Jeanne le Royer / Hanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa

HUPENYU HWEMUKATI HWE

HANZVADZI YEKUBEREKWA,

Kushanda sekutevera kune zvakazarurwa zvake, nemupepeti mumwe chete.

NHUNGAMIDZO.

Chivimbo chandainge ndapiwa naHanzvadzi Yokuzvarwa kwaJesu hazvaigona kuenderera mberi, sezvo munhu anofanira kunge akaona munhoroondo yandakapa yezvaaivimba nazvo uye nyaya dzake. Ruvimbo urwu rwakanga rwawedzera mukuwirirana nefariro iyo musikana mutsvene uyu akaona mandiri kutora zvose zvaiva nechokuita nehana inoshamisa nenzira, izvo akanga asina kundivanzira chinhu chipi nechipi chaigona kufarira Chechi neChechi. Ndinotobvuma kuti zvakandiomera kuti ndisamupire mumwoyo, pandakangoziva hunhu hwehunhu hwake uye kusimba kwehunhu hwake, kunyanya nyasha huru dzaakapihwa nedenga. .akazadzikiswa: asi handina kugumira ipapo, uye ndakangotenda kuti Mwari, uyo, pasinei nokusakosha kwangu, uye nokuda kwezvikonzero zvinozivikanwa kwaari, akaita sea

Chero nzira ipi yandakakurudzirwa kuita bhizinesi iri rechipiri, ndakatarisa kuitwa kwaro sebasa kana basa idzva randakaisirwa, uye iro rimwe zuva ndaizokumbirwa kuzvidavirira. Kunze kwezvo, mweya yeunhu uhwu haiwanzoitiki, hutsika hwavo huri pamusoro pehupenzi, zvokuti munhu anogona kutaura noushingi kuti hapana chinhu chiduku mavari, uye kuti pane nguva dzose chimwe chinhu chokukunda mune chero chinhu chinogona kuita kuti vazivikanwe uye vakosheswe. Mukunyengetedzwa uku, ndakamuzivisa nezvehurongwa hwandakanga ndafunga hwekunyora hupenyu hwake hwemukati, kana kuti toto maitiro edenga kwaari; ndichiwedzera, kuti adzivise zvikonzero zvokuzvininipisa kwake, zvandaifunga kuti ndaitevera muizvi kuda kwaMwari, uyo, sezvandaitarisira, aisazokundikana kuita. kuwana mbiri kubva mairi kuitira ruponeso rwemweya uye zvichida kutendeuka kwevatadzi. Zvakanga zvichitora Sister nehutera hwavo, uye zvakadaro vakakumbira nguva yekufunga nezvazvo. Ndaifanira kudzokera kumhosva, ndigomuyeuchidza nezvekufarira kubwinya kwaMwari uye neruponeso rwemweya yakanunurwa neropa rake, uye kutaura kwaari nesimba rose randaigona kuva naro pamusoro pake; ndichimuraira kuti anditeerere pachinhu ichi, pakurwadziwa kwokusateerera Mwari wakandituma, nokukereke yakanditendera....

Unotaura kwandiri, akazoti, zvekutendeuka  kwevatadzi Nhamo!

Baba, ndingatotya kunyadzisa vakarurama, kana hupenyu hwangu hwemukati hwainyatsozivikanwa kwavari. Zvisinei, akawedzera, achiti, Ndichakuteererai, sezvo mazvirayira. Denga ngarishandise, sezvamareva! asi nhoroondo iyi, yechokwadi nepandinogona napo, nokuita kuti ndizivikanwe kwamuri, ichashanda kuita kuti tsitsi dzake dzikunde pamusoro pangu; tichaona  ipapo kuti ndaida sei nyasha dzake dzakakosha, idzo akandidzivirira nadzo munzira dzose, uye kuti kunaka kwake kusingagumi kwaifanira kuita sei kukunda mwoyo wangu wakaipa; ndakadzivisa sei rudo rwake  rwoumwari  . Naizvozvi, Baba vangu, muchikudza Mwari  we

tsitsi, zvimwe ndichakurudzira kusatya muvatadzi vakurusa. Zvakanaka, kubva pane ino maonero uye mune iyi tariro, isu tichapinda, kana zvakufadza iwe, mune izvo zvauri kuda, uye nekudaro tichapedza kubvunzurudza uko kwaita kuti tiremekedze kunetseka uye kutarisira kwakanyanya kune mumwe wedu. kune mumwe.

Mavambo akadaro, andaitarisira zvizere, akandiudza zvandaive ndisati ndatarisira, uye nzira ipi yaizopa kunyaya yese yehupenyu hwake hwemukati. Muchitevera muenzaniso wavatsvene vose vakataura

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pachavo; tichakurumidza kumuona achizviratidzira amene bedzi kudivi risingafadzi, achiwedzeredza zvikanganiso zvake zviduku; uye kana achisungirwa kuti ataure nezvenyasha dzakafanana uye nyasha dzaakawana, sekunaka kwaakawana, kuchava, kufanana navo, kungonyanya kuzvininipisa, nekubatanidza chinhu chiri chose kune uyo waakagamuchira kubva kwaari zvinhu zvese. uye ndiani anofanira kumubvunza kuti azvidavirire pazvinhu zvose.

Hazvina mhosva, kana kuti ichi ndicho chimwe chikonzero, ndichaedza, pano sekune imwe nzvimbo, kuti ndisatsauke kubva pamafungiro ake, kunyange kushandisa mazwi ake sezvandinogona kuita. Ndakawana zvakakomba kunyange muzviroto zvake, sezvatakatoona: usashamisika kana ndikashuma zvimwe zvishoma, kusvika pazvinogona kupinda mumashoko andinofanira kupa. Chinhu chiri chose muhupenyu hwakadaro chine mucherechedzo wehumwari; uyezve, Rugwaro Rutsvene runotipa mienzaniso yakawanda kwazvo yezviroto zvouporofita uye zvinokosha, sezvatakatoratidza, zvokuti zvingaita sechimbichimbi kuramba zvose zvomweya wakafanana nowaunoberekwa nawo. Ndinoufananidza nemwenje

yakarembera pakati penzvimbo tsvene, kuti ivhenekerepo vusiku namasikati, tichipiswa pamberi pegwayana rinogamuchira kunamata kwedu ipapo. Ave achipfuta ipapo kwenguva refu, anopedzwa ipapo nemoto wakaisvonaka werudo rwake rutsvene, uye varume, nguva dzose vakavhiringidzika uye mapofu, havasati vaona chiedza chake. Zera rake nehutera hwake hunondiudza kuti ichasvika nguva yekumubvisa pasi pegomba. Ndakazvishingisa kuti ndiunganidze mwaranzi yacho yose isati yafa nokuda kwedu, uye takainyimwa zvachose.

HUPENYU HWEMUKATI

YEKUBEREKWA HANZVADZI.

Mazuva maviri kana matatu akanga apfuura, Sisi vacho vakauya kwandiri ndokubva vatanga nyaya yehupenyu hwavo hwemukati:

“Muzita raBaba, neroMwanakomana, neroMweya Mutsvene; kubudikidza naJesu naMaria, uye nemuzita reUtatu hunoyemurika, ndinoteerera. »

Nzira iyo Sister vanopinda nayo nyaya.

Naizvozvo munokumbira kwamuri, Baba vangu, kuti nditaure kwamuri ikozvino pachangu; Tarisira kunyange usina kumbova neruzivo  rwe a

Hupenyu hunoshamisa kwazvo, husingafungidzike, kana hutsotsi sehuya hwandinofanira kukuudza nezvahwo: chero nguva uye kubva pane chero maonero munhu anozviona, munhu achawana ipapo chekuyemura uye chimwe chekugomera pamusoro. Dai mugumo ukava wakadzikama uye unovimbiswa sezvauchaita nguva shoma! nokuti, Baba vangu, kufunga mararamiro angu, zvave, kuti ndizvitore zvakanaka, uye uchaona ikoko chete kutevedzana kusina kukanganiswa, chete kuenderera mberi kwekuchinja kwerima nechiedza, kwerufaro nekunyaradzwa kwakasanganiswa nekusanaya kwemvura kwakawanda uye. aridities. Pakupedzisira, ndichakutaurira here? nyasha idzo Mwari dzaakafarira kundipa, kupfuura zvese zvinogona kutaurwa, dzakave, sehupenyu hwangu, hwakapfuura uye hwakanyura neshungu, nemabasa, nekusuwa, matambudziko neshungu dzisingaperi: saizvozvo, Baba vangu, hazvibviri kuzvitsanangura, uye ini pachangu handizivi zvandiri, zvandichava, kana ndine chikonzero chikuru chokuzvisimbisa pane kutya; kana kutya kupfuura kundisimbisa; Ndinoona party chete ye

ndizvisiire kuna Mwari akanaka akandibvisa kubva mukusina maturo, uye asingadi kurasikirwa nemunhu. Asi yave nguva yekuti tatanga.

Ko amai vaSister vari panhumbu yavo.

(1) Zvinoita, Baba vangu, kuti ndisati ndazvarwa Mwari nadhiabhori vanga vatove kuhondo panguva yangu. Mukati menguva iyo amai vangu vakanditakura, vakaratidzirwa kungozi dzakawanda kupfuura dzavakanga vatiza muupenyu hwavo hwose: kutya, kuwa, tsaona dzisingakarirwi; aisagona kutsika nhanho mbiri asina kudzingirirwa nezvikara zvakatsamwa kana kuvhundutswa nezvisora. Mamwe manheru, pakati pevamwe, paakanga abuda kuenda kumusuwo, mhuka isingazivikanwe yakangoerekana yasvetukira paari, nechiso chaityisa chaakanga aine kutya kunokwanisa kumuuraya. Maonero ane ngozi aya akazvitaura kwandiri nenzira isingatsanangurike zvakanaka, asi isiri yechokwadi, kana tichizozvivharira pachiitiko; zvekuti kusvika

(1) Hanzvadzi iyi yakanga yatanga nokundiudza nezverubhabhatidzo uye zita remhuri, uyewo nguva nenzvimbo yaakaberekerwa; asi handina kufunga kuti zvakakodzera kudzokorora pano  zvandakataura pakutanga kwoupenyu hwake hwekunze, kuti ndakatangira uwandu hwezvakazarurwa zvake. Aya ndiwo maitiro andichaita kupfupisa zvese zvakatobatwa, uye kudzokorora zvishoma sezvinobvira  .

First favour iyo Sista inogashira kubva kuMhandara  Yakaropafadzwa.

Vabereki vangu varombo vaingovimba nesimba redenga kuti rindichengetedze kubva kwariri; vakandipikira kuMhandara Yakaropafadzwa, uye vakandivimbisa rwendo, urwo ndakaripira pashure, kuNotre-Dame de Pont-Aubré, muMaine. Kubva pavakandiisa pasi pedziviriro ine simba yemuvengi uyu wesimba rerima, kwete chete ndakanga ndisisina

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hapana kutya, asi handina kumbobvira ndabatwa nekutya chero kwemwana uye kusina chikonzero. Pfungwa yezvipoko, zvipoko, nezvimwe, izvo zvinotyisa

vamwe vazhinji, havaite kana fungidziro pandiri: Ndaienda ndoga masikati neusiku; Ndaiva ndoga pakati pavakafa; Ndaizorara, kana zvakakodzera, pakati pezvitunha, ndisingatyi; uye zvikuru kubvira pazera remakore gumi nemaviri, pandakazadzisa chido chandakanga ndagadzirirwa. “Ndakazvibvunza nenguva, uye masisita ose akandipa zvakafanana

uchapupu, achiwedzera kuti Hanzvadzi Yekuzvarwa yakanga yakarara nedehenya pedyo nepiro yake. Takamboona kuti chii

akapfuura, akatarira mumwe wehanzvadzi dzake dzakafa. »

Nyasha imwe chete yaakapiwa naJ.-C. pazera remakore maviri nechidimbu. Chiono chenyika inopenya.

Kufarirwa kwekutanga uku kubva kuna Maria kwaingova kwandiri chete kuedza kwekutanga kwekudzivirira kwedenga, uko kwakateverwa nedzimwe nyasha dzakawanda dzaifanira kunge dzakaderedza zvachose tariro dzose dzemuvengi wangu, kana aigona kuodzwa mwoyo kubva pane chimwe chinhu. Ndakanga ndichiri muduku zvikuru, uye ndakanga ndisati ndava namakore mana kana kuti mashanu okukura (iye akaita kuti ndinyore sezvo akanga ane makore maviri nehafu bedzi okukura, akura mazuva mashomanene, mukuwirirana neizvo J.-C. . iye), pazvakafadza Mwari kundiitira nyasha neimwe nzira, asi zvinoshamisa zvokuti hazvina kumbobva mundangariro dzangu uye hazvizombofi zvakabva.

Hunhu uhu, semaonero angu, hahuna kunyanya kukanganisa hupenyu hwangu hwese, uye ndinohutora semubviro wenyasha dzese dzakaitevera. Ndakanga ndiri kure, kunyanya pazera iroro, kubva pakukwanisa kupinda mairi chero chinhu; Ndakanga ndisati ndaziva kana Mwari, kana nezvechitendero, kana ini pachangu, kwete pfungwa diki yezvakanaka nezvakaipa; Ndakazviseka ipapo, sevamwe, nezvese zvaigona kugadzirisa hunyoro hwefungidziro yangu, pasina kunetseka, pasina kunetseka, uye pasina chero fungidziro.

Apa Baba ndihwo humwe hunhu hwakaitika kwandiri mumwe musi weSvondo pandakazviwana ndava muimba yaiva pedyo neyaigara baba vangu, vabereki vangu vari kuhofisi youmwari. Ndinorangarira, kubvira panguva ino, kuti pakati pevamwe vanhu vane mitezo yakasiyana-siyana vakanga vari mumba umu, pakanga pane majaya maviri kana matatu akanga akagara patafura, ainwa, achiimba nokufara sezvaaigona; Ndanga ndine maoko ose ari maviri ari pamucheto wetafura, uye muchimiro ichi ndakavatarisa ndikanyatsovateerera ndisinganzwisisi chinhu chipi nechipi chingave chezviito zvavo kana kuti kuimba kwavo. Mumwe wavo akaerekana adanidzira kuti: Zvinosiririsa kuti munhu anofanira kusiya upenyu ndokufa! tingafara sei kana tikaramba tiri pano nguva dzose, uye takagara nokusingaperi sezvatiri zvino! Handaizokumbira zvimwe, uye ndaizosiya zvimwe zvose... Asi rufu.!... kana wafunga  nezvazvo  !. etc

Mashoko aya akaombera maoko akadzokororwa nevamwe akandibaya moyo. Vakadaro vachirevei, ndakazvifunga ndega? nokuti ndakanga ndisati ndamboziva nezvohumwe upenyu kana kuti kufa. Ndichiri kufungisisa maererano nezera rangu diki, denga rakatanga kunditsanangurira chakavanzika ichi, uye ichi ndicho chiratidzo chekutanga chandakafarira nacho. Gurobhu rinopenya rechimiro cheovha, uye kureba kwemunhu, rakaita serinoburuka kubva kudenga ndokumira pasi peuriri hwefurati; moto wawo wakanga une mimvuri yose yomuraraungu, asi mavara awo akanga akajeka zvikuru. Munyika ino ndakatarisa, pasina kusiyanisa zvakajeka, yechimiro chemurume akamira, akaita kuti anzwike kwandiri nemashoko aya aitaurwa zvakajeka, uye ini ndakachengeta zvakanaka: “Unoona here mwana wangu mapenzi aya? unonzwa zvavanotaura here mune zvavo kunyanyisa? Ndini Mwari wokudenga napasi; ndini ndakasika zvinhu zvose, ndakazvisika nesimba rangu. Ndakatora munhu kubva mukusava nechinhu chete kuti ndizive ini, ndizvide uye ndive nehupenyu hwangu nekusingaperi. Zvakanaka, mwana wangu, ungadawo here, kufanana navo, kuti urambe nzvimbo yakakwirira kudaro, ugovane nekusingaperi pano pasi pekupedzisira uye nekugara kwemakumbo mana uye zvinokambaira? ungada kuchinjana mufaro wedenga nenhamo dzepasi? hausi kuda here kuva wangu, kunditora rimwe zuva, uye kunakidzwa nekusingaperi mufaro wandakawana ndikakugadzirira iwe nemutengo weropa rangu rose?  »

Nemashoko aya Baba, pakukoka uku, pfungwa dzangu dzakazadzwa neruzivo rwemunyori wayo. Ndichiona maari kukwana kusingagumi uye kusingatsananguriki, ndichiona maari changamire kunaka kwangu, ndakanzwa mweya wangu wabatwa, wapindwa nekuvapo kwake, uye moyo wangu uchipfuta nemoto werudo rwake, pamwe nechishuwo chekumutora pasina magumo. Kubva panguva iyoyo, uyo ainyanya kufara muupenyu hwangu, ndakamupa rukudzo rwekuva kwangu uye chibayiro chemunhu wangu wose. Ndaishuvira neshungu kuti ndife pakarepo kuti ndiione uye ndive nayo nokukurumidza, kana kuti ndirarame chete kuishumira nokuida. Haiwa, Mwari wangu, ndakati kwaari, imwi Mwari womoyo wangu nomweya wangu wose, imwi  munoziva

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onai kuti ndinoda kuva wenyu nesimba rakadii. nokuti ndinonzwawo kuti mwoyo wangu, iro basa rako, wakagadzirirwa iwe chete, uye kuti haungambowani zororo kunze kwako! Kuti nyika yakashata uye inoshoreka,

kuenzanisa kwerunako rwako uye yako isinga taurike kukwana! Ndinozviramba  kubva panguva ino; Ndinozviramba nokusingaperi, kuti ndifunge pamusoro penyu moga, imi Mwari wangu; Ndivanaani musimboti wangu  nomugumo wangu.

Pakarepo chiono chakanyangarika, uye chikandisiya ndiri mumanzwiro nendangariro dzandakanga ndisina kana muedzo wokuratidza kune ani zvake: Mwari akanga aisa mandiri, pachinhu ichi, ungwaru hwokuti vana venguva ino havakwanisi. neni muinopfuura musangano mumwe umo ndakavanda (x), pasina nhamburiko ipi neipi, kuvabereki vangu ndimene, uko nenzira yomuzvarirwo ndaifanira kunge ndakakurumidza kuvaudza. Vakanga vasina ruzivo; uye kunyange zvakadaro, nguva iri yose yavakataura kwandiri pamusoro paMwari kuti andidzidzise minyengetero yangu kana kuti katekisimo yangu, nguva iri yose yavaitaura kwandiri pamusoro paJ.-C. kana kuti Utatu Hutsvene, ndaigara ndichiyeuka chiono ichocho chokutanga. : Anofanira kunge ari Mwari mumwe chete akanaka wandakaona, uye ndiani yakambotaura mupasi rino rakanaka, uye raipenya uye richipenya zvakanyanya. Ah! Ndaizofara zvikuru kuiona uye kuinzwa zvakare! Ndingada zvikuru sei kuramba ndichimuziva! asi pamusoro pezvose mufaro wakadii, dai ndaigona rimwe zuva kuva muridzi wayo! Saka ini akataura mukati; asi handina kumbozvitaura kunze kwangu; vabereki vangu vangadai vasina kuzvinzwisisa, uye ndakanga ndisina kana chido chiduku chokutaura  navo nezvazvo.

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Kuonekwa kwemazimbe anopfuta, mufananidzo weChechi yenguva yekupedzisira.

Haisiyo nguva chete yandakaitirwa nyasha naMwari ndichiri mudiki kudaro. Ndakanga ndichiri, ndinotenda, kuchena kwangu kwese kwerubhabhatidzo, pandakava neuyu muonero wandakataura nezvawo kwamuri kune imwe nzvimbo, uye waimiririra, nemarasha anopisa akakomberedzwa nedenderedzwa rechiedza, mamiriro eChechi. mazuva, maererano netsananguro yandakagamuchira kubva ipapo, uye yandakupa nhoroondo mukutaura nezvekutambudzwa kweChechi. Zvichida, Baba vangu, uye zvichida Mwari, vangadai vakaramba vachindipa zviratidzo zvinonzwisisika zvepredilection yakasununguka, kana kurutivi rwangu ndakanga ndaramba ndakatendeka kwavari, ndichichengetedza nguva dzose nyasha dzekubhabhatidzwa kwangu: Asi, maiwe! ndiko here kuti chivi chakauya zvisingaoneki kuzokanganisa kutengeserana kwakanaka kudaro,

Kusava nehanya uye kusavimbika kweSista; kubvuma kuti akaita zvikanganiso kubva paudiki hwake.

Chisikwa chinosuruvarisa, ndakashandisa mutsa wake zvisina kunaka! Saka denga rakabvisa zvipo zvaro sezvo ruvengo rwakabata pfungwa dzangu nekukanganisa kuda kwangu! Chokwadi ndechechokwadi kuti kuona kwaMwari kunobva pakuchena kwemwoyo chete, unyoro hwake chete kune kusava nemhosva, uye kujairana kwake chete nekuvimbika kunyasha idzo kunaka kwake kunotiyambira! Kure nekuita, sezvaaida kwandiri, kushandiswa kutsvene uye kwakakodzera kwechikonzero changu chekuzvarwa, ndakaregeredza kufunga nezvake, kumunamata, kumuda, kunyengetera kwaari, kutendeudzira pfungwa dzangu dzekutanga kwaari. pamusoro pemutemo wayo nekukwana kwayo kutsvene, uye nekukumikidza kwairi mafambiro ekutanga emwoyo wangu. Mhosva uye kusava nehanya kunouraya!... Kusatendeka kwekutanga, uko munhu angangozvitora sezviduku-duku, zvisingakoshi izvo munhu asingatombofaniri kutaura nezvazvo, ini Ndakabva ndaziva kuti aya anonzi madiki akanga ari kusavimbika chaiko, izvo zvakakwezva vamwe vakawanda nokutanga kutonhodza mwoyo wangu pamusoro paMwari, uye ipapo mwoyo waMwari maererano neni. Fatal origin! kutevedzana kunosuruvarisa!

Ndakanzwa rudado rwakati ruchitora nzvimbo yekutaura pachena uye nyore; pasina nguva huipi hwakatanga kubata matongo ekusava nemhosva kwangu pamwe chete nomufaro wangu. Nenguva diki ndakaita chisimbwa, ndisingateereri, ndisingateereri inzwi raamai vangu, avo dzimwe nguva vaizviona vamanikidzwa kundiranga pamwoyo yavo: Ndakatora kururamisa kwavo kwazvo zvokuti, kure nokubatsirwa nazvo, ndakanga ndisiri munhu akaipa zvikuru. ; Ndaimuvenga uye ndakatsamwira vana vamai vangu pavakandituka. Ndakanyepa kuti ndizviregerere, ndakati: Chokwadi, muhana, ichi ichokwadi, sokundiona kunoita Mwari, nezvimwewo .

Pavakada kundiyambuka uye kunyanya kundiranga, ndakasviba nehasha; izvo zvakasuruvarisa amai vangu varombo kusvika padanho rekupedzisira, vakanga vasingazivi nzira yokururamisa ichi chikanganiso chakashata. Ndakaramba ndichizviisa pasi pazvo kusvikira chiitiko icho Mwari, uyo anoziva nzira yokubudisa nayo zvakanaka kubva pane zvakaipa panguva yaanoda, pasina mubvunzo akabvumira nokuda kwomutsa nokuda kwangu. Zvino zvakaitika kuti rimwe zuva ndakaona murume akatakurwa nehasha, sezvandakanga ndaita nguva zhinji; chiso chake chakanga chakashata zvikuru; uye kutaura idi ndakakatyamadzwa nazvo, zvokuti kubvira panguva iyoyo ndakatsunga kusambozvipa ndimene kukuchiva ikoko kwakashatirwa, kusina kufanira mweya, uko kunofanira kwose kwose kumirira unyoro nomufananidzo waJ.-C., muenzaniso wake.

Kudemba kwake; kutya kwake uye chivimbo chake.

Pasinei nekuda kuita zvakaipa kwakawanda, ndaiwanzosangana nematambudziko emukati, kushushikana kusingaite, izvo pasina mubvunzo zvaive mhedzisiro ye

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Nyasha dzandakachengetwa naJ.-C.: fungidziro dzine chiuru pachangu, mafambiro akanaka ane chiuru akandidana kuti ndidzokere kuna Mwari ndisingaregi. Dzimwe nguva ndainzwa ndazadzwa nekutya kusamufadza uye kusamuda sezvandakanga ndamuvimbisa, dzimwe nguva nokuparadzana naye rimwe zuva nokusingaperi; Ndakatya kusvikira kumwero wokupedzisira kushamiswa norufu mumugariro wakashata, uye uyu mufungo worufu nemiuyo yarwo isingadzivisiki, uku kutya kunofadza marutongeso aMwari kwakanga kuri nzira yokutanga kupfurikidza nayo uyu Mwari worunako, ane vazhinji kwenguva refu kwazvo. akarwa nekupokana kwangu, akazvishandisa kukunda.

Vamwe vatadzi vangani vakawana kusimba kweichi chombo chinokunda chiri mumaoko ake!

Mukunyadziswa uku, zvinhu zvose zvakandityisa: ruzha, dutu, kurova kwebhanan'ana, kupenya kwemheni, zvakandiita kuti ndidedere. Ndakadedera apo mutongo mukuru wakanga woda kutanga ndisati ndawana nguva yokuzvigadzirira; Dzimwe nguva ndaimhanya kunovanda mune imwe kona yakavanda, kuti ndidzivise kudanwa ikoko; Ndakabatwa nechiveve nekutya kuzviona ndatongerwa kwazviri, uye handina kukwanisa, pasina kubvunda, kufunga mugumo wemweya uyo uchava nenhamo yokurasikirwa naMwari wavo nokusingaperi. Mufarwai unogona kufarikanya chisikwa chine hana inokangaidzwa nokudaro? Asi nhamo yakakura zvikuru, nyika inosuruvarisa zvikuru, kana munhu achigara muhurumende uye tsika yokupara mhosva pasina kunzwa kunetseka kana kuzvidemba: izvi ndizvo zvakawanda zvokutya mubati wehove.

Pfungwa imwe chete yakandisimbisa zvishoma: Ndakazviudza kuti Mwari wemasimbaose akanga azviratidza uye akataura neni pasi pose akanga akanaka kwazvo maari uye aiita seanondida zvakanyanya zvokusada kundirasikirwa zvachose.

Pandiri pamberi pake, pakutonga kwake, ndakati, Ndichamukumbirisa kuti atendeuke agoita seanomanikidzwa kuti andiregerere. Ndichakuudzai  , Baba, kuti tariro iyi yakagara ichinditsigira pakutya kupi nokupi kwandingave kwakanyanyisa; hongu, tariro iyi yakabatanidzwa nekutya inondiita kuti nditarise kuoneka uku kwekutanga senyasha dzinokosha kwazvo dzeruponeso kwandiri, iyo yakave nepesvedzero huru pane yese yehupenyu hwangu hwemukati, nekuva semusimboti we dzimwe nyasha dzose dzinobva kudenga.

Kukwezvwa kwake kubva paudiki pakuzvipira kuSakaramende Yakaropafadzwa.

Zvinofanira kutaurwa kwamuri, mukufamba, Baba vangu, kuti Mwari vakafemera mandiri mukutanga uye muhupenyu hwangu hwese chaiyo yekuzvipira kuSakaramende Yakaropafadzwa kwazvo yeAtari; kubva paudiki ndainzwa mafungiro anoshamisa, kusvika panguva iyoyo ndakanga ndisingakwanisi kupfuura pamberi petabernakeri paigara kuvapo chaiko kwemutumbi waJ. chakavanzika chakadzama. Kanopfuura kamwe muchechi ndakazviratidzira ndimene kukusekwa kwavana, vane muenzaniso wakanditungamirira kukusaremekedza apo ndakamirira muprista aizotidzidzisa; Vakaseka vachindiseka zvisina basa, ndaifanira kutarisana navo nekukasira kuvabvisa mhosva yavainge vandiita,

Zvino hana yangu yakati yandishora pamusoro pechinhu chidukuduku, ipapo ndakazviwana ndasungwa mutembere tsvene; simba risingakundiki rakaita seraindirambidza nzvimbo tsvene uye kundirambidza kusvika paatari. Maiwe! Baba vangu, idzi nyasha dzechiratidzo dzakapihwa kuvanhu vashoma, kutarisisa kwakanyatso cherechedzwa neRubatsiro rwakanyanya, hakuna kunaka; vanongoshanda kupa hutsotsi hwakawanda uye kusava nechikonzero chekusatenda kwangu kune munyori wezvakawanda zvakanaka, uye zvitadzo zvisingaverengeki zvandave nemhosva pakuvapo kwechokwadi kweMuponesi anodiwa uyu muSakaramende Yakaropafadzwa kwazvo ye'atari.

Dai kureurura kwandinako pamusoro penyika kugadzirise kubwinya kwayo kwakagumburwa, nekudzima kutsamwa kwayakagamuchira kubva kwairi! dai Ngirozi neVatendi vagadzirisa kwaari, uye vagomutsiva neshungu dzerudo rwavo nekusingaperi!

Hezvino zvatowanda, sezvamunoona, Baba, zvehupenyu hwangu hwemukati hunosiririsa; pano patova nenyasha dzakawanda dzinoshamisa kubva kudivi raMwari, pasina kana tsamba dzipi nedzipi kubva kwandiri. Naizvozvo kwatova nekusavimbika kwakawanda nekusatenda kwakawanda, kune zvitadzo zvakawanda zvakaitwa, izvo zvandichakurumidza kuzoita kuzvidavirira kumutongi wangu. Asi isu hatisati tasvika pamagumo ekusavimbika uku uye mhosva idzi: maiwe! kwenguva refu ichauya ivo vacharamba vachiwedzera. Sezvo muchida kunzwa zvese zvese, mangwana, kana muchida, kana manheru ano, tichaenderera mberi; uyezve basa rangu rinondidaidza kumwewo panguva ino. Farai henyu baba ndiregerereiwo ndinyengeterewo.

Kukanganisa kwekureurura kwake uye kwechirairo chake chekutanga. Migumisiro yakaipa kumweya wake.

“Muzita raBaba, roMwanakomana neroMweya Mutsvene. Kuburikidza naJesu naMaria,

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uye nemuzita reUtatu hunoyemurika, ndinoteerera. »

Baba vangu, amai vakaongorora hana yangu ndokunditora kuti ndinoreurura, asi kutya kwandaiita kutukwa namhamha vangu kwakaita kuti ndivanzire hafu yezvivi zvangu, kunyanya kusateerera kwandaiita amai vangu. Ndakaitwa kudya chirairo pazera ramakore mapfumbamwe nehafu. Kwakanga kuri nokukurumidza zvikuru mukufunga kwangu, uye ndakanga ndine chikonzero chokuzvidemba. Sezvo hapana chandaitya zvikuru sokusungirwa, maererano netsika yakajairika, kupa zvikonzero uye kunyange kukumbira ruregerero kuna amai vangu ndisati ndadya chirairo, ndakaenda kwasara mwedzi kuti ndireurure zvose izvo hana yangu yaindishora pamusoro pake; asi mune izvi ndakanga ndichitarisira zvandaida kudzivisa: Mwari akabvumira mureurura wangu kuti andiedze uye akandirayira kuti ndikumbire ruregerero uye ndichinje maitiro angu kwaari.

Haiwa munhu ari bofu uye asingafari sei zvikurukuru pazera rino! Handingambozviunza ndimene kukugutsikana kwakarurama uye kuri madikanwa; uye kuwedzera kunhamo yangu, kutya kurambwa, kwakakodzerawo, kwakaita kuti ndivanze zvose izvi pandakagamuchira kuregererwa. Naizvozvo ndakataura ndiri muchimiro ichi ndichipesana nokudemba kwehana yangu, iyo kubva panguva iyoyo yakatanga kurova. Sky ! Haiwa ndangariro iyi inovava sei! Ndichava nemisodzi yakakwana here, uye upenyu hwangu huchakwanisa here kuzvidza chikanganiso chakadaro uye zvose izvo zvakanga zviri migumisiro yayo ine ngwavaira?

Kubva panguva ino, Baba vangu, hapasisina nyasha dzinobva kudenga, hapasisina nyaradzo yemukati, kana rugare kana kugutsikana! Mufaro wangu wese wainge wapera nekuita kwainge kuri kupedzisa uye kubatsira zvakanyanya kuita kuti ive nekusingaperi. Tinonzwisa urombo sei apo tinowana rufu mumanyuko oupenyu, uye apo icho chinofanira kutitsvenesa chinobatira bedzi kutiita kuti tive vane mhaka zvikuru kupfuura zvataiva kare! Iyi nyika inosuruvarisa yakatora makore anopfuura mashanu ekufa, mukati mayo kushandiswa, ruremekedzo rwevanhu uye uhama hweRosary, iyo yandakanyoreswa uye yandakashungurudza, yakaita kuti ndiite zvitsvene zvakawanda izvo zvandichiri kutya, uye zvandinazvo. chikonzero chakanaka chekutya.

Kure nekudzikira, zvakadaro, zvishuvo zvangu, sezvamunofanira kufungidzira, zvaingowana simba idzva nekuwedzera zuva nezuva. Dhimoni racho rakanga rine chikonzero chakanaka chokuombera nokukunda. Zvichida mwoyo wangu ungadai wakawira mukuoma, dai nyasha dzakakosha dzisina kundichengetedza kubva mugomba rakadzika iri nekuzvidemba kukuru kwandakanzwa pamusoro pangu, uye izvo zvisina kundipa rugare kana runyararo. Zvaiita sekuti pane imwe neimwe nhanho ndainzwa mukati mezwi richitaura kwandiri nenzwi rakaomarara: Waitei, iwe mukadzi usingafari, uye unoda kuva chii? hauna kuteerera J.-C. kana mai; wakanyengera mureururi wako; kureurura kwenyu hakuna, chirairo chako chakaipa; iwe hauna rudo rwaJ.C.: mushure mekutariswa kwakawanda uye mabhenefiti kubva kwaari, munogara muchizvidzwa naMwari wenyu; uye kana wakaita nhamo yekufa uri muchimiro ichi, unoendepi, nhamo! Ah! gehena ndiwo uchava mugove wako nokusingaperi. Asi ndizvo zvamakavimbisa Mwari wenyu here? izvi ndizvo zvaaive nekodzero yekutarisira mushure mezvikomborero zvakawanda kubva kwaari here?

Masikati neusiku kushora kukuru uku kwakanzwika mukati-kati memweya wangu.

Zvakandinetsa zvekuti chero nekuzvikudza kwandaiita, rimwe zuva ndakaerekana ndazviwisira pasi nemabvi angu patsoka dzaamai vangu ndiine chinangwa chokuzviranga kuti ndakanga ndisina kukurumidza kudaro. Amai vangu vakashamiswa nedanho rangu iri zvekuti, zvisinei nemanzwiro andaive ndavaisa mavari nekuramba kwangu, vakaramba vakavhiringidzika kundiona pamberi pavo uye vaisaziva kuti zvairevei...

Akatendeuka uye akareurura zvakajairika pachiitiko chejubheri kana plenary indulgence. Zvibereko zvaanowana kubva kwazviri. Kuzvininipisa kureurura nhamo dzake.

Uku kukunda kwekutanga pachangu kwakatanga kundisimbisa zvishoma; asi zvose hazvina kuitwa, ukuwo gore rejubheri guru kana kuti kuregererwa kukuru kweChechi kwakasvika: akanga ari mumwe weshamwari dzangu, akanga auya kuzotiona, uyo akatizivisa kuti zvakanga zvatsinhirwa paruwa. Mashoko akanaka, ndakadanidzira! Ah! ndakagwinya sei! Ndiri kuerekana ndaita kureurura kuzere uye kutendeuka pachangu zvachose uye zvizere. Ndichinzwa mashoko aya baba vakabva vatanga kuseka. Tiri pano, zvisinei, akadanidzira, uye tichaona zvinhu zvakaisvonaka! mwanasikana wedu Jeannette achatendeuka oreurura  zvakazara. Notre-Dame, hazvingavi zvishoma, uye vapristi vachangoshamiswa; 

Baba vangu vaindida mumwechete, uye pfungwa yakanaka yavaiva nayo pamusoro pangu haina kuvabvumira kuti vafunge kuti ndaida kutendeuka kana kuti.

kureurura kwose. Maiwe! Ndakanyatsonzwa chokwadi chakazara cheichi chinodikanwa. Hongu baba ndakavapindura kuti ndinoda kutendeuka nenyasha dzaMwari uye ndinovimba kuti mushure mazvo ndichava nani pane zvandanga ndaita. Tichaona zvichaitika, vabereki vangu vakatangazve ...

Jubheri parakangovhurwa, ndakanga ndisisina chimwe chinhu mumwoyo mangu kana kuti chimbichimbi kunze kwokuenda ndinozvikanda patsoka dzamushakabvu M. Maillard, aiva mutungamiriri weruwa rwedu (Janson chapel).

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Baba vangu, ndakati kwavari, pakusvika ndinokumbira kwamuri netsitsi kuti ndireurure hupenyu hwangu hwose, nokuti handifariri vose vandaita kusvikira zvino... Akandinzwa. kutarisa uye kundibatsira zvakanyanya. Paakazondibvunza kuti kutya kurohwa naamai ndainge ndaramba kuteerera mureurura wangu here, ndakamupindura nyangwe zvazvo ndisina simba, mhinduro yakanga isati yakwana. Kwakanga kuchiri kakuzvivanza izvo ndakanga ndichiri kupfidza, kunyange zvazvo zvakanga zvisina kunyanyokosha semhosho yokutanga yandakanga ndaita.

Jubheri rangu rakanga ratanga kundidzorera kwandiri: Panguva iyoyo ndakanga ndava nemakore angangoita gumi nemashanu kana gumi nematanhatu (1).

Jubheri iri rinotaurwa naHanzvadzi, uye ravaiva naro pazera remakore gumi namashanu kana gumi nematanhatu, rinofanira kunge rakaitika muna 1746 kana 1747; nokuti akazvarwa mumwedzi waNdira 1731. Tinoziva jubheri rekusarudzwa kwaBenedict XIV muna 1740, rinoenderana nechirairo chekutanga cheSista pazera ramakore mapfumbamwe nehafu, uye jubheri guru renyika muna 1751, Hanzvadzi yaakataura nenguva isipi, uye akazviita aine makore makumi maviri. Hatizivi akapendwa yaari kutaura nezvake pano. Naizvozvo zvinofanirwa kutaurwa kuti musikana akanaka uyu mukusaziva kwake akavhiringidza jubheri guru nejubheri diki rakapihwa diocese yeRennes, chero chiitiko chatisingazive, kana zvimwe kupfuura. pamwe zvakare neruremekedzo uye neruremekedzo rwuya rwunowanikwa nenzira yejubheri pakupera kwehushumiri, uye nenyika iyo vanhu vakajaira kupa zita rejubheri. Uyezve, kukanganisa uku, kana kuti kushaikwa kwekutaura kwakanaka kweSista, hapana chaanoita pazasi pezvinhu zvaanotiudza nekusaziva uye nyore  .

Kubva ipapo zvichienda mberi, Mwari akaita seanoswedera kwandiri, mukuenzana uye mukuenzana sezvandaiswedera kwaari, kana kuti, oh Mwari wangu! ndiwe wakange watora danho rekutanga, uye, mukudarika kwerudo rwako, wakanditsvaka munzira dzose; uyo akanga aita zvose zvaaigona kuti andihwine zvakare! Asi zvinosuruvarisa! O Mwari werunako! nguva yekutendeuka kwangu kwakakwana yakanga isati yasvika, uye wanga wakakwana kuti uzvimirire nemoyo murefu, uye nekutsungirira kusvika panguva iyoyo kusatendeka kwandava kutsvuka, uye hunhu hunofanira kunge husingatsungirike kwauri. Chii chinofanira kunge chakabhadhara rudo rwako panguva iyi yakareba uye yekunonoka kwematsotsi!

Zvose zvandiri kukuudzai pano baba, vakadaro sisi, zvose zvandichiri kukuudzai, handingaite zvishoma mundizivise kwamuri; kunenge kwatova kufambira mberi kukuru kwekureurura kwese kwandinoda kuita kwamuri, kana Mwari akandipa nguva uye nzira. Panguva ino, ndinonzwa ndichida, nokukuteererai, kugadzirisa mufambiro wangu wekare, sezvazvichava musimba rangu. Ngazvizikanwe, nokureurura kwangu, kuti inyasha dzaMwari dzakaita sei neni, kubva mugomba rakadii tsitsi dzake dzakandinunura, uye ngazvizikanwe kuti ndine chikwereti chakadii kwaari mune zvese. Ah! pasina kupokana, mweya yakatendeka ichaona nekukatyamara nekuyemura, kune rumwe rutivi, kusavimbika kwakawanda, kumukira, kusatenda nekusuwa; pane imwe, mutsa wakawanda, moyo murefu, tsvakurudzo uye ushamwari. Dai Mwari worudo akanganwa zvandiri kuda kukuudzai, uye musambondiranga nokuda kwazvo! asi iye ngaawane kukudzwa kwairi, uye wokwake awane kuvakwa kwake! Yakaiswa pakati pekufungidzira uye kuzvidza, nyaya yangu ngaichengete kanenge asina hanya anozvifumura, uye kudzivirira kubva pakuora mwoyo avo vakawirwa nenjodzi. kudonha!

Ndiwo muchero unodikanwa kwazvo uyo munhu angatarisira....

Kwemakore maviri akazara ndakanga ndaravira muchero wekureurura kwangu; rugare, kugadzikana kwakanaka kwehana yangu, kwakanga kwandibvumira kudzoka murudo kuna Mwari uye kurangarira zvakakomba pachangu. Ndakafarira zvikuru kuimba nziyo dzemweya uye nekuverenga mabhuku ekunamata; nokuti ndakanga ndadzidza kurava, sezvinoita munhu munyika, ndiko kuti, zvakakwana nokuda kworudzi urwu rwokurava. Ndaida kushamwaridzana nevasikana vakanaka uye kukurukura  nezvekunamata  . zvigadziro  izvo

zvaiita sokuti zvaizivisa chimwe chinhu chakasiyana chaizvo nezvakaitika. Ndakanga ndakanyanyisa kuna amai vangu, avo, zvisinei, ndakaramba zvakare, asi mumamiriro ezvinhu ayo, ndinotenda, akaita kuti mhosva yangu, kana iripo, iregerererwe kupfuura kare. Hezvino mamiriro ezvinhu aya, kuti mugone kutonga nezvawo:

Kufanana nehanzvadzi yangu duku, kazhinji ndakanga ndiine utera hwokubetsera amai vedu mumiitiro yokudavira mashura yakakurumbira

vanhu venyika. Paitova nechakaipa pazviri, kunyange zvazvo kwaiva kusiri kuda kwaamai vangu. Rimwe zuva zvakanyatsouya kwandiri kuti pane chigumbu kuna Mwari mumuitiro uyu. Hana yangu yakabva yangorova ndikaramba. Amai vangu ndakavataurira pachena kuti handivateerere nokuti ndaiona chivi pachiri.

; hanzvadzi yangu yakatevera muenzaniso wangu. Ndainge ndatarisira kuti ndaizowana mashoko mashoma kubva kuna amai vangu. Kwete, akaramba akanyarara, uye akazvigutsa nekutaura kwandiri zvinyoro-nyoro: Zvakanaka, mwanasikana wangu, ndichataura nemutungamiriri wangu nezvazvo, uye kana paine chivi mune izvozvo, hatichazviita zvakare. Akandireurura sezvo ainge azvireurura uye kuti ainge azviitira ruregerero. Saka, Baba vangu, chinangwa nechiitiko zvakagara zvichindinyaradza pakusateerera kwekupedzisira kwaamai vangu uku.

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Kufa kwababa vake; kutsauka kubva paudiki hwake.

Panenge panguva iyi kufa kwababa vangu murombo kwakaitika, izvo zvakandirwadza zvikuru uye zvakaita kuti ndibude misodzi yakawanda; nokuti ndaimuda chaizvo. Ndakatora mukana uyu kudzoka zvakanyanya mandiri uye kufunga nezvekuchengetedza ruponeso rwangu rwenguva yemberi. Saka, Baba vangu, makore maviri aya kubva pandakadzokera kuna Mwari, ndisina kuratidzwa nenyasha dzipi nedzipi, akanga apfuura zvakanaka uye akapa tariro yeramangwana; paisava nemukana wekuti nguva iyi yaizoteverwa nemaitiro aizoita kuti ndikanganwe zvachose Mwari wangu uye maitiro angu ekutanga kwaari.

Ndakanga ndava kuswedera kumakore angu makumi maviri, nguva yakaoma yezvakanaka, kana yakafumurwa; nguva yenjodzi apo kuchiva kunozviita nesimba; uye Mwari anoziva kuti ndakakurumidza sei kukombwa naro. Ndaiva mudiki, ndakasimba uye ndaibva pazera rekushanda. Sezvo zvaisaita kuti ndirarame ndisina rubatsiro urwu, ndaifanira kuzviwana ndichishanda kumaruwa nepwere dzevarume nevakadzi, vakasununguka zvikuru muzviito uye kunyanya nemashoko. Nezvishuwo zvine upenyu sedzangu, ko musikana mudiki wezera iro asina kuoneswa mumhando iyi yebasa nemafaro, kunyanya kana dhimoni retsvina rikapinda! uye haimbokundikani kuva, chikamu. Haiwa nhaurirano dzadhiabhorosi dzine ngozi sei! kuti  mitambo

uye kuseka kwavanoita imhosva, uye kuti vaya vanozviita vanenge vaine mhosva vasingazvizivi!

Ndakanzwa achiramba achidzokorora munzeve dzangu aya mazwi akasviba ane dudziro mbiri, aya mazwi asina kuchena kana equivocal ayo akaita mufungidziro yangu mirangariro yakaipa kwazvo kubva kwakaitika kuti zvese zvakava nengozi kwandiri, kunyangwe zvinhu zvisina basa. Nzeve dzangu dzaigara dzichirohwa nehana uye dzakasvibiswa nemashoko eutere emarudzi ose. Dzimwe nguva mashoko ekunyomba, dzimwe nguva kunyomba, dzimwe nguva kunyomba kana mishumo yenhema, uye kunenge nguva dzose kusachena kwaiita kuti nhaurirano dzevadiki ava vakasununguka. Tongai kuti dhiabhorosi akazvishandisa sei kwandiri!

Pakutanga ndaida kumira ndakasimba; asi kusimba kwangu hakuna kugara kwenguva refu parukova rwemuenzaniso wakaipa uye pamusoro pezvose pamusoro pechimwe chido chekufadza uye kugamuchirwa, ruremekedzo rwemunhu rwakaita kuti nditye senhamo huru kuonekwa neziso rakaipa, kunzi munhu munyengeri, munyengeri kana mupi wenhema.

Saka, rudado neruremekedzo rwevanhu ndizvo zvombo zviviri zvakashandiswa nadhiyabhorosi kuda kuparadza zvachose mukurumbira uyu wekuzvininipisa wandakanga ndadada nawo kusvika ipapo. Ichokwadi kuti nenzira yomuzvarirwo hatidi kuzviona timene tichirambwa uye tichizvidzwa nevatinogara navo uye vatinofanira kurarama navo. Zvishoma nezvishoma nzeve dzangu dzakange dzajaira kunzwa mashoko akashata uye ekushaya nyadzi izvo zvakambondipedza simba. Muromo wangu wakatojaira kudzidzokorora. Sezvineiwo, ndakava kunyomba, godo, kusaita, kunyange zvazvo ndakanga ndichiri nokuzengurira uye nokumwe mwero. Zvishuwo zvakange zvapofumadza kunzwisisa kwangu zvekuti handina kusiyanisa dzidziso dzekutanga dzekutenda, kufunga, uye njere. Somuenzaniso, ndakafunga kuti iye pakanga pasina chakaipa mukuchera muvakidzani, chero bedzi uko kunotaura chokwadi bedzi. Saka, ndaitya kunyomba chete, uye ndakabvisa kuchera pahuwandu zvivi  Zvisinei kunaka kwangu kwakawanikwa

ainyanya kudiwa, nokuti akanga asina hasha zvishoma, kureva kuti, akabviswa pahuipi. Nokudaro, maererano nekushandiswawo zvakwo, ndaifungidzirwa kuva munhu akanaka zvikuru mukuenzana sezvo ndaiva muduku.

Zvidemba zvake. Mufananidzo wakajeka wengozi idzo pwere dzisina ruzivo dzinoratidzirwa kwadziri, zvikurukuru pamusoro pokuchena.

Kudenga kwakanaka! chii chandaisagona kupa, dai nyasha dzainge dzandisiya zvachose! uye mumamiriro ezvinhu anotyisa sei chisikwa chinofanira kunge chisina kufara pamberi paMwari, hana yakapofumadzwa zvakakwana kuti ibatisise kusunungurwa chete kubva kunze kwemhosva,

iyo yemukati (ndinoreva yepfungwa, pamwe yekuda), iyo inoita hukuru hwese pamberi pemeso hwakachena kwazvo  hweKusingaperi  !.  Ungazvitenda here ,

Baba vangu, uye avo kunyanya avo, munyika, vachiri kutevera hurongwa hwakadaro hwekuzvibata, havangatore zvese izvi nekuda kwekuwedzeredza kwehana iyo inovhunduka zvisina kufanira uye isina chero njodzi! Ah! Ndinovatsiura, kuti vasiye kwechinguvana chirevo chakadai, kuti vafunge neni zvinodikanwa kumweya wechiKristu nehunhu hwawo uye nerubatsiro rwese rwauinarwo kurudo rwaMwari wawo, uye ndinotsunga kuti. vanodavira kuti havazokwanisi kubatsira kubvuma kuti ndakararama, sezvavanoita ivo pachavo, muupofu hunouraya zvokuti zvingatoda misodzi yeropa kuichema (1).

(1) Zvisinei nengozi uye kukuvadza kuna Mwari mamiriro aya aive mazviri ayo sisita anozvishora, uye anozvipomera pano nekutendeuka kwakawanda, kana tikanyatsotarisisa kwazviri, tichaona kuti nyasha uye kutya. waIshe wakamuchengeta nguva dzose kune dzimwe miganhu; zvekuti haana kumbopa, handitauri mukuchema kwakawandisa, asi mune chero mhosva kana chiito chemhosva zvakafanira kudaidzwa. Anozvifungira pachake kana akambova nechido chokugumbura Mwari; tinogona kukahadzika sezvaakaita. Chii chiri chokwadi ndechekuti uhwu hupofu hunouraya, idzi zvikanganiso zvinokonzeresa, zvikanganiso izvi, kusatenda uku, mhosva idzi.iyo yaanoshoora neshungu huru, ingangopfuura yezvakanaka mumaziso evanhu vakawanda munyika vanogara chinyararire uye vasingazvidembi mutsika dzakawanda dzeutsotsi. Musiyano uyu unobva kupi? Ndezvokuti rudo uye kutya Ishe zvinoona, nemwenje wekutenda, mhosva huru, kusatenda kunopandukira, uko mweya wenyika unowana chete zvidiki nemarara. Pavaviri ava ndeupi asina kururama?

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Hongu, Baba, ndinodzokorora, hupofu hwangu hunouraya hwasvika pakuverenga zvivi zvemukati sepasina. Ndakatenda chaizvoizvo, somuenzaniso, kuti kwaizova kwakaoma kuba, kutsiva  . Ndakafunga kuti pane chivi  mukati

kudhakwa kana kuita tsvina mune chero chiito; asi handina kutenda kuti chaive chinhu chakashata kutaura nezvazvo nekuzvidira mukati mangu, kunze kwekunge munhu akamira ipapo, sezvandakaita, uye kuti mumwe asina kuuraya chero chinhu kunze, nezvimwe ....

Kune chii, ndinobvunza zvakare, hachiratidzirwe zuva rega rega musikana murombo asingazivi, asina mumwe mutemo wekuita kunze kwenheyo dzenhema dzakadaro?

uye zvinokuvadza? Chii chaachapikisa kune njodzi dzinopihwa nenyika padanho rega rega? nekuti misungo mizhinji sei yakateyiwa kuchena kwake! Marwa mangani ekutsigira! Kusangana kungani uko dhimoni retsvina risingazive kutora mukana wekurwisa husimba hwake husina kusimba!...

Zvifeve, vaduku navakuru, vachamurwisa munzira dzose, uye vachafamba munzira dzose kuti vakunde kusasimba kwake uye mukunde pakuzvininipisa kwake. Vachatarira kufamba kwake namashoko ake; vachadzidza zvaanoda; vachanyepedzera kutora rutivi rwake, kupinda mumaonero ake ose, kufarira zvirongwa zvake, uye kuti kungozvipinza nani muushamwari hwake, nokutora nzvimbo yake isina simba. Kana iine hunhu, vanokwereta chifukidzo chayo uye vanoedza kuita chikamu chayo; kana isingamaka chero ipi zvayo, vacharatidza kuti havana hanya nayo uye vachataura kuti munhu wose anofanira kusununguka pachinyorwa ichi uye kuti hapana anofanira kuvhiringidzwa. Kana zvichiratidza kumwe kusemesa, kumwe kuvenga umwari, havazokundikani kurumbidza chimiro chakanyanya kuvanakira.

Hongu Baba, uye ngaparege kuva nemunhu anopokana kwechinguvana, hapana mavara anopikisa uye anopokana sehure rine ruzivo. anoedza kubudirira: kana akacherechedza pamusoro pezvose, sezvandambotaura, kuti munhu ane pfungwa yekuve asingadaviri, haazokundikani kutsvedza kusava nechokwadi maari, nekurwisa pamberi pake chokwadi chakakosha chekutenda, dzidziso dzayo. kutenda kunokosha chose kuti munhu aponeswe: anyengetedzwa kuti haana nzira inoshanda inopfuura yokubvisa nokuparadza zvinotyisa zvorudzidziso, achazviseka zvikuru pamusoro pokutya hero kana kuti marutongeso aMwari; anozove naye akakomba kana kutamba, asina kungwara kana munyengeri, maererano sezvaanoona zvichinyanya kukosha kumazano ake, uye izvi ndizvo zvinofanirwa kutarisirwa kuvarume vese vari mubhizimusi iri, vari, maiwe! vakawanda zvikuru kupfuura zvinofungirwa nomunhu muzera rokusaziva noupofu.

Hongu, ava vasina hunhu vachabata zvakaipa zvese kamwechete, kuti vamunyengedze, chivako chake, kusaziva kwake, kusaziva kwake, kutenda kwake kwakanaka, kushuva kwake, kunyange urombo hwake, nekuisa ruponeso rwemweya wake, pamwe nehutsinye hwavo, mutengo wemari. Mienzaniso mingani iyo isina kuwanikwa nemunhu, uye ini handina ini mandiri! uye nyangwe hazvo, pasina kana munhu akamboenda kure nemaonero angu, ndichataura chinhu chimwe chete, chinosimbisa zvinenge zvese zvandichangobva kutaura. Ndiyo ngozi iri pachena zvikuru iyo rukudzo rwangu rwakamboratidzwa. Ndinokoka pwere dzisina ruzivo rwokuzviwanira kuti dzishandise; vachaona kuti vanoda  zvakadii

kuti vangwarire, kana vachida kuchengetedza pfuma inokosha yekusava nemhosva kwavo, uye kuti kazhinji vanofanira kuvimba chete, pane iyi pfungwa yakaoma, vanhu vashomanana, ndingati hapana. Asi Baba sezvo kwadoka nhasi, uye ndataura zvakwana, tichazvisendeka kusvika pachikamu chinotevera, kana musingade. Rega ndikusiye.

Hunhu hwake huri kurwiswa. Simba raanotiza naro kutiza ngozi.

“Muzita raBaba, roMwanakomana neroMweya Mutsvene. NaJesu etc. »

Mumusha medu makanga mune mumwe murume akafirwa, ane makore anopfuura makumi mashanu, aiva nomukurumbira wakanakisisa wouchenjeri nounyanzvi; angadai akaonekwa nomufaro somurume akanaka zvikuru uye muKristu akanakisisa muruwa rwose. Kwenguva yakati akanga ashanyira imba yababa vangu, uye nguva dzose ndaivapo; nekuti dai ndisipo,

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havawanzogumira ipapo. Pfungwa dzake hadzina kundigumbura. Panguva iyoyo ndaiva nemakore gumi nemasere kana gumi nemapfumbamwe, uye ndaitamba zvikuru. Unogona kutaura kuti handifanire kuvenga kambani yakatendeseka. Asina kuvharwa, murume uyu aitofara kupfuura ini; aindivaraidza nenjere dzake netunyaya tupfupi twaaiziva kutaura netwumwe twumwe twumwe twunhu twaiwedzera twumwe twunonhuwirira, asingambopfuuri miganhu yehunhu. Nokuti, Baba vangu, kunyanya panguva iyoyo, kusununguka kushoma pakutaura kwaizondipandukira; uye kana zvakakodzera kutaura zvazvakanakira nezvazvakaipira, ndinofanira kubvuma kuchokwadi kuti, hazviite hupenyu hwangu, ndakatambura kubva hakuna munhu kuita zvishoma, zvisinei zvishoma kushorwa, rusununguko rudiki, zvisinei zvishoma zvisina kunaka. Hongu, ndinogona kutaura kuti kujairana kusinganzwisisike kwaizobva kwaita kuti murume wechidiki adzingwe, izvo zvinofanirwa kunge zvakandidya mwoyo (1).

(1) Kureurura kwepachokwadi kweHanzvadzi uku kunokwana, mukuona kwangu, kuratidza patsoka ipi yatinofanira kutora zvinhu zvese zvakaipa zvaatotiudza nezvake, uye nezvaachiri kutiudza.

Murume akafirwa nemurume uyu akandiratidza hushamwari hwerudo rwakachena izvo hapana aifunga kumuitira zvakaipa pamba pake. Tese takafara nekambani yake. Ndiani angadai akati, Baba, kuti murume uyu wokusachenjera, akashandisa zvichemo zvizhinji, akaisa kutendeka kukuru pakuita kwake, wakange ane moyo wakaora; kuti aiva nechepasi pemweya wake dhizaini yakatsveyama, yandakanga ndisingazivi kana pfungwa, kuti vabereki vangu vangadai vakazvishora nokuda kwokufungira, uye zvichida, nhamo! kuti haana kuzviona here? Nokuti ndiani anganzwisisa upofu hwemunhu uye nhamo panyaya iyi, uye kuti zviri nyore sei uye zvakangojairika kuti azvinyengedze  ?...

Kangani kupenga chaiko kwakabatidza moto wataisaziva, kana kupfutidza moto wataifunga kuti wadzima; chakakonzera, pakupedzisira, mwoto, uko kwakasaratidzika kuti kwakanga kwave kune chikonzero chipi nechipi chokutya chinhu chipi nechipi! Zvakaoma zvikuru kuzviziva, uye anenge nguva dzose munhu anozviti ane mhosva shoma pane zvaari chaizvo.

Rimwe zuva akatora mukana wechinguvana amai vangu vasipo kuti andizevezera munzeve mamwe mazwi andakanga ndisinganzwisisi zvaanoreva, uye akawedzera mamwe masigns andaitonzwisisa zvishoma, zvekuti ndakabviswa pafungidziro yakaipa. pamusoro pake. Ndakaseka hangu, nokuti ndakanga ndichiseka, uye ndakazvitora zvose netsoka iyoyo. Kwakanga kuri kukanganisa kwandakaita; asi chikanganiso chacho chaiva chinhu chikuru kwandiri. Hwaive hunyoro kana hupenzi, sezvaunoda; asi munyengeri haana kunonoka kundiratidza kuti akanga atora nyaya yacho neimwe nzira, uye kuti akanga angozvitongesa oga. Kubva panguva iyoyo akangosora mukana wekundiwana ndiri ndega; akazvizivisa. Amai vangu vakanga vandituma mamwe mangwanani kuti ndinofudza mombe dzedu mudanga raiva pedyo nemusha wechirikadzi yedu. Akauya kuzondiwana ndiripo, ndokubvunza nhau dzangu, achiuya kwandiri nemhepo yejovi. Akasvikogara pedyo nepandaive ndakagara. Ndakangoona kuti akatarisa uye aitaura akasununguka kupfuura mazuva ese. Akanga achiri kuda kundisvotesa; asi kubhowekana kwake, kwakabatana nemamwe mashoko okunyomba, kwakandipa kunyumwira uye kwakaita kuti ndifungire vavariro dzake. Aida kundipa mari; akandipa zvipo; Ndakaramba zvose, ndichiti haana chikwereti neni; kuti ndakanga ndisingadi zvipo zvake, uye kuti ndakanga ndisingazivi chikonzero nei akandipa. akapa.

Ndichiri kunzvenga nzira yake, uye ndichidzinga mitambo yake yemaoko, ndakafunga kuti ndakanzwa mumwe munhu achiti kwandiri zvakasimba : Ibva pano, kana zvikasadaro ndichakusiya; tiza, tiza, nguva iri kupera uye njodzi yakakura pakusava nemhosva kwako ... Iri inzwi, iro rinonzwika kubva mukati memweya wangu, nekuvhura maziso angu zvachose kune ngozi, rakandipa, kuti ndizvidzivirire, kukurumidza kunoshamisa uye kusimba kwemuviri, izvo, ndinofunga, varume vatatu kana vana vaisagona kuva nazvo

kwete kudziviswa. Nekuedza kumwe chete ndakapukunyuka semheni kubva mumaoko enhamo iyi uyo chinangwa chake chakanga chisisina kujeka, sezvo aizvitaura  zvakajeka (1).

(1) Vamwe vaongorori vemabhuku ekunyorera vakandiudza kuti vawana chiitiko ichi chakanyatsotsanangurwa, pamwe nedzimwe nhoroondo dzezvakazarurwa zvine chekuita nechirevo chechitanhatu, njodzi dzewanano, nezvimwe. Ndinoruramisira kuchena kwevavariro dzavo, uye ndiri kure-kure nokuzvidza zano ravo; asi vachandibvumira kuti ndivaudze kuti handisi ndega ndaifunga zvakasiyana pazvinhu zvose izvi. Ndakatotenda kuti Mwari vainge vangobvumira, pamwe vakatotaura mashoko aya eSista, chete kuitira kunaka kwemweya kwevanhu vazhinji vanozviwana vari munzvimbo dzakasiyana siyana, uye vanozokwanisa kuwana mitemo, yambiro, uye muenzaniso wekuzvibata. Zvino tinofanira kumirira, kuti tirambe takarinda, kusvikira taita zvakaipa nokuziva here? uye chii chatingaisa pangozi kuti tiwane Fambai mberi pakufamba kwenguva nemisungo yedhimoni retsvina, asingambokundi zviri nani kupfuura paanowana kusava neruzivo rwakabatana neunyoro? Tingavareverera kutya kuvanyadzisa nokuvarayira here? Uyu ndiwo zvakare musungo chaiwo wemweya wakasviba uyu, uyo kusaziva uku kunofarirwa kupfuura zvatinofunga. Kunze kweizvi, ndima ngani kubva kuMadzibaba eChechi, kubva kuvanyori vakanakisisa, uye kunyange kubva muMagwaro Matsvene, hatifaniri kucheka here? Muedzo waJoseph akachena, kurwiswa kwakaitwa naSuzanne akachena kubva kuvarume vaviri vane mbiri yakaipa, nezvimwe. Mweya Mutsvene waifunga neimwe nzira pano, sezvo ikoko, tinogona  kumutevera.

Ndizvo, Baba, kuti kusaziva kwangu kwakafumura, sezvandataura, kukudzwa kwangu kune ngozi huru yandati ndambozviwana ndiri mairi, uye yandakapukunyuka kubva mairi, sezvamunoona, nerubatsiro rwakakosha. kudenga. Hey! vangani vechidiki vakaputsikirwa nechikepe ikoko

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kupfuura nekusachenjera uku, uko kusingaoni zvakakwana njodzi, iyo isingavimbi nechinhu? Vangani vakarasika zvisingadzoreki chete nekuda kwekubata sezvisina basa mamwe matanho asina kungwara, mimwe mitambo, vamwe vanonyepedzera kunge vasina mhosva, uye vakavatungamira nekusaziva kubva mukunyomba kuenda mukunyimwa, kubva pakunyimwa kusvika kune rezenisi, kubva parezinesi.

kuenda kuutsotsi, kubva pautsotsi kuenda kutsika, kubva patsika kuenda kuhukukutu, pakupedzisira kubva pakuoma kusvika pakusiya Mwari, uko kunotungamirira kunhamo yokupedzisira!

Naizvozvo zvakakosha zvikuru, Baba, kuti murambidze kupinda kwemuvengi ane manomano akadaro, musingamupi chero chinhu chipi zvacho chingamuramba. Naiye, nditende, hapana kuita nemaune kana kubvuma, nekuti haazive kuchengetedza zvine mwero. Kana ukamupa tsoka imwe yenyika, achatora mbiri, nhatu, ina, nezvimwe. Pakupedzisira, ukasakurumidza kurasikirwa naye, nokukurumidza kana kuti gare gare anokurasa.Ko musikana murombo anozoitei asina kusavimbana, uko kuno, kupfuura kupi nokupi, amai vechengeteko? Munosungirwa kugara navavengi varo vakapika kuti harina mhosva, chii chichaitika kwaari zvakare, kana asingarambi achiteerera imwe neimwe yenhanho dzake; kana asingaregi kubatana nenjere dzenyoka paunyoro hwenjiva? Pakupedzisira, ndichazvitaura pachena, rubatsiro rupi rusingadiwi! Ndedzipi nyasha dzisingadikanwi kwaari kuti ave akachena, pakati peSodhoma; Ndinoreva pakati penyika yakaora, umo zvinhu zvose zvinofema mufaro uye zvinokuita kuti umedze chepfu; kunyanya mune dzimwe nyika, uko njodzi dzichiri huru

!....

Sezvineiwo ndakapukunyuka, uye sokunge nechishamiso, kubva panjodzi huru yeupenyu hwangu, ndakanga ndisingachatyi muvengi wangu, kana zvakakodzera kumhanya kunomurwisa kana kuzvidzivirira. Ndakanga ndisingachazvizivi ini: ndichiona kuti, akavhiringidzika, akaramba ari panzvimbo imwe chete, asina kumboshinga kunditevera, ndakamira panhanho gumi neshanu kana makumi maviri kuti ndimuputire nekutuka uye kumuudza zvose zvakauya. muromo wangu panguva yehasha dzangu. Handina kumbotaura zvakawanda zvakadaro kumunhu; uye kudai akanga aedza kushandisa chisimba, ndinodavira kuti ndingadai ndakava noushingi hwokumubvisa, naizvozvo ndakamutsamwira zvikuru. Ndakamuvimbisa kuti handizombovimbi naye chero chinhu chipi zvacho chiri munyika, uye ndakachengeta shoko rangu. Baba munoti kudini nehasha dzangu nerumbidzo yangu?

Ndichiona kuti sisi vakanga vakamirira mhinduro vasati vaenderera mberi, ndakapotsa ndazvishingisa kuti: Ndinofunga mwanasikana wangu, kuti panguva ino hasha dzako dzave basa rinokosha kwauri, nokuda kwezvikonzero zvawabva kundiudza.

Kana kuri kutukwa kwawaizogona kumurega zvachose, sezvo mufambiro wako wakataura zvakakwana, ndinokuona seyambiro yakasimba, kururamisa kwakanaka, kwaaifanira kunyanyokodzera uye kwaive kwaari kushandisa mukana. Kwakanga kuri kururamisa kuduku kuti wakamubhadhara zvakafanira zvikuru, uye uko kwaigona kuita kuti apengenuke, kupfurikidza nokutaura kwaari nenzira ine simba zvikuru kutyisa kwose kwawakanzwa pakuronga kwake kwakaipa; Handifungi kuti unogona kuzvipa mhosva pazviri. Isu dzimwe nguva tine chikwereti cherudzi urwu rwezvipo kumuvakidzani wedu, kunyanya kana aine chishuwo chakadaro chekuchida.

zvinoita sekuti uyu aive nawo. Nokudaro, zvino ibasa, pane chiito chepamusoro-soro. Mangani akasununguka angadai akagadziriswa dai vasina kumbova nechimwe chinhu kunze kwekugamuchira kwakadaro! Asi zvinosuruvarisa kuti kune vamwe vakatonyanya kushivirira, uye vane hana dzakasimba zvokuti havangatsamwi  mumamiriro ezvinhu akadai. Izvi hazvivadzivisi kubatanidzwa mune dzimwe misangano yakawanda, uko kushivirira bedzi kwaizodiwa; asi pakutsamwa kumwe chete uku kunoita  sechivi chikuru kwavari.

Ngatidzokei pane zviri kundinetsa, vakadimburira Sisi vaya; nokuti, Baba, ndine zvikanganiso zvakawanda zvokuzvishora nazvo kuti ndimire pane izvo vamwe vangave vane mhosvawo nazvo, uye ndinofanira kungofunga kuunza nyaya yacho kwandiri. Maiwe! Baba, hupenyu hwangu hwekusununguka huchiri kure kubva pakupera. Saka ngatitangeizve nhoroondo yaro inosiririsa panguva yatakanga tiri tisati tatsauka kwatigere.

Zvikanganiso izvo Sista anozvipa mhosva: zvisina maturo, kuparara, nezvimwe.

Pakanga pasisina hondo mandiri kunze kwekusiyana kwezvishuwo. Ndaiitira godo pfuma yevamwe vasikana nezvipfeko, uye dzimwe nguva kunyange kapfungwa kakanaka kwataiita nezvavo. Ndakangoita zvekunzvenga kushamwaridzana nevarume kunze kwekutya kunyadziswa, kureva kuti vangadai vakataura zvakaipa nezvavo sezvavakaita vamwe, uye kuti ndingadai ndakarasikirwa nemukurumbira wakanaka wandainyanya kufarira kubaya. pachangu. Kunyange zvazvo ndaifarira kutamba, ndaisanyanya kutamba, nokuti ini

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kurwadzisa, uye nenzira yekuti ndisagutse kusazvibata kwangu kudiki, kana kutoti hupenzi hwangu husina maturo.

Nokudaro kwaiva kuzvikudza uye kuzvida nguva dzose kwaitungamirira nhanho dzangu dzose, uye ndairwa huipi humwe chete neimwe, sezvinoita avo vose vasingatore kutenda kwemwenje yavo, kana Evhangeri. Dzimwe nguva ndaipererwa kusvika pekupedzisira. Ndaiverenga mabhuku akaipa, kureva mabhuku evaraidzo, akanga asingafariri chitendero netsika. Ndakambochipa mumwe weshamwari dzangu; chandakashorwa nacho nomureururi wangu. handidaro

Ndakaita sendisina hanya nemitemo ipi zvayo. Denga rakanaka! uyo angadai akati, Baba, ndichiona zvose zvaiitika mandiri, munguva idzodzo dzisingafadzi, kuti ndakaitwa sisita; ndiyo yakanga iri nzvimbo yandakanga ndapiwa naMwari

wakaiswa chiratidzo, uye kuti mwoyo wakafanana nowangu, uri kure kwazvo nekutya kwake nerudo rwake, zvisinei kuti ndewake nokusingaperi here?... Makanaka sei, munodikamwa sei, imi Mwari wezvakanaka! dai ndaimba tsitsi dzenyu nekusingaperi, kana mapedza makomborero enyu, nekushongedza zvipo zvenyu. Asi ngatienderere mberi.

Tiri kufunga kumuroora. Kusema kwake.

Munoziva, Baba, kuti vasikana vekumaruwa vanotambura, chero vaine simba uye vachiziva kushanda zvakanaka, tsvaga nzira yekuroora nekukurumidza kupfuura avo vakapfuma, nekuti kune huwandu hwakawanda hwemapato anoitirwa hupfumi hwavo. Naizvozvo hazvishamisi kuti vamwe vakauya kwandiri, uye kunyange vamwe vandakanga ndisinei nazvo. Mumwe murume muduku, pakati pavamwe, akachenjera zvikuru, akandikodzera zviri nani uye akandifadza zvikuru, asina kumbova nekurukurirano dzakananga zvikuru naye pamusoro pechinyorwa chacho. Ndainzwa kuti ndaimuda kupfuura vamwe. Kunyange baba vangu vasati vafa, takanga taita nzira dzakasiyana-siyana dzokutaura navabereki vangu nokuda kwavo. Paiva nezvikumbiro, zvikumbiro, zvipikirwa; asi chii chakakosha kucherechedza,

Ndireururewo kwamuri Baba vangu, kunyangwe nenhamo dzese dzandainzwa nevanhu, pese paingova nyaya yekutaura neni zvine mutsindo pamusoro pewanano, ndaisangana nedambudziko rinotyisa mukati mangu, kana kuti kwete, ndinoziva zvandaisakwanisa kuzvidavirira, uye kuti hapana aigona kunzwisisa, kunyange zvazvo munhu wose akazviona. Kwakanga kuri kumwe kusemburwa, sokunge kusingakundiki, uko kwakandibata kamwe kamwe, uye uko kwakasvika pakubvisa kufema kwangu nokutaura, kundiita kuti ndichinje ruvara, uye kundirwarisa nokutya nokuvhunduka  .

Naizvozvo ndakanyevenuka ndichiona zvinhu zvose zvisipo, uye nechishamiso chimwe chete ndakava negodo, zvokusvika pakurasikirwa norugare, pavanhu vandakatendeukira kwavari vechidiki pandakaramba. Pakupedzisira, ndakanga ndatova chikanganiso pachangu zvisingatsananguriki nokuti Mwari akanga asati aita kuti ndizive migumisiro yekurwisana kunopfuurira pakati pezvisikwa nenyasha, izvo zvinoita kuti azvione sevarume vaviri vanopikisana.

mumunhu mumwe chete, kunyanya kana ngirozi yaSatani yabatana nezvisikwa uye kuishandisa kutirova nembama.

Asi, Baba vangu, zvisinei nemwenje yandakapiwa naMwari kubvira pane izvi zvose, ndicharamba ndiri chikanganiso chaicho kwandiri nekune vamwe vazhinji, sezvandagara ndiri.

Handikunzwisise, hanzvadzi yangu , akadaro mumwe wevanoreurura kwandiri rimwe zuva, wakataura kwandiri nezvaMwari sengirozi, uye ukataura kwandiri sedhimoni; Ini hapana chandinonzwisisa  pane  izvi Ah  !

ndechokuti nyaya yacho yakanga yakasiyana zvikuru, uye kuti kumativi ose ari maviri ndakaedza kutevera chokwadi chandakaratidzwa; ndicho chakavanzika chose chaasina kunzwisisa. Asi ngatitore zvakare shinda yenyaya yangu inosuruvarisa; nokuti, maiwe! Baba, nguva yekutendeuka kwangu haisati yasvika, kana zvakadaro ndingataura kuti yakambouya zvakakwana, uye kana ndisingafaniri kutya kuti haizombosviki, sezvandaida nguva dzose.

Mafungiro emanyepo akaumbwa naSister munyonganyonga yezvido zvavo. Zvishuwo, mhinganidzo chete pakutenda.

Mumamiriro ezvinhu anosiririsa aya, ndakave nepfungwa yakarasika yezvinhu zvakajeka  uye zviri pachena. Ndingadai, sekutaura, ndisina kunzwisisa misimboti yekutanga yemutemo wechisikigo, zvakanyanya dai zvishuvo zvangu zvakanganisa masimba ese emweya wangu; hongu, ndinozvitaura mukunyadziswa nekutendeuka kwangu, upofu hwangu hwaive hwakadaro, zvekuti pazera remakore gumi nemapfumbamwe ndakava nechiedza chidiki chekuona chakanaka nechakaipa, ndoda ruzivo muzvinhu zvaMwari neruponeso, rwandakanga ndava narwo apo. Ndaiva nemakore manomwe kana masere. Tinofanira kushamiswa here, mushure mezvo, nekutsauka kusingafungidzike, munhau dzekutenda, kwevarume vazhinji vanosiyaniswa neruzivo rwavo pane imwe neimwe pfungwa, pavakambozvibvumira kutongwa nezvishuwo zvavo  ?

Nhingi-nhingi, anonzi, haatendi, haana chitendero, uye zvakadaro ane ruzivo: ane njere, ane shasha.

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Chero bedzi iwe uchida; asi chii chaunoda kugumisa? Ndeipi fungidziro yakanaka yaungatora kubva mukusatenda kwake pamusoro pezvakawanda kana chitendero chaanoramba? Kuti atonge zvine musoro, pfungwa dzake dzaifanira kudaro

vakasununguka kudivi iro uye vaigona kuona zvinhu mumaonero avo chaiwo. Asi kwete, kuchiva naye kunodzikatidza kunzwisisa nechiedza chepfungwa; inodzima pfungwa, inogomadza masimba ose emusikirwo, inokatyamadza munhu, uye inomuita, sezvinotaura Magwaro, rudzi rwemhuka isinganzwisisi chinhu pamusoro pezvinhu zvaMwari kana kuti ruponeso. Haakwanisi kukwira pamusoro pekusvika kwemanzwiro, anongoda uye anonzwisisa zvine chekuita nazvo. Zvinhu zvinotendwa hazvizikanwi kwaari; zvinomufinhura, zvaanofunga kuti haavoni chinhu kunze kwezvinopikisana nazvo. Kubva pazvinowanzoitika kuti pfungwa dzakanakisa ndedzevanhu vekutenda, asi vachiri vana vakawanda, ngatitii zvirinani, kusaziva zvakanyanya pane kusaziva ivo pachavo. sezvo kusaziva uku kwakajairika kwavari nekutanga. Vanoramba vachipikisa kusada kwese kwezvishuwo zvavo kubvuma izvo zvinovadzvinyirira uye chikonzero chipi chisinganzwisise. Hongu, Baba, muve nechokwadi nazvo, bvisai zvishuvo zviri mumwoyo womunhu, munobvisa zvipingamupinyi zvose pakutenda, munozviita muKristu; bvisai kuchiva, munovabvisa vasingatendi, nokuti kuchiva ndirwo chitubu chavo kusatenda.

Izvi ndizvo zvandakasangana nazvo zvinosiririsa (1).

(1) Iriwo pfungwa yemumwe wevadetembi vedu mune ino yakanaka gradation, apo anotiudza: ... Kuti rusununguko rwese runofamba nekurongeka, uye chimiro chayo chechokwadi.

ndiko kutsvedza, zvishoma nezvishoma, chepfu yaro kubva kupfungwa kuenda kumoyo, kubva pamwoyo kuenda kukufunga. (J.-B. Rouss., tsamba kuna M. Racine).

Saka ndakafunga, Baba, uye tingazvidemba zvakakwana! Ndakafunga kuti kwaiva kuda Mwari zvakakwana kuti ndisamuvenga; kuti munhu ane kutenda pasina anosungirwa kudavira zvose pfungwa dzekutenda izvo Chechi inopa kuvana vayo; kuti munhu anogona kuzviponesa nekutenda kwakazara uye kwekufungidzira, pasina

kuita kuti zvive zvakaoma kuzvideredza mukuita; kuti mabasa akanaka, naizvozvo, haadikanirwi ruponeso; kuti zvakakwana kunamata Mwari mumwoyo womunhu, pasina kuzviisa pasi pomuitiro upi noupi worudzidziso; kuti mhiko dzerubhabhatidzo hadzimanikidze munhu kuramba mitemo yenyika; kuti varombo nevanotambura havasi kufara, uye kuti vapfumi chete ndivo vanofara uye vakafanirwa negodo; izvo munhu anogona kudzoka kune inotevera kuvenga kuvenga, kusava nehanya nekusava nehanya, nezvimwe.

Kana kuti, kuti nditaure zvakanyanya, handina kufunga nezve zvese izvo, uye ndakararama zvinoenderana, pasina kubhadhara kunenge kudiki kwazviri. Nokudaro, ndakazviita mukuita rudzi rwevhangeri rinotyisa, iro randakatsiva neEvhangeri yaJ.-C. Zvechokwadi rakanga riri Vhangeri renyika uye rezvishuwo, sezvakanaka kune zvakasikwa sezvazviri. kutenda. Saka

asi chii chave chiri mutemo wangu panguva yese iyi yakashata. Ndakanga ndisingambozivi kuti mweya wakaita sei nhamo yekubvuma kutadza. Ndakanga ndisingazivi nezvekugumbura kwaMwari, kana nezvemigumisiro yacho maererano nesu. Ndakaita kuti kudada kuve nehupfumi uye hukuru, kusakwanisa kunzwisisa kuti varombo vanogona kuzvikudza, kunyange zvazvo ndaiva muenzaniso uye uchapupu hunooneka zvikuru kune ani zvake kunze kwangu; nokuti, Baba vangu, ndinofunga kuti ndini ndoga ndisina kuona kudada uku kwandakaita sokunge ndakaumbwa. Ndaifungawo kuti vaiva vapfumi chete vaigona kuisa mwoyo yavo kuzvinhu zvepanyika, kuda nyika nezvisina maturo. Inhema dzakadini! Zvikanganiso zvakadii!...

Pasinei nokudzungaira kwake, akaita mabasa ake echitendero, aida shoko raMwari, uye aiwanzoenda kumasakaramende pamitambo mikuru.

Uhwu hupofu hunoshamisa hwepfungwa dzangu, rudzi urwu rwekuoma kwemoyo wangu nekuzvidira, ndinovati pamusoro pazvo zvose kukuzvikudza kwangu uko Mwari aida kuranga, nekushandiswa zvisina kunaka kwenyasha, uye nekusvibisa izvo kuzvikudza kusina kunaka kwandakaita kuti ndiite: nokuti, Baba vangu, pakati pekudzungaira kwangu, ndaigarochengeta imwe homwe yechinamato, iyo yaimutswa pamusoro pezvose pamitambo mikuru. Ndaida mhemberero dzeChechi, uye pamusoro peshoko rose raMwari. Asi zvinosuruvarisa! kusagadzikana kwekuda kwangu kwaita mandiri kuravira uku kusava nenjodzi, ndisingatauri, kune njodzi. Mweya wangu, wakaramba uchipirwa mukuparara, kune zvisina maturo, kuzvinhu zviduku, wakafanana nemunda une matombo uye zvakare wakazaruka kukupinda kwevavengi vangu, umo iyi mbeu yehumwari yaisakwanisa kumera, kana kukanda midzi yakadzika. Naizvozvo yakatsikwa-tsikwa ipapo uye yakapwanyika pasi petsoka dzevapfuuri, yakatakurwa nekuzvikudza kwangu, yakavharwa nemafungiro angu, yakasvibiswa uye yakaomeswa nemoto wezvishuvo zvangu. Nyika ipi!..,.

Ndakateerera nechido kushoko raMwari iri, rakandibata kwenguva; asi nguva yakatevera handina kuzozvifunga. Nokudaro, panzvimbo pokundiruramisa, akandiwedzera kuva nemhaka; pane kuti anditendeutse, akawedzera kundiomesa; panzvimbo

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kuti ndiunze ruponeso rwangu, rwakava tsime rokurangwa kwangu. Tinofanira kunzwirwa tsitsi sei, zvakare, kana tikashandisa nyasha dzatinopiwa neDenga! Ndechipi chiwanikwa chatingaverengera, kana zviwanikwa zvekupedzisira zvashandurwa kwatiri nekushungurudzwa kwatinoita nazvo? O mamiriro ezvinhu anosiririsa! Haiwa mamiriro ezvinhu okupererwa nezano!

Izvo zvakadaro, Baba vangu, uye mamiriro uye mamiriro ezvinhu andakapfuura kweanopfuura gore, ndichigara ndichichengeta kunze uye mukurumbira wemusikana akanaka, wandakanga ndafadzwa kwazvo: ndichiisa kukwana kwangu kwese kunze kwekunze. utsvene, ndaiva negodo rokusapotsa chirairo chimwe chezvidyo zvakanaka kana kuti uhama, uye ndakatora marwadzo maduku zvikuru kuti ndizvigadzirire ndimene zvakanaka nokuda kwaikoku nokuwana zvibereko mazviri. Ndichingotora fungidziro yechokwadi, ndakazvibata kumeso kuti ndakanga ndakazvipira uye ndakarurama, asi mukatikati ndaiva munyengeri uye guva rakacheneswa. Ndakazviita hangu, ndichirarama pamberi pavanhu, ndakafa hangu pamberi paMwari. Ndiwo mamiriro angu, Baba vangu, apo Providence, asina kumbomira kundichengeta. akandibvumira kuti ndirohwe nehunhu hwausati wambonzwa nezvahwo, uye hwausina kumboverenga kana kuona muenzaniso chero kupi zvako. Asi sezvo yave nguva yekupedzisa nhasi, tokumbira, todzosera nyaya yacho, tobva tatanga musangano wamangwana ipapo. (1).

(1) Handizivi kuti vanhu vanozofungei nezvazvo, asi zvinoratidzika kwandiri kuti mifananidzo yakasiyana yatichangobva kupiwa nehanzvadzi iyi, yakafanana nevanhu vakawanda kupfuura zvatinofungidzira, uye naizvozvo vakawanda zvikuru vanogona kuzvifananidza nazvo. uye purofiti kubva pazviri. Kwose kunobva mashoko aya, anoita seasina chinangwa kana kuti asina basa.

Hunhu humwe chete hwemwana ane makore matatu. Effect yazvinoburitsa paSister.

“Muzita raBaba, roMwanakomana neroMweya Mutsvene. Kuburikidza naJesu, Maria, etc. »

Mumwe musi weSvondo apo amai vangu vakanga vandichengetesa, pavakanga vari kuchechi, vachichengetwa navanun’una nehanzvadzi dzangu, ndakaenda navo kundotsvaka shamwari yangu, akanga ari mwanasikana womushandi weposvo, uyo aiva netsika dzakanaka. imba yaive pedyo neyedu. Aivewo nebasa rekutarisa mhuri yake diki vabereki vake vasipo. Takaisa vana vose pamwe chete kuti vafare, uye, takagara pedyo nomumwe nomumwe, takanga tichiimba rwiyo rworudo rwaMwari. Hanzvadzi duku yomumwe wangu, ane makore matatu, akanga asiya vezera rake kuti vauye kuzotiteerera zvikuru; akabata ruoko rwake pabendekete rangu, ndokuteerera kuimba kwedu netarisiro inokatyamadza yezera rake, uye mweya wemufaro  ,

zvekugutsikana uye kufarira izvo zvakatisimudzira zvikuru, nekuti zvakange zvisingaite kuti tirege kuzviona; maitiro ake chaiwo, zvese zvaive maari zvairatidza kugutsikana kukuru.

Canticle iyo yakamufadza zvakanyanya yakapera nemashoko aya: Zvino kana tikamupisa munzvimbo idzi, moto wepi watichapisa kudenga? kana nedzimwe ndima idzi, nokuti handinyatsodziyeuki: Kana tikapisa nemoto uyu, tichapisa kudenga nemoto upi? Nguva dzose ipfungwa imwechete yekumashure.

Chinhu chisinganzwike uye chinoshamisa, Baba vangu! Mashoko aya ekupedzisira endima yekupedzisira akanga asati aimbwa kupfuura, pamberi pemaziso edu, mwana akanyatsoteerera akasimudzwa kubva pasi katatu kusvika paurefu hwemakumbo matatu kana mana, pasina kuedza kusvetuka, asi akabata pamuviri wakatwasuka,  aine maoko akatambanudzwa, chiso chakatsva uye maziso akasimudzwa kudenga. Mumaonero aya, sokunge kuti aipindura kumagumo endima yedu yokupedzisira, akataura zvakajeka zvikuru uye nesimba guru mashoko aya akaita kuti ndinyatsoona, uye aidzokorora nguva imwe neimwe yaakapambwa: Du moto werudo ! yemoto werudo! yemoto werudo!Paaidzokororwa mashoko aya saka aisimudzwa uye akawira pasi zvinyoro-nyoro kakawanda asingakuvadzi: izvi zvakaitwa zvakatevedzana uye kwenguva yakati rebei, mushure maizvozvo mudiki wacho akadzorerwa kwaari, akamhanya kunonakidzwa nokutamba. pamwe chete naye. Zvingangodaro kuti haazviyeuki  .

Ini nemumwe wangu takarohwa nehana zvekuti kutaura kwatainge tabva kuona takangoti tuzu ndokuparadzana pasina kana kumbofungira, pasina kana shoko rimwe chete raakataura kune mumwe nemumwe. Ah! Baba vangu, kurangarirwa kwakadini uku kwechiitiko chimwe chete chakaita kuti ndiite pachangu, nokundiyeuchidza zvandakanga ndamboita!

Izvi, ndakazvitaura, ndiwo maratidziro anoita Mwari kumwoyo yakachena, asi vamwe vachitorerwa nyasha dzake! Ndakamuona, mweya uya wainge usina mhosva waifadza mumaziso ake, wakatsva nemashoko asina kana kunyanyo ratidza pandiri, asina kubata kuoma, kusanzwa kwemoyo wangu. 0 Ndiani achandidzorera kusava nemhosva kwangu kwokutanga! ndiani achandidzosa nguva iyoyo yekufara pandakanzwawo huvepo hwaMwari wangu, rudo rwake parwakanzwa kwandiri, pandakanakidzwa zvikuru

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shamwari dzepedyo! Nguva yakakosha, iwe hausisiri  !  . mazuva  erombo ,

wava chii? ndave chii pachangu? Haiwa tsime remisodzi inovava! Iwe chidzidzo chisingapere chekuruma uye pamwe kutendeuka kusingaperi! imhosva yangu kuti ndakarasa zvese! Nekutsiva kwakarurama Mwari anobvisa nyasha dzake kune avo vanovashungurudza, kuti adzipe kune vamwe vasingaisi chipingamupinyi ipapo....

Kazhinji, ichokwadi, ndakazvipa kune izvi zvinofadza kufungisisa; asi dzaingove hunhu zvishoma padyo nekutendeuka kwangu kuzere, uko kusina kuuya kusvika imwe nguva gare gare. Chimwezve chimwe chaidiwa kuparadza hutongi hwadhiabhorosi uye kugadzirisa kukunda kwenyasha mumwoyo wakapotsa warwadziswa nechivi: izvi ndizvo zvakanga zvave kushanda tsitsi dzaMwari kwenguva refu, pasina kumboodzwa mwoyo nekuramba kwangu, uye kwenguva yakareba. nguva, zvakare, basa rakanga richifambira mberi sokunge ndisingazivi, uye, sokunge zvakadaro, pasinei neni. Pakupedzisira kwakasvika nguva iyoyo inofadza apo Mwari akataura satenzi ndokuzivisa zvakajeka icho chishuvo icho chisina chinhu chingadzivisa; Kuda uku uko, pasina kutadzisa kuzvisarudzira kwemunhu, kunoshandisa zvipingamupinyi chaizvo kusvika kumagumo ehurongwa hwayo.

Kutendeuka kutsva kweSista pachiitiko chejubheri guru ra1751. Akazvipa zvakazara kuna Mwari. Kufa kwamai vake.

Rakanga riri zvakare, Baba vangu, gore rejubheri guru kana reruregerero rukuru, iro rakaisa magumo kubasa rekutendeuka kwangu rakatanga panguva ino, nekuparadzira uku kwenyasha zhinji. uko chivi chakanga chawanda. Ndakanzwa kushayiwa kwangu kupfuura nakare kose, uye ndakatambudzwa zvikuru nehana yangu isina kusimba kuti ndisatore mukana uyu mutsva wokudzokera kuna Mwari: naizvozvo ndakatsidza zvakare kuzvigadzirira nokungwarira kwose kunokwanisa kuhwina kuzviregeredza kwegore rejubheri. . Hey! Dzaive nyasha dzakadii kare maitiro aya! Munguva yese yaiitwa zviteshi zvedu ndaienda kunoreurura zuva rega rega, uye kwave mazuva matatu ndisati ndapedza ongororo yangu kuti denga, kuti rizokunda kukunda kwangu, rakandirova nekurova kukuru kwakandiwisira pasi, saSaint-Paul. , mumugwagwa unoenda Dhamasiko. Akadururira pandiri, panguva iyoyo inofadza, nyasha dzakasimba uye dzakawanda kwazvo, zvokuti dzakakunda pamusoro pezvinhu zvose. Pakarepo chipingamupinyi chiri chose chakakundwa, chinetso chiri chose chakanyangarika; zvakanga zvakakodzera kuzvipira kune akakunda aisakwanisa zvimwe

tamburira kupikiswa mukukunda. Fortunate moment, sei usina kukurumidza kuuya!

Panguva iyoyo ndakanga ndava nemakore angangoita makumi maviri nechidimbu, uye shamhu iyi inofadza yedenga yakaitika rimwe zuva ndiri mubishi, naamai vangu nehanzvadzi dzangu, tichinhonga hemp musango kana bindu remichero, padyo nepamba pedu uye.

kujoinha paburiro redu. Baba ndipo pandakaerekana ndapindwa nekachiedza kanyoro kakavheneka pfungwa dzangu nekuchinja moyo wangu. Vakazogadzirisa kusagadzikana kwangu nekundiudza zvaidiwa naMwari kwandiri, uyo aizondiregerera zvese zvakaitika kare uye akazondidzorera nyasha dzake dzese.

Pasina kumbozengurira kwekanguva, ndakavimbisa kuva wake nekusingaperi uye kusazogoverana mwoyo wangu zvakare. Ndakazvishora nomufambiro wangu wekare, uye ndakava nemimba yaityisa zvikuru nokuda kworudzi rwupi norwupi rwechivi zvokuti, ndisingatyi kufunga nezvokuva sisita asi ( maiwe! Ndakaona pasina nzira yokuita kudaro), ndakabva ndarasa nyika nengozi dzose. inopa. Ndakavimbisa Mwari kuti ndizviparadzanise navo nepandinogona napo; uye nokuda kwaizvozvo, ndakafunga kugara naamai vangu, kuti ndivashandire nokuvabetsera nebasa rangu kusvikira pakupera kwemazuva avo kana angu; izvo zvisina kuenda kure. Denga, iro risati rambonditendera kuti ndirarame ndisina kutambudzika, rakanga randichengetera yakanyanya kunzwisa tsitsi kune iyi mamiriro: amai vangu varombo vakafa chaizvo panguva yavaitarisira. kuti afare, uye kwandakafunga kumunyaradza nekumutsiva pakusuwa nemarwadzo andakamukonzera. Ngativimbei kuti Ishe vakanaka vachange vazvitora kuti vamunyaradze uye vamutsivire ivo pachavo, uye kuti hapana chaanozorasikirwa nacho.

Anozvimanikidza kutsanya uye kumwe kuzvidemba paari, uye anotora mhiko yekuzvibata kusingaperi.

Kuti ndigutse ruramisiro youmwari ndokudzivisa kumukira kwenyama, ndakapikira kutsanya Chishanu choga choga neChitatu, uye kudzidzirazve kumwe kuzvidemba vhiki riri rose; asi, kuti ndikunde zviri nani pamusoro pedhimoni retsvina, ndakaronga kuita mhiko yekuchena kusingaperi, uye ndaida kuitaura pamberi pechifananidzo cheNotre-Dame-des-Marais (1) pazuva re'Assumption. , ndiko kwandakanga ndafunga kuti ndidye chirairo kuti ndiwane ruregerero rwejubheri.

(1) Uyu mufananidzo weMhandara Yakaropafadzwa, yakaiswa muchechi, pamusuwo wepadivi pechechi yeSaint-Sulpice de Fougères. Inozivikanwa zvikuru munyika nokuda kwemhiko uye nzendo dzinoitwa ikoko, kunyaradzwa uye nyasha dzinogamuchirwa  ikoko.

Ndakaenda ikoko nokuda kwechinangwa ichi, uye zuva rimwe chetero ndakanzwa misa mbiri paSaint-Léonard uye imwe kuSaint-Sulpice, iyo yairatidzika kwandiri kuva pfupi zvikuru, ndinokuvimbisai. Hazvigoneke kuti ndikuudzei kuti ingani, panguva yemhomho iyi

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nekudya kwangu, Mwari akandiita kuti ndiravire zvinotapira; kuwanda kwenyaradzo yemukati yaakandipa pamamiriro angu azvino uye ekare; kwakandijekesera zvikuru sei pazvakavanzika zvorudzidziso, uye pamusoro pokuvapo kwose kwechokwadi kwaJ.-C. muSakaramende Rakaropafadzwa reatari! nezvimwewo, nezvimwewo.

Mufaro waanoravira mubasa raMwari.

Pakupedzisira, Baba vangu, ndakatanga kufema uye kurarama zvakare, uye ndakanzwa kuti hakuna, kuti hapangagoni kuva nerufaro rwechokwadi, pasina rugare rwomukati rwomweya,  uye kuti rugare rwomweya urwu, runodikanwa kwazvo, haruzombofi rwakaita. kuwanikwa kunze kwehana isina ruzvidzo, mukunzwa kwepedyo kwemwoyo unonzwa kuti zvose zviri kuna Mwari wawo, uye kuti Mwari wawo ndezvawo zvake; pakupedzisira mwoyo unopfuta bedzi nemirazvo yorudo rwake... Ndakanyudzwa muna Mwari uyu akanaka neane ngoni pamusoro pezvose zvinogona kutaurwa uye kufungidzira, ndakanzwa kuvapo kwake kwoumwari, uye ndakazadzwa chose namafaro asingatauriki ayo uku kuvapo kwoumwari kwakakurukura. kwandiri. O  mufaro  !. mwari wangu  aiva

yakadzorerwa mukodzero dzayo dzose. Ndakafara, nokuti ndaiva wake wose,  uye akanga ari  wangu wose  Kana rufu rwaamai vangu rungadai rusina  kuuya

kuvhiringidza chimiro chinodiwa kwazvo, ndinofunga, Baba vangu, kuti hachina kugona kugara kwenguva refu, nekuti hazvibvi kune vanhu vane rombo rakanaka, vane mugove uri kugomera mumupata uyu wemisodzi; inogona chete kuva mubairo uye kodzero yeavo vakafanirwa nayo kuburikidza nekushanda nesimba, hondo uye kukunda; uye kana zvafadza Mwari kundiitira nyasha nazvo, ndakagara ndichizviona  uye ndakazvigamuchira kubva kwaari sekuregererwa kwechokwadi kweutera hwangu, kana, kana muchida, sekurudziro yekutambura zviri nani kutambura nemichinjikwa nematambudziko. nezvekuvapo kwangu kwehurombo, uye izvo kunaka kwake kuchiri kundichengetera remangwana  .

Ndarasa hurongwa hwese, asi nerumwe rutivi ndisina kukwana kuti ndirarame ndisina kusungirwa kushandira, uye nekudaro kupinda munjodzi dzandakanga ndapika kuti ndisazoenda, munhu anofanira kufunga kuti chii chakandiunzira rufu rwaamai vangu. . Kudai ndakanga ndangozvifunga chete panyaya iyi, sezvavanotaura, zvakanga zvakaringana kuti ndirasikirwe nemusoro, kudai Mwari vakanga vasina mutsa wokudzikamisa marwadzo angu nenzira yandataura.

Mamiriro ake ezvinhu anosuruvarisa pashure porufu rwaamai vake; anotsvaka kuMhandara Yakaropafadzwa.

Ndisingambozivi kuti ndoita sei, ndakatanga ndaenda pamudyandigere pamwe chete nomunun’una wangu kuna tete vakanga vakwegura, avo takakurumidza kurasikirwa nesu tose. Saka mushure mekunge rufu rwamubvisa kubva kwatiri, ndakaenda kune izvo zvezvisikwa zvese zvandaivimba nazvo: ndakaenda kuSaint-Sulpice, uye, ndikagwadama pamberi pechifananidzo chitsvene cheMukadzi Wedu -des-Marais, akati kwaari: “Mhandara Mutsvene, amai vangu vakanaka uye vanoremekedzwa, nokuti handina mumwe wandinosiya kunze kwenyu, ndinokurayirai kuti, musandisiya kana zvinhu zvose zvandisiya; Ndakuita muchengetedzi wezvido zvangu. Hongu, Mhandara isingaenzaniswi, zviri pakati pemaoko ako uye pasi pezvitsigiro zvako apo ndakazvitsaurira kuMwanakomana wako wehumwari; ndiwane zvino, nenyasha, nzira dzekuva akatendeka kuzvisungo zvangu.

Ita basa iri, uye ini ndichafara; Handimbofi ndakaora mwoyo nazvo, chero bedzi ndine chikonzero chokudavira kuti zviri mumaoko enyu. Ndichangowedzera kuti ndakagamuchira kubva panguva iyoyo imwe nyaradzo yairatidzika kwandiri sechitsidzo chedziviriro yaMaria, vimbiso yokuti akanga ateerera zvakanaka kumunyengetero wangu, uye kuti ndaigona kutarisira zvose kubva mauri; izvo zvakandidzikamisa zvikuru.

Hanzvadzi dzangu mbiri neni takanga tabvumirana kuva panzvimbo yomudzimu yePentekosta, yaizoitirwa muFaubourg Roger de Fougères. Takaenda ikoko: kwaivapo, kana ndingataura kudaro, apo Mhandara Yakaropafadzwa yakanga yakandimirira, kuti ndione zviri nani kushanda kwemunamato wangu uye mazano makuru ayo Mwari akandiitira.

Kukwezva kwake kuhupenyu hwechitendero. Funga kuti akanga ambozvitaura kakawanda.

Kuzviona ndichibatanidzwa kwoupenyu neimwe nzanga yorudzidziso, kugara ikoko kure nenyika somuranda, kwakanga kwave kuri chinhu chezvishuvo zvangu; asi kariro shoma yandakaona yokukwanisa kubudirira mairi yakanga isati yandibvumira kuti ndiudze ani zvake nezvazvo; zvisinei, ndakazviwana ndichigara ndichikweverwa kwazviri neimwe kuravira uye nekariro

kuti kurota kwangu kwandichakuudza, kwakatoitika kwandiri kanopfuura kazana, ndichitanga ndichiri muduku, ndichimuka; hechinoi, muchatonga.

Nguva zhinji, Baba vangu, pandaiva ndakarara, ndaifungidzira ndimene ndakakombwa nokurwiswa nezvikara, izvo zvaida kundidya  kana kuti kundiwisira mugomba; vavengi vane hasha, vaida zvishoma upenyu hwangu kupfuura kuchena kwangu noruponeso rwangu. Pakanga pangosara shandiso imwe chete kwandiri pamusoro pezvavaitsvaga uye nemisungo yavo yakawandisa, uye yaive yekukumbira rubatsiro rwedenga pakange pasisina imwe nzira yekupukunyuka nayo. Ndakazviita zvose nemisodzi, zvino, Baba vangu, ndakanzwa ndasimudzwa, sokunge ndine mapapiro maviri, kusvika pakakwirira paisasvika vavengi vangu; naizvozvo ndakapukunyuka pakutsamwa kwavo, ndakazembera mudenga senjiva; Ndakatakurwa neruoko rumwe  chete

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asingaonekwi. Dzimwe nguva rwendo rwacho rwaiva rwakareba; asi chinonyanya kukosha ndechekuti kupera kwerwendo rwangu, kana kuti kutiza kwangu, nguva dzose kwaigara kuwira munharaunda yevasikana, uye nzvimbo yandakatanga kutsika ndichidonha yaigara iri chechi yavo, kwandakapfugama pamberi. yeSakaramende Rinoropafadzwa, yandakaratidzwa senzvimbo yokupotera yakavimbiswa vavengi vangu vose, uye chiteshi chengarava chandaifanira kuvavarira chisingaregi kuvakunda zvechokwadi  .

Funga nezvechiroto ichi, uye nezvimwe zvakawanda zvakafanana nazvo, zvese zvaunoda; kuti munhu anoedza, kana munhu achida, kuvatsanangura nezvikonzero zvomuzvarirwo, ini handipikisane nazvo; asi chii chiri chokwadi, uye chingaite sechakanyanya kuoma kuenderana nemafungiro aya, ndechekuti hope idzi dzakaitika kwandiri kakawanda pazera randakanga ndisina kana ruzivo rwenyika yechitendero; ndicho chokwadi. Ndichataura zvakatowanda: ndezvekuti pazera iroro, ndichirota kamwe chete kuti ndakanga ndiri pamagumo ekutiza kwangu, ndakashamiswa zvikuru kuzviwana ndiri kureba pamberi peatari, uye ndakapfeka chaizvo sezvandiri ikozvino, Ini ndakanga ndisati ndamboona masisita kare, uyo angave asati ambonzwa nezvavo, uye ndiani, zvechokwadi, ndakanga ndisati ndaziva nezvechipfeko chavo. Zvisinei, ndakazviona ndakareba sezvandiri, ndakapfeka sezvandiri, seUrbanist yechitendero,

ndikagwadama pamberi peartari yechechi imwe chete iyi yandakanga ndisati ndambopinda. Ndakanga ndatova mwanasikana waSaint Francis naSaint Clare. Hope idzi dzakapera pandakangova nemufaro wekupfekedzwa chaizvo tsika inoyera yechitendero; ndiko kuti, kutaura maererano nenzira yangu yekutora zvinhu, kana nhamba yacho yave nekuzadzikiswa kwayo. Asi isu hatisati tasvika.

Imwe hope, umo Saint Francis anomudana kuhurongwa hwake.

Ndinorangarirawo imwe hope dzingava nerevo imwe cheteyo, uye dzandakanga ndichiri kurota panguva yatinotaura nezvadzo; Ndinofunga ndakakuudza nezvazvo kumwewo. Ndakafunga zvokunzwa inzwi romuparidzi mukuru: pandakanga ndiri kunze kwechechi kwaaiparidza, ndakakwira pane chimwe chinhu kuti ndimunzwe zviri nani uye ndimuone zvishoma nepafafitera rakagochwa. NdiBaba vedu Musande Francis vakaparidza zvine simba kumamongi nemasisita ehurongwa hwavo, vavaishoropodza nekuda kwekutonhora nekutyora kwavo mutemo. Muparidzi mutsvene akandiona ndichiparidza; uye achiita masaini kwandiri, sekunge ari kundinyengetedza, ndakamunzwa achiti kwandiri: "Sezvo kusisinazve kuteerera kana kutendeka mune yangu, zvakanaka! vatorwa ngavatore nzvimbo yavo.huyai nekutendeka kwenyu kuzondinyaradza nekuda kwekusatenda nekudziya kwevana vangu chaivo. »

Saka ndakatora zvakare semucherechedzo wekudanwa aya mazwi akataurwa  naMusande Francis kwandiri: Huya kwandiri,  mukunda  weEgipita. Ndiri  kunyanya

ndinopwiswa kuti vamwe vazhinji vachafunga seni muna ikoku; asi sezvavanogara varipo vakangwara, vanozvitutumadza nekupa chikonzero chezvose vasingade rubatsiro rwaMwari, kana rwesimba remweya, ndinozvipira kusiya basa iri kwavari, kana richigona kuvagutsa, uye ndinouya. kudzokera kuchinangwa changu; nokuti, chero chingave chiri nyaya yezviroto izvi, sekutsanangurwa kana kutendeuka kwavanosarudza kuzvipa, izvo panguva iyoyo zvakanga zvisina kuonekwa hazvina kuitika, pasinei nezvipingamupinyi zvose izvo nyika, dhiabhorosi nenyama zvingaunza. . Kune vamwe, Baba, muchatonga zvirinani neruzivo rwekuti munhu anofanirwa kunzi ndiite basa rechitendero uye kupinda kwangu munharaunda ino. Zvese izvi zvaive mhedzisiro yekurega kwangu kubva kuFaubourg Roger; asi ndinofunga kuti tichaita zvakanaka kumbosendeka kurondedzerwa kwacho manheru ano kana imwe nguva. Munofungei Baba?

Akagamuchirwa munharaunda yevanoronga maguta muFougères semushandi wevabhodhi.

“ Muzita raBaba, reMwanakomana, nezvimwe. »

Baba, ndakazarura pamusoro paizvozvi zvose kuna M. Debrégel, mukuru panguva iyeyo akarega basa, wandakanga ndasarudza somutungamiriri wangu: kwakanga kuri kuuyu mushandi anoshingaira nokuda kwembiri yaMwari noruponeso rwemweya iyo Providence aida kutaura neni pachangu, kuti mupe nhoroondo yemukati mangu. M. Debregel haana kufunga kuti zvakanga zvakakodzera kuti ndireurure kwaari, sezvandaida, ndichiti hazvifaniri kumutsidzirwa kakawanda kudaro; uye naizvozvo akazvigutsa nekundibvunza mibvunzo yakadai seyaakaona yakakodzera kuti ave neruzivo rwakakwana rwehana yangu nemamiriro angu. Ipapo akandipa mhosva, uye ndakawana mumurume uyu womuapostora baba vechokwadi, avo vakachengeta tsinhiro yavo yose kutevera mazano eProvidence, ayo iye amene akandizivisa nenzira yakanga isina kuenzana. Akashanda semutungamiri wangu kusvikira pakufa kwake,

Uyu M. Debregel akanga ane simba guru pamusoro pepfungwa dzevaUrbanist, avo vaakatungamirira nhamba yakati; akandikurudzira kwavari kuti ndigamuchirwe munharaunda semuranda wevaridzi: zvaive

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chaizvo gore rokutanga ravakabvumirwa kuva nadzo, ndiko kuti muna 1752, sokurangarira kwandinogona kurangarira. Saka zvanga zviri pakurudziro yake kuti ndauya pano, for a provisional basis, kuzoshandira maboarders, kutanga kunze, ndichimirira kuti chitsauko chitore sarudzo paaccount yangu.

Pavhiki nhanhatu dzandakanga ndigere kunze, makanga mune dambudziko guru mukati mangu; zvaiita sokuti zvinhu zvose zvaipesana nemufaro wangu. Masisita akapatsanurwa, vamwe vachida kundibvuma, vamwe vachindiramba uye kundidzinga. Kubvuma vatariri, akadaro wekupedzisira, kwatove kukanganisa kwemutemo wedu; kubvuma mumwezve munhu kuti avashumire kunenge kuri kutsauka  zvakanyanya  kubva pavari.  zvitsauko zvina kana zvishanu

dzakaitwa zvakatevedzana, uye zvakazogumiswa kuti Abbess vaigona kungondibvuma kana paine mamiriro ekupfuura sehanzvadzi.

pamusoro pazvo, kana kuti serubatsiro runobva kumasisita rokushandira nharaunda yose. Izvi ndizvo chaizvo zvandaida, uye ndakaziva nekushamisika kunofadza kuti Mhandara Yakaropafadzwa yakanga yashandisa zvipingamupinyi chaizvo kuburitsa iyo dhimoni raida kudzivirira.

Kwapera mavhiki matanhatu, akapinda mariri sehanzvadzi isingaremekedzi.

Naizvozvo ndakagamuchirwa mukati seSista inopopotera; kwandiri zvakaita sekuti ndakaona denga richivhurika, ndakadedera nemufaro, pasina chandatendera, uye ndinotenda kuti ndingadai ndisina kutadza kuzvinzwa, kunyangwe dai ndakafanoona zvese zvandaizove nazvo mune zvaizotevera. , uye nzira ngani dzaifanira kufamba nadzo dhimoni richizunguza simba rangu, richidzivirira kubuda kwemhiko dzangu, uye kuparadza zvachose basa rangu, dai rakanga riri musimba raro... Saka apa ndazopinda muimba yechitendero yandaiva nayo. ndaishuva zvikuru, uye mumugariro wandakanga ndichishuva kwazvo, kuti denga rakanga randiratidza kubva pauduku munzira dzakawanda kwazvo  .

Chekutanga, munhu anogona kunyatsotaura kuti ndaiva mudzidzi mupfungwa izere yeshoko racho: kunyange ndisati ndava muvambi, ndawa, sokunge zvakadaro, munyika itsva, ndakanga ndiri mutsva, mutsva zvikuru kuna vose. pfungwa dzacho, dzokuti mashoko ainyanya kushandiswa muchitendero aiva algebra kwandiri. Vanhu pavakataura neni nezvekunamata, zvekutsvaga, kana kuzvinyima, zvekusiya Mwari.... zve postulancy, zveculpe, zvekuteerera, zvekushanda,  zvekushanya  . ye

guimpe aireva kutaura chiGiriki kana kuti chiHebheru; Ini ndaiwanzo sungirwa kunyarara, dzimwe nguva kuti ndisapindure, nekutya kugadzirira kuseka kududzira zvisizvo izvo zvingadai zvakasvika pakuumba dzidziso dzenhema, nekuda kwekushaya kuziva mazwi akakodzera echinhu chimwe nechimwe.

Ndakanzwa masisita vachitaura nezvebasa rangu, ndikashaya kuti vairevei; Ndingadai ndakanzwisisa zviri nani kudai vakanga vataura nezvokuravira kana kuti kombamiro yokuva anonamata, kana kuti nechishuvo chokuva mumwe. Rimwe zuva I

Ndakabvunza sisi kuti manuns ekwaya aivepi manje. Akapindura kuti vaiva pamunamato ; Ndakafungidzira kuti vaiverenga munamato wakaita sewandaiva nawo mumaHours angu; asi nokukurumidza ndakava nechikonzero chokuvaona ikoko; Ndakaona kuti vose vakanga vakapfugama, vasina chavakambotaura, vakati wandei vakavhara maziso avo, vaine mweya wekufunga uye unofunga. SO, Baba, ndakafungira kuti pfungwa dzavo dzainge dziri pane zvakakomba; kuti zvimwe vakanga vachifunga nezvaMwari; kuti vakanga vachikurukura naye, uye kuti akanga achikurukura navo panguva iyoyo, sezvo akanga azvitaura kwandiri mukusangana kwakawanda muupenyu hwangu, kwandakanga ndazviwana ndomene uye kwandakanga ndichiri kuzviwana ndimene kazhinji kazhinji ndakabatikana naye. , ndisingakwanise kuzvidzora paari kana kufunga nezvechimwe chinhu. Hapana mubvunzo, ndakazviudza, kuti  iripo

unonzi munamato. Naizvozvo ndakazvitonga ini; nokuti Mwari aivawo nomutowo wake wokuita kuti ndifungisise, uye nzira iyi ndiyo yandagara ndichitevera. Chandaida inguva (1).

(1) Mushure mezvose zvatakaona, zvinoratidzika kwandiri kuti munhu anogona kuvimbisa, pasina runyararo rukuru, kuti hapana mumwe wemweya wakanaka uyu akaita minamato seyakakwirira, kana kuti inobatsira sezvaiitwa nemwanasikana uyu murombo akanga asingazivi kunyange zita romunyengetero: ichokwadi zvokuti munhau dzokunamata kupfuura zvose, mazita, tsananguro, nzira, sainzi hachisi chinhu, uye kuti kunzwa kwoga kunobudiswa noMweya Mutsvene, ndiko kwose. Opto magis sente compunctionem quàm scire ejus definitionem. (Kubva kuImitat., chivharo 1).

Kushingairira kwake mabasa akaoma zvikuru.

Sezvo ndaifara zvikuru nemugove wangu, ndakazvipa zvizere kubasa reMasisita angu uye nenharaunda yose. Panguva iyoyo, I

handina kushayiwa simba kana basa, zvimwe ndingawedzera, kana kufarirwa pamusoro pebasa rangu rose. Maoko angu akanga akaoma, maoko angu akapingudzwa kubasa rakaoma romuruwa, uye muviri wangu wose wakanga wajaira kurovedza muviri kunorwadza. Mwari vanoziva kuti takazvitora sei! Upenyu hwangu hwakanga husina kumbonyanya kushanda kupfuura munzanga; zvose zvakanga zvakaoma kuita zvakanga zvakachengeterwa ini; uye, kana paiva nokuteerera kwakaoma, kana kuti mutoro unorema kutakura, kana mumusha wedanga kana mukicheni, Hanzvadzi murombo yoKuberekwa kwaJesu nguva dzose aifanira kuitora mugumo mumwe kana mumwe. Ndinogona kuti Baba vangu ndakaendako ndakasununguka zvakaita kuti mumwe mutongi afare kuti ndinzi ikoko.

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Ndisingagutsikane nekuyamura masista, zvichienderana nekwandaienda, ndakapawo masevhisi ese andaigona kumadzimai ekwaya, avo vaiwanzonditsigira: izvo hazvina kutora nguva refu mukukwezva nguva yakaoma, nekuti ndaifanira kuedzwa. munzira dzakawanda.

Kutambudzwa kwaanoita mwedzi mitanhatu mushure mekupinda kwake, kubva kune dzimwe hanzvadzi dzake. Kushivirira kwake panguva iyi yakaoma.

Kwemwedzi mitanhatu yakanyanyisa ndainakidzwa nenzira iyi, nechisimba, kana munhu achigona kutaura kudaro, kukudzwa kwenharaunda yose, apo dhimoni rakashandisa shanje dzemamwe Sista kumutsa dutu mandiri. ndizvo zvandaida. Baba vangu ndinogona kukuudzai nechivimbo. Mwari vanoziva kuti handina kumbovatsamwira nokuda kwaizvozvo, uye kuti nhasi ndavatsamwira  zvishoma kupfuura nakare kose. Vose vakafa; wakanga usingavazivi, uye handingadudzi mumwe wavo. Saka handifunge kuti charity inogona kukuvadzwa nenyaya inotopinda muaccount yekuti ndine chikwereti nemi.

Naizvozvo Mwari akabvumira, Baba vangu, pasina kupokana kuti vandiedze, kuti hanzvadzi mbiri dzenhema, pakati pevamwe, dzakava negodo shomanene pamusoro pemasevhisi andakanga ndaita.

ndakadzokera kumasisita ekwaya, pamwe chete noushamwari uhwo masisita ose uye kunyange Abbess vaiva nerunako rwokundiratidza (1). Mumwe wavo, pakati pevamwe, uyo panguva iyoyo akanga ari mbavha, ini kubvira ndaudzwa, akazvitora kuti aedze mwoyo murefu wangu nebasa rangu nguva dzose. Kana zvakadaro, aifanira kurumbidzwa zvikuru, uye ndine misengwa yakawanda kwaari; nokuti kwenguva refu akanga achizviruramisa kwazvo pabasa rake. Mushure mokutuka nokusuwa, mumwe akafamba kusvikira pakutambudzwa; handina kumbotaura zvakanaka, kana kuita zvakanaka; kana ndikanyarara kwaiva kuseka; kana ndataura chinhu kuti ndizviruramise, kwaiva kuzvikudza, kana kuzvitutumadza; kana ndakaita mhosva yangu nokureurura mhosva yangu, hwaiva unyengeri; i ye

ziso rakaipa uye kubva kurutivi rwakashata. Pakupedzisira, masisita ose akanga ava kuda kundipikisa munguva yakati.

1 tinotaura pano Sister, she enjoyed esteem of all, without even except vaya vaimutambudza.

Kurwisa kurwiswa kwakawanda uye kuora mwoyo kwaingove kunotevera, ndaingova nechiedza chaMwari uye nyaradzo yemukati iyo, sezvatichaona, yakanga isiri chinhu chiduku, pamwe chete nezano remutungamiriri wangu akachenjera uye anoremekedzwa, uyo kazhinji kazhinji. akauya kuzondiona kuzondikurudzira kushivirira uye kundikurudzira kupfuura zvose uye kutambura

zvose nokugara uye kurega: zvandakaedza kuita nokuda kwokuteerera uye nokuda kworudo rwaMwari.

Ndizvo zvakapfuura makore angu maviri e postulancy; asi, Baba, ndakanganwa kuti ndinofanira kutaura kwamuri pano chete nezvehupenyu hwangu hwemukati. Saka ngatidzokerei kwazviri uye ngatiregei kufunga zvakare pamusoro pezvipingamupinyi zvidiki izvi, izvo, zvisinei, ini ndangotaura newe chete maererano nezvavanozvibata nazvo. Usafunge nezvazvo, iwe neni, kunze kwekunamatira avo vaive vashoma chikonzero pane zviridzwa, uye kunyangwe ipapo pasina kunyatsozvida zvimwe, kana kufunga kufunga kuti ivo vari kuita chinhu chakanaka mune zvese izvo. Ngatibvumei zvakare, Baba, kuti ndaichida, uye kuti Mwari vangangochitendera nekuda kwezvikonzero zvaizondinakira.

Anofarirwa nechipo chehuvepo hwaMwari. Kuonekwa kwaJ.-C.

Munguva yose iyi, Baba vangu, kakuzvipira kangu kakafamba nepose pazvaigona; zvisinei nenhamo dzese dzakanzwiwa nemweya wangu, ndakarasikirwa nehuvepo hwaMwari zvishoma sezvandaikwanisa kwandiri: nekuti kwandiri zvinoita sekuti Mwari aida kunditsiva nekunditsigira pakurwiswa kwandakaitwa panguva yangu: handina kumbobvira ndave ndisati ndamboita. kusati kwambofarirwa neDenga. Huvepo hwehumwari hwakaita hunzwike kwandiri pakati pemabasa anoparadza zvakanyanya, uye kazhinji ini ndanga ndiri kuna Mwari zvachose, pandaifungwa zvachose nezvebasa rangu. Kangani kaakazviita kunzwira mweya wangu! Kangani paakataura kumwoyo wangu!

Ndichatii kwamuri Baba? uye uchatenda here kuti kakawanda muponesi wedu anoyevedza Jesu Kristu akazviita kuti aonekwe nemeso emuviri, ndinotenda ndinogona kukuvimbisa; dzimwe nguva muchimiro chemwana muduku akaisvonaka chose, kundibata nemisodzi yake ndokundikunda nokundipuruzira kwake; dzimwe nguva achifungidzira mhepo uye matauriro ejaya, ainditevera muchitokisi chedu, achindiyeuchidza nezvezvaakanga andiitira, uye dzimwe nguva achindishora nokuda kwokushayiwa kwangu kuonga nokuvimbika. "Vangani mweya mugehena," akadaro kwandiri, "vangadai vakawana utsvene hwepamusoro, dai ndakavapa hafu chete yenyasha dzandakakunambira nadzo, uye izvo zvandichafanira kuzvidavirira!" etc etc »

Ndakabva ndazadzwa nekuvhiringika, kutya nerudo zvekuti ndakashaya simba rekumupindura. Saka, kuti andisimbise, akataura neni achiratidza ushamwari hwakanaka izvo zvakaita kuti ndivezve nechivimbo; akandiudza, somuenzaniso, kuti ndaifanira kuzvinyaradza uye kusarasikirwa noushingi; kuti arege kundiparadza

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favours dzake, kuti aisazobvisa nyasha dzake kwandiri, kana ndaida kumuvimbisa kuva akatendeka zvakanyanya mune ramangwana...

Mazwi akawanda kwazvo, misuva yakawanda yechiedza yandakavhenekerwa nayo uye sokunge ndaremerwa; Kutarisa kwake kwese kwakapinda muzasi memweya wangu: ndakavhiringidzika uye kunze kwangu, kazhinji ndaisaziva zvandaive ndiri pamberi pake. Mutongi wenzvimbo iyo maitiro anokatyamadza akadaro paari akandiisa! Kune rumwe rutivi kutya kwekunyepedzera, kune imwe  kusavimba

kundituka, kwakandipinza mudambudziko nokunyadziswa izvo dzimwe nguva zvaiita sokunakidza. Ndiwe here, nhai Mwari wangu! Ndakamuudza here rimwe zuva kuti akataura neni nenzira inobaya mwoyo? Ndimi here, Muponesi wangu naMwari wangu? nekuti kana uri iwe, ndiregererewo nekutya kwangu kuita zvemanyepo. Naizvozvo, Baba vangu, vakatambanudza ruoko rwavo kwandiri, vachitaura kwandiri mashoko aya aakataura kuvaapostora vake, pavakamutora semudzimu pashure pokumuka kwake: “Musatya, ndini. »

Miedzo yemureurura wake kuti azvisimbise nezvechokwadi chezviratidzo izvi.

Rimwe zuva, mureururi wangu, asingazivi zvokufunga pamusoro pezvose zvandakanga ndamuudza nezveizvi zvimiro zvakasiyana-siyana, akandirayira kuti ndimubvunze kwenguva yokutanga revo yechimwe chikamu chisingazivikanwi zvikuru cheMagwaro Matsvene. Handina kuda kutora basa iri pachangu nekutya kushaya ushingi kana ndangariro yakakwana yekuyeuka mazwi. Jesu Kristu aida kugadzirisa kunyara kwangu uye kupinda mumuedzo waidiwa. Huya, mwanasikana wangu, akati kwandiri achiswedera kwandiri, udza mukuru wako kuti chikamu cheMagwaro chaanoda kutsanangura chinoreva chinhu chakati nezvakati, chaanondiudza. Ichi chikamu, akawedzera Jesu Kristu, chakanyorwa mumamiriro ezvinhu akadaro, nomunyori akadaro uyo ipapo aiva nepfungwa yakadaro  mupfungwa dzake  .

director wangu zvese zvanga zvataurwa kwandiri, uye izvo ndakabva ndarasa ndangariro. Ndinongorangarira chokwadi chose, uye kuti mureurura wangu akandiudza panguva iyoyo kuti tsananguro iyi ndiyo yaigutsa zvikuru yaakanga asati aona chero kupi zvako panzvimbo iyi isina kujeka.

Maiwe! Baba vangu, mureururi mumwecheteyo akanga asina chikonzero chokugutsikana nerimwe basa randakanga ndanzi ndiite kwaari. Yakanga iri yambiro diki yekuti zvakandidyira mari yakawanda kuti ndimuzivise, kunyanya sezvo ndakafanoona kuti aifanira kunyadziswa nazvo. Zvisinei, akagamuchira zano rangu nokuzviisa pasi kukuru kukuda kwoumwari. Ndizvo chete zvandinorangarira; nokuti pakarepo kutumwa kwangu kwapera, Mwari akandidzivisazve kurangarira zvose zvaakanga andiraira kuti nditaure kwaari. Saka ndizvo zvega zvandinokwanisa kupupura pazviri.

Ichokwadi, Baba, uye Mwari vakanga vaita kuti ndizvinzwisise zvakakwana, ndaifanira kupfuura zvakatevedzana kubva murunyararo kuenda kune dambudziko, uye kubva mudutu kuenda mukugadzikana; kubva kuchiedza vachienda kune rima, nokubva kurima vachienda kuchiedza; sezvo gore gobvu rinokwanisa chete kuvharidzira zuva pacharo, chimwe chiedza kana kuti mwaranzi inopinda mugore inokwana kutinyengetedza kuvapo kwaro, pasinei nerima rinorivanza kubva pakuona kwedu. Zvakanaka! Baba zvakangofanana nezuva remweya sezvarinoita remiviri.

Musiyano pakati pekushanda kwaMwari nekwadhiabhorosi. Migumisiro yekuvapo kwaMwari mumweya.

Musiyano wakadini pakati pekushanda kwaMwari nebasa radhiabhorosi! uye kuti mweya unozviwana unozviwana uchikanganiswa zvakasiyana pakusvika kweimwe uye pakusvika  kweimwe  ! Izvi, Baba vangu, ndizvo zvandakatowana  mukana

kuti ndikuratidze kanopfuura kamwechete, uye pandisingagone kurega kukuudza chimwe chinhu, ndichitaura nezvemukati mangu, sezvo ngirozi yerima, sezvatakatsanangura kare, yakamboedza kundinyengedza, nekushandura kuva ngirozi. yechiedza. Pakusvika kwedhimoni, kunongova kusahadzika, kunetseka, rima uye kutya,

kuora mwoyo, nezvimwewo; heino dutu, ibasa remweya wakaipa rinotakura nyonganyonga, nyonganyonga, nhamo negehena kwose kwose.

Mukupesana, kana ari Mwari anouya, munhu anonzwa kudzikama, runyararo runotapira, rugare rukuru rusingaudzi nyengedzo, uye ane mukurumbira usingagoni kunyange kusvika; chiedza chakapfava uye chine upenyu chinopinda mumweya pasina chinomanikidzirwa, chinotakura ipapo kupwiswa kwehuvepo hwoumwari, uye chinoratidzika kuva chinoti kushungu dzakadzvinyirirwa: nyarara, hoyu Ishe. Ipapo kune kudzikama kwakadzika, runyararo rusina chinhu chinogona kuvhiringidza, uye murunyararo urwu rwepfungwa umo kuravira uye kunhuhwirira kwehumwari zvinonzwika mukati memweya, asi nenzira iyo isingabviri kupa zvakanaka chero ipi zvayo. kuenzanisa. Zvinwiwa zvakanyanyisa kunaka, the

mapefiyumu anoyevedza zvikuru, mavara akajeka zvikuru, makonzati ane mutinhimira zvikuru haana chinhu chinoswedera pedyo nawo, nokuti Mwari haana ukama nemirangariro yomuviri.

Zvisinei, tinozvinzwa, tinozvibata, tinozviravira, tinozvinzwa; asi zvose izvi zvinoitika mukatikati mepfungwa yepedyo. Mwari akanyatsobatanidzwa nemweya; ipapo achafarira kunaka kwoumambo, kuri munhaka yaMwari wake.

Kuyerera kubva kuparadhiso. Ndakati chii? isu pachedu tiri paradhiso

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mupenyu uye ane upenyu. Mweya unogara pamberi paMwari wawo, naMwari wawo unogara maari; uye pano, mumashoko maviri, kune mufaro wose wevatsvene, kunze kwekuti hapana chingafungidzirwa.

Shoko rimwechete rinotaurwa naMwari mumweya rine zvarinoreva zvisingaperi.

Munguva ino inofadza, Baba vangu, mweya unozvipira kune zvifambiso izvo huvepo hwaMwari wawo hunoita kuti unzwe, uyo anotora masimba awo ose, kuti avabatanidze zvakanyanya. Mufarwa wakadini hauwanikwi mumubatanidzwa uyu usingarondedzereki wechisikwa chine Uhu hwakanakisisa huri zvose zviri zviviri musimboti wacho nomugumo wacho wokupedzisira, mauri chinowana kuvapo kwacho kwakakwana nokwakakomborerwa, KUNAKA kwacho kusingagumi nouchangamire  ! Achifara nerufaro rwaMwari wake, uyu mweya une rombo rakanaka unorerekera nzeve yake kune matauriro anonaka eizwi rake anomuroya; anoshambira murukova rwekuzvidira kwakachena, nezvimwewo; uye pano zvakare, Baba, ndipo pamunofanira kutanga kubva kuti munyatsonzwisisa mazwi andagara ndichidzokorora kwamuri munhoroondo yandakakupai:Ndinoona muna Mwari, ndinoona muchiedza chaMwari, Mwari vakandiudza. Mwari vakaita kuti ndione, zvichingodaro ; nokuti kutaura kwose uku kwakasiyana kunoreva kuti zvandiri kutaura zvakaitika mandiri nenzira yandisingagoni kuzvipa neimwe nzira, asi yakanyatsojeka uye yokunyengetedza, zvokuti hapana chinhu chiri munyika chingaenzaniswa nouchapupu hwacho, uye kuti chakaomera zvikuru vemweya. munhu kuti azvinyengedze ipapo, sezvo zvisingabviri kuti munhu wenyama anzwisise chinhu pamusoro pazvo. Shoko rimwe chete rakataurwa seizvi kubva kuna Mwari rine zvarinoreva zvisingagumi, uye rinotaura zvakawanda zvikuru kumweya unorinzwa, kupfuura kutaura kwese kweunyanzvi hwemunhu hungaite, uye kupfuura zvarinoreva chokwadi.  I

Ndichakutorai, kana muchida, kahunhu kadiki-diki mukufamba, uye parinouya mupfungwa dzangu (1).

(1) Ndibvumirei zvakare kubvunza kana zviri zvomuzvarirwo, kana zvine musoro kufunga kuti mweya unotaura saizvozvo unogona kuva pasi pekunyepedzera? Pane chimwe chinhu chine humwari kupfuura mutauro watichangobva kunzwa here? Munhu asingazive angazvibata sei? Baba venhema vangamufurira sei?... Asi ngatirambei tichimunzwa  pachake.

Humwe husiku apo, panguva yekusarara, ndakafunga hunyoro hwaMwari kwandiri, izwi rimwe chete, mwana wangu , raakaita kuti ndinzwe kakawanda, rakabva rauya mupfungwa dzangu, uye nezwi iri chete. kupenya kwechiedza kwakandibata, uye hechino chinhu chakaita kuti ndinzwisise mu

wink.

Hongu, mwanasikana wangu, uri mwana wangu, uye watopfuura mumwe chete; cherechedza zvandiri kwauri, zvauri kwandiri; onai zvandakakuitirai maererano nechisikigo, maererano nenyasha; wakadya marii murudo rwangu, uye tonga kubva ipapo kuti unofanira kunge uri mudikani kumwoyo wangu; rangarira zvakanakira kusikwa kwako, rudzikinuro rwako, kufanotemerwa kwako; rangarira mafambiro ekufanotaura, mafambiro andakakuyambira, uye undiudze kana ndine kodzero yekukudaidza kuti mwana wangu? Ndiudze kana mwoyo wangu une kodzero pane yako, uye kana uchikwanisa kunyunyuta nekusakendenga kwako? Ah! usazvipokane, Baba havana kumbova nekodzero dzinoenzana nedzangu, uye mwana haana kumbova nezvisungo zvinoera kana kuti zvinonyanya kukosha kupfuura zvako kwandiri  .

Hongu, mwanasikana wangu, uri mwana wangu, uye hechino chinhu chandinoda kukutenda kwako pamusoro pemikomborero yangu yose; rudo rwangu ruchakurayirai  mutemo, nyatsoteererai kuti murege kutsauka pauri. Ndinoda kuti uite kuda kwangu muzvinhu zvose, kuti urege kuitazve asi kuda kumwe chete, nokuti mwana anofanira kungoda chete zvinodiwa naBaba vake. Nenzira imwecheteyo, ndinoda kuti iwe uvhare rudo rwako murudo rwangu, kuti uite rudo rumwe chete uye rwakafanana, uye rusina pakati, pasina kupatsanura uye  pasina.

hapana kuchengetwa, sezvo mwoyo wemwana wakanyatsobatanidzwa kune yevanyori vekuvapo kwayo; uyo anomukurira nengwariro, kutarisira kwechido uye marudzi ose ebetsero.

Zvakakodzera, mwanasikana wangu, kuti upe kwandiri zvese zvitsvage iwe uye kuzvida kwako, rudo rwese rwepanyika, zvese zvidzokere kune chisikwa, kusada uye kuda chimwe chinhu munyika kunze kwangu, kwandiri, uye nekuti. kwandiri Uyu ndiye anonzi musikana chaiye anodaira zvizere zita rakanaka iri, uye ndizvo zvandinodawo kuti unzwe nezita rimwe chete iri.

zvemwana wandakakupa kakawanda, uye kuti iwe unofanirwa kushanda kuti unokodzera kupfuura nakare kose, kuburikidza neunyoro, kureruka, kuzivikanwa kwemwana, hunyoro, kuzviisa pasi uye rudo rwerudo, izvo zvinofanirwa kukupa iwe zvakanyanya uye zvakanyanya kukodzera.

Zvose izvi, Baba vangu, nezvimwe zvakawanda, zvakabatanidzwa mumwaranzi muduku wechiedza uyo wakaerekana wandivhenekera muchinguvana, paizwi rimwechete rokuti “mwana,” iro rakatanga kuitika kwandiri. asi zvose izvi zvakaunzwa kwandiri, uye sokudhindwa kwazvaiitwa, nekujeka nekudzika kwakaita kuti ndizvione muzvinhu zvose. Ah! Baba, kutaura kwomunhu hakuna simba uye kushoma sei mukuenzaniswa! Kuti haana simba rekupa izvo Mwari anoita kuti zvionekwe nekuchonya kamwe chete kumweya uyo une mufaro wekuve nawo.

! Ngatimbosendekai, ndapota, kuenderera mberi kusvika manheru ano, mushure mekunge waverenga hofisi yehumwari.

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Zviitwa zveSista zvehuMwari. Kukwezva kwake mukuzvininipisa, kuregeredza uye kutendeuka.

“Muzita raBaba, etc. »

Baba vangu, kunze kweichi chiitiko chenguva dzose chekuvapo kwaMwari, ndakaita minamato yangu yemanheru neyemangwanani nemazvo chaizvo sezvandaikwanisa. Kunyange zvazvo ndaingoenda kunoreurura vhiki yoga yoga zvikuru, asi ndaitaura kakawanda, maererano nezano romukuru wangu. Madame L'Abbess vakandiitira mutsa wavakandiratidza mukusangana kwechuru, pamusoro pezvose nerusununguko ruzere uye rwakakwana rwavakandisiya nehanya nezvese zvine chekuita nekunamata kwangu.

Maonero andaive ndanzwa pakutanga, uye akange anditemesa zvizere, aive fungidziro yaigara ichinditungamira mukuzvininipisa, mukuramba, kutendeuka. Nguva dzose ndainzwa kumanikidzwa kuramba zvakanyanya nyika, chivi neni. Ndakatsvaga mukana wese kuti ndifadze Mwari kuburikidza nekunyaradza pfungwa. Nyasha dzakaita kuti ndishandise nzira dzakawanda dzeizvi, dzimwe nguva vatungamiri vangu vakanditorera: zvingave zvisingabatsiri kutsanangura kwavari.

Pamakore maviri angu epostulancy dhimoni rakanga randisiya ndiri ndega. Ndakanga ndangodzidziswa nevanhu vashoma vaiva mumba; uye Mwari, sezvataona, akanga aita hanya kunditsigira nokundinyaradza ari oga. Hazvina kugara zvichionekwa saizvozvo mune inotevera, apo kurwa kwaive kwakanyanya uye kwechimiro chakasiyana zvachose.

Mushure memakore ake maviri e postulancy, hurombo hwake hukuru chipingamupinyi pakubvuma kwake. Marwadzo ake uye kuedza kwake kubudirira.

Nguva yokusiya zvipfeko zvezana remakore kuti nditore zvechitendero yakanga yava kusvika, uye iyi nzira yakamutsa dutu rerumwe rudzi. Kutanga, kuti nditange novitiate yangu, ndaifanira kupa chitsama che300 pounds. Ndakakumbirwa, uye ndaingova nemakirogiramu 6 chete, ndisina tariro yokuzombova nezvakawanda. Chimhingamupinyi chekutanga ichi, chaiita sechidiki kune vamwe vazhinji, chaive chikuru maererano neni, uye chichikwanisa kuvhiringa zvinhu zvese; nokuti zvose zvaidiwa, uye nokuzviwana kupi? Vakandibvumira, zvakadaro, uye ndizvo chete zvavaikwanisa kundipa, kuti nditore rwendo rweJanson Chapel, kuti ndiedze kuona kana panzvimbo yekuzvarwa kwangu pakanga pasati pave neimwe mweya inopa zvipo zvakakwana uye ndinzwe wakasununguka kundibatsira nazvo. chero chinhu. Kutsvaga kwangu kwakange kusina basa. uye ndakaneta zvikuru pasina. Hama dzangu dzose dzakanga dziri varombo seni; mudzidzisi wedu akanga apa maakaundi ake, uye nhamba yacho yakanga isisakwani kuripa mari yemutemo uye kutipa zvatinoda muupenyu. Zvandaiita zvakangoguma nokundifumura kunjodzi yekupedzisira yandakapinda munyika  .

Ndichidzoka kubva kumusha kwangu, ndakarwiswa nomumwe murume akanga akadhakwa, akataura mashoko akaipa kwazvo kwandiri, uye wandakanga ndichifanira kuzvidzivirira kwaari. Kutya, uye manzwiro akasimba ayo akandikonzera, zvakandipa fivha, nekuwedzera kwekusemesa nyika iyo yaingondipa njodzi pasina nyaradzo kana sosi. Izvi ndizvo chete zvandakadzosa kunharaunda pakudzoka kurwara, mazuva matatu mushure mekunge ndabva.

Kunofanira kubvumwa, Baba, kuti nzvimbo yangu yakanga yakasuruvarisa zvikuru, uye mugumo wangu wakanga usina chokwadi zvikuru, zvimwe ndichifunga nezvawo bedzi kurutivi rwezvinhu zvavanhu. Nharaunda pachayo yaida rubatsiro, uye ndakaona, kwete pasina kutya kukuru, vatauri, vakapfuma kwazvo mukuenzanisa neni, vachiuya kuzotora nzvimbo yangu, neroora rakawanda. Kutya kwakadii

! kusuwa kwakadini! Ndingadai ndakaenda pasuo nesuo nomufaro kuti ndifarire tsitsi dzavagari veFougères, kudai vakanga vachida kundibvumira kuita kudaro, kuedza kuwana kwavari zvakakwana zvokubvumirwa kutora muitiro wacho.

Anotendeukira kuna Maria, anozopedzisira agamuchirwa kune novitiate, uye anotora zita reHanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu.

Ndisingachazivi, sezvavanotaura, kuti ndeupi mutsvene wandinofanira kuzvipira kwaari, ndakataura nevakuru, ndichivakumbirisa munyasha kuti vandiremekedze kuvabereki vavo; asi handizivi kuti nei, pashure pokukurukura pakati pavo vamene, vakapindura kuti vakanga vasiri kutora chinhu chipi nechipi uye vaisagona kundiwana chinhu chipi nechipi. Kuodza mwoyo kwakadini! Ndakazviona ndichigara manheru ekudzingwa basa, uye pakanga patove nenhaurwa dzekundiisa mumusha wemudyandigere semuranda  ! Ndaichema siku nesikati, ndisingazorori kana  kunyaradzwa.

 Kuva  chii ? Ndichiona ndasiiwa nemunhu wese, ndakacheuka

Mwari, ndichitevera tsika yangu yokuwana maari chandakanga ndisingachakwanisi kuzvipikira ndimene nezvemitoo yavanhu, uye ndakaedza zvakare kufadza Amai voumwari vaJ. asi kuti akanga ari zvomenemene, sezvo airatidza kunzwa kwose uye hanya yose kwandiri.

Saka ndakakumbira zvakare Mhandara Yakaropafadzwa kuti andibudise mumamiriro ezvinhu akaipa aya, kana, kana iwe uchida zviri nani, kubva mumamiriro ezvinhu asina kunaka aya. Ndakamuvimbisa kuti kana aida kundiwanira admission

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kutora tsika yacho, ndaipisa kenduru ndotaura misa pamberi pechifananidzo chake cheSaint-Sulpice, kwandakanga ndaita mhiko dzangu dzokutanga; kuti ini ndaizotora tsika yemamongi pasi pezvimiro zvayo, uye mutambo weKuzvarwa kwaJesu wezita rangu rechitendero, nekukurumidza kwakaitika.

Hazvina kumboitika kwandiri kuti nditaure pachangu kuMhandara Yakaropafadzwa mukutambudzika kwakadaro ndisina kugamuchira panguva imwechete tariro yakawanda uye zororo. Pashure pomunyengetero uyu, wakandinyaradza zvikuru, ndakaenda kunotsvaga Amai vedu; ndipo pakabva paita Madame Saint Joachim, ndikavakumbira kuti vandiise muchitsauko kuitira kuti vazondisarudzira mafambiro angu. mai vedu vaindida

pachokwadi, uye ungadai usina kundiramba neziso risina hanya. Usandichimbidze, akandiudza; pfungwa inouya kwandiri: ndinoda kutora nguva yangu uye yangu

zviyero; ndisiye, ndichaita zvese kukuchengeta, uve nechokwadi nazvo. Saka ndakasarudza kumirira, kutarisira uye kunamata, nokuti nechekare hapana chandakaora mwoyo.

Pakupedzisira Madame the Abbess vakaunganidza chitsauko pachiitiko changu, umo, nekuchengeta kwavo kana neimwe nzira, zvese zvakaenda zvekuti, kunyangwe zvakapihwa zvakati wandei zvevakapfuma postulants, kunyangwe nezano remasisita muhuwandu hukuru, ndakave nemufaro kuhwina. . Ndakapinzwa kunova novitiate, ndisina kana roora, uye pazita rehurombo, izvo zvamazvirokwazvo zvakanga zvisiri zvechitsotsi kana zvokufungidzira. Naizvozvo pakupedzisira ndakatora muitiro mutsvene worudzidziso, une zita rokuti Hanzvadzi Yokuzvarwa kwaJesu, iro ndagara ndichipfeka kubvira ipapo. Ah! Hanzvadzi inotambura yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu, ihondo ngani dzauchiri kuchengetedza uye nenjodzi dzekutya kuponeswa kwako uye nekutsveneswa kwako! Usatarisire kuti dhimoni richakusiya  uri wega kwenguva yakareba mune ino nyowani yauchangobva kumbundira uye chaive chinhu chekushanda kwako kwenguva yakareba  !

Muedzo wechisimba wadhiabhorosi achipikisana nebasa rake.

Kudzikama nokudaro kwakabudirira zvakare kumhepo Yamasimba masimba; asi zvinosuwisa! kwaingove kuita kuti pave nekupopotedzana kwakatonyanya kushatirwa kupfuura zvese zvekare; nokuti, sezvandakakutaurirai kakawanda, upenyu hwangu hurombo kusvika zvino hwave husiri chinhu kunze kwekutevedzana kwemarwadzo neshungu, kwenyaradzo nekusuwa, kwerufaro nekusuwa, kwerima nemwenje, miyedzo nekufarirwa  . Ngazvifadze Kudenga, Baba, magumo ngaave akadzikama nekudzikama!

Dhimoni, iro kwenguva refu rakanga rashandisa nzira dzokunze bedzi kundivhiringidza, rakadzokera kukurwisa kwaro kwokutanga. Kwemwedzi yakati wandei ndave ndichinakidzwa nerufaro rwekupfekedzwa tsika tsvene yandaida, paakamutsa mandiri kuravira kwenyika yandakanga ndasiya, uye zvishuwo zvandainge ndasiya, kunyangwe nguva refu ndisati ndapinda. muchitendero Akadzokorora kwandiri zvakajeka kuti sezvo ndakanga ndisina kudanwa nokuda kwenzvimbo tsvene yakadaro, ndakanga ndatora, pakupinda mairi, nhano dzokusachenjera zvikurusa uye dzine ngozi zvikurusa nokuda kwenguva yemberi. mhiko, ndaizofumura ruponeso rwangu rusingaperi; kuti mhiko idzi dzechimbichimbi dzinoitwa zvinopesana nechido chaMwari, dzive kwandiri chitubu chekutendeuka, uye ndishumire chete. kuti vandiwedzere kuva nemhosva, uye kuti ivo vagova mhaka yangu nemhosva; kuti taifanira kufunga nezvazvo nguva ichiripo; kuti zvaive nani zvakapetwa kachuru kuzvidza ruremekedzo rwevanhu nekusiya nharaunda, pane kuzviitira kusafara ipapo nekusingaperi nekuzvigadzirisa ipapo zvisingachinjiki, nezvimwe, zvichingodaro.

Pfungwa dzehutsinye idzi dzakandivhiringidza nekundishungurudza zvekuti ndakashaya zvachose rugare nekuzorora; pasisina runyararo, hope dzaive dzisina kuvhiringwa nehope dzinotyisa. Ndanga ndichifunga, ndaichema, ndainamata; pakupedzisira, ndakapotsa ndakundwa nekufunganya kwenyama uku, ndakafunga kuregera uye kubvuma. Rimwe zuva apo, ndakabatikana zvizere neizvi zvinosiririsa uye zvinokatyamadza zvinokatyamadza, ndakanga ndichipfuura pamberi pechechi, zvakanyatsojeka ndakanzwa inzwi raiita serinobuda pakadzika penzvimbo tsvene, uye rakati kwandiri: Hei chii ! mwanasikana wangu, ungada kundisiya here? Kwete, iwe haungandipukunyuki!

Iri inzwi, randakaona kuti nderaJ.-C. pachake, rakandizadza nenyonganyonga pakundizivisa musungo womuvengi wangu, uye muedzo wacho wakanyangarika. Aiwa, Ishe wangu naMwari wangu, ndakapindura pakarepo, ndichiti, aiwa, tenzi wangu anodikamwa, handingakusiyei: munoziva chishuvo chandinofanira kukusarudzai kuti muve mugove wangu uye kuti ndive wenyu chose nokusingaperi.

Kuti ndive nechokwadi chehana yangu, ndakaenda kunotsvaga mutungamiriri wangu, uyo panguva iyoyo akanga ari mushakabvu M. Duclos. Akanga andipfekedza tsika tsvene yechitendero. Ndakataura naye nezvemuyedzo wandaive ndanzwa, akabudirira kundisimbisa uye kuubvisa. Ingorega kugumira ipapo, akandiudza, uye usaudze chero munhu. Kuora mwoyo kwako kunongobva kudhimoni; huya, hanzvadzi yangu, uzvidze muvengi wako; Chinongodiwa pakuita izvozvo hushingi hushomanana: ndinopindura nokuda kweshoko renyu  (1).

(1) Hanzvadzi yacho payakataura neni saizvozvo, pakanga patova nemakore mashanu kana matanhatu kubva pakafa M. Duclos mutaundi reParrigné, zvikwata zviviri zvekuFougères. Panguva iyoyo aive nemakore makumi manomwe nerimwe, uye akange atonga paramende iyi kweanenge makumi maviri. Ndakanga ndave ndiri mufundisi wake wokupedzisira kwamakore masere, uye akanga ari mumaoko angu kuti akafa. Akanga agara achitaura neni pamusoro pevanasitere veUrbanist avo vaakange arayira kwenguva yakareba asati ava mutungamiriri, uye pakati pevamwe veHanzvadzi akanditumidza zita reKuberekwa, semusikana anoshamisa nokuda kwesimba rake rakanaka, uye ne zviedza zvaakanga apiwa naMwari. Akataura kwandiri zvimwe zvimiro zvezvakazarurwa zvake, izvo zvakanga zvakonzera nyonganyonga, uye zvandakawana kuti zvinonyatsoenderana nenyaya yandakapiwa naSista kubva ipapo. Kana iye kana neni anozivikanwa.

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Kurwiswa kunotyisa kwakauyiswa kwaari nedhimoni panguva yebasa rake.

Kubva panguva iyoyo, Baba vangu, dhimoni rakaita serakavhiringika uye rakandisiya ndiri ndega, kusvikira panguva yekududza mhiko dzangu, paakadzokera kumhosva nehasha kupfuura nakare kose, uye akandipa kurwiswa kunotyisa kwandakanga ndatambura zvakare. him; kurwiswa kunogona kuverengerwa zviri nyore pakati pezvinhu zvehupenyu hwangu izvo vazhinji vasingazotendi, uye kuti vanozongotora seimwe yezvavanoda kuti zvibereko kana kunyengera kwekufungidzira kwangu. Zvisinei vachiri kuzvitora pano, hechino chokwadi sezvakaitika pamberi pemeso angu:

Apo, kutevera mhemberero yebasa, vanaamai

kutungamirirwa kubva pasi pekwaya kusvika kumusoro, kuti ndigamuchire chidzitiro, korona yemhinzwa, nezvimwewo, uye kuti nditaure mhiko dzangu dzakarembera ipapo, ndakaona pamberi pangu chitunha, chikara chinotyisa chine chimiro chakareba. kubva kune yebere, kunyange zvazvo rakanga richiri kutyisa zvikuru. Akakwira nomufaro pakuimba, achitendeukira kwandiri panguva imwe neimwe, nenzira yaityisa nokuipa; aiita seakaoma musoro zvekuvhundutsa fungidziro dzangu. Akandipa kunzwisisa kuti akanga ari iye oga kuti ndiite mhiko dzangu; kuti purofiti yese yaizowana kwaari, uye kuti dai ndakashinga kuti nditore danho rekupedzisira iri, hapangazove netariro yeruponeso rwangu, sezvo denga raizondisiya zvachose kusimba raro, nezvimwe, nezvimwe. , nezvimwewo

Tongai, Baba vangu, kana, panguva yakaoma kudai, kana munhu asingazvizivi, ndinofanira kunge ndarohwa nekuzununguswa nechiratidzo ichi chinoshamisa? Chii chingadai chakaitika kwandiri, ndinokubvunzai, dai Mwari akanga asati ava netsitsi dzokundibatsira panguva ino yakaipa, kana kuti dai rubatsiro rwakanga rusina kuenzana nemutsa nemamiriro ezvinhu ekurwisa? Naizvozvo ndakatsvaga kwaari ndiri ndoga zvakare munjodzi iyi inotambudza, uye akabvumira mashoko chaiwo emhemberero yacho kuti andipe zvombo zvandaida kurova muvengi wangu uye kuwana rukundo rwakakwana paari.

Sezvo kwaya inosimuka, mhemberero inotsanangura mitsara mitatu, pane imwe neimwe iyo kwaya inoimba mazwi anotanga naSuscipe ... , uye ane chirevo, chandakanga ndadzidza zvakanaka, chinenge: Gamuchira, Ishe, kuzvipira uye kutsaurirwa kwenyu. chisikwa, uye usandirega ndichikanganiswa, nokuti ndimi moga ndini ndakaisa tariro yangu yose. Revo yeaya mashoko akaisvonaka yaisagona kuuya kwandiri nenzira yakarurama murutivi rwuri rwose.

Mwari neChechi vakazviisa mumuromo mangu, uye kutaura muruvoko rwangu, uye ndakavashandisa sechombo chinogumbura uye chekudzivirira, icho chandakabaya nacho muvengi wangu panguva yaaizvibata kumeso nekukunda, uye kwaakange aita. vakakunda nekumwe kusazvibata.

Saka ndakazvitaura katatu nemoyo wese, kana kutya kwandainge ndasiirwa kuti ndiite kudaro, uye katatu ndakavatora simba remukati randainzwa richiwedzera. Haiwa Mwari wangu, ndakati, regai kundinetsa, sezvo ndakatarisira

IWE. Gamuchira, ndinokusimudzira, kukudzwa kwezvishuwo zvangu uye munhu wangu! Ndinokutora iwe semugove wangu chete, uye ndewewe wega wandinozvipira uye kuti ndinoda kuva kwenguva uye nekusingaperi ....

Nechekare chikara chainge chanyangarika nemhepo yaityisa uye neruvengo. Asi kutya kwangu kwakaramba kuripo, uye kwairatidzika kunge kwakapetwa kaviri sezvo nguva yaiswedera. Ndasvika pamusoro pekwaya, ndakaita nhamburiko pachangu, uye ndakatsunga kuva netariro pamusoro petariro yose, kana kuri madikanwa. Ndakazviwisira pachangu pamabvi nepatsoka dzaAbbess, kuvimbisa kuteerera kwake sezvakaita J.-C. pachake, uye kubva panguva iyoyo ndakapfuura kubva kugehena kuenda kudenga. Kudzikama kwakadzama kwakakunda dutu rehasha zvikuru, uye J.C. akaita kuti anzwe pasi pemwoyo wangu mazwi anonyaradza aya akabvisa dambudziko rose nekushushikana kose: "Ndinogamuchira, mwanasikana wangu, rukudzo rwezvishuwo zvako uye munhu; iva wakatendeka kwandiri uye usatya, ini ndichaziva nzira yekukudzivirira kuvavengi vako. Ndini wawakatora kuti ugovane, uye ndini, kana ukadavira kuchiito chako, uyo achava mugove wako munguva nekusingaperi. »

Kamwe chete, Baba, ndakafunga kuti mufaro wangu wakanga wasimbiswa, uye naizvozvo ndakanga ndichiri kuzvirumbidza zvikuru. Panguva iyoyo, ndakanzwa kufara uye kudzikama kwazvo zvokuti ndingadai ndakazvishingisa kuzvidza hero yose. Kwaizova kufungidzira, uye J.-C. haadi kuti tivimbe pachedu. Chikara, chandainge ndisisatyi, chainge chavhiringika nerubatsiro rwedenga chete, ichokwadi; akanga atotiza; asi hazvina kutora nguva refu, uye ndakanga ndadaro

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kuchine hondo dzakawanda dzinofanira kurwiwa, misikanzwa yakawanda yekutsungirira kubva kwaari. Tichazotaura nezvazvo imwe nguva.

Mafaro anoshamisa aanogashira kubva kuna J.-C. Mafaro ake nemafaro ake.

“Muzita raBaba, etc. »

Pakupedzisira, Baba vangu, mhiko dzangu dzakasimba dzakataurwa, kupupura kwangu kwakaitwa, zvisinei nekuedza kwose kwegehena; Pakupedzisira ndakanga ndiri sisita nokusingaperi, uye J.-C. akanga asina nguva refu mukundiratidza kugutsikana kwake nenyasha itsva uye dzakaenzana; ndakati chii? aipfuura zvese zvandainge ndamuitira. Ndakanga ndisati ndambotaurirwa mwedzi mishoma asati ataura kwandiri nenyasha nenyasha dzakawanda kwazvo kupfuura nakare kose, uye zvakabva zvaita semazuva ese kusvika ipapo, muchazvitenda here, Baba? migumisiro yacho. Handitombodi kuzvitaura, ndichityira kuti zvinhu zvakakomba zvikuru zvandakakuita kuti unyore zvinganzi zvakaitwa kunyanyisa; nokuti, Baba vangu,

Ungati Mwari vanosungirwa kugumira ipapo, pasina kumwe kwaunoenda. Vachitsigirwa nechikonzero chinonyengera sechisina simba, vanotsunga, sekutaura, kumutsvakira mutsara uyo, maererano navo, haakwanise kutsauka, uye kuramba nekuzvikudza uye nekuzvidza, sevasina kufanira kwaari, zvose zvinoita. vasingabvumirani nenzira yavo yekuona nekutonga. Ngavazive, ava vanopenga, kuti Mwari haana hanya navo, uye kuti pasinei nokufunga kwavo kuduku, anoita zvinomufadza, uye nenzira yaanoona zvakakodzera, nokuda kwokubwinya kwake  uye kwaziwai kune vose vanoda kugamuchira. advantage yacho...

Kutanga, Baba vangu, J.-C. vakataurirana neni uye vakandiita kuti ndiwane chiedza chinoshamisa icho dzimwe nguva chinosvika pakuburitsa kushaikwa kwekushandiswa kwenjere, kubvutwa, kufara… Mushure mebasa rangu, ini handina kana kumbosvika. akaita Chirairo asina kumbosangana nazvo. Bhera rakanga richirira pedyo neni; takanga tichiimba; masister akapinda

kwaya, kana kubuda mairi, ndisina kumbozviona. Ndakatorwa muna Mwari, asi ndichiri munzvimbo yangu, ndisingafambi uye ndisinganzwe. Ndichidzokera kwandiri, handina kugarorangarira zvakanga zvaitika mukati mangu. Heano, zvisinei, pane mashoma maitiro andakarangarira zvakanyanya, uye zvandichakuudza: saka tinogona kufunga nezvawo zvese zvatinoda. Mukupa nhoroondo iyi kwamuri, ndichange ndichiri kungoteerera murayiro wandakagamuchira.

Anozviona semwana mudiki mumaoko aJ.-C.

Nguva yokutanga chinhu chakadaro chakaitika kwandiri kwaiva muchirairo, mwedzi mina kana mishanu pashure pemhiko dzangu dzakakomba. Chishamiso chinofadza zvakadini, apo pakati pechiedza chinopenya zvikuru uye chakatambanuka zvikuru, uye apo kuvapo kwaMwari kwakazviita kumene kunooneka zvikuru kupfuura nakare kose, ndakazviwana ndimene ndiri muchimiro chomwana muduku mumaoko aJ.-C. , akandichengeta. Ndakaputirwa manapukeni, ndisina simba, ndisingafambi; chandakanga ndiinacho kupfuura vanawo zvavo kwaiva kungwara kuziva mubatsiri wangu, uye kuda kumuda, kumutenda, pasina kukwanisa kuita saizvozvo. Ndinoyeuka kuti akataura kwandiri achindipuruzira: “Ndozvakadaro, mwana wangu, kuti kutarisira kwangu kwagara kuchitarisira kuchengetedzwa kwako, uye kuti wakagara uri mumaoko orudo rwangu. Nokuti,

Naizvozvo ndinoda, mwanasikana wangu, akaenderera mberi, kuti apindure kune kutarisirwa kwehunyoro hwangu, kuti, semwana mudiki waunomiririra panguva ino, iwe unoenderana mune zvese kuda kwangu kutsvene, kuita uye kungongoda izvo zvandichada  .  imi  .” Shure kwaizvozvo, Baba vangu, ndakadzorerwa kwandiri  nokune

chimiro changu chakajairika. Hunhu uhu nezvimwe zvakawanda zvakafanana nazvo zvakayeukwa zvakajeka mupfungwa dzangu patakatanga kunyora zvakazarurwa zvangu. J.-C. anoti kwandiri: Zvino mwanasikana wangu, kuti unofanira kuva mumugariro womwana muduku, uyo, kure nokuunza chishoro chipi nechipi kukuda kwamai vake, anowirirana nako asingakunzwisisi. Izvi ndizvo zvandinoda kwamuri.

Mune imwe ratidziro yaJ-C., anoda kubva murudo kupinda mumaoko ake. Anonzwa kusemburwa. Mazwi aanonzwa.

Mumigariro yakadaro J.-C. akazviratidza kwandiri: Ndakafara zvikuru kumuona zvokuti ndakazununguka pakati porudo noruremekedzo. Dzimwe nguva ndaigwadama patsoka dzake kuti ndimunamate, uye dzimwe nguva, ndisingachakwanisi kuramba shungu dzangu, ndaizviwisira mumaoko ake; asi ndakazongoona ndangoramba ndadzingwa pachipfuva payo, izvo zvakangopisa shungu dzekuti ndisvike ndimbozorora ipapo. Ndakaedza zvakafanana kakawanda uye nguva dzose pasina. Pakarepo izwi guru rakanzwika kwandiri rakaita seromweya wakaropafadzwa: Nguva haisati yasvika, akachema kwandiri, nyasha idzi dzinotengwa chete nenhamo nemichinjikwa yakatambudzirwa rudo rwake. Naizvozvo ndakazviganhurira ndimene kuzvishuva, senzira bedzi yokufara, uye ini

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Zvakanga zviri nyore kwandiri, uye kutaura nemaoko angu; kuti ndinogona kuishandisa chero nguva uye nekuishandisa; nokuti, chii chiri munhu ari munyika uyo asina banza rokutambura chimwe chinhu nokuda kworudo rwaJ.-C.? uye izuva ripi reupenyu hwedu risingatipi nzira dzine chiuru dzokufambira mberi saizvozvo munyasha dzake dzakanaka, uye kuti tifambire mberi murudo rutsvene irworwo rwoga rwunogona kutifadza kwenguva nekusingaperi!...

Akashumwa makomborero aanogamuchira kubva kuna J.-C. muYukaristia Tsvene.

Pamusoro pazvose, Baba, maererano neEkaristi tsvene uye inofadza, iyo Mwari vagara vachindipa kuzvipira kwakasimba, kuti zvinhu zvinoshamisa zvakaitika mandiri, nechiedza chaMwari ichi uye chinoshamisa chatakataura nezvacho  . zvakawandisa. Ndinofanira kukuita kuti uzive nezvazvo, nokukuyeuchidza nezvezvimwe zvezvinhu zvikuru izvo zvave zviri, sokunge zvakadaro, manyuko nemavambo ezviedza zvakawanda, uye panguva yandakasvika pakuziva zvizhinji zvezvinhu izvo. wakatonyora kuti uzvinyore.

Kusangana kwerudo uku, kana mumwe achigona kutaura kudaro, kujairana kwepedyo uku natenzi wangu mutsvene, Muponesi wangu naMwari wangu, kwakatanga pazuva raSaint Augustine, pandakaenda kunonamata J.-C. muSakaramende Yakaropafadzwa. maminetsi mashoma. Aive, kana ndikarangarira zvakanaka, makore matatu kana mana mushure mebasa rangu. Ndakaororwa zvikuru kwazvo nokuvapo chaiko kwaJ.-C., muYukaristiya youmwari, zvokuti munhu aizodai ipapo akataura kuti uchokwadi hwokuvapo uku hwakanditevera kwose kwose, uye kwose kwose kwakaita kuti ndizive kuparadzwa kwaMwari wangu muna ikoku. chakavanzika. Haiwa, dai avo vanopokana nazvo, kana vasingatendi vanochiramba uye vachichimhura, vanogona kuwana nyasha dzakadaro; kana zvishuvo zvavo, kusatenda kwavo, kutenda kwavo kwakashata, upofu hwavo hwemaune, huipi hwavo, zvikasaisa zvipingamupinyi ipapo!... Asi zvinosuruvarisa!. Mwari ndiye muridzi wezvipo zvake, uye vakaipa havaiti render

vasina kufanira: Naizvozvo kuna Mwari akavanzirwa kaviri!....

Pfungwa dzangu nemoyo zvakaramba zvakanangana kuSakaramende Rakaropafadzwa; Ndaigara ndichizviona, pamwe nemaziso ekutenda, uye nenzira isingatsananguriki zvakanaka, nekuda kwekushaya kuenzanisa kunopa pfungwa chaiyo pamusoro payo.

Kane chiuru, uye zvikurukuru mukati meChibairo Chitsvene cheMisa, ndakafunga kuti ndakaona J.-C.

maziso emuviri, ndisingarevi kuti ndazviona. Pakukwirira kwemhando dzakatsaurwa, zvaiita sendiri mumaoko emuprista, akakomberedzwa nepasi rechiedza, uye zvese zvichipenya nekubwinya nehukuru. Zuva harina kujeka mukubwinya kwaro kwese. Ipapo ndakamuona akazvambarara paatari, ari muchimiro chokupisa, achipupura kuvazhinji kuda kwake kugamuchirwa kubva kwavari neChirairo Chitsvene, uye kuramba kwake kupinda mumwoyo yavamwe.

Kudanana kwake naJ-C.

Ndakaona tabernakeri inoera kakawanda sechoto cherudo, J.-

C. pakati payo murazvo wakachena regai ndione mwana muduku ane runako runotyisa, agere pamusoro pemarudzi anochengetwa imomo, uye aimubatira sechidzitiro chisiri chepamutemo, chaifukidza muviri wake unoyevedza uye kudzikamisa kupenya kwoukuru hwake. ... Ndakamuona, ndakamunzwa, akatambanudza maoko ake kwandiri ndokundidaidza kwaari. Tongai kuti chii chinofanira kunge chiri basa rezvishuwo zvangu!

Iri pano, akandiudza, kuti ndiri nhapwa yerudo rwangu!... Muprista uye akabatwa panguva imwe chete, ndipo pano apo ini ndichiri kugutsa kururamisira kwaBaba vangu voumwari, uye kuti ndichiri kupira zuva  nezuva ruponeso rwavose. Apa ndipo pandinomirira nemoyo wese kuti ndivapise pamwe chete neni, ndivapise nemirazvo yemoto inondipedza... Huya mwanasikana, huya uzvibatanidze nemoyo wangu mutsvene kuti ukudze munyori wako sezvaanofanira kukudzwa. kuva!...  Kurumidza  !. Uyai,  ngatiregei

mwoyo mumwe chete norudo rumwe, uye uchanzwa kurerukirwa mumiyedzo nomukusuwa kunokukurira! Mubatanidzwa mutsvene uyu, sosi yerufaro rwako  , unopedza mhirizhonga yezvishuwo zvako uye nekudzima moto weshungu dzako  ....

Hey! munotambudzirei vana vevanhu? unorambirei uchida kuparara asi mushonga uri mumaoko  ako! huyai  mose,

uye musaramba muchidzivisa shungu dzerudo rwangu! Hey! Baba, kangani kandakagamuchira kokero iyi yorudo neinomanikidza kubva kuna Mwari wangu! kangani kandakawana simba guru  remushonga utsvene uyu!...

Kwemavhiki maviri kana kupfuura izvi zvibvumirano zvinyoro, kokero dzorudo idzi hadzina kupera; kwakanga kuri kutotevera idzi kurukurirano dzinobaya mwoyo naJ.-C. kuti akandiraira miitiro mitanhatu yandakataura nezvayo kwamuri kune imwe nzvimbo, uye yandakatanga kukupai mukunyora. Ndakaona zvose zvaakanga achida kwandiri pamusoro pechinhu ichi, kana kuti akanga ari iye amene akandiraira neshoko neshoko, sezvawakaverenga nokunyora. Akanditsanangurira zvarinoreva, uye akarayira kuti ndizvipire kwariri nemhiko, achiwedzera kuti yaiva nzira yokumufadza uye kugutsa kururamisira kwake.

nokuda kwezvivi zvangu uye zvavanhu vose. Akandiudza, zvisinei, kuti aisada kuremedza hana yangu

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nenzira yokundiita ndine mhaka, kana pane dzimwe nguva ndaikundikana kuita kudaro, chero bedzi kwakanga kusina kuzvidza uye kunyange pasina kuregeredza kwandiri. Pakupedzisira, Baba vangu, vakandirayirawo saizvozvo pamazuva angu ose amakanditendera kuti ndiite mhiko. Saka aida kuti ndimhan’are kuvatungamiri vangu.

Somugumisiro, ndakamirira gore rakazara ndisati ndazvipa ndimene kwairi pakutanga, uye ndakaita kudaro bedzi netendero yomushakabvu M. Audouin, akanga achangobva kutsigira M. Duclos. Paive pazuva reMwoyo Unoyera, mushure mechirairo, pandakaita mhiko iyi yeramangwana. Panguva chaiyo yandinogara pedyo neni J.-C. uyo airatidza kutendera zvikuru kuzvipira uku. Akabva azviratidza pasi pemufananidzo wemupristi akapfeka alb yakanaka kwazvo, asi pamusoro pezvose mukuchena kwaipenya zvekuti maziso angu akapenya uye zvaisaita kuti ndimutarise.

Mune kumwe kusangana kune chiuru, kumwe kwandakakutaurira kune imwe nzvimbo, mweya wangu wakaenda kuna J.-C. paSakaramende Yakaropafadzwa yeatari, nechiedza chimwe chete ichi chinoshamisa; uye zvingave pfungwa dzemuviri dzakakanganiswa nazvo, sezvandaiwanzotenda, kana kuti zvose zvakaitika mupfungwa dzangu chete uye kuburikidza nemaziso ekutenda, zvisinei kuti zvakaitika sei, ndinogona kutaura mupfungwa chaiyo, kuti ndakaona J. .-C., kuti ndakamunzwa, kuti ndakakurukura naye; uye dai ndanga ndiri mumanyepo, seasingazotadza kufunga, ndiwo anonyanya kunakidza paangave munhu. Idzi dzinonzi nyengedzo dzakagara dzichindipa mufaro wakakwana uye wechokwadi wandati ndamboravira pasi pano, kusvikira kupfundo rokuti mimwe mifarwa yose yakanyangarika pamberi peuyu. Ichi ndicho chokwadi, uye chii dambudziko.

Nyasha dzaanowana kune vamwe. AD inoita kuti azive mamiriro ekuziva kwevamwe vanhu.

Ndinofanira kukuudzai zvakare, Baba vangu, kuti nekuwedzera kwerunako, Mwari pane dzimwe nguva akada kufunga nezvevamwe kupfuura ini mabhenefiti aanoita.

zvakandiremera zvisingaite. Kanopfuura kamwe chete akaita kuti ndizive mamiriro ehana, uye kupfuura mweya mumwe wakabatsirwa kubva muruzivo rwaakandipa. Saka ndakaona zvese zvaiitika mupfungwa nemumoyo yevamwe vanhu, miyedzo yavaisangana nayo kana kuti yavakanga vava kuda kusangana nayo, misungo yavaigadzirirwa nadhiyabhorosi, uye ini ndaive nebasa rekuvanyevera, ndichivaratidza. zvinoreva kuwana misungo iyi uye kuvhiringa marongero nemanomano emuvengi wavo. Avo vakatevera nyevero dzangu vakanyengera kutarisira kwake kwoutsinye; Asi avo vakazviseka nokukakavara uye vakakavadzana, vakabatwa zvirokwazvo nokusatenda kwavo, uye havana kunonoka kutendeuka pazviri.

Izvi zvakaitika kwandiri, Baba, maererano nevanhu vakasiyana-siyana, vezvitendero, vechechi, dzimwe nguva kunyange pamusoro pevakuru vangu, uye kunyange vareururi vangu, sezvandambokuudzai, vandakavapa mazano akasiyana, maererano nemaitiro avo. zvinodikanwa zvakasiyana, uye maererano nechiedza chandakaona muna Mwari, uye ndikataura kwavari kubva kuna J.-C.; Pakupedzisira, Baba, ndakambokuyambirai imi pachenyu sezvamunoziva.

(1) Ndakataura kune imwe nzvimbo yambiro dzakasiyana-siyana dzandakapiwa naHanzvadzi.

Ndichifunga nezvesisita rimwe zuva, ndaiziva kuti akanga akaedzwa zvikuru nokudada. Ndakaona nenzira imwe cheteyo kuti mushumiri weimba yacho akanga asingazivi shoko rorudzidziso rwake, uko kwakasimbiswa noupenzi hwemhinduro dzaakapa kumibvunzo yakapfava yekatekisimo. Maiwe! vangani vamwe, vane ruzivo kupfuura iye pane zvimwe zvinhu zvese, havazive zvakawanda nezve ichi chinhu chakakosha! Asi vakanga vadzidza kare katekisimo yavo; asi havasati vazviona kubvira pauduku, uye kungoti nangananga nazvo kwakadzimwa chose chose mundangariro dzavo nomundangariro dzavo.

Kwenguva yakati pakanga paine bhodhi pano aitaurwa zvakanyanya munharaunda: aipfeka vhudzi uye cilice, aigara achitora chirango, aidzidzira zvinoshamisa, izvo zvaizivikanwa nemunhu wese. Ainzwikwa siku nesikati achigomera nenzira yaikanganisa rugare rwevamwe, uye kunyange kwaya yemasisita. Mwari vakaita kuti ndione kuti akanga anyengerwa nadhiyabhorosi. Ndakamumirira kuti ndimuzivise nezvazvo: akazviwana avhiringidzwa nebasa rangu, uye akabayiwa neumboo hwandakamupa, zvekuti akabvuma hunyengeri hwake uye kuzvikudza kwake.

M. Duclos, uyo akanga ava mutungamiriri weParigné, akanga aita nhamo yokukanda mumwe wevana vomuruwa rwake waakanga achidzidzisa katekisimo. Zuva rakatevera, kana zuva rimwe chetero, mwana akabatwa nefivha yakanyanya iyo

akaibvisa pasina nguva. Vabereki vemwana uyu vakapomera sabhuku wavo mhosva yekukonzeresa rufu rwake, nehutsinye hwavanoti. M. Duclos akanga ane zvishoma zvokuzvipembedza asi kuti mutumbi womwana ufukunurwe ndokuongororwa. Shamwari dzake dzakamukurudzira kuti aite saizvozvo: iye pachake akatenda nzira iyi yaidiwa kuti adzivise kurova kwenhema nemigumisiro yaingava nayo; nekuti zvinonyadzisa

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mufundisi, uye zvakaoma uye zvinonyadzisa sei kuti mufundisi aonekwe semhondi yemwana waaida kuraira, uye waakange angopa ruramiso yerupo kuti atarise zvakanyanya?

Nyaya yacho yakanga ichiteverwa nesimba, uye M. Duclos mukunyara kukuru: akanga ari padanho rokuita kuti chitunha chibudiswe; asi Mwari akandirayira kuti ndiuye naye kuti ndimuyambire kuti arege kuita saizvozvo. Kufukunurwa uku, ndakamuudza, hakuna chaungagone kuratidza chimwe chinhu mukuda kwako, uye kungasiya maonero asina kunaka mupfungwa dzevatendi vako. Imboremerwa kwechinguva chidiki, uye Mwari anotora kuti akururamise zviri nani. M. Duclos akapinda mazviri, uye mavhiki mashoma gare gare vapomeri vake nezvapupu zvavo zvenhema vakauya pachavo kuzodzora, uye kumuita muripo wepachena pakupera kwehuwandu hwakawanda (1).

(1) Unhu uhwu hwakanga hwaudzwa kwandiri pandakanga ndiri mupristi womuruwa rumwe cheterwo, uko vanhu vanoverengeka vakanga vachiri kuzviziva.

Mushure mesarudzo yakaitika munharaunda yandisina kudoma nezita, Mwari vakaita kuti ndione kuti mukuru mutsva akanga asiri maererano nesarudzo yake, uye kuti nzira dzaakanga ashandisa hadzina kumufadza. Pasarudzo dzakatevera zvakaenderera mberi, uye Mwari akati kwandiri: Zvaida kudaro, asi hazvizotora nguva refu. Chokwadi akafa pasina nguva

mushure meVaviri vevaigara navo, vaiva hanzvadzi, vakaita  sevasina

pindawo muchitendero. Ndakavaona vari vaviri muchiroto; asi mumwe akanga akapfeka sosista, uye mumwe seachangobva kuchata. Ndakazivisa pamusoro peichi chikamu icho mumwe nomumwe wavo aifanira kutora, uye chiziviso changu chakasimbiswa nechiitiko chacho. Asi tichataura kumwe kunhu pamusoro pezviroto zvangu zvechiporofita.

Anoziva zvakare magumo evamwe vanhu vakafa.

Pano, Baba vangu, chimwe chezvaakaita kuti ndionekwe naMwari ndichifarira vamwe vanhu, uye kuti panguva yavakandirayira zvakanyanya pamusoro pezvichaitika kuChechi yose, uye neFrance. Zvingave zvisingaite kuti ndikupei mamiriro ese ezvakazarurwa izvi maererano nevanhu ava, izvo dzimwe nguva zvakasvika pakundizivisa  magumo evashakabvu; sezvakaitika pakati pevamwe maererano naAmai Sainte-Hyacinthe, avo kupinda kudenga kwandakadzidza pashure pemazuva mashoma mupurigatori. Ndaitoziva kuti ainge apedza  nguva iyoyo.

Mushumo wandakaita kuna Amai vedu wakanyatsoenderana netsamba yatakagamuchira kubva kuna Baba Cornillaye, mukoma wavo, avo vakarondedzera zvavakanga vaudzwa pamusoro penyaya iyi neimwe chirikadzi yokuNantes, iyo Mwari akanga azivisa chiedza chimwe chetecho pamusoro peiyi nhau. kuguma kwaMadame Sainte-Hyacinthe (1).

(1) Ndichinyora nzvimbo iyi, ndakanga ndine pamberi pemaziso angu kopi yeiyi tsamba iyo Mukuru akanga andiudza. Akazvishingisa, kuti mushure memazuva akati wandei eminamato nerurevero rwekuzorodzwa uye kupora kwemununi uyu airwara, chirikadzi yakanaka uye tsvene iri pamubhedha, yakanzwa kunyunyuta nekugomera muimba yake, iyo yaakaona yakavhenekerwa nechiedza chinoshamisa  . Achisimuka kuti anamate, akaona uyu sisita uyo  akati kwaari

kuti vakanga vari Sisita Sainte-Hyacinthe avo vaakanga anamatira zvakanyanya, maererano nezano remukuru wavo, asi kuti akanga atambura magumo evanhu vose; kuti akamukurudzira kuti apedzise novena yaakanga atanga, uye kuti abhadhare mari yakawanda yaakanga apiwa rudo rwokumuvimbisa. Mangwana acho misa yakazoitwa mangwanani naFather Cornillaye, mukoma wemushakabvu. Chirikadzi tsvene yaivepo, uye yakaona, nguva yese yekupira, sisita waMusande Clare akapfugama padanho rekutanga reatari. Akanyangarika mushure mekuropafadzwa, uye chirikadzi yakamuona ichikwira mudenga, yakapfeka rudzi rwenyeredzi pahembe dzayo. Vakarumbidza muzukuru wavo kwaari, akanga abatwa nechirwere chekare, uye akazviwana arapwa ipapo. Pasinei nekufamba kwenguva, isu ndakazvirangarira uye tichiri kutaura nezvazvo. Zvinoita sekuti, neuchapupu hwemasisita, chokwadi chakange chanyatsosimbiswa, pamwe nekuenderana kwayo nekutaura kweHanzvadzi, iyo yakanga isati yambova neukama hudiki nechirikadzi yeNantes. Isu tinoziva zvakaitika kuHanzvadzi mushure mekufa kwaMadame Saint-Benoît.

Nguva pfupi yapfuura, Baba vangu, Mwari akandiita kuti ndione mugumo unotyisa wemumwe wevavengi vake vakuru, uyo waakaita sokunge achidanirwa kudare rake, uye ane rufu rwokukurumidza rwakakonzera manyawi. Anondirambidza kumutumidza zita: anotoda kuti ini, kazhinji, ndirege kupa mutongo wangu kune avo vaakatonga, kunyangwe vaive vavengi vake vakanyanya kuziviswa. Kana vari vaya vachiri vapenyu, anoita kuti ndinzwisise kuti ndinofanira kuvanyengeterera ndigovanzwira tsitsi; kuti tsitsi dzake dzichava kuvazhinji, naiye

hapana kana mumwe asingakodzeri kukanganwirwa naye. Saka, Baba vangu, ngatisiyei zvese mukunaka kwake, uye tisiye kusvika panguva inotevera kuenderera mberi kwehupenyu hwangu hwemukati; uye izvo zvichave zvekupedzisira, kana uchida.

Kurwiswa kutsva kwedhimoni kwaSister. Muzita raBaba, reMwanakomana, etc.

Zvaisaita kuti nyasha dzakawanda kudaro uye zvinoshamisa ndaiva ndapiwa pasina dhimoni rakaita godo uye richitora mukana wacho kurwisa kuzvininipisa kwangu nekuzvikudza, kuti ainyatsoziva kuti ndinofuridzira, uye izvo, zvichida, zvakabatsira zvakanyanya kukundika kwechirongwa chekutanga kunyora, sezvatichaona munguva pfupi iri kutevera. Hongu, ndinofanira kuzvireurura, kana chinhu chacho chisina kubudirira pakutanga, sezvaidiwa nevanhu vatsvene uye vakadzidza, ndinozvitaura kunyadzi dzangu uye kuvhiringidzika kwangu, ndizvo.

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kunyanya kudada kwangu kunofanira kurwiswa. Hongu, nokuda kwekuzvikudza kwangu kwoudhiabhorosi, uko Mwari aida kunyadzisa nokuranga, kuti isu tinofanira pamusoro pezvose kuti zvakaitwa nenjodzi iyi inosuruvarisa (1).

(1) Tinoona neizvi uye nechuru chekupomera kwakafanana, kuti Hanzvadzi haizviregi uye haina kunyengedzwa. Avo vangaedzwa kuti vamuone somunyengeri vanofanira kubvuma kuti angava munyengeri worudzi rumwechete, uye kuti zvaizova zvakaoma kuwana mumwe munhu angamuenzanisa naye.

Naizvozvo dhimoni harina kukundikana kundiedza munzira iyoyo, uye mumwe aigona kutaura kuti akaisa unyengeri hwake hwose uye unyanzvi mariri. Naizvozvo akatanga, pakupedzisira, nokuparadzira mumweya wangu mhodzi yekuzvikudza kusina mufaro uku, nokutsvaka muzviito zvangu zvose nzira yokudyisa nokuchengetedza kuzvikoshesa uko mwoyo wangu wakaipa wakagara wakazadzwa nako. Akaratidza hudiki hwangu hudiki nekuchenjerera kukuru, uye akandipa, kunyangwe ini pachangu, manzwiro ekuda kupfuura vamwe. Akandienzanisa nevatsvene vakurusa, uye akashandisa mukana wose kundiratidza kuti ndaifadza Mwari zvakadii nokuzvininipisa kwangu, mwoyo murefu wangu, uye kuti Mwari akanga andichengetera zvakawanda sei nyasha nenyasha dzaakanga asina. zvichiri kubvumidzwa

munhu; uye kuti pakupedzisira rimwe zuva ndaizova akakwirira zvikuru kudenga kupfuura vamwe vakawanda avo, akadaro, Chechi yakanga yaisa ipapo. Aigara  achindiyeuchidza nezvepfungwa idzi dzinotemesa musoro uye dzakanyanyisa  .

Akaenda mberi akashandurwa kuva mutumwa wechiedza; akaedza kunyengedza basa raMwari nezvitarisiko zvake. Aivewo marudzi emwenje dzimwe nguva aibaya pfungwa zvakanyanya, asi aingoshanda kupenya kana kugumburisa, pane kuti ajekese. Zviedza zvenhema, naizvozvo, izvo zvisina kumbokanganisa zvakadzika zvemweya nenzira yandakataura nayo kare. Kure nekugutsikana nekujekerwa, mweya wakaramba uri mukuvhiringidzika kukuru uye rima gobvu. Naizvozvo chinhu chiri chose chakanga chakaganhurirwa mukunyengedza ndangariro, uye dzimwe nguva mirangariro, iyo yaikangaidzwa nokutapurwa. Mwoyo wakaramba usinganzwe, kana kumwe kuzvimba chete kwakasara, kwakasiyana zvakanyanya nemafungiro e

Ndinoyeuka, pamusoro penyaya iyi, kuti rimwe zuva kuteerera pakwakandidaidza kuti ndishande munzvimbo ine tsvina neine tsvina, dhimoni racho rakaita kuti ndinzwe kunhuhwirira kwakanaka uye kunofadza, kwandakanga ndisingakwanisi kufungidzira chikonzero chacho. zvakandikurudzira kuti ndiMwari akazvigadzira nokuda kwehutsvene hwangu hukuru. Tarira, ati kwandiri, anokudai sei, uye ane nyasha nemi. Kubva panguva iyoyo musungo wakashata wakawanikwa, uye zvese zvakanyangarika. Saka ndakaramba ndiri mumunhuhwi chaingobuda panzvimbo pandaizoshanda.

Saka, Baba vangu, nguva nenguva, muvengi uyu ainyara kuwana  abatwa mumambure ake; asi vasinganeti vakangozvifambira nehumwe hunyanzvi gare gare; uye pane kuvhiringika, aiziva kutora mukana wekukundwa kwake, uye aigara achidzokera kumhosva aine hasha itsva. Akatora marwadzo makuru kuunza rumbidzo yakashata kwose kwose nokuda kwangu uye miitiro yangu youmwari. Ndakanzwa kuti ndapfimbwa kuti ndiite muenzaniso wehunhu. Hanzvadzi yedu ndiSande , vakati; ndiye sisita  akanaka  . Ndakanyepedzera kusazvitenda,  uye

kunyange kusazvinzwa; asi ndakazviita pasina, pasinei neni pachangu chimwe chinhu chaindiudza mukati: Hazvaigona kudaro.

Vareurura vangu ivo pachavo havana kutadza kugovera kwairi, nekusaziva, neruremekedzo rudiki rwavaindiratidza dzimwe nguva: nekuti dhiabhori aiziva kutora mukana pane zvese. Mumwe wavo nokusachenjera akati kwandiri rimwe zuva: Hanzvadzi yangu, wakavanda zvino munzvimbo tsvene; rimwe zuva uchaiswa pachigadziko chemwenje iwe  denga  ! kurova kwakadini kuzvininipisa kwangu, uye kuti  izvi

shoko rakandipa kuti ndiite! Sezvineiwo, Mwari, pasina mubvunzo kundiranga nekuda kwaizvozvo, akandinyadzisa kubva kuburikidza nevareurura vangu. Zvezvo handizvizivi

makuhwa api akanga apararira kunze, vanhu venyika vakauya kuzondiona nemaune, uye vakandikumbira muimba yokugara kuti vandibvunze. Pandakangozviona ndakabva ndavadzinga. Dzimwe nguva ndaitovamhanyira kana kusavapindura. Kuti ndimise shanyo dzose idzi dzine ngozi uye dzinotyisa, ndakarega kushanyira imba yacho zvachose, uye handina kuzombovapo kubva ipapo.

Zvichida (1) ndakanga ndisinganyanyi kuzvikudza; asi dhimoni rakanyarara rinodzokera pasi pemwoyo wangu, raigara rine chikamu charo muzviito zvangu zvose, kunyangwe mumabasa angu akanaka. Zvirinani ndizvo zvandainzwisisa, pazvakauya kwandiri rimwe zuva kuti ndakanga ndoda kuita wongororo. Akanga ari mushishi kusunga nekugadzira pasuru inoumbwa nezvose zvaakanga aunganidza, uye sezvazvanga zvaunganidzwa, kubva mumabasa ose akanaka ehupenyu hwangu. Mhepo yake yakaipa, kuseka kwake kwaiita sekuti kwandiri: Chero chii chaunoita, ini ndichava nemugove wangu mune zvese, uye izvi zvese ndezvangu kubva pane zvaunofunga hunhu. Uye chokwadi, rudado rwakandipofumadza kuzvinhu zvakawanda zvandaigara ndakavanza, ndisingatendi muchivi.

(1) Izvi zvichida, mumuromo weHanzvadzi, kunyanya kana yakawedzerwa kune maitiro ake, muturikiri chete wemanzwiro echokwadi, mumaonero angu, uchapupu hwakanaka hwokuti haana kuhupa zvachose, kana kuti zvishoma. zvachose, uye izvo zvakanaka chaizvo zvese zvakapera mumiedzo nekurwa.

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Asi, Baba vangu, chakawedzera kubata pamusoro pangu kumuyedzo uyu une ngozi uye wakatukwa wekuzvikudza, maonerwo nezviratidzo, nyasha dzinoshamisa idzo denga rakandiitira nyasha. Hapana kupokana kuti muvengi wangu angadai akazvishandisa kundiparadza zvachose kuburikidza nekuzvikudza, dai Mwari vasina kuzvishandisa ivo pachavo kundinyadzisa, vachikwevera, sezvaakaita, kurwisa-kurwisa. poison poison pachayo.

Zviratidzo nezvakazarurwa zvine chekuita neChechi, nezvaakanga anyora  naM. Audouin,  mutungamiriri wake.

Pakanga pari apo Mwari vaifara kunditsiva pamarwadzo angu nenhambo dzenyaradzo dzomukati, apo ndakava nezvizhinji zvezviono  nezvizaruro izvo zvakatibatisa zvikuru kwazvo pamusoro pemugumo weChechi. Ndakataura  naye

vanhu vashoma vakashamiswa nezvandakavaudza. Kadiki kaiitika kakaita ruzha rukuru. Vapristi vakanaka, nyanzvi dzezvechitendero, vakaungana kuti vataure nezvazvo. Zvakanga zvakagadziriswa pakati pavo kuti ndingadai ndakaenderera mberi nezvakanyorwa pamusoro pezvakazarurwa zvandakanga ndavaudza. M. Audouin, panguva iyoyo mutungamiriri wedu, wandaivimba naye zvikuru, akaita basa iri rinorwadza, raakaita neshingairo huru uye nokungwarira zvikuru. Asi, Baba vangu, dhimoni raiziva kuita basa raro zvakanaka zvekuti rakatora mukana wekumutsa bongozozo munharaunda, iyo yakakamukana kuita mapoka maviri. Akashandisa unhu hwangu hwakaipa, uye zvichida huya hwevamwe, kumutsa hasha dzakanyanya kundirwisa, sedutu refu randakanga ndisati ndatarisana naro.

Mr Audoin. Asi, Baba, chirevo ichi chakauya mushure mezviitiko zvakawanda, zvinopesana uye zvinotonyanya kundinyadzisa.

Zvinyorwa zvake zvinopiswa. Kunyadziswa kwake kukuru pamusoro pazvo. Anopasa kupenga uye kuona.

Pakutanga, Baba, zvinhu hazvina kuitika muchivande sezvazvakanga zvakaita pakati pangu nemi. Kubvunzurudza kwangu kwakavanzika naM. Audouin kwakakurumidza kuwanikwa. Nenguva isipi vakakonzeresa kunyumwira uye kushatirwa; vakacherekedza nhanho dzangu, vakauya kuzotinzwa nokutisora. Kwaitova nerunyerekupe rwekuti ndakanga ndanzwiwa ndichitaura zvinoshamisira kuna M. Audouin, zvichibata nhamo umo vafundisi, vanokudzwa, uye kunyange mhuri yamambo vaizobatanidzwa. Ndakaitwa kuti ndipfuure kumuoni, uropi husina kugadzikana: M. Audouin akashorwa nekundichengeta ndiri mufungidziro dzangu. Takatosvika pakunyorera vakuru, uye imba duku yacho yakarambidzwa kwatiri.

(1) Zvisineyi, kuburikidza neimba duku iyi, yaimborambidzwa, kuti zvinyorwa zvekupedzisira zvakadhirowewa zvakare, uye kuti zvinhu zvebasa idzva zvakapfuudzwa zvakare ndokugashirwa. Mwari anogona kunonoka uye kusarudza nguva dzake; asi, kana achida, hapana chingaisa chipingamupinyi kumazano ake.

Tongai, Baba, zvose izvi zvinofanira kunge zvakandirwadza sei; kuti zvinhu zvitonyanya kuipa, M. Larticle naM. Audouin vakadonha zvishoma pachiitiko  chezvandakanga ndanyora. Pakupedzisira, zvose zvakapera sezvandambotaura  .

Mumarwadzo api, mukunyadziswa kupi uku kudzoka kunogumbura kunofanira kundikandira? Uye chii chinofanira kurasikirwa nokuzviremekedza kwangu kwakashata! Maiwe! Baba, ndiwo mawaniro andakaita kupfuura zvandaifunga;

marwadzo, kutamburira uye nemiedzo pamusoro perudo kuburikidza nekugumbuka uye kuvenga kwandakanzwa pamusoro peavo veSista vangu vaive nezvakawanda.

zvakakonzera kusuwa kwangu. Zvakanditorera simba rakawanda sei kuti ndikunde kusafarira uku uko, pasina nyasha dzakakosha, handaimbondibvumira kudaro

kuvaona neziso rakanaka, kana pamusoro pazvose kuvada kubva pasi pemoyo, sekuraira kunoita Mwari pamusoro pevose pasina mutsauko! Kukurirwa nenyadzi, kuvhiringika uye kusava nehanya, ndakazviona ndimene ndazarurwa nezvisinganzwisisike izvo, panguva dzose, vaigutsa godo ravo repachivande. Ndakava ngano  kuungano; asi Mwari akandibatsira kusvika papfundo rokuwana mufaro mukuzviona ndanyadziswa kudaro, kunyange zvazvo kunze kwemiedzo iyi yakasiyana-siyana uye kusuwa kwomweya kwaiva chaizvoizvo kurwadzisa kwoupenyu hwangu  .

Miyedzo yake pamusoro pekutenda nezvakavanzika.

Matambudziko, zviedzo uye kusuwa kwepfungwa pamusoro pechinhu chandinotenda; nekuti dhimoni randirova nenzira ngani? Munozvitenda here, Baba, mushure mezvose zvandakuudzai? akatoedza kuzunungusa kutenda kwangu muzvakavanzika zvikuru zvorudzidziso rwedu; akandikurudzira nokusava nechokwadi pamusoro pechakavanzika chikuru choUtatu Hutsvene, icho chokuva munhu kweShoko, uye pamusoro poumhandara husingagumi hwaamai vaJ. Kwenguva refu ndakava nedambudziko rinotyisa pamusoro pechokwadi chorubhapatidzo rwangu; mureurura wangu uye kuverenga kwakanga kwaita kuti zvidaro. Dhimoni, iro raiziva kushandisa chinhu chiri chose, rakaramba richindiudza kuti ndakanga ndisina kubhapatidzwa zvakanaka. Akapenda zvakajeka mukufungidzira kwangu mhedzisiro yeiyi yekutanga capital defect, iyo

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kuti zvechokwadi ndakanga ndabhabhatidzwa, uye kuti, kunyange dai ndakanga ndisina kubhabhatidzwa nemvura, ndakanga ndichiri nerubhabhatidzo rwechido chokutsiva. Kwaitoratidzika kwandiri kuti kuti andisimbisezve, akaita kuti ndione mufananidzo woUtatu Hutsvene-tsvene wakanyorwa mukatikati memweya wangu. Kubva ipapo handina kumbonzwa kakurwadziwa nazvo.

Mumwe muedzo wakachengetwa nadhiabhorosi mundangariro dzangu kwenguva refu wakanga uri wokudavira, kana kuti kufunga, kuti vakarashwa vakatongerwa kugehena pasina mhaka yavo vamene, uye nesimba bedzi rezvisungo izvo zvakavatemera zvisingachinjiki ikoko. Mwari, akati dhiabhorosi kwandiri, anoita kwavari somudzvinyiriri ane godo pamusoro pokubwinya kwake, uye anozviona achikudzwa zvakaenzana, uye nenhamo  yavaranda vanogomera mutorongo, uye nokufara kwavaranda nevanodikamwa avo. inozadza nemabhenefiti ayo, pasina kuve nekukodzera kwakawanda mune zvimwe pane kukanganisa mune vamwe. Unoziva, uye wakazvinyora, kuti Mwari akaita kuti ndione kuti iyi yaizova imwe yenhema dzokupedzisira dzinofanira kuparadza chechi tsvene yaJ  .

Naizvozvo, Baba, sezvamakandiudza pane imwe nhambo, panguva iyeyo ndakanga ndiri muJansen, munhu anouraya, anodavira kufanosarudzirwa. Sky ! Ndichiri kudedera; asi makandisimbisa nekuwedzera kuti zvese zvaingove mukufungidzira kwangu, kana kuti mune mazano emuvengi wangu. Ndakamira ipapo.

Ndaigara ndichizviona sendakarembera neshinda pamawere anotyisa. Ngatitamburei kudai Baba vangu! panokwana kufa nokutya. Ndakangoerekana ndanunurwa kubva mazviri nekuita zviito zvetariro uye kusiya basa, uye pamusoro pezvose nechiito chinonyadzisa chandakaita mukuzvikanda patsoka dzemunani ndichipesana nekusemwa kwangu kwepanyama, kana kuti pane kugumbuka kwangu. Mwari vaida kundipa runyararo, tichifunga nezvekukunda kudiki uku  .

Miyedzo yake pamusoro pekuzvibata.

Hondo nemiyedzo inopesana nemhiko yangu yekuzvibata, iyo yakamuka panguva ino uye yakashatirwa zvakanyanya kupfuura nakare kose. Baba ndiani angakuudza mbama nekutukwa kwandakaitwa nemutumwa wasatani, muvengi werucheno, wakashongedzera hutera hwangu hwekundirova nembama nekundinyadzisa munzira dzose? Unofanira kunge uripo kuti uzvinzwisise. Pamasikati, usiku, akamuka kana akarara, kazhinji sei mweya usina kuchena uyu wakakurudzira kufungidzira kwangu mifananidzo yakasviba uye yakashata! Kangani kaakakanganisa kurara kwangu nekunyepedzera kunyadziswa, nemafungiro asina kunaka, kuti awedzere mandiri kumukira uko, nenyasha dzaMwari wangu, handitendi kuti ndakabvuma, kunyangwe ndakarara  !

(1) Ko haangagoni here kutaura, somuapostora, kuti : Ne magnitudo revelationum inondirumbidza, datus est mihi stimulus carnis meae ngirozi yaSatani, qui me colaphizet, propter quod ter Dominum rogavi ut disdederet à me; and dixit mihi: sufficit tibi gratia mea, nam virtus in firmitate perficitur. ( 2 VaK. 12, 7 ).

Kurota kwaanodzingwa nemhuka, uye anogamuchira ruva kuti azvidzivirire.

Sezvo ndisingafaniri kuvanza chinhu kwamuri maererano nemamiriro emweya wangu, ndicharondedzera kwamuri, Baba vangu, panguva ino, hope dzandisati ndambozivisa kune ani zvake. Unozoishandisa sezvaunoda. Ndakarota humwe husiku ndichidzingirirwa nerumwe rudzi rwemunhu akashata ane zano raitosemesa kupfuura chiso chake; Ndakatiza nesimba rangu rose kuti ndidzivise kuronda kwake, uye, mukutiza, ndakatendeukira kuna Mwari, kuMhandara Yakaropafadzwa uye kungirozi yangu yakanaka yandakateterera. Zvino, ndichimhanya, tsoka yangu inotsvedza. O kutya! Asi ndichidonha ndave kuda kubatwa nechikara, ndinoona jaya rakanaka richindigashira mumaoko richindidzivisa kudonha. Panguva imwe cheteyo anokanda pamusoro pomuvengi wangu chitarisiko chinotyisa uye chinotyisa;

Usatya, akadaro mujaya, akanditarisa nechiso chakavimbika, achiseka uye nenyasha; usatya: anogona kukuvhundutsa, asi iwe unogona zvakare kudzvinyirira kuedza kwake. Akabata muruoko rwake ruva rehapa raiyevedza nekunhuwirira kwakanyanyisa. Ichengete zvakanaka, akadaro achindipa, J.-C. aigara akaitakura pachipfuva chake. Tozoona zvimwe zvacho mangwana; zvakakwana, ndinofunga, nhasi.

Nemashoko aya baba ndinomuka ndayeverwa netsvarakadenga iyi, ndokutakurwa zvese nekutenda mubatsiri wangu, uye nekutsamwira chikara chinosemesa chakanyangarika chisina kushinga kuoneka kubva panguva iyoyo. Ndinotaura zvinenge, nokuti zvakangoitika kwandiri dzimwe nguva, asi nguva dzose kubva kure, uye kungondizvidza nokuda kwetsika yandakatora makore akawanda apfuura, uye iyo yekumwaya mubhedha wangu nemvura tsvene manheru oga oga, ndisati ndaenda kunorara. mariri, pamwe nekuita zviratidzo zvemuchinjikwa pamusoro pangu.

Uyu mweya wakaipa negodo, usingaite seusingashiviriri, ungada kundityisa nokutyisidzira. Ari

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anoti kana ndikaenderera mberi nemaitiro aya, aanoti mashura, mashura uye anoshoreka, zvirokwazvo achawana nzira yekuzvitsivira, nekukonzera zvakare kukundikana kwebhizinesi ratakatanga. Iwe haufaniri kuzvidza zvachose kutyisidzira kwake, Mwari akaita kuti ndione, uye ruzivo rwakandidzidzisa zvakanyanya kuti zvinofanira kuva chimwe chikonzero chekuti ndive ndakangwarira. Ini ndagara ndaona kuti zviroto zvinotyisidzira kazhinji zviziviso zvemiyedzo yakakomba padivi pemuvengi wangu, uye kazhinji yekutadza uye inowira padivi pangu, izvo dzimwe nguva ini handitombozvicherechedze, nekuda kwekubvisa zvakanyanya kana kushoma kune nyasha dzedenga; nokuti, Baba vangu, kusava nehanya kwangu nguva dzose uye kukanganisa kwangu kwakanyanya kana kushoma kwakaumba gore pakati paMwari neni; asi, kana mazviona zvakanaka Baba tichanyora imwe nyaya pamusoro pezviroto zvangu zvinofadza kana zvinotyisa, zvandinoda kukuzivisai nekuda kwehukama hwavainahwo nehupenyu hwangu hwemukati, nematunhu akasiyana andakazviwana ndiri muhukama. kuna Mwari; nokuti, Baba vangu, vakarara kana vakamuka, ndichagara ndiri chakavanzika chisingafungidziki kune vamwe uye neni.

Kurota kusinganzwisisike, kwaanonzwisisa kuoma kwekubvisa kuzviremekedza.

Handifanire kutya kuzvidzokorora, mushure memiedzo yakawanda kwazvo yehurwere hwese hwemweya wangu, hapana kana imwe yakamboisa pachena kune njodzi dzakawanda sekuzvida, izvo zvaive sehwaro hwehunhu hwangu. hapana akambonetsa kudzura; hapana akamukuvadza zvakanyanya uye zvine ngozi sekuda uku kusingafadzi, uyu muvengi wepamba uyo Mwari anotitendera kutakura mukati medu. Izvi ndizvo zvaakandiita kuti ndinzwisise nekurota kusinganzwisisike, umo ndakazviona ndichisungirwa kurwisa uye kurwisana nemarudzi akasiyana-siyana anotyisa kana asinganyanyi kutyisa aimiririra matadzo makuru. Mumwe wavo airatidzika kwandiri seakasindimara zvakanyanya, uye aive akanyanya kundiomera kukunda nekukunda, yaive imwe diki coquette, yakachena zvakanyanya, yakapfava uye yakasvinura. hope.

Haana kugutsikana nokuzviyedza ega neni, nguva dzose aiva nechokuita nokurwa kwandaifanira kurwisa mumwe nomumwe. Aiita seakazvarwa patsva kubva mukukundwa kwake, uye, semuProteus, akaramba achidzokera kumhosva nenzira dzakasiyana. Mweya we

Mwari vakaita kuti ndinzwisise kuti chikara ichi, chinonyangadza kupfuura vose, chinodiwa kunyange nechitarisiko, chaiva chokuzvida, baba vekuzvikudza, muvengi mukuru waMwari uye wevanhu, uye chandainyanya kunetseka nacho. uye izvo ndaifanira kutora chenjedzo huru, kana ndaida kuchengetedza  ruponeso rwangu, sezvandakasangana nazvo kakawanda muhupenyu hwangu  .

Mishonga yaanoshandisa mumiedzo yake. Humiliations uye macerations

Kuti ndizvidzivirire ipapo kubva kumuvengi uyu anofa, kunyanya, kana munhu achigona kutaura kudaro, pane kubva pamiyedzo isina kuchena nemamwe matambudziko andakakomberedzwa nawo, ndakanzwa kudiwa kwekunyadziswa uye kuoma; Naizvozvo ndaishandisa maceration, kutsanya, kurinda, kuranga neminyengetero, izvo zvakandibatsira zvikuru. Panguva iyoyo, mureurura wangu akanga andibvumira kupfeka bhandi resimbi; Ndakaipfeka; asi J.-C. akandiudza kuti iyi nzira haifaniri kushandiswa, uye kuti nguva dzose yaizondipa imwe inoshanda zvikuru; kuti bhandi iri randaida kupfeka raizotsiviwa nerimwe, uye kuti kutambura kwaraizondiita kwaizonyanya kumufadza, sezvo raizove resarudzo yake kwete yangu.

Reformation iri kuitika muNharaunda nehurongwa hwaMwari.

Pachiitiko ichi Baba Mwari vakanditi ndiudze Abbess kuti maSister aifanira kusiya hembe dzerineni.

yavakanga vapfeka kwenguva yakati rebei, kuti vatore nguo yemukati yemakushe yavainge vasiya vachityora mutemo. Izvi zvakaitwa kunyangwe nekuraira kwemukuru (1).

(1) Kuchinja uku kwakaitika maererano nouchapupu hwemamwe masisita, pakushanya kwaBhishopi weRennes; asi handirangariri kana zvaiva  ipapo

M. de Girac kana kuti M. Desnos, akamutangira. Izvi zvine basa zvishoma.

Anokumbira Tenzi Vedu zvirwere; apiwa. Kutambura kwake kwenguva refu uye kwoutsinye.

Kudzima panguva imwe chete iyi moto wetsvina, nekudzikisa kudada uku

chakavanzika, chakavigwa, sokunge zvakadaro, mukati-kati memwoyo wangu ndisingazvizivi, ndakateterera J.-C. kuti anditumire simba nomutsa, ndichizvininipisa ndimene mumeso eHanzvadzi dzangu uye mundangariro dzangu. J.-C. aiziva chinodikanwa changu zviri nani kupfuura ini, uye mutsa wake hauna kukundikana kuchigadzirisa. Nenguva isipi mumwe angadai ataura kuti zvose

hundonda hwemuviri hungadai hwakauya kuzoputika pandiri zvakatevedzana, uye kuti munguva chaiyo yezviedza zvikuru zvandataura nezvazvo. Aya ndiwo mamiriro ezvinhu andaida zvakanyanya. Quoniam akabvuma eras Deo, necesse fuit ut ut muedzo probaret te. (Toby.)

Kutanga ndakarwiswa nefivha inononoka iyo, kwamakore anoverengeka, yakanetesa simba rangu kusvikira kupfundo rokutyira upenyu hwangu. Iyi fivha inopfuurira yakakanda mumusoro mangu marwadzo asingatsungiririki uye akaoma zvikuru; chipfuva chakabatwa nenzira yokuti ndaifanira kurapwa nokuda kwepulmonia. Imwe nguva gare gare, ibvi rangu rekuruboshwe rakamera ganda rakakura uye raifanira kudimburwa.

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kurwadza kwazvo; asi Mwari, nokuda kwokuzvidukupisa nokuda kwoutera hwangu, akanga akanaka zvakakwana kuti andiite kuti ndive noruzivo panguva ino muenzaniso wezvakapfuura muvafiri kutendeka vakashamisa nyika nokugara kwavo mukutambura kurwadziswa mufungo wacho uchiri kuita kuti munhu adedere. Naizvozvo akakumikidza mandiri kunzwisisa kwechisikigo; uye saka, kana achida, anokwidziridza munhu pamusoro pake, uye kuti, pakati pavo, vakadzi, varume vakuru, vanawo zvavo vakamutakura neushingi hwavo. izvi zvinoshamisa chose pakati pavahedheni.

Panzvimbo pekuvhara, ronda racho rakaita dhipoziti yekuseka kwegomarara uko kuoma mitezo kwakazvikanda. Nhengo iyi yakabva yaremara, uye ndakanga ndisisakwanisi kufamba netsvimbo mbiri chete. Chiremba nachiremba vakandiona vakanga vatotaura kuti ndaisambofa ndakagona kufamba neimwe nzira, sezvo gumbo rangu rakanga rava ronda nokuremara, zvakanga zvisingabviri kuti ndirishandise. Zvisinei, Baba vangu, handina kunonoka kurishandisa, pasinei nechisarudzo chavo; zvakare ndivo vaive vekutanga kuzivisa uye kutaura nenzwi guru kuti kurapa uku kwaive pamusoro pehunyanzvi hwavo, kupfuura masimba echisikigo, uye zvinoshamisa.

Kuporeswa kwake nekukurumidza mushure memisa yekukudza Kushuva kwaJesu Kristu uye Kusuwa kwaMariya.

Ndakanga ndangokumbira nharaunda kuti iite novena mukukudza vatsvene vakafira kutenda, uye yaive panguva yeNovena iyi yandakasangana nayo

ibvi raionekwa zvekuti ndakashamisika ini; asi kurapa kwakakwana hakuna kuitika kutozosvikira zuva apo M. Audouin akandibhadharira misa mukukudza kushuva kwaJ.-C, uye nemarwadzo aamai vake vatsvene patsoka yomuchinjikwa; uye nguva iyi yakanga ipfupi kwazvo zvokuti hapana akazeza kuona mairi chishamiso chaicho, uye mushumo wacho nokukurumidza wakapararira. Kana ndirini, ini ndisina kushinga mumhando idzi dzezvinhu, handidi kuzvisimbisa, kunyangwe ndisina kupokana kuti kune rumwe rubatsiro rwakabva kudenga, uye kuti Mhandara Yakaropafadzwa haina zvakare kupindira simba rake nekupa zvakadaro. humwe uchapupu hwekuda kwake kwakanaka kwandiri.

Kushanda nesimba mubasa, izvo zvinomukonzera tsaona inorwadza zvikuru uye isingarapiki.

Hazvina kuitika, kana makore mashoma kwazvo, kuti ndakatambura nehurwere hwakanyanya kana kushoma, hwakanga huchingonditungamirira kumasuwo erufu; uye kuzvipa korona yezvose, kushanda nesimba pabasa kwakakonzera tsaona iyo kwemakore gumi nemanomwe kana gumi nemasere yave iri muchinjikwa wangu unorema kwazvo, muchinjikwa wandichazofanira kutakura kuguva. Iyi tsaona kwandiri pakutanga yakaratidzika kuva chirwere chinopfuurira chandakanga ndisingadi kupa ngwariro kwachiri; zviuru zvezvikonzero zvakandidzivisa, kwemwedzi mitanhatu, kuti ndizvizivise kunaani zvake; asi kutyisa kwecolic, marwadzo akapinza andainzwa kubva mazviri akazondimanikidza kuti ndiuye kune izvozvo. Amai vedu vakabvunza vanachiremba, avo vakazivisa kuti nomuvengi akadaro nguva iri yose yaigona kuva yokupedzisira muupenyu hwangu. Vaida, neimwe nzira, kundimanikidza kuti ndimunyevere, nokubvuma nzira dzandakanga ndisingakwanisi kutakura pfungwa yacho. Ndakapindura Amai vedu kuti ndaisarudza kufa, kana zvakakodzera; kuti nokuda kwavamwe, ndinoisa chivimbo changu muna Mwari oga uyo aiziva zvikonzero zvangu nechinodikanwa changu, uye kuti papfundo rino handisati ndaizotongova nomumwe chiremba upi noupi kunze kwake. Amai vedu vakaronzesa hana yangu; akatondirayira kuti ndiite kudaro nemarwadzo ekusateerera, uye apa ndave kunyara zvakare kudivi iro; nokuti, zvokuita? nderipi bato rekutora pakati pezvipingamupinyi zviviri zvandaityawo? Amai vedu vakaronzesa hana yangu; akatondirayira kuti ndiite kudaro nemarwadzo ekusateerera, uye apa ndave kunyara zvakare kudivi iro; nokuti, zvokuita? nderipi bato rekutora pakati pezvipingamupinyi zviviri zvandaityawo? Amai vedu vakaronzesa hana yangu; akatondirayira kuti ndiite kudaro nemarwadzo ekusateerera, uye apa ndave kunyara zvakare kudivi iro; nokuti, zvokuita? nderipi bato rekutora pakati pezvipingamupinyi zviviri zvandaityawo?

Zvisinei, Mwari akabvumira vaprista vakanaka kuuya kuno kuzondibatsira; vakaudza Abbess, maererano nedzidziso yavo yebhaibheri, kuti pachinhu ichi chakapfava vaisafanira kusarudza nekukurumidza zvakadaro maererano neni. Vakatonyorera Paris, uye mhinduro yavakagamuchira kubva kuchikoro chikuru yakanga iri yokuti sisita zvikurukuru aigona, muhana, achida rufu ndokurugamuchira, panzvimbo pokutambura kuvhiyiwa kupi nokupi muchiitiko chakadaro. Saka ini ndakagadzikana; Ndakaburuka nekushandisa chenjedzo, uye kushandisa  imwe

bhandeji randinoona sebhande randakanga ndavimbiswa naMwari kuti riwedzere pane randaida kupfeka. Zvinofanira kubvumwa, Baba, kuti ndega ndingadai ndisina kutsamira pakutambudzika kwakadai; asi pakupedzisira zvinofanira kundifadza, nokuti Mwari ndiye akazvironga. Hazvizi zvedu isu vatadzi, asi kuti iye anotisarudzira michinjikwa yedu; uye iri bhandi, rinorwadza, rinorwadza uye rinonyadzisa sezvariri, rinofanira kuva rinodiwa zvikuru kwandiri, sezvo riri rechisarudzo chaJ.-C. amene, uyo akanga andipikira  .

Zvose zvakandipandukira, zvose zvakakonzera kuti nditambure uye kuti zvindinyadzise munzvimbo dzakaoma zvikuru. Kuzvikudza kunofanira, Baba,  kuve kusingatsungiririki zvachose kuna Mwari, sezvo achihuronda uye nekuhurova nehutsinye hwakadai pese kwahunowana kadiki-diki kako; nokuti ndinogona kutaura kuti akaritevera maererano neni kusvika pakudzika kwaro kwekupedzisira, uye handina chikonzero chokunyunyuta nazvo. Pakusuwa nenhamo dzandakanga  ndiri

ndakakombwa, ndaiva neshamwari imwe chete yandakazarurira mwoyo wangu nechivimbo,  uye patsoka dzayo ndaiva nechokwadi chokuti ndaizowana ushingi nenyaradzo, iye ega  akanga

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kusvika zvino apinda mumaonero angu uye mune aya aMwari, uyo waanogara achibatsira nepaanogona napo. Ndiani angadai akandiudza kuti ndaifanira kunge ndisina imwe chivimbo chakafanana, kana zvakadaro? Zvakanaka! Baba vangu, shamwari iyi, maiwe! chii chandaisafanira kutambura panguva yacho! nokuti zvakare zvinhu zvose zvaifanira kugovera kwazviri.

Kutanga, ndakava nemarwadzo ekuona chikamu cheshungu dzangu chichifunga nezvake, sezvamaona; achangobviswa kwandiri pandakanga ndichida rubatsiro rwake zvakanyanya.Murombo M. Audouin akafa, uye ndini zvakare ndakapiwa mhosva yekuzivisa rufu rwake kwaari kubva kuna Mwari. Naizvozvo ndakamuudza kuti ndakanga ndamuona ari mukubata kwokutambudzika, uye sokunge akasungirirwa pamuchinjikwa waJ.-C., kwaaizofira; zvakaitika mazuva mashoma gare gare...

Kurova kwakadini kwandiri!... Kwakanga kuri pasina kupokana kundinyaradza nokuda kwaikoku kuti Mwari akandiratidza, mazuva mashomanene pashure porufu rwake, achibva purigatori, uye akagara mumutsara wavakaropafadzwa muchigaro chemaoko chakashongedzwa namaruva, michindwe. uye

garlands. Pavimbiso yemarwadzo ake, ndakanga ndakurudzira zvikuru masisita kuti abatane neni mukukurumidzira kununurwa kwake neminamato yedu: iyo yavakaita neshungu huru neshungu; uye chiziviso chokugamuchirwa kwake kudenga chakavapawo mufaro mukuru (1).

(1) Ndinoyeuka zvakakwana kuti vakadzi vakuru nomutarisiri vakataura neni pamusoro peiyi nhoroondo ine chokuita nokununurwa kwamushakabvu M. Audouin, vachiwedzera kuti pachiziviso cheHanzvadzi masisita akanga asina panikiro pamusoro pakwo.

Ini handikwanise, panguva ino, kusiya chimwe chinhu chakaitika kwandiri mwedzi mishoma mushure meichi. Yakanga iri nguva chaiyo apo chitambudzo chakanga chakanyanya kundityisa. Bato redhimoni rakakunda, kana ndataura kudaro.

Ndakakatyamadzwa, uye zvakadaro, kana zvichifanira kubvumwa, ndaingoita nhamburiko dzisina maturo dzokunyengetedza ndimene kuti ndakanga ndave ndiri chikanganiso. Mwari, kunyange neni, akaita kuti anzwike mukati mangu. Mwari wangu, ndakati kwaari dzimwe nguva, deign kundiraira, kundivhenekera, kugumisa kuvhiringidzika kwangu. Ah! dai ndichiri naM. Audouin, aizondinyaradza!  WHO

ndipewo kuziva zvaari kufunga nezvazvo manje? Kare akanga ari wemufungo wangu, uye kana ndakanganisa, iye akanga aripowo; asi unovona chinhu ichi neziso ripi, zvaakaonekwa pamberi paMwari? Kuti, dai ndaiziva, ndizvo zvaizonditemera; asi ndinomuda pasina, uye Mwari haangamutenderi kuti abude, andidzidzise kubva pakadzika peguva rake.

Naizvozvo, Baba, ndakanga ndichitaura neni ndimene mamwe madekwana apo ndakanga ndava kunorara. Ndakanga ndisati ndarara ipapo, uye chiedza chedu chakadzimwa, kupfuura pandakanzwa kuseri kweketeni inzwi rakajeka kwazvo, randakaona kuti raiva remushakabvu M. Audouin; zvokuti handifungi kuti kwaizova kunobvira kuti munhu upi noupi, mukupesana nokuoneka kwose, afungidzire kuti akapinda muchitokisi chedu, kukwanisa, kusvikira panguva iyoyo, kunyengedza kana kuti kutevedzera kududza kwake  .

Inzwi rakati kwandiri, richitaurira pasi, uye nenzwi rimwe chetero raraifunga mudare: Hanzvadzi yangu, tevera chiedza chedenga chinokuvhenekera, uye usamira pakutaura kusina maturo kwevasinganzwisisi.

Ndakashamisika kusvika pamwero wekupedzisira, ndisina kana kumbotya; pane kudaro, ndingadai ndakada zvikuru kuva nekurukurirano refu naye, kunyange zvazvo akanga ataura zvakawanda kwandiri muaya mashoko mashomanene. Chakanga chiri chinangwa chezvose zvandaida kuziva, uye ndaida chete kuve nekugutsikana zvishoma pane zvandaiva nezvechokwadi chechinhu chacho. Mwari haana kuzvibvumira, uye ndinofanira kutaura chete zvakaitika, maererano nechokwadi chaicho chechokwadi. Ndiwe here,

M.  Audouin,  ndakadanidzira? Nyangwe ndaitaura ndakatarisa  pachiedza

kubva pamwedzi, handina kunzwa chinhu, uye handina kuona madzerere; apo hazvisi nyore, mumaonero angu, kutsanangura kuti, kana nzeve dzangu dzakanga dzanyengedzwa, maziso angu angadai asina kukanganiswa nekunyengera kumwe chete (1). Ngatidzokororei nhanho dzedu zvishoma.

Yakanga iri pano, kana kusambofa, nzvimbo uye nguva yekuona kana kutenda kuona chipoko, kana chiri chokwadi kuti fungidziro yaigona kuburitsa imwe, sezvatinoda kudzokorora  zvakanyanya  .

VaLe Marié, mutungamiriri mutsva, vanonyeverwa pamusoro pazvo. Zvaanofanira kutambura.

M. Audouin akanga atsiviwa naM. Le Marié, uyo akangwarirwa zvikuru kuti anyevere pamusoro pezvainzi kunyanyisa kwangu, fungidziro dzangu, mirangariro yangu . (2). Vakaudzawo M. Larticle, mutungamiriri wevakadzi veUrsuline, wandaivimba naye zvikuru. Ndakateverwa nokucherechedzwa kwose kwose nokungwarira kukuru, kunyange kudare rokupfidza, uko, kana kureurura kwangu kwakanga kwatora nguva refu kupfuura nguva dzose, pakanga pasina kutya kundinyevera kuti ndipedze, mukushamisika nenzwi guru kana ndaizodzokorora chekare changu. kukanganisa, uye kudzokera kuzviroto zvangu zvemasikati.

M. Le Marié akava mutungamiriri weruwa rweBalazé, pedyo neguta reVitré. Ndadzingwa munzanga, ndakaenda kunomuona; asi ndakasvika kumba kwake manheru iwayo akamanikidzwa kubuda achitiza kutongwa. Zvinoita sekuti anofanira kunge akanzwa panguva iyoyo kuti zviziviso zveHanzvadzi zvakanga zvisiri zvokufungidzira sezvaakanga anyengetedzwa. Handizivi kuti chii chakaitika kune iyi  rector yakanaka.

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Ndinoyeuka, pakati pezvimwe zvinhu, kuti mumwe mugari wepabhodhi rimwe zuva akauya muimba yokureurura, achindiita apostrophie nenzira youtsinye zvikuru, achinditi mupi wenhema, anopenga, benzi, anopenga, uye mamwe mutsa wakafanana. kundipa kuregererwa, kwandakagamuchira zvakadzikama. Ndichibva paya ndakamboda kuseka hangu ndichifunga

kuti ndakanga ndichangobva kukomborerwa nokuregererwa kune rumwe rutivi, nepo kune rumwe rutivi ndaigamuchira bedzi kutukwa nokutukwa; asi chinhu chacho chakanga chakakomba zvikuru zvokusagona kundisekesa nacho; saka ndakagutsikana nekumunamatira ndisina wandaudza.

Monsieur Larticle anomuudza kuti anyengerwa, uye anomutenda.

Mwari, kwechinguva, vakaita kuti ndione chinhu; Ndakanga ndisisina chimwe chandaizotaura kune vakareurura vangu kunze kwezvinhu zvakajairika uye nhamo dzevanhu. Vakabva vafunga kuti vaive nekodzero yekundituka ivo, vachimiririra kwandiri kuti vazhinji vaive vanyengerwa nedhimoni, kuti nekukurumidza kana gare gare kukanganisa kwakawanikwa, nezvimwe. M. Larticle akandiudza zvakajeka rimwe zuva kuti takanga tave, M. Audouin neni; kuti akanga asina ruzivo rwakanyanya rwezvinhu zvakadai; kuti ndakanga ndapinda mungozi yokurasikirwa ini ndimene... Vakandinyengetedza kuti ndingadai ndakawira mumusungo wekapoka kavanodaidza kuti convulsionnaires , uye kwandaisaziva zvakawanda kupfuura kufunga kwavo kwose (1).

(1) Mifungo yavo yose nenheyo dzavo zvamazvirokwazvo zvakanga zvisina hwaro nokushanda. Uyezve, avo vakarava Upenyu hweVatsvene vanoziva kuti iyi haisiriyo yokutanga kuedza Mwari kworudzi urwu, achibvumira kwenguva iyo vatungamiriri vavo vakati nokuda kwokushanda kwadhiabhorosi wakanga uri muuyo womufambiro unoshamisa woumwari. sky; asi Mwari haana kumbobvumira mweya yakapfava ichisiiwa nevatungamiriri vavo vose; vagara vaine zvakakwana zvokuvasimbisa. Hupenyu hwaSaint Thérèse chete hunokwana kuratidza zvese zvandinotaura.

Zvose izvi, zvakawedzera kutya kwandaiita kunyengerwa, zvakabudirira kundinyengetedza nezvazvo; uye mune izvozvo, ndanyengerwa zvikuru kupfuura nakare kose, ndakatenda Mwari kuti pakupedzisira akandinunura pakukanganisa kwangu, asi iye akanga angondiporesa pakuzvikudza kwangu. Ndakanganisa zvakare, Baba, handina kupora zvachose; asi hechino chibhakera icho, sokunge zvakadaro, chakapedza kuchipwanya: chibhakera chinofadza icho pakupedzisira chakaparira uku kutsauka kwekare kuparuka, iri ronda rakavanzika uye rine chepfu randaigara ndichidyisa, uye iro Mwari akashanda nguva dzose kuchenesa nokuparadza munzira iri yose; uye kunyange ndisingazivi. Zvinofanira, hongu, zvinofanirwa kunge zviri kuti kudada uku kusinga tsungirike kwaari, uye kuti kwakadzika midzi mukati memoyo wangu une mhosva, sezvo zvakatora kurohwa kwakawanda uye kwakaoma kudaro kuti zvibvise, kana ndikangoti ' achiripo; asi kwagara kuine musiyano mukuru mandiri mune izvi, kubvira pamazuva apo honai.

Anonzwa kuda kuzivisa kuna M. Larticle kutambudzwa kweChechi. Anomuti anopenga kana kuti munyengeri.

Ndakanzwa kuda kuudza mushakabvu M. Larticle zvandakaratidzwa naMwari pamusoro pokutambudzwa kweChechi, kubvutwa kwepfuma yevafundisi? kuzvidzwa kwesimba rapapa, kutambudzwa kwevechechi  , uye ngozi yechitendero, nesimba rinozvikudza iro ndakaona richiuya kuzorwa  naro  . Ndakapenga, ndikataura  naye ;

saka pasina kundinzwisisa. Mirai nesimba, Baba vangu, ndati kwavari: Mirai makasimba; Ndinoona kereke inoera ichidedera pakuona simba rinotyisa iri richisimuka kuzorwa nayo…  Mbiru dzayo dzakawanda  dziri kuwa.

Chidedera nokuda kwake. Mirai nesimba, Baba; Ndinoudza vanhu vose, batai zvakasimba.

Pakutaura uku, kwaasina kunzwisisa, M. Larticle akafunga kuti aifanira kuedza kudzima mandiri kunyange ndangariro yezvaaiti zviroto zvangu zvekare. Munoti kudii ikoko nhai sisi vangu, abva angochema? unorevei kutaura? nekuti ndinoreurura kwauri kuti handisi kukunzwisisa zvachose.... Uri muporofita  wenhamo here  ? (Zviri  pachena

nhasi pane zvazvanga zvanyanya.) Uri kutizivisa zvinhu zvakaipa nezvisakarurama. Luther akafanotaurawo kuwa kweChechi, asi Chechi haifanire kudonha. Chengeta Hanzvadzi yangu, kana uri munyengeri kana kuti unopenga, hapana pakati nepakati. Kwandiri, hapana chandinonzwisisa (1). Asi paive nepakati.

(1) Kwandiri, hapana chandinonzwisisa nezvazvo. Izvi, mukuona kwangu, ndizvo zvose zvaiva zvechokwadi mukufunga kwake, uye munyaya iyi aifanira kunge asina kusimbisa zvakasimba kuti paiva nenhema kana kunyanyisa muchinhu chaasina kunzwisisa. Takatoona kune dzimwe nzvimbo kuti ndiye pachake akanga ari kukanganisa nokuda kwekutya kuwira mairi, uye zvose zvaanotaura pano zvinongoshanda chete kuzvisimbisa. Zvine ngozi zvikuru kusarudza nechimbichimbi, uye kunyanya nerusaruro, pamhando idzi dzezvinhu.

Anozviisa pasi pechisarudzo chake, odzora zvaanenge akanganisa, uye anoreururawo zvake.

Pfungwa yehunyengeri yakandivhiringidza. Neshoko rokuti sinister raakanga ashandisa, ndakanzwisisa kuti aifunga kuti ndaiva muJansen . Ishe, Mwari wangu, ndakachema, ini Jansenist! Ah! Baba zviri nani kufa pane kuva munyengeri. Ndinokuzivisai kuti ndinongoda kutenda zvinotendwa neChechi. Zvakanaka! Baba vangu, sezvo Chechi ichindishora, ndinorambira uye ndinoshora naye zvose zvandakaratidzwa nemafungiro angu. (Tinoona pano kuti Sista murombo aive nekutenda

zvakapfava zvekuti akatora muprisita weChechi, uye nehupenyu hushoma kwaari kuti aite sarudzo ine mhedziso. Pane, zvisinei, mutsauko mukuru zvikuru mune zvose izvi kubva kune chimwe kuenda kune chimwe.) Handichadi zvakare kuramba ndiri pazvinonyengera zvepfungwa dzangu; nokuti kubva

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Chechi inozvisarudzira, hapasisina kupokana. Hongu, ndakaita nhamo yekuve chitambi  chedhimoni  Mwari wangu, musandiita mhosva, kana kundizvidza  .

regerera; Pamusoro pazvose, ndichengetei padzidziso dzakatsauka, dzandinotya kupfuura rufu. Chandinoda kufunga nezvacho kuita penance.

Uye handina kugumira ipapo, nokuti ndakareurura mukuru mukuru uye akazara kwazvo pamusoro pazvo, umo ndakazvipa mhosva pamusoro pezvese zvakanga zvaitika, kanenge sokuzvitenda kwandaiita; Ndakadzokorora kureurura kwangu kwese kwekare, kwandakaona sekusabatsira zvachose; Ndakatombochema semhosva zhinji kwazvo dzezviratidzo nezvakazarurwa izvo zvandakanga ndangogamuchira kubva kudenga chete.

Saka, ndinodzokorora, nokuti ndine chokwadi nazvo iye zvino, ndanyengerwa kupfuura kare, ndakatenda Mwari nekundiporesa kubva pakunyengera kwadhiabhorosi, uye akanga angondiporesa kubva pakunyengera kwepfungwa dzangu uye kubva pakuzvimba kwemweya. mwoyo wangu.

Ndakanga ndakarurama nguva dzose kumutenda, asi ndakanga ndisingazivi rudzi rwebasa raakanga andiitira; Ndakanga ndichitarisira kurasikirwa nezvose padivi pechirongwa chekuburitsa zvaakanga andizivisa, uye zvakadaro akange angoita kuti ndikwane pakuitwa kwechirongwa ichi. Akanga ashanda ikoko kwenguva refu munzira dzose, kuburikidza nokunyadziswa kwakasiyana-siyana; asi haana kutongondisiya chose chose, rudo rwake rwoumwari rwakatsiva mibairo yangu yose, uye oga aigona kunditsigira mukati mokutambura kukuru nemarwadzo.

Mwari anorinyaradza mukusuwa kwaro, kwarinoti ndiko kukura kwekuzvikudza kwayo.

Ndakanzwa kunyaradzwa kwemukati zvekuti hazvibatsire kuedza kutsanangura, ndaiva nenguva apo Mwari aiita seanofarira kunditsiva pane zvese nemwenje uye nenyasha dzinoshamisa pazvinhu zvakasiyana zvechitendero chedu chitsvene, uye nekufamba kwenguva.

wakarova zvakanyanya pakuzvikudza kwangu. Haiwa Baba vangu, Mwari akanaka sei, uye tinotadza sei kunyunyuta pamusoro pehutsinye hwake, sezvo anorova avo vaanoda chete, achingovakuvadza chete kuti varape! Paaindidzikisira kune rimwe divi, aitoratidza kuti aida kundisimudza kune rimwe divi; airatidzika neruoko rumwe chete kundiratidza mibairo nekorona, uye nerumwe kurwisana nemichinjikwa izvo zvaikwanisa kundikodzera izvozvo. Akaita seaiti kwandiri nomufambiro wake: Uchangokunda chete vavengi vako vokune dzimwe nyika pashure pokunge wazvikunda, nokutsika pasi petsoka dzako kuchiva kwose kwechisiko. Pamatongo ayo ndipo panofanira kuvakwa chivako chekukwana. Unofanira kugara uchishanda kuroverera pamuchinjikwa munhu wekare ari mauri, kupa hupenyu kumunhu mutsva. Saka, Baba vangu, vakakomberedzwa nemichinjikwa, ndakasangana nerubatsiro rwomushandi anoyevedza uyo Mwari akandiratidza kuhope, ndinoreva rudo rwoumwari, urwo rwaigara rwakabatikana kuti ruve nyore uye rutsungirike nokuda kwangu, nokuvapfavisa. ndinokuudzai achataura kumwe; zvakawanda zvanhasi  .

Chirwere chakakomba chinomuendesa kumasuwo erufu. Kurwiswa nedhimoni kunotyisa.

“Muzita raBaba, reMwanakomana, nezvimwe. »

Pamberi pehosha yakakomba zvikurusa yandati ndambova nayo, J.-C. akazviratidza kwandiri muchimiro chezuva rakaisvonaka, rine chiedza chakapfava uye chine mwero chakandiita kuti ndinzwisise kuti ndinofanira kuzvishongedza ndimene nokushivirira pakurwisa kwedhimoni; kuti nokuda kweizvi ndaifanira kuva nokuzvininipisa zvikuru uye kwakakwana kuzviisa pasi pekuda kwoumwari, kuzvisiya ndimene kwairi ndisina kuchengeterwa mweya nomuviri, uye pakupedzisira kuzvirega ndimene kuzviisa pasi pachangu kuzvose izvo Mwari zvaizoita sevanoda kwandiri. . Izvo zvandakaita kubva panguva chaiyo, ndichizvipira kumupa chibayiro chehupenyu hwangu panguva yaaida kuti airase.

Kubva ipapo zvichienda mberi, Baba vangu, chirwere chakakomba ichi chakazvizivisa, icho chakazotongwa kuti ndicho chokupedzisira: vanachiremba vakanga vazvitsanangura ivo pachavo; asi uyo akanga azvibvumira, uye ari changamire tenzi weupenyu nerufu, haana kuzvitonga sezvakaita vanachiremba: akanga atorayira neimwe nzira, asi ndaifanira kunge ndasangana nedambudziko iri zvakare kuti ndipedze kapu yekuvava iyo. akange andipa nyasha dzekuti ndisiye basa. Ndakashongedzerwa nemasakaramende ekupedzisira, ndakanga ndangosara nemweya weupenyu; zvataitarisira kuona zvichidzimwa chero nguva. Hanzvadzi dzangu dzose mumunamato

vakanga vakamirira kugamuchira mweya wangu wekupedzisira; kenduru yakaropafadzwa yakavhenekerwa nokuda kweiyi mhemberero inosuruvarisa; Ndakafunga kuti ndaona pamberi pemaziso angu reliquary kana coffin rakatemerwa

kundiviga. Ndakatongwa ndifenda. Maiwe! Baba, ndakanga ndichiri nezvakawanda zvokuti ndakanga ndisisina rugare rwepfungwa!

Pavakapedza minamato yese yerumbidzo yemweya wangu, vachiona kuti ndakanga ndisati ndapera, masister vakabva vasiya basa ndokundisiya ndava ndega. Yakanga iri nguva apo dhimoni rakanga rakandimirira, uye apo Mwari akaribvumira kuti aite kurwisa kwoutsinye pandiri  . vakapakata forogo, uye vakati vachinyomba: Isu takamirira kuti mweya wako uubate, takatemerwa kukupa mubairo mugehena nekuda kwekuzvikudza kwako, unyengeri hwako uye mhosva dzako  Buda  nekukurumidza  .

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mweya une nhamo, uye tiri mumoto wedu.

Chii chingadai chakaitika kwandiri, ndinokubvunzai imi, Baba vangu, dai Mwari vasina kundimisa mugomba rakadzika-dzika, uye dai vasina kunditsigira ndoga pakurwiswa kunotyisa uku kwavakabvumira? Zvose zvandaigona kuita mumamiriro ekusiiwa kwandakanga ndiri kwaiva kutendeukira kwaari nechivimbo chakawanda sezvinobvira, uye kumuvimbisa kuita kutendeuka, kana akandidzorera. mushure mazvo mapeche maviri aya akaita seapindazve mugomba raainge abuda.

Ndichidedera nokuvhundutswa nechiratidzo ichi chinotyisa, mweya wangu wakaninipiswa sokuora kwomuviri wangu; uye Mwari, sezvamunoona, akashanda kubvira kuti arambe ari mandiri, nenzira itsva zvachose, uyu hunhu hwekuzvininipisa, hwaakamisa ipapo nenzira inodhura kwazvo uye nehutsinye kune zvakasikwa. Zvishoma nezvishoma ndakanzwa simba rangu richidzoka: havi yangu yakazivisa kudzoka kwehutano hwangu, uye pandakangopora, ndakaenda kunozivisa zvese zvakanga zvaitika kuna M. Le Marié, uyo asina chaaiziva.

Shanduko mukati meSister. Nyasha dzine mufungo uye dzinoshamisa dzinopera. Inopinda muruzivo rweMunhu wehumwari uye nezvekusavapo kwayo.

Kuzvidzwa, kutambudzwa kwakanga kwanyadzisa mweya wangu, hosha nemarwadzo zvakanga zvapwanya muviri wangu uye zvakadzora kumukira kwenyama. Ikoko

kunyomba kwakange kusina kubata, uye dhimoni pacharo rakaita serakange risisazviponi; uye zvaiva, Baba vangu, mukunyarara kwakanaka uku kwepfungwa uye kwezvishuwo, muchibvumirano ichi chevavengi vangu vose, kuti Mwari akaita kuti anzwike kwandiri kuti anditungamirire nenzira itsva zvachose iyo yaaida kwandiri. .

Maonero, mafaro, zviedza muna Mwari, nyaradzo dzine mufungo zvinotova nengozi zvikuru kune avo Mwari anovapa, sezvo zviri nyore nguva dzose kuti dhiabhorosi azvinyepedzere kusvika pane imwe nguva, uye kuti aite zvishoma. zvokudya zvokuzvikudza, zvinogara zvichidya pazviri, kunze kwokunge Mwari achipa panguva imwe cheteyo, sezvaakaita kuvatsvene vaaida, nyasha dzinoenzana, miedzo, miedzo, michinjikwa inokwanisa kuzvipikisa, uye yokuchengeta mweya nguva dzose mukuzvininipisa, pasina izvozvo munhu aigona kuramba achidonha saSatani, kubva kumusoro kwedenga kusvika pasi pegehena.

Naizvozvo Mwari akarembera mandiri, akatokonzera kuti zviedza zvinoshamisa, mafaro, kubvutwa, zviratidzo zvekunze zvimire zvachose, kuti zvitsive zvinoonekwa nadhiabhorosi kashoma uye zvakaoma kuti aite zvekunyepedzera, nekuti vanenge vasina hukama. kumifungo yokunze; Ndinoreva, Baba vangu, kuziva Mwari uye nezvangu, iro munzira dzose inzwi rechokwadi reruponeso.

Naizvozvo Mwari vakatanga nekundirasikirwa nepfungwa inogara iripo yehukuru hwake, iyo yakatora nzvimbo yekunyaradza kwemukati mese. Ndakaona Mwari muzvinhu zvose uye kwose kwose; zvisikwa zvese zvaiita kwandiri zvakanyura uye zvakanyura muhukuru hwake: zvaive zvakawanda zvinokonzeresa zvekugona kwake kwese, hova dzakawanda kwazvo dzakatanga kubva paumwari hwake uye dzakadzokera kune yavo yakajairika: iye ega aive mukuru, ane simba, asingagumi, asingachinji. Akanga ari munhu anodiwa uye akaenzana, sezvo vamwe vose vaivapo chete maari uye kuburikidza naye, vasina, sokunge zvakadaro, kuvapo kwavo pachavo. Saka zvinhu zvose, kunze kwaMwari, zvakandiisa ndisina chinhu chinotyisa, chinhu chisina maturo, umo ini pachangu ndakanga ndanyura, kana kuti ini pachangu ndakanga ndiri chinhu chinotyisa chandakawana kwose kwose. Ndakatakura mukati mangu chinhu ichi chakachena chandaivenga.

Mwari ndipo pavakandiita kuti ndidzokere kuzoona nhamo yangu ikoko uye kuti nditore hunhu hwaaida pabasa ratiri kushanda iwe neni nhasi. Iyi pfungwa yekusakosha kwangu, iyo yaakaita kuti nditange izvo zvawaifanira kunyora, akaikurudzira zvakasimba mukati memweya wangu uye nehupenyu hwangu hwose, zvokuti dzimwe nguva zvaiita kwandiri kuti zvakazooma  kusvika mudzi wokuzvikudza. Kudenga!  Baba vangu  . Ndizvozvo, akandiudza rimwe  zuva,

mushure meKudya kwangu, kwandinoda kushanda mamuri zvino, pasina rubatsiro rwenyu kana kupindira kwemanzwiro emuviri.

Hupenyu hwake hwese hunoratidzika kwaari semurwi wezvikanganiso, anoita kureurura kutsva kwakajairika kuna M. Lesne.

Muhunhu hutsva uhu, Baba vangu, hupenyu hwangu hwese hwakapfuura hwakaita kwandiri semurwi wezvikanganiso zvisingaverengeki, zvekusakwana kukuru nezvivi, kuwanda kwazvo kwakandiomesa nekutya; kuti ndizvisimbise zvishoma uye ndizvisimbise pachangu, ndaida kuita kumwe kureurura kwakajairika, uye kusvika ikozvino ndiko kwakanyatsojeka uye kwakadzama kwehupenyu hwangu. Ndakachipa M. Lesné de Montaubert, akanga achangotsiva M. Le Marié, akanga ava mutungamiriri weruwa rweBalazé. Akandibatsira zvikuru; uye sezvo ndaityiswa nenhamba isingaperi yezvikanganiso zvangu zvemarudzi ose, akati kwandiri: Hanzvadzi yangu, kana Mwari vakakupa ruzivo rwakazara pamusoro pazvo, uchaona kuti unosiya zvichida zvakatowanda kutora upenyu hwako zvachose.

Akanga asina kukanganisa, uye, kuti ndive nechokwadi nazvo, Mwari vakakurumidza kuisa mumaziso emweya wangu chionioni chakatendeka chehana yangu. O denga! kutarira kwakadini! Ndakaona ikoko kuwanda kunotyisa kwezvikanganiso, kuregeredza, kusavimbika kwemarudzi ese, izvo zvandakaona se

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kuti ndive wangu, asi izvo ndakanga ndisati ndambofunga kuzvipa mhosva mukureurura. Sezvo yakanga isiri mhosva yangu mukusiiwa uku, ndakarasazve ndangariro dzangu pamusoro payo nokukurumidza apo girazi rakabva kwandiri. Ndakagutsikana, naizvozvo, nokuzvipomera ini pachangu pamusoro pavo sezvandakanga ndavaona, uye nokunyanya kuda kuzvinyadzisa uye kuzviparadza.

Kusava nechinhu kukuru uku kwandaigara ndichiona kunze kwangu uye mukati mangu, kwakabatana nekuona uku kunoshungurudza uye kunoramba kuripo kwemamiriro ehana yangu, pakupedzisira kunzwa kwepedyo kwekutambudzika kwangu uye nehukuru hwaMwari, kwakanditakura mazviri. the sweetest chivimbo mukunaka kwemunyori wangu. Ndakabva ndazviwisira maari zvachose kuti ndiwane tsigiro yangu, simba rangu, uye nyaradzo yangu yose. Mazano aya akandichengeta pakati pangu, uye aisambofanira kundinetsa neimwe nzira; zvisinei, ndakaona kuti kanopfuura kamwe dhiabhorosi akaedza kutora mukana weizvi kundisuruvarisa zvakanyanya, uye kundikurudzira kusavimba nerunako rwoumwari.

Anoshamiswa kuona kusatendeka kwake. J.-C. anomusimbisa.

Ndakanzwa ndazvarirwa mandiri kumwe kutya kwakanyanyisa kuti Mwari vaizondisiya, kana kuti vaizondisiya rimwe zuva nokuda kwekusavimbika kwangu. Iyi tarisiro inotyisa zvimwe ingadai yakandikanda murudzi rwemamiriro ezvinhu ane ngwavaira, kudai J.-C. akanga asati adzivisa iri zano romuedzi. Zvakaonekwa kwandiri rimwe zuva kuti ndainetseka zvakanyanya nekusakosha kwezvisikwa uye ini pachangu.

Unotyei, akadaro kwandiri? handina kukwana here kuzadza moyo? ramba zvimwe zvose, uye uchawana zvose zviri mandiri; zvisiye pakuda kwangu, uye ndichaziva nzira yokukuripira nayo chivimbo chako, ndichaziva nzira yokukutsiva nayo nokuda kwezvibayiro zvauchandiitira. Ini ndiri zvese kune avo vasingachabatiri pane chero chinhu. Pano, mwanasikana wangu, akawedzera, ndizvo zvandinoda kuti unzwisise nemaitiro matsva aya.

Uku kusava nematuro kukuru kwepasirese, uku kusavapo kwechisikwa, uku kufa kwauri uye kune zvese zvakasikwa, mufananidzo unoshamisa wezvinoitika kurufu. Mweya, wasunungurwa kubva kumanzwiro nekupatsanurwa uku kubva kuzvinhu zvose zvinonzwisisika, unowira mukuparadza kwakakwana kwezvisikwa zvose. Zvinhu zvose zvakanyangarika, zvinhu zvose zvaparara, zvose zvakafa nokuda kwake: nyika haichazovipo; haachaoni, haachabati chinhu kunze kwaMwari; uye kubva panguva iyo inozviona yanyura zvachose muhukuru hwayo, sedonhwe remvura rinowira muchipfuva chegungwa, umo rinobva ranyudzwa pasina kurasikirwa nekuvapo kwayo.

Ikoko ndiko kunenge kwazadzwa zvakakwana, nokuti chisikwa chinenge chiri pakati pacho; awana chinangwa chake, anofarira magumo ake ekupedzisira uye kunaka kwake kwechangamire. Ndiko ikoko, mwanasikana wangu, kwandinenge ndakakumirira rimwe zuva, uye nokuda kwaizvozvi ndinoda kukugadzirira pachine nguva mberi; nokuti hakuzovi nekugamuchira mugungwa iri rerufaro kunze kweavo vakazvinyudza mariri mukati meupenyu hwavo, vachirasa zvinhu zvose kuti vazvisiye vamene pasina kuzvichengetera kuchipfuva chababa chakavasika nokuda kwake. Iri ndiro tsime ravakatanga, ravanofanira kugara vachitarisa, nokuti ndiyo chete nzvimbo yekuzorora kwavo.

Nhamo yemweya iyo yakaisa mufaro wayo muzvinhu zvakasikwa.

Musiyano wakadini, Baba vangu, pakati pemweya une rombo rakanaka neuyu wemutadzi anenge aisa mufaro wake nekunaka kwake muchisikwa, mafaro enyama nezvishuwo zvehunhu hwakaora! Kana zvisungo zvakamusungirira kuupenyu nekunakidzwa kwenyika ino inonyengera zvaputswa, achanzwawo kuvapo kwaMwari, asi anongomuona somutongi asingachinjiki.

uye isingachinjiki. Mafambiro asina simba achamutakura akananga kwaari; achadawo kuzviwisira pachipfuva chake; nokuti ndiwo mafungiro echisikigo uye anodiwa epfungwa dzese dzakasikwa; asi richaramba richidzoserwa kubva pairi nesimba risingaoneki, ruoko ruchamudzura pasina tsitsi, kutonga kunotyisa kwaasingazombokwanisi kukotama, uye kuchaita nguva dzose kuitwa. Inzwi rinotyisa richanzwika risingaregi mukati mehana yake youtsotsi nemashoko aya anoodza mwoyo: Ibva, iwe hausi wangu; handikuzive.

Naizvozvo achakurirwa nekusingaperi nehuremu hwechinhu ichi chisina maturo chaachatakura kwose kwose; kusava nekwake uye kwezvisikwa zvaakanga aisa chivimbo chake nerufaro rwake; chinotyisa chisina chinhu, hapana chaanowana ipapo kunze kwekunyepedzera kunomunyengedza, zvivi zvaanenge aita, uye izvo zvisingazoregi kumutambudza. Murau wakadini kumweya usingafi! Imugumo wakadini wenguva isingagumi! Vatadzi vane rombo rakanaka, maizoberekerwa nhamo huru yakadai yamusingade kunzvenga, uye yamusingambozvinetse kufunga nezvayo?

Ruzivo urwu pachangu, Baba vangu, naizvozvo rwakanga rwuri chimiro icho Mwari vaida kuti ndive nacho, uye icho vakanga vanditungamirira kwenguva refu kwazvo, sezvo vakanga vane mutsa zvakakwana kuti vandizivise; asi rakanga risiri iro dhimoni raizoda, saka harina kurega kundinetsa pachinhu ichi, sezvaakanga aita pane mamwe, achindimiririra kuti dai ndakanga ndafemerwa naMwari zvechokwadi, ndingadai ndakabvutwa. kusvikira kudenga rechitatu uye ndikatakurwa chose kunze kwangu; pakupedzisira ndakakudzoserai zvisakarurama zvose

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nhoroondo, uye zvakakonzera kurwa kunotyisa kwatakatanga kunyora; nokuti, paakapeta simba rake, Mwari akamutsiridza uye akawedzera mandiri mirangariro yokutanga yakanga yakundikana.

Kusakwanisa kwake kutaura naVaLesné. Kusununguka kwake kukuru mukuita kudaro nemupepeti wenhau, uyo Mwari akanga amurayira kuti adzokorore semaungira ezvese zvaakanga amuzivisa.

Ndaiva neruvimbo rukuru muna M. Lesne kuti ndiite kureurura kwangu kwakajairika kwaari; but it must be confessed, ndakanzwa kusvotwa kusingakundikane kuti ndimuzivise zvemukati mangu, maererano nezvaishamisa zvaiitwa naMwari ipapo. Kusema uku kwakawedzera kusimbiswa nedzimwe sarudzo dzakanyanya uye mhinduro dzaaiziva kunzvenga nhaurirano dzese dzaizove nechimiro chekudzoka kune yakapfuura. Kumwe kwaiva kundiedza, kana kuti kwaiva kudivi rake rusaruro rwakanga rwataurirwa kwaari, sokufunga kunoita mumwe munhu; kana pakupedzisira, kuti Mwari vakanga vasina kumurongera izvozvo, sezvingangoita munhu achiri kutenda, nenzira ipi neipi yakaitika chinhu chacho, ndakanga ndisinganyanyi kusungirwa kuisa marwadzo angu mandiri ndisingatyi kunetseka nezvazvo. Saka ndakafunga kumirira denga kuti rizvitsanangure mberi nekundipa nguva uye nzira dzekuti ndiite zvaisada  .

Pakupedzisira, Baba vangu, nguva ino uye nzira idzi dzanga dzisiri kure, Rubatsiro rwaMwari rwakutungamirirai pano kuti mubvise kusava nechokwadi kwangu, kugadzirisa kushushikana kwangu, kudzikamisa pfungwa dzangu, uye kutsiva zvose zvandakanga ndarasikirwa nazvo mumushakabvu VaAudouin, vachiisa, sezvandinovimba, mapedzisiro ebasa raakanga aita akatanga. Matauriro aya baba ndakava nawo kare ndisati ndambokuonai, uye zvisati zvazivikanwa kuti maizova director wedu panzvimbo yaM. Lesne. Ndinokutaurirai izvi, Baba, nokusaziva kwandakakuudzai zvose (1). Ndakanga ndine chivimbo mamuri kubva pakutanga, chisina kupikiswa, uye chandinovimba kuti hachingarambiki. Saka ndakuudza zvinhu zvakawanda kupfuura chero ani zvake, uye ndinokuvimbisa kuti hapana mutungamiriri unozivikanwa sezvaunondiziva iwe. Ndinoshuva kuti iwe uve wekupedzisira, uye kuti undibatsire paawa yerufu kuti undikurudzire nechivimbo mundima yekupedzisira iyi, yandine chikonzero chakawanda chekubata nekuda kwekuedza kusingakundikane kusatamba dhiyabhorosi zvakare. , kana Mwari akamupa mvumo.

(1) Ndinogona kuzvitaura seHanzvadzi, ndakanyora zvese zvaakandiudza, ndichiedza kusachinja chero chinhu, uye kunyangwe chii chingave nehukama kwandiri, nekusaziva kwakafanana kwandakanyora kwasara. Mwari ndiye muridzi wekushandisa waanoda, uye zviridzwa zvisina simba zvinogara zviri mumaoko ake, sezvandambotaura pane imwe nzvimbo.

Uku kuvimba kwandakaita mamuri, Baba vangu, ndakaita zvandakarayira, uye hazvina kunditorera mutengo. Hongu, ndinodzokorora, ndakarayira kuti ndikunyorei pasi zvose zvakaitika kwandiri pamusoro penzvimbo, nguva uye zvakadaro

mamiriro ezvinhu. Mwari akandikurudzira kanopfuura kamwe kuti ndidzokorore kwamuri semaungira aakataura kwandiri kana kuita kuti ndione, nekuti aifanira kutora kubva mairi kubwinya kwake uye kunaka kwekereke yake. Nekuda kwenyu, Baba vangu, makandikumbira kuti ndizvidavirire kwamuri; naizvozvo ndakazviita kuti nditeerere Mwari nemi; naizvozvo ndakatanga kurondedzera kwangu kwose nokurangarira zvandakanga ndichifanira kuteerera. NdiMwari zvakare, Baba vangu, vanoda kuti ndipedze nhoroondo refu yehupenyu hwangu hwemukati, nekukupa fungidziro yakajairika pamatunhu akasiyana mandakazviwana ndiri, uye nemwenje wakasiyana wandakagamuchira kubva kudenga. Asi nhasi zvakwana, inguva yekuzorora. Farai Baba ndinyengetereiwo.

Nenzira iyo Mwari akazivisa nayo kwaari zvaakaita kuti zvinyorwe.

“Muzita raBaba, reMwanakomana, nezvimwe. »

Baba vangu, maererano nezviratidzo uye nenzira iyo Mwari vakandizivisa nayo zvinhu zvakasiyana-siyana zvandakataura kwamuri, Chechi nekutambudzwa kwayo, kutongwa, paradhiso, gehena, purigatori, nezvimwewo, nezvimwewo. Ndakakuudzai pamusoro penzvimbo apo zvinhu zvaiita sezvinoitika pamberi pangu, dzimwe nguva nzvimbo imwe, dzimwe nguva imwe, dzinenge nguva dzose pamakomo. Ndakakuudzai kuti J.-C. akanga azviratidza kwandiri ikoko, sezvakaitawo muchechi, uye kunyange muchitokisi chedu, muchimiro chomunhu, uye sezvaakanga ari mukati moupenyu hwake hunofa; dzimwe nguva aizviita kuti anzwike, kana namashoko kana nechiedza chomukati, asingazviratidzi.

Ndatokutsanangurirai zvose izvi sokugona kwangu; asi kana iwe ukandibvunza, semuenzaniso, kuti ndakazviwana sei ndiri munzvimbo dzakasiyana, ini ndinokupindura iwe yandisingazive. Chandinogona kukupupurirai zvikuru kwazvo ndechokuti, apo huvepo hwaMwari hwakaratidzwa kwandiri nenzira ine mufungo nechiedza ichi, pakarepo uye panguva imwe cheteyo, ndakazviwana ndatakurwa ndichiendeswa kunzvimbo yandaida Mwari, uye iyo yandakanga ndisati ndamboona kuti ndirini. kwaizova nzvimbo yezviitiko zvaakanga amira kundiita muoni; uyezve, kana akaswedera kwandiri zvinhu kana kuti akaswedera kune zvinhu kwandiri, zvandisingakwanise kusiyanisa zvakanaka, uye izvo, ndinofunga,

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hazvina hazvo mhosva, ichokwadi kuti ndakavaona, nemaziso epfungwa. Kunyange zvazvo ndakatora nguva yakawanda ndichifungisisa zvinhu zvakasiyana-siyana zvandakaratidzwa, kufamba kwokutanga kwakanditakura ikoko kwaigara kuchiitwa mukubwaira kweziso; izvo zvichiri kuitika dzimwe nguva, kunyange zvishoma zvishoma. Ndinoona, ndinobata, ndinonzwa, kunyange zvazvo kushandiswa kwemanzwi kuchikanganiswa zvachose kana kuti muchidimbu, sezvandambokuudza.

Kuti munzwisise izvi Baba zvichakwana kuti ndikuyeuchidzei zvakare zvakaitika mandiri apo nganonyorwa yevakafa yaiimbwa zuva rapfuura reVatendi Vose. Ndakanzwa ndikazviona pakarepo ndatakurwa kuenda kugehena; asi, sezvamunoziva, handina kutya, sezvo ini Ndakanga ndiina J.-C. Ikoko, ndakaona, ndakanzvera zvinhu zvose zvinotyisa izvo zvandakataura pamusoro pazvo kwauri muudzame hwandakakuitira iwe. Mukati menguva iyo pfungwa dzangu dzakanga dzakabatikana nazvo, hafu ndakanzwa masisita achiimba parutivi pangu; asi manzwi avo akabatana akangoita ruzha rusinganzwisisike uye rusinganzwike munzeve dzangu. Pakunopera kweprose, ndakabuda muruzevha urwu, ndakatangazve kushandisa njere semunhu anomutswa kubva kuhope huru, paakanga afunga kuti anzwa kamwe karuzha kakanga kamuvhiringa.

Uku kubvutwa kwakaitika kwandiri kazhinji kazhinji munguva yakapfuura kuchiri kuitika kwandiri nguva nenguva; uyezve kana ndichifungisisa muushumiri

kwaya, muchitokisi changu, kana kunyange panguva yenhandaro, ndinenge ndiri panotakurwa mweya wangu naMwari, kupfuura munzvimbo inozorora muviri wangu. Izvi ndizvo zvaita kuti nditye kuzorora, sezvandambokuudzai kune imwe nzvimbo, nekuti zvinotondinyadzisa.

Kuregeredza kudiki kwake kunotadzisa nyasha dzaMwari  .

Kuregeredza kudiki padivi pangu, kukanganisa kudiki nguva dzose kunoisa zvipingamupinyi zvakawanda kana zvishoma kune zvikomborero zvedenga. Mhosva yakakomba zvikuru inogona kundinyima chose chose, uye kana mhosva iyi yakaenda kumunhu anofa, yaizoisa rusvingo  rwokuparadzana pakati paMwari neni. Anobva abvisa nyasha dzake ozvibvisa; asi pazvikanganiso zvakewo zvake, anogutsikana nokundituka zvakanyanya kana zvishoma: dzimwe nguva kungoshora kweunyoro; ungati murume ane hasha anonyunyuta nekutonhorwa kwemukadzi achiri kudiwa, uye waanotyisidzira kuti akamurasa. Dzimwe nguva chete mushure mekuregererwa uye machirairo akawanda paanoonekwa kwandiri kuti andisiye nguva yekumushuva uye kurwadziwa kwekumusuwisa.  I

zvino wotya kusvika kwake uye kuona kwake kwekutanga; asi ndichiri kuzvishuva kupfuura zvandinovatya.

Maonero enyasha aakagamuchira muzvizaruro zvaakaitirwa nyasha naMwari. Murangariro wakasimba wokuvenga chivi.

Munguva idzi dzechitarisiko, ndakazviwana ndarohwa nezvinhu zvinofadza kana zvinotyisa izvo zvakandibata pamwe nekutya, tariro kana rudo, uye maonero aya aienderana nezvinhu zvakasiyana. Tichifunga nezvokutambudzwa kwehero, somuenzaniso, ndainzwa  mirangariro inobetsera sezvayakanga yakajeka, iyo yakandiita kuti ndidedere pamusoro pangu ndimene uye pamusoro pokusava nechokwadi kwomugumo wangu usingagumi. Ndizvo zvakanga zvakaitawo purigatori mukuenzana  .

Ndichiona mufaro wevatsvene, ndakanzwa kuda kuedza kuukodzera nemabasa akanaka; somukuona nhamo nokutambudzwa kwevakarashwa, ndakanzwa ndichida kuita chinhu chiri chose kuti ndivanzvenge. Kunyanya kuviri uku kwakaita kuti ndinzwe, uye kubata pamunwe wangu, nekuchinjana kwavo kunotyisa uye kusingadzivisike, kukosha kwese kwemweya wangu uye kukosha kwese kwekupedzisira kwayo. Ndakanzwisisa ipapo simba rose nechokwadi chese chemashoko aya eEvhangeri: Chii chinobatsira munhu kuwana nyika yose, kana akauya kuzorasikirwa nemweya wake? Ndiani angambomutsiva nokuda  kwokurasikirwa kusingagadzirisiki uku?

Uku ndiko kukosha kweruponeso. Ndakayangarara saizvozvo pakati petariro yedenga nekutya kwegehena, uye ndakadedera pamusoro pekusava nechokwadi kwekusingaperi kwangu; chimiro icho dhiyabhorosi asina kumbobvira agadzira, chaasingatomboedze kunyepedzera, uye chaasingambokwanisi kutevedzera zvakanaka.

Ndichirangarira, pakati pezvimwe zvinhu, zvimwe zvitambudzo zvevakarambwa, ndakanzwa hana yangu ichindiudza kuti ndakanga ndakafanirwa nazvo. Kutyisa kwakadini! Ndakabata pamuviri panguva iyo ruvengo rukuru rwakadai pamusoro pechivi chisingafadzi icho chakaita kuti ndikodzere chirango chakadaro, kuti chakapfuura ruvengo rwandaiva narwo pamusoro pedhimoni rakanga randitakura ikoko, uye kunyange kutya kurwadziswa uku chaiko: kupatsanurana uye kurasikirwa kunobva kuna Mwari, kusingatsungiririki sezvakwakanga kuri makuri kumene, ipapo kwakaratidzika kwandiri kuva kwakaderera mupfungwa; hapana chaive chiri pamusoro pekutya kwandakafunga kuti ndaiva nekusingaperi nyaya yechikara chakamushatirisa; kuva nekusingaperi mumoyo mhosva dzisingazoregererwi, kana kuregererwa, kana kukanganwika, uye dzichavapo nekusingaperi nekuda kwenhamo.

chechisikwa chisingaparadzwi, chavaizodai vakaita muvengi waMwari wacho nokusingaperi, uye naMwari wavaizoda kushongedzera nhumbi dzokurwa naro nokusingaperi.

Ndakabva ndapinda zvikuru muruvengo rusingawirirane urwo Mwari anarwo nokuda kwouyu muvengi anofa, zvokuti kunzwa mutongo.

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Zvaakareva kwaari pakutonga kukuru kwaakandipupurira, ndikati kwaari, Hongu, Mwari wangu! kana ndikava nenjodzi yekutsiurwa sevaya varombo vamunopa mhosva nekuda kwechivi mumoyo mavo, ndinofanosimbisa mutongo iwoyo wamunondipomera, sezvamunoitira ivo. Kunyange zvingave zvichityisa, ndinorigamuchira uye ndinoritsigisa; Ndinozvitongesa kumarwadzo egehena, kuti ndikutsive nokuda kwehasha dzinotyisa dzawakaitwa nechikara chinosemesa. O Baba vangu! kana varume vaiva nemafungiro chaiwo pamusoro pazvo; dai vaiziva kuipa kwayo; kudai vaiziva ruvengo rwakafanira kwaari, vaizomuranga sei ndokumuparadza mavari vamene kupfurikidza nokupfidza kunobetsera uko kwaizodzivisa kuoma kwokururamisira kwaMwari!

Ko mweya, dai wadzoka kubva kudenga rechitatu, semupositora Pauro pachake, ungambofunga kuzvitutumadza, kana waitwa kuti uone zvese kusava nematuro kwawo, nehukuru, uye kuipa kwezvivi zvaakaita. kana kuti vangadai vakaita, pamwe chete nokurwadzisa kunotyisa kwavakamukodzera, uye izvo zvichida zvakamumirira pakupera kwebasa rake; nekuti ndiani ungaziva kana wakafanira kudiwa kana kuvengwa? Murume uyu, kure nekushandisa zvisizvo nyasha dzedenga, nekuzvisimbisa pamusoro pekusava nechokwadi kweruponeso rwake, haazove ane chido chekushanda pachinhu chikuru ichi nekuchenjerera kwese kunodikanwa nekukosha kwayo uye kukosha kwayo, kuti kubudirira pakurishandisa nekutya uye nekudedera uko Mweya Mutsvene anotikumbira kuburikidza nemuromo wemupostora wandabva kudoma?

Uyu, Baba vangu, ndiwo maitiro andinozviwana ndiri mauri panguva ino, uye uyo Mwari agara achikumbira kwandiri, sezvaagara achiedza kuti zviitike; asi chimiro chemufaro ichi chiri kure nekuuya kwandiri kamwe kamwe, kana kubva pakutanga kwezvakazarurwa zvangu. Nyasha dzinofanira kunge dzakandiisa kwairi nemhando dzose dzemitoo, sezvawaona, uye nenzira dzinoshamisa dzinova kwandiri chidzidzo chitsva chekudedera chenhoroondo yandichafanira kupa.

Hongu Baba munoziva kuti ndakange ndiri kure nekwandiri  , nenyasha dzaMwari. Paive nekusakwana kwakawanda muzvakanaka zvishoma zvandakaita; zvisikwa zvakazviwana zvakare uye zvakare; dhimoni rakanga richiita zvaro pese pese. Nokudaro, ndinozvidzokorora zvakare, uye ndinotaura sezvandinokanganisa, kana zvinhu zvose zvakakundikana munguva yakapfuura, kunongova kudada kwangu uye maitiro angu akaipa anofanirwa kupomerwa: chii chingaitika chichiri chisingakanganisi dai Mwari asina kuita zvose zvinodhura. nekuparadza zvipingamupinyi zvose; nokuti, kana ndiri ini, ndinogona, pasina chikonzero chokuzvininipisa, kukuvimbisai kuti ndinokwanisa chete kukanganisa basa raMwari uye kukuvadza mazano ake makuru: ndiko kwandinobvawo.

Ngozi yenyasha dzinoshamisa. Muvatsvene vanoperekedzwa nekutambudzika kukuru nekunyadziswa.

Kana dziri fariro dzine mufungo, uye zviedza zvinobudisa kupembera nomufaro nokubvutwa, kana kuti migumisiro yacho inopera pasina zviratidzo zvinooneka uye zvinoshamisa nezvinhu, hapana mubvunzo kuti izvo, mupfungwa chaiyoiyo, zvinofanira kutyiwa zvikuru kupfuura zvinoshuviwa, nokuti inogara ichifarira vamwe kuti vanobvumirwa, uye vane ngozi kune avo vavanowanikwa, kana vasina kuenzanisa ipapo nenzira iyo inogona kuparadza zvinobudirira izvo zvinogona kukuvadza kunaka kwechidzidzo chavanowanikwa. .

Saka, Baba vangu, Mwari akandizivisa kuti pese pavaivashandisa kuitira kunaka kwekereke yavo uye ruponeso rwemweya, aigara achipa kune avo vaive midziyo yayo kunyadziswa, kutambura, nyasha pakupedzisira dzekufungidzira izvo zvakavamanikidza, kuti vadaro. kutaura, kuti vadzokere mukati mavo, uye nguva dzose vakavachengeta mukusava kwavo. Zvakare tinoona kuti avo vakashandiswa naMwari kuve midziyo yetsitsi dzake, kuti vadzorere vanhu kumabasa avo, vangangove vatsvene vese vemweya wakakwana uye wakakwana, pamwe nekuzvininipisa kwakadzama.

Kuzvininipisa kwakadzama kwevarume vakadaidzwa kuita zvishamiso muKereke.

Hongu, Baba vangu, varume ava vanoshamisa uye vekutanga kufanirwa kwechikamu chikuru, ava vatsvene vane zvishamiso, uye kune avo hunyanzvi hwavaishandisa hwemarudzi ese vaiwanzopa zita rekuti thaumaturges, Mwari vakaita kuti ndione kuti havana kuchengeteka . , pakati pekukudzwa kwaiitwa kwavari.

kuti shungu dzavo dzakadzima uye dzakafa mumwoyo yavo, sezvavakaita chete muzita raMwari, uye pasina kudzoka pavari. Kuzvikudza kwakaramba kuchizviratidza: asi muruzhinji akawana mwoyo usingasvikike pakurwiswa kwake, uye zvishuwo zvakanga zvisisafeme. Dhiyabhorosi uye zvisikwa zvakakundwa uye zvakamanikidzwa kunyarara, uye ndizvo zvakaita kuti vachengetedzwe.

Hongu, Baba vangu, ndinoona kuti vanhu vatsvene ava vairarama chete parudo rwaMwari, uyo wavaitsvaka kukudzwa muzvinhu zvose uye kwose kwose; kushandisa  chisikwa chete kusimuka  kune

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Musiki; mushoko, vakanga vakafa kwavari, kunyika, uye kumafaro epfungwa; vakatsvaka chete kudaira kunyasha dzake, kurwisa zvishuvo zvavo, kukunda zviedzo zvavo, uye kukunda chose chose pamusoro pemunhu akwegura. Pave paine vamwe, uye kuchine vamwe vasina kunyatsosununguka kubva kuhumambo hwepfungwa uye zvishuwo, avo vachiri vakazadzwa nekuzvifungira, kusakwana uye kunyangwe kukanganisa. Vanhu ava havasi matsotsi akaipisisa, asi vanogona uye vanozongodaro kazhinji, kana kuti kunamatira kwavo kune chisikwa kunovapa mukana wakawandisa wekudonha uye kusatendeka. Izvo zvakanyanya kwavari izvo zvinonzwisa tsitsi uye zvisingawanzo nyasha zvine njodzi, nekuti sezvatakatsanangura,

Nzira iyo Mwari akadzivirira nayo Sista kubva mukudada munyasha  dzinoshamisa dzaakataura kwaari kuitira ruponeso rwemweya  .

Zvakare, Baba vangu, munyasha dzinoshamisa idzi dzavakataura  kwandiri kuti ndiponese vamwe, vakaita kuti ndione kuti runako rwavo rwakabvisa utera hwangu zvakanyanya. Kuzviremekedza kwangu kwakanyanyisa, zvishuvo zvangu zvakanyanyisa, uye kuzvikudza kwangu kwakagadzirira kupiswa. Akaita kuti ndinzwisise kuti  ndini

akarasika pasina betsero, dai akanga asina kunyorovesa nyasha dzaakaisa mandiri pasina muripo uye nokuda kwavamwe, naiwo aakaisa imomo nokuda kwangu bedzi. Aya ndiwo maonero akajeka oukuru hwake, kusakosha kwangu, kwezvivi zvangu, kutya kutonga kwake, pamwe chete nokukanganwa kwakakwana uye kwakakwana kwechuru chezvinhu zvaakandizivisa, uye zvaasina kutaura nezvazvo. Ndakarangarira ndangariro chete kukuita kuti uzvinyore, pasina kana ini ndakwanisa, nguva inotevera, kuishandisa chero ipi zvayo. Humbowo hwakanaka, mukuona kwangu, hwekuti pfungwa hadziuye kwandiri, sezvo ini ndisingakwanisi kuva nadzo ndega, kana kudzinzvenga kana Mwari vadzipa kwandiri, kana kuzvitora kana kuzvichengeta kana vadzibvisa kwandiri. Munhu angaramba achidada here kana asangana nekushaya simba uye urombo, apo pakupedzisira ane zvidzidzo zvakawanda

Naizvozvo Mwari akandiita kuti ndione, Baba vangu, kuti dhiabhorosi anogona kufadza, semuenzaniso, mumunamato, zviedza zvinoshamisa, kutapira kwezvinonaka zvinonaka, izvo, zvakabatana nekunyengetedza kwekuzvininipisa kunongove Kufungidzira, sevamwe, kunoita. mweya inovawana nokuda kwenhamo yavo vanotenda kuti vari kufadza Mwari, uye kuti hapana chimwezve chokuvatya; musungo unonyanya kutyisa pakuti zvakanyanya kuoma kuti vaudzivise, uye kunyange kuuona, kunyange zvazvo vanhu vanoziva nezvekunamata kwechokwadi uye muhupenyu hwemukati vanoziva nzira yekuzvidzivirira nayo. Chavanofanira kuita chete kuenzanisa pamwe chete mafungiro akasiyana avanonzwa pane dzimwe nguva kuti vaone manyepo uye kugadzirisa basa raMwari kubva pabasa radhiabhorosi. Asi isu tichadzoka kwairi zvakare kana iwe ukaona zvakakodzera. Saka ngatizvisiire ipapo mangwanani ano; uye manheru ano, mushure mekudzokororwa kwebhuku rako, tichatora ruzivo rwehupenyu hwangu hwemukati husina kunaka. Mwari vachibatsira, pakupedzisira tichaedza kuzvipedza. Ndinamatire....

Kunyepedzera kwedhimoni mune zvimwe zvinhu zvinoshamisa zvaanogona kunyepedzera. Mhedzisiro yavo inogara ichizvimba moyo.

“Muzita raBaba, etc. »

Baba vangu, mhedzisiro inogara ichigadzirwa nedhimoni, ini handingazvidzokorore kazhinji, kunosanganisira kugutsikana kusina maturo kunobva mukuzviremekedza kukuru, kuzvimba kwemoyo kunogara kuchitungamira kuti uzvitende zviri nani. vamwe. Maonero aya, sezvandambotaura, haambovhiringika nemweya yemukati yechokwadi neicho chakaitwa nekuona huvepo hwaMwari, uye hapana kukanganisika kana tikangosangana nazvo zvese. Imwe inokanganisa mukati memweya, iyo inogutsa uye inonyaradza nekuinyadzisa; mumwe wacho anobata fungidziro uye

zvichireva kuti inonyengera nekuvavhiringa. Mwari oga anogona kuporesa mwoyo womunhu, sezvo iye oga anogona kuugutsa nokuuzadza; iye oga anogona kudzorera rugare imomo nokuparadza zvishuvo zvinorwisana narwo. Dhimoni rinongoburitsa chitarisiko chayo nekuisa phantom panzvimbo yechokwadi; inorwisana nechishuvo chimwe nechimwe chishuvo, huipi humwe nehumwe huipi hwakavanzwa, uye inongotiita kuti tidzivise gomba rakadzika-dzika kutiita kuti tiwire mune imwe kazhinji yakadzama. Hongu, Baba vangu, kana zvakaipa zvese zvaparadzwa, dhimoni raizoramba richifara, chero bedzi raigona kumutsiridza kuzvikudza mumiviri yavo. Saizvozvo, unotidzinga kubva pahumwe uhu hwuchienda kune humwe, uye anomutsa uipi hwose, nokuchiva kwose, nokuvavarira kwose kwakaipa kwomweya wakaora; uye anogadzirira mukati memwoyo hondo ine hutsinye hwakanyanya pasi pekuonekwa kwerunyararo. Iwo moto wakavigwa pasi pedota unokonzera kupisa, kudzikama kunonyengera kunozivisa dutu uye kunofumura asina njere asingazivi nzira yokuinzvenga nayo kukurasikirwa kusingagadzirisiki.

Ndinozvimiririra, Baba vangu, imi

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hondo yaMozisi nen'anga dzaFarao. NdiMwari uye dhiyabhorosi ari kubata. Nounyanzvi hwedhimoni nokusangana kwavo nehero, n'anga dzinobudirira mukunyepedzera, kusvikira pane imwe nguva, izvo muiti wemitemo mutsvene wevaHebheru anoita: vanoshora nyengedzo uye mazango kuzvinhu zvinoshamisira zvechokwadi; asi pane imwe nhambo apo vanozviwana vamene vachisungirwa kureurura kusava nesimba kwavo nokukundwa kwavo, pamwe chete nehukuru hwomuvengi wavo, uye inguva ino apo Humwari hwakavamirira kuvamanikidza kuhuziva kupfurikidza nokushanda kwahwo, mukutaura: Chigunwe chaMwari chiri pano . Naizvozvo akanga asiri kurutivi rwavo.

Ndizvo zvakaita kuti nguva dzose tsoko yehumwari yave kuda kupindira mubasa rayo; asi kwaiva kungomukanganisa chete. Ndokusaka aipikisa zvirevo kuuprofita, uye kunamatwa kwevamwari venhema kune vechokwadi. Ndiye uyo, nenzira imwe cheteyo uye nokuda kwechikonzero chimwe chetecho, akabudisa misiyano nedzidziso dzakatsauka, achinyepera kugadziridza, uye akanyepedzera kuvambazve rudzidziso neChechi, apo akanga achishandira kuparadzwa kwayo chose chose. Ndeipi misungo yaasingaise zuva rega rega kuitira kureruka kwekutenda uye kusava nemhosva, muzvigadzirwa zvake zvinonyengera apo nyoka inovanda pasi pemaruva, apo

chepfu inouraya inoitwa kuti imedzwe muzvinwiwa zvinonaka, uye apo nhema dzokukanganisa dzinonyangarika mukuonekwa kwechokwadi!

Mitemo yekuona zviedza zvenhema zvinobva kudhimoni.

Asi, Baba, zviri pamusoro pezvose mumhando yemweya iyo iyi hunyanzvi

charlatan anoedza nepaanogona napo kuita shanduko. Ndiko pamusoro pezvose zvaanofamba munzira dzose kuti anyengedze mweya, pasi pechikonzero chekukwana, sezvandareva. Taona, Baba, zviri nyore nguva dzose kuti mweya inoziva zvemweya yechokwadi ione makomba ayo uye kuti ione zviedza zvayo zvenhema; asi kuna avo vasina ruzivo rwokuzviwanira rwakapfava rwakadaro, vane ungwaru hwakadaro munzira dzaMwari, vanofanira kushingairira kurangarira, maererano nenheyo dzokutenda.

1° izvo dhiabhorosi anogona nezvaasingagoni;

(2) mabatiro aanoita, mukupesana neaMwari, sezvatakakura kwenguva refu panguva dzakasiyana; pakupedzisira, pamusoro pazvose, chinangwa chaanoronga, chinova nguva dzose kurwisa mazano aMwari, uye kukanda kana kuchengetedza mweya mukunyengera, pamwe chete nekusimbisa mambo ane nhamo yeEgipita muupofu hwaiedza Mwari kuti ahuwane. kunze nenzira dzose. Zvinoenderana nemirairo iyi inotsigirwa pamusoro pezvose nechiedza chehumwari, zvichaonekwa zvakajeka kuti mumhando dzese dzaanoda kupindira, pane imwe pfungwa iyo dhiabhori haakwanise kunyengedza, kana iyo inogara iri nyore kuona chokwadi. kubva kune zvekunyepedzera. Iri pfundo, Baba vangu, Mwari vane musengwa webasa ravo, kuchisikwa chavo uye kwaari amene, uye iri dombo rekubata rinofanira kuva mukati memunhu wose,

Nzira yakanaka yekuziva kukanganisa kwemazano ake, kana azviratidza kumweya, kusabvuma chero chinhu chinopesana nekutenda, kumagwaro, kana kuzvisarudzo zveChechi. Zvakawanda kune mazano akasiyana-siyana akatorwa kunyanya, nzira yechokwadi yechokwadi. Hazvigoneki kuti Baba venhema havazokurumidza kutsauka kubva pairi, uye havazoedzi kutsauka kubva pairi pamwe chete naye, sezvo chinangwa chake chikuru chiri kurwisa uye kuparadza, sezviri maari, kuzviisa kwedu kuChechi. uye nerutendo rwedu muchokwadi icho ane basa rekutaura kwatiri; asi, sezvandataura, maererano nezvandinoziviswa naMwari pamusoro pazvo, hazvibviri kuti hunyengeri husazvipikisa pachahwo, hunofanira kunge huchizvitengesa pane imwe nzvimbo.

Hungu, Baba, uye torai izvi sezvokwadi isingarambiki: chero zivo yakaisvonaka iyo dhiabhorosi anoti anotipa munhau dzomudzimu, hazvibviri kuti haazotsauswi muchimwe chinhu pakutenda nokuteerera kuChechi. ruvengo nezvake

kudada. Asi imwe nzira, uye ichiri yakanaka kwazvo, yekuwana zano remweya wekukanganisa uyu, ndeyekubatanidza kuzvipira uku kukutenda kuda kwakasimba uye kunogara kuripo kwekutevera kuda kwaMwari mune zvese uye kusabva pazviri. kunze chinhu. Mafungiro aya, anofadza Mwari zvachose, haapokane, haafadzi muvengi wake zvakanyanya, uye hazvigoneki kuti mwoyo waunowanikwa uri kurebesa kuve wekutamba kwekukanganisa; mwenje wokutenda unomutungamirira munzira yokuteerera norudo nokukurumidza uchange wabvisa chiedza chenhema ichi chinomunyengera.

Zvakasiyana zvikuru neuhu hwekunyepa hwemweya, kubva mukupenya kwekunyengera uku uye kwechinguvana, kunogona kungopenya kwechinguvana uye kunyangarika nguva  mushure mechiedza chakajeka uye chakapfava chinobva kuJ.-C, chinongowedzera uye chinowedzera pakusvika kwemwenje uyu waMwari. yokutenda. Iwo moto wakawedzerwa kune mumwe moto wemhando imwe cheteyo, uye unongowedzera kutsva nemubatanidzwa uyu; nepo mbiri yedhimoni ichinyangarika sewill-o'-the-wisps kana phosphors yehusiku, pamberi penyeredzi inovhenekera nyika nesimba remwaranzi yayo inobatsira. Kubva pane izvo zvinofanirwa kugumiswa kuti zvese izvi  zvinopomerwa

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kufemerwa kunobva munyika ndekwekuti, kuitora zvakanaka, kungobata maoko kwemunyengeri ane hunyanzvi anorarama chete nemutengo weavo vaanoitisa manyepo ehunyengeri hwake; uye zvakadaro, Baba vangu, kunyangwe hunyengeri hwemunyengeri uyu hwakanga hwakakura sei, Mwari vakaita kuti ndizive kuti ndingadai ndakanyengerwa navo ini pachangu muzviitiko zvakawanda, dai vasina kundipa rubatsiro rwekubatsira kuti ndibve mukukanganisa kana kuzviponesa kuwira mariri.

Mumwe wevanoreurura weSista anobvunza Mwari nezvenzira yaanofanira kumutungamirira nayo. Mhinduro yaJ.-C. kuHanzvadzi panyaya iyi.

Mumwe wevanoreurura aishamisa akanga abvunza Mwari pamusoro penzira yaaifanira kunditungamirira nayo (1). “Mwanasikana wangu, J.-C. nokuti, akawedzera, ndinoda

(1) Akanga ari mushakabvu M. Beurier, mufundisi mukuru weUngano yaEudhist, ainyatsoziva nhungamiro yemweya, munyori webasa rinoremekedzwa, Conferences on the Faith , uyo akafa pakupedzisira mukunhuhwirira kwoutsvene. Akanga, kufanana nevamwe vakawanda, ane pfungwa yokuti Hanzvadzi yaifanira kunge yakanyora M. Audouin, sezvatakaona pakutanga.

kutungamira mweya nenzira dzakasiyana dzimwe nguva dzisingazivikanwe kunyange kumutungamiriri wavo pachavo, uye ivo pachavo. Sezvo dhiabhorosi aine manomano ake akavanzika uye nzira dzake dzakavanzwa, uye zvepanyika zvirevo zvenhema zvekuvanyengedza uye kuvanyengedza, ini ndinewo, kuvatsigira uye kuparadza manomano edhimoni uye enyika, kunyanya nzira iyo kungwara kwevanhu kana kwedhiyabhorosi. anogona kunzwisisa. Ini kazhinji ndinobvumira zviedzo zvavo nekunetsana kwavo kwemukati, kuenzanisa izvo zvakanaka mavari, uye kuchengetedza nyasha dzangu dzakadzivirirwa kubva mukuzvida izvo zvinotsvaga chete kuvabvisa. Kana zvikaitika kuti dhimoni rikakunda mune chimwe chinhu pamusoro pekuda kwavo, mukurwa kwandinomubvumira kurwa navo, ipapo ini ndinoshandisa kukunda kwaro kuti ndirwe naye nemukana wakawanda, mumukunde muchikamu changu nokumubaya nemiseve yake. Nokudaro, nechakavanzika chinotyiwa nadhiyabhorosi, uye chinopfuura chingataurwa, ndinopikisa mugumisiro wechikonzero chacho, uye ndinoshandisa mhosva dzakaparwa kubvisa rudado rwakadzibudisa. Apa ndinopwanya musoro wenyoka pakuruma kwayo kuita mushonga unogonesa pora."

Nyasha dzekuparadza dzakasimbiswa nekutambudzika mumoyo maSister. Kubatana kwake naJ.-C. kutambura uye kuparadzwa, kunyanya paSakaramende Rakaropafadzwa reatari.

Kangani, Baba, handina kuwana mufaro wokusangana nouyu mufambiro worupo kuna Mwari wangu! Ndinomutenda kangani nekundichengeta ndiri pedyo naye nekuzvibatanidza pamuchinjikwa! Hapana mubvunzo kuti aiva nemazano ake engoni, nokundikanda mugungwa rokunyadziswa nokutambura. Ah! ngaaropafadzwe nekusingaperi. Dhiyabhorosi akanga ashandisa zviedza zvomene zvaMwari kuunza rudado mupfungwa dzangu; naizvozvo kwakanga kuri madikanwa kuti, kuti avhiringidze unyengeri hwake, anyengedze tariro yake uye akunde pamusoro pebudiriro yake, Mwari aifanira kuita nenzira dzose dzisingazivikanwi noruvengo rwedhimoni pamusoro pokungwara kwose kwomunhu.

Muvengi wake akafunga kuti akanga aparadza kubva kumusoro kusvika kuzasi chirongwa chaaifanira kutya, uye chirongwa ichi chakanga chisati chambove pedyo nekubudirira sezvaaizvikorokotedza pakukunda kwake, uye pandakazvitenda ini kunyange.

kuti zvose zvakanga zvisipo. Asi, ndinodzokorora, ndinoziva kuti ndingadai ndisina kumbonyengerwa nomufaro sezvandakaonga Mwari nokuda kwokundinunura pakukanganisa.

Makanga muriwo panguva iyi apo nyasha itsva nechiedza chitsva zvakatanga kundiburutsira mugomba rakadzika-dzika rokusava kwangu; girazi rakatendeka randinotora pakusununguka ruzivo rwaMwari uye nezvangu. Ini ndinozviona semigumo miviri yakapesana, simba kune rimwe divi, kushaya simba kune rimwe, uye Satani sezvakaiswa pakati pezviviri, anogara akatarisira kukuvadza mumwe kana mumwe bato, achidzidza asingaperi kutora mukana wechero chiitiko uye nguva yega yega. kumutsa, kugadzirira kuchiva kunorwisa utera hwechimiro chisingagoni kuita chinhu pasina nyasha; asi chinonyaradza, ndinoonawo muchivoni voni ichi kuti Mwari haambochirambi pazvinenge zvakakodzera, kunyanya kune avo vanochikumbira nemazvo, uye vanoita zvavanogona kuti vawane pundutso kubva pachiri.

Ndinofanira kukuudzai zvakare, Baba vangu, kuti nekukwezvwa kwenyasha idzi dzokuparadza uye nekubatana neMuponesi wangu, ndinozviwana ndichigara ndichiunzwa kuti ndibatanidze michinjikwa yangu nemuchinjikwa waJ-C. kutambura kwake, rufu rwangu kusvika pakufa kwake uye kushungu, kuti ndiremekedze mamiriro ezvinhu anorwadza, uye kuti ndiite nenzira iyi kupfidza zvivi zvangu zvose uye zvavanhu vose, sezvaakandiudza, sezvandakakutaurirai kune imwe nzvimbo.

Ndichiri kuzviwana ndimene, neichi chinokwezva chomukati, ndichida zvakasimba zvikuru kuzvibatanidza ndimene naJ.-C. muSakaramende Rakaropafadzwa reatari, nezvakavanzika zvoupenyu hwake norufu rwake, uye nokuparadza kwake nokuzvidzwa kwake. Ndinonzwa senzara nenyota yekuzvirasa musakaramende tsvene, sedonhwe remvura rinorasika uye rinosangana munzvimbo huru yegungwa payakawira  .

Izvi, Baba, ndizvo zvaakanyora pandiri zvakadzika mukati memweya wangu, mumamiriro ezvinhu andakataura kwamuri pamusoro pawo, uye apo, achinyunyuta kwandiri, uye

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pamusoro pezvivi zvangu nezvezvivi zvavanhu vose, akati kwandiri: Mwanasikana wangu, kana uchida kundifadza, nokuzviita wakafanira kuita kuda kwangu, nokuita zvandakakurongera, unofanira kundiudza pa awa imwe neimwe yezuva mafaniro echido changu, maererano nezvakavanzika zvakasiyana zvinoiumba, uye

uku mukubatana kwechimiro chemunamato nechibairo umo ndinozviwana ndimene ndine sakaramende youmwari yeatari dzangu, chinova chirangaridzo chisingagumi cheshungu dzangu, panguva imwe cheteyo sezvo chiri chigaro choumambo chorudo  rwangu  . "Hezvo, unoziva,  ini zvangu

Baba mavambo emabasa amakanditendera kuti ndivandudze mhiko  .

Paizova nemavhoriyamu akawanda okunyora pamusoro peizvo J.-C. akandiita kuti ndione nokusangana nazvo pachiitiko ichi, pakudikanwa kwokuti tose tibatane naye mukutambura kwedu, uye nokusabetsera kwezvakanaka zvedu pasina uyu mubatanidzwa. “Rindai, nyengeterai,” akadaro kwandiri, “kuti murwise muedzo; tsvakai muzvinhu zvose chete kukudzwa kwangu kwakachena uye rudo rwangu rwakachena; Zvitsaure kubva pachisikwa uye kubva kwauri kuti uzvibatanidze kwandiri chete, uye ini ndichava mutsigiri wako nechiedza chako. Zviri mandiri chete uye kuburikidza neni kuti iwe unogona kurwa uye wakakodzera, nezvimwe, nezvimwe. »

Tinoda kubatanidzwa naJ.-C. kutambura, uye kugara tichirwisa kudada, kunobva zvakanyanya kubva pasi pehunhu hwedu hwakaora, sekubva kuna dhiyabhorosi.

Pamusoro pazvo, Baba vangu, nokukuitai, kubudikidza nokuteerera, muzive kukwezva kwenyasha idzi dzinondisvitsa pakuparara kwezvose pachangu, handisi kuti nokuda kwechikonzero ichocho kusunungurwa kubva pakuzvikudza kana kubva kune humwe huipi hwehunhu hwevanhu. Ah! Ndinotarisira zvizere, pane zvinopesana, kuti ndichafanira kurwisana navo zvakanyanya kana zvishoma kusvika pakufema kwekupedzisira. Wekutanga, kunyanya, muvengi ane manomano, anorega kwenguva kuti ashamisike zviri nani, achidzokera kumhosva paanenge asingatarisirwe. Hongu, ndinoona muna Mwari kuti muvatsvene vakuru pachavo ichi chikara chisingaoneki chinogona kuberekwa patsva kubva mumadota aro uye kukonzera kurasikirwa kweiye akakunda kukunda kwake. Ah! Zvakaipa sei kugara uchitarisana nemuvengi asinganyatsooneki uye ane ngozi! Kuti dhiabhorosi anofanira kutyiwa nokuda kwedu,

Asi nhai Baba vangu, sei ndichingogara ndichipomera dhimoni nhamo yangu? Sei uchimuita iye ega ane mhosva yezvakaipa zvangu, kudada kwangu? Maiwe! zvisinei nekuti ndinonzvera mwoyo wangu zvishoma, ndinonzwa kuti hunhu hwangu hwatapukirwa uye hwakashatiswa nechivi chekutanga, ini pachangu ndakazadzwa nekusava nematuro, rudado nenhema; mubatanidzwa wenhamo uye kutadza zvakanyanya kunditya, ndingangoti kupfuura vanhu vese pamwechete. Chii chandaigona kuva, kana J.-C. asina kundipa mukuvhurwa kwemaronda ake nerupoteri rwechokwadi pagehena uye pachangu? Zvakare ndiyo chiteshi chakanyarara, uye senguva yaaigara akandidaidza kuti  ndidzivise

kuparara kwechikepe kunosiririsa uko kwaigona kundishaisa basa uye kundiita kuti ndirasikirwe nekusingaperi chibereko chenyasha dzakawanda uye mabasa mazhinji.

Chokwadi chinotyisa, Baba vangu, uye chavanouya zvakare, sekutaura, kuzonyora patsva mupfungwa dzangu nenzira ine simba uye inokwanisa kuita fungidziro isingaperi. Sezvo kunoratidzika kwandiri kuti kuuya pano panguva yakafanira, uye sezvo Mwari pasina panikiro akanga ane zvikonzero zvake zvokusarudza iyi mamiriro ezvinhu kuti aitevere kwandiri, ndichakuudza pamusoro payo mumhedziso.

Chinhu chinokatyamadza chekuputsika kwechikepe, icho Mwari anoshandisa mukati meSista. Manzwiro ake okuzvininipisa.

Mumwe sisita akadzosa rimwe zuva, panguva yenhandaro, hunhu hwaakanga averenga munguva yakapfuura, kana kuti akanzwa achiverengwa mukati Handizivi kuti mapepa api evoruzhinji. Yakanga iri pamusoro pemushambadzi akapfuma kana mutengesi aidzoka kubva kurwendo rwakaoma uye rwakaoma, ari muchikepe chakaremerwa nehupfumi huzhinji hwaifanira kuchengetedza hupfumi hwake uye kuguma kwemhuri yake.

Kusashivirira kumuona, uye kuziviswa nezvezuva raaizosvika, mudzimai wake, vana vake, shamwari dzake dzose dzakanga dzaenda kumahombekombe, uko vaiita se, nokuchema kwavo kwemufaro, kuti vakurumidze kufamba kunononoka, kuda kwavo., kwengarava yavanowana mugungwa.Kuona uku kunoita kuti vanakidzwe nomufaro; asi zvinosuruvarisa! hazvina kutora nguva refu. Kunakidzwa nekukasika uku kwakavaunzira mufaro wechinguvana waiteverwa nemisodzi yakawanda.

Ngarava yaidiwa kwenguva refu inosvika, inosvika, tinenge tichitoibata. Tenzi anooneka, oziva mhuri yake inodiwa, uye anoikwazisa, kunyange zvazvo ari kure; uye nguva inotevera, pasi pemaziso emhuri imwe chete iyi, chikepe chinouya kuzorovera pasi uye chikepe chinoputsika, zvokuti zvinhu zvose zvinoparara pasina chinhu chinogona kuponeswa kana kuchengetedzwa.

Ndichiri nemamwe masisita ndakanyatsoteerera kunyaya inosuruvarisa, iyo chokwadi yakanga isina chimwe chinhu kunze kwekunyatsoita kuti tinzwe kusagadzikana uye kupera kwezvinhu zvenhema pano pazasi, Mwari vakaita kuti ndive nechokwadi -le- champ chishandiso chichiri kushamisa. , uye ndakachinyora zvakadzama mumweya mangu, zvekuti hapana chekutya kuti chingambodzimwa....

"Ndizvo zvinoonekwa mweya kusvika panguva yekupedzisira," akadaro kwandiri nechemumoyo. Mushure mekuwana yakakura; upfumi hwomudzimu, vakanzvenga hunza dzose dzoruponeso, vakanzvenga ngozi dzose, uye vakatokunda vose

vavengi, zvinosuruvarisa kuti anogona kuputsikirwa nechikepe sepakuona chiteshi uye ave kuda kugamuchira

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mubayiro usingaperi pakubata kwake kukuru.  »

Ah! Baba, kana chiitiko chinosiririsa kudaro, kana denouement inosuruvarisa ingava yemweya  uzere nehunhu nehunhu hunopihwa marudzi ese emabasa akanaka sezvandanzwisisa ini, chii chandisingafaniri kutya? haana kuita chinhu asi chakaipa, akazviita wakafanirwa nokurangwa here? Murangariro unondityisa, Baba vangu; Mwari akaita kuti ndione kuti ndiri kure zvakadini nechitendero chakakwana, uye zvakawanda zvandinofanira kuita nokuda kwenguva yemberi. Yasvika nguva yekuti nditore mukana wezvishoma zvandasara kuti ndirarame, kuti ndive nechokwadi chekuponeswa kwangu sezvazvichaenderana neni, kuti ndirege kuzowana zvirango chete pachinzvimbo chemibairo pakupera kwebasa rangu randinonzwa richiswedera. nezuva  .

Kutenda kwaSister kuna director wavo. Kufanotaura uye kurudziro yaanomuitira.

Makandirerutsira, Baba vangu, pamitoro miviri inorema;

1 Kuzvidavirira kwandakanga ndaita pakukupai zviedza zvandakapiwa naMwari, zvandinoraira hana dzenyu zvino; idhipoziti haichisiri yangu, uye yauchazvidavirira pairi; nokuti ndinoona zvinodiwa naMwari kwamuri panyaya iyi, uye ndatokuzivisai kuti hapana chikonzero chokuzvidzokorora pano; kechipiri makandirerutsira kuremerwa kwezvivi zvangu, zvezvitadzo zvehupenyu hwangu hwose, nekuregererwa kwamakandipa mushure mekureurura kukuru uye kuzere kwandakaita kwamuri, uye pamusoro pazvo, Mwari ndinokutendai. 'Ndinofara kwazvo. Zvichakadaro, ndinovimba, kuve kwekupedzisira kureurura kwakawanda kwehupenyu hwangu, nekuti ndakasarudza kusaita zvimwe, uye kusiya zvese kutsitsi dzaMwari, sezvaunondiraira kuti ndiite.

Dai imi Baba vangu vharai meso angu, nokuti, ndinodzokorora kwamuri zvakare, ndingafara kufa pakati pemaoko enyu, uye kuti makanga muri  mutungamiriri wangu wokupedzisira, sezvo muri wekupedzisira munharaunda: asi Mwari oga anoziva. chii chichaitika kwairi; nokuti, Baba, ndinozvitaura kwamuri, uye ndinokuudzai nemisodzi mumaziso angu, ndinoona dutu remhepo rinotyisa. Nguva yoswedera pamuchamanikidzwa kutisiya mutize; haugone kuita neimwe nzira, unofanira kuzviisa pasi pezvose. Mwari anoziva kana tichizoonana zvakare; asi ndinochishuva kupfuura zvandinotarisira  .

Pane chinoitika, Baba, ndinokukumbirai, musandikanganwa, nokuti ndichada rubatsiro rukuru rweminamato yenyu; Saka unogara uchirangarira Hanzvadzi yako murombo yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu, uyo anofanira kukukonzera dambudziko rakawanda uye kushanda. Kana Mwari akatirega tichingonakidzwa noupenyu kwechinguva, kana kuti akatinyima nahwo norufu, ngativimbisanei kuti hatizokanganwi mumwe nomumwe; nokuti kurutivi rwangu, Baba, ndakatsunga, ndakafa kana ndiri mupenyu, kukunamatirai; Ndine mungava kwamuri nokuda kwezvikonzero zvose, uye handisati ndichizotongokukanganwai pamberi paMwari; ndivimbisewo zvimwe chete.

Ndava kuenda zvino, Baba vangu, kuti ndikanganwe zvimwe zvose, ndibatikane chete neruponeso rwemweya wangu urombo, uye nenzira yokuutsvenesa nenyasha kuti ndiuise pamberi pomutongi wawo. Nokuda kwezvimwe zvose, ndinozvisiya ndimene kutarisiro yeChipo choumwari, uye ndinozviisa pachangu kuzviitiko zvipi nezvipi zvinofadza kurayira. Ndapota, Baba vangu, ngatigare takabatana patsvene

mwoyo waJ.-C. munguva yehupenyu hupfupi huno uye husina mufaro, kuti tive zuva rimwe mukusingaperi kwakakomborerwa. Ngazvive zvakadaro.

Kupera kwehupenyu hwemukati hweHanzvadzi yeNativity.

KUFUNGA.

Mushure mezvose zvatakaona, kunyanya mushure mekuverenga zvikamu zviviri kana zvitatu zvekupedzisira, hapana mubvunzo kuti zvichabvumirana, ndinovimba, kuti ruzivo rwehupenyu huno hwemukati, sezvavakaratidzwa kwatiri pano, haugoni kuuya kunze kweiyo chaiyo. munhu ari pasi payo, kana kuti mweya mumwechetewo wakaraira kuwanda kwezvakazarurwa zvawo. Kugadzirwa kutsva uku kunofanirwa kugamuchirwa uye kutorwa sehumbowo hutsva hunotsigira

kune imwe, uye iyo inosimbisa panguva imwe cheteyo kuti ndakanga ndisina kukanganisa kuona musikana uyu anoshamisa sechiitiko chemuzana remakore rake, simba reruoko rweWemasimbaose, izvo zvisingabviri kutsanangura izvozvo nekubvuma maererano naye. maitiro aMwari paari, anomubvisa zvachose kubva muhurongwa hwese, uye zvakare mukufarira nharaunda yevana veChechi; nokuti ndiani asingaoni kuti uku kusaziva kunofadza kwakavhenekerwa chete kusvika panguva ino patsime rezviedza zvechokwadi, kungozviendesa kune vamwe, uyezve kuvhenekera Chechi yose pamusoro pezvaizoitika, uye mumwe nomumwe wevana vake munzira. uye mufambiro wavanofanira kutora munyika dzakasiyana-siyana umo vangazviwana vari mariri maererano nenyaya huru yeruponeso rwavo.

Kudai, kunyanguvezvo, kwakanga kune mumwe muravi uyo, pashure peiyi nzvero, akanga akatsunga kuchengeta kusava nechokwadi kwake paiyi nhau, kana kuti kunyange kuramba kubvuma kwake, ndaizozivisa kwaari kuti handisati ndichine maruramiro okumanikidzira mufungo wake; asi panguva imwe chete ini

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Ndingakukumbirai kuti mutiudze kana akamboverenga chero munyori mumhando yezvemweya ari pamusoro peuyu, uye kumutumidza zita. Ngaatipa zita rekusaziva uyo, asina imwe nzira kunze kwekuvhenekerwa kwake pachake, akataura nezvaMwari ipapo nehukuru hukuru uye kuderera, akakurukura nyaya dzakadaro dzisinganzwisisiki uye dzine minzwa nekujeka, nemazvo, nekururama uye zvakadzama. Ngaatiratidze mune zvakazara kurongeka, njere, chiremerera, mubasa chero ripi zvaro rakabva muruoko rwevanhu, uye pamusoro pezvose ngaaite kuti tione mumunyori zvakanyanya zvemweya uyu wekutenda nekuzvininipisa, kwete zveizvi. kutya kuva mukunyepedzera, kusisina kuzviisa pasi kweupofu kuzvisarudzo zveChechi, hapasisina kutya uku kwekutonga kwaMwari,

Ngaatiratidze izvozvo zvose, kana anyarare; asi ndiri kuti kudii? kana achisungirwa kureurura kuti haana chinhu chinogutsa chaanotipikisa, ngaareururewo nesu kuti hapana kana chitarisiko chidiki chatingafungidzira mukunyepedzera kwedhimoni kuti sisita ane muenzaniso anorwa

dhimoni rakabudirira kwazvo, uye rinonyatsoziva mawaniro ake ekutichengetedza kubva mazviri. Ngatipedzei nekuunganidza zviroto zvaakavimbisa.

Zviroto zvisinganzwisisike uye zvechiporofita zveHanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu.

Si quis fuerit inter vos propheta Domini in visione apparebo ei, vel per visionem loqnar ad illum. (Num., 12.6.)

“Muzita raBaba nereMwanakomana, uye” reMweya Mutsvene, kuburikidza naJesu naMariya ndinoteerera. »

Pasina panikiro munorangarira, Baba, icho uporofita hwaJ.-C.” hwaizopiwa kunyama yose; kuti majaya nemhandara vaizoporofita, vamwe vechidiki vachava nezviratidzo, uye varume vakuru zviroto zvisinganzwisisiki uye zvechiporofita (1). Chinonyanya kukosha ndechokuti akawana mandiri ndega zvinoreva tsamba yakatorwa pamwero wayo wose; nokuti, sezvandinokuudzai zvino, maererano netsanangudzo yake, munhu anogona kuziva zviri nyore izvi zvose mandiri ndoga.

Ndachembera nhasi, asi ndaiva mudiki, uye kunyange mwana kare, uye munhu anogona kuti ndichiri kudaro muzvinhu zvakawanda, uye maererano nezvinhu zvakawanda zvokuti hausi mubvunzo wokudonongodza.pano; naizvozvo munhu anogona kuwana mandiri ndoga, sokuitwa kwangu naMwari, kuzadzikwa kwechiporofita chose chiri kutaurwa.

(1) Et et in novissimis diebus, dicit Dominus, effundam de spiritu meo super omnem carnem, et prophetabunt filii vestri, et filia vestrae, et juvenes vestri visiones videbunt, et seniores vestri soninia somniabunt. (Mabasa 2:17.)

Uye zvirokwazvo, Baba vangu, handina kungowana zvakazarurwa zvakadanwa nenzira kwayo chete, uye ndakazivisa zviitiko zvenguva yemberi, asi ndakavawo nehope dzandinotenda kuva dzisinganzwisisike uye dzechiporofita, munguva dzose nenhambo dzose dzehupenyu hwangu. waona. Izvi ndizvo zvatinofanira kuramba tichiita nguva refu, sezvo muchifunga kuti zvakakodzera. Iwe hauzonyunyuti pamusoro pangu, sezvo kuteerera kwangu kuchave kwakakwana sezvakungaite pane zvese zvine chekuita nemukati mangu uye account yandinokukwereta.

Saka ndagara ndichinzwa, Baba, kuti zviroto zvangu zvine kubatana kukuru nezvakanga zvakanyanyogara mupfungwa dzangu uye zvaibaya fungidziro yangu.

Kusvikira panguva iyoyo, pasina mubvunzo, hapana chatichaona kunze kwekunyanya nyore uye zvakasikwa zvikuru mairi, uye ndizvowo zvandinofunga nezvazvo pachangu; asi pane zvinopfuura izvozvo, kana ndisingakanganisi nezvazvo. Zvinoita sekuti Mwari vakazvishandisa kanopfuura kamwe chete kuti vandiwane uye mamiriro ehana yangu, uye misungo yandakateyirwa nadhiyabhorosi, nezvose zvandaifanira kutya kana kuzvitarisira pachangu kana kune vamwe. Miyedzo yangu ine chisimba chakanyanya, uye zviitiko  zvisingaonekwe, zvinenge zvagara zvichitangirwa nezviroto zvisingashamisi zvakazvizivisa, zvichiratidza kwandiri maitiro andinofanira kutora kuti ndidzivise njodzi kana kukunda zvipingaidzo. Izvi zvinoratidzika kwandiri zvakakodzera  kutariswa.

Munondivimbisawo zvakare, Baba, uye makandiratidza kubva pakutanga, nekupikisa magwaro epamutemo kupikisa kwandakaitwa nedhimoni pachinyorwa ichi; munondivimbisa, ndinoti, rugwaro rutsvene runotipa chiverengero chikuru chemienzaniso yezviroto zvinokosha uye zvouporofita zvaiva nenyevero dzakadaro dzinobva kuna Mwari. Iwe unowedzera kuti munhu anogona nanhasi, pasina kutenda mashura kana kuchengeta kusina maturo, kuwedzera chitendero chakati kune avo vaizoiswa chiratidzo nemamwe mavara, uye pasina.

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kunetseka nedzimwe nzira dzekufunga nezvazvo zvese izvi. Zvakanaka, Baba, saka ini ndichakuitai mutongi weaya mavara, zvichave kwamuri kuti muzvironge sezvamunoda nepfungwa dzakasimba, dzinogona kunge dzisingafunge semi pane zvese zvandakakuudzai.

Ndiine chokwadi chekuti iwe, seni, wakatsunga kubvuma uye kutevera chete izvo zvaunotenda zvinoenderana nekutonga kweChechi Tsvene, zvakandikwanira kuti hana yangu yakachengeteka, uye ndisingade kutsausa kana kufumura chero munhu, ndinozivisa kuti zvachose ndinopa zviroto zvangu chete nokuda kwezvazviri, ndichisiya munhu wose rusununguko rwokuzviramba kana kuzvibvuma, maererano nokuti anodzitonga zvakanyanya kana zvishoma maererano nemitemo yezvinoreva zvakanaka uye kufunga.

Kana ndirini, ndiri kungotaura kwamuri, nepese pandinogona napo, vamwe veavo vakanyanya kundirova; nekuti zvinotora mavhoriyamu kana taida kutaura zvese neruzivo rwakati. Naizvozvo tichazvivharira kune izvo zvinoita sezvine mhedzisiro nekushanda. Kuti ndivagadzirise, ndichavaita zviroto zvinotyisa nezviroto zvinofadza. Ngatitangei neokutanga, tichicherechedzana kuti tisatsikirira zvakanyanya pane zvakatotaurwa kare.

Hope dzinotyisa.

Zviroto zvehudiki hwake pamusoro pekudaidzira kwake hupenyu hwechitendero. Kusuwa kwake nekutambudzika kwake.

Kubva pauduku hwangu, ndisati ndava nemakore mashanu kana matanhatu, ndaiva nezviroto izvo, zvandinodavira, zvaiva zviratidzo zvechiito changu uye zvenyasha dzandaizopiwa naMwari, pamwe chete nehondo dzandaizofanira kutsigira. Ndakafunga kane churu, ndakarara kudaro, ndakaona ndakombwa nevavengi vainditeverera kurufu vachindityisidzira nezviso. Ndaifanira kurwa navo kusvikira pakupedzesera uye nesimba rangu rose; Handina kumbovapunyuka kunze kwekunge ndakabatsirwa naMwari, pandakazomudaidza kuti andibatsire. Dzimwe nguva  vavengi vangu vaindikunda, uye vakandiita kuti ndiwire mugomba rakadzika-dzika izvo pasina mubvunzo zvaimiririra zvitadzo zvandaive nerombo rakanaka rokuita kubva panguva dzemufaro idzodzo.

Ndakadaro baba ndakachema kuna Mwari vakatambanudza ruoko rwavo kwandiri kuti vandibvise pagoronga, zvakabva zvaita sekuti ndagashira mapapiro maviri andakasimuka nawo kusvika pakakwirira zvekuti vavengi vangu vaisagona. kusvika . Ndakabva ndazengerera mudenga senjiva, uye ndaigara ndichidonha zvishoma pazasi peatari yakakwirira yenharaunda yevasikana, kwandakawana mufaro usingagoni kuratidzwa: kamwe chete, kunyanya, ndakazviwana ndiripo uye ndakapfeka zvese. Ini ndiri, somurongi wetaundi remasisita, uye kuti pazera randakanga ndisingambofungiwo nezvenyika kana yezvipfeko zvechitendero; izvi ndizvo zvandatokuzivisai. Zvino, kureruka uku mukusimuka mumhepo, muzviroto zvangu, kwakawedzera kana kudzikira maererano nekutendeka kana kusatendeka kwangu maererano naMwari;

Kurwa kwake muchiroto nemashavi aimiririra zvivi. Kuwedzera kusindimara kurwisana nekuzviremekedza.

Muzera guru, ndaiwanzofunga, apo ndakavata, kuti ndakanga ndichirwisana namadhemoni ezvimiro zvakasiana uye akashata. Pane imwe nguva, pakati pezvimwe zvinhu, ndaifanira kuzviyera pachangu ndichipesana nezvikara zvinomwe, chimwe nechimwe chaimiririrwa, nezviratidzo zvinotyisa uye zvinotyisa, chimwe chezvivi zvinomwe zvinouraya. Ndakava nedambudziko risingaperi mukubvumirana nazvo; Ndakanga ndisati ndambowisira pasi rimwe chete pane kuti nditangezve neimwe pasina kuvhiringwa, uye dzimwe nguva ndaitoita kuti vakawanda vadonhe. Nenyasha dzaMwari ndakazobuda ndakunda; asi chimwe chevose chakanyanya kundirwadza ndechiya chidiki diki chisingafadzi chandakataura nezvacho kwauri. Ndinoreva, ichi chikara chisina kunyangadza zvishoma, uye icho chaipfeka chimiro chemukadzi akapfeka zvakanaka. handitendi kurwa neni ndoga, sezvandakakuudzai. yaigara iine chimwe chekuita nehondo dzakasiyana dzandaifanira kurwa kana kutsigira mumwe nemumwe wevamwe; uye pandakafunga kuti ndakanga ndarikunda zvachose uye ndikachiisa kunze kwechiito, chakabva chaita sechazvarwa patsva kubva mukukundwa kwacho kuti chidzokere kumhosva nehasha dzakanyanya kupfuura kare, uye kazhinji muchimiro chitsva. Unoziva kuti Mwari akandiraira panguva yehope idzi, uye kuti ndakanzwisisa netsanangudzo yaakandipa nezvazvo, kuti kudada kwaiva kwevavengi vangu vese vandaifanira kutya zvakanyanya, kana kuti kuzviremekedza kwaimiririrwa. neiyi coquette yakasindimara, zvakanyanya kutyiwa sezvaaiita akunda zvachose uye asisaite, akabva aita seakazvarwa patsva kubva mukukundwa kwake kuti adzokere kumhosva aine hasha dzakawandisa kupfuura nakare kose, uye kazhinji ari muchimiro chitsva. Unoziva kuti Mwari akandiraira panguva yehope idzi, uye kuti ndakanzwisisa netsanangudzo yaakandipa nezvazvo, kuti kudada kwaiva kwevavengi vangu vese vandaifanira kutya zvakanyanya, kana kuti kuzviremekedza kwaimiririrwa. neiyi coquette yakasindimara, zvakanyanya kutyiwa sezvaaiita akunda zvachose uye asisaite, akabva aita seakazvarwa patsva kubva mukukundwa kwake kuti adzokere kumhosva aine hasha dzakawandisa kupfuura nakare kose, uye kazhinji ari muchimiro chitsva. Unoziva kuti Mwari akandiraira panguva yehope idzi, uye kuti ndakanzwisisa netsanangudzo yaakandipa nezvazvo, kuti kudada kwaiva kwevavengi vangu vese vandaifanira kutya zvakanyanya, kana kuti kuzviremekedza kwaimiririrwa. neiyi coquette yakasindimara, zvakanyanya kutyiwa sezvaaiita zvishoma.

Mufananidzo wenyika. Mutsetse wegomo.

Ndinoyeuka hope dzakandityisa zvikuru: nyika yakamiririrwa kwandiri muchimiro chemateru egomo guru, pasi paro pakanga pane gomo rakadzika uye rakakura. Mupata wose, kana kuti mutsetse wegomo, wakanga wakafukidzwa navanhu vamarudzi ose, mazera ose nemigariro yose, vakavhengana namadhemoni avo vaifanira kugara vachirwisana nawo. Kwakanga kuri kurwisana nenyonganyonga nguva dzose; vanenge vanhu vese vaiita zvakawanda kana

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nhamburiko shoma yokusvika pamusoro pegomo, uye madhemoni akaita nhamburiko iri yose kuakwevera pasi: Ini pachangu ndakamanikidzirwa kutamburira nokurwa.

Chakanyanya kundityisa chaive chiverengero chidiki cheavo vakafambira mberi vakananga kumusangano wavo, kana kuti vakambomira vakasimba munzvimbo dzavo, nepo nhamba isingaperi yakasiya mushure mekuedza kudiki-diki; vakasvika pasi pemupata, vakakandwa kusvetukira pakati pemawere, izvo zvakafadza zvikuru madhimoni akanga avakanda ipapo. Zvino, Baba, varombo vakanga vasisina simba kana ushingi hwokuzvidzivirira; ndikaona vakasungwa nengetani pamaoko nemakumbo; madhimoni akavabata savaranda, kana kuti semhuka, kana kuti aifamba nemisoro yavo nemiviri yavo yose sepamashanga kana ndove.

Asi kurota kwakadini kwandiri, Baba! chii chakawedzera kutya pandakaona imwe hama yangu yepedyo ipapo! Maiwe! Ndainyatsoziva kuomerera kwaanoita zvakaipa uye zvirevo zvinoshorwa neEvhangeri sokubvumirwa kwazvinoitwa nenyika. Denga! akanga oda kuwiramo sezvakaita vamwe vazhinji, pandakamuchemera nyasha; Ndakakumbira denga kuti rimunzwire ngoni, uye pakarepo ruoko rwaJehovha rwakamumisa pamucheto wegomba rakadzika-dzika. Mwari havana kutendera kurasikirwa kwake, uye zvirokwazvo ndakaziva nokukurumidza pashure pokunge hama yangu yakanga yatendeuka, naizvozvo ndakarumbidza nekutenda Jehovha zvikuru. Ndedzipi fungidziro dzekuita, Baba vangu? uye kurota uku, sezvazviri, kwakaratidzika kwandiri kuti kunoenderana nechokwadi chevhangeri! ipfungwawo iyo Mwari akandiratidza ipapo, sezvauchaona nokukurumidza;

Hanzvadzi inoedza kukwira gomo, inonzvenga nhamba yegehena, uye pakupedzisira inosvika pamusoro. Tsanangudzo yegomo rezororo nerunyararo , uye iro rekukunda .

Kuti ndipukunyuke mungozi yakanga yakandipoteredza, ndakaita nhamburiko huru, ndichirwa nguva dzose, kuti ndisvike kurutivi rwepamusoro pegomo, uko ndaikarira kuwana chengeteko nezororo. Ndakafamba nomuhwaro dzine chiuru uye nemisungo ine chiuru yakanga yakateyiwa munzira yangu, uye madhimoni aiverenga nguva dzose kuti andimise uye andibate; pakupedzisira, Baba, ndasvika panzira nhete, pamagumo ayo pakanga pane kuvhurwa kwegehena. Matanho mangani

inotsvedza uye yakaoma ndaifanira kuyambuka kuti ndiinzvenge! Ndinofanira kukuudza kuti chiitiko chinotyisa ichi chakandipa kutyisa kwenyika nenjodzi dzayo, zvekuti ndingadai ndakada kuwira mugehena pakarepo kuti ndidzokere kuhondo inosuruvarisa iyi, kuti ndiendeko. anofanira kurangwa zvikuru pashure pokunge ndafa. Saka ndoita sei? Kuva chii? Nderipi divi rekutora? Ndakadedera ndichitarisira kuparara.

Pandakanga ndichiyangarara mumamiriro ezvinhu outsinye aya, shiri yakaita senjiva, yakamhara pamuti waiva pedyo, yakaita kuti inzwike uye ikati kwandiri nesimba: “Hanzvadzi yangu, Hanzvadzi yangu, pano ndipo panodiwa ushingi noushingi. unogona chete kubuda mazviri nokuzvisiya kutsitsi dzaMwari, uye nokuzviitira chisimba. Urikuona gomo iri here? igomo rezororo nerunyararo, rinogarwa neavo chete vakakunda zvishuvo zvavo, nyika, nenjodzi dzayo. Ichi ndicho chinangwa chaunofanira kutarisira. "

Maiwe! Baba vangu, chaivawo chido changu chikuru; asi nzira yekuendako uye kutiza mamiriro ezvinhu akaipa aya ndakazviwana ndabatanidzwa! Pakupedzisira ndakaedza ndimene, ndikaramba ndimene nokusingaperi pachipfuva chababa vetsitsi dzaMwari wangu wandakakumbira kuti andibatsire.

Pakarepo ndakazviona ndasimudzwa kubva pasi, uye ndikatakurwa kuenda kunzvimbo yakakwirira iyo yaive chikamu chegomo rakanaka rezororo rerunyararo, kusvika pamusoro paro pandakanga ndisati ndakwanisa kusvika kunze kwekuneta kwakawanda nekushanda.

Pakupedzisira ndinosvika ikoko uye ndinotanga kufema uye kupora kubva mukutya kwangu. Mhepo yaivapo yakanga ine utano uye yakachena, chinhu chiri chose ipapo chaizivisa chitubu chisingaperi uye ugaro hwechokwadi hwomufaro. Vagari veiyi nzvimbo yokugara inofadza vakanga vari vashomanene zvikuru muchiverengero, asi vakandifadza zvikurusa nokuchena kwetsika dzavo, kusimba kwokutenda kwavo, kupfava kwohunhu hwavo, tsika dzavo dzakapfava, dzokutendeseka uye dzokurangarira, pakupedzisira kururama kwevavariro dzavo. .uye uchokwadi  hworudo rwavo kuna Mwari nomuvakidzani. Vakabatikana mukurumbidza nekuropafadza munyori wekugara zvakanaka kwavo, vaiita sevasina hanya nemiviri yavo, uye vaifunga nezvenyika kungovenga zvirevo zvayo uye kunzwira tsitsi varanda vayo vasina rombo rakanaka.

Pedyo nawo pakabuda rimwe gomo, rakati rebei zvishoma, uko zuva raibuditsa mwaranzi yaro yakapenya zvikuru; yaitaura zororo nerunyararo kugomo , uye kwaiva kuburikidza neizvi munhu aifanira kupfuura kuti asvike kwariri.

Nguva dzose vakabata maoko, vagari varo, vakasimba, vakasimba uye vasingatyi, vairatidzika nguva dzose muhondo nomukuita; Ndakanzi gomo rokukunda , uye ndakaudzwa kuti zvakanga zvakafanira kugara ndakabatikana imomo mukurwisana nouipi kuti ndivakunde nokuvaparadza, uye pamusoro pezvose zvakanga zviri izvo.

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aifanira kusavimbwa zvakanyanya neakanakisa. Pano, ndaudzwa, mukupedzisa, ndiko kwaunogona kusvika panhongonya yekuzorora nerunyararo .

Pamusoro paizvozvi, Baba vangu, ndakamuka, uye Mwari pakarepo vakaita kuti ndinzwisise kuti kurota uku kwakandirova zvikuru kwakanga kusati kuri kuitika kwetsaona, asi kwechikonzero chine njere, uye kuti kwakanga kuzere noururami, chakavanzika uye zvokwadi. Naizvozvo ndakaona, mutsananguro yandakapiwa naMwari, kuti chikomo chaishanda senhandare yehondo chaimiririra hunhu hwakaora, hunopa dhiabhorosi mukana mukuru, kuti atungamirire vanhu mugomba rakadzika-dzika; zvinoreva kuti zvinoda simba rakawanda, kugadzirisa uye ushingi, uye basa rakawanda kukunda denga. Ndakafunga kuti ndaifanira kuzvishongedza nekusimba uye kusimba kupfuura nakare kose kurwisana nemafungiro angu akaipa, uye ndakanzwa kunyadziswa kwangu kuchiwedzera pamusoro pemazano adhiabhorosi, njodzi nehuwori hwenyika, izvo zvandingango funga nekutyisa. Ndinofunga kuti izvi ndizvo zvaidiwa naMwari.

Sister inodzingirirwa nembavha dzinomiririra zvishuwo nevavengi veruponeso. Mamiriro emufaro emweya wakasimudzwa pamusoro pezvisikwa uye pfungwa.

Pane imwe nguva baba, ndakarota ndichiteverwa nembavha nemakororo, aida zvose zvandisina mhosva uye upenyu hwangu; Ndakabva ndaziva kuti makororo nemakororo ekufungidzira aya akanga ari munhu chaiye wezvishuvo zvakasiyana-siyana, miedzo nezviitiko zvechivi, zvimwe zvacho zvinotandanisa mweya nevavariro dzeutsotsi neumhondi, vamwe vachizvivandira. ugovarova shamhu yokuuraya.

Kuti nditize kudzingirirana nembavha idzi kana makororo aindityisa zvikuru, ndakava nokuti Mwari, uye ndakanzwa ndatakurwazve kugomo rimwe chetero randakataura nezvaro kwamuri muchiroto chapfuura. Ikoko, ndakanzwa vagari vemo vachishevedzera pamwe chete kuti: “Ngatifarei! farai! heri ndiro zuva rakaitwa naJehovha; vavengi vakawanda, zvakawanda

hondo, hapasisina zviedzo, hapasisina njodzi, nguva yemiedzo yapfuura, Mwari oga ndiye mubairo nokusingaperi uye kuguma kwemabasa edu.”

Ndakanzwisisa, netsananguro yaaya mashoko andakaona muchiedza chokutenda, kuti mbavha namakororo kazhinji kazhinji vaimirira vavengi vose voruponeso rwomunhu, uye kuti negomo rokuzorora norugare hazvifaniri kunzwisiswa zvikuru seimwe nyika. yekukwana kuti tisvike parufaro rwekudenga, zvekuti hazvaigonawo kuratidza mufaro pachawo, unova ndiwo magumo echokwadi ekutambudzika kwedu nenzvimbo yekuzorora kwedu kwekusingaperi. Ngatibvumei, zvisinei, kuti chimiro chemweya wakakwana pano pasi apa chine zvakawanda zvekuita nazvo. Ndinoreva kurambwa uku kunofadza kwenyika uye pachako, uko zvese zvinotsakatisa kupa rukudzo kune kunaka kwehumwari.

Muichi chimiro chinofadza chokuparadzwa kwechisiko, mweya unokwira pamusoro pawo umene, nokuti hauchaoni chimwe chinhu kunze kwaMwari, uyo unofanira kuzvibatanidza umene kwaari bedzi. Masimba ese anobva aita seanoumbwa nekubatana kwehumwari uku; izvo zvinomuisa pamusoro pese kurwiswa nadhiabhorosi, nyika nenyama. Zvakadzokera pazasi hazvisi zvake; haatombooni zvinodikanwa zvemuviri, izvo zvaanonetseka zvishoma pamusoro pokugutsa, kunze kwezvinodikanwa zvisingakoshi; zvaizobva zvanzi muviri unoita zvemagetsi chete: unoshanda, unofamba, unonwa, unodya, unorara, nezvimwe. Asi mweya hautombobatanidzi mumhuka idzi uye mabasa emusikirwo chaiwo, unotenderera, sokunge zvakadaro, pamusoro penyama nepfungwa, nyasha zhinji dzakaupa.

Dzimwe hope dzinoratidza kusuwa nekunetsekana kwaSister.

Mwari, Baba vangu, vakamboda, sezvamunoziva, kuti vandiite kuti ndinzwe chimwe chinhu chiri kuuya. Zvinowanzoitika, kunyanya mushure meKudya kwangu, kuti handichave nehanya nemanzwiro kana nhengo dzekunzwa. Ndinonyara kupindura mibvunzo yakapfava; kunowanzova madikanwa kuti Mwari amene anokarakadza kwandiri mhinduro dzandinofanira kuita, kuti zvisaratidzike kuva zvakanyanyisa ipapo. Ini ndinoratidzika seasina njere, kana, kana uchida, ndinotaridzika semunhu, akatarisa zuva, anochengeta kwenguva yakareba kumwe kupenya, kunomutadzisa kutarisa chero chimwe chinhu: mweya wangu uri munyika. uye mumuviri wangu pasina kuvapo, uye kubva mumamiriro ezvinhu aya kuti munhu anotarisa zvose zvinobata pfungwa uye zvisikwa. Tiri pagomo rokuzorora, tinofarikanya rugare muna Mwari, uye zvitsva zvinowanikwa nguva dzose zvinogadzirwa nerubatsiro rwezviedza zvinopa. Zvichave sei kumuona iye pachake, uye asina chifukidzo, uye asina kufukidzwa!

zvichava zvakaita sei kuitora pasina chipingamupinyi uye usingatyi kuti ingamborasika

!... Asi ndinodzokera kwandakanga ndiri; kubva ipapo, Baba vangu,  zvinhu zvizhinji zvandakaita kuti munyore zvakatanga... Ngatitangeizve kuenderera mberi kwezviroto zvangu (1).

(1) Ndizvo zvinoita kuti, nguva dzose yakafanana naiye pachake, Sista inodzoka, pane imwe nguva, kuhurongwa hwemweya hwakafanana nechinhu chake. Mweya wake mukuru unozvisimudza pachese, uye unotitora kuenda nesu kunyange muchipfuva cheUmwari, izvo zvinomufemera nekumuita kuti ataure. Zvimwe zvose zvinoita sezvisina maturo kwaari; anotora mukana wezvose kuti adzokere kune izvozvo; ndiyo nzvimbo yake uye chinangwa chake chete: zvakare, pane ino nguva, anogara akafanana, uye tinogona kutaura kuti tinomuwana akazara kunyangwe muzviroto zvake.

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Dzimwe hope dzinoratidza kusuwa nekunetsekana kwaSister.

Nguva dzakasiyana-siyana ndaizviona ndiri munyika dzisingazivikanwi, dzimwe nguva ndakawira pasi petsime, dzimwe nguva ndakafumurwa pamapuranga akamanikana uye asina simba zvikuru ayo asina kunditsigira pagomba rakadzika-dzika mandakanga ndakagadzirira kuwira, uye nguva dzose ndaifanira kubatsira kubva kumusoro kuenda. buda. Nguva pfupi yadarika ndakarota ndichidzingirirwa nemutyairi ane size nechiso chaityisa, akanditarisa neziso raityisa uye raityisa zvekuti ndakafenda; aona kuti akanga atadza kusvika pandiri, akabva atsamwa akafamba nenyika yose. Ndakaziva muchirairo changu chekupedzisira, kuti kwaive kuziviswa kwekuedza kwadhiabhorosi kwatiri uye nebasa diki ratinofungisisa, uye kuti anoedza uye anoedza kukundikana zvakare. Musarega yambiro iyi, nokuti, ndinopamhidzirazve kwamuri.

Asi, Baba vangu, hechinoi chiratidziro chakakodzera kuva nenzvimbo pakati pezviroto zvangu zvinotyisa.

Zviziviso zvekuguma kwenyika.

Humwe usiku pandakanga ndakarara, ndakafungidzira ndiri mugomo kwandakanga ndichangosvika ndichiri kutiza chikara chiya, ndakatanga kuona denga rakanaka uye

zvakanaka-nyeredzi; asi nokukurumidza pashure pokunge ndaona zviratidzo zvinotyisa kurutivi rwokumavirira, ndakaona nzvimbo huru yakazadzwa namabhokisi, nzvimbo dzinoyera, misoro namapfupa evakafa, zvigadziko zvemwenje, mitongo yamariro; muchidimbu, nzvimbo iyi yese yakaita kunge hombe hombe.

Kudivi rezasi kwakaonekwa Mutumwa Mukuru Mikaeri muchimiro, uye akafukidzwa nenhumbi dzokurwa dzinotyisa; bakatwa raipenya muruoko rwake rworudyi, akabata mune chimwe chikero chihombe chaakarega achidzika pasi, uye ndakanzwisisa kuti zvakanga zviri midziyo uye gadziriro dzokutonga kwokupedzisira dzine nguva yave kusvika... .

Mune kumwe kurota, kwandaifunga kuti ndakanga ndichiri mugomo rimwe chetero, ndakaona muchadenga murarabungu mukuru wakachinjika, wakaita denderedzwa kusvika pandaikwanisa kuona. Zvino zvakaonekwa mudenderedzwa guru tunjiva tuduku nenjiva tuduku twaibhururuka kubva kune rumwe rutivi kuenda kune rumwe rutivi, pasina kumbosiya mutsetse wedenderedzwa waiva nadzo. Pashure paizvozvo ndakaona makunguwo nedzimwe shiri dzichimhanyira pamusoro penjiva duku nenjiva duku, dzichidzingirira nokudziparadzira; vazhinji vakamhanyira pasi, pavakabvamburwa neshiri, asi njiva dzesirivha dzakabva kudenga kuzozvidzivirira. Kurwa kwaiva dzakakasharara pakati pemakungu nenjiva dzine mapapiro esirivheri, dzakaramba dziripo kutozosvikira pakusvika kwaMusande Mikaeri, uyo akatsunga rukundo achifarira njiva nenjiva.'

Jesu Kristu achitambura uye asingazivikanwi.

Pane imwe nguva ndakaona kumavirazuva mufananidzo mukuru wakanga wakadhirowewa chiso chitsvene chaShe wedu; airatidza kuti mupenyu uye akazara neropa mhenyu raiyerera richiyerera kubva mumusoro wake wamwari wakapfekedzwa korona yeminzwa. Maziso ake akatarira kudenga neshungu, ndikaona misodzi ichidonha kubva pavari. Pandakamutarisa netsitsi nounyoro, ndakanzwa inzwi richiti kwandiri: Unoona zuva ranyura.

Zviroto zvine chekuita neChimurenga cheFrance, kusawirirana muChechi nemhedzisiro yayo yakaipa. Raira kutiza schismatics.

Ndinofanirawo, Baba vangu, kusanganisira pakati pezviroto zvangu zvinotyisa idzo dzine chokuita neshanduko inosuwisa yandakatongerwa kuzivisa. Hatigoni, naizvozvo, kuramba nekuwedzera mamwe makuru kune ayo atakambotaura pamusoro pawo panguva apo vakauya zvakanyanya

pamusoro, uye pazvaikosha kuvapinza. Kune avo, isu hatizovayeuki, kana kuti tichazviita zvishoma.

Humwe husiku ndakafunga kuti ndakaona vafundisi vakati wandei vakapfeka nguwo dzavo dzesacerdotal, vaive nemusoro wavo bhishopi mumabasa ehushumiri hwake. Mhepo yavo yakakasharara uye yokuzvikudza, mashoko avo ehasha, zvitarisiko zvavo zvokutyisidzira zvaiita sezvinoda rukudzo nokuremekedzwa kwavose; vakamanikidza vakatendeka kuti vavatevere, kuvateerera nokuvateerera. Mwari anondirayira kuti ndivarwise chiso nechiso; havachisina, akandiudza, havasisina kodzero yekutaura muzita rangu, uye havachakodzeri kuzviisa pasi pevatendi, sezvo vatengesa zvido zveChechi yangu, uye vasina kutendeka kurutendo. Izvo zvinopesana nekuda kwangu, uye mukutsamwa kwangu, kuti vachiri kushandisa mabasa avasingachakodzeri kuita; muri kure nokundivenga, munondikudza nokusavateerera; chimwe chinhu chavanoda kukukumbira, usavateerera, zviparadzanise nacho, izvo zvandakaita sezvakaita vamwe vazhinji. Hope dzinotevera dzinototyisa.

Makore angangoita makumi matatu kana makumi mana apfuura France yakamiririrwa kwandiri serenje rakakura, nzvimbo inotyisa iri yoga; ruwa rumwe norumwe rwakanga rwakaita soruzhowa rwaipambwa navanopfuura napo uye vakaparadza zvose zvavaiwana. Nenguva isipi, mukutsamwiswa kwevakatendeka vechokwadi, vafundisi vedu nevamiriri vavo, vaparidzi vedu nevatungamiriri vedu, mamishinari edu akanyangarika, uye vashumiri vatsva vataisaziva vakatora nzvimbo yavo, uye

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dzinoti dzinoshandisa mabasa mamwe chete uye dzine kodzero dzakafanana. Nenzira isingarangariri pakanga pane chinjo huru kwazvo mukuita nokufunga kwavagari vemo biyangu, zvokuti ndaisagona kuziva nyika yangu ndimene. Nekudaro, shanduko iyi yaive kure nekuve yakazara, ndakaona kuti kusiyana kwemaonero kwakaumba mapato maviri ipapo, izvo zvakakonzera matambudziko nenyonganiso dzinotyisa kumativi ese. Asi hechino chinhu chakanyanya kundityisa, uye chakandityisa muchiratidzo ichi chousiku. Ndakaona muzasi megwenga iri rinotyisa mapoka akasiyana-siyana emakwai akasanganiswa nembudzi nembudzi, tsoko, nemamwe marudzi akati wandei emhuka dzinotyisa.

izvo ndakanga ndisingatombozivi; vafudzi vaiatungamirira vakanga vakawanda zvikuru kwazvo zvikara zvinotyisa kure; madhimoni, ndinofunga, haana zvimwe zvimiro. Ndakaonawo vanhu vazhinji vachitiza pamberi pavo, vakavanda nokutya nokuchimbidzika, kuti varege kurangana namapoka avo avakanga vachitya kunyange nokuzviona. Ndichitya, ndakabvunza kuti vafundisi vavo vakanga varipi, vatungamiriri vechokwadi veava marudzi anodzungaira; Ndakaudzwa kuti: Vakamanikidzwa kutiza, vari muutapwa.

Rangarirai zvino, Baba vangu, zviratidzo zvisina kutaurwa, zvandakakuudzai nazvo, kuti Mwari akandiita kufanoona kazhinji, uye sokunge ndichabata nemunwe kutambudzwa uko nhasi kwakanyanyisa, kunyange zvazvo munhu akazviona panguva iyoyo sechimerical,  uye zviziviso zvandakaita nezvavo semaoresa chaiwo, manyepo chaiwo  ekufungidzira.

Rangarirai, ndinoti, zviitiko zvakasiyana-siyana zvinotyisa; somuenzaniso, munda wemizambiringa wakapambwa namakororo, miti miviri yakaisvonaka yakarohwa nomuti wakaerekana wasimuka pakati pemiviri yacho; dhiragoni yandakaona ichizvibvisa kubva mugore rine dutu kuti iparadze avo vese vaive mumba yakanakisa, uye iwe uchave nezvose izvo, pachinhu chimwe chete, zvakanyanya kunetsa pfungwa dzangu uye zvakavhundutsa fungidziro yangu. Zvakanaka kukuudzawo kuti muzviroto izvi zvakasiyana-siyana, zvine chokuita nokumukira kwedu, ndakazviwana dzimwe nguva ndatakurwa neshingairo yechiKaturike, uye dzimwe nguva ndichitya kupesana nedzidziso dzakatsauka, dzandakafanoona uye dzandichiri kuona; namata kudenga kuti tiburuke nekutya!

Asi mushure mekunge ndataura nezvezviroto zveshura, zvinoratidzika kunge zvakafanira kufumura zvino izvo zvandinoti zvinofadza, nenyasha uye zvinonyaradza, nokuti ndakava nazvo zvemarudzi ose. Izvi, zvirinani, zvichave zvakakodzerwa nekufara uye kunyaradza muverengi, kana, zvisinei, paine anomboda kuzvibatikana nezviroto zvangu. Zvichava zvemangwana, fadzai Mwari.

Zviroto zvenyasha.

Tsanangudzo yezviroto zveSista, uye nemhedzisiro yadzo, yaasingatendi kuti inogona kutsanangurwa sezvazviri.

Mufaro wehana yakanaka, nzira yokutsveneswa nayo, mufaro wokuva waMwari zvizere uye wokuva naye kupfurikidza norudo nechishuvo, uchimirira.

kuwana zvechokwadi kukunda kweChechi inoera, mbiri yevasande, munhu anoyemurika waJ.-C. Baba, ndezvipi zvanga zviri zvinhu zvakajairika pane zvandinodaidza zviroto zvangu zvenyasha kana zvinofadza, uye kunyangwe mizhinji yezviratidzo zvangu. uye zviratidzo. Sekutya kwechivi, gehena uye kutonga kwaMwari, matambudziko nekutambudzwa kweKereke kwagara kuchindikonzeresa zvakasiyana uye kuenderana nemafungiro ekutyisa ayo anotakura zvinhu zvinotyisa. Kufananidzwa uku pakati pepfungwa dzehusiku, kana munhu achigona kutaura, uye neayo ezuva rakavatangira, zvinoita kwandiri zvakapfava uye zvechisikigo. Uye zvakadaro hazviiti kwete kudzivirira kutaura kuti avo vaiti vanongoda izvi zvechisikigo zvepfungwa dzangu kana fungidziro yangu, kutsanangura zvese, ndinoreva kutsanangura zvese zvakazarurwa zvangu nezviroto zvangu, mukuona kwangu, vangave mukukanganisa kwakakomba kwaizovakonzera. kuvhiringa mhedzisiro nechikonzero. Mwari, pasina mubvunzo, anogona kushandisa zvimiro izvi izvo iye amene akabereka; asi ndakagara ndichinzwa, ndakasvinura pamwe nokurara, kuti zvimiro izvi zvaisagona kubva kwandiri, kana kuunza zvoga chero ipi zvayo yemigumisiro yazvinondikonzera. Naizvozvo ndichida kutsanangura kurota kwangu sezvakazarurwa zvangu, neshoko rimwe chete, zvose zvandakaona muna Mwari nechimiro changu chenyama, kana nekutyiswa kwefungwa dzangu kana nemuviri wangu; zvingaita sokunge takatanga kutsanangura kurongeka kunoshamisa kwenyika nokufamba kwechisiko, kutsanangura kunyura nokuyerera kwegungwa nokubvongodzwa kwemafungu, kana kuti fivha nemafaro airi kusangana nawo. Mune izvi zvose, kuratidza mhedzisiro kwaisambove kutsanangura chikonzero, uye zvikonzero zvechipiri hazvizombonzwisiswi kunze kwekunge isu tichidzokera kune chikonzero chekutanga, pasina izvo zvimwe zvingadai zvisipo. Pasina izvozvo hapana chatakataura, kunyangwe takataura zvakanyanya, kana, kana uchida, takataura nezvehuzivi. uye zvikonzero zvechipiri hazvimbofa zvakanzwisiswa kunze kwekudzokera kune chikonzero chekutanga, pasina izvo zvimwe zvingadai zvisipo. Pasina izvozvo hapana chatakataura, kunyangwe takataura zvakanyanya, kana, kana uchida, takataura nezvehuzivi. uye zvikonzero zvechipiri hazvimbofa zvakanzwisiswa kunze kwekudzokera kune chikonzero chekutanga, pasina izvo zvimwe zvingadai zvisipo. Pasina izvozvo hapana chatakataura, kunyangwe takataura zvakanyanya, kana, kana uchida, takataura nezvehuzivi.

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chero bedzi iwe uchida; asi hapana chikonzero chakataurwa. Naizvozvo ngatisiye vazivi vachikakavadzana, tiuye kuhope dzangu dzenyasha.

Kubwinya kwaMusande Francis. Urombo uye kuzvininipisa, nheyo dzehurongwa hwake.

Ndichiri pagomo iri refu apo ndakakuudzai kuti ndakanga ndaona gadziriro yegadziriro yokutonga kwokupedzisira, ndakatarira pakati pechamhembe nokumabvazuva, uye ndakaona boka guru remamongi enhevedzano yedu aifamba achibwinya uye achikunda; pamisoro yavo paionekwa munhu airemekedzwa uye anoremekedzwa, akapfeka nguo yaipenya uye akazara nematombo anokosha nepfuma huru. Akanga akapfeka korona inobwinya mumusoro make  , tsoka dzake namaoko zvakanga zvakabayiwa; pakupedzisira, ndakamutora iye J.-C. pachake, uye ndakanga ndichazvikotamira pamberi pake kuti ndimunamate. Chenjera, akadaro nenzwi guru kwandiri, uyu murume chete, uye ndibaba vako  Saint-François....

Chii! Ndakapindura, baba vedu Musande Francis! hey! angagopenya sei kudenga, iye aigara akazvininipisa kudaro panyika, uyo aikoshesa kudzvinyirirwa nourombo  zvikuru  ? Ndizvozvo chaizvo, ndakaudzwa  ,

chii chakaita kuti ave nembiri, uye chii chinofanirawo rimwe zuva kuita mbiri yevana vake, kana vakatendeka kufamba mumakwara ake, nokuti urombo nekuzvininipisa ndicho chisungo chaakavapa chega; uye mweya wehurongwa hwake unoumbwa pamusoro pezvose mukuita kweunhu huviri uhwu, hunova hwaro uye hwaro hwechivako chake. Naizvozvo zvinodikanwa kudzidzidzira kuti ugokodzera kubatanidzwa navo. Hope idzi Baba vangu dzakandipa nyaradzo nemufaro.

Hanzvadzi iyi inozviona yava kurota iri muimba duku muNazareta  . Tsanangudzo inobaya mwoyo yaanoita. Chidzidzo chaanowana  .

Ndichiri muduku zvikuru, ndakafunga kuti, ndichidzungaira ndiri ndoga mumaruwa asina vanhu uye ari oga, ndakapinda sokunge kuti netsaona kadanda kaduku kaiva nemamiriro ezvinhu ane rugare airatidzika kwandiri kuva akanaka zvikuru kufungisisa. Ikoko ndiko kure kure nenyonganyonga yatinofara, kana kune mufaro pasi pano, sezvo tichizvifadza isu timene naMwari wedu, kune uyo mufungo wakanaka watinoramba tichiyeukwa nokuona kunofadza kwazvo kwezvinhu zvose zvakatipoteredza. Rakanga riri zuva rakanaka remuchirimo, mhepo yakanga yakachena uye yakadzikama, runyararo rwekuva wega kwainakidza uku kwakavhiringwa chete nekurira kweshiri dzakamhara pamiti yakasvibirira iyo yakafukidza kugara murunyararo uku. Zvakanaka sei zvinhu zvose mumasikirwo, ndakati kwandiri! ko kugarwa kwevakakomborerwa kuchava kwakadii, kana kugara kwehutapwa kwedu kuchiyevedza! zvichave sei kunyika yedu! Uye kana Mwari vakanaka, vane rusununguko uye vakanaka kwazvo kune vatadzi vaanongofanira kurangwa pano pazasi, chii chaachaita kushamwari dzake, paanenge achida kuvapa mubairo muna Mwari uye nekuwanda kwerupo rwake, hukuru hwake uye rudo rwake  ?

Naizvozvo ndakafunga mumoyo mangu; uye ndichiri kufunga kudaro, ndakatevera pakati pemiti yakanaka kanzira kadiki kumagumo kwandakaona imba yabviswa, kana kuti yakavakirwa yega pazasi pehuni, senge diki diki kana tumba, yandaifarira zvakanyanya. mhepo yaro uye mamiriro ayo anofadza, uye kunyanya nekunyarara kukuru kwaitonga ipapo, nokuti hapana akanzwa ruzha ipapo, kunze kweiyo iyo mushandi aimboita paaishanda ....

Ndinopinda mumba umu kuti ndizive kwandaive; Ndakaona pachipinda murume mukuru akanaka uye anoremekedzwa, aishanda pakukwenenzvera nokuveza zvidimbu nemapuranga ematanda nokungwarira zvikuru uye  nehanya  Kune  mumwe wacho.

pedyo nefurati racho, ndakaona mumwe munhu wechiduku airatidzika kwandiri kuva mudzimai wake, uye kutapira nokuzvininipisa kwakaenzana norunako rwake; Padivi pake pakaonekwa murume wechidiki wemakore gumi kana gumi nemaviri ekuberekwa zvakanyanya, asi aine chiso chakapfava, chakanaka uye chinofadza, zvekuti zvaive zvakakwana kumuona kwechinguvana kuti ave murudo naye.

Zvakare, Baba vangu, chero kufarira kwandakaita mudhara akanaka, uye kunyanya kumukadzi wake wechidiki uyo akandifadza zvisingaite, ndakanzwa mumoyo mangu chimwe chinhu chakatonyanya kufadza kumurume wechidiki; maziso angu aingokwanisa kumusiya kwenguva pfupi uye munguva dzekuvhiringidzwa  ....

Vatatu vakazvibatika murunyararo rwune runyararo rwusina kuvhiringwa nekundigamuchira kwavo kwechokwadi. Ndakacherechedza mubasa ravo netsika dzavo dzisina kusimba, kana shungu, kana kufunganya, kana chero rudzi rwekunyara kana kumanikidzika; zvese zvakazivisa kugutsikana, rugare uye mufaro wemweya unonakidzwa uye unonetseka pamusoro pechinhu. Dzimwe nguva ndakanga ndisingazivi chandinofanira kuyemura zvikuru, zvingava kutarisira nengwariro yavabereki, kana kuti kuteerera kwomwanakomana uyo akaita zvose zvaaigona kuti apindure kwairi nengwariro dzake, achiedza kuvafadza, uye masevhisi andaiitira. akadzokera kwavari vari vaviri. Kwaiva kudanana, kunzwirana tsitsi, asi kuremekedzana kwaiita sekwairatidza kuva kunofadza uye kwepachokwadi. Ndingadai ndakapedza mazuva angu ndichivaona; asi pakupedzisira zvakafanira kugumisa chishamiso ichi chinoyemurika: naizvozvo ndakasiya mhuri iyi inofadza; Ndakasiya imba yaifadza iyi, kunyange zvazvo nokuzengurira, uye sezvandaibuda ndakaramba ndakatarira jaya rangu, richienda neni.

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Ndakanga ndine chishuvo chakanyatsoumbwa chokuvaona zvakare nokukurumidza sezvandaigona, mufaro mukuru wakava neiyi bvunzurudzo yokutanga yandakapiwa.

Mudzimai anofara! mai vakafara kani, mudiki uya, ndakataura ndega  ndichicheuka! Ko murume mukuru anoremekedzwa here  uyu

puny house! Mukadzi wake muduku munhu akanaka uye mutsvene! Asi, kupfuura zvose, mwana anodiwa, iri jaya rakanaka rinoratidzika kuva ravo, uye rinoratidzira zvakanaka kwazvo kuti mwanakomana wavo kupfurikidza netsika dzake kwavari! Kuzvininipisa kwakadini, kupfava kwakadini muzvipfeko zvavo! kuzvidzora kwakadini mukudya kwavo! kurongeka kwakadini, rucheno rwakadini, rugare rwakadini, chinzwano chakadini muimba ino yokugara! Chinhu chiri chose chiripo chinofema ruremekedzo uye munhuwi wezvose zvakanaka! Tinofanira kunge takamirira kwenguva yakareba kudaro kuti tisangane nemhuri iyi ine ushamwari! Ah! kana mufaro usipo, hapana panyika, kana panyika yose...

Ndichifamba ndega ndichitaura nezvendangariro yaifadza iyi, ndakaona murume akanaka aiita seaigara panzvimbo iyi; Ndakamuvhunza kuti kaimba kadiki aka kandainge ndapinda kaive chii. Unofanira kuzviziva, akapindura, pamwe chete naavo vanogara ikoko; unobuda muchikoro chehuchenjeri nehunhu. Icho chikoro cheNazareta, ndiyo imba iyo Shoko rakava Munyama rakapedza makore makumi matatu mubasa, kuteerera uye kuzviisa pasi. Ndihwo, iye akawedzera, uhwu upenyu hwakavanzika, hwokuzvininipisa uye hunonetesa hwaMwari wenyu, hwaanoda kuti muzvipe mumene somuenzaniso, kana muchida kumufadza uye kushandira kubudirira kwokukwana kwenyu. Nokudaro munofanira kuzvivanza mumene kubva kunyika, kuti murarame bedzi muna Mwari uye muna Mwari kupfurikidza naJ.-C.; vs' ndicho chakazopedzisira chakuratidza kunyarara uku kwawakaona mavari. Kana munhu ari nguva dzose, sezvaari, mukuona nekufungisisa kwaMwari wazvino, munhu anofanira kuwedzera kunze nengwariro kuzvinhu zvokunze nekurukurirano nechisikwa here? Hatizviwani mavari manyuko omufaro wakakwana zvikurusa here? Ramba uchifungisisa, uye edza kutevedzera zvawaona.

Hanzvadzi yakafuma pahope dzake, murombo pakupepuka kwake; chimiro chekusakosha kwezvinhu zvevanhu.

Humwe usiku ndakazvifungidzira ndichitaura nomumwe mutengesi akanga achindiratidza zvinhu zvake nokusakendenga kwakandibata; chainyanya kufarirwa uye kugutsikana nezvake ndechekuti akandipa zvese zvaiita sekuti zvinondifadza; Zvakandikwanira kuti ndimuratidze chido changu, naizvozvo akandikumbirisa zvikuru kuti ndimugamuchirewo chimedu chenhumbi  .

zvakanga zvandifadza. Ndakashamiswa uye ndafadzwa nokutendeseka kwakadaro, ndakashaya kuti ndotaura sei kuonga kwangu kwaari. Iye akadaro kwandiri, iwe wakaita savanhu vanonamatira zvinhu zvenhema zvenyika, iwe wakatodzana; ziva ipapo kuti panguva ino wakarara, uye kuti munguva pfupi iwe uchava, kufanana navo, dupe yekunyengera kwako. Zvino rombo rakanaka, rumutsiriro rwuchakutorera zvose zvaunazvo, kuti urege kuzosara uine chimwe chinhu; uye kumuka uku kuchakurasisa iwe mufananidzo werufu rweavo vakanga vaisa chivimbo chavo muzvinhu zvepanyika nomuzvinhu zvenhema zviri pasi apa.

Pamashoko aya ndinopepuka, ndichimuka ndinoona ichinyangarika ichinyangarika seutsi rombo renhema rakanga randivaraidza kwekanguva. Ndakabva ndanyatsofungisisa nezvekushayikwa nekusakosha kwezvinhu zvemunhu. Ndakafunga kufara, ndikati nechemumoyo ndasarirwa neiko manje? Ngaarumbidzwe Mwari wangu, iye anovimba nemi moga. haatsauswi patariro yake; anokuwana parufu mushure mekunge akutsvaka muupenyu; unogara naye kana zvimwe zvose zvaenda; uye imi munoramba muchimumirira, haiwa Mwari wangu, kuti muite kuti afare nokusingaperi asingatyi kuti acharasikirwa nemi!

Jesu Kristu anooneka akaremerwa nepfuma huru, iyo isina anoda kugamuchira.

Ndakambofunga kuti ndakaona, apo ndakarara, J.-C. akabata mumaoko ake maviri pfuma huru; akanditarisa neshungu, ndakamubvunza chikonzero. Mwanasikana wangu, akadaro achigomera, ndinouya nemaoko azere nezvipo, ndine upfumi hwakawanda hwandinoshuvira zvisikwa zvangu, ndauya kuzopfumisa nekuzvigovera, uye handiwani anokumbira. kana anozvida, kana anozviti akakodzera kuzvigamuchira. Saka handizivi kuti zvipo zvangu ndezvaani, zvisinei nekuzvida kwatinoita. Mutongi wemarwadzo ayo kusava nehanya kune mhosva kunondikonzera!

Mucheche Jesu ari mumaoko aMaria, nemuchinjikwa mudiki.

Ndakafunga kuti ndaona zvakare, mune imwewo mamiriro, Mhandara Yakaropafadzwa yakabata pamabvi Mwana Jesu, uyo aiita seainakidzwa nekachinjiko kakareba, kaakanga akabata mumaoko. Pakuona uku ndakagwadama patsoka dzaamai vangu vakanaka, ndikavakumbira kuti vandisiye zvishoma

nguva yekubata mwanakomana wake wamwari. Ndinoida, akapindura. Ndakatambanudza maoko angu kuti ndimugamuchire; asi panzvimbo yemwana akangondipa muchinjikwa wake wandaisada; izvo zvaakadzokorora panguva dzakasiyana; zvino ini ndichizvigunun'una kuti anyengedza tariro yangu, Mwanangu, akandipindura zvakasimba, kana uchida Mwana, unofanira kutanga wagamuchira.

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muchinjikwa waanokupa kubudikidza nemaoko angu, haungatori mumwe usina mumwe. Panguva ino Baba vedu S. François vanopfuura vachitevera mureza paive nemuchinjikwa mukuru. Apa, yakandidaro Mhandara Yakaropafadzwa, ichindiratidza, heino mudungwe waunofanira kutevera usingambousiye... Pane izvi, ndakapepuka  .

Jesu Kristu anokoka Hanzvadzi kuti vamutevere kuKarivhari, uye anomuita chipo cheMuchinjikwa wake.

Mazuva mashoma pamberi petsaona yandakataura nezvayo kwamuri, uye iyo inofanira kuva nemigumisiro kusvikira pakufa kwangu, ndakarota kuti ndakanga ndiripo pamudungwe wakanga uchiitwa nokuda kwekuregererwa kweJubheri guru. Patakanga tichifamba munzira yakatwasuka uye yakasununguka zvikuru, ndakakanda maziso angu panzira nhete uye yakaoma kwazvo yakanga iri kurudyi rwedu, ndakaona J.-C. weCalvari. Nditeverei, akadanidzira mudungwe, tevera tsoka dzangu, iyi ndiyo chiteshi chezviregerero zvikuru, mose huyai mundibatsire kutakura muchinjikwa wandinotakurira vose  .

Ndakaona kuti hapana aida kusiya nzira iri nyore kuti ndimutevere munzira ine mhatsa yaaifamba nayo ndakabva ndamhanya ndichimutevera. Akanyunyuta kwandiri nezvekusava nehanya uye hutsinye hwevarume kwaari, uye akataura kwandiri nezvemarwadzo ekuda kwake nenzira inobaya mwoyo.

Mune mamwe mamiriro ezvinhu enguva imwe cheteyo, ndakanzwa kunyunyuta kwake, uye ndakanga ndichiri kumuona ndiri muhope, akaremerwa uye sokunge aremerwa nomuchinjikwa wake.

: kwanga kuri munharaunda yedu. Akadaidza masister ese kuti vamutevere, ndakamhanyirako akandiramba. Haasi iwe, akadaro kwandiri, enda unoudza Sisi vako

kuva; nekuti iwe, gara muchitokisi chako. Kusuruvara kwakadini! Ndinoteerera ndichichema; asi pashure penguva yakati akapinda muchitokisi changu noMukuru: Tarira, mwanasikana wangu, akati kwandiri, Usazvidya mwoyo, uyu ndiwo mugove wako nomugove wako. Vamwe vakanditiza, ndinokusiira muchinjikwa wangu, usambousiya. Yakanga yakashongedzwa nezvisaririra zvakasiyana-siyana zvevasande, uye zvikurukuru zvevakafira kutenda. Ndinogwadama nechiso changu pasi ndichiigamuchira, uye  J.-C.  anonyangarika  Kashoma

Chiroto ichi chichangopera, Madame l'Abbess vakarwara nechirwere chakavaendesa kuguva, uye ndakaita tsaona iyo inofanirawo kundisvitsa ikoko ndokundiperekedza ikoko. Mwari ngavaropafadzwe pane zvese.

Hanzvadzi inotorwa pasi pegwenga, uye inogamuchira bhuku duku rekufungisisa.

Ndinorangarira kuti humwe usiku ndakafunga kuti ndiri kufamba nengirozi yangu yakanaka, muchimiro chejaya rakanga rakanaka, sezvinooneka seuya aityaira Tobie. Akandiudza kuti aizonditungamirira kwaida Mwari; munzira, aingotaura neni chete nezvenzira dzokuva akakwana uye dzokuita kuda kwaMwari muzvinhu zvose. Pataifamba takawana maoratories kana tudzimba tudiki twandaida kuenda kunonamata nevamwe: Pfuurai izvozvo, akati kwandiri, makwai akarasika, mhandara mapenzi.” Saka akanditungamirira kunzvimbo dzakadzika dzegwenga. Zviri pano, akati kwandiri  panguva iyoyo.

kuti Mwari anokudana, uye kuti unofanira kuvaka musha wako; ipapo akandipa bhuku duku ndokunyangarika. Ndinovhura bhuku iri nechido, nokuti raifanira kuva kufungisisa kwangu kwenguva dzose; asi ndakashamiswa zvikuru, pakupenengura mariri, kuona nokurava papeji rimwe nerimwe bedzi aya mazwi maviri: Mwari oga.

Mwoyo wemweya wakatendeka, nzvimbo tsvene yakavanzika apo Mukwanyina waMwari anozvivharira.

Pashure pokunge ndayemura kwenguva refu maruva maduku machena emubindu romurume noomudzimai wandakataura nezvawo kune imwe nzvimbo, ndakaona mune chimwe chiroto chechi ine nzvimbo tsvene yakakiiwa pamwe chete nemikova. Mhandara ine mwero uye inozvininipisa zvikuru yakaonekwa pasi pemufananidzo womunani; akapinda muchechi, akavhara mukati; akapinda munzvimbo tsvene, yaakapfigawo shure kwake. Panguva imwe cheteyo, J.-C. akazviratidza kwaari muchimiro chomunhu, akamupa makiyi,  akati kwaari: Ishe wangu nomurume wangu, ndinokupai mukova womwoyo wangu nokuna vose  .

simba rangu uye nokusingaperi. J.-C. akagamuchira chipo chake norudo nokugutsikana, achivimbisa kuva mugove wake nokusingagumi.

Ndichibva muchechi iyi, ndakaona pamusoro muchinjikwa wakasimudzwa nezviridzwa zvose zveshungu dzeMuponesi; maiva munharaunda yemapoka echechi yemasoja akanga akadungamidzana, asi pasina kana kufamba, ndichiri nhanho mbiri ndakaona varindi vakapoteredzwa nguva dzose, ndichitya kuti muvengi aizosvika kumurindi. Heino chirevo chisinganzwisisike  chechiratidzo cheusiku ichi:

Mwoyo wemweya wakatendeka inzvimbo tsvene umo mukwanyina woumwari anoda kuzvivhara naye kuti azviite tenzi wemasimba ake ose, ayo anomuronzesa kuchengetwa kwawo: 1° uyu mweya wakabatanidzwa kuna J.-C. kutanga anoparadza zvishuvo zvake zvose netsika yezviitwa zvekupfidza nekuzvidemba; 2 ° inofanira kunge yakavhara, nekuramba ichicherechedza pachayo, magonhi ose uye nzira dzaigona kupa kupinda kune muvengi; 3 ° nepo mukati nekunze pfungwa dzakanyarara, kusvinura, semurindi anoshanda uye asinganeti, anofanirwa kugara achifamba kuti aone manomano uye kudzivirira kurwiswa kwemuvengi, nekufa uye kutambudzika kunomiririrwa nemuchinjikwa uye zviridzwa zvechido,

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mukutaura nekufa kwemudhara wandakanzi ndiurayiwe naMwari rimwe zuva vachindiudza kuti mbudzi yaAzazeri yaifanira kudzingirirwa kure kana ndaida kumufadza mune ramangwana.

Kuonekwa kwemhandara yechidiki inoshoropodza Sisi nekuda kwekushaya hanya uye kusazviremekedza.

Hechino chimwezve, Baba vangu, chakaitika kwandiri nguva pfupi yadarika, uye chakandirovesa nehana sechine upenyu sezvazvaiva zvakanaka. Ndakaratidzira kuti muchitokisi changu ndaida kuzvishandisa ndimene kuna Mwari, uye ndaisagona kubudirira imomo, sezvandaida; Ndakashaya kuti dambudziko iri raibvepi. Ndichiri kuzviita

kuedza kusina maturo, ndinoona kupinda nokuuya kwandiri musikana muduku ane makore gumi namashanu kana gumi namasere pakunyanya; Ndakafunga kuti ndamuziva kuti ndainge ndatomuona mune imwewo nyaya yaizotora nguva yakareba kuti itaure. Mhandara iyi yechidiki, nekuti yaive nehunhu hwese, mukuona kwangu yaive munhu akanaka kwazvo waaikwanisa kuona; kufamba kwakanaka uye kunoyevedza kusina rudo, zvimiro zvinoyevedza, mhepo yekupfava uye kutendeseka kunopa kusava nemhosva, chiso chinonyemwerera uye chine mwero, maziso aipenya nemoto wakanakisa; Pakupedzisira, chii chimwe chandingakuudza? Handizivi kuti chii chaifadza zvekuti kumuona kudanana naye. Uyezve, Baba, ndinoreurura kwamuri kuti handina kukwanisa kuzvidzivisa, uye kuti ndakamuda pakutanga....

Anouya kwandiri, ondibata ruoko rwangu, uye akanditarisa nemweya wetsitsi uye kufarira kunonzwika kupfuura zvingataurwa, ndiri kuuya, shamwari yangu yakanaka, anoti kwandiri, kushora, uyezve zano kubva kuna J. .- C.; nokuti ndiye anondituma kwamuri. Unofara sei, shamwari yangu yakanaka, ndakapindura kudaro, kuziva J.-C. uye kuva wake! Ah! ndinogamuchirwa, sezvo mauya kuzondiona nokuda kwake; Ini, musakahadzika nazvo, ndichakuteererai nemoyo wangu wese.

Zvino hechinoi chaanokushoora, iye akandipindura, achiti: Iwe haumudi zvakakwana, unogoverana moyo wako, uye unotomunyengera nenzira dzakawanda.

zvinhu, iwe kazhinji unozviratidzira pachenyu mukutorerwa nyasha dzake nenyasha dzake, unombokanganwa kuti une chikwereti chakadii kwaari. Chaanokumbira kwamuri kubudikidza nomuromo wangu ndechokuwedzera shungu dzenyu, kuti mudzidze kumufadza pazvinhu zvose, kwete kubva pamberi pake tsvene, kuti muve naye.

nguva dzose mundangariro nomumwoyo, kuita bedzi nokurangarira kwake, kungoraramira iye bedzi; nokuti, shamwari yangu yakanaka, akupa zvinhu zvose, anoda kuva nezvose. Ane godo kuti atore mwoyo wako wose usina kupesana; ndotenda hangu mudikani moyo wakaita sewako haunyanyire tenzi saiye.

Kunyengetedza kwakayerera kubva mumuromo make, mashoko ake akange andibaya moyo zvekuti ndakambofunga kureurura mhosva yangu chete; uye chakanakira kuona ndechekuti handina kunzwa kurwadziwa nekutsiura kwaaindiita; asi ndakawana mufaro mukuru mavari kupfuura kurumbidza kunobata kumeso. Ndaida kupedza hupenyu hwangu ndichivateerera, nekuti aiziva kundikurudzira nerudo rwaaindiratidza. Ah! J.-C. anotangazve zvinyoronyoro sei! Zvakanaka, ndakati kwaari, ndichichema, zvese zvaunondiudza ndizvozvo, ichokwadi pachacho, ndinozviziva. Ndigamuchirei ipapo kuti ndive akatendeka zvikuru mune ramangwana, uye kushandisa nyevero yenyu yorudo, uye ndichashanda pairi nesimba rangu rose nokuda kworudo rwaJ.-C.

Nemashoko aya, mhandara yakanaka inozvikanda mumaoko angu, tinombundirana zvakasimba; hezvo, akadaro kwandiri, achinditsvoda, kuti ndinoda kukubatanidza sei kuna J.-C., nokuti ndiri rudo rwake nokuda kwavarume; Ndinotora nzira dzose  kuti ndikuisei  kwaari  Baba vangu,  ndakafara sei!

Sezvo ndakanga ndamubvunza kuti ndingaite sei kuti ndiwedzere kutendeka kuna J-C, ndaimutsvaga kuti andijekesere zvakanyanya pachinhu ichi, pandakamuona akatsikitsira nhanho shoma kubva, maoko ake akabatana, mukunamatwa kwakadzama uye. munyengetero wakasimba zvikuru; zvandakatora nenzira yaakandiratidza....

Ndakabva ndamuka, ndakaongorora mamiriro echiroto  chinokatyamadza ichi, uye ndakaona ese achienderana nezvandinoda uye nemamiriro angu. Pakanga patove nemazuva mashoma ndisati ndambopindwa nekamwe kakusiyana izvo zvanga zvaita kuti nditaure mashoko aishaya basa, tumakuhwa twudiki, kakusekesa nezvimwe zvinhu zverudzi urwu, zvakange zvandikweva zvishoma. yepakati pangu, ndinoreva, yekuvapo kwaMwari. Ndakanga ndave mbwende mukudzinga zvinotsausa zvakanga zvamuka muminamato yangu: Chirairo changu chokupedzisira chakanga chave chisinganyanyi kushingairira, uyewo Mwari vakanga vasina chavakataura kumwoyo wangu  pamusoro  pazvo. Ndakangoti  ndizvo

chinhu cheembassy chandakagamuchira ndiri kuhope, uye ndinokumbira Baba vangu kuti mundiudze zvamunofunga nezvazvo.

Ndakuonesa mwanangu, ndakapindura sisi kuti Mwari vanogona kushandisa nzira yezviroto kupa yambiro huru kuvarume. Ndinoona humbowo hwayo muMagwaro Matsvene, iyo isingatibvumiri kukahadzika; Ini ndinoona, uyezve, mune zvako zviitiko, magungano, mikana yakasimba kudaro,

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izvo zvinoita sezvisingabviri kwandiri kuti ndirambe... Asi, Hanzvadzi yangu, wakandipa kunzwisisa, kana ndikarangarira zvakanaka, kuti yanga isiri nguva yokutanga yawava nenguva yokuona munhu anogamuchirika wawakawana naye. ndangotaura zvakanaka. Ndiudze zvino, ndapota,  mune mamwe mamiriro api awakambosangana naye?  nokuti

waita kuti ndide kuziva kuti ndimuzive zviri nani pachangu, uye ndinofunga kuti pangava nezvakawanda zvandichawana nokuda kwangu, uye zvichida vamwe vachiri.

Kuda kunzwa nezvazvo Baba chiratidzo chekuti munozviziva, vakapindura sisi; asi kwadoka nhasi, uye musangano wanga wakareba, nekuti ndangotaura nezvezviroto. Ndikapinda mune yamunondibvunza, yaitora kana kota

kweawa imwezve, uye ndinotya kuti muchakanganiswa; saka Baba vangu mukaona zvakanaka toperera pano nyaya yehope dzangu. Kwete, Hanzvadzi, ndinoda imwe yacho zvakare manheru ano; kana ikatora chikamu chechina cheawa, zvakanaka, ichava kota yeawa yakareba, ndinogona kukupa hafu yeawa yakanaka; saka, kana usinganetseke pakutaura, ini handizonetseke kunzwa; asi kana mukasandigutsa manheru ano, zvichava zvamangwana, sarudzai, nokuti handikuregi musina chinhu chandinokumbira kwamuri. zvakakwana kuti zvinokusungirira. Naizvozvo ndichaenderera  mberi kwenguva yakati rebei, uye muchashandisa nyaya dzangu dzose sezvamunoda mumabhuku enyu  .

Jesu Kristu anomusuma kunyika  .

Panenge panguva yamakapinda mumba medu kuti mutitungamirire, J.-C. akazviratidza kwandiri muchiroto, ndokuti kwandiri: Nditevere, ndichakudzidzisa kuti nyika chii. ndiri; uye isu tose tiri vaviri tichifamba nekukurumidza kunoshamisa, takapfuura nyika huru; nokukurumidza tinosvika kunyika dziri kure zvikuru. Chakanga chiri nyore zvikuru ndechokuti  takaona chinhu chiri chose tisingaonekwi nomunhu upi noupi: kwose kwose J.-C. . Munoona, akadaro kwandiri, kuti panhanho imwe neimwe tinowana vanhu vane churu chezviitiko zvenguva; asi varipi vanokasira kuita basa reruponeso rwavo  ?...

Heino muchato, pane zvakanaka kana musika, mberi pazviri chiitiko chinosekesa kana chinosuwisa... Wedzera kwazviri zvimwe zvidiki zvishoma zvechimiro chimwe chete; izvi ndizvo zvinoumba denderedzwa rehupenyu hwevanhu. Mabhizinesi anodhura, mapurojekiti ehupfumi, makabhineti matsotsi anotora vanhu kumatare uye makuru enyika; kurwiswa nedziviriro, kukomba nehondo zvinotora vanhu vehondo; hurongwa uye mhosva dzinotora nhengo dzebhawa; kurima, kuchengeta mombe kunobata vanhu venyika; zvidzidzo zvakadzika, fungidziro huru dzinotora vanhu

yetsamba uye masayendisiti ezvematongerwo enyika: kutengeserana kunotora vatengesi; asi varipi, pakati paava vose, avo vanozviitira hanya, sezvavanofanira, nehana dzavo uye naMwari wavo? ndivanaani avo vanoita nyaya huru uye yakakomba yeruponeso rwavo, inova yekutanga uye yakakosha pane ese?...

Kuchena kunotungamira hudiki, kuparara kunotungamirira kumurume, kuzvifarira kunotungamirira kukura, hutsinye hunotungamirira kuchembera, uye kutenda uye rudo zvinotungamirira inenge nguva isina nguva yehupenyu. Vakuru vakazvipira uye sokunge vakatengeswa kune zvisina maturo, manyawi uye manyawi; vadiki vari pasi pekugunun'una, kusaziva, huipi uye kusaruramisira. Varipi avo vanozvipira kuzvininipisa, kuzvidemba uye nekuita zvehunhu hwakanaka? Tinoimba, tinonwa, tinoseka, kana kukakavara, tinofara, tinosuwa, asi nguva dzose nokuda kwenyama. Munhu wese anotsvaga kufarira kwemuviri, anenge hapana anotsvaga izvo zvemweya; mumwe anoshanda zvakawanda kwenguva, anenge asingambofi nokusingaperi; tinozviitira zvese isu, hapana chatiri kuda kuna Mwari: ino ndiyo nyika....

Saka munoona, akaenderera mberi J.-C., kuti vanhu vose ava havasi vangu, vose vari pamusoro pezvishuwo zvavo, uye kwete zvangu; ndevedhimoni muvengi wangu; uhwu hahuzi ushe hwangu, kana vanhu vangu; asi ivo vari kurwa neni newangu. Pane vose vaunoona, hapana kana ani zvake anofunga nezvangu neEvhangeri yangu, kuti aenderane nemaitiro avo kwairi; kana vakazviita dzimwe nguva, zvakapusa zvekuti chiKristu chavo chingave chishoro kwandiri pane rukudzo rwunopihwa kuhumwari hwangu. Vangani pakati pavo vanosvika pakunyomba nokuda kwezita rangu pamberi pavanhu, uye avo, pashure pezviito zvishomanene zvorudzidziso zvakadzokera kukururama, vakamhanya nokukurumidza zvikuru mumativi enyika kuti vadzoke uye mhiko yorubhapatidzo rwavo, uye zvipikirwa zvavakaita. kwandiri

! Hapana kuchena kwevavariro muwanano, pasina kuvimbika mune zvokutengeserana, hapana kudana muzvinzvimbo, hapana kururamisira pakati pevanhu; nyika ndiyoyi. Tinofanira kushamiswa here kana akapomerwa muEvhangeri, akazadzwa nezvinonyadzisa, kusaruramisira uye zvivi?

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Anomutuma kunoparidza kupfidza muguta guru. Anoteerera zvakaoma, uye haachawani J.-C. pakudzoka kwake.

Tichiri kutaura kudaro, takasvika pagomo refu, uko kwakanga kuri nyore kuwana nyika yose yakapoteredza; pakati pezvimwe zvinhu, takaona pedo neungano huru ine nyonganyonga; wakanga uri mutambo wakaitirwa pedyo neguta rezvokutengeserana zvikuru... Munoona guta iri negungano iri, anodaro J.-C. kwandiri; mhomho yevarume iyi inongobatikana nezvinhu zvenguva pfupi uye zvirongwa zvisina kunaka zvakanyanya. Nhamba huru zvikuru yeavo vaunoona vakanyura mumiitiro youtsotsi, uko kunoita kuti kuponeswa kwavo kuve kwakaoma zvikuru, uye zvikuru kwazvo nemhaka yokuti ndiro bedzi bhizimisi ravasingazvinetse naro vamene naro, ravasina hanya naro vamene. kunyange kufunga. Upofu hunosiririsa zvakadini! Enda, mukunda wangu, undovatsvakira, uvaudze kuti, kana vakasatendeuka, ndichavaranga nenzira yakaipisisa; kuti hupenyu hwechihedheni, hwenyika uye hwekusununguka hunogara huchiteverwa nerufu runouraya uye nekusingaperi kwenhamo; vaudze kuti vatendeuka uye varege kutadza, kuti varege kuisa kureba kwekurambwa kwavo....

Ini ndinodedera nekuraira uku, ndoda kubva pakutya njodzi yawakandifumura, pane kutya kurasikirwa uyo akandipa. Handina kuda kumuudza nezvekunyara kwangu, kwaakazonzwisisa pasina mubvunzo; Ndakangomukumbira kuti andimirire panzvimbo imwe chete, ndipo pandakazomukumbira kuti ndiende naye pasina nguva. Ndinoenda uye ndinomhanya nesimba rangu rose; ndikasvika panzvimbo yakafanira kuti ndive mukati menguva yokuita kuti ndinzwike nechaunga ichi, ndakadanidzira kwavari nenzwi guru sezvandakagona zvose zvandakanga ndarayira kuti nditaure kwavari; Ndakawedzera kuti akanga ari J.-C. pachake akanga andituma kwavari, uye ndakavatyisidzira nehasha dzake kana vakasateerera inzwi rangu, sezvakaita vaNinivhi vakateerera raJona. mazwi; asi nhamba huru kwazvo haidaro usazvinetse. Ndakaona vamwe vachindiseka, vamwe vachindipengera nehasha, handizivi kuti chii chaizoitika kana kutiza zvavaida ndisina kutiza kuti ndiende kunotsvaga muperekedzi wangu kwandakamusiya. Asi, o kuparadzwa! akanga asisipo, uye zvandaitya zvakanga zvaitika, akanga anyangarika. Kuita sei? chii chandinofanira kuita kune imwe nyika yaitondiona semuvengi, nekuti ndanga ndichida kuivhenekera pachokwadi chayo uye zvandaitya zvakanga zvaitika, zvakanga zvapera. Kuita sei? chii chandinofanira kuita kune imwe nyika yaitondiona semuvengi, nekuti ndanga ndichida kuivhenekera pachokwadi chayo uye zvandaitya zvakanga zvaitika, zvakanga zvapera. Kuita sei? chii chandinofanira kuita kune imwe nyika yaitondiona semuvengi, nekuti ndanga ndichida kuivhenekera pachokwadi chayo zvido?

Paanenge achitsvaga J.-C. nekurwadziwa, anosangana nemweya wakasurukirwa waanoedza kunyaradza.

Zvino, kuti ndimuwane, ndakafamba muminda nokunyika yakapoteredza nokufunganya kworufu, ndichimudana nenzwi guru, ndichimubvunza kuna vose vandakasangana navo, ndakanzwa zvose zviri kurutivi rwangu, shure kwechinguva chiduku.

gwenzi, kuchema kunorira, kugunun’una kunobata; Ndakasvika panzvimbo, ndikaona akarara pasi musikana ane makore angangoita makumi maviri, aingochema zvaisiririsa; Ndakamunzwira tsitsi, uye ndaida kumunyaradza. Ah! akati kwandiri, ndichichema, handichina kunyaradzwa, ndarasikirwa nechiso chemurume wemweya wangu, ndakundwa nemarwadzo angu; ndiudze zvakaitika kwaari, kana zvikasadaro ndinofa nemarwadzo...

Mamiriro ake ezvinhu anosuruvarisa akatanga kuita kuti ndikanganwe zvangu; zvaiita sekuti aigovana kutambudzika kwangu nekufanana kwekusuwa kwedu; Naizvozvo ndakazviziva nemufananidzo wake; uye ndisati ndada kuzvizivisa kwaari, ndakazvipira kumunyaradza, ini ndaimuda kupfuura iye. ndinomuudza pakati pezvimwe zvinhu kuti kunzwa kwake kwakanyanyisa kwakanga kusina kuvakirwa pamirau youmwari hwechokwadi, kuti kungatogona kusafadza Mwari, uyo anoda kuzviisa pasi kwakawanda kukuda kwake. Kuvapo kwake kunonzwisisika, ndakati, inyasha dzaasina kufanira kune ani zvake, uye kushayikwa kwake tinofanira kuziva kutambura paanoda, uye kure nekusamufadza nazvo, isu tinomufadza zvakanyanya nekuzviisa pasi kwedu. kana takasangana nerudo rwazvino urwu rwaMwari, kunzwa uku kunogara kuchitsvaga zvisikwa, uye izvo zvimwe zvinongogutsa  kuzvida...

Saka, shamwari yangu yakanaka, ndakati kwaari, chenjerera kuti usanyanya kuchema, kuwandisa mune zvese kunokuvadza. Nditende mudikani, ndiMwari vari kukuyedza; asi nguva yokuedzwa ichaguma kuti iite nguva dzinofadza zvikuru: kuvapo kune mufungo kworudo rwake kana kwomunhu wake hakusiriko kwaanoda kwatiri; anoda kusimba kwehutsvene, iyo inoumbwa pamusoro pezvose mukuteerera uye kuzviisa pasi pekuda kwake kutsvene....

Ndichiri kutaura kudaro, ndakatarisa mativi ose kuti ndiedze kuwana uyo wandakatsvaga nekufunganya kukuru, kutya nekusuwa; saka ndezvechokwadi kuti zviri nyore kutaura zvakanaka pane kuita zvakanaka, kunyaradza vamwe pane kuzvinyaradza; uye zvakadaro, Baba, ndakanzwa kuti ndakanga ndawana nyaradzo mukutaura kudai kumurombo uyu anotambudzika; nekuti ndakazviudza nechemumoyo kuti pamwe ndaida zano rakanaka randakamupa zvakanyanya kupfuura zvaaiita, uye kuti ndaifanira kuishandisa kwandiri, sezvo iye pachake akazvijekesa mumashoko mashoma, uye nezvekundibhadharira. rudo rwandainge ndamuitira.

Anoramba achitsvaka J.-C., uye anosvika pagomo reKarivhari, paanowana michinjikwa mizhinji yakaoma uye inorema zvikuru.

Pakupedzisira, ndinoisiya, uye chinhambwe kubva ipapo ndinowana yangu yakakwirira

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gomo raiva pasi paro pakanga pagere munhu; Ndinomubvunza kana asati amboona J.-C. achipfuura: Hongu , akapindura, achangosvika pamusoro pegomo rauri kuona, uye ndinotenda kuti akamira ipapo. nokuda kweshamwari dzake dzose . Nemashoko aya ndakabva ndaita semhene ndisina kumbobvunza zvakawanda, ndakamhanya zvekuti ndakasvika pamusoro ndapererwa; ndikamira kwechinguva, ndakatarira kwose kwose, ndikadana nenzwi guru; asi ndakaona bedzi muchinjikwa muhombe wakasimwa wakananga pamusoro pegomo, uye vakakomberedza uyu muchinjikwa vamwe vashandi vakanga vachishanda kugadzira vamwe pamuenzaniso mumwe chetewo; Ndakaona gumi kana gumi nembiri nyowani dzemhando dzakasiyana uye huremu hwakasiyana...

Shamwari dzangu dzakanaka, ndakati kwavari, kugara zvishoma kuti vazorore, munoti gomo rinosuwa iri chii? Unofanira kuzviziva, vakandipindura, igomo reKarivhari, paunofanira kuita musha wako kusvika parufu. Hey! ndapota, unoitira ani michinjikwa iyi yakasiyana? Ndezvako. Ndakadedera, ndikaenda kundodziedza; asi ndakadziona dziri rough uye dzichirema zvekuti ndakatadza kudzisimudza. Hey! ndakachema hama dzangu, hamuone kuti hazviite kuti ndimbopfeka imwe chete? Muchazvitakura zvose kamwechete, ndakaudzwa; asi vanenge varasikirwa nehuremu hwavo hwakawanda uye nekukasharara kwavo; nokuti hazvisati zvapera, uye hapana chimwe chatichaita pamusoro pazvo. Sezvo ndisina kunzwisisa zvinoreva mazwi ekupedzisira aya, Ndakasiya vashandi ava nechakavanzika chavo kuti ndizvibatikane nekutsvaga mutungamiriri wangu wehumwari; nokuti ndakanga ndisinei nezvemichinjikwa, chero bedzi ndaiwana...

Anoona bako kwaanowana mhandara yaakataura nezvayo, uye yaipukuta michinjikwa, ndokumubvunza zita rake.

Saka nekuda kwechinangwa ichi ndaipfuura nemumakona ese epamusoro pegomo, uye ndakaerekana ndapinda mune imwe bako kana nzvimbo yakarongwa pakati pematombo, uye ndakaona mukuora mwoyo mhandara yerunako rwaityisa, chaizvo. mumwe chete, Baba vangu, vakakudai zvikuru

ndakakufadza pandakatanga kukuudza nezvazvo. Saka ndakafara uye ndakanakidzwa nazvo kubva pakutanga kuona, uye ndinofunga hazvigoneke kune a

mwoyo kurwisa. Hungu, kwakanga kuri kubereka kwakafanana chaizvoizvo, kureba kumwe cheteko, chiso chimwe chetecho, mativi mamwe chetewo, mhepo imwe cheteyo, kutaura kumwe cheteko, muchidimbu munhu mumwe cheteyo wandakaona kubvira ipapo, uye nezvake kududzwa kwakawanda kwave kuchiitwa kurota kwekare.

Apa Baba varimundege mumaoko, vaive mushishi kutema nekukwenenzvera michinjikwa yaive yagadzirwa nevashandi, grotto raive rakazara. Mushure mekudzideredza nekudzikwenenzvera, iye achiri kuparadzira ipapo kumwe kuzodzwa kwakaita kuti hukasha hwavo hupere, akashanda ipapo nekukasira, kero uye nenyasha dzinoshamisa uye dzinoshamisa. Vose vakanga vapfuura nepasi peruoko rwake vakanga vanyorova uye vakareruka, hapana chandakaona chaityisa mavari. Panzvimbo pekutyisa kwandaive nako nemichinjikwa yekutanga, ndakanzwa shungu dzakati kwavari, uye ndakanzwa kuti shungu idzi dzakawedzera pandakataura nemushandi anoyemurika, zvekuti kana ndapedza ndingadai ndakashinga kutora. ugovatakura vose pamwe chete.

Ndakashamisika nekuchinja kwakadai uye kusiri kwepanyama, uye pamwe ndingadai ndisina kumboziva chikonzero chazvo dai ndisina kubvunza zita remunhu ane rudo uyu. Ipapo, kuti andigutse, akanditarisa nechiso chinoseka nameso azere nemoto wakachena; uye achindiratidza muchinjikwa waakanga achikwenenzvera, akati nenyasha: “Ndiri rudo rwaiye akakutakurira iwe, uye nokuda kworudo rwako norworwo rwavanhu vose rwandinoshanda. J.-C. anoda kuti vana vake vose vafambe mumakwara ake vakatakura muchinjikwa wavo, nokuti ndiyo nzira bedzi inoenda kuupenyu husingaperi uye mufaro usingaperi waanovadana nawo uye waanofanira kuvaitira; asi anoda kuti vadzipfeke vasingakundwe nazvo. Pakupedzisira, anoda kuti vapfekedzwe nerudo, kwete kumanikidzwa, ndosaka achindikumbira kuti ndivaite vakapfava uye vareruke, uye ibasa rinofadza zvikuru kwandiri, sezvo kusingabviri kuti ndirege kuda avo J.-C. vaidiwa zvikuru. »

Mushure mekutaura uku, ndakamuka ndichizadzwa nechishuwo chekutakura michinjikwa yose  yandaizoratidzwa nerudo rwaJ  .

Pano, Baba, zvamaida kuzviziva, ndiwo mamiriro maviri ezviroto zvangu, umo ndakaona munhu ane mutsa, uyu mushandi anoyevedza wawairatidzika kwandiri kuti anofarira zvakanyanya. Asi sezvo tiri pachinyorwa ichi, uye nyaya yangu yakagara zvishoma pane zvandaifunga, ini ndichagumisa, kana uchida, nechiratidzo icho ini pachangu.

anoyeuka, uye izvo kunyanguvezvo zvakaitika kwandiri, kwete mukurara, kufanana nedzapfuura, asi mumunyengetero wangu, makore mana kana kuti mashanu apfuura. Chinhu chacho, mukuona kwangu, chichiri kufanira kutariswa.

Chiratidzo cheSister panguva yemunamato wavo. Muti werudo.

Ndakaona ndafadzwa nechiedza

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apo Ishe wedu akazviratidza kwandiri muchimiro chomunhu, akanditungamirira mubindu guru rakanga rizere nemiti nemiti yamarudzi akasiyana-siyana; Ndakaona pakati pezvimwe zvinhu muti muhombe uye wakanaka zvikuru, une muchero wakakura uye wechimiro chinoyevedza, uye wakanakisa watingafungidzira. Mumwe nomumwe wemichero yomuti uyu wakanga wakachena kuno rumwe rutivi, uye mutsvuku kuno rumwe rutivi; muti nemuchero wawo zvakanzi muti nemuchero werudo, muti weupenyu, muti werudo rukuru rwakaita rudzikinuro rwerudzi rwevanhu. Mimwe miti yaive, mukuenzanisa, semhuka dzesango, ichibereka michero yakakundikana uye ine honye...

J.-C. akanga ane mutsa zvakakwana kunditsanangurira revo yechokwadi yechiono ichi, achichishandisa kwandiri ndimene. "Kangani," akadaro kwandiri, "nekuda kwekuvimba nerudo rwangu, hauna kubereka michero yakakombama, yakaora, yakaora?" Pachiitiko ichi, akandizivisa kuti mamiriyoni emweya akanga aripo, uye haana kubereka zvibereko zvakasimba uye zvechokwadi, chaizvoizvo, nokuti kupfurikidza nokuzvidira, imhuka dzomusango, dzisina kunamatidzwa. , kana pakunaka kwechido cheMuponesi, pasina izvozvo, zvisinei, zvese izvo munhu anogona kuita hazvibatsiri kudenga. Asi zvakwana baba, nguva yekupera. Kana iwe ukashandisa zviroto zvangu mumabhuku ako, vanhu vanonzwisisa uye vechiKristu vachaaverenga vachawana mazviri chokwadi chakasimba muchimiro chinoshoreka zvakakwana machiri; asi vaverengi vepamusoro vasingapindi mumakwati aro, kunyanya avo vanozongotsvaga nzira dzekugutsa chishuwo chisingadaviriki, ah! Ndinovatyira kuti vachatora mukana wacho kuzvidza zvose zvandakakuudzai. namatira Me.

Kupera kwezviroto.

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KUFUNGWA KWEMUNYORI.

Ndanga ndakanganisa here, muverengi, nepfungwa yakanaka yandakagadzira yezviroto zvandabva kurondedzera, uye nemutongo wakanaka wandakanga ndapa kwavari kumwewo? Zvino zviri kwauri kuti utonge, uye utiudze kana iwe wakaona mamwe maitiro etsika, kunyatsoruramisa uye chokwadi mune chero kufanotaura kwakadaro kwaunoziva.

Ngativerengei zvinyorwa zvemweya pazvinokurudzirwa kudzidzisa pfungwa uye kuumba moyo muhunhu hwechiKristu nekusekesa fungidziro yemuverengi, tobva taudzwa kana tawana ipapo, nehunhu hwakachena uye hwakanyanya. imwe nyaya inonyanya kukosha, kufarira kunofadza, rondedzero iri nyore uye isina njere; pekupedzisira, hapasisina chekurova icho chinosimudzira uye kutakura nekutevedzana kwezvinofadza kana zvinotyisa chokwadi. Pane chinhu here chakambonyorwa chinowirirana nemweya weEvhangeri, kana kuti chakanakira kukwana kwemukristu? Naizvozvo, chii chingava chakarurama zvikuru uye chechokwadi zvikuru? Chii chingave chakafanana nekufemerwa kutaura nemazvo pane chiri chinangwa chezviroto zvaro zvakasiyana, kana tikagona kuvapa zita iroro?

Zvamazvirokwazvo, kana Mweya Mutsvene wakashanda pamweya wouyu musikana mutsvene mukati mokurara kwake, izvo zvaakaita pamusoro pavamwe vazhinji; kana kuti, sokufunga kunoita munhu, kuti uropi hwake hwakanga huchiri kuchengetedza zvisaririra zvezvisungo izvo Mwari akanga aita mahuri mukati mezuva; iyo ichaita seyomuzvarirwo, kunyange zvazvo isina kukwana, kuzvidavirira nokuda kwenhevedzano inoyemurika iyo inotonga imomo, pamwe chete nokuda kwegadziriro inozviratidza imene ikoko kwose kwose; zvisineyi zviroto izvi zvakaitika, hazvishamisi mazviri, zvisingaite zvinoshamisa nemasikirwo enyaya, kupfava pamwe chete nechokwadi chenhamba, uye boka iri rakatevera kusvika kure nekusaenderana  . .

Chii chingave chinoshamisa, zvakare, chii chingave chisingafungidzike kupfuura kuona kuti murombo asina ruzivo, akarara pamubhedha wesero rake, achine, akarara sezvaari, akanyanya uye ane hunhu mazano, uye akanyanya kunaka kupfuura mazhinji. zvepfungwa dzedu dzakaisvonaka mumabhuku avo zvinokosheswa zvikuru uye akaumbwa nounyanzvi hwakawanda, kudzidza uye rubatsiro! uye kana ndikabvumirwa kushandisa kutaura uku, hakusi kumwe here kuti mumwe wemweya yakanaka iyoyo yakazvidzwa kwazvo, yawana nzira yekurota zviri nani pakurara, kupfuura yavasingawanzoita kudaro, kunyange zvazