UJeanne le Royer / uDade wokuzalwa
ISIGABA SESIBINI.
Phambi kokuba ndilushiye uluntu, enye yenkxalabo yam yokuqala yayikukubeka ecaleni, ukuhoya xa ndihamba, onke amanqaku awayephathelele ngokuthe ngqo ngakumbi umcimbi weBandla, kuba oko kwakubonakala kum njengeyona njongo iphambili. Usisi. Yayikukuzibeka ngolungelelwano endandizixakekise ngazo kwiinyanga zokuqala zokugxothwa kwam.
Kodwa olu khetho, olwenziwe kwiimeko zokuhamba ngokukhawuleza kunye nokukhawuleza, kwakungenakuchaneka kakhulu. Kwasala ubuninzi beemeko ezinomdla kakhulu kunye namabali endingenako ukuwacinezela ngaphandle kokulimaza unobangela endimangalelwe ngawo. Umqulu wokuqala wanikela isicwangciso somsebenzi; akazichaza zonke iinkcukacha, kwanesenzo sonke. Isihloko sagqitywa, umsebenzi wawungekho, okanye ubuncinane awuzange uphelele.
Ukuyongezelela, ke ngoko, nokungashiyi nantoni na enokufak’ isandla kuzuko loSomandla nasekusindisweni kwemiphefumlo, ndiziqokelele ezi meko zisasazekileyo, ezi mpawu zahlukeneyo, ukuze ndizidibanise nezinye izikhanyiso ezingokobuthixo ezathi zaziwa ngoMoya oyiNgcwele. Dade woZalo, ukuze benze ukuqhubela phambili kwabo okunokuthi batyebise umxholo wezityhilelo zokuqala, kwaye babonise njengobungqina obutsha bento ekufuneka yenzeke.
UDade wayeyibone kwangaphambili imfuneko yesi songezelelo, ekubeni, njengoko siza kubona kungekudala, yena ngokwakhe wacebisa le ngcamango kum, waza, ngokungathi kunjalo, walilanda icebo, ebonisa kum izinto ezimele zingene kulo.
Nangona kwakungenakwenzeka ukuba ndibeke umyalelo ofanayo apho, ndinobuganga bokuthi umntu uya kufumana kuyo yonke indawo umoya ofanayo, umdla ofanayo kunye nokubaluleka okufanayo ngokunxulumene nosindiso, ukuya kwinqanaba nakwizihlonipho umqulu wesibini wabonakala uthandeka. kowokuqala; kwaye andizithatheli kuye isigqibo ngombuzo.
INQAKU LOKUQALA.
Iinkcukacha kunye nophuhliso kwiimbandezelo zeCawa ngamaxesha okugqibela.
"Egameni loYise, loNyana neloMoya oyiNgcwele ... njl." »
Bawo, kwingxelo endikunike yona kuyo yonke into ephathelele iimeko ezahlukeneyo zeBandla ngokubanzi, ndisinde kwizinto ezininzi ezibangel’ umdla uThixo afuna ndikubhalele zona. Ngoko, ukuba ucinga ukuba kufanelekile, siya kuthetha ngazo njengoko zindikhumbula, okanye kunoko njengoko kukholisa uThixo ukundikhumbuza ngazo. Ezi ziya kuba zininzi iimeko ezintsha eziya kunceda ukongeza oko sele kuthethiwe: baya kukhumbula iingcamango ezifanayo, kwaye baya kuzityebisa, ngaphandle kokuphindaphinda amagama afanayo. Kuba okuseleyo, Bawo, uya kuwubeka apho ulungelelwano nolungiselelo olithandayo: kwanele ukuba ndinibonise zona, ngokuphindaphinda kuwe ukuba ukuthanda kukaThixo kukuba uzibhokoxe ekubhaleni le ntwana incinane. sebenza. , kwaye, ukuba ubeke yonke inkathalo kunye nayo yonke
Ngaphandle kwale ncwadi. Isizathu esinamandla sokusebenza kuyo.
UThixo undixelela ukuba uya kuwela iilwandle kwaye amkelwe kwizikumkani ezininzi....
Ngenye imini iya kuthatha ababhali abaninzi; kwaye kude kube sekupheleni kwehlabathi uya kukhokela inani elikhulu kakhulu lemiphefumlo ezulwini Ngamana singamangqina !
kodwa akuyi kubakho kobu bomi; amathambo akho nawam aya kupheliswa abe luthuli, kwaye esikubhalayo kuya kubakho kwaye sihlomle ngako; uya kuba ngumthombo nentuthuzelo yabathembekileyo, njengokuphelelwa lithemba kwazo zonke iintshaba zikaThixo, ezinkqubo zazo ezingahloneli Thixo nemigudu yazo engafanelekanga aya kuzibhukuqa kwangaphambili, ngokulungiselela unqulo.
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abamele bahlasele, ubungqina obubambekayo ngakumbi, njengoko kuya kwenziwa ukutshabalalisa amahlelo kunye nenkohlakalo yamaxesha esiphelo .
ngenxa yakho, Bawo, ngenzondelelo nangenkalipho. Yintoni onokuyenza ngcono ngexesha lakho, ngakumbi ngeli xesha ungekhoyo?
Isihloko sokubeka apho.
Kubonakala ngathi ukuthanda kukaThixo kukuba ubeke isihloko apho, esivakalisa ukuba nguye ngokwakhe ongumbhali, kwaye isidalwa singena apho kuphela kwifom. Bekuya kuba yimfuneko, ukuba bekunokwenzeka, ukuba singabi nagama mna nawe apho: ngaphezu koko, kulo msebenzi, thina esinye kunye nezinye izixhobo ezizizo zodwa zentando kaThixo, ngenkankulu ukuba sibe nako ukwenza ngokwethu ukonakalisa umsebenzi. yeNkosi. Amagama ethu anokunika ubunzima obunjani? Ndiyishiya yonke loo nto kwingcinga yenu, kwaye ndifika kwezinye iimeko ezishiyiweyo malunga namaxesha okugqibela eBandla lika-J .
Umbono weBandla ngamaxesha okugqibela.
Uya kwazi ke Bawo ukuba ngeCawe yokuqala kwinyanga yokugqibela kaJanuwari, ndibe nombono onokuthi unike umfanekiso omhle kakhulu, ukuba umzobi unokubamba ngokufanelekileyo zonke izinto, aze aziguqule ngendlela efanayo. ucwangco nangamandla afanayo njengoko beziveze engqondweni yam.
Ngaloo ndlela ndiphila njengesakhelo esifanayo kwiCawa ye-JC kunye nabantu abathathu boBathathu Emnye othandekayo. UYise noNyana babehleli, kwaye phambi kwabo iBandla labonakala ngamadolo phantsi komfanekiselo wentombi enyulu bonke ubuhle: uMoya oyiNgcwele wandisa amaphiko akhe waza waphalaza imitha yakhe kwintombi enyulu kunye nabanye abantu ababini. Amanxeba kaJC ayebonakala ekrwada. Ngesinye isandla wayengqiyame emnqamlezweni, waza ngesinye wanikela kuYise indebe enkulu awayeyifumene ezandleni zeCawa eyamnika yona. Ngaloo ndlela intombi ibonise kwaye ixhase i-chalice ukusuka ezantsi; UJC wayibamba phakathi ukuze ayinike uyise, owathi, ukuba amkele, abeke isandla esisodwa kwindebe, kwaye ngesinye isandla asibusise intombi. Lo naye ubambe isandla emnqamlezweni kaJC, nam igazi
kunokuba ahlukane elukholweni kubunye bukaThixo noBathathu Emnye wabantu, kwanakuzo zonke ezinye iingongoma eziqulethwe bubuKatolika.
INtombi Enyulu yayingqongwe linani elingasikelwanga mda lamaKristu anesisa awayebonakala engabantwana bakhe, kangangokuba babenothando nentlonelo ngayo . Babezimisele ukubuncama ubomi babo, baza batshisa igazi labo ukuze baliphalaze ngenxa yaloo msebenzi wawusanda kuwenza egameni likaYe.
Ndaqaphela ukuba i-chalice yayinesiqingatha segazi, kwaye ndeva u-JC esithi kuyise, ebonisa ubuso obunobubele: Ndiya konwaba kuphela xa ndinikela kuwe ngokuzeleyo ...
Ndaqonda ukuba i-chalice yayinegazi labafel 'ukholo bokuqala be-JC, kwaye le mbonakalo yavakalisa intshutshiso yokugqibela yeCawa yakhe, ekufuneka igqibe ukuzalisa i-chalice, ngokuzalisa inani labavumayo kunye nabanyuliweyo ...
Inani labafeli-nkolo bokugqibela.
Kuya kubakho abafeli-nkolo abaninzi ekupheleni njengasekuqaleni kweBandla, kwaye ndiyazi ukuba intshutshiso iya kuba nobundlobongela ukuya kumaxesha okugqibela, kangangokuba kwiminyaka embalwa kuya kubakho inani elilinganayo labo. emva koko umgwebo jikelele we-JC uya kwaneliswa ngokupheleleyo, kuba uya kuba ne
inani elipheleleyo labanyulwa bakhe, wafumana isongezelelo kwinkanuko yakhe. Unaphakade uya kufumana ukufaneleka kunye negazi labafel 'ukholo lwakhe, kwaye yingakho i-JC izizukisa kwaye ibambe, njengokungathi yipropati yakhe. Ungutata ozibona efa ebantwaneni bakhe, kwaye ukuxabise ukufa kwabo njengokwakhe. Umfel 'ukholo we-JC wenza isizathu esiqhelekileyo kunye naye; unxulunyaniswa nokulunga kwakhe njengoko ekunye neembandezelo zakhe. Ufana nomnye uJC; kwaye ukuba kuyinyaniso ukuthetha ngomKristu oyinyaniso ukuba ngu-JC ohlala kuye, akukho nyaniso yokuthetha ngomfel 'ukholo ukuba nguJC olwa, ohluphekayo kwaye ofa kuye.
Olunjani lona ubabalo, Bawo wam, olo lokufela ukholo! kwaye ngubani na oya kuba nobuganga bokuqikelela ukuba unayo, ngakumbi esazi ukuba inani lenziwe kwaye limisiwe, ukuze yonke ingqumbo yabatshutshisi neyesihogo ayisayi kuba nako ukongeza ibe nye kwabo uThixo abanyulileyo ukuba bambuyisele oku. ubungqina begazi! Masinqwenele ukuba ngabafeli-nkolo, kulungile kwaye kulungile; Ke masingamlingi uThixo: lubabalo olungummangaliso, olugqithisele ngokupheleleyo eluntwini. Liyinyaniso elokuba ukunqwenela oko kuyamkholisa kakhulu uThixo; ude undazise ukuba uya kuthathela ingqalelo ukufel’ ukholo kwabo bonke abo bakwimeko yokwenene yokufa kunokuba baqhubeke bephila elukholweni, nokuba bangenzi nto inokumkhubekisa; kodwa ukucingelwa akumkholisi Kunokuba ngaphezulu nangaphantsi
engaphantsi kwimeko yokufela ukholo: kodwa olu tyekelo kufuneka luhlale luqulathe uthando olukhulu lukaThixo, kunye nentiyo enkulu yesono esimkhubekisayo, ngakumbi eso athe wasenza: nto leyo imenza anikezele.
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igama lobhaptizo lwegazi. Masithandaze ke ngoko, Bawo, kwaye soyike ukuba asiyi kufunyanwa sifanelekile, ukuba ithuba liyavela kule mihla yethu.
Unqulo lobuxoki oluchasene nomanyano lukaThixo neCawa yakhe.
Kodwa, Bawo, lo myalelo asingowokuphela kombono endiwuthethayo kuwe; kusabonakala ngathi uThixo ufuna ukuyisebenzisa njengesithinteli ngokuchasene nomoya wemposiso yamaxesha esiphelo. “Yazi, ntombi yam,” wandixelela ngesihlandlo sakhe, ukuba ngasekupheleni kweenkulungwane ezidlulileyo nakwixesha elizayo.
kusondela kulawulo lomchasi-Kristu, kuya kuvela unqulo lobuxoki olunxamnye nomanyano lukaThixo neCawa yakhe . "Njengoko ndikwaziyo, Bawo,
olu qhekeko luza kwenza umonakalo, kangangokuba andiqondi ukuba besingekayiboni intlekele engaka, ngoncedo lweemveliso kunye neentetho zabancedisi bayo ekufuneka basebenze apho ixesha elide kwaye mhlawumbi sele besebenza. Pha. Iya kuvunywa, iya kufumana amahlelo kuyo yonke indawo, iya kuba nempumelelo enkulu, iya kwandisa uloyiso lwayo ngokubanzi, kwaye iya kubonakala igubungela onke amazwe nawo onke amazwe; ekuqaleni iya kuba nomoya oncomekayo noncomekayo kakhulu wokulunga, ubuntu, ububele kunye nenkolo, eya kuhlala ingumgibe ohendayo kwinani elikhulu.
Abalandeli bayo, abangcono ukuba baphumelele, baya kuqala ukuchaphazela intlonipho enkulu yeVangeli kunye nobuKatolika; kuya kuvela iincwadi ezingomoya, eziya kubhalwa ngabo ngokufudumala kokuzinikela, kwaye ziya kuthwala imiphefumlo ukuya kwinqanaba lemfezeko eliya kubonakala liyiphakamisela ezulwini lesithathu. Kananjalo asiyi kuthandabuza ubungcwele bababhali babo okanye bamahlakani abo, esiya kubabeka ngaphezu kwabangcwele abakhulu, abathi, ngokutsho kwabo, babonise kuphela isidima Uyise wobuxoki, njengoko siza kuthi kungekudala ,
akayi kulibala nto yokuvuma izimvo eziya kumkholisa....
Baya kuba nezibingelelo neetempile, apho ababingeleli babo baya kuzabalazela ukuxelisa iimfihlelo, imisitho namadini onqulo, abaya kuthi kuwo.
iya kuxubana nenani leemeko ezibaxiweyo kunye neenkolelo, ukubiza okanye ukungcolisa igama elingcwele likaThixo ... Baya kuzenza iMithendeleko; okokuqala baya kubhaptiza egameni labathathu bobuthixo; kodwa kamsinya baya kuluguqula ulungelelwano lwabantu, yaye baya kwandula ke bashenxise abathile babamisele abanye babangcwele babo. Ukuhanahanisa kwabo kuya kubenza baqulunqe imimangaliso eyothusayo engaphezulu lee kuneLente kunye nokungazibandakanyi kweCawa, nakuzo zonke iintsilelo zabangcwele; kodwa konke oku kuya kuba ngembonakalo kuphela nokuncomeka emehlweni abantu. Unqulo lwabo lusekelwe kuphela kwiziyolo zeemvakalelo, baya kubucekisa ngaphakathi ubomi obubethelelwe emnqamlezweni, ukubandezeleka, ukubandezeleka; kwaye konke abaya kukwenza kubonakale ngaphandle kwayo kuya kuncitshiswa kube yimisebenzi yamandla, abaya kuthi ngawo abakhafuli abachubekileyo bazame ukodlula omnye komnye ngokulinganayo ukuze balukuhle abalula kwaye benze inkohliso yenkohliso yabo nokholo lwabo olubi; eziya kuthi kungekudala zizibonakalise ekujongeleni kwabo ekuhleni ukholo nokuziphatha kweVangeli. Intlekisa abaza kuzama ukuyiphosa kumaKristu asaya kubambelela kuyo, ayisayi kumka ukuwisa nokuwexuka kwabaninzi; kuba olu hlobo lwentshutshiso luyoyikeka ngakumbi kuba luqiniswa yintlonipho yomntu, ukuzithemba, ihlazo lobuxoki, kwaye ngaphezu kwako konke yiminqweno ehlala isikhokelela kwicala eliwathandayo. nakuphi na okunye.
Oonongendi bobuxoki ababizwa ngokuba nguMakoti weeNgoma; udumo lwabo.
Okona kulungileyo ukwenza umgunyathi kumaziko angcwele eCawe, baya kuseka abo babizwa ngokuba ngoonongendi, abaya kuzinikela ngelizwi kwi-continence, kwaye baya kuzibiza ngokuba, ngokugqwesileyo, ngabafazi bamacanticles, okanye abafazi boMoya oyiNgcwele. Baya kuba luncedo olukhulu emsebenzini kaMtyholi; uya kuzenza zibe yinzwakazi eyothusayo, azinike iwonga eliya kutsala amehlo onke, azenze ezi mpahla zikhangeleke njengoothixo. Izityhilelo, uqikelelo lwekamva, imincili, ukuxhwilwa emzimbeni nasemphefumloni kuya kwenzeka kubo rhoqo naphantsi kwamehlo abo bonke; siya kuva kuphela malunga neprodigies yabo kunye nemimangaliso yabalungiseleli bobuxoki, abathi, kwicala labo, abayi kwenza umgudu omncinci wokukhohlisa abantu ngezinto ezimangalisayo apho uMtyholi uya kungena kwabaninzi; de kube semva kokufa kwabo uya kubavusa abathile esibhakabhakeni kwiiglowubhu zomlilo, ukuze abenze banqule njengoothixo abangafiyo. Kwakhona imifanekiso yabo eqingqiweyo iya kuzotywa ezitempileni, yaye kuya kuthiwa ibandla elivelisa imimangaliso enjalo lingcwele ngakumbi kunelokuqala (1).
Kodwa, Bawo, ungaphazamisi, le yimimangaliso efana nekaSimon iNyanga, izazi zaseYiphutha, neyabanye abakhohlisi abathile ababekho ehlabathini, ababesebenzisa idemon yabo.
lulwe unqulo lokwenyaniso. Ingakwazi ukumelana novavanyo, le misebenzi kaSathana iya kudlula kuphela
(1) I-pseudochristi engxamisekileyo, et pseudoprophetœ: et dabunt signa magna, et prodigia; ità ut in errorem inducantur (si fieri potest) etiam electi. (IMat. 24; 24.)
Cujus (uAntichristi) est adventus secundum operationem Satanae, ekunyaniseni konke, et signis, et prodigiis mendacibus, et in omni seduction iniquitatis. (1, kwabaseTes. 2; 9, 10.)
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amakhubalo namakhubalo kayise wobuxoki. Kodwa masigwebe ngehambo efihlakeleyo yaba benzi bemimangaliso, kwaye masixabise isiqhamo ngomthi, nomthi ngesiqhamo. Aba bangcwele bazenza ngathi, bakhanyisiwe kwaye baxhatshazwa kuThixo, la madoda anamandla, aba benzi bemimangaliso abahlonelwa kangaka baya kuhlanganisana ebusuku kunye nabafazi abazenzisayo be-canticles kunye noMoya oyiNgcwele , ezi ntombi zihloniphekileyo nezingcwele, ezizinikele ekuzikhuseleni nasekuziphatheni nyulu; bahlanganisana ebusuku nasezintsithelweni, bekholeka ngamayelenqe abo ;
Kulapho baya kuzixakekisa kunye ekuqulunqeni zonke iindlela ezinokubakho zokukhohlisa ngokusebenzisa umlingo nangokubongoza iidemon. Kulapho, kwakhona, ukuba ukusebenzisa kakubi izibhalo ezingcwele ngokungafanelekanga, kwaye ngaphezu kwakho konke ukunika intsingiselo enzulu kunye nenyama kwi-canticle ye-canticles, baya kuzishiya, ukuze bahambelane nayo, kubo bonke ububi obucingelwayo, kwaye baya kwenza inkohlakalo. nawona masikizi aneenkani, ekungavunyelwanga ukuba awathethe. Ngale ndlela baya kuthembeka kwisibhambathiso sabo sokuzibamba kunye nokuzithoba.
Kuya kuvela kwelinye lala mahenyukazi ukuba umchasi-Kristu uya kuzalwa.
Ndiyabona, Bawo, ukuba enye yezi zivatho zafa ngolu hlobo kufuneka izale umchasi-Kristu ngokwakhe, oya kuba noyise omnye weenkokeli eziphambili zezi ndibano zasebusuku. Uya kukhuliswa esikolweni sabo aze aqeqeshwe ngemigaqo yonqulo olwamzalayo. Uya kuzizukisa ngenxa yokuzalwa ngumfazi we-canticles, eya kuba sisizathu sokuqala sokukhetha yena kuno-J.-C. ngokwakhe. Nangona kunjalo, ihlazo lokuziphatha kwabo liya kufihlakala ixesha elide emehlweni oluntu, kwaye imbopheleleko yokwanelisa ulonwabo lweemvakalelo, eziya kusebenza njengomyalelo wokuqala wesimboli sabo, kuya kuba njalo.
egutyungelwe ngesigqubuthelo semfihlelo nohanahaniso, ukuba akayi kulithintela ikratshi labo nobumfama babo ekuzabalazeleni indawo yokuqala ezulwini, bekhetha bona ngokwabo kunabo bahleli kuzo, yaye ngoxa bekufanelekele iindawo zokuqala emhlabeni.
Baya kuqwengwa yintiyo nekhwele ngakumaKristu, basebenzise amagunya abaya kuxhaswa ngawo, ukuwatshutshisa nokuwathuthumbisa. Owona mnqweno wabo mkhulu uya kuba kukuba bafe okanye bawexuke. Baya kuhlukanisa iCawa kunye noBunkulunkulu ngokwawo, ngokuzama ukukhumbula oothixo bobuhedeni kunye nokuphinda bamise unqulo-zithixo kumanxuwa onqulo ... Kuthetha ukuthini ukuba abantwana bokwenyaniso bakaThixo baphephe imigibe emininzi ebekwe kuzo zonke iindawo, nokuxhasa, ngaphandle kokukhwankqisa, izilingo ezimbi ngolo hlobo. Akukho nto yimbi ngaphandle kokuthandaza, ukubukela rhoqo kwaye ubambelele ngakumbi kunanini na ngaphambili kwinkolelo kwiimfihlelo nakwizigqibo zeBandla, kwaye ekugqibeleni uhambe kuphela ngokukhanya kwesibane sokholo: weyiselwa ngaphandle kokuba uThixo akaze amlahle. owabakhe kwaye akabafuni nokukhanyiselwa, ukholo lwabo kufuneka lugungqiswe kakhulu ...
Umbono, ephupheni, wethotshi yoKholo, ekufuneka ikhanyisele umKristu wenene.
Ndicinga ukuba, Bawo, lelo elinye iphupha endandiphupha ngalo kudala lalithetha ukuthini. Umfana omhle wandinika amakhandlela amathathu akhanyisiweyo, adibana ngokukhawuleza aza enza itotshi enkulu. Yathi kum umfana, Hamba uhambe ekukhanyeni kwawo ngamaxesha onke, ungalahleki; Wahlabela mgama ehlabela mgama esithi, yimfihlelo kaBathathu Emnye oNgcwele, yaye ukholo luya kushukunyiswa kungekudala kule ngongoma; kodwa akufunekanga iphume. Iya kuxhathisa kude kube sekupheleni umoya wobugwenxa noweminqweno yabantu...
Makhe sibuyele kwindlela abahanahanisi abaya kusebenzisa kakubi ngayo intsingiselo yeZibhalo ezingcwele...
Ukuxhatshazwa okumasikizi okuya kwenziwa kwiZibhalo Ezingcwele. Intsingiselo yokwenyani yeNgoma yazo iiNgoma.
Uyazi, Bawo, ukuba akunjalo, okanye ngale ndlela imbi kwaye ingcolileyo, ukuba sithethe ngomtshakazi we-canticles, xa ngeli gama ndichaza imeko yeBandla, kwaye ngathi iyaphela, uthando lomyeni wakhe. Zonke zinyulu, zonke zinyulu, zonke zingcwele kulo manyano
engaqondakaliyo. Ndiza kuphinda, ekugqibezeleni eli nqaku, ndikuxelele into malunga nalo mfazi wenene we-canticles, endiyazi ukuba umntu unokunika esinye isicelo esingayi kuba yinto ecocekileyo okanye eyakhayo.
Ngenye imini ndenza umthandazo wam ngokukhawuleza emva kwezibhambathiso zam, ndazifumana ndithuthelwe ngomoya ukuya kwigadi entle ezele ziintyatyambo ezincinci ezimhlophe nevumba elimnandi kunye nobuhle obumangalisayo. Andizange ndiwubone umahluko phakathi kwawo: onke ayemancinci ngokulinganayo, eqaqambile kwaye ethandeka. Ngewawuthe watyalwa ngesandla esinobuchule, waza wawasika alingana, kungekho namnye unyukayo ngaphezu kwezinye. Esazulwini somyezo kwakukho umthombo wamanzi acwengileyo namnandi awayebonakala kum ejonge ukunkcenkceshela ezi ntyatyambo zinomtsalane. Umthombo ongunaphakade walawula kule ndawo yokuhlala imnandi, kwaye ngaphantsi kwamafu ndabona ilanga elihle elikhupha imitha yalo epholileyo kwisibhakabhaka sonke.
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ukusuka egadini, ngaphandle kokuwasa kwenye indawo. Yayenzelwa kuphela ukukhanyisa indawo ebiyelweyo eyonwabileyo . Ndaqaphela ukuba iintyatyambo ezincinci zizo zonke
kananjalo ajikela ngaselangeni, nokuba onke ayenentshukumo ethile encinane eyayibonakala iwaphilisa ngaphandle kokudala nakuphi na ukubhideka...
Ngoxa ndandimangaliswe ngulo mbono umangalisayo amehlo am ayengenakwanela, ilizwi landixelela ukuba lo myezo umhle ufana neparadesi esemhlabeni; ukuba iintyatyambo ezincinci ezindikholise kangaka, zazimele imeko yabantwana baka-Adam, ukuba uYise wabo akonanga: ukuba ngokulandela imbonakalo yobulungisa yantlandlolo, eyayiza kuba yikhampasi kunye nelungelo labo, bonke babeya kuguquka. , njengeentyantyambo ezincinane, ngokuthanda kwabo elangeni lokusesikweni, elaliya kuyikhanyisela imiphefumlo yabo lize lifudumale iintliziyo zabo .
; oko kukuthi, ngebabeluthanda kwaye balufuna kuphela uthando lombhali wabo noThixo wabo. Kulapha, laqhubeka ilizwi, indawo yokuhlala eyonwabileyo yobumsulwa nobunyulu; akukho nto ingcolileyo ingena kuyo. Yonke into engcolileyo kufuneka igxothwe kuyo, ngumyezo kaKumkani noKumkanikazi ...
Ndawathatha la mazwi ukuze ndikhuseleke, kwaye ndingenabuganga bokungena apho, ndazifihla ukuze ndijonge ngakumbi ngokukhululeka kwam igadi emnandi ngomyalelo kunye ne-symmetry eyayilawula ekusasazweni kwayo nakwimihombiso yayo, amanzi ayo anesilivere,
Ilanga elihle elalikhanyiswe ngalo, kwaye ngakumbi iintyatyambo ezincinci ezithandekayo ezazizaliswe ngazo Ngesiquphe ndibona eyona ntombi intle eyakhe yangena kuyo.
ipapashiwe. Akunakwenzeka ukuba mna Bawo ndikubonise ubabalo nobungangamsha bokuhamba kwakhe, ukuqaqamba kwamehlo akhe azele luthando, ubulali, ukuthozama kobuso bakhe, okuthe kwacima yonke into endandiyithanda de kwafika apho. Ndaxelelwa ukuba wayengumfazi wenyaniso weengoma, kwaye ndaqonda ngengqiqo yombono, ukuba le ntetho inokusebenza kumama ongcwele we-JC kunye neCawa yakhe, kwaye ngamanye amaxesha nakumphefumlo othembekileyo, nangona ngendlela eyahlukileyo kancinane, njengoko siza kuthi kungekudala...
Umfazi, okanye intombi entle endithethe ngayo, yakhatshwa ngumyeni wayo ongcwele, owayesaluthwele olu suku ngokungenasiphelo; kodwa andinako ukukuxelela nto isondelayo kuwo, kananjalo andikholwa nokuba izithunywa zezulu zinganako ukukunika oko ndikubonileyo ngako;
Babehamba bodwa kwigadi yabo entle, kwaye iqabane elingcwele lalibonakala lingqiyame kwisithandwa sakhe . Ubunono kunye nomdla wabo
incoko, iliso labo elivuthayo, ingqalelo yabo efanayo, yonke into eyayikuyo yavakalisa olona manyano lusondeleyo lwentliziyo nothando; kodwa uthando lwabo lwalusulungekile njengoko lwaludlamkile kwaye luvutha Alukho nantoni na ethambileyo phakathi kwababini
iintliziyo, kwaye akukho nto inyulu njengorhwebo lwabo. Ayinanto idibanisayo nothando olurhabaxa nolwenyama lwabo bathanda isidalwa....
“Umhle kakhulu, sithandwa sam,” latsho iqabane elingcwele; Andiboni nebala emntwini wakho, yiyo lonto ndikuthanda ngokuphambeneyo.
Oko kukuthi, Bawo, ngothando olungaphaya kwayo yonke into. Nganye kwimfezeko yakho luphawu oye wangxwelerha ngalo intliziyo yam . » Eyam,
waphendula iqabane elingcwele, akasenako ukwanelisa inzondelelo yothando oluvuselelayo kuye . Umhle kangakanani, uthandeka kangakanani, oh sithandwa sam nothixo
myeni!... Hayi indlela ozele yimitsalane namakhubalo ngayo kum !. Umoya wam
ulahlekelwe kukuncoma ububele bakho nasekucingeni ngengqibelelo yakho yobuthixo;... uyancwina ngokungapheziyo emva kwakho. Yabona, zintanda zam! konke ukuthamba kothando lwakhe, konke ukutshiseka kweminqweno yakhe, konke ukuchuma kwentumekelelo yakhe. Intliziyo yam ingakuvuma njani ukungabikho kwakho, yena ongenakuphila ngaphandle kwakho, kwaye ofumana kuwe wedwa ubomi bonke ? Le ntliziyo, ewe, le ntliziyo evuthayo
lindani, xa ndileleyo; uyanditshisa ngekhwele lakhe ngaphandle
Yima, ndicinga ukuba ndiyakubona . Yehova, ndicamngca ngenceba yakho kuzo zonke izinto zakho
akukho namnye uthandeka ngakumbi; Ndiyazicingela ndisiva amazwi athambileyo,
isandi esimnandi selizwi lakho; kwaye lo mfanekiso ucace kangangokuba ndihlala ndivuswa kuwo ndiphakathi kobuthongo bam .
Zingaphi izinto onokuzithetha, Bawo, ngale ncoko yothando phakathi komyeni nomfazi kaNgoma !. Olu thando lokubuyelana noluvutha ngolo hlobo aluthethi
enye into, njengoko sitshilo kwenye indawo, kunomanyano oluyimfihlakalo lweJC, iqabane lobuthixo, kunye nomphefumlo othembekileyo kubabalo lwakhe kwaye ozama ukuphendula kuzo zonke izithuthi zobubele bakhe Kodwa amazwi: Nina nonke nihle , babone ukuba banokuqondwa kuphela ngokungqongqo njengeBandla, ekubeni linyulu kwaye lingenachaphaza, okanye okwesidalwa ebekungasayi kuze sibekho kuso isono, nesikhawulwa singenasono; oko kunokugqityezelwa kwimeko yokungabi natyala efanekiselwa yiparadesi okanye umyezo omhle owawuneentyatyambo ezincinane, nalapho intombi enyulu yangena yodwa nomyeni wayo.
Ngaloo ndlela, uBawo, iBandla le-JC kufuneka lithathwe njengomtshakazi wokwenene we-canticles; kwaye, phakathi kwezidalwa, Ndibona ukuba kukho kuphela
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Intombi enyulu ngokugqwesileyo, ndithetha umama ongcwele weLizwi eliMnyama, lowo esi siqinisekiso sinokumfanela ngokufanelekileyo; kwaye ukuba ngamanye amaxesha isetyenziswe kumphefumlo othembekileyo, ingaba yinto engafanelekanga kunye nengqiqo ngokubanzi kunye nokude. Kodwa, kwakhona, yeha kulowo uthi, ngotyekelo olugwenxa, afumane ukugwetywa nokufa kwakhe kwanangendlela ububele bobuthixo obusebenzisa ngayo ukumtsala ngamandla ngakumbi ngomtsalane wothando....
Imibono eyahlukahlukeneyo evakalisa ukuba ububi obabuqalisa ukuphanzisa iBandla eFransi babungekho esiphelweni, phezu kwako nje ukubonakala koxolo.
Khumbula, Bawo; imibono awathi ngayo uThixo wandenza ndazi intshutshiso namhlanje ephanzisa iBandla laseFransi, ukuba, phakathi kwabanye, apho, entabeni ephakamileyo, ndabona indlu entle evulekele yonke imimoya, eyayimele ubukumkani baseFransi . Ngequbuliso kwavela ilifu elakhiwe ngumphunga womhlaba, laza, lathwalwa sisiphango esinomsindo, latyhalelwa ngasentabeni . Uyazi, Bawo, ukuba kwakuthetha ntoni na oku
eli lifu kunye nenamba eyaphuma kulo, kwaye ndandiyalele ukuba ndilwe. Nawe uyawazi umbono wendoda enkulu
umthi, owathi, emva kokuwabetha amanye amabini, wagawulwa yingcambu waza waphoswa emazantsi entlambo . Kuwo onke la manani ndicinga ukuba mandiyongeze
ezinye iimeko kunye neempawu ezimangalisayo ezibonakala kum zinxulumene kakhulu, kwaye uya kuzisebenzisa ngokuthanda kwakho.
Engqondweni yam ndabona igumbi elikhulu elalikhangeleka ngathi yicawe; laliphantse lizaliswe ngababingeleli, bevathe iialbhis ezicokisekileyo, ezicokisekileyo, ngathi zezesidlo; kodwa babengenazo iintambo okanye iintambo. Zonke bezisonkekile, zaba mhlophe; ubuso babo nobuso babo babuvakalisa ukwaneliseka kunye nokonwaba. Bavuma iingoma zovuyo. Abanye babo bafunda ngokuvakalayo iindinyana neprose, baze abanye baqhwabe izandla, besithi, Kulungile; oku kuhle kakhulu; le nto intle ngokupheleleyo; Akukho ndlela yakuphendula yayiziincwadi ezahlukeneyo, ubungqina obahlukeneyo obahlukeneyo
ukuze kuthethelelwe isizathu esilungileyo . Ndavuya xa ndibabona
Kulungile, ndazixelela, nantsi into
into evakalisa uloyiso olupheleleyo !. Makabongwe uThixo nowakhe
inkolo kunye nonobangela wayo uloyiso!... Ekugqibeleni, ucwangco olulungileyo luya kuphinda luvele...
Kodwa ndithe ndisakuziyolisa kwezi zothutho zimnandi, ndabona ecaleni kwam uMntwana uYesu, owathi kungekudala wamodareyitha uqikelelo, ngamazwi ambalwa awawabhekisa kum. Wayekhangeleka ngathi uneminyaka emithathu ubudala; ephethe umnqamlezo omkhulu esandleni sakhe, wathi kum, ejonge kum ngomoya olusizi: Ntombi yam, musa ukuthembela kuyo; kungekudala uza kubona utshintsho: akukapheli, kwaye abakapheli, njengoko becinga. Hayi, ndikholelwe, ayiloxesha lokucula uloyiso okwangoku. Nantsi ke into yokusa; kodwa imini eya kulandela iya kuba nzima kwaye inesiphango.
Phantse imini yonke ndandinombono ofanayo, ngakumbi ukususela kumthendeleko: yayisoloko ingumntwana onguYesu nomnqamlezo wakhe omkhulu owathi wazibonakalisa engqondweni yam, ekhangeleka edakumbile kwaye edakumbile. Qha ndaqaphela ukuba ubukhulu bayo bonyuswe yinto . Kwangaloo mini kwakhona kwenzeka
ndikhangele ngokomfanekiso wombingeleli ondinike indebe. Kulo mbono, ndaziqokelela okwethutyana, ngokwesiko lam; Ndiye ndabhenela kuFaith ukuze ndivavanye ukuba loluphi uhlobo loluvo oluveliswe kum. Emva koko uJC wathi kum: Ngamaxesha amaninzi njengoko uDibanisa, amaxesha amaninzi ndikwenza ukuba usele kwi-chalice yothando lwam kuwe: kodwa ndifuna eli gazi libe luncedo kuwe, kuba kutheni ndilichithe.
Zilahlele kum ntombam, kuzo zonke iziganeko zobomi ubone intando yam nothando lwam kuphela......
Ke, Bawo, konke ukugcinwa kwakhe kwangaphakathi kwakujikeleza kuphela eminqamlezweni kunye nesidingo sokuyithwala kunye nokulungiselela ukubandezeleka . Ubukhulu becala wathetha nam malunga
umnqamlezo neembandezelo awayendilungisele zona, kwanezobabalo ezithile, kwanokhuselo olukhethekileyo nobabalo awandibekela lona, ukuze, ngokungathandabuzekiyo, andinikele ukuba ndithembeke kakhulu kubo; kunye nokundikhuthaza ngeemvakalelo ezicace ngakumbi zombulelo nothando ngakuye ...
Ndaba nobuganga bokusebenzisa inkululeko awandinika yona, ndimbonisa uloyiko endandinalo lokuzibona ndinyanzelwa ukuba ndizinikele kunyulo lwamagosa kamasipala, ndinyanzeleke ukuba ndiwuyeke umkhwa wenkolo, njengoko sasisongelwa ukususela ngoko, mhlawumbi ndigxothwa phakathi kwabantu, ndibuyele ezweni endathi ndlela-ntle kulo ngonaphakade .” Asinguwe na, Thixo wam?
Ndathi kuye, ndibizwe ngubani wandikhaphela ndedwa ? Hayi! Njani
so uyasokola...
Ke, uBawo, ngaphandle kokundiphendula ngokuthe ngqo, ukuze, ngaphandle kwamathandabuzo, andishiye ukulunga koKholo kunye nokuzithoba okungaboniyo, ilizwi lathi kum ngaphakathi: "Ntombi yam, musa ukuba buhlungu, kwaye uthembele kwintliziyo yam. ubonelelo. Ndiya kukwazi ukwenza yonke into ngokwemibono yam kunye noyilo lwam. Yintoni eya kuba luncedo
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Yini na ukuba ndimgxothe? Ngaba woyika ukungabi nandawo yokuhlala? Ngena entliziyweni yam, elihlathi lakho, ukhumbule ukuba bendingenandawo yokulalisa intloko... Aphoswe yintoni ondithandayo nondikhuselayo? Bonani umzekelo endiwunikiwe ngabo bonke abangcwele bam. Hayi indlela ababezizityebi ngayo ebuhlwempu, yaye hayi indlela abachulumancisa ngayo!... Uze unyaniseke kuThixo wakho njengabo. Londoloza ubutyebi boKholo nobumsulwa bakho, yaye ndiya kukwazi ukukukhusela. Ukubonelela kwam kuya kukujikeleza, uncedo lwam luya kukuxhasa, kwaye uthando lwam luya kukubuyekeza, kwangaphambili, ngayo yonke imibingelelo oya kuyenza kuyo. Ewe, yonke into ndiya kuyithatha indawo yakhe kulowo undinike yonke into ngaphandle kokuzibambisa. Unoloyiko lokunyanzelwa ukuba waphule isifungo sakho sokuvala; kodwa, ntombi yam, aniyazi ukuba umntu akanatyala xa engakhululekanga? Lungela ukuzalisekisa umthetho wakho naphi na apho ukhoyo, kwaye ndiya kuyiqwalasela. Kukho iimeko apho umntu unyanzeliswa ukuba ancame i-accessory kwizinto ezibalulekileyo: umntu kufuneka abambelele kwinto anokuyenza, engakwazi ukwenza oko angathanda. »
Yazi ke, ntombi yam, ukuba ayingowodwa umvandedwa okanye umkhwa wenkolo owenza inkolo, kodwa uthando lukaThixo, umnqweno wemfezeko, kunye nemigudu eqhubekayo yokufika. Ngoku, sinokuba nalo kuyo yonke indawo lo mnqweno ulungileyo wokukholisa uThixo ngenxa yothando lwakhe; Naphi na apho umntu anokusebenzela imfezeko yayo, kwaye ndiya kuba nako, malunga nomphefumlo wentando elungileyo, ukubuyisela, ngeenceba ezininzi ngakumbi, ngenxa yokukhululeka efunyenwe kumgaqo wokuvalelwa kunye nomkhwa. ukushiya Ah! ntombi yam, ndikholelwe, nqwenela ngentliziyo yakho yonke ukugcina ummiselo wakho, kwaye ungaze uyishiye indawo yakho ebiyelweyo okanye umkhwa wakho ongcwele; kodwa qiniseka ukuba ndiya kwaneliswa ngulo mnqweno, ukuba aninakwenza nto ngakumbi. ningandikholisi ezintweni zonke, ningandikholisi nganto, noba nikwenzile oko. Ewe, kwakhona, ndiyakuqinisekisa, ndiya kucinga ngokufela ukholo nakubo bonke abo bathi, emazantsi emiphefumlo yabo, batyekele ekubeni bafe kunanini na ngaphambili ukuba bawushiye umsebenzi wabo wokuchukumisa uKholo. Andiyi kubalahla, ndiya kubancedisa de kube sekufeni ngendlela ekhethekileyo, kwaye ndiya kulutsalela uzuko lwam kwimeko yabo, njengakuzo zonke iziganeko ezibonakala zichasene nezicwangciso zam (1). »
(1) Konke oku kwakuchazwe nguye malunga nonyaka okanye iinyanga ezilishumi elinesibhozo ubukhulu becala, ngaphambi kokuchithwa koluntu. Asimele simangaliswe kukuba lo dade, phakathi kwabanye, wabonisa ukuzingisa nokurhoxa okungaka, okanye avume ekubeni uThixo uye wambuyekeza ngokufanelekileyo. Jonga ileta yokugqibela evela kuPhakamileyo, ekupheleni kwalo mqulu.
Andikwazi, Bawo, ukuvakalisa kuwe imvakalelo yothando kunye nombulelo ethe le ncoko noNyana kaThixo yenza kum. Wathetha nam ngentliziyo evulekileyo nangobulali nobulali; wabeka kakhulu ukucenga kunye nomdla kumazwi akhe ngamnye kangangokuba ndaziva kum ukuba indalo ibonakala ifuna ukuphazamisa kancinci; kodwa ubukho
I-JC yabeka ukuthula kuye kwaye yathintela kum nayiphi na imvakalelo yothando lomntu, ukuthobeka kunye nokuzingca, okumele koyike, kwiindibano ezinjalo, kuphela emva kokuba ubukho bukaThixo buzenze baziva; kuba, ebudeni baso sonke isenzo sakhe, iimvakalelo ezinjalo azinakwenzeka, njengoko ukuthotywa koBuThixo kusasazeka phezu kokuqonda, umoya, nentando. Zonke izinto ziseluthandweni, yonk’ into izele kuThixo; kwaye oku, Bawo, kunokwenzeka kum xa ndidibene, ndingaqapheli mntu. Ngoko ke ndinikela uzuko kuThixo, yaye ndiyayilahla yonke intuthuzelo yemvelo.
Masithi ke, Bawo, umphefumlo wehlelwa ziintlungu ezimnyama, iintsizi, iintsizi, ukubhideka okukhulu; yongeza kuyo yonke into enkwantyisayo. Kulungile! ukuba i-JC ngokukhawuleza yenza ukuba ubukho bakhe buzive
kulo mphefumlo, kwangaxeshanye, uxolo nokwaneliseka kulandela inkathazo noloyiko. Uthuthwa ngovuyo, kwaye ubonakala edlula ezantsi kweSihogo ukuya encotsheni yeZulu, njengoko kwenzekile kum amaxesha amaninzi; kodwa ukubuyela kwimeko esithetha ngayo, ndithi kuJC:
Ndikwenza, Thixo wam! Umbingelelo wovuyo lwam nolonwabo lwam, njengoko ufuna ukuba ndiluve. Ezi ntyatyambo zezakho, oko wazizalela emhlabeni ongenambulelo wentliziyo yam. Ndinikela ngazo kuwe, kunye nolonwabo endinethemba lokulunandipha kunye nawe ngonaphakade. Loo mnikelo wabonakala ukholekile kuye; kodwa wongezelela wathi: “Kunjalo, ntombi yam, xa umphefumlo ubandezeleka okuthile ngenxa yothando lwam, ndikholiswa nangakumbi.” Ngoko lindela ukubandezeleka ... "
Luphela ke udliwano-ndlebe lwethu ngaloo mini, kwaye ndilindele ngokurhoxa isiphumo sesi sithembiso. Kuyo nayiphi na indlela okwenziwa ngayo, ndiya kuhlala ndonwabile, ukuba uThixo ukho, yaye uzukiswa kuko konke okwenzekayo kum.
Bawo, njengeminyaka elishumi elinesihlanu eyadlulayo, yayingunyaka weNtlokoma enkulu, endathi kwakhona ndaba nombono okhwankqisayo,
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ngelixa sasikwikwayala sonke sisenza izitishi zethu apho. Ndabona iglowubhu yokukhanya igcwalisa ingcwele kunye nesango. Ngaphandle kokuqaphela nantoni na ngokucacileyo, ndaqonda, ngengqiqo yolu kukhanya, ukuba yayibubukho babantu abathathu abangcwele abazenza bavela kum ngale ndlela. Ke ndihlala, ubuncinci ngamehlo engqondo, kodwa ngaphandle kokukwazi ukuziphazamisa kuyo; Ndabona, ndibone uKristu, ongathi ngumntu, ethwelwe yingxokolo yezithunywa zezulu; wayerhangqwe ngabaPostile abalishumi elinambini, abenza isangqa ejikeleza umhlaba. Ndamqonda ngokucacileyo ngakumbi uPetros oNgcwele, owayebonakala ethabatha indawo yokuqala phakathi kwabanye, ngokomgangatho wakhe wentloko yokuqala yeBandla; iNtombi Enyulu eyayisezinyaweni zikaKristu .
Ngalo lonke ixesha lokuthandaza kwethu kunye neMiserere esasiyicengceleza solule iingalo, iqela lasezulwini lalibonakala kum lizinzile, kwaye lalisoloko liphakama emhlabeni, kumphakamo omalunga neemitha ezilishumi elinesihlanu; kodwa kwathi xa siphuma sisiya kwisikhululo sesithathu, yonke into yaqala phambi kwethu, yamisa kwindawo esasimi kuyo.
samisa: ibiyi workroom. Yonke into ke yahlala ikwimeko efanayo ngalo lonke ixesha siphindaphinda imithandazo efanayo, de kwaba ngumzuzu wokubuyela kwiSakramente eSikelelekileyo, apho yonke into yathi shwaka, ngaphandle kwentelekelelo yam yakwazi ukuvelisa nantoni na efanayo ngexesha lonke lezikhululo. . Ngoku, Bawo wam, nantsi into endiyibonileyo kwaye ndayiqonda ngokukhanya kwalo mbono kunye nemibono oye wayenza kum:
1°. UThixo wandenza ndawabona apho ngokucacileyo amagosa eecawa kunye nabangeneleli, abaqhekeki bazo zonke iintlobo; 2°. Ndabona apho kwakhona imigudu emanyeneyo yazo zonke iintshaba zeBandla ngokuchasene neenyaniso zokholo, nomothuko owoyikekayo iBandla nonqulo ekumele ukuba lwaziva kuwo: kuba ndakuqonda oku, ukuba amandla eBandla ayenawo. uya kugungqiswa ngumsindo. Liyinene elithi ke ndandinoloyiko olukhulu lokulahlekiswa, ngakumbi xa kujongwa ukuphikisana endandisele ndifumene kuzo kwizinto ezinjalo, kunye nenkangeleko encinci eyayikho ngelo xesha, yokuba yonke le nto ndandiyibona ukuba iya kuze yenzeka .
Umbono wokuqala endawuvayo kulo mbono, ngokunxulumene nam, yayilukuzithemba okukhulu ukuba, ngokwenza izikhululo zam kakuhle, ndandinokuthi, ngokwenza izikhululo zam kakuhle, ndizikhulule phambi koThixo kuzo zonke izohlwayo zexeshana ngenxa yezono zam zangaphambili, ngeziqhamo kunye nokufaneleka okungapheliyo. wenzondelelo kaJ. C, ekudityaniswa kuyo abo babo bonke abaNgcwele bezulu nomhlaba; kwaye oku, ngamandla uJC awanike iBandla lakhe, kumntu wompostile wakhe wokuqala kunye nabalandela emva kwakhe: oko kubizwa ngokuba yi-indulgences plenary.
Ndiyazi ukuba ukufumana olu lonwabo, umntu kufuneka aguquke kakhulu kwaye enze zonke izenzo ezimiselweyo kwinkunzi yenkomo yePontifi eyongamileyo, kunye nazo zonke izimo azifunayo. Ndade ndazi apho ukuba nabani na ochasayo la mandla eCawe eNgcwele yamaRoma, okanye owachasayo kwenye ingongoma yemfundiso yakhe, uya kubangela ukucaphuka kwe-JC intloko yakhe, ka-Saint Peter, kubo bonke abapostile, kwaye ngaphezu kwayo yonke imfundiso. unina wobuThixo woMsindisi. Konke oku kwandichukumisa kakhulu.
Umbono wesibini endawufumanayo kulo mbono wawukukukhumbuza ngokucacileyo kum ukungaphambuki kweenyaniso zokholo ezihlaselwa ngamandla kangaka, kwanaleyo yegunya eliziphakamisayo kuthi; iinyaniso zamandla angaphezu kwawemvelo ezidityanisiweyo nezingahlukaniyo kangangokuba nabani na owala omnye akanakuvuma nayiphi na, kwaye nabani na ongakholelwayo yonke into akakholelwa kwanto. Ndibone kumanyano lwale cawa zonke iimpawu zayo ezibalulekileyo zingagungqi njengeenyaniso azivakalisayo.
Umbono wesithathu endawufumanayo kuyo yayiyeyoyikeka. Ingqumbo kaThixo yandenza ndeva la mazwi oyikekayo: Yeha! yeha kuye nabani na ozama ukurhwaphiliza, ukucinezela, ukucinezela okanye ukuphikisa eli gunya likaPontifi owongamileyo, ezi nyaniso zingaguqukiyo nezingenakusilela!......
Ke, Bawo, kwabonakala kum ukuba ndibone uPetros oNgcwele nabo bonke abapostile bevutha ngumsindo ongcwele ngokuchasene nabangeneleli, abagwebi nazo zonke iintshaba zeBandla. UPetros oNgcwele wayesoloko ethetha kuqala njengentloko yabo bonke abanye.
KwiPasika edlulileyo, uBawo wam, uJC undazise ukuba wayefuna ukuba iPasika yam ibe yindlela yokwenene kum, ukuze ndithi kwixesha elizayo njengompostile: Ndiyaphila; hayi, ayindim ophilayo, kodwa uJC ohlala kum.....
Kodwa, Bawo, yeyiphi imiqobo echasene nam kobu bomi obonwabisayo bokholo eJC, bubomi bamalungisa emhlabeni!. Akakho, makhe ndithi,
Nditsho neempawu zam ezihlwempuzekileyo ezingathwaliyo kakhulu umzobo womntu kangangokuba umKrestu akakho apho, kwaye umntu omdala akasoloko ethintela ukunika ubomi kumntu omtsha.
ubuqili bedemon okanye bendalo, endiyifumene nguJC mva nje. Iimpazamo zam zangaphambili zindinike uloyiko olunjalo kunye nokucaphuka
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ikratshi, nto leyo, ngenxa yokoyika ukuqhathwa kwakhona, ndiye ndawela kaninzi ekuthobekeni okungeyonyani, nto leyo endikhokelela ekubeni ndiswele ubunewunewu obuncinane nembeko, nje ukuba ndiqonde ukuba singathanda ukundincoma nokuthetha egameni lam.
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Uloyiso lweJC kwiCawa yakhe.
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Ukuphumelela kweJC ekuzalweni kwakhe nasekufeni kwakhe.
"Egameni loYise, loNyana, noMoya oyiNgcwele , ngoYesu noMariya, ndiyakwenza
ukuthobela. »
Makhe sithethe ngoku, Bawo, ngezinto ezithuthuzelayo kwabo bamthandayo uJ. UThixo wandenza ndabona kunyana wakhe uloyiso olungenasiphelo, nto leyo engenakwenzeka ukuba ndikucacisele, kwaye eya kwaziwa kuphela ngoNaphakade, ngaphandle kokuze yaziwa ngokugqibeleleyo kwisidalwa. Uloyiso olungenasiphelo lobuthixo ekwenziweni komntu iLizwi; uloyiso lwazo zonke izidima emntwini weLizwi eliMnyama; uloyiso lobulungisa nenceba yobuthixo, ekufeni nasekuveni ukuthanda kukaThixo okhululayo; uloyiso lobabalo lwakhe emiphefumlweni, ngokulunga kolu thando; uloyiso lwalo Msindisi mnye, ngomnqamlezo wakhe, phezu komtyholi, ihlabathi nenyama; ekugqibeleni uloyiso lweBandla lakhe kuzo zonke iintshaba zakhe. Zingaphi izinto esinokuzithetha ngalo ngalunye kolu loyiso!
Masiqalise kwakhona, Bawo, kwaye sizame kwakhona ukuthintitha amazwi ambalwa kumbandela lowo iiNgelosi ngokwazo bezingakwazi ukuthetha ngokufanelekileyo kuwe. 1°. Uloyiso olungenasiphelo lobuthixo, kwimfihlelo ethandekayo yokwenziwa komntu kweLizwi.
Uloyiso lwe-JC kwimfihlelo yokuzalwa.
UThixo wadala ihlabathi kuphela ngenxa yomdla wozuko lwakhe nothando lwakhe olunyulu, nolonwabo lwesidalwa sakhe; kodwa isono sasithoba isidalwa, yaye ukungathobeli komntu kwamenza ukuba angalufanelanga uhambo lwakhe. Wenza ntoni unyana kaThixo ngokuzalwa kwakhe? Úphindezela uzuko lukayise, Ngenxa yokukreqa kongendawo; uyambuyisela imbeko nentliziyo yesidalwa sakhe, aze ayenze ifanelekele uthando lukaThixo wakhe amxolelanisa naye. Ukuthotywa kwakhe nokubandezeleka kwakhe kulungisa yonk’ into, kulungisa yonk’ into, kubuyisele yonk’ into kucwangco olwaluphazanyiswe sisono somntu; ngokuba liLizwi likaThixo, impindezelo yakhe, ubulungisa bakhe buyadamba, umsindo wakhe uthotyiwe, zonke iimpawu zakhe ziyazukiswa. Isidalwa siphinda sifumane amalungelo eso isono ebesibangele ukuba siphulukane nawo, kwaye konke oku kungumsebenzi wothando lukaLizwi Owenyama. Olunjani lona uloyiso, ke ngoko, kukwenziwa kwakhe umntu! uThixo
ngaba akazuzi uzuko olungenasiphelo kuyo, nomlinganiselo weengenelo zomntu? Kodwa akuphelelanga apho....
Ndisalubona uloyiso lwenkululeko yehlabathi kukwenziwa komntu iLizwi nasebuntwaneni bukaJ. C. Lo mntwana wobuthixo wabonakala kum ngenye imini kum ngenye imini.
elele emnqamlezweni ehonjiswe ngamasundu neentyatyambo. Akazange anamathele kuyo,
kodwa wayelele apho kuphela, ukuze aphawule imeko yokuzinikela ngokukhululekileyo nangokuzithandela apho wazibonakalisa khona kuyise ukususela kumzuzu wokuqala wokukhawulwa kwakhe, uBawo, ubungangamsha bobuthixo abunakuze bukhulu kunanini na ngaphambili .
uloyiso lokwenziwa komntu; kulapho imbubhiso yakhe, ukuthotywa kwakhe nobuhlwempu bakhe boyisa ngokukhazimla phezu kobutyebi, ubukhulu, amampunge, ikratshi leli hlabathi, abathi noko kunjalo abakhulu bomhlaba badinga kakhulu ukugubungela ubuncinci babo nobuhlwempu babo bokwenene. , ngaphantsi kwembonakalo yobukhazikhazi obubonakalayo kunye nobutyebi obubolekayo. Bonke obu bukhazikhazi obungento yanto obungqonge ookumkani namagunya buyinkxaso efunekayo kubuthathaka babo. Bubukhazikhazi bobuxoki obusebenza kuphela ekukhohliseni amehlo oluntu, ngokuzifihla kubo usizi lwemeko yabo. Akunjalo ngo-J.-C. ekwenziweni kwakhe inyama okanye ekuzalweni kwakhe. Umsebenzi unokwenza ngaphandle komsebenzi wakhe. Ukuzimela kwaye ngaphezu kwazo zonke izidalwa ezidaliweyo, akafuni uncedo lwabo; igolide......
Uloyiso lweJC kwimfihlelo yePassion yakhe.
Uloyiso lwenzondelelo ka-JC ngobulungisa bukayise, phezu kwesono, umtyholi nesihogo . Luluphi uloyiso, yintoni eyoyisayo ukususela kwintlungu yakhe
de umphefumlo wakhe wokugqibela !. Ah! Bawo zingaphi izinto endizibona apho
iyancomeka kwaye yoyikeka ngaxeshanye!. Kwaye uzuko lukaThixo lulapho
uziphindezele izithuko zomntu nezono ! . Ewe, ukuthanda kuka-J.- C
olona loyiso luzukileyo kuBathathu Emnye . Ubulungisa kunye ne
inceba, zonke iimpawu zobuThixo zoyisile apho ngaxeshanye. Ekunxileni kwempindezelo yakhe, ukuba ithe yavunyelwa ukuba ithethe ngolo hlobo, uThixo uye wakwanelisa ubulungisa bakhe egazini lonyana wakhe, ngenxa yezono zabo bonke abaguqukayo. Kodwa obu bulungisa bukwafumene kuyo iinjongo zokukhulula wonke umsinga wempindezelo yabo efanelekileyo kwiintshaba zabo. Ngaloo ndlela, uloyiso lwenceba kwabalungileyo, uloyiso lobulungisa kwabangendawo
Enjani yona impumelelo kula mazwi mabini: Yonke into ifezekile! ....
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Kungakanani ukusetyenziswa okukhoyo kolu tshintsho lukhulu! Bawo , zinkulu izinto uThixo andibonise zona ngala mazwi mabini! Olunjani lona uloyiso oluyanyaniswa nalo mnqweno ungcwele nonamandla! UThixo wahlutha izixhobo, izulu lavuleka, isihogo sathi shwaka, umntu wahlangulwa, watshatyalaliswa isono, uMtyholi wabulawa, ukufa koyiswa, iinkanuko zothuswa, nako konke oku ngumsebenzi kaJ .
C. iyaphela!... Kodwa ngaphezu kwako konke, olunjani lona ukukhazimla uloyiso oloyiso oluqaqambileyo loloyiso lwakhe oluzukileyo! ... Kulapho ubuThixo bugqunyiwe kwaye ngokungathi bungcwatywe ethunzini lokufa, bulindele kuphela indawo yokugqibela yokuthotywa ukuze buvele boyise kwaye boyise phezu kwentshabalalo ngokwayo....
U-JC ekuvukeni kwakhe ungumnqobi onxibe uzuko lwakhe namandla akhe; akukho nto inokuyifihla . Emva kokufa kwakhe wenza
ukuba siloyise phezu kwethemba lethu, ngenxa yokuba ngexesha lobomi bakhe zonke izidima wazenza zaphuphuma uloyiso kuye. Masingalibali, Bawo, ukuba ukuze umntu avune iziqhamo zoloyiso lwakhe lwesibini ngenye imini, kufuneka axelise okokuqala. Kukule meko kuphela apho ulonwabo lwezulu lunikelwe kuthi kwaye lumiselwe thina.
Kungekudala lo meyisi useluxolweni uya kuqalisa ukoyisa ihlabathi, emva kokuthwala amanxeba azukileyo amanxeba akhe esisa ezulwini, njengeempawu zoloyiso lwakhe.
Uloyiso lwe-JC kwi-Eucharist eNgcwele.
Makhe songeze, i-JC yoyisa kwi-Eucharist eNgcwele, apho ibhujiswe ngaphezu komnqamlezo. Le meko yokuzinikela ngokuzithandela kukuqhubela phambili kwenkanuko yakhe, ulwaneliseko oluqhubekayo, inzonzobila yoloyiso lothando lwakhe nentliziyo yakhe. Olunjani uzuko angenalo uThixo ngokukholwa kule mfihlelo yobuthixo, eliziko lokwenene lothando lobuthixo!
I-JC ifa kuthi ngomthendeleko, oko kukuthi, ulahlekelwa yi-sakramente kunye ne-Ekaristi ukuba ikhona; kodwa ufa ngolo hlobo ngokufihlakeleyo ukuze nje aloyise ngokukhazimlayo phezu kweenkanuko zethu aze asenze soyise phezu kwazo kunye naye. Olunjani lona ulonwabo kuthi! kodwa ngenxa yoko, okunjani ukunyaniseka kubabalo lwakhe akufuni olu loyiso lunoxolo!... Ndiyangcangcazela xa ndiyicinga . Yena mna
libonakala lisiva liphuma enzulwini yomnquba ongcwele ilizwi lalo Thixo uye waba lixhoba; Kubonakala kum ukuba ukhala kum ngokuzibhokoxa kwakhe: Ukufa, ukufa, ukufa kuwe nakuyo yonke into ejikelezileyo, ukuba uphile kuphela ebomini bam kunye nokulunga kwam ! Bawo, endikubonileyo nokwaziyo kuko konke olu loyiso loNyana
UThixo akanakuqondwa; kwaye emva kwamawaka emiqulu umntu wayengenakukwazi ukungena kuyo ngaphandle kolona kholo lunzulu kunye nokudumisa. Yeha abo bahluthwa le totshi yobuThixo Baziimfama
abangakwaziyo ukungcamla okanye ukusezela izinto zikaThixo.
Imibono eyahlukeneyo yoDade ngaphambi nangexesha leeholide zeKrisimesi.
Ukwenza ukuba uqonde ngcono, Bawo, kwaye uzive ubunyani bolu loyiso lwahlukileyo lobuntu obungcwele begama elisenyameni, kubonakala kufanelekile kum, ukuba uyakuvumela, ukwenza iinkcukacha apha kwimibono eyahlukileyo endiye ndanayo, ngakumbi phantsi iimeko zepati yokugqibela yeKrisimesi. Le nkcukacha, endiza kuzama ukuyishwankathela, ayizukukukhathaza, ndiqinisekile, ukuba imisebenzi yakho ikuvumela ukuba undimamele okwethutyana. Mna ke, Bawo, ndiya kuchulumanca ngakumbi ukuba ndikuphendule le nto, njengoko ndisakholwa ukuba ndenza ukuthanda kukaThixo .
Uyakhumbula, ngaphandle kwamathandabuzo, ukuba ngexesha le-Advent waba nesisa sokuva uvumo lobomi bam bonke njengoko ndandinqwenela. Sayigqiba kanye kwiintsuku ezintathu phambi kweeholide; kodwa ngaphambi kokuphelisa yonke into, ndicele imvume yakho yokwenza ngexesha leentsuku ezintathu indawo encinci yokubuyela yangasese, ukuzilungiselela ngokukhawuleza ukufumana uxolelo lwazo zonke iimpazamo zam zangaphambili, ukuze ndibhiyozele ngcono imithendeleko emikhulu yokuzalwa kukaJC Vous ububele ukungena zonke iimbono zam, kwaye undicebise ukuba ndizixakekise, ekuthatheni kwam umhlala-phantsi, ngaphezu kwako konke ekukhawulweni koMsindisi uThixo, ngokuthula kwakhe okungaqondakaliyo esizalweni sikanina, kwaye ndenze ufundo oluthile olufana neemeko zokuzalwa kwakhe kunye nokuzalwa kwakhe. kwizinto ezinkulu azicelayo kuthi. Ngaphandle koko, undivumele ukuba ndilandele ngaphezu kwayo yonke imitsalane yobabalo kunye nemibono uMoya oyiNgcwele angathanda ukuyivuselela kum.
Kaloku, Bawo, ngoko nangoko ndaya kufuna uMama wethu, ukuze ndimcele ukuba andiboleke incwadi yobuthixo, ukuze ndizixakekise, ndamxelela, iintsuku ezintathu okanye ezine kubomi bam bangasese. Umama wandiboleka incwadi eneendlela ezahlukeneyo zokungcebeleka ngokomoya. Kwakukho nenye eyayiyeyoonongendi kuphela: Ndandifunde okuthile ngayo kwangobo busuku ngaphambi kokuba ndilale. Ekuseni ndalungiselela ukwenza ukucamngca kwam apho: ndaqubuda phambi koBathathu Emnye othandekayo, ndamnika indawo yam yokurhoxa ndaza ndamcela ukuba asikelele egameni likaJ.
C. naphantsi kokhuseleko lukaMama wakhe Osikelelekileyo, ngaphandle kokucinga ngayo nantoni na eyenye. .
Apho, Bawo, ubukho bukaThixo bazivelela kum: JC wabonakala kum ngendlela engaphakathi, ndiyakholelwa, kodwa ngokumangalisayo kunokuba wayenzile ixesha elide kakhulu. Wathi kum ngelizwi elithambileyo nelicengayo:
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“Ntombi yam, ngexesha lakho lokudla umhlala-phantsi ndifuna ukuyala ndikulungiselele ngokwam. Ndiya kuba ngumkhokeli wakho kunye nogqirha wakho: ke, unokuyeka ukufunda nayiphi na enye incwadi, ukuba ufunde mna ndedwa. Phulaphula nje kum, ndanele kakhulu ukukuyalela. Ngoko nantsi,
waqhubeka, njengoko uya kwenza umhlala-phantsi wakho, xa uya kuba nemvume yomlawuli wakho, endifuna ukuba uyibuze kuye. Uyazi, Bawo, ukuba ndakucela kwangethuba.
Njengomlawuli wakho, ndifuna ukuba ukubuyela kwakho kuzinikele ngokupheleleyo ekucamngceni ngokuthula kwam kunye nokubuyela kwam kweenyanga ezilithoba esibelekweni sikamama, umzobo wokuzola kwam kunye nokubuyela kwam ngokunzulu kwisakramente yothando lwam. Nina niya kumanyana nam kwezi zizwe zibini, ngokukodwa kowokugqibela, ukuze ninqule uBawo; ofanelwe nguye nokuwuthomalalisa umsindo wakhe. Uya kucamngca
uthando lwentliziyo yam engcwele ebantwini, kwanangaphambi kokuzalwa kwam; ngomnqweno onamandla wokuba ndizelwe ukuze ndibakhulule, naphezu kwedini endandisele ndilenza ngegazi lam ngokusesikweni. Uya kwenza, ngale njongo, izenzo endikunike zona ukuhlonipha iimfihlakalo zobomi bam nokufa kwam. Kodwa ngexesha leeholide zeKrisimesi uya kukhathalela ngokukhethekileyo imfihlelo enkulu yokuzalwa kwam, eye yavuyisa izulu nomhlaba. Kungenxa yale njongo ngaphezu kwayo yonke into ekufuneka unxibelelane ngayo apho. Ngale ndlela uya kuhambelana nomoya weBandla lam. Uyakumhlonela uMama wam kwaye umkholise ngokungenasiphelo. Okokugqibela nomnika uThixo uBawo uzuko lwakhe anekhwele, angenako ukuluncama. Nantsi ke, ntombi yam, into eza kukuxakekisa ngexesha lokuthatha kwakho umhlala-phantsi. »
Ke, uBawo wam, uJC wazibonakalisa kum ekwimo yomntwana omncinci osanda kuzalwa. Ukukhanya okuqaqambileyo okuwugubungeleyo, ngokundilisekileyo, mandibone kulo mntwana ungcwele ubuhle obugqwesileyo obathi bathabatheka kum baza baphelisa yonke imvakalelo yothando olunengqiqo ngesidalwa. Khange ndiphinde ndibone, bendiyibona into yothando lwam qha, bendizibuza ukuba ngamanye amaxesha ndiye ndakwazi njani ukucinga enye into....
Ndithe ndisamjonge ngofefe lo mfo engqengqe phezu kwengca ehlise intlupheko ngenxa yothando lwam, wawathi ntsho ngamehlo akhe nobuso bakhe buvutha buvutha bujonge esibhakabhakeni, wolula iingalo zakhe ezincinci ngathi sele ebethelelwe emnqamlezweni. sele befuna ukuthatha imilinganiselo yayo. Ngewawuthi iinyawo zakhe nezandla zakhe zilindele umnene, kwaye icala lakhe elithandekayo kukuvuthela komkhonto obulalayo. Wabonakala esithi ngaphambili:
Bawo baxolele....
“Nantsi ke, ntombi yam, wathi kum, ejikel’ kum amehlo akhe azele luthando, nantsi indlela endiyithathileyo kunye nombono omnandi endawunika uBawo ukususela kumzuzu wokuqala wokuzalwa kwam. uyilo kwaye le yincwadi ekufuneka uyifunde ngexesha lomhlalaphantsi wakho . "Eyiphi incwadi! utata wam
hayi indlela ezele yintambiso! Ngaba iqulethe izinto ezimangalisayo ! Hayi, mhlawumbi. Kwakhona kufuneka kuvunywe ukuba ukususela ngoku
umzuzu owonwabileyo akunakwenzeka ukuba ndihoye enye into. Ndicinga kuphela, imini nobusuku, ngalo mntwana uthandekayo, kwaye nasebuthongweni bam ndiyakholwa ukuba ndisambona kwaye ndimve..... Kodwa ndikude nokukhalaza ngayo ....
Ah! kwanga, ngokuchaseneyo, umfanekiso wakhe wobabalo ungandigcina ndixakekile! Ngamana inkumbulo yakhe yothando ayinakuze iphele engqondweni yam, nothando lwakhe olungcwele emazantsi entliziyo yam ! Masizame okungenani ukuba sihlale simanyene naye
ukubandezeleka, nokuncama zonke iintshukumo zethu kuyo ngokunyaniseka kobomi bethu nangokuphila kothando lwethu.
Lo yayingenguye, Bawo, ekuphela kombono endandinawo ebudeni beentsuku ezintathu okanye ezine zokurhoxa. U-JC wabonakala kum rhoqo, kwaye uhlala ekwiimeko ezifanayo kunye nesigxina esifanayo somzimba wakhe wobuthixo. Waphinda waphinda kum ukuba, ukususela kumzuzu wokuqala elele phezu komququ, emva kokuzalwa kwakhe, wathabatha indawo awayefanele ukuba nayo emnqamlezweni, ukuze azukise uYise, ngokumnikela kwangaphambili iimbandezelo kunye neembandezelo. iimfanelo zokufa kwakhe ukuze kusindiswe uluntu. Ngaphandle kwamathandabuzo, Bawo, ukuba uAbheli akazange amxhelele, okanye uIsake alele esibingelelweni sedini lakhe, okanye onke amaxhoba omthetho wamandulo, nangona babeyimifuziselo yokuxhelelwa kwexhoba elikhulu elaliza kuthwala izono. zoluntu, kwaye ukubacamagushela ngokufa kwakhe, akazange abonise umboniso okholisa kangaka emehlweni kaNaphakade, njengoko wanikela kuye amaxesha amaninzi ngalo nyana umsulwa, imvana yokwenyaniso kaThixo, lo JC ekugqibeleni, ngaloo ndlela isandulela idini lakhe lokugqibela ngoko. imibingelelo emininzi yemihla ngemihla, nangokuma komzimba okufana nokulingwa kokubulawa kwakhe .
Ndibavumela abantu behlabathi ukuba bavuyisane nabo ngovuyo lwabo, kwaye kude nokubamonela ulonwabo lwabo oluzenzisayo, ndinobuganga bokucela umngeni kubo ukuba bandixelele ukuba ulonwabo lwabo lukhulu.
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iintsiba azinanto esondela kwinto enobuzaza buka Thixo wam indenze ndafumana amava izihlandlo eziliwaka..... Kuya kuba njani ngoNaphakade!... Olunjani lona ulonwabo kwabo baya kulufumana! Kodwa enjani inguquko kwabo baye bancama ulonwabo lokwenyani, olusisigxina nolwenyani kulonwabo olunzulu noludelekileyo lweemvakalelo ezidlulayo zeli hlabathi lingonwabanga nelikhohlisayo! ; Ndiya kubaphendula ndithi: Le mpambano, ukuba inye, inqweneleka ngakumbi kuneyakho, ekubeni ngokubethelela emphefumlweni intiyo yobubi nokuthanda izidima, iqinisekisa ulonwabo lwako kwikamva, kwaye okwangoku imenza yonwabela eyona nto ilungileyo,
Kwenye yezi ngcinga, ndabona iglowubhu engqukuva yomlilo, ebonakala kum ilingana nebhasikidi, iwa esibhakabhakeni, kwaye ndaxelelwa ukuba ngumlilo wothando lukaThixo owalethwa nguJC ezulwini emhlabeni. nento awayeyifuna, awayenqwenela ukuyivuthisa ezintliziyweni zonke Ngokukhanya koku
Umlilo olungileyo, ndaphinda ndalubona luphela uthando lwezinto ezinengqiqo apho ndandingasaboni nto ngaphandle kokubi nendelelo, xa kuthelekiswa nothando loMdali, owayebonakala kum ekufanelekele konke ukuthantamisa kweentliziyo zethu. Emva koko, uBawo, ndibona uThixo kuyo yonke into, kwaye ndingaboni nto ngoku ngaphandle koThixo, ndazifumana ndivutha ngakumbi kunanini ngaphambili ngumnqweno wokunxulumanisa yonke into nothando lwakhe lobuthixo, kwaye ndingenzi nto ngaphandle kwesi siphelo sodwa; oko ubabalo luka JC lwalufuna ukuqhubeka kum. Xa ndibona umntwana omncinci endimthandayo, okanye enye into emnandi, ndiye ndikhumbule ubuhle obothusayo boMntwana onguYesu, kwaye kwangoko yonke imbono yesidalwa ithi shwaka....
Akufunekanga Bawo ndilibale ukunixelela ukuba la dimoni njengokuba nisazi, lihlala lizibhokoxa ekwenzeni umsebenzi kaThixo ukuze lisilahlekise, nalo lizama ukundenza ndibone umntwana ngokuxelisa lo ndigqiba kukuxelela. malunga. Kodwa onjani wona umahluko kwindlela awandiphatha ngayo, amazwi akhe, isimilo sakhe nemiphumo awayivelisayo kum! Hayi, uThixo akaze avumele ukufana okuchane kangangokuba akunakwenzeka ukuba ukholo olulungileyo luphephe impazamo; kwaye ndazi kwisidlo esilandelayo ukuba kuphela ngobabalo lukaJC ukuba ndifumene umgibe, kwaye endaweni yokuthanda lo mntwana ukuba idemon yayindivelisela mna, ndandimkhawulele kuphela inzondo, inzondo kunye nenzondo. ngenxa kayise wobuxoki nesono.
Njengoko umthendeleko wawusondela, ndeva ilizwi likaJC lisithi kum: "Zingaphi imibingelelo eziya kwenziwa ngale mihla zingcwele ziintshaba zam
zisendlwini yam! Ndiya kuzinikela kubani ukuze ndamkeleke ngokufanelekileyo, utsho, ngokulindela ikamva ? Ngaba iya kuba kwezi zingcwele
abangenayo nemvume yeCawe yam? Ngaba kuya kuba kwabo bantu behlabathi, abacinga kuphela ngeziyolo zabo, kwaye babonakala bendazi ngcono ukuba bandicaphukise? Ibona ukuba ndilila, yathi kum: ‘Musa ukucaphuka; kanti ndiseneentliziyo ezithembekileyo. Inani labo, behlangene nabalungiseleli bam abalungileyo, kwanele ukundithuthuzela, kwanawe, ngenxa yokwedelwa nokulahlwa kwabanye: uBawo uya kulutsala uzuko lwakhe kuyo yonke imihla, namadini am aphantsi komhlaba athandeka ngakumbi. Ndiyayoliswa zizilingo kunye nemizabalazo yabakhonzi bam bokwenene; kwaye iBandla lam elitshutshiswayo lindibonisa umboniso ochukumisa ngakumbi, umvuzo ondifaneleyo ngakumbi. UBawo uzukiswa ngakumbi, xa esenjenjalo phezu kwayo nje yonke imiqobo phikisa" Ngoko akukho nto inkulu ,
Kumfaneleke ngakumbi umKristu kunokutshutshiswa ngenxa yoKholo; akukho nzuzo inokuthelekiswa nolonwabo analo ngokungonwabi ebantwini, kuba ethembekile kuThixo wakhe....
Emva kokufumana i-absolution ngo-Krisimesi, i-JC yangqina kum amaxesha amaninzi ukuba usizi olukhulu lwayigubungela intliziyo yakhe . "Leyo ye
ubugebenga, awabuphinda-phinda kum, buza kwenziwa ngobu busuku nangale mihla ingcwele!... Hayi indlela endiza kukhubeka ngayo!..." Ndammela kuye iimfanelo zakhe nezo zabo bonke abangcwele, ingakumbi abo bangcwele. uMama wakhe ongcwele, waza emva koko wandazisa ukuba kwakuyimfuneko ukuba ndithembeke kakhulu kwimikhwa endandiza kusihlaziya ngayo isibhambathiso, nenjongo yayo ikukumenza ulungiso olubekekileyo kuzo zonke izikreqo awayekhalaza ngazo; nokokuba kwakuyimfuneko ukunikelwa kuye amadini omthendeleko suku ngalunye ukulungisa imibingelelo yobo busuku; into endayiqalayo ukuyenza emini nasebusuku, endayixelelwayo kuthi; kwaye nanku uBawo, into eyenzekayo kwiindimbane ezintathu zobusuku.
Ekungcwalisweni nasekuphakanyisweni kweyokuqala, ndabona ngokucacileyo ezandleni zombingeleli umntwana omncinane ekhazimla bubuqaqawuli, onyama yakhe iphilile kwaye iphila. Ude uDomine non sum dignus , wabonakala kum ehleli
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phambi kombingeleli esibingelelweni, nanjengokungathi ugutyungelwe yingubo yozuko eyathi imitha yobuThixo bakhe imenzele yona. Wabonakala elindele ngolangazelelo umzuzu womthendeleko owawuza kwamkelwa ngumfundisi noonongendi .” Eguqukela kum, wathi kum ngelizwi lobuntwana: “ Awu!
ukuba ubunomnqweno ongaka wokuza kum njengoko nam ndifanele ukuya kuwe ndingene entliziyweni yakho !. Kwesi simemo simnandi nesinothando sisuka kum
Thixo, ndazibona ndizaliswe lukholo, uloyiko nothando kangangokuba andizange ndiphinde ndibambelele kulo. Ndazinikela kuye ngokupheleleyo, okanye ndambongoza ukuba amkele okukokwakhe okukokwakhe njengokuba kwakukum, nakwabanye. Bendizihlanganisa nothando lwakhe, ndilindele ukuzimanya nentliziyo yakhe yobuThixo nakuyo yonke into yena. Ndachukunyiswa ngulo mnqweno wokufuna ukumamkela,
ukuba ndandingasazazi nokuba ndiya kwimisa okanye hayi. Ndazinikela kuye ngokwakhe kuBawo onguNaphakade Ndazihlaziya izibhambathiso zam zobhaptizo nenkolo, kunye nezo zezenzo zam ndathandazela iBandla, inkolo, ubukumkani,
njl., njengoko undixelele ePater noster , umntwana wathi shwaka okomzuzwana.....
EDomine non sum dignus , ndaphinda ndabona lo Mntwana ungcwele kum ebonakala ngathi uvula izandla zakhe neengalo zakhe ngokungathi uyanikezela aze azinikele kumfundisi owayeza kumamkela. Wathi, ezinikela: Kulapha apho ndifumana khona ulonwabo lwam. Kodwa elinye ilizwi
kuvakala esomeleleyo phezu kwesibingelelo, kusithiwa, zinkwantya, iimpethu; zithobeni, zibhuqeni, nibuyele entweni engento, ebugqatseni benu, phambi koMdali wenu noThixo wenu ! Ezi
amazwi amabi, aphindaphindwe kabini okanye kathathu, ngendigxothe ngokungenampazamo, ukuba andizange ndikhunjulwe ngamandla ngakumbi ngelizwi likaJC ngokwakhe, owandimema ukuba ndisondele ngaphandle kokoyika nantoni na, wandenza uhlobo lomyalelo owawuyiyo. akunakwenzeka ukuba ndixhathise. Ndiye ndasondela kwakhona ndinothando olungaphezu koloyiko.
Emva koMthendeleko, umamkeli-zingcwele wam wathetha nam kakhulu ngothando olwalusandul’ ukumenza ukuba azalwe entliziyweni yam njengakwibhedi entsha yokulala; kodwa wandixelela ngayo ngendlela engenakwenzeka ukuba ndikuxelele.
Yayiluthando luzithethela ngokwalo; nguye yedwa okwaziyo ukuziveza...
Amazwi akhe ayengumlilo nedangatye lodwa; igama ngalinye lalingumkhonto ovuthayo, utolo olubukhali nolugqobhozayo, kwaye yonke intetho yalo liziko lomlilo laloo mlilo mhle uvuthisa iintliziyo zeeserafi, nowazizisa emhlabeni uphuma ezulwini. Olunjani Ulwaneliseko, olunjani ulonwabo andenze ndalungcamla ngalo mzuzu wolonwabo nakwabo bawulandelayo!... Olunjani lona ulonwabo olugqibeleleyo!...
Ke kaloku, ekuphakameni kwedini yesibini, ndabuya ndabona, ngamehlo omoya, kwaloo mntwana elele emkhosini ongcwele; kodwa wayezolule iingalo zakhe
igazi lalibonakala liphuma kumantshontsho akhe, amalungu kunye namalungu ahlukeneyo omzimba wakhe wobuthixo; Ndabona ngaphakathi kwakhe utyekelo lokubethelelwa emnqamlezweni, inzondelelo yothando eyamxhoma kwangaphambili ukuze kusindiswe bonke. Amehlo akhe, ethe ntsho esibhakabhakeni, andixelela ngokwaneleyo ukuba wayexakeke ngokupheleleyo yiprojekthi enkulu yokuwenza uthandeke emhlabeni, ngokuxolelanisa indoda enetyala nomgwebi wakhe owayecaphukile. Le yinjongo yokuzalwa kwakhe kunye nokufa kwakhe. Kuko oku kufuneka asebenzise onke amaxesha obomi bakhe, yonke iminqweno yomphefumlo wakhe kunye nayo yonke intshukumo yentliziyo yakhe, kude kube ngumphefumlo wakhe wokugqibela. Uncama yonke into, uzinikela ngenxa yezilangazelelo zeCawa yakhe kunye nokulungelwa kwabo bonke abanyulwa bakhe.
Akukho nto iphawulweyo yenzekayo kum ngobunzima besithathu bobusuku. Kodwa, Bawo, njengoko sikwezi ntlobo zemibono, ndiza kukwazisa ngezinye ezimbalwa zolo hlobo oluye lwenzeka kum kwiintsuku ezimbalwa emva kweeholide zeKrisimesi, kwaye mhlawumbi luya kunceda ukuphuhlisa ngakumbi kunye nokuxhasa abo. esisandula ukuthetha ngayo, kwaye zifana nokulandelelana kwazo. Nazi iinyani:
Ngobunye ubusuku xa ndandingalali, ndakhumbula ukufunda, kunye nengcaciso owawusinike yona malunga nobuntwana bukaJC, ngexesha lokuzalwa kwakhe. Hayi indlela enkulu nencomeka ngayo le mfihlelo, ndathi ngaphakathi kwam!... Hayi indlela ekhwankqisayo, eyothusayo nenomtsalane ngayo!... Izulu! ngubani na oya kuze ayiqonde?.... UThixo esiba ngumntwana omncinane usuku... umntwana omncinane iintsuku ezimbini umntwana omncinane iintsuku ezintathu... umntwana omncinane ngeveki... inyanga umntwana omncinci wonyaka omnye . kwaye oko
sithande !. Igama ngalinye kwesi sidanga landinika elitsha
Ndothuka ndafumanisa ukuba uThixo ufuna ndenze njalo
yazisa into. Ngoko nangoko ndaziyeka zonke iingcamango zobuntu, ndazibhokoxa kuphela ekwazini okuyintando kaThixo. Kuba ndandisoyika, ngandlel’ ithile, ukuba ibe ndim owathi, ngokuphakamisa intelekelelo yam ngokucamngca ngento ethile.
