Jeanne le Royer / Hanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa

CHIKAMU CHECHIPIRI.

YAMBIRO YEKUTANGA.

Ndisati ndabva munharaunda, imwe yehany’a dzangu dzekutanga dzaive dzekuisa parutivi, kuti nditarisire pandinenge ndabva, zvinyorwa zvese zvine chekuita nezvenyaya yeChechi, nekuti izvo zvaiita kwandiri sechinangwa chikuru. Hanzvadzi sikana. Ndakanga ndakazvibatikanisa mumwedzi yokutanga yokudzingwa kwangu.

Asi sarudzo iyi, yakaitwa mumamiriro ezvinhu ekubva kamwe kamwe uye nekukurumidza, haigone kuve yakanyatso. Pakange pasara huwandu hwemamiriro ainakidza uye nyaya dzandaisakwanisa kudzvanya pasina kukuvadza chikonzero chandaive ndapomerwa. Vhoriyamu yekutanga yakapa chirongwa chebasa; asi haana kurondedzera zvose, kana kuurawa kwose. Musoro wacho wakapedzwa, basa racho rakanga risati, kana kuti kwete rose zvaro.

Kuiwedzera, naizvozvo, uye kusasiya chinhu chipi nechipi chaigona kupa mbiri yoWamasimba Ose uye kuruponeso rwemweya, ndakaunganidza aya mamirire ezvinhu akapararira, aya mativi akaparadzana, kuti aabatanidze kune zvimwe zviedza zvoumwari izvo zvakaziviswa ne Hanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu, kuti vaite kumwe kuenderera mberi kwavo kunogona kupfumisa chinhu chezvakazarurwa zvekutanga, uye kuvaratidza seumbowo hutsva hwezvinofanira kuitika.

Hanzvadzi yacho yakanga yasanofanoona kudikanwa kwouyu wedzero, sezvo, sezvatichaona nokukurumidza, iyo imene yakanga yakarakadza pfungwa yacho kwandiri, uye, sokunge zvakadaro, yakaronda gadziriro yacho, ichiratidzira kwandiri zvinhu zvaifanira kupinda mairi.

Kunyange zvazvo zvakanga zvisingabviri kuti ndiise kurongeka kwakafanana ikoko, ndinoshinga kutaura kuti munhu achawana kwose kwose mweya mumwe chete, kufarira kwakafanana uye kukosha kwakafanana maererano noruponeso, kusvikira kunyange mukuremekedza vhoriyamu yechipiri yakaratidzika kuva yakanaka. kune wekutanga; uye ini handizvitore pachangu kuti ndisarudze mubvunzo.

NYAYA YOKUTANGA.

Tsanangudzo nebudiriro pamusoro pekutambudzika kweChechi munguva yekupedzisira.

"Muzita raBaba, reMwanakomana neroMweya Mutsvene ... etc." »

Baba vangu, munhoroondo yandakakupai pamusoro pezvese zvine chekuita nematunhu akasiyana eChechi zvachose, ndapukunyuka zvinhu zvakawanda zvinonakidza izvo Mwari vanoda kuti ndikunyorerei. Naizvozvo, kana uchifunga kuti zvakakodzera, tichataura pamusoro pazvo sezvazvinouya muyeuko yangu, kana kuti sezvinofadza Mwari kundiyeuchidza nezvawo. Aya achange ari akawanda mamiriro matsva ayo achashanda kuwedzera izvo zvataurwa: ivo vacharangarira pfungwa dzakafanana, uye vanovapfumisa, pasina kudzokorora mazwi mamwe chete. Pamusoro pazvo, Baba vangu, muchaisa ipapo kurongeka nehurongwa hwamunoda: zvakaringana kuti ini ndikuratidzei, ndichidzokorora kwamuri kuti kuda kwaMwari ndiko kuti uzvishandise nemoyo wose kunyora chidiki ichi. shanda. , uye, kuti iwe uise hanya yese uye zvese

Kubva mubhuku rino. Chikonzero chakasimba chekushanda pairi.

Mwari anondiudza kuti achayambuka makungwa uye achagamuchirwa muumambo hwakawanda....

Rimwe zuva richatora vanyori vakati wandei; uye kusvikira pakuguma kwenyika achatungamirira nhamba huru kwazvo yemweya  kudenga  Ngative  zvapupu!

asi hazvizove muhupenyu huno; mapfupa ako neangu achaitwa guruva, uye zvatichanyora zvichange zviripo uye zvichataurwa pamusoro pazvo; achava mubatsiri nenyaradzo yevakatendeka, sokupererwa nezano kwevavengi vose vaMwari, vane gadziriro dzavo dzakaipa nenhamburiko dzisina kururama dzaachaparadza pachine nguva mberi, kupfurikidza nokugovera rudzidziso.

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izvo zvavanofanira kurwisa, humbowo hunotonyanya kushamisa, sezvo huchaitwa  kuparadza dzidziso dzakatsauka uye uipi  hwenguva yekupedzisira  . 

nokuda kwenyu, Baba, nokushingaira noushingi. Chii chaungaite zvirinani nenguva yako, kunyanya paunenge usiri pabasa?

Title kuisa ipapo.

Zvinoita sekuti kuda kwaMwari ndiko kuti iwe uise zita ipapo, iro rinozivisa kuti iye pachake ndiye munyori, uye kuti chisikwa chinopinda imomo nokuda kwechimiro chete. Zvingave zvakafanira, kana zvaibvira, kuti iwe kana neni tirege kutumidzwa zita ipapo: uyezve, mubasa iri, isu tiri chimwe chete uye chimwe chete midziyo yekuda kweumwari, tisingakwanisi isu pachedu kupfuura kukanganisa basa. chaShe. Mazita edu anogona kupa huremu hupi? Ndinosiya zvose izvozvo kumafungiro enyu, uye ndinosvika kune mamwe mamiriro ezvinhu andakasiiwa maererano nenguva dzekupedzisira dzeChechi yaJ  .

Chiratidzo cheChechi munguva yekupedzisira.

Naizvozvo muchaziva, Baba, kuti paSvondo yokutanga yomwedzi wokupedzisira waNdira, ndakava nechiono chaigona kugovera magadzirirwo emufananidzo wakaisvonaka zvikuru, kana muvezi aigona kubata nenzira yakarurama zvinhu zvose, ndokuzvishandura zvakafanana. kurongeka uye nesimba rimwechete sezvavakazviratidza mupfungwa dzangu.

Ini nokudaro ndinorarama semuchimiro chimwechete Chechi yese yeJC nevanhu vatatu veUtatu hunoyemurika. Baba neMwanakomana vakanga vagere, uye pamberi pavo Chechi yakaonekwa pamabvi ayo pasi pemufananidzo wemhandara yerunako rwose: Mweya Mutsvene akatambanudza mapapiro ake uye akadurura maranzi ake pamhandara nevamwe vanhu vaviri. Maronda aJC airatidza kuti ari mbishi. Nerumwe ruoko akanga akazendamira pamuchinjikwa, uye nerumwe ruoko akapa kuna Baba vake mukombe mukuru waakagamuchira kubva mumaoko eChechi akamupa iwo. Saizvozvo mhandara yakaratidza uye yakatsigira mukombe kubva pasi; JC akaibata pakati kuti aipe kuna baba vake, avo, kuti vagamuchire, akaisa ruoko rumwe pamukombe, uye rumwe ruoko rwakaropafadza mhandara. Uyuwo akabata ruoko pamuchinjiko weJC, ini ropa

panzvimbo pokumboparadzana kubva pakutenda muhumwe hwaMwari noUtatu hwavanhu, pamwe chete namamwe mapfundo ose ari muchikatorike.

Mhandara yakanga yakakomberedzwa nenhamba isingaperi yevaKristu vane rupo avo vose vaiita sevana vayo, zvokuti vaimuda uye vaimuremekedza zvikuru  . Vakanga vachidisa kubayira upenyu hwavo, uye vakapisa ropa ravo nokuda kweshoko rimwe chetero, raakanga achangobva kuita muzita  raJeso rose.

Ndakaona kuti chalice yakanga izere neropa, uye ndakanzwa JC achiti kuna baba vake, achivapa kwaari nechiso chine nyasha: Ndichafara chete kana ini ndichikupa iwe wakazadzwa zvakakwana ...

Ndakanzwisisa kuti mukombe waiva neropa revakafira kutenda kwekutanga kweJC, uye kuti kuonekwa uku kwakazivisa kutambudzwa kwekupedzisira kweChechi yake, iyo inofanira kupedza kuzadza mukombe, nekuzadzisa nhamba yevanoreurura uye yevasanangurwa ...

Nhamba yevakafira kutenda kwekupedzisira.

Kuchava nevafiri vekutenda vakawanda pamagumo sepakutanga kweChechi, uye ndinoziva kuti kutambudzwa kuchange kuine chisimba chakanyanya kusvika kunguva dzekupedzisira, zvekuti mumakore mashoma pachava nenhamba imwe cheteyo. mushure mezvo  kutonga kwepasi rose JC ichagutsikana zvizere, nokuti ichava  ne

nhamba yakakwana yevasanangurwa vake, yakagamuchira wedzero kurudo rwake. Iye Asingagumi acharamba achigamuchira zvakakodzera uye neropa revafira kutenda kwake, uye ndicho chikonzero JC anozvikudza uye achiitora, sekunge ndiyo pfuma yake. Ndibaba vanozviona vachifa muvana vavo, uye vanokoshesa rufu rwavo serwake. Mumwe mufiri weJC anoita chikonzero chakajairika naye; anobatanidzwa nekukodzera kwake sezvaari nekutambudzika kwake. Iye akafanana nemumwe JC; uye kana ichokwadi kutaura nezvemuKristu wechokwadi kuti ndiJC anogara maari, hazvisi zvishoma kutaura nezveafira kutenda kuti ndiye JC anorwa, anotambura uye anofira maari.

Inyasha dzakadini, Baba vangu, idzo dzekufira kutenda! uye ndiani angatsunga kuita kunge anayo, kunyanya achiziva kuti nhamba yacho yaitwa uye yamiswa, zvekuti  hasha dzose dzevatambudzi nedzegehena hadzizombokwanisi kuwedzera kana chimwe chete kune avo vakagadzwa naMwari kuti vamudzosere izvi. uchapupu hweropa! Ngatishuve kuva vatendi, zvakanaka uye zvakanaka; asi ngatirege kuedza Mwari: inyasha dzinoshamisa uye dzinopfuura munhu zvachose. Ichokwadi kuti chido chacho chinofadza Mwari zvikuru; anotoita kuti ndizive kuti acharangarira kufira kutendeka nokuda kwavose avo vane chimiro chendangariro chaichoicho kuti vafe panzvimbo nenyasha dzake pane kuramba vari mukutenda, uye kunyange kusaita chinhu chingamugumbura; asi fungidziro  haimufadzi  Panogona kuva nezvakawanda uye  zvishoma

zvishoma muchimiro chekufira kutenda: asi chimiro ichi chinofanira kugara chine rudo rukuru rwaMwari, neruvengo rukuru rwechivi chinomugumbura, kunyanya cheakaita: izvo zvinoita kuti ape.

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zita rokubhabhatidzwa reropa. Naizvozvo ngatinamatei, Baba, uye titye kuti hatizowanikwi takakodzera, kana chiitiko chikaitika muzuva redu.

Chitendero chenhema chinopesana nekubatana kwaMwari neChechi yake.

Asi, Baba vangu, kurayira uku hakusi kwega kwega kwechiratidzo chandataura kwamuri; zvichiri kuratidzika sekuti Mwari vanoda kuishandisa sechidziviriro kurwisa mweya wekukanganisa wenguva yekupedzisira. "Ziva, mwanasikana wangu," akandiudza pane yake chiitiko, kuti kusvika pakupera kwemazana emakore apfuura uye

panosvika kutonga kwaanopesana naKristu, kuchamuka chitendero chenhema chinopesana nokubatana kwaMwari neChechi  yake  . “Sezvandinoziva,  Baba vangu,

uhwu hunyengeri huchakonzera nyonganyonga, zvekuti handifungi kuti hatisati taona njodzi yakadaro, nerubatsiro rwezvakagadzirwa uye nekutaura kwevatevedzeri vayo vanofanira kushanda ipapo kwenguva yakareba uye vangave vatoshanda. ikoko. Ichatenderwa, ichawana vatsigiri kwese-kwese, ichava nebudiriro huru, ichawedzera kukunda kwayo kure kure, uye ichaita seinofukidza nyika dzose nenyika dzose; pakutanga ichange iine mweya wakanakisa uye unoyemurika werunako, hunhu, mutsa uye kunyangwe chitendero, icho chicharamba chiri musungo unokwezva kune vazhinji.

Vateveri varo, kubudirira kuri nani, kuchatanga kutapura ruremekedzo rukuru nokuda kweEvhangeri neKatorike; kuchaonekwa mabhuku ezvemweya, ayo achanyorwa navo noushamwari hwokuzvipira, uye achatakura mweya kusvika kunzvimbo  yokukwana iyo inoratidzika kuva inoikwidza kudenga rechitatu. Uyewo hatizopokani hutsvene hwevanyori vavo kana vevatsigiri vavo, avo vatichaisa pamusoro pevatsvene vakurusa, avo, maererano navo, vachange vangoratidzira kunaka Baba venhema,  sezvatinozoti  nokukurumidza  ,

hapana chaazokanganwa kutendera maonero anozomufadza  ....

Vachava neatari netemberi, umo vaprista vavo vachaedza kutevedzera  zvakavanzika, mitambo, uye zvibayiro zvechitendero, mavari  .

vachavhenganisa chiverengero chakati chezvimiro zvakanyanyisa uye zvokudavira mashura, kukumbira kana kuti kutosvibisa zita dzvene raMwari... Vachaita manyepo masakaramende; kutanga vachabhabhatidza muzita revanhu vatatu voumwari; asi nokukurumidza vachachinja marongerwo avanhu, uye ipapo vachabvisa vamwe kuti vatsive vamwe vavatsvene vavo. Hunyengeri hwavo huchaita kuti vafunge kuomerwa kunoshamisa kunopfuura nekure kweLent nekurega kweChechi, uye nekuzvidzwa kwevatsvene kose; asi zvose izvi zvichava muchitarisiko uye nokuyemurika mumaziso evanhu. Chitendero chavo chichivakirwa chete pamafaro epfungwa, ivo nechomukati vachazvidza upenyu hwakarovererwa pamuchinjikwa, kutambudzwa, kutambura; uye zvose zvavachaita kuti zviratidzike kunze zvichaderedzwa kuita mabasa echisimba, ayo vanyengeri vane unyanzvi vachaedza kupfuura mumwe nomumwe kuti vanyengedze vasina mano uye kuti vanyengedze unyengeri hwavo nokutenda kwavo kwakaipa; izvo zvichakurumidza kuzviratidza mukuzvidza kwavo pachena kutenda netsika zveEvhangeri. Kunyomba kwavachaedza kukanda pamaKristu vachakabatirira pazviri, hakuzobvi kuwisira pasi nokutsausa vazhinji; nokuti rudzi urwu rwekutambudzwa rwakatonyanya kuipa pakuti runosimbiswa neruremekedzo rwevanhu, kuzvikoshesa, kunyadziswa kwenhema, uye pamusoro pazvose nezvishuvo zvinogara zvichititungamirira kudivi rinovafarira. chero mberi.

Masisita enhema anonzi Song Brides; mukurumbira wavo.

Izvo zviri nani kunyengedza masangano matsvene eChechi, ivo vanogadzira vanonzi masisita, avo vanozozvipira neshoko kune continence, uye vanozozvidaidza ivo, serunako, vadzimai vecanticles, kana vadzimai veMweya Mutsvene. Vachabatsira zvikuru basa radhiabhorosi; achazvipa runako runodenha, achaita mukurumbira urwo uchafadza meso ose uye achaita kuti zvipfeko izvi zvionekwe sevanamwari. Zvakazarurwa, kufanotaura kweramangwana, mafaro, kubvutwa mumuviri nemweya zvichaitika kwavari kazhinji uye pasi pemeso avose; isu tichangonzwa nezve prodigies dzavo uye nezvishamiso zvevashumiri venhema, avo, parutivi rwavo, vasingazoiti zvishoma kuedza kunyengedza vanhu nezvinhu zvinoshamisa izvo dhiyabhorosi achapinda mazviri kune vazhinji. kutozosvikira pashure porufu rwavo iye achamutsa vamwe mumhepo mumaglobhu omwoto, kuti avaite kuti vanamate savamwari vasingafi. Uyewo mifananidzo yavo ichapendwa mutemberi, uye zvichataurwa nenzwi guru kuti kereke inobereka minana yakadaro itsvene zvikuru kupfuura yekutanga (1).

Asi Baba musazvikanganisa, aya mashura akafanana neaSimoni n'anga, n'anga dzeEgypt, nedzevamwe vanyengeri vakaonekwa panyika, vane dhimoni raishandiswa.

rwisa chitendero chechokwadi. Asingakwanisi kutsungirira chero muedzo, aya mabasa aSatani achapfuura chete nemu

(1) Surgent pseudochristi, et pseudoprophetœ: et dabunt signa magna, et prodigia; ità ut in errorem inducantur (si fieri potest) etiam electi. (Math. 24; 24.)

Cujus (Antichristi) est adventus secundum operationem Satanie, muukuru hwose, et signis, et prodigiis mendacibus, et in omni seduction iniquitatis. (1, vaTesaronika 2; 9, 10.)

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uroyi nouroyi zvababa ava venhema. Asi ngatitongei nemaitiro akavanzika eava vanoita zvishamiso, uye ngatikoshesei muchero nemuti, uye muti nemuchero. Ava vanonyepedzera kuva vatsvene, vakavhenekerwa uye vakashinhwa muna Mwari, ava varume vezvisizvo, ava vaiti vezvishamiso vanoremekedzwa zvikuru vachaungana usiku navakadzi vanonyepedzera kuva canticles neveMweya Mutsvene , idzi mhandara dzinoremekedzwa uye tsvene, dzakatsaurirwa ku continence  nekuchena; vachaungana, ndichiti, usiku nepanzvimbo dzakavanda, vachifarira  mano avo akaipa, Zvinotyisa zvandiri  kuona!

Ikoko ndiko kwavachazvibatikanisa vamene mukutanga mitoo yose inobvira yokunyengedza kupfurikidza neyamuro yamashiripiti nokukumbira madhemoni. Ikoko, zvakare, kuti kushandisa zvisina kunaka magwaro matsvene zvisina kufanira, uye pamusoro pezvose kupa chirevo chakakomba uye chenyama kune canticle yecanticles, ivo vanozozvisiya ivo pachavo, kuti vaenderane nazvo, kune huipi hunofungidzirwa, uye vachaita hutsinye. uye nezvezvinonyangadza zvikurusa, zvisingatenderwi kutaura. Aya ndiwo maitiro avachave vakatendeka kumhiko yavo yekusagadzikana uye yekuzvidemba.

Anopesana naKristu achazvarwa kubva kune imwe yezvifeve izvi.

Ndinoona, Baba vangu, kuti chimwe chezvipfeko izvi zvakaparadzwa saizvozvo chinofanira kubereka munhu anopesana naKristu, uyo angave ane mumwe wevatungamiri vakuru vemagungano eusiku aya. Acharerwa muchikoro chavo ndokurovedzwa panheyo dzechitendero chakamubereka. Achazvipa mbiri nekuda kwekuzvarwa nemukadzi wecanticles, inova kwaari chikonzero chekutanga chekuzvisarudzira iye kuna J.-C. pachake. Zvisinei, kusvibiswa kwemaitiro avo kucharamba kwakavanzwa kubva pameso evanhu vose, uye chisungo chekugutsa mafaro epfungwa, iyo ichaita sechirevo chekutanga chechiratidzo chavo, ichave yakadaro.

akafukidzwa nechidzitiro chechakavanzika neunyengeri, kuti haazodzivisi kuzvikudza kwavo neupofu hwavo kubva mukuvavarira nzvimbo dzekutanga kudenga, vachizvisarudzira ivo vamene kune avo vanogara mairi, uye vachifanirwa nzvimbo dzekutanga munyika.

Vachapedzwa noruvengo negodo pamusoro pamaKristu, uye vachashandisa masimba avanotsigirwa nawo, kuvatambudza nokuvatambudza. Chishuvo chavo chikuru chichava chekuti vafe kana kuti varambe kutenda. Vachaparadzanisa Chechi neHumwari pachahwo, nokuedza kurangarira vanamwari vechihedheni uye kutangazve kunamata zvidhori pamatongo echitendero... Zvinorevei kuti vana vechokwadi vaMwari vadzivise misungo yakawanda yakateyiwa kumativi ose? uye kutsigira, pasina chinokatyamadza, miedzo yakaipa yakadaro. Hapana chimwe kunze kwekunyengetera, kutarisa nguva dzose uye kubatirira zvakanyanya kudarika kare pakutenda muzvakavanzika uye kuzvisarudzo zveChechi, uye pakupedzisira kufamba nechiedza chemwenje wekutenda: tichinyengetedzwa kunze kwekuti Mwari haambosiyi ake. yavo uye anoramba ivo kana kuvhenekerwa, vane kutenda kunofanira kuzununguswa zvakanyanya  ...

Chiratidzo, muchiroto, chemwenje weKutenda, iyo inofanira kuvhenekera muKristu wechokwadi.

Ndinofunga Baba ndizvo zvaireva imwe hope dzandakarota nguva yadarika. Mumwe murume wechidiki akanaka akandipa makenduru matatu akabatidzwa, akabva abatana ndokugadzira torch hombe. Jaya rakati kwandiri: Famba muchiedza charo nguva dzose, uye haungarashiki. Ndicho, akapfuurira, chakavanzika choUtatu Hutsvene, uye kutenda kuchanyandurwa nokukurumidza pairi pfundo; asi haifaniri kumbodzima. Ichadzivisa kusvika kumagumo mhepo yekukanganisa neyekuda kwese kwevanhu...

Ngatidzokerei kunzira iyo vanyengeri vanonyengera vachashandisa zvisizvo zvinoreva Magwaro ehumwari...

Kushungurudzwa kunotyisa kuchaitwa kweMagwaro Matsvene. Revo yechokwadi yeRwiyo Rwonziyo.

Iwe unoziva, Baba vangu, kuti hazvina kudaro, kana mupfungwa iyi yakashata uye yakashata, yatakataura nezvemwenga we canticles, apo neshoko iri ndakaratidza mamiriro eChechi inopisa, uye sokunge iri kupera, kubva mumoto. kuda murume wake. Zvese zvakachena, zvese zvakachena, zvese zvine humwari mumubatanidzwa uyu

zvisinganzwisisike. Ini zvakare, mukupedzisa chinyorwa ichi, ndichakuudza chimwe chinhu nezve uyu mukadzi wechokwadi we canticles, wandinoziva kuti munhu anogona kupa imwe application iyo isingazove isina kuchena kana zvishoma inovaka.

Rimwe zuva ndichiita munamato wangu nokukurumidza pashure pemhiko dzangu, ndakazviwana ndatakurwa mumweya kuenda kubindu rakaisvonaka rakanga rizere nemaruva maduku machena anonhuhwira uye runako runodenha. Handina kuona musiyano pakati pawo: ose akanga ari maduku zvakaenzana, achipenya uye achifadza. Ungadai wakataura kuti ruoko rwakachenjera rwakadzidyara zvose zvakaenzanirana uye dzikacheka pachiyero chimwe chete, pasina kana imwe yakasimuka pamusoro pevamwe. Pakati pebindu paiva netsime remvura yakachena uye inonaka yaiita seyaida kudiridza maruva anoyevedza aya. Chitubu chisingaperi chakatonga munzvimbo inoyevedza yekugara, uye pasi pemakore ndakaona zuva rakanaka raiburitsa mwaranzi yaro yakapfava munzvimbo yese.

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kubva mubindu, pasina kumbovaendesa kune imwe nzvimbo. Yakanga yagadzirwa kuti  ivheneke muvharo wayo  unofadza  . Ndakaona kuti turuva twudiki twaive  twese

zvakare vakacheuka vakananga kuzuva, uye kuti vese vaive nekamwe kakufamba kaiita sekuvararamisa pasina kukonzeresa nyonganiso...

Ndichiri mukuyemura chiono chinofadza icho meso angu aisagona kugutswa nacho, inzwi rakandiudza kuti iri bindu rakaisvonaka rakanga riri mufananidzo weparadhiso yapasi; kuti maruva maduku akandifadza zvikuru, aimiririra mamiriro evana vaAdama, dai Baba vavo vasina kutadza: kuti vachitevera muono chete weruramisiro yepakutanga, iyo ingadai iri kambasi yavo nekodzero yavo, vose vangadai vakatendeuka. , semaruva maduku, nokuzvidira kwavo kuzuva rokururamisira, iro ringadai rakavhenekera mweya yavo ndokudziya  mwoyo yavo .

; ndiko kuti, vangadai vakada nokutsvaka bedzi rudo rwomunyori wavo  naMwari wavo. Iri pano, rakaenderera mberi izwi, ugaro hunofadza hwekusava nemhosva uye kuchena; hapana chine tsvina chinopinda mariri. Zvose zvakasvibiswa zvinofanira kubviswa pairi, ibindu raMambo naMambokadzi  ...

Ndakatora mazwi aya sekuzvidzivirira, uye ndisingatyi kupinda imomo, ndakazvivanza kuti nditarise zvakanyanya pakusununguka kwangu bindu rinonaka nehurongwa uye symmetry iyo yaitonga mukugoverwa kwayo uye mukushongedza kwayo, mvura yaro yesirivha, iyo

zuva rakanaka iro raivhenekerwa naro, uye kunyanya maruva maduku anoyevedza ayo  akanga  akazadzwa nawo Pakarepo ndinoona mhandara yakanaka zvikuru yati yambopinda  mairi .

rakabudiswa. Hazviite kuti Baba ndiratidze kwamuri nyasha nehukuru hwemafambiro ake, kupenya kunofadza kwemaziso ake azere nerudo, kupfava, kuzvininipisa kwechiso chake, izvo zvakabvisa zvese zvandaiyemura kusvika ipapo. Ndakaudzwa kuti akanga ari mudzimai wechokwadi wenziyo, uye ndakanzwisisa nepfungwa yechiono, kuti kutaura uku kwaigona kushanda kuna amai voumwari vaJC pamwe chete neChechi yavo chaiyo, uye dzimwe nguvawo kumweya wakatendeka, kunyangwe neimwe pfungwa yakati siyanei, sezvatichataura munguva pfupi ...

Mudzimai, kana kuti mhandara yakaisvonaka yandataura nezvayo, yakaperekedzwa nomurume wake woumwari, uyo akanga achiri kutakura zuva risingaperi; asi ini handigoni kukuudza chinhu chinoswedera pairi, uye handitendi kuti vatumwa vanogona kukupa sezvandakaona nezvazvo, chiratidzo ichi chikuru kwazvo, zvisingasviki pfungwa dzedu nekubata kwedu pamuviri.

Vaifamba vari vega mubindu ravo rainge rakanaka , uye mukadzi mutsvene aiita seakazembera  mudiwa wake  . Hunyoro nekufarira  kwavo

kurukurirano, kutarira kwavo kwakatsva, ngwariro dzavo dzakafanana, chinhu chiri chose chaiva mavari chaizivisa mubatanidzwa wapedyo zvikuru womwoyo nechidakadaka; asi rudo rwavo rwakanga rwakachena serwunofadza uye ruchipisa

mwoyo, uye kwete chero chinhu chakachena sekutengesa kwavo. Hapana chakafanana nerudo rwakakasharara uye rwenyama rweavo vane shungu nechisikwa....

“Wakanaka kwazvo, mudiwa wangu,” akadaro mukwanyina mutsvene; Ini handioni gwapa pamunhu wako, ndosaka ndichikuda zvekupenga.

Kureva kuti, Baba vangu, nerudo runopfuura kutaura kwese. Imwe neimwe yekukwana kwako hunhu hwawakakuvadza moyo  wangu nahwo  . »  Zvangu,

Akapindura mutsvene mudzimai, haachakwanisa kugutsa shungu dzerudo  rwaunonyandura maari  . Wakanaka sei, unodiwa sei, haiwa mudiwa wangu uye  Mwari

murume!... Iwe uzere nezvinokwezva uye zvinokwezva iwe kwandiri  !. Mweya wangu

anorasikirwa nokuyemura kwounyoro hwenyu uye mukufunga kwokukwana kwoumwari hwenyu;... anoramba achigomera shure kwenyu. Tarirai, mudiwa wangu! unyoro hwose hworudo rwake, kushingaira kwose kwezvishuvo zvake, noupenyu hwose hwokudisa kwake. Mwoyo wangu ungambobvuma sei kusavapo kwako, iye asingagone kurarama pasina iwe, uye anowana mauri wega hupenyu  hwese  ? Mwoyo uyu, hongu, moyo  unopisa uyu

ndikurindei pandivete; anonditungidza nokupisa  kwake  pasina

Mira ndinofunga  ndakuona  . Haiwa Jehovha, ndinofungidzira kunaka kwenyu, zvose  zvenyu

hakuna mumwe anodiwa; Ndinofungidzira ndichinzwa mazwi akapfava,

kutinhira kwenzwi rako kunofadza; uye mufananidzo uyu wakajeka zvekuti ndinowanzopeputswa  kubva pauri pakati pekurara  kwangu  .

Zvinhu zvingani zvekutaura, Baba, pamusoro peiyi nhaurirano yerudo pakati pemurume nemukadzi  waMadziyo  !. Rudo urwu rwekuchinjana uye rwakanyanya  harurevi

chimwe chinhu, sezvatakataura kune imwe nzvimbo, kunze kwekubatana kusinganzwisisike kwaJC, mukwanyina woumwari, nemweya wakatendeka kunyasha dzake uye unoedza kupindura kune zvese zvinotakura zveunyoro hwake Asi mazwi: Imi mose makanaka , ini onai kuti dzinokwanisa kunzwisiswa chete seChechi, kana iri yakachena uye isina gwapa, kana yechisikwa chine chivi chisina kumboitika, uye icho pamuviri pacho chingadai chisina kuchena; chinogona kugumiswa kubva mumamiriro ezvinhu okusava nemhaka anomiririrwa neparadhiso kana kuti bindu rakaisvonaka umo maruva maduku akanga ari, uye apo mhandara yakapinda yoga nomurume wayo.

Nokudaro, Baba vangu, Chechi yeJC inofanira kuonekwa semwenga wechokwadi we canticles; uye, pakati pezvisikwa, ndinoona kuti pane chete

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Mhandara par kunaka, ndinoreva amai voumwari veIzwi rakazvarwa, avo kugona uku kwaigona kuenderana navo; uye kana dzimwe nguva ichishandiswa kumweya wakatendeka, inogona chete kuva isina kunaka uye mune imwe pfungwa uye iri kure. Asi, zvakare, nhamo kune uyo, kupfurikidza nechimiro chakashata, aizowana kupomerwa kwake norufu rwake kunyange nenzira iyo unyoro hwoumwari hunoshandisa kumukwevera nesimba rakawanda kupfurikidza nokukwezva kworudo.

Zviono zvakasiyana-siyana zvinozivisa kuti huipi hwakanga hwave kutanga kuparadza Chechi muFrance hwakanga husati hwapera, zvisinei nekuonekwa kwerunyararo.

Rangarirai, Baba; zviratidzo izvo Mwari akambondiita kuti ndizive nezvekutambudzwa uko nhasi kunoparadza Chechi yeFrance, kuti, pakati pevamwe, apo, pagomo refu, ndakaona imba yakaisvonaka yakazaruka kumhepo dzose, iyo yaimiririra umambo hweFrance  . Pakarepo gore rakaumbwa nemhute yenyika rakasimuka, uye, rakatakurwa nedutu rinotyisa, rakasundidzirwa  kugomo  . Munoziva, Baba, kuti  izvi zvairevei

dutu, gore iri neshato zvakabva pariri, uye zvandakarayira kuti ndirwe. Unozivawo kuti chiratidzo chemukuru  chairevei

muti, uyo, wapedza kurova mamwe maviri, wakatemwa nemudzi ndokukandwa pasi  pomupata  . Kune ese aya manhamba ndinofunga ndinofanira  kuwedzera

mamwe mamiriro ezvinhu uye zvinoshamisa maficha anoita senge ane hukama zvakanyanya, uye auchazoshandisa sezvaunoda.

Mupfungwa dzangu ndakaona kamuri hombe yaiita sechechi; rakanga rinenge rakazara navaprista, vakapfeka nguo dzakaisvonaka uye dzakanaka kwazvo, sokunge mabiko makuru; asi vakanga vasina maturu kana zvibodzwa. Vose vakanga vakapetwa, vari chena; zviso zvavo nezviso zvavo zvairatidza kugutsikana uye kufara. Vakaimba nziyo dzokufara. Vamwe vavo vaiverenga zvinonzwika zvinyorwa mundima nenganonyorwa, uye vamwe vakaombera, vachiti: Zvakanaka; izvi zvakanakisa; izvi zvakanaka chose; Hapana nzira yekuzvipindura nayo Aive mabhuku akasiyana,  humbowo hwakasiyana

nokuda kwekudzivirira kwechikonzero  chakanaka  . Ndakafara  kuvaona

Zvakanaka, ndakati kwandiri, hechi  chinhu

chinhu chinozivisa  kukunda kwakakwana  !. Rumbidzai Mwari  neveke

chitendero nechikonzero chayo kukunda!... Pakupedzisira, kurongeka kwakanaka kuchaonekwa zvakare...

Asi pandakanga ndava kunyura mukutakura zvinotapira izvi, ndakaona padivi pangu Mwana Jesu, uyo akanga akurumidza kudzora maratidziro, nemashoko mashoma aakataura kwandiri. Akandiona semakore matatu; akabata muchinjikwa muhombe muruoko rwake, akati kwandiri, akanditarira nemhepo inosuruvarisa: Mwanasikana wangu, usavimbe nazvo; iwe uchaona nokukurumidza kuchinja: hazvisi zvose, uye hazvina kupera, sezvavanofunga. Kwete, nditende, haisati yasvika nguva yekuimba kukunda. Hezvino mambakwedza ekutanga; asi zuva rinotevera richange rakaoma uye rine dutu.

Rinenge zuva rose ndakava nechiratidzo chimwechete, kunyanya kubva pachirairo: aigara ari Mwana Jesu ane muchinjikwa wake mukuru aizviratidza kupfungwa dzangu, achitaridza kusuwa uye kusuwa. Ndega ndakaona  kuti kukura kwayo kwakawedzerwa nechimwe  chinhu  . Pazuva rimwe chetero  zvakaitika zvakare

nditarirei iye akaita somupristi, akandipa mukombe. Ndichiona izvi, ndakazviunganidza kwechinguvana, setsika yangu; Ndakatsvaga Rutendo kuti ndiongorore kuti rudzii rwemafungiro aibuda mandiri. Mushure maizvozvo JC akati kwandiri: Nguva zhinji sezvaunodyidzana, kakawanda pandinokuita kuti unwe mukapu yerudo rwangu kwauri: asi ndinoda kuti ropa iri rikubatsire, nekuti ndicho chikonzero ndakariteura.

Zvirasikirwe mandiri mwanasikana, uye mune zvese zviitiko zvehupenyu ona chete kuda kwangu nerudo rwangu......

Saka, Baba vangu, kuchengetedza kwavo kwemukati kwaingotenderera chete pamichinjikwa uye kudiwa kwekuitakura uye kugadzirira  kutambura  . Ainyanya kutaura neni  nezvazvo

muchinjikwa nekutambudzika kwaakanga achindigadzirira, pamwe chete nenyasha dzakanyanya, pamwe chete nedziviriro chaiyo nenyasha dzaakandichengetera  , kuti, pasina kupokana, andikumikidze kuti ndive akatendeka kwazvo kwazviri. uye kundikurudzira nemanzwiro akajeka ekutenda nerudo kwaari  ...

Ndakazvishingisa kushandisa rusununguko rwaakandipa, ndichimuratidza kutya kwandaive nako kuzviona ndichimanikidzwa kuzviisa pasi pekusarudzwa kwevakuru vekanzuru, kumanikidzwa kusiya tsika yechitendero, sezvatakatyisidzirwa kubva ipapo, uye pamwe kudzingwa pakati pavanhu kuti ndidzokere kunyika yandakanga ndamboonekana nekusingaperi  .  ” Ko, hamuzimi here nhai  Mwari wangu!

Ndakati kwaari, ndiani akandidana akandipinza  mugango  ? Hey!  sei

saka unotambura izvozvo...

Saka, Baba vangu, vasina kundipindura zvakananga, kuitira, pasina kupokana, kuti vandisiire kunaka kweKutenda uye nekuzviisa pasi kweupofu, inzwi rakati kwandiri nechemumoyo: "Mwanasikana wangu, usazvidya moyo, uye zvipire mumaoko angu. Providence. Ini ndichaziva maitiro ekuita zvese zvinoenderana nemaonero angu uye magadzirirwo angu. Chii chingava chekushandisa

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Nematambudziko, kuti amubvise kwandiri? Unotya kushaya pokugara here? Pinda mumoyo mangu, ndihwo utiziro hwenyu, uye rangarira kuti ndakanga ndisina pokuisa musoro wangu... Ko anondida uye wandinodzivirira angashaikwa chii? Onai muenzaniso wamunopiwa nevatsvene vangu vose. Vakapfuma sei muurombo, uye mufaro wakadii pakutambudzika!... Saivo, vimbai naMwari wenyu, uye musatya chinhu. Chengeta pfuma yoKutenda nokusava nemhosva kwako, uye ndichaziva nzira yokukudzivirira nayo. Rutsigiro rwangu ruchakukomberedza, rubatsiro rwangu ruchakutsigira, uye rudo rwangu rucharipa iwe, pamberi, kune zvese zvibayiro zvauchave wakaita kwairi. Hongu, ndichatora nzvimbo yezvose kune wakandipa zvose pasina chaakachengeta. Unotya kumanikidzwa kuputsa mhiko yako yekuvhara; asi, mwanasikana wangu, hamuzivi here kuti munhu haana mhosva kana asina kusununguka? Gadzirirai kutonga kwenyu kwose kwamunenge muri, uye ini ndichairangarira. Kune mamiriro ezvinhu apo munhu anomanikidzwa kupa chishongedzo kune chakakosha: munhu anofanira kubva anamatira kune izvo zvaanogona, kusakwanisa kuita izvo zvaungada. »

Ziva zvino, mwanasikana wangu, kuti pachayo haisi chivharo kana tsika yechinamato inoita kuti vanamate, asi rudo rwaMwari, chido chekukwana, nekuedza nguva dzose kusvika. Zvino, tinogona kuva nechinhu chiri chose ichi chishuvo chakanaka chokufadza Mwari nokuda kworudo rwake; kwese kwese munhu anogona kushandira kukwana kwayo, uye ini ndichakwanisa, maererano nemweya wekuda kwakanaka, kutsiva, nenyasha dzakawanda, nekuda kwekureruka kwawakagamuchira kubva kumutemo wekuvharirwa uye tsika.kuti vangadai vakamumanikidza iye. kusiya Ah! Mwanasikana wangu, nditende, ushuve nomwoyo wako wose kuchengeta murayiro wako, uye usambosiya nzvimbo yako yakakomberedzwa kana tsika yako tsvene; asi iva nechokwadi chokuti ndichagutsikana nechishuwo ichi, kana iwe usingakwanise kuita chimwe chinhu. muchishuva kundifadza pazvinhu zvose uye musingandifadzi pachinhu, uye munenge mazviita. Hongu, zvakare, ndinokuvimbisai, ndichafunga kufira kutenda kunyangwe kune avo vese, mukati memoyo yavo, vanoshuvira kufa kupfuura nakare kose kuti vasiye basa ravo rekubata Kutenda. Handizovasiyi, ndichavabetsera kusvikira parufu nenzira inokosha, uye ndichatora kukudzwa kwangu kubva mumamiriro avo ezvinhu, sokubva muzviitiko zvose zvinoratidzika zvinopesana zvikuru namazano angu (1). »

(1) Zvese izvi zvakarairwa naye rinenge gore kana mwedzi gumi nemisere zvakanyanya, pamberi pekuparadzwa kwenharaunda. Hatifaniri kushamiswa kuti Hanzvadzi yacho, pakati pevamwe, yakaratidza kushingirira uye kurega basa, kana kuti akareurura sezvo Mwari akanga amutsiva zvakanaka. Ona tsamba yokupedzisira kubva kuna Mukuru, panoperera bhuku rino.

Handikwanisi, Baba, kutaura kwamuri pfungwa yerudo nekutenda iyo hurukuro iyi neMwanakomana waMwari yakaita pandiri. Akataura kwandiri nemoyo wakazaruka uye nekupfava kukuru nekudzikama; akaisa kunyengetedza kwakanyanya uye kufarira mune rimwe nerimwe remashoko ake zvekuti ndakanzwa mukati mangu kuti zvisikwa zvaiita sekuda kupindira zvishoma; asi kuvapo kwa

JC yakaisa kunyarara paari uye yakavharira mandiri chero kunzwa kwekuda kwemunhu zvishoma, kugadzikana uye kudada, izvo zvinofanirwa kutyiwa, mukusangana kwakadaro, chete mushure mekunge kuvepo kwaMwari kwazviita; nokuti, mukati mechiito chake chose, mirangariro yakadaro haigoni kuitika, ichiona kuti kupinzwa kwoUmwari kunopararira pamusoro pokunzwisisa, mudzimu, uye kuda. Zvinhu zvose zviri murudo, zvose zvakanyudzwa muna Mwari; uye izvi, Baba, zvinogona kuitika kwandiri ndiri pamwe chete, pasina anozviona. Naizvozvo ndinopa Mwari mbiri yake huru, uye ndinorasha kunyaradzwa kwose kwechisikigo.

Ngatitii, Baba vangu, kuti mweya unosangana nekusuwa, kusuwa, kushushikana, nekukanganisika kukuru; muwedzere kwairi kutyisa kwose kwokuora mwoyo. Zvakanaka! kana JC kamwe kamwe inoita kuti kuvepo kwake kunzwe

mumweya uyu, panguva imwe cheteyo, rugare nekugutsikana zvinotevera dambudziko uye kutya. Anotakurwa nemufaro, uye anoita seapfuura kubva pasi peGehena kuenda kumusoro kweDenga, sezvakamboitika kwandiri kakawanda; asi kuti tidzokere kumamiriro atiri kutaura nezvazvo, ndinoti kuna JC:

Ndinokuitai, imi Mwari wangu! chibayiro chomufaro wangu nokugutswa kwangu, nokuti munoda kuti ndiravire izvozvo. Aya maruva ndeako, kubva iwe wakaaberekera muvhu risingaongi remoyo wangu. Ndinozvipa kwamuri, pamwe chete nerufaro rwandinotarisira kunakidzwa nemi nokusingaperi. Chipiriso ichi chakaita sechinomufadza; asi akawedzera kuti: “Mwanasikana wangu, kana mweya uchitambura chimwe chinhu nokuda kworudo rwangu, zvinondifadza zvikuru. Saka tarisira kutambura ... "

Izvi zvinopera kubvunzurudza kwedu zuva iro, uye ndinomirira nekusiya mhedzisiro yevimbiso iyi. Munzira ipi neipi yazvichaitwa, ndicharamba ndichifara, chero bedzi Mwari ariko, uye kuti anowana mbiri yake mune zvose zvingaitika kwandiri.

Baba vangu, samakore gumi namashanu apfuura, rakanga riri gore reJubheri guru, randakavazve nechiratidzo chinokatyamadza.

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pataiva tese muchoir tichiitira zviteshi zvedu imomo. Ndakaona gorobhu rechiedza richizadza nzvimbo tsvene negedhi. Pasina chandakaona zvakajeka, ndakanzwisisa, nepfungwa yechiedza ichi, kuti kwaiva kuvapo kwevanhu vatatu voumwari vakazviita vamene kundinzwira tsitsi nenzira iyi  . Saka ndinorarama, zvirinani nemaziso epfungwa, asi ndisingakwanise kuzvikanganisa pachangu; Ndikati, ndakaona Kristu akafanana nomunhu akatakurwa navatumwa vazhinji; akanga akakomberedzwa nevaApostora gumi nevaviri, avo vakaita denderedzwa rakapoteredza pasi rose. Ndakacherechedza Mutsvene Petro, uyo aiita seanotungamira pakati pevamwe, nehunhu hwake hwemukuru wekutanga weChechi; Mhandara Yakaropafadzwa yakanga iri patsoka  dzaKristu.

Paminamato yedu yose neMiserere yatakaereketa takatambanudza maoko edu, boka rekudenga rakaita serakagadzikana kwandiri, uye nguva dzose rakasimudzwa kubva pasi, pakureba kwemafiti gumi nemashanu; asi nguva yatakabva pachiteshi chechitatu, zvinhu zvose zvakatanga pamberi pedu, ndokumira panzvimbo patakamira.

takamira: yaiva workroom. Zvese zvakabva zvaramba zviri muchimiro chimwe chete panguva yese yatakadzokorora minamato imwechete, kusvika panguva yekudzokera kuSakaramende Yakaropafadzwa, uko zvese zvakanyangarika, pasina fungidziro yangu yekukwanisa kuburitsa chero chinhu chakafanana panguva yese yezviteshi. . Zvino, Baba vangu, izvi ndizvo zvino zvandaona nekunzwisisa nechiedza chechiono ichi nemaonerwo azvakaita pandiri:

1°. Mwari akandiita kuti ndione ikoko zvakajeka vatongi vechechi  nevapindi, vanyengeri vemarudzi ose; 2°. Ndakaona ikoko zvakare kuedza kwakabatana kwevavengi vose veChechi vachipikisa chokwadi chekutenda, uye kuvhunduka kunotyisa uko Chechi nechitendero zvinofanira kunge zvakanzwa kubva kwazviri: nokuti ndakanzwisisa neizvi, kuti simba reChechi rakanga riri simba reChechi. kuzununguswa nehasha. Ichokwadi kuti ipapo ndaive nekutya kukuru kubva mukunyengedzwa, kunyanya nekuda kwekupikisa kwandakanga ndambosangana nazvo pazvinhu zvakadai, uye kakutaridzika kwaivapo panguva iyoyo, kuti zvose izvi zvandaiona zvaizoitika  .

Maonero ekutanga andakanzwa kubva muchiratidzo ichi, maererano neni, kwaiva kuvimba kukuru kuti ndaigona, nekuita zviteshi zvangu zvakanaka, kuzviruramisa pamberi paMwari pazvirango zvose zvenguva pfupi nokuda kwezvivi zvangu zvekare, nezvibereko uye nekodzero dzisingaperi. zvechishuvo chaJ.C, uko kwakabatanidzwa avo veVatendi vose vekudenga napasi; uye izvi, nemasimba ayo JC akapa kuChechi yake, mumunhu wemuapostora wake wekutanga uye vatsivi vake: izvo zvinonzi kuwana plenary indulgences.

Ndinoziva kuti kuti uwane kuregeredza uku, munhu anofanira kupfidza zvakanyanya uye kuita zvese zvinotemerwa munzombe yaChangamire Pontiff, uye nemaitiro ese aanoda. Ndakatoziva ipapo kuti ani nani anopikisa simba iri reChechi yeRoma, kana aipikisa mune imwe pfungwa yedzidziso yake, aizomutsa hasha dzaJC musoro wake, weSaint Peter, wevaapositori vese, uye pamusoro pese mai vamwari veMuponesi. Zvose izvi zvakandishamisa zvikuru.

Maonero echipiri andakagamuchira muchiratidzo ichi akabatanidza kurangarira zvakajeka kwandiri kusakanganisa kwechokwadi chokutenda chinoshorwa zvakasimba, pamwe chete neicho chechiremera chinozviratidzira kwatiri; chokwadi chemweya chakabatana uye chisingaparadzaniswe zvekuti ani nani anoramba chimwe chete haabvume chimwe, uye asingatendi zvese haatendi chinhu. Ndakaona mukubatana kwechechi iyi hunhu hwake hwose hunokosha husingazununguki sechokwadi chaanotaura.

Pfungwa yechitatu yandakawana kubva mairi yaive yekutyisa. Kutsamwa kwaMwari kwakaita kuti ndinzwe mashoko aya anotyisa: Nhamo! nhamo kune ani nani anoedza kubvuta, kudzvanyirira, kudzvanyirira kana kupikisa simba iri raPontiff anotonga, chokwadi ichi chisingachinji uye chisingakundikane!......

Zvino, Baba, ndakaona kuti ndakaona Petro Mutsvene nevapostori vose vakatsamwa tsvene pamusoro pevapambi, vatongi nevavengi vose veChechi. Petro aigara achitaura pakutanga semusoro wevamwe vose.

Isita yapfuura, Baba vangu, JC vakandizivisa kuti vaida kuti Isita yangu ive ndima chaiyo kwandiri, kuti ndigozotaura mune ramangwana semupostora: Ndinorarama; kwete, handisi ini ndinorarama, asi JC anogara mandiri  .....

Asi, Baba vangu, zvipingamupinyi zvipi zvinopikiswa mandiri kune hupenyu hunofadza hwekutenda muJC, hunova hupenyu hwevakarurama panyika!. Haapo, ndoti,

kunyange hunhu hwangu hurombo husina kutakura mucherechedzo wemunhu  zvekuti mukristu haapo, uye kuti munhu wekare haagari achidzivirira kupa hupenyu kumunhu mutsva. 

hunyengeri hwedhimoni kana hwechisikigo, hwandakawaniswa naJC nguva pfupi yadarika. Mhosva dzangu dzakapfuura dzakandipa kutya kwakadaro uye kuvenga

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kudada, uko, nokuda kwokutya kunyengedzwa zvakare, kazhinji ndakawira mukuzvininipisa kwenhema, uko kunonditungamirira kushayiwa unyoro hushoma noruremekedzo, pakarepo pandinongoziva kuti tingada tinogona kundirumbidza uye kutaura nokuda kwangu.

CHIKAMU II

Kukunda kweJC muChechi yake.

§. I.

Kukunda kweJC mukuzvarwa kwake uye pakufa kwake.

“Muzita raBaba, nereMwanakomana, neroMweya  Mutsvene  , kuburikidza naJesu naMaria,  ndinozviita

kuteerera. »

Ngatitaurei zvino, Baba vangu, nezvezvinhu zvinonyaradza zvikuru kune avo vanoda J.-C. uye vanofarira kubwinya kwake. Mwari vakaita kuti ndione mumwanakomana wavo kukunda kusingagumi, izvo zvisingagoneke kuti ndikutsanangurirei, uye izvo zvinozozivikanwa chete nekusingaperi, pasina kumbozivikanwa zvakakwana kune chisikwa. Kukunda kusingagumi kwehumwari mukupinzwa munhu kweShoko; kukunda kwese kunaka kuri mumunhu weIzwi rakazvarwa; kukunda kwekururama kwehumwari netsitsi, murufu neshungu dzaMwari anodzikinura; kukunda kwenyasha dzake mumweya, nokukodzera kwechido ichi; kukunda kweMuponesi mumwechete, nemuchinjikwa wake, pamusoro padhiabhorosi, nyika nenyama; pakupedzisira kukunda kweChechi yake pamusoro pevavengi vake vose. Zvinhu zvingani zvekutaura pamusoro pechimwe nechimwe chekukunda uku!

Ngatitangeizve, Baba, uye edza zvakare kundandama mazwi mashoma pamusoro penyaya iyo Ngirozi pachadzo dzaisakwanisa kutaura zvakafanira kwamuri. 1°. Kukunda kusingagumi kwehumwari, muchakavanzika chinoyevedza chekuva munhu kweShoko.

Kukunda kweJC mune chakavanzika chekuzvarwa.

Mwari akanga asika nyika nokuda bedzi kwembiri yake norudo rwake rwakachena, uye nokuda kwomufaro wechisikwa chake; asi chivi chakanga chaderedza nokuderedza chisikwa, uye kusateerera kwomunhu kwakanga kwamuita kuti asakodzera mugumo wake. Mwanakomana waMwari anoitei nekuva munhu kwake? Anotsiva kukudzwa kwababa vake, akatsamwiswa nokudarika komunhu ane mhosva; anomudzosera rukudzo nomwoyo wechisikwa chake, uye anochiita kuti chikodzere rudo rwaMwari wake waanoyananisira nokuda kwake. Kunyadziswa kwake nokutambura kwake zvinogadzirisa zvinhu zvose, zvinogadzirisa zvinhu zvose, zvinodzorera zvinhu zvose kuhurongwa hwakanga hwavhiringidzwa nechivi chomunhu; kubudikidza nekuva munhu kweShoko Mwari anotsiviwa, kururamisira kwake kunogutswa, hasha dzake dzanyarara, unhu hwake hwose hunokudzwa. Chisikwa chinowanazve kodzero idzo chivi chakaita kuti chirasikirwe, uye izvi zvese ibasa rerudo rweIzwi rakazvarwa. Kukunda kwakadini, naizvozvo, mukuva  kwake  munhu! Mwari

haawani mbiri isingaperi kubva kwairi, uye munhu zvakaenzana zvakanakira? Asi handizvo zvoga....

Ndichiri kuona kukunda kweruregerero rwenyika mukuva mumunhu  kweShoko uye muhudiki hwaJ  . C. Mwana waMwari uyu akazviratidza kwandiri rimwe  zuva

avete pamuchinjikwa wakashongedzwa nemichindwe nemaruva. Akanga asina kubatanidzwa nazvo,

asi aingovete ipapo, kuratidza kusununguka nekuzvidira kwaakazvipa kuna baba vake kubva panguva yekutanga yekubata kwake pamuviri Baba Vangu, hukuru hwehumwari hahuna kumbokura  kupfuura

kukunda kwekuva munhu; ndipo apo kuparadzwa kwake, kunyadziswa kwake nourombo hwake zvinokunda nokubwinya pamusoro pepfuma, ukuru, zvisina maturo, rudado rwenyika ino, izvo zvisinei kuti vakuru venyika vanoda zvikuru kwazvo kuti vafukidze huduku hwavo nourombo hwavo chaihwo. , pasi pechiratidziro choukuru hunooneka uye pfuma yokukwereta. Kubwinya kwese uku kusina maturo kwakatenderedza madzimambo nevane masimba kunongova tsigiro inodiwa pakusasimba kwavo. Ihwo huchenjeri hwenhema hunoshanda chete kunyengedza maziso evanhu, nekuvanza kubva kwavari kusuruvara kwemamiriro avo. Hazvina kudaro naJ.-C. mukuzvarwa kwake kana mukuzvarwa kwake. Mushandi anogona kuita pasina basa rake. Kuzvimiririra uye pamusoro pezvisikwa zvese zvakasikwa, haadi rubatsiro rwavo; goridhe......

Kukunda kweJC mune chakavanzika chePassion yake.

Kukunda kwekuda kwaJC pamusoro pekururamisira kwababa vake, pamusoro pechivi, dhiabhorosi  negehena  . Chii kukunda, chii chinokunda kubva  pakurwadziwa kwake

kusvika  mweya wake wekupedzisira  !. Ah!  Baba, zvinhu zvingani zvandinoona ipapo

zvinoyemurika uye  zvinotyisa  panguva imwe chete!. Uye kuti kubwinya kwaMwari  kuripo

kutsiva kutukwa kwemunhu  nechivi  !. Hongu, chido chaJ-  C

kukunda kune mbiri kuUtatu  Hutsvene  Hutsvene. Justice  uye

tsitsi, hunhu hwese hutsvene hwakakunda ipapo kamwechete. Mukudhaka kwekutsiva kwake, kana kuchitenderwa kutaura kudai, Mwari azadzisa zvizere kururama kwake muropa romwanakomana wake, nokuda kwezvivi zvaavo vose vane mhosva vanopfidza. Asi ruramisiro imwe cheteyo yakawanawo mairi vavariro dzokusunungura rukova rwose rwematsive ayo akarurama pavavengi vayo. Nokudaro, kukunda kwetsitsi kune vakanaka, kukunda kwekururamisira kune vakaipa

Kubudirira kwakadini muaya mashoko maviri: Chinhu chose chaitwa! ....

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Kudyiwa kwakawanda sei mune ino huru consummatum est! Baba  , Mwari akandiratidza zvinhu zvikuru sei nemashoko maviri aya! Kukunda kwakadini kwakabatanidzwa nechishuvo chitsvene uye chine simba ichi! Mwari akabvisa zvombo, denga rakazaruka, hero iri kure, vanhu vakadzikinurwa, chivi chakaparadzwa, Dhiabhorosi anourawa, rufu rwakakurirwa, zvishuvo zvinobvisirwa zvombo, uye zvose izvozvi ibasa raJ  .

C. achipera!... Asi pamusoro pazvose, kukunda kunokatyamadza kwakadini murukundo runoshamisa rwerumuko rwake rune mbiri! ... Ndipo apo Humwari hwakafukidzwa uye sokunge hwakavigwa mumimvuri yerufu, hwakamirira chete nguva yekupedzisira  yekudzikisirwa kuti ibude mukundi uye nekukunda pamusoro pekuparadzwa  pachayo....

JC mukumuka kwake ndiye mukundi akapfeka kubwinya kwake nesimba rake;  hapana  chinozokwanisa kuifukidza. Mushure mekufa kwake  anoita

kuti akunde pamusoro petariro yedu, nokuti muupenyu hwake akanga aita kuti kunaka kwose kukunde maari. Ngatirege kukanganwa, Baba, kuti kukohwa zvibereko zvekukunda kwechipiri kwezuva rimwe, munhu anofanira kutevedzera wekutanga. Iri pachidanho chete icho rufaro rwekudenga rwunopihwa kwatiri uye rwakarongerwa isu.

Nokukurumidza uyu mukundi ane rugare achagadzirira kukunda nyika, pashure pokunge atakura mavanga ane mbiri amaronda ake kudenga, sezviratidzo zvokukunda kwake.

Kukunda kweJC muChidyo Chitsvene.

Ngatiwedzerei, JC anokunda muYukaristia Tsvene, kwaanotsakatiswa kupfuura pamuchinjiko. Uyu mugariro wokuzvidira kuurawa kupfuuridzirwa kwechishuvo chake, kugutsikana kunopfuurira, gomba rakadzika-dzika rokukunda nokuda kworudo rwake uye nokuda kwomwoyo wake. Imbiri yakadini iyo Mwari haana nokuda kwokutenda muichi chakavanzika choumwari, icho chiri choto chechokwadi chorudo rwoumwari!

JC anofira matiri kuburikidza nechirairo, ndiko kuti, anorasikirwa nesakaramende yake uye Eucharistic kuvapo; asi anofa nenzira isinganzwisisike kuti akunde zvine mbiri pamusoro pezvishuvo zvedu uye kutiita kuti tikunde pamusoro pazvo pamwe chete naye. Mufaro wakadini kwatiri! asi nokuda kwaizvozvo, kutendeka kwakadini kunyasha dzake hakudi kukunda kune rugare uku!... Ndinodedera  pandinozvifunga  . Iye  ini

rinoita serinonzwa richibva mukati-kati metabernakeri inoera izwi raMwari uyu  akava nyajambwa; zvinoratidzika kwandiri kuti ari kushevedzera kwandiri nekuzviuraya kwake: Rufu, rufu, rufu kune iwe pachako uye kune zvose zvakakupoteredza, kurarama chete pahupenyu hwangu uye kunaka kwangu  ! Baba vangu, zvandakaona nezvandakaziva pamusoro pokukunda kwose uku  kwoMwanakomana

zvaMwari hazvinzwisisike; uye mushure mezviuru zvemavhoriyamu munhu aisambokwanisa kupinda mairi kunze kwekutenda kwakadzama uye nekunamata. Vane nhamo vakatorerwa tochi  youmwari iyi  Mapofu 

vasingagoni kuravira kana kunhuwidza zvinhu zvaMwari.

Zviono zvakasiyana zveSista risati rasvika uye panguva yezororo reKisimusi.

Kuita kuti iwe unzwisise zvirinani, Baba, uye kuti unzwe chokwadi chekukunda kwakasiyana uku kwemunhu mutsvene weizwi rakazvarwa, zvinoita sekunge kwakakodzera kwandiri, kana ukazvibvumira, kudonongodza pano zvakasiyana zviratidzo zvandakava nazvo, kunyanya pasi pe mamiriro emutambo weKisimusi yekupedzisira. Iyi tsanangudzo, yandichaedza kupfupisa, haizokufiri, ndine chokwadi, chero mabasa ako achikubvumidza kuti unditeerere kwekanguva. Kana ndirini, Baba vangu, ndichanyanya kufadzwa kuti ndikupei nhoroondo iyi, sezvandichiri kutenda kuti ndiri kuita kuda kwaMwari mune izvozvi  .

Iwe unorangarira, pasina kupokana, kuti mumwaka weAdvent wakave nerupo rwekunzwa kureurura kwehupenyu hwangu hwese sezvandaida. Takaipedza kwasara mazuva matatu zororo risati rasvika; asi ndisati ndapedza zvese, ndakakumbira mvumo yako yekuita mukati memazuva matatu nzvimbo diki yekuzvimiririra, kuti ndizvigadzirire nekukurumidza kuti ndigamuchire kuregererwa kwezvikanganiso zvangu zvese zvekare, kuti ndipemberere zvirinani mabiko makuru ekuzvarwa kwaJC Vous vane mutsa kupinda maonero angu ose, uye makandirayira kuti ndizvibate pachangu, mukurega kwangu, pamusoro pazvose nekubata pamuviri kweMuponesi Mwari, nekunyarara kwake kusinganzwisisike mudumbu raamai vake, uye kuita zvimwe zviverengero zvaienderana nemamiriro ekuzvarwa kwake uye. kune maitiro makuru aanokumbira kwatiri. Pamusoro pazvo, makanditendera kutevera pamusoro pekwese kwenyasha uye nemafungiro ayo Mweya Mutsvene angada kufemera  mandiri.

Eya, Baba, ndakabva ndaenda kunotsvaga Amai vedu, kuti ndivakumbire kuti vandikweretese bhuku rokunamata Mwari, kuti ndizvibatire ndimene, ndakavaudza, kwamazuva matatu kana kuti mana muupenyu hwangu hwapachivande. Amai vedu vakandikweretesa vhoriyamu yaiva nemitambo yakasiyana-siyana yokunamata. Paitova neimwe chete yaingova yemasisita: Ndakanga ndaverenga chimwe chinhu chayo manheru iwayo ndisati ndarara. Mumangwanani ndakagadzirira kuita kufungisisa kwangu ipapo: ndakagwadama pamberi poUtatu hunoyemurika zvikuru, ndakamupa nzvimbo yangu yokuvanda ndokumukumbira kuti aikomborere muzita raJ.

C. uye pasi pedziviriro yaAmai vake Vakaropafadzwa, pasina kufunga nezvechimwe chinhu. .

Ikoko, Baba, huvepo hwaMwari hwakaita hunzwike kwandiri: JC akazviratidza kwandiri nenzira yemukati, ndinotenda, asi zvinoshamisa kupfuura zvaakanga aita kwenguva yakareba. Akati kwandiri nenzwi rakapfava uye rinonyengetedza:

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“Mwanangu, pawave pamudyandigere ndinoda kukuraira nekukugadzirira pachangu. Ini ndichave mutungamiriri wako uye chiremba wako: saka, iwe unogona kugovera nekuverenga chero rimwe bhuku, kuti udzidze ini ndega. Ingonditeererai, ndakakwana kukurairai. Saka heino,

akaenderera mberi, sezvauchaita retirement yako, kana iwe unenge wawana mvumo yemutungamiriri wako, wandinoda kuti ubvunze kwaari. (Munoziva, Baba, kuti ndakakukumbirai nenguva.)

"Semutungamiriri wako, ndinodawo kuti kudzoka kwako kuve kwakazvipira zvakakwana mukufungisisa kunyarara kwangu uye nekudzoka kwangu kwemwedzi mipfumbamwe mudumbu raamai vangu, chimiro chekunyarara kwangu uye nekunyanya kudzika kwangu musakaramende yerudo rwangu. . Muchabatana neni muzvinhu zviviri izvi, zvikuru pane zvokupedzisira, kuti muremekedze uye muremekedze Baba vangu; zvakakodzerana naye uye kubvisa  kutsamwa kwake. Unozofungisisa  _

rudo rwemwoyo wangu unoera kuvanhu, kunyangwe ndisati ndazvarwa; pamusoro pechishuvo chikuru chokuti ndaifanira kuberekwa kuti ndivadzikinure, uye pamupiro wandakanga ndava kutopa ropa rangu kuti ruramisirwe. Iwe uchaita, nekuda kweichi chinangwa, maitiro andakakupa kukudza zvakavanzika zvehupenyu hwangu nerufu rwangu. Asi panguva yezororo reKisimusi iwe uchatarisira zvakanyanya chakavanzika chikuru chekuzvarwa kwangu, icho chakafadza denga nenyika. Izvo ndezvechinangwa ichi pamusoro pezvose zvaunofanira kutaurirana ipapo. Nenzira iyi unozoenderana nemweya weChechi yangu. Iwe uchakudza Amai vangu uye kuvafadza zvisingaite. Pakupedzisira muchapa kuna Mwari, Baba vangu, kukudzwa kwaanoita godo, kwaasingagoni kuramba. Heino, mwanasikana wangu, chimwe chinhu chichakubata iwe panguva yako yekuenda pamudyandigere. »

Saka, Baba vangu, JC vakazviratidza kwandiri muchimiro chemwana mudiki achangozvarwa. Kupenya kwaipenya kwakaifukidza, nehunhu, regai ndione mumwana uyu wehumwari runako runopenyereka rwakapinda mandiri uye rwakaita kunyangarika kunzwa kwese kwerudo rwune musoro kune chisikwa. Ndakanga ndisisaone, ndaingoona chinhu chandaida, uye zvakandinetsa kuti dzimwe nguva ndaimbozvifungawo sei....

Nehunyoro ndakamutarisa akarara pahuswa aita kutambura nekuda kwemudiwa wangu, akatarisisa maziso ake nechiso chake chainge chakatsva chakatarira kudenga, ndokutambanudza tumaoko twake seakanga atove pamuchinjiko uye kuti aizodaro. vakatoda kutora zviyero zvayo. Ungadai waiti tsoka dzake nemaoko zvakamirira munyoro, uye divi rake rinoyevedza kurova kwepfumo remhondi. Akaita seafanoti:

Baba vangu vakanganwirei....

"Hona, mwanasikana wangu, akati kwandiri, achitendeukira kwandiri maziso ake azere nerudo, heino maitiro andakatora uye chishamiso chinofadza chandakapa kuna Baba vangu kubva panguva yekutanga yekuzvarwa kwangu. , uye kunyangwe zvangu design; uye iri ndiro bhuku raunofanira kudzidza paunenge  wava  pamudyandigere. "Bhuku ripi!  baba vangu

kuzara sei nokuzodzwa! kuti rine zvinhu zvinoshamisa!Tinganeta nokuridzidza  here  ? Kwete, zvichida. Zvakare zvinofanirwa kubvumwa kuti kubva  izvi

nguva inofadza hazvibviri kuti nditarisire chimwe chinhu. Ndinongofunga, masikati nousiku, nezvemwana anoyemurika uyu, uye kunyange muhope dzangu ndinotenda kuti ndichiri kumuona nekumunzwa..... Asi ndiri kure nekunyunyuta pamusoro pazvo....

Ah! dai, pane kudaro, chifananidzo chake chenyasha chingandichengeta ndakabatikana! dai ndangariro dzake dzine rudo dzirege kupera mupfungwa dzangu, kana rudo rwake rutsvene kubva pasi pemoyo  wangu  ! Ngatiedzei kugara takabatana  naye

kutambura, uye kupira mafambiro edu ese kwairi nekuvimbika kwehupenyu hwedu uye nehupenyu hwerudo rwedu.

Izvi handizvo, Baba, chiratidzo chega chandakaona mumazuva matatu kana mana ekutiza. JC akazviratidza kwandiri kazhinji, uye nguva dzose mumamiriro ezvinhu akafanana uye munzvimbo imwechete yemuviri wake wehumwari. Akadzokororazve kwandiri kuti kubva panguva yokutanga yaakange avete pamashanga, mushure mokuberekwa kwake, akanga atora nzvimbo yaaifanira kuva nayo pamuchinjikwa, kuti akudze Baba vake, nokumufanomupira kutambudzika uye kutambudzika. kukodzera kwerufu rwake nokuda kworuponeso rworudzi rwomunhu. Pasina kupokana, Baba vangu, kuti Abheri haana kubayira, kana Isaka akarara paatari yechibairo chake, kana vese vakaurayiwa nemutemo wekare, kunyangwe vaive mifananidzo yekubayirwa kwemubairo mukuru aifanira kutakura zvivi. dzevanhu, uye kuvaregerera nerufu rwake, haana kumboita chishamiso chinofadza zvakadaro kumaziso eAsingagumi, sezvaakamupa kakawanda nemwanakomana asina mhosva uyu, gwayana rechokwadi raMwari, uyu JC pakupedzisira, saka anotangira chibayiro chake chekupedzisira. zvibayiro zvakawanda zvezuva nezuva, uye nezvimiro zvomuviri zvakanga zvakafanana nemiedzo yokufeva kwake  .

Ndinorega vanhu venyika vazvikorokotedza ivo pachavo pamafaro avo, uye pane kuvaitira shanje mufaro wavo wokunyepedzera, ndinoshinga kuvapikisa kuti vandiudze kana mafaro avo makuru.

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machira haana chinhu chinosvika pane izvo huvepo hunonzwisa tsitsi hwaMwari wangu hwakaita kuti ndiwane kane chiuru..... Zvichange zvakaita sei Nokusingaperi!... Mufaro wakadini kune avo vachazviwana! Asi kupfidza kwakadini kune avo vakapira mafaro chaiwo, echigarire uye echokwadi kumafaro akaipisisa uye anoshoreka ezvifeve zvinopfuura zvenyika ino isingafadzi uye inonyengera! ; Ndichavapindura kuti: Kupenga uku, kana kuri kumwe, kunodiwa zvikuru kupfuura kwenyu, sezvo nokuroverera mumweya ruvengo rwechakaipa uye rudo rwezvakanaka, kunovimbisa mufarwa wahwo nokuda kwenguva yemberi, uye nokuda kwazvino kunomuita. nakidzwa chete nezvakanaka chaizvo,

Mune imwe yekufungisisa uku, ndakaona nyika yakatenderedza yemoto, iyo yaiita senge saizi yegororo, ichidonha kubva kudenga, uye ndakaudzwa kuti yaive moto werudo rwaMwari uyo JC akaunza kubva kudenga pasi.  uye chaaida, chaaida kuti chibatidze mumwoyo  yose  Nechiedza  cheizvi

mwoto wakaisvonaka, ndakaona zvakare kunyangarika rudo rwezvinhu zvine mufungo umo ndakanga ndisingachaoni chinhu chipi nechipi kunze kwakashata uye chinoshoreka, mukuenzanisa norudo rwoMusiki, uyo oga airatidzika kwandiri akafanirwa nounyoro hwose hwemwoyo yedu. Zvino, Baba vangu, ndichiona Mwari muzvinhu zvose, uye ndisingaoni chinhu zvino kunze kwaMwari, ndakazviwana ndimene ndatungidzwa zvikuru kupfuura nakare kose nechishuvo chokubatanidza chinhu chiri chose norudo rwavo rwoumwari, uye kusaita chimwe chinhu kunze kweichi mugumo bedzi; izvo nyasha dzaJC dzaida kuramba dziri mandiri. Pandinoona mwana mudiki wandinoda, kana chimwewo chinhu chinonakidza, ndinorangarira runako runokatyamadza rweMwana Jesu, uye pakarepo pfungwa yese yechisikwa inobva yanyangarika....

Handifanire baba kukanganwa kukuudzai kuti dhimoni iro, sezvamunoziva, rinogara richishandisa basa raMwari kutinyengedza, rakaedzawo kuti ndione mwana ndichitevedzera wandabva kukuudzai. nezve. Asi musiyano wakadini mukubata kwake, mashoko ake, chimiro chake, uye migumisiro yaakaita mandiri! Aiwa, Mwari haambobvumiri kufanana kwacho kuva chaikoiko zvokuti hazvibviri kuti kutenda kwakanaka kunzvenga chikanganiso; uye ndaiziva muchirairo chaitevera kuti inyasha dzaJC chete kuti ndakanga ndawana musungo, uye kuti panzvimbo pokuda mwana uyu wandaigadzirirwa nedhimoni, ndakanga ndamuberekera chete kuvenga, kuvenga uye kuvenga. nokuda kwababa venhema nezvivi.

Sezvo mabiko aiswedera, ndakanzwa inzwi raJC rakati kwandiri: "Zvipi zvitsvene zvichaitwa mumazuva ano matsvene nevavengi vangu

vari mumba mangu! Ndichazvipa kuna ani kuti ndigamuchirwe zvakakodzera, anodaro, nekariro  yenguva  yemberi? Zvichava  zvekusapira izvi here

audacious vasina kana mvumo yeChurch yangu? Zvichava kune avo vanhu vari munyika, vanofunga nezvemafaro avo chete, uye vanoita sevanondiziva chete zviri nani kuti vanditsamwise? Achiona kuti ndaichema, akati kwandiri: ‘Usagumbuka; zvakadaro ndichiri nemoyo yakatendeka. Kuwanda kwavo, vakabatana navashumiri vangu vakanaka, zvakakwana kuti vanyaradze ini newe pachako pakuzvidzwa uye kuraswa kwavamwe: Baba vangu vachagara vachikwevera kukudzwa kwavo kubva mairi, uye zvibayiro zvinobayirwa kwandiri pasi pevhu zvinonyanya kufadza. Ndinofarira zviedzo nekutamburira kwevatendi vangu vechokwadi; uye Chechi yangu inotambudzwa inondiratidza chiratidzo chinobaya mwoyo zvikuru, mutero wakandikodzera zvikuru.  Baba vangu vanokudzwa zvikuru, kana vakadaro pasinei nezvipingamupinyi zvose pikisa" Naizvozvo hakuna chikuru  ,

kunonyanya kukosha kumuKristu pane kutambudzwa nokuda kweKutenda; hapana chakanakira chingaenzaniswa nemufaro waainawo mukusafara kwevanhu, nekuti akange akatendeka kuna Mwari wake....

Mushure mekugamuchira kuregererwa paZuva reKisimusi, JC akandipupurira kakawanda kuti kusuwa kukuru kwakaputira moyo  wake  . "Izvozvo

mhosva, dzaakadzokorora kwandiri, dzichaitwa usiku huno uye namazuva ano matsvene!... Ndichagumburwa zvakakura sei!..." Ndakamiririra kwaari hunhu hwake uye hwevatsvene vose, kunyanya. Amai vake vatsvene, uye ipapo akandizivisa kuti zvakanga zvakafanira kuti ndive akatendeka zvikuru kumiitiro yandakanga ndava kuda kuvandudza mhiko yacho, uye chinangwa chacho chiri chokumuita kuti aruramiswe zvinokudzwa pamhosva dzose dzaainyunyuta nazvo; kuti zvakanga zvakafanira kumupa zvibayiro zvemisa zuva rega rega kuti agadzirise zvitsvene zveusiku humwe chetehwo; izvo zvandakatanga kuita masikati nousiku mhomho dzatakaudzwa; uye hevano Baba vangu, zvakaitika kumapoka matatu eusiku.

Pakutsaurwa nekukwidzwa kwekutanga, ndakaona mumaoko emuprista mwana mudiki aipenya nekubwinya, ane nyama mhenyu uye iine hupenyu. Kusvika Domine non sum dignus , akaita sendakagara

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pamberi pomuprista paatari, uye sokunge akafukidzwa nenguo iyoyo yokubwinya iyo mwaranzi youmwari hwake yakamuitira. Aiita seakanga akamirira nokusashivirira kuti nguva yechirairo igamuchirwe nomupristi namasisita  .” Achicheuka kwandiri, akati kwandiri nenzwi romwana: “  Aa!

kana wanga uine chishuwo chekuuya kwandiri sezvandinofanira kuenda kwauri uye kupinda  mumoyo mako  !. Kukokero inotapira uye yerudo kubva  kwandiri

Mwari ndakazviona ndazadzwa nekutenda, kutya nerudo zvekuti ndakange ndisisabatike pazviri. Ndakazvipira kwaari zvachose, kana kuti ndakamukumbira kuti agamuchire hunhu hwake sezvazvaive mandiri, sevamwe. Ndakanga ndichizvibatanidza nerudo rwake, ndakamirira kuzvibatanidza kumoyo wake woumwari uye kune  zvose pachake. Ndakatorwa moyo nechishuwo ichi chekuda  kumugamuchira,

kuti ndakanga ndisisazive kuti ndaipinda misa here kana kuti kwete. Ndakazvipa iye pachake kuna Baba Vokusingagumi ndakamutsidzira mhiko dzangu dzerubhabhatidzo nechinamato, neizvo zvezviito zvangu ndakanamatira Chechi, zvechitendero, zveumambo,

etc., sezvamakandiudza paPater noster , mwana akabva anyangarika kwechinguva.....

PaDomine non sum dignus , ndakaona zvakare Mwana waMwari uyu aiita seari kuvhura maoko ake nemaoko ake seaida kukanda mapfumo pasi ozvipa kumupristi akanga ava kumugamuchira. Akati, achizvipa, “ Ndiri pano ndipo pandinowana zvinondifadza.” Ndakawedzera shungu dzangu uye shungu dzangu. Asi rimwe  inzwi

simba rakanzwika pamusoro pearitari, zvichidedera, zvipenyu, nehonye; zvininipisei, zviparadzei, mudzokere kusina maturo, muve musina chamunacho, pamberi poMusiki wenyu naMwari wenyu  !. Izvi

mazwi anotyisa, akadzokororwa kaviri kana katatu, angadai akandidzinga pasina kukanganisa, dai ndakanga ndisina kurangarirwa zvakasimba nezwi raJC pachake, uyo akandikoka kuti ndiswedere pasina kutya chero chinhu, uye akandiita rudzi rwemurairo izvo zvaive. zvisingaiti kuti ndirambe. Saka ndakaswedera zvakare nerudo kupfuura kutya.

