UJeanne le Royer / uDade wokuzalwa

UBOMI BANGAPHAKATHI BO

UDADE WOKUZALWA,

Ukuze asebenze njengolandelelwano lweZityhilelo zakhe, ngulo Mhleli omnye.

 

 

INTSHAYELELO.

 

Intembelo endayinikwa nguDade Wokuzalwa kukaYesu yayingenakukwazi ukuqhubela phambili, njengoko ubani emele ukuba uye waphawula kwingxelo endiye ndamnika yona ngeemfihlo zakhe namabali akhe. Le ntembelo yayikhule ngokomlinganiselo womdla eyawubonayo le ntombazana ingcwele kum ukuba ndithabathe konke okuphathelele isazela neendlela ezingaqhelekanga, eyayingafihlanga nto kuzo kum ngayo nayiphi na into eyayinokubangela umdla kwiCawa neCawa. Ndide ndivume ukuba bekuya kuba nzima kakhulu kum ukuba ndingamthathi ntliziyo, njengoko ndandisazi kakuhle isimilo sakhe nokuqina kweempawu zakhe ezintle, ngakumbi ubabalo olukhulu awalunikwa lizulu. kodwa andizange ndiphelele apho, yaye ndandikholelwa ngokulula ukuba uThixo, owathi, phezu kwako nje ukungaxabiseki kwam, nangenxa yezizathu ezaziwa nguye, wabonakala ngathi ulungile.

Nokuba yeyiphi na indlela endicetyiswe ngayo eli shishini lesibini, ndakujonga ukuphunyezwa kwalo njengomsebenzi okanye umsebenzi omtsha endiwubekelweyo, kwaye mhlawumbi ngenye imini ndiya kucelwa ukuba ndiphendule ngawo. Ngaphandle koko, imiphefumlo yalo mlingiswa inqabile, iimpawu zabo ezintle ziphezulu kakhulu, ukuba umntu unokuthetha ngesibindi ukuba akukho nto encinci kubo, kwaye kusoloko kukho into yokuphumelela kuyo nayiphi na into enokuthi ibenze baziwe kwaye baxatyiswe. Kolu celomngeni, ndamazisa ngecebo endalicingayo lokubhala ubomi bakhe bangaphakathi, okanye indlela yokuziphatha kwezulu ngakuye; esongezelela, ukuze ndizithintele izizathu zokuthozama kwakhe, endandicinga ukuba ndilandela oku ukuthanda kukaThixo, ongayi kusilela, njengoko ndandithembile. zuza uzuko kuyo ukuze kusindiswe imiphefumlo mhlawumbi nokuguqulwa kwaboni. Bekumthatha nyani lo Sister ngobuthakatha bakhe, phofu wacela ixesha lokuyicinga. Kwafuneka ndibuyele kwityala, ndimkhumbuze ngomdla wozuko lukaThixo nosindiso lwemiphefumlo ekhululwe ngegazi lakhe, ndithethe naye ngalo lonke igunya endinokuba nalo phezu kwakhe; ndamyala ukuba andithobele kuko oko, kungekuko nokuba ningamthobeli uThixo owandithumayo, nakulo ibandla elandomelezayo.

Uthetha nam, ekugqibeleni wathi, ngokuguqulwa  kwaboni Aye!

Bawo, kungcono ndoyike ukuhlazisa amalungisa, ukuba ubomi bam obungaphakathi bebusaziwa kakhulu ngabo. Noko ke, wongezelela wathi, Ndiya kuthobela, ekubeni uyalele. Ngamana izulu lingasebenzisa, njengoko usitsho! Noko ke, le ngxelo iyinyaniso kangangoko ndinako, ngokundazisa kwam kuni, iya kulungiselela ukuba inceba yakhe ibe yeyoyisa phezu kwam; siya  kubona apho ukuba ndandiludinga kangakanani na ubabalo lwakhe olukhethekileyo, awathi ngalo wandithintela ngandlela zonke, nokuba kungakanani na ukulunga kwakhe okungapheliyo ekwamelwe kukwenza ukoyisa phezu kwentliziyo yam engendawo; indlela endaluxhathisa ngayo  uthando lwakhe lobuthixo .  Ngaloo ndlela, uBawo, ezukisa uThixo  we

Ngenceba, mhlawumbi ndiya kuphembelela ukuzithemba kwaboni bakhulu. Ewe, ukusuka kweli nqaku nakweli themba, siya kungena, xa kukholekile kuwe, kwiinkcukacha ozifunayo, kwaye ngaloo ndlela siya kuluphelisa udliwano-ndlebe oluye lwasixabisa kakhulu ixhala kunye nenkathalo enkulu komnye wethu. komnye.

Isiqalo esinjalo, endandisilindele ngokupheleleyo, sandixelela into endandingekayilindele, kwaye yayiza kunika liphi ithuba kulo lonke ibali lobomi bakhe bangaphakathi. Belandela umzekelo wabo bonke abangcwele abathethayo

 

 

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ngokwabo; kungekudala siya kumbona ezibonakalisa kuphela kwicala elingathandekanga kangako, ezibaxa ezona mpazamo zakhe zincinci; yaye ukuba ubophelelekile ukuba athethe ngobabalo nobabalo alufumeneyo, njengobuhle abuzuzileyo, kuya kuba njengabo, kuphela ukuzithoba ngakumbi, ngokunxulumanisa yonke into nalowo wamkele kuye zonke izinto. yaye ngubani na omele ambuze yonke into.

Nokuba sesinye isizathu, ndiza kuzama, apha njengakwezinye iindawo, ukuba ndingaphambuki kwiimbono zakhe, nokuba ndisebenzise amagama akhe kangangoko ndinako ukundivumela ubumnandi bolwimi. Ndifumene ubunzulu nakumaphupha akhe, njengoko sele sibonile: musa ukumangaliswa ukuba ndixela abambalwa ngakumbi, njengoko banokungena kwiinkcukacha endimele ndinike zona. Yonke into ekobu bomi bungaqhelekanga inesitampu sobuThixo; ngaphezu koko, iSibhalo esiNgcwele sisinika imizekelo emininzi yamaphupha esiprofeto kunye nebalulekileyo, njengoko sele sibonisile, ukuba kubonakala ngathi ubuncinci ukugatya zonke ezo zomphefumlo ofana nalowo uzalwa kuwo. Ndiyifanisa nesibane

sixhonywe esazulwini sengcwele ukuba sikhanyisele khona ubusuku nemini, sitshiswe phambi kwexhwane elamkela khona izicamiso zethu. Uvutha apho ixesha elide, utshiswa apho ngumlilo omhle wothando lwakhe olungcwele, kwaye amadoda, ehlala ephazamisekile kwaye eyimfama, akakakuboni ukukhanya kwakhe. Ubudala kunye nobulwelwe bakhe bundixelela ukuba kungekudala kuza kuba lixesha lokuba ndimkhuphe phantsi kwebhakethi. Ndazibhokoxa ekuqokeleleni yonke imitha yayo phambi kokuba ifele kuthi, yaye savinjwa oko ngonaphakade.

 

 

 

UBOMI BANGAPHAKATHI

YOMDADE WOKUZALWA.

 

Iintsuku ezimbini okanye ezintathu zazidlulile, uDade weza kum waza ke waqalisa ibali lobomi bakhe bangaphakathi:

“Egameni loYise, neloNyana, neloMoya oyiNgcwele; ngoYesu noMariya, nangegama likaBathathu Emnye othandekayo, ndiyathobela. »

 

Indlela angena ngayo uDade kulomcimbi.

Uyandiyala ngoko, Bawo, ukuba ndithethe ngokuphuma kum ngokwam kuwe; Lindela nangona ungazange ube nolwazi  lwe

ubomi obungaqhelekanga kakhulu, obungenakucingelwa, okanye ubugebenga obunjengobo kufuneka ndikuxelele ngabo: kulo naliphi na ixesha kunye nakweyiphi na imbono umntu ayijongayo, uya kufumana into yokuncoma kunye nento yokuncwina ngayo. Akwaba uThixo ebenga isiphelo sibe sezolileyo size siqiniseke njengokuba ixesha laliza kuba lincinane! kuba, Bawo, ukuqwalasela ikhondo lobomi bam, kuye kwaba, ukuthabatha kakuhle, kwaye uya kubona apho kuphela ulandelelwano olungaphazamisekiyo, kuphela ukutshintshwa okuqhubekayo kobumnyama nokukhanya, ulonwabo kunye nentuthuzelo edityaniswe nembalela eninzi kwaye i-aridities. Ekugqibeleni, ndikuxelele? ubabalo athe uThixo wandinika lona, ​​ngaphaya kwayo yonke into enokuthiwa, ibe, njengokuba ubomi bam, buhamba kwaye buzaliswe bubukrakra, ukubulaleka, usizi, Kwangaxeshanye, Bawo, andikwazi ukuzichaza; nam ngokwam andizazi into endiyiyo, into endiya kuba yiyo, nokuba ndinesizathu esingaphezulu sokuzomeleza, ngaphezu kokoyika; okanye ukoyika ngaphezu kokundiqinisekisa; Ndibona itheko kuphela ye

ndiyeke ku Thixo olungileyo owanditsalela entweni engekhoyo, nongafuni kulahlekelwa mntu. Kodwa lixesha lokuba siqale.

 

Kwenzeka ntoni kumama kaSister ngexesha lokukhulelwa kwakhe.

(1) Kubonakala, Bawo, ukuba ngaphambi kokuzalwa kwam uThixo kunye nosathana babesele belwa ngesihlandlo sam. Ebudeni belo xesha umama wayendithwele, wayechanabeke kwiingozi ezingakumbi kunokuba wayebaleka ubomi bakhe bonke: uloyiko, ukuwa, iingozi ezingalindelekanga; wayengenakukwazi ukuthabatha amanyathelo amabini engakhange asukelwe ngamarhamncwa anomsindo okanye othuswe ngamarhamncwa. Ngobunye ubusuku, phakathi kwabanye, xa wayephumile esiya emnyango, isilwanyana esingaziwayo satsibela kuye ngequbuliso, sinobuso obusoyikisayo awayenoloyiko olunokumbulala. Ezi zimvo ziyingozi zinxibelelana nam ngendlela engenakuchazwa kakuhle, kodwa engeyiyo eyenyani kangako, ukuba siza kuvalela amava; kakhulu ukuba de

(1) Lo dade waqala ngokundixelela ngokubhaptizwa kwakhe negama lentsapho yakhe, kwanexesha nendawo awazalelwa kuyo; kodwa andizange ndicinge ukuba kufanelekile ukuphinda apha  into endiyithethileyo ekuqaleni kobomi bakhe bangaphandle, ukuba ndandulele umqulu wezityhilelo zakhe. Le yindlela endiya kuzama ngayo ukushunqulela yonke into esele ichukunyiswe, kwaye ndiphindaphinde kancinci kangangoko  .

 

Ubabalo lokuqala uDade alufumana kwiNtombi  Enyulu.

Abazali bam abahluphekileyo babesabela kuphela kumandla ezulu ukuba andikhusele kuwo; bandibhambathisa kwiNtombi Enyulu esikelelekileyo, baza bandithembisa uhambo, endathi ndaluhlawulela emva koko, ukuya eNotre-Dame de Pont-Aubré, eMaine. Ukususela oko bandibeka phantsi kokhuseleko olunamandla lolu tshaba lwamandla obumnyama, andizange ndiphinde ndibe nalo

 

 

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akukho loyiko, kodwa andizange ndibe sesichengeni soloyiko lomntwana nolungenasiseko. Ingcamango yemimoya, iziporho, njl., eyoyikayo

Ezinye ezininzi, azindichukumisi: Bendiya kuhamba ndedwa imini nobusuku; Bendiya kubukela kunye nabafileyo ndedwa; Ndandilala, ukuba kuyimfuneko, phakathi kwezidumbu, ngaphandle koloyiko; ukuba ngokukodwa kususela kwiminyaka elishumi elinambini, ekufezekeni kwam umnqweno endandinawo. “Ndayibuza kwangethuba, yaye bonke oonongendi bandinika okufanayo

ubungqina, esongeza ukuba uDade Wokuzalwa KukaYesu kudala elele enokakayi ecaleni komqamelo wakhe. Sibonile ngaphambili ukuba yintoni

wadlula, ejonge omnye wodade wabo ongasekhoyo. »

 

Ubabalo olulodwa alunikwa ngu-J.-C. eneminyaka emibini enesiqingatha. Umbono weglowubhu eqaqambileyo.

Olu lubabalo lokuqala luvela kuMariya kum yaba linyathelo lokuqala kuphela lokukhusela izulu, elathi lalandelwa zezinye iinceba ezininzi ebekumele ukuba ziwathobe ngokupheleleyo amathemba otshaba lwam, ukuba lunokutyhafa kwinto ethile. Ndandisemncinci kakhulu, yaye ndandingekabi neminyaka emine okanye emihlanu ubudala (wandibhalela ukususela xa wayeneminyaka emibini enesiqingatha kuphela ubudala, eneentsuku ezimbalwa emdala, ngokutsho kukaJ.-C. kuye), xa kwakholeka kuThixo ukuba andibabale ngenye indlela, kodwa ekhwankqisayo kangangokuba ayizange iyishiye inkumbulo yam kwaye ayisayi kuze ibuye.

Olu phawu, ngokoluvo lwam, alukhange lube nefuthe elincinane kubo bonke ubomi bam, kwaye ndiluthatha njengomthombo wazo zonke izipho ezisilandelayo. Ndandikude, ngakumbi ngaloo minyaka, ekubeni ndikwazi ukungena kuyo nantoni na; Ndandingekabi nalo naluphi na ulwazi ngoThixo, okanye inkolo, okanye ngam, ndingenayo neyona ngcamango yokulungileyo nokubi; Ndazonwaba ke, njengabanye, ngayo yonke into enokulungisa ubume bengcinga yam, ngaphandle kwamaxhala, ngaphandle kwamaxhala, kwaye ngaphandle kokucinga.

Nantsi ke Bawo inye into eyandehlelayo ngenye iCawe ndazifumana ndikwindlu esecaleni kwaleyo yayihlala utata, abazali bam babekwiofisi yobungcwele. Ndikhumbula, kule yure yangoku, phakathi kwabanye abantu besini esahlukileyo ababekule ndlu, kwakukho abafana ababini okanye abathathu ababehleli etafileni, ababesela, becula yaye bezonwabisa kangangoko babenako; Ndibene zozibini izandla zihleli ekupheleni kwetafile, yaye kwesi simo sengqondo ndabajonga ndaza ndabaphulaphula ngenyameko ndingaqondi phantse nantoni na enoba izenzo zabo okanye ukucula kwabo. Omnye wabo ngequbuliso wadanduluka esithi: Kulusizi ukuba umntu ashiye ubomi aze afe! hayi indlela ebesingavuya ngayo ukuba besihlala sihlala apha, kwaye besihlala sinjengoko sinjalo ngonaphakade! Bendingazophinda ndicele okunye, kwaye bendincama yonke enye into... Kodwa ukufa.!... xa ucinga  ngako  !. njl

La mazwi, aqhwatyelwa izandla aza aphinda-phinda ngamanye, andibetha. Bathetha ukuthini xa besitsho, ndazicingela? kuba ndandingekayazi nokuba ndingobunye ubomi okanye imfuneko yokufa. Ngelixa ndandicinga ngokoluhlu lwam oluncinci, isibhakabhaka saqalisa ukundicacisela imfihlakalo, kwaye lo ngumbono wokuqala owandithanda ngawo. Iglowubhu ekhanyayo yobume obumbhoxo, kwaye malunga nobude bomntu, yabonakala kum isihla isuka esibhakabhakeni ize ime phantsi komgangatho wendlu; umlilo wawo wawunemithunzi yonke yomnyama, kodwa imibala yawo yayicace ngakumbi. Kulo mhlaba ndithe ndakubona, ngaphandle kokwahlula ngokucacileyo, umfanekiso wendoda emileyo, eyazenza yavakala kum ngala mazwi avakaliswa ngokucacileyo, kwaye ndiwabambe kakuhle: “Uyazibona ezi zibhanxa mntanam? uyabeva ukuba bathini kubo Ukugqithisa? NdinguThixo wamazulu nehlabathi; ndim owadala zonke izinto, owazenza ngokwamandla am. Nditsale umntu kwinto engento kuphela ukuze ndizazi, ndizithande kwaye ndizuze isiqu sam ngonaphakade. Ewe, mntwana wam, ngaba nawe ungathanda, njengabo, ukulahla indawo ephakamileyo enjalo, ukwabelana ngonaphakade apha ngaphantsi kwesiphelo kunye nokuhlala kwezilwanyana ezine-quadrud kunye nezilwanyana ezirhubuluzayo? ungathanda ukutshintshisa ulonwabo lwezulu ngeenkxwaleko zomhlaba? awufuni ukuba ngowam, ube nam ngenye imini, kwaye ndonwabe ngonaphakade ulonwabo endilufumeneyo ndalulungiselela wena ngexabiso legazi lam lonke?  »

Kula mazwi, Bawo, kwezi zimemo zithambileyo, ingqondo yam yayizele lulwazi lombhali wayo. Ukufumanisa kuye ingqibelelo engapheliyo nengenakuchazwa, ndibona kuye ukulunga kwam, ndawuva umphefumlo wam ubanjiwe, ungenwe bubukho bakhe, kwaye intliziyo yam ivutha ngumlilo wothando lwakhe, kunye nomnqweno wokumfumana ngaphandle kwesiphelo. Ukususela ngaloo mzuzu, oyena lonwabo ebomini bam, ndamnika imbeko yobuntu bam kunye nedini lomntu wam wonke. Ndandinqwenela ngamandla ukuba ndife ngoko nangoko ukuze ndiyibone kwaye ndiyifumane kwakamsinya, okanye ndiphilele ukuyikhonza nokuyithanda. Ewe, Thixo wam, ndithi kuye, Thixo wentliziyo yam, nomphefumlo wam wonke, uyazi  wena

 

 

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Bonani ukuba ndinenzondelelo enjani na? kuba nam ndivakalelwa kukuba intliziyo yam, engumsebenzi wakho, yenzelwe wena kuphela, kwaye ayinakuze ikufumane ukuphumla ngaphandle kwakho! Ukuba umhlaba ungcolile kwaye udelekile,

Ukuthelekiswa kobuhle bakho kunye nokugqibelela kwakho okungenakuchazwa! Ndiyayilahla  ukusuka kulo mzuzu; Ndiyakulahla ngonaphakade, Ndicinge wena wedwa, Thixo wam. ngoobani umgaqo wam  nesiphelo sam.

Ngephanyazo lo mbono wathi shwaka, wandishiya ndiphakathi kweemvakalelo neengcinga endingenaso nesihendo sokuzibonakalisa nakubani na: uThixo ubeke kum, kule ngongoma, ingqiqo abanayo abantwana beli phakade, nokuba ngubani na owakhaphayo. kwintlanganiso ezingaphezu kwesinye apho ndazimela khona (x), ngaphandle kwemigudu, kubazali bam, nto leyo ngokwendalo bendifanele ukuba ndikhawuleze ukubaxelela. Babengazi nto; ukanti, ngalo lonke ixesha babethetha nam ngoThixo ukuze andifundise imithandazo yam okanye ikhathekizim yam, ngalo lonke ixesha bethetha nam ngoJ. : Imele ukuba ikwanguloo Thixo ulungileyo ndambonayo, ngubani wathetha kanye kulomhlaba mhle, kwaye ubukhazimla kwaye uqaqambe kakhulu. Ah! Hayi indlela ebekuya kuba mnandi ngayo ukuyibona ndize ndiyive kwakhona! Hayi indlela endifuna ukumazi ngakumbi ngayo! kodwa ngaphezu kwako konke ulonwabo olunjani, ukuba ngenye imini ndinokuyiphatha! Ke ngoku mna wathetha ngaphakathi; kodwa andizange ndiyithethe ngaphandle kwam; abazali bam ngebangazange bakuqonde oko, yaye ndandingenawo nomncinane umnqweno wokuthetha  nabo ngayo.

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Ukubonakala kwamalahle avuthayo, umfanekiso weCawa yamaxesha okugqibela.

Yayingeloxesha lodwa awathi uThixo wandibababala ngolu hlobo ndisemncinci kangaka. Ndandisenako, ndiyakholwa, ukuba ndimsulwa kwam ekubhaptizweni, xa ndandinawo lo mzekelo mnye endithethe ngawo kuni kwenye indawo, kwaye owawumele, ngamalahle avuthayo arhangqwe ngesangqa sokukhanya, imeko yeBandla. iintsuku, ngokwengcaciso endithe ndayifumana ukususela ngoku, kwaye endininike ingxelo ngayo ekuthetheni ngeentshutshiso zeBandla. Mhlawumbi, uBawo, kwaye mhlawumbi uThixo, ngewayeqhubekile endinika amanqaku anengqiqo e-predilection ekhululekile, ukuba kwicala lam ndiye ndaqhubeka ndithembekile kuye, ndihlala ndigcina ubabalo lokubhaptizwa kwam: Kodwa, maye! kukuba isono seza ngokungaqondakaliyo ukuba siphazamise urhwebo oluhle ngolo hlobo?

 

Ukungakhathali kunye nokungathembeki kukaSister; ukuvuma ukuba wenza iimpazamo kwasebuntwaneni bakhe.

Ngelishwa isidalwa, ndasebenzisa kakubi ububele bakhe! Ke izulu lazirhoxisa izipho zalo njengoko ubungendawo babubamba ingqondo yam kwaye bonakalisa intando yam! Kuyinyani ukuba ukubona kukaThixo kubangelwa kukusulungeka kwentliziyo kuphela, ukuthantamisa kwakhe kuphela kukungabi natyala, nokuqhelana kwakhe kuphela nokunyaniseka kwiinceba ezisilumkisa ngazo ukulunga kwakhe! Kude ndenze, njengoko wayefuna kum, ukusetyenziswa okungcwele nokufanelekileyo kwesizathu sam esakhulayo, ndatyeshela ukucinga ngaye, ukumnqula, ukumthanda, ukuthandaza kuye, ukuguqula iingcamango zam zokuqala kuye ngokucamngca. ngomthetho wayo nasekugqibeleleni kwayo okungcwele, nokungcwalisela kuyo iintshukumo zokuqala zentliziyo yam. Ubutyala kunye nokungakhathali okubulalayo!... Ukungathembeki kokuqala, apho ubani aya kuthi mhlawumbi akuthathe njengeeminutiae, amanqatha angafaneleki nokuthetha ngawo, Ukususela ngoko ndiye ndafunda ukuba ezi zinto zibizwa ngokuba zii<em>minutiae ngokwenene zaziziinkani zokwenene, nto leyo eyathi yatsala abanye abaninzi ngokuqala ngokupholisa intliziyo yam ngokuphathelele uThixo, kwaza kwalandela intliziyo kaThixo ngokuphathelele mna. Imvelaphi ebulalayo! ulandelelwano olulusizi!

Ngokungathandabuzekiyo ndaziva ndineqhayiya elithile lithatha indawo yokuthetha phandle nokulula; kungekudala ububi baqalisa ukubamba amabhodlo ubumsulwa bam kunye nolonwabo lwam. Ngexeshana elingephi, ndaba nenkani, ndinemvukelo, andilithobeli ilizwi likamama, owathi maxa wambi wazibona enyanzelekile ukuba andohlwaye ngentliziyo yakhe: Ndazithabatha iziluleko zakhe ngokubi kangangokuba, kude nokungenelwa kuzo, andibanga bubi ngaphezu koku. ; Ndandifukama inzondo ngakuye, nenzondo nxamnye nabantakwethu xa babendithethisa. Ndaxoka ukuze ndizithethelele, ndathi: Enyanisweni, kwisazela, oku kuyinyaniso, njengoko uThixo endibona, njl.

Xa babefuna ukundiwela yaye ngokukodwa ukundohlwaya, ndaba mnyama ngumsindo; nto leyo eyamenza buhlungu umama wam osisisweli ukuya kutsho kwinqanaba lokugqibela, owayengazi ukuba makahambe njani ukulungisa esi siphene sibi kangaka. Ndahlala ndiphantsi kwayo de isiganeko athe uThixo, okwaziyo ukukhupha okulungileyo kokubi, xa athe wathanda, wasivumela ukuba asivumele ngobubele. Kwathi ngenye imini ndabona indoda ithukutheliswa ngumsindo, njengokuba nam ndandinjalo amaxesha amaninzi; ubuso bakhe bebubingelekile; kwaye eneneni ndandikhwankqisiwe kakhulu, kangangokuba ukususela ngaloo mzuzu ndagqiba ekubeni ndingaze ndizinikele kuloo mnqweno unomsindo, ongawufanelanga umphefumlo, omele yonke indawo umele ubumnene kunye nomfanekiso ka-J.-C., umzekelo wakhe.

 

Ukuzisola kwakhe; uloyiko lwakhe nokuzithemba kwakhe.

Nangona ndandityekele ebubini, ndandisoloko ndisiba neengxaki zangaphakathi, ukuxhalaba okungafunekiyo, nto leyo ngokungathandabuzekiyo eyayiyimiphumo

 

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Ubabalo awathi uJ.-C. wandigcina ngalo: iwaka lokucingisisa kum, iwaka leentshukumo ezilungileyo zandibiza ukuba ndibuyele kuThixo ngokungapheziyo. Ndandiziva ndingenwa luloyiko ngamanye amaxesha kukoyika ukungamkholisi nokungamthandi njengoko ndandimthembisile, ngamanye amaxesha nokohlukana naye ngenye imini ngonaphakade; Ndandisoyika ukusa kwinqanaba lokugqibela ukumangaliswa kukufa kwimeko embi, yaye le ngcamango yokufa nemiphumo yako engenakuphepheka, olu loyiko lulungileyo lwemigwebo kaThixo yaba yindlela yokuqala awathi ngayo lo Thixo wokulunga, oneengcinga ezininzi kangaka ixesha elide. Ulwele ukuxhathisa kwam, ulusebenzise uloyiso.

Bangaphi abanye aboni abaye bakubona ukomelela kwesi sixhobo soloyiso sisesandleni sakhe!

Ndikwesi ntloni, yonke into yandoyikisa: kwavakala ingxolo, isaqhwithi, ukuqhwatywa kwendudumo, ukukhanya kwemibane, kwandenza ndangcangcazela. Ndangcangcazela xa isigwebo ngokubanzi sasiza kuqalisa ngaphambi kokuba ndibe nexesha lokusilungiselela; Maxa wambi ndandibaleka ndiye kuzifihla kwikona ethile efihlakeleyo, ukuze ndiphephe ukubizelwa apho; Bendindindisholo kukoyika ukuzibona ndigwetyelwe kuyo, kwaye ndingakwazi, ngaphandle kokungcangcazela, ukucinga ngesiphelo somphefumlo oya kuba nelishwa lokuphulukana noThixo wawo ngonaphakade. Luluphi ulonwabo esinokulufumana kwisidalwa esinesazela esiphazamisekileyo? Kodwa ilishwa likhulu kakhulu, urhulumente udabukisa ngakumbi, xa umntu ehlala kurhulumente kunye nomkhwa wolwaphulo-mthetho ngaphandle kokuziva ingxaki okanye ukuzisola: oku koko kukho ukwesaba ngakumbi kumlobi.

Ingcinga enye yandiqinisekisa kancinane: Ndazixelela ukuba uThixo ongusomandla owavelayo waza wathetha nam emhlabeni wayelunge gqitha kuye yaye wayebonakala endithanda kakhulu kangangokuba ade afune ukuphulukana nam.

Ndathi xa ndiphambi kwakhe, ekugwetyweni kwakhe, ndiya kumbongoza ukuze avumele ukugoba kwaye abe ngathi unyanzelekile ukuba andixolele. Ndiya kukuxelela  , Bawo, ukuba eli themba belisoloko lindixhasa kulo naluphi na uloyiko olunokuba lukhulu; ewe, leli themba elidityaniswe noloyiko elenza ukuba ndijonge lo mbonakaliso wokuqala njengolona babalo luxabisekileyo losindiso kum, oluye lwanempembelelo enkulu kubo bonke ubomi bam bangaphakathi, ngokufana nomgaqo wosindiso. zonke ezinye izipho ezivela ezulwini.

 

Umtsalane wakhe okhethekileyo kwasebuntwaneni ukuze azinikele kwiSakramente eSikelelekileyo.

Kufuneka kuthiwe kuwe, ekuhambeni kwexesha, Bawo, ukuba uThixo waphefumlela kum kwangethuba nasebomini bam umtsalane othile wokuzinikela kweyona Sakramente iSikelelweyo yesibingelelo; Ukususela ebuntwaneni ndandiziva ndinempembelelo engaqhelekanga, kude kube ngoko andizange ndikwazi ukudlula phambi komnquba apho kwakuhlala khona ubukho bokwenene bomzimba ka-J.-C. imfihlakalo enzulu. Ngaphezu kwesihlandlo esinye ecaweni ndazibhenca kwintlekisa yabantwana, umzekelo wabo owandikhokelela ekubeni ndingabi nantlonelo ngoxa ndilindele umfundisi owayeza kusifundisa; Baye bahleka bandenza intlekisa, kwafuneka ndijamelane nabo kwaye ngoko nangoko ndihlawule ityala abandenze ndalenza.

Sathi ke, sakuba isazela sam sandingcikiva kancinane, ndazifumana ndivalelwe etempileni engcwele; amandla angoyiswayo abonakala engandivumeli ingcwele kwaye andalela ukuba ndisondele esibingelelweni. Yeha! Bawo, zonke ezi nceba zomqondiso zinikwe abantu abambalwa, ukuhoywa okuphawulwe kakuhle ngoBonelelo olukhethekileyo, azifanelanga; basebenza kuphela ukunika ulwaphulo-mthetho olungakumbi kunye nokungabi nakuxolelwa kokubini kokungabi nambulelo kwam ngakumbhali wezinto ezininzi ezifefe, kunye nezono ezingenakubalwa endibe netyala lazo kubukho bokwenyani balo Msindisi uthandekayo kweyona Sakramente iSikelelweyo 'yesibingelelo.

Ngamana uvumo endinalo phezu komhlaba lungalungisa uzuko lwalo olukhubekileyo, ngokucima umsindo olufunyenwe kuwo! yanga iiNgelosi nabaNgcwele zingalungisa kuye, kwaye zimbuyekeze ngokuvutha kothando lwabo kuwo onke amaphakade!

Nantsi into esele ininzi, njengoko ubona, Bawo, ngobomi bam obulusizi bangaphakathi; apha sele zininzi izipho ezingaqhelekanga ezivela kwicala likaThixo, ngaphandle kwayo nayiphi na imbalelwano evela kum. Ke ngoko kukho ukungathembeki okuninzi kunye nokungabi nambulelo okuninzi, kukho izono ezininzi ezenziweyo, endiya kuthi kungekudala ndinike ingxelo kumgwebi wam. Kodwa asikafiki esiphelweni sezi zenzo zokungathembeki kunye nolu lwaphulo-mthetho: maye! kude kube lixesha elide baya kwanda kodwa. Ekubeni unomdla wokuva zonke iinkcukacha, ngomso, ukuba uyafuna, okanye ngoku ngokuhlwa, siya kuphinda siqalise ukuqhubeka; ngaphezu koko umsebenzi wam unditsalela kwenye indawo ngalo mzuzu. Sala kakuhle Bawo ndicela uxolo undithandazele.

 

Iziphene zokuvuma kwakhe izono kunye nomthendeleko wakhe wokuqala. Imiphumo eyintlekele emphefumlweni wakhe.

“Egameni loYise, loNyana neloMoya oyiNgcwele. NgoYesu noMariya,

 

 

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kwaye egameni likaBathathu Emnye othandekayo, ndiyathobela. »

Utata, umama wasihlola isazela sam wandithatha wandisa kwi confession, kodwa uloyiko endandinalo lokungxoliswa ngulowo wamvumayo lwandenza ndamfihlela isiqingatha seziphoso zam ingakumbi ukungathobeli kwam umama. Ndenziwa ukuba ndidle umthendeleko xa ndandineminyaka elithoba enesiqingatha ubudala. Kwakungekudala ngokokubona kwam, kwaye ndandinesizathu sokuzisola. Njengoko ndandingoyiki nto ingako njengokunyanzelwa, ngokwenkqubo eqhelekileyo, ukuba ndizithethelele ndize ndicele uxolo kumama ngaphambi kokuba ndithabathe umthendeleko, ndadlula inyanga ngaphambi kokuba ndivume konke oko isazela sam sasindingcikiva ngokuphathelele yena; kodwa kule nto ndandiyilindele into endandifuna ukuyiphepha: UThixo wamvumela umntu owavumayo ukuba andivavanye aze andiyalele ukuba ndicele uxolo kwaye nditshintshe indlela endiziphethe ngayo kuye.

Hayi indlela angonwabanga ngayo umntu ngokukodwa kwesi sizukulwana! Andinakukwazi ukuzanelisa ngokufanelekileyo nangokuyimfuneko; kwaye ukongeza kwilishwa lam, uloyiko lokwala, olundifaneleyo, lundenze ndakufihla konke oku xa ndifumana ukuxolelwa. Ngoko ke ndanxibelelana ngolu hlobo ngokuchasene nokuzisola kwesazela sam, esathi ukususela ngoko saqalisa ukundikhathaza. Isibhakabhaka ! Hayi indlela ekrakra ngayo le nkumbulo! Ngaba ndiya kuba neenyembezi ezaneleyo, kwaye ngaba ubomi bam buya kuba nokwanela ukuligxeka isiphoso esinjalo kunye nazo zonke imiphumo yaso eyintlekele?

Ukusukela ngalo mzuzu, Bawo, akusekho lubabalo luvela ezulwini, akusekho ntuthuzelo yangaphakathi, uxolo nakwaneliseka! Lonke ulonwabo lwam lwaphela ngenxa yesenzo ekwakufuneka ndisigqibe kwaye sibe negalelo elingakumbi ekwenzeni ukuba sihlale ngonaphakade. Hayi indlela esiba nosizi ngayo xa sifumana ukufa kumthombo wobomi, yaye xa oko kufanele kusenze sibe ngcwele kusenze sibe netyala ngakumbi kunokuba sasinjalo ngaphambili! Le meko ilishwa yathatha iminyaka engaphezu kwemihlanu yokufa, apho ukusetyenziswa, intlonipho yobuntu kunye nobuzalwana beRosari, endabhaliswa kuyo nendandiyixhaphaza, kwandenza ndazincama izinto ezininzi endisangcangcazelayo nangoku, kwaye endinazo. isizathu esihle sokungcangcazela.

Kude nokucotha isantya, nangona kunjalo, ukuthanda kwam, njengoko unokucinga kakuhle, bekufumana amandla amatsha kunye nokwanda kwemihla ngemihla. Idemon yayinesizathu esivakalayo sokuqhwaba izandla ize yoyise. Mhlawumbi intliziyo yam ngeye ekugqibeleni iwele ebuqaqadekeni, ukuba ubabalo olukhethekileyo belungazange lundigcine kulo mngxuma unzulu ngokuzisola okukhulu endikuvileyo phezu kwako nje ukubakho kwam, nokungandinikanga luxolo naluxolo. Kwakubonakala ngathi kwinyathelo ngalinye ndeva ngaphakathi ilizwi lisithi kum ngelizwi elirhabaxa: Wenze ntoni, ntokazi engonwabanga, yaye ufuna ukuba yintoni? anithobelanga J.-C. okanye unina; umkhohlisile umvumisi wakho; uvumo lwenu alukho, imithendeleko yenu mibi; awunalo uthando luka-J.C.: emva kokuhoywa okuninzi kunye neenzuzo ezivela kuye, uhlazekile phambi koThixo wakho; kwaye ukuba ufumene ilishwa lokufa kule meko, ungaya phi, ngelishwa! Ah! isihogo siya kuba sisabelo sakho ngonaphakade. Kodwa ngaba le nto wawumthembise yona uThixo wakho? ngaba le nto wayenelungelo lokuyilindela emva kweenzuzo ezininzi kangaka ezivela kuye?

Imini nobusuku ezi zingcikivo zoyikekayo zazinkenteza ezinzulwini zomphefumlo wam.

Yandikhathaza ke le nto kangangokuba, nangona ndandizidla, ngenye imini ndasuka ndazijula ​​ngamadolo ezinyaweni zikamama, ngeenjongo zokuzohlwaya ngenxa yokungakhawulezi ndiyenze loo nto. Umama wothuswa kakhulu kwesi sinyathelo sam kangangokuba, ngaphandle kovakalelo endimbeke kulo ngokuchasa kwam, wahlala edidekile ukundibona ndinje phambi kwakhe kwaye engazi ukuba mandithini...

 

 

Waguquka waza wenza isivumo sovumo jikelele ngesihlandlo sejubhile okanye ukuziyekelela. Iziqhamo uzifumana kuyo. Isivumo esithobekileyo seentsizi zakhe.

Olu loyiso lokuqala phezu kwam lwaqalisa ukundiqinisekisa kancinane; kodwa akwenziwanga konke, ngeli lixa umsitho omkhulu wentlokoma okanye uxolelo oluqhelekileyo lweBandla lwafika: yayingomnye wabahlobo bam, owayeze kusibona, owasibhengeza ukuba ipapashiwe kwirhamente. Iindaba ezimnandi, ndakhwaza! Ah! ndilunge kangakanani! Ngequbuliso ndiza kwenza uvumo jikelele kwaye ndiguqule ngokwam ngokupheleleyo kwaye ngokupheleleyo. Ndithe ndisatsho njalo utata waphela yintsini. Noko ke, silapha, wadanduluka, yaye siza kubona izinto ezintle! intombi yethu uJeannette uza kuguqula kwaye enze  uvumo jikelele. INotre-Dame, ayiyi kuba yinto encinane, kwaye ababingeleli baya kumangaliswa kuphela; 

Utata wayendithanda yedwa, kwaye ingcinga entle awayenayo ngam ayizange imvumele ukuba acinge ukuba ndifuna ukuguqulwa okanye

uvumo jikelele. Yeha! Ndandiyiva kakuhle kuphela inyaniso epheleleyo yale mfuno. Ewe, bawo, ndamphendula ndathi, ndifuna ukuguqulwa ngobabalo lukaThixo, kwaye ndiyathemba ukuba emva koko ndiya kuba ngcono kakhulu kunokuba ndinjalo ngoku. Siza kubona ukuba kwenzekani, baphinde baqala abazali bam...

Yakuba ivuliwe nje loo jubhile, ndandingenanto entliziyweni okanye ndingxamile ngaphezu kokuhamba ndiyokuziphosa ezinyaweni zongasekhoyo uM. Maillard, ngoko owayengumfundisi werhamente yethu (icawa yaseJanson).

 

 

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Bawo ndathi kuye xa ndifika ndicela undenzele isivumo sobomi bam bonke kuba andixolanga ngabo bonke endibenzele ngoku...wandimamela ngokukhulu. ingqalelo kwaye yandinceda kakhulu. Wathi xa endibuza ukuba kungenxa yokoyika ukubethwa ngumama ukuba ndala ukuthobela owam uvumayo, ndamnika, nangona wayebuthathaka, impendulo evumayo eyayingekabikho ngokwenyani. Kwakusekufihlwa okuncinci oko ndandisaguqukile, nangona kwakungeyomfuneko kangako njengempazamo yokuqala endayenzayo.

Ijubhile yam yayisele iqalile ukundibuyisela kum: ngoko ndandimalunga neminyaka elishumi elinesihlanu okanye elishumi elinesithandathu (1).

Le jubhile athetha ngayo uDade, awayenayo eneminyaka elishumi elinesihlanu okanye elinesithandathu, imele ukuba yenzeka ngo-1746 okanye ngo-1747; kuba wazalwa ngenyanga kaJanuwari 1731. Siyazi ijubile yonyulo lukaBenedict XIV ngo-1740, oluhambelana nomthendeleko wokuqala weSista eneminyaka elithoba elinesiqingatha, kunye nejubhile enkulu yehlabathi kwi-1751, ethetha ngayo uDade kungekudala, kwaye wayenza eneminyaka engamashumi amabini. Le athetha ngayo apha asiyazi. Ke ngoko kufuneka kuthiwe le ntombazana ilungileyo ekungazini kwayo yabhidisa ijubhile enkulu kunye nejubhile encinci enikezelwe kwidayosisi yaseRennes, nangasiphi na isihlandlo esingasaziyo, okanye mhlawumbi ngaphezulu. mhlawumbi kwanangeso sigqeba kunye nesidima esizuzwa ngohlobo lwejubhile ekupheleni kobuthunywa, kwaye leliphi ilizwe abantu abaqhele ukulinika igama lentlokoma. Ngapha koko, le mpazamo, okanye le mpazamo, okanye le nto yokunqongophala kokuthetha okuchanekileyo kwicala likaDade, akenzi nto emazantsi ezinto asixelela zona ngobuwula kunye nobulula  .

Ukususela ngoko, uThixo wabonakala esondela kum, ngokomlinganiselo nangomlinganiselo njengoko ndisondela kuye, okanye kunoko, owu Thixo wam! nguwe owathabatha inyathelo lokuqala, owasuka wandifuna ngeendlela zonke, ngokugqithisela kothando lwakho; owayenze konke okusemandleni ukuze andizuze! Kodwa ngelishwa! Owu Thixo olungileyo! ixesha loguquko lwam olugqibeleleyo lalingekafiki, kwaye ube ulungile ngokwaneleyo ukuba uyilinde ngomonde, kwaye unyamezele kude kube ngoko ukunganyaniseki endikudane ngako ngoku, kunye nokuziphatha ekumele ukuba bekunganyamezeleki kuwe. Yintoni emele ukuba ixabisa uthando lwakho ngeli xesha lide kunye nolwaphulo-mthetho!

Yonke le nto ndikuxelela yona apha Bawo, watsho uDade, nako konke endizakuxelela kona, andisayi kuba ncinane ukundazisa kuwe; iya kuba yinkqubela phambili enkulu yesivumo jikelele endizimisele ukusenza kuwe, ukuba uThixo undinike ixesha kunye neendlela. Okwangoku, ndiziva ndityekele, ngokukuthobela, ukulungisa ihambo yam yangaphambili, kangangoko kuya kuba semandleni am. Makwazeke, ngokwam uvumo, ukuba lungakanani na ubabalo lukaThixo olundenzileyo, enzonzobileni inceba yakhe yandihlangulayo, makwazeke ukuba ndinetyala kangakanani na kuye ngandlela zonke. Ah! ngokungathandabuzekiyo, imiphefumlo ethembekileyo iya kubona ngokukhwankqiswa nokuncoma, kwelinye icala, ukungathembeki okungaka, imvukelo, ukungabi nambulelo nosizi; kwelinye, ububele obungaka, umonde, uphando kunye nobuhlobo. Ngamana lo Thixo wothando uyilibele into endiza kukuxelela yona, angaze andohlwaye ngenxa yoko! Wanga angazuza uzuko lwakhe kuyo, aze ummelwane wakhe akheke ngayo. Ibekwe phakathi kwentelekelelo kunye nokuchasa, ibali lam maligcine ubuncinci abangakhathaliyo abazibhencayo, kwaye bathintele ekuphelelweni lithemba abo baye bahlelwa lishwa. ukuwa!

Sesona siqhamo sinqwenelekayo umntu anokuthemba ngaso....

Kangangeminyaka emibini yonke ndandingcamle isiqhamo sovumo lwam jikelele; uxolo, ukuzola okumnandi kwesazela sam, kwandivumela ukuba ndibuyele eluthandweni lukaThixo ndaza ndacingisisa nzulu ngesiqu sam. Ndakuthanda kakhulu ukucula amaculo omoya nokufunda iincwadi zobuthixo; kuba ndandifunde ukufunda, njengoko ubani esenza elizweni, oko kukuthi, ngokwaneleyo kolu hlobo lokufunda. Ndandikuthanda ukuba kunye namantombazana anesimilo kunye neencoko  zokomoya  . amalungiselelo  apho

kwakubonakala ngathi ichaza into eyahlukileyo koko kwenzekileyo. Ndaye ndathamba ngakumbi kumama, nangona kunjalo, ndaphinda ndamchasa, kodwa kwimeko endikholelwa ukuba, yenza ukuba ityala lam, ukuba likho, lithetheleleke ngakumbi kunangaphambili. Nantsi into ebekuyo le meko, ukuze nikwazi ukuyigweba:

Njengodade wethu omncinane, ngokufuthi ndandinobuthathaka bokunceda umama wethu kwiinkolelo ezithile ezixhaphake kakhulu phakathi.

abantu belizwe. Ibikho nenye into ekhohlakeleyo, nangona yayingeyonjongo kamama leyo. Ngenye imini kwathi qatha kum ukuba kukho isikhubekiso kuThixo ngolu hlobo. Isazela sam sandivukela ngoko nangoko, yaye andizange ndivume. Ndamxelela umama ngokucacileyo ukuba andizumthobela, kuba ndibona isono kuyo.

; usisi wam walandela umzekelo wam. Ndandilindele ukuba ndifumane amazwi ambalwa aphilileyo kumama. Akunjalo, wahlala ecinga kakhulu, waza waneliseka ngokuthetha nam ngobubele: Ewe, ntombi yam, ndiza kuthetha nomlawuli wam ngayo, kwaye ukuba kukho nasiphi na isono kuloo nto, asiyi kuphinda siyenze. Uye wandivuma oko wavumayo kwaye wenzela isohlwayo. Ngoko ke, Bawo, injongo kunye nomcimbi bezisoloko zindithuthuzela kule nto yokugqibela yokungathobeli umama.

 

 

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Ukufa kukayise; ukunxaxha kwasebutsheni bakhe.

Malunga neli xesha ukusweleka kukabawo olihlwempu kwenzeka, okwandivisa ubuhlungu obukhulu kwaza kwandenza ndaphalala iinyembezi; kuba bendimthanda nyhani. Ndathatha ithuba lokubuyela ngakumbi kum kwaye ndacinga ngokukhusela usindiso lwam kwikamva. Ngoko ke, Bawo, le minyaka mibini ukususela ekubuyeleni kwam kuThixo, ngaphandle kokuphawulwa naluphi na ubabalo olungaqhelekanga, idlule kakuhle kakhulu kwaye yanika ithemba ngekamva; ubuncinane, kwakungekho nokwenzeka ukuba eli xesha laliza kulandelwa kungekudala yihambo eyayinokundenza ndimlibale ngokupheleleyo uThixo wam nezimo zam zokuqala ngakuye.

Ndandisele ndisondele kunyaka wam wamashumi amabini, ixesha elibalulekileyo lokulunga, ukuba nje ndibhencekile; ixesha eliyingozi, xa iinkanuko zizenza ngamandla; kwaye uThixo uyayazi indlela endiye ndangqingwa ngayo ngokukhawuleza. Ndandiselula, ndomelele yaye ndikwiminyaka yokuphangela. Njengoko kwakungenakwenzeka ukuba ndiphile ngaphandle kolu ncedo, kwafuneka ndizibhaqe sele ndisebenza ezilalini nolutsha lwesini sozibini, lukhululekile ngezenzo ingakumbi ngokwamazwi. Ngeminqweno edlamkileyo njengam, yintoni intombazana encinci yakuloo minyaka engatyhilekanga kolu hlobo lomsebenzi kunye nokuzonwabisa, ngakumbi ukuba idemon yokungcola ibandakanyeka! kwaye ayikhe isilele ukuba yeyo, inxalenye. Hayi indlela eziyingozi ngayo iincoko zoMtyholi! ukuba  imidlalo

yaye intsini ezizibangelayo zibulwaphulo-mthetho, yaye abo bafak’ isandla kuzo banetyala phantse bengaqondanga!

Ndeva ephindaphinda ezindlebeni zam la magama amdaka aneentsingiselo ezimbini, la magama akrwada okanye athetha ngokulinganayo enza kwiingcinga zam ezona mvakalelo ziyingozi kakhulu apho kwenzeka ukuba yonke into ibe yingozi kum, kwanezona zinto zingakhathaliyo. Iindlebe zam zazisoloko zothuswa yaye zingcoliswe ziintetho ezingcolileyo zalo lonke uhlobo. Ngamanye amaxesha amazwi athukayo, ngamanye amaxesha anyelise, ngamanye amaxesha i-calumnies okanye iingxelo zobuxoki, kwaye phantse yonke into emdaka yayizivuselela iincoko zaba bancinci benkululeko. Gweba indlela umtyholi asebenzise ngayo kum!

Ekuqaleni ndandifuna ukuma ndiqinile; kodwa ukuqina kwam akuzange kuhlale ixesha elide ngokuchasene nomsinga womzekelo ombi kwaye ngaphezu kwako konke ngokuchasene nomnqweno othile wokukholisa nokwamkelwa, intlonipho yomntu eyandenza ndoyike njengelishwa elikhulu lokubonwa ngeliso elibi, ukubizwa ngokuba umntu okhohlakeleyo, okhohlakeleyo, umhanahanisi okanye umntu ozinikele ngobuxoki.

Ngaloo ndlela, ikratshi nentlonipho yomntu yayizizixhobo ezibini esasetyenziswa ngusathana ukulitshabalalisa ngokupheleleyo eli gama lokuthozama endandizingca ngalo de kube ngoko. Kuqinisekile ukuba ngokwemvelo asikuthandi ukuzibona sigatywe yaye sideliwe ngabo sihlala nabo nesimele siphile nabo. Kancinci kancinci iindlebe zam zaqhela ukuva amazwi ahlabayo naqhankqalazayo aqale andenza intloni. Umlomo wam wade waqhela ukuziphinda. Ngokucacileyo, ndaba yintlekisa, ndinomona, ndingenasimilo, nangona ndandisenokuthandabuza nokumodareyitha okuthile. Iinkanuko zazimfamekise kakhulu ukuqonda kwam kangangokuba andizange ndikwazi ukwahlula iimbono zokuqala zokholo, ukuqiqa, kunye nengqiqo eqhelekileyo. Ndacinga, umzekelo, ukuba yena kwakungekho bubi ekunyeliseni ummelwane, ukuba apho kuthetha inyaniso kuphela. Ngaloo ndlela, ndandisoyika ukunyeliswa kuphela, yaye ndasusa ukunyelisa kwelo nani izono  Noko ke kufunyenwe isidima sam

ethandeka ngakumbi, ngenxa yokuba wayengenaburhalarhume, oko kukuthi, esusiwe kubungendawo. Ke ngoko, ngokusetyenziswa okuqhelekileyo kakhulu, bendicingelwa ukuba ndilunge ngakumbi ngokomlinganiselo njengoko bendingaphantsi.

 

Ukuzisola kwakhe. Umzobo ocacileyo weengozi apho ulutsha olungenalwazi luvezwa khona, ngakumbi ngokumalunga nobunyulu.

Izulu elihle! Bendingenako na ukugqithisela, ukuba ubabalo lundishiyile ngokupheleleyo! kwaye kweyiphi imeko emanyumnyezi ekufuneka isidalwa singonwabanga kangako phambi koThixo, isazela siyimfama ngokwaneleyo ukuba sibambe ukukhululwa kuphela kumphandle wolwaphulo-mthetho,

ingaphakathi (ndithetha ingcinga, mhlawumbi yentando), eyenza bonke ubukhulu phambi kwamehlo ahlambulukileyo  ongunaphakade  !. Ungakholelwa  ,

uBawo, kwaye abo ngokukodwa, ehlabathini, basalandela isicwangciso sokuziphatha esinjalo, abayi kuthabatha konke oku ngenxa yokugqithisa isazela esikhwankqisayo ngokungafanelekanga kwaye singenayo ingozi! Ah! Ndiyababongoza, ukuba balahle okomzuzwana lo mgaqo umbi, ukuba baqwalasele kunye nam into efunekayo kumphefumlo ongumKristu kunye nesimilo sawo kunye nazo zonke iingenelo onetyala ngazo kuthando lukaThixo wawo, kwaye ndinobuganga bokuthi bakholelwa ukuba abayi kukwazi ukunceda ekuvumeni ukuba ndiye ndaphila, njengokuba bona ngokwabo mhlawumbi besenza, kubumfama obubulalayo kangangokuba bekuya kuthabatha iinyembezi zegazi ukuyilila (1).

(1) Nangona le meko yayiyingozi kwaye iyingozi kangakanani kuThixo, apho uDade azingcikiva ngayo, kwaye azityhola ngayo apha ngenguquko engaka, ukuba sinikela ingqalelo kuyo, siya kubona ukuba ubabalo kunye noloyiko. yeNkosi ibisoloko imgcina kwimida ethile; kangangokuba akazange anike, anditsho nakuphi na ukukhala okugqithisileyo, kodwa nakweliphi na ityala okanye isenzo solwaphulo-mthetho ngokufanelekileyo esibizwa. Uyathandabuza ukuba ukhe wafuna ukucaphukisa uThixo; singakuthandabuza njengaye. Yintoni eqinisekileyo kukuba obu bumfama bubulalayo, ezi ziphoso zibangelwa, ezi ziphoso, ezi zenzo zokungabuleli, ezi zenzo zolwaphulo-mthetho.nto leyo ayicekisayo ngobukrakra obungaka, ingaphantse idlulele kwizinto ezintle emehlweni abantu abaninzi behlabathi abaphila ngokuzolileyo nabangenazo nokuzisola kwimikhwa yobugebenga. Uvela phi lo mahluko ? Kukuba uthando noloyiko lweNkosi lubone, ngesibane sokholo, izenzo zolwaphulo-mthetho ezinkulu, ukungabi nambulelo okuvukelayo, apho umoya wehlabathi ufumanisa izinto ezingenamsebenzi nezilula. Yiyiphi kwezi zimbini engalunganga?

 

 

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Ewe, Bawo, ndiyaphinda, ubumfama bam obubulalayo buye bathatha izono zangaphakathi njengento engento. Ndandikholelwa ngokwenene, ngokomzekelo, ukuba kwakuya kuba nzima ukuba, ukuziphindezela  . Ndandicinga ukuba kukho  isono

ukunxila okanye ukwenza ukungcola nangasiphi na isenzo; kodwa andizange ndikholelwe ukuba bekuya kuba yinto embi ukuthetha ngayo ngokuzithandela kuwe, ngaphandle kokuba umntu wayeka apho, njengoko ndenzayo, kwaye umntu akazange enze nantoni na ngaphandle, njl.

Yintoni, ndibuza kwakhona, ayivezwa yonke imihla intombazana ehluphekileyo engenalwazi, engenawo omnye umgaqo wokuziphatha ngaphandle kwemigaqo yobuxoki?

kwaye kuyingozi? Yintoni aza kuyichasa kwiingozi ezinikezelwa lihlabathi kuwo onke amanyathelo? Hayi, ukuba zininzi izirhintyelo ezibekelwe ubumsulwa bakhe! Mingaphi imilo yokuxhasa! Zingaphi iindibano idemon yokungcola engaziyo ukuba ingalithatha njani ithuba lokuhlasela isidima sayo esibuthathaka!...

Amahenyukazi, amahenyukazi, amatsha kunye namaxhego, aya kumhlasela ngeendlela zonke, azulazule ngandlela zonke, ukuba alweyise ukuqina kwakhe, abe noloyiso phezu kokuthozama kwakhe. Ziya kuzihlola iintshukumo zakhe namazwi akhe; baya kuluhlolisisa utyekelo lwakhe; baya kwenza ngathi bama kwicala lakhe, ukungena kuzo zonke iimbono zakhe, bathande iiprojekthi zakhe, baze bazenze ngcono kubuhlobo bakhe, ngokuthatha indawo yakhe ebuthathaka. Ukuba inesidima, baya kuboleka isigqubuthelo sobuso bayo baze bazame ukudlala indima yaso; ukuba ayiphawuli nayiphi na, baya kuzibonakalisa bengenamdla kuyo kwaye baya kuthi wonke umntu kufuneka akhululeke kweli nqaku kwaye kungabikho mntu omele aphazamiseke. Ukuba ibonisa ukucekisa okuthile, ukukucaphukela okuthile ekuhloneleni, abayi kusilela ukusiqhwabela izandla isimo sengqondo esithandeka kakhulu kubo.

Ewe, Bawo, kwaye makungabikho mntu uthandabuza oko okomzuzwana, akukho bantu bachaswa kangaka kwaye baphikisana njengehenyukazi elinamava. uzama ukuphumelela: ukuba uyaqaphela ngaphezu kwako konke, njengoko benditshilo, ukuba umntu unomdla wokungakholelwa, akayi kusilela ukufaka amathandabuzo kuye, ngokuhlasela phambi kwakhe iinyaniso ezisisiseko zokholo, iimfundiso inkolelo iyimfuneko ngokupheleleyo kusindiso: eyisekile ukuba akanazo ezinye iindlela ezisebenzayo kunokususa nokubhangisa izoyikiso ezisindisayo zonqulo, uya kuyihlekisa kakhulu ngokoyika isihogo okanye imigwebo kaThixo; uya kuba kunye naye onzulu okanye odlalayo, ongenangqondo okanye ohanahanisayo, njengoko ebona kufanelekile ngakumbi kwizicwangciso zakhe, kwaye le yinto emele ilindelwe kuwo onke amadoda kolu rhwebo, maye! baninzi kakhulu kunokuba umntu ecinga ngeli xesha lokungabi namava nobumfama.

Ewe, aba bangenangqondo baya kuxhaphaza bonke ngaxeshanye, ukuze balulukuhle, ukulunga kwalo, ukungabi nangqiqo kwalo, ukungazi kwalo, intembeko yalo, nenkanuko yalo, nobuhlwempu bayo obo, ngokubeka usindiso lomphefumlo wayo, kwanobugonyamela. ixabiso lemali. Mingaphi imizekelo umntu angenakuyifumana, kwaye andinayo na kum! kwaye nangona, phantse, kungekho mntu, enkosi kuThixo, owakhe waya kude ngoku malunga nam, ndiza kucaphula inqaku elinye, elingqina phantse yonke le nto ndigqiba kuyithetha. Yeyona ngozi icacileyo eyakha yavezwa imbeko yam. Ndimema abantu abatsha abangekabi nanamava ukuba baxhamle kulo; baya kubona ukuba badinga kangakanani  na

ukuba balumkele, ukuba bafuna ukugcina ubutyebi obuxabisekileyo bobumsulwa babo, nokuba ngokubanzi bafanele bathembele kuphela, kule ngongoma ecekethekileyo, abantu abambalwa kakhulu, ndingatsho ukuba akukho namnye. Kodwa ke Bawo njengokuba sele kuhlwile namhlanje, kwaye sendithethe ngokwaneleyo, sizakuyibekela bucala kude kube yiseshoni elandelayo, ukuba awukhathali. Ndivumele ndikushiye.

 

Isidima sakhe siyahlaselwa. Amandla abaleka ngawo kwaye abaleke ingozi.

“Egameni loYise, loNyana neloMoya oyiNgcwele. NgoYesu, njl. »

Kwidolophana yethu kwakukho umhlolo othile, oneminyaka engaphezu kwamashumi amahlanu ubudala, owayedume ngobulumko nobukrelekrele; ngovuyo ngewayegqalwe njengeyona ndoda ilungileyo noyena mKristu ubalaseleyo kwirhamente iphela. Kangangexesha elithile wayesoloko equqa endlwini kabawo, yaye kwakusiba njalo xa ndilapho; ngokuba, ukuba bendingekho,

 

 

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abafane bame apho. Ingqalelo yakhe ayizange indicaphukise. Ngelo xesha ndandineminyaka elishumi elinesibhozo okanye elinesithoba ubudala, kwaye ndithanda ukudlala kakhulu. Ungandixelela ukuba ndifanele ndiyithiye inkampani enyanisekileyo. Ingakhange ibe ngumphunga, le ndoda yayichwayite nangakumbi kunam; undihlekise ngobugqwirha bakhe namabali akhe amafutshane awaziyo ukubalisa ngesiqholo esithile esongeza ubulawu kuzo, engakhange agqithe ngaphaya kwemida yesidima. Kuba, Bawo, ngakumbi ngelo xesha, neyona nkululeko incinane yokuthetha ibiya kundivukela; kwaye ukuba kuyimfuneko ukuthetha okulungileyo kunye nokubi, kufuneka ndivume inyaniso ukuba, nakanye ubomi bam, andikhange ndihlupheke kuye nabani na isenzo esincinci, nangona sinesidima kancinci, inkululeko encinci, nangona ingenasimilo. Ewe, ndingatsho ukuba nokuqhelana nokungaqondanga ngokukhawuleza kwakunokubangela ukuba umfana agxothwe, nto leyo emele ukuba yayindilahlekele (1).

(1) Esi sivumo sinyanisekileyo sikaDade kwanele, ngokokubona kwam, ukubonisa ukuba kufuneka sizithathe phi zonke izinto ezimbi asele esixelele zona ngaye, kunye noko asasixelela kona.

Lo mfelwa undibonise ubuhlobo bobubele obumsulwa ekungekho mntu wayecinga ukuba akanabubele kuye ekhaya. Sonke sasivuyiswa kukuba naye. Ngubani obenokuthi, Bawo, le ndoda ingamanyala, isebenzise ubutshijolo, ibeke ubulungisa obungaka ekuthetheni kwayo, noko ibiyintliziyo eyonakeleyo; ukuba emazantsi omphefumlo wakhe wayenoyilo olugqwethekileyo, endingenalo nencinane ingcamango, yokuba abazali bam babeya kuzingcikiva ngenxa yokurhanela, mhlawumbi, maye! ukuba akaziboni? Kuba ngubani na onokubuqonda ubumfama nenkxwaleko yomntu kule ngongoma, kwaye kulula kangakanani kwaye kuqhelekile kangakanani ukuba azikhohlise  ?...

Kukangaphi na ukungabi nangqiqo kuphembe umlilo esingawaziyo, okanye kuvuselele lowo besicinga ukuba ucinyiwe; yabangela, ekugqibeleni, imililo, apho kungakhange kubonakale ukuba bekukho nasiphi na isizathu sokoyika nantoni na! Kunzima kakhulu ukuzazi, kwaye phantse ngalo lonke ixesha umntu uzibona engenatyala kunokuba enjalo ngokwenene.

Ngenye imini wasebenzisa ithuba lokungabikho kukamama wandihlebela endlebeni amagama athile endingawaqondiyo kwaphela intsingiselo yawo, waza wongeza izimbo ezithile endiye ndaziqonda nangakumbi, kangangokuba ndaye ndasusa nakuphi na ukukrokreleka okubi. ngokuchasene naye. ndahleka kodwa kuba ndandihleka, kwaye ndayithatha yonke loo nto. Yaba yimpazamo endiyenzileyo; kodwa impazamo yayiyinto ebonakalayo kum. Yayibubulula okanye ubudenge, njengoko uthanda; kodwa umhanahanisi akabanga thuba lide ekundiboniseni ukuba uwuthathele kwelinye icala lo mbandela, wasuka wazigweba ngokwakhe. Ukususela ngelo xesha wahlola kuphela ithuba lokundifumana ndedwa; wazichaza. Umama wandithuma ngenye intsasa ukuba ndiye kwalusa iinkomo zethu ethafeni elikufuphi nendlu yomhlolokazi wethu. Wandifumana apho, wabuza iindaba zam, esondela kum ngomoya opholileyo. Uye wahlala ngokukhululekileyo kanye kule ndawo bendihleli kuyo. Ndiqaphele ukuba ujonge kwaye uthetha ngokukhululekileyo kunesiqhelo. Wayesafuna ukundicaphukisa; kodwa intlekisa yakhe, edibene namazwi athile ahlekisayo, yandikrokrela kwaye yandenza ndazikrokrela iinjongo zakhe. Wayefuna ukundinika imali; wandinika izipho; Ndala yonke into, ndisithi akukho nto andityala yona; ukuba izipho zakhe bendingazidingi, nokuba andisazi isizathu sokuba andinike zona. enikelwe.

Ngelixa ndandiyinqanda indlela yakhe, kwaye ndigxotha imidlalo yezandla zakhe, ndacinga ukuba ndeva umntu othile esithi kum ngamandla : Phuma apha, kungenjalo ndiza kukushiya; baleka, baleka, ixesha liyahamba kwaye ingozi inkulu ngenxa yokuba msulwa kwakho ... Eli lizwi, elivakalayo lisuka emazantsi omphefumlo wam, ngokuwavula ngokupheleleyo amehlo am engozini, landinika, ukuba ndiyiphephe, isantya esimangalisayo kwaye amandla omzimba, endicinga ukuba, amadoda amathathu okanye amane ayengenako

engachaswanga. Ngomzamo nje omnye ndasinda okombane ezandleni zaleli lishwa injongo yakhe yayingasekho ngqiqweni, ekubeni wayibhengeza  ngokucacileyo (1).

 

(1) Abanye abavavanyi beencwadana bandixelele ukuba bayifumene le adventure incinci kakhulu, kunye nezinye iingxelo zesityhilelo esichukumisa umthetho wesithandathu, iingozi zomtshato, njl. Ndiyazilungisa izicamango zabo, ndiwacekise amacebo abo; kodwa baya kundivumela ukuba ndibaxelele ukuba yayingendim ndedwa owayecinga ngendlela eyahlukileyo kuzo zonke ezi ngongoma. Ndade ndakholelwa ukuba uThixo wayevumele kuphela, mhlawumbi wade wachaza ezi nkcukacha zoDade, kuphela ngenxa yokulunga kokomoya kwabantu abaninzi abazifumana bekulezi zikhundla zahlukeneyo, kwaye ngubani oya kukwazi ukufumana imithetho, izilumkiso, kwaye imodeli yokuziphatha. Ngaba simele silinde ngoko, ukuze sihlale silindile, side sibe senze ububi ngamava? kwaye yintoni esinokuyibeka emngciphekweni ukuze siyifumane Phambilini kuhambo oluqhelekileyo nemigibe yedemon yokungcola, ongaze aloyise bhetele kunaxa efumana ukungeva kuhlanganiswe nokulula? Ngaba siya kutyhola uloyiko lokubacaphukisa ngokubayalela? Oku kwakhona ngumgibe walo moya ungcolileyo, othi oku kungazi kuthande ngaphezu kokuba sicinga. Ngaphandle koko, ngoko, zingaphi izicatshulwa ezivela kuBaseki BeCawa, ababhali ababalaseleyo, kwaneZibhalo Ezingcwele, esingafanele sizicande? Isilingo sikaYosefu onyulu, uhlaselo awathi uSuzanne ococekileyo wabandezeleka kumadoda amabini amadala adume kakubi, njl. UMoya oyiNgcwele wacinga ngenye indlela apha, njengalapho, singamlandela  .

 

Kungoko ke, Bawo, ukuba ukungakhathali kwam kutyhileke, njengoko senditshilo, uzuko lwam kweyona ngozi inkulu endakha ndazifumana ndikuyo, nendasinda kuyo kuphela, njengoko ubonayo, ngoncedo olukhethekileyo. ezulwini. Hayi! bangaphi abantu abatsha abaye baphukelwa yinqanawa apho

 

 

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kunobu bubudenge, obungayiboniyo ngokwaneleyo ingozi, engayithembiyo? Bangaphi abaphulukene ngokungenakubuyiseka kuphela ngenxa yokuphatha njengento engenamsebenzi amanyathelo athile angenangqondo, imidlalo ethile, intlebendwane ethile ezenza ngathi msulwa, kwaye abakhokele ngokungaqondakaliyo ukusuka kwi-banter ukuya ekuhluthweni, ukusuka ekuvinjweni ukuya kwilayisensi, ukusuka kwilayisensi.

ukuya kulwaphulo-mthetho, kulwaphulo-mthetho ukusa kumkhwa, ukusuka kumkhwa ukusa ekubeni lukhuni, ekugqibeleni ukusuka ekubeni lukhuni ukusa ekumlahleni uThixo, okukhokelela kwishwangusha lokugqibela!

Kubaluleke kakhulu ke ngoko, Bawo, ukuba akwalele konke ukungena kutshaba olunobuqhophololo, ungamniki nto kuyo yonke into enokwala ngayo. Kunye naye, ndikholelwe, akukho kwangabom okanye ukugoba, kuba akakwazi ukugcina ubungcathu. Ukuba uthe wamnika unyawo lomhlaba omnye, uya kuthatha ezimbini, ezintathu, ezine, njl. Okokugqibela ukuba awumlahlekanga msinyane uya kuphulukana nawe.Izakwenza ntoni intombi ehlwempuzekileyo ngaphandle kokungathembani, elapha, ngaphezu kweyiphi na indawo, umama wokhuseleko? Ebophelelekile ukuba ahlale neentshaba zakhe ezifungelweyo, ukuba uya kubuya ube yintoni na kwakhona, ukuba uthe akaqhubeki ewabekela indlebe amanyathelo akhe; ukuba akayeki ukuzibandakanya nobulumko benyoka kubulula behobe? Ekugqibeleni, ndiza kuthetha ngokucacileyo, yintoni uncedo olungafunekiyo! Luluphi na ubabalo olungafunekiyo kuye, ukuba abe nyulu, phakathi kweSodom; Ndithetha phakathi kwehlabathi elonakeleyo, apho yonke into iphefumla ubumnandi kwaye ikwenza uginye ityhefu; ngakumbi kumazwe athile, apho iingozi isezezona zinkulu

!....

Ngethamsanqa ndasinda, kwaye ngokungathi kungommangaliso, kowona mngcipheko mkhulu wobomi bam, ndandingasaloyiki utshaba lwam, nokuba kuyafuneka ukubaleka ndiluhlasele okanye ndizikhusele. Bendivutha ngumsindo endingazaziyo kuwo: ndibone ukuba, ubhidekile, uhleli ndaweninye, akabi nabuganga bakundilandela, ndema ngeenyawo ezilishumi elinesihlanu ukuya kumashumi amabini ukuze ndimbethe ngezithuko ndimxelele yonke into efikayo. umlomo wam ngexesha lokuvutha komsindo wam. Andizange ndithethe kangako nakubani na; yaye ukuba wayezame ukusebenzisa ugonyamelo, ndikholelwa ukuba ngendandibe nesibindi sokumkhupha, ngoko ndandivutha ngumsindo nxamnye naye. Ndamthembisa ukuba andisoze ndimthembe nakweyiphi na into esehlabathini, ndaza ndasigcina isithembiso sam. Ucinga ntoni Bawo ngomsindo wam nokuncoma kwam?

Ndibone ukuba lo Sister ulindele impendulo phambi kokuba aqhube, ndaphantse ndazama oku: Ndiyacinga, ntombam, ukuba ngalo mzuzu umsindo wakho usuke waba ngumsebenzi obalulekileyo kuwe, ngenxa yezizathu osandul 'ukundixelela.

Ke zona izithuko ebeninokumsindisa ngazo, ekubeni ihambo yenu yanele, ndizigqala njengesiyalo esinamandla, isiluleko esilungileyo, ebesimfanelekele kakhulu, ekuthe kwafuneka axhamle kuso. Yayibubulungisa obuncinane ukuba umhlawule ngokufanelekileyo kakhulu, nonokuthi ngokufanelekileyo umenze abuyele ezingqondweni, ngokuvakalisa kuye ngendlela enamandla ngakumbi lonke uloyiko owaluvayo kuyilo lwakhe olungendawo; Andiqondi ukuba unokuzibeka ityala ngayo. Ngamanye amaxesha sityala olu hlobo lwezipho kummelwane wethu, ngakumbi xa enesidingo esinjalo.

kubonakala ukuba lo wayenayo. Ngoko ke, luxanduva, endaweni yokuba sisenzo sokugqwesa. Zingaphi iinkululeko ebeziya kulungiswa ukuba bebengazange babenanto ngaphandle kolwamkelo olunjalo! Kodwa ngelishwa kukho abathile abathe kratya, nabazazela zabo zibuthathaka kakhulu ukuba bangacaphuka  kwiimeko ezinjalo. Oku akubathinteli ekubandakanyekeni kwezinye iindibano ezininzi, apho kuya kufuneka kuphela umonde; kodwa kulo msindo mnye kubonakala ukuba  sisono esikhulu kakhulu kubo.

Masibuyele kulento indikhathazayo, waphazamisa lo Sister; kuba, Bawo, ndineziphoso ezininzi kakhulu endinokuzihlambalaza ngazo ukuze ndimise kwezo abanye banokuba netyala ngazo, kwaye kufuneka ndicinge ngokuzizisa kum eli tyala. Yeha! Bawo, ubomi bam benkululeko busekude ukuba buphele. Ke ngoko masiyiqalise kwakhona imbali engathandekiyo yayo kwindawo esasikuyo ngaphambi kokuphambuka okusandula kusixabela.

 

Iimpazamo apho uDade azigxekayo: amampunge, ukuchithwa, njl.

Akuzange kuphinde kubekho amadabi kum ngaphandle nje kweemvakalelo ezahlukeneyo. Ndandinomona ngobutyebi bamanye amantombazana kunye nempahla, yaye maxa wambi nembono entle esasiba nayo ngawo. Kwakunzima ukuba ndiphephe ukunxulumana namadoda ngaphandle nje kokoyika ukuhlaziswa, oko kukuthi, ngebathethe kakubi ngawo njengoko ayenzile kwabanye, yaye ngaloo ndlela ndandiphulukene nodumo oluhle endandithanda ukulihlaba. mna. Nangona ndandikuthanda ukudanisa, ndandingafane ndidanise, kuba mna

 

 

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buhlungu, kwaye ngendlela yokuba ndinganeliseki ubungangamsha bam obuncinane, okanye kunokuba ngamampunge am obudenge.

Ngaloo ndlela yayisoloko ikratshi nokuzithanda okwalathisa onke amanyathelo am, yaye ndandisilwa ububi omnye nomnye, njengabo bonke abangaluthabathiyo ukholo kwisibane sabo, okanye iVangeli. Ngamanye amaxesha ndandikhutshiwe ukuya kwinqanaba lokugqibela. Ndafunda iincwadi ezimbi, oko kukuthi iincwadi zokuzonwabisa, ezazichasene kunokuba zithande unqulo nokuziphatha. Ndakhe ndayiboleka kwaba kanye komnye wabalingane bam; Ndangcikivwa ngenxa yoko ndisivuma isono sam. Andi

Andizange ndinikele ingqalelo kuyo nayiphi na imigaqo. Isibhakabhaka esithandekayo! owayenokuthi, Bawo, ndikubona konke okwakusenzeka kum, ngaloo maxesha angonwabanga, ndenziwa ukuba ngunongendi; yayiyindawo uThixo awayendibekele yona

iphawulwe, nokuba intliziyo efana neyam, kude lee ekoyikeni kwakhe nothando lwakhe, kufuneka noko kunjalo izixele ukuba yeyakhe ngonaphakade?... Hayi indlela olunge ngayo, hayi indlela othandeka ngayo, Thixo wezidima! ndivume ngonaphakade iinceba zakho, xa uzigqibile iingenelo zakho, ngokuthwesa izipho zakho! Kodwa masiqhubeke.

 

Sicinga ukumtshata. Amasikizi akhe.

Uyazi, Bawo, ukuba amantombazana ahlwempuzekileyo asemaphandleni, ukuba nje anamandla kwaye ekwazi ukusebenza kakuhle, afumana indlela yokutshata ngokukhawuleza kunabo batyebileyo, kuba kukho inani elikhulu lamaqela alungiselelwe ubutyebi babo. Ngoko ke ayimangalisi into yokuba abanye beze kum, kwaye abanye ndingazange ndingabi namdla. Umfana oselula, phakathi kwabanye, osisilumko gqitha, wayendifanela ngakumbi yaye wandonwabisa kakhulu, engazange abe nencoko engqalileyo naye ngelo nqaku. Ndandivakalelwa kukuba ndimthanda ngaphezu kwabanye. Kwanangaphambi kokuba utata asweleke, sasisenzela yena iindlela ezahlukahlukeneyo zokuthetha nabazali bam. Kwakukho izicelo, izibongozo, izithembiso; kodwa yintoni omele uyiqaphele,

Mandivume nakuwe Bawo ukuba phezu kwayo yonke inkxwaleko endiyivayo emntwini, qho xa kuthethwa nam ngokunzulu ngomtshato, ndifikelwa yingxaki eyoyikekayo ngaphakathi kwam, okanye ndithini, Ndiyazi into endingenakuphendula ngayo, kwaye akukho mntu unokuyiqonda, nangona wonke umntu wayeyiqaphela. Yayilizothe elithile, elingathi alinakoyiswa, elandibamba ngephanyazo, laza landisusa ukuphefumla nokuthetha, lindenza nditshintshe umbala, ndiguliswe luloyiko noloyiko  .

Ndaxola ke xa ndibona yonke into engekhoyo, ndaye ndanomona, ndade ndaphelelwa luxolo ngabantu abatsha xa ndingavumi. Ekugqibeleni, ndandisele ndiyinto engaqondakaliyo nangakumbi kuba uThixo wayengekandazi ngemiphumo yalo mlo uqhubekayo phakathi kwendalo nobabalo, nto leyo emenza azibone enjengamadoda amabini alwayo.

emntwini omnye, ngakumbi xa ingelosi kaSathana ijoyina indalo kwaye iyisebenzisela ukusiqhwaba.

Kodwa, Bawo, nokuba ziziphi na izikhanyiso andinike zona uThixo ukususela kuyo yonke le nto, ndiya kuhlala ndinjalo, njengoko bendihlala ndinjalo, ndingumqobo kum nakwabanye abaninzi.

Andikuqondi, dade wethu , watsho omnye wabavumayo kum ngenye imini, wathetha nam ngoThixo njengengelosi, kwaye uthetha kum ngawe njengedemoni; Andiqondi  nanye  kule Ah  !

kukuba lo mbandela wawahluke kakhulu, nokuba macala omabini ndazama ukulandela inyaniso endayiboniswa; leyo yayiyimfihlelo yonke awayengayiqondi. Kodwa masiwuthabathe kwakhona umsonto webali lam elilusizi; ngokuba, yeha! Bawo ixesha lokuguqulwa kwam alikafiki, ukuba ndingatsho ukuba likhe lafika ngokugqibeleleyo, kwaye ukuba ndingoyiki ukuba soze lifike, njengoko bendisoloko ndiyifuna.

 

Iingcamango ezibubuxoki awathi uDade wazenza kwisiphithiphithi seminqweno yakhe. Iinkanuko, ekuphela komqobo elukholweni.

Kule meko ilusizi, bendinombono ogwenxa wezona  zinto zicacileyo nezicacileyo. Bendiya kuthi, ukuze ndithethe, ndingayiqondi imigaqo yokuqala yomthetho wendalo, kangangokuba iinkanuko zam zaziphazamisa onke amandla omphefumlo wam; ewe, nditsho ukuba ndihlazeke kwaye ndiguquke, ubumfama bam babunjalo, kangangokuba kwiminyaka elishumi elinesithoba ndandinokukhanya okuncinane kakhulu kokucalula okulungileyo nokubi, ndingasathethi ke ngolwazi kwizinto zikaThixo nosindiso, endandinalo xa Ndandineminyaka esixhenxe okanye esibhozo ubudala. Ngaba sifanele simangaliswe, emva koko, kukunxaxha okungenakucingeleka, kwimiba yenkolelo, yamadoda amaninzi kangaka awahlulwe ngolwazi lwawo kuzo zonke ezinye iindawo, xa kanye bazivumelayo ukuba balawulwe yiminqweno yabo  ?

UZibani-bani, kuthiwa, akakholelwa, akanankolo, ukanti unolwazi: uhlakaniphile, uyingqondi.

 

 

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Ngethuba nje uthanda; kodwa ufuna ukugqiba ngelithini? Yeyiphi ingqikelelo entle onokuthi uyifumane ekungakholelwani kwakhe ngokuchasene noko kuninzi okanye inkolo ayigatyayo? Ukuze agwebe ngokufanelekileyo, ingqondo yakhe yayiza kuba njalo

ukhululekile kweli cala kwaye unokubona izinto ngokwembono yazo yokwenyani. Kodwa hayi, ukutshiseka kuye kuyasitha ingqiqo nezibane zengqiqo; lucima ingqiqo, lwenza buthuntu onke amandla endalo, lumenza abe neentloni umntu, njengoko iSibhalo sisitsho, udidi lwesilwanyana esingaziqondiyo izinto zikaThixo okanye usindiso. Ayikwazi ukuphakama ngaphezu kokufikelela kwiimvakalelo, uthanda kuphela kwaye uyayiqonda into ehambelana nayo. 18 Ke zona izinto ezizezokholo, zintlanga kuye, ziyinto entsonkothileyo kuye, athi, akaboni nto kuyo, zizimvo zisezandleni. Apho kudla ngokwenzeka ukuba abona babona ngqondo zilungileyo ngabantu benkolo, kodwa abantwana abaninzi, masithi ngcono, ukungazi ngakumbi kunabo bangazi nto ngokwabo. ekubeni oku kungazi kuqhelekile kubo kunye neyokuqala. Basakuchasa konke ukungafuni kweminqweno yabo yokuvuma ukuba yintoni ebacinezelayo kwaye sesiphi isizathu esingenakuqondwa. Ewe, Bawo, qiniseka ngayo, ukuba zisuse iinkanuko ezisentliziyweni yomntu, ususa yonke imiqobo elukholweni, ulwenze ubuKristu; Ke zona iinkanuko zenyama, nibatshabhise abangakholwayo, ngokuba iinkanuko zamehlo ziphela ukungakholwa.

Le yinto endaye ndadibana nayo kabuhlungu (1).

 

(1) Ikwayingcinga yenye yeembongi zethu kolu didi luhle, apho isixelela khona: ... Ukuba yonke inkululeko ihamba ngocwangco, kunye nesimilo sayo sokwenyani.

kukutyibilika, ngokwamanqanaba, ityhefu yawo isuka kwizivamvo iye entliziyweni, isuka entliziyweni iye kwingqiqo. (J.-B. Rouss., ileta eya kuM. Racine).

 

Ndiye ndacinga, Bawo, kwaye ngaba singayidelela ngokwaneleyo! Ndandicinga ukuba kukuthanda uThixo ngokwaneleyo ukuba ndingamthiyi; ukuba ubani unokholo ngaphandle kokunyanzeleka ukuba azikholelwe zonke iingongoma zenkolelo iBandla elizicebisayo kubantwana bayo; ukuba umntu angazisindisa ngokholo oluphangaleleyo noluqikelelwayo, ngaphandle

yenza kube nzima ukuyinciphisa ekusebenzeni; ukuba imisebenzi elungileyo, ke ngoko, ayifuneki elusindisweni; ukuba kwanele ukunqula uThixo entliziyweni yomntu, ngaphandle kokuthobela naluphi na uqheliselo lonqulo; nokuba izibhambathiso zobhaptizo zinganyanzelisi ubani ukuba alahle imilinganiselo yehlabathi; nokuba amahlwempu nabo babandezelekileyo abonwabanga, kwaye zizityebi kuphela ezonwabileyo kwaye zifanelwe ngumona; ngubani na onokubuyela kwisenzo esilandelayo sokucaphuka, ukungakhathali ngenxa yokungakhathali, njl.

Okanye kunoko, ukuthetha ngokuthe ngqo, andizange ndicinge ngayo yonke loo nto, kwaye ndaphila ngokufanelekileyo, ngaphandle kokunikela ingqalelo encinane kuyo. Ngaloo ndlela, ndazenza ngokwam ngokwam uhlobo lwevangeli eyoyikekayo, endathi ndayibeka endaweni yeVangeli kaJ. ukholo. Ngoko

kanti ibingumthetho wam ngalo lonke eli xesha lilishwa. Ndandingazi ngokupheleleyo ukuba umphefumlo unjani na oye wafumana ilishwa lokuvuma isono. Ndandingazi ngesikhubekiso sikaThixo, okanye nemiphumo yako ngokunxulumene nathi. Ndenze ikratshi liquka ubutyebi nobukhulu, ndingakwazi ukuqonda ukuba abantu abahluphekayo banokuba nekratshi, nangona ndandingumzekelo kunye nobungqina obubonakalayo bomntu ngaphandle kwam; kuba, Bawo, ndicinga ukuba yayindim ndedwa ongabuqaphelanga obu bunzulu bekratshi endandingathi ndibunjiwe. Kwakhona ndandicinga ukuba yayizizityebi kuphela ezinokuthi iintliziyo zazo zinamathele kwizinto zasemhlabeni, ukuthanda ihlabathi namampunge. Enjani yona inkohliso! Zeziphi iimpazamo!...

 

Phezu kwako nje ukubhadula kwakhe, wayeyifeza imisebenzi yakhe yonqulo, elithanda ilizwi likaThixo, yaye equqa kwisakramente kwimibhiyozo emikhulu.

Obu bumfama bungaqhelekanga bengqondo yam, olu hlobo lokuyenza lukhuni intliziyo yam ngokuzithandela, ndibabala ngaphezu kwayo yonke into kwikratshi lam uThixo awayefuna ukulohlwaya, ekusetyenzisweni kakubi kwenceba, nasekungcoliseni eli lishwa likratshi elandenza ndazenza: Bawo, phakathi kokubhadula kwam, ndahlala ndigcina ingxowa-mali ethile yenkolo, eyayivuswa ngaphezu kwayo yonke imibhiyozo emikhulu. Ndandiyithanda imisitho yeCawa, kwaye ngaphezu kwalo lonke ilizwi likaThixo. Kodwa ngelishwa! Ukungaguquguquki kwentando yam kunikeze kum le ncasa inyumba, ndingathethi, iyingozi. Umphefumlo wam, owawusoloko unikelwa ekubhubheni, kwizinto ezingento, kwizinto ezingenamsebenzi, wafana nalaa ntsimi yamatye kwaye ngaphezu koko uvulekele ekungeneni kweentshaba zam, apho le mbewu yobungcwele ingenako ukuntshula, okanye ukumilisela iingcambu ezinzulu. Yanyathelwa ke apho, yatyunyuzwa phantsi kweenyawo zabadlulayo, yathwalwa likratshi lam, yanyathelwa kukutyekela kwam, yonakaliswa yaza yomiswa ngumlilo weminqweno yam. Yeyiphi imeko!..,.