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ndifanele ukumvuyisa, ukuba bekungandinikanga mvakalelo imnandi endiyivayo ngaphakathi.
Ndithe ndisacamanga ngale nto, ndathi, ndakuzibamba, ndathi tu, ndasuka ndabanjwa, ndangathi ndikhukuliswe sisikhanyiso sasezulwini, endabona kuso, ngamehlo omoya, umntwana oyinkwenkwe. emhle ngokugqithisileyo kwaye engabonakali ukuba ungaphezu kweeveki ezimbini emi
ngengubo encinci, ebhityileyo kakhulu yobumhlophe obumenyezelayo. Le ngubo incinci, ivuleke kancinci phezulu, yavumela isifuba esingcwele salo mntwana ungcwele, apho kwaphuma amadangatye avuthayo, athi, anyuka kwizaqhwithi, asasaza phezu kobuso bakhe obuthandekayo obubonakala bukhazimla ngabo. efunyenwe, eyona icacileyo, ndicinga ukuba ndiyifumene
ukanti onamava, andiphembelele ngaye ngothando olushushu nolangazelelo lokumzuza, ukumzukisa, nokuba ngowakhe ngonaphakade, ukuba kusenzima ngokupheleleyo ukuba ndithethe nantoni na esondela kuyo. Kufuneka ube namava ukuze ufumane umbono....
Lo mntwana wandixelela ukuba ubumhlophe bempahla yakhe bumele oko wayekucela kum: ukulula, ukuthetha phandle, ukungabi natyala okugqibeleleyo, ukusulungeka okukhulu kwentliziyo nesazela, ngokukodwa ukusondela kuye ngoMthendeleko oNgcwele. Ekugqibeleni, wancomela ukuba ndifane naye, oko kukuthi, ndibe ngumntwana nomncinane njengaye, ndibe sisimumu njengaye, ndibe nemfesane enkulu yothando lobuntwana bakhe bobuthixo, ndibonakalise inceba enkulu kuThixo, ummelwane.
Lo mbono wathatha iyure, apho ndazifumana ndithabathekile kwaye ndihanjiswa sisimo, uthando endingazange ndiluqonde, olucacileyo nolungaqhelekanga. Undifunani mntwana wezulu! Ndakhwaza; Intoni! UThixo makaqondele entweni, ukuba ndisisidalwa esidelekileyo, esidelekileyo, esinjengam nje! ukuba nam, umncinci kwaye ungafanelekanga, ukuqwalaselwa kunye nobubele obungenakufanelwa ngumntu ophilayo ! . Mna
Gcwalisa wonke umzuzu ngeenceba ezingaphaya kwayo yonke into enokuthiwa!...
Thutha izulu emhlabeni ngenxa yam, ukuze undenze ndonwabele konke ukonwaba kwabaNgcwele kunye nokuhlala kwabasikelelekileyo !. Yintoni engaphezulu, owu
Thixo! kwaye ucinga ntoni? ufuna ndithini kanti ufuna ndiphendule ndithini ? Ingathini intliziyo yam ehluphekileyo
zanele ukuzala kweemvakalelo ezifunwa ngabantu abaninzi abangamthandiyo? Enkosi,
ke ngoko, Owu Mlingane wam weselestiyali, ndishiye, yiba nosizi ngokungafaneleki kwam, sindisa ubuthathaka bam . ngelizwi, yeka ukundileqa kwaye
ndithuthumbise, okanye ndikhulule kwiintambo zobomi; kuba ngaphezu koko, kule languor ndikuyo, angaba ngumfeli-nkolo kuphela kum! Ewe, ithemba lokungaze ndiphulukane nawe nokuba ndibe nawe rhoqo, lilodwa linokundenza ndonwabe, ngokululungisa ngonaphakade ulonwabo lwam, amathemba am nolonwabo lwam!...
Kunjalo, Bawo, ukuba ekuthuthweni kwam kwenzeka kum ngaphezu kwesihlandlo esinye ukuba ndithethe noJC ngokwakhe ngenzondelelo nenkululeko engenakucingelwa, kwaye apho wayebonakala eyonwaba, kude nokuba nomsindo. . Ngamanye amaxesha ndandithetha izinto kuye mhlawumbi zomelele kakhulu kwaye zinesibindi kakhulu, uhlobo lokugqwesa, ukuba unokulubiza ngolo hlobo, kodwa luthando lwakhe olwandenza ndathetha. Yena ngokwakhe wabeka amazwi emlonyeni wam, kwaye ngokuphindaphindiweyo ndandimxelela oko wandiphefumlelayo, ngaphandle kokuziqonda ngokwenene, kwaye ngaphandle kokugcina, yonke into endiyithethile kuye, akukho nanye into ngaphandle kwenkumbulo yolonwabo endandinalo. babenokumxelela...Amazwi kunye neempembelelo, ukungcola kwentliziyo nokuthuthwa kothando kwaphela, ngaphandle nje kwento ebinokundichaphazela kakhulu kwaye ibangele iimvakalelo ezihlala zihleli ngexesha lezi ncoko zimnandi....
Ndikhumbula, ngokomzekelo, ukuba kwenye yezo meko xa ndandingokaThixo ngakumbi kunam; kwaye apho uthando lwakhe lwaluthetha ngakumbi kum kunam, ndandihlala ndimnika uzuko lwakhe nolonyana wakhe . Ndammela kuye zonke iimfanelo zegazi likaJC kunye nomdla; Kwakhona ndathetha naye ngeemfanelo zikaMama wakhe ongcwele, zabaPostile, zabafeli-nkolo abaNgcwele nayo yonke iCawa eNgcwele . Thixo wam ! Ndamxelela ke mna
gcoba ngozuko lwakho, nakuko konke ukugqibelela kobuthixo, kuzo zonke iimpawu zakho zobungcwele! Hayi indlela endivuya ngayo kuthando lweeserafi, ukunqulwa kweengelosi kunye nokuthotywa kwazo zonke izidalwa ! endivuyayo _
into oyiyo kuwe kwaye ngokunxulumene nathi! U-JC wayebonakala eyonwabela yonke le nto kwaye wandimamela ngomoya wokukhalaza. Ndiye ndagqibela ngokumcela amaxolo ngesibindi sam sokuthetha naye ngolu hlobo lobungangamsha bobuThixo bakhe, kwathi ngelo xesha waduka umntwana...
Ndazama ke ukuqhubeka nencoko enye; kodwa nangona ndizama kangakanani na, kwakungenakwenzeka ukuba ndikhumbuze engqondweni yam iingcamango ezifanayo.
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kunye nemifanekiso efanayo, ukuba bekungenakwenzeka ukuba ndiyifumane ekuqaleni, okanye ukuziphazamisa kuyo kumzuzu ongaphambili. Andizange ndiphinde ndifumane nto isondeleyo kuyo kum; kwaye ndoyiswa bubudenge bemizamo yam, ndanyanzeleka ngokukhawuleza ukuba ndigqibe kwelokuba kuthatha enye into ngaphandle kwempembelelo yentelekelelo yokufumana amava.
nembonakalo emnandi, neemvakalelo ezimnandi, nokudlambha kothando ezikhatshwa nazo. Ngoku ke ndibe namathuba amaninzi okukholisa . Ndandinenkumbulo ethile eseleyo
inobubele, kodwa yayingeyonto ngaphandle kwenkumbulo, kwaye ndandiza kulala kuyo ngoxolo.
Kodwa ngoku, emva kweyure, kwavela umbono wesibini oza kuthabathel’ indawo owokuqala, ibe ngulowo sele ndiwuchazele wena. Ndaphinda ndambona lo mntwana, kodwa ekwimeko ehluke kakhulu kweyokuqala .... Enjani yona intlungu kum!... Wabonakala kum ebotshelelwe emnqamlezweni ezinyaweni nasezandleni, nangona kunjalo. azizange zibethelelwe , zingaboni gazi, namanxeba, okanye iimpawu zokubandezeleka
, yaye oko kwandithuthuzela kakhulu. Kwakhona ndaqaphela ukuba umnqamlezo wawugqunywe kwaye uhonjiswe ngeentyatyambo, iintendelezo, iintyatyambo kunye namatye anqabileyo. Umzimba womntwana kaThixo wawuze, kodwa ukhazimla kukukhanya okuqaqambileyo okuwugqume isidima. Yayifana nesigqubuthelo esinentlonipho esasingqonge ubuntu bakhe obungcwele . (1) I
kwangoku uthando lwavuseleleka kwangoko entliziyweni yam . “Ndikho,” watsho kum,
enqwelweni yam yoloyiso, nibona apha ubuqaqawuli uBawo aphuma kubo
(1) Simele ukuba siye saphawula, kwaye kuhle ukuphawula, ukuba nanini na udade ebona ngamehlo omzimba, okanye awomoya, ubuntu obungcwele bomntwana uYesu, bekusoloko kuphantsi kwesigqubuthelo esihloniphekileyo. yokuthozama okuthandekayo. Ngaba emva kwemibono enjalo okanye imizekelo enjalo apho ukucinga kweembongi, abadwebi, abakroli, abakroli kunye nabanye abaculi basebenza? Ngaba le yimigaqo abayilandelayo kwimisebenzi yabo eyahlukeneyo, ethoba amehlo kwisidima? Ngaba ngokundiliseka okufanayo ukuba ngokufuthi bamela into enye? Olunjani lona ulwaphulo-mthetho ukumela oyena Ntombi zinyulu, okanye uThixo obunyulu !
intobelo kunye nokufaneleka kweLizwi lakhe elikwinyama. Intliziyo yam ayizange ilindele ububi babantu, yazixhoma kwangaphambili, kwaye uthando lwam lwalundibethelele emnqamlezweni kwakudala ngaphambi komnqamlezo wam kunye nababulali bam Umnqweno wokukholisa .
uBawo wam nokwanelisa uthando lwam ngomntu, wandenza ukuba ndithintele isigwebo sokugwetywa kwam. Ibingekathwalwa ziintshaba zam, sele isenziwa zezam. Olunjani lona uzuko kuThixo! olunjani lona uloyiso sthandwa sam!
Emva koko, uBawo, uJC wandikhuthaza ukuba ndizibethelele kunye naye. Wandixelela ukuba ukususela ngaloo mzuzu, kwafuneka ndimcele iminqamlezo, ukuthotywa, iimbandezelo, ukuba ndimzukise kwaye ndimnike iintsizi zam ezincinci, ukwanelisa uthando lwakhe, kwaye ndihloniphe ukuthotywa kwakhe. Into endiyenzileyo; kodwa ndaba mathidala kum ukuziphendulela kuwe, Bawo, ngazo zonke ezo zinto
kwenzeka ngobo busuku phakathi kwam noJC. "Bendikulindele apho," wandixelela. Intoni! intombi yam, ubuya charmed, utsho, ukuba ube nethuba lokundibonisa uthando lwakho kunye nombulelo wakho ngeminqamlezo, intobeko kunye nokuzithoba, kwaye umamele inzondo yakho yendalo kwinto endiyicelayo kuwe kunye novumayo wakho. iimfuno kum! Yiza, ndifuna ukuba, ukuthobela uthando lwam kwaye uxelise ukubandezeleka kwam, ulahla zonke izinto ezinqwenelekayo kunye nazo zonke izimuncumuncu, ozenzayo, ngenxa yokundithanda, ezo zinyanyeko zendalo ezikucebisayo, kwaye zihlala zingumqobo kuwe. imfezeko. Andifuni ukuba ube nenye injongo nenjongo ngaphandle kokuba wenze intando yam ngayo
“Ekugqibeleni, ntombi yam, yifa kwinto yonke nakuwe, uphilele mna kuphela. Cinga kuphela ngobukho bam, khumbula kuphela uncedo lwam kunye nothando lwam. Kuphela ndibuhlungu ngokundikhubekisa okanye ukundibona ndikhubekile. Vuyani kuphela ekufikeni kolawulo lwam kwaye ngethemba lokuba nam ngenye imini. Ngenxa yoko, zimiseleni, kude kube sekupheleni kwemihla yenu, ukuba nizilungiselele ukufa okulungileyo nokungcwele, ngokuthembeka kwenu kwimisebenzi endininike yona, nasekuzalisekeni okugqibeleleyo kwezibhambathiso zethu . kwezi zenzo nizenzayo
ndivumele ukuba ndisihlaziye isifungo....
Ndiye ndacela uxolo kuye ngale repugnance ibinditsalele kolu ncedo nesilumkiso nje. Ndathembisa ukuba ndiya kuthembeka ukulandela onke amacebiso akhe Kwaba yintsimbi yesibini emva kwasezinzulwini zobusuku, kunye noonongendi bekwayala
babephuma kumatin, xa loo mbono wesibini wathi shwaka Kodwa akunjalo
ayingabo bonke, Bawo, kwaye ngoku kufuneka ndongeze into, njengokuqhubeka, uloyiso iBandla le-JC eliphumeleleyo kwaye liya kuphumelela ngalo lonke ixesha; kwaye kulapho ndiya kuluphelisa khona uloyiso lomilambo wokuzalwa, ukuzalwa nokufa komseki wawo wobuthixo. Iya kuba okokuqala .
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Ukuphumelela kweJC kuwo onke amaxesha eCawa yakhe, kwaye ngokukodwa ekugqibeleni.
“Egameni loYise, neloNyana, neloMoya oyiNgcwele, njl. »
Unqulo-zithixo lwabhangisa. Uqhekeko lwabhidanisa lwaza lwatshatyalaliswa.
Bawo, ukusekwa nje kwenkolo yobuKrestu kububutyobo bonqulo-zithixo, ngaphandle kwemigudu yeenkanuko, zomtyholi, zehlabathi nesihogo, kwanele ukubonakalisa ubungcwele bayo kuthi; Yobe iyintoni na ke inkitha yaloo makholwa, axhobele esifubeni sakhe, njengamaxhalanga, ukuba aliqwenge izibilini, aze amtshabalalise?
kalikhulu nakubani na, ukuba umsebenzi kaThixo ubunokoyisa? Ukuhlaselwa ngaphakathi nangaphandle ngexesha elifanayo, kulwa ngandlela zonke kunye, iBandla le-JC loyisa yonke into, njengoko kwakuthenjisiwe ; ngaphandle kokusebenzisa izixhobo okanye naziphi na iindlela zabantu, ngokulandelelanayo yawatshabalalisa onke amahlelo nawo onke amahlelo, njengoko yazibhukuqayo izibingelelo noothixo beentlanga ! Luzuko olunjani
yona kunye noloyiso olunjani kumbhali wayo ongcwele !. Kodwa makhe sithethe ezinye ezimbini
amazwi obunzima abuvayo namhlanje, nakwafuneka boyise ngabo ngoncedo lukaThixo kuphela. Ndiza kuthetha kuphela oko andixelele ngako.
Uhlaselo lokugqibela oluchasene neCawa; uloyiso lwakhe.
Ezi zinto ndizithethile kuni kwenye, Bawo, niyazikhumbula oku kanye endanibhalela kona, kwaneendaba endazishumayelayo ngamandla, kwanjengeminyaka emashumi mabini anamashumi mathathu eyadlulayo, ndakuxelelwa, ukuba ingene idemon endlwini yakhe yesikhungu . , ukuba ukungatshati, izibhambathiso zonqulo, kwanamandla kaBawo wethu ongcwele uPopu ayecinezelwe; amandla amakhulu
lalivukele iBandla, ukuba lalinikele ilifa leNkosi ekucingeni nasekuphangweni kweentlanga, ... ukuze ukholo luya kuzanyazanyiswa,. ukuba
iintsika zeCawa zaziya kugxadazela. ukuba abaninzi babo
uya kunikezela. Ndayazi ukususela ngoko ukuba amandla kunye nempahla
abefundisi babeya kunikelwa kwingalo yehlabathi; ukuba iBandla laliza kufumana umothuko, kunye nabathembekileyo intshutshiso eyoyikekayo, nokuba sasisondela kwesi siganeko silusizi....
Yeha, Bawo, amava, njengelizwi likaThixo, lisinyanzela sonke ukuba sibone namhlanje inzaliseko yokwenyani yesiprofeto esathi ngelo xesha sasigqalwa njengobugxwayiba, endathi ngenxa yaso ndaneentlungu ezincinci kunye nokuphikisana okuninzi. Sula. Akukho ndlela yokuphosa amathandabuzo kwinto umntu angayikholelwayo, kwaye amaxesha aye angqinela kakuhle ukubikezelwa ... Ndibona ngokucacileyo eBandleni amaqela amabini aya kutshabalalisa iFransi; omnye uphantsi kwentshutshiso, kwaye omnye uphantsi kwesiqalekiso sikaThixo neBandla lakhe. La maqela mabini sele ezibeke, omnye ngasekunene, omnye ngasekhohlo komgwebi wawo, kwaye amele zombini izulu nesihogo ngaxeshanye. “NjengaseKalvari, abanye bayandithanda, utsho uJC, abanye ndingcikiveni, nindibethelele emnqamlezweni; kodwa inzondelelo yam iya kubagqwesa abanye, kwaye abanye baya kuba noloyiso...
“Ngelixa abanye bexakekile bendicinezela, abanye bafuna iindlela zokundibuyekeza ngeembandezelo zam nokundikhulula kuzo ngokwabelana nam... Ukungcamla kwam okuthembekileyo kokwenyani ubukrakra bam nentlungu yam; banxile ngumsinga wePassion yam, kwaye kungekudala baya kuyigqiba indebe yam. Nali kwakhona ilixa lamandla obumnyama lisondela. Izulu lizakumshiya esenamandla amakhulu, zide iintshaba zam zifike kwingxondorha eziye zemba phantsi kweenyawo zazo ngobumfama. ukundihlonela ngokundikholisayo njengoko elinye iqela lizama ukundinyelisa... Undinika uzuko nembeko ngokuphindwe kaliwaka kunabanye. ukuthotywa kwam "
Unjalo ke Bawo uThixo wandishiya sisenza umngcelele nomsitho wangolwesine oluzayo ecaweni yethu kodwa kufuneka ndihambe .
ndikwazise ngokumangaliswa kunye nokukhwankqiswa kwam ngenqaku elinye. Mandulo
U-JC wathetha nam ngokutshutshiswa kwangoku kweCawa yakhe, kuphela ukugxeka ukulahlekelwa kwemiphefumlo kunye nesenzo sobuThixo bakhe. Kum wayebonakala nje njengoPontifi ozolileyo ukuze athomalalise umsindo kayise aze abhekise ubulungisa bakhe kumoni. Namhlanje, ngokuchaseneyo, uthetha nam kuphela ngeendebe zothando lwakhe, uloyiso lweCawa yakhe, kunye nesohlwayo seentshaba zakhe alungiselela kuzo impindezelo evakalayo. Ndiyabona ukuba uyazihleka iintetho zabo kwaye uhlekisa ngezicwangciso zabo ezigqithileyo. Yintoni ebangela ithemba!....
Isohlwayo esibuhlungu sabangendawo.
“Yabonani,” yatsho kum, “iintshaba zam zinemihlali, yaye omnye komnye zithi: Yibani nesibindi, konke kulungile, kamsinya siyawadlula amashishini ethu, yaye uloyiso lwethu luza kuphelela kamsinya!... Ah! Bawo, andikwazi kuzichaza.
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uloyiko olungaka lundibambile! ukuba imigwebo kaThixo yoyikekayo kubo
abamchasayo; ziqatha kangakanani na isohlwayo sakhe! Iziyatha! babalekela ekulahlekelweni kwabo, nentliziyo yam ihlatywe likrele lentlungu . ndiyabona a
isaqhwithi somsindo kaThixo oya kubaginya, sibangcwabe kanye xa ubutshijolo babo babecinga ukuba bayalufikelela usukelo lwabo...
Esi sibetho sibi ndisibona sisihla phezu kwabo ! uThixo, ngowakhe
impindezelo ibabetha ngobumfama bengqondo nobulukhuni bentliziyo. Uyababetha ngokungenakuguquka; kwaye ngelishwa kukungaguquki kokugqibela ajonge kubo, kwaye ngenxa yoko lelona shwangusha likhulu kakhulu elibekelwe bona! ukukhanya kwezulu kuya kususwa kubo, kwaye sele amavolontiya abaziimfama abasaboni kwanto kwiinyaniso zokholo !. ngaphandle
Bazingcamla izinto zezulu nezosindiso, intliziyo yabo iqaqadekile kunelitye awalibetha kabini uMoses entlango. Amanzi aphilileyo enguquko akasayi kumpompoza kuwo. Le ntliziyo, ayinaluvelwano lubabalo, ifumana kuphela isimo esibi sokuvukela uThixo. Akananto ngaphandle kokucaphukela, ukudelela, nokoyikeka komntu othandekayo kaJ. C.; nezulu alikho kude emhlabeni, kunokuba lisuke enguqukweni. Kuphelile ke ngala mashwa! Ewe, ndijonge ummiselo wokugwetywa kwabo njengoko uchaziwe, ilahleko yabo ifana nokuba ibanjiwe. Asikuko ukuba uThixo akanako ukuwususa ngokupheleleyo umphefumlo kwesi simo, kodwa uya kuze kube kuphela ngommangaliso wobabalo olungaqhelekanga, ukuba anike phantse nabani na, kwaye akakwenzi oko. ngokuqinisekileyo ayisayi kumnika lowo, ngamaxesha amaninzi, azenze ngokuzithandela ukuba angakufanelekeli oko. Ndiyazi, kwakhona, ukuba inceba yobuthixo ayinasiphelo; kodwa ayikhe ibe njalo ngaphandle kokubhekiselele kumoni oguqukayo; nabani na ofa engaguquki engaguquki, emfamekile ngabom, uyafa emthiyile uThixo, agqibezele ukufa ekugwetyweni kwakhe.
Iintshaba zam ziyavuya, waphinda wathi kum; kodwa uvuyo lwabo luya kulandelwa ziintlungu ezininzi. Bandifumbela iindebe; kodwa ngendebe zoloyiso lwabo ndiya kulumisa ukonakala kwabo nokoyiswa kwabo. Umlinganiselo wabo uzele kwaye ngokukhawuleza ekuphakameni kwawo. Abangendawo bamisela izigwebo ngebandla lam ;
kodwa, ngokwemimiselo yobulungisa bam, baya kutshabalala kunye nemithetho yabo engcolileyo nemithetho. ewe, baya kubuya batshabalale, mgwebo wenziwe; ngengalo yam enamandla ndiya kubadudulela njengombane ezantsi enzonzobileni. Baya kuwela kuyo ngokukhawuleza okufanayo kunye nobudlova obufanayo noLucifer kunye namacala akhe avukelayo. Esi sisiphelo esibalindeleyo kwaye uninzi lwabalandeli babo sele bebandezelekile, kunye nenye yeenkokeli zabo eziphambili. UThixo undimisele yena; kodwa ufuna ukuba ndithule kweli nqaku, aligcinele ukulibonakalisa lakufika ixesha: kuba, uthi, amagama abo neziqu zabo ziya kwaziwa ngomhla wempindezelo yam.
Ndilinde ukuba ndibonakalise amacebo abo olwaphulo-mthetho emehlweni ka zonke izidalwa; Ngelixa belinde ubukhalipha babo kunye nokuqaqadeka kwabo kubonakale kutyhilekile ebusweni bezulu nomhlaba, ndishiya i-cabal yabo ekhohlakeleyo ukuba ndinike kwinkumbulo yabo engcolileyo onke amawonga ngenxa yenkalipho nezenzo ezilungileyo zamadoda alungileyo. Kodwa izinto ziya kutshintsha, yaye ekugqibeleni wonke umntu uya kuba nako oko akumfaneleyo. Ubulungisa bam buya kuba nexesha labo: buya koyisa abanye kwaye bubangele abanye boyise, kwaye konke oku ngenxa yegazi lam kunye noloyiso lothando lwam. Oku kulungile kwaye kuyimfuneko. Ekugqibeleni, isidima esicinezelweyo kufuneka sibonakale kwaye soyise ngexesha laso. Yonke into mayibuyiswe ngolungelelwano; nalo lonke uzuko olukhoyo namhlanje, ngenxa yolwaphulo-mthetho nokuchasa umthetho, alusayi kubathintela nabenzi bobubi, nabangamatshijolo;
ISILUMKISO SOKUQALA.
Kwaku, ngokokukhumbula kwam, ngobusuku obuphakathi koLwesihlanu noMgqibelo weveki eyandulela obo bePentekoste, apho ndanyanzelwa, njengoko udade wayexele kwangaphambili, ukuba ndishiye oonongendi bam, ukuze ndihlangulwe kuhlaselo olutsha endandinalo ngalo. Ndandigrogriswa, kwaye ndibakhulule ekuhlaziyeni uloyiko ababenalo ngezolo ngesihlandlo sam, nababengekachacha kulo ngokupheleleyo. Abahlali barhangqwe izihlandlo ezibini okanye ezithathu ngenxa yokuba ndifile okanye ndisaphila, ndaza ndanikezela kumthandazo ababendenza ndinyembezana, ukuba ndibashiye okwexeshana, kunokuba ndizibhencele ekuweleni phakathi kwezandla zabangcwele. umasipala.
Ukususela ngoko, njengoko besenditshilo kwenye indawo, ndawunyamekela umsebenzi endandiwuthwaliwe: ndizifihlile kumkhwa wehlabathi, ndatyhutyha amarhamente.
abamelwane, kwaye ndabona oogxa bam apho, ngaphandle kobuganga bokumisa kakhulu naphi na, ngenxa yokoyika ukuqondwa nokungcatshwa, njengoko kwenzeka ukususela ngoko ukuya kwabanye kwindawo enye. Amanqaku am ayendilandela kuyo yonke indawo, kwaye yonke indawo bendifumana umsebenzi
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eyakhayo neluncedo, engazange incede kancinane ukundenza ndilibale inxalenye yeentsizi zam; Ndahlala ixesha elide ngokwaneleyo ukuze ndithuthuzele, ubuncinane ngeleta, iinkedama ezazindibhalela ngokufuthi ngakumbi; yaye kwakusebudeni beenyanga ezimbini zokugqibela zokungabikho ngenkani endathi ndafumana, kuDade Wokuzalwa kukaYesu, uthunyelo endiza kunikela ingxelo ngalo, nekubonakala ukuba kuza kulandela oko sikubonileyo. Yabhalwa ngesandla sikaMadame la Supérieure, owathi, njengoko benditshilo ekuqaleni, wayekwimfihlo yethu kunye noMam' umgcini. Ndinyanzelekile ukuba ndifinyeze ubude bayo .
ICANDELO III.
Imibono nemiyalelo eyahlukahlukeneyo, ingakumbi kuthando lukaJC kuMthendeleko oNgcwele, kwiimpawu zakhe zobuthixo, kwisisa sokwenene kummelwane, nakwimiphumo eyahlukeneyo yomthendeleko .
Ukuthunyelwa kokuqala kuDade woZalo.
“Egameni likaBawo , njl. , ngoYesu noMariya, nangegama lalowo uthandekayo
Bathathu Emnye, ndiya kwenza ukuthobela. »
Bawo wam, iNkosi elungileyo ifuna kum ukuba ndikwazise okwenzeka kum oko wemkayo. Andisenakukwazi ukuthetha nawe, kwaye ndingekho kwimeko yokukubhalela, gweba ngokuhlazeka kwam kunye nentlungu eyongezelelekileyo yokuba ukungabikho kwakho okundibangeleyo apha! Asikuko ukuba andinantembelo kakhulu kuMama wethu olungileyo, okulungeleyo ukuwenza lo msebenzi unzima, ngenxa yothando lukaThixo; kodwa uyakwazi ukungafuni kwam ukuvulela nabani na ngaphandle kwakho ngezinto ezingaqhelekanga endisoyika ukulahlekiswa ngazo. Bendiya kuba nengxaki yokumxelela zonke izono zobomi bam. Ndingathanda eZulwini ukuba ikwazi ukuchacha xa ubuya, kwaye akuyi kuba lixesha elide
hayi!.... Kodwa ilizwi likaThixo lingxamisekile, ude andiyalele
makwazeke kuqala nokuphambili ukuba intando yakhe ikukuba usebenze kulo msebenzi mncinane, ungowakhe, kwaye uya kuthi, utsho, athwale isiqhamo ngexesha lakhe, ngenxa yozuko lwakhe olunyulu nothando lwakhe olunyulu, ekusindiseni uluntu. imiphefumlo emininzi, noguquko lwaboni abaninzi.
Ezi ziintshukumisa ezinamandla, ngokungathandabuzekiyo, Bawo, kwaye ezikwaziyo ukusenza singahoyi konke ukucekisa indalo, njengoko uJC ngokwakhe wayelungile ngokwaneleyo ukuba andibongoze kwakhona kutsha nje. Ndaba nobuganga bokukhalaza kuye phambi koMthendeleko oNgcwele, kwaye ndakhalaza ndinyembezana ngentlungu endiyivayo ngokuthobela kweli nqaku nabani na ongenguye utata wam wokomoya....
"Nam ! ntombi yam, wathi kum ngokuthambileyo, yintoni na intobelo endingazange ndibe nayo ngokuqwalasela kwakho? Andizange ndithobele uBawo kuphela, kodwa nabagwebi bam ngokwabo kunye nesigwebo sabagwebi bam ...
Ndafa ngenxa yentobeko, yaye oku kusenzelwa usindiso lwemiphefumlo nolwenu ngokukodwa. Andinelisekanga kukuthobela kube kanye, nasekufeni, ndaphinda ndazibeka, ngenxa yothando ngawe, kwimeko yokuthobela rhoqo kunye nokuzinikela kwiSakramente eSikelelekileyo, apho ndingagcini nje ukuthobela ababingeleli abalungileyo kunye nabathembekileyo bokwenene abamkelayo. kodwa kwanabangcwele abandichukumisayo ngezandla zabo ezingcolileyo, bandihlisela ezintliziyweni ezingcolileyo , ezonakeleyo;
Uyayibiza, Thixo wam! Ndathi kuye, kulungile, ndiya kuthobela, nokuba yintoni na endiya kukuhlawula ngayo. Ungáthini na ke, Nkosi, ukuba uthe wanxibelelana ngendlela engaqhelekanga, wena ungcwele, kwisidalwa esizele ziziphoso, nokungafezeki, nezono? Isidalwa esingafanelanga ubabalo lwakho, kwaye ngubani oye waxhaphaza izibane zakho kunye neefefe zakho kangaka?... Nantsi, Bawo wam, uJC wandiphendula ngokubaluleka ...
“Awunanto yakwenza nento endikwenze wayibona kwaye uyazi kwiindibano eziliwaka. Ndinezizathu zam zokusebenzisa isixhobo esibuthathaka, esingcolileyo nesidelekileyo emehlweni abantu. Ubabalo lwam, ubabalo lwam, izibane zam
ungaxhomekeki kwindlela endizinikezela ngayo emadodeni. Bendiya kubadlula ngomjelo ongcolileyo, kwaye kude nokungcoliswa ngawo, bebeya kuba bhetele ngakumbi ukukhupha uzuko lwam namandla am ... kuba ndim, kwaye ayisosixhobo endisisebenzisayo, ekufuneka kuqwalaselwa kuyo yonke into endiyenzayo. »
Ngaloo ndlela, njengoko wandenza ndakuva, phezu kwazo nje iziphoso zam nokunganyaniseki kwam, uya kufeza kum ukuthanda kwakhe okungcwele kokulungileyo nokusindisa imiphefumlo; kwaye oko kuyandonwabisa. Ndingakwazi, ngoncedo lwakhe, ukuzenzela inzuzo kuyo; kodwa nokuba bendiyimfama ngokwaneleyo kwaye ndingenambulelo ngokwaneleyo kuthando lwakhe ukuba ndingabi naluvelwano kulo, uThixo ngengazange ayiphose injongo yakhe kuloo akhawunti. Ndiyakwazi, nangona zininzi kangaka iinceba, ndizigwebe ngonaphakade, kwaye lo msebenzi mncinane awuyi kuba luncedo kangako ekusindiseni abanye .
Awunakungena, Thixo wam! Ewe, ndiyaqonda kwaye ndiyavuma ukuba ayizizo iinceba okanye izibane ezingaqhelekanga ezenza umntu abe ngamalungisa phambi kwakho, kodwa ukunyaniseka kwimisebenzi yethu, kwiinceba zakho nakuthando lwakho ! Makhe size kule nto
ukuba uJC undenze ndabona
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echukumisa uthando lwakhe ngathi, kweyona Sakramente iSikelelweyo yesibingelelo .
Uthando lukaJC ngeCawa yakhe kwiSakramente eSikelelekileyo yesibingelelo .
Uya kwazi ke, Bawo, ukuba ebudeni beMisa ngomhla woKunyuka ngequbuliso ndabanjwa ndinombono wobukho bobuThixo; U-JC wazibonakalisa kum ekwimilo kunye nobukhulu bendoda entle ngokugqibeleleyo; wema engcweleni, phakathi kwegumbi lokwayara lethu nesibingelelo; wayenxibe isambatho kunye nesambatho esine-violet ebonakala ilawula kancinane phezu kwesibhakabhaka esibhakabhakeni kunye neminye imibala. Kwakubonakala kum ukuba iimpahla zakhe zivulekile kancinci esifubeni sakhe, kwaye, ejikela kum, wazivula kancinci, njengokungathi ubonisa ukuba unomzimba womntu wenene kunye nenyama yokwenyani, ekugqibeleni. ukuba wayeyindoda yokwenene.
Ndiye ndakroba imitha ethile yobungcwele bakhe eyabengezela ebuntwini bakhe obungcwele. Kwangaxeshanye ndaziva ndibanjwe luloyiko nentlonipho, ndikhwankqisiwe kwaye ndincoma, nto leyo kuphela
kabini njengoko uThixo ezicacisa ngakumbi. Ndabona ubukhulu beempawu zakhe ezimanyene kubuntu bakhe obungcwele nobuthandekayo; kodwa into eyandilungisa ngakumbi kukubona uloyiso oluqaqambileyo lothando lwakhe kuzo zonke ezinye iimpawu zobuthixo bakhe ezathi zagqunywa kubo kwaye zaxutywa kubo, njengakwiziko lomlilo. Kwakubonakala kum ukuba zonke ezi mpawu zobuthixo zaziqukuqela ngokuthe chu ukuya kuphawu lothando, okanye endaweni yoko kwiNtliziyo eNgcwele kaYesu, apho zazingathi ziguquliwe kwaye, ngokungathi kunjalo, zaguqulwa zaba luthando . Le ntliziyo yobungcwele yabatsalela kuye bonke ngobumnandi bomtsalane wayo kunye nemitsalane yayo engoyiswayo. Wabalawula ngobukhosi obuthambileyo, waziguqula waba ngabo, okanye wabaguqula baba nguye. »
Kungelo xesha ke, Bawo, ndandingasaboni kuyo yonke into nakuyo yonke enye into ngaphandle kothando nothando olusoyisa yonke into nangaphezu koThixo ngokwakhe . Ukuze ndibengcono
yenza intsingiselo yalo mbono iqondwe, uJC wajika wabhekisa kum, etyhila isifuba sakhe sonke, wathi kum: "Khangela, ntombi yam, ndisithanda kangakanani isidalwa sam, kwaye yintoni ubungqina endimnika yona kwisakramente ethandekayo apho ndihlala khona. ndizenza ikhoboka kunye nombanjwa wolu thando ndimthanda ngalo, apho ndithobela kuphela umthetho wothando . Yonke into _
ukuba ndikubonise, waqhubeka, nangoku akukho nto, kuphela isampuli encinane; ukusindisa ubuthathaka bakho, ndivumele ukubaleka nje imitha encinci kakhulu yobuThixo bam . Kukulo mthendeleko wothando apho ndizinikela khona
ngokupheleleyo kubantwana beBandla lam kwaye okona kumnandi kum ukuhlala kunye nabo, ukunxibelelana nabo ngenceba yam negazi lam, umzimba wam, umphefumlo wam, iimpawu zam zobuThixo, konke endikuko kum, ekugqibeleni ubuThixo bam bonke. , kunye nobuntu bam obungcwele. Ngaba sinokunikela ngakumbi? sinokwenza enye into? ingaba ingenzeka na ukuyicingela?....
“Uthando olushushu nolubonakala lubaxakile endinalo ngabo andivumeli mathandabuzo. Kukubashiya ukufikelela ngakumbi kunye nenkululeko emntwini wam, ukuba ndigqume kwiimvakalelo zabo ukubengezela kobuThixo bam obuya kuboyisa kwaye kubathintele ukuba bangasondeli kum, ngokuchasene nowona mnqweno wam ushushu kunye nokulangazelela kwam. Baya kundazi kuphela kwisakramente ngokukhanya kwetotshi yokholo, ekufuneka ibakhokelele etafileni yam engcwele nakwiziphumo zothando lwam. Xa ndithe ndaba kukudla kwemiphefumlo yabo khona, ndoba ngumxhasi wabo, nenkxaso yabo, intuthuzelo yabo kuzo zonke izilingo, nezilingo, namahlazo obu bomi; kwaye kwelinye, ndiya kuba lapho isibambiso solonwabo lwabo lwanaphakade kunye nokungafi kwabo...
"Ke bona aboni abaqaqadekileyo, abakhohlakeleyo, abangahloneli Thixo, abakreqi, abakreqi, nazo zonke iintshaba zeBandla lam, ngokuziphatha kwam nemfundiso yam, ngakumbi abo babukhanyelayo ubunyani bobukho bam
ISakramente eNgcwele yesibingelelo, okanye abakholelwa kuyo kuphela ukuba basithukise kwaye basihlambele; abo babukhanyelayo ubuntu bam obungcwele okanye abahlule kubuThixo bam; bonke abo, ekugqibeleni, bavukela inyaniso yelizwi lam, baya kufumana apho kuphela iindudumo kunye nezikwere; Bamfanyekiswe bubutshijolo babo, bangandazi; ukuba bathe bandazi, koba kube ngamathontsi omsindo wam wobulungisa. Uthando lwam oludelekileyo luya kutshintsha kubo lube yintiyo engapheliyo, kwaye luya kuvutha ngumsindo ngokulinganayo njengoko beludlamkile kwaye luvutha ngakumbi. Wongezelela wathi, Musani ukusilela ukubazisa bonke; kwaye kwanga esi soyikiso soyikekayo, kunye nezimemo zam zothando, zingafikelela esiphelweni ukoyikwa kwabangendawo kunye nentuthuzelo yomphefumlo wobuKristu; ukuba baqinisekise amalungisa,
Okokuqala, ndabuyela kum ngokukhawuleza ukuba i-JC ilahlekile, kunye neyakhe
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Imbonakalo yavela kuphela kwi -Agnus Dei yeMisa, ukuya kwiDomine, non sum dignus . Ndabuyela, nditsho, ngaphakathi kwam, ukuze ndibone ngokukhanya kokholo ukuba andimkhubekisanga na uThixo, kwaye ukuba andizange ndibe ngumdlalo wenkohliso ethile. Ndandiyidinga le nkumbulo ukuze ndibuyele kancinane ekumangalisweni, ekudakaleni, kunye nohlobo lwesithintelo apho izivamvo zam zangaphakathi kunye nomphefumlo wam wonke wawuntywiliselwe kwaye ngokungathi ufunnyiwe ngeli xesha ...
Eyona nto yayindixakekisa ngakumbi ngoko, ngokokukhumbula kwam, yayiluloyiko lokusondela kuThixo endandimbona emkhulu, enyulu yaye enyulu, ngoxa ndandizele kukungafezeki. udelekile kunodaka . Nangona kunjalo, ixesha lexesha
Umthendeleko wawusondela, kwafuneka sigqibe iingqondo zethu, yaye ngesi sihlandlo ndaba nomzabalazo omkhulu ngaphakathi kum. Uloyiko lwalusilwa nomnqweno, kwaye umnqweno wawusilwa noloyiko: olu lwamva lwabonakala lufuna ukoyisa, xa ndakhumbulayo ukuba ndandingenayo imvume yokuyeka uMthendeleko. Ngoko ke ndazixhobisa ngobukroti, ndaza ndazincama
inceba kaThixo, Ndasondela kwiTafile eNgcwele, ndicenga JC ukuba azilahle kwaye; ukundixolela ukungandifaneleki kwam, ngeemfanelo zothando lwakhe olungcwele nangobuncwane benceba obuqulethwe kwisakramente yakhe yobungcwalisa; oko aya kuba ekwenzile, ngokungathandabuzekiyo, ngobubele bakhe obukhulu. UMthendeleko wandinika uxolo olupheleleyo, ukugxotha uloyiko olugqithisileyo ngethemba eliqinileyo, elihlala liveliselwa ububele bothando kumntu kaJC...
Le mihla yokugqibela isekhona, uBawo wam, uJC wandazisa ukuba, kumthendeleko owenziwe kakuhle, uxolele zonke izono ezibuhlungu umntu anomsindo ngazo. Ngokuphathelele iingcinga ezingcolileyo kunye neengcamango ezimbi, undixelela
ukuba bangawugxothi umphefumlo eSithebeni esiNgcwele esilwa nabo kangangoko unakho, nalapho bengengawo ngokuzithandela. Kwakuza kuyibhenca ngakumbi kwizithonga zotshaba lwayo, olwalungenakuzikhusela kulo. Ngoko yinjongo yedemon ebavusayo. Kukho, nakwezona ndawo zingcwele, abantu abaninzi kunokuba umntu ebenokucinga ukuba ngubani okwimeko yokufuna olu luvo.
Kananjalo kufuneka ndiphawule, Bawo, ukuba kwangoko emva kombono endisandula ukuwuthetha kuwe, ingqondo yam yaphambana, yakhathazeka kakhulu. izibane awayesandul’ ukuzibona, awayengasenakuzibona okanye eziva nantoni na eyenye. Kwakungathi akunakwenzeka ngaye ukuba azibhokoxe kuyo nantoni na, okanye aphendule ngeyona nto imchukumise kakhulu. Ngokufana nomntu onqwenela ukucamngca ngelanga emini emaqanda, iliso lakhe elikhazimlayo liya kubona kuphela ingqukuva yomlilo, ngaphandle kokwahlula phantse nantoni na ekuyo: ukungqukuva kwengqukuva bekungayi kufane kuviwe nguye. Akuyi kufana nokuba lo mntu uyayilungisa ekuphumeni kwelanga okanye ekutshoneni kwelanga: uya kukwazi ukuqonda ukujikeleza kwayo, kunye nemibala eyahlukeneyo kunye nemibala yayo. Kunjalo nangelanga lobulungisa, xa kuqwalaselwa emoyeni kunye nezibane zoKholo. Yile nto yena ngokwakhe andenze ukuba ndiyiqonde kwiindawo ezahlukeneyo apho wazibonakalisa kum, uMthendeleko wakhe Kwezi
iimeko ezahlukeneyo undenze ndahlula inyaniso kwinyaniso, ubabalo elubabalweni, iimpawu ezivela kwiimpawu zakhe, ukucaca kokucaca, izibane ezivela kwizikhanyiso. Ndabona ngokucacileyo ukuba kungoncedo lwakhe olukhethekileyo kuphela endiye ndakwazi ukuba nezinto ezininzi ezibhaliweyo, apho mna ngokwam ndandingenakuze ndithintithe amagama amabini alandelelanayo....
Iimpawu ezahlukeneyo zeJC
Phakathi kweempawu ezahlukeneyo zomntu othandekayo kaJ. C., kukho ezinye ezinento yokwenza ngakumbi nobuThixo bakhe kunobuntu bakhe; abanye, kwi
ngokuchaseneyo, zinobudlelwane obungakumbi nobuntu bakhe kunobuThixo bakhe, ukanti ezi mpawu zahlukeneyo zimanyene emntwini wakhe, ngaphandle kokubandezeleka apho nokuba kuchaswa, okanye ukwahlukana, okanye ukubhideka, kodwa kuvumelana ngokugqibeleleyo nokwahluka kokwenyani kwaye kuphawulwe kakuhle kakhulu: phantse njengomahluko wokwenyani ofunyanwa phakathi kwabantu abangcwele, ngaphandle kokuba kubekho inkcaso, okanye ukubhideka kwabantu, okanye iintlobo ngeentlobo zezinto . YETHU
INkosi ifuna nokuba ndichaze apha, kwaye ubhale phantsi ezona mpawu ziphambili zinento yokwenza nobuThixo bakhe, kunye nezo zinento yokwenza nobuntu bakhe, zahlula enye kwenye. Nam ke ndiya kuwabizela bona ngolungelelwano awandinika lona, ndiqalele kwabahlonelayo uThixo . Owu nkosi yam inyaniso
!... Owu kucace!... Owu ukukhanya okungadalwanga!... Owu bukhazikhazi!... Owu ubungangamsha! Owu ubulumko !.
.. Owu Thixo ongunaphakade kubungangamsha bakho!...
Nantsi ke ngoku inqununu yabo baqwalasela ngakumbi ubuntu obungcwele boMsindisi.... Owu nzwakazi!. . . oh nkosi!. .. Owu uthando ! oh
ubukhulu!.... Owu moyisi!... Owu inyaniso!... Owu inceba engapheliyo ! oh ubulumko
ilungile!...
YiNkosi yethu ngokwayo efuna ndibeke le ô! ekuqaleni
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uphawu ngalunye, ukuphawula ukukhwankqiswa kobuncwane obuqulethwe... Waphinda wandixelela ukuba ndingamnika iimpawu zakhe phambi nasemva kwemithendeleko yam, ngomoya wendumiso nowozuko; kwaye ndaqonda ukuba uya kuvumelana nokuba ngubani owazibhekisa kuye. Ngokufuthi ndiye ndathanda ukuziphinda....
Ngenye imini xa, phambi kobuso bukaThixo nokukhanya kweNkosi yethu, ndicamngca ngezi mpawu zobuthixo, ndabona inkitha yazo engapheliyo, endingazange ndiyikrokrele nokurhanela: bendingathanda ukwazi inani labo, kodwa U-JC undixelele ukuba akukho mntu unokuphela onokuzibala: kwakhona, okukhona ndizibhokoxa kuyo, kokukhona ndifumanisa ukuba akunakwenzeka ukuphumelela. UThixo undenze ndaqonda, ngesi sihlandlo, ukuba abasikelelweyo kunye neengelosi
ziya kukhula ngonaphakade eluthandweni nakulwazi lwezi mpawu zingcwele, zingayeki ukufumanisa into ngenani lazo kunye nobudlelwane bazo obahlukeneyo; ukuba lonke uPhakade alinakwanela uthando oluya kuthi ngokungapheliyo lube sisiphumo solu lonwabo lufunyenweyo; ukuba abasayi kuze bayenze nzulu le nzululwazi igqwesileyo, kude ukuyigqiba; nokokuba uThixo akanakuze aziwe ngokugqibeleleyo ngaphandle kwakhe, ingeyiyo ingqibelelo yakhe engenasiphelo okanye ukuthandeka kwakhe okungenakuchazwa, ngaphandle kwangoyena mntu ugqibelele ngokungenasiphelo nothandeka ngokungenasiphelo onazo zonke ngeqondo elingenasiphelo ! Intoni
Uvuyo nolonwabo olunjani kwizidalwa ezinokuphela ukuba zizilahlekele ngolo hlobo, zitshone ngokungenasiphelo kulo msinga ungenakuqondwa wolonwabo olungenakuthethelelwa, kolu lwandle lungenasiphelo nolungenamda lwemfezeko engapheliyo ! Kodwa ngubani oya kuba
ofanelekileyo, ngakumbi apha ngezantsi, ngubani onokuba nobuganga bokuthetha ngayo?...
Ndabona ngaloo ndlela ukuba endaweni yokuba ndime apho kwakhona, kwakulunge ngakumbi ukuba ndaneliseke ngokuyivuyela ndize ndimzukise lowo unaloo nzonzobila yeemfezeko ekungenakwenzeka ukuba ayiqonde; yaye ngokungakumbi ekubeni kusoloko kuyingozi ukuphambuka ekuthandeni kukaThixo, xa kubonakaliswa kuthi, ngokukodwa ngolu hlobo lokukhanya okungaqhelekanga. Ndandisazi ukuba idemon, esoloko igadile, inokuthi, ngemvume yomsindo kaThixo, ithabathe ithuba lobu bubele ukuze imisele izikhanyiso ezingcwele endaweni yenkohliso yakhe. Undazisile ke yena uThixo, endixelela ukuba, abaninzi bakholwa, basawuphethe ngoMoya wakhe, ongasasebenziyo, ingengawomoya wozuko olungento, nowokunyameka kwemvelo; nto leyo eyakhokelela ekubeni bafune ukuyiqonda imimiselo kaBonelelo neemfihlelo zenyaniso engunaphakade. Into engamkholisiyo kwaye imngcikiva kakhulu, wandixelela, isithunywa sikaSathana, esithe ngokufihlakeleyo saguquka sazenza isithunywa sezikhanyiso. Hayi! kukangaphi engekayenzi, kwaye akayenzi yonke imihla, kubantu abaninzi abangayicingiyo loo nto!....
Ke ngoko uThixo undenze ndabona, Bawo, ukuba wakhubeka kakhulu kukuba umphefumlo, ngenxa yozuko lwakhe, wayeya kuthi ngenxa yozuko lwakhe, abeke kuye iimfihlelo zawo, abe ngaphezu kwemiyalelo yakhe ngaphandle kwesizathu sokukhalaza, ikratshi okanye ngenye indlela. Kwakhona wayenobubele ngokwaneleyo ukundilinda ngamandla nxamnye nesi silingo kangangokuba ndingade ndife kunokuba ndiye kuso ngokuchasene nentando yakhe, okanye ndide ndifune ukwazi into ethile ngokukhawuleza nje ndinesizathu sokukholelwa ukuba akasifuni. ..
Ndilibele, bawo, ukukuxelela, malunga nokubonakala komhla woKunyuka, endithetha ngayo, ukuba uJC wandazisa, ngaloo mini, ukuba konke akwenzileyo kum ukubona ukuchukumisa umanyano olusondeleyo. ngeempawu zakhe ezahlukeneyo kubuntu bakhe obungcwele, ngenye imini uya kukhonza ukuphikisa nokutshabalalisa uqhekeko apho umntu aya kuzama ukubukhanyela ubunyani bobukho bakhe kwiSakramente eNgcwele.
Baza kukhanyela, wandixelela, abanye ubuThixo bakhe, abanye ubuntu bakhe kule sakramente imnandi. Ekugqibeleni abanye baya kuzama ukwahlula omnye komnye, ngokwahlula iimpawu ezithi, emntwini wakhe, zingabi nakwahlulwa; lonke uphawu okanye ihlelo, ngendlela ethile, liqhelekile kwaye lihambelana nezimo ezimbini eziqulunqwe lumanyano lwazo lwe-hypostatic. Nantsi into asafuna uyibhale.
Ngaloo mini, ngexesha lokucamngca ngokuhlwa, i-JC yabonakala kum kwakhona, kodwa kwimeko eyahlukileyo kakhulu. Ndambona engupontifi eyongamileyo ekhwele kwitrone ekhazimlayo... Nangona umbono wawungaphakathi kuphela, kangangoko ndinokugweba, nangona kunjalo itrone yakhe yayibonakala kum ibekwe ngokungathi iphakathi kwekwayara: wayeneBandla lakhe elineemfazwe. ngasekunene, nazo zonke iintlanga ezingathembekanga ngasekhohlo kwalo; mna ndazibona sendithe nca ezinyaweni zakhe, endingathandi ukuba ndingaphumi kuyo, ndihleli nje ndikhululekile enzonzobileni engento yam. Kwakungenxa yam, nangona kunjalo, ukuba esi sixhobo senziwe, okanye ubuncinane i-JC yasisebenzisa ukundinika, njengabanye abaninzi, izifundo ezibaluleke kakhulu kwisisa sobuzalwana esisityala ummelwane wethu, kunye nothando. kwisakramente yakhe engcwele...
Umyalelo we-JC wokuba uthande njani ummelwane wakho. Uthando lwenene lubandakanya bonke abantu, ngakumbi iintshaba.
Wathi kum, "Unengqondo yokungakhathali, kunye nokubanda okuthile, malunga nabanye oodadewenu ... Kukho ngaphezulu: unayo.
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amaxesha aliqela ondliwe kwaye ondliwe ziintiyo eziphantse zibe yintiyo ngokuchasene neentshaba zenu kunye nezam; walibala kancinane ubabalo lwentliziyo yam phezu kweentshaba zam ;
wena ukuba emnqamlezweni ndabonakala ndibalibala bonke abanye ukuba ndizixhalabise ngabo kuphela kwaye ndithandazela ababulali bam; Yakha uthando lwakho kulo mzekelo, kwaye, ulandele umzekelo wam, uyiphindaphinde imithandazo yakho kunye nokubakhathalela kwakho. Lo ngumyalelo omkhulu ukuba akukho mKristu kufuneka alibale, ukuba ufuna ukubanga iziqhamo zothando lwam.
“Ngamana uthando lwenu lungaba lukhulu njengolwam, kwaye lunganabela kubo bonke abantu ngaphandle kokukhetha. Sonke isidalwa esinengqiqo sinelungelo kuko, yaye kukukwenza ukuqonde oku ukuba ndizihlanganisele zonke apha kum, ngaloo ndlela ndibonisa inyameko yokunyamekela kwam ilungisa nomoni . Nangona kukho ngokungqongqo ukuthetha kuphela abantwana bam
Bandla abangabam nabangabantwana bam bokwenyani, ukulunga kwentliziyo yam abucimeki kwabanye. Igubungela abasemzini, abangakholwayo, amaYuda, abawexuki, naboni; ngelizwi nje, idlulela kuzo zonke iintshaba zam, endinganeli nje ukuba likhanye ilanga lam nombethe ovela ezulwini, kodwa nabo ndingagabi ubabalo olunokubenza bavule amehlo kwaye bayazi inyaniso. , ukuba baphume kubumfama babo obubulalayo baze babuyele esifubeni seCawa, unina wokwenene....
Waqhubeka wathi: “Ngoku ke ntombi yam, ngaba ungabathiya abo ndibathandayo abasengabam, nabanokuthi ngenye imini babe ngabam.
okunye okunye? Ndithi kuni, inene, ukuba niyalandula abe mnye entliziyweni yenu, mna
Bendingasayi kuphinda ndihlale apho. Ukuba benithe nabuya ukumthanda, ninge ningabi sandithanda; ubungacinga ukuba useluthandweni lwam, ube usenzondweni yam.
Unokuba yintoni umphumo wobumfama obubulalayo kuwe ! »
Thixo wam, ndakhala, ndivumele ndikubuze ngako konke ukuzithoba kunye nokutshabalalisa, kutheni ufuna uthando lweentshaba zakho kunye nolwethu ngamandla amakhulu nangenzondelelo kunokuba ufuna uthando kubahlobo bakho abathembekileyo nabantwana ? "Akunjalo, wethu
intombi, waphendula; noko ke ndithanda ukuba nithande izihlobo zenu nezam ezintweni ezininzi, ngaphezu kwabo bonke abangento; kodwa ke andithandi ukuba nizikhwelelise iintshaba zenu eluthandweni lwenu, nokuba nithiye nabani na. Kule nto, ntombi yam, waqhubeka, ndiza kukuxelela isizathu sokuziphatha okuthe kwabonakala ngathi ukothusa ekuqaleni, kwaye ubulungisa bakhe kunye nobulungisa uya kukubona nangona kunjalo, ukuba uyakwenza.
“Yonke into ikhokelela ekubeni nithande abantwana benene beBandla lam enihlala nabo esifubeni sam nakwitafile enye; bonke bemanyaniswe ngamatyathanga othando olusondeleyo, njengabazalwana noodade abaninzi kwindlu yooyise naphantsi kwemithetho yoxolo kamama wabo omnye: indalo, inkolo, umdla, yonke into ikwintando yabo; ukuze ngengqiqo yokuba ndinikhuphele umyalelo wokuba niwathande.
Kodwa akufani ngokubhekisele kwiintshaba zethu eziqhelekileyo: yonke into ichasene nabo kwaye akukho nto ivumelana nabo. Kunzima kakhulu kwindalo ekhohlakeleyo ukubaxolela nokubathanda, ukuba kwakuyimfuneko kum, ukuze ndithotyelwe kule ngongoma yenkunzi, ndiyenze ibe ngumyalelo ocacileyo, kwaye ndiyivume, ukuba ndithe. ,
ngamandla negunya elingaphezulu kunayo nayiphi na enye, ukuyiphinda ngezoyikiso ezoyikekayo; ngaphandle kwawo, ebebeya kulahlwa, athiywe, athinjwe ngabo bonke; nto leyo ngeyayichasa kakhulu intando yam, nemiyalelo yolungiselelo lwam lwehlabathi lonke, kuyilo olukhulu lwenceba yam kunye nothando olukhulu noluphangaleleyo apho intliziyo yam elungileyo ngokwendalo nelungileyo isoloko ibathwala nangona benesimo sengqondo esibi ngakum. ..”
Ndixolele, Thixo wam, ngenxa yobudenge bam, ndakhala; Uthetha phakathi
Nawe, Thixo, wenza ngendlela efanayo, kwaye ulungile ngenene kunenyaniso eyongamileyo . Zonke izinto ezikuwe zithe tye, ubulungisa nenceba .
Ngenxa yethu, Nkosi yam ! kum ingakumbi, ndihlala ndiziswa
sigweba izinto ngokwesimo esikhohlakeleyo sendalo kunye neengqondo, andikwenzi, yeha,
! akukho nto kwiindlela ezithandekayo kwaye zihlala zilumkile ozilandelayo . " Intombazana yakho,
waqhubeka JC, ungaze ujonge elilandelayo kwicala iziphene, ukuba kunokwenzeka; kodwa mqondeni ebuThixo bam, nobuThixo bam bukuye. Nonke nibandakanywe apho ngokungakhethiyo njengeentlanzi kulwandle olunye. Ke ngoko, ngokwaselukholweni, niya kuba nako na ukuba ningabathandi bonke abalungileyo nabangendawo, kum, nangenxa yam ? »
Ingozi yothando lwemvelo kuphela. Iinjongo ezingaphaya kwendalo ekufuneka ziphile zonke izenzo zomKrestu.
Ngokuphathelele uthando esinalo kwabo sibathandayo, kwanjengothando olusemthethweni phakathi kwabantu abadityaniswe ngeqhina lomthendeleko, ndibona kuThixo ukuba olu thando nobu buhlobo, nangona buvunyelwe, buncomeka yaye buyimfuneko.
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kuzo ngokwazo, zifunyenwe ngokwendalo kuMkristu, ziya kuba lapho, nangona zisemthethweni kwaye zivunyelwe ngaphakathi kwazo, zingonelanga kwaye zinesiphako phambi koThixo. Ndithi zineziphene, kungekuko ukuba ziya kuba zezendalo, kodwa kuba ziya kuba zezendalo kuphela, kwaye ngaloo nto kanye babeya kuswela ukugqibelela okungaphaya kwemvelo apho iJC iphakamisa khona isimilo esihle. Kwakhona uThixo undenza ndibone ukuba esi siphene, oku kungabikho
amandla angaphezu kwawemvelo kumKristu, amele apheliswe kweli hlabathi ngokuzohlwaya, okanye kwelilandelayo yintlambululo-miphefumlo.
UmKristu ke ngoko umele ongezelele kuyo nayiphi na intshukumisa ethile engaphaya kwamandla emvelo, nangawuphi na umlinganiselo, ukuze abe nako ukuthembela kwimfanelo efanelekileyo yomsebenzi wakhe; ngenxa yokuba, kwakhona, ayingomfundi weVangeli njengongakholwayo. Isenzo esisulungekileyo asisifanelanga isiphelo umntu amele abe naso engqondweni, othi, ngaphandle komthetho wemvelo, ezintweni zonke avisisane nomthetho ogqibelele ngakumbi. Oko kunokuthetheleleka, nokungenakusoleka emntwini, akusoloko kunjalo kuMkristu; kunye nokungaphumeleli ukuhambelana nomoya we-JC kunye nomthetho wakhe ongcwele, akusoloko kule nto into engenamdla kwaye ilula njengoko umntu enokucinga.
Inyaniso ebaluleke kakhulu, Bawo, nangona kunjalo umntu ucinga kancinci kakhulu ekusebenziseni ubomi. Ukuba uThixo ugweba izenzo zethu ngaphantsi ngokwazo kunokuba ngokwesiphelo esiyicebisayo kunye nesizathu esizivelisayo; ukuba ukunqongophala kwenjongo kunokuyingcolisa kuze kuyonakalise eyona misebenzi mihle, ngaba umKristu uya kungxengxezeleka ngokwenza nje njengomntu? Ukuba umthi uyagwetyelwa entsimini yoyise womzi ngenxa yokuba ungavelisi siqhamo sihle, ebengayi kuba nakoyika na ngenxa yokuba uzele izinto zasendle, nolunye uhlobo olungaqhelekanga kwimvelo yakhe ? Yintoni, ke, kuyo yonke le ngqalelo yothando, kuzo zonke
olo nxibelelwano lokuthantamisa phakathi kwabantu abangafanelanga ukuba nalo, kwaye apho, phantsi kwesizathu esibizwa ngokuba bubuhlobo obumsulwa, ukuzonwabisa okuvunyelweyo kunye nokuphumla, okanye okokugqibela kwamasiko kunye neentlobano zehlabathi, umntu angaziphathi kuphela ngeemvakalelo; sinikela yonke into kumsa wenyama ngokupheleleyo, kwaye ngamanye amaxesha siye sizivumele ukuba simfanyekiswe yinkanuko, ukuya kwinqanaba lokuthanda ngaphandle kwemida, nangaphaya kwayo yonke imithetho, ukuze sizifumane singabathinjwa kolu thando luphazamisekileyo. indawo yoMdali . Thina
ubona kuphela into umntu ayinqulayo; okanye sicinge ngaye kuphela, sifuna yena kuphela
; bubuThixo apho ubani anikela kuye intliziyo nomphefumlo wakhe ngawo onke amandla anawo, ngaphandle kokugcinela nantoni na yena yedwa ebafaneleyo ngaphandle kwesabelo nakunqulo lokwenyaniso, kwiCawa kaJ .
Ah! Bawo, uThixo undenza ndibone ukuba amaKristu anjalo, ukuba asenako ukubizwa ngelo gama, akucaphukela ngokukrakra ukulunga kwakhe kobuthixo, aze akhuphe umsindo wakhe ngomsindo, ngolu khetho lungafanelekanga amnikela phezu kwakhe kwisidalwa esibi . Ngaloo ndlela bazenza netyala lokunqula izithixo;
ekubeni ngokunikela iintliziyo zabo ngenzondelelo, nangokuwuchasa umthetho wobuthixo, kule nto yasemhlabeni kunokuba basukele kuThixo, bafudusela kwisidalwa uthando olukhulu, baze bathethe ngolo hlobo unqulo oluphakamileyo olufanele kumdali kuphela. Esinjani sona isithuko ! Olunjalo lungaphezu kwalo lonke ulwaphulo-mthetho lwabantu behlabathi abangakwenziyo oko
bayakwazi ukuyilawula inkanuko yabo, baze balandele inkanuko yabo. Zingaphi iindibano zolwaphulo-mthetho, phantsi kwembonakalo yobuhlobo obuvunyelweyo!
Nangona kunjalo, uBawo wam, u-JC uyandilumkisa ukuba ndingagwebi kancinci kule mbonakalo, ukuba ndiyeke nokubagweba, okanye ndiyenze ngobubele ngakumbi kunokuba ndiya kuba nako, nangokubhekiselele abangakholwayo kunye nazo zonke iintshaba zakhe. “Kuxhomekeke kum,” wandixelela, “ukugweba, kwaye akukho mntu unokuwahlutha amalungelo am ngaphandle kokuzibeka esichengeni somgwebo owoyikekayo.” Ngaphandle koko, ndinezimvo ongenakuzazi. Abo bangengabo abeBandla lam, okanye abangasekhoyo kulo, bayagwetywa; kodwa abagwetyelwanga, baya kuba njalo emva kokufa kwabo: kwaye kude kube ngoko, ndinako, njengabona ngaboni bakhulu, ukubanika ubabalo, izibonelelo kunye neendlela ezingaqhelekanga zosindiso.
"Ewe, ntombi yam, kwaye ungathandabuzi okomzuzwana nje, umntu okhoyo ngoku kwindlela ebanzi yentshabalalo, uya kuba ngcwele kakhulu kwaye uya kubekwa ezulwini kwindawo yabasikelelekileyo abanjalo, ngokuchaseneyo . obonakala eqinile apho
ubungcwele, uya kukholwa kwaye atshabalale ngenxa yekratshi lakhe kunye nokuzicingela kwakhe Ngaloo ndlela
alikafiki ixesha lokugweba nabani na. Kulapho unakho, ukugqithiswa okukhulu okubini okufuneka kuphetshwe ekuthandeni ummelwane womntu: ucalucalulo oluninzi kunye noluncinci, ngenxa okanye ngokuchasene: kwelinye icala, ukungakhathali okuya kufikelela ekuchaseni, ukungathethi nto; kwelinye, unxulumano olugqithiseleyo lwendalo, imvakalelo edlamkileyo edlamkileyo ephanga uxolo lomphefumlo ize ide ide imenze umntu amlibale uThixo nokoyika ukumcaphukisa. Isisa asiyalela sona uThixo sithatha indawo ephakathi phakathi kwezi zinto zimbini.
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khohlakele. Uzivalela kwaneentshaba zethu phantsi komthetho; kodwa, ihlanjululwe kwinjongo yayo, isoloko igcina indawo yokuqala kuloo nto ifanele ukuba yiyo; nokunxulumanisa yonke into nalo mgaqo wokuqala, omele ukuba ube ngumthetho ongenasiphako, njengesiseko sothando lwethu, kusenza sithande abahlobo bethu kuThixo, iintshaba zethu ngenxa kaThixo, bonke abantu ngaphandle kokucalucalula, kuThixo nangombono kuThixo. ...
Ulungiselelo kufuneka lwenziwe kuMthendeleko oNgcwele. Iindidi eziNtathu zoMthendeleko.
“Uthando endinalo ngamadoda ngokubanzi, waqhubeka uJ. ukusondela kuyo ngomoya oyingcwele nangenzondelelo. Yintoni enokuthi ilunge ngakumbi, ekugqibeleni, ekubeni uthando lunokuhlawulwa kuphela luthando?
Ngoku, ntombi yam, yazi ukuba ukholo luhlala kuMthendeleko, kuthando kuThixo nakummelwane, ukuthobeka, ubunyulu bentliziyo, kudityaniswe nentlangano enkulu. umnqweno wokumanyana nam ngoMthendeleko oNgcwele, ngawona aphambili kunye nezona zimo ziyimfuneko zokusondela ngokufanelekileyo kwitafile yam engcwele. Isidima sokuthobeka nembubhiso sikhokelela umphefumlo kweli dini lihle lothando nokholo: idini eligqibeleleyo elithi, ngokuzincama, ubani anqule ngomoya nangenyaniso imbubhiso nobukhulu. zonke. Uzuko olubuyela kuThixo luphuma kobu bubi bubuyelana kunye nemiphumo encomekayo ephuma kolu manyano lwentliziyo nothando, yeyona nto iphambili yokumiselwa komthendeleko, kunye nemfezeko efunekayo kunye notshintsho oluncomekayo olusebenzayo. emphefumlweni nasezintliziyweni...”
Bawo, njengoko lo mthendeleko ungcwele usebenza emiphefumlweni nasezintliziyweni kuphela ngokulingana nokuziphatha okungaphezulu okanye okuncinci okuziswa ngumntu kuyo,
Ndabona eNkosini Yethu ukuba iindidi ezintathu zabantu, abasondela kuyo, benza umahluko omkhulu phakathi kwemiphumo eyivelisayo. Wathi kum, “Abanye ngababulali abazenze abahlobo, abeza, ngokungathi baphantsi kwesigqubuthelo sobu buhlobo buhanahanisayo, ukuze bandibulale. Bangabantwana abanganyanisekanga, abathi, njengoYudas, basebenzise ukwanga okungcwele komthendeleko, ukuze bandinikele kwiinkanuko zabo eziphazamisayo, baze ngaloo ndlela benze owona mthetho ucekisekayo kuwo wonke ulwaphulo-mthetho, owona mthetho mkhulu kakhulu owakha wabakho. Waqhubeka, kwezi
imiphefumlo elinge ngohendo, kwaye abaziva ngokwabo ukulwa kunye nohlaselo ezoyikekayo iintshaba zabo, ngaphandle koko ukuba baxhathise, ngentando elungileyo soze bavume izilingo zabo, kwaye akayi kuvuma iminqweno yabo Nditsho ngakumbi: xa , ngo
ilishwa, le miphefumlo ihluphekayo yayiya kuvuma kwaye inikezele ngokufa kolu hlaselo lwangaphakathi, akufuneki ukuba bawele ekudimazekeni okanye ekuphelelweni lithemba, ekubeni ndiya kuba nemfesane ngenxa yobuthathaka babo.
Ke, kude nokucinga ngokurhoxa etafileni yam engcwele, kufuneka, ngokuchaseneyo, bacinge ngokusondela kunyango abaludinga ngaphezu koku.
Ungaze. Ngoko ke mabeze ngokukhawuleza kwinkundla yezoguquko, benentlungu yokwenene ngenxa yokuba bandikhubekisile: le bhafu ingcwele iya kuwahlamba amabala abo, ndiya kubaxolela yonke into, naziphi na iziphoso zabo okanye ubukhulu, kwaye ngesakramente yam yothando ndiya kubakhulula. kwi umsebenzi wabo; ndiya kubaxhasa ekulweni kwabo, ndiya kubathuthuzela embandezelweni yabo. Ndiya kubanika ubabalo olutsha, amandla amatsha ngokuchasene nezilingo; kodwa olu lubabalo nobabalo kuphela lwentliziyo eguqukileyo neguqukayo; ngenxa yokuba aba boni baqaqadekiswa ngumkhwa wobugwenxa abangabafuniyo ukubushiya, baze bahlale phantsi etafileni yam bengenantlungu nanjongo intle, nangokuthanda ukuqhubeka nobomi babo obubi; Aba behlabathi kuthengiswe kubo emgodleni, baginya ubugwenxa njengamanzi, benza umthendeleko wabo wezono ezingcwele, ukuba mkhulu kwezono zabo, nokugwetywa kwabo.
Uhlobo lwesibini lomthendeleko lulolo lwabangafezekanga, ndithetha imiphefumlo ethembekileyo nezinikeleyo, kodwa abangenayo inkathalo kunye nokuphaphela ukuba bajonge ngokugqibeleleyo ngokwabo, kwaye ngaloo ndlela banqande imikhwa ethile yezono ze-venial, ezingabachaphazeliyo. abangenzi mgudu wokutshintsha kuzo . Umthendeleko onjalo
abafanelekanga okanye abangcwele, kodwa badikidiki kwaye abafezekanga njengabo bazenzayo; babeka umqobo kubabalo lwe-JC kwaye ngokuyininzi bayeke ukuthululwa kwayo, ekubeni, njengoko sitshilo, i-sakramente isebenza kuphela ngokulinganayo kwi-dispositions ukuba umntu uzisa kuyo. Le miphefumlo edikidiki nengafezekanga eyandimkela ngolo hlobo, uJC undixelela ukuba, ngokubhekisele kum, njengabantwana abathi, endaweni yokuphendula i-caress kunye nokwambulwa othambileyo kayise obathandayo, baya kuzixhobisa kuye kwaye baya kubetha. ngokwamandla abo. Lo bawo wayeya kubohlwaya ngokurhoxa kubo; kum, wongezelela u-JC, oyena ubalaseleyo koobawo, andirhoxi ngenxa yoko, ngakumbi kuba ukuthanda kwabo akubi kakhulu kwaye
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ukuze izithonga zazo zingabulali; Uthando lwam apho luphakame ngaphezu kokungabi nambulelo kwabo. Ndiye ndivale amehlo am, ngokungathi kunjalo, kwiintsilelo neentsilelo zabo, ukuze ndicingele iimfuno zabo kuphela. Ndim bona
ndamkele ezingalweni zam ukwanga woxolo lomthendeleko wam: Ndibandezeleka kukungabi nambulelo kwabo ngaphandle kokukhalaza, okanye ndikhalaza ngako kuphela ngobumnandi nothando. Ngaba olu phawu lothando lwentliziyo yam yobuThixo akufanelanga ukuba kubo lube yintshukumisa entsha yokundikhonza ngokunyaniseka ngakumbi nokundithanda ngenzondelelo engakumbi?...
Umthendeleko ovuthayo ngulo kwenzeka kuthando lukaThixo nommelwane, olucingela zonke ezinye izimo. Kukudityaniswa kwabagqibeleleyo kunye nabantwana abathandekayo abajongwa nguJC ngeliso lokuthozama kunye nothando, abonwabileyo ukuhlala nabo kakhulu, kuba banikele yonke into kuye enokubeka umqobo kwiintando zakhe .
intabalala yobabalo abagcinele bona !. Ugalela phezu kwabo umbethe wezulu kwaye
zonke iintsikelelo zikaYakobi; ngoxa umvuzo osulungekileyo wasemhlabeni nowexeshana uya kuba sisabelo sabo bathi, njengoEsawu, babambelele emhlabeni baze balandele iziyolo zeengqondo kuphela”
Ngaloo ndlela, uBawo, aboni, abangafezekanga, nabangcwele, bayadlelana, elowo wenza umthendeleko ngokufana naye. Ewe, ngaphandle kokuguqula ubume bawo, uMthendeleko oNgcwele uba sisono kumoni, ongafezekanga ongafezekanga, kwaye ube ngcwele kwingcwele. Asikuko ukuba lowo uzinikelayo kuwo unokuzuza kuthi nakuphi na ukudyobheka okanye nawuphi na umlinganiselo wobungcwele; kodwa kukuba isenzo salowo unxibelelana naye siba sihle okanye sibi, ngokwesimo esingakumbi okanye esingaphantsi esilungileyo okanye esibi asizisa kuso....
“Ngoko ke, siphephe isono, ntombi yam, nazo zonke iintlobo zesono esizithethileyo kum ngale nto
I-JC (kwaye ngumphumo osebenzayo omele siwutsale kwimiyalelo yayo engcwele), gwema, ubalekele isono esingathandekiyo kum kwaye undikhubekise, njengoko uya kuphepha ukubona inyoka kunye neyona ntlekele enkulu; musani ukwenza nantoni na ngokuqhutywa yintliziyo, nokuba kusenokubonakala kulula kangakanani na kuni; Susa ubushushu, ubugwala, ukungakhathali enkonzweni yam, kwaye kangangoko unako zonke iintlobo zokungafezeki. Kunokuba ibe luphawu lwesazela esiphosakeleyo okanye esingqongqo, njengoko ubani ecinga ngobuxoki, olu simo sengqondo sonwabileyo, kunoko, bubungqina bomphefumlo othe tye nowokomoya, owoyika nomthandayo uYehova uThixo wawo, onengcamango esesikweni. wamalungelo akhe, nemithetho yakhe, yobukhulu bakhe ethukwa.
Hlala uhamba ebusweni bam obungcwele ngomoya wokholo nothando, kodwa ngothando lwe-filial kunye nentlonipho. Ziqhelanise nokubona uThixo kwizidalwa, nakwizidalwa ezikuThixo; Njengoko benditshilo kuni ngaphambili, khangelani kuphela isandla solungiselelo lwakhe kuzo zonke iziganeko zobomi....
Ngale ndlela uya kufeza, ngaphandle kweendleko kuwe, umthetho obaluleke kakhulu
ekuyaleza ukuba umthande uThixo ngaphezu kweento zonke, ngenxa yokuzithanda kwakhe, nommelwane wakho njengoko uzithanda ngako, ngokuthanda uThixo.
“Zama ukwenza zonke izenzo zakho, kwanezona zingakhathaliyo, ngomoya walo mthetho mkhulu, oquka zonke ezinye, kwaye uqulethwe kuyo nganye yazo, ngokwenza njalo ngokuqhubekayo ngomgaqo wolu thando lukhulu, oluthi ngengalo enye. sangana uThixo, kunye nomnye ummelwane, ngaloo ndlela idibanisa izulu nomhlaba. Bubuphi ubuncwane, iimfanelo kunye nokwaneliseka oya kukufumana ngalo lonke ixesha, ngaphandle kokukubiza ngaphezulu!...
Thandaza ke ntombi yam, wenze kwaye ubandezeleke kangangoko unako, ngomgaqo wothando olusulungekileyo olwandenza ndathandaza, ndenza kwaye ndibandezeleka ngoku ndisemhlabeni. Uzuko lukaThixo nosindiso lwabantu yayiyeyona njongo iphambili yako konke ukuziphatha kwam. Kwakuye apho zonke iingcamango zam nawo onke amanyathelo am aye alathiswa ... Manyanise kwakhona ngenjongo kunye noMama osikelelekileyo kunye nayo yonke imiphefumlo engcwele eyenza iBandla lam ezulwini nasemhlabeni. Iimfanelo zabo ezidityaniswe nokwam zenza ubutyebi obungenasiphelo obunokuzuza bonke abantu, ngokweemfuno kunye nezibonelelo zomnye wabo baya kuzama ukufaneleka ukusetyenziswa kuko. Joyina oku gcina yonke into onokuyenza kwicala lakho, ulandela umzekelo wemiphefumlo emininzi elungileyo ehambe phambi kwakho. Ukuba unokuncinci, nqwenela okuninzi, kwaye uqiniseke ukuba wenze okuninzi. Umnqweno uphambi kwam; kwaye ukuba injongo yakho inyulu kwaye njengoko ndikucelayo, zonke izenzo zakho ziya kuba njengethontsi lamanzi eliya kuthi, liwele elwandle, libe lulwandle ngokwalo; kwaye kungolu manyano kuphela olubhekiselele kwigazi lam elichithekileyo, apho ukufaneleka kwabaNgcwele bam kwenze ubutyebi obuxabiseke ngokwenene, kuba bunokuxatyiswa kuphela kweli gazi elidityaniswe kulo kwaye elinxibelelana nalo ngokungenasiphelo kwexabiso lalo. . »
Ngala mazwi, uJC ephosa amehlo akhe kwiCawe yakhe ebekwe ngasekunene kwakhe, wolula isandla sakhe ngokungathi uyayisikelela, okanye
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uphawu olukhuselayo. Wathi kum, Nanku apha, umfazi wam oyintanda, endibamkelayo abantwana bakhe, bemanyene elukholweni lunye, nangothando lunye, kubunye
undoqo wobuthixo... » Emva koko, ndabona kule ndibano yonwabileyo isangqa esihle esakhiwe ngedangatye elithambileyo nelipholileyo. “Uyabona, iNkosi yethu yathi kum kwakhona, ukuba bonke aba bantwana bathandeka bavaleleke kwindawo enye kwaye badityaniswa ngamatyathanga afanayo okholo, ithemba kunye nothando... Lumthendeleko wabaNgcwele abenza iBandla lam . ukuba i
kungavela uqhekeko, kwanga iiyantlukwano ziseka amahlelo zize zixhokonxe iintshutshiso, ngamana oozwilakhe bangalola amakrele abo baze bamise izikafula, abayi kutshabalalisa. Ayinakuze ihlupheke kukwahlukana, kuba iyinto enye kwaye ayinakwahlulwa; olu manyano lonqulo nenkolelo, lo mthendeleko wabaNgcwele oqala ngexesha, kufuneka unyamezele kuwo onke amaphakade.
UThixo undenza ndibone ukuba abanelishwa abathi, ngokuwexuka, bashiye esi sangqa esihle seCawa kunye nomthendeleko wabaNgcwele, baya kuhlukaniswa nabathembekileyo; kodwa akayi kuphula ibhondi ebadibanisayo, kuba uthando lwe-JC lumenza angenakunqotshwa kwaye asisigxina njengoJC ngokwakhe.
Ke ngoko, uBawo, ekude nokwahlula iBandla okanye ukulonakalisa, abawexuki bayalihlambulula kuphela kwaye balenze liqaqambe ngokuzahlula kulo; bayayihlangula kwiintshaba ezifihlakeleyo ezazibambelele kuyo kuphela ngamaqhina angaphandle ngokusulungekileyo, ezaziphila phakathi kwethu ngaphandle kokuba ngomnye wethu; bunjengothuli okanye ukhozo lwasemzini oluphuma kwiinkozo ezilungileyo.
Kodwa, Bawo wam, olunjani ulonwabo kuthi ukuba sibandakanywe kwesi sangqa esihle somthendeleko wabaNgcwele! Ngaba sakha sayixabisa!...
Olunjani lona uvuyo, olunjani lona umtsalane, olunjani ulonwabo, into ethutha kubantwana bokwenene balo mama ulungileyo nothambileyo, ukuba bazibone bemanyene esibelekweni sakhe, ngamatyathanga alolu thando lunobubele nobulali olwenza ukuba basikelelwe ! ye
thandanani kuThixo nakuThixo !. ukuba zivalelwe zonke entliziyweni
engcwele kaJC, ekunye nonina osikelelekileyo kunye nabo bonke abanyuliweyo
!. , Owu sithandwa! Owu uthando! Owu mzi ungcwele! Owu iparadesi yokwenene! waziwa nje
kwabo bahlala kuwe; uzisa ulonwabo ezulwini nasemhlabeni, kwaye uya kuzisa ilishwa lanaphakade kubo bonke abo bebengaboni ngokwaneleyo ukuba bavume ukuzikhupha kwindawo ebiyelweyo nakwizinto zakho...
Xa ndathi, Bawo, isixeko esingcwele sokwenyaniso, iBandla lokwenyaniso lika-J. enamathele kuye ngentliziyo nangomsa, ngakumbi nangaphezulu kunemixokelelwane yangaphandle yokuthobela imithetho yakhe. Aba ngabo bamthanda ngokwenene, kwaye bafumana esifubeni sakhe zombini umtsalane kunye nolonwabo lobomi babo; ngenxa yokuba kwabehlabathi, abaziyo ngeVangeli kuphela incasa kunye nemigaqo a
ihlabathi eligwetywa yiVangeli, kwaye nangona kunjalo bahambelana nalo lonke icebo lokuziphatha kwabo; abathe babeka iintliziyo zabo, uthando lwabo nolonwabo lwabo kwizidalwa abangabanquli-zithixo bazo, luluphi ulonwabo oluqinileyo abanokulufumana apho? Abangakholwayo ngaphakathi kwenkolo ngokwayo, abananto yobuKristu ngaphandle kwesigqubuthelo, ndithetha umlingiswa kunye ne-phantom; abazange babe neempawu zayo ezintle: kuphela ukubambelela eBandleni ngamaqhina angaphandle a ukholo oluyinyumba, banokuyazi kuphela ngaphandle, ukuba ndingavunyelwa ukuba ndithethe ngolu hlobo, kwaye ndingenayo ingcamango yokwaneliseka kwangaphakathi ukuba i-JC yenza intliziyo yonke incasa yakhe, kwaye ngokubanzi kubo bonke abantwana bokwenyani beBandla lakhe. Aba baphambukeli behlabathi abaziimfama badla ngokuyibona impazamo yabo kuphela xa ukufa kufika ukuze babakhohlise, ngokubeka phambi kwamehlo abo ukungabi nanto kwesidalwa nokungabi nanto okoyikekayo kweechimera eziye zahlekisa ebudeni bobomi babo. Okunjani kona ukozela okuyingozi! Kodwa okunjani ukuvuka okubi!...
