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 Umqulu 9

 

Ndizibone ndikwimeko yam yesiqhelo, ndazifumana ndingaphandle komzimba wam ndinomntwana onguYesu ezingalweni zam.

Ndathi kuye: "Khawutsho ke ntwana yam, wenza ntoni uBawo?"

 

Wathi ke yena  , UBawo unam; konke akwenzayo uBawo, ndiyakwenza. Ndathi, "Kwaye, ngabangcwele, wenza ntoni?"

 

Waphendula wathi  :

“Ndizinikela kubo ngalo lonke ixesha.

Ke, ndibubomi babo, uvuyo lwabo, ulonwabo lwabo, ukulunga kwabo okukhulu, okungapheliyo kunye nokungenasiphelo.

Bazele ngaM kwaye kukuM apho bafumana yonke into. Ndiyinto yonke kubo kwaye bayinto yonke kum".

 

Ukuva oku, ndaye ndaphelelwa ngamandla ngokumxelela:

Kwabangcwele nihlala nizinikela ngokungapheliyo.

Kodwa, kunye nam, uzinikela ngobuchule kwaye ngamaxesha athile!

Ufike apho undenza ndichithe imini ndingafikanga.

Ngamanye amaxesha ulinda ixesha elide kangangokuba ndoyika ukuba aniyi kufika kude kuhlwe.

Kwaye, emva koko, ndiphila enye yezona ziganeko zokufa zikhohlakele. Kodwa undixelele ukuba undithanda kakhulu! "

 

Waphendula wathi  :

"Ntombi yam, ndizinikela kuwe ngokungapheliyo,

- ngamanye amaxesha ngokobuqu,

- ngamanye amaxesha ngobabalo,

-ngamanye amaxesha ngokukhanya, e

- ngezinye iindlela ezininzi.

Ungatsho njani ukuba andikuthandi kakhulu?"

 

Ngelo xesha kwathi qatha ingqondo yam yokumbuza ukuba imeko yam iyahambelana na neWill yakhe. Kum kubonakala kubaluleke ngakumbi kunale nto besithetha ngayo.

wabe ebuza umbuzo.

Kodwa endaweni yokuba andiphendule uye wasondela waza wandifaka ulwimi emlonyeni, kangangokuba ndandingakwazi ukuthetha.

Bendikwazi ukumunca into qha ndingayazi ukuba yintoni. Wathi xa ekhupha ulwimi lwakhe, ndafumana ixesha lokumxelela:

Nkosi, khawuleza ubuye; ngubani na owaziyo ukuba uya kubuya nini na?

 

Wathi,   "Ndiya kubuya ebusuku." Emva koko wanyamalala.

 

Ekubeni ndandibandezelekile, kangangokuba ndandingakwazi nokushukuma, ndanxulumanisa ukubandezeleka kwam okuncinane noko kukaYesu.

 

Bendizama ukubeka ubunzulu bothando yena ngokwakhe alufaka kulo,

xa athe ngeentlungu zakhe emzukisa   uYise

- ukulungisa iimpazamo zethu e

- ukufumana zonke iimpahla.

 

Ndicinge:

"Ndiza kuqwalasela

- iimbandezelo zakhe ngokungathi zezam kwaye zenza ukufela ukholo lwam,

-Ibhedi yam ibe ngathi ngumnqamlezo wam, e

-ukuzola kwam njengeentsontelo ezindibambayo ukuba ndixabiseke ngakumbi emehlweni oMhlekazi wam oPhakamileyo.

 

Kodwa ababulali andibaboni.

Ngubani na ke umbulali wandiqwenga kangaka, wandiqwenga nje?

-hayi kum ngaphandle kuphela

-kodwa ebunzulwini bobomi bam, kangangokuba ubomi bam bubonakala bufuna ukugqabhuka?

Ah! Umbulali wam nguYesu wam endimthandayo ngokwakhe! Ngelo xesha   wathi kum  :

"Intombazana yakho,

kuluzuko olukhulu kuwe, ukuba ndingumbulali wakho. Ndiziphatha njengenene kuwe

-olungiselela ukutshata intombi yakhe e

-eya kumenza abe mhle ngakumbi kwaye amfanele ngakumbi;

akathembi mntu wumbi, nditsho nentombi yakhe.

 

Nguye ngokwakhe oyihlambayo, ayidibanise, ayinxibe kwaye ayihombise ngamatye anqabileyo kunye nedayimane. Eli liwonga elikhulu kumtshakazi. Ngaphezu koko, akufuneki akhathazeke ngemibuzo efana nale:

"Ngaba ndingathanda ukuba umyeni wam andithande okanye hayi?

Ngaba uya kuyithanda indlela endizihombise ngayo okanye uza kundithethisa njengesidenge ngenxa yokungazi ukuba mandimkholisa njani?

 

Le yindlela endiziphatha ngayo nabafazi bam endibathandayo.

Uthando endinalo ngabo lukhulu kangangokuba andithembi mntu wumbi. Ndide ndizenze umgwebi wabo, kodwa ndingumbulali wothando.

 

Nantsi indlela

ngamanye amaxesha ndiyawahlamba,

ngamanye amaxesha   ndiyazikama,

ngamanye amaxesha ndibanxibisa ukuze babe   bahle ngakumbi,

ngamanye amaxesha ndiwahombisa   ngamatye anqabileyo;

ingengabo abo bavela emhlabeni nezinto zawo ezingaphandle, kodwa abo bavela emhlabeni

-ukuba ndikhuphe ezinzulwini zomphefumlo wabo kwaye

-ezakhiwe ngokuchukumisa iminwe yam edala ukubandezeleka apho la matye avela khona.

 

Ukuchukumisa kwam kuguqulela ukuthanda kwabo kwigolide, ebonisa zonke iintlobo zezinto ezimangalisayo:

 ezona zithsaba zintle,

ezona mpahla zintle   kakhulu ,

ezona ntyatyambo zinevumba elimnandi   e

ezona ngoma zimnandi.

Njengoko ndabazala ngezam izandla, kwazezo zandla ndibalungelelanisa ukuze babe bahle ngakumbi.

 

Konke oku kwenzeka kwimiphefumlo ehluphekayo.

Ngoko ke, andinasizathu   sokuthetha oku

Ngaba le nto ndiyenzayo kuwe iliwonga elikhulu kuwe?"

 

Ndandikwimo yam yesiqhelo xa uYesu wam onobubele wathi kum ngelizwi eliphantsi:

 

"Intombazana yakho,

-Iintlungu  , iintsizi, ukuswela, iintlungu kunye neminqamlezo

niyakhonza, ngokuba ngubani na okwaziyo ukubamkela;

ukuze ndibethelele ubuNgcwele bam emiphefumlweni yabo  .

 

Kuba ngathi aba bantu bahonjiswe ngazo zonke iindidi zemibala yobuthixo. Iimbandezelo zabo ziziqholo zasezulwini ezimphefumlo wabo unuka kamnandi.”

 

Ndikwimeko yam yesiqhelo,

uYesu wam onobubele wazibonakalisa ngokufutshane kwaye wathi kum:

 

"Intombazana yakho,

ukuba umntu uthetha kakhulu, loo nto ibonisa ukuba ungenanto ngaphakathi.

 

Ngelixa lowo uzaliswe nguThixo, efumana ubumnandi obungakumbi ngaphakathi kwakhe,

- akafuni ukuphulukana nalo lonwabo kwaye

- thetha kuphela ngenxa yemfuneko.

 

Kwaye naxa ethetha,

- ungaze ushiye ingaphakathi layo e

- zama, ngokubhekiselele kuye,

ukubethelela kwabanye indlela avakalelwa ngayo kuye.

 

Kwelinye icala, lowo uthetha kakhulu

- hayi nje elilize kuThixo

-kodwa, ngamazwi akhe amaninzi, uzama ukukhupha abanye abantu bakaThixo ».

 

Njengoko ndandikwimo yam yesiqhelo, uYesu esikelelekileyo weza waza wathi kum:

“Ntombi yam, ilanga lifuzisela ubabalo.

Ukuba ufumene isithuba, nokuba ngumqolomba, umhlaba ongaphantsi komhlaba, intanda okanye umngxuma, nje ukuba kukho isithuba kunye nentunja encinci yokungena kuyo, uyangena kwaye akhukulise yonke into ngokukhanya.

 

Oku akunciphisi ukukhanya ekunika kwenye indawo.

Yaye ukuba ukukhanya kwawo akukhanyi ngakumbi, akubangelwa kukuba asinako, kodwa kungenxa yokuba asinandawo yokuwusasaza.

 

Kunjalo ngobabalo lwam:

ngaphezu kwelanga elimangalisayo, igubungela zonke izidalwa ngobuhle bayo obuyingenelo.

Nangona kunjalo, ingena kuphela ezintliziyweni apho ifumana indawo engenanto;

ubuze obuninzi obufunyanwayo   ,

ukukhanya okuninzi kuyenza   ingene.

 

Kwaye oku kungenanto, kwenziwa njani?

Ukuthobeka ngumhlakulo owemba intliziyo kwaye wenze isithuba.

Ukuzahlukanisa nayo yonke into, kubandakanywa nesiqu sakho, kukungabi nanto okugqwesileyo.

 

Ifestile yokuzisa ukukhanya kobabalo kule ndawo ingenanto

-ukuthembela kuThixo e

- ukuzithemba. Nangona intembeko inkulu,

kakhulu uvula ucango ukuze kukhanye kwaye avumele ezinye iinceba zidlule.

 

Unina

-okhusela ukukhanya kunye

- into eyenza ikhule luxolo. "

 

Ngoxa ndandikwimo yam yesiqhelo, uYesu wazibonakalisa ngokufutshane waza wathi kum:

 

"Intombazana yakho,

Akukho nto idlula uthando.

- hayi ulwazi,

-kunye nesidima, e

- nangaphantsi kobuhandiba.

Okona kulungileyo, abantu abaneenjongo ezintle abasebenzisa ezi zinto ukuze baqikelele ngam bayakwazi ukuphucula kancinane.

ulwazi lwabo ngam.

 

Kodwa yintoni ekhokelela umphefumlo ukuba undenze impahla yawo? Uthando. Yintoni ebangela ukuba umphefumlo unditye njengesitya? Uthando.

Nabani na ondithandayo uyandiqwenga kwaye ufumana ubuMnandi bam kunye nesuntswana ngalinye lobuntu bakhe.

 

Kukho umahluko nje omninzi phakathi kwabo bandithanda ngokwenene kunye nabanye (ingakhathaliseki imeko kunye nomgangatho wabo)

ukuba kukho umahluko phakathi

- lowo waziyo into exabisekileyo, uyayixabisa kwaye uyayixabisa ngaphandle kokuba ngumnini e

- ngubani umnini. Ngubani owonwabe ngakumbi:

-lowo wazi into kuphela okanye

-yintoni umnini?

Kucacile ukuba yekabani.

 

Uthando ludibanisa ulwazi kwaye luyodlula.

ithabathel’ indawo isidima yaye igqwesa zonke izidima ngokunika isidima sobuthixo. Ihlawula yonke into kwaye idlula yonke into ".

 

Ngale ntsasa, emva komthendeleko, uYesu osikelelekileyo akafikanga.

Ndayilinda lento ixesha elide phakathi kokuvuka nokulala.

 

Ndibone ukuba ilixa lidlula, waza akafika, ndafuna ukuvuka ebuthongweni;

Ndandifuna ukuhlala apho ngenxa yengcungcutheko endandiyiva entliziyweni yam kuba ndandingayiboni.

Ndaziva ngathi ndingumntwana ofuna ukulala kodwa avuswe ngenkani emva koko enze i-scene.

 

Njengoko ndandizama ukuvuka, ndathi ngaphakathi kuYesu:

“Olunjani lona ukwahlukana okukrakrayo! Ndiziva ndingenabomi ngoxa ndisaphila kwaye ubomi bam bubuhlungu ngaphezu kokufa.

Ngamana oku kuhluthwa kungabangelwa luthando kuwe,

Ngamana obu buhlungu ndibuvayo bungenxa yothando lwakho, ukuba intuthumbo ephilwa yintliziyo yam kungenxa yothando lwakho.

yanga ubomi endingabuvayo ndisaphila bungaphuma luthando ngawe.

 

Kodwa, ukuze yonke into ikholeke ngakumbi, ndidibanisa intlungu yam kunye nokuvutha kothando lwakho.

Kwaye, ndilumanyanisa uthando lwam kolwakho, ndinikela kuwe olwakho uthando    .

"Hayi indlela elimnandi kwaye limnandi ngayo inqaku loThando ezindlebeni zam! Yitsho, yitsho kwakhona, uyiphinda kwakhona,

Ndivuyise ukuva kwam ngala manqaku oThando ahambelanayo kangangokuba ehlela emazantsi eNtliziyo yam kwaye ahluthise uBume bam bonke ".

 

Nangona kunjalo ngubani onokuyikholelwa - ndineentloni zokuthetha - ekukhungathekeni kwam ndaphendula:

"Uyathuthuzeleka njengoko ndisiba buhlungu ngakumbi."

 

Wathula uYesu wam wangathi akayithandi lempendulo yam. Ngokukhawuleza nje ukuba ndivuke, ndaphindaphinda amanqaku am othando amaxesha amaninzi. Ke yena, akazange avumele ukuba abonwe okanye aviwe imini yonke.

 

Ndiye ndaqhubeka nemeko yam yesiqhelo wabe uYesu engafikanga. Nangona kunjalo, yonke imihla,

 

Ndive ngathi kukho umntu ome entla kwam endibongoza ukuba ndingaphosi nomzuzu ndithandaze ndingayeki.

Nangona kunjalo, enye ingcamango yandiphazamisa:

:

"Xa iNkosi ingezi, nithandaza ngakumbi, niba nenkathalo ngakumbi, kwaye ngaloo ndlela nimkhuthaza ukuba angezi, kuba uthi ngokwakhe:

"Njengokuba uziphatha ngcono xa ndingezi, kungcono ndimhluthe ubukho bam."

 

Kuba andizange ndikwazi ukuchitha ixesha ndiyeka kule ngcinga, ndazama ukumbakraza ucango kule ngcinga ngokuthi:

“Okukhona uYesu eqhubeka engezi, kokukhona ndiya kumbhidanisa ngothando lwam. Andifuni kumnika ithuba lokuzisola ngokuyeka ukuthandaza.

Yile nto ndinokuyenza kwaye ndiya kuyenza. Ke yena, ukhululekile ukwenza oko akufunayo ».

 

Kwaye, ngaphandle kokuyeka kubudenge bengcinga ethe yafika kum, ndaqhubeka ndisenza into ekufuneka ndiyenze.

 

Ngokuhlwa, xa ndingazange ndikhumbule ukuba le ngcamango ifike kum.

uYesu olungileyo   weza wathi kum   ephantse ukuncuma:

 

"Bravo, ndiyavuyisana nesithandwa sam esifuna ukundibhida ngothando lwaso! Kodwa ke ndifuna ukukuxelela ukuba awusoze undibhide.

Ukuba, ngamanye amaxesha, kubonakala kum ukuba ndididekile luthando lwakho, ndim okunika ithuba lokuzibonakalisa kum.

Kaloku eyona nto indivuyisa kakhulu ngezidalwa luThando lwazo.

 

Phofu ndim

-eyakwenza ukuba uthandaze,

- owathandaza nawe,

- oko akukuniki kuphumla,

ngoko yayingendim obhidekileyo, kodwa nguwe.

 

Ubhidwe luthando lwam.

Waziva njani ugcwele uthando kwaye udidekile nguye,

- ubone ukuba uthando lwam lukuzalisile kakhulu, wacinga ukuba uyandibhida ngothando lwakho.

 

Ngalo lonke ixesha uzama ukundithanda ngakumbi, ndiyayonwabela le mpazamo kwicala lakho kwaye ndonwabe nawe kunye nam. "

 

Ndidlule kwixesha elikrakra kakhulu lokuvinjwa kukaYesu wam olungileyo.

Okona kulungileyo, yayizibonakalise njengesithunzi okanye isibane sombane. Ngamaqhekeza, kwakungasekho nombane.

Ingqondo yam yayikhathazwa yile   ngcamango ilandelayo:

Hayi indlela awandishiya ngokukhohlakele ngayo   !

Inoba ibingenguye lo uzayo. Ububele bakhe ngebungayenzanga lonto kum. Ngubani owaziyo, mhlawumbi yayingumtyholi okanye ingcamango yam, okanye amaphupha. "

 

Kodwa, ngaphakathi kum,

umphefumlo wam ubungafuni ukuhoya ezi ngcinga zindikhathazayo ufuna ukuba noxolo.

 

Wayetshona nzulu ngakumbi kwintando kaThixo,

wazimela kuye, wasindwa bubuthongo obukhulu. Kwaye kwakungathandabuzeki ukuba uya kuvuka kobo buthongo.

 

Kwabonakala ukuba uYesu olungileyo umvalele kakhulu kwiWill yakhe kangangokuba akazange avumele nabani na ukuba afumane umnyango wokunkqonkqoza athi uYesu umkile.

Ngaloo ndlela, umphefumlo wam ulele kwaye uhlala unoxolo.

 

Zange ndifumane mpendulo, ingqondo yam yacinga: “Ngaba ndim ndedwa ofuna ukuxhalaba? Nam ndifuna ukuzola ndenze ukuthanda kukaThixo. Le yimeko yam yangoku.

 

Ngale ntsasa, ngelixa ndicinga ngale nto ndigqiba kuyithetha,   uYesu wam olungileyo wathi kum  :

 

"Intombi yam, ukuba bekuyintelekelelo, amaphupha okanye iidemon,

ngebebengenawo amandla aneleyo okukwenza ube nehalo yoxolo. Kwaye oku, kungekhona nje usuku olunye, kodwa ubuncinane iminyaka engamashumi amabini anesihlanu.

 

Akukho mntu wayenokukukhupha umoya woxolo olumnandi

nangaphakathi nangaphandle kwakho, luxolo olupheleleyo.

 

Ukuba uthe wafikelwa ngumoya wobubi, angabi saba nguThixo;

Ubungangamsha bakhe bube   mnyama,

ubukhulu bayo   buya kuncipha,

Amandla akhe   ebeya kuba buthathaka.

Ngamafutshane, uBuThixo bakhe bubonke buya kuzanyazanyiswa yiyo.

 

Uhlala ehlala ehleli phezu kwakho lowo unaye, ukuba ungafiki kuwe umoya wobubi.

Khumbula ukuba ngalo lonke ixesha ndifika,

Bendisoloko ndikulungisa xa kukho isijwili sengxaki kuwe.

Akhonto endizisola ngayo njengokungakubonanga unoxolo.

 

Ndakushiya wedwa emva kokuba ufumene   uxolo.

Nentelekelelo namaphupha, singasathethi ke ngosathana, akanabo obu buchule. Nokuba kuncinci abakwazi ukunxibelelana   nabanye ngolu xolo.

 

Zolani ke ngoko, ningandibuleli.

 

Ndacinga ngentlupheko enkulu yemeko yam ndaza ndathi ngaphakathi:

"Kum kuphelile ngenene! UYesu ulibele yonke into!

 

Akasazikhumbuli iimbandezelo neembandezelo endizihlalele ebhedini iminyaka emininzi ngenxa yokumthanda.”

 

Ingqondo yam yakhumbula iimbandezelo ezinkulu. UYesu olungileyo   wathi kum  :

 

"Intombazana yakho,

konke okwenziwa ngenxa yam,

ngena kuM kwaye

ijika ibe yimisebenzi yam.

 

Yaye ekubeni imisebenzi yam yenzelwe okulungileyo kubo bonke, oko kukuthi

- kubahambi abasuka ngezantsi,

-yemiphefumlo ekwindawo yentlambululo-miphefumlo e

-kwabo baseZulwini-,

zonke izinto ozenzileyo wabandezeleka ngenxa yam

-kuM kwaye

- uzalisekisa uthumo lwakhe ngokulunga kwabo bonke kunye nemisebenzi yam. Ngaba ungathanda ukuyikhumbula ngenxa yakho nje?"

 

Ndaphendula  : "Hayi, soze Nkosi!"

Ndahlala ndicinga ngayo,

ngaloo ndlela ndiphazamiseka kancinci kwizenzo zam zesiqhelo zangaphakathi.

 

UYesu olungileyo wathi kum:

"Awufuni ukuyiyeka lento? Ndizakwenza uyiyeke ngokwam."

Uye wangena ngaphakathi kum waqala wathandaza ekhwaza, ethetha yonke into endizoyithetha.

 

Ndithe ndakubona oku, ndabhideka ndalandela uYesu olungileyo.

Uthe akubona ukuba andisahoyanga kwanto.

Uye wathula ndaqhubeka nokwenza lento ndiyenza ndodwa.

 

Ndikwimeko yam yesiqhelo, ndacinga, “Ndenza ntoni apha emhlabeni?

 

Azisenamsebenzi.

Akafiki ndifana nento engenamsebenzi kuba ngaphandle kwakhe andifanelanga.

Andikhathazwa nto; kutheni ndihleli kulo mhlaba!"

 

Wabonakala kum ngokufutshane,   wathi kum:

 

“Ntombi yam, ndikubambe njengethoyi, kwaye izinto zokudlala azisoloko zibanjwa esandleni sam; zihlala zingachukumisi nokuba ziinyanga neenyanga.

 

Noko ke, xa inkosi yakhe imfuna, iyonwaba kakhulu kunye nabo.

Kwaye wena, awufuni ndibe nento yokudlala emhlabeni?

Mandonwabe nawe ngokuthanda kwakho ngelixa usemhlabeni kwaye, ngokubuyisela, ndiya kukuvumela ukuba wonwabe kunye nam eZulwini. "

 

Ekubeni ndandikwimeko yam yesiqhelo, ndacinga:

"Ngenxa yokuba uYehova uqinise ngokuqinileyo ukuba akukho ngxaki ukungena kum kwaye,

ukuba ezintweni zonke ndihlala ndinoxolo?

 

Ubonakala engathandi nto,

-nemisebenzi emikhulu,

- iimpawu zobugorha okanye ukubandezeleka okubuhlungu, ukuba uziva engenaluxolo emphefumlweni:

emva koko ubonakala ecekisekile kwaye edanile ngulo mphefumlo".

 

Ngelo xesha, ngelizwi elindilisekileyo nelinamandla, waphendula   umbuzo wam ngokuthi  :

Kuba   uxolo luphawu lobuthixo  , ngelixa ezinye iimpawu zingabantu.

Ke ngoko, nasiphi na isidima esingesiso isidima soxolo asinakubizwa ngokuba sisidima, kunoko sisidima. Yiyo loo nto uxolo lusondele entliziyweni yam.

Uxolo luphawu oluqinisekileyo lokuba umntu uyabandezeleka kwaye andisebenzele,

Kukungcamla koxolo abantwana bam abaya kulunandipha kunye nam eZulwini.”

 

Bendicinga ngalento bendiyibhalile nge 27 yenyanga edlulileyo   ndazicingela  :

 

“Mna, ebendicinga ukuba ndiyinto esezandleni zeNkosi, ngoku ndiyinto nje yokudlala!

Izinto zokudlala zenziwe ngodongwe, umhlaba, iphepha, ibhanti yerabha okanye enye

Kwaye kwanele nje ukuba basinde okanye kuvele intshukumo encinane kubo ukuze baphuke baze bathi, ekubeni bengasancedi emdlalweni, balahlwa kude.

 

Owu Nkosi yam, hayi indlela endiziva ndikhathazeke ngayo xa ndicinga ukuba ngenye imini unokundilahla!

 

Emva koko uYesu  olungileyo    wathi   kum  :

"Intombazana yakho,

musa ukuzixakekisa. Xa izinto zokudlala zenziwe ngezinto ezingento yanto kwaye zaphukile, ziyalahlwa kude.

 

Kodwa, ukuba ziyigolide, iidayimani okanye naziphi na ezinye izinto ezixabisekileyo, ziyalungiswa yaye zisoloko ziluncedo ekuzonwabiseni abo banovuyo lokuba nazo.

 

Nantsi into oyiyo kum: into yokudlala eyenziwe ngedayimani negolide esulungekileyo, kuba unomfanekiso wam kuwe kwaye ndihlawule ixabiso leGazi lam ukuze ndikuthenge. Kanjalo, uvathiswe iimbandezelo ezifana nezam.

 

Ke ngoko, awuyonto engento endinokuyilahla.

Undilahlekele kakhulu.

Ungathula, akukho ngozi yokuba ndikulahle".

 

Ndinxunguphele kakhulu ngenxa yemeko yam embi,

Ndaziva ndikruqukile emehlweni am, ndanezothe emehlweni kaThixo.

Khange ndikwazi ukuya phambili.

 

Ndandinoluvo lokuba akasafuni kundisebenzisa ukuze ndisindise ihlabathi ekohlwayweni kwaye ngenxa yoku wayeyithabathile iminqamlezo, ameva kwaye wayiphelisa yonke inxaxheba kwiPassion yakhe kunye nonxibelelwano lwakhe. Inye into endayibonayo kukuba wayeqinisekisa ukuba ndihlala ngoxolo.

 

"Thixo wam, yintoni intlungu!

Ukuba andizange ndiziphazamise ekulahlekelweni kwam umnqamlezo, ngawe nayo yonke into, ndingafa zintlungu. Ah! ukuba bekungengenxa yentando yakho eNgcwele, bendiza kurhaxwa kobuphi ulwandle lobunzima! Owu! Ndigcine ndikwintando yakho eNgcwele kwaye oku   kwanele kum”.

 

Ndandikwimeko yam yesiqhelo kwaye ndilila ndazixelela oku: “UYesu olungileyo akazange andithathele ngqalelo, neminyaka yam endiyichithe ebhedini, namadini am, nantoni na, kungenjalo ngengazange andishiye.” Ndakhala ndaza wakhala.

 

Ngaxa lithile, ndeva ukuba kuyashukuma kum ndaza ndaphelelwa zingqondo. Noko ke, nangaphandle komzimba wam, ndandisoloko ndilila.

Kuthe kusenjalo kwangathi kuvuleke umnyango ndambona uYesu, ndaziva ndicaphuka andathetha nto kuye ndaqhubeka nokulila.

 

Wathi kum:

Zolani, zolani, musani ukulila.

Ukuba uyakhala, ndiva ukuba Intliziyo yam ichukumisekile kwaye ndiphelelwa luthando ngawe!

Ngaba ufuna ukwandisa ukubandezeleka kwam ngenxa yothando lwakho?"

 

Emva koko, ngenkangeleko ezukileyo kwaye ngokungathi uhleli etroneni entliziyweni yam, wabonakala ethatha usiba wabhala.

Wajonga kum,   wathi kum  :

 

Ubone ukuba andizigqali na izinto zakho;

-kungekhona kuphela kwiminyaka yakho oyichitha ebhedini,

- yemibingelelo yakho,

- kodwa iingcinga obunazo ngam:

Ndibhala iinkanuko zenu, neminqweno yenu, nayo yonke into, kwanezo nithanda ukuzenza nokubandezeleka.

kodwa oko awukwazi kuba andikuvumeli.

 

Ndibala yonke into, ndilinganisa yonke into kwaye ndilinganisa yonke into

ukuze kungabikho nto ilahlekileyo kwaye uvuzwa ngayo yonke into. Zonke ezi zinto ndizibhalayo, ndizigcine entliziyweni yam.

 

Emva koko, andazi ukuba njani, ndazifumana ndikuYesu ngelixa ngaphambi kokuba ndibe ngaphakathi kwam.

Intloko yam ibingathi isendaweni kwaye onke amalungu am abumba umzimba wakhe.

 

Wathi kum  :

"Jonga indlela endikubamba ngayo, njengomzimba wam."

 

Emva koko wanyamalala. Emveni koko,

ndaqhubeka ndiba buhlungu ndintywizisa ngalo lonke ixesha.

 

Wathi kum  :

Isibindi, ntombam, andikulahli.

Ndihlala ndizifihlile kuba ukuba bendizibonakalisa njengakuqala, ubuya kundigcina ndihlaselwa kwaye ndingaphinde ndilohlwaye ilizwe.

 

Nam andikushiyanga phakathi.

Ngaba ulibele ukuba injani le minyaka yokugqibela yobomi bakho? I-confessor yakho ithathe iminyaka.

Awukhumbuli ukuba izihlandlo ezine okanye ezihlanu wazifumana ulwa   nam?

 

Bendifuna ukukuthatha xa undixelela ukuba akakufuni.

Ngoko ke, mna endandikulungiselele ukuba ndikuthabathe uhambe nam, kwafuneka ndikushiye. Ngenxa yoko, ufumana iminyaka yokunqumama kunye nomonde.

 

Uthando kunye nokuthobela banameva

-Vula amanxeba amakhulu kwaye wenze intliziyo yakho yophe,

kodwa yeyiphi i-vermilion evulekileyo iirozi zezona zivumba kwaye zintle.

 

Ukubona kwi-confessor yakho

-intando yakhe, uthando lwakhe kunye

- ukwesaba kwakhe ihlabathi ukohlwaywa, ndasebenzisana naye ngendlela ethile.

 

Kodwa, ukuba akukho mntu ungeneleleyo, ngokuqinisekileyo ngewungekho apha. Yiza, khalipha, ukuthinjwa akuyi kuhlala ixesha elide.

Kwaye ndiyanithembisa ukuba iyeza imini endingayi kuvumela mntu ukuba aphumelele ".

 

Ngubani onokuthi ndiqubhe koluphi ulwandle olukrakra.

Ndithuthuzelekile, kodwa ndinomvandedwa kumongo wamathambo am.

Andikhumbuli yonke lento ndingakhange ndilile, kangangoba ndithe ndisatsho kuconfessor yam inyembezi zam zazehlela kakhulu kangangokuba bendibonakala ukuba ndiyacaphuka.

Ndamxelela ngokwenene: "Nguwe unobangela wezigulo zam."

 

Ndaqhubeka ndikwimeko yam yokuxhwaleka ngenxa yokuphulukana noYesu wam olungileyo.

Njengesiqhelo, ndandixakekile ndicamngca

iiyure zothando  .

Ndandikwixesha apho   uYesu wayetyholwa ngomthi onzima womnqamlezo  .

 

Ihlabathi lonke lalikhona kum: elidlulileyo, langoku kunye nekamva.

Ingqondo yam yayibonakala ibona zonke izono zezizukulwana zonke zicinezela kwaye zityumza uYesu onobubele, ukuze, ngokubhekiselele kuzo zonke izono,

umnqamlezo wawungumququ nje, isithunzi sobunzima.

 

Ndazama ukuzigcina ndisondele kuYesu ngokuthi:

 

"Yabona, uBomi bam, Mhlekazi wam, ndiza kuhlala apha egameni labo bonke. Uyawabona onke la maza onyeliso?

Ndilapha ukuphinda ndithi kuni ndiyanisikelela egameni labo bonke.

Mangaphi amaza obukrakra, intiyo, indelelo, ukungabi nambulelo nokuswela uthando!

 

Ndifuna

i-consulates egameni labo   bonke,

ndikuthanda egameni labo   bonke,

ndiyabulela, ndiyanibulela kwaye ndiyanihlonipha egameni labo   bonke.

 

Nangona kunjalo, ukulungiswa kwam kuyabanda, kulusizi kwaye kunomda, ngelixa wena, woniweyo, awunasiphelo.

 

Ke ngoko   ndifuna ukwenza uthando lwam kunye nolungiso olungenasiphelo  . Kwaye ukubenza bangabinasiphelo, bakhulu, bangenasiphelo, ndiyamanyana

-eya kuwe,

-uBuThixo bakho,

- ukongezelela kuBawo noMoya oyiNgcwele,

kwaye ndiya kukusikelela ngeentsikelelo zakho, ndikuthande ngothando lwakho,

Ndiyakuthuthuzela ngobubele bakho,

Ndiyanizukisa kwaye ndininqula njengoko nisenza phakathi kwenu, abantu bakaThixo.”

 

Ngubani obenokuthetha yonke into ephuma kubukrelekrele bam ngoluhlobo, nokuba ndithetha izinto ezibhadlileyo.

Bendingazoyigqiba yonke ukuba bendiyithetha yonke.

 

Xa ndisenza iiyure zothando,

Ndiziva ngathi, kunye noYesu, ndiyabamkela ubukhulu bomsebenzi wakhe.

Kwaye, egameni labo bonke,

-UThixo ozukileyo,

-Ndihlala kwaye ndicela wonke umntu.

Kunzima kum ukuthetha yonke into. Kwafika ingcinga kum:

"Ucinga ngezono zabanye kwaye uthini ngezakho? Cinga ngezakho ulungise ezakho!"

Emva koko ndazama ukucinga ngobubi bam, iintsizi zam ezinkulu, ukuswela kwam uYesu okubangelwa zizono zam.

Ndiphazanyiswe zizinto zesiqhelo zam zangaphakathi, ndazilela ilishwa lam elikhulu.

Ngeli xesha, uYesu wam, ehlala enobubele, wahamba ngaphakathi kwam.

 

Uye   wandixelela   ngelizwi elithambileyo:

"Ngaba uyafuna ukuba ngumlamli wakho?

Umsebenzi wangaphakathi wakho ngowam, hayi owakho, kufuneka nje undilandele. Okuseleyo ndizenzela.

Funeka uyeke ukuzicingela, ungenzi nto ngaphandle kwento endiyifunayo.Iills zakho nezinto zakho ndizozihoya.

Ngubani onokwenza okungakumbi kuwe okanye kum?” Kwaye wayekhangeleka engonelisekanga.

Ndiye ndaqalisa ukumlandela.

Kamva, wafika   kwenye indawo esendleleni eya eKalvari   apho,

kunanini na ngaphambili, ndingena kwiinjongo ezahlukeneyo zikaYesu, ingcinga yafika kum:

 

"Akufuneki nje

- yeka ukucinga ngokuzingcwalisa, kodwa

- Yeka nokucinga ngokusindiswa.

Awuboni ukuba, uwedwa, awukho mhle kwaphela? Yintoni onokuyizuza ngokwenza oku kwabanye?”

 

Ndaguqukela kuYesu, ndathi kuye:

"Yesu wam, igazi lakho, iintlungu zakho, umnqamlezo wakho, awukho ngenxa yam? Ndikhohlakele kangangokuba, ngenxa yezono zam, ndinyathele kuyo yonke into, ngoko ke wasebenzisa yonke into ngenxa yam. Kodwa, ndicela undixolele. nam kwaye xa ungafuni ukundixolela undishiyele iWill yakho ndizokonwaba, iWill yakho yinto yonke kum.

 

Ndashiyeka ndedwa ngaphandle kwakho. Kwaye nguwe kuphela onokuyazi ilahleko endiyifumeneyo. Andinamntu. Izidalwa ngaphandle kwakho ziyandidika.

Je me sens dans la prison de mon corps comme une esclave enchaînée. Ndiyabulela, ngokundithanda, andisoze ndidlule eSainte Volonté. "

 

En pensant à cela, je me distrayais de nouveau de ma meditation et

UYesu wandiphendula   wathi:

"Ngaba awufuni kuphinda?

Veux-tu gâcher mon travail en toi?"

Andizange ndikwazi, ndize ndize kukubona. Ensuite, j'ai tâché d'arrêter ça et de le suivre.

 

Après avoir reçu la Communion, mon toujours aimable Jesus vint brièvement. Comme j'avais eu une argument avec mon confesseur au sujet de amaour vrai, je lui demandai si j'avais raison ou tort. Ndithi  :

 

"Kodwa,

c'est exactement come tu l'as dit, à savoir

-que ama vrai aququzelele yonke into, bannit toute crainte, tout doute, et

-que son art iquka ukuthatha possess de la personne aimée.

Et, xa il en a pris possession, the amour lui-même lui enseigne les moyens de préserver l'objet acquis.

Par la suite, quelles craintes, quels doutes l'âme peut-elle avoir concernant ce qui lui appartient?

Que ne peut-elle pas espérer?

Que dis-Je, quand l'âme est parvenue à take possess de amaour, celui-ci devient hardi et en vient à des excès incontroyables.

 

I-L'amour vrai peut ithi:   "Ndiyazi ukuba ndini es es à moi  ", si bien que les êtres aimés peuvent

-lahla enye ye-Autre,

-ukuba ufeliciter omnye komnye,

-s'amuser ensemble.

 

Chacun jonga ngokuzenzekela:

"Ndiyifumene, i-peux disposer de toi à ma guise."

 

Comment l'âme pourrait-elle alor s'arrêter aux défauts, aux misères, aux faiblesses,

ewe into efunyenweyo

-uyazincama,

-l'a embellie en tout et

-Ngaba ukuhlanjululwa kuqhubeka?

Amazwi e-Voices de amaour vrai:

-hlambulula yonke into,

- ukoyisa kuyo yonke into e

- fezekisa yonke into.

Eneneni, luluphi uthando umntu anokuba nalo ngomntu?

-ukuba umntu uya koyika,

-ukuthandabuza,

- apho besingayi kulindela yonke into?

Uthando beluya kuphulukana nezona mpawu zalo zintle.

 

Kuyinyani ukuba, naphakathi kwabaNgcwele, sinokubona ukwahluka koku. Ibonisa nje ukuba, naphakathi kwabangcwele,

uthando lusenokungafezeki yaye lunokwahluka ngokwemeko.

 

Ngoku wena, nantsi into eyiyo:

ukuba ungathini na ukuba nam ezulwini

nokuba umnike idini ngenxa yothando lwentobeko nommelwane;

-Uthando luqinisekisiwe kuwe,

- intando yakho yokungakhubeki iqinisekisiwe,

kangangokuba ubomi bakho bufana nobomi obusele buphelile.

 

Ngoko ke awubuva ubunzima bentlupheko yomntu.

Ngoko lumka

kwinto ekufaneleyo kwaye undithande de ufikelele kuThando olungenasiphelo. "

 

Ukundifumana kwimeko yam yesiqhelo, uYesu wasikelelwa weza ngokufutshane  wathi kum   :

 

"Intombazana yakho,

ikhwele lam kunye nezilumkiso endizithathayo ngezidalwa zam zikhulu kangangokuba,

- ukuze bangabavumeli ukuba batshabalale;

Ndibophelelekile ukuba ndirhangqe imiphefumlo yabo nemizimba yabo ngameva, ukuze ndithintele udaka lungangcolisi.

 

Ndikhapha nameva, oko kukuthi

- ukukrakra, ukunqongophala kunye neemeko ezahlukeneyo zangaphakathi;

kananjalo ubabalo olukhulu endikhetha ngalo imiphefumlo endiyithandayo, ukuze la meva abe nako

- bagcine kum kwaye

- balumkise ukuba bangcole ngodaka

ukuzithanda kunye nokunye. "

 

Emva koko wanyamalala.

 

Ekubeni ndandikwimeko yam yesiqhelo, kwabonakala kum ukuba ndizibhaqe ndinosana ezingalweni zam.

Kamva waguquka wangabantwana abathathu endandiziva ndintywiliselwe kubo. Xa u-confessor wam wafika ekuseni, wandibuza ukuba uYesu ufikile na.

Ndamxelela lento ndigqiba kuyibhala, ndingongezi nto.

Ummeli wam wandixelela:

"Akhange bakuxelele nto? Awuvanga nto?"

Ndathi,   "Andikwazi ukuxelela."

 

Waqhuba  : " UZiqu Ngcwele wayelapha awukwazi ukuthetha? Usuke wanyaba? Siyabona ukuba ngamaphupha la." Ndaphinda ndaqhubeka  :

"Ewe, kunjalo, ngamaphupha la."

Wongeza   enye into.

Njengoko wayethetha, ndaziva ndibanjwe ngamandla ziingalo zikaYesu, zomelele kangangokuba ndaphantse ndangabikho zingqondweni.

 

UYesu wathi kum:

"Ngubani ofuna ukuhlukumeza intombi yam?"

Ndaphendula ndathi  : “Unyanisile uBawo kuba andinakuthetha nto.

Akukho mqondiso wokuba nguYesu Kristu oweza kum.

 

UYesu waqhubeka wathi kum  :

Ndenza kuwe njengokwenza kolwandle kumntu othe wantywilisela enzulwini yalo;

Ndikuntywilisela ngokupheleleyo kuBume bam ukuze zonke iingqondo zakho zizaliswe kuko.

Ndiyayithanda lento

-  ukuba ufuna ukuthetha malunga nobukhulu bam, ubunzulu bam kunye nokuphakama kwam  , yonke into onokuyithetha kukuba zikhulu kangangokuba umbono wakho uphazamisekile.

-ukuba ufuna ukuthetha ngolonwabo lwam kunye neempawu zam  ,

into onokuyithetha kukuba zininzi kangangokuba xa nje uvule umlomo wakho ukubala, urhaxwe kuzo.

Kwaye njalo kwabanye.

 

Kwelinye icala, kwenzeka ntoni?

Uthi andikunikanga kwa sign yoba ndim? Asiyonyani!

 

-Ngubani owakuhlalisa ebhedini iminyaka engamashumi amabini anesibini engakophulanga, uzole nomonde?

Ngaba sisidima sabo okanye sam?

-Kwaye kuthekani ngezilingo abakwenza ukuba ungene kuzo kwiminyaka yakho yokuqala

Okwangoku, bakuhlalisa phantsi imihla elishumi elinesixhenxe, nokuba yeyeshumi elinesibhozo, ungadli, ibingabo, ibindim na obekugcinile?

 

Emva koko, njengoko wayendibizele kuye, ndabuyela emzimbeni wam. Emva koko wabhiyozela uMthendeleko oNgcwele ndaza ndafumana umthendeleko.

Wabuya ke uYesu.

Bendikhalazela ukuba akazufika njengakuqala, uthando ebendithanda ngalo ingathi lutshintshe ngokubanda.

Ndamxelela:

 

Ngalo lonke ixesha ndikhalaza, ufumana izizathu

So uthi ufuna ukohlwaya yilento ungezi. Kodwa andikholelwa.

Ngubani owaziyo ukuba yintoni embi emphefumlweni wam, yilonto ungezi.

Ubuncinane ndixelele, ukuze nantoni na ixabiso, kuquka nexabiso lobomi bam,

Ndiyayisusa.

Ngaphandle kwakho, andinakuba.

Cinga into oyifunayo, andinakuqhubeka ngolu hlobo:

nokuba ndikunye nawe emhlabeni, nokuba ndikunye nawe emazulwini!

 

Endinqumle,   uYesu wathi kum:

“  Zola, andikho kude kuwe.

Ndihlala ndinawe. Anisoloko nindibona, kodwa ndihlala ndinawe.

Ndithini, ndinzulu entliziyweni yakho ukuphumla. Kwaye ngelixa undifuna kwaye ngomonde uphila ubunzima bakho,

Undirhangqe ngeentyatyambo ukuze undithuthuzele kwaye undivumele ukuba ndiphumle ngakumbi ngoxolo”.

 

Njengoko Wayethetha oku, kwabonakala ngathi kukho iintyatyambo ezininzi ezahlukeneyo ezimjikelezileyo kangangokuba zaphantse zamfihla.

 

Wongeza wathi:

Anicingi ukuba ndinihlutha nje mna ukuba ndinithethise ihlabathi, kodwa kunjalo okunene.

Xa ungalindelanga, uya kuva ngezinto eziya kwenzeka. "

 

Uthe akutsho, wandibonisa

- iimfazwe kulo lonke ihlabathi,

- uvukelo ngokuchasene neCawa e

-Iicawa ziyatsha: oku kwakusele kusondele.

 

Ukuzifumana ndikwimeko yam yesiqhelo, ndandicinga ngokhetho lwam lwangaphambili. UYesu olungileyo wazibonakalisa ngokufutshane kwaye   wandixelela  :

 

"Intombazana yakho,

musani ukucinga izinto ezidluleyo, ngokuba izinto ezidluleyo zikho kum   , nangokuba nithe nahlala nicinga ngazo

- ziphazamise e

- kukukhokelela ekonakalisa indlela encinci kusafuneka uhambe, ukuthoba isantya sakho.




 

Kwelinye icala, ngokujolisa ingqalelo yakho kuphela ngoku,

-Uya kuba nesibindi ngakumbi,

-Uya kuzigcina usondele ngakumbi kum,

-Uya kuhambela phambili kwindlela yakho e

- akuyi kubakho ngozi yokukhohliswa. "

 

Emva kokufumana uMthendeleko oNgcwele, ndathi kuYesu wam othandekayo:

 

Ngoku ke ndizalana nani, ngoku ke ndizalana nani.

-Ndishiya ubuntu bam kuwe kwaye ndithathe obakho,

-Ndiyishiya ingqondo yam kwaye ndithatha iTien,

-Ndikushiya amehlo am, umlomo wam, intliziyo yam, izandla zam, amanyathelo am kunye nokunye.

 

Owu! Hayi indlela endiya kuvuya ngayo ukususela ngoku! Ndiya kucinga ngoMoya wakho,

Ndiya kubheka ngamehlo akho, ndithethe ngomlomo wakho, ndithande ngentliziyo yakho, ndisebenze ngezandla zakho,

Ndizakuhamba ngeenyawo zakho nako konke.

 

Kwaye ukuba kukho umqobo, ndiya kuthi:

"Ndabushiya ubuntu bam kuYesu ndathatha obakhe, yiya ke kuye, uzakuphendula endaweni yam!"

 

Owu! Hayi indlela endiziva ndonwabe ngayo!

Ah! Nam ndiyafuna ukuthatha uBusis wakho, andithi Yesu?

Kodwa, okanye ubomi bam kunye nokulunga kwam, ngenxa yobubele bakho usenza sonwabe isibhakabhaka sonke, ngelixa mna, ndithatha ububele bakho, andenzi mntu onwabe ".

 

UYesu wathi kum:   “Ntombi yam, nawe, ngokuba ubundim nolonwabo lwam, unokubenza abanye bonwabe.

Kutheni uBukho bam bunamandla okusasaza ulonwabo?

 

Ngokuba konke kuvumelana kum.

isidima esinye sihambelana nesinye, ubulungisa ngenceba;

Ubungcwele bunobuhle, Ubulumko obunamandla;

Ubukhulu ngobunzulu kunye noBubude, njalo njalo.

 

Yonke into ikwimvisiswano kum, akukho nto iphikisanayo  . Le imvisiswano iyandonwabisa kwaye igcwalisa ngovuyo bonke abo basondela kuM.

 

Kwakhona, ngokumisela uBume bam,

qiniseka ukuba zonke izidima ziyavumelana kuwe.

Le imvisiswano iya kuthetha ulonwabo kwabo basondela kuwe.

 

Kutheni, ukuba ubona kuwe

Ububele, ububele,   umonde,

Uthando kunye nokuLingana kuyo yonke into, uya kuvuya ukuba   kufutshane nawe ".

 

Njengoko ndandikhalaza kuYesu malunga nokuswela kwam, Wazibonakalisa ngokufutshane waza   wandixelela  :

 

“Ntombi yam,   umnqamlezo uwusondeza umphefumlo kum.

 

Oku kuvinjwa obandezeleka kuko kukwenza unyukele phezulu   .

Kuba, ngokungamfumani umntu omthandayo kuwe, awusenayo incasa yobomi. Kuyo yonke indawo unesithukuthezi kwaye ungafumani nto   yoyama ngayo.

 

Lo uqhele ukuthembela kuye ubonakala engekho kuwe.

Kwaye, ngenxa yoko, umphefumlo wakho ushukuma de uzihlambulule kuyo yonke into de uphele ngokupheleleyo.

 

Emva koko, uYesu wakho uya kukunika ukwanga kokugqibela kwaye uya kuzifumana usezulwini. Awonwabanga?"

 

Ukuba kwimeko yam yesiqhelo, kwakubonakala ngathi ndibona uYesu edlala i-sonata kwilungu elingaphakathi kum. Wakufumanisa kumnandi kakhulu ukudlala.

 

Ndathi,   "Oh! Ukhangeleka uhlekisa!"

Wathi,   “Ngqo.

Yazini ke ukuba nenza ngokumanyene nam;

-owawuthanda ngothando lwam,

-owuthanda ngokunqula kwam,

ukuba ulungise ngokwam;

njalo njalo, yonke into inkulu kuwe, njengoko ingaphakathi kwam. Olu manyano phakathi kwam nawe lwenza eli lungu.

 

Kwakhona, ngalo lonke ixesha ubandezeleka kwakhona,

- yongeza inqaku elitsha kwilungu.

Ngoku, ndiza kudlala i-sonata yam ukuze ndibone ukuba le nqaku litsha lenza isandi.

Ngaloo ndlela, ndinandipha uvuyo olutsha.

 

Ke ngoko, okukhona ubandezeleka ngakumbi, kokukhona usongeza iimvisiswano kwilungu lam kwaye kokukhona ndonwabile ".

 

Emva kokuva iintsuku ezibuhlungu zokuvinjwa nokufumana umthendeleko, ndakhalaza kuYesu wam onobubele, ndisithi kuye:

"Kubonakala ukuba ufuna ukundishiya ngokupheleleyo! Kodwa khawundixelele ukuba uyafuna ndihambe kwesi simo?

Ngubani owaziyo ukuba yintoni i-disorder ekhoyo kum kutheni umke ngoluhlobo. Noncedo: ngentliziyo yam yonke ndiyakuthembisa ndizokubangcono".

 

UYesu waphendula wathi:   “Ntombi yam, musa ukuxhala.

xa ndikukhupha,   hlala uzolile,

xa ndenza ngokuchaseneyo, uhlala uzolile, ngaphandle kokuchitha   ixesha.

 

Yithathe yonke ngezandla zam, njengoko kwenzeka kuwe.

Andikwazi ukunqumamisa imeko yakho iintsuku ezimbalwa?

Isiphithiphithi esikuwe, ukuba bekukho ngendikuxelele.

 

Ngaba uyazi ukuba yintoni ephazamisa umphefumlo?

Inceba kuphela, nangona incinci.

Owu! Ngelixa iyayigqwetha, iyayikhupha umbala, iyenze buthathaka.

 

Nangona kunjalo, iimeko ezahlukeneyo kunye nokuswela akumenzi monakalo.

Ngoko lumka ungandikhubekisi, nokuba kuncinci kakhulu. Musa ukoyika ukuba kukho ukuphazamiseka emphefumlweni wakho."

 

Ndiyaphinda:

Kodwa, Nkosi, kumele ukuba kukho into engalunganga kum

Kwaye, ngexesha lotyelelo lwakho, undenze ndanesabelo emnqamlezweni, izikhonkwane kunye nameva.

Ke kaloku, ekubeni ngoku isimilo sam sendiqhelene nezo zinto, zezemvelo kum, ngokokuba kulula kum ukuva ubunzima, kunokuba ndingabandezeleki   ;

uyarhoxisa. Kwenzeka njani ukuba akukho nto ibalulekileyo eyenzekayo kum?"

 

Ngobubele,   uYesu wathi kum:  “Phulaphula, ntombi yam,

Kwafuneka ndilungise umphefumlo wakho ukuze wonwabele ukubandezeleka, ukuze ndikwazi ukwenza umsebenzi wam apho.

Kwafuneka ndikuvavanye, ndikumangalise, ndikuthwalise ubunzima ukuze indalo yakho izalwe kubomi obutsha.

 

Ndiwugqibile lo msebenzi njengoko ukuzibandakanya kwenu ekubandezelekeni kwam kuye kwaba ngokusisigxina, ngamanye amaxesha ngaphezulu, ngamanye amaxesha ngaphantsi.

Ngoku lo msebenzi ugqityiwe, ndiyawuthanda. Awufuni ndiphumle?

 

Mamela ungacingi ngalento, vumela uYesu wakho okuthandayo ayenze. Ndiyazi

-xa umsebenzi wam ufuneka kuwe kwaye

-xa kufuneka ndiphumle emsebenzini wam."

 

Njengoko ndandikwimeko yam yesiqhelo, uYesu wam othandekayo weza ngokufutshane.

 

Wathi kum:  “Ntombi yam,

osukuba   ke uwugqala umnqamlezo   ngokwenyama,   uyawufumana

- udaka kwaye, ngoko, unzima kwaye ukrakra.

Kwelinye icala, abo bawujonga umnqamlezo   ngokwembono kaThixo bayawufumana   .

- igcwele ukukhanya, ukukhanya kunye nokuthamba.

 

Ukujonga  ubomi  ngokwembono yomntu ,  

omnye uvinjwa ubabalo, amandla kunye nokukhanya.

 

Ngoko ke, sifika sithethe izinto ezinjengale, “Kutheni lo mntu endikhathaza?

Kutheni le nto enye indenzela le ntlungu, intlekisa ngam?"

Kwaye   sizaliswe yingqumbo, umsindo, iingcamango zokuziphindezela  . Ngaloo ndlela umnqamlezo ubonakala uludaka, umnyama,   unzima kwaye ukrakra kuthi.

 

Kwelinye icala,   iindlela   zobuthixo zokucinga zizele lubabalo, amandla nokukhanya. Ngoko ke akunalungelo lakuthi, Nkosi, yini na ukuba undenze le nto?

Ngokwahlukileyo koko,   siyazithoba, siyarhoxa  .

Kwaye umnqamlezo uba   ukukhanya   kwaye uzisa   ukukhanya nobumnandi emphefumlweni  ».

 

Ukuzifumana ndikwimeko yam yesiqhelo, ndacinga ngentlungu kaYesu eGadini. Ngokufutshane ezibonisa kum, uYesu wam onobubele wathi kum:

 

"Ntombi yam, amadoda asebenza kuphela kwi-cortex yoBuntu bam. Ngelixa uthando olungunaphakade lusebenza ngaphakathi kwam   .

Ngaloo ndlela, ngexesha lentlungu yam, babengengabo amadoda.

-kodwa uthando olungunaphakade,

- uthando olukhulu,

-uthando olungenakulinganiswa,

-Uthando Olufihliweyo

Undivulele amanxeba amakhulu;

- wandihlaba ngezikhonkwane ezinomlilo;

- wandithwesa imithana enameva kunye

- wandiseza ngentsimi eshushu.

 

"Kwaye, ukungakwazi ukuthwala abafeli-nkolo abaninzi ngaxeshanye,

 

-Ubuntu bam benza imijelo yegazi yaphuma,

- Wajika waza wathi:

Bawo, ukuba kunokwenzeka, yithabathe kum le ndebe;

Kodwa iWill yam ayenziwa, kodwa yeyakho  .

Konke oko ndabuva ubunzima ngexesha lePassion, ndabuva ubunzima kunye ngexesha leNgcungcu, kwaye oko,

- ngakumbi ngakumbi,

buhlungu ngakumbi   kwaye

Nzulu kakhulu.

Kaloku uThando lwangena kum.

-kumongo wamathambo;

- kwanakweyona micu yeNtliziyo yam,

apho isidalwa sasingenako ukuhla. Kodwa uthando lufikelela kuyo yonke into, akukho nto luxhathisayo.

 

Ngaloo ndlela, umbulali wam wokuqala yayinguThando.

Yiyo loo nto, ngexesha leNgqondo yam,

Andikhange ndibabone nongcikivo abo bebendigwebe njengababulali. Kuba ndandinombulali okhohlakeleyo kwaye osebenzayo kum: Uthando.

 

Neendawo abangafikanga kuzo ababulali;

apho inxalenye encinci yaM isindisiwe, Uthando luye lwathatha indawo kwaye alushiyanga nto.

 

Kwaye oku kwenzeka kuyo yonke imiphefumlo: umsebenzi oyintloko wenziwa Uthando  .

Kwaye xa uThando lwenze kwaye lwazalisa umphefumlo,

okubonakala ngaphandle kukuphuphuma kuphela

- kunokuba kwenziwe ngaphakathi.

 

Emva kokuba ndifumene umthendeleko, ndakhalaza kuYesu olungileyo

-yeentswelo zam e

- into yokuba, xa ifika, iphantse ifane nombane okanye ithule ngokupheleleyo.

 

UYesu wathi kum:

“Ntombi yam, phantse kuyo yonke imiphefumlo

- endizibonakalise kuyo ngendlela engaqhelekanga,

Ndawavumela la maxesha okulahlwa ekupheleni kobomi babo.

Oku ke, kungekuphela nje ngenxa yezizathu ezithile ezizezakhe, kodwa kwanangenxa yokuba ndizukiswa yaye ndizukiswa kuko konke   ukungenelela kwam.

 

Abaninzi bathi:

“Le miphefumlo yayimiselwe inqanaba eliphezulu lobungcwele kwaye yayimthanda kakhulu!

Emva kokufumana izipho ezingaka, iinceba kunye neziphoso, ngebabengenambulelo ngenene ukuba bebengafikelelanga kweli nqanaba.

Ukuba besifumene ezi zinto, nathi ngesele sifikelele kweli nqanaba nangaphezulu.

 

Kwakhona, ukuthethelela ukuziphatha kwam, ndibenza babe namava okulahlwa kunye nokuswela,

eyiyona ntlambululo-miphefumlo yokwenene kubo.

Nam kufuneka ndithathele ingqalelo

- ukunyaniseka kwabo,

- ubugorha bokulunga kwabo e

- inyaniso yokuba ubuhlwempu bulula kwabo bangazange bazi ubutyebi kunabo baphila ngokutyebileyo.

 

Kwakhona ndimele ndiyithathele ingqalelo into yokuba ubutyebi obunamandla angaphezu kwawemvelo abufani nobutyebi bezinto eziphathekayo obunceda umzimba yaye bungaphandle kuphela.

 

Ubutyebi obungamandla bendalo   bugqobhozela kwinqanaba

- kumongo wethambo,

-kwimicu yangaphakathi yokubakho,

-kweyona nxalenye ibalaseleyo yobukrelekrele.

Khawucinge nje ukuba   ukuvinjwa kungaphezu kokufela ukholo.

 

Le miphefumlo inemfesane kakhulu kum kangangokuba intliziyo yam ibuhlungu ngenxa yayo.

Ngenxa yokungakwazi ukuxhathisa, ndibanika amandla okuba baye esiphelweni sokufela ukholo lwabo.

 

Zonke izithunywa zezulu kunye nabangcwele zibajongile kwaye zibajonge ukuze banganikezeli, besazi ukufela ukholo olukhohlakeleyo abahluphekayo.

Ntombi yam, yomelela, unyanisile, kodwa   yazi ukuba yonke into iluthando kwiLizwi  ".

 

Uthe xa esitsho wangathi uyahamba.

Ndabuva ubunzulu bam budla kwaye bunyamalala emoyeni. Le mbewu yamandla, ukukhanya kunye nolwazi awayebonakala enalo lwalujika lube yinto engekhoyo. Ndandiziva ngathi ndiyafa, kodwa ndisaphila.

 

Wabuya uYesu, endibambe ezingalweni zakhe, wabonakala exhasa ukungabi nanto kwam.

 

Wathi kum:

Yabona, ntombi yam, kuthekani na?

-intsholongwane encinci yamandla akho,

-isibane esiluzizi sokukhanya kwakho,

- ulwazi oluncinci onalo ngam kunye

- zonke ezinye iimpawu ezincinci ziyanyamalala,

ke Amandla am, ukuKhanya kwam, uBulumko bam, uBuhle bam kunye nazo zonke ezinye iimpawu zam zithatha indawo kwaye zize kukugcwalisa ukungabi nto kwakho.

Awonwabanga?"

 

Ndamxelela  :

"Mamela ke Yesu, ukuba uqhubeka unje, uya kuphelelwa ngumnqweno wokundishiya emhlabeni".

Ndiye ndamxelela kaninzi.

 

Waza   uYesu  , engafuni nokuva amazwi am,   waphendula wathi  :

“Mamela ke ntombi yam, soze ndiphulukane nencasa yam   ngawe.

Ukuba ndikugcina emhlabeni, ndiya kuba nencasa yam emhlabeni. Ukuba ndikusa ezulwini, ndiya kuba nokungcamla kwam   ezulwini.

 

Ngaba uyazi ukuba ngubani oza kulahlekelwa yincasa? Ummeli wakho ».

 

Ngale ntsasa, kumthendeleko, ndakhalaza kuYesu ukuba andinakuphinda ndibonakalise imeko yam kulowo ndimelwe kukuyenza kuye. Ewe, rhoqo, xa ndiziva ndigcwele uYesu,

Ndinemvakalelo yokuyichukumisa yonke indawo; nokuba ndizichukumisa, ndibamba uYesu.

 

Kodwa andazi ukuba ndingathetha njani ngayo. Ingathi ndingaphulukana nam kuYesu kokona kuthe cwaka.

Kwaye xa ndicelwa ukuba ndithethe ngayo, oh! Onjani wona umzamo endinawo! Ndiziva njengomntwana owozela kakhulu kwaye ufuna ukuvuka ngamandla:

wenza isiphithiphithi. ·

 

Ngoko ndathi kuYesu:

“Wandikhulula kuzo zonke izinto, kwiimbandezelo zakho, nakwinceba yakho, kwilizwi elithozamisayo, elithozamisayo, elimnandi. Andisazazi ukuba ndiyintoni na.

Ukuba undenza ndiqonde into, inzulu kakhulu kubomi bam kangangokuba ayinakunyuka iphakame. Ndixelele, ubomi bam, kufuneka ndenze   ntoni?"

 

Waphendula wathi  :

"Ntombi yam, ukuba uthe wandinika, unazo zonke izinto, kwaye oku kwanele kuwe.

Ukuba uziva ugcwele Ngam, luphawu lokuba ndikugcine endlwini yobuThixo bam.

 

Ukuba isityebi sisamkela ihlwempu endlwini yalo, simnika yonke into ayifunayo, nokuba akathethi ngalo lonke ixesha, okanye akalicofa.

Kungenjalo, bekuya kuba lihlazo kuye.

Kanti andikho ngaphezu kwesi sityebi?

Ngoko ke zola kwaye uzame ukubonakalisa oko unokukwenza kumntu wakho ovumayo.

 

Kwabanye, nikela yonke into kukhathalelo lwam ".

 

Imeko yam yokuswela iyaqhubeka kwaye iba mandundu ngakumbi. Intiyo! Okunjani ukuwa!

Zange ndicinge ukuba ndingagqibela ngoluhlobo!

Ndiyathemba ukuba awusoze ushiye isangqa sentando yakho eNgcwele. Uyinto yonke kum.

Ndiziva ngathi ndikhalela imeko yam elusizi kwaye yinto endiye ndiyenze ngamanye amaxesha.

 

Kodwa ke   uYesu   uyandithethisa   ngokuthi   :

"So usafuna ukuba yintombazana encinci?

Kuyacaca ukuba ndijongene nentombazana encinci. Andikwazi ukukuthemba. Bendinethemba lokufumana kuwe ubugorha bombingelelo ngenxa yam.

Kodwa endaweni yoko ndifumana iinyembezi zentombazana encinci engafuni ukuzincama ".

 

Ngoko xa ndikhala, Uba nzima kwaye ufikelela kwinqanaba lokungayi kwaloo mini kwaphela. Ngoko ke, ndinyanzelekile



- zixhobise ngenkalipho e

-ukubamba iinyembezi zam   ngokumxelela:

 

“Utsho ukuba kungenxa yothando undivimba uBukho bakho.

Kwaye, ngenxa yecala lam, kungenxa yakho ukuba ndiyakwamkela oku kuswela.

Ngenxa yakho andiyi kulila.

 

Kwaye ukuba ndingayenza, Uxolela kancinane ngakumbi. kungenjalo indohlwaya ngakumbi,

oko kundenza ndiphile ukufa okungapheliyo ndisadla ubomi.

 

Ngoko, emva kokuchitha usuku olunje, andizange ndikwazi ukuzibamba iinyembezi.

UYesu wandenza ukuba ndihlawule njengoko bendifanele.

Kodwa ezinzulwini zobusuku, endisizela, kwabonakala ngathi kuvulwe ifestile encinane yokukhanya engqondweni yam.

 

Wathi kum  :

"Awufuni ukuqonda ukuba ngaphambi kokuba uhambe kweli hlabathi, kufuneka ufe kuyo yonke into:

-ekubandezelekeni, kwiminqweno, kwizinto ezithandwayo.

Yonke into ekuwe mayife kwiWill yam nakuThando lwam.

 

EZulwini, into engena ngonaphakade yintando yam kunye nothando lwam.

Zonke ezinye iimpawu ziyasilela: umonde, ukuthobela, ukubandezeleka, iminqweno.

Kuphela iNtando yam kunye noThando lwam alupheli.

Ke ngoko kufuneka ufe kwangethuba kwintando yam nakuLuthando.

 

Kumele kube njalo kubo bonke abangcwele bam.

Kwaye nam ndandingafuni ukuba ngowahlukileyo

ulahliwe nguBawo  .

ukufa ngokupheleleyo kwintando yakhe nakuthando lwakhe.

 

Owu! Akwaba ndandibandezeleke ngakumbi!

Owu! Akwaba bendiyenzele okungakumbi imiphefumlo! Kodwa konke oku kwafela kwintando kaBawo noThando. Yayiqhuba ngolu hlobo imiphefumlo eyayindithanda ngokwenene.

Kwaye awufuni ukuyiqonda! "

 

Ngale ntsasa uYesu wam oyintanda weza ngokufutshane   wathi kum  :

 

“Ntombi yam, injongo elungileyo ilula emphefumlweni.

Umgquma ngokukhanya aze amxelele indlela yokwenza izinto ngokobuthixo.

 

Umphefumlo ufana negumbi elimnyama.

Kwaye injongo ithe ngqo njengelanga elingena kwaye likhanyise.

kunye nokwahlukana ukuba ilanga alitshintshi iindonga zibe ukukhanya, ngelixa lisebenza ngokufanelekileyo liguqula yonke into ibe   ukukhanya ».

 

Ndandikwimeko yam yesiqhelo kwaye uYesu olungileyo weza ngokufutshane.

 

Wathi kum:   “Ntombi yam,

Intando yam ifezekisa uthando  , iyayilungisa, ibophe kwaye ingcwalise. Uthando ngamanye amaxesha lufuna ukubaleka luqwenge yonke into.

 

Kodwa iNtando yam izama ukumoyisa ngokumxelela:

"  Zolani ungangxami kanje   ngoba ungazilimaza. Ukufuna ukuqwenga yonke into ungaziqhatha."

Uthando lucocekile kangangokuba luhambelana nentando yam.

Aba babini bahamba bebambene ngezandla kwaye bahlala bephuzana ukuze baxole.

 

Ngamanye amaxesha, ngenxa yeemvakalelo zakhe okanye ngenxa yokuba, emva kokuba ebalekile, akazange aphumelele njengoko ebeya kuthanda,

Uthando lufuna ukundigxeka okanye luhlale lungenzi nto.

Emva koko iNtando yam iyamkhuthaza ngokuthi:

"Hamba phambili, abathandi bokwenyani abavilaphi, abakwenzi kwangoko." Uthando lukhuselekile kuphela xa luhlala kwiWill yam.

 

Uthando lutsalwa ngasekhohlo nasekunene kwaye lukhokelelwe ekugqityweni.

Intando yam iyamodareyitha, iyamqinisekisa kwaye imondle ngokutya okuqinileyo nokungcwele.

Kunokubakho ukungafezeki okuninzi eLuthandweni, naphambi koKhethiweyo ongcwele.

Kwintando yam le ayisoze yenzeke, yonke into ilungile.



- Akumangalisi ukuba ukhumbule izono zakhe kunye neentsizi.

 

Khumbula ukuba,

- kwintando yam,

-ezi ngcinga zezono kunye nobuqu azinakungena.

 

Ntombi yam, oku kwenzeka ngaphezu kwako konke emiphefumlweni yothando abaye bafumana ubabalo lokundwendwela kwam, ukwanga kwam kunye nokuphululwa kwam.

Le miphefumlo ingamaxhoba oThando xa ndibaxutha uBukho Bam. Uthando luyabathatha lubenze bakhefuzele, baphelelwe ngumonde, baxakeke, baphambane, bakhathazeke, baphelelwe ngumonde.

 

Ukuba ibingeyoWill yam ebondlayo, ibathobe kwaye ibomeleze, uLuthando ngebabulale.

Nangona uThando ilizibulo leWill yam, kusafuneka ilungiswe yiWill yam.

Kwaye ndiyamthanda njengoko ndizithanda. "

 

Ngexesha lengxoxo phakathi kwam no-confessor wam,

undixelele ukuba kunzima ukusindiswa kuba uYesu Kristu wathi:

"Ucango lumxinwa kwaye kufuneka wenze iinzame zokungena kulo."

 

Emva komthendeleko,   uYesu wathi kum  :

"Ndilihlwempu, njengoko ndithathwa njengomncinci.

Xelela umntu ovumayo ukuba kungenxa yenkohlakalo yabo bandithatha njengento encinane.

Abandiboni njengoMntu   omkhulu, ongenamida  ,

-inamandla kwaye ayinasiphelo kuzo zonke iimfezeko zayo,

ukuba inyambalala yabantu inokudlula kwiingcango ezimxinwa ngokulunge   ngakumbi kunokungena kwiingcango ezibanzi  .

 

Njengoko wayethetha, ndabonakala ndibona indlela emxinwa kakhulu ekhokelela kwisango elimxinwa kakhulu, kodwa elizele ngabantu abakhuphisanayo.

ukubona ukuba ngubani onokuhambela phambili ngakumbi kwaye ahambe ngomnyango.

 

Wongeza wathi  :

“Uyabona ke ntombi yam, esi sihlwele sityhalela phambili sikhangela ukuba ngubani oza kuqala, kukhuphiswano kukho izinto ezininzi.

Ukuba indlela ibibanzi, abantu bebengayi kungxama, besazi ukuba ikho

indawo eninzi yokuhambahamba xa befuna. Nangona kunjalo, ngelixa bethatha ixesha labo kakuhle,

ukufa kungenzeka kwaye bangabikho endleleni yabo emxinwa.

Babeza kuzifumana sele besemgubasini wesango elibanzi lesihogo.

 

Owu! Iluncedo kangakanani obu bumxinwa  !

Le nto iyenzeka naphakathi kwakho:

ukuba kukho itheko okanye inkonzo enikezelwayo kwaye siyazi ukuba indawo incinci, abaninzi baya kungxamela ukuya apho

kwaye kuya kubakho abantu abaninzi bayonwabela itheko okanye inkonzo.

 

Kodwa ukuba siyazi ukuba zininzi iindawo,

asiyi kungxama kwaye kuya kuba mbalwa ababukeli

kuba, ukwazi ukuba kukho indawo yomntu wonke, wonke umntu uya kuthatha ixesha lakhe.

Abanye bazakufika embindini womboniso, abanye ngasekugqibeleni, abanye bafike xa sele uphelile bengasonwabanga nto.

 

Nantsi ke imeko yosindiso: ukuba indlela yakhe ibibanzi, bambalwa abaya kungxama ukufika;

nomthendeleko wezulu ube ngowabambalwa”.

 

Bendikwimeko yam yesiqhelo ndakhalaza kuYesu wam ndisithi ndiyahluthwa. Weza ngokufutshane   wathi kum:

 

"Intombazana yakho,

Ndikucebisa ukuba ungayishiyi iWill yam kuba iWill yam iphethe Amandla amaninzi kangangokuba ifana nobhaptizo olutsha lomphefumlo, nangaphezulu.

 

Kunoko

- kwiisakramente ubabalo lwam lwamkelwe ngokuyinxenye;

- kwintando yam umntu wamkela ngokupheleleyo.

 

Ngobhaptizo,

umsebenzi wesono sokuqala uyasuswa, kodwa iinkanuko kunye nobuthathaka buhleli.

 

Kwintando yam  , etshabalalisa intando yakhe,

umphefumlo utshabalalisa iinkanuko zawo, ubuthathaka bawo nayo yonke into engabantu. Uphila isidima, amandla nazo zonke iimpawu zobuThixo".

Ukuva oku, ndacinga, "Uya kugqiba ukundixelela.

ukuba ukuhlala kwintando yakhe kukhulu kunomthendeleko ngokwawo. "

 

Waqhubeka  wathi:

“Ngokuqinisekileyo.

Umthendeleko  womthendeleko uthatha   imizuzu embalwa. Ngelixa kukho  uBomi kwiWill yam 

- umthendeleko ongunaphakade, nangaphezulu,

-umthendeleko ongunaphakade: uqhubeka ngonaphakade eZulwini.

 

Umthendeleko womthendeleko   unokuhlangabezana nemiqobo: umzekelo, umntu akanako ukufumana umthendeleko ngenxa yokugula okanye ezinye izizathu,

okanye umntu ofanele ukuyilawula angalahlwa.

Umthendeleko kwintando yam yobuThixo   awuxhomekekanga kuwo nawuphi na umqobo. Kwanele ukuba umphefumlo uyakufuna kwaye uyenziwa.

 

Akukho mntu unokuthintela umphefumlo ekufumaneni le nto ilungileyo, eyenza ulonwabo lomhlaba nezulu:

- hayi iidemon,

- hayi izidalwa,

- nditsho nokuba ngowam amandla onke. Umphefumlo ukhululekile.

Akukho mntu unamalungelo kuye kwaye akanakumthintela ekubeni aphile kwiWill yam.

 

Kungenxa yoko le nto ndikhuthaza uMyolelo wam. Kwaye ndifuna ukuba izidalwa ziyamkele.

Le yeyona nto ibalulekileyo kum, endiyikhathaleleyo.

 

Asizizo zonke ezinye izinto ezinomdla kum, kwanezona zingcwele.

Kwaye xa ndiwenza umphefumlo uphile kwintando yam, ndoyisa

ngokuba yeyona inkulu emazulwini nasemhlabeni.

 

 

Ndibhala ngokuthobela.

Kodwa ndiva intliziyo yam isophuka kumzamo endiwuthathayo. Nangona kunjalo, phila ixesha elide ukuthobela, phila ixesha elide Intando kaThixo!

Ndiyabhala kodwa ndiyangcangcazela andizazi noba ndithini mna. Ukuthobela kufuna ndibhale into malunga nayo

-indlela endizilungiselela ngayo umthendeleko e

-ndiwunikela njani umbulelo wam.

 

Andikwazi kuthetha nto ngayo.

Ngoba, ebona ukuba andikho mhle nganto, uYesu wam othandekayo uyazenzela yonke into.

efanayo.

Ulungisa umphefumlo wam kwaye undixelela umbulelo wokunikela, kwaye ndinjalo. Iindlela zikaYesu zihlala zinkulu, kwaye mna, kunye naye,

Ndiziva   ndimkhulu   ngathi ndiyazi indlela yokwenza into.

 

Kamva, xa uYesu erhoxa, ndisesisisiyatha, intombazana encinane engenalwazi, imbi encinane.

Kwaye kungenxa yesi sizathu kanye ukuba uYesu uyandithanda.

Kuba ndingazi, andiyonto kwaye andikwazi kwenza nto.

 

Ukwazi ukuba ndifuna ukuyifumana ngazo zonke iindleko,

uze ungadani ngokuza kum;

- kodwa kunokuba ufumane amawonga amakhulu, Yena ngokwakhe ulungiselela umphefumlo wam olihlwempu.

 

Undinika izinto zakhe, iimfanelo zakhe, neempahla zakhe, nemisebenzi yakhe, neminqweno yakhe;

ngokufutshane,  eYonke.

Ukuba kuyimfuneko, uyandinika   oko kwenziwa ngabaNgcwele  , kuba yonke into yeyakhe. Ukuba kuyimfuneko, ukwandinika   oko kwenziwa nguMama wakhe Oyena Ungcwele  .

 

Kwaye ndixelela wonke umntu:

Yesu, beka kum ngokuza kum.

Umama, uKumkanikazi wam, bonke abangcwele kunye nazo zonke iingelosi  ,

Ndihlupheke kangangokuba yonke into onayo, yibeke entliziyweni yam,

"Hayi mna, kodwa uYesu".

Kwaye ndiva ukuba lonke iZulu liyasebenzisana ukundilungiselela.

 

Kwaye emva kokuba uYesu ehlile kum, ndinemvakalelo yokuba yonke into yanelisekile,

ezibona ebekekile ngokwezinto zakhe.

 

Ngamanye amaxesha   uthi kum  :

"Bravo, bravo, ntombam, indlela endonwabe ngayo, indlela endiyithanda ngayo apha! Naphi na apho ndijonga khona ndifumana izinto ezindifaneleyo.

Konke okwaM kokwakho.

Zingaphi izinto ezintle ondenze ndazifumana kuwe ».

 

Ndiyazi ukuba ndilihlwempu kakhulu, ukuba andenzanga nto kwaye akukho nto yam, ndivuyiswa kukwaneliseka kukaYesu.

Kwaye ndithi:

 

“Ndiyavuya kuba uYesu ecinga njalo! Kwanele ngam ukuza kwakhe.

Andikhathali ukuba ndisebenzise ishishini lam: amahlwempu kufuneka amkele izityebi. "

Kuyinyani ukuba apha naphaya kukho amakroti kum wendlela yokwenza uYesu emthendelekweni, kodwa andazi ukuba ndiwaqokelele njani la makrozo ndiwenze amalungiselelo aneleyo kunye nombulelo: andinawo amandla. Ingathi kum

-ukuba ndizilungiselele kuYesu ngokwakhe   kwaye

-ukuba ndiyambulela ngoncedo   lwakhe.

 

Ekubeni ndandikwimeko yam yesiqhelo, ndandiziva ndingento yanto. Ndaziva ndingakwazi ukuthetha nto,

- hayi ngesono,

- nokuba kubanda,

- okanye ngokuvutha.

Ndabona yonke into ngendlela efanayo.

Ndaziva ndingakhathali kuyo yonke into, ndijongana nantoni na ngaphandle kweNtando Engcwele kaThixo, kwaye konke oku ngaphandle kokuxhalaba, kwezona nzolo zigqibeleleyo.

 

Ndazicingela ndathi: “Hayi indlela endilusizi ngayo!

Ide ibengathi ndonwabile ngayo.

Owu Thixo wam, yhini ukuxhwaleka kwam!

 

Ndithe ndisazonwabisa ezi ngcinga kwafika uYesu wam endimthandayo

Wathi kum  :

 

"Intombazana yakho,

abo bahlala apha emhlabeni   kwaye baphefumle umoya wonke umntu ophefumlayo banyanzelwa ukuba bazive iinguqu ezahlukeneyo zemozulu:

ingqele, ubushushu, imvula, isichotho, imimoya, ubusuku, iintsuku.

 

Kodwa abo bahlala phezulu apho  , apho umoya uphelileyo, akukho phantsi kweenguqu zemozulu.

Kuba kukho usuku olugqibeleleyo kuphela apho.

Ukungaziva ezi nguqu, azikhathazi nganto. Kunjalo ke kulowo uhlala kumoya wobuthixo kuphela.

 

Kaloku uBunguye bam abutshintshi kodwa bunjalo

-soloko ifana,

-Ahlala enoxolo, ekwanelisekeni okupheleleyo;

Kuhle kangakanani ukuba lowo uhlala kum, ngentando yam kunye nomoya wam,

andikhathali nganto?

Ungathanda ukuhlala apha emhlabeni njengoko uninzi lusenza,

oko kukuthi, uvela kum, ngomoya womntu, iinkanuko, njl.?

 

Ndiziva ndibi kakhulu ngathi kuphelile ngam,

Ndakhalaza kuYesu ngokutyeshelwa ngokupheleleyo awandenza ndaphila.

 

Wathi kum  :

"Ntombi yam, ezi ziindlela zikaThixo: ukufa nokuvuka kwakhona ngokungapheliyo. Indalo ngokwayo ixhomekeke koku kufa kunye nokuvuka.

Ngaloo ndlela intyatyambo iyazalwa ize ife, kodwa ukuze ivuswe intle ngakumbi. Ukuba akazange afe,

yayiya kuguga, ilahlekelwe bubuhle bemibala yayo, nevumba elimnandi lesiqholo sayo.

 

Nalapha kukho ukufana noBumi bam: buhlala bumdala kwaye buhlala butsha.

Sifaka iinkozo emhlabeni ngokungathi siza kufa. Yaye, eneneni, iyafa, ide ibe luthuli.

Emva koko iphinda iphakame ngakumbi, kwaye iphindaphindeke. Oku kunjalo kuyo yonke enye into.

 

Ukuba oku kwenzeka ngokwendalo,

kuninzi okwenzekayo kucwangco lwasemoyeni, apho umphefumlo kufuneka ube namava oku kufa nokuvuka.

 

Nangona kubonakala

- ukoyisa kuyo yonke into e

-phuphuma inzondelelo, ezibabalo, ngokumanyene nam, ebulungiseni,

kwaye obonakala ngathi ufumene ubomi obutsha kuwo onke amanqaku, ndiyafihla kwaye yonke into ibonakala ngathi imfele.

 

Ndambetha okwe tishala nyani so that yonke into imfele.

Kwaye xa ndibona ukuba yonke into ifile ngenxa yakhe, njengelanga, ndiyavela.

 

Kwaye, kunye nam, yonke into iphakama kwaye iba

mhle ngakumbi, womelele ngakumbi, uthembekile ngakumbi, unombulelo ngakumbi, uthobeke ngakumbi. Ukuze ukuba kukho into yomntu ngaye,

ukufa kwamtshabalalisa, kwavusa yonke into kubomi obutsha ".



 

Ndandikwimeko yam yesiqhelo, ndizele bubuhlwempu nobukrakra, yaye   ndandicamngca ngeNgcungcu yeNkosi Yethu  .

 

Wathi kum  :

"Intombazana yakho,

Ndandifuna ukuva iNgcungcu yaseGadini ukuze ndincede ingakumbi abo bafayo ukuze bafe kakuhle.

Jonga ukuba le ntlungu ihambelana kakuhle nentlungu yamaKristu:

ukudinwa, usizi, unxunguphalo kunye nokubila kwegazi.

 

Ndakuva ukufa komntu ngamnye

ngokungathi ndifele wonke umntu ngokukodwa.

Ngoko ndeva ukudinwa, usizi nentlungu yomntu ngamnye. Kwaye, kwiimbandezelo zam, ndibanike uncedo, intuthuzelo kunye nethemba.

 

ndithe ndakuva ukufa komntu ngamnye, ndenziwa ubabalo lokuba bafe kum;

-ngokungathi umphefumlo wabo kunye nowam banye, kwaye ngoko nangoko babethelwa buBuThixo bam.

 

Ukuba ndandingcungcutheka   egadini ngakumbi kwabo bafayo  ,   inimba yam emnqamlezweni   kwakufuneka   ibancede.

-ngomzuzu wabo wokugqibela,

- ekugqibeleni umphefumlo wabo.

 

Yayiziintlungu ezimbini ezahlukeneyo:

- iintlungu zam   egadini   zazizaliswe lusizi, uloyiko, ixhala kunye noloyiko,   ngelixa -   intlungu yam emnqamlezweni   yayizaliswe luxolo kunye nokuzola okungeyomfuneko.

 

Ukuba ke   ndakhwaza sitio - Ndinxaniwe  , yaba lunxano olugqithisileyo

ukuba ndive wonke umntu ethatha umphefumlo wakhe wokugqibela kum.

 

Ukubona ukuba abaninzi baya kuwutyeshela lo mnqweno, ngeentlungu ezinzulu,

Ndakhwaza "sitio". Le "sitio" iyaqhubeka ukumanyelwa ngumntu wonke kunye nomntu wonke

njengentsimbi emnyango wentliziyo yabo.

 

“Ndinxanelwe wena, okanye umphefumlo wakho.

- ungaze uphume kum, kodwa ngena kum kwaye uphume kunye nam ".

 

Ndiye   ndanikezela iiyure ezintandathu zoMthando wam ekuncedeni amadoda ukuba asweleke kakuhle  :

-  aba bathathu eGadini   ukubanceda ngexesha   lentlungu yabo   e

-  aba bathathu baseMnqamlezweni   ukubanceda    ekuphefumleni kwabo kokugqibela   .

 

Ngoko ke, akufanelanga wonke umntu akujonge ngoncumo ukufa, ngakumbi abo bandithandayo nabazama ukuzincama kumnqamlezo wam?

 

Ngaba uyayibona indlela okumnandi ngayo ukufa nendlela izinto ezitshintshileyo ngayo?

 

Ebomini bam bendideliwe, nemimangaliso yam ayibanga naziphumo zokufa kwam. NaseMnqamlezweni ndandithukwa

Kodwa ndithe ndisaphefumlela phezulu, Ukufa kwam kwakunamandla okuguqula izinto: wonke umntu wayezibetha ezifubeni endiqonda ukuba ndinguNyana kaThixo.

Abanye ke ababezifihla bathuthuzeleka, bawuthatha umzimba wam, bawungcwatywa ngokubekekileyo.

 

Ngamxhelo-mnye, iZulu nomhlaba zavuma ukuba ndinguNyana kaThixo.

 

Ukufa yinto enkulu, into eyoyikekayo!

 

Yenjenje ke le nto koonyana bam: ebomini babo badelekile, bacudiswa.

Ubuhle babo, obufana nokukhanya, bufanele bukhanye emehlweni abo babangqongileyo, buhlala buhamba kancinci.

Ubugorha babo ekubandezelekeni,

ukuzincama kwabo nokuzondelela imiphefumlo ziprojekthi zombini

-ukukhanya kunye

Amathandabuzo kubantu ababangqongileyo.

 

Kwaye ndim ovumayo

ukuze isidima sabantwana bam abathandekayo sigcinwe.

 

Kodwa, ngokukhawuleza ukuba bafe, ekubeni ezi zigqubuthelo azisekho mfuneko, ndibakhulula kwaye

-amathandabuzo abe yinto eqinisekileyo,

-ukukhanya kugcwele kwaye kusenza sibuxabise ubugorha babo.

Ngoko siqala ukuxabisa yonke into ekuzo, kwanezona zinto zincinane. Ngoko ke, into engenakwenziwa ngexesha lobomi, ukufa kuhlawulela.

 

Kunjalo apha emhlabeni.

Kodwa okwenzekayo apho kuyamangalisa ngokwenene kwaye kufanelekile ukumonelwa ngabantu bonke. "

 

Bendibuhlungu kakhulu kukuvinjwa koKulunga kwam.

Emva kokuba ndifumene umthendeleko wema emqaleni wam, ndithe ndisazama ukuwuginya, ndabe ndinencasa emqaleni. Emva kokuqhubeka nemizamo yam ixesha elide lokuginya umamkeli,

uye wehla ndambona eguquguquka   eyintombazana encinci eyathi kum  :

 

"  Umzimba wakho   yintente yam    ,

umphefumlo wakho   ciborium  equlathe    mna e

ukubetha kwentliziyo yakho   -  inginginya endivumela    ukuba ndiguqule ndibe kuwe.

 

Ngalo mahluko ukuba, - ekubeni   inginginya   idliwe, ndiphantsi kokufa okungapheliyo.

Ngelixa   ukubetha kwentliziyo yakho, okufuzisela   uthando lwakho, akunaxanduva lokuyeka.

Oku kuvumela uBomi bam kuwe ukuba buqhubeke.

 

Yini na ke ukuba nizikhathaze kangaka ngeentswelo zenu? Ukuba awundiboni uyandiva.

Ukuba awundiva, uyandibamba.

Ngamanye amaxesha livumba leziqhumiso zam ezisasazeka ngeenxa zonke kuwe, ngamanye amaxesha ukukhanya ovakalelwa kukuba kutyala,

ngamanye amaxesha utywala obungafumanekiyo emhlabeni kwaye buhla kuwe,

ngamanye amaxesha kukho into elula yokuba ndikuchukumise

Kwaye zininzi ezinye iindlela ezingabonakaliyo kuwe. "

 

Ngoku, ngenxa yentobeko,

Ndiya kuthetha ngezo zinto athi uYesu zindehlela rhoqo, naxa ndithe qwa.

 

Le perfume endingakwaziyo ukuyichaza ndiyibiza ngokuba sisiqholo sothando. Ndiyiva kumthendeleko, xa ndithandaza, xa ndisebenza, ngakumbi xa ndingazange ndiyibone.

Kwaye ndiyazixelela:

"Awuzanga namhlanje.

Awazi na, Yesu, ukuba andinako kwaye andifuni kuba ngaphandle kwakho? Ngoko nangoko, ndiziva ngathi ndigalelwe le perfume.

 

Ngamanye amaxesha, xa ndishukuma okanye ndishukumisa amashiti, ndiye ndive le perfume kwaye ngaphakathi ndive uYesu endixelela: "Ndilapha".

Ngamanye amaxesha, xa ndikhathazekile kwaye ndijonge phezulu, imitha yokukhanya ifika emehlweni am.

 

Kodwa mna, ezi zinto, andizithatheli ngqalelo ngokwenene, azindithathi.

awanelisi.

Eyona nto indivuyisayo nguYesu ngokwakhe. Yonke enye into, ndiyifumana ngokungakhathali.

 

Ndabhala oku ngokuthobela okumsulwa.

 

Ndandikwimeko yam yesiqhelo kwaye ndiziva ndimbi kakhulu.

Kwakhona ndacaphuka kuba umthetheli wam wayendixelele ukuba ndandiphambuke kakhulu kwimeko yam yangaphambili nokuba, ukuba akunjalo, uYesu uya kuza.

 

Ndakuba ndifumene umthendeleko, ndakhalaza ukuba ndisikelele uYesu ekuswelekeni kwam, ndimcela ukuba abe nokulunga ukuze andixelele ukuba ndenza ububi obunjani,

Kuba ndingade ndincame ubomi bam, ukuze ndingangamkholisi;

"Kukangaphi ndingakuxeleli ukuba xa undibona ndizokukhubekisa, nokuba kancinci, mandife."

 

UYesu wathi kum  :

“Ntombi yam, ungakhathazeki.

Andizange ndikuxelele, kwiminyaka emininzi eyadlulayo,

-ukuba ukuze ndohlwaye ihlabathi, andiyi kuzikhulula rhoqo kuwe kwaye

ngoko ke, andiyi kuphinda ndize njengokwangaphambili, nokuba ndingayi kukha ndikuyeke;

 

Ndaphinda ndanixelela ukuba, ukuhlawulela ukuza nokuhamba kwam rhoqo,

Ndingakushiyela uMthendeleko kunye noMthendeleko yonke imihla, ukuze ufumane kuwo Amandla obuwafumene ngaphambili ngotyelelo lwam oluqhubekayo.

Nam ndize kugrogrisa uconfessor wakho uba akaziboleki kulento.

 

Ngubani ongazaziyo izohlwayo eziye zenzeka ukususela ngoko?

Izixeko eziphela zitshatyalalisiwe, izidubedube, ukurhoxiswa kobabalo lwam kwabo benza ububi nangenxa yobungendawo benkolo, ukuze le tyhefu, la manxeba abanawo ngaphakathi, aphume.

Ah! Andisakwazi ukuyinyamezela, imibingelelo inkulu kakhulu. Ukanti konke oku akuyonto xa kuthelekiswa nezohlwayo ezizayo.

 

Ukuba bendingakhange ndithethe nawe ngolo hlobo, ubunokothuka.

Ukuze uphile ngokuzithemba, kufuneka uthembele kwiikholomu ezimbini.

 

Enye yazo yiWill yam  .

Akunakubakho izono kuyo.

Intando yam iqhekeza zonke iinkanuko kunye nezono, endizithethayo, ziyazityumza ukusa kwinqanaba lokutshabalalisa iingcambu zazo.

 

Ukuba uzithembela kwintsika yeNtando yam,

-ubumnyama bujika bube kukukhanya;

- amathandabuzo ngokuqinisekileyo,

- ithemba ngokwenene.

 

Ikholamu yesibini   ekungqiyame ngayo

Ukuzimisela okuqinileyo kunye nengqalelo eqhubekayo ukuba ingandikhubekisi, nokuba   incinci  ,

ukusasaza intando yakho

hlupheka   yonke into,

jongana nayo yonke into   e

- zithobe kuyo yonke into kunokuba uzive uzisola.

 

Xa umphefumlo uhlala uxhomekeke kule miqolo, ndithini, xa ezi kholamu zingaphezu kobomi bayo,

unokuphila ngokuzithemba ngakumbi kunokuba ebephila ngokuthanda kwam ngokuqhubekayo, ngakumbi njengoko ndivumela le meko ukuba ikulungiselele ukuba ushiye lo mhlaba ».

 

Ndikwimeko yam yesiqhelo, uYesu olungileyo weza ngokufutshane   wathi kum  :

 

“Mamela, ntombi yam,   iinkxwaleko kunye nobuthathaka

ziyindlela yokufika kwizibuko laseDivinity.

Ngenxa yokuba, ukuva ubunzima bokubandezeleka komntu,

umphefumlo uyadikwa, ukhathazeke kwaye uzame ukuzikhupha. Kwaye, ngokwenza njalo, uzifumana ekuThixo ».

 

Emva koko, emva kokubeka ingalo yam entanyeni yakhe, wandiwola ubuso waza wanyamalala. Ethubeni uye wabuya ndakhalaza ukuba ubaleke okombane, engakhange andinike xesha.

 

Waphendula wathi  :

"Njengoko ungathandi, ndithathe,

Ndibophe ngokuthanda kwakho ungandiyeki ndibaleke".

 

Ndathi  kuye: “Wenze kakuhle, Yesu, esinjani ukuba sihle icebiso ondenzela lona!

Unokuziyeka ubotshwe kwaye uwolwe kangangoko ufuna kodwa, phakathi, uyanyamalala kwaye awufumaneki. Bravo, Yesu, ufuna ukuqhula nam!

Kodwa, emva kwakho konke, yenza oko ufuna. Into ebalulekileyo kum kukuba    undixelele 

-xa ndikunika e

-kwinto ozisola ngayo ukuze ungezi njengakuqala ".

 

UYesu wahlabela mgama  esithi: “Ntombi yam, musa ukuxhala.

Ukuba kukho impazamo yokwenene, akuyomfuneko ukuba kuthiwe. Umphefumlo uzicingela ngokwawo.

Ngenxa yokuba xa isono sesokuzithandela, siphazamisa iimvakalelo zendalo. Umntu uguqukela ebubini.

Kwaye uziva ezaliswe bubutyala abenze ngokuzithandela.

 

Ngokuchasene noko, isidima sokwenene siguqula umphefumlo ube yinto elungileyo,

- iimvakalelo zakhe zihlala zihambelana kwaye

- indalo yakhe ivakala ngathi izele bubumnandi, uthando kunye noxolo. Oku kuchasene noko kwenzekayo ngesono.

 

Ngaba ukhe waluva olu tshintsho kuwe?

Ngaba uziva uzaliswe kukungabi namonde, umsindo, ingxaki? "

 

Uthe xa ethetha wangathi ujonge ngaphakathi kum ukuba azikho na ezi zinto kwaye kwakubonakala ukuba azikho.

Waqhuba wathi: "Uzibonele ngamehlo!"

 

Andazi ukuba kutheni, kodwa njengoko watshoyo, wayendibonisa

- Azisekho iinyikima nezixeko ezitshatyalaliswe ngokupheleleyo,

- iinguqu kunye namanye amashwa amaninzi. Emva koko wanyamalala.

 

Ndikwimeko yam yesiqhelo, ndazibona sele ndiphumile emzimbeni wam. Ndibone ababingeleli, ngaphandle koYesu bonke begxothiwe;

amalungu ayo athe axhaswa.

 

UYesu walatha kwaba babingeleli kwaye wandenza ukuba ndiqonde ukuba, nangona babengababingeleli, babengamalungu ahlukeneyo omzimba wakhe.

 

Wakhalaza  esithi: “Ntombi yam, hayi indlela endikhubeke ngayo ngabanye abefundisi! Abaphathi babo abayijongi indlela yabo yokuphatha imithendeleko kwaye bandibhentsise kwintiyo enkulu.

 

Into oyibonayo ngamalungu ahlukeneyo. Nangona bandikhubekisa kakhulu, uMzimba wam awusenawo unxibelelwano nezenzo zabo ezicekisekayo.

Kodwa abanye,

- abathi bangohlulwa kuM kwaye

- abaqhubeka besebenzisa ubulungiseleli babo bobubingeleli, owu! indlela abandicaphukisa ngayo ngakumbi!

Hayi indlela endiye ndachatshazelwa ngayo ekubulaweni kogonyamelo, ezinjani zona ukohlwaywa kwazo! Andisakwazi ukumelana nabo. "

 

Njengoko wayethetha oku, ndabona abefundisi abaninzi bebaleka iCawe baze bamjikela ukuba benze imfazwe nayo.

 

Ndabajonga aba befundisi ngosizi olukhulu. Ndive ukukhanya okundenze ndaqonda

-ukuba imvelaphi yobubi kwabanye ababingeleli yile:

owalathisa imiphefumlo kwizinto zabantu, zonke izinto eziphathekayo,

-ngaphandle kwemfuneko engqongqo.

 

  Ezi zinto zingabantu zimenzela umnatha umbingeleli

- uphazamisa ingqondo yakhe,

- yenza intliziyo yakhe ibe ndindisholo kwizinto zobuThixo kwaye

- uthintela ukunyathela kwakhe kwindlela ebekufanele ukuba ibe yeyakhe ngokolungiselelo lwakhe.

 

Kwanako oku kungumnatha wemiphefumlo  .

Kuba ekubeni aba babingeleli bezixakekise kakhulu ngemicimbi yabantu, ubabalo alukho kubo.

Owu! Bangakanani na ububi abenzayo aba babingeleli, bangakanani na ukubulalana kwemiphefumlo.”

 

Ngamana iNkosi ingakhanyisela wonke umntu.

 

Bendikwimeko yam yesiqhelo.

Ndazibona ndingaphandle komzimba wam ngaphakathi ecaweni.

 

Ngaphezu kwesibingelelo kwakukho uKumkanikazi wasezulwini kunye noNtwana onguYesu owayekhala.

 

Ngomqondiso wamehlo, uMama wam osezulwini wandenza ndaqonda

- thatha uMntwana ezandleni zam kwaye

- yenza konke okusemandleni ukumthomalalisa.

Ndasondela kuye, ndamanga, ndambamba ndathi:

"Yintoni ingxaki ntombi yam entle?" Thembela kum.

Uthando aluyiyo na amafutha kunye nokuthomalalisa zonke iintlungu?

Ayilothando na olusenza silibale ngayo yonke into, eswiti yonke into kwaye ithomalalise emva kweengxabano?

 

Ukuba uyalila,

kufuneka kubekho ukungavisisani phakathi kothando lwakho nolo lwezidalwa.

Ngoko ke masithandane.

Ndinike uthando lwakho kwaye nam, ngothando lwakho, ndiya kukuthanda".

 

Ngubani obenobuthetha obububhanxa bendimxelela ngolo hlobo?

Ebengathi ukhe waphola kancinci kodwa hayi ncam. Emva koko wanyamalala.

 

Ngosuku olulandelayo, ngaphandle komzimba wam kwakhona,

Ndazifumana ndisegadini apho ndandisenza iVia Crucis.

Ngokwenza oko, ndazifumana ndinoYesu ezingalweni zam.

 

Xa ndifika   kwisikhululo seshumi elinanye  ,

UYesu oNgcwele, engakwazi ukuzibamba, wandimisa,

- ukusondeza umlomo wakhe kum,

- wasigalela into ebimanzi kwaye ijiyile.

Inxalenye yolwelo, bendinokuyisela, kodwa indawo engqindilili ayifuni kuhla,

ukusa kwinqanaba lokuba xa uYesu esusa umlomo wakhe kowam, kwafuneka ndiwulahle phantsi emhlabeni.

 

Emva koko ndajonga kuYesu kwaye ndabona ukuba kuphuma ulwelo olumnyama, olumnyama emlonyeni wakhe.

Ndoyika ndamxelela:

"Ndiyacinga

-ukuba wena akunguye uYesu, uNyana kaThixo, noMariya unina kaThixo,

-kodwa idemon.

 

Kuyinyani ukuba ndiyakufuna kwaye ndiyakuthanda,

Kodwa nguYesu kuphela endimfunayo.

- soze idemon.

Andifuni kwazi nto ngosathana.

Ndingathanda ukungabinaye uYesu kunokujongana nosathana. "

 

Ukuze ndiqiniseke ngakumbi, ndenza umqondiso womnqamlezo kuYesu kwaye emva koko kum. Ke, ukususa lonke uloyiko kum,

UYesu wathabatha ulwelo olumnyama ngaphakathi kuye,

-olulwelo ndandingaboni ngasonye.

 

Wathi kum  :

“Ntombi yam, andingosathana mna.

Into oyibonayo ayikho enye into

- ukuba ubugwenxa obukhulu izidalwa ezenza kum, kwaye

-endiya kugalela phezu kwabo.

Kuba andisakwazi ukubabamba kum.

 

Ndigalele kuwe wangakwazi uzibamba zonke.

Uyijule phantsi. ndiya kuqhubeka nokubahlawula.

 

Akutsho, yandiqondisa ukuba zeziphi na izibetho eziya kunisa ezulwini.

Uya kubagubungela abantu ngezijwili neenyembezi ezikrakra.

 

Intwana awandigalela yona iya kusisindisa isixeko sethu, noko ngokuyinxenye. Yandibonisa ukufa okuninzi ngenxa yezifo kunye neenyikima,

kwakunye namanye amashwa.

Zingaphi na iziphanziso, ezininzi iintsizi!

 

Ekubeni ndandikwimeko yam yesiqhelo, ndandilahlekelwe zingqondo.

Ndibone abantu abaninzi bebaleka koyena ungcwele uYesu. Wasaba ke, wasaba, akafumana ndawo apho asukuba eya khona. Ekugqibeleni weza kum wonke evuza ngumbilo, ediniwe kwaye   enxunguphele.

 

Wazijula ​​ezingalweni zam, wandanga wandiqinisa, wathi kwabo babemlandela:

"Kulo mphefumlo, awukwazi ukundenza ndibaleke." Iigusha, zarhoxa.

 

UYesu wathi kum:

"Ntombazana, andisakwazi ukunyamezela, ndinike ukuphumla." Yaye waqala ukusela kwasesizalweni sam. Ndiye ndaphinda ndathambisa umzimba wam.

 

 

Ndandicinga   ngoYesu

- ethwele umnqamlezo wakhe endleleni eya eKalvari   ngeli xesha

apho wadibana khona nabafazi   nalapho   , engayihoyi intlungu yakhe,

Wayephethe ukubathuthuzela, abaphendule, abayalele.

 

Hayi indlela yonke into eyayiluthando kuYesu!

Wayefuna ukuthuthuzelwa, ukanti nguye owathuthuzelayo. Yaye enjani yona imeko awayekuyo!

Zonke zigutyungelwe   ngamanxeba,

intloko ihlatywe ngameva abukhali;

ukhefuzela kwaye uphantse ufe phantsi   komnqamlezo.

 

Noko ke, wabathuthuzela abanye. Onjani wona umzekelo!

Olunjani usizi kuthi ukuba umnqamlezo omncinci wanele ukusenza silibale ngomsebenzi wokuthuthuzela abanye!

 

Emva koko ndakhumbula amaxesha apho, ndididekile

ukubandezeleka   okanye

ekusweleni kukaYesu,   e

ndizele kukrakra kuwo umongo wamathambo am   ;

Ndazama ukuthuthuzela nokufundisa abo bandingqongileyo

-ndizilibele,

- wakhuthazwa ukuba enze oku nguYesu ngokwakhe

ukumxelisa ngalo mzuzu uthile wothando lwakhe.

 

Ndiye ndaqalisa ukumbulela.

-Khululeka ngoku kwaye ukhululwe ekubeni ungqongwe ngabantu -

- ngenxa yentobeko endigcina ndirhoxile -, endivumela ukuba ndinyamekele ngokwam.

 

Waza, eshukuma ngaphakathi kwam,   wathi uYesu kum  :

 

"Intombazana yakho,

-yandithuthuzela kwaye ndaziva ndikhululekile,

-ingakumbi kuba aba bafazi beza kundenzela okulungileyo.

 

Kule mihla,

uphoswa ngokwenene abo bantu babeka umoya wangaphakathi wenene emiphefumlweni:

ukungabi nayo   ngokwayo,

abanako ukuyifaka   kwabanye.

 

Banobuntununtunu, abakhohlakeleyo, banemiphefumlo engenangqondo,

ngaphandle kokwahlulwa okwenyani kuyo yonke into kunye nawo   wonke umntu.

Oku kuvelisa iimpawu ezintle ezifa ngaphambi kokuqandusela.

 

Kwaye kukho abathile abakholelwa ekuqhubeleni phambili kwemiphefumlo ngokuxhasa ukucokiseka nokungakhathali.

Kunoko, ziyimiqobo yokwenene kwimiphefumlo. Uthando lwam luyazila kunye nabo.

 

Wena,

-indlela endikunike ngayo ukuKhanya okuninzi kwiindlela zangaphakathi e

-ukuba ndikwenze ukuba uqonde iNyaniso malunga noBulungisa bokwenyani kunye noThando lokwenyani, ngomlomo wakho ndikwazile ukwenza abanye baqonde

-INyaniso malunga neendlela eziyinyaniso zoBulungisa. Ndavuya ngayo ".

 

Ndamxelela:

"Kodwa, Yesu oyiNgcwele, emva kwedini elikhulu endalenzayo,

bebehleba aba bantu. Ukuthobela kukwalele ngokufanelekileyo ukuza kwaba   bantu ».

 

Waqhubeka wathi:

Nantsi impazamo: nikela ingqalelo kwintlebendwane hayi ezona zilungileyo ekufuneka zenziwe.

Bamanyana kananjalo kum.

Ukuba bendiyekile kula mabali, ngendingazange ndiyifezekise inkululeko yabantu.

 

Ngoko ke, kuyimfuneko ukunyamekela

- kufuneka senze ntoni e

-hayi into ethethwa ngabantu.

Ke yona intlebendwane, ingxelo yakhe nabani na oyenzayo ihleli.

 

Ndizifumana ndikwimo yam yesiqhelo, uYesu Ongcwele weza ekwimo yomntwana. Undincamise wandibamba endiphulula ixesha elide.

 

Ndothuswa kukuba endenzele ezo mpawu zothando, ndingonwabanga. Ndabuyisela kuye ezi mpawu zothando, kodwa ndisoyika.

 

Ngokukhanya okuphuma kuye, wandenza ndaqonda ukuba xa efika ihlala iyintsikelelo enkulu,

-hayi nje kum,

- kodwa nakwihlabathi lonke

Kuba ngokuthanda umphefumlo nokuzigalela kuwo, Ufikelela lonke uluntu  .

 

Enyanisweni, kulo mphefumlo, kukho unxibelelwano oluninzi oluyibophelelayo kubo bonke abanye: ukudibanisa

ukufana,

utata okanye ukuzala   ,

lobuzalwana, ekubeni zonke izinto zidalwe   ngezandla zakhe;

ukuba bonke bathengwe ngaye, ukuze bonke baphawulwe   ngegazi laKhe  . 

 

Ngoko ke, xa ethanda kwaye ethanda umphefumlo,

abanye bayathandwa kwaye bababalwe,

ukuba kunjalo,   ngokuyinxenye.

 

Yiyo ke loo nto esiza kum ngeli xesha lendyikitya yokufa, andange, endiphulula andijongile;

Oyena Ungcwele uYesu wayefuna ukuthelela zonke ezinye izidalwa kunye

zigcineni ngokuyinxenye, ukuba nokanye   .

 

Emva koko ndabona umfana, ndikholelwa ukuba yayiyingelosi, eyayiphawula abo baya kuchatshazelwa zizibetho.

Wabonakala esiya kwinginginya yabantu.

 

Bendikwimo yam yesiqhelo wabe u Yesu Ongcwele akafikanga.

Ndazicingela ndathi: “Hayi indlela atshintshe ngayo uYesu, engasandithandi ngendlela awayefudula endithanda ngayo!

Ngaphambi kokuba ndilaliswe ebhedini, ngoxa kwakukho ikholera, wandixelela ukuba ukuba ndinokukwamkela oku kubandezeleka kangangeentsuku ezimbalwa, kwakuya kuyiphelisa ikholera, yaye xa ndayamkelayo, isibetho saphela.

 

Kodwa ngoku undigcina ebhedini ngalo lonke ixesha,

siva ngekholera, intshabalalo eyenzayo kwabo bangathathi ntweni.

Kwaye akafuni ukundimamela. Ingathi akasafuni kundisebenzisa."

 

Ndithe ndisatsho, ndajonga ngaphakathi, ndabona uYesu, ephakamise intloko, wandijonga waza wandiphulaphula ngobubele.

Uthe xa ebona ukuba ndiqaphele ukuba undijongile wathi:

"Ntombazana yam elungileyo, undicaphukisa njani!

Ufuna ukuphumelela ngamandla, akunjalo?

Ilungile, ilungile, kodwa ayisandikhathazi. ”Emva koko wanyamalala.

 

Bendikwimeko yam yesiqhelo

Kum kwakubonakala ngathi umvumisi wam wayefuna ndibethelelwe emnqamlezweni. Emva kweengxabano ezimbalwa, uYesu onobubele uye wasebenzisana kancinane waza   wandixelela.

 

"Ntombi yam, ngenxa yelizwe, andinakukwazi ukumelana nayo.

Baninzi abandiqumbisayo, Bakrazula izilonda ezandleni zam

ngamandla ". Njengoko wayethetha oku, kwabonakala ngathi imvula enkulu yayisonakalisa imidiliya.

 

Ngoko ndathandazela ummeli wam owayebonakala ekho.

Ndandifuna ukubamba izandla zakhe ukuze uYesu amchukumise, kwabonakala kum ukuba uYesu wayemchukumisile. Ndamcenga uYesu ukuba axelele lo mfundisi oko akulindele kuye. UYesu wathi kuye  :

 

«  Ndifuna Uthando, ukunxanelwa iNyaniso noBulungisa.

Eyona nto inegalelo ekwenzeni isidalwa sahluke kum kukungabi nazo ezi mpawu zintathu. "

 

Emva koko, njengoko wayebiza igama elithi Uthando, wabonakala etywina ngoThando.

-onke amalungu,

- intliziyo kunye

- ubulumko bombingeleli. Owu! Hayi indlela alunge ngayo uYesu!

 

Kamva, xa ndaxelela ummeli wam oko ndandikubhale ngomhla we-9 wale nyanga, ndathandabuza ndaza ndacinga oku: “Hayi indlela endandinqwenela ngayo ukuba ndandingazibhalanga ezi zinto!

Ngaba yinyani ukuba uYesu uyawaxhoma amanxeba ukuze andonelise, okanye yingcamango yam?

 

UYesu wathi kum  : “Ntombi yam  , uBulungisa kunye neNceba bahlala besokola.

Kodwa inceba iphumelela ngakumbi kunobulungisa.

Xa umphefumlo udityaniswe ngokugqibeleleyo kwintando yam, uthatha inxaxheba kwizenzo zam.

Kwaye xa   athe waneliswa bubunzima bakhe  .

Inceba ifumana olona loyiso lwayo luhle ngaphezulu koBulungisa.

 

Kuba ndivuyiswa kukuthwesa zonke iimpawu zam zeNceba,

kuquka noBulungisa, xa ndizibona ndicatshukiswa ngumphefumlo odityaniswe nam.

Ngoko ke, ukuze ndimanelise, ndizinikela kuye

ekubeni ezishiyile zonke kwiWill yam.

 

Yilento ndingezi xa ndingafuni kuncama. Kuba andiqondi ukuba ndingaxhathisa.

Khona ithandabuza lakho livela phi?"

 

Ngale ntsasa bendikwimeko yam yesiqhelo.

UYesu Ongcwele weza ngokufutshane waza   wathi kum  :

 

"Ntombi yam, bonke ubuhle yiparadesi efunyanwa ngumphefumlo.

Ngaloo ndlela umphefumlo ubumba amazulu amaninzi kangangoko ufumana isidima.

Ezi bhakabhaka

ukoyisa konke utyekelo lomntu emphefumlweni, ukutshabalalisa konke okusemhlabeni kunye

menze ahambe ngokukhululeka

kwiindawo ezicocekileyo,

kwezona zinto   zingcwele,

 kwiziqhumiso zezulu zasezulwini,

aze angcamle ngaphambili uvuyo olungunaphakade.” Emva koko wathi shwaka.

 

Emva kokuba ndifumene umthendeleko, ndaziva ndiguqulwe ngokupheleleyo ndanguYesu ongcwele kwaye ndazixelela:

 

"  Ulugcina njani olu tshintsho kuYesu?"

 

Emva koko ndacinga ukuba   ndive uYesu esithi kum  ngaphakathi:

"Ntombi yam, ukuba uyafuna

- hlala uguqulelwe kum, e

- nokuba ube mnye nam:

 

ndihlala ndindithanda.

Olu  tshintsho kuM luya kugcinwa.

 

Inene uthando lungumlilo.

Naliphi na isiqwenga somthi esiphoswe ngaphakathi, esincinci okanye esikhulu, esiluhlaza okanye esomileyo,

ithatha imo yalo mlilo   kwaye

ijika ibe ngumlilo   ngokwawo

Emva kokutshiswa kweenkuni ezininzi.

- abasahlukanga omnye komnye;

-kuquka amaqhekeza abeluhlaza kwezo zomileyo. Sibona umlilo kuphela.

 

Ngoko ke ngumphefumlo ongayeki ukundithanda.

Uthando ngumlilo oguqula umphefumlo ube nguThixo.

Uthando luyamanyanisa. Amadangatye ayo

-tyala zonke izenzo zabantu   e

-ukubanika imo   yezenzo zobuThixo".

 

Bendikwimeko yam yesiqhelo. Ndathandaza kuYesu wam ngothando

-ukufumana indlela eyonwabisayo kobunye ubomi njengombingeleli

-owayengumchazi wam iminyaka emininzi.

 

Ndathi kuYesu wam oyintanda:

“Khumbula

mangaphi   amadini   awawenzayo,

ngenzondelelo ayenzele uzuko nozuko lwenu   ;

yonke into wandenzela yona? Akazange   abandezeleke kangakanani?

Deign ukuyibuyisela kuye ngokumenza aye ngqo eZulwini ».

 

UYesu oNgcwele wathi kum  :

“Ntombi yam, andijongi kangako kwedini

ngaphezu kothando ezenziwe ngalo, kwaye

kumanyano nam apho   zenziwa khona.

 

Okukhona umphefumlo umanyene nam,

kokukhona ndiyiqwalasela imibingelelo yakhe.

 

Ukuba umphefumlo umanyene ngokusondeleyo nam,

- Ndibeka ukubaluleka okukhulu kwimibingelelo yakhe encinci kuba, kulo manyano, kukho umlinganiselo wothando.

Umlinganiselo wothando ngumlinganiselo wanaphakade kwaye awunamda. Kwelinye icala, ngenxa yomphefumlo

-nto leyo encama kakhulu kodwa

-ongamanyananga nam,

Ndiwajonga amadini akhe njengalawo omntu wasemzini e

Ndimnika umvuzo awufaneleyo, umvuzo olinganiselweyo.

 

Khawube nomfanekiso katata nonyana abathandana kakhulu  . Unyana wenza imibingelelo emincinci.

Noyise, ngenxa   yamaqhina

utata,

ifiliation   e

yothando, - esi sibophelelo sokugqibela sinamandla   -,

jonga la madini mancinci ngathi zizinto ezinkulu. uloyiso,

Uziva ehloniphekile,

unika unyana wakhe bonke ubutyebi bakhe

umnika lonke ulwazelelelo nenkathalo yakhe.

Ngoku makhe siqwalasele umkhonzi   owathi

- ukusebenza imini yonke,

- ibonakaliswe kubushushu nokubanda;

- wenza yonke imiyalelo kwileta kwaye, ukuba kuyimfuneko,

- nasebusuku uyamlinda umphathi wakhe. Yaye ifumana ntoni?

Umvuzo omncinci wosuku.

Ukuze xa engaphangeli yonke imihla, kunyanzeleke ukuba aphelelwe kukutya.

 

Lo ngumahluko phakathi komphefumlo odityaniswe naM kunye nomphefumlo ongekho ».

 

Uthe xa esitsho,

Ndaziva ndingaphandle komzimba wam ndikunye noYena Ngcwele ndaza ndathi kuye:

"Sthandwa sam, ndixelele, uphi lo mphefumlo?"

 

Waphendula wathi  : “Kwindawo yentlambululo-miphefumlo.

Owu! Ukuba ubona ukukhanya awayequbha, uya kumangaliswa.

 

Ndathi, "Uthi ukwindawo yentlambululo-miphefumlo kwaye, kwangaxeshanye, udada ekukhanyeni?" UYesu waqhubeka  wathi:

Ewe, qubha ekukhanyeni, kuba wayenaso esi sibane kwindawo yokugcina.

Xa wafayo, wabaleka phezu kwakhe kwaye akasayi kuze amshiye.

 

Ndaqonda ukuba oku kukhanya kuvela

ngemisebenzi yakhe emihle ayenze ngenjongo enyulu.

 

Ndandibuhlungu kakhulu kukuvinjwa kukaYesu wam onobubele.Ndakuba ndifumene umthendeleko, ndakhalazela ukungabikho kwakhe.

 

Wandixelela   ngaphakathi:

 

"Intombazana yakho,

kukho izinto ezibuhlungu, ezibuhlungu kakhulu ezenzekayo neziza kwenzeka.” Ndandisoyika kakhulu la mazwi.

Zaqengqeleka iintsuku uYesu engafiki. Ndimve nje esithi kum izihlandlo ezininzi:

 

"Ntombi yam, nyamezela, ndiza kukuxelela kamva ukuba kutheni ndingezi."

Ngaloo ndlela, ndahamba ngesikhephe ndinomsindo, kodwa ndinoxolo. Ndiphuphe iphupha elindenze ndabuhlungu lade landiphazamisa kakhulu. Ingakumbi ekubeni, engamboni uYesu,

Ndandingenabani endandinokubhenela kuye ukuze ndingqongwe ngumoya woxolo

enokuvela kuphela   kuYesu.

 

Owu! Onjani ukuba nosizi umphefumlo okhathazekileyo.

 

Ingxaki ifana nomoya osisihogo esiwuphefumlayo. Lo moya wesihogo

khokela   indawo yasezulwini yoxolo   e

ithatha indawo kaThixo emphefumlweni. Ngomsi wayo ophantsi,

- ukuphazamiseka kongamele umphefumlo kakhulu

-ukuba nezona zinto zingcwele kwaye zinyulu zibonakala zezona zimbi kwaye ziyingozi.

 

Yenza yonke into ibe mdaka. Umphefumlo,

-ifakwe kulo moya wesihogo,

- ukruqukile ngayo yonke into kunye noThixo ngokwakhe.

 

Ndawuva lo moya wesihogo,

-hayi ngaphakathi kum, kodwa ngeenxa zonke kum.

Wayendenza kakubi kangangokuba ndandingasenandaba nokuba uYesu akafiki. Ndide ndaziva ndingafuni ukumbona.

 

Oku kwakunzulu kakhulu.

Yayiyinyani yokuba ndandiqinisekisiwe

-ukuba bendingekho kwimeko entle

 

Kwaye ngoko,

-ukuba iimbandezelo kunye nokufika kukaYesu kwakungeyiyo intando kaThixo kwaye

-ukuba kwafuneka ndiyigqibe kanye kanye.

 

Andiyithethi yonke into kuba andiqondi ukuba iyafuneka. Ndibhala ngokuthobela kuphela.

 

Ngobusuku obulandelayo, ndayibona

-amanzi ehla evela ezulwini: umkhukula, ukwenza umonakalo omkhulu kwaye ukungcwaba yonke imimandla. Eli phupha landichukumisa kangangokuba ndandingafuni nokubona kwanto.

 

Ngelo xesha, ihobe libhabha lindijikeleza lathi kum:

"Ukuxubha amagqabi kunye nemifuno,

- ukumbombozela kwamanzi;

- ukukhanya okungena emhlabeni,

-ukuhamba kwayo yonke indalo,

- yonke into, yonke into ivela kwiminwe kaThixo.

Ngaba unokucinga ukuba imeko yakho wedwa ibingayi kuvela kwiminwe kaThixo?

 

Emva koko kwafika u-confessor wam. Ndiye ndamchazela yonke lento. Wandixelela ukuba ngusathana lo ufuna ukundikhathaza.

Uthe xa endishiya,

-Ndiye ndathula kancinci,

-kodwa njengomntu ogula kakhulu.

 

Bendikwimeko yam yesiqhelo.

Kwabonakala kum ukuba uYesu uzibonakalise kancinci kwaye ndathi kuye:

"Ubomi bam Yesu sthandwa sam kwezintsuku ndikhathazekile. Wena ubunomona ngoxolo lwam.

anithethanga nelizwi elinye yonke le mihla

ukuze undinike olo xolo   ulunqwenelayo”.

 

Waphendula wathi  :

“Awu! Ntombi yam, bendikhwele uloliwe

ukutywatyusha nokutshabalalisa yonke imimandla   e

ukungcwaba ubomi babantu. Yiyo loo nto bendingezi. Namhlanje lusuku   lokuphumla,

- Ndikhawuleze ukuza kukubona

-Ngaphambi kokuqalisa kwakhona isabhokhwe.

 

Yazi ukuba awuzange uvuze

izinto ezenziwe ngobunyulu   benjongo,

iyasebenza   kwaye

konke okwenziwa ngenxa   yam,

Ndingasilela kumsebenzi onxulumene nobulungisa bam

kwaye zonke ezinye iimpawu zam ziyakufihlakala.

 

Oko kwathiwa,   nazi izixhobo ezithathu ezinamandla kakhulu.

ukutshabalalisa loo smudge inetyhefu kunye ne-infernal iyisiphithiphithi.

 

Ukucingela

-ukuba imfuneko yokubetha iyandinyanzela ukuba ndingezi iintsuku ezimbalwa e

-ukuba lo moya wesihogo ufuna ukukubetha, uphikise ngezi zixhobo zintathu:

ukucoceka   kwenjongo,

umsebenzi olungileyo nolungileyo ngokwawo   -

ukuba lixhoba,   idini ngenxa Yam   ngenjongo   yokundithanda  .

 

Ndiyayithanda lento

uya koyisa nakuphi na ukuphazamiseka   kwaye

uya kumthumela   kwelabafileyo.

 

Ngokungakhathali kwakho, uya kuguqula isitshixo ukuze singakwazi

- phuma kwaye

- yiza ukhathazeke kwakhona. "

 

Ndikwimo yam yesiqhelo, uYesu ongcwele weza   wathi kum  :

 

"Intombazana yakho,

iManyano ePhakamileyo  iyenzeka 

 

xa umphefumlo ufika kumanyano olusondeleyo neWill yam

-odla wonke umthunzi wentando yawo, ukuze ungabi sahluka

- eyintando yam kwaye

- yintando yakhe.

 

Ke Intando yam iba buBomi balo mphefumlo ukuze

- kungakhathaliseki ukuba yintoni endinayo kuye,

abanye yena yanele.

 

Yonke into ibonakala ifanelekile kuye: ukufa, ubomi, umnqamlezo, ubuhlwempu,  njl.

 

Jonga zonke ezi zinto njengezezakhe kwaye ukhonza ukugcina ubomi bakhe.

Ifikelela kwinqanaba lokuba angoyiki kwanezohlwayo.

Izele yintando kaThixo kuyo   yonke into.

 

-Ukuba ndifuna into, naye uyayifuna,   kwaye

-ukuba kukho into ayifunayo, ndiya kumnika.

Ndenza lento ayifunayo kwaye wenza lento ndiyifunayo.

 

Lo ngumphefumlo wokugqibela wokusetyenziswa kwentando yomntu kum,

-ukuba amaxesha amaninzi ndikubuze kwaye

-ukuba intobelo kunye nothando kummelwane wakho ayizange ikuvumele.

 

Mamaxesha amaninzi,

Ndim owanikezelayo kuwe ngokungohlwayi

Kodwa anikhange nincame phambi kwam.

Oku kwandinyanzela ukuba ndizimele kuni, ukuze ndikhululeke.

-xa ubulungisa banyanzelise isandla sam kwaye

-xa amadoda endixhokonxa ukuba ndithathe isabhokhwe ndibohlwaye.

 

Ubuqu

ngexesha   lokubethwa,

Ukuba bendinawe nam, kunye neWill yam, ngendisinciphise ndasinciphisa   isibetho.

 

Kuba akukho mandla amakhulu ezulwini nasemhlabeni kunomphefumlo,

- kuyo yonke into nakuyo yonke into idliwe kwiWill yam.

 

Lo mphefumlo ufikelela kwinqanaba

-ukundenza buthathaka kwaye ngenxa

- Ndihluthe izixhobo ngokufanelekileyo. Olu lumanyano oluphezulu.

 

Kukwakho nomanyano oluxubeneyo

- apho umphefumlo urhoxa khona, ewe,

kodwa akazinanzeleli iingqondo zam

-njengezinto zakhe,

- ngokungathi bubomi bakhe.

 

Yena

ungayonwabeli iNtando yam,   kananjalo

eyakhe ayinyibiliki   kowam.

 

Ndiyayijonga, ewe Kodwa ayizi

- ukuba ndiyamthanda naye,

-ukuba ndingaphambana naye,

njengoko kwenzeka kwimiphefumlo kumanyano oluphezulu ».

 

Ngale ntsasa, uYesu oNgcwele wazibonakalisa ngaphakathi kwam ekwimo yokuphumla,

ukuze achache kubo bonke ubukrakra abunikwa zizidalwa, wathetha la mazwi alula kum: “  Uyiparadesi yam emhlabeni, intuthuzelo yam”.

 

Emva koko wanyamalala.



 

Uthando ngumlilo kwaye zonke iinkuni eziphoswa kuwo, ezincinci okanye ezinkulu, eziluhlaza okanye ezomileyo, zithatha imo yalo mlilo kwaye ziguquke zibe ngumlilo ngokwawo.

 

Emva kokuba kutshiswe iinkuni eziliqela, azisahlukani, kuquka namaqhekeza ebeluhlaza kwezo zomileyo.

 

Sibona umlilo kuphela.

Ngoko ke ngumphefumlo ongayeki ukundithanda.

 

Uthando ngumlilo oguqula umphefumlo ube nguThixo.

Uthando luyamanyanisa.

Amadangatye alo atyala zonke izenzo zomntu kwaye abanike uhlobo lwezenzo zobuthixo ".

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