Ndamamela ngokuvumayo eli lizwi lobuthixo, landichukumisa okomzuzwana; kodwa ngomzuzu olandelayo andizange ndiphinde ndiyicinge. Ngaloo ndlela, endaweni yokundithethelela, wandenza ndanetyala ngakumbi; endaweni yokuba andiguqule, wandiqinisa ngakumbi nangakumbi; endaweni

 

 

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ukuzisa usindiso lwam, kwaba ngumthombo wokugwetywa kwam. Hayi indlela esinosizi ngayo, kwakhona, xa sisebenzisa isisa esisinikwa yiZulu! Singabala kwesiphi isibonelelo, xa oovimba bokugqibela bajikiswa kuthi ngokuxhatshazwa esibenza kubo? Owu imeko elusizi! Owu imeko emaxongo!

Nangona kunjalo, uBawo, kunye nemeko kunye nemeko endiye ndadlula kuyo ixesha elingaphezu konyaka, ndihlala ndigcina ingaphandle kunye nodumo lwentombazana enesidima, endayincoma kakhulu: ukubeka konke ukugqibelela kwam ngaphandle. ukuhlonela uThixo, ndandinomona wokungaphoswa nanye umthendeleko wezidlo ezilungileyo okanye ubuzalwana, yaye ndandithabatha iintlungu ezincinane kakhulu ukuze ndizilungiselele kakuhle ndize ndifumane isiqhamo kuyo. Ngobumfama ndithatha umzekeliso njengenyani, ndazicenga ngaphakathi ukuba ndizinikele kwaye ndilungile, ngelixa emazantsi ndandingumhanahanisi kunye nengcwaba eliqatywe mhlophe. Mna ke ndingofileyo nje emehlweni kaThixo. Ibinjalo ke imeko yam, Bawo, xa uBoniwe engayekanga ukundilinda. undivumele ukuba ndibethwe ngophawu ongazange uve ngalo, kwaye ongazange uwufunde okanye uwubone umzekelo naphi na. Kodwa njengokuba ilixesha lokugqiba namhlanje, siyakucela, silibuyisele ibali, kwaye siya kuqala iseshoni yangomso apho. (1).

(1) Andazi ukuba abantu baya kucinga ntoni ngayo, kodwa kum kubonakala ngathi imifanekiso eyahlukeneyo uDade asandul’ ukusinika yona, ifana nabantu abaninzi kunokuba sicinga, kwaye ngenxa yoko abaninzi kakhulu banokuqondana nayo. kwaye wenze ingeniso kuyo. Naphi na apho zivela khona ezi nkcukacha, azibonakali zingenanjongo okanye zingenamsebenzi.

 

 

 

Uphawu olulodwa lomntwana oneminyaka emithathu ubudala. Isiphumo sivelisa kuSista.

“Egameni loYise, loNyana neloMoya oyiNgcwele. NgoYesu, uMariya, njl. »

Ngenye iCawe xa wayendiphathiswe ngumama, ngoxa wayekwicawa yomthendeleko, enyanyekelwa ngabantakwethu noodadewethu abancinane, ndahamba nabo ukuya kudibana nomnye wabahlobo bam, owayeyintombi yomqeshwa wempahla ephumayo. indlu ibikufuphi neyethu. Wayekwanoxanduva lokujonga usapho lwakhe oluncinci bengekho abazali bakhe. Sahlanganisa bonke abantwana ukuze bonwabe, kwaye, sihleli ecaleni komnye nomnye, sasicula iculo lothando lukaThixo. Udade wethu omncinane weqabane lam, owayeneminyaka emithathu ubudala, wayebashiyile abalingane bakhe ukuze beze kusiphulaphula ngokusondeleyo; wabamba isandla sakhe egxalabeni lam, kwaye wamamela ukucula kwethu enika ingqwalasela eyothusayo ngobudala bakhe, kunye nomoya wovuyo  ,

yokwaneliseka kunye nomdla oye wasivuselela kakhulu, kuba kwakungenakwenzeka ukuba singayiqapheli; isimo sakhe sengqondo, yonke into awayenayo yayibonisa ulwaneliseko olukhulu.

Icantile eyayimvuyisa kangaka yaphela ngala mazwi: Kwaye ukuba siyamtshisa kwezi ndawo, siya kubasa mlilo onjani emazulwini? okanye ngezinye iindinyana, kuba andizikhumbuli ncam: Ukuba ngoku sivutha ngala mlilo, siya kutshisa ngawuphi na umlilo emazulwini? Ihlala iyingcinga enye kwimvelaphi.

Into engavakaliyo neyothusayo, Bawo! Kwakunzima ukuba la mazwi okugqibela endinyana yokugqibela aculwe kunokuba, phambi kwamehlo ethu, umntwana ophulaphule waphakanyiswa emhlabeni kathathu ukuya kubude beenyawo ezintathu okanye ezine, ngaphandle kokwenza nawuphi na umzamo wokutsiba, kodwa ebambelele kumzimba othe tye, ngeenyawo  . iingalo ezoluliweyo, ubuso obudumbileyo namehlo aphakanyiselwe ezulwini. Ekwesi simo sengqondo, ngokungathi siza kusabela ekupheleni kwendinyana yethu yokugqibela, wawathetha ngokucacileyo nanamandla amakhulu la mazwi awathi andichukumisa kakhulu, nawayewaphindaphinda qho xa wayexhwilwa: Du fire of love ! lomlilo wothando! lomlilo wothando!Kuko konke ukuphindaphindwa kwala mazwi wayephakanyiswa, kwaye ngokucothayo wawa phantsi izihlandlo ezininzi, ngaphandle kokuzenzakalela: oku kwenzeka ngokulandelelanayo kwaye ixesha elide, emva koko wabuyiselwa kuye omncinci, wabaleka ukuya kuzonwabisa kunye nokudlala. kunye naye, ngaphandle kokubonakala ngakumbi. Kusenokwenzeka ukuba akakhumbuli  ngayo.

Mna nomlingane wam, saye sabethwa, sixakiwe, kangangokuba sithethe sothuswa yiloo nto sisandul’ ukuyibona, sathi cwaka sohlukana singakhange sicinge nokucinga, singathethanga nelimdaka. Ah! Bawo, hayi indlela esi siganeko sinye esibangele ukuba ndicinge ngayo, ngokundikhumbuza oko ndandikhe ndakuyo!

Ndazixelela oku, yindlela uThixo azibonakalisa ngayo kwiintliziyo ezihlambulukileyo, ngoxa abanye behluthwa inkoliseko yakhe! Ndambona, laa mphefumlo umsulwa ukholisekile emehlweni akhe, evutha ngamazwi angazange andichukumise nakancinane, ebengachukumisi ukuqina, ukungavani kwentliziyo yam. 0 ngubani na oya kundibuyisela ubumsulwa bam bokuqala! oya kundibuyisela elo xesha lokonwaba xa ndibuva ubukho boThixo wam, xa uthando lwakhe lwazivelela kum, xa ndisonwabela ubukhulu bakhe.

 

 

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bazana abasondeleyo!  Ixesha elixabisekileyo  , awusekho !. iintsuku  zethamsanqa ,

ube yintoni? ndibeyintoni na kum? Owu mthombo weenyembezi ezikrakra! Owu umbandela ongaphelelwayo wokuhlaba mhlawumbi nenguquko yanaphakade! lityala lam ukuba ndilahlekelwe yiyo yonke into! Ngokutshintsha okusesikweni uThixo uyalususa ubabalo lwakhe kwabo babaxhaphazayo, ukubanika abanye abangabeki mqobo apho....

Amaxesha amaninzi, kuyinyani, ndiye ndazinikela kwezi ngcamango zilungileyo; kodwa zazisezimilo kuphela ezisondele kancinane kuguquko lwam olupheleleyo, olungazange lufike de kwaba lixesha elithile kamva. Kwakufuneka enye into engakumbi ukutshabalalisa ulawulo lomtyholi kwaye kulungiswe uloyiso lobabalo entliziyweni ephantse yaphathwa kakubi sisono: le yindlela inceba kaThixo ibisebenza ngayo ixesha elide, ngaphandle kokutyhafiswa kukuchasa kwam, kwaye ixesha elide. ixesha, ngokunjalo, umsebenzi ubuqhubela phambili ngokungathi ngaphandle kolwazi lwam, kwaye, ngokungathi kunjalo, naphezu kwam. Ekugqibeleni kwafika loo mzuzu wolonwabo xa uThixo wathetha njengenkosi waza wayivakalisa ngokucacileyo loo ntando ekungekho nto inokuxhathisa; le ntando ethi, ngaphandle kokuthintela inkululeko yokuzikhethela yomntu, isebenzise kwayona imiqobo ukuza esiphelweni soyilo olukhulu.

 

Uguqulo olutsha lukaDade ngesihlandlo sentlokoma enkulu ka-1751. Wazinikela ngokupheleleyo kuThixo. Ukufa kukamama wakhe.

Kwaba kwakhona, Bawo, unyaka wentlokoma enkulu okanye woyekelelo oluphangaleleyo, othe wagqiba umsebenzi woguqulo lwam oqale ngeli xesha, ngokusasaza obu bubele bugqithisileyo. apho sande isono. Ndaziva ndiswele ngakumbi kunanini na ngaphambili, kwaye ndandikhathazwa sisazela sam esihlwempuzekileyo ukuba ndingalisebenzisi eli thuba litsha lokubuyela kuThixo: ke ngoko ndagqiba kwakhona ukuba ndizilungiselele ngayo yonke inyameko ukuba ndiphumelele ukonelwa kwentlokoma. . Hayi! Lwalunjani ubabalo olu kakade! Ngalo lonke ixesha lokuhlala kwezikhululo zethu ndandisiya kuvuma izono yonke imihla, kwaye kwakusele intsuku ezintathu phambi kokuba ndigqibezele uphononongo lwam apho isibhakabhaka, ekugqibeleni saloyisa ukoyisa ukuchasa kwam, sandibetha ngesibetho esimnandi esandiwisayo, njengoSaint-Paul. , endleleni eya eDamasko. Wagalela kum, ngelo xesha lolonwabo, ubabalo olunamandla noluninzi kakhulu, olwathi lwaloyisa phezu kwayo yonke into. Ngephanyazo wonke umqobo wabhukuqwa, bonke ubunzima bathi shwaka; kwakuyimfuneko ukunikezela kulowo uphumeleleyo ongakwazanga Kaninzi

ukuhlupheka ukucelwa umngeni uloyiso. Umzuzu wethamsanqa, kutheni ungezanga kwangoko!

Ngelo xesha ndandimalunga namashumi amabini anesiqingatha eminyaka ubudala, yaye oku kubetha kamnandi kwezulu kwenzeka ngenye imini ngoxa ndandixakekile, nomama noodade bam, bechola ihempe kwindawo eyinkangala okanye kwigadi yeziqhamo, kufutshane kakhulu nendlu yethu.

ukujoyina esandeni sethu. Kulapho ke Bawo ndithe ngequbuliso ndaziva ndingene ndazaliswa kukukhanya okuqaqambileyo okuthe kwandikhanyisela ingqondo kwatshintsha nentliziyo yam. Wagqiba walungisa ukungagungqi kwam ngokundixelela ukuba uThixo ufuna ntoni kum, owayezakundixolela zonke izinto zam zangaphambili aze ekugqibeleni abuyisele zonke iinceba zakhe kum.

Ngaphandle kokulibazisa okomzuzwana, ndathembisa ukuba ndiza kuba ngowakhe ngonaphakade kwaye andisayi kuphinda ndibe nentliziyo yam. Ndaba neentloni ngenxa yehambo yam yangaphambili, yaye ndakhawula uloyiko olukhulu ngalo naluphi na uhlobo lwesono kangangokuba, ngaphandle kobuganga bokucinga ngokuba ngunongendi okwangoku (maye! Andizange ndibone ndlela yokwenza oko), ngoko nangoko ndalilahla ihlabathi nazo zonke iingozi. iyabonelela. Ndamthembisa uThixo ukuba ndiza kuzahlula kubo kangangoko ndinako; kwaye ngenxa yoko, ndaceba ukuhlala nomama, ukuze ndimkhonze kwaye ndimncedise ngomsebenzi wam kude kube sekupheleni kweentsuku zakhe okanye eyam; engazange iye kude. Izulu, elingazange lindivumele ukuba ndiphile ngaphandle kwenkxwaleko, lalindigcinele eyona nto inobuntununtunu kule meko: umama wam osweleyo wasweleka kanye ngexesha awayenethemba ngalo. ukuze ndonwabe ngakumbi, nalapho ndacebisa ukuba ndimthuthuzele kwaye ndimbuyekeze ngazo zonke iintlungu neentlungu endambangela zona. Masithembe ukuba iNkosi elungileyo iya kube ithathele kuye ukumthuthuzela kwaye imbuyekeze ngokwakhe, kwaye akukho nto ilahlekileyo.

 

Uzinyanzelisa ukuzila ukutya kunye nezinye izinyanzelo kuye, kwaye uthatha isifungo sobunyulu obungapheliyo.

Ukuze ndanelise okusesikweni kobuthixo ndize ndithintele imvukelo yenyama, ndathembisa ukuzila ukutya rhoqo ngooLwezihlanu nangoLwesithathu, ndize ndiqhelisele ezinye iindlela zokuzohlwaya veki nganye; kodwa, ukuze ndoyise ngcono idemon yokungcola, ndacebisa ukwenza isibhambathiso sobunyulu obungapheliyo, kwaye ndandifuna ukusibiza phambi komfanekiso we-Notre-Dame-des-Marais (1) ngomhla we-'Assumption. , kulapho kanye ndandicebise khona ukuba ndidle umthendeleko ukuze ndifumane ukuxolelwa kwentlokoma yam.

(1) Lo ngumfanekiso weNtombi Enyulu esikelelekileyo, obekwe kwicawa, ekungeneni ecaleni kwecawa yaseSaint-Sulpice de Fougères. Idume kakhulu kweli lizwe ngezibhambathiso kunye nohambo lwezonqulo olwenziwa apho, intuthuzelo kunye nobabalo olufunyanwa  apho.

 

Ndaya apho ngenxa yale njongo, yaye kwangaloo mini ndeva iindimbane ezimbini eSaint-Léonard nenye eSaint-Sulpice, ekubonakala kum imfutshane kakhulu, ndiyaniqinisekisa. Akunakwenzeka ukuba ndikuxelele ukuba yimalini, ngexesha lezi zihlwele

 

 

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Umthendeleko wam, uThixo undenze ndangcamla iilekese; zingaphi intuthuzelo yangaphakathi andinike yona kwimeko yam yangoku neyexesha elidlulileyo; hayi indlela eyandikhanyisela ngayo ngeemfihlelo zonqulo, nangaphezu kwabo bonke ubukho bokwenene bukaJ. njl. njl.

 

Ulonwabo alungcamla enkonzweni kaThixo.

Ekugqibeleni, Bawo, ndaqala ukuphefumla ndaza ndaphila kwakhona, kwaye ndaziva ukuba akukho, ukuba akukho lonwabo lokwenene, ngaphandle koxolo lwangaphakathi lomphefumlo,  kwaye olu xolo lomphefumlo, olunqweneleka kakhulu, alunakuze lubekho. kufunyanwa ngaphandle kwesazela esingenalungcikivo, kwimvakalelo enzulu yentliziyo evakalelwa kukuba konke kungenxa kaThixo wayo, nokuba uThixo wayo uphelele kuyo; Ekugqibeleni intliziyo evutha kuphela ngamadangatye othando lwakhe... Ndifunxwe kulo Thixo ulungileyo nonenceba ngaphezu kwayo yonke into enokuthiwa kwaye icingelwe, ndabuva ubukho bakhe bobuThixo, kwaye ndagutyungelwa ngokupheleleyo lulonwabo olungenakuthethelelwa ukuba obu bukho bungcwele babunxibelelana. kum. Owu  ulonwabo  !.  uthixo wam

ibuyiselwe kuwo onke amalungelo ayo.  Ndandonwabile , kaloku ndandingowakhe wonke, naye wayengowam  Xa ukufa kukamama ngengazange kufike  

ukuphazamisa imeko enqweneleka kangaka, ndiyacinga, Bawo, ukuba ayinakuhlala ixesha elide, ngenxa yokuba akubangelwa ngabantu abafayo abanelishwa, abaqashiso labo kukuncwina kule ntili yeenyembezi; inokuba ngumvuzo kuphela kunye nelungelo labo bafanelwe ngokusebenza nzima, amadabi kunye noloyiso; kwaye xa kukholekile kuThixo ukuba andibabale ngayo, bendisoloko ndiyigqala  kwaye ndiyifumene kuye njengento yokwenyani kubuthathaka bam, okanye, ukuba ukhetha, njengenkuthazo yokunyamezela ngcono iminqamlezo neembandezelo. ngobuhlwempu bam, kwaye ukulunga kwakhe kusandigcinele ikamva  .

Emva kokuba ndiyilahlile yonke imibutho, kodwa kwelinye icala ndingenamali yaneleyo yokuphila ngaphandle kokunyanzelwa ukuba ndikhonze, kwaye ngenxa yoko ukungena kwiingozi endafunga kuzo ukuba ndingahlali kude, umntu kufuneka acinge ukuba sesiphi isibetho esindizisele ukufa kukamama. . Ukuba bendikhe ndayiqwalasela le nto kuphela, bekukho, njengoko besitsho, okwaneleyo ukuba ndiphulukane nentloko yam, ukuba uThixo akazange abe nobubele bokuthothisa intlungu yam ngendlela endithethe ngayo.

 

Imeko yakhe elusizi emva kokufa kukanina; uye wabhenela kwiNtombi Enyulu.

Ndingazi ukuba mandilithathe liphi ikhondo, ndaqala ndathatha umhlala-phantsi nodade wethu omncinane kumakazi owayesele ekhulile kakhulu, nowathi kungekudala wasikhumbula sobabini. Ke emva kokuba ukufa kumthathile kuthi, ndiye ndabhenela kuzo zonke izidalwa endizithembe kakhulu: ndaya eSaint-Sulpice, ndaqubuda phambi komfanekiso ongcwele weNenekazi lethu -des-Marais, Wathi kuye: “Ntombi Enyulu, mama wam olungileyo nobekekileyo, kuba andisekho bani ngaphandle kwakho; Ndikwenze umgcini weminqweno yam. Ewe, iNtombi Enyulu engenakuthelekiswa nanto, kuphakathi kwezandla zakho naphantsi kwegunya lakho apho ndazahlulela kuNyana wakho wobuthixo; Ndifumanele ke, ngobabalo, indlela yokuthembeka kwizigqibo zam.

Linyamekele eli shishini, kwaye ndiya konwaba; Andisayi kuze ndiyilahle, ukuba nje ndinesizathu sokukholelwa ukuba isezandleni zakho. Kuphela nje ndiya kongeza ukuba ndafumana kwangelo lixa intuthuzelo ethile eyayibonakala kum isibhambathiso senkuselo kaMariya, isiqinisekiso sokuba wayewuphulaphule ngokukholekileyo umthandazo wam, nokuba ndinokulindela yonke into kuwo; endixolise kakhulu.

Mna noodade wethu ababini sasivumelene ukuba sibe kwindawo yokuphumla yokomoya yePentekoste, eyayiza kuqhutyelwa eFaubourg Roger de Fougères. Saya: ibikhona ke xa ndinokuthi apho ibindilindile iNtombi kaMfi, ukuze ndibone kakuhle ngefuthe lomthandazo wam namacebo amakhulu uThixo ebendinawo.

 

Umtsalane wakhe kubomi bonqulo. Cinga ukuba wayesoloko ethetha ngayo.

Ukuzibona ndinxulumana nobomi boluntu oluthile lonqulo, ukuhlala apho kude nehlabathi njengomkhonzi, kwakukudala ndiyinqwenela; kodwa ithemba elincinane endalibonayo lokuba ndikwazi ukuphumelela kulo lalingekandivumeli ukuba ndixelele nabani na ngalo; nangona kunjalo, ndazifumana ndihlala nditsaleleka kuyo yincasa ethile kunye notyekelo

ewe, iphupha elo endiza kukuxelela ngalo, elisele lindifikele izihlandlo ezingaphezu kwekhulu, ndiqalela ebuncinaneni, lahlala livuka; nantsi ke, niya kugweba.

Ngokufuthi, Bawo, xa ndileleyo, ndandizibona ndirhangqwe yaye ndihlaselwa ngamarhamncwa anoburhalarhume, efuna ukundiqwenga  okanye ukundiwisa emngxunyeni othile; iintshaba ezikrakra, ezifuna kancinci ubomi bam kunobumsulwa bam nosindiso lwam. Kwakukho uvimba omnye kuphela oseleyo kum ngokuchasene nokusukelana nokusukelana nabo kunye nemigibe yabo eyandisiweyo, kwaye oko yayikukubongoza uncedo lwezulu xa kwakungasekho enye indlela yokusaba. Ndayenza yonke loo nto ndinyembezana, emva koko, Bawo, ndaziva ndiphakanyiselwe ngamaphiko amabini, ndaya phezulu apho iintshaba zam zingenakufikelela khona; ndasinda kubushushu bawo, ndandanda njengehobe esibhakabhakeni; Ndibanjwe  ngengalo enye

 

 

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engabonakaliyo. Maxa wambi uhambo lwalulude kakhulu; kodwa eyona nto ikhethekileyo kukuba ukuphela kohambo lwam, okanye kunoko ukubaleka kwam, kwakusoloko kuwela ngobunono kuluntu lwamantombazana, kwaye indawo apho ndiqale ndabeka khona unyawo xa ndisiwa yayihlala icawa yabo, apho ndaqubuda phambi kwabo. yoMthendeleko oSikelelweyo, endayiboniswa njengekhusi eliqinisekisiweyo kuzo zonke iintshaba zam, nezibuko apho kwakufuneka ndingayeki ukujolisa ukoyisa phezu kwazo ngokuqinisekileyo  .

Cinga ngeli phupha, kunye namanye amaninzi afana nalo, konke okufunayo; ukuba umntu uzama, ukuba ufuna, ukuzichaza ngezizathu zendalo, andichasi; kodwa yintoni kanye kanye, kwaye into ebonakala inzima kakhulu ukuyilinganisa ngolu luvo, kukuba eli phupha landifikela izihlandlo ezininzi ndikwiminyaka apho ndandingenalo okanye ndingenalo naluphi na ulwazi ngemeko yenkolo; yinyani leyo. Ndiza kuthetha nangakumbi: kukuba kwakuloo minyaka, ndiphupha kanye ukuba ndikwisiphelo esiqhelekileyo sokubaleka kwam, ndothuka kakhulu ukuzifumana ndide kakhulu phambi kwesibingelelo, kwaye ndinxibe ngokuchanekileyo njengoko ndinjalo ngoku, Mna ongazange ndibone oonongendi ngaphambili, mhlawumbi ongazange ndive ngabo, kwaye ngubani, ngokuqinisekileyo, bendingekabinayo nofifi ngesinxibo sabo. Nangona kunjalo, ndazibona ndide njengoko ndinjalo, ndinxibe njengoko ndinjalo, njenge-Urbanist yenkolo,

ndiguqe phambi kwesibingelelo sela bandla ndingazange ndangena kulo. Ndandisele ndiyintombi kaSaint Francis kunye noClare oNgcwele. Lanqamka eli phupha nje ukuba ndibe nolonwabo lokuba ngokwenene ndambathiswe umkhwa ongcwele wonqulo; oko kukuthi, ukuthetha ngokwendlela yam yokuthatha izinto, xa umzobo sele uzalisekile. Kodwa asikabikho.

 

Elinye iphupha, apho iSanta Francis imbizela kwi-odolo yakhe.

Ndikwakhumbula elinye iphupha elisenokuba nentsingiselo efanayo, nendisenalo ngeli xesha sithetha ngalo; Ndicinga ukuba ndikuxelele ngayo kwenye indawo. Ndacinga ukuva ilizwi lomshumayeli omkhulu: njengoko ndandingaphandle kwecawa awayeshumayela kuyo, ndakhwela entweni ukuze ndimve kakuhle ndize ndimbone kancinane ngefestile eyojiweyo. YayinguBawo wethu oNgcwele uFrancis owashumayela ngenkani kwiimonki kunye noonongendi bomyalelo wakhe, awabagxekayo ngenxa yokubanda kunye nokwaphula kwabo umthetho. Umshumayeli ongcwele wandibona ndishumayela; kwaye esenza umqondiso kum, ngokungathi uyandixolela, ndamva esithi kum: "Ekubeni kungekho nto ndithobelayo okanye ukunyaniseka kwam, kulungile! abasemzini mabathabathe indawo yabo.yiza ngokuthembeka kwakho undithuthuzele ngenxa yokungabi nambulelo nokuba dikidiki kwabantwana bam. »

Ke ndawathatha kwakhona uphawu lobizo la mazwi  awawabhekisa kum oNgcwele uFrancis: Yiza kum,  ntombi  yaseYiputa. Nditsho  kakhulu

ndiqinisekile ukuba abanye abaninzi baya kucinga njengam kulo mbandela; kodwa njengokuba kukho abasoloko benengqondo ephangaleleyo, nabazidlayo ngokunikela isizathu sezinto zonke bengalufuni uncedo lukaThixo, nangamandla angaphezu kwawemvelo, ndiwushiya ngokuzithandela lo msebenzi kubo, ukuba unokubanelisa, ndize ke ndize. ndibuyele kwinjongo yam; kuba, nokuba yintoni na imeko ngala maphupha, njengoko ingcaciso okanye ijika bakhetha ukubanika, oko ke ingakhange ibonakale iye yenzeka, phezu kwayo nje yonke imiqobo ukuba ihlabathi, umtyholi nenyama angayizisa. . Kolunye, Bawo, uya kugweba ngcono ngeenkcukacha umntu ekufuneka athi ubizo lwam lubhekiselele kwinkolo kunye nokungena kwam kolu luntu. Konke oku kwaba sisiphumo sokuthatha kwam umhlala-phantsi kwiFaubourg Roger; kodwa ndicinga ukuba siya kwenza kakuhle ukuhlehlisa ukubaliswa kwayo kube ngolu rhatya okanye ngelinye ixesha. Ucinga ntoni Bawo?

 

Uye wamkelwa kuluntu lwabacwangcisi basezidolophini eFougères njengesicaka sabahlali.

 

“ Egameni loYise, loNyana, njl. »

Bawo, ndazityand’ igila kuM. Debrégel, owayesakuba ngowayengoyena mdala owayedla umhlala-phantsi, endandimnyule njengomalathisi wam: kwakulo msebenzi unenzondelelo ngenxa yozuko lukaThixo nosindiso lwemiphefumlo apho uProvidence wayefuna ukuthetha nam, ukuze khawumxelele ngempahla yam. M. Debregel akazange acinge ukuba kufanelekile ukuba ndenze isivumo ngokubanzi kuye, njengoko ndandinqwenela, ndisithi azifanele zihlaziywe rhoqo; kwaye ke ngoko waneliseka ngokundibuza imibuzo enjalo njengoko wayibona iyimfuneko ukuze abe nombono ofanelekileyo wesazela sam kunye nemeko yam. Wandula ke wandibeka esichengeni, ndaza ndafumana kule ndoda yabapostile ubawo wokwenene, owathabatha yonke inkathalo yakhe wathabatha amacebo eProvidence, awathi yena ngokwakhe wandibhengeza ngendlela engaqhelekanga. Waba ngumkhokeli wam de kwasekufeni kwakhe,

Lo M. Debregel wayenempembelelo enkulu kwiingqondo zoonongendi base-Urbanist, owalathisa inani elithile; wandicebisa ukuba bamkelwe kuluntu njengesicaka sabahlali: kwaba njalo

 

 

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kanye kunyaka wokuqala bavunyelwa ukuba babe nazo, oko kukuthi ngowe-1752, ngokokukhumbula kwam. Bekungengcebiso yakhe ke ukuba ndize apha for a provisional basis, ndizokhonza iboarders, ndiqale ngaphandle, ndisalinde isahluko ukuba sithathe isigqibo ngeakhawunti yam.

Ezivekini ezintandathu ndihleli phandle, kwabakho ukuxhalaba okukhulu ngaphakathi kwam; kwakubonakala ngathi yonke into yayichasene nolonwabo lwam. Oonongendi bahlukene phakathi, abanye befuna ukundivuma, abanye belandula yaye bandigxotha. Ukwamkela abahlali, utshilo owokugqibela, sele kukwaphulwa komthetho wethu; ukuvuma omnye umntu ukuba ubakhonze iyakuba kukutenxa  nangakumbi  kubo.  izahluko ezine okanye ezihlanu

zabanjwa ngokulandelelana, kwaye ekugqibeleni kwagqitywa kwelokuba uAbbess wayenokundivuma kuphela kwimeko yokudlula njengodade.

ngaphezu koko, okanye njengoncedo oluvela koodade kwinkonzo yoluntu lonke. Yiloo nto kanye endandiyifuna, yaye ndaphawula ngommangaliso ovuyisayo wokuba iNtombi Enyulu Enyulu yasebenzisa kanye imiqobo ukuvelisa umphumo idemon eyayifuna ukuwuthintela.

 

Kwiiveki ezintandathu kamva, wayingenela njengodade osebenza ngeposi.

Ngoko ke ndamkelwa ngaphakathi njengoDade ocingayo; kwabonakala kum ukuba ndibone isibhakabhaka sivuleka, ndangcangcazela luvuyo, ndingabonisanga nto, kwaye ndiyakholelwa ukuba ngendingazange ndoyisakele ukuyiva loo nto, nokuba ndandiyibonile kwangaphambili yonke into endiya kuba nayo kwinto eyayiza kulandela emva koko. , kwaye zingaphi iindlela idemon ekufuneka ihambe ngayo ukundishukumisa ukuzingisa kwam, ukuthintela ukukhutshwa kwezibhambathiso zam, kwaye ndilutshabalalise ngokupheleleyo ubizo lwam, ukuba bekusemandleni akhe... ndandiyilangazelela, nakwimeko endandiyilangazelela, kangangokuba izulu lalindibonise ukususela ebuntwaneni ngeendlela ezininzi  .

Okokuqala, umntu unokutsho kakuhle ukuba ndandingumfundi oqalayo ngengqiqo epheleleyo yeli gama: kwanangaphambi kokuba ndibe kwimvukelo, ndiwile, ngokungathi kunjalo, kwihlabathi elitsha ngokupheleleyo, ndandimtsha, ndimtsha kakhulu kubo bonke. Iingongoma, zokuba amagama asetyenziswa kakhulu elunqulweni yayiyialgebra kum. Xa abantu babethetha nam ngobumoya, ngophando, okanye ngokuzincama, ngokulahlwa kuThixo.... nge-postulancy, yeculpe, yokuthobela, yokusebenza,  yokutyelela  . ye

uguimpe wayethetha ukuthetha isiGrike okanye isiHebhere; Ndandihlala ndinyanzelekile ukuba ndithule, ngamanye amaxesha ndingaphenduli, kuba ndisoyika ukulungela ukuhleka ukutolika ngendlela engeyiyo enokuthi ide idale uqhekeko lweemonki, ngenxa yokungazi kakuhle imigaqo yento nganye.

Ndabeva oonongendi bethetha ngobizo lwam, ndingazi ukuba bathetha ukuthini; Ngendandiqonde ngcono ukuba babethethe ngencasa okanye utyekelo lokunqula, okanye ngomnqweno wokuba ngomnye wabo. Ngenye imini nda

Ndabuza omnye usisi ukuba baphi ngoku ooNongendi. Waphendula wathi basemthandazweni ; Ndandicinga ukuba bafunda umthandazo ofana nalowo ndandinawo kwiiHore zam; kodwa kungekudala ndafumana ithuba lokubabona apho; Ndaqaphela ukuba bonke baguqe ngamadolo, bengathethanga nto, abaninzi bevale amehlo, benomoya ocingayo nocingayo. SO, Bawo, ndarhanela ukuba iingqondo zabo zibekwe kwinto enzulu; ukuba mhlawumbi babecinga ngoThixo; ukuba babencokola naye, nokuba wayenxibelelana nabo ngaloo mzuzu, njengoko wayenxibelelane nam kwiimeko ezininzi ebomini bam, apho ndandizifumene khona nalapho ndandisazifumana ndihlala ndixakene naye ngokupheleleyo. , ngaphandle kokukwazi ukuziphazamisa kuye okanye ukucinga ngayo nantoni na eyenye. Ngokungathandabuzekiyo, ndazixelela ukuba  ikho

into ebizwa ngokuba ngumthandazo. Ndazigweba ke ngokwam; kuba uThixo wayenendlela yakhe yokundenza ndicamngce, yaye le ndlela yeyona bendisoloko ndiyilandela. Into endandiyidinga yayilixesha (1).

(1) Emva kwayo yonke into esiyibonileyo, kubonakala kum ukuba umntu unokuqinisekisa, ngaphandle kokuzola okukhulu, ukuba akukho namnye kule miphefumlo ilungileyo owenza imithandazo ibe nkulu, okanye ibe yingenelo njengaleyo yale ntombi ihlwempu yayingazi nokuba igama lomthandazo: kuyinyaniso ukuba kwimibandela yokomoya ngaphezu kwayo yonke into, amagama, iinkcazo, indlela, isayensi ayiyonto, kwaye imvakalelo yodwa eveliswa nguMoya oyiNgcwele, iyonke. Opto magis sente compunctionem quàm scire ejus definitionem. (Ukusuka kwi-Imitat., i-cap. 1).

 

Inzondelelo yakhe ngeyona misebenzi inzima.

Njengoko ndandivuya kakhulu ngesabelo sam, ndazinikela ngokupheleleyo kwinkonzo yooDade bam kunye noluntu lonke. Ngelo xesha, I

Andiswelanga mandla nakusebenza; ndingongezelela, ndingàba nalubabalo kuko konke obekufuneka ndikwenze. Izandla zam zaqina, iingalo zam zadanjiswa umsebenzi onzima wasemaphandleni, nomzimba wam wonke uqhelene nemithambo ebuhlungu. UThixo uyayazi indlela esiye sayisebenzisa ngayo! Ubomi bam abuzange bube nzima ngaphezu kwasekuhlaleni; yonke into ebekunzima ukuyenza ibigcinelwe mna; yaye, ukuba kukho intobeko enzima, okanye umthwalo ngandlel’ ithile onzima ngakumbi ukuwuthwala, nokuba kuseshedini okanye ekhitshini, uDade ongamahlwempu wokuzalwa kukaYesu wayesoloko ewuthatha ekupheleni okanye kwelinye. Ndingatsho ke Bawo ukuba ndiye apho ngokukhululeka oko kwenza ijaji enye yaba luvuyo kum ukubizwa apho.

 

 

 

 

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Andizange ndaneliseke kukukhulula amarhamente, kuxhomekeka kwindawo endisingise kuyo, ndandinikela ngazo zonke iinkonzo endandizifumana kumanenekazi ekwayala, awayedla ngokundinceda: nto leyo eyayingekudala ukutsala ixesha elinzima, kuba kwakufuneka ndivavanywe. ngeendlela ezininzi.

 

Utshutshiswa emva kweenyanga ezintandathu engenile, evela kwabanye ooSista bakhe. Umonde wakhe ngeli xesha lobunzima.

Kangangeenyanga ezintandathu okoko ndandisonwabele ngolu hlobo, ngamandla ezikhali, ukuba umntu unokutsho, uzuko loluntu lonke, xa idemon yasebenzisa umona kooSista abathile ukuze ivuse uqhwithela kum. inokuba bendiyidinga. Ndiyakwazi, Bawo wam, ndikuxelele ngokuzithemba. UThixo uyazi ukuba andizange ndibacaphukele ngaloo nto, kwaye ndibacaphukele  namhlanje kunanini na ngaphambili. Bonke bafile; ubungabazi, kwaye andiyi kuthetha namnye kubo. Ngoko ke andiqondi ukuba uthando lunokonzakaliswa libali elingena kwiakhawunti endityala wena.

Ngoko ke uThixo wavumela, uBawo, ngokungathandabuzekiyo ukuba andivavanye, ukuba oodade ababini abaqhelekileyo, phakathi kwabanye, baba nomona kancinane ngeenkonzo endizilungiseleleyo.

ndabuyela kuonongendi bekwayala, kwakunye nobuhlobo obabubo bonke oonongendi kunye nooAbbes babenokulunga ukundibonisa bona (1). Omnye wabo, phakathi kwabanye, owayesakuba yinkcitho-mali ngelo xesha, sele ndixelelwe, wathatha isigqibo sokuvavanya umonde wam kunye nobizo lwam ngalo lonke ixesha. Ukuba kunjalo, ngokuqinisekileyo wayefanelwe yimbeko enkulu, yaye ndinembopheleleko eninzi kuye; kuba ixesha elide yazikhulula ekuhleni kumsebenzi wayo. Emva kwengcikivo neentlungu, kwada kwabakho intshutshiso; ukuba ndithe cwaka, bekuhlekisa; Ukuba ndithe ndathetha nantoni na ukuze ndizigwetyele, likratshi, okanye ukuzithemba; ukuba ndithe ndenza ubugwenxa ngokuvuma ubugwenxa bam, ibikukuhanahanisa oko; i ye

iliso elibi nakwicala elibi. Ekugqibeleni, bonke oonongendi baphantse banxamnye nam ethubeni.

1 sithetha apha lo Sister, ebeyonwabele imbeko yabantu bonke, ngaphandle kwa ngaphandle kwabo bamtshutshisayo.

 

Ngokuchasene neentlaselo ezininzi kangaka kunye nokudimazeka okwakuza kulandela ngokwemvelo, ndandinokukhanya okungcwele kuphela kunye nentuthuzelo yangaphakathi, njengoko siza kubona, yayingeyonto incinci, kunye nengcebiso yomlawuli wam onobulumko nohloniphekileyo, owathi rhoqo. weza kundibona ukuze andibongoze ukuba ndibe nomonde kwaye andikhuthaze ukuba ndidlule phezu kwayo yonke into kwaye ndibandezeleke

yonke into ngokuzingisileyo nangokurhoxa: into endiye ndazama ukuyenza ngenxa yokuthobela nokuthanda uThixo.

Yadlula ke iminyaka yam emibini yepostulancy; kodwa, Bawo, ndilibele ukuba mandithethe nawe apha kuphela ngobomi bam bangaphakathi. Ke masibuyele kuyo kwaye masingaphindi sicinge ngezi ziphazamiso zincinci, ngazo, nangona kunjalo, ndithethe nawe kuphela njengoko zihambelana nazo. Musa ukucinga ngayo, wena kunye nam, ngaphandle kokuthandazela abo babengaphantsi kwesizathu kunezixhobo, kwaye nangona kunjalo ngaphandle kokufuna ngokupheleleyo mhlawumbi, okanye ubuncinane becinga ukuba benza into efanelekileyo kuyo yonke loo nto. Masivume kwakhona, Bawo, ukuba bendiyidinga, kwaye mhlawumbi uThixo wayivumela ngezizathu ezaziza kuphumela kum.

 

Ubabalwe sisipho sobukho bukaThixo. Imbonakalo ka-J.-C.

Ngalo lonke eli xesha, Bawo, ukuzinikela kwam okuncinane kwahamba kakuhle kangangoko kunako; phezu kwazo zonke iingxaki owawuziva umoya wam, ndalahlekelwa bubukho bukaThixo kancinane kangangoko ndandinako: kuba kum kubonakala ngathi uThixo wayefuna ukundibuyekeza nokundixhasa kuhlaselo olwanikelwa kumhla wam wokuzingisa: andizange nakanye. ngaphambili yayithandwa rhoqo liZulu. Ubukho bobuthixo bazivelela kum phakathi kweyona misebenzi ichithakeleyo, kwaye amaxesha amaninzi ndandingokaThixo ngokupheleleyo, xa ndandicingelwa ngomsebenzi wam ngokupheleleyo. Kukangaphi ezenza unovelwano emphefumlweni wam! Kukangaphi ethetha nentliziyo yam!

Ndithini na kuwe, Bawo? kwaye uya kukholelwa na ukuba amaxesha amaninzi umsindisi wethu othandekayo uYesu Krestu wazenza wabonwa ngamehlo omzimba, ndiyakholwa ukuba ndingakuqinisekisa; ngamanye amaxesha ekwimo yomntwana omncinci omhle ngokugqibeleleyo, ukuba andichukumise ngeenyembezi zakhe aze andiphumelele ngokuphulula kwakhe; maxa wambi ethatha umoya nethoni yomfana, wayendilandela esiseleni sethu, endikhumbuza ngento awayendenzele yona, yaye ngamanye amaxesha wayendingcikiva ngenxa yokungabi nambulelo nokunyaniseka kwam. Wathi kum: “Bangaphi na imiphefumlo esihogweni, ababeza kufumana ubungcwele obubalaseleyo, ukuba bendibanike isiqingatha sezinto ezintle endikuthulule ngazo, nekufuneka ndiphendule ngazo! njl njl »

Ndiye ndagcwala ukubhideka, uloyiko nothando, bendingenawo namandla okumphendula. Ngoko, ukuze andiqinisekise, wathetha nam ngobuhlobo obusenyongweni obandenza ndaqiniseka kwakhona; wandixelela, ngokomzekelo, ukuba kwakufuneka ndizithuthuzele ndingaphelelwa yinkalipho; ukuba angandinqumli

 

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ubabalo lwakhe, ukuba akayi kurhoxisa ubabalo lwakhe kum, ukuba ndifuna ukumthembisa ukuba uya kuthembeka ngakumbi kwixesha elizayo...

Kangange amazwi amaninzi, amaninzi kangaka amatshafu okukhanya endikhanyiselwe ngawo kwaye ngokungathi ndoyisiwe; Ujongo lwakhe ngalunye lwangena emazantsi omphefumlo wam: ndididekile kwaye ndiphuma kum, amaxesha amaninzi ndandingazi ukuba ndiyintoni na phambi kwakhe. Umgwebi wesikhundla endibeke kuso isimilo sakhe esimangalisa ngolo hlobo! Kwelinye icala uloyiko lwenkohliso, kwelinye  lokungathembi

ukundithuka, kwandifaka engxakini nakwihlazo ekubonakala kumnandi maxa wambi. Ngaba nguwe ngokwenene, Thixo wam! Ngaba ndamxelela ngenye imini ukuba wathetha nam ngeyona ndlela ichukumisayo? nguwe na, umsindisi wam, Thixo wam? kuba ukuba nguwe, ndicela undixolele kuba ndisoyika ukuba ngumdlalo wenkohliso. Ngoko, uBawo, wasolula isandla sakhe kum, ebhekisa kum la mazwi awawathethayo kubapostile bakhe, xa babemthatha njengesiporho emva kokuvuka kwakhe: “Musa ukoyika, ndim. »

 

Iimvavanyo ze-confessor yakhe ukuze aziqinisekise ngobunyani bezi mbonakalo.

Ngenye imini, ummeli wam, engazi ukuba amakacinge ntoni na ngako konke endamxelela kona ngale mibono yahlukeneyo, wandiyalela ukuba ndimbuze okwesihlandlo sokuqala intsingiselo yendinyana ethile engacacanga yeZibhalo Ezingcwele. Andizange ndibe nabuganga bokuyithatha le komishini kuba ndisoyika ukuba nenkalipho okanye inkumbulo eyaneleyo yokukhumbula amazwi. UYesu Kristu wayefuna ukundilungisa ukuba neentloni kwam nokuba ndityhubele uvavanyo endandilunqwenela. Yiza, ntombam, wathi kum xa esondela kum, xelela umlawuli wakho ukuba indawo yesiBhalo anqwenela ukuyichaza ithetha into ethi, into andixelela yona. Esi sicatshulwa, songezelela sithi, uYesu Kristu, sabhalwa kwimeko enjalo, ngumbhali onjalo owayenengcamango enjalo  engqondweni yakhe  .

umlawuli wam yonke into ebithethiwe kum, kwaye ndaphulukana nayo inkumbulo kwangoko. Ndikhumbula inyani nje ngokubanzi, nokuba u-confessor wam wandixelela ngelo xesha ukuba le ngcaciso yayiyeyona yanelisayo awayengekayiboni naphi na kule ndawo ifihlakeleyo.

Yeha! uBawo, kwaloo mvuma-tyala wayengenasizathu sokwaneliswa ngolunye uthumo endandiyalelwe ukuba ndilufeze kuye. Yayisisiluleko esincinane ukuba kwandixabisa kakhulu ukumazisa, ngakumbi ekubeni ndandibone kwangaphambili ukuba umele athotywe yiyo. Noko ke, wafumana icebiso lam ngokuzithoba okukhulu ekuthandeni kukaThixo. Nantso kuphela into endiyikhumbulayo; kuba kwaoko ke, emva kokuba ndifeze uthumo lwam, wabuya wathi uThixo wandibamba, andakwazi ukukhumbula zonke izinto awayendiwisele umthetho ngazo, ukuba ndithethe kuye. Yiyo kuphela into endinokungqina ngayo kulo mba.

Kuyinyani, Bawo, kwaye uThixo undenze ndayiqonda ngokwaneleyo, kwakufuneka ndidlule ngokulandelelanayo ukusuka eluxolweni ndiye enkathazweni, nokusuka kwisiphango ndiye ekuzoleni; besuka ebumnyameni besiya ebumnyameni, besuka ebumnyameni besiya ekukhanyeni; njengoko elona lifu lingqingqwa linokusitha kuphela ilanga ngokwalo, ukukhanya okanye imitha ethile engena efini yanele ukuseyisela ukuba ikho, nangona bubumnyama obusithelisayo emehlweni ethu. Kulungile! Bawo, kuyafana nelanga lemimoya njengakwimizimba.

 

Umahluko phakathi kokusebenza kukaThixo nokusebenza kukasathana. Iziphumo zobukho bukaThixo emphefumlweni.

Onjani wona umahluko phakathi kokusebenza kukaThixo nomsebenzi kaMtyholi! nokuba umphefumlo ohlangabezana nazo uzifumanisa uchaphazeleka ngokwahlukileyo xa usondela komnye naxa usondela  komnye  !  Yile nto ke, Bawo , sendiyifumene

ukukubonisa ngaphezu kwesihlandlo esinye, kwaye apho andinakuyeka ukukuxelela enye into, ndithetha ngengaphakathi lam, ekubeni ingelosi yobumnyama, njengoko sele sichazile, izama ukundikhohlisa, ngokuguqula ibe yingelosi. yokukhanya. Ekusondeleni kwedemon, kuphela kwamathandabuzo, amaxhala, ubumnyama kunye noloyiko,

ukudimazeka, njl.; nasi isitshingitshane, ngumsebenzi womoya okhohlakeleyo othwala isiphithiphithi, isiphithiphithi, inkathazo nesihogo kuyo yonke indawo.

Ngokwahlukileyo koko, xa inguThixo osondelayo, ubani uziva ezolile, ngokuzola okumnandi, uxolo olunzulu olungenakubangelwa yinkohliso, nozuko lwakhe lungenako nokusondela; isikhanyiso esithambileyo nesiphilileyo esingena emphefumlweni ngaphandle komqobo, sithwala inkolelo yobukho bobuthixo, kwaye sibonakala sisithi kwiminqweno ephazamisayo: thula, nantsi iNkosi. Emva koko kukho ukuzola okunzulu, uxolo olunokuthi akukho nto inokuphazamisa, kwaye kule nzolo yeemvakalelo ukuba incasa kunye nevumba lobuThixo livakala ngaphakathi emphefumlweni, kodwa ngendlela engenakwenzeka ukuyinika kakuhle nangayiphi na indlela. uthelekiso. Obona tywala bugqwesileyo, i

ezona ziqholo zigqwesileyo, eyona mibala icacileyo, ezona konsathi zimnandi azinanto isondelayo kuzo, kuba uThixo akanalwalamano neemvakalelo zomzimba.

Noko ke, siyayiva, siyayibamba, siyayingcamla, siyayiva; kodwa konke oku kwenzeka enzulwini yoluvo olusondeleyo. UThixo umanyene ngokusondeleyo nomphefumlo; Uya kwandula ke axhamle ukulunga kobukumkani, okufumaneka kwinzuzo yoThixo wakhe.

Kukuphuma eparadesi. Nditheni? thina ngokwethu siyiparadesi

 

 

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ephilileyo kwaye edlamkileyo. Umphefumlo uhleli kuThixo wawo, uThixo wawo ehleli kuwo; kwaye apha, ngamagama amabini, lonke ulonwabo lwabangcwele, ngaphaya koko akukho nto inokucinga.

 

 

Igama elinye elithethwa nguThixo emphefumlweni linentsingiselo engapheliyo.

Ngeli xesha lolonwabo, Bawo, umphefumlo uyanikezela kwiithutho ezithi ubukho boThixo wawo buzive, obamba onke amandla awo, ukubahlanganisa ngokusondeleyo. Hayi indlela oluphakame ngayo ulonwabo olungafumanekiyo kolu manyano lungenakuthetheka lwesidalwa esinale Siqu sigqwesileyo esingumgaqo waso kwanesiphelo saso sokugqibela, esikufumana kubo ubukho baso obufezekileyo nobusikelelekileyo, ILUNGELO laso elingunaphakade nolongamo  ! Evuyiswe lulonwabo loThixo wakhe, lo mphefumlo unethamsanqa uboleka indlebe yakhe kumazwi amnandi elizwi lakhe elimyolisayo; uqubha kumlambo wokuzingca okucocekileyo, njl.; kwaye apha kwakhona, Bawo, kulapho kufuneka uqale khona ukuqonda ngokupheleleyo amazwi endisoloko ndiwaphindaphinda kuwe kwingxelo endikunike yona:Ndibona kuThixo, ndibona ekukhanyeni kukaThixo, uThixo wandixelela. UThixo undenze ndabona, njl .; ngenxa yokuba onke la mabinzana ahlukeneyo athetha ukuba le nto ndiyithethayo yenzeka kum ngendlela endingenakuyichaza ngenye indlela, kodwa ngokucikoza nokucenga, kangangokuba akukho nto ehlabathini enokuthelekiswa nobungqina balo, nokuba kunzima kokomoya. umntu ukuba azikhohlise apho, njengoko akunakwenzeka ukuba umntu wenyama aqonde nantoni na malunga nayo. Igama elinye elithethiweyo elivela kuThixo linentsingiselo engapheliyo, kwaye lithetha ngokungenasiphelo kumphefumlo olivayo, kunokuba iintetho ezipheleleyo zobuciko bomntu zingenza, kwaye kunokuba yinyaniso ukutsho.  I

Ndiya kukucaphula, ukuba uyathanda, intwana enye ekudluleni, kwaye ngelixa isiza engqondweni yam (1).

(1) Ndivumele kwakhona ndibuze ukuba kungokwemvelo na, ukuba kusengqiqweni ukucinga ukuba umphefumlo othetha ngolo hlobo unokuba phantsi kwenkohliso? Ngaba ikho enye into enobuthixo ngaphezu kolwimi esiluvayo? Ingayibamba njani isiyazi? Angathini na ke uyise wobuxoki ukuyivuselela?... Kodwa masiqhubeke siyiva  ngokwakhe.

 

Ngobunye ubusuku xa, ngexesha lokuphuthelwa, ndacinga ngobubele bukaThixo kum, eli gama linye, mntwana wam , awandenza ndaliva kaninzi, lathi qatha engqondweni yam, kwaye ngeli lizwi lodwa. ilitha lokukhanya landibetha, kwaye nantsi into eyenze ukuba ndiqonde kwi

qhwanyaza.

Ewe, ntombi yam, ungumntwana wam wena; zigqale into endiyiyo kuwe, into oyiyo wena kum; ziboneni endikwenzileyo kuni, ngokohlobo lwemvelo, ndenjenjalo ukubabalwa; uluxabise kangakanani uthando lwam, kwaye ugwebe ukusuka apho ukuba uthandeka kangakanani entliziyweni yam; khumbula iingenelo zendalo yakho, ukuhlangulwa kwakho, ukumiselwa kwakho kwangaphambili; ukhumbule ububele obungasifanelanga, endikulumkisileyo, kwaye undixelele ukuba ndinelungelo lokukubiza ngomntwana wam? ndixelele ukuba intliziyo yam inamalungelo na ngeyakho, kwaye ukuba inokukhalaza ngokungakhathali kwakho? Ah! ungayithandabuzi loo nto, uTata akazange abe namalungelo anokuthelekiswa nawam, kwaye akazange umntwana abe neembopheleleko ezingcwele okanye ezibaluleke ngakumbi kunezakho kum  .

Ewe, ntombi yam, ungumntwana wam, kwaye nantsi into endiyifunayo kumbulelo wakho ngazo zonke iingenelo zam; uthando lwam luza kukuwisela  umthetho, uwuphulaphule ngenyameko, ukuze ungaphambuki kuwo. Ndifuna ukuba uvumelane nentando yakho ezintweni zonke, ukuze ungabi sakwenza kodwa kuthanda enye kwaye enye, kuba umntwana kufuneka afune kuphela oko kufunwa nguYise. Kwangokunjalo, ndifuna ukuba uluvale uthando lwakho eluthandweni lwam, wenze uthando olunye kuphela, lube lunye, lungabi naphakathi, lungabi naluqhekeko, lungabi naluvelwano  .

akukho vimba, njengoko intliziyo yomntwana idityaniswe ngokusondeleyo nababhali bobukho bayo; abamongamela ngeengqalelo, inyameko yolangazelelo nazo zonke iintlobo zeengenelo.

Kuyimfuneko, ntombi yam, ukuba ubingelela kum konke ukufuna wena kunye nothando lwakho, lonke uthando lwasemhlabeni, zonke zibuyele kwisidalwa, ungafuni kwaye uthande enye into ehlabathini ngaphandle kwam, kum, kwaye ngenxa yokuba. yam Le nto kuthiwa yintombi yokwenyani esabela ngokupheleleyo kweli gama lihle, kwaye yile nto ndifuna uyive ngeli gama linye.

yomntwana endikunike amaxesha amaninzi, kwaye kufuneka usebenze ukuze ufanelwe ngakumbi kunanini na ngaphambili, ngokuthamba, ukulula, ukuqaphela i-filial, ububele, ukuzithoba kunye nothando olunothando, olumele lukunike ukubuyisela ngakumbi nangakumbi.

Konke oku, uBawo, nokunye okuninzi, kwakuqukwe kulaa mtha wokukhanya umncinane owathi ngesiquphe wandikhanyisela ngephanyazo nje elinye, kwigama elinye elithi “umntwana,” elathi qatha kum kuqala . kodwa konke oku kwavezwa kum, nanjengoko kwakushicilelwe, kucace gca nobunzulu okwandenza ukuba ndikubone ngandlela zonke. Ah! Bawo, hayi indlela obubuthathaka nobuncinane ngayo ubuchule bokuthetha bomntu xa buthelekiswa! Ukuba akanawo amandla okunika oko uThixo akwenza kubonakale ngeliso elinye emphefumlweni onolonwabo lokubanayo.

! Masiyibeke ecaleni, nceda, ukuqhubeka kude kube ngoku ngokuhlwa, emva kokuba ucengceleze iofisi yobungcwalisa.

 

 

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Izenzo zikadade zokuhlonela uThixo. Umtsalane wakhe ekuthobekeni, ukulahlwa kunye nokuzohlwaya.

“Egameni likaBawo, njl. »

Bawo, ngaphandle kwalo msebenzi uqhubekayo wobukho bukaThixo, ndandisenza imithandazo yam yangokuhlwa neyakusasa ngokuchaneka kangangoko ndandinako.Ndandihlala ndisiya kwimatin, apho ndandifumana intuthuzelo enkulu kunye nolonwabo. Nangona ndandisiya kwezovumo kuphela veki nganye, kodwa ndandinxibelelana rhoqo, ngecebiso lomphathi wam. U-Madam u-Abbess wayenobubele kum ukuba wandibonisa kwiindibano eziliwaka, ngaphezu kwayo yonke loo nto ngenkululeko epheleleyo nepheleleyo awandishiya ngayo ngokukhululekileyo ngokubhekiselele kuyo yonke into ephathelele ukuzinikela kwam.

Umbono endawuvayo ekuqaleni, kwaye owawundimisele ngokupheleleyo, yayiyimvakalelo eyayisoloko indikhokelela ekuthobekeni, ekukhanyeni, enguqukweni. Ngalo lonke ixesha ndandiziva ndinyanzelekile ukuba ndincame ngakumbi nangakumbi ihlabathi, isono kunye nam. Ndandifuna naliphi na ithuba lokukholisa uThixo ngokuthomalalisa izivamvo. UGrace undenze ndasebenzisa iindlela ezininzi kule nto, ezinye zazo ngamanye amaxesha abalawuli bam baye bazihlutha kum: bekungayi kuba lilize ukubachaza.

Ngexesha leminyaka emibini ye-postulancy idemon yandishiya ndedwa. Ndandiqeqeshwe kuphela ngabantu abambalwa endlwini; yaye uThixo, njengoko sesibonile, uye wandixhasa waza wandithuthuzela ngokwakhe. Yayingasoloko ibonakala ngolo hlobo kulandelelwano, xa umlo wawunzima ngakumbi yaye wawuhluke ngokupheleleyo.

 

Emva kweminyaka yakhe emibini ye-postulancy, ubuhlwempu bakhe obukhulu bungumqobo ekwamkelweni kwakhe. Iintlungu zakhe kunye nemigudu yakhe yokuphumelela.

Ixesha lokushiya isinxibo sale nkulungwane ukuze ndithabathe ezonqulo lalisondela, yaye le ndlela yabangela isaqhwithi solunye uhlobo. Okokuqala, ukuze ndiqalise ukuba ngumfundisi-ntsapho, kwafuneka ndenze isixa seeponti ezingama-300. Ndacelwa zona, yaye ndandineeponti ezi-6 kuphela zizonke, kungekho themba lakuze ndibe nazo. Lo mqobo wokuqala, owawunokubonakala umncinci kangaka kwabanye abaninzi, wawumkhulu ngokunxulumene nam, kwaye unakho ngokwawo ukuphazamisa yonke into; kuba emva kwazo zonke ezifunekayo, kwaye phi na? Bandivumela, nangona kunjalo, kwaye yayikuphela kwento ababenokundinika yona, ukuba ndikhenkethe iJanson Chapel, ukuzama ukubona ukuba endaweni yokuzalwa kwam akuzange kubekho imiphefumlo yesisa ngokwaneleyo kwaye ndizive ndikhululekile ukundinceda nantoni na. Ukukhangela kwam bekungekho nto. ndaye ndazidinisa ngelize. Bonke abazalwana bam babezizisweli njengam; umfundisi-ntsapho wethu uye wanikela ngee-akhawunti zakhe, kwaye uluhlu lwempahla lwalunganelanga ukuyihlawula iindleko zomthetho kwaye zisinika izinto eziyimfuneko ebomini. Imisebenzi yam yaphumela ekubeni ndibe sesichengeni sokugqibela sengozi endayibalekayo ehlabathini  .

Ekubuyeni kwam kwilali yakowethu, ndahlaselwa yindoda enxilileyo, eyathetha kakubi kum, ekwakusithiwa mandizithethelele kuyo. Uloyiko, kunye neemvakalelo ezinamandla ezindibangeleyo, zandinika umkhuhlane, kunye nokwanda kokucekisa ilizwe elindinika iingozi kuphela ngaphandle kwentuthuzelo okanye isixhobo. Yiyo yonke le nto endayibuyisela ekuhlaleni xa ndibuya ndigula, emva kweentsuku ezintathu ndimkile.

Kumele kuvunywe, Bawo, ukuba isikhundla sam sasibuhlungu kakhulu, kwaye isiphelo sam sasingaqiniseki kakhulu, ubuncinane siqwalasela kuphela kwicala lezinto zomntu. Uluntu ngokwalo lwaludinga uncedo, kwaye ndabona, ngaphandle koloyiko olukhulu, abathumeli, abazizityebi kakhulu xa kuthelekiswa nam, bezibonakalisa ukuba bathathe indawo yam, ngamakhazi amaninzi. Uloyiko olunjani

! olunjani lona usizi! Ngendandiye ndangena kwindlu ngendlu ukuze ndibonise umdla kwimfesane yabemi baseFougères, ukuba babefuna ukundivumela ndenze njalo, ndizame ukuzuza kubo okwaneleyo ukuze ndivunywe ukuba ndithabathe lo mkhwa.

 

 

 

Uguqukela kuMariya, ekugqibeleni wamkelwa kwi-novitiate, kwaye uthatha igama likaDade wokuzalwa kukaYesu.

Ndisengazi nto, njengoko batshoyo, ukuba yeyiphi na ingcwele ekufuneka ndizinikele kuyo, ndabhekisa kumarhamente, ndibabongoza ngobabalo ukuba bandincomele kubazali babo; kodwa andazi ukuba kwakutheni, emva kokuxoxa ngayo phakathi kwabo, baphendule ngelithi babengathabathi nto yaye babengenakundifumana. Enjani yona intliziyo ebuhlungu! Ndazibona ndihlala ndihleli ngobusuku bokugxothwa, kwaye sele kukho intetho yokundibeka kwikhaya lomhlalaphantsi njengesicaka  ! Ndandilila imini nobusuku, ndingaphumli yaye  ndingathuthuzeleki.

Ukuba yintoni  ? Ndazibona ndilahliwe ngumntu wonke,  ndajika

UThixo, ndilandela isiko lam lokufumana kuye oko ndandingasenakuphinda ndithembise ngako ngokwabantu, yaye ndazama kwakhona ukuba nomdla uMama ongokobuthixo kaJ. ukanti wayenjalo, kuba wayebonakalisa zonke iimvakalelo nayo yonke inkathalo ngakum.

Ngoko ndaphinda ndacenga iNtombi Enyulu ukuba indikhuphe kule meko imbi, okanye, ukuba uthanda ngcono, kule meko ilishwa. Ndamthembisa ukuba xa efuna ukundithengela indawo yokungena

 

 

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ukuthabatha lo mkhwa, ndandidla ngokutshisa ikhandlela ndize ndenze umthendeleko phambi komfanekiso wakhe weSaint-Sulpice, apho ndenza khona izibhambathiso zam zokuqala; ukuba ndingawuthatha umkhwa we-monastic phantsi kwenkxaso yawo, kunye nomthendeleko wokuZalwa kwegama lam lenkolo, ngokukhawuleza emva koko.

Ayizange yenzeke into yokuba ndibhekise kum kwiNtombi Enyulu ekubandezelekeni okunje ngaphandle kokufumana kwangaxeshanye ithemba elininzi kunye nesiqabu. Emva kwalo mthandazo, owandithuthuzela kakhulu, ndaya kufuna uMama wethu; yayinguMam Ongcwele uJoachim ngoko, kwaye ndamcenga ukuba andibeke kwisahluko ukuze bagqibe ngekamva lam. umama wethu wayendithanda

ngokunyaniseka, kwaye ngengazange andilahle ngeliso elingenamdla. Ungandingxameli, wandixelela; ingcamango iza kum: Ndifuna ukuthatha ixesha lam kunye nelam

amanyathelo; yiyekele kum, ndiya kwenza konke ukukugcina, uqiniseke ngayo. Ndiye ndagqiba ekubeni ndilinde, ndithembe kwaye ndithandaze, kuba kakade andizange ndilahle kwanto.

Ekugqibeleni uMadame u-Abbess wasihlanganisa esi sahluko ngesihlandlo sam, apho, ngokukhathalelwa kwakhe okanye ngenye indlela, yonke into yahamba ukuze, ngaphandle konikezelo oluninzi lwabathile abazizityebi, ngaphandle kweengcebiso zoonongendi ngamanani amakhulu, ndibenolonwabo lokuphumelela. . Ndamkelwa kwi-novitiate, ngaphandle kwekhazi, kunye nesihloko sodwa sentlupheko, ngokuqinisekileyo kwakungekho nkohliso okanye ukucinga. Ngoko ekugqibeleni ndawuthabatha umkhwa ongcwele wonqulo, onegama likaSister of the Nativity, endandisoloko ndilinxiba ukususela ngoko. Ah! Dade olihlwempu lokuZalwa, mangaphi amadabi osele kufuneka uwagcine kunye neengozi zokoyika usindiso lwakho kunye nokungcwaliswa kwakho! Ungalindeli ukuba idemon  ikushiye wedwa ixesha elide kule meko intsha usandula ukuyamkela kwaye eyona nto ibiyinjongo yokusebenza kwakho ixesha elide  !

 

Isilingo esinobundlobongela sikasathana ngokuchasene nobizo lwakhe.

Ngaloo ndlela ukuzola kwaphinda kwaphumelela uqhwithela olunobundlobongela; kodwa ngelishwa ! yayikukuvulela indawo isiqhushumbisi esinomsindo ngakumbi kunawo onke angaphambili; kuba, njengoko bendinixelele amaxesha amaninzi, ubomi bam obuhlwempuzekileyo ukuza kuthi ga ngoku abunto yanto ngaphandle kokulandelelana kweentlungu nobukrakra, bentuthuzelo neentsizi, bovuyo nosizi, bobumnyama nezikhanyiso, izilingo nobabalo  . Yanga ingalikholisa iZulu, Bawo, isiphelo masibe noko sizolile kwaye sizolile!

Idemon, eyayisebenzise iindlela zangaphandle kuphela ukundiphazamisa ixesha elide, yabuyela kuhlaselo lwayo lokuqala. Kangangeenyanga eziliqela ndandisonwabele ulonwabo lokumbathiswa lo mkhwa ungcwele endandiwunqwenela, xa wayevusa kum incasa yelizwe endandilishiyile, neenkanuko endandizishiyile, kwakude kudala ngaphambi kokuba ndingene. elunqulweni Waphinda wandixelela ngokucacileyo ukuba, ekubeni ndandingenalo ubizo lwelizwe elingcwele ngolo hlobo, ndandithabathe elona nyathelo lingenabulumko nelona liyingozi kakhulu kwixesha elizayo xa ndingena kulo. izibhambathiso, ngokuqinisekileyo ndiya kubhentsisa usindiso lwam lwanaphakade; ukuba ezi zibhambathiso zokungxama, zenziwe ngokuchasene nentando kaThixo, zibe ngumthombo wenguquko kum, ndikhonze kuphela ukuze bandenze ndibe netyala ngakumbi, nokuba babe ngamalungisa ngenxa yokugwetywa kwam; ukuba kwafuneka sicinge ngayo ngoxa lalisekho ixesha; ukuba kwakungcono izihlandlo eziliwaka ukudelela intlonipho yomntu ngokushiya uluntu, kunokuzenza ungonwabi apho ngonaphakade ngokuzilungisa apho ngokungaguqukiyo, njl. njl.

Ezi ngcinga zikhohlakeleyo zandiphazamisa kwaye zandiphazamisa kakhulu kangangokuba ndaphelelwa luxolo nokuphumla; akusekho nzolo, akusekho buthongo obungaphazanyiswa ngamaphupha awothusayo. Ndandicinga, ndilila, ndithandaza; Ekugqibeleni, ndiphantse ndoyiswa ngala maxhala afayo, ndacinga ukurhoxa kunye nokuyekelela. Ngenye imini xa, ndixakeke ngokupheleleyo zezi ngxaki zilusizi nezothusayo, ndandidlula phambi kwebandla, ndeva ngokucace gca ilizwi elalibonakala kum liphuma enzulwini yengcwele, laza lathi kum: Heyi ! ntombi yam, ubungathanda ukundishiya? Hayi, awuzondibaleka!

Eli lizwi, endaliqondayo ukuba lelikaJ. Hayi, Nkosi yam, Thixo wam, ndaphendula kwaoko, ndathi, Hayi, nkosi yam engcwele nothandekayo, andiyi kukushiya: uyawazi wena umnqweno endinawo wokunyula ukuba ube sisisabelo sam, ndibe sesakho ngonaphakade.

Ukuze ndiqiniseke ngakumbi ngesazela sam, ndaya kufuna umalathisi wam, ngelo xesha owayengasekho uM. Duclos. Wayendambese umkhwa ongcwele wenkolo. Ndathetha naye ngesilingo endandinaso, yaye waphumelela ukundiqinisekisa waza wasichitha. Ungayeki apho, wandixelela, kwaye ungaxeleli mntu. Ukudimazeka kwakho kunokuphuma kwidemon kuphela; yiza, dade wethu, uludelele utshaba lwakho; Ekuphela kwento efunekayo kuloo nto kukukhalipha okuncinane: ndiphendula ubizo lwakho  (1).

(1) Xa uDade wathetha nam ngolu hlobo, kwakusele kudlule iminyaka emihlanu okanye emithandathu ukususela oko uM. Duclos wafayo kwidolophu yaseParrigné, amaqela amabini emibutho yaseFougères. Ngelo xesha wayeneminyaka engamashumi asixhenxe ananye ubudala, kwaye wayelawula le parish iminyaka engamashumi amabini ubuncinane. Ndandingumfundisi wakhe wokugqibela kangangeminyaka esibhozo, yaye wafa esezandleni zam. Wayesoloko ethetha nam ngoonongendi base-Urbanist awayebalasele ixesha elide ngaphambi kokuba abe ngumphathi, kwaye phakathi kwabanye uDade wandibiza ngokuba nguMzalo, njengentombazana engaqhelekanga ngenxa yokuqina kobuhle bakhe, kunye no izikhanyiso awayeziphiwe nguThixo. Wacaphula kum iimpawu ezithile zezityhilelo zakhe, ezabangela isiphithiphithi, endathi ndazifumana zingqinelana ngokuchanekileyo nebali awathi uDade wandinika lona ukususela ngoko. Hayi yena okanye mna eyaziwayo.

 

 

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Uhlaselo oloyikekayo olwanikelwa kuye yidemon ngexesha lomsebenzi wakhe.

Ukusukela ngelo xesha, Bawo, idemon yabonakala ididekile kwaye yandishiya ndedwa, kwada kwafika umzuzu wokuvakalisa izibhambathiso zam, xa wabuyela kwisimangalo enomsindo kunanini ngaphambili, kwaye wandinikela olona hlaselo lunoburhalarhume ndaphinda ndahlaselwa lulo. yena; uhlaselo olunokuthi ngokulula lubalwe phakathi kweempawu zobomi bam abaninzi abangayi kukholelwa, kwaye baya kuthabatha kuphela njengenye yezinto ezigqithileyo abaya kuzibiza ngokuba ziziqhamo okanye inkohliso yentelekelelo yam. Nangona kunjalo basayithatha apha, nantsi inyani njengoko kwenzekile phambi kwamehlo am:

Ngelixa, ngokulandela umsitho womsebenzi, oomama

ukusuka ezantsi ekwayara ukuya phezulu, ukuya kwamkela khona isigqubuthelo, isithsaba sameva, njl. njl., nokuvakalisa izibhambathiso zam apho, ndabona phambi kwam irhamncwa, irhamncwa eloyikekayo elinokumila kukhulu. ukusuka kuleyo yebhere, nangona yayisesoyikeka ngakumbi. Unyuke ngoloyiso ekwayara, ejikela kum ngamaxesha athile, ngendlela eyoyikekayo, engandilisekanga; ebebonakala ngathi ubhuqe wandoyikisa. Wandinika ukuqonda ukuba bekungenxa yakhe yedwa ukuba bendiza kuzifezekisa izibhambathiso zam; ukuba yonke inzuzo yayiza kufikelela kuye, kwaye ukuba ndinesibindi ngokwaneleyo sokuthatha eli nyathelo lokugqibela, kwakungayi kubakho naliphi na ithemba losindiso lwam, ekubeni izulu laliza kundishiya ngonaphakade kumandla alo, njl., njl. , njl

Gweba, Bawo, ukuba, ngexesha elinzima kangaka, xa umntu engakwazi ukuzifihla, kufanele ukuba ndibethwe kwaye ndishukunyiswe ngulo mbono ungaqhelekanga? Bekuya kwenzeka ntoni kum, ndiyakubuza, ukuba uThixo ebengekabinabubele bokundinceda ngalo mzuzu unzima kangaka, okanye ukuba uncedo belungalingani nobubele kunye neemeko zohlaselo? Ke ngoko ndabhenela kuye yedwa kwakhona kule ngozi icinezelayo, kwaye wavumela kwa amazwi omsitho ukuba andinike izixhobo endandizidinga ukuze ndiluxabele utshaba lwam kwaye ndizuze uloyiso olupheleleyo phezu kwalo.

Njengoko ikwayara iphakama, umsitho uchaza ii-genuflections ezintathu, kuyo nganye ikwayara icula amagama aqala ngoSuscipe ... , kwaye intsingiselo yayo, endiyifunde kakuhle, imalunga: Yamkela, Nkosi, ukuzinikela kunye nongcwaliso lwakho. zidalwa, ungandivumeli ndibhideke, ngokuba likuwe wedwa ithemba lam. Intsingiselo yala magama mahle yayingenakuza ngokuchane ngakumbi kuzo zonke iinkalo.

UThixo neBandla bawabeka emlonyeni wam, ukuze athethe esandleni sam, ndaza ndazisebenzisa njengesixhobo esihlaselayo nesikhuselayo, endalugqobhoza ngaso utshaba lwam ngelo xesha xa lwaluzicengezela ngoloyiso, nalapho luthe lwaluhlasela khona. boyise ngokunyelisa ngakumbi.

Ndiye ndawabiza kathathu ngokunyanisekileyo kwentliziyo yam, noko ngoloyiko endiye ndasishiya ndikhululekile, ndawatsala kathathu amandla angaphakathi endandiziva ukuba aye anda. Ndathi, Thixo wam, musa ukundibhidanisa, ndilindele

WENA. Yamkela, ndiyakuvusa, imbeko yeminqweno yam kunye nomntu wam! Ndikuthatha njengesabelo sam kuphela, kwaye kukuwe wedwa endizinikelayo kwaye ndifuna ukubakho ixesha kunye naphakade....

Elo rhamncwa lalisele linyamalele ngomoya osongelayo kunye nomsindo. Kodwa uloyiko lwam lwaluhleli, kwaye lwalubonakala luphindaphindeka njengoko umzuzu wawusondela. Ndifike encotsheni yekwayala, ndenza umgudu kum, kwaye ndazimisela ukuba nethemba ngokuchasene nalo lonke ithemba, ukuba kuyimfuneko. Ndazijula ​​emadolweni nasezinyaweni zika-Abbess, ukuba ndimthembise intobelo yakhe njengoJ.-C. ngokwakhe, kwaye ukususela ngaloo mzuzu ndadlula esihogweni ndaya ezulwini. Okona kuzola kunzulu kwaphumelela esona saqhwithi sishushu, kwaye u-J.C. weva emazantsi entliziyo yam la mazwi athuthuzelayo, achitha yonke inkathazo nayo yonke isiphithiphithi: “Ndiyakwamkela, ntombi yam, imbeko yeminqweno yakho neyakho. umntu; Thembeka kum ungoyiki, ndiya kukwazi ukukukhusela kwiintshaba zakho. Ndim ondithathele ukwabelana kwakho, kwaye ndim, ukuba uyasabela kubizo lwakho, oya kuba sisabelo sakho kwixesha nasemaphakadeni. »

Kwakanye Bawo ndandicinga ukuba ulonwabo lwam luqinisekisiwe, kwaye kuloo nto ndandisazincoma kakhulu. Ngelo xesha, ndaziva ndonwabile kwaye ndizolile kangangokuba ngendandinesibindi sokuchasa sonke isihogo. Bekuya kuba kukuzicingela, kwaye uJ.-C. akafuni ukuba sithembele kwiziqu zethu. Irhamncwa, endandingasaloyiki, lalixakwe kukuphela koncedo lwezulu, yinyani; wade wabaleka; kodwa akuzange kube lixesha elide, kwaye ndandinayo

 

 

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kusekho amadabi amaninzi ekufuneka kuliwe, zininzi izenzo ezigwenxa ekufuneka zinyamezele kuye. Siza kuthetha ngaloo nto ngelinye ixesha.

 

Ubabalo olungaqhelekanga alufumana ku-J.-C. Imincili yakhe nolonwabo lwakhe.

“Egameni likaBawo, njl. »

Ekugqibeleni, Bawo, izibhambathiso zam ezinzulu zavakaliswa, umsebenzi wam wenziwa, phezu kwayo yonke imizamo yesihogo; Ekugqibeleni ndaba ngunongendi ngonaphakade, kwaye u-J.-C. akazange abe thuba lide ekundiboniseni ukwaneliseka kwakhe ngezinto ezintsha ngokupheleleyo nezilungelelanisiweyo; nditheni? ingaphezulu lee kunayo yonke into endamenzela yona. Kunqabile ukuba ndixelelwe kwiinyanga ezimbalwa ngaphambi kokuba anxibelelane nam ngobabalo kunye neenceba ezininzi kakhulu kunakuqala, ezathi kungekudala zaba njengesiqhelo kude kube ngoko, uya kukholelwa, Bawo? iziphumo. Andifane ndibe nabuganga bakukuthetha, kuba ndinoloyiko lokuba zonke ezona zinto zinzulu ndikwenze ukuba uzibhale ziya kubalelwa kubugxwayiba; ngokuba, Bawo,

Ubuya kuthi uThixo unyanzelekile ukuba amise apho, engakhange aqhubele phambili. Bexhaswe sisizathu njengenkohliso njengoko ibuthathaka, banobuganga bokuthi, bamlandelele umgca apho, ngokutsho kwabo, akanako ukuphambuka, kwaye agatye ngekratshi nendelelo, njengokungafanelanga kuye, konke okwenzayo. bengavumelani nendlela yabo yokubona nokugweba. Mabazi, aba bazizidenge, ukuba uThixo akabakhathaleli, nokuba kungakhathaliseki ukuba ziziphi na iingqiqo zabo ezingento yanto, wenza okumkholisayo, yaye ngendlela abona kufanelekile ngayo, ukuze kuzukiswe yena nombulelo kubo bonke abo bafuna ukuthabatha  . inzuzo yayo...

Okokuqala, uBawo wam, u-J.-C. unxibelelane nam kwaye wandenza ukuba ndibe namava okukhanya okungaqhelekanga okuthi ngamanye amaxesha kude kufikelele ekuveliseni ukuhluthwa kokusetyenziswa kweemvakalelo, ukuxhwilwa, imincili… wenza uMthendeleko ngaphandle kokufumana into efanayo. Intsimbi yayikhala ecaleni kwam; sasicula; kwangena oonongendi

ikwayara, okanye ndiphume kuyo, ndingakhange ndiyiqaphele nakancinci loo nto. Ndaxwilwa kuThixo, kodwa ndisesendaweni yam, ndingashukumi kwaye ndiziva ndingaziva. Ukubuyela kum, andizange ndihlale ndikhumbula oko kwenzeka ngaphakathi kum. Nantsi, nangona kunjalo, kukho iimpawu ezimbalwa endizikhumbule ngokucacileyo, kwaye ndiza kukuxelela: ngoko sinokucinga ngazo zonke esizifunayo. Xa ndinikela le ngxelo kuni, ndisaya kuthobela kuphela umyalelo endiwufumeneyo.

 

 

Uzifumana enjengomntwana omncinci ezandleni zikaJ.-C.

Ixesha lokuqala ukwenzeka into enje kum yayikumthendeleko, kwiinyanga ezine okanye ezintlanu emva kwezifungo zam ezinzulu. Hayi indlela ekwakumnandi ngayo ukumangaliswa, xa ndandisembindini wokukhanya okuqaqambileyo nokunaba ngakumbi, nalapho ubukho bukaThixo babonakala babonakala ngakumbi kunangaphambili, ndazifumana ndikwimo yomntwana omncinane ezandleni zikaJ. , owayendixabisile. Ndandisongelwe ngamanapkeni, ndingenawo amandla, ndingashukumi; yonke into endandinayo ngaphezu kwabantwana abaqhelekileyo yayibubulumko bokwazi umncedi wam, kunye nentando yokumthanda, ukumbulela, ngaphandle kokukwazi ukwenza oko buthathaka kakhulu. Ndikhumbula ukuba wathi kum xa wayendiphulula: “Kunjalo ke, mntwana wam, ukuba ulungiselelo lwam lusoloko likujongile ukugcinwa kwakho, yaye ubusoloko usezandleni zothando lwam. Ngokuba,

Ke ngoko ndifuna, ntombi yam, yaqhubeka, ukuphendula kukhathalelo lobubele bam, ukuba, njengomntwana omncinci ommeleyo ngalo mzuzu, uhambelana kuyo yonke into nentando yam engcwele, ukwenza kwaye ufuna kuphela into endiya kuyifuna  .  kuwe  .” Emveni koko, Bawo, ndabuyiselwa kwakum  nokwam

ifomu yam eqhelekileyo. Olu phawu kunye nezinye ezininzi ezifana nalo zakhunjuzwa ngokucacileyo engqondweni yam xa saqalisa ukubhala izityhilelo zam. J.-C. uthi kum: Ngoku yintombi yam, omele ukuba ukwimeko yomntwana omncinane, othi, kude nokuba azise nakuphi na ukuchasa ukuthanda kukanina, avisisane nako ngaphandle kokukuqonda. Yiyo le ke imeko endiyifunayo kuni.

 

Kwesinye imbonakalo ka-J.-C., ufuna ngothando ukuba angene ezingalweni zakhe. Uziva ecaphukile. Amazwi awevayo.

Kwimeko enjalo u-J. Ngamanye amaxesha ndandiqubuda ezinyaweni zakhe ukuze ndimnqule, kwaye ngamanye amaxesha, ndingakwazi ukumelana nokulangazelela kwam, ndandiziphosa ezingalweni zakhe; kodwa ndazibona ndihlala ndigxothwa esifubeni sayo, nto leyo evuselela umnqweno endandivutha ngawo wokufikelela kuyo kwaye ndiphumle apho. Ndenza ilinge elifanayo izihlandlo ezininzi kwaye ndihlala ndililize. Ngequbuliso kwavakala ilizwi elikhulu kum elingathi lelomoya osikelelekileyo: Akukafiki ixesha, wakhala kum, ezi nceba zithengwa kuphela ngeembandezelo kunye neminqamlezo ngenxa yothando lwakhe. Ke ngoko ndazivalela ekubanqweneleni, njengekuphela kwendlela yokonwaba, kwaye nam

 

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kwakulula kakhulu esandleni sam, kwaza kuthetha ukuba kusezandleni zam; ukuba nangawuphi na umzuzu ndingayisebenzisa ndize ndiyisebenzise; ngokuba, uyintoni umntu ehlabathini ongenalo ithuba lokubandezeleka okuthile ngenxa yothando lukaJ.-C.? kwaye nguwuphi na umhla wobomi bethu ongasinikiyo iindlela eziliwaka zokuhambela phambili ngolo hlobo kwiinceba zakhe ezilungileyo, nokwenza inkqubela kolo thando lungcwele lulodwa olunokusenza sonwabe ixesha nangonaphakade!...

 

Ingxelo yobabalo awalufumana kuJ.-C. kwiMithetho Engcwele.

Ngaphezu kwako konke, Bawo, malunga ne-Eucharist engcwele nethandekayo, apho uThixo wayesoloko endinike ukuzinikela okubuhlungu kakhulu, ukuba izinto ezimangalisayo zenzekile kum, ngokukhanya okungcwele kunye nokungaqhelekanga esithe sathetha ngako  . kakhulu. Ndimele ndikwenze ukuba uqaphele, ngokukukhumbuza ngezinye zeempawu eziphambili eziye zaba, ngokungathi kunjalo, umthombo kunye nemvelaphi yezibane ezininzi, kwaye ngesihlandlo endiye ndazi uninzi lwezinto sele uzibhalele ukuba uzibhale.

Oku kudibana kothando, ukuba ubani angatsho njalo, oku kuqhelana ngokusondeleyo nenkosi yam yobuThixo, uMsindisi wam noThixo wam, kwaqala ngomhla ka-Augustine oNgcwele, xa ndandiye kuqubuda ku-J.-C. imizuzu embalwa. Kwaku, ukuba ndikhumbula kakuhle, ubuncinane iminyaka emithathu okanye emine emva komsebenzi wam. Ndachukunyiswa ngokucacileyo bubukho bokwenene bukaJ.-C., kwiDini leMithendeleko lobuthixo, kangangokuba umntu wayenokuthi ngoko ubunyani bobu bukho bundilandela kuyo yonke indawo, kwaye kuyo yonke indawo bundenza ndizazi intshabalalo yoThixo wam ngoku. imfihlelo, iyathandeka. Owu ukuba abo bakuthandabuzayo oko, ukuba abo bangakholwayo bayalikhanyela baze balinyelise, banokulufumana olo babalo; ukuba iinkanuko zabo, ukungakholwa kwabo, ukholo lwabo olubi, ubumfama babo, ubungendawo babo, abubeki miqobo apho!... Kodwa ngelishwa!. UThixo ngumnini wezipho zakhe, Abangahloneli Thixo nikezela

abangafanelekiyo: ngoko ke kukho uThixo ofihlakeleyo kubo!....

Ingqondo nentliziyo yam zazithe gqolo zijoliswa ngakuMthendeleko oSikelelweyo; Ndandisoloko ndiyibona, ubuncinci ngamehlo okholo, kwaye ngendlela engenakucaciswa kakuhle, ngenxa yokunqongophala kothelekiso olunika ingcamango nje yoko.

Izihlandlo eziliwaka, yaye ngokukodwa ebudeni beDini Elingcwele loMthendeleko, ndacinga ukuba ndibone uJ.

amehlo omzimba, ndingathethi ukuba ndiyibonile ngokwenene. Ekuphakameni kohlobo olungcwalisiweyo, kwakubonakala kum ukuba kusezandleni zombingeleli, ejikelezwe yiglowubhu yokukhanya, kwaye konke kukhazimla bubuqaqawuli nobungangamsha. Ilanga aliqaqambi kangako kubo bonke ubuqaqawuli balo. Emva koko ndambona elele esibingelelweni, ekwimo yokutshiswa, engqina kwabaninzi ukulangazelela kwakhe ukwamkelwa kubo ngoMthendeleko oNgcwele, nokungafuni kwakhe ukungena ezintliziyweni zabanye.

 

Ukuthandana kwakhe noJ.-C.

Ndawubona umnquba ongcwele izihlandlo ezininzi njengeziko lothando, uJ.-

C. embindini wawo amadangatye asulungekileyo mandibone umntwana omncinci wobuhle obugqithisayo, ehleli phezu kweentlobo ezigcinwe apho, kwaye ekhonza njengekhuselo elingekho semthethweni, eligquma umzimba wakhe othandekayo kunye nokuthobisa ukubengezela kobungangamsha bakhe. ... Ndambona, ndamva, wolula izandla zakhe kum wandibiza kuye. Gweba into emele ukuba yayiyimisebenzi yeminqweno yam!

