba intando yabo isoloko ijoliswe ekugqityweni komsebenzi abawuphathisiweyo.
“Amaxhoba omphefumlo ziingelosi ezingabantu ezimele
-ukulungisa uluntu,
-ukucenga egameni lakhe e
-yikhusele.
Nokuba baphumelele okanye hayi kuthumo lwabo,
-abafanele baphazamise umsebenzi wabo,
- ubuncinane kungekhona ngaphambi kokuba iboniswe kubo ukusuka phezulu.
Ngale ntsasa ndibone ngaphakathi kum uYesu wam othandekayo ethweswe isithsaba sameva. Ndimbone enje, ndathi kuye:
"Nkosi yam emnandi, kutheni intloko yakho
Wawumonela umzimba wakho otyakatywayo, owawucinezelekile kangaka, uphalazwe igazi elininzi kangaka;
ude uzixhokonxele iintshaba zakho
-ukukuthwesa ngesithsaba sameva esibuhlungu kangaka?
UYesu waphendula wathi:
"Intombazana yakho,
isithsaba esinameva sineentsingiselo ezininzi .
Nangona kuninzi okuthethiweyo ngayo, kusekuninzi ekufuneka kuthethwe. Ngokungathi yayikhuphisana nomzimba wam, intloko yam yayifuna ukuba nentlungu yayo kunye nokuhamba kwayo kweGazi.
Uphawula oku, yinto ephantse ibe yinto engaqondakaliyo kwingqondo edaliweyo.
Intloko idibanisa umzimba nomphefumlo .
Ngaloo ndlela umzimba ngaphandle kwentloko awunto.
Kwanokuba kunokwenzeka ukuphila ngaphandle kwamanye amalungu, akunakwenzeka ukuba umntu aphile ngaphandle kwentloko yakhe, ekubeni iyinxalenye ebalulekileyo yendoda iphela.
Nokuba umzimba wona, nokuba wenza okulungileyo, yintloko ekhokela yonke into.
Umzimba wonke awuyonto ngaphandle kwesixhobo.
" Intloko yam kwafuneka
-Buyisela ubukumkani bam kunye neNkosi yam,
-Fumana iimfanelo ukuze
- isibhakabhaka esitsha sobabalo kunye
-amazwe amatsha enyaniso anokungena engqondweni yomntu
ukuchasa isihogo sezono kunye neenkanuko ezingcolileyo.
Ndandifuna ukuthwesa lonke uluntu
uzuko nembeko, nozuko;
Ke bendifuna kuqala ukuthwesa ubuntu bam,
-ndinesithsaba esibuhlungu sameva;
-umfanekiso wesithsaba sokungafi,
endiyibuyisele kwizidalwa ezilahlekileyo ngenxa yesono.
Kwakhona, ukuthwesa ameva kuthetha
ukuba akukho luzuko nambeko, kungekho lunameva.
Iinkanuko azinakulawulwa
okanye izidima ezifunyenweyo
ngaphandle kokonakala kwenyama nokomoya.
Amandla okwenene afunyenwe
-ngesipho sobuqu,
unamanxeba okungcungcuthekiswa nawombingelelo.
Ekugqibeleni, isithsaba sameva sithetha
-ukuba mna ndedwa ukumkani oyinyaniso kwaye
Makabe novuyo noxolo umntu ondenze ndedwa uKumkani wentliziyo yakhe.
Ndiya kumenza ukumkanikazi ebukumkanini bam.
Laa mathontsi eGazi aphuma entlokweni yam
zazalisa ingqondo yomntu ngolwazi lobukumkani bam phezu kwabo.
Ndandinokuyichaza njani indlela endivakalelwa ngayo ngenxa yamazwi kaYesu?
ndiphelelwe ngamazwi
Inene lentwana ndiyithethileyo ingathi ayihambelani nam.
Ndicinga ukuba kumele kube njalo xa sithetha ngezinto zikaThixo.
Ukusuka
-UThixo akadalwanga kwaye
-Sizizidalwa zakhe.
asikwazi ukuthetha ngaye ngaphandle kokugqogqa.
Ngelixa ndandikwimo yam yesiqhelo, ndaziva ndizele sisono kunye nobukrakra. UYesu wam othandekayo wabonakala kum njengombane.