Mushure meChirairo, mugamuchiri wangu wehumwari akataura neni zvakawanda pamusoro perudo rwakanga rwuchangobva kumuita kuti abarwe mumwoyo mangu semubhedhuru; asi akandiudza nezvazvo nenzira yandisingabviri kuti ndikuudzei.

Rwaiva rudo ruchizvitaurira; iye ega ndiye anokwanisa kutaura...

Mashoko ake aingova moto nomurazvo; shoko rimwe nerimwe rakanga riri museve unopfuta, museve unopinza uye unopinza, uye kutaura kwawo kwose vira romwoto wakaisvonaka uyo unotungidza mwoyo yamaserafi, uye uyo wakauya kuzounza kubva kudenga kuuya panyika. Kugutsikana kwakadini, kufara kwakadini kwaakaita kuti ndiravire munguva ino inofadza uye mune avo vakaitevera!... Mufaro wakakwana wakadini!...

Pakusimudzwa kwechaunga chechipiri, ndakaonazve nemeso omweya mwana uyu avete muhondo tsvene; asi akanga  akatambanudza maoko ake 

ropa rakaita serichayerera kubva kuvadiki vake, nhengo nenhengo dzakasiyana dzemuviri wake wehumwari; Ndakaona mukati make pfungwa yekurovererwa, shungu dzerudo dzakamurovera mberi kuti awane ruponeso rwevose. Meso ake, akatarira mudenga, akandiudza zvakakwana kuti akanga akabatikana chose chose nebasa guru rokuita kuti rifadze pasi, kupfurikidza nokuyananisa murume ane mhaka nomutongi wake akanga ashatirwa. Ichi ndicho chinangwa chekuva kwake munhu uye kufa kwake. Kune izvi kuti anofanira kushandisa nguva dzese dzehupenyu hwake, zvese zvishuwo zvemweya wake uye nekufamba kwese kwemoyo wake, kusvika pakufema kwake kwekupedzisira. Anopira zvinhu zvose, anozviuraya nokuda kwechido cheChechi yake uye nokuda kwezvakanaka zvevasanangurwa vake vose.

Hapana chimwe chinhu chakamakwa chakaitika kwandiri pamisa yechitatu yeusiku. Asi, Baba, sezvo tiri pamhando idzi dzezviratidzo, ndichakuzivisai nezvemamwe mashoma emhando imwe chete iyo yakaitika kwandiri mazuva mashoma mushure mezororo reKisimusi, uye izvo zvingave zvichibatsira kusimudzira uye kunyange kutsigira avo. izvo zvatichangobva kutaura, uye izvo zvakafanana nezvinozotevera. Hezvino chokwadi:

Humwe husiku pandakatadza kurara, ndakarangarira kuverenga, uye tsananguro yawakatipa nezvehuduku hwaJC, panguva yekuzvarwa kwake. Chakavanzika ichi chikuru uye chinoyemurika sei, ndakazvitaura ndega!... Zvinoshamisa, zvinoshamisa uye zvinoyemurika sei!... Kudenga! ndiani achazvinzwisisa?.... Mwari achiva mwana mudiki kwezuva rimwe...mwana mudiki kwemazuva maviri mwana mudiki kwemazuva matatu...mwana mudiki kwesvondo...mwana mudiki we mwedzi mwana mudiki  wegore rimwe  . uye  kuti

tide  !. Shoko rimwe nerimwe regiredhisheni iyi rakandipa  idzva

kushamisika  ndakangoerekana ndaona kuti Mwari vaida kuti  ndidaro

zivisa chimwe chinhu. Ndakabva ndangorega kufunga kwese kwemunhu, kuti ndizvishandise pakuziva zvaive kuda kwaMwari. Nokuti ndaitya, neimwe nzira, kuti ndakanga ndiri pachangu uyo, nokusimudza fungidziro dzangu nokufungisisa pamusoro pechimwe chinhu.

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Zvakakodzera kumufadza, dai zvisina kundipa kunakidza kwandainzwa mukati.

Ndichiri kufunga saizvozvo, uye ndichizvichenjerera kudaro, ndakabatwa uye sokunge ndazadzwa nechiedza chokudenga, chandakaona, nemaziso omudzimu, mwana muduku. tsvarakadenga yaishamisa uye asina kuratidzika kuva anopfuura  mazuva maviri  Aive  akamira

nenguwani diki, nhete zvikuru yekuchena kunopenya. Kahembe kadiki aka, kaive kakavhurika kumusoro, kakabvumira kuona zamu rinoera  remwana waMwari uyu, makabva mabuda marimi omoto, aisimuka nechamupupuri, akapararira pamusoro pechiso chake chaiyevedza chairatidza kupenya nazvo. kugamuchirwa, kwakajeka kwazvo, ndinofunga,  kwandakawana

asi ane ruzivo, akandikurudzira nokuda kwake nerudo rwakadzama uye nechido chokuva naye, kumukudza, uye kuva wake nokusingaperi, zvokuti hazvisati zvichibvira zvachose kuti nditaure chinhu chiri kuswedera pedyo nacho. Iwe unofanirwa kusangana nazvo kuti uwane pfungwa ....

Mwana wacho akandiudza kuti kuchena kwenguo dzake kwaimiririra zvaakakumbira kwandiri: kupfava, kutendeseka, kusava nemhosva kwakakwana, kuchena kukuru kwemwoyo nehana, kunyanya kumusvika muChirairo Chitsvene. Pakupedzisira, akakurudzira kuti ndifanane naye, ndiko kuti, kuva mwana muduku uye muduku saiye, kuva mbeveve saiye, uye kuva nounyoro hukuru hworudo nokuda kwouduku hwake hwoumwari, unyoro hukuru hworudo kuna Mwari uye muvakidzani.

Chiratidzo ichi chakatora awa, apo ndakazviwana ndakwezvwa uye ndatakurwa nehunhu, rudo rwandakatadza kunzwisisa, rwakanga rwakajeka uye rwakanga rwakashamisa. Unodei kwandiri nhai mwana wamwari! Ndakadaidzira; Chii! Mwari ngaakotamira pakadai, nokuda kwechisikwa chakashata uye chinoshoreka seni! kuva neni, asina kusimba uye asina kukodzera, kufunga uye mutsa izvo hakuna munhu mupenyu  angafanirwa  !. Me

zadza nguva yega yega nenyasha kupfuura zvese zvinogona kutaurwa!...

Nditakurei denga mundiendese pasi, kuti ndiite kuti ndinakidzwe nevapenyu vese nekufara kweVatsvene uye kugara  kwevakaropafadzwa  !. Chii chakanyanyisa, oh  ini

Mwari! uye uri kufungei? unoda kuti ndiite sei, uye unoda kuti ndikupindure  sei  ? Ko moyo wangu wakashata  sei

zvinokwana kusimba kwemanzwiro anodiwa  nevakawanda  vasingafariri? Ndatenda,

naizvozvo, Iwe Muroora wangu weseresitiyaro, ndisiye, iva netsitsi pakusafanira kwangu, chengetedza kushaya simba  kwangu  . neshoko rimwe chete, regai kundidzinganisa  uye

kunditambudza, kana kundisunungura pangetani dzoupenyu; nokutizve, mumutauro wandiri, anogona kungofira kutenda kwangu! Hongu, tariro yekusazombokurasa uye yekuva newe nguva dzose, inogona chete kundifadza, nekugadzirisa nekusingaperi mufaro wangu, tariro yangu uye mufaro wangu!...

Ndizvozvo, Baba vangu, kuti mukutakura kwangu kwakaitika kwandiri kanopfuura kamwechete kutaura naJC pachake nekushingaira kusingafungidziki uye rusununguko, uye maaiita seanofarira, kure nekutsamwa. . Dzimwe nguva ndaitaura zvinhu kwaari zvimwe zvakanyanyisa kusimba uye kushinga, rudzi rwekushamisira, kana uchigona kuzvidaidza, asi rudo rwake rwaiita kuti nditaure. Iye pachake akaisa matauriro mumuromo mangu, uye kazhinji kazhinji ndaimuudza zvaakandifuridzira, ndisinganyatsozvinzwisisa ini, uye ndisingaregi, pane zvose zvandakanga ndataura kwaari, kunyange chimwe chinhu kunze kwekuyeuka kwekunakidzwa kwandaiva nako. vaiva mukumuudza... Mazwi nemafungiro, kupfava kwemoyo nekutakurwa kwerudo zvakanyangarika, kunze kwechimwe chinhu chingadai chakanyanya kundikanganisa uye nekukonzera mamwe maonero echigarire mukati menhaurirano dzakanaka idzi  ....

Somuenzaniso, ndinoyeuka kuti mune mamwe mamiriro ezvinhu apo ndakanga ndiri munhu waMwari zvikuru kupfuura ini; uye rudo rwake parwakataura mandiri zvikuru kupfuura ini, ndakaramba ndichimupa kukudzwa kwake nokwemwanakomana wake  . Ndakamiririra kwaari zvose zvakakosha zveropa raJC uye chido; Ndakataurawo naye nezvezvakanakira Amai vake vatsvene, veVaapostora, veVafira Kutenda Vatsvene uye neChechi  Tsvene yose  . Mwari wangu! Ndakamuudza kuti  ini

Farai mukubwinya kwenyu, uye mukukwana kwenyu kwese kwehumwari, muhunhu hwenyu hwese hutsvene! Ndinofara sei murudo rwemaserafi, kunamatwa kwengirozi uye kukudzwa kwezvisikwa  zvese  !. kuti  ndifare

zvauri mauri uye maererano nesu! JC airatidza kufara mune zvese izvi uye akanditeerera nemweya wekunyunyuta. Ndakazopedzisa nekumukumbira ruregerero nekuda kwehushingi hwangu hwekutaura naye kudai nezvehukuru hwehumwari hwake, panguva yakazoshaika mwana...

Ndakabva ndaedza kuenderera mberi nehurukuro imwe cheteyo; asi kunyangwe ndakaedza zvakaoma sei, zvakange zvisingaitewo kuti ndiyeuke kupfungwa dzangu pfungwa dzimwechete.

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uye mifananidzo mimwecheteyo, zvekuti dai zvaisaita kuti ndiiwane pakutanga, kana kuti ndizvitsause kubva pairi nguva yapfuura. Handina kuzowana chinhu chiri pedyo nayo mandiri; uye nekukurirwa nekusava nematuro kwekuedza kwangu, ndakakurumidza kumanikidzwa kugumisa kuti zvinotora chimwe chinhu kunze kwemhedzisiro yekufungidzira kuti uwane.

uye zvitarisiko zvinofadza, nekunzwa kunotapira, uye nehupenyu hwerudo  hwavanoperekedzwa nahwo. Pane izvi ndakava nenguva yakawanda yekugutsikana  .  Ndakanga ndasara neimwe ndangariro

zvine nyasha, asi izvo zvaisava chimwe chinhu kunze kwendangariro, uye ndaizorara mairi murugare.

Asi zvino, pashure peawa, chiono chechipiri chakauya kuzotsiva chokutanga, uye ndicho chandatokutsanangurirai. Ndakaona mwana mumwe chete iyeye zvakare, asi mumamiriro ezvinhu akasiyana zvikuru kubva kune wekutanga .... Kurwadziwa kwakadini kwandiri!... Akaita sekuti akasungirirwa pamuchinjikwa netsoka uye nemaoko, izvo, zvisinei. havana  kurovererwa  , havana kuona ropa, kana maronda, kana zviratidzo  zvokutambura

, uye izvozvo zvakandinyaradza zvikuru. Ndakaonawo kuti muchinjikwa wakanga wakafukidzwa uye wakashongedzwa nemaruva, michindwe, maruva nematombo anokosha. Mutumbi  wemwana wamwari waivepo wakashama, asi zvakare waipenya nechiedza chaipenya chakaufukidza nekuda kwehunhu. Rakanga rakaita sechidzitiro cheruremekedzo icho kuzvininipisa kwakanga kwakakomberedza  rudzi rwake rutsvene  . (1) The

rudo rumwe rwakabva rwavandudzwa mumoyo  mangu  . “Ndiri pano,”  akadaro kwandiri.

pangoro yangu yokukunda, unoona pano kubwinya kunobva kuna Baba vangu

(1) Tinofanira kunge takazviona, uye zvakanaka kuzvicherechedza, kuti pese apo hanzvadzi yaiona nemaziso emuviri, kana emweya, hunhu hutsvene hwemwana Jesu, hwagara huri pasi pechifukidziro chinoremekedzwa. kuzvininipisa kunofadza. Iri mushure mezviratidzo zvakadaro kana mienzaniso yakadaro iyo fungidziro yevadetembi, vanyori, vanyori, vavezi uye mamwe maartist anoshanda? Iyi ndiyo mitemo yavanotevedzera here mumabasa avo akasiyana-siyana, ayo anodzikisira maziso kune mwero? Idzo neruremekedzo rwakafanana here kuti dzinowanzomiririra chinhu chimwe chete? Imhosva yakadini  kumiririra zvisina kufanira Mhandara dzakachena, kana kuti Mwari akachena zvachose  !

kuteerera uye kunaka kweShoko rake rakava munhu. Mwoyo wangu hauna  kumirira ruvengo rwevanhu, wakazvirovera mberi, uye rudo rwangu rwakanga rwandiroverera pamuchinjikwa nguva refu pamberi pemuchinjikwa wangu uye  vaurayi vangu Chido chekufadza  .

Baba vangu uye kugutsa rudo rwangu kuvanhu, zvakandiita kuti ndidzivise mutongo wekutongwa kwangu. Yakanga isati yatakurwa nevavengi vangu, uye yakatourayiwa nevangu. Imbiri yaMwari! Kukunda kwakadini kwemudiwa wangu!

Zvino, Baba vangu, JC vakandikurudzira kuti ndizviroverere pamuchinjikwa pamwe chete naye. Akandiudza kuti kubva panguva iyoyo, ndaifanira kumukumbira michinjikwa, kunyadziswa, kutambura, kumukudza uye kumupa kusuwa kwangu kuduku, kugutsa rudo rwake, uye kukudza kunyadziswa kwake. Zvandakaita; asi ndakanzwa ndisingadi kuzvidavirira kwamuri, Baba vangu, pamusoro pezvose izvozvo

zvakaitika usiku ihwohwo pakati paJC neni. "Ndanga ndichikutarisira ikoko," akandiudza. Chii! mwanasikana wangu, iwe ungadai wakanakidzwa, iwe unoti, kuti uve nemukana wokundiratidza rudo rwako nekutenda kwako nemichinjikwa,  kuteerera uye kuzviisa pasi, uye unoteerera kuzvimba kwako kwepanyama pane chinhu chandinokumbira kwauri uye icho mureurura wako. zvinoda kubva kwandiri! Huya, ini ndinoda chaizvo kuti, kuteerera rudo rwangu uye kutevedzera kutambudzika kwangu, iwe unoramba zvese zvinonaka uye zvese zvinonaka, izvo zvaunouraya, nekuda kwangu, izvo zvinosemesa izvo zvakasikwa zvinokurudzira kwauri, uye izvo zvinogara zvipingamupinyi kune yako. kukwana. Handidi kuti uve nechimwe chinangwa uye chinangwa chisiri chekuita kuda kwangu

“Pakupedzisira, mwanasikana wangu, ufe kune zvose uye iwe pachako, kuti uraramire ini chete. Funga kuvapo kwangu chete, rangarira makomborero angu chete nerudo rwangu. Kuchema chete kuti ndagumbura kana kundiona ndagumburwa. Ndifare chete mukuuya kwekutonga kwangu uye mutariro yekuzonditora rimwe zuva. Nokuda kwaizvozvo, zvishandisei imi, kusvikira pakupera kwemazuva enyu, kuti mungozvigadzirira rufu rwakanaka uye rutsvene, nokutendeka kwenyu kumiitiro yandakakupai, uye nokuzadzikiswa kwakakwana kwemhiko dzedu.” Akasimbisa zvikuru kutendeka  . kune idzi tsika  dzaunozviita

akandibvumira kuvandudza mhiko ....

Ndakakumbira ruregerero nokuda kweruvengo urwu rwakanga rwandiswededza kune uyu mutsa uye yambiro chete. Ndakavimbisa kuti ndaizova akatendeka kutevera mazano ake ose. Yakanga yava nguva yepiri pakati pousiku, uye masisita  ekwaya

vakanga vachibuda mumatini, apo  chiratidzo chechipiri chiya  chakanyangarika Asi  handizvo

kwete zvose, Baba, uye ini zvino ndinofanira kuwedzera chimwe chinhu, sekuenderera mberi, kwekukunda uko JC Church yakakunda uye ichakunda munguva yose; uye apa ndipo pandichagumisa kukunda kwekuva munhu, kuzvarwa uye rufu rwemuvambi wako wehumwari. Ichava kekutanga  .

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§. II

Kukunda kweJC munguva dzose dzeChechi yake, uye kunyanya munguva yekupedzisira.

“Muzita raBaba, nereMwanakomana, neroMweya Mutsvene, zvichingodaro. »

Kunamata zvidhori kwakaparadzwa. Vanyengeri vakavhiringidza uye vakaparadza.

Baba vangu, kungogadzwa kwechitendero chechiKristu pamarara ekunamata zvidhori, zvisinei nekuedza kwezvishuvo, zvadhiabhorosi, zvenyika negehena, zvinotokwana kuti tiratidze humwari hwacho kwatiri; chinyiko kana achiwedzera pairi dzidziso dzakatsauka zhinji dzakavapo pachipfuva chake, segora zhinji richibvambura ura, uye raizoiparadza?

kane zana kune umwe, kana basa raMwari rikakundikana? Kurwiswa mukati nekunze panguva imwe chete, kurwisana munzira dzose pamwe chete, Chechi yeJC yakakunda pamusoro pezvinhu zvose, sezvazvakanga zvavimbiswa  ; risingamboshandisi simba rezvombo kana kuti chero nzira ipi neipi yomunhu, rakaparadza dzidziso dzenhema dzose nemasekete ose, sokuparadza kwarakaita atari navamwari vemarudzi  ! Kubwinya  kwakadii

iyo uye inokunda sei kune  munyori wayo wehumwari  !. Asi ngatitaure mamwe  maviri

mashoko edambudziko raari kutambura nhasi, uye raanofanirawo kukunda nerubatsiro rwa Mwari chete. Ndichataura chete zvaakandiudza nezvazvo.

Kurwiswa kwekupedzisira kweChechi; kukunda kwake.

Izvi ndazvitaura kwamuri pane imwe nzvimbo, Baba, uye munorangarira kuti izvo zvandatokunyorerai kare, nezvandakaziviswa nesimba kwazvo, makore makumi maviri kana makumi matatu apfuura, pandakaudzwa kuti dhimoni rakanga rapinda musinagoge rake . , kuti kusaroora, mhiko dzechitendero, uye kunyange masimba aBaba vedu vatsvene  Papa  akanga adzvinyirirwa;  isimba rakakura sei

yakanga yamukira Chechi, kuti yakanga yapa nhaka yaShe kungwara  nokupambwa kwamarudzi,...kuti kutenda  kuzununguswe  ,. kuti

mbiru dzeChechi  dzaizodzedzereka  . kuti vakawanda vavo

aizokundwa. Ndakabva ndaziva kuti simba  nenhumbi

ecclesiastics yaizopihwa kuruoko rwenyika; kuti Chechi yaizosangana nekukatyamadzwa, uye vakatendeka kutambudzwa kunotyisa, uye kuti takanga tava kusvika pachiitiko chinosuwisa ichi....

Maiwe, Baba, chiitiko, sezwi raMwari, chinotimanikidza isu tose kuona nhasi kuzadzikiswa kwechokwadi kwechiporofita icho chaionekwa sechakanyanya, icho ndakaita marwadzo madiki mazhinji uye kupokana kwakawanda. tsvaira zvese. Hapana nzira yekukanda kusava nechokwadi pane izvo munhu aisagona kutenda, uye nguva dzakanyatsoruramisa kufanotaura ... Ndinoona zvakajeka muChechi mapato maviri ari kuzoparadza France; mumwe ari mukutambudzwa, uye mumwe ari pasi pechituko chaMwari neChechi yake. Mapato maviri aya akatozviisa, mumwe kurudyi, mumwe kuruboshwe rwomutongi wavo, uye anomiririra zvose denga negehena panguva imwe chete. "SepaCalvari, vamwe vanondinamata," anodaro JC, vamwe Ndituke uye ndirovererei pamuchinjikwa; asi shungu dzangu dzichakunda vamwe, uye vamwe vachakunda...

“Kunyange zvazvo vamwe vari mushishi kunditambudza, vamwe vanotsvaka nzira dzokunditsivira nadzo kutambura kwangu uye kundisunungura pazviri nokugoverana neni... Kutendeka kwangu kwechokwadi kuravira kuvava kwangu nemarwadzo angu; vakadhakwa norukova rweMufaro wangu, uye nokukurumidza vachapedza mukombe wangu. Heino zvakare nguva yesimba rerima iri kusvika. Denga richamusiya richiri simba guru, kusvikira vavengi vangu vasvika pamawere avanochera pasi petsoka dzavo vasingaoni. kunamatwa kwakasimba, kwekundifadza kwakaenzana sezvo bato rinopesana rinoedza kundituka... Anondipa rukudzo nerukudzo zvakapetwa kachuru kupinda vamwe vanondizvidza. kunyadziswa kwangu  "

Ndokusiya kwandaita baba Mwari pataiva neforoction nemhemberero yemusi  weChina mukereke medu asi  ndinofanira 

kukuzivisa kushamisika kwangu uye kushamisika pane imwe pfungwa.  Kare

JC akataura neni nezvekutambudzwa kwazvino kweChechi yake, kungoshora kurasikirwa kwemweya uye kukanganisa kuhumwari hwake. Aingoita kwandiri sePontifi anonyaradza kunyaradza hasha dzababa vake uye kururamisa kururama kwake kumutadzi. Nhasi, pane kudaro, anotaura kwandiri chete nezvemikombe yekuda kwake, yekukunda kweChechi yake, uye nezvekurangwa kwevavengi vake kwaari kugadzirira kutsiva kunotyisa. Ndinoona kuti anoseka kutaura kwavo uye anoseka zvirongwa zvavo zvakanyanyisa. Chikonzero chakadini chetariro!....

Kurangwa kunotyisa kwavakaipa.

“Tarirai,” akadaro kwandiri, “vavengi vangu vari kufara uye vachitaurirana vachiti: Shingai, zvose zvakanaka, takurumidza kuva pamusoro pemabasa edu, uye kukunda kwedu kuchakurumidza kupera!... Ah! Baba handidi kuzvitsanangura.

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kutya kukuru  kwandibata! kuti kutonga kwaMwari kunotyisa kwazvo pamusoro  paavo

vanomudzivisa! Kurangwa kwake kwakakura sei! Mapenzi! vanomhanyira kurufu, uye mwoyo wangu wabayiwa nomunondo  wokurwadziwa  . ndinoona  a

chamupupuri chokutsamwa kwaMwari chichavamedza nokuvaviga panguva iyo kusaipa kwavo kwaifunga kuti vakanga vava kusvika pachinangwa chavo...

Iro denda rinotyisa randiri kuona  richivawira  ! Mwari, mune  yake

kutsiva kunovarova noupofu hwepfungwa nokuoma kwemwoyo. Anovarova asingazvidembi; uye zvinosuruvarisa kuti ndiko  kutendeuka kwekupedzisira kwaanovavarira, uye nokudaro ndiko kushata kukurusa kwakachengeterwa ivo! chiedza chedenga chichabviswa kwavari, uye  mapofu anozvipira haachaoni chinhu muchokwadi  chekutenda  !. pasina

kuravira zvinhu zvekudenga nezveruponeso, moyo yavo yakaoma kupfuura ibwe rakarohwa naMozisi murenje kaviri. Mvura dzeruremekedzo dzine simba hadzimbofa dzakayerera dzichibva pairi. Mwoyo uyu, usina hanya nenyasha, unongosangana nehunhu hwakashata hwekumukira Mwari. Haana chimwe chinhu kunze kwekuvenga, kuzvidza, uye kutyisa kumunhu anoyemurika waJ. C.; uye denga harisi kure nenyika kunze kwekutendeuka. Saka zvapera nenhamo idzi! Hongu, ndinotarisa chirevo chekutongwa kwavo sekutaurwa, kurasikirwa kwavo sekunge vakasungwa. Hakusi kuti Mwari haakwanisi kubvisa mweya zvachose kubva mumamiriro ezvinhu aya, asi zvichangoitika chete nechishamiso chenyasha dzinoshamisa, kuti haapi chero munhu, uye kuti haapi. zvirokwazvo hazvizopi kune uyo, nguva zhinji, azviita nekuzvidira asina kufanirwa nazvo. Ndinoziva, zvakare, kuti tsitsi dzaMwari hadziperi; asi hazvisirizvo kunze kwekunge maererano nemutadzi akatendeuka; ani nani anofa mukusatendeuka kusununguka, muupofu hwemaune, anofa mukuvenga Mwari uye anopedzisa mukufa kurangwa kwake.

Vavengi vangu vanofara, akatizve kwandiri; asi mufaro wavo uchateverwa neshungu zhinji. Vanondiunganidzira mikombe; asi pamusoro pemikombe yokukunda kwavo ndichasimbisa kuparara kwavo nokukundwa kwavo. Chiyero chavo  chazara uye nokukurumidza pakureba kwayo. Vakaipa vanotonga  kereke yangu;

asi, maererano nemirau yekutonga kwangu, vachaparara nemirau yavo yekusazvibata nemitemo. Zvirokwazvo vachapararazve, uye mutongo waitwa; mutongo wavo wapiwa; noruoko rwangu rune simba ndichavadururira pasi semheni pasi mugomba rakadzika-dzika. Vachawira mairi nekukasira kwakafanana uye chisimba chakafanana naLucifer nevapanduki vake vane mhosva. Iri ndiro mugumo wakavamirira uye kuti vazhinji vevatsigiri vavo vakatotambura, uye kunyange mumwe wevatungamiriri vavo vakuru. Mwari akamugadza kuti ave ini; asi anoda kuti ndirambe ndakanyarara pachinyorwa ichi, chaanochengeta kuti chiratidze kana nguva yacho yasvika: nekuti, anodaro, mazita avo nehunhu hwavo zvichazivikanwa pazuva rekutsiva kwangu.

Vachimirira kuti ndiratidze hurongwa hwavo hwekupara mhosva mumaziso a zvisikwa zvose; apo ndakamirira kushinga kwavo uye kuzvitutumadza kwavo kuti zvionekwe zvisina kufukidzwa pamberi pedenga nenyika, ndinosiya kabhari yavo isina umwari kuti ndipe kundangariro dzavo dzinosemesa rukudzo rwose nokuda kweushingi nezviito zvakanaka zvevarume vakanaka. Asi zvinhu zvichachinja, uye pakupedzisira munhu wose achawana zvakamufanira. Kururamisa kwangu kuchave nechijana chayo: ichakunda pamusoro pevamwe uye ichaita kuti vamwe vakunde, uye zvese izvi kuburikidza nekukodzera kweropa rangu uye nekukunda kwekuda kwangu. Izvi zvakarurama uye zvinodiwa. Pakupedzisira, unhu hwakadzvinyirirwa hunofanira kuonekwa uye huchikunda munguva yahwo. Zvinhu zvose zvinofanira kugadziriswa; uye kurumbidzwa kwose kuri kuitwa nhasi pamusoro pezvakaipa nokusanamata Mwari hakungadzivisi kunyange makororo kana vanhu vasingadi Mwari vanoitirwa izvozvo; 

YAMBIRO YEKUTANGA.

Kwakanga kuri, sokurangarira kwangu, usiku pakati peChishanu neMugovera wevhiki inotangira iyo yePentekosta, apo ndakanga ndamanikidzwa, sezvakanga zvafanotaurwa nehanzvadzi, kuti ndisiye masisita angu. Ndakatyisidzirwa, uye kuti ndivasunungure kubva pakuvandudzwa kwekutya kwavakanga vasangana nako nezuro pachiitiko changu, uye kwavakanga vasati vanyatsopora. Rudzi rwakanga rwakakombwa kaviri kana katatu nokuda kwokundiuraya kana kuti ndiri mupenyu, uye ndakabvuma munamato wavakandiita, nemisodzi mumaziso angu, kuti ndivasiye kwechinguva, pane kuti ndizvifumure kuti ndiwire pakati pemaoko evatsvene. kanzuru.

Kubva ipapo zvichienda mberi, sezvandambotaura kune imwe nzvimbo, ndakatarisira basa randakaisirwa: ndakavanza muitiro wenyika, ndakafamba nomumaruwa.

vavakidzani, uye ndakaona vandaishanda navo ipapo, vasingatyi kumira zvakanyanya chero kupi zvako, nekutya kuzivikanwa uye kutengeswa, sezvazvakaitika kubva ipapo zvichienda kune vamwe munzvimbo imwe chete. Zvandainyora zvainditevera kwose kwose, uye kwose kwose kwaindipa basa

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inovaka uye inobatsira, iyo isina kubatsira zvishoma kuti ndikanganwe chikamu chekusuwa kwangu; Ndakagara kwenguva yakakwana kuti ndinyaradze, kanenge netsamba, nherera dzaindinyorera kazhinji kazhinji; uye pakanga pari mukati memwedzi miviri yokupedzisira youku kusavapo kwokumanikidzirwa kwandakagamuchira, kubva kuHanzvadzi yoKuberekwa kwaJesu, kutumirwa kwandichashuma, uye kunoratidzika kuva kunofanira kuuya kutevera zvatakaona . Yakanyorwa neruoko rwaMadame la Supérieure, uyo, sezvandakataura pakutanga, aive muchivande chedu pamwe naMadam the depositary. Ndinosungirwa kupfupisa kureba kwayo .

CHIKAMU  III.

Maonero akasiyana-siyana nemirayiridzo, kunyanya parudo rwaJC muYukaristiya Tsvene, paunhu hwake hutsvene, parudo rwechokwadi kumuvakidzani, uye pamigumisiro yakasiyana yechirairo  .

Kutanga kutumirwa kubva kuHanzvadzi yeNativity.

“Muzita raBaba  ,  etc. , naJesu naMaria, uye nemuzita reuyo  anoyevedza

Tiriniti, ndichaita kuteerera. »

Baba vangu Jehovha akanaka anondikumbira kuti ndikuzivisei zvakaitika kwandiri kubva maenda. Handichakwanisi kutaura nemi, uye ndisingachakwanisi kukunyorerai, tongai nezvenyadzi dzangu uye nemarwadzo akawedzerwa anokonzerwa nokusavapo kwenyu pano! Hakusati kuri kuti handina chivimbo chikuru muna Amai vedu vakanaka, avo vanodisa kuita iri basa rinorwadza, nokuda kworudo rwaMwari; asi munoziva kusada kwangu kuvhurira mumwe munhu kunze kwenyu pamusoro pezvinhu zvinoshamisa zvandinotya kunyengerwa. Ndaizonyanya kunetseka kumuudza zvitadzo zvose zvehupenyu hwangu. Unoda Kudenga kuti inogona kupora kana wadzoka, uye kuti haizotora  nguva refu

kwete!....  Asi izwi raMwari rinokurumidzira, anotondirayira  kuti ndiite

ngazvizivikanwe pakutanga uye zvikuru kuti kuda kwake ndiko kuti mushande pabasa diki iri, riri rake, uye kuti iye, anodaro, achabereka zvibereko munguva yake, nokuda kwembiri yake yakachena nerudo rwake rwakachena, kuitira ruponeso mweya mizhinji, nekutendeuka kwevatadzi vazhinji.

Idzi ivavariro dzine simba, pasina kupokana, Baba vangu, uye dzinokwanisa kutiita kuti tisatarise zvese zvinosemesa zvakasikwa, sezvo JC pachake aive akanaka zvekundikurudzira zvakare nguva pfupi yadarika. Ndakazvishingisa kunyunyuta kwaari pamberi peSakaramende Yakaropafadzwa, uye ndakanyunyuta nemisodzi pamusoro pemarwadzo andakanzwa mukuteerera pachinhu ichi mumwe munhu kunze kwababa vangu  vomudzimu....

"Neniwo ! mwanasikana wangu, akati kwandiri zvinyoro-nyoro, chii chandisina kuteerera mukufunga kwako? Handina kuteerera Baba vangu chete, asi vaurayi vangu pachavo uye kutonga kwavatongi vangu ...

Ndakafa nokuda kwokuteerera, uye izvi nokuda kworuponeso rwemweya norwenyu zvikuru. Ndisingagutsikane nekuteerera kamwe chete, uye mukufa, ndakazviisa zvakare, nekuda kwerudo kwauri, mumamiriro ekuteerera nguva dzose uye kupira kuSaramende Yakaropafadzwa, uko kwete chete ini ndinochengeta nguva vapristi vakanaka uye kune vakatendeka vechokwadi vanogamuchira  . ini, asiwo kuvatsvene vanondibata nemaoko avo asina kuchena, uye vanondidzikisa mumoyo ine tsvina  neyakaora  .

Imi Mwari wangu, munorida! Ndikati kwaari, Ndichateerera, zvose zvinganditorera. Asi Ishe, mungagotaura seiko nenzira inoshamisa, imi vatsvene kwazvo, muchisikwa chizere nokukanganisa, nokusakwana uye nezvivi; chisikwa  chisina kufanirwa nenyasha dzenyu, uye ndiani akashandisa zviedza zvenyu nenyasha dzenyu zvakanyanya?... Heino, Baba vangu, ndizvo JC akandipindura muzvinhu  ...

“Haunei nezvandakuita kuti uone uye uzive mukusangana kwechuru. Ndine zvikonzero zvangu zvekushandisa chiridzwa chisina simba, chakashata uye chinoshoreka mumaziso evanhu. Nyasha dzangu, nyasha dzangu, zviedza zvangu

usatsamira pamitoo yandinoshandisa kuvapa varume. Ndaivapfuura nemugwara risina kuchena, uye kure nekusvibiswa naro, vaizove vakanyatsokwanisa kuburitsa kubwinya kwangu nesimba rangu ... nokuti ini pachangu, uye kwete chiridzwa chandinoshandisa, chinofanira kuva. ndinofungisisa pane zvose zvandinoita. »

Nokudaro, maererano nezvaakaita kuti ndinzwe, zvisinei nekukanganisa kwangu nekusatendeka kwangu, achazadzisa mandiri kuda kwake kutsvene kune zvakanaka neruponeso rwemweya; uye izvozvo zvinondifadza. Ndinokwanisa, nerubatsiro rwake, kubatsiridza kubva pazviri; asi kunyangwe dai ndaiva bofu zvakakwana uye ndisingaongi zvakaringana kurudo rwake  kuti ndisava nehanya kwarwuri, Mwari vangadai vasina kupotsa chinangwa chavo pachikonzero ichocho. Ndinogona, kunyangwe nenyasha zhinji, ndinozvituka nekusingaperi, uye basa diki iri haringabatsiri ruponeso  rwevamwe  .

haipindiki, Mwari wangu! Hongu, ndinobvuma uye ndinoreurura kuti hadzisi nyasha kana zviedza zvinoshamisa zvinoita vakarurama pamberi penyu, asi kutendeka kumabasa edu, kunyasha dzenyu uye kurudo  rwenyu  ! Ngatiuye kune izvi

kuti JC akaita kuti ndione

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achibata rudo rwake kwatiri, muSakaramende Yakaropafadzwa kwazvo yeAtari  .

Rudo rwaJC rweChechi yake paSakaramende Yakaropafadzwa yeAtari  .

Naizvozvo muchaziva, Baba, kuti panguva yemisa pazuva roKukwira kudenga, ndakangoerekana ndabatwa nepfungwa yokuvapo kwoumwari; JC akazviratidza kwandiri muchimiro uye ukuru hwemurume akanaka kwazvo; akanga akamira panzvimbo tsvene, pakati pebiravira reimba yedu nearitari; akanga akapfeka hanzu nejasi iro ruvara rweruvara rwakaita serwaitonga zvishoma pamusoro pebhuruu yokudenga nemamwe mavara. Zvaiitawo kwandiri kuti hembe dzake dzaive dzakavhurika zvishoma pachipfuva chake, uye kuti, achitendeukira kwandiri, akavhura zvishoma, sekunge aindiratidza kuti aive nemuviri wemunhu chaiwo uye nyama chaiyo, pakupedzisira. kuti akanga ari murume chaiye.

Ndakabva ndaona mamwe maranzi ehumwari hwake aipenya kubva mumunhu wake mutsvene. Panguva imwecheteyo ndakanzwa kubatwa uye kubatwa nekutya neruremekedzo, kushamisika nekuyemurwa, izvo chete.

zvakapetwa kaviri sezvo Mwari akazvitsanangura zvakanyanya. Ndakaona hukuru hwehunhu hwake hwakabatana muhunhu hwake hutsvene uye hunoyemurika; asi chakanyanya kundisimbisa kwaive kuona kukunda kunopenya kwerudo rwake pamusoro pehumwe hunhu hwehumwari hwake hwakauya kuzoputirwa mahuri nekusanganiswa mahuri, semuvira remoto. Zvaiita sekuti hunhu hwese humwari uhu hwaiyerera zvishoma nezvishoma huchipinda muhunhu hwerudo, kana kuti tichipinda muMwoyo Unoyera waJesu, kwavaiita sekunge vakashandurwa uye, sekutaura, vakashandurwa kuita rudo. Mwoyo woumwari uyu wakavakwevera vose kwaari nokutapira kwerunako rwawo uye zvinokwezva zvisingakundiki. Akavatonga noumambo hunyoro, akazvishandura amene kuva ivo, kana kuti akavashandura kuva iye amene. »

Pakanga pari panguva iyi, Baba, pandakanga ndisisaoni muchinhu chiri chose uye kwose kwose chimwe chinhu kunze kworudo norudo zvichikunda chinhu chiri chose uye pamusoro paMwari  amene  . Kuti ndiite  nani

ita kuti zvinorehwa nechiratidzo ichi zvinzwisiswe, JC akatendeukira kwandiri, achifukura chipfuva chake chakatsva, ndokuti kwandiri: "Tarira, mwanasikana wangu, nerudo rwandinoda chisikwa changu, uye uchapupu hupi hwandinomupa musakaramende inofadza apo ini. ndinozviita muranda nokuzvidira musungwa worudo rwandinarwo kwaari, pandiri bedzi pasi pomurayiro  worudo  . Zvese  _

kuti ndakakuratidzai, akaenderera mberi, hachisati chiri chinhu, inongova sampuli duku; kuti ndichengetedze utera hwako, ndarega kupukunyuka chete mwaranzi mudiki-diki wehumwari hwangu  . Musakaramende rerudo umu ndimo  mandinozvipa

zvachose kuvana veChechi yangu uye kuti chinhu chinondifadza zvikuru kugara navo, kutaura kwavari nyasha dzangu neropa rangu, muviri wangu, mweya wangu, hunhu hwangu hutsvene, zvose zvandiri mandiri, pakupedzisira humwari hwangu hwose. , nohunhu hwangu hutsvene. Tinogona kupa zvakawanda here? tinogona kuita chimwe chinhu here? zvingatoita here kuzvifungidzira?....

“Rudo rukuru rwandinarwo kwavari uye runoita serwakanyanyisa runondibvumira kuti ndisambozeza. Ndiko kuti ndivasiire mukana wakawanda uye rusununguko pamunhu wangu, kuti ndinofukidza kubva mundangariro dzavo kupenya kwehumwari hwangu uko kwaizovakurira uye kuvadzivisa kuswedera kwandiri, pamusoro pechishuvo changu chikurusa uye nechido changu. Vanozongondiziva musakaramende nechiedza chemwenje werutendo, iyo inofanira kuvatungamirira kutafura yangu tsvene uye kumigumisiro yerudo rwangu. Kana ndashumira ikoko sechikafu chemweya yavo, ndichava tsigiro yavo, mutsigiro wavo, nyaradzo yavo mumiedzo yose, nemiedzo, nokuzvidzwa kweupenyu hwazvino; uye kune mumwe, ndichavepo chitsidzo cherufaro rwavo rwekusingaperi nekusafa kwavo...

“Kana vari vatadzi vakaoma mwoyo, varasha, vasingadi Mwari, vanopikisa, vanyengeri nevavengi vose veChechi yangu, nezvetsika dzangu uye nedzidziso yangu, kunyanya avo vanoramba chokwadi chekuvapo kwangu mukereke.

Sakaramende Dzvene yeatari, kana vanongoitenda chete kuituka nekuisvibisa; avo vanoramba hunhu hwangu hutsvene kana kuhuparadzanisa kubva kuhumwari hwangu; avo vose, pakupedzisira, vanomukira zvokwadi yeshoko rangu, vachawanamo bedzi mabhanan’ana nezvikwere; vachapofumadzwa nokusarurama kwavo kukuru, havangandizivi; kana vakandiziva, zvichangoitika nokuda kwehasha dzangu dzakarurama. Rudo rwangu runozvidzwa ruchashanduka kwavari ruvengo rukuru, uye ruchatsamwa zvakaenzanirana narwo rwarwakanga rwuri rwoupenyu uye rwakanyanyisa. Akawedzera, kuti musakundika kuvazivisa vose; uye dai uku kutyisidzira kunotyisa, pamwe chete nekukoka kwangu kwerudo, kuve kusvika kumagumo kutyisa kwevasingadi Mwari uye nenyaradzo yemweya wechiKristu; kuti vasimbise vakarurama,

Kutanga, ndakadzokera kwandiri nokukurumidza apo JC akanga anyangarika, uye yake

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dzudzo yakanga yangobva kuna Agnus Dei weMisa, kuenda kuDomine, non sum dignus . Ndakadzokera, ndinoti, kumukati mangu, kuti ndione muchiedza chokutenda kana ndakanga ndisina kugumbura Mwari, uye kana ndakanga ndisati ndave ndiri chitamba cheimwe nyengedzo. Ndaida kurangarirwa uku kuti ndiwanezve zvishoma kubva mukushamiswa, kugomarara, uye rudzi rwekurambidzwa umo pfungwa dzangu dzemukati nemweya wangu wese zvakanyudzwa uye sekunge zvakanyura panguva iyi  ...

Chakanyanya kundibata ipapo, sokurangarira kwandinogona, kwaiva kutya kusvika kuna Mwari wandakaona mukuru kwazvo, ane hukuru kwazvo uye akachena, asi ini ndakanga ndizere nokusakwana. zvinoshoreka kupfuura  madhaka  . Zvisinei, nguva  yenguva

Chirairo chakanga choswedera, taifanira kuita zvisarudzo zvedu, uye pachiitiko ichi ndakasangana nedambudziko guru mandiri. Kutya kwakanga kuri kurwisana nechishuvo, uye chishuvo chakanga chiri kurwisana nekutya: kwokupedzisira kwaiita sokuda kukunda, apo ndakarangarira kuti ndakanga ndisina mvumo yokurega Chirairo. Saka ndakazvishongedza noushingi, ndikazvisiya

tsitsi dzoumwari, ndakaswedera kuTable Tafura, ndichikumbira JC kuti azvirase uye; kundiregerera kusafanira kwangu, nekukodzera kwerudo rwake rutsvene uye nepfuma yenyasha dziri musakaramende yake tsvene; zvaachange aita, pasina mubvunzo, nemutsa wake mukuru. Chirairo chakandipa runyararo rwakakwana, kudzinga kutya kwakanyanyisa netariro yakasimba, iyo rudo rwakadzama runogara ruchiunzira munhu weJC...

Aya mazuva ekupedzisira achiripo, Baba vangu, JC vakazivisa kwandiri kuti,  muchirairo chakaitwa zvakanaka, vakaregerera zvivi zvese zvakaipa izvo munhu anotsamwa. Kana dziri pfungwa dzakasviba nemafungiro akaipa,  anondiudza

kuti havafaniri kudzinga kubva paTafura Tsvene mweya unovarwisa sezvaunokwanisa, uye wavasingadi. Zvaizomuisa pachena pakurohwa nemuvengi wake, waaizotadza kuzvidzivirira. Saka chinangwa chedhimoni ndicho chinovamutsa. Kune kunyange, munzvimbo tsvene, vanhu vakawanda kupfuura munhu angafunga kuti ndiani ari munyaya yekuda pfungwa iyi.

Ndinofanirawo kutaura, Baba vangu, kuti pakarepo mushure mechiratidzo chandichangobva kutaura kwamuri, kunzwisisa kwangu kwakadzima, kugumburwa. zviedza zvaakanga achangobva kuona, zvokuti akanga asingachaoni kana kunzwa chimwe chinhu. Zvaiita sezvisingabviri kuti azvipinze kune chero chinhu, kana kuti azvidavirire pamusoro pechakanyanya kumubaya. Kufanana nomunhu angada kufungisisa zuva masikati, ziso rake rinopenya richangoona gorobhu romoto, pasina kusiyanisa chinhu chipi nechipi chiri mariri: kutenderera kwepasi kwaisazonzwiwa naye. Hazvizove zvakafanana kana munhu uyu akazvigadzirisa pakubuda kwezuva kana pakuvira kwezuva: iye achabva akwanisa kuona kutenderera kwayo, pamwe chete nemhando dzakasiyana-siyana uye mavara emaranzi ayo. Ndizvo zvakaitawo zuva rekururamisira, kana richitariswa mumweya nezviedza zveKutenda. Izvi ndizvo zvaakandiita kuti ndinzwisise munzvimbo dzakasiyana dzaakazviratidza kwandiri, Eucharist yake Mune  idzi

mamiriro akasiyana akaita kuti ndisiyanise chokwadi kubva pachokwadi, nyasha kubva kunyasha, hunhu kubva paunhu hwake, kujeka kubva mukujeka, zviedza kubva kune zviedza. Ndakanyatsoona kuti kwaingova rubatsiro rwake runokosha chete kuti ndakanga ndakwanisa kunyora zvinhu zvakawanda kudaro, apo ndega ndaisambogona kudzedzereka nemashoko maviri akatevedzana....

Kusiyana kwakasiyana kweJC

Pakati pehunhu hwakasiyana hwemunhu anoyemurika waJ. vamwe, pa

zvakapesana, ane hukama hwakanyanya neake munhu pane humwari hwake, uye zvakadaro hunhu hwakasiyana hwakabatana mumunhu wake, pasina kutambura mazviri chero kupikiswa, kana kupatsanurana, kana kuvhiringidzika, asi chibvumirano chakakwana chine musiyano chaiwo uye wakanyatsocherechedzwa: zvakada kufanana nemusiyano chaiwo unowanikwa pakati pevamwari, pasina kuve  nekupikisa, kana kuvhiringidzika kwevanhu, kana zvakasiyana-siyana  zvezvinhu  . YEDU

Ishe vanotoda kuti nditaure pano, uye kuti munyore pasi hunhu hukuru hune hukama nehumwari hwake, uye izvo zvine chekuita nehunhu hwake, kusiyanisa chimwe kubva kune chimwe. Ndichakutumidza  mazita nenzira imwe cheteyo sokundipa kwaakaita kwandiri, kutanga naavo vanokoshesa umwari  hwake  .  O changamire chokwadi

!... O kujeka!... O chiedza chisina kusikwa!... O kubwinya!...  O  ukuru! Iwe huchenjeri  !.

.. Imi humwari husingaperi mukuwanda kwenyu!...

Hezvino zvino mukuru weavo vanonyanya kukoshesa  vanhu vatsvene veMuponesi.... O runako!. . . aiwa zvakanaka!. .. O  rudo  ! o

ukuru!.... O mukundi!... Chokwadi!... O  ngoni dzisingaperi  ! ah huchenjeri

zvakazara!...

NdiIshe wedu pachake anoda kuti ndiise izvi ô! pakutanga

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chehunhu hwega-hwega, kuratidza kushamiswa kwepfuma yainayo... Akandiudzawo kuti ndaigona kumupa hunhu hwake ndisati uye pashure pechirairo changu, mumweya werumbidzo norumbidzo; uye ndakanzwisisa kuti aizobvuma chero ani zvake aivataura kwaari. Kazhinji ndakafarira kudzokorora ....

Rimwe zuva apo, pamberi paMwari uye nechiedza chaIshe wedu, ndakafungisisa pamusoro peunhu hutsvene uhwu, ndakaona ruzhinji rwusingaperi rwarwo, rwandakanga ndisati ndatombofungira: Ndingadai ndakada kuziva nhamba yarwo, asi. JC akandiudza kuti hapana munhu anogumira aigona kuzviverenga: zvakare, pandainyanya kuzvishandisa pazviri, ndipo pandakaona kusaita kwekubudirira. Mwari vakaita kuti ndinzwisise, panguva ino, kuti vakaropafadzwa uye kunyangwe ngirozi

vaizokura nekusingaperi murudo neruzivo rweuhu hunhu hutsvene, vasingamboregi kuwana chimwe chinhu muhuwandu hwahwo uye hukama hwavo hwakasiyana; kuti Kusingagumi kwose kwaisazokwana nokuda kworudo rwaizoguma nokusingagumi kubva muzviwanwa zvinofadza izvi; kuti havazombodzamisa iyi sainzi yepamusoro, kure nekuipedza; uye kuti Mwari havaizombofa vakanyatsozivikanwa kunze kwaiye pachake, kana kukwana kwake kusingaperi kana kunaka kwake kusingatsananguriki, kunze kwekunge nemunhu akakwana nekusingaperi anodiwa ane zvese nechiyero  chisingaperi  ! Chii

mufaro uye mufaro wakadini wezvisikwa zvisingagumi kuzvirasikirwa nazvo, kunyura  nekusingaperi murukova urwu rusinganzwisisike rwemafaro asingatauriki, kupinda mugungwa iri risina magumo uye risina mahombekombe rekukwana  kusingagumi  ! Asi ndiani  achava

akakodzera, kunyanya pano pazasi, ndiani angatoshinga kutaura nezvazvo?...

Nokudaro ndakaona kuti panzvimbo pokumira ipapo zvakare, kwakanga kuri nani zvikuru kuzvigutsa ndimene nokuifarira nokukudza uyo ane mukati make gomba rakadzika-dzika riya rokukwana risingabviri kunzwisisa; uye zvikurukuru sezvo kune ngozi nguva dzose kutsauka pakuda kwoumwari, apo kunoratidzwa kwatiri, zvikurukuru muurwu rudzi rwechiedza chinoshamisa. Ndakaziva kuti dhimoni, rakagara rakarinda, raigona, nemvumo yaMwari akagumbura, kutora mukana weuhwu unyoro kutsiva zviedza zvaro zviedza zvoumwari. Mwari pachake ndiye akazvizivisa kwandiri, uye akandiudza kuti vazhinji vakatenda kuti vachiri kushanda nemweya wake, usingachaiti kunze kwemweya wekuzvikudza kana wekuda kuziva. izvo zvakavatungamirira kuti vade kunzwisisa zvirevo zvoRubatsiro nezvakavanzika zvezvokwadi isingaperi. Chisingamufadzi uye chinomhura zvikuru, akandiudza, mutumwa waSatani, uyo anozvishandura nemanomano, kuva ngirozi yezviedza. Hey! kangani asati azviita, uye haasati achizviita mazuva ese, muvanhu vazhinji vasingafunge nezvazvo!....

Naizvozvo Mwari vakaita kuti ndione, Baba vangu, kuti vakagumbuka zvikuru kuti mweya uyo, nokuda kwembiri yavo, wavangadai vakaronzesa zvakavanzika zvavo, wakapfuura mirairo yake pasina chikonzero chokunyunyuta, nokudada kana neimwe nzira. Aivawo nemutsa zvakakwana kundichengeta zvakasimba parudzi urwu rwomuedzo zvokuti ndingatofa hangu pane kupinda mauri ndisingadi, kana kutoda kuziva chimwe chinhu nokukurumidza pandinenge ndava nechikonzero chokudavira kuti haachidi. ..

Ndakakanganwa, baba vangu, kuti ndikuudzei, pamusoro pekuonekwa kwezuva reKukwira, randakataura, iro JC akandizivisa, zuva rimwe chete, kuti zvose zvaakandiitira kuti ndione kubata kubatana kwepedyo. yeunhu hwake hwakasiyana mumunhu wake mutsvene, rimwe zuva aizoshanda kuramba uye kuparadza dzidziso yenhema iyo munhu achaedza kuramba chokwadi chekuvapo kwake muSakaramende Yakaropafadzwa.

Vacharamba, akandiudza, vamwe huMwari hwake, vamwe hunhu hwake musakaramende inoyevedza iyi. Pakupedzisira vamwe vachaedza kupatsanura mumwe kubva kune mumwe, nokuparadzanisa hunhu uhwo, mumunhu wake, hunova husingaparadzanisiki; hunhu hwese kana dhinominesheni iri, neimwe nzira, yakajairika uye inopindirana kune maviri maitiro ayo anoumbwa nemubatanidzwa wavo we  hypostatic. Hezvino zvaachiri kuda  kuti unyore.

Zuva rimwechete, panguva yekufungisisa kwemanheru, JC akazviratidza kwandiri zvakare, asi mune imwe nzvimbo yakasiyana zvikuru. Ndakamuona sapapa anozvitonga akatasva chigaro chinopenya... Nyangwe zvazvo chiratidzo chaingova chemukati, sekutonga kwandinogona kuita, zvisinei chigaro chake choumambo chaiita sechaiswa kwandiri sepakati pekwaya: aive neChechi yake inorwa. kuruoko rworudyi, namarudzi ose asina kutendeka kurutivi rwarwo rworuboshwe; kana ndirini ndakazviwana ndatsikitsira patsoka dzake, zvandaisada kuti ndisabve pazviri, ndakanga ndiripo pakusununguka kwangu mukatikati mekusakosha kwangu. Zvakanga zviri kwandiri, zvisinei, kuti mudziyo uyu wakagadzirwa, kana kuti JC akaushandisa kundipa, sevamwe vazhinji, zvidzidzo zvakakosha pane rudo rwehama rwatine chikwereti kune muvakidzani wedu, uye parudo. musakaramende yake youmwari...

JC's rairo yekuti ungada sei muvakidzani wako. Rudo rwechokwadi runosanganisira varume vese, kunyanya vavengi.

"Iwe une," akadaro kwandiri, "kufunga kwekusava nehanya, uye kunyange kumwe kutonhora, maererano nedzimwe hanzvadzi dzako ... Pane zvakawanda: une

(105-109)

kakawanda vachirerwa nokurerwa nokuvenga kunoda kuvenga vavengi venyu nevangu; asi munokanganwa zvishoma  rudo rukuru rwomoyo wangu pamusoro pavavengi  vangu  rangarirai

iwe kuti pamuchinjikwa ndakaita sendinokanganwa vamwe vose kuti ndiine hanya navo chete uye kunyengeterera vaurayi vangu; Gadzira rudo rwako pamuenzaniso uyu, uye, uchitevera muenzaniso wangu, wedzera minamato yako uye kuvatarisira kwako. Uyu ndiwo murairo mukuru uyo ​​hapana muKristu anofanira kukanganwa, kana achida kutora zvibereko zveshungu dzangu.

“Rudo rwenyu ngaruve rwakakura serwangu, uye ngarusvike kuvanhu vose pasina mutsauko. Chisikwa chiri chose chine mufungo chine maruramiro kwachiri, uye ndiko kukuita kuti unzwisise ikoku kuti ndakazviunganidza zvose pano zvakandipoteredza, nokudaro ndichiratidzira ngwariro yokutarisira kwangu nokuda kwavakarurama nomutadzi  . Kunyangwe paine vari kunyatsotaura chete vana  vekwangu

Chechi ndeyangu uye vari vana vangu chaivo, kunaka kwemoyo wangu hakudzimwi kune vamwe. Inofukidza vatorwa, vasingatendi, vaJudha, vanyengeri navatadzi; mushoko, inotambanukira pamusoro pevavengi vangu vese, vandisingaite kuti zuva rangu ripenye uye dova ridonhe kubva kudenga, asi kune vandisingarambi nyasha dzinogona kuvaita kuti vavhure maziso avo uye vazive chokwadi. , kuti vabude muupofu hwavo hunouraya ndokudzokera kuchipfuva cheChechi, vanova amai vavo chaivo....

"Zvino, mwanasikana wangu," akaenderera mberi, "unogona kuvenga vandinoda, avo vachiri vangu, uye avo rimwe zuva vangave vangu.

zvimwe zvakare? Ndinokuudzai chokwadi, kana mukaramba mumwe kubva mumwoyo menyu,  ini

Ndingadai ndisingachagariko. Kana ukarega kumuda, haungazondidizve; ungafunga kuti uri murudo rwangu, uye ungadai uri muruvengo rwangu.

Chii chingave mhedzisiro yeupofu hunouraya kudaro  kwauri  ! »

Mwari wangu, ndakachema, nditenderei kuti ndikubvunzei nekuzviisa pasi uye nekuparadza, sei muchida rudo rwevavengi venyu  nerwedu nesimba rakawanda uye neshungu kupfuura zvamunoda rudo rweshamwari dzenyu  dzakatendeka nevana ?  "Hazvisizvo ini  zvangu

mwanasikana, akapindura; asi ndinoda kuti mufarire shamwari dzenyu nedzangu pazvinhu zvizhinji pane vose vasiri; asi ini ndoga handidi kuti mubvise vavengi vedu parudo rwenyu, kana kuti muvenge munhu. Akaenderera mberi neizvi, mwanasikana wangu, ndichakuudza chikonzero chemaitiro ayo airatidzika kunge anokukatyamadza pakutanga, uye kururamisira nekuenzana kwauchazoona, kana ukazviita.

“Zvose zvinokutungamirirai kuti mude vana vechokwadi veChechi yangu avo vamunogara navo pachipfuva changu uye patafura imwe chete; vose vakabatanidzwa nezvisungo zvorudo rwapedyo, sezvinoita hama nehanzvadzi dzakawanda muimba yababa uye pasi pemitemo ine rugare yaamai vavo vose: hunhu, chitendero, mhindu, chinhu chiri chose chiri mufariro yavo; kuti neimwe nzira ndaigona kugovera kukurayirai kuti muvade.

"Asi hazvina kufanana nevavengi vedu vese: zvese zvinopesana navo uye hapana chinovatsigira. Zvakaoma kuti hunhu hwakaora ndivakanganwire uye ndivade, kuti zvaive zvakafanira kwandiri, kuti nditeererwe pane ino capital point, kuti ndiite murairo wakananga, uye nekuibvumira, kana ndataura kudaro. ,

nesimba rakawanda nechiremera kupfuura chipi nechipi, kuidzokorora nokutyisidzira kwakaipisisa; kunze kwavo vangadai vakarashwa, vachivengwa nokuvengwa navose, hama dzako neshamwari dzako; izvo zvingadai zvakapesana zvikuru nechido changu, kumirairo yekutonga kwangu kwepasi rose, kumagadzirirwo makuru etsitsi dzangu uye kune hukuru uye rudo rwese urwo mwoyo wangu wakanaka newakasikwa une mutsa unogarovatakura zvisinei nehunhu hwavo hwakaipa kwandiri. ..”

Haiwa Mwari wangu,  ndakachema nokuda kwoupenzi hwangu.  Iwe taura  mukati

Mwari, munoita nenzira imwe cheteyo, uye hamuna kunaka pachinhu  chimwe pane chokwadi  chamambo  . Zvose zviri mauri ndizvo zvakaenzana, kururamisira uye  tsitsi.

Kwatiri, O Changamire  Ishe wangu  ! kwandiri kunyanya, nguva dzose inounzwa  kuna

tichitonga zvinhu nechiedza chenhema chezvakasikwa uye zvepfungwa, handiiti, maiwe.

! hapana kune nzira dzinoyevedza uye dzakangwara  dzaunotevera  . "Mwanasikana wangu,

akaenderera mberi JC, usambofa wakatarisa kune imwe inotevera padivi pezvakaremara, kana zvichibvira; asi mucherekedze pauMwari hwangu, neuMwari hwangu maari. Imi mose munosanganisirwa imomo musingasaruri sehove dziri mugungwa rimwechete. Uchifunga saizvozvo nekuona kwerutendo, ungagona here kuti urege kuda vose vakanaka nevakaipa, mandiri, nekuda kwangu uye nekuda kwangu  ? »

Ngozi yerudo chairwo. Vavariro yemweya iyo inofanirwa kumutsa zviito zvese zvemukristu.

Kana dziri rudo rwatinofanira kuva narwo kuvadiwa vedu, uyewo rudo rwepamutemo pakati pevanhu vanobatanidzwa nechisungo chesakaramende, ndinoona muna Mwari kuti kana rudo urwu noushamwari uhwu, kunyange zvazvo zvichibvumirwa, zvinorumbidzwa uye zvakakodzera.

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mavari, akawanikwa ari echisikigo muMukristu, anenge aripo, kunyangwe ari pamutemo uye akatenderwa mavari, asina kukwana uye akaremara pamberi paMwari. Ndinotaura zvakakanganisika, kwete mukuti vaizove vakasikwa, asi mukuti vaizove vakasikwa chete, uye kuti neichi chokwadi vaizoshaya kukwana kunoshamisa uko JC inosimudzira tsika dzakanaka. Uyezve Mwari vanoita kuti ndione kuti chirema ichi, kushaya uku

mashura emuKristu, anofanira kubviswa munyika ino nerurevo, kana mune inotevera nepurigatori.

Naizvozvo muKristu anofanira kuwedzera kwairi vavariro inopfuura yomuzvarirwo ipi kana ipi, uye pamwero upi noupi, kuti agokwanisa kukarira kunaka kwakafanira kweshoko rake; nokuti, zvakare, haasi mudzidzi weVhangeri seasingatendi. Chiito chaicho chomuzvarirwo hachina kufanirwa nomugumo uyo munhu anofanira kuva nawo mundangariro, uyo, kunze kwomutemo womuzvarirwo, anofanira kutsinhirana muchinhu chiri chose nomutemo wakakwana zvikuru. Chingave chine pembedzo, uye chisingarambiki mumunhu, hachina kudaro nguva dzose muMukristu; uye kukundikana kuenderana nemweya weJC uye mutemo wake mutsvene, haisi nguva dzose mune iyi chinhu sechinhu chisina hanya kana chiedza sezvaungafungidzira.

Chokwadi chakakosha, Baba vangu, izvo zvisinei munhu anofunga zvishoma mukushandisa hupenyu. Kana Mwari achitonga zviito zvedu mukati mazvo zvishoma pane nemagumo atinoronga uye nechinangwa chinozvigadzira; kana kushaikwa kworucheno rwevavariro kuchigona kusvibisa ndokushatisa mabasa akanakisisa, muKristu angava asina pembedzo nokuda kwokuva aita bedzi somurume here? Kana mumunda wababa  vemhuri muti uchinzi warambwa nokuda kwokusabereka zvibereko zvakanaka, haangatyi here kuti akabereka mhuka dzomusango norumwe rudzi  ? Chii, ipapoka, chengwariro yose iyi yorudo,  yezvose

zviya zvibatanidzo zveunyoro pakati pevanhu vasingafaniri kuva nazvo, uye umo, nekunyepedzera kwehunonzi ushamwari husina mhosva, hwevaraidzo hunobvumirwa uye kuzorora, kana pakupedzisira kwetsika uye kusangana kwenyika, munhu haazvibata chete nemanzwiro; tinopa zvinhu zvose kurudo rwenyama rwakakwana, uye dzimwe nguva tinotozvibvumira kuti tipofumadzwe neshungu, kusvika pakuda pasina miganhu, uye kupfuura mitemo yose, zvokuti tinozviwana tiri nhapwa kurudo urwu rwakavhiringidzika. runoisa chisikwa mukati. nzvimbo  yoMusiki  . Isu

anoona chinhu chinonamatwa nomunhu; kana kungomufunga chete, tiri kumutsvaka chete

; ndihwo umwari uhwo munhu anobayira kwahuri mwoyo wake nomweya namasimba ake ose, asingachengetedzi chinhu chipi nechipi nokuda kwake iye oga uyo akafanirwa nazvo pasina kugoverana  uye icho murudzidziso rwechokwadi, muChechi yaJ  .

Ah! Baba, Mwari anondiita kuti ndione kuti maKristu akadaro, kana achiri kugona kudanwa nezita iroro, anoshatirisa zvikuru kunaka kwake kwoumwari, uye anomutsa hasha dzake nehasha, neichi chishuvo chisina kufanira vanopa pamusoro pake  kuchisikwa chakashata  . Naizvozvi vanozvipa mhosva yerudzi rwekunamata zvifananidzo;  

sezvo kupfurikidza nokupa mwoyo yavo nechido, uye mukuzvidza mutemo woumwari, kuchinhu ichi chapasi panzvimbo pokuna Mwari, ivo vanoendesa kuchisikwa rudo rwachangamire, nokudaro ndokutaura kunamatwa kukuru uko kwakafanira kumusiki bedzi.  Kutuka  kwakadini ! Yakadaro iri pamusoro pemhosva dzose dzevanhu venyika  vasingadaro

vasingazivi kudzora kusimba kwekuchiva kwavo, uye vanotevera kuchiva kwechishuwo muupofu. Ingani hukama hwematsotsi, pasi pekuonekwa kweushamwari hunobvumidzwa!

Zvisinei, Baba vangu, JC vanondiyambira kuti ndisatsoropodza zvitarisiko izvi, kuti ndirege kuvatonga, kana kuzviita nerudo kupfuura zvandichakwanisa, kunyangwe nezvevasingatendi uye nevavengi vake vese. "Zviri kwandiri," akandiudza kudaro, "kutonga, uye hakuna munhu anogona kubvuta kodzero dzangu pasina kuzviisa pachena kumutongo unotyisa." Kunze kwezvo, ndine maonero ausingazive. Avo vasiri veChechi yangu, kana kuti vasiri veChechi yangu, vanotongwa; asi havapiwi mhosva, vachadaro chete mushure mekufa kwavo: uye kusvika panguva iyoyo ndinogona, sevatadzi vakuru, kuvapa nyasha, zviwanikwa uye nzira dzinoshamisa dzeruponeso.

"Hongu, mwanasikana wangu, uye usakahadzika nazvo kwechinguvana, mumwe munhu zvino ari munzira yakafara yekuparadzwa, achava mutsvene mukuru uye achaiswa kudenga munzvimbo yevakaropafadzwa Vakadaro, pane  kudaro  , anoita seakasimba  imomo

utsvene, achatenda nokuparara nokudada kwake uye nokuzvikudza  kwake  Nokudaro

haisati yava nguva yokutonga munhu upi noupi. Ikoko iwe unayo, kunyanyisa kukuru kuviri kunofanira kudziviswa murudo rwemuvakidzani wako: kunyanya uye kunyanyisa kusarura, kune kana kupikisa: kune rumwe rutivi, kusava nehanya kunoenda kusvika pakuvenga, kusataura chimwe chinhu; kune rumwe rutivi, kubatanidzwa kwomuzvarirwo kwakanyanyisa, kunzwa kunofadza zvikuru uko kunobira rugare rwemweya ndokusvika pakuita kuti munhu akanganwe Mwari uye kutya kumugumbura. Rudo rwatinorairwa naMwari runotora nzvimbo yepakati pakati pezviviri izvi zvakare.

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utsinye. Inopinza kunyange vavengi vedu pasi pomurayiro; asi, yacheneswa muvavariro yaro, inogara ichichengeta nzvimbo yekutanga kune iyo yainoda kufanira; uye ichibatanidza zvinhu zvose nenheyo iyi yokutanga, iyo inofanira kuva mutemo usingakundikani, sohwaro hworudo rwedu, kunotiita kuti tide shamwari dzedu muna Mwari, vavengi vedu nokuda kwaMwari, vanhu vose pasina mutsauko, nokuda kwaMwari uye nomurangariro kuna Mwari. ...

Gadziriro inofanira kuitwa paChirairo Chitsvene. Marudzi Matatu eZvirairo.

"Rudo rwandinarwo kuvarume vose, rwakaenderera mberi J. C., runofanira kuvatungamirira vose kurudo rwekutenda kwandiri, kunyanya tichifunga zvandakavaitira ruponeso rwavo, nezvandinopupurira. Vana vangu muYukaristiya vanofanira kugara vachivakurudzira. kuti uswedere kwairi noutsvene uye nokushingaira. Chii chingave chakanaka, pakupedzisira, sezvo rudo ruchigona kubhadharwa nerudo?

Zvino, mwanasikana wangu, ziva kuti kutenda kunogara muSakaramende, murudo kuna Mwari nemuvakidzani, kuzvininipisa, kuchena kwemoyo, kwakabatanidzwa kune huru. chishuwo chokubatana neni kuburikidza neChirairo Chitsvene, ndiwo maitiro makuru uye anodiwa zvakanyanya pakuswedera zvakakodzera kutafura yangu inoera. Unhu hwekuzvininipisa nekuparadzwa hunotungamirira mweya kune ichi chibairo chakanaka cherudo nerutendo: chibayiro chakakwana umo, nekuzvipira, munhu anonamata mumweya uye muchokwadi kuparadzwa nehukuru. zvose. Kubwinya kunodzokera kuna Mwari kubva mukudzokerana uku uye kubva mumigumisiro inoyemurika inobva mumubatanidzwa uyu wemwoyo norudo, ndicho chinhu chikuru chekugadzwa kwesakaramende, pamwe nekukwana kwainoda uye shanduko inoyemurika inoshanda. mumweya nemumoyo…”

Baba vangu, sezvo sakaramende inoyera iyi ichishanda mumweya nemoyo chete zvichienderana nekuwedzera kana kushoma maitiro ayo munhu anounza kwairi,

Ndakaona muna Ishe Wedu kuti marudzi matatu avanhu, vanosvika pairi, vanoita mutsauko mukuru pakati pemigumisiro yainounza. “Vamwe,” akandiudza kudaro, “mhondi dzinonyeverwa seshamwari, dzinouya, sokunge dzakafukidzwa nouhu ushamwari hwokunyepedzera, kuzondiuraya. Ndivo vana vanonyengera, avo, saJudhasi, vanoshandisa kutsvoda kutsvene kwechirairo kuti vandiise kune zvishuvo zvavo zvisina kugadzikana, uye nokudaro vachipara mhosva inosemesa kupfuura dzose, kupira kwakaipisisa kwakambovapo. akaenderera mberi achiti,  zveizvi

mweya inoedzwa nemiedzo, uye inonzwa mukati mayo kurwa uye kurwiswa kunotyisa kubva kuvavengi vavo, chero zvakadaro kuti vanoramba, nechido chakanaka chekusambobvuma kuedzwa kwavo, uye havazoiti zvishuvo zvavo ndinotaura zvakanyanya  :  apo  ,

nhamo, mweya iyi yevarombo ingadai yakabvumirana nazvo uye yakafa mukurwisa kwemukati uku, havafanire kuwira mukuora mwoyo kana kuora mwoyo, sezvo ndichava netsitsi nokuda kwekushaya simba kwavo.

Saka, kure nekufunga kubva patafura yangu tsvene, ivo vanofanira, pane kudaro, kufunga kusvika kune mushonga wavanoda kupfuura.

Never. Naizvozvo ngavauye nekukurumidza kudare rekupfidza, nemarwadzo echokwadi pakundigumbura: iyi yekugezera inoera ichasuka mavara avo, ndichavaregerera zvese, chero zvikanganiso zvavo kana ukuru, uye nesakaramende yangu yerudo ndichavasunungura. mu basa ravo; ndichavatsigira pakurwa kwavo, ndichavanyaradza pakusuwa kwavo. Ndichavapa nyasha itsva, simba idzva pamusoro pemiyedzo; asi nyasha nenyasha idzi ndedzemoyo yakapfava neinopfidza; nokuti nokuda kwevatadzi ava vakaomeswa netsika yokupara mhosva yavasingadi kusiya, uye vanouya kuzogara patafura yangu vasingarwadziwi kana vavariro yakanaka, uye nokuda kwokupfuuridzira upenyu hwavo hwakashata; Vanhu ava vakatengeswa kuti zvive zvisina maturo, uye vanomedza zvakaipa semvura, vanokudza zvivi zvavo nokurangwa nokuda kwokuyanana kwavo.

Rudzi rwechipiri rwechirairo nderwevasina kukwana, ndinoreva mweya inonamata uye yakazvipira, asi vasina hanya nekuchenjerera kuti vazvitarise ivo pachavo, uye nekudaro vanobata mamwe maitiro ezvivi zvenyama, izvo zvisingavaitiri. izvo zvavasingaedze kuchinja kubva  pazviri  .  Kuwadzana kwakadaro

havana kufanira kana kuti vanosvibisa, asi vanodziya uye vasina kukwana sevaya vanozviita; vanoisa chipingamupinyi kunyasha dzeJC uye zvakanyanya kumisa kudurura kwayo, sezvo, sezvatataura, sakaramende inoshanda chete maererano nemaitiro ayo munhu anounza kwairi. Iyi mweya inodziya uye isina kukwana inondigamuchira saizvozvo, JC inondiudza, ndeye, maererano neni, sevana avo, panzvimbo yekupindura kubatwa uye kumbundirwa kunyoro kwababa vanovada, vaizozvigadzirira kurwisana naye uye vaizorova. maererano nesimba ravo. Baba ava vaizovaranga nekusiyana navo; kwandiri, akawedzera JC, uyo ari mukuru wemadzibaba, handibvi pane izvozvo, kunyanya sezvo kuda kwavo kusina kuipa uye

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kuti kurohwa kwavo kurege kuuraya; Rudo rwangu ruripo runopfuura kusatenda kwavo. Ndinovhara maziso angu, sokunge zvakadaro, kukusakwana kwavo nezvikanganiso, kuti ndingofunga zvavanoda chete. Ini ivo

ndinogashira mumaoko angu kutsvoda kwerunyararo kwechirairo changu: Ndinotambura kusatenda kwavo pasina kunyunyuta, kana kuti ndinonyunyuta nezvako chete nekutapira nerudo. Chimiro cherudo ichi chemoyo wangu wehumwari hachifanire kuva kwavari vavariro itsva here yekundishumira nokutendeka kwakawanda uye kundida neshungu zhinji?...

Kudyidzana kwakasimba ndiko kunoitika murudo rwaMwari nevavakidzani, runomirira mamwe maitiro ose. Iko kugoverana kwevakakwana uye yevana vanodikanwa avo JC inotarisa neziso rekugadzikana uye rudo, waanofarira kurarama naye zvakanyanya, nokuti vakabayira zvinhu zvose kwaari zvinogona kuisa chipingamupinyi  kune  zvaanoda  .

kuwanda kwenyasha  dzaakavachengetera  !. Anodurura pamusoro pavo dova rokudenga  uye

maropafadzo ose aJakove; nepo mubairo chaiwo wepanyika uye wenguva pfupi uchava mugove weavo, saEsau, vanobatirira pasi uye vanotevera bedzi zvinofadza  zvendangariro”

Nokudaro, Baba vangu, vatadzi, vasina kukwana uye navatsvene vanotaurirana, uye mumwe nomumwe wavo anoita chirairo chakafanana naye. Hongu, pasina kuchinja hunhu hwacho, Chirairo Chitsvene chinova chivi mumutadzi, chisina kukwana muusina kukwana, uye chitsvene mumusande. Hakusati kuri kuti uyo anozvipa amene kwairi anogona kugamuchira kubva kwatiri kusvibiswa kupi nokupi kana mwero upi noupi woutsvene; asi ndezvekuti chiito cheuyo anotaurisa chinova chakanaka kana chakaipa, maererano nezvakawanda kana zvishoma zvakanaka kana zvakaipa maitiro aanounza kwazviri....

“Saka dzivisa chivi, mwanasikana wangu, nemhando dzose dzechivi chakataurwa kwandiri pane izvi

JC (uye ndiwo mugumisiro unoshanda watinofanira kutora kubva pamirayiridzo yaro tsvene), dzivisa, tiza chivi chisingafadzi ini uye chinondigumbura, sezvaungadzivisa kuona nyoka uye chikuru chezvakaipa; usaita chinhu nokuzvidira, zvisinei kuti ungava chiedza kwamuri sei, nokuti zvivi zvose hazvindifadzi, uye hakuna chine tsvina chichapinda kudenga. Dzinga kudziya, umbwende, kusava nehanya mubasa rangu, uye nepaunogona napo marudzi ose okusakwana. Panzvimbo pokusava chiratidzo chehana yenhema kana kuti yakangwarira, sokufungidzira kwomunhu nhema, uyu murangariro wokufara, mukupesana, ufakazi hwomweya wakarurama uye wechokwadi womudzimu, unotya nokuda Jehovha Mwari wawo, uyo ane mufungo wakarurama. nezvekodzero dzake uye zvirevo zvake, zvehukuru hwake uye kutukwa.

Gara uchifamba muhupo hwangu hutsvene mumweya wekutenda nerudo, asi nerudo rwemwana uye ruremekedzo. Jaira kuona Mwari muzvisikwa, uye zvisikwa muna Mwari; sezvandakambokutaurirai, onai chete ruoko rwekugovera kwake muzviitiko zvese zvehupenyu....

Nenzira iyi iwe uchazadzisa, pasina muripo kwauri, iwo mutemo wakakosha uyo

anokuraira kuti ude Mwari pamusoro pezvinhu zvose kuti uzvide iye, uye muvakidzani wako sezvaunozvida iwe, nokuda Mwari.

“Edzai kuita zviito zvenyu zvose, kunyange zvisakendenga zvikuru, mumweya womurairo mukuru uyu uyo ​​unobatanidza zvikuru mimwe yose, uye uri mune chimwe nechimwe chawo, nokudaro muchiita nguva dzose nomusimboti worudo rukuru urwu, urwo noruoko rumwe. anombundikira Mwari, uye nemumwe muvakidzani, nokudaro achibatanidza denga nenyika. Ndeipi hupfumi, hunhu uye kugutsikana kwauchawana panguva yega yega, pasina iyo inokubhadhara iwe zvakanyanya!...

Namata zvino, mwanasikana wangu, ita uye utambure nepaunogona napo, nemusimboti werudo rwakachena kwazvo rwakaita kuti ndinamate, ndiite uye nditambure ndiri panyika. Kubwinya kwaMwari neruponeso rwevanhu ndicho chaiva chikonzero chikuru chemaitiro angu ose. Kwakanga kwakananga ikoko uko pfungwa dzangu dzose nenhanho dzangu dzose dzakanangana... Batai zvakare muvavariro naAmai vangu Vakaropafadzwa uye nemweya mitsvene yose inoumba Kereke yangu kudenga nepasi. Kukodzera kwavo kwakabatana nekwangu kunoumba pfuma isingaperi iyo inogona kubatsira vese, maererano nezvinodiwa uye nerubatsiro rwemumwe nemumwe weavo vachaedza kukodzera kushandiswa kwayo. Join iyi chengeta zvese zvaunogona kuita parutivi rwako, uchitevera muenzaniso wemweya yakawanda yakanaka yakakutangira. Kana uchikwanisa zvishoma, shuva zvakawanda, uye iva nechokwadi chokuti waita zvakawanda. Zvose zvinodikamwa zviri pamberi pangu; uye kana vavariro yako yakachena uye sezvandinokumbira, chiito chako chose chichaita sedonhwe remvura iro, rinowira mugungwa, richava gungwa pacharo; uye zvinongori chete nemubatanidzwa uyu kuropa rangu rakadeuka, kuti kunaka kweVatendi vangu kunoumba pfuma inokosha zvechokwadi, sezvo ichigona kutendwa chete paropa iri iro rakabatana kwariri uye rinozivisa kwariri kusaguma kwemutengo waro. .  »

Nemashoko aya, JC achikanda maziso ake paChechi yake yakaiswa kurudyi rwake, akatambanudza ruoko rwake sekunge airopafadza, kana mukati.

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chiratidzo chekudzivirira. Akati kwandiri, “Uri pano, mukadzi wangu wandinoda, wandinogamuchira vana, vakabatanidzwa nokutenda kumwe norudo rumwe pahumwe hwovunyoro.

huMwari hunokosha... » Ipapo, ndakaona kumativi egungano rino mufaro  denderedzwa rakanaka rakanga rakaumbwa nemurazvo wakapfava uye wakapfava. “Munoona, Ishe wedu vakati kwandiri zvakare, vana vose vakanaka ava vakavharirwa muchivanze chimwechete uye vakabatanidzwa nezvisungo zvimwechetezvo zverutendo, tariro nerudo... Kusangana kweVatendi vanoumba Chechi  yangu  . kuti  iyo

dzidziso dzakatsauka dzimuka, kupesana kungaita mapoka ndokunyandura kutambudzwa, vadzvinyiriri ngavarodze minondo yavo uye vamise mapanga, havazoiparadzi. Haizombofa yakatambura nekukamukana, nekuti ichokwadi imwe chete uye isingaparadzanisiki; kubatana uku kwekunamata nekutenda, chirairo cheVatendi ichi chinotanga nenguva, chinofanira kugara nekusingaperi.

Mwari vanondiita kuti ndione kuti varombo avo, nokurasika, vanosiya denderedzwa rino rakanaka reChechi neruwadzano rweVatendi, vachaparadzaniswa nevakatendeka; asi haazoputsi chisungo chinovabatanidza, nokuti rudo rwaJC runoita kuti asakundike uye asingagumi saJC  pachake.

Nokudaro, Baba vangu, kure nokupatsanura Chechi kana kuishatisa, vakatsauka vanongoichenesa nokuipenya nokuiparadzanisa; vanoinunura kubva kuvavengi vakahwanda vakaibatirira chete nezvisungo zvekunze chete, uye vaigara pakati pedu pasina mumwe wedu; wakafanana neguruva kana zviyo zvinobuda pazviyo zvakanaka.

Asi, Baba vangu, mufaro wakadini kwatiri kubatanidzwa mudenderedzwa rino rakanaka rechirairo cheVatendi! takambozvitenda here!...

Mufaro wakadini, kunaka kwakadini, mafaro akadini, izvo zvinotakura kuvana vechokwadi veava amai vakanaka uye vakapfava, kuti vazvione vamene vose vakabatana mudumbu ravo, nezvisungo zveichi rudo rune ushamwari uye runyoro runoita kuti  varopafadzwe  ! ye

dananai muna Mwari nekuna  Mwari!. kuti zvose zvakavharirwa  mumwoyo

tsvene yaJC, muboka raamai vake vakaropafadzwa uye nevasanangurwa vose

!. , O rudo! O rudo! O guta dzvene! O paradhiso yechokwadi! unozivikanwa chete

kune vanogara mamuri; unounza mufaro kudenga nepasi, uye uchaunza nhamo isingaperi kune vese vanga vasingaoni zvekubvuma kuzvibvisa kubva munzvimbo yako yakakomberedzwa uye nepfuma yako...

Pandakati, Baba, guta dzvene rechokwadi, Chechi yechokwadi yeJ. zvakabatanidzwa kwaari nomwoyo uye norudo, zvikuru uye kupfuura nezvisungo zvokunze zvokuteerera mitemo yake. Ava ndivo vanomuda zvechokwadi, uye vanowana muchipfuva chake zvose runako nerufaro rweupenyu hwavo; nokuti kune vemunyika, vanongoziva nezveVhangeri zvinoravira uye zvirevo zve

nyika inoshorwa neEvangeri, uye yavanopindirana nayo hurongwa hwose hwemaitiro avo; vakaisa mwoyo yavo, rudo rwavo nomufaro wavo muzvisikwa zvavari vanamati vezvidhori, ndechipi mufaro wakasimba wavaigona kuwana imomo? Vasingatendi mukati mechitendero pachacho, havana chimwe chechiKristu kunze kwechifukidzo, ndinoreva hunhu uye phantom; havana kumbova nehunhu hwayo: kungobatirira kuKereke nezvisungo zvekunze zve a kutenda kwakashata, vanogona kungozviziva kubva kunze, kana ndikabvumirwa kutaura saizvozvo, uye ndisina kana pfungwa yekugutsikana kwemukati kuti JC inoita mwoyo kuravira kwake, uye kazhinji kune vose. vana vechokwadi veChechi yake. Aya mapofu emapato enyika anowanzoona kukanganisa kwavo chete kana rufu rwauya kuzovanyengedza, nekuisa pamberi pemeso avo kusakosha kwechisikwa uye kusava nematuro kunotyisa kwezvimera zvakavavaraidza mukati mehupenyu hwavo. Kukotsira kunouraya kwakadini! Asi kumuka kunotyisa sei!...

JC anozivisa Sista kuti anofanira kutora chikamu sei mukusuwa kukuru kweChechi yake, uye mukunyunyuta kwake kunyoro pamusoro pekusatenda kwevana vake.

Baba vangu, mushure mekunge ndakupa nhoroondo yezviratidzo zviviri zveKukwira, zvino ndinofanira kukuudza pamusoro pezvakaitika kwandiri pazuva rePentekosta; nokuti Ishe vakanaka havaregi kunditevera, uye ndinogona kuzvitaura, nenyasha dzinoshamisa neshanyo dzavanoda kuti ndigovane nemi; uye mune izvi zvose, Baba vangu, musakahadzika kuti vane maonero avo etsitsi pandiri, sezvakaita vamwe vazhinji.

Pakarepo mushure meKudya kwangu pazuva rePentekosti, ndakazviona ndabatwa mukati neutera hwairatidzika kunge hwakada kutsakatisa masimba ose emweya wangu; Ndakanzwa panguva imwechete imwe pfungwa yehumwari iyo yakandikurudzira kuti kukundikana uku kwakanga kusiri kwepanyama; Handina kukwanisa kuramba iyi pfungwa yesimba roumwari, iyo yakapotsa yaita kuti nditye kudzokera mukusava chinhu. Hongu, mungadai makataura kuti ndangariro yangu, kunzwisisa kwangu uye kuda kwangu, simba rangu romuviri, kuti chinhu chiri chose pamusoro pangu chaizoparadzwa; Ndakanzwa kamwe kakurwadziwa, apa ndaingoona rima nemumvuri werufu.

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Ndichinzwa naizvozvo kuti zvisikwa zvakanga zvoda kunyunguduka nokunyura, ndakaita nhamburiko yokurangarira mwoyo wangu kuna Mwari, kuti ndipire kwaari kugomera kwangu kwokupedzisira uye ndangariro yokupedzisira yomweya wangu nokunzwisisa kwangu. Mungazvitenda here, Baba? kuedza uku, uko kwaive kupedzisa kupera simba kwezvisikwa, kwakadzosera simba rayo, nekundidaidza kuti ndidzoke kwandiri ...

Utera huchipera, huvepo hwaMwari hwakavhenekera mukati mangu, uye izvi ndizvo zvakaita kuti pfungwa dzangu dzinzwe inzwi rake: “Ndangokuita kuti usangane neutera, hune chokuita nekurwadziwa kwangu muBindu reMiorivhi, nokuda kwako. .ita kuti zvinzwisiswe zviri nani kuti unofanira kukundikana zvachose mumanzwiro ehunhu hwakaora, uye ugozvifira iwe pachako, nekuramba zvachose uye kusiya zvachose kuita kuda kwangu kutsvene. Naizvozvo unofanira kurega kune zvose, uye kugamuchira nemwoyo wakanaka, nokuda kwangu, michinjikwa yose uye kutambura izvo zvinondifadza kukutumira iwe. Izvi ndizvo zvakakutemerawo muchinjikwa wandakaisa muruoko rwako paChirairo chako chekupedzisira.

Hongu, mwanasikana wangu, uye usakahadzika nazvo kwechinguvana, kuda kwangu kuti urovererwe neni kuti ndikudze kutambudzika kwangu uye muchinjikwa wangu. Ndinoda kuti ubatanidzwe nezvipikiri zvitatu pamuchinjikwa wandakafira rudo rwako. Chekutanga chezvipikiri zvitatu izvi kurwadziwa kwaunofanira kunzwa nekuda kwemhosva yaMwari, kutsiva kwaida rufu rwangu; chechipiri marwadzo ayo Chechi yangu inonzwa pamusoro pehasha dzinoitirwa kwandiri dzeSakaramende Yakaropafadzwa yeatari dzangu; chekupedzisira, chetatu rufu rwekusingaperi rwemweya  iyo inogara ichimhanyira kugehena kuburikidza nekusada Mwari, kutuka, mhosva huru dzinoparwa mazuva ese pachipfuva cheChechi yangu  . Izvi, mwanasikana wangu, ndizvo zvinofanira kubvarura  iwe kusvika pakufa

mwoyo nokusuwa kukuru, kuti aite nyasha dzake kuna Mwari pamusoro penyonganyonga zhinji, nokubayira kusingaperi kwomoyo wakapwanyika nowakazvininipisa. »

Ah! Baba, kwakarurama sei kusiya mwoyo womunhu kunhamo, ndangariro yomunhu kukunyadziswa, uye muviri womunhu kukupfidza kwakaoma zvikurusa, kudzivisa kana kuti kugadzirisa, kana zvichibvira, ngwavaira dzakadaro dzinotyisa! Nokuti, pasina kutaura kugumbura kwaMwari uye kurasikirwa kwemweya, izvo zvakaipa zviviri zvikuru, uyo aisagona kunzwa kutambudzika kunofa, achiona zvinonyadzisa, kusuwa, kutambudzwa izvo Chechi Tsvene inotsungirira; kugomera nokunyunyuta kwaamai vakanyorova ava pamusoro pokusaonga noutsinye hwavana vavo vakaremara, avo, senyoka zhinji kwazvo, vanotsemura mwoyo nomudumbu nenzira youtsinye, nokutuka uye nehasha

vanopara mhosva dzavo, nokumukira kwavo, nokutsauka kwavo, nokuzvidza kwavo kuMukwanyina wake! Baba vangu, dai mai ava vanyoro vatambure nokurwadziwa  kunoitwa pamusoro  pavana vavo vanodikamwa, ava vana vakatendeka, avo, nokuda  kwavo;

kunamatira uye kusimba kwavo, edza kutsiva uye kumunyaradza, nekupfavisa kuvava kwemarwadzo ake!...

Akavabereka pachipfuva chake, akavaita kuti vave nenyasha; Akavapa mukaka wedzidziso yake yakachena; anovada norudo rumwechete rwaanoda mukwanyina wake woumwari; uye unoisawo mhaka yavo pamwoyo, sezvazviri kwavari, uye inopinda mune zvose zvavanofarira izvo zvakafanana. Tongai, ipapoka, idenho yakadini yomwoyo wake, uye sei kusava nehanya nayo?

Sei kwete kunzwira tsitsi nemamiriro ake anosuruvarisa? Ah! pasina kupokana, iye

aizotora misodzi yeropa, pamwe chete nokuchema kwose kwaJeremia,  kuchema nokugomera sezvinoda nyaya yakadaro  .

reurura, kunyanya kubva panguva iyo Mwari pavakaita kuti ndinzwe zvakanyanya kuora mwoyo uku uye kusuwa kukuru uku kweChechi yake tsvene, handina kana nguva  imwe chete yenyaradzo yechokwadi yandinogona kufunga nezve chimwe chinhu,  zvangu.

kurwadziwa kunopfuura zvose zvingataurwa, uye ndinogona kutaura naJesu Kristu kuti mweya wangu wakasuruvara zvokufa.

CHIKAMU IV.

PaOctave yeSakaramende Yakaropafadzwa.

§. I.

Hasha dzakaitwa kuna JC musakaramende yerudo rwake panguva iyi tsvene octave.

Kutumirwa kwechipiri kweHanzvadzi yeNativity.

Baba, ndichiri kuzviwana ndichiri kusungirwa kuti munyore pachiitiko cheOctave du Très-Saint-Sacrement, pazvakafadza JC kundipa mirairo mitsva iri kuenderera mberi kwakadzama kwezvatakatotaura pamusoro peEucharist. Nokuzvipfuudza kwamuri, ini

acharamba achingoita mirairo yeuyo ari iye munyori weaya maratidziro matsva. Hezvino zvakaitika:

Pazuva rekutanga reOctave, takava nekuratidzwa kweSakaramende Yakaropafadzwa paMisa, kukomborerwa kwakatevera, uye takavhara Vakaropafadzwa.

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Wafer uye Zuva muTabernakeri Tsvene. Ndakanzwa kurwadziwa kwakanyanya, kunyange kunyunyuta kuna  J.  C. O Mwari wangu! Ndikati kwaari,  aripo

Naizvozvo zvichave chete mumaChechi uye pamberi pevavengi vako kuti  uchagamuchira kunamatwa mukati  meiyi  octave yese!. Iwe  hauzove

nokudaro inotakurwa zvine mutsindo chete nevashumiri avo Chechi yenyu inorambika uye isingavatenderi, uye vanozvipa simba rekutonga iro ravanoramba. vashumiri vanopindira, kana kuti vasina kutendeka, vanovaitira ivo  chete

simba rezvombo panzvimbo yemutemo; avo, vachipesana nemweya weNzvimbo Tsvene, vakashandisa chisimba uye vakashandisa ruoko rwenyika kumanikidza zvipingamupinyi zvenzvimbo yenyu tsvene, uye nechisimba, sembavha, zvinhu uye kodzero dzevashumiri venyu vari pamutemo; ivo vanonyengera ndudzi dzavanhu, nokuvaita kuti vatsauke!...

Uye zvakadaro, O Mwari  Mutsvene  ! Ivo varidzi vetemberi dzenyu  uye

muviri wako wamwari  !. Unotambura kuti vashumiri ava havana kufanira  uye

zvinonyadzisa, kuti vawi pakutenda vasina kunaka ava vanokubata nemaoko avo ekunyomba, kuti vanokutakura zvakasimba semukombe wekukunda kwavo, uye sekunge watendera bato  ravo !  humwari muviri  we

 Jesu, wamakazvipa mumaoko  aani ? Asi, sezvo  uri iwe

kwose kwose zvakafanana, mungandibvumira kuvapo here, kunyange mumwoyo nomupfungwa, pamidungwe yavo, kuti ndigadzirise kwamuri, kuti ndikuteverei ndiri ndoga ikoko, kuti ndisvike ikoko, sokuna Mwari wangu, rukudzo rwandinofanira kukuitirai? ndokugamuchira chikomborero chako ikoko?

Pano zvino, Baba vangu, ndiro zano iro JC rakandipa pane izvi zvese: "Gara, mwanasikana wangu, kwaunenge uri, uye usaende, kunyange mumweya, kuti ubatane nevafundisi venhema, kana kuboka risina umwari rinotevera uye anovasimudzira; usaende kufora kwavo kana kuratidzwa kwavo nemoyo wako, kungava, mune imwe pfungwa, kutaura navo; ndibatane panguva yeOctave neChechi yangu yekudenga nepasi kuti igadzirise kwandiri, uye kugadzirisa kubwinya kwangu kwaishoreka uye nekugumbuka kwose kwakaitwa mukunaka kwangu nevashumiri vasina kukodzera uye vasina kukodzera ava.

vatendi vakasiya Chechi yangu, uye avo, vachionana nayo, vanotsunga kumutsira atari paatari kuti vanyengere vasina njere uye vatore vana vavo nekupesana kunotyisa uye kunonyadzisa kunovaita vatsigiri vekumukira kwavo.

!....

“Oh! unfortunate ! vachandipindura pamusoro pevavakanyengera

!.... Nguva yekuvaranga  yasvika  . Saka garai pano pamberi pangu uye  kunze

ibva panzvimbo yako ndibvunze chero chaunoda; kunyangwe sakaramende yangu yehumwari isingaonekwe mumeso enyu, ini handingatereri minamato yenyu, handizove nehanya nemi, nharaunda yenyu neChechi yangu yose, yandinoda kudurura maropafadzo angu akawandisa muiyi tsvene. nguva.

Mabhenefiti makuru epamweya ayo mweya yakatendeka inowana kubva mukutambudzwa kwakamutswa kurwisa Chechi.

“Mukwanyina mutsvene uyu haasati ambodiwa zvikuru kwandiri kupfuura paanotambura nokuda kworudo rwangu, uye vashumiri vangu vechokwadi vakanga vasina kumbondikudza zvakanyanya kubvira pandakavaona vari vapoteri, vadzungairi, vachitambudzwa uye vachiiswa mujeri nokuda kwangu uye nokuda kwangu. Hongu, mafungiro avo okutambura kubvisirwa, kutorongo kana kudzingwa, tyava, marwadzo kana rufu, panzvimbo pokupandukira  basa ravo nokutenda kwavo, kunondifadza zvikuru; zvakakodzera kuita kuti ndikanganwe zvikanganiso izvo mumwe nemumwe wavo angadai aine  mhosva  "

Ndinofanirawo, Baba vangu, kukuudzai pamusoro peiyi nhau kuti, mazuva ano apfuura, Mwari akandiyeuchidza mugoverano yetyisidziro mukurwisana noumambo hweFrance, iye akawedzera, kuti: “Asi ino inguva yakafanira nokuda kwewakarurama uyo ‘aanoda. kupedzisa kukwaniswa, uye nokuna vatadzi vazhinji vachatendeuka. Iye achadzosa kwavari vamene chiverengero chakati chorudzidziso avo vakakanganwa mitemo yavo,  uye vafundisi avo, pamutengo woutsvene hwehurumende yavo, vakazvibvumira vamene kushatiswa noumbozha nokudisa  zvenyika  . nhamba yevaKristu vakanga  vasina

kupfuura zita, uye havana kana ushingi hwokurireva. Vazhinji, ichokwadi, vanozongoomesa zvakanyanya pasi pezvibhakera izvo zvava kuda kuvarova uye izvo zvavanotonzwa; asi zvakare vazhinji vanovhura maziso avo uye vosarudza kudzivirira kunyange akanyanya kuomarara, nehupenyu hutsvene uye hwakadzorwa, uye nemichero yakakodzera yerurevo rwerupo rwavachazonzwa kudiwa ...

Ndinodzokera kuhurukuro yekutanga yaJC

“Usatarira, ipapoka, mwanasikana wangu,” akapfuurira kudaro, “aya mamirire ezvinhu senguva isingafadzi nokuda kweChechi yeFrance; akanga asati ambove ane mbiri kana kukunda zvakadaro. Vatsvene Vangu kudenga vanokunda nerudo nekubwinya; asi avo vepanyika vanokunda nemiedzo apo munhu anoisa yavo

rudo nokutendeka kwavo pakutenda. Aya ndiwo makore avo eruponeso nenyasha, uye maropafadzo akawandisa kupfuura aya ekuregererwa kwavakaitwa nemufundisi wangu wekutanga...kusvikira panguva iyoyo, kana mutadzi akanga apedza upenyu hwake hwose ari munyonganyonga, akabatwa nokutendeuka, akadzokera kwaari. panguva yekutambudzwa kunotyisa uku; saka achimutsidzira kutenda kwake kunenge kwakadzimwa, anotsigira nerupo rwangu

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fighters; kana akandipa chibairo choupenyu hwake, neropa rake, kundirwira pamhosva yangu, nokuyananisira zvakaipa zvake, ndinopika neni ndimene, haangatongoverengerwi kwaari. Achaita kuti ropa rake rive kugeza kunofadza, rubhabhatidzo rwechipiri kwavachasukwa uye kupedzwa zvizere pamusoro pegomba uye nezvekurwadziwa…”

Zvino, Baba vangu, chii chingava kufira kutenda muzita raMwari nokuda kwomutadzi uyu zvikuru, tinogona kutaura muchiyero chokuti kutambudzwa kwakaitika muchimiro chimwe chetecho kuchava kweChechi yose zvayo, iyo, sehana ya mutadzi uyu achanatswa segoridhe muchoto. Ndizvo Baba vangu chandinoona muna Mwari vanondiudza kuti, zvisinei nekushaikwa kwevazhinji, chero vaine chido chakanaka, havaregi kuvanzwira tsitsi nenyasha.vakasimba, pakufunga avo vakapfuma. mumabasa akanaka; nokuti Chechi muviri une nhengo dzayo, dzichibatanidzwa nerudo rwepedyo zvikuru, dzine maruramiro akaenzana ekuwana zvinhu zvemweya zveumwe neumwe. Uku kunonzi Kusangana kweVatendi, izvo zvese zvakajairika kwavari mune iyi genus. Izvo zvinokonzerwa nechirairo ichi kana nharaunda yezvinhu zvemweya izvo JC, maererano nechishuwo cheChechi yake, inotora yakasimba zvikuru kubatsira vasina simba, kutevera mitemo yekururamisira kwake uye mitemo yerudo rwake ...

Kunyange zvazvo huipi hwegehena huchaita kuti vatendeukire uye vanobatanidzwa mukukanganisa, hazvizomboiti chimwe chinhu kunze kwekuparadzanisa kubva kuChechi avo vakanga vasina kufanirwa nazvo ... Vana vake vechokwadi vacharamba vakanamatira kwaari;  uye kusarudzwa uku kwevakaipa, kupatsanurwa uku kubva kuvana vokuraswa, kure nokuparadza Chechi , hakuzombofi, sezvatatotaura, kuchaita chimwe chinhu kunze kwekuichenesa nokuipa kupenya kwakawanda.” Nokudaro, kure nekutya  kusiyiwa kwe  

vakatsauka pakutenda, neimwe nzira inogona chete kuwana. Naizvozvo vanokwanisa kutora divi ravo vakasununguka, sezvo vachingorimhura nemashoko avo ekusaremekedza, uye nekurizvidza nekusununguka kwavo uye nemaitiro anonyadzisa....

"Hongu, hongu, akadaro JC, ndichatora kubwinya kwangu kubva kurenje uku. Chechi yangu, isina kuwanda pakutaridzika, inowana kupenya kutsva. Huchachena uye huchiwedzera kupenya, sezviyo zvinoparadzaniswa nemhepo mashanga neguruva....

Kana muchida Chechi yangu muti unongosimbaradzwa nedutu zvakanyanya, zvichiita kuti midzi iwedzere kudzika, isingakonzere chimwe chinhu kunze  kwekudonha kwemichero yakaora  uye  yakaora. 

kuti zvingava zvishoma pakuonekwa : nokuti, nokuda kwokutsiviwa kwenyasha dzangu, idzo dzinoitwa muhombe kana mudiki, kubva kuumambo kuenda kuumambo, sezvo kubva pane imwe kuenda kune imwe, munhu anogona kuti mwenje wokutenda. anodzungaira uye anoenda zvakatevedzana kunovhenekera marudzi akasiyana. Chitendero changu chichiri rwizi rukuru urwo, ruchitenderedza masaisai arwo mumazana emakore, ruchiwana mune imwe nyika kupfuura ruchirasikirwa mune imwe Saka, zvisinei kuti munhu anoda kuzvinzwa, runogona chete kukunda munhamba semukutsva nekuchinjana uku; uye hapazovi nechinorasikirwa kunze kwemaKristu asingatendi, anove mapofu akakwana uye mbwende zvekuzvisiya.

Passion yeJC yakavandudzwa mumidungwe yevanopinda uye vanosvibisa.

Asi, kuti ndirambe ndichikurairai, akawedzera JC, ngatidzokerei, mwanasikana wangu, kune octave yeSakaramende Yakaropafadzwa yeatari dzangu; inova ndiyo nyaya iripo yekubvunzurudza kwedu Ikoko kuchaitwa panguva iyi octave dzakawanda zvitsvene  uye

zvakawanda zvinonyadzisira pamunhu wangu; uye ndichaita iwe, mwanasikana wangu, ruvimbo rwekurwadziwa kwandinotambira kubva kwairi. Ndichakunyunyutirai pamusoro pokurwadziwa kwandinako, zvokuti munonyengeterera ava varombo mapenzi, uye kuti munoedza kuvadzosa nokunyevera  kwenyu  kutuka kwose  ,

kushorwa, iko kutsamwa kwehasha dzangu, kuchamutsidzirwa pamusoro pangu nenzira inovavarira moyo wangu. Rangarirai kuti mushungu dzangu ndaifambiswa sei nomumigwagwa yeJerusarema, kubva kumatare edzimhosva ndichienda kumatare, nguva dzose ndichiperekedzwa nokusekwa nokutukwa kusvikira paKarivhari, uko kwandakarovererwa pamuchinjikwa.

Izvi ndizvo zvicharamba zvichiitika mumidungwe yevapambi nevapanduki vavo, avo vachanditakura kubva munzira kuenda kune imwe nzira kuti vagokunda pakusarurama kwavo. Imwe neimwe yezvinyorwa zvavo ichaita sedare redzimhosva

dare, apo, sevarwi, vachandirova nembama, vachinyepedzera kundinamata. Ndichazvamburwa nokupfekedzwa  korona  yeminzwa Minda yavo  ichava

kwandiri kwaiva kuchemera kupandukira kwaida kuti ndiurayiwe. Zvibayiro zvavo zvichave zvakawanda makarivha pandichabatanidzwa pamuchinjikwa; pakupedzisira, zvipfuva zvavo zvematsotsi, makuva mazhinji anotyisa kwavanofanira kundiviga....

Haisi, zvisinei, yakaenderera mberi JC, kuti ndinoratidzwa nekugamuchira uye kutambura pamuviri wangu wehumwari zviratidzo zveropa zvehasha dzavo; aiwa, handichatamburi munyama yangu, hunhu hwangu hutsvene hwave husina maturo, sehumwari hwangu chaihwo. Kubva

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kumuka kwangu, handisvikike zvachose kumakomba emarwadzo nehasha dzevavengi vangu; asi ini ndinogara ndichigamuchira hasha dzakafanana nechomukati, sezvo vavariro yembavha iyi iri imwe chete, hazvisi zvavo kuti havandiitiri zvakaipa zvevakandiuraya. Ivo, mukutsunga kwetsika yekuda kwavo, vane mhosva yedeicide imwe chete, iyo yavakadzokorora mamirioni enguva: moyo wangu ungave usina hanya nazvo here?... Haungatamburi nazvo here? ... kuvenga chido chinopesana nechangu sezvazviri kune zvavanofarira zvechokwadi?...

Ndinokunzwa, mwanasikana wangu, uchindibvunza kana ndiri muchimiro chimwe chetecho chomutsa kuvarume, mumaoko evapambi, sokunge ndiri muavo vafundisi vangu vechokwadi navakatendeka. Pane izvozvo ndinokupindurai kuti ini nguva dzose ndakafanana maererano neni; uye kana zviri zvekusiyana kwemamiriro maviri aya zvichienzaniswa nevarumewo zvavo, chinhu chimwe chete, kunze kwekuti mumaoko evapambi ndinozviona ndiri mumhirizhonga uye nekumanikidza izvo zvisingandibvumire 'kuteerera rudo rwangu. nekusada chete. Handichisiri baba pakati pevana vavo, vanofarira kugamuchira zviratidzo zverudo rwavo: Ini ndiri gwayana pakati pemapere, kana mutongi pakati pematsotsi akawanda akafanira kutongwa. Tongai mamiriro angu. Unotarisira kuti ndifare sei, uye kuti ndigone kuropafadza,

Mutsa weJC unogara uchishanda, pasinei nekusaonga kwevanosvibisa.

“Ah! nditendei, mumitambo yavo yekupira, munhu chete ndiye anofanira kuropafadzwa, uye rimwe nerimwe remaropafadzo ake rinoshanda chete kumuita kuti ave nemhosva, pamwe neavo vose vanozvibatanidza kuzvinangwa zvake uye mhosva yake. Vakatendeka vangu havangarambi zvikuru pazviri; ngavarangarire kuti nokuda kokutyisa uku nokuraswa uku pakumhura kwose ndinoda kushumirwa nokukudzwa navo; uye kuti vasazvibvumira kuti vashamisike, nekunyepedzera kunzvenga kunyadziswa kwavanopomerwa kana kuti kudzorera kundinamata kwavo. Vaudze kuti ndinovenga umwari hwakadaro, uye kuti mufambiro wavo waizova umbwende hwematsotsi, kusavimbika kunocherekedzwa zvikuru uye kunokuvadza zvikurusa kwandiri, sechinonyadzisa chaicho kumhuri yangu  .

Chii! Mwari Muponesi, ndakati kwaari mukurwadziwa kwangu, zvinogoneka here kuti imi, munoda kuparadzira nyasha dzenyu, hamuna kupa chero panguva dzino zvakanaka kurudo rwenyu? Ko mungagona here kuti murege kuropafadza muungano yavatadzi, uye kuti maropafadzo enyu ashanduke ave kutukwa kuno mumwe nomumwe? "Wakanganisa, mwanasikana wangu, akandipindura pane iyo JC, kana kuti, tora imwe pfungwa yechinhu ichi, uye uchaona kuti kunaka kwangu hakuna kumboitwa, kana rudo rwangu rusina maturo kune vatadzi pachavo.

Nokuti, 1°. Hazvisi kuita zvakawanda here kuti vamise mhedzisiro yehasha dzangu dzakarurama uye kwete kuvapwanya apo zvisikwa zvose zvinondikumbira kutsiva, uye zvisikwa zvose zvinondikumbira kuti ndirange kutsamwa kwavo! Ndinogona kuzviita neshoko rimwe chete; kururama kwangu kunoda izvozvo; ushingi hwavo hunondizvidza, asi mwoyo wangu unopikisana nazvo, unyoro hwahwo hunondibvisa simba; Ndinotambura zvose pasina kutsiva. Iko kuedza kwemudiwa wangu!...

» 2°. Kana paine mumwe pakati pavo, kunyangwe mumwe chete, uyo, akabatwa nekutendeuka kwemhosva yake, akakumbira ruregerero nekuzvininipisa, haazotorerwa mhedzisiro yeropafadzo yangu, iyo ichakwanisa kumutsvagira nyasha dzakasimba. kutendeuka. Ndizvo zvakaitawo vatadzi vose. Asi, ngatitii pakanga pasina avo vakanga vachida kudaro, chikomborero ichi hachingavi chisingabatsiri pane izvozvo... Ziva zvino, mwanasikana wangu, kuti musakaramende yangu youmwari ndinogara ndichiperekedzwa nedare rokudenga, uye pamusoro pengirozi dzose dzakanaka dzevose. ava vanomhura Mwari, vanoramba vachindipfugamira, kuti vandiremekedze pamusoro pokunditsamwira kwavo. Ava ndivo vanowira maropafadzo angu, ayo, sezvamunoona, haambobatsiri  uye asina maturo.

Ndiani, Baba, angakupenderai ruparadziko rukuru, kunyunyuta kunorwadza, kuchema kweChechi Tsvene pamusoro pokunyanyisa kuzhinji kwakaitwa mutembere dzayo, nevana vayo, pamusoro pake neMukwanyina wake woumwari?... akati kwandiri, mai vakasiiwa, vanotambudzika, vava kuda kuenda!... Maiwe

moyo wakanyura mukurwadziwa, uye kurwadziwa kwangu kwakafara uye kwakadzika segungwa! Vana ndakavadyisa, anodaro, ndakavarera  nezvose

kutarisirwa kunobvira; Ndaivada nounyoro, uye, nokuda kwekutenda kwose, vasingaongi vakandizvidza, vakandisiya,  vakandisiya  ! Kwete kufara  neni

vachifuratira vachindituka, vakandimukira, vakandibata zvisina kunaka vasingarangariri misodzi yangu; vakabvoora mwoyo wangu, vachituka nokutambudza hama dzavo pamaoko angu; vakabvarura pachipfuva changu vana vandinoda, kuti ndivapire kuutsinye hwavo. Vane zvakawanda

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kuitwa zvakare; nokuti pamberi pemaziso angu vaiva neushingi hwekushatirisa nekuroverera Mambo wavo, Baba vavo, Mununuri wavo,  Mwari wavo!. Tongai kurwadziwa  kwandaita

unofanira kuzvinzwa! Uyu ndiwo munondo  wokurwadziwa  kwandiri. Ah!  mukwanyina waMwari

!. Ndinotora denga nenyika kuti zvindipupurire kuti handina mhosva  pazviri

kurwisa munhu wako anodiwa. Ndinokoka zvisikwa zvese kuti zvinzwire tsitsi nekuwedzera kwekusuwa kwandinonzwa  Imi  mose munopfuura,  anodaidzira-

akadaro nekazwi kemoyo kakaputsika nekurwadziwa, nyatsoona mamiriro angu ekusuwa, uone kana pakambova nemarwadzo akafanana  neangu  . moyo wangu unotutunuka nezvinovava; ndiri  _

vakaguta nokuzvidzwa; Ndapedza mukombe weMuroora wangu wamwari....

Asi ndinonzwa JC achitaura naye: “Zvinyaradze, mudiwa wangu, akati kwaari, uye usarega kurwadziwa kuchikuderedza. Muedzo uyu uchapfuura, pamwe nekukunda kwevavengi vako newangu. Anokuzvidzai, anondiramba ini; ani naani achakubatai achandibata, uye hapana chichasarangwa. Nguva yaswedera yandichapukuta misodzi yako ndodzorera mufaro kumwoyo wako wakaora. Ndichabatanidza vana vako vanodikanwa, vakaparadzirwa; uchavaona vachikuunganira, sezvinoita pwere dzinodzoka pamapapiro amai vadzo, dzava kudzingirirwa nekayiti. Uyezve, ndinovimbisa kukuita amai vevamwe vana vakawanda vaungadai usina kuziva. Saka, mudzimai wangu anodiwa, mufaro wandinokugadzirira iwe

kuchapfuura nokure kutambudzika kwenyu zvino: Hongu, hongu, kwechinguva chiduku, ndichauya kuzokurwirai. Uchatsiviwa, mukadzi wangu, uye, ndinopika neni pachangu, uchaona vavengi vako vakawisirwa pasi patsoka dzako.

§.II.

Pompous mudziyo wekufora kweSakaramende Yakaropafadzwa. Singular favours iyo JC inopararira pamusoro pevana veChechi yake.

Baba, ndichiri kuzviwana ndiine musengwa wokuita kuti munyore pasi izvo Mwari ari kundizivisa zvakare pachiitiko cheOctave yeSakaramende Rinoropafadzwa Zvakanyanya, uyo wakanga uri musoro wekurukurirano yedu yokupedzisira. Iyi inongove kuenderera kwayo, uye zvakadaro ichaita kuti tione chinhu kubva kune imwe nzira yakasiyana kwazvo yekuona, maonero ekunyaradza uye anofadza semumwe wacho aityisa uye ari dongo. JC saka anoda kuti, Baba, kuti uyu mufananidzo unotyisa wezvakaipa uye zvitsvene zvakakonzerwa nemafambiro evapambi muChechi, iwe uite kuti ubudirire mukunyora kwako mabhenefiti chaiwo, zvinhu zvemarudzi ese zvinouya kwaari kubva kumapato uye zve. mabasa evashumiri vake vechokwadi uye vakakodzera. Mamwe achaonekwa semakore ane simba anoparadzira fecundity kwese kwese nedova rinotapira rekudenga; nepo mamwe anongofanana nemakore asina mvura, anongoshanda chete kubvuta miranzi yezuva, uye muchipfuva ayo anoumbwa chimvuramabwe, madutu nedutu rinoedza, kuparadza nokuparadza maguta nenyika. Kune rimwe divi, hushumiri hwehupenyu nemaropafadzo; pane imwe, shumiro yekutuka nerufu: kupikiswa kwakadii !...

Naizvozvo tiri kuenda zvino, Baba, kuti titaure pamusoro pemidungwe yesakaramende rakaropafadzwa, inoitwa nevashumiri vechokwadi veChechi, ichiperekedzwa uye ichiteverwa nevatendi vechokwadi, vakabatana mumuviri, mwoyo nevavariro, kuvafundisi vavo vechokwadi. Ndizvo zvandakaona mupfungwa dzangu, uye izvo JC akaita kuti ndinzwisise ... Ah! Baba, kutarira uku kwakasiyana sei nekwekutanga!... Ndinoona ipapo kutanga kwechimiro chembiri cheMwanakomana waMwari, Muponesi wevanhu, akatakurwa mukukunda pangoro yerudo rwake. Ndibaba vane tsitsi pakati pevana vavo. Anovaona nemufaro vachiputika munzira dzose kutakurwa kwemufaro wavo.

Izuva rakanaka kwavari, sezvo riri zuva rekubwinya kwaari. Ane maoko ake azere nezvikomborero nezvinhu zvomudzimu, zvaanodurura kubva kune vose

anogovana nehuwandu, uye kuti anokumbira kuparadzira zvimwe. Angada kusawana chipingamupinyi kumigumisiro yenyasha dzake uye kudururwa kunyoro kworudo rwake. Uyewo nyasha idzi hadzina kuparadzirwa kune avo varipo chete, asiwo kune avo vasipo vakabatanidzwa navo, kune vose vakatendeka, zvisinei nokuti vari kure. Vakapararira pamusoro pengirozi nevatsvene vekuDenga; vanowira mukuwanda pamweya muPurigatori, vazhinji vavo vanonunurwa nenzira iyi; pakupedzisira paChurch yese...

Ndinomuona, uyu gwayana raMwari, uyu muponesi anoyevedza wemweya yedu, uyu mwari ane mbiri uye anokunda, achikanda pamudzimai wake nevana vake vose vakamupoteredza, anotarisa unyoro uye rudo. Chiso chake chakatsva chinozivisa moto wakaisvonaka uyo mwoyo wake woumwari unopfuta nawo; moto unoyera uyu waakauya kuzounza kubva Kudenga kuuya panyika, uye waanoshuvira kuona uchipfutidzwa ipapo zvakanyanya.

zvimwe .... "Iri pano, anodaro, kuti ndinorifarira  pano  ndiyo choto uye  kukunda

zverudo rwangu kuvanhu, sekukunda kwekutenda kwavo muuchokwadi hwechakavanzika choumwari ichi uye nerudo  rwavo kwandiri  . 

zvangu

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zvinodisisa kuva navo kugashira rukudzo rwavo nezviratidzo zvekuzvipira kwavo. Uyai mose, vana vangu vaduku; swederai usingatyi baba vanokudai mese zvakaenzana uye vanotsvaga mufaro wenyu mukuru chete...

» Vashumiri vanoshingairira, vanozvibatirira paruponeso rwemweya uye nokutendeuka kwevatadzi vandakadzikinura neropa rangu, tangai kuuya; Handingakuitii savaranda, asi seshamwari dzenyu; nokuti muri vamwe vatenzi venyu zvirokwazvo. Toraiwo mukubwinya kwamunoshanda nesimba kunditengera; gara kurudyi rwangu; nekuti muchagara rimwe zuva kuzotonga neni marudzi ane gumi namaviri alsiraeri.

» Mweya mitsvene inoshingaira, makazvitsaurira kwandiri, uye makazvipira kundishumira, swederai henyu; imi mose munoshandira kundifadza nekutevedzera hunhu hwangu, chero mamiriro amuri, muri vangu, muri vangu. ndinokuzivai, swederai musatya

Hapana. Mwoyo yakachena, mweya ine nyasha uye ine rugare, iwe unotambura nekuda kwekururamisira, huya mumaoko angu kuti ugamuchire nyaradzo yangu yemukati, uchimirira kuti ndipukute misodzi yako, mumusha wevakaropafadzwa, wandakakutorera iwe uye wandinoda. nokuda  kwenyu .  Iwe, pakupedzisira, unoedzwa  uye

muchitambudzwa nevavengi venyu, vanonzwa mukati menyu kuremerwa kwehunhu hwakaora, huyai kwandiri kuti muzorodzwe. Ini ndichakuchengeta, ndichakurwira pakuvenga kwavavengi vako; Ndichava nhovo yako uye utiziro hwako hwechokwadi, uye uchawana pedyo neni zororo uye nyaradzo iyo zvisikwa zvisingagoni kukupa iwe ...

» Vatadzi vakaremerwa uye vakanyadziswa, huyai kwandiri kuti mugamuchire kutsvoda  kwerugare uye nekuregererwa kwemhosva dzenyu, nenguo yekusava nemhosva yamakarasikirwa nayo. Pamakandisiya, makange matevedzera kutiza kusingafadzi uye nokurambwa kwomwanakomana anorashika; tevedzera kudzoka kwake uye zvese zvaregererwa  ....

Nokuti imi, mwoyo mukukutu uye isingatendeuki, ndichatii kwamuri? Ah! Handigoni kukuropafadzai nazvino; asi zvakare hapasati pava nekutuka kwako. Rudo rwangu runopikisana nazvo, uye ndinonzwa kubviswa zvombo mukufarira kwenyu, nemikumbiro yeChechi  yangu  . Zvakanaka! saka huyawo, unamate, ugogomera  .

uye, ndichikuropafadzai, handikurambii nyasha dzekutendeuka nekutendeuka  . »

Handizvo zvoga, Baba; zvinoita sekunge Denga ririkuburuka panyika,  uye pasi riri kusimuka  kuenda  kuDenga Hongu, Denga nenyika  zvabatana

better kupembera kukunda kwamambo  wembiri  ndanzwa nerudo

konzati inobva mukuungana kwevatsvene veKudenga nevepanyika, vakabatana nekwaya dzakasiyana dzengirozi.  Kuwirirana  kwoumwari kwakadini ! Aihwa,

Baba vangu, kuedza kwese kwemumhanzi wepanyika hakuna chinosvika pazviri; uye zvose izvo unyanzvi hunogona kuumba humwe hukuru hwehukuru hwemutambo uyu, hauna chinhu chinoenzaniswa nezvinoitwa nevatsvene nengirozi nekukwana kwekupedzisira, mukuona kufadza JC, nekukudza kufora kwayo nekukunda musakaramende yake inofadza. Kukudzwa kwakadini kwaari! Mufaro wakadini kushamwari dzake!....

Hapana chinhu chakaderera kana kusava nehanya nezve chero chinhu chinogona kupa kune iyi yaugust solemnity. Chido chayo chete chine mutengo mukuru; kungava kungirozi kana kuvanhu, Mwari anokudzwa nokuda kwezvisikwa zvake. Zvinhu zvese zvakanaka, zvinhu zvese zvine hukuru, zvese zvine humwari, zvese zvakasikwa zvinova nehanya nazvo, zvinhu zvinozvirumbidza; hakuna ruva risina kuratidzika kwandiri sekufara pakukandwa munzira yaro, kana kushandiswa kushongedza, nekupenya kwekupenya kwaro, matende aro uye matura aro. Mavara avo airatidzika kwandiri seane moyo uye achipenya zvakanyanya: mumwe angadai akataura kuti akatumbuka nekunakidzwa

kunzwira tsitsi, uye zviso zvavo zvakanaka, kana munhu achigona kushandisa kutaura ikoko, airatidzika kuva anofara uye ane upenyu. Kuratidzwa kwakadini! zvaifadza uye zvaiyevedza!...

Izvi, baba vangu, zvinondiyeuchidza zvakaitika kwandiri makore makumi maviri kana makumi matatu apfuura. Ndakatozogara pamubhedha nekuda kwekurwadziwa kwebvi rangu kwandakambokuudzai  kumwewo. Ndakazvipira kuita kuda kwaMwari; asi, zvisinei nekuzviisa pasi, ndakazvidemba zvikuru nekutadza kushanya kudiki kuSakaramende Rakaropafadzwa paatari. Ndingadai ndakada zvikuru kupinda, pakati pezvimwe zvinhu, kufora kwakakomba kwomutambo wake! Ishe akanaka havana kuda kundinyima nyaradzo iyi. Chokwadi muviri wangu hauna kunzwa; asi ndakaripwa zvakanaka nokuda kwazvo, sezvo panzvimbo pezvo ndakaona nemaziso endangariro kurongeka kwezvinhu zvakakwirira zvikuru kumitambo yedu yose, uye izvo meso omuviri aisatongogona  kuona  . VS' 

Ndichangobva kutaura nemi, uye kuti Mwari achangovandudza kuti tizive nezvazvo.....

Tichifunga kubva pamaonero aya, mabiko, kunyange guruva parinofambiswa nemupristi dhipoziti inoera, rinoita serichararama uye richidedera nomufaro. Asi, Baba vangu, pano, pachiitiko ichi, ndicho chandakasiyanisa muguruva remakuva, iro rakagadzirwa kubva mukuumbwa.

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zvitunha zvakavigwapo; Ndakaona vamwe vachidedera nemufaro, uye vamwe vachibvunda neshungu nehasha sezvo mudungwe waipfuura. Mwari akandizivisa kuti imwe yakanga iri miviri yavatsvene, uye imwe yomuviri  yavasina kurasika, uye ndaishuva nomwoyo wangu wose kupinda kuti ndipiwe chinhu  .

makwikwi enyika yose yezvisikwa, kuti ape rukudzo kuMusiki, uye  kupfuurira kukudza kunaka kwoumwari hwake: Ndingadai ndakada kuva guruva pamberi pake, uye iro muprista akanga afamba pamusoro paro; Ndakabvunza, izwi rakapindura richiti: Uchiri wakaguta iwe; asi zuva richauya rauchave mudiki mumeso ako, uye apo Mwari pavasingazowani chero kupikiswa padivi pekuda  kwako  .  Inzwi rimwe chete iroro

anondiudza nhasi kuti yave nguva yekudzokera kune pasina ini  ....

Naizvozvo, kanopfuura kamwe, Baba vangu, uye nguva pfupi yadarika, ndichiri kuona midziyo inoshamisira neyoukuru yemhemberero iyi muhurongwa kane chiuru.

pamusoro, handitauri kune zvese izvo munhu anogona kuita, asi kune zvese izvo fungidziro inobereka zvibereko inogona kufungidzira iyo inobata kumeso: varume havazombokwanisi  kuiwana  . Ndinotaura sekunzwa  kwakawanda

akandiita kuti ndinzwe manyukunyuku makuru, mapisarema ane mutinhimira uye nemhepo  yekufara izvo zvandakanzwa zvichiimbwa mukukudza  Mwari katatu mutsvene.

Pandakanga ndine ruzivo rwemashoko, uye pandakanga ndava nekukwana  kwemimhanzi, handingatauri chero chinhu chinosvika zvishoma pane zvandakanzwa; ungadai usina ruzivo; unofanira kunge wakazvinzwa  wega....

Murwiyo urwu rwehumwari rwakazara uye rwakazara, ndakasiyanisa makonzati maviri akanyatsocherechedzwa, imwe yaive yepamusoro, uye imwe bass. Yokutanga yaiumbwa nemhando dzakakwirira uye dzechirume, dzinodada uye dzine simba; vaive hunhu hwekudenga, rumbidzo, rumbidzo, kutakurwa kwerudo rweNgirozi neVatendi veJerusarema rekudenga. Hunhu hwakanaka, kunamata nekurumbidza kwevatsvene vepasi kwakaumba chikamu chechipiri; nemakonzati maviri aya, akaita imwe chete, nokudaro akabatanidza denga nenyika, Chechi inorwa neChechi inokunda.

Mumwe aigona kusiyanisa, mukusiyana kwemazwi, cadences nematoni akakodzera uye akanyatsokodzera kuchinhu chimwe nechimwe, uye kusiyana nekunaka nemirairo, ingave yeVatendi vekudenga kana yeavo vari pasi, iyo inowirirana nechibvumirano chakanaka. Pakanga pasina nyongano pakati pemakerubhi namaserafi, kana pakati pevakafira kutenda, maapostora nemhandara. Chinhu chiri chose chaivapo chakanga chakaiswa zviratidzo uye chakatanhamara; asi zvakare zvese zvaive zvakabatana uye zviri pamutemo zvine hunyanzvi hwakawandisa uye hunyoro, zvese zvakabatanidzwa nemumvuri  wakajeka kudaro uye zvinongedzo zvinotarisirwa zvakanaka; muchidimbu, chinhu chiri chose chakarairwa nokuenzana kukuru kwazvo zvokuti makonzati maviri ayo akaguma nekonzati dzakawanda kwazvo dzakasiyana, kunyanguvezvo akaita pakati pawo tsinhirano imwe neyakafanana, koniti imwe cheteyo kumbiri yaMwari mumwe oga waMwari. nyika....

Ngatiedzei imwezve nguva kufungidzira mimhanzi yakanaka kwazvo, yakarongedzerwa zvine hunyanzvi, yakaitwa zvakanaka; asi tinoiwana kupi panyika? Uyu wandinotaura nezvake wakafanira Mwari, nepazvose zvakafanira  ; uye zvose izvo munhu anogona kuita nekufungidzira pano hazvina kukwana uye zvakakomba mukuenzanisa  ....

Wadiwa murume!. ndokuzoti Chechi Tsvene, Ndava pakakwirira pazvishuwo zvangu  ;

makashandura mazuva angu okuchema uye okutambudzika akava mazuva omufaro nokufarisisa. Vavengi vangu vanyadziswa; maunza pamusoro pavo kushora kwavakandifukidza nako: mbiri ngaipiwe kuna Baba, kuMwanakomana uye kuMweya Mutsvene. Nokuti  imi  , vana vangu vanodikanwa, farai!  IWE

ndakagomera nokuchemawo seni; asi Baba venyu vakagumisa kugomera kwedu nokugomera kwedu; akapukuta misodzi yako neyangu

vakanyaradzwa zvisina  tariro  .  Imi mose makapupura

kuparara kwangu uye kurwara kwangu, ingave iko zvino yerufaro rwangu, uye ona kana pakambova nenyaradzo seyangu!...

Pano, zvino, Baba vangu, izvo Mwari akaita kuti ndione, panguva ye octave uye midungwe, pamapato maviri ayo nhasi anoparadzanisa Chechi yeFrance uye anobudisa kupesana kunoiparadzanisa, pasina kukwanisa kwangu kutaura kana kuziva kuti inofanira kupera panguva ipi uye mumamiriro api. Chakavanzika icho Mwari akazvichengetera uye chandisingade kana kutsvaga kupinda. Kana ndikabvumirwa kutaura mune izvi kubva pachangu, uye kuisa pangozi pano fungidziro pane zvatataura, zvinoratidzika kwandiri kuti munhu angatarisira kuti rusununguko ruchakurumidza kupiwa kuChechi. , kuti vashumiri vaizoyeukwa uye vanogona shandisa mabasa avo pachena uye pachena pamutambo unotevera weSakaramende Yakaropafadzwa; izvo zvingabatsira kwete zvishoma kuti zvive zvakanyanya kusimba kupfuura 

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Ndinochida zvakanyanya kupfuura zvandinotarisira gore rinouya. Ngatinamatei Baba kuti fungidziro yangu iitike nekukasira, timbozvipupurira tisati tafa.

Hanzvadzi inokurudzira zvakare kubva kuna Mwari, kuMutungamiriri wake, kuti azvishandise nekuchenjerera pakunyora basa iri. Kuzviisa kwake kuChechi kuzere.

Ndichagumisa iyi wedzero refu zvikuru, Baba, nokukuyeuchidzai zvakare kuti kuda kwaMwari kuti muzviite nokushingaira mukunyora pasi mukutevedzana kwamanyoro amakanyora, zvikurukuru izvo zvandakataura nokukuitirai  . yapfuura. Mune izvi, usakahadzika nazvo, iwe uchafanirwa zvakanyanya uye zvakanyanya kupfuura kana iwe wakashanda nekushingaira uye kubudirira mubasa rakawanda uye rine zvibereko ... Mwari anodzokorora kwandiri zvakare kuti anoda kukwevera kubwinya kwake kubva mairi munguva yake, uchave wakakodzera kuve wakapawo pazviri. Naizvozvo, Baba vangu, rambai muchishingaira pazviri. Ramba pane ichi chakavanzika matanho ese anodiwa nehungwaru; Pamusoro pazvose, chenjererai hama dzenhema, kunyanya kukutyai kupfuura vakaziviswa vavengi: takakutsamwirai zvikuru! kuva  kwako

varindi. Ndinovimba zvinhu zvose kubva kudivi raMwari, kuti handiregi kukunyengetererai kuti muchengetedzwe, ndichizvirumbidza paminamato yenyu yakanaka yandinokoshesa zvikuru. Unoziva zvawakandivimbisa, uye hapana mubvunzo kuti hauzvikanganwi.

Asi ndicherechedzei, ndinokukumbirisai, kana kuri kuda kwenyu kuti ndiite kuti munyore izvo Mwari zvaanozivisa kwandiri, uye kana ndichifanira muminamato yangu ndizvisiye pachangu kukukwezvwa kwandinotenda kuti kunobva kuMweya Mutsvene. Ndanga ndakanganwa kukubvunzai zvese izvi pamakabuda... Pamusoro pazvo, Baba, ndinodzokorora kwamuri zvakare kuti, kana mukacherechedza, mune zvose zvandakakuudzai uye kuti manyora, kutaura kana chimwe chinhu chinopesana neMagwaro Matsvene. kana kuzvisarudzo zveChechi, usatadza kuzvigadzirisa uye kundizivisa. Bvunza uye uongorore zvakanaka iwe pachako. Munoziva zviri nani kuti ndife hangu pane kuti ndive munyengeri uye ndipikisane nezvishumo zvokudenga.

Nditenderei kuti ndikuvimbisei nezveruremekedzo rwangu rwakadzama uye kuti ndimutsidzire kwamuri chokwadi chemanzwiro andiri nawo muMwoyo Unoyera waJesu,

Baba vangu,

Mwanasikana wako muna Jesu Kristu, Hanzvadzi Yekuzvarwa, Asina Kukodzera Chinamato.

YAMBIRO YEKUTANGA.

Pashure pokudzungaira kwemwedzi miviri munharaunda yeFougères, Ernée, Vitré uye munzvimbo dzakaganhurirwa dzeMaine, uko ndakanga ndaronga chinhu chiri chose chine chokuita neChechi, zvichingodaro, ndakanga ndazviwana ndimene ndamanikidzirwa ‘kusiya idzi nyika kutiza zvimwe zvirondwa. . Nhambo huru yaidikanwa nokuda kwekotsekano huru. Naizvozvo ndakasarudza, nezano rama<em>nun pachavo, kuenda kuSaint-Malo, uko chitambudzo chakanga chisinganyanyi kusimba mukurwisana navafundisi, uye uko, nemhaka yokuvanza nokungwarira, munhu aigona kukarira kuva akanyarara kwenguva yakati, uye pakupedzisira uko munhu angangoenda, kana kuri madikanwa, kunyika yokumwe, sezvazvakaitika. Pakanga pari panguva iyi yekugara kutsva, kwandakagara mwedzi mina, pandakagamuchira, pakati pezvimwe zvakawanda zvakatumirwa, tsanangudzo yandichazopa nhoroondo.

Zvichave zvakanaka kuziva zvisati zvaitika kuti ndichitaura nezvenharaunda yandaive ndasiya ndoda kufa mumwe wemasisita angu akarwiswa pachipfuva, kwenguva refu akarara. Uyu musikana wechidiki wekuSainte Claire akaona basa rake richipera nemufaro wakanyanya, sezvaakafanoona kuti rufu rwaizomuponesa kubva mukusuwa kusingadzivisiki kwekukandwa kunze nevamwe. Akafa kutanga kwemwedzi waNyamavhuvhu, uye paive parufu rwake apo Hanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa yakanditumira nhoroondo yakadzama uye nekufungidzira kwandichapa chinhu uye kupfupisa kupararira nepandinogona napo. .

Chinyorwa V.

Mirayiridzo pamusoro pekuchena kwehana uye kuvimbika kunyasha. Ngozi dzezvikanganiso zvidiki, nemhedzisiro yakaipa yekudziya.

Kutumirwa kwechitatu kweHanzvadzi yeNativity.

“Muzita raBaba neroMwanakomana neroMweya Mutsvene. Ngazvive zvakadaro. Kuburikidza naJesu naMaria, uye nemuzita reUtatu Hutsvene, ndinoteerera. »

Sister ndivo vane basa rekurinda husiku pedyo nemutumbi wemufi.

Baba, ini ndinofanira kukuudzai zvakaitika kwandiri mazuva ano apfuura pachiitiko chemushakabvu Hanzvadzi yedu Madame de Saint-Benoît, ane rufu rwamuchaziviswa naAmai vedu. Vachiziva kuti handityi, Amai vedu vakandipa basa rokurinda usiku pedyo nomutumbi womushakabvu anodiwa uyu; izvo zvandakagamuchira nomwoyo wose, kuti ndisunungure mamwe masisita, akanga aneta zvikuru nokumutarisira kwaakanga aita panguva yokurwara kwake, uye zvikurukuru mukati mokurwadziwa kwake nenguva dzake dzokupedzisira; kuvazorodza

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Ndakatozobvuma kugarapo ndiri ndega. Asi Baba ndinokuudzai kuti handina kutarisira zvakaitika ikoko kana zvaizotevera  . Ndinogona kudzivisa kuva mumwe zvakanyanya sezvinobvira,  zvinosarudzwa

kuti upenyu hwangu huchava humwe kusvikira kumagumo, uye kuti ndichave ndinoshamisa kunyange muzvinhu zviri nyore uye zvakajairika: usiku huno hwakanga huri kwandiri usiku hwerima uye usiku hunopenya panguva imwe chete. Ndakanzwazve ipapo, somune mamwe mamiriro ezvinhu, mirangariro yendangariro mbiri dzinorwisana, idzo, kwenguva yakati, dzakanga dziri muhondo. Kana mukashandisa muzvinyorwa zvenyu zvandichakuudzai pamusoro pazvo, zvimwe ndichapfuura mundangariro dzevamwe nokuda kwouropi hwakarasika, uye imi nokuda kwomurume anonyengera zvikuru; zvisinei Baba vangu, ndicharamba ndichaita kuti mumwe nomumwe awedzere mupfungwa yake, nokuti ndine zvikonzero zvakasimba zvokutaura nemi, pano sokune imwe nzvimbo, nokusaziva kwose kwamunondiziva, uye kutevera chokwadi chaicho, zvikuru sezvinobvira. kuti nditonge zvinhu, uye kuti pasina kugara zvakanyanya pazvinhu zvinorairwa neruremekedzo rwemunhu. Ngatisvike papfungwa.

Dhimoni rinotsvaka kumutyisidzira kuti abve pachigaro chake.

Ndakapfugama pamakumbo emufi uyo ainge asina kuvharwa kumeso. Muchinjikwa wakanga waiswa pamusoro pemusoro wake paakavigwa wakashanda ini semutauriri. Pashure pokukandira mvura tsvene paari nokuita chiratidzo chomuchinjikwa pamusoro pangu, ndakatanga ndatanga munamato wangu, nedonzo rokuzofungisisa nezvorufu nemigumo yokupedzisira; izvo zvandakaita kwechinguva ndichikumbira zvikuru nechinhu chandaive nacho pamberi pemeso  angu.Asi  , Baba, tarirai pakati pegumi negumi  nerimwe .

kwemaawa ruzha rukuru rwakanzwika pamusoro peuriri hwemba yevarwere, sokunge kuti homwe inorema yakanga yadonhera panzvimbo yakaparadzaniswa nemapuranga, paunoziva kuti munhu anowanzo geza maoko ake. . . .

Ruzha rwekutanga urwu rwakaita serwakangoni rwuri kure zvishoma. Handina kunyanya kunetseka nezvazvo; asi nzvimbo yenhamo yakanaka mushure , imwe mheremhere inokatyamadza yakanzwika, pamusoro penzvimbo imwe cheteyo. Kuputika kwayo nekutinhira kwaitevera, kwakafanana nekuputika nekutinhira kwebhanan'ana apo dutu rine hasha uye zvese zviri pedyo nesu. Ungadai wakataura kuti uchiri kunzwa kutenderera uye kurema kukuru kuumburuka, kusvetuka kubva pamusoro penhanho inokurumidza, nhanho imwe neimwe yaizomuita kuti asangane nechisimba.

counter jump. Vakasvika pazvidhinha zvepachipatara pakabva paita ruzha rwakaita sebhomba rinoputika richidonha richibva rabhururuka kumativi ose.

Panguva ino, Baba, ndakasangana nazvo, zvinofanirwa kubvumwa, manzwiro ekuzvidira; Ndakanzwa nyangwe zvangu kutya kuda kubata zvangu

moyo, nedambudziko repfungwa dzangu. Kufungidzira, kuchiri kupenyu, kwakarohwa nehana uye nekugumburwa nekupunzika kwakadaro, zvekuti ndakakurumidza kuzviona ndisingachakwanisi kuzvisimbisa pamunamato wangu: zvisinei ndakabata zvakasimba, uye ndakaedza kuisa chiso chakanaka... Nenyasha dzaMwari, dzandakateterera panguva iyoyo, ndakasimudza mweya wangu nemoyo wangu pamusoro pepfungwa dzangu, zvandaida, nokutenda, kudzikamisa dambudziko nekudzikamisa nyonganyonga.

Pasina kubuda panzvimbo yangu, ndisingazive zvekuita, ndakafunga kutaura nemufi zvakanyanya kana zvishoma mumashoko aya:

Hanzvadzi yangu yakanaka, kana mune mbiri kuna Mwari bvisai ruzha rwunonditadzisa kunamata nekuzvishandira kwaari. Munoziva kuti ndiri pano kuzorinda muviri wenyu; deign zvakare, ndinokukumbirisai, kuti mundichengetedze kubva kune chero njodzi ... Ndakabva ndatora mvura tsvene yandakasasa nayo mufi uye ini pachangu, ndakamuverengera de profundis, mushure mezvo ndakatarisa mukati mangu, uye nechiedza . zvekutenda, kuedza kwadhiabhorosi nehondo itsva dzaainge achiri kufanira kuunza kwandiri.

Naizvozvo ndakaona muchiedza ichi chemukati nechapamusoro kuti mheremhere yese yandainge ndichangobva kunzwa ibasa remweya wakaipa uyu, uyo wakagadzira zano iri nechinangwa chekuti ndisiye kuteerera nerudo izvo zvakandibata pabasa rangu. Chiedza chakaita kuti ndione misungo yakavanzwa iyi yakandiyambirawo kuti ndichenjere kurwiswa kutsva kwange kusiri kunonoka kuuya. Pakutanga pakanga pane muedzo wakasimba wokusiya munamato wangu, nechikonzero chokuti ndakanga ndisisiri muchimiro chokuzviita; kuti pfungwa dzangu dzakanyanya kushushikana nekutya kuti nditarisire kuterera kwazviri; kuti ndaigona kugara ndichitangazve mune imwe nguva chiitwa chandingadai ndakamanikidzwa kusiya mune ino ....

Hanzvadzi inopikisa muyedzo. Kuedza kutsva kwedhimoni kumukunda. Anobata zvakasimba.

Asi ndichiona kuti kutera kumuyedzo uyu kwaizova kusiya nhandare yehondo kumuvengi wangu, ndakaenda kuna Mwari kuti ndiiparadze, uye ndakatsunga kuramba ndiri pamunamato wangu, chimwe chinhu chakasvika; zvandakaita kunyangwe zvese...

Ipapo, Baba vangu, kuti, kuti ndirege kurambwa nazvo uye kuti ndisatambura nyadzi dzokukundwa, muvengi wangu akaita ungwaru hwake hwose nounyanzvi hwake, akasvika kure.

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kuvhurika simba, kana kana kutaura kudaro, kuti ndizununguse kusimba kwangu ... Kutanga akabata fungidziro yangu, kwaakapenda zvakajeka zvinhu zvinonyanya kutyisa; Ndakazviona sendakakomberedzwa nezvidhoma uye zvikara zvinotyisa izvo zvaizoita kuti ndisave nechokwadi chekuti ndakanga ndichiri pakati pevapenyu here. Zvisinei, ndakati kwandiri: uhu upenzi chaihwo hwekufungidzira, uye kutenda kwakabvisa pakarepo pfungwa dzekutyisa idzi; asi pasina nguva chimwe chiitiko chakanyangarika pane chimwe chinoshamisa chakatevera, uye izvo zvakatora nguva zvakandishungurudza zvakanyanya, sezvaungafungidzira.

Pakupedzisira, Baba vangu, dhimoni rakasvika pakutyisidzira, rakandiita kuti ndinzwe nezwi remukati raitaura kunzwisisa kwangu, kuti kana ndikaramba ndakagara panzvimbo yangu ndichinamata ipapo, ndichakurumidza kuona zvaizoitika kwandiri. . Iwe hausi pamagumo, akandiudza, uye iwe unofanirwa  kugadzirira

vachiparadza vamwe vakawanda muhusiku hwose. Ndichapeta kaviri mheremhere nokurwiswa munzira dzose. Ndichazviratidza kwamuri muzvinhu zvinotyisa; Ndichadzima chiedza chako, ndichakutambudza, uye shamhu dzauchagamuchira dzichakubuditsa kunze kweimba. Uyu uchava mutengo wekuramba kwako, uye zvauchawana nekusindimara kwako...

Ndakamupindurawo nechemumoyo, uye nekuzvipa moyo nekushinga, kuti zvichaitika chete zvichafadza Mwari akanaka, wandaizogara ndakanamatira nekutenda, uye waaisazombondiparadzanisa. Ndiri pano nekuda kwekuteerera, ndakati, uye kana vachizondiuraya panhandare, ndinongobuda kunze kwekuteerera kune avo vane chikwereti kwavari.Chisungo chaifanira kunge chisina  kumufadza ,  uye 

yaakavhiringidzwa nayo: uye rudzi urwu rwekurwisa rwakapera paawa, dhimoni rakaita serakakundwa zvachose; asi izvozvo hazvina kugara kwenguva refu. Nenguva isipi akadzokera kuchaji, mushure mekunge achinja bhatiri, uye akaedza kuwana nekuda kuziva izvo zvaaishuva kuwana nekutya nekutyisidzira.

Saka ndakazviona ndave muyedzo wechisimba, uye uku ndiko kwaive kurwiswa kwakaomarara, kuenda nechiedza changu, kunoona chaive chakaipa mukona yeimba yevarwere kwandakanga ndanzwa ruzha rwakanyanya, uko kwaiita sekunge zvese zvaifanira kupazwa  . zviuru zvimedu; asi hana yangu yakandimiririra zvakajeka kuti panguva iyoyo kwaizova kupa chimwe chinhu kudhimoni racho, kuti aisafanira kubvumirwa kuita zvishoma, izvo zvaangadai asina kutadza kuita mhindu imwe nguva. Pamusoro paizvozvi, ndakaramba ndiri panzvimbo yangu; asi kuda kuziva kwakawedzera zvakapetwa kaviri, zvekuti, pasinei nekufamba kwakanaka kwenyasha  ,

Ndakanga ndava kuda kusimuka kaviri kana katatu kuti ndiende kunotarisa kukona uko kwandaifungira kukanganisa kukuru kwendiro; zvakaita sekuti inzwi raiti kwandiri: Hei! Chivi chipi chingavepo mune izvozvo, uye ndechipi chinokanganisa chaungatya?... Hauzotombobva mufurati; uye kana uchinge waona mhedzisiro yemheremhere yakaitika, iwe hauchazove nekunetseka, uye iwe uchakwanisa kuenderera wakadzikama kuenderera nemunamato izvo zvisingagoneke kuti iwe unogona kuzvishandisa iwe pasina iyo ... Asi imwe inzwi rakati kwandiri: Usaita chero chinhu pamusoro pazvo, uye uzvichengete zvakanaka ... kukunda kwako kunofanira kukwana ... Ndakatsvaga kuna Mwari, uyo akasimbisa chisarudzo changu. Ndakanga ndichiri kushandisa munamato nemvura tsvene, uye ndakateerera Mwari nehana yangu nokuramba ndiri pandaiva....

mubayiro wokutendeka kwake. JC anozviratidza kwaari. Murairo anomupa pamusoro pekutendeka kuzvinhu zvidiki-diki

Kuvimbika kudiki uku, kwairatidzika kunge kudiki, kwakandiwanira nyasha kubva kudenga izvo zvakagumisa chiitiko ichi chinoshamisa uye chakagumisa kutya kwangu, kubvisa zvitsinga izvo zvakazvipa. JC akazviratidza kwandiri muchimiro chake chakajairwa: "Unotyei, mwanasikana wangu, akadaro kwandiri paakanga achiswedera kwandiri? ...

Ini ndinewe, vimba neni, uye ndinozvidza zvimwe zvese. Hongu, ndinozvidzokorora kwamuri, ndiri mamuri uye nemi, kwete chete nekuvapo kwehumwari hwangu hunozadza zvese, asiwo nenzira yakakosha, kudzoreredza kurwiswa kwevavengi venyu. Saka usatya kutukwa kwavo ndizvo zvavanogona kuita. Pamashoko aya esimbiso nehunyoro, ndakaziva izwi ratenzi wangu anodiwa neumwari. Ndakanzwa runyararo nerunyararo zvazvarwa patsva mupfungwa dzangu; kudzikama kunotapira kwakapararira mukati memweya wangu, uye moyo wangu wakadzokera pakuzorora kwawo. Ndakanga ndisisatyi muvengi wangu chete, asi ndaingonzwa hushingi hwekutuka hutera hwake. Asi handizvo zvoga....

Ndakaita chivindi chekubvunza JC muchivande kuti dai ndaiva ndaita zvakaipa zvikuru kuti ndisiye nzvimbo yangu nemunamato wangu, ndiende kunoona pakanga paitika ruzha, sezvo ndakanga ndaedzwa  zvakasimba  . "Usakahadzika nazvo  ,

akapindura. Hongu, iwe ungadai wakaita kukuvadza kukuru kwazvo, uye zvikuru kupfuura avo vanongoona kunze kwezvinhu uye kutonga pakutanga pekutanga vangada kutenda. Ndiko chaiko uko Satani akanga akamirira kuti upedze kutyisa nekukukurira; aiva nazvo

akabva awedzera kaviri maitiro ake nekubudirira kwakawanda. Wakatendeka kuhana yako uye nenyasha, munguva pfupi

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ungadai usiri tenzikadzi wezvisarudzo zvako kana iwe pachako; angadai akakunda zvinhu zvose, uye angadai akakuita kuti usiye zvose.

“Naizvozvo, mwanasikana wangu, dhiabhorosi akanga achikupinza munjodzi huru, achikunyepedzera kuita zvishoma: naizvozvo ajaira kupofumadza mazuva ose  uye nokutsausa vanhu vakawanda vasina njere, achivapa kukanganisa kuduku. pakutanga; kunongova kutarira, kuda kuziva kuduku, kugutsikana kuduku, shoko rokuchera, kudzoka kuduku kwokuzviremekedza, kunzwa kwokuvenga... Asi pazvinhu zvose izvi hatimboregi pakutanga. Zvaiita sezvisina basa pakutanga zvinowanzova zvakakura; zvinenge zvine ngozi zvikuru kuita iyi nhano yokutanga, uye kanopfuura kamwe uyu muvengi anonyengera wamaKristu akavakwevera pasi pasi mugomba rakadzika-dzika nenzira isina mhaka zvikurusa; 

Pane izvi, Baba vangu, JC vakandipa mwenje wakasimba uye wakakosha nemirairo kwandiri uye kune vamwe. Kutanga akaita kuti ndiise maziso angu pahana yangu; Ndakazviona mururamisiro youmwari, somuchionioni chinondiratidza kunyange mavara maduku zvikuru, zvikurukuru izvo zvinonyanyozivikanwa kwandiri uye zvisingafadzi Mwari zvikuru, chiveve chakati mubasa rake, kudziya kwakati nokusakendenga mumabasa angu. , kudziya, kusava nehanya uye kusava nechiveve izvo hana yangu inogara ichindishora nazvo, zvisinei nekuti zvishoma zvingave mandiri kuregeredza mukurwisana nazvo, kana kuda mune zvese zvingave zvakazvikonzera....

Ngozi yokusakwana.

Idzi zvikanganiso, pasina panikiro, hadzisati dziri huru mazviri dzimene, uye kure nokuenda kumunhu anofa, voruzhinji havatomboendi kumhaka inodanwa nenzira yakarurama; vanongova vasina kukwana. Asi Baba ndaona kuti mhedzisiro yacho dzimwe nguva inotyisa zvekuti munhu haagone kungwarira kuti asadzivise: izvi ndizvo zvinoita kuti titaure chokwadi kuti chero kunzvenga zvakaipa kana kuita hunhu, zvese. hukuru, zvinhu zvose zvinokosha munzira yokudenga, uye kuti hapana chinhu chiduku kana  tichienzanisa noruponeso rwedu  

kusafunga kuti kusvika kupi kunogona kutungamirira, semuenzaniso, mune mimwe  miedzo, kushaya hanya nehuvepo hwaMwari  anotiona  ndinotaura

pano, kwete yomufungowo zvawo wokuvapo kwoMunhu Mukurusa, asi wepfungwa yakajeka uye iripo chaizvoizvo yaiyeyu Mwari aripo kwose kwose, anotidana kuti tidzokere kumutemo wake mutsvene, anotipa nokutya, uye anotipinda achibva mugungwa. kutya kutonga kwake...

Kudikanwa kwekukwana, kubata tsika yehuvepo hwaMwari.

Kwakanaka sei, kunobetsera sei, kunokosha sei, zvikurukuru munzvimbo dzakati dzakakomba nokuda kworunako, kuva pakuvamba vagamuchira  muitiro unofadza wouyu mufungo waMwari uripo  nguva dzose  ! Zvisinei,  varipi

avo vanopa iyi salury kurovedza muviri wose kufarira  kwainokodzera  ? Izvi

Kuregeredza kwekutanga uye kunokosha handiko here chisakiso chinouraya chezvikanganiso zvavo zvenguva dzose, zvikanganiso zvavo zvezuva nezuva, zvekusava nehanya kwavanogara mazviri, uye zvezvivi chaizvo chaizvo zvinova migumisiro  yacho  ? Zvatinotonga  zvino

kana kusava nehanya nepfungwa yekuvapo kwaMwari kudiki, uye kana kushaikwa uku kusina mhosva sezvazvakajairwa!...

Hey! chii chaasingagoni kutaura pamusoro pekuparadzana, kwezvinotsausa zvechigarire, zvekusavapo nguva dzose umo varume vazhinji uye kunyange vaKristu vanorarama, maererano naMwari, kwavari pachavo, uye nechokwadi chekutenda! Chimiro chendangariro chinotonyanya kuuraya mukuti chakajairika; Chimiro chinoita kuti mweya mizhinji ive vatorwa kune zvavanoda zvikuru, ndinoreva  kwavari ivo nekuponeswa kwavo, uye kazhinji inovapofumadza, kusvika pakuzvitenda ivo vamene vasingazvidzi, kana vachimedza kusarurama semvura: nekuti ndinokumbira kwamuri zvinogona kutungamirira kukuregeredza kwoutsotsi, uko, zuva riri rose, kunovaratidzira vasina pfuti kukurohwa navavengi  vavo  ? Chii  chichava

pamberi paMwari, uye maererano nokuponeswa kwavo, mugumisiro wokusachenjera uko munhu aisazoda kuzvishora nako mune imwe nyaya ipi neipi, uye ndeupi angaziva nzira yokuita nayo matanho akachenjera okudzivisa? zvichaguma nei? Ah! pasina kupokana, vakashinga vachaverenga kurwa kwavo nekukundwa kwavo, uye kazhinji kazhinji vanozokundwa pasina kurwiswa: izvi ndizvo zvavanofanira kutarisira. Hongu, Baba vangu, maererano nezvandinoita kuti ndione Mwari, dai taida kudzokera kune kunobva kudonha kunonyadzisa uye kunosiririsa, kwezvivi zvakakura kwazvo, zvemhosva dzinotyisa uye dzinomukira, taizozviwana mudiki. chinhu, mukuregeredza kudiki, kutarisisa, kushaikwa kwechenjedzo iyo nyika inodana scruple, inonyadzisa meticulousness, diki ...

Migumisiro inouraya yekukanganwa Mwari uye kudziya.

Chii zvino, iwe unondibvunza, iyo inosuruvarisa nheyo yedenouement yakadaro? Nekufambira mberi kwakadini kunouraya kunogona chikonzero, chinoita sechishoma kwazvo, kuburitsa  uipi hwakakura kudaro? Hezvino izvi: Nezvinotyisa, asi  zvakanaka

kutonga, Mwari anobata kune mweya inotya, inotya uye isina kutendeka iyi, sezvavanoita chaizvo.

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kwaari; kana kuti anovatevedzera zvakakwana kuti avarange nenzira inotyisa zvikuru. Vanotonhora kwaari, anotonhora kwavari; anovasiya sezvaanosiiwa navo: ivo vanoganhurirwa, maererano naye, kusunungurwa kubva kumhosva, pasina kutora dambudziko kumufadza nekutendeka kumabasa maduku ekunamata; uye anozviganhurira pachake, kwavari, kune zviyamuro zvakajairika uye zvinokosha, uye anobvisa kubva mazviri zviyamuro zvesarudzo nekufanotaura izvo zvaizova nechokwadi chekutsungirira kwavo muzvakanaka. Kusavimbika kwega kwega padivi pavo kunoteverwa, nekwake, nekubvisa nyasha izvo zvinoita kuti vashaye simba pane dzimwe nguva uye kunosimbisa mafungiro avo akaipa; nokuti Mwari anova urombo nezvipo zvake maererano nokushungurudzwa kwavo.

Chii chinoitika kubva ipapo? tazvitaura, uye zviri nyore kuzvifungira (nokuti chinhu chacho hachigoni kuitika neimwe nzira pasina tsitsi pasina ane kodzero yokuverenga). Kusavimbika kudiki kunotozoteverwa nemukuru; zvishoma zvinokwezva zvishoma; gomba rimwe rakadzika-dzika rinopinda mune rimwe, uye nokudaro mumwe anowira zvishoma nezvishoma. Ndiri kuti chii  ? nepamateru akanyanya munhu anoumburuka kubva pamawere kuenda pamawere; tinobva pakudziya tichienda mukusavimbika, kubva pakukanganisa kushoma kuenda pakukanganisa kukuru, kubva kuchivi chisingafadzi kuenda kuchivi chinofa. Handizvo zvoga; asingagutsikane nekuita chivi, munhu anopinda mutsika yacho, iyo inobereka upofu hwepfungwa, kuoma kwemoyo, uye kazhinji  inodya kurangwa  . 

Ityai, Baba vangu, ndiani angarega  kuzvidedera  ?  Ndiani asingatore

chisarudzo chakasimba chekudzivisa chivi uye kunyange mumvuri wechivi? Isu,  pamusoro pezvose, tiri muhutano hwakanaka, hunoda kukwana kwakawanda kupfuura kunodiwa naMwari kune vakapfava vakatendeka, naizvozvo tinofamba tisingaregi muhuvepo hutsvene hwaMwari, uye tisingatongorasikirwi kuona zvinhu zvokutenda, izvo zvinofanira kutiita kuti tifadze. pamberi pake  ...

Handingapedzi, Baba vangu, dai ndaifanira kukutsanangurirai zvishoma zvinonyangadza, zvisizvo, pfungwa dzisina maturo, zvishuwo zvisina basa, mazwi asina maturo, kudzoka kwekuzviremekedza, kushaikwa kwekuchena kwechinangwa kunyange. zviito zvinorumbidzwa zvikuru; zviuru nechuru zvakafanana kusakwana, izvo zvinokuvadza maziso aMwari ane godo nerunako rwemweya uri wake: kusakwana kwayo, zvisinei, maiwe! rangu rakazara zvekuti hapana wandinoziva anotya kupfuura ini....

Kukosha kwezvikanganiso zviduku; kuti vanorangwa zvakaomarara sei mupurigatori. Muenzaniso wemushakabvu nun.

"Pano saka," JC akandiudza, "ndidzo dzinonzi zvikanganiso zvidiki, zvidiki, zvisizvo izvo munhu asingatomboremekedze kuteerera zvishoma, kunyangwe munhu achiziva, uyezve, kuti pamberi paMwari zvese zvinoverengerwa uye hapana  chinodzikiswa  . Ah! kana munhu aigona kunzwisisa nekuomesera kwakadii,  ne

Kuomarara kwakadini uku kunonzi zvidiki kunorangwa mumoto wepurigatori, hapana mubvunzo kuti tingachinja mutauro nemaitiro  ...  Asi”

Pane izvi, Baba vangu, JC zvakare vakaita kuti ndione mamiriro anosiririsa eChechi inotambura, uye ndipo pandakafunga kuti ndakaziva mweya wemushakabvu wedu anodiwa. Ndakafunga kuti ndakamunzwa achitaura neni mashoko aya anosuruvarisa: “Aa! Hanzvadzi yangu yeKuberekwa kwaJesu, dai ndakakwanisa kunzwisisa kuti chii chaifanira kunge chakandidyira rimwe zuva nokuda kwaiita sezvishoma zvokuti ndakazvibvumira muupenyu hwangu. dai ndakanzwisisa ipapo, sezvandiri kuita iye zvino, kuti  mudiki wangu

kuva nehanya kufadza Mwari wangu kwaiva kundiparadzanisa naye nokundichengeta ndiri mumoto unodya uye usingatsungiririki, sezvandingadai ndashanda kuzviruramisa.

! ndingadai ndakazvichengeta sei neimwe nzira! Kuti kukanganisa kwangu kunondidyira zvikuru, uye kuti upenzi kubvumirana netsvina, zvisinei kuti zvingave zvishoma sei, tichiziva kuti zvichava zvipingamupinyi zvakawanda kumufaro wedu, kunakidzwa kwazvichanonoka, sezvo pasina chakasvibiswa chichapinda  mudenga  ! . Ah! hanzvadzi yangu inodiwa,  iva

wakachenjera pamutengo wangu, sezvo uchigona; idai Mwari kupfuura  kumuda kwandaimuita, rambai muchinyanya kutendeka pamabasa enyu uye nomumutemo wake mutsvene, nokuti nguva yokufara kwenyu yakangopiwa kwamuri nokuda kwaizvozvo chete. Ndisunungurei pakutambudzika kwangu, kuti tigowana mufaro wakadaro nokukurumidza. »

Ndakarohwa nekutya ini, uye ndakapinda netsitsi kune mweya uyu unodiwa, ndakakumbira JC kuti apfupise kusuruvara kwake nekodzero yeropa rake, uye ndakatsunga kumubvunza zvandaifanira kuita kuti ndiite.

kunzvenga kana kupfupisa pachangu; nekuti ndainzwa ndine mhosva kwaari kupfuura uya wandakanga ndanamatira  ...

Nzira dzekunzvenga marwadzo  epurigatori.

"Ndiko, akapindura, kuti uzvishandise iwe pachako kupfuura nakare kose kuti ugodzivisa izvi zvinonzi zvikanganiso zviduku, uye kugutsa kururamisira kwaMwari kune zvose zvakapfuura ... Une zvimwe," akaenderera mberi. , nzira dzine chiuru, kuburikidza ndichiisa kwamuri kunaka kweropa rangu, kungave nehunhu hwenyu hwenyu nemukati, kana zvinobudirira zvikuru nemaitiro mamwe chete aya akabatanidzwa kuregerero iyo Chechi yangu ine kodzero yekushandisa kwamuri, uye yandichagamuchira.

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nguva dzose somuripo wepamutemo uye unogamuchirika, sezvo zvichibva kwandiri kuti ane simba iri achiitira vanopfidza vane mhosva.

Asi, akaenderera mberi achiti, kunze kweiyi nzira yakajairika kune vese vakatendeka, kune dzimwe dzakawanda dzakafanira kune mumwe nemumwe akatendeka kunyanya, zvinoenderana nemamiriro ake uye mamiriro ake: semuenzaniso, mwanasikana wangu, unoda here kuti urege kutambura zvakanyanya. mupurigatori? usambobvumira kukanganisa kweune, zvisinei kuti zvingaita sezvidiki kwauri; zvibatire zvakanyanya nehanya yekundifadza nehunhu hunoenderana nedunhu rako; nokuti hazvingakwani, zvikuru kuti nuni, avenge zvivi, kana asingapfuuriri pakukwana paanodanwa naMwari, uye maererano nemhiko yaakaita pamusoro payo; pakati pezvimwe zvinhu, achatongwa zvakasimba kwazvo kupfuura vanhuwo zvavo.

“Ivai akatendeka zvikuru kunyasha dzangu pakuita kwezvose zvamunochengeta: rambai muchizvichengeta, uye fambai nepamunogona napo pauvepo hwangu hutsvene mukuzvininipisa kwose; rindai uye munyengetere musingaregi, uye edza kusarasikirwa nechiono chezvinhu zvekutenda. Zvandinotaura kwamuri pano, ndinotaurira vose maererano; nokuti chinhu ichi chikuru chine chokuita nevanhu vose pasina mutsauko.

» Rega pane chero pfungwa, kutarisa, chishuwo, izwi kana chiito chinongoda kugutsa zvisikwa, kunyanya kana iwe uchinge waona kuti kumwe kusavimbika kungazotevera, kana kuti iwe unogona kuzosangana nemiedzo. Uyu mutemo wekuchenjerera unonyanya kukosha; nokuti ndinokuudzai kuti, kururamisira kwangu hakurevi chinhu chisingakoshi pane zvakasununguka uye zvakarangarirwa. Zvinhu zvose zvinoyerwa nokuyerwa kweimba tsvene; uye sezvo girazi remvura inotonhora risingazoendi risina mubairo, chikanganiso chiduku hachizoendi chisina kurangwa; saka zvakafanira kudzorera kunyange diki obol mushure mekufa ....

Ita ive tsika inofadza iwe pachako kuchengeta nhanho dzako dzose, kuti dzienderane nemirairo yekutenda. Nditaurire, nepaunogona napo, pfungwa dzako, mazwi ako, zviito zvako, kunyangwe vasina hanya zvakanyanya. Hamungatendi kuti chibayiro chenyu chenguva dzose ichi chinondifadza sei kwandiri; ndiye unondipa ushe hwakakwana pamusoro pekubata kose kwemweya wako, nepamusoro pekufamba kwemoyo wako; kubudikidza naye ndinogara mamuri uye imi munogara mandiri. Mushure mokufa kuzvinorerekera kupfungwa nezvisikwa, zvijaidzei kuita, mazuva ese ehupenyu hwenyu, zviito zvenyu zvenguva dzose mumweya wokuzvidemba, nokuda kwezvivi zvakaitwa, nomwoyo wakaputsika uye nokuzvininipisa nokuda kwokuva nemhosva. . Kukubatanidza iwe pakutendeuka kukuru kwemoyo wangu unoyera,

Naizvozvi zvakare, usingabvi pauri, usingaite chimwe chinhu kunze kweizvo zvaunoita mazuva ose, uchazvisunungura usingakanganisi, uye uchatogona kugutsa vamwe; marwadzo anokosha edunhu rako achaita kwauri purigatori inoramba iripo; uye pasina iyo ichikudhurira iwe zvakanyanya, unozozviwana wacheneswa kubva panguva yerufu. Kungwara kwakadini, asi kune mukana wakadii kuziva maitiro ekuita kunaka nenzira iyi yekudikanwa, nekutora mukana, kuitira kunaka kwemweya, wezvazvaisagoneka kudzivisa kumuviri, uye nekudaro kushandisa zvakaipa zvenguva pfupi. uye isingadzivisike yehupenyu huno  kune yakavimbiswa purofiti uye nekusingaperi mufaro  weimwe  !. Zvakanaka  kuhwina

kaviri; hongu, ndiko kuti kungwara kwechiKristu kunoziva nzira yekurasikirwa nechinhu uye kuwana mhindu kubva kune chinhu chiri chose. Anoitira zvinhu zvekusingaperi izvo vanofarira nyika vanoita kune rombo renguva pfupi; nemusiyano uyu kuti achanakidzwa nekusingaperi chibereko chefunganyo dzake dzose nemarwadzo ake ose, nepo vamwe vachange varasikirwa nezvose.

Kukodzera kwekutambudzika kwehupenyu hwazvino.

Naizvozvo, mwanasikana wangu, uchaona kuti neawa imwe chete yokutambudzika muupenyu hwazvino unogona kuenzana nenguva yakawanda yokutambudzika mumoto unoparadza; izvi nekuda kwemusiyano mukuru unowanikwa, maererano nemweya, pakati pemamiriro ehupenyu hwazvino neihwo hweramangwana ...

Mukati meihwohwu upenyu muKristu anogona kufanirwa iye amene, kupfurikidza nokushandisa kwaari amene runako rweropa rangu; zvino kugutsikana kudiki-diki kunoverengerwa kwaari padanho repamusoro-soro raanogona kuva naro, uye Mwari anopa zvese zvinogoneka kuti ape nyasha, uye zvishoma zvaanokwanisa kururamisiro, pasina kukuvadzwa kwakadii. Nepo mupurigatori ihurongwa hwakasiyana zvachose, nekuti mweya haisisiri pasi pekutonga kwengoni; asi vakanyura zvachose pasi peiyo yekururamisira kwakanyanya uye yakaomesesa, iyo kunyange zvakadaro zvese zvinopihwa, uye pasi payo zvese zvinoyerwa nehuremu hweNzvimbo Tsvene, pasina kusiya chero chinhu netsitsi, iyo yakasungirirwa maoko mukuda kwavo. Naizvozvo havachakodzeri kunze kwekunge nzira yekutonga; nokudaro zvakafanira chose, kana kuti kutambura kwavo  kuripa

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kuomarara, kana kuti Chechi inozvipira kuzvibhadharira; nekuti havana kuregererwa nesendi rimwe chete, uye vanongobuda mariri kana zvese zvanyatsobhadharwa: ndiwo mamiriro avo...

Imwe nzira yakanakisa uye inoshanda kwazvo yekudzivirira kuomarara uku pazvivi zvakaitwa ndeyekuregerera muvakidzani wedu, kunyangwe vavengi vedu vane hasha zvikuru, kutukwa kwese, marwadzo, kukanganisa kwavanogona kuita kuti tive vemweya kana venyama; kuvanamatira nekutendeuka kwavo; kukumbira Mwari kuti avaregerere,

kuti tinovakanganwira sei, uye kuti tinoda sei kuti atikanganwire; uye zvose mumweya werutendo nerudo, muhumwe nekutambudzika nerufu, weMununuri...”

Zvingatora mavhoriyamu, Baba, uye ndingadai ndisina kumboita, kana ndikabvuma kuti munyore pasi zvese izvo Mwari akaita kuti ndione uye ndinzwisise, muhusiku uhwu hwakajeka zvechokwadi, hwaive kwandiri sezuva rakanakisa, kana zvishoma. magumo acho aive akajeka uye achinakidza sekutanga kwaityisa uye kwakasviba ... kana ndikakuudza

zvose zvandakanga ndichiziva pamusoro pokutongwa kwomweya mumwe nomumwe pakubuda munyika ino, pamusoro porumuko rwenyika yose rwemiviri pazuva rokupedzisira, uye pamusoro pokukunda kwavakaropafadzwa, vane hanzvadzi yedu yaizokurumidza kuwedzera; nokuti ndaiziva kuti kusuwa kwavo. situation haifanire kugara kwenguva refu...

"Ona muviri uyu wakazarurwa nemeso ako, JC akandiudza, nyatsotarisa mamiriro anosuruvarisa ayo anoderedzwa nekuparadzaniswa kwawo nemweya  wake  ! Zvakanaka, mwanasikana wangu,  izvi

muviri waunoona zvino unotyisa kwazvo, uyu muviri uchakurumidza kuva honye neguruva, ndichaumutsa rimwe zuva rine mbiri uye rokukunda, nenyama yakachena uye inorarama yakakwana, nyama isingaori uye isinganetseki,  nyama inozopedzisira yatora chikamu mairi. hunhu hunobwinya  hwemuviri wangu wakamutswa humwari...

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Husiku hwose hwakasara hwakashandiswa mukufunga zvichiri zvinhu zvakasiyana-siyana zvandakataura kwamuri kune imwe nzvimbo, asi kubva kwandakagamuchira pano pfungwa dzakadzama uye dzakandibaya mwoyo zvikuru; semuenzaniso, pahukuru hwemweya, kukudzwa kwawo, kusafa kwawo, kunamata kwawo, mutengo werudzikinuro rwawo, mubayiro wawo usingaperi, kufanana kwawo naMwari  handingadzokorori  izvi  .

zvandataura....

Mwari vakandiita kuti ndiwe zvakare mukusava kukuru kwenyika uye neni pachangu, mukuparadza kukuru uko izvo zvese zviripo zvinopa rukudzo kune kunaka kweMunhu wehumwari. Ndakaona chisiko chose chatsakatiswa chose chose, zvokuti pane dzimwe nguva ndaisava nechokwadi kana ndaivako kana kuti kwete, kana ndaiva wenyika ino kana kuti imwe yacho: uyu ndiwo mugumo wechinhu chiri chose chinoparara nenguva; uye pane iyo JC yakandituka zvinyoronyoro nokuda kwekuzvitaurira ini, mukutya kwangu, kune chitunha chisina simba, pane kutaura neni chete kwaari, uyo ega aikwanisa kundisimbisa uye kundidzivirira; yekusave nekukasira kwakakwana kana kusavimbika kwakakwana mukuvapo kwake kutsvene...

“Ziva,” akandiudza kudaro, “kuti ndini ndiripo uye ndinogona kuita zvose: zvimwe zvose hazvisi chinhu uye hazvigoni kuita chinhu kunze kwokurayira kwangu kana mvumo yangu. Naizvozvo, mwanasikana wangu, kuvapo kwangu kwakaringana newe; uye apo mufurati mauri aizozadzwa Zvitunha kana madhimoni, apo simba rose infernal aizobatana kukuvhundutsa ane chiuru stratagems, zvose izvi hazvifaniri kunyange kukwezva pfungwa dzako, kana uchifunga nezvangu uye iwe  kutaura  . »

Ndizvo zvakaita, Baba vangu, kuti husiku hunokatyamadza hwakapfuura, hunova hwenguva huru maererano neni. Maawa aifamba nokukurumidza, uye handina kumbonzwa kufinhwa kana kurara. Pfungwa dzangu dzaive dzakabatikana zvekuti....

Ndakanga ndazvipirawo kumutsa masister mukwaya yematinji; izvo zvandakaita pakati pousiku, ndikadzokera kunzvimbo yangu, ndisina kuisiya kusvikira ndatsiviwa neimwe… Zvino ndakabvunza Mwari nehana yangu, ndikatenda kuti, dambudziko rangu rakanga rapfuura, basa rangu nomunyengetero wangu uri. ndapedza, zvino ndaigona kuenda kumudziyo wandakanga ndatanga kunzwa ruzha rwakawanda kudaro, uye umo zvinhu zvose zvinofanira kunge zvakapwanyika nokupidiguka nokuputsika nokuzunguzika kwakanga kwaitika ipapo. Saka ndakaendako nekenduru rangu, kuti ndione kuti kukuvara kwacho kwakasanganisirei, uye ndakaziva mariri unyengeri hwababa venhema. Hazvinei kuti ndaitaridzika sei nechiedza changu, hapana chandakaona chakakanganisika kana kukuvadzwa ipapo, kana mamwe mavhasi asina kusimba, ayo

Ndichinamata muchitokisi chedu, mukati memukati ndakarohwa nechiedza chaipenya, chandakanga ndichiri kuona mushakabvu wedu waaida, uyo aiita seaitaura mashoko eruzvidzo kwandiri: Wakanganwa here, hanzvadzi yangu, nyasha dzawakaita naMwari  ?  ? Zvakare

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nhasi wadzokera mukukanganisa kwaakange akurudzira zvakanyanya kwauri  kuti udzivise  !. Iwe haushande zvakakwana pazviri; hautarisi  _

pfungwa nekuzvitarisira zvakakwana pauri iwe; unova munhu asingaongi uye asina kutendeka kuna Mwari, unofanira kutya zvinozoitika. Funga, hanzvadzi yangu, pamusoro penyasha dzawakapiwa naMwari, uye nemhosva yaunayo kwaari nokuda kwavo. Rangarira, pakati pezvimwe zvinhu, izvo zvaakakuzivisa zvakare nguva pfupi yadarika, uye yambiro yerudo yaakakupa pane zvese zvine chekuita nemukati mako uye nekukanganisa kwakajairika kwauri ...

Hanzvadzi yangu, akaenderera mberi achiti, waive nerudo rwekundinamatira, uye uchitevera kufemerwa naMwari, wakaita kwandiri, pane imwe chirairo chako, chibvumirano chezvose zvakanaka zvawakakwanisa kuita muhupenyu hwako hwese: huya, Hanzvadzi yangu inodiwa, kuzokutendai nazvo. Ziva kuti JC, uyo akazvifuridzira mukuda kwangu, akazviwana zvichifadza kwazvo. Imhaka yebasa iri rakanaka retsitsi dzechiKristu kuti wakagamuchira nyasha dzese uye

ruzivo rwakataurirwa kwamuri usiku hwamakatarisa nomuviri wangu; uye zviriwo mukucherechedza kubatsirwa kwakafanana, kuti ini ndinouya panzvimbo yeJC kuzokuyambirai nerudo kuti mushande zvakanyanya kuti muzvichenese uye muzvichenese zvakanyanya, kuti murege kukuvadzwa uye nekuipa kwaizotevera kuregeredza kwenyu uye kurangwa  . Kusatenda kwenyu, Baba vangu, kunyange ndakanga ndisati ndambokuudzai  izvozvo

hakasi kekutanga kuti ndive nezviratidzo zvakadai kubva kune vedu vakafa, avo vanogara vachitaura neni nenzira imwe chete, zvichida kukumbira minamato, kana kundipa yambiro pamusoro pangu kana kune vamwe ...

Musengwa wakakomba zvikuru wavanhu vakatsaurwa kuna Mwari, kuvavarira kukwana. Kusatendeka kwavo, kwakakomba kupfuura kwemweya yakajairika, kunewo mhedzisiro yakaipisisa.

Zvatataura, Baba, zvekuoma kwepurigatori, maererano nezvikanganiso zvidiki, kunyanya zvemasisita, zvicharatidzika kuva zvisingashamisi; zvakare, kana tikafunga zvinodiwa nemamiriro ekukwana kwevanhu vakatsaurwa kuna Mwari kwavari. Nokuti kana vose vachibvumirana nazvo, kururamisira kwake kwakaoma kwazvo kumutendi asina kudzidza; kana kutonga kwake kwakaipa kwazvo kuvanhu vose zvavose, kuchavei kune vanhu vakazvisunga vamene kukuvimbika kukuru, uye avo, nechimiro chemhiko dzavakawedzera kune idzo dzerubhabhatidzo, vanodanwa kuutsvene hukuru. , uye inobatisisa zvakanyanya nzira dzese dzekuiwana; sezvo nzira idzi dziri nyaya yezvido zvavo?

Vanhu, zvikurukuru, vakabvumira musengwa wokurerekera nomutoo usingaregi kuuku kukwana kwakapikirwa, uye kuti pasi pechirango chechivi chitsva, kusava nehanya kwavo kungapembererwa here? Humbwende hwavo, kudziya kwavo kungava kusina mhosva here, chero bedzi kuri kwokuzvidira? Kusatendeka kwavo kuchave-

vaiona neziso rimwe chete nekusatendeka kwevanhuwo zvavo? Kwete, zvirokwazvo, Baba vangu, Mwari ane godo kupfuura moyo tsvene kwaari; uye kana chibayiro ichi chichimufadza, kusatendeka kunotonyanya kumufadza. Akaita kuti ndione uye ndinzwisise kuti muzvinhu zvakawanda icho chinongova kusakwana, kana kuti chikanganiso chiduku, muvanhu venyika, chinova chikuru muna sisita kana muprista, nokuda

kunaka kwemhiko dzavo, kwechiremerera chebasa ravo, uye nepamusoro pehunhu hwese hunopfekwa nahwo nevapristi; izvo zvinowedzera kukura kwechikanganiso, kunyanya kana paine chinonyadzisa. Saka hapana chidiki, hapana chidiki kwavari, semhosva kuna Mwari. Mifungo, mashoko, zviito, zvinosiiwa,

vavariro, zvishuvo kunyange muzvinhu zvakapfava, zvinhu zvose zvinoverengwa, zvinoyerwa, zvakakamurwa; nokuti mavari zvinhu zvose zvinotakura hunhu hwesimba rinokwevera zvinhu pasi....

Zvisinei, Baba vangu, zvikanganiso zvingani zvisingatsvedzeri muzviito zvedu zvezuva nezuva, ndingangoti muzviito zvakanakisisa zveVatendi, dai ndisina kudziviswa neruremekedzo rwandinarwo  kwavari  ! Ndiani  asingazive

Musikirwo unowanikwa zviri nyore sei muzvinhu zvose, uye munhu ane ungwaru sei  mukuzvinyengera  ! Mangani zviito zvisina maturo uye  zvisina maturo

mhoro, yakaitwa chete nenzira yekuwana, netsika kana tsika, nekwakanaka, nemafaro kana nhandaro, kana nekufarira, pasina chimwe chinangwa kunze kwemaonero emunhu chete, asina hukama naMwari!

Zvese izvi zvinogona kunge zvisingaite mumweya wakajairika, asi kwete mumweya unofanirwa kubatanidza zvese kuna Mwari, kuita chete nemusimboti werudo rwake, muchidimbu rarama nokutenda chete, uye izvo, zvakanyanya sezvinobvira kune utera hwevanhu. , akaedza kufadza Mwari muzvinhu zvose uye kusamufadza pasina: nokuti, pakupedzisira, kana chikonzero choga chinokuita kuti uve musengwa kuti munhu nguva dzose aite nokuda kwemugumo une mufungo, wakatendeseka uye wakafanirwa naye, kana kunaka kwomuKristu kuchirayira. zvikuru kuti aite nevavariro yokutenda, nepaari maari, haangarevi chinhu here? Hey! chii chaizoreva iyi vimbiso yakaisvonaka kuna Mwari, yokumbundikira akakwana zvikuru nguva dzose, uye, chii chinogona kuva chinomufadza zvikurusa, kukombamira nguva dzose kukukwana? Kukwana kwaizowanikwa here

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mukusava nehanya? Ko uyo akakwana zvikuru uye anofadza zvikuru kuna Mwari angawanwa muchiito chaizova chisina ukama naye, uye icho chaisazonangidzirwa kwaari munzira ipi neipi here?....

Ngatifungei nezvazvo...

Naizvozvo ngatipedzei, Baba vangu, kuti chiito chipi nechipi chokusaitira hanya, uye icho munhu asingawedzeri chinangwa chakanaka kana chakaipa, chipi nechipi chisina maturo chinodanwa nenzira yakakodzera, pakupedzisira zvose izvo munhu haana chokuita naMwari, munzira ipi neipi ipi zvayo, zviri zvishoma, munhu akadaro, kusakwana, uye naizvozvo kukanganisa kwemhiko yake yekuedza muzvinhu zvose kuti zvive zvakakwana. Naizvozvo hapagoni kuva nechiito chokusakendenga, zvikuru kwaari, sezvo kusakendenga pachakwo kuchikwana kumuita kuti ave nemhosva....

Murwi wakadini wekusakwana, zvigumbu nezvikanganiso, mushure memakore mazhinji zvisina utachiona hwekufambira mberi, zvisingabatsiri pakukwana kwatakapika.

!... Nekuti zvese zvakaverengerwa.....

Inguva yakadini, naizvozvo, yokupfuura mupurigatori kubhadhara zvikwereti zvenguva yose iyi yakarasika!... Chokwadi, zvinoita kuti  munhu adedere. THE

Kutonga kwaMwari kunotyisa kumunhu wese, pasina kunze, uye zvinosuruvarisa kuti hatizvifungi  nezvazvo  Tinoziva kuti zvinhu zvose zvichaverengwa uye  isu

iyo account inowedzera mazuva ese:  hupofu hupi  !. Asi  kwete-

mumwe chete anotadza nokusakwana, mupfungwa yatataura, mumwe achiri kuwedzera zvikanganiso zvakanaka kwazviri, uye kuti kunyange muzviito zvakanakisisa.

Chinhu chipi nechipi chinoitwa netsika chete, neruremekedzo rwevanhu, nekutsamwa, pasina maturo  , nokudada, zvisinei kuti chakanaka uye chinorumbidzwa sei machiri, chinova chinoshurikidzwa, uye chinofanira kurangwa nokuda kwechikonzero chinochikonzera. 'yakagadzirwa. Kusakendenga kupi nokupi, kurasikirwa kupi nokupi kwokuzviremekedza, kuvenga muvakidzani kupi nokupi, kushaikwa kupi nokupi kwounyoro, mwoyo murefu, rudo, kuzvininipisa, chishuvo chipi nechipi chakavanzika chokufadza nokukwezva rumbidzo, ndizvo zvakawanda  zvinovavarirwa navanhu  izvo 

kusvibisa uye kukanganisa zviito zvedu zvakanakisisa zvakakwana kana muchidimbu, uye kutiita kuti tive nemhosva dzakawanda kana zvishoma, nokuti hazvifadzi Mwari, nekumunyima zvakanyanya kana zvishoma mwoyo unova wake wose, uye nekukodzera kwechiito icho chiri chose. zvake. Aya mavara mazhinji chaiwo anogara achikuvadza kuchena kwechimiro chake sekupfava kwerudo  rwake  . Hongu, ndizvo a

kusaonga kunonyanya kumunzwira tsitsi, mukuti anosunda ushingi kusvika pakuita nharo naye uye kumutorera chikamu chekubwinya kwaane godo, uye kunova kwake chete  .  kunyanya  mu

mweya yaakanyatsonyevera nezvenyasha dzake dzechiratidzo, uye kuti inofanira kuita marii sei mupurigatori!...

Kana iri mweya yenyama uye yakapfava, iyo, ichitevera chete mafambiro echisikigo, isingarambi ivo pachavo kugutsikana kunobvumidzwa; ivo, vasingashande pakukwana kwavo, vasingazivi kuzvipikisa, kuzvidzora, kana kuzviomesera pachinhu chimwe; Ndinoona muna Mwari kuti vanhu ava vari kuunganidza pfuma yezvikwereti zvisingaonekwi, pasi pehuremu hwacho rimwe zuva vachagomera zvinorwadza, kana vakasangwarira. Asi izvozvo hazvisati zviri izvo zvinouraya zvikuru kana kuti zvinonyanyofanira kutyiwa nokuda kwavo; nokuda kwehupenyu hwavo hwechisikigo chose, vakanyudzwa chose mumifungo, nokuvanyima nyasha dzinodikanwa zvikuru mumamiriro ezvinhu akaoma, zvinovatungamirira nenzira isingaoneki kubva kuzvikanganiso zvidiki kuenda kuzvikuru zvikuru, kubva kuzvivi zvinouraya kusvika kune zvinofa. Ndiyo yakajairika giredisheni, uye kazhinji kazhinji nzira kubva kune imwe kuenda

Zvino, ndinokubvunzai, Baba vangu, hazvityisi here?

Hakufaniri kutyiwa here kuti mweya wakanyengerwa kudaro, uye uyo, wakafa sezvauri, unozvitenda umene uchiri mupenyu, uchapfuura, usingazvizivi, kubva kuchivi chinofa uchienda kutsika, tsika kuenda kuupofu, kubva paupofu kuenda mukuoma, kubva mukuoma kuenda kutadza kwekupedzisira uye kurambwa; nokuti zvakadaro, ndinodzokorora, nzira yakajairika yemweya wechimiro ichi. Zviri, zvakare, nekupedza zvinouraya uku kuti anopedzisa kurasikirwa kwake kusingaperi uye kuti anosvika pakakwirira yenhamo....

Chii chinokonzera? Unozviona here; kazhinji zvinoita senge pasina ...

Akatonhora kuna Mwari, sezvatakataura; Mhosva yake ndeiyi: Mwari akamuitira chando; uku ndiko kurangwa kwake. Hey! chirango  chakadini  ! mwari  anazvo

akasiiwa paakamusiya; chirango  chakadini  ! Zvingadaro here

kuti ndiwo mugumisiro usingadzivisiki wetsika isina kana tsotsi kana ukangoona?

Hungu, Baba vangu, hungu, ndinoona kururamisira kwoumwari kuchigadzirira kaviri mbwende yaavo vasina kutendeka kumhiko dzavakaita kwavari kuti vamushumire nokushingaira nembavarira. Anobvisa zviedza zvake nenyasha dzake kubva kwavari, ovabvumira kuti vawire muzvikanganiso zvakavanzika, dzimwe nguva kunyange zvepachena, izvo zvinonyadzisa vakatendeka, zvinozunguza kutenda kwevasina maturo, uye zvinokuvadza zvikuru Chechi yaJ. C. zvokuti ivo vamwe. zvekusuwa kwake kukuru. Nokuti, kuparadzwa kwakadini

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pamusoro pake, uye denda rakaipisisa sei panyika yose, kuona kuti vanhu vakakumikidzwa kuna Mwari, uye avo, nokuda kwokuzvipira kwavo, vaizova mwenje nezvitsigiro zvokutenda, kuti ndivaone, vave matombo anogumbura  . block kune avo vavaifanira kutwasanudza,  kutsigira,  kuvhenekera. ;  ye

kuvaona neumbwende vachisiya bato rechokwadi, vachinyadzisa chikonzero cheJC uye vachipa mukupesana, kutsauka uye bato rekukanganisa; uye kuti zvakare, mukupesana nefariro yeHurumende, inzwi rehana norukudzo, chiedza chendangariro yakanaka noufakazi pachahwo: ikoko kunobvira chaizvoizvo here? Hongu, zvakare, uye zvese izvi zvinogona kunge zvakatangira  mukati

kudziya uye nezvikanganiso zvidiki zvevanhu vakakumikidzwa  kuna  Mwari O  izvozvo

kudziya uku kunorangwa nenzira inotyisa! uye vakanga vasingagoni kuona

zvikanganiso zvidiki chete, kana munhu akazvifunga kubva pamaonero echokwadi anoenderana nazvo?...

Zvose zvandinokuudzai Baba Mwari vakaita kuti ndizvione uye vandiita kuti ndizvishandise pane zviri kuitika, maiwe! pasi pemaziso edu. Nokudaro kurasikirwa nechitendero nematunhu, matambudziko anotyisa aMwari, njodzi hurusa dzinogona kuva uye kazhinji kazhinji dzinokonzerwa noupenyu hunodziya uye idzi dzinonzi zvikanganiso zvakapfava, izvo izvi zvirango zvine ngwavaira zvakadaro chirango chakarurama. . Hezvino, zvino, zvinonzi minutiae, scruples, trifles; denga rakanaka! zvidiki sei! uye sei mukati

Ko munhu angapa mutongo wakadaro here?... Humbwende hunotanga uipi, kusanamata kunohupedza: kana mutungamiri abatwa, zvakaipa zvinokurumidza kukunda kwose kwose; tinongoona humbowo hwakawanda kwazvo.

Pfungwa yakarurama yokuti tinofanira kuva noutera hwevanhu uye kunaka kwaMwari. Musiyano pakati pezvikanganiso zve fragility kana kushamisika, uye izvo zvekuipa kana tsika.

Zvisinei, ngatirege kudarika, uye ngatichenjererei kuti tisabvisa kunaka netsitsi dzaMwari kuti tipe zvakanyanyisa kururamisa kwake; sezviri pachena kunenge kuri kuwira mugomba rakadzika-dzika kuda kunzvenga rimwe, uye handicho chinangwa changu. Handidi, nekusanzwisisa, kana nekutya kukuru, kuzunungusa kuvimba kwakarurama kwevakatendeka vechokwadi mutsitsi dzaIshe. Mwari ngaandidzivise kuti ndimbofuridzira kuora mwoyo mumweya yekuda  kwakanaka  ! Asi, ndinoda kufadza mavari  mutsvene uyu

chivimbo, chinova chibereko chekutendeka muzvinhu zviduku; uye nokuda kwaizvozvo, ndinoda kuti nekutya kwakanaka vatsauke zvakaenzana kubva pakusavimba nekufungidzira; the happy medium is the only bato pakati pezviviri zvakawandisa zvinofanirwa kutyiwa.

Saka ndinozvibvuma, Baba vangu, maKristu nevatsvene ivo vanhu, uye, shure kwezvose, chimwe chinhu chinofanira kupihwa kuvanhu, ndinoreva kune utera hwevanhu. Pamwe hongu ; asi zvakafanirawo kusiyanisa zvikanganiso zvehutete hwakachena hunonzvenga zvakakwana, zvikanganiso zveruvengo, uye kunyangwe zvikanganiso zvekushaya hanya izvo mweya inodziya inozadzwa nazvo. Izvo zvinodikanwa kusiyanisa zvivi zvenyama kubva mutsika yezvivi zvenyama Mhosho dzenguva pfupi dzatinotendeuka, uye dzatinoshandira  .

akanaka pakuzviruramisa, anokanganwirwa zviri nyore; Aya ndiwo mapopoma ekuti munhu anoita kazana pazuva, kana uchida, asiwo kubva kune anopora kakawanda; uye ndinotsunga kutaura kuti chero chitadzo icho munhu anopfidza nemoyo wose, kunyange chiri chikuru, hachigoni kuva nemigumisiro yakaipa yeruponeso,

sezvo, pane zvinopesana, inoshanda sechidziviriro kuburikidza nekuita zvakanyanya kuchenjerera kune ramangwana avo kwayakapa ruzivo rwehutete hwayo.

Asi, Baba vangu, hazvina kudaro netsika yekukanganisa kwenyama, uye izvi ndizvo zvinofanira kungwarirwa nemunhu zvakanyanya. Kuzviganhurira kune kusunungurwa kubva muutsotsi uye kuramba uchiita seusina hanya nehukuru kana kushoma kwekukwana, kuzviita iwe pachako, sechirongwa chehupenyu, kugara uchinge uchinge uchinge uchinge uchinge uchinge uchinge uchinge uchinge uchinge uchitya, inzvimbo isingashivirirwe nemeso. kuzvidza kwapamutemo nyasha dzake, kudziya uko Mwari anotyisidzira kurutsa kubva mumuromo make, somunhu anorutsa chinwiwa chinosemesa icho munhu anonzwa mwoyo wake uchiremerwa nacho; uye sezvazvinosemesa uye zvisingawanzoitiki zvokuti munhu anombotorazve zvaakanga arutsa, zvinototevera, kunyange zvishoma, kuti kugara uchidziya kune ngozi zvikuru kuruponeso, uye chokwadi chinotyisa ichi chinofanira kuita kuti vanopfuura mumwe vadedere. mufunge...

Kutaura shoko risingabatsiri kana diki diki remahara kunze kwekupokana kana manyepo achipesana nerudo kana chero humwe hunhu imhosva iyo fungidziro inogadzirisa nguva inotevera; asi kuzvijairira, nemaune, uye nekunyepedzera kufadza, kugara uye pasina kuzvidemba kutaura mashoko akasununguka uye anopesana neumwari, rudo, kana kuzvininipisa, chinhu chakasiyana kwazvo; uye kunyange kudai mashoko ose aya okuchera kana kuti ounzenza akanga ari matiri pachawo ane mhosva zvishoma, izvozvo zvaisazodzivisa muitiro wacho kuva wakashata zvikuru, kufumura ruponeso kungozi yakakomba zvikuru. Ndizvo zvakaitawo zvishuwo, pfungwa, kusiiwa, nezvimwe.

Kusiya basa diki rebasa rakanaka kungangova kukanganisa kushoma; asi kuzvijairira pasina kuzvidemba pakusiya zvinenge zvese zvisingaite sezvisingakoshi kugadzirira

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pakusiiwa kwezvinonyanya kukosha uye zvinogadzirisa pfungwa maererano neruponeso; uye chikonzero cheizvi ndechekuti, nemhedzisiro yemusikirwo, chimiro chakashata ichi, nekugara tichideredza masimba edu emweya, chinotiswededza pedyo nemhosva yekupara mhosva muchiyero sezvo ichitiita kusatendeka kunyasha dzataive nadzo dzekutiponesa kubva mairi. . Nyasha dzakazvidzwa nokumhurwa dzinobva; hunhu hunowedzera kusimba sezvo Mwari anotirasa,

uye mhosva dzinenge dzakakura nguva dzose dzinotevera zvikanganiso zvidiki.

Handizivi, Baba, kuti vanhu vachatora sei hunhu hwangu; asi zvinoratidzika kwandiri kuti izvi ndizvo chaizvo zvinorehwa neJC yakaita kuti ndione panguva yeusiku hwandakataura newe. Ndiko kuregeredza kwakatukwa uku kunotungamira mweya mizhinji kupurigatori uye kunoita kuti vatambure ikoko marwadzo akareba uye ane utsinye; kungofara zvikuru kana asina kumbodziendesa kune imwe nzvimbo! Asi zvinosuruvarisa! ndiye zvakare uyo, sezvatataura, gehena remarudzi nevarashika vane kurambwa kwaanotanga nekupedzisa.

Hongu, nekuti isu hatigone kuzvidzokorora kazhinji, zviri kuburikidza nekukanganisa kudiki, kusatendeka kwezuva nezuva, kuti tinojairana nehutsotsi uye kuti pakupedzisira tinokwanisa kumedza kusarurama semvura ...

Kubva pane izvi zvose, Baba vangu, vakatendeka vechokwadi, kunyanya avo vakatsaurirwa kuna Mwari neimwe nzira inokosha, vanofanira kugumisa uye vanofanira kunzwisisa kuti zvakakosha sei kuti vagare vachishandiswa pakurwa zvisikwa, kutarisira zvose zvavo uye zvose. pfungwa, kuti vabatanidze chinhu chiri chose kuna Mwari, nepose pavanogona napo mutsika kwavari, uye kuita mabasa avo ose enguva dzose nokuchena kukuru kwevavariro yavanogona kuita somunhu yokuita joko rakanaka, uye yokukwana kurwadzisa kwoupenyu hwechiKristu. : zvakakosha, zvakanyanya sezvinobvira, kudzivisa zvose zvakanyanyisa ... Kana zvinopikisa kuti zvinodhura zvakanyanya kutarisira zvakanyanya uye kuita mhirizhonga yakawanda, ini ndichapindura: asi ndiwo mutemo uye mamiriro acho. Saka, zvingave zvichidhura zvishoma kana zvakawanda, handizvo zvazvinoreva maererano nemuKristu anoshandisa pfungwa yake uye kutenda kwake kuti ave nechokwadi chekuponeswa kwake. Zvinodhura zvakawanda, ndinobvuma kana muchida; asi izvi zvishoma zvikuru kana zvichienzaniswa neimwe nzira isingadzivisiki, inova mugumisiro womufambiro wedu muna ikoku, sezvo, munhevedzanowo zvayo yezvinhu, denga kana kuti gehena rinotsamira pazviri nokuda kwomumwe nomumwe wedu. Pakupedzisira, zvinodhura zvakawanda; asi zvinodhura zvakanyanya kurasikirwa nezvinhu zvisingaperi uye zvekusingaperi uye kutambura marwadzo asingazoperi. Iyi ndiyo pfungwa yakakosha iyo vamwe vese vanofanirwa kutongwa uye kufungidzirwa. Mutemo usingachinjiki unechekuita nawo zvese ibhizimusi rakaenzana, iro chete bhizinesi iro munhu anofanira kuzvinetsa naro. izvi hazvisi izvo zviri maererano nemuKristu anoshandisa pfungwa yake uye kutenda kwake kuti ave nechokwadi chekuponeswa kwake. Zvinodhura zvakawanda, ndinobvuma kana muchida; asi izvi zvishoma zvikuru kana zvichienzaniswa neimwe nzira isingadzivisiki, inova mugumisiro womufambiro wedu muna ikoku, sezvo, munhevedzanowo zvayo yezvinhu, denga kana kuti gehena rinotsamira pazviri nokuda kwomumwe nomumwe wedu. Pakupedzisira, zvinodhura zvakawanda; asi zvinodhura zvakanyanya kurasikirwa nezvinhu zvisingaperi uye zvekusingaperi uye kutambura marwadzo asingazoperi. Iyi ndiyo pfungwa yakakosha iyo vamwe vese vanofanirwa kutongwa uye kufungidzirwa. Mutemo usingachinjiki unechekuita nawo zvese ibhizimusi rakaenzana, iro chete bhizinesi iro munhu anofanira kuzvinetsa naro. izvi hazvisi izvo zviri maererano nemuKristu anoshandisa pfungwa yake uye kutenda kwake kuti ave nechokwadi chekuponeswa kwake. Zvinodhura zvakawanda, ndinobvuma kana muchida; asi izvi zvishoma zvikuru kana zvichienzaniswa neimwe nzira isingadzivisiki, inova mugumisiro womufambiro wedu muna ikoku, sezvo, munhevedzanowo zvayo yezvinhu, denga kana kuti gehena rinotsamira pazviri nokuda kwomumwe nomumwe wedu. Pakupedzisira, zvinodhura zvakawanda; asi zvinodhura zvakanyanya kurasikirwa nezvinhu zvisingaperi uye zvekusingaperi uye kutambura marwadzo asingazoperi. Iyi ndiyo pfungwa yakakosha iyo vamwe vese vanofanirwa kutongwa uye kufungidzirwa. Mutemo usingachinjiki unechekuita nawo zvese ibhizimusi rakaenzana, iro chete bhizinesi iro munhu anofanira kuzvinetsa naro. anoita maererano nemuKristu anoshandisa pfungwa dzake uye kutenda kwake kuti ave nechokwadi chekuponeswa kwake. Zvinodhura zvakawanda, ndinobvuma kana muchida; asi izvi zvishoma zvikuru kana zvichienzaniswa neimwe nzira isingadzivisiki, inova mugumisiro womufambiro wedu muna ikoku, sezvo, munhevedzanowo zvayo yezvinhu, denga kana kuti gehena rinotsamira pazviri nokuda kwomumwe nomumwe wedu. Pakupedzisira, zvinodhura zvakawanda; asi zvinodhura zvakanyanya kurasikirwa nezvinhu zvisingaperi uye zvekusingaperi uye kutambura marwadzo asingazoperi. Iyi ndiyo pfungwa yakakosha iyo vamwe vese vanofanirwa kutongwa uye kufungidzirwa. Mutemo usingachinjiki unechekuita nawo zvese ibhizimusi par kugona, iro chete bhizinesi iro munhu anofanira kuzvinetsa naro. anoita maererano nemuKristu anoshandisa pfungwa dzake uye kutenda kwake kuti ave nechokwadi chekuponeswa kwake. Zvinodhura zvakawanda, ndinobvuma kana muchida; asi izvi zvishoma zvikuru kana zvichienzaniswa neimwe nzira isingadzivisiki, inova mugumisiro womufambiro wedu muna ikoku, sezvo, munhevedzanowo zvayo yezvinhu, denga kana kuti gehena rinotsamira pazviri nokuda kwomumwe nomumwe wedu. Pakupedzisira, zvinodhura zvakawanda; asi zvinodhura zvakanyanya kurasikirwa nezvinhu zvisingaperi uye zvekusingaperi uye kutambura marwadzo asingazoperi. Iyi ndiyo pfungwa yakakosha iyo vamwe vese vanofanirwa kutongwa uye kufungidzirwa. Mutemo usingachinjiki unechekuita nawo zvese ibhizimusi rakaenzana, iro chete bhizinesi iro munhu anofanira kuzvinetsa naro. Ndichabvuma kana muchida; asi izvi zvishoma zvikuru kana zvichienzaniswa neimwe nzira isingadzivisiki, inova mugumisiro womufambiro wedu muna ikoku, sezvo, munhevedzanowo zvayo yezvinhu, denga kana kuti gehena rinotsamira pazviri nokuda kwomumwe nomumwe wedu. Pakupedzisira, zvinodhura zvakawanda; asi zvinodhura zvakanyanya kurasikirwa nezvinhu zvisingaperi uye zvekusingaperi uye kutambura marwadzo asingazoperi. Iyi ndiyo pfungwa yakakosha iyo vamwe vese vanofanirwa kutongwa uye kufungidzirwa. Mutemo usingachinjiki unechekuita nawo zvese ibhizimusi rakaenzana, iro chete bhizinesi iro munhu anofanira kuzvinetsa naro. Ndichabvuma kana muchida; asi izvi zvishoma zvikuru kana zvichienzaniswa neimwe nzira isingadzivisiki, inova mugumisiro womufambiro wedu muna ikoku, sezvo, munhevedzanowo zvayo yezvinhu, denga kana kuti gehena rinotsamira pazviri nokuda kwomumwe nomumwe wedu. Pakupedzisira, zvinodhura zvakawanda; asi zvinodhura zvakanyanya kurasikirwa nezvinhu zvisingaperi uye zvekusingaperi uye kutambura marwadzo asingazoperi. Iyi ndiyo pfungwa yakakosha iyo vamwe vese vanofanirwa kutongwa uye kufungidzirwa. Mutemo usingachinjiki unechekuita nawo zvese ibhizimusi rakaenzana, iro chete bhizinesi iro munhu anofanira kuzvinetsa naro. kurongeka kwezvinhu, denga kana gehena kunotsamira pazviri kune mumwe nemumwe wedu. Pakupedzisira, zvinodhura zvakawanda; asi zvinodhura zvakanyanya kurasikirwa nezvinhu zvisingaperi uye zvekusingaperi uye kutambura marwadzo asingazoperi. Iyi ndiyo pfungwa yakakosha iyo vamwe vese vanofanirwa kutongwa uye kufungidzirwa. Mutemo usingachinjiki unechekuita nawo zvese ibhizimusi rakaenzana, iro chete bhizinesi iro munhu anofanira kuzvinetsa naro. kurongeka kwezvinhu, denga kana gehena kunotsamira pazviri kune mumwe nemumwe wedu. Pakupedzisira, zvinodhura zvakawanda; asi zvinodhura zvakanyanya kurasikirwa nezvinhu zvisingaperi uye zvekusingaperi uye kutambura marwadzo asingazoperi. Iyi ndiyo pfungwa yakakosha iyo vamwe vese vanofanirwa kutongwa uye kufungidzirwa. Mutemo usingachinjiki unechekuita nawo zvese ibhizimusi rakaenzana, iro chete bhizinesi iro munhu anofanira kuzvinetsa naro.

CHIKAMU VI.

Nei kuine zvitendero zvenhema zvakawanda uye zvinhu zvinonyadzisa munyika. Kupofumadzwa Kwemaune kwevasingadi Mwari, uye Kurangwa Kwavo.

Mwari zvino vanoda, Baba, kuti ndigogoverana nemi zvavakataura kwandiri panguva yekuverenga iyo yaitaura nezvekutambudzwa kweChechi. Kuverenga uku kwakaita kuti ndiite fungidziro dzakakomba pazvinhu zvenguva iyoyo. Kufunga uku kwakandipa kusuwa kukuru, zvekuti ndinenge ndakatsamwa, ndisingazivi kuti ndiani,  kana  kuti sei Mwari wangu  aitaura.

Ini mukusuwa kwangu, sei muchitambura kuzhinji uku kwezvikanganiso, zvezvisina maturo, zvedzidziso dzinoshamisa uye dzinopokanidzana idzo nyika yakazadzwa nadzo, pakupedzisira dzamasekete enhema, ayo anokuvadza zvokwadi yokunamata kwechokwadi, iyo inozvidza rudzidziso rwenyu rutsvene . nekuzvituka, zvitendwa zvenhema nezvinosemesa, zvinopofumadza varume, Kunyomba vasina simba nemweya yakapfava inoita kuti vavengi venyu vamhure, vanotora mukana wekuvhiringa zvese, kurwisa zvese nekuramba zvese?...

Sezvo kunongova naMwari mumwe chete, ndinofunga kuti panofanira kuva nechitendero chimwe chete; uye sezvo kuine JC mumwechete, panofanirawo kuva neChechi imwe chete pasi pano; nokuti chokwadi hachizvipikisi: vamwe vose naizvozvo vanofanira kuparadzwa, kupa rukudzo kukubatana kwaMwari maererano nechokwadi cheshoko rake. Ipapo hapangazovi nekukakavadzana, kana chikonzero chekusanzwisisa; paisazova nechikonzero chekuda zvakaipa; mutemo mutsvene weEvhangeri chete waizoteverwa, JC oga aizozivikanwa uye anonamatwa; taisazoona Chechi kunze kweiyo yaakamisa, uye yaisazova nemukwikwidzi; nevanoinzi vane ndangariro dzakasimba vakasashandisa, sezvavanoita, kupesana uku kunonyadzisa; Isu

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yakagamuchirwa kubva kuvaApostora netsika yenguva dzose...

Nepo, kuisa vasina umwari pakutongwa, ndakaita sokunyunyuta pamusoro paMwari amene, JC akaita kuti ndinzwe inzwi rake mukati mangu: “Zvose zvaunofunga ndezvechokwadi mupfungwa yokuti unorevesa,” akadaro kwandiri; asi hamuzivi murangariro womufambiro wangu, namatsime ezvandakachengeta. Unoda kuti ndibvise zvinonyadzisa zvose, zvitendwa zvose zvenhema, zvitendero zvose zvenhema, mapoka ose anopa mumvuri kuChechi yangu uye anozvidza chokwadi chechitendero chimwe chete chandakamisa; sezvingave zvakafanira, mwanasikana wangu, kuti ndimise chivi, chinova chiri chekutanga uye chinogara chichimuka kubva kune nyonganiso dzese, huipi hwega munyika, muvengi wega werudzi rwevanhu uye naMwari pachake.

Frank arbiter of man. Rusununguko rwake rwekusarudza pakati pechakanaka nechakaipa.

Zivai ipapo, akapfuurira, kuti munhau dzorudzidziso, somunhau dzetsika, rusununguko rwokuzvisarudzira rwomumwe nomumwe runofanira kuitika. Munhu anofanira kuva akasununguka kusarudza pakati pezvakanaka nezvakaipa; kunze kwacho ndaisagona kushandisa kunaka kwangu kana kururama kwangu; uye chikonzero chacho chiri nyore: dai munhu akanga asina kusununguka muzviito zvake, haaizokodzera kana kukanganiswa; saka kwaisazova nekurangwa kwekutya kana mibairo yekutarisira.

Kunze kwezvo, chiridzwa chisingaiti chinhu hachigoni kundikudza chinondikudza; kunamatwa kwake kwaisazondikodzera.

Saizvozvowo, kudai kwaiva nechitendero chimwe chete chaizivikanwa nenyika yose, chii chingava chakanaka pakuchitevera, apo pakanga pasina sarudzo yaifanira kuitwa, uye munhu aisagona kuzvibata neimwe nzira?... Kudai vanhu vakanga vasina kusununguka kutadza; chii chavaizofanira kuzvinyima nacho?... Vasina kuchiva uye nemiedzo, mamiriro avo pasi pano aizova evatsvene vari Kudenga, mamiriro eruramisiro uye kwete emiedzo, uye achine kururamisira kusina kunaka sezvakwaizova. zvisingabvumirwi: saka munhu haakwanisi, sezvamunoona, kubvisa chivi uye kubvisa uipi kubva panyika, pasina kubvisa mukati panguva imwe chete rusununguko rwemunhu, runonyangadza kune unhu hwangu pamwe chete nezvido zvechisikwa changu, uye hachikwanisi. rarama nehurongwa hwakagadzwa; nekuda kwekutarisira kwangu ndakaraira zvimwe.

Zvinoenderana nehurongwa hwemutemo wangu usingaperi, munhu, tenzi wake chaiye, anofanira kuedzwa uye kuyedzwa kwechinguva. Izvo chete pane izvi

kunze kwekunge ndamira ndichikudzwa nekuremekedzwa kwemoyo wake nezviito zvake. Naizvozvo ndamuita ishe wekusarudza, nekuzvisarudzira iye pachake pazvinhu zvose; uye ndicho chikonzero ndakabvumira kukanganisa kunowanikwa mune zvose, sekutaura, pamwe chete nemurairo, uye kuti pane nhanho chete pakati pekusateerera nekuvimbika.

Kunaka kwaMwari munyasha uye nzira dzaanopa kumunhu kuti adzivise zvakaipa nekuita zvakanaka.

Mamiriro ezvinhu aya ekuedzwa umo munhu anozviwana aumbwa maari, mumwe anogona kutaura nenzira yakati kuti ibasa rokururamisira kwangu; asi zvakakwana kuti tsitsi dzangu dzamuwanira nzira dzose dzokunzvenga nadzo zvakaipa nekuita zvakanaka; uye ndizvo zvandakaita neruremekedzo kumunhu wese. Zuva guru rezviratidziro richaruramisa pachinhu ichi Ruponeso rwangu nemirau yangu pazvisikwa zvese zvakavepo uye zvichavepo kusvika ipapo; tichaona kuti hakuna munhu acharashika kunze kwemhosva yake; kuti pamusoro pevose, pasina kusarudzika, ndichave ndapa kupfuura zvandaifanira kupa; nekuti ndakatsvaka tsitsi kupfuura kururama; uye kuti munhu haakwanisi, pasina kumhura, kundipomera kusava nehanya, zvichiri zvishoma zvekusaruramisira kana utsinye.

Kana izvi zvikaonekwa kuti ndezvechokwadi maererano nevanhu vane utsinye nevevasingatendi pachavo, chii chichava kuvaKristu, uye kunyanya vana veChechi yangu? vacharuramisa sei mufambiro wavo, shure kwenyasha dzandakavapa uye kuti ndinoramba ndichivabvumira kuti vasiye zvakaipa uye vaite zvakanaka? Ndinovabvisa pazvivi nokuda kwokutya kurangwa; Ndinovatungamirira kuunhu nokugutsikana kunokwezva kwandinoisa kwairi, uye netariro yemibairo yandinovavimbisa; ndakauraya mukati mavo moto unoparadza; ndinorwa navo ndichizvipikisa ivo nokushuva kwavo. Ini handimbovasiire matambudziko kunze kwekunge akakwana kuti vakwanise kukunda uye vanokodzera mukurwiswa kwavanosungirwa kuchengetedza: handingoenzanisi rubatsiro kunhamba nehasha dzevavengi vavo chete, asi ndichakabata chiyero muruoko rwangu kuti ndirupe kuvanakira kwavo; ndiko kuti, kuvafarira zvikuru sezvinobvira, handimbovabvumiri kuti vaedzwe

pamusoro pesimba ravo; uye ndinoziva kutora mukana wemiyedzo yavo, kunyangwe mukuputsika kwavo, kuvaita kuti vagadzirise kukanganisa kwavo nekubudirira.

Kudikanwa kwekurwa kuti uwane kukunda.

“Dai paingova nechitendero chimwe chete panyika, munoti, vanhu vasingadi Mwari vaisakunda ruzhinji, vavengi vaMwari vaisatora mukana, sezvavanoita, kumhura zita  rake dzvene  . 

chokwadi, mwanasikana wangu; asi iti, uye uchataura zviri nani, kuti dai kwaingova nechitendero chimwe chete nevanhu vakanaka munyika, kubvira ipapo pangadai pasisina zvikanganiso kana vanhu vakaipa; hakuzovi nevakaipa kana vavengi vaMwari;  kubva ipapo zvichienda mberi, naizvozvo, zvokwadi yaisazopikiswazve, uye inokosha kwairi

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of being; vanhu vakanaka havaizotambudzwa, uye zvakadaro kuri kuburikidza neizvi chete kuti chakavanzika chekufanotemerwa kwavo chinofanira kushanda; chikonzero changu hachichagoni kukunda, uye chinofanira kugara chichikunda. Pakupedzisira, vana vangu vakatendeka havazovi nemiedzo yokutsungirira, uye havambofaniri kuishaya; nokuti, sezvandakataura, runyararo rusingashanduki haruenderani nemamiriro ezvinhu aripo, uye Murwi wangu weChechi haangagoni kuva asina kurwa.

Hongu, zvakare, zvinoda kurwa kuti uwane kukunda; unofanira kushanda uye kutambura kuti uwane mubairo. Hakuna kunaka kunze kwekunge kune miedzo, michinjikwa nemiedzo, uye zviri nani zvikuru kuti pave nemasora pakati pegorosi mumunda wababa, pane kusave nesora kana zviyo zvakanaka: handizini ndakadyara masora ipapo; asi chikamu chehurongwa hwangu kutora mukana wezviri kuitwa nemuvengi wangu ipapo pasina kubvumirana kwangu. Zvakanakisisa, muzvinhu zvose, kutambura zvinhu zvose kusvikira panguva yekukohwa, apo kuparadzaniswa kweumwe kubva kune mumwe kuchaitika. Kudai pakanga pasina zvakavanzika, ukodzera kwokutenda kwaizova kupi? uye kana zvinhu zvose zvakanga zvakajeka muchitendero, kufunga kwaizoita sei zvibayiro izvo Mwari anokumbira nezvazvo?...

Uchenjeri hwoKupa humwari, hunowanzobvumira vakarurama kutambura pano pasi uye vakaipa kuti vakunde.

Nenzira iyi, mwanasikana wangu, hazvina kuoma kwauri kuti utsanangure kusvika pamwero wakati nei vakaipa vachigara vachibudirira munyika, uye nei vakarurama vachiwanzodzvinyirirwa mairi. Kana kunaka kwaiva nechokwadi pano pasi pemubairo wahwo, uye mhosva yechirango chayo, kunze kwekuti hapaizove nekukodzera mukunzvenga chimwe kunze kwekuita chimwe, sezvo mune izvi zvese munhu aingoita nekuda kwekuzvida, munhu aigona. kugumisa kuti kwaisazova nohumwe upenyu hwokutarisira pashure porufu. Mwari, pakufunga uku, vangadai vakazvisunungura kune vese muhupenyu hwemunhu; uye munhu wose wenyika ino angadai akawana zvake.

Naizvozvo nouchenjeri hukuru kuti Tariro youmwari yakaraira neimwe nzira. Mwari anobvumira vakarurama kutambura uye vakaipa kuti vafare kwenguva yakati; uye hechino chikonzero chemufambiro wake wakanaka, izvo zvinoita kuti zvose kururamisira kwake nokunaka kwake zvishande panguva imwe chete. Muuzhinji hapana munhu, akarurama uye mutsvene, asina kana kuti asina zvikanganiso zvakawanda. ; sezvo pasina munhu akaipa kudaro, asati ane zvakanaka mune zvimwe zvinhu: zvino Mwari, uyo akanaka uye akarurama kune vose, haagoni kusiya kusatendeka nekusakwana kwevakarurama pasina chirango, sezvo haagoni kunyima vakaipa ivo pachavo. mubayiro wetsika dzakanaka dzavakashandisa. Arikuitei? Anopa mubayiro wekupedzisira munguva ino yeupenyu nebudiriro yechinguvana, kuti asava nechikwereti navo parufu; nepo, mukupesana, iye anoranga vakarurama mukati moupenyu, kuti vazviruramise vamene ndokuzvisunungura vamene kupfurikidza nokupfidza, uye kuti haana chimwezve chokukumbira kwavari parufu  .

Naizvozvo zvino unoti kune vamwe: Makarangwa nekuda kwekudarika kwenyu muupenyu, asi hamuna kupiwa mubayiro wezvakanaka zvenyu; uye kune vamwe: Iwe wakapiwa mubayiro wemabasa ako akanaka muupenyu, asi hauna kurangwa nokuda kwezvivi zvako. Ndine chikwereti saka panguva yekusingaperi mibayiro kune vamwe, uye chirango kune vamwe ... Saka, izvi zvinonyepedzera kusagadzikana izvo pfungwa dzakasimba dzakakakavadzana zvakanyanya, dzinoratidza kurongeka kwakanyanya, nekusimbisa kuvapo uye humwe hupenyu, pamwe nekusafa. yemweya, pakuvapo kwakafanira kweruramisiro yaMwari  .

Kudzokera naizvozvo kuchitendero changu chitsvene, akaenderera mberi JC, ziva, mwanasikana wangu, kuti tichave takasununguka nguva dzose kuigamuchira kana kuiramba, nokuti tichagara takasununguka kuita kana kusaita zvakanaka nezvakaipa, kuzviponesa kuti uzvirasire iwe pachako: hazviparidzirwe nechisimba chezvombo; chokwadi chiripo

inonyengetedza, asi haipindi mumoyo nechisimba; inoremekedza rusununguko rwokuzvisarudzira rwaavo vakaziviswa kwavari. Saka avo vanonyatsoda kutendeukira kwaari, handife ndakavaramba nzira dzekumuwana; Asi vaya vanoramba vachimufuratira uye vachidzivira nzeve dzavo kuinzwi rake nemwoyo yavo kune mazano enyasha dzangu, ndichavarega vachikanganisa, vasingambomanikidzi, nokuti ndinoda vana; kwete varanda vanondishumira. Ndinoda kushumirwa nekunamatwa nemoyo, pfungwa uye kuda, uye kwete nekutya kwese kwese, kunondishatirisa nekundizvidza.

Unogomera, mwanasikana wangu, kuona chitendero changu chichirwiswa nekutambudzwa kubva kumativi ose; asi hamuoni kuti ndinowana mbiri isingaperi kubva mazviri. Chishamiso chikuru uye chakajeka pane zvose, hakusi kuona

kuti chitendero ichi chinoramba chiripo uye chicharamba chiripo kusvika pakuguma kwenyika, chisingaregi kutambudzwa mukati

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uye pasina nemarudzi ose evavengi, uye kazhinji kunyange neavo vevana vake vaifarira zvikuru kumudzivirira nokumudzivirira.

Inhamo huru, pasina kupokana, kune avo vanoirwisa; asi ndiani chavanofanira kupa mhosva kunze kwavo ivo? Sei vachinyanya kushandisa zvisizvo rusununguko rwavo rwokuzvisarudzira uye zviedza zvechikonzero chavo?... Sei vachiramba umboo hwakasindimara, hunoda, nenyasha dzangu, kuzvipinza mumwoyo yavo? Vanotsvaka, vanoti, zvokwadi; hey! Seiko vasingachigamuchire kana chauya?” Vanotsvagirei nzira yokusambochiwana uye kuti vagozvipofumadza nguva dzose? Kana chiri chokwadi chinotsvakwa nemunhu, uye icho munhu achichitsvaga nekutenda kwakanaka, munhu anotanga adzokera kune kwacho, mumwe anouya kwandiri kuzochiwana, uye ipapo mumwe haadi maitiro akawanda, kana 'kuedza kusingakoshi, subtleties;

Kudada, chipingamupinyi pakuziva chokwadi ichi.

“Mushure mekudzikisa rudado rwechikonzero chakanakisa, munhu anovhura mwoyo wake kukutenda kushoko rangu, uye rutendo urwu rwunowana tariro nerudo, izvo zvinopfuvura nekusingaperi zvose zvakawanikwa zvepfungwa dzisinganzwisisiki.

» Hei! Ishe Mwari wangu, ndakachema kuna JC, sei varume ava vazivi vasingazvipi kuchiedza chemwenje uyu wekutenda, ndicho chikonzero chikuru chaunoita kuti upenye mumeso avo?... "Mwanasikana wangu," akapindura kudaro? , "vakadzidza zvakanyanya kana kuti vanodada kuti vauye kuchikoro kwangu ...

Murairo wangu mutsvene unopa huchenjeri kune vadiki uye vakazvininipisa vemoyo, avo vasingarambiki; vasina kumbodzidza nezvevanhu, zvinyorwa, kana uzivi, zvinoita kuti vazive chokwadi chose; uye hauna kuverenga here uye kudzidza kuti vanhu vemunyika diki yakanaka kazhinji vakamhanyira mukuurayirwa kutenda pamwe chete nekukunda, nepo

vanachiremba nemidzimu yepamusoro vakatengesa  chitendero chavo neumbwende  ? Zviri

kuti nerutendo wekutanga wakaziva zivo yevatsvene, iyo yoga inoita muKristu; nepo neruzivo rwavo rwese, vamwe vaive, pachinhu ichi, vasingazivi zvachose, zvakanyanya kunzwisa tsitsi sezvo vaive vawedzera kubva pakubvumirana pazviri. Vamwe vakakunda zvose, nokuti vakaisa chivimbo chavo chose mandiri; vamwe vakakundwa, nekuti vakanga vachizvivimba; apa ndipo panoperera kufungidzira. »

Kukosha kwekutenda kuziva chokwadi nekuita hunhu hwakanaka.

Kubva pane izvi zvose tinofanira kugumisa mumaonero angu, uye izvi ndizvo kunyange izvo JC yakandizivisa kwandiri, kuti kutenda mushoko rake hakusi kudikanwa chete muchitendero icho chiri hwaro, asiwo mune chiuru ruzivo rwevanhu. zvinenge zvisingabviri kuita zvakanaka pasina izvozvo. Pasina izvozvo munhu anogona chete kuita hunhu hune chitarisiko chakawanda kupfuura kusimba, sezvo zvisingakodzeri kuDenga, kuve ese asina simba uye asina simba reruponeso. Pasina izvozvo, mushure mekushanda zvakanyanya, munhu achazviwana asina chinhu, uye atorerwa mibairo yose nekusingaperi; nokuti mukuona kwaMwari, muKristu oga, uye kwete muzivi, ndiye anofanira kupiwa mubayiro. Pasina kutenda hazvibviri kufadza Mwari, nokuti hazvibviri kuva muKristu pasina iko. Asi,

Pane izvi, Baba vangu, ndichakuzivisai pano, nekuraira kwaJC, fomura yechiito chekutenda icho chaakandidzidzisa iye, uye icho, nokuda kweizvi, ndinodzokorora zuva nezuva muEvhangeri. yeMisa. kwemakore gumi nemashanu kana makumi maviri. Tarirai, shoko neshoko, sezvaakandiita kuti ndidzokorore, kuti zvinyorwe, zvitumirwe kwamuri;

Chimiro chechiito chekutenda chakapihwa naJC kune Sista.

" Oh mwari wangu ! Ndinotenda zvakasimba mamuri uye mune zvese zvamazivisa kuChechi yenyu Tsvene yeKatorike, yeVaApostora neyeRoma; Naizvozvo ndinotenda zvakasimba muchokwadi chose chemutemo wenyu mutsvene, muzvinyorwa zvese zvekutenda zvakanyorwa kana zvisina kunyorwa, zvinyorwa zvinozivikanwa kana zvisingazivikanwi, zvekare, zvenguva ino uye nezveramangwana; uye ndinotenda, pachokwadi cheshoko raJC, pasina kundizivisa kana sei, kana kune chii, kana nei. Ndinokubvunzai pamusoro pezvinhu izvi zvose, imi Mwari wangu! kutenda kwebofu, kusingazungunuke, kusingazununguki, asi pamusoro pezvose kutenda mhenyu uye kwakasimba, kunondiita kuti ndichengete murayiro wenyu mutsvene pazvinhu zvose, kubva

nzira, nechinangwa, uye nemagumo aunoda kuti nditende, izvo zvandinoda uye zvandinonamata, kuti ndive ndakatendeka kurudo rwenyu, uye kuzadzisa kuda kwenyu kutsvene. »

Baba, zvinhu zvingani zviri mushoko rimwe nerimwe reichi chipupuriro chakaisvonaka chokutenda, icho chine udzame hwezvakavanzika zvedu zvose, uye zvinopa kune uyo anoereketa kubva mumwoyo nomumuromo ukoshi hukurusa hwaangave anahwo mumeso aMwari. ! Ah! Baba vangu, kana tichiona Mwari akanaka saavo vanaye, tichatenda zvose izvozvo

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inonzwisiswa; asi hatichazovizve nekodzero yokutenda, hatizovizve netariro, sezvo tinenge tava pamagumo ezvishuwo zvedu. Pahunhu hutatu hwedzidziso yebhaibheri, naizvozvo, pachasara kwatiri rudo chete; asi hatingave nehunhu hunofadza uhu mushure mekufa kwedu, kunze kwekunge tahubatanidza kune vamwe vaviri muhupenyu hwedu. Saka ngative nekutenda netariro yekuva  nerudo nekusingaperi  . Ngatirambei tichiudza  J.C.

semurume uyu weEvhangeri: Ndinotenda, Ishe, asi wedzera kutenda kwangu… Dai vadzidzi vose nevazivi vazvidzokorora pamadiro!...

Nokukurumidza pasi pano paizova pasina midzimu yakasimba, isingatendi, kana kuti isingadi Mwari. Kutenda kwaizoita maKristu uye nokukurumidza vatsvene vevanhu vose  ;

uye nekutenda kwakawanda kwavaiita, ndipo pavakazonyanya kuona kuti kufunga kwavo kwakanga kwarasika sei. Farai Baba; Ndinokukumbirisai, murege  kudaro

ratidza njodzi dzinowanzoitika. handiregi kukunyengeterera kuti uchengetedzwe (1); ndinamateiwo kuti Ishe makanaka mundiregerere zvitadzo zvangu zvose zvisingaverengeki, mundipewo nyasha dzandinoda. Ndinoshuva kudzoka kwenyu nomoyo wangu wose; asi zvinosuwisa! dutu richiri kunyanya kufamba: tinoda ushingi, moyo murefu uye kuzviisa pasi kupfuura kare ....

Sister's postscript. Nokuda kwoupofu hwowakaipa.

Baba vangu, pamusoro pevatadzi vakawomerwa mwoyo vasingatendeuki, vandakataura nezvavo kakawanda kwazvo kwamuri, savaya vandakaruramisa pakati pavo vasingadi Mwari.

taura zvakare, ndinoona pakutanga uye zvakanyanya muna Mwari kuti varombo ava varombo havangoerekana vasvika panguva iyi yeupofu, yekusagadzikana,

(1) Handinetseki kutaura pamusoro peminamato yemweya wakanaka uyu, kuti, panyika nepagungwa, vapukunyuke dzimwe njodzi, mbiri pakati pedzimwe idzo dzaive dzisingaite sekuti munhu angatiza. Handitombokahadzika kuti njodzi dzekunamata kwadzichave dzakandichengetedza dzaive dzakatonyanya kutyisa uye dzakawanda kwazvo.

yekusiya, iyo inoumba kusatendeuka kwekupedzisira uye inopedza kurangwa zvakapetwa kane chiuru kupfuura mabhanan'ana uye rushambwa. Vanowira mariri chete zvisingaoneki uye nemadhigirii; vanosvika ikoko nokupfuura kubva mukusavimbika kuenda kune vasina kutendeka, kubva pakumukira kuenda pakumukira, kubva pakudzokazve  kuenda  pakudzokerazve  kusvikira

hondo ine hutsinye uye isina musoro inorwisa nyasha, kunaka, tsitsi, kururamisira uye rudo rwaMwari wavanoshinga kushinga uye kurwa munzira dzose.

Kuzvidemba kune hutano, kutya kunotyisa, kubata kwemukati kwenyasha dzinogara dzakateerera, hurwere hwemuviri, kurasikirwa nezvinhu, nhamo dzenguva pfupi, pfungwa dzevanoreurura, manzwi ekutinhira evaparidzi, tsaona dzinouraya, zviitiko zvinoshungurudza, kufa kamwe kamwe kweavo vataiziva zvese.

zvichiitwa nguva dzose kuna Mwari, uyo asina kurega kutsvaka mutadzi uyu; uye zvose zvakanga zvisina maturo. Ari kure nokudzokera kwaari, achitevera zvishuvo zvaMwari wake, mutadzi uyu akanga asingaongi uye akawomeswa mwoyo, akazvidza zvinhu zvose, akatsika zvinhu zvose pasi petsoka; akashungurudza zvese, anongoziva shungu dzake. Upofu hwakadini! asi ndiani angataura kuti mufambiro wakadaro unokuvadza sei kuna Mwari, unomukira umene, uye unoshurikidzwa mumativi ose?....

Kuti Mwari anomanikidzwa sei kusiya mutadzi kuti ave nepfungwa yake isina kunaka. Migumisiro yakaipa yekusiiwa kwaMwari uku.

Zvakare, Baba vangu, rudo rwaMwari uyu ane ngoni uye akanaka kwazvo rwakazviwana sekuti akamanikidzwa kuzviisa pasi pekururamisira kwake, mukusiya, kunyangwe nekuzvidemba, uyu munhu ane rombo rakanaka kupfungwa yake yakarasika, nekubviswa kwenyasha, kwete kwete zvachose. zvinodikanwa, asi nyasha dzesarudzo nechiratidzo chenyasha dzaaingoshandisa  zvisizvo  . Ndinoona zvakare kuti hakuna nyika inoera  kudaro

kusaiswa pamuyedzo wekusiiwa kunotyisa uku kana tikazviratidza kuti hatina kutendeka kuzita reDenga uye kune zvarinokumbira kwatiri kuti tiunze ruponeso rwedu ikoko. Hongu, Baba vangu, uye izvo zvinoita kuti munhu adedere, saJudhasi munhu anogona kurasika uye kuparara muboka raJC pachake; mumwe anogona kuwira mugehena parutivi rwake,

sembavha yakaipa; uye, semurume uyu anosuruvarisa, tinogonawo kuwira ipapo kubva kumusoro kwemuchinjikwa  Zvichave  zvakaita sei nyika apo zvinhu zvose zvinobatsira  kutipofumadza ?

tozvirasa?...

Nyika, nezvirevo zvayo zvakaora, vakasununguka nemashoko avo  anonyengera, nyama nekuchiva kwayo, dhiabhorosi  nemanomano  ayo

misungo yakateyiwa kusava nemhosva, zvipingamupinyi zvakadii kuruponeso! Maiwe! Baba ndabatwa nekutya uye ndavhundutswa ndichiona zvakaipa zvangu;...

Ndoda kurohwa nemabhanan’ana anechuru pane kumbobvira ndasangana  nekusiiwa kunosuwisa uku kuna Mwari  wangu  wandinazvo  zvakawanda.

Zvinotyisa kupfuura kurangwa kusingaperi, uye zvingava zvakandiomera kutsungirira.

Uye zvakadaro, oh Mwari wangu! Ndakakodzera kusangana nazvo, ndakatadza kakawanda, nguva zhinji ndine nhamo yekusakufadzai, zvekuti ushingi hwangu haukodzeri chimwe chinhu kunze kwechirango chakaipisisa kudaro. Ah! Ndinzwirei tsitsi, Ishe; ndipeiwo kurwadziwa kwamunokumbira kubva kuvatadzi vanotendeuka; ndirove ndisina

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ndirangarirei panzira dzose, kana musingandirangariri nokuda kokundisiya kwenyu; Ndinomutya kupfuura gehena pacharo...

Baba vangu, mamiriro evatadzi vakaraswa ava, vakanzi havana umwari, Mwari anoita kuti ndivaone pasi pemufananidzo wemenduru yemativi maviri; Ndinoreva kubva kurutivi rwemuviri uye kubva kudivi remweya, maererano nemasikirwo uye maererano nenyasha: kubva pakutanga, inongova mufaro, mufaro uye kubudirira kwenguva; rombo rakanaka rinovafarira, nyika inovarumbidza, inovaseka uye inovatambanudzira maoko ayo: chinhu chiri chose chinobudirira, chinhu chiri chose chinova betsero yavo, chinhu chiri chose chinobetsera kuvaita kuti vatende kuti vanofara. Heino divi rakanaka ....

Asi kana, kutendeutsa menduru, nokuiongorora nechiedza chemwenje wokutenda, tinorangarira mamiriro eiyi inonzi inofara yezana ramakore, maererano nomweya wake, kuruponeso rwake, musiyano upi, kupikiswa kupi pakati pe mumwe uye mumwe wevaviri ava  aiva!. Maiwe! Baba vangu, mweya murombo uyu wakazvisiya  woga

kunyange nokudenha kwose kwavavengi vake, pamusoro poumambo hune utsinye hwezvishuvo zvake, Mwari akandiita kuti ndimuone seasingapfakanyiki uye asingapfakanyiki kupi nokupi, akarara pamubhedha wokurwadziwa, kana kuti panzvimbo pezvo pamuchinjikwa  usingafadzi .  Kukururwa

pazvishongedzo zvese zvenyasha, arasa kunaka kwese kwakamupa kufanana neumwari, haachafanani nechinhu kunze kwechikara, akashatirwa kwazvo, akaremerwa nemaketani anorema, anomutadzisa kufamba munzira ipi neipi. . Akafukidzwa namaronda namaronda, anobatira sechitoyi nokuda kwamadhemoni, anomuona semhuka uye anomusvinira ndokumumbundikira  pamativi ose, kuti arege kuvapukunyura, ndiko kuti, ivo vanofunda ivo vamene kumurambidza chero chiedza chinobva kudenga, chero nzira ipi neipi. wekutendeuka Denga! Mamiriro ezvinhu anosiririsa sei  !

Mhosva dzinotungamirira kukusiya Mwari uku kunotyisa.

Ndinoona, Baba vangu, kuti pazvivi zvese, zvisingatsungiririki mumeso aMwari, izvo zvaanoranga zvakanyanya, uye izvo zvinotungamira zvisingakanganisike pakusiya kunotyisa uku, kutsauka. , chitambudzo cheChechi, zviberekowo zvawo zvokusadavira kuvapo kwaMwari, kusanamata uye rudado rwouzivi izvo zvinotungamirira munhu kupandukira chiremera chaMwari amene, achiedza kudzura joko rake nyoro.

Hongu, Baba vangu, ndinoona kuti vanoregerera chero mhosva ipi zvayo, kunyange yakakura sei: 1°. nokuti dzimwe mhosva dzose hadzina mwero iwoyo woutsinye hunorwisa Mwari pachake, kurwisa chitendero chake uye kurwisa chokwadi chinova uchapupu hunomumanikidza kuziva uye kureurura mukati; 2°. chero huipi hupi hupi hupi hupi hupi hupi hupi hupi hupi hupi hupi hupi hupi hupi hupi hupi hupi hupi hupi hupi hupi hupi hupi hupi hwehuipi hunonyadzisa vatendi, haukonzeri kurasikirwa kwemweya, uye hahukonzeri kurwadziwa uye kutsamwa kumudzimai mutsvene waJC. gonhi. Asina kugutsikana nekurova amai vanyoro vanogara vachimuyeuchidza, chikara chichiri kumubvutira vana vaakauya nacho munyika uye akavabereka nenyasha,

JC aizotadza sei kunzwa kurwadziwa uye misodzi yemudzimai uyu ane urombo nokuda kwekurasikirwa  kwavo  ? Ko aigotadza sei kutsividza mafiro ake  uye

marwadzo ake? Ah! Ndinoona kuti hasha dzake hadzina kugadzikana, uye kuti vakadaidzwa kuti vavengi veChechi havana zvavanoda kutarisira kubva kwaari; pakumumukira, vakamurwisa iye amene, uye kururamisira kwake kwakavarwisa kuti adzivirire kodzero  dzake  . Nhamo, nhamo, akachema, nhamo  !

pasi!. rine nhamo gungwa nenyika, nokuti zvakabatwa  noutsotsi

!. Vane nhamo vose vanoita zvakaipa,  vasingateereri

shoko rangu, mundimukire.

Mwari vanondiita kuti ndinzwisise, Baba vangu, kuti mutongo uyu unotyisa waanopa nenzira inotyisa vatadzi vose vepanyika, uye uyo

richava nokuitwa kwakwo kwakakwana bedzi pazuva apo vatadzi vose vachatongwa, kupiwa mhaka nokurangwa, apo mavambo pachawo achacheneswa pakusvibiswa kwezvivi zvavanhu; Mwari, ndinoti, vanondiita kuti ndinzwisise kuti inofanirwa kunyanya kushanda kune avo vanokamura uye kurwisa Erise wake nhasi, nekubvuma kwairi zvinhu zvisina umwari uye zvinonyadzisa, nekunyepedzera kuzviyeuchidza pakukwana kwayo nekuvandudza. Ndinoona kuti ava vanonzi vashanduri vachiri pano chete vamiririri vadhiyabhorosi nevegehena: ivo vane zvakawanda zvakafanana nemasatellite akarovera JC, uye vakamurumbidza samambo wevaJudha panguva imwe chete iyo vakamurova zvine utsinye uye pavakashandira rufu rwake. Ndizvo kuti, musinagoge razvino uno, vachiri kutapura ruremekedzo rukuru nokuda kwake neChechi yake, munguva yavanorwiswa nokutsunga kukuru. Izvi zvichiri zvinogona kufananidzwa nekutsvoda kwaJudhasi; asi Mwari haanyengerwi nehunyengeri hwevavengi vake, anoziva zviri nani kupfuura ivo vavariro dzakavanzika dzinoita kuti vaite, uye JC anogona  kubvunza.

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zvakare kune mumwe nemumwe wavo izvo zvavanokumbira kune zvinosemesa kupfuura vatengesi vese: Ad quid venisti?...

Marudzi maviri evatambudzi veChechi: kuomesa vamwe, kutendeuka kwevamwe.

Hongu, Baba vangu, Ishe akanaka andizivisa kuti pane vamwe pakati pavo vari muchimiro chekumutonga, kumupa mhosva uye kumuroverera zvakare, kana ari musimba ravo uye kuti anogona kufa kechipiri. nguva; pachinhu ichi, akanga ane mhosva huru kupfuura vaJudha, vangadai vasina kumuuraya dai vaimuziva kwazvo kuti ndiye Mwanakomana waMwari. Ishe wedu akandiudza pamusoro penyaya iyi kuti avo vose vakatendeuka mushure mokumuka kwake vakanga vari avo chaizvo vakanga vasingazivi zvavakanga vachiita pakumuroverera pamuchinjikwa, uye vangadai vasina kumbomuroverera pamuchinjikwa dai vakaziva zvaaiva. Vakanga vane kutenda kwakanaka kwaari kwakavapembedza zvishoma, ndokusaka vakasvinudza meso avo kuti vaone zviratidzo zvorufu nokumuka kwake.

Asi vaya vakamuitira ruvengo nokutsamwa nehasha negodo uye nokuvenga Mwari vakatsinzina meso avo nobwoni kuti varege kuona zviratidzo zvokufa kwake nokumuka kwake, kuti varege kuona zvinhu zvavakanga vaita panguva yokurarama kwake. uye kure nekubatsirwa neruregerero rwaainge achiri kuvapa, vakangowedzera marwadzo ake, vachiwedzera kutongwa kwavo nekuomesa kwavo inzwi rake uye nekuomesa musoro kwavo nemaune mukuramba humbowo hwakaiswa pamberi pemeso avo nekunaka kwake.

Zvichava zvimwe chete neavo vanounza dambudziko rakawanda kuChechi nhasi. Varipo vashoma, vanonyengerwa nokufunga kuti vari nani pane havo, vari mune imwe rutendo, runovaita kuti vasvike pane imwe nguva, vazvinzvere pamberi paMwari. Ava, Baba vangu, Mwari vakandizivisa kuti vacharohwa nokuvhundutswa nokunyongana; vachaedza kuigadzirisa ichadzokera kuChechi, sekunge kuinyaradza uye kuitsiva nekuzvidemba kwavo, kune izvo zvichange zvatambura kubva mukutsauka kwavo, kusachenjera kupfuura kukuvadza ...

Avo, pane kudaro, vanenge vaita zvinopesana nehana dzavo, kunyanya ne kuvenga Chechi uye neJC, ndinoona uye ndinofungidzira kuti zvinosuruvarisa kuti havazombodzoki, chimwe chinhu chinoitika, kubva pakutsauka kwavo, nokuti vakatsunga pane zvose. Vakatora rutivi rwavo pachena pamusoro paMwari, uye ndinotya nokuda kwavo kuti Mwari akava kurutivi rwake nokuda kwavo. Mapofu aya anosuruvarisa akanyanya kugadzikana muzvinhu zvese, sezvo asisina chikonzero chekudedera. Vakada, vakakumbira uye vakateura ropa revapristi veJC, sezvakakumbirwa nevaJudha uye vakateura iyo yaJC pachake, uye rufu rwevadzidzi ruchava nemugumo wakafanana uye mugumisiro wakafanana newatenzi; ropa ravo rakateurwa richawira pamusoro pavakariteura, nokuvapwanya nouremu hwaro; Ndinoreva kuti nokutonga kwakarurama uye kunotyisa kwaMwari achaisa chisimbiso pakurashwa kwavo uye nokuomeswa kwavo, nokuita kuti mhosva dzavo dziwedzere. Ivo vamene vachava vanyajambwa vokukuvadza kwavakaita, uye havasati vachizobvumirana; nokuti, zvinobatanidzwa mupfungwa yemhosva yerudzi rwechiJudha, zvakanaka kuti vagovane chirango, vachiwira mune zvimwe chetezvo. upofu....

JC inoda kuti vana veChechi yake vaparadze kutengeserana kwese kwemweya nevakaramba kutenda, schismatics, nezvimwe.

JC anondirayira kuti ndikuudzei panguva ino kuti anoda kuti vana vake vaparadze kutengeserana kwese kwemweya nevakaramba kutenda, schismatics uye vanopinda, zvisinei kuti vangave vari pedyo; kusvikira panguva iyoyo, kana murume akaroora akatadza, anoda kuti uyo wakabatanidzwa naye arege kuva akadaro

iyo yemuviri nemidziyo, uye kuti anoramba akaparadzaniswa nayo kune vamwe vese; kuti achenjere kuti asatombobatana nemanzwiro ake akaipa uye asina chitendero, nekuti hapana chiremera chinogona kuenzanisa icho chaMwari neChechi yake, uye kuti zvakakosha, kana zvichidikanwa, kuziva nzira yekubayira zvese kuti urambe wakatendeka kwavari. .

Vechiduku ngavachenjere kuti vasambozvibatanidza newanano nevakaramba kutenda vakasarudzwa, nokuti kunyange panguva ino havana chikwereti chokuteerera madzibaba naamai vavo; ivo vanotosungirwa padiki kuti varege kuvateerera, nekuti JC neChechi yake ndivo vabereki vekutanga avo muKristu wese ane chikwereti kwavari, uye kuti zvese zvinopesana nemitemo yavo zvinopokana nezvisungo zvake zvekutanga, uye nekudaro ihwo huipi hwaanofanira kuita. kuramba uye kudzivisa munzira dzose. “Rindai munyengetere, akadaro JC kuvana vake vose, murinde, nokuti mazuva akaipa uye kunze kune dutu; batirai pakubatana kweChechi yangu Tsvene, mugare mune mwenje werutendo wakavhenekerwa; mutsvene ngaazvichenesezve; vakarurama ngavarambe vakadaro; wakachena ngaarambe achizvinatsa; regai mutadzi akatendeuka awedzere kutendeuka kwake, uye regai vose vaedze kunyaradza kutsamwa kwangu uye vagokodzera migumisiro yekudzivirirwa kwangu. Ameni.

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YAMBIRO.

Pashure pokunge ndarondedzera zvose zvandakanga ndagamuchira kubva kuHanzvadzi panguva yandaigara muSaint-Malo, uye kunyange nezvekutumira kwaakanga aita kwandiri kare, ndinofanira, ndisati ndataura nezvouyo akandituma kunze, ndodzokera. kune zvimwe zvinyorwa uye yambiro yaainge andipa nemuromo ndichiri muKuwadzana. Tichaona kuti zvinyorwa izvi uye yambiro zvine zvakawanda zvekuita nezvaakambotaura pamusoro pezvikonzero zvakasiyana zvechimurenga chedu, kunyanya izvo zvaanotora kubva mukutsauka nekusavimbika kwehurumende yechitendero.

CHIKAMU VII.

Pamusoro pekurembera kwakakonzera kuparadzwa kwemirairo yechitendero, uye kuti JC inoda kuti vagadziriswe sei.

Ndava kuenda, Baba vangu, kuzokuudzai zvino, uye zvichiri chisungo kwandiri, zvakaitika kwandiri, makore anopfuura makumi maviri apfuura, pamusoro penyaya yatakanga tichibata nayo mazuva ano.

Saint Francis weAssisi anozviratidza kuHanzvadzi, uye anonyunyuta nezvehunyoro hwakaunzwa muhurongwa hwake.

Rimwe zuva pandakanga ndiri ndega ndakapfugama pamberi peChirairo Chakaropafadzwa, ndakakanda maziso angu, sokunge ndangoerekana ndaona, pamufananidzo wababa vedu Francis, uchiri mukwaya yedu; ndakamutarisa akatsikitsira pamberi pekurovererwa kwake, ndakanzwa mukati mangu kunzwa kwakasimba kwehuvepo hutsvene. Mufananidzo uyu waiita semupenyu kwandiri; kwandiri zvaiita sekunge ndakanga ndichipinda mukati memweya wake, uye kuti ndaiona zvese zvaiitika ipapo.

Ndakanzwa inzwi rake; Handina kungoona kuti akanditarisa chete, asi ndakatoona kufamba kwemiromo yake uye ruvara rwechiso chake paaitaura neni.

Hurukuro yake yose yaitenderera pamusoro pemhiko, mitemo nemirau yehurongwa hwake  , uyo ane uori nekukanganisa kwaaishoreka zvikuru. Aiita seakasuruvara uye apererwa, akaora mwoyo uye akazadzwa neshingairo tsvene, iyo yakamukwevera, neimwe nzira, kubva muunyoro hwake hwenguva dzose, uye yakamuita kuti apenye  mukunyunyuta  kwakakasharara  .

Akati kwandiri nenzwi rokuchema  . zvangu

vana  vasuduruka Kubva pamweya uyu wekuramba, kuzvininipisa  uye

kutambura, kwandakanga ndaita hwaro hwechivako changu, vakatsiva mweya wenyika ino, iyo Evhangeri yakataura hondo pamusoro payo. JC kutambura uye kurovererwa pamuchinjikwa haisisiri muenzaniso wavanoronga: nheyo dzinorwiswa, basa richawa. Kwenguva yakareba zvave zvichityisidzira kuparadza, uye ini ndakapindwa nekurwadziwa kwakanyanya ...

Pane dzimwe nguva aishandisa mashoko akati omei, akadai sezvirahwe kana kuti mifananidzo, izvo Mwari akaita kuti ndinzwisise zviri nani, nokundiyeuchidza mashoko nerevo yezvichemo zvake: “Nokuda kwokurasha murayiro wangu, nokuzvidza mhiko dzavo, akachema, vakachema. ndazunza joko raJehovha; asi vachaitwa varanda uye vachakundwa nevavengi vachaisa joko pavari

zvinorema uye zvakakasharara... Vakazvidza kurayira kwangu, vakazvidzwa;... vakazvidza uye vakasiya Mwari, Mwari achavazvidza uye achavasiya kuti vafunge zvakaipa uye nokushatirwa kwose kwavavengi vavo. Vachamhanyira kunyonganiswa nokurashwa kwavo sobofu, savanhu vasina vatungamiriri, vasina mano, navarairiri; sezvo vachipokana nekuzviparadza, ivo vachaparadzwa zvisingakanganisi, nezvimwe, nezvimwe. »

Ndinotya sei, Baba vangu, kuti zvese izvi zvichazadzikiswa kune iyo tsamba mumamiriro ezvinhu asina kunaka atiri  kubata  ! Asi Baba vedu  vanoenderera mberi vachiti:

“Nerudzi rwekuramba kutenda, vakaswedera pedyo nenziyo nezvirevo zvenyika, izvo zvavaifanira kugara vachizvidzivirira kubva pazviri. Vaitevedzera udofo nehunhu hwevanhu venyika mumapfekero avo, mukudya kwavo, nemutsika dzavo dzose; ivo, saivo, vaizvipa vamene kumabiko, kuti vafare, uye dzimwe nguva vakanga vasingatombonyari kuvakunda, uye kuratidzika kuva vepanyika kupfuura vanhu vamene, mukunyadziswa kwevatsvene vavo.

Vakandiramba nokuda kwababa vavo, uye handichavazivi nokuda kwavana vangu; kana vakaramba vachingovapo, ndichava mupomeri wavo pamberi paMwari; ndichatsiva kukuvadzwa kwavo, ndisinganetseki nokunamata kwavo kutsva, kwandinovenga. . Vanodavira kuti vari kukudza vatsigiri vavo nokuita, pamitambo yavo, zvokudya zvakaisvonaka nokuda kwavanhu venyika, uye havaoni kuti ikoku kunozvidza urombo hutsvene hwaJC uye hwe“muvambi wavo, wavakapika kuchengeta. kutevedzera uye kutevera. »

Kunyangwe ndine chokwadi chekuti yambiro kubva kuMutsvene Francis ine chekuita nezvezvimwe zvitendero zvakawanda kunze kweiyo yehurongwa hwake, asi ndinoona kuti yakawira pamusoro pevana vake, avo vanga vasiri vese vakaregererwa. I will even tell you kuti ndinotya its just fulfilment even in our Community. Dai maiziva Baba kuti zvingani zvinhu zvakapesana nemutemo zvakaitika makore gumi nemashanu kana makumi maviri apfuura!...

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Kusabatwa zvakanaka kwekudya munharaunda dzezvitendero.

Paiva nezvokudya zvemaoresa uye zvaitsvakwa zvikuru zvaipiwa ipapo panguva yemabiko, uye kunyange vagari vomubhodhi avo, mukuwedzera kuukama hwavaichengeta navanhu vanobva kunze, vakaisa, nokuparara kwavo, zvipingamupinyi zvakawanda pakufungisisa uye kukukwana kwamasisita. . Varume nevakadzi vatsvene vehurongwa, kunyanya Saint Francis naSaint Clare, vakapembererwa nekudya kukuru, uko kwakakokwa vanhu vanobva pasirese uye vakaungana mumba mako. Nenguva isipi, pasinei zvapo nepfuma yepenjeni, imba yakazviwana imene ine chikwereti chezviuru zvamapaunzi, izvo  zvakakonzera nyongano huru  ....

Izvi zvose, Baba vangu, zvakatsamwisa Mwari zvikuru; akandiraira kuti ndizivise benzi renguva ino; uye achiona kuti haana kuterera zvese zvaaifanira kuita kune yambiro yerudo yandakamupa pachinhu ichi sepane mamwe emutemo, akandiudza rimwe zuva kuti aizosarudza mumwe mukuru, aizodzoreredza kurongeka. uye kuisa zvinhu zvose panzvimbo iri nani, izvo zvakaitika munguva pfupi.

Pakarepo kudya kukuru kwakanyangarika; awa yekumuka nekunorara kune veboarders yakadzorwa; kumwe kushanya kunorambidzwa; kuteerera kwakatora nzvimbo yekusazvibata, kuzvidemba uye urombo hutsvene hwakabudirira zvese zvinogutsa zvisikwa uye zvichiri kubata kumeso zvishuwo, izvo zvisingachafaniri kurarama. Saka, nenyasha dzaMwari, zvinhu zvakabvira kare kubva mutsoka isiri iyo pandakava nechizaruro ichocho kana kuti kubvunzurudzwa kwababa vedu Musande Francis, kwandava kudzokera.

Mirairo yezvitendero, manyuko ezvakanaka zvikuru kana zvakaipa zvikuru muChechi.

“Hongu, mwanasikana wangu, JC akandiudza pane izvi, mirairo yechitendero inogona kukonzera kunaka kukuru kana kuipa kukuru muChechi uye nemunyika, zvichienderana nekuti vakatendeka here kana kusatendeka kumhiko dzavo nezvisungo zvavo. . Hakuna denda, remweya kana renyama, rekuti minamato yavo yakabatana haigone kunzvengesa, kana zviri izvo zvavanofanira kuva; sezvo pasina denda, hapana njodzi, kuti mufambiro wavo unonyadzisa uye usina kurongeka haugoni kukwezva, kana vachidziya uye vane utsinye, nokuti panzvimbo yekusunga migumisiro yehasha dzangu, ivo chete 'vanotsamwisa. Kwete, mwanasikana wangu, ndinodzokorora, hapana chinokwanisa kundikurudzira kutsiva kupfuura humbwende uye kusavimbika, kunyanya mhosva dzemweya dzakakumikidzwa kwandiri nemhiko dzakadzama.

zvinogumbura umambo namaruwa, uye somuuyo rudzidziso, Chechi neHurumende, miuyo yokukundikana kwavo. Vanofanira kudzivirira dutu; havana, ndiri kuti kudii? ivo vamene vakafara uye vakariumba, ivo vachava vekutanga vanyajambwa....

Zvino, Baba, rudo rwechokwadi rwababa rwaBaba vedu vakanaka Musande Francis rwakasvika kwandiri, uyo aida zvikuru kupfuura ani zvake; akandishora zvikuru kwazvo nokuda kwokusatendeka kwangu, kusatenda kwangu nguva dzose kuna Mwari: “Rangarira mwanasikana wangu,” akadaro kwandiri nokudisa, “kuti une mungava kwaari kupfuura vamwe vose nokuda kworudo rukuru rwaakakutakurai. Akakunyorovesa nenyasha dzechiratidzo, favouris dzinoshamisa, kushungurudzwa kwaunofanirwa kutya, nekuti achakubvunza iwe nhoroondo yakaoma uye inotyisa pamusoro pavo, kana usina kutendeka kwavari. »

Akandikurudzira, pakati pezvimwe zvinhu, kuteerera kweupofu kune kuda kwaMwari mune zvese zvaaizondiitira uye akange atoita kuti ndizivikanwe nembiri yake neruponeso rwemweya, uye kuzviisa pasi kukuru kune abbess vangu nevakuru vangu. , kunyanya kumutungamiriri, wandaifanira kuudza zvose  zvakaitika kwandiri. Akandipa rumbonera rwemiedzo nemiedzo yandaizofanira kutambura naDhiabhorosi pazvinhu zvakawanda, maererano nehana yangu nemitoro yangu; akandiyambira pamusoro pekushungurudzwa kwaivapo munharaunda yangu, uye pamusoro pezvose pamusoro pezvikanganiso zvangu neutera hwangu; akandiraira kuti ndizivise nezve kushungurudzwa uku kumukuru wangu uye kunyangwe kuna Mgr. bhishopi weRennes; zvandakaita nenguva (1)

Hongu, Baba vangu, kutenda kushoko raMwari uye muzvisarudzo zveChechi yake, kuteerera kweupofu neruremekedzo kuvakuru vechechi kunofanira kukunda chinhu chiri chose. Panyaya iyi, ndichakuudza zvakaitika kwandiri makore mashoma apfuura.

Mumwe weChina patakagadziridzwa kuChirairo Chitsvene, muprista akanga atungamirira mutambo wacho akauya, senguva dzose, Holy Ciborium kunjanji yechirairo, uye akataura nesu. Mukati menguva yose iyo kurudziro yake uye yakasara, ndakaona mwana akanaka akakomberedzwa nechiedza chakapfava; airatidzika kwandiri sokunge akanga akagara paNzvimbo Tsvene Ciborium. Akabata muchinjikwa muruoko rwake

Masisita anosanoziva, uye mukuru wacho amene, akandipa kunzwisisa kuti Hanzvadzi yoKuberekwa kwaJesu yakanga yaunza chinjo dzakawanda munharaunda  .

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pasi pawo wakaburukira kutsoka dzake, nepamusoro pakakwirira kumusoro, pamusoro wake; nerumwe rutivi akaropafadza masister vakauyawo kuzogadzirisa nekumunamata. Asi baba chakandirwadza kuona misodzi ichidonha kubva mumaziso avo. Mushure mokudzokera kwandiri, kuti ndidzinge nokutenda kupi nokupi kwokunyengerwa kwadhiabhorosi kana kuti fungidziro yangu, ipapo ndakashinga kumubvunza chikonzero chechitarisiko chake uye kurwadziwa kwake. Hamuzivi here, imi Mwari wangu? kuti ndinotenda zvakasimba kuvapo kwenyu chaiko  muSakaramende inoyevedza iyi? "Ndinozviziva," akapindura; asi ndinonzwa  kunzwa

kuti nditore kukudzwa kwangu kwairi uye nokuda kwokushayiwa kwemweya. »

Akabva anyanya kusuruvara, akatanga kuchema nzanga dzakaipa, achirumbidza dzakanaka. Ndakanyaradzwa nokuona kuti aitarisa nokugutsikana pamhemberero yezuva racho nemasisita aizviita. Vakanyunyuta zvikuru nezvedzimwe nharaunda dzevakadzi, asi kunyanya dzevarume, avo, vakati, vakarasikirwa netsika uye kunze kwenyika yavo. Akavapomera mhosva yekutyora mhiko dzavo nemweya wepfuma neyenyika, uye nekunyadzisa nekusarongeka kwavo avo vavaifanira kunge vaona chete kuvavaka, nemusiyano wehupenyu hutsvene. uye zvekunamata zvechokwadi....

JC inoda kuti mirairo yechitendero igadziriswe nevafundisi vekutanga veChechi yake, uye pasi pekutonga kwebhishopi.

Asi akawedzera, uye zviri pano, Baba vangu, pfungwa inondiraira kuti munyore, kuti Chechi yavo iziswe uye iite zvinoenderana; anoti chakanyanya kukonzeresa nhamo dzedzimwe nharaunda kwaive kubuda muhutongi hwevafundisi vekutanga, vachitungamirirwa nevatungamiriri vemapoka avo akasiyana, avo kazhinji vaive vasina kungwarira kana kuremerwa nezvinhu zvakadaro. , izvo pane dzimwe nguva vaida zvakanyanya kupfuura vakaderera vavo, vari vekutanga kupa muenzaniso wekuputsika kwemurairo wavaifanira kuchengetedza; saka zvakaipa zvakadii! uye nzira yekurapa muviri unomirira kurapwa kwayo chete kubva kune mutungamiri ane hutachiona kupfuura iwe? Izvi zvinonzi vasabatanidzwe zviri zvishoma, kune chikamu chikuru, zvakare zvinopesana nevose

zvido sezvazviri kune kodzero dzose. Irwo rudzi rwokuramba kutenda, uko kwakatungamirira kuvamwe vakawanda nenzira isingaoneki.

Kubva pakurasika kwemhiko dzechitendero takaenda kune icho chechitendero pachacho, uye tasvika pakuzvidza rutendo, kuburikidza nekuzvidza kweavo vari vachengetedzi varwo; uye zvakare, akawedzera, ona kuti vasingatendi ava varipi nhasi, uye kuti gomba rakadzikadzika rakavapinza sei mune rimwe! Ndakanga ndadzidyara muChechi yangu kuti ive inovaka, chishongo nerutsigiro; vaifanira kunge vakaita seshumba kuti vadzivirire, vakanga vakaita sengwena kuti vaibvambure uye kuti vairwadze nezvinonyadzisa zvoupenyu hwavo nokutsauka kwavo.

“Nyora, anodaro JC kwandiri, nyora zvose izvi kuvafundisi vangu vokutanga; vaudze kuti ndinoda kudimburirwa munda wangu wemizambiringa uye urimwe zviri nani; kuti vateme  , nokuparadza zvose zvinorisvibisa nokuparadza murayiro wandakagadzapo nokuusima; asi pavanenge vachichekerera muzambiringa uyu vanorangarira kusadzura chero chinhu. Kuda kwangu kuti chimiro chechitendero chirambe chiripo; asi ndinoda shanduko, uye kurongeka kuri nani munharaunda. Zvimwe kuregererwa, kana zvichibvira; asi regai zvinhu zvose zvive pasi pehutongi hwabhishopi wedhiosisi yega yega, nokuti bhishopi woga-woga ane basa rake pachake pamusoro peboka rake, raanofanira kuzvipindura kwandiri rimwe zuva. »

Hezvino, Baba, ndizvo zvandakafunga kuti ndanzwa: kana paine chinhu chinoratidzika kuva chinokuvadza vamwe vakagamuchirwa, mashandisiro anobatsira uye anoremekedzwa, zviri kuChechi kuti isarudze, sezvo zviri kwairi kuzvibata nemirairo yayo. mune zvese zvine chekuita nemweya izvo zvazvinazvo chete kuziva nekutonga ...

Naizvozvo kune vafundisi vekutanga isu tinofanira kunyanya kuwana nzira yekutonga nzanga dzezvitendero; sezvazviri kwavari kuti munhu anofanira kuwana nzira yokugadzirisa pfungwa dzedzidziso, tsika, chirango, pamwe chete nokuziva revo yechokwadi yemagwaro; uye chikonzero cheizvozvo ndechekuti ivo ndivo. JC yakatangwa nokuda kweizvi; ndivo vaakagadza misoro muhurumende yeChechi yake; kwavari ndiko kwaanotidzosera shure kuti titungamirirwe munzira yeruponeso; akanga ari kwavari kuti: “Anokuteererai imi, anonditeerera ini; unokukudzai, unondikudza ini; unokuzvidzai imi, unoramba ini, nokuramba iye wakandituma. »

Zvikonzero zvakadini zvoruremekedzo nechivimbo muzvisarudzo, munhu nechiremera chaava vafundisi vokutanga! Zvingatora zvakawanda here kutitungamirira kuti titeerere zvese zvatiri kurairwa neChechi kuburikidza nemiromo yavo? Asiwo, Baba, kudada kusingatsungirike, chii

kupandukira kunotyisa kumunhu uye chiremera cheJC pachake, havana mhosva vose avo vanongozvidza mitemo yeChechi yake, munhu uye unhu hwevamiririri vayo vokutanga? Hazvisi pachena here kuti kushora kwavo kana kusava nehanya kwavo kunowira pamunhu anodiwa

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iyo yavanomiririra, uye ndiani asingazokundikani kutora mairi, sezvaakapikira, matsive aanofanira kuva nawo kuvanhu vake, uye ayo ane mungava kwaari amene?

Kuteerera uye urombo, nheyo dzinokosha dzekukwana kwechitendero.

Kuti titange zvakare chidzidzo chedu uye kubvunzurudza kwekutanga, Musande Francis saka akandizivisa kuti kuteerera uye nehunhu hutsvene hwehurombo ndiwo aive mapoinzi maviri akakosha ehutongi hwake, idzo dzaaive nadzo zvakanyanya pamoyo, uye dzaaitya zvakanyanya. kukanganisa muchitendero chayo, nekuda kwemigumisiro yakaipa iyo inogona kuva nayo kune hurongwa hwose. “Anocherechedza zvinhu zviviri izvi, akadaro, anocherechedza mamwe ose, nokuti ose anosanganisirwa mazviri; asi zvakare, ani nani anozorora pamapoinzi maviri aya, anozorora pane mamwe ese, uye anofanira kutarisira zvakanyanya njodzi mhedzisiro yekuzorora kwake iye uye kune vamwe vazhinji. Chii chaasingape kuna dhiabhorosi uye kune zvisikwa, kana angoparadza mativi maviri aya ekuzvininipisa kwechiKristu uye kwechitendero?

!.,. Ipapo ndipo pakamutswa shungu dzose pamusoro pake; vanopfachukira sorukova rwapamura migero yarwo. Anova chinhu chayo chekutamba nacho, nokuti, kuti amuranga, Mwari anomusiya kuti ave nepfungwa yake isina kunaka. Anoramba achiwira muutapwa hwekutonga kwake uye kwekuda kwake; anova muranda akashata wekushandiswa kwehudzvinyiriri, zvirevo uye kuravira kwakashata, izvo zvaakanga asiya, uye izvo zvisinei iye asingatsveri kuzviisa pasi zvakare, nekuramba zvakanakira uye nerusununguko rune mbiri urwo vana vaMwari vanonakidzwa narwo pachipfuva. zvechitendero.

Mhiko dzekuteerera nehurombo, nekuparadza kumudzi chaiwo wekuzvikudza uye kunamatira kune zvinhu zvepasi, kudzivirira kukara kwese, kubvisa zvipingamupinyi zvese, uye kusimbisa nheyo dzekukwana pa

matongo ezvakaipa zvose uye pakufanana kunofanira kuva nomuKristu wose nomuenzaniso woumwari wevakatemerwa kare; kufanana uko, nekushandisa kwe claustral hunhu, hunova hwakakwana sezvahunogona kuita muchisikwa; nokuti rudo urwu rwokuteerera nourombo, rwakapikirwa kuna Mwari, harurovereri mumweya unhu hwakanaka husingaparadzanisiki kubva papi! Ndirwo rudo urwu, runosunungura mwoyo kubva murudo rwezvinhu zvinonzwisisika, kuchenesa vavariro dzawo uye kutungamira mafambiro awo ose kuenda kudenga, chinyararire kunoderedza uye zvishoma nezvishoma kunoparadza zvose zvinoratidzwa uye zvishuwo zvevanhu vepasi. Zvisinganzwisisi unyoro, kushivirira, rudo, kuzvininipisa kweJC kunotora nzvimbo yezvikanganiso zvemurume; rudo rwese rwevanhu, kunzwa kwose kwomusikirwo kunoshandurwa ndokupinzwa murudo rwoga rwaMwari: munhu haachazvirarami; asi ndiJC anogara maari: zvino ihwo hupenyu hutsvene ....

Ndiani angamisa mweya wakatsaurirwa kuna Mwari nemhiko yakadzama yekuteerera nekusiya? Ndiani achiri kukwanisa kumumisa mubasa rekukwana kweevhangeri? Irangariroi, inzvimboi inogona  kumukuvadza, apo anokanda meso ake pamigariro yakasiana youpenyu hwomuenzaniso wake mukuru, kubvira pakuberekwa kwake kusvikira  kurufu rwake  ? Anozviona  sa

pakarepo, uye chinangwa chaanomukumbira, uye nzira yaakatsvaga kuti asvike ikoko mushure make. Ndechipi chibairo chaaizoramba achitya mushure meavo vaakaitira iye neavo vaakamuitira pachake, achiramba kuda kwake uye zvose zvinobata kumeso zvisikwa, kuti awirirane naMwari wake?...

JC inonyunyuta pamusoro penharaunda dzakaipa.

Hakuchina kufunga zvakare, akadaro, munhu akabatwa abatwa nechishuwo changu; pamusoro pazvo, inofanira kubvamburwa kuita zvidimbu uye kupiswa nomoto worudo. Muchisungo chitsvene ichi, anozvisunga nerupo munondo wekurwadzisa nekudzika; anozvikurudzira kuti ambundire nokudisa michinjikwa yose inozviratidza, achitevera muenzaniso watenzi wake woumwari;  anosvika pakuzvishuva nokuzvitsvaka nechido, zvokusvika pakuwana mufaro unoshamisa mukunyadziswa nokutambura; nokuti anoaona sezvikamu zvemuchinjikwa waJ  .

Naizvozvo ndiko kuti kupfurikidza nokupokanidza, kupfurikidza nokurwa, kupfurikidza nokuparadza nguva dzose mirangariro nekombamiro yohunhu hwakaora, muiti wemitemo woumwari  anoziva nzira yokuripira nayo avo vari vake nokuda kwokunyimwa nokurambwa  .

zvavakamuitira, kuti vateerere ukuru hwose hwomurayiro wake. Ko, pashure paikoko, munhu angasada sei kunyadziswa nokutambura?

Sei kusasarudza kuomarara kutsvene kweEvangeri kune zvese, kana paine kufarira kwakanyanya mukuzvitsvaga?

Uye zvakadaro, O tenzi wangu mwari! vateveri vako varipi? Munotambudzika, imi Mwari, varipi vatevedzeri venyu munyika yakasungwa nokunzwa uye nokuchiva, ivo vanonamata zvifananidzo zvamunoshora? Nyika inotyisa chete pamuchinjiko wako, uye isingazive nhamo huru kupfuura kufanana naMwari wainonamata kana kuti munamati waichiri kuzviti ndiwe?...

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Saint Francis, mutevedzeri wechokwadi waJC

Iko pano, Baba, kuti ndinodzokera kune muvambi wedu mutsvene, kuti ndiwane uyu mudzidzi wechokwadi, uyu mutevedzeri wechokwadi waJC, murombo, anotambura, uye anonyadziswa. Akamutevera nhanho nhanho muurombo hwake, mukuninipiswa kwake uye mukutambudzika kwake; akamutevedzera muunhu hwake, uye akava akafanana naye, zvikuru, zvishoma, sezvinoita munhu akachena akafanana nomunhu-mwari. Akazvipira kuzvibatanidza pamuchinjikwa wake; uye nokufira kutenda kwokuzvidira uye kunopfuurira kwouku kutambura noupenyu hwakarovererwa, iye akava mumwe wavanyajambwa akaisvonaka zvikurusa worudo rwamwari ari kufa. Muenzaniso wakadini kuvana vake! muenzaniso wakadini  kune vese vakatendeka  !....

Ari kure nokutsveruka nehurombo hwemuchinjikwa uye nezita ratenzi wake woumwari, akazvikudza mariri semupostori; segamba riya reKarivhari, akafara mukutambudzika uye mumatambudziko ake. Aiva nenzara nenyota nokuda kwahwo: akatsvaka neshungu huru kupinda vanhu venyika nokuda kwokugutswa kwavo, nhambo dzose dzaigona kugutsa chishuvo chake chokutambura nokuda kworudo rwaMwari wake; uye ndiko kupisa kweserafiki uku kwakamutsa chakavanzika chikuru, icho chinozivikanwa kuvanhu vashomanene bedzi, ndinoreva kuwirirana kusinganzwisisike chose kwakawanikwa pakati pomunhu wouyu musande mukuru nomunhu waJC amene; kutevedzera,

kwete yepfungwa nemoyo chete, asiwo pamuviri weutsvene uhwu hwakakura, nekunyadziswa kutsvene kwakanyorwa nerudo.

muzvinyorwa zveropa, kumiririra zvakasikwa, zvakanyanya sezvinobvira, maronda matsvene eJC pachake ... Chii chingava chikuru uye chinobwinya kupfuura kufanana uku kwepedyo kwemurume neMuponesi wake naMwari wake!. ..

JC aida kutambura, kuteerera, urombo, kuzvininipisa, Mutsvene Francis akazvigovera; akanga, sezvatataura, akazvininipisa, achitambura, murombo, achiteerera saiye. JC akanga asina chinhu munyika, kwaakanga asina nzvimbo yekuisa musoro wake; aingofunga kubwinya kwababa vake noruponeso rwemweya yaakanga auya kuzodzikinura. Yaive vavariro imwe chete iyi, mushure mekumubvisa zvese, ndokumusunga asina kupfeka pamuchinjikwa.

Achitevedzera muenzaniso wake, Saint Francis haangobvumiri kubviswa nhaka yeJC, asi anotosiya tsika yaakafukidzwa nayo, uye anoidzosera kune uyo waakange agamuchira kubva kwaari, akarongedzerwa kuti asisina baba kuDenga chete. ; anobva amhanya kuti anozviwisira patsoka dzabhishopi wake mutsvene, uyo anomugamuchira mumaoko ake ndokumutsikirira pachipfuva chake: chiratidzo chemubatanidzwa waakaita  nawo

JC, ane nzvimbo yaakachengeterwa bhishopi akanaka uyu, panguva ino kunyanya.

Pakupedzisira, Baba, ndichakuudzei? Mweya mumwe chete iwoyu wokubvisa nokutambura, wakanga waroverera muviri watenzi akanga asina kusimira pamuchinjikwa, wakanyora pamuviri womudzidzi mavanga mapenyu emaronda aakanga abaiwa nawo; uye sezvo JC akaendesa kumusoro kweDenga humbowo hune ropa hwerudo rwake kwatiri, saka Mutsvene Francis achagara akatakura ipapo kunyadziswa kwemaronda ake anoyevedza, sehumbowo hweropa hwerudo rwake rwekutambudzika  kwaJC .  ukuru  hwe

world; asi kufanana kune mbiri kwakadini neunhu hweMwanakomana waMwari!...

Tingamufananidze here zvakanyanya kupfuura baba vedu Musande Francis?

Ndinoziva, Baba vangu, kuti hakuna kupiwa kumunhu wose kusvika padanho iri rekukwana; asi hachisi chokwadi chakaderera kuti hapana anogona kutarisira ruponeso asina kupinda munzira yekuzvidzwa nekutambudzika; pasina kutendeuka, kuodzwa mwoyo, kuzviramba uye zvirevo zvenyika, izvo zvatakapika pamutsara wemusande.

rubhabhatidzo, mushoko, pasina uku kuwirirana nemuenzaniso weumwari uyo watakatora ipapo semukuru wedu nemugove wedu; kufambirana uko ruponeso rwakabatanidzwa zvisingachinjiki.

Rega vanhu venyika vane manyawi vazvinzwe zvino sezvavanoda, uye vaedze, kana vachigona, kutendera Evhangeri sezvavanoda nezvido zvavo; kuti vanozvibata kumeso, kana vachida, kuti Mwari anofanira kuwirirana nemirangariro yavo isina mwero, uye kuti nzira yavo yokutora nayo zvinhu inofanira kuva kutonga kwemitongo yake; kuti vanozvigadzirira, kuenda kudenga, nzira

itsva uye yakanaka, zvisinei nezvirevo zveEvhangeri; pasinei nenzvimbo dzavo dzose dzokugara nokupfava kwose kwavanouya kumutemo, ndichati kwavari: Manyepo! hunyengeri hwese ihwohwo! Aihwa! Aihwa! hazvisi sezvaunofunga; kukunda kwedenga kwaisambove kunakidza kana kutandadza; haana kutongotorwa kunze kwechisimba; mugwagwa waigara  wakatenuka uye wakaoma: mbwende dzaisagona kufamba ipapo, uye zvichava zvechokwadi nguva dzose kutaura kuti munhu haasati achizotongosvika ikoko kunze kwenzira nhete yokupfidza uye muchinjikwa, uye nokutevera zvisaririra kubuda ropa kubva kuna mwari akarovererwa  . ..

Ndakamirira nguva refu kwazvo ini zvangu

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Baba, kutaura nemi pamusoro penhaurirano iyi nababa vedu Musande Francis, uye pamwe ndingadai ndisina kumbozviita, dai pasina zvakaitika kwandiri munguva pfupi yapfuura munzvimbo imwe cheteyo. Mazuva mashoma apfuura, ndichiri kukanda maziso angu, pasina dhizaini, pamufananidzo mumwechete, ndakanzwa kubaiwa mukati; uye kutenda kuchiedza chitsvene chakandivhenekera, mweya waIshe wakandiyeuchidza nezvezvose zvakanga zvakamiririrwa kwandiri munguva yakapfuura nemufananidzo mumwechete uyu, nehurongwa hwekuti unyorwe....

Handiro chete mamiriro ezvinhu muhupenyu hwangu apo Mwari akandiraira nenzira iyi, ndinoreva kuburikidza nemifananidzo yakapendwa kana yakavezwa.

Rudo rwakasimba rweJC rwemweya yedu. Akazvipira zvachose nokuda kwavo.

Rimwe zuva, pakati pezvimwe zvinhu, ndakapfugama kuti ndinamate Sakaramende Yakaropafadzwa kuburikidza nekairi kadiki kari pakwaya. Mhando dzemavhavha ayo, sekuziva kwamunoita, anoshanda kuvhara iyi grille mukati, aive akavhurika mativi ese. Iwe unogona kunge wakacherechedza, uchipfuura munzvimbo ino, mufananidzo wepepa-yakareba-yakareba wakanamatira kune rumwe rutivi rwevhavha. Inomiririra muchinjikwa wakakomberedzwa nemaruva uye ndima kubva muMagwaro Matsvene, izvo zvine chekuita neshungu. Mufananidzo uyu Baba ndinofanira kukuudzai kuti ndini ndakauisa ipapo. Ndizvo chaizvo zvandanga ndauya nazvo kubva kunyika pandakaisiya. Ndikange ndatengwa nemari mitatu, ndiyo yakanga iri mutengo wamazuva angu kumunda; naizvozvo ndakanga ndine simba.

yakanamatira pamufananidzo wangu, pamberi payo kazhinji ndainyengetera. Ndichipinda munharaunda, ndakaibatanidza nenzvimbo yandambotaura, kuti ndirambe ndiine mufaro wekumboitarisa ndichipfuura; izvo zvichiri kundiyeuchidza uye nguva dzose zvaiita kuti ndinzwe zviri nani kufara kwangu kuva  sisita. (1).

(1) Mufananidzo waitaurwa waiva mudhirowa rangu rewadhiropu pandakafanira kubva. Handizivi kuti chii chaitika kwaari.

Pano zvino, Baba vangu, ndizvo zvakaitika kwandiri pamberi pechimiro changu chekare: Ndakataura kuna Mwari ari muSakaramende Rakaropafadzwa, umo kutenda kwangu kwakamunamata; asi, pane imwe nguva pandakanga ndakatarisa chinhu chine musoro, zvakaratidzika kwandiri kuti, neimwe chimiro, ndaitaurawo zvishoma kumufananidzo uyo kuona  kwakakonzera izvo zvandakafunga ipapo. Naizvozvo ndakati kuna Mwari pamberi pechifananidzo: Mwari wangu! Ndakashanda zuva rose kuti ndive nemi nedikita  repahuma yangu 

kundidyira mari yezuva.....

Munyengetero uyu, kana kumiririra, kuseka sezvazvaive pachako, kwakakonzera mhinduro yandisingambofi ndakakanganwa, yakawanda kwazvo ine zvinoreva, simba uye chokwadi: zvinoratidzika kwandiri kuti JC yakabvumira rudzi urwu rwekunyanyisa pane yangu, zvakananga kutora nzvimbo yekundipa chidzidzo cheuchenjeri hwepamusoro, nekundiita ruzvidzo rwunonyanya kurwadza; nokuti anoziva kubata zvinhu zvose, uye kunyange nezvinhu zvisina basa, kuti andidzidzise uye ini ndibatsirwe. Mwari ngaaite kuti zvibatsirewo vamwe vazhinji, sezvandinoshinga kutarisira  !....

Ndakanga ndisati ndataura mazwi aya mandiri, kana zvimwe nemuromo wangu; iro ndakanzwa richibva muSakaramende Rinoropafadzwa, kana kuti kubva mumufananidzo, inzwi rakajeka zvikuru iro rairova nzeve dzokunzwisisa zvakajeka, kana risina kurova iro romuviri, randisingagoni kusimbisa  . Uye ini zvangu

Mwanasikana, ndakabatira makore anopfuura makumi matatu kuti ndiponese mweya wako; Ndinodikitira ropa nemvura imomo, uye hapana chandakasiya kuti ndichengetedze kukunda kwangu. Mushure mekutambudzika kweupenyu hwose, ndakafa kuti ndikudzikinurei kubva kugehena, uye handitarisiri kuti dai ndakazviita nemubhadharo wakakurisa. Kwete, mwanasikana wangu, haundidhurisi zvakanyanya, chero ukashandisa mukana wekudzikinura kwako. Chii chandisingaite kuti ndikutsvakirei nekukuvimbisai mufaro wandakakuwanira neropa rangu rose rakateuka? Uye nditende, mwanasikana wangu, pawaizorarama, pawaizoshanda kwemamiriyoni emakore, hupenyu hwako hwose hunenge husina kukwana kuti ucherechedze chimwe chezvandinoda; uye mamwe mabasa akanaka awakamboita rimwe zuva panyika kana uchiri kutaura kuti denga richapiwa kwauri pasina; ndiko kuti, usadaro iwe

kuita zvakakodzera,  uri  wega. Zvese izvo murume akanaka anogona kuita  pano-

akaderera haakwanisi kuenzana nemudiki wemibayiro yakamumirira.

Munofanira kunyatsofunga, Baba, mushure memhinduro yakadai, ndinofanira kunge ndakanyara uye kunyadziswa kuti ndakakwanisa kuona mutengo wezuva sechinhu, uye mufananidzo wangu wevanhu vatatu sechibayiro chikuru icho Mwari aifanira kwandiri. tenda; uye zvakadaro anoda kuzviita, uye kutipa mubayiro zvishoma. mutsa wakadini! kuzvininipisa kwakadini kwaari!

Nokudaro, Baba vangu, pane imwe nguva yemufananidzo uyu, JC akandiita kuti ndiite fungidziro dzakanyanya kukosha, uye akanyora zvakadzama mumweya wangu izvo zvitsvene izvo zvaakanga atondipa kanopfuura kamwe. Zvose zvandakanzwa hazvina kuita sokunge zvairehwa nokunyomba, asi bedzi

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nenzira yemirairo. Ndakaona pasina kufamba mumufananidzo; nekuti ini handidi kusimudzira chero chinhu chandisina chokwadi nacho: zvese zvakaitika  sezvandataura  .

Chiedza chinoshamisa chekutenda icho chakavhenekera Sista mumiono yavo nemaonerwo emukati maaive afarirwa nawo.

Ndichine chinhu chiduku chandichataura kwamuri, Baba vangu, pamusoro pechiratidzo nezviratidzo zvemukati, zvandakakuvudzai kwazvo, zvandakapiwa naMwari kubva pauduku hwangu. Ndinoyeuka zvikuru kuti apo ndakanga ndichiri mwana, ndakashamiswa kusvikira kumwero wokupedzisira, apo ichi chiedza chinoshamisa chakangoerekana charova pfungwa dzangu, mwoyo wangu kana kunzwisisa kwangu. Pasina mhirizhonga yakazvirovera pamweya. Ndakaramba ndichifunga, ndakashamiswa, uye ndiri padivi pangu, ndisingashandisi pfungwa dzangu, ndichiita, sekutaura, kungo shandisa mumitambo yese yakajairika: izvo zvakaitika kwandiri kazana nezana kubvira, uye nechikonzero chimwe chete  . .

Pfungwa dzangu dzakakura sezvandaikura, uye ndisinganzwisisike ndakadzidza kukurukura naye, nemafungiro aaindipa.

suggested. Naizvozvo akazvizivisa kwandiri nomumwe mutauro wakafanira kwaari, uye uyo pasina mutauro womunhu unogona kutevedzera zvakanaka, sezvandakakutsanangurirai  kune imwe nzvimbo kwenguva  refu....

Naizvozvo akaita kuti ndinzwisise kuti akanga ari chiedza chaMwari chinovhenekera murima, uye icho rima risingagoni kunzwisisa: kana kuti kana uchida zviri nani, akati, Ndini mwenje wokutenda. Avo vanonditevera havafambi murima; asi ivo vana vechiedza, asi avo vanotsinzina meso avo kumwenje wangu vachagara murima  uye vachawa kubva mugomba rakadzika-dzika vachienda  kugomba rakadzika-dzika.

Ndakaziva kuti chiedza ichi chaibva muhutsvene hwehumwari, uye kuti kunaka kwacho kwakaunza mumweya rutendo rusingazununguki mumiedzo yakaoma zvikuru uye munjodzi dziri pachena; kuti kurwadziswa kana kuti rufu hazvaigona kuzunungusa mweya wechitambi ichi, kana iri nyaya yokutsigira chokwadi chechitendero chechiKristu nechiKaturike, muchidimbu zvose zvinokurudzirwa neChechi kukutenda kwevakatendeka. . . .

Kure nekuda kurevererwa kwemanzwiro, fungidziro iyi, kuti inzwike, inoda kuti tirambe kushandiswa kwayo, nekuti ndipo apo dhiyabhorosi anoteya misungo yake, anokanda chirauro chake nekunyepedzera kwake; kazhinji, nekuti pfungwa dzinonyanya kufarira kwairi; nepo kushanda kwaMwari uye kwenyasha dzake  hakuwanzo kuve nehungwaru kunze kwechiedza cheFaith  Charity  . 

inotongwa uye inokurudzirwa nokutenda; uye kutenda, pamwe chete namabasa ose akanaka, kunogamuchira mutengo wako kubva  murudo  . Zviongorore zvose izvi pamberi paMwari,  ini zvangu

Baba, kuti muone kana paine chinhu chinopesana nedzidziso yeChechi. Bvunza kunyange, kana uchiida, chero vari vanhu vanovimbika  uye vakadzidza kwazvo ; nokuti pachava nesarudzo dzichaitwa. Ndinosiya zvese kuhuchenjeri hwako, uye ndiri, neruremekedzo rwese rwunobvira, mumoyo inoera yaJesu naMaria,  nezvimwe.

CHIKAMU VIII.

Chakavanzika icho JC inoda kuti isu ticherechedze maererano nebasa iri, kusvikira nguva iyo inofanira kubudiswa uye kubereka zvibereko zvikuru zveruponeso.

Manotsi akange atotorwa kwemazuva masere kana gumi, uye ndakanga ndakabatikana nehurongwa hwekunyora kwangu, apo Hanzvadzi yeNativity yakazivisa kuna Abbess kuti yakanga ichine chimwe chinhu chakakosha kutaura neni, uye, nemvumo yemukuru wavo. , akandibvunza.

“Baba,” akadaro kwandiri, “ndinofanira kukuudzai zvandakaziviswa naMwari nguva pfupi yapfuura, pamusoro porunyoro rwamuri dhipoziti yacho: zano iri rinogona kuva nehanya nemi zvikuru kupfuura ani zvake; saka ndinorayira kuti ndiutumire kwamuri. Hezvino, Baba, ndizvo zvazviri: Mazuva mashoma apfuura amai vedu vakandibvunza mimwe mibvunzo ine chekuita nezvinyorwa zvavanoziva kuti ndakakupai pamamiriro ezvinhu aripo.

Angadai akada kuziva kana Mwari vasina kundiratidza chimwe chinhu chakakosha pamusoro pezvaizoitika kuChechi uye nenharaunda yedu. Ndakazvishora, neimwe nzira, nekuramba ndakanyanya kunyarara pane zvese izvi, kunyanya sezvo ndichitenda kuti haakwanise kushandisa zvisizvo kuvimbana ...

Kusangwarira kwaSister.

Saka ndakaenda kusvika pakureurura kwaari kuti JC akanga aita kuti ndinzwisise kuti dhiyabhorosi akanga apinda musinagoge rake kuti atambudze Chechi ...; kuti akandiratidza chitendero nenharaunda dziri pasi pemufananidzo womuzambiringa waizotemwa wopiwa upambwa, uye sokunge watsikwa-tsikwa pasi petsoka dzevapfuuri... handina kuzozvitsanangurazve ; asi, maiwe!... zvainge zvatonyanya kutaurwa, kubva zvandakanga ndataura ndichipesana nezvaidiwa namwari, izvo zvakaita kuti ndinzwe mukati-kati memweya wangu neimwe nyonganiso yaindityisa kuti ndakanga ndagumbura Mwari. Waitei ikoko,  hana yangu yakachema  ? Ndizvo zvawaiva nazvo  here

akavimbiswa? uye pakarepo ndangariro

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yakatorwa kwandiri, ndisingakwanise kutaura zvakawanda, pandaida. Ndakagutsikana nekutaura kuti amai vedu vanyarare, ndisingavape kana kapfungwa kekuvhiringika kwangu, izvo zvakandidya mwoyo zvikuru kwezuva rose. Pakupedzisira, manheru iwayo, ndapfugama patsoka dzemuchinjikwa wangu kuti ndikumbire ruregerero nokuda kwekusaziva kwangu, pano, Baba vangu, ndiwo murairo.

kuti JC akandipa pane izvozvo, asingashandisi mazwi, asi nzira yandakatsanangura nayo.

JC inomukurudzira chakavanzika chikuru kusvikira nguva iyo zvaanozivisa kwaari zvinofanira kubudiswa. Migumisiro uye michero yebhuku rino.

“Yeuka,” akadaro kwandiri, “kuti anopfuura makore makumi maviri apfuura ndakakukurudzira kuti uise mudhipoziti yandinofanira kukudzivisa kuziva gare gare. Zvino, iyi dhipoziti yandakataura nezvayo zvakanyanya kwauri, hachisi chimwe chinhu kunze kwechakavanzika chisingachinjike icho chinyorwa chinofanira kuvharirwa uye sekuchengetwa kwacho chakavharwa, kusvika panguva yachinofanira kubuda uye kuoneka pachena. »

Mwari akaita kuti ndione, kunyange zvazvo zvakati kangaidziko, kuti basa duku iri, nderake, rinofanira kugamuchirwa zuva rimwe chete norudzi runopfuura rumwe uye muumambo hunopfuura humwe; kuti anofanira kutevera mwenje wokutenda kusvikira kumagumo, naavo vachafamba muchiedza chayo, pasina kukwanisa kwangu kuona paanofanira kumira. Ichaverengwa kusvika muzana remakore rekupedzisira renyika uye kusvikira nguva dzekupedzisira dzechechi yeJC

Zvikuru zvino, Baba vangu, munhu anogona kutaura nemuporofita (1), kuti, munguva dzekupedzisira, vana nevatana vacharota hope dzisinganzwisisike uye dzechiporofita, uye kuti Mwari achaita kuti vechidiki vaporofite navakuru; kurwisa vaporofita venhema  vaantikristu  ndingati,  mukati

pfungwa, kuti ndini zvose, Baba vangu; zera sezvandiri, ndiri muduku muzvinhu zvakawanda, uye ndinogona kutaura kuti, pane inopfuura pfundo rimwe, ndine kusaziva kwose nokupfava kwomwana. Kana, naizvozvo, chiri chokwadi kuti tiri kubata pamusoro pemakore ekupedzisira eChechi, kuzadzikiswa kwechiporofita pamwero wahwo hwose kunogona kuwanikwa mandiri ndoga. Kudzokera kuchinangwa chedu ....

Joeri.

Inguva yatingagadzira chinyorwa ichi, uye maitirwo acho.

JC saka akandiratidza, sekunge kubva kune imwe nzvimbo, nguva yaanochengetera ruzivo rwake, uye apo iye pachake achapa chiratidzo chekukwevera basa kubva mudhipoziti. Zvichafanira, anodaro, kuti moto wekutambudzika usati wavapo, unotambudza Kereke yangu, udzimwe; mweya wokukunda waSatani unofanira kunyadziswa; kuti sinagogi yake iparadzwe, simba rake risingaperi rinyadziswe,  uye kuti Chechi idzorerwe kukodzero dzayo dzose. Zvino, akandiudza, mutirastii achataura nabhishopi wake nemakurukota; asi panguva ino,  kuti iye

haana kukanganisa pakusarudza kwevaanobvunza. Apa ndipo paanofanira kubatanidza kungwara kwenyoka nekureruka kwenjiva. Ngaachenjere shamwari dzenhema, hama dzenhema, vafundisi venhema, vanoshingaira venhema, vatongi venhema! Ngaachenjerere makuva akacheneswa, mapere akafukidzwa nedehwe regwayana, ayo, nounyengeri hunosemesa zvikuru, akapinda mudanga kuti agutse hasha dzawo, nokuuraya makwai, achinyepedzera kuva nomutsa nounhu. kana hunhu hwemwana waMwari hwakaita muvengi mumwechete wenyika yababa.

Nhamo inova mhedzisiro yekuburitswa nguva isati yakwana.

Zvino, nechiedza chemukati JC akaita kuti ndizive nhamo dzakaipisisa, kusvika panguva ino, dzaigona kusvika kuChechi yose nekusaziva kumwe chete kwatiri. Ndinorarama, Baba vangu, uye ndichiri kubvunda, ndinorarama hasha dzinotakura satani pamusoro pako neni, kubva aziva zano redu. Naizvozvo haazivi zvakaitika pakati pedu, uye nokuda kwaizvozvo achapa rusununguko kufungidziro dzake uye kufungira kwake. Asi zvinyorwa zvedu, zvakavanzwa, ndezvake izvo pfuma inokosha yakavharirwa pasi pechivharo chisingakundiki chesefa ndeyembavha. Atadza kuzvigona, mbavha inoshatirwa nehasha, uye inopedzwa nekutsvaga nzira dzekumanikidza chipfuva ichi, kana kuchivhura kuti chibate icho chirimo. Ndizvozvo, ita

Chishuvo chikuru chedhimoni ndechokuzivisa nezvacho kuvavengi vorudzidziso neveChechi, vane udzvinyiriri hwaizobatira madonzo ake nenzira inoshamisa. Anotsvaka kwese kwese nzira dzekuararamisa uye kuti azvirwise. Anozvibata kumeso kuti achauya kumagumo ayo, uye akavimbisa kwenguva refu kuti isu tichava vekutanga kutambudzwa kwatichave takafara, uye izvo zvichaita kuti ropa revaKristu vakanakisa riyerere, uye pamusoro pezvose. vashumiri vatsvene zvikuru vechitendero.

Ndinoyeuka kuti pane imwe nguva, nokuseka kwakashata, akanga aratidza kwandiri sisita chairo raaizoshandisa kuvhiringidza basa rokutanga, uye chinhu chiri chose chakaitika sezvaakanga andiudza  . Saka, Baba vangu,  kusvikira

zvinhu zvachinja, sezvo denga richiita serinotitungamirira kutariro, haufaniri kufunga nezvekuzivisa chero chinhu kune chero munhu, kunyanya kubudisa chero chinhu, kwete munguva yehupenyu hwangu kana mushure mekufa kwangu.

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Kunenge kuri kubatidza mwenje wekupisa Kereke nekupedza nharaunda. Asi kana takatendeka kukuteerera kunodiwa naMwari, J.

C. anondivimbisa kuti achatsigira zvinhu zvose, kuti achadzivirira basa rake uye anoziva nzira yokuvhiringidza kuedza kwevavengi vake. Zvakakosha sei kusachengeta chakavanzika chechimiro  ichi  ! (1)

Ngatidzokerei zvino kunzvimbo yangu yokudzokera kuSaint-Malo, uko Hanzvadzi yoKuberekwa yakanditumira tsamba inotevera, kumavambo omwedzi waNovember 1791:

Tsamba kubva kuHanzvadzi yeKuberekwa kuMupepeti. Yambiro itsva yekuchengeta basa rakavanzika, nekuda kwematambudziko matsva anotyisidzira Chechi.

“Baba, makore anopfuura makumi maviri apfuura, sezvamunoziva, Mwari vakandiudza kakawanda kuti basa

(1) Kutonga zvose izvi zvakanaka, kunoratidzika kwandiri kuti tinofanira kutora zvinhu kwete panguva yazviri zvino, asi panzvimbo pazvaive panguva iyo Hanzvadzi yakataura neni nenzira iyi; uye zvichabvumiranwa kuti zvinhu zvose zvachinja zvikuru, uye kuti, kunyanya kubva pakufa kweHanzvadzi, nhamo zhinji dzaifanira kutyiwa panguva iyoyo, hadzichisiri, kana kuti dzinenge dzisisina, nhasi. Kana moto wacho usati wadzima zvachose, zvinoita sokuti, ndinoonga Mwari, kuti unodzimwa zuva nezuva.

mubvunzo yaifanira kuiswa mudhipoziti kuti ichengetwepo kwenguva yakati. Ndakabva ndataura nezvebasa uye dhipoziti kumutungamiriri wangu, uyo akaita seasinganzwisisi zvakanyanya zvandaida kutaura, uye izvo hazvigone kupomerwa kwaari; nokuti mukutaura naye nezvazvo, ndinoreurura kwamuri kuti handina kunyatsozvinzwisisa ini. Nhasi, Baba vangu, Mwari vari kuda kunditsanangurira zvinovanetsa, nokuita kuti ndizive zviri pachena kupfuura zvose zvandakatanga kukuudzai pachangu, kuti nguva yasvika yokuti basa richengetedzwe, kusvikira iye akuzivisai. inguva yekuibvisa.

Yakanga iri mushure mechirairo apo akazvitsanangura pachake pamusoro pechinhu ichi, uye heino mhedzisiro yezvaakaita kuti ndinzwisise: izvo zvatakambosangana nazvo.

Dutu rave richitinhira kwenguva yakareba, rinofanira kupedzisira raputika munguva pfupi. Ruvengo rwegehena rwava pakukwirira kwarwo, uye ndinotya zvikuru kurohwa kwekupedzisira kwarwo

Vakuru Oh! Baba ngatingwarirei kushivirira kwakashata  kwakavimbiswa

Mapato ose, nekunyepedzera kuenzana, kwerunyararo uye nerusununguko urwo rwavanoti runoumba kodzero dzemunhu! Baba, kana Denga rikasatipa ruoko, kuti tipesane, sezvandinovimba, chirongwa cheropa chinoyeukwa, isu tichave vanyajambwa vezvitarisiko izvi. Uyu ndiwo musungo wokupedzisira uyo Satani anotiisira: kudzikama kunonyengera, rugare rune ngozi runozivisa dutu idzva, uye zvichida kuputsika kwengarava kwakawanda; nenzira iyoyi kunokarakadzwa kuunganidza vaprista vakanaka navanokudzwa, kuti vavaparadze zvamazvirokwazvo, nokudaro ndokubvisa kamwe kamwe chipingamupinyi chikuru kurongedzero yokuparadza rudzidziso neHurumende. . . .

Ndinovimba kubva murubatsiro rwehumwari kuti chirongwa chekupedzisira ichi hachizozadzikiswa zvizere; asi ndinoona muna Mwari kuti zvinhu hazvizofambi zvakanaka pasina kudeurwa kweropa rakawanda; uye ini ndinotya zvikuru kuti izvi zvinoratidzika zviremekedzo, izvo zvakave zvakakanganisika kune vafundisi vechipiri chechipiri, zvichaguma, sekuda kwaHerodhi kuedzesera kunamata JC, mukuuraya uko vane mhosva vachaita vasina mhosva.

Hongu, Baba, ndinomutya zvikuru kune wese wese; asi ndinokutyai zvikuru nokuda kwenyu; nokuti kana gehena riine ruvengo nemakereke ese emhando yako, usakahadzika kuti rine chido chekukupomera mhosva, nekuda kwedhipoziti yarinofanoona rinofanira kunge rine njodzi kwariri. Akapika kuwa kwako; achafamba pamusoro pazvo munzira dzose,  achaita zvose kuti akunde hurongwa hwako. Asi une chikonzero chokuzvisimbisa umene pamusoro petariro yedziviriro chaiyo zvikuru inobva kuna iye anoda kukushandisa kuita kuti basa raunotarisira nokuda kwaro  ribudirire. Asi sezvo usingafaniri kuedza Mwari,  iwe

unofanira kutora zvese zvauinazvo.

Chengetedzo dzinofanirwa kutorwa nemupepeti kuchengetedza munhu wake uye mabhuku ekunyorera aanochengetera.

“Naizvozvo ndinofunga, Baba, kuti mungaita zvakanaka kuti muise zvinyorwa zvenyu nomunhu wenyu panzvimbo yakachengetedzeka, nokutoenda kure kure panguva yenhamo iri kugadzirira; nokuti tave pedyo nekuputika kusiri kure zvakanyanya sekufunga kunoita munhu pazvitarisiko zvenguva yacho. Ichokwadi

kuti amai vedu vakutumira bhokisi rako remapepa, nemari uye netwunhu tudiki tunozoda. Unofanira kuenda nekukurumidza kuJersey kana kuGuernsey, uye kunotaurirana ikoko nemamwe mabhishopi edu akanaka, achitambudzwa nokuda kwechikonzero chimwe chete newe; nokuti Mwari anoita kuti ndione zvakare kuti kuvafundisi vokutanga ndiko kwaunofanira kutanga kutaura newe (1); uchataura wakandimiririra kuvafundisi vakanaka ava vandinoshora nemwoyo wangu wose uye pasina chinondirambidza zvose zvingapesana nechitendero cheChechi yeRoma, yandinoda kurarama uye kufa mairi.

Aive anyatsondiratidza iye pachake Mgr. Bhishopi weTréguer; uye  kwaari ndiko kwandakatanga kutaura neni, sezvazvichaonekwa  .

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Munogona kunzwisisa, Baba, kuti zvakadii kuti tigare tichikukurudzirai kuti muende kure kure, isu tinoshuva kudzoka kwenyu! Chii chinondishungurudza, ndiani asingakwanise

kuti nekuomerwa kukuru ndivhure mwoyo wangu kune chero upi zvake pahunhu uhwo Mwari vane maererano neni! Maiwe! Baba, zvinoita sekuti kuparadzana uku kune hutsinye chibairo chaanoda chose, uye chatinofanira kuita kwaari, tisingazive kana zvichave nekusingaperi, kana kwenguva yakati chete. Ngatinamate kuda kwake kutsvene uye titeerere neupofu....

Chivimbo chaanofanira kuva nacho muna Providence.

"Ndakanga ndatora rusununguko rwekumumiririra kuti zvingadai zvakave zviri nyore uye zvisingadhuri  kuti iwe ugare kwaunenge uri, pane kuenda, kuburikidza nekuneta kutsva uye njodzi itsva, kuyambuka makungwa kuenda kunyika, inenge isina ruzivo. , mune humwe umambo,  nyika  isingazivikanwi nevanhu  vose

kuti Ishe vedu vakandipindura kuti zvaingoda ruvimbo neUshingi; kuti munhu arege kumuidza nokukumbira zvishamiso, panzvimbo pemitoo yaanongopa yaanongopa kuti aishandise. Josefa naMaria, akandiudza, kuti vakanga vane pfuma shoma padivi ravanhu, uye kunyange zvakadaro, pasina kumirira kuti zvishamiso zvisunungurwe pahasha dzaHerodhe, vakabuda usiku uye nokuraira kwokutanga, kunyika yokumwe uye isingazikanwi. pasina kunetseka pamusoro pezviitiko. Iri ibasa rakowo ini zvangu

Baba, handipokane nazvo: iyi ndiyo nzira yamunofanira kuzvibata nayo, uye muenzaniso wamunofanira kutevedzera nekutevedzera, kuponesa mumwe mwana anobva kudenga… (1)

Ndinogona kupupura, kumbiri yaMwari noMuranda wake, kuti handina kushayiwa zvinodikanwa mukutapwa kwangu, uye kuti, ndisingambodi kuita mamwe mabasa kunze kweaya ane chokuita nezvidzidzo zvangu zviduku, uye izvo zvakadzosa kwazviri. , ndakava nenhambo dzinopfuura kamwe dzokuyemura, kunyange nokushamisika, kutarisira  kwoMutungamiriri anogara achingwarira kugovera zvinodikanwa izvo kazhinji kazhinji ndaisatofanoona  .

Kupokana kunofanira kusangana nebasa iri. Kukunda kwayo nemigumisiro yayo.

Mushure mekuita nhamburiko dzose dzokumudzivisa kuberekwa, ndinoona muna Mwari kuti dhimoni richawedzera hasha dzaro kuti rimurove pamubhedha wake achangobva kuberekwa kwake. Achamumutsira vavengi nezvipingamupinyi kwose kwose; tichaona nyanzvi dzenhema dzichizvishongedza nemanomano uye sophism kuti dzirambe, dzichizvidza, dzichisvibisa uye dzichidzivirira kupararira; asi ndinoona zvakare kuti ichatsigirwa zvakasimba nebato rinopikisa, iro, rinovhiringidza mabasa avo, richaita kuti rikunde pane zvose zvavanoedza kuita. Ichaverengwa, kutsvakwa, uye ichava, seVhangeri pachayo, nguva yeruponeso nekurasikirwa kwevazhinji.

Izvi ndizvo zvandakaratidzwa naMwari pamusoro pezvinhu izvi zvose. Handina kupokana; nokuda kwokuda kwako kumuteerera. Ndiratidze chikamu chauchatora, uye ndiitire mufaro wekuwedzera mazwi mashoma kwairi kuitira hana yangu, kuitira kuti mhinduro dzako kukufunganya kwandakataura kwauri, dzigone kundisimbisa, kunyangwe parufu. , kana ndisingafariri kubatsirwa nemi, sezvandinoda....

Maiwe! Baba hatizivi kana tichizokwanisa kukuonai zvakare nekukunzwai; asi kupi nokupi kuda kutsvene kwaMwari

tungamira, usambokanganwa Hanzvadzi murombo weKuzvarwa kwaJesu. Mundinyengetererewo isu tose sezvatinokuitirai isu. Kutenda, sezvamunoziva, mwenje wehumwari unofanirwa kutitungamirira nguva dzose, sezvakangoita rudo runofanira kugara runotiraramisa. Hongu, Baba, kutenda, tariro nerudo rwechiKristu, iyi ndiyo nzira yatinofanira kugara tichitevera; izvi ndizvo zvatinofanira kuisa chivimbo chedu mazviri; Ndinowedzera kuteerera kuna Mwari nekuChechi yake kwehupenyu nerufu, rinova ndiro dombo rechokwadi re

kubata izvo chokwadi chinozogara chichisiyaniswa kubva mukukanganisa. Zvakadaro uye zvichagara zviripo, nenyasha dzeJC, manzwiro emwanasikana wako muna Mwari,

»Hanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu.

» Gamuchira, ndinokukumbira, neruremekedzo rwangu, avo venharaunda yese.

»

Mupepeti wacho akabva kuSt-Malo kuti aende kuchitsuwa cheJersey, muna December 1791.

Mushure mechiitiko chemunguva yakapfuura, ndakanga ndisingadi zvakawanda kubva mushoko rangu kuti ndizive kuti ndini. Ndakanga ndisati ndagamuchira yambiro yekupedzisira kupfuura mutemo wechipiri wakapihwa, kurova mushure mekurova, zvisungo zvekuteura ropa uye kuuraya, kusaruramisira uye udzvanyiriri hwakamukira marudzi ese. Vashatiriswa, vachisundwa kusvika kumagumo nokuramba kwakasimba kwevashumiri vechokwadi veatari, vamiririri veudzvanyiriri nevekusanamata vakada nehasha kupfuura nakare kose mhiko inotyisa uye inonyadzisa, uye vakaita nhamburiko dzekupedzisira kupedza basa revakavatangira.

Mukurwisana namaruramiro ose, uye kunyange mukurwisana negadziriro dzedare remitemo rokutanga, vaprista veKaturike vakarambwa izvo zvakapiwa kuvashumiri vamasekete ose, mihoro yechinguvana norusununguko rwokufunga kworudzidziso . Vairambidzwa kuita chero chinhu, kunyange chakavanzika, chemabasa avo makuru. ChiKaturike chakarambidzwa muumambo umo, kwamazana amakore gumi namana, chakanga chiri icho bedzi chaizivikanwa uye chiri chimwe bedzi murusununguko ruzere; nematambudziko  aizouya

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zvazvakaberekwa nechisimba chakadaro, vaiva neutsinye husina kururamisira hwekupa mhosva kunyange avo vaiitirwa. Zvakadaro zvagara zviri, pavakanga vakasimba zvikuru, kushivirira kwevagari vemo kweavo vanotizvidza nokuda kwokusashivirira kukanganisa kwavo....

Ndichiri nezviitiko zvekutyisa vaigadzirira kurasikirwa nenyika yangu inosuruvarisa, ndakasarudza, nemisodzi mumaziso angu, kuisiya, kuti ndirege kuva nyajambwa kana kuti chapupu kunhamo dzayo dzokupedzisira.

Ndichibva kuSaint-Malo uko, sezvandakataura, ndakanga ndapedza mwedzi mina, ndakaenda kuchitsuwa cheJersey, chinotsamira paEngland, uko ndakamhara pana December 6, 1791. Uye chii chakanga chiri chishamiso changu, apo kubva munhamo dzomumwe mhepo. Humambo hweKatorike, ndakazviona ndichiwira murima renguva dzose rekusawirirana uye kukanganisa! Ndinoreurura kuti handina kumbobvira ndatenda kuti kubva kumataundi emuganhu wedu zvaizongonditorera zvikwata zvishomanana kuti ndiyambuke kuti ndione kusiyana kwakashata kwakadaro; uye, ndichiona chimiro chomudzimu icho vanhu vakawanda kwazvo vakatendeseka uye vanonzwira tsitsi vanoderedzwa kwachiri, ndakanga ndisingagoni kurega kutya zvikuru, nokuda kwenyika yangu yaitambura, kupfuurira kwechimurenga chinoparadzanisa umambo nepakati pokubatana  .

CHIKAMU IX.

Mirayiridzo yakakosha pamusoro peChirairo Chitsvene, Kureurura uye Kuzvidemba. Mhosho, manyepo, zvikanganiso uye kushungurudzwa zvinopinda mukugashira Masakaramende eKupfidza uye Eucharist.

Kunyora kumwe kutumira kweHanzvadzi Yekuzvarwa kwaJesu, kwakatanga muchitsuwa cheJersey musi waDecember 14, 1791.

“Baba, ndichine zvimwe zvinhu zvokutaura kwamuri, uye mashoko akati wandei ekutaura kwamuri pamusoro pezvizhinji zvezvinhu zvatakatobata nazvo. Izvi zvinogona kunge zvakasiiwa kana mwenje mutsva izvo Mwari vachiri kuda kuti nditaure newe.

Zvizhinji zvichange zviri pamusoro pezvimiro kumasakaramende eRurango neYukaristiya, zvikanganiso izvo munhu anoita ipapo, pamwe nezvakanaka kana zvakaipa mhedzisiro yemasakaramende maviri aya zvakanaka kana zvakaipa zvakagamuchirwa. Ishe anondikurudzira ngaatore  mbiri yake kubva mairi  !. Ndichiri kutsunga kusakuudza  uye

kukuita kuti unyore izvo chete zvandichaona muchiedza chinovhenekera pandiri kubva kwaari, pasina kunetseka pamusoro pekuenzana, izvo zvisiri, zvakapotsa, izvo zvakakosha pazvinhu izvi zvakakosha kuruponeso rwedu rusingaperi.

Nyasha dzakanyanya dzakabatanidzwa nechirairo chakakodzera. Nzira dzekuzvichengeta .

“Chokutanga, Baba vangu, maererano neChirairo Chitsvene, Ishe wedu akandizivisa kuti mweya unotaura nenzira yakakodzera, ndiko kuti nemafungiro anodiwa uye akakodzera, nokudaro unogamuchira nyasha dzakati, dzinorovererwa pauri. , uye iyo inoramba iripo kunyange mushure mekudyiwa kwemarudzi esakaramende.

Ndinoona kuti nyasha idzi dzakakosha, dzakatetepa, uye dzakaoma kuchengetedza. Zvakafanana nekubuda kubva mumuviri weJC neropa; pakupedzisira, inyasha dzakakodzera sakaramende rinoyevedza uye rinoera. Nepo mweya wakashongedzwa uye wakashongedzwa nenyasha dzinokosha idzi, ndicho chinhu chenyasha dzedenga, uye chinoyemurwa nevakaropafadzwa vose.

Ishe wedu vakaita kuti ndizive kuti, kuti ndiichengetedze, zvakanga zvakafanira kungwarira zvikuru pamusoro pako uye pamusoro pezvose zvomunhu zvomukati nokunze; asi pamusoro pazvose ruvengo rwetsika, ruvengo chairwo rwechivi chose, chinosvika pakudzivisa zvikanganiso zviduku. Hongu, ndinoona kuti kukanganisa kwenyama, mhosva shoma yakaitwa nekufungisisa uye chinangwa nemaune, zvakakwana kusvibisa kunaka kwenyasha idzi dzisingaenzaniswi, uye kunyange kuita kuti dziparare zvachose, kana pave nemhando ipi zvayo yezvakaipa mukuda kwakaitwa. it.

Uipi hwemaune venial sin.

Hakuzi, Baba, kuti chivi chisingafadzi chinogona kubvisa nyasha dzemweya zvachose, zvoita kuti urasikirwe, sezvinoita chivi chinofa: Mwari ngaandidzivise kuti ndisambozvifambisa! Asi izvi ndizvo zvandinoona muna Mwari: Kuda kusingafadzi uye kwakatukwa kuita nemaune chivi chisingafadzi uye chikanganiso chidiki chiri mumweya yedu hunhu hwehumhondi, uye hunogara huine bakatwa muruoko rwekurova nekuparadza pasina hanya uye pasina mwero. Kana nechivi chenyama isingauraye mweya zvachose, inotozvishandisa ipapo; achigara achivheyesa bakatwa rake kurudyi nekuruboshwe, kana izvozvo zvichigona kutaurwa, anomukonzera maronda akawanda, akanyanya kana kudzika zvishoma, sezvaanoita zvikanganiso zvenyama, uye nokudaro anoita kuti akaremara, asina simba uye akavanzika, semuviri wemunhu wakakuvadzwa. akaboorwa, akachekwa uye akashatiswa.

Mweya wakapera simba nokudaro unova usimbe neusimbe mubasa raMwari nomuitiro wezvakanaka. Anowira muchiveve, kana kuti haaendi kure asina kurasikirwa nenyasha, nekupunzika kukuru nekusatendeka; uye kana chivi chenyama chisiri chinofa pachacho, chinotonyanya kufa mumigumisiro yacho, sezvatakataura kune imwe nzvimbo.

Idzi nyasha chaidzo uye dzakakodzera dzechirairo chakanaka, ndinodzitora, Baba vangu, sekubata kwekupedzisira uko Musiki anopa kumufananidzo wake pachake kuti uwedzere kufadza; uye kubata uku kunogara kwakawanda kana kushoma kwakasimba, zvinoenderana nekuti mweya unowedzera

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kana kushoma kugadzirira kuigamuchira, zvakanyanya kana zvishoma kufambira mberi mukukwana kwehunhu, zvakanyanya kana zvishoma kuda kutaurirana.

Kana urongwa uhwu hwakakwana sezvahunogona, saka hapana chinoenzana nekupenya kwakajeka kwemavara ayo mufananidzo uyu unobatwa zvakare nemunyori wawo. Ndinofanira kushandisa mumwe kuenzanisa: Fungidzira mwanasikana wamambo, uyo anoenda kunosangana naShe nomurume wake nerudo rwose uye gadziriro inobvira: murume wake, anoyeverwa nenyasha dzake uye runako rwake, achiri kuda kuhuwedzera kunaka, uye anofarira kuwedzera kwayo

zvinokwezva; nokuda kweizvi anomuzarurira mwoyo wake nepfuma yake, uye anomupfekedza nguo yegoridhe nesirika, nematombo anokosha, ayo anokwidziridza nyasha dzake. Akashongedzwa nenguo iyi inokosha, anova anopenya uye anofadza mumaziso omurume wake sezvaaiita pazuva ravo romuchato, uye hapana chinogona kuwedzera kumufarwa wake.

Izvi, JC anondiudza, ndiwo maitiro andinoita kune mweya wakatendeka uyo unoswedera kusakaramende yangu nemaitiro erudo ainoda. Nekuzvipa kwaari, handimupi kana favourite, asi zvisingaperi; Ndinorivhurira hupfumi hwese hwehumwari hwangu, ndinongwarira kuhushongedza, nekuhushongedza nenyasha dzangu dzese. Kunoitwa nechirairo ndakapfeka kunaka kwangu, senguvo inobwinya, inoshandura izvi.

hunyanzvi hweruoko rwangu, uye zvinoyemurika zvinoburitsa runako rwayo rwechinyakare, kunyanya kufanana uku kunofadza nemunyori waro, izvo zvinoreva kuti Mwari haagone kurega kuzvitarisa neziso rekunyunyuta nerudo.

Ipapo ndipo paakataura mashoko aya ounyoro kwaari: Wakanaka, mudiwa wangu, uye ndinoisa mauri kunyunyuta kwangu kose uye mufaro wangu, nokuti handioni gwapa mairi rinogona kukanganisa maziso angu.

Asi pano, Baba, pane pfuma yakavanzwa, chakavanzika chechokwadi chemurume nemukadzi mutsvene; asingagutsikane nekushongedza mweya uyu, JC anonyora zvakare, sekutaura, mairi kutenda, tariro uye rudo; anowedzera, uyezve, kune umwe neumwe weunhu hwechiKristu hwaanahwo, nyasha dzakafanira, kuzodza kwakati, kuwanda kwezvinhu, kuwedzera kwezvikomborero, izvo zvinowedzera kunaka kwayo uye zvinoyemurika zvinogonesa kuita kwayo. Iripo, anodaro JC kwandiri, kutsvoda kwemuromo, nyasha dzinokosha zvikuru, nyasha hurusa dzemukwanyina woumwari .....

Hazvisi pasina kupokana, Baba vangu, kuti nyasha nenyasha idzi hadzitenderwi, uye dzinoita kuti munhu ave asina chaanopomerwa; aiwa, zvinosuruvarisa kuti anogona kuwa kubva kwavari uye orasikirwa navo zvachose, nekushandisa zvisina kunaka rusununguko rwake rwekusarudza, nekuti haana kusimbiswa naizvozvo munyasha, sevatsvene vari kudenga. Zvandinoda kutaura, Baba, uye izvo JC akaita kuti ndizive, ndezvekuti zvakanyanya kuoma uye zvisingawanzo kurasikirwa nenyasha dzerudzi urwu, kunyanya kana mweya uine kutendeka kushoma kuenderana navo, nekuti ivo havana kusimba uye. zvakanyanya kusimba

zvakadzika midzi mumwoyo une mufaro wokuva nawo.

Havasi vose vanodya chirairo vanogamuchira idzi nyasha dzakakosha. Yechii.

Asi avo vose vanodya chirairo vari kure nokugamuchira idzi nyasha dzinodikanwa, idzo dzisingawanzowanikwi uye dzinokosha zvikuru; chikonzero, mushure mezvandambotaura, hazvina kuoma kuwana. Chisungo chimwe chete kuchivi chenyama, kurerekera kusingafadzi kune kadiki-diki kutadza nemaune, nekuona uye nekufungisisa, kunodiwa kudzivirira kunakidzwa kwayo.

Chii chichava ipapo, ndinokubvunzai, nezveava vanhu avo, zuva nezuva, vanosvika kwavari netsika nechidakadaka kune chiuru chezvikanganiso zvenyama, izvo vangave vanozvidemba zvikuru kuzviruramisa vamene? Haiwa vari kure sei kubva pakugamuchira idzi nyasha dzakakosha dzesakaramende dzvene! "Mweya isina hanya uye isina kutendeka, anodaro JC kwavari, ndinoona kuti iwe uri wangu chete usina kukwana uye  hafu!. Iwe hautombonyadziswi nebasa rangu, uye unofarira  yako

mafaro anondigutsa; hamudi chibayiro chinodiwa norudo rwangu; hauna hanya neni. Zvakanaka! hamungandifadzi; asi iwe uchanyengerwa; Idzi nyasha dzakakosha uye dzakakosha dzandakachengetera kutendeka kwenyu, ndinozopa kune mweya yakatendeka yakawanda inoedza zvese kuti vafadze meso angu. Kana murimi, ndinotokutsigirai zvakaoma bedzi; uye kudziya uku, inova mhosva yako yekutanga, ichakurumidza kuve chirango chako chekutanga, kana ndikashandisa zvakafanana kwauri.

kusava nehanya kwaunoratidza kwandiri: ndiko kunoratidzwa nehumbwende hwako. »

Zvakadaro, Baba vangu, ndinoona muna Mwari kuti mweya inotaurirana iri muchimiro ichi haina kunyimwa nyasha dzose; asi vanongogamuchira nyasha dzamazuva ose, idzo dzine simba shoma mukuenzana nekukanganisa kwavo uye rudo rwavainarwo rwekusakwana kwavo.

Kureurura nguva nenguva, pasina marwadzo uye pasina chinangwa chakanaka. Nokudaro, kushungurudzwa kweSakaramende.

Hezvino zvakare izvo Mwari akandizivisa pamusoro peiyi mweya isina kukwana: dhiabhorosi anovanyengetedza kuti zvakakwana, kuva muchimiro chechirairo zvakanaka, kuti vareurura uku kusakwana kwamarudzi; kuti, pamusoro pazvo, hazvibviri kune utera hwevanhu

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kuvanzvenga. Nokudaro, pasina kuita chinhu chipi nechipi chokuramba kuravira uye kombamiro iyo munhu anayo nokuda kweizvi zvikanganiso, kurwisa, kanenge, kombamiro yavo yenguva dzose, anovachengeta mumuitiro wokureurura, pasina marwadzo uye pasina donzo rakanaka, asi bedzi nemuitiro. , uye, sezvavanotaura, nenzira yekuwana.

Kunyengedza kunoparadza, izvo zvinowanzokonzera kushungurudzwa kwemasakaramende uye nenyasha dzose! Ichokwadi kuti utera hwevanhu hahugoni kudzivisa zvikanganiso zvose; asi ichokwadiwo kuti kunyanya hapana kana chimwe chezvikanganiso izvi chaasingagoni kudzivisa, kana akatendeka kunyasha dzinopiwa nokupiwa kwaari nokuda kweizvi. Naizvozvo imhosva yakachena yemweya inodziya  , kana isingavanzvenge; asi rudzi urwu rwavanhu, vachizvitenda vamene kuti vakarasa zvivi zvavo, vari pasi porugare rwenhema rwehana, urwo runovapofumadza ndokuvapinza muzvikanganiso zvinosiririsa zvokuzvipira kunoshamisa, kusinganzwisiswi, uye dzimwe nguva kwokudavira mashura  zvikuru  . Ivo

vaizopa upenyu hwavo nomufaro mudenderedzwa rereurura neruwadzano, izvo zvavanoita sokungozvipa vamene rusununguko rwakawanda, pamusoro pezvose mune zvine chokuita netsikawo zvayo yehana dzavo. Vanhu ava, ndinovaona vari munjodzi huru kwazvo yeruponeso rwavo; nokuti kuwanda kwazvo kwokureurura kwavo nechirairo hakuna maturo, tisingarevi kumhura....

Asi ndinosiira kutonga kuna Mwari, uye ndinoyambira vatungamiri kuti havagoni kunyanyoteerera kwairi, kana vasingadi kuzvidavirira ivo pachavo.

Zviri pachena uye zvenhema contrition.

Mumwe musungo uyo dhiabhorosi anowanzoteya vatadzi vanogara vachigadzirira kuenda kudare rinoera; kunosanganisira kuvaita kuti vanyengere panyaya yokuzvidemba. Vanoyeuka kuti munhu anofanira kupfidza uye kupfidza kuti awane kuregererwa pazvivi zvaanenge aita; ipapo, vachisundwa namanomano edhimoni, vanozvikurudzira vamene mukuedza kukuru kwokuzvidemba nokupfidza kuzvikanganiso zvavo zvinofa kana kuti zvinouraya; vanochema nokugomera, vanochema nokuungudza: izvo zvinowanzoitika kune avo vanonyanya kunzwa pabonde. Pakupedzisira, vanoreurura, uye vanoita zvakanaka kwazvo kuzvidemba chaikoiko, marwadzo chaiwoiwo, rupfidzo chairwoirwo, zvokuti vanokwanisa nyore nyore kunyengera vareurura vavo nokuzvinyengera vamene; asi chavasingagoni kubudirira ndechekunyengera uyo ane nzvimbo inoreurirwa kwavari.

iye anonzvera mwoyo nechiuno, uye nevavariro.

Uyu mutongi asingaori haatongi nezvavo, kana zvimiro zvavo, nezvitarisiko zviya zvinotyisa, nhema dzinogara dzichiratidza. Nokuti, kana tikavatevera mushure mokureurura kwavo, kashoma kuti vabve mudare rinoera kana tichiona vavariro dzavo dzokunyepedzera dzichipera; marwadzo avo anobhururuka nokukurumidza sokuuya kwaakanga aita, uye anosiya ava vangada kupfidza muzvisungo zvimwe chetezvo, miitiro imwe cheteyo nechishuvo chimwe chetecho chokutangazve nzira yavo yenguva dzose; izvo zvisingambokundikani kuitika pamukana wokutanga unovapo, kunyange mukati mezuva, apo vakanga vavimbisa kuramba vakarinda kuti vasawiramo zvakare.

Misodzi iyi, kugomera uku, kugomera uku kunoitwa nedhimoni, saka zvinongoburitsa kufungidzira, kuzvikudza, nechokwadi chenhema, chinouraya kupfuura mhosva yacho  pachayo  . Ungazvinetserei, woti  chii

baba vemanyepo kumweya uyu vanyengedza nenzira inosiririsa kudaro?...

Ndiani angakukurudzira nekutya chero kupi zvako, mushure mekureurura kwawakaita, uye kurwadziwa chaiko kwayaiperekedzwa  nako  ? Ehe! Ehe! zvivi zvenyu  ndezvenyu

kanganwirwa; hapana kukahadzika kuduku: nokudaro nyarara pamusoro pezvose zvakapfuura, uye ugutsikane nokuzvipomera umene pamusoro pezvikanganiso zvako zvenguva dzose, izvo zvinozoregererwawo iwe. Nokuti, shure kwezvose, anoenderera mberi, haisi nyaya yemhosva huru, asi chete yezvikanganiso zviduku, uye kazhinji kacho kusakwana kwakapfava, uko hana yako inotya inowedzeredza nehafu. Usatya chero nhamo nematambudziko. Waizoda kuva akakwana, sokunge kuti vanhu ingirozi pasi pano.

Kuri nokudaro kuti uyu muvengi anonyengera anotaura kuvanamati venhema, zvikurukuru kuvanamati venhema, avo iye anotungamirira samakwai uye anotendeutsa semakote; uye zviri pamazano akadaro apo munhu anozvisimbisa uye kuti munhu anorara pamucheto wemawere, uye mumamiriro ezvinhu apo pane zvose kutya ruponeso.

Zvinocherechedzwa Kunyepa uye Kukanganisa Kuzvipira Kwenhema.

Mweya yakadaro ichiri pasi pechienzi zvikuru, muuyo womuzvarirwo wekunyengerwa kwoumwari. Pane chete sallies, quips uye kupokana mune maitiro avo; dzimwe nguva vanobatanidza zviedza zvinoshamisa, nzira dzakakwirira uye unyoro hwekuzvipira, pamwe chete nevudo, kusava nehanya uye kusemburwa kukuru kwemabasa ekutanga emuKristu uye hunhu hunonyanya kukosha kwaari, sekutenda, tariro, rudo, kuzvininipisa, kuteerera uye kuzviisa pasi. Taura kwavari zvekukwana uye kusanzwisisa mune zvese zvinongofadza pfungwa; asi regai kutaura kwavari zvekuninipisa, kuzviisa pasi pemweya nekuvandudzwa kwemanzwiro, kana zvematambudziko; maitiro ekupfidza haana

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kuravira kwavo, kunze kwekunge vari vesarudzo yavo; dai zvisina kudaro vaizongodzigamuchira nekuzengurira. Hunhu hunhu hwavanoita hunenge husina kupfuvura hunhu hwemidziyo, hunongoguma nekuzvitutumadza moyo yavo nekuchengeta pfungwa dzavo murugare rwenhema, urwo, kubva pakureurura kuenda kune kumwe, rwunovaita kuti vaunganidze zvikanganiso pasina kukanganisa, nekunyepedzera kuti hazviiti. inodhura  yakawanda kutaura zvishoma kudarika zvishoma  zvishoma.

Iyi ndiyo nzira iyo vazhinji vevanhu vari munyika vanopfuudza hupenyu hwavo, avo vanozvirumbidza nekuzvipira uye kugara, pasi pechikonzero chekunzvenga scruple, izvo kazhinji hazvisi chinhu chekutya kwavari. Vanozvinyima kuzvikudza kwavo, nokumedza zvakaipa semvura; vanofunga kuti vafambira mberi zvikuru mukukwana, uye havana kutora danho rokutanga. Nokuzvikudza vachizvienzanisa navamwe, avo zvichida vari nani kuvapfuura mumwoyo yavo, vanozvitenda ivo vamene vatsvene, nepo vachingova dambe rinosuruvarisa radhiabhorosi, ravanyengeri, vakafanana zvikuru navaFarise veEvhangeri,

makuva akacheneswa, skeletons, zvichida, ane chimiro chakati chehupenyu; ndiko kuti, vapenyu mumeso avanhu, ivo vakafa mumeso aMwari: chose chingataurwa zvishoma ndechokuti vanoda ruoko rune unyanzvi kuti vaporeswe.

Vatadzi vakakomba kashoma kuti vazvinyengedze, uye vawane zvibereko zvakawanda kubva muSakaramende yeKupfidza  .

Ndinoona, Baba, kuti muzvinhu zvakawanda dhiabhorosi haaite chikamu chake zvakanaka kana zvasvika kune vatadzi vagara kwenguva refu; tsika nechido chechivi  chinofa chavanodzika machiri chinovadzivirira kubva pakuva nenhema pamusoro pemamiriro ehana yavo, uye kubva mukudaro kune vanoreurura. Hapana ngozi yokuti ava vangavabvuma kukanganwirwa kana kutora rutivi muzvakavanzika zvitsvene: vanogona bedzi kuzvinzvera, kuzvitora zvakare ndokuzviedza; kutyisidzira kwavo kunotyisa, kurayira kwavo kwakasimba, kunyomba kwavo kunopenyu, kwakafanana nokudzinga kwakawanda kunopa dhimoni kutya kunofa; anotya zvishoma kuti simba raJC uye mushumiri wake achasvika pakuparadza chigaro chake uye umambo hwake, uye amudzinge iye pachake kubva pamwoyo waanayo; uye izvozvo zvinomunetsa zvikuru.

Naizvozvo anowedzera kaviri nhamburiko dzake nengwariro dzake pakusvika kudare rinoyera; anoita nepaanogona napo kusimbisa zvisungo zvemuranda wake, kuti arege kupukunyuka kwaari; asi nyasha dzeJC hadzina kukundikana kunyengedza kutarisira kwake utsinye, nekuputsa simbi dzenhamba huru kwazvo yevatadzi, nesimba resakaramende iyi youmwari. Izvi ndizvo zvinovaisa kune, mberi, kuzvidemba kwehana dzavo, kutya kutonga kwaMwari nemarwadzo egehena, vanogara vachidziya havarohwi. Nokudaro dhiabhorosi anozviona zviri nyore kunyengedza vatadzi vakuru, sezvo zviri nyore kune vanoreurura uye ivo pachavo kuwana chimiro chavo chechokwadi pamberi paMwari; nepo nepamusoro pevamwe, zvakapesana chaizvo: dhimoni rinonyanya kuvabata, sezvo zvakanyanya kuomera vatungamiriri nevapepeti kuwana  hunyengeri hwake.

Iyi mweya inonyengerwa inongwarira zvikuru kutsvaga nekusarudza vanoreurura vane tsika dzinoenderana nezvavanoda. Migumisiro yakaipa yesarudzo iyi.

Mweya unotungamirirwa nadhiabhorosi, uye waanopa pfungwa yokupfidza nenzira yake, anongwarira zvikuru kuongorora vose vanoreurura, uye kusarudza pachinzvimbo avo vari vechitambi uye hunhu hunoenderana naye. Kupfuura zvese, ivo havafanirwe kunge vakanyanya hutsinye, sezvavanotaura, zvakare

kungwarira, kungwarira zvakanyanya; kuti havarondedzeri nyaya dzehana zvakanyanya, kuti havangogumiri pazvinhu zvisingakoshi, kuti havana tsika dzakanyanya ... Pasina izvozvo, vanongove vakangwara izvo zvisingabviri kuti vavimbe naye. ; uye kutaura chokwadi, Baba, ndinoona kuti vanhu ava havana kana munhu pameso, nekuti rombo rakanaka kwavari, kashoma kuti vawane wavanoti akakodzera. Aya mapofu mapofu anoteerera nekuzvidza, kufinha, kusemesa, kusava nehanya, dzimwe nguva kunyange nekugunun'una, kana kuti pamwe nekusashivirira kwemukati, mazano erudo uye mazano anobaya mwoyo ayo avo vanoshingaira vanoreurura vangada kuvadana kuti vateerere, kuzvininipisa, uye humwe hunhu hwakakosha,

Kana ivo vakatemerwa zvibayiro zvinodhura kuzvikoshesa, kugutsikana, kudzoreredza, zviito zvekunyadziswa, zvimiro zvinopesana nemafungiro avo, nzira dzekukwana dzakavakirwa, kwete pavari. nzira yekutora zvinhu, asi pamitemo yechokwadi yehutsika; kunyanya kana munhu achida kubvisa kubva kwavari maitiro ekunze, maanoita kuti abatane nekukwana kwavo kose, ipapo munhu anovaona vachikanda moto nemurazvo, kuputika nekumukira; kana kuti kana vachiri vasingatyi kuuya pakumukira kwapachena uye nokusateerera kwapachena, vanoti nechemumoyo, ini handingaiti chinhu pamusoro pazvo, handingateereri. Dhimoni rinongwarira zvikuru kuzevezera kuti vatungamiriri vakadaro havavazivi, kuti havaoni kukwezva kwenyasha uko Mwari anovadana nako kukukwana kusingawanzoitiki; pakupedzisira, kuti havana kuitwa  kuvadzinga.

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Naizvozvo vanotora chisungo chekuchishandura, uye nekuchishandura, kudakara vawana chinoenderana nekuravira kwavo, mavanokwanisa kupa  rusununguko uye ruvimbo rwakakwana.

Zvino, Baba, mureururi uyu akatsvaga nekuchenjerera kukuru nevatendeuki nevakapfidza vechitambi ichi, uye akazowanikwa, Mwari vanondiita kuti ndione kuti kazhinji munhu ane tsika dzakapfava, ane hunyoro uye hunyoro, uye dzimwe nguva. kunyange mufambiro uri kure nenzira nhete yeEvangeri; murume uyo, kure nokuvadzivisa nokuvadzosa, anopa, kungave nokusaziva kana kusava nokushingaira, mune zvose.

zvisinganzwisisiki pakunamata kwavo kwenhema; iyo inorumbidza nzira yavo yekuona, inotaura kwavari nezvaMwari uye nekukwana mumashoko akasimudzwa uye epamusoro; kukanganisa kunyengedzwa kwedhimoni kune dzimwe nyasha, zviratidzo zvenyasha, uye kushanda kwezvisikwa zvekushanda kwaMwari. Pakupedzisira, ivo pachavo vanotorwa kune vanoreurura vakarurama chaizvo nekuti ndivo vasina kururama. Zvakaipa zvakadii, asi kukanganisa kwakadini!....

Hongu, Baba, pano, kuvanzwa, ndiye munhu akarurama, uye wavakarongerwa naMwari; ndiye director par excellence: saka anobva ava mutungamiriri wefashoni. Iye ega ndiye anovaziva zvakakwana uye ndiye oga ane unyanzvi hwokuvatungamirira zvakanaka; ndiko kwaari oga, naizvozvo, tinofanira kupa ruvimbo rwakazara uye rwakakwana, kubva umo dhiabhorosi asingazononoki kuwana mhindu nenzira inopfuura imwe, kumuita kuti afambire mberi nokukurumidza munzira huru yokuraswa, panzvimbo peiyo yokukwana; ndizvo zvokutarisira.

Chekutanga, kuremekedzwa kwaanovaratidza, matauriro aanoita kwavari nezveunhu hwakanaka hwaanofunga kuti anoona mumweya inonyengera neinonyengedzwa iyi, zvinotowedzera kudada kunovasimudzira kudenga rechitatu. .....

Kunze kwezvo, anopinda mumanzwiro avo ose uye mumaonero avo ose; haana chimwe kunze kwekucherechedza, kuvatarisira uye kuvaremekedza. Anokonesa mitemo yeVhangeri kuvanakira; muchidimbu, anongonangidzirwa pane  kuvarayira  . Pamwe  _

Iye, Mwari wangu! kuti kune vanoreurura hunhu uhu vaunondironda iwewe? Ndinoreurura kwamuri Baba, kuti kunyangwe nechiedza chemukati chinondiita kuti ndizvione, ndakanga ndichiri kutadza kuzvitenda, kana Rugwaro Rutsvene haruna kutiudza zvakajeka kuti kune vaporofita venhema, vanoisa macushion madiki pasi pemagokora evatadzi . panzvimbo pokuvakuvadza; iyo inogona, ndinotenda, inoshandiswa kune vatungamiri vakasununguka vatiri kutaura nezvavo. Asi handizvo zvoga, uye dhimoni harigumiri ipapo  .

Kunamatwa kwakajairika kune anoreurura.

Haambokundikani, uyu muvengi ane manomano, kurwisa neimwe nzira mweya iyi inoshingairira Mwari uye yakazadzwa nayo pachayo, iyi mweya yakapofumadzwa zvose zviri zviviri nokuzvida kwayo, uye nokugutsikana kwomureururi uyo anogara akabatikana. Anoramba achivayeuchidza vose nezvetariro yaakaita pakutendeuka kwavo, uye nehanya yaanoita kuti vafambire mberi  uye vakwane; nokuti vanozvitenda ivo vakanyanya kufambira mberi uye zvakanyanya kukwana zvakanyanya zvishoma; uye kukudzwa kwaanavo kwavari, asingachatauri chinhu; uye mazwi avo ekutapira, nezviso  zvavo  Ndinozivei  ini zvangu

Baba? Nokuti huipi hwemuvengi uyu hunosvika papi,  nechekare

inyanzvi yezvaanoda zvechisikigo izvo zvaanofarira zvakanyanya sezvaanofarirwa nazvo?... Ibasa ripi risingamuzarurire kune zvaanoda?...

Ndinoreva, Baba vangu, kuti dhimoni haringatongokundikani kumutsa kuchiva kwavo nezuva reuyo waifanira kudzidzima, uye kuti anokanda mapfumo pasi.

zvisingakanganisi mundangariro dzavo nomumwoyo yavo miedzo iyo isiri madikanwa  kutsanangura pano, asi iyo inofanira kugumisa kanenge kamwe kunyengedzo kupfurikidza nokuwana kushanda kwadhiabhorosi nouori hwaanoita chiito  .

Izvi ndizvo zvaizoitika pasina mubvunzo, dai mweya iyi isina kupofumadzwa nemaonero  akanaka avanozviita uye nekuzvikudza kweupenzi  kunovatonga.

Ndinovaenzanisa naavo vanhu venyika uye vane udyire, vasina  hanya nebasa asi kuti vazvishongedze vamene zvakanaka, zvimwe kuti vashongedze runako rwavo rwomuzvarirwo, kana kuti kudzorera zvikanganiso zvayo, kana kuti kugadzirisa kuparara kwenguva  .

kupedza chikamu chakanakisisa chemazuva avo mubasa iri risina maturo; vanoramba vachidzokera kwairi, vasingambokwanisi kutsausa vamene pairi kwenguva imwe chete. Unovaona vachikandira uye kutenderedza pamberi pegirazi rinopfekedza kuti vatarise nengwariro yokungwarira kana chinhu chiri chose chakanyatsobatanidzwa mukunaka kwavo; kana pasina chinhu chisipo pakugadziriswa kwavo; kana kumwe kuregeredza kwaisazokuvadza chiono uye delicacy yavanhu kuravidza kwavanowanzoita, ndiko kuti vanhu veboka repamusoro, vakapiwa pamusoro chose chose kune zvakafanana frivolities, kune kumwe chete kusina maturo, uko vasingafungiri kuoneka kuduku. zvekukuvadza.

Ndizvo chaizvo, Baba vangu, mufananidzo chaiwo wemweya yakanyengedzwa iyi munyaya dzekunamata. Iko kutsvaga nguva dzose, kuzvida uko pasina chinovakanganisa, uye kwavanogara

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ndisingatombozvizivi. Kudada kunoitwa munhu: hongu, kudada mumunhu, kana ndikazvitaura. Ingozi yakadini naizvozvo!

Kubva pane izvo zvatinofanira kugumisa, Baba, kuti pasina kutenda uye kuteerera kuChechi, pasina kuzvininipisa kukuru, yakabatana nerudo rwaMwari nemuvakidzani, pasina ruvengo rwechivi uye kusavimba isu pachedu- zvakafanana, zvese zvatinoita ndezvekunyepedzera, uye kunyange mishonga inogona kushanduka kuita chepfu kutipa rufu. Asiwo nehunhu hwakanaka masakaramende akagashira anofanirwa kutibatsira nguva dzose. Dhiyabhorosi anogona kutirwisa uye haambotikundi, kana tisingadi; nokuti uyo watinoisa maari

chivimbo chedu uye watinovimba naye, hazvizotibvumiri kuti tive chitamba chevavengi vakakwirira musimba nounyanzvi, chero bedzi isu tichibatanidza munamato mukurinda, tichitevera zano ratenzi wedu woumwari, uye kuti, sekuda kunoita muapostora. takashandira kuponeswa kwedu nokutya nokudedera.

Yemarudzi maviri eKutendeuka Kwakakwana. Izvo zvinoumbwa nazvo.

Ngatitaurei zvino, Baba, izvo Mwari zvavanondiita kuti ndione, pamusoro pematendero maviri atinodzidziswa kubva paudiki. Musiyano wakadini pakati pomumwe nomumwe! Ndinoona kutanga kuti kuzvidemba kwakakwana kunobva murudo rwakachena rwaMwari, urwo rwunotora pakarepo sechinhu charwo. Anoisa zvimwe zvese parutivi, sekutaura, uye neimwe nzira anozvikanganwa kufunga nezvaMwari chete uye kutsvaga Mwari chete, waanoita iye chete kana chinangwa chikuru chekunzwa kwayo uye zvishuwo zvayo, tariro yayo uye kutya kwayo, kwenguva. uye nokusingagumi: zvipikirwa nokutyisidzira, mibayiro nezvirango, zvose zvinonyangarika mumeso orudo rwakachena, urwo runokarakadza Mwari bedzi somugumo warwo wokupedzisira, apo zvinenge zvose zvinobatwa naye;

Nyasha dzerudo rwakachena, dzisingawanzo, dzakanakisa uye dzakakosha kupfuura dzekufira kutenda. Migumisiro yawo.

Kunyange zvazvo chiri chokwadi kuti idzi nyasha, dzinokosha zvikuru mupfungwa kupfuura dziya dzokufira kutenda, idzi nyasha dzorudo rwakachena rwaMwari, dzakawanwa muvasande vakurusa, uye zvikuru kana kuti zvishoma mushamwari dzose dzechokwadi dzaMwari, tinogona kuti: zvisinei, kuti zvinopihwa mukuzara kwayo chete kune vashoma zvikuru vemweya yakasarudzwa. Mwari, tenzi wezvipo zvake nguva dzose, haapi munhu wose pfuma yake isingaenzaniswi, iyo yokumuda kusvikira panguva ino uye nenzira imwe cheteyo. Muna ikoku, haaiti zvisakarurama kumunhu upi noupi, uye hakuna munhu ane kodzero yokuwana mhaka pamufambiro wake.

Ndati, Baba, nyasha idzi dzakatokosha kupfuura nyasha dzekufira kutenda. Hongu, uye ndinoona kuti rudo rwakachena rwaMwari rune zvese zvakanakisa, zvakanakisa, zvinonyanya kukosha uye zvakanyanya.

heroic mukufira kutenda, asi kusvika papfundo risingagoni kutaurwa. Kuti uyo anoda Mwari zvakakwana, uye nerudo rwakachena uye rusina hanya rwatiri kutaura nezvarwo, kazhinji uye nenzira inoshamisa anonzwa kuda uye kutsunga kupa hupenyu hwake, kwete chete kuti arege kuramba kutenda kwake nechitendero chake. , asi zvakadaro pane kuita chikanganiso chiduku chaMwari, ane rudo rusingaperi rwaanoda kupfuura upenyu hwake uye nezvimwe zvose. Ndakataura kuti mweya wakadaro unonzwa kazhinji kazhinji uye nenzira inoshamisa mumamiriro ezvinhu andachangobva kutaura, nokuti chimiro ichi apo Mwari anomutsa mweya yakati, hachisi chimiro chakajairika. Mwari anongozvipa kwenguva yakati rebei.

Ndinoona zvakanyanya; nokuti, kana zvaisaita kuti apiwe mhosva duku iyi, kana kuti apiswe nokusingaperi, ndinoona kuti mwoyo wake wakanyura murudo rwakachena rwomunyori wawo; aizobvuma kupisa, pane kubvuma kusafadza chinhu chinodiwa cherudo urwu runokunda, uye aizodzika ari mupenyu mumoto wekusingaperi wegehena; haana kuzeza kuzvikanda mariri, achishinga nehasha dzemadhimoni nemirazvo yemoto. Naizvozvo zvakatonyanya kukosha kwatiri uye zvakanyanya kukudzwa kuna Mwari, kuti tinomuda nenzira iyi, pane kupa hupenyu hwedu uye kuteura ropa redu nekuda kwekudzivirira uye kutenda kwaJC. Kufira kutenda kunoramba kuripo uye kunonyanya kufadza kuna Mwari. veavo vose vakafira kutenda, kupfuura irwo rworudo rwakachena, avo vakachengeterwa korona inobwinya zvikuru uye yakapfuma zvikurusa kudenga nokusingaperi  ....

Madhigirii akati wandei mukutendeuka kwakakwana.

Sezvo kune madhigirii akati wandei mukukodzera kwekufira kutenda, ini zvakare ndinoona madhigirii akasiyana mukuzvidemba kwakakwana kunobva murudo rwakachena. Nokuti, kunyange zvazvo avo vose varunowanikwa mavari vachifarira kukwaniswa kworudo urwu rwakachena uye uku kupfidza kwakakwana, ivo vari kure nokufambira mberi zvakaenzana mazviri; uye Mwari vanondiratidza kuti mwero wandataura nezvawo wakakwana kupfuura ose, uye kuti mamwe ose

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vari pasi; asi kusiyana uku hakutadzisi kuzvidemba kunobudiswa mazviri pakunzi kwakakwana, nokuti kwakavakirwa pavavariro imwe cheteyo yorudo rwakachena uye rwakakwana runorupa ukoshi hwarwo nesangano rarwo: hunhu huri hwakaenzana, hunongori bedzi kuita kwakawanda kana kushoma kunoita mutsauko.

Churn. Madhigirii ayo akasiyana anomiririrwa pasi pemufananidzo we staircase kana manera.

Kana kuri kuzvidemba kusina kukwana, kana kuti kuora mwoyo, uko Mwari anoda kuti nditaure nemiwo, ndinoona musiyano mukuru pakati pazvo nowokutanga, kunyanya maererano nevavariro dzazvo dzakasiyana nemigumisiro yazvo yakasiyana. Ndichiri kuona kusakwana kwemadhigirii pakati pepamusoro-soro nenzvimbo yakaderera yekukwana kweavo vane hunhu uhwu hunowanikwa mavari; uye izvi zvanyanya kuwanda, sezvo avo vane kupfidza kwakakwana vari vashoma, zvinosuruvarisa kuti vashoma.

Kuti ndinzwisise zviri nani, Baba, ndinofunga masitepisi akareba ane nhamba huru yematanho ekukwira nekudzika. Kusakwana kwemweya kunoiswa pamatanho aya akasiyana kana nhanho, maererano nekuzvidemba kwavo kwakanyanya kana kushoma: mweya mudiki usina kukwana wevose unoiswa padanho rekupedzisira kubva kumusoro, uye yakanyanya kusakwana iri pasi pekupedzisira; vamwe vanotora madhigirii epakati akasiyana. Vese vari mumhirizhonga isingaperi, uye vanowanzosimuka zvakanyanya kana zvishoma nekukurumidza, zvichienderana nekuti zvishuwo zvavo zvine moyo uye chido. Vamwe vanokwira nekukurumidza, vamwe vanofamba zvishoma nezvishoma uye sekunge vane nhanho dzakayerwa. Kune vamwe vanorega zvachose; zvino, zvinosuruvarisa, kuti kana vangomira, vanobva vacheuka. ndokudzoka pasi nekukurumidza kupfuura zvavakakwira. Tinoona vamwe vanodzokera kumashure zvekuti vanosiya nhanho yacho zvachose, vopfuura danho rekupedzisira, mushure mezvo hapasisina kunyunyuta, asi njodzi yakajairika yekurangwa kusingaperi.

Nezvemweya inobishaira iyo, pasina kuodzwa mwoyo, inoshanda nemwoyo wose kusimudza mwero. Mwari vanondiita kuti ndinzwisise kuti vanoona nekusakendenga kuedza kwavo, ushingi hwavo, kuneta kwavo nebasa ravo rinoramba riripo rekukunda zvipingamupinyi izvo dhiabhorosi, nyika nenyama zvinosimudza kuti vavamise munzira yekukwana. Anovadzivirira, anovararamisa, anovadzivirira, uye anotambanudza ruoko rwokubetsera kwavari, kuti avabetsere kudzivisa misungo namakomba; uye pavanonyanya kutendeka kunyasha dzake, ndipo paanonyanya kufarira kuvapa dzakasimba uye dzakawanda. Pakupedzisira anovagonesa ovakweva nhanho nenhanho kuenda padanho rechipiri kubva kumusoro. ndinoti kune wechipiri uye

kwete pakupedzisira; nokuti Mwari anondiita kuti ndione kuti mweya inoshingaira yasvika panguva ino yokukwana nokunaka, anotaurira kwavari nyasha zhinji-zhinji, dzinopedzisa kukwana kwavo uye nokuvanatsa nemoto werudo rwake, izvo zvinoita kuti kuzvidemba kwavo kuve kwakakwana uye pakarepo anovaisa. pakati pevandakatanga kutaura nezvavo.

Mwari dzimwe nguva anopa kupfidza kwakakwana kuvatadzi vakuru.

Iniwo ndinoona kuti, tenzi wezvipo zvake, izvo zvinogara zvisingabhadharwi, Mwari anogona kupa uye dzimwe nguva anopa kune vatadzi vakuru kutendeuka uku kwakakwana, pasina kuvaisa kuburikidza chero muedzo. Iyi mweya ine rombo rakanaka inongoda chete kusiya kuda kwayo uye kuzvisarudzira kwayo kunhungamiro yaMwari uye kukupisa kworudo rwoumwari runovakwevera ikoko... kuva vakakwana kamwe kamwe, uye nomubhadharo muduku zvikuru, nepo zviuru zvavamwe. vakashanda upenyu hwavo hwose kuti vauwane. Pamwe hongu ; asi ngaparege kuva nekusagutsikana kana godo pano.

Sokunge Mwari akanga asiri tenzi wenyasha dzake! sokunge anogona kugumbura chero munhu! Hey! ndoupi munhu asina usimbe angatsunga kumubvunza pamusoro pemafambiro ake? Ndiani achatsunga kutaura kune huchenjeri husingagumi hunoita zvinhu zvose nokuda kwembiri yake

neruponeso rwedu: sei, Ishe, muchiita kuti vamwe vatenge nyasha dzenyu nemoyo murefu, asi muchivapa pasina kune vamwe?

Benzi! Munonzwisisa here udzamu hwezvirevo zvake? Haana kusununguka here kuita sezvaanoona zvakakodzera, uye kurerekera zvakanyanya, mukufarira avo vaanoda, kunaka kwekuteura ropa kune vese? Mwari ane zvinangwa zvake kubvira nokusingaperi, izvo zvichagara zvisinganzwisisike kwatiri: chatinoziva nechokwadi ndechokuti hapangambovi nokusaruramisira kupi nokupi maari, uye izvi ndizvo zvatinofanira kuramba tichizviita.

Asi hechino chimwe chinhu chokugutsa vasingagutsikani, kana chiripo.

Ndinoona muna Mwari kuti mweya yakashanda nesimba nerubatsiro rwenyasha kuti ive yakakwana ine hunhu husingaverengeki pamberi pake pane avo vasvika pakukwana, kana kuti vakatoendako zvachose. Vamwe vakava nemufaro wakawanda, vamwe basa rakawanda, uye somuuyo kwakawanda ukoshi. Mwari, uyo akaita zvinhu zvose, achaziva nzira yokugovera nayo mibayiro, sezvaakapa nyasha, asingambokuvadzi kururamisira kwake kusingagumi kana kuti changamire kunaka kwake. Tingaita zviri nani here pane kuzvisiya timene kuita kuda kwake ndokuvimba naye nokuda kwechinhu chiri chose chine hanya nesu?

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Bhizinesi reruponeso rwedu ringaiswa zviri nani kupfuura mumaoko aiye uyo, ari kure nokutinyengedza muchinhu chipi nechipi, anoita, pane kudaro, hapana chinhu chisiri chefariro yedu, uye icho chisingarereki kumufaro wedu mukurusa? .

Kuhupenyu hwazvino, hapana kupokana kuti mweya yakaedzwa zvakanyanya uye yakaedzwa zvakanyanya haina mhosva yekuwa uye isingatani kubatwa nekuzvikudza pane iyo yakafarirwa zvakanyanya. Kurangarira kwekare nguva dzose kunovachengeta vakarinda, uye kunovabatira sedziviriro pakupunzika, uko mweya yapamusoro zvikurusa uye inofarirwa zvikuru haitongosunungurwi zvakakwana. Naizvozvo, sezvinoreva rugwaro, vanomira ngavatye kuwa; vatsvene ngavave vatsvene; zvinoitwa nevakarurama

regai kuzviruramisa; dai mwoyo yakachena ichizvinatsa zvakanyanya, uye dai vose vachiedza, nemabasa avo akanaka, kuti vave nechokwadi chekudanwa kwavo kurufaro rusingaperi.

Kuzvidemba, kana kuti kurwadziwa kwechivi, kunokosha kuti tiponeswe. Nokudaro migumisiro yokuzvidemba kunobudiswa norudo. Chombo chekupfidza.

Mungashamisika, Baba, kuti ndine kukwana kwese nemweya mukupfidza chete. Ndezvokuti ndinoona muna Mwari kuti hakuna mweya une njere unogona kuponeswa kunze kwekuzvidemba kana kurwadziwa kubva muchivi, izvo saka hapana mukuru anogona kuregererwa; uye izvi ndezvechokwadi, kuti kufunga kuti mweya wakatendeka zvakakwana kuti usatombotyora mutemo waMwari, kana mhiko dzerubhabhatidzo rwake, nemhosva imwe chete yenyama, ndinoona kuti kuenda kudenga zvingave zvakafanira kuti mweya uyu , usataure kuti ndaita chirango chinoshanda; asi ndinoona kuti aizofanira kuva nokusuwa chaiko uye kwechokwadi nokuda kwezvivi zvose  zvakaitwa.

Izvi, ndinodzokorora, zvingashamisa, asi hazvifanirwe kushamisa. Chikonzero chiri nyore: hakuna ruponeso pasina rudo rwaMwari, hapana rudo rwaMwari rusina ruvengo rwechivi kwose kwachinowanikwa; uye ruvengo urwu rwakakwana uye rwakakwana rwechivi rwakatorwa machiri pacharwo, zvinotounza marwadzo ekugumburwa kwoumwari matiri uye mune vamwe vose, dai kwaiva chete.

chivi chekutanga; nokuti, kunyange zvazvo kuchiregererwa norubhapatidzo, kunyange nenzira yokusada kutsiva kupi nokupi kunobudirira, kana kuti kupfidza kwomuviri, hakuzati kuri kwechokwadi zvikuru kuti Mwari akagumburwa nako, uye kuti, kana anotikanganwira norupo. zvinongove pakunaka kwake kukuru netsitsi dzatinengava navo, pamwe chete nezvivi zvatisingaparadzi, uye zvatingadai takaita tisingakanganisi pasina nyasha dzinopfuura.

Munoona sei, Baba, kuti ruvengo rwechivi rwuri murudo urwo munhu anofanira kuva narwo kuna Mwari pasi pechirango chokurangwa, hapana munhu, sezvandataura, anogona kusunungurwa pakupfidza, kunyange mweya isina mhosva, kana avo vanoshaiswa njere.

Asi kupfidza uku kunokonzerwa norudo rwoumwari hakumboperi muvatsvene; inoburitsa imomo kunaka kwepamusoro-soro, uye inotambanudzira pamusoro pezvivi zvese zvinobvira, kuvenga nekuzvivenga zvese, kutanga nezviri pedyo. Iwo moto unoparadza unongopararira pamusoro pezvivi nekusakwana kwevamwe, mushure mekunge waparadza nekupedza zvitadzo nekusakwana kwemweya kwaunogara. Iye angada, uyu mweya, kukwanisa kutsakatisa utsotsi hwose hworudzi rwomunhu, uye nokuda kwaikoko hakuna pfuma kana kuti upenyu hwaakanga asina kugadzirira kupira; anogara achichema zvivi zvake. Naizvozvo ndakatadzira Mwari wangu, iye anodaro; Naizvozvo ndakatsamwisa  mudikani wangu; Ndakarasa Mwari wemoyo wangu. Ah!  !. Ndiwo mazuva  andaigona

kubvuma kusamufadza, kuti nguva yandakakwanisa kumuvenga, igurwe kubva muupenyu hwangu, uye dai ndaipa kane chiuru kuti ndidzime ndangariro dzayo!...

Zvino tariro inonzwika pasina, uye inoti kwaari: Usachema, wazvikangamwirwa zvivi zvako; Mwari akavakanganwa, havangazovipo  pamberi  pechiso chake. aya mazwi anonyaradza anoita, neimwe nzira  ,

 kuwedzera kurwadziwa kwake  chete . Sei, akadaro, kwete kundishungurudza,  ini

unofunga kuti ndinogona kugumbura Mwari anondida zvikuru, uye anondikanganwira  nomutsa  . Mwari, zvisinei, watisinganzwisisi  uye

kushatirwa nehutsinye hwakawanda uye kusatenda kumativi  ese  ? Ah! kana  i

Handina kana kurwadziwa, matombo aitaura achindipomera mhosva yekusanzwira tsitsi kuna Mwari vakandidururira makomborero akawanda!

Hongu, ndinozvitaura, uye ndinozvivimbisa, Mwari uyu werunako achava pasina kundiregerera zvikanganiso zvangu uye mhosva dzangu, handingambozvikanganwira neni pachangu; vacharamba vari vapenyu mundangariro dzangu sezvavakafa mumwoyo mangu nomukuda kwangu. Handizoregi kuvaparadza nokutendeuka, uye ndichavavenga kusvikira  pakupedzisira  . Chivi chakatukwa,  chii

ndichakuparadzai panyika yose, nditsive Mwari wangu pamusoro pehasha dzamakamuitira!....

Idzi, Baba vangu, dzakaita semiseve mizhinji inopfurwa neruoko rune simba rwerudo rwehumwari, rwunoburitsa vimbiso yekuregererwa kuburikidza nekurwadziwa

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kutendeuka, uye anofarira kugamuchira kugomera nekugomera kwaanoumba mumoyo make. Mwoyo waakakuvadza nemiseve yake hauchakoni kuringanira kutsamwa kunomupedza; anonyengerera zvisikwa zvese kuti zvitore chikamu mukurwadziwa kwake uye kuchema naye mhosva yaMwari akanaka kudaro, uye kuzvidzwa kunosemesa kwegonye rinotsunga kumupandukira.

Kuzvidemba kwakadini  ! Zvinoita sekuti mhosva dzese  dze

nyika inoungana kuti iumbe mumwoyo wouyu mupfidzi wechokwadi, wouyu mudikani wakakwana waMwari wake, gungwa reshungu nemarwadzo, kusvikira papfundo rokuti aizorasikirwa noupenyu hwake,  kana Mwari asina kuita rudzi rwechishamiso chinopfuurira chekuchengetedza. nokuda kwake uye kumutsigira zvakasimba mukurwisana nedenho dzakapetwa kaviri dzorudo rwoumwari.

Fungidzira, Baba vangu, mhute iyo mwaranzi inobaya yezuva inosimudza panguva yekupisa kwemhepo inopisa uye kupisa kwezhizha; Yasvika uye yaungana munharaunda yepakati pemhepo, mhute inomonereka, yobva yakura nokupisa, uye inonaya zvakare mumvura inonaya yakawanda inodziya nokuisa mupfudze muruwa rwakaoma. Mufananidzo wechisikigo wezvinoitwa  nerudo rwakachena mumweya iyo inobaya nebakatwa rayo, uye inokonzera, sekutaura, kunyunguduka uye kunyunguduka mumisodzi yekupfidza uye kupfidza kutadza kwaMwari ...

Izvi ndizvo zvakasangana navanaDavid, Saint Peters, Madeleines, Augustins, uye vamwe vakawanda vakafara vakabatwa nokupfidza kutsvene uye kunofadza; asi simba rerudo rwunokunda harina kumbobvira raita kuti rinzwike semuBindu reMiorivhi. Paive ipapo, Baba vangu, apo nekuedza kwekupedzisira uye kwakasimba kwazvo, vakakweva uta hwavo uye vakapedza miseve yavo pamwoyo wakachena kwazvo, mweya uye nehunhu hutsvene hweMununuri wedu anoera.

Urwu rudo rwakachena rwakanga ruchirarama maari nokuda kwembiri yaMwari uye ruponeso rwemweya, zvokuti munhu anogona kutaura mupfungwa kuti akava ane utsinye, ane utsinye  uye  ane nyota yeropa. Aihwa

achigutsikana nokuita kuti misodzi yemvura iyerere, akatsikirira mwoyo wake unoyera zvakasimba zvokuti akabudisa boporodzi reropa. Akapenda mumaziso evanhu vake ukuru hwaMwari baba vake vakashatirwa, vanyadziswa nechivi; asi panguva imwe cheteyo akamupendera ukuru hwemhaka yacho namavara akajeka kwazvo zvokuti aisagona kudzivisa kutya kwake. JC yakawira mukukundikana kwakakwana kwemanzwiro ake, mukurwadziwa kwekufa, apo zvisikwa zvakakundwa, uye kwaaida rubatsiro rwehumwari hwake kuti awane ruoko rwepamusoro. Hongu Baba kutya kwakange kwave kuti, nechinguva chidiki diki muviri wavo wamwari wakabva wati piriviri nedikita raishamisa. Dikita rakakosha!... misodzi ine simba! munonyaradza hasha dzaMwari; makatikodzera misodzi yokurwadziwa inosuka makwapa pahana dzedu; misodzi iyi, yakawedzera kunaka kune fetereza.

Nokudaro, Baba vangu, sekudzoka kwechirimo tinoona zvinhu zvose zvichibereka zvibereko uye zvichiberekwa patsva muzvisikwa; nenzira imwecheteyo, mukati memwoyo wakatendeka umo dova rinobatsira rakawira, ndinoona maruva nemichero zvichimera, zvichifambira mberi uye zvichiibva goho reunhu hwese hwechiKristu.

Harisi, sezvatinoona, pasi iro, pacharo, rakafukidzwa negoho rakapfuma uye rakawanda kudaro; inoiburitsa chete nesimba rerudo rwakachena, runova tenzi nemurimi wayo: inzira inova yaro. Ndicho chikonzero nei achida kuishongedza, kuti aite nzvimbo inofadza uye inofadza. Ibindu rakapfigwa romurume mutsvene nomukadzi  mutsvene; iparadhiso  pasi  pano. Pano, Baba vangu, maererano  nezvandinoona

muna Mwari, zvinoita rudo rweumwari mumwoyo mainarwo; izvi ndizvo zvinobudiswa nemisodzi yokuzvidemba, yaanodurura pamusoro pezvivi zvakaitwa.

Migumisiro yakaipa yemisodzi inokonzerwa nerudo rwakakanganisika rwechisikwa.

Asi chii chandinoona? Baba vangu, uye chii chimwe chinhu chinotakurwa mweya wangu?

Musiyano unoshungurudza zvakadini! Iyiwo misodzi yandinoona ichiyerera; ndiko kugomerawo kwandinonzwa; asi iyi ndiyo misodzi nokugomera kweBhabhironi rine mukurumbira wakaipa, tsotsi, rinogomera nokurira, nokuzvibvarura, nokuda kwezvinhu zvenguva yaritiza, nokuda kwoushamwari hwakarimukira, kana nokuda kwokuchiva kunomutambudza, meso ake achinyunguduka  mumvura  . ,uye  kuti

muromo wake unobudisa marwadzo okuzvidemba kwake, kana kupisa kwomoto wake

zvisiri pamutemo, Mwari anoita kuti ndione kuti misodzi yorudzi urwu yakafanana nemvura yemuchando, inounza kwose kwose kutonhora kwechando. Inenge nguva dzose mugumisiro wechishuvo chemhosva, dzimwe nguva utsotsi zvikuru kupfuura chishuvo chaicho chainogadzirwa. Hongu, Baba, uye ivai nechokwadi nazvo, pane musiyano usingaperi pakati pemisodzi iyo rudo rwoumwari runoita kuti iyerere kubva mumwoyo warunoraramisa, neiyo inoberekwa norudo rusina kutsarukana rwechisikwa, kupfuura pasina pakati pechirimo nechando. , akwironi nezefiri, masikati nousiku. Mvura nechando zvinongoparadza, kuomesa uye kupisa zvose zvakange zvaunzwa muminda nenguva yakanaka: nokudaro misodzi inoberekerwa zvisikwa, uye pamusoro pazvo zvose nokuchiva kunopisa, kupisa, chando nokuparadza.

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zvishuwo zvese zvakanaka, mafambiro akanaka emwoyo kuna Mwari, zvimiro zvese zvakanaka izvo mweya waive nazvo pakunaka. Vanoparadza zvikuru mumunda womudzimu mutsvene; ivo vanowanzouraya imomo zvose izvo nguva yechirimo yakaisvonaka yenyasha yakanga yaberekera imomo mumaruva nemichero; uye misodzi inoparirwa nemhepo ine chepfu yenyoka isingafadzi inouraya kwaari semisodzi yorudo rwoumwari yakanga yamufarirwa.

Ndichatii kwamuri Baba? Misodzi iyi inouraya nokuparadza yakaita seboporodzi remvura zhinji, rinopinda kumweya nomumwongo wamafupa, kana tikataura saizvozvo; vanoenda pasi pemoyo kunotsvaga hunyoro hudiki, kuomesa mudzi wawo; vanogadzira chishuvo chimwe nechimwe chifananidzo, chinova muranda wavo; vanodzorera ikoko hutongi hwadhiabhorosi, hwezvishuwo uye zvirevo zvenyika, pamatongo ekusava nemhosva uye kutonga kwaJC (1).

(1) Quœ enim secundùm Deum trittitia est, poenitentiam in salutem stabilem operatur; soeculi autem tristitia mortem operatur. (2 VaK. 7:10).

Nokudaro kuravira kwakasarudzwa kwezvenyika, uye uku kuvenga kusingakundiki kune zvese zvinodaidzwa kuti maitiro ekutendeuka nekuzvidemba; mushoko, kune zvese zvinobata pfungwa uye zvinoparadza hunhu hwakaora. Izvi

mweya isina Mwari uye yakazadzwa nayo pachayo; mweya umo nyasha dzakafa uye chivi chiri chipenyu; mweya, mushoko, iro, muzviito zvavo zvose, rinongotevera kufamba kwechisiko uye zvishuvo zvakasiana izvo zvavari varanda vazvo, zvinovatambudza nokuvabvarura, kufanana nevavengi vakawanda vane hasha uye ingwe dzisingaguti . Izvi ndizvo zvakaita vanoda nyika nezvinhu zvayo zvisina maturo mukuona kwaMwari, vanozvibatanidza vamene norudo nechisikwa zvokuti vanomuita mwari wavanoda kupfuura Mwari pachake. Iyo nyonga nyonga!...

Chikero cheruponeso nekukwana kana zvidimbu zvakasiyana zvekupfidza. Mweya yakasiyana inokwira manera.

Ngatidzokerei kwechinguvana kunhanho kana nhanho yandatotaura nezvayo, uye isiri chimwe chinhu kunze kwenzira yekukwana neruponeso, iyo inopfuura nayo vose vasanangurwa neavo vane mwoyo yekuponesa mweya yavo. Iyi nzira inogara ichiratidzwa kwandiri seyero yeperpendicular, tsoka yaro inoiswa pasi, uye nhongonya yaro yakasimudzwa zvakanyanya zvekuti inoratidzika kupfuura hafu yedunhu remhepo. Tinofanira kushamisika here kana tikatadza kuzviona?....

Sezvo manera akaiswa parutsoka rworudyi, haigoni kukwira pasina kuneta kukuru. Ndinoona vanhu, vakaneta kwazvo munzira iyi inorwadza, zvekuti vanozvikwevera pairi, sekutaura, pamabvi avo uye pamaoko avo: Ndinoona vamwe vanozvinetesa mukuedza uye vanofamba nekukurumidza kuti vasvike nekukurumidza pamagumo ezvishuwo zvavo. . Asi sezvavanoisa yakawandisa yezvakasikwa, uye vanoenda nekukurumidza kupfuura kukumbirwa naMwari, ivo vanodzokera kumashure kupfuura ivo vanofambira mberi, nekuti vanovimba chete nesimba ravo vamene, pasina kubvunza nyasha dzaIshe. kuti akanga avada.

Tinovaona vachidedera nokuchimbidza kuenda kurudyi nekuruboshwe, kuita zvinhu zvose zvakanaka zvikuru, kugamuchira marudzi ose okunamata nokurangwa, dzimwe nguva kusanzwisisa uye kunoshamisa zvikuru, pasina kubvunza Mwari kana vanhu. . Naizvozvo vanongotevera zvavanoda uye kumwe kugwinya kwepanyama; uye sezvo zvisikwa zvinogara zvisina simba uye zvisingachinji, zvinenge zvose zvavanoita zvinosvika pasina kana kuti zvishoma  .  Zvisinei kuda kwavo

zvakanaka, zvishuvo zvavo zvinowanzova zvepachokwadi, dzimwe nguva zvakasimba; ndokusaka Mwari asingavaregi vachiparara. Anotambanudza ruoko rwake kuvasimudza uye kuvakurudzira. Ndinoreva kuti anovaregerera nyasha dzine hungwaru, mafaro anodzokera kumashure anoita kuti vavhure maziso avo uye vaone nokukurumidza kana gare gare kuti yakawanda sei.

vakazvinyengera kunyange nenzira dzavo dzokukwana. Ndinoona kuti maererano nevazhinji, miyedzo, kurwadziswa kwavanenge vasangana nakwo zvinongokonzerwa nemaitiro asina kunaka avakange vazvipira. Mwari anovaita kuti varwe hondo nokuvabvumira. Mifaro yavo yakapfuura nokudaro inochinjwa kuva kupfidza, uye kururamisira kwoumwari kunotsiviwa; asi Mwari anoda kuvaranga kwete kuvaparadza. Haatenderi muedzo kuti upfuure nyasha dzavanadzo kuti vaudzivise. Kana, pasinei nezvisarudzo zvavo zvakanaka, dzimwe nguva vanorega kutendeka kwavari; kana vakadzoserwa shure neutera hwehunhu hwavo kukwezwo inovayedza, Mwari havavasiyi nokuda kwaizvozvo, kunze kwekunge vamuka zvakare, vachimbundikira kutendeuka, kuita zvisungo zvakasimba.

Zvinoita sekuti kune mweya inotya iyi havafambire mberi muukuru; kuti vasafambire mberi munzira yoruponeso, nepo vachigara vachifambira mberi mairi nenhano huru. Ndinoona kuti Mwari vanovatarisa neziso rekunyunyuta uye netsitsi, uye kuti anovachengetera, kweawa yekufa, nyasha dzakadiwa dzinopedzisa kucheneswa kwavo.

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uye kuti aite kuti zvidikanwe naye; hunhu hutsvene hwekugashira miitiro yekupedzisira; uye kutsvenesa kurwara kwavo, kuwedzera murudo rwaMwari, kuvimba kukuru mungoni dzake, chibayiro cherupo uye chose chehupenyu hwavo mukubatana nerufu rwaJC, nyasha dzakawanda dzinokosha dzinowanzoita kuti vapedze purigatori yavo vasati vawana. kubva munyika.

Mweya inowira pasi munzira inoenda kukuparadzwa, ichidzika kubva pamatanho emanera.

Ini ndinoona vamwe vachikwira dhigirii iri nyore uye nemufaro wakati unoita kuti vakunde zvipingamupinyi zvese izvo dhiabhori kana zvisikwa zvinogona kuvasimudzira.  Vakatora kuda kutsvene kwehumwari sekutonga kwavo  kana vavariro mune zvese Uye,

pasina kumwe kubvongodzwa, vanokurumidza kusvika pamugumo unofadza wezvishuvo zvavo.

Kumweya inocheuka shure kwavo ichidzosa nhanho dzavo, kusvikira vapfuura nhanho yekupedzisira; sekutaura kwataita pamusoro, Mwari vanoita kuti ndione kuti pakusiya madhigirii vanowira munzira huru yekuraswa, kubva mairi kunongova nedanho rimwe chete rekutora kuti vawire mugehena. Ruponeso rwavo ruri munjodzi; hechino chikonzero: Ivo kune chikamu chikuru vanhu vakave nehukama hwakasimba kune zvavanoda uye mafaro avo eutsotsi. Zvino, sezvandambotaura nekuona, Mwari anenge nguva dzose anobvumira miyedzo mimwecheteyo kuti idzoke mushure mekutendeuka kwemutadzi, uye izvi kuedza zvisungo zvake, kumusimbisa muchinangwa chake nekumuchengeta akazvichenjerera iye pachake uye kuti asashamiswa nekushamisika. dhimoni, pakupedzisira kumuchenesa uye kumuranga;

Vanotanga nekutadza kuona zvisungo zvavo nezvipikirwa zvavo. Kukwezvwa kwemafaro kunovayedza kunovatungamirira kunyonganiso dzavo dzokutanga, uko kwavanobva vanyanya kushinga kupfuura nakare kose. Vanoisa mwoyo yavo yose nechido kwairi; kutendeuka kwavo kunowedzera kuoma zvakanyanya, zvinoda chishamiso kuti uishandise. Tinogona kutaura kuti havachisiri munzira inoenda kuruponeso, kunyange kana toreva nezvemamiriro ehana dzavo nomufambiro wavo, izvo zvinopesana zvikuru neEvhangeri. Ndizvo zvandakanzwisisa pandakavaona kwete kungoburuka nhanho, asi kubuda mairi zvachose, uye kutora danho rekupedzisira pasi apa, mushure mokunge pane kungowira uye kuparadzwa. Masitepisi, kana dhigirii, iri nzira yega yenyasha neruponeso, chero imwe nzira inogona kungova nzira yechisikigo, yezvishuwo uye yegehena. Izvi, Baba, zvinofanira kuita kuti vatadzi  vakadzokera shure vadedere  . Vanogona  here kupinda

tora mukana uyu kuti uvhure maziso avo kunhamo isingafadzi, apo mamiriro ezvinhu anotyisa mavari kutambura nokuzvidira anofanira kuguma! Ngavashandise nyasha dzavachiri kupiwa naMwari, kuti vabude mairi kamwechete uye nokusingaperi!

Simbiso yeruponeso kune avo vari padanho ripi neripi, kunyange pasi pemanera.

Mamiriro ezvinhu anokatyamadza zvikuru, maererano nemweya yose zvayo yakaiswa pamatanho akasiyana-siyana edhigirii rimwe chete, ndeyekuti mushure menguva shoma yekuedza ndakaona imwe neimwe ichinyangarika, uye imwe yakasvika iyo yakatora nzvimbo yayo. uye kuti, dzimwe nguva kune imwe, dzimwe nguva kune imwe,

zvakasiyana kune vese. Kusvika chero dhigirii rimwe nerimwe rakaiswa, nguva yakasvika yekupa nzvimbo yayo kune imwe uye nekunyangarika mumaziso angu. Ndakabvunza chikonzero chekuchinja kusingagumi uku, uye Mwari akandipindura kuti manera iri nzira yekukwana uye ruponeso, inogona kuitika chete munguva yehupenyu huripo, apo nokukurumidza rufu runouya kuzotora mumwe nomumwe wedu, pane imwe nguva yatinenge tiri. mariri nokuda kworuponeso rwedu, uye pamwero upi noupi wokukwana kana kusakwana tinozviwana taiswa. Hutsinye hunorova kamwe kamwe uye pasina kufunga: iwe unofanirwa kunyangarika uye kupa nzvimbo yako kune imwe.

Ndizvo zvinoita kuti vanhu vatevere mumwe nomumwe, uye kuti nyika yose inopfuura kubva kuchizvarwa kuenda kune chimwe chizvarwa. JC yakaitawo kuti ndinzwisise kuti avo vandakaona vachisvika uye vachinyangarika padanho rekutanga kubva pasi, vaiva vatadzi vane uipi uye upofu hwakanga husina kumbounzwa pakukwirira kwavo; kuti kuona rufu, nepo kuchivatyisa, kwakavayeuchidza kwavari vamene, kwakamutsidzira kutenda kwavo, tariro yavo norudo rwavo, nokunzwa kwokurwadziwa chaikoiko kwokuva vakagumbura Mwari. Ipapo vanofa vari padanho rekutanga rekutendeuka kwavo; pasina panikiro vangadai vakafambira mberi zvikuru ikoko, kudai rufu rwakavabvumira kupfuurira mberi, kudai vakanga vava namakore mashomanene, vhiki shomanene, kana kuti anenge mazuva mashomanene. Kufanana nevamwe, ivo vangadai vakanyangarika padanho rakakwirira kana kuti rakaderera, maererano nourefu hwenguva, kusimba kworudo rwavo nembavarira yokupfidza kwavo. Asi pakupedzisira vakafira munzira inoenda kuruponeso, ndicho chinhu chinokosha; nokuti Mwari vanoita kuti ndione kuti mweya yose inoita ruponeso rwayo uye kuti rimwe zuva inofanira kuva narwo, inobva yavharirwa mumasitepisi aya semuareka yaNoa; uye izvozvo kusvikira kumwero upi noupi  watingaita

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takafa, takanga tiri vokudenga, nokuti takafa munyasha.

Ndakati, Baba vangu, kuti kubva pasi pemanera asinganzwisisiki aya munhu aisakwanisa kuona kumusoro kwakarasika mumakore, kana kuti zvikuru pamusoro; asi Mwari akanditungamirira ikoko mumweya, akandiratidza zvandichakuudza.

Pamusoro pemanera pane kanzira kadiki kanoenda kumusoro kwe

Love Triumph Mountain.

Kubva pamusoro pemanera aya hazvibviri kuona pasi, sezvo isu  tisina kuona nyika. Nzvimbo yepamusoro yedhigirii iyi inomira pazasi pegomo refu, iro rinokwira kumusoro. Tichisiya dhigirii, tinowana, mujinga megomo refu, nzira duku inoenda kunhongonya; kanzira kadiki aka nhete uye hakatomborohwe, nekuti vanhu vashoma vanopinda nemairi. Pamusoro pegomo unopa ugaro hunofadza zvikuru kumweya werutendo nerudo; wo, gomo iri rinonzi gomo Kukunda rudo, sezvo JC akandiudza  pachake.

Ndiko kugara kunonakidza kwazvinogoneka kufungidzira; mhepo yakachena uye ine runyararo; michero iripo yakawanda uye inonaka; nyika yakafukidzwa imomo negoho uye nehupfumi hwese hwematsutso, kunyange zvazvo chitubu chisingaperi chinochengetedza mumafuro kusvibira kwe turf nekupenya kwemaruva akasiyana-siyana ayo ane enamelled. Mhepo inonhuwira nekutapira kwemunhuwi wadzo; kuzorora kunovhiringidzwa chete nokun’un’una kunyoro kwemvura idzo dzinobva pamusoro pemvura dzinoyerera dzichidzika nemateru egomo, kana kuti nenziyo dzinonakidza dzeshiri, idzo, dzakamhara pamatavi emiti, dzinoita sedzichabatana mumakonzati evadikani. uye vanoda murume. Mukutaura, Baba vangu, munhu anofarira ipapo zvese izvo zvakasikwa zvinogona kuburitsa zvinofadza uye zvakanyanya kunakisa.

Kana zvichitenderwa pano kushandisa kutaura kusingakoshi, munhu anogona kutaura kuti iyi nzvimbo yekugara inofadza, inogarwa nemweya inotungamirirwa nerudo rwakachena, yakafanana nesabhabhu kana kamuri yeimba yevakaropafadzwa. Iparadhiso yechokwadi yapasi, umo rudo rwaMwari runokurira muchinhu chiri chose; uye kwose kwose kwatinorumbidza, tinokomborera, tinonamata Mwari murudo rwake rwakachena, uye nokuda kworudo rwake rwakachena, sezvinoita vakaropafadzwa vari kudenga, uko rumwe rudo rwose, zvimwe zvose zvinofarirwa zvinowanika murudo rwaMwari bedzi, runobatanidzwa. uye akazviisa pasi pake, senzira yokusvika nayo kumagumo. Hurukuro, zviito, pfungwa, zvishuwo zvose zviito zverudo rwakachena uye rwakakwana. Mweya unofema rudo chete uye unorarama chete kubva murudo rwakachena. Kutapira kwakadii, kunofadza, mufaro wakadii.!... Ngavazvifarire mazviri,

Ndakafara zvikuru kuona chaunga chikuru chakadai chavanhu vachifamba nenzira yokukwana; asi Ishe vedu vakadzora mufaro wangu nokundiita kuti nditarise, 1°. kuti nhamba yacho yakanga isina chinhu, mukuenzanisa nechiverengero chisingaverengeki chevakarashikirwa avo vakarasika noruvengo rwuri rwose rwendangariro dzavo nokuipa chaiko kwemwoyo yavo, vakadzika midzi muuipi; 2°. kuti chero munhu wandakaona munzira  aisave

vasati vabatanidzwa muchiverengero chavakasanangurwa navakatemerwa kare, asi avo bedzi, kupfurikidza nokutendeka kwavo kumhiko yorubhapatidzo rwavo uye kunyasha dzebasa ravo, vangadai vakafanirwa neiyo yetsungiriro; avo vanosimuka kubva mukupunzika kwavo, uye vobereka zvibereko zvakakodzera zvekutendeuka, nokudaro vachivakira ruregerero rwavo patsitsi dzisingaperi dzaMwari. Kune avo, akawedzera, vanodzokera shure, havana kufanotemerwa mufaro wavanozvibvisa maari.

Pamusoro pazvo, Baba vangu, Mwari haana kundipa mucherechedzo kana chiratidzo, kuti ndizive zvakagara zvatemerwa nevasipo, uye ndingademba zvikuru kuti ndikumbire kwaari, ndichiona pamusoro pezvose mukuda kwake kuti isimba. chakavanzika chaakazvichengetera iye oga, chisingazofukurwi kusvikira pazuva rekupedzisira; asi ini ndaiziva zvakajeka kuti panguva iyi inouraya hapazovi neanorambwa mumwe chete asingaiti kururamisira kune nyasha dzakapfuura dzeJC, nekureurura kuti, kana akarasika, zviri kwaari, uye kwaari oga, kuti  anofanira .  tora .

Nhamba shoma yeavo vane kutendeuka kwechokwadi.

Ngatitaurei zvimwe Baba pamusoro pezvakanakira nekuipa kwekuzvidemba uku, kwatatotaura zvakanyanya; nokuti kwaisazova nemagumo kana zvinhu zvose zvaifanira kutaurwa pamusoro pechinhu chinokosha ichi. Nei kuzvidemba kwechokwadi kuchiwanzova nyore? Nemhaka yokuti tinoregeredza kurangarira pamusoro pemhiko dzorubhapatidzo, migumo yokupedzisira, pamusoro porudo rusina mufungo, runorangarira uye rusingafungidziriki rwaMwari nokuda kwedu, chinhu chiri chose chingatitungamirira ikoko; pakupedzisira, tinorasikirwa nechiono chezvinhu zvokutenda. Asi mwoyo unokuziva zviri nyore sei kupfurikidza nokufungisisa zvokwadi dzinoyera nedzinotyisa kufunga uku kuzvidemba kwakanaka, uko Mwari asingatongokundikani kupa kuna avo vanomukumbira neminyengetero yomwoyo wose nezvishuvo zvinopisa!

Marwadzo ake ndeechokwadi sei, kupfidza kwake kunofadza sei, paanoyeuka kusaonga kwake kuna Mwari akamudurura nezvikomborero, uye achikumbira kwaari, nokuda kwokuzivikanwa kwose, kutendeka bedzi kworudo rwake!... Ichi chisikwa chinofadza ndicho pasina panikiro akazadzwa nokutya marutongeso aMwari anotsiva;

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asi anozvibatanidza nerudo rwaMwari akanaka, uye manzwiro aya ekupedzisira ndiwo anokunda mumwoyo make; uye sezvo chiri chakanyanya kunaka uye chichinyanya kufadza kune uyo ari chinangwa chayo, chinozivisa hunhu hwacho kune vamwe vese, uye chinova chinangwa chikuru.

Pane, ndinoona, Baba vangu, kana mafaro, kana kubatikana, kana mukana, kana chimwe chinhu, pakupedzisira, kuti mwoyo wakadaro hauna kugadzirira kupira kutsiva Mwari pachezvawo. Anoshandisa ropa raJC kwaari pachake kuburikidza nesakaramende yekuregererwa, uye denga rinokunda uye rinofara mukutendeuka kwemutadzi uyu: tsika inokundwa; haakundwi kunze kwekunge nekusasimba kwechokwadi, uye nekupunzika  kwekusasimba anohwina kukunda makumi maviri kana makumi matatu pamusoro pekuda kwake. Kure nekumiswa munzira yayo, ichatora mukana wekudonha kwayo kunyangwe kukunda zvirinani vavengi vayo; achave akasimba uye akasimba kusvika pakufa mumanzwiro uye nechisarudzo chekusatadza zvakare uye kuva akatendeka nguva dzose kuna  Mwari wake.

Asi, Baba, ah! Iduku sei nhamba yevakapfidza vorudzi urwu  ! Ndinodzokorora zvakare, ah! mudiki sei!... Handisi kukuudza izvo Mwari anoita kuti ndione paari… Kubva muzana... ndiri kuti chii? zvichida hapana kana mumwe chete pakati pechiuru!... Ndinodedera! Kushandiswa zvisina kufanira kwenyasha kwakadini kwakabva kwaita! Kumhura kwakadini, kupira kwakadini kunoitwa neava vatadzi venguva dzose, vanozviti uye vanotozvitenda ivo pachavo vatendeuka! vanhu vangani vakarasika, mweya mingani inoenda kugehena nemazvo nenzira dzinofanira kuvachengetedza kubva mairi Hazvikwanisi here kuti vanhu vadedere? mwari wangu, ko murombo  wevanhu uchavei?....

Mano edhimoni kudzivirira kutendeuka kwechokwadi kwemoyo.

Inyanzvi dzakawanda sei, unyengeri hunoshandiswa nedhimoni kuvanyengedza! Kutanga, kuti avatsigire mukuregeredza kwavo nousimbe hwomudzimu, anovaita kuti vanzwisise kuti nguva yokutendeuka kwavo haisati yasvika; kuti, kuti vakunde tsika yezvishuvo zvavo, vanoda nyasha dzinokunda idzo Mwari achapa kana azvitonga zvakanaka; kuti panguva ino, zvingava zvisina maturo kuedza chinhu chipi nechipi nenyasha dzisina kusimba, akavaudza, kubudirira. Pamusoro paikoku vanopera simba mumugariro worufu, pasinei zvapo nokudemba kwehana dzavo uye nhamburiko dzose dzedenga dzokuvabudisa kunze: mharidzo, kurava, mirairo, kufamba kwakanaka, zvose zvinoregeredzwa, kuzvidzwa, kutsikwa netsoka. Idzi hadzisi nyasha dzaunoda, rakadaro dhimoni: Mwari vane nguva yavo; nguva yake haisati yasvika; iwe unofanirwa kuita pfungwa yako kuimirira nekutenda uye kurega: zvichida uye zvichida kuti achakuchengetera iwe kweawa yekufa, ngative nemoyo murefu uye usakurumidza chero chinhu; zvinhu hazvina kumbonaka; zvinhu zvose ngazviitwe zvakarongeka, uye hapana chinobuda nenguva.

Ah! Baba vangu, mweya mingani yandinoona ichiwira mugehena, pane iyi tariro inonyengera yepeccavi yakanaka paawa yekufa! nokuti ipapo, panzvimbo pokugamuchira nyasha dzinoshamisa, dzavakaverengera vasingadi, havagamuchiri kunyange nedzavanhuwo zvavo, kana kuti vanozvibata zvisina kunaka kusvikira pakuguma, vakafa sezvavakararama.

Hongu, Baba vangu, varombo ava vanofa sezvavakararama; nokuti ndinoona pfungwa dzavo dzichinetseka uye mwoyo yavo yakaomeswa; havachaoni chimwe chinhu asi mimvuri yorufu, mikaha nemawere. Ipapo ndipo pakabva paita dhimoni

kuchinja kwemutauro, uye kuti anoshandisa bhatiri rake rekupedzisira pakurwisa kwekupedzisira kwaanovapa: nokudaro anovaita kuti vaone zvitadzo zvavo sezvisingakanganwirwi uye ruponeso rwavo sechinhu chisingabviri. Anoti kwavari: Makazvidza Mwari nenyasha dzake muupenyu; ndiwo mugumisiro usingadzivisiki wekufungidzira kunomugumbura, uye kusaonga kwawakashandisa kusvika zvino ... kuwira mugomba rakadzika-dzika rokuora mwoyo, uko vanowanzopedza mazuva avo asingafadzi.  Kufa kwakadini Baba! vaifanira kuzvarwa here kuti vafe zvakadai! Hazvaizova nani kwavari zvakapetwa kane chiuru kana vasina kumbobuda muchinhu chisina maturo, pane !....

Ndinoona, Baba vangu, kuti vamwe vatadzi varipo vanoreurura, uye vanototendeuka nekushingaira muupenyu hwavo; asi kutendeuka uku hakusi kwenguva refu. Dhimoni rinomutsidzira zvishuvo zvavo nechisimba zvokuti vanokurumidza kukurirwa kwariri, kungave kubva muutera kana kuti kubva mumuitiro: zvino vanowana kuodzwa mwoyo kunovaita chiveve, kuvanetesa nokuvaodza mwoyo; mweya wavo wakaita sokunge wakaoma mutezo uye havangambokwanisi kuita kamwe kamufambo kuna Mwari. Zvisinei, ivo vachiri dzimwe nguva vanoswedera kumasakaramende, asi  sechinhu chaicho, uye neimwe tsika isingachinji chero chinhu mumufambiro wavo. Kana iri nyaya yekugadzirira kuenda kudare rinoera, vanofunga kugadzira chisungo chakanaka chekuti vasadonha  zvakare  . Zvose zvakanaka,  anodaro

dhimoni, usavimbise kupfuura simba rako rinokubvumidza  kuti uite! Hey! hamuzivi here kuti murume wese murume? hazvigoneki

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kuti usadzokera shure nokukurumidza kana kuti gare gare, uye usamirira chimwe chinhu chipi nechipi. Zvakakwana, kuitira kuchengeteka kwako, kuti ufunge kuzvivandudza pane imwe nguva panguva inodiwa kuti ugashire masakaramende; asi kupenga kwakadini kuda kuramba zvachose kugutsikana kwakadaro uye kwakadaro! Vimba neni, haungambochengete vimbiso iyoyo; uye zviri nani kusadaro pane kuzviisa panjodzi yekuva ane mhosva zvakanyanya nezvipikirwa zvisina kuchenjera uye zvisingatarisirwi.

Pane izvi, uyo anenge apfidza anozvisimbisa zvakanyanya nekuti anoona sarudzo iyi iri nyore uye inopindirana nenzira yake yekuitonga, sekune zvese zvaanofanoona nechomukati kuti zvichaitika. Anodaro ega

: Uye chaizvoizvo, hazvigoni kuva neimwe nzira; uye ndiro bato rakachenjera uye rine hungwaru muzvinhu zvose. Naizvozvo anoita rudzi rwechibvumirano kana kuti chibvumirano nehana yake, maererano naro, nguva imwe neimwe yaanoda kuenda kunoreurura, anoshandisa kuzvidzora kuduku muzvishuvo zvake; anotozvigadzirisa, kwemazuva mashoma, pane chimwe chinhu chakaitika netsaona; anotosvika pakunzvenga zvimwe nguva, kana chete kuitira kuti asarambwe neanoreurura. Achiri kuzvitsigira pachake imwe nguva mushure mekuregererwa kwake, uye dhiabhorosi ane chido chakanyanya mukumunyengedza kuti asamusiye neiri kupenya kwenhema kwekutendeuka kunomusimbisa; asi nokukurumidza anotangazve chitima chake chenguva dzose, uye achiri kuzvipa rusununguko ruzere rwokutadza, kusvikira panguva yaanenge ajaira uye paanofunga kuenda kunoreurura: kuitira kuti, nokudaro achipfuura nomudenderedzwa rokutendeuka nokudzokerazve, anowana panzvimbo yokureurura. kupera kwebasa rake kwangova murwi wemhosva uye zvitsvene zvinomupinza  mugomba  rakadzika-dzika. Asi, Baba vangu, pano  zvichida

unyengeri hwamanomano zvikuru hwedhimoni, kupofumadza ava vanonyepedzera kupfidza kupfurikidza nokuvasimbisa pamusoro pezvimiro zvenhema izvo anoziva nzira yokuisa nayo nounyanzvi munzvimbo yeizvo Mwari anokumbira.

Apo nyasha dzinoronda mutadzi, apo hana yake inomutambudza, apo mutungamiriri akanaka anomurova nokutya marutongeso aMwari, kumumanikidza kuti pakupedzisira asvike kuchinjo chaiyoiyo youpenyu, pangava paIsita kana kuti mukudzokera shure kwomudzimu kwakanaka, kana kuti mukuva netsitsi dzomudzimu. mamwe mamiriro ezvinhu ari kuuya,  Mwari anoita kuti ndione kuti dhiabhorosi anobva awedzera kaviri kuedza kwake kuchengetedza mhuka yake, maererano neavo vakaitwa kuti vamubvute. Anomiririra zvakajeka kukufungidzira kwake uye kumanzwiro ake izvo zvinhu zvezvishuwo zvinomupa mufaro wakawanda, uye kwaaine akasimba uye ane hanya zvakanyanya zvakabatanidzwa uye  zvimiro

zvinofadza, zvinomufadza, achitambanudza maoko ake kwaari? Dzokerai kwandiri, musandisiya, uye ndicharamba ndichikufadzai. Hey! ungararama usina mafaro andinoita here? Munhu angatadza kunzwisisa zvaari ozviramba here? angadai asina mhosva yerufu rwake here?

hutsinye  husingakanganwirwi  ? link saka kudada, avarice  ,

kukara, nevamwe vose vadzvinyiriri vemweya wake. Mumwe nomumwe wavo, Mwari  anondiita kuti ndione, anotaura naye mutauro wokunyengedza uri wake amene, uye wakaoma zvikuru kuti arambe, zvikurukuru tichifunga nezvesimba raakabvumira tsika yake yakaipa uye kuda kutora chibvumirano ikoko  . ...

Mutadzi naizvozvo anozviwana aine nharo zvikuru pakati pemapato maviri, anopikisana naye zvachose: kune rumwe rutivi hana yake inomuudza kuti anofanira kuzvipira kunyasha uye kuteerera Mwari; ukuwo, kuda kwake kunoda kodzero kubva pamoyo wake. Dhimoni rinoitei? Anochenjerera kuti arege kurembera chikero chose achitsigira zvinoshuva; kosi iyi ingave yakakasharara, uye inogona kuvhura maziso eavo vane upofu husati hwasvika pakureba. Saka ari kuitei? hezvino izvi: nekunatswa kwekunyengera kwakakodzera kwaari, iye achiri kuwana pano nzira yekugarisa zvinhu zvose nekubvumirana kana munhu achigona kutaura kudaro, nekupa zvishoma kune mumwe nomumwe wemapato maviri; sokunge munhu angabatira vatenzi vaviri vanopikiswa; sokunge kuti kutarisira kuduku kwechisikigo hakuna kutipa zvose kwaari.

Nyarara, ipapo mutadzi akati kumuchiva kwake, Ndirege hangu, ndirege kutongoora hangu; asi handisi kutaura zvakanaka zvachose, tichasangana zvakare ndiri kuona muna Mwari baba vangu kuti chibvumirano ichi chiri kuitika zvakanaka  .

uye zvakavanda mumwoyo memutadzi, zvokuti mutadzi pachake haazvioni, uye zvichida haatombozvioni. Kwakafanana neshamwari mbiri dzepedyo dzinomanikidzirwa kuparadzana, uye idzo, dzichitera kumasimba masimba adzinoitwa, dzinobvuma kubatanidzwazve; asi vanobvumirana pane zvishoma

kutarisa, kana nechimwe chiratidzo icho hapana akacherechedza, kunyange zvazvo vainzwisisa uye vakanzwisisana zvakakwana. Hongu, hezvo, Baba vangu, kuti mutadzi anogara akanamatira pazviri anozviparadzanisa sei kubva pakuda kwake kukuru. Anonyatsogutsikana kuti akawana rubatsiro rwakadaro kuti azvinyengedze, kuburikidza nekunyengedza mutungamiri wake wemweya. Dhimoni rinofara zvikuru nekubudirira kwake, chido chacho chinofanirawo kugutsikana; kuna Mwari oga asisipo, uye anopa mhosva ari kudenga

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kuregererwa uko, kuchingova chitsvene chaicho, kunongoguma nekumwe kupofumadza mweya weuyo anoigamuchira, nekumusimbisa zvisina kufanira.

zvivi zvisingakanganwirwi, uye kunyange zvakadaro anorasikirwa nendangariro.

Bofu, anofunga kuti afambira mberi zvikuru mukukwana, nokuti haana kutsauka sezvaangava, uye nemhaka yokuti anozviruramisa amene nokuda kwezvikanganiso zvakati; asi kuchiva kunoramba kuchiripo, uye kuda kuita zvakaipa hakufi maari. ane zvose zvokutya kuti haazofi ikoko. Iyi, zvisinei, ndiyo mamiriro asina kufadza ayo murume uyu asina kunaka anopfuura hupenyu hwake, uye umo, kazhinji, anoigumisa. Hakusi kuti haasati atendeuka; asi, Baba, kashoma sei  kutendeuka  kwakadaro ! Chii chinonzi contrition uye kutendeuka, kana  rudo

waMwari anokunda zvedu? Ndinoona kuti zviri nani kupa mhosva mutadzi pane kumururamisa pamberi paMwari.

Naizvozvo dhimoni rakabatikana zvikuru kukanda mirangariro yomunhu  mundangariro nemwoyo yaavo rinoona vachigadzirira kureurura. Asi kana kuzvidemba kwavo kwakakwana uye kwakavakirwa parudo rwakachena rwaMwari, urwo runodzora uye runokunda vavariro iri yose, ipapo rusvingo rusingasvikiki kunhamburiko dzose. Anongogona chete kugeda-geda mazino ake pamusoro peichi chipingamupinyi chisingakundiki, chinomuita kuti atsamwe  nekuvenga  Munoda, Baba, mavhoriyamu makuru kwamuri  .

kufumura unyengeri, manyepo, manomano asingaverengeki aanoshandisa  kuti anyengere vatadzi vanogara vachingoona sokuzvidemba kwavasina, kana iri  nzira yake chete.

Nzira dzekunzvenga misungo yedhimoni.

Munamato une shungu, wakazvininipisa, wakasimba uye une hupenyu ndiyo nzira yekutanga iyo mweya uri mumaoko ekudzivirira kuvhiringa misungo yakasiyana-siyana yemweya wenhema. Ndiye anokurudzira kutenda, anopa tariro uye anotungidza rudo; iye, pakupedzisira, anowana hunhu hwese hunoisa mweya wekuedza kutiza.

Naizvozvo tinofanira kunamata nokutenda nechivimbo mukunaka kweMuponesi, izvo zvinopa huremu hwakazara kuminamato yedu, pamwe nokuzvidemba kwedu nokunaka kwedu. Naizvozvo tinofanira kumukumbira nguva dzose nokuda kworudo rwake rwoumwari, miuyo inofadza yengoni dzake, uye kuzvidemba ikoko kwechokwadi nekwapachokwadi, kusina  zvivi zvisingambokanganwirwi  . 

 vavariro dzatinopiwa nokutenda, kutikuchidzira pakuzvidemba uku, kuti tizvirangarire nechiedza chemwenje uyo uchavhenekera kudzika kwehana dzedu pakutongwa kwatinozoitwa pashure porufu Pakati pezvikonzero  . 

kutenda ikoko kunotikurudzira, avo vanotorwa kubva pazvido zvedu pachedu, kunyange zvazvo vasina kunyanyonaka mavari, vanogona chaizvo kupinda nokuda kwechimwe chinhu mukupfidza kwechokwadi, chero bedzi rudo rwaMwari ruchitonga, uye kuti

mhindu inodarika chero ipi zvayo; asi izvi ndizvo zvichiri kunyanya kutorwa senhando, uye zvinokonzera kurasikirwa kwevazhinji, maererano nezvandakaratidzwa naMwari.

Kunyanya kutya gehena, kwakafuridzirwa nadhiabhorosi.

Hongu, Baba, uye izvi ndizvo zvandinoziva zvakajeka, kana mutadzi abatwa nenyasha atora chisungo pamberi paMwari kuti atendeuke, dhiabhorosi anotarisisa kuti chinangwa chii chinotonga muchisarudzo ichi; kana akaona kuti kutya gehena, anobva angozvishandisa kuti awedzere kuwedzera: anovhiringidza pfungwa nekufungidzira zvakanyanya nekutya kukuru uku, zvekuti anovhara masuwo ekutariro yekuregererwa, uye pamusoro pezvose kune manzwiro anotapira ekuvimba uye rudo. Ngoni dzingaita kuti dzinzwike, asi mutadzi anovhara nzeve dzake kuti anzwe inzwi rayo uye anongoteerera chete inzwi romutongi akatsamwa. Nehurombo, hazvisi pano kuti filial uye salutary kutya, nguva dzose kurairwa neuchenjeri; kutya kusingabvisi kuda kutadza, uye kunobvisa rudo rwaMwari; nepo mumweya ine mafungiro akanaka ndirwo rutyo urwu rusingabatanidzwi norudo  .

(1) Timori harina nyasha, sed perfecta charitas faires mittimorem. ( I. Joan. p. 4; 18. ).

Hazvirambiki, Baba vangu, kuti Mwari vanoda ruponeso rwevanhu vose; asiwo zvine chokwadi chokuti Mwari haasati achizotiponesa pasina isu, ndiko kuti, pasina kuwirirana kwedu nebetsero yaanotipa nokuda kwaikoku. Ichi ndicho chikonzero, mushure mekusavimbika kwakawanda, nyasha dzinobva, uye mutadzi anosara asina chero chinhu. Dhimoni rinobva rabata risingarambiki kuda kwaro, kwarinogadzirisa muzvakaipa; anoshandisa chido chikuru kutonga uye kutungamirira vamwe vose. Kubva ipapo ndipo paanoita kuti aite kana kuti anyarare, maererano nezvido zvenguva iyoyo.

Kana iri mubvunzo wemamiriro ezvinhu apo tsika inoda kuti tiswedere kumasakaramende, zvino inoisa kunyarara pazvishuvo, kana kuita kuti mafambiro echisikigo atorerwe mafambiro enyasha. Mumwe anosvika nezvitarisiko zvakaisvonaka; asi nokukurumidza pashure, mufambiro uye kudzokazve zvinoratidza izvo munhu anofanira kuva akafunga nezvazvo. Pane izvi, tinosarudza kumirira kutendeukira kurufu, nokuti tinosuwa kubudirira nguva ino isati yasvika; izvi ndizvo chaizvo zvakanga zvarongwa nedhimoni. hosha yokupedzisira iri kuuya; ipapo mutadzi anozoonekwa

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kubatwa zvaasati amboita. Zvose munguva yakanaka; asi pano kutendeuka kwomuiti wezvakaipa kunotungamirira kukurangwa, uye kutya kunowira mumwongo wamafupa. Kutya kukuru uye pasina rudo. Ndiko kupfidza kwaKaini, kwaJudhasi, kwaAntiochus; zvichateverwa nokurangwa kwavo.

Rufu runotyisa rwemutadzi akapererwa.

Ndiani asingacheme, Baba, ah! Ndiani aisazochema mugumo wouyu murombo ane nhamo, uyo zvino asisina chokugoverana nacho kunze kwokutya nokuora mwoyo? Mwari wengoni, zvikotamisei, munzwire tsitsi,  Aiwa  ,

Baba, kwete, muprista ari kuuya; asi Minister of Reconciliation, avo vane maziso anonyaradza kune avo vari kufa, vanongomupa chinhu chinokatyamadza uye chisingatsigirwi. Muprista, zvisinei, anoshanda nesimba rake rose kumuwanira rufu rutsvene: anomukurudzira kuti ave nechivimbo chemwana munyasha dzaMwari dzinogara dziripo; anoedza nenzira dzose kumumutsazve tariro yake maari nokutenda kwake, uye kumukurudzira nokunzwa kwokupfidza kwechokwadi, kusuwa chaiko nokuda kwezvivi zvake...

Unoiteiko iwe mushumiri waShe? muprista anoshingaira, uri kuitei? ha! uri kutaura kune wakarashwa anongofanira kumirira kutongwa kwekutongwa kwake. Hana yake inotomupomera pachine nguva mberi, uye madhemoni ayo  iye muranda wake ari kutovamba kumuitira mutongo waakagadzirirwa naMwari waachiri kutadzira, uye uyo achamutonga  nokukurumidza  . Mwenje

vanodya, danidzirai madhimoni kwaari, kurangwa kusingaperi, uyu ndiwo  mugove wako. Kudzika kwegehena ndiko kwatichapfuudza mweya wako, mushure mekunge taukwevera kudare redzimhosva remutongi wawo  .

Mweya unosuruvarisa uyu unopinda mukurwadziwa nekuvhunduka kusingafungidzike; anonzwa kutinhira kwemheni, anonzwa kurova kweruramisiro  youmwari, anoona ruoko rwaMwari rwakasimudzwa kuti  rumurove .  O kutya!  o

kupererwa! O kurasikirwa kusingagadzirike! O kurwadzisa kusingaperi! Rasiiwa naMwari nevanhu, rinova chinhu chinotambwa nemadhimoni uye chibayo chemirazvo yemoto isingaperi. Saizvozvo, vapristi veJC, wedzerai kushingaira kwenyu, chero bedzi muchida, munozvinetesa pasina; kufunganya kwenyu hakuna maturo, nesimba renyu rose

superfluous. Zvichida, maiwe! uchaita kuti munhu awane purofiti kubva pazviri awedzere mhosva!...

Ndinoona muna Mwari kuti, panguva yekurwadziwa kwekupedzisira kwemutadzi uyu ari kufa, dhiabhori anoshandisa simba rose raainaro pamusoro pemweya uyu kupfuura nakare kose, dzimwe nguva nekupa basa rakawanda kune zvishuvo zvechisimba, dzimwe nguva, uye ndizvo zvakajairika, zvichiita. vose vanopinda mumuedzo wokupererwa nezano. Pane dzimwe nguva anomuitira chisimba; zvinonyatsobaya fungidziro yake uye chikamu chake chepasi nekutya uye kutya; anomuratidza nemoto wehero nesimba guru zvokuti anofunga kuti anotoanzwa... Hungu, anotofunga kuti ari kutsva, uye zvechokwadi haana kukanganisa; nokuti kusvika paari nesimba, mweya wenyama uyu unosunungura paari mhute dzinopfuta dzemweya wake wemoto, dzinogona kunzi makiyi ekutanga egehena.

Izvi, Baba, sokundiita kwandakaita Mwari kuti ndione uye ndinzwisise, ndizvo zvinowanzoitika mukati memutadzi anenge arohwa, nepo muprista achimubatsira mukumutungamirira. Anomuudza kuti anopfidza kuti akagumbura Mwari; hongu, zvirokwazvo anotendeuka pazviri, asi zvakachena uye chete kuburikidza nekutya gehena; kutya uku kwemuranda nguva dzose anopandukira pasi pezvibhakera, haambogoni kuzviruramisa. Angada kuva mutsvene, kwete kuti Mwari arumbidzwe  nokukudzwa, asi zvakachena uye bedzi nokuda kwokutya kuva akarashwa uye kutambura mugumo wayo une ngwavaira. Masakaramende ekupedzisira aanogamuchira muchimiro ichi chinosuruvarisa anongoshanda chete kuisa korona kune zvitsvene zvake uye chisimbiso chekupedzisira pakurambwa kwake  ....

Chinzvimbo chinotyisa icho Mwari, ndinoziva, achiri anogona kubvisa zvachose mutadzi, asi kubva kwaasingazombomubvisi kunze kwechishamiso chakasimba, kana munhu achigona kutaura kudaro, kupfuura icho chakamutsa Razaro kubva muguva. Ndeupi murume ane manyawi angazvishingisa kuti awane favour yakadai? Ah! Baba vangu, kutsungirira kwakadini kungava! Kufungidzira kwakadaro haingave  mhosva inotyisa here  ! Mwari vaiva  nezvose

yakaitirwa Bhabhironi iri risingaongi; asi zvisina maturo: kushivirira kwake kwapera, iye pakupedzisira achamusiya kune nhamo yake yakaipa; ipapo achatsiva kuzvidzwa kwake, uye achaseka panguva yake kune uyo akamuseka  zvakanyanya  .

denouement, chinzvimbo chakaipisisa chaungafungidzira, uye zvakadaro munhu anosvika pachiri zuva rega rega asina kumbozvifunga!....

Rufu rwakasiyana rwevatadzi vakasiyana.

Ndinoona, Baba vangu, kuti pane musiyano mukuru pakati perufu rwevatadzi vakasiyana-siyana, sezvazviri pakati peupenyu hwavo, zvishuvo zvavo, mhosva dzavo, uye mwero wakasiyana weuipi hwavo. Nokudaro Mwari anogona kuva nehanya zvikuru kana kuti zvishoma kune dzimwe tsika dzakanaka dzavachange vashandisa munguva yavo

hupenyu, pamusoro pekururama kose, kuenzana kwepanyama, tsitsi kunhamo dzevarombo, kutakura kukanganisa kwevamwe, nerudo kune muvakidzani wako. Kubva pazvinoitika kuti Mwari dzimwe nguva anodurura zvakanyanya pane zvimwe zvakanaka zveropa reJC, uye anovabvisa kubva kugehena,

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vamwe chiuru vanowiramo. Aya ndiwo mhedzisiro yekuda nguva dzose yakasununguka sezvairi mukutonga kwayo uye mukuita kwayo kwese. Zvinobva pane izvi kuti vashumiri vemasakaramende ekupedzisira eChechi havafanire kuregeredza basa ravo, kana kusiya chero chinhu chinogona kupa mukuedza kukuru uku kwerudo rutsvene. Kana munhu ari kufa achibatsirwa nazvo kana kuti kwete, Mwari ndiye anofanira kusarudza; nokuda kwavo, vachava nokukodzera kwakafanana nomubairo wakafanana pamberi pake.

Sechirango chakarurama, avo vanoregeredza Masakaramende vanowanzofa vasina Sakaramende.

Zvinowanzoitika, Baba vangu, kuti vanhu vanofa vasina sakaramende nemhedzisiro yekutsiva kwaMwari, iyo inoranga kana kushungurudzwa kwavakaita nayo, kana kuregeredza kwavakagara mune izvi. Kune vanhu vangani vanogara mukudziya, kusava nehanya kune mhosva, ngatitaure zviri nani mukusemwa kwetsika, kutyisa kwakavanzika kweTribunal neTafura Tsvene, uko dhiabhorosi anotora hanya huru kuvachengeta! Vanotya zvikuru kuishandisa zvisina kufanira, vanodaro, uye yokuzviita vamene vane mhaka zvikuru: asi kana vakanyatsoteerera kwairi, vaizoona kuti vanotya kunyadziswa kunyange kupfuura kubatwa zvisina kufanira. Kana chinangwa chiri chakanaka, uye iwe uchida chaizvo kutora nzira yekuzviponesa, ipapo kutya kunoita kuti ugadzirire zvirinani, uye usarega. Kuti usvike pazviri, zvino, zvinodhura zvisikwa, uye izvi ndizvo chaizvo zvatinotya, kana kuti zvatinotya zvakanyanya kupfuura vamwe vese, uye nei isu dzimwe nguva tichigara kwemakore tisingafungi nezveChirairo Chitsvene, kana cheDare. kudenga. Kure nokufambira mberi mukukwana, tinodavira kuti tinomiswa noruremekedzo, uye tinodaro bedzi nechiveve chomudzimu  noumbwende  . Ndarama,

Ndinokubvunza iwe, ndeipi nhoroondo yekupa kuti izvi zvisina maturo chete, izvi

usimbe hwematsotsi, uko vanhu vazhinji zvakadaro vanopedza chikamu chakanakisa chehupenyu hwavo!....

Mhosva dzenhema mudare redzimhosva, kunyanya dzinobva kuvatendi venhema, avo vanoreurura vanofanira kudzingwa.

Ko ndaigoti kudii nhai Baba kana ndada kupinda mugwara remhosva dzinokonzereswa nemuedzi kuti dziitwe pakuongorora nepakupomerwa.

! Anosvibisa pfungwa dzeanotendeuka nerima kuti avanze zvivi zvake; ipapo anomutungamirira kuti azviverengere, kuti arege kuzvizivisa amene kumureururi wake. Anotsvaka mashoko akapfava zvikuru, matauriro angangoita kuti abvise kunyadziswa kwose kwechivi noukuru hwose hwokuwa. Hatidzokeri kunheyo kana kuvavariro dzechokwadi dzechiito; mumwe anovanza nguva, maitiro; munhu anongoratidza kuzvinakira kwake zvese zvinopokana zvehunhu. Pakupedzisira, munhu anoita zvakanaka kwazvo zvokuti anobudirira mukuzviita amene kusanzwisiswa nomutongi anofanira kusarudza pazviri; uye pakutonga uku, kushamiswa uye kubiridzirwa, munhu anozvisimbisa ....

Nyadzi dzinovhara muromo pane tsvina; kutya kudzorera purazi pakusaruramisira; Kuzvikudza kunotiita kuti tipe mhosva yose yezvatinotaura pane vamwe, kana kuedza kuzvideredza nemamiriro ezvinhu atinozviwana tiri maari. Zvinoita sekuti tinoenda kunoreurura kunokumbira ruregerero, kwete kuzvipa mhosva. Kana akareurura achida pfungwa yakanaka pamusoro peizvi zvose, tinoti ane rusarura, kuti ari mumhepo yakaipa, kuti haasi nyore, uye tinopedzisira tamusiya, totsvaka kumwewo munhu munyoro, anonyanya kugutsikana uye ane hanya. kurairirwa zvishoma, pakupedzisira mureururi sekuda kunoita munhu; mureururi uyo anowanzotsvakwa nerudo rwekuzvarwa narwo: zviri nani kumunhu kuti azvireurura ega pane uyo ane

Gomba rinotonyanya kutyiwa, Baba vangu, sezvazvakanyanya kuwanda, kunyanya pakati pevanamati venhema avo vandatotaura nezvavo kwamuri, uye nokuda kwavo taisazopedza, kana zvose zvaifanira kutaurwa; kana kwakanga kuri madikanwa, somuenzaniso, kuzivisa kutsauka kwose kwounyengeri hwavo nokuzviremekedza kwavo vamene, kuratidza kuti, munhauro dzavo namashoko avo marefu, vane unyanzvi sei mukunyengedza mutungamiriri wavo, mukuzvinyengera vamene; vanovanza zvikanganiso zvavo uye vachiwedzeredza maitiro avo ekunyepedzera nemabasa akanaka; noungwaru hwakadini hwavanopa chokwadi nemhaka dzinopokana kwaari, nenzira yokumuita kuti azvione ari kudivi ravanoda  . saka  _

kuti mureururi aizoda ngwariro huru, yakabatanidzwa noruzivo rwokuzviwanira zvikurusa, kuvanzwisisa nenzira yakarurama.

Dhimoni rinotungamirira rurimi rwavo, uye rinovaita kuti vataure kana kunyarara sezvaanoda, dzimwe nguva idhimoni risingatauri, dzimwe nguva dhimoni rinotaura; uye anenge nguva dzose anenge ari mbeveve, pasinei nemashoko ose aanotaura kana kuti anoita kuti ataure, nokuti haambotauri zvinofanira kutaurwa. Kunomutsa muvashumiri venhema ava chido chikuru chezviito zvinopenya, uye nokuda kwemabasa ose akanaka emidziyo nzara huru yechirairo chitsvene, chinovaita kuti vade kukurukura nguva dzose uye pasina kunyara kukuru kweunhu hwakanaka kana rudzi rwoupenyu runodiwa. Kudya kwakawanda. Kureurura kwavo kunodzokororwa, kuti vave nenhambo yokutaura kazhinji kazhinji kune anovatungamirira, uye kazhinji kazhinji zvikuru kwazvo, kuti vagogona kutaura naye kwenguva refu. Pakupedzisira, vanoedza kuiona uye kuichengeta kazhinji, vanotofunga nezvazvo kakawanda. Ndinoona muna Mwari, Baba vangu, kuti imomo

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vamwe vaizova vevanoreurura nyoka dzenyama dzavaizosungirwa kutiza vadzinge, pavakangoona kusimba kwehunhu hwavo uye kutendeuka kwekuzvipira kwavo....

Handisi kutaura pano Baba, uye Mwari ngaadaro! vemweya mizhinji inonetswa nekusavimbika kana njere pamusoro pechokwadi chekureurura kwavo, nezvimwewo, kana miyedzo yakaoma, yavanozvishandisa kurwisa. Mureururi anofanira kuvarayira, kuvasimbisa, kuvanyaradza, kuvabatsira kutakura mamiriro avo anosiririsa. Anofanira kutambura kutsungirira kwavo, uye kutarisira, nekuvadzinga, kuwedzera huipi hwavo. Naizvozvo handisi kutaura nezvemweya iyi yakaedzwa, asi chete yevakazvipira venhema iyi inotungamirwa nadhiyabhorosi, uye avo, vachitora kuzvipira sechifukidziro nekunyepedzera, vanofungidzira ivo pachavo kuti vari kutsvaga Mwari, ivo vachitsvaga chete mushumiri wake. Oh ! nekuti avo, Baba vangu, vasina tsitsi, nditendei; hapana chikonzero chekutaurirana navo; asi vanofanira kudzoserwa shure pasina kurangarirwa;

Nzira iyo vanoreurura vanofanira kudzidzisa nekudzikamisa mweya yakanaka inotambudzika nekurwadziwa.

Kana iri mweya inotambudzika uye yakaedzwa yatichangobva kutaura nezvayo, hezvino izvo anoreurura achataura kwavari kuti avasimbise, nepaanogona napo, nezvemaitiro avo kana vasvika kune kureurura neTafura Tsvene: Watsunga here, ne rubatsiro rwenyasha, rwekukururamisa pazvivi zvaunofanira kureurura, kana zvawakareurura pamusoro pazvo? Kuda kwenyu kwakabviswa pakunakidzwa kwese kwechivi here? Kana zvakadaro, usazvidya moyo, une kuzvidemba, kunyangwe usingazvinzwi. Matambudziko anokunetsa anongobva kuna dhiyabhorosi; kutyaira kunoratidza zvese zviri pano. Nokudaro, kana wakasimba mukudzivisa uye kutiza, zvisimbise umene pamusoro pezvimiro zvako; usatsvake zvakanyanya izvo Mwari zvaakakupa, ndinoreva kutendeuka: shingairira pakuva wakatendeka kunyasha, uye murambe muchizvisimbisa muruvengo rwechivi uye mukutya kuchiita; nekuti mune izvi mune chimiro chekuzvidemba kwakanaka, kunogona chete kuve basa re Mweya Mutsvene.

Mweya mingani yakanaka iyo Mwari vanoidza nenzira iyi kuti vangoichengeta mukuzvininipisa uye mukutya kukuru! Kuri kupfurikidza naikoku anovatsigira pamiedzo inopopotera, iyo inongobatira bedzi kuvanatsa kupfurikidza nokuvawanira rukundo. Hongu, kutya, matambudziko, kuvhiringika kwehana inotya, kusava nechokwadi, kukangaidzika pamusoro pekusava nechokwadi kweruponeso, pamusoro pemamiriro emunhu ari pamberi paMwari, pamusoro pekureurura kwaakaita uye masakaramende ayo  akagamuchira  . mapurigatori mazhinji  emweya wakatendeka;

iwo madutu aanofanira kurwisana nawo, akabatirira parutendo, tariro nerudo.

Pachivi chekudzokazve, nemigumisiro yacho.

Pachivi chekudzokazve, Baba vangu, JC vanondiita kuti ndizive kuti paanotaura muvhangeri, kuti dhimoni rakadzingwa mumweya rinotora pamwe naye mamwe madhimoni manomwe akaipa kupfuura iye, kutaura uku hakufanirwe kutorwa sechinhu chaicho. , sokunge kuti vakaenda kuchiverengero chemidzimu yakaipa sere kuti irwise mweya uyu: izvi, akandiudza, zvinoreva kuti anodzokera kumhosva pashure pokunge akundwa, asi nehasha dzinopfuura kanomwe, zvokuti zvikuru kwazvo. zvakaoma kutsigira kurwiswa kwechipiri uku. Asiwo Baba ndinoona kuti nyasha dzakasimba zvichienderana nengozi. Dhimoni, rakatsamwa, rinotanga nekubata chikamu chepasi chemweya, pfungwa uye fungidziro; anowedzera kaviri nhamburiko dzake, anoyeuka mufaro wose wetsika nenguva dzakapfuura. masimba, manomano uye artifices; zvisina maturo anosunungura gehena rose: kana mweya usingarasikirwi nekuona kwawakavimbisa kuna Mwari, kana wakatendeka kunyasha dzinoutsigira, une chokwadi chekukunda, uye dhimoni richanyadziswa. Asi kana,  by

nhamo, anouya kuzokanda mapfumo pasi oregedza; kana akaramba achiita sungano netsika yakatukwa, uye achida kuita zvakaipa; kana achiri kubvuma kunakidzwa netsotsi, zvese zvinorasika.

Mweya Mutsvene anobva abuda mumwoyo make, uye dhimoni rinodzokera ikoko mukukunda; ndipo apo mamiriro emurombo uyu anobva atonyanya kuipa kupfuura zvaamboita. Zvisinei, tinofanira kusiyanisa zviri pachena kudzokera muchivi nokudzokera mutsika yokutadza; sezvakaitawo kudzokazve kweutera, uko kunogona kuitika kunyangwe mushure mekureurura kwakanaka, nekudzokazve kwehutsinye, izvo zvinogara zvichifungidzira kuti mutadzi haana kutendeuka, kunyanya kana vakanyatsotevera kutendeuka kwake kwekunyepedzera.

Zvakanakira kurasikirwa kwekunyaradza kunonzwisisika. Kusvinura kwemukadzi chaiye waJ.-C.

Ndinoreva mweya iyo, kuti irambe yakatendeka nguva dzose, ingada kuti Mwari avatsigire nguva dzose nenyasha nenyaradzo dzine mufungo; asi kwaizova kupi kwakafanira kwavo? Ipfungwa ipi yemukadzi anongofunga murume wake chete, kuti avimbike kwaari, kana achinge amuona zvinooneka, uye aitenda kuti anogona kumusuwa pane kumwe kusangana kupi? Haangave mukadzi asina kutendeka here, hupombwe chaihwo?

Manyaradzo ane njere aya, ndinoona kuti Mwari anoabvisa kuitira vanhuwo zvavo

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kumweya yenyama, nekuti anoziva uye anoona kuti ivo vakanyanya kugadzirira kuwira mumisungo iyo dhiabhori anotora nguva yekuisa, kuvakwevera kuhunhu hwechisikigo nekukwezvwa kwenyaradzo idzi, uye nekudaro kuwana kuda, pasina izvo kuedza kwese kwegehena hakugoni kutikuvadza. Hongu, Baba, uye ini ndinozviona, kuda kwedu kwakaipa kunofanira kutyiwa kwatiri kupfuura huipi hwemadhimoni ese kamwechete, uye ndosaka, sezvataona kumwe kunhu, mukwanyina mutsvene haagutsikane nekusavhara. masuo eimba yacho akachengeteka mukati nokunze, ayo akapinda ari oga nomurume wake, achiri kuisa varindi nevarindi kunze, neuto rakarongwa mugadziriro yehondo, kuti ave akachengeteka.

Mufananidzo wekuchenjerera kwatinofanira kurinda nako pfungwa dzedu dzekunze, kudzivirira muvengi kuti asatora mukana wazvo kuti azvinyengedze uye apinde mukati memweya wedu uye anyengedze  mwoyo yedu .  Ndizvo zvakaita 

mudzimai akatendeka waJC mufurati yemurume wake waMwari. Hatingazorioni, semhandara dzakapusa dziya, vakadzi vasina kutendeka uye zvifeve, vachibudisa musoro wavo nepahwindo kana karuzha kadiki-diki kuti vaone uye vaonekwe, kuti tione zviri kuitika uye kutonga zviitiko; tichamuona achidzika mudzimba dzepasi, ndinoreva nekunze, achibuda mumigwagwa, kana munhu achigona kutaura kudaro, kutaura nevapfuuri, kureva mafaro uye kugutsikana kwevanopfuura. nyika, kuti udzidze sezvo zvese zvinoenda. Aiwa, akafa kune chimwe chinhu chipi nechipi kunze kwomukwanyina wake woumwari, uyo ari iye bedzi chinhu chaaitarisira. Chimiro chinofadza chinoita kuti munhu awane paradhiso pano pazasi!...

Nhare yerudo rwehumwari, yakasimudzwa mumoyo weMwenga akatendeka.

Pane izvozvo, Baba, ndichakuudza zvese zvandakaona, nekuti JC akandiita kuti ndipinde munhare isinganzwisisike yerudo rwake  rwehumwari  . Uya  akati kwandiri.

uyai muone dzimba dzose dzomudiwa wangu, kuti mupupurire kuchena kworudo rwake. Mushure mekukoka uku, takapinda nemufurati iri padyo nenyika nechisikwa, idzi ndidzo pfungwa dzekunze; asi ndakaona, pandakangopinda, kuti pakanga pasina chinhu chakashata, chakashata, chepasi, ndingati anenge munhu, muimba yekutanga yemweya wakatendeka uye unodiwa waMwari wake. Zvose zviripo zvakacheneswa uye zvinocheneswa nekutendeka uye nehanya nehanya.

Ipapo, Baba vangu, ndakavhenekerwa uye ndakatungamirirwa mudzimba dzese dzemukati, dzandakawana dzakashongedzwa uye dzakashongedzwa pamusoro pezvose zvinogona kutaurwa uye kufungidzira, nenyasha dzaJC uye nerudo rwake rwehumwari, kunyanya imba yemasimba eizvi. mweya wakanaka, wepedyo nefurati yemurume wake  wekudenga  ndakaona kuti zvese  zvakavharwa

mudzimba dzakasiyana-siyana, idzo dzakawanda, uye handina kuona chisikwa kunze, kunze kwevarindi nevarindi vaidzivirira nhare; uye zvakadaro murindi uyu aibva kudenga kwete panyika.

Ipapo, Baba vangu, Ishe wedu, vakatendeukira kwandiri, vakati kwandiri nemhepo yekugutsikana uye kugutsikana kumudzimai wavo: "Tarisa, mwanasikana wangu, pakuvimbika, kutarisira, rudo runyoro uye kuchena kwechinangwa chevakatendeka vangu. wife; muone kuti zvinhu zvose zvakamira sei naye, uye kuti aita zvinhu zvose zvakanaka sei.

Ah! Baba, zvinorevei zvandakaziva mumashoko akareruka eJC: akaita zvinhu zvese nemazvo ! . . Izvo zvine zvakakwana kuita vhoriyamu yakakura pane nzira dzekukwana. Ah! Ndakazvinzwisisa, hachisi chiito chikuru, asi rudo rukuru uye kuchena kukuru kwevavariro, izvo zvinoita kuti chinhu chikuru pamberi paMwari. Zvese zvakanaka kana zvichidiwa zvakanyanya, uye zvinhu zvidiki zvakanyanya kukosha kusingaperi kana chinangwa chichifadza kwazviri.

Jesu Kristu akandiudza, mukugumisa, kuti zvose zvandakanga ndaona zvakanga zvisina kana zvichienzaniswa nezvaakanga achigadzirira mweya wakatendeka nokusingaperi. Sezvaakataura mashoko aya, akaita kuti ndione, pasi pechifukidziro  chechiedza chinoyemurika, nzvimbo dzokugara dzakasiyana-siyana dzemidzimu yakakomborerwa, zvigaro zvayo zvoumambo, korona dzayo, umambo hwavo, zvose zvakashongedzwa nokupenya nezvakanaka zveJ.C.  East 

hazvibviri kutaura zvinoswedera pazviri, hazvina kupiwa kumunhu  kuti azvinzwisise, kana kutsanangura mutauro  wemunhu  . Iyi nzvimbo  yemweya

hakuna chinhu chakaropafadzwa asi icho chaMwari amene ari mukati make; uye nhare yemweya iyi yandabva kutaura nezvayo, inongova chiratidzo kana mufananidzo wandaishandisa kuti ndinzwisise zvandakaratidzwa naMwari kubva mukati memweya unomuda uye naye.

Kurwiswa nedhimoni kuMukwanyina akatendeka. Kukunda kwake naJ-C.

Zvese izvi Baba zvakange zvapinda mumusoro mangu nechinguva chimwechete, zvakabva zvauya kwandiri kuti mweya wakatendeka uyu usambonetswa nemiedzo ipi zvayo, nekuti sekutaura kwandaita dhiyabhorosi aizoshinga kumurwisa. Chimbomira zvishoma, JC akabva anditi, achidzivirira kufunga kwangu, you are going to witness her fights and the way I fight for her. Parizvino ndiri kuona Satani ane masimba ese erima achimhanyira  kwaari nemhepo ine hasha  uye  inotyisa, JC anondiudza, ane  simba.

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vakashonga nhumbi dzokurwa vanouya kuzorwa nenhare yaIsiraeri. Teerera. Pakarepo ndakaona mudzimai akatendeka achitya achizvikanda mumaoko emurume wake mwari; Ndinoreva kuti mweya unotya, pakuona njodzi imwe chete, yakadanwa

JC kumununura uye akatsvaga hutiziro pachipfuva chaMwari wake.

Pakarepo chiedza choumwari chakaita kuti ndione mukati memurume kutsamwa kutsvene, hasha dzine upenyu uye dzine upenyu, dzinoparirwa norudo runyoro uye rwegodo nokuda kwouyu mudzimai akatendeka. Mwoyo wake wakaita sewaipisa kwandiri nekurwiswa kwemurume ane utsinye uyu pakutendeka kwemudiwa wake. Anovatarisa nemhepo inon’animira, anosimudza ruoko rwake kuti avaparadze, uye nokufema kwomuromo wake kunobudisa kutuka, anovakanda pasi pegomba rakadzika-dzika mavakabva  . Zvakadaro zvakapera mukubwaira kweziso uku kurwiswa kwehasha kwakatowedzera kukunda kwerudo  .

Kugutsikana kunotorwa neChikomba chekudenga mumoyo wemumwe wake  .

Mukundi akabva ati kwandiri nemweya wakagutsikana: Uya zvino, pinda mberi mukati memudiwa wangu, uye uchaona mafaro akachena, mafaro asingatauriki andinotora mumoyo make, mubindu rakavharwa remwenga, umo. haapindi kunze kwemukwaniso  weumwari  O Baba vangu, anofadza  uye

gara uchifara kuti  munda unonaka uyu!. Mwaranzi yakanaka  yezuva

zvakadzikama chengetedza zvinogara zvakasvibira ipapo; miti imomo inoremerwa uye yakashongedzwa korona yemaruva nemichero, izvo zvinova kuungana kwezvakanaka izvo mudzimai anoshongedzwa nazvo, uye zvemabasa akanaka akabatanidzwa netsika yavo yenguva dzose: nokuti nyasha hadzitongobatsiri maari; inyasha dzinoburitsa  matarenda ake nemazango ake, mutengo wawo usingaperi mumaziso emukwanyina waMwari, asingaregi kugomera shure kwake. Munhu anofemera ipapo mweya wemuchadenga uye unofefetera uri kure nekubatanidzwa kweunhu hwake hwakanaka uye mubatanidzwa wose wemufambiro wake unoyemurika; uye mumba maanogara, munhu anofema rudo rwamwari chete  Chii chakandishamisa Baba pandakadzidza kubva  kuna

muromo weJC kunyangwe, kuti hapana munhu akabviswa kubva padanho iri rekukwana  ; kuti vatadzi vakurusa vamene vangatarisira kusvika ikoko nenyasha, uye kuti havacharangariri zvivi zvakapfuura, kunze kwekurangarira nhamburiko dzine mbiri dzavangadai vakavakunda nadzo. Hupenyu hunoverengerwa ipapo chete kubva panguva yekutendeuka  kwakakwana  Baba Vangu,  vasingadaro

nhamburiko dzokusvika paichi chimiro chinoshuviwa, uye kuva nerufaro rwokugara ikoko, kutsungirira ikoko uye kufira ikoko!....

Ngatiyemure kugutsikana kunoitwa naJC mumoyo wemweya wakarurama unomuda uye unovavarira  kumufadza  . “Mwoyo womudiwa wangu  akati kwandiri,

wakafanana nemubhedha uzere uye unonamirwa nemhando dzose dzemaruva anonhuwira, ane kupenya kunopenya; kuonekwa kwayo kunondifadza; Handineti kucheuka-cheuka ipapo. Kuzvininipisa kwake kwakafanana neruvara rwebhuruu rwakazvarwa pasi petsoka dzomufambi. Kuzvininipisa kwake kunofadza kwakafanana nemaruva enyika, uye kufara kwerudo rwake kune kupenya kwese kweruva pakubuda kwezuva pazuva rakanaka rechirimo. Kubatana kwayo kubva kune chero chinhu chakasikwa, iyo

kuchena kwevavariro yaanonditaurira nayo maitiro ake ose, kusvinurira kwake pamusoro pake, kuti arege kuita kana kufunga chero chinhu chingandigumbura; hanya yake yekuzvichengeta munyasha dzangu nemurudo rwangu; kusungirirwa kwake, kuvimba kwake, kusiya kwake zvachose ... zvose izvi uye humwe humwe hunhu hwakanaka huri migumisiro yahwo, ungano yose iyi, ndinoti, kwandiri ini sumbu rekunhuhwirira kunofadza, uye chikamu chinonyanya kufadza  .

Ndosaka nhanho dzake dzichiyevedza mumaziso angu, uye nei zvese pamusoro pake zvichindikwezva zvakanyanya. Nekungotarisa kamwe chete akakuvadza moyo wangu; mudiwa wangu wakasanangurwa pakati pechuru; Ndinomutora ndiri pasi pedziviriro yangu, neruoko rwakakosha, nekuti anondida pane zvese. Chiratidzo chenyasha dzandinomupa zvakasununguka imhaka yesarudzo yaakandisarudzira kumurume wake, nekutendeka kwaanogara achindiratidza, uye pakupedzisira neshungu dzaanogara achindipisira. Ndini tenzi akakwana wemwoyo wake, wekuzvisarudzira kwake, uye wemasimba ake ose; haana chinhu chisiri changu; anofanirawo kuona mabenefits angu ese uye achanyimwa chero nyasha dzangu. »

Kubva ipapo, Baba vangu, panozvarwa makororo erudo aya, tsiye nyoro idzi, zvifambiso izvi, madururwa erudo pakati pemurume mutsvene  nemukadzi mutsvene. “Kare ndaikuda ndisingapariri,” akadaro murume wacho, “zvino ndinokuda norudzi rweruramisiro nokuonga, mukutsinhana nezvaunondipa.” ndinodzosera kwauri mwoyo wawakakuvadza, somutengo wokukunda  kwako  . Kuchinjana kwakadini, Baba,  uye

Mubayiro wakadini wechisikwa, kupfuura mwoyo waMwari anochida zvikuru  , uye anochivimbisa kuti chiri munyasha dzake nomurudo  rwake  ! Ah!

ndipo apo mweya uyu wakaita rombo rakanaka wakadanidzira: Mudiwa wangu ndewangu wose, uye  ini zvose ndiri wake.... Asi havachatauri kune mumwe nemumwe kunze kwemoyo  nemoyo  . Apo  pane

zvenyasha nezvakavanzika mukuzarurwa kwemweya kwese uku

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pakati pemweya naMwari wawo, mukadzi mutsvene nemurume wake wehumwari!....

Idzi nyasha dzerudo rwaMwari dzakanyanya kuchengeterwa mweya yakatsaurirwa kuna Mwari. Benefits of continence.

Baba vangu, kunyangwe zvese zvandakutaurirai nezve nhare yemweya wakakwana uye nezve kutengeserana kwerudo rwehumwari zvinogona kunzwisiswa zvakazara kune chero mweya uyo, mumamiriro ayo, unotarisa kune hutsvene uye nekukwana kweevhangeri.

JC inoita kuti ndione kuti izvi zvinofanira kushanda zvakanyanya kumweya yakatendeka kune rimwe basa rakakwana; avo pakati pevamwe vari kwaari

vakaitwa vatsvene, kana nokugadzwa, sechechi, kana nemhiko dzakasimba, sevarume nevakadzi vanonamata; vanhu vose vakazvipira kuteerera, urombo, yakavharirwa, uye kupfuura zvose continence uye kuchena.

Hongu, Baba vangu, ndinoona kuti kusaroora, kwakapikirwa kuna Mwari uye kunochengeterwa rudo rwake, kunofadza zvikuru kwaari uye kunopa hukuru hukuru kune humwe hunhu; asi ndinoonawo kuti zvakafanira, pachinhu ichi chakapfava, kuzvipa ngwariro huru; nokuti chikanganiso chiduku chingava chakakomba pashure pokunge mhiko yaitwa, uye yaizotsamwisa Mwari sezvo kusvinurira nokutendeka kuchimufadza zvikuru.

Nezvipi zvinodzivirira vapristi nevechitendero vanofanira kutarisa kuchengetedzwa kwekuchena.

Kungozi dzipi, naizvozvo, vanhu veChechi nevechitendero vanofumurwa munyika, kana vakasacherekedza nehanya huru, zvikuru kana vakazviwana vamene, zvisina kufanira, kazhinji kazhinji, navanhu vanorangarira kungwarira sezvisina maturo uye upenzi; vanhu vanotungamirirwa nemweya wenyika, vanobatirira zvinhu zvisina basa nezvifaro zvinotenderwa, rusununguko runoshorwa muvhangeri; vanhu, pakupedzisira, vakajaira kutsvoda pasina, kunyanya kana vari vanhu vebonde rakasiyana! O denga! mweya wakatsaurirwa kuna Mwari uye wakatsaurirwa ku continence unogona sei kuva muboka ravo, kunyanya kutaura vari voga, uye kupingudzwa nenyoka dzakadaro? Kudzikama kwakadini!

Apa Baba pane yambiro yandichavapa kubva kuna Mwari, uye yavanofanira kuteerera, kana vasingade kuparara vasina rubatsiro. Madhimoni anotsamwira ruvengo uye godo, kazhinji, pamusoro pevanhu vose vakazvipira kune continence, asi kunyanya pamusoro pevashumiri vaJehovha. Vanotora mukana wega wega unovapo kuti vateye misungo yekuzvibata kwavo, uye vanoverengera pakati pekukunda kwavo kwakanakisa zvakanakira izvo zvavanokunda pamusoro pavo kudivi iro.

vanogara vachirwisa here; uye ndinoona kuti patinonyanya kuvimba nechinhu ichi, ndipo patinova nechikonzero chekutya nekudedera. Ndinogona kuwedzera izvozvo zvose

avo vanozvidza, se puerile, chenjedzo tsvene yemweya yakachena, vaizove vakanyanya kudzikama pachinhu ichi chakapfava, uye vaizokurumidza kuchinja mutauro wavo, kana Mwari akavabvumira kuti vave zvapupu kamwe chete pane zvaakandiita kuti ndione, semakore makumi matatu. ago. Chiratidzo ichi chakandibaya mwoyo, uye ndagara ndakachengeta chakavanzika chayo chakadzama. Ndinofanira kutaura nhasi.

Njodzi dzebonde nekurukurirano pakati pevanhu vanonamata vemarudzi akasiyana-siyana. Zvishandiso zvadhiabhori zvekuvaita kuti varasikirwe nehunhu hwavo.

Ndakaona mweya yakaipa ichiuya mumhomho kuzosangana neboka revafundisi nemamongi nemasisita, vaiita sevaizvivaraidza pamwe chete nekuzvibata kukuru nekuzvidzora; Ndakaona kusazvikudza kwemaoko, uye ndakanzwa kusazvibata kwemashoko, uye mweya yakaipa neyakatsauka yaingodzidza kupamba nekushatisa zvinhu zvese nemazano ayo anonyadzisa. Fungidzira, Baba vangu, boka revakasununguka avo, nekutaura kwavo kwakashata, vanopisa nhaurirano dzisina mhosva.

; avo, vane godo rokuti vamwe vari nani kupfuura ivo, vanozviisa pavari kuti vapfuure mumwoyo yavo uturu hwose hunovapisa, kana kuti avo, vasingakwanisi kubudirira sezvavanoda, vanozvinyaradza nokurevera vavariro, mufambiro wavanhu vakanaka, uye vachifunga. , kunyanya muvanhu veChechi, maitiro ose akatsveyama nemanzwiro akashata avanowana mavari. Ndivo vazhinji vedhimoni vanotevedzera zvakanaka uyo ane mitezo; uye sezvo, kazhinji, muromo  unotaura

kuwanda kwemoyo, pano, pamusoro pezvose, mwoyo nerurimi zvinotevera mucherechedzo wemweya unozvifambisa uye unozvitonga.

Saka ndakaona, Baba vangu, madhimoni aya achizevezera munzeve dzemumwe uye mumwe, mukambani, mazano akaverengerwa kuakanda mukunyengera kana mukuyedzwa, ndikaona kuti vaifamba nehungwaru hunokatyamadza. vanyengeri kana vanyengeri vane hunyanzvi vanodzidzira basa ravo rekunyengedza nekugadzira manyepo kuburikidza nehunyanzvi hwavo hwemaoko. Iye munhu akarurama kwazvo, vakati kumuprista; akanaka sisisita, mutsvene; hapana kana ngozi diki nemweya wemunhu uyu. Chii chaungatyira, vakadaro kune mumwe sisita? Ava ndivo vaprista, vanonamata, vakazvidzora uye varume vakaora mwoyo; vose vakaita chishuvo chakafanana nechako, uye naizvozvo hapana chikonzero chokuvhunduka munzanga yakadaro.

Pane izvi ndakaona kufara kwakanyanya uye kujairika muvanhu; dzakanga dziri tsika dzokutamba zvikuru, kunyemwerera, kutarira, mweya wokuvimba, uye dzimwe nguva mitambo miduku yamaoko. Pese paaisvika

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chimwe chinhu chakafanana, ndakaona madhimoni achiputika nekuseka uye achipupura, nenzira dzine chiuru, kugutsikana kwavo uye tariro yavakanga vanayo kuti hatizogumiri ipapo. Uye zvirokwazvo, ndakaona kuti zvose zvavakanga varonga nekuzivisa hazvina kumbokundikana kuitika. Zvakaoma zvikuru kuti zviitike neimwe nzira mumamiriro ezvinhu akadaro. Chinongogona kuita zvishoma nadhiabhorosi kuvhiringidza mudzimu nenyama kupfurikidza nemienzaniso ine tsvina, sezvo ruzivo rwakagara ruchibvumikisa kuna avo vose vakavaparira kupfurikidza nokusachenjera kwavo nokungwarira kwavo mukuzvipinza mungozi, dzimwe nguva kunyange pamusoro pengozi. vanhu vatsvene zvikuru (1).

(1) Kana dhiabhorosi akawana zvakawanda zvokuwana muvaraidzo yavanhu vanotya zvikuru uye vakachengeterwa, ipurofitii yaasingazoiti mumadhanzi, mumabhora, kunyanya, mumagirazi uye mune mamwe mamiriro ezvinhu ane chiuru ayo nyika inobvumira? Pachava nevamwe, zvisinei, vachadavira nokudisa zvose izvo Hanzvadzi inotaura pano pamusoro pavanhu vakatsaurwa kuna Mwari, uye vasingazobvumi kuti zvinogona kushanda kuvanhu venyika. Hapana chakaipa kunze kwechitendero, uye hapana njodzi kunze kwevanozvipira! Asi chii! dhimoni haringaedzi here kuedza vamwe, kunyanya kana mikana yacho yakanaka? Munhu angati chinhu chisina maturo kwavari here, achiona kuti tsika dzavo hadzizomusiyi dambudziko? Zviri kunyika  kusarudza...

Zvekuzvidzora kukuru kunofanirwa kuve nevareurura, kunyanya maererano nevanonamata venhema. Kusvinurira kunoita kuti vaprista vakanaka vasakundika.

Vapristi uye kunyanya vanoreurura havagone kuzvidzora zvakanyanya, kunyanya kutarisana nevanozviti vanozvipira vane chivimbo chakanyanya uye chakaenzana panguva imwe chete chaizodzikira nyore kuita rezenisi, vanofanirwa kuzvidzivirira nazvo, kurohwa kweziso, mbeva, tete-a-tete, uye pamusoro pemitambo yose yemaoko, zvisinei kuti angave akareruka sei; zvimwe ivo

aizova nemhosva yezvinetso zvepfungwa, pamwe nokumwe kumukira kupi nokupi kungava mugumisiro wacho. Ndinoziva kuti kujairana kwese uku, zita ripi zvaro raanopihwa naro, kana fungidziro ipi neipi yaanorukwa, haifadzi Mwari sokufadza kwadzinoita dhiabhorosi; uye ndakava nechiitiko kanopfuura kamwe chete kuti ndizvionere pachangu kuti zvishoma sei zvinotora kuunza muedzo, kunyanya muchinhu chakapfava.

Misungo mingani, naizvozvo, uye zvikonzero zvingani zvokudedera nokuda kwaava masisita anodziya, uye pamusoro pezvose nokuda kwaava vaprista vasingangwariri uye vasingashandiswi, avo, vasina hanya kutamburira kukwana, vakauita mutemo wokuzvidza izvo zvinodanwa nokuda kwezviduku nezviduku. zvinhu! Asi, Baba vangu, ndinozviona, sezviri pachena izvi, zvakanyanya vapristi vanobishaira, vakasvinura uye vane muenzaniso wakanaka, vanonetsa kukunda, nekuti vane nzira nenyasha dzakawanda dzekudzivisa dhiabhorosi uye kukunda zvisikwa. Mwari vanovabatsira nenzira inokosha zvikuru. Kuti ndibvume pamusoro paikoku, akandiratidza mumwe, pakati pezvimwe, akabatikana kwazvo zvokuti muedzi akanga asingakwanisi kusvika kwaari.

Madhimoni anoverengeka akaungana kuti amuite kuti akunde, asi pasina: mumwe anosvika, achiashora nokuda kwokushayiwa kwavo shingairo nounyanzvi, achizvirumbidza amene kuti iye oga ane rukundo. Anokunga uta nesimba, uye nehasha anopfura uyu mufundisi anobishaira uye akasvinurira museve uyo, panzvimbo pokumurova, unodzokera kune akaupfura; mamwe madhimoni akati wandei akamupfurawo nemiseve iyo yaigara ichidzokera kumashure, uye mufundisi akaramba achiita mabasa ake asina kana kuzviona.

Vakurirwa uye vavhiringidzika, vavengi vake vakadzokera shure, vachityisidzira kudzoka nesimba panguva yakafanira zvikuru nokuda kwavo: chibvumikiso chokuti papfundo rino tinofanira kutya panguva dzose, munzvimbo dzose, kudivi ravamwe nesu timene; kuve nerubatsiro, pakati pezvimwe zvinhu, kusvinurira nemunamato, uye kuti masisita atore gedhi neimba yekutandarira senzvimbo ine ngozi kwazvo kwavari; izvo Mwari vakaita kuti ndione kakawanda.

Ngozi yekutarisa kuri nyore kwekuda kuziva.

Kutaura kuno baba ndinofanira kukuudzai zvandiwira. Ndakanda maziso angu kaviri kana katatu, ndichifunga uye kuzvidemba kwehana, kuvarwi vandakaona nepahwindo rangu vachiita maekisesaizi avo muminda yaiva pedyo, Mwari akanditsiura nehasha, sokunge ndakanga ndisina kungwara uye kunyange kusavimbika kukuru. : kuti ndiratidze zviri nani zvandakanga ndazvifumura, akabvumira dhimoni kuti rindiedze pachiitiko ichi nenzira yakanyanyisa.

Haisi, Baba vangu, kekutanga kuti akabvumira marudzi aya emiedzo kuranga humbwende hwangu, kusatendeka kwangu mumamiriro ezvinhu apo zvaizove zvakafanira, nokuda kworudo rwake, kupira kuda kuziva uye kugutsikana kwomunhu. Izvi zvibairo zvidiki izvo isu tinogara tine mukana wekuita kwaari, anondiratidza kuti zvinomufadza kwazvo, uye kuti kukanganisa kwatinowira pazvinhu izvi zvese kunomugumbura uye kunotikuvadza zvakanyanya kupfuura zvinofungwa kazhinji.

Uku kushora kwekududzira kwatinoita kwenyasha dzayo, zvirokwazvo kunotikwezva kudonhedza kwakawanda kana kushoma, uye kunowanzova chikonzero chekudonha kwakanyanya. Maiwe! Zvivi zvingani zvakaitwa nokuda kwokusanzvenga kuona uye kudzora shoko, kudzora fungidziro dzake,  kuramba pfungwa, kudzivisa mukana, kuita kana kurega nhanho duku, kudzoreredza manyawi kana kumwe kufamba kwakanyanyisa kwomuzvarirwo! Zvingadai zvakadhura zvishoma kuwana zvakawanda zvakadaro! Chikonzero chacho chaive chisipo, mhedzisiro yacho imhuka yaityisa, uye kazhinji igomarara raiputira. Mienzaniso mingani iyo isingagone kutaurwa nemunhu, kana  vanhu vese

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haana kupa uchapupu hwacho, uye dai zvakanga zvisina kukwana kuti mumwe nomumwe adzokere kwaari amene kuti apwiswe nazvo!

CHIKAMU X.

Paushamwari hwakakosha uye nezvewanano.

Yakanyorwa muJersey muna Ndira 1792.

Hapana mubvunzo kuti munoyeuka, Baba, zvandakaita kuti munyore pamusoro pomusiyano uri pakati porudo rwaMwari norwechisikwa, pamwe chete nemigumisiro yarwo yakasiyana. Mwari vanondiraira kuti ndidzoke zvishoma

kunyaya iyi, izvo zvimwe zvinhu zvanga zvaita kuti tibve nokukurumidza zvichida; nokuti zvakaoma zvikuru kubatanidza pfungwa dzakawanda dzakasiyana-siyana, pasina kurega dzinokosha dzichipukunyuka, pamwe chete nokuisa mazviri kurongeka uye kutevedzana kwazvaizoda!

Asi zvakare, hazvisi zvekuenzanisa izvo zvandiri kukuudza, asi nezvekuda kwaMwari uye nzira dzekubatsira kune vamwe. Ngatitaurei, zvino, nezve hushamwari chaihwo uhwo Ishe wedu vakandiita zvichemo zvakawanda munguva yakapfuura, uye idzo, mumatunhu ese, dzinouraya kwazvo kunaka.

Migumisiro ine ngwavaira youshamwari hwomuzvarirwo hwakanyanyisa. — Kushatirisa kunoita kuna Mwari, kunyanya mumweya yakatsaurwa kwaari.

Mukati megore rokutanga rebasa rangu, ndakanzwa masisita mashomanene rimwe zuva, panguva yenhandaro, nezveushamwari hunoshamisa uhwo vanhu vaviri munyika vaiva nahwo pakati pavo. Uhwu ushamwari hwakanyanyisa hwakavaunza, kwakanzi, kukutarisira kuduku; kuti vagare vachifunganya pamusoro pomumwe nomumwe, uye kusararama kana vakanga vasiri pamwe chete. Ini, chokwadi, hapana chandainzwisisa pamusoro pazvo, ndakanga ndisingazivi kuti kufunganya uku kweushamwari kunorevei, kana izvi zviduku zvinodzorera, kana kuti rudo rwezvisikwa rwaigona sei kusvika pakuita. hupenyu hwekutsamira, dai wanga usina munhu waunoda. Kuvimbika kwandakaitwa mazuva mashoma gare gare nemumwe wemumba zvakatowedzera kushamisika kwangu pane zvese izvi; akandiverenga zvikurukuru, uye anenge pasinei neni, tsamba yaakanga achangobva kugamuchira kubva kumunhu waakanga agara naye zvikuru munguva yakapfuura: akanga ari mumwe mukadzi wechiduku akamuudza kutambura kukuru kwaakanga aita nokusavapo kwake uye kutambura kwake. kuparadzana.; kuti akanga achiri kumuda sei; kuzvifunga kwaaiita siku  nesikati  Zvakanga zvichifamba, Baba, pane imwe  nguva

kuti munhu haagoni kutaura, kusvikira mumwe asangana palpitations uye rudzi rwekushaya simba uye kupera simba. Pamusoro pezvo, pakanga paine mamwe mazwi madiki akanaka mutsamba, mamwe maratidziro madiki ehunyoro uye manyemwe izvo zvisina kundifadza zvakanyanya, uye izvo zvinofanirwa kunge zvakatsamwisa zvikuru sisita aivimba neni.

Marwadzo andakagamuchira akaparira kuti, nguva yakatevera chaiyo, ndakaenda kutsoka yeartari kuti ndiite chichemo changu, kana kuti panzvimbo pezvo rudzi rwokugadziridza kunokudzwa kuna J.-C. Mwari wangu, ndakati kwaari, ndizvo here zvinogoneka, uye zvingave sei kuti rudo rune zvisikwa kune mumwe nemumwe runosvika pakufunga kwakadaro, kusvika pakuita kuti vakanganwe zvimwe zvese, mukushora rudo? .

"Hongu, mwana wangu," akapindura JC, "chinhu chinogoneka, uye, sezvaunoona, ichokwadi chete." Nokuti kusazvitarira iwe, saizvozvo

kumira, uye kudzora mafambiro ekutanga emoyo, rudo rwechisikigo runodziyirwa uye runotungidzwa kusvika panguva ino uye nekupfuura: urwu ndirwo rudo rwechisikigo uye rune hanya rwechisikwa, icho chinogara chinosanganisira, kana chisina kudzvinyirirwa, migumisiro inosuruvarisa zvikuru yeruponeso; inopofumadza vanhu venyama kusvika pakuvaita kuti vakanganwe misimboti yese, uye dzimwe nguva inovatungamira kuhutsinye, ivo vasingazvione ivo pachavo: ipapo havasisina kunzwisisa kunze kwechinangwa chezvishuvo zvavo, uye havatsvedze kuita hunhu uye kukwana kunosanganisira zvinofadza kuravira kwavo kwakashata uye nemafungiro anonyadzisa anovatonga. »

Hushamwari chaihwo hunopesana nerudo rwaMwari, uye rudzi rwehupombwe hwemweya.

“Nokudaro, mukuzvidza murairo mukuru unoraira kuti vandide kupfuura chinhu chiri chose, ava vaKristu venyama navasina kutendeka vakaisa mumwoyo yavo zvidhori zvenyama panzvimbo yangu; vakapata pamusoro pokunamata kwavo nezvinonhuhwira zvavo kwavari, vachivanamata sezvandinofanira ini ndoga. Kutsamwa kwakadini kuhumwari hwangu! Asi, akawedzera, kana kutukwa uku kusingatsungiririki kwandiri maererano nevakapfava vakatendeka, zvichave zvakadii maererano nevanhu vakatsaurwa kwandiri nemhiko yakadzama yekuvimbika kusingagumi! Zvaunoda  _

kuti vaizopa mumwoyo yavo kune chimwe chinhu kunze kwangu, kumarudzi ose ezvisikwa, nokuda kworudo rwavanongondiitira chete, ikoko hakungavi rudzi rwokumhura noupombwe here? uye kunze kwekutukwa kuzhinji kwandinogamuchira kubva kumhosva dzese dzerudzi urwu, hazvifanirwe kubvumwa here kuti iyi ine hunhu hwekusatenda nekusavimbika kwakakodzera kwairi, uye iyo inowedzera rima rayo?

“Ah! nhamo, vane nhamo vakadzi mhombwe, vasina kutendeka, vakadzi vakatanhamara uye vakashinga, vanoseka kunzvera kwangu nezvandinoda, kuti vafeve rudo rwavo nemwoyo yavo kuzvisikwa. Ndiri murume ane godo, uye ndichazvitsivira nokurambana kunoshamisa; ipapo vachakumbira kunyaradzwa neni, ndigovatumira kuna avo vavanoda kundiitira. Handikuzivei imi vakadzi mhombwe, ndingati kwavari, mukati

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hasha dzangu: bvisa; nokuti havazi vose vanodana kwandiri vachapinda mukubwinya kwangu nokuda kweizvi..."

Hongu, Baba, ndakaona muna Mwari kuti avo, mushure memhiko yekuchena, vanonamatira kune chisikwa chine mufungo, vanoita hupombwe nehupombwe hwemweya, zvinokuvadza zvakanyanya kana zvishoma kuna Mwari, zvichienderana nepfungwa yerudo. vane zvisikwa, kune kukanganisa kwekuda kwavo; uye hupombwe uhu hunoitwa isu tisingazvizivi.

Musiyano wakadini, anodaro JC, pakati perudo runodziya, mbwende uye mweya isina hanya neni, uye izvo izvo zvinonyanya kunzwira tsitsi vatsigiri venyika yakaora vane chisikwa!... Kana munhu achida chisikwa, anodzidza, se unoona, nokungwarira nzira dzose dzokumufadza, uye munhu anotya kumudzivisa muchinhu chipi nechipi; kana kufunga nezvazvo usiku nemasikati, munhu anotambura kubva kure nazvo; iitiro hanya dzinodisa, ngwariro dzenguva dzose, ndangariro dzisina chinhu chingadzongonyedza. Vari kupi avo vanondiitira zvimwe chetezvo, avo zvakadaro vakakodzera kutarisirwa kwese, kutariswa kwese uye nemoyo yese? Kana pane chirikusvika muvakadzi vangu chaivo, kutonhora kwakadini, kusava nehanya uye humbwende mune vamwe!...

Vakadzi vangani vasina kutendeka vanondisiya pamuedzo muduku! Hey! ndechokuti nokuzvipa kwandiri, vakanga vatsvaka nyasha dzangu nokunyaradzwa kwangu kupfuura ini! Vadikani vangu vechokwadi, ichokwadi, haambondisiyi; nechimiro cheminamato nekubatana nguva dzose, vanoramba vachindiitira zviito zviduku zvavo, uye vaneni pakati pebasa rinonyanya kuipa; asi vamwe, mukupesana, netsika yetsika yokuparadza, vanondinyima zviito zvavo zvakanakisisa, uye ndevenyika uye nezvisikwa kunyange mukuita kwavo kwehumwari. Kunyange ndikavadana kakawanda sei, vanondifuratira uye havaiti sevanondinzwa; kana ndikavatambudza, vachatsvaka kunyaradzwa kwavo pakati pezvisikwa, pane kuti vataure kwandiri.

Kureruka uye nzira dzekukunda hushamwari hwaJ-C.

"Ushamwari hwakakosha, anoenderera mberi JC, saka anopesana nerudo rwangu uye anoisa chipingamupinyi chikuru pakukwana kwemweya. Hakusi, akawedzera, kuti ndinoshora ushamwari hutsvene nehwechiKristu, uhwo hunobatanidza kubatsirana, mukuona kwaMwari, mukuita zvakanaka uye kuita zvakanaka. Aiwa, idzi mhando dzehushamwari hwakakosha dzinondifarira kwazvo, kuve muhurongwa uye nerevo yechokwadi yerudo rwangu pacharwo, chero zvakadaro, kuti hapana chinhu chakanyanya kusanganiswa navo, sezvinowanzoitika. Handirambe

kwete vaya vanoda kuita zvose kuti vandifadze uye vandiremekedze... Zvakanaka, mwanasikana wangu, akati kwandiri, unoda kuva wangu zvechokwadi here? Zviri nyore sei kwauri? Hauzovi nedambudziko pakundiwana kuti unakidzwe nehurukuro yangu; hauzodi tsamba kana mutakuri, sezvinodiwa kuchengetedza ushamwari hwenyika. Ndichava kwese kwese kwese kwese kwese kwese kwese uye ndinewe. Iwe uchandiwana munzvimbo ipi neipi uye chero nguva, nekurangarira kuvapo kwangu uye nerudo rwemoyo wako, pasina kupindira kweanovimbika.

"Rudo rwangu, ruchamutsa mabasa ako ese, ruchaita kuti akodzere kwauri uye achapa kukosha kune chimwe nechimwe chezviito zvako. Hapazove nemumwechete asingaverenge iwe kune chimwe chinhu uye asingawane dhigirii idzva rekukodzera iwe pamberi pangu. Ifariroi yaasina nayo mukukudziridza ushamwari hunokosha uye hwakakodzera kudaro; ushamwari uhwo, pasina kunyara uye pasina kunyara, hunogona kukuunzira goho remibayiro risingagoni kutsanangurwa kana kuongwa! ...

“Mukurangarira kutendeka kwako mukuwirirana nengwariro dzangu, mukurangarira shanyo shomanene dzinofadza zvikuru zvikuru kupfuura dzinonyadzisa, dzauchandiitira pamberi peatari dzangu, chinhu chiri chose chichaenda kumubereko wako, uye hapana chiri kukurasikirwa kwako; iwe uchanakidzwa nekunakirwa yangu yakanyanya kunyorovera nhaurirano, yangu yakanyanya masaini favours. Ndichava murwiri wako nomutsigiro wako kuvavengi vako vose vanokupoteredza; Ndichava baba vako, nomurume wako, neshamwari yako, Mwari wako, nomubayiro wako mukuru nokusingaperi. Maadvantages aya nhai mwanangu, anonyatsokodzera here izvo uchazvinyima parudo rwangu? Ah! nditende, ugotsiva paupenyu uhwu zvibayiro zvawandiitira, nezvawakaita pamusoro pako, kuti undifadze, unditeerere; pachinzvimbo chekutya uku, matambudziko aya. kubva mukutya uku uko, mune dzimwe nguva, kunobvarura mwoyo yevadikani vari munyika, unozonzwa kunyaradzwa kunotapira kunove kufanoravira kwerunyararo rwusingaperi rwandiri kukugadzirira uye kwarwo rudo rwangu rwaunofanira kukutungamira. »

Oh mwari wangu! Ndakachema, ndakavhiringidzika uye ndakapindwa nekudzika kwekusakosha kwangu uye kusakosha kwangu, Mwari wangu, chii chandiri, kuti ude kunditsvaga saizvozvo, sokunge kuti mufaro wako unobva pane wangu, uye kuti haugone kufara, pasina kuva kwangu zvakadaro. pachangu! Hongu, pasina kuzununguka, ndinozvipa kwauri uye handidi kukuda

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kwete asi imi moga munguva uye nokusingaperi.

Migumisiro ine ngozi yeushamwari uhwu munyika pachayo uye muwanano. Kushungurudzwa kunotyisa kwesakaramende iyi.

Iyi miuyo ine ngwavaira yorudo rwezvisikwa noushamwari hwakati,  mumwe angafungidzira kuti inoitika bedzi pamusoro pavanhu vakatsaurirwa kuna Mwari, kana kuti avo vari vechimwe chimiro chenyika munyika; asi kuti hazvinei neavo vakarongerwa mamiriro ewanano: kuti hatisati tanyengerwa papfundo iri, uye kuti, kuti tibudirire mazviri, tinodzidza izvo Ishe anondimanikidza kutaura kuti ndezvechienzi chose kwandiri, uye pamusoro pazvo. izvo zvandinoda kuti ndikwanise kuchengeta  runyararo rwakadzama.

Ndakaona vanhu vakaroorana vasingaverengeki vachiwira mugehena, uye JC akandizivisa chikonzero chikuru chekurasikirwa kwavo kusingaperi. Ndichiona pamusoro pezvose kuti zvakanga zviri nokuda kwechivi chokusachena, ndakadanidzira ndichiti: O Mwari wangu! Ndoita sei kuti ndibate tsvina yakadai ndigomutsa dope rakadai? Ndingataure sei nezve huipi hunopesana nechishuwo changu uye nekukwana kwemamiriro angu?...

“Usatya,” akadaro kwandiri, “Ndine mutoro wezvipingamupinyi zvose zvingakonzerwa neizvi maererano newe uye kune vose vanofarira chaizvo kuverenga, kunyora, kuongorora nekutendeka izvo zvandiri kuda kuita. ndinokuudzai kubwinya kwangu noruponeso rwemweya. Izvi zvinhu zvinonyadzisa, ichokwadi; asi ndichaafukidza nemifananidzo ichakuchengetedzai kubva patsvina yose. Zvose zvinobva kwandiri zvakachena, uye yeuka kuti mwaranzi yezuva inovhenekera tsvina ine tsvina, pasina kubata chero hutachiona. »

Uyezve, Baba vangu, ndakaona zvinhu zvose pasina chandinoona, uye ndinonzwisisa zvinhu zvose pasina kana rutivi mazviri. Hongu, ndakaona kuwandisa kwevakaroorana, kushandiswa zvisina kunaka kwakasiyana-siyana kwesakaramende tsvene-tsvene, utsvene hwayo hunowanzosvibiswa; sakaramende iyo munhu anoita kuti ishumire nekuda kwechido chega, kunyange chehutsinye, uye icho munhu  anoenda kusvika pakusvibisa dzimwe nguva nezvinyangadzo zvinopesana nemigumo iyo munhu anofanira kuronga ipapo, zvinotyisa zvinosvibisa zvisikwa uye zvinokuita kuti unyarare. Ndakazviona, ndikangonzwa kushatirwa uye kutya. Ndakadeedzera nekubvunda: Mwari mutsvene  munotambura sei?...

Unobvumira sei kuwandisa kwakadaro muzvisikwa zvakaitwa nemufananidzo wako, uye izvo zviri mitezo yakawanda kwazvo yomuviri wako woumwari? Chii

reversal! Kunyongana kwakadini!... Asi, Baba, heinoi tsanangudzo yechiratidzo changu. Unozotonga zviri nani nerondedzero iri nyore.

(1) Pakati pavanzveri vamanyoro acho, kwakawanwa mumwe kana kuti vaviri, zvikurukuru, avo vakaratidzika kwandiri kuva vanoshuva kuti Hanzvadzi yakanga isina kubata iyi nhau yakaoma iyo, ivo vakati, yakanga isina kukodzera sisita kutaura. Asi, muchokwadi, zvisinei kuti ndakanga ndichirerekera kudii kukufunga kwavo, ini, kana vamwe vazhinji, takakwanisa kuwirirana nazvo pachinhu ichi, kana kukoshesa kufunga kwavakaitangira; nokuti, kunze kweidi rokuti pano aizova Mwari uye kwete Hanzvadzi inofanira kupomerwa mhaka, zvaizotevera kuti zvaizova zvakafanira kurambidza, nemabhuku akawanda eMagwaro Matsvene, tsananguro dzose dzakanakisisa dzatinadzo pamurairo wechitanhatu. , iyo yakaitwa chete nevatsvene vakazvitsaurira, seHanzvadzi, kune simba rekuchena. Usaite chikanganiso, ndizvo chete kumweya yakadai kuti ndeyekunyora nekutaura nezvayo. Ndinoziva kuti kune vaverengi zvinosuruvarisa kuti vakaiswa muchetura kunyangwe mishonga yavanenge vapihwa; asi tichagumisa kutii? kuti hatifaniri kuzotaurazve nezvetsvina kuti tikurudzire kutya: izvi ndizvo chaizvo zvinodiwa nenyika ine uori; asi chitendero chinofunga zvakasiyana. Hongu, kunzwa vanhu venyika, hapana chinhu chine ngozi semharidzo nemabhuku ezvidzidzo zvoumwari pachinyorwa chino. Ikoku kunogona bedzi kushatisa fungidziro yavanhu vaduku, uye ava vane tsika dzakakomba havawani chimwe chinhu kunze kwokusava nemhaka mukurava kwamanovhero ane ngozi zvikurusa kukusava nemhaka, mumashoo, matambiro, mapikicha apo ushati hwakashata hunomirirwa nenzira inonyengera zvikurusa; ndiko kuti; kuti zvakafanira kutaura uye kunyora pamusoro payo kuti iite kuti idiwe, asi kusamboita kuti kuvengwe uye kuvengwa. Nokudaro, uhwu uipi hunotyisa hunoitwa, hwenyadzi dzakafanira kwaari, murwi waanovanda pasi pawo uye anotaura kuva asingarangwi: Mwari haanyengerwi nouhu hunyengeri, hunorambwa nehana uye chikonzero chinoramba pamwe chete nechitendero.

Kuroorana kunomiririrwa pasi pemufananidzo werwizi rukuru.

Ndakatanga kuona rwizi rwakafara rwuchiyerera pamberi pemeso angu. uye yakadzika zvikuru, nzira yacho yakakurumidza zvikuru zvokuti yaida simba rinokatyamadza nounyanzvi, uyewo nerubatsiro rwemutungamiri akanaka, kuti ayambuke asina kunyura mumvura. Chakanyanya kundibaya moyo kuona mhomho yevanhu vasingaverengeki varume nevakadzi nevematunhu ese vachimhanya kunomhanyidzana ikoko nehupofu hwaive hwakaganhurwa nehasha, zvekuti rwizi rwaikungurutsa dzinenge rume remunhu  .

Kutyiswa nekuputsikirwa kwechikepe kwakawanda, kushamisika uye parutivi pangu nezvose zvandakaona, ndakanzwira tsitsi kune avo vakawirwa nenhamo, avo vakafukidzwa zviso. Chiiko ichi rwizi runotyisa, ndakabvunza, uye chingarevei?... Ndiyo mamiriro ewanano, ndakapindurwa; ose anomhanyira ikoko, sezvamunoona, nokuti ose anotevera zvinodiwa nezvisikwa. Zvinoshamisa here kuti vanhu vakawanda kudaro vanoparara ikoko! Tichitsvaka bedzi gutsikano huru iyo Evhangeri inoshurikidza, tinozvirega timene tichienda kukombamiro yomuzvarirwo, uye tinotakurwa nokukurumidzira kwenzira yarwo: urwu chaizvoizvo rukova, rukova.

mugomba rakadzika-dzika rinoputira vanenge vanhu vose, nokuti kashoma kuti  chero munhu upi noupi ane unyanzvi hwokunzvenga makomba ayo akazadzwa nawo  .

Hunhu hwakaipa uye huipi hwevaya vanoroora kana kuroorwa. — Chiverengero chiduku cheavo vanogara vatsvene muwanano.

Ichokwadi kuti mamiriro ewanano anodikanwa pakupararira kwerudzi rwevanhu; asi zvinosuwisa! iri manyuko okuberekana kworudzi rwomunhu  rinenge  rine chepfu munyika yose

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nemafungiro akaipa evaya vanonyoresa ikoko. Sakaramende pasina mubvunzo yaizogadzirisa, asi zvingave zvakakosha kuti ishandise zviri nani, kuigadzirira zvakanyanya, uye pamusoro pezvose kusatanga nekuisvibisa pakuigamuchira: nokuti, nenzira iyi, kure nekuve. kutsveneswa naro mumusimboti, iyi bviro yokuberekana kwavanhu inowanikwa bedzi yakashatiswa zvikuru, nemhaka yokuti kusapira kunowedzerwa mukuora; kuti titi muzuva redu, sapamazuva aNoa, kuti kusarurama kwasvika pakuipa kwazvo, uye kuti nyama yose yakaodza nzira dzayo.

Kutanga kunobva kutsauka kwevanhu; nokuti miti yerudzi urwu ingabereka michero ipi, zvikuru kana yapiwa tsika, ndinoreva dzidzo inofambirana nekwavakabva? “Ichokwadi, Mwari akandiudza, kuti dzichiripo uye kuti kucharamba kuine mhuri dzakafanotemerwa, uko chikomborero chokudenga chinopararira kubva kuchizvarwa kuenda kune chimwe chizvarwa: idzi ndidzo umo uchenjeri hunoonekwa senhaka uye hunobva kuna madzibaba kuenda kuvana, uko kutya Mwari anoparadzanisa mwanakomana, sezvaanoparadzanisa baba. Muchero nomuti zvinoropafadzwa zvakaenzana naiye akadyara zvinhu zvose, uye anopa kukura kwose. Aya kazhinji ndiwo mavambo evasanangurwa vaShe. Nehunhu hwavo vanosvika pachimiro chaive Evha naAdamu vasati vadonha;

Kuwedzeredza kwakaitwa musati maroorana uye pashure pokunge maroorana.

Asi Baba kumhuri yehunhu uhu, ah! vangani vamwe apo munhu asina kana pfungwa diki yehutsvene hwenzvimbo iyi, apo munhu anongozvipa kugutsikana kwemhuka, kunakidzwa kwenyama uye hutsinye; apo mumwe anoenda zvose zvinopesana nechiremera chesakaramende uye zvinopesana nechishuvo chezvisikwa izvo zvinowanzoita kuparidzirwa!... Pazvikara zvakadaro munhu angada mabhanan'ana kwete mazwi; ndiko kuzvidza, kuzvidza, kuzvidza unhu hwomunhu. Chii, zvino, chichava pahunhu nehunhu hwemuKristu?...

Ini handisi kutaura, Baba, nezvekusununguka nguva isati yakwana, yekuziva, kwemarezinesi ematsotsi ayo anowanzo dzivirira sakaramende uye anoita kuti kugamuchirwa kwayo kusvibiswe. Chipingamupinyi icho kusvibiswa uku kunoisa kunyasha dzakafanira dzewanano, ndicho chisakiso chinozivikanwa navose chenhamo nemiedzo inowanikwa munzvimbo inoyera. Ndiri kutaura, kwete nezvevaya vari kufunga  kupinda mariri, asi nezvevaya varimo panguva ino uye vanoshandisa sakaramende yavakagamuchira. Vangani avo, nekuchema uku uye nekushandisa zvisina kunaka, vanowana munzvimbo tsvene chete zvidzidzo, nyaya dzehutsotsi, nguva dzekutongwa  !....

Rugwaro runotiudza kuti varume vokutanga vomudzimai muduku waTobhiti vakanga vazarirwa nedhemoni pausiku hwokutanga hweroorano yavo, sechirango nokuda kwehasha dzavo noutsinye. Zvakanaka! Baba, Mwari vandizivise kuti mamiriro mamwe chetewo evachangobva kuchata pakati pevaKristu akanga asina kuuraya mweya yavo sezvazvakanga zvakaita kumutumbi wevasingatendi ava, uye kuti gomba rakagadzirwa neAdvance nokuda kwavo rakanga riri chiso chegomba rakadzika-dzika. umo kuwandisa kumwe, nokuzvibata kumwe cheteko, kuputika kumwe kunoramba kuchiwira vachangobva kuchata zuva rimwe nerimwe. Upofu hunosiririsa zvakadini!

Kusungirwa kudzidzisa vachangobva kuchata mabasa avo.

Vangani vachangobva kuchata vanotenda kuti vanobvumirwa zvinhu zvose, vanopera simba uye vanofa mumiitiro inosemesa, vasina kuita chinhu chipi nechipi kuti vabude mavari, vasina kunyange kufunga kuzviruramisa! Vanhu vangani vanofungidzira kuti vari kushandisa kodzero dzavo, kana  ivo

vanotuka sakaramende yavakagamuchira kuti vairemekedze uye kwete kuishatirisa  ! Nhamo! ha! nhamo kwavari! Vane nhamo vatungamiriri vasingazive kana  mbwende ,

avo, nehutsinye hwekumukira kana kusanzwisisa hunyoro, vanoramba kuvaraira nezvebasa rekukosha uku, kana vanovaregerera vasina kuvaruramisa! ndivo vanokonzera zvakaipa zvavanotendera kuti zviitwe. Vane nhamo avo vasingaraidzi nenzira yakanaka varoorani vomunguva yemberi vasati vavabatanidza nechisungo chinoyera! vanovatuma kuhondo vasina nhumbi dzokurwa, ndokuvakanda  murwizi

pasina kungwarira. Chikonzero chakadini chokudedera nokuda kwaava vashumiri vakapararira!

Zvivi zvinoitwa nomunhu pakuroorana zvinotyisa; tinopora kubva pazviri dzimwe nguva, nekuti hapana chinhu ipapo chinogona kusimbisa munhu ane mhosva; asi izvo munhu anoroora muwanano zvakatsiga uye hazvichinjiki, nekuti munhu haatombofungi kutendeuka kana kuzvishandura. Pasi pechirevo chakakosha chesakaramende iyo munhu akagamuchira, munhu anozvipofumadza kusvika pakushaya kuzvidzora kana kuzvidemba pamusoro pezvinofanira kuita kuti zvivepo.

Ah! Baba, ndichiri kudedera nenhamba yevafi vari kuda kunyura murukova, umo ini pachangu ndingadai ndakaparara, kunyanya nemafungiro akaipa ehujaya hwangu, dai Mwari asina kundichengetedza netsitsi dzisina kusununguka. nerimwe basa. Inyasha dzakadini idzo dzekusaroora! Ah! ikozvino kupfuura kare kuti ndinonzwa mutengo wakazara uye

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nekutenda kwakadii nyasha idzi dzinondisungirira...

CHIKAMU XI.

Panyasha dzekufira kutenda; pamigumisiro yakabudiswa muSista nechiedza chekutenda chakamuvhenekera; uye pakuzvininipisa kwechokwadi, hwaro hwezvinhu zvose zvakanaka.

Kunyora kutumirwa kwokupedzisira kweHanzvadzi yoKuberekwa kwaJesu, kwakavamba muchitsuwa cheJersey, January 18, 1792. Usatya avo vanogona bedzi kuuraya muviri.

Baba vangu, mazuva mashoma apfuura, mumunamato wangu, ndakakumbira Mwari, nokuda kwangu uye nokuda kwenharaunda yose, pamwe chete navose vanotambudzwa vakatendeka, simba rokutambura, ushingi uye kutsungirira muzvakaipa zvavo. uye hezvino izvo Ishe wedu akataura kwandiri panguva iyi: "Seiko ndichitya zvakadaro avo vasina simba pamusoro pemweya yangu?" kukupa rufu rwechinguvana, ndizvo zvega hasha dzavo dzinogona kuita; nokuti haringapfuuri mberi, uye miseve yavo haisviki mberi kwerufu; kuedza kwavo kwemhosva saka zvinongobudirira mukubvisa kubva mumuviri wake mweya uri wangu, uye mukuuisa rusununguko rwekudzokera kumunyori wawo.

Ipapo ndichaibata nokudisa kupfuura murombo anoba pfuma yake pakutsvakwa navanoda kumuba. Saka nei uchinetseka zvakanyanya nezvazvo? Siya, kana zvichidikanwa, kune hasha dzavo iyi mutumbi wevhu, uyo, uyezve, uchakurumidza kudzoka ikoko; ngavauparadze, ngavashandise dare nomoto kuti vauparadze; havangatongogoni kuuparadza pamberi pangu; Ini ndichatevera zvikamu zvese, uye kunyangwe nazvo ndichakwanisa kujoinha zvese nekumutsa zvese pazuva rekupedzisira.

"Naizvozvi, mwanasikana wangu, tarisiro yevavengi vangu ichakanganisika uye kushamisika kwavo kukuru, pavachazviona, kana, nekutya kurwadziswa, izvo zvinongoitika kumunhu, ivo vachaona kutsiva kwandakaita. vachatora kubva kune zvose zvavachaita kuti vanhu vangu vatambure, nekukunda kwandichavapa.

Nyasha dzesimba iyo JC inopa kune vakafira kutenda. Chibereko cheshungu dzake.

Usakanganwa, akawedzera kwandiri, kuti pandinodaidza mumwe munhu kunyasha dzokufira kutenda, ndinokomberedza mweya wake, mwoyo wake noushingi hwake, nechidzitiro chechipfuva chendarama yakaisvonaka nemadhaimani. nemiseve inopisa yegehena nokuipa kwose kwamadhimoni. Ndirwo rutendo rwakachena nerudo runoumba ichi chidzitiro chechipfuva chisingapindike; uye kana ndikasabvisa vanoreurura vangu kubva kune chero rudzi rwekutya, kana kubva mukunzwa kusvika kumarwadzo, iva nechokwadi chekuti ndakabatikana uye sekunge ndinosungirwa kuvatsigira, sezvo chiri chikonzero changu kuti vari kurwa. Zvirokwazvo handingambovasiyi kumiyedzo ingapfuura simba ravo: nyasha dzicharamba dzichitsiva utera hwechisikigo; uye, pazvinenge zvakakodzera, wekupedzisira wangu acharatidza zvakawanda

"Iri simba rinoshamisa revaranda vangu nevaranda vangu, ndakavakodzera nekusiya basa panguva yerufu, moyo murefu uye kushinga kwangu mukutambudzika kweshungu dzangu, mweya wangu waive panguva iyoyo.

yakazadzwa neshungu iyo, serukova, yakandifukidza uye yakafukidza hutsvene hwangu. Ndakaderedzwa mukurwadziwa muBindu reMiorivhi, ndakaguta nekuzvidzwa pamberi pevatongi vangu, uye ndakasiiwa pamuchinjikwa, kuti ndikodzere kunyasha dzose kutakura kubatwa kwakadaro, kana zvakakodzera kuti utsungirire nokuda kwekudzivirira chitendero changu uye humwari.

Naizvozvo hamungagoni kuita zviri nani kupfuura kubatanidza kutambudzika kwenyu kare neayo echishuwo changu: iyi ichava nzira yakanaka kwazvo yekuikudza uye yekufadza ini, nekuzvigadzirira mumene kune chero chiitiko chingabvumirwa naMwari.

Iyi tsika yekufira kutenda inondifadza kwandiri, neimwe nzira, sekufira kutenda pachayo: saka, iwe uchatora kubva mairi kukosha kukuru uye nekusingaperi sosi yenyaradzo. Upenyu hupfupi uye kusingaperi hakuperi; matambudziko enyika ino haasi chinhu kana achienzaniswa nemufaro unovatevera, kana munhu achiziva kutakura michinjikwa iyo inofanira kuita kuti munhu akodzerwe nayo. Avo vachagoverana murumuko rwangu mudenga, vachademba here kuva vakagoverana mukutambura kwangu pasi pano? Iyi, Baba, ndiyo yambiro yerudo  iyo

JC akandipa mumamiriro ezvinhu aya, achiwedzera mamwe maonero atichakwanisa kutaura nezvazvo munguva pfupi.

Mhedzisiro yakaburitswa muSista nechiedza chinomuvhenekera muna Mwari.

Chiedza ichi chinondivhenekera muna Mwari, uye chandakataura nezvacho kakawanda kwazvo, chakandiita kuti ndive netsika kubva pauduku, iyo yandinotenda kuti yaisazobvira kuti ndizvishandure pachangu: ndiko kuzvienzanisa mandiri. kunyange zvose zvandinoona, zvose zvandinonzwa, zvose zvandinoverenga kana kuongorora, nokuda kwaMwari, izvo zvinondiratidza zvisingaregi semutemo usingakanganisi wekutonga kwangu, pamwe chete nemaitiro angu. Ndinozviona ndave kuda kutendera kana kupa mhosva zvese zvinouya kupfungwa dzangu, maererano nekuona kwechiedza ichi mandiri kuenderana kana kupikiswa nekuda kwehumwari. Handizivi, Baba, kana ndichiita kuti ndinzwike; asi ndinofunga kuti, kuti ndive nemafungiro akanaka ezvandinoreva, munhu anofanira kunge akazviona: zvakafanana negirazi rinogara riripo mumaziso epfungwa dzangu,

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tongai neimwe nzira mune chero mamiriro ezvinhu.

Pandakanga ndichiri mwana, uye baba vangu naamai vangu vakaenda neni kumisa, ndakawana mufaro umwechete mukunzwa mutungamiriri kana mufundisi wake achitsanangura Evhangeri kwatiri, achiita kurudziro yekunaka, uye kutyisidzira kubva mukutonga kwaMwari avo pinda muuipi nechivi. Ndakanyanya kufarira kuti vaitaura pamusoro pezvakanaka zveJC nevatsvene; Ndakaona kubva ipapo zvichienda mberi, nechiedza ichi, kuti zvese izvi zvaienderana nekuda kwehumwari uye nechokwadi cheEvangeri. Asi chinhu chinoshamisa kwazvo ndechekuti, kana paine vakatiza kubva kuvarume ava, nekusaziva kana neimwe nzira, imwe pfungwa inopesana nekutenda kwechokwadi, kana chimwe chinhu chinopesana nekutenda kwechokwadi kwevakatendeka, maererano nehunhu hwechiKristu, ndakaona pakarepo kuti izvi zvaive. kwete mu kurongeka kana mugwara rekuda kwoumwari. Chiedza chakaita kuti ndione kuremara kwacho, zvokuti ndingadai ndakamanikidzwa kusiya, kana muprista akanga atsigira zvakasimba kumwe kukanganisa kwaipomerwa neChechi; Ndakanga ndisingakwanisi kunyange kuona munyengeri akaziviswa, apo ndainzwa, nokuda kwemupristi achitaura muzita uye mupfungwa yeJC neChechi yake, ruremekedzo uye kukudzwa kwakaita kuti ndione JC pachake mumunhu wake.

Nechiedza ichi, anotonga pamharidzo, mabhuku, nezvimwe.

Chimiro chandakasangana nacho mukati mehupenyu hwangu hwose. Pasinei nokuti ndinonzwa mharidzo, hurukuro, katekisimo, kana kuti kuverenga, ndinoedza kutevera shoko neshoko revo yezvinenge zvichitaurwa. Chiedza chaMwari chinondiita kuti ndione nemufaro chokwadi chose cheuchapupu; asi zvose zvingave zvisina chokwadi kana kufungira zvinondiita kuti ndinzwe kumwe kurwadziwa kunoenzana nekupikisa kwandinoona mairi nechiedza chekudenga: Ndinosungirwa kuramba nekukurumidza zvose zvinorwisa chokwadi chekusingaperi.

Kuburikidza nerubatsiro rwechiedza ichi chandagara ndichishora, sezvinei neni pachangu, mamwe mabhuku akawira mumaoko angu, kana andaipihwa kuti ndiverenge kuti ndiatonge, ndisingakwanise kururamisa mitongo yangu. kana kutsiva nokuda kwokupa kwangu mhosva pamusoro pazvo. Ndakanzwa kumutswa nehasha dzakaita kuti ndivhare bhuku, uye dzimwe nguva kurirasa kure neni, nokuti nekuverenga zvinhu mukati maro zvingaita sezvisina basa, dzimwe nguva zvakanaka uye zvakanyatsotaurwa, ndakaziva uipi hwose hwaSatani, uye uturu hwose huri mupfungwa yemunyori uye muchinangwa chake

chinangwa chokuzunungusa kutenda kana tsika. Saka ndakatarisa bhuku racho sechinyorwa cheinfernal kuti zvakanga zvisingabviri kuti nditambure.

Pakati pezvimwe zvinhu, ndinoyeuka kuti makore anoverengeka apfuura amai vedu vakandipa bhuku ravakanga vashamisika kubva kune mumwe mugari wemba mumba, kuti ndigokwanisa kuvaudza kana ndakariwana rakanaka kana kuti rakaipa, vasina nguva yokuzvidzidzisa vamene. Ndakanyatsoongorora chimwe chinhu chazvo, uye handina kutora nguva refu mukuziva imomo, pasi pekunze kwakanaka uye nechimiro chinodiwa, dzidziso yakatsveyama uye inopokana zvachose nechiKristu; Ndaitoziva kuti munguva pfupi pfupi dzidziso iyi yakaipa, zvinosuwisa kuti yakabvumwa zvikuru, yaizokonzera chimurenga chakashata zvikuru kuti chitange, chinova chingori chirango chakarurama chevatsigiri vehuipi. Ndichitya, ndakadzorera bhuku iri kuna amai vedu, avo vakaridzorera kumunhu wacho nemirairo yokuriratidza kumureururi wavo. Mureururi akachiisa pamoto.

Zvakaitikawo kwandiri dzimwe nguva kusatendera mukuverenga kwangu kwehumwe hunhu hwenhoroondo hwakagadzirwa nehutsvene, ndinofunga, pane kusanzwisiswa, uye nekushingaira kwandaisatenda maererano nesainzi kana kungwara kwechiKristu; sezvakaitawo mamwe mavara eteerero yorudzidziso, kwete kuti kuteerera kworudzidziso hakuna kunaka zvikuru makuri kumene, kuri madikanwa kunyange munharaunda ipi neipi; asi kwaiva kuteerera kwakapofumadzwa, zvekuti zviri pachena kuti kwaipesana neizvo munhu ane ngava kuChechi, achipesana nemirairo yaMwari, uye dzimwe nguva achipesana nemisimboti yekutanga  yemutemo wepanyama; saka ndakaita zvekuvhunduka  .

Muchiedza ichi, anopindura zvakasimba kuvakuru vemasipala, anoziva uye anofanotaura zviitiko zvakawanda.

Kwakanga kuri kupfurikidza nokutevera nhungamiro yeichi chiedza apo ndakapindura zvakasimba kuvakuru vakuru vemanisiparati vakauya kuzotikumbira kushandisa mirau yegungano, kusiya nzanga yedu ndokudzokera kunyika. Ndakavaudza nzira yangu yekufunga pamusoro peizvi nesimba rakawanda uye nerusununguko, zvekuti wandakatarisisa akachinja ruvara, uye akatora divi rangu achipikisana nemumwe wake, achimuudza kuti aifanira kundisiya nditeedzere zvisungo zvangu.

zvishuwo, uye kuti ndakanga ndakarurama kuti ndirambe ndiri kwazviri. Ipapo Mwari akaita kuti ndinzwisise kuti iye pachake aizosvinudza meso ake uye oramba munhu akaipa; chii chaitika.

Ndichiri kufanoona nechiedza ichi, ndikakuzivisai zvinhu zvizhinji zvakadaro, zvandakakuudzai kare; neizvi, Baba, ndakaziva kuti maifanira kutsiva M. Laisné, ndisina kumbokuonai, uye pasina kana

kunyange pasina kuratidzika kuti chinhu chaifanira kuitika saizvozvo; Izvi ndizvo zvandaimbopa yambiro kuvakuru vangu, uye ini

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Pane dzimwe nguva ndakazvipa iwe pachako, pane dzimwe nguva, izvo unogona kurangarira (1).

(1) Zvinofanira kunge zvakaonekwa kuti Hanzvadzi yakanga yagara yandiyambira kuti ndaizofanira kutiza, uye kuti ndaizofanira kudzivirirwa kuti ndisapomerwa, uyezve kuti yakaona muna Mwari kuti handingabatwa kana kuiswa mujeri. . Takaona zvakare kuti ndakanyeverwa naye nezvenguva yazvaifanira kusiya umambo, uye izvi zvese zvisati zvaitika kune mirau iyo pakupedzisira yakamanikidza vapristi vese vasingatenderi kuti vatore divi rimwe chete, uye kunyange nguva refu kuuraya kusati kwaitika. weParis. Asi, kunze kweidzi nyevero dzengwariro nokuda kwechengeteko yangu yomunhu oga, ingani dzaasina kundipa nokuda kwehurumende yomudzimu yamasisita? Hechino chimwe chinhu chinoitika, pakati pezvinoverengeka, kundangariro dzangu:

Masisita maviri akanga andikumbira, muimba yokudyira, mvumo yokukwanisa kupa mumwe nomumwe nhoroondo yezvikanganiso zvavo zvezuva nezuva nokukunda kwavo, uyewo nezvemiitiro yavo chaiyo yokuzvipira. Ndakarohwa nechishuvo chavo chekuda kukwana kukuru, ndakanga ndisina kuzvibvumira kana kuzvirambidza, uye ndakanga ndagutsikana nekudzorera pane izvi kutongwa kweMukuru, uyo, kubva parutivi rwake, akagutsikana kushivirira zvinyararire. Hanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu yakauya kuzondiwana rimwe zuva pachiitiko ichi, uye yakataura neni zvakanyanya kana zvishoma seizvi:

Mungangoziva, Baba, kuti Masisita edu N. naN. vakaumba pakati pavo imwe batano yemaitiro ekunze uye kuvimbwa kunowirirana. Vasikana vaviri varombo vane vavariro dzakanaka bedzi, uye vanongwarira kusafanoona zvipingamupinyi zvose zvingabva mazviri kupfurikidza nedhimoni, uyo asingakundikani kuzvishandisa nokuda kwebetsero yake amene; nokuti ndinoona kuti ari kuda kuvateya misungo panguva ino; akanyengera vazhinji pasi pechifukidziro chekukwana kukuru. Baba vangu, ivai nechokwadi chekuti, kunyanya munharaunda, chero chinhu chinotsauka kubva pamutemo wekupa kunyanya kuzvipira, chinofungidzirwa uye chiri pasi pekunyengedzwa. mweya unoedza uyo unosvikira pakuzvishandura kuva mutumwa wezviedza, kuti anyengeredze zviri nani, haatongokundikani, nepaanogona napo, achikanda kupesana pazviyo zvakanaka. Zvishoma zvaanogona kuita pano, uye ndinoona kuti haakundikane kuzviita, kuchava kugadzira pakati  peizvi

masisita maviri akanaka ushamwari hwakati, hunopesana zvikuru nerudo rukuru rwavanokwereta kuhanzvadzi dzose, pasina mutsauko, pasina kugoverana, pasina mutsauko, pasina rudzi rupi norupi rwokusabatanidzwa; mudzimu wokuzvitutumadza uye wokuzviremekedza, uyo zvichida waizokurumidza kuderera kuva rudado. Kana izvo zvisina kuitika, zvirinani mukana haugone kurambwa. Ndinoreurura kwamuri kuti handidi kuzvipira kunozviratidza nenzira dzinoshamisa, kunze kwekunge kwakabvumirwa kubva kudenga. Ngatiende kuna Mwari tisingaverenge nhanho dzedu nemabasa edu akanaka; nokuti izvo kufungidzira kunokosha kune zvakawanda zvinogara zvichiverengwa sezvishoma, uye dzimwe nguva zvishoma pane pasina, pamberi paMwari. Hakusi kuzviruramisa kwekunze kwekunze kunogadzira zvakanaka

zvechitendero, asi kupfava nekururama kwemoyo nevavariro zvakabatanidzwa nemweya wemukati, kuterera nekuzvininipisa, nerudo rwechokwadi rwusingazive musiyano pakati peavo munhu waanofanira kuda.

Pasina izvozvo, Baba vangu, tinogona kutaura pamusoro pekukwana kwepamusoro, kwekufungisisa, kwemaitiro ekunze uye nehupenyu husinganzwisisike kana hunonzwisisika, asi tinenge tichiri vanyengeri, uye kazhinji guva chena. Ngazvisadaro, Baba, kuti ndinoda kushandisa chero cheizvi kune chero hanzvadzi yangu, iyo pasina mubvunzo yakakosha. anondipfuura pamberi paMwari; asi dzimwe nguva zvinogona kuitika kuti kushingaira kwavo hakuna kujekeswa zvakanaka, kana kufadza Mwari zvakanyanya, uye zvechokwadi hazvisi panguva ino. NdiMwari amene anondirayira kuti ndikuyambirei pamusoro paizvozvi, kuti muzvigadzirire, uye kuti muchenjere kuti muchitenderana nazvo kana chimwe chinhu chakadai: izvo hazvigoni kuita mutungamiriri. Nditende ini: mune zvese izvi zvidiki kunze, zvisikwa zvinozvitsvakira kunze, uye dhiabhori anopinda zvakanyanya kupfuura zvaungafunga. Ndinokukumbirai, Baba, kuti mundiregerere nokuda kwerusununguko uye chivimbo chandakaita nacho  basa rangu.

Tichaona muhupenyu hwake hwemukati mayambiro aakapa, akamiririra Mwari, kuvakuru, uye kunyangwe kuna Bhishopi weRennes, nekuvandudzwa kwaakaita. Ndakamutuma kuti aite basa rimwe chete kumunhu wake, uyo akariraira.

Baba vangu, mukubvunza kuda kwaMwari pazvinhu zvinoratidzika sezvisingakendengi, zvingave mukati mazvo kana kurongeka uye nguva yekuzviita, kazhinji ndakazviwana ndakweverwa zvakasimba kune chimwe pane kune chimwe, ndisingakwanise kuzvidavirira. nekuda kwekuona kwakavanzika uku, uye nguva zhinji mhedzisiro yakaita kuti ndiwane magadzirirwo ayo Mwari vaive nawo mukuroverera pandiri. Ini ndinorangarira pakati pezvimwe zvinhu kuti, ndichibvunza kuda kwaMwari uye nekutevera, ndakaona moto uchipfungaira mune imwe yedzimba dzenharaunda, uye ungadai wakaipedza, dai ndisina kuuya kudzima sezvaaive. kupinda mumubhedha uye banister yemasitepisi.

Imwe nguva sisita, akwegura uye ndonda, akanga awira pasi nechiso chake, uye akanga achadzipwa, kana ndakanga ndisingazivi mukuda kwoumwari, kwandakazobvunza, kuti zvakanga zvakakodzera kusiya zvandaiita kuti ndimhanye zvakanaka. nekukurumidza ku

vechipatara kuona kana paine angangoda rubatsiro rwangu. Ndakamhanyirako nekukurumidza, uye ndakasvika nguva ichiripo kuti asafe akadaro. Ndingakutaurirai maitiro mangani akafanana, uye ndine kutenda kungani kukuda kutsvene uye kunofadza, uko, kubva paudiki hwangu, zvakanditungamirira sokunge neruoko kuburikidza nechuru mumisungo, iyo, pasina rubatsiro rwake, wanga usingadzivisiki kwandiri! Kubva pane zvingani zvakaipa kusangana kwaakandiponesa? Mushure mokutora vabereki vangu kubva kwandiri, iyi tsvene ichanditora pasi peutungamiriri hwayo, sekutaura kwayo, uye yakatora nzvimbo yezvose kwandiri. Ndedzipi nzira dzakavanzika uye nekutsauka kusingazivikanwe kwaasina kunditungamira muchipfuva chechitendero, ndichikunda pamusoro pezvipingamupinyi zvese zvinomuka? kupesana nebasa raakange aisa mandiri, kutaura ndisingazivi, uye izvo murombo wemumusha seni aisafanira kuzvishuvira! Ndiri murombo, ndisingazivi, ndizere nezvikanganiso, uye ndisina kana chimwe chezvakanaka zvechimiro chitsvene chakadaro, ndakazviwana ndanyoreswa muchitendero chitsvene, uye ndisinganzwisisi kuti mune izvi ndakanga ndichiita chirongwa che. kuda kwoumwari,  kwaiva nako

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zvese zvakatungamirwa, zvese zvakasungwa, zvese zvakaitwa.

Naizvozvo ndakagamuchirwa kumhiko ina dzechitendero, uye zvinoita sepamusoro pezvese kuti kuda kwaMwari kwakandidaidza kwazviri, kwaida kundiita nyajambwa wekuteerera. Ndiko kwaaigara achinditora; naizvozvo wakaroverera pandiri mutoro wokuteerera pamberi paMwari, zvokuti nenyasha dzake zviri nani kuti ndife zvangu pano kuti ndirege kuteerera vakuru vangu vari pamutemo, vanotaura neni muzita raMwari uye maererano nomurayiro wangu. Hongu, Baba, simbi, moto, zvidzitiro, hapana chaigona kundityisa: dzimwe nguva zvinoratidzika kwandiri kuti handizove tenzikadzi wekuda kwangu pane iyi pfungwa, uye kuti zvingaite sezvisingabviri kuti ndirege kuteerera  . .

Izvi hazvinditadzise, ​​Baba, kuti ndirege dzimwe nguva kunzwa zvisikwa zvichinyunyuta nekugunun'una zvishoma pamusoro pangu panyaya iyi; asi handina hanya nokunyunyuta kwake kupfuura misodzi yomwana anomukira anotsamwa nguva isina kururama. Naizvozvo ndinomutsiridza ushingi hwangu, uye ndinomhanyira kuterera, ndichitsika-tsika zvisikwa pasi petsoka; iri ndiro bato rekutevera.

Pano sekune imwe nzvimbo, Baba vangu, kushanda kwadhiabhorosi kana kwechisikigo kunoonekwa kubva mukushanda kwaMwari, nemhedzisiro dzakasiyana dzerunyararo kana dambudziko, rudado kana kuzvininipisa, hunhu kana kuzvidemba, izvo zvinoburitsa mumweya. Dhiabhorosi nemasikirwo anogara achiita neshungu, vivacity, kunaya kwemvura, kukurumidza; izvo zvinounza dambudziko, nyonganyonga, kusagadzikana kwepfungwa nemanzwiro. Nyasha, pane kudaro, nguva dzose dzinoita nemwero, kurongeka uye kufungisisa, uye, kana munhu achigona kutaura kudaro, nokunonoka kwokuchenjera kunosiya mumweya nepfungwa dzine rugare, kudzikama kwezvishuvo, runyararo runotapira. Saka, Baba, kukanganisa kunogara kune rimwe divi, uye  chokwadi kune  rimwe.

Mabhenefiti echiedza chaMwari ichi. Hazvitore zvakawanda kuipedza simba, kana kuidzima.

Chiedza ichi chakapfava uye chinyararire chinokurudzira runyararo rukuru mukati mekadzika kwe blade; hunhu hwayo huri mumubatanidzwa werudo kuna Mwari nemuvakidzani; inotakura mweya yakananga kuna Mwari, ichiusunungura kubva pane chinhu chiri chose chisiri Mwari uye chaigona kuisa chipingamupinyi kukuchena kworudo rwawo. Kukwezva kwechiedza ichi kurangarira kwemukati muhuvepo hwaMwari; kunyaradzwa kwemanzwiro uye zvishuwo, pamusoro pezvose kuzvininipisa kwakakwana uye kuchena kwemoyo ndizvo zvaanofarira zvikuru. Dzimwe nguva izwi risingafungidzire, kunyangarika kwakawandisa, hanya nechido, kuregeredza kwekuzvidira, pamusoro pezvose kufamba kwekuzvikudza nekusachena, kunodiwa kudzima chiedza ichi, kana kudzima zvachose. Chokwadi, sezvandakasangana nazvo kakawanda. kusatendeka kwangu kazhinji, uye pamusoro pezvose nezvivi zvandakava nenhamo yokuita.

Kukwezva kwechiedza ichi kwakamuita kuti afungisise pamusoro pezvipo zvinomwe zveMweya Mutsvene. — Kunaka kwekuzvipira kuMweya Mutsvene.

Pane imwe nguva yapfuura ndakatungamirirwa nekukwezva kwechiedza ichi kuti ndinamate pazvipo zvinomwe zveMweya Mutsvene, ndichitora chimwe nechimwe chezvipo zvake zvisingatauriki sechinhu chekunamatira. Chinangwa changu mune izvi chaive chekukudza nekukudza utatu hunoyemurika hwevamwari. Ndakaona muna Mwari kuti Mweya Mutsvene aitungamirira mabasa ose oumwari, uye kuti maiva maari, uye kubudikidza naye, vamwe vanhu vaviri vakaita zvose; Baba vakasika nyika naye, sezvo Mwanakomana akaridzikinura naye; kuri kupfurikidza nouchenjeri hwouyu mudzimu wokudzikamisa uko kutungamirira kwoumwari kwakadzora uye hakusati kuchizorega kutonga Chechi nenyika yose: kubatana kwoumwari pakati pavanhu vatatu. Ndakaona pese pese kushanda kwemweya uyu  chete

anoyevedza. Mweya Mutsvene ndirwo rudo rwaBaba, Mweya Mutsvene ndirwo rudo rweMwanakomana, Mweya Mutsvene ndirwo rudo rukuru rwaiye pachake; zvokuti ndakazviona muna Baba nomuMwanakomana, kwazvakabatanidzwa zvisingaparadzanisiki, zvokuti munhu haagoni kukudza Mweya Mutsvene asina kukudza vamwe vanhu vaviri. Nokudaro ndakaona muchiedza kuti kunamata nokuzvipira kuzvipo zvinomwe zvoMweya Mutsvene kwakanga kunogamuchirika zvikuru kuUtatu Hutsvene Hutsvene, uyo akakuita musengwa kwandiri nokuda kwenguva yemberi uye nokuda kwezvinangwa zvandicharondedzera nokukurumidza.

Chibereko chekufungisisa kwangu kunomwe kwaiva kuita chirairo chinomwe chokukudza Mweya Mutsvene, nokuda kwekukunda kwechitendero, nokuda kwezvakanaka zvemweya nezvenyama zvechechi neumambo; nokuda kwokuchengetwa kwavaprista vakanaka... Ndakavadzokorora nokuda kwezvimwe zvidzidzo zvakasiana-siana zvorudzi rumwe cheterwo, uye nhasi ndiri kukumbira Mweya Mutsvene kuti utendeutse vatadzi, uye zvikurukuru vavengi veChechi yake  .

Zuva randinotora chirairo, ndinoita munamato wangu wemangwanani pane chimwe chezvipo zvinomwe zveMweya Mutsvene, uye ndinoutanga neVeni , Musiki , kukumbira zviedza nenyasha dzeMweya Mutsvene uyu. Ndakawana nyaradzo huru muchiito ichi chokukudza mudzimu unonyaradza, zvikurukuru sezvo chiedza chakaita kuti ndione kuti chinofadza zvikuru kuna Mwari, uye kuti aizodurura zvikomborero zvake kuna vose vaizoshandisa, kuti vawane nyasha kurongeka kweruponeso, asi pamusoro pazvose nokuda kwezvinodikanwa zveChechi, kuti amise kurwa kwake nokutambudzwa kwake. Kunamata uku, Baba vangu, kwakakodzera kwazvo kumisa kutsamwa kwedenga, nekuwedzera kwerutendo, nekuparadza dzidziso dzakatsauka, nekudzosera kunzira yeruponeso avo

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kuisa parutivi, mushoko, kurwisana nevavengi vose vekutenda.

Anopinda muruzivo rwekusavapo kwake.

Kufungisisa uku kwakandidzosera kushayiko huru yatakataura nezvayo zvakanyanya munguva yakapfuura, ndinoreva kusakwana kwechisikwa pamberi pekukwirira nehukuru hwehumwari. Kune rumwe rutivi, ukuru hwaMwari, kune rumwe rutivi nhamo dzezvisikwa zvose; musiyano wakadini! uye ndakaororwa zvikuru sei nerimwe zuva panhambo yomutambo waMadota! Ndinorarama zvese

zvisikwa zvinozviparadza pamberi paMwari kuti zviremekedze uchangamire hwekuvapo kwazvo. Muviri wemunhu wakaputsika kuita guruva pamberi pameso angu, uye kusvikira panguva iyo wakamanikidzwa kuninipisa kuzvikudza kwawo pamberi paiye ane mbiri yawaida kubvuta; asi Mwari haana kungokunda pamusoro pekuzvikudza uku, akakundawo rufu rwakanga rwaparadza mudziyo warwo, uye nepamusoro pekusava nechinhu chaikoiko kwairatidzika kuva kwakarutora.

Naizvozvo ndakaona, nekumuka nekumuka kwakaringana, kudzoreredza muviri uyu pachinhanho chawo chekutanga; uye murume uyu; nokudaro kuparadzwa nokudzorerwa, kunoitwa, neidzi nyika mbiri dzakasiana zvikuru, rukudzo rwakaenzana kuna tenzi akakwana wokuvapo nowokusavapo, iye oga anooneka mukuru kunyange mukusava nesimba kwechisikwa chake...

Zvose zvinopfuura, zvose zvinopera, zvose zvinopera munyika ino, nokuti zvose zvakatanga; Mwari oga ndiye anorarama asingashanduki, nekuti haana mavambo, uye haangamboshanduki. Ihomwe yakadini yemazano nemifungo yakaisvonaka!

Ndichiri kuzvipira kwairi, zvakanzi kwandiri:  Hauchashaisa imba yako pasina, uye uchasimbisa ushe hwako pasina maturo  ; 

Baba vangu, pamashoko aya andakaudzwa kare makore makumi maviri apfuura, sezvandakakuudzai! Asi pfungwa yacho yanga isina kunyatsokudziridzwa mandiri sezvazvaive zvakaita mazuva apfuura. Zivai, ndakaudzwa, kuti chisikwa chose hachisi chinhu asi chinhu chakachena pamberi paiye ari . Hey! chii chinoramba chichidiwa nemunyori wazvo, kuti chisadzokera mukusavapo kwemavambo ayo? Anonakidzwa here nechimiro chimwe chete chemuviri kana chemweya, chisiri chipo kubva muruoko rwake rwakasununguka, nyasha, nyasha, bhenefiti itsva? Naizvozvo zvakanaka, Mwari wangu, kuita imba yangu pasina, ini ndisina kuvapo zvangu pachangu, ndinongova zvangu chinhu chakachena pamberi penyu; zvinosuwisa zvakare kuti, hapana chinhu chakakumukirai, imi muri hunhu hwakaenzana, uyo ane zvinhu zvose zviripo naye, uye pasina chinhu chingavapo. Ivavariro dzakadini dzokundiparadzazve! uye hupofu hwangu hungava hupi kana ndikasanzwa kusava chinhu kwangu pakati pehumbowo hwakawanda hwakandipoteredza? Hazvisi zvakaoma  kunyengetedza kuti iye murombo uye anosuruvarisa kune uyo anozviona akaderedzwa kusvika kumagumo ekupedzisira, anonzwa zvakanaka kwazvo kuti agone kukahadzika; asi chii chaizova upenzi hwake kana, achisungirwa kupemha chingwa chake pasuo nesuo, akazvitenda amene kuva muhosha uye  akapfuma zvikuru?

Njere dzekudenga dzakatsakatiswa pamberi paMwari. Kunyanyisa kuzvikudza.

Kana Mwari akandiita kuti ndirangarire vakachenjera vokudenga, vatsvene vokutanga, kuti ndiwire pasi mukumunamata uye savakaparadzwa pamberi pake, paanondiratidza mweya inobwinya iyi, inotakurwa nokushingaira uye nechido chokubwinya kwake.

uye vose vakapiswa nemoto werudo rwake rwakachena, pasina kana kudzoka kwavari vamene, ndinozviwana ndabatwa nenyadzi uye kuvhiringidzika, ndichiona matiri, uye kunyanya mandiri, maitiro akasiyana akadaro, nezvimwe zvakadaro. ita zvishoma ipapo.

Chii! mutumwa anozvidukupisa, azvikanganwa, anozviparadza amene kudenga; uye isu, honye dzepanyika zvatiri, takafukidzwa mumatope, silt netsvina yehunhu hwedu, tinoramba kuzvininipisa, tinogara tichisimuka, tinozviona sevanhu vadiki: kunyanyisa kunoshamisa!  kuzvikudza  kusingatsungiririki ! Zvirinani, kana, senge  peacock,

dzimwe nguva taitarisa tsoka dzedu, taiona kuti taibata pasi; uye ipapo, kure nokusada kubira mbiri yake kuna Mwari, achigovera kwatiri matarenda namavara ayo akatipa bedzi kuti timuremekedze kupfurikidza nokuadzosa kwaari, taizonyadziswa zvikuru noushoma hwemavambo edu. kuramba tisingaregi mukudzika kwekusakosha kwedu, taizoona pasi pedu nyika yatinokambaira, uye inotityisidzira isingamiri kuvhurika pasi petsoka dzedu kutimedza, uye kuita kuti nyoka nehonye dzidye muviri watinonamata uyu.

“Vane nhamo vanozvikudza,” ndizvo zvinotaura Jehovha. dai vakanga vakareba samakore, ndaizoziva kuvaburusa nokuvaderedza; uye kana vakasapa rukudzo kuhukuru hwangu hwepamusoro-soro munguva yeupenyu, vachamanikidzwa kuita kudaro munguva yokusingagumi; vachaziva, nokurohwa kwehasha dzangu, zvavari uye zvandiri.

Kuzviita somwana; gara uchidzika nekudzika. Zviratidzo zviviri zveSista, izvo zvakaroverera chidzidzo ichi paari.

Saka akati kwandiri, iva somwana mudiki, kana uchida kunzwirwa ngoni, nokuti ndinofarira kunyadzisa vanozvikudza uye kupa nyasha dzangu kune vanozvininipisa. Dzidza zvino kuti utevedzere zvakanaka, hunhu hwemwana uhwu, kuchena kwake, kusava nemhosva, moyo wake mudiki wakajeka, wakazadzwa nekutapira uye kupfava, pasina kutsauka, pasina hutsinye, husina hunyengeri kana huviri, hunogona kutya nerudo. , uye inokwanisa kuratidzwa kwese kwekunaka; tevedzerai muenzaniso wake, muve vakadzikama

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ityai zvandakatonga, ityai kururamisira kwangu;

moyo paunyoro hwangu, muve muduku kwazvo pameso enyu, nekuti  ndinoda mudiki neanomoyo unozvininipisa. Ichi chidzidzo chausingafaniri kukanganwa, kuti mudiki pauri mumaziso ako, zvikuru iwe uchava mune angu uye nekusimudzwa muumambo hwangu; kana ukatenda kuti hauna kufanira kunzwirwa nyasha neni, unowedzera kuvatenda;  »

Pane izvi, Baba vangu, JC vakandiyeuchidza nezvechiratidzo chavakandipa makore akati wandei apfuura. Akanga ari mwana muduku wemakore mana kana mashanu okuberekwa akanga achimhanyira kuna Ishe wedu nesimba rake rose, achitambanudza maoko ake kwaari; Ishe weduwo akanga akazarurwa maoko ake, uye akaratidza chido chikuru chokumugamuchira; asi asvika kwaari, pane kuzviwisira mumaoko ake, mwana akagwadama patsoka dzake ndokuisa chiso chake pasi kuti amunamate.

JC akaisimudza kakawanda; kakawanda aida kumuchengeta uye kumupuruzira; asi kamwana aka kaigara kachiedza kuzviburitsa, pazvakangovhiringika nekutya mafavour aaiwana, akabva azviwisira pasi, akatsikitsira maziso ake akatsikitsira, akagumbata maoko, ndokutsikitsira pasi, mukati. kunyarara kwekuremekedza; kuzvininipisa kwake kwakanga kwakaita somuyero waimutakura nguva dzose akananga pasi, uyo waaiona sepakati pake; but the more she carried himself there, the more JC stooped towards him kuti amusimudze. Mumwe angadai akati kuramba kwemwana kwakaita chisimba kurudo rwemoyo wababa vake.

Pakupedzisira, Baba vangu, mwana akakunda muhondo iyi inoyemurika, JC yakamupa kukunda kwaari, uye aingoratidzika akadzikama uye ari panzvimbo yake, paakanga akasununguka kuramba ari patsoka dzake kuti amunamate mumweya nemuchokwadi. . Muponesi waMwari akakundwa saizvozvo; asi kukunda kwaakawana mwana uku kwakaratidzika kwaari kusingafadzi, uye ndakanzwisisa kuti musiki aive asina imwe nzira yekumukunda nayo, kunze kwekuparadza nekuzvininipisa.

Izvi, Baba vangu, Mwari vakaita kuti ndinzwisise zviri nani neimwe chiratidzo chine chekuita neni. I imagined ndichiona JC arikure.

Ndichingomuona ndakabva ndaedza kumutsvaga. Zvakanga zvakafanira kuti izvozvo zvisimuke mumhepo, izvo zvandakaita mumweya; asi pandakaswedera pedyo naye, iye akawedzera kubva kwandiri, zvokuti ndakanga ndava kutadza kumuona, apo, ndapererwa nezano rokuswedera pedyo naye uye ndichizvitongesa kuti handina kukodzera, ndakatora, zvisinei nokuzengurira, kuruboshwe kuti ndidzike. zvakare kuvhu, zvandakaita; asi handina kutora nguva refu mukuona nekukatyamadzwa kunofadza, kuti pandainyanya kubva paari nekutya uye neruremekedzo, akanyanya kudzika nekukasira uye akawana nzvimbo yekuswedera kwandiri uye kubatana neni; Ndaiti ndikaita nhanho kuti ndimumirire, asi aibva amira oenderera mberi nerwendo rwake kana ndatanga kudzika zvakare. Kubva ipapo, ndakanzwisisa kuti kune 

kuburuka nekukurumidza, zvandakaita, uye ndakaita rombo rakanaka kumuona pandakanga ndatsika pasi.

Shanda nguva dzose uye nesimba rako rose kuti uwane kuzvininipisa. Kukosha kwake.

Naizvozvi tinofanira kugumisa, Baba, kuti kuwana iyi pfuma inokosha, hausati uri mubvunzo wedu wokukwira mudenga, asi wokuchera muura hwapasi, sokunge zvakadaro, uchiparadza pfungwa yose yokukwirira noukuru. Zvakakosha kushanda pairi pasina kurasikirwa nehushingi, ibasa rehupenyu hwose; naizvozvo zvakafanira nguva dzose kuva nebazo muruoko, nokuti zvakafanira kuchera zvisingaregi kuti usvike paumambo hwokudenga, chimwe chinhu chicharatidzika kuva chinoshamisa, asi chechokwadi chose. Mwari haagoni kukwira kumusoro, uye hatigoni kuburuka nokukurumidza kuti timuwane, nokuti hapana chinhu mugove wedu, sezvo kukwirira kuri kwake. Aya ndiwo maviri akanyanyisa ane nguva yaanozadza iye ega. Anotida munzvimbo yakatinakira, kuitira kuti zvinhu zvose zvive sezvazvinofanira kuva.

Hongu, Baba, uye ngatisambofa takakanganwa kuti rudado rwakambodzingwa kudenga harwufanire kudzoka ikoko, uye kuti, nokudaro, tinongove nekutya nekuzvininipisa kwasara kuti tikukunde. Tinoda here kuva vakuru, vapfumi uye vane simba muhurongwa hweruponeso, ngatizvininipise, tizviparadze, tife kunyika uye kwatiri, uye tichararama muna Mwari. Ngatimisei hutongi hwaMwari pamarara ezvishuvo zvedu. Ngatikundei pamusoro pekuzvikudza kwedu uye tichava vakuru kupfuura vakundi vepasi; vapfumi, vane simba kupfuura madzimambo ose; nokuti kukunda marudzi hakuna kana kuenzaniswa nokuzvikunda. Asi kukunda uku hakusati kuri chinhu mukuenzaniswa nezivo yaMwari, inowanwa bedzi nokuziva kwedu timene uye nokuzvininipisa kwakakwana. O Baba vangu! heino huchenjeri hwechokwadi uye chakakosha pane ese zano, iro mufaro wechokwadi wemunhu uye pfungwa yechokwadi yehukuru hwake, iyo inoumbwa uye inowanikwa chete mukuparadzwa kwake kwakakwana pamberi paMwari. Hongu, ndiyo nzvimbo yake inoremekedzwa zvikuru uye inomukodzera kusvika parufu. Asi ani naani achazviwana ari pandima yokupedzisira iyi ane chokwadi chokuti tenzi achamubudisa  kunze

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kuumbwa kwakakwirira, sezvaanoderedza uyo anoda kusimuka. Ndinoda pfungwa huru uye yakakosha iyi kuti isambopera kubva mupfungwa dzevanhu.

Kuzvininipisa, hwaro hwezvinhu zvose zvakanaka. Kudzama kwekuzvininipisa kwaMaria naJ.

Ah! Baba vangu, dai maiziva kangani uye nekufarira kupi tsika iyi yakakurudzirwa kwandiri naJC!... Akataura neni pamusoro payo sechinhu chinonyanya kukosha paruponeso rwangu; akandipa iyo nzira bedzi yokuisa nayo mweya wangu mukuchengeteka uye hana yangu kuzorora. “Akandiudza nokuzvininipisa kuti, zvinhu zvose zvichakunakira iwe; pasina izvozvo, zvibayiro zvenyu zvinodhura zvichava zvisina maturo. Kuzvininipisa ndihwo hwaro hwezvinhu zvose zvakanaka, sezvo rudo rwuri mweya wavo neupenyu. Kuzvininipisa kwaamai vangu kwakabatsirawo pakundiwisira pasi kwavari kupfuura kuchena kwavo kwengirozi uye rudo rwavo rukuru. Ndiko kwese kwese kunaka uku kwaakandifadza, kuti akandikwezva, kuti akabata pamuviri ndokundibereka ... "

Usazvipokane, Baba vangu, amai vehumwari veshoko rakazvarwa munhu vaifanira kuzvininipisa sekuchena kwavo uye neropafadzo. Kuzvininipisa kwake kwaifanira kuenzana nehukuru hwehunhu hwake pamwe chete nehukuru hwezvaakazvisarudzira, kuti ashande seanopikisa kwavari uye kumuita kuti asasvike kune chepfu yekudada, uye kunyangwe kurwiswa kwekuzvida. .

Naizvozvo kuri kupfurikidza naikoku, pamusoro pazvose, apo shoko roumwari rakava mwana muduku, iro rakaparadzwa, sokunge zvakadaro, kuti ripinde muchipfuva chechisikwa chinozvininipisa zvikurusa pamwe chete nechakachena zvikurusa chaMhandara. Aya ndiwo masarudziro aakaita kuzvininipisa kuti aite hunhu hwake hwaaida, hwaigara huchimuperekedza mukati mehupenyu hwake hunofa. Anoita kuti ngoro yake yokukunda inyadzise, ​​aburutse uye agoparadza ruvazhe rwokuzvikudza nokuzvikudza. Kwaiva kuzvininipisa ndiko kwaiva hwaro hwounyoro hwake, mwoyo murefu wake, kuchena kwake, kuda kwake kutambudzika, rudo rwake rwokushingaira uye humwe hunhu hwake hwose hwaakatipa muenzaniso muhuMwari hwake. Zvino tingatarisira sei kufanana naye kuti timufadze?

Ndakataura rudo rwake pakutambudzika, nokuti akanga ane nzara nenyota nokuda kworuponeso rwedu rwaaida kutivigira isu, uye nokururamisira kwaBaba vake kwaaida kubvisa zvombo, uye kukubwinya kwake, kwaaida kuti aite. provide. Ichi ndicho chikonzero nei achizviparadza zuva nezuva muYukaristiya, umo achiri kugara asina chaanoita, sepadumbu raamai vake, paakanga ari musungwa uye ari nhapwa; muranda wokuzvidira worudo rwake kwatiri; zvakasiyana chaizvo nevamwe vana,

varipo vasingazvizivi uye vasina rudo kana kutambura, nokuti havana chikonzero kana kushandisa pfungwa dzavo; asi hazvina kudaro nouchenjeri husingaperi. Chii, zvino, chaasina kufanira kutambura munguva dzose dzokuvapo kwake, uyo akanga atora muviri bedzi kuti agutse ruramisiro, nokutambura nokuda kwezvivi zvaakanga atora paari? Chii chaasina kufanira kutambura mudumbu raamai vake, mukuzvarwa kwake kwakaoma, mukudzingiswa kwake kunorwadza, mukushanda kwehuduku hwake mukati mehupenyu hwake hwose, panguva iyo rudo rwake rwakamuita kuti aite zvinhu zvakawanda uye kuneta kwakanyanya; asi kunyanya mumatambudziko uye mumarwadzo ayo akabvumira rufu kuti rwumuise pasi poumambo hwake .....

Kunyadziswa kwakadini kuti Mwari aurayiwe ndokuvigwa, aburukire muguva rinotyisa, pashure pokunge atsungirira zvose zvakaoma zvikuru uye zvinonyadzisa zvikuru murufu  rwetsotsi  ! Asi  izvi ndizvo

rudo irworwo runoita kuti atore uye atiitire, sezvandakaratidzwa kwandiri mukufungisisa pamusoro pezvipo zvinomwe zveMweya Mutsvene, uye kunyanya neiyo yesainzi, yandatora kubva mairi zvinenge zvese zvandabva kukuudza; uye kunyangwe zvese izvi isu hatizokwanisi kuzviunza kuti tizvininipise kana  kutambura chero chinhu nekuda kwerudo  rwake  !. Ndiani angambonzwisisa  zvedu

bofu kusanzwa, hudiki hwedu  hunodada  ? Ndinopedzisa chinyorwa ichi,  zvangu

Baba, ndichikuudzai kuti hunhu hwechokwadi hwekuzvininipisa hwakakosha kuruponeso  sezvo zvisingawanzo kuve nahwo, uye zvakaoma kuzvichengeta. Kutenda chete kuva nazvo kuita kuti  zvinyangarike  . Ngatirindei tinyengetere, uye  tichava

kunyanya kuzvininipisa nekuti hatifi takaona matiri chimwe chinhu kunze kwezvikonzero zvekuzvininipisa zvakanyanya, tichitevera muenzaniso weVatendi vose.

CHIKAMU XII.

Pachiremerera chemweya yedu, rudo rwaMwari kwavari, uye nekukura kwechivi.

Baba vangu, rimwe remazuva ake apfuura pandakanga ndichifunga nezvekutambudzika uye kurwadziwa kwaJC paMuchinjikwa, uye neronda rinoyera remoyo wavo wehumwari, ndakashaya kuti ndotii kana zvekuita kuti ndimunyaradze nezvakawanda zvakadaro. kurwadziwa. Pakarepo zvakangoitika kwandiri kuti zvaive zvakafanira kumupa rudo, mutsa, mufaro, mafaro, uye makomborero ese aakatora akatora pasina.

rinoguma seshoko risingagumi muchipfuva chababa vakamubereka uye mukubatana kwevanhu vanoyemurika voUtatu husinganzwisisike.

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Mupiro wemukati wakanaka kwazvo uye unofadza kwazvo kuTiriniti  Tsvene.

Naizvozvo ndakamupa rudo urwu rwakafanana, kufara kusingataurwi uku mukufungisisa kukwana kusingagumi uye kwehunhu hunoumba musimboti wehumwari  ; uye JC airatidzika kwandiri aifara kwazvo, zvekuti akandivimbisa kuti pakanga pasina kuzvipira kwaimufadza zvakanyanya, uye kuti akagamuchira chirairo chandakaita nekuda kwechinangwa ichi, sekunge chakaitwa panguva chaiyo  apo

mwoyo wakatambura marwadzo aya mubindu kana pamuchinjikwa; kuti iye akasunungurwa zvikuru nahwo mukutambura kwake, uye kuti kwakanga kuri madikanwa kuupira kuUtatu Hutsvene zvikurusa kuti uhuregerere nokuda kwehasha idzo; chivi chakaramba chichimuitira; kuti kubwinya kwake kugadzirwe zvikuru uye kururama kwake kugoitwa; kuti mupiro uyu uchave nzira yakanaka yekuwana nyasha, pamwe nehova dzenyasha kuburikidza nerunako rwemudzikinuri.

Akawedzera kuti kwaizovawo kutenda kwakanakisisa nokuda kwebetsero dzakagamuchirwa mukusikwa, rudzikinuro nokutsveneswa kworudzi rwomunhu, pamwe chete nokukunda kwose nokukunda kweChechi yaJ.

C. Nenyasha uye nesimba roMweya Mutsvene, Mwari anovimbisazve maropafadzo nenyasha dzakakosha kune vose vanoita kuzvipira uku, vane kodzero dzavanogona kushanda kuvapenyu nevakafa, pamwe chete naivo pachavo.zvimwechete, vachitevera zvinoreva nguva dzose. yeChechi yeKatorike, pasina kumbotsauka pairi.

Mutengo uye chiremera chemweya.

Kuda kwaMwari, Baba vangu, ndiko kuti ndikuudzei zvino chimwe chinhu chezvandinoona muchiedza choumwari, zvichibata mutengo nechiremera chemweya, uyo waakasika mumufananidzo wake uye akadzikinura nemutengo weropa rake rose. Inyasha dzakadii dzisina kupihwa kwaari, chipo chakadii chaasina kupihwa neuyu Utatu hunoyemurika, uyo akamuda kubva  kukusingaperi  ! Ndechipi chidzidzo chepamusoro chaanacho  ?

Haana kushongedzwa here nekumudhonza  kubva  pasina!. 1°. Mwari akazvisika zviri nyore, zvakasununguka,  zvese

vemweya, vese vakakwana uye vasina gwapa; 2°. Akamusika kuti asaparara

zvomuzvarirwo wake uye akaita sokusingaperi saiye. Iye achararama chero bedzi Mwari ari Mwari, ndiko kuti, kufanana naye, haasati achizotongorega kuvapo.

Aihwa! mweya womunhu hauzombofi wakaguma; uye kana chiri chokwadi kutaura kuti yakanga ine mavambo muukama nahwo pachayo, munhu anogonawo kutaura kuti yakanga isina imwe muukama naMwari, sezvo yakanga iripo nokuda kwake kubvira kusingagumi, uye kuti akanga ari chinhu chisingagumi chorudo rwake. Naizvozvo akanga ari mupenyu muna Mwari: nokuti zvinhu zvose zvipenyu mukuona kwake uye maari, zvinhu zvose zviri maererano naye. 3°. Tinogona kutaura kuti akahuita Utatu munzira duku, sezvo iye akahupa zvinhu zvitatu zvakasiyana izvo zvisinei zvinoumba zvakanyanya uye mweya mumwe chete, kungofanana nevamwari vatatu pamwe chete vanoumba humwari humwe chete. Uyu hausi mufananidzo wakafanana here wechakavanzika chikuru ichi icho Mwari aida kudhirowa nacho mufananidzo wakakwana kwazvo muunyanzvi hwemaoko ake? hameno kuti ane shanje here  ?

Mweya yedu yakagara iri mumirau isingaperi uye mukuvapo kwehumwari. Hungu, dzakanga dziripo, kwete nokuvhiringidzika, kana kuti nezivowo zvayo yavanhu vose vanobvira, asi nomutoo wakajeka zvikuru, uye mumwe nomumwe zvikurukuru aizivikanwa naMwari uye aidanwa nezita kuti abviswe mukusavapo panguva yakagadzwa nokuda kwokuvapo kwake. Ah! Baba, zvakakura sei, zvinofadza sei, zvakanaka sei kuvaraidza pfungwa dzakakwirira uye dzakakodzera, nekutiratidza chiremera chemweya yedu, kuwedzera kana kubereka rudo uye kutenda kwatinofanira kuita kumunhu mukuru, uye ane kufanotaura kwakatiyambira munzira dzakawanda kwazvo!....

Kwakanaka sei, kunofadza sei, kunotapira sei kufungisisa kukwana kukuru kwazvo uye kushamwaridzana uko kufungisisa kunozivisa kwatiri muuyu hunhu hwoumwari!

Kuona nemaziso omudzimu mamiriyoni emamiriyoni ezvisikwa zviripo kubvira kusingagumi uye zvichirarama murudo rwaMwari wazvo, zvisati zvabviswa pazvisina maturo zvaizova zvisikwa zvomudzimu uye zvine mufungo, zvinokwanisa kumuziva uye kumuda, uye izvo kubva zvino zvichienda mberi. wakatora Mwari! ndidzo dzaiva pfungwa dzepfungwa dzake uye unyoro hwemoyo wababa vake! O denga! ihomwe yakadini yokufungisisa, chikonzero chine simba zvakadini chokuonga norudo!

Asi pamasimba ake ose anoyemurika, icho chinomuswededza pedyo nemunyori wake ndiye murongi wechokwadi waakamushongedza nawo, uye waanomuita changamire uyo waanoda kutonga naye muumambo hwake. Kukwirira kwakadini! chiremerera chakadii! chisikwa chakachena chinogona kukwidziridzwa kumusoro! inogona kuswedera pedyo nemunyori wayo! Mweya wemunhu, unoshandisa rusununguko rwawo zvakanaka, unozvitonga pachawo nemuviri wawo panguva, uchimirira kuti utonge kudenga nekusingaperi. Muviri wake ndiwo mudiki

umambo hwaakapiwa kuti ashandise tarenda rake uye azadzise kwaaienda panguva yehupenyu hwake hwenguva pfupi. Humambo hudiki uhu ndehwake, uye kwaakaiswa, inyika yese iyo, kuti itonge zvakanaka, inomupa mukana wekushandisa masimba ake ese emweya. Mubayiro wake kudenga uchava, sokukura kwoumambo hwake, kuenzana nokutendeka kwe

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utongi hwaro, uye nokushandisa zvakanaka rusununguko rwaro rwokuzvisarudzira, pamasimba aro ose, muhurumende yaro yokutanga. Pashure pechimiro chengirozi, mweya womunhu, pasina kupokana, wakakwirira zvikurusa, wakaisvonaka zvikurusa, wakaisvonaka zvikurusa wezvisikwa zvakabudiswa mumaoko oMusiki. Zvinogona kutotaurwa mupfungwa kuti anokurira ngirozi pachayo, uye izvi zvichava zvisingarambiki kana tikateerera mutengo worudzikinuro rwayo. Ndiyo inyanzvi yechokwadi yehumwari hunoikoshesa, inohuremekedza, kana munhu achigona kutaura kudaro, anochida kusvika kune godo, kune rudzi rwekudarika, uye anoita zvekufungisisa, uye nekunyunyuta kwaanotora maari  , poindi yemufaro wake, zvirinani kunze uye netsaona. Aya ndiwo mazita echinzvimbo, zvikonzero zvekunaka kwake uye ukuru hwake. Izvi ndizvo zvatinofanira kutonga mutengo wayo  uye

kukudzwa kwake, sekukosha kwemufaro wake usingaperi.

Kuti mweya wakasikwa sei.

Kugadzira chisikwa chakanakisa kudaro, Utatu hunoyemurika hwakapinda muKanzuru yake yeChakavanzika, kana ndikagona kutaura. Ikoko, akaunganidza uchenjeri hwake hwakadzama asati apedza basa rake, nokubudisa chikamu chikuru, unyanzvi hwechokwadi hwaifanira kuisa mukwanisi uye kukwana kwokupedzisira kubasa remazuva matanhatu. Kusvika pari zvino, sekutaura, yakanga yangoburitsa zvidhori chete, kuedza kusina simba pakugona kwayo kwose; asi pano anozviona semupendi ane hunyanzvi anozodhirowa mufananidzo wake uye kuzvimiririra kubva kune zvakasikwa.

Ndinomunzwa achizvibvunza. Ngatiite murume, anodaro, nemufananidzo wedu uye akafanana. Zvino, Baba vangu, zvirokwazvo hakusi kudivi remuviri kuti munhu akafanana naMwari. Ngatipe mweya wake kufanana kwechokwadi nemasimba edu emweya. Ngatimupei rusununguko rwekuda kuti,

achimuita tenzikadzi wezviito zvake, achimuita atonyanya kufanana nesu nekuzvisarudzira kwekuda kwake: angave anozvitonga, kana akasununguka zvachose kuda kana kusada, kuita kana kusaita paanoda, kuti tikudzwe nesarudzo yake uye nerusununguko rwekunamata kwake uye nerukudzo rwake; chero imwe mutero inenge isina kufanira kwatiri....

Kusasimba kwechisikwa kuziva rudo rukuru urwo Mwari anarwo nokuda kwacho. Nzira yaanogona kuzvigadzirisa nayo.

Baba vangu, kwemakore makumi mana fungidziro dzatichangobva kuita dzandishungurudza zvakanyanya. Ndakaona, panguva dzakasiyana-siyana, ukuru nerukudzo rwemweya yakararama nekusingaperi muna Mwari, nekufanoziva, pasina rudo urwo Mwari akavatakura narwo pachipfuva chake, vachizivikanwa neimwe nzira, kana kuripwa nezvisikwa izvi zvakanaka uye zvakanakisa. izvo zvakanga zvisipo vachiri mavari, asi mukutarisira kwaMwari chete. Nehumwe hunhu husina kunaka, kuperevedza kwechisikwa chakandigarira siku nesikati, kwakandiita kuti ndiite senge mhuno huru muhumwari, yandaisagona kutsanangura, uye yaindinetsa zvikuru. Dzimwe nguva ndaigunun’una pamusoro pazvo kumureururi wangu, ndisingakwanisi kuita kuti ndinzwisise. Baba vangu, ndakati kwavari rimwe zuva, Ndinoona muna Mwari pane chimwe chinhu chinondirwadza zvikuru uye chandinoda kuzadzikiswa; asi pasinei zvapo nevavariro yake, haana kundipindura chinhu pamusoro peichi chinyorwa, uye akapfuurira asina kundibvumira kuzvitsanangura ndimenezve. Asi Mwari vakangozvigadzirisa, kunyaradzo yangu huru, nekundipa pane izvi zvese budiriro iyo isina mumwe munhu angadai akandipa  .

Muhupenyu husingaperi hune mufaro, akandiudza, kuti mweya yakarasika uye yakanyura muhukuru hwerudo rwaMwari ichazadza ichi chisina chinhu, kugadzirisa, kuburikidza nehupenyu hwekushingaira kwavo nekutenda kwavo  . zvavaisagona kuita kare. Rudo rwavo, rwakakura muhukuru hwarwo, ruchambundira nechishuvo zvibodzwa zvekusingaperi; uye kubatana pamwe chete kunyanyisa, iyi mweya yakaropafadzwa ichandida yese panguva imwe chete kune yakapfuura, yazvino uye yeramangwana. Saka ichi chisina chinhu, chinorwadza uye chakaremara, chichazadzwa zvakakwana; hakungavi nemhosva kuno rumwe rutivi  .

Iyi mhinduro inogutsa uye iyi tsananguro iyo Mwari aida kundipa pamusoro pechinhu chinokosha ichi, kwaiva kupedza kufunganya nokusuwa izvo zvandakaratidzwa nechiono; asi pakasara imwe, yandakatorazve kusununguka kumubvunza kuti atsanangure. Mwari wangu, ndakati kwaari, Zvose izvi ndezvechokwadi pamusoro pemweya inofanira kukurumbidzai nokukuropafadzai nokusingaperi; asi maererano neavo vachawira mugehena, avo vachazadza kusavapo kwe

rudo rwauinarwo kwavari uye rwawakava narwo nokuda kwavo muupenyu hwako hwose husingagumi?Irwo rwandichatora kubva kune zvimwe zvisikwa zvangu zvose, uye nokukunda kwandichawana pamusoro pechivi, dhiabhorosi, hero uye vavengi vangu vose, ndichanyadzisa nezuva rokupedzisira; Saka kururamisira kwangu, kugutsikana zvizere, kuchatora nzvimbo yerudo rwavo kuti vazadze chishamiso icho kusatenda kwavo kusingaperi kwaizogadzira pandiri.

Kugunun'una kugunun'una kwaJ.-C. pakurasikirwa kwemweya. Hukuru hwechivi.

Ndiani, Baba, angataura kwamuri kuchema kunobaya mwoyo uko J.

C. akaita kuti ndinzwe kwemazuva matatu, pakurasikirwa kusingagadzirisiki kwemweya yakaipa iyo yakatorwa kubva kwaari nechivi; uyo akatungamirira kune zvakaipa

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vakazvirega vachizvifambisa nenzira inosuruvarisa kuti vandogutsa zvishuvo zvavo zvoutsinye uye nokusazvibata kwavo?” Akadanidzira achiti, Mukunda weZioni anoyevedza, chii? ndakamufunga; harisisina kana kumbofanana neni, ndini munyori waro uye ndiani aifanira kuva muenzaniso waro sepakati nemagumo aro. Haachina chinhu cherunako rwake rwekutanga. Ndakanga ndamusika mumudzimu chose chose, uye zvino ava chose chose ngamera, chokunyama uye chapasi; imhuka chaiyo yandisingachazivi. Ndakanga ndamupa kusafa, uye zvino akafa kunyasha dzangu nerudo  rwangu. Ndainge ndamupa churu chakakwana  ,

zviuru zvakanakisa zvezvipo zvenyasha dzangu nerudo rwangu; akarasikirwa nezvose; rinongouyisa meso angu mavanga anouraya, anoparadza; ndiani angazviziva?

Kusiririsa kwakadini, Baba, uye kariro inosuruvarisa sei yendangariro inofunga! Chii! apo mweya yakanga isati yavapo, yakanga  iripo

mupenyu mumoyo maMwari; asi sezvo vakatera uye vakabvuma kuidzwa, zvavakazvisvibisa nokuita chivi, vakafa pamberi pake; uye kana rufu rwechinguva ruchivaparadzanisa nemiviri yavo, vanobva vangove zvinhu, vasingafari nehasha dzake.

kurangwa kusingaperi. Avo vachatonga kudenga vachava, mugehena, vari varanda vemadhimoni nokuda kwokuva varanda vokuchiva kwavo kusina kufanira. Vakadzi veJC vacharangwa nekusiiwa kusingaperi nekuda kwekunge vasina kutendeka kwaari; vacharangwa zvikuru kwazvo, nokuti ivo vakanga vaitirwa nyasha.

Ndiani angakupendei, Baba, kushata, kuremara kunotyisa kwemweya wakaparadzaniswa naMwari nechivi? Tongai nazvo neshanduko yakaitika muna Lucifer kubva pakumukira kwake. Mweya wematsotsi wakafanana nedhimoni. Chivi chakamuita chikara chisingaparari chakafanirwa nokuvengwa nezvisikwa zvose uye nokutukwa kwose kwoMusiki. Ichi ndicho chivi chakatukwa chinova chishamiso chaicho chinotiparadzanisa naMwari, chinhu chaicho chisina maturo, nokuti chinopesana nemhando dzose dzezvakanaka izvo zvinoparadza, uye pamusoro pazvo zvose kuna Mwari uyo ari hukuru uye tsime rechokwadi rezvose. kugona.

Ndihwo huipi hwoga hwaMwari uyu waanotsamwisa uye nechisikwa chaanofumura kunhamo huru kwazvo, yokutukwa nokuparadzaniswa nokusingaperi naMwari wake. Chivi ndibaba verufu, urwo rwakaparira nokupinza munyika, uye zvibereko zvose zvomuti uyu wakaipa uye wakatukwa zvibereko zvorufu nokutukwa. Zvose zvisati zviri zvivi zvipenyu pamberi paMwari; chivi choga hachina upenyu. Akanyura mugomba rakadzika-dzika rokusava chinhu rinova chinhu chinotyisa chiya chisina chinhu, chinopesana zvikuru nokuvapo kwoumwari maererano nemabasa ose aakaita. Chikara chinotyisa ichi pakupedzisira ndiye muvengi wekusingaperi uye asingayanane uyo Mwari akarova nekutuka kwake kusingaperi.

Ah! Baba vangu, kuti chido chakatsauka uye chakatsunga kuita chivi chinofanira kuva chinhu chinosemesa uye chinosemesa pamberi paMwari! Uye mweya ungadada sei neunhu hwawo hwakanaka, uchifunga kuti wakambove uye kuti unogona kuva chinhu ichi chinosemesa?... Kwete, hapana, mukuona kwangu, chinokwanisa kutidzosa matiri uye kuti tidzokere matiri uye kuti tizvidzore isu. tichengete nguva dzose mukusava nechinhu uku kukuru, mukusavapo kwechisikwa chandakataura kwauri kakawanda, mukukanganwa kwenyika ino, kwandakatanga uye kwandinofanoona kuti ichakurumidza kupera, kuti kushata. uye kukura kwechivi, mufananidzo unotyisa uye usinga nzwisisike wekugumbura kwaMwari, uyo munhu waasingafaniri kumbofunga nezvazvo pasina kudedera.

Ndinotaura mufananidzo usinganzwisisiki wekugumburwa kwaMwari, nokuti, kuti azvinzwisise, munhu anofanira kunzwisisa Mwari pachake. Hongu, zviri muchionioni ichi chinotyisa uye chechokwadi chakanyanya kuti munhu anofanira kugara achizvifunga, kuitira kuti azvichengete ari munzvimbo inomukodzera uye asambova nechimwe chinhu kunze kwekunzwa kunoenderana nemamiriro ake chaiwo. Kana chisikwa chiri chidiki uye chinoshoreka maererano nehunhu hwehumwari, chingave chii kana tikachitarisa pasi peziso rechivi chachakaita uye chachingaite?

Kumanikidzwa kuzviitira kururamisira pachinhu ichi, kwaisazokwana here kuti mumwe nemumwe adzokere kumoyo wake?... Maiwe! Baba ndinosungirwa kuzvireurura, ini ndinopa yambiro iyi kune vamwe, ah! pamusoro peizvi zvose ndine chikonzero chakawanda chokunyara uye kudedera kupfuura ani zvake.

Zivo iyo Mwari anopa kuHanzvadzi nhamba yezvivi zvake.

Makore mashoma apfuura ndaienda pamusoro pezvitadzo zvehupenyu hwangu hunorwadza, zvitadzo zvepfungwa, zvitadzo zvemashoko, zvitadzo zvezviito uye zvitadzo zvekusiya; ndakatadzira Mwari, muvakidzani wangu uye ini pachangu; zvitadzo zvakaitwa munyika, zvitadzo zvakaitwa muchitendero. Zvakanga zvisingaiti kuti ndirangarire zvose; asi ndakaona kuti uwandu hwezvitadzo zvakanyanyoiswa izvi hwaigona kusvika kumamiriyoni mashanu, uye ndakazvipomera pahwaro ihwohwo uye maererano nekuverenga uku, kwandakatsanangura nepose pandaigona.

Mamirioni mashanu ezvivi muhupenyu hwechisikwa chinosiririsa  !  . Tichatenda  _

hapana mubvunzo kuti ndakanga ndawedzerera zvakanyanya mukupomera kwangu, uye izvo, zvekuwedzera

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