Kulapha, wandixelela, ukuba ndingumthinjwa wothando lwam!... Umfundisi kunye nexhoba ngaxeshanye, kulapha apho ndisanelisa ubulungisa bukaBawo wam osezulwini, kwaye ndisammolate yonke  imihla usindiso lwabo bonke. Kulapha ke apho ndilindele zonke iintliziyo ukuba zibaxhelele kum, ndibatshise ngamadangatye andiqwengayo... Yiza ntombi yam, uze uzimanye nentliziyo yam engcwele ukuze uhloniphe umbhali wakho njengoko efanelwe yimbeko. ukuba!...  Khawuleza  !. Yiza,  singabi nayo

Intliziyo enye kuphela nothando olunye, kwaye uya kuziva ukhululekile kwizilingo nakwiintlungu ezikongamelayo! Olu manyano lungcwele, umthombo wolonwabo lwakho  , luya kubulala ubundlobongela beminqweno yakho kwaye lucime umlilo wenkanuko yakho  ....

Hayi! Yini na ukuba nibandezeleke bantwana babantu? kutheni uqhubeka ufuna ukubhubha ekubeni iyeza lisezandleni  zakho! yiza  wonke umntu,

kwaye ungaphindi uxhathise intumekelelo yothando lwam! Hayi! Bawo, kukangaphi ndisifumana esi simemo sothando nesicinezelayo esivela kuThixo wam! kukangaphi ndiwabona amandla amakhulu eli  yeza lezulu!...

Kwiiveki ezimbini okanye ngaphezulu olu thethathethwano lwethenda, ezi zimemo zothando azizange ziphele; kwakulandela ezi ncoko zichukumisayo no-J.-C. awathi wandiyalela iindlela ezintandathu endikhe ndathetha ngazo nawe kwenye indawo, endathi ndakunika zona kuqala ngokubhala. Ke mna ndakubona kwaoko konke oko abekufuna kum, wathi, Nguye ngokwakhe owathi, wathetha kum ilizwi ngelizwi, njengoko nazileyo nazibhalayo; Wandicacisela intsingiselo yawo, waza wafuna ukuba ndizibophelele kuso ngesibhambathiso, esongezelela ngokuthi yayiyindlela yokumkholisa nokwanelisa ubulungisa bakhe.

ngenxa yezono zam nezabantu bonke. Noko ke, wandixelela ukuba akafuni kusithwalisa uxanduva isazela sam

 

 

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ngendlela yokundenza ndibe netyala, ukuba ngamanye amaxesha ndiye ndasilela ukwenjenjalo, ukuba nje bekunjalo ngaphandle kokudelela nangaphandle kokungakhathali kwam. Ekugqibeleni, Bawo, wandiyalela ngendlela ondenze ngayo ukuba ndisivuselele isibhambathiso ngayo yonke imihla yam. Ngoko wayefuna ukuba ndiye kubaphathi bam.

Ngenxa yoko, ndalinda unyaka wonke ngaphambi kokuba ndizibophelele kuwo kwasekuqaleni, yaye oko ndakwenza kuphela ngemvume kaM. Audouin ongasekhoyo, owayesandul’ ukungena ezihlangwini zikaM. Duclos. Kwakungomhla weNtliziyo eNgcwele, emva komthendeleko wam, apho ndenza khona esi sifungo sekamva. Ngalo mzuzu kanye ndihlala ecaleni kwam uJ.-C. owayebonakala ekuvuma kakhulu oku kuzibophelela. Emva koko wabonakala phantsi komfanekiselo womfundisi onxibe ialb entle kakhulu, kodwa ngaphezu kwayo yonke loo nto ebumhlophe obuqaqambileyo kangangokuba amehlo am ayethe ntsho yaye kwakungenakwenzeka ukuba ndimjonge.

Kwezinye iindibano eziliwaka, ezinye endikuxelele zona kwenye indawo, umoya wam waya kuJ.-C. kwiSakramente eSikelelekileyo yesibingelelo, ngako oku kukhanya kungaqhelekanga; kwaye mhlawumbi izivamvo zomzimba zachatshazelwa ngokwenene yiyo, njengoko bendisoloko ndikholelwa, okanye yonke into yenzeka engqondweni yam kuphela nangamehlo okholo, nangona kwenzeka ntoni, ndinokuthi ngengqiqo yokwenene, ukuba ndabona uJ. .-C., ukuba ndamva, ukuba ndancokola naye; kwaye ukuba bendikwinkohliso, njengoko umntu engayi kusilela ukucinga, ezona ndawo zimnandi kakhulu apho umntu anokuba khona. Oku kufane kubizwe ngokuba yinkohliso bekusoloko kundinika olona lonwabo lugqibeleleyo nolokwenyaniso ndakha ndalungcamla emhlabeni, ukusa kwinqanaba lokuba zonke ezinye iziyolo ziye zanyamalala ngaphambi kolu. Le yinto eqinisekileyo, kwaye yintoni umngeni.

 

Ubabalo alufumanela abanye. I-AD imenza aqonde imeko yokuba zingqondweni zabanye abantu.

Ndimele ndiphinde ndikuxelele, Bawo, ukuba ngokwanda kokulunga, uThixo ngamanye amaxesha ebefuna ukucingela abanye kunokuba acinge ngam iingenelo zakhe.

ndandongamela ndingenamsebenzi. Ngaphezu kwesihlandlo esinye uye wandenza ndayiqonda imeko yezazela, kwaye ngaphezu komphefumlo omnye wazuza kulwazi awayendinike lona. Ndayibona ke yonke into eyayisenzeka ezingqondweni nasezintliziyweni zabantu abathile, izilingo ababedibana nazo okanye ababeza kudibana nazo, imigibe awayebalungisela yona usathana, ndandinoxanduva lokubalumkisa, ndibabonisa. kuthetha ukufumanisa le migibe kunye nokuphazamisa amacebo kunye namaqhinga otshaba lwabo. Abo bazilandelayo izilumkiso zam balukhohlisile ulindelo lwakhe olukhohlakeleyo; Ngokuchaseneyo noko, abo bathandabuzayo nokuxambulisana, basuka bathabatheka kukungakholwa kwabo, ababanga kudala baguquka kuko.

Le nto indehlele, Bawo, malunga namakholwa ahlukeneyo, abezonqulo, abecawe, ngamanye amaxesha nakwabo bandiphetheyo, kwanabavumayo, njengoko besenditshilo kuni, endibanike amacebiso ahlukeneyo, ngokombono wabo. iimfuno ezahlukeneyo, ngokokukhanya endakubona kuThixo, ndaza ndathetha nabo kuJ.-C.; Ekugqibeleni, Bawo, ndikhe ndakulumkisa ngokwakho, njengokuba usazi.

(1) Ndiye ndanikela ingxelo kwezinye iindawo ngezilumkiso ezahlukeneyo endazinikwa ngulo dade.

 

Ndicinga ngonongendi ngenye imini, ndandisazi ukuba wayehendeke gqitha likratshi. Ndabona ngendlela efanayo ukuba isicaka sendlu sasingazi negama lenkolo yaso, nto leyo eyangqinwa bubudenge beempendulo awayezinika eyona mibuzo ilula yekatekisimu. Yeha! bangaphi abanye, abanolwazi ngakumbi kunaye kuzo zonke ezinye izinto, abangaziyo ngakumbi ngale ngongoma ibalulekileyo! Babesele beyifundile ikatekizim yabo ngaphambili; kodwa abazange bayibone ukususela ebuntwaneni, yaye inkangeleko ababenayo ngayo iye yacinywa ngokupheleleyo kwiinkumbulo zabo nasezingqondweni zabo.

Ngexesha elithile kwakukho i-boarder apha ekuthethwa ngayo kakhulu kuluntu: wayenxiba iinwele kunye ne-cilice, ehlala ethatha ukuqeqeshwa, wayeziqhelanisa ne-austerities engaqhelekanga, apho wonke umntu wayesazi. Wayevakala encwina imini nobusuku ngendlela ephazamisa uxolo lwabanye, kwanekwayala yoonongendi. UThixo undenze ndabona ukuba ukhohlisiwe ngusathana. Ndaya egameni lakhe ukuba ndimazise ngako: wazifumana ephazamisekile kuthumo lwam, waza wachukunyiswa bubungqina endimnike bona, kangangokuba wavuma ukuhanahanisa kwakhe nekratshi lakhe.

UM. Duclos, owaba ngumphathi weParigné, waba nelishwa lokukhaba omnye wabantwana becawa yakhe awayebafundisa ikatekisimu. Ngosuku olulandelayo, okanye kwangaloo mini, umntwana wahlaselwa ngumkhuhlane omkhulu owathi

wayisusa ngephanyazo. Abazali balo mntwana batyhola umphathi wabo ngokufa kwakhe, ngento abayibiza ngokuba bubundlavini bakhe. UM. Duclos wayenokuncinane ukuzithethelela ngaphandle kokuba umzimba womntwana ukhutshwe engcwabeni uze uhlolwe. Abahlobo bakhe bambongoza ukuba enjenjalo: yena ngokwakhe wayekholelwa ukuba eli khondo liyimfuneko ukuze aphephe ukubethwa kwengxwabangxwaba kunye neziphumo ezinokubakho; ngoba yintoni ihlazo

 

 

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irhamente, kwaye kunzima kwaye kulihlazo kangakanani ukuba umfundisi athathwe njengombulali womntwana awayefuna ukumfundisa, kwaye lowo wayenike nje isiluleko sobubele ukuze ahlawule ngakumbi?

Lo mcimbi wawulandelwa ngamandla, kwaye uM. Duclos wayenentloni enkulu: wayekwinqanaba lokuba umzimba ukhutshwe; kodwa uThixo undiwisele umthetho wokuba ndize naye ukuze angakwenzi oko. Ukukhutshwa kwesidumbu engcwabeni, ndamxelela, akunakungqina nto kuwe, kwaye ngokuchaseneyo kuya kushiya umbono ongathandekiyo kwiingqondo zamarhamente akho. Yiva ubunzima okwethutyana, kwaye uThixo uthembisa ukukugwebela ngcono. M. Duclos wayityhutyha, yaye kwiiveki ezimbalwa kamva abamangaleli bakhe namangqina abo obuxoki beza ngokwabo ukuze barhoxe, bamenze imbuyekezo esidlangalaleni ekupheleni kobunzima obukhulu (1).

(1) Olu phawu ndaluxelelwa xa ndandingumfundisi werhamente enye, apho abantu abaninzi babesazi.

 

Emva konyulo olwalukho kwibutho labantu endingalibizanga ngagama, uThixo wandenza ndabona ukuba owongamileyo omtsha wayengekho ngokokhetho lwakhe, nendlela awayeyisebenzisa ngayo ayinakumkholisa. Kunyulo olulandelayo kwaqhutyekwa, waza uThixo wathi kum: Kwakufuna, kodwa akuyi kuba lixesha elide. Ngokwenene wafa kungekudala

emva kokuba ababini bethu ababehlala nabo, ababengoodade, babonakala  befuna

ngena nakunqulo. Ndababona ephupheni bobabini; kodwa omnye wayenxibe njengonongendi, yaye omnye njengosandul’ ukutshata. Ndabhengeza kule nxalenye ukuba ngamnye wabo wayeza kuthabatha, kwaye isaziso sam saqinisekiswa ngumsitho. Kodwa siya kuthetha kwenye indawo ngamaphupha am esiprofeto.

Uyalazi nekamva labanye abantu abaswelekileyo.

Apha, Bawo, yinxalenye yoko uThixo wandenza ndakubona ngokuthanda abantu abathile, nokuba ngelo xesha wayendiyalela ngokubanzi ngekamva leCawa ngokubanzi, nelaseFransi. Bekuya kuba phantse akunakwenzeka ukuba ndininike zonke iimeko zezi zityhilelo malunga naba bantu, ezithi ngamanye amaxesha zihambe zade zandazisa  ngekamva labantu abaswelekileyo; njengoko kwenzekayo phakathi kwabanye ngokuphathelele uMama uSante-Hyacinthe, okungena kwakhe ezulwini ndakufunda emva kweentsuku ezimbalwa kwindawo yentlambululo-miphefumlo. Ndandisazi nokuba zeziphi iimpazamo awayezichithe  apho.

Ingxelo endayinikela kuMama yayingqinelana ngokugqibeleleyo neleta esayifumana kuBawo uCornillaye, umntakwabo, owabalisa oko kwakuthethwe kuye ngalo mbandela ngumhlolokazi waseNantes, awathi uThixo wadlulisela kuye ukukhanya okufanayo ngombandela wenyaniso. ikamva likaMadam Sainte-Hyacinthe (1).

(1) Ngoxa ndandibhala le ndawo, ndandinayo phambi kwamehlo am umbhalo wale leta awayeyixelelwe nguMphathi. Wanyamezela, ukuba emva kweentsuku ezininzi zemithandazo kunye nenguquko yokukhululwa kunye nokubuyiselwa konongendi ogulayo, lo mhlolokazi ulungileyo nongcwele elele ebhedini, weva izikhalazo kunye nokuncwina egumbini lakhe, awakubonayo kukhanyiswe ngokukhanya okungaqhelekanga  . Wathi xa ephakama ethandaza, wabona lo nongendi owathi  kuye

nokokuba wayenguDade Sainte-Hyacinthe awayemthandazele kakhulu, ngengcebiso yomlawuli wakhe, kodwa waye wabandezeleka kwikamva labo bonke abantu; ukuba wambongoza ukuba ayigqibe i-novena awayeyiqalile, kwaye ahlawule inxanxathela awayenalo uthando olwalumthembise lona. Ngemini elandelayo imisa yathethwa ngentseni nguBawo Cornillaye, umnakwabo womfi. Umhlolokazi ongcwele wayekho, kwaye wabona, lonke ixesha ledini, unongendi kaClare oNgcwele eguqe kwinqanaba lokuqala lesibingelelo. Wanyamalala emva kwentsikelelo, waza umhlolokazi wambona enyukela esibhakabhakeni, enxibe uhlobo lweenkwenkwezi ezimpahleni zakhe. Wancomela umzukulwana wakhe kuye, owayephethwe sisifo esiphelelwe lixesha, waza wazifumana ephilisiwe ngoko nangoko. Nangona ixesha lihamba, thina ndiyikhumbule kwaye sisathetha ngayo. Kubonakala, ngobungqina boonongendi, ukuba inyaniso yayizinzile, kunye nokuhambelana kwayo nengxelo kaDade, ongazange abe nobudlelwane obuncinane kunye nomhlolokazi waseNantes. Siyazi ukuba kwenzeka ntoni kuDade emva kokufa kukaMadame Saint-Benoît.

 

Kutshanje, Bawo, uThixo undenze ndalibona ikamva elibi lolona tshaba lwakhe lukhulu, athe walubizela kwinkundla yakhe, nokufa kwakhe ngokukhawuleza kwabangela uvakalelo. Uyandinqanda ukuba ndimthiye igama: ufuna nam, ngokubanzi, ukuba ndiyeke ukuwisa isigwebo kwabo abagwetyiweyo, nokuba bebezezona ntshaba zakhe zibhengezweyo. Ke bona aba baphilayo undenza ndiqonde ukuba mandibathandazele, ndibasikelele; ukuba inceba yakhe ibe kwabaninzi, nakuye

akukho namnye ongakulufanelanga ukuxolelwa nguye. Ke, Bawo wam, masiyiyeke yonke into ekulungeni kwakhe, kwaye sibeke ecaleni kude kube lixesha elizayo ukuqhubeka kobomi bam bangaphakathi; kwaye oko kuya kuba kamva, ukuba uyathanda.

 

Uhlaselo olutsha lwedemon ngokuchasene noDade. Egameni likaYise, loNyana, njl.

Kwakungenakwenzeka ukuba ubabalo oluninzi kwaye olungaqhelekanga lunikezelwe kum ngaphandle kokuba idemoni ibe nomona kwaye ithatha ithuba lokuhlasela ukuthobeka kwam ngekratshi, ukuba wayesazi kakuhle kuphela ukuba ndiyayikhuthaza, kwaye mhlawumbi, mhlawumbi, ibe negalelo elikhulu ekusileleni kweprojekthi yokuqala ukubhala, njengoko siza kubona kungekudala. Ewe, kufuneka ndiyivume, ukuba into ayizange iphumelele ekuqaleni, njengoko abantu abangcwele nabafundileyo babeyinqwenele, ndiyitsho kwihlazo nokudideka kwam,

 

 

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ngakumbi ikratshi lam ekufuneka lihlaselwe. Ewe, likratshi lam lobudemon, athe uThixo wafuna ukulihlazisa nokohlwaya, le nto simele ukuba ngaphezu kwako konke sibabale eli lishwa libi (1).

(1) Sibona ngolu hlobo kunye nezityholo ezifanayo eziliwaka, ukuba uDade akazigodli kwaye akakhohliswa. Abo babeza kuhendelwa ukuba bamgqale njengomhanahanisi ubuncinane bamele bavume ukuba wayeya kuba ngumhanahanisi oluhlobo oluthile, nokuba kwakuya kuba nzima ukufumana lowo unokuthelekiswa naye.

 

Idemon ke ngoko ayizange isilele ukundihenda kwelo cala, yaye omnye unokuthi ibeke bonke ubuqhophololo nobuchule bayo kuyo. Waqala ke ngoko, ekugqibeleni, ngokusasaza emphefumlweni wam imbewu yeli bhongo lingonwabanga, ngokufuna kuzo zonke izenzo zam iindlela zokondla nokugcina ukuzithemba ethe intliziyo yam ekhohlakeleyo ibisoloko izaliswe ngayo. Wabonisa ubuncinci bam ubuhle ngononophelo olukhulu, kwaye wandinika, ngaphandle kwam, iimvakalelo zokukhetha ngaphezu kwabanye. Wandithelekisa nabona bangcwele babalaseleyo, wasebenzisa naliphi na ithuba ukundibonisa indlela endandimkholisa ngayo uThixo ngokuthobeka kwam, umonde wam, nendlela uThixo awayendigcinele ngayo ubabalo nobabalo angazange abe nalo. isanikwa

umntu; nokuba ekugqibeleni ngenye imini ndiya kuba phezulu kakhulu ezulwini kunabanye abaninzi abathi, nangona kunjalo, iBandla libabeke apho. Wayesoloko  endikhumbuza ngezi  ngcinga zingeyomfuneko nezizibaxa ngokwenene.

Wahambela phambili ngakumbi, waguqulwa waba sisithunywa sokukhanya; wazama ukuwenza umsebenzi kaThixo ube ngoofefe ngembonakalo. Kwakhona yayiziintlobo zezibane ezithi ngamanye amaxesha zibethe ingqondo ngokucace kakhulu, kodwa ezazisebenza kuphela ukuyidambisa okanye ukuyikhubekisa, kunokuba ziyikhanyisele. Izibane zobuxoki, ke ngoko, ezingazange zichaphazele ubunzulu bomphefumlo ngendlela ebendithetha ngayo ngaphambili. Kunokuba waneliseke kwaye ukhanyiselwe, umphefumlo wahlala ekubhidekeni okukhulu nakubumnyama obungqingqwa. Ngoko ke yonke into yayiphelele ekukhohliseni ingqondo, kwaye ngamanye amaxesha izivamvo, ezaziphazamisekile kwaye zichaphazelekayo. Intliziyo yahlala ingenangqondo, okanye ubuncinane ukudumba okuthile kwahlala, kwahluke kakhulu kwimbono ye

Ndiyakhumbula, ngalo mbandela, ukuba ngenye imini xa ukuthobela kwandibiza ukuba ndisebenze kwindawo emdaka nemdaka, idemon yandenza ndaziva ndiva ivumba elimnandi nelinomtsalane, endingazange ndikwazi ukuqikelela unobangela walo. yandikhuthaza ukuba nguThixo owayivelisayo ngenxa yobungcwele bam obukhulu. Yabona, uthe kum, ukukuthanda kwakhe, akuthandayo; Ukususela ngelo xesha kwafunyanwa umgibe, kwaye yonke into yanyamalala. Ndahlala ke kwivumba eliphuma ngokwemvelo kwindawo endandisebenza kuyo.

Ngaloo ndlela ke, Bawo, ngamaxesha athile, olu tshaba lwaluba neentloni  luzibhaqe kweyakhe iminatha; kodwa ukungadinwa kwahamba kuphela ngobuchule obungakumbi kamva; kwaye ekude nokuphazamiseka, wayekwazi ukuthabatha ithuba lokoyiswa kwakhe, kwaye wayesoloko ebuyela kwityala enobushushu obutsha. Wayezijul' ijacu ukuze afune ukudunyiswa ngendlela engathethekiyo kuyo yonke indawo ngenxa yam kunye noqheliselo lwam lokuhlonela uThixo. Ndeva kusithiwa ndicelwe ukuba ndenze imodeli yokulunga. Udade wethu uNgcwele , bathi; ungunongendi  obalaseleyo  . Ndenza ngathi andiyikholelwa,  kwaye

nokungeva oko; kodwa ndafumana ndafumana nto, phezu kwam nje into eyayindixelela ngaphakathi: Ayinakuba ngenye indlela.

Abavumayo bam ngokwabo abazange basilele ukufaka isandla kuyo, bengazi, ngokubaluleka okuncinci ababendibonisa ngamanye amaxesha: kuba umtyholi wayekwazi ukuthatha inzuzo kuyo yonke into. Omnye wabo, engazi, wathi kum ngenye imini: “Dadewethu, ngoku ufihlwe endaweni engcwele; ngenye imini uya kubekwa phezu  kwesiphatho  sesibane O mazulu! oko kubethwa kukuthobeka kwam, kwaye  oku

ilizwi endinike ukuba ndenze! Ngethamsanqa, uThixo, ngokungathandabuzekiyo ukuba andohlwaye ngenxa yoko, uye wandihlazisa ukususela ngoku ngabavumayo bam. Malunga nam andazi

ngawaphi amarhe aphuma phandle, abantu behlabathi beza kundibona ngabom, bandicela ephareni ukuba ndibonisane nam. Ndathi nje ndakuyibona ndabagxotha. Ngamanye amaxesha ndide ndibangxamele okanye ndingabaphenduli. Ukuze ndiphelise lonke olu tyelelo luyingozi noluchukumisayo, ndancama ukutyelela le ndlu yangasese, yaye andizange ndiye apho ukususela ngoko.

Mhlawumbi (1) ndandinganikezeli ngokupheleleyo kwikratshi; kodwa idemoni elithe cwaka lihlehla emazantsi entliziyo yam, lalisoloko linendima yalo kuzo zonke izenzo zam, nakwimisebenzi yam engcono kakhulu. Ubuncinane yiloo nto endandiyiqonda, xa kwathi qatha kum ngenye imini ukuba ndiza kwenza uphononongo ngokubanzi. Wayexakekile ebopha kwaye esenza ipakethe equlunqwe zizo zonke izinto awayeziqokelele, kwaye njengoko zazibhikiciwe, kuyo yonke imisebenzi emihle yobomi bam. Umoya wakhe okhohlakeleyo, ukuhleka kwakhe okuhlekisayo kwabonakala ngathi kukuthetha kum: nantoni na oyenzayo, ndiya kuba nesabelo sam kuyo yonke into, kwaye konke oku kukwam ngenxa yokulunga kwakho. Kwaye ngenene, ikratshi lalindimfamekisile kwizinto ezininzi endandisoloko ndizifihla, ndingakholelwa esonweni.

1 ngokupheleleyo, kwaye yonke into entle yaphela kwizilingo kunye nokulwa.

 

 

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Kodwa, Bawo, eyona nto yandibamba ngakumbi kwesi sihendo siyingozi nesiqalekisiweyo sekratshi yayiziimbonakalo kunye nemibono, ubabalo olungaqhelekanga olwandibabalwa ngalo lizulu. Akukho mathandabuzo okuba utshaba lwam beluya kunditshabalalisa ngokupheleleyo ngenxa yekratshi, ukuba uThixo ebengalisebenzisanga ngokwakhe ukundihlazisa, ezoba, njengoko wenzayo, uhlaselo lokulwa, ityhefu ngokwayo.

 

Imibono nezityhilelo eziphathelele iBandla, nawayezibhale nguM  . Audouin,  umlawuli wakhe.

Kuthe ngeli xesha uThixo wayekholiswa ukundibuyekeza ngenxa yeentlungu zam ngamaxesha athile entuthuzelo yangaphakathi, apho ndaba nemibono emininzi  kunye nezityhilelo eziye zasixakekisa kakhulu kwikamva leCawa. Ndathetha  naye

abantu abambalwa abachukumiseke kakhulu yile nto ndibaxelele yona. Okuncinci okwenzekayo kwenza ingxolo enkulu. Ababingeleli abalungileyo, abafundisi bezakwalizwi abanobuchule, bahlanganisana ukuze baxoxe ngayo. Kwazinziswa phakathi kwabo ukuba ngendibe nokuqhubekeka kwezityhilelo ezibhaliweyo endandibaxelele ngazo. M. Audouin, ngoko owayengumalathisi wethu, endandithembele ngaye kakhulu, waluphumeza olu thumo lubuhlungu, awaluphumeza ngenzondelelo enkulu nangenyameko ekhethekileyo. Kodwa ke, Bawo, idemon yayikwazi ukudlala indima yalo kakuhle kangangokuba yade yafumana ithuba lokuvusa uqhushululu eluntwini, olwathi lwaqhekeka lwangamaqela amabini. Wasebenzisa ithuba lokuziphatha kwam okubi, mhlawumbi kwanabanye, ukuze axhokonxe owona msindo mkhulu nxamnye nam, njengesaqhwithi eside endakha ndasongamela.

UMnu Audoin. Kodwa, Bawo, le ntsilelo yeza kuphela emva kweziganeko ezininzi, zonke ezichaseneyo nezindihlazisa ngakumbi.

 

Imibhalo yakhe itshisiwe. Ukuthotywa kwakhe okukhulu ngayo. Upasa ngenxa yegeza kunye nombono.

Bawo, ekuqaleni izinto azizange zibekho emfihlekweni njengoko kwakusenzeka phakathi kwam nawe. Udliwano-ndlebe lwam oluyimfihlo noM. Audouin lwafunyanwa kungekudala. Ngokukhawuleza babangela ukukrokra kunye nokuthuka; bawagcina amanyathelo am, beza kusiphulaphula nokusihlola. Kwade kwavakala namarhe okuba ndiye ndeva ndithetha izinto ezigqithileyo kuM. Audouin, ezichukumisa amashwa awayeza kubandakanyeka kuwo abefundisi, izihandiba kwanentsapho yasebukhosini. Ndenziwa ukuba ndiphumelele kwimboni, ingqondo yokwenyani ephazamisekileyo: M. Audouin wangcikivwa ngokundigcina kwiinkohliso zam. Sahamba sade sabhalela abaphathi, kwaye i-parlor encinci yayingavunyelwanga kuthi.

(1) Noko ke, kungokwale ndlu incinane, yayikade ingavumelekanga, apho amanqaku okugqibela aphinda azotywa, kwanokuba izixhobo zomsebenzi omtsha zaphinda zapasiswa zaza zamkelwa. UThixo unokulibazisa awanyule amaxesha akhe; kodwa, xa ethanda, akukho nto inokuwabeka umqobo kumacebo akhe.

 

Mgwebi, Bawo, inokuba yandikhathaza kangakanani na yonke le nto; ukwenza izinto zibe mbi ngakumbi, uM. Larticle noM. Audouin bawa kancinane ngethuba  le nto ndandiyibhalile. Ekugqibeleni, yonke into yaphela njengoko besenditshilo  .

Kweziphi iintlungu, kokuphi ukuhlazeka oku kufanele kundiphose? Yaye yintoni eyayibangela ukuba ndingazihloneli! Yeha! Bawo, yindlela endandifumana ngayo imali eninzi kunokuba ndandicinga;

iintlungu, imizabalazo kunye nezilingo ezichasene nesisa ngenxa yenzondo nentiyo endayivayo ngakubo ooDade bam ababenobona bunzima.

yaba negalelo kwintlungu yam. Ingakanani inzame eyandichithayo ukoyisa le ntiyo, ngaphandle kobabalo olukhethekileyo, ngengazange indivumele

ukubabona ngeliso elilungileyo, nokuba ngaphezu kwako konke ukukhe ubathande ngokusuka emazantsi entliziyo, njengoko uThixo ayalele ngokubhekisele kubo bonke ngaphandle kokwahlulo! Ndonganyelwe lihlazo, ukubhideka kunye nokujongelwa phantsi, ndazibona ndisesichengeni sezinto ezihlekisayo abathi, ngalo lonke ixesha, banelise ikhwele labo eliyimfihlo. Ndaba yintsomi  kuluntu; kodwa uThixo wandinceda ukusa kwinqanaba lokufumana uyolo ekuziboneni ndithotywe ngolo hlobo, nangona ngaphandle kwezi zilingo ezahlukahlukeneyo neentlungu zomoya ngokwenene zaziyingcungcutheko yobomi bam  .

 

Ukuhenda kwakhe ngokuchasene nokholo kunye neemfihlelo.

Imizabalazo, izilingo kunye nosizi lwengqondo phezu kwento endiyikholelwayo; ngokuba zingaphi iindlela endihlasele ngazo idemon? Uyakukholelwa, Bawo, emva kwayo yonke into endikuxelele yona? wada wazama ukushukumisa ukholo lwam kwiimfihlelo eziphambili zonqulo lwethu; wandiphembelela ukuba ndithandabuze imfihlelo enkulu kaBathathu Emnye, leyo yokwenziwa komntu kaLizwi, nobunyulu obuhlala buhleli bukamama kaJ. Kangangexesha elide ndandinengxaki eyoyikekayo malunga nokufaneleka kobhaptizo lwam; owavumayo wam nokufunda kuye kwabangela ukuba kube njalo. Idemon, eyayikwazi ukuxhaphaza yonke into, yayisoloko indixelela ukuba andizange ndibhaptizwe ngokufanelekileyo. Wapeyinta ngokucacileyo kwintelekelelo yam iziphumo zesi siphene sokuqala esiyinkunzi, ukuba

 

 

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nokuba ngenene ndandibhaptiziwe, nokokuba, nokuba ndandingabhaptizwanga ngamanzi, ndandisenobhaptizo lomnqweno wokulungisa oko. Kwam kwabonakala ngathi ukuze andiqinisekise ngokubhekele phaya, wandenza ndabona umfanekiso kaBathathu Emnye Ungcwele okrolwe emazantsi omphefumlo wam. Andizange ndive nabuphi na obu buhlungu ngaloo nto.

Esinye isihendo awasigcina uMtyholi engqondweni yam ixesha elide yayikukukholelwa, okanye ubuncinci ukucinga, ukuba abo bangafanelekanga bagwetyelwe esihogweni ngaphandle kwesiphoso sabo, nangenxa yemimiselo kuphela eyayimiselwe kwangaphambili ngokungenakuguquleka apho. Wathi uMtyholi kum uThixo, uziphatha kubo njengendoda enguzwilakhe, enekhwele ngozuko lwakhe, ozibona ebekeke ngokulinganayo, nangeshwangusha  labakhonzi abancwinayo ezintolongweni, nangenxa yolonwabo lwabakhonzi nabathandwayo, igcwalisa ngeenzuzo zayo, ngaphandle kokuba kubekho ukufaneleka ngakumbi kwezinye kuneziphoso kwabanye. Uyazi, yaye wayibhala, ukuba uThixo wandenza ndabona ukuba le yayiya kuba yenye yeemfundiso zokugqibela eziqhekekayo ezimele ziyiphanzise icawa engcwele kaJ  .

Ngoko, Bawo, njengoko wandixelelayo ngesinye isihlandlo, ngelo xesha ndandingowakwaJansen, umntu obulalayo, ndikholelwa kwikamva. Isibhakabhaka ! Ndisangcangcazela; kodwa wandiqinisekisa ngokongeza ukuba konke oko kwakusengqondweni yam kuphela, okanye kunoko kwiingcebiso zotshaba lwam. Ndema apho.

Ndandisoloko ndizibona ndijinga phezu komsinga owoyikekayo. Masisokole sikule meko Bawo! kwanele ukubafe kunkwantya. Ndahlangulwa kuyo ngequbuliso ngokwenza izenzo zethemba nokurhoxa, kwaye ngaphezu kwako konke ngesenzo esithob’ isidima endasenzayo ngokuziphosa ezinyaweni zonongendi ngokuchasene nenzondo yam yendalo, okanye endaweni yoko ngokuchasene nengqumbo yam ethile. UThixo wafuna ukundinika uxolo, ngenxa yolu loyiso luncinane phezu  kwam.

 

Izilingo zakhe ngokuchasene nobunyulu.

Ukulwa kunye nezilingo ngokuchasene nesifungo sam sobunyulu, esavuka ngeli xesha kwaye saba nomsindo ngakumbi kunangaphambili. Ngubani na Bawo onokuthi ngempama nezithuko endazifumana kwingelosi kaSatana, kutshaba lwentlambuluko, oluxhobe ngobulwelwe bam bendalo ukuba lundiqhwabe, lundithobe ngandlela zonke? Kufuneka ube khona ukuze uyiqonde. Emini, ebusuku, ndiphaphile okanye ndilele, kukangaphi lo moya ungcolileyo ucebise kwingcinga yam imiboniso emdaka nedume kakubi! Kukangaphi ephazamisile ubuthongo bam ngeenkohliso ezingamanyala, ngemifanekiso engcolileyo, ukuze avuyise imvukelo kum, endingakholelwa kuyo, ngobabalo lukaThixo wam, ukuba ndivumile, nokuba ndilele  !

1 _ kunye dixit mihi: sufficit tibi gratia mea, nam virtus in firmitate perficitur. ( 2 Kor. 12, 7 ).

 

 

Iphupha apho asukelwa lirhamncwa, aze afumane inyibiba ukuze azikhusele.

Kuba ndingafihli nto kuwe malunga nemeko yomphefumlo wam, ndiza kubalisa kuwe, Bawo, ngesi sihlandlo, iphupha endingazange ndilazise mntu. Uya kuyisebenzisa ngokuthanda kwakho. Ndiphuphe ngobunye ubusuku ndileqwa luhlobo lwendoda eyoyikekayo icebo layo lalidideke ngakumbi kunobuso bayo; Ndabaleka ngamandla am onke ukuze ndiphephe ukusukelana naye, yaye, ekusabeni, ndabhenela kuThixo, kwiNtombi Enyulu esikelelekileyo nakwingelosi yam elungileyo endayibongozayo. Ngoku, xa ndibaleka, unyawo lwam luyatyibilika. Owu uloyiko! Kodwa xa ndiwayo ndandiza kubanjwa ngulo mlo, ndibona umfana omhle endibamba ezingalweni zakhe endithintela ukuba ndingawi. Ulukhuphela utshaba lwam imbonakalo eyoyikekayo, eyoyikekayo;

Musa ukoyika, watsho umfana endijonge ngobuso obuzithembileyo, ehleka kwaye enobabalo; musa ukoyika: unokukoyikisa, kodwa unokucinezela imizamo yakhe. Wayephethe esandleni sakhe inyibiba enomtsalane enevumba elimnandi. Yigcine kakuhle, watsho endinika, uJ.-C. ehlala eyithwele esifubeni sakhe. Okuseleyo sizakukubona ngomso; oko kwanele, ndiyacinga, namhlanje.

Kula mazwi ndiphaphame Bawo ndithathelwe sisipho esihle, ndathuthwa ndinombulelo ongazenzisiyo kuMncedi wam, ndinomsindo ngakulo rhamncwa linesidubedube elithe lanyamalala lingakhange libonakale ukusuka ngelo xesha. Nditsho phantse, kuba bekusenzeka kum ngamanye amaxesha, kodwa ihlala ikude, kwaye bendingcikiva ngenxa yomkhuba endawuthatha kwiminyaka emininzi eyadlulayo, nokufefa umandlalo wam rhoqo ngokuhlwa ngamanzi angcwele, ngaphambi kokulala. kuyo, kunye nokwenza iimpawu zomnqamlezo phezu kwam.

Lo moya ungendawo nonomona, ubonakala unganyamezeleki, ungathanda ukundoyikisa ngezisongelo. Ngu

 

 

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uthi ukuba ndiqhubeleka nale mikhwa ayibiza ngokuba ziinkolelo, izibhanxa nendelelo, ngokuqinisekileyo uya kufumana indlela yokuziphindezela, ngokuphinda abangele ukusilela kweli shishini sele siliqalile. Uze ungazideli ngokupheleleyo izisongelo zakhe, uThixo undenze ndabona, kwaye amava andifundise kakuhle kakhulu ukuba kufanele kube sesinye isizathu sokuba ndihlale ndilindile. Ndihlala ndiqaphela ukuba amaphupha asoyikisayo adla ngokuba zizibhengezo zezilingo ezinzulu kwicala lotshaba lwam, kwaye kaninzi ukusilela kunye nokuwa kum, ngamanye amaxesha ndingaziboni, ngenxa yokuthabatha ngakumbi okanye ngaphantsi kwe ubabalo lwezulu; kuba, Bawo, kusoloko kukungakhathali kunye neziphene zam eziphawuleka ngakumbi okanye ezingaphantsi ezithi zenze ilifu phakathi koThixo nam; kodwa, ukuba ufumene kakuhle Bawo sobhala inqaku elahlukileyo malunga namaphupha am amnandi okanye awoyikisayo, endizimisele ukunixela ngenxa yobudlelwane abanabo nobomi bam bangaphakathi, kunye namazwe ahlukeneyo endizibone ndinxulumene nawo. kuThixo; kuba, Bawo, xa ndilele okanye ndivukile, ndiya kuhlala ndiyinto engaqondakaliyo kwabanye nakum.

 

 

Iphupha elingaqondakaliyo, apho eqonda khona ubunzima bokuncothula ukuzithemba.

Akufunekanga ndoyike ukuyiphinda, emva kokulingwa okuninzi kuzo zonke izigulo zomphefumlo wam, akukho nanye mhlawumbi eye yawuveza kwiingozi ezininzi njengokuzithanda, okwakufana nesiseko sobuntu bam. akukho bani ekunzima kangako ukumncothula; akukho mntu umlimazile ngokunzulu nangokuyingozi njengale nkanuko ingonwabanga, olu tshaba lwasekhaya uThixo asivumela ukuba siluthwale ngaphakathi kwethu. Yile nto andenze ndayiqonda ngephupha elingaqondakaliyo, apho ndazibona ndibophelelekile ukuba ndilwe kwaye ndilwe namarhamncwa ahlukeneyo okanye angaphantsi amele izono ezinkulu. Oyena wabo bonke kum owabonakala engoyena uneenkani, nowayeyeyona nto inzima kum ukuba ndoyise kwaye ndoyise, yayiyicoquette encinci, ecocekileyo kakhulu, ethambileyo kwaye ephaphile. amaphupha.

Enganelisekanga kukuzilinganisa yedwa kunye nam, wayesoloko enento yokwenza nomlo endandimele ndiwulwele omnye nomnye. Wayebonakala ezelwe ngokutsha ekoyisweni kwakhe, kwaye, njengeProteus, wayesoloko ebuyela kwityala ngeendlela ezahlukeneyo. Umoya we

UThixo wandenza ndaqonda ukuba esi silo, esona sibi kakhulu kunabo bonke, esithandeka nkqu ngenkangeleko, yayikukuzithanda, uyise wekratshi, olona tshaba lukhulu lukaThixo nabantu, nendandinexhala ngalo kakhulu. kwaye ekwafuneka ndithathe awona manyathelo okhuseleko, ukuba ndandifuna ukukhusela  usindiso lwam, njengoko ndiye ndanamava kaninzi ebomini bam  .

 

 

Amayeza awasebenzisayo kwizilingo zakhe. Ukuthotywa kunye ne-macerations

Ukuzikhusela ngoko kolu tshaba lufayo, nangakumbi, ukuba umntu unokutsho njalo, kunokuba kwizilingo ezingcolileyo kunye nezinye iintsizi endizingqingileyo, ndaziva ndidinga ukuthotywa kunye nobunzima; Ngoko ke ndandisebenzisa iziqalekiso, ukuzila ukutya, imilindelo, iziluleko nemithandazo, eyandincedayo kakhulu. Ngelo xesha, ummeli wam wandivumela ukuba ndinxibe ibhanti lentsimbi; Ndayinxiba; kodwa uJ.-C. wandixelela ukuba le ndlela ayifanele isetyenziswe, nokuba yayiya kusoloko indibonelela ngeyona isebenzayo ngakumbi; ukuba eli bhanti ndandifuna ukulinxiba lithatyathelw’ indawo lelinye, yaye ukubandezeleka okwakuza kundibangela kwakuya kuba kwamkeleka ngakumbi kuye, ekubeni yayiza kuba lelokhetho lwakhe kungekhona olwam.

 

Uhlaziyo olwenzeka kuLuntu ngomyalelo kaThixo.

Kungesi sihlandlo ke, Bawo, wathi uThixo mandimxelele uAbhess ukuba ooSista mabazishiye iihempe zelinen.

ababeyinxibile ixesha elide, ukuze bathabathe isambatho sangaphakathi soboya ababesishiyile ngokuchasene nomthetho. Oku kwakusenziwa nangomyalelo wophakamileyo (1).

(1) Olu hlaziyo lwenzeka ngokobungqina babanye oonongendi, ebudeni botyelelo lukaBhishophu waseRennes; kodwa andikhumbuli ukuba  kwakungoko

M. de Girac okanye uM. Desnos, umanduleli wakhe. Oku akubalulekile.

 

Ucela kwiNkosi yethu izigulo; unikiwe. Ukubandezeleka kwakhe ixesha elide kunye nenkohlakalo.

Ukucima kwangaxeshanye lo mlilo wokungahlambuluki, kwaye wehlise eli bhongo

imfihlo, efihliweyo, ukuze ndithethe, emazantsi entliziyo yam ndingazi, ndambongoza uJ.-C. ukuba andithumelele ngobubele amandla, ndizithobe emehlweni ooDade bam nakwam. J.-C. wayesazi bhetele kunam intswelo yam, yaye ububele bakhe abuzange basilele ukuyilungisa. Kungekudala umntu wayeya kuthi yonke loo nto

ubulwelwe bomzimba bebuya kugqabhuka phezu kwam ngokulandelelanayo, kwaye kwangelo xesha kanye lezikhanyiso ezikhulu endithethe ngazo. Le yayiyeyona meko ndandiyifuna kakhulu. Quoniam wamkela eras Deo, necesse fuit ut isilingo probaret te. (Toby.)

Okokuqala ndahlaselwa ngumkhuhlane ocothayo owathi, kangangeminyaka eliqela, wadodobalisa amandla am ukusa kwinqanaba lokuba ndoyikele ubomi bam. Lo mkhuhlane uqhubekayo waphosa entlokweni yam iintlungu ezinganyamezelekiyo kunye neentlungu eziqatha; isifuba sachaphazeleka ngendlela yokuba ndinyangelwe ipulmonia. Ngexesha elithile kamva, idolo lam lasekhohlo laqhambuka ngenxa yokusikwa.

 

 

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buhlungu kakhulu; kodwa uThixo, ngenxa yokuzithoba ngenxa yobuthathaka bam, wayelungile ngokwaneleyo ukuba andenze ndibe namava ngalo mzuzu isampuli yoko kwadlulayo kubafeli-nkolo abakhwankqisa ihlabathi ngokuzingisa kwabo ekubandezelekeni kwabo kwiintlungu ingcinga ebangela ukuba ubani angcangcazele. Kungoko wandixhobiselayo kum ingqiqo yasemvelweni; kuthi ke, xa efuna, amphakamisele phezulu umntu, athi, phakathi kweyakhe, abafazi, amaxhego, abantwana abaqhelekileyo bamthwale kude lee ngobukroti babo. Loo nto yamangalisa kakhulu phakathi kweentlanga.

Endaweni yokuvala, inxeba liye laguquka laba yidiphozithi yoburharha bomhlaza apho ukukhubazeka kwaziphosela khona. Eli lungu lomzimba laba sisiqhwala, ndatsho ndakwazi nokuhamba ngeentonga ezimbini kuphela. Ugqirha kunye nogqirha wotyando abandibonayo bade bathi andinakuze ndihambe ngenye indlela, ekubeni umlenze wam wawunamaqhina kwaye uqhwalela, ndandingenakukwazi ukuwusebenzisa. Nangona kunjalo, Bawo, andizange ndisebenzise ixesha elide, nangona isigqibo sabo; kananjalo babengabokuqala ukubhengeza baze batsho ngokuvakalayo ukuba olu nyango lwalungaphezu kobugcisa babo, ngaphezu kwamandla endalo, kwaye lungummangaliso.

 

Ukuphiliswa kwakhe ngokukhawuleza emva kweMisa ehlonipha iNdubeduko kaYesu Krestu kunye neentlungu zikaMariya.

Ndandicele kuphela uluntu ukuba ndenze i-novena yokuhlonipha abafel 'ukholo abangcwele, kwaye kwakule novena apho ndafumana khona

idolo laliphawuleka kangangokuba nam ndamangaliswa; kodwa unyango olugqibeleleyo aluzange lwenzeke kwada kwayimini awathi uM. Audouin wandihlawulela ngayo inkuntyula yembeko yenzondelelo ka-J.-C, neentlungu zikanina ongcwele emazantsi omnqamlezo; yaye eli xesha lalifutshane kangangokuba akukho bani wayethandabuza ukubona kulo ummangaliso wokwenene, yaye ingxelo ngokukhawuleza yasasazeka. Mna ke, ndingenesibindi kangako kwezi ntlobo zemiba, andiqinisekanga, nangona ndingathandabuzi ukuba bekukho uncedo oluthile oluvela ezulwini, nokuba iNtombi Enyulu ayizange iphinde iwangenelele amandla akhe ngokunikela nangoku. obunye ubungqina bokuthanda kwakhe okuhle ngam.

 

 

Umzamo emsebenzini, obangela ukuba abe yingozi kakhulu kwaye enganyangeki.

Akuzange kwenzeke, okanye iminyaka embalwa kakhulu, ukuba ndiphathwe sisifo esibi kakhulu okanye esincinci, esasiphantse sindikhokelela kumasango okufa; kwaye ukuyithwesa yonke into, inzame emsebenzini yandibangela ingozi eyathi iminyaka elishumi elinesixhenxe okanye ishumi elinesibhozo ibe ngowona mnqamlezo unzima, umnqamlezo endiya kuthi nangona kunjalo ndiwuthwale ndiwuse engcwabeni. Le ngozi kum ekuqaleni yayibonakala sisigulo esidlulayo endandingafuni nokunikela ingqalelo kuyo; Iwaka lezizathu zandithintela, kangangeenyanga ezintandathu, ukuba ndingayixeli nakubani na; kodwa i-colic eyoyikekayo, iintlungu ezibukhali endaziva kuyo ekugqibeleni zandinyanzela ukuba ndiye kuloo nto. Umama wethu uye wadibana noogqirha, abathi ngalo lonke utshaba olunjalo umzuzu ngamnye unokuba ngowokugqibela ebomini bam. Babefuna, ngandlela thile, ukundinyanzela ukuba ndimlumkise, ngokuvuma iindlela endandingakwazi ukunyamezela ingcamango nje. Ndamphendula uMama wethu ndathi ndikhetha ukufa, ukuba kuyimfuneko; ukuba ngokuseleyo, ndibeke ithemba lam kuThixo yedwa ozaziyo izizathu zam nentswelo yam, nokuba kule ngongoma andinakuze ndibe nomnye ugqirha ngaphandle kwakhe. Umama wethu uye waphathisa isazela sam; wade wandiyalela ukuba ndenze njalo ngenxa yentlungu yokungathobeli, kwaye apha ndiphinde ndaxakwa kakhulu kweli cala; ngokuba, ukwenza ntoni? leliphi iqela emandilithathe phakathi kwezinto ezimbini ezingalunganga endizoyika nazo? Umama wethu uye waphathisa isazela sam; wade wandiyalela ukuba ndenze njalo ngenxa yentlungu yokungathobeli, kwaye apha ndiphinde ndaxakwa kakhulu kweli cala; ngokuba, ukwenza ntoni? leliphi iqela emandilithathe phakathi kwezinto ezimbini ezingalunganga endizoyika nazo? Umama wethu uye waphathisa isazela sam; wade wandiyalela ukuba ndenze njalo ngenxa yentlungu yokungathobeli, kwaye apha ndiphinde ndaxakwa kakhulu kweli cala; ngokuba, ukwenza ntoni? leliphi iqela emandilithathe phakathi kwezinto ezimbini ezingalunganga endizoyika nazo?

Noko ke, uThixo wabavumela ababingeleli abalungileyo ukuba beze kundincedisa; baxelela u-Abbess, ngokwemfundiso yabo yezakwalizwi, ukuba kule ngongoma eethe-ethe mabangagqibanga ngokukhawuleza malunga nam. Bada babhalela eParis, yaye impendulo abayifumana kwisikolo esikhulu yayikukuba unongendi ngokukhethekileyo, ngesazela sakhe, wayekhetha ukufa aze akufumane, kunokuba enze utyando kwimeko enjalo. Ngoko ke ngoku ndikhululekile; Ndehla ngokusebenzisa isilumkiso esincinci, kwaye ndisebenzisa  ethile

ibhandeji endilithatha njengebhanti uThixo andithembise lona ukuba ndongezelele kwelo bendifuna ukulinxiba. Kufuneka kuvunywe Bawo ukuba ngokwam ngendingazange ndoyame kolu hlobo lwentlungu; Okokugqibela ke mandikholeke, kuba inguThixo lo. Asikokwethu thina boni, koko kungenxa yakhe ukuba asikhethele iminqamlezo; yaye eli bhanti, libuhlungu, libuhlungu yaye lihlazisa njengoko linjalo, limele ukuba ndilithande kakhulu, ekubeni likhethwe nguJ.-C., owayendithembise lona  .

Yonke into yandijikela, yonke into yaba negalelo ekundibandezeleni nasekundithobeni kwezona ndawo zibuthathaka. Ikratshi, Bawo,  kufuneka linganyamezeleki kwaphela kuThixo, ekubeni elisukela kwaye alibethe ngobungqongqo naphina apho lifumana khona nomkhondo walo; kuba ndingatsho ukuba wayisukela ngokubhekisele kum kwada kwasa kumakrozo ayo okugqibela, kwaye andinasizathu sokukhalaza ngawo. Ngokuchasene neentlungu neenkxwaleko  endandinazo

ndangqingwa, ndandinomhlobo omnye kuphela endathi ndayivula kuye intliziyo yam ngokuzithemba,  kwaye ezinyaweni zakhe ndandiqinisekile ukuba ndiya kufumana isibindi nentuthuzelo, ekuphela  kwakhe

 

 

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kude kube ngoko uye wangena kwiimbono zam nakwezo zikaThixo, ahlala encedisa kangangoko anako. Ngubani owayeza kundixelela ukuba ngekhe ndingabinayo enye intembelo efanayo, ubuncinci? Kulungile ! Bawo, lomhlobo, maye! yintoni endingazange ndive ubunzima ngayo! kuba kwakhona yonke into kwakufuneka ifake isandla kuyo.

Okokuqala, ndandinentlungu yokubona inxalenye yentlungu yam icinga ngaye, njengoko ubonile; kamsinya nje emva kokuba ethatyathwe kum xa ndandiludinga kakhulu uncedo lwakhe.” Usweleke uM. Ngoko ke ndamxelela ukuba ndambona ekwiimbandezelo, yaye ngokungathi ubotshelelwe kumnqamlezo kaJ.-C., apho wayeza kufela khona; oko kwenzeka emva kweentsuku ezimbalwa ...

Esinjani sona isibetho kum!... Ngokungathandabuzekiyo yayikukundithuthuzela ngenxa yoko ukuba uThixo wandibonisa yena, kwiintsuku ezimbalwa emva kokufa kwakhe, ephuma kwindawo yentlambululo-miphefumlo, ehleli kumqolo wabasikelelweyo kwisitulo esihonjiswe ngeentyatyambo, amasundu. kwaye

iintyatyambo. Kwisiqinisekiso sentlungu yakhe, ndababongoza kakhulu oonongendi ukuba bandithelele ekukhawuleziseni ukuhlangulwa kwakhe ngemithandazo yethu: abayenza ngenzondelelo nangenzondelelo enkulu; kwaza ukubhengezwa kokwamkelwa kwakhe ezulwini nako kwabavuyisa kakhulu (1).

(1) Ndikhumbula kakuhle ukuba amanenekazi aphakamileyo nomphathiswa athetha nam ngale ngxelo iphathelele ukukhululwa kongasekhoyo uM. Audouin, esongezelela ngelithi kwisaziso sikaDade oonongendi abazange bathandabuze oko.

 

 

 

Andikwazi, kwesi sihlandlo, ukushiya into enye eyenzeka kum kwiinyanga ezimbalwa emva kwesi. Yayilixesha kanye apho intshutshiso yayiqatha nxamnye nam. Itheko ledemon yoyisa, ukuba ndinokutsho.

Ndakhwankqiswa, ukanti, ukuba kumele kuvunywe, ndandisenza nje iinzame eziphuthileyo zokuzicenga ukuba ndibe ngumdlalo wempazamo. UThixo wavakala kum. Thixo wam, bendisithi kuye ngamanye amaxesha, deign ukundiyala, undikhanyisele, uphelise ukubhideka kwam. Ah! ukuba bendisenoM. Audouin, noko ebeya kundithuthuzela!  I-WHO

khandixelele ukuba ucinga ntoni ngayo ngoku? Ngaphambili wayenoluvo lwam, yaye ukuba ndandiphazama, wayekho naye; Kodwa ke ukubone kwangelohlo lini na oko, evele nje phambi koThixo? Ukuba bendisazi, ibe yiyo eya kundimisela; kodwa kulilize ukumnqwenela kwam, kwaye uThixo akayi kumvumela ukuba aphume, andiyalele, ezinzulwini zengcwaba lakhe.

Ngoko, Bawo, ndandiqiqa nam ngenye ingokuhlwa njengoko ndandisiya kulala. Khange ndilale apho, kwaza kwacima ukukhanya kwethu, kunokuba ndeva emva komkhusane ilizwi elahluke kakhulu, endaliqondayo ukuba lelo likaM. Audouin ongasekhoyo; kangangokuba andiqondi ukuba bekunokwenzeka ukuba nabani na, ngokunxamnye nayo yonke imbonakalo, acinge ukuba ungene esiseleni, abe nako, ukuza kuthi ga kwelo nqanaba, enze umgunyathi okanye axelise ukubiza kwakhe amagama  .

Lathi ilizwi kum, lithethela phantsi, kwangalaa lizwi lalicinga ngako enkundleni, lathi: Dadewethu, landela ukukhanya kwezulu okukhanyiselayo, ungayeki ukuthetha okulilize kwabo bangakuqondiyo.

Ndothuka ukuya kutsho kwinqanaba lokugqibela, ngaphandle kokuba noloyiko oluncinci; ngokuchaseneyo, bendingathanda kakhulu ukuba nencoko ende naye, nangona wayethethe okuninzi kum ngala mazwi ambalwa. Yayingundoqo wayo yonke into endandifuna ukuyazi, kwaye ndandifuna kuphela ukuba ndiqiniseke ngakumbi kunokuba ndandinjalo ngobunyani baloo nto. UThixo akazange akuvumele oko, kwaye kufuneka ndithethe kuphela okwenzekayo, ngokwenyani yenyani. Ingaba nguwe,

M.  Audouin,  ndakhwaza? Noko ndathetha ndajonga  ekukhanyeni

ndivela enyangeni, andavanga nto, andabona mbono; apho akulula, ngokombono wam, ukuchaza ukuba, ukuba iindlebe zam zikhohlisiwe, amehlo am ayengayi kuchaphazeleka yinkohliso efanayo (1). Masilandele amanyathelo ethu kancinci.

 

Ngokwenene yayilapha, okanye ayizange, indawo kunye nexesha lokubona okanye ukukholelwa ukubona isiporho, ukuba kuyinyani ukuba ukucinga kunokuvelisa enye, njengoko sithanda ukuphindaphinda  kakhulu  .

 

 

 

UMnu. Le Marié, umlawuli omtsha, uyalunyukiswa ngokuchasene nayo. Yintoni ekufuneka asokole.

M. Audouin wayethatyathelw’ indawo nguM. Le Marié, owathi walumkisa ngemeko eyayibizwa ngokuba yimpakatho yam, inkohliso yam, iindywala zam . (2). Kwakhona baxelela uM. Larticle, umalathisi wamanenekazi eUrsuline, endandithembele ngaye kakhulu. Ndandilandelwa ndaza ndajongwa kuyo yonke indawo ngeyona nkathalo inkulu, kwanakwinkundla yezohlwayo, apho, ukuba isivumo sam sasithabathe ixesha elide kunesiqhelo, kwakungekho loyiko lokundilumkisa ukuba ndigqibe, ekuzibuzeni ngokuvakalayo ukuba ndandiza kuphinda ndiphindaphinde indala yam. iimpazamo, kwaye ndibuyele kumaphupha am asemini.

 

M. Le Marié waba ngumphathi wecawa yaseBalazé, kufutshane nedolophu yaseVitré. Ndigxothiwe phakathi koluntu, ndaya kumbona; kodwa ndafika endlini yakhe kwangaloo ngokuhlwa kwanyanzeleka ukuba ahambe ebaleka ukutshutshiswa. Kum kubonakala ukuba wayeqonda ukuba izibhengezo zikaDade zazingeyontelekelelo njengoko wayecengiwe. Andazi ukuba kwenzeke ntoni kulo  rector ubalaseleyo.

 

 

 

 

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Ndikhumbula, phakathi kwezinye izinto, ukuba ngenye imini kwafika umrhanelwa kwindawo yokuvuma izono, endichazela ngenkohlakalo enkulu, endibiza ngokuba ndilikholwa lobuxoki, liphambene, lisidenge, liphambene, nobunye ububele obufanayo. endinika uxolo, endilufumene ngokuzolileyo. Ndiphume apho, ndaphantse ndafuna ukugqabhuka yintsini, ndicinga

ukuba ndandisandul’ ukusikelelwa ndaza ndakhululwa kwelinye icala, ngoxa kwelinye ndandifumana izithuko neziqalekiso kuphela; kodwa loo nto yayinzulu kakhulu ukuba indihlekise ngayo; ndiye ndaneliseka kukumthandazela ndingaxeleli mntu.

 

UMonsieur Larticle umxelela ukuba ukhohlisiwe, kwaye uyakholelwa kuye.

UThixo, okwethutyana, wandenza ndangaboni nto; Ibingekho enye into endizoyithetha kubachazi bam ngaphandle kwezinto eziqhelekileyo nentlupheko yomntu. Baye bacinga ukuba banelungelo lokundithuka, bemele kum ukuba abaninzi bakhohlisiwe yidemon, ukuba kungekudala okanye kamva impazamo ifunyenwe, njl. M. Larticle wandixelela ngokucacileyo ngenye imini ukuba sasikhe, M. Audouin kunye nam; ukuba wayenamava amancinci kakhulu kwezi ntlobo zezinto; ukuba ndandisengozini enkulu yokulahlekelwa mna... Bandikhuthaza ukuba ndandinokuwela emgibeni wehlelo ababelibiza ngokuba zii- convulsionnaires , nalapho ndandingazi ngaphezu kwazo zonke iingcamango zabo (1).

 

(1) Zonke iingcamango zabo nemigaqo yazo eneneni zazingenasiseko nokusetyenziswa kwazo. Ngaphezu koko, abo bayifundileyo incwadi ethi Ubomi Bezingcwele bayazi ukuba asikokuqala ukuvavanya uThixo ngolu hlobo, evumela ukuba abalawuli babo bathabathe ixesha elithile ukuba babe nokusebenza kukaMtyholi, umphumo wehambo engaqhelekanga yomoya. isibhakabhaka; kodwa uThixo akazange ayivumele imiphefumlo ethobekileyo ukuba ilahlwe ngabo bonke abalathisi bayo; bebesoloko benokwaneleyo ukubaqinisekisa. Ubomi beSaint Thérèse bubodwa banele ukuqinisekisa yonke into endiyithethayo.

 

Konke oku, kongezelela kuloyiko endandinalo lokuqhathwa, ndaphumelela ukundicenga ngako; yaye kuloo nto, ndikhohliseke ngakumbi kunanini na ngaphambili, ndambulela uThixo ngokundihlangula ekugqibeleni kwisiphoso sam, ngoxa waye waphilisa kuphela ikratshi lam. Ndiyaphazama kwakhona, Bawo, andizange ndiphiliswe ngokupheleleyo kuyo; kodwa nasi isibetho esathi, ngokungathi kunjalo, sagqiba ukusityumza: isibetho esonwabileyo esathi ekugqibeleni sabangela ukuba olu kreqo ludala lugqabhuke, esi silonda siyimfihlo nesinetyhefu endandisoloko ndisondla ngaso, yaye uThixo wayesoloko esebenza ukusicoca nokutshabalalisa ngandlela zonke. kwaye ngaphandle kolwazi lwam. Kumele, ewe, kufuneka ukuba eli bhongo lingonwabanga lingenakunyamezeleka kuye, kwaye lizinze kakuhle entliziyweni yam enetyala, kuba kuthatha izithonga ezininzi kunye nezibuhlungu kakhulu ukuyicima, ukuba ndinokuthi ' usekho; kodwa bekusoloko kukho umahluko omkhulu kum kule nkalo, ukususela kwimihla apho Nantsi.

 

Uziva etyekele ekuxeleleni uM. Larticle ngentshutshiso yeBandla. Umbiza ngokuba uyaphambana okanye ngumqhekeki.

Ndaziva ndinqwenela ukuxelela ongasekhoyo uM. Larticle oko uThixo wandibonisa kona ngentshutshiso yeCawa, ukuhluthwa kwempahla yabefundisi? ukujongelwa phantsi kwegunya likapopu, ukutshutshiswa kwabefundisi  , nobungozi bonqulo, ngenxa yegunya lekratshi endalibona lihambela phambili  nxamnye  nalo. Ndaba ngathi ndiyageza, ndathetha  naye

ngoko ngaphandle kokundiqonda. Yima, Bawo, ndithe kuye, Yima; Ndibona ibandla elingcwele lingcangcazela xa libona eli gunya loyikekayo liphakama ngokuchasene nalo....  Iintsika ezininzi zalo  ziyawa.

Gcobani ngenxa yakhe. Yima ngokuqinileyo, Bawo; Ndithi kumntu wonke, bambelelani.

Kula mazwi, awayengawaqondi, uM. Larticle wacinga ukuba makazame ukucima kwanenkumbulo yoko wayekubiza ngokuba yinkohliso yam yangaphambili. Uthini apho ke sisi wam, wakhala ngesaquphe? uthetha ukuthini? kuba ndiyavuma kuwe ukuba andikuqondi tu.... Ungumprofeti  wamashwa  ? (Icace  gca

Namhlanje, ngaphezu kokuba belugqithile. ULuther naye waxela kwangaphambili ukuwa kweCawa, kodwa iBandla alimele liwe. Uzinakekele ke Sister wam, inoba ungumkreqi okanye uyaphambana, akukho phakathi. Kum, andiqondi nto (1). Nangona kunjalo kwakukho umgangatho ophakathi.

 

(1) Kum, andiqondi nto malunga nayo. Oku, ngokokubona kwam, kuko konke okwakuyinyani ekuqiqeni kwakhe, kwaye kule meko wayengafanele aqinisekise ngokuqinisekileyo ukuba kukho uqhekeko okanye ukugqithisa kwinto awayengayiqondi nto. Sele sibonile kwenye indawo ukuba nguye ngokwakhe owaphazama ngenxa yokoyika ukuwela kuyo, kwaye konke akutshoyo apha kuqinisekisa oko. Kuyingozi kakhulu ukwenza isigqibo ngokungxama, ngokukodwa ngokucalula, kwezi ntlobo zemiba.

 

Uyasithobela isigqibo sakhe, azirhoxise iimpazamo zakhe atyholwa ngazo, aze avume izono ngokubanzi.

Ingcamango nje yoqhekeko yandiphazamisa. Ngegama elithi sinister awayelisebenzisile, ndaqonda ukuba wayekholelwa ukuba ndingumJanseni . Nkosi, Thixo wam, ndakhala, mna Jansenist! Ah! Bawo, kungcono ufe kunokuba ube ngumkreqi. Ndiyabhengeza kuwe ukuba ndifuna ukukholelwa kuphela into ekholelwa kwiBandla. Kulungile! Bawo, ekubeni iCawe indigweba, ndiyarhoxa kwaye ndiyigxeka ngayo yonke into endiyiboniswa yingcinga yam. (Siyabona apha ukuba uDade olihlwempu wayenokholo

ilula kangangokuba wathatha umfundisi weCawa, kunye nokomelela okuncinci kwecala lakhe ngesigqibo esingqongqo. Kukho, nangona kunjalo, umahluko omkhulu kuyo yonke le nto ukusuka kwenye ukuya kwenye.) Andisokuze ndiphinde ndifune ukuhlala kwinkohliso yengqondo yam; ngenxa yokuba

 

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iBandla ligqiba oko, akusekho mathandabuzo. Ewe, ndafumana ilishwa lokuba ngumdlali  wedemon  Thixo Wam, ungandenzi ityala, okanye undijongele phantsi  .

xolela; Ngaphezu kwako konke, ndigcine kuqhekeko, endiloyika ngaphezu kokufa. Into endifuna ukucinga ngayo kukwenza uxolo.

Kwaye andizange ndiyeke apho, kuba ndenza isivumo esipheleleyo nesipheleleyo ngayo, apho ndandizityhola ngayo yonke into eyenzekayo, ubuncinane njengoko ndandikholelwa ukuba ndinako; Ndaphinda ndazenza zonke izivumo zam zangaphambili, endandizigqala njengezingenamsebenzi ubuncinci; Ndade ndalila njengolwaphulo-mthetho oluninzi imibono kunye nezityhilelo endandizifumene ezulwini kuphela.

Ke, ndiyayiphinda, kuba ndiqinisekile ngayo ngoku, ndikhohliseke ngakumbi kunangaphambili, ndambulela uThixo ngokundiphilisa kobuqhetseba bosathana, kwaye wayendiphilisile kuphela kwinkohliso yengqondo yam nasekudumbeni komphefumlo. intliziyo yam.

Ndandisoloko ndilungile ukumbulela, kodwa ndandingazi uhlobo lwenkonzo awayendenzele yona; Ndandithembele ekulahlekelweni yiyo yonke into ecaleni kwesicwangciso sokupapasha oko wandazisa ngako, ukanti wayendenze ndalungela ukuphunyezwa kweli cebo. Wasebenza apho ixesha elide ngeendlela zonke, ngokuthotywa ezahlukahlukeneyo; kodwa akazange andilahle ngokupheleleyo, uthando lwakhe lobuthixo lwabangela zonke iintsilelo zam, kwaye yedwa owayenokundixhasa phakathi kweembandezelo neentlungu ezingaka.

 

UThixo uyamthuthuzela kwiintlungu zakhe, ezibalela kubukhulu bekratshi lakhe.

Ndaziva ndithuthuzelekile ukuba bekungayi kuba lilize ukuzama ukuchaza, ndiba namaxesha apho uThixo wayebonakala ethanda ukundibuyekeza ngayo yonke into ngezibane kunye nobabalo olungaqhelekanga kwiinkalo ezahlukeneyo zenkolo yethu engcwele, kwaye ekuhambeni kwexesha.

ulibethe ezona zithonga zinzima kwikratshi lam. Owu Bawo, hayi indlela alunge ngayo uThixo, yaye hayi indlela esinesono ngayo ukukhalaza ngobungqongqo bakhe, ekubeni ebetha abo abathandayo kuphela, aze abavuze amanxeba nje ukuze abaphilise! Ngokuya endihlisa kwelinye icala, kwaba kokukhona efuna ukundiphakamisa kwelinye; wabonakala ngesinye isandla endibonisa imivuzo nezithsaba, kwaye ngesinye imilo neminqamlezo eyayinokundifanelekela oko. Wabonakala ethetha kum ngehambo yakhe: Kuphela nje uya koyisa iintshaba zakho zasemzini, wakuba uthe woyisa, wakunyhasha phantsi kweenyawo zakho zonke iinkanuko zemvelo. Kukumabhodlo ayo apho kufuneka kwakhiwe i-edifice yemfezeko. Kufuneka uhlale usebenza ukubethelela umntu omdala ongaphakathi kuwe, ukunika ubomi kumntu omtsha. Ngoko, Bawo, ndirhangqwe yiminqamlezo, ndafumana uncedo lomsebénzi onomtsalane awandibonisa wona uThixo ephupheni, ndithetha uthando lobuthixo, olwalusoloko luxakekile lubenza lube khaphukhaphu kwaye lunyamezeleke kum, ngokuluthambisa ngomsebenzi wakhe. Ndiyakuxelela uya kuthetha kwenye indawo; kuninzi  okwanamhlanje.

 

 

Isigulo esinzima esimkhokelela kumasango okufa. Uhlaselo olubi lweedemon.

“Egameni loYise, loNyana, njl. »

Ngaphambi kwesona sigulo sinzima endakha ndasifumana, uJ.-C. wabonakala kum ekwimo yelanga elihle, ekukhanye kwalo okuthambileyo nokupholileyo kwandenza ndaqonda ukuba ndimele ndixhobe ngomonde nxamnye neentlaselo zeedemon; ukuba ngenxa yoku kwakufuneka ndibe nokuzithoba okugqibeleleyo nokugqibeleleyo ekuthandeni kukaThixo, ukuba ndiyeke kuyo ngaphandle kokuzibekela umphefumlo nomzimba, yaye ekugqibeleni ndizinikele ekuzinikeleni kuko konke oko uThixo abonakala ekufuna kum. . Into endiyenzileyo ukusuka kwaloo yure, ngokuvumayo ndimnike idini lobomi bam xa ethanda ukubulahla.

Ukusukela ngoko, Bawo, esi sigulo sibi sazichaza, esathi sagwetywa ukuba sesokugqibela: oogqirha bazichazile ngaso; kodwa lowo wayivumelayo, engumongami wobomi nokufa, akazange ayigwebe njengoogqirha; wayeyalele ngenye indlela, kodwa kwafuneka ukuba ndiphinde ndiluvavanye olu vavanyo kwakhona ukuze ndikhuphe indebe yobukrakra apho. ebendiphe ufefe ukuba ndiziyeke. Ndixhotyiswe ngeesakramente zokugqibela, ndandinomoya wobomi oseleyo; ebesilindele ukuyibona icima nangawuphi na umzuzu. Bonke oodade bam emthandazweni

bebelindele ukufumana umphefumlo wam wokugqibela; ikhandlela elisikelelekileyo lakhanyiswa kulo msitho ulusizi; Ndacinga ukuba ndibone phambi kwamehlo am i-reliquary okanye ibhokisi emiselwe

ukundingcwaba. Ndagwetywa ndingekho zingqondweni. Yeha! Bawo, ndandisenento eninzi nje yokufumana uxolo lwengqondo lwam!

Bathe bakugqiba yonke imithandazo yokunconywa komphefumlo wam, bebona ukuba andiphelelwa lixesha, barhoxa oonongendi bandishiya phantse ndedwa. Yayilixesha laxa idemon yayindilindile, yaye xa uThixo wayivumelayo ukuba indihlasele ngenkohlakalo  , ndiphume ezantsi enzonzobileni; bexhobe ngeefolokhwe, bathuka, besithi: Silindele ukuba umphefumlo wakho uwuthimbe, simiselwe ukunivuza esihogweni ngenxa yekratshi lenu, ukuhanahanisa kwenu, nobugwenxa benu,  phumani  ngokukhawuleza  ;

 

 

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umphefumlo onelishwa, kwaye sisemililweni yethu.

Ibizakuba yintoni na kum, ndiyabuza Bawo ukuba uThixo ebengandinqandanga enzonzobileni yokuphelelwa lithemba, nokuba ebengandixhasanga ndedwa kolu hlaselo lumbi aluvumeleyo? Ekuphela kwento endandinokuyenza kwimeko yokulahlwa endandikuyo yayikukuguqukela kuye ngokuzithemba kangangoko, ndize ndimthembise ukuba uza kwenza uxolo, ukuba uya kundibuyisela. emva koko ezi specters zimbini zabonakala kum zingena kwakhona enzonzobileni ezaziphume kuyo.

Ndingcangcazela ndisothuswa ngulo mbono woyikekayo, umoya wam wawuthobeke njengoko umzimba wam wawudakumbile; Ke kaloku uThixo, njengoko nibonayo, usebenzile, kususela koko wandigcina, ngendlela entsha ngokupheleleyo, lo kuthobeka akumiseleyo apho ngendlela exabiso likhulu, ngobungqwabalala kwindalo. Kancinci kancinci ndaweva amandla am ebuyela: umdla wam waxela ukubuya kwempilo yam, kwaye kwathi nje ukuba ndibuyele ekuchacheni, ndaya kuxela yonke into eyenzekileyo kuM. Le Marié, owayengaqondi kwanto kuyo yonke le nto.

 

Utshintshe ngaphakathi kuSister. Ubabalo olunengqiqo nolungaqhelekanga luyaphela. Ingena kulwazi loBuThixo nokungabi nto kwayo.

Amahlazo, iintshutshiso ziwuthobile umoya wam, izifo neentlungu zawutyumza umzimba wam, zawucinezela ukreqo lwenyama yam. Pha

inkohliso ayizange ibanjwe, kwaye idemon ngokwayo yabonakala ngathi ayisekho; kwaye kwaba, Bawo, ekuthuleni okuthandekayo kweemvakalelo neenkanuko, kwesi sivumelwano sazo zonke iintshaba zam, wathi uThixo wavakala kum ukuba andikhokele ngendlela entsha ngokupheleleyo awayeyimisele mna. .

Imibono, imincili, izikhanyiso zikaThixo, intuthuzelo enengqiqo, ziyingozi ngakumbi kwabo uThixo abanike zona, njengoko kusoloko kulula ukuba umtyholi azenze umgunyathi ukusa kwinqanaba elithile, kwaye enze ubuncinane ukutya okuzigwagwisayo, okuhlala kuzondla, ngaphandle kokuba uThixo unika kwangaxeshanye, njengoko wenzayo kwabo bangcwele awababalayo, ubabalo olulinganiselweyo, izilingo, izilingo, iminqamlezo ekwaziyo ukumelana nazo, nokugcina umoya usoloko uthobekile; ngaphandle koko umntu usenako ukuwa njengoSathana, ukusuka phezulu ezulwini ukuya ezantsi kwelabafileyo.

Ngoko ke uThixo waxhoma kum, wada wabangela ukuba izikhanyiso ezingaqhelekanga, imincili, uxhwilo, imibono yangaphandle zipheze kwaphela, ukuze zithabathel’ indawo ezo zimvo uMtyholi anokuzenza ngokunqabileyo kakhulu kwaye kunzima kakhulu ukuzikhohlisa, kuba azinabudlelwane phantse bonke. kwiimvakalelo zangaphandle; Ndithetha ukuthi, Bawo, ulwazi lukaThixo kunye nesiqu sam, lona ngeendlela zonke elona lizwi liqinisekileyo losindiso.

Ke ngoko uThixo waqala ngokuphulukana nam kumbono ohlala ukho wobukhulu bakhe, owathatha indawo yayo yonke intuthuzelo yangaphakathi. Ndambona uThixo ezintweni zonke, nasezindaweni zonke; zonke izidalwa zabonakala kum zifunxekile kwaye zingene kubungangamsha bakhe: yayiziziphumo ezininzi kakhulu zobugorha bakhe, imilambo emininzi kakhulu eyaqala ebungcweleni bakhe yabuyela kumthombo wayo oqhelekileyo: nguye yedwa omkhulu, onamandla, ongunaphakade, ongaguqukiyo. Wayengoyena mntu ubalaseleyo ofunekayo, ekubeni bonke abanye babekho kuye kuphela nangaye, ngaphandle kokuba, ngokungathi kunjalo, ubukho babo. Ke yonke into, ngaphandle koThixo, yandinika indawo engenanto eyoyikisayo, into engekhoyo, apho nam ndaphoswa khona, okanye ke mna ngokwam bendisisithuba esibi endisifumene kuyo yonke indawo. Bendithwele ngaphakathi kwam le nto imsulwa ndiyicaphukelayo.

Kulapho ke uThixo wandibuyisela khona ukuze ndibone intlupheko yam apho kwaye ndizoba nesimilo asifunayo kulo msebenzi siwusebenzayo mna nawe namhlanje. Le ngcamango yokungabi nanto kwam, awandenza ngayo ukuba ndiqalise oko uza kubhala, wayichukumisa kakhulu ekujuleni komphefumlo wam kunye nomphefumlo wam wonke, kangangokuba ngamanye amaxesha kwakubonakala kum ukuba ekugqibeleni komile  . ingcambu yekratshi. Yanga ezulwini!  Bawo wam  . Ngaloo ndlela, wandixelela ngenye  imini,

emva koMthendeleko wam, endifuna ukuwusebenza ngoku kuni, ngaphandle koncedo lwakho okanye ungenelelo lweemvakalelo zomzimba.

 

Ubomi bakhe bonke bubonakala kuye njengemfumba yeempazamo, wenza isivumo sovumo jikelele esitsha kuM. Lesne.

Kwesi simo sitsha, Bawo, bonke ubomi bam bangaphambili babonakala kum njengemfumba yeziphoso ezingenakubalwa, zokungafezeki kunye nezono ezininzi, eziye inkitha yazo yanditsho ndankwantya; ukuze ndiziqinisekise kancinci kwaye ndiziqinisekise, ndandifuna ukwenza esinye isivumo sovumo jikelele, kwaye ukuza kuthi ga ngoku yayiyeyona nto ichanekileyo kwaye ineenkcukacha zobomi bam. Ndayinika uM. Lesné de Montaubert, owayesandul’ ukungena ezihlangwini zikaM. Le Marié, owaba ngumlawuli wecawa yaseBalazé. Wandinceda kakhulu; kwaye njengoko ndandisoyikiswa linani elingenasiphelo leziphoso zam zonke iintlobo, wathi kum: Dadewethu, ukuba uThixo ebekunika ulwazi olupheleleyo ngazo, uya kubona ukuba ushiya mhlawumbi nangakumbi ukuze uthathe ubomi bakho ngokubanzi.

Wayengaphazami, kwaye, ukundiqinisekisa ngayo, ngokukhawuleza uThixo wabeka emehlweni omphefumlo wam isipili esithembekileyo sesazela sam. Owu mazulu! imbonakalo enjani! Ndabona apho inkitha eyoyikekayo yeentsilelo, ukungakhathali, ukungathembeki kwazo zonke iintlobo, endaziqonda njengezi

 

 

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ukuba ndibe ngowam, kodwa andizange ndicinge ukuba ndizityhole ngokuvuma izono. Nanjengoko yayingelotyala lam kule nto ingenzekiyo, ndaphinda ndalibala emva kokuba isipili sathathwa kum. Ndaneliseka, ke ngoko, ngokuzityhola ngokwam kubo ngokubanzi njengoko ndandibabonile, kwaye ndizimisele ngakumbi ukuzithoba nokuzibhubhisa.

Obu bubudenge bukhulu bendisoloko ndibubona ngaphandle kwam nangaphakathi kwam, ndadibana nolu luvo lucinezelayo noluqhubekayo lwemeko yesazela sam, ekugqibeleni imvakalelo enzulu yeenkxwaleko zam nobukhulu bukaThixo, yandithwala ukutyhubela kuzo. eyona ntembelo imnandi kukulunga kombhali wam. Emva koko ndaziphosa kuye ngokupheleleyo ukuze ndifumane inkxaso yam, amandla am nayo yonke intuthuzelo yam. Ezi mbono zandigcina ndisembindini wam, kwaye kwakungafanelanga ukuba zingandikhathazi nangayiphi na indlela; nangona kunjalo, ndaphawula ukuba ngaphezu kwesihlandlo esinye umtyholi wazama ukuthabatha oku ukuze andenze buhlungu ngokugqithiseleyo, kwaye andikhuthaze ukuba ndingathembeli kukulunga kobuthixo.

 

Uyakhwankqiswa kukubona ukungathembeki kwakhe. UJ.-C. uyamqinisekisa.

Ndaziva ndizalelwa kum uloyiko oluthile olugqithisileyo lokuba uThixo uya kundilahla, okanye kufuneka andilahle ngenye imini ngenxa yokungathembeki kwam. Eli themba loyikeka mhlawumbi laliza kundiphosa kuhlobo oluthile lwemeko eyintlekele, ukuba uJ.-C. wayengekalithinteli eli qhinga lomhendi. Kwabonakala kum ngenye imini ukuba ndikhathazeke ngakumbi kukungabi nanto kwezidalwa kunye nesiqu sam.

Woyika ntoni, watsho kum? Andonelanga na ukuzalisa intliziyo? lahlani zonke ezinye izinto, yaye niya kufumana konke kum; ziyeke ekuthandeni kwam, kwaye ndiya kukwazi ukubuyisela inkoloseko yakho, ndiya kukwazi ukukubuyekeza ngenxa yemibingelelo owenze kum. Ndiyinto yonke kwabo bangasabambi nganto. Apha, ntombi yam, wongezelela, yile nto ndifuna ukuba uyiqonde ngolu kuziphatha lutsha.

Obu bubuze bendalo iphela, oku kungabi nto kwesidalwa, oku kufa kuwe nakuzo zonke izinto ezidaliweyo, ngumfanekiso omangalisayo wento eyenzekayo ekufeni. Umphefumlo, okhululwe kwizivamvo ngoku kwahlulwa kuzo zonke izinto ezinengqiqo, uwela kule ntshabalalo igqibeleleyo yayo yonke indalo. Yonke into yanyamalala, yonke into itshabalele, yonke into ifile ngenxa yakhe: ihlabathi alisekho; ayisaboni, ayisachukumisi nto ingenguye uThixo; kwaye ukusukela oko kanye izibona ijulwe ngokupheleleyo kubukhulu bayo, njengethontsi lamanzi eliwela esifubeni solwandle, apho ithi ifunxeke kwangoko ngaphandle kokulahlekelwa bubukho bayo.

Kulapho isithuba sivalwa ngokugqibeleleyo, kuba isidalwa esidaliweyo sisembindini waso; ulufikelele usukelo lwakhe, ukonwabela isiphelo sakhe sokugqibela kunye nokulunga kwakhe kolongamo. Kulapho ke, ntombi yam, apho ndikulindile khona ngenye imini, yaye kungenxa yoko le nto ndifuna ukukulungiselela kwangaphambili; kuba akuyi kubakho risiti kolu lwandlekazi lolonwabo ngaphandle kwabo bazintywilisele kulo ebudeni bobomi babo, belahla yonke into ukuba bazishiye ngaphandle kokuzibekela isifuba kwisifuba sikayise esibadalele yena. Lo ngumthombo apho baqala khona, apho kufuneka bahlale khona, kuba kuphela kweziko lokuphumla kwabo.

 

 

Ishwangusha lomphefumlo elibeke ulonwabo lwawo kwizinto ezidaliweyo.

Onjani wona umahluko, Bawo wam, phakathi kwalo mphefumlo unethamsanqa kunye nowomoni oya kulubeka ulonwabo lwakhe kunye nobumnandi bakhe kwisidalwa, ulonwabo lwenyama kunye neminqweno yendalo eyonakeleyo! Xa amaqhina ambophele ubomi nolonwabo lweli hlabathi likhohlisayo eqhawukile, naye uya kubuva ubukho bukaThixo, kodwa uya kumbona kuphela njengomgwebi ongenakuguquka.

kwaye ayinakuguqulwa. Iintshukumo ezingxamayo ziya kumqhubela kuye; naye uya kufuna ukuziphosa esifubeni sakhe; kuba lutyekelo lwendalo noluyimfuneko yayo yonke ingqondo edaliweyo; kodwa uya kusoloko egxothwa kuwo ngamandla angabonakaliyo, isandla esiya kumkrazula ngaphandle kosizi, umgwebo owoyikekayo angayi kuze akwazi ukuwugoba, noya kuhlala uphunyezwa. Ilizwi eloyikekayo liya kuvakala ngokungapheziyo kubunzulu besazela sakhe solwaphulo-mthetho ngala mazwi aphelelwe lithemba: Hlukana, akungowam; Andikwazi.

Ke ngoko uya koyiswa ngonaphakade bubunzima bale nto engento aya kuyithwala kuyo yonke indawo; ukungabi nanto kwesiqu sakhe kunye nezidalwa awayebeke ithemba lakhe kuzo kunye nolonwabo lwakhe; engenanto eyoyikisayo, akayi kufumana nto yokwenene apho ngaphandle kwenkohliso emlukuhlayo, izono aya kuzenza, nezingayi kuyeka ukumngcungcuthekisa. Esinjani sona isiphelo somphefumlo ongafiyo! Elinjani lona ikamva likanaphakade! Boni abanelishwa, ngaba naniza kuzalelwa ilishwa elikhulu kangaka eningafuniyo ukuliphepha, eningazihluphiyo nokucinga ngalo?

Olu lwazi lwam, Bawo, ke ngoko, yayiyimo uThixo awayendifuna kuyo, kwaye wayendikhokele kuyo ixesha elide kakhulu, njengoko wayenobubele ngokwaneleyo ukundazisa; kodwa yayingeyiyo le yayiza kufunwa yidemon, ngoko ke ayizange iyeke ukundikhathaza ngale nto, njengoko yayinzile nakwabanye, imele kum ukuba ngokwenene ndandiphefumlelwe nguThixo, ngendidlwengulwe. kwada kwaya kwelesithathu izulu, ndakhutshelwa ngaphandle kwam ngokupheleleyo; ekugqibeleni zonke impertinences endazibuyisela kuni

 

 

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ingxelo, kwaye eyabangela imilo eyoyikekayo esathi ngayo saqala ukubhala; kuba, njengoko wayeyiphindaphinda kabini imizamo yakhe, uThixo wavuselela waza waphinda-phinda kum iimbono zokuqala ezasilelayo.

 

 

Ukungakwazi kwakhe ukuvula noMnu Lesné. Ukukhululeka kwakhe okukhulu ekwenzeni oko nomhleli, lowo uThixo wayemyalele ukuba akuphinde njengesiqwenga konke awayemazise kona.