Ndathi ndakubona, zathi shwaka izono zam.
Ndingcangcazela, ndathi kuye: “Nkosi, kunokwenzeka njani ukuba phambi kwakho, xa ndithe ndaziqonda ngakumbi izono zam, kwenzeka okwahlukileyo koko?
Waphendula wathi:
“Ntombi yam, uBukho bam bulwandle olungenamida.
Ngubani oza kuBukho Bam
lifana nethontsi lamanzi elingena elwandle. Ndazi njani ukuba inodaka okanye icacile xa igalelwe elwandle lwam?
Ukuchukumisa kwam ubuThixo kucoca yonke into, kwenza kube mnyama into emhlophe. Yini na ukuba woyike?
Ngapha koko, iWill yam ilula.
Kuba uhlala usenza intando yam, hlala kolu khanyiso:
iyatshintsha
- iintlungu zakho, ukuswela kwakho kunye - neembandezelo zakho kukutya kokukhanya komphefumlo wakho.
Ekuphela kwesondlo esibalulekileyo esinika ubomi bokwenyani yintando yam.
Ngaba awuyazi ukuba oku kudla ngokuqhubekayo kokukhanya kwenza iziphene ezifunyanwa ngumphefumlo ziphele?
Oko watshoyo, wanyamalala.
Ndaqhubeka kwimeko yam yesiqhelo, ndibona uYesu wam othandekayo kumathutyana nje amafutshane. Wathi kum:
“Ntombi yam, uyasazi ukuba yintoni na isono?
Sisenzo sentando yomntu
kwenziwa ngokuchasene nentando kaThixo.
Yiba nomfanekiso wabahlobo ababini abangaboni ngasonye:
Ukuba ukungavisisani kwabo kuncinane, kunokutshiwo ukuba ubuhlobo babo abugqibelelanga ngendlela ebebufanele ukuba bube yiyo.
-Banokuthi bathandane kwaye baphikisane njani ngaxeshanye?
Uthando lokwenene lufuna
-hlala kwintando yomnye,
- kwanangexabiso lamadini.
Ukuba ukungavisisani kunzulu, abasengabahlobo kodwa baziintshaba. Sinjalo ke isono.
Ukuchasa intando kaThixo, nakwizinto ezincinci. Kufana nokuba lutshaba lukaThixo.
Isidalwa sisoloko singunobangela weengxabano ezinjalo. "
Ndandikhe ndathetha no- confessor wam ngoloyiko lwam
-ukuba imeko yam yexhoba ihambelana okanye ayihambelani nentando kaThixo e
-ukuba, ukuqinisekisa oku, akufuneki ndizame ukulishiya eli lizwe, ukubona ukuba ndingakwazi.
Ummeli wam, ngaphandle kobunzima bakhe obuqhelekileyo, wandixelela:
"Kulungile, ngomso uzozama."
Ndaziva ngathi ndikhululwe kumthwalo. Umbingeleli
wabhiyozela uMthendeleko oNgcwele. Ndakuba ndifumene umthendeleko, ndabona uYesu wam othandekayo kum, Enezandla ezidityanisiweyo, Wandijonga wacela inceba noncedo. Ngelo xesha, ndawushiya umzimba wam.
Ndazibona ndikwigumbi apho kwakukho umfazi ohloniphekileyo nohloniphekileyo, okhubazekileyo kwaye elele ebhedini.
Iheadboard yebhedi yakhe yayiphakame kangangokuba yafikelela eluphahleni.
Ndanyanzelwa ukuba ndime phezu kwale bhodi, ndixhaswe ngumfundisi, ukuze ibhedi ihlale izinzile yaye ndigade umguli.
Ngoxa ndandikwesi sikhundla, ndabona unqulo
- jikeleza ibhedi e
-ukulungiswa konyango lwesigulane.
Bathetha omnye komnye ngobukrakra obukhulu.
“Ugula kakhulu, uyagula!
Ukushukuma nje okuncinci ebhedini kuya kwanela. "
Ndagxila ekubambeni intloko yebhedi ndiqinise
kuba besoyika ukuba ukushukuma kwebhedi kungadala ukufa kweli nenekazi.
Ndibone ukuba le meko iqhubeka, kwaye ndicaphukiswa kukungenzi nto, ndathi kulowo undibambe:
"Ngovelwano, mandiphoxe; akukho nto ndiyenzayo apho kwaye andimncedi. Kuthetha ukuthini ukuhlala ngolo hlobo?
Ezantsi, ndandinokumkhonza ndize ndimncede.” Umfundisi waphendula wathi:
"Awuvanga na ukuba ukushukuma kancinci kwebhedi kunokuyenza ibe mandundu imeko yakhe? Ukuba ndingakuyeka wehle soze kubekho mntu uzinzisayo ibhedi asweleke."
Ndathi, "Ingaba ngokwenza nje le nto ndikwazi ukuthintela ukufa kwakhe? Ngezulu, ndibeke phantsi!"
Emva kokuba ewaphindaphinde la mazwi izihlandlo ezininzi, wandiwisa ndingasabambi mntu.
Ndasondela kwesosigulana, ndothuka ndazisola ndayibona ibhedi ishukuma.
Ubuso bakhe bujike baba lusizi.
Wangcangcazela wazivalela iindudumo zokufa.
Iqaqobana lezenkolo elalikho laqalisa ukukhala lisithi: “Lishiywe lixesha, lisekupheleni kokuphefumla”.
Emva koko iintshaba, amajoni kunye namagosa angena egumbini ukuze abethe umfazi ogulayo. Nangona wayegula kakhulu, wavuka waza, ngenkalipho nangesidima esikhulu, wathi uza kubethwa aze onxwelerheke.
Ndithe ndakukubona oku, ndangcangcazela okwegqabi, ndaza ndathi ngaphakathi kum: “Ndim unobangela wazo zonke ezi zinto;
Ndaqonda ukuba lo mfazi ufuzisela iBandla, ekhubazekile kumalungu akhe kunye nezinye izinto ezininzi (ekungekho mfuneko yokuba ndizikhankanye, njengoko intsingiselo icacile koko ndikubhalileyo).
Emva koko, ngaphakathi kwam, uYesu wathi:
"Ukuba ndikunqumamisa ngokusisigxina, iintshaba zam ziyakuqala ukuphalaza igazi leCawe yam".
Ndaphendula ndathi: "Nkosi, asikuko ukuba andifuni ukuhlala kule meko. Izulu alindivumeli ukuba ndirhoxe kwi-Will yakho, nokuba ngumzuzwana. Ukuba ufuna ukuba ndihlale, ndiya kuhlala, kungenjalo kuya kuba njalo. uzakuhamba."
UYesu uyaqhubeka:
"Ntombi yam, ukuba umchazi wakho uyakukhulula ngokuthi:
"Kulungile, ngomso uzozama.", Indima yakho njengexhoba iya kuphela.
Kungokuthobela kuphela athi umntu abe lixhoba lomphefumlo.
Ukuba kuyimfuneko, ndiya kwenza ummangaliso wobuSomandla bam ukukhanyisela lowo ukukhokelayo.
Ngovuyo ndabandezeleka, kodwa kukuthobela uBawo endimthandayo okwandenza ixhoba.
Wayefuna ukuba zonke izenzo zam ziphawulwe ngetywina lokuthobela. "
Ukubuyela emzimbeni wam, bendisoyika ukushiya imeko yam yexhoba, kodwa ndakhawuleza ndathi:
"Yena apha.me ekhokelwa yintobeko kufuneka acinge ngayo. Ukuba iNkosi indifuna, ndilungile."
Bendikwimeko yam yesiqhelo. Ndandicinga ukuba ukuba iNkosi yayingafiki, kwakuza kufuneka ndizinyanzele ukuze ndibone enoba, ubuncinane, ndandinokuphumelela kusini na.
Ufikile uYesu wam.
Wandibonisa ukuba logama nje ndifuna ukuhlala kwimeko yexhoba, unditsalela kuye ngendlela yokuba ndingakwazi ukumka.
Kwaye ukuba ndifuna ukulishiya eli lizwe, uyarhoxa aze andishiye ndikhululekile ukuba ndenze njalo.
Mna ke bendingayazi ukuba mandithini ndathetha ngaphakathi.
"Ndingathanda njani ukubona umchazi wam kwaye ndimbuze ukuba ndenze ntoni. Emva kwexeshana ndabona iNkosi yethu kunye nomvuma wam.
Ndathi kuye: “Ndixelele ukuba kufuneka ndihlale, ewe okanye hayi.
Njengoko besenditshilo, ndiyaqonda ukuba umchazi-tyala wam uye wawurhoxisa umyalelo awayendinike wona ngezolo. Ngoko nangoko, ndagqiba kwelokuba ndihlale, ndicinga ukuba ukuba yinyani ukuba uwurhoxisile lo myalelo, kulungile.
Kwaye ukuba bendikhe ndacinga ukuba uthathe umhlala-phantsi, isigqibo sam besingalunganga. Ngoko xa u-confessor wam weza waza wathi mandizame ngenye imini, ndazola.
Wabuya kwamsinya emva koko, wasikelelwa uYesu wathi kum:
“Ntombi yam, ubuhle bomphefumlo elubabalweni bukhulu kangangokuba uThixo ngokwakhe uyawuthanda.
Iingelosi nabangcwele bayamangaliswa kukubona lo mmangaliso mkhulu.
Babalekela kulo mphefumlo usaphilayo emhlabeni kodwa uphethe ubabalo.
Betsalwa sisiqhumiso saso sasezulwini nangenxa yolonwabo lwabo olukhulu, kulo mphefumlo bafumana kwaloo Yesu mnye wabavuyisayo eParadisi.
Kangangokuba uyathanda ukuba nalo mphefumlo njengokuba uhlala eZulwini.
"Yintoni egcina lo mmangaliso unikezelwa rhoqo emphefumlweni,
-ngemithunzi emitsha yobuhle, obu bubomi kwintando yam.
Izinto
- Ususa amabala angafezekanga emphefumlweni e
- ingaba imnika ulwazi lwento anayo? Intando yam.
Yintoni eyomelezayo kwaye izinzise umphefumlo, iwugcine uqinisekisiwe elubabalweni? Intando yam.
Ukuphila kwintando yam yeyona nto iphakamileyo yobungcwele . Ikhokelela kwinguquko eqhubekayo yobabalo.
Kodwa nabani na owenza intando yam namhlanje kunye nentando yakhe ngomso ayinakuqinisekiswa ngobabalo: uqhubela phambili kwaye arhoxe.
Ubuhlungu kakhulu umphefumlo wakhe
Oku kuhlutha uzuko lukaThixo nomphefumlo wakhe.
Kufana nomntu osisityebi ngenye imini aze abe lihlwempu ngenye imini. Akuqinisekwa ngobutyebi okanye kubuhlwempu.
Akukho mntu unokuchaza ukuba kuya kuba njani. "
Emva koko wanyamalala. Kungekudala emva koko wafika u-confessor wam.
Ndamxelela into endiyibhalileyo wandiqinisekisa ukuba ngenene uwurhoxisile umyalelo ebendiwunike wona.
Ngokuthobela u-confessor wam, ngoku ndiza kuqhubeka ndithetha ngezinto endandiziqonda nge-24 kaOktobha.
Inkosikazi yayifuzisela iBandla.
Ukhubazekile kungeyedwana kodwa kumalungu akhe.
Kwanokuba uqubuda phantsi, uphathwa kakubi ziintshaba zakhe yaye ukhubazeke emilenzeni yakhe, akaze aphulukane nesidima nemeko yakhe ebekekileyo.
Ndayiqonda loo nto
-inyaniso yokuba umfazi elele ebhedini yayithetha ukuba,
Nangona icinezelwe, ikhubazekile kwaye ihlaselwa ziintshaba zayo, iBandla liphumle ekuphumleni okungunaphakade.
- enoxolo nonqabiseko esizalweni sikayise sikaThixo;
- njengomntwana esiswini sikanina.
Kwakhona ndaqonda ukuba i-headboard eyayifikelela eluphahleni yayifuzisela inkuselo yobuthixo eyayisoloko ixhasa iCawa.
Yonke into eseCaweni iza kuye ivela eZulwini :
- iisakramente,
- imfundiso e
-bonke abanye.
Yonke into isezulwini, ingcwele kwaye inyulu.
Kukho unxibelelwano oluqhubekayo phakathi kweZulu neCawa.
Ngokuphathelele abambalwa bonqulo abancedisa eli bhinqa, ndiyayiqonda
ababemele aba bantu bambalwa
abathi, ngokubeka ubomi babo esichengeni, bakhusele iBandla;
ubandezeleka ebubini abufumanayo ngokungathi bubobakhe.
Igumbi elalihlala eli nenekazi, elenziwe ngamatye, limelwe
-ukomelela kweBandla e
- ukuzingisa kwakhe ekungawancamiyo nawaphi na amalungelo akhe.
Ibhinqa elifayo livuma ngesibindi ukubethwa ziintshaba zalo
ibonisa ukuba iBandla,
-nokuba kubonakala ngathi kufa,
uziphatha ngokungenaloyiko okukhulu.
Ukubandezeleka kunye negazi elaphalalayo kubonakalisa umoya wakhe wokwenyani: uhlala ekulungele ukuxhatshazwa, njengoYesu Krestu.
Ndandikwimeko yam yesiqhelo kwaye okwethutyana ndabona uYesu wam othandekayo.
Wathi kum:
"Intombazana yakho,
kuhle kwaye kuyancomeka ukwamkela ukungcungcuthekiswa kunye nokubandezeleka
- njengezohlwayo kwaye - njengesohlwayo. Kodwa le asiyondlela kaThixo yokwenza izinto.
Kuninzi endikwenzileyo kwaye ndibandezelekile kakhulu.
Kodwa eyona njongo yam yayiluThando lukaBawo nolwabantu.
Kulula ukubona ukuba isidalwa senza kwaye sibandezeleke ngendlela kaThixo:
luthando kuphela olusemva kwezenzo zakhe kunye nokubandezeleka.
Ukuba kukho ezinye izizathu, nokuba zilungile, kungenxa yokuba isebenza kwinqanaba lezidalwa. I-merit ayifumanayo ngoko kanye
- ukuba isidalwa sinokufumana kwaye
- Andifanelanga ukuba nguThixo.
Ukuba ithatha indlela yam yokwenza, umlilo wothando
ukutshabalalisa zonke iiyantlukwano nokungalingani kuyo e
uya kuyinyibilikisa kumsebenzi omnye wendalo, naleyo yeyam.
Ngale ntsasa uYesu wam othandekayo ubonakale kum ngaphakathi enziwe inyama. Ejonge kum, wathi:
“Ntombi yam xa ndibona ukuba umphefumlo ufanelekile kwiinjongo zeNdalo yam, ndiye ndoneliseke kuba ndibona kuye ukuba umsebenzi wam uyifezekisile injongo yawo, ndiziva ndibophelelekile kuye.
"Ukuphila kwintando yam kukuphela kobungcwele kwaye kukhokelela kwinguquko eqhubekayo yobabalo. Kodwa nabani na owenza intando yam namhlanje kunye nentando yakhe ngomso ayinakuqinisekiswa ngobabalo: uqhubela phambili kwaye arhoxe.
Oku kubangela umonakalo omkhulu emphefumlweni wakhe.
Oku kuhlutha uzuko lukaThixo nomphefumlo wakhe.
Kufana nomntu osisityebi ngenye imini aze abe lihlwempu ngenye imini. Akuqinisekwa ngobutyebi okanye kubuhlwempu.
Akukho mntu unokuchaza ukuba kuya kuba njani. "
Emva koko wanyamalala. Kungekudala emva koko wafika u-confessor wam. Ndamxelela into endiyibhalileyo kwaye.
Wandiqinisekisa ukuba uwurhoxisile ngokwenene umyalelo awayendinike wona.
Ngokuthobela u-confessor wam, ngoku ndiza kuqhubeka ndithetha ngezinto endandiziqonda nge-24 kaOktobha.
Eli bhinqa lalifanekisela iCawa .
Ukhubazekile kungeyedwana kodwa kumalungu akhe.
Kwanokuba uqubuda phantsi, uphathwa kakubi ziintshaba zakhe yaye ukhubazeke emilenzeni yakhe, akaze aphulukane nesidima nemeko yakhe ebekekileyo.
Ndabe ndiqonda ukuba lo mama ulele ebhedini
bendithetha ukuba,
nokuba uthe wacudiswa, wafe umzimba, wabethwa ziintshaba zakhe;
-Icawe iphumle ngokuphumla okungapheliyo ngoxolo nokhuseleko esibelekweni sikatata kaThixo, njengomntwana osesibelekweni sikanina.
Kwakhona ndaqonda ukuba intloko yebhedi eyafikelela eluphahleni yayiphawula inkuselo yobuthixo eyayisoloko ixhasa iCawa.
Yonke into eseCaweni iza kuye ivela eZulwini:
iisakramente, imfundiso kunye nazo zonke ezinye. Yonke into isezulwini, ingcwele kwaye inyulu.
Kukho unxibelelwano oluqhubekayo phakathi kweZulu neCawa.
Wongeza wathi:
"Isibophelelo sam kuye loloThando oluqatha ngakumbi olumvumela ukuba angcamle ulonwabo lweZulu.
Ngamanye amazwi,
Ndibondla ubulumko bakhe ngolwazi lweenyaniso ezingunaphakade,
Ndamhlaziya amehlo akhe ngobuhle bam,
Ndiphulula iindlebe zakhe ngobumnandi belizwi lam.
Ndivale umlomo wakhe nge kiss yam kwaye
Ndibamba intliziyo yakhe ngalo lonke uthando lwam.
Konke oku kuhambelana nenjongo endiyidale ngayo:
-ndazi,
-ndithanda kwaye
- Ndikhonze. "
Wanyamalala emva koko, eshiya umzimba wam, ndabona u-confessor wam.
Ndamxelela oko uYesu wayendixelele kona
Ndambuza ukuba ndisendleleni yeNyaniso na.
Waphendula wathi: “Ewe, nikwazi kakuhle ukuthetha ngoThixo. Kuba xa uThixo ethetha, weva umphefumlo;
- akagcini nje ngokubona ubunyaniso bamazwi aviweyo,
- kodwa ushukunyiswa kakhulu ngaphakathi
ukuba nguMoya kaThixo kuphela onokuba ngumbhali wala mazwi ”.
Ngale ntsasa uYesu wam othandekayo akazange eze kwaye ndaqala ukuzixelela: “Ngubani na onokuthi ukuba iNkosi yethu iyeza okanye lutshaba olufuna ukundikhohlisa.
Angathini uYesu Kristu ukundilahla ngolunya kangaka?
Njengoko ndandicinga njalo, yabonakala kum okwethutyana. Ephakamise isandla sam sasekunene kwaye ecinezela ubhontsi wam emlonyeni wam, wathi kum:
“Zola, yehlisa umoya!
Bekuya kuba kuhle ukuba umntu olibonileyo ilanga atsho
-yayingelolanga elo
-kuba nje ngalomzuzu awumboni?
Ngaba bekuya kulunga ngakumbi kwaye kusengqiqweni ngakumbi ukuba athi nje ilanga lifihliwe?
Emva koko wanyamalala. Kodwa nangona ndingazange ndimbone, ndandiziva izandla zakhe
-Ndibambe,
-chukumisa umlomo wam, ingqondo yam kunye nentliziyo yam kwakhona kwaye kwakhona. Indenze ndakhazimla.
Kodwa, ngenxa yokungawuboni, ndaqalisa ukuba namathandabuzo.
Waphinda wavela kum wongeza wathi:
Anikaneliseki nangoku?
Usengozini yokumosha umsebenzi wam kuwe. ngokuba nithandabuza, niswele uxolo.
Ndingumthombo woxolo . Nabani na
- qaphela ukuba uswele uxolo uya kuthandabuza
-ndim ke, uKumkani woxolo,
onikhokelayo ehlala kuni.
Ah! awufuni ukuba nengqiqo?
Kuyinyani ukuba ndiyenza yonke into emphefumlweni wam kwaye ngaphandle kwam akukho nto iphunyezwayo.
Kukwayinyaniso ukuba ndihlala ndishiya i-streak yenkululeko yokuzikhethela emphefumlweni wam.
Ukhathazekile, uyawaphula umanyano lwakho nam.
Emva koko kufuneka ndinqamle iingalo zam, kuba ndithintelwe ukuba ndenze nantoni na kuwe.
Kufuneka ndilinde ude ube seluxolweni kwakhona kwaye nentando yakho imanyaniswe neyam.
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