U-JC wazisa kuDade ukuba kufuneka athathe inxaxheba njani kwintlungu enzulu yeCawa yakhe, kunye nezikhalazo zakhe zobubele malunga nokungabi nombulelo kwabantwana bakhe.
Bawo, emva kokuba ndinichazele ngemibono emibini yoNyuko, mandinixelele ngoku okwenzeka kum ngomhla wePentekoste; kuba iNkosi elungileyo ayiphezi ukundisukela, kwaye ndingayithetha, ngeenceba ezingaqhelekanga kunye notyelelo ethanda ukuba ndibelane nani; kwaye kuko konke oku, Bawo, ungathandabuzi ukuba unemibono yakhe yenceba kum, njengakwabanye abaninzi.
Kwakamsinyane emva koMthendeleko wam ngomhla wePentekoste, ndazifumana ndibanjwe bubuthathaka obabubonakala bumiselwe ukubhangisa onke amandla omphefumlo wam; Ndaziva kwangaxeshanye imvakalelo ethile yobungcwele eyandicenga ukuba oku kusilela kwakungeyondalo; Andizange ndikwazi ukumelana nale ngcamango yamandla kaThixo, nto leyo eyaphantse yandenza ndoyike ukuphinda ndibuyele kwinto engento. Ewe, ngewuthe inkumbulo yam, nokuqonda kwam, nentando yam, amandla am omzimba wam, ukuba yonke into engam iya kubhangiswa; Ndeva uhlobo oluthile lwentlungu, apho ndabona kuphela ubumnyama namathunzi okufa.
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Ndiziva ke ngoko ukuba indalo sele iza kunyibilika kwaye inikezele, ndenza umzamo wokukhumbuza intliziyo yam kuThixo, ukuze ndingcwalise kuye incwina yam yokugqibela kunye nenkumbulo yokugqibela yomphefumlo wam nokuqonda kwam. Ungayikholelwa, Bawo? lo mzamo, owawusithi ngokwendalo ugqibezele ubuthathaka bendalo, wawubuyisela amandla awo, ngokundibizela kwakhona kum...
Ubuthathaka bubhanga, ubukho bukaThixo bakhanyisela ingaphakathi lam, kwaye le nto ilizwi lakhe layivayo ingqondo yam: "Ndikuvezile ubuthathaka, obunento yokwenza nentlungu yam kumyezo weMinquma, ngenxa yakho. yenze kuqondwe ngcono ukuba kufuneka ungayeki ukusilela kwiimvakalelo zendalo eyonakeleyo, kwaye ufe kuwe, ngokulahlwa ngokupheleleyo kunye nokulahlwa ngokupheleleyo ekuziphatheni kwentando yam engcwele. Ke ngoko kufuneka urhoxe kuyo yonke into, kwaye wamkele ngentliziyo entle, ngenxa yam, yonke iminqamlezo kunye nokubandezeleka endikuthandayo ukuba ndikuthumele. Lo umnqamlezo endawubeka esandleni sakho kuMthendeleko wakho wokugqibela wawuphawulwe nawe.
Ewe, ntombi yam, kwaye ungathandabuzi okomzuzwana, yintando yam ukuba ubethelelwe kunye nam ukuhlonipha iimbandezelo zam nomnqamlezo wam. Ndifuna udityaniswe ngezikhonkwane ezintathu kulo mnqamlezo apho ndafela khona uthando lwakho. Eyokuqala kwezi zikhonkwane zintathu yintlungu omawuyive ngenxa yesono sikaThixo, imbuyekezo eyafuna ukufa kwam; okwesibini yintlungu endiyivayo iBandla lam ngenxa yengqumbo endiyenzelwa mna ngeSikelelelo seMithetho yezibingelelo zam; Okokugqibela, eyesithathu kukufa okungunaphakade kwemiphefumlo esoloko igxalathelana ukuya esihogweni ngokungahloneli Thixo, ukuhlambalaza, ulwaphulo-mthetho olukhulu olwenziwa yonke imihla esifubeni seBandla lam . Oku, ntombam, yiloo nto, kude kube sekufeni, kufuneka kukukrazule
ngentuthumbo enzulu, ukuze amlungisele imbeko uThixo, ngenxa yezidubedube ezininzi, ngombingelelo wamaxesha onke wentliziyo etyumkileyo, nethobekileyo. »
Ah! Bawo, hayi indlela ekububulungisa ngayo ukushiya intliziyo kabani ibe lusizi, ingqondo kabani ithotywe, nomzimba kabani kwisohlwayo esiqatha, ukuthintela okanye ukulungisa, ukuba kunokwenzeka, iintlekele ezimanyumnyezi ngolo hlobo! Kuba, ngaphandle kokuthetha ngesikhubekiso sikaThixo kunye nokulahlekelwa kwemiphefumlo, ezona bubi zimbini zikhulu, abangenako ukuziva ukubandezeleka okufayo, bebona amahlazo, iintsizi, iintshutshiso iBandla eliNgcwele elinyamezelayo; izincwino nezikhalazo zalo mama uthambileyo ngenxa yokungabi nambulelo nenkohlakalo yabantwana bakhe, abathi, njengamarhamba amaninzi, ngokungenabuntu bakrazule intliziyo nezibilini, ngezithuko nangengqumbo.
benza ubugwenxa babo, nokukreqa kwabo, nokuwexuka kwabo, nokuhlambela kwabo iNKOkeli yakhe yobuthixo! Bawo, wanga lo mama uthambileyo abuve ubunzima obuvayo phakathi kwabantwana bakhe abathandekayo, aba bantwana bathembekileyo, abathi ngenxa yabo
ukuncamathela kunye nokungaguquguquki kwabo, zama ukumbuyekeza kwaye umthuthuzele, ngokuthomalalisa ubukrakra bentlungu yakhe!...
Wabathwala esifubeni sakhe, wabathandela; Wabondla ngobisi lwemfundiso yakhe enyulu; ubathanda kwangolo hlobo alithanda ngalo iqabane lakhe lobuthixo; kananjalo liwubeka entliziyweni udaba lwabo, ekubeni liqhelekile kubo, lingena kuzo zonke izilangazelelo zabo, ezikwafanayo. Ngoko ke, gwebani, yintoni eyoyisa intliziyo yakhe, yaye njani ukuba angabi naluvelwano kuko?
Indlela yokungabi novelwano kwimeko yakhe ebuhlungu? Ah! ngokungathandabuzekiyo, yena
wayeya kuthabatha iinyembezi zegazi, kunye nazo zonke izimbonono zikaYeremiya, ukuze alile aze ancwine kangangoko umbandela onjalo wawufuna .
ndivume, ngakumbi ukusukela oko uThixo wandenza ndaziva ndiziva ndidakumbile kangaka kunye nosizi olunzulu lweBandla lakhe elingcwele, andikhange ndibenawo nomzuzu omnye wentuthuzelo yokwenyani andinakucinga ngayo enye into,
intlungu idlula yonke into enokuthiwayo, kwaye ndingatsho noYesu Kristu ukuba umphefumlo wam ulusizi ukusa ekufeni.
ICANDELO IV.
Kwi-Octave yoMthendeleko osikelelekileyo.
§. I.
Umsindo owenziwe kuJC kwisakramente yothando lwakhe ngeli xesha le-octave engcwele.
Ukuthunyelwa kwesibini kukaDade woZalo.
Bawo, ndisazifumana ndibophelelekile ukuba ndikubhale ngesihlandlo se-Octave du Très-Saint-Sacrement, apho kukholekileyo u-JC ukundinika imiyalelo emitsha ethe gqolo eneenkcukacha ezithe chatha koko sele sikuthethile nge-Ekaristi. Ngokuzidlulisela kuwe, mna
usaza kwenza kuphela imiyalelo yalowo ungumbhali wale mifanekiso mitsha. Nantsi into eyenzekayo:
Ngomhla wokuqala we-Octave, saba nenkcazo yeSikelelo esiSikelelekileyo kwiMisa, intsikelelo emva koko, emva koko sabavala abaSikelelekileyo.
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I-Wafer kunye neLanga kwiTabernakele eNgcwele. Ndaziva ndiqaqanjelwa kakhulu, ndada ndakhalazela uJ. C. Owu Thixo wam! Ndathi kuye, kukho
Ke ngoko kuya kuba seCaweni kuphela naphambi kweentshaba zakho apho uya kufumana ukunqulwa ngalo lonke ixesha le -octave!. Awuyi kuba
ke ngoko ithwalwa ngokundilisekileyo kuphela ngabalungiseleli abathi iBandla lakho libacekisile kwaye lingabafuni, kwaye bazinike igunya elingabafuniyo. abalungiseleli abangenelelayo, okanye abangathembekanga, abanesabelo sabo kuphela
amandla ezixhobo endaweni yomthetho; abathi, ngokuchasene nomoya weeCanons eziNgcwele, basebenzise ubundlobongela kwaye basebenzise ingalo yehlabathi ukunyanzela imiqobo yengcwele yakho, kwaye bahlasele, njengamasela, iimpahla kunye namalungelo abalungiseleli bakho abasemthethweni; abalahlekisayo izizwe, bazikreqise!...
Kanti ke, Owu Thixo ongcwele ! Baphethe iitempile zakho kwaye
umzimba wakho wobuThixo !. Ubandezeleka ukuba aba balungiseleli abafanelekanga kwaye
ihlazo, ukuba aba bawexuki banelishwa bakuchukumise ngezandla zabo ezihlambelayo, ukuba bakuthwale ngokundilisekileyo njengendebe yoloyiso lwabo, kwaye ngokungathi ulwamkele iqela labo ! umzimba kaThixo
Yesu, nizinikele ezandleni zikabani na ? Kodwa, kuba unjalo
naphi na, nokuba ungandivumela ndibekho na, entliziyweni nasengqondweni, eminqubeni yabo, ukuba ndilungise kuwe, ndilandele wena wedwa khona, ndifike khona, ngokokuqubuda kwam kuThixo wam, ufumane intsikelelo yakho khona?
Nantsi ke, uBawo, ingcebiso eyandinikwa nguJC kuyo yonke le nto: "Hlala, ntombi yam, apho ukhoyo, kwaye ungahambi, nangomoya, ukujoyina aba bafundisi bobuxoki, okanye kumkhosi ongendawo olandela kwaye uyabakhuthaza; ungayi kwimingcelele yabo okanye umboniso wabo ngentliziyo yakho, kuya kuba, ngandlela ithile, ukunxibelelana nabo; simanyane ngakumbi ngexesha le-Octave neBandla lam lezulu nomhlaba ukwenza izilungiso kum, nokulungisa uzuko lwam oludelekileyo kunye nayo yonke ingqumbo eyenziwa kukulunga kwam ngaba balungiseleli bangafanelekanga nabangafanelekanga.
abaqalisi abalishiyileyo iBandla lam, nabathi, ngokubonana nalo, banobuganga bokuphakamisa isibingelelo ngokuchasene nesibingelelo ukuhenda abalula kwaye bathathe abantwana babo ngoqhekeko oloyikekayo noluhlazo olubenza ukuba babandakanyeke kwimvukelo yabo.
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“Owu! ilishwa ! baya kuphendula kum ngenxa yabandwebileyo
!.... Lifikile ixesha lokuba bohlwaye . Hlalani ke ngoko phambi kwam, nangaphandle;
phuma endaweni yakho ndibuze nantoni na oyifunayo; nangona umthendeleko wam wobungcwele ungatyhilekanga emehlweni akho, andisayi kuphinda ndimamele imithandazo yakho, andisayi kukukhathalela, noluntu lwakho kunye nalo lonke iBandla lam, endizimisele ukulithululela kuye ezona ntsikelelo zininzi kule ngcwele ingcwele. ixesha.
Iingenelo ezinkulu zomoya ezifunyanwa yimiphefumlo ethembekileyo kwintshutshiso eyavuswa ngokuchasene neBandla.
“Elo qabane lingcwele alizange lithandeke ngakumbi kum kunaxa libandezeleka ngenxa yothando lwam, kwaye abalungiseleli bam bokwenene abazange bandizukise kangako ukususela oko ndababona bengababhaduli, ababhaduli, betshutshiswa kwaye bevalelwe ngenxa yam nangenxa yam. Ewe, isimo sabo sengqondo sokungcungcuthekiswa, ukuvalelwa entolongweni okanye ukuthinjwa, ukubethwa, ukuthuthunjiswa okanye ukufa, kunokuba bangcatshe umsebenzi wabo nokholo lwabo, kuyandikholisa ngokungenasiphelo; ifaneleke kakhulu ukundenza ndilibale iimpazamo apho ngamnye kubo ebenokuba netyala . "
Nam, Bawo, ndimele ndikuxelele ngalo mbandela ukuba, kule mihla idlulileyo, uThixo endikhumbuze kubudlelane ngezisongelo ezinxamnye nobukumkani baseFransi, wongezelela wathi: “Kodwa eli lixesha elilungileyo kwabo bathe tye. kugqibelele ukugqibelela, nakuboni abaninzi abaya kuguquka. Uya kubabuyisela kubo intaphane yonqulo abayilibeleyo imithetho yabo, nabefundisi abathi, ngenxa yokuphulukana nobungcwele belizwe labo, bazivumele ukuba bonakalise ubunewunewu nokuthanda ihlabathi . inani lamaKristu awayengekho
ngaphezu kwegama, kwaye abazange babe nabuganga bakulibiza. Abaninzi, kuyinyani, baya kuqina ngakumbi phantsi kweemvubu eziza kubabetha kwaye sele beziva; kodwa kwakhona abaninzi baya kuvula amehlo abo kwaye bathathe isigqibo sokuphepha nangakumbi, ngobomi obungcwele nobulawulwayo, kunye neziqhamo ezifanelekileyo zezohlwayo eziphilileyo abaya kuthi ekugqibeleni bayive imfuneko...
Ndibuyela kwintetho yokuqala kaJC
Wahlabela mgama wathi: “Ngoko ke, ntombi yam, le meko yayilixesha elibi kwiCawa yaseFransi; akazange abe nozuko olungako okanye oloyiso. AbaNgcwele bam ezulwini bayoyisa ngothando nangozuko; kodwa abo basemhlabeni baye boyisa ngovavanyo apho ubani abeka khona
uthando nokuthembeka kwabo elukholweni. Le yeyabo iminyaka yosindiso nobabalo, neentsikelelo eziyintabalala ngaphezu kwezo zoxolelo endizinikwe ngumfundisi wam wokuqala... kude kube ngoko, ukuba umoni ochithe ubomi bakhe bonke esiphithiphithi, wachukunyiswa yinguquko, abuyele kuye. ngesihlandlo sale ntshutshiso yomsindo; evuselela ukholo lwakhe oluphantse lwacima, usecaleni kwam nesisa sam
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abalweli; Ukuba uthe wasondeza kum umbingelelo womphefumlo wakhe, nesibingelelo segazi lakhe, ngenxa yento ebambene ngayo, nokucanyagushelwa kobugwenxa bakhe, ndizifungile mna, ukuba ayisayi kubalelwa kuye. Uya kwenza igazi lakhe libe yindawo yokuhlambela, ubhaptizo lwesibini apho baya kuhlanjwa kwaye bacinywe ngokupheleleyo malunga ne-culp kunye nentlungu ... "
Ngoku, Bawo, kuya kuba yintoni na ukufelwa ukholo egameni likaThixo ngenxa yalo moni ngokukodwa, sinokuthi ngomlinganiselo wokuba intshutshiso ebandezelekileyo ngendlela efanayo iya kuba yeyonke iBandla ngokubanzi, elifana nesazela somntu. lo moni uya kuhlanjululwa njengegolide eziko. Yiyo ke, Bawo, oko ndikubonayo kuThixo, endixelela ukuba, kungakhathaliseki ukuswela kwabaninzi, ukuba nje banomnqweno olungileyo, akayi kuyeka ukubabonisa inceba ngenceba. ngemisebenzi emihle; ngenxa yokuba iBandla lingumzimba omalungu lawo, edityaniswe lolona thando lusondeleyo, anelungelo ngokulinganayo lokuzuza izinto zomoya omnye komnye. Oku kubizwa ngokuba nguMthendeleko wabaNgcwele, ngayo yonke into eqhelekileyo kubo kolu didi. Kungenxa yolu manyano okanye uluntu lwezinto zokomoya ukuba i-JC, ngokuhambelana nenqweno yeCawa yakhe, ithatha inamandla kakhulu ekuncedeni ababuthathaka, ilandela imithetho yobulungisa bakhe kunye nemigaqo yothando lwakhe ...
Nangona inkohlakalo yesihogo iya kwenza amaproselithe kunye namahlakani esiphoso, ayinakuze yenze nantoni na ngaphandle kokuhlukana neCawa abo babengayifanelanga ... Abantwana bakhe bokwenene baya kuhlala benamathele kuye; kwaye oku kucalulwa kwabakhohlakeleyo, oku kwahlulwa kubantwana bentshabalalo, kude nokutshabalalisa iBandla, akusayi kwenza nantoni na ngaphandle kokuyihlambulula kwaye iqaqambe ngakumbi . ukushiywa kwe
abawexuki, ngandlel’ ithile inokuzuza kuphela. Ke ngoko banokuthabatha icala labo ngokukhululekileyo, ekubeni benyelisa kuphela ngamazwi abo angendawo, kwaye balihlazisa ngenkululeko yabo kunye nokuziphatha kwabo okulihlazo....
“Ewe, ewe, watsho uJC, ndiya kulutsala uzuko lwam kwalapha kanye kule ntlango. IBandla lam, limbalwa ngenkangeleko, liya kufumana ukubengezela okutsha. Iya kuba nyulu ngakumbi, ibengezele ngakumbi, njengokutya okuziinkozo apho umoya wahlule iindiza nothuli.
Okanye, ukuba uyathanda, iBandla lam lingumthi owomeleza ngakumbi uqhwithela, ulenza libe neengcambu ezinzulu, lingaze libangele kwanto ngaphandle kweziqhamo ezonakeleyo nezonakeleyo .
ukuba bekuya kuba mbalwa ngembonakalo ; kuba, ngenxa yokubeka endaweni yobabalo lwam, olwenziwa ngokubanzi nje kancinci, ukusuka ebukumkanini ukuya ebukumkanini, ukusuka ngokukodwa ukuya kwesinye, umntu unokuthi isibane sokholo. ebhadula kwaye ehamba ngokulandelelana ukuya kukhanyisa iintlanga ezahlukeneyo. Inkolo yam isengumlambo omkhulu othi, uqengqeleka amaza awo ukutyhubela iinkulungwane, uzuze kwelinye ilizwe ngaphezu kokulahlekelwa kwelinye. Ngoko ke, nokuba ubani afuna ukuva oko, unokuphumelela kuphela ngenani njengakwinzondelelo ngolu tshintshiselwano; kwaye akukho nto iya kulahleka ngaphandle kwamaKristu angakholwayo, aya kuba yimfama ngokwaneleyo kwaye amagwala ngokwaneleyo ukuba ayilahle.
I-Passion ye-JC ihlaziywa kwiinkqubo zabangeneleli kunye ne-sacrileges.
Kodwa, ukuqhubeka ndikufundisa, wongezelela i-JC, masibuyele, ntombi yam, kwi-octave ye-Sakramente eSikelelekileyo yezibingelelo zam; nto leyo ekhoyo udliwano-ndlebe lwethu Kuya kwenziwa ngexesha le octave ezininzi sacrileges kunye
amahlazo amaninzi kumntu wam; kwaye ndiya kukwenza, ntombi yam, ithemba lentlungu endiyifumana kuyo. Ndiya kukumangalela ngentlungu endikuyo, ukuze uthandazele la mahlwempu azizidenge, kwaye uzame ukubabuyisela ngezilumkiso zakho Zonke izithuko,
iingcikivo nezikhweleti zomphefumlo wam ziya kuhlaziyeka kum, ngendlela ethe chapha kwentliziyo yam. Khumbulani ukuba ndiqhutywa ngumoya wam, ndihambela ezitratweni zaseYerusalem, ndivela enkundleni ngenkundla, ndiphelekwa yintlekisa nezithuko, ndada ndesa eKalvari, apho ndabethelelwa khona emnqamlezweni.
Kuseza kusenzeka loo nto ke emigudwini yabaphangi namahlakani abo, abandithwala bandisuse kwizitrato ngezitrato, kodwa bavuye ngenxa yobugwenxa babo. Nganye yogcino lwabo iya kuba njengenkundla yamatyala
enkundleni, apho, njengamajoni, baya kundiqhwaba, besenza ngathi bayandithanda. Ndiya kutyakatywa ndize ndithweswe isithsaba sameva amasimi abo aya kuba
bekutheni kum ezi zikhalo zazifuna ukuba ndibulawe. Amadini abo aya kuba ziikhalvari ezininzi apho ndiya kuncamathela emnqamlezweni; Ekugqibeleni, amabele abo olwaphulo-mthetho, amangcwaba amaninzi awoyikekayo apho bamelwe kukundingcwaba khona....
Akunjalo, nangona kunjalo, i-JC eqhubekayo, ukuba ndivezwe ekufumaneni nasekubandezelekeni kumzimba wam ongcwele iimbonakaliso zegazi zomsindo wabo; hayi, andisasokoli enyameni yam, ubuntu bam obungcwele buye bangenamdla, njengobuThixo bam. Ukusuka
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uvuko lwam, andifikeleleki ngokupheleleyo kwimigodi yeentlungu kunye nobushushu beentshaba zam; kodwa ngaphakathi kwam ndifumana kwaloo ngqumbo, ekubeni inye into abaya bangamatshijolo. Bona, ekuzimiseni ngokwesiqhelo kwentando yabo, banetyala le-deicide efanayo, abathi mhlawumbi baphindaphinda izigidi zamaxesha: ingaba intliziyo yam ayinaluvelwano kuyo?... Ngaba ayinakukhathazwa kuko? bayayicekisa intando echasene neyam njengoko injalo kwizilangazelelo zabo zokwenyani?...
Ndiyakuva ntombi yam, undibuza ukuba ndikwimeko efanayo na yobubele emadodeni, ezandleni zabangeneleli, ngokungathi ndiphakathi kwabalungiseleli bam bokwenene nabathembekileyo. Kuloo nto ke ndiyaniphendula ukuba ndisoloko ndinjalo ngokunxulumene nam; kwaye malunga nokwahlukana kwezi meko zimbini xa kuthelekiswa namadoda ngokubanzi, yinto efanayo, ngaphandle kokuba esandleni sabangeneleli ndizifumana ndikwimo yobundlobongela kunye nokunyanzeliswa okungandivumeli ukuba 'ndithobele uthando lwam. ngokuthandabuza kuphela. Andisenguyise phakathi kwabantwana bakhe, ovuyela ukufumana iimpawu zothando lwabo; Gweba imeko yam. Ulindele ukuba ndonwabele njani, kwaye ndikwazi ukusikelela,
Ububele be-JC buhlala busebenza, nangona ukungabi nambulelo kwabangcolisi.
“Awu! kholwani kum, kwimisitho yabo yesibingelelo kuphela umntu omele ukusikelelwa, kwaye nganye yeentsikelelo zakhe isebenza kuphela ukumenza abe netyala ngakumbi, kwanabo bonke abo bazimanya neenjongo zakhe kunye nolwaphulo-mthetho lwakhe. Abathembekileyo bam abanakuchasa kakhulu kuyo; mabakhumbule ukuba kungenxa yoko kukhwankqiswa noku kukwahlukaniswa kuko konke okuziintloni, esithi ndifuna ukukhonzwa, ndizukiswe ngabo; nokuba bangazivumeli ukuba bakhwankqiswe, besenzela ukuphepha ihlazo okanye ukubuyisela ukundihlonela kwabo. Baxelele ukuba ndiyakuthiya ukuhlonela uThixo, yaye ukuziphatha kwabo kuya kuba bubugwala bolwaphulo-mthetho, olona henyuzo luphawulekayo nelona liyingozi kum, njengehlazo lokwenene kwintsapho yakowethu .
Intoni ! Msindisi ongcwele, ndathi kuye ndisentlungwini, ingenzeka na into yokuba wena, othanda kangaka ukusasaza iinceba zakho, awunikeli namnye ngezi zihlandlo zothando lwakho? Akunakwenzeka na ukuba ebandleni laboni ningasikeleli mntu, zize iintsikelelo zenu zibe sisiqalekiso kubo bonke? "Uyaphazama, ntombi yam, undiphendule kwi-JC, okanye kunoko, thatha ingcamango engaphezulu yale nto, kwaye uya kubona ukuba ukulunga kwam akunakuze kwenzeke, okanye uthando lwam olungenamsebenzi kuboni ngokwabo.
Ngokuba, 1 °. Ngaba asikokwenza okuninzi kubo ukuba bamise imiphumo yomsindo wam nje kwaye bangabatyumsi xa zonke izidalwa zicela kum impindezelo, kwaye yonke indalo icela ukuba ndohlwaye ingqumbo yabo! Ndingayenza ngegama elinye; ubulungisa bam bufuna oko; Ubugorha babo bundingcikiva, kodwa intliziyo yam iyabachasa, ububele bayo bundihluthile; Ndisokola yonke into ngaphandle kokuziphindezela. Onjani umzamo wothando lwam!...
» 2°. Ukuba kukho omnye phakathi kwabo, nokuba mnye, othi, echukunyiswe kukuguquka kwesiphoso sakhe, ngokuzithoba acele uxolo lwam, akayi kuhluthwa iziphumo zentsikelelo yam, eya kuba nako ukumthengela ubabalo olunamandla ngakumbi. uguqulo. Kunjalo ke kubo bonke aboni. Kodwa, cinga ukuba akukho namnye oye wachaswa ngolo hlobo, le ntsikelelo yayingayi kuba lilize koko... Yazi ke, ntombi yam, ukuba kwisakramente yam engcwele ndisoloko ndikhatshwa yinkundla yasezulwini, kwaye ngaphezu kwazo zonke iingelosi ezilungileyo zazo zonke. aba bahlambelayo, baqhubeka bequbuda phambi kwam, ukuze bandizukise ngeengqumbo zabo. Aba ngabo iintsikelelo zam ziwela phezu kwabo, njengoko ubona, azinamsebenzi kwaye zingenamsebenzi.
Ngubani na, Bawo, onokuthi, akupeyintelele intshabalalo enzulu, izikhalazo ezikrakra, izililo zeBandla eliNgcwele ngenxa yezinto ezininzi ezigqithileyo ezenziwa ezitempileni zalo, ngabantwana balo, ngokuchasene naye noMlingane wakhe ongcwele?... Wathi kum, Umama oshiywe yedwa, oxhwalekileyo, ophantse ukuba kude!... Bethu
intliziyo ithethwe bubukrakra, intlungu yam ibanzi kwaye inzulu njengolwandle!. Ndabatyisa abantwana, ukhuza, ndibakhulise ngayo yonke into
ukhathalelo olunokwenzeka; Ndandibathanda ngokuthantamisa, kwaye, ngenxa yombulelo wonke, abangenambulelo badelile, bandityeshela, bandishiya ! Andonwabanga nam
bandinikela umva bandingcikiva, basuka bandichasa, bengazikhathaleli iinyembezi zam; Bayihlabile intliziyo yam, bengcikiva abazalwana babo, bebatshutshisa esandleni sam, bebakrazula esifubeni sam aba bantwana ndibathandayo, ukuze babaqobe; Baninzi
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kwenziwe kwakhona; ngokuba phambi kwamehlo am babenobuganga bomsindo nokumbethelela uKumkani wabo, uYise wabo, uMkhululi wabo, uThixo wabo!. Gweba intlungu endikuyo
kufuneka uzive! Eli likrele lentlungu kum. Ah! iqabane lobuthixo
!. Ndithatha izulu nomhlaba ukuba zingqina ukuba ndimsulwa kubo
ukuhlaselwa komntu wakho othandekayo. Ndimema zonke izidalwa ukuba zibe novelwano ngokugqithisela kwentlungu endiyivayo Wena bonke abadlulayo, badanduluka-
watsho ngelizwi lentliziyo ephuke zintlungu, khawuqaphele imeko endikuyo, ubone ukuba azikho na iintlungu ezifana nezam . Intliziyo yam izele bubukrakra; ndinguye _
ehluthi ziingcikivo; Ndiyigqibile i-chalice yoMlingane wam kaThixo....
Kodwa ndiyamva uJC ethetha naye esithi: “Zithuthuzele, sithandwa sam, uthe kuye, kwaye ungavumeli intlungu ikuthobe. Olu vavanyo luya kudlula, kunye noloyiso lweentshaba zakho kunye nezam. Lowo ugiba nina, ugiba mna; nabani na onichukumisileyo, uyandichukumisa, yaye akukho nto iya kukhululwa. Lisondele ixesha endiya kukusula ngalo iinyembezi ndibuyisele uvuyo kwintliziyo yakho ephanzileyo. Ndiya kubahlanganisa oonyana bakho abaziintanda, abasasazekileyo; uya kubabona bebuthelana ngeenxa zonke, njengamantshontsho abuyayo ngaphantsi kwamaphiko onina, esukelwa liwaka. Ngaphezu koko, ndithembisa ukukwenza ube ngumama wabanye abantwana abaninzi obungenakubazi. Ngoko, mfazi wam othandekayo, uvuyo endikulungiselela lona
Ewe, iselilixesha elifutshane, ndize ndiniphendulele. Uya kuziphindezela, mkam, ndizifungele ngokwam, ukuba uya kuzibona iintshaba zakho ziwe phantsi ezinyaweni zakho.
§.II.
Isixhobo esinamandla semingcelele yoMthendeleko oNgcwele. Ukuthanda okukodwa ukuba i-JC isasazeka phezu kwabantwana beCawa yakhe.
Bawo, ndisazifumana ndibophelelekile ukuba ndikubhale phantsi oko uThixo aphinda wandazisa ngako kumsitho weOctave yesona Sikelelekileyo soMthendeleko, owawungumxholo wencoko yethu yokugqibela. Le iya kuba kukuqhubekeka kwayo kuphela, ukanti iya kusenza siyibone le nto ngokwembono eyahlukileyo kakhulu, imbono ethuthuzelayo kwaye ithandeka njengoko enye yayisoyikeka kwaye iyinkangala. I-JC ke ifuna, Bawo, ukuba lo mfanekiso wothusayo wobubi kunye nokuhlamba okubangelwa yimingcelele yabangeneleli eBandleni, wenze uphumelele ekubhaleni kwakho iingenelo zokwenyani, izinto ezilungileyo zazo zonke iintlobo eziza kuye zivela kwimingcelele kunye ne imisebenzi yabalungiseleli bakhe bokwenyaniso nabafanelekileyo. Abanye baya kubonwa njengamafu aphilileyo asasaza ubufekundity kuyo yonke indawo ngombethe omnandi wezulu; ngelixa ezinye zifana namafu kuphela angenamanzi, asebenza kuphela ekuthinteleni imitha yelanga, kwaye esifubeni apho kwenziwa izichotho, izaqhwithi kunye nezaqhwithi ezizama ukutshabalalisa kwaye ziphanzise izixeko kunye namazwe. Kwelinye icala, ubulungiseleli bobomi nentsikelelo; kwelinye, ubulungiseleli besiqalekiso nokufa: yintoni inkcaso !...
Siyahamba ke ngoku, Bawo, sithethe ngemingcelele yoMthendeleko oNgcwele, eyenziwa ngabalungiseleli bokwenene beBandla, ikhatshwa ize ilandelwe ngabathembekileyo bokwenene, bemanyene ngomzimba, intliziyo nenjongo, kubafundisi babo bokwenene. Yiloo nto endiyibonayo engqondweni yam, kwaye oko uJC wandenza ndayiqonda ... Ah! Bawo, hayi indlela okwahluke ngayo oku kuthi krwaqu kowokuqala!... Ndibona apho kuqala kuyo yonke imeko ezukileyo yoNyana kaThixo, uMsindisi wabantu, ethwelwe ngoloyiso kwinqwelo yokulwa yothando lwakhe. Unguyise othambileyo phakathi kwabantwana bakhe. Ubabona ngolonwabo begqabhuka ngandlela zonke ukuthuthwa kovuyo lwabo.
Lusuku oluhle kubo, kuba luyimini yozuko kuye. Unezandla ezizele ziintsikelelo nezinto zokomoya, azithulula ziphuma kubo bonke
izabelo ezininzi, kwaye ucela ukusasaza ngakumbi. Ungathanda ukufumana umqobo kwimiphumo yobabalo lwakhe kunye nokuthululwa kothando lwakhe. Kanjalo olu lubabalo alubelwa kuphela abakho kodwa, lubekwa nakwabo bangekhoyo, bakuba bevana, nakubantu bonke abathembekileyo, kungakhathaliseki ukuba bakude kangakanani na. Basasaza phezu kweengelosi nabangcwele baseZulwini; bawela kakhulu kwimiphefumlo kwiNtlambululo-miphefumlo, uninzi lwabo luhlangulwe ngolu hlobo; ekugqibeleni kwiCawe yonke...
Ndiyambona, le mvana yobuthixo, lo msindisi othandekayo wemiphefumlo yethu, lo thixo uzukileyo kunye noloyiso, ephosa umfazi wakhe kunye nabo bonke abantwana bakhe abamjikelezileyo, ukhangeleka ngobubele nothando. Ubuso bakhe obuvuthayo buvakalisa umlilo omhle apho intliziyo yakhe yobuThixo ivutha ngawo; lo mlilo ungcwele awayeze kuwuzisa emhlabeni eZulwini, kwaye anqwenela ukuwubona uvutha ngakumbi nangakumbi.
ngakumbi .... "Kulapha, utsho, ukuba ndiyayithanda apha liziko kunye noloyiso
yothando lwam ebantwini, njengoko luloyiso lokholo lwabo kubunyani bale mfihlelo yobuthixo kunye nothando lwabo kum Kulapha apho ndenza khona .
yam
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eyona nto ivuyisayo kukuba kunye nabo ukuze bafumane ukunconywa kwabo kunye neempawu zokuzinikela kwabo. Yizani nonke, bantwana bam; sondela ngaphandle koloyiko utata onithanda nonke ngokulinganayo kwaye efuna ulonwabo lwenu olukhulu...
» Abalungiseleli abanenzondelelo, abazincamayo ngenxa yosindiso lwemiphefumlo nokuguqulwa kwaboni endibahlawuleleyo ngegazi lam, yizani kuqala; Andiyi kuniphatha njengabakhonzi; ndiniphathi njengezihlobo; ngokuba, okunene ningabawenkosi yenu. Yibani nesabelo eluzukweni enisebenza nzima ukuze nindizuzele; hlala ngasekunene kwam; ngokuba niya kuhlala khona imini enye, ukuba nigwebe nam ezizweni ezilishumi elinazibini zakwaSirayeli.
» Sondelani nina miphefumlo engcwele, enentumekelelo, nina nizahluleleyo kum, nisingisele enkonzweni yam; nonke nina nisebenza ukundonelisa ngokuxelisa imikhwa yam, nokuba nikwimeko enjani, ningabam, ningabam. Ndiyanakana, sondelani, ningoyiki
Akukho nto. Intliziyo enyulu, imiphefumlo enobubele nenoxolo, nina niva ubunzima ngenxa yobulungisa, yizani ezingalweni zam ukuze nifumane intuthuzelo yam yangaphakathi, ngelixa nilindele ukuba ndosule iinyembezi zenu, kwindawo yokuhlala yabasikelelweyo, endikuzuzele yona nendizimisele ukuba ndiyifumane. kuwe . _ Wena, ekugqibeleni, uhendwa kwaye
nitshutshiswe ziintshaba zenu, ezibuva ngaphakathi kwenu ubunzima bemvelo eyonakeleyo, yizani kum ukuba ndikhululeke. Ndiya kukukhusela, ndikukhusele ebubini beentshaba zakho; Ndiya kuba yikhaka lakho kunye nendawo yakho yokusabela eqinisekileyo, kwaye uya kufumana kufuphi nam ukuphumla kunye nentuthuzelo yesidalwa esingenakukunika ...
» Aboni bazisolayo nabahlazisiweyo, yizani kum ukuze namkele ukwanga koxolo noxolelo lwezono zenu, ngengubo yobumsulwa enaniphulukene nayo. Xa wawundishiya, wawuxelisa ukusaba kunye nokuhlukaniswa konyana wolahleko; xelisa ukubuya kwakhe kwaye konke kuxolelwe....
Ndiya kuthini na kuni, nina zintliziyo zilukhuni, zingenakuguquka? Ah! andinako ukukusikelela; kodwa kananjalo akukabikho iziqalekiso kuwe. Uthando lwam luyayichasa, kwaye ndiziva ndihluthiwe ngokuthanda kwakho, ngezibongozo zeBandla lam . Kulungile! nawe yiza, thandaza, uncwine ,
kwaye, ngeli xesha ndikusikelelayo, andiyi kwandula ubabalo lwenguquko nenguquko . »
Akuphelelanga apho, Bawo; kubonakala ngathi iZulu lihla liye emhlabeni, kwaye umhlaba unyukela eZulwini , Ewe, izulu nomhlaba zimanyane
ngcono nibhiyozele uloyiso lwenkosi yozuko Ndiyivile intanda
Ikhonsathi ephuma kwindibano yabangcwele baseZulwini nabo basemhlabeni, edityaniswe neekwayala ezahlukeneyo zezithunywa zezulu. Enjani yona imvisiswano yobuthixo ! Hayi,
Bawo, yonke imizamo ye-symphony yasemhlabeni ayinanto isondela kuyo; kwaye bonke obo bugcisa bunokuqulunqa ubungangamsha obungakumbi bomthendeleko walo mthendeleko, akukho nto inokuthelekiswa noko abangcwele kunye neengelosi bazenzayo kunye nengqibelelo yokugqibela, emehlweni ukukholisa uJC, ngokuhlonipha ukuhamba kwayo ngoloyiso kwisakramente yakhe ethandekayo. Olunjani lona uzuko kuye! olunjani uvuyo kubahlobo bakhe!....
Akukho nto iphantsi okanye ingakhathali ngayo nayiphi na into enokuthi ibe negalelo kwesi sidima se-august. Ukunqweneleka kwayo kuphela kwexabiso elikhulu; nokuba lizithunywa zezulu, nokuba liphuma ebantwini, uThixo uzukile ngokuthanda kwezidalwa zakhe. Yonke into inkulu, yonke into inobungangamsha, yonke into inobuThixo, yonke indalo iba nenkathalo kuyo, iziqalelo ziyayiqhwabela izandla; akukho ntyatyambo engazange ibonakale kum njengevuyayo xa iphoswa endleleni yayo, okanye isetyenziselwe ukuhombisa, ngokuvutha kokukhanya kwayo, iintente zayo kunye neendawo zayo zokugcina. Imibala yazo kum yayibonakala idlamkile kwaye iqaqambe ngakumbi: umntu wayenokuthi aqhakaze ngolonwabo
onovakalelo, kunye nobuso babo obuhle, ukuba ubani unokusebenzisa loo mbonakalo, babonakala bonwabile kwaye budlamkile. Onjani wona umboniso! hayi indlela ebekumnandi kwaye kubukhazikhazi ngayo!...
Oku bawo kundikhumbuza into eyandehlelayo kwiminyaka engamashumi amabini okanye engamashumi amathathu eyadlulayo. Kuye kwanyanzeleka ndihlale ebhedini ngenxa yentlungu yedolo endikuxelele ngayo kwenye indawo. Ndazinikela ekuthandeni kukaThixo; kodwa, ngaphandle kokungeniswa kwam, nangona kunjalo ndazisola kakhulu ngokungakwazi ukuhlawula utyelelo lwam oluncinane kwiMithendeleko eSikelelekileyo esibingelelweni. Bendingathanda kakhulu ukuya, phakathi kwezinye izinto, kumngcelele ondilisekileyo wesidlo sakhe! Inkosi elungileyo yayingafuni ukundihlutha le ntuthuzelo. Ewe, umzimba wam awuzange ubekho; kodwa ndahlawulelwa kakuhle ngenxa yoko, ekubeni ndaweni yoko ndabona ngamehlo engqondo ulungelelwano lwezinto ezigqwesileyo ngokungenasiphelo kuyo yonke imisitho yethu, naleyo amehlo omzimba ayengenakuze ayibone . VS'
Ndigqiba kuthetha nawe, kwaye uThixo usanda kuhlaziya ukuze sazi ngayo ....
Xa kujongwa ngokwalo mbono, umthendeleko, kwanothuli apho umbingeleli abize idipozithi engcwele ehamba phezu kwalo, lubonakala luphila kwaye lungcangcazela luvuyo. Kodwa, Bawo, apha, kwesi sihlandlo, yinto endayihlula kuthuli lwamangcwaba, olwaveliswa kuqulunqo.
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izidumbu ezingcwatywe apho; Ndabona abanye bengcangcazela luvuyo, abanye bengcangcazela lugcwabevu ngumsindo njengoko umngcelele wawudlula. Wandazisa ke uThixo, ukuba enye yeyemizimba yabangcwele, enye yeyemizimba yabangalungisiyo .
ukhuphiswano lwendalo iphela lwendalo, lokunqula uMdali, nokuzukisa ngakumbi ubungangamsha bobuThixo bakhe: Bendingathanda ukuba ndibe lisuntswana lothuli phambi kwakhe, abe wahamba phezu kwalo umbingeleli; Ndabuza, kwaphendula ilizwi: Usazele kakhulu; kodwa kuya kufika imini apho uya kuba mncinci kangaka emehlweni akho, kwaye xa uThixo engasayi kufumana nakuphi na ukuxhathisa kwicala lentando yakho . Elo lizwi linye
indixelela namhlanje ukuba lixesha lokubuyela kwinto engento yam ....
Ndithe ke, ngaphezu kwesihlandlo esinye, Bawo, kwaye kutsha nje, ndisibonile isixhobo esinobungangamsha nesinobungangamsha besi mbeko ngokulandelelana kangangewaka.
Ngaphezu koko, anditsho kuko konke oko umntu anokukwenza, kodwa kuko konke oyena mfanekiso uneziqhamo unokucinga ukuba ucekeceke kakhulu: abantu abanakuze bakwazi ukuwufumana . Nditsho kangangoko ndiziva
Indenze ndafumana amava engoma eyoyikekayo, iindumiso ezimnandi nomoya womgcobo endiwuvileyo uculwa ngokuhlonela uThixo ongcwele kathathu.
Xa ndandinolwazi lwamagama, kwaye xa ndibe nokugqibelela komculo, andiyi kukuxelela nantoni na esondela kancinci kwinto endiyivileyo; ubungayi kuba nambono; inokuba uyivile ngokwakho....
Kulo mculo uwonke kunye nongcwele ngokupheleleyo, ndohlula iikonsathi ezimbini eziphawulwe kakuhle, enye yayiphezulu, kwaye enye i-bass. Eyokuqala yayiqulunqwe ngamathoni aphakamileyo nangamadoda, ikratshi kunye namandla; zazingamandla asezulwini, iindumiso, iindumiso, ukuthuthwa kothando lweeNgelosi nabaNgcwele beYerusalem yasezulwini. Ukulunga, ukudumisa kunye neendumiso zabangcwele bomhlaba zakha isahlulo sesibini; kwaye ezi konsathi zimbini, ezathi zenza enye kuphela, ngaloo ndlela yamanyanisa izulu nomhlaba, iBandla elilwela uloyiso lweBandla.
Umntu unokwahlula, kukwahluka kwamagama, ii-cadences kunye neethowuni ezifanelekileyo kwaye zifaneleke ngokugqibeleleyo kwinto nganye, kwaye ngokungafaniyo nobuhle kunye nemiyalelo, nokuba yeyabaNgcwele bezulu okanye yeyasemhlabeni, ehambelana nesivumelwano esithandekayo. Kwakungekho kubhideka phakathi kweekherubhi neeserafi, naphakathi kwabafeli-nkolo, abapostile neentombi ezinyulu. Yonke into eyayilapho yayiphawulwe yaye yahlulwa; kodwa nayo yonke into eyayilapho yayimanyene kwaye isesikweni ngobugcisa obuninzi kunye nobumnandi, yonke into yayidityaniswe ngamathunzi achuliweyo kunye namakhonkco alawulwa kakuhle; ngokufutshane, yonke into yayalelwa ngolungelelwano olukhulu kangangokuba iikonsathi ezimbini eziye zavela kwiikonsathi ezininzi ezahlukahlukeneyo, nangona kunjalo zenza phakathi kwazo imvisiswano enye nenye, ikonsathi enye ukuze kuzukiswe uThixo omnye okuphela kwakhe. umhlaba....
Makhe sizame elinye ixesha ukuba nomfanekiso-ngqondweni womculo okumgangatho ophezulu, oodolwe ngobuchule, owenziwe kakuhle; kodwa siyifumana phi emhlabeni? Lowo ndithetha ngaye ufanelekile kuThixo, njengoko unako ukufaneleka ngako konke; kwaye yonke into umntu anokuyenza kwaye acinge ngayo apha ayifezekanga kwaye imbi xa kuthelekiswa....
Myeni othandekayo!. lathi ke iBandla eliNgcwele, ndikwincopho yeminqweno yam ;
uyitshintshile imihla yam yesijwili nentsizi, yaba yimihlali nemivuyo. Iintshaba zam zidanile; wena wazisa phezu kwazo ingcikivo ezindigubungele ngayo: Uzuko malube kuYise, nakuNyana, nakuMoya oyiNgcwele . WENA
nam ndincwine, ndalila; kodwa uYihlo ukuphelisile ukuncwina nokuncwina kwethu; wosula iinyembezi zakho nezam: he
ndathuthuzelwa ngaphaya kwethemba . Nonke nina bangqinayo
ukuphanziswa kwam kunye nezigulo zam, makube ngoku kulonwabo lwam, kwaye ubone ukuba kwakha kwakho intuthuzelo efana neyam!...
Nantsi ke, Bawo, yiloo nto uThixo andenze ndayibona, ngexesha le-octave kunye nemingcelele, kumaqela amabini namhlanje ahlula iBandla laseFransi kwaye avelise ukwahlukana okuyahlulayo, ngaphandle kokuba ndikwazi ukuthetha okanye yazi ukuba imele iphele ngaliphi ixesha nakweziphi na iimeko. Yimfihlelo uThixo azigcinele yona kwaye andifuni kwaye ndingafuni ukungena kuyo. Ukuba bendivunyelwe ukuba ndithethe ngale nto iphuma kum, kwaye ndibeke engozini apha uqikelelo koko sikuthethileyo, kum kubonakala ngathi umntu unokuba nethemba lokuba inkululeko iya kunikwa iCawa kungekudala. benze imisebenzi yabo ngokukhululekileyo nangokusesidlangalaleni kumthendeleko olandelayo woMthendeleko oNgcwele; eya kuba negalelo elingephi ukwenza ukuba ibe nokundiliseka ngakumbi kunoko
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Ndiyifuna kakhulu kunokuba bendinethemba lonyaka ozayo. Masithandaze ke Bawo ukuba ingqikelelo yam izaliseke ngokukhawuleza, kwaye nokuba singqina phambi kokuba sife.
UDade ucebisa kwakhona evela kuThixo, kuMlawuli wakhe, ukuba azibhokoxe ngononophelo ekubhaleni lo msebenzi. Ukuzithoba kwakhe ngokupheleleyo eCaweni.
Ndiya kukuphelisa oku kongezelelwa ixesha elide, Bawo, ngokuphinda ndikukhumbuze ukuba kukuthanda kukaThixo ukuba uzibhokoxe ekubhaleni phantsi ngokulandelelana kwamanqaku owawabhalayo, ngokukodwa oko ndikuthethileyo ndakwenza kuwe . elidlulileyo. Kule nto, ungathandabuzi, uya kufaneleka kakhulu kwaye ngaphezu kokuba usebenze ngenzondelelo kunye nempumelelo kumsebenzi obuninzi kunye neziqhamo ... uya kuba nenzuzo yokuba ube negalelo kuyo. Qhubeka ke, Bawo, uzibhokoxe kuko. Gcina kule mfihlelo zonke izilumkiso ezifunwa bubulumko; Ngaphezu kwako konke, balumkele abazalwana bobuxoki, ukoyikela ngakumbi kuneentshaba ezibhengeziweyo: sikuqumbele kakhulu! ube phezu kwakho
abalindi. Ndiyathemba ukuba yonke into ivela kuThixo, ukuba andiyi kuyeka ukuthandazela ukugcinwa kwenu, ndizincomela kwimithandazo yenu elungileyo, endiyibalayo kakhulu. Uyayazi into owandithembisa yona, yaye ngokungathandabuzekiyo awulibali.
Ndiyakukhunga ke, khawundiphawule ukuba nithanda ukuba ndinibhale le nto uThixo andixelela yona, kwaye ukuba ndimelwe kumthandazo wam, ndilahle inkolelo endikholelwa ukuba ivela kuMoya oyiNgcwele. Bendilibele ukukubuza konke oku xa ubuhamba... Ngaphezu kwako konke, Bawo, ndiphinda ndiphinda kuwe ukuba, ukuba uyaqaphela, kuyo yonke into endikuxelele yona kwaye ube uyibhalile, amabinzana okanye nantoni na echasene neSibhalo esiNgcwele. okanye kwizigqibo zeBandla, ungasileli ukuyilungisa kwaye undazise. Thetha kwaye uzivavanye kakuhle. Uyazi ukuba kungcono ndife kunokuba ndibe ngumkreqi, ndiphikisane nezihlabo zezulu.
Ndivumele ndikuqinisekise ngentlonipho yam enzulu kwaye ndihlaziye kuwe ukunyaniseka kweemvakalelo endikuyo kwiNtliziyo eNgcwele kaYesu,
Utata wam,
Intombi yakho kuYesu Krestu, Dade woZalo, ungowenkolo engafanelekanga.
ISILUMKISO SOKUQALA.
Emva kokubhadula kangangeenyanga ezimbini kummandla waseFougères, e-Ernée, eVitré nakwiintolongo zaseMaine, apho ndandibeke ngolungelelwano yonk’ into ephathelele iCawa, njl. . Kwakufuneka umgama omkhudlwana ukuze ukhuseleke ngakumbi. Ngoko ke ndagqiba, ngokucetyiswa ngoonongendi ngokwabo, ukuba ndiye eSaint-Malo, apho intshutshiso yayingenamandla kangako nxamnye nabefundisi, yaye apho, ngenxa yokufihlakala nokulumka, ubani wayenokuba nethemba lokuba uya kuthi cwaka kangangexesha elithile, yaye ekugqibeleni apho ubani ebenokuya, ukuba kuyimfuneko, aye kwilizwe lasemzini, njengoko kwakunjalo. Kwaba ngeli xesha litsha lokuhlala, apho ndahlala khona iinyanga ezine, apho ndafumana, phakathi kwezinye izinto ezininzi ezithunyelwayo, iinkcukacha endiza kuzinika ingxelo ngazo.
Kuya kuba kuhle ukuba sazi kwangaphambili ukuba ndisathetha ngoluntu endalushiya luphantse ukubhubha omnye woonongendi bam wahlaselwa esifubeni, ixesha elide elele ebhedini. Le ntombazana incinci yaseSainte Claire yabona umsebenzi wayo uphela ngolonwabo ngakumbi, njengoko yabona kwangaphambili ukuba ukufa kuya kumsindisa kwintlungu engenakuphepheka yokukhutshelwa ngaphandle nabanye. Usweleke ekuqaleni kwenyanga ka-Agasti, kwaye kwakungethuba lokubhubha kwakhe apho uDade wokuzalwa kukaYesu wandithumelela iakhawunti eneenkcukacha kunye nemiboniso endiya kuyinika into kwaye ndinciphise usasazo kangangoko ndinakho. . .
Inqaku V.
Imiyalelo ngobunyulu besazela nokuthembeka elubabalweni. Iingozi zeempazamo ezincinci, kunye neziphumo ezibi zokuba dikidiki.
Ukuthunyelwa kwesithathu kukaDade woZalo.
“Egameni loYise neloNyana neloMoya oyiNgcwele. Bayibenjalo. NgoYesu noMariya, nangegama likaBathathu Emnye oNgcwele, ndiyathobela. »
Lo Sister unoxanduva lokugcina umlindo ebusuku kufutshane nomzimba wonongendi ongasekhoyo.
Bawo, ngoku kufuneka ndikuxelele into eyenzekileyo kum kwezi ntsuku zidlulileyo ngesiganeko sikaDade wethu ongasekhoyo uMadame de Saint-Benoît, osweleke uMama wethu ngokungathandabuzekiyo aya kukubhengeza kuwe. Esazi ukuba andoyiki, uMama wandinika umyalelo wokuba ndibukele ebusuku kufuphi nesidumbu salo mntu ufileyo uthandekayo; endayamkela ngentliziyo yam yonke, ukuba ndikhulule abanye oonongendi, ababedinwe kakhulu yinyameko ababemnyamekele ngayo ekuguleni kwakhe, ngakumbi ngexesha lentlungu yakhe nangemizuzu yakhe yokugqibela; ukubakhulula
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Ndade ndavuma ukuhlala ndedwa apho ubusuku bonke. Kodwa, Bawo, ndiyakuqinisekisa ukuba andizange ndiyilindele into eyenzekayo apho, okanye into elandelayo . Ndingakuphepha ukuba mnye kangangoko ndinako, kugqitywe kwelokuba
ukuba ubomi bam buya kuba bubunye kude kube sekupheleni, kwaye ndiya kuba yinto engaqhelekanga nakwizinto ezilula neziqhelekileyo: obu busuku kum ibe bubusuku bobumnyama kunye nobusuku obukhanyayo ngaxeshanye. Ndaphinda ndaziva apho, njengakwezinye iimeko, iimbono zeengqondo ezimbini eziphikisanayo, ezathi, kangangexesha elithile, zisemfazweni. Ukuba nisebenzisa ezincwadini zenu le nto ndiza kunixelela yona, mhlawumbi ndiya kudlula ezingqondweni zabanye ngenxa yengqondo ephambeneyo, nina nibe nendoda ekholekileyo kakhulu; kungakhathaliseki ukuba Bawo, ndiya kuphinda ndivumele ngamnye aphuphume ngokwengqiqo yakhe, ngenxa yokuba ndinezizathu ezinamandla zokuthetha nawe, apha njengendawo enye, nabo bonke ubuwula enindaziyo, kwaye nilandela inyaniso echanekileyo, kangangoko kunokwenzeka. ukuze ndigwebe izinto, kwaye ngaphandle kokuhlala kakhulu kwiingcamango ezilawulwa yintlonipho yomntu. Makhe sifikelele kwinqanaba.
Idemon ifuna ukumoyikisa ukuze imenze asishiye isikhundla sakhe.
Ndiguqe ezinyaweni zomfi ebengatyhilekanga. Umnqamlezo owawubekwe entla kwentloko yakhe ekungcwatyweni kwakhe wawusebenza kum njengentetho. Emva kokumgibisela ngamanzi angcwele nokwenza umqondiso womnqamlezo phezu kwam, ndaqala ndawuqalisa umthandazo wam, ngenjongo yokuba emva koko ndicamngce ngokufa neziphelo zokugqibela; endathi ndakwenza oko kangangethuba elithile ngokucekwa okukhulu ngenxa yento ebendinayo phambi kwamehlo am , kodwa, Bawo, yabona, phakathi kweshumi elinanye neshumi elinanye
iiyure ingxolo enkulu yavakala ngaphezu komgangatho wegumbi labagulayo, kwangathi inyambalala enzima kakhulu iwele kanye kwindawo eyahlulwe ngamaplanga, apho uyazi ukuba umntu uhlamba izandla zakhe. . .
Le ngxolo yokuqala yavakala iphantse yafana naleyo yenkanunu mgama kancinane. Andizange ndizikhathaze kangako ngaloo nto; kodwa isithuba se -miserere elungileyo emva, enye ingxolo ebethayo ngakumbi isavakala, malunga nendawo enye. Ukugqabhuka kwayo kunye nokuduma okulandela emva kwayo, kwakufana nokugqabhuka kunye nokuduma kwendudumo xa uqhwithela luvutha ngumsindo kwaye zonke zikufuphi nathi. Ngewawuthe usasiva isingqimba esingqukuva nesinzima kakhulu, sitsiba ukusuka phezulu kwinyathelo elikhawulezayo, inyathelo ngalinye ebeliya kumenza abe nobundlobongela.
counter jump. Ukufika kwizitena zegumbi lokunyamekela abagulayo, kwavakala ingxolo efana neyebhombu ethi iqhekeze ngoxa iwa ize iphaphazele ibe ziingceba macala onke.
Ngeli xesha, Bawo, ndinamava, kufuneka kuvunywe, imvakalelo engafunekiyo; Ndaziva ngaphandle kwam uloyiko lokufuna ukundibamba
intliziyo yam, nenkathazo yengqondo yam. Umbono, wawudlamkile ngakumbi, wawuchukumisekile kwaye wacaphuka kakhulu yingozi enjalo, kangangokuba ndakhawuleza ndazifumana ndingakwazi ukuzibhokoxa ngakumbi emthandazweni wam: nangona kunjalo ndabambelela ngokuqinileyo, kwaye ndazama ukunxiba ubuso obulungileyo... Ngobabalo lukaThixo endalucelayo ngalomzuzu, ndawuphakamisa umoya wam nentliziyo yam ngaphezu kwezimvo zam, endandifuna, ngokholo, ukuthomalalisa ingxaki nokuthomalalisa ukuphithizela.
Ngaphandle kokuphuma kwindawo yam, ndingazi ukuba ndenze ntoni, ndaye ndagqiba ekubeni ndithethe nomfi ngakumbi okanye ngaphantsi ngale miqathango:
Sister wam olungileyo, ukuba unombulelo kuThixo, ndicela uphelise ingxolo endinqanda ukuthandaza ndizinikele kuye. Uyazi ukuba ndilapha ukuze ndikhusele umzimba wakho; deign kwakhona, ndiyakucela, ukuba undikhusele kuyo nayiphi na ingozi ... Ndaza ndathabatha amanzi angcwele endifefa ngawo umfi kunye nam, ndamfundela i-de profundis, emva koko ndajonga ngaphakathi kwam, nangokukhanya . yokholo, iinzame zomtyholi kunye namadabi amatsha ekwakusafuneka ewanikele kum.
Ndabona ke ngoko kolu khanyiso lwangaphakathi nolungaphaya kwamandla endalo ukuba yonke le ngxokozelo ndisandul’ ukuyiva yayingumsebenzi walo moya ungendawo, owathi wasungula eli qhinga ngenjongo yokundenza ndilahle intobeko nesisa esindibambele emsebenzini wam. Ukukhanya okwandenza ndabona le migibe ifihliweyo kwakhona kwandilumkisa ukuba ndilumkele uhlaselo olutsha olwalungekudala lusiza. Ekuqaleni kwakukho isilingo esinamandla sokuba ndiwuyeke umthandazo wam, ngesizathu sokuba ndandingasekho kwimeko yokuwenza; ukuba ingqondo yam yayiphazamiseke kakhulu luloyiko ukuba ndibe nethemba lokunikela ingqalelo kuyo; ukuba ndingahlala ndiqala kwakhona ngelinye ixesha umthambo endiya kunyanzeleka ukuba ndiwushiye kweli....
UDade uyasixhathisa isilingo. Iinzame ezintsha zedemoni zokumoyisa. Uzibambe eqinile.
Kodwa ndiqonda ukuba ukunikezela kwesi sihendo kwakuya kuba kukushiya ibala ledabi kutshaba lwam, ndabhenela kubukho bukaThixo ukuba ndilubhangise, ndaza ndagqiba kwelokuba ndihlale emthandazweni wam, into ethile eyafikayo; into endiyenzileyo kuyo yonke into...
Kwaba ngelo xesha ke, Bawo, ukuze kungabikho ukukhanyela oko kwaye ndingabi nazintloni zokoyiswa, utshaba lwam lwasebenzisa bonke ubuqhetseba nobuchule balo, lweza kude
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amandla avulekileyo, ukuba okanye angatsho njalo, ukushukumisa ukuzinza kwam... Kuqala wayibamba intelekelelo yam, apho wapeyinta ngokucacileyo ezona zinto zinokoyikisa; Ndizibone ndingqongwe zizilo ezikhulu nezilo ezoyikekayo ebezinokundenza ndithandabuze nokuba ndisephakathi kwabaphilayo na. Nangona kunjalo, ndathi kum: Ezi zibudenge obumsulwa bentelekelelo, kwaye ukholo lwazisusa kwangoko ezi ngcinga zoloyiko; kodwa kwakamsinya nje omnye umboniso wanyamalala kunomnye ongaqhelekanga olandelweyo, kwaye oko kwathatha ixesha elandikruqulayo kakhulu, njengoko unokucinga.
Ekugqibeleni, uBawo, idemoni lafika kwizisongelo, landenza ukuba ndive ngelizwi elingaphakathi elithetha ngokuqonda kwam, ukuba ndihlala ixesha elide ndihlala endaweni yam ukuze ndithandaze khona, kungekudala ndiza kubona ukuba kwenzekani kum. . Awukho ekupheleni, wandixelela, kwaye kufuneka ulungiselele
etshayela abanye abaninzi ubusuku bonke. Ndiya kuphinda ndiphindise kwingxolo nokuhlaselwa ngeendlela zonke. Ndiya kubonakala kuwe ngezoyikekayo; Ndiya kucima ukukhanya kwakho, ndikuphathe kakubi, kwaye izithonga oya kuzifumana ziya kukukhupha ngaphandle kwendlu. Oku kuya kuba lixabiso lokuxhathisa kwakho, kwaye uya kuzuza ntoni ngobulukhuni bakho...
Ndamphendula nam ngaphakathi, ndizidla ngokwam, ndisithi, oko kuya kwenzeka kuphela, kuya kumkholisa uThixo olungileyo, endiya kuhlala ndibambelele kuye ngokholo, angenako ukundahlula. Ndilapha ngenxa yentobeko ndathi xa bezondibulala ebaleni ndophuma nje ngokuthobela abo ndibatyalayo, Isigqibo ebekumele ukuba asizange simkholise , kwaye
awathi ngayo waphazanyiswa: nalo olu hlobo lohlaselo lwaphela ngeyure, idemon yabonakala yoyiswa ngokupheleleyo; kodwa oko akuzange kuhlale xesha lide. Kungekudala wabuyela kwityala, emva kokutshintsha ibhetri, kwaye wazama ukufumana ngokufun' ukwazi oko wayephelelwe lithemba lokukufumana ngoloyiko kunye nezisongelo.
Ndiye ndazibona ndihendwa ngamandla, kwaye olu lolona hlaselo lunzima, ukuba ndihambe nesibane sam, ndibone ukuba yintoni engalunganga ekoneni yegumbi labagulayo apho bendive ingxolo engaka, apho bekubonakala ngathi yonke into kufuneka iqhekezwe . amawaka amaqhekeza; kodwa isazela sam sandimela ngokucacileyo ukuba ngaloo mzuzu bekuya kuba kukunika okuthile kwidemoni, ukuba akumele avunyelwe neyona nzuzo incinane, ebengayi kusilela ukuyizuza ngelinye ixesha. Kungoko ndahlala ndihleli endaweni yam; kodwa ukuthanda ukwazi kwaphindaphindeka ngokungapheziyo, kangangokuba, phezu kwazo nje iintshukumo ezilungileyo zobabalo ,
Bendiseza kuvuka kabini kathathu ndiyokroba ekoneni apho bendirhanela umonakalo ongaka ezitya; kwabonakala kum ukuba ilizwi lalisithi kum: Heyi! sisiphi isono esinokubakho kuloo nto, kwaye sisiphi na isiphithiphithi onokuthi uyoyika?... Awuyi kushiya indlu; kwaye xa sele ubonile umphumo wengxolo eyenzekileyo, awuyi kuba naxhala, kwaye uya kukwazi ukuqhubeka ngokuzola ngomthandazo ekungenakwenzeka ukuba uzenzele ngaphandle kwayo ... Kodwa enye ilizwi lathi kum: Musa ukwenza nto ngako oko, yinyamekele kakuhle... uloyiso lwakho malube lugqibelele... Ndizibhenele kuThixo, owandomelezayo isigqibo sam. Bendisasebenzisa umthandazo namanzi angcwele, ndathobela uThixo nesazela sam ngokuhlala apho bendikhona....
umvuzo wokunyaniseka kwakhe. UJC ubonakala kuye. Umnika umyalelo wokunyaniseka kwizinto ezincinci
Oku kunyaniseka kuncinci, okwakubonakala kuncinci, kwandizuzela ubabalo oluvela ezulwini oluye lwaphelisa lo mboniso ungaqhelekanga kwaye lwaphelisa uloyiko lwam, luchitha umlingo obangele kubo. UJC wabonakala kum ngendlela yakhe eqhelekileyo: "Woyika ntoni, ntombi yam, wathi kum njengoko esondela kum?...
Ndikunye nawe, beka ithemba lakho kum, kwaye ucekise yonke enye into. Ewe, ndiyayiphinda kuwe, ndikuwe kunye nawe, kungekuphela nje ngobukho bobuthixo bam obugcwalisa yonke into, kodwa nangendlela ekhethekileyo, ukugxotha uhlaselo lweentshaba zakho. Ngoko musani ukuzoyika izithuko zabo, nantso kuphela into abanokuyenza. Kula mazwi esiqinisekiso kunye nobulali, ndaliqonda ilizwi lenkosi yam ethandekayo nengcwele. Ndaziva uxolo noxolo luzalwa ngokutsha engqondweni yam; Ukuzola okumnandi kwanwenwela ezinzulwini zomphefumlo wam, yabuyela ekuphumleni kwayo intliziyo yam. Ndandingasaloyiki utshaba lwam kuphela, kodwa ndandisaziva ndinesibindi sokumthuka ubuthathaka bakhe. Kodwa akuphelelanga apho....
Ndiye ndazama ukubuza uJC ngokuyimfihlo ukuba bendinokwenza umonakalo omkhulu na ukushiya indawo yam nomthandazo wam, ndiye kujonga apho bekwenzeke khona loo ngxolo, njengoko bendikhe ndalingeka kakhulu . "Ungathandabuzi ,
waphendula. Ewe, unge wenze umonakalo omkhulu kakhulu, kwaye mkhulu ngakumbi kunabo babona umphandle wezinto kwaye bagwebe kuphela ngokuqala nje bangathanda ukukholelwa. Kwakulapho kanye uSathana wayelindele ukuba agqibe ukoyikisa nokoyisa; wabane
emva koko wayiphinda kabini indlela yakhe ngempumelelo enkulu. Uthembekile kwisazela sakho nakubabalo, kungekudala
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ngewungabe usaba ngunkosikazi wezigqibo zakho okanye wena ngokwakho; ebeya koyisa yonke into, akwenze ulahle yonke into.
Ke ngoko, ntombi yam, uMtyholi ukukukhokelela engozini enkulu, ephethe kakubi kakhulu: ngenxa yoko uqhele ukumfamekisa imihla ngemihla, nokulahlekisa abantu abaninzi abangenangqondo, ngokubanika isipho esincinane . ekuqaleni; kukukrwaqula nje, ukufun’ ukwazi okuncinane, ukwaneliseka okuncinane, ilizwi lokunyelisa, ukubuya okuncinane kokuzixabisa, ukuziva ungento yanto... Kodwa kuzo zonke ezi ngongoma asiyeki ekuqaleni. Into ebonakala ingenamsebenzi ekuqaleni idla ngokuba yinto enkulu; ubuncinane kuyingozi kakhulu ukuthabatha eli nyathelo lokuqala, yaye ngaphezu kwesihlandlo esinye olu tshaba lunobuqhophololo lwamaKristu luye lwawarhuqela ezantsi enzonzobileni ngeyona ndlela ingenatyala;
Kule nto, uBawo wam, uJC undinike ezona zibane ziqinileyo nezibalulekileyo kunye nemiyalelo kum nakwabanye. Kuqala wandenza ndaphosa amehlo am kwesam isazela; Ndakubona kubulungisa bobuthixo, njengasesipilini esandityhilela kwanawona mabala mancinane, ngokukodwa eyona nto iqhelekileyo kum neyona ingamkholisiyo uThixo, ukuba ndindisholo okuthile enkonzweni yakhe, ukuba dikidiki nokungakhathali kwimisebenzi yam. , ukuba dikidiki, ukungakhathali nokuba ndindisholo isazela sam sisoloko sindingcikiva ngako, nokokuba kuncinane kangakanani na apho kusenokubakho ukungakhathali kum ekulweni nazo, okanye ukuthanda kuyo yonke into ebinokuzibangela....
Ingozi yokungafezeki.
Ezi ntsilelo, ngokungathandabuzekiyo, azinakulinganiswa ngokwazo, kwaye kude nokuya kumntu ofayo, uninzi aluhambi nakwesona siphoso sibizwa ngokufanelekileyo; ziziintsilelo nje. Kodwa ke, Bawo, ndibonile ukuba iziphumo ngamanye amaxesha ziba yingozi kangangokuba umntu akakwazi ukugada kakhulu ukuba aphephe: yiloo nto eyenza kube lula ukuthetha ngenyaniso ukuba nokuba kukuphepha ububi okanye ukwenza isidima, yonke into. mkhulu, yonke into ibalulekile ngendlela yezulu, nokuba akukho nto incinane xa ithelekiswa nosindiso lwethu
Ukungacingi ukuba kude kangakanani kunokukhokelela, umzekelo, kwizilingo ezithile , ukunqongophala okulula kubukho bukaThixo osibonayo ndiyathetha .
apha, kungekhona ingcamango eqhelekileyo yobukho boMntu Owongamileyo, kodwa yengcamango ecacileyo nekhoyo ngokwenene yalo Thixo ukho kuyo yonke indawo, osibizela kumthetho wakhe ongcwele, usiqulathe ngoloyiko, yaye usityhubela ekuphumeni kwethu ezulwini. ukoyikwa kwemigwebo yakhe...
Imfuneko yemfezeko, ukucutha umkhwa wobukho bukaThixo.
Hayi indlela ekulunge ngayo, hayi indlela ekuyingenelo ngayo, hayi indlela ekubaluleke ngayo, ngokukodwa kwiindawo ezithile ezigxekayo zesidima, ukuba kwangethuba uqalise umkhwa owonwabileyo wale ngcamango kaThixo esoloko ekho! Nangona kunjalo, ziphi na
abo banika lo msebenzi onomvuzo wonke umdla owufaneleyo ? Oku
Ngaba ukungakhathali kokuqala nokusisiseko akungonobangela obulalayo weentsilelo zabo eziqhubekayo, iimpazamo zabo zemihla ngemihla, zokungabi naluvelwano abahlala kuzo, nezono zokwenene kakhulu eziyimiphumo ? Oko sigweba ngoku
ukuba ukunqongophala kwengqwalasela kwimbono yobukho bukaThixo yinto encinci, kwaye ukuba oku kunqongophala kumsulwa njengoko kuqhelekile!...
Hayi! into ebengenakuyithetha ngokuchithakala, ngeziphazamiso eziqhelekileyo, ukungabikho rhoqo apho uninzi lwamadoda kunye namaKrestu aphila, ngokunxulumene noThixo, kubo, nakuzo zonke iinyaniso zokholo! Isimo sengqondo siyingozi ngakumbi kuba siqhelekile; Ke mna ndithetha kubo nosindiso lwabo, olubamfamekisayo ngokufuthi, bade bakholwe, bangabi nakukhalazelwa, xa beginya ubugwenxa njengamanzi; kunokukhokelela kulwaphulo-mthetho lokungakhathali, oluthi, yonke imihla, lubaveze bengaxhobanga kwizithonga zeentshaba zabo ? Kuya kuba yintoni
phambi koThixo, nangokusingisele kusindiso lwabo, umphumo wokungabi nangqiqo ubani angayi kufuna ukuzingcikiva ngako kuwo nawuphi na omnye umcimbi, nokuba nguwuphi na oya kuyazi indlela yokuthabatha amanyathelo obulumko ukuze aphephe? uya kuba yintoni umphumo? Ah! Ngaphandle kwamathandabuzo, abakhaliphileyo baya kubala ukulwa kwabo ngokoyiswa kwabo, kwaye rhoqo kunokuba banikezele phantse ngaphandle kokuhlaselwa: yiloo nto abamele bayilindele. Ewe, Bawo, ngokwendlela uThixo andenza ndibone ngayo, ukuba sifuna ukubuyela kumthombo wezona ziwa zilihlazo nezilihlazo, ezona zono zikhulu kakhulu, ezona zenzo zolwaphulo-mthetho zoyikekayo nezinemvukelo, besiya kuyifumana kancinci. into, ngokungakhathali okuncinci, ukujonga nje, ukunqongophala kwesilumkiso esibizwa ngokuba lihlabathi lihlazo, ukunyameka okuhlazisayo, into encinci ...
Imiphumo eyingozi yokulibala uThixo nokuba dikidiki.
Yintoni ke, ondibuza yona, ngumgaqo ongelishwa we-denouement enjalo? Yeyiphi inkqubela ebulalayo enokuthi unobangela, obonakala umncinci, uvelise ububi obungaka ? Nantsi: Ngobubi, kodwa nje
ukugweba, uThixo uziphatha kwaba bantu bangamagwala, nabangamagwala, nabangathembekanga, kanye njengoko beziphatha.
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ngakuye; okanye ubuncinane uyabaxelisa kangangokuba abohlwaye ngeyona ndlela yoyikekayo. Ziyabanda ngakuye, ziyagodola ngakuzo; uyabashiya njengoko eshiywe ngabo: balinganiselwe, malunga naye, ukukhululwa kulwaphulo-mthetho, ngaphandle kokuthatha inkathazo yokumkholisa ngokunyaniseka kwimisebenzi encinci yobuthixo; kwaye uzibekela umda, ngakubo, kuncedo oluqhelekileyo noluyimfuneko, aze arhoxe kuzo uncedo lokuzikhethela nokuqiqisa oko bekuya kuqinisekisa ukuzingisa kwabo kokulungileyo. Ukungathembeki ngamnye kwicala labo kulandelwa, kokwakhe, kukurhoxisa ubabalo okubenza babe buthathaka ngamaxesha athile kwaye komeleze utyekelo lwabo olubi; kuba uThixo uba lixhoba lokupha kwakhe ngomlinganiselo otshabhisiweyo.
Kwenzeka ntoni ukusuka apho? siyithethile, kwaye kulula ukuyicingela (kuba loo nto ayinakwenzeka ngenye indlela ngaphandle kwenceba ekungekho bani unelungelo lokuyibala). Ukungathembeki okuncinci ngokuyimfuneko kulandelwa ngoyena mkhulu; kancinci kutsala kancinci; inzonzobila enye ikhokelela kwenye, aze ngaloo ndlela omnye awe ngezinyuko. Ndithini ? kwithambeka elithe kratya umntu uqengqeleka ukusuka kwingxondorha ukuya eweni; sisuka ekubeni dikidiki siye ekungathembeki, sisuka kwisiphoso esincinci siye kwityala elikhulu, ukusuka kwisono esibuhlungu ukuya kwisono esifayo. Akuphelelanga apho; enganeli kukwenza isono, ubani ulwamkela umkhwa waso, ovelisa ubumfama bengqondo, ukuqina kwentliziyo, kwaye amaxesha amaninzi udla isohlwayo esinga
yoyika, Bawo, ngubani na ongayi kungcangcazela ngenxa yakhe? Ngubani ongayi kuthatha
isigqibo esiqinileyo sokuphepha isono kunye nesithunzi sesono? Thina, ngaphezu kwako konke, sikwimo esempilweni, efuna ingqibelelo engaphezulu kunoko uThixo akufunayo kwabathembekileyo abalula, ke ngoko sihamba ngokungapheziyo ebusweni obungcwele bukaThixo, singaze sizilahlekise izinto zokholo, ezifanele zisenze sikholiseke. emehlweni akhe ...
Andizukugqibezela, Bawo, ukuba bendinokukucacisela izinto ezincinci ezithiyayo, ukushukuma, iingcinga ezingento, iminqweno engenamsebenzi, amazwi angasebenziyo, imbuyekezo yokuzithemba, ukunqongophala kwenjongo emsulwa. ezona zenzo zincomekayo; iwaka elinewaka leentsilelo ezifanayo, ezingxwelerha amehlo kaThixo onomona ngobuhle bomphefumlo owakhe: ukungafezeki, nangona kunjalo, maye! eyam igcwele kangangokuba akekho umntu endimaziyo onokoyika ukodlula mna....
Ukubaluleka kweempazamo ezincinci; ukuba bohlwaywa ngokuqatha kangakanani na kwindawo yentlambululo-miphefumlo. Umzekelo wonongendi ongasekhoyo.
"Apha ke," uJC wandixelela, "zizinto ezibizwa ngokuba ziziphoso ezincinci, izinto ezincinci, izinto ezinqabileyo apho umntu angazinikeli ingqalelo encinci, nangona umntu uyazi, ngaphezu koko, ukuba phambi koThixo yonke into ibalwa kwaye akukho nto iguqulwayo . Ah! ukuba umntu unokuqonda ukuba yintoni na ngokungqongqo
Bubuphi ubunzima ezi zinto zibizwa ngokuba yi-trifles zohlwaywa kwilangatye lentlambululo-miphefumlo, ngokungathandabuzekiyo besiya kutshintsha ulwimi kunye nokuziphatha ... Kodwa”
Ngoku, Bawo wam, JC kwakhona wandenza ndabona imeko elusizi yeCawa ebandezelekileyo, kwaye kungelo xesha endacinga ukuba ndiwubone umphefumlo womfi wethu othandekayo. Ndacinga ukuba ndamva ethetha nam la mazwi alusizi: “Awu! uDade wam wokuZalwa, ukuba ndiye ndakwazi ukuqonda ukuba yintoni ekumele ukuba indibize ngenye imini ngento ebonakala incinci kangangokuba ndazivumela ngexesha lobomi bam. ukuba bendinokuqonda ngoko, njengoko ndenzayo ngoku, ukuba incinci yam
Ukukhathalela ukukholisa uThixo wam yayikukundahlukanisa naye aze andigcine ndikwi-inferno eqwengayo nenganyamezelekiyo, njengoko bendiya kusebenza ukuzilungisa.
! hayi indlela ebendiya kuba ndizijonge ngayo ngenye indlela! Ukuba iintsilelo zam zindixabisa kakhulu, kwaye bubudenge ukuxhamla ukungcola, kungakhathaliseki ukuba kuncinci kangakanani, ukwazi ukuba kuya kuba yimiqobo emininzi kulonwabo lwethu, ulonwabo oluya kulibazisa, ekubeni akukho nto ingcolileyo iya kungena esibhakabhakeni ! . Ah! udade wethu othandekayo, yiba
zilumkileni ngeendleko zam, ekubeni nisenako; nize nimthande uThixo ngaphezu kokumthanda kwam, hlalani nisenza imisebenzi yenu nomthetho wakhe ongcwele, ngokuba ixesha enilixhamlayo lininikwe ngenxa yoko. Ndikhulule ekubandezelekeni kwam, ukuze sikhawuleze sinandiphe ulonwabo olufanayo. »
Ndibethe ke ngoloyiko kum, ndangena ngovelwano ngalo mphefumlo uthandekayo, ndacenga uJC ukuba afinyeze iintlungu zakhe ngobubele begazi lakhe, kwaye ndanesibindi sokumbuza ukuba ndenze ntoni ukuze
Ndiphephe okanye ndifinyeze ngokwam; kuba ndandiziva ndinetyala ngakumbi kuye kunalowo ndandimthandazela ...
Iindlela zokuphepha iintlungu zentlambululo -miphefumlo.
Uphendule wathi, kukuzibhokoxa ngakumbi kunanini na ngaphambili ukuze emva koko uphephe zonke ezi zinto zibizwa ngokuba ziziphoso ezincinci, kunye nokwanelisa ubulungisa bukaThixo ngalo lonke ixesha elidlulileyo ... Unayo, "waqhubeka. ndisebenzisa kuni ukulunga kwegazi lam, nokuba kungezimilo zenu zabucala nezangaphakathi, okanye ngokunempumelelo ngakumbi ngezi zimo ezifanayo ezidityaniswe nokuxolelwa iBandla lam elinelungelo lokulisebenzisa kuni, nendiya kulufumana.
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Uhlala engumrhumo osesikweni nowamkelekileyo, njengoko liphuma kum ukuba libambe eli gunya ngenxa yabazohlwayayo.
Kodwa, waqhubeka, ngaphandle kwale ntsingiselo eqhelekileyo kubo bonke abathembekileyo, kukho ezinye ezininzi ezifanelekileyo kuye ngamnye othembekileyo ngokukodwa, ngokwemeko yakhe kunye nemeko yakhe: umzekelo, ntombi yam, unqwenela ukuzisindisa ekubandezelekeni okukhulu. kwindawo yentlambululo-miphefumlo? ungaze uvume nakwesiphi na isiphoso sangabom, nokuba sibonakala sincinci kangakanani na kuwe; zixakekise kakhulu ngenkathalo yokundonelisa ngeempawu ezintle ezizezobume bakho; kuba bekunganelanga, ngokukodwa kunongendi, ukusithiya isono, ukuba uthe akahlalanga enamathele kwingqibelelo apho uThixo ambizela khona, nangokwesibhambathiso asenzileyo ngaso; phakathi kwezinye izinto, uya kugwetywa ngokungqongqo ngakumbi kunabantu abaqhelekileyo.
“Thembeka kakhulu kwiinceba zam ekuziphatheni kwakho konke: zigcine, kwaye uhambe kangangoko unako ebusweni bam obungcwele ngokuthobeka konke; lindani kwaye nithandaze ngokungapheziyo, kwaye nizame ukuba ningalahleki kwizinto zokholo. Oku ndikuthetha kuni apha, ndikuthetha kubo bonke ngokomlinganiselo; kuba le ngongoma iphambili kuyo yonke iphathelele abantu bonke ngaphandle kokucalula.
» Zikhwebule kuyo nayiphi na ingcamango, inkangeleko, umnqweno, ilizwi okanye isenzo esithande ukwanelisa indalo kuphela, ngakumbi xa ubona kwangaphambili ukuba kungavela ukungathembeki okuthile, okanye nokuba unokude ube sesichengeni sesihendo esithile. Lo mgaqo wokulumkisa ubaluleke kakhulu; ngokuba ndithi kuni, ubulungisa bam buye bafikelwa bukhululekile; Zonke izinto zilinganiswa ubunzima bengcwele; kwaye njengoko iglasi yamanzi abandayo ayiyi kuhamba ingavuzwa, eyona mpazamo incinci ayiyi kuhlwaywa; ngoko ke kuyimfuneko ukubuyisela neyona obol incinci emva kokufa....
Kwenze umkhwa wakho ukuba ube ngumkhwa owonwabisayo, ukuba ugcine amabanga akho onke, ukuba uvisisanise nemithetho yokholo. Xela kum, kangangoko unako, iingcinga zakho, amazwi akho, izenzo zakho, kwanabona bangakhathaliyo. Anikholwa ukuba lilo mnikelo wenu wamaxesha onke ukuba ukholise kum; nguye ondinika ulawulo olupheleleyo phezu kwayo yonke imisebenzi yomphefumlo wakho, nakwiintshukumo zonke zentliziyo yakho; ndihlala ngaye mna kuni, nihlale nina nimanyene nam. Emva kokuba nifile kukutyekela kweemvakalelo nezendalo, ziqheliseni ukwenza, yonke imihla yobomi benu, izenzo zenu zesiqhelo ngomoya wokuguquka, ngenxa yezono ezenziweyo, ngentliziyo etyumkileyo, nethobekileyo ngenxa yokuba ninetyala. . Ukukuhlanganisa kwinguquko enkulu yentliziyo yam engcwele,
Ngale nto kwakhona, ngaphandle kokushiya apho ukhoyo, ungenzanga nto yimbi ngaphandle kwento oyenzayo imihla ngemihla, uya kuzikhulula ngokungenasiphoso, kwaye uya kukwazi nokwanelisa abanye; iintlungu eziyimfuneko kwimeko yakho ziya kuba kukuwe yentlambululo-miphefumlo eqhubekayo; kwaye ngaphandle kokuba ikubize ngaphezulu, uya kuzifumana usulungekile kwiyure yokufa. Bubuphi ubulumko, kodwa yintoni ingenelo yokuba ukwazi ukwenza isidima ngale ndlela iyimfuneko, ngokuthatha inzuzo, ukulunga komphefumlo, oko kwakungenakwenzeka ukuba uphephe emzimbeni, kwaye ngaloo ndlela usebenzisa ububi bexeshana. kwaye obungenakuphepheka kobu bomi kwinzuzo eqinisekisiweyo kunye nolonwabo olungunaphakade lomnye !. Kuhle ukuphumelela
kabini ewe, kungenxa yoko ukuba ubulumko bobuKristu buyazi indlela yokungaphulukani nanto yaye kungenelwe kuyo yonke into. Wenza ubuncinci kwimpahla yanaphakade into eyenziwa ngabantu behlabathi abanomdla kwithamsanqa lexeshana; ngalo mahluko wokuba uya kunandipha ngonaphakade isiqhamo sawo onke amaxhala akhe neentlungu zakhe, ngoxa abanye baya kube bephulukene nayo yonke into.
Ukulunga kweembandezelo zobomi bangoku.
Ngoko ke, ntombi yam, uya kuphawula ukuba ngeyure enye yokubandezeleka kobu bomi ungalingana nexesha elininzi lokubandezeleka emlilweni odlayo; oku kungenxa yomahluko omkhulu ofunyenweyo, ngokunxulumene nomphefumlo, phakathi kwemeko yobomi bangoku kunye nobo bomi bexesha elizayo...
Ebudeni bobu bomi umKristu unokufaneleka ngokwakhe, ngokusebenzisa kuye iimfanelo zegazi lam; ke okona kwaneliswayo kuncinane kubalelwa kuye kwelona nqanaba liphezulu lexabiso abanokuba nalo, aze uThixo anikele ngako konke anokukwenza ukubabalwa, nokona kuncinane anako ukukwenza okusesikweni, ngaphandle kokulimala kwakhe. Ngoxa kwindawo yentlambululo-miphefumlo kululungelelwano olwahluke ngokupheleleyo, ngenxa yokuba imiphefumlo ayisekho phantsi kolawulo lwenceba; kodwa bantywiliselwe ngokupheleleyo phantsi kobona bulungisa buqatha nelona lingqongqo, ekuthe kunjalo konke kunikwe konke, kwaye phantsi kwalo konke kulinganiswa ngobunzima beNgcwele, kungashiyi nantoni na ngenceba, ekubotshelelwe kuyo izandla zabo. Ngoko ke abasayi kuphinda bafaneleke ngaphandle kokuba bafumane ilungelo; ngaloo ndlela kuyimfuneko ngokupheleleyo, okanye ukuba iimbandezelo zabo zihlawule
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ubungqongqo, okanye ukuba iBandla lizimisele ukuzihlawulela; kuba abaxolelwanga nangepeni enye, kwaye baya kuphuma kuphela kuyo xa yonke into ihlawulwe kanye: yimeko yabo leyo...
Enye indlela ebalaseleyo nesebenzayo yokuthintela obu bungqongqo kwizono ezenziweyo kukuxolela ummelwane kabani, kwanezona ntshaba zethu zinomsindo omkhulu, zonke izithuko, iintlungu, izinto ezigwenxa ezinokuthi zibe nazo zisenza sibe nokuba sesomoya okanye sokwenyama; ukubathandazela nokuguquka kwabo; ukucela uThixo ukuba abaxolele,
indlela esibaxolela ngayo, nendlela esinqwenela ngayo ukuba asixolele; kwaye konke ngomoya wokholo nothando, ngokumanyene nokubandezeleka nokufa, woMkhululi...”
Kuya kuthatha imiqulu, Bawo, kwaye ngendingazange ndikwenze, ukuba ndithathe isigqibo sokuba ndikubhale phantsi yonke into athe uThixo wandenza ndayibona kwaye ndayiqonda, ngobu busuku bukhanya ngokwenene, obufana nolona suku luhle kakhulu kum, okanye ubuncinci. isiphelo sayo sasicacile kwaye simnandi njengesiqalo sasisoyikisa kwaye simnyama ... ukuba ndikuxelele
Ndandisazi yonke into endiyaziyo ngomgwebo owela umphefumlo ngamnye ekuphumeni kwakhe kweli hlabathi, malunga novuko lwasemhlabeni lwemizimba ngomhla wokugqibela, kunye noloyiso lwabasikelelekileyo, abagama udade wethu wayeza kwanda ngokukhawuleza; imeko akufuneki ihlale ixesha elide...
"Bona lo mzimba ubonakaliswe emehlweni akho, uJC undixelele, jonga ngokucophelela imeko ebuhlungu apho incitshiswa khona ngokuhlukana kwayo nomphefumlo wayo ! Ewe, ntombi yam, oku
umzimba lo niwubonayo ngoku woyikeka, lo mzimba uya kuba ziimpethu nothuli kwakamsinya, ndiya kuwuvusa ngenye imini enobuqaqawuli noloyiso, ndiyinyama ephilileyo, enyulu, ephilileyo, engenakonakala, nengenakonakala, inyama eya kuthi ekugqibeleni ithabathe inxaxheba kuyo. iimpawu ezizukileyo zomzimba wam ovusiweyo wobuthixo...
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Ubusuku bonke ndaqashwa ekuqwalaseleni izinto ezahlukeneyo endithe ndathetha ngazo nani kwenye indawo, kodwa apho ndafumana khona iingcamango ezinzulu kwaye zandichukumisa ngakumbi; umzekelo, malunga nobukhulu bomphefumlo, isidima sawo, ukungafi kwawo, ubumoya bawo, ixabiso lentlawulelo yawo, umvuzo wawo ongunaphakade, ukufana kwawo noThixo andisayi kuyiphinda le nto .
into endiyithethileyo....
UThixo undenze ndawela kwakhona kwisithuba esikhulu sehlabathi kunye nesiqu sam, kweso ntshabalalo ngokubanzi apho konke okukhoyo kunikela imbeko ekugqibeleleni koBuntu obungcwele. Ndayibona indalo iphela itshatyalalisiwe ngokupheleleyo, kangangokuba maxa wambi ndandithandabuza enoba ndandikho okanye ndandingekho kusini na, enoba ndandingoweli hlabathi okanye kwelinye: esi sisiphelo sayo yonke into etshabalala ngexesha; kwaye kuloo JC wandingcikiva ngobubele ngenxa yokuba ndithethe nam, ngoloyiko lwam, kwisidumbu esingenawo amandla, kunokuba ndibhekise kuye yedwa, eyedwa owayenako ukundiqinisekisa nokundikhusela; yokungabi naxesha laneleyo okanye ukuzithemba ngokupheleleyo kubukho bakhe obungcwele...
Wathi kum, Yazini ukuba ndim, ndinguye, onako ukwenza yonke into; Ke, ntombi yam, ubukho bam bukwanele; kwaye xa iflethi apho ukhoyo uya kuzaliswa ziZidumbu okanye iidemon, xa onke amandla e-infernal aya kumanyana ukukoyikisa ngamaqhinga aliwaka, konke oku akufanelekanga nokutsala ingqalelo yakho, xa ucinga ngam kwaye uthetha . »
Kunjalo ke, Bawo, ukuba obu busuku bumangalisayo budlule, nto leyo eyenza ixesha ngokunxulumene nam. Iiyure zazihamba ngokukhawuleza emva kwenye, kwaye andizange ndibe nesithukuthezi okanye ukulala. Ingqondo yam ibixakeke yilonto....
Ndandisele ndithathe uxanduva lokuvusa oonongendi kwikwayara yeematini; endayenza ke ezinzulwini zobusuku, ndaza ndabuyela endaweni yam, ndingayishiyanga de ndathatyathelw’ indawo yenye. ndagqiba, ngoku ndandikwazi ukuya kwindawo encinane apho ndandiqala khona ukuva ingxolo engaka, kwaye apho ngokwemvelo yonke into imele ukuba yaphulwa kwaye ibhukuqeka ngokuqhaqhazeka kunye nokungcangcazela okwenzeka apho. Ngoko ndaya apho nekhandlela lam, ukuze ndibone ukuba yintoni umonakalo, kwaye ndaqaphela kuyo inkohliso kayise wobuxoki. Nokuba ndijonge kangakanani na ngesibane sam, andizange ndibone nto iphazamisekileyo okanye yonakele apho, nditsho neevasi ezithile eziethe-ethe, ezithi
Ngoxa sasithandaza kwisisele sethu, ngaphakathi ndothuswa kukukhanya okuqaqambileyo, apho ndandisambona lowo ufileyo wethu esimthandayo, owayebonakala ethetha la mazwi engcikivo kum: Ngaba uzilibele na, dade wethu, iinceba ozenzileyo uThixo ? ? Kwakhona
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namhlanje uye wabuyela kwiimpazamo awayekucebise kakhulu ukuba uziphephe !. Awusebenzi ngokwaneleyo kuyo; awujongi _
khomba ngononophelo olwaneleyo kuwe; usuke ungabi nambulelo kwaye ungathembeki kuThixo, kufuneka woyike iziphumo. Cinga, Dade wam, ngeenceba athe uThixo wakwenzela zona, nengxelo onayo kuye ngenxa yazo. Khumbula, phakathi kwezinye izinto, oko wakwazise kwakhona mva nje, kunye nezilumkiso zesisa akunike zona kuzo zonke ezichaphazela ingaphakathi lakho kunye neentsilelo eziqheleke kakhulu kuwe ...
Dade wam, waqhubeka wathi, ubunesisa sokundithandazela, kwaye ngokulandela impefumlelo kaThixo, uye wenza kum, komnye umthendeleko wakho, ukukhulula konke okulungileyo okwazile ukukwenza ebomini bakho bonke: yiza, Dade wam othandekayo, ukuze ndikubulele ngayo. Yazi ukuba uJC, oye wayiphefumlela kum, wayifumana imnandi kakhulu. Kungenxa yalo msebenzi olungileyo wenceba yobuKristu ukuba ufumene zonke iinceba kunye
ulwazi olwanikelwa kuwe ngobusuku obubukele ngomzimba wam; kwaye kwakhona ekuqapheliseni inzuzo efanayo, ukuba ndiza egameni le-JC ukuba ndinilumkise ngothando ukuba nisebenze ngakumbi ukuze nizihlambulule kwaye nizingcwalise ngakumbi nangakumbi, ukuphepha umonakalo kunye nokungonakali okuza kulandela ukungakhathali kunye nokuhlwaya . Bawo, andizanga ndithethe kuni ngako oko ngaphambili
ayisosihlandlo sokuqala ukuba ndibe nemibono enje ngoonongendi bethu abangasekhoyo, ababesoloko bethetha nam ngendlela efanayo, nokuba bacela imithandazo, okanye bandilumkise ngenxa yam okanye kwabanye...
Imbopheleleko enzulu ngakumbi yabantu abazinikele kuThixo, ukuzabalazela imfezeko. Ukungathembeki kwabo, okunzulu ngakumbi kunemiphefumlo eqhelekileyo, nako kunemiphumo emibi kakhulu.
Esikuthethileyo, Bawo, ngobungqongqo bentlambululo-miphefumlo, ngokunxulumene nezona mpazamo zincinci, ngakumbi zoonongendi, ziya kubonakala zingothusi kangako; kwakhona, ukuba siqwalasela oko kufunwa yimeko yemfezeko yabantu abangcwaliselwe kuThixo. Kuba, ukuba bonke abantu bayavuma, ukuba ubulungisa bakhe bugqithisela kolikholwa; ukuba imigwebo yakhe yoyikeka ngolo hlobo kubantu bonke ngokubanzi, kuya kuba yintoni na kubantu abaye bazibophelela ekunyanisekeke ngakumbi, abathi, ngokohlobo lwezibhambathiso ezongezelelekileyo kwezo zobhaptizo, babizelwe ebungcweleni obukhulu ngakumbi? , yaye sibambelele ngokusondeleyo kuzo zonke iindlela zokusifumana; ekubeni ezi zinto zingumbandela weminqweno yabo?
Abantu, ngokukodwa, abaye bavuma ukutyekela ngokungapheliyo kwesi sibhambathiso sigqibeleleyo, kwaye phantsi kwesohlwayo sesono esitsha, ngaba ukungakhathali kwabo kunokuthetheleleka? Ngaba ubugwala babo, ukuba dikidiki kwabo kunokuba msulwa, ukuba oko kukwenza ngokuzithandela? Ukungathembeki kwabo kuya kuba-
babona ngeliso elinye nokungathembeki kwabantu abaqhelekileyo? Kanjalo, Bawo, uThixo unekhwele eliphezu kweentliziyo ezingcwele kuye; Okukhona lamkeleka kuye lo mbingelelo, kokukhona kungamkholisiyo ukunganyaniseki. Undenze ndabona ndaza ndaqonda ukuba kwizinto ezininzi oko kukungafezeki kuphela, okanye eyona mpazamo encinane, kubantu behlabathi, iba yinto enkulu kunongendi okanye kumfundisi, ngenxa
ukugqwesa kwezibhambathiso zabo, nesidima somsebenzi wabo, nangaphezu kwawo wonke ummi abambathe ngawo ababingeleli; nto leyo eyandisa ubunzulu besiphoso, ngakumbi xa kukho ihlazo. Ngoko ke akukho nto incinane, nencinane kubo, njengesikhubekiso kuThixo. Iingcinga, amazwi, izenzo, iintsilelo,
iminqweno, iminqweno, nasezintweni ezilula, zonke zibalelwa kuzo, zilinganiselwe, zahluliwe; kuba kuzo zonke izinto zinophawu lomxhuzulane....
Noko ke, Bawo, zingaphi na iziphene ezingatyibilikiyo kwizenzo zethu zemihla ngemihla, ndingaphantse ndithi ngezona zenzo zilungileyo zabaNgcwele, ukuba bendingathintelwanga yintlonipho endinayo kubo ! Ngubani ongayaziyo
hayi indlela efumaneka ngokulula ngayo indalo kuyo yonke into, yaye hayi indlela akrelekrele ngayo umntu ekuzikhohliseni ! Zingaphi izenzo ezililize nezingenamsebenzi
molo, kwenziwa kuphela ngendlela yokufumana, ngesiko okanye ngokwesiqhelo, ngokufanelekileyo, ngokuzonwabisa okanye ngokuzonwabisa, okanye ngomdla, ngaphandle kwayo nayiphi na enye injongo ngaphandle kweembono zabantu, ezingenabudlelwane noThixo!
Konke oku kunokuba phantse ukungakhathali kumphefumlo oqhelekileyo, kodwa kungekhona emphefumlweni omele udibanise yonke into kuThixo, wenze kuphela ngomgaqo wothando lwakhe, ubomi obufutshane kuphela ngokholo, kwaye, kangangoko kunokwenzeka kubuthathaka bomntu. , uzabalazele ukukholisa uThixo ezintweni zonke nokungamkholisi nganto: kuba, ekugqibeleni, ukuba isizathu sisodwa sikwenza kube ngumthwalo ngomntu ukuba ngamaxesha onke enze okuthile ngenxa yenjongo esengqiqweni, enyanisekileyo yaye emfaneleyo, ukuba umgangatho womKristu uyafuna. ngakumbi ke, ukuba enze ngokwentshukumisa yokholo, njengoko kukhoyo kuye, asisayi kufuna nto isibhambathiso esigqibelele ngakumbi? Hayi! besiya kuthetha ntoni esi sithembiso sihle kuThixo, ukuba asoloko ewola oyena ugqibeleleyo, kwaye, yintoni enokumkholisa kakhulu, ukutyekela kwimfezeko ngokuqhubekayo? Ngaba ukugqibelela kuya kufumaneka
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ngokungakhathali? Ngaba oyena ugqibeleleyo noyena ukholisa uThixo unokufunyanwa kwisenzo ebesingayi kuba nanto yakwenza naye, nesingayi kubhekiswa kuye nangayiphi na indlela?....
Makhe sicinge ngayo...
Ngoko ke, masigqibe, Bawo, ukuba nasiphi na isenzo sokungakhathali, kwaye apho ubani angongezi njongo ilungileyo okanye embi, nayiphi na into engento ngokufanelekileyo ebizwa ngokuba, ekugqibeleni konke oko umntu akunxibelelani noThixo, nangayiphi na indlela, ubuncinane, umntu onjalo, ukungafezeki, yaye ke ngoko ukwaphula isibhambathiso sakhe sokuzabalazela kuyo yonke into ngeyona nto igqibeleleyo. Ngoko ke akunakubakho senzo sokungakhathali, ngakumbi kuye, ekubeni ukungakhathali ngokwako kwanele ukumenza abe netyala....
Enjani yona imfumba yokungafezeki, izikhubekiso kunye neziphene, emva kweminyaka emininzi kangaka engenankqubela, engenamsebenzi kwimfezeko esiyibhambathisileyo.
!... Kuba yonke into ibaliwe.....
Lingakanani ke ixesha lokudlula kwindawo yentlambululo-miphefumlo ukuze kuhlawulwe amatyala alo lonke eli xesha lilahlekileyo!... Enyanisweni, kumenza umntu angcangcazele. THE
Izigwebo zikaThixo zibi kuye wonke umntu, ngaphandle kokukhetha, kwaye ngelishwa asicingi ngayo Siyazi ukuba yonke into iya kubalwa kwaye thina
iakhawunti iyanda yonke imihla: yintoni ubumfama !. Kodwa hayi-
mnye kuphela owona ngokungafezeki, ngengqiqo esiyithethileyo, umntu usengeza iziphoso ezilungileyo kuyo, kwaye nakwezona zenzo zilungileyo.
Nantoni na eyenziwa ngokwesiqhelo, ngenxa yentlonipho yomntu, ngokucaphuka, ngokungento yanto, ngokuzigwagwisa , nokuba ilunge kangakanani kwaye inconywa kangakanani na ngokwayo, iba yeyokugwetywa, kwaye ifanele ukohlwaywa ngenxa yesizathu esiyibangelayo. 'iveliswe. Nakuphi na ukungakhathali, nakuphi na ukulahlekelwa sisidima, ukucaphukela ummelwane kabani, nakuphi na ukuswela ubulali, umonde, uthando, ukuthobeka, nawuphi na umnqweno ofihlakeleyo wokukholisa nokutsalela indumiso, zizinto ezininzi ezibangela ukuba umntu adunyiswe .
zingcolise kwaye zonakalise izenzo zethu ezilungileyo ngokupheleleyo okanye ngokuyinxenye, kwaye zisenze sibe netyala ngakumbi okanye ngaphantsi, ngenxa yokuba zingamkholisi uThixo, ngokumhlutha ngakumbi okanye ngaphantsi kwentliziyo eyeyakhe ngokupheleleyo, kunye nokufaneleka kwesenzo esikuko konke. yakhe. La maninzi amabala okwenene ahlala elimaza ubunyulu benkangeleko yakhe njengokuthamba kothando lwakhe . Ewe, yi
ukuswela umbulelo oku kokukhona kuthe kuyekela kuye, akubon’ ukuba uthe watyhalela phambi kobuso bakhe, ngokokude aphikisana naye, athabathe kuye inxalenye yozuko lwakhe, anokhwele ngaye yedwa, ungamkholisi ; ngakumbi kwi
imiphefumlo uye wayilumkisa ngokukhethekileyo ngemiqondiso yakhe yobabalo, yaye imele ukuba ixabisa malini kwindawo yentlambululo-miphefumlo!...
Ngokubhekiselele kwimiphefumlo evuselela inkanuko kunye nobuthathaka, abathi, belandela iintshukumo zendalo kuphela, bangazikhanyeli ngokwanelisa okuvunyelweyo; abathi bona, bekude nokusetyenzwa ngengqibelelo, abangakwaziyo ukuziphikisa, nokuzibamba, nokuzibamba nangayiphi na into. Ndibona kuThixo ukuba aba bantu baqokelela ubutyebi bamatyala, phantsi kobunzima bayo ngenye imini baya kuncwina kabuhlungu, ukuba abalumkanga. Kodwa oko akukabi yeyona nto iyingozi kakhulu okanye eyona nto yoyikwa ngabo; kuba ubomi babo bendalo ngokupheleleyo, bentywiliselwe ngokupheleleyo ezingqondweni, ngokubahlutha ubabalo oluyimfuneko kwiimeko ezinzima, kuya kubakhokelela ngokungaqondakaliyo ukusuka kwiziphoso ezincinci ukuya kwezona zibalulekileyo, ukusuka kwizono ezibuhlungu ukuya kwezonofa. Luhlelo oluqhelekileyo, kwaye kaninzi kudlula ukusuka kwelinye ukuya
Ndiyakubuza ke, Bawo, ayikoyikisa na loo nto?
Ngaba akumele koyikwe ukuba umphefumlo ukhohliswe, kwaye lowo, ufile njengoko unjalo, ukholelwa ukuba usaphila, uya kudlula, ngaphandle kokuqonda, ukusuka kwisono esifayo ukuya kumkhwa, umkhwa ukuya kubumfama, ukusuka ebumfama ukuya ekuqaqambeni, ukusuka ekuqaqambeni ukuya ekuqaqambeni. ukungaguquki kokugqibela kunye nokuchaswa; kuba enjalo, ndiyaphinda, ikhondo eliqhelekileyo lomphefumlo walo mlinganiswa. Ku, kwakhona, ngolu luhlu lubulalayo athi agqibezele ilahleko yakhe engunaphakade kwaye afikelele kwincopho yelishwa....
Yintoni unobangela? Uyayibona; amaxesha amaninzi kubonakala ngathi akukho nto ...
Wabanda ngenxa kaThixo, njengoko sasitshilo; nali ke ityala lakhe. UThixo wasuka wabanda ngenxa yakhe; sisohlwayo sakhe esi. Hayi! esinjani sona isohlwayo ! uThixo unayo
njengoko wayemshiya; esinjani sona isohlwayo ! Ngaba inokuba njalo
ukuba sisiphumo esiphantse saphepheka sokuziphatha esingenalo ulwaphulo-mthetho ekuqaleni?
Ewe, Bawo, ewe, ndibona ubulungisa bukaThixo buxhobe ngokuphindiweyo nxamnye namagwala abo bangathembekanga kwizibhambathiso abazenzile kuye zokumkhonza ngenzondelelo nangenzondelelo. Uyazirhoxisa izibane zakhe neenceba zakhe kuzo, azivumele ukuba ziwele kwiimpazamo ezifihlakeleyo, maxa wambi nezikawonke-wonke, ezikhubekisa abathembekileyo, zigungqise ukholo lwabalulamileyo, zenze umonakalo omkhulu kwiBandla likaJ. kwezona ntlungu zakhe zinengqiqo. Ngokuba, okunjani kona ukuphanza
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ngenxa yakhe, yabona ke, isibetho esoyikekayo kulo elimiweyo liphela, ukuba abantu bangcwaliswe kuThixo, abaza kuthi, ngokungcwaliselwa kwabo, babe zizibane nezixhaso zokholo, ukubabona, abe ngamatye okukhubeka . ibhloko kwabo babefanele baqonde, baxhase, bakhanyisele. ; ye
ukubabona ngobugwala beshiya iqela lenyaniso, ngokuhlazisayo bangcatsha isizathu se-JC kwaye banikezele kwi-schism, ubuxoki kunye neqela lempazamo; kwaye kwakhona, ngokuchasene nomdla woRhulumente, ilizwi lesazela nembeko, ukukhanya kwengqiqo kunye nobungqina ngokwabo: ngaba oko kunokwenzeka ngokwenene? Ewe, kwakhona, kwaye konke oku kusenokuba kwavela kuyo
ukuba dikidiki kunye neziphoso ezincinci zabantu abangcwaliselwe kuThixo
obu dikidiki bohlwaywa ngendlela eyoyikekayo! ngubani na owayengasaboni
iimpazamo ezincinci kuphela, xa umntu ecinga ngayo ngokwembono eyinyani eyifaneleyo?...
Yonke le nto ndikuxelela yona Bawo uThixo undenze ndayibona wandenza ndayisebenzisa kulento yenzekayo, hayi! phantsi kwamehlo ethu. Ngaloo ndlela ilahleko yonqulo namazwe, ezona ntlungu zimbi kakhulu zikaThixo, ezona ntlekele zinkulu zinokubakho yaye ngokufuthi kakhulu zibangelwa bubu bomi budikidiki nezi zinto kufane kubizwe ngokuba ziziphoso ezilula, ezi zohlwayo zazo ziyintlekele sekunjalo zisisohlwayo esifanelekileyo. Nantsi ke into ebizwa ngokuba yi-minutiae, scruples, trifles; izulu elihle! yhini le! kwaye njani
Ngaba umntu unokuwisa isigwebo esinjalo?... Ubugwala buqala ububi, ukungahloneli-nkolo buyabudla: xa inkokeli ichaphazeleka, ububi buye baphumelela kuyo yonke indawo; sibona kuphela ubungqina obuninzi bayo.
Ingcamango echanekileyo yokuba simele sibe nobuthathaka bobuntu kunye nokulunga kukaThixo. Umahluko phakathi kweempazamo zobuthathaka okanye ukothuka, kunye nezo zenkohlakalo okanye zomkhwa.
Noko ke, masingagqitheli elwandle, sizilumkele, singakuhluthi ububele nenceba kaThixo, ukuze sibe nokugqithisela ubulungisa bakhe; ibiya kuba kukuwela kumngxuma omnye ukufuna ukuphepha enye, kwaye asiyonjongo yam leyo. Andifuni, ngokungaqondi, okanye ngoloyiko olugqithisileyo, ukushukumisa inkoloseko yobulungisa yabathembekileyo abanyanisekileyo kwinceba yeNkosi. UThixo makangandivumeli ukuba ndingaze ndiphembelele ukudimazeka kwimiphefumlo yentando elungileyo ! Kunoko, ndifuna ukuyivuselela kubo le ngcwele
ukuzithemba, okukuphela kwesiqhamo sokuthembeka kwizinto ezincinci; kwaye ngenxa yoko, ndifuna ukuba ngoloyiko olulungileyo baphambuke ngokulinganayo ekungathembani nasekucingeni; indlela eyonwabileyo kuphela kweqela phakathi kokugqithiswa kwezinto ezimbini ekufuneka koyike.
Ke ndiyavuma, uBawo, amaKrestu kunye nabangcwele ngokwabo bangabantu, kwaye, emva kwayo yonke loo nto, into kufuneka inikezelwe eluntwini, ndithetha kubuthathaka bomntu. Mhlawumbi ewe; kodwa kukwayimfuneko ukwahlula iziphoso zobuthathaka obunyulu obusindayo kwezona ziphoso zigqibeleleyo, zobubi, kwaneziphoso zokungakhathali ezaliswa ngazo imiphefumlo edikidiki. Kuyimfuneko ukwahlula izono zenyama kumkhwa wezono ezibuhlungu Iimpazamo ezidlulayo esiguquka kuzo, kwaye esizisebenzelayo .
olungileyo ekuzilungiseni, axolelwe ngokulula; ezi ziwa ukuba umntu wenza izihlandlo ezilikhulu ngosuku, ukuba uyathanda, kodwa kwakhona apho umntu achache kaninzi; kwaye ndinobuganga bokutsho ukuba nasiphi na isono umntu aguquka ngokunyanisekileyo, nokuba sikhulu, asinakuba neziphumo ezibi zosindiso,
ekubeni, ngokuchaseneyo, isebenza njengento egcinayo ngokwenza ukuphaphazela ngakumbi kwikamva abo inike amava obuthathaka bayo.
Kodwa, Bawo, akunjalo ngomkhwa weziphoso zangasese, kwaye le yinto ekufuneka umntu ayilumkele kakhulu. Ukuzibekela umda ekukhululweni kulwaphulo-mthetho nokuhlala phantse ungakhathali kwimfezeko enkulu okanye engaphantsi, ukuzenza, njengesicwangciso sobomi, ukuba ndindisholo okuqhelekileyo kunye nobugwala, yimeko enganyamezelekiyo emehlweni. ukudelela ngokusesikweni ubabalo lwakhe, udikidiki asongelwa nguThixo ukuba akuhlanze emlonyeni wakhe, njengoko ubani egabha isiselo esinezothe, esisindwa yintliziyo; kwaye njengoko ilizothe yaye kunqabile ukuba umntu aphinde athabathe oko ebekhe wakugabha, kulandela, ubuncinane, ukuba ukuhlala dikidiki kuyingozi kakhulu elusindisweni, kwaye le nyaniso yoyikekayo ifanele ukwenza abantu abangaphezu kwesinye bangcangcazele. ungacingi...
Ukuthetha igama elingenamsebenzi okanye elincinane elikhululekileyo ngaphandle kokuphoxa okanye ukunyelisa ngokuchasene nesisa okanye nasiphi na esinye isidima lisiphoso esilungisa umzuzu olandelayo; kodwa ukuziqhelanisa, ngabom, naphantsi kwesizathu sokuzonwabisa, ukuthetha rhoqo kwaye ngaphandle kokuzisola ukuthetha amazwi akhululekile kwaye aphikisana nokuhlonela uThixo, uthando, okanye ukuthozama, yinto eyahlukileyo kakhulu; yaye kwanokuba onke la mazwi ayintlebendwane okanye ahlabayo ebenokukhalinyelwa nje kancinane, oko bekungayi kuwuthintela lo mkhwa ekubeni umbi kakhulu, ekubhenceni usindiso kwingozi enzulu kakhulu. Kunjalo ke ngeminqweno, iingcinga, ukushiyiwa, njl.
Ukushiya umsebenzi omncinci wokwenza umsebenzi olungileyo kunokuba yimpazamo encinci kakhulu; kodwa ukuziqhelanisa ngaphandle kokuzisola ngokushiya phantse yonke into engabonakali ibalulekile kukulungiselela
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ekushiyeni ezona ngongoma zibalulekileyo nezinezigqibo ngokuphathelele usindiso; kwaye isizathu soku kukuba, ngesiphumo esingokwemvelo, esi simo sengqondo sibi, ngokunciphisa rhoqo amandla ethu omoya, sisisondeza kwisenzo solwaphulo-mthetho ngokomlinganiselo njengoko sisenza singathembeki kwiinceba ebesinazo zokusisindisa kulo. . Ubabalo oludelekileyo, oluhlanjelweyo, lumkile; indalo iyomelela njengoko uThixo esishiya,
kwaye phantse ngokungaguquguqukiyo ulwaphulo-mthetho olukhulu lulandela ngokusondeleyo iimpazamo ezincinci.
Andazi, Bawo, ukuba abantu bayakuthabatha njani na ukuziphatha kwam; kodwa kubonakala kum ukuba oku kuchanekileyo intsingiselo yento uJC andenze ukuba ndiyibone ngobusuku endithethe ngayo kuwe. Kukungakhathali okuqalekisiweyo okukhokelela kwimiphefumlo emininzi kwindawo yentlambululo-miphefumlo kuze kubenze babandezeleke apho iintlungu ezinde nezikhohlakeleyo; ndonwabe kakhulu xa engazange awase kwenye indawo! Kodwa ngelishwa! ikwanguye kwakhona owathi, njengoko sesitshilo, isihogo sabantu kunye nabachasayo abathi ukuchaswa kwabo akuqale akuphelelise.
Ewe, ngenxa yokuba asikwazi ukuphindaphinda ngokuphindaphindiweyo, kungenxa yeziphambeko ezincinci, ukungathembeki kwansuku zonke, ukuba siqhelane nolwaphulo-mthetho kwaye ekugqibeleni sikwazi ukuginya ubugwenxa njengamanzi ...
Kuko konke oku, uBawo, abathembekileyo bokwenyani, ngakumbi abo bangcwalisiweyo kuThixo ngendlela ekhethekileyo ngakumbi, kufuneka bagqibe kwaye baqonde indlela ekubaluleke ngayo ukuba bahlale besetyenziselwa ukulwa nendalo, ekujongeni yonke into yabo kunye nayo yonke into yabo. ukuze banxulumanise yonke into noThixo, kangangoko banako ngokokuziphatha, nokwenza zonke izenzo zabo zesiqhelo ngeyona njongo inyulu banokuthi ngokobuntu babeke idyokhwe, nemfezeko intuthumbo yobomi bobuKristu. : kuyimfuneko, kangangoko kunokwenzeka, ukuphepha konke ukugqithisa ... Ukuba kuyachaswa ukuba kubiza kakhulu ukunyamekela kunye nokwenza ubundlobongela obuninzi, ndiya kuphendula: kodwa ngumthetho kunye nemeko. Ngoko, nokuba kubiza kancinci okanye kakhulu, ayisiyiyo le nto imalunga nomKristu osebenzisa ingqondo yakhe kunye nokholo lwakhe ukuze aqinisekise usindiso lwakhe. Ixabisa kakhulu, ndiya kuvuma ukuba uyafuna; kodwa oku kuncinane kakhulu xa kuthelekiswa nenye indlela engenakuthintelwa, eya kuba sisiphumo sokuziphatha kwethu kule nkalo, ekubeni, ngokomyalelo wesiqhelo wezinto, izulu okanye isihogo sixhomekeke kuwo ngamnye wethu. Ekugqibeleni, kubiza kakhulu; kodwa kubiza ngaphezulu kakhulu ukulahlekelwa yimpahla engapheliyo kwaye uva iintlungu ezingasoze ziphele. Le yingongoma ebalulekileyo ekufuneka kugwetywe kuyo kwaye kuqikelelwe bonke abanye. Umgaqo ongaguquguqukiyo yonke into enxulumene nawo kukugqwesa ngokulinganayo kweshishini, ekuphela kweshishini umntu afanele azixhalabise ngalo. ayisiyiyo le nto imalunga nomKristu osebenzisa ingqondo yakhe kunye nokholo lwakhe ukuqinisekisa usindiso lwakhe. Ixabisa kakhulu, ndiya kuvuma ukuba uyafuna; kodwa oku kuncinane kakhulu xa kuthelekiswa nenye indlela engenakuthintelwa, eya kuba sisiphumo sokuziphatha kwethu kule nkalo, ekubeni, ngokomyalelo wesiqhelo wezinto, izulu okanye isihogo sixhomekeke kuwo ngamnye wethu. Ekugqibeleni, kubiza kakhulu; kodwa kubiza ngaphezulu kakhulu ukulahlekelwa yimpahla engapheliyo kwaye uva iintlungu ezingasoze ziphele. Le yingongoma ebalulekileyo ekufuneka kugwetywe kuyo kwaye kuqikelelwe bonke abanye. Umgaqo ongaguquguqukiyo yonke into enxulumene nawo kukugqwesa ngokulinganayo kweshishini, ekuphela kweshishini umntu afanele azixhalabise ngalo. ayisiyiyo le nto imalunga nomKristu osebenzisa ingqondo yakhe kunye nokholo lwakhe ukuqinisekisa usindiso lwakhe. Ixabisa kakhulu, ndiya kuvuma ukuba uyafuna; kodwa oku kuncinane kakhulu xa kuthelekiswa nenye indlela engenakuthintelwa, eya kuba sisiphumo sokuziphatha kwethu kule nkalo, ekubeni, ngokomyalelo wesiqhelo wezinto, izulu okanye isihogo sixhomekeke kuwo ngamnye wethu. Ekugqibeleni, kubiza kakhulu; kodwa kubiza ngaphezulu kakhulu ukulahlekelwa yimpahla engenasiphelo nengunaphakade kwaye uve iintlungu ezingasayi kuphela. Le yingongoma ebalulekileyo ekufuneka kugwetywe kuyo kwaye kuqikelelwe bonke abanye. Umgaqo ongaguquguqukiyo onxulumene nayo yonke into kukugqwesa ngokulinganayo kweshishini, ekuphela kweshishini umntu afanele azixhalabise ngalo. wenza ngokunxulumene nomKristu osebenzisa ingqondo yakhe kunye nokholo lwakhe ukuqinisekisa usindiso lwakhe. Ixabisa kakhulu, ndiya kuvuma ukuba uyafuna; kodwa oku kuncinane kakhulu xa kuthelekiswa nenye indlela engenakuthintelwa, eya kuba sisiphumo sokuziphatha kwethu kule nkalo, ekubeni, ngokomyalelo wesiqhelo wezinto, izulu okanye isihogo sixhomekeke kuwo ngamnye wethu. Ekugqibeleni, kubiza kakhulu; kodwa kubiza ngaphezulu kakhulu ukulahlekelwa yimpahla engenasiphelo nengunaphakade kwaye uve iintlungu ezingasayi kuphela. Le yingongoma ebalulekileyo ekufuneka kugwetywe kuyo kwaye kuqikelelwe bonke abanye. Umgaqo ongaguquguqukiyo onxulumene nayo yonke into kukugqwesa ngokulinganayo kweshishini, ekuphela kweshishini umntu afanele azixhalabise ngalo. wenza ngokunxulumene nomKristu osebenzisa ingqondo yakhe kunye nokholo lwakhe ukuqinisekisa usindiso lwakhe. Ixabisa kakhulu, ndiya kuvuma ukuba uyafuna; kodwa oku kuncinane kakhulu xa kuthelekiswa nenye indlela engenakuthintelwa, eya kuba sisiphumo sokuziphatha kwethu kule nkalo, ekubeni, ngokomyalelo wesiqhelo wezinto, izulu okanye isihogo sixhomekeke kuwo ngamnye wethu. Ekugqibeleni, kubiza kakhulu; kodwa kubiza ngaphezulu kakhulu ukulahlekelwa yimpahla engenasiphelo nengunaphakade kwaye uve iintlungu ezingasayi kuphela. Le yingongoma ebalulekileyo ekufuneka kugwetywe kuyo kwaye kuqikelelwe bonke abanye. Umgaqo ongaguquguqukiyo onxulumene nayo yonke into kukugqwesa ngokulinganayo kweshishini, ekuphela kweshishini umntu afanele azixhalabise ngalo. Ndiyakuvuma ukuba uyafuna; kodwa oku kuncinane kakhulu xa kuthelekiswa nenye indlela engenakuthintelwa, eya kuba sisiphumo sokuziphatha kwethu kule nkalo, ekubeni, ngokomyalelo wesiqhelo wezinto, izulu okanye isihogo sixhomekeke kuwo ngamnye wethu. Ekugqibeleni, kubiza kakhulu; kodwa kubiza ngaphezulu kakhulu ukulahlekelwa yimpahla engenasiphelo nengunaphakade kwaye uve iintlungu ezingasayi kuphela. Le yingongoma ebalulekileyo ekufuneka kugwetywe kuyo kwaye kuqikelelwe bonke abanye. Umgaqo ongaguquguqukiyo onxulumene nayo yonke into kukugqwesa ngokulinganayo kweshishini, ekuphela kweshishini umntu afanele azixhalabise ngalo. Ndiyakuvuma ukuba uyafuna; kodwa oku kuncinane kakhulu xa kuthelekiswa nenye indlela engenakuthintelwa, eya kuba sisiphumo sokuziphatha kwethu kule nkalo, ekubeni, ngokomyalelo wesiqhelo wezinto, izulu okanye isihogo sixhomekeke kuwo ngamnye wethu. Ekugqibeleni, kubiza kakhulu; kodwa kubiza ngaphezulu kakhulu ukulahlekelwa yimpahla engenasiphelo nengunaphakade kwaye uve iintlungu ezingasayi kuphela. Le yingongoma ebalulekileyo ekufuneka kugwetywe kuyo kwaye kuqikelelwe bonke abanye. Umgaqo ongaguquguqukiyo onxulumene nayo yonke into kukugqwesa ngokulinganayo kweshishini, ekuphela kweshishini umntu afanele azixhalabise ngalo. Ulungelelwano oluqhelekileyo lwezinto, izulu okanye isihogo sixhomekeke kuwo ngamnye wethu. Ekugqibeleni, kubiza kakhulu; kodwa kubiza ngaphezulu kakhulu ukulahlekelwa yimpahla engenasiphelo nengunaphakade kwaye uve iintlungu ezingasayi kuphela. Le yingongoma ebalulekileyo ekufuneka kugwetywe kuyo kwaye kuqikelelwe bonke abanye. Umgaqo ongaguquguqukiyo onxulumene nayo yonke into kukugqwesa ngokulinganayo kweshishini, ekuphela kweshishini umntu afanele azixhalabise ngalo. Ulungelelwano oluqhelekileyo lwezinto, izulu okanye isihogo sixhomekeke kuwo ngamnye wethu. Ekugqibeleni, kubiza kakhulu; kodwa kubiza ngaphezulu kakhulu ukulahlekelwa yimpahla engenasiphelo nengunaphakade kwaye uve iintlungu ezingasayi kuphela. Le yingongoma ebalulekileyo ekufuneka kugwetywe kuyo kwaye kuqikelelwe bonke abanye. Umgaqo ongaguquguqukiyo onxulumene nayo yonke into kukugqwesa ngokulinganayo kweshishini, ekuphela kweshishini umntu afanele azixhalabise ngalo.
ICANDELO VI.
Kutheni kukho iinkonzo ezininzi zobuxoki namahlazo amaninzi ehlabathini. Ukumfameka kwangabom kwabangahloneli Thixo, kunye nokohlwaya kwabo.
UThixo ngoku ufuna, Bawo, ukuba ndibelane nawe ngale nto wayithethayo kum ngesihlandlo sokufunda esasithetha ngeentshutshiso zeBandla. Olu fundo lundenze ndenze olona luvo lubalulekileyo kwimicimbi yelo xesha. Ezi ngcinga zandibangela umvandedwa omkhulu, kangangokuba ndaphantse ndacaphuka, ndingazi ukuba ngubani kanye kanye, kwakutheni ukuze uThixo wam athethe.
Mna entlungwini yam, kutheni ubandezeleka ngale ntaphane yeziphoso, zezinto ezingento, zeemfundiso ezingaqhelekanga neziphikisanayo ihlabathi elizaliswe ngazo, ekugqibeleni ngamahlelo obuxoki, ayonakalisayo inyaniso yonqulo oluyinyaniso, olunyelisa unqulo lwakho olungcwele, . ngokuzinyelisa, amahlelo obuxoki nangamasikizi, amfamekisayo, Nihlazeke ababuthathaka nabangenamoya ababenza iintshaba zenu zinyelise, abathabatha ithuba lokubhideka yonke into, balwe yonke into balahle yonke into?...
Njengoko kukho uThixo omnye, kum kubonakala ngathi kufuneka unqulo olunye; kwaye njengoko kukho i-JC enye kuphela, kufanele kwakhona kubekho iBandla elinye kuphela emhlabeni; kuba inyaniso ayiziphikisi: bonke abanye ke ngoko bafanele ukubhangiswa, ukuze banike imbeko kubunye bukaThixo mayela nenyaniso yelizwi lakhe. Ngoko bekungayi kubakho kungacaci, nakuphi na ukungaqondi; bekungayi kubakho nesizathu sokucinga okubi; umthetho ongcwele weVangeli kuphela uya kulandelwa, JC yedwa wayeza kwaziwa kwaye anqulwe; besingayi kubona Bandla ngaphandle kwelo walisekayo, nelingenambaleki; bathi ke abo kuthiwa ba ziziingqondi, bangasebenzisi njengabo bona la mayelenqe; Thina
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yamkelwa kubaPostile ngesithethe esithe rhoqo...
Ngoxa, ukuze ndibagwebe abangendawo, kwakubonakala ngathi ndiyakhalaza ngoThixo ngokwakhe, uJC wandenza ndeva ilizwi lakhe ngaphakathi kum: “Yonke into oyicingayo iyinyani ngengqiqo yokuba uthetha ngayo,” watsho kum; ke nina anizazi nencasa yehambo yam, nemithombo yobulungisa bam. Ungathanda ukuba ndiwaphelise onke amahlazo, onke amahlelo obuxoki, zonke iinkolo zobuxoki, onke amahlelo anika umthunzi iBandla lam aze anyelise inyaniso yonqulo lodwa endilumiseleyo; kangangoko bekuya kuba kufanelekile, ntombam, ukuba ndisiphelise isono, singumthombo wokuqala nohlala sivuka wazo zonke iziphazamiso, ububi kuphela emhlabeni, utshaba loluntu kuphela noThixo ngokwakhe.
Frank umlamli womntu. Inkululeko yakhe yokuzikhethela phakathi kokulungileyo nokubi.
Yazi ke, waqhubeka, ukuba kwimibandela yonqulo, njengakwimibandela yokuziphatha, inkululeko yokuzikhethela yomntu ngamnye imele yenzeke. Umntu kufuneka akhululeke ukukhetha phakathi kokulungileyo nokubi; ngaphandle kwayo bendingenako ukwenza ukulunga kwam nobulungisa bam; kwaye isizathu silula kakhulu: ukuba umntu ebengakhululekanga kwizenzo zakhe, ebengenakufanelwa okanye azuzwe; ngenxa yoko ebengayi kuba nako ukohlwaywa koloyiko okanye umvuzo wokuba nethemba.
Ngaphandle koko, isixhobo esingenzi nto asinakundibeka ngembeko; unqulo lwakhe alunakuze lundifanelekele.
Ngokukwanjalo, ukuba bekukho unqulo olunye kuphela olwalusaziwa ehlabathini lonke, bekuya kuba yintoni inzuzo ekululandeleni, xa bekungekho nto inokwenziwa, ibe umntu engenakuziphatha ngenye indlela?... bebeya kubafanelekela ntoni na ngokuzinxwema kuyo?... Bekhululekile kwinkanuko nesihendo, imeko yabo emhlabeni iya kuba yeyabangcwele eZulwini, imo yobulungisa ingeyiyo yezilingo, kwaye isenobulungisa obungafanelanga njengoko bekuya kuba njalo. ayivumelekileyo: umntu akanako ke ngoko, njengokuba ubona, ukuphelisa isono nokususa ububi emhlabeni, ngaphandle kokuphelisa kwangaxeshanye inkululeko yomntu, ecekisekayo kwiimpawu zam ngokunjalo nakwiminqweno yesidalwa sam, kwaye ayinako. baphile ngocwangco; kuba ukubonelela kwam kuyalele ngenye indlela.
Ngokwecebo lomthetho wam wanaphakade, umntu, oyinkosi ngokupheleleyo kuye, kufuneka ahendwe kwaye avavanywe okwethutyana. Kuphela kule nto
ngaphandle kokuba ndime ngembeko ngokuhlonela intliziyo yakhe nezenzo zakhe. Ke ngoko ndimenze umphathi wonyulo, nokuzimisela kuyo yonke into; kwaye kungenxa yoko le nto ndivumele ukuba i-infraction ifunyanwe kuyo yonke into, ngoko kuthetha, kunye nomyalelo, kwaye kukho inyathelo kuphela phakathi kokungathobeli kunye nokunyaniseka.
Ukulunga kukaThixo kwiinceba kunye neendlela azinika umntu ukuba aphephe ububi kwaye enze okulungileyo.
Le meko yokulingwa apho umntu azifumana eyilwe khona, umntu unokuthi ngengqiqo yokuba ngumsebenzi wobulungisa bam; kodwa kwanele ukuba ububele bam bube kuko konke ukuphepha ububi nokwenza okulungileyo; kwaye yiloo nto endiyenzayo ngentlonipho kumntu wonke. Imini enkulu yembonakaliso iya kuthetheleleka kule ngongoma uBonelelo lwam kunye nemimiselo yam kuzo zonke izidalwa ebezikho neziya kubakho kude kube ngoko; siya kubona ukuba akukho namnye uya kulahleka ngaphandle kwetyala lakhe; okokuba ngokubhekisele kuko konke, ngaphandle kokukhetha, ndiya kuba ndinike ngaphezu kokuba bendimelwe kukunikela; ukuba ndifune inceba, ngaphezu kobulungisa; kwaye lowo akanako, ngaphandle kokunyelisa, ukundityhola ngokungakhathali, kungaphantsi kokungekho sikweni okanye inkohlakalo.
Ukuba oku kufumaniseka kuyinyani ngokusingisele kubantu abangamaqaba nabangakholwayo, kuya kuba yintoni na mayela namaKrestu, ngakumbi abantwana beBandla lam?... Banokuthini ukuze bakhalaze? baya kuyigwebela njani ihambo yabo emva kobabalo endibanike lona, ndibavuze ngokungapheliyo, ukuba baphephe ububi, benze okulungileyo? Ndiyabasusa esonweni ngenxa yokoyika isohlwayo; Ndibakhokelela kwisidima ngokwaneliseka okukhangayo endincamathele kuyo, nangethemba lemivuzo endibathembisa yona; ndifile ngumlilo wenkanuko phakathi kwazo; Ndilwa nabo ngokuchasene neminqweno yabo. Andikhe ndibashiye ubunzima ngaphandle kokwaneleyo kubo ukuba bakwazi ukoyisa kwaye bafanelwe kuhlaselo abanyanzelekileyo ukuba balubambe: andilulinganisi nje kuphela uncedo kwinani nomsindo weentshaba zabo, kodwa ndisabambe isikali esandleni sam ukuba ndisicebise ukuba silungelwe; oko kukuthi, ukubathanda kangangoko ndinako, andikhe ndibavumele ukuba bahendwe
ngaphezu kwamandla abo; kwaye ndiyakwazi ukuthabatha ithuba kwizihendo zabo, nkqu nokuwa kwabo, ukubenza balungise iziphoso zabo ngenzuzo.
Imfuneko yokulwa ukuze ufumane uloyiso.
“Ukuba bekukho inkolo enye emhlabeni, nithi, abangahloneli Thixo bebengayi kuloyisa uninzi, iintshaba zikaThixo bezingayi kuthabatha ithuba, njengoko zenzayo, ukunyelisa igama lakhe elingcwele .
inyaniso, ntombi yam; kodwa kunoko yithi, kwaye uya kuthetha ngcono, ukuba bekukho inkolo enye kuphela nabantu abalungileyo ehlabathini, ukususela ngoko ukuya phambili bekungayi kubakho zimpazamo okanye abantu abakhohlakeleyo; akusayi kuphinda kubekho abangahloneli Thixo okanye iintshaba zikaThixo; ukusukela ngoko, inyaniso ayisayi kuphinda kuphikiswe, kwaye ibalulekile kuyo
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ukubakho; abantu abalungileyo babengayi kuphinda batshutshiswe, ukanti kungoku kuphela apho imfihlelo yokumiselwa kwabo ngenxa engaphambili kufuneka isebenze; ityala lam belingayi kuba saba loyisa, kwaye limele ukuba loyise ngamaxesha onke. Ekugqibeleni, abantwana bam abathembekileyo babengayi kuphinda babe nezilingo zokuzinyamezela, yaye bangaze baswele; kuba, njengoko benditshilo, uxolo olungenakuguqulwa aluhambelani nemeko yangoku yezinto, kwaye uMkhosi wam weCawa akanakuba ngaphandle kokulwa.
Ewe, kwakhona, kufuneka umlo ukufikelela uloyiso; kufuneka usebenze kwaye ubandezeleke ukuze ufumane umvuzo. Akukho sidima ngaphandle apho kukho izilingo, iminqamlezo kunye nezilingo, kwaye kungcono kakhulu ukuba kubekho ukhula phakathi kwengqolowa kwintsimi kayise, kunokuba kungabikho ukhula nazikhozo ezilungileyo: asindim owahlwayela ukhula apho; kodwa yinxalenye yecebo lam lokuthatha ithuba lezinto ezenziwa lutshaba lwam apho ngaphandle kwemvume yam. Okona kulungileyo, kuzo zonke iinkalo, kukunyamezela konke, kude kufike ixesha lokuvuna, xa kuya kubakho ukwahlulwa komnye. Ukuba bezingekho iimfihlelo, bekuya kuba phi ukulunga kokholo? yaye ukuba yonke into ibicacile elunqulweni, isizathu besiya kwenza njani imibingelelo uThixo ayicelayo?...
Ubulumko boBulungisa obuvela kuThixo, obuhlala buvumela abalungileyo ukuba babandezeleke apha ngezantsi kwaye abakhohlakeleyo boyise.
Ngalo mgaqo, ntombi yam, akukho nzima kuwe ukuchaza ukusa kumlinganiselo othile ukuba kutheni abangendawo besoloko bephumelela ehlabathini, nokuba kutheni amalungisa esoloko ecinezelwa kulo. Ukuba isidima besiqinisekile apha ngezantsi komvuzo walo, nolwaphulo-mthetho lwesohlwayo saso, ngaphandle koko bekungayi kubakho mfuneko yokuphepha enye kunokuqhelisela enye, ekubeni kuyo yonke le nto umntu ebeya kwenza kuphela ngenxa yokuzingca, umntu angakwazi. sigqibe kwelokuba abukho obunye ubomi obulindelwe emva kokufa. UThixo, ngale ngcinga, ngewayezikhulule kubo bonke ngexesha lobomi bomntu; kwaye wonke umntu kweli hlabathi waba nako okukokwakhe.
Ngoko ke, bubulumko obukhulu ukuba uMlungiseleli kaThixo wayalela ngenye indlela. UThixo uyawavumela amalungisa ukuba abandezeleke aze abangendawo baphumelele okwexeshana; kwaye nasi isizathu sokuziphatha kwakhe okuthandekayo, esenza ukuba kokubini ubulungisa nokulunga kwakhe kusebenze ngaxeshanye. Ngokuqhelekileyo akukho mntu, osesikweni nongcwele, ongekabinazo okanye ongekabi naziphene. ; Njengoko kungekho mntu ukhohlakeleyo, ongekabi nakulunga kwizinto ezithile: ngoku uThixo, olungileyo nolungileyo kubo bonke, akanako ukukushiya ukungathembeki nokungafezeki kwamalungisa ngaphandle kohlwaywa, njengoko engenako ukubahlutha abangendawo bona ngokwabo. umvuzo ngenxa yemilinganiselo yokuziphatha abaye bayenza. Inga wenzantoni? Uvuza abokugqibela ebudeni bobu bomi ngokuphumelela okwethutyana, ukuze bangabi natyala lanto ekufeni; ngoxa, ngokuchaseneyo, esohlwaya amalungisa ebudeni bobomi, ukuze azilungise aze azikhulule ngokuzohlwaya, yaye angabi nanto yakuyicela kubo ekufeni .
Ngoko ke athi kwabanye, Niye naba ngenxa yezono zenu ebomini; nakwabanye bathi, Niya kuvuzwa ngezenzo zenu ezilungileyo, kodwa anibethwanga ngenxa yezono zenu. Ngoko ke ndinetyala ngexesha leembuyekezo ezingunaphakade kwabanye, kunye nezohlwayo kwabanye ... Ngaloo ndlela, ezi ziphazamiso ezizenzileyo apho iingqondo ezinamandla ziye zaphikisana kakhulu, zingqina olona cwangco lugqibeleleyo, ngokuseka ubukho kunye nobunye ubomi, kunye nokungafi. yomphefumlo, kubukho obuyimfuneko bobulungisa bukaThixo .
Ukubuyela ke ngoko kwinkolo yam engcwele, waqhubeka JC, yazi, ntombi yam, ukuba siya kuhlala sikhululekile ukuba siyamkele okanye siyigatye, kuba siya kuhlala sikhululekile ukwenza okanye ukungenzi okulungileyo nokubi, ukuzisindisa okanye ukuzisindisa. Akushunyayelwa ngogonyamelo lwezixhobo; inyaniso yile
liyaphembelela, kodwa alingeni ngokunyanzelwa ziintliziyo; iyayihlonela inkululeko yokuzikhethela yabo baxelelwayo. Ke abo bafuna ngokwenene ukuguqukela kuye, andisoze ndala kubo iindlela zokumfumana; Ke bona abo bathe baqhubeka ekumnikeleni umva, bezivingca iindlebe zabo elizwini lakhe, neentliziyo zabo emazwini obabalo lwam, ndobayeka balahlekwe, banganyangeki, kuba ndifuna abantwana; ndingabi ngamakhoboka omsebenzi wam. Ndifuna ukukhonzwa kwaye ndinqulwe ngentliziyo, ngengqondo nangentando, hayi ngoloyiko olupheleleyo, olundicaphukisayo lundijongele phantsi.
Uyancwina, ntombi yam, ukubona inkolo yam ihlaselwa kwaye itshutshiswa macala onke; kodwa awuqapheli ukuba ndifumana uzuko olungenasiphelo kuyo. Owona mmangaliso mkhulu noqaqambileyo kwindalo iphela, asikokubona
ukuba le nkolo ihleli kwaye iya kuhlala kude kube sekupheleni kwehlabathi, ingayeki ukutshutshiswa ngaphakathi.
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kwaye ngaphandle kwazo zonke iintlobo zeentshaba, kwaye ngokufuthi nangabo babantwana bakhe ababenomdla kakhulu wokumkhusela nokumkhusela.
Kulishwa elikhulu, ngokungathandabuzekiyo, kwabo balwa nalo; kodwa bafanele basole bani ngaphandle kwabo? Kutheni besebenzisa kakubi ngokugqithisileyo inkululeko yabo yokuzikhethela kunye nezibane zengqiqo yabo?... Kutheni le nto bebugatya ngenkani ubungqina, obufuna, ngobabalo lwam, ukuzifaka ezintliziyweni zabo? Bafuna inyaniso; hayi! yini na ke ukuba bangayamkeli, yakuba ithe yavela, bangxamela ukuba bangaze bayifumane, bazimfamekise ngamaxesha onke? Xa kuyinyani ukuba umntu ufuna, kwaye lowo uyifuna ngokuthembeka, omnye kuqala ubuyela kumthombo wayo, uza kum ukuba awufumane, kwaye ke akadingi maqhinga amaninzi, okanye 'imigudu engeyomfuneko, okanye izinto ezifihlakeleyo;
Ikratshi, umqobo kulwazi lwale nyaniso.
“Emva kokuba ethobile ibhongo lesizathu esigqwesileyo, umntu uyivula intliziyo yakhe elukholweni elizwini lam, kwaye olu kholo luzuza ithemba nothando, olugqithisa ngokungenasiphelo konke okufunyenweyo kwezona ngqondo zichuliweyo. . . .
» Hayi! Nkosi yam, Thixo wam, ndakhala kuJC, kutheni la manenekazi eentanda-bulumko angazinikeli ekukhanyeni kwesi sibane sokholo sokholo, esona sizathu siphakamileyo sokuba ukhanyise emehlweni abo?... "Ntombi yam," waphendula , "bafunde kakhulu okanye bazingca kakhulu ukuba beze esikolweni sam...
Umthetho wam ongcwele unika ubulumko kuphela kwabancinane nabathobekileyo bentliziyo, abangafumani kumelana nabo; ngaphandle kokuba bakha bafunda ubuntu, uncwadi, okanye intanda-bulumko, ibenza bazi yonke inyaniso; kwaye awuzange ufunde kwaye ufunde ukuba ilizwe elincinci elilungileyo abantu bahlala bebalekela ekubulaweni ukholo kunye noloyiso, ngelixa
oogqirha noomoya abaphakamileyo baye bangcatsha unqulo lwabo ngobugwala ? Yi
ukuba ngokholo ukwaziwa kwabo kuqala abangcwele, olulo lodwa olumenza umKristu; lo gama kulo lonke ulwazi lwabo, abanye, kule ngongoma, bengazi ngokupheleleyo, ngakumbi ukuba babe nosizi njengoko babeqhubeka bevumelana ngayo. Abanye boyisile ezintweni zonke, ngenxa yokuba bekholose ngam; basuka abanye boyiswa, ngokuba babekholose ngokugqithileyo; kulapho ucingelo luhlala luphela khona. »
Imfuneko yokholo ukwazi inyaniso nokwenza isidima.
Kuzo zonke ezi zinto kufuneka sigqibe ngombono wam, kwaye le nto i-JC yandazisa kum, ukuba ukholo kwilizwi lakhe aluyimfuneko kuphela kwinkolo esisiseko sayo, kodwa nakwiwaka lolwazi lomntu. phantse akunakwenzeka ukwenza kakuhle ngaphandle kwayo. Ngaphandle kwayo umntu unokuqhelisela kuphela izimilo ezinenkangeleko engaphezulu kunokuqina, kuba azifanelekanga ukuya eZulwini, zingeyonto yonke kwaye zingenamandla osindiso. Ngaphandle kwayo, emva kokuba esebenze kakhulu, umntu uya kuzifumana engenanto, kwaye ehluthwe yonke imivuzo ngonaphakade; kuba emehlweni kaThixo, ngumKristu yedwa, kungekhona isithandi sobulumko, esifanele sivuzwe. Ke, lungekho ukholo, akunakubakho ukumkholisa kakuhle uThixo, kuba akunakwenzeka ukuba ube ngumKristu ngaphandle kwalo. Kodwa,
Ngoku, Bawo, ndiza kuxela kuwe apha, ngomyalelo kaJC, ifomula yesenzo sokholo awandifundisa sona ngokwakhe, kwaye, ngenxa yoku, ndicengceleza yonke imihla kwiVangeli yeMisa. iminyaka elishumi elinesihlanu okanye amashumi amabini. Nantso ilizwi nelizwi, njengoko wandenzayo ukuba ndiphinde, ukuze kubhalwe, kuthunyelwe kuni;
Ifomu yesenzo sokholo esinikwe nguJC kuDade.
" Oh Thixo wam ! Ndikholelwa ngokuqinileyo kuwe nakuko konke okutyhilileyo kwiBandla lakho eliNgcwele lamaKhatholika, lobuPostile kunye namaRoma; Ke ngoko ndikholelwa ngokuqinileyo kuzo zonke iinyaniso zomthetho wakho ongcwele, kuwo onke amanqaku okholo abhaliweyo okanye angabhalwanga, amanqaku awaziwayo okanye angaziwayo, kwixesha elidlulileyo, kwixesha langoku kunye nekamva; kwaye ndiyakholwa, kwinyaniso yelizwi likaJC, ngaphandle kokundazisa nokuba njani, nokuba yintoni na, nokuba kutheni. Ndiyakubuza konke, Thixo wam! ukholo oluyimfama, olungenakuguquguquka, olungenakushukunyiswa, kodwa ngaphezu kwako konke ukholo oluphilileyo, olusebenzayo, olundenza ndigcine umthetho wakho ongcwele ezintweni zonke.
Indlela, ngenjongo, kunye neziphelo ofuna ukuba ndikholelwe kuzo, endizithandayo kwaye endizinqulayo, ukuba ndithembeke kuthando lwakho, kwaye ndifeze intando yakho engcwele. »
Zingaphi na, Bawo, eziqulethwe lilizwi ngalinye lalo sivumo sihle sokholo, esiqulathe ubunzulu bazo zonke iimfihlelo zethu, kwaye unike lowo uwacengcelezayo ngokusuka entliziyweni nangomlomo okona kulungileyo kunokuthiwa abe nako emehlweni kaThixo. ! Ah! Bawo, sakumbona uThixo olungileyo njengabanini bakhe, siya kukholwa yiyo yonke loo nto
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iyaqondwa; kodwa asiyi kuphinda sibe nesidima sokholo, singabi nalo ithemba, ekubeni siya kuba sesiphelweni seminqweno yethu. Kwezi zintathu izidima zezakwalizwi, ke ngoko, kuthi kuya kuhlala kuphela uthando; kodwa asinakuba nalo olu kulunga lumnandi emva kokufa kwethu, ngaphandle kokuba siludibanise nabanye ababini ngexesha lokuphila kwethu. Ngoko masibe nokholo nethemba lokuzuza uthando ngonaphakade . Masiqhubeke sixelela uJ.C.
njengale ndoda iphuma kwiVangeli: Ndiyakholwa, Nkosi, kodwa yandisa ukholo lwam .... Yanga zonke izifundiswa kunye neentanda-bulumko zingayiphinda ngokuthanda kwayo!...
Kungekudala kwakungayi kubakho imimoya enamandla, engakholwayo okanye engahloneli Thixo emhlabeni. Ukholo lwaluya kwenza amaKristu kwaye kungekudala babe ziingcwele zabo bonke abantu ;
kwaye okukhona benokholo ngakumbi, kokukhona baya kuqonda ukuba ingqondo yabo ilahlekile. Sala kakuhle, Bawo; Lumkani , ndiyakukhunga
zibeke esichengeni iingozi ezixhaphakileyo. andiyeki ukuthandazela ukuba ugcinwe (1); ndithandazele nokuba iNkosi elungileyo indixolele zonke iziphoso zam ezingenakubalwa, indiphe ubabalo endiludingayo. Ndiya kunqwenela ngentliziyo yam yonke ukubuya kwakho; kodwa ngelishwa ! isaqhwithi sisashukunyiswa kakhulu: sifuna inkalipho, umonde kunye nokuzithoba kunangaphambili....
Umbhalo weposi kadade. Ngenxa yobumfama bongendawo.
Bawo, ngenxa yaboni abaqaqadekileyo nabangaguqukiyo, endathetha izihlandlo ezininzi kuni ngabo, njengabo bangenabubi, endithe ndabalungisa kubo, ndabagwebayo.
thetha kwakhona, ndibona kuqala kuThixo, ukuba aba bangamahlwempu abafiki ngokukhawuleza kule ndawo yobumfama, yobumfama.
(1) Andinabunzima ekuzibaleleni ngaphezu kwayo yonke imithandazo yalo mphefumlo ulungileyo, wokuba, emhlabeni naselwandle, ubaleke iingozi ezithile, ezimbini phakathi kwezinye ekubonakala ngenkankulu ukuba umntu angaphuncuka kuzo. Andiyithandabuzi kwaukuyithandabuza into yokuba iingozi zokomoya eziya kundilondoloza kuzo zazimbi ngakumbi yaye zininzi kakhulu.
yokulahlwa, okwenza inguquko yokugqibela kwaye idle ukulahlwa okubi ngokuphindwe kaliwaka kuneendudumo kunye nesiqalekiso. Bawela kuyo kuphela ngokungabonakali kwaye ngamaqondo; bafika apho ngokudlula eburheletyweni baye ekunganyanisekiyo, ukusuka kwimvukelo ukuya kwimvukelo, ukusuka ekubuyeleni ukuya ekubuyeleni kwakhona de
Imfazwe ekhohlakeleyo nengenangqiqo ngokuchasene nobabalo, ukulunga, inceba, ubulungisa nothando lukaThixo abanesibindi sokumlwela kwaye balwe ngandlela zonke.
Ukuzisola okunempilo, uloyiko olothusayo, ukubamba ngaphakathi kobabalo oluhlala lunanzekile, izigulo zomzimba, ukulahleka kwempahla, iimbandezelo zexeshana, iimbono zabavumayo, amazwi adumayo abashumayeli, iingozi ezibulalayo, iziganeko ezimanyumnyezi, ukufa ngequbuliso kwabo besisazi yonke into.
ephunyezwa rhoqo kwicala likaThixo, ongayekanga ukumfuna lo moni; kwaye yonke into yayingamampunge. Ekude ukuba abuyele kuye, elandela iminqweno yoThixo wakhe, lo moni ongenambulelo noqaqadekileyo wadela yonk’ into, wayinyathela yonke into ngeenyawo; uxhaphaze yonke into, uyayazi inkanuko yakhe kuphela. Obunjani bona ubumfama! kodwa ngubani na obenokuthi ihambo enjalo imbi kuThixo, iyinjubaqa, negwetyiweyo ngandlela zonke?....
Indlela uThixo anyanzeleke ngayo ukuba amshiye umoni kwingqiqo yakhe engafanelekanga. Imiphumo eyoyikekayo yoku kulahlwa kukaThixo.
Kanjalo, Bawo, uthando lwalo Thixo onenceba nokulunga okungaka lwazifumana lunyanzelekile ukuba anikezele kubulungisa bakhe, ngokulahla, nangona ezisola, lo mntu ulishwa kwingqondo yakhe engafanelekanga, ngokurhoxisa ubabalo, hayi hayi ngokupheleleyo. kuyimfuneko, kodwa ubabalo lokuzikhethela kunye nophawu lobubele awalusebenzisa kakubi kuphela . Ndiyabona ngaphezu koko ukuba akukho lizwe lingcwele kangaka
singaze sivavanywe koku kushiywa koyikekayo ukuba sizibonisa singanyanisekanga kubizo lweZulu nakwinto elaliyicela kuthi ukuze sizise usindiso lwethu apho. Ewe, Bawo, kwaye oko kwenza umntu angcangcazele, njengoYudas umntu unokulahleka kwaye abhubhe kwinkampani yeJC ngokwakhe; omnye unokuwela ecaleni kwakhe esihogweni,
njengesela elibi; kwaye, njengale ndoda inelishwa, sinokuwela apho ukusuka phezulu komnqamlezo Kuya kuba njani namazwe apho yonke into inegalelo ekusimfamekiseni ?
kwaye sizilahlekele?...
Ihlabathi, kunye nemigaqo yalo eyonakeleyo, ukukhululeka kunye namazwi alahlekisayo, inyama kunye neenkanuko zayo, umtyholi kunye namaqhinga abo .
imigibe emiselwe ukungabi natyala, enjani yona imiqobo elusindisweni! Yeha! Bawo, ndisuke ndankwantya kukoyika, ndiqhiphuke umbilini kukubona ubugwenxa bam;...
Kungcono ndibethwe zindudumo eziliwaka kunokuba ndikhe ndibone oku kulahlwa kuka Thixo wam kuphantse kube kuninzi.
ukoyikeka kunokuchaswa kwanaphakade, kwaye kuya kuba nzima kakhulu kum ukukuthwala.
Kanti, owu Nkosi yam! Ndifanele ukuba namava oku, ndone izihlandlo ezininzi, ngokufuthi ndiba neshwangusha lokungakholisi, kangangokuba ubukhalipha bam bebungafanelanga ukohlwaywa ngolu hlobo. Ah! Yehova, ndibabale; Khawundinike intlungu oyibizayo kuboni abaguqukayo; ndibethe ngaphandle
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Ndihlonele ngeendlela zonke, ukuba akuyi kundohlwaya ngokundilahla; Ndiyamoyika ngaphezu kwesihogo ngokwaso...
Bawo, imeko yaba boni bashiyiweyo, kwaba babhengezwa njengabangahloneli Thixo, uThixo undenza ndibabone phantsi komfanekiselo wembasa macala; Ndithetha ukusuka kwicala lomzimba nakwicala lomphefumlo, ngokwendalo nangobabalo: ukusuka ekuqaleni, lulonwabo kuphela, uvuyo kunye nokuchuma kwexeshana; ithamsanqa liyabathanda, ihlabathi liyabancoma, liyabahleka lize libolulele iingalo zalo kubo: yonk’ into iyaphumelela, yonke into iba yingenelo kubo, yonk’ into ifak’ isandla ekubenzeni bakholelwe ukuba bonwabile. Nali icala elihle....
Kodwa ukuba, ukuguqula imbasa, kwaye ukuyihlolisisa ngokukhanya kwetotshi yokholo, siqwalasela imeko yale nto kuthiwa yonwabile yenkulungwane, ngokunxulumene nomphefumlo wakhe, usindiso lwakhe, yintoni umahluko, yintoni inkcaso phakathi omnye nomnye kwaba babini yaba!. Yeha! Bawo, lo mphefumlo ulihlwempu uzishiyile
kwanakulo lonke uhlaselo lweentshaba zakhe, ngokubhekisele kubukhosi obukhohlakeleyo beminqweno yakhe, uThixo wandenza ndambona engashukumi yaye engashukumi, elele elukhukweni lweentlungu, okanye kunoko kumnqamlezo ongapheliyo . Ikhutshiwe
kuzo zonke izihombo zobabalo, ephulukene nazo zonke izidima ezamnika ukufana okukhulu nobuthixo, akasafani nanto ngaphandle kwerhamncwa, ugqwethekile, usindwa ngamatyathanga anzima, amthintelayo ukuba angashukumi nangayiphi na indlela. . Egutyungelwe ngamanxeba namanxeba, ukhonza njengento yokudlala yeedemon, ezimjonga njengexhoba aze amkhande aze amwole macala onke, hleze abaleke kuzo, oko kukuthi, azifundisise ngokwawo ukuba amthintele nakuphi na ukukhanya okuvela ezulwini, nangayiphi na indlela. yenguquko yeZulu! enjani yona ukuba mbi imeko !
Ulwaphulo-mthetho olukhokelela koku kulahlwa kubi kangaka kukaThixo.
Ndiyabona, Bawo, ukuba kuzo zonke izono, ezona zinganyamezelekiyo emehlweni kaThixo, ezo zohlwaya ngokuqatha kakhulu, kwaye ezithi, ngenxa yoko, zikhokelele ngokungenasiphoso kolu lahleko loyikekayo, luwexuko. , intshutshiso yeCawa, iziqhamo eziqhelekileyo zokungakholelwa kubukho bukaThixo, ukungahloneli unqulo nekratshi lentanda-bulumko elikhokelela umntu ekubeni avukele igunya likaThixo ngokwakhe, ezama ukuyivuthulula idyokhwe yakhe yokuthantamisa.
Ewe, Bawo, ndiyabona ukuba uxolela naluphi na olunye ulwaphulo-mthetho, nokuba lukhulu kangakanani na: 1°. ngenxa yokuba lonke olunye ulwaphulo-mthetho alunaso iqondo lentiyo elihlasela uThixo ngokwakhe, lihlasela inkolo yakhe lize lilwe nenyaniso leyo bubungqina obumnyanzelayo ukuba ayiqonde kwaye ayivume ngaphakathi; 2°. naluphi na olunye ulwaphulo-mthetho alubahlazisi abathembekileyo kakhulu, alubangeli ukulahleka kwemiphefumlo, kwaye alubangeli intlungu kunye nomsindo kumfazi ongcwele we-JC. umnyango. Anelisekanga kukubetha umama othambileyo ohlala emkhumbuza, i-monster isabahlutha kuye abantwana ebazise emhlabeni kwaye ibenze ngobabalo,
U-JC wayengenakukwazi njani ukunyamekela intlungu kunye neenyembezi zalo mfazi obuhlungu ngenxa yokulahlekelwa kwabo ? Wayengenakuziphindezela njani impatho yakhe kwaye
iintlungu zakhe? Ah! Ndiyabona ukuba umsindo wakhe awunakuthethelelwa, nokokuba iintshaba ezibhengeziweyo zeBandla azinaluvelwano zinokulindela kuye; ekumchaseni, bamhlasela ngokwakhe, kwaye ubulungisa bakhe babaphakamisela izixhobo ukuze bakhusele amalungelo akhe . Yeha, yeha, wakhala, yeha !
umhlaba!. Yeha, ulwandle nezimo zezulu, ngokuba zizele bubugwenxa ;
!. Yeha kubo bonke abenza ubugwenxa, abangakhathaliyo;
ilizwi lam, nikreqe kum.
UThixo undenza ndiqonde, Bawo, ukuba esi sigwebo soyikekayo asizalisekisa ngendlela eyoyikekayo kubo bonke aboni bomhlaba, kwaye esigwebayo
siya kuphunyezwa ngokugqibeleleyo ngomhla waxa bonke aboni beya kugwetywa, begwetywe baze bohlwaywe, xa iziqalelo ngokwazo ziya kuhlanjululwa ekungcolisweni kwezono zabantu; UThixo, ndithi, undenza ndiqonde ukuba kufuneka isebenze ngakumbi kwabo bahlula kwaye balwe no-Elise wakhe namhlanje, ngokuvuma kuyo izinto ezintsha ezingahloneli Thixo nezihlambalazayo, phantsi kwesizathu sokuyibuyisela kwimfezeko yayo ngohlaziyo. Ndiyabona ukuba aba babizwa ngokuba ngabahlaziyi baselapha kuphela ngabathunywa bakasathana nesihogo: bona zifana kakhulu neesathelayithi ezambethelela uJC, ezamdumisa njengokumkani wamaYuda kwangaxeshanye zimbetha kabuhlungu naxa zisebenzela ukufa kwakhe. Kungoko ke, kwindlu yesikhungu yale mihla, basachaphazela intlonelo enkulu ngaye neCawa yakhe, ngexesha apho kusiliwa ngokuzimisela ngakumbi. Oku kusenokufaniswa nokwanga kukaYudas; kodwa uThixo akakhohliswa kukuhanahanisa kweentshaba zakhe, wazi ngcono kunabo iinjongo ezifihlakeleyo ezenza ukuba benze, kwaye uJC unokubuza .
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kwakhona kuye ngamnye kubo into abayicelayo kweyona inezothe kubo bonke abangcatshi: Ad quid venisti?...
Iintlobo ezimbini zabatshutshisi beBandla: ukwenziwa lukhuni kwabanye, ukuguquka kwabanye.
Ewe, Bawo, iNkosi elungileyo indenze ndazi ukuba kukho abathile phakathi kwabo abakhoyo ngoku ukuba bamgwebe, bamgwebe, baphinde bambethelele emnqamlezweni, ukuba ebesemandleni abo nokuba angafa okwesibini. ixesha; ngokuba ebenetyala ngakumbi kunamaJuda, ukuba ebengayi kumbulala, ukuba abemazi kakuhle ukuba unguNyana kaThixo. INkosi yethu yandixelela ngalo mbandela ukuba bonke abo baguqukayo emva kokuvuka kwayo yayingabo kanye ababengayazi into ababeyenza ekumbetheleleni emnqamlezweni, nababengenakuze bambethelele emnqamlezweni ukuba babeyazi into ayiyo. Baye benokholo olomeleleyo kuye, olwalubaxolela ngokuyinxenye, kungoko bawavulayo amehlo abo, bayibona imimangaliso yokufa nokuvuka kwakhe.
Ke bona abo bamthiyayo ngentiyo, nengqumbo, nekhwele, nokungahloneli Thixo, bathe ngabom bawavala amehlo abo kwimimangaliso yokufa nokuvuka kwakhe, njengoko babewavingcelele izinto ababezenza ngexesha lokudla kwakhe ubomi; kwaye kude nokuzuza uxolelo awayesabanika lona, basuka bandisa iintlungu zakhe, besandisa ukugwetywa kwabo ngokuliqaqadekisa kwabo ilizwi lakhe nobunkani babo obungabom bokubugatya ubungqina ukulunga kwakhe okubeke phambi kwamehlo abo.
Kuya kuba njalo nakwabo bazisa inkathazo engaka eBandleni namhlanje. Kukho iqaqobana elithe, likhwankqiswe ngembonakalo ethile, lisithi, lithe ngenxa yoko, lithabathele kulungileyo; Aba, Bawo, uThixo undazise ukuba baya kubethwa, bankwantye sisidubedube; baya kuzama ukuyilungisa iya kubuyela eCaweni, ngokungathi bayayithuthuzela kwaye bayibuyekeze ngezohlwayo zabo, ngenxa yoko iya kube ibandezeleke ngenxa yokukreqa kwabo, ukungabi nangqondo ngaphezu kobubi...
Abo, ngokuchaseneyo, baya kuba benze ngokuchasene nezazela zabo, ngakumbi ngo inzondo ngeCawe kunye noJC, ndiyabona kwaye ndiyaqikelela ukuba ngelishwa abasayi kubuya, into eyenzekayo, ekuphambukeni kwabo, kuba bazimisele ngayo yonke into. Baye bama kwicala labo ekuhleni ngokuphathelele uThixo, yaye ndiyaboyika ngenxa yokuba uThixo uthabathile ngakubo. Ezi mfama zinelishwa ziba zizolile kuzo zonke izinto, njengoko zingenasizathu sokungcangcazela. Banqwenela, bafune kwaye baphalaze igazi lababingeleli beJC, njengoko amaYuda ayefuna kwaye aphalaze oko kweJC ngokwakhe, kwaye ukufa kwabafundi kuya kuba nesiphelo esifanayo kunye nesiphumo esifanayo neso senkosi; igazi labo liya kuba phezu kwabaliphalazileyo, libatyumze ngobunzima balo; Ndithetha ukuthi ngomgwebo kaThixo osesikweni nowoyikekayo uya kulubeka itywina lokucinywa kwabo, nokuqaqadeka kwabo, abenze baphakame ubugwenxa babo. Bona ngokwabo baya kuba ngamaxhoba obubi ababenzileyo, kwaye abasayi kuvuma; ngenxa yokuba, okuhambelana nolwaphulo-mthetho lwesizwe samaYuda, kufanelekile ukuba babelane ngesohlwayo, bewela kwisigwebo esifanayo. ngobumfama....
I-JC ifuna ukuba abantwana beCawa yakhe baphule lonke urhwebo lokomoya nabawexuki, i-schismatics, njl.
U-JC uyala ukuba ndikuxelele ngeli xesha ukuba ufuna ukuba abantwana bakhe baphule yonke intengiso yokomoya kunye nabawexuki, i-schismatics kunye nabangeneleli, nokuba basondele kangakanani; de kube ngoko, ukuba owendileyo uthe wona, uthi lowo umanyene naye angabi saba njalo
lowo womzimba kunye nepropathi, nokuba uhlala ahluliwe kuyo yonke into; ukuba alumke angaze adibane neemvakalelo zakhe ezigqwethekileyo nezingahloneli Thixo, kuba akukho gunya linokuthi lilungelelanise elo likaThixo neBandla lakhe, nokuba kuyimfuneko, ukuba kuyimfuneko, ukwazi ukuncama yonke into ukuze uhlale uthembekile kubo. .
Ulutsha malulumke ukuba lungaze luzihlanganise ngomtshato nabawexuki abagqibe ekubeni bagqibe, kuba nakweli nqanaba abanatyala lakubathobela ooyise noonina; banyanzelekile ukuba bangabathobeli, kuba i-JC kunye neCawa yakhe ngokungathandabuzekiyo ngabazali bokuqala apho wonke umKristu unetyala kuye, kwaye yonke into ephikisana nemithetho yabo iphikisana nezibophelelo zakhe zokuqala, kwaye ngenxa yoko ngokwayo inkohlakalo, ekufuneka iyenze. lahla kwaye uphephe ngandlela zonke. “Lindelani nithandaze, watsho uJ.C kubo bonke abantwana bakhe, zilindeni, kuba imihla imbi, nemozulu isaqhwithi; bambelela kumanyano lweBandla lam eliNgcwele, soloko uphethe esandleni sakho isibane sokholo esikhanyisiweyo; ongcwele makaphinde azingcwalise; Ilungisa malibe njalo; lowo uhlambulukileyo makahlale ezenza nyulu; umoni oguqukayo makayiphindaphinde inguquko yakhe, kwaye bonke mabazame ukuxolisa umsindo wam kwaye bafanele iziphumo zokhuseleko lwam. Amen.
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Emva kokuba ndinike ingxelo yazo zonke izinto endandizifumene kuDade ngoxa ndandihlala eSaint-Malo, kwanangezinto awayethumele kum ngaphambili, ndimelwe kukuba, ngaphambi kokuba ndithethe ngalowo wandithumayo, ndibuye ndibuye. kumanqaku athile kunye nezilumkiso awayendinike zona ngomlomo ndisekuBudlelwane. Siza kubona ukuba la manqaku kunye nezilumkiso zinento eninzi yokwenza noko sele etshilo malunga noonobangela abahlukeneyo boguquko lwethu, ngakumbi abo abatsalela ekuphambukeni nasekungathembekeni kwelizwe lenkolo.
ICANDELO VII.
Kwi-laxity ebangele ukuchithwa kwemiyalelo yenkolo, kunye nendlela i-JC efuna ngayo ukuba ihlaziywe.
Ndiyahamba ke Bawo ndizokuxelela ngoku, kwaye iseyimbophelelo kum, into eyandehlelayo kwiminyaka engaphezu kwamashumi amabini edlulileyo, malunga nomba ebesijongene nawo mva nje.
UFrancis oNgcwele wase-Assisi uzibonakalisa kuDade, kwaye ukhalaza ngokuyekelela okuthe kwangeniswa kumyalelo wakhe.
Ngenye imini xa ndandindedwa ndiguqe ngamadolo phambi koMthendeleko oNgcwele, ndaphosa amehlo am, ngokungathi ngamabona-ndenzile, kumzobo kabawo wethu uFrancis, osekwayara yethu; ndijonge kuye equbuda phambi komnqamlezo wakhe, ndeva ngaphakathi kum impembelelo enamandla yobukho bobuthixo. Lo mfanekiso wawubonakala uphila kwaye uyaphila kum; kwakubonakala kum ukuba ndingena ngaphakathi emphefumlweni wakhe, kwaye ndiyibona yonke into eyenzekayo apho.
Ndaliva ilizwi lakhe; Andizange ndibone nje ukuba undijongile, kodwa ndaqaphela nokushukuma kwemilebe yakhe nombala wobuso bakhe, ngoxa wayethetha nam.
Intetho yakhe yonke yayijikeleze izibhambathiso, imithetho kunye nemimiselo yomyalelo wakhe , ukudelela kwakhe kunye nolwaphulo-mthetho awayekucekisa kakhulu. Wayebonakala edakumbile yaye edanile , edakumbe yaye ezaliswe yinzondelelo engcwele, eyamtsalayo, ngandlel’ ithile, kubumnene bakhe obuqhelekileyo, yaza yamenza wakhalaza ngokukrakra .
Wathi kum, ngelizwi elipholileyo, akwabakho myalelo wam, nomthetho wam. yam
abantwana baye bemka Kulo moya wokulamba, ukuthobeka kunye
iimbandezelo endazenza isiseko sesakhiwo sam, bafaka umoya wehlabathi, apho iVangeli yabhengeza imfazwe kuyo. Ukubandezeleka kwe-JC kunye nokubethelwa akusekho imodeli abayiphakamisayo: iziseko zihlaselwa, umsebenzi uya kuwa. Ixesha elide ibiyintshabalalo esongelayo, kwaye ndingeniswa ngeyona ntlungu ibukhali...
Maxa wambi wayesebenzisa amagama antsonkothileyo, njengeentlobo zamaqhina okanye imizekeliso, awathi uThixo wandenza ndawaqonda ngakumbi, ngokundikhumbuza amazwi nentsingiselo yezikhalazo zakhe: “Ngokuwulahla umthetho wam, ngokunxamnye nezibhambathiso zabo, wakhala; nivuthulule idyokhwe kaYehova; kodwa baya kwenziwa amakhoboka baze boyikiswe ziintshaba eziya kubabeka idyokhwe
bunzima ngakumbi nangaphezulu... Bawuhlambele umyalelo wam, baya kuhlaziswa;...babemcekisile, bamshiya uThixo, uThixo wabadela, abashiye ebumnyameni beentshaba zabo. baya kubaleka bemkile, ekuthini badane, babe njengabangenamkhokeli, bangenabakhokeli; ekubeni bephikisana kwaye bazitshabalalise ngokwabo, baya kutshatyalaliswa ngokungenasiphoso, njl., njl. »
Hayi indlela endoyika ngayo, Bawo, ukuba konke oku kuya kufezekiswa ngokugqibeleleyo kwiimeko ezingathandekiyo esichukumisa kuzo ! Kodwa uBawo wethu uyaqhubeka:
Ngohlobo oluthile lowexuko, baye basondela kwiingoma nemigaqo yehlabathi, ababesoloko bemele bazikhusele kuyo. Baxelisa ubuyokoyoko nobunewunewu behlabathi kwisinxibo sabo, ekudleni kwabo, nakuzo zonke iindlela zabo; nabo, njengabo, bazinikela emithendelekweni, ukuba bachwayite, maxa wambi babengenazintloni nokuze babonakale bengabantu behlabathi ngaphezu kwabehlabathi, behlazisa abangcwele babo.
Bandishiyile ngenxa kayise, andisabazi ngenxa yoonyana bam; ukuba bathe bahlala behleli, ndoba ngummangaleli wabo phambi koThixo, ndiphindezele impindezelo ngenxa yobugwenxa babo, ndingabi naxhala ngenxa yonqulo lwabo olutsha; . Bakholelwa ukuba babeka abaxhasi babo ngokwenza, kwimithendeleko yabo, ukutya okumnandi ukwenzela abantu behlabathi, kwaye ababoni ukuba oku kukuhlambalaza ubuhlwempu obungcwele bukaJC kunye "nomseki wabo, abafungele ukuyigcina. ukulinganisa nokulandela. »
Nangona ndiqinisekile ukuba esi silumkiso sisuka kuSanta Francis sichaphazela ezinye iinkolo ezininzi kunezo zenkqubo yakhe, kodwa ndiyabona ukuba siye sawela ngqo kubantwana bakhe, ababengakhulelwanga nabo bonke. Ndiza kukuxelela ukuba ndiyoyika ukuzaliseka kwayo nje nakwiCommunity yethu. Ukuba ubusazi Bawo ukuba zingaphi izinto ezichasene nomthetho ezenzeka kwiminyaka elishumi elinesihlanu okanye engamashumi amabini eyadlulayo!...
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Ukusetyenziswa kakubi kwezidlo kwiindawo zonqulo.
Kwakukho izidlo ezityebileyo nezifunwa kakhulu apho ngesihlandlo somsitho wolwamkelo, kwanabo bahlala kwindawo ababehlala kuyo abathi, ukongeza kubudlelwane ababenabo nabantu abasuka ngaphandle, babeka, ngokuchithakala kwabo, imiqobo emininzi yokucamngca kunye nemfezeko yoonongendi. . Amadoda nabafazi abangcwele bomyalelo, ngakumbi iSanta Francis kunye neSanta Clare, babhiyozelwa ngezidlo ezimnandi, apho abantu behlabathi babemenywe kwaye bahlanganisana kwigumbi lakho. Kungekudala, phezu kwawo nje ubuncwane bomhlala-phantsi, le ndlu yazifumanisa inamatyala angamawaka aliqela eeponti, nto leyo eyabangela ukuphazamiseka okukhulu ....
Konke oko, Bawo, kwamcaphukisa kakhulu uThixo; wandiyalela ukuba ndazise umbhodamo ngeli xesha; kwaye ebona ukuba akazange anikele ngqalelo ekumele abe nayo kwizilumkiso zesisa endamnika zona kule ngongoma njengakweminye imithetho, wandixelela ngenye imini ukuba wayeza kukhetha omnye ophakamileyo, oya kubuyisela ucwangco. kwaye wabeka yonke into kwinqanaba elingcono, okwenzeka ngokukhawuleza.
Kwangoko izidlo ezinkulu zanyamalala; iyure yokuvuka nokulala kwabakhweleyo yayilawulwa; utyelelo oluthile aluvumelekanga; intobeko yathatha indawo yokungathobeli, ukuzithoba kunye nobuhlwempu obungcwele yaphumelela yonke into eyanelisayo indalo kwaye isazikhohlisa iinkanuko, ekungasayi kuphinda ziphile. Ke, ngobabalo lukaThixo, izinto kudala zasuka kunyawo olungalunganga ezazikho xa ndandineso sityhilelo okanye olo dliwano-ndlebe notata wethu oNgcwele uFrancis, endibuyela kuyo ngoku.
Imiyalelo yenkolo, umthombo wokulunga okukhulu okanye ububi obukhulu eCaweni.
“Ewe, ntombi yam, uJ.C. undixelele ngale nto, imiyalelo yenkolo inokubangela okulungileyo okanye okubi okukhulu eCaweni nasehlabathini, kuxhomekeke ekubeni bathembekile okanye abathembekanga kwizibhambathiso zabo nakwiimbophelelo zabo. . Akukho sibetho, somoya okanye senyama, ukuba imithandazo yabo emanyeneyo ingenako ukusithintela, ukuba bayiloo nto bafanele ukuba yiyo; kanye njengoko kungekho sibetho, akukho ntlekele, ukuba ukuziphatha kwabo okuhlazisayo kunye nokuphazamiseka akunakutsala, ukuba badikidiki kwaye banoburhalarhume, ngenxa yokuba endaweni yokubamba imiphumo yomsindo wam, 'bacaphukisa kuphela. Hayi ke ntombam ndiyaphinda, akukho nto inokundiphembelela ukuba ndiphindezele bubugwala nokunganyaniseki, nangakumbi ubugebenga bemiphefumlo engcwalisiweyo kum ngezibhambathiso ezindilisekileyo.
zaphazamisa izikumkani namaphondo, yaye ngenxa yoko unqulo, iCawa noRhulumente, yimiphumo yokusilela kwazo. Bamele baluthintele uqhwithela; abazange, ndithini? bona ngokwabo bachulumancisa bayibumba, baya kuba ngamaxhoba okuqala....
Ke, Bawo, uthando lwenene lukaBawo wethu oLungileyo uFrancis lwafikelela kum, owayeludinga ngaphezu kwakhe nabani na; Wandingcikiva kabukhali ngenxa yokungathembeki kwam, nokungabi nambulelo kwam kuThixo: “Khumbula, ntombi yam,” watsho kum ngenzondelelo, “ukuba unetyala kuye ngaphezu kwakhe nabani na ngenxa yothando olukhulu awakuthwala ngalo. Ukuthululele ngeentsikelelo zomqondiso, ubabalo olungaqhelekanga, ukuxhatshazwa okufuneka uyoyike, kuba uya kukubuza ngengxelo enzima neyoyikekayo kubo, ukuba awuthembekanga kakhulu kubo. »
Wandicebisa, phakathi kwezinye izinto, intobeko emfamekileyo kwintando kaThixo kuyo yonke into awayeya kuyenza kum kwaye wayesele endazise ngozuko lwakhe nosindiso lwemiphefumlo, nokuzithoba okukhulu kwi-abiss yam nakubaphathi bam. , ngokukodwa kumphathi, ekwakufuneka ndimxelele yonke into eyenzekayo kum. Wandinika ufifi lwezilingo nezilingo endandiza kujamelana nazo uMtyholi kwizinto ezininzi, ngokuphathelele isazela sam neembopheleleko zam; wandilumkisa ngempatho-gadalala eyayiqhubeka kwindawo endihlala kuyo, kwaye ngaphezu kwako konke ngokuchasene neziphoso kunye nobuthathaka bam; undiyalele ukuba ndazise ngempathombi kumphathi wam nakuMgr. ubhishophu waseRennes; into endiyenzileyo ngexesha (1)
Ewe, Bawo, ukholo kwilizwi likaThixo nakwizigqibo zeCawa yakhe, intobelo emfamekileyo nentlonelo kubaphathi becawa kufuneka yoyise kuyo yonke into. Ngokuphathelele oku, ndiza kukuxelela into eyenzekayo kum kwiminyaka embalwa edlulileyo.
Ngomnye uLwesine xa sasilungiselwe ukulungiswa kuMthendeleko oSikelelweyo, umfundisi owayephethe lo msitho weza, njengesiqhelo, iHoly Ciborium kwisiporo somthendeleko, waza wathetha nathi. Ebudeni balo lonke ixesha esahlala ngalo isibongozo sakhe nesaseleyo, ndabona umntwana omhle engqongwe kukukhanya okuthambileyo; kum wayebonakala ngathi uhleli kwi-Holy Ciborium. Wayephethe umnqamlezo esandleni sakhe
Oonongendi ababenolwazi oluphangaleleyo, nomphathi ngokwakhe, bandenza ndaqonda ukuba uDade Wokuzalwa KukaYesu wayezise iinguqulelo ezininzi ekuhlaleni .
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owathi umzantsi weenyawo wehla waya ezinyaweni zakhe, umphezulu unyuke waya entloko; kwelinye icala wayebasikelela oonongendi ababeze ngokutshintshana bezokulungisa nokumnqula. Kodwa Bawo eyonanto yayindivisa kabuhlungu kukubona iinyembezi zisehla emehlweni akhe. Emva kokuba ndibuyele kum, ukuba ndigxothe ngokholo nayiphi na inkohliso yomtyholi okanye intelekelelo yam, ndaye ndaba nobuganga bokumbuza isizathu sokubonakala kwakhe kunye neentlungu zakhe. Akwazi na, Thixo wam! ukuba ndiyabukholelwa ngokuqinisekileyo ubukho bakho bokwenyani kulo Mthendeleko uthandekayo? “Ndiyazi,” uphendule watsho; kodwa ndiziva ndinobuntununtunu
ukuba ndithabathe uzuko lwam kuyo, nangenxa yokuswela kwemiphefumlo. »
Wandula ke waba buhlungu ngakumbi, waza waqalisa ukulililela uluntu olubi, ngoxa wayebadumisa abalungileyo. Ndathuthuzeleka xa ndimbona ejonge ngolwaneliseko kumsitho wosuku noonongendi ababewenza. Ukhale kakhulu ngeendawo ezithile zamakhosikazi, ingakumbi lawo angamadoda, athe aphulukene nomkhwa nangaphandle kwelizwe lawo. Wayebatyhola ngokuzaphula izibhambathiso zabo ngomoya wempahla nowokuziphatha wehlabathi, nangokubahlazisa ngokuziphatha okungalungelelananga abo babemelwe kukubona ukubakha kuphela, ngokwahlukileyo kubomi obungcwele.
I-JC ifuna ukuba imiyalelo yenkolo ihlaziywe ngabefundisi bokuqala beCawa yakhe, kwaye ixhomekeke kulawulo lombhishophu.
Kodwa wongeza, kwaye kulapha, Bawo, ingongoma endiyalela ukuba uyibhale, ukuze iBandla lakhe libe nokwaziswa kwaye lenze ngokufanelekileyo; uthi oyena mthombo wamashwa abahlali abathile ibikukurhoxa kulawulo lwabefundisi bokuqala, bekhokelwa ziinkokeli zemibutho yazo eyahlukileyo, ebezidla ngokungabi naluphako nabunzima kwezi zinto. , apho ngamanye amaxesha babenesidingo esingakumbi kunabo bangaphantsi kwabo, babe ngabokuqala ukunika umzekelo wokuphulwa komthetho ababefanele ukuwugcina; kungoko ububi obunjani! kunye nendlela yokunyanga umzimba olindele ukuphiliswa kwawo kuphela kwinkokeli eyosulelekileyo kunawo? Oku kuthiwa ukukhululwa ubuncinane, ubukhulu becala, kwakhona ngokuchaseneyo kubo bonke
imidla njengoko injalo kuwo onke amalungelo. Luhlobo oluthile lowexuko, oluye lwakhokelela kwabanye abaninzi ngendlela engaqondakaliyo.
Ukusukela ekukreqeni kwezibhambathiso zenkolo sidlulele kwezo zenkolo ngokwayo, kwaye sihambe sade salucekisa ukholo, ngokudelela abo balugcinileyo; kananjalo, wongezelela wathi, Yabonani, baphi na aba bangakholwayo namhlanje, nendlela enzonzobila ebakhokelela ngayo kwenye! Ndandizityale eCaweni yam ukuze zibe lulwakhiwo, umhombiso nenkxaso yayo; babefanele babe njengeengonyama zokuyikhusela, babe njengengwe ukuyikrazula nokuyicinezela ngehlazo lobomi babo nokukreqa kwabo.
“Bhala, utsho uJC kum, bhala konke oku kubefundisi bam bokuqala; baxelele ukuba ndifuna ukuba isidiliya sam sithenwe, silinywe ngokulungileyo; ukuba bayayigawula , bayitshabalalise yonke into ewonakalisayo, bawonakalise umthetho endawumisa apho, ukuba ndiyityale; kodwa ngelixa bethena lo mdiliya bayakhumbula ukuba bangancothuli nantoni na. Kuyintando yam ukuba imeko yonqulo ihlale; kodwa ndifuna uhlaziyo, nocwangco olungcono eluntwini. Ukukhululwa okuninzi, ukuba kunokwenzeka; kodwa yonke into mayibe phantsi kolawulo olukhawulezileyo lukabhishophu wedayosisi nganye, kuba ubhishophu ngamnye unoxanduva buqu ngomhlambi wakhe, ekufuneka andiphendule ngawo ngenye imini. »
Nantsi ke, Bawo, into endicinga ukuba ndiyivile: ukuba kukho into ebonakala iyingozi kwezinye izinto ezifunyenweyo, ezisebenzisekayo nezihloniphekileyo, kuxhomekeke kwiCawa ukuba ithathe isigqibo, njengoko kuxhomekeke kulo ukuba liziphathe ngokwemithetho yalo. kuyo yonke into ephathelele kumoya okukuwo kuphela ukwazi nokugweba...
Ngako oko ke kubafundisi bokuqala kufuneka sifune ngokukhethekileyo ukulawula uluntu lwezenkolo; njengoko injalo kubo ukuba ubani afune indlela yokulungisa iingongoma zemfundiso, isimilo, uqeqesho, kwanokwazi intsingiselo yokwenene yezibhalo; kwaye isizathu soko kukuba ngabo. I-JC yamisela oku; ngabo athe wabamisela iintloko kurhulumente weBandla lakhe; kubo ke ukuba usibuyisele emva ukuze sikhokelwe kwindlela yosindiso; wayesithi kubo: “Lowo univayo, uva mna; Lowo ukuzukisayo uyandizukisa; lowo unigibayo nina, ugiba mna, ogiba owandithumayo. »
Ezinjani zona izizathu zentlonelo nentembelo kwizigqibo, emntwini nakwigunya laba bafundisi bokuqala! Ngaba kungathatha ngaphezulu ukusikhokelela ekuthobeleni ngokumfamekileyo yonke into iCawe esiyalela yona ngemilomo yabo? Kodwa kwakhona, Bawo, leliphi ibhongo elinganyamezelekiyo, yintoni
imvukelo eyoyikekayo kumntu kunye negunya lika-JC ngokwakhe, abanatyala bonke abo badelela kuphela imithetho yeCawa yakhe, umntu kunye nobuntu babameli bayo bokuqala? Ngaba ayicacanga into yokuba indelelo okanye ukungakhathali kwabo kuwela kumntu othandekayo
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abamele wona, yaye ngubani na ongayi kusilela ukurhola kuyo, njengoko ethembisile, impindezelo ayityala abantu bakhe, nayityala lakhe kuye ngokwakhe?
Ukuthobela kunye nobuhlwempu, iingongoma ezisisiseko zokufezeka konqulo.
Ukuqala kwakhona isifundo sethu kunye nodliwano-ndlebe lokuqala, uFrancis oNgcwele ke undazise ukuba intobeko kunye nesidima esingcwele sentlupheko yayingamanqaku amabini asisiseko kulawulo lwakhe, ezona wayenazo entliziyweni, kwaye wayezoyika kakhulu. ukwaphulwa kwemithetho yayo yonqulo, ngenxa yemiphumo emibi enokuba nayo kulo lonke ucwangco. “Wathi lowo uzigcinayo ezi ngongoma zimbini, uyazigcina zonke ezinye, ngenxa yokuba zonke zibaliwe kuzo; kodwa kwakhona, nabani na ophumla kwezi ngongoma zimbini, uyaphumla kuzo zonke ezinye, kwaye kufuneka alindele ezona ziphumo zibi zokuphumla kwakhe kuye nakwabanye abaninzi. Yintoni angayinikiyo umtyholi nakwindalo, xa kanye ethe watshabalalisa ezi mida zimbini zokuthobeka kobuKristu nenkolo?
!.,. Kungoko ke zathi zavulelwa kuye zonke iinkanuko; ziya kukhukula njengomsinga ogqabhuza imijelo yawo. Uba ngumdlalo walo, ngenxa yokuba, ukuze amohlwaye, uThixo umlahlela kwingqiqo yakhe engafanelekanga. Ngokuqhubekayo uwela ekuthinjweni komgwebo wakhe nowokuthanda kwakhe; Uba likhoboka elibi lezenzo ezikhohlakeleyo, izithethe kunye nokungcamla okonakeleyo, awayezilahlile, aze nangona kunjalo angabi nazintloni ukuzithoba kwakhona, ngokulahla iingenelo nenkululeko ezukileyo abayinandiphayo abantwana bakaThixo esifubeni. yonqulo.
Izibhambathiso zokuthobela kunye nentlupheko, ngokutshabalalisa ukuya kwingcambu yekratshi kunye nokunamathela kwimpahla yomhlaba, ukuthintela konke ukuhaha, ukubhukuqa yonke imiqobo, kwaye umise iziseko zemfezeko
amabhodlo azo zonke izenzo ezingendawo nakwimfanekiselo umKristu ngamnye amele abe nayo nomzekelo wobuthixo wabo bamiselwe kwangaphambili; ukufana okuthi, ngokusebenzisa iimpawu ze-claustral, kugqibelele njengoko kunokubakho kwisidalwa; kuba olu thando lwentobeko nentlupheko, esibhambathiso kuye uThixo, lungazibetheleli kangakanani na emphefumlweni zonke izidima ezingenakuhlukaniswa kuzo! Luthando olu, ukukhulula intliziyo ekuthandeni izinto ezinengqiqo, ukuhlambulula iinjongo zayo kunye nokuqondisa zonke iintshukumo zayo eziya ezulwini, zijongela phantsi kwaye ngokuthe ngcembe zitshabalalise zonke iingqikelelo kunye neminqweno yomntu wasemhlabeni. Ngokungathandabuzekiyo ububele, umonde, uthando, ukuthobeka kweJC kuthatha indawo yeempazamo zomntu; lonke uthando lomntu, yonke imvakalelo yendalo iyaguqulwa ize ithabatheke luthando olulodwa lukaThixo: umntu akasaphili ubomi bakhe; kodwa nguJC ohlala kuye: ke bubomi bobuthixo....
Ngubani onokunqanda umphefumlo ozinikele kuThixo ngesifungo sokuthobela nokulamba? Ngubani osenokumnqanda kumsebenzi wokufezekiswa kwevangeli? Luluphi uqwalaselo, sisiphi isikhundla esinokumenzakalisa , xa ephosa amehlo akhe kwiimeko ezahlukeneyo zobomi bomzekelo wakhe omkhulu, ukususela ekuzalweni kwakhe kuse ekufeni kwakhe ? Uyibona nje
Ngokuthi krwaqu, kunye nenjongo amcebisa yona, kunye nendlela ayilandele ukuze afike apho emva kwakhe. Liliphi idini asenokuqhubeka naloyika emva kwabo wamenzela lona nabo yena ngokwakhe wamenzela kona, elahla intando yakhe nako konke oko kuthomalalisa indalo, ukuze alungelelane noThixo wakhe? . . .
Izikhalazo zeJC malunga noluntu olubi.
Akukho kuqwalaselwa kwakhona, wathi, ixhoba immolated ngumnqweno wam; ngaphezu koko, imele iqwengwe ize itshiswe ngumlilo wothando. Kwesi sigqibo singcwele, uxhobe ngesisa ngekrele lokungcungcuthekisa kunye nokungena; uyazikhuthaza ukuba amkele ngenzondelelo yonke iminqamlezo ekhoyo, elandela umzekelo wenkosi yakhe yobuthixo; ufikelela ekuzinqweneleni nasekuzifuneni ngolangazelelo, ukusa kwinqanaba lokufumana uyolo olungathethekiyo ekuthotyweni nasekubandezelekeni; ngenxa yokuba uzigqala njengenxalenye yomnqamlezo ka-J .
Ngaloo ndlela, ngokuphikisana, ngokulwa, ngokutshabalalisa rhoqo utyekelo kunye notyekelo lwendalo ekhohlakeleyo, ummisi-mthetho ongokobuthixo uyayazi indlela yokubuyekeza abo bangabakhe ngenxa yokuhluthwa nokulahlwa .
awakwenzayo kuye, ukuba enze ngokobunzima bonke bomyalelo wakhe. Kwenzeka njani ukuba, emva koko, umntu angakuthandi ukuthotywa nokubandezeleka?
Indlela yokungakhethi ukuqina okungcwele kweVangeli kuyo yonke into, xa kukho umdla ongaka ekuzifuneni?
Kanti ke, Nkosi yam! baphi abalandeli bakho? Thixo, ababandezeli, baphi na, abaxelisa wena, kweli hlabathi lilawulwa ziingqondo neenkanuko, nabakhonzi bezithixo, abo banigwebayo? Ihlabathi eloyikeka kuphela ngumnqamlezo wakho, nelingalazi ilishwa lidlula ukufana noThixo elimnqulayo okanye umnquli wakhe elisabanga ukuba linguye?...
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UFrancis oNgcwele, uxelisa uJC
Kulapha, Bawo, ukuba ndibuyele kumseki wethu ongcwele, ukuze ndifumane lo mfundi wenene, lo mlinganisi wokwenene we-JC, uhluphekile, ubandezeleka, kwaye uhlazekile. Wamlandela inyathelo ngenyathelo kubuhlwempu bakhe, ekuthotyweni kwakhe nasekubandezelekeni kwakhe; wamkopa ngokwakhe, waba njengaye, kangangoko, ubuncinane, njengokuba umntu osulungekileyo unokufana nomntu onguthixo. Wazibandakanya ngokuzithandela kwakhe emnqamlezweni; nangokufela ukholo ngokuzithandela nangokuqhubekayo kobu kubandezeleka nobomi obubethelelweyo, uye waba lelinye lawona maxhoba mahle othando lothixo ofayo. Onjani wona umzekelo kubantwana bakhe! onjani wona umzekelo kubo bonke abathembekileyo !....
Kude nokuba ahlazeke ngenxa yentlupheko yomnqamlezo negama lenkosi yakhe yobuThixo, waqhayisa ngayo njengompostile; njengela qhawe laseKalvari, wavuya kwiimbandezelo nakwiimbandezelo zakhe. Wakulambela waza wanxanelwa wona: wafuna ngenzondelelo engakumbi kunokuba abantu behlabathi babefuna ukwaneliseka kwabo, zonke izihlandlo ezazinokwanelisa umnqweno wakhe wokubandezeleka ngenxa yothando lukaThixo wakhe; kwaye yile nzondelelo yeserafi eyavelisa imfihlelo enkulu, eyaziwa ngabantu abambalwa kakhulu kuphela, ndithetha ukuhambelana okungaqondakali ngokupheleleyo okwafunyanwa phakathi komntu walo ngcwele mkhulu kunye nomntu kaJC ngokwakhe; ukuthobela,
kungabi ngengqondo nentliziyo yodwa, kusuke kwabonakala nakumzimba wobu bungcwele bamandla, ngebala elingcwele, elikroliweyo uthando.
kwiimpawu zegazi, ukumela ngokwemvelo, ngokusemandleni, amanxeba angcwele ka-JC ngokwakhe ... Yintoni enokuba yinto enkulu kwaye izuke ngakumbi kunobu bufana obusondeleyo bomntu kunye noMsindisi wakhe noThixo wakhe!. ..
U-JC wayethanda ukubandezeleka, ukuthobela, ubuhlwempu, ukuthobeka, uFrancis oNgcwele wabelana nabo; waye, njengoko sesitshilo, wayethobekile, ebandezeleka, elihlwempu, ethobela njengaye. I-JC yayingenanto ehlabathini, apho yayingenayo indawo yokubeka intloko; wayecinga kuphela ngozuko lukayise nosindiso lwemiphefumlo awayeze ukuyikhulula. Yayingulo mnqweno mnye owathi, emva kokumhluba konke, wamkhonkxa eze emnqamlezweni.
Elandela umzekelo wakhe, uFrancis oNgcwele akavumi nje ukuba alahlwe kwi-JC, kodwa ude awushiye umkhwa agqunywe ngawo, awubuyisele kulowo wayewufumene kuye, ekhutshelwe ukuba angabi nayise kuphela ezulwini. ; emva koko ubaleka ukuya kuziphosa ezinyaweni zikabhishophu wakhe ongcwele, owamamkela ezingalweni zakhe aze amcinezele ngesisa esifubeni sakhe: umfuziselo womanyano awathi wenza isivumelwano nalo .
JC, indawo yakhe ibibanjwe ngulo bhishophu olungileyo, ngalo mzuzu ngakumbi.
Okokugqibela, Bawo, ndikuxelele ntoni? Kwalo moya mnye wokuhluba kunye nokubandezeleka, owawubethelele umzimba wenkosi ehamba ze emnqamlezweni, watywina emzimbeni womfundi iimpawu eziphilayo zamanxeba awayehlatywe ngawo; kwaye njengoko uJC wabuthwala wabuse encotsheni yeZulu ubungqina obunegazi bothando lwakhe ngathi, ngoko uSaint Francis uya kuhlala ethwele ibala lamanxeba akhe amnandi, njengobungqina obunegazi bothando lwakhe kwiimbandezelo zikaJ . ubukhulu be
ihlabathi; kodwa hayi indlela ekuzuke ngayo ukufana nomntu woNyana kaThixo!
Ngaba sinokufana naye ngokugqibeleleyo kunobawo wethu oNgcwele uFrancis?
Ndiyazi, Bawo, ukuba akunikwanga wonke umntu ukufikelela kwelinqanaba lengqibelelo; kodwa akuyonyaniso nakancinane ukuba akukho bani unokuthemba usindiso ngaphandle kokudlula kwindlela yokuthotywa neembandezelo; ngaphandle kwenguquko, ukuhlanjululwa kweemvakalelo, ukuzincama kunye nemilinganiselo yehlabathi, esibhambathise ngayo kwifonti yongcwele.
ubhaptizo, ngelizwi, ngaphandle koku kuhambelana nomfuziselo wobuthixo esawuthabatha apho njengentloko yethu nesabelo sethu; ukuhambelana nosindiso oluncanyathiselwe ngokungenakuguqulwa.
Mabayive abantu behlabathi abadlamkileyo ngoku njengoko bethanda, baze bazame, ukuba banako, ukuyamkela iVangeli ngokwentando yabo neminqweno yabo; nokuba bazicenge, ukuba bayathanda, ukuba uThixo umele avisisanise noluvo lwabo olungqongqo, nokuba indlela yabo yokuthabatha izinto imele ibe lulawulo lwemigwebo yakhe; ukuba bazenzele, ukuya ezulwini, indlela
entsha neyolisayo, phezu kwazo nje izihlabo zeVangeli; phezu kwako nje ukuhlala kwabo konke nokuthantamisa kwabo konke abakuzisa emthethweni, ndothi kubo: Bubuxoki! yonke loo nkohliso! Hayi! Hayi! ayisiyiyo njengoko ucinga; ukoyiswa kwezulu akuzange kube luyolo okanye ukonwabisa; akazange abanjwe ngaphandle kogonyamelo; indlela yayisoloko ingumnqantsa yaye inzima: amagwala ayengenakuhamba apho, yaye kuya kuhlala kuyinyaniso ukuthi umntu akanakuze afike apho ngaphandle kwendlela emxinwa yezohlwayo nomnqamlezo, nangokulandela umkhondo wokopha kuthixo obethelelwe emnqamlezweni . ..
Ndilinde ixesha elide kakhulu, bethu
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Bawo, ukuba ndithethe nawe ngale ncoko notata wethu oNgcwele uFrancis, kwaye mhlawumbi ngendingazange ndenze njalo, ukuba bekungengenxa yento eyenzeka kum kutshanje kwindawo enye. Kwiintsuku ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo, ndisaphosa amehlo am, ngaphandle koyilo, kumfanekiso ofanayo, ndaziva ndibethelwa ngaphakathi; kwaye ndiyabulela kukukhanya kobuthixo okwandikhanyiselayo, umoya weNkosi wandikhumbuza ngako konke okwakumelwe kum kwixesha elidlulileyo ngalo mfanekiso mnye, ngomyalelo wokuba ubhalwe phantsi....
Asiyomeko yodwa ebomini bam apho uThixo andiyalele ngolu hlobo, ndithetha ngemizobo epeyintiweyo okanye eqingiweyo.
Uthando oluvuthayo lweJC kwimiphefumlo yethu. Wazincama ngokupheleleyo ngenxa yabo.
Ngenye imini, phakathi kwezinye izinto, ndaguqa ukuze ndinqule uMthendeleko oSikelelweyo ngokusebenzisa igrile encinane ekwikwayala. Iindidi zezivalo, njengoko usazi, zisebenza ukuvala le grille ngaphakathi, bezivulwe macala omabini. Usenokuba uqaphele, ngelixa udlula kule ndawo, umfanekiso wephepha onemitha ubude unamathele kwelinye icala lesivalo. Imele umnqamlezo ojikelezwe ziintyatyambo kunye neendinyana ezivela kwiZibhalo eziNgcwele, ezinxulumene nenkanuko. Lo mfanekiso Bawo mandikuxelele ukuba ndim owubeke apho. Yiyo yonke into ebendize nayo emhlabeni xa ndiwushiya. Yandixabisa iidola ezintathu, ngokwexabiso lemini yam entsimini; ndomelela ke.
inamathele kumfanekiso wam, endandisoloko ndithandaza phambi kwawo. Ekungeneni koluntu, ndayincamathela kule ndawo sele ndiyikhankanyile, ukuze ndibe nolonwabo lokumane ndiyikrwaqula ndidlule; nto leyo eyayisandikhumbuza kwaye isoloko indenza ndizive ngcono ulonwabo lwam lokuba ngunongendi. (1).
(1) Umfanekiso ekuthethwa ngawo wawukwidrowa yegunjana lam xa kwakufuneka ndihambe. Andazi tu ukuba kwenzeke ntoni ngaye.
Nantsi ke, Bawo, nantsi into eyandehlelayo phambi komfanekiso wam wakudala: Ndathetha noThixo okhoyo kwiSakramente eliNgcwele, apho ukholo lwam lwalumnqula; kodwa, ngomzuzu othile xa ndandijonge into enengqondo, kwabonakala kum ukuba, ngophawu oluthile, ndandithetha kancinane nomfanekiso lowo ukubona kwawo kwabangela oko ndandikucinga. Ngoko ndathi kuThixo phambi komfanekiso: Thixo wam! Ndisebenze imini yonke ukuze ndibe nani ngokubila kwebunzi lam
undibize ngexabiso losuku.....
Lo mthandazo, okanye ukumelwa, okuhlekisayo njengoko kwakunjalo ngokwawo, kwavelisa impendulo endingayi kuze ndiyilibale, ininzi iqulethe intsingiselo, amandla kunye nenyaniso: kubonakala kum ukuba i-JC ivumele olu hlobo lokugqithisa kum, ngokucacileyo ukuthatha indawo yokundinika isifundo sobona bulumko buphakamileyo, ngokundenza olona ngcikivo luchukumisayo; kuba uyakwazi ukusetyenzwa ngazo zonke izinto, kwanezinye izinto ezingenamsebenzi, ukuze andifundise nokulungelwa kwam. UThixo makakuphe ukuba kube yingenelo nakwabanye abaninzi, njengoko ndinethemba !....
Kunqabile ukuba ndithethe la mazwi kum, okanye mhlawumbi ngomlomo wam; endaliva liphuma kuMthendeleko oNgcwele, okanye emfanekisweni, ilizwi elahluke gqitha elathi labethelela ngokucacileyo iindlebe zokuqonda, ukuba alizange libethe elo mzimba, endingenako ukulingqina . Kwaye mna, wethu
ntombi, ndisebenze iminyaka engaphezu kwamashumi amathathu ukuze ndisindise umphefumlo wakho; Ndibila igazi namanzi apho, yaye andizange ndiphephe nantoni na ukuze ndoyise. Emva kokubandezeleka ubomi bonke, ndafa ukuze ndikukhulule esihogweni, kwaye andilindelanga ukuba ndenze oko ngexabiso elikhulu kakhulu. Hayi, ntombi yam, awundihlawuli kakhulu, ukuba nje usebenzisa ithuba lokukhulula kwakho. Yintoni endingenakuyenza ukuze ndikufumanele yona ngokukuqinisekisa ngolonwabo endikuzuzele lona ngegazi lam elichithekileyo? Kwaye ndikholelwe, ntombi yam, xa ubuya kuphila, xa uya kusebenza izigidi zeminyaka, ubomi bakho bonke abuyi kwanela ukuqaphela enye yenceba yam; neminye imisebenzi emihle enathi ngenye imini nayenza emhlabeni ukuba nisenokuthi izulu liya kuninikwa ngelize; oko kukuthi, hayi wena
ukwenza ukufaneleka, uwedwa . Yonke into enokwenziwa ngumntu onesidima apha-
ophantsi akanakuthwala umlinganiselo womncinane wemivuzo emlindileyo.
Umele ucinge kakuhle, Bawo, ukuba emva kwempendulo enje, ndimelwe kukuba ndibe neentloni kwaye ndihlazekile ukuba ndikwazile ukuthabatha ixabiso lemini njengento ethile, kunye nomfanekiso wam wee-sous ezintathu njengedini elikhulu uThixo andityala lona. yiba nombulelo; ukanti ukulungele ukuyenza, nokusivuza okungaphantsi. obunjani ububele! hayi ukuzithoba kwakhe!
Ngaloo ndlela, uBawo wam, ngesihlandlo salo mfanekiso, i-JC yandenza ukuba ndenze izibonakaliso ezibaluleke kakhulu, kwaye ndabhala ngokunzulu emphefumlweni wam ezo ngcamango zingcwele awayendinike zona ngaphezu kwesinye. Yonke le nto ndiyivileyo ibingathi akuthethwa ngendlela yokungcikiva, koko ibithethwa
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ngendlela yemiyalelo. Andiqaphelanga ntshukumo kumfanekiso; kuba andifuni kuqhubela phambili nantoni na endingaqinisekanga ngayo: yonke into yenzeka njengoko benditshilo .
Ukukhanya okungaqhelekanga kokholo okwamkhanyisela uDade kwimibono yakhe kunye nembonakalo yangaphakathi awayethandwa ngayo.
Kusenento encinane endiya kuyithetha kuwe, Bawo, ngemibono nangezinto ezingaphakathi, endazixelayo kuwe, awathi uThixo wandibona kwasebuncinaneni bam. Ndikhumbula kakuhle ukuba xa ndandisengumntwana, ndamangaliswa ukuya kwinqanaba lokugqibela, xa oku kukhanya okungaqhelekanga kwabetha ingqondo yam ngokukhawuleza, intliziyo yam okanye ukuqonda kwam. Ngaphandle kobundlobongela yazibethelela emphefumlweni. Ndahlala ndicinga, ndimangalisiwe, kwaye ecaleni kwam, ndingasebenzisi phantse ingqondo yam, ndisebenza, ukuze ndithethe, kuphela ngomatshini kuyo yonke imithambo eqhelekileyo: eyenzeka kum ikhulu elinamakhulu amaxesha ukusukela, kwaye ngesizathu esifanayo . .
Iimbono zam zakhula njengoko ndandikhula, kwaye ngokungaqondanga ndafunda ukuqiqa naye, ngeengcinga awayendinika zona.
wacebisa. Wazazisa ke ngoko kum ngolwimi oluthile olumfaneleyo, nolungenako ukuluxelisa kakuhle ulwimi lwabantu, njengoko ndinicacisele kwenye indawo ngobude ....
Ke ngoko undenze ndiqonde ukuba ulukhanyiso oluvela kuThixo olukhanya ebumnyameni, kwaye ubumnyama abunakuqondwa; okanye ukuba uthanda ngcono, wathi, Ndisisibane sokholo. Abandilandelayo abahambi ebumnyameni; ke bona bangabantwana bokukhanya, kanti abo bawavalayo amehlo abo emithanjeni yam baya kuhlala ebumnyameni , bawe enzonzobileni .
Ndandisazi ukuba oku kukhanya kwakuphuma kundoqo wobuthixo, nokuba isidima sako savelisa emiphefumlweni ukholo olungagungqiyo kwezona zilingo ziqatha nakwiingozi ezicacileyo; ukuba intuthumbo okanye ukufa akunako ukushukumisa umphefumlo wesi sitampu, xa ingumbandela wokuxhasa inyaniso yobuKristu nonqulo lwamaKatolika, ngokufutshane konke oko iCawa ikucebisayo kukholo lwabathembekileyo. . . .
Kude nokufuna ulamlo lweemvakalelo, olu luvo, ukuze sive, lufuna ukuba sikugatye ukusetyenziswa kwalo, kuba kulapho umtyholi abeka khona imigibe yakhe, alahle isithiyelo sakhe neenkohliso zakhe; rhoqo, ngenxa yokuba iimvakalelo zithandeka ngakumbi kuyo; kanti ukusebenza kukaThixo nobabalo lwakhe akunangqiqo ngokuqhelekileyo ngaphandle kokukhanya kweFaith Charity .
silawulwa kwaye siqhutywa lukholo; yaye ukholo, nayo yonke imisebenzi elungileyo, ifumana ixabiso layo eluthandweni . Ziphonononge zonke ezi zinto phambi koThixo, wethu
Bawo, ukubona ukuba kuyakubakho nantoni na echasene nemfundiso yeBandla. Qhagamshelana nokuba uyafuna, ngaphandle kokuba bangabantu abathembekileyo nabafunde kakuhle ; kuba kuya kubakho ukhetho oluya kwenziwa. Ndishiya yonke into ekulumkeni kwakho, kwaye, ngayo yonke intlonipho enokwenzeka, kwiintliziyo ezingcwele zikaYesu noMariya, njl.
ICANDELO VIII.
Imfihlo yokuba i-JC ifuna ukuba siyiqwalasele ngokumalunga nalo msebenzi, de kube lixesha apho kufuneka lipapashwe kwaye livelise iziqhamo ezinkulu zosindiso.
Amanqaku sele ethathiwe kangangeentsuku ezisibhozo okanye ezilishumi, kwaye bendixakekile kwisicwangciso sokubhala kwam, xa uDade woMzalo wabhengeza kuAbbess ukuba wayesenento ekhethekileyo yokunxibelelana nam, kwaye, ngemvume yomphathi wakhe. , wandicela.
Wathi kum: “Ndimelwe kukuxelela, oko uThixo wandazisayo kwakudala nje, kwangexesha elifutshane, osigcinayo esi: eli cebo linokukuchaphazela ngokuthe ngqo ngaphezu kwakhe nabani na; ngoko ke ndinomyalelo wokuba ndiyithumele kuni. Nantsi ke, Bawo, nantsi into ekuyiyo: Kwiintsuku ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo umama wethu wandibuza imibuzo ethile enxulumene namanqaku awayaziyo endikunike yona kwiimeko zangoku.
Ebengathanda ukwazi ukuba uThixo ebengandibonisanga nto ikhethekileyo ngekamva leCawe neloluntu lwethu. Ndazingcikiva, ngandlel’ ithile, kuba ndithe cwaka kakhulu kuyo yonke le nto, ngakumbi kuba ndiyakholelwa ukuba akanakukwazi ukusebenzisa kakubi intembeko...
Ukungakhathali kukaSista.
Ngoko ndaya kude ndivume kuye ukuba uJC undenze ndaqonda ukuba usathana wangena kwindlu yesikhungu ukuze atshutshise iBandla ...; ukuba undibonise inkolo kunye nemiphakathi phantsi komfanekiselo womdiliya oya kugawulwa kwaye unikelwe ukuba uphangwe, kwaye ngokungathi unyathelwe phantsi kweenyawo zabadlulayo ... andizange ndichaze ngokubhekele phaya ; kodwa, maye!... kwakusele kuthethwe kakhulu, ekubeni ndithethe ngokuchasene nentando yobuthixo, nto leyo eyazenza yazivelela ezinzulwini zomphefumlo wam ngokuphazanyiswa okuthile okwandenza ndoyike ukuba ndimonile uThixo. Wenze ntoni apho, sakhala isazela sam ? Ngaba yile nto ubunayo
uthenjisiwe? kwaye kwangoko inkumbulo
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yathathwa kum, ngaphandle kokuba ndikwazi ukuthetha ngakumbi, xa ndifuna. Ndaye ndaneliseka kukuncoma ukuthula kumama wethu, ndingakhange ndimnike nentetha yokubhideka kwam, nangona kunjalo yandikhathaza kakhulu imini yonke. Ekugqibeleni, kwangobo busuku, ndiguqe phantsi ezinyaweni zomnqamlezo ukuze ndicele uxolo ngenxa yokungaqondi kwam, nanku, Bawo, ngumyalelo.
ukuba iJC yandinika loo nto, ingasebenzisi amagama, kodwa indlela endiyichaze ngayo.
U-JC uyamncoma imfihlo enkulu kude kube lixesha apho oko akwenzayo kuye kufuneka kupapashwe. Iziphumo kunye neziqhamo zolu papasho.
Wathi kum, “Khumbula ukuba kwiminyaka engaphezu kwamashumi amabini eyadlulayo ndakhuthaza ukuba ubeke idiphozithi endimele ndikuvimbe ukuba uyazi kamva. Ngoku, le diphozithi endithethe ngayo kakhulu kuwe, ayikho enye into ngaphandle kwemfihlelo engenakutshitshiswa apho umbhalo kufuneka uvalelwe kwaye ugcinwe phantsi kwetywina, kude kube lixesha apho kufuneka kuphume kwaye kubonakale esidlangalaleni. »
UThixo wandenza ndabona, nangona ngandlel’ ithile ndabhideka, ukuba lo msebenzi mncinane, ungowakhe, umele ukuba ngenye imini wamkelwe zizizwe ezingaphezulu kwesinye nobukumkani obungaphezu kobunye; ukuba alandele isibane sokholo kude kube sekupheleni, kunye nabo baya kuhamba ekukhanyeni kwayo, ngaphandle kokukwazi kwam ukubona apho kufuneka ayeke khona. Iya kufundwa kude kube yinkulungwane yokugqibela yehlabathi kwaye kude kube lixesha lokugqibela lecawa yeJC
Ingakumbi ke ngoku, Bawo, anokuthi ngomprofeti (1), kwizizukulwana zokugqibela, abantwana namaxhego baya kuba namaphupha antsonkothileyo nangokwesiprofeto, yaye uThixo uya kubangela ulutsha ukuba luprofete nabadala; ukulwa nabaprofeti bobuxoki bomchasi- Kristu ndingatsho, ngo
ingqiqo, yokuba ndiyinto yonke, uBawo; Ndimdala njengoko ndimdala, ndimncinci kwiinkalo ezininzi, kwaye ndinokuthi, ngaphezu kwenqaku elinye, ndinoko konke ukungazi kunye nokulula komntwana. Ukuba, ke ngoko, kuyinyani ukuba sichukumisa iinkulungwane zokugqibela zeBandla, ukuzaliseka kwesiprofeto kuwo wonke ubungakanani baso kunokufunyanwa kum ndedwa. Sibuyele kwinjongo zethu....
Yoweli.
Ixesha esinokwenza ngalo le mpapasho, nendlela yokuyenza.
U-JC ngoko wandibonisa, njengokungathi uvela kumgama othile, umzuzu awugcinela ulwazi lwakhe, kwaye apho yena ngokwakhe uya kunika umqondiso wokutsala umsebenzi kwidiphozithi. Uthi kuya kufuneka, ukuba ucinywe ngenxa engaphambili umlilo wembandezelo, elifikela ibandla lam; umoya kaSathana woloyiso umele udane; ukuba ichithwe indlu yakhe yesikhungu, amandla akhe angapheliyo athotywe, nokuba iBandla libuyiselwe kuwo onke amalungelo alo. Emva koko, wandixelela, umphathiswa uya kuthetha nobhishophu wakhe neenkulumbuso; kodwa okwangoku, ukuba
akaphazami ekukhetheni abo aya kubabonisana nabo. Kulapha apho kufuneka adibanise ubulumko benyoka kunye nokulula kwehobe. Makalumkele abahlobo bobuxoki, abazalwana bobuxoki, abafundisi bobuxoki, abanenzondelelo yempambano, nabagwebi bobuxoki! Makawalumkele amangcwaba aqatywe mhlophe, iingcuka ezigqunywe ngofele lwemvana, ezathi, ngohanahaniso olucekisekayo, zangena ebuhlantini kuphela ukuzanelisa umsindo wazo, ngokuxhela umhlambi, ngesizathu sokulunga nobuntu, njengoko. ukuba umgangatho womntwana kaThixo wenza utshaba olunye lwelizwe looyise.
Amashwa anokuba sisiphumo sokupapashwa kwangaphambi kwexesha.
Emva koko, ngokukhanya kwangaphakathi u-JC wandazisa amashwa amabi anokuthi, kude kube leli xesha, afikelele kuyo yonke iCawe ngokungakhathali nje kwethu. Ndiyaphila Bawo ndisangcangcazela, ndiphila ubushushu obuthutha usathana kum nawe, oko wafunda icebo lethu. Ke ngoko akayazi into ethe yadlula phakathi kwethu, kwaye ngenxa yoko uya kunikezela ngokukhululekileyo kwiingcamango zakhe kunye nokukrokra kwakhe. Kodwa okubhaliweyo kwethu, okufihliweyo, kuye oko ubuncwane obuxabisekileyo obuvalelwe phantsi kwesitshixo esingenakoyiswa sesisele buyinto yesela. Engakwazi ukuyiphatha kakuhle, umqweqwedisi uyacaphuka, yaye udliwa kukukhangela iindlela zokusinyanzela esi sifuba, okanye ukusivula ukuze abambe oko sikuquletheyo. Oku kunjalo, yenza
Umnqweno omkhulu wedemon kukwazisa ngako kwiintshaba zonqulo nezeCawa, ezizwilakhe ezaziya kuphumeza iinjongo zayo ngokumangalisayo. Ukhangela kuyo yonke indawo indlela yokuwaphilisa aze axhobe nxamnye nathi. Uqhayisa ukuba uya kufika ekupheleni kwayo, kwaye kudala wathembisa ukuba siya kuba ngamaxhoba okuqala entshutshiso esiya kuba nayo yimincili, kwaye eya kubangela ukuba igazi lawona maKristu angcono liphume, kwaye ngaphezu kwayo yonke into. abona balungiseleli bonqulo abangcwele.
Ndikhumbula ukuba ngesinye isihlandlo, ehleka kakubi, wandixelela kanye lo nongendi awayeza kusebenzisa ukuphazamisa iprojekthi yokuqala, yaye yonke into yenzeka njengoko wayendixelele . Ngoko, Bawo, kude kube
izinto zitshintshile, njengoko izulu libonakala lisikhokelela ethembeni, akufanele ucinge ukwenza nantoni na yaziwe nakubani na, ngakumbi ukushicilela nantoni na, kungekhona ngexesha lokuphila kwam okanye emva kokufa kwam.
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Bekuya kuba kulayita itotshi ukutshisa iCawe kwaye idle uluntu. Kodwa ukuba sithembekile ekuthobeleni uThixo akufunayo, uJ.
C. uyandiqinisekisa ukuba uya kuxhasa yonke into, ukuba uya kuwukhusela umsebenzi wakhe kwaye uyazi indlela yokubhidanisa imigudu yeentshaba zakhe. Kubaluleke kangakanani ukungagcini imfihlo yolu hlobo ! (1)
Ngoku makhe sibuyele kwindawo yam yokuzimela eSaint-Malo, apho uDade Wokuzalwa kukaYesu wandithumelela le leta ilandelayo, ngasekupheleni kwenyanga kaNovemba 1791:
Ileta evela kuDade woZalo isiya kuMhleli. Isilumkiso esitsha sokugcina umsebenzi uyimfihlo, ngenxa yamashwa amatsha asongela iCawa.
“Bawo, ngaphezu kweminyaka engamashumi amabini eyadlulayo, njengoko usazi, uThixo wandixelela izihlandlo ezininzi ukuba umsebenzi
(1) Ukugweba kakuhle konke oku, kum kubonakala ngathi simele sithabathe izinto kungekhona kwindawo ezikuyo ngoku, kodwa kanye kwindawo ababekuyo ngelo xesha xa udade wayethetha nam ngolu hlobo; kwaye kuya kuvunyelwana ukuba yonke into itshintshile kakhulu, kwaye, ngokukodwa ukususela ekufeni kukaDade, ininzi yamashwa eyayifanele yoyike ngoko, ayisekho, okanye ayisekho, namhlanje. Ukuba umlilo awukacinywa ngokupheleleyo, kubonakala ngathi, siyambulela uThixo, ukuba uya kucinywa imihla ngemihla.
ekuthethwa ngayo kwafuneka ifakwe kwidiphozithi ukuze igcinwe apho kangangexesha elithile. Ndaye ndathetha ngomsebenzi kunye nediphozithi kumlawuli wam, owayengabonakali kum ukuba ndiyiqonde kakhulu into endifuna ukuyithetha, kwaye loo nto ayinakubekwa ityala kuye; kuba ngokuthetha naye ngale nto, ndiyavuma kuwe ukuba andizange ndiziqonde ngokwenene. Namhlanje, Bawo, uThixo uthembisa ukundityhilela ngokucacileyo le ntsonkothi, ngokundazisa ngokucace ngakumbi, kunako konke endakuxelayo kuni phambi kobuso, ukuba lifikile ilixa lokuba ndiwubeke umsebenzi, ade anike isaziso. lixesha lokuyirhoxisa.
Kwakusemva komthendeleko ukuba wazichaza ngokwakhe kule ngongoma, kwaye nantsi isiphumo sento awandenza ukuba ndiqonde: ukuba siye safumana.
Uqhwithela kudala lugqumza, kufuneka luqhawuke kungekudala. Ububi besihogo ngokukhawuleza bukwinqanaba eliphezulu, kwaye ndoyika kakhulu izithonga zabo zokugqibela
Amagosa Owu! Bawo, masilumkele unyamezelo lwenkohliso esithenjisiweyo ngalo
Onke amaqela, phantsi kwesizathu sokulingana, soxolo naloo nkululeko, abathi, bamele amalungelo omntu! Bawo, ukuba iZulu alisiniki sandla, ukuba sidideke, njengoko ndinethemba, iprojekthi enxanelwe igazi ecamngcayo, siya kuba ngamaxhoba ale mbonakalo intle. Lo ngumgibe wokugqibela uSathana asibekela wona: kukuzola okukhohlisayo, uxolo oluyingozi olubhengeza isaqhwithi esitsha, mhlawumbi nokwaphukelwa yinqanawa okuninzi; ngale ndlela kucetywa ukuba kuhlanganiswe ababingeleli abalungileyo nezidwangube, ukuze kutshatyalaliswe ngokuqinisekileyo, kuze ngaloo ndlela kushenxiswe ngasihlandlo sinye umqobo omkhulu kwiyelenqe lokutshabalalisa unqulo noRhulumente. . . .
Ndiyathemba kuncedo lukaThixo ukuba le projekthi ingapheli ayizukwenziwa ngokupheleleyo; kodwa ndiyabona kuThixo ukuba izinto aziyi kulunga ngaphandle kokuphalala kwegazi elininzi; kwaye ndoyika kakhulu ukuba ezi ntlonipho ezicacileyo, eziye zachaphazeleka kakhulu kubefundisi bodidi lwesibini, ziya kuphela, njengomnqweno kaHerode wokunqula iJC, ekubulaweni kwabantu abamsulwa.
Ewe, Bawo, ndiyamoyika kakhulu kumntu wonke jikelele; ke ndoyikela ngakumbi nina; kuba ukuba isihogo sinenqala ngakuzo zonke iicawa zomgangatho wakho, ungathandabuzi ukuba sinomdla othile ekukutshutshiseni, ngenxa yediphozithi esiyibona kwangaphambili kufuneka ibe yintlekele kuso. Ukufungele ukuwa kwakho; uya kuhamba ngayo ngandlela zonke, uya kwenza konke ukoyisa icebo lakho. Kodwa unesizathu sokuziqinisekisa ngethemba lokhuseleko olukhethekileyo oluvela kulowo ufuna ukukusebenzisa ukuze uphumelele umsebenzi ofanele wena ngokobuqu uwenze . Ke wena ungamlingi uThixo
kufuneka uthathe zonke iindlela onazo.
Imigqaliselo ekufuneka umhleli ayithathe ukuze akhusele umntu wakhe kunye neencwadi zamanqaku azigcinayo.
“Ndicinga ke ngoko, Bawo, ukuba ungenza kakuhle ngokubeka iincwadi zakho kunye nomntu wakho kwindawo ekhuselekileyo, ngokuthi uye kude ngakumbi ngexesha lobunzima obulungiselelayo; kuba sisondela kugqabhuko-dubulo olungekude kakhulu njengoko umntu enokucinga ngenkangeleko yelo xesha. Iqinisekile
ukuba umama wethu ukuthumelele ibhokisi yakho yamaphepha, kunye nemali kunye neziphumo ezincinci oza kuzifuna. Kufuneka uye ngokukhawuleza eJersey okanye eGuernsey, kwaye nithethe apho nabanye oobhishophu bethu abalungileyo, betshutshiswa ngenxa yesizathu esifanayo nesenu; kuba uThixo undenza ndiphinde ndibone ukuba kubefundisi bokuqala omele uzithethele wena kuqala (1); uya kuthetha egameni lam kwaba befundisi balungileyo endibagwebayo ngentliziyo yam yonke kwaye ngaphandle kwesithintelo konke oko kuya kungqubana nenkolelo yeCawa yamaRoma, endifuna ukuphila nokufa kuyo.
Waye wandixelela ngokuthe ngqo uMgr. uBhishophu waseTréguer; kwaye kuye ndathetha nam kuqala, njengoko kuya kubonakala kungekudala.
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Ngokungathandabuzekiyo uyaqonda, Bawo, ukuba kufuneka sidle kangakanani na ukusoloko sikubongoza ukuba uzibekele kude, thina sinqwenela ukubuya kwakho! Yintoni lusizi kum ngakumbi, abangakwaziyo
ukuba ngobunzima obungaka ndivule intliziyo yam kuye nawuphina omnye ngokuziphatha uThixo akuphetheyo ngam! Yeha! Bawo, kubonakala ngathi olu kwahlukana lukhohlakeleyo lidini alifuna ngokupheleleyo, kwaye kufuneka silenze kuye, singazi ukuba kuya kuba ngonaphakade, okanye kuphela ixesha elithile. Masinqule intando yakhe engcwele kwaye sithobele ngokumfamekileyo....
Ukuzithemba kufuneka abe nako ku-Providence.
"Ndithathe inkululeko yokumela kuye ukuba bekuya kuba lula kangakanani kwaye kungabizi kakhulu ukuba uhlale apho ukhoyo, kunokuba uhambe, ngokudinwa okutsha kunye neengozi ezintsha, ukuwela ulwandle ukuya emhlabeni, phantse ngaphandle kobutyebi. , kobunye ubukumkani, ilizwe elingaziwayo ngabantu bonke
ukuba iNkosi yethu yandiphendula ukuba ifuna kuphela ukuzithemba noBukhalipha; ukuba umntu angamlingi ngokufuna imiqondiso, endaweni yeendlela eziqhelekileyo amnikayo ukuba azisebenzise. Wandixelela ukuba uYosefu noMariya babenobutyebi obuncinane ngakumbi kwicala labantu, ukanti, bengalindelanga ukuba imimangaliso ikhululwe kwingqumbo kaHerode, banduluka ngobusuku nangomyalelo wokuqala, besiya kwilizwe lasemzini nelangaziwayo. ngaphandle kokukhathazeka ngeziganeko. Lo ikwangumsebenzi wakho, wethu
Bawo, andiyithandabuzi loo nto: le yindlela enifanele niziphathe ngayo, nomzekelo enimelwe kukuwuxelisa niwulandele, ukuze nisindise omnye umntwana ovela ezulwini... (1)
Ndinokungqina, kuzuko lukaThixo noMkhonzi wakhe, ukuba andizange ndiswele izinto eziyimfuneko ekuthinjweni kwam, nokuba, ngaphandle kokufuna ukwenza nayiphi na eminye imisebenzi ngaphandle kwaleyo enxulumene nezifundo zam ezincinci, nezandibuyisela kuyo. , Ndaba namathuba amaninzi okuncoma, ndikhwankqiswe, inyameko yeProvidence esoloko inikela ingqalelo ekunyamekeleni iintswelo endandisoloko ndingaziboni kwangaphambili.
Ukuchasana okufunekayo kulo msebenzi. Uloyiso lwalo nemiphumo yalo.
Emva kokuba ndenze zonke iinzame zokumthintela ukuba angazalwa, ndibona kuThixo ukuba idemon iya kuwuphinda kabini umsindo wakhe ukuze imbethe kumbeleko wakhe kanye emva kokuzalwa kwakhe. uya kuzivelisela iintshaba nemiqobo kuzo zonke iindawo; siya kubabona abaphengululi bobuxoki bexhobe ngobuqhetseba kunye neesofim zokuyiphikisa, ukuyihlazisa, ukuyonakalisa nokuyithintela ukuba ingasasazeki; kodwa kwakhona ndiyabona ukuba iya kuxhaswa ngamandla liqela elichasayo, eliya kuthi, libhideke imisebenzi yalo, lilenze liphumelele kuzo zonke iinzame zalo. Iya kufundwa, ikhangelwe, kwaye iya kuba, njengeVangeli ngokwayo, ithuba losindiso nelahleko yabaninzi.
Bawo, wandibonisa zonke ezi zinto uThixo. Andithandabuzi; ngokuvuma kwakho ukumthobela. Ndibonise indawo oya kuyithatha, kwaye undenzele uvuyo lokongeza amagama ambalwa kuyo ngenxa yesazela sam, ukuze izisombululo zakho zamaxhala endithethe ngawo kuwe, zindiqinise, nokuba kuthe kwasweleka. , ukuba andikuvuyeli ukuncediswa nguwe, njengoko ndinqwenela....
Yeha! Bawo, asazi ukuba siya kuphinda sikubone, sikuve; kodwa naphi na apho kuthande khona okungcwele kukaThixo
khokela, ungaze umlibale uDade olihlwempu lokuZalwa. Ndithandazeleni nathi sonke, njengoko sisenza kuni ngakwicala lethu. Ukholo, njengoko usazi, sisibane esingcwele ekufuneka sisoloko sisikhokela, kanye njengokuba uthando kufuneka luhlale lusenza siphile. Ewe, Bawo, ukholo, ithemba kunye nothando lobuKristu, le yindlela ekufuneka singaguquki siyilandele; nantsi into esimele sibeke ithemba lethu kuyo; Ndongeza ukuthobela uThixo kunye neCawa yakhe ebomini nasekufeni, elilitye lokwenyani
ukuchukumisa inyaniso eya kuhlala yahlulwe kwimposiso. Zinjalo kwaye ziya kuhlala zikhona, ngobabalo lweJC, iimvakalelo zentombi yakho kuThixo,
» Udade woZalo.
»Yamkela, ndiyakucela, ngembeko yam, abo basekuhlaleni bonke.
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Umhleli wemka eSt-Malo esiya kwisiqithi saseJersey, ngoDisemba 1791.
Emva kwamava exesha elidlulileyo, andizange ndifune nto ingako evela kwi-ocle yam ukundimisela. Kunqabile ukuba ndifumane ezi zilumkiso zokugqibela kunomthetho wesibini okhutshiweyo, isibetho emva kwesibetho, imimiselo yegazi nembubhiso, okungekho sikweni nogonyamelo oluthe lwavukela zonke iintlanga. Ecatshukiswe, eqhutywa kukuchasa ngokuqinileyo kwabalungiseleli bokwenyaniso bezibingelelo, abameli bobuzwilakhe nokungahloneli unqulo bafuna ngobushushu obungakumbi kunangaphambili isifungo esoyikekayo nesilihlazo, baza benza imigudu yokugqibela yokuwugqiba umsebenzi wabo bangaphambi kwabo.
Ngokuchasene nawo onke amalungelo, kwananxamnye namalungiselelo endlu yowiso-mthetho yokuqala, abefundisi bamaKatolika abazange bavume oko kwakunikwa abalungiseleli bawo onke amahlelo, ingeniso yexeshana nenkululeko yeembono zonqulo. Babengavunyelwa nakuphi na ukwenza izinto, nokuba kuyimfihlo, kwimisebenzi yabo ezukileyo. UbuKatolika bathintelwa ebukumkanini apho, kangangeenkulungwane ezilishumi elinesine, yayibubo kuphela obuvunyiweyo kwaye bukuphela kwenkululeko epheleleyo; kunye neenkathazo eziya kwenzeka
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ngokuyimfuneko ngenxa yolu gonyamelo olunjalo, babenenkohlakalo engekho sikweni yokubeka ityala kwanabo benziwa kubo. Oko bekusoloko kunjalo, xa babenamandla, kukunyamezelana kwabo basingcikivayo ngenxa yokungazinyamezeli iimpazamo zabo....
Ngelixa ngeziganeko ezothusayo ngaloo ndlela babelungiselela ukuphulukana nelizwe lam elilusizi, ndagqiba, ndineenyembezi emehlweni, ukuba ndilishiye, ukuze ndingabi lixhoba okanye ingqina kumashwa alo okugqibela.
Ukusuka eSaint-Malo apho, njengoko ndanditshilo, ndachitha iinyanga ezine, ndakhwela isikhephe ndisinge isiqithi saseJersey, esixhomekeke eNgilani, apho ndafika ndagaleleka khona ngoDisemba 6, 1791. Yaye yintoni endothusayo, xa ndandisuka kwiinkathazo zendoda emileyo. Ubukumkani bamaKatolika, ndazibona ndiwela kubumnyama obuqhelekileyo beyantlukwano kunye neempazamo! Ndiyavuma ukuba ndandingenakuze ndikholelwe ukuba ukusuka kwiidolophu zethu ezikwimida yedolophu ngendithathe nje amaqela ambalwa ukuba ndinqumle ukuze ndibone umahluko onjalo; yaye, ndibona imeko yokomoya abancitshiswa kuyo abantu abaninzi kangaka abanyanisekileyo nabanovelwano apha, andizange ndikwazi ukuzibamba uloyiko olungakumbi, ngenxa yelizwe lam elibandezelekileyo, ukuqhubela phambili kweenguqulelo ezahlula izikumkani kumbindi womanyano .
ICANDELO IX.
Imiyalelo ebalulekileyo kuMthendeleko oNgcwele, uVumo kunye noCando. Iimpazamo, iinkohliso, iziphene kunye nempatho-gadalala ethi ingene ekwamkelweni kweeSakramente zezoHlawulo kunye ne-Ekaristi.
Ukubhala olunye uthumo lukaDade Wokuzalwa kukaYesu, olwaqala kwisiqithi saseJersey ngoDisemba 14, 1791.
“Bawo, ndisenezinto ezininzi endifuna ukuzithetha kuwe, kunye neengongoma ezininzi endifuna ukukuxelela zona kwimibandela emininzi esele sithetha ngayo. Ezi zizinto ezishiyiweyo okanye izibane ezitsha uThixo asafuna ukuba ndinxibelelane nawe ngazo.
Kuninzi kuya kuba malunga nokuziphatha kwiisakramente zezoVuko kunye ne-Eucharist, iimpazamo ezenziwa ngumntu apho, kunye nemiphumo emihle okanye emibi yezi sakramente zimbini kakuhle okanye kakubi. Ngamana iNkosi endikhuthazayo ingathabatha uzuko lwayo kuyo !. Ndisazimisele kakhulu ukuba ndingakuxelela kwaye
ukwenza ukuba ubhale kuphela oko ndiya kukubona ekukhanyeni okukhanya phezu kwam kuye, ngaphandle kokukhathazeka malunga symmetry, engeyiyo, phantse kakhulu, into ebalulekileyo kwezi ngongoma zibalulekileyo kusindiso lwethu olungunaphakade.
Ubabalo olukhethekileyo oludityaniswe kumthendeleko ofanelekileyo. Iindlela zokuyigcina .
"Okokuqala, Bawo, malunga noMthendeleko oNgcwele, iNkosi yethu indazise ukuba umphefumlo onxibelelana ngokufanelekileyo, oko kukuthi, kunye nezimo ezifunekayo nezifanelekileyo, ngaloo ndlela ufumana ubabalo oluthile, olubhalwe kuwo. , kwaye ehlala apho nasemva kokusetyenziswa kweentlobo zesakramente.
Ndiyabona ukuba olu babalo luxabiseke kakhulu, lubuthathaka kakhulu, kwaye kunzima kakhulu ukulugcina. Kufana nokuphuma kumzimba we-JC kunye negazi; okokugqibela, lubabalo olufanelekileyo lo mthendeleko uthandekayo nongcwele. Ngelixa umphefumlo uhonjisiwe kwaye uhonjiswe ngolu babalo luxabisekileyo, yinto yobabalo lwezulu, kunye nokunconywa kwabo bonke abasikelelekileyo.
INkosi yethu yandazisa ukuba, ukuyilondoloza, kwakuyimfuneko ukuba umntu alumke kakhulu phezu kwesiqu sakhe naphezu kwazo zonke iimvakalelo zikabani zangaphakathi nezingaphandle; kodwa ngaphezu kwayo yonke intiyo yomkhwa, intiyo yokwenene yaso sonke isono, efikelela kwinqanaba lokuphepha nezona ziphoso zincinane. Ewe, ndiyabona ukuba isiphoso esingesosidima, isiphoso esingephi esenziwa ngokucingisisa nenjongo yangabom, kwanele ukungcolisa ubuhle bolu babalo lungenakulinganiswa, nokuba luphele tu, ukuba bekukho naluphi na uhlobo lobubi kwintando eyenziweyo. yona.
Ububi besono ngabom venial.
Akunjalo, Bawo, ukuba isono esingenasiphelo sinokulususa ngokupheleleyo ubabalo lomphefumlo, siwenze ukuba ulahleke, njengoko isono esifayo sisenza: Makube lee ukuba ndingawuqhubeli phambili! Kodwa nantsi into endiyibonayo kuThixo: Intando engonwabanga kwaye eqalekisiweyo yokwenza ngabom isono esibi kunye nesiphoso esincinci emphefumlweni wethu sisimo sokubulala, kwaye esihlala sinekrele esandleni sokubetha nokutshabalalisa ngaphandle kokujonga kwaye phantse ngaphandle kokumodareyitha. Ukuba ngesono se-venial ayiwubulali ngokupheleleyo umphefumlo, ubuncinane iyazibhokoxa apho; ejiwuzisa rhoqo ikrele lakhe ngasekunene nangasekhohlo, ukuba oko kunokutshiwo, umbangela amanxeba amaninzi, ngaphezulu okanye ngaphantsi, njengoko esenza iimpazamo ezingephi, aze ngaloo ndlela enze isiphene sakhe, esibuthathaka kwaye esoyikeka, njengomzimba womntu bahlatyiwe, batyunyuziwe kwaye bagqwethiweyo.
Ngaloo ndlela umphefumlo uba buthathaka uba buthuntu yaye uyonqena enkonzweni kaThixo nasekuqheliseleni iimpawu ezintle. Uwela ebundisholo, okanye akayi kude engakhange aphulukane nobabalo, ngokuwa okukhulu nokungathembeki; kwaye ukuba isono se-venial asifanga ngokwaso, siyafa kakhulu kwimiphumo yaso, njengoko sitshilo kwenye indawo.
Olu babalo lukhethekileyo nolufanelekileyo lomthendeleko olungileyo, ndiluthatha, Bawo, njengochuku lokugqibela uMdali alunika umfanekiso wakhe ukuba awenze ube mnandi ngakumbi; kwaye le touch isoloko ngakumbi okanye ngaphantsi komelele, ngokutsho umphefumlo ngakumbi
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okanye ngaphantsi ukulungele ukuyifumana, ngaphezulu okanye ngaphantsi phambili kwimfezeko izidima, ngaphezulu okanye ngaphantsi kakuhle kakuhle ukunxibelelana.
Ukuba olu lungiselelo lugqibelele njengoko lunokuba njalo, ngoko akukho nto ilingana nokukhanya okucacileyo kwemibala apho lo mfanekiso uphinda uhlaziywe ngumbhali wawo. Kusafuneka ndisebenzise omnye uthelekiso: Yiba nomfanekiso-ngqondweni wenkosazana eselula, eya kudibana neNkosi nomyeni wayo ngawo onke anothando nolungiselelo olunokwenzeka: umyeni wayo, ethabathekile bubuhle bayo nobuhle bayo, usafuna ukuyenza ibe ntle ngakumbi, yaye iyayivuyela. ukwandisa yayo
imitsalane; ngoko ke uyayivulela intliziyo yakhe nobuncwane bakhe, amnxibe ingubo yegolide neyesilika, namatye anqabileyo, aphakamisa ngokungenasiphelo ubabalo lwakhe. Ehonjiswe ngesi sambatho sixabisekileyo, ukhazimla aze athandeke emehlweni omyeni wakhe njengoko wayenjalo ngomhla wabo womtshato, yaye akukho nto inokongeza kulonwabo lwakhe.
Oku, u-JC undixelela, yindlela endiziphatha ngayo kumphefumlo othembekileyo osondela kwisakramente yam kunye neendlela zothando ezifunekayo. Ngokuzinikela kwam kuye, andimniki nofefe olunye, kodwa ubabalo olungenasiphelo; Ndiyivulela bonke ubuncwane bobuThixo bam, ndizimisele ukuyihombisa, ndiyihombise ngazo zonke iinceba zam. Kungomthendeleko ndambathiswa okukokwam, njengesambatho esimenyezelayo, esithetha oku.
umsebenzi wobugcisa wesandla sam, kwaye ngokuncomekayo ikhupha bonke ubuhle bayo bakudala, ngakumbi oku kufana okuvuyisayo nombhali wayo, nto leyo ethetha ukuba uThixo akanako ukukulahla ukuyijonga ngeliso lokukhalaza nothando.
Kungelo xesha awathi wabhekisa kuye la mazwi okuthantamisa: Uyinzwakazi, sithandwa sam, yaye ndibeka kuwe konke ukukhalaza kwam nokuyoliswa kwam, ngenxa yokuba andiboni libala elinokukhubekisa amehlo am.
Kodwa apha, Bawo, kukho ubutyebi obufihliweyo, imfihlelo yokwenene yomyeni nenkosikazi engcwele; abanelisekanga ngokuhombisa lo mphefumlo, i-JC iphinda ikrole, ngoko kuthetha, kuyo ukholo, ithemba kunye nothando; wongezelela, ngaphezu koko, kwisidima ngasinye somKristu anaso, ubabalo olufanelekileyo, ukuthanjiswa okuthile, ubuninzi bempahla, ukwanda kweentsikelelo, okwandisa ukufaneleka kwayo kwaye kuququzelele ngokumangalisayo ukuziqhelanisa. Ikho, utsho uJC kum, ukwangiwa komlomo, olona babalo luxabisekileyo, olona phawu lubalaseleyo lobabalo lweqabane lobuthixo .....
Asikuko ngaphandle kwamathandabuzo, Bawo, ukuba ezi zibabalo nezibabalo azivumelekanga, kwaye zenza umntu angabi nasiphako; hayi, unokuthi ngelishwa awe kubo aze abalahlekele ngokupheleleyo, ngokusebenzisa kakubi inkululeko yakhe yokuzikhethela, ngenxa yokuba ngoko akaqinisekiswanga elubabalweni, njengabangcwele abasezulwini. Into endifuna ukuyithetha, Bawo, kunye nento eyenziwa nguJC ukuba ndiyazi, kukuba kunzima kakhulu kwaye kunqabile kakhulu ukuphulukana nenceba yolu hlobo, ngakumbi ukuba umphefumlo unokunyaniseka okuncinci ukuhambelana nabo, kuba bancinci kwaye bancinci. ngokuqine ngakumbi
zimiliselwe entliziyweni enolonwabo lokuba nazo.
Asingabo bonke abathabatha umthendeleko abalufumanayo olu lubabalo lukhethekileyo. Yantoni.
Ke bonke abadla umthendeleko bakude ekuzuzeni olu lubabalo lunqabileyo, olunqabileyo nolunqabileyo; isizathu, emva kokuba sele ndiyithethile, akukho nzima ukuyifumana. Iqhina elinye kuphela kwisono esibuhlungu, ukuthambekela okungonwabi kwesona senzo sincinane sangabom, ngokubona kunye nokucingisisa, kuyafuneka ukuze kuthintelwe ukonwatyiswa kwayo.
Kuya kuba yintoni na ke, ndiyanibuza, kwaba bantu abathi, yonke imihla, basondele kubo ngomkhwa nangothando kwiimpazamo eziliwaka, abaya kuba lusizi kakhulu ukuzilungisa? Owu bakude kangakanani ekufumaneni olu babalo lukhethekileyo lomthendeleko ongcwele! "Imiphefumlo engakhathaliyo nengathembekiyo, uthi uJC kubo, ndiyabona ukuba ungowam kuphela ngokungafezeki kunye nesiqingatha!. Awunazintloni ngenkonzo yam, kwaye ukhetha eyakho
iziyolo ngokwanelisayo; akufuni ukwenza nalinye idini elifunwa luthando lwam; akukhathali ukundikholisa. Kulungile ! akuyi kundikholisa; ke uya kuqhathwa; Ezi zibabalo zikhethekileyo nezixabisekileyo endizigcinele ukuthembeka kwenu, ndiya kuzidlulisela kwimiphefumlo ethembekileyo ethe kratya ezenza zonke iinzame zokuzenza zikholiseke emehlweni am. Nina ke, sendinixhasa ngobunzima kuphela; kwaye oku dikidiki, okulityala lakho lokuqala, kungekudala kuya kuba sisohlwayo sakho sokuqala, ukuba ndisebenzisa okufanayo kuwe.
ukungakhathali okubonisayo kum: bubugwala bakho obukuvezela kuko. »
Noko ke, Bawo, ndibona kuThixo ukuba imiphefumlo enxibelelana kule meko ayihluthwanga lonke ubabalo; kodwa bamkela kuphela ubabalo oluqhelekileyo, olungenamandla kangako ngokomlinganiselo weziphoso zabo nothando abanalo lokungafezeki kwabo.
Ukuvuma ngokwesiqhelo kunye nesiqhelo, ngaphandle kwentlungu kwaye ngaphandle kwenjongo elungileyo. Ngoko ke, ukusetyenziswa kakubi kweSakramente.
Nantsi kwakhona into athe uThixo wandazisa ngayo malunga nale miphefumlo ingafezekanga: umtyholi uyabeyisela ukuba kwanele, ukuba kwimeko yobudlelane kakuhle, ukuba bavume ezi ntlobo zokungafezeki; ukuba, ngaphezu koko, akunakwenzeka ukuba ubuthathaka bomntu
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ukubaphepha. Ngaloo ndlela, ngaphandle kokwenza nantoni na ukulahla incasa kunye notyekelo ubani analo kwezi ziphoso, ukulwa, ubuncinane, utyekelo lwazo oluqhubekayo, uzigcina kumkhwa wokuzivuma, ngaphandle kwentlungu kwaye kungekho njongo ilungileyo, kodwa kuphela ngesiqhelo. , kwaye, njengoko bethetha, ngendlela yokufumana.
Inkohliso eyonakalisayo, ehlala ibangela ukusetyenziswa kakubi kweesakramente kunye nazo zonke iinceba! Liyinyaniso elokuba ubuthathaka babantu abunakukuphepha zonke iimpazamo ngokubanzi; kodwa kwakhona kuyinyaniso ukuba akukho nasinye kwezi ziphoso angenako ukuziphepha, ukuba uthembekile kubabalo olunikelwe kuye ngenxa yoku. Ke ngoko lityala elimsulwa lemiphefumlo edikidiki , ukuba ayibaphepheli; ukanti olu hlobo lwabantu, luzikholelwa ukuba luzikhuphile ezonweni zalo, luphantsi koxolo lobuxoki lwesazela, olubamfamekisayo luze lubaphose kwiziphoso ezilusizi zozinikelo olungaqhelekanga, olungaqondakaliyo, noluneenkolelo maxa wambi . Bona
bebeya kuthi ngovuyo badlulise ubomi babo kwisangqa sezovumo-zovumo nezotheko, ababonakala besenza kuphela ukuze bazinike inkululeko engakumbi, ngaphezu kwako konke oko kuchaphazela ikhondo eliqhelekileyo lezazela zabo. Aba bantu ndibabona besengozini enkulu yosindiso lwabo; ngenxa yokuba inani elikhulu kakhulu lezovumo zabo kunye nemithendeleko alinto yanto, ndingathethi ukunyelisa....
Kodwa isigwebo ndisiyekela kuThixo, kwaye ndiyabalumkisa abalathisi ukuba abanako ukunikela ingqalelo kakhulu kuyo, ukuba abafuni kuziphendulela ngokwabo.
Ukuguquka okubonakalayo kunye nobuxoki.
Omnye umgibe uMtyholi athanda ukuwubekela aboni abaziqhelileyo abalungiselela ukusondela kwinkundla engcwele; ibandakanya ukubenza bakhohlise kumbandela wokuguquka. Bakhumbula ukuba ubani umele aguquke aze aguquke ukuze axolelwe izono azenzileyo; emva koko, beqhutywa bubuqhophololo bedemoni, bazixhokonxa kwimigudu emikhulu yokuzohlwaya nenguquko kwiziphoso zabo ezifayo okanye ezingcolileyo; bayalila kwaye bancwine, balile kwaye balile: into edla ngokwenzeka kwisini esibuthathaka ngakumbi. Okokugqibela, bayavuma, baze benze kakuhle kakhulu ukuguquka kokwenyani, intlungu yokwenyani, inguquko yokwenene, ngokokude bakwazi ngokulula kakhulu ukukhohlisa abavumayo babo nokuzikhohlisa; kodwa into abangenakuphumelela kuko kukumkhohlisa lowo ubabambele indawo umvumisi;
lowo uphengulula iintliziyo nezinqe kwaneenjongo.
Lo mgwebi ungonakaliyo akabagwebi, okanye ngezimo zabo, ngezo mbonakalo zintle, ubugwenxa obusoloko bubonakala. Kuba, ukuba siyabalandela emva kovumo lwabo, kwaba ngenkankulu ukuba bayishiye inkundla yamatyala, xa sibona ezo njongo zabo zintle zibhanga; intlungu yabo ibhabha ngokukhawuleza njengoko yayifikile, kwaye ishiya aba baya kuba ngabaguqukileyo kumakhonkco afanayo, imikhwa efanayo kunye nomnqweno ofanayo wokuphinda baqalise ikhondo labo lesiqhelo; engasileliyo ukwenzeka ngethuba lokuqala elivelayo, kwanasebudeni bemini, xa babethembise ngokulinda ukuze bangaphinde bawe apho kwakhona.
Ezi nyembezi, ezi ncwina, ezi zincwino zisebenza idemon, ke ngoko zivelisa ukucingela, ukungento yanto, ngesiqinisekiso sobuxoki, esibulalayo ngakumbi kunolwaphulo- mthetho ngokwalo. Uza kuzikhathaza ngantoni, uthini
ubawo wobuxoki kulo mphefumlo uye wawurhwebeshela ngolunya?...
Ngubani onokukukhuthaza ngalo naluphi na uloyiko, emva kokuvuma izono ozenzileyo, kunye nentlungu yokwenyani obukhatshwa ngayo ? Ewe! Ewe! izono zakho zezenu
uxolelwe akukho nokuthandabuza nokuncinane: ngoko ke hlala uthe cwaka ngazo zonke izinto ezidluleyo, kwaye waneliseke ngokuzityhola ngeziphoso zakho eziqhelekileyo, eziya kuxolelwa nawe. Kuba, emva kwayo yonke loo nto, uyaqhubeka, ayingombuzo wezenzo zolwaphulo-mthetho ezinkulu, kodwa kuphela iimpazamo ezincinci, kwaye amaxesha amaninzi zokungafezeki okulula, okuthi isazela sakho esibuhlungu sikubaxe ngesiqingatha. Uyoyika nantoni na njengenkathazo kunye namabhongo. Ubungathanda ukufezeka, ngokungathi abantu baziingelosi ezisemhlabeni.
Ngaloo ndlela olu tshaba lunobuqhophololo luthetha nabazinikeleyo bobuxoki, ngokukodwa abo bazinikele kunqulo lobuxoki, abo abakhokela njengezimvu nababenza bajike okwemozulu; kwaye kukwiingcebiso ezinjalo apho ubani aziqinisekisayo aze alale encamini yengxondorha, kwaye kwimeko apho kukho yonke into yokoyika usindiso.
Iinkohliso eziphawulekayo kunye neziphene zokuzinikela kobuxoki.
Imiphefumlo elolo hlobo isephantsi kakhulu kokungaqheleki, umphumo wendalo wenkohliso yokuhlonela uThixo. Kukho kuphela i-sallies, i-quips kunye nokuphikisana kwindlela yabo yokuziphatha; ngamanye amaxesha badibanisa izikhanyiso ezingaqhelekanga, iindlela ezibalaseleyo kunye nokuthantamisa kokuzinikela, kunye nokuthamba, ukungakhathali kunye nokuzonda okukhulu kwemisebenzi yokuqala yomKristu kunye neempawu ezintle ezizezona zibalulekileyo kuye, ezinjengokholo, ithemba; uthando, ukuthobeka, intobeko nokuzithoba. Thetha nabo ngemfezeko kunye nemfihlakalo kuyo yonke into ehlekisa ingqondo kuphela; ungathethi ke kubo ngezinto ezithozamisayo, nokuzithoba, nokonakala ngokwasemoyeni, kwaneembandezelo; izenzo zokuzohlwaya azikho
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incasa yabo, ngaphandle kokuba bangokuzikhethela; kungenjalo babeza kuzifumana bethandabuza. Izinto ezintle abazenzayo azikho ngaphezu kobuhle bezixhobo, eziphumela kuphela ekukhukhumaleni iintliziyo zabo kwaye zigcine iingqondo zabo ziseluxolweni lobuxoki, oluthi, ukusuka kwesinye isivumo ukuya kwesinye, lubenze baqokelele iimpazamo ngaphandle kokuphazamiseka, ngesizathu sokuba ayenzi. kubiza ngaphezulu ukuthetha ngaphezulu kancinci kunokuncinci kancinci .
Le yindlela abantu abaninzi behlabathi abadlula ngayo ubomi babo, abazidla ngokuzinikezela kunye nokuqhelekileyo, phantsi kwesizathu sokuphepha ukukhwabanisa, okuhlala kungekho nto yokwesaba kubo. Bazibhenca ekuncameni, ukuba baginye ubutshinga njengamanzi; bazicingela ukuba bahambele phambili kakhulu emfezekweni, yaye abakhange bathabathe nyathelo lokuqala. Ngokuzingca ngokuzithelekisa nabanye, abathi mhlawumbi balunge ngakumbi kunabo ezintliziyweni zabo, bazikholelwa ngokwabo ukuba bangcwele, ngoxa bengamadlala nje alusizi kaMtyholi, abahanahanisi, abafana kakhulu nabaFarisi beVangeli,
amangcwaba amhlophe, amathambo, mhlawumbi, anembonakalo ethile yobomi; oko kukuthi, bayaphila emehlweni abantu, ngoxa befile emehlweni kaThixo: ekuphela kwento enokuchazwa kancinane kukuba badinga isandla esinobuchule ukuze baphiliswe.
Aboni abanzulu abafane bazikhohlise, kwaye bafumane isiqhamo esingakumbi kwiSidlo seNququko .
Ndiyabona, Bawo, ukuba kwiinkalo ezininzi usathana akayidlali indima yakhe kakuhle xa kufikwa kuboni abangenamava; umkhwa kunye nentando yesono esifayo apho bagxalathelana khona, ibathintele ubuncinane ekubeni babe nenkohliso malunga nemeko yezazela zabo, kwaye bangenzi oko kwabo bavumayo. Akukho ngozi yokuba aba baya kubavuma ukuba baxolelwe okanye bathabathe inxaxheba kwiimfihlelo ezingcwele: banokubagocagoca kuphela, babathabathe kwakhona babavavanye; izoyikiso zabo ezoyikekayo, neziyalo zabo ezinamandla, izinyeliso zabo ezidlamkileyo, zifana nokukhukulisa iidemon ezininzi; uyesaba ubuncinci ukuba amandla kaJC kunye nomphathiswa wakhe baya kufikelela ekubhukuqeni itrone yakhe kunye nobukhosi bakhe, aze amxoshe ngokwakhe entliziyweni yakhe; kwaye loo nto imkhathaza kakhulu.
Ngoko uyiphinda kabini imigudu yakhe nezilumkiso zakhe xa esondela kwinkundla engcwele; wenza ngako konke anako ukuziqinisa iimbophelelo zekhoboka lakhe, hleze asinde kulo; kodwa ubabalo lweJC aluphumeleli ukukhohlisa ukulindela kwakhe okukhohlakeleyo, ngokuphula iintsimbi zenani elikhulu kakhulu laboni, ngamandla alo sakramente kaThixo. Yile nto ke ebenza bazive bezisola kwangaphambili ngenxa yesazela sabo, nokoyika imigwebo kaThixo neentlungu zesihogo. abo bahlala dikidiki ababethwa. Ngaloo ndlela umtyholi ukufumanisa kulula kakhulu ukukhohlisa aboni abakhulu, njengoko kulula kubavumisi babo kunye nabo ngokwabo ukufumanisa imeko yabo yokwenyani phambi koThixo; ngelixa ngokubhekiselele kwabanye, kuchasene ngokuchanekileyo: idemoni ibambelele ngakumbi kubo, njengoko kunzima kakhulu kubalawuli kunye nabaguqukileyo ukuba bafumane iinkohliso zakhe.
Le miphefumlo ilahlekisiweyo ikulumkele kakhulu ukufuna nokukhetha abo bavumayo ukuba ukuziphatha kwabo kuvisisana notyekelo lwabo. Isiphumo esibi solu khetho.
Umphefumlo okhokelwa ngumtyholi, aze acebise kuye iimvakalelo zokuzohlwaya ngendlela yakhe, uthatha ngenyameko enkulu ukuba ahlole bonke abavumayo, kwaye akhethe ngokukhetha abo banesitampu kunye nomlingiswa ofanele yena. Ngaphezu kwako konke, akufuneki babe rhabaxa kakhulu, njengoko besitsho, nabo
ulumke, ulumke kakhulu; ukuba abayilandeli ngokusondeleyo isazela sabo, bangapheleli kwizinto ezingenamsebenzi, bangabi nasimilo... Ngaphandle koko, baya kuba ngabalumkileyo kuphela ekungayi kuba nzima ngabo ukuba nentembelo kubo. ; kwaye xa ndithetha inyani Bawo ndiyabona ukuba aba bantu abanamntu ngokobuqu, kuba ngethamsanqa kubo kunqabile ukuba bamfumane abo bacinga ukuba ufanelekile. Aba bantu abaziimfama abahluphekayo baphulaphula ngokucekisa, ukukruquka, ukuzonda, ukungakhathali, ngamanye amaxesha nokumbombozela, okanye ubuncinane ngokungabi namonde okuthile kwangaphakathi, isiluleko sobubele kunye nezibongozo ezichukumisayo aba bavumisi abanenzondelelo bangathanda ukubabiza ukuba bathobele, ukuthobeka, kunye nezinye iimpawu ezibaluleke kakhulu,
Ukuba bamiselwe imibingelelo enexabiso elikhulu ukuzithemba, ukwaneliseka, ukurhoxa, izenzo zokuthotywa, ukuthotywa okuchasene noluvo lwabo, iindlela zemfezeko esekwe, hayi kwimbono yabo. indlela yokuthatha izinto, kodwa kwimigaqo yokwenyani yokuziphatha; ngakumbi ukuba ubani ufuna ukugawula kubo izenzo zangaphandle, abazenzayo ukuba zihlanganise yonke ingqibelelo yabo, uthi ke ubani ubabone bephosa umlilo nelangatye, ukugqabhuka nokuvukela; okanye ukuba basazama ukuza kwimvukelo evulekileyo kunye nokungathobeli okusesikweni kunye nokubhengezwa, bathi ubuncinane ngaphakathi, andiyi kwenza nto ngayo, andiyi kuthobela. Idemon ikulumkele kakhulu ukusebeza ukuba aba balathisi ababazi, ukuba abaluboni umtsalane wobabalo uThixo ababizela ngalo kwimfezeko engaqhelekanga; ekugqibeleni, ukuba abenziwanga ukubaqhuba .
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Ke ngoko bathatha isigqibo sokuyitshintsha, kwaye bayitshintshe, bade bayifumane ngokwencasa yabo, apho banokunika ukuzithemba okukhululekileyo nokupheleleyo.
Ngoku, Bawo, lo mvuma-tyala wayefuna ngononophelo olukhulu ngabaguqukileyo nabaguqukayo kwesi sitampu, nothe ekugqibeleni wafunyanwa, uThixo undenza ndibone ukuba usoloko eyindoda enesimilo esixengayo, enobulali obuthambileyo nobuthobekileyo, ngamanye amaxesha. kwanehambo ekude kwindlela emxinwa yeVangeli; umntu othi, ekude nokubaphazamisa nokubabuyisela emva, anikele, mhlawumbi ngokungazi okanye ngokuswela inzondelelo, kuko konke.
izinto ezingaqhelekanga zonqulo lwabo lobuxoki; eliqhwabel’ izandla indlela yabo yokubona, lithetha kubo ngoThixo nangemfezeko ngamazwi aphakamileyo nawongamileyo; iphosisa inkohliso yedemon kubabalo oluthile, imiqondiso yobabalo, kunye nokusebenza kwendalo ekusebenzeni kukaThixo. Ekugqibeleni, bona ngokwabo bathatyathelwa abavumisi abafanelekileyo ngokuchanekileyo ngenxa yokuba abangalunganga. Enjani yona impazamo, kodwa enjani impazamo enkulu!....
Ewe, Bawo, apha ukuba ubeve, nguye othe tye, lowo uThixo afuna bona ngabo; ungumlawuli ngokugqwesileyo: ngoko ke kungekudala uba ngumlawuli osefashonini. Nguye kuphela obazi kakuhle kwaye unobugcisa obukhethekileyo bokubakhokela kakuhle; kukuye yedwa, ke ngoko, esimele sinike intembeko epheleleyo nepheleleyo, apho umtyholi akayi kulibazisa ukwenza inzuzo ngeendlela ezingaphezulu kwenye, ukumenza aqhubele phambili ngokukhawuleza kwindlela enkulu yentshabalalo, endaweni yaleyo yemfezeko; nantso into omawuyilindele.
Okokuqala nje, imbeko ababonisa yona, indlela athetha ngayo nabo ngobuhle acinga ukuba uyibona kule miphefumlo inenkohliso nekhohliweyo, isuka ikhulise ikratshi elibaphakamisela kwelesithathu izulu. .....
Ngaphandle koko, ungena kuzo zonke iimvakalelo zabo nakuzo zonke iimbono zabo; akananto ngaphandle kwengqalelo, inkathalo nentlonipho kubo. Uyigobela kubo imithetho yeVangeli; ngamafutshane, kunoko uyalelwa kunokuba abayalele . Mhlawumbi _
Hayi, Nkosi yam! ukuba kukho abavumayo lo mlinganiswa undilandelela wena? Ndiyavuma kuwe, Bawo, ukuba nangona ukukhanya kwangaphakathi okundenza ndikubone, andizange ndikholelwe, ukuba iSibhalo esiNgcwele asizange sichaze ngokucacileyo ukuba kukho abaprofeti bobuxoki, ababeka imiqamelo emincinci phantsi kweengqiniba zaboni . endaweni yokubabulala; enokuthi, ndiyakholelwa, isetyenziswe kubalawuli abaxekileyo esithetha ngabo. Kodwa akuphelelanga apho, yaye idemon ayipheleli apho .
Isincamathelisi sendalo kakhulu kumntu ovumayo.
Akanakuze asilele, olu tshaba lunamaqhinga, ukuhlasela ngenye indlela le miphefumlo ingxamele uThixo kwaye izaliswe yiziqu zayo, le miphefumlo imfanyekiswe kokubini kukuzithanda kwayo, nangokuneliseka komvuma izono ezisoloko zixakekile. Uhlala ebakhumbuza bobabini ngenyameko awayithabathayo ekuguqukeni kwabo, nangenyameko ayinyamekelayo ekuqhubeleni phambili nasekugqibeleleni kwabo; kuba bazikholelwa ngokukhona behambela phambili ngakumbi kwaye konke okukhona bagqibelele ngakumbi kokukhona bengaphantsi; kwaye unembeko kubo, ukuba angabi sathetha nto; namazwi abo amnandi, nobuso babo Yintoni endiyaziyo, bethu
Utata? Kuba ububi bolu tshaba bungafikelela kude kangakanani, sele bufikile
oyinkosi yotyekelo lwendalo aluthanda kangangoko?
Ndithi ke, Bawo, idemon ayize isilele ukuzivusa iinkanuko zabo ngokomntu obeza kuzicima, nokuba ibalahlekise.
ngokungenasiphoso ezingqondweni zabo nasezintliziyweni zabo izilingo ekungeyomfuneko ukuzichaza apha, kodwa ezimele ubuncinane ziphelise inkohliso ngokufumanisa ukusebenza komtyholi nokwemvelo eyonakeleyo ayenzayo .
Oku koko bekuya kwenzeka ngokungathandabuzekiyo, ukuba le miphefumlo ibingamfamekiswa kangako yimbono entle enayo ngayo nekratshi lobudenge elibalawulayo .
Ndibafanisa nabantu behlabathi nabangamabhongo, abangenankathalo nomsebenzi kodwa abazihombise kakuhle, okanye ukuhombisa ubuhle babo bemvelo, okanye ukulungisa iimpazamo, okanye ukulungisa umonakalo wexesha .
bachithe eyona nxalenye ilungileyo yeentsuku zabo kulo msebenzi ungeyomfuneko; baqhubeka bebuyela kuyo, ngaphandle kokukwazi ukuziphazamisa kuyo nomzuzu omnye. Ubabona bejija bejikela phambi kwesipili sokunxiba ukuze bahlolisise ngenyameko enkulu ukuba yonke into idityaniswe kakuhle kusini na; ukuba akukho nto ilahlekileyo kuhlengahlengiso lwabo; ukuba ukungakhathali okuthile bekungayi kuwonakalisa umbono kunye nobucekeceke babantu bencasa abathe rhoqo, oko kukuthi abantu bodidi oluphezulu, banikwe ngokupheleleyo kwizinto ezifanayo ezingeyomfuneko, kububudenge obufanayo, apho bangakrokreli nembonakalo encinane. yokwenzakala.
Yiloo nto kanye, Bawo, umfanekiso wendalo wale miphefumlo ikhohlisiwe kwimiba yokuzinikela. Kukufuna rhoqo, ukuzithanda ekungekho nto inokubaphazamisa kuyo, kwaye bahlala kuyo
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ngaphandle kokuqaphela. Kukuzingca okumntwisiweyo: ewe, kukuzingca emntwini, ukuba ndinokuyichaza. Enjani yona ingozi ke ngoko!
Ukusuka apho kufuneka sigqibe, Bawo, ukuba ngaphandle kokholo kunye nentobeko kwiBandla, ngaphandle kokuthobeka okunzulu, kudityaniswe nothando lukaThixo nommelwane, ngaphandle kwentiyo yesono nokungazithembi-kanye, yonke into esiyenzayo iyinkohliso, kwaye kwanamayeza anokujika abe yityhefu ukuze asibulale. Kodwa kunye neempawu ezilungileyo ezisisiseko iisakramente ezifunyenweyo kufuneka zihlale ziluncedo kuthi. Umtyholi unokusihlasela aze angaze asoyise, ukuba asifuni; ngokuba lowo simbeka kuye
ukuzithemba kwethu nesithembele kuye, akusayi kusivumela ukuba sibe yinto yokudlala yeentshaba eziphakamileyo ngokomelela kunye nobuchule, ngaphandle kwayo yonke into esidibanisa nomthandazo ekuphaphameni, silandela isiluleko senkosi yethu yobuthixo, kwaye, njengoko umpostile ethanda, silufezile usindiso lwethu, sinokoyika nokungcangcazela.
Kwiindidi ezimbini zenguquko egqibeleleyo. Yintoni equlethwe yiyo.
Makhe sithethe ngoku Bawo, ngale nto uThixo andenza ndiyibone, malunga neenkolelo ezimbini esizifundiswa kwasebuntwaneni. Onjani wona umahluko phakathi komnye nomnye! Okokuqala ndibona ukuba inguquko egqibeleleyo iphuma kuthando olunyulu lukaThixo, oluthi ngoko nangoko lube yinto yalo. Ubeka yonke into ecaleni, ngoko kuthetha, kwaye ngandlela-thile uyazilibala ukuba acinge kuphela ngoThixo kwaye afune uThixo kuphela, lowo wenza yedwa okanye ubuncinane injongo ephambili yeemvakalelo kunye neminqweno yakhe, amathemba akhe kunye noloyiko lwakhe, ixesha. nangonaphakade: izithembiso nezisongelo, imivuzo nezohlwayo, zonke ziphela emehlweni othando olunyulu, oluphakamisa kuphela uThixo njengesiphelo salo sokugqibela, apho ubuncinane yonke into ifunxwe nguye;
Ubabalo lothando olunyulu, olunqabileyo, olubalaseleyo noluxabiseke ngakumbi kunolo lokufela ukholo. Imiphumo yayo.
Nangona kuyinyaniso ukuba olu babalo, oluxabiseke ngakumbi ngengqiqo kunolo lokufel’ ukholo, olu lubabalo lothando olunyulu lukaThixo, lwafunyanwa kwabona bangcwele bakhulu, yaye ngakumbi okanye ngaphantsi kubo bonke abahlobo bokwenyaniso bakaThixo, sinokuthi: nangona kunjalo, ukuba inikwe ngokuzeleyo kwayo kuphela kwinani elincinane kakhulu lemiphefumlo ekhethiweyo. UThixo, osoloko engumnini wezipho zakhe, akaniki wonk’ ubani oyena butyebi bakhe bungenakuthelekiswa nanto, obo bokuthanda ukuza kuthi ga kweli nqanaba nangendlela efanayo. Kule nto akenzi bubi nakubani na, yaye akukho bani unelungelo lokuhlab’ amadlala ngokuziphatha kwakhe.
Ndithe, Bawo, olu lubabalo ngandlel’ ithile luxabiseke ngakumbi kunobabalo lokufela ukholo. Ewe, kwaye ndiyabona ukuba uthando olunyulu lukaThixo luqulathe konke okona kugqwesileyo, okuhle kakhulu, okuncomekayo nokuzezona zibalaseleyo.
iqhawe lokufela ukholo, kodwa kwinqanaba elingenakuchazwa. Ukuze lowo umthanda ngokugqibeleleyo uThixo, nangolu thando lunyulu nolungenamdla sithetha ngalo, ngokufuthi nangendlela engaqhelekanga azive ethanda nokuzimisela ukunikela ngobomi bakhe, kungekuphela nje ukuze angalukhanyeli ukholo lwakhe nonqulo lwakhe. , kodwa kunokuba enze nesona sono sincinci sikaThixo, oluthando lwakhe alukhetha ngokungenasiphelo kunobomi bakhe nako konke okunye. Ndathi ukuba umphefumlo onjalo uvakalelwa rhoqo kwaye ngendlela engaqhelekanga kwimeko endisandul 'ukuthetha ngayo, kuba le meko apho uThixo aphakamisa imiphefumlo ethile, ayisosimo esiqhelekileyo. UThixo ukunika kuphela ixesha elingaphezulu okanye elingaphantsi kwexesha elide.
Ndibona ngakumbi; kuba, ukuba bekungenakwenzeka, bekucengwa kuye ukuba enze esi siphoso sincinane, okanye atshiswe ngonaphakade, ndiyabona, ndithi, intliziyo yakhe, ithabatheke ngokupheleleyo kolona thando lunyulu lombhali wayo; angavuma ukutshisa, kunokuba avume ukungamkholisi into ethandekayo yolu thando loloyiso, kwaye uya kuhla ephila kwimibhobho yanaphakade yesihogo; akazange alibazise ukuziphosa kuwo, ekhaliphe ingqumbo yeedemon namadangatye. Ngoko ke kubaluleke ngakumbi kuthi kwaye kuzuke ngakumbi kuThixo, ukuba siyamthanda ngale ndlela, kunokuba sinikele ubomi bethu kwaye siphalaze igazi lethu ngenxa yokuzikhusela kunye nokholo lwe-JC. kuwo onke amakholwa, kunalo lothando olunyulu, ekuthe kwagcinelwa esona sithsaba sinobungangamsha nesityebi ezulwini kuwo onke amaphakade....
Iidigri ezininzi kwinguquko egqibeleleyo.
Njengoko kukho izidanga ezininzi kwimfanelo yokufela ukholo, ndikwabona amanqanaba ahlukeneyo kolu tshintsho lugqibeleleyo luvela kuthando olunyulu. Kuba, nangona bonke abo lufunyenwe kubo betyekele kwimfezeko yolu thando lunyulu kunye nale nguquko igqibeleleyo, bakude nokuba bahambele phambili ngokulinganayo kulo; kwaye uThixo uyandibonisa ukuba iqondo endithethe ngalo lelona ligqibeleleyo kuzo zonke, kwaye zonke ezinye
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zisezantsi; kodwa lo mahluko awukuthinteli ukuzohlwaya okuveliswa kuko ekubizwa ngokuba kugqibelele, ngenxa yokuba kusekwe phezu kweentshukumisa ezifanayo zolo thando lunyulu nolugqibeleleyo olulunika ixabiso lalo nehlelo: indalo elungeleleneyo, iyindalo kuphela elungeleleneyo. umsebenzi omninzi okanye omncinci owenza umahluko.
Churn. Amanqanaba ayo ahlukeneyo amelwe phantsi komzobo we-staircase okanye ileli.
Ke kona ukuzohlwaya ngenxa yokungafezeki, athe uThixo athanda ukuba ndithethe ngako kuni, ndiwubona umahluko omkhulu phakathi kwawo nokokuqala, ngokukodwa ngokwezimvo zazo, ngokwazo ezahlukeneyo, ngokwahlukileyo koko; Ndisabona iqondo elingenasiphelo phakathi kwelona nqanaba liphezulu kunye nelona lisezantsi lemfezeko kwabo kufunyenwe kubo olu phawu; kwaye aba baninzi ngakumbi, njengoko abo kukho inguquko egqibeleleyo kubo ngelishwa banqabile.
Ukuzenza ndiqondwe ngcono, Bawo, ndicinga ukuba izitepsi eziphakamileyo ezenziwe ngamanqwanqwa amaninzi okunyuka nokuhla. I-infinity yemiphefumlo ibekwe kula manyathelo okanye amanyathelo ahlukeneyo, ngokutsho kwabo ngaphezulu okanye ngaphantsi kokungafezeki kwabo: umphefumlo omncinci ongafezekanga kubo bonke ubekwe kwinqanaba eliphambili ukusuka phezulu, kwaye eyona nto ingafezekanga isezantsi ekugqibeleni; abanye bathatha amabanga aphakathi ahlukeneyo. Bonke bakwisiphithiphithi esithe gqolo, kwaye badla ngokunyuka ngokukhawuleza okanye kancinci, kuxhomekeke ekubeni iminqweno yabo idlamkile na kwaye iyalangazelela. Abanye banyuka ngokukhawuleza kakhulu, abanye bahamba ngokucothayo kwaye ngathi bahamba ngezinyuko ezilinganisiweyo. Kukho abathile abayeka kwaphela; kwaye, ngelishwa, kukuba nje ukuba bayeke, bajonge ngasemva. kwaye babuye behle ngokukhawuleza kunokuba beze phezulu. Sibona abanye ababuyela umva ngokokude bashiye inyathelo ngokupheleleyo, baze badlule inyathelo lokugqibela, emva koko akusekho nakuphi na ukuzisola, kodwa ingozi eqhelekileyo yokugwetywa okungunaphakade.
Ngokuphathelele imiphefumlo ekhutheleyo ethi, ngaphandle kokudimazeka, isebenze ngokunyanisekileyo ukunyusa umgangatho. UThixo undenza ndiqonde ukuba ubona ngokukhululeka imizamo yabo, inkalipho yabo, ukudinwa kwabo kunye nomsebenzi wabo oqhubekayo wokoyisa imiqobo ephakanyiswa ngumtyholi, ihlabathi kunye nenyama ukuze babamise endleleni eya emfezekweni. Uyabakhusela, abaphilise, abakhusele, yaye wolulela isandla kubo, ukuze abancede baphephe imigibe namawa; kwaye okukhona benyanisekile kubabalo lwakhe, kokukhona evuya ekubapha abomeleleyo nayintabalala. Ekugqibeleni uyabafezekisa aze abatsale inyathelo ngenyathelo ukuya kwinqanaba lesibini ukusuka phezulu. Ndithi kowesibini kwaye
hayi ekugqibeleni; kuba uThixo undenza ndibone ukuba imiphefumlo enenzondelelo ifikile kweli nqanaba lemfezeko nesidima, udlulisela kubo intaphane yenceba, egqibezela ingqibelelo yabo kwaye ibahlambulule ngomlilo wothando lwakhe, owenza ukuba ukuguquka kwabo kugqibelele kwaye ngokukhawuleza phakathi kwabo ndathetha ngabo kuqala.
Maxa wambi uThixo unikela inguquko egqibeleleyo kwabona bangaboni bakhulu.
Kwakhona ndiyabona ukuba, inkosi yezipho zakhe, ezihlala zikhululekile, uThixo unako ukunika kwaye ngamanye amaxesha anike aboni abakhulu le nguquko egqibeleleyo, ngaphandle kokubeka kubo naluphi na uvavanyo. Le miphefumlo inethamsanqa idinga kuphela ukulahla ukuthanda kwayo nenkululeko yayo yokuzikhethela ukuya kukhokelo lukaThixo nasekuthandeni kothando lukaThixo oluyitsalela apho... baye basebenza ubomi babo bonke ukufezekisa oko. Mhlawumbi ewe; kodwa kungabikho ukunganeliseki nakhwele apha.
Ngokungathi uThixo akanguye umphathi wenceba yakhe! ngokungathi unokukhubekisa nabani na! Hayi! Ngubani na ke umntu ongakhathaliyo, oya kumxelela ngehambo yakhe? Ngubani na oya kuba nobuganga bokuthi kubulumko banaphakade obenzela yonke into uzuko lwakhe
nosindiso lwethu: Yini na, Nkosi, ukuba ubenzele izinto ezibabalwe kangaka abanye abantu, ube wena ubanike ngokuncinane ngelize?
Bubudenge ! Yeyakho na, ubunzulu bemimiselo yakhe? Ngaba akakhululekile ukuba enze njengoko ebona kufanelekile, kwaye athambekele ngakumbi, ekuthandeni abo abathandayo, iimfanelo zokuphalazwa kwegazi kubo bonke? UThixo uneenjongo zakhe ukususela kwixesha elingenammiselo, eziya kusoloko ziyimfihlelo kuthi: into esiyaziyo ngokuqinisekileyo kukuba akunakuze kubekho okungekho sikweni kuye, yaye oku koko simele sibambelele kuko.
Kodwa nantsi into yokwanelisa abangonelisekanga, ukuba ikhona.
Ndibona kuThixo ukuba imiphefumlo esebenze nzima ngoncedo lobabalo ukuze igqibelele ineemfanelo ezingaphezulu ngokungenasiphelo phambi kwakhe kunaleyo ifikelele kwimfezeko, okanye endaweni yoko eye yaya apho ngokupheleleyo – ibethwe zizibabalo ezikhethekileyo. Abanye baye bonwaba ngakumbi, abanye basebenza ngakumbi, yaye ngenxa yoko bafaneleka ngakumbi. UThixo, owenze zonke izinto, uya kuyazi indlela yokwaba imivuzo, njengoko ebabale, engakhange abonakalise ubulungisa bakhe obungunaphakade okanye ukulunga kwakhe okongamileyo. Ngaba sinokwenza okungakumbi kunokuzincama ekwenzeni ukuthanda kwakhe size sikholose ngaye ngayo yonke into esixhalabisayo?
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Ngaba ishishini losindiso lwethu lingabekwa ngcono kunasezandleni zalowo, ekude nokusikhohlisa nangayiphi na into, enze, ngokuchaseneyo noko, angenzi nto ingenamdla wethu, kwaye engatyekeli kulonwabo lwethu olukhulu? .
Kubomi bangoku, akukho mathandabuzo okuba imiphefumlo eye yahendwa kakhulu yaza yalingwa kakhulu ayinatyala lokuwa kwaye isengozini yokukhukhumala kunaleyo ithandwa kakhulu. Inkumbulo yexesha elidlulileyo ihlala ibagcina belindile, kwaye ibasebenzela njengesilumkiso malunga nokuwa, apho eyona miphefumlo iphambili kunye neyona ithandwayo ayisoze ikhululwe ngokugqibeleleyo. Njengoko sitsho isibhalo ukuthi, Abo bamileyo maboyike ukukhubeka; abangcwele mababe ngcwele; into eyenziwa ngamalungisa
yekani ukuzigwebela; yanga iintliziyo ezihlambulukileyo zingazihlambulula ngakumbi, kwaye banga bonke bangazama, ngemisebenzi yabo emihle, ukuqinisekisa ubizo lwabo lolonwabo lwanaphakade.
Ukuzohlwaya, okanye intlungu yesono, eyona nto ifunekayo ukuze sisindiswe. Ngenxa yoko imiphumo yokuguquka okwenziwa luthando. Isixhobo sokuzisola.
Ungamangaliswa, Bawo, ukuba ndiphethe yonke ingqibelelo kunye nokomoya ngokuzohlwaya kuphela. Kukuba ndibona kuThixo ukuba akukho mphefumlo unengqondo unokusindiswa ngaphandle kokuzisola okanye intlungu yesono, ngoko ke akukho mntu ukhulileyo unokukhululwa; kwaye oku kuyinyaniso, ukuba ekucingeni ukuba umphefumlo uthembekile ngokwaneleyo ukuba ungaze uwaphule umthetho kaThixo, okanye izibhambathiso zobhaptizo lwakhe, ngempazamo enye yenyama, ndiyabona ukuba ukuya ezulwini kuya kuba yimfuneko ukuba lo mphefumlo , ungatsho ukuba ndenze isohlwayo somzimba nesebenzayo; kodwa ndiyabona ukuba kuya kufuneka abe nentlungu yokwenyani nenyanisekileyo kuzo zonke izono ezenziweyo.
Oku, ndiyaphinda, kuya kumangalisa, kodwa akufuneki kumangalisa. Isizathu silula: alukho usindiso ngaphandle kokuthanda uThixo, akukho thando lukaThixo lungenantiyo ngesono naphi na apho sifumaneka khona; yaye le ntiyo iqhelekileyo nepheleleyo yesono esithatyathwe kuyo ngokwayo, ngokuyimfuneko ivelisa intlungu yesikhubekiso esingokobuthixo kuthi nakubo bonke abanye, ukuba bekunjalo kuphela.
isono sokuqala; kuba, nangona kuxolelwa ngobhaptizo, kwanangendlela engayifuniyo nayiphi na imbuyekezo esebenzayo, okanye inguquko yomzimba, akunjalo nakanye ukuba uThixo uye wakhutyekiswa kuko, nokuba, ukuba usixolela ngesisa, kungenxa yokulunga kwakhe okukhulu kuphela nenceba yakhe esibatyala yona, kwanangezono esingazenziyo, ebesiya kuzenza ngokungenasiphoso ngaphandle kobabalo olungaphambili.
Ubona njani, Bawo, ukuba intiyo yesono iqulethwe eluthandweni umntu analo kuThixo phantsi kwesohlwayo sesigwebo, akukho namnye, njengoko benditshilo, onokuthi akhululwe ekohlwayeni, nkqu nemiphefumlo emsulwa, ukuba ngaphandle kwenu abo baswele ingqondo.
Kodwa le nguquko eveliswa luthando lobuthixo ayisebenzi kwabo bangcwele; ivelisa khona ezona mpawu zintle zibalaseleyo, kwaye inabela phezu kwazo zonke izono ezinokwenzeka, ukubathiya nokuzithiya zonke, ukuqala ngezona zisondeleyo. Ngumlilo odlayo onwenwela phezu kwezono nokungafezeki kwabanye, emva kokuba utshabalalise kwaye utshise izono nokungafezeki komphefumlo apho uhlala khona. Ungathanda, lo mphefumlo, ukuba ube nako ukutshabalalisa zonke izenzo zolwaphulo-mthetho zoluntu, yaye ngenxa yoko akukho mpahla okanye ubomi awayengekakulungeli ukubunikela; uhlala ehlala ezilile ngezono zakhe. Utsho yena ukuthi... Ngoko ke ndayicandisa into endiyithandayo; Ndamlahla uThixo wentliziyo yam. Ah! !. Ukuba iintsuku ndakwazi
Imvume yokungamkholisi, ukuba ixesha endathi ndakwazi ukumthiya ngalo, linqunyulwe ebomini bam, kwaye ndinganikela izihlandlo eziliwaka ukuba ndicime inkumbulo yalo!...
Lifumana ithemba livakala, nokuthi kuye, Musa ukuba buhlungu; uzixolelwe izono zakho; UThixo ubalibala, abasayi kuvela phambi kobuso bakhe. la mazwi athuthuzelayo enza, ngendlela ,
kwandisa kuphela intlungu yakhe . Njani, wathi, hayi ukuba buhlungu mna, xa mna
cinga ukuba ndandingamkhubekisa uThixo ondithanda kangaka, nondixolela ngobubele . uThixo, nangona kunjalo, esingamqondiyo kwaye
ucatshukiswe yinkohlakalo nokungabi nambulelo okungaka macala onke ? Ah! ukuba ndi
Zange ndizive zintlungu, amatye ebethetha endityhola ngokungabi naluvelwano olungathethekiyo kuThixo ondithululele ngeentsikelelo ezingaka!
Ewe, ndiyayithetha, kwaye ndiyathembisa, lo Thixo wokulunga uya kuba lilize ukundixolela iziphoso zam nezikreqo zam, andinakuze ndizixolele ngokwam; baya kuhlala bephila kwinkumbulo yam njengoko befile entliziyweni yam nakwintando yam. andiyi kuyeka ukubatshabalalisa ngokuzohlwaya; ndiya kubathiya kude kuse ekupheleni . Siqalekisiwe isono, yintoni
Ndiya kukutshabalalisa ehlabathini, ndiphindezele impindezelo kaThixo wam ngenxa yobugwenxa bakho obenzileyo kuye!
Ezi, Bawo, zifana neentolo ezininzi ezidubula ngengalo enamandla yothando lukaThixo, evelisa isiqinisekiso soxolelo ngentlungu
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inguquko, novuyela ukwamkela ukuncwina nokuncwina, akubumba ngokwakhe entliziyweni. Intliziyo ayihlabileyo ngeentolo zakhe, ayisaneli ngenxa yokuvutha okumdlayo; uthumela zonke izidalwa ukuba zithabathe inxaxheba kwintlungu yakhe kwaye zililele kunye naye ngesono soThixo olungileyo kangaka, kunye nendelelo embi yombungu ozama ukumvukela.
Okunjani kona ukuzisola! Kubonakala ngathi zonke izenzo zolwaphulo-mthetho ze
Ihlabathi lihlanganisene ukuze lenze entliziyweni yalo mphefumlo uguqukayo, walo mthandi ugqibeleleyo woThixo wakhe, ulwandle olukrakra neentlungu, ukusa kwinqanaba lokuba aphulukane nobomi bakhe, ukuba uThixo akazange enze uhlobo lommangaliso oqhubekayo ukuze agcinwe. ngenxa yakhe kwaye umxhase ngamandla nxamnye neentlaselo eziphindwe kabini zothando lobuthixo.
Khawube nomfanekiso-ngqondweni, Bawo wam, umphunga othi imitha yelanga ehlabayo iwukhuphe ebudeni bobushushu bamaza obushushu nobushushu basehlotyeni; Emva kokuba ufikelele kwaye waqokelelana kumbindi womoya, lo mphunga uyajiya, uze emva koko ukhule ngenxa yobushushu, uze ubuyele emva kwimvula eninzi efudumeza ize ichumise loo maphandle abharhileyo. Umfanekiso wendalo wendlela uthando olunyulu olusebenza ngayo emiphefumlweni ihlaba ngekrele layo, kwaye ibangela, ukuba kuthiwe, inyibilike kwaye inyibilike kwiinyembezi zenguquko kunye nenguquko ngenxa yesono sikaThixo ...
Oku koko ooDavids, ooPetros abaNgcwele, ooMadeleine, ooAugustins, kunye namanye amaxhoba amaninzi awonwabileyo oguquko olungcwele nolunosindiso abalufumanayo; kodwa zange amandla olu thando loyiso azenze avakalelwe njengakuMyezo weMinquma. Kulapho, Bawo wam, awathi ngomzamo wokugqibela nowona unamandla, wathi wasitsala isaphetha sakhe waza waziphelela iintolo zakhe kweyona ntliziyo inyulu, umphefumlo kunye nobuntu obungcwele boMkhululi wethu ongcwele.
Olu thando lunyulu lwaluphila kuye ukuze kuzukiswe uThixo nokusindiswa kwemiphefumlo, kangangokuba umntu unokuthi ngandlel’ ithile wayekhohlakele, ekhohlakele yaye enxanelwe igazi. Hayi
eneliseke kukukhupha iinyembezi zamanzi, wayicinezela ngokungqongqo intliziyo yakhe engcwele kangangokuba wakhupha unogumbe wegazi. Wabuqaba emehlweni abantu bakhe ubungangamsha bukaThixo uyise, ehlazekile sisono; kodwa kwangaxeshanye wamzobela ubukhulu bolwaphulo-mthetho ngemibala eqaqambileyo kangangokuba akazange akwazi ukumelana noloyiko lwakhe. I-JC yawela ekungaphumeleli ngokupheleleyo kweengqondo zakhe, kwintlungu yokufa, apho indalo yawela khona, kwaye apho yayidinga uncedo lobuthixo bakhe ukuze izuze isandla esiphezulu. Ewe, Bawo, uloyiko lwalunjalo kangangokuba, ngomzuzwana, umzimba wakhe wobuThixo wamanziswa ngowona mbilo umangalisayo wakha wabakho. Ukubila okuxabisekileyo!... iinyembezi ezinamandla! uyabunqamla ubushushu bobuthixo; ubusifanele iinyembezi zentlungu ezisusa amabala kwizazela zethu; Ezi nyembezi, ziluncedo ngakumbi chumisa.
Ngoko ke, Bawo, njengokuba ekubuyeni kwentwasahlobo sibona yonke into ivelisa isiqhamo kwaye izalwe ngokutsha kwindalo; ngendlela efanayo, entliziyweni ethembekileyo apho umbethe wenceba uwile khona, ndibona iintyatyambo neziqhamo zintshula, ziqhubela phambili kwaye zivuthwa isivuno sazo zonke iimpawu zobuKristu.
Akunjalo, njengoko sibona, umhlaba, wona ngokwawo, ogutyungelwe sisivuno esityebileyo nesininzi kangaka; ivelisa kuphela isidima sothando olunyulu, oluyinkosi nomlimi wayo: sisisitho esisisiseko sayo. Kungenxa yoko le nto ethanda ukuyihombisa, ukuyenza indawo yolonwabo nolonwabo. Ngumyezo ovaliweyo wendoda engcwele nomfazi ongcwele; yiparadesi esemhlabeni . Apha, Bawo, ngokokubona kwam
kuThixo, into eyenziwa luthando lobuthixo entliziyweni olunayo; yiloo nto ephuma iinyembezi zokuzohlwaya, ezimbangela ukuba aziphalaze ngenxa yezono ezenziweyo.
Imiphumo eyintlekele yeenyembezi eziveliswa luthando olungalungelelananga lwesidalwa.
Kodwa ndibona ntoni? Bawo, kwaye umoya wam uthuthwa kweyiphi enye into?
Onjani wona ukuba buhlungu umahluko! Nazo zinyembezi ndizibona ziphuma; kukuncwina kwam endikuvayo; kodwa ezi ziinyembezi nokuncwina kweBhabheli, enegama elibi, enobubi, encwinayo, ebhombolozayo, eziqwengayo ngenxa yezinto zexeshana ezisindileyo, ngenxa yobuhlobo eniyishiyileyo, nangenxa yokuthabatheka kwayo, eyithuthumbisayo, amehlo ayo enyibilika emanzini . , kwaye oko
umlomo wakhe ukhupha ubukrakra bezono zakhe, nokuvutha komlilo wakhe
ngokungekho mthethweni, uThixo undenza ndibone ukuba iinyembezi zolu hlobo zifana nemvula yasebusika, ezisa kuyo yonke indawo ingqele yomkhenkce. Phantse isoloko isisiphumo somdla wolwaphulo-mthetho, ngamanye amaxesha ulwaphulo-mthetho olungaphezulu kwaloo nkanuko iveliswa kuyo. Ewe, Bawo, kwaye uqiniseke ngayo, kukho umahluko omkhulu ngokungenasiphelo phakathi kweenyembezi ezibangela ukuba uthando lobuthixo luphume entliziyweni oluyiphilisayo, kunye nezo ziveliswa luthando olungagungqiyo lwesidalwa, kunokuba kungekho nanye phakathi kwentwasahlobo nobusika. , iakwilon nefifi, imini nobusuku. Iqhwa neengqele zichitha kuphela, zikhe zibe ngumkhenkce, zitshise zonke izinto eziveliswe endle ngexesha elilungileyo: ze ngokunjalo iinyembezi ziphuma ngokuthanda izidalwa;
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yonke iminqweno emihle, zonke iintshukumo ezilungileyo zentliziyo kuThixo, zonke izimo ezilungileyo umphefumlo owawunazo ngenxa yesidima. Benza intshabalalo eyoyikekayo entsimini yomoya oyingcwele; ngokuqhelekileyo babulala apho konke okwazalelwa khona intwasahlobo entle yobabalo apho ngeentyatyambo neziqhamo; yaye iinyembezi ezibangelwa kukuphefumla okunetyhefu kwenyoka efileyo ziyingozi kuye kanye njengokuba iinyembezi zothando lobuthixo zazikholekile kuye.
Ndithini na kuwe, Bawo? Ezi nyembezi zibulalayo, zitshabalalisayo, zinjengonogumbe ongenasiphelo, ophumela emphefumlweni, ude ude uye kufika umongo wamathambo, ukuba sisenjenje ukuthetha; bangena emazantsi entliziyo befuna okona kulungileyo, bomise ingcambu yayo; Inkanuko yonke bayenza isithixo, nto leyo ke ekhonze intliziyo yabo; babuyisela apho ulawulo lomtyholi, lweenkanuko kunye nemigaqo yehlabathi, kumabhodlo okungabi natyala kunye nolawulo lukaJC (1).
(1) Quœ enim secundùm Deum trittitia est, poenitentiam in salutem stabilem operatur; soeculi autem tristitia mortem operatur. (2 Kor. 7.10).
Yiyo ke loo nto incasa ekugqitywe ngayo kubomi behlabathi, kunye nalo ntiyo ungenakunqandwa kuko konke oku kubizwa ngokuba zizenzo zezohlwayo nokuzingca; ngelizwi, kuyo yonke into ethimba iimvakalelo kwaye yonakalisa indalo eyonakeleyo. Oku
bayimiphefumlo engenanto kuThixo kwaye izaliswe yiziqu zabo; imiphefumlo apho ubabalo lufileyo kwaye isono siphila; imiphefumlo, ngelizwi, ethi, kuzo zonke izenzo zayo, ilandele kuphela iintshukumo zendalo kunye neminqweno eyahlukeneyo abangamakhoboka abo, abayithuthumbisayo kwaye bayikrazule, njengeentshaba ezininzi ezikrakra kunye namahlosi anganelisekiyo . Kunjalo emehlweni kaThixo abathandi behlabathi nezinto zalo ezingento yanto, abathi banamathele kwisidalwa, bamenze abe nguthixo abamnyulileyo kunoThixo ngokwakhe. Onjani wona umonakalo!...
Isikali sosindiso kunye nokugqibelela okanye amanqanaba ahlukeneyo okuzisola. Imiphefumlo eyahlukeneyo ekhwela leleli.
Makhe sibuyele umzuzwana kwinyathelo okanye kwisitebhisi esele ndithethe ngaso, esingeyiyo enye into ngaphandle kwendlela yemfezeko nosindiso, edlula ngayo bonke abanyuliweyo kunye nabo banentliziyo yokusindisa imiphefumlo yabo. Le ndlela iboniswa rhoqo kum njengeleli ye-perpendicular, unyawo lwalo lubekwe emhlabeni, kwaye ingqungquthela yayo iphakanyiswe phezulu kangangokuba ibonakala idlula isiqingatha sommandla womoya. Ngaba sifanele simangaliswe xa singayiboni?....
Njengoko leleli ibekwe kunyawo lwasekunene, ayinakunyukwa ngaphandle kokudinwa kakhulu. Ndibona abantu, bediniwe kule ndlela ibuhlungu, kangangokuba bazirhuqa kuyo, ngokungathi kunjalo, emadolweni nasezandleni zabo: Ndibona abanye abazibhokoxayo ngomzamo kwaye bahambe ngokukhawuleza ukuze bafikelele ngokukhawuleza ekupheleni kweminqweno yabo. . Kodwa njengoko bebeka kakhulu indalo, kwaye behamba ngokukhawuleza kunokuba uThixo akucelayo, bahlehla ngaphezu kokuba behambela phambili, kuba bathembele kuphela ngamandla abo, ngaphandle kokubuza ubabalo lweNkosi. awayebamisele bona.
Sibabona begxalathelana ukuya ngasekunene nangasekhohlo, besenza ezona mpawu zintle zibalaseleyo, besamkela zonke iintlobo zokuzinikela nezohlwayo, maxa wambi ezona zingqondi nezingaqhelekanga, bengabuzisi uThixo okanye abantu. . Ke ngoko balandela kuphela utyekelo lwabo kunye nempilo ethile yendalo; yaye njengoko indalo isoloko ibuthathaka yaye ingaguquguquki, phantse yonke into abayenzayo iba lilize okanye incinane kakhulu . Nangona kunjalo intando yabo
kuhle, iminqweno yabo idla ngokunyanisekileyo, ngamanye amaxesha inamandla kakhulu; ngenxa yoko uThixo engabayekeli batshabalale. Wolula isandla sakhe ukuze abaphakamise aze abakhuthaze. Ndithetha ukuba uyabagcina ubabalo olunobuchule, ujikelo olonwabileyo olubenza bavule amehlo kwaye babone kungekudala okanye kamva ukuba bangakanani na.
baye bazikhohlisa nangeendlela zabo zemfezeko. Ndiyabona ukuba ngokumalunga nabaninzi, izilingo, imizabalazo eqatha abadibana nayo kuphela sisiphumo semikhwa ephazamisekileyo ababezinikele kuyo. UThixo ubenzela imfazwe ngokubavumela. Ngaloo ndlela iziyolo zabo zangaphambili ziguqulwa zibe yinguquko, yaye okusesikweni kobuthixo kuyaphindezelwa; kodwa uThixo ufuna ukubohlwaya kungekhona ukubatshabalalisa. Akasivumeli isihendo ukuba sidlule kubabalo abanalo lokuxhathisa. Ukuba, phezu kwazo nje izigqibo zabo ezilungileyo, ngamanye amaxesha bayayeka ukuthembeka kubo; ukuba batsalwa umva bubuthathaka bemvelo yabo ngakumtsalane obahendayo, uThixo akabalahli ngenxa yoko, ukuba nje baya kuvuka, bamkele inguquko, benze izigqibo eziqinileyo.
Kubonakala kule miphefumlo yoyikayo ukuba ayenzi nkqubela phambili ngesidima; ukuze bangahambi ngendlela yosindiso, ngoxa besoloko behambela phambili kuyo ngomkhondo omkhulu. Ndiyabona ukuba uThixo ujonge kubo ngeliso lokukhalaza nobubele, kwaye ubagcinele ilixa lokufa, ubabalo olubabalweyo olugqibezela ukusulungekiswa kwabo.
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nokuzenza zikholeke kuye; iimpawu ezingcwele zokufumana izithethe zokugqibela; kunye nokungcwalisa ukugula kwabo, ukwanda kothando lukaThixo, ukuzithemba okukhulu kwinceba yakhe, umbingelelo wesisa kunye nowonke wobomi babo ngokumanyana nokufa kuka-JC, ubabalo oluninzi oluxabisekileyo oluhlala lubenza bagqibe i-purgatory yabo ngaphambi kokuba bafumane. ngaphandle kwehlabathi.
Imiphefumlo ewa phantsi kwendlela eya entshabalalweni, ihla kwizinyuko zeleli.
Ndibona abanye benyuka esi sidanga ngokulula kunye novuyo oluthile olubenza boyise yonke imiqobo enokuthi umtyholi okanye indalo ibaphakamisele. Bathabathe intando engcwele yobungcwele njengolawulo okanye injongo yabo kuyo yonke into Kwaye,
ngaphandle kokuphazamiseka ngakumbi, ngokukhawuleza bafika kwisiphelo esivuyisayo seminqweno yabo.
Ibhekise kwimiphefumlo ebheka emva kwayo, ize ibuye umva ukunyathela kwayo, ide igqithe kwinqanaba lokugqibela; njengoko besesitshilo ngasentla, uThixo undenza ndibone ukuba ekushiyeni izidanga bawela kwindlela enkulu yentshabalalo, apho kukho inyathelo elinye kuphela lokuwela esihogweni. Usindiso lwabo lusengozini; nasi isizathu: Ubukhulu becala ngabona bantu baye bancamathela ngamandla kwiminqweno yabo kunye nolonwabo lwabo lolwaphulo-mthetho. Ngoku, njengoko senditshilo ndaza ndabona, uThixo phantse usoloko evumela izilingo ezifanayo ukuba zibuye emva kokuguquka komoni, kwaye oku kuvavanya izigqibo zakhe, ukumomeleza kwinjongo yakhe ngokumgcina elumkile nxamnye nesiqu sakhe nakukothuka kobubi. idemon, ekugqibeleni ukumhlambulula nokumohlwaya;
Baqala ngokungaziboni izigqibo zabo nezithembiso zabo. Umtsalane wolonwabo olubahendayo ubakhokelela kwiziphazamiso zabo zokuqala, abathi bazinikele kuzo ngakumbi kunangaphambili. Bazinikela kuyo yonke intliziyo yabo nentliziyo yabo; ukuguqulwa kwabo kuba nzima kakhulu, kuthatha ummangaliso ukuyisebenza. Sinokuthi abasekho endleleni esa elusindisweni, ubuncinane ngokuphathelele isazela sabo nehambo yabo, nto leyo echasene kakhulu neVangeli. Yiloo nto endiyiqondayo xa ndibabona bengehla nje inyathelo, kodwa baphume kuyo ngokupheleleyo, kwaye bathathe inyathelo lokugqibela elingezantsi, emva koko kukho ukuwa kunye nentshabalalo. I-staircase, okanye idigri, yindlela yodwa yobabalo kunye nosindiso, nayiphi na enye indlela ingaba yindlela yendalo, yeminqweno kunye nesihogo. Oku, Bawo, kufanele ukuba kubenze bangcangcazele aboni ababuyileyo . Ngaba bangangena
bathabathe eli thuba bavule amehlo abo bakhangele kwishwangusha elibi, apho imeko eyoyikekayo abaziva bengcungcuthekiswa kuyo ngokuzithandela kufuneka iphele ngokungenakuphepheka! Ngamana bangasebenzisa ubabalo lukaThixo abasabanika lona, ukuba baphume kulo kube kanye nangonaphakade!
Isiqinisekiso sosindiso kwabo bakweliphi na inyathelo, nakwelona lisezantsi leleli.
Imeko ekhwankqisayo, ngokusingise kuyo yonke imiphefumlo ngokubanzi ebekwe kumanqanaba ahlukeneyo enqanaba elinye, yeyokuba emva kwemizuzu embalwa yokuzama ndabona enye nenye inyamalala, kwaza kwafika enye eyathabatha indawo yayo. kwaye, ngamanye amaxesha kwelinye, ngamanye amaxesha kwelinye,
ngokuhlukileyo kubo bonke. Nakweyiphi na inqanaba ebelibekwe ngalo, ixesha lafika lokunikezela indawo yalo kwelinye kwaye linyamalale emehlweni am. Ndabuza isizathu solu tshintsho luhlala luhleli, waza uThixo wandiphendula wathi leleli yindlela yemfezeko nosindiso, inokwenzeka kuphela ebudeni bobomi bangoku, apho kungekudala ukufa kuza kuthabatha ngamnye wethu, ngaxa lithile sikuyo. kuyo ukuze sisindiswe, kwaye nakweliphi na inqanaba lemfezeko okanye ukungafezeki sizifumana sibekwe. Inkohlakalo ibetha ngokukhawuleza kwaye ngaphandle kokuqwalaselwa: kufuneka unyamalale kwaye unike indawo yakho kwenye.
Ngaloo ndlela abantu balandelana, kwaye ihlabathi lonke lidlula kwisizukulwana ukuya kwesinye. I-JC yandenza ukuba ndiqonde ukuba abo ndibabona befika kwaye benyamalala kwinqanaba lokuqala ukusuka ngaphantsi, babengaboni abakhohlakeleyo kunye nobumfama obungazange bube buphakanyiswe; ukuba ukubona ukufa, ngoxa kwakusoyikisa, kubakhumbuza kubo, kuvuselele ukholo lwabo, ithemba labo nothando lwabo, ngentlungu yokwenene ngenxa yokuba bekhubekisile uThixo. Emva koko bafa kwinqanaba lokuqala lokuguquka kwabo; ngokungathandabuzekiyo ngebabehambele phambili ngakumbi apho, ukuba ukufa kwakubavumele ukuba badlulele phambili, ukuba babeneminyaka embalwa, iiveki ezimbalwa, okanye ubuncinane iintsuku ezimbalwa. Njengabanye, nabo ngebenyamalale kwinqanaba eliphezulu okanye elingaphantsi, ngokobude bexesha, ukuvutha kothando lwabo kunye nenzondelelo yenguquko yabo. Kodwa ekugqibeleni bafela endleleni esa elusindisweni, leyo yeyona ngongoma ibalulekileyo; kuba uThixo undenza ndibone ukuba yonke imiphefumlo eyenza usindiso lwayo kwaye kufuneka ngenye imini ibe nalo, ithi ke ivalwe kwesi sinyuko njengakumkhombe kaNowa; kwaye nokuba singakanani na
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safela izulu, ngokuba safa sinobabalo.
Ndathi, Bawo, ukuba ukusuka ezantsi kule leli ingaqondakaliyo umntu akanakuyibona incopho elahlekileyo emafini, okanye nditsho phezulu kakhulu; kodwa uThixo wandikhokelela khona ngomoya, wandenza ndayibona into endiya kukuxelela yona.
Phezulu kweleli kukho indlela encinci ekhokelela encotsheni ye
Uthando lweNtabeni yoloyiso.
Ukusuka phezulu kule leli akunakwenzeka ukuba ubone umzantsi, kuba asiwuboni umhlaba. Incopho yesi sidanga iphumle ngokuchasene nesiseko sentaba ephakamileyo, enyuka phezulu phezulu. Ukushiya iqondo, sifumana, emazantsi entaba ephakamileyo, indlela encinane ekhokelela encotsheni; le ndlela incinci icuthene kakhulu kwaye ayibethwa, kuba bambalwa abantu abadlula kuyo. Incopho yentaba ibonelela ngeyona ndawo ilungileyo yokuhlala kumoya wokholo nothando; kwakhona, le ntaba ibizwa ngokuba yintaba yoloyiso lothando, njengoko JC wandixelela ngokwakhe.
Yeyona ndawo inomtsalane ukuhlala unokuthi ucinge ngayo; umoya ucocekile kwaye uzolile; iziqhamo apho zininzi kwaye zimnandi; umhlaba ugutyungelwe apho zizivuno kunye nabo bonke ubutyebi basekwindla, nangona intwasahlobo engapheliyo igcina emadlelweni uhlaza lwe-turf kunye nokukhazimla kweentyatyambo ezahlukeneyo ezifakwe i-enamelled. Umoya unuka kamnandi; ukuphumla kuphazanyiswa kuphela kukumbombozela okuthambileyo kwamanzi asuka encotsheni aqukuqela esihla ethambekeni lenduli, okanye kukuntyiloza okumyoli kweentaka, ezithi zithe ngcu phezu kwamasebe emithi, zibonakale zizibandakanya kwiikonsathi zabathandi. nabathandi bomyeni. Ngelizwi nje, Bawo, umntu uyonwabela yonke into apho indalo inokuvelisa eyona nto ilungileyo kwaye inenzuzo kakhulu.
Ukuba kuvumelekile apha ukuba kusetyenziswe amabinzana angenamsebenzi, umntu unokuthi le ndawo yolonwabo, ehlala imiphefumlo ekhokelwa luthando olunyulu, ifana nehlomela-dolophu okanye i-antechamber yendawo yokuhlala yabasikelelekileyo. Yiparadesi yokwenene yasemhlabeni, apho uthando lukaThixo loyisa kuyo yonke into; yaye kuyo yonke indawo esiyidumisayo, siyasikelela, sinqula uThixo ngothando lwakhe olunyulu, nangenxa yothando lwakhe olunyulu, phantse njengoko abasikelelweyo besenza ezulwini, apho lonke olunye uthando, zonke ezinye izilangazelelo zifunyaniswa kuthando olukuphela kukaThixo, luhlobene. kwaye wathotyelwa phantsi kwakhe, njengendlela yokufikelela kwisiphelo sakhe. Iintetho, izenzo, iingcinga, iminqweno zonke zizenzo zothando olunyulu nolugqibeleleyo. Umphefumlo uphefumla uthando kuphela kwaye uhlala eluthandweni olunyulu. Hayi ubumnandi, ubumnandi, ulonwabo olugqibeleleyo.!...
Ndavuya kakhulu ukubona inkitha engako yabantu behamba ngolo hlobo ngendlela yengqibelelo; kodwa iNkosi yethu yalunqanda uvuyo lwam ngokundibonisa, 1°. ukuba inani lalingento yanto, xa lithelekiswa nenani elingenakubalwa labalahlwayo abaphulukene bubuqhophololo obupheleleyo beengqondo zabo nokugqwetheka okupheleleyo kweentliziyo zabo, bendele nzulu ebubini; 2°. ukuba nabani na endimbone endleleni akayi kuba
bengekaqukwa kwinani labanyuliweyo nabamiselwe ngenxa engaphambili, kodwa kuphela abo bathi, ngokuthembeka kwabo kwisibhambathiso sobhaptizo lwabo nakubabalo lobizo lwabo, babefanele unyamezelo; abathe bavuka ekuweni kwabo, baze bathwale iziqhamo ezifanelekileyo zenguquko, ngaloo ndlela besekele uxolelo lwabo phezu kwenceba engapheliyo kaThixo. Wongezelela ngelithi, abo babuyela umva abamiselwa ngenxa engaphambili ulonwabo abangazikhupheli kulo.
Ke kaloku, kwezinye, Bawo, akandinikanga uphawu, namqondiso, ukuba ndicalule abamiselwa ngenxa engaphambili, nabangengawo; ndibe ndibe buhlungu kakhulu ngokuwucela kuye, ekubeni ekuthandeni kwakhe oko kuko konke ukuthanda kwakhe. imfihlelo leyo uzigcinele yona yedwa, engayi kutyhilwa kude kube ngumhla wokugqibela; kodwa ndandiyazi ngokucacileyo ukuba ngeli xesha elibulalayo akuyi kubakho umntu olahlayo ongenzi ubulungisa kubabalo oluphambili lwe-JC, ngokuvuma ukuba, ukuba ulahlekile, kungenxa yakhe, kwaye kuye yedwa, ukuba kufuneka . yithathe .
Inani elincinane labo banesifo sokwenyani.
Makhe sithethe enye into, Bawo, malunga neenzuzo kunye neziphene zale nguquko, esele sithetha ngayo kakhulu; kuba bekungayi kubakho siphelo ukuba yonke into bekufuneka ithethwe kwinqaku elibalulekileyo. Kutheni ukuzisola ngokwenene kunqabile? Ngenxa yokuba siyakutyeshela ukucamngca ngezibhambathiso zobhaptizo, iziphelo zokugqibela, ngothando olungenaluxabiso, olunolwazelelelo nolungenakucingelwa lukaThixo ngathi, yonke into enokusikhokelela apho; ekugqibeleni, silahlekelwa yimbono yezinto zokholo. Kodwa hayi indlela ekulula ngayo ukuba intliziyo eqhelene nayo ngokucamngca ngeenyaniso ezingcwele nezoyikekayo ukubamba le nguquko ilungileyo, uThixo angaze asilele ukubanika abo bayicelayo ngemithandazo enenzondelelo neminqweno evuthayo!
Hayi indlela enyaniseke ngayo intlungu yakhe, hayi indlela edlamke ngayo inguquko yakhe, xa ekhumbula ukungabi nambulelo kwakhe kuThixo owamthululela ngeentsikelelo, aze acele kuye, ngenxa yokwamkelwa konke, kuphela ukunyaniseka kothando lwakhe!... Esi sidalwa sonwabileyo ngokungathandabuzekiyo ezaliswe kukoyika imigwebo kaThixo onempindezelo;
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kodwa umanyanisa kulo uthando loThixo olungileyo, kwaye olu mvakalelo lokugqibela lulo oluloyisayo entliziyweni yakhe; kwaye njengoko ibekeke kwaye ikholisa kakhulu kulowo uyinjongo yayo, inxibelelana ngobume bayo kubo bonke abanye, kwaye iba yeyona njongo iphambili.
Ndiyabona, uBawo, akukho luyolo, okanye ukuncamathela, namathuba, akukho nto, ekugqibeleni, ukuba intliziyo etyekele ngolo hlobo ayikulungelanga ukubingelela ukuziphindezela kuThixo ngokuchasene nayo. Usebenzisa igazi le-JC kuye ngokwakhe ngesakramente yezohlwayo, kwaye izulu liyoyisa kwaye livuya ngokuguqulwa kwalo moni: umkhwa woyiswa; akasanikezeli ngaphandle kobuthathaka obumsulwa, kwaye ngenxa yokuwa kobuthathaka uphumelela uloyiso olungamashumi amabini okanye amathathu kwiminqweno yakhe. Kude ukuba imiswe endleleni yayo, iya kuthabatha ithuba lokuwa kwayo nokoyisa ngcono iintshaba zayo; uya kuqina kwaye azinzile de kube sekufeni kwimvakalelo kunye nesigqibo sokungaphindi one kwaye ahlale ethembekile kuThixo wakhe .
Kodwa, Bawo, yho! Hayi indlela elincinane ngayo inani labo baguqukayo ngolu hlobo! Ndiyaphinda kwakhona, ah! mncinane kangakanani!... Andifane ndibe nesibindi sokukuxelela ukuba uThixo undenza ndimbone ntoni... Kwikhulu... ndithini? mhlawumbi akukho nokuba abe mnye phakathi kwewaka!... Ndiyangcangcazela! Okunjani kona ukusetyenziswa kakubi kobabalo! Ezinjani zona izinyeliso, ezinjani zona izigebenga ezenziwa ngaba baqheli boni, abazibiza ngokuba bade bakholelwe ukuba baguqukile! bangaphi abantu abalahlekileyo, mingaphi imiphefumlo eya esihogweni ngokuchanekileyo ngeendlela ekumele ukuba igcinwe kuso Ngaba loo nto ayinako ukwenza abantu bangcangcazele? Thixo wam, kuya kwenzeka ntoni kuluntu oluhlwempuzekileyo ?....
Amaqhinga edemon ukunqanda uguquko lwenene lwentliziyo.
Zingaphi iinkuni, iinkohliso ezisetyenziswa yidemon ukubahenda! Okokuqala, ukubazimasa ekungakhathali nasekuwonqeni kwabo ngokomoya, ubenza baqonde ukuba ixesha lokuguquka kwabo alikafiki; ukuze, ukuze bawuphumelele umkhwa wenkanuko yabo, bafune ubabalo oloyisayo, aya kuthi uThixo abanike lona, xa athe walunga; ukuba okwangoku, bekungayi kuba lilize ukuzama nantoni na ngobabalo olubuthathaka kakhulu, wabaxelela, ukuba baphumelele. Kule meko bafa, phezu kwako nje ukuzisola kwesazela sabo nayo yonke imigudu yezulu yokubakhupha: iintshumayelo, ukufundwa, imiyalelo, iintshukumo ezilungileyo, zonke ziyatyeshelwa, zideliwe, zinyathelwe phantsi. Idemoni yathi: “UThixo unexesha lakhe; ixesha lakhe alikafiki; kufuneka wenze ingqondo yakho ukuyilinda ngokholo kunye nokuyeka: mhlawumbi kwaye kunokwenzeka ukuba uya kuyigcinela ixesha lokufa, masibe nomonde kwaye singangxami nantoni na; izinto bezingayi kuba ngcono; yonke into mayenziwe ngocwangco, kungaphumi ntweni.
Ah! Bawo, mingaphi imiphefumlo endiyibonayo iwela esihogweni, kweli themba lenkohliso lepeccavi elungileyo ngeyure yokufa! Kuba ngelo xesha, esikhundleni sokuba bazuze ubabalo oluncamisileyo, abalubabalayo, abaluzuzayo noluqhelekileyo, mhlawumbi basuke babaxhaphaze, kude kube sekugqibeleni, bade bafe bephila njengoko babedla ubomi.
Ewe, Bawo, aba bangamashwa bafa njengoko babephila; kuba ndibona iingqondo zabo zikhathazekile kwaye neentliziyo zabo ziqaqadekile; abasaboni nto ngaphandle kwamathunzi okufa, imijelo namawa. Kwaba ngoko idemon
ukuguquka kolwimi, nokuba aphumeze ibhetri yakhe yokugqibela kuhlaselo lokugqibela alunikela kubo: ngaloo ndlela ubenza bazigqale izono zabo njengezingenakuxolelwa nosindiso lwabo njengento engenakwenzeka. Athi kubo, Nimdelile uThixo, nobabalo lwakhe ebomini, nimelwe kukuthini na ke ukufa; sisiphumo esingenakuphepheka sokucingelwa okumkhubekisayo, kunye nokungabi nambulelo oye wasebenzisa ukuza kuthi ga ngoku ... ukuwela enzonzobileni yokuphelelwa lithemba, apho bahlala begqiba iintsuku zabo ezingonwabi. Kufa okunjani, Bawo! bekufuneka bazalwe bafe ngoluhlobo! Ngekuba bekungayi kuba bhetele ngokuphindwe kaliwaka kubo ukuba bebengaphumanga ekulizeni, kunokuba !....
Ndiyabona, Bawo, ukuba kukho abanye aboni abavumayo, baze baguquke benyanisekile ebomini babo; kodwa olu guqulelo aluloxesha elide. Idemon ivuselela inkanuko yabo ngogonyamelo kangangokuba ngokukhawuleza banikezele kuyo, mhlawumbi ngenxa yobuthathaka okanye ukusuka kumkhwa: emva koko bafumana ukudakumba okubenza bandisholo, kubatyhafise kwaye kubatyhafise; umphefumlo wabo ufana nofe umzimba kwaye kunzima ukwenza intshukumo enye kuThixo. Nangona kunjalo, ngamanye amaxesha basondela kwiisakramente, kodwa njengenyaniso, kunye nomkhwa othile ongatshintshi nto ekuziphatheni kwabo. Ukuba ngumbandela wokulungiselela ukuya kwinkundla engcwele, bacinga ngokwenza isigqibo esilungileyo sokungawi kwakhona . Konke kuhle, utsho
demon, ungathembisi ngaphezu kokuba amandla akho aya kukuvumela ukuba wenze! Hayi! awazi na ukuba yonke indoda yindoda? akunakwenzeka
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ukuba ungabuyeli umva ngokukhawuleza okanye kamva, kwaye ungalindeli enye into. Kwanele, ngenxa yokhuseleko lwakho, ukuba wenze isindululo sokuziphucula ngandlel’ ithile ngexesha eliyimfuneko lokwamkela imithendeleko; kodwa enjani yona impambano yokufuna ukuncama ulwaneliseko olunjalo nolwaneliseko ngonaphakade! ndithembe, ubungasoze usigcine eso sithembiso; kwaye kungcono ukungakwenzi oko kunokuzibeka emngciphekweni wokuba netyala ngakumbi ngezithembiso ezingaqiqiyo nezingeyomfuneko.
Kule nto, lowo uguqukayo uziqinisekisa ngakumbi kuba esi sigqibo usifumana simlungele ngakumbi kwaye sihambelana ngakumbi nendlela yakhe yokusigweba, njengako konke akubona ngaphakathi ukuba kuza kwenzeka. Utsho yedwa
: Kwaye enyanisweni, ayinakuba ngenye indlela; kwaye lelona qela lilumkileyo nelinobulumko kuzo zonke iinkalo. Ngoko ke wenza uhlobo oluthile lwesivumelwano okanye isivumelwano nesazela sakhe, esithi, ngalo lonke ixesha enqwenela ukuya kuvuma izono, asebenzise ukuzibamba okuncinane kwiinkanuko zakhe; ude azilungise, kangangeentsuku ezimbalwa, ngento eyenzeka ngempazamo; ude aphephe ezinye ngamaxesha, ukuba kuphela ukwenzela ukuba angaliwa ngumtyali wayo. Usazixhasa emva kwexesha elithile emva kokuxolelwa kwakhe, kwaye umtyholi unomdla kakhulu ekumkhohliseni ukuba angamshiyi nale ntlaninge yobuxoki yoguquko imqinisekisayo; kodwa ngokukhawuleza uphinda aqalise ngoqeqesho lwakhe lwesiqhelo, kwaye usezinika inkululeko epheleleyo esonweni, de kube lixesha xa sele eqhele kwaye xa eceba ukuya kuvuma izono: ukuze, ngaloo ndlela edlula kwisangqa soguquko aze abuyele, afumane Ukuphela komsebenzi wakhe yimfumba yolwaphulo-mthetho kunye nokuncama okumkhokelela enzonzobileni . Kodwa, Bawo wam, nanku mhlawumbi
elona qhinga lichuliweyo ledemon, ukubamfamekisa aba baguqukayo, ngokubaqinisekisa ngeengcinga ezibubuxoki, ekwaziyo ukuzibeka ngobuchule endaweni yezo zinto uThixo azicelayo.
Xa ubabalo lusukela umoni, xa isazela sakhe simkhathaza, xa umalathisi olungileyo embetha ngoloyiko lwemigwebo kaThixo, ukuze amnyanzele ukuba ekugqibeleni afike kutshintsho lokwenene lobomi, mhlawumbi ngeIsta okanye kwindawo elungileyo yokurhoxa ngokomoya, okanye ekuphumleni ngokomoya. ezinye iimeko ezisondelayo, uThixo undenza ndibone ukuba umtyholi ke uyayiphindaphinda imizamo yakhe yokugcina ixhoba lakhe, ngokulingana nalawo enziwe ukuba alihluthe kuye. Umele ngokucacileyo kwintelekelelo yakhe nakwiemvakalelo zakhe izinto zeminqweno emnika uyolo olungakumbi, kwaye apho anoncanyathiso olunamandla kunye nobuthathaka ngakumbi kunye notyekelo Ngaba uza kundishiya emva kweenzuzo ezininzi kunye nobumnandi
Eziyolulele kuye iingalo zakhe, zitsho eziyolisayo kuye? Buyela kum, ungandishiyi, kwaye ndizoqhubeka ndikonwabisa. Hayi! ungaphila ngaphandle kolonwabo endikunika lona? Ngaba umntu unokungayiqondi kakuhle into ayiyo aze azincame? ebengayi kuba natyala lokufa kwakhe ngo a
inkohlakalo engaxolelekiyo ? ikhonkco ke ngoko likratshi, i-avarice ,
ubudlakudla, nabo bonke abanye oozwilakhe bomphefumlo wakhe. Ngamnye kubo, uThixo undenza ndibone, uthetha naye ngolwimi oluhendayo olungolwakhe, ekunzima kakhulu ukuxhathisa, ingakumbi xa ecinga ngamandla aye wavumela umkhwa wakhe ombi kunye notyekelo lokuthabatha apho . ...
Umoni ke ngoko uzifumana ekhuphisana kakhulu phakathi kwamaqela amabini, aphikisana naye ngokupheleleyo: kwelinye icala isazela sakhe simxelela ukuba umelwe kukuzinikela elubabalweni, athobele uThixo; kwelinye, inkanuko yakhe ifuna amalungelo asuka entliziyweni yakhe. Yenza ntoni idemon? Uyakulumkela ukuba angazichebi ngokupheleleyo isikali ngokweenkanuko; le khosi inokuba rhabaxa kakhulu, kwaye inokuvula amehlo abo ubumfama bungekafiki kumphakamo wayo. Wenza ntoni ke? nantsi: ngokucokiswa kweenkohliso ezimfaneleyo, usafumana apha iindlela zokuhlangabezana nayo yonke into ngokulalanisa ukuba umntu unokutsho njalo, ngokunika kancinane ngamnye kumaqela amabini; ngokungathi umntu unokukhonza iinkosi ezimbini ezichasayo; ngokungathi ukhathalelo oluncinci lwendalo aluzange lusinike yonke into kuye.
Wathi ke umoni ekubholeni kwakhe, Khawuyeke, ndiye kumka; kodwa andivalelisi unaphakade, sophinda sidibane ndibona kuThixo Bawo ukuba esi sivumelwano senzeka kakuhle .
kwaye ngokufihlakeleyo entliziyweni yomoni, kangangokuba umoni ngokwakhe angayiboni, kwaye mhlawumbi angayiqapheli. Kufana nabahlobo ababini abasenyongweni abanyanzeleka ukuba bahlukane, abathi, benikezela kugonyamelo olwenziwa kubo, bavume ukuphinda bamanyane; kodwa bavumelana ngento encinane
Ukujonga nje krwaqu, okanye ngomnye umqondiso ongakhange uqatshelwe mntu, nangona babeqonda kwaye beqondana ngokugqibeleleyo. Ewe, nantso, Bawo, indlela umoni ohlala enamathele kuyo azahlula ngayo kwinkanuko yakhe enkulu. Waneliseke kakhulu ukuba ufumene uncedo olunjalo lokuzikhohlisa, ngokukhohlisa isikhokelo sakhe somoya. Idemon iyonwabile kakhulu ngempumelelo yakhe, inkanuko kufuneka yaneliswe; akukho Thixo ungekhoyo, ogweba esezulwini
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uxolelo oluthi, ekubeni lungcwele lokwenene, luphumela ekumfamekiseni ngakumbi umoya walowo ulwamkelayo, ngokumqinisekisa ngokungafanelekanga ngokuchaseneyo.
Izono ezingaxolelweyo, aphulukene nazo nenkumbulo yazo.
Imfama, icinga ukuba ihambele phambili lee kwimfezeko, ngenxa yokuba ayigqwetheki kangangoko ebenako, nangenxa yokuba izilungisa ngenxa yeempazamo ezithile; ke yona inkanuko isaphila, naloo mnqweno wokwenza ububi awufi kuye. unento yonke yokoyika ukuba akasayi kufela apho. Oku, nangona kunjalo, imeko engonwabanga apho le ndoda inelishwa idlula khona ubomi bayo, kwaye apho, ngokuqhelekileyo, iphelile. Asikuko ukuba akakwazi ukuguqula okwangoku; kodwa, Bawo, hayi indlela enqabe ngayo inguquko enjalo! Yintoni ukuguquka kunye nokuguqulwa, ukuba uthando
UThixo uyakoyisa abethu? Ndiyabona ke, kungcono ukumgweba umoni, kunokuba amgwebe phambi koThixo.
Ngoko ke, idemon ixakeke gqitha iphosa iintshukumisa zabantu ezingqondweni nasezintliziyweni zabo ibabonayo belungiselela ukuvuma izono zabo. Kodwa ukuba ukuguquka kwawo kugqibelele yaye kusekelwe kuthando olunyulu lukaThixo, olulawula noloyisa zonke ezinye iinjongo, ngoko ludonga olungafikelelekiyo kuyo yonke imigudu. Unokubamba amazinyo akhe kulo mqobo ungoyiswayo, omenza abe nomsindo nangona ungakudinga, Bawo, imiqulu emikhulu kuwe .
ukubhenca inkohliso, inkohliso, amaqhinga angenakubalwa awasebenzisayo ukuhenda aboni abaqhelileyo ngembonakalo kanye yokuzohlwaya abangenayo, okanye okuyindlela yakhe kuphela .
Iindlela zokuphepha imigibe yeedemon.
Umthandazo onyanisekileyo, othobekileyo, onyanisekileyo kunye nophilileyo yindlela yokuqala yokuba umphefumlo usezandleni zawo ukuthintela ukuphazamisa imigibe eyahlukeneyo yomoya wobuxoki. Ngulowo uvuselela ukholo, okhulisa ithemba kwaye uvuthisa uthando; yena, ekugqibeleni, ofumana zonke izidima ezibeka umoya wokuhenda ukuba ubaleke.
Ngoko ke kufuneka sithandaze sinokholo nokuzithemba kwiimfanelo zoMsindisi, ezinika ubunzima obupheleleyo kwimithandazo yethu, kunye nokuzisola kwethu kunye nokulunga kwethu. Ngoko ke simele sisoloko simcela ngothando lwakhe lobuthixo, imiphumo eyonwabisayo yenceba yakhe, neso sono sinyanisekileyo nesinyanisekileyo, esingenakuxolelwa izono ngaphandle kwayo . ”
nezizathu zokholo olusixhobelayo kuthi, ukusivuselela kulo mvandedwa, sizigqale ngokwaso ngokhanyiso lwesikhuni eso, esikhanyisela ubunzulu bezazela zethu ngomgwebo esiya kuwufumana emva kokufa Phakathi kweenjongo .
Olu kholo lusisondeza kuthi, abo batsalwa kwezizethu izilangazelelo, nangona bengento yanto phakathi kwabo, banokungena ngokufanelekileyo ekuguqukeni kokwenyani, ukuba uthando lukaThixo luyongamela, nokuba uthando lukaThixo luyongamela, nokuba uthando lwakhe luya kulawula.
umdla uyodlula nayiphi na enye; kodwa ke le nto isathathwa njengento engenamsebenzi, kwaye ibangela ilahleko yabaninzi, njengoko uThixo wandibonisayo.
Uloyiko olugqithisileyo lwesihogo, oluphefumlelwe ngumtyholi.
Ewe, Bawo, le nto ndiyazi ngokucacileyo, xa umoni echukunyiswe lubabalo ethatha isigqibo phambi koThixo sokuba aguquke, usathana uqwalasela ngononophelo ukuba yintoni na intsusa elawula kwesi sigqibo; ukuba uyabona ukuba kukoyika isihogo, ngoko nangoko uzifaka ekwandiseni nangakumbi: uphazamisa ingqondo nentelekelelo kakhulu ngolu loyiko lugqithileyo, ade aluvale umnyango wokungena kulo. ngaphezu kwayo yonke into iimvakalelo ezimnandi zokuthembana nothando. Inceba isenokuvakala, kodwa umoni uyazivala iindlebe zakhe aze aphulaphule ilizwi lomgwebi onomsindo. Ngelishwa, akukho apha ukuba uloyiko lwe-filial kunye ne-salutary, oluhlala lulawulwa bubulumko; luloyiko olungenamsebenzi, olungakususiyo ukuthanda isono, oluthi, ngenxa yoko, lukhuphele ngaphandle uthando lukaThixo; kanti kwimiphefumlo etyekele kakuhle iluloyiko kanye olungaqukwa luthando .
(1) Ilizwe laseTimori alinabubele; ( I. Joan. Isahluko 4; 18. ).
Akunakuphikiswa, Bawo, ukuba uThixo uthanda usindiso lwabantu bonke; kodwa kananjalo akuqinisekanga ukuba uThixo akayi kusisindisa ngaphandle kwethu, oko kukuthi, ngaphandle kokuhambelana kwethu noncedo asinika lona ngenxa yoko. Yiyo loo nto, emva kokungathembeki okuninzi, ubabalo lusirhoxisa, aze umoni ahlale engenaso nasiphi na isixhobo. Idemon ke iyayibamba ngaphandle kokuxhathisa intando yayo, ayilungisayo ebubini; usebenzisa eyona ntshisakalo yokulawula nokukhokela bonke abanye. Kusuka apho amenza ukuba enze okanye athule, ngokweminqweno yelo xesha.
Ukuba ngumbuzo wemeko apho isiko lifuna ukuba sisondele kwiisakramente, ke libeka ukuthula kwiinkanuko, okanye libangele ukuba iintshukumo zendalo zithathwe kwiintshukumo zobabalo. Umntu usondela ngeyona mbonakalo intle kakhulu; kodwa kungekudala emva koko, ihambo kunye nokubuyela emva kubonisa oko ubani amele ukuba wayekucinga ngako. Kule nto, sithatha isigqibo sokulinda ukuguqukela ekufeni, kuba siphelelwe lithemba lokuphumelela phambi kweli xesha; Yiloo nto kanye eyayicetywe yidemon. Isifo sokugqibela siyeza; aze avele umoni
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wachukumiseka ngendlela angazange waphathwa ngayo ngaphambili. Konke ngexesha elifanelekileyo; kodwa kulapha inguquko yomenzi-bubi esingisa esohlwayweni, noloyiko lube ngumkhenkce kumongo wamathambo. Uloyiko olukhulu kwaye akukho thando. Kukuzohlwaya kukaKayin, kaYudas, ka-Antiochus; kuya kulandela isohlwayo sabo.
Ukufa okumanyumnyezi komoni ophelelwe lithemba.
Ngubani ongekhe ancwine, Bawo, ah! Ngubani obengayi kuzikhalela ngekamva lale ndoda ilishwa ilishwa, ngoku engenanto yakwabelana nayo ngaphandle koloyiko nokuphelelwa lithemba? Thixo onenceba, yigoba, uthantamise, Hayi ;
Bawo, hayi, uyeza umbingeleli; kodwa uMphathiswa woXolelwaniso, omehlo akhe athuthuzelayo kwabo bafayo, umnika kuphela into eyoyikekayo nengenakuxhaswa. Umbingeleli, nangona kunjalo, usebenza ngamandla akhe onke ukuze amfumanele ukufa okungcwele: uyambongoza ukuba akholose ngokunyanisekileyo kwiinceba zoThixo ongunaphakade; uzama ngandlela zonke ukulivuselela kuye ithemba lakhe ngokholo lwakhe, nokumphefumlela ngeemvakalelo zenguquko enyanisekileyo, nosizi lokwenene ngenxa yezono zakhe...
Wenza ntoni na, mlungiseleli weNkosi? mbingeleli unekhwele, wenza ntoni na? hayi! uthetha nomntu ongongenakucikideka, olinde umgwebo wokugwetywa kwakhe. Isazela sakhe sele simtyhola kwangaphambili, yaye iidemon awayelikhoboka lazo sele ziqalisile ukuwisa isigwebo esilungiselelwe yena nguThixo esamkhubekisayo, noya kuthi kungekudala amgwebe . Izibane
zidlayo, khalela kuye iidemon, ungcikivo olungunaphakade, nasi isabelo sakho. Kusemajukujukwini esihogo apho siya kuthoba umphefumlo wakho, emva kokuwurhuqela kwinkundla yejaji yayo .
Lo mphefumlo unelishwa ungena kwintlungu nomothuko ongenakucingeleka; uva ukugquma kombane, weva izithonga zobulungisa bobuthixo, ubona ingalo kaThixo iphakanyiswa ukuba imbethe . Owu uloyiko! oh
ukuphelelwa lithemba! Owu ilahleko engenakulungiseka! Owu intuthumbo engapheliyo! Ilahliwe nguThixo nabantu, iba yinto yokudlala yeedemon nexhoba lamadangatye angunaphakade. Ngaloo ndlela, babingeleli beJC, phindani inzondelelo yenu, lo gama nje sukuba nithanda, nizifela ngelize; ngamampunge amaxhala enu, nazo zonke iinzame zenu
kakhulu. Mhlawumbi, maye! uya kumenza abe netyala ngakumbi lowo ebeza kwenza inzuzo kuyo!...
Ndibona kuThixo ukuba, ngexesha lentlungu yokugqibela yalo moni ofayo, umtyholi usebenzisa ngaphezu kunanini na ngaphambili onke amandla anawo phezu kwalo mphefumlo, ngamanye amaxesha ngokunika umsebenzi ongaphezulu kwezona nkanuko zobundlobongela, ngamanye amaxesha, kwaye kuqhelekile, ukwenza. bonke banikezela kwisilingo sokuphelelwa lithemba. Ngamanye amaxesha uba nogonyamelo olunjalo kuye; ibethelela ngokucacileyo intelekelelo yakhe nenxalenye yakhe engezantsi ngoloyiko noloyiko; umnika imililo yesihogo ngamandla amakhulu kangangokuba acinge ukuba sele evakalelwa ngayo... Ewe, sele ecinga ukuba uyatsha, yaye ngokwenene akaphazami; kuba kangangoko enawo amandla, lo moya we-infernal ukhulula phezu kwakhe imiphunga evuthayo yomoya wakhe ovuthayo, onokubizwa ngokuba zizitshixo zokuqala zesihogo.
Le nto, Bawo, njengoko uThixo endibonisile, ndayiqonda, yinto edla ngokwenzeka ngaphakathi kumoni lowo ubuleweyo, ngelixa umbingeleli encedisana naye ekumlungiseleleni. Umxelela ukuba uyaguquka ekumoniseni uThixo; ewe, ngenene uyaguquka kuyo, kodwa kungoyiko nyulu kwaye kuphela kungoloyiko lwesihogo; olu loyiko lwekhoboka luhlala lunemvukelo phantsi kwemivumbo, alunakuze luthethelele. Ungathanda ukuba ngcwele, kungekhona ukuze uThixo adunyiswe aze azukiswe, kodwa ngokusulungekileyo nangokupheleleyo ngenxa yokoyika ukuba ngongafanelekanga nokubandezeleka ishwangusha layo eliyintlekele. Iisakramente zokugqibela azifumanayo kwesi simo sakhe silishwa zisebenza kuphela ekubekeni isithsaba kwinkonzo yakhe engcwele kunye netywina lokugqibela ekugwetyweni kwakhe ....
Isikhundla esoyikekayo aphuma kuso uThixo, ndiyazi, usenako ukumsusa ngokupheleleyo umoni, kodwa apho angayi kumsusa khona ngaphandle kommangaliso onamandla, ukuba ubani unokutsho njalo, kunalowo wamvusayo uLazaro engcwabeni. Ngubani na umntu ongxamayo onokuba nesibindi sokuthembela kwinto enjalo? Ah! Bawo! Ukucingela okunjalo bekungayi kuba lulwaphulo-mthetho oloyikekayo ! UThixo wayenayo yonke into
yenzelwe le Bhabhiloni ingenambulelo; kodwa ngokungenamsebenzi: umonde wakhe uphelile, ekugqibeleni uya kumlahla kwikamva lakhe elibi; ke uya kuziphindezela iinceba zakhe ezidelekileyo, aze amhleke lowo umenze intlekisa ngoFatal .
idenouement, esona sikhundla soyikekayo ekunokwenzeka ukuba sicingelwe, ukanti ubani ufika kuyo yonke imihla engakhange acinge ngayo!....
Ukufa okungafaniyo kwaboni abohlukeneyo.
Ndiyabona, Bawo, ukuba kukho umahluko omkhulu phakathi kokufa kwaboni abaninzi, phakathi kobomi babo neenkanuko zabo, nobugwenxa babo, nobubi babo. Ngaloo ndlela uThixo usenokuba nentlonelo engakumbi okanye engaphantsi kwimilinganiselo ethile yokuziphatha abaya kuba beyisebenzisa ebudeni babo
ubomi, ngaphezu kwabo bonke ubulungisa, ubulungisa bemvelo, uvelwano ngenkxwaleko yamahlwempu, ukuthwala iziphoso zabanye, nothando ngakummelwane kabani. Ukusuka apho kwenzeka khona ukuba uThixo ngamanye amaxesha uthululela ngokugqithiseleyo kwizinto ezithile zegazi le-JC, kwaye azikrazule esihogweni,
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ngoxa iwaka labanye liwela apho. Ezi ziziphumo zentando ehlala ikhululekile njengoko ilungile kwimigwebo yayo nakuko konke ukuziphatha kwayo. Kulandela koku ukuba abalungiseleli beesakramente zokugqibela zeBandla bangaze bawutyeshele umsebenzi wabo, okanye bashiye nantoni na enokuba negalelo kulo mzamo mkhulu wothando lobuthixo. Ukuba umntu ofayo unokuncedakala okanye akunjalo, kungenxa kaThixo; kubo, baya kuba nokufaneleka okufanayo kunye nomvuzo ofanayo phambi kwakhe.
Njengesohlwayo esisesikweni, abo batyeshela iiSakramente badla ngokufa bengenawo umthendeleko.
Kuhlala kusenzeka, Bawo, ukuba abantu bafe ngaphandle komthendeleko ngesiphumo sempindezelo yobuthixo, eyohlwaya mhlawumbi ukuxhatshazwa abakwenzileyo kuyo, okanye ukungakhathali abaye baphila kulo mbandela. Kuba bangaphi abantu abaphila ebudikidiki, ekungakhathaliyo okungafanelekanga, masithi ngcono ngokuzonda, ukoyikeka okufihlakeleyo kweNkundla yamaTyala kunye neTafile eNgcwele, apho umtyholi ethatha inyameko enkulu ukubagcina! Bayoyika ngokugqithiseleyo ukuyisebenzisa kakubi, batsho, kunye nokuzenza netyala ngakumbi: kodwa ukuba banikele ingqalelo ebukhali kuyo, baya kubona ukuba boyika ukuhlazeka nangaphezu kokuxhatshazwa. Xa injongo ilungile, kwaye ufuna ngokwenene ukuthatha iindlela zokuzisindisa, ngoko uloyiko lukwenza ulungiselele ngcono, kwaye ungayeki. Ukusondela kakuhle kuyo, ngoku, kubiza indalo, kwaye oku kanye kanye into esiyoyikayo, okanye ubuncinane into esiyoyika kakhulu ngaphezu kwabo bonke abanye, kwaye kutheni ngamanye amaxesha sihlala iminyaka ngaphandle kokucinga uMthendeleko oNgcwele, okanye weNkundla. ezulwini. Kunokuba siqhubele phambili kwimfezeko, sikholelwa ukuba sinqunyanyiswa yintlonipho, yaye senjenjalo kuphela kukuba ndindisholo ngokomoya nabubugwala . Igolide,
Ndiyakubuza, yeyiphi i-akhawunti onokuyinika ukuba oku kungento yodwa, oku
ubuvila bolwaphulo-mthetho, apho abantu abaninzi nangona kunjalo bachitha eyona nxalenye ilungileyo yobomi babo!....
Izityholo zobuxoki kwinkundla yezohlwayo, ngakumbi ezivela kubaxhasi bobuxoki, abo bavumayo kufuneka bagxothwe.
Bendingazokuthini na Bawo ukuba ndifuna ukungena nzulu ngeziphoso ezenziwa ngumhendi ekuhlolweni nasekutyholweni.
! Uyenza mnyama ingqondo yoguqukayo, ukuze afihle izono zakhe; emva koko amkhokhele ukuba azifundele, ukuze angazibonakalisi kummeli wakhe. Ufuna awona magama athambekeleyo, amazwi anokuthi asuse lonke ihlazo lesono nabo bonke ubukhulu bokuwa. Asibuyeli kumgaqo okanye kwiinjongo eziyinyaniso zesenzo; umntu uyazifihla iziganeko, imikhwa; umntu ubonisa kuphela kwinzuzo yakhe zonke iingongoma ezithandabuzekayo zokuziphatha. Ekugqibeleni, ubani wenza kakuhle kangangokuba uyaphumelela ekuzenzeni aqondwe phosakeleyo ngumgwebi ofanele enze isigqibo ngako; kwaye kungolu mgwebo, othe wothuswa kwaye waphangwa, apho umntu aziqinisekisayo....
Ihlazo livala umlomo kwizinto ezingcolileyo; uloyiko lokubuyisela ifama kwintswelo-bulungisa; Ikratshi lisibangela ukuba sibeke ityala ngezinto esizithethayo kwabanye, okanye sizame ukulinciphisa ngeemeko esizifumana sikuzo. Kubonakala ngathi siya kuvuma izono ukuze sicele uxolo, kungekhona ukuzityhola. Ukuba u-confessor ufuna ingongoma eyiyo ngayo yonke le nto, sithi ucalucalulo, ukwimeko embi, akukho lula, sigqibele simshiye, siye kufuna kwenye indawo umntu othantamisayo, ongakhathaliyo nongakhathali. ukuyalelwa kancinci, ekugqibeleni umntu ovumayo njengoko unqwenela; umntu ovumayo ukuba umntu usoloko emfuna ngothando lwendalo kakhulu: kungcono ukuba umntu azivume ngokwakhe kunalowo
Umgibe woyikwa ngakumbi, Bawo, njengoko kuxhaphake ngakumbi, ngakumbi phakathi kwabazinikele bobuxoki esele ndithethe ngabo, nababethi ngenxa yabo besingayi kuwugqiba, ukuba bekufuneka kuthethwe yonke into; ukuba bekuyimfuneko, ngokomzekelo, ukutyhila konke ukuphambuka kokuhanahanisa kwabo nokuzithemba kwabo, ukubonisa indlela, kwiingxelo zabo neenkcukacha zabo ezinde, abanobuchule ekulahlekiseni umlawuli wabo, ekuzilahlekiseni; indlela abazifihla ngayo iimpazamo zabo kwaye bazibaxe izidima zabo kunye nemisebenzi yabo emihle; ngobuchule obunjani abanikela kuye izibakala namatyala athandabuzekayo, ngendlela yokuba amenze azigqale kuphela kwicala elilungileyo kubo. ngoko_ _
ukuba umntu ovumayo uya kufuna eyona ngqalelo inkulu, edityaniswe nawona mava agqibeleleyo, ukuwaxabisa ngokuchanekileyo.
Idemon elawula ulwimi lwabo, ibenze bathethe okanye bathule njengoko ithanda, maxa wambi yidemon engathethiyo, maxa wambi yidemon ethetha; kwaye phantse usoloko sisimumu, phezu kwawo onke amazwi awathethayo okanye abangela ukuba athethwe, kuba akakhe athethe into emayithethwe. Ivuselela kwaba bazinikele bobuxoki umnqweno omkhulu wezenzo eziqaqambileyo, kunye nayo yonke imisebenzi emihle yezixhobo ukulambela umthendeleko ongcwele, obenza bafune ukunxibelelana rhoqo kwaye ngaphandle kweentloni ezininzi zokulunga okanye uhlobo lobomi obufunwa ngu. uMthendeleko rhoqo. Izivumo zabo ziyaphindaphindwa, ukuze bafumane ithuba lokuthetha ngokufuthi nalowo ubalathisayo, yaye ngokuqhelekileyo ziba nde kakhulu, ukuze bakwazi ukuthetha naye ixesha elide. Ekugqibeleni, bazama ukuyibona kwaye bayigcine rhoqo, bacinga ngayo nangakumbi. Ndibona kuThixo, uBawo, apho
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abanye abaya kuba ngabavumayo babo iinyoka ezinganyangekiyo ukuba baya kunyanzeleka ukuba basabe kwaye bagxothe, nje ukuba baqonde ukomelela kwesimilo sabo kunye nokujika kokuzinikela kwabo....
Andithethi apha Bawo, kwaye makangatsho! yemiphefumlo emininzi ephethwe kakubi okanye iingqondo malunga nokunyaniseka kokuvuma kwabo, njl., okanye izilingo ezibuhlungu, abazisebenzisayo ukulwa nazo. Umvuma izono kufuneka abayalele, abaqinisekise, abathuthuzele, abancede banyamezele imeko yabo elusizi. Umele akunyamezele ukuzingisa kwabo, kwaye anyamekele, ngokubagxotha, andise ububi babo. Ngoko ke andithethi ngale miphefumlo ivavanyiweyo, kodwa kuphela ngaba bazinikele bobuxoki abakhokelwa nguMtyholi, abathi, bethabatha ukuzinikela njengesigqubuthelo nesigqubuthelo, bazicingele ukuba bafuna uThixo, ngoxa befuna kuphela umlungiseleli wakhe. Owu ! kuba abo, Bawo, akukho nceba, bakholwa kum; akukho mfuneko yakuxoxa ngabom; kodwa kufuneka babuyiselwe emva ngaphandle kokuqwalaselwa;
Indlela abamele ukuba abavumisi izono bayale kwaye bazolise imiphefumlo exhwalekileyo nebuhlungu.
Ngokubhekiselele kwimiphefumlo exhwalekileyo nevavanyiweyo esisandul’ ukuthetha ngayo, nantsi into eya kuthi umvumisi kubo abaqinisekise, kangangoko kunokwenzeka, malunga nezimo zabo xa besondela kwizobuvumo kunye neTafile eNgcwele: Ngaba nisonjululwe, kunye uncedo lobabalo, lokukulungisa ezonweni ozivumayo, ozivumayo? Ngaba ukuthanda kwakho kuthintelwe kuko konke ukona kwesono? Ukuba kunjalo, ungakhathazeki, unokuzisola, nangona ungaziva. Iingxaki ezikukhathazayo zinokuphuma kumtyholi kuphela; ukuqhuba kungqina yonke into apha. Ngaloo ndlela, ukuba uqinile ekuxhathiseni nasekubalekeni, ziqinisekise ngotyekelo lwakho; musa ukufuna kakhulu oko uThixo akunike kona, ndithetha ukuzohlwaya; zikhuthalele ukuthembeka elubabalweni; nizomeleze ngakumbi nangakumbi ukuthiya isono nokoyika ukusenza; kuba kule nto kukho uphawu lokuzisola okulungileyo, olunokuba ngumsebenzi we uMoya oyiNgcwele.
Zingaphi na imiphefumlo elungileyo uThixo ayivavanyayo ngale ndlela kuphela ukuze ayigcine ithobekile kwaye isoyika! Kungale nto ke athi uyabazimasa nxamnye nezilingo ezinzima, ezisebenza kuphela ukubahlambulula ngokubafumanela uloyiso. Ewe, uloyiko, iinkathazo, ukuxhalaba kwesazela esineentloni, amathandabuzo, ukubhideka malunga nokungaqiniseki kosindiso, malunga nemeko ubani akuyo phambi koThixo, ngokuvuma izono athe wazenza kwanemithendeleko athe wayifumana . iindawo zentlambululo-miphefumlo ezininzi zomphefumlo othembekileyo;
zizinkqwithela ekufuneka alwe nazo, ebambelele elukholweni, ethembeni nakwisisa.
Kwisono sokuphinda, kunye neziphumo zaso.
Kwisono sokubuyela kwakhona, uBawo wam, uJC undenza ndazi ukuba xa esithi kwivangeli, ukuba idemoni egxothiweyo emphefumlweni ithatha kunye nezinye iidemon ezisixhenxe ezikhohlakeleyo kunaye, le ntetho akufanele ithathwe ngexabiso eliphantsi. , ngokungathi baya kwinani lemimoya engendawo esibhozo ukuze bahlasele lo mphefumlo: oku, wandixelela, kuthetha ukuba ubuyela kwisimangalo emva kokoyiswa kwakhe, kodwa ngomsindo omkhulu ngokuphindwe kasixhenxe, ukuze kukhulu ngakumbi. kunzima ukugcina olu hlaselo lwesibini. Kodwa kwakhona, Bawo, ndiyabona ukuba ubabalo lomelele ngokomlinganiselo wobungozi. Idemon, inomsindo, iqala ngokuthabatha indawo esezantsi yomphefumlo, izivamvo kunye nentelekelelo; uyiphinda kabini imigudu yakhe, ukhumbula lonke ulonwabo lomkhwa namaxesha adluleyo. amandla, amaqhinga kunye nobuchule; ngokungenamsebenzi ukhulula sonke isihogo: ukuba umphefumlo awulahlekelwa yimbono yoko ukuthembise uThixo, ukuba uthembekile kubabalo oluwugcinayo, uqinisekileyo woloyiso, kwaye idemoni iya kudana. Kodwa ukuba, nge
ilishwa, uyeza ukuze anikezele aze akhulule; ukuba uthe wazimanyanisa ngomkhwa osikiweyo, ukuba uzimisele ukwenza ububi; ukuba usavuma ukonwabela ulwaphulo-mthetho, konke kulahlekile.
UMoya oyiNgcwele uyarhoxa entliziyweni yakhe, ize idemon ibuyele apho ngoloyiso; kulapho ke imeko yelishwa iba mbi ngakumbi kunangaphambili. Kufuneka, nangona kunjalo, ukwahlula ngokucacileyo ukubuyela esonweni nokubuyela kumkhwa wesono; njengokuphinda kubuye ubuthathaka, obunokuthi bubekho nasemva kokuvuma izono ezilungileyo, kunye nokubuyela eburheletyweni, abasoloko becinga ukuba umoni akazange aguquke, ngakumbi ukuba balandela ngokusondeleyo ukuguquka kwakhe okwenziwa ngathi.
Iingenelo zokulahleka kwentuthuzelo enengqondo. Ukuphaphazela koyena mfazi kaJ.-C.
Ndithetha imiphefumlo ethi, ukuze ihlale ithembekile, ingathanda ukuba uThixo ayixhase ngamaxesha onke ngeenceba neentuthuzelo ezinengqondo; kodwa ziya kuba phi iimfanelo zabo? Yiyiphi ingcamango ubani anokuba nayo ngomfazi ocinga kuphela ngomyeni wakhe, ukuze athembeke kuye, xa embona ngokuphawulekayo, yaye ekholelwa ukuba unokumkhumbula nakweyiphi na enye indibano? Ayinakuba ngumfazi ongathembekanga lowo, ukrexezo ngenene?
La mava athuthuzelayo, ndiyabona ukuba uThixo uyawarhoxisa ukuze afane nabantu
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kwimiphefumlo yenyama, ngenxa yokuba uyazi kwaye ebona ukuba bakulungele kakhulu ukuwela kwimigibe uMtyholi athatha ithuba lokuyibekela yona, ukubatsalela kwinkanuko yendalo ngokutsalwa kwezi ntuthuzelo, kwaye ngaloo ndlela bazuze intando, ngaphandle kwayo yonke imizamo yesihogo ayinakusenzakalisa. Ewe, Bawo, kwaye ndiyayibona, intando yethu ekhohlakeleyo iyoyikeka ngathi ngaphezu kobubi bazo zonke iidemon ngaxeshanye, kwaye yiyo loo nto, njengoko sibonile kwenye indawo, iqabane elingcwele alineli ukungayivali. iingcango zendlu ngokukhuselekileyo ngaphakathi nangaphandle, awangena yedwa nomyeni wakhe, usabeka abalindi nabalindi ngaphandle, kunye nomkhosi owakhelwe kuluhlu lwedabi, ukuze akhuseleke ngakumbi.
Umfanekiso wokuphaphama ekufuneka sijonge ngawo iimvakalelo zethu zangaphandle, ukuthintela utshaba ekuthatheni ithuba lokuzifaka ngaphakathi kwaye lungene ngaphakathi komphefumlo wethu kwaye luhende intliziyo yethu . Injalo ke
Umfazi othembekileyo kaJC kwigumbi lomyeni wakhe ongcwele. Asiyi kuyibona, njengezo ntombi zizizidenge, abafazi abahenyuzayo nabahenyuzayo, bekhupha intloko ngefestile ngesandi esincinane ukuze babone nokubonwa, ukuze bafumane oko kuqhubekayo, bagwebe iziganeko; sombona naxa ehla esihla kumagumbi asezantsi, ndithetha ngezimvo zangaphandle, siphume sisiya ezitratweni, ukuba umntu angatsho, athethe nabadlula ngendlela, oko kukuthi ngolonwabo nokwaneliseka kwabathile. ihlabathi, ukuze ufunde njengoko yonke into ihamba. Hayi, wafela kuyo nayiphi na enye into ngaphandle kweqabane lakhe lobuthixo, elikuphela kwento ayinyamekelayo. Isimo esonwabileyo esenza ukuba umntu afumane iparadesi apha ngezantsi!...
Inqaba yothando olungcwele, ephakanyiswe entliziyweni yoMtshakazi othembekileyo.
Ngaloo nto, Bawo, ndiza kukuxelela yonke into endiyibonileyo, kuba uJC undenze ndangena kwinqaba engaqondakaliyo yothando lwakhe lobuthixo . Yiza, wathi kum,
yiza uze ubone onke amagumbi entanda yam, ukuze ube nobungqina obunyulu bothando lwayo. Emva kwesi simemo, singene kwigumbi elikufutshane nehlabathi kunye nesidalwa, ezi zizivamvo zangaphandle; kodwa ndaqaphela, nje ukuba ndingene, ukuba akukho nto imbi, engcolileyo, yasemhlabeni, ndingathi phantse ngumntu, kwigumbi lokuqala lomphefumlo othembekileyo nothandekayo kaThixo wakhe. Yonke into elapho ihlanjululwe kwaye ingcwaliswe ngokuthembeka kunye nenkathalo enzima.
Emva koko, Bawo, ndakhanyiswa kwaye ndakhokelela kuwo onke amagumbi angaphakathi, endiwafumene ehonjisiwe kwaye ehlotshiswe ngaphezu kwayo yonke into enokuthiwa kwaye icingelwe, ngobabalo lukaJC kunye nothando lwakhe lobuthixo, ngakumbi indlu yamandla ale nto. umphefumlo omhle, oyena usondeleyo kwindlu yomyeni wakhe wasezulwini ndabona ukuba yonke into ivaliwe
kumagumbi ahlukeneyo, amaninzi, kwaye ndabona akukho sidalwa ngaphandle, ngaphandle kwabalindi kunye nabalindi ukukhusela inqaba; ukanti lo mlindi wayevela ezulwini ingenguye owasemhlabeni.
Emva koko, uBawo, iNkosi yethu, iguqukela kum, yathi kum ngomoya wokwaneliseka kunye nokukhathazeka ngomfazi wakhe: "Khangela, ntombi yam, ngokunyaniseka, inkathalo, uthando oluthambileyo kunye nokucoceka kwenjongo yokuthembeka kwam. umfazi; ubone ukuba yonke into ihamba ngocwangco njani naye, kwaye wenze kakuhle kangakanani yonke into.
Ah! Bawo, yeyiphi intsingiselo endiyibonileyo kula mazwi alula e-JC: wenze zonke izinto kakuhle ! . . Ziqulethe ngokwaneleyo ukwenza umthamo omkhulu kwiindlela zokugqibelela. Ah! Ndayiqonda, ayisosenzo esikhulu, kodwa uthando olukhulu kunye nokusulungeka okukhulu kwenjongo, eyenza into enkulu phambi koThixo. Yonke into ilungile xa ithandwa kakhulu, kwaye izinto ezincinci zinexabiso elingenasiphelo xa injongo iyayikholisa.
UYesu Kristu wandixelela, ekuqukumbeleni, ukuba yonke into endiyibonileyo yayingeyonto xa ithelekiswa noko wayelungiselela umphefumlo othembekileyo ngonaphakade. Njengoko wayewathetha la mazwi, wandenza ndabona, phantsi kwesigubungelo sokukhanya okukhwankqisayo ., iindawo zokuhlala ezahlukeneyo zoomoya abasikelelweyo, iitrone zabo, izithsaba zabo, izikumkani zabo, zonke zihonjisiwe yaye zikhazimla ngobuhle bukaJ
Asinakukwazi ukuthetha into esondelayo kuyo, asikuphilwa ukuba siyiqonde, nokuba yintetho yamntu, ukuyichaza ; Lo mmandla womphefumlo
asikelelwe nanye into, ingenguye uThixo ngokwakhe ongaphakathi kwakhe. kwaye inqaba yalo mphefumlo ndigqiba kuthetha ngayo, ngumfuziselo kuphela okanye umfanekiso endiwusebenzisayo ukuze ndiqonde oko uThixo andityhilele kona ngaphakathi komphefumlo omthandayo kunye naye.
Uhlaselo lwedemon ngokuchasene neQela elithembekileyo. Uloyiso lwakhe nguJ.-C.
Yonke lento Bawo yagqitha engqondweni yam ngephanyazo, kwathi qatha kum ukuba lomphefumlo uthembekileyo ungaze ukhathazwe nasiphi na isilingo kuba, njengoko ndanditshilo, usathana angamhlasela. Yima kancinci, uJC wandixelela, enqanda ukucinga kwam, uya kungqina ukulwa kwakhe kunye nendlela endimlwela ngayo. Okwangoku ndibona uSathana enawo onke amandla obumnyama ebaleka esiya kuye ngomoya onomsindo nosoyikisayo , uJC undixelela ukuba, onamandla
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bexhobile, besiza kuhlasela inqaba yakwaSirayeli. Qwalasela. Kwangoko ndabona umfazi othembekileyo esoyika eziphosa ezingalweni zendoda yakhe yobuThixo; Ndithetha laa mphefumlo woyikayo, xa ubona ingozi enye, ebizwa
JC wamhlangula waza wafuna indawo yokukhosela esifubeni sikaThixo wakhe.
Ngokukhawuleza ukukhanya okungcwele kwandenza ndabona ngaphakathi komyeni ingqumbo engcwele, ingqumbo ephilileyo nephilileyo, ebangelwa luthando oluthambileyo nomona kulo mfazi uthembekileyo. Intliziyo yakhe ibingathi iyavutha kum kukuhlaselwa ngulomntu ukhaliphileyo ekuthembekeni kwesithandwa sakhe. Ubajonga ngomoya omenyezelayo, uphakamisa ingalo yakhe ukuze abacim’ igama, aze ngomoya ophuma emlonyeni wakhe okhupha iziqalekiso, abaphose emazantsi enzonzobila abaphuma kuyo . Waphela ke ngokuqhwanyaza kweliso olu hlaselo lunomsindo olwandisa uloyiso lothando .
Ukuthozama okuthathwe nguMyeni wasezulwini entliziyweni yeqabane lakhe .
Umnqobi ke wathi kum ngomoya owanelisayo: Yiza ngoku, ungene ngakumbi ngaphakathi kwintanda yam, kwaye uya kubona iziyolo ezihlambulukileyo, ulonwabo olungenakuchazwa endiluthatha entliziyweni yakhe, kulo myezo uvaliweyo womtshakazi, apho. soze ingene ngaphandle kwenkosikazi yobuThixo Owu Bawo, ovumayo kwaye
hlala kamnandi ukuba lo myezo umnandi!. Imitha yelanga enesisa
ezipholileyo gcina uhlaza rhoqo apho; imithi yalapho ithweswe isithsaba ngeentyatyambo neziqhamo, eziyintlanganisela yokulunga umfazi ahonjiswe ngayo, nemisebenzi emihle enxibelelene noqheliselo lwazo oluqhubekayo: kuba ubabalo alunamsebenzi kuye; lubabalo oluvelisa iitalente zakhe kunye namakhubalo akhe, ixabiso elingenasiphelo emehlweni eqabane lobuthixo, ongayeki ukuncwina emva kwakhe. Umntu uphefumla apho umoya weatmospheri kunye ne-atmospheri ephefumlelwa mgama ngokudibana kweempawu zakhe ezintle kunye neqela lonke lehambo yakhe encomekayo; nasendlini ahlala kuyo umntu uphefumla uthando olungcwele qha Ndothuswa yintoni Bawo xa ndifunda kwi
umlomo weJC nkqu, ukuba akukho mntu wayekhutshelwe ngaphandle kweli nqanaba lemfezeko ; nokuba bona aboni abakhulu ngokwabo babe nethemba lokufika apho benobabalo, nokuba bangabi sazikhumbula izono ezidlulileyo, ngaphandle kokukhumbula imigudu ezukileyo ababeya kuthi ngayo boyise. Ubomi bubalwa apho kuphela ukusuka kumzuzu woguquko olugqibeleleyo uBawo wam, ongayi
iinzame zokufika kwesi simo sinqwenelekayo, nokuba nolonwabo lokuhlala apho, ukuzingisa apho kwaye ufele apho!....
Masincome ukuthozama uJC akuthabatha entliziyweni yomphefumlo onobulungisa omthandayo nozabalazela ukumkholisa . “Intliziyo yentanda yam yathi kum,
unjengomandlalo ozele luzizi, unalo lonke uhlobo lweentyantyambo ezinevumba elimnandi, ezibengezelayo; Imbonakalo yawo iyandiyolisa; Andidinwa kukukhangela apho. Ukuthobeka kwakhe kufana nombala omhlophe ozalwa phantsi kweenyawo zomhambi. Ukuthozama kwakhe kufana neenyibiba zasemaphandleni, yaye ukuchulumanca kothando lwakhe kunabo bonke ubukhazikhazi berozi ekuphumeni kwelanga ngemini entle yasentwasahlobo. Idetachment yayo kuyo nayiphi na into edaliweyo, i
ubunyulu benjongo axela ngayo konke ukuziphatha kwakhe kum, ukuphaphama kwakhe phezu kwakhe, ukuze angenzi okanye acinge nantoni na enokungakholisi kum; inkathalo yakhe yokuzigcina elubabalweni lwam nothando lwam; ukunamathela kwakhe, ukuzithemba kwakhe, ukulahlwa kwakhe ngokupheleleyo ... konke oku kunye nezinye iimpawu eziliwaka eziziziphumo zayo, yonke le ndibano, ndithi, kum i-bouquet yevumba elimnandi kakhulu, kunye nenkalo eyona nto inomtsalane .
Yiyo loo nto amanyathelo akhe emahle kakhulu emehlweni am, kwaye kutheni yonke into ngaye inomtsalane kum. Ngokuthi krwaqu nje kwakanye wayilimaza intliziyo yam; intanda yam inyulwe phakathi kwewaka; Ndimthatha ngesandla esikhethekileyo, kuba yena ukhetha mna kuyo yonke into. Umqondiso wobubele endimnika wona ngokukhululekileyo kungenxa yokhetho alwenzileyo kum ngenxa yomyeni wakhe, ukuthembeka ahlala endibonisa kona, kwaye ekugqibeleni kukutshiseka kwakhe ngokungapheziyo ngenxa yam. Ndiyinkosi ngokupheleleyo yentliziyo yakhe, yenkululeko yakhe yokuzikhethela, nawo onke amandla akhe; akananto ingeyam; kufuneka afumane zonke iibhenefithi zam kwaye angavinjwa nto yam. »
Ukusuka apho ke, Bawo, zizalwa ezi colloquies zothando, ezi zithende ziphindaphindanayo, ezi zothutho, oku kuphalala kothando phakathi komyeni ongcwele kunye nomfazi ongcwele. “Ngaphambili bendikuthanda ngesisa,” watsho umyeni, “ngoku ndikuthanda ngohlobo lobulungisa nombulelo, ngenxa yoko undinike kona.” Ndibuyisela kuwe intliziyo oyihlabileyo, ixabiso losindiso lwakho . Okunjani ukutshintshiselana, Bawo, kunye
onjani wona umvuzo wesidalwa, kunentliziyo yoThixo osithanda kangaka , nosiqinisekisayo ukuba sikubabalo lwakhe nothando lwakhe ! Ah!
kulapho wadanduluka khona lo mphefumlo unethamsanqa: Intanda yam yeyam yonke, kwaye mna ndingowakhe.... Kodwa abasathethisani ngaphandle kwentliziyo entliziyweni . Apho kukho
yenceba kunye neemfihlelo kolu lwazi lupheleleyo lwasemoyeni
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phakathi komphefumlo noThixo wawo, umfazi ongcwele nomyeni wakhe ongcwele!....
Ezi zibabalo zothando lobuthixo zigcinelwe ngakumbi imiphefumlo eyahlulelwe kuThixo. Iinzuzo zokuzibamba.
Bawo, nangona konke endikuxelele kona ngenqaba yomphefumlo ogqibeleleyo kunye norhwebo lothando lukaThixo kunokuqondwa ngokubanzi kuwo nawuphi na umphefumlo othi, kwimeko yawo, ujonge ubungcwele kunye nemfezeko yevangeli, nangona kunjalo.
I-JC indenza ndibone ukuba oku kufuneka kusebenze ngakumbi ngakumbi kwimiphefumlo ethembekileyo kubizo olugqibeleleyo; abo phakathi kwabanye abangabakhe
bangcwaliswe, okanye ngokumiselwa, njengezobufundisi, okanye ngezibhambathiso ezindilisekileyo, njengamadoda nabafazi bezenkolo; bonke abantu abazinikele ekuthobeleni, kwintlupheko, kwindawo ebiyelweyo, kwaye ngaphezu kwayo yonke i-continence kunye nobunyulu.
Ewe, Bawo wam, ndiyabona ukuba ukungatshati, isibhambathiso kuThixo nokugcinwa ngenxa yothando lwakhe, kuyathandeka kakhulu kuye kwaye kunika indawo enkulu kwezinye izidima; kodwa kwakhona ndiyabona ukuba kuyimfuneko, kule ngongoma i-ethe-ethe, ukuzinyamekela kakhulu; kuba esona siphoso sincinane siya kuba nzulu emva kokuba isibhambathiso senziwe, kwaye siya kumcaphukisa uThixo njengokuba ukuhlala uphaphile nokunyaniseka kukholekile kuye.
Ngawaphi amanyathelo okhuseleko ababingeleli kunye nonqulo kufuneka bajonge ukugcinwa kobunyulu.
Ngoko ke, zeziphi iingozi ababhencwa kuzo abantu beCawe kunye nabezenkolo ehlabathini, ukuba abakhange baziqwalasele ngenkathalo enkulu, ngakumbi xa bezibhaqa, ngokungeyomfuneko, rhoqo, bekunye nabantu abakugqala ukulumka njengento engafanelekanga nobugqwirha; abantu abakhokelwa ngumoya wehlabathi, ababambelele kwizinto ezingenamsebenzi nokuzonwabisa okuvumelekileyo, inkululeko egwetyiweyo yivangeli; abantu, ekugqibeleni, baqhele ukuba blushing nantoni, ingakumbi ukuba ngabantu besini esahlukileyo! Owu mazulu! unokuthini umphefumlo ongcwalisiweyo kuThixo nozinikele kuzwelonke ukuba phakathi kwabo, ngokukodwa xa bencokola bodwa, baze badanjiswa neenyoka ezinjalo? Obunjani bona ukomelela!
Nasi ke, Bawo, isilumkiso endiza kubanika sona sivela kuThixo, kwaye kufuneka basithobele, ukuba abafuni ukubhubha bengenamandla. Iidemon zivutha ngumsindo kunye nekhwele, ngokubanzi, ngokuchasene nabo bonke abantu abazinikele kwilizwekazi, kodwa ngakumbi ngokuchasene nabaphathiswa beNkosi. Baxhakamfula lonke ithuba elivelayo lokubeka imigibe yobunyulu babo, kwaye babalele phakathi kolona loyiso lubalaseleyo awona mancedo amancinane abawazuzayo ngapha nangapha:
basoloko behlasela; kwaye ndiyabona ukuba okukhona sinokuzithemba ngakumbi kule ngongoma, kokukhona sinesizathu sokoyika nokungcangcazela. Ndingayongeza yonke loo nto
abo bacekisayo, njenge-puerile, izilumkiso ezingcwele zemiphefumlo enyulu, baya kuba nokuzola kancinci kule ngongoma ethambileyo, kwaye ngokukhawuleza baya kutshintsha ulwimi lwabo, ukuba uThixo wabavumela ukuba babe ngamangqina kanye kuphela oko wandenza ndakubona, njengeminyaka engamashumi amathathu. eyadlulayo. Lo mbono wandichukumisa kakhulu, yaye bendisoloko ndiyigcina eyona mfihlelo yawo inzulu. Kufuneka ndithethe namhlanje.
Iingozi zokwabelana ngesondo kunye nencoko phakathi kwabantu abangcwele besini esahlukileyo. Amacebo kasathana ukubenza baphulukane nobunyulu babo.
Ndabona imimoya engendawo isiza kwizihlwele ukuba ixube neqela labefundisi kunye neemonki noonongendi, ababebonakala bezonwabisa kunye ngeyona mbeko inkulu kunye nokuziphatha; Ndabona izimbo zomzimba eziziintloni, ndeva indelelo yamazwi, kwanabo oomoya abakhohlakeleyo nabakhohlakeleyo, ababefundekela ukukonakalisa nokonakalisa yonk’ into ngamacebo abo. Khawube nomfanekiso-ngqondweni, Bawo, ibutho labantu benkululeko abathi, ngeentetho zabo ezibuhlungu, batyhefe ezona ncoko zimsulwa.
; abathi, benekhwele lokuba abanye babhetele kunabo, bakuthabathele kubo ukubugqithisela kuzo zonke iintliziyo zabo bonke ubuthi obubatshisayo, okanye abathi, bengakwazi ukuphumelela njengoko befuna, bazithuthuzele ngokugxeka iinjongo zabo, ukuziphatha kakuhle abantu, kwaye becinga , ngakumbi kubantu beCawa, zonke iimbombo ezigqwethekileyo neemvakalelo ezonakeleyo abazifumana kubo. Baninzi kakhulu abancedisi beedemon abaxelisa kakuhle lowo bangamalungu omzimba; kwaye njengoko, ngokubanzi, umlomo uthetha ngayo
ubuninzi bentliziyo, apha, ngaphezu kwako konke, intliziyo nolwimi lulandela impembelelo yomoya ozishukumisayo nolawulayo.
Ndabona ke Bawo, ezi demon zihlebeza ezindlebeni zomnye nomnye, enkampanini, isiluleko esibalwe ukuba siwaphose ekukhohliseni okanye ekuhendweni, ndabona ukuba ahamba ngayo ngobuchule bobuqili obumangalisayo, ngathi. amaqili okanye amaqili anobuchule aqhelisela urhwebo lwabo lokukhohlisa nokudala iinkohliso ngokukhohlisa kwabo ngesandla. Ungumntu ozinikele kakhulu, bathi kumbingeleli; ungunongendi olungileyo, ungcwele; akukho bungozi buncinci ngomphefumlo walo mlinganiswa. Unokoyika ntoni, batsho kunongendi? Aba ngababingeleli, abonqulo, amadoda abophene kakhulu, amadoda athuthuzelekileyo; bonke benze umnqweno ofanayo nowakho, kwaye ke akukho sizathu sakothuswa kuluntu olunjalo.
Kule nto ndaqaphela ukuchwayita nokuqhelana ngakumbi ebantwini; yayiziisimilo sokudlala ngakumbi, uncumo, ukukrwaqula, umoya wokuzithemba, yaye maxa wambi imidlalo emincinane yezandla. Ngalo lonke ixesha efika
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into efanayo, ndabona iidemon ziqhuma yintsini kwaye zingqina, ngeendlela eziliwaka, ulwaneliseko lwabo kunye nethemba ababenalo lokuba asiyi kuphelela apho. Kwaye ngenene, ndaqaphela ukuba yonke into ababeyicwangcisile kwaye bayibhengeza ayizange isilele ukwenzeka. Kunzima kakhulu ukuba kwenzeke ngenye indlela kwiimeko ezinjalo. Ekuphela kwento uMtyholi anokuyenza kancinane kukuphazamisa umoya nenyama ngenkcazelo engcolileyo, njengoko amava esoloko engqineka kubo bonke abo baye bawabangela ngenxa yokungabi nangqiqo kwabo nokuzola kwabo ekuzibekeni esichengeni engozini, maxa wambi kwanangokubhekiselele kubomi obungunaphakade. abona bantu bangcwele (1).
(1) Ukuba umtyholi ufumanisa okuninzi kangako ekuzonwabiseni kwabona bantu bahlonel’ uThixo nabagciniweyo, yiyiphi ingenelo angayi kuyenza ngemijuxuzo, ngeebhola, ngokukodwa, kwimidlalo yokubukela nezinye iimeko eziliwaka ezivunyelwa lihlabathi? Kuya kubakho, nangona kunjalo, abaya kuthi ngokuzithandela bakukholelwe konke okutshiwo ngulo dade apha ngokunxulumene nabantu abangcwaliselwe kuThixo, nabangayi kukholelwa ukuba inokusebenza kubantu behlabathi. Akukho ngozi ngaphandle kwenkolo, kwaye akukho ngozi ngaphandle kwabazinikeleyo! Kodwa ntoni ! Ngaba idemon ibingayi kuba nobuganga bokuhenda abanye, ngakumbi xa amathuba emahle kangaka? Ngaba umntu ebeya kucinga ukuba loo nto ililize kubo, ebona ukuba imikhwa yabo ayisayi kumshiyela ingxaki? Kuxhomekeke kwihlabathi ukuba likhethe...
Ngothintelo olukhulu abamele babe nalo abo bavumayo, ngakumbi ngokubhekiselele kubanquli bobuxoki. Ukuphaphile kwenza ababingeleli abalungileyo bangoyiswa.
Ke ngoko, ababingeleli kunye nabavumayo abanako ukuzibamba kakhulu, ngakumbi xa bejongana naba babizwa ngokuba ngabazinikeleyo abanokuzithemba okugqithisileyo kunye nokulinganayo ngaxeshanye kuya kuncipha ngokulula kwilayisenisi, kufuneka baphephe kunye nezinto ezikhethekileyo, izithonga zamehlo, iimpuku, i-tete-a-tete, kwaye ngaphezu kwayo yonke imidlalo yezandla, nokuba ilula kangakanani; kungenjalo bona
uya kuba netyala leengxaki zengqondo, kunye nalo naluphi na olunye uvukelo olunokuba sisiphumo sako. Ndiyazi ukuba zonke ezi zithethe, naliphi na igama ubani azinikayo, okanye nasiphi na isizathu esinebala elimibalabala kuzo, azimkholisi uThixo njengoko zikholisekile kumtyholi; kwaye ndikhe ndanexesha elingaphezu kwesinye ukuzibonela ngokwam ukuba kuncinci kangakanani na ukuvelisa isilingo, ngakumbi kwinqaku elibuthathaka.
Ngoko ke, mingaphi imigibe, kwaye zingaphi izizathu zokungcangcazela kwaba nongendi badikidiki, kwaye ngaphezu kwako konke aba babingeleli bangenankathalo nabangasetyenziswayo, abathi, ngokungakhathaliyo ukuzabalazela imfezeko, bakwenze umthetho wokucekisa oko kubizwa ngokuba ziindlela ezincinci nezincinci. izinto! Kodwa, Bawo, ndiyabona, njengokuba ezi zibhencekile, kangangokuba ababingeleli abakhutheleyo, abaphaphileyo nabangumzekelo, kunzima ukoyisa, kuba baneendlela nobubele obungakumbi bokuchasa umtyholi kwaye boyise indalo. UThixo ubanceda ngendlela ekhethekileyo. Ukundeyisela koku, wandibonisa enye, phakathi kwezinye, eyayixakeke kangangokuba umhendi wayengakwazi nokungena kuye.
Iidemon ezininzi zahlanganisana ukuze zimenze anikezele, kodwa kwalilize: omnye uyafika, ezingcikiva ngenxa yokuswela kwabo inzondelelo nobuchule, ezicenga ukuba nguye yedwa onoloyiso. Ugoba isaphetha ngamandla, aze ngomsindo adubule kulo mfundisi ukhutheleyo nophaphileyo utolo oluthi, endaweni yokumbetha, lubuyele kulowo uludulileyo; ezinye iidemon ezininzi nazo zadubula kuye iintolo ezazisoloko zibuyela ngasemva, kwaye icawa yaqhubeka nokwenza imisebenzi yayo ngaphandle kokuqaphela oko.
Zoyisiwe yaye zididekile, iintshaba zakhe zarhoxa, zigrogrisa ngokubuya ngamandla ngexesha elilunge ngakumbi kuzo: ubungqina bokuba kweli nqanaba simele soyike ngamaxesha onke, kuzo zonke iindawo, ngakwicala labanye nangokwethu; ukusabela, phakathi kwezinye izinto, ekuphaphameni nasekuthandazeni, nokuba oonongendi bafanele baligqale isango nendlu yangasese njengendawo eyingozi kakhulu kubo; oko uThixo andenze ndakubona amaxesha amaninzi.
Ingozi yenkangeleko elula yokufuna ukwazi.
Ndiyathetha Bawo mandikuxelele into endehleleyo. Emva kokuba ndiphose amehlo am izihlandlo ezibini okanye ezithathu, ndibonakalisa ukuzisola nokuzisola ngenxa yesazela, kumajoni endawabona efestileni yam esenza umthambo kumasimi akufuphi, uThixo wandikhalimela kabukhali, ngokungathi ndandingenangqondo yaye ndandingathembekanga. : ukuze andibonise kakuhle into endizibhence kuyo, wavumela idemon ukuba indihende kwesi sihlandlo ngendlela ebuhlungu kakhulu.
Akunjalo, uBawo, okokuqala ukuba uye wavumela ezi zilingo zokohlwaya ubugwala bam, ukungathembeki kwam kwiimeko apho bekuya kuba yimfuneko, ngenxa yothando lwakhe, ukuncama ukuthanda kunye nolwaneliseko lobuqu. La madini amancinane esisoloko sinethuba lokuwenza kuye, uyandibonisa ukuba athandeka kakhulu kuye, nokuba iintsilelo esiwela kuzo zonke ezi ngongoma azimkholisi kwaye zisenzakalise ngakumbi kunokuba ngokuqhelekileyo kucingwa.
Oku kuchaza indelelo esiyenzayo kwiinceba zayo, ngokuqinisekileyo kusitsalela ukuthabatha okungaphezulu okanye okungaphantsi, kwaye okuhlala kungunobangela wokuwa okukhulu. Yeha! Zingaphi izono ezenziweyo ngenxa yokungabuboni ubuso bakhe nokubamba nelizwi, ukulawula ukucinga kwakhe, ukugatya ingcinga, ukuphepha ithuba, ukwenza okanye ukutyeshela inyathelo elincinane, ukucinezela ukuphaphama okanye enye intshukumo yendalo kakhulu! Bekuya kuba kubiza imali encinane kakhulu ukuzuza okuninzi! Unobangela wawungento yanto, isiphumo sisilo esoyikisa uloyiko, kwaye ngokufuthi ngumwonyo owawugubungele. Mingaphi imizekelo umntu angenakuyikhankanya, ukuba bonke abantu
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akabuthwalanga ubungqina boko, yaye ukuba bekunganelanga ukuba ngamnye abuyele kuye ukuze azikholelwe!
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Ngobuhlobo obukhethekileyo kunye nangomtshato.
Yabhalwa eJersey ngoJanuwari 1792.
Ngokungathandabuzekiyo uyakhumbula, Bawo, oko ndikubhalele kona ngokuphathelele umahluko phakathi kothando lukaThixo nolo lwesidalwa, kwanemiphumo yazo eyahlukileyo. UThixo uthi mandibuye kancinci
kulo mba, zeziphi ezinye izinto ezenze ukuba sihambe kamsinya kakhulu mhlawumbi; kuba kunzima kakhulu ukudibanisa iingcamango ezininzi ezingafaniyo, ngaphandle kokuvumela eziyimfuneko ukuba zibaleke, kunye nokubeka kuzo ulandelelwano kunye nolandelelwano oluya kulufuna!
Kodwa kwakhona, akukho malunga ne-symmetry endikuxelela yona, kodwa malunga nentando yobuthixo kunye neendlela zokuba luncedo kwabanye. Ngoku makhe sithethe ngobuhlobo obuthile iNkosi yethu eye yandenza izikhalazo ezininzi ngabo kwixesha elidlulileyo, kwaye, kuzo zonke iindawo, zibulala kakhulu kwisidima.
Imiphumo eyintlekele yobuhlobo bemvelo kakhulu. — Kumcaphukela uThixo, ngakumbi kwimiphefumlo ezinikele kuye.
Kunyaka wokuqala womsebenzi wam, ndeva oonongendi abambalwa ngenye imini, ebudeni bokuzonwabisa, bethetha ngobuhlobo obungaqhelekanga ababenabo abantu ababini emhlabeni. Obu buhlobo bugqithisileyo babazisa, kwathiwa, kweyona nkathalo incinane; ukuba bakhathazeke rhoqo omnye komnye, kwaye bangahlali ukuba babengekho kunye. Mna, eneneni, andizange ndiqonde nto ngayo, andazi ukuba la maxhala obuhlobo athetha ukuthini, okanye la maxhala amancinci abuyiselayo, nokuba uthando lwezidalwa lunokuhamba njani ukuya kuthi ga ngoku. ubomi obuxhomekeke, ukuba ubungenaye umntu omthandayo. Ukuzithemba ekwenziwa kum emva kweentsuku ezimbalwa ngomnye wekhaya kwandise ukothuka kwam kuyo yonke le nto; wandifundela ngokukhethekileyo, yaye phantse nangona ndandimfumene, ileta awayesandul’ ukuyifumana kumntu awayesondelelene kakhulu ngaphambili: yayilinenekazi eliselula elamxelela ukuba libandezeleke kangakanani na ngenxa yokungabikho kwalo nokungabikho kwalo. ukwahlukana. ukuba wayesamthanda kangakanani; indlela awayezicingela ngayo imini nobusuku yayihamba, Bawo, kwinqanaba elithile
ukuba umntu akanakutsho, ade abe namava e-palpitations kunye nohlobo lobuthathaka kunye nokuphazamiseka. Ukongeza, bekukho amagama amancinci amnandi kule leta, iintetha ezithile ezincinci zokuthantamisa kunye nokudlala okungazange kundikholise kakhulu, kwaye ekumele ukuba kwamcaphukisa kakhulu unongendi owayezityand’ igila kum.
Intlungu endayifumanayo yabangela ukuba, ngomzuzu olandelayo, ndaya emazantsi esibingelelo ukuya kwenza isikhalazo sam, okanye kunoko uhlobo oluthile lokulungisa okubekekileyo ku-J. C. Thixo wam, ndathi kuye, ngaba kunjalo Inokwenzeka njani into yokuba uthando izidalwa ezinalo omnye komnye luhambe lude lwenze ukuba zilibale ngayo yonke enye into, ngokudelela uthando? .
"Ewe, mntwana wam," waphendula uJC, "into inokwenzeka, kwaye, njengoko ubona, iyinyani kakhulu." Kuba engazijongi, ngoko
ukumisa, kunye nokulawula iintshukumo zokuqala zentliziyo, uthando lwendalo luyafudumala kwaye luvuthelwe ukuya kuthi ga kweli nqanaba nangaphaya: lo luthando lwendalo kunye nolunovelwano lwesidalwa, oluhlala lubandakanya, xa lungacinezelwa. uninzi lweziphumo ezibi kusindiso; Imfamekisa abantu benyama ukuya kwinqanaba lokubenza bayilibale yonke imigaqo, kwaye ngamanye amaxesha ibakhokelela kwinkohlakalo, ngaphandle kokuqaphela bona ngokwabo: emva koko bangabi nakuqonda ngaphandle kwenjongo yeminqweno yabo, kwaye bangabi nazintloni ukwenza isidima kunye nokulunga. imfezeko ibandakanya into ekholisa incasa yabo eyonakeleyo kunye notyekelo olulihlazo olubalawulayo. »
Ubuhlobo obukhethekileyo buchasene nothando lukaThixo, kunye nohlobo lokukrexeza ngokomoya.
“Ngoko ke, ewudelela umthetho omkhulu othi, mandithande ngaphezu kwento yonke, la maKristu angathembekanga abeka ezintliziyweni zawo izigodo zenyama esikhundleni sam; bahenyuza ngokunqula kwabo neziqhumiso zabo kuzo, banqule mna ndedwa. Enjani yona ingqumbo kuthixo wam! Kodwa, wongezelela, ukuba oku kunyanyekelwa kum ngokunxulumene nabalula abathembekileyo, kuya kuba yintoni na ngokunxulumene nabantu abangcwalisiweyo kum ngesibhambathiso esinzulu sokuthembeka ngonaphakade! Ukhetho _
ukuba banikele ezintliziyweni zabo kuyo nantoni na ngaphandle kwam, kuzo zonke iintlobo zezidalwa, ngenxa yothando abanalo kum ngokukhethekileyo, ngaba oko bekungayi kuba luhlobo oluthile lokuhlambela nokukrexeza? kwaye ngaphandle kokuthotywa ngokubanzi endikufumanayo kuzo zonke izenzo zolwaphulo-mthetho ezilolu hlobo, akufanelanga kuvunywe na ukuba lo unesimilo sokungabi nambulelo nokungathembeki esisifaneleyo, nesibunyusa ngokuphawulekayo ubumnyama baso?
“Awu! Yeha, yeha ke, abafazi abakrexezayo, abangathembekanga, abaziintloko nabakhaliphileyo, abahlekisa ngophando lwam kunye nezinto endizithandayo, ukuze bahenyuze ngokuthanda kwabo kunye nentliziyo yabo kwisidalwa. Ndiyindoda enekhwele, ndiziphindezelele ngokwam ngoqhawulo-mtshato, bandule bandicelele intuthuzelo, ndibathumele kwabo bathanda kakhulu kum. Andinazi nina bafazi bakrexezayo, nditsho kubo, ngaphakathi
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ubushushu bam: rhoxa; ngokuba asingabo bonke abakhala kum abaya kungena eluzukweni lwam ngenxa yoko..."
Ewe, Bawo, ndibone kuThixo ukuba abo bathi, emva kwesibhambathiso sobunyulu, banamathele kuthando olunengqiqo ngesidalwa, bahenyuze yaye bakrexeze ngokomoya, ngakumbi okanye kancinane bemenzakalisa uThixo, ngokuxhomekeke kuloo ngongoma. banazo kwizidalwa, ukonakala kweminqweno yazo; kwaye olu krexezo lwenziwa singaqondanga nokuba siyaluqonda.
Nguwuphi umahluko, utsho uJC, phakathi kothando oludikidiki, olunobugwala kunye nomphefumlo ongakhathaliyo onalo kum, kunye naloo mahlakani abuthathaka kakhulu behlabathi elonakeleyo abanalo kwisidalwa!... Xa umntu ethanda isidalwa, ufunda, njengoko uyabona, ngokucokisekileyo zonke iindlela zokumkholisa, kwaye umntu uyoyika ukumyekisa kuyo nantoni na; okanye ucinga ngayo ubusuku nemini, ubani ubandezeleka ngokuba kude kuyo; bangamaxhala entumekelelo, benikela ingqalelo eqhubekayo, iinkumbulo ekungekho nto inokuphazamisa kuzo. Baphi abo benza okufanayo kum, nangona kunjalo, ndifanelekele yonke inkathalo, yonke ingqalelo kunye neentliziyo zonke? Ukuba kukho into esondelayo kubafazi bam bokwenyani, yeka into yokubanda, ukungakhathali nobugwala kwabanye!...
Bangaphi na abafazi abangathembekanga abandishiyayo ngovavanyo oluncinane! Hayi! kungokuba ngokuzinikela kum, bafune ubabalo lwam nentuthuzelo yam ngaphezu kwam! Izithandwa zam zokwenyani, yinyani, ayindiboni tu; ngokuthanda ukuthandaza nokumanyana ngokuzingisileyo, bangayeki ukundinika izenzo zabo ezincinane, babe nam phakathi kweyona misebenzi itshabalalisayo; kodwa abanye, ngokuchaseneyo, ngokuthanda ukuzibhubhisa, bandihlutha ezona zenzo zabo zilungileyo, kwaye bangabehlabathi kunye nendalo nakwizenzo zabo zokuhlonela uThixo. Kungakhathaliseki ukuba ndibabiza kangakanani na, bayandinikela umva bangenzi ngathi bayandiva; ukuba ndithe ndabacinezela, bofuna intuthuzelo yabo phakathi kwezidalwa, endaweni yokuba babhekise kum.
Ukulula kunye neendlela zokuphumelela ubuhlobo bukaJ.-C.
"Ubuhlobo obukhethekileyo, iqhubeka i-JC, ngoko ichasene nothando lwam kwaye ibeka umqobo omkhulu kwimfezeko yomphefumlo. Wongezelela ngelithi, asikuko nokuba ndiyabugxeka ubuhlobo obungcwele nobobuKristu, obubandakanya ukuncedana phambi koThixo, ekwenzeni isidima, nokwenza okulungileyo. Hayi, ezi ntlobo zobuhlobo obukhethekileyo ziyamkeleka kakhulu kum, ukuba kulandelelwano kunye nentsingiselo yokwenyani yothando lwam ngokwalo, ngaphandle kokuba, nangona kunjalo, akukho nto ixutywe ngumntu kunye nabo, njengoko kwenzeka rhoqo. andali
soze abo bazimisele ukwenza konke ukundikholisa nokundibeka... Ewe, ntombi yam, wathi kum, ngaba ngokwenene uyafuna ukuba ngowam? Kulula kangakanani kuwe? Awuyi kuba nangxaki yokundifumana ukuze ujabulele incoko yam; awuyi kufuna iileta okanye umthumeli, njengoko kufuneka ukugcina ubuhlobo behlabathi. Ndiya kuba kuyo yonke indawo ekufikeleleni kwakho kunye nawe. Uya kundifumana kuyo nayiphi na indawo kwaye nangaliphi na ixesha, ngenkumbulo yobukho bam kunye nangothando lwentliziyo yakho, ngaphandle kokungenelela kwakhe nawuphi na umntu ozithembayo.
"Uthando lwam, oluya kuyiphilisa yonke imisebenzi yakho, iya kuyenza ilunge kuwe kwaye iya kunika ixabiso kwisenzo sakho ngasinye. Akusayi kubakho namnye ongakubaleliyo entweni kwaye engakufumani inqanaba elitsha lokukufanela phambi kwam. Nguwuphi umdla angenawo ekuhlakuleleni ubuhlobo obuxabiseke ngolo hlobo nobumlungeleyo; ubuhlobo obunokuthi, ngaphandle kweentloni kwaye ngaphandle kokuphoxeka, bunokukuzisela isivuno semivuzo engenakuchazwa okanye ukuxatyiswa! ...
“Ekuqwalaseleni ukunyaniseka kwenu ekungqamaneni neengqalelo zam, ekuqwalaseleni utyelelo oluncinane oluthandeka ngakumbi kunehlazo, eniya kulwenza kum phambi kwezibingelelo zam, yonke into iya kuba yinzuzo yenu, kwaye akukho nto ilahlekileyo; uyakuyonwabela eyona ncoko yam ithambileyo, ezona mpawu zothando lwam. Ndiya kuba ngumkhuseli wakho nomxhasi wakho kuzo zonke iintshaba zakho ezingeenxa zonke kuwe; Ndiya kuba nguyihlo, umyeni wakho, umhlobo wakho, uThixo wakho, kwaye umvuzo wakho omkhulu ngonaphakade. Ezi advantages ntombi zixabiseke nyani ezo uzozincisha uthando lwam? Ah! Kholwa ndim, ukuze kobu bomi ubuyekezwe ngenxa yemibingelelo oyenze kum, nangokugonyamela kwakho, ukuba undikholise, undithobele; endaweni yolu loyiko, ezi nkathazo, kolu loyiko oluya kuthi, ngamaxesha athile, lukrazule iintliziyo zabathandi behlabathi, uya kuva intuthuzelo emnandi eya kuba singcamla yentliziyo yanaphakade endiyilungiselelayo nekufuneka ikukhokelele kuyo uthando lwam. »
Oh Thixo wam! Ndakhala, ndididekile kwaye ndingene ngobunzulu bokungabi nto kwam kunye nokungafaneleki kwam, Thixo wam, ndiyintoni na ukuba ufune ukundifuna ngolu hlobo, ngokungathi ulonwabo lwakho luxhomekeke kowam, kwaye awukwazi ukonwaba ngaphandle kwam. mna! Ewe, ngaphandle kokujinga, ndizinikela kuwe kwaye andifuni kuthanda
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hayi kodwa nguwe wedwa kwixesha nasemaphakadeni.
Imiphumo eyintlekele yobu buhlobo ehlabathini ngokwalo nasemtshatweni. Ukuxhatshazwa okumanyumnyezi kwalo mthendeleko.
Le miphumo iyintlekele yothando lwezidalwa nobuhlobo obuthile, ubani mhlawumbi uya kucinga ukuba yenzeka kuphela ngokuphathelele abantu abazahlulele kuThixo, okanye abo bakwimeko ethile ehlabathini. kodwa azibakhathaleli abo bamiselwe ukuba bakwimeko yomtshato: ukuba sisengalahlekiswanga kule ngongoma, nokuba, ukuze siphumelele kuyo, sifunda oko iNkosi indinyanzelayo ukuba ndikuthethe kusemzini ngokupheleleyo kum, yaye endingathanda ukuba ndikwazi ukuthula kakhulu.
Ndibone abantu abaninzi abatshatileyo bewela esihogweni, kwaye i-JC yandazisa esona sizathu sokulahlekelwa kwabo ngonaphakade. Ndibona ngaphezu kwako konke ukuba kwakungenxa yesono sokungcola, ndadanduluka: Owu Thixo wam! ndingathini na ukuchukumisa into engcole kangaka ndivuse umgxobhozo? Ndingathetha njani ngobubi obuchasene nomnqweno wam kunye nokugqibelela kwemeko yam?...
Wathi kum, Musa ukoyika, ndithabathe uxanduva ngazo naziphi na iziphazamiso ezinokuthi zibe ngenxa yoku ngokubhekisele kuni, nakubo bonke abo banomdla wokwenene wokufunda, ukubhala, ukucikideka ngokuthembeka oko ndiza kukwenza. ndixela uzuko lwam nosindiso lwemiphefumlo. Zizinto ezingcolileyo ezi, kuyinyaniso; kodwa ndiza kubagubungela ngemifanekiso eya kukukhusela kuko konke ukudyobheka. Yonke into evela kum ihlambulukile, kwaye khumbula ukuba imitha yelanga ikhanyisa i-cesspool engcolileyo, ngaphandle kokufumana naluphi na usulelo. »
Kwakhona, Bawo, ndibone yonke into ngaphandle kokubona kwanto, kwaye ndiyiqonda kakuhle yonke into ngaphandle kokuba nenxaxheba kuyo. Ewe, ndakubona ukugqith’ emgceni kwamaqabane omtshato, iintlobo ngeentlobo zokusetyenziswa kakubi kweyona ngcwele kangcwele, ubungcwele bayo obusoloko ihlanjelwa; umthendeleko umntu awenze ukuba asebenzele inkanuko yodwa, kwanangenxa yenkohlakalo, aze athi ubani ade angcolise ngamanye amaxesha ngamasikizi achasene neziphelo amele azicebise apho, amasikizi athob’ isidima indalo akwenza ube neentloni. Ndayibona, kwaye ndeva kuphela iintshukumo zomsindo kunye noloyiko. Ndakhwaza ndingcangcazela: Thixo unjani uva ubunzima?...
Ukuvumela njani ukugqithisa okunjalo kwizidalwa ezenziwe ngomfanekiso wakho, kwaye ngawaphi amalungu amaninzi omzimba wakho wobuthixo? Intoni
umva! kodwa, Bawo, nantsi inkcukacha yombono wam. Uya kugweba ngcono ngokubalisa okulula.
(1) Phakathi kwabavavanyi bombhalo-ngqangi, kwafunyanwa omnye okanye ababini, ubukhulu becala, ababebonakala kum benqwenela ukuba uDade wayengawuchukumisi lo mbandela ucekethekileyo abathi, wawungafanelekanga ukuba unongendi awuthethe. Kodwa, eneneni, nangona ndandityekele kangakanani ekuluhlekiseni uluvo lwabo, mna, okanye abanye abaninzi, ndiye ndakwazi ukuhambisana nalo kule ngongoma, okanye ndingayixabisi ingqiqo abayisekele phezu kwayo; ngenxa yokuba, ngaphandle kwesibakala sokuba apha bekuya kuba nguThixo kwaye ingenguye uDade ofanele ukutyholwa, kuya kulandela ukuba kuya kufuneka ukuba kuthintelwe, kunye neencwadi ezininzi zeZibhalo Ezingcwele, zonke iingcaciso ezilungileyo esinazo kumthetho wesithandathu. , eziye zenziwa kuphela ngabangcwele abazinikele, njengoDade, kwisidima sobunyulu. Musa ukwenza impazamo, kuphela kwimiphefumlo enjalo ukuba yeyokubhala nokuthetha ngayo. Ndiyazi ukuba kukho abafundi ngelishwa bathambekele kwityhefu namayeza anikezelwe kubo; kodwa siya kuphetha ngelithini? ukuba singabe sisathetha ngokungcola ukuze sibangele ukoyikeka kuko: oku koko kanye okufunwa lihlabathi elonakeleyo; kodwa unqulo lucinga ngokwahlukileyo. Ewe, ukuva abantu behlabathi, akukho nto iyingozi ngakumbi kuneentshumayelo neencwadi zezakwalizwi ezikweli nqaku. Oku kunokungcolisa kuphela ukucinga kwabantu abatsha, kwaye ezi ziphathamandla eziqatha azifumani nto ngaphandle kokuba msulwa ekufundweni kweenoveli eziyingozi kakhulu ukuba msulwa, kwimiboniso, imidaniso, imifanekiso apho ubungendawo obungathandekiyo bumelwe ngeyona ndlela ikhohlisayo; oko kukuthi; ukuba kuyimfuneko ukuthetha kunye nokubhala ngayo ukuze ukwenze ukuba uthandwe, kodwa ungaze uwenze uthiywe kwaye ucekelwe. Ngaloo ndlela, lo mkhwa woyikekayo wenziwa, wehlazo elimfaneleyo, umqadi azimela phantsi kwawo aze azibanga enandipha ukohlwaywa: UThixo akakhohliswanga kobu buxoki buphindaphindeneyo, obugatyayo isazela nesizathu esibugatyayo kunye nonqulo.
Umtshato umelwe phantsi komzobo womlambo omkhulu.
Okokuqala, ndabona umlambo obanzi uqukuqela phambi kwamehlo am. kwaye ubunzulu kakhulu, indlela eyakhawuleza kakhulu kangangokuba ifuna amandla amangalisayo nobuchule, kananjalo noncedo lwesikhokelo esilungileyo, ukuyiwela ngaphandle kokuntywiliselwa. Eyona nto yandichukumisa kakhulu kukubona inkitha engabalekiyo yabantu besini sobabini nakuwo onke amazwe bebaleka ukuya kugxalathelana ukuya apho ngobumfama obudalwe ngumsindo, kangangokuba umlambo waqengqeleka phantse bonke abantu besini kwindlela yawo .
Ukoyika ngenxa yeenqanawa ezininzi, ndimangaliswe kwaye ndisecaleni kwam yonke into endiyibonayo, ndaziva ndibuhlungu ngamaxhoba angalunganga, ubuso babo bugubungele. Ngowuphi lo mlambo woyikekayo ndabuza, kwaye ungabonisa ntoni?... Yimeko yomtshato, ndaphendulwa; zonke zibalekela apho, njengoko ubona, kuba zonke zilandela utyekelo lwendalo. Ngaba iyamangalisa into yokuba abantu abaninzi kangaka betshabalala apho! Sifuna kuphela ulwaneliseko olunzulu olugatywayo yiVangeli, sizivumela ukuba siye kutyekelo lwemvelo, yaye sikhukuliswe kukukhawuleza kwekhondo lalo: kanye lo ngumsinga, umsinga.
enzonzobileni egubungela phantse bonke abantu, kuba akukho mntu unobugcisa bokuphepha imigibe elizaliswe ngayo .
Ukuziphatha okubi nokuziphatha okubi kwabo batshatayo. — Inani elincinane labo bahlala ngcwele emtshatweni.
Kuyinyani ukuba imeko yomtshato iyimfuneko ekwandeni koluntu; kodwa ngelishwa ! lo mthombo wokuzala kohlanga loluntu phantse utyhefwe emhlabeni wonke
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ngezimo ezimbi zabo babhalisa apho. Umthendeleko ngokuqinisekileyo uya kuyenza, kodwa kuya kuba yimfuneko ukuba isetyenziswe kakuhle, ukuyilungiselela ngakumbi, kwaye ngaphezu kwayo yonke into ungaqali ngokuyihlambela xa iyamkela: kuba, ngale ndlela, kude nokuba ungcwaliswe yiyo ngokomgaqo, lo mthombo wokuveliswa kwabantu ufunyanwa ungcoliswe ngakumbi, kuba ukuhlambalaza kongezwa kukonakala; ukuze sithi ngomhla wethu, njengakwimihla kaNowa, ubugwenxa bufikelele encotsheni yabo, nokuba yonke inyama izonakalisile iindlela zayo.
Umthombo wokuqala wobugwenxa babantu; kuba zeziphi iziqhamo ezinokuvelisa imithi yolu hlobo, ngakumbi xa inikwe isiko, ndithetha imfundo ehambelana nemvelaphi yayo? “Kuyinyani, uThixo wandixelela ukuba, zisekho yaye ziya kuhlala zikho iintsapho ezimiselwe kwangaphambili, apho intsikelelo yasezulwini isasazeka ukusuka kwisizukulwana ukuya kwesinye: aba ngabo apho ubulumko bubonakala njengelifa yaye budlulela koobawo busiya ebantwaneni, apho uloyiko lobuthixo luvela kwizizukulwana ngezizukulwana. UThixo umahlulayo unyana, njengoko amahlulayo uyise. Isiqhamo nomthi zisikelelwa ngokulinganayo ngulowo watyala yonke into, nalowo ukhulisa konke. Oku kudla ngokuba yimvelaphi yabanyulwa beNkosi. Ngezimilo zabo basondela kwimeko ababekuyo uEva noAdam ngaphambi kokuwa kwabo;
Ukugqithisa okwenziwa ngaphambi nasemva komtshato.
Kodwa, Bawo, kusapho lwesi similo, ah! bangaphi abanye apho umntu engenalo neyona ngcamango incinci yobungcwele beli lizwe, apho umntu azinikela kuphela ukwaneliseka kwesilwanyana, ulonwabo lwenyama kunye nolunya; apho umntu esiya kokubini ngokuchasene nesidima somthendeleko kunye nomnqweno wendalo othanda ukusasaza!... Kwizilo ezinje umntu unokufuna iindudumo kungekhona amagama; kukuhlazisa, kukuthoba, kukuthoba isidima somntu. Kuya kwenzeka ntoni ke ngoko kwisimo nangomgangatho womKristu?...
Andithethi, Bawo, malunga nenkululeko engaphambi kwexesha, yokuqhelana, iilayisensi zolwaphulo-mthetho ezihlala zithintela umthendeleko kwaye zibangele ukuba ukwamkelwa kwawo kungcoliswe. Umqobo ukuba oku kungcoliswa kubeka kubabalo olufanelekileyo lomtshato, ngoyena nobangela uqhelekileyo wamashwa kunye nezilingo ezifunyanwa kule meko ingcwele. Andithethi ngabo bacinga ukungena kuyo, kodwa ndithetha ngabo balapho ngoku nabasebenzisa umthendeleko abawufumeneyo njengolwaphulo-mthetho. Bangaphi abathi, ngokukhala nangokusebenzisa kakubi, bafumana kwiimeko ezingcwele kuphela izifundo, imiba yolwaphulo-mthetho, iziganeko zokugwetywa !....
ISibhalo sisixelela ukuba amadoda okuqala omfazi kaTobit oselula afuthaniselwa yidemon ngobusuku bokuqala bomtshato wabo, njengesohlwayo ngenxa yokugqabhuka kwabo nenkohlakalo. Kulungile ! Bawo, uThixo undazise ukuba imeko efanayo yezibini ezisandul’ ukutshata phakathi kwamaKristu ayizange ibe yingozi kangako kwimiphefumlo yabo njengokuba yayinjalo kumzimba waba bantu bangakholwayo, nokuba umngxuma owenzelwe i-Advance kubo yayibubuso benzonzobila. ekwathi kubo kwaloo magqabaza, kwanobo burheletyo, abasandula ukutshatana imihla ngemihla babawela imitshato. Obunjani bona ukutyhakala ubumfama!
Imbopheleleko yokufundisa abasandul’ ukutshata ngemisebenzi yabo.
Bangaphi abantu abasandul’ ukutshata abakholelwa ukuba bavunyelwe yonke into, batyhafe baze bafe kwimikhwa eyenyanyekayo, bengenzanga nto ukuze baphume kuyo, bengakhange bacinge nokuzilungisa!. Bangaphi abantu abacinga ukuba basebenzisa amalungelo abo, xa kunjalo
bathukise umthendeleko abawufumeneyo ukuze bawuhloniphe kwaye bangawucaphukisi ! Ilishwa! hayi! yeha kubo! Yeha kubalawuli abangazi nto okanye abangamagwala ,
abathi, ngenkohlakalo evukelayo okanye ukungaqondwa kobumnandi, bala ukubayalela ngomsebenzi wolu kubaluleka, okanye ukubakhulula ngaphandle kokubalungisa! bangunobangela wobubi ababuvumelayo ukuba benziwe. Yeha abo bangabafundisi ngokufanelekileyo abo baza kutshata nabo ngaphambi kokuba bamanyane ngolu manyano lungcwele! babathumela edabini bengaxhobanga, babaphosa emlanjeni
ngaphandle kwamanyathelo okhuseleko. Esinjani sona isizathu sokungcangcazela ngaba balungiseleli baxhaphakileyo!
Izono umntu azenzayo ebudeni bomtshato ziyoyikeka; siyachacha maxa wambi, kuba akukho nto ke ngoko enokumqinisekisa umntu onetyala; kodwa ezo ubani azenza emtshatweni aziguquki kwaye azinakuguqulwa, kuba umntu akacingi nokucinga ngokuguquka okanye ukuzitshintsha. Phantsi kwesingxengxezo esikhethekileyo somthendeleko awufumeneyo umntu, umntu uyazimfamekisa ade angabi nakuzibamba okanye azisole ngento ekufanele ngokwenene ibangele oko.
Ah! Bawo, ndisangcangcazela ndibona inani lamaxhoba asele eza kutshona kulo mlambo, apho mna ngokwam ngendifile ngokungenasiphoso, ngakumbi xa kujongwa utyekelo olubi lobutsha bam, ukuba uThixo, ngenceba emsulwa, ngewayengazange asilondoloze. ngolunye ubizo. Olunjani lona ubabalo lokungatshati! Ah! ngoku kunanini na ngaphambili ukuba ndiziva ixabiso elipheleleyo kwaye
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ndingabulela kangakanani olu lubabalo...
ICANDELO XI.
Ngobabalo lokufela ukholo; kwiziphumo eziveliswe kuDade ngokukhanya kokholo okwamkhanyiselayo; nakwintobeko yokwenene, isiseko sazo zonke izidima.
Ukubhala ukuthunyelwa kokugqibela koDade Wokuzalwa kukaYesu, kwaqaliswa kwisiqithi saseJersey, ngoJanuwari 18, 1792. Musani ukuboyika abo banokubulala umzimba kuphela.
Bawo, kwiintsuku ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo, emthandazweni wam, ndacela kuThixo, ngenxa yam kunye noluntu lonke, kwanabo bonke abathembekileyo abatshutshiswayo, amandla okubandezeleka, inkalipho nokunyamezela ebubini babo. nantsi into eyathetha kum iNkosi yethu ngesi sihlandlo, ukuthi, Yini na ukuba ndoyike kangaka abo bangenamandla phezu kwemiphefumlo yam? zikunika ukufa okwethutyana, yiyo yonke loo nto umsindo wabo onokukwenza; kuba ayinako ukuya phambili, kwaye neentolo zabo azifikeleli ngaphaya kokufa; Imizamo yabo enetyala ke ngoko baphumelela kuphela ekukhupheni emzimbeni wakhe umphefumlo ongowam, nasekuwubekeni inkululeko yokubuyela kumbhali wawo.
Ke mna ndiya kuyifumana inentumekelelo ngaphezu kolitshijolo eliphanga ubutyebi balo ekufuneni abo bafuna ukubusela kulo. Ngoko kutheni uzikhathaza kangaka ngayo? Lahla, ukuba kuyimfuneko, kumsindo wabo lo mzimba wodaka, oya kuthi, ngaphezu koko, ubuyele apho ngokukhawuleza; mabayiqwenge, bachithe isinyithi nomlilo; abayi kuba nako ukuyitshabalalisa phambi kwam; Ndiya kulandela zonke iindawo, kwaye naphezu kwazo ndiya kuba nako ukuphinda ndidibanise yonke into kwaye ndivuselele yonke into ngomhla wokugqibela.
“Ngaloo nto, ntombi yam, ulindelo lweentshaba zam luya kuphoxeka kakhulu kwaye lukhwankqiswe lukhulu, xa luya kungqina oko, xa, ngoloyiko lwentuthumbo, oluyindalo emntwini, baya kuyibona impindezelo endiyiyo. baya kutsalwa kuko konke abaya kubenza babandezeleke abantu bam, ngoloyiso endiya kubanika lona.
Ubabalo lwamandla uJC alunika abafel 'ukholo. Isiqhamo somdla wakhe.
Ungalibali, wongezelela kum, ukuba xa ndibizela umntu kubabalo lokufel’ ukholo, ndiwurhangqa umphefumlo wakhe, intliziyo yakhe nenkalipho yakhe, ngesigcina-sifuba segolide entle nedayimane. iintolo zomlilo zesihogo nakulo lonke ulunya lweedemon. Lolona kholo lunyulu nothando olubumba esi sigcina-sifuba singangenekiyo; kwaye ukuba andibakhululi abachasi bam kulo naluphi na uhlobo loloyiko, okanye nasekuzivezeni iintlungu, qiniseka ukuba ndibandakanyekile kwaye ngokungathi ndibophelelekile ukubaxhasa, ekubeni kungenxa yesizathu sam ukuba balwe. Ngokuqinisekileyo andisayi kubashiya ekulingweni okungaphaya kwamandla abo; kwaye, xa kuyimfuneko, eyam yokugqibela iya kubonisa ngakumbi
"La mandla amangalisayo abakhonzi bam kunye nabakhonzi bam, ndibafanele ngokurhoxa kwam xa kusondela ukufa, umonde wam kunye nenkalipho yam kwiimbandezelo zothando lwam, umphefumlo wam wawungoko.
ezikhukuliswe yintlungu ethe, njengomlambo, yaphuphuma phezu kwam kwaye yagubungela ubuntu bam obungcwele. Ndancitshiswa kwiingqaqambo kuMyezo weMinquma, ndihluthi ngezingcikivo phambi kwabagwebi bam, ndalahlwa emnqamlezweni, ukuze ndifanele lonke ubabalo ukuthwala impatho enjalo, ukuba kuyimfuneko ukuba uyinyamezele ngenxa yokukhusela inkolo yam nonqulo lwam. ubuThixo.
Aninako ke ngoko ukwenza ngcono kunokuba nizihlanganise kwangaphambili iimbandezelo zenu kunye nezo zothando lwam: oku kuya kuba yindlela ebalaseleyo yokuhlonipha nokundikholisa, nizilungiselele nasiphi na isiganeko anokuthi uThixo asivumele.
Esi simo sengqondo sokufel’ ukholo siyandonwabisa, ngandlel’ ithile, njengokufel’ ukholo ngokwako: ngoko ke, uya kutsalwa kuko ukulunga okukhulu kunye nomthombo ongapheliyo wentuthuzelo. Ubomi bufutshane kwaye unaphakade awunasiphelo; iimbandezelo zeli hlabathi aziyonto xa zithelekiswa nolonwabo oluzilandelayo, ukuba ubani uyayazi indlela yokuthwala iminqamlezo efanele ukumenza umntu afaneleke. Abo baya kuba nesabelo kuvuko lwasezulwini, ngaba baya kuzisola ngokuba nesabelo ekubandezelekeni kwam emhlabeni? Esi, Bawo, sisilumkiso sobubele ukuba
UJC undinike kule meko, esongeza ezinye iimbono esiya kukwazi ukuthetha ngazo kungekudala.
Isiphumo esiveliswe kuDade ngokukhanya okumkhanyisayo kuThixo.
Oku kukhanya okundikhanyiselayo kuThixo, nendithethe ngako kuwe izihlandlo ezininzi, kwandenza ndaqatsela kwasebuntwaneni umkhwa endikholelwa ukuba wawungenako ukuguquka kuwo: kukuthelekisa mna ngokwam. kwanako konke endikubonayo, konke endikuvayo, konke endikufundayo okanye endikuhlolisisayo, ngokuthanda kukaThixo, oko kuzibonakalisa kum ngokungapheziyo njengomthetho ongasileliyo wemigwebo yam, kwanokuziphatha kwam. Ndizifumana ndityekele ekwamkeleni okanye ekugwebeni konke okuzithela thsuphe engqondweni yam, njengokuba oku kukhanya kufumanisa kum ukungqinelana okanye inkcaso nentando yobuthixo. Andazi, Bawo, ukuba ndiyathetha nam; kodwa ndicinga ukuba, ukuba nombono ofanelekileyo wento endiyithethayo, umntu kufuneka abe nayo: kufana nesipili esihlala sikhona emehlweni engqondo yam,
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gweba ngenye indlela phantsi kwayo nayiphi na imeko.
Xa ndandisengumntwana, yaye utata nomama bandisa kwimisa, ndafumana uyolo olulodwa ukuva umfundisi-ntsapho okanye umfundisi wakhe esicacisela iVangeli, esenza izibongozo zesidima, yaye esoyikisa ngemigwebo kaThixo abo bathe tye. zibandakanyeke kwinkohlakalo nakwisono. Ndandithanda ngokukodwa ukuba bathetha ngobuhle be-JC kunye nabangcwele; Ndabona ukususela ngoko, ngako oku kukhanya, ukuba konke oku kwakuvisisana nentando yobuthixo kunye nenyaniso yeVangeli. Kodwa into emangalisa kakhulu kukuba, ukuba kukho abasindileyo kula manene, ngokungazi okanye ngenye indlela, isiphakamiso esithile esichasene nokholo oluyinyaniso, okanye into echasene nenkolelo yokwenyaniso yothembekileyo, malunga nokuziphatha kobuKristu, ndabona ngokukhawuleza ukuba oku kwakunjalo. hayi kwi ulungelelwano okanye ulwalathiso lokuthanda kukaThixo. Ukukhanya kwandenza ndakubona ukonakala kwayo, ukusa kwinqanaba lokuba ngekunyanzeleke ukuba ndihambe, ukuba umfundisi wayeyixhase ngokuqinileyo impazamo ethile egwetywe liBandla; Andizange ndikwazi ukunyamezela ukubonakala komntu obhengezwayo, ngelixa ndivakalelwa kukuba, umfundisi othetha egameni kunye nengqiqo ye-JC kunye neCawa yakhe, intlonipho kunye nentlonipho eyandenza ndambona u-JC ngokwakhe emntwini wakhe.
Ngolu kukhanya, uwisa isigwebo kwiintshumayelo, iincwadi, njl.
Isimo sengqondo endiye ndasifumana kubo bonke ubomi bam. Enoba ndiva intshumayelo, imfundiso, ikatekizim, okanye ndifunda, ndizama ukulandela igama negama intsingiselo yoko kuthethwayo. Ukukhanya kukaThixo kundenza ndibone ngovuyo zonke iinyaniso zobungqina; kodwa konke oko kuya kuthandabuza okanye ukukrokra kundenza ndibe namava entlungu ethile elingana nenkcaso endiyibonayo kuyo ngokukhanya kwesibhakabhaka: Ndinyanzelekile ukuba ndikwale ngokukhawuleza konke okulwa nenyaniso yanaphakade.
Kungenxa yolu khanyiso ukuba ngokufuthi ndigwebe, njengokuba phezu kwam nje, iincwadi ezithile ezathi zawela ezandleni zam, okanye endazinikwa ukuba ndizifunde ukuze ndizigwebe, ndingenako ukuzithethelela ngokufanelekileyo izigwebo zam; nokunganikezeli ngenxa yokugwetywa kwam. Ndaziva ndivutha ngumsindo womsindo owandinyanzela ukuba ndiyivale le ncwadi, ngamanye amaxesha ndiyilahle kude kum, kuba ngokufunda izinto ezikuyo ezibonakala zingakhathali, ngamanye amaxesha zihle kwaye zichazwe kakuhle, ndabubona bonke ububi bukaSathana, nabo bonke ubuthi obusengqondweni yombhali nakwinjongo yakhe
ejoliswe ukushukumisa ukholo okanye ukuziphatha. Ngoko ndajonga le ncwadi njengemveliso ye-infernal ukuba kwakungenakwenzeka ukuba ndihlupheke.
Phakathi kwezinye izinto, ndikhumbula ukuba kwiminyaka eliqela eyadlulayo umama wandinika incwadi awayeyimangalise kumntu owayehlala endlwini, ukuze ndimxelele ukuba ndiyifumene ilungile okanye imbi, ukungabinalo ixesha lokuzifundisa. Ndayiphonononga into yayo, kwaye andibanga thuba lide ekufumaniseni apho, phantsi komphandle omhle kunye nesimbo esamkelekileyo, imfundiso egqwethekileyo nechasene ngokupheleleyo nobuKristu; Ndandisazi nokuba kungekudala le mfundiso ingendawo, ngelishwa yamkelwe kakhulu, yayiza kubangela ukuba kuqhambuke uvukelo olubi kakhulu, oluya kuba sisohlwayo sobulungisa samaqela obugwenxa. Ndisoyika, ndabuyisela le ncwadi kumama, waza wayibuyisela kuloo mntu eneodolo yokuba ayibonise lowo wayevuma izono. Umxeleli wayibeka emlilweni.
Kuye kwenzeka nakum ngamanye amaxesha ukuba ndingavumelani ekufundeni kwam iimpawu ezithile zembali eziye zaqanjwa ngokuhlonela uThixo, ndicinga ukuba, kunokuba ndingaqondwa, kunye nenzondelelo endingazange ndiyikholelwe ngokwenzululwazi okanye ubuqili bobuKristu; kwaneempawu ezithile zentobelo yonqulo, ingekuko ukuba intobelo yonqulo ayilunganga kakhulu ngokwayo, iyimfuneko nakulo naliphi na ibutho; kodwa yayikukuthobela okumfameke kangaka, kangangokuba kwahamba ngokucacileyo oko umntu akutyala iBandla, ngokuchasene nemithetho kaThixo, kwaye ngamanye amaxesha kwananxamnye nemigaqo yokuqala yomthetho wendalo ; ngoko ndaba nolunye uhlobo loloyiko.
Ngale ndlela, uphendula ngokuqinileyo kumagosa kamasipala, uyazi kwaye uqikelele iziganeko ezininzi.
Kungokulandela isikhokelo solu khanyiso endathi ndasabela ngokuqinileyo kumagosa kamasipala awayeze kusicela ukuba sixhamle kwimimiselo yendibano, siwushiye uluntu lwethu sibuyele ehlabathini. Ndabaxelela indlela yam yokucinga ngale nto ngamandla nangenkululeko enkulu, kangangokuba lowo ndandimjongile watshintsha umbala, waza wathabatha icala lam nxamnye nomlingane wakhe, emxelela ukuba makandiyeke ndilandele izigqibo zam.
iminqweno, kwaye ndandilungile ukunamathela kuyo. UThixo wandenza ndaqonda ukuba uya kuwavula amehlo akhe, alilahle ikhondo elibi; kweneke ntoni.
Mna ke ndisekubone oko ngenxa engaphambili, ndazixela izinto ezininzi, endathetha ngazo kuni ngenxa engaphambili; kwakungenxa yoku, Bawo, endaziyo ukuba uza kuthatha indawo kaM. Laisné, ndingakhange ndikubone, kwaye ngaphandle kokuba kubekho
kwakubonakala ngathi le nto yenzeka ngolo hlobo; kungokuba ngamanye amaxesha ndinike izilumkiso kubaphathi bam, kwaye nam
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Ngamanye amaxesha ndikhe ndazinika ezinye, ngamaxesha athile, onokuthi uzikhumbule (1).
(1) Kumelwe ukuba kwaqatshelwa ukuba uDade wandilumkisa kwangaphambili ukuba ndiza kunyanzeleka ukuba ndibaleke, kwaye kufuneka ndikhuseleke ekutshutshisweni, kwaye wabona kuThixo ukuba ndingabanjwa okanye ndivalelwe. . . Sibonile kananjalo ukuba ndalunyukiswa nguye ngexesha ekwakufuneka kubushiye ubukumkani, kwaye konke oku ngaphambi kwemimiselo eyathi ekugqibeleni yanyanzela bonke ababingeleli abangavumelaniyo ukuba bathabathe icala elinye, kwaye kwakude kudala ngaphambi kokubulawa kwabantu abaninzi. eParis. Kodwa, ngaphandle kwezi zilumkiso zokhuseleko lwam lobuqu, zingaphi angandinikanga zona kurhulumente wokomoya woonongendi? Nantsi into enye eyenzekayo, phakathi kwezinto ezininzi, kwinkumbulo yam:
Oonongendi ababini baye bandicela, kwigumbi lokuhlala, imvume yokukwazi ukunikana ingxelo ngeempazamo zabo zemihla ngemihla kunye noloyiso lwabo, kwanoqheliselo lwabo oluthile lokuzinikela. Ndihlaselwe ekuqaleni ngumnqweno wabo wemfezeko engaphezulu, andizange ndivumele okanye ndikwalele, kwaye ndaye ndaneliseka ngokuhlehlisa oku kumgwebo woPhezulu, owathi, ecaleni kwakhe, wanelisekile kukunyamezela ngokufihlakeleyo. UDade woMzalo weza kundifumana ngenye imini kwesi sihlandlo, kwaye wathetha nam ngakumbi okanye ngaphantsi ngolu hlobo:
Usenokuba uyazi, Bawo, ukuba ooDade bethu u-N. kunye no-N. baye babumba phakathi kwabo umbutho othile wezenzo zangaphandle kunye nokuthembeka okufanayo. La mantombazana mabini angamahlwempu aneenjongo ezintle kuphela, yaye akulumkele ukukubona kusengaphambili konke okungahambi kakuhle okusenokubangelwa yidemon, engayi kusilela ukuwasebenzisa ngokunengenelo; kuba ndiyabona ukuba uzimisele ukubabekela imigibe kwesi sihlandlo; ulahlekise abaninzi phantsi kwengubo yemfezeko enkulu. Bawo, qiniseka ukuba, ngakumbi ekuhlaleni, nantoni na etenxileyo kumgaqo jikelele wokuzinikela ngokukodwa, iyakrokrelwa kwaye ixhomekeke ekuzikhohliseni. umoya ohendayo ode aziphathe njengesithunywa sezikhanyiso, ukuba alahlekise ngokulungileyo, akaze atshitshe, enokungako anako, ukuphosa ingxabano elukhozweni olulungileyo. Eyona nto incinci angayenza apha, kwaye ndiyabona ukuba akazukusilela ukwenza njalo, iya kuba kukudala phakathi kwezi
oonongendi ababini abalungileyo ubuhlobo ethile, ngokuchaseneyo kakhulu uthando jikelele abanetyala kubo bonke oodade, ngaphandle kokukhetha, ngaphandle kokwabelana, ngaphandle umahluko, ngaphandle naluphi na uhlobo ngaphandle; umoya wokuzicingela nowokuzicingela, onokuthi kungekudala uguquke ube likratshi. Ukuba oko akwenzekanga, ubuncinci into enokwenzeka ayinakuphikiswa. Ndiyavuma kuwe ukuba andikuthandi ukuzinikela okubonakala ngendlela engaqhelekanga, ngaphandle kokuba igunyazwe livela ezulwini. Masingene kuThixo singawabala amanyathelo ethu nemisebenzi yethu emihle; kuba oko kucingelwa ukuba kuninzi kuhlala kubalelwa ngokuncinci, kwaye ngamanye amaxesha okungaphantsi kwanto, phambi koThixo. Asiyonto yangaphandle yokuzenza ilungisa eyenza okulungileyo
inkolo, kodwa ukulula nokuthe tye kwentliziyo nenjongo edityaniswe nomoya wangaphakathi, ukuthobela intobeko, kunye nothando lwenene olungazi mahluko phakathi kwabantu afanele ukubathanda.
Ngaphandle koko, Bawo, sinokuthetha ngokugqibelela okuphezulu, ukucamngca, izenzo zangaphandle kunye nobomi obungaqondakaliyo okanye obunengqiqo, kodwa besiya kuba ngumhanahanisi, kwaye amaxesha amaninzi ingcwaba elimhlophe. Makube lee, Bawo, ukuba ndingasebenzisa nayiphi na kwezi zinto kubo bonke oodade wethu, ngokungathandabuzekiyo abaxabiseke kakhulu. ulungile kunam phambi koThixo; kodwa maxa wambi kusenokwenzeka ukuba inzondelelo yabo ingakhanyiselwanga kakuhle, yaye ingamkholisi kakhulu uThixo, yaye ngokuqinisekileyo ayisenjalo ngalo mzuzu. NguThixo ngokwakhe ondiqononondisayo ngale nto, ukuba niyilungise, nikunyamekele ukuyivuma loo nto, nokuba yinto enye, engenakwenza ke lowo. Ndikholelwe: kuzo zonke ezi ngaphandle zincinci, indalo iyazifuna, kwaye umtyholi ubandakanyeka kakhulu kunokuba unokucinga. Ndiyakucela, Bawo, ukuba undixolele ngenkululeko nokuzithemba endawenza ngalo umsebenzi wam.
Siza kubona kubomi bakhe bangaphakathi izilumkiso awathi wazinika, egameni likaThixo, kubaphathi, nakuBhishophu waseRennes, kunye nohlaziyo awaluzisayo. Ndamthuma ukuba enze umsebenzi ofanayo kwi-absss yakhe, owayiyalelayo.
Bawo, ekubuzeni ukuthanda kukaThixo ngezinto ezibonakala zingakhathali, mhlawumbi kuzo ngokwazo okanye ngolungelelwano nexesha lokuzenza, ngokufuthi ndiye ndazifumana nditsaleleke ngamandla kwenye kunokuba kwenye, ndingenako ukuziphendulela. ngalo mbono ufihlakeleyo, kwaye phantse rhoqo isiphumo sandenza ndafumanisa amacebo uThixo anawo ekubetheleleni kum. Ndikhumbula phakathi kwezinye izinto ukuba kanye, xa ndibonisana nentando kaThixo kwaye ndiyilandela, ndafumanisa umlilo uqhuma kwelinye lamagumbi oluntu, kwaye mhlawumbi ngewuyitshisile, ukuba andizange ndizile ukucima njengoko wayesenza. ukungena kwindawo yokulala kunye ne-banister ye-staircase.
Ngesinye isihlandlo unongendi, owalupheleyo nongumlwelwe, wawa ngobuso, yaye wayeza kukrwitshwa, ukuba ndandingayazi intando kaThixo, endathi ke ndacebisana nayo, ukuba kwakuyimfuneko ukuyishiya le nto ndiyenzayo ukuze ndibaleke kakuhle. ngokukhawuleza ukuya
kwindawo yokugula ukubona ukuba kukho nabani na onokufuna uncedo lwam. Ndabaleka ndaya apho ngokukhawuleza, ndafika kwangethuba ukuze ndingafi kule meko. Zingaphi na iimpawu ezifanayo endinokuzikhankanya kuwe, kwaye zingaphi umbulelo endinawo kuloo ntando ingcwele nethandekayo, eyathi, kwasebuntwaneni bam, yandikhokelela ngathi ngesandla kwimigibe eliwaka, enokuthi, ngaphandle koncedo lwakhe, ibingenakuphepheka kum! Zingaphi iindibano ezilishwa athe wandisindisa? Emva kokundihlutha abazali bam, le ngcwele iya kundithatha phantsi koqeqesho lwayo, ngokungathi kunjalo, yathatha indawo yento yonke kum. Ngaziphi iindlela ezifihlakeleyo nangaziphi iindlela ezingaziwayo angazange andikhokelele esifubeni senkolo, ndisoyisa yonke imiqobo evelayo? ngokuchasene nobizo awayelubeke kum, ndingatsho ndingazi, kwaye umntu waselalini ohluphekayo njengam angafanelanga ukuba ngokwemvelo alunqwenela! Ndihlwempuzekile, ndingazi, ndizele ziziphoso, kwaye ndingenazo zonke iimpawu zemo engcwele ngolo hlobo, ndazifumana nangona kunjalo ndibhaliswa kunqulo olungcwele, kwaye ndingaqondi ukuba koku ndandiphumeza icebo lika intando kaThixo, eyayinayo
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konke kukhokhelwe, konke kuboshwe, konke kwenziwe.
Ke ngoko ndamkelwa kwizifungo ezine zenkolo, kwaye kubonakala ukuba ngaphezu kwayo yonke intando kaThixo eyandibizela kuyo, yayifuna ukundenza ixhoba lokuthobela. Kulapho ebesoloko endisa khona; Ewe, usuke wandomeleza kum ukuba ndithobele uThixo, ngokokude ndithi ngenxa yenceba yakhe ndisuke ndinqwenele ukufa, kunokuba ndingabathobeli abaphathi bam, abathetha nam egameni likaThixo nomthetho wam. Ewe, Bawo, intsimbi, umlilo, i-easels, akukho nto inokundoyikisa: ngamanye amaxesha kubonakala ngathi andiyi kuba yinkosikazi kakhulu yentando yam kule ngongoma, kwaye kuya kuba ngathi akunakwenzeka ukuba ndingathobeli . .
Oku akundithinteli, Bawo, ukuba ngamanye amaxesha ndive indalo ikhalaza kwaye indikrokrela malunga nam ngalo mbandela; kodwa andizihoyanga izikhalo zakhe kunenyembezi zomntwana onemvukelo ocaphuka ngexesha elibi. Ke ngoko ndivuselela isibindi sam, kwaye ndibalekela ekululameni, ndiyinyathela indalo phantsi kweenyawo; eli lipati eliza kulandela.
Apha njengakwezinye iindawo, uBawo wam, ukusebenza kukaMtyholi okanye kwendalo kuqondwa ngokusebenza kukaThixo, ngemiphumo eyahlukeneyo yoxolo okanye inkathazo, ikratshi okanye ukuthobeka, inkanuko okanye ukuzingca, okuveliswa ngumphefumlo. Umtyholi kunye nendalo zihlala zisebenza ngentshiseko, i-vivacity, imvula, i-imtuosity; nto leyo ivelisa inkathazo, ukuphazamiseka, ukuphazamiseka kwengqondo kunye neemvakalelo. Ngokwahlukileyo koko, uGrace usoloko esenza ngokumodareyitha, ngocwangco nangokucamngca, yaye, ukuba ubani unokutsho njalo, ngokucotha kobulumko okushiya emphefumlweni nasezingqondweni, ukuzola kweemvakalelo, okona kuthomalalisa okumnandi. Ke, Bawo, impazamo ihlala ikwicala elinye, kwaye inyaniso kwelinye .
Iingenelo zolu khanyiso lungcwele. Ayithathi kakhulu ukuwenza buthathaka, okanye nokuwucima.
Oku kukhanya okuthambileyo nokuzolileyo kuvuselela uxolo olukhulu enzulwini ye incakuba undoqo wayo uqulathe umanyano lwesisa kuThixo nommelwane; ithwala umphefumlo iwuse kuThixo, iwukhulula kuyo yonke into engenguye uThixo yaye inokubeka umqobo kubunyulu bothando lwayo. Umtsalane woku kukhanya kukukhumbula okungaphakathi kubukho bukaThixo; ukuhlanjululwa kweemvakalelo kunye neminqweno, ngaphezu kwayo yonke intobeko egqibeleleyo kunye nobunyulu bentliziyo zizinto ezintle azithandayo. Ngamanye amaxesha kuphela igama elingacingelwanga, ukuchithwa okukhulu, ukunyamekela okukhulu, ukungakhathali ngokuzithandela, ngaphezu kwayo yonke intshukumo yekratshi kunye nokungcola, iyafuneka ukucutha oku kukhanya, okanye ukukucima ngokupheleleyo. ukungathembeki kwam rhoqo, kwaye ngaphezu kwako konke ngezono endiye ndafumana ilishwa lokuzenza.
Umtsalane woku kukhanya wamkhokelela ekubeni acamngce ngezipho ezisixhenxe zoMoya oyiNgcwele. — Inzuzo yokuzinikela kuMoya oyiNgcwele.
Ngexesha elidlulileyo ndandikhokelwa kukutsalwa koku kukhanya ukuba ndithandaze ngezipho ezisixhenxe zoMoya oyiNgcwele, ndithatha isipho ngasinye esingenakuchazwa njengezinto zomthandazo. Injongo yam koku yayikukuzukisa nokuzukisa ubathathu emnye othandekayo wabantu abangcwele. Ndabona ke kuThixo, ukuba uMoya oyiNgcwele wayeyongamela yonke imisebenzi yobuthixo, nokuba kwakuye, nangaye, ababesenza izinto zonke ngabanye abantu ababini; uYise walidala ngaye ihlabathi, njengokuba noNyana wamkhululayo, wamkhulula kuye; kungobulumko balo moya wokumodareyitha ukuba ukhokelo lobuthixo luye lwalawula yaye aluyi kuyeka ukulawula iCawa nehlabathi liphela: umanyano londoqo wobuthixo phakathi kwabantu abathathu. Ndabona yonke indawo kuphela ukusebenza kwalo moya
iyathandeka. UMoya oyiNgcwele luthando lukaYise, uMoya oyiNgcwele luthando loNyana, uMoya oyiNgcwele luthando olunzulu ngokwakhe; ngokokude ndibone oku kuYise nakuNyana, ekuhlanganiswe kuye ngokwahlukileyo, ngokokude umntu abeke uMoya oyiNgcwele ngaphandle kokubeka abanye abantu ababini. Ngaloo ndlela ndabona ngokukhanya ukuba ukunqula nokuzinikela kwizipho ezisixhenxe zoMoya Oyingcwele kwakuvumelana kakhulu noBathathu Emnye Oyena Ungcwele, owakwenza kwaba yimbopheleleko kum ngekamva nangeenjongo endiza kuzichaza kungekudala.
Isiqhamo sokucamngca kwam okusixhenxe yayikukwenza imithendeleko esixhenxe yokubeka imbeko kuMoya oyiNgcwele, uloyiso lwenkolo, ukulunga kwasemoyeni nokwenyama kwebandla nobukumkani; ukuze kugcinwe ababingeleli abalungileyo... Ndiye ndaziphindaphinda kwezinye izifundo ezahlukahlukeneyo zohlobo olufanayo, yaye namhlanje ndicela kuMoya oyiNgcwele ukuba aguqule aboni, ngokukodwa iintshaba zeCawa yakhe .
Ngomhla endiwuthathayo umthendeleko, ndenza umthandazo wam wasekuseni kwesinye sezipho ezisixhenxe zoMoya oyiNgcwele, kwaye ndiqala ngeVeni , uMdali , ukuba ndicele izibane kunye neenceba zalo Moya oyingcwele. Ndafumana intuthuzelo enkulu kulo msebenzi wokuzukisa umoya othuthuzelayo, ngokukodwa ekubeni ukukhanya kwandenza ndabona ukuba oko kumkholise kakhulu uThixo, nokuba wayeya kuthululela iintsikelelo zakhe kubo bonke ababeza kukusebenzisa, ukuze ndifumane ubabalo kulo. umyalelo wosindiso, kodwa ngaphezu kwazo zonke iimfuno zeBandla, ukuze aphelise ukulwa kwakhe neentshutshiso zakhe. Ukuzinikela, Bawo, kukulungele ukuba kuthintelwe ingqumbo yezulu, ukwandisa ukholo, ukutshabalalisa amahlelo, nokubabuyisela endleleni yosindiso.
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ubeke bucala, ngelizwi, ngokuchasene nazo zonke iintshaba zokholo.
Ungena kulwazi lokungabi nto kwakhe.
Ezi ngcinga zingabonakali zandibuyisela kwisikhewu esikhulu esasithetha ngaso kakhulu kwixesha elidlulileyo, ndithetha into engekhoyo yesidalwa ngaphambi kokuphakama nobungangamsha bobuthixo. Kwelinye icala, ubungangamsha bukaThixo, kwelinye bububi bayo yonke indalo; onjani wona umahluko! yaye hayi indlela endachukumiseka ngayo ngokunzulu ngayo ngenye imini kumsitho woThuthu! Ndihlala yonke
izidalwa ziyazitshabalalisa phambi koThixo ukuze zinike imbeko ukongama kubomi bazo. Umzimba womntu waqhekeka waba luthuli phambi kwamehlo am, kwaye kude kube ngoko kwanyanzeleka ukuba ulithobe ikratshi lawo phambi kwalowo ubungangamsha bakhe wawufuna ukurhwaphiliza; kodwa uThixo akazange anele nje ukuloyisa eli kratshi, waphinda wakoyisa ukufa okwakusitshabalalisile isixhobo sakho, nangaphezu koko kungento eyayibonakala ikuhluthile.
Ndabona ke ngoko, ngovuko olukhawulezileyo nolugqibeleleyo, ukubuyisela lo mzimba kwimo yawo yokuqala; nalo mntu; ngaloo ndlela itshatyalalisiwe yaza yabuyiselwa, yanikelwa, ngala mazwe mabini ahluke kangaka, imbeko elinganayo kwinkosi epheleleyo yobume neyokungento, yena yedwa obonakala emkhulu nakubuthathaka besidalwa sakhe...
Yonke into iyadlula, yonke into iyaphela, yonke into iyanyamalala kweli hlabathi, kuba yonke into yaqala; NguThixo yedwa omiyo, ongaguqukiyo, ngokuba akanasiqalo, akanako ukwahluka. Enjani yona ingxowa-mali yeengcamango neengcinga ezibalaseleyo!
Kuthe ke, ndakubon' ukuba ndiyanikezela, kwathiwa kum, Indlu yakho awuyi kuyenza into engento, ubuzinzise ubukumkani bakho phezu kokungento ;
Bawo, ngala mazwi ebesele ethethiwe kum kwiminyaka engamashumi amabini eyadlulayo, njengoko ndanixelelayo! Kodwa ingqiqo yayo ayizange ikhule kakuhle kum njengoko kwakunjalo kwiintsuku ezidlulileyo. Yazi ke ndixelelwe ukuba zonke izidalwa aziyonto kodwa zimsulwa phambi kwakhe . Hayi! ingaba yintoni imfuneko engapheziyo kumbhali wayo, ukuze ingabuyeli emva koku kungento kwemvelaphi yayo? Ngaba uyayonwabela into enye yomzimba okanye yomphefumlo, engesosipho esivela kwisandla sakhe senkululeko, ubabalo, inkoliseko, inzuzo entsha? Kufanelekile ke ngoko, Thixo wam, ukulenza libe lilize ikhaya lam, mna endingenabukho obam, endiyinto nje engento enyulu phambi kwenu; ngelishwa kwakhona, akubangakho nto yavukelayo kuwe, ongoyena ugqwesileyo, lowo zikho ngaye zonke izinto, kwaye ngaphandle kwakhe akukho nto inokubakho. Ezinjani zona iinjongo zokunditshabalalisa ngakumbi! kanti ubumfama bam bekuya kuba yintoni ukuba ndingaziva ndingento yanto phakathi kobungqina obuninzi obundingqongileyo? Akunzima ukukholisa ukuba uhlwempuzekile kwaye unxunguphele kulowo uzibona encitshisiwe ekugqibeleni, uvakalelwa kakuhle kakhulu ukuba angakwazi ukuthandabuza; kodwa bekuya kuba yintoni ubudenge bakhe ukuba, ebophelelekile ukuba acenge isonka sakhe kwindlu ngendlu, wayekholelwa ukuba utyebile kwaye utyebile kakhulu?
Iingqondo zasezulwini zatshatyalaliswa phambi koThixo. Ukugqithisa kwekratshi.
Xa athe uThixo wandenza ndazigqala izicamango zezulu, abangcwele bodidi lokuqala, ukuba baqubude, bebhangisiwe phambi kwakhe, xa endibonisa aba moya bobungangamsha, beqhutywa yinzondelelo, nesilangazelelo sozuko lwakhe;
kwaye bonke batshiswa ngumlilo wolona thando lwakhe lunyulu, ngaphandle kokubuyela kubo, ndizifumana ndibanjwe lihlazo kunye nokudideka, ndibona kuthi, kwaye ngokukodwa kum, izimo ezinje ezahlukeneyo, kunye nokunye okuninzi. ibe ngaphantsi apho.
Intoni ! ingelosi iyazithoba, izilibale, izitshabalalise ezulwini; kwaye thina, iintshulube zomhlaba esizizo, zigutyungelwe ludaka, intlenga kunye nokungcola kwendalo yethu, siyala ukuzithoba, sihlala siphakama, sizithatha njenge-demigods encinane: okunjani ukugqithisela okungaqhelekanga! elinjani lona ikratshi elinganyamezelekiyo ! Ubuncinci, ukuba, njengepikoko ,
ngamanye amaxesha sasijonga ezinyaweni zethu, sibone ukuba sichukumisa umhlaba; size ke, singabi nako ukufuna ukuliba uzuko lwakhe kuThixo, esinika iitalente neempawu asinike zona ukuba simnike imbeko nje ngokuzibuyisela kuye, siya kuba neentloni kakhulu ngobuhlwempu bemvelaphi yethu; ukuhlala singayeki kubunzulu bokungabi nanto kwethu, besiya kubona phantsi kwethu ilizwe esirhubuluza kulo, elisongela ngokungapheziyo ukuvuleka phantsi kweenyawo zethu ukuba lisiginye, libangele iinyoka neempethu ziwuqwenge lo mzimba siwunqulayo.
Yeha ke abakhukhumeleyo, utsho uYehova; Ukuba bebephakame njengamafu, bendiya kukwazi ukubahlisa, ndibathobe; kwaye ukuba ababunikeli ubungangamsha bam obuphakamileyo ebudeni bobomi, baya kunyanzelwa ukuba benjenjalo ebudeni bamaphakade; baya kundazi ngesithonga somsindo wam, into abayiyo, nento endiyiyo.
Ukuze uzenze njengomntwana; soloko usihla usihla. Imibono emibini kaDade, eyabethelela esi sifundo kuye.
Wathi ke kum, yiba njengomntwana omncinane, ukuba ufuna ukwenzelwa inceba; Funda ke, ukuze uxelise kakuhle, esi similo somntwana, ubunyulu bakhe, ubumsulwa bakhe, intliziyo yakhe encinci ecacileyo, ezaliswe bubumnandi nobulula, ngaphandle kokuphambuka, ngaphandle kobubi, ngaphandle kobuqhetseba okanye ukuphinda-phindwa, ukuhlaselwa luloyiko nothando. , kwaye ekwazi zonke iimbonakaliso zesidima; landelani umzekelo wakhe, nithobeke
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Woyike amasiko am, woyike amasiko am;
Intliziyo ekuthantameni kwam mayibe ncinane kakhulu emehlweni enu, ngokuba ndithanda othobekileyo nothobekileyo ngentliziyo. Sisifundo omele ungaze usilibale, ukuba njengoko umncinci emehlweni akho, kokukhona uya kuba mkhulu kowam kwaye uphakanyiswe ebukumkanini bam; Okukhona ukholwa ukuba ungabangakholeleki kuwe, kokukhona uya kuba nombulelo kubo; »
Ngale nto, uBawo wam, uJC wandikhumbuza ngombono awandinika wona kwiminyaka eliqela eyadlulayo. Wayengumntwana omncinane oneminyaka emine okanye emihlanu ubudala owayebalekela eNkosini yethu ngamandla akhe onke, esolulele kuye iingalo zakhe; iNkosi yethu kanjalo yayivule iingalo zayo, yaza yabonakalisa ukulangazelela okukhulu ukumamkela; kodwa yakufika kuye, endaweni yokuba iziphose ezingalweni zakhe, inkwenkwe yaqubuda ezinyaweni zakhe, yabubhekisa ubuso bakhe emhlabeni ukuba iqubude kuyo.
I-JC yaphakamisa amaxesha amaninzi; izihlandlo ezininzi wayefuna ukumxabisa nokumphulula; kodwa lo umncinci wayesoloko ezama ukuzikhupha, uthe nje akuba ebhidekile kwaye esoyika ububele awayebufumana, waguqa ngamadolo, ewathe ntsho ngamehlo athobileyo nezandla ezithe nca, waqubuda phantsi, ngomnyango. ukuthula ngentlonipho; ukuthobeka kwakhe kwakunjengobunzima obabumthwala ngamaxesha onke emhlabeni, awayewugqala njengesazulu sakhe; kodwa ngokuya wayezithwala apho, kokukhona uJC wayegoba kuye ukuze amphakamise. Omnye wayenokuthi ukuxhathisa komntwana kwenza ubundlobongela kuthando lwentliziyo kayise.
Ekugqibeleni, Bawo, umntwana waphumelela kulo mlo uncomekayo, i-JC yanikezela uloyiso kuye, kwaye wayebonakala ezolile kwaye esendaweni yakhe, xa ekhululekile ukuba ahlale ezinyaweni zakhe ukuze amnqule ngomoya nangenyaniso. UMsindisi ongcwele woyiswa ngolo hlobo; kodwa olu loyiso alufumeneyo umntwana lwabonakala luthandeka kuye ngokungenasiphelo, kwaye ndaqonda ukuba umdali akanayo enye indlela yokumzuza, ngaphandle kokutshabalalisa kunye nokuzithoba.
Oku, Bawo, uThixo undenze ukuba ndiqonde ngcono ngomnye umbono onxulumene nam. Ndaba ngathi ndibona uJC ekude.
Ndathi nje ndakumbona, ndenza umgudu wokumfumana. Kwakuyimfuneko ukuba oko kuphakame emoyeni, endikwenzayo ngomoya; kodwa ngokuya ndisondela kuye, kulapho esondela ngakumbi kum, kangangokuba ndade ndaphulukana nokumbona, ndathi ndiphelelwe lithemba lokusondela kuye ndizigwebela ukuba andifanelekanga, ndathabatha, nangona ndithandabuza, ndathabatha ekhohlo ukuhla. kwakhona emhlabeni, into endiyenzileyo; kodwa andibanga thuba lide ekuboneni ngesimangaliso esimnandi, okokuba okukhona ndisuka ndimke kuye ngoloyiko nangentlonipho, kokukhona esihla ngokukhawuleza waza wafumana isithuba sokusondela kum aze andidibanise; Ndandimane ndithatha amanyathelo ambalwa ukuze ndimlinde, kodwa wayemane eme aqhubeke nendlela yakhe kuphela xa ndiqalisa ukwehla kwakhona. Ukusuka apho, Ndaqonda ukuba ngenxa
ndehla ngokukhawuleza, ndenza njalo, kwaye ndanethamsanqa lokumbona kuphela xa ndibeka unyawo emhlabeni.
Sebenza rhoqo nangamandla akho onke ukuze ufumane ukuthobeka. Ukubaluleka kwakhe.
Ngokusuka apho simele sigqibe kwelokuba, Bawo, ukufumana obu butyebi buxabisekileyo, asingombandela wethu wokunyukela emoyeni, kodwa owokumba emathunjini omhlaba, ngokungathi kunjalo, utshabalalisa yonke ingcamango yokuphakama nobungangamsha. Kuyimfuneko ukusebenza kuyo ngaphandle kokulahlekelwa nesibindi, ngumsebenzi wabo bonke ubomi; Kuyimfuneko ke ngoko ukuba kuhlale kuhleli umhlakulo esandleni, kuba kuyimfuneko ukugrumba ngokungapheziyo ukufika ebukumkanini bamazulu, into eya kubonakala ingaqhelekanga, ukanti iyinyaniso yonke. UThixo akanakunyuka anyukele phezulu, kwaye asinakuhla ngokukhawuleza ukuba simfumane, kuba akukho nto sisabelo sethu, njengoko ukuphakama kungokwakhe. Ezi zimbini ezigqithileyo ixesha lakhe elizaliswa nguye yedwa. Usifuna kwindawo esifanelayo, ukuze yonke into ibe njengoko ifanele ukuba.
Ewe, Bawo, kwaye masingaze silibale ukuba ikratshi elakha lagxothwa ezulwini alimele liphinde libuyele apho, kwaye, ngenxa yoko, sinoloyiko nokuthobeka kuphela okuseleyo ukuba siloyise. Ngaba sifuna ukuba bakhulu, zizityebi kwaye sinamandla kucwangco losindiso, masizithobe, sizitshabalalise, sife ehlabathini nakuthi, kwaye siya kuhlala kuThixo. Masimise ubukumkani bukaThixo phezu kwamabhodlo eenkanuko zethu. Masiloyise phezu kwekratshi lethu kwaye siya kuba sikhulu kunaboyisi bomhlaba; zizityebi, zinamandla ngaphezu kookumkani bonke nookumkani; kuba ukoyisa izizwana akunto yanto xa kuthelekiswa nokuzeyisa. Kodwa olu loyiso phezu kwakhe aluyonto xa luthelekiswa nolwazi lukaThixo, olufumaneka kuphela ngokuzazi kwethu nangokuthobeka okugqibeleleyo. Owu Bawo wam! nabu ubulumko bokwenyani kunye nelona cebiso libalulekileyo, i ulonwabo lokwenene lomntu kunye neyona ngongoma yokwenene yobukhulu bakhe, equlathe kwaye ifumaneka kuphela kwintshabalalo yakhe egqibeleleyo phambi koThixo. Ewe, le yeyona ndawo yakhe ibekekileyo kwaye imfanele de kuse ekufeni. Kodwa othe wazifumana kwesi siqendu sokugqibela, uqinisekile ukuba inkosi iya kumkhuphela ngaphandle
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ukubumba phezulu, njengoko uya kuthoba nabani na ofuna ukuphakama. Ndingathanda lo mbono mkhulu kwaye ubalulekileyo ungaze uphele ezingqondweni zabantu.
Ukuthobeka, isiseko sazo zonke iimpawu. Ubunzulu bokuthobeka kukaMary noJ.
Ah! Bawo, ukuba ubusazi ukuba mangaphi amaxesha kunye nomdla kangakanani lo mkhuba unconyelwe kum nguJC!... Wathetha nam ngayo njengeyona nto ibalulekileyo ekusindisweni kwam; wandinika yona njengeyona ndlela yokuwubeka umphefumlo wam ukhuselekile, nesazela sam siphumle. Wathi kum ngokuthobeka, zonke izinto ziya kuba yingenelo kuwe; ngaphandle kwayo, imibingelelo yakho exabiso likhulu iya kuba lilize. Ukuthobeka sisiseko sazo zonke iimpawu, njengoko uthando lungumphefumlo nobomi babo. Ukuthobeka kukamama kwafak’ isandla ngendlela efanayo ekundihliseleni kuye njengokusulungeka kwakhe njengengelosi nothando lwakhe olunyanisekileyo. Kungenxa yazo zonke ezi mpawu zintle endizithandayo, wanditsala, wakhulelwa waza wandizala ... "
Ungathandabuzi, Bawo, umama welizwi elizelwe ngumntu kwafuneka athobeke njengoko wayenyulu kwaye enelungelo. Ukuthobeka kwakhe kwakufuneka kungqamene nobungangamsha bokulunga kwakhe kwakunye nokuphakama kwamalungelo akhe, ukuze asebenze njengomntu ochasene nabo kwaye amenze angafikeleleki kwityhefu yekratshi, kunye nohlaselo lokuzithanda. .
Kungale nto ke, ngaphezu kwako konke, elathi ilizwi lobuthixo laba ngumntwana omncinane, lathi latshatyalaliswa, ngokungathi kunjalo, ukuze lingene esifubeni sesona sidalwa sithobekileyo kwakunye nesona sinyulu seeNtombi ezinyulu. Le yindlela awakhetha ngayo ukuthobeka ukuze ayenze ibe yeyona nto ayithandayo, eyayihlala ihamba naye kulo lonke ixesha lobomi bakhe basemhlabeni. Uyenza inqwelo yakhe yoloyiso ukuba idanise, ithobe ize ibhukuqe intshinyela yekratshi nokuzigwagwisa. Yayiyintobeko eyayisisiseko sokuthantamisa kwakhe, umonde wakhe, ubunyulu bakhe, ukuthanda kwakhe ukubandezeleka, uthando lwakhe olunenzondelelo kunye nazo zonke ezinye izidima zakhe awathi wasinika umzekelo wobuThixo bakhe. Besingathembela njani ke ukufana naye, simkholise?
Ndathetha ukuthanda kwakhe ukubandezeleka, ngenxa yokuba wabelambela, wanxanelwa oko ngokuphathelele usindiso lwethu awayefuna ukusizuzela lona, nangenxa yobulungisa bukaYise awayefuna ukubuhlutha ubugwenxa bakhe, nasekuzukiseni kwakhe uzuko awayefuna ukusenzela lona. bonelela. Yiyo ke le nto ezitshabalalisa imihla ngemihla kwi-Ekaristi, apho ahlala engenzi nto, njengasesizalweni sikanina, apho wayevalelwe kwaye evalelwe; ikhoboka lokuzithandela lothando lwakhe ngathi; yahluke kakhulu kwabanye abantwana,
abalapho bengazi kwaye bengenawo nawuphi na umsa okanye ukubandezeleka, ngenxa yokuba bengenasizathu okanye ukusebenzisa izivamvo zabo; kodwa akunjalo ngobulumko banaphakade. Yintoni ke, ekunganyanzelekanga ukuba abandezeleke ngayo ngalo lonke ixesha lobukho bakhe, lowo wathabatha umzimba kuphela ukuze anelise ubulungisa, ngokubandezeleka ngenxa yezono awayezithathele phezu kwakhe? Yintoni angazange ahlupheke ngayo esizalweni sikanina, ekuzalweni kwakhe kabuhlungu, ekwalukeni kwakhe okubuhlungu, ekubulalekeni kobutsha bakhe kulo lonke ixesha lobomi bakhe, apho uthando lwakhe lwamenza ukuba enze izinto ezininzi kunye nokudinwa okungaka; kodwa ngokukodwa kumathuba neentuthumbo awathi ngazo wavumela ukufa kumthobe kubukhosi bakhe .....
Okunjani kona ukuthotywa kukaThixo ukuba abulawe aze angcwatywe, ehle engcwabeni eloyikekayo, emva kokunyamezela okona kwakunzima nokulihlazo ngokufa kwesaphuli- mthetho ! Kodwa oku yintoni
olo thando lumenza athabathe aze asibulalele, njengoko ndaboniswayo kum ekucamngceni ngezipho ezisixhenxe zoMoya oyiNgcwele, ngakumbi ngeso senzululwazi, endithe ndatsalela kuzo phantse zonke endisandula ukunixelela zona; kwaye phezu kwako konke oku asiyi kukwazi ukuzithoba okanye sibandezeleke nantoni na ngenxa yothando lwakhe !. Ngubani onokuze aqonde wethu
Ukungabi naluvelwano oluyimfama, ubuncinci bethu obuzidlayo ? Ndiyaligqiba eli nqaku, lam
Bawo, ndikuxelela ukuba eyona nto ilungileyo yokuthobeka iyimfuneko elusindisweni njengoko kunqabile ukuba nayo, kwaye kunzima ukuyigcina. Ukukholelwa kuphela ukuba nayo kukulenza linyamalale . Masilinde sithandaze, kwaye siya kuba
ngakumbi ukuthobeka kuba asisoze sizibone enye into ngaphandle kwezizathu zokuzithoba ngakumbi, silandela umzekelo wabo bonke abaNgcwele.
ICANDELO XII.
Kwisidima semiphefumlo yethu, uthando lukaThixo kubo, kunye nobukhulu besono.
Bawo, ngenye yeentsuku zakhe ezidlulileyo xa ndandicinga ngentlungu kunye nentlungu ka-JC emnqamlezweni, kunye nenxeba elingcwele lentliziyo yakhe yobuThixo, ndandingazi ukuba mandithini okanye ndenze ntoni ukumthuthuzela kakhulu. intlungu. Ngokukhawuleza kwathi qatha kum ukuba kwakuyimfuneko ukumnika uthando, ububele, ulonwabo, ulonwabo, nazo zonke iinceba awayezithabathile waza wazithabatha ngaphandle.
liyaphela njengelizwi elingunaphakade esifubeni sikayise owamzalayo nakumanyano lwabantu abathandekayo bakaBathathu Emnye ongenakuqondwa.
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Ulunge kakhulu kwaye umnandi kakhulu umnikelo wangaphakathi kuBathathu Emnye.
Ke ngoko ndamnika olu thando lubuyelanayo, olu lonwabo lungenakuthethelelwa ekucingeni ngemfezeko engapheliyo kunye neempawu ezenza umongo wobuthixo ; kwaye uJC wayebonakala evuya kakhulu, kangangokuba wandiqinisekisa ukuba akukho kuzinikela kwamkholisayo ngakumbi, kwaye wafumana umthendeleko endiwenzele le njongo, njengokungathi wenziwe kwangelo xesha .
intliziyo yabandezeleka le ntlungu egadini okanye emnqamlezweni; ukuba wakhululeka kakhulu ngayo ekubandezelekeni kwakhe, nokuba kwakuyimfuneko ukuba ayinikele koyena UBathathu Emnye ungcwele ukuze ayikhulule ngenxa yengqumbo yokuba; isono sahlala sisenza kuye; nokuba ubuqaqawuli bakhe buya kulungiswa kakhulu nobulungisa bakhe baneliswe; ukuba lo mnikelo ube yindlela elungileyo yokuzuza inceba, kwanemisinga yobabalo ngenxa yeemfanelo zomhlawuleli.
Wongezelela ngelithi iya kuba ngumbulelo obalaseleyo ngeengenelo ezifunyenweyo ekudalweni, intlawulelo nokungcwaliswa kohlanga loluntu, kwanakulo lonke uloyiso noloyiso lweBandla likaJ.
C. Ngobabalo nesidima soMoya oyiNgcwele, uThixo ngokubhekele phaya uthembisa iintsikelelo nobabalo olukhethekileyo kubo bonke abo baqhelisela olu nqulo, abamfanelo zabo banokusebenza kwabaphilayo nabafileyo, kwanakubo ngokwabo. yeCawa yamaKatolika, ngaphandle kokuphambuka kuyo.
Ixabiso kunye nesidima somphefumlo.
Intando kaThixo, Bawo, kukuba ndinixelele ngoku into endiyibonayo ekukhanyeni kobuthixo, echukumisa ixabiso nesidima somphefumlo, awawudalayo ngokomfanekiso wakhe waza wawukhulula ngexabiso legazi lakhe lonke. Olunjani ubabalo angakhange alunikwe, esinjani sona isipho angakhange asinikwe ngulo Bathathu Emnye uthandekayo, othe wamthanda ukususela kunaphakade ! Bubuphi ubuchule obubalaseleyo anabo?
Akahonjiswa na ngokumkhupha entweni engekhoyo !. 1°. UThixo wayenza yalula, yasimahla, yonke
zokomoya, zonke zigqibelele kwaye azinasiphako; 2°. Wadala ukuba angonakali
wemvelo yakhe, enziwe wafana naye ongunaphakade. Uya kuphila logama nje uThixo enguThixo, oko kukuthi, njengaye, akanakuze ayeke ukuphila.
Hayi! umphefumlo womntu awusayi kuba nasiphelo; yaye ukuba kuyinyaniso ukuthi yayinesiqalo ngokunxulumene nayo, ubani unokuthi kwakhona yayingenabo ngokunxulumene noThixo, ekubeni yayikho ngenxa yakhe ukususela kumaphakade onke, nokuba wayeyinto engunaphakade yothando lwakhe. Waye ke ehleli kuThixo; kuba zonke izinto zihleli emehlweni akhe; 3°. Sinokuthi wamenza uBathathu Emnye kancinane, ekubeni yena wamnika Amandla amathathu ahlukeneyo athi nangona kunjalo abumba umphefumlo omnye kunye nomphefumlo omnye, kanye njengokuba abantu abathathu abangcwele bebonke bebumba ubuThixo omnye. Ngaba lo asingomfanekiso ofana nale mfihlelo inkulu uThixo awayefuna ngayo ukuzoba owona mfanekiso ugqibeleleyo wakhe kumfanekiso wobugcisa wezandla zakhe? iyamangalisa into yokuba unomona ?
Imiphefumlo yethu ke ngoko ibisoloko ikho kwimimiselo engunaphakade nakubukho bobuthixo. Ewe, zazikho apho, kungekhona ngokubhideka, kungekuphela nje ngolwazi oluphangaleleyo lwazo zonke izidalwa ezinokubakho, kodwa ngokucace kakhulu, yaye ngamnye ngokukhethekileyo wayesaziwa nguThixo yaye ubizwe ngegama ukuze atsalwe kubulize ngexesha elimisiweyo lobukho bakhe. Ah! Bawo, indlela enkulu ngayo, evumayo, intle kangakanani ukonwabisa iimbono eziphakamileyo kwaye zifanelekile, ngokusibonisa isidima somphefumlo wethu, ukwandisa okanye ukuzala uthando kunye nombulelo esinawo kulowo mkhulu, kwaye Uqikelelo lulumkise ngeendlela ezininzi!....
Hayi indlela ebuhle ngayo, ekuthandeka ngayo, hayi indlela ekumnandi ngayo ukucinga ngemfezeko nothando olungaka olusityhilelwa ngulo buthixo!
Ukubona ngamehlo omoya izigidi zezigidi zezidalwa eziphila ngonaphakade neziphila eluthandweni lukaThixo wazo, ngaphambi kokuba zitsalwe kubulize eziza kuba zizidalwa zokomoya nezinengqiqo, ezikwaziyo ukumazi nokumthanda, eziya kuthi ukususela ngoku. ubambe uThixo! zaziziingcinga zengqondo yakhe nokuthantamisa kwentliziyo yakhe yoyise! Owu mazulu! enjani yona inkxaso yokucamngca, esinjani sona ukuba namandla isizathu sokuba nombulelo nothando!
Kodwa kuwo onke amandla akhe ancomekayo, oko kumsondeza kumbhali wakhe ngumlamli wokwenene amhombise ngawo, nanokuthi ngawo amenze umlawuli anenjongo yokulawula kunye naye ebukumkanini bakhe ngonaphakade. Onjani wona ukuphakama! esinjani sona isidima! ingaba isidalwa esinyulu sinokunyuselwa phezulu! ingasondela kufutshane nombhali wayo! Umphefumlo womntu, osebenzisa inkululeko yakhe yokuzikhethela kakuhle, ulawula phezu kwayo kunye nomzimba wayo ngexesha, ngelixa ulindele ukuba ulawule ezulwini ngonaphakade. Umzimba wakhe umncinci
ubukumkani obunikwe kuye ukuba asebenzise italente yakhe kwaye afezekise indawo yakhe ngexesha lobomi bakhe bexeshana. Obu bukumkani buncinci bubobakhe, nalapho bubekwe khona, lihlabathi liphela elithi, ukuze lilawulwe kakuhle, limnike ithuba lokusebenzisa onke amandla akhe omoya. Umvuzo wakhe ezulwini uya kuba, njengomlinganiselo wobukumkani bakhe, ulingana nokuthembeka kwe
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ulawulo lwayo, yaye iya kube iyisebenzise kakuhle inkululeko yokuzikhethela, yawo onke amandla alo, kurhulumente wayo wokuqala. Emva kobume bengelosi, umphefumlo womntu, ngaphandle kwamathandabuzo, usesona sidalwa sizukileyo, esihle, sesona sibalaseleyo esikhutshwe ezandleni zoMdali. Kunokutshiwo ngengqiqo ukuba uyoyisa ingelosi ngokwayo, yaye oku kuya kuba yinto engenakuphikiswa ukuba sinikela ingqalelo kwixabiso lentlawulelo yakhe. Yinyaniso yobugcisa bobuthixo obuyixabisileyo, iyayihlonipha, ukuba umntu unokuthi, uyayithanda ukuya kwinqanaba lekhwele, kuhlobo oluthile olugqithisekileyo, kwaye wenza ukucinga kwayo, kunye nokukhalaza akuthabatha kuye , indawo yolonwabo lwakhe, ubuncinci ngaphandle nangengozi. Ezi zizihloko zobuhandiba, izizathu zokugqwesa kwakhe kunye ubukhulu bakhe. Kungale nto kufuneka sigwebe ixabiso layo kwaye
isidima sakhe, njengokubaluleka kolonwabo lwakhe olungunaphakade.
Indlela owadalwa ngayo umphefumlo.
Ukwenza isidalwa esigqwesileyo, uBathathu Emnye othandekayo wangena kwiBhunga lakhe labucala, ukuba ndiyakwazi ukuzichaza. Apho, waqokelela ubulumko bakhe obunzulu ngaphambi kokuba agqibezele umsebenzi wakhe, ngokuvelisa eyona nxalenye iphambili, owona msebenzi wobugcisa wokwenene owawuza kuphelelisa umsebenzi weentsuku ezintandathu. Ukuza kuthi ga ngoku, xa sithetha, ivelise imizobo kuphela, iinzame ezibuthathaka kumandla onke; kodwa apha uzibona engumzobi onobuchule oza kuzoba umfanekiso wakhe kwaye azimele ngokwendalo.
Ndimva ezibonisa ngokwakhe. Masenze indoda, utsho, ngokomfanekiselo wethu nangokufana nathi. Ngoku, Bawo wam, ngokuqinisekileyo asikuko kwicala lomzimba ukuba umntu ufana noThixo. Masinike umphefumlo wakhe ufane ngokwenene namandla ethu okomoya. Masimnike inkululeko yokuzikhethela ukuba,
ukumenza inkosikazi yezenzo zakhe, emenza afane nathi ngakumbi ngokuzikhethela kwentando yakhe: nokuba uyazilawula, nokuba ukhululekile ngokupheleleyo ukuba afune okanye angafuni, enze okanye angenzi xa ethanda, ukuze sibe nokuzukiswa ngokukhetha kwakhe nangenkululeko yokunqula nokuhlonela kwakhe; nasiphi na esinye isinikelo besingayi kusifanela....
Ukungabi namandla kwesidalwa ukuqonda uthando olukhulu uThixo analo ngaso. Indlela anokuyilungisa ngayo.
Bawo wam, iminyaka engamashumi amane ezi ngcinga sisandul’ ukuzenza zindibangele intlungu enkulu. Ndabona, ngezihlandlo ezahlukahlukeneyo, ubukhulu nesidima semiphefumlo eyayikho ngonaphakade kuThixo, ngokwazi kwangaphambili, ngaphandle kothando uThixo awayithwala ngalo esifubeni sakhe, eqondwa nangayiphi na indlela, engahlawulwanga ngezi zidalwa zintle nezibalaseleyo. yayingekho besakuzo, kungokunje ukulangazelela kukaThixo. Ngophawu oluthile olugwenxa, le ntsilelo yesidalwa esasindiphethe imini nobusuku, yandenza ndabonakala ngathi ndisikhewu esikhulu kubuthixo, endingenako ukusichaza, nto leyo eyandikhathaza kakhulu. Ngamanye amaxesha ndandikhalaza ngaloo nto kummeli wam, ndingakwazi ukwenza ukuba ndiqonde. Bawo, ndathi kuye ngenye imini, ndibona kuThixo isithuba esithile esibuhlungu kakhulu kwaye ndingathanda ukuvalwa; kodwa enokuba yintoni na intsusa yakhe, akazange andiphendule nto kweli nqaku, yaye wadlulela phambili ngaphandle kokundivumela ukuba ndizichaze ngokubhekele phaya. Kodwa uThixo usandul’ ukuyilungisa, kwintuthuzelo yam enkulu, ngokundinika kuko konke oku uphuhliso ekungekho mntu wumbi wayenokundinika lona.
Kusemaphakadeni amnandi, wandixelela, ukuba imiphefumlo elahlekileyo kwaye ithabatheke kubukhulu bothando lukaThixo iya kuzalisa esi sikhewu, ukulungiswa, ngokuvutha kwenzondelelo yabo nombulelo wabo . into ababengenakuyenza ngaphambili. Uthando lwabo, olukhulu ngomlinganiselo walo, luya kwamkela ngomnqweno wawo onke amanqaku angunaphakade; kunye nokudibanisa zonke izinto ezigqithiseleyo, le miphefumlo esikelelekileyo iya kundithanda yonke ngexesha elidlulileyo, elikhoyo kunye nekamva. Ngaloo ndlela esi sikhewu, sibuhlungu kwaye sinokukhubazeka, siya kuzaliswa ngokugqibeleleyo; akuyi kubakho siphoso nangaliphi na icala.
Le mpendulo yanelisayo kunye nale ngcaciso uThixo afuna ukundinika yona ngale ngongoma ibalulekileyo, yayiyeyokuphelisa ixhala kunye nosizi endiye ndabangelwa ngumbono; kodwa kwasala enye, endathi kwakhona ndafumana inkululeko yokumbuza ukuba andicacisele. Thixo wam, ndathi kuye, Konke oku kuyinyaniso ngokuphathelele imiphefumlo emele ikudumise, ikusikelele ngonaphakade; kodwa ngokubhekisele kwabo baya kuwela esihogweni, abaya kuzalisa ubuze
uthando onalo kubo nobe unalo ngabo kubo bonke ubomi bakho obungunaphakade, endiya kulutsala kuzo zonke ezinye izidalwa zam, nangoloyiso endiya kuluzuza phezu kwesono, uMtyholi, isihogo nazo zonke iintshaba zam, Ndiya kuba neentloni ngomhla wokugqibela. Ngaloo ndlela ubulungisa bam, baneliseke ngokupheleleyo, buya kuthabatha indawo yothando lwabo ukuze bavale isithuba sokungabi nambulelo kwabo ngonaphakade ngokuphathelele kum.
Izikhalazo ezichukumisayo zika-J.-C. ngokuphulukana nemiphefumlo. Ubukhulu besono.
Ngubani, Bawo, onokuvakalisa kuwe izililo ezichukumisayo awathi uJ.
C. wandenza ndakuva kangangeentsuku ezintathu, ngelahleko engenakulungiseka yaloo miphefumlo inelishwa ethatyathwe kuye sisono; owakhokelela ebubini
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Ngelishwa labo baziyeke bahambe besuka banelise iminqweno yabo ekhohlakeleyo, batsho ngesityholo sentombi enguZiyon ebukekayo? ndamgqala; ayisenanto yakwenza nam, ndingumbhali wayo nobeza kuba ngumzekelo wayo njengeziko nesiphelo sayo. Akasenanto yobuhle bakhe bokuqala. Ndandimdalele ngokomoya ngokupheleleyo, yaye ngoku uyinkamela ngokupheleleyo, izinto eziphathekayo nezisemhlabeni; sisidalwa esiphilayo endingasasazi. Ndandimnike ukungafi, kwaye ngoku ufile kubabalo lwam kunye nothando lwam. Ndamjizeka ngewaka lezinto ezigqibeleleyo ,
Iwaka lezinto ezikhazimlayo, ezizizipho ezininzi zobabalo lwam, nothando lwam; ulahlekelwe yiyo yonke into; libonisa kuphela kwamehlo am amanxeba abulalayo, ayonakalisayo: ngubani na onokuwaqonda?
Olunjani lona usizi, Bawo, yaye elinjani lona ukuba lusizi ithemba lengqondo ecingayo! Intoni! ngoxa imiphefumlo yayingekabikho, yayisekho
ephila entliziyweni kaThixo; kodwa ekubeni baye beyekelela, bavumelana nesihendo, ekubeni bezenze isidima ngokwenza isono, bafa phambi kwakhe; kwaye ukuba ukufa okwethutyana kuyabahlula emizimbeni yabo, ngoko nangoko baba zizinto, bangonwabanga yingqumbo yakhe
ukugwetywa okungunaphakade. Abo baza kulawula ezulwini baya kuba, esihogweni, bekhotyokiswe ziidemon ngenxa yokuba bekhotyokiswe yiminqweno yabo engafanelekanga. Abafazi be-JC baya kuhlwaywa ngokulahlwa ngonaphakade ngenxa yokungathembeki kuye; baya kohlwaywa kokukhona, ngokuba bebabalwe ngakumbi.
Ngubani oyakupebela, Bawo, ububi, ubugwenxa bobubi bomphefumlo owahlulwe nguThixo sisono? Yigwebe ngotshintsho olwenzeka kuLucifer ukususela ekuvukeleni kwakhe. Umphefumlo wesikrelemnqa ufana nedemon. Isono samenza igongqongqo elingenakonakala elifanele ukuthiywa zizo zonke izidalwa kunye nesiqalekiso soMdali. Seso sono siqalekisiweyo esisisithuba sokwenyani esisahlulayo kuThixo, into engento yokwenene, kuba sichasa lonke uhlobo lokulungileyo olutshabalalisayo, kwaye ngaphezu kwako konke kuThixo obalaseleyo nongumthombo oyinyaniso wazo zonke izinto. kulungile.
Kukuphela kobubi balo Thixo amqumbisayo nolwesidalwa asibhenca elona shwangusha likhulu, lokuqalekiswa nokwahlulwa ngonaphakade kuThixo wakhe. Isono singuyise wokufa, esathi savelisa saza sakungenisa ehlabathini, yaye zonke iziqhamo zalo mthi ungendawo noqalekisiweyo ziziqhamo zokufa nesiqalekiso. Yonke into engesosono iphilile phambi koThixo; isono sodwa asiphili. Utshone enzonzobileni yokungento nto leyo eyoyikekayo, echasene nobukho bukaThixo kuyo yonke imisebenzi ayivelileyo. Eli rhamncwa loyikekayo ekugqibeleni lilutshaba lukanaphakade nolungalungelelanisiweyo athe uThixo walubetha ngesiqalekiso saso sikanaphakade.
Ah! Bawo, ukuba intando egwenxa kwaye izimisele ukwenza isono imele ibe yinto ecekisekayo necekisekayo emehlweni kaThixo! Kwaye umphefumlo unokuba nebhongo njani ngeempawu zawo ezintle, ucinga ukuba uye waba yinto ecekisekayo?... Hayi, akukho nto, ngokombono wam, inamandla okusibuyisela kuthi kunye nokusibuyisela kuthi kunye nokusibuyisela kuthi kwaye sizenzele sigcine ngalo lonke ixesha kula mampunge makhulu, kule nto ingekhoyo yesidalwa endathetha ngaso kuwe amaxesha amaninzi, kolu lahleko lwehlabathi, apho ndaqala khona kwaye ndibona kwangaphambili ukuba kuya kufuneka kuphele ngokukhawuleza, ukuba ububi. nobukhulu besono, umfanekiso owoyikekayo nongaqondakaliyo wesikhubekiso sikaThixo, lowo umntu angafanele awucinge ngaphandle kokungcangcazela.
Ndithi umfanekiso ongaqondakaliyo wesikhubekiso sikaThixo, kuba, ukuyiqonda, umntu kufuneka aqonde uThixo ngokwakhe. Ewe, kukule sipili soyikeka nesiyinyani ukuba umntu kufuneka ahlale ezicingela yena, ukuze azigcine kwindawo emfaneleyo kwaye angaze abe nantoni na ngaphandle kweemvakalelo ezihambelana nemeko yakhe yokwenyani. Ukuba isidalwa sincinci kwaye sidelekile ngokunxulumene nobume bobuthixo, bekuya kuba yintoni na ukuba besinokuqwalasela phantsi kweliso lesono esisenzileyo nesinokusenza?
Ukunyanzelwa ukwenza okusesikweni kulo mba, bekungayi kwanela na ukuba umntu ngamnye abuyele kweyakhe intliziyo?... Yeha! Bawo ndinyanzelekile ukuba ndivume, mna onika ezi zilumkiso kwabanye, ah! phezu kwayo yonke le nto ndinesizathu sokuba neentloni nokungcangcazela ngaphezu kwakhe nabani na.
Ulwazi lokuba uThixo unika uDade yena inani lezono zakhe.
Kwiminyaka embalwa edlulileyo ndandihamba ngezono zobomi bam obubi, izono zeengcinga, izono zamazwi, izono zezenzo nezono zokutyeshela; ndone kuThixo, ummelwane wam nakum; izono ezenziwe ehlabathini, izono ezenziwa elunqulweni. Kwakungenakwenzeka ukuba ndikhumbule yonke into; kodwa ndabona ukuba malunga nenani lezo zono ziphawulwe kakhulu linokuya kwizigidi ezihlanu, ndaza ndazityhola ngoko ke ngoko nangoko nangokwelu balo, endalichaza ngokusemandleni am kangangoko ndinako.
Izono ezizigidi ezihlanu kubomi besidalwa esilusizi !. Siya kukholwa
ngaphandle kwamathandabuzo ukuba ndandibaxe kakhulu kwisityholo sam, kwaye oko, ngakumbi
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isiqinisekiso esikhulu, ndandiyinyuse kakhulu iakhawunti yam; ngengqiqo ethile, bendiya kuhendelwa ukuba ndiyikholelwe ngokwam: yintoni eyandothusayo xa uThixo wandazisa ukuba ndinako, ngaphandle kokoyika nantoni na, ukubala kwam kabini, kwaye bekungayi kuhamba ngokuthe ngqo kwinqanaba ... Izigidi ezilishumi zezono! Owu mazulu! ingenzeka loo nto? Ewe, kwaye kunokwenzeka kakhulu, ukuba wayendiphendulile; yaye ukuze ndindeyisele koku, ndenziwa ukuba ndisihlolisise ngokweenkcukacha zonke izono esizenzayo ngokukodwa, kodwa ndiqwalasela kuzo zonke iimeko zaso, ngokukodwa ngokuphathelele imbopheleleko yethu ekhethekileyo nobabalo esababalwa ngalo ngenxa yaso. ziphephe. Yayilulindelo lwesigwebo esithile.
Ndabona ke, Bawo, kolu khanyiso lundikhanyiselayo kuThixo, ndabona ukuba isono asihambi sodwa, kodwa sihlala sikhatshwa kwaye silandelwa zezinye ezininzi; Akaneli nje ukukhubekisa uThixo, kodwa ukwabetha uphawu ngalunye lweempawu zakhe, kwaye umphumo usoloko ubonakalisa uphawu.
lothando lukaThixo oluhambelana nazo zonke ezinye kwaye luqulethwe kuko. Ngale ndlela, isono ngasinye asize sisilele ukuwulimaza ngokuthe ngqo umthetho uThixo asinika wona wothando, ekubeni wona ngokwaso sikukwaphulwa kokwenyaniso kwalo mthetho uqhelekileyo oqulethe zonke ezinye iinkalo zemithetho yakhe: umgaqo ongenakuphikiswa omele usetyenziswe. kwisono ngasinye. Elinjani lona ukuqalekiswa ithemba elililo kulowo uzihlolisisa ngokunzulu! Ngokwale nto, Bawo, ngubani onokuvakala ubunzulu bamanxeba ethu kwaye angene ebugqwetheni bentliziyo yomntu?... Hayi, ndiqinisekile ukuba umphefumlo, isidalwa esihluphekileyo, nangona sincinci kangakanani siphile iminyaka embalwa. umhlaba, akanakuzazi, azenze nzulu, engazi kakuhle ukuba uyintoni na phambi koThixo; akunakwenzeka ukuba alazi ngokuthe ngqo inani leziphoso zakhe, okanye aqonde ubunzulu bazo. Ndasuka ndaxakwa, ndingazi ukuba mandithini. Ndakhala ndakubona lo mfanekiso utyhafileyo, apho izono zam zazibonakala ngathi zizelwe ngokutsha kwaye zande ukundoyisa ubunzima bazo. I-JC yandiqinisekisa, yathi kum: "Musa ukubala kwakhona, ingqondo yakho ayinakukwanela: kwanele. ukuba ubavalele, ngeentlungu kunye neenjongo ezilungileyo, phantsi kwesigwebo ekufuneka sikukhulule kubo ... "
Iimvakalelo athi uDade abe nazo xa ebona izono zakhe.
Nazi ke iimbonakaliso ezahlukeneyo zokuba ukubona lo mfanekiso wezono zam undenze ndafumana amava, okanye kunoko ubabalo lukaThixo, owalusebenzisayo ukubenza babe namava: 1 °. Lo mbono wezono zam zangaphambili wandizalisa ngesiphithiphithi esisindisayo kunye noloyiko olwandigubungela kwingcinga yobukhulu bukaThixo kunye nokuba yinto engento yam. 2°. Ndaziva ezinzulwini zomphefumlo wam intlungu ebuhlungu ngokumcaphukisa kangaka uThixo olungileyo, kwaye ndaziva ngokunxulumene nazo zonke iimpawu zakhe zobuthixo kunye nazo zonke iimfezeko zakhe ezingapheliyo, ngaphezu kwako konke ngenxa yokulunga kwakhe nothando lwakhe. 3°. Ndava emazantsi entliziyo yam inzondo enkulu, intiyo engenakuthethelelwa kulo lonke uhlobo lwesono, nokuba yeyiphi na imo; kodwa ngaphezu kwako konke Ndifungile ukucekisa okungenakuphinda ndiyenze into eqalekisiweyo yokuyenza, endiyijonga njengento ecekisekayo ngakumbi kunabo bonke ubugebenga, kuba ingumama wabo okhule kakhulu. Kwakungenxa yentiyo endabhambathisa kulo mnqweno ulishwa wokwenza ububi, ndathembisa uThixo, ngombono wovumayo wam, ukuba andiyi ndingaze ndenze nasiphi na isono ngabom, nokuba sincinci kangakanani na ngokwaso, isimo endizimisele ukufa kuso, ngobabalo olungcwele. 4°. Ndiziva ndingumthwalo imini nobusuku njengomthwalo ondisindayo; ngumbono wezono zam, obu bubunzima bumbi obungasukiyo engqondweni yam, bundibethe ngamandla, kwaye bundisinda isazela. 5°.
Umbono walo mzobo awuzange undenze ndehla ndingabikho nto yam, undenze ndehla nangakumbi enzonzobileni yesihogo, endinokuthi ndibize ngokuba yinto engento yam yobugebenga, nalapho bendifanele ukuwela khona ngaphezu kwabaninzi abakhoyo nabaphi na. soze imke; enzonzobileni ezoyikekayo apho inceba kaThixo indenze ndehla khona ngexesha lobomi, ukuze ndingehli apho ekufeni. Ndabona apho iintuthumbo ezoyikekayo eziya kuba sisabelo sam ngoku, ukuba uThixo ebendigwebe ngokungqongqo, okanye ukuba ebendenzele ubulungisa njengoko ebebenzele abaninzi abangamashwa; kuba, ndimele ndivume eluzukweni lwakhe ngokunjalo nokuhlazeka kwam, ukuba andinikelwanga kumsindo weedemon namadangatye, enyanisweni yinceba yakhe enyulu ukuba ndinetyala. Ewe, Nkosi yam, Ndivuma kuwe ngombulelo, intobeko nentlungu, ukuba ubundibizela kumgwebo wakho kwiminyaka engamashumi amathathu okanye amashumi amane eyadlulayo, ah! Ngendiwele apho ngonaphakade kuloo nzonzobila inzulu, kwaye awusayi kuba ngolungileyo, ungabi nanceba, ungathandeki kangako. Esinjani sona isifundo kum sombulelo nothando ngakuwe!
Intembelo enkulu amele abe nayo oyena moni mkhulu ngokufaneleka kukaJ.
Umbono wokugqibela wokuba ukubona ulwaphulo-mthetho lwam kubangele ukuba ndibe nesimo sengqondo sokuthembela kwintando kaThixo kunye nokulunga kukaJ. Ewe, Bawo, ndibona ekukhanyeni
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ukuze inani nobukhulu bezono zam bundibangele ukuba ndiphelelwe lithemba, ngenxa yokuba ndinomgcini oqinisekileyo kukhuseleko loMkhululi.
Ngokubhekiselele eshumini bendiya kwenza ubugwenxa, namashumi amabini ezigidi eziphindwe kabini; xa umntu ongatshatanga wayeya kwenza ezininzi njengabo bonke abanye ngaxeshanye, ngaphandle kokuba wayezithiyile ngokunyanisekileyo ezi zenzo zolwaphulo-mthetho, kwaye ngaphezu kwako konke oko akulahla ngonaphakade ukuthanda okulishwa ukuwenza, kwaye, kwintlungu enyanisekileyo, uzityhola ngalo, uxolelo lwakhe luqinisekisiwe, kuba lusekelwe kulamlo loMsindisi. Ngoko akasayi kuba sanoloyiko; U-JC wayekhe wayithatha wayiphendula
kubo bonke, akunakuze kusweleke okanye amandla. Okunjani kona ukulunga kwalo mlamli unamandla! kwaye ngubani ongayi kuthembela kwinyaniso yomnikezeli onjalo? Ukulithandabuza nokulithandabuza ilizwi lakhe, bekungayi kuba kukunyelisa amandla olamlo lwakhe kunye nokucaphukisa ukulunga kwentliziyo yakhe?...
Ah! Bawo, kufuneka ndiyivume kuwe, yiyo yonke loo nto indiqinisekisayo ngokuchasene noloyiko lwam kunye nokuzisola kwam; kuko konke endinako ukuchasana nalo lonke uloyiko lwesihogo esihlala sizama ukundiphembelela, kuba kufuneka ndikuxelele, ekuvaleni, ukuba idemon isanda kundihlasela ngomsindo, ichukumisa izinto endikubhalele zona. ; kodwa ndabhenela elukholweni nakwintobelo ebisoloko iyizikhokelo zam. UJC wathi mandime apho ndimyeke akhonkothe, eli demon alinakwenza nto ngaphandle kokukhonkotha.
Isiphelo sikaDade; umsebenzi wakhe wokholo nokuzithoba kwakhe eCaweni.
Yeha! Andazi, kwaye ndiyibona ekukhanyeni okundikhokelelayo, ukuba abaninzi ababexabiseke ngokuphindwe kaliwaka kunam maxa wambi baye baba ngamaqhinga alo moya ungendawo, yaye ekuhambeni kwexesha mhlawumbi baye bazicengezela. le ngongoma. Kungakhathaliseki ukuba kunjalo, Bawo, andinakuziqinisekisa ukuba uThixo uye wavumela okanye ukuba wayenokuvumela ukuba umphefumlo othembekileyo kwaye ufune yena kuphela ngeyona njongo ilungileyo yehlabathi, ufanele ukuba unzulu kwaye ukhohliswa rhoqo. ngosathana njengoko bendinjalo, kwaye ndisenjalo, ukuba yinyani ukuba ndiphazama. Ndiyakubongoza ke, Bawo, ukuba uzigocagoce kwakhona ngokucokisekileyo phambi koThixo; Ndiyanicenga ke, ukuba ningancineli nina ngokwenu kuphela, manimane ukunicikideka naphakathi kwabalungiseleli bamabandla, njengoko ninako, oko kukuthanda kukaThixo. kwaye, njengoko besendinixelele amaxesha amaninzi, kuseBandleni kuphela endinqwenela ukuthembela ekuphepheni imposiso endiyoyikayo, kwaye ndifumane inyaniso endiyifunayo, nendiyithandayo kuphela; ibisoloko iyinjongo yam .
(1) Ngokombono wam, ukuqiqa kukaDade akunakuphikiswa. Ingcamango yokuba umphefumlo wesitampu sakhe wawusoloko uphantsi kwenkohliso yedemon ayihambelani nokulunga kobuthixo; kwaye ngokuqinisekileyo akukho mizekelo iya kufunyanwa.
Ke uya kuthi egameni lam kwaba befundisi balungileyo nabanye abalungiseleli beBandla eliNgcwele, endimhlonelayo umntu kunye negunya leJC, endinalo.
andizange ndithethe nto ngam, nangayiphi na incwadi endandiya kuyifunda, kodwa ndayibona yonke into endandiyithetha, ekukhanyeni okwakundikhokelela kwaza kwabonisa oko ndandizama ukukwenza. kodwa ndiqonda ngokunyaniseka komphefumlo wam ukuba mna ngokwam ndinako ukuwonakalisa umsebenzi kaThixo kwaye ndiwonakalisa ngokupheleleyo, akukho nto ndinokuyenza ngcono kunokulandela ucwangco lwezulu nokuthembela ngokupheleleyo kwilitye lokuvavanya lokwenyani, elilelona litye libalulekileyo. umgwebo ongenakuguquleka weCawa eNgcwele yamaRoma, kuyo yonke into endiyithethileyo nangendlela endiyithethe ngayo, emele ukuba ncinane kakhulu kwaye inesiphene.
(1) Notum facio vobis... quià, quod evangelisatum est à me, non est secudùm hominem, neque enim ego ab homine accepi illud, neque didici, sed ngokwesityhilelo
UYesu Kristu.
Galap., ch. 1, c. 11 kunye ne-12.
Ke ngoko ndingqina ngentliziyo yam yonke, ukuba iBandla liya kwenza isigqibo ngako konke oku njengakwabanye, likugweba ngenxa engaphambili konke elikufumanayo ekugwetyweni; ngokwemiqathango. Kungakhathaliseki ukuba kunjalo, ndiyamgweba kunye naye ngaphandle kwesithintelo okanye ukulinganisa ngengqiqo yokuba wayeya kumgweba, ekhetha ukufa kunokuba enze nantoni na ngokuchasene nokholo lwakhe okanye igunya lakhe ...
Kananjalo, ukuba bekungazanga kubekho sisibhalo ehlabathini, ngendibe ndakuthetha konke enikuvileyo, ngokuba oko ndikutyhilelwe ekukhanyeni okwalathisayo; kodwa ukuba kukho into echasene nayo nayiphi na inxalenye yeSibhalo esiNgcwele, ndiyayikhanyela yaye ndiyayithiya ngokulinganayo, ngenxa yokuba laa nkwenkwezi ikhokela amanyathelo am yandenza ndaqonda ukuba iZibhalo Ezingcwele zililizwi elinyulu likaThixo, okuqonda ngokupheleleyo kuye kwayilwa. inikwe iBandla elingcwele leJC, ngaphandle kwalo kungekho lukholo nalusindiso, ukuthemba, kwaye ngenxa yoko umntu akanako, ngaphandle kwengozi ecacileyo yokutshabalala ngaphandle kwesixhobo, ukuphambuka kancinci kwintsingiselo eyinyani yesi Sibhalo singcwele. , okanye kwigunya leCawa enye
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kufuneka silandelele umgaqo wokholo lwethu kunye nobubi bethu, obuhlala usilanda ngesithethe esiqiniseke ngokulinganayo kwaye singaguquki.
Yeha! Bawo, le nkwenkwezi imangalisayo endikhokeleyo, oku kukhanya okungcwele apho ndabona izinto ezininzi ezimangalisayo! Ndiqaphele ukuba uyandilahla kwaye uyaphuma... Into eyothusayo !. Ndinqwenela ngelize
Ukujonga iinkcukacha ezinomdla endikwenze ukuba uzibhale phantsi, andikhumbuli nokuzikhumbula, kwaye ndibona kwangaphambili ukuba ngexesha elifutshane ndiza kube ndiphulukene nazo ngokupheleleyo. Ndingathanda kakhulu ukufikeleleka ekuthetheni nawe ngezinto ezininzi; kodwa ukuba asikokuthanda kukaThixo, umntu makangakunqweneli, kodwa azithobe kuyo yonke into.
Ngokufana ne-echo, uDade ubuyela ekungabikho kwakhe, ngokumalunga nayo yonke into ebangele ukuba ibhalwe.
Uyazi ke Bawo ukuba ndithe ndakuqala ukubhala, iNkosi elungileyo yandifanisa nesandi esiphinda-phinda le nto siyithethayo, hayi enye into. Le yimeko awayeyifuna kum, yaye ndazama ukuyithobela . Ndine
ndaphindaphinda njengokuvakala kwelizwi konke endakuvayo; kodwa xa ilizwi liyekile ukuthetha, intsholo kufuneka ithule; kwaye kufuneka kube njalo, ekubeni, ukungakwazi ukuphinda, akunakwenzeka ukuba ayeke ukuthetha ngelizwi ekuphindaphindayo kuphela.
Injalo, ndiyabona, yimeko endizifumana ndikuyo. Ndiyanazisa ngoko, Bawo, ukuba umsebenzi wam ugqityiwe. Kufuneka ndibulele kuphela ingqalelo yenu kwaye ndizincomele kwimithandazo yenu, endithembele kuyo kakhulu, ngokwesivumelwano sethu. Ngamana uJC angakuvuza ngenye imini ngenxa yenkathazo kunye nomsebenzi endikubangele wona kwaye ndiya kukubangela! Kwam, ndibuyela ekungabikho kwam, apho ndinqwenela ukuba ndingaze ndivele, ngokumalunga nenkumbulo yamadoda, endicela kuwo kuphela amandla emithandazo yabo kunye nenceba yabo, ngaphandle kokubanga enye into. Ukungenelwa sisidima sam kwaye ndisoyika ngenxa yolwaphulo-mthetho lwam, ndiziphosela kwinceba kaThixo kunye nokulunga kwegazi likaJC, elenza lonke ukhuseleko lwam kunye nentuthuzelo yam. Makube njalo.
Yagqitywa kwiSiqithi saseJersey, ngoJanuwari 26, 1792.
INKCAZELO NGEMPILO NEMIGAQO KADADE WOKUZALWA NGO-1797.
Ngenyanga ka-Oktobha 1797, eLondon ndafumana impendulo evela kuMphathi, owathi kum phakathi kwezinye izinto: “UDade Wokuzalwa KukaYesu ukunika imbeko nemibulelo yakhe ngako konke ukunyanyekelwa kwakho, awathi ngako. unombulelo kakhulu. UDade ohluphekileyo, wongezelela, uhlala kuphela njengokungathi ngummangaliso, kuba uhlaselwa yi-dropsy yesifuba eyenza yonke into yoyike kuye. Nangona kunjalo, ndicinga ukuba iNkosi elungileyo ayifuni ukuba afe ngaphambi kokubuya kwakho, kwaye ngelishwa imbonakalo ayilunganga loo nto. Akunyanzelekanga ukuba ungxame . Kaninzi
phantsi :
» Udade wokuzalwa ukhubazekile kwaye wayeka kakhulu, akazange aswele, enkosi kuThixo, nokuba ngowomoya okanye okwethutyana; Wade wavuma kum ukuba ufumene kuThixo ububele obunjalo kunye nobabalo ukususela kwi-revolution, ukuba wayenomdla kwaye emangaliswe ngokupheleleyo: unezinto ezininzi zokukuxelela, kwaye ndiya kuba nokuninzi kokunxibelelana nawe kuye. xa uThixo eyivumele; kodwa ndiyabona ukuba kufuneka silinde ixesha elilungileyo
.....”
Le leta, yomhla wenyanga engaphambili, yandazisa ngokufa kwabasixhenxe okanye abasibhozo kwaba nongendi balungileyo ukususela ekumkeni kwam, nendawo yokuhlala nendawo ababesingise kuyo abanye. Umphathi waphendula kweyokugqibela endandimbhalele yona, yaye apho ndandiquka ngakumbi amazwi ambalwa awayethetha ngoDade Wokuzalwa kukaYesu .
Kwiinyanga ezintathu okanye ezine kamva, ndafumana ileta eyayivela ngomnye unongendi, udade oqhelekileyo, owandixelela ukuba uDade Wokuzalwa wayephile qete yaye ithontsi lakhe lesifuba lathi shwaka ngequbuliso; oko kuthatyathwe ngenxa yesiphumo sokubila kakhulu; ukuba wayeziva kakuhle kangangokuba ukuba wayeqinisekile ngentando yobuthixo, wayengenakulibazisa ukuwela ulwandle eze kundifumana, ukuze andixelele ngezinto ezintsha awayeza kundixelela zona.
Umnqweno wokuba nezi zinto zintsha undenze ndabhala izihlandlo eziliqela ndingakhange ndifumane nempendulo enye ukususela ngelo xesha; nto leyo eyandenza ndagqiba kwelokuba ndilinde ixesha kunye neendlela zeProvidence, ngaphandle kokuzibeka esichengeni sokubekwa esichengeni ngokungeyomfuneko.
Ukuphela kwenxalenye yesibini yeZityhilelo zikaDade woZalo, kunye nomqulu wesibini.
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IZIQULATHO
equlethwe kumqulu wesibini.
Iphepha lesilumkiso sokuqala . 1
Inqaku I. Iinkcukacha kunye nophuhliso kwiimbandezelo zeCawa ekugqibeleni
amaxesha okugqibela 3
Icandelo II. Uloyiso lweJC kweyakhe
Icawa 40
§. I. Uloyiso lweJC ekuzalweni kwakhe
nasekufeni kwakhe ibid.
§. II. Ukuphumelela kweJC kuwo onke amaxesha eCawa yakhe, kwaye ngokukodwa ekugqibeleni
ngaphezulu kwe75
Icandelo III. Iimpawu ezahlukeneyo kunye nemiyalelo, ngakumbi kuthando lwe
I-JC kwi-Eucharist eNgcwele, kwiimpawu zayo zobuthixo, kwinceba yokwenene kummelwane, kunye nemiphumo eyahlukeneyo
ubudlelane 85
Inqaku IV. Kwi-Octave yoMthendeleko osikelelekileyo. 134
§. I. Umsindo owenziwe kuJC kwisakramente yothando lwakhe ngeli xesha lingcwele
Octave ibid .
§. II. Isixhobo esinamandla semingcelele yoMthendeleko oNgcwele. Ukuthanda okukodwa
UJC uphalaza ebantwaneni beCawe yakhe. 151
Isilumkiso sokuqala 167
Inqaku V. Imiyalelo ngobunyulu besazela nokunyaniseka kubabalo. Iingozi zeempazamo ezincinci kunye neziphumo ezibi
ngokuba dikidiki 169
Inqaku VI. Kutheni kukho iinkonzo ezininzi zobuxoki namahlazo amaninzi ehlabathini. Ukungaboni ngabom koku-
iimanga, nesohlwayo sazo 218
Icandelo VII. Ngokuyekelela okubangele ukutshabalala kwemithetho yenkolo, naku- ma-
nière apho iJC ifuna ukuba zihlaziywe ibid.
Icandelo VIII. Imfihlo yokuba i-JC ifuna ukuba siyiqwalasele ngokumalunga nalo msebenzi, kude kube lixesha apho kufuneka ipapashwe kwaye ipro
velisa iziqhamo ezikhulu zosindiso . 283
Inqaku le-IX. Imiyalelo ebalulekileyo kuMthendeleko oNgcwele, uVumo kunye noCando. Iimpazamo, inkohliso, iimpazamo kunye nempatho-gadalala ethi ingene ekwamkelweni kwe
IiSakramente zezohlwaya kunye ne-Ekaristi. 301
Inqaku X. Ngobuhlobo obukhethekileyo kunye
emtshatweni . _ 410
Inqaku XI. Ngobabalo lokufela ukholo; kwiziphumo eziveliswe kuDade ngulu-
unina wokholo owamkhanyiselayo; nakukuthobeka kwenene, isiseko seento zonke
amandla 430
Icandelo XII. Kwisidima semiphefumlo yethu, uthando lukaThixo kubo, kunye nobukhulu
yesono 464
Ukuphela kweTheyibhile yoMqulu wesibini.
Phawula. Itheyibhile ngokubanzi ifumaneka ekupheleni komqulu wesine.