Ndandinentembelo enkulu kuM. Lesne ukwenza izivumo zam eziqhelekileyo kuye; kodwa kufuneka ivunywe, ndaziva ndinenzondo engenakunqandwa ukuba amazise ingaphakathi lam, ngokunxulumene nezinto ezingaqhelekanga uThixo awayesebenza apho. Oku kuhlambalaza komelezwa ngakumbi zizigqibo ezithile ze-laconic kunye neempendulo awayeyazi ngayo indlela yokuphepha zonke iingxoxo ezinokuthi zibe nenkangeleko yokubuyela kwixesha elidlulileyo. Mhlawumbi yayikukundivavanya, okanye yayilucalucalulo oluthile olwaludluliselwe kuye, njengoko ndicinga ukuba, umntu uyacinga; nokuba Ekugqibeleni, ukuba uThixo wayengammiselanga oko, njengoko ubani usenokukholelwa, nangayiphi na indlela le nto yenzeka ngayo, ndandinganyanzelekanga kangako ukuba ndiyigxininise intlungu yam kum ngaphandle kobuganga bokukhathazeka ngayo. Ke ngoko ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndilinde isibhakabhaka ukuba sizichaze ngakumbi ngokundinika ixesha kunye neendlela zokwenza oko bekusabonakala kukufuna  .

Okokugqibela, Bawo, ngeli xesha kwaye ezi ndlela bezingekho kude, uBonelelo oluvela kuThixo lukukhokelele apha ukuba ususe amathandabuzo am, ulungise amaxhala am, uthobe ingqondo yam, kwaye ubeke endaweni yako konke endiphulukene nako ngongasekhoyo uMnu. Audouin, ebeka, njengoko ndithemba ukuba, ukugqiba kwakhe umsebenzi awenzileyo nawuqalileyo. Lo mbono Bawo ndandinawo ngawe kwakudala ndingekakuboni, kwaye kwaziwa ukuba uzakuba ngumlawuli wethu endaweni kaM. Lesne. Ndikuxelela oku, Bawo, ngobudenge obufanayo ndinixelele yonke enye into (1). Bendinenkoloseko kwasekuqalekeni kuni, engekaphikiswa; Ngoko ke ndinixelele izinto ezininzi kunaye nabani na ongomnye, yaye ndiyaniqinisekisa ukuba akukho malathisi waziwa njengokuba undazi. Ndinqwenela ukuba ube ngowokugqibela, kwaye undincedise ngeli xesha lokufa ukuze undikhuthaze ngokuzithemba kwesi sicatshulwa sokugqibela, endinesizathu esikhulu sokusibamba ngenxa yemigudu engayi kusilela ukungaphinde ndidlale usathana. , ukuba uThixo uyamvumela.

 

(1) Ndiyakwazi ukutsho njengoDade, ndibhale yonke into andixelele yona, ndizama ukungatshintshi nto, kwaye nokuba yintoni enokuba nobudlelwane nam, kunye nobuqili obufanayo endibhale ngabo bonke. UThixo unegunya lokusebenzisa lowo athanda ukuzisebenzisa, yaye ezona zixhobo zibuthathaka zisoloko zisezandleni zakhe, njengoko benditshilo kwenye indawo.

 

Le nkoloseko ndiyibeke kuwe, Bawo, ndayiyalelwa ndim, aphantse ukuba andilahlekanga. Ewe, ndiyaphinda, bendinomyalelo wokuba ndinibhale phantsi yonke into eyenzeka kum ngokweendawo, amaxesha nezinto ezinjalo

iimeko. UThixo undincome ngokuphindaphindiweyo ukuba ndiphinde ndiphinde ndibuyele kuni njenge-echo into ayithethileyo kum okanye andenze ndiyibone, ngenxa yokuba wayeza kuthabatha kuyo uzuko lwakhe kunye nokulunga kwebandla lakhe. Nawe, Bawo, ucele ukuba ndiphendule; Ndenjenjalo ke ukuthobela uThixo nani; ndawaqala ke amazwi am ngokuzikhumbuza ukuba ndimelwe kukuthini. NguThixo kwakhona, Bawo, ofuna ukuba ndiphelise iakhawunti ende yobomi bam bangaphakathi, ngokukunika imbonakalo ngokubanzi malunga neemeko ezahlukeneyo endazifumana ndikuzo, kunye nezibane ezahlukeneyo endizifumene ezulwini. Kodwa oko kwanele namhlanje, lixesha lokuphumla. Sala kakuhle Bawo, ndithandazele.

 

 

Indlela uThixo awamazisa ngayo oko wabangela ukuba kubhalwe.

“Egameni loYise, loNyana, njl. »

Bawo, malunga nemibono kunye nendlela athe uThixo wandazisa ngayo izinto ezahlukeneyo endathetha ngazo kuni, iBandla kunye neentshutshiso zalo, umgwebo, iparadesi, isihogo, indawo yentlambululo-miphefumlo, njl. Ndanixelela ngeendawo apho izinto zazibonakala zisenzeka phambi kwam, ngamanye amaxesha kwenye indawo, maxa wambi kwenye, phantse rhoqo ezintabeni. Ndinixelele ukuba uJ.-C. wabonakala kum apho, njengokuba kwakunjalo nasebandleni, kwanasesiseleni sethu, ekwimo yomntu, kwanokuba wayenjalo ebudeni bobomi bakhe basemhlabeni; ngamanye amaxesha wazenza wavakala, nokuba kungelizwi, nezikhanyiso ezingaphakathi, engazibonisi ukuba abonakale.

Sele ndinicacisele konke oku kangangoko ndinako; kodwa ukuba undibuza, umzekelo, indlela endizibone ngayo kwiindawo ezahlukeneyo, ndiya kukuphendula endingaziyo. Ekuphela kwento endinokukungqina ngayo ngokuqinisekileyo kukuba, xa ubukho bukaThixo babonakaliswa kum ngendlela enengqiqo ngolu khanyiso, ngoko nangoko nangomzuzu omnye, ndazibona sele ndisiwa kwindawo apho uThixo wayendifuna khona, nalapho uThixo wayendifuna. yayiza kuba yindawo yemiboniso awayeyekile ukundenza umbukeli wayo; kwaye ke, nokuba usondele kum izinto okanye wasondela kum izinto, endingakwaziyo ukwahlula kakuhle, kwaye ndicinga ukuba,

 

 

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kunzima, kuqinisekileyo ukuba ndibabonile, ubuncinci, ngamehlo engqondo. Nangona ndachitha ixesha elininzi ndicinga ngezinto ezahlukeneyo endiziboniswe, intshukumo yokuqala eyandithutha apho yayisoloko isenziwa ngokuqhwanyaza kweliso; okwenzekayo ngamanye amaxesha, nangona kunqabile kancinci. Ndiyabona, ndiyachukumisa, ndiyeva, nangona ukusetyenziswa kwezivamvo kuphazanyiswa ngokupheleleyo okanye ngokuyinxenye, njengoko benditshilo ngaphambili.

Ukuze uyiqonde kakuhle le nto, Bawo, kuya kwanela ukuphinda ndikukhumbuze okwenzeka ngaphakathi kwam ngelixa iprose yabafi yayiculwa ngoMhla wokugqibela we-All Saints. Ndaziva kwaye ndazibona ngesiquphe ndisiwa esihogweni; kodwa, njengoko nisazi, andizange ndoyike, ekubeni mna Ndandikunye noJ.-C. Apho, ndabona, ndazihlolisisa zonke izinto ezoyikekayo endathetha ngazo kuwe ngokweenkcukacha endazenza ngazo kuwe. Ebudeni belo xesha ingqondo yam yayixakeke yiyo, ngesiqingatha ndeva oonongendi becula ecaleni kwam; kodwa amazwi abo amanyeneyo enza isandi esiphantse singavakali nesingavakaliyo ezindlebeni zam. Kuthe ekupheleni kweprozi, ndaphuma kolu hlobo lobuvila, ndaphinda ndasebenzisa ingqondo okomntu ovuswa bubuthongo obunzulu, apho wayecinga ukuba uve ingxolo ethile ethe yamphazamisa kancinci.

Olu xwilo lwalusenzeka kum ngokufuthi kwixesha elidlulileyo lusenzeka kum ngamaxesha athile; andule ke, ukuba ndiya kucamngca ngayo

Kwayara, esiseleni sam, okanye ngexesha lokuzonwabisa, ndingaphezulu kakhulu apho uThixo awuhambisa khona umoya wam, kunakwindawo apho umzimba wam uphumle khona. Yiyo ke le nto indenza ndoyike kakhulu ikhefu, njengokuba bendinixelele kwenye indawo, kuba lihlazo kum.

 

Okona kuncinane kokungakhathali kwakhe kuthintela ubabalo lukaThixo  .

Okona ukungakhathali okuncinci kwecala lam, elona mpazamo lincinci lihlala libeka imiqobo engaphezulu okanye emincinci kwizinto ezilungileyo zezulu. Isiphoso esinzulu ngakumbi sinokundihlutha ngokupheleleyo, kwaye ukuba esi siphoso besisiya kumntu ofayo, besiya kubeka udonga  lokwahlula phakathi kwam noThixo. Emva koko uyazirhoxisa iinceba zakhe kwaye azirhoxise; kodwa ke, kwiimpazamo eziqhelekileyo, uya kuvuma ukundingcikiva ngakumbi nangaphezulu; ungathi indoda enomsindo ikhalazela ukubanda komfazi osathandwa, kodwa emoyikisa ngokumlahla. Ngamanye amaxesha kuphela emva kokuxolelwa kunye nomthendeleko oliqela athi abonakale kum ukuba andishiye ixesha lokumnqwenela kunye nentlungu yokumenza buhlungu.  I

ngoko woyike ukusondela kwakhe kunye nokujonga kwakhe okokuqala; kodwa ndisazinqwenela ngaphezu kokuba ndisoyika.

 

Iimvakalelo zobabalo awazifumana kwizityhilelo awathi ngazo uThixo wambabala. Ingcamango enamandla yentiyo yesono.

Ngalo mzuzu wokubonakala, ndazifumana ndibethwa zizinto ezimnandi okanye ezoyikekayo ezindichaphazele ngokutshintshanayo ngoloyiko, ithemba okanye uthando, kwaye ezi zimvo zazinxulumene nezinto ezahlukeneyo. Ngokomzekelo, xa ndiqwalasela intuthumbo yesihogo, ndaziva  ndiziva ndikhuselekile njengoko zazicacile, nto leyo eyayindenza ndingcangcazele ngesiqu sam nokungaqiniseki ngekamva lam likanaphakade. Kwakunjalo nakwintlambululo-miphefumlo ngokomlinganiselo  .

Ndibona ulonwabo lwabangcwele, ndaziva ndityekele ekuzameni ukulufanelekela ngemisebenzi emihle; njengokuba ndibona ilishwa nokungcungcuthekiswa kwabo bangenakucikideka, ndaziva ndityekele kakhulu ekwenzeni yonke into ukuze ndibaphephe. Ezi zinto zimbini zigqithisekileyo zindenze ndaziva, kwaye ndichukumise umnwe wam, ngokutshintshana kwabo okothusayo nokungenakuphepheka, lonke ixabiso lomphefumlo wam kunye nako konke ukubaluleka kwekamva labo elingunaphakade. Ndawaqonda ke onke amandla nayo yonke inyaniso yala mazwi eVangeli: Yintoni na umsebenzi womntu ukuba azuze lonke ihlabathi, ukuba uthe weza kuphulukana nomphefumlo wakhe? Ngubani onokuze ambuyekeze ngale  lahleko ingenakulungiseka?

Oku kukubaluleka kosindiso. Ndadada ngolo hlobo phakathi kwethemba lezulu kunye noloyiko lwesihogo, ndaza ndangcangcazela ngenxa yokungaqiniseki kwephakade lam; isimo angazange asivelise usathana, angakhe azame nokusenza umgunyathi, angenakuze asixelise kakuhle.

Ngokuqwalasela, phakathi kwezinye izinto, ukuthuthunjiswa okuthile kwabo bangafanelekanga, ndasiva isazela sam sindixelela ukuba ndandisifanelekele. Olunjani lona uloyiko! Ndakhulelwa ngelo xesha intiyo enkulu kangaka ngokuchasene nesono esilishwa esandenza ndasifanelekela isohlwayo esinjalo, ukuba yayigqwesa inzondo endandinayo nxamnye nedemon eyayindithwalele apho, kwanoloyiko lwaloo nto kanye intuthumbo: ukwahlukana nokwahlula. ilahleko evela kuThixo, enganyamezelekiyo njengoko yayinjalo ngokwayo, ngoko ke kum yabonakala incinane ngengqiqo; akukho nto yayingaphezu koloyiko endalucingayo lokuba ngumxholo wanaphakade werhamncwa elalimqumbele; ukuba naphakade entliziyweni ubugwenxa obungayi kuxolelwa, okanye ukuxolelwa, okanye ukulibaleka, kwaye obuya kubakho ngokungenasiphelo ngenxa yelishwa.

yesidalwa esingenakonakala, ababeya kumenza utshaba loThixo waso ngonaphakade, noThixo ababeya kumxhobela ngonaphakade.

Emva koko ndangena kakhulu kwintiyo engaguqukiyo uThixo anayo ngolu tshaba lufayo, kangangokuba ukuva isigwebo.

 

 

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ekuthetheni kwakhe ngaye nanjengoko wandingqinela, ndathi kuye, Ewe, Thixo wam! ukuba ndithe ndohlwaywa ngamahlwempu, eniwagwebayo ngokuba anesono ezintliziyweni zawo, ndiya kusilumkisa ngenxa engaphambili kwa esi sigwebo nindigwebayo, njengoko nisithwalayo ngako. Nokuba yoyikeka kangakanani na, ndiyayamkela kwaye ndiyayivuma; Ndizigwebela iintuthumbo zesihogo, ukuze ndikuphindezele ngenxa yengqumbo eyoyikekayo eyenziwa ngulo rhamncwa. Owu Bawo wam! ukuba amadoda anembono nje ngayo; ukuba bebesazi ububi bayo; ukuba babeyazi intiyo emfaneleyo, indlela ababeya kumohlwaya ngayo baze bamtshabalalise kubo ngokwabo ngezohlwayo ezisindisayo ezaziya kuthintela ubungqongqo bobulungisa bukaThixo!

Ngaba umphefumlo, ukuba ububuyile ezulwini lesithathu, njengompostile oNgcwele uPawulos, ukhe ucinge ukuba nekratshi, xa sele kwenziwe ukuba kubonwe ukungento kwawo, nobukhulu, kunye nobubi bezono ozenzileyo. okanye babenokuzibophelela, kunye neentuthumbo ezimanyumnyezi ebezimfanele, kwaye mhlawumbi ezimlindileyo ekupheleni komsebenzi wakhe; ngokuba ngubani na owaziyo ukuba ufanele ukuthandwa, nokuba uthiyiwe? Lo mntu, ekude ekusebenziseni kakubi ubabalo lwezulu, ngokuziqinisekisa ngokungaqinisekanga kosindiso lwakhe, akasayi kuvuma na ngakumbi ukusebenza kulo mcimbi umkhulu ngayo yonke inyameko efunekayo ngenxa yokubaluleka kwawo nemfuneko yawo, ukuze siphumelele ekuyisebenzeni ngoloyiko nangokungcangcazela asicelayo uMoya oyiNgcwele ngomlomo walo mpostile ndisandul’ ukumbiza?

Oku, Bawo, sisimo endizifumana ndikuso ngoku, kwaye uThixo ebesoloko endicela, njengoko ebesoloko ezama ukuyizisa; kodwa esi simo solonwabo sikude ukuba size kum ngesiquphe, okanye kwanasekuqalekeni kwezityhilelo zam. Ubabalo lumelwe ukuba lundibekele kuyo ngazo zonke iindlela, njengoko ubonile, nangeendlela ezingaqhelekanga kum isihloko esitsha sokungcangcazela ngenxa yengxelo endiya kuyenza.

Ewe, Bawo, uyazi ukuba bendikude  apho, ngobabalo lukaThixo, ndikuyo ngoku. Kwakukho ukungafezeki okuninzi kokulungileyo okuncinci endikwenzileyo; indalo yazifumana ngokuphindaphindiweyo; idemon yayisenza into yayo yonke indawo. Ngaloo ndlela, ndiyiphinda kwakhona, kwaye ndithetha njengoko ndichaphazelekayo, ukuba yonke into iye yasilela kwixesha elidlulileyo, likratshi lam kuphela kunye nezimo zam ezimbi ezimele zibekwe ityala: kuya kwenzeka ntoni ngokungenasiphoso ukuba uThixo wayengenzanga zonke iindleko. ngokutshabalalisa yonke imiqobo; ngokuba, ngokokude ndisenjenjalo, ndinako ukuniqinisekisa, ngaphandle kokuthobeka kwentliziyo, ukuba mna ndinako ukuwonakalisa umsebenzi kaThixo nje, ndiwènze amayelenqe akhe amakhulu;

 

Ingozi yobabalo olungaqhelekanga. Kwabangcwele bakhatshwa yimbandezelo enkulu kunye nokuthotywa.

Ngokuphathelele ubabalo olunengqiqo, kunye nezibane ezivelisa imincili kunye nokuxwilwa, okanye isiphumo esiphela ngaphandle kwembonakalo ebonakalayo kunye nezinto ezingaqhelekanga, akukho mathandabuzo ukuba, ngengqiqo yokwenyani, zifanele zoyike ngakumbi kunokuba zinqwenelekayo, kuba ihlala ixhasa abanye ukuba inikwe, kwaye iyingozi kwabo benzeke kuyo, ukuba ayichasananga apho ngeendlela ezinokutshabalalisa ngokusebenzayo oko kunokulimaza isidima sesifundo apho zifunyenwe. .

Ngaloo ndlela, uBawo, uThixo wandazisa ukuba nanini na xa esetyenziselwa okulungileyo kwicawa yakhe kunye nokusindiswa kwemiphefumlo, wayesoloko enika abo babezizixhobo zabo ukuthotywa, ukubandezeleka, ubabalo ekugqibeleni olunyanzeliswayo, ngoko ke bathethe, babuyele kubo, bahlale bengento yanto. Kwakhona siyabona ukuba abo uThixo wasebenzisa ukuba zizixhobo zenceba yakhe, ukuze abuyisele abantu emsebenzini wabo, phantse bonke babengcwele bobona bubi bugqibeleleyo nobupheleleyo, kunye neyona ntobeko inzulu.

 

Ukuthobeka okunzulu kwamadoda abizelwe ukwenza imimangaliso eBandleni.

Ewe, Bawo, la madoda angaqhelekanga kunye nokufaneleka kokuqala kwinxalenye enkulu, aba bangcwele benza imimangaliso, kwaye abo basebenza kuzo zonke iintlobo zezilwanyana bahlala bebiza igama le-thaumaturges, uThixo wandenza ndabona ukuba abakhuselekanga . , phakathi kwembeko ehlawulweyo kubo;

ukuba iinkanuko zabo zacima kwaye zafa ezintliziyweni zabo, njengoko babesenza kuphela egameni likaThixo, kwaye ngaphandle kokubuyisela kubo. Ikratshi lalisaziveza: kodwa kuninzi wafumana intliziyo engafikelelekiyo kuhlaselo lwakhe, kunye neminqweno engasaphefumliyo. Umtyholi nendalo zoyiswa zanyanzelwa ukuba zithule, kwaye yiloo nto eyabenza bakhuseleka.

Ewe, Bawo, ndiyabona ukuba aba bantu bangcwele babephila kuphela ngothando lukaThixo, ababelufuna uzuko lwakhe kuyo yonke into nakuyo yonke indawo; usebenzisa  isidalwa kuphela ukuphakama  ukuya kwi

 

 

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uMdali; ngelizwi, babefile kubo, kulo ihlabathi, nakwiziyolo zeemvakalelo; bafuna kuphela ukusabela kubabalo lwakhe, ukulwa neenkanuko zabo, ukoyisa izilingo zabo, nokoyisa ngokupheleleyo ixhego. Kubekho abanye, kwaye kusekho abanye abangakhululekanga ncam kubukumkani beemvakalelo kunye neminqweno, abasazaliswa kukuzicingela, ukungafezeki kunye neziphene. Aba bantu abalolwaphulo-mthetho ngokoyikekayo, kodwa banako kwaye baba njalo rhoqo, okanye ubuncinci ukuncamathela kwabo kwisidalwa kubabonelela ngamathuba amaninzi kakhulu okuwa kunye nokungathembeki. Ingakumbi kubo ukuba uthando olunobuntununtunu kunye nolungaqhelekanga luyingozi, kuba njengoko sesichazile,

 

 

Indlela uThixo awamkhusela ngayo uDade kwikratshi kwiinceba  ezingaqhelekanga awathetha ngazo naye ukuze asindise  imiphefumlo.

Kananjalo, Bawo, kwezi nceba zingaqhelekanga athe  wanxibelelana nazo kum ukuze kusindiswe abanye, undenze ndabona ukuba ukulunga kwakhe kwasindisa ubuthathaka bam kakhulu. Ukuzithemba kwam kwakunobuntununtunu kakhulu, iminqweno yam idlamkile, kwaye ikratshi lam lilungele ukuvutha. Wandenza ndaqonda ukuba  ndinjalo

elahlekileyo ngaphandle koncedo, ukuba wayengazibambisanga kakuhle iinceba awazibeka kum ngesisa, nangenxa yabanye, ngazo ezo abezibeke khona ngenxa yam kuphela. Injalo ke imbonakalo ecacileyo yobukhulu bakhe, into engento yam, yezono zam, nokoyika imigwebo yakhe, nokulibala okugqibeleleyo nokupheleleyo kwewaka lezinto awandazisa ngazo, angandixelelanga zona. Ndikhumbule inkumbulo kuphela ukwenza ukuba uzibhale, ngaphandle kokuba ndibe nako, umzuzu olandelayo, ukuzisebenzisa. Ubungqina obuhle, ngokombono wam, ukuba iingcamango azizi kum, ekubeni andinako ukuba nazo ngokwam, okanye ndingaziphepha xa uThixo endinike zona, okanye ndizithabathe okanye ndizigcine xa ezisusa kum. Ngaba umntu usenalo ikratshi xa enamava okuswela amandla kunye nobuhlwempu, xa ekugqibeleni enezifundo ezininzi kangaka

Ngoko ke uThixo undenze ndabona, Bawo, ukuba umtyholi unokuchukumisa, ngokomzekelo, emthandazweni, izibane ezingaqhelekanga, izimuncumuncu zobumnandi obunobuthathaka, obuthe, buhlangene nokunyanzeliswa kokuthobeka okukuphela Kwentelekelelo, njengabanye, benza. imiphefumlo ebafumanayo ngenxa yelishwa labo bayakholwa ukuba bayamkholisa uThixo, kwaye akukho nto bamele boyike kuyo; umgibe oyingozi kakhulu kuba kunzima kakhulu ukuba bawuphephe, kwaye bawubone, nangona abantu abanolwazi olungakumbi ngokomoya kunye nobomi bangaphakathi bayazi indlela yokuzikhusela kuyo. Ekuphela kwento ekufuneka bayenze kukuthelekisa kunye iimpembelelo ezahlukeneyo abazivayo ngamaxesha athile ukuze babone inkohliso kwaye bahlele umsebenzi kaThixo ophuma kumsebenzi kaMtyholi. Kodwa siya kubuyela kuyo kwakhona ukuba ubona kufanelekile. Ngoko masiyishiye apho ngale ntsasa; kwaye ngobu busuku, emva kokucengcelezwa kwe breviary yakho, siya kuthatha iinkcukacha zobomi bam obuhlwempuzekileyo bangaphakathi. UThixo enceda, ekugqibeleni siya kuzama ukuyiphelisa. Thandazele....

 

Iinkohliso zedemon kwizinto ezithile ezingaqhelekanga anokuzikhohlisa. Umphumo wabo uhlala udumba intliziyo.

“Egameni likaBawo, njl. »

Bawo, isiphumo esisoloko sivelisa inkohliso yedemon, andikwazi ukuyiphinda rhoqo, ibandakanya ulwaneliseko olungento oluphuma kukuzithemba okukhulu, ukudumba kwentliziyo okuhlala kukhokelela ekuzikholelweni ngcono. abanye. Olu luvo, njengoko besenditshilo, alunakuze lubhidaniswe yimiphefumlo engaphakathi ngokwenyani kunye nelo libangelwa kukubona ubukho bukaThixo, kwaye akukho mpazamo xa sithe sazifumana sobabini. Omnye uchaphazela ingaphakathi lomphefumlo, owanelisayo kwaye uxolise ngokuwuthoba; enye ibamba intelekelelo kwaye

intsingiselo, ukuba iyabakhohlisa ngokubaphambanisa. NguThixo kuphela onokuphilisa intliziyo yomntu, njengoko inguye yedwa onokuyanelisa aze ayizalise; nguye yedwa onokubuyisela uxolo apho ngokutshabalalisa iinkanuko ezichasene nalo. Idemon ivelisa kuphela ukubonakala kwayo ngokubeka i-phantom endaweni yenyaniso; ilwa enye inkanuko kunye nenye inkanuko, enye inkohlakalo kunye nenye inkohlakalo efihlakeleyo ngakumbi, kwaye isenza kuphela ukuba siphephe enzonzobileni ukusenza siwele kwenye ehlala inzulu ngakumbi. Ewe, Bawo, xa zonke izinto ezingendawo zitshatyalalisiwe, idemon ibiya kuhlala ivuya, ngaphandle nje kokuba ivuselele ikratshi kwimizimba yabo. Uze ngokunjalo ke, emana esiphosa kokuncamisa, siye kokunye, ephuthuma zonke iinkangeleko neziyolo zonke, neenkanuko zonke zokonakala; kwaye ulungiselela emazantsi entliziyo imfazwe ekhohlakele ngakumbi phantsi kwembonakalo yoxolo. Ngumlilo ofihlwe phantsi kothuthu obangela umlilo, ukuzola okukhohlisayo okuvakalisa isaqhwithi kwaye ubhence umntu ongenangqondo ongazi ukuba angakuphepha njani ukuba alahlekelwe yilahleko engenakulungiseka.

Ndizimela ngokwam, Bawo, mna

 

 

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impi kaMoses nezazi zikaFaro. NguThixo kanye nosathana ababambeleyo. Ngobugcisa bedemon kunye nobudlelwane babo kunye nesihogo, abakhafuli bayaphumelela ekwenzeni umgunyathi, ukuya kwinqanaba elithile, oko kwenziwa ngumthetho ongcwele wamaHebhere: bayayichasa inkohliso kunye nokukhafula kwizinto ezimangalisayo zokwenene; kodwa kukho inqanaba apho bazifumanisa bebophelelekile ukuba bavume ukungabi namandla kwabo nokoyiswa kwabo, kwanokongama komchasi wabo, kwaye kukule ngongoma apho ubuThixo bubalindileyo ukuba babanyanzele ukuba babubone ngokusebenza kwabo, ngokuthi: Umnwe kaThixo ulapha . wayengekho ke kwicala labo.

Kungoko ukuba ngawo onke amaxesha inkawu yobuthixo ifune ukugxuphuleka kumsebenzi wayo; kodwa yayiyinto nje yokumosha. Kungoko wakuchasayo ukuprofeta, nokunqulwa koothixo bobuxoki noko benyaniso. Nguye owathi, ngendlela efanayo nangesizathu esinye, wavelisa iiyantlukwano noqhekeko, phantsi kwenkohliso yohlaziyo, wazenza ngathi useka kwakhona unqulo neCawa, xa wayesebenzela ukutshatyalaliswa kwayo ngokupheleleyo. Yiyiphi imigibe angayibeki yonke imihla ukuze kube lula ukholo kunye nokungabi nacala, kwiimveliso zakhe ezifihlakeleyo apho inyoka ifihla phantsi kweentyatyambo, apho

ityhefu efayo yenziwa ukuba iginywe ziziselo ezinxilisayo, nalapho ubuxoki bobuxoki buthi shwaka phantsi kwembonakalo yenyaniso!

 

Imithetho yokubona izikhanyiso zobuxoki ezivela kwidemon.

Kodwa, Bawo, kuphezu kwako konke oku kuhlobo lomoya lo buchule

u-charlatan wenza yonke imizamo yokwenza utshintsho. Kukho ngaphezu kwayo yonke into ahamba ngayo ngandlela zonke ukukhohlisa umphefumlo, phantsi kwesizathu sokufezeka, njengoko nditshilo. Sibonile, Bawo, kusoloko kulula ukuba imiphefumlo enolwazi lomoya wokwenyani ifumanise imigibe yayo nokuqonda izikhanyiso zayo zobuxoki; Ke bona abo bathe banganeno nje, basuka baqonda ngokwendlela kaThixo, bagqale ngokwemigaqo yokholo.

1° into umtyholi anako nangenako;

(2) indlela asebenza ngayo, ngokuchaseneyo nekaThixo, njengoko siye sakhula ngokubanzi ngamaxesha awahlukahlukeneyo; ekugqibeleni, ngaphezu kwayo yonke into, injongo uphakamisa, nto leyo esoloko ukulwa amacebo kaThixo, kwaye ukuphosa okanye ukugcina imiphefumlo kwinkohliso, kunye nokomeleza ukumkani onelishwa waseYiputa kubumfama apho uThixo wayezama ukuyifumana. ngaphandle ngandlela zonke. Ngokwale migaqo ixhaswe ngaphezu kwayo yonke into kukukhanya kobuthixo, kuya kubonakala ngokucacileyo ukuba kuzo zonke iindidi anqwenela ukugxuphuleka kuzo, kukho inqaku apho usathana angenako ukukhohlisa, okanye apho kusoloko kulula ukuyibona inyaniso. ukusuka kwinkohliso. Le ngongoma, Bawo, uThixo unetyala kumsebenzi wakhe, kwisidalwa sakhe nakuye ngokwakhe, kwaye eli litye lokuvavanya lifanele ukuba lifikelele kuye wonke umntu,

Indlela elungileyo yokufumanisa imposiso yeengcebiso zakhe, xa ethe wazibonakalisa emphefumlweni, kukungavumi nantoni na echasene nokholo, isibhalo, okanye izigqibo zeBandla. Kangangendlela amacebiso awahlukahlukeneyo athatyathwe ngokukodwa, ilitye lokuhlola lenyaniso. Akunakwenzeka ukuba uYise wobuxoki akayi kuphambuka ngokukhawuleza kuyo, kwaye akayi kuzama ukuphambuka kuyo kunye naye, ekubeni eyona njongo yakhe iphambili kukulwa nokutshabalalisa, njengoko kukho kuye, ukuzithoba kwethu kwiCawa. kunye nokholo lwethu kwiinyaniso anoxanduva lokusicebisa; kodwa, njengoko senditshilo, ngokwento uThixo athe wandazisa ngayo, akunakwenzeka ukuba uburhelembhe bungazichasi, kufuneka buzingcatshe kwindawo ethile.

Ewe, Bawo, uze ukuthabathe oku njengenyaniso engenakuphikiswa: naluphi na ulwazi oluhle uMtyholi athi ulunika thina kwizinto zokomoya, akunakwenzeka ukuba angaze agxuphuleke kwinto ethile elukholweni nasekuthobeleni iCawa. inzondo neyakhe

ukuzingca. Kodwa enye indlela, kwaye iseyeyona ibalaseleyo, yokufumanisa iqhinga lalo moya wemposiso, kukuthelela kolu kuzinikela elukholweni ukuthanda okuqinileyo nokungagungqiyo kokulandela intando kaThixo kuyo yonke into kwaye ungaphambuki kuyo. ngaphandle kwanto. Esi simo sengqondo, simkholisa ngokungenasiphelo uThixo, akasithandabuzi, siyalucaphukisa utshaba lwakhe, yaye kusengenakwenzeka ukuba intliziyo efunyenwe kuyo ibe lixesha elide idlala imposiso; isibane sokholo esimkhokelela endleleni yentobeko nothando kungekudala siya kutshabalalisa oku kukhanya kobuxoki kumlahlekisiyo.

Yahluke kakhulu kule charlatanism yokomoya, kolu kukhanya okukhohlisayo kunye nokwexeshana, okunokuthi kukhazimle okomzuzwana kwaye kunyamalale umzuzwana  emva kokukhanya okuqaqambileyo nokuthambileyo okuvela ku-J.-C, kwandisa kuphela kwaye kwanda ekusondeleni kwesi sibane sobuthixo. yokholo. Ngumlilo owongezelelekileyo komnye umlilo wohlobo olufanayo, kwaye othe wavutha ngakumbi ngolu manyano; kanti udumo lwedemon lunyamalala njenge will-o'-the-wisps okanye iiphosphors zasebusuku, phambi kwenkwenkwezi ekhanyisa umhlaba ngamandla emitha yayo enenzuzo. Apho kufuneka kugqitywe ekubeni zonke ezi  zityholo

 

 

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iimpembelelo ezivela ehlabathini kukuba, ukuthabatha kakuhle, kuphela ukukhohlisa kwesandla somntu onobuchule ophila kuphela ngeendleko zabo abenza i-dupes ye-charlatanism yakhe; ukanti, uBawo, nokokuba zazimbi kangakanani na iinkohliso zalo mkreqi, uThixo wandazisa ukuba ngendandikhohliswe ngokungenasiphoso ngabo ngokwam ngamaxesha amaninzi, ukuba wayengandinikanga sandla soncedo ukuba ndirhoxe kwimpazamo okanye ndizisindise kuyo. ukuwa kuyo.

 

 

Omnye wabavumisi bakaDade ubuza uThixo ngendlela afanele amkhokele ngayo. Impendulo kaJ.-C. kuDade ngalo mbandela.

Omnye wabavumisi bam abangaqhelekanga wabuza uThixo ngendlela awayeya kundikhokela ngayo (1). “Intombi yam, uJ.-C. ngenxa yokuba, wongezelela, ndiyathanda

(1) Yayingongasekhoyo uM. Beurier, umvangeli wasemazweni omkhulu weBandla lamaEudist, owayesazi kakuhle ulwalathiso lwemiphefumlo, umbhali womsebenzi obekekileyo, IiNkomfa Zokholo, owafa ekugqibeleni ekwivumba lobungcwele . Yena, njengabanye abaninzi, wayenoluvo lokuba uDade wayefanele ukuba uM. Audouin abhale, njengoko sasibonile ekuqaleni.

 

ukukhokela imiphefumlo ngeendlela ezahlukeneyo ezingaziwa nangumlawuli wabo, kwanabo ngokwabo. Njengoko uMtyholi enamaqhinga akhe afihlakeleyo kunye neendlela zakhe ezifihlakeleyo, kunye nehlabathi imilinganiselo yabo yobuxoki ukubakhohlisa nokubalahlekisa, ndinayo, ukubaxhasa nokutshabalalisa amaqhinga edemoni kunye nehlabathi, indlela ethile yokuba ubulumko bomntu okanye idemoni. inokuqonda. Ndihlala ndivumela izilingo zabo kunye nokuzabalaza kwabo kwangaphakathi, ukuba balinganise okulungileyo kubo, kwaye ndigcine ubabalo lwam lukhuselekile kuthando lwesiqu olufuna ukubasusa kuphela. Ukuba kuthe kwenzeka ukuba idemon yoyise kwinto ethile ngokuthanda kwabo, ekulweni endimvumelayo ukuba alwe nabo, ngoko ke ndisebenzisa uloyiso lwakhe ukulwa naye ngokunenzuzo engakumbi; umoyise ngelam ithuba ngokumgqobhoza ngezakhe iintolo. Ngaloo ndlela, ngemfihlelo uMtyholi ayoyikayo, nengaphaya koko kunokutshiwo, ndiyawuchasa umphumo woko, yaye ndisebenzisa ulwaphulo-mthetho olwenziweyo ukuphelisa ikratshi elaluvelisayo. Ngale nto ndiyityumza intloko yenyoka ngokuziluma ukwenza into yokunyanga philisa."

 

 

Ubabalo lwembubhiso olusekwe ziimbandezelo ezisentliziyweni kaDade. Ukumanyana kwakhe no-J.-C. ekubandezelekeni nasekutshatyalalisweni, ngakumbi kwiSakramente eNgcwele yesibingelelo.

Kukangaphi, Bawo, ndingazange ndibe nalo ulonwabo lokufumana olu hambo lwesisa oluvela kuThixo wam! Ndimbulela kangakanani ngokundigcina ndisondele kuye ngokuzincamathela emnqamlezweni! Ngokungathandabuzekiyo wayeneenjongo zakhe zenceba, ngokundiphosa kulwandle lokuthotywa nokubandezeleka. Ah! Makabongwe ngonaphakade. Umtyholi wayesebenzise kanye izikhanyiso zikaThixo ukuzisa ikratshi engqondweni yam; kwakuyimfuneko ke ngoko ukuba, ukuze atshitshise amaqhinga akhe, akhohlise amathemba akhe aze aloyise kwimpumelelo yakhe, uThixo kwakufuneka enze ngandlela zonke ezingaziwayo bububi bedemon ngokuphathelele bonke ubulumko bomntu.

Utshaba lwakhe lwalubala ukuba luyitshabalalise ukusuka phezulu ukuya ezantsi iprojekthi ekwakufuneka ayoyike, kwaye le projekthi yayingazange isondele kakhulu ekuphumeleleni njengaxa wayezivuyisa ngoloyiso lwakhe, kwaye xa ndikholelwa kum.

ukuba yonke into yayilahlekile. Kodwa, ndiyaphinda, ndiyaqonda ukuba ndandingenakuze ndikhohliswe ngolonwabo njengaxa ndandimbulela uThixo ngokundihlangula kwimpazamo.

Kwakukwaleli xesha kananjalo apho ubabalo olutsha nokukhanya okutsha lwaqalisa ukundihlisela enzonzobileni yokungento kwam; isipili esithembekileyo endithatha kuso ngokukhululeka ulwazi lukaThixo kunye nesiqu sam. Ndiyibona njengeziphelo ezibini ezichaseneyo, amandla kwelinye icala, ubuthathaka kwelinye, kunye noSathana njengoko ethunyelwe phakathi kwezi zibini, ehlala ejonge ukwenzakalisa elinye okanye elinye iqela, efunda ngokungapheliyo ethatha ithuba ngalo lonke ithuba kunye nomzuzu ngamnye. ukuvuselela, ukuxhobisa iinkanuko ngokuchasene nobulwelwe bemvelo obungenakwenza nto ngaphandle kobabalo; kodwa into ethuthuzelayo, ndibona kwesi sipili ukuba uThixo akaze akwale xa kuyimfuneko, ngakumbi kwabo bacela ngokufanelekileyo, kwaye benze konke okusemandleni abo ukuze bazuze kuyo.

Ndimele ndikuxelele kwakhona, Bawo, ukuba ngokutsalwa kolu babalo lwembubhiso kunye nokumanyana noMsindisi wam, ndizifumana ndihlala ndisiswa ukuba ndidibanise iminqamlezo yam kunye nomnqamlezo ka-J.-C. iintlungu zakhe, ukufa kwam ekufeni nasekubandezelekeni kwakhe, ukuze ndibeke imbeko kwiintlungu zakhe, ndenze ngaloo ndlela ukuzohlwaya ngenxa yezono zam zonke, nezono zabo bonke abantu, njengoko wathethayo kum, njengoko ndathethayo kuni kwenye indawo.

Ndisazifumana, ngokwalo mtsalane wangaphakathi, ndityekele ngamandla ekuzimanyeni no-J. Ndiziva ndilambile kwaye ndinxanelwe ukuphulukana nam kwisakramente yobungcwele, njengethontsi lamanzi elilahlekayo kwaye lidityaniswe kwisibhakabhaka esikhulu solwandle apho liwele khona  .

Oku, Bawo, yiloo nto wayibhala kum enzonzobileni enzonzobileni yomphefumlo wam, ngemeko endikuphendule ngayo kuwe, nalapho, undimangalela, undimangalela.

 

 

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ngezono zam nezabantu bonke, wathi kum, Ntombi yam, ukuba uthe wandamkelela kum, uzenze ufanele ukwenza ukuthanda kwam, wenze ngokwecebo endikubekele lona, ​​wothi kum, iyure nganye yosuku ukufaneleka kwenkanuko yam, ngokweemfihlakalo ezahlukeneyo eziyiqambayo, kwaye

oku kukumanyana kwemeko yomthandazo nedini apho ndizifumana ndikwisakramente yobuthixo yezibingelelo zam, esisikhumbuzo esingunaphakade senkanuko yam, kwangaxeshanye iyitrone yothando  lwam  . “Apha, uyazi,  wethu

Bawo, imvelaphi yezenzo ondivumele ukuba ndivuselele isifungo  .

Bekuya kubakho imiqulu emininzi endiya kuyibhala ngoko uJ.-C. andenza ndakubona ndaza ndanamava kwesi sihlandlo, ngemfuneko yokuba sonke simanyane naye kwiimbandezelo zethu, nangokungabi namsebenzi kokulunga kwethu ngaphandle kolu manyano. Wathi kum: “Phaphani, nithandaze, nixhathise isihendo; funa kuyo yonke into kuphela uzuko lwam olunyulu kunye nothando lwam olunyulu; Zikhwebule kwisidalwa nakuwe ukuze unamathele kum kuphela, kwaye ndiya kuba yinkxaso yakho kunye nokukhanya kwakho. Kuphela kum kwaye ngam ukuba unokulwa kwaye ufanelwe, njl., njl. »

 

 

Kufuneka simanyane no-J.-C. ukubandezeleka, kwaye sisoloko sisilwa nekratshi, eliphuma kakhulu emazantsi endalo yethu eyonakeleyo, njengoko livela kumtyholi.

Ke kaloku, Bawo, ngokunenza nikwazi, ngokuthobela, ukuthabatheka kolu lubabalo lundikhokelelayo ekubhujisweni kwayo yonke into, andithi ngenxa yeso sizathu ndikhululwe kwikratshi, nakukokwezinye izikhohlakali zobuntu. Ah! Ndilindele ngokupheleleyo, ngokuchaseneyo, ukuba kuya kufuneka ndilwe nabo ngaphezulu okanye ngaphantsi komphefumlo wokugqibela. Eyokuqala, ngokukodwa, utshaba olunobuqili, oluhoxisa ixesha elithile kuphela ukumangalisa ngcono, ukubuyela kwintlawulo xa ekulindeleke kancinci. Ewe, ndibona kuThixo ukuba kwezona zingcwele zibalaseleyo ngokwazo esi silo samandulo sinokuphinda sizalwe eluthuthwini lwaso kwaye sibangele ukulahleka kwalowo woyisayo ukoyiswa kwakhe. Ah! hayi indlela ekuyoyikeka ngayo ukuhlala udibana notshaba oluchubekileyo noluyingozi! Ukuba uMtyholi uyoyikwa ngenxa yethu,

Kodwa Bawo wam kutheni ndisoloko ndigxeka idemon ngeentlupheko zam? Kutheni umenza yedwa uxanduva lobubi bam, ikratshi lam? Yeha! nokuba kuncinane kangakanani endiyigocagoca eyam intliziyo, ndiziva ukuba indalo yam yosulelwe kwaye yonakaliswe sisono santlandlolo, mna ngokwam ndizaliswe ngamampunge, ikratshi nobuxoki; ingxubevange yenkxwaleko kunye nesono ngakumbi ukundoyikela, ndingatsho phantse kunabantu bonke kunye. Ndinokuba yintoni na, ukuba u-J.-C. akazange andibonelele ekuvulekeni kwamanxeba akhe indawo yokusabela eqinisekisiweyo ngokuchasene nesihogo nanxamnye nam? Kwakhona lizibuko elizolileyo, kwaye njengegama apho wayesoloko endibiza ukuba  ndiphephe

ilishwa lokwaphukelwa yinqanawa elinokundenza ndingabi namsebenzi kwaye ndilahlekelwe ngonaphakade sisiqhamo sobabalo oluninzi kunye nemisebenzi emininzi.

Inyaniso eyoyikisayo kakhulu, Bawo, kwaye uza kwakhona, ukuze athethe kwakhona, ukuba aphinde abhale engqondweni yam ngendlela enamandla kakhulu kwaye ekwazi ukwenza uvakalelo oluhlala luhleli. Njengoko kubonakala kum ukuza apha ngexesha elifanelekileyo, kwaye njengoko uThixo ngokungathandabuzekiyo wayenezizathu zakhe zokukhetha le meko ukuba ayilandele kum, ndiya kukuxelela ngayo ekugqibeleni.

 

 

Uphawu olumangalisayo lokwaphukelwa yinqanawa, nto leyo uThixo ayisebenzisayo ngaphakathi kuDade. Iimvakalelo zakhe ezithobekileyo.

Unongendi wabuya ngenye imini, ngexesha lokuzonwabisa, uphawu awayelufunde ngaphambili, okanye weva lufundwa endingazi ukuba ngawaphi amaphepha kawonke-wonke. Yayimalunga nomrhwebi okanye umrhwebi osisityebi owayebuya kuhambo olunzima nolunzima ngolwandle, ekhwele inqanawa ethwele ubutyebi obuninzi nobuninzi obabuza kuqinisekisa ubutyebi bakhe kunye nekamva losapho lwakhe.

Ephelelwe ngumonde wokumbona, nokwaziswa ngomhla awayeza kufika ngawo, inkosikazi yakhe, abantwana bakhe, bonke abahlobo bakhe babeye elunxwemeni, apho babonakala ngathi, ngokukhala kwabo kovuyo, bawukhawulezisa lo hambo lucothayo. ukuthanda kwabo, kwenqanawa abayifumana elwandle, lo mbono ubenza banandiphe ulonwabo; kodwa ngelishwa! akubanga thuba lide. Oku konwaba kwangaphambi kwexesha kubazisele ulonwabo lwexeshana olwathi lwalandelwa ziinyembezi ezininzi.

Inqanawa ekudala ifunwa isondela, ifika, siphantse siyichukumise. Iyavela inkosi, iqonde intsapho yayo ethandekayo, ize iyibulise, nangona ikude; kwaye umzuzu olandelayo, phantsi kwamehlo ale ntsapho inye, inqanawa ifika ukuba iqhube kwaye iphuke inqanawa, ukuze yonke into ibhubhe ngaphandle kokuba nantoni na ikwazi ukusindiswa okanye ukugcinwa.

Ngelixa ndikunye nabanye oonongendi ndimamele ngononophelo kwibali elibi, ngokuqinisekileyo lalingenanto ngaphandle kokucacisa ngokuthe ngqo ukusenza sizive ukungaguquguquki kunye nokuphela kwempahla yobuxoki apha ngezantsi, uThixo undenze ndaqiniseka-le-champ isicelo esichukumisayo ngakumbi. , ndaza ndawukrola nzulu emphefumlweni wam, kangangokuba akukho loyiko lokuba lungaze lucinywe....

"Lonto umphefumlo utyhileka kude kube ngumzuzu wokugqibela," watsho kum ngaphakathi. Emva kokufumana okukhulu; ubutyebi bokomoya, bayiphepha yonke imigibe yosindiso, basinda kuzo zonke iingozi, bada boyisa zonke

iintshaba, ngelishwa angaphukelwa yinqanawa njengoko ebona izibuko kwaye sele eza kwamkela

 

 

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umvuzo ongunaphakade ngenxa yemisebenzi yakhe emihle.  »

Ah! Bawo, ukuba ikamva elibi ngolo hlobo, ukuba idenouement elusizi ngolo hlobo  inokuba yeyomphefumlo ozaliswe ziimfanelo kunye nokulunga othweswe ngazo zonke iintlobo zemisebenzi elungileyo njengoko ndiyiqondayo, ndingamele ndoyike ntoni na? wenza okubi, engaphanza kokubi, abe ufanelwe luqeqesho lodwa? Ziingcinga ezoyikisayo ngam, Bawo; UThixo undenze ndabona ukuba ndikude kangakanani kunqulo olugqibeleleyo, kwanokuba kuninzi ekusafuneka ndikwenzele ikamva. Lifikile ixesha lokuba ndisebenzise intwanana endiyishiyeleyo ukuze ndiphile, ukuqinisekisa usindiso lwam kangangoko luza kuxhomekeka kum, hleze ndifumane izohlwayo kuphela endaweni yemivuzo ekupheleni kwekhondo lam lomsebenzi endiziva ngathi lisondele. ngosuku  .

 

 

Umbulelo kaDade kumlawuli wakhe. Iingqikelelo kunye neengcebiso azenzayo kuye.

Undikhulule, Bawo, emithwalweni emibini enzima;

1 Ukungqina oko, ukuba ndimelwe kukuthi ndinibeke kuni ngezikhanyiso awandinikayo uThixo, endisimiselayo ngoku isazela senu. yidiphozithi engaseyeyam, kwaye uya kuphendula ngayo; kuba ndiyakubona oko uThixo akufunayo kuwe kule ndawo; okwesibini wandikhulula kubunzima bezono zam, zezono zobomi bam bonke, ngoxolelo owandinika lona emva kovumo olupheleleyo nolupheleleyo endilwenzileyo kuwe, nendithi ngalo, Ndiyabulela kuThixo. ndonwabe kakhulu. Nangona kunjalo, ndiyathemba, iya kuba sisivumo sokugqibela sobomi bam, kuba ndenze isigqibo sokuba ndingaphindi, kwaye ndilahle yonke into kwinceba kaThixo, njengoko ucebisa ukuba ndenze.

Wanga ke Bawo uwavale amehlo am, ngoba ndiphinda ndiphinda kuwe, ndingavuya ukufa phakathi kwezandla zakho, kwaye ube  ngumlawuli wam wokugqibela, njengoko ungowokugqibela ekuhlaleni: kodwa nguThixo yedwa owaziyo. kuya kwenzeka ntoni na kuyo; kuba, Bawo, ndiyaphinda ndikuxelele, kwaye ndivakalisa kuwe ndineenyembezi emehlweni am, ndibona kwangaphambili uqhwithela oloyikekayo. Liyeza ixesha lokuba nisishiye nibaleke; awukwazi ukwenza ngenye indlela, kufuneka uzithobe kuyo yonke into. UThixo uyazi ukuba siya kuze sibonane kwakhona; kodwa ndiyinqwenela ngakumbi kunokuba ndiyithemba  .

Ikhona into eyenzekayo, Bawo, ndiyakucela, ungandilibali, kuba ndiya kuludinga kakhulu uncedo lwemithandazo yakho; Yiloo nto uhlala ukhumbula udadewenu ohluphekileyo woMzalo, ekufuneka akubangele ingxaki kunye nomsebenzi. Nokuba uThixo uyasivumela ukuba sibunandiphe ubomi okwethutyana, okanye usihluthe kubo ngokufa, masithembisane ukuba asisayi kulibalana; kuba ecaleni kwam, Bawo, ndizimisele ukukuthandazela, ndifile nokuba ndisaphila; Ndinetyala kuwe ngazo zonke iintlobo zezizathu, yaye andisayi kuze ndikulibale phambi koThixo; ndicela undithembise njalo.

Ndiyahamba ngoku, Bawo, ukuba ndilibale konke okunye, ndizixakekise kuphela ngosindiso lomphefumlo wam ohluphekileyo, kunye neendlela zokuwungcwalisa ngobabalo ukuze ndiwulahle ukuba uvele phambi komgwebi wawo. Kuyo yonke enye into, ndiyazincama kukhathalelo loBonelelo oluvela kuThixo, kwaye ndizithoba kuzo naziphi na iziganeko endifuna ukuziyalela. Ndiyakucela Bawo masihlale simanyene kwingcwele

Intliziyo ka-J.-C. ebudeni bobu bomi bufutshane nobungonwabanga, ukuze sibe yimini enye kwiphakade elisikelelekileyo. Bayibenjalo.

 

Ukuphela kobomi bangaphakathi boDade woZalo.

 

 

IIMBONO.

 

Emva kwayo yonke into esiyibonileyo, ngakumbi emva kokufunda la macandelo mabini okanye amathathu okugqibela, ngokuqinisekileyo kuya kuvunyelwana, ndiyathemba, ukuba iinkcukacha zobu bomi bangaphakathi, njengoko ziye zavezwa kuthi apha, azinako ukuza ngaphandle kobu bomi bangaphakathi. umntu oyintloko yayo, okanye endaweni yalo moya mnye ochaze umthamo wezityhilelo zayo. Le mveliso intsha ke ngoko kufuneka yamkelwe kwaye ithathwe njengobungqina obutsha obuxhasayo

kwelinye, kwaye eqinisekisa kwangaxeshanye ukuba andikhange ndiphosise ukujonga le ntombazana ingaqhelekanga njengento eyenzeka kwinkulungwane yakhe, i-prodigy yesandla sikaSomandla, apho akunakwenzeka ukucacisa oko ngokuvuma malunga nayo. ihambo kaThixo phezu kwayo, emtsalayo ngokupheleleyo kucwangco, naloo nto iphinda ithande umanyano lwabantwana beBandla; kuba ngubani ongaboniyo ukuba olu lwazi lunoyolo luye lwakhanyiswa kuphela kweli nqanaba kumthombo wezikhanyiso eziyinyaniso, kuphela ukuba zidlulisele kwabanye, kwaye emva koko zikhanyisele iBandla lonke kwikamva lakhe, kunye nomnye wabantwana bakhe endleleni. nehambo abaya kuyamkela kumazwe ahlukeneyo abanokuthi bazifumane bekuyo ngokunxulumene nomcimbi omkhulu wosindiso lwabo.

Noko ke, ukuba bekukho umfundi othile owathi, emva kolu viwo, wazimisela ukuwagcina amathandabuzo akhe ngalo mbandela, okanye kwanokwala ukuvuma kwakhe, bendiya kumvakalisa ukuba ndisenalo ilungelo lokunyanzelisa uluvo lwakhe; kodwa kwangaxeshanye

 

 

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Ndingakucela ukuba usixelele ukuba ukhe wafunda nawuphi na umbhali kuhlobo lomoya owongamileyo kunalo, kwaye umbize ngegama. Makasibizele esi sityhakala sathi, kungekho mnye uvimba wolwazi ngaphandle kokhanyiselo lwaso, sathetha ngoThixo apho ngobungangamsha nobungangamsha obungaka, saxoxa ngemibandela enjalo engaqondakaliyo nenameva ngokucace, ngokuchanekileyo, ukuchaneka nobunzulu. Ngamana angasibonisa ngokubanzi ucwangco, ubulumko, isidima, kuwo nawuphi na umsebenzi nokuba yintoni na evela esandleni somntu, kwaye ngaphezu kwayo yonke into angasenza sibone kumbhali ngakumbi walo moya wokholo nokuthobeka, kungabi ngaphezulu koku. ukoyika ukulahlekiswa, kungabi sabakho kuzithobela ngobumfama izigqibo zeBandla, kungabi sabakho kukoyikwa kwemigwebo kaThixo;

Ewe, makasibonise oko konke, okanye athi cwaka; kodwa ndithini? ukuba unyanzelekile ukuba avume ukuba akananto yanelisayo yokusichasa, ngoko ke makavume kunye nathi ukuba akukho nencinane inkangeleko esinokuyicingela kwinkohliso yedemoni ongunongendi ongumzekelo olwela ukulwa nomkhosi.

idemon ephumelele kakhulu, kwaye iyazi kakuhle indlela yokufumana amaqhinga akhe okusikhusela kuyo. Masigqibezele ngengqokelela yamaphupha awawathembisayo.

 

 

 

Amaphupha amangalisayo kunye nesiprofeto sikaDade woZalo.

Si quis fuerit inter vos propheta Domini in visione apparebo ei, vel per visionem loqnar ad illum. (Num., 12.6.)

"Egameni loYise neloNyana, kunye" loMoya oyiNgcwele, ngoYesu noMariya ndiyathobela. »

Ngokungathandabuzekiyo uyasikhumbula, Bawo, isiprofeto sikaJ.-C. ukuba amadodana namantombazana aprofete, ulutsha lube nemibono, amadoda amakhulu abe namaphupha angaqondakaliyo nabuprofeti (1). Eyona nto ikhethekileyo kukuba wafumana kum ndedwa intsingiselo yeleta ethatyathwe kubo bonke ubungakanani bayo; kuba, njengoko ndinixelela ngoko, ngokwengcaciso yakhe, umntu unokukuqonda ngokulula konke oku kum ndedwa.

Ndimdala namhlanje, kodwa ndandimncinci, kwaye ndingumntwana ngaphambili, kwaye umntu unokuthi ndisenjalo kwizinto ezininzi, kwaye ngokunxulumene nezinto ezininzi ayingombuzo wokuchaza. ke ngoko umntu unokufumana kum ndedwa, njengoko uThixo wandenza ukuba ndiqonde, ukuzaliseka kwaso sonke isiprofeto ekuthethwa ngaso.

1 _ (IZenzo 2:17.)

 

Kwaye eneneni, Bawo, andiphelelanga nje ngokuba nezityhilelo ngokufanelekileyo, kwaye ndibhengeze iziganeko ezizayo, kodwa ndibe namaphupha endikholelwa ukuba angaqondakali kwaye aprofeti, ngamaxesha onke kunye nawo onke amaxesha. ubonile. Yiyo ke le into yokuba sixakeke yimisebenzi yethu ixesha elide, ekubeni nicinga ukuba kufanelekile. Awuzukukhalaza ngam, kuba ukuthobela kwam kuya kugqibelela njengoko kunokuba njalo kuyo yonke into echaphazela ingaphakathi lam kunye neakhawunti endikutyala yona.

Ngoko ke, Bawo, bendisoloko ndiziva ukuba amaphupha am anxibelelana kakhulu noko bekuxakeke kakhulu engqondweni yam kwaye abethe gqolo engqondweni yam.

Kuze kube ngoko, ngokungathandabuzekiyo, asiyi kubona nto kodwa ilula kakhulu kwaye iyindalo kuyo, kwaye yile nto ndiyicinga ngayo ngokwam; kodwa kukho okungaphezulu koko, ukuba andiphazami ngako. Kum kubonakala ngathi uThixo wayisebenzisa ngaphezu kwesihlandlo esinye ukundibhaqa kunye nemeko yangoku yesazela sam, kunye nemigibe awayibekela yona usathana, nayo yonke into ekufuneka ndiyoyike okanye ndithembele kum okanye kwabanye. Ezona zilingo zinobundlongondlongo, kunye neziganeko ezingenakubonwa  kwangaphambili, phantse zisoloko zandulelwa ngamaphupha angakumbi okanye kancinane awabhengezayo, ebonisa kum ihambo ekufanele ndiyithabathe ukuphepha iingozi okanye ukoyisa imiqobo. Oku kubonakala kufanelekile kum  .

Uyandiqinisekisa ngaphezu koko, Bawo, yaye ukungqine oko kum kwasekuqaleni, ngokuchasa izicatshulwa ezisesikweni kwinkcaso eyenziwe yidemon kum kweli nqaku; uyandiqinisekisa, ndithi, isibhalo esingcwele sisinika intaphane yemizekelo yamaphupha abalulekileyo nangokwesiprofeto awayequlethe izilumkiso ezinjalo ezivela kuThixo. Wongeza ukuba umntu usenako nanamhlanje, ngaphandle kweenkolelo okanye ukugcinwa okulilize, ukongeza inkolelo ethile kwabo babeya kuphawulwa ngabalinganiswa abathile, kwaye ngaphandle

 

 

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ukuzikhathaza ngeendlela ezithile zokucinga ngayo yonke le nto. Ewe, Bawo, ndiza kunenza nigwebe aba balinganiswa, kuya kuba phezu kwenu ukuba nizilungiselele ngokwenu nithanda ngeengqondo ezomeleleyo, mhlawumbi ezingayi kucinga njengani kuyo yonke into endinixelele yona.

Ndiqinisekile ukuba, njengam, uzimisele kakhulu ukuvuma kwaye ulandele kuphela into oyikholelwayo ehambelana nesigwebo seBandla eliNgcwele, kwanele kum ukuba isazela sam sikhuselekile, kwaye andinqweneli ukulahlekisa okanye ukubhenca nabani na, ndiyabhengeza ukuba ngokupheleleyo ndinikela amaphupha am kuphela oko akuko, ndishiya wonke umntu inkululeko yokuwagatya okanye ukuwavuma, ngokumalunga nokuba ubagweba ngakumbi okanye ngaphantsi ngokuhambelana nemithetho yentsingiselo elungileyo kunye nesizathu.

Mna ke ndizakunazisa kuni, kangangoko ndinako, inxenye yabathe bandibetha kakhulu; kuba bekuya kuthatha imiqulu ukuba sifuna ukuthetha yonke into ngeenkcukacha ezithile. Ke ngoko siyakuzivalela kwezo zibonakala zineziphumo ezingaphezulu kunye nokusebenza. ukuze ndiwalinganise, ndiwahlise abe ngamaphupha awoyikekayo, abe ngamaphupha ayolisayo. Masiqale ngezokuqala, siqwalaselane ukuba singacinezeli kakhulu kwezo sele zikhankanyiwe ngaphambili.

 

 

Amaphupha othusayo.

 

Amaphupha ebuntwaneni bakhe malunga nobizo lwakhe kubomi benkolo. Iintlungu zakhe kunye nobunzima bakhe.

 

Ukususela ebuntwaneni bam, ndingekagqibi neminyaka emihlanu okanye emithandathu ubudala, ndandinamaphupha, endikholelwa ukuba ayeyimiqondiso yobizo lwam nobabalo uThixo awayeza kundinika lona, ​​kwakunye namadabi ekwakufuneka ndiwaxhathise. Ndacinga izihlandlo eziliwaka, ngoxa ndilele, ndazibona ndingqongwe ziintshaba ezazindisukela zindisongela ngokundisongela nangobuso. Kwafuneka ndilwe nawo ngokupheleleyo nangamandla am onke; Andizange ndibabaleke ngaphandle koncedo lukaThixo, xa ndandinyamekela ukumbiza ukuba andincede. Ngamanye amaxesha  iintshaba zam ziye zandoyisa, kwaye zindenze ukuba ndiwe enzonzobileni enzulu ngokungathandabuzekiyo emele izono endiye ndafumana ilishwa lokuzenza ukususela ngaloo maxesha olonwabo.

Ndikwesi simo, Bawo, ndakhala kuThixo olule isandla sakhe kum ukuba andikhuphe engxondorheni, kwathi ke kum kwabonakala ukuba ndifumene amaphiko amabini endiphakame ngawo ndaphakama iintshaba zam. ukufikelela . Emva koko ndandanda emoyeni njengehobe, kwaye ndandisoloko ndiwa kancinane emazantsi esibingelelo esiphakamileyo soluntu lwamantombazana, apho ndafumana ulonwabo olungenakuchazwa: kanye, ngakumbi, ndazifumana ndilapho kwaye zonke zinxibe njenge. Mna, njengomcwangcisi wedolophu woonongendi, kwaye ngexesha endandingenalo noluncinci ufifi ngelizwe okanye ngesinxibo senkolo; sendinazisile ke ngoku. Emva koko, oku kukhululeka ekunyukeni emoyeni, emaphupheni am, kwanda okanye kwancipha ngokomlinganiselo wokunyaniseka okanye ukungathembeki kwam kuThixo;

 

Ukulwa kwakhe ephupheni nxamnye nezilo ezazimela izono. Umlo onenkani ngakumbi wokulwa nokuzithemba.

 

Ebudaleni, ndandidla ngokucinga, xa ndilele, ukuba ndisilwa needemon ezinemilo eyahlukeneyo kunye nobubi. Ngesinye isihlandlo, phakathi kwezinye izinto, kwafuneka ndizilinganise ngokutshintshana namarhamncwa asixhenxe, ngalinye limelwe, ngemiqondiso eyoyikekayo neyoyikekayo, esinye sezono ezisixhenxe ezibulalayo. Ndandinobunzima obungenasiphelo ekuzamkeleni; Kuthe kusenjalo ndawisa phantsi enye kunokuba ndiqale phantsi kwenye ngaphandle kokuphazamiseka, yaye maxa wambi ndandiba neqela elininzi lokuwa. Ngobabalo lukaThixo ekugqibeleni ndaphuma ndoyisile; kodwa eyona nto yandivisa ubuhlungu kakhulu yile coquette encinci engonwabanga endathetha ngayo kuwe. Ndithetha ukuthi, le monster imbi kancinci, kwaye enxibe imo yomfazi onxibe kakuhle. Akwanelanga kulwa nam ndedwa, njengoko ndanixelelayo; yayisoloko inento yokwenza namadabi ahlukeneyo ekwakufuneka ndiwalwe okanye ndiwaxhase ngokulandelelanayo kwelinye ngalinye; ndaza ndathi ndakucinga ukuba ndindoyisile ngokupheleleyo ndaza ndayikhupha esenzweni, yabonakala kwangoko ukuba izalwe ngokutsha ekoyisweni kwayo ukuze ibuyele kwityala ngomsindo ongakumbi kunangaphambili, kwaye amaxesha amaninzi ikwimo entsha. Uyazi ukuba uThixo undiyalele ngesihlandlo sephupha, kwaye ndaqonda ngengcaciso awayendinike yona, ukuba ikratshi lazo zonke iintshaba zam endandimele ndoyike kakhulu, okanye ubuncinane ukuzithemba kumela. ngale coquette inenkani, ngakumbi ukuba woyike njengoko wayebonakala ukuba woyisile ngokupheleleyo kwaye engasebenzi, kwangoko wabonakala ezelwe ngokutsha ekoyisweni kwakhe ukuze abuyele kwityala ngomsindo ongaphezulu kunangaphambili, kwaye amaxesha amaninzi ekwimo entsha. Uyazi ukuba uThixo undiyalele ngesihlandlo sephupha, kwaye ndaqonda ngengcaciso awayendinike yona, ukuba ikratshi lazo zonke iintshaba zam endandimele ndoyike kakhulu, okanye ubuncinane ukuzithemba kumela. ngale coquette inenkani, ngakumbi ukuba woyike njengoko wayebonakala ukuba woyisile ngokupheleleyo kwaye engasebenzi, kwangoko wabonakala ezelwe ngokutsha ekoyisweni kwakhe ukuze abuyele kwityala ngomsindo ongaphezulu kunangaphambili, kwaye amaxesha amaninzi ekwimo entsha. Uyazi ukuba uThixo undiyalele ngesihlandlo sephupha, kwaye ndaqonda ngengcaciso awayendinike yona, ukuba ikratshi lazo zonke iintshaba zam endandimele ndoyike kakhulu, okanye ubuncinane ukuzithemba kumela. ngale coquette inenkani, ngakumbi ukuba woyike njengoko wayebonakala Ngaphantsi.

 

Umzobo wehlabathi. Ukuthambeka kwentaba.

Ndikhumbula iphupha elandoyikisa kakhulu: ihlabathi lalimelwe kum likwimo yethambeka lentaba enkulu, emazantsi ayo induli enzulu nenkulu. Yonke loo ntlambo, okanye ithambeka lentaba, yayigutyungelwe ngabantu bazo zonke iindidi zesini, ubudala nemigangatho eyahlukahlukeneyo, bexutywe needemon ekwakufuneka balwe nazo rhoqo. Yayingumzabalazo oqhubekayo kunye nesiphithiphithi; phantse bonke abantu babesenza ngaphezulu okanye

 

 

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umgudu omncinci wokufikelela encotsheni yentaba, kwaye iidemon zenza yonke imizamo yokuzitsalela phantsi: Mna ngokwam ndanyanzeleka ukuba ndilwe kwaye ndilwe.

Eyona nto yandoyikisa ngakumbi yayilinani elincinane labo baye bahambela phambili ukuya kwingqungquthela yayo, okanye ubuncinane bebambelele ngokuqinileyo kwizikhundla zabo, ngelixa inani elingenasiphelo lanikezela emva kwemigudu embalwa encinane; bafika emazantsi entlambo, baphoswa umtsi opheleleyo ukuya embindini wengxondorha, nto leyo eyabahlekisa kakhulu iidemon ezazibaphose apho. Emva koko, Bawo, amashwa ayengasenawo amandla okanye isibindi sokuzikhusela; Ndabona bekhonkxiwe ezandleni nasezinyaweni ngamakhamandela; iidemon zazibaphatha njengamakhoboka, okanye ngokungathi zizilwanyana, okanye babehamba entlokweni yabo nemizimba yabo yonke njengakwindiza okanye umswane.

Kodwa Bawo onjani kum! olwaphinda lwaphinda uloyiko xa ndabona isalamane sam esisondeleyo apho! Yeha! Ndandiyazi kakuhle indlela awayeyithanda ngayo imikhwa engendawo nemigaqo egxekwa yiVangeli njengoko ihlabathi liyigunyazisa. Isibhakabhaka! wayesele eza kuwela kuyo njengabanye abaninzi, xa ndakhalayo ngenxa yakhe; Ndabongoza izulu ukuba libe nenceba kuye, saza sayimisa kwaoko isandla sikaYehova elunxwemeni senzonzobila. UThixo akazange ayivumele ilahleko yakhe, yaye ngenene ndafumanisa kungekudala emva kokuba isizalwana sam siguquke, nto leyo endayidumisa kakhulu ndayibulela iNkosi. Ziintoni omawuzenze, Bawo wam? kwaye eli phupha, njengoko linjalo, lalibonakala kum lihambelana neenyaniso zevangeli! ikwayingqiqo athe uThixo wandibonisa yona apho, njengoko uza kubona kungekudala;

 

Udade uzama ukunyuka intaba, aphephe umphezulu wesihogo, kwaye ekugqibeleni ufika encotsheni. Inkcazo yentaba yokuphumla noxolo , kunye naleyo yoloyiso .

 

Ukusaba kwingozi eyayindingqongile, ndenza imigudu emikhulu, ndisilwa rhoqo, ukuze ndifike encotsheni yentaba, apho ndandinethemba lokufumana ukhuseleko nokuphumla. Ndahamba phakathi kwewaka lokulalela kunye newaka lemigibe ebekwe endleleni yam, kwaye iidemon zazibala ngazo umzuzu ngamnye ukuba zindimise kwaye zindibambe; Ekugqibeleni, Bawo, ndize kwindlela emxinwa, ekupheleni kwayo ekuvulekeni kwesihogo. Mangaphi amanyathelo

mtyibilizi kwaye kunzima ukuba ndiwele ukuze ndiphephe! Ndimele ndikuxelele ukuba lo mboniso woyikekayo undinike uloyiko olunjalo lwehlabathi kunye neengozi zalo, kangangokuba bendingathanda phantse ukuba ndiwele ngokukhawuleza esihogweni ukuze ndibuyele kule mfazwe ilishwa, ndiye apho. ndifanelwe kukohlwaywa ngakumbi emva kokufa kwam. Ke mandenze ntoni? Ukuba yintoni? Leliphi icala omawulithathe? Bendingcangcazela ndilindele ukubhubha.

Ndathi ndisadada kuloo meko ikhohlakeleyo, intaka efana nehobe, ithe ngcu phezu komthi okufutshane, yavakala yaza yathi kum ngamandla: “Dadewethu, Dadewethu, kulapho kufuneka inkalipho nobukroti. ungaphuma kuphela kuyo ngokuzincama kwinceba kaThixo, nangokwenza ubundlobongela kuwe. Uyayibona le ntaba? yintaba yokuphumla noxolo, ehlala kuphela abo bathe baloyisa iminqweno yabo, ihlabathi, kunye neengozi zalo. Le yinjongo ekufuneka uyijonge.”

Yeha! Bawo, ikwangumnqweno wam omkhulu; kodwa indlela yokuya apho ndibaleke le meko imbi endizibhaqe kuyo! Ekugqibeleni ndazibhokoxa, ndaza ndazinikela ngonaphakade kwisifuba sikayise senceba yoThixo wam endambongozayo ukuba andincede.

Ngoko nangoko ndazibona ndiphakanyiselwe emhlabeni, ndaza ndasiwa kwindawo ephakamileyo eyayiyinxalenye yentaba entle yokuphumla koxolo, encotsheni apho ndandingekafiki khona ngaphandle kokudinwa okuninzi nemisebenzi.

Ekugqibeleni ndifika apho kwaye ndiqala ukuphefumla kwaye ndachacha kuloyiko lwam. Umoya walapho wawusempilweni kwaye unyulu, yonke into eyayilapho yayibhengeza umthombo ongunaphakade kunye nendawo yokuhlala yokwenene yolonwabo. Abemi bale ndawo yokuhlala yolonwabo babembalwa kakhulu, kodwa bandonwabela ngokungenasiphelo bubunyulu bokuziphatha kwabo, ukuvutha kokholo lwabo, ukuthamba kwesimilo sabo, isimilo sabo esilula, esinyanisekileyo nesinolwazelelelo, ekugqibeleni ubulungisa beenjongo zabo. .nokunyaniseka  kothando lwawo ngoThixo nommelwane. Bezixakekise ekudumiseni nasekusikeleleni umbhali wentlalo-ntle yabo, babonakala bengayikhathaleli imizimba yabo, kwaye becinga ngehlabathi kuphela ukucekisa imilinganiselo yalo kunye nosizi ngamakhoboka alo alusizi.

Kufuphi na kuyo kwenyuka enye intaba, kancinane kancinane ukuphakama, apho ilanga lalikhupha yonke imitha yayo eqaqambileyo; yayinxibelelana nokuphumla noxolo entabeni , yaye kwakungenxa yoku awayefanele adlule kuyo ukuze ubani afikelele kuyo.

Ngalo lonke ixesha bephethe iingalo, abemi bayo, abomeleleyo, bomeleleyo nabangamakroti, babonakala ngokuqhubekayo emfazweni nakwizenzo; Ndabizwa ngokuba yintaba yoloyiso , kwaye ndaxelelwa ukuba kwakuyimfuneko ukuba ndihlale ndixakeke apho ekulweni nezenzo ezimbi ukuze ndibathobe kwaye babatshabalalise, kwaye ngaphezu kwayo yonke into eyayiyiyo.

 

 

 

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kwafuneka ukuba athembeke kakhulu kwezona zibalaseleyo. Apha, ndixelelwa ukuba, ekugqibeleni, kulapho unokufikelela khona kwincopho yokuphumla noxolo .

Emva koko, Bawo wam, ndavuka, kwaye uThixo wandenza ndaqonda ngokukhawuleza ukuba eli phupha lindihlasele kakhulu alizange libe yinto eyenzeka ngamabona-ndenzile, kodwa injongo enengqondo, kwaye lizele ukuchaneka, imfihlelo kunye neenyaniso. Ndabona ke ngoko, kwingcaciso awandinika yona uThixo, ukuba induli eyayisebenza njengethafa ledabi imele ngokwemvelo utyekelo lwendalo eyonakeleyo, enika umtyholi ithuba elingaka, lokukhokelela abantu enzonzobileni; nto leyo ethetha ukuba kuthatha amandla amaninzi, isisombululo kunye nenkalipho, kunye nomsebenzi omninzi ukuphumelela isibhakabhaka. Ndagqiba kwelokuba kufuneka ndixhobe ngokuzingisa kunye nokuqina ngakumbi kunangaphambili ngokuchasene notyekelo lwam olubi, kwaye ndeva ihlazo lam likhula ngokuchasene neengcebiso zomtyholi. iingozi kunye nokonakala kwehlabathi, endinokuthi ndicinge nje ngoloyiko. Ndicinga ukuba le yinjongo kaThixo.

 

UDade usukelwa ngamasela amele iinkanuko kunye neentshaba zosindiso. Imeko eyonwabileyo yomphefumlo uphakanyiswe ngaphezu kwendalo kunye neemvakalelo.

Ngenye imini, Bawo, ndaphupha ndileqwa ngamasela nezihange, ezazifuna ubumsulwa bam nobomi bam; Ndaye ndafunda ukuba ezi zikrelemnqa namasela nangona kunjalo zaziyinyani yokwenyani yeminqweno eyahlukeneyo, izilingo kunye nezihlandlo zesono, ezinye zazo zisukela imiphefumlo ngeenjongo zolwaphulo-mthetho nezokubulala, ngelixa ezinye zizibeka kwindawo yokulalela. ubanike isibetho sokufa.

Ukusaba ukusukelwa kwaba baphangi okanye abaphangi ababendoyikisa kakhulu, ndabhenela kuThixo, ndaza ndaziva ndithuthelwe kwakhona kuloo ntaba ndandithetha ngayo nawe kwiphupha elandulelayo. Apho, ndeva abemi bendawonye bedanduluka bonke besithi: “Masivuye! vuyani! nantsi imini ayenzileyo uYehova; iintshaba ezininzi, ngaphezulu

amadabi, akusekho zilingo, akusekho zingozi, ixesha lezilingo lidlule, nguThixo kuphela ongumvuzo ngonaphakade nesiphelo semigudu yethu.”

Ndaqonda, ngengcaciso yala mazwi ndawabonayo ekukhanyeni kokholo, ukuba amasela nabaphangi ngokubanzi babefanekisela zonke iintshaba zosindiso lomntu, nokuba ngentaba yokuphumla noxolo ayifanele iqondwe kakhulu njengelizwe elithile. yemfezeko ukuze sifike kulonwabo lwezulu, ukuba lungabi nako ukubonakalisa ulonwabo ngokwalo, olusisiphelo sokwenene seembandezelo zethu kunye nendawo yokuphumla kwethu kwanaphakade. Masivume, nangona kunjalo, ukuba imeko yomphefumlo ogqibeleleyo apha ngezantsi inento enkulu yokwenza nayo. Ndithetha oku kulahlwa okuvuyisayo kwehlabathi kunye nesiqu sakho, apho yonke into itshabalalisa ukunika imbeko ukugqwesa kobuThixo.

Kule meko ivuyisayo yokutshatyalaliswa kwendalo, umphefumlo uphakama ngaphezu kwawo, ngenxa yokuba awusaboni nto ngaphandle koThixo, lowo ufanele unamathele kuye yedwa. Onke amandla ke ngoko angathi anqulwa ngolu manyano lobuthixo; nto leyo embeka ngaphezu kwazo zonke iintlaselo zikasathana, ihlabathi nenyama. Oku kubuyela umva apha ngezantsi akukho nto kuye; akafane abe nazo iintswelo zomzimba, angazixhalabisi kangako ngokuzanelisa, ngaphandle nje kweemfuno eziyimfuneko; Kuya kuthiwa umzimba usebenza kuphela ngoomatshini: usebenza, uhamba, uyasela, uyatya, uyalala, njl. Kodwa umphefumlo awufane ube nenxaxheba kwezi zilwanyana nakwimisebenzi yendalo kuphela, undanda, ngokungathi kunjalo, ngaphezu kwenyama neemvakalelo, ubabalo oluninzi lunikiwe.

 

 

Amanye amaphupha abonisa iintsizi kunye nobunzima bukaDade.

UThixo, uBawo, ngamanye amaxesha ufuna, njengokuba usazi, ukundenza ndibe namava ento esondelayo. Kuhlala kusenzeka, ngakumbi emva koMthendeleko wam, ukuba andisakhathali ngezivamvo okanye amalungu eemvakalelo. Ndizifumana ndineentloni ukuphendula eyona mibuzo ilula; kudla ngokufuneka ukuba uThixo andicebise ngokwakhe iimpendulo ekufanele ndizenze, ukuze kungabonakali kuninzi kakhulu apho. Ndikhangeleka njengomntu ongenangqondo, okanye, ukuba ukhetha, ndikhangeleka njengomntu othe, ejonge ilanga, egcina ilitha elithile ixesha elide, elithintela ukuba angajongi nayiphi na enye into: umphefumlo wam usehlabathini. kwaye emzimbeni wam ngaphandle kokuba khona, kwaye kuvela kule meko ukuba umntu ujonge yonke into echaphazela iimvakalelo kunye nendalo. Sisentabeni yokuphumla, sinandipha uxolo kuThixo, kunye nezinto ezintsha ezifunyenweyo zihlala zenziwe ngoncedo lwezibane ezinikezelayo. Kuya kuba yintoni na ukumbona ngokwakhe, kwaye engenasigqubuthelo, kwaye engagqunywanga!

kuya kuba njani ukulifumana ngaphandle komqobo kwaye ngaphandle koloyiko lokuphulukana nalo

!... Kodwa ndibuyela apho bendikhona; kusuke kwasuka apho ke Bawo ukuba  uninzi lwezinto endikwenze ukuba uzibhale ziqale... Masiqhubeke nokuqhubekeka kwamaphupha am (1).

 

(1) Kungoko ke, esoloko efana naye, uDade ubuyela, ngalo lonke ixesha, kucwangco lwamandla angaphaya kwendalo olufana nesiqalelo sakhe. Umphefumlo wakhe omkhulu uyaziphakamisa kuwo onke amajiko, usikhwelise kunye naye kwanakwisifuba soBungcwele, obumkhuthazayo kwaye bumenze athethe. Zonke ezinye azibonakali zingento kuye; uthatha inzuzo yayo yonke into ukubuyela kuloo nto; liziko lakhe kunye nenjongo yakhe ekuphela kwayo: kwakhona, kule ngongoma, uhlala efana, kwaye sinokuthi simfumana ephela nasemaphupheni akhe.

 

 

 

 

 

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Amanye amaphupha abonisa iintsizi kunye nobunzima bukaDade.

Amaxesha ahlukeneyo ndazibona ndisemazweni angaziwayo, ngamanye amaxesha ndawa phantsi equleni, ngamanye amaxesha ndavezwa kumaplanga amxinwa kwaye abuthathaka kakhulu awayendixhasa ngokulambisa enzonzobileni apho ndandikulungele ukuwela khona, kwaye ndisoloko ndifanele ndincede ukusuka phezulu ukuya. phuma. Kutshanje ndiphuphe ndileqwa ngumkhweli ombi ngokobukhulu nobuso, wandijonga ngenkangeleko eyoyikekayo nendoyikisayo kangangokuba ndaphelelwa ngamandla; ebona ukuba akade afike kum, wemka enomsindo, walityhutyha ilizwe lonke. Ndandisazi kumthendeleko wam wokugqibela, ukuba yayisisibhengezo seenzame zikasathana ngokuchasene nathi kunye nomsebenzi omncinci esiwucamngcayo, kwaye uyazama kwaye uya kuzama ukuphinda aphumelele. Musani ukusityeshela esi silumkiso, kuba ndiyaphinda ndithi kuni.

Kodwa, Bawo, nanku umboniso ofanele ukuba nendawo phakathi kwamaphupha am oyikekayo.

 

Izaziso zesiphelo sehlabathi.

Ngobunye ubusuku, xa ndandilele, ndazicingela ndikwintaba endandisandul’ ukufika kuyo ndisabaleka eso silwanyana, ndaqala ndabona isibhakabhaka esihle ndaza ndasithela.

eneenkwenkwezi kakuhle; kodwa kamsinya nje emva kokuba ndibone imiqondiso eyoyikekayo kwicala elingasentshona, ndabona isithuba esikhulu sizaliswe ziibhokisi, iitempile, iintloko namathambo abafi, iziphatho zezibane, izigwebo zemingcwabo; ngokufutshane, le ndawo yonke yayifana ne-pall enkulu.

Kwicala elingasezantsi kwabonakala iNgelosi enkulu uMikayeli ngembonakalo, kwaye igqunywe ngesikrweqe esoyikekayo; ikrele elibengezelayo esandleni sakhe sasekunene, walibamba kwesinye isikali ezikhulu awathi wasishiya sisiya emhlabeni, ndaza ndaqonda ukuba yayizizixhobo namalungiselelo omgwebo wokugqibela oxesha lawo lisondelayo... .

Kwelinye iphupha, apho ndandicinga ukuba ndisekuloo ntaba inye, ndabona esibhakabhakeni umnyama omkhulu othe tyaba othe tyaba, owawusangqa ukuya kuthi ga apho ndandibona khona. Emva koko kwabonakala kwisangqa esikhulu amavukuthu amancinane namahobe amancinane awayebhabha esuka ngapha nangapha, engawushiyi umgca osisangqa owawukuwo. Emva koko ndabona amagwababa nezinye iintaka ezidla inyama zikhwele phezu kwamahobe namahobe, ziwasukela yaye ziwachithachitha; abaninzi bagxalathelana emhlabeni, apho baqwengwa ziintaka ezidla inyama, nakubeni kwakuvela amahobe esilivere, aphuma ezulwini, esiza ekukhuseleni kwawo. Umlo waba Yaqhubeka de kwafika uMikayeli oNgcwele, owamisela uloyiso exhasa amahobe namahobe.’ .

 

UYesu Krestu uyabandezeleka kwaye akaziwa.

Ngenye imini ndabona ngasentshona umfanekiso omkhulu owawuzotywe ubuso obungcwele beNkosi yethu; wayebonakala ephila kwaye egqunywe ligazi eliphilayo elalimpompoza liphuma entloko yakhe yobuThixo ethweswe ngameva. Amehlo akhe ajonge esibhakabhakeni kalusizi, ndabona iinyembezi zisihla kuwo. Njengoko ndandimjongile ngemfesane nangofefe, ndeva ilizwi lisithi kum: Ulibona ilanga lisithwe.

 

 

Amaphupha ajonga iNguqulelo yesiFrentshi, iyantlukwano eCaweni kunye neziphumo zayo ezimbi. Umyalelo wokubaleka ischismatics.

Kananjalo kufuneka, Bawo wam, ndiquke phakathi kwamaphupha am othusayo lawo anxulumene nenguqu elusizi endaye ndamangalelwa ngokuyibhengeza. Ke ngoko, asinako ukukukhaba ngawo omane ukongeza ezinye zezi ntloko ziphambili kwezo sele sithethile ngazo ngezihlandlo xa beze ngaphezulu.

malunga, kwaye apho bekuyimfuneko ukubangenisa. Kwabo, asiyi kubakhumbula, okanye siya kukwenza oko ngokulula kakhulu.

Ngobunye ubusuku ndacinga ukuba ndabona abefundisi abaliqela benxibe izambatho zabo zesacerdotal, benobhishophu entloko nabo kwimisebenzi yobufundisi bakhe. Umoya wabo ongagungqiyo nonekratshi, amazwi abo arhabaxa, inkangeleko yabo esongelayo yabonakala ifuna imbeko nentlonipho yabo bonke; babanyanzela abathembekileyo ukuba babalandele, babave, babathobele. uThixo undiyalele ukuba ndibachase, ubuso ngobuso; Wandixelela ukuba abasenalungelo lokuthetha egameni lam, kwaye abasenalungelo lokuthotyelwa ngabathembekileyo, ekubeni baye bangcatsha izilangazelelo zeBandla lam, baza abathembekanga elukholweni. Kunxamnye nentando yam, nangokucaphuka kwam, okokuba basasebenzisa imisebenzi abangasayifanelanga; Kukude ekundicaphukiseni, wena undibeka ngokunxaxha; into abafuna ukuyifuna kuwe, ungabamameli, zahlukane nayo, endiyenzileyo njengabanye abaninzi. Iphupha elilandelayo loyikeka ngakumbi.

Malunga namashumi amathathu okanye amashumi amane eminyaka eyadlulayo iFransi yamelwa kum njengentlango enkulu, indawo eyoyikekayo yodwa; iphondo ngalinye lalifana nethala leentaba apho abadlula ngendlela baphange babhuqa yonke into ababeyifumana. Kungekudala, kwabacaphukisayo abathembekileyo bokwenene, abefundisi bethu nabefundisi babo, abashumayeli bethu nabalawuli bethu, abavangeli bethu banyamalala, kwaza kwathabatha indawo yabo abalungiseleli abatsha esasingabazi, baza bahamba.

 

 

 

 

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bathi benza imisebenzi efanayo kwaye banamalungelo afanayo. Kwabakho utshintsho olukhulu kwindlela yokwenza neyokucinga kwabemi bakuthi, kangangokuba andizange ndikwazi ukulibona ilizwe lam. Nangona kunjalo, olu tshintsho lwalukude ukuba lube luphelele, ndabona ukuba ukwahlukana kwezimvo kwakha amaqela amabini apho, nto leyo eyabangela iingxaki kunye nezidubedube ezimbi macala onke. Kodwa nantsi into eyandoyikisa ngakumbi, yandoyikisa kulo mbono wasebusuku. Ndabona emazantsi ale ntlango yoyikekayo imihlambi yeegusha exutywe neebhokhwe neebhokhwe, iinkawu, nezinye iindidi zezilwanyana ezoyikekayo.

endingayaziyo nam; abalusi ababezikhokela babebaninzi kakhulu izilo ezikhulu ezoyikekayo kude lee; iidemon, ndiyacinga, azinawo amanye amanani. Kananjalo ndabona izihlwele zabantu zisaba ekusondeleni kwazo, zizifihle ngoloyiko, zingxamile, ukuze zingabi luhlanga phakathi kwemihlambi yazo, ebisoyika nokuyibona. Ndisoyikeka, ndabuza ukuba baphi na abefundisi babo, iinkokeli zokwenyani zezi zizwe zibhadulayo; Kwathiwa: Kunyanzelekile ukuba basabe, baselubhacweni.

Ke kaloku, khumbula, Bawo, imibono engachazwanga endikuxelele yona, okokuba uThixo wandenza ndayibona ngaphambili, kwanokungathi uchukumise umnwe intshutshiso esele iyinene kakhulu namhlanje, nangona umntu wayijonga ngoko njengengcungcuthekiso  . izibhengezo endizenzileyo ngazo njengezinto ezisulungekileyo, inkohliso yokwenyani  yentelekelelo.

Khumbula, ndithi, imiboniso eyahlukeneyo eyoyikekayo; umzekelo, isidiliya saphangwa zizihange, imithi emibini emihle ebethwe ngumthi owathi ngequbuliso waphakama phakathi kwemibini; inamba endiyibonileyo yazikhulula kwilifu elivuthuzayo ukuze iqwenge bonke abo babekwindlu entle, kwaye uya kuba nakho konke oko, kwakwinto enye, eye yayikhathaza kakhulu ingqondo yam kwaye yoyikisa ingcinga yam. Kuhle ukunixelela kananjalo ukuba kula maphupha ahlukeneyo, anxulumene nenguquko yethu, ndiye ndazifumana ngamanye amaxesha ndithuthwa ngenzondelelo yobuKatolika, kwaye ngamanye amaxesha ndinoloyiko loqhekeko kunye noqhekeko, endiwubone kwangaphambili nendiwubonayo nangoku; sithandazeni ezulwini ukuba sehle ngoloyiko!

Kodwa emva kokuba ndithethe ngamaphupha amabi, kubonakala kufanelekile ukuwatyhila ngoku lawo endithi amnandi, anobabalo, athuthuzelayo, kuba ndiye ndawafumana eentlobo ngeentlobo. Ezi, ubuncinci, ziya kulungela ngcono ukonwaba kunye nokuthuthuzela umfundi, ukuba, nangona kunjalo, kukho umntu ofuna ukuzixakekisa ngamaphupha am. Iza kuba ngomso, ndicela uThixo.

 

 

Amaphupha amnandi.

 

Ukuchazwa ngokubanzi kwamaphupha kaDade, kunye neziphumo zawo, angakholelwa ukuba zinokuchazwa ngokwemvelo.

 

Uvuyo lwesazela esilungileyo, indlela yokungcwaliswa, ulonwabo lokuba nguThixo ngokupheleleyo nokuba naye ngothando nomnqweno, ngoxa ulindele

ukufumana ngokwenyani uloyiso lweBandla elingcwele, uzuko lwabangcwele, umntu othandekayo kaJ. kunye nemibono. Ngendlela efanayo nokoyika isono, isihogo kunye nemigwebo kaThixo, iimbandezelo neentshutshiso zeBandla bezisoloko zindibangela ngokuchaseneyo nokuvumelana nezimvo zoloyiko ezithwalwa ngokwemvelo zizinto ezoyikekayo. Lo mzekeliso phakathi kweengcinga zobusuku, ukuba umntu unokuthetha njalo, kunye nezo zemini ezazizandulelayo, kum kubonakala kulula kwaye kuyindalo. Kodwa ke akunjalo andikuthinteli ukuthi abo bathi badinga kuphela ezi zimo zendalo zengqondo yam okanye ingcinga yam, ukucacisa yonke into, ndithetha ukucacisa zombini izityhilelo zam kunye namaphupha am, ngokombono wam, baya kuba kwimpazamo enkulu enokuthi ibabangele. ukubhidanisa umphumo nonobangela. Ngokungathandabuzekiyo uThixo unokulusebenzisa olu tyekelo aluzeleyo ngokwakhe; kodwa bendisoloko ndiziva, ndiphaphile kwaye ndilele, ukuba ezi zimo bezingenako ukuphuma kum, okanye zivelise ngokwazo nayiphi na imiphumo ezibangela ukuba ndibe namava. Ngoko ndinga ndingawatyhila amaphupha am, ngokwezityhilelo zam, ngelizwi endilibonayo kuThixo, ngokwemvelo yam, ngokucamagusha kwentliziyo yam, nomzimba wam, bekuya kuba ngathi siqalisa ukucacisa ulungelelwano olumangalisayo lwehlabathi ngokushukuma kwendalo, ukuchaza ukuhla nokuhamba kolwandle ngokuzamazama kwamaza, okanye umkhuhlane ngochulumanco olulufumanayo. Kuyo yonke le nto, ukubonisa isiphumo akuzange kuchaze isizathu, kwaye izizathu zesibini aziyi kuqondwa ngaphandle kokuba sibuyela kwisizathu sokuqala, ngaphandle kokuba abanye bebengayi kubakho. Ngaphandle koko asizange sithethe nto, nangona sasithetha kakhulu, okanye, ukuba ukhetha, sathetha ngefilosofi. kwaye izizathu zesibini azinakuze ziqondwe ngaphandle kokubuyela emva kwesizathu sokuqala, ngaphandle kokuba ezinye aziyi kubakho. Ngaphandle koko asizange sithethe nto, nangona sasithetha kakhulu, okanye, ukuba ukhetha, sathetha ngefilosofi. kwaye izizathu zesibini azinakuze ziqondwe ngaphandle kokubuyela emva kwesizathu sokuqala, ngaphandle kokuba ezinye aziyi kubakho. Ngaphandle koko asizange sithethe nto, nangona sasithetha kakhulu, okanye, ukuba ukhetha, sathetha ngefilosofi.

 

 

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okoko uthanda; kodwa akukho sizathu sithethayo. Masiziyeke ngoko iintanda-bulumko ziphikisane, size kumaphupha am amnandi.

Uzuko lweSanta Francis. Ubuhlwempu nokuthobeka, iziseko zocwangco lwakhe.

Ndithe ndiselapho kule ntaba iphakamileyo apho ndanixelela khona ukuba ndibone izixhobo zokulungiselela zomgwebo wokugqibela, ndajonga phakathi komntla nempuma, ndaza ndabona ihlokondiba elikhulu leemonki zodidi lwethu olwamatsha lunobuqaqawuli noloyiso; entlokweni yabo kubonakala ingcwaba elibekekileyo, lithiwe wambu ngengubo eqaqambileyo, lithiwe wambu ngamatye anqabileyo nobutyebi obuninzi. Wayethwele  isithsaba esibengezela entloko, iinyawo nezandla zakhe zihlatywe; ekugqibeleni, Ndamthabatha J.-C. ngokwakhe, kwaye ndandiza kuqubuda phambi kwakhe ukuba aqubude kuye. Lumka, latsho ilizwi elikhulu kum, lo yindoda kuphela, kwaye nguyihlo  uSaint-François....

Intoni ! Ndaphendula ndathi, ubawo wethu oNgcwele uFrancis! hayi! wayenokuthini ukuba ubengezele kangaka ezulwini, lowo wayesoloko ethobeke kangaka emhlabeni, lowo wayekuxabisa ukulahlwa nobuhlwempu  obungaka  ? Ngokuchanekileyo,  ndaxelelwa,

yintoni emenze wazuka kangaka, kwaye yintoni na ekufuneka ukuba ngenye imini enze uzuko lwabantwana bakhe, ukuba bathembekile ukuhamba emanyathelweni akhe, ngenxa yokuba intlupheko nentobeko ingumnqophiso awanike bona bodwa; kwaye umoya wocwangco lwakhe uqulathe ngaphezu kwako konke ukwenza ezi zidima zimbini, ezisisiseko nesiseko sesakhiwo sakhe. Ngoko ke kuyimfuneko ukuziqhelisela ukuze ufaneleke ukunxulumana nazo. Eli phupha, Bawo, lindithuthuzele kwaye landivuyisa kakhulu.

 

 

Lo dade uzifumana ephupheni kwindlu encinane yaseNazarete  . Inkcazo echukumisayo ayenzayo. Isifundo  asifumanayo.

Ekubeni ndandiselula gqitha, ndacinga ukuba, ndibhadula ndedwa kwindawo esemaphandleni neyinkangala, ndangena ngokungathi ngebhaqo ndangena kwinkuni encinane imeko yayo enoxolo yayibonakala ikulungele kakhulu ukucamngca. Kulapho kude nesiphithiphithi sonwabile, ukuba kukho ulonwabo emhlabeni, kuba sizonwabisa thina noThixo wethu, ingcinga yakhe emnandi sihlala sikhunjulwa ngokubona izinto ezithandekayo ezisingqongileyo. Yayiyimini entle yasentwasahlobo, umoya wawucwengile kwaye uzolile, ukuzola kobu bukheswa bumnandi kwaphazanyiswa kuphela kukuntyiloza kweentaka ezithe ngcu phezu kwemithi eluhlaza eyayigubungele le ndawo yoxolo. Indlela entle ngayo yonke into kwindalo, ndatsho ngaphakathi kwam! iya kuba njani indawo yokuhlala yabasikelelekileyo, ukuba indawo yokuhlala yethu elubhacweni inomtsalane! lizakuba njani ilizwe lethu! Kwaye ukuba uThixo ulungile, unenkululeko kwaye ulunge kakhulu kubenzi bobubi ababohlwaywayo apha ngezantsi, uya kubenzela ntoni abahlobo bakhe, xa efuna ukubavuza kuThixo nakuwo wonke umlinganiselo wenkululeko yakhe, ubungangamsha bakhe nothando lwakhe  ?

Ndacamanga mna ngaphakathi kwam; kwaye ngelixa ndiqiqa ngolu hlobo, ndalandela phakathi kwemithi emihle i-avenue encinci ekupheleni kwayo ndabona indlu irhoxisiwe, okanye endaweni yoko yakhiwe yodwa emazantsi eplanga, njengohlobo oluthile lwegrotto okanye indlu, endiyithanda kakhulu. umoya walo kunye nemeko yalo ethandekayo, kwaye ngakumbi ngokuzola okukhulu okwakulawula apho, ngenxa yokuba umntu akeva nayiphi na ingxolo apho, ngaphandle kwaleyo eyenziwa ngumsebénzi ngamanye amaxesha ngelixa esebenza ....

Ndingena kule ndlu ukuze ndiqonde ukuba bendiphi; Ndabona xa kungena ixhego elilungileyo nelihloniphekileyo, elalisebenza ekuphuculeni nasekubumbeni amaqhekeza namaplanga ngononophelo olukhulu  nengqalelo  komnye  .

ecaleni kwendlu, ndabona umntu oselula owayebonakala kum engumfazi wakhe, nobumnandi bakhe nokuthozama kwakhe kwakulingana nobuhle bakhe; Ecaleni kwakhe kwabonakala umfana oselula omalunga neshumi okanye elinesibini leminyaka ubukhulu becala, kodwa enobuso obuthambileyo, elunge kakhulu kwaye ethandeka, kangangokuba kwakwanele ukumbona okomzuzwana ukuba athandane naye.

Kananjalo ke Bawo, nawuphi na umdla endawuthathayo kweli xhego elilungileyo, ngakumbi kumfazi walo omncinci ondonwabele ngokungenasiphelo, ndaziva entliziyweni yam into edlamkileyo ngakumbi kulo mfana; amehlo am ebenokumshiya ixeshana nje elifutshane nangamaxesha  okuphazamiseka....

Bobathathu bazixakekise ngokuzolileyo bengaphazanyiswa nayindlela yabo yokunyaniseka yokundamkela. Ndaqaphela emsebenzini wabo nakwimikhwa yabo ukuba akukho budlakadlaka, nalangazelelo, naxhala, nalo naluphi na uhlobo lwehlazo okanye isithintelo; yonke into ibhengeze ukwaneliseka, uxolo kunye nolonwabo lomphefumlo ozonwabisayo kwaye ukhathazeke ngento. Maxa wambi ndandingayazi eyona nto ndifanele ndiyincome ngakumbi, enoba yinyameko nengqalelo yabazali, okanye intobelo yonyana owayesenza konke awayenako ukuze asabele kuyo ngeengqalelo zakhe, ezama ukubakholisa, neenkonzo endiye ndazenza. babuyela kubo bobabini. Yayiluthando olufanayo, ububele obufanayo, kodwa intlonelo njengoko yayibonakala idlamkile yaye inyanisekile. Bendiya kuyichitha imihla yam ndibabona; kodwa ke ekugqibeleni kwafuneka ukuba kupheliswe lo mboniso umangalisayo. Ndiyishiyile le ndlu imnandi, nangona ndithandabuza, ndathi xa ndihamba ndisawajongile amehlo umfana wam, endihamba naye.

 

 

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Ndandinomnqweno owakhiwe kakuhle wokumbona kwakhona ngokukhawuleza kangangoko ndinako, kangangokuba ndandiluyolo olukhulu olu dliwano-ndlebe lokuqala endalunikwayo.

Umfazi owonwabileyo! yhini mama owonwabileyo lamntu umncinci ndatsho ndedwa  ndajika! Lixhego elibekekileyo liyinkosi  yalonto

indlu encinci! Hayi indlela amhle kwaye ungcwele ngayo umfazi wakhe omncinane! Kodwa, ngaphezu kwako konke, umntwana othandekayo, lo mfana uselula ubonakala engowabo, nobonisa kakuhle ukuba ungunyana wabo ngesimilo sakhe kubo! Okunjani kona ukuthozama, okunjani ukulula kwiimpahla zabo! Hayi ukuthamba ekutyeni kwabo! olunjani lona ucwangco, olunjani lona ucoceko, olunjani lona uxolo, olunjani lona umanyano kule ndawo yokuhlala! Hayi indlela yonke into elapho ephefumla ngayo ukundiliseka kunye nevumba lazo zonke izidima! Ngaba siye salinda ixesha elide kangaka ukuze sidibane nale ntsapho inobubele! Ah! ukuba alukho ulonwabo, akukho ehlabathini, akukho sehlabathini lonke.

Ndithe ndisahamba ndodwa ndisathetha ngalenkumbulo imnandi, ndabona indoda entle engathi ngummi waloo ndawo kum; Ndiye ndabuza kuye ukuba yeyiphi le ndlu incinci le ndingene kuyo. Ufanele ukwazi oko, waphendula, kwanabo bahlala apho; uphuma esikolweni sobulumko nokulunga. Sisikolo saseNazarete, yindlu apho uLizwi Oyinyama wachitha iminyaka engamashumi amathathu esebenza, entobekweni nasekuzithobeni. Wongezelela, obu bubomi obufihliweyo, obuthobekileyo nobubulalekayo boThixo wenu, afuna ukuba nizinikele nina njengomzekelo, ukuba nifuna ukumkholisa nize nisebenzele impumelelo yokugqibelela kwenu. Kungoko ke kufuneka nizifihle ehlabathini, ukuze niphile kuThixo kuphela nakuThixo ngoJ.-C.; vs' ekugqibeleni kukuphawule oku kuthuleka kwakho okuqapheleyo kubo. Xa umntu esoloko, njengoko enjalo, emehlweni nasekucamngceni koThixo okhoyo, ngaba kufuneka andise ngaphandle ngokuqwalasela izinto zangaphandle kunye nencoko nesidalwa? Ngaba asizifumani kuthi eyona mthombo wolona lonwabo lugqibeleleyo? Camngca ngokuqhubekayo, uze uzame ukuxelisa oko ukubonileyo.

 

 

Udade osisityebi ebuthongweni bakhe, Lihlwempu xa livuka; umfanekiso wokungento kwezinto zabantu.

Ngobunye ubusuku ndaba nomfanekiso-ngqondweni wam ndithetha nomthengisi owayebonisa izinto zakhe ezirhweba kum ngokuzola okwandichukumisayo; eyona nto yayithandeka ngakumbi kwaye yayindikhathaza ngakumbi ngaye yayikukuba wayendinika yonke into eyayibonakala indivuyisa; kwanele ukuba ndimbonise umnqweno wam, wada wandibongoza enyamekile, ukuba ndiwamkele loo mali  ebenayo.

yayindonwabile. Ndimangaliswe yaye ndivuyiswa kukunyaniseka okunjalo, andizange ndikwazi ukuba ndingawubonakalisa njani umbulelo wam kuye. Wathi kum wena, unjengabantu abazibandakanya ngesiphithiphithi kwizinto zobuxoki zomhlaba, ube ufana nqwa nomfanekiso; yazi ke ukuba okwangoku ulele, kwaye kungekudala uya kuba, njengabo, inkohliso yenkohliso yakho. Ngoku ithamsanqa liyanithanda, imvuselelo iyakuhlutha yonke into eninayo, ukuze ningabi nanto iseleyo; yaye oku kuvuka okuya kunikhohlisa kungumfanekiso wokufa kwabo babekholose ngezinto zasemhlabeni nakwimpahla yobuxoki elapha ngezantsi.

Kula mazwi ndiphaphama, ndithe ndisavuka ndibona inyamalala isithi shwaka okomsi wethamsanqa lobuxoki elithe landihlekisa okomzuzwana. Emva koko ndenza eyona ngcamango inzulu malunga nokungabikho nokungabikho kwezinto zabantu. Bendicinga ndonwabile, ndazixelela ukuba ndishiyeke ngantoni ngoku? Makabongwe, Thixo wam, Okholose ngawe wedwa! akakhohliswa elulindeni lwakhe; Ukufumana ekufeni emva kokuba ekufuna ngexesha lobomi; uhlala naye xa yonke enye into ingasekho; kwaye uhlala ngenxa yakhe, Owu Thixo wam, ukuze wenze ulonwabo lwakhe oluhlala luhleli ngaphandle kokuba abe nako ukoyika ukuphulukana nawe!

 

 

UYesu Kristu ubonakala ethwele ubutyebi obuninzi, ekungekho mntu ufuna ukubufumana.

Ndakha ndacinga ukuba ndabona, ngoxa ndandilele, uJ.-C. ebambe ngezandla zakhe zozibini ubutyebi obuninzi; wandijonga kalusizi, ndambuza ukuba kutheni. Yatsho ke ntombam incwina, ndiza izandla zizele zizipho, ndinobutyebi obuninzi endibubophelele kwizidalwa zam, ndifike ndibutyebise ngokuzabela, ndingafumani mntu ubuzayo. kwanoba ngubani na ozinqwenelayo, nalowo uzenza ofanele ukuzamkela. Andazi ke ukuba ndingazidlulisa kubani na izipho zam phezu kwazo nje iintswelo esinazo. Mgwebi wentlungu ebangelwa kukungakhathali okunje!

 

 

Umntwana onguYesu ezingalweni zikaMariya, enomnqamlezo omncinci.

Ndithe ndisacinga ndaphinda ndabona, kwenye imeko, iNtombi Engcwele ibambelele emadolweni kuMntwana onguYesu, ebonakala ukuba uyonwaba ngomnqamlezo omde omncinci, ewubambe ngezandla zakhe. Lo mbono ndiye ndaqubuda ezinyaweni zikamama olungileyo, ndambongoza ukuba andishiye kancinci

ixesha lokubamba unyana wakhe ongcwele. Ndiyayifuna, uphendule watsho. Ndazolula iingalo zam ukuba ndimamkele; kodwa endaweni yomntwana wandinika umnqamlezo wakhe qha ndingawufuni; awayiphinda ngamaxesha ahlukeneyo; besendikhalaza kemna ukuba uliqhatha ithemba lam ntombam, wandiphendula kabuhlungu, ukuba uyamfuna uMntwana makaqale umamkele.

 

 

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umnqamlezo awunikezela kuwe ngezandla zam, awunako ukuthwala omnye ngaphandle komnye. Ngalo mzuzu uBawo wethu u-S. François uyadlula elandela ibhanile apho kwakukho umnqamlezo omkhulu. Apha, yatsho kum iNtombi Engcwele, indibonisa, nanku umngcelele omele uwulandele ungawushiyi tu... Kule nto, ndavuka  .

 

 

UYesu Kristu umema udade ukuba amlandele ukuya eKalvari, aze amenze isipho soMnqamlezo wakhe.

Kwiintsuku ezimbalwa ngaphambi kwengozi endathetha ngayo kuwe, nekufuneka ibe nemiphumo de kube sekufeni kwam, ndiphuphe ndikho kumngcelele owawuqhutyelwa kwi-indugestion yentlokoma enkulu. Ngelixa sasihamba kwindlela ethe tye netofotofo kakhulu, ndaphosa amehlo am kwindlela emxinwa nerhabaxa kakhulu eyayisekunene kwethu, ndabona uJ.-C. waseKalvari. Ndilandeleni, wakhala emva komngcelele, landelani ekhondweni lam, esi sisikhululo sezono ezinkulu, nonke yizani nindincede ndiwuthwale umnqamlezo endiwuthweleyo kubo bonke  .

Ndibona ukuba akukho mntu ufuna ukuyishiya indlela elula ukuze ndimlandele kwindlela embi awayehamba kuyo, ndaleqa emva kwakhe. Wakhalaza kum ngokungakhathali nokuba ngqwabalala kwamadoda ngakuye, kwaye wathetha nam ngeentlungu zothando lwakhe ngeyona ndlela ichukumisayo.

Kwelinye icala kwangelo xesha, ndaziva izikhalo zakhe, yaye ndandisambona ebuthongweni, ethwele nzima yaye engathi woyiswe ngumnqamlezo wakhe.

: ibikwindawo yethu. Ubize bonke oosisi ukuba bamlandele, ndibaleke ndaya khona akavuma. Ayinguwe lo uthe kum, hamba uyoxelela ooSister bakho

yiba; ngokuba wena, hlala esiseleni sakho. Enjani yona intlungu! Ndiyathobela ndilila; Kwakuba ntsuku, wangena esiseleni sam nooPhezulu. Wathi kum, ntombi yam, musa ukuzibandezela, nasi isahlulo sakho, nesabelo sakho; Bandibalekile abanye, mna ndikushiya umnqamlezo wam, ungaze uwushiye. Lalihonjiswe ngeentsalela ezahlukahlukeneyo zeengcwele, ngokukodwa ezabafeli-nkolo. Ndiqubuda ubuso bam bujonge emhlabeni ngelixa ndisamkela, kwaye  uJ.-C.  unyamalala  kancinci kakhulu

Kungekudala emva kwephupha, u-Madam u-Abbess wagula sisifo esamkhokelela engcwabeni, kwaye ndafumana ingozi ekumele indise apho kwaye indikhaphe ukuya apho. UThixo makasikeleleke kwinto yonke.

 

 

UDade uthathwa asiwe emazantsi entlango, aze afumane incwadi encinci aza kucamngca ngayo.

Ndikhumbula ukuba ngobunye ubusuku ndacinga ukuba ndihamba nengelosi yam elungileyo, ndinxibe imbonakalo yomfana oselula, ekubonakala ukuba ndifana nala wayeqhuba uTobie. Wandixelela ukuba uza kundikhokelela apho uThixo andifuna khona; endleleni, wathetha nam kuphela ngendlela yokufezeka nokufeza ukuthanda kukaThixo kuyo yonke into. Sithe xa sihamba safumana iindawo ezifundisayo okanye iicawa ezincinci zabucala apho ndandifuna ukuya kuthandaza nabanye: “Kudlule oko, wathi kum, “Zizimvu ezilahlekileyo, iintombi eziziziyatha.” Ngoko wandikhokelela enzulwini yentlango. Ilapha, wathi kum  ngoko,

ukuba uThixo unibizile, nimele nenze ikhaya; ngoko wandinika incwadi encinane waza wanyamalala. Ndiyivula le ncwadi ngolangazelelo, kuba yayiza kuba kukucamngca kwam okuqhelekileyo; kodwa ndothuka kakhulu, ekuyivuleni kuyo, ukubona ndifunda kwiphepha ngalinye la magama mabini kuphela: NguThixo yedwa.

 

 

Intliziyo yomphefumlo othembekileyo, ingcwele efihlakeleyo apho uMlingane ongcwele azivalele khona.

Emva kokuncoma ixesha elide iintyatyambo ezincinci ezimhlophe zegadi yomyeni kunye nenkosikazi endithethe ngayo nawe kwenye indawo, ndabona kwelinye iphupha icawa ingcwele yayo ivaliwe kunye neengcango. Intombi enyulu ethobeke kakhulu kwaye ithobeke kakhulu yavela phantsi komzobo wonongendi; wangena ecaweni, wavala ngaphakathi; wangena engcweleni, wayivala naye emva kwakhe. Kwangelo xesha, uJ.C. wazenza wabonakala kuye ekwimo yomntu, wamnika izitshixo,  esithi kuye: Nkosi yam nomyeni wam, ndikunika ithuba lokungena kwentliziyo yam nekubo  bonke.

amandla am, kwaye oko ngonaphakade. UJ.-C. wasifumana isipho sakhe ngothando nolwaneliseko, ethembisa ukuba uya kuba sisabelo sakhe ngonaphakade.

Ndiyishiya le nkonzo, ndabona phezulu umnqamlezo uphakanyiswa nazo zonke izixhobo zenzondelelo yoMsindisi; kwakukho ebumelwaneni bemikhosi yecawa yamajoni emise emgceni, kodwa kungekho kwanto ishukumayo, ngoxa umgama omibini ukusuka apho ndabona abalindi behleli bexakekile, kuba ndisoyika ukuba utshaba lungasondela kumlindi. Nantsi intsingiselo engaqondakaliyo yalo  mbono wasebusuku:

Intliziyo yomphefumlo othembekileyo yindawo engcwele apho iqabane lobuthixo lithanda ukuzivala naye ukuze lizenze inkosi yawo onke amandla alo, eliwuphathise ngokugcinwa kwawo: 1° lo mphefumlo udityaniswe ku-J.-C. kuqala uzitshabalalisa zonke iinkanuko zakhe ngokuqhelisela ukuzohlwaya nokuzingca; I-2 ° kufuneka ivalwe, ngokuhlala ingqwalasela ngokwayo, zonke iingcango kunye neendlela ezinokunika ukungena kutshaba; I-3 ° ngelixa imizwa yangaphakathi nangaphandle ithule, ukuphaphama, njengomlindi osebenzayo kunye nongenakukhathala, kufuneka ahlale ehamba ekufumaneni amaqhinga kwaye athintele ukuhlaselwa kotshaba, ngokuhlanjululwa kunye nokubandezeleka okumelwa ngumnqamlezo kunye noxinzelelo. izixhobo zothando,

 

 

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ngelizwi elithile, ngokufa kwexhego endathi ngenye imini uThixo ndilibulale, endixelela ukuba ibhokhwe ka-Azazele kufuneka igxothelwe kude xa ndifuna ukumkholisa kwixesha elizayo.

 

 

Inkangeleko yentombi enyulu ethuka uSister ngenxa yokungakhathali nokungazithembi.

Nantsi enye, Bawo, eyenzeka kum kungekudala, kwaye yandichukumisa njengoko kumnandi. Ndabonakalisa ukuba kwisisele sam ndandifuna ukuzibhokoxa kuThixo, yaye andizange ndiphumelele apho, njengoko ndandinqwenela; Ndandingazi ukuba buvela phi obu bunzima. Ngelixesha bendiyenza

iinzame ezingenamsebenzi, ndibona ukungena nokuza kum intombazana eselula eneminyaka elishumi elinesihlanu okanye elishumi elinesibhozo ubukhulu becala; Bendicinga ukuba ndiyamazi ekubeni sele ndimbonile kwenye imeko ezakuthatha ixesha elide ukuyibalisa. Le ntombi iselula, kuba yayinazo zonke iimpawu zomnye, ngokoluvo lwam yayingoyena mntu wayemhle ekunokwenzeka ukuba abonwe; uhambo olundilisekileyo noluthandekayo olungenamtsalane, iimpawu ezinomtsalane, umoya wokulula nokukhululeka okunika ubumsulwa, ubuso obunoncumo nobundilisekileyo, amehlo abengezelayo ngowona mlilo mhle; Ekugqibeleni, yintoni enye endingakuxelela yona? Andazi ke ukuba yintoni le ibithandeka kangaka ibide yanele ukumbona ethandana naye. Kwakhona, Bawo, ndiyavuma kuwe ukuba andizange ndikwazi ukuzibamba, kwaye ndamthanda ekuqaleni ....

Uza kum, abambe isandla sam, andijonge ngomoya wobubele kunye nomdla ociko ngakumbi kunokuba kunokuthiwa, ndiyeza, mhlobo wam olungileyo, utsho kum, ingcikivo, emva koko isiphakamiso esivela kuJ. .- C.; ngokuba nguye ondithumayo kuni. Hayi indlela ovuya ngayo, mhlobo wam olungileyo, ndaphendula ngelitshoyo, kukwazi uJ.-C. nokuba ngowakhe! Ah! namkelekile, ekubeni niza kundibona ngenxa yakhe; Ndiya, ndingathandabuzi, ndikumamele ngentliziyo yam yonke.

Uthe ke kum nanko ukungcikiva, wathi kum, Akumthandi ngokwaneleyo, unentliziyo ephangaleleyo, kananjalo wamhenyuza ngeendlela ezininzi.

Izinto, usoloko uzibhenca ekuhluthweni kweenceba zakhe kunye neenceba zakhe, ngamanye amaxesha uyalibala ukuba unetyala kangakanani kuye. Into ayicelayo kuni ngomlomo wam kukuba niyiphinde inzondelelo yenu, nifunde ukumkholisa ezintweni zonke, ningabushiyi ubungcwele bakhe, nibe naye.

ngokuqhubekayo engqondweni nasentliziyweni, ukwenza kuphela ngokubona kwakhe, ukuphilela yena kuphela; kuba, umhlobo wam olungileyo, ukunike yonke into, ufuna ukuba zonke izinto. Unekhwele ngokuyilawula yonke intliziyo yakho; kwaye ndikholelwe, sthandwa sam, intliziyo efana neyakho ayikho kakhulu kwinkosi efana nayo.

Emilebeni yakhe kuthungelwa, amazwi akhe aye andichukumisile kangangokuba ndandicinga nje ukulivuma ityala lam; kwaye into enhle ukuqaphela kukuba andizange ndive buhlungu ngenxa yezohlwayo awandinika zona; noko ke ndaye ndikholiswa zizo kakhulu, ngaphezu kwezo zithethe zicekisekayo, nangezizo iintetho zazo. Bendingathanda ukuchitha ubomi bam ndibamamele, kuba naye ebeyazi indlela yokundikhuthaza ngaloluthando andibonise lona. Ah! indlela ngobunono J.-C. aqala ngayo! Kulungile, ndathi kuye, ndilila, yonke into ondixelela yona ilungile, yinyaniso ngokwayo, ndiyayibona. Ndizuze ke ukuze ndithembeke ngakumbi kwixesha elizayo, kwaye ndisebenzise isilumkiso sesisa sakho, kwaye ndiya kusebenza kuso ngamandla am onke ngenxa yothando lukaJ.

Ngalo mazwi, intombazana ethandekayo iziphose ezingalweni zam, sibambene ngokuqinileyo; nankuya, watsho kum, endincamisa, indlela endifuna ukukuhlanganisa ngayo noJ.-C., kuba ndiluthando lwayo emadodeni; Ndizama ngandlela zonke  ukukoyisa  kuye  , Bawo, hayi indlela  ebendivuya ngayo!

Njengoko ndandimbuzile ukuba angenza njani ukuba ndithembeke ngakumbi ku-J-C, ndandimfuna ukuba andikhanyisele ngakumbi ngeli nqaku, xa ndambona equbuda kumgama omde, izandla zakhe zajoyina, kunqulo olunzulu kunye nozuko. owona mthandazo unyanisekileyo; into endiyithethileyo ngalendlela andixelele ngayo....

Emva kokuba ndivukile, ndaphonononga iimeko zeli  phupha limangalisayo, kwaye ndazifumana zonke zihambelana neemfuno zam kunye nemeko yam. Bekusele kudlule intsuku ezimbalwa ndingene kwizinto ezithile eziye zandibangela ukuba ndithethe amazwi angento yanto, intlebendwane, intlekisa nezinye iziphoso zolu hlobo, eziye zanditsala kancinci. kwiziko lam, ndithetha, lobukho bukaThixo. Ndandiligwala ekukhupheni iziphazamiso eziye zavela emithandazweni yam: uMthendeleko wam wokugqibela wawungenamdla kangako, kananjalo uThixo wayengathethi phantse kwanto entliziyweni yam  ngawo  . Ndandicinga  ukuba kunjalo

into yozakuzaku endiyifumene ndilele ndiyakucela Bawo undixelele ukuba ucinga ntoni ngayo.

Sendikubonisile ke ntombam, ndaphendula kuSister ndathi uThixo angasebenzisa indlela yamaphupha ukunika izilumkiso eziluncedo emadodeni. Ndibubona ubungqina bayo kwiZibhalo Ezingcwele, ezingasivumeliyo ukuba sithandabuze; Ndiyabona, ngaphezu koko, kwimicimbi yakho, iindibano, amathuba anjalo anamandla,

 

 

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ukuba kubonakala kunzima kum ukwala... Kodwa, Dade wam, undinike ukuba ndiqonde, ukuba ndikhumbula kakuhle, ukuba ibingesosihlandlo sokuqala ukuba ube nexesha lokubona laa mntu ukholekileyo unaye. ndithethe kakuhle nje. Nceda undixelele ngoku,  kweziphi ezinye iimeko osele udibene naye kuzo?  ngokuba

undenze ndanomdla wokumazi ngcono ngokwam, kwaye ndicinga ukuba kuninzi okuza kuzuzwa ngam, kwaye mhlawumbi nakwabanye.

Lo mnqweno wokuva ngayo Bawo bubungqina bokuba uyayazi, waphendula watsho uDade; kodwa kuhlwile namhlanje, kwaye iseshoni yayinde, kuba ndithethe ngamaphupha kuphela. Ukuba bendiyifakile le undibuza yona, ibizakuba yikota noko

iyure enye ngaphezulu, kwaye ndinoloyiko lokuba niya kuphazamiseka; so ke Bawo ukuba ubona kulungile sophelela apha ibali lamaphupha am. Akunjalo konke konke, Dade, ndifuna nokuba ibe yileya kwakhona ngokuhlwanje; ukuba ithatha ikota yeyure, kulungile, iya kuba yikota yeyure ubude, ndingakunika isiqingatha seyure esihle; ngoko ke, ukuba anizikhathazi ngokuthetha, andiyi kuba neentloni ukuva; kodwa ukuba anithanga nindanelise ngobu busuku, yoba ngomso, khethani, kuba andinikhululi kwimeko endiyicelayo kuni. kwanele ukuba ikunyanzelise. Ngoko ke ndiza  kuqhubeka ixesha elide, kwaye niya kuwasebenzisa onke amabali am njengoko nithanda kwiincwadana zenu  .

 

 

UYesu Kristu umazisa ehlabathini  .

Malunga nexesha owawungena ngalo endlwini yethu ukuza kusalathisa, uJ.-C. wabonakala kum ephupheni, waza wathi kum: Ndilandele, ndiya kukufundisa oko likuko ihlabathi. Ndim; kwaye thina sobabini sihamba ngokukhawuleza okumangalisayo, sicanda amazwe amaninzi; kungekudala sifika kwezona ndawo zikude. Eyona nto yayiluncedo kakhulu kukuba  sasibona yonke into ngaphandle kokubonwa mntu: kuyo yonke indawo J.-C.. Uyabona, wathi kum, ukuba kwinyathelo ngalinye sifumana abantu abalangazelela iwaka lemicimbi yethutyana; kodwa baphi abo balingxamelayo ishishini losindiso lwabo  ?...

Apha ngumtshato, kukho i-fair okanye imarike, ngakumbi kwisiganeko esihlekisayo okanye esibuhlungu ... Yongeza kuyo ezinye izinto ezincinci zendalo efanayo; yiyo le nto eyenza isangqa sobomi bomntu. Amashishini abiza imali eninzi, iiprojekthi zethamsanqa, amayelenqe ekhabhinethi ahlala abantu ezinkundleni nakwizikhulu zehlabathi; ukuhlaselwa kunye nokukhusela, ukungqinga kunye neemfazwe kuhlala abantu bemfazwe; amasiko kunye namatyala athatha amalungu ebar; ukulima, ukunyanyekelwa kweenkomo kulawula abantu belizwe; izifundo ezinzulu, iingqikelelo ezinkulu zithatha abantu

yeeleta kunye neengcali zezopolitiko: urhwebo luhlala abarhwebi; kodwa baphi, phakathi kwazo zonke ezi, abo bazixhalabisayo, njengoko befanele, kwizazela zabo noThixo wabo? ngoobani abo benza eyona nto iphambili nebalulekileyo yosindiso lwabo, ongowokuqala nobaluleke kakhulu kuyo yonke?...

Ubunyulu bukhokelela ebuntwaneni, ukwahlukana kukhokelela ebudodeni, ukuzicingela kukhokelela ekuqoleni, uburharha bukhokelela ebudaleni, kwaye ukholo nothando alukhokeli phantse lonke ixesha lobomi. Abakhulu bazinikele, ngathi bathengiswe kwinto engento, ikratshi nokuqhatha; abancinci baphantsi kokumbombozela, ukungazi, ubugwenxa kunye nokungabikho kokusesikweni. Baphi abo bazinikele ekuthobekeni, ekuthotyweni nasekuqheliseleni izidima? Siyacula, siyasela, siyahleka, okanye siyaphikisana, siyavuya, silusizi, kodwa sihlala sisenza okwexeshana. Wonke umntu ufuna umdla womzimba, phantse akukho mntu ufuna umphefumlo; umntu usebenza kakhulu ixesha, phantse naphakade ngonaphakade; sizenzela yonke into, akukho nto siyenzela uThixo: lihlabathi eli....

Uyabona ke, waqhubeka uJ.-C., ukuba bonke aba bantu asingabam, bonke bamalunga neminqweno yabo, ingeyiyo eyam; bangabedemon utshaba lwam; obo asibobukumkani bam, asibobam; kanti bona balwa nam nowam. Kubo bonke abo ubabonayo, akukho namnye ocinga ngam kunye neVangeli yam, ukuze balungelelanise ihambo yabo kuyo; ukuba bayayenza ngamanye amaxesha, ilula kangangokuba ubuKristu babo bungakhetha ukuba sisingcikivo kum kunembeko enikelwa kuthixo wam. Bangaphi phakathi kwabo abade badane ngenxa yegama lam phambi kwabantu, abathi, emva kwezenzo ezimbalwa zonqulo babuyele emgangathweni, babaleka ngokukhawuleza kakhulu betyhutyha imibutho yehlabathi ukuze barhoxe, benze isibhambathiso sobhaptizo lwabo, nezithembiso abazenzileyo. kum

! Akukho njongo inyulu emitshatweni, akukho ntembeko kwezorhwebo, akukho bizo lwemihlaba, akukho bulungisa phakathi kwabantu; nali ihlabathi. Ngaba sifanele simangaliswe xa egwetywa yiVangeli, ezaliswe ngamahlazo, ukungabikho kokusesikweni nezono?

 

 

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Umthuma ukuba aye kushumayela isohlwayo kwisixeko esikhulu. Uthobela ngobunzima, kwaye akasamfumani u-J.-C. ekubuyeni kwakhe.

Ngoxa sasithetha ngolo hlobo, safika kwintaba ephakamileyo, apho kwakulula ukulifumana lonke ilizwe elisingqongileyo; phakathi kwezinye izinto, sabona kufutshane nendibano enkulu enesiphithiphithi; yayingumboniso owawubanjelwe kufutshane nesixeko sorhwebo kakhulu... Uyasibona esi sixeko kunye nale ndibano, utsho uJ.-C. kum; esi sihlwele samadoda sixakeke kuphela kwimicimbi yethutyana kunye neeprojekthi ezigwenxa ubukhulu becala. Inani elikhulu kakhulu labo ubabonayo batshone zwabha kwimikhwa yobugebenga, nto leyo eyenza ukuba usindiso lwabo lube nzima kakhulu, yaye kube nzima ngakumbi ngenxa yokuba ikuphela kweshishini abangazikhathazi ngalo, abangazikhathazi ngalo. nokucinga. Obunjani bona ubumfama obulusizi! Hamba, ntombi yam, uye kubafuna ngenxa yam, ubaxelele ukuba, ukuba abathanga baguquke, Ndiya kubavelela ngeyona ndlela yoyikekayo; ukuba ubuhedeni, ubomi behlabathi kunye nenkululeko isoloko ilandelwa kukufa okufayo kunye namashwa angunaphakade; baxelele ukuba baguqukile kwaye bayeke ukona, ukuze bangayibeki imilinganiselo yokukhalinyelwa kwabo....

Ndiyangcangcazela ngulo myalelo, ndingoyiki ubungozi obundibeke kuyo, kunokoyika ukuphulukana nalowo undinike kona. Andizange ndibe nabuganga bokumxelela iintloni zam, awayeziqonda ngokungathandabuzekiyo; Ndamcenga qha ukuba andilinde kwakulandawo, ndacela ukuyongena naye kungekudala. Ndiphuma ndibaleka ngamandla am onke; ndithe ndakufika kuloo ndawo ifanelekileyo ukuba ndizenze ukuba ndiviwe sesi sihlwele, ndadanduluka ndadanduluka ngako konke endandinako ukuba ndithethe kubo; Ndongezelela ngelithi nguJ.C. ngokwakhe owandithuma kubo, ndaza ndabasongela ngomsindo wakhe ukuba babengalithobeli ilizwi lam, njengoko abemi baseNineve balithobela elo likaYona. amagama; kodwa inani elikhulu kakhulu alikwenzi suzihlupha. Ndibone abanye bendihleka, abanye bephelelwa ngumsindo, andazi ukuba bekuzokwenzeka ntoni ukuba, ukubaleka ukusukelwa kwabo, khange ndikhawuleze ndibaleke, ndiyokukhangela umkhokeli wam apho bendimshiye khona. Kodwa, yinkangala! wayengasekho, kwaye into endandiyoyika yenzekile, uye wanyamalala. Kwenziwe ntoni ? into endiya kuyenza kwilizwe lasemzini esele indithatha njengotshaba, kuba ndifuna ukuyikhanyisela kwinyani yayo kwaye into ebendiyoyika yenzekile, ibingasekho. Kwenziwe ntoni ? into endiya kuyenza kwilizwe lasemzini esele indithatha njengotshaba, kuba ndifuna ukuyikhanyisela kwinyani yayo kwaye into ebendiyoyika yenzekile, ibingasekho. Kwenziwe ntoni ? into endiya kuyenza kwilizwe lasemzini esele indithatha njengotshaba, kuba ndifuna ukuyikhanyisela kwinyani yayo umdla?

 

 

Ngelixa ekhangela u-J.-C. ngeentlungu, udibana nomphefumlo oxhwalekileyo azama ukuwuthuthuzela.

Ndathi, ukuze ndimfumane, ndacanda emasimini nasemaphandleni akufuphi, ndinexhala lokufa, ndimbiza ngokuvakalayo ndimbuza kubo bonke abo ndadibana naye, ndeva yonke into isecaleni kwam, emva kwentloko yehashe.

ihlathi, ukukhala okulusizi, izikhalazo ezichukumisayo; Ndasondela kuloo ndawo, ndabona ilele phantsi intombazana emalunga namashumi amabini eminyaka ubudala, eyayilila ngendlela elusizi; Ndandinovelwano ngaye, kwaye ndandifuna ukumthuthuzela. Ah! Wathi kum elila, akusekho kuthuthuzeleka, ndilahlekelwe bubukho obunobuntu bomyeni womphefumlo wam, ndinikezela kwintlungu yam; ndixelele kwenzeka ntoni kuye, kungenjalo ndingafa zintlungu...

Imeko yakhe elusizi yaqalisa ukundenza ndilibale ngeyam; kwakubonakala ngathi wabelana ngeentlungu zam ngokufana neentsizi zethu; Ndazazisa ke ngoko ngomfanekiso wakhe; kwaye ndingakhange ndifune ukuzazisa kuye, ndathatha isigqibo sokumthuthuzela, mna ebendidinga ngaphezu kwakhe. ndiyamxelela phakathi kwezinye izinto ukuba ubuntununtunu bakhe obugqithisileyo bebungasekelwanga kwimithetho yobuthixo bokwenyaniso, obunokude bungamkholisi uThixo, ofuna ukuthotyelwa okungakumbi ekuthandeni kwakhe. Ubukho bakhe obunengqiqo, ndathi, lubabalo alungelolwa mntu, kwaye ukuhluthwa kwakhe kufuneka siyazi indlela yokubandezeleka xa ethanda, kwaye kunokuba singamkholisi ngaloo nto, siyamkholisa ngakumbi ngokuzithoba kwethu. ukuba siye safumana olu thando lwangoku lukaThixo, obu buntununtunu indalo ifuna rhoqo, kwaye mhlawumbi eyanelisa  ukuzithanda...

Ke, mhlobo wam olungileyo, ndathi kuye, qaphela ukuba ungabi buhlungu kakhulu, ukugqithisa kuyo yonke into kuyingozi. Ndikholelwe, sithandwa sam, nguThixo okuvavanyayo; kodwa ixesha lokuvavanywa liya kuphela ukuze livulele amathuba olonwabo: ubukho obunengqiqo bothando lwakhe okanye bobuntu bakhe asiyiyo into ayifunayo kuthi; ufuna ukuqina kokuhlonela uThixo, okuqulathe ngaphezu kwako konke ukuthobela nokuzithoba kwintando yakhe engcwele....

Ndithe ndisathetha ngolu hlobo, ndajonga macala onke ukuzama ukufumanisa lowo ndandimfuna ngokwam ngokuxhalaba, uloyiko nosizi; kuyinyani ukuba kulula kakhulu ukuthetha kakuhle kunokwenza kakuhle, ukuthuthuzela abanye kunokuzithuthuzela; ukanti, Bawo, ndeva ukuba ndifumene intuthuzelo ngokuthetha ngolu hlobo kulo ulihlwempu ubandezelekileyo; kuba ndandizixelele ngaphakathi ukuba mhlawumbi ndiyalidinga icebiso elilungileyo endamnika lona ngaphezu kwakhe, kwaye kufuneka ndilisebenzise kum, njengoko naye ngokwakhe wayeyicacisa ngamazwi ambalwa, kwaye andihlawule ngemali. Inceba endiyenzileyo kuye.

 

Uyaqhubeka ekhangela uJ.-C., yaye ufika kwintaba yaseKalvari, apho afumana iminqamlezo emininzi erhabaxa nenzima kakhulu.

Ekugqibeleni, ndiyayishiya, kwaye umgama ukusuka apho ndifumana indawo yam ephakamileyo

 

 

 

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intaba ekwakuhleli umntu ezantsi kwayo; Ndiyambuza ukuba akakamboni na uJ.-C. edlula: ewe , waphendula, usandul 'ukufika encotsheni yentaba uyibonayo, kwaye ndiyakholwa ukuba umise apho.. ukulinda, kuba kulapho alinde khona. kubo bonke abahlobo bakhe . Kula mazwi, ndiye ndahamba okomzuzwana ndingabuzanga nto, ndabaleka ngokukhawuleza ndade ndafika encochoyini ndibethwa ngumoya; kwaye emva kokuma umzuzwana, ndakhangela kuyo yonke indawo, ndabiza ngokuvakalayo; kodwa ndabona umnqamlezo omkhulu kuphela utyalwe ngokuthe tye encotsheni yentaba, yaye ujikeleze lo mnqamlezo abanye abasebenzi ababesebenza ukwenza abanye kulo mzekelo mnye; Ndibone ishumi okanye elinesibini elitsha kraca lobukhulu obahlukeneyo kunye nobunzima obahlukeneyo...

Bahlobo bam abalungileyo, ndithe kubo, nihlala phantsi kancinane ukuba niphumle, niyibiza ngantoni le ntaba ilusizi? Ufanele uyazi, bandiphendula bathi, yintaba yaseKalvari, apho kufuneka wenze ikhaya lakho de kube sekufeni. Hayi! Nceda, wenzela bani le minqamlezo yahlukeneyo? Yeyakho. Ndiye ndangcangcazela ndahamba ndayokuzilinga; kodwa ndazifumana zirhabaxa kwaye zinzima kangangokuba andizange ndikwazi ukuziphakamisa. Hayi! Ndalila zihlobo zam, aniboni ukuba soze ndinxibe ibenye? Uya kuzithwala zonke ngaxeshanye, ndaxelelwa; kodwa baya kuba belahlekelwe kakhulu kubunzima babo noburhabaxa babo; kuba azikagqibi, kwaye asiyi kuphinda senze nto ngazo. Njengoko ndandingayiqondi intsingiselo yala mazwi okugqibela, Ndabashiya aba basebenzi nentsokolo yabo ukuba ndizixakekise ngokukhangela umkhokeli wam wobuthixo; kuba bendingayikhathalelanga iminqamlezo, okoko ndiyifumene...

 

 

Ufumana umqolomba apho afumana khona intombazana eselula awayethetha ngayo, kwaye eyayigudisa iminqamlezo, kwaye imbuza igama layo.

Ke ngenxa yale njongo bendihamba kuzo zonke iindawo eziphakamileyo zentaba, kwaye ngequbuliso ndangena kuhlobo lomqolomba okanye indawo ecwangciswe phakathi kwamatye, kwaye ndabona eludakumbelweni intombazana eselula yobuhle obothusayo, ngokuchanekileyo. mnye, uBawo, owanithanda kangaka

ndinithandile ndiqala ukunixelela ngayo. Ngoko ndonwabile kwaye ndonwabile ngayo kwasekuqaleni, kwaye ndicinga ukuba akunakwenzeka ukuba

intliziyo yokuzilwela. Ewe, yayikukuthwala okufanayo kanye, ukuphakama okufanayo, ubuso obufanayo, iimpawu ezifanayo, umoya ofanayo, intetho efanayo, ngokufutshane laa mntu bendimbonile ukususela ngoko, ekuye kwakhankanywa kakhulu ngaye iphupha elidlulileyo.

Apha, uTata, ephethe inqwelo-moya, wayexakekile egawula yaye epolisha iminqamlezo eyayisenziwa ngabasebenzi, eyayizele igrotto. Emva kokuwanciphisa wawapholisha, wasasaza apho intambiso ethile eyenza ukuba uburhabaxa bazo buphele, wasebenza apho ngokukhawuleza, idilesi kunye nobabalo olumangalisayo nolumangalisayo. Bonke abo badlula phantsi kwesandla sakhe baye bathamba kwaye bakhaphukhaphu, ndabona phantse akukho nto yothusayo kubo. Endaweni yokoyikeka endandinawo ngokwemvelo kwiminqamlezo yokuqala, ndaziva ndinenzondelelo ethile kubo, kwaye ndaziva ngathi le nzondelelo yanda njengoko ndandithetha nomsebenzi onomtsalane, kangangokuba ndakugqiba ndibe nesibindi sokuthatha. bathwale bonke ngaxeshanye.

Ndothuswe lutshintsho olunje ngesiquphe nolungekho ngokwemvelo, mhlawumbi ngendingazange ndiwazi unobangela wayo ukuba ndandingazange ndilinge ndibuze igama lalo mntu uthandekayo. Emva koko, ukundanelisa, wandijonga ngobuso obuhlekayo namehlo azele ngowona mlilo usulungekileyo; yaye endibonisa umnqamlezo awayewukhazimlisa, wathi ngobubele: “Ndiluthando lwalowo wakuthwalela lona, ​​yaye kungenxa yothando lwakho nolwabantu bonke endisebenza nabo. UJ.-C. ufuna ukuba bonke abantwana bakhe bahambe emanyathelweni akhe bethwele umnqamlezo wabo, kuba kuphela kwendlela esa kubomi obungunaphakade nakulonwabo olungenasiphelo ababizela kulo yaye olufanele bona; kodwa ufuna bawanxibe ngaphandle kokudinwa ngawo. Ekugqibeleni, ufuna ukuba banxitywe luthando, kungekhona ukunyanzeliswa, kungoko endicela ukuba ndibenze bathambe, ibe ngumsebenzi omnandi kakhulu kum, ekubeni ndingenakubathanda abo babethandwa nguJ.-C. »

Emva kwale ntetho, ndavuka ndizaliswe ngumnqweno wokuthwala yonke iminqamlezo  eyayiza kubonakaliswa luthando lukaJ.-C  .

Nantsi ke, Bawo, ekubeni ubufuna ngokupheleleyo ukwazi, ziimeko ezimbini zamaphupha am, apho ndibone lo mntu uthandekayo, lo msebénzi unomtsalane ekubonakala ngathi unomdla ongaka kuye. Kodwa ekubeni sikweli nqaku, kwaye ibali lam lahlala kancinci kunokuba bendicinga, ndiya kuphelisa, ukuba uyafuna, ngombono endinawo ngokwam.

ekhumbulayo, noko kwenzekayo kum, kungekhona ebuthongweni, njengabo bangaphambili, kodwa emthandazweni wam, kwiminyaka emine okanye emihlanu eyadlulayo. Into, ngokoluvo lwam, isafanelwe ingqalelo.

 

Umbono kaDade ngexesha lomthandazo wakhe. Umthi wothando.

Ndazibona ndonwabile kukukhanya

 

 

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apho iNkosi yabonakala kum injengomntu, yandikhokelela kumyezo omkhulu ozele yimithi nezityalo ngeentlobo; Ndaphawula phakathi kwezinye izinto umthi omkhulu ngakumbi nomhle ngakumbi, osiqhamo sawo sasisikhulu kwaye sinomtsalane, nesona sihle kakhulu sinokuthelekelela. Isiqhamo ngasinye salo mthi sasimhlophe ngapha, sibomvu kwelinye; umthi neziqhamo zawo zazibizwa ngokuba ngumthi nesiqhamo sothando, umthi wobomi, umthi wothando olukhulu oluphumeza inkululeko yohlanga loluntu. Eminye imithi yayi, xa kuthelekiswa, njengezilwanyana zasendle, ithwala iziqhamo ezisileleyo nezinentshulube...

J.-C. wayenobubele ngokwaneleyo ukuba andicacisele intsingiselo yokwenyaniso yalo mbono, ewusebenzisa kum. Wathi kum, Zingaphi na izihlandlo, ngenxa yokuswela ukuthembela ekuthandeni kwam, akubanga nasiqhamo sigoso, nesigqwethiweyo, esibolileyo? Ngesi sihlandlo, wandazisa ukuba izigidi zemiphefumlo zazilapho, yaye azizange zivelise ziqhamo ziqinileyo neziyinyaniso, kanye ngenxa yokuba ngokuziphatha kwazo ngokuzithandela zingamarhamncwa kuphela, angamiliselwanga kumthi omhle wothando lukaThixo. , okanye ngenxa yenkanuko yoMsindisi, ngaphandle kwayo, nangona kunjalo, konke oko umntu anokukwenza kulilize ezulwini. Kodwa kwanele, Bawo, lixesha lokuphela. Ukuba usebenzisa amaphupha am kwiincwadana zakho, abantu abanengqiqo nabangamaKrestu abaya kuzifunda baya kufumana kuzo iinyaniso eziqinileyo zikwimo edeleleke ngokwaneleyo ngokwayo; kodwa abafundi abaphezulu abangayi kungena kwixolo layo, ngakumbi abo baya kukhangela kuphela iindlela zokwanelisa umdla ongakholelekiyo, ah! Ndiyaboyikela ukuba bathathe ithuba lokuyidela yonke into endikuxelele yona. Thandazela u Mna.

Ukuphela kwamaphupha.

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IIMBONO ZOMBHALI.

 

Ngaba ndenze impazamo, mfundi, kwingcamango entle endiye ndaqulunqa ngayo amaphupha endisandul’ ukuwabalisa, nangokwesigwebo esilungileyo endasidlulisela kuwo kwenye indawo? Ngoku kukuwe ukuba ugwebe, kwaye usixelele ukuba ubone ukusetyenziswa kokuziphatha okungaphezulu, ukuchaneka ngakumbi kunye nenyaniso kuyo nayiphi na ingqikelelo oyaziyo.

Masifunde iinoveli zokomoya apho kucetywayo ukufundisa ingqondo kunye nokwenza intliziyo kwizinto ezilungileyo zobuKristu ngokuhlekisa ngentelekelelo yomfundi, kwaye ke masixelelwe ukuba sifumene apho, ngokuziphatha okusulungekileyo nokugqwesileyo ngakumbi, umcimbi obaluleke ngakumbi, umdla odlamkileyo, ibali elilula nelingenangqondo; okokugqibela, akusayi kuphinda kubetheke oko kuphakamisa kwaye kuthuthwe ngokulandelelana kweenyaniso ezimnandi okanye ezoyikisayo. Ngaba ikho into eyakha yabhalwa ehambelana ngakumbi nomoya weVangeli, okanye evumelana ngakumbi nemfezeko yobuKristu? Ngoko ke, yintoni enokuba yeyokwenene ngakumbi? Yintoni enokufana nokuphefumlelwa ngokufanelekileyo ukuthetha kunokuba yintoni injongo yamaphupha awo ahlukeneyo, ukuba sinokubanika elo gama?

Inene, nokuba uMoya oyiNgcwele wasebenza kumoya wale ntombazana ingcwele ebudeni bobuthongo bayo, nto leyo awayenzayo ngokubhekisele kwabanye abaninzi; okanye, njengoko ubani usenokucinga, ukuba ingqondo yakhe yayisayigcinile imikhondo yeempembelelo uThixo awayezenzile ebudeni bemini; eya kubonakala ingokwemvelo ngakumbi, nangona ingonelanga, ukunika ingxelo ngolungelelwaniso oluncomekayo olulawula apho, kwakunye noyilo oluzibonakalisa apho kuyo yonke indawo; nangona kunjalo la maphupha ayenzeka, awasothusi kangako ngokwawo, akakho ngaphantsi kokumangalisa ngendalo yamabali, ukulula kunye nobunyani bamanani, kwaye le ndibano ilandele kude kakhulu ekungahambelani kunye nokungaqhelekanga kwamaphupha aqhelekileyo  . .

Yintoni enokumangalisa ngakumbi, kwakhona, yintoni enokuba yinto engenakwenzeka ngaphezu kokubona ukuba umntu ongenalwazi, olele kwi-pallet yesisele sakhe, usenayo, elele njengoko anjalo, iingcamango ezichanekileyo kunye nezilungileyo zokuziphatha, kwaye zigqithise ngakumbi kunabaninzi. Iingqondo zethu ezintle ezincwadini zabo zinconywa kakhulu kwaye zenziwe ngobugcisa obuninzi, ukufundisisa kunye noncedo! kwaye ukuba ndinokuvunyelwa ukuba ndisebenzise eli binzana, akusiyo isinye ukuba omnye waloo miphefumlo ilungileyo eye yadelwa kakhulu, ifumene indlela yokuphupha ngcono xa ilele, kunokuba iqhele ukwenza njalo, nangona ivukile, ubunzulu bofundisiso lwabo?

Ngoko ke, ngokombono wam, akunakwenzeka ukuphendula yonke le nto ngaphandle kokusetyenziswa kwamagama asele ecatshulwe, ukuzaliseka kwawo kufumaneka kuwo kuphela: Et erit in novissimis diebus , njl. Seyisekile ekugqibeleni, kwaye ngokungathi soyisiwe kukukhanya okuqulethwe ngumsebenzi  oncomekayo ngokupheleleyo kuyo yonke inkalo, sidanduluka ubuncinane kunye nomdumisi: Que  les

 

 

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Azinakuqondwa iindlela zikaThixo, yaye hayi indlela amangalisa ngayo kwiingcwele zakhe!

Mirabilis Deus kwi-santis suis. ( INdu. 67,  36 . )

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INGXELO

KUNYE NESATIFIKETI SABAPHATHI ABABINI

Ukusuka kuDade woZalo.

 

Thina singabasayiniweyo apha ngezantsi, oonongendi boluntu lwe-Urban Planners yesixeko saseFougères, siyangqina ukuba iya kuba yekabani na, 1° ukuba lowo ubizwa ngokuba nguDadewethu wokuZalwa, kwiminyaka emininzi eyadlulayo, wenza izibhengezo kunye noqikelelo malunga nomothuko kunye nesiphithiphithi esathi sabakho. kungekudala ukuqalisa eFransi, kuze emva koko kubangele izidubedube ezinkulu eBandleni nakwiZizwe; ukuba, nangona yayibonakala incinane imbonakalo yayo ngoko, oko kwavakaliswa ngulo dade wayekuthethile kwabonakala kukhulu kakhulu yaye kukhwankqisa kakhulu ekugwebeni kwabefundisi abaninzi abalungileyo, ngokokude umbingeleli lowo ngelo xesha engumalathisi wendlu, waguqulwa ukuze abhale. ukuba ngenene wabhala isincoko apho ukuphikisana nokungaqondi kwi-akhawunti kaDade kwakumnyanzele ukuba atshise njengaye nangona yena ngokwakhe.

2° Ukuba uDade okhankanywe kuZalo, ngowe-1790, wayalela, egameni likaThixo, uM. Genet, umalathisi wokugqibela wendlu yethu, ukuba avuselele umsebenzi owawutshatyalalisiwe; ukuba, ngenxa yale njongo, waye wazisa kuye amanqaku okuba wayeza kusebenza elubhacweni awathi wamxelela ukuba uyeza; ukuba uM. Genet waye wazoba la manqaku phantsi kwamehlo kunye nomyalelo we

lo dade kuthethwayo, ezibhale kwaseluthinjwa, esongezelela kwezo sazithumela kuye ngokwethu, ngokwesicelo saloo dade uxeliweyo.

I-3 ° Siqinisekisa ukuba emva kokufunda ngokucophelela iqoqo elipheleleyo loBomi kunye neZityhilelo zikaDade oxeliweyo , awathi wasinika yona ekubuyeni kwakhe, asifumananga nto apho engabonakali ngathi ifanele ukholo kwaye ihambelana kakhulu nenyaniso. ngezibakala ezaziwayo kuthi, kangangoko sinokugweba. Ngobungqina esithe satyikitya esi senzo ngaphandle kokuthandabuza, songeza nokuba kusekho iimeko ezithile kuyo yonke le nto ayishiyileyo, nezingafane zibe nokwakha kubomi obungaqhelekanga ngokwenene balo mntu ufileyo uthandekayo nohloniphekileyo. unelungelo lokumazisa ngokufa, kunye nesongezo asiyalele ukuba simnike sona, nesasele sibhaliwe.

4. Okokugqibela, siyangqina ukuba, singathandi ukuthetha ngezinto ezinkulu, athe uThixo wazibona, kwanezibhengezo zakhe ezingqiniweyo, siye sathuthuzeleka kakhulu, sada somelezwa kakhulu kulo mbono ulungileyo, ebesithi ngaphambili. , ngokufunda amacebiso aluncedo koobhishophu, nezinye izikhanyiso zeCawa Engcwele umbhali awathetha ngazo xa wayesekuthinjweni.

E-Fougères, umhla wamashumi amabini anesithandathu kuSeptemba wewaka elinamakhulu asibhozo anesibini kuYesu Krestu, kunye nonyaka weshumi weRiphabhliki yaseFransi.

UMarie-Louise LEBRETON , wabiza udade wenkolo kaSainte-Madeleine, owayesakuba ngumlondolozi woluntu, kwaye ophakamileyo ngexesha le-1790, kwaye kude kube lelo lokutshatyalaliswa kwethu.

UMichelle-Pélagie BINEL , owaziwa ngonqulo njengoDade weSeraphim, owayesakuba nguMkhulu nomphathiswa ekuhlaleni ngexesha le-1790; ngaphandle kotshintsho.

 

 

 

 

INGQELELO

AMAGUNYA APHILAYO

 

KUNYE NAMAXWEBHU, MALUNGA NOBOMI NEZItyhilelo ZOMDADE WOKUZALWA,

I-NUN KWI-CONVENT YABACWANGCISO BEZIDOLOPHU KWISIXEKO SASE-FOUGÈRES, UBISHOPRIKI WASE-RENNES, E-BRITTANY.

 

 

 

 

KUBAFUNDI.

Charissimi, nolite omni Spiritui credere, sed probate spiritus si ex Deo sint. (UJoan, 4, 1.)

 

Ingqokelela esikubonisa yona ifundwe kwaye yavavanywa kwimibhalo-ngqangi ngenani elikhulu labagwebi abanobuchule kunye nabakhanyiselwe kakhulu, abagwebo zabo ezinenzuzo ziya kuthatha ixesha elide ukuba zichazwe ngokweenkcukacha: ukuba, ngaphezu koko, uhlobo lwale mveliso, ngokwenene. ngokungaqhelekanga, kwaba nzima ukubavumela ukuba bapapashe, ukuze kungabonakali nangayiphi na indlela ukucalula umgwebo weCawa kwingongoma ekukuphela kwayo enelungelo lokugqiba.

Kuya kwanela ukukuxelela ukuba ngaphandle nje koobhishophu abathandathu okanye ngaphezulu, endiye ndaba newonga lokuyinikela kubo eLondon nakwiindawo ezahlukahlukeneyo zokugxothwa kwam, ukususela ngowe-1792 kuquka (1); kubefundisi-jikelele abangamashumi amabini okanye amashumi amathathu kunye neecanon zeedayosisi ezahlukeneyo, oogqirha abalishumi okanye abalishumi elinesibini okanye oonjingalwazi bezakwalizwi, kwiiyunivesithi ezahlukeneyo; kubabhali abaliqela abaziwayo beencwadi ezibekekileyo ngemibandela yonqulo, yaye ubuncinane ikhulu elinamashumi amahlanu nabanye abefundisi, abefundisi, abefundisi bamarhamente okanye abalawuli bamaphondo ahlukeneyo, abefundisi baseFransi nabaseNgesi, bonke bahlonela ngokulinganayo yaye bafundile; Kunqabile, ndithi, kwelo nani likhulu kangaka, umntu ebenokuthi umntu omnye abize abantu abahlanu okanye abathandathu ebengafanelanga ukumkholisa ngandlela zonke; kwaye sisenezizathu ezivakalayo zokukholelwa ukuba eli nani lincinane alinalo uye wawuxhoma umgwebo kuphela ngobulumko, kungenganjongo embi; endaweni yokucacisa izibakala kunokuba uziphikisa okanye ulwe noluvo olukhoyo.

(1) Oobhishophu babonisana nabo nabafunda iincwadana ezinengqokelela ekuthethwa ngayo, phakathi kwabanye, uMnu. uBhishophu Omkhulu waseAix, ngoku onguBhishophu Omkhulu waseTours; Nksk. ubhishophu waseTréguer, owaseTroyes, owaseNantes, owaseMontpellier, lowo

Lescar, njl njl. Andibakhankanyi abantu abaninzi, nakumahlelo onke, abathe bawafunda ngengenelo enkulu nokwakha; kuba, nokokuba abaninzi babo bakhanyiselwe kangakanani na, abanako ukwamkelwa njengabagwebi kwezi ntlobo zemiba. Ngaloo ndlela ukudunyiswa kwabo okuphindaphindiweyo apha kubalelwa ilize.

 

 

 

 

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Umsebenzi ke ngoko uye waqhwatyelwa izandla ngokubanzi ngabafundi bayo yonke imiyalelo yeCawa, ndinokongeza, kuzo zonke iindidi zabemi. Kuye  kwagwetywa ngamxhelo-mnye kungekuphela nje okulungileyo kwaye kuluncedo kuyo , eyona ngongoma iphambili, ingakumbi xa kujongwa ukuba yonke imigaqo yokwenyaniso yemfundiso nokuziphatha ibonakale kuyo igutyungelwe; kodwa sekunjalo ndinokuniqinisekisa ukuba uninzi lwabavavanyi nabagwebi luye lwathi gqolo lwatyekela ekumnikeni impefumlelo ngokufanelekileyo ebizwa ngolo hlobo, nto leyo eyayibonakala ingenakuphikiswa kubo: Digitus Dei est hic , baphindaphinda ngokungathi basekonsathini; kwaye, into elungileyo ukuqaphela, oku kwamkelwa kwam ngabefundisi abathi, ngaphambi kokuba bafunde nantoni na malunga nayo, baqale ngokuvuma kum ukuzonda kwabo okuphantse ukuba kungabikho koyiswayo, impembelelo.

Ngoko ke, ngaphandle kokubanga ukuba ndingazifumana ngayo nayiphi na indlela yolu mvisiswano weemvakalelo ngokuthanda umbuzo ongekho nangayiphi na indlela ukuba ndiwuthathele isigqibo, kwaye endiwushiya ngokupheleleyo enkundleni apho kuvela khona, ndinokugqiba ubuncinane ukuba , kuzo zonke iinkalo, ingqokelela, njengoko injalo, iye yamanyanisa ngokungenakuphikiswa ubuninzi beevoti, kuhlolisiso olwenziweyo ukuza kuthi ga ngoku. Endinokongeza kuyo ukuba, ukuza kuthi ga ngoku, zonke izichaso ezenziweyo ziye zancitshiswa ukuba zibe ngaphezulu okanye ngaphantsi kokunqongophala kwencasa abantu ababecinga ukuba bayifumene ekubhaleni kwam, kwaye apho ndibone inkcaso eninzi kakhulu iindlela ezahlukeneyo zokuyigweba, ukuba kwakungathi akunakwenzeka ukuba ndigqibe nantoni na kuyo; kwizimvo eziphikisanayo ezikolweni, iviwe, ngamanye amaxesha ide ithathe indlela engalunganga, njengoko kwakulula kum ukubonisa  .

Kwabanye, ndiyaphinda, omnye uya kwenza umthamo, ukuba kuyimfuneko ukuqokelela apha zonke iindumiso eziye zabhekiswa kum, zonke izingqinisiso ezinenzuzo endinazo.

efunyenwe ngomlomo nangencwadi ebhaliweyo, evela kwabona bantu bahloniphekileyo nabona banako ukubagweba. Uninzi lwabona babalaseleyo phakathi kwabafundi, abefundisi ngokwabo, baye bacela iikopi, ababezibophelele ngokufanelekileyo, ukuze bazigcine, bandixelele, ngononophelo olukhulu. Nokuba zazinde kangakanani iincwadi zam zamanqaku ezilishumi elinambini, zabhalwa njalo izihlandlo ezisixhenxe okanye ezisibhozo ezahlukeneyo ngokolwazi lwam, kwaye ngezazibe njalo ngakumbi ukuba, ngenxa yobulumko, ndandingazichasanga ngokusesikweni; engakhange ithintele iikopi ezininzi ezincitshisiweyo esinazo izotywe emfihlekweni (1). Incwadi ide yaguqulelwa kwisiNgesi. Kwabonakala ngathi wonk’ ubani wayefuna ukuba ibhengezwe: abaliqela bazinikela ukuba bayirhumele baze babe negalelo kwiindleko zokushicilela; endihlala ndilandula, ngenxa nje yokoyika ukuthintela amaxesha aphawulwe ngoBonelelo olungcwele  .

(1) Le mibhalo yahlukeneyo yawusasaza umsebenzi kwiindawo ezikude. Njengoko ndingazange ndifunde nanye kuzo, ndibaqinisekisa kancinane, njengoko ndisazi ukuba abanye abakhupheli baye banenkululeko yokwenza iinguqulelo ababecinga ukuba zifanelekile, ukuze bathande iimbono zabo eziphathelele ezobupolitika okanye ezinye izinto.

 

Ndingathanda ngentliziyo yam yonke ukuma apho kule ngongoma; kodwa njengoko kusenokubakho abafundi abo ubungqina endikubo ngendlela endikuphela kwayo umqinisekisi bungabukeki bubanele, ndiya kuzama ukubanelisa ngento engaphantsi kancinane kwaye ichaneke ngakumbi. Olu iya kuba luluhlu lobungqina bomlomo kunye nesicatshulwa kwiileta ezinamagama ababhali. Ndiza kongeza iileta ezimbalwa eziprintiweyo kwimvelaphi, eya kungqina yonke into endigqiba kuyithetha. Ilungile emva kwayo yonke loo nto, kukubonelela ngokholo olulungileyo olufuna ukuzikhanyisela ngamagunya aneleyo, izizathu ezinokuthi zizimisele ngokufanelekileyo. Ukuba kunokubakho nabani na othanda ukukrokrela ukunyaniseka kweengcaphuno zam,

 

Izicatshulwa ezivela kwiileta ezahlukeneyo kunye neengxelo zomlomo ezibhekiswe kumhleli.

Emva kwabefundisi esisandul’ ukuthetha ngabo, ubawo uBarruel wayengomnye wabefundisi bezakwalizwi endandifuna kakhulu ukudlulisela kubo umbhalo-ngqangi wam. Akuba nje eyivavanyile wandicela ukuba ndimnike ikopi, waza wayiprinta

yena ngokwakhe. Ukususela ngelo xesha, akazange ayeke ukubonisa umbulelo wakhe kum ngandlela zonke, okanye ukuwuncoma umsebenzi, ngaphandle kokuziphikisa.

Okukhona ndiyifunda, wandixelela kwaye ebhala rhoqo, kokukhona ndiyifumana isakha kwaye ithandeka, kwaye kokukhona ndifumanisa into engaphezu komntu kuyo. Ndibona izinto eziliwaka kuyo endingazange ndazibona naphi na: ngoko indichukumisa ngaphezu kwayo nayiphi na enye incwadi. Ndenza ukucamngca kwam okuqhelekileyo apho, kwaye ndinethemba lokuba uThixo uya kukusebenzisa ekuguqukeni kwam nakwinkqubela yam yokomoya. Ndicela undincome kwimithandazo yonongendi wakho olungileyo. Abanye abaliqela, kunye noobhishophu, benze isicelo esifanayo kum.

UBawo Barruel uyaqhubeka ngale miqathango:

“Siza kuwuhlasela umsebenzi walo mphefumlo ulungileyo, kodwa asiyi kuwutshabalalisa: uphawulwe kwikona eya kuwenza woyisele ukugxekwa. Undazise nantoni na onokuyifunda kule ntombazana ingcwele. Nantoni na ngaye iya kuhlala inomdla kum. Oko wakuphindayo, njengabanye abaninzi, kubantu abahlukeneyo nangezihlandlo ezahlukahlukeneyo, ngaphandle kokutshintsha uluvo lwakhe ngale ngongoma. Usoloko esithi, nabanye abaninzi, “lo msebenzi wawukwazi ukwenza eyona mbonakalo yolonwabo, nokuvelisa emiphefumlweni ezona ziqhamo zinqwenelekayo zenguquko, ukuqhubela phambili nosindiso.” »

Oko bekusoloko kungumgwebo wombhali oqhele ukugxeka imisebenzi kunye nengxoxo ngemibandela yezakwalizwi. Masidlulele kwabanye.

M. Pons, umfundisi werhamente yaseMazamet, kwidayosisi yaseLavaur, ugqirha nonjingalwazi wezakwalizwi, wabonakalisa umdla ofanayo kuyo, waza wagweba ngendlela efanayo, emva kokuyifunda ngenyameko enkulu. Nanga amagama athi lo njingalwazi, owayedume ngokusesikweni, aqalise incwadana yamanqaku endandimcele ukuba andenzele yona: “Umsebenzi wonongendi waseFougères kum wawubonakala uqulethe imfundiso yezakwalizwi egqwesileyo, ethambileyo, emide nenesizotha. imigaqo yokuqhuba eqaqambileyo; kwaye nawuphi na umgwebo awuvakalisayo ngokuphefumlelwa kwayo, ndicinga ukuba ukuyifunda kuya kuba luncedo kakhulu kwabathembekileyo, kwaye kuya kubanika incasa enkulu yesidima. »

Kule ndumiso ilula nechanekileyo, ngokwendlela yakhe yokuthetha, uBawo Pons wongeza ngelithi: "Ukwanelisa isicelo somhleli, uya kuzama, kuwo wonke umsebenzi, amagqabantshintshi ambalwa angawakholelwayo ukuba angabalulekanga, kwaye anokuthi akwenze oko. akabalulekanga kangako. Ukususela ngelo xesha, ebengomnye wabo baye bandibongoza kakhulu ukuba umsebenzi ushicilelwe eLondon, ukuze ndikwazi ukusa imibhalo ethile kwilizwe lakhe.

UMnu. Douglas, uBhishophu waseLondon, engalwazi kakuhle ulwimi lwesiFrentshi ngokwaneleyo ukuba akwazi ukuzigweba ngokwakhe, ngandlel’ ithile, wathatyathelw’ indawo ngabefundisi bakhe abathile, phakathi kwabanye nguMfundisi uMilner, owanamathela kumaKatolika aseWinchester; endifumanele imbalelwano nalo mbhali wodumo endiwonga kakhulu. Nantsi into awandibhalela yona kwiintlanganiso ezahlukeneyo; Ndiya kucaphula amabinzana akhe, endiya kuthi ke ndiwaguqulele, ukuze kube lula kwabo bangalwaziyo ulwimi lwakhe. Kwileta yakhe yomhla we-13 kuSeptemba 1800, uMnu. Milner  undixelela ukuba:

"Imveliso kuyo yonke into ibonakala imangalisa kakhulu kum

ubungangamsha, amandla, ukulunga, ukufunda, inkolelo kunye nokuhlonela uThixo. Kungoko ndingathandabuzi ukuba ivelisa inzuzo enkulu yokomoya kwimiphefumlo emininzi, nanini na ucinga ukuba kufanelekile ukuyinika uluntu. Ndihleli,

“Gqr Mhlekazi,

“Umkhonzi wakho obophelelekile

"UJohn Milner. »

 

 

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Nantsi inguqulelo:

.... Le mveliso ibonakala kum, ngokubanzi, imangalisa kakhulu ngokuzithoba kwayo, amandla ayo, ubuninzi beengcamango kunye nezinto, kunye nobunzulu be-theology elawula apho, i-orthodoxy yayo kunye nomoya wobungcwele obuphefumlayo. Yingakho ndingathandabuzi ukuba kuya kuvelisa inzuzo enkulu kakhulu kunye nemibono eyonwabileyo kwimiphefumlo emininzi, eya kuzuza kuyo xa uthatha isigqibo sokuyinika uluntu. Ndihleli,

Mhlekazi wam othandekayo,

Oyena mkhonzi wakho uthobekileyo nothobelayo. UJohn Milner.

Kowandibhalela wona ngoNovemba 15 olandelayo, uthetha ngolu hlobo: “Andinakuthetha kakhulu ngobungangamsha nokuchaphazela ukuhlonela ezi zityhilelo ngokubanzi. »

Oko kukuthi,

"Ukuthatha ezi zityhilelo ngokubanzi, andinako ukuziphakamisa kakhulu, okanye ndithethe nantoni na edlula ingcamango eluncedo endiyifumeneyo malunga nobukhulu bazo, okanye

ukuthantamisa nokuthanda ukuhlonela uThixo okwenza kube njengemvelaphi kunye nomlinganiswa owahlukileyo. »

Kwalo mbhali mnye, ebhalela umfundisi wesiNgesi wabahlobo bakhe nabam, wathi kuye: “Xa ubona umhlobo wethu osenyongweni uM. ngenye imini eSommerstown. Akunakwenzeka ukuba wena, okanye nawuphi na omnye umntu abe nokuhlonela okukhulu ngakumbi kwizityhilelo zentombi yakhe yokomoya, kunokuba ndinjalo; okanye uxhalabele ngakumbi ukuzibona zishicilelwe, ukwenzela ukwakhiwa kwabalungileyo, nokuguqulwa kwabakhohlakeleyo. »

Oko kukuthi,

Ukuba unalo, okanye xa unethuba lokubona umhlobo wethu wokwenene uM. G*., mnike imbeko yam okanye umncome ngentlonelo. Mxelele ukuba ndandifuna kangakanani ukumbona ukugqibelana kwam eSommerstown. Akunakwenzeka ukuba wena okanye nabani na abe nentlonipho enkulu kuneyam ngokutyhilelwa yintombi yakhe yokomoya. Akukho bani unqwenela ngentumekelelo ngaphezu kwam ukuzibona zishicilelwe, ukuze kuthuthuzelwe nokwakhiwa kwabalungileyo, njengokuguqulwa kwabangendawo. »

UMnu. Rayment, omnye umfundisi wesiNgesi, owayebalasele kakhulu ngolwazi lwakhe lwezakwalizwi, kwiphondo laseYork, wazibhokoxa ekuguquleleni umsebenzi esiNgesini, waza wandiqinisekisa ukuba akayi kunikela inguqulelo yakhe kwithala leencwadi . UMnu. Hodgson, uVicar-jikelele kaMg. Douglas, wayibiza le ngqokelela ngokuba yimfundiso yezakwalizwi efakiweyo: tlieologiu infusia . Ndingathetha okufanayo ngoMfundisi uDom Charoc, ngaphambi kweemonki zamaNgesi zaseBenedictine, kunye nomntakwabo  Mgr. uBhishophu waseBhafu; kaM. Lolimer, iBenedictine yesiNgesi; kaMfundisi uBawo u-Abbot waseLa Trappe, owayekhuphele iimonki zakhe, kunye nenani elikhulu lamanye amadoda ale mfanelo, ayenze imeko efanayo ngayo, kwaye atsale amaqhekeza ambalwa kuyo ngenxa yabo. ukusetyenziswa ngokukodwa  .

I-RP Bruning, i-Jesuit yesiNgesi, ibonakala idlula yonke into esiyibonileyo. Akapheleli nje ekunikeleni ubungqina kum, njengoko abanye abaninzi benzile, ukuba akazange afunde nantoni na ebaluleke ngakumbi okanye efundisa ngakumbi; kodwa ude afikelele ekubeni athi, ukuba zonke iincwadi ezilungileyo ezakha zabhalwa, ngaphandle kokukhuphela nayiphi na enye, bezilahlekile, bezinokufunyanwa zonke, kwaye ngenzuzo, kule kuphela: ziphelele, zazingasekho zizibhalo yaye zonke iimpawu ezixabisekileyo zenzululwazi efundisa ngokuziphatha, yemfundiso nezakwalizwi zazingasahlangatyezwanga kwezinye iincwadi; banokuphinda babuyiselwe kule, kunye nomdla ongaphaya. »

Oku kwanele, ndicinga ukuba, ukukholisa nayiphi na ingqondo ehlawulayo ngengqiqo, ukuba ayindim ndedwa uluvo lwam, malunga nomsebenzi ochaphazelekayo, kwaye ungekho kwizibane zam ezibuthathaka, okanye ngokugweba kwam ngasese. , ekumele ibalwe njengelize, endizimisele ukuyinika uluntu (1). Ngaphandle kokuba ke ngoko ndinqwenele ukuphindaphinda iikowuti, uluhlu lwazo oluya kukruqula ngokuphindaphindwa kweendumiso ezifanayo kwaneembono ezifanayo, ndiye ndacinga ukuba kuya kwanela ukongeza xa zizonke iileta ezimbalwa ezibhalelwe kum ngalo mbandela. Ngabalinganiswa ababalulekileyo ngokwaneleyo ukuba bafanele ingqalelo.

(1) Ukugqibela kwam ukubona uMgr. uBhishophu waseTréguer, ngaphambi kokufa kwakhe, wandingcikiva ngokungacebisi umrhumo ngoxa kwakukho amaFrentshi eNgilani.

 

 

 

Ileta evela kumfundisi ongumFrentshi, imbacu ePaderborn eWestphalia, eyayibhalelwe umhleli.

(Iprintwe kweyokuqala.)

Mhlekazi,

Ngokungathandabuzekiyo uya kumangaliswa kukufumana ileta evela kumntu ongamaziyo; kodwa umsebenzi onika umdla ongumhleli wawo, wanele ukundikhuthaza ngokuzithemba endizibhekisa kuwe ngqo. Emva kokuba ndifumene ithuba lokufunda iincwadana zamanqaku ezityhilelo zikaDade wokuzalwa kukaYesu, ngaphandle kwethemba lokuba nabanye kwilizwe endihlala kulo, ndinobuganga bokuzicenga ukuba uya kuvuma ukuthanda umnqweno onamandla endinawo. eyakho yonke incwadi. Noko ke, andifuni kuba ngumthwalo kuni, ngokucela ikopi kuni, mhlawumbi eningenakundifumanela yona, kungoko ndicela umfundisi uMama uAugustin, Trapist, imbacu ekufuphi neLondon, ukuba abhale, ukuba kunokwenzeka, lo msebenzi uthe, ngokunikela intlawulo yoko kufunwayo, nangona ndingesiso isityebi, njengababingeleli abaninzi abathinjiweyo. Kodwa ukuze lo nongendi ufanelekileyo angabi nako ukwanelisa iminqweno yam, angabi nako ukufumana umbhalo okhutshelweyo ngokulula, ndiyakubongoza ngokunyamekileyo ukuba umlungiselele indlela; Ke ukuba uthe akabafumananga abantu abafanelekileyo abanokubhala, ndiyakubongoza ngenceba ukuba uzisebenzise kulo msebenzi ulungileyo, yaye ndiya kukudlulisela kuni oko bekuya kuba yimfuneko ukuhlawulela le njongo.

Ngaphezu koko, Mhlekazi, into endikhokelela kweli nyathelo ayingokufuna ukwazi okungafanelekanga, ngakumbi umoya wokugxeka, kodwa umnqweno onyanisekileyo wokuzakha. Kwaye ukuba, njengoko ndikholwa bubulumko, akuyimfuneko

ukunxibelelana kuphela kwinani elincinane kakhulu labantu abakhethiweyo nabaziwayo ngokugqibeleleyo, ndiyakuthembisa ukuba uya kuba kule nkalo yogcino olucokisekileyo. Ndingathanda ukukwazi ukukunika ngakumbi iziqinisekiso ezikhuthazayo; kodwa ndingakubonisa kuphela ukucoceka kweenjongo zam zonqulo, nento endiyiyo: Umfundisi ongumFrentshi weDayosisi yaseRouen, umphambukeli ngenxa yenkolo yobuKatolika, imbacu ePaderborn eWestphalia, phantse iminyaka esibhozo, apho ndiqeshwe khona Imicimbi yecawa yabaphambukeli, kunye nomvuma-zinkonzo kuluntu lwaseFrench Carmelites.

Ndiyathemba, nangona kunjalo, kunye nenzondelelo yakho yokuzuza okulungileyo onesabelo esinjalo kukhuthaza ukuzithemba kum, ukuba uya kuba ulungile ngokwaneleyo ukuzalisekisa iminqweno yam.

Kolu lindelo lumnandi, ndinewonga lokuba ngentlonipho nembeko, Mhlekazi, umkhonzi wakho othobeke kakhulu kwaye othobelayo kakhulu,

 

J.-F. Vallée,

Umfundisi waseFransi, kunye namanenekazi aseBenedictine aseGokirchen, ePaderborn.

Paderborn, eWestphalia, ngomhla wesi-6 kuJulayi 1801.

Unobumba wesibini ofanayo. (Iprintwe kweyokuqala.)

 

Mhlekazi,

Ndinokukholwa kukuba ndinikiwe loo nto ndinibhalele yona, nempendulo leyo obonise ukundizukisa ngayo yathotyelwa; kungoko ndithatha inkululeko yokukubhalela kwakhona namhlanje ndicela ukuba usamkele isicelo sam, kangangoko unako; kuba, ngaphandle komnqweno ogqithisileyo endinawo wokuba nawo lo msebenzi uxabisekileyo ekuthethwa ngawo, andithandi ukukuphembelela ukuba waphule imigaqo yobulumko bobulumko. Ndiva ukuba isilumkiso kufuneka songamele phezu kokubonakaliswa kwento ethile elolu hlobo, kwaye oko

 

 

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ugcino olukhulu kufuneka lwenziwe ukuze kungathintelwa okanye kuncitshiswe okulungileyo okufuneka kuphume kulo msebenzi kuyilo loBulungisa obungcwele. Kodwa ulunge ngakumbi kunaye nabani na ukuba agwebe ngokufanelekileyo iingenelo neengozi; kwaye ekubeni unxibelelwano enilwenzileyo, ubuncinci kubantu abathile, ngalo msebenzi uxeliweyo, kubonakala ngathi lifikile ixesha lokuwuphathisa abo unokuba luncedo kubo, ndiphindaphinda izikhalazo zam kuni, ukuze usenokuba nenceba yokuboleka, ukuba unako, ikopi echanileyo kubantu abaya kuyizisa kuwe okanye bayizise. Andinakucela ukuba ukhuphele kunye nokulungiswa komsebenzi ngokwakho, ndikuqinisekisa ukuba zonke iindleko ziya kubuyiselwa, kunye nokuthunyelwa ngokukhuselekileyo kombhalo wesandla, ngejelo losapho oluhloniphekileyo lwe-spencer,

Ndongezelela nje kuwe ukuba unokuqiniseka ukuba ndiya kuyilandela ngokwenkolo imimiselo oya kuba nayo ukulunga ukundimisela kum, kwaye kubonakala kum ngathi ndineenjongo nje zokuvuselela isicelo sam kuwe. Ukuba uthe wafuna ukuyamkela kakuhle, uya kundivuyisa kakhulu; kwaye ndivakalisa umbulelo wam onyanisekileyo kuwe kwangaphambili, ndinewonga lokuba nazo zonke iimvakalelo zentlonipho nentlonipho,

Mhlekazi, umkhonzi wakho othobekileyo nothobelayo kakhulu,

J.-F. Vallée,

Umfundisi waseFransi, kunye namanenekazi aseBenedictine aseGokirchen, ePaderborn, eWestphalia.

Paderborn, ngo-Agasti 25, 1801.

 

 

 

 

Ileta evela kuTata u-Cugnac, uVicar-jikelele weDayosisi yase-Aire, ebhalwe egameni likabhishophu wakhe, kumhleli wengqokelela.

(Iprintwe kweyokuqala.)

 

Paderborn, ngoJulayi 16, 1801.

Nksk. UBhishophu wase-Aire, Monsieur, wabona, kulo nyaka uphelileyo, kwileta eyayibhalwe eNgilani, ingxelo ethandekayo enikelwe ngombhalo-ngqangi othetha ngemibono yonongendi waseFougères. Indumiso eyathi, ngokwale leta, yanikelwa emsebenzini ngabanye oobhishophu, kunye nangabantu abafundileyo nabanengqondo u-Abbé Barruel, yabangela ukuba uMonseigneur afune

ukwazi umbhalo othe, ngokutsho kobu bungqina, wawungaqulathanga kuphela izinto ezingaqhelekanga kwaye wenziwa ukuba uvuse umdla olambathayo, kodwa owawunika imibhalo epheleleyo, echukumisayo, yeemfihlelo ezinkulu kunye nokuziphatha okungcwele kwenkolo yethu ethandekayo.

Ngoko wafunda ngovuyo ukuba u-RP Abbé de la Trappe wayezise lo msebenzi unomdla evela eNgilani, yaye sele enconyelwe ligunya labantu abahloniphekileyo. Wakhawuleza wabuza kuRp abbot, owamboleka laa ndawo wayeyifake kumnatha; oko kukuthi, kuphela isiqingatha se-2. umthamo. Le bit, ithathwe embindini womsebenzi, ayikwazanga, njengoko ubona, isabeka uMonseigneur ekufikeleleni ekumiseni isigwebo kuyo yonke; kodwa ukufundwa kwale nxalenye incinane kwameyisela uMonsinyori ukuba umsebenzi onjalo, nokuba ngokubaluleka kwemiba ewuphathayo, okanye ngohlobo olutsha ekubhalwe ngalo, okanye ngegunya elinyanzelisayo apho umntu asekele khona konke oko kuhambele phambili apho. , yayifuna ingqalelo ekhethekileyo, yayifuna oko

UMonsignor ke ngoko unqwenela ukuba ikopi ithathwe kwikopi yeR.

UBawo uAbhot; kodwa lo mva akazange avume, kuba esoyika ukwaphula intembelo awayeyinikele kuye lo mbhalo-ngqangi ukuze afumane umbhalo. Obu bumnandi bunokuhlonipheka; kodwa uMonseigneur weyiselwa ekubeni imisebenzi yolu hlobo yenziwe ukuba ibe sezandleni zoobhishophu, phambi kwalo naluphi na udidi lwabathembekileyo; kwaye ekubeni lo mbhalo sele usaziwa, kwaye ufundwe apha ngabantu abaliqela babalinganiswa abahlukeneyo kunye nemigangatho eyahlukeneyo, phambi kukaMonseigneur, kwaye nangenxa yesicelo awayesenzile kwi-abbot ye-RP ukuba amnike ukufunda, ukholelwa ukuba unako, ude acinge ukuba kufuneka abe nayo ikopi yalo mbhalo, ukuze akwazi ukuyifunda, aphinde ayifunde, acamngce ngayo ngayo yonke ingqalelo kunye nokucamngca okufanelekileyo, kwaye aqonde, ngamaxesha athile,

Nksk. uBhishophu waseAire ke ucela wena, Monsieur, ukuba ugunyazise kuye, ngendlela yokususa zonke iintsilelo zikaBawo Abbé de la Trappe, ukuba uthathe ikopi kwikopi eyaziswa ngulo mva eLondon.

I-Monsignor ibonisa kuphela oku kuthetha njengeyona ilula kwaye ibiza kancinci; kuba ebeya kukhetha ukuba bekunokwenzeka, yaye ukuba iindleko bezingekho nkulu kakhulu, ukuzigcinela kuwe umbhalo ochanileyo ngakumbi kunalowo kaR.

P. abbot, apho iziphene ziphindaphindeka, kwaye ngamanye amaxesha ohlobo olufana nokuguqula intsingiselo okanye ukungabikho konke konke. I-Monsignor iya kuhlawula ixabiso elikhulu ukuze ibe nefundekayo, ihlaziywe kwaye ilungiswe ngumbhali, okanye, ukuthetha ngokungathandabuzekiyo.

kulungile, ngumhleli. Nangona kunjalo, akagxininisi kweli nqaku, kuba unqande ukwesaba, i-1st, ukuba iya kubangela ingxaki enkulu kunye nokulahlekelwa kwexesha; 2° ukuba iindleko, nokuba zezokubhala, okanye zokuposa, azibizi kakhulu. Uyakucela kuqala ukuba umthumele, ngokukhawuleza, isigunyaziso asicela kuwe, kwaye umnike, kwimpendulo yakho, ulwandlalo lwexabiso lekopi kunye nokuposa eHamburg. Kodwa okokuqala kuzo zonke iimeko kukuba olu nyango akufuneki lube lukhuni kuwe. UMonseigneur angathanda ukuba ukwazi ukumnika inqaku lezona nyani zibalulekileyo malunga nentombi engcwele, uDade wokuZalwa, kunye nezityhilelo azifumeneyo. Ulindele ngokupheleleyo ukufumana kumzimba womsebenzi, kwaye ngakumbi ebomini bakhe, iimpawu ngokubanzi eziza kwenza ukuba yaziwe; kodwa ukuba ubusazi abambalwa abambonakalisa ngcono ngakumbi, kwaye ukuba bebekwindalo yokongeza iqondo elithile lobunyani kwizityhilelo zonongendi ongcwele kunye negunya lomsebenzi ozixelayo, uMonsinyori ebeya kufunda kuwe, mhlekazi. , ngomdla omkhulu, kwaye uya kuyisebenzisa kuphela njengoko ubona kufanelekile.

Ngaba awukwazanga ukumnika, malunga nexesha apho u-Sister of the Nativity wayesazi ukuba umsebenzi owubhalileyo kufuneka uvele esidlangalaleni. Unongendi owafika evela eLondon uyasiqinisekisa ukuba akuyomfihlo kangako kweso sixeko, yaye uye weva iinxalenye zayo ezininzi zifundwa.

I-Monsignor ingathanda ukwazi elona xesha lichanekileyo lokufa kweNtombi Engcwele, ekuthiwa ilapha, eyenzeka kungekudala kunyaka ophelileyo. Ukuba ubukwazi ukufunda iimeko ezandulelayo, wamkhapha waza wamlandela, kwanonxibelelwano awayenokuba nalo ngentando kaThixo oko wawugqiba umsebenzi woBomi bakhe noweZityhilelo zakhe, ngakumbi ngelixesha ukufa kwakhe, ubuya kunyanzela uMonseigneur ukuba amazise ngako; kwaye ngokubanzi yonke into ephathelele umkhonzi ongcwele kaThixo, imibono yakhe, umsebenzi ozixelayo, nombingeleli ohloniphekileyo owayibhalayo, inomdla omkhulu kuMonsignor, ke yena uyazicenga ukuba uya kwanelisa ngobubele kangangoko unako. 

Ndicinga kakhulu kwaye ndinomnqweno omkhulu wokukwazi, Mhlekazi,

Umkhonzi wakho othobe kakhulu kwaye othobelayo, uAbbé De Cugnac,

UVicar General waseAire, kwikholeji yasePaderborn eWestphalia.

 

 

 

 

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Ileta evela kuM. Martin, uVicar General waseLisieux, eya kuM. l'abbé Guillot, owayemthumelele iincwadana ezilishumi elinesibhozo eziqulethe uyilo lokuqala lomsebenzi, emcela ukuba amxelele indlela avakalelwa ngayo ngaloo nto. UMnumzana Martin ngelo xesha wayeyintloko yabefundisi baseFransi ababetshintshelwe kwindlu eqhelekileyo yaseHeading, awayeqale wahlawuliswa ukuba ongamele kwinqaba yaseWinchester.

(Ishicilelwe kweyokuqala.) Mhlekazi,

Iincwadana ezilishumi elinesibhozo endizithumela kuwe zithunyelwe kum nguMademoiselle Magnarama. Ndingathanda ukuba umbhali aqale ngokuxela ngokwenyani amanqaku kaDade woZalo, kakuhle okanye kakubi, hayi ukuba ndiyabuthandabuza ubunyani babo, okanye ukuthembeka kombhali. Ngokubhekiselele kumsebenzi oqwalaselwe ngokwawo, ngaphandle kweenkcazo ezimbalwa kunye nemifanekiso embalwa ebonakala ngathi ingumbongo omncinci kwisifundo esinjalo, ndiyifumana ngokulinganayo ububele kunye nobuhle. Ngokuqhelekileyo, kulungele kakhulu ukukhanyisa ingqondo, ukuphakamisa umphefumlo, ukuyichukumisa kunye nokukholisa. Inikela ngokukodwa ezona ngcamango zibalaseleyo ngeempawu zobuthixo nezeCawa yamaKatolika. Ngaphandle kokungena kwiinkcukacha zezinto ezahlukeneyo eziquletheyo, yona Akukho nanye engaboniswanga apho ngendlela entsha, enomtsalane, nenika umdla kakhulu. Ngamafutshane, kuluvo lwam, ingxowa-mali etyebileyo neyintabalala, apho umntu anokutsalwa kungekuphela nje kwizinto anokuzizakhela ngokwakhe ngokufunda nokucamngca ngayo, kodwa nakwinto onokuyifak’ isandla ekuncedeni ngokomoya ngokulandelayo. .

Nantsi ke, mhlekazi, isishwankathelo sam emva kokuba ndifunde ngokukhawuleza ezi ncwadana ndithe ndazisiwe. Bekuya kunqweneleka ukuba lo mbhalo ushicilelwe, ukwenzela uzuko olukhulu ngakumbi lukaThixo nokulungelwa kwenani elikhulu lemiphefumlo.

Mna, ngokuqwalasela ngentlonipho, Mhlekazi,

Oyena mkhonzi wakho uthobekileyo nothobelayo,

UMartin, uVik. Gen.

Ukufundwa, ngoAprili 21, 1802.

Ndiya kuzivumela ukuba ndicamngce ngale leta: yayingengoDade Wokuzalwa kukaYesu ondinike amanqaku, njengoko uM. Martin ebonakala ecinga; yayindim, ngokuchaseneyo, owayebhale amanqaku ngento awayeyithethile kum. Ndawenzela la manqaku kuphela ukunceda inkumbulo yam, ukuze ndingashiyi nantoni na ebalulekileyo, nokuba kucwangco okanye kumxholo wezinto. La manqaku, anganelanga ngokwawo, ebengayi kuqondakala ngokupheleleyo kubafundi  .

Ngaloo ndlela, ukutsho ngokudlulayo nangamathuba athile, andizange ndikwazi ukuvelisa amanqaku okuqala, ababebonakala bewanqwenela abaninzi, ngaphandle kokwenzakalisa unobangela oqhelekileyo, kwa nenjongo yomntu owayendibek’ ityala ngokuyibhala nokuyitolika emva kokuba ndiyifumene. wayiva kakuhle, kwaye angayikhupheli, nditsho nokuba avelisele uluntu into eyayiza kuba yintsonkotha kuye. Ngapha koko, yayiyintsingiselo yakhe kunamazwi akhe ekwakufuneka ndiwanikele.

Ngokubhekiselele kwelinye, ungcikivo olufikela kwindlela yokuyila, mna ndikude nokukholwa ukuba akukho siphoso; kodwa ekugqibeleni, konke oku kungumbandela ococekileyo wokungcamla, phezu koko ndibone ukuphikisana okuninzi phakathi kwabafundi beencwadana, kangangokuba andizange ndicinge ukuba kuyimfuneko ukwenza utshintsho oluninzi kwidrafti yam yokugqibela.

 

 

INQAKU LOMHLELI.

 

Umqulu wesine uya kuphendula ngokugqibeleleyo kumnqweno kaMnu Martin, ekubeni uprintwa verbatim kwaye ngaphandle kotshintsho kwikopi echazwe nguDade ngokwakhe, kunye nomyalelo kunye nezihloko eziye wazimisa.

 

 

 

 

IZIMVO

KuBomi kunye neZityhilelo zomntu obizwa ngokuba nguDade of the Nativity, ncokola unongendi kwi-convent ye-Urbanists yaseFougères; elandelwa bubomi bakhe bangaphakathi,

ebhalwe kuye ngogcino lwezityhilelo zakhe, waza wazotywa eLondon, nakwiindawo ezahlukeneyo zokuthinjwa kwakhe, ngowe-1800.

“ Confiteor tibi, Pater, Domine cœli et terræ, quià abscondisti hœc à sapientibus et prudentibus, et revelasti ea parvulis. ( Mat. 11, 25; Luka 10, 21 ) Quæ stulta sunt mundi elegit Deus ut confundat sapientes. ( 1 Kor. 1, 27 )

 

Injalo ke isiphelo senyaniso emhlabeni, ihamba yonke indawo ikhatshwa  yimpazamo, apho ngamanye amaxesha ibonakala ingumgama nje ongephi, kwaye ngokufuthi kunzima nokuyahlula. Inyaniso yamava elihlabathi lokwenyama nelokuziphatha, unqulo ngokwalo olusinika ubungqina obuninzi kangangokuba bekungayi kuba lilize ukuhlala kuyo. Kodwa ukuba uThixo, ngenxa yezizathu ezithandekayo ngamaxesha onke, uye wavumela ukuba ingqolowa idityaniswe nokhula entsimini yakhe, usinike imiqondiso ethile ukuze siqonde enye kwenye, kwaye ukulunga kwakhe kunokuvumela ukuba umphefumlo othe tye utyhileke ukuba uthabathe ubuxoki. okwenyani, kwaye ngaphezu kwayo yonke loo nto ngokuqinisekileyo iba yinto yokudlala yempazamo: probate spiritus si ex Deo  sint.

Ewe, lunjalo ulungelelwaniso nokuyilwa kolungiselelo lwakhe, luya kunceda ubuthathaka bomntu, kodwa ngaphandle kokonakalisa isidima sokholo. Ngehambo encomekayo, uThixo unika into nganye kuphela umlinganiselo wobungqina obaneleyo ngenxa yeenjongo zakhe, yaye kweli nqanaba lobungqina kusoloko kukho okwaneleyo nokwanelisa nokuqinisekisa umphefumlo onobulungisa, ofuna inyaniso ngokholo olulungileyo, njengoko kukho. njalo ngokwaneleyo ukuba scandalize, imfama kwaye lukhuni nabani na ofuna ukuba. Qui quœrit legem, replebitur ab eâ, kwaye qui insidiosè agit scandalisabitur in eâ. ( INtshu. 32, 19 ). UPascal uthi: “Kukho elunqulweni ngokwaneleyo

 

 

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» izikhanyiso kwabo bafuna ukubona kuphela, kunye nobumnyama obaneleyo kwabo banesimo esichaseneyo. Kukho ukukhanya okwaneleyo ukubakhanyisela abanyuliweyo, nobumnyama obaneleyo ukubathoba. Kukho ubumnyama obaneleyo bokumfamekisa abo bangafanelekanga, nokukhanya okwaneleyo ukubagwebela isohlwayo nokubenza bangabi nakungxengxezeleka. ( Iingcinga , isahluko 18, iphe. 97.)

I-Church of J.-C., kwaye le yintetho yababhali-mbali bayo (umzekelo, uM. de Bercastel), ayizange ishukunyiswe yiyo nayiphi na into eyothusayo, nangona kunjalo, enobundlobongela, engazange ibhengezwe ngaphambili. ngabanye abantu abangcwele, okulunga kwabo okuxhaswe lubabalo, nezibhengezo eziqinisekiswa sisiganeko, bezisoloko zisakha umahluko ophawulekayo nehambo evakalala nentetho yobuqhophololo yabakhohlisi ababesoloko bekhohlisa indalo iphela. IQuoniam i-pseudoprophet œ ekhoyo emundum.

Sinobuganga bokuthi, luncedo oluthi kwezi meko zinzima ukulunga kobuthixo kufumaneke kukholo lwabantwana bakho abatshutshiswayo okanye abakwinqanaba lokutshutshiswa. Umothuko elisandul’ ukuba nawo eli Bandla, nelisakuba nawo, ngokuqinisekileyo awuzange ukhwankqise kancinci kumgaqo walo, ungekho nobundlobongela obuncinane ekubulaweni kwalo, okanye ube neziphumo ezibi kwiziphumo zalo, kunaye nawuphi na kwabo bangaphambi kwalo. Kwakhona isibhakabhaka, esavumela esi sibetho sokugqibela, njengoko sasivumela zonke ezinye, asizange sisilele ukuza apha kwakhona ukuze sincede abakhethiweyo baso, ngokubabonelela kwangaphambili, kunye nesibindi sokulwa nobundlobongela. ihlazo,  bhengeza.

Phakathi kwenani labantu abathi, ngamaxesha ahlukeneyo, bathethe ngayo ngendlela ebonakala incinci kakhulu ukuba iphefumlelwe, kukho enye, phakathi kwabanye, i-akhawunti yakhe, ixesha elide ngaphambi kokuba isiganeko , ixesha elide lilungisiwe  . ingqalelo yabo bonke abaye banolwazi ngazo, yaye baye babonakala kwiingqondo ezinengqondo neziqinileyo njengezobume bokumelana nazo zonke iintlobo zezilingo ezifanelekileyo, nokubonisa abalinganiswa bokwenyaniso abayalela intlonelo  .

Umgcini weemfihlelo zakhe, onoxanduva lokuzithumela ngexesha elimisiweyo, kwakukho kwilizwe lasemzini, njengoko wayebhemile, apho ndathetha khona kwiinkokeli zebandla, ngokulandela icebiso awayendinike lona. kwaye wayegxininise kakhulu kuyo ....

Umsebenzi ke ngoko ufundwe kwaye wavavanywa linani elikhulu labagwebi abanobuchule kunye nabakhanyiselwe kakhulu abavoti zabo ziya kuthatha ixesha elide ukuba zichazwe apha. Abaliqela kubo baye bandiqinisekisa ukuba baye bayifunda ngovuyo olukhulu nolona lwakha lukhulu, yaye baye bachukunyiswa yiyo ngaphezu kwayo nayiphi na enye incwadi okanye nayiphi na imveliso. Abaninzi baye bandicela ikopi, baye bayibhala phantsi okanye bayibhala phantsi ukuze ibe njengokucamngca kwabo okuqhelekileyo; abanye bathabatha izicatshulwa kuyo, kwaye bonke babonakala befuna ukuba ipapashwe, nangona uhlobo lwale mveliso ingaqhelekanga ayizange ibavumele ukuba bongeze kuyo isohlwayo segunya labo ngokuvumela amagama abo ukuba apapashwe ngokulandela izigwebo ezifanelekileyo. indumiso ephindaphindiweyo

ukuba bazenze ngomlomo nangokubhala. Ngokuqinisekileyo sinokuyiqhwabela izandla le ngqiqo yobulumko, eyoyikayo nangayiphi na indlela ukuthintela izigqibo zeCawa kwiingongoma apho yena yedwa unelungelo lokuvakalisa, kwaye asinakwenza ngcono kunokuba sizinze kulo mzekelo. thina ngabona malungu abalaseleyo eli Bandla, amgwebo wabo ubonakala ulungile njengoko ukunamathela kwawo elukholweni kungenakushukunyiswa, kwaye ihambo yawo engumzekelo ifanele ukunconywa ngandlela zonke.

Ngenxa yoko, nangona inani elikhulu kakhulu labavavanyi, phakathi koobhishophu ngokwabo, lalibonakala lityekele ekuqondeni impefumlelo kaThixo kunye nomnwe kaThixo kule ngqokelela, digitus Dei est hic, njengoko baye baphindaphinda ngokufuthi, yaye, kuhle ukuphawula, esi sivumo senziwa kum ngabefundisi nabanye oogqirha ababeqalise ngokuzityand’ igila kum ukucekisa kwabo phantse okungoyiswayo ukuvuma naluphi na uhlobo lwempembelelo entsha; nangona abo babona babonakala bengabalulekanga kangako, bengazange bazise ngaphezu kwezizathu ezingqina ngokwaneleyo ukuba ezantsi abakhange bacinge ngendlela eyahlukileyo, kwaye bachasa kunokuba bacacise kunokuba baphikisane, nangona kunjalo, ukuze bangalindeli nantoni na. le ngongoma eethe-ethe, Nam ndiwuyekele umgwebo wayo kuluntu, de iBandla lithethe, ukuba lithe layenza: Probate spiritus si ex Deo sint .

Ngoko ke ndizibekela umda kulwamkelo lwehlabathi lonke, nangaphandle kwesithintelo, esinikelwe ekulungelweni komsebenzi ngokwawo, othe wagwetyelwa ukuba unakho ukwenza okona kubonwayo, nokuvelisa emphefumlweni ezona ziqhamo zinqwenelekayo zoguqulo. , ukuhambela phambili nosindiso. Oku, ngokombono wam, ingongoma yodwa ekubaluleke ngayo ukuba uluntu luqinisekiswe kakuhle,  ngakumbi xa kuqwalaselwa ukuba kwicala lemfundiso, njengemigaqo yokuziphatha, yonke into yayibonakala ingaphandle  .

 

 

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ukufikelela kunye nokuchaneka okungqongqo. “Umsebenzi wonongendi kaFougères, endibhalele wona kutshanje ugqirha odumileyo nonjingalwazi wezakwalizwi (1), wabonakala kum unemfundiso yobuthixo ebalaseleyo, isimilo esithantamisayo nesinyulu, imigaqo emikhulu necacileyo yokuziphatha, yaye maxa wambi nomgwebo. lowo uvakalisa ngempefumlelo yakhe; Ndicinga ukuba ukuyifunda kuya kuba luncedo kakhulu kwabathembekileyo kwaye kuya kubanika incasa enkulu yesidima. »

(1) UBawo Pons, umfundisi werhamente yaseMazamet, kwidayosisi yaseLavaur.

 

Isigwebo sogqirha othile siyimbonakaliso yabo bonke abanye, yaye siye saphindwa kum ngamaxesha ahlukeneyo nangeendlela ezahlukahlukeneyo ngabefundisi bezakwalizwi abanolwazi oluphangaleleyo kwezi ntlobo zemiba (1); iye yaba sisikhalo sikawonke-wonke sabo bonke abefundisi, isiNgesi nesiFrentshi ngokufanayo, abaye bayifunda. Masikhumbule apha amagunya ahloniphekileyo endiwakhankanye kwingqokelela eyandulelayo.

(1) Phakathi kwabanye nguBawo Barruel.

 

Le voti zizonke, le ntlanganiso yezimvo malunga nendawo eyinkunzi indinika ukuzithemba okuqinisekileyo ukuba imveliso enqweneleka kakhulu inokuthi ngenye imini, ngokutsho kwesibhengezo isenzayo, ibe negalelo ngandlela ithile kuzuko lukaThixo nakusindiso. yemiphefumlo ekubonakala imiselwe yona. Ngamana isiganeko singahlangabezana nolindelo lwethu, kwaye ithemba lethu lingakhohliswa!

Bekuya kuba ke ngoko, kwakhona, lilize kakhulu ukungena apha kwinkcazo ende malunga nenqanaba lokholo ekufuneka ubani anike impefumlelo yale ntombazana ingaqhelekanga (1), ngezizathu anokuthi ubani anikezele ngazo okanye azichase, njengoko amathuba okuba ngaphezulu okanye ngaphantsi kwezi zizathu. UMoya oyiNgcwele, kholelwa kumbhali, uya kukhanyisela imiphefumlo yentando elungileyo kunaye nabani na kuzo zonke ezi ngongoma ziya kufunda, kungekhona ngenxa yokufun’ ukwazi ukufunda, kuncinci ukufumana into yokugxeka, kodwa ngenjongo yokufunda, ukwakha, kwaye ujabulele. Ewe, sinethemba lokuba, ukufunda nje umsebenzi, owenziwe ngokuthe tye okufanelekileyo nangobunyulu benjongo, kuya kwenza okungakumbi kubafundi abanjalo kunokuba kunokuthiwa; kunye nezo zifundayo bebengayi kuphenjelelwa bebeya kuba buncinci ngakumbi bubungqina ebebengayi kusilela ukukhuphisana nabo kwaye babenze buthathaka ngandlela zonke. Kuba kolu hlobo, kwaye ngokukodwa kwinkulungwane esiphila kuyo, bekungenakwenzeka ukuba baqinisekise abo bazimisele ukuba bangavumi nantoni na entsha kumbandela wezityhilelo ezithile kunye neziprofeto.

(1) Ukuqiniseka ngesityhilelo esithile akunakuze kuvelise ukholo lobuKatolika olufuna ingcaciso, kodwa ukholo oluthile lomphefumlo apho ukhoyo; yimfundiso yabo bonke abafundi bezakwalizwi, esekwe ekubhalweni nakumzekelo wabangcwele abaliqela bakudala kunye nomthetho omtsha. UAbraham udunyiswa ngokukholelwa kwimpefumlelo ekhethekileyo yobuthixo. Uyise kaYohane uMbhaptizi wohlwaywa ngenxa yokungakholelwa kwilizwi lesithunywa sezulu, kwaye siyabona ukuba uYesu Krestu ovusiweyo ubakhalimela ngamandla abafundi bakhe ngenxa yokungakholelwa kubungqina babafazi abangcwele ababebone emva kokuvuka kwakhe. Sulti kunye nentambo ye-tardi ad credendum! (ULuka, 24, 25).

 

UmKristu onengqiqo nothembekileyo kufuneka nangona kunjalo athathele ingqalelo ukuba ezi ziprofeto zidala zibhengeza ezintsha kude kube ngamaxesha okugqibela eCawe. Sisithembiso eso athe uThixo wasenza kuye, nesiphiwo sokuprofeta wanikwa amandla akhe njengemiqondiso, kangangexesha elingasikelwe mda. Ngoko ke ibiya kuba sisithuko kwabokuqala ukwala abanye ngaphandle kokuhlolwa. Amandla angcwele akabotshwanga nangaliphi na ixesha: konke awayenako ngaphambili, asenokukwenza; kwaye ngokuqinisekileyo asisiboni isizathu sokuba, xa iimeko ezifanayo zibuyayo, uBulungiseleli bobuthixo bungafanele buzihlaziye iziprofeto nezimangaliso zamaxesha okuqala, xa phambi kwamehlo ethu buhlaziya ngendlela emangalisa ngolo hlobo konke ukuzingisa kwabo bavuma izono zokuqala nayo yonke inkalipho. kwaye i ukungoyiki kwabafeli-nkolo bokuqala. Kodwa kukho iingqondo ezinocalucalulo kangangokuba ziye zathatha inxaxheba yazo ngokungenakuguqulwa kuyo yonke le nto; akunakwenzeka ukuba ukukhohlisa, kwaye mhlawumbi kuyingozi ukuyenza; kungcono ukuwayeka aphuphume  kwicala lawo.

Nokuba kusenokuba njalo, ukuba lo msebenzi kuthethwa ngawo uvela kuThixo, unokuwenza ngokupheleleyo ngaphandle kwemvume yabantu yaye uya kuzixhasa phezu kwayo nje yonke into enokwenziwa ukuze uwubhangise; ngokuba ngubani na onokucima amagama angenakucinywa abhalwe ngomnwe weNkosi kuyo yonke into ayenzayo? Ngubani na onokubeka umqobo ekuzimiseleni kwakhe? Ngoko ke kufuneka sithembele kuye yedwa, kwaye le nto ndigqitywe ngayo, ngaphandle kokufuna ukuyalela isigwebo sakhe nabani na, okanye ukuzikhathaza kakhulu malunga neengcamango ezingaqondakaliyo ezibonakala kwenye indawo kunzima ukudibanisa phakathi kwabo : I-necessariis unitas, kwi-dubiis libertas, kwi-omnibus charitas; utsho uBawo weBandla, uAugustine oNgcwele.

Kuyinyaniso, kwaye oku kukuchasa ngokuqinisekileyo kuya kwenziwa kum, ukuba kwiindawo ezininzi ukucinga kwam kubonisa indlela yam yokucinga ngenqaku, nokuba isihloko somsebenzi, kunye ne-epigraph, njl. , ndibonise ngokwaneleyo ukuba andiyihoyanga kwaphela, yaye ndiyigqala impefumlelo yonongendi njengento eqinisekileyo.

Andifuni ukuyifihla; hayi! kutheni, emva koko, ndingafanelanga ndonwabe

 

 

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Ngaba kukho nayiphi na inkululeko endiyinikwe ngabo bonke abagwebi bayo, kwaye mna ngokwam ndiyishiya kumfundi ngamnye, ukuba acinge ngayo oko akuthandayo? Kuyo yonke indawo, ndiyavuma, ndithethe ngokunyanzelwa ngokusondeleyo apho ubudlelwane bundibeke apho abanye bangazifumananga kule nkalo; kodwa njengoko kunokwenzeka ukuba bendiphazamile, kwaye ndiphazama koku, andiboni koko kucengwayo, okubaluleke ngakumbi kum ngokumalunga nabanye abaninzi abanobuchule ngakumbi, kwaye ngaphandle kwayo ngendingazange ndiwenze loo msebenzi. , isenokunyanzela umfundi ukuba acinge njengam, ukuba akakugwebi kufanelekile, yaye akaziboni  izizathu ezaneleyo ngoko akufundileyo. Wonke umntu unendlela yakhe yokucinga nokuthatha izinto, 

Ke ngoko, ekunikeni ingxelo kaDade ngesiphumo sezityhilelo zakhe, naphantsi kokujongwa kwempefumlelo yobuthixo, andisenabango lokumisela isigwebo soluntu ngalo mbuzo kunokuba ndibanga ukunqanda oko kweBandla kubungcwele. walo mphefumlo ulungileyo, nokumchaza kwangaphambili, xa ndimbiza ngokuba yiNtombi Engcwele . La mazwi, njengoko sisazi, akufanele athathwe ngokungqongqo. Yintoni na, kukuba ayindim ndedwa uluvo lwam malunga nenqaku, kwaye uluvo oluchaseneyo lukude nokuba nenani elifanayo leevoti. Kunzima ukuba kuthiwe kwakukho iimbono ezimbalwa eziphikisanayo phakathi kwabavavanyi.

Ndingagxekwa ngenxa yosasazo, ixesha elide ngakumbi kwiintshayelelo, ukuphindaphinda, njl. Kuloo nto nantsi impendulo yam, ndifuna ukuba yanelise zonke iingqondo: 1 ° Andithandabuzi ukuba ukubhala kwam kugcwele iimpazamo, malunga nayo yonke into yam; I-2 ° kuyimfuneko ukukhumbula ukuba akusiyo umbuzo apha womsebenzi owenziwe ukuhlekisa ingqondo nge-curious and academic dissertations, equlunqwe ngokwemigaqo yokunambitha. Luhlobo lwengxelo engqongqo neyokuziphatha, apho ubani ecinga ukuba, apho ubani ekholelwa ukuba uThixo ngokwakhe ufundisa abantu ngeenyaniso eziqinileyo, ezibekwe kubo bonke yaye zibekwe ngendlela yokuba ziqondwe ngabo bonke. , ukuze abalumkise abantu. ngokuchasene neempazamo kunye namahlazo amaxesha okugqibela, abasondelayo nabanokuthi mhlawumbi bengekude kuthi njengoko ubani enokucinga; i<em>Apocalypse entsha, ukuba ubani unokutsho njalo, apho, ngesihlandlo semvukelo yaseFransi, uJ.-C. ayityhilayo, ayityhilele umphefumlo onelungelo, yaye ukuze kulungelwe bonke, izandulela nemiphumo yolawulo olona tshaba lwakhe lukhulu, nalo lonke uthotho lweentshutshiso nezibetho ezimele ukuliphazamisa iBandla lakhe kude kube ngamaxesha okugqibela exesha lalo; nantsi isakhelo esikhoyo nalo lonke uthotho lweentshutshiso nezibetho ezimele ukuliphazamisa iBandla lakhe kude kube ngamaxesha okugqibela exesha lalo; nantsi isakhelo esikhoyo nalo lonke uthotho lweentshutshiso nezibetho ezimele ukuliphazamisa iBandla lakhe kude kube ngamaxesha okugqibela exesha lalo; nantsi isakhelo esikhoyo ekhoyo.

Ngoku, umntu uziva ngokucacileyo ukuba umsebenzi wolu hlobo awunakuba nantoni na kunye nenoveli yokomoya, ebhalelwe abaphengululi kuphela, okanye

imithetho yemfundo, endingenaso italente okanye ngathi ndiyayithobela. Xa uThixo esenza okuninzi kangangokuba ade athethe nabantu, ziintswelo zabo afuna ukubuza kuzo, kungekhona iminqweno yabo, iziyolo zabo okanye izinto abazithandayo. Ukubonakalisa ukuthanda kwakhe kubo ngendlela ayifunayo neluncedo kubo, ngaphandle kokuba benelungelo lokuhlab’ amadlala, okanye bafune ukuguqula nantoni na.

Kwelinye icala, ukuba sifuna ukunikela ingqalelo kuyo, siya kuvuma ngokulula, njengoko abaninzi benzile, ukuba akuzange kubekho ncwadi mhlawumbi ifuna ezinye izandulela ukuze ziqondwe kakuhle, nokuba, kude nokundenza ulwaphulo-mthetho olunye, umfundi onomdla wokwazi. ukufunda ukusuka ezantsi kwento, ndinombulelo kum ngokubeka phambi kwamehlo akhe ekuphela kwendlela yokugweba kakuhle.

Ngaphandle kobomi bukaDade, nokuba bufutshane kangakanani na, kufuneka buthathe indawo ethile, ngaphandle kweemeko ezingenakuthintelwa zemibhalo yokuqala eyabhalwa kwiminyaka engaphezu kwamashumi amathathu eyadlulayo, kwafuneka, ukuba ndimqinisekise, ukuba ndixoxe kwaye ndisombulule. bonke ubunzima bukaDade, okanye kunoko zonke izichaso kunye neengxabano apho idemoni yazama ukumphazamisa kwaye imphambukise kwiprojekthi yakhe, njengoko siza kubona.

Kwakuyimfuneko ukucutha yonke loo nto, uya kuthi? Kakuhle kakhulu. Ngoko siyenze kangangoko besicinga; kodwa kwakhona kufuneka uqaphele ukuba ungafinyezi kakhulu, kwaye uya kuvuma ukuba ufuna ukuzibeka endaweni yam okomzuzwana kwaye ubone into njengoko kufuneka ithathelwe ingqalelo. Kuba, ekugqibeleni, okanye kwafuneka ndithule

izichaso ezivela kuDade, okanye kutshaba lwakhe, obekuya kuba kukungathembeki okungaxolelekiyo; okanye ndifanele, ekubachazeni, ndinike ingxelo ngokuchaneka okufanayo kweempendulo ezinikwe kubo, kunye nezizathu, ubuncinane ezona ziphambili, apho ingqondo kaDade yayizolile. Mhlawumbi akayi kuba ngumphefumlo kuphela ekuya kuphakanyiswa kuye izichaso ezifanayo, kwaye ngubani onokumiswa apho, njengoko kubonakala kumbono owenziwe kum, kwaye yayikuphindaphinda kuphela kwabo; izizathu eziye zagqiba ekubeni mhlawumbi nazo zingagqiba, njengoko

 

 

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yenzekile ngaphezu kwesinye kulwazi lwam.

Kwakhona abagwebi abalungileyo baye bajonga kuzo zonke ezi zintshayelelo njengelitye elibalulekileyo nelisisiseko sesakhiwo sonke. Bawenza umcimbi ngokomlinganiselo

ukuba benze ngayo ngomsebenzi ngokwawo. Noko ke, ndiya kuvuma, ukuba kuzo zonke izinto makube kude okugqithileyo nokudinayo, konke oko kuya kuba ngamampunge; kodwa asilonani lamaphepha, kungenxa yezinto ezikuquletheyo esimele sigwebe. Intetho ende kakhulu isenokuba mfutshane kakhulu, kanye njengokuba imfutshane kakhulu isenokuba nde kakhulu. Nokuba yeyiphi na indlela, inyaniso isoloko ixela izinto njengoko zenzeke, hayi ngenye indlela. Ngapha koko, kumsebenzi onjengalo, andiboni ukuba isizathu sesibini okanye sesithathu, xa silungile, sinokusenzakalisa njani esokuqala. Ngumzekelo awawunikwa nguThixo ngokwakhe kwiindawo eziliwaka kwiZibhalo Ezingcwele,

Ayisiyiyo yonke loo nto, kwaye andinakuyigqiba le ngxoxo ngaphambi kokuba ndiyicacise kube kanye, ukuze ndingabuyeli kuyo, indlela amanqaku athatyathwe ngayo ingqokelela, kunye nendlela endibhala ngayo. Ngalo mboniso ulula nongenangqondo, ndiya kuthintela iwaka lemibuzo umntu anokuyibuza, kunye newaka lezigqibo ezibubuxoki anokuthi ubani azenzele; Ndiya kunikela ubulungisa endinabo kwinyaniso uThixo ayaziyo, kwaye ndiya kubeka bonke abaphathi becawa kunye nabo bonke abantu abaneenjongo ezintle bafikelele ekugwebeni ngengqondo ephilileyo kwinqanaba elibaluleke kakhulu kwinto leyo. Le yinjongo endihlala ndizibekela yona.

Ngoko ke ndiyabhengeza ukuba amabali abumba le ngqokelela akude ukuba anikwe igama negama njengomxholo womntwana wesikolo. Inkathalo yam yonke, njengaleyo kaDade, yayikukuzisa intsingiselo yakhe, endaweni yamabinzana akhe, awayesoloko engesosiFrentshi.

Uyakuhlala usithi bhetele kunam, ukuba uyandiqonda , wayesoloko esithi kum: Yiyo ke into esiye sazibhokoxa kuyo sobabini kulo lonke udliwano-ndlebe lwethu! yaye wandingqinela ngaphezu kwesihlandlo esinye ukuba ndaphumelela kuyo, ukusa kwinqanaba lokuba akukho namnye, ngaphandle kwangaphandle kukaM. Audouin, owayengamqondi kakuhle. Into endiyiphindayo kuphela ukuqinisekisa kancinci, ukuba kunokwenzeka, imiphefumlo eneentloni echaphazela ukungcangcazela kwinqanaba ngalinye endiye ndaphambuka kwintsingiselo yokwenene. Akukho mfuneko yokuthintela apha, okanye ukunkwantya, okanye iintloni kakhulu. Ukuba ngumsebenzi kaThixo, masiqiniseke ukuba uMlungiseleli wakhe uya kube elungiselele yonke into.

Kuyinyani nangona kunjalo ukuba kwizinto ezininzi bendinokuninzi endikubhalileyo phantsi komyalelo kaSister, ukuba umntu unokutsho njalo. Ngaphandle kwamazwi awawasebenzisayo ngokungathi avela kuThixo, nawayendiyalele ukuba ndiwasebenzise, ​​kwafuneka ndibhale inxalenye enkulu kakhulu, yaye kangangoko ndandinako, kuzo zonke ezi nkcukacha zinkulu zichukumisa iimpawu zobuthixo, indalo, iCawa, indawo yentlambululo-miphefumlo;

isihogo, isiphelo sehlabathi, isiphelo sabantwana abancinane, inguquko yethu, nayo yonke imibono athe uThixo wambonisa ngayo oonobangela neziphumo....

Ndiye ndabhala, kuba ndiziva kakuhle ukuba kuyo yonke le nto, akukho nto ilungileyo okanye amazwi anokuthi enze izinto ezinkulu azithethileyo kum, kwaye khange ndiyithembe inkumbulo yam ngokwaneleyo ukuba ndingazithembisa ukuba andizukushiya nantoni na ebalulekileyo. Ngoko kwafuneka ndibhale; kodwa, kude nokwandisa ezi ndawo, njengoko umntu enokucinga, umntu uya kubona, ukuba umntu uvile uDade ngokwakhe, ukuba andenzanga nto ngaphezu kokuthatha imvelaphi kunye ne-quintessence yento awayendixelela yona.

 

Ndinayo nangakumbi into andenze ndabhala ngayo emva koko nguMphathi (1), kuba efuna ukuzifaka engxakini, kwanyanzeleka ukuba abhale yonke into ethethwa nguSister ukuze azive ngaye, andibeke ngaphakathi. ukufikelela ekumxabiseni ngokufanelekileyo ekubhaleni kwam: nto leyo eye yasusa amagama amaninzi ekwakufuneka ndiwafinyeze. Kodwa iinkcukacha zoDade, nangona ngamanye amaxesha zinde kancinci, bezisoloko zibonakala kum zinomdla kwizinto, kwaye ngamanye amaxesha nakwindlela, kangangokuba kumanqaku amaninzi ndingathanda ukoyika ukuba ndenze into eninzi kakhulu kunokuninzi kakhulu. amanxeba. Ngapha koko, le yindlela yonke into eyenzekayo, ngakumbi malunga neenkcukacha ezibonakala zifuna ukuchaneka okuncinci,

 

1 UThixo wayivumela, ngokungathandabuzekiyo, ukuba inikele ubungqina obungakumbi benyaniso esisiseko yomsebenzi awawubona kwangaphambili ukuba kwakuya kufuneka uhlaselwe kwasekuqaleni. Oku kwanele ukususa amathandabuzo ngokholo oluhle; kwanele, kwaye ukulunga kukaThixo akusatyala nto.

 

 

Udade ngamanye amaxesha wayethetha ixesha elide ndingenzi nantoni na ngaphandle kokummamela ngenyameko, njengoko wayecebisa. Emva koko, emva kwemizuzu emithandathu okanye esibhozo echithwe ngolu hlobo, oko kukuthi, emva kokuba isifundo siphuhliswe ngokwaneleyo ngendlela yaso, mhlawumbi ndamcela ukuba ayeke, okanye wandibuza ukuba ndilungile.

 

 

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Wathi ke uBawo kum, Nantsi into endibonisa yona uThixo, ukuze uyiqonde into oyiyo. Kule nto ndibhale imigca esibhozo okanye elishumi kumanqaku

ndashwankathela, ndaza ndayifunda kancinane kuSisi, owandiphulaphula ngenyameko enkulu; wacinga ngam kanye kuloo ndawo: Kuhle, kulungile, Bawo , wayedla ngokuthi kum, Uyaphila apho, uthethe ngcono kunokuba ndenze; kodwa ngaphezu kwako konke ndiyabona ukuba ukwingqiqo yokwenene yokukhanya okundikhanyiselayo kunye nokundikhokelela ... Bambelela, kwaye ungaphumi kuyo xa usebenza kumanqaku akho ....

Maxa wambi wayedla ngokundixelela ukuba ndandingekafiki, yaye wawubona umahluko phakathi kwentsingiselo yokwenyaniso nendlela yam yokuyichaza; kodwa andikhumbuli ukuba wakha wandixelela ukuba ndihambe ngendlela echasene neyakhe. Phofu ke, yonke into yayilungiswa ngokufuthi ngokutshintshwa kwekota enye, yaye ndandiyeka kuphela emva kokuba endivumile, endixelela ukuba ndandikwingqiqo yokwenyaniso uThixo awayemnike yona. Ubuye wandixelela, ngamaxesha athile, ukuba oko akubonayo kwakuhambelana ngqo nemigca efanayo naleyo ndandiyithethile ngolo suku kwindawo enjalo kumyalelo wam ngesifundo esinjalo, kwaye ndandinokuthatha ithuba elifanayo. imibono ekubhaleni kwam, njl ....

Ke ngoko yonke into yayiphakathi kwam noDade kurhwebo oluthile lweengcinga kwicala lakhe, kunye nokuthetha kwelam; kwimbalelwano elolo hlobo, bendingafanele, bendingafuni ukucinga ngaphandle kwakhe, yaye ngokufuthi kum kwakubonakala ngathi ebeya kuba nobunzima obukhulu ekuvakaliseni iingcinga zakhe ngaphandle kwam. Yithathe ngendlela othanda ngayo, mhlawumbi uThixo wayenezizathu zakhe zokuyiyalela ukuba ibe njalo, ukuba nje wayenokubathoba bobabini. Nangona kunjalo ngamanye amaxesha wayecebisa kwawona mazwi kuye, kwaye ke kwakungasekho phando lusenziwayo, kwafuneka abaleke nalo. namathela kwixesha elimiselweyo, elalihlala lilelona licocekileyo nelona ligqwesileyo elinokusetyenziswa. Wayedla ngokuba nombono ngaphandle kwentetho; kodwa into eyothusayo kukuba maxa wambi kwakuye kwenzeke ukuba abe nentetho kunye nombono ngaphandle kokufanelekileyo. Yile ndlela kanye afika ngayo amanqaku okuqala abafundi ababebonakala bewanqwenela; kodwa kucace gca ukuba bekungayi kuba luncedo kakhulu ukuzivelisa, xa bezisekho; kwaye isizathu sikukuba bekungenakwenzeka ukuzifunda, kwaye kuninzi ukubona kuzo ulandelelwano oluthile, olunokufunyanwa kuphela ekubhalweni. Ngoko ke kuya kuba lula kakhulu ukucinga ukuba kukho konke oko umntu akufunayo, ukuze angakholelwa nantoni na umntu angenakukwazi ukuyichaza. wazalwa

inokunika naluphi na uhlobo lobungqina, kwaye imfuno engqongqo kubo isenokubonakala isiphumo sesithintelo esineenjongo ezingendawo kunengqiqo.

Ngoku kufuneka sicinge ukuba ukubhalwa kufuneka kwenziwe ngomoya ofanayo kunye noloyiko olufanayo lokuphambuka kwisicwangciso kunye neengcamango eziyinyaniso zoDade; kodwa ukuba, ngokubhala, ngamanye amaxesha ndiye ndathatha kwimigaqo yezakwalizwi, okanye nakwimvelaphi yam, ngokwaneleyo ukuba ndithathe indawo yento awayendixelele yona nendingazange ndikwazi ukuyibhala, ngelizwi nje, into emandimnike yona. Izimvo zomda ofanelekileyo kunye nophuhliso oluyimfuneko athe yena ngokwakhe wandiyalela ukuba ndibanike lona, ​​ndihlala ndilandela umkhombandlela ofanayo, ndiyakholelwa ukuba koku ndiwufezile umsebenzi wam kuphela, kude nokutenxa kuwo. kwaye nokuba konke oko kwakungabandakanywanga kwingcamango yokuyibhala, ndiqinisekile, ngaphandle kwamathandabuzo, ukuba yonke into yayibandakanyiwe kwingcamango yomntu owandiyalela ukuba ndiyibhale. Ngaloo ndlela ingqokelela, njengokuba injalo, imbono yokwenyani, ubuncinci kangangoko ndikwazile; amanqaku okuqala aya  kuwonakalisa nje isimo sabo.

Ngoko ke, ngokwesimbo sokubhala namagama, kukho izinto ezintathu ekufuneka ziqwalaselwe kule ngqokelela: 1° amabinzana athi abhekiselwa kuThixo ngokwakhe, okanye asetyenziswa njengavela kuJ.-C.; 2° iintetho zikaDade, endithi kuzo ndongezelele konke endimfundela kona, noko wakuvumayo; I-3 ° yonke into eyam, ndithetha yonke into endicinga ukuba iyimfuneko ukunika yonke umyalelo othile kunye nomlinganiselo othile kwicala elifanayo; kodwa konke oku kuthungelana emsebenzini kangangokuba kwizinto ezininzi ndingakufumana kunzima ukuzicalula ngokwam, kwaye ndicinga ukuba kuya kuba lula ngakumbi ukuba nabani na ongomnye enze impazamo. Ke ngoko, abo baye baqaphela kwaye bayachasa ukuba yayikuyo yonke indawo isitayile esifanayo kunye nokujika okufanayo, abafumananga nto inkulu kule nto, kwaye umntu akaboni ukuba yeyiphi intelekelelo engathandekiyo umntu anokuyithatha kuyo. Yindlela enye kuyo yonke indawo, yindalo kwaye ayinakwenzeka ngenye indlela; kuba eneneni kuko kuyo yonke indawo umoya omnye othetha kwangelo lungu linye; kuyo yonke indawo indoda enye ibhala, kwaye kwakungekho sizathu sokutshintsha isimbo kunokutshintsha isandla.

 

 

 

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Inqaku ke ngoko liya kuba, ukuthetha into ethile, ukubonisa ukuba andizange ndiyibambe kakuhle okanye ndinike izimvo zakhe, ukuba kwiindibano ezininzi ndiye ndaphambuka kwiimbono zakhe kunye noyilo lwakhe. Konke oku, ngaphandle kwamathandabuzo, kunokwenzeka kakhulu; kodwa ukuyibonisa kwakuya kufuneka ukuba uqale uyive ngokwakho: okwesibini, kuya kufuneka ubonakalise ukuba ubunokuyiqonda ngcono kunokuba bendinako; kude kube ngoko ingqondo eqhelekileyo ithatha isigqibo sokuba kufuneka sinamathele kum

ubungqina obunjengobo bodade, ngenxa yokuba konke ukucingela kuxhomekeke kulowo kungekuphela nje kuphela owakuvayo, kodwa naye owayefikeleleke kuye, waza wahlawuliswa yedwa ukuba atolike kwaye athethe kwizizukulwana ezizayo. . Ngoko ke akukho ndlela yimbi yokucel’ umngeni ubungqina bakhe ngaphandle kokubonisa ukuba uboleka ulwimi oluphikisanayo, oluchasa izihlabo zobuthixo, kwimithetho nezigqibo zeCawa; ekugqibeleni akafanelanga kulowo uyithethayo. Oku, ndiyakholelwa, yile nto indoda enengqiqo kufuneka icinge ngokwendalo ukuba ngubani onqwenela ukuzifundisa kwaye angaphikisani  .

Kuya phantse ukulandela, kunokuthiwa, ukuba wena ngokwakho uphefumlelwe, okanye ubuncinci ufumene uhlobo lokungaphumeleli koku kubhala, kunye neempendulo zakho  kwiNkolo  . Yena

nakuphi na okuya kulandela: kuba andithandi kungena ezicamangongweni ezinokwenziwa, nakweziziphumo ezinokutsaleka. Ndivakalisa kuphela ukuba, kude nokuba nalo naluphi na uhlobo lwelungelo kuyo, ndiyaziqonda ukuba andilufanelanga olo babalo; kodwa kwakhona, ndiya kongeza ngokuphandle efanayo kunye naivete efanayo, ukuba kokubi, ukuba sikhe sicinge ukuba izulu wabanika kulo mphefumlo ulungileyo ukuze kulunge yeCawa, kutheni, ngenxa yezizathu ezifanayo, asinakucinga ukuba kwakhona ebeya kunikela uncedo oluthile ngesisa, ngokukodwa, kumsebenzi omncinane walowo ambize ukuba amncede? Kubonakala kum ubuncinane ukubona into efanelekileyo kuyo; kwaye xa ndibonakalisa ezona zixhobo zingcolileyo, zibuthathaka, kwaye zidelelekile ngokwazo, Zezo kanye ezo zisetyenziswa nguThixo ngokuqhelekileyo kwiimeko ezinjalo, ezo akhetha kuzo zonke ezinye, kubonakala kum ngoko ukuba umntu unokukholelwa kum ngaphezu kwakhe nabani na. Siso kuphela isibizo endinaso saloo nto, isibizo ekuya kuba sisiphoso kakhulu ukundikhuphisana, nokuba akukho mntu uya kucinga nokundimonela. Yiyo yonke impendulo yam kule nto.

Andazi, ngaphezu koko, ukuba ukuvakalisa umsebenzi njengoko uphefumlelwe nguThixo, okanye ubuncinane njengomphumo weentembeko zomphefumlo lowo izulu liwuyalela yaye likholiswa, kufana nokuzibophelela ekuxhaseni konke oko esi sihloko sichukumisayo. Njengoko lingekho, kwaye akusayi kubakho gunya lingcwele kunelo likaThixo, okanye nasiphi na isigunyaziso esingcwele ngaphezu kweso siphuma

eli gunya, akukho nalinye apho umntu unelungelo lokufuna ubungqina obungqongqo ngakumbi ngaphambi kokuba anikezele: akukho nanye apho umntu kufuneka alumke ngakumbi ngokuchasene nokothuka; mhlawumbi yeyona nto singayi kuphoswa yiyo, kufuneka siyilindele, kwaye siyilindele, ngakumbi kwicala lodidi oluthile lwabafundi, abathi, ngaphandle kokuba nenkolo eninzi mhlawumbi, bangachaphazeleki kancinane ekukholelweni unobangela woko. UThixo wathomalalisa ngokuveliswa kolu hlobo, kwaye ngubani oya kuthwala ubumfama ukuya kwinqanaba lokuzicenga ukuba balwe ngenxa yengqondo kunye nokholo, ngelixa baya kukhusela kuphela izilangazelelo zenkolo kunye neenkanuko, ezihlaselwa ngumsebenzi kwaye zitshabalalise kuzo zonke. indlela.

Imeko yokuqala eya kufuneka ngokungathandabuzekiyo ngaphambi kokuba ukholelwe kule mpembelelo iya kuba lulwazi olusemthethweni, okanye inkqubo yecanonical, emisela ubunyani bayo. Noko yilento ndiyibuziweyo. Kule nto ndiphendula ndithi, kwimeko enjalo, akukaze kusetyenziswe into enjalo, engenakungqina nto, ekubeni okwenzekayo phakathi komphefumlo noThixo akunakuba luxanduva lobungqina bangaphandle, okanye ubudlelwane beemvakalelo zomzimba. Ngaloo ndlela lo msitho ubungayi kuba lilize; abazange baphembelele abantu nabuphi na obunye ubunyaniso bamazwi abo ngaphandle kwamazwi abo, okanye nawuphi na omnye umqinisekisi weziprofeto zabo ngaphandle kokuzaliseka kwabo. Kuyabonakala, eneneni, oku koko uThixo ngokwakhe abunciphisayo bonke ubungqina esikufanelekele ukubufuna.Propheta qui vaticinatus est pacem, cùm venerit verbum ejus, sawtur propheta quem misit Dominus in veritate. ( Yer. 28 ) Ngoku makhe sihlolisise, size sithelekise oko kubhengezwayo noko sikubonileyo nesikubonayo, andikholelwa ukuba le ngongoma kuthethwa ngayo inokungqinwa ngcono.

Ngokubhekiselele kwingqiniseko ekusafuneka ifuneke, yokuba izibhengezo ekuthethwa ngazo zenziwa kum phambi kokuhamba kwam, andinakukwazi ukuzisa apha ngaphezu kobungqina babavavanyi endathetha nabo kwasekuqaleni kokugxothwa kwam, kwaye banokungqina ukuba bafunda eJersey kwaezi zibhengezo ukususela ekuqaleni kowe-1792; ke ngoko kufuneka ukuba zenziwe ngaphambili. Ke bona abaseleyo, ukuba isibonelelo asindivumeli ukuba ndifumane ehleli, nokuba ngudade wabo, nokuba nguwuphi na kubantu ababenaye.

 

 

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ulwazi lwezibakala ezikhankanyiweyo, kukho zonke izizathu zokucinga ukuba awuyi kuba nanto iqinisekileyo ngalo mbandela ngaphandle kobungqina bam, obuya kuhlala bunjalo njengoko ndibufakile. Kuya kuxhomekeka kuwe ukubona ukuba kufanelekile, okanye akunjalo, ukuhoywa kwakho, ngaphandle kokulindela, ukuze uthabathe icala, isityhilelo esitsha, isityhilelo sobuqu sokuba uThixo akanatyala kuwe, kwaye mhlawumbi akasayi kukwenza . ayizukunika.

Ngaba ke ngoko uya kuhlala, ngenxa yeso sizathu kanye, ungenaso nasiphi na isizathu esikwaziyo ukukumisela, ngokungathi yonke into ixhomekeke kwimeko nje eyenzeka ngamabona-ndenzile, yasemzini ngokupheleleyo kwinyaniso yezinto, nengenako ukuzisa naluphi na utshintsho kuzo? Khawuphinde ucinge, mfundi, uze uqiniseke ukuba uThixo, oneendlela ezingaphezu kwenye zokuwomeleza umsebenzi wakhe, uya kuba ewulungiselele, ngokunikela ubungqina obuvela kuloo nto ngokwayo ngokunqongophala kobunyaniso bangaphandle. Ewe, ndinobuganga bokukuqinisekisa, ukuba ndinombono ofanelekileyo ngayo, kusemsebenzini ngokwawo apho umntu uya kufumana obu bungqina buzimeleyo kuzo zonke izinto ezisesikweni zangaphandle, obu bungqina bungenakuguqulwa okanye bube ngumgunyathi; Ndingatsho ukuba umfanekiso wobuThixo, uhlala wanele ukulungisa ingqondo elungileyo, umphefumlo othe tye, ofuna inyaniso ngokuthembeka,Rationalabile obsequium vestrum. ( Roma 12, 1 )

Sele siyithethile, nayiphi na incwadi ezizisayo phantsi kophawu iyingozi wempefumlelo, kufuneka ubuncinci, ngenxa yentlungu yokudelelwa nguwonke-wonke, anike ubungqina obuxhasayo obunobungqina besizathu esivakalayo. Akukho nto ilungileyo ngaphezu isicelo ukuba umntu wenza ngayo: kwakhona, ndiyayiphinda, ndiyabuganga ukukuqinisekisa ukuba umntu uya kwaneliseka kweli cala, ngokufunda umsebenzi ngokwawo, ingakumbi ukuba, endaweni s Ukumisa kwi ezimbalwa ezikwanti. iinkcukacha, ngemizuzu embalwa kunye neemeko ezikhethekileyo, apho izichaso kunye neempendulo azinakuphela, siqwalasela kwiimeko kunye nombono omele uqwalaselwe kuwo. Ukuba, sigqunywe amehlo, sivavanya ukuba izinto ezinkulu ezithethwa apho zivela phi na, kunye negama apho ziphela khona, sithini isimilo somntu othethayo, umsindo wokulunga kwakhe, ithoni ayithathayo, isakhelo esivezwayo. , iintlobo ezahlukeneyo kunye nokuphakama kwezinto ezizamkelayo, indlela eziphatha ngayo, kwaye ngaphezu kwayo yonke isiphelo esiyiphakamisayo kuyo, ngaba iya kubonakala ingokwemvelo kwaye isengqiqweni? Ngaba kuya kubonakala kunokwenzeka ukucinga ukuba imveliso enjalo ingaba ngumphumo wemibono engahambelaniyo, engafanelekanga, engenamandla, engaqinisekanga, kwaye ihlala iphikisana, ye-ignoramus eshiywe yedwa, kwaye ayikwazi ukuzifumana ngokwayo akukho ndlela yaneleyo, akukho sizathu esilinganayo isiphumo esinjalo; kuba emva kwayo yonke loo nto, asiyonto yokwenza intelekelelo engento, okanye yokuhlawula ngamazwi imveliso enjalo inokuba sisiphumo seengcinga ezingahambelaniyo, ezingafanelekanga, ezibuthathaka, ezingaqinisekanga, nezisoloko ziphikisana, zomntu ongenalwazi oshiywe yedwa, kwaye engakwazi ukufumana kuye nayiphi na indlela eyaneleyo, nasiphi na isizathu esihambelana nesiphumo esinjalo; kuba emva kwayo yonke loo nto, asiyonto yokwenza intelekelelo engento, okanye yokuhlawula ngamazwi imveliso enjalo inokuba sisiphumo seengcinga ezingahambelaniyo, ezingafanelekanga, ezibuthathaka, ezingaqinisekanga, nezisoloko ziphikisana, zomntu ongenalwazi oshiywe yedwa, kwaye engakwazi ukufumana kuye nayiphi na indlela eyaneleyo, nasiphi na isizathu esihambelana nesiphumo esinjalo; kuba emva kwayo yonke loo nto, asiyonto yokwenza intelekelelo engento, okanye yokuhlawula ngamazwi ingabalulekanga.

Xa lo mphefumlo ulungileyo uya kuba namabhongo njengokuba uthozamile kwaye uneentloni; xa enokuba nobuchule njengoko ethobekile kwaye ekude kubo bonke ubuqhetseba; Ekugqibeleni, xa kuya kuba nokwenzeka ukudibanisa kunye, kwaye kumntu omnye, iimpawu kunye nezimo ezingenakulinganiswa kwaye ziphikisana ngokucacileyo njengoko umntu kufuneka amcingele, ndiyabuza ukuba le ndibano ingaqhelekanga, mhlawumbi umntu akazange abone. umzekelo, unokumnika ulwazi angenako ukuba nalo, nobunzulu bezakwalizwi obungaphaya kwamandla akhe. Masiphendule; kwanele ukuba nentando yokulahlekisa uluntu ukuze luphumelele kulo mkhamo ongaka?

Ngaba uThixo unokukuvumela oko, yaye ngaba bukho na ubungqina? Masifune phakathi kwabakhohlisi nabaqhathayo elithe ihlabathi lalahlekiswa ngabo, umntu othe, ngaphandle kwezinye iindlela zomntu, wavelisa kwangolo hlobo umsebenzi onokuthelekiswa nalo, kunye nothotho lobungqina obunokungena kulo. parallel... Yintoni eqinisekileyo kukuba andazi nto, kwaye abavavanyi baye bavuma kum ngaphezu kwesihlandlo esinye ukuba akunakwenzeka ukuyifumana. Aba babhedengu, ndiyavuma, bazinikela ukuba bangabathunywa bakaThixo. Kuze kube ngoko, akukho nto inokuba lula, kwaye yonke into iyalingana macala omabini; kodwa bubuphi na ubungqina abasishiyileyo bothumo lwabo? Le yeyona nto kanye ithatha isigqibo kwaye yeyiphi ekufuneka ihlolwe,

Ngaba siya kuba nakho ukusabela, ukuyicacisa le nto, kwintliziyo ethambileyo efudunyezwe yincindi yothando lobuthixo, kwintelekelelo ephilileyo nephakanyiswe ngokucamngca okunzulu ngeenyaniso ezinkulu zonqulo?... wenza ingcamango enjalo kum? Mhlawumbi oku kuphakanyiswa kuvela kumandla endalo, okanye kuvela kuThixo, okanye kuvela kumtyholi: akukho mhlaba ophakathi. Ukuba ivela kumandla endalo yodwa, sixhasa ukungoneli kwayo ngenxa yezizathu esele zichaziwe. Ukuba ngumsebenzi wezandla zikaThixo owuchulumancisayo kwaye uwuqhube, oko kuqikelelwa kuthi ngokwethu. Ukuba iphuma kumtyholi, siyabacela abo bacinga njalo ukuba basixelele: 1Okanjani uThixo, ongazange avumele isiphoso ukuba soyise inyaniso ngenxa yenyaniso.

 

 

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vumela lo mphefumlo ulungileyo ukuba ube rhoqo, kwaye ngaphandle kwesiphoso sakhe, ukhohliswe yinkohliso eyonakeleyo kunye nokudlala kotshaba olukhohlakeleyo njengoko onobuqili; bekungayi kuba njalo na ukuthi kuye apha nomfundisi wezakwalizwi ofundileyo: Nkosi, ukuba ndithe ndalahleka, nguwe ondibeke apho; ewe, inkohliso yam ivela kuwe, ekubeni uyivumele, usazi ukuba mna ngokwam andinakuyiphepha: Domine, si error est, à te decepti sumus .

2 Siyambongoza ukuba asixelele ukuba umtyholi, onqwenela kangaka ukusilukuhla, nokusigcina kwimigibe asisalele kuyo, athe wathabatha apha kanye ngendlela echaseneyo nekhondo lakhe eliqhelekileyo, ngokusibonisa indlela asenza ngayo. ezona ndlela ziqinisekileyo zokufumanisa imigibe, ukuzigcina kwimigibe yalo nakubo bonke ubumnyama nakubuchule bokuyila kwayo. Ngaba oko bekungayi kuba kukusebenzela ukutshabalalisa umsebenzi wakhe nokubhukuqa ubukhosi bakhe , njengokuba uJ.( Mat. 12, 26 ) Kwakhona, kuxhomekeke kubo ukuba basicacisele konke oku. Mna ke, ndiyavuma ukuba le ngcaciso ayinakufikelelwa ngokupheleleyo. Oko kufunyanisiweyo kufuna inzame yobukrelekrele engeyiyo yohlobo lwam ingengawo amandla am. Kodwa yintoni egqibayo ukubonisa into engenakwenzeka okanye kunoko ukungabinakwenzeka kombono ongakhange ubonakale uvumelekile ngokwawo okanye kwimiphumo yawo, eya kuba yimbi, njengoko simele ukuba siye saziva, kukubonakalisa okunokwenziwa kwizikhundla ezahlukeneyo awazifumana ekuye uDade, kunye nothando olwahlukileyo awathi walufumana, kunye nalo lonke

kubonakala kungahambelani noko kuphakanyiswa kwentliziyo okanye ingcinga umntu angathanda ukuyicinga ngayo.

Kuba, 1° ukususela ekuqaleni kobomi bakhe bangaphakathi, uDade uyangqina kuthi, kwaye oku ngokukaJ.-C. ngokwakhe, ukuba wayeneminyaka emibini enesiqingatha kuphela ubudala, eneentsuku ezimbalwa ubudala, xa wayebabalwe. umbono wakhe wokuqala. Noko ke, akusayi kutshiwo ukuba ngeli xesha ukuqonda kwakhe, naziphi na iingqondo zakhe zazikwazi ngokwemvelo ukuphakanyiswa okanye ukuphakanyiswa, ekubeni zazingekabikho yaye kunokuba ngumbuzo wemo kunokuba ziphakanyiswe. Umntwana, kule minyaka, unombono obhidekileyo wobukho bakhe, akakrokreli ukuba uThixo: siya kuvuma ngokulula.

2° Uyasingqinela ukuba kwizinto ezininzi uthetha ngokungaziqondi, ade azibone enyanzelwa ukuba asebenzise amabinzana antsingiselo yawo angayiqondiyo, nangona isoloko intle. Ndiyabuza kwakhona ukuba ukuphakanyiswa kwakhe kwavelisa  umphumo onjalo.

3 ° Usixelela ukuba amaxesha amaninzi wazama ukuba yedwa wayengenakukwazi ukufumana uthando olunjalo, ngokuzama ukumkhulisa.

intliziyo okanye intelekelelo yakhe, ngaphandle kokuba imizamo yakhe iphumelele ekubonakaliseni ukungabi namandla kwakhe.

4° UThixo wamenza ukuba ngequbuliso alibale ngezinto awayefanele azilibale, ngoxa ezo zinto zazilityelwe zabuyela kuye ngolungelelwano ngomzuzu wokubhalwa kwazo, njengoko siza kubona.

Ukongezelela kuko konke oku yindlela ekhwankqisayo athetha ngayo ngokusebenza  kukaThixo kumandla omphefumlo womntu, njengendlela yokuwuqonda kwimigudu elilize ethi maxa wambi idemon izame ukuwenza umgunyathi, yaye masixelelwe. yonke le nto inokwahluka njani kwimpefumlelo ebizwa ngokufanelekileyo, kwaye yintoni enokuthi isekelwe kwabo basaya kuqhubeka bebona kuyo yonke le nto kuphela isiphumo somfanekiso  .

uphakamile, okanye kungentliziyo yobungcwele bokuhlonela kwakhe? Kulungile, kuyancomeka, kukwafuneka ukuba ulumkele ukukhohlisa; kodwa umntu akafanele, phantsi kwesi sizathu, anikezele kwi-pyrrhonism engafanelekanga, egatya inyaniso xa izibonakalisa kwaye izenze ivakale: i-pyrrhonism ehlala ihlekisayo, ebuqilini bayo, ingathethi i-quibbles, ayiyi kuyanelisa nabani na, kwaye inokwenzeka kakhulu. ukuphazamisa ingqondo ethe tye, ebona kuyo ngaphezu kwesiseko esithile sokholo olubi, isoloko isoyikeka emehlweni obulungisa.

Ke ngoko kufuneka sivavanye okuhle kunye nokubi; kwaye ungahambi, ngenxa yokoyika ukukholelwa kakhulu kwinqaku elinye, ukuya kwelinye elichaseneyo, ngokwamkela ingcamango engenakuthenjwa, apho bekungenakwenzeka ukuba uphume ngaphandle, kwaye oko kuya kufuna ukukholelwa ngakumbi kunoko. itheko.

Kanjalo, inani elikhulu kakhulu labavavanyi lachukunyiswa kakhulu zizo zonke ezi ngqwalasela, kangangokuba lacinga, njengam, ukuba umsebenzi, othatyathwe uwonke, wanikela ubungqina boncedo lobuthixo, omelele ngokungenasiphelo kunobo bonke ubungqina nobunyaniso. eyayinokunikwa yona; kuba igunya lomntu linokongeza elingakanani na kokaThixo, lakuba libonakalalisa? Ngoko ke bakholelwa, njengam, 1 ° ukuba umntu akanako ngokunzulu ukuthelekisa indlela ebethayo kunye

Inkcazo eneenkcukacha apho uDade wayebhengeze inguqu yethu kunye neziphumo zayo, ngaphezulu

 

 

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kwiminyaka engamashumi amabini ngaphambi kokuba kubonakale, kunye neengcamango eziqhelekileyo nezisoloko ziyingozi, ukuba iipolitiki zoluntu ziye zakwazi ukwenza oko kwezinye izalathisi ezithatyathwe mhlawumbi ngenxa yentsilelo yemali, okanye kwinkqubela phambili yonqulo nokuziphatha okubi. 2 Babekholelwa, njengam nje, ukuba umntu wayenokucinga ngokunzulu ukuba umntu ongenalwazi wayethetha yedwa, okanye ngokwezicatshulwa ezimbalwa ngaphandle kokulandelelanisa, ezivela kwiZibhalo eziNgcwele, ukuba ube evile. kwaye ucamngce ngexesha lokuphumla, ngewayekwazi ukunika, ngaphandle koncedo oluvela phezulu, uthotho lwezicelo njengolufanelekileyo kwaye lube yimpumelelo kwiitekisi angakhange azifunde, kwaye ngaphandle kokuwela kuko nakuphi na ukutenxa, apho abachazi abanobuchule abasoloko bekhululwe, kwaye oko kuya kunika intombazana eninzi, nangona ifundile ukuba ifanele ukuba njalo. Umsebenzi wakhe, bathi, uya kuba ngowona umangalisayo osele uvele kolu  hlobo lomculo.

3°. Ekugqibeleni bakholelwa njengam ukuba bazixela kwangaphambili kwaye babhengeza izinto ezininzi, kwaye kwakudala ngaphambi kwesiganeko, yayisisihloko esaneleyo sokukholelwa kwiziganeko esazivakalisa ngolwazi olufanayo, kungekhona ukuba nzima ngakumbi ukubona ikamva. okwangoku, kunokuba ndibone ngoku kwixesha elidlulileyo ... Noko ke, ukugweba umsebenzi ngokubanzi, kungekhona ngeenkcukacha ezimbalwa ezizimeleyo, bacinga, njengam, ukuba indlela eyodwa kunye ekhanyayo apho imiba emininzi eyahlukeneyo. , yaye bonke  ababenameva njengoko babezukile, baphathwa sesi sityhakala, basenokwenza kakuhle intshukumisa eyaneleyo yokukholelwa kwimpefumlelo yakhe, ngaphandle kwayo nayiphi na enye ingcamango; kwaye uninzi lwabo lwalungoyiki ukuqhubela phambili okoNgamafutshane, babona kwingqokelela mhlawumbi umsebenzi kaThixo okanye  umntsonkotha.

Kwaye eneneni, ukuba izityhilelo zikaSaint Bridget zithathwa njengeziyinyaniso ngoopopu abakhulu abaliqela (1) kunye nebhunga lilonke, ngenxa yokuba besibhengeze ngaphambi kwesiganeko esohlwaywa kwamaGrike ngamaTurkey, ngaba asinakukwazi ukungqina isibhengezo esiqinisekisiweyo sesinye isiganeko? zohlobo olufanayo nokubaluleka okufanayo? Yaye ukuba sasicinga ukuba sifanele sifune uncedo lobuthixo ukuze sicacise umsebenzi kaMadeleine de Pazzi, uCatherine de Siena, uThérèse, uGertrude, njl. ignoramus yayinokuvelisa into encomekayo ngakumbi, ngaphandle koncedo oluvela phezulu?... I-nigma engaqondakaliyo, kwaye bavuma, njengam, ukuyijonga njenge- Apocalypse entsha., nombhali njengomntu ovuswe ngokungaqhelekanga nguThixo ukuze abhengeze ebantwini isiphelo seCawa de kube ngamaxesha okugqibela exesha layo, nokubalumkisa kwiimpazamo namahlazo ala maxesha okugqibela. Nantso intle kakhulu isihloko endiyinike yona kwasekuqaleni.

(1) uGregory XI, u-Urban VI, iBhunga laseConstance, nabanye oopopu abaliqela, iikhadinali noobhishophu.

 

Ndiza kuthetha ngakumbi, kwaye kuye kwafikelela kwinqanaba lokuba lowo phakathi kwabo wayesoloko ebonakala engoyena ungathandekiyo kuyo, nothe ngaphezu kwabo bonke waqala ngokubonakalisa inkcaso engakumbi kuyo, wayengenakuyinceda kodwa ukuqonda kuyo into ekhethekileyo . intsebenziswano, ubabalo olukhethekileyo, awayecinga ngalo ukuba uThixo wayenokukuphakamisa ukuqonda nawo onke amandla obukrelekrele ale ntombazana ilungileyo ukusa kumlinganiselo ophakamileyo kunoluhlu namandla omoya womntu;kwaye ukuze bangayivumi impembelelo ngokwayo. Kodwa ngaba besingenakubuza ukuba oku bekungayi kuba kukuvuma into enye na ngendlela eyahlukileyo kancinane? Abaliqela, ubuncinci, bayikholelwa kwaye bayithetha ngaphandle komsitho; kwaye ndicinga, njengabo, ukuba, kule ngcinga, umahluko phakathi koDade kunye namadoda aphefumlelweyo ngokwenene uya kuba yinto ethile. Siziva ngokwaneleyo, ngaphezu koko, ukuba bekuya kuphela ukuhlehlisa ubunzima kwaye ungayisombululi, ukuba sichaze nabani na ngaphandle kwale ntombi engcwele umsebenzi ochaphazelekayo. Kuba ekugqibeleni, nawuphi na omnye, umalathisi wayo, ngokomzekelo, akayi kuphinda abe nalo olu ncedo lukhethekileyo, olu lubabalo lukhethekileyo lukaThixo., nto leyo esinyanzelwa ukuba siyiqonde. Ah! ukuba wayenokuphumelela ukuza kuthi ga kweli nqanaba eyedwa, ngaba ngenene oko bekuya kuba sisizathu sokucinga oko? Ndicinga ukuba umntu unako ukuthanda nokwenza isidima ngenxa yakhe; kodwa ulwaphulo-mthetho yenye into, kwaye andiqondi ukuba yakha yabonwa ngaphambili. Ngoku, andazi ngokupheleleyo ukuba loluphi uhlobo lomdla ebenokuwufumana lo mlawuli ekuyileni ubuqhetseba obufanele ukubhengezwa kuyo yonke imithetho, kwaye anokuqinisekisa ngayo ukuba, ndiyabulela kuThixo, akaziva ekwazi. Ke ngoko iya kuba ngumbuzo kuphela wokubona ukuba nguwuphi na, kuDade okanye kum, umntu angathanda ukucinga ukuba uphefumlelwe; ukuba  sikhetha.

Ngaloo ndlela sele iqinisekisiwe kwileta, kwaye kwindawo yokugxothwa kwam, esi sibhengezo sikaDade, ukuba umsebenzi wakhe yayikukudala amadabi.

izimvo phakathi kwabaphengululi. Kodwa konke oku kunokuqukunjelwa kule nkcaso yeemvakalelo kwindawo enye yokuphefumlela,

 

 

 

 

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Ngokoluvo lwam, le nyaniso isisiseko, kukuba uThixo uye wanelisa ngokwaneleyo kwelinye icala oko kusileleyo kwelinye: Ndithetha ukuba uye waxhaswa ngamandla zizizathu ezisisiseko waza watsalwa kubunzulu bezinto, umsebenzi awawubona kwangaphambili. uya kuswela naluphi na uhlobo logunyaziso. Kude nokukhalaza ngaye nabani na, kude nokufumana isiphoso kule hambo yoBulungiseleli bobuthixo, ndiyifumana, ngokuchaseneyo, ifaneleke kakhulu lowo imisebenzi yakhe isoloko ixhaswa yiyo, ngaphandle kwemfuneko okanye iingcebiso, okanye nayiphi na indlela yomntu.

Kwabanye, ndivumele ukuba ndiyiphinde ekugqibeleni: Andizange ndikwazi ukungcamla uluvo lwabavavanyi abandixelela ukuba nanini na uThixo engakhange atyhale ubungqina bobungqina ukuya kwinqanaba apho bunokuhamba khona  , kukuba wenza. akafuni ukuba sikholwe (1). Ukuqheleka kwesi siphakamiso kwenze ukuba ndikrokre kum, kwaye nokuba yingozi, kwiinkalo ezininzi ekungekho mfuneko yokuba zichazwe apha; kuba zininzi kangakanani na izinto esimele sikholwe kuzo kwaye ubungqina bazo abutyhalwa kude kangangoko umntu anokufikelela  !

(1) Kwaye kwakhona, obo bungqina bunamandla bufuneka kwisibakala esingummangaliso kunesinye isibakala; ukuba akunakwenzeka ukungqina oko, kuba kuya kufuna ubungqina bendalo efanayo, njl. njl. Imiphumo yazo zonke ezi ngxelo imbi kakhulu.

 

Bendisoloko ndikholelwa ukuba ngokwemihlaba yokuthembeka, ubuncinane ngokohlobo oluthile lokholo, kusenokubakho okungakumbi okanye ngaphantsi, nokuba iqondo lobungqina nokuqiniseka okwaneleyo kubulumko bobuthixo bufanele banele ubulumko bomntu. Isizathu sihlala singenambulelo kwaye sisidelela xa sinobuganga bokubuza umbhali waso ngaphezu kokuba enqwenela ukusinika sona. Oku koko sele ndikubonisile, ngaphandle kokuba ngokuqinisekileyo kubonakala isiphumo esingenakubalelwa nakuwuphi na omnye unobangela ngaphandle koThixo, ngaphandle kokuwela kwiingxaki eziphazamisayo umntu angenako ukuzikhupha kuzo. Yonke into iyangqinwa apho. UThixo usenokuba unezizathu zakhe zokungaqhubeli phambili, kuxhomekeke kuthi ukunamathela kuzo. Emva koko ubonisa omnye weminwe yakhe kwiliso elikrelekrele nelithambileyo; okwaneleyo ukuqonda isandla sonke,I-Digitus Dei yile. Umtha omnye ophumayo efini wanele ukubonisa ilanga, ngaphandle kokufuna ukuvela kubo bonke ubukhazikhazi balo nako konke ukubengezela kwalo.

Kodwa kuyo yonke le nto, kuya kuthiwa, Ongendawo akayi kukholwa yiyo.

AbangenaThixo! Thixo olungileyo!  Undibiza  baphi abantu apho? Kodwa ngaba

benziwe bakholelwa into enje, kwaye ngaba umsebenzi onjalo wenzelwe  bona? Ngaba bade bakholelwe ukuba kukho uThixo, abangahloneli Thixo?  Ngaba kuya kuthatha

UThixo makangaphindi enze imiqondiso, Kuba oko akumkholisi kongendawo

uyakholwa okanye  uzamkele  ? kwaye siya kulinda, ukuze sizimisele, ukuze  sibone

ukutyhilwa kwentombazana ehluphekileyo engenalwazi kwaye, yintoni embi, inkolo, ilandelwa kwaye ivunyiwe phakathi kwamadoda angazange akwazi ukukholelwa kwimimangaliso okanye ekuvukeni kweJC?

Hayi, awuyi kulindela, mfundi othembekileyo nongumKristu; Bendiya kukuthuka xa ucinga njalo. Yonke into iyisisiqinisekiso sam sokuba uya kumvumela ongendawo, athabathe esakho isandla; Ukudibanisa ubulumko nokulula, ukulandela ingcebiso yeVangeli, uya kunika ukufunda la mabali iqondo lenkolelo ehambelana nombono oya kuba uwufumene kubo, kwaye uhlala uphantsi kwegunya eliphilayo elinelungelo lokulawula. ukholo lwakho. Eli linyathelo oya kulithatha, ngaphandle kokufuna ukuthintela okanye ukuyalela isigwebo  sabanye.

Uyoyika ukwenza impazamo: unyanisile. Kukwangenxa yokuba ndiyoyika ngenxa yenu nangenxa yam ukuba, ngelixa ndisalindele isigqibo senkundla engenasiphoso, ndingathanda ukukwazi ukuphendula kwangaphambili kuzo zonke iingcamango zobuxoki obusoloko uchaswa ngazo umsebenzi kaThixo. apho ndixela kwangaphambili ukuba kusafuneka sijongane nale. Kungenxa yokuba ndifuna owona mdla kuni ndiwubhekisa kuni, ekuqukumbeleni, eli cebiso libalulekileyo loMoya oyiNgcwele: Unoyolo lowo uwafundayo aze aweve amazwi esi siprofeto, nokugcina enyanisekile oko kubhaliweyo kuso. imfutshane, kwaye sisondele ekuphumezeni. Beatus owenza ngokusemthethweni kunye nophicotho

verba iziprofeto hujus, et servat ea quœ in ea scripta sunt; tempus enim prope est. ( ISityhilelo, 1, 3 )

Ushwankathelo:

Ndivile ngomntu ongaqhelekanga endifanele ndikholelwe ukuba uThixo uyisebenzisayo ukuze anifundise, kwaye endinixelela iimfihlo zakhe kunye namabali akhe: Ndaba ndiyamqonda ngokwaneleyo ukuba ndingaphambuki kuye. Wandixelela ukuba nguThixo ondinike lo msebenzi; Ndasebenza kuyo kangangoko ndinako, kwaye ngokungathi kufuneka ndinike ingxelo ngayo. Ekugqibeleni, ndabonisana nabefundisi beCawa ngokomyalelo endayalelwa ngawo ukwenjenjalo; kwaye ukuze ungaphoswa nantoni na malunga nawe, ndikucacisele nje iivoti endiziqokelele ngokuthembekileyo. Ixhomekeke kuwe ngoku

 

 

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ukubona nokugocagoca ukuba sisiphi na isigwebo eniya kusenza ngako, nehambo enifanele niyilandele;

 

ISIPHELO.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

IMINYAKA ESIBHOZO ILIDLU

YOMDADE WOKUZALWA.

 

I-Urbanist yenkolo yaseFougères,

Ukuze asebenze njengeSongezelelo kuBomi bakhe nakwiZityhilelo. (Ngumhleli ofanayo, 18o3.)

“Deus docuisti me a juventute mea, et nunc pronunciabo mirabilia tua.

( INdu. 70:18. )

QUALIS VITA, TALIS MORS.

 

 

 

 

INTSHAYELELO.

 

Siye sabona kumanqaku ongezelelweyo endigqibe ngawo ingqokelela yoBomi kunye nezityhilelo zomntu obizwa ngokuba nguSista woMzalo, ukuba ukubhubha kwale ntombazana ingcwele, endibhale ubomi bayo de ndahamba, kubhengezwe eLondon. ngasekupheleni kuka-1800, okanye ekuqaleni kuka-1801, ngeleta

ukuba umntu othile waseSaint-James, eNormandy, wabhala ngako kumfundisi wecawa yaloo dolophu, ngoko wayehlala eChelsé, kufutshane nekomkhulu laseNgilani.

Kwakusele kudlule iminyaka eliqela ndifumana naziphi na iindaba ezivela koonongendi basekuhlaleni baseFougères, endandiphathiswe bona. Oku kuthuleka kukhwankqisayo emva kweeleta ezingaka zivela kum, kwandenza ndoyike ngaphezu kwayo yonke into yokuba abo babini bangene emfihlakalweni kaSisi bongezelelwe kwinani labo ndafunda ngokufa kwam kususela ekumkeni kwam nokuba, ngaloo ndlela, andisayi kubuya. baye bahluthwa ngonaphakade ubungqina babantu ababini kuphela ababenobungqina kuluntu kunye nenyaniso yeenyaniso endizibeke phambili kwingqokelela, kwaye konke oko, ngemvume yabo kunye nemithandazo yabo, yadlula phakathi koDade. nam.

Uloyiko lwam lwalusekwe ngcono, njengoko impilo yaba nongendi babini yayisoloko ibonakala ibuthathaka kakhulu kum nangaphambi kokuba baqwenge imiqobo neentsizi ezazinokuwenza buthathaka ngakumbi, kwaye mhlawumbi ziwutshabalalise ngokupheleleyo. Kwesi sikhundla, konke okwasalayo kum, ngoxa ndandibathandazela, yayikukulinda ngoxolo ukuba uThixo ngokwakhe wongezelele ngandlel’ ithile eyona ndlela ibalaseleyo yendalo yokuqinisekisa isizathu endandisoloko ndikholelwa ukuba sesakhe, yaye ngakumbi ukususela ngoko. iivoti eziluncedo nezininzi ziye zandiqinisekisa kakhulu kuluvo lwam lokuqala.

Ekugqibeleni, ngasekupheleni kukaFebruwari 1802, ndafumana le leta ilandelayo evela kuMam Superior, eyandenza ndaqonda ukuba uThixo, onyamekela isandla sakhe usijongile.

ngokungapheziyo kuzo zonke iziganeko nakwiinkcukacha ezincinane zomsebenzi wakhe, ngokungathandabuzekiyo wayenezizathu zakhe zokundigcinela oonongendi oyena mntu wayenolwazi oluphangaleleyo ngawo wonke umcimbi, yaye ngokukodwa amangqina amabini abafundi boncwadi ababewagqala njengawona ayimfuneko. Nasi isishwankathelo sale leta, eyafundwayo, yaze yakhutshelwa nenani elilungileyo phakathi kwabathandi bengqokelela:

Fougères, ngoJanuwari 29, 1802.

 

"Mhlekazi,

Ekugqibeleni ndifumene iindaba ezimnandi ezivela kuwe ngomnye wogxa bakho osandul' ukufika evela kwilizwe ohlala kulo, kwaye ozithathele kuye imbopheleleko yokukukhupha ngokuthanda kwakho. Ndixhakamfula ngolangazelelo eli thuba ukuba ndinibhalele ngesandla esiqinisekileyo, yaye ngendilifune kamsinyane, ukuba bendingoyiki ukunazisa ngokufa komntu esaziyo ukuba ninomdla okhethekileyo kuye. Ndifuna ukuthetha ngoDade ohluphekayo woZalo.

Le ntombazana engcwele yafa ngoSuku lokuNyuleka ngo-1798, emini. Wayenolwazi lwakhe kude kube ngumzuzu wokugqibela, kwaye izinto ezininzi zindenza ndikholelwe ukuba wayenesityhilelo somhla neyure yokufa kwakhe. Kwiiveki zokugqibela zobomi bakhe uThixo wamyalela ukuba athi, kweyakhe

 

 

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ukwabelana, nabantu abaliqela, ngezinto ezithile ezichukumisa izazela zabo, yaye aba bantu bangenelwa kuzo kakuhle. Naye wandixelela oko, enolwazi olunzulu oluvela kuThixo kuphela. Awunakuyithelekelela indlela awandichukumisa ngayo. Ngokukodwa, ixela kwangaphambili izinto ezininzi kum, ezinye zazo sele zizalisekile kwileta, kwaye indenza ndibe nethemba lokuphumla ngexesha elifanelekileyo. Ndiyakuqinisekisa ukuba into awandixelela yona indenze ndaneliseka kwaye ndanoxolo olukhulu emphefumlweni wam.

Ngaphambi kokuba agule wayebhale izinto ezininzi. Ebudeni  beentsuku zokugqibela zokugula kwakhe wawacela ngolangazelelo onke amaphepha akhe awayewabeke ezandleni zomfundisi awayembonise uThixo ukuba amkhokele kwiindlela zakhe ezingaqhelekanga. Lo mfo wayethembise ukuba uza kuzidlulisela kuwe, kwaye ngenxa yokungabi nathuba liqinisekileyo, wayesoloko ezigcina. Wazithumela, ekugqibeleni, nge-secular kummeli wakhe. Andazi ukuba yintoni ebenze babaleka bengasetyenzwa babekwe ngocwangco. Okuqinisekileyo kukuba zifundwe njengoko zifundwa ngabantu abaninzi, nakumaphondo ahlukeneyo. Ngenxa yoko le mibhalo yamva iye yasasazeka ngokubanzi, kwanengxelo yobungcwele bakhe  .

Ngoko ke ndiye ndabuzwa kakhulu malunga neziphumo ezincinci ebezizezakhe. Ndicinga ukuba ungavuya ukuba nayo, ndikugcinele umsesane wakhe womtshato, awafa ngawo. Andiyi kulithumela kuni, hleze ilahlekwe; kodwa kamsinya nje ndakuba ndifumene imbeko novuyo lokuphinda ndinibone, ndoninika lona, ​​kunye nezinye izinto ezimbalwa ezilolu hlobo, ukuze nibe novuyo kuni.

 

(1) UMam Superior wongeza isigqubuthelo sakhe somthendeleko, kunye neenwele zakhe, njl. Ndafumana nencwadi encinci yobuthixo awayedla ngokuyifundisa abatshana bakhe ngexesha lokuhlala kwakhe nomntakwabo, njengoko sasihlala.

masithi: ngumqulu omdala, oqulathe iincwadi kunye neevangeli zonyaka, ngesiFrentshi, kunye nemithandazo. Ndiya kukuxabisa konke.

 

 

Ndiyanibongoza ke, ukuba nindithengele umsebenzi wakhe, nowenu, ukuba kunokwenzeka; oodade wethu nabo banethemba lokuba kwangaloo nceba. Ukuba ishicilelwe, yaye iBandla likuvumela ukuba ifundwe, uya kuba wenza kakuhle ukuba uze nemibhalo emininzi xa udlula apha; ngokuqinisekileyo kuya kubakho ikhredithi eninzi. Buya ngokukhawuleza, sonke siyayifuna....

PS Ndilibele ukukubonisa ukuba uDade wandixelela amaxesha amaninzi, kwimizuzu yakhe yokugqibela, ukuba wayesifa ngentlungu yokungakwazi ukuthetha izinto ezithuthuzela kakhulu nakubani na kwiCawa.

» Ndinewonga lokuba, njl. »

Le leta, eyayibonakala ixhasa leya yaseNormandy, yayingenako ukufika kwangexesha ukuze ikhusele ingqokelela kunye nokundixhasa kuhlobo oluthile lwecabal eyayiqalisa ukuqhambuka endaweni yokuthinjwa kwam. Phakathi kwenani elikhulu lababukeli beencwadana, kwafunyanwa eLondon abantu abambalwa abangazange bathathe umcimbi kwicala elifanayo.

Emva kwenkcaso ngokubanzi ekubonakala ukuba ayizange ibe nayo yonke impumelelo eyayithenjisiwe, kwenziwa iinzame zokuphakamisa amathandabuzo malunga nokunyaniseka kweengxelo zam; bade bathi uSister of the Nativity ngumntu nje ocingelwayo, endimenza athethe nantoni na endiyithandayo; ukuba, ukuze ndonwabise ixesha lam lokudla umhlala-phantsi, ndiqambe uthando lothando ndisebenzisa igama lonongendi ekusenokwenzeka ukuba akazange abekho.

Ingcamango yayibubucukubhede njengomgibe endiya kuwubeka ngenxa yokukholelwa kuluntu; kwaye ekubeni uhambo olufutshane kuphela ukuya eFransi bekuya kuba yimfuneko ukufumanisa ubuqhetseba bomgibe, omnye kufuneka acinge ukuba uhambo olufanayo, kunye nokuqinisekiswa kwendawo, kunokwanela ukuthethelela ukuziphatha kwam kunye nokundiphindezela ngokupheleleyo kwisityholo. Ngoko esi sityholo sabonakala sicaphukisa gqitha ukuba singafanelana nalo naluphi na uzuko kubantu abanengqiqo nabanyanisekileyo; kodwa kwanakufuneka ndivume ukuba umchasi walo msebenzi wavela, owathi, ngaphandle kwenjongo embi ekholelwa ukuba wenza kakuhle (1), wabonakala ebeka umqobo onzima ngenye indlela ekusasazeni kwawo, nekufuneka ndingayihoyi. siza kubona.

(1) Ukukholelwa ukwenza kakuhle . Inyaniso mayiliwe, kuba kufuneka ivavanywe. Imisebenzi yolu hlobo ayinakwamkelwa ngaphandle koviwo, kwaye ndiyavuma ukuba abaphathi, ngakumbi, abanako ukuhoya kakhulu.

UTata ude Fajole, umfundisi-ntsapho wenqila yenqila yaseRennes, wayengomnye wabokuqala ukufunda iincwadi zam zokubhalela. Ndaba nenyhweba yokuwazisa kuye (ngoko ndandiqala ukuya emkhosini) kwisiqithi saseJersey, ngowe-1792; ngaphandle kwamazwi ambalwa, wayefumene yonke into encomekayo; wade wandibongoza ukuba ndizigcinele ixesha elizayo; kodwa ukususela ngoko kuye kwabonakala ukuba wayeyitshintshe ngokupheleleyo ingqondo yakhe kweli nqaku, kungekho mntu unokuthelekelela ukuba kutheni.

Ngasekupheleni kowe-1799, uM. l'Abbé wemka

 

 

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ukusuka eScarborow, apho wayekhweliswe khona, esendleleni eya eLondon; ekufikeni kwakhe kweli komkhulu, ndacinga ukuba ndimbophelele ngokumnika ingqokelela yemibhalo-ngqangi yeevoti zabefundisi kunye nabanye abafundisi bezakwalizwi endathetha nabo kwalapho, ngexesha lokuhlala kwam apho. Khange ndiyilindele into eyenzekileyo, kwaye andizange ndothuke ngakumbi kunaxa ndazifumana, xa ndeva uAbbé de Fajole endibhengeza ukuba, ngokucinga kwakhe, uphando lwakhe kunye neengcebiso awayezifumene, njl.njl., wayetshintshe ngokupheleleyo. uluvo lwakhe kwingongoma ekuthethwa ngayo; ukuba ndenze impazamo enkulu ngokubonisa nabani na iincwadi awayeziyalele ukuba ndizifihle; ukuba bangaze bamkelwe ngubhishophu waseRennes, ngelixa yena eya kuba ngumongameli jikelele; Ekugqibeleni,, awaphinda wayiphinda kum waza wandicebisa ngumfundisi wabahlobo bam endandidibene nabo  .

Ndazanelisa ngokuphendula kubo bobabini ukuba ndandiya kulumka kakhulu ukuba ndingathobeli umyalelo owawubonakala kum usekelwe phezu kwesizathu esingenako ukundinyanzela ukuba ndenze njalo; ukuba ndandikuhlonela kakhulu ukukhanyiselwa negunya labo babegweba ngenye indlela, nababefanelwe ngokufanelekileyo ukuphulaphulwa;  ukuba

M. de Fajole wayengazange abe nelungelo lokundalela ukuba ndithethe ngomsebenzi apho oobhishophu kuphela abangabagwebi abazelweyo, nendandizimisele ukubabonisa; Ke ngoko ke bendingenako ukwenza isithembiso ebebecinga ukuba ndisinike sona, ngaphandle kokulaphula ilizwi lam kwaye ndingcatsha unobangela nentembeko ebendiyiphathisiwe. Zazinjalo ke izigqibo zam neempendulo zam, ezaye zomelezwa kakhulu ziimbono zoogqirha ekuye kwaboniswana nabo ababefunde imveliso kaDade.

Noko ke, kufanele kuvunywe ukuba ndafumana inimba enkulu kunye nosizi ngenxa yesi sithintelo endandingasilindelanga, kwaye ngaphandle kwamathandabuzo yayikukuba ndizomeleze ngakumbi ndize ndiphume kwihlazo lam lokuba isibonelelo sobuthixo sandivumela ukuba ndifumane, ngokuchanekileyo. ngeli xesha, iileta endinike ingxelo ngazo, nendifundise oko ndimele ndikucinge ngekhethe elibi okanye iindaba ezingeyonyaniso ebebethembele kuzo ngokungathandabuzekiyo.

Ndayithanda indlela endiziphethe ngayo esi siBonelelo sincomekayo ngokwenene ngokubhekiselele kwabo bazincamayo ekunyamekeleni. Iyakuba yintoni isiphelo sikaSister ohluphekayo waseMzalweni, ndatsho ngaphakathi kwam? Ngaba ke ngoko kufuneka asoloko etshiswa licebo lendoda enye ngokuchasene nabo bonke? Lowo wayengowokuqala ukunciphisa imveliso yakhe eluthuthwini waguquka ngokunzulu ngokungxama kwakhe kunye noluvo lomlingane wakhe; Ngaba, ngengcebiso yendoda engatshatanga, ndingazibhenca kwaloo ntlungu inye, emva kokufezwa, kubonakala kakhulu, kuko konke awayekubhengezile? Akuyi kuba, ndiyathemba, okanye ubuncinane iCawa kuphela eya kwenza isigqibo, kuba nguye yedwa endibhenela kuye  .

Ngaloo ndlela ndaqiqa ngaphakathi kwam, ndaza ndaziva ndomelezwa ngakumbi kukufundwa kweencwadana zamanqaku ekwakufuneka ukuzincama kwazo. Into ekwakufuneka ndiyenze yayiphosa amehlo am phezu kwayo okomzuzwana ukuba ndive into endixelela ngaphakathi: Qaphela, oku akwenziwa ukuba kutshiswe ... Ndilindele yonke impumelelo yeli shishini kuye yedwa oye wahlala ebonakala ngathi. ndibe ngumbhali wayo.

Ngaba siya kukholelwa ngoku ukuba uDade wokuZalwa wayelindele ulwazi lwayo yonke le nto sisandul' ukuyithetha, kwaye wayeyibhengeze phantse iminyaka emithathu ngaphambi komsitho, esiya kuthi thaca, ngokwenyani, umlingisi ophambili, athe yena zange ndakubona okanye ndazi?

Wayenoonongendi ababini ababhala phantsi, ngowe-1797, isilumkiso awayesifumene kuyo. Lo mbhalo wawubhalelwe uM. Leroi, umfundisi waseLa Pellerine, kwidayosisi yaseMaine, ngelo xesha engumalathisi wayo, owandinika yona ngo-1802, nowathi wothuka njengam xa weva eli bali liphuma emlonyeni wam. ingcaciso. Siza kuthetha, kamva, ngokubhaliweyo, okugqibezela ukuqiniseka kwam ukuba ndandilungile ukuma ndiqinile ngokuchasene nomyalelo owawuza kundibangela inguquko ezininzi, ukuba ndandinobulula bokuthobela.

Ngokuqinisekileyo oku kukudubula kwisitayile sale ntombazana ingaqhelekanga, okanye endaweni yalowo umsebenzisele inzuzo yethu. Kungale ndlela ke, xa efuna, atshitshise yonke into echasa amacebo akhe kunye nomsebenzi wakhe, ngokunxibelelana nabo abenza bathethe ngezikhanyiso ezingenakufikelela kuzo iipolitiki zoluntu, ezingakwaziyo nokuphendula kuzo. nantoni na.

Ukuba intombazana ehlwempuzekileyo, engaqhelekanga kuyo yonke into eyenzekayo ehlabathini, ibhinqa elihlwempuzekileyo elingenalwazi elicinga kuphela ngokuzilungiselela ukufa,

ukanti yazi okwenzekayo, okanye kunoko kufuneka enze ngaphandle, ngokunxulumene nomsebenzi wakhe, ngaphaya kweelwandle nakwindawo ekude apho angenalunxibelelwano; makaxelelwe ngesigwebo indoda ayibizayo engayazi, neyaseLondon okanye eScarborow; ukuba ibhengeze kwiminyaka engaphambili, ngaphandle koloyiko lokuphikiswa, kwaye oko

 

 

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isiganeko siphendula isilumkiso esisifumana kuso, mfundi, ucinga ntoni? Ukungakholwa kuya kusinda njani nako? kwaye ngaba siya kuba siphosakele xa sijonga le meko njengobungqina obutsha obugqibezela ukubonakaliswa kwenyaniso yempefumlelo yakhe?....

Ndifike eFougères ekuqaleni kuka-Agasti 1802, ndaqala ngokufunda kwaye ndifunde umsebenzi ochaphazelekayo kubo bonke abaseleyo boonongendi base-Urbanist, kwaye emva kolu fundo bandinika, kuzo zonke izibakala ezikhankanywe apho, ubungqina esibufundileyo. Pha. Baye bandinika ezimbini ezinkulu

songezelele iincwadi zokubhalela ekusafuneka sizibhale, nebezibhalelwe nguSisi ukuba ndizinikwe xa ndibuya.

Ngaphambi kokuza kuloo nto, kwabonakala kufanelekile ukubonisa iminyaka yokugqibela yombhali, ukwenzela ukwaneliseka kwabo bonke abanomdla kubo, kwaye nangakumbi ukwakhiwa koluntu. Ndiya kukwenza oko ngokufutshane kangangoko ndinako, ndisoloko ndithetha ngobungqina obaziswa kakuhle babo babehlala okanye ababenolwalamano olukhethekileyo naye, ngoonongendi abamncedayo kwimizuzu yakhe yokugqibela, nobentsapho ehloniphekileyo awamgqibela ngayo. umsebenzi. Akuyomfuneko ukuba ndilumkise ukuba ndibhala ngayo phantsi kwamehlo abo kuphela emva kokuba ndithe ndahlala apho kwaye ndiqokelele ngokuthe ngqo kwaye ndithelekisa amazwi abo kwinto nganye. Yazinza ke lonto, nali icebo endizizobela lona lokumatsha ngocwangco.

 

ISICWANGCISO.

Oonongendi abacwangcisa idolophu bahlala malunga neminyaka emibini kwimiba yabo

ekuhlaleni, emva kokuba ndigxothiwe kuyo. Emva kokumka kwabo, uDade Wokuzalwa KukaYesu wahlala isithuba esingaphezu konyaka kwidolophu yaseFougères; ukusuka apho wasiwa kwindlu yomntakwabo, eLa Chapelle-Janson, apho wahlala khona

ngaphantsi kweminyaka emibini; ekugqibeleni wabuyiselwa eFougères, apho wahlala eminye iminyaka emithathu neenyanga ezimbalwa. Kuphantsi kwezi meko zine esiya kuthi ngoku simlandele kwaye simqwalasele, ukuze sibonise umphumo weminyaka esibhozo yokugqibela yobomi bakhe, eyadlulayo ukususela kwixesha lokumka kwam kwada kwayimini embindini ka-Agasti, 1798. ukufa. Umfanekiso othembekileyo oya kuba nesiphumo sesi sicwangciso sendalo ngokupheleleyo awuyi kunika phantse nantoni na enomdla kwabo bagweba abantu kuphela ngeziganeko; kodwa ngokuqinisekileyo iya kuba yingenelo kubo bonke abo bagweba iziganeko ngabantu  ekubhekiselwa  kuzo.

 

 

I-ERA YOKUQALA.

 

USister uselapha ekuhlaleni.

Kwaku, njengoko besenditshilo kwenye indawo, phakathi koNyuko nePentekoste yowe-1790, endanyanzeleka ukuba ndibaleke oonongendi bam xa babeshiya indlu yabo, yaye kwakungoSeptemba 27, 1792 ukuba babengabo ngokwabo. kunyaka olandelayo. Ebudeni beminyaka emibini uDade asayichitha kwindawo ahlala kuyo, wayebonakala engahlukanga kwaphela kuye, ngaphandle nje kokuphindwa kabini komoya wangaphakathi, wokukhumbula, ukuthula nokuzithoba, okungumphefumlo welizwe lenkolo, kwaye eyakha isiseko somlinganiswa wayo othile.

Emva kobabalo izulu elamtshise ngalo, ngakumbi emva kokwazi ukuba limnike kwizinto elizifihle kubantu abafayo, umntu unokuhambela phambili ukuba akukho bani wayenesizathu esingaphantsi kwakhe sokumangala. kwakusenzeka ngelo xesha, kwanazo ke wayesazibona ngenxa engaphambili, awayezivakalisa engayeki, noko awazixelayo ixesha elide kangaka; Yahluke kakhulu kwimiphefumlo ekulula ukuyikhubekisa njengoko ibuthathaka elukholweni, okanye endaweni yoko ekulungele ukumbombozela ngayo yonke into ebachasayo, kuphela ngenxa yokuba ayiboni yonke into kwaye ayisoze yangena kwizinto ezinkulu.

Uyilo lweProvidence ekufuneka balunqule. ISister of the Nativity yayingaphezulu lee kwezo mbono zomntu zincinane ziphelele ekuzicingeni  kwaye zinxulumanisa yonke into nomdla wobuqu  .

Lowo ulawula ihlabathi kwaye ubambe ngesandla ikhonkco leziganeko ezinkulu ezenza imbali yalo, wambonisa, ukususela ebuntwaneni, iNguqulelo yesiFrentshi kwezona zizathu zifihlakeleyo, kwimiphumo yayo eyoyikekayo,

nakwii-suites zayo ezikude. Kwakulo mbono,  owamkela umphefumlo wakhe omkhulu, apho uDade wayeqwalasela yonke into eyenzekayo kwaye wayesalungiselela ngeenxa zonke kuye. Ngoko mhlawumbi asizange siwubone umphefumlo othobeke ngakumbi, oguqukayo ngakumbi, othobeke ngakumbi, okanye oye warhoxa kuko konke uThixo afuna ukukumisela okanye ukukuvumela. Akazange athethe ngayo ngaphandle koloyiko lokwenyani lwenkolo oluthi, olunxulumanisa yonke into nesizathu esingaphaya kwendalo, loyike nesithunzi sokumbombozela okanye sokungathobeli. Masithi ngcono, wathetha kakhulu ngayo kuThixo, phantse akazange athethe nakubantu; okanye ukuba ngamanye amaxesha wayezibona enyanzelekile ukuba angene kuyo, wayesoloko ekwenza ngeyona ntlonipho inkulu, ngeyona ngqiqo inkulu. Ibethelwe ngaphezu kwayo nayiphi na enye  into

 

 

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Umbono oyinyaniso ukuba ububi bethu phantse abuyiyo nantoni na ngaphandle kwesiphumo kunye nesohlwayo solwaphulo-mthetho lwethu, wabona kuphela abo wayezilile ngaphandle kokuphazanyiswa njengezithonga ezithandekayo zikaThixo owayefuna kwizigidi ezingamashumi amathathu zamatyala ukulibala kunye nokudelela kobungcwele bakhe. imithetho. Kolu celomngeni, wayezijonga njengexhoba elizinikele kwingqumbo yezulu, apho yena yedwa wayengathanda ukugqiba zonke iimpawu ukuze akhulule abazalwana bakhe kuyo.

Imiphefumlo engcolileyo engenazo izidima ilindele izibonelelo, xa ilishwa libasukela, kuphela kukufa abakugqala njengesiphelo; kwaye intanda-bulumko yobuxoki nenkohliso isazingca ngolu budenge bukhohlakeleyo nobungenangqiqo ngobomi obungasenabo ubuganga bokubuthwala. Akunjalo kubakhonzi bokwenyaniso bakaThixo; bezele zizifundo eziphakamileyo abathe bazitsalela kwisikolo senkosi yabo yobuThixo, bavuka, ngokholo, bade bafikelele nothando lweembandezelo ezithiyo indalo, kube kungezona njongo zicacileyo kuphela. kubadela ukufa.

Wabonakala ngolo hlobo uDade woZalo kubo bonke ubomi bakhe, kwaye esi simo sibalaseleyo awayesoloko ehlala kuso, sinokukholelwa ukuba wakhula kwaye wahlanjululwa njengoko isiphelo sakhe sasisondela. . Kunokuba akhalazele ukuba izulu limenze wabandezeleka kangakanani, wayesoloko ebuza iintlungu ezintsha, njengophawu lobabalo ngaphezu kwazo zonke iinceba awayezifumene kulo. Njengelinye igorhakazi elingumKristu elifanele ukuthelekiswa nalo, kuba wayekwayimpatho yalo

kwinkulungwane, ingcwele yethu yeli xesha yacela iqabane lakhe lobuthixo ukuba lingabi nakufa ukuze liphelise iingxaki zakhe, kunokuba liphile ukuze libandezeleke ngakumbi; kakhulu ukuba awushiye umhlaba ukuze udibane naye, kunokuba uhlale apho ufanelwe lulonwabo olungakumbi: Non mori, sed pati.

Makungabikho mntu ukuthabatha oku njengobaxo olungcwele lombhali we-panegyrist; nantsi imisebenzi yakhe iyinyani kwaye ifanele ukukholelwa. Amaxesha amaninzi lo uthobekileyo uguqukayo, le ntombi ifanelekileyo yaseSanta Francis, yayicele kuThixo iintlungu kangangokuba umntu angathandabuzi ukuba zonke ezo zazalisa zabuphelisa ubomi bakhe zazisisiphumo somthandazo wakhe kunye neminqweno yakhe enzulu. Kuphela emnqamlezweni wembandezelo ehlanjululweyo kwaye

ulungisa isidima samalungisa; kulapho intliziyo yakhe iba nolo hlobo lolonwabo olumenza akholeke kakhulu emehlweni kaThixo wakhe. Umfundi ka-J.-C. umele afane nenkosi yakhe kwinto yonke; ukumiselwa kwakhe kwangaphambili kusekelwe ngokupheleleyo koku kufana; kwaye ekubeni engenalo igunya ezulwini ngaphandle komnqamlezo woMkhululi wakhe, kusesemnqamlezweni kwakhona apho umsebenzi omkhulu wentlawulelo yakhe umele ugqitywe.

Inyaniso esisiseko yobuKristu awayeyiqonde ngokugqibeleleyo uDade. Yiloo nto kuphela awayeyinqwenela, into awayeyilindele, into awayeyigxininise kuyo, kunye neyathi wadibana nayo de kwaba sekupheleni kobomi obo yayiluthotho lweembandezelo, neminqamlezo; ukusa kwinqanaba lokuba yonke into esiya kuyibona kukufezeka kuphela kwalo msebenzi mkhulu, kwaye yongeza kuphela kuyo yonke into esiyibonileyo. Into emele ilityalwe apha kukuba uThixo omnike iimbandezelo ezingaka, owathi, ngakumbi ngasekupheleni kobomi bakhe, wambhenca kwizinto ezininzi zokuswela, iimpikiswano ezininzi kunye nezilingo ezininzi, naye wayesoloko emthuthuzela. kwaye wamxhasa ngeenceba zakhe ezingaqhelekanga, kwaye ngaphezu kwako konkewayemlungiselele ekugqibeleni ezo ntuthuzelo zimangalisayo nezingalindelekanga, kangangokuba yena ngokwakhe wayenomdla kwaye ezaliswe ngowona mbulelo udlamkileyo , njengoko uye wavuma ngaphezu kwesihlandlo esinye, ngokunxulumene noMphathi wakhe kunye nabanye oonongendi ababehlala naye. Ndicaphula apha imigaqo efanelekileyo yeeleta ezibhalelwe mna ngamaxesha ahlukeneyo. Phezu kwayo nje imiqobo eyayibonakala  isiya isivuthuvuthu

ukuphunyezwa kweprojekthi yakhe, uDade akazange amlibale. Weyiseke ngaphezu kwakhe nabani na ukuba uThixo, xa ethanda, uyakwazi ukuxhakamfula ngayo yonke into ukuze aphumeze iinjongo zakhe; Exhaswa lukhathalelo lwe-Providence ojonga ezona nkcukacha zincinci zomsebenzi wakhe, akazange konke, okanye kancinci, akhathazwe zizithintelo ezinokuthi ziphazamise nabani na ngaphandle kwakhe.

Izulu lalingamazisi nje ngokubanzi nangeenkcukacha ngeziganeko ezikhulu ekudala ezivakalisa, nokuba zeziphi ezopolitiki.

umntu ebengenakubona kwangaphambili, ukwafumanise kuye ngokukodwa iindlela ezahlukeneyo eza kusetyenziswa yidemon ukuzama ukuphelisa yonke into, ngamanye amaxesha isebenzisa ubuqhophololo, ngamanye amaxesha amandla avulelekileyo; ngamanye amaxesha ngenxa yokungxama, kakuhle okanye ngeenjongo ezimbi, zabantu abathile, kwaye ngokungathandabuzekiyo nangenxa yokungabi nangqiqo nokungakwazi komhleli ngokwakhe; kodwa wayemvumele ukuba abone ukuthanda kwakhe okungaphezu kweento zonke, okungako ukuxhaphaza iinto zonke; othi, ngokwamanyathelo achasene notshaba lwakhe olungaziyo, aziyo ukuthintela eyona migibe yakhe eyibekileyo, aze ayibambe ngokwakhe idemon kwiminatha yakhe.

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ukuba usebenze ngokungapheziyo ekuphumeleleni kweshishini ekungekho nto inokumphambukisa kulo ukusukela kwixesha awayecinga ukuba uqinisekile ngentando kaThixo. Wayesebenzise onke amaxesha am akhululekileyo, ngelixa ndikunye naye, ukundenza ndingene ngokupheleleyo kwiimbono zakhe, ngokundicacisela isicwangciso sakhe kunye neendlela zakhe zokulenza. Kuthe nje ukuba afunde ukuba ndikhuselekile kumanqaku akhe, kwaye ndiwakhathalele ngaphaya kolwandle, njengoko wayendixele kwangaphambili, kunokuba wathatha ithuba ngalo lonke ixesha ekwadlula kulo uluntu, kwaye ukusuka. umnqweno omhle woonongendi ababini awayebabeke emfihlekweni wakhe, ukuba andithumelele ngokulandelelana imibhalo ehlelwa ngumsebenzi wayo ibonelela ngenxalenye yesibini epheleleyo yomsebenzi wakhe, njengoko sisazi.

Zonke ezi ncwadi zamanqaku ndizinikwe nganye ngexesha layo, ngaphandle kwenye kuphela elahlekileyo kwingqokelela, ngaphandle kokuba kube nokwenzeka ukuba kwaziwe ukuba kwenzeke ntoni kuyo.

Le ncwadana ilahlekileyo, endingakwaziyo ukuyisebenzisa, iqulathe, phakathi kwezinye  izinto, uphawu oluhle kakhulu, endicinga ukuba kufuneka ndilukhumbule, ngenxa yolwazi oluthile abanalo oonongendi ngayo, kunye nenkumbulo ephawulwe ngakumbi yalowo wayeyibhalile  .

UDade apho wathi ngaxa lithile ebomini bakhe, uThixo wamenza wabona isithili saseRennes, kunye nabefundisi baso, sikwimo yebhoma elihle elityalwe nemithi echumileyo enobukhulu obahlukeneyo. Waphawula apho, phakathi kwezinye izinto, imithi emibini emidala, isondelelene kakhulu enye kwenye, eyayibonakala kuye igobile phantsi kobunzima beziqhamo zayo nangaphantsi kwemithi.

iminyaka. Wayebathanda bobabini, xa kwaloo moya uvuthuzayo wabancothula ngequbuliso phambi kwamehlo akhe, wabawisa phantsi, wacaphuka kakhulu.

Mhlawumbi wayengazi ngoko intsingiselo yalo mbono; kodwa kamsinya emva koko, isiganeko esikhwankqisayo seza ukuze simcacisele ngaso; yayikukufa kwababingeleli ababini ababesakuba ngabefundisi bedayosisi enye yaseRennes, omnye wabo owayesele engumalathisi weUrbanists yaseFougères. Babesoloko bengabahlobo bokwenene, yaye phantse babesoloko bemanyene ngumsebenzi wabo wokushumayela. BabenguMM. Duclos kunye Pothin. Bafa ngequbuliso kwangaloo mini; owokuqala wayengumlawuli werhamente yaseParigné, iiligi ezimbini zaseFougères; Owesibini, owayesakuba ngumlawuli weLadies Hospitallers, owayesakuba yi-rector ye-Saint-Aubert chapel, engekude kangako kuyo. UDade ngokwakhe wabona kwesi siganeko inzaliseko yombono oxeliweyo, kwaye ngawo wayethethe ngaphezu kwexesha elinye kooDade bakhe.

 

IXESHA LESIBINI.

 

Usisi ngaphandle koLuntu.

Ngaloo ndlela yayidlule iminyaka emibini yokuqala ukususela ekukhululweni kwam, eyayiyiminyaka emibini ngaphambi kwaleyo yalo Dade. Umthandazo, ukucamngca, inkumbulo, inguquko, zabelane ngawo onke amaxesha asele zimshiyile amazwi akhe, kwaye ukurhoxa kwakhe ngokugqibeleleyo kwamshiyela inkululeko eyaneleyo yokuba abenako ukuyiqwalasela, nalo lonke uxolo olunikelwa lunqulo emiphefumlweni iZulu liyivayo ngokungenakuthintelwa. Ukwahlukana apho oonongendi babesongelwa ixesha elide kangaka, kwaye wayebenze bakubona kwangaphambili ixesha elide.

Ekugqibeleni, kwafika usuku olubulalayo nolukhumbulekayo kakhulu xa, ngokwesicwangciso kunye nemimiselo yendibano emiselweyo, umthetho wesibini okanye wesithathu wanika yonke iYurophu, kunye nakulo lonke ihlabathi lamaKristu, umboniso onjalo obuhlungu kwimiphefumlo ehlonela uThixo kangangokuba wada wayinika umboniso onjalo. zazikholisekile kuzo zonke iintshaba zocwangco, ubulungisa, inkolo noluntu, ezo zoonongendi abangaphezu kwekhulu lamawaka abakrazulwe kwizisele zabo baza banyanzelwa ukuba babuyele kwihlabathi ababethe ndlela-ntle kulo ngonaphakade. Esinjani sona isithonga! Ndithi loo mboniso wawukholekile kumadoda endiwabonisileyo; kodwa, okoko nje sinikele ingqalelo kuyo, siya kuvuma ukuba ngokusisiseko uloyiso lwabo aluzange lubonakale luzuke kakhulu kubo, nokuba umphefumlo wabo, ukuba wawugcina.

nangoku ingcamango ethile yenyaniso, kwakungekho sizathu sincinane sokuyiqhwabela izandla ngaphakathi.

Kangangexesha elide abantu besi sitampu babezicengezela ngeyona mpumelelo ipheleleyo kwizifungo zonqulo. Bazamile, ngandlela zonke, ukubonisa ama-cloister kunye neemonki njengeentolongo ezininzi kunye neentolongo, ezizaliswe ngamaxhoba angalunganga enzondelelo engafanelekanga kunye nenkohlakalo yeenkolelo, ngokuchaseneyo, batsho. , Ukulunga koluntu ngokunjalo. ngokweminqweno yendalo. Baye, ke ngoko, bebhalile baza bazama ukweyisela ukuba, ukuba oku kurhoxa ngenkani kwakuvulwe nje kancinane, oonongendi babeza kubonwa bebaleka kubo ngamaza amakhulu. Enjani yona inkxwaleko, ke, nentiyo enjani efihlakeleyo, xa, emva kokuba bezame zonke iindlela ngokungenamsebenzi, bazifumanisa bebophelelekile ukuba babhenele kugonyamelo olulihlazo nolunya ngokulinganayo; ukuze afumane oko ukweyisela okanye izithembiso angazange akwazi ukukuzuza! Kuthethwa ngantoni

 

 

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leliphi icala eliloyiso okanye ukoyiswa, kwaye leliphi kula maqela mabini linesizathu sokuphumelela!

Kwangowe-1790, oomasipala babazisa ngomnqweno wendibano wokubabuyisela inkululeko ababefanele ukuba bazisole ngayo ngokukrakra.

Ingcamango yeCalumnious; kwakhona isiphakamiso esenziwa kubo sathathwa jikelele kwaye samkelwa njengesithuko, kwaye impendulo jikelele yoonongendi baseFransi yayimbi kwaye iqinile, kangangokuba yabaphindezela ngokupheleleyo ngenxa ye-calumny, kwaye yenza uninzi lwezopolitiko kwindibano. ukuba oonongendi babengeyiyo le nto kwakukholelwa kuyo, nokuba ukuzingisa kwabo, okuthe xhaxhe ekuchaseni abefundisi abachasayo kwisifungo, nakumgaqo-siseko wabefundisi, kungekudala okanye kamva kwakunokulutshabalalisa yonke imisebenzi yebandla. imini, kwaye ibhukuqe lonke icebo le revolution. Ngenxa yoko, bengasathembi nanye into koonongendi okanye  kubabingeleli, bayeka ukubambelela kumgaqo ongqongqo, ekuphela kwendlela yokuphumelela nokoyisa.

Ke ngoko kwaba ngoSeptemba 27, 1792 ukuba lo myalelo utshabalalisayo uphunyezwe kubacwangcisi bedolophu yoonongendi baseFougères. Kwisibhengezo sokuqala

babenziwe, bonke, benziwe ubomi ngaphezu kwako konke ngecebiso likaDade woMzalo, owathetha egameni likaThixo, baqhankqalazela ukuzonda kwabo okungoyiswayo kokuhlala bethobela umthetho ochasene neminqweno yabo kunye namalungiselelo abo; kwathi, ekubulaweni kwabo, bahamba bonke, abancinane nabakhulu, ukuya kungqungqa ekwayeni, elowo endaweni yakhe, ethandazela ukuba kanye babulawelwe kuloo ndawo bebenqwenela ukufela kuyo. Ingqumbo ngokwayo yashukunyiswa kukulila; abantu abathunyiweyo babaphendula, bathi, akuyi kubakho bubi kubo; kodwa babehamba, ngokuzithandela okanye ngenkani, ukubakhokelela bonke kwiimoto ezazibalindile eyadini ukuba zibase kwindawo ababesiya kuyo. Kwabe kungekho nto imbi ekwayalani ngaphandle kokuncwina, iinyembezi, isikhalo, izikhalo nezincwina. Ngamnye waba neentloni, njengoko ubani enokucinga kakuhle, unongendi ngokukodwa unokuba njalo ngokuncinane, engoyiki nto kangangokuba azibone ebanjwa, yaye mhlawumbi ephathwa ngenkohlakalo ngamadoda angenakuyeka ukucingelwa; ngoko ke kwakuyimfuneko ukwenza isigqibo nokuthabatha inxalenye yokuthobela amandla.

Bavuka befile kunokuba bephila, yaye xa kubizwa amagama, njengomphathi wabo, balila ukuze bangene ezimotweni. Konke oku kwakusenzeka endlwini, kangangokuba abantu ababezele intendelezo abazange babone nto. Kwakufanelekela uzuko lukaJ.-C. ukuba amangqina okuxhwilwa kwabafazi bakhe nawo afanele abe ngamangqina ogonyamelo olwenziwa kwiimvakalelo zabo zokwenene. Bathe bakufika kwisango lenqwelo abakhutshwa ngalo, uSister waseMzalweni owayelandela ethe cwaka, wajikela ngakubalindi noomaspala ebacela egameni likaThixo ukuba bathethe: kwathi cwaka kakhulu. ; Uthe ke udade wabakhangela, wathi kubo ngezwi elikhulu, eliqondakalayo, ethetha egameni labo bonke oonongendi, wathi, Madoda; UThixo uyandiyalela ukuba ndikwazise ukuba singakhetha ukufa kunokuba sophule indawo yethu evalekileyo, okanye nawuphina kwiminqophiso yethu engcwele; kodwa ekubeni ke thina simelwe kukunilulamela ngokwangaphandle, siyakungqina ngogonyamelo olwenziwayo kuthi; Bamva bonke, balila abaninzi, akwabakho uphendulayo.

Emva kwala mazwi mafutshane kodwa anamandla, evakaliswa ngesandi esiqinileyo nesizimiseleyo athe, ngaphandle kweminyaka yakhe, uDade wayesazi indlela yokuthatha xa kuyimfuneko, watyhala ingalo awayeyinikiwe, wangena kwinqwelo eyayiza kumsa eM. UBinel de la Jannière, owathi ngenxa yodumo lwakhe wacela waza wafumana indawo yokumhlalisa ekhayeni lakhe noodadewabo ababini, oonongendi bendawo enye.

UMadame la Supérieure wasiwa kuM. Bochin, usibali wakhe, nabanye, okanye kubazali babo, okanye kubemi abathile ababelunge ngokwaneleyo ukuba babalawule ngoxa belindele umyalelo omtsha wokugqiba ngekamva labo; kuba,

ngaphambi kwalo naliphi na ilungiselelo, kuye kwabonwa kufanelekile ukuwasusa okwexeshana emakhayeni awo, ukuwabeka kwipavumente. Ngaphambi kokuba ububele bohlanga buqulunqe iindlela zokuziphilisa, kwakucingwa kububulumko ukuba kuhluthwe uphahla lwalo, isonka sabo, yaye kamsinya emva koko kwaneengubo zabo.

Indlela ebalaseleyo yokususa bonke ubunzima.

Ukufika kwindlu kaM. Binel, oonongendi abathathu bakhokelwa yintsapho, bevuya kwaye belila ngaxeshanye, ukuya kwindlu eyayilungiselelwe bona. Apho, beguqa phambi komnqamlezo owawuxhonywe etafileni ngenjongo, bathandaza ixesha elide, beneenyembezi neenyembezi ezininzi, becela uThixo uMsindisi ukuba alamkele idini awayelifuna kubo, ababemanyanise nalo. yena ngokwakhe wenza emnqamlezweni ukuba kusindiswe uluntu. Bonke  abo bawubonayo lo mbono ukhwankqisayo bachukumiseka baza bathamba ukusa kwinqanaba lokudibanisa iinyembezi zabo nezo babezibona ziphalala. Idolophu yonke yayixokozela; zonke iintliziyo ezilungileyo  apho

 

 

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babenovelwano, yonke imiphefumlo ezinikeleyo yayiziva ixhalabile yaye ibuhlungu. Imbeko ngenxa yobugorha besimilo esicinezelweyo. Lo mbono wabonakala ulungile kwaye ungokwemvelo, kangangokuba wamkelwa kukuthula okomzuzwana kwabangendawo ngokwabo, ababonakala ngandlel' ithile ukuba babelane ngayo.

Ngoko nanku ke ekugqibeleni, lo mphefumlo unokholo, le ntombazana ingaqhelekanga, itsalwe kobu bukheswa buthandekayo ebincwina kakhulu ngabo! Nanku, njengabo bonke oodade wabo, egxothiwe waza wakhutshelwa ngaphandle ngonaphakade kwindlu awathi, kwasebuntwaneni, uThixo wayinika incasa elolo hlobo, umtsalane onzulu, ubizo oluphawuleka ngokucacileyo! Ngoko ke izalisekisa ngokwayo.

esi siprofeto kwafuneka abandezeleke kakhulu ngenxa yoko! NjengoJérémie, uDade woZalo namhlanje ulixhoba lamashwa awayewabhengeze. Bangakholwayo, bubungqina buni na, nithi, emva koko, nibuze ngempefumlelo yakhe?

Xa uThixo evumela abamiselwe kwangaphambili ukuba bachanabeke kwiimvavanyo ezingaqhelekanga, kwangaxeshanye unenjongo yokubanika ubabalo olulungeleleneyo, ubuncinane, olunokusichasa eso sihendo. Unetyala kuye

ubuthathaka besidalwa sakhe, kuloyiko analo lokungamkholisi, ngakumbi ekunyanisekeni kwesithembiso sakhe, nakobo kulunga bubalulekileyo obungenakuvumela nabani na ukuba ahendwe ngaphaya kwamandla akhe. Le yimfundiso kaPawulos: Fidelis est Deus qui non patietur vos tentari suprà id quod poteslis. ( 1 Kor. 10, 13 ) Uya kuhambela phambili ngakumbi, utsho, ngokukodwa ngokubhekisele kwabo banyuliweyo bakhe, kuba uya kuxhakamfula ngokuzeleyo isihendo ngokwaso ukuze abenze boyise umhendi, novavanyo ukuze abenze bahambele phambili. ukugqibelela kwemeko yabo: sed faciet eum temptatione proventum. (ibid.)Yiyo ke le into abayibonayo abangcwele bonke ngokokuthembeka kwabo elubabalweni; Ikwayiloo nto wayeziva ngayo uDade woZalo ngalo lonke ixesha lobomi bakhe, kodwa ngakumbi kwezona meko zinzima ngenxa yokulunga kwakhe, kunye nesona siqhwithi sokuzingisa kwakhe, ngokokwamkelwa kwakhe. njengoko sesibonile.

Hayi! njani ukuba uThixo, anditsho ukuba alahle, kodwa angawuhoyi umphefumlo ozithobayo kuyo yonke imiyalelo yakhe, ethembekileyo kuyo yonke imisebenzi yakhe, eqhubekayo ekuqheliseleni zonke iimpawu? umphefumlo okwaziyo ukulunyamezela uvavanyo ngenkalipho engako, kwaye uzibonakalise uqinile ekuphakameni kweenkxwaleko namahlazo, njengoko wawuthobekile kwaye uneentloni ekuphakameni kwenceba; masithi ke eyona nto ilungileyo, sithi, sihleli phezu kobabalo, ukucikideka nokulingwa. Oko kwakusoloko kubonakala ukuba lo mfazi womelele ngokwenene, kwaye akazange abonakale engcono kunakwiminyaka yokugqibela yobomi eyayibubungqina obuqhubekayo bento esiyiqhubayo.

Kude lee koonongendi bakhululekileyo, badikidiki nabangafezekanga, kwaba bafazi banokubizwa ngokuba ngabangakholwayo nabakrexezi, ababenokuwuthatha  lo rhulumente bancitshiswe kuwo njengenkqubo ethe cwaka ukusuka  ekuqaleni kwabo.

izibophelelo, uDade of the Nativity wabona kuzo, ngokuchaseneyo, yena kunye nabanye, kuphela isizathu esicinezela ngakumbi, intsusa enzima ngakumbi ukuba bathembeke ngakumbi kubo kunangaphambili; wayekholelwa ukuba unongendi wamshiya ngelishwa lamaxesha ufanele asebenze ngakumbi kunangaphambili ekuzalisekiseni izibhambathiso nemimiselo yakhe, kangangoko iimeko zimvumela. Engasakhuselwanga ziindonga ezazahlukanisa nehlabathi, kufuneka azithabathele indawo. ngokulumka kwakhe, ukuze aphinde akhusele iingqondo zakhe ngokuphindwe kabini kwingqiqo nangomlinganiselo wamahlazo neengozi ezimngqongileyo, ukuze angazibhenceli ekuhenyuzeni kumoya wehlabathi intliziyo ezinikele kuJ. ekufuneka atshise yena kuphela. Ekugqibeleni, nangona wayeneminyaka engaphezu kwamashumi amathandathu anesihlanu ubudala, wayekholelwa ukuba okona kuthe qwa kukodwa kwakunokumkhusela ekosulelekeni  sesi sifo.

umzekelo ombi nokonakala kwemilinganiselo yokuziphatha.

Yayikukuthobela loo migaqo mikhulu yokuziphatha kobuKristu, loo mithetho yobomi boonongendi awayeyithabathe kakhulu kwisikolo sikaJ.

ukuba xa esenza imisebenzi yakhe, ukuba uDade woZalo, engonelisekanga kukuphindaphinda oko kwabanye ngalo lonke ixesha, wazibhokoxa ngandlela zonke ukuze athabathe indawo yangaphakathi nangaphandle yobulolo awayesandul’ ukuvinjwa. Wazivalela kwigumbi elincinane elingaphantsi kophahla awayephuma kulo kuphela xa kungekho ndlela yakwenza ngenye indlela. Eli gumbi limxinwa, awalenzayo isisele sakhe, lathabatha indawo yalelo wayelishiyile, laza laba, ngokungathi kunjalo, ingcwaba lakhe, ekubeni lalilapho apho wayeze kufela khona, kwiminyaka embalwa kamva, njengathi. ngoko. Kulapho, enxibe kwaye egutyungelwe kwiintsalela zeengubo zakhe zonqulo ezihlwempuzekileyo, wahlula lonke ixesha lakhe phakathi komthandazo, ukucamngca, ukufunda iincwadi zokuhlonela uThixo, isiluleko abantu beza kubuza kuye, koodade bakhe okanye kwintsapho ezinikeleyo eyayimlungiselela ukutya nendawo yokulala.

"Uyoyika ukuba awunayo indawo yokuhlala,

 

 

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Wayethe kuye ngaphambili J.-C., evakalisa ukuhamba kwakhe, yiza  entliziyweni yam kwaye ndiya kuthabatha indawo  yento  yonke kuwe ndiyinto yonke kuye okungekho nto kuye,  kwaye

oncama yonke into ukuze andifumane; UBonelelo wam akaze amlahle lowo ubeka ithemba lakhe kum ndedwa, njl. Ngaba iyamangalisa into yokuba uDade arhoxe kangaka, kwaye onwabe kakhulu kwimeko yakhe entsha? Ngaba sifanele simangaliswe ukuba ebecinga ukuba akasweli nto apho abanye abaninzi bebeya kucinga ukuba baswele yonke into; ukuba wayezifumanisa ekhathazwa yeyona ngqalelo incinane eyayithatyathwe kuyo yonke into ephathelele yena? Ngokutsho kwakhe, babesoloko bemenzela izinto ezininzi kakhulu, yaye wayebonakala ekhululekile njengaxa ehleli nabantu abangamkhathalelanga. Nantoni na engathi iqwalaselwe yayimenza buhlungu; okona kunconywa kuncinane kwakumothusa, yaye eyona ndlela iqinisekileyo yokukhetha ubuhlobo bakhe yayikukubonakala imdelile;

Elandela lo mzekelo, nasemanyathelweni abangcwele abaninzi abathi, ukuthomalalisa ingqumbo kaThixo, kangangokuba bathintele ubuthathaka babo, baziphinda-phinda izono zabo neembandezelo zabo ngamaxesha eemvavanyo neentshutshiso xa iBandla labhencwa, uDade. Yokuzalwa kukaYesu yangena kwiimbono ezifanayo, kwaye yayisoloko iziva ishukunyiswa ngumoya ofanayo. Kudala kakhulu

ukuba wathandaza waza wasebenza ukuthintela amashwa awayewaxele kwangaphambili; umntu unokude athi ubomi bakhe bonke wayebuchithe apho; kodwa wathi akubona ufezekiso lwaso luzaliseka kuye, wagqiba ngakumbi kunangaphambili ukuncama ubomi bakhe bonke kuyo, enikela ingqondo yakhe ekuthobekeni, intliziyo yakhe kwiintlungu, nomzimba wakhe wonke ekubandezelekeni, engakhange akhalaze nangantoni na.

Ewushiya umzi wakowabo, wathabatha, ngokomyalelo kaThixo, owafuna imvume yomphathi wakhe, unyaka wokuzila ukudla ngesonka namanzi, wazingisa kuwo, nokuba yintoni na enokuthi umntu athethe okanye enze ukuyithintela loo nto. Kwakuyimfuneko ukumqhatha ukuba agalele ibhotolo encinane kwisuphu awayeyinikwe kuvunyelwe kwaye kwanyanzeleka ukuba athathe, leyo, ngaphezu koko, yayiquka kuphela amanzi kunye nemifuno encinane kunye netyuwa. Wathi akubona inkohliso, wakhalaza ngako, esithi bafuna ukumosha yaye woyika imiphumo yoko. Mhlawumbi babefanele boyikwe ngaphezu kwethu kunokuba ubani ecinga. Ngubani na owaziyo ukuba yintoni na esingenatyala ngayo kubomi obunxunguphalisayo ngolo hlobo? Kudla ngokuba ngenxa yemiphefumlo yesi similo ukuba uThixo unika ubabalo kwabanye abaninzi, kwizixeko, kwizikumkani, kwihlabathi liphela. Ngaba ibiya kuthetha kakhulu, ingaba ibiya kuba kukuthozama, ukucebisa ukuba lo usenokuba negalelo elikhulu kunalo naliphi na elinye ekufumaneni kwethu loo maxesha amnandi nawayengawafumani, kodwa awayesixelele izihlandlo ezininzi kangaka evela ezulwini? ... ubulwelwe?

Ezimisele kwaye ecinga njengoko wayesoloko enjalo, nangona kunjalo wayeyazi indlela yokuziqhelanisa neemeko, njengoko sele sibonile; wayevelana nentswelo yabanye, yaye isidima sakhe sasinzima kakhulu ngaphandle kwakhe. Ngaphandle kokuchithwa, ukuzonwabisa kwakhe ngamanye amaxesha kwakuhlekisa kakhulu kwimiphefumlo ethembekileyo awayehlala nayo. Kuyinyani ukuba kwiincoko zakhe wakhumbula yonke into kwiimbono zakhe ezinkulu zikaThixo kunye nesidima; kodwa njengoko

ngokwendalo wayenengqondo kanye njengokuba intliziyo yakhe yayilungile kwaye inesidima, wayefaka kuyo yonke into awayeyithetha ubulungisa nokuthe tye okwavuselela owona mdla ubalaseleyo. Nangona wayemde kancinane kwindlela yakhe yokubalisa, abantu babesoloko befuna ukumphulaphula de kube sekupheleni, yaye sasidla ngokumbuza okuninzi kunokuba wayefuna ukukuthetha.

Ukususela ekukhululweni koonongendi, iintetho zakhe azizange zijikeleze nantoni na ngaphandle kwendlela unongendi afanele aziphathe ngayo ehlabathini ukuze ahlale apho.

beka elusindisweni usindiso lwakhe nezibhambathiso zakhe, yaye oku kuxhalaba kuphela kuphela ebomini bakhe. Kangangezihlandlo eziliwaka waphinda kubo esithi ibiya kuba yindlela yabo yokuziphatha

emva kokugxothwa kwabo, ukuba ngenye imini uJ. Waqhubeka ebuyela kulo mbandela, awathi wayijika ngeendlela eziliwaka, ngakumbi njengoko kwakusondele ukudana kwabo, okwenzeka ngoSeptemba 14, 1793, akazange ayeke ukuthetha ngayo, okanye ukuxelela oonongendi indlela abafanele banxibe ngayo. ngokwakho. Asikukuba wayengaqondi ukuba asiyondawo okanye umkhwa owenza unongendi; kodwa wema ngelithi unongendi ozenzileyo ufanele ahlale, kangangoko anako, abonakale oko akuko, aze ayiphephe, ngayo yonke inkathalo enokwenzeka, naluphi na uhlobo lwesinxibo olunokumenza abhideke nabantu behlabathi.

Ngenye imini, phakathi kwezinye izinto, wachitha ixesha elingaphezu kweyure elimnandi ewacacisela, ngendlela yakhe, umzekeliso weentombi ezinyulu.

 

 

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iintombi eziziziyatha nezilumkileyo, kwaye uzixelela izinto ezimangalisayo neziyothusayo ngayo kude kube sekupheleni. Ngesinye isihlandlo, waxelela uMphathi ukuba kungekudala kwakuza kubakho ungquzulwano awayeza kufumana kulo usizi olukhulu; nto leyo eyaqinisekiswa ziziphako ezithile phakathi koonongendi ngokwabo. Wayesoloko emxelela ukuba uya kuba neentlungu ezininzi emzimbeni nasengqondweni; kanti ke uThixo ubemgcinele iintuthuzelo ezininzi. Kwezinye iimeko, wenza izaziso ezifanayo nezabanye abantu abaninzi ababeyiva inyaniso.

 

 

IXESHA LESITHATHU.

 

Usisi kunye nobhuti wakhe.

Kungekudala emva kokuba oonongendi begxothiwe ekuhlaleni, banyanzelwa, ngokomthetho, ukuba bazishiye izambatho zabo zonqulo; kwandula ke kungekudala kwavela omnye umthetho owawubanyanzelela ukuba babuyele kwiintsapho zabo baze bahlale kwindawo ababezalelwe kuyo. Ngaloo ndlela uDade wokuzalwa kukaYesu, wanyanzelwa ukuba athobele, njengabanye, olu lungelelwaniso lutsha, lwahlukana nentlungu yoonongendi ababini abathi, ekushiyeni kwabo ibutho labo, baba nentlungu.

kunye naye endlwini yomntakwabo, eFougères, kwaye bemka bezisola usapho oluhloniphekileyo lukaM. Binel, ukuya kuGuillaume le Royer, umntakwabo, owabamba ifama yaseMontigny, e-Chapelle-Janson, kufutshane nelali yaseLa Pellerine, kwirhamente yaseMaine. Bamsa khona; kodwa zehla iinyembezi ezininzi ngokushiya ooSister bakhe ababeza kuvalelwa kungekudala njengoko wayebaxelele. Ude wavuma kubo ukuba oku kwahlukana kwamlahlekisela kakhulu, ubuncinci, njengokushiya kwabo uluntu. Ngokungathandabuzekiyo siya kuwabona amacebo kaThixo kolu guqulelo lukaDade kwilizwe lakhe lokuzalwa, sakuba sizibonile iinkonzo awayezinikezela kumntakwabo, nendlela awayeluncedo ngayo kusapho lwakhe kwimeko eyayinzima ngolo hlobo, kuqhwithela olunjalo. imozulu.

Iziphazamiso ezoyikekayo ezaziqale kunyaka ophelileyo kwaye azizange zixole de kwaba ngunyaka osemva koko, zaziphantse zafikelela kwincopho yazo eFougères, njengakuzo zonke ezinye iidolophu. Yayilulo ngoko ulawulo loloyiko: izibongozo, abathinjwa, izigwebo, izithintelo, ukuvalelwa ezintolongweni, ukubulawa, yonke imithetho yegazi, yonke imimiselo ekhohlakeleyo yayingokwemihla ngemihla; ishumi, ishumi elinesibini, ishumi elinesihlanu, kwaye kangangobemi abalishumi elinesithoba babedlula mihla le phantsi kwesixhobo esoyikekayo sokufa, elona gama lisasenza uluntu lungcangcazele. Kwakwanele ukuba ube nempahla ethile, unamathele kwimigaqo yomntu, okanye ube notshaba oluthile oluyimfihlo, ukuba ugwetywe, kwaye kwakwanele ukuba ugwetywe unetyala: ukusuka apho ukuya kwi-guillotine kwakukho 'inyathelo kuphela.

Ngaba sikho nasiphi na isizathu sokumangaliswa kukuba amanyundululu anjalo aye abangela uvukelo kumaphondo amaninzi kangaka? IFougères yaba yinto engathandekiyo, njengezinye iidolophu ezininzi. Yathathwa ngokulandelelanayo kwaye yaphinda yathathwa ngamaVende, ngamaBlues kunye namaChouans: ngaphezulu kwesihlandlo esinye babekwindawo yokuyitshisa ngomlilo. Ngamanye amaxesha iflegi emhlophe yayibonwa idada apho, ngamanye amaxesha i-tricolor; ngamanye amaxesha beva bekhwaza Vive le Roi! kwaye ngamanye amaxesha Phila ixesha elide iSans-Culottes! kwaye yonke, ngokuhambelana nempumelelo yelo xesha kwiqela ngalinye: ngelizwi, omnye wabona apho zonke izothuso zeemfazwe zamakhaya. Igazi lomntu laliphuma macala onke apho. Kwezinye iindawo ngokukhethekileyo, izitrato zazizele zizidumbu kangangokuba kwakungenakwenzeka

Ububi obuye baphumelela ixesha elide kuyo yonke imiyalelo basasazekile emaphandleni, apho izenzo zenkohlakalo zaziqhubeka zisenziwa ekunzima ukuzichaza. Abefundisi bala maqela mabini babefana ngokulinganayo kwizithonga zeqela elalichasene nabo. Abo beqela elilungileyo babhenceka ngakumbi kwinto yokuba, benegunya elichasene nabo, yayingabo

ekuphela kwabantu ababefuna ubulungiseleli: kananjalo la maqela mabini ayebafuna imini nobusuku, kodwa eneenjongo ezahlukileyo (1).

(1) Ababingeleli abalungileyo babebophelelekile ukuba bahlale befihlakele phantsi komhlaba, phakathi kwamasimi okanye kwiimori, ababephuma kuzo ebusuku kuphela, ukuya kwabagulayo. Ayengafane abuye engakhange adutyulwe kancinane, afumane iimbumbulu ezimbalwa, okanye abe sengozini.

 

Abanye, bekhuselwe ngumkhosi olawulayo, babengenayo enye inkathalo ngaphandle kokuzifihla kakuhle kubavukeli. Abo babekuyo yonke indawo ababebizwa ngokuba ngamaKhatholika kunye nabefundisi abalungileyo babesoloko befunwa kwaye bebulawa ngaphandle kwenceba ngamaBlues, awayesoloko engawakhathazi aBagcini boMgaqo-siseko. Ezi zazifunwa ngamaChouan, awazange azisebenzise kakuhle naphi na apho ayenokuzifumana khona (1).

(1) M. Duval, umphathiswa waseLaignelet, kunye noM. Sorette, umfundisi werhamente yaseChatellier, izifundo ezibini ezibalaseleyo, phantse kwimisebenzi yabo, babulawa ngamaBlues. M. de Lesquin, umphathi weBazonge, M. Porée, umfundisi werhamente yaseSilly, M. Larcher, umlawuli womgaqo-siseko waseMelle, banyulwa ngamaChouans. Ndikhankanya kuphela le mizekelo yomsindo wamaqela amabini, kwaye ndiwacaphula ngenxa yokuba kwenzeke malunga neFougeres, kwaye banonxibelelwano olungakumbi kunye neenyaniso endimele ndizixele.

 

 

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Wonke umahluko kukuba abantu abalungileyo bazisola okokuqala, basikelela inkumbulo yabo, baxabisa intsalela yabo. Akukho mntu wayicingayo le yokugqibela (1).

(1) Izulu, ngenxa yezizathu esimele silinqule, lalivumela izenzo zenkohlakalo ezinjalo, nalo maxa wambi lalibonakala licaphukile. Besiya kubhala imiqulu ukuba sifuna ukuqokelela iimpawu ezibalaseleyo zalo msindo ubonakalayo, andithethi nje kuye nawuphi na umKristu onengqiqo ongazange aphulukane nokholo, kodwa naye nabani na ongenamdla wokuzimfamekisa. Ndiza kucaphula ababini okanye abathathu abaye badume ngokwaneleyo ukuba bangathandabuzi.

Ngosuku olusemva kokuba uM. Duval, umphathiswa waseLaignelet, ebulewe kummandla waseFougères, kwawa umlilo ovela ezulwini kwinqaba yaseSt. nenkungu, ekugqibeleni yeemeko ezinobundlobongela neziphikisanayo, kangangokuba abona bakhaliphileyo batyhwatyhwa ngabo, kwaye babalelwa kuphela kwisohlwayo esivela kuThixo. Le yinyani engqinelwa sisixeko sonke.

Kungekudala emva kwesi siganeko umngeneleli wela rhamente enye wabhubha ekhala esithi uwela enzonzobileni . Liyinyaniso elokuba ngaphambi nje kokuba afe, waphinda wanikela ubungqina bokuba wayeya kufa kwimigaqo yemvukelo; kodwa kukwayinyaniso ukuba waqala kwakhona, ngomzuzu olandelayo, ukudanduluka esithi: Ndikhuphe enzonzobileni! Ndisindise enzonzobileni! Ndiwela enzonzobileni! kwaye waqhubeka ngolo hlobo, ngaphandle kokuba abantu ababemncedisa babe nako ukumnqanda.

Inqaba necawa yaseSt. Aubin-Tergate, eNormandy, nazo zatshiswa ngumlilo ovela ezulwini, ngoxa kwakulomngeneleli. Andithethi ngabo bonke abo batshiswa ngamaChouan ngesihlandlo esinye.

Kwenye irhamente ekufutshane neFougères, kwaesaqhwithi sinye sawisa iitshimini zezindlu ezimbini zabavukeli, kwaye azange khe nzakalise naleyo yomzalwana wasebukhosini ongumKristu owayephakathi kwezi zibini.

Indoda ethile ekhohlakeleyo yasezweni laseVitré, yazithambisa ngeeoli ezingcwele iibhutsi zayo; Le nyaniso ilandelayo ayizange yenze ingxolo encinci; Ndinayo kwintsapho ehloniphekileyo evela kwindawo kwaye yandixelela iimeko eziphambili. KwakuseBrest apho le nto yenzeka khona:

Ngexesha xa ubutyebi bamaBandla buthinjwa, indoda enelishwa eyayiyi-congreganist kunye namaJesuit ithwele emagxeni akhe, kunye nezenzo ezininzi kunye nezinyeliso, lo mfanekiso wesilivere wonina kaThixo, owawuthwele. kwii-stretchers ngentlonipho enkulu nentlonipho. Omnye wamaqabane akhe owamvayo wamkhumbuza ngaloo mihla yamandulo. Le nkumbulo, ebifanele ukuba imodareyithe ukugqabhuka kwayo kunye nokungahloneli Thixo, isebenzele ukuyiphinda-phinda. Wavakalisa izinto ezoyikekayo ngale Nkosazana inye iinkosi zayo zokuqala zamfundisa ukucula iingoma zokudumisa. Ngephanyazo, bothuka ababukeli, umlomo wakhe wajikeka, ubuso bakhe bakhwankqiswa, woyika; kwaye ndiqinisekisiwe ukuba ukuza kuthi ga ngoku ngengazange afumane nto yimbi kwimeko yakhe emanyumnyezi ngaphandle kokuba azigxothe eluntwini. Uye wahlala umhlala-phantsi kwindlu yakhe yelizwe, amaqela ambalwa avela eBrest, apho ebona kuphela abantu abambalwa ngokusemandleni, kodwa ehlala ngokwaneleyo ukunika amangqina angakrokriyo kunye namanani afanelekileyo.

Nantsi enye into engaqinisekanga kangako, nangona mhlawumbi ibinopapasho oluncinane. Ngexesha laxa izihombiso zezibingelelo zazithengiswa esidlangalaleni, xa iicope neechasubles zazisetyenziselwa ukwenza izigqubuthelo zamahashe, xa ezona albs zintle nezinye izambatho zababingeleli; Ekugqibeleni, apho izinto ezingcwele zazisetyenziselwa izinto ezingcolileyo, kwakukho kwidolophu yaseFougères, kwindawo yaseLa Fourchette, okanye iQuatre-Moulins, igeza elathi, ngenxa yokusulungekiswa kokungahloneli Thixo nomsindo, liyithabathele kuye. intloko ukunxibisa inja yakhe enkulu njengomfundisi owathi imisa. Kwakungekho nto isilelayo ekuvukeni okumanyumnyezi wayemenze waba ngcono ukuba ahlekise ngesona senzo sihlonelwayo sonqulo.

Kule meko, wayivelisa phambi komnyango wakhe, ebiza abadlulayo ukuba beze kubunzima kwikepusi yakhe , awayenzayo ukuba enze iintshukumo awayeziqeqeshe. Phezu kwayo nje ingqumbo yokungabi nanqulo eyathunyelwa inkoliso ngelo xesha, lo mbono wabonakala uhlaba amehlo, yaye abaninzi bavukela. Jacobins wamlumkisa

ukuchola isilwanyana sakhe, esithi olu lonwabo alukho ncam endaweni yakhe, kwaye alufanelekanga. Ke ngoko kwafuneka aye khona; ke yena ongahlekwayo ubenokumlumkisa ngokunzulu.

Kwangaloo mini wawela kwisiphithiphithi esoyikekayo, esatshintsha saba ngumsindo ongenakuziswa kuyeza. Wabhomboloza ngokoyikekayo; ubuso bakhe babunento yenja; ekugqibeleni, ekupheleni kweeyure ezingamashumi amabini anesine, indoda enelishwa yabhubha ngokuxhuzula kunye neentlungu ezibilini ezingenakwenzeka ukuchaza. Ndiyifumene kubantu ababone yonke into, kwaye ubungqina endibufunayo kwangoko abuzange buphikise nangayiphi na indlela le nto ndisandula ukuyixela.

 

UKUBONISA.

Umntu ubuza yonke imihla ukuba kunokwenzeka njani ukuba uThixo ubandezeleke ngobugwenxa obungaka, ihlazo elingaka, ukuhlambalaza okungaka, ukoyikeka okungaka apho uye wacatshukiswa ngokuphandle, ngaphandle kokunika nabuphi na ubungqina balo mandla ukuba sibe nobuganga bokuphikisa  . Side sibe ngathi sihlazekile ngoku kuthuleka koBuThixo. Ubuya kuthi ukholo lwemiphefumlo ethile luba buthathaka, kwaye idemoni yenkolo ithatha indawo yoloyiso  .

Nangona kunjalo, kulula ukutshabalalisa eli hlazo ngokuphendula izinto ezintathu:

: 1° UThixo akanyanzelekanga ukuba enze imimangaliso ngalo lonke ixesha umntu ongahloneli Thixo ebonakala ecela umngeni kuye. Ubulumko bukaMongami buphazamisa ucwangco olumiselweyo kuphela ngenxa yezizathu ezinokubumisela apho. Umntu onguNaphakade okwicala lakhe akanaso isizathu sokuphendula kwangoko kumntu omncinci onesibindi sokucela umngeni kuye. Izigulana est quia œternus.

2. Ayifanelekanga yaye ayifanelekanga ukuba uThixo enze imimangaliso ngokukhawuleza xa abantu beyinqwenela. Ihambo enjalo, ngaphandle kokuhlutha ukholo oluthile, ibiya kuyonakalisa inkululeko yabangendawo. Ukuba bonke abantu abangahloneli Thixo naboni bebesohlwaywa ngokukhawuleza kangangoko bebefanele, bekuya kwenzeka ntoni ngale nkululeko yokwenza okulungileyo okanye okubi? Wonke umntu kufuneka abe nexesha lokuzenza afanelekele ukuvuzwa okanye ukohlwaywa.

3. Kwanele ngokulunga kukaThixo ukuba imiphefumlo yokulunga ifumane amaxesha ngamaxesha ubungqina obunengqiqo benyaniso abakholelwa kuyo, noncedo loThixo abathembele kuye noyixhasayo. Ngoku, zininzi gqitha ezi ntlobo zolu hlobo kangangokuba akukho bani unelungelo lokuhlaziswa yihambo yomonde kaThixo, osebenza kuphela ngobunzima nomlinganiselo, nolungiselelo lwakhe lukhokelela yonke into esiphelweni esimfaneleyo. zifihliwe kuthi.

Genet,

ukhonza eSaint-Sauveur-des-Landes.

NgoNovemba 5, 1803.

 

 

 

Ngelixa ezo ziganeko zoyikekayo zazisenzeka ngakuye, uDade, warhoxa kwikhaya lomninawa wakhe kwifama encinci yaseMontigny, waphila ubomi obunoxolo ngakumbi apho.

usengowozohlwayayo kunaseFougères okanye kwindawo ahlala kuyo: wayechitha imini nobusuku ethandaza. Umfundisi, umfundisi werhamente yaseLa Chapelle-Janson, owayephuma kanye okanye kabini ngeveki kwindlu yakhe engaphantsi ukuze eze kumnika umthendeleko (M. Jambin), wandikhokelela kwigumbi awayekulo, yaye, endibonisa indawo encinane esecaleni. umandlalo wakhe: Nantsi, wathi kum, yindawo apho ndamfumana khona, ngentsimbi yokuqala okanye yesibini ekuseni, ezilungiselela, emadolweni akhe, ukuba avume nokwamkela uMthendeleko oNgcwele endamzisela wona. Emva kombulelo wakhe, uye walala ukuze aphumle kancinci...

 

 

 

 

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Ekungeneni kwakhe kwindlu yomnakwabo, lo Dade wanxiba isinxibo sonqulo kangangoko wayenako. Wazenzela indawo ebiyelweyo ejikeleze indlu, emxinwa kakhulu kunegadi, ukuze afumane umoya opholileyo kangangeyure. Akazange aphume ngaphandle kokuba aye kwisidlo esingcwele rhoqo kangangoko wayenako, phezu kwazo nje iziphene zakhe ezazisenza olu hambo lweenyawo luhlale lubuhlungu kakhulu. Iingokuhlwa zakhe nezasemva kwesidlo sangokuhlwa zazisetyenziselwa ukufundisa abantwana baloo lali, ngakumbi abatshana bakhe nabatshana bakhe, awayebayalela ukuba bacengceleze ikatekisimo yabo nemithandazo yabo, awayebacacisela yona, esongezelela kubo incwadi yeVangeli. ngeCawa nganye, kwaye ezibeka ekufikeleleni kubo kuyo yonke into awayeyithetha  kubo.

Ekungeneni kwakhe kwindlu yomnakwabo, wagqiba kwelokuba asebenzise elo thuba lokuphakama eqinisekisa uthando nentlonelo yayo yonke le ntsapho ihlwempuzekileyo nenyanisekileyo, kodwa akazange ayivumele nayiphi na inkcitho ngesihlandlo sakhe. Isonka esirhabaxa, esimnyama sasemaphandleni, isuphu enjengabasebenzi bayidlayo, i-pancake ye-buckwheat eyenziwe ngendlela yamafama, iingcambu okanye imifuno, phantse akukho sinongo, oku kukutya kwakhe okukhethileyo kunye nokuzikhethela, akwenzileyo. waye watya ene appetite emnandi kakhulu. Wamngxolisa umnakwabo xa kwenzeka ukuba amfumanele into enganeno kangako, esithi wayekuvuyela ukuphila njengabo, yaye baninzi abantu abangcono kunaye abangenanto ingako; ukuba ke kwakufanelekile ukucinga ukwenza inguquko, nokuba abangcwele bezingadelelekanga kangako kweli cala. Bathe bakugqiba ukutya, wasela kunye nokutya kwakhe. Ngokungcamla, wakhetha ukusela kuso nasiphi na esinye isiselo, kodwa ngonqulo wamnika amanzi

kukhethwa phezu kwabo nabuphi na obunye utywala. Yayisebubomi obufanayo, kwaye imali yakhe yomhlala-phantsi yayingabizi kakhulu ekuguleni kunempilo. Akukho namnye waba nabuganga bakummela.

Baza kuthini abo banobuntu obungenakoneliswa bubugcisa bonke babapheki, bebona intombazana igqitha ukungcungcuthekiswa kwanabo imihla yabo yovuyo neyolonwabo ibiya kuba yinguquko enganyamezelekiyo kubo? Hayi indlela ekumele ukuba kubonakale ukufana okulolo hlobo kubo, ukuba basengamaKristu!...

Yayingekuko nje ukumsindisa kwiingxaki nakwiingozi zesixeko awathi uProvidence wamlungiselela indawo yokusabela elizweni. Iinkonzo ezinkulu azenzileyo apho kwintsapho yakhe zibonisa ngokucacileyo enye idizayini kuye ekwaziyo ukuthatha ithuba lezona ziganeko zincinci. Umzalwana wodade Bozalo wazifumana, nangona yena, efakwe kumzimba kamasipala werhamente yakhe, isithuba esiyingozi ngelo xesha kwindoda eyayingenako ukulibala imigaqo yayo yokuqala, okanye iboleke kuzo zonke ezo meko. kwakubonakala kufunwa. U-Le Royer ke ngoko wenza iintshaba kuwo omabini amaqela, awayengathanda ukuwaxolelanisa, kunye neentshaba ezinamandla ngokwaneleyo okanye ezikhohlakeleyo ngokwaneleyo, ukuze kubekho isizathu sokoyika yonke into kubo, ngakumbi ngexesha apho sinokulindela yonke into, kwaye apho iphepha-mvume elichasene neqela elichasayo laliqinisekileyo lokungohlwaywa. Ngokuqinisekileyo wayeya kuba lixhoba, njengabanye abaninzi, ukuba uThixo wayengamlungiselelanga, kuDade wakhe, ngesixhobo ekungekho bani unokukholosa ngaso, isixhobo sokuzikhusela esathi saphanziswa yonke imizamo yabo. Wayengenakufika kwangexesha xa wayeze kuhlala nalo mlimi ulungileyo.

Indlu kaLe Royer yayifana nendlu yokugcina impahla yamaqela amabini aphikisanayo, iinkampani zawo eziqhubela phambili ngokulandelelana kulo lonke eli canton. I-Blues yayimjonga njenge-aristocrat efihliweyo kunye ne-cocealer of chouans; Bamgqala njengoYakobi othotyiweyo, umngcatshi kwiqela labo. Udade Bozalo, owayesoyika imiphumo yoko, wamalela ukuba ahlale nabo, waza wazibhokoxa eyedwa ukuze abenze bobabini baphulaphule ukuqiqa, nokwenza uxolo lomntakwabo kunye nabo. Wazibhokoxa kuko kuzo zonke iintlanganiso yaye ekugqibeleni wakwazi ukuzixolelanisa.

Ukuze aphumelele koku, wazibhenca ngaphezu kwesihlandlo esinye; kodwa wayesoloko ebonakalisa ukungabukhathaleli ubomi bakhe njengoko wayebonakalisa inzondelelo ngalowo wayezimisele ukuwukhusela. Inkosi yamaChouan yayilinene eliselula lelo lizwe (1); Waya naye phakathi kweqela lakhe, wathetha naye ngenzondelelo enkulu, umdla, nangengqiqo elungileyo, wada wangena kuyo yonke into  yakhe .

 

 

 

 

 

 

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izizathu, waza wamthembisa, ukholo lwendoda enyanisekileyo, okokuba umzalwana wakhe akasayi kuba nanto yakuva ubunzima kuye nawuphina kwabo wabayalelayo; waligcina ilizwi lakhe kuye.

Phakathi kweBlues eyayinoburhalarhume kuLe Royer, kwaye udade wakhe kwafuneka amthintele kwaye amphumelele, kwakukho omnye, phakathi kwabanye, owammangalela ngokugxeka omnye wabahlobo bakhe owayesandula ukwenza izenzo zakhe.

Isityholo sasibubuxoki, kodwa u-Beux-neux (igama lakhe elo) akazange abe nomsindo kangako kummangalelwa. Wayefungile ukubhubha kwakhe, kwaye wathembisa ukuba akasayi kufa ngaphandle kwezandla zakhe. Isithembiso sasimele soyike ngakumbi,  njengoko ukuphunyezwa kwaso kwakungelolinge lokuqala lalowo wasenzayo. Wayesaziwa kwelo lizwe, yaye ngelishwa sasiyazi kakuhle into awayekwazi ukuyenza. Kususela ngelo xesha wangxamela ithuba elilungele icebo lakhe; kodwa uDade, ngemvakalelo echasene kakhulu, akazange amlahle ngakumbi njengoko waphulukana nombono walowo wayemgqala njengotshaba lwakhe  .

Ngenye imini u-Beux-neux ungena e-Le Royer, ebuza ukuba ukhona na, iingalo zisesandleni, umsindo emehlweni akhe kunye neempembelelo emlonyeni wakhe. Udade owayembonile esandeni, wamlumkisa ngokunyanzela umnakwabo ukuba anyuke aye esiseleni sakhe: wazibonakalisa yedwa kumbulali, wamxelela ngobubi awayezenza kuye, wada wasukela umntu owayeza kumbulala  . ongazange amnqwenele okanye amenze into embi; ukuba umsulwa umzalwana wakhe koko amtyhola ngako. Emva koko uziphosa ngamadolo phambi kwakhe, emdibanisa, ukuba  uyathanda

angayihoyi lonto, ukuba azithathe njengexhoba, kwaye uzimisele kakhulu ukuxolela ukufa  kwakhe.Umsindo  ufuna ukumkhulisa,  esithi

ukuba akanomsindo ngakuye: uDade okhaliphileyo uyamphikisa  ukuba akayi kwenza nto ngaloo nto, kwaye kufuneka kwangoko, nokuba athabathe ubomi bakhe, okanye amnike obo bomntakwabo  . Ethetha naye ngolo hlobo,  uyamgrogrisa

impindezelo yasezulwini ngendlela eqinileyo kangangokuba izixhobo zawa ezandleni zakhe. Uba nexhala, abe novelwano kwaye azive, ngokungathi naphezu kwakhe, ukoyika uThixo kuphinda kuphinde kuvele entliziyweni eyayithi mhlawumbi yacima kwanombono wobukho bakhe. Wathi kuye: “Vuka, nongendi olungileyo, uthi cwaka  ;

ungamqinisekisa umntakwenu ukuba akananto yokoyika kum. Andimthandi

ayisayi kwenza bubi. Oko kuthetha, uyaphuma kwaye akazange aphinde avele. Eli yayilixesha elilungileyo lokuguquka kwakhe; uyavuya ukuba uxhamle, kuba kusithiwa wahlawula ngokufa kwakhe ngegazi awayelichithe, wade wabethwa ngentsimbi awayebethe ngayo abaninzi. Ayinguye kuphela umzekelo onokuthi ukhankanywe: Qui percusserit gladio, gladio peribit.

Le nkalipho imangalisayo kwintombazana, obu bubugorha apho amadoda amaninzi ebengenakukwazi, uDade wokuzalwa kukaYesu unike ubungqina obuncinane bako, kwezinye iimeko ezininzi,

ngexesha lokuhlala kwakhe eMontigny, leyo, njengoko benditshilo, yayihlala izaliswe ngamanye amaxesha ngamaqela e-Blues, ngamanye amaxesha iinkampani zeChouans, ezinikezela ngokusukelana. Ngenye imini wazijula ​​phakathi komnakwabo kunye nompu kaBlue owayemgrogrisa; wayezibona mihla le ejijisana namarhamncwa amaninzi anoburhalarhume, ekwakuya kuba yimfuneko ukuba awenze ubuntu ngokuwasindisa ngaphambi kokuba acinge ukuwaguqula. Bamjikeleza ngenjongo ukuze bambone baze bammamele. Bambuza imibuzo eza kumncina ngemibandela yelo xesha okanye ngonqulo. UDade waphendula kuyo yonke into ngobulali nangengqiqo, kodwa ehlala eqinile kwingongoma yemigaqo yamandulo kwimibandela yonqulo, kangangokuba wayikhumbula apho ngaphandle kokuqonda kwabo: wabaguqula abanye babo. Bamchasa ngokuchasene nokholo, awathi waphendula kubo bezazisa iindinyana zeVangeli ezazibagweba  .

Ngokufuthi babevuma ukoyiswa kwabo.

Maxa wambi kwakubakho iingxabano phakathi kwabo ngesihlandlo sakhe, abanye bemlwela, abanye bemchasa. “Uyintlola,” batsho abanye, “usisihandiba esidala esimele sigxothwe; lixhegokazi eliphambeneyo, lixhegokazi elingaziyo ukuba lithini; ukuba siyamyeka athethe uzohenda abanye thula baphendule abanye ungavuya  qha

ukuba nexabiso; ungcono kunathi okoko sikhona, asimazi qha  . Quidam enim dicebant: quia bonus est.  Aliyi

dicebant: hayi, sed seducit turbas. (Yowan. 7.12).

“Ndinomnqweno omkhulu,” watsho omnye, “wokumthumela kwelinye ihlabathi ukuze abe ngumfundi wezakwalizwi, aze afundise ikatekizim ebantwaneni. Ukuba unesibindi, waphinda waqala omnye, ukumthuka kwaphela, kuzofuneka ujongane nam,  ndikufundise ukuhlonipha abantu  abanyanisekileyo  Impertinent! ungenza  kakuhle

ngcono ukuyimamela kwaye uzuze kuyo, kuba uyidinga kakhulu, awuzange wazi negama lenkolo yakho  !. »

UDade wayibona kwaye wayimamela yonke le nto ngomoya woxolo nenzolo eyayibachukumisa, nantoni na ababenayo, ebabonisa ukuba wayengenguye.

betyhwatyhwa zizisongelo zabo, bencoma ukunconywa kwabo, abangazange bakwenze oko

 

 

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kukuphela kwemfesane yakhe novelwano ngemeko awayebabone ekuyo.

Emva kokuba ebalungelelanise ngobunono bokumelwa kwakhe, nangengqiqo entle awayibekayo ekukhalimeni kwakhe, ngobuchule walixhakamfula elo thuba laxa ingqondo yayizolile phakathi kwabo, ukuze abangcikive ngenxa yokunyelisa kwabo neemeko zabo ezimbi. Wayengoyiki ukubasongela ngengqumbo yobuthixo, ebaxelela ukuba ukuba babengaguquki, bamele boyike kakhulu ukuba bangaweli esihogweni; ukuba imigwebo kaThixo iya kuba yeyoyikekayo phezu kwabo; ukuba wayengafuni ukuba kwindawo yabo. Maxa wambi babechukumiseka gqitha koko wayekuthetha kubo kangangokuba abaninzi kubo babefuna iindlela zokumthuthuzela ngokumthembisa ukuba kungekudala baza kuguquka baze balandele icebiso lakhe.

Omnye wabona bakhohlakeleyo wamjolisa ngenye imini ngesixhobo sakhe, esithi wayeyi-chouan nje ezifihlile, intlola yeqela labo, ekwakufuneka abulawe: kukholelwa ukuba wayesenza izinto ezinzulu kakhulu; kodwa, ukuba ebeqhula nje, umpu osezandleni zendoda yalo mlinganiswa, ethi izibeke kwimeko yokuwukhupha, wanele ukumoyikisa lowo ubhekiselwe kuye. Udade, nangona wayegula kwaye ebhedini njengoko wayenjalo ngoko, wamjonga, emxelela ukuba angadubula ukuba uyathanda, kwaye ubomi bakhe busezandleni zikaThixo. Asazi ukuba kwakutheni ukuze aneliseke yile mpendulo, ngaphandle kokwenza enye into ngaphandle kokulungelelanisa. UDade wazifumana ephindaphinda into enye, kwaye umntu unokutsho kakuhle

Wabonakala njalo uDade woZalo lonke ixesha ehlala nomntakwabo; wabonisa apho, njengayo yonke indawo, umphefumlo weqhawe emzimbeni wentombazana. Incinci kakhulu ukuyithetha; kwimpilo engazange ibekho, wabonisa, ngokweemeko, konke ukugqibelela kothando, konke oko ubugorha besidima bunokuvuselela kakhulu emphefumlweni.

ngumKristu ngokwenene. Ngokungathandabuzekiyo abayi kukholelwa kwanto kuyo, abo bazingisayo ekungabonini nto kwabo bazinikeleyo ngaphandle kweentliziyo eziphantsi nezingenamdla, nabanokuthiywa ngonaphakade kukuphinda bathi oonongendi ngaphezu kwabo bonke abalungelanga nto. Ndiza kubabuza kuphela ukuba babeza kuzinyamezela njani ezo zilingo; kuba, ukuba kuvunyelwe ukugweba ngabo balingana nabo ababelapho, kuninzi ukukholelwa ukuba iintliziyo zabo ezinkulu beziya kuziphikisa. Amazwi ayinto engento; yihambo engqina yonke into: Udade ubonakalise ngandlela zonke. Ekuphela kwexesha awaziva etyhafile luloyiko kuxa wazibeka phakathi komnakwabo nompu owawumgrogrisa; umntu usenokuthi wayengazoyiki yena;

Xa umntakwabo ngokwakhe wandinika, phambi kwayo yonke intsapho yakhe, iinkcukacha endiye ndazenza isishwankathelo, wayehlala kakhulu kwizinto ezintle kunye neempawu ezintle eziye zakhanya kuye ukususela ebuntwaneni, zikhula rhoqo kunye Naye. Ubulumko bakhe ekunikeleni amacebiso, ukuziphatha kwakhe ngobubele, kwamenza wathanda umfundisi nentloko-ntsapho. Uyise nonina babexhomekeke kuye kuzo zonke iinkalo, kwaye bonke abanye abantwana, owayengoyena mkhulu kubo, babemthobela kakhulu kwaye amaxesha amaninzi ngokulula kunoyise nonina, ngakumbi ekubeni urhulumente wakhe wayethambile kakhulu, kwaye oko. wabakhuthaza ngakumbi ngokwenza kunokuthetha, ukuba banike abazali babo intobelo nentlonelo ababefanele ukuba bayenze kubo. UJeannette, wandixelela ukuba, kwakusoloko kuboniswana naye; vs'

Ngelixa le ntombazana ingcwele yayinam, waqhubeka uLe Royer, kubonakala ngathi watsala intsikelelo kaThixo kusapho lwam, ukuze yonke into, nezona ziganeko zibulalayo, ziguqukele kum. Ewe,

wongezelela ngelithi, ukuba iimeko ezilusizi endidlule kuzo azizange zonakalise ukusuka phezulu ukuya ezantsi, kungenxa yemithandazo yakhe engcwele endiyityalayo; akukho nto inokundityhafisa. Kule nto, wandicaphula iimpawu ezahlukeneyo, apho ndiza kuthatha enye kuphela awandibalisela ngayo ngakumbi okanye ngaphantsi ngolu hlobo:

Ilahleko endiye ndayifumana kwiminyaka engonwabanga edluleyo indinyanzele ukuba ndiyishiye ifama yaseMontigny (eneneni, wayengekho ixesha elide xa ndandithetha naye; ngoko wayehlala kwidolophana ekufutshane nedolophu yaseMontigny. ilali yaseLa Pellerine) nokuthengisa iinkomo zam ezimbini ukuze ndihlawule, ukuze ndibe nesibini esiseleyo, endisenaso nanamhlanje; kuhle, mhlekazi, nantsi into eyenzekayo: ngenye imini xa mna

Inqwelo nenkabi zam zombini, ndifike ekuhleni engxamile kangangokuba iinkabi zange zikwazi kuyibamba inqwelo, yadlula komnye waba babini.

ndeva, ngeendlebe zam zombini, umsonto wevili wenza ingxolo efanayo, ngokungathi idlulile.

 

 

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umqobo ebeya kuwaphula imivalo yawo. Esi sandi sokuqhekeka sandenza ndakholelwa ukuba inyama yenkomo yophukile iimbambo kwaye umzimba wayo utyunyuzwe wonke; ndalila ke, ndathi, Thixo wam, ndakhala! Apha ndimoshelwe ndingenazo izinto eziluncedo: kuyakubanjani kum emva kwale ngozi ilusizi?....

Ndothuswa yintoni mhlekazi, xa emva kokukhala kwam, ndawabuyisela amehlo am kwihlwempu lam endandikholelwa ukuba siliqwenga, ndalibona liphakama ngokwalo, lingakhange libonakale nto! Into emangalisayo, kwaye endingasoze ndiyikholelwe, ukuba andizange ndiyibone! Akwaphulwa nto, nditsho nomtya obophe idyokhwe ezimpondweni zenkomo: ibiyekele, andazi ukuba yasikhulula njani na isilwanyana esithe sakuba sisiwa ngexesha lokuwa, esithe sazifumana siphakathi kwezi zibini. amavili, ngaphandle kokuba ndikwazi ukuqonda ukuba kwenzeke njani, okanye apho i-creaking endiyivileyo ivelaphi Siza kucinga into esiyifunayo, kodwa ndibheja oko kwikhulu  .

besingayi kwenza okufanayo. Ndiyishiya kuye nabani na ofuna ukuzibonela.

UDade wabandezeleka kakhulu kwaye wagula rhoqo kumnakwabo  .

Le nto wayedla ngokuphathwa yiyo yayibangela ukuba abe nesithukuthezi esibuhlungu esasisoloko simnyanzela ukuba ahlale ebhedini; isifo segazi esasinyanyekile samfaka kwisigulo esinzima awayenobunzima bokuzikhupha kuso. Noko ke, wafumana amayeza ngokunyanzelwa kuphela; Akakhalazeli, akabavumela nabemi bendlu ukuba baphazamise umsebenzi wabo wokumnceda; kwamnele ke, ukuba phambi kokuba ahambe, babeke nantoni na abeyifuna ecaleni kwakhe. Inenekazi eliselula elinobubele elalize kumbona  egameni le-Doyen de la Pellerine lamfumana ngenye imini ekule meko; kwaye njengoko wayemsizela ngenxa yentlungu kunye nokushiywa kwakhe apho wambona khona:  Wena

unesisa kakhulu, ntokazi yam elungileyo, waphendula uDade; Andiyi kuba nosizi; Andisweli nto, ndinayo yonke into endiyidingayo: abantu abalikhulu abandijikelezileyo abayi kundithintela ukuba ndithwale umnqamlezo wam, kwaye uyabona ukuba bandibonelele yonke into, bandinika yonke into endiyifunayo. Inenekazi eliselula lajonga ecaleni kwakhe, laza labona esitulweni iqhekeza lesonka esikhulu esomileyo namanzi amancinane acwengileyo kwisitya somhlaba: yayiyimpatho yalo.

eqhelekileyo, kwaye yiloo nto awayeyibiza ngokungafuni nto. Ngaba umntu angafumana kwezona zibhedlele zihlwempuzekileyo izigulana ezininzi kulula ukuzikholisa?...

Ekugqibeleni indalo yaphinda yathabatha isandla esiphezulu, kwaye nabani na owayefuna ukuyisebenzisela uzuko lwakhe kwakhona, wayibuyisela kwimeko eyayiyidinga kwiinjongo zakhe.

Kwiinyanga ezininzi, oonongendi base-Urbanist bakhululwe, kwaye uDade wokuzalwa kukaYesu wayelangazelela, ixesha elide, emva komzuzu wokubuyela kubo, ukuba abe nentuthuzelo yokufa ezandleni zabo: wayethetha ngayo ngalo lonke ixesha. . Lo mzuzu ubukade ulindelwe ufikile. Uthi, elila, ndlela-ntle ngonaphakade kusapho lwakhe, engcangcazela ngumkhuhlane, ejongeka ngathi siskeleton kunomntu ophilayo. Wakhwela enqwelweni,1 eyambuyisela kwa-M. de la Jannière, apho wathatha indawo yakhe yokugqibela, nalapho bavuya kakhulu bakumbona kwakhona emva konyaka owawubonakala umde kakhulu kwaye ukruqula.

 

(1) Kwakuphezu kwayo nje inkcaso yomntakwabo awathi amaChouan amfumanela inqwelo, awayibuyisela koonongendi ababeyicela kangangexesha elide.

 

 

 

IXESHA LESINE NOKOKUGQIBELA.

 

Imisebenzi yokugqibela kunye noKufa kukaDade.

Emva kokuba ewufezile kangangoko anako, nanjengoko sele sibonile, umsebenzi uThixo awayewumisele kuye, lo dade wayecingela isiqu sakhe kuphela, waza wavuyiswa kukubona enye into ngaphandle komcimbi omkhulu wosindiso lwakhe, elungiselela usindiso. ukufa awayekubonile kwakungayi kuba kude.

Wathi akugqiba ukundinika iingxelo zakhe, wandixelela, njengoko sisazi, ukuba ekuphela kwento eseleyo kukuba azincomele emithandazweni yam, nakubo bonke abafundi bengqokelela yakhe, esala, ngaphezu koko, onke amabango kwimithandazo yakhe. ukuxatyiswa okanye ukunconywa luluntu, nto leyo ebengamfanelanga nangayiphi na indlela. “Kusele kum kuphela,” watsho, “ukuzilela ukunganyaniseki kwam ngokuqhubekayo, izono zam ezingabalekiyo, nokuzilahlela ngentloko kwinceba kaThixo olunge kakhulu ukuba afune ilahleko engunaphakade, nokuba ndivumele isiphoso sokuzithandela somntu. isidalwa esilihlwempu, esingazange sifune nantoni na ngaphandle kokwazi ukuthanda kwakhe okungcwele nokuhambisana nako. »

Ezo ke, eneneni, yayiziimeko zakhe; kodwa uThixo, okholiswayo kukubona kwimiphefumlo enelungelo iimvakalelo zoloyiko nothando aluvusayo  apho, akanyanzelekanga, kuba, ukuba ahambelane nayo yonke into kwimigaqo yokuba ukuthobeka kwabo, usoloko esoyika kubonakala efuna ukummisela ngokwakhe  . .

Kungakhathaliseki ukuba konke oku, ukuthanda kwakhe kumele kukoyise kokwethu,  yaye isixhobo afuna ukusisebenzisa simele sithobele isandla asisebenzisayo. UMoses noYeremiya basenokucela uxolo ngokungakwazi kwabo, uYona usenokusaba  ;

 

 

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abona bantu bangcwele beBandla baye baziphepha ngelize izidima, iiofisi neembeko ezazibalindile, kwakuyimfuneko ukuyekelela kucwangco olwalubabiza; akukho nto yayinokubasindisa kulo: ngokuzithandela uMoses wabahlangula abantu bakhe; uYeremiya makambize, elila ngenxa yobugwenxa bakhe, aze uYona avakalise ulwaphulo-mthetho lwakhe eNineve, ukuze aphephe isohlwayo.

Ngokwalo mgaqo, kulilize ukuba uDade wokuzalwa kukaYesu afune ukuzingcwaba ephila kubunzulu bokungabi nanto kwakhe, kuyimfuneko ukuba i-echo ikhale, ngelixa ilizwi liya kuviwa, kwaye aphinde abuyele oko anako. wathi: Deus, docuisti me a juventute mea, et usque nunc pronuntiabo mirabilia tua. ( INdu. 70, 17 ) Le yindawo awayesingise kuyo.

Ukususela ebuntwaneni bakhe, njengoIsaya, weva lo myalelo uvela ezulwini: “Umprofeti, musa ukukuyeka ukukhala; izwi lakho maliphakame njengexilongo, ukubakhalimela abantu bam ngobugwenxa babo, nobugwenxa babo kwindlu kaYakobi. Clam, musa ukuyeka; quasi tuba exalta vocem tuam, et annuntia populo meo scelera eorum, et domui Jacob peccata eorum.( Isaya 58:1 ) Kungenxa yoko le nto, ehlala ethembekile kuthumo lwakhe, wabonakalisa inzondelelo engaka nxamnye nezidubedube ezazimkhubekisile uThixo wakhe zaza zabangela ukuba ilizwe lakhe liphulukane. Ayizange ithimbe inyaniso; ukuba akasoloko ebhala, akazange ayeke ukwenza i-inveve ngokuchasene nobubi; wakwenza oko ngelizwi nangomzekelo kwada kwasa ekupheleni, yaye omnye unokutsho ngaye njengalowo uPawulos oNgcwele wenza indumiso entle ngolu hlobo: Akazange athethe nje de kwasekufeni kwakhe; uselethetha efile nje, Usathetha, ukuthetha, ekubeni isahleli imisebenzi yakhe engafiyo; et defunctus adhuc loquitur. (Heb., 11.4.)

Engazange abuyele kooDade bakhe, waziva efuna ngamandla ukucela imvume yokuya eNgilani ukuya kufuna umalathisi, awayeza kuye.

ubhengeze kumathuba ahlukeneyo ukuba usenezinto ezininzi anokuzithetha angakwaziyo ukuzixela nakubani na ngaphandle kwakhe. Ubudala bakhe, kunye nobulwelwe bakhe obungakumbi, bamenza ukuba angasoloko esala uxolelo awayelucela ngokunyanisekileyo; ebona ukuba wayengenakuphumelela kulo msebenzi, wafumana ngokulula ukuyivala kangangoko wayenako ngokubhalelwa esinye isihlomelo ukuze sisiwe kum, ephinda esithi wayekoyika kakhulu ukuthanda kukaThixo; oko wayekufake kwisongezelelo sakhe, noko kwandiqinisekisayo, ngokukodwa, ngabantu ababephathiswe oko kuye.

Ke uDade woMzalo waphinda wathatha usiba lwakhe phambi kokuba abhubhe, ndithetha ukuba wathatha ithuba lentwana awayeyishiyele ukuba ayiphile, ukuze axelele oonongendi ababini ababesemfihlweni wakhe, umsebenzi wokugqibela oseleyo kuthi. ekubhaleni. Luhlobo lweDuteronomi, kwiincwadi zamanqaku ezimbini, apho ahamba ngaphezulu kwezinto ezininzi ebesele ezithethile, kwaye ke ngenxa yoko ndiya kunyanzeleka ukuba ndifinyeze kakhulu, ndigcine izimvo ezintsha kunye nophuhliso olubonakala lufanelekile. yogcino. Ezi ncwadana zimbini zaziza kunikwa mna emva kokufa kwakhe, kuba ndinesizathu sokukholelwa ukuba kangangexesha elide wayengalindelanga ukuphinda andibone. Indlela aziphatha ngayo ishiya indawo yokuthandabuza.

Ingqwalasela eyenziwa leli shishini litsha, kude nokuthothisa intshiseko yakhe, endaweni yoko, yayandisa kuphela imihla ngemihla; izenzo zakhe zokuhlonela uThixo zaya zisiba ninzi kwaye zinde, inzondelelo yakhe yavutha ngakumbi, ukuzinikela kwakhe kwanda ngakumbi. Kunokuba anciphise naziphi na izono zakhe, wongeza kuphela kuzo, phezu kwazo nje iziphene ezazisoloko zisanda ubunzima bobudala nosizi. Ekugqibeleni, elandela umzekelo wabo bonke abangcwele awababalwa nguThixo ngendlela ekhetheke gqitha, wabonisa ukuba wayenomdla onjalo kuphela koko wayesakusukela ngokuzingisileyo, ngokuxhalaba apho wayekuyo ingxelo yokuba wayenetyala kuThixo. .

Kwakusele kusele iinyanga ezimbalwa egqibile ukubhatalisa okokugqibela, xa waba nalo mbono wokugqibela endiza kunikela ingxelo yawo ngoku endawuthembisayo, kuba izizela apha ngokwemvelo, ize iyifumane indawo yayo apho. , ngokulandelelana kwexesha. . Lo mbono wasebusuku wawubhalwe phantsi, ngokungathi uza kugqiba yonke into awayeyithethile, enikela ubungqina obuya kuvala imilomo yabo bonke abachasi bakhe. Ileta yokwenyani awayithumela kumfundisi werhamente yaseLa Pellerine, awayinikela kum (siyazi ukuba ebengumalathisi okwexeshana), le leta ndiyigcinayo eqinisekisiweyo nguDean; Kwale leta inye, ndithi, uProvidence uyivumele ukuba iqalwe nguMadame la Supérieure, yaze yagqitywa nguMadame la Custodian,

uwahlanganisele ndawonye amangqina amabini, kwanezandla zozibini ezibonileyo, nezizibhalileyo yonke into; Nanku umxholo wale leta; Andizukutshintsha nantoni na ebalulekileyo, kodwa ndiya kongeza amagqabantshintshi ambalwa kwisicatshulwa, ngoonobumba abahlukeneyo:

 

 

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Fougeres, ngo-Oktobha 16, 1797.

 

Utata wam,

Ndiza kubelana nawe ngephupha elibalulekileyo uThixo alivumeleyo ngokuphathelele imibhalo yam. Ndicinga ukuba idemon yabonakala kum ikwimo yonongendi ongasekhoyo endandimazi, owandixelela ukuba wayekwindawo yentlambululo-miphefumlo apho wayeva iintlungu ezingathethekiyo; eyandivuyisa kakhulu usizi novelwano. Ngesicelo sakhe, ndamthembisa ukuba ndiza kuthandaza kuThixo ukuba amhlangule, ndaza ndamcela ukuba xa eseParadesi, ukuba wayesazi ukuba kukho nto ithile kum echasene nokusindiswa kwam, athandaze kuThixo ukuba amenzele ububele. Ndazise, ​​ukuze ndizilungise, ndingekaveli emgwebeni wakhe. Waphendula wathi, ukususela ngoku, wabona umqobo omkhulu kusindiso lwam, ukuba kungenxa yesi sizathu ukuba wabonakala kum. (Akunjalo Wongeze ngelithi, nangona wabonakala kum ephupheni, mandingayithathi loo nto ayithethileyo kum, kwaye loo nto yayinesiphumo. Hayi! Intoni? Ndambuza.

Yiyo, undiphendule, malunga nemibhalo oyenzileyo, kwaye ngumbuzo wokuba ucinezele kwaye ubhangise. Izinto ziba mbi kakhulu. ( Yayilixesha apho oobhishophu bandinika imvume yabo...

) Kuyimfuneko ngokukhawuleza ukuba uthumele umyalezo ocacileyo kuM. de Fajole, kunye  nokurhoxiswa kwakho, ukuze yonke into oyithethileyo (1) ithathwe njengento engekho kwaye ibhujiswe ngokupheleleyo. Ndambonisa ukuba ndenze ngako konke oko uThixo wayendiyalele kona. Hayi uThixo akabuzanga lonto kuwe, waphendula ejonge kum kakhulu. ( Imiphefumlo ekwindawo yentlambululo-miphefumlo ayicaphuki. ) Wandixelela ukuba ndikhohlisiwe ngokuthobela izivumo zam  .

idemon yayixelele udade ukuba makanqande ukuba angabhali; apha sele kukho iimpawu ezininzi zokufana nomoya othi, ngcono ukuvelisa inkohliso, wenziwa kumila kumbi wengelosi yokukhanya (2); kodwa masiqhubeke.)

Kutheni kuM. de Fajole? Unalungelo lini lowo ungenalungelo  lokwazi ukurhoxisa?

Ngethamsanqa, uDade wayengengomtsha kubuchule bokulwa nokuqikelela  .

 

Kula mazwi ndiye ndaqonda ukuba ngusathana osebenzise eli cebo ukundiphazamisa engqondweni nokuphazamisa isazela sam; kwaye ngephanyazo ndayiphakamisa intliziyo yam kuThixo, ndithandaza ukuba abe nenceba kum; kwaye ndivuswa nguMoya oyiNgcwele, ndaphendula kumbono wokuba ndingumlilo nedangatye nje kamsinya nje ingumbuzo wokuthobela uThixo ngokuzuza uzuko lwakhe. Ndandiqonda ukuba xa ndandibathobela abo bathabatha indawo kaThixo ngenxa yam, ndandikholelwa ukuba ndamthobela uThixo ngokwakhe. Kwangaxeshanye, ndenza umqondiso womnqamlezo phezu kwam. Kulo mqondiso, owawungamkholisiyo, unongendi owayezenza ngathi wabaleka; UMoya kaThixo wandigibelisa emva kwakhe, ndamsukela, ndamnqanda, ndambamba ngesigqubuthelo sakhe. Ukuba uphume kuThixo, ndathi kuye, Ukuba uthe wathetha nawe, yenza umqondiso wokuba ungowakwaThixo. umnqamlezo nam, nize nimhlonele lowo unithumileyo. nika uzuko kuBathathu Emnye othandekayo... Ngelize ndambongoza ukuba enjenjalo ndaza ndamnika umzekelo; Ngelixa ndiphinda umqondiso wam womnqamlezo i-phantom yanyamalala kwaye yanyamalala phakathi kwezandla zam, njengomphunga omnyama nomdaka, ngaphandle kokuba ndikwazi ukuthetha ukuba ibuyele emhlabeni okanye yaba yintoni.

Ngale nto, Bawo, ndiza kuthetha kuwe kancinci. Xa lo wayezibiza ngokuba ngunongendi waqalisa ukuthetha nam ngokubhala kwam, ngaphandle kokuba ndibenalo ixesha lokurhanela injongo yakhe, ndambuza ukuba lo mbhalo wayethetha ngawo uya kuphumelela kusini na. Wandiphendula ewe ngobubi, kwaye kulapho wongeza, ngomoya onomsindo, ukuba uthatha inguqu embi; kodwa oku akuzange kuphinde kundikhathaze, ndithe nje ndakuba ndilibonile iqhinga likasathana. Eyona nto yandothusayo kakhulu yayikukumva endixelela ukuba kufuneka ndiye kuM. de Fajole, ndize ndithethe naye ukuze umsebenzi ubhangiswe: kuba ndiyakuqinisekisa ukuba andizange ndilazi igama okanye umntu ka-. lo M. de Fajole, yaye wayengazi nokuba wayengumfundisi okanye ngumfundisi. Ngoko andizange ndizikhathaze ngokufumanisa, ndizimisele ngokupheleleyo ukulityeshela icebiso endandilinikwa.

Ndizophinda ndikuxelele bawo ndathi ndakuleqa isiporho ndawunqanda, wandazisa kakuhle uMoya weNkosi ukuba yidemon, yonke lanto yayithethwa ngulo tata.

xoka, ungayihoyi loo nto engqondweni yam. Waqhubeka u Sister etshintsha incoko.

Bawo, ndinexhala ukuba uyifumene ileta apho uMama wethu uMfundisi ekwazise kum, njengenyanga edlulileyo, ukuba bekuyimfuneko ukuthumela, ngokukhawuleza, kuM. Genet, yonke imibhalo. yazi. Uya kundinyanzela ukuba undixelele ukuba bapasile na, okanye uceba ukufumana iindlela ezikhuselekileyo zokubabamba kwindawo ahlala kuyo....

 

 

 

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( Le mibhalo athetha ngayo lo dade ayizange ithunyelwe kum eNgilani; kodwa ndayinikwa apha kwiminyaka emine emva kokufa kwakhe. )

Nam ndiyakuxelela Bawo ukuba uThixo olungileyo undiphe ubabalo lokungandishiyi ndingenamnqamlezo; Ngelishwa, andiyinxibi kakuhle. Indalo kunye nomtyholi, ohlala eyithatha ngesiphelo esinye okanye esinye, ezama rhoqo ukuyihlutha kum ngokuyenza iwe phantsi, kwaye rhoqo indenza ndiyithwale yonke i-skew. Uyandiva, Bawo; Ndifuna ukuba ndikwenze uqonde ukuba umtyholi kunye nendalo eyonakeleyo bahlala besilwa nam, ngamanye amaxesha ngandlela thile, ngamanye amaxesha ngenye, kwaye ngakumbi ngexesha lokugula. Kungoku nje ndisebhedini ndinomkhuhlane oqhubekayo; kodwa iimbandezelo zomzimba aziyonto kum, ngaphandle kokuba iNkosi elungileyo inovelwano ngomphefumlo wam ohluphekayo, kwaye iwuhlangule kwiziphopho zenamba engapheliyo. Kungenxa yesi sifundo, Bawo, ukuba ngokukhulu ukuthobeka ndinibongoza ukuba nindikhumbule phambi kweNkosi; Nam ndithandazela ukuba ugcinwe; kodwa imithandazo yenu ndiyidinga ngaphezu kwenu yam.

Musa ukumangaliswa, Bawo, xa ubona izandla zozibini zibhaliwe kule leta; kukuba uMama wethu, owayeyiqalile, akazange akwazi ukuyigqiba

unobangela wezinto zakhe; udade boSerafi wayilungisa. Bobabini bayakuqinisekisa ngentlonipho yabo enzulu, kunye noSaint Elizabeth. Kum, Bawo, ndinentlonipho enzulu kunye nokuzithoba okugqibeleleyo, umkhonzi wakho othobekileyo nothobelayo.

Udade woZalo.

 

Imvelaphi yesi siqwenga esingaqhelekanga, endiyigcinayo, sinala mazwi abhalwe ngesandla somgcini-mali wokuqala: "Ndifumene into enjalo, kwaye ngexesha lomhla wayo, ileta ekhoyo evela kuDade wokuzalwa kukaYesu, Unongendi wasezidolophini waseFougères, ndaza ndayinikela, ngowe-1802, kumalathisi” wale ndawo. »

Usayine uLeroy, okhonza iLa Pellerine

 

KwakungoJulayi 6, 1803, awathi uM. Leroy wandinika esi siqinisekiso ekhayeni lakhe; yaye ngomhla wama-27 waloo nyanga nakuloo nyaka, oonongendi ababini ababeyibhalile bandityobela obu bungqina bulandelayo, bechukumisa umbhalo esisandul’ ukuwubona:

Thina, abasayiniweyo apha ngezantsi, siyaqinisekisa ukuba iya kuba yekabani na, ukuba uMnu. Genet wayibhala ngokuthembeka ileta esasiyibhale, ngowe-1797, isiya kuMnu. Dean waseLa Pellerine, egameni likaDade wethu ongasekhoyo othandekayo nohloniphekileyo woKuZalwa. Lonke utshintsho esilubonileyo, ngokuthelekisa enye kwenye, lubandakanya ukwenza izivakalisi ezithile zesiFrentshi ezazingekho. Intsingiselo iyafana kuyo yonke indawo, kunye nokulandelelana kwezinto.

UMarie L. Le Breton Udade uSainte-Magdeleine, uSup., uMichelle Pel. Binel des Séraphins, ogcina imali, uBlanche Binel de Sainte-Elisabeth.

Ndivumeleni ngoku ndikhe ndicamngce ngalo mbhalo wokugqibela kaDade, esigqiba ukuwubona. Andisayi kuphinda apha into endiyithethileyo kwenye indawo malunga namaphupha antsonkothileyo nabalulekileyo iZibhalo Ezingcwele ezisinika imizekelo emininzi neyothusayo. Ndiya kukwanelisa ngokuthi kum kubonakala kungenakwenzeka ukubuza ngokunzulu ubunyani bembonakalo ephupheni elisandula kuxelwa. Kuba ekugqibeleni, ngaphandle kwento yokuba isiporho esicingelwayo sasingenakumbonisa igama kunye nomntu awayengenalwazi ngaye, ukuba iphupha njani emoyeni, kwaye elingenakuba nalo naluphi na uhlobo lwesicelo, lifumane. namhlanje ihambelana ngokugqibeleleyo negama, uluvo kunye namagama omntu obonisiweyo, kwaye ngaloo ndlela ngokudibanisa amaxesha kunye nemihla, akunakwenzeka ukuba sicinge naluphi na uhlobo lwentsebenziswano phakathi kwam kunye noDade, kunye nokungathembi okanye ukukrokra kukaDade, xa kuthelekiswa nendoda engazange icinge ngayo? Ithuba elimsulwa, okanye umnqa wephupha eliqhelekileyo, ngaba bakhe bavelisa imiphumo enjalo? Oku kuya kufuneka sikungqine, ukuba sifuna ukuthetha into efanelekileyo; kuba akukho nto iya kunyuswa ngamazwi angenamsebenzi. ukuba sifuna ukuthetha into efanelekileyo; kuba akukho nto iya kunyuswa ngamazwi angenamsebenzi. ukuba sifuna ukuthetha into efanelekileyo; kuba akukho nto iya kunyuswa ngamazwi angenamsebenzi.

Okwesibini, ndingathanda ukwazi ukuba u-Abbé de Fajole walufumana njani ulwazi oluyimfihlo kunye nolwazi olukhethekileyo awandiyalela ngalo, eLondon, ngo-1800, ukuba nditshise iincwadi zamanqaku awayezithanda kwi-Isle of Jersey. ngowe-1792. Enoba  izikrokro ezaziphenjelelwe kuye ukususela oko zawela emsebenzini, kuDade, okanye kum, ndizikholelwa zibubuxoki ngokulinganayo; kodwa beza njani kuye? Le yingxaki endingakwazi ukuyicombulula. Lowo wayebizwa ngokuba ngunongendi owathi, enomsindo, wayalela lo dade, ngokungathi uvela kuThixo, ukuba amthumelele umyalezo ocacileyo ukuze awutshabalalise umsebenzi, ngaba wayengayi  kuvuma.

ekwalileni kukaDade, obephethe ikhomishini? Kuya kuba ku-abbé ukuba asixelele ngayo; into eqinisekileyo kukuba wathetha nam phantse ngendlela efanayo naleyo wayethetha ngayo noSister. Kule ngcamango, u-Abbé wayefanele ukuba abe namava njengaye, ngokuthanda kukaThixo, isigqibo sabaphathi beCawa kunye nomqondiso womnqamlezo:

 

 

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unokukholelwa ukuba ngewayembonile enyamalala engumsi omnyama, kwaye naye zonke izikrokro zakhe zaziya kuthi shwaka.

 

Into eqinisekileyo kukuba uyise wobuxoki usebenza ngeendlela ezininzi emhlabeni: uneearhente ezininzi ezihlala zilungele ukuthanda iinkohliso zakhe kunye nemigibe yakhe. UBawo de Fajole, endimhlonelayo, akazange abe neembono ezintle ngaphandle koku, ndeyiseke kakhulu ngaloo nto; kodwa ebengayi kuba yindoda yokuqala eye yaqhathwa kwiingongoma ezininzi ngamaqhetseba endoda apha enxibe njengonongendi ngokubhetele kothusa ukuhlonela kwengcwele, awasilela kuyo izihlandlo ezininzi. UBawo, lowo ufuna inyaniso yodwa, akanakuyifumana iphosakele into yokuba indoda, ephethe ityala lentombazana engcwalisiweyo yiyo yonke into, ngoku isebenzise ingqekembe yokwenyani eyibeka phezu kwayo. isiphumo esibi ukuba ngewayevelise ngokuchasene naye igunya loluvo lwakhe. Wayecinga, ngaphandle kwamathandabuzo, ukuba wayewenza umsebenzi wakhe; ngenxa yoko andinako ukumkhanyela; kodwa nam bendicinga ukuba ndisenza okwam, kwaye ndilindele ubulungisa obufanayo kuye.

Masibuyele kuSister woMzalo.

Emva kolu bhalo lokugqibela, nolunganiki mdla kangako, uDade wakholelwa ukuba ekugqibeleni wakhululeka koko uThixo wayemcela kuye. Wacinga kuphela ngokumcela ukuba aphumelele, ezilungiselela ngakumbi kunangaphambili ukufa awayekugqala kungoku nje kungekudala, kunye nengxelo awayeza kuyinikela ngobomi bakhe nayo yonke imibhalo yakhe. Ekhululekile kumsebenzi wakhe, wazibhokoxa kuphela ekulungiseni isazela sakhe nomphefumlo wakhe, ngokuphindaphinda imithandazo, inguquko nenzondelelo. Izigulo zakhe nazo zanda umhla nezolo, kangangokuba wayekwazi ukuhamba nje egobile ngenxa yeentlungu awayeziva. Wayephuma kuphela esiya kwiofisi kawonke-wonke ngeeCawa nje ukuba iqalise ukubhiyozelwa kumaKatolika;

Wayenencoko rhoqo kwaye ngamanye amaxesha ezinde kakhulu kunye nonongendi kunye nabantu boluntu, abeza kumbonisana ngobunzima obahlukeneyo iimeko ezithi zibangele ngalo lonke ixesha. Yayimbi yaye ingenakuguqulwa kwabanye nakwabanye kuyo yonke into ephathelele ukholo nokuziphatha. Wawalela ngaphandle kwenceba kwaye ngaphandle kocalucalulo lonke unxibelelwano lwasemoyeni kunye nezahlulo, izithuko, nabangeneleli, de iBandla libe likubhengeza; kuba kwakungasekho mntu uphantsi kwayo yonke into eyayigqitywe liBandla. Wathi, yikhampasi yomKristu wokwenyaniso, lulawulo olungenasiphako alunikwa nguThixo, akanako ukuphambuka ngokululandela. Owulandelayo akaphenduli; nabani na owaphambukayo kuyo uya kuphendula ngento yonke. Hayi! yeyiphi iakhawunti,

Ngokuphathelele imilinganiselo yokuziphatha, wathi unongendi, ngaphandle kwendlu yakhe, ufanele abonakale oko akuko emehlweni ehlabathi, ngehambo yakhe entle, ngokuziphatha kwakhe okundilisekileyo, kwanangendlela emile ngayo impahla yakhe, awayichaza kakuhle. inkathalo kunye nokuchaneka, ngamanye amaxesha ukuvavanya ngokuchasene nabo babonakalisa ukungazithembi, besoyikisa ngengqumbo ka-J.-C., njl., njl.

Ukuziphatha kwakhe kwakungekho ngaphantsi kobunzima, xa kuthelekiswa nabantu behlabathi, kuyo yonke into ephathelele ukudibana kwabo. Wathi, ukuba ababophelwanga zizibhambathiso zenkolo, abanyanzelekanga kangako kwabo babhaptizwayo, phantsi kwesigwebo sokugwetyelwa. Nantoni na ethe yaphambuka kuyo kancinane kufuneka ibonakale ikrokrisa kwaye iyingozi kubo. Emva koko wagweba, njengomsebenzi kasathana, kungekuphela nje ibhola, umdaniso, umdlalo, umdlalo ohlekisayo, imiboniso, ukufundwa kweenoveli, iimpukane, i-make-up, kunye nazo zonke izinto ze-coquetry,

kodwa yonke into ethe, kwiifashoni ezamkelweyo, yabonakala isondela kuyo. Abavumeli amanenekazi okanye amanenekazi amancinci ukuba anxibe iinwele zobuxoki, esithi, ahluke kakhulu kumadoda anyanzelekileyo ukuba atyhileke rhoqo, iinwele zabo zinokuhlala zisenza ukungabikho kweenwele zendalo, kwaye, xa kuthelekiswa nabo, ubugcisa babunokwanelisa umnqweno wokukholisa abantu, kungekhona uThixo, ngokuphucula ubuhle obabusele buhenda kakhulu. Yayi, ngokutsho kwakhe, kukungathembeki kwizibhambathiso zobhaptizo, uhlobo lowexuko olumele ukuba lungamkholisi kakhulu uThixo. Wayefuna ukuba isikhonkwane setshefu sibekwe ngendlela yokuba kuthintelwe ezo zinto zicwangcisiweyo kunye nokungahoywa ngabom, okuqhelekileyo njengoko kuchasene nokuthozama kokwenene. Andazi ukuba abanye abantu bazakuyithatha njani isimilo sakhe, abangayenziyo yeyaBaseki beBandla; kodwa ndiyazi ukuba wabangcangcazelisa ngaphezu kwayo yonke loo nto, wada wabenza bancama ngonaphakade.

Xa abaNgcwele bangena kwintetho ngezinto ezinkulu zoKholo, thina

 

 

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bayakuqonda ngolwimi lwabo ukuba bakuva ukubaluleka kwalo nenyaniso. Ngokuqhelekileyo, xa bethetha ngayo, abapheleli nje ekuthetheni nasekujikweni kwebinzana, kodwa kwanethowuni engaqhelekanga, amandla eemvakalelo athetha ngaphezu kwamagama. Ngoko Kuvela phi na ukuba bazibaxe iintsilelo zabo? Enjalo, ngakumbi ngasekupheleni kobomi bakhe, yayisoloko ibonakala iDade of the Nativity. Xa wayethetha ngoThixo, ngosindiso, ngobubi, okanye ngesidima, wakwenza oko ngamandla nesidima esifanele eso sifundo sikhulu; kwaye phezu kwayo nje indlela elula yokuthetha, eyayidla ngokubonakala ihlekwa nangawuphi na omnye umlomo ngaphandle kowakhe, wayeyazi indlela yokubeka umdla omkhulu kuyo yonke into awayeyithetha, ukusa kwinqanaba lokuba abona bantu bafundileyo beze kuye baze bambuze. waphulaphula ngenyameko enkulu. Akukho bani wayefaneleka ngaphezu kwakhe ukunika ukubaluleka kweenyaniso ezinkulu zonqulo. Kukuba ezi nyaniso, awayeziva ngokugqibeleleyo, zinkulu ngokwazo, kwaye i intetho.

Ekugqibeleni uDade Wokuzalwa kukaYesu wayesondela esiphelweni esonwabisayo somsebenzi wakhe. Wayebuthathaka ngenxa yobudala, ediniwe zizifo, iintsizi zalo lonke uhlobo, iintlungu kunye neembandezelo awayetyhubela kuzo ubomi bakhe obuhlwempuzekileyo, akazange.

ixhaswa ngaphezu kommangaliso; yayingekho ngaphezu kwamathambo aphilayo. Ecatshukiswa lihlabathi apho engazange abone nantoni na ngaphandle kwezifundo zembandezelo kunye neenyembezi, kwaye apho wayesabona khona kunanini ngaphambili, umphefumlo wakhe ixesha elide wawubonakala udada phakathi kothando olufuna ukushiya ubomi ukuze uhlangane noThixo wakhe, kwaye ukuzithoba okufuna ukuva ubunzima ngakumbi ukuze ulufanele olu lonwabo ngakumbi. Non mori sed pati.

Kwakusele kulithutyana nje elingephi emva kokuba ebandezeleke, emva kokugula kakhulu, ekuye kwacingelwa ukuba akafanele aphile. Yayiluhlobo oluthile lokuvuza kwesifuba, apho ekugqibeleni wahlangulwa ngokusetyenziswa kwewayini ye-stislitic (x) ekrakra kakhulu kwaye inezothe kakhulu kwincasa. Ukuphila kwakhe akuzange kube kudala, kwaye uDade wayeyilindele. I-dropsy, eyinyani okanye yobuxoki, ekukholelwa ukuba iphilisiwe, ngokukhawuleza yajika yaba sisilonda esibindini, esathi samkhupha emva kweeveki ezintandathu okanye ezisixhenxe zokusebenzisa amayeza, nto leyo eyanceda ukwandisa ukubandezeleka kwakhe kancinane, kwaye mhlawumbi -kukwenza ukuba baphile ngakumbi kwaye bafaneleke ngakumbi.

i-silica  (?)

Ngeli xesha wafumana uMthendeleko oNgcwele izihlandlo ezininzi enokholo nokuzinikela okwakulindelwe kuye. Phezu kwabo nje ugonyamelo lweentlungu zakhe, wahlala emandlalweni kancinane kangangoko anako, yaye nalapho wayefuna kuphela ukuhlala ephaphile ubusuku obubini okanye obuthathu bokugqibela, egcina ingqondo yakhe iphilile de kube ngumzuzu wokugqibela, yaye ngokufuthi egcina ingqondo yakhe iphilile. ngomgwebo omkhulu kunye nobukho bengqondo kunye nabantu abamncedayo. Abantu beza kuyityelela (1); Ngokuqhelekileyo iincoko zakhe zazisekelwe kwimibandela yokuhlonela uThixo. Wayehlala ebeka umphefumlo kuwo owawunika abanye, kwaye ngokuphindaphindiweyo wayehamba ngokude ayenze buthathaka ngokwakhe, ngaphandle kokuqaphela kwakhe, wayeyiqhelile loo nto. Wade wathetha nomlilo omninzi, ngesinye isihlandlo, kumntu owathi wayefuna ukukhunjuzwa ngomsebenzi wakhe. Ebona ukuba lo mntu unenkani usafuna ukubuyela etyaleni, waxelela umgcini wakhe ukuba umxelele yonke into:Ndiye , watsho, ndiyiqhubele iphini entloko. Ukuba ebengeva nto, ebengandiva xa ndiphinda ndithetha naye.

Inenekazi elithile laloo dolophu lafika ngenye imini lize kucela imithandazo yalo nentsikelelo yalo ngenxa yalo nangomntwana walo omncinane, elamnika lona: “Awu! Nkosazana yam, watsho  uDade, ingaba imithandazo yam ingenza ntoni? Kuxhomekeke kwiCawe eNgcwele ukusikelela abantwana bakho. Noko ke, uyabasikelela ngokubanqwenelela intsikelelo yezulu  .

 

Nangona engazange achaze ngokuqinisekileyo ukuba wayenesityhilelo seyure kunye nomzuzu wokufa kwakhe, kukho isizathu esibambekayo sokucinga ukuba wayenentetho eyomeleleyo ngaso, singasathethi nto. Wayedla ngokuba nayo

wacela uThixo ukuba afe ngomhla kunye neyure xa wenza isibhambathiso sakhe sokuqala sokuzinza, ezinikele kwiNtombi Enyulu esikelelekileyo phambi komfanekiso weNkosikazi Yethu yaseMarshes. (Kwakumalunga nemin’ emaqanda ngomhla woNyuko.) Ngokukhawuleza nje ukuba isigulo sakhe sokugqibela siqalise, wacheba kakhulu iinwele zakhe. iinwele zakhe kunye neenzipho zakhe, kwaye yiloo nto esinabo zifutshane kakhulu: ukususela ngomhla wokuqala ka-Agasti, uye wacela ngokuphindaphindiweyo umhla waloo nyanga; Bamphendula ke, bathi, ibiyimini yeshumi elinanye enyangeni leyo, yaphendula yathi, Kusengoweshumi elinanye kuphela. Ixesha elingakanani! Xa waxelelwa ukuba yayiyintsimbi yesibhozo ngoMhla woNyuko, waphendula ngendlela yokuba aqonde ukuba wayenqwenela ukuba sekuhlwile. Kwaye ngomhla weshumi elinesihlanu, owawuyimini yokufa kwakhe, wayedla ngokubuza malunga nexesha, engqina ukuba wayefuna isiqingatha semini, ngaphandle kokuthetha okungakumbi. Wayerhalela ukufika apho, wawusithi utyhola ilanga ngokucotha kwalo ukuba lilongezele usuku olungagqibekiyo, okanye liza kuba sisifingo semini engapheliyo.

 

 

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ukuvula ucango oluya kunaphakade omkhulu nolonwabo.

Ingakumbi ekubeni isifuba sakhe sasizaliswe ngala maqhula anezilonda awayemxhela, wayedla ngokuwancama, ivumba lawo kuphela elalinganyamezeleki kubo bonke ababekho; La maqhula, abhengeza ukunyibilika komzimba wakhe, amongamela, kakhulu bubufebe bawo obunqabileyo njengemizamo ebekufuneka ayenze ukuba alindele; maxa wambi wayenqwenela ukuphela, nangona wayengakhalazi ngako. Udade wethu, unongendi owayemncedisa wathi kuye ngenye imini, ngoku inkosi yakwazulu iseza kwindebe yakhe ekrakra. umama wam, waphinda waqala uDade, ndicinga ukuba inyongo kunye neviniga iya kuba mbi kakhulu;... kodwa iyimfuneko kwaye ndiyamsikelela uThixo ngayo ...

Ngexesha lokugula kwakhe, wayenike izilumkiso eziluncedo kubantu abahlukeneyo emhlabeni nakwindawo ekufutshane, apho abaninzi bazuza khona. Ezi zilumkiso zayijika imeko yesazela sabo nomyalelo ekwakufuneka bawubeke kuwo ukuze balungise oko uThixo wayebangcikive ngako; waxelela unongendi ukuba kufuneka ahlolisise isazela sakhe, wamcacisela isizathu yaye ukususela nini; walatha umalathisi awayeye kuye

wayeziphendulela, kwanesohlwayo awayesifumana kuso; eyafunyaniswa iyinyani kuzo zonke iinkalo. Uxelele abanye ababini ukuba bamele ukuba boyike kakhulu kwaye bazibhokoxa ekulungiseni umsebenzi wabo. Walumkisa uMadam la Supérieure ukuba uya kuba nobunzima obukhulu; ukuba uThixo wayeneminqamlezo yentsimbi awayemgcinele yona, kodwa ukupheliswa kweembandezelo kuya kumnika intuthuzelo eninzi.

Uthe akubona ukuba isiphelo sakhe sisondele, wazilungiselela kangangoko anako ukwamkela iisakramente zokugqibela zeBandla, waza wazilungiselela ngcono wathandazela ukuba kungene abefundisi, oonongendi kunye nabantu kuphela egumbini lakhe. anokuyidinga. Wafumana, ngentshiseko ephindwe kabini, i-viaticum engcwele, ukutyunjwa okugqithisileyo, kunye nokuxhamla ngokufa okulungileyo ngokuhambelana nomyalelo weemonki zaseFrancisca. Wazikhuthaza, waza wavakalisa kule meko, phakathi kwezinye izinto, isenzo sokuzisola apho bonke abancedisi bashukunyiswa iinyembezi.  Umbingeleli obemlungiselela wemka, eqinisekile kunakuqala zizinto ebesele ezithethile ngaye: ungcwele. Wayethe cwaka kubantu abangayithethiyo cenga.

Emva kwesi senzo sonqulo, wabulela wonk’ ubani, waza wathandazela ukuba amshiye yedwa noThixo wakhe, awayesandul’ ukumfumana okwesihlandlo sokugqibela. Ebulela, wathi ukususela ngoku ukuya phambili sinokuvumela nabani na ofuna ukwenjenjalo, ekubeni ukubona ibhinqa elifayo kunokuba nemiphumo emihle: “Umbono wokufa neziphelo zethu zokugqibela, wathi, usoloko uyingenelo kwabaphilayo. Akubonakali ngathi idemon yamkhathaza njengoko isiphelo sakhe sasisondela: yayilelo themba endandimenze ukuba akhawule ngalo, ngokumqinisekisa ngokuchasene nezisongelo awayezenze kuye kwixesha elidlulileyo ukuze amthintele ukuba andibhale oko uThixo wayenxibelelane naye. yena (1). Bambukela kuphela ubusuku obuthathu esenzela yonke into, kwaye nalapho wanyamezela ngobunzima. Wayethanda ukuthethwa naye ngoThixo,

(1) Sinokukholelwa ukuba uThixo wamnika oko wayekucelile kuye izihlandlo ezininzi ngala mazwi: Akwaba isiphelo sobomi bam besiya kuba seluxolweni njengesiqalo yaye indelelo yayimbalwa!

 

 

 

Ekugqibeleni, umhla weshumi elinesihlanu ka-Agasti 1798, umhla wokuQiniswa komkhuseli wakhe omkhulu, ufika. Lusuku alindele ukuba abelane ngalo ngoloyiso lwakhe esele loyise ngalo izihlandlo ezininzi kwiintshaba zakhe. UDade woMzalo wavuya; kodwa akazi nto ngayo, kakhulu

inkosikazi yakhe, kwaye woyika kakhulu ukushiya ngasemva nayiphi na ingcamango enokuba luncedo kuye. Uyabuza ukuba kunini na kusasa, aze athethe ngoThixo kubantu abahlukahlukeneyo, aze athethe nabo ngaloo nto ngobuso nethoni evakalisa ukwaneliseka. Bamngenisa ke umkaninakazi, obeze kumbona; Ngemvume awayeyifumene, walahla ivili lakhe elijikelezayo kunye nezinye izinto ezincinci ezimkholisayo, kwaye lo mlimi ulungileyo wamshiya eneenyembezi emehlweni akhe.

UDade Wokuzalwa kukaYesu wathetha ngobunzima ngakumbi kunangaphambili, kwaye kwakunzima kakhulu ukumva, ngoko isifuba sakhe sasicinezelwe. Kwakumalunga nentsimbi yeshumi okanye yeshumi elinanye, kwaye yonke into eyayikuye yabhengeza umphumo oqhelekileyo wokuguquguquka, ukuphela okupheleleyo: kwakulindelwe kakuhle ukuba isikhundla sakhe singenakuhlala ixesha elide, kwaye wayeyilindele ngaphezu kwakhe nabani na. Elele elukhukweni lwakhe lweentlungu, enomfanekiso woThixo wakhe ofayo phambi kwakhe, phezu kwakhe indlela yezibhambathiso zakhe, nasecaleni kwamanzi angcwele awayedla ngokufefa ngawo; ewubambile wonke umoya wakhe kunye nako konke ukuzola komphefumlo wakhe, yena

ejonge ukufa ngeliso eliqinisekileyo, wayicinga ngomoya ozolileyo,

 

 

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wambona esiza ngaphandle koloyiko oluncinci. Ewe, eqinisekile ngomvuzo wakhe, wabona ngovuyo esondela esiphelweni esonwabisayo semisebenzi yakhe, kwaye wabonakala edelela, ngokuzithemba kwakhe okuqinileyo, yonke into yokuba umbono wamaphakade unokunika eyona nto yoyikeka kwabanye abantu abafayo.

Ngecala emva kwentsimbi yeshumi elinanye wayesalelwe ngumphefumlo omnye kuphela, nto leyo eyayingenakuvakala; kodwa intshukumo yemilebe yakhe, inkangeleko yobuso bakhe, nemiqondiso awayesayenza, yathi, xa wayesifa, wayenawo wonke umoya wakhe. Amehlo akhe, ngamanye amaxesha ayejonge ezulwini, kwaye ngamanye amaxesha athi ntsho emnqamlezweni wakhe, alathe zombini iinjongo awayejolise kuzo, eyona nto ayithandayo, kunye neenjongo zethemba lakhe. Ngesicelo sakhe, isandla sakhe sasisoloko sithatyathwa ukuze simncede enze uphawu lomnqamlezo aqiniseke ngokwakhe, okanye ukuba makancamise iinyawo zomnqamlezo wakhe. Wayesazama ukuphinda amagama angcwele kaYesu noMariya, okanye izenzo ezithile zokholo, zethemba, okanye zothando, ezazithethiswa kuye, awayethanda ukuziva. Kwilixa elidlule

ngokufuthi ezi nkonzo zobuthixo, lo wamva, endaweni yokuba athabathe isandla sakhe, yena ngokwakhe wenza umqondiso ongcwele ebusweni bakhe ngamanzi angcwele, yaye uDade Wokuzalwa kukaYesu wabonisa umbulelo wakhe ngoncumo olunoncumo olukhulu.” Ubabalo waphinda kabini ngobukrelekrele obukhulu. Emini kwabetha iwotshi yedolophu. Kwimizuzu embalwa kamva, abo babehleli kunye naye baqonda ukuba akasabanikezi naluphi na uphawu lolwazi, nokuba ubuso bakhe baba notshintsho oluthile. Baguqa, yaye kwakuxa babemthandazela ukuba le ntombazana ingcwele ngoxolo yanikela umphefumlo wayo kuThixo wayo. Sic moritur justus . Umlindo wasemva kwemini wafika kwimizuzu emihlanu okanye emithandathu emva kokufa kwakhe.

Yafa ngolo hlobo ke, kunyaka wayo wamashumi amathandathu anesibhozo, le ntombazana ingaqhelekanga, enokuthi, ngengqiqo, imgqale njengegeza leminyaka yayo, ifanelwe ngandlela zonke ukuthelekiswa nako konke oko iBandla likuhloniphayo njengeyona inkulu neyona ingaqhelekanga phakathi kwabantu. isini sakhe, angakhe amnike sona ngandlel’ ithile yesidima, nakukungcungcuthekisa kwesimilo sakhe; okona kukhwankqisayo kukuba, ngaphandle kweeleta, engenamfundo, phantse engakwazi ukuzichaza, enyanzelekile ukuba asebenzise isandla sasemzini, walingana, mhlawumbi wade wagqwesa kwimibhalo yakhe, konke oko abanye bakwenzileyo ngendlela encomekayo ngohlobo lwempefumlelo. okanye ngokomoya. Ukuba umsebenzi wakhe, njengoko unjalo, ubonakala kubaphengululi abaninzi ukuba baphumelele kuyo yonke into ebhalwe nguSaint Thérèse ngokumangalisayo, bekuya kuba njani ukuba, kunye Umoya kunye nenkcubeko yokugqibela, wayenokuthi, eyedwa, aphuhlise kwaye aveze izimvo zakhe ezintle, umhleli wakhe anokuthi azenze buthathaka kakhulu? Ke masithi ngaphandle

uloyiko, uDade wokuzalwa kukaYesu wavuswa kumhla wethu ukuze abonise, ngokwakhe, ukuba ingalo kaThixo ayifinyezwanga, nokuba unakho, ngasekupheleni kweenkulungwane, ukuzisa eBandleni lakhe imimangaliso efanele abo. ezithe zalatha iziqalo zayo, nezithi amahlelo angaze abe nako ukuzikhankanya ngokuthanda kwawo.

Kuthe nje ukuba uphelelwe lixesha, kunokuba ilizwi likawonke-wonke limmisele ukuba abe ngcwele ngokweziqinisekiso ezizezabo kuphela abo iCawe ibamkele yaza yavakalisa ubungcwele babo. Unongendi ongcwele usandula ukufa , batsho. Kweza izihlwele zabantu, zicela ukuwubona umzimba wongcwele.. Waboniswa ixesha elide, enxibe umkhwa wakhe wenkolo, ubuso bakhe, izandla neenyawo zakhe zingagqunywanga, ukuze anelise inyameko yabo babenokuzinikela ekumnikeni imbeko ngenxa yesidima sabakhonzi abakhulu bakaThixo. Kungekudala umandlalo wakhe wagqunywa ziincwadi, iirosari, iintsalela nezinye izixhobo zobuthixo ababefuna ukuzichukumisa. Sabuza ngokunyanisekileyo, ngomdla sabelana ngezona zinto zincinane zisenokuba zezakhe. Sasifuna ukuba neenwele zakhe, yena

umkhusane wentambo yayo, namaso erosari yayo; de amadlavu akhe abiweyo. Bancomana ngokubalaseleyo kwimithandazo yakhe, yaye nanamhlanje, akukho nto ixhaphake ngakumbi kwiidolophu namaphandle aselumelwaneni, kunokuthandaza nokwenza izibhambathiso zokuzukisa ukuZalwa Okungcwele .

Wayecele uMnu. Duval, umlawuli waseLaignelet, ukuba angcwatyelwe kumangcwaba erhamente. Kunokuba ayichase loo nto, uMnu . Lo dade wathabatha olu kongezelelo njengento ehlekisayo kuye, engazange avume ukuyiphendula, ngenxa yokuhlonela umbingeleli olungileyo; kodwa emva kokuba emkile, waxelela oonongendi ukuba umfundisi wayefuna ukuhlekisa ngaye . Nangona kunjalo, wathetha ngokunzulu kakhulu, kwaye wayengalindelanga, ekuthetheni naye ngolo hlobo, ukuba kungekudala uza kungcwatyelwa ecaleni kwakhe, emva kokubulawa ngokungenabuntu phantse kwimisebenzi yakhe ziintshaba zelizwe.

 

 

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Ngoko ke, uDade wokuzalwa kukaYesu wangcwatyelwa emangcwabeni akhe, phambi komnyango omkhulu wecawa, yaye, kukholelwa ukuba, kwicala elingasezantsi; UMadame Sainte-Reine, naye ongumcwangcisi wedolophu yenkolo, ubambe icala elichasene nomnyango omnye, kwaye

UMnu. Duval uphakathi kwezi zibini. Nokuba yeyiphi na imbeko esinayo ngenxa yenkumbulo yakhe, kunye naleyo kaMadame Sainte-Reine, besisoloko sisohlula le kaDade wokuZalwa. Ingcwaba lakhe lodwa sele lidumile. Abantu baya apho rhoqo ukuze bazincomele emithandazweni yabo. Ngesi sihlandlo, iinyani ezingaqhelekanga zide zixelwe ekungafanelanga ndigwebe ngazo. Masicinge into esiyenzayo; Kum, andidingi ukuba uThixo enze imimangaliso emitsha ukuze ndikholelwe, ubuncinci okwethutyana, kulonwabo lomphefumlo onobuhle, imibhalo, ubomi nokufa kubonakala kum uthotho lwezibakala ezingummangaliso ezithi, zisuka kumyalelo oqhelekileyo, ungandivumeli ndithandabuze nakancinane ubungcwele bayo.

Ngoko ke, ehlala encomeka kwabangcwele bakhe, uThixo uyasivumela ukuba sibavavanye; Uyabacikida ngokwakhe ngexesha lokudla kwabo ubomi, aze abazukise ngokuphindiweyo emva kokufa kwabo. Enganeliswanga kukubanika umvuzo wokuthembeka ezulwini, usababuyisela emhlabeni ngokubenza baphile.

ngonaphakade kwinkumbulo yabantu, ngaphandle kokoyika kwabo ukususela ngoku ukuya phambili kwinkohliso yabakhohlakeleyo: In memoria œterna erit justus, ab auditione mala non timebit. ( INdu. 111, 8, 7 kodwa azizange zithi shwaka ngokukhawuleza emehlweni akhe kunokuba, ngokunqula okungenakuzithandela, anikele, nangona yena ngokwakhe, ubulungisa bubuhle awayebudelile ekuqaleni, noko kunjalo abuncomayo emfihlekweni. Akasathethi ngaphandle kokubancoma aba bantu babalaseleyo abangenabuganga bokulandela okanye ukuxelisa imizekelo yabo.

Ngaloo ndlela, ngoxa udumo lwabo babebizwa ngokuba zizilumko zeli xesha, ngoxa olo lookumkani naboyisi luthi shwaka njengothuli oluphephethwa ngumoya; ngelixa igama labo liwela ngokuntlitheka ekulibalekeni, kwaye lingcwatywe kunye nabo kwingcwaba elinye, ilungisa, eloyisileyo phezu komona kunye nexesha, akukho nto yoyikayo kwintshutshiso. Udunyiswa ziintshaba zakhe ngokwazo, kwaye uphila ngonaphakade kwinkumbulo yabantu: Esikhumbuzweni

i-eterna erit justus. Igama lakhe liya lisiba namandla ngakumbi ukutyhubela iinkulungwane, yaye uzuko lwakhe ngokuqhelekileyo luqala apho ludla ngokuphelela khona olo lweentshaba zakhe.

Emva kokufunda ingxelo yeminyaka esibhozo yokugqibela kaDade ongasekhoyo wokuZalwa kukaYesu, ebhalwe nguM. Genet, asibonanga nto apho engakhange ibonakale ngathi ingqinelana kakhulu nayo yonke into esiyaziyo ngokuba ngamangqina kuyo. Iiferns. NgoJulayi 27, 1803. UMarie Louise Le Breton, uDade Sainte-Madeleine, ophakamileyo; UMichelle Pel. Binel des Séraphins, idiphozithi; uBlanche Binel waseSaint Elizabeth; L. Binel, usodolophu; UCatherine Prime Binel; uLouise Binel; Anne Binel; White Binel Hallmark.

 

 

 

 

 

IILETA

KUNYE NEZICANDELO ZEILETA

 

Ifakwe kuMhleli ngexesha lohlelo lokuqala lwalo msebenzi, kwaye ukusukela oko.

 

KuM. Beaucé, umthengisi weencwadi.

 

Mhlekazi,

Xa ndabhalela uM. l'abbé Genet ukuba ndingqine kuye ngokupheleleyo ulwaneliseko olwandinika lona xa ndifunda umsebenzi wakhe ongoSista wokuzalwa kukaYesu, andizange ndilindele ukuba angancamathisela kule nkundla ixabiso elaneleyo lokuyenza ibonakale esidlangalaleni, nazo zonke iimvume azifumeneyo. oogqirha abakumgangatho owahlukileyo. Nangona kunjalo, andikude nokurhoxa kuyo yonke into endiyithethileyo kuye malunga nale mveliso, enokuthi, iyinyani, ibe namava amaninzi aphikisanayo, kodwa avumelanayo kakuhle neemvakalelo zam ngesizathu esikhulu sazo zonke iintlekele zenguqu yethu, oko kukuthi, kuko konke ukungahloneli Thixo kwenkulungwane okwakhululwayo, ngandlel’ ithile, ngokuchasene nonqulo lukaYesu Kristu; lo Thixo asinika ngaye  iingcamango ezilunge kangaka, ezibekekileyo, ezisesikweni.

 

 

(490-494)

 

 

Ndiyakucela kuphela ukuba wongeze koko uBawo Genet wayefuna ukukubhala kwileta yam endathi ndenze iingqwalaselo ezithile kuye kwizinto ezithile, awathi wathembisa ukuyisusa okanye ukuyitshintsha; nto leyo ngokungathandabuzekiyo aya kuba eyenzile kumbhalo onawo. Ndisazi kakuhle ukuba asikokwam ukuzibeka njengomgwebi wezityhilelo kunye nezibikezelo eziqulethwe kulo msebenzi, ndathabatha ithuba lokufika kukaPius VII eParis ukuze ndinike ubuNgcwele bakhe ikopi endandiyifumene kwidiphozithi evela. M. Genet ngokwakhe. Ngelo xesha ndandinethemba lokuba lo msebenzi wawungayi kushicilelwa de uhlolwe zezona jaji zinobuchule kuzo zonke. Ndiyazi ukuba lowo yayingumnqweno kaDade woMzalo, oyena loyiko lwakhe yayikukuzikhwebula nakancinci elukholweni lweCawe. umhleli.

Ndinewonga lokuba,

Umkhonzi wakho, Abbé Barruel.

NgoFebruwari 10  , 1818.

 

 

Izicatshulwa ezivela kwiileta ezivela kuMadame Le Breton, owaziwa ngokuba ngu-Sainte-Madeleine, ophakamileyo kuDade woZalo.

Mhlekazi,

Emva kokuba ndifundile ukuba akusifumani isihlomelo (1), ndagqiba ekubeni ndisikhuphele ukuze sikuthumelele sona. Umsebenzi wawunamandla kwaye ubuhlungu; kuba ndiyakholwa ukuba iya kuqulatha umqulu wonke...; kodwa, mhlekazi, phambi kokuba uyiprinte, iyimfuneko ngokupheleleyo ukuba izotywe yi-ecclesiastic enolwazi; kuba ngoku kum kubonakala ngathi zonke ezi zinto zintle zifana nedayimani ebekwe kwilothe. Kukho ubuninzi bokuphindaphinda ... Ndiyakuqinisekisa ukuba akukho nto itshintshileyo okanye yongezwa kuyo. Unjalo njengokuba samfumanayo, esinika kuphela uzuko lukaThixo nosindiso lwemiphefumlo...

(1) Isihlomelo athetha ngaso uPhakamileyo apha, nendandisicelile kuye, siqulathe konke oko kwakuyalelwa nguDade woZalo ngaphambi nje kokufa kwakhe; ezi ncwadi zamanqaku zenza umxholo womqulu wesine. Zazinikwa mna yindlalifa kaMnumzana Genet.

 

Le Breton, ebizwa ngokuba nguSainte-Magdeleine.

James, 13 May 1818.

Qaphela . Oonongendi abaceba idolophu abashiyekileyo kuluntu lwaseFougères baye bathatha umhlala-phantsi baya eSaint-James, kunye nomphathi wabo.

Mhlekazi,

Wamkele umbulelo wam ngeekopi ezintathu othe wandithumelela zona ngabatshana bam. Nje ukuba ndizifumene, ndazifunda, ukuze ndinazise into endikholelwa ukuba ayilunganga; kodwa kufuneka kuvunywe ukuba oku kuncinci kakhulu. Ndiza kukubhalela, ndize ndikunike amagama afanelekileyo angabhalwanga kakuhle: Yeha! ukuba yonke into andixelele yona isekude ukuba ibhalwe phantsi! Ndiyavuya ukubona abantu ababewuchasile lo msebenzi, ngoku bafuna ukuwufunda. Ukuthatha ngaphandle kokubandlulula, andithandabuzeki ukuba kuya kuba mnandi kakhulu, kwaye

ekuphela kwento endiyinqwenelayo, uzuko lukaThixo, nosindiso lwemiphefumlo, nokulungelwa nina  . Kufuneka ukuba usifumene  esongezo

bebebuza. inika umdla njengencwadi yonke, ukuba  ndingadinwa

yalatha ukufunda, nokuba ndicelwa kakhulu ukuba ndiyiboleke, kangangokuba ndikufumanisa kunzima ukwanelisa wonke umntu. Oku, ndiyathemba, kuya kubonelela ngokusasazwa okukhulu ngakumbi, ngakumbi kuhlelo lwesibini oluya kuchaneka ngakumbi, noluya kuba nomfanekiso wale Ntombi ingcwele. Fumana kwakhona isiqinisekiso sombulelo wam kunye nentlonipho endinewonga lokuba kuyo, kwiiNtliziyo eziNgcwele zikaYesu noMariya,

Mhlekazi,

Umkhonzi wakho othobeke kakhulu, uLe Breton, obizwa ngokuba nguSainte-Magdeleine.

 

James, Juni 20, 1818.

Mhlekazi,

Ngoku unayo yonke into oyixelelwa nguDade woZalo. Wayesoloko egcina yonke into eyimfihlelo engaqhelekanga, kangangokuba uninzi loonongendi ababehlala naye babengenalwazi ngayo. Abanye bakrokrela kuphela; kodwa wandixelela amaxesha amaninzi ukuba wayenokukhetha ukuzixela zonke izono zakhe kunokuba avume neyona nto incinci. Udla ngokundicela ukuba ndimthobe ezingqondweni zabantu ababonakala bemxabisa; wade wavumela ukuba kucingelwe ukuba wakhulela ebuntwaneni bakhe emva kokugula kakhulu, ukuze aphelise uluvo oluhle awayeluboniswa. Ukuba wayendinika ukuzithemba okupheleleyo, kuphela xa uM. Genet engekho. Ekubeni ngoko wayengoyena mkhulu, wandixelela oko iNkosi yethu yamazisayo kuye, ngaphambi kokuba ibhalwe, ukufumanisa ukuba ndingayifumana ifanelekile, kwaye ndihlala ndiyivuma, andinakukwazi ukuyibhala ngokwam, ngenxa yokoyika ukubonwa. UMam Michelle Pélagie Binel, owaziwa ngokuba nguLes Séraphins, eyedwa kum ngokufihlakeleyo, waza wafa ngowe-1817, wanikwa umyalelo wokuba abhale. Bonke abanye oonongendi basenokuba nenxalenye nje yezinto onazo, kodwa abaninzi bebeya kukuxelela ukuba baye bakheka yihambo yakhe ngandlela zonke, kwanangabantu behlabathi awayephila nabo kwiminyaka yokugqibela yobomi bakhe. Unongendi owayemmamele kwityala lakhe, nowayebonakala emchasile, wandixelela ukuba akazange ambone esenza isiphoso ngokuzithandela. Yazityhila (x) kuphela ngokuthetha ngothando lobuthixo. Baguquka ubuso bakhe, nelizwi likaThixo elathethwa nguye. ndangena ezinzulwini zomphefumlo: zange kubekho mntu ukhe wandichukumisa ngolu hlobo; abanye baye banamava njengam. Nokuba ilungile kangakanani imibhalo yakhe, inamandla amancinane kakhulu kuneyakhe ivaliwe.

(x) ichongiwe (???) ichongiwe (?)

 

Inqanawa eyayibangela umdla kakhulu yalahleka elwandle, esingagcinanga neqhekeza layo. Wayesoloko esixelela ukuba uThixo uyamthethelela. Ngoko ke akukho nanye esiyigcinileyo. Isihlomelo endakuthumelela sona, ekufeni kwakhe, sasisezandleni zikaM. le Saunier, owayesakuba ngumfundisi werhamente yaseParcé, ummeli wakhe emva kokuba exilongwe nguM. Vafral, umfundisi nomfundisi omkhulu, owayehlala eSaint-James. , owahlukileyo ngenzululwazi yakhe nokulunga kwakhe. Le yokugqibela wayiphathisa uMademoiselle Beaumond, umrhwebi kwindawo enye, owathatha le kopi ingabhalwanga, apho ndayibhala khona, eli nenekazi liselula lingafuni ukwahlukana nalo. La madoda mabini asweleke kwiminyaka  emininzi eyadlulayo.

iminyaka; noSister of the Nativity wafa kwiminyaka emine ngaphambi kokuba uM. Genet abuyele eFransi. Besendimkile ixesha elide. Andazi ukuba kwenzeka njani ukuba emva kokusebenza kula maphepha okugqibela, aphulukane nawo; Ndeva nje uba ubaboleke bakhuphela, bangxolwa andazi noba baphi. Ezi zodwa zazenziwe eFransi: zonke izinto ozishicileyo zaziseNgilani. Abanye bafuna oko

M. Genet ukuze lo msebenzi ushicilelwe, bekusoloko kukho imiqobo.

Olo, mhlekazi, lulo lonke ulwazi endinokukunika lona, ​​ngamana lunokwanela.

 

 

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ukuze ugqibelele umsebenzi kwaye ndikungqinele inkoliseko yam.

Fumana isiqinisekiso sentlonipho endinewonga lokuba kwiiNtliziyo eziNgcwele zikaYesu noMariya.

Mhlekazi, esona sicaka sakho sithobekile, uDe Sainte Magdelaine.

James, Juni 28, 1818.

PS Wayengenamntu obhalayo ngaphandle kukaM. le Dean de la Pellerine kunye

UMnu Genet. Unazo iileta zakhe.

 

 

 

Izicatshulwa ezivela kwiileta zikaNkosazana Louise Binel.

(uMademoiselle uLouise Binel, intombi kaM. Binel, uSodolophu waseFougères, kunye nomtshana woonongendi ababini base-Urbanists abathembekileyo kwiSister of the Nativity; ezizezi: Madame des Séraphins (Michelle-Pélagie Binel), kunye noMadame de Sainte-Elisabeth (Blanche Binel ), wayenobudlelwane obukhethekileyo nobusondelelene kakhulu noSista Wokuzalwa kuka-Antikazi bakhe ababini, kwanyanzeleka ukuba babuyele kwiintsapho zabo xa beshiya indawo abahlala kuyo, babeqokelele kubo le Ncoko ingcwele, kwaye kungaphakathi kolu sapho luhloniphekileyo apho akhoyo. wafa.)

Fougeres, ngoJuni 12, 1818.

Mhlekazi,

... Ndiyabulela kakhulu ngokundixelela ukuba kuzakubakho uhlelo lwesibini; kuba ndalifumana ndalikroba elokuqala, kodwa andizange ndisifumane isongezelelo awayenaso uM. Genet yedwa. Yayinamaphepha angamakhulu amabini, kwaye yayibhalwe ngesandla sikamakazi isuka kwiiSeraphim. UM. Genet wayibhala ngaphambi nje kokufa kwakhe. Ndineprojekthi yokumthumelela inqaku elincinci lenqaku, elingahambelaniyo nesiganeko. Ndafumanisa ekuhambeni kwexesha ukuba sasisandul’ ukuphulukana naye.

Ndiyayibhekisa kuwe, mhlekazi....

Louise Binel.

Fougeres, ngoJulayi 5, 1818.

Mhlekazi,

.... Ukukubeka endaweni yokuqinisekisa ukuba unawo na amanqaku

Inyani, ibhalwe phantsi komyalelo kaDade woZalo nguMadame des Séraphins, ongumakazi wam, ndacinga, mhlekazi, ukuba andinakwenza ngcono kunokuba ndidlulisele kuwe ngesandla sakhe. Wofumana ke ngoko  kuvaliweyo incwadi, awandibhalela yona kunyaka ongaphambi kokufa kwakhe; kuba bendinentlungu yokuphulukana naye kunyaka ophelileyo, ngepasika. Ndingakuxelela ukuba wayeyingcwele, njengodade wabo uMadame de Sainte-Élisabeth. Udade BokuZalwa wenza into enkulu ngayo. Bekuya kubathuthuzela kakhulu oomakazi ukubona imisebenzi yakhe ishicilelwe. Siye saba nethamsanqa lokuba ngabanini bobathathu ukusukela oko bemka kwindawo yabo. Basishiya iminyaka eliqela emva kokufa kukaDade, ukuya kungena kwindawo entsha, eyasekwa eSaint-James, Nks

kaSainte-Magdeleine, owayeyingxubakaxaka yabo, nokuba bawushiye umhlaba baze bafe kwi-cloister. Uxolo, mhlekazi, ndiphume kancinci esihlokweni. Ndikhethe le leta kumakazi, kuba undixelela ngowethu

Dade othandekayo, kwaye undazise ukuba uBawo Barruel wathumela ikopi yemibhalo yakhe kubawo wethu ongcwele uPope. Njengoko umakazi wayesele egula ngoku wayendibhalela, isandla sakhe sitshintshile kancinci. Nangona kunjalo, ndiyakholelwa ukuba uya kubona ukuba iincwadi zamanqaku onazo zisecaleni kwakhe; kwaye ukuba zikho, unokuqiniseka ukuba azitsalwanga nguM. Genet, owathi, efile ngequbuliso, akayi kuba nako ukusebenza kuzo; kuba ukuba wayezibhale, ngewayengawagcinanga amanqaku kamakazi, awayengamele ukubonakala njengoko anjalo, kodwa ayebhalwe aze asetyenziswe nguM. Umoya ofanayo, njengoko uza kubona ngeminqweno yokugqibela kaDade, endibe nethamsanqa lokuyifumana,

(1) Ziya kufunyanwa ekuqaleni komqulu wesine, kwisilumkiso.

 

Umakazi okwiSeraphim wayengumgcini wezi ncwadi, ekwangomnye wabahlobo bam owayenentembelo kuDade wethu othandekayo, ngenxa yokulunga kwakhe, ingqiqo yakhe nenkonzo ebalulekileyo awayemlungiselele yona. Eli gqiyazana lihle lade laziveza ukuba ligcina ezi ncwadana ngelona xesha libi le revolution, urhulumente wayede azifune ngenxa yesiqu esisuka eNgilane, sabefundisi abadlula ngokufihlakeleyo: babanjwa, apho. kwafunyanwa iincwadi zamanqaku ezazikhutshelwe kuM. Genet, owayeseLondon ngoko. Njengoko kwakumalunga ne-revolution, kwenziwa uphando ukuzama ukufumanisa ukuba kwenzeka ntoni emva koko. Ukubuya kuka M. Genet, umhlobo wam kunye nomakazi wam babuyisela iincwadi kuye, bemxelela ngeminqweno yokugqibela kaDade. Andiqondi, ngokwale nto, indlela uM. Genet awatyeshela ngayo la magama; kuba ezi ncwadana zamanqaku akufuneki zivele njengoko zinjalo. Oonongendi babini bathembekileyo abazange bazikhathaze ngaloo nto, yonke into isezandleni zomhleli, beqinisekile ukuba yonke into yayibhalwe phantsi, yaye, ukuba kunokwenzeka ukufa, kunikwe umntu abamthembileyo. Okokugqibela, mhlekazi, into endikuqinisekisayo kukuba nguM. Genet yedwa owayenomsebenzi opheleleyo. Kukho iikopi ezininzi, kodwa akukho nanye ineencwadi zokubhalela zikamakazi; yena kunye nabanye oonongendi babengazigcini zonke iikopi zempahla eyayikho yonke into isezandleni zombhali, yeyiseka kakuhle ukuba yonke into yayibhaliwe, yaye, xa kuthe kwakufa, inikwe umntu amthembileyo. Okokugqibela, mhlekazi, into endikuqinisekisayo kukuba nguM. Genet yedwa owayenomsebenzi opheleleyo. Kukho iikopi ezininzi, kodwa akukho nanye ineencwadi zokubhalela zikamakazi; yena kunye nabanye oonongendi babengazigcini zonke iikopi zempahla eyayikho yonke into isezandleni zombhali, yeyiseka kakuhle ukuba yonke into yayibhaliwe, yaye, xa kuthe kwakufa, inikwe umntu amthembileyo. Okokugqibela, mhlekazi, into endikuqinisekisayo kukuba nguM. Genet yedwa owayenomsebenzi opheleleyo. Kukho iikopi ezininzi, kodwa akukho nanye ineencwadi zokubhalela zikamakazi; yena kunye nabanye oonongendi babengazigcini zonke iikopi zempahla eyayikho iinyani....

Olo, mhlekazi, lulo lonke ulwazi endinokukunika lona; ndonwabile ukuba ndinokuba negalelo kwinto elungileyo ukuba le

umsebenzi oxabisekileyo, ndonwabe ngakumbi ukuba ndiyazuza kuwo ngokwam, ngokunjalo nakwisiluleko sobubele esithe le ntombi engcwele indinike yona ngokwayo egameni likaThixo; kuba nguye yedwa owakwaziyo ukumnika ulwazi loko kwakuqhubeka kum, njengoko wayendixelele, nokokuba kwakufutshane phambi kokufa kwakhe, ngokunjalo nakutata wam, umama nodade wethu omncinane. Lo Sisi ndini wayendithanda kakhulu, ndabuyisela ifavour kuye....

Uxolo, mhlekazi, ngobude bale leta; ukuba ngamanye amaxesha ndiye ndaphambuka kumbandela wam, kufuneka ubalule kuphela kwimfesane yam enkulu kwintombi yethu engcwele, eyazi ukuba ndiyazilibala xa ndithetha ngayo.

 

Ndinewonga lokuba nentlonipho, Mhlekazi,

Oyena mkhonzi wakho uthobekileyo, uLouise Binel.

Siza kuqhoboshela apha ileta evela kuM. Le Roy, iDini yaseLa Pellerine, umvumi woMdado wokuZalwa kukaYesu ngexesha lokungabikho kukaM. Genet.

Nantsi into awayibhalela omnye wabalingane bakhe ngo-1799; Le leta iqulethe uqheliselo olusebenzayo kakhulu lokunqula ukuze kukhululeke imiphefumlo kwiPuritori.

Mhlekazi,

Kukho izinto ezincomekayo ezithethwayo ngoDade Wokuzalwa kukaYesu, ezingashiyi ndawo yokuthandabuza ulonwabo lwakhe, kwaye zibhengeze ukuba mkhulu kakhulu phambi koThixo. Ukususela kwiminyaka emibini enesiqingatha ubudala de wazi ukuba wafa, uThixo, ngamaxesha ngamaxesha, wayethetha naye, ngakumbi ukususela ekuqaleni kwe-revolution; wamtyhilela izinto ezininzi esele zenzekile, ngakumbi ukufa kukaLouis XVI, ukubekwa kwakhe esihlalweni eZulwini, ukutshatyalaliswa koluntu, intshutshiso entsha esijamelana nayo, njl. kwixesha elizayo, ukuphela kwamashwa eFransi, uloyiso lweCawa, ukumiselwa kwakhona konqulo, ukusekwa koluntu olutsha, inxalenye yeentshutshiso iCawa emele ibandezeleke de kube sekupheleni kweenkulungwane  . 

 

 

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uvuko lukaJ.-C., oomoya basezulwini ababengamangqina.

Wamazisa ukuba indlela yokukhulula imiphefumlo kwiNtlambululo-miphefumlo, esebenza kakhulu, neyamkelwe kakhulu, kukumnikela ngale njongo, ngokwahlukileyo, iintuthumbo ezahlukeneyo awathi uJ.-C. ikhondo lenkanuko yakhe ebuhlungu.

Masisikelele izihlandlo eziliwaka, Mhlekazi, kwaye ngokungapheziyo simbulele umbhali ngazo zonke izipho ezimangalisayo azenzileyo kulo mphefumlo ulula, kwaye siqwalasele ngokukhwankqisayo indlela akuvuyela ngayo ukusebenzisa ezona zixhobo zibuthathaka kwizinto ezinkulu. , kunye nemimangaliso yakhe emangalisayo. ubabalo nenceba engenasiphelo ebantwini; kuba asingenxa yakhe, kungenxa yethu, omnike ukukhanya okungaka. Ngoko ke masizame ukuyichaza, kwaye ngaphezu kwayo yonke into kufuneka sidibane ngenye imini nale Ntombi ingcwele ngonaphakade.

Ndinewonga lokuba,

Mhlekazi, esona sicaka sakho sithobekileyo, Le Roy, iDean yaseLa Pellerine.

 

Kule leta siyabona ukuba uM. Le Roy, njengowavuma izono zoMntu Wokuzalwa kukaYesu, wayenolwazi ngemibhalo yakhe yokugqibela, eya kuba ngumxholo walo mqulu ulandelayo.

 

Ukuphela komqulu wesithathu.

 

 

IZIQULATHO

equlethwe kumqulu wesithathu.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Iphepha lentshayelelo . 1 

 Ubomi bangaphakathi boDade woZalo  6

Iingcinga 228

Amaphupha amangalisayo kunye nesiprofeto sikaDade woZalo

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amaphupha awoyikisayo 236

Amaphupha  amnandi 257

Iingcinga  zombhali 297

Isibhengezo kunye nesatifikethi sabaphathi ababini bodade bokuzalwa kukaYesu

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Ukuqokelelwa kwamagunya aphilayo, kunye namaxwebhu axhasayo, malunga nobomi kunye nezityhilelo zikaSister of the Nativity, unongendi kwi-convent ye-Urbanists kwisixeko saseFougères, ubhishophu waseRennes, eBrittany.

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Kubafundi ibid.

Izicatshulwa ezivela kwiileta ezahlukeneyo kunye neengxelo zomlomo ezibhekiswe  kumhleli 307

Ileta evela kumfundisi ongumFrentshi, imbacu ePaderborn, eWestphalia,  eya  kumhleli 312

Ileta evela kuAbbé de Cugnac, uVicar general weDayosisi yaseAire, ebhalwe egameni likabhishophu wakhe, kumhleli wengqokelela.

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Ileta evela kuM. Martin, uVicar-general waseLisieux, eya kuM. l'abbé Guillot, owayemthumelele iincwadana ezilishumi elinesibhozo eziqulethe uyilo lokuqala lwalo msebenzi, emcela ukuba amxelele indlela avakalelwa ngayo ngaloo nto.  UMnu. Martin ngelo xesha wayeyintloko yabefundisi baseFransi ababetshintshelwe kwindlu kawonke-wonke yaseReading, nowayeqale wamiselwa ukuba ongamele eWinchester Castle  320.

Uphononongo  lomhleli 322

Ukuqwalaselwa kubomi kunye nezityhilelo zikaDade woZalo, ncokola unongendi kwi-convent ye-Urbanists yaseFougères elandelwa nguye.

ubomi bangaphakathi, ebhalwe ngokwakhe ngumgcini wezityhilelo zakhe, kwaye ebhalwe eLondon nakwiindawo ezahlukeneyo zokuthinjwa kwakhe. (1800) 323

Iminyaka esibhozo yokugqibela kaDade woZalo, umcwangcisi wedolophu yenkolo yaseFougères, ukuba asebenze njengesongezelelo kubomi bakhe nakwizityhilelo. Ngomhleli ofanayo.  (  1803) 376

Intshayelelo ibid.

Imephu 391

Ixesha lokuqala. Lo Sister usengaphakathi

uluntu 392

Ixesha lesibini. Udade  ngaphandle koluntu  402

Ixesha lesithathu. Udade  kunye nomnakwabo  420

Umboniso 429

Ixesha lesine nelokugqibela. Umsebenzi wokugqibela kunye nokufa  kukaDade 448

Iileta kunye nezicatshulwa ezivela kwiileta ezibhekiswe kumhleli ngexesha lohlelo lokuqala lwalo msebenzi,  kwaye  ukususela ngo -489

KuM.  Beaucé,  umthengisi weencwadi ibid.

Izicatshulwa ezivela kwiileta zikaMadame Le Breton, owaziwa ngokuba ngu-de Sainte-Madeleine, ophakamileyo

kaDade  woZalo 491

Izicatshulwa kwiileta zikaMademoiselle Louise

Binel 495

Ileta evela kuM. Le Roy, iDini yaseLa Pellerine,

komnye  wabalingane bakhe 499

 

 

 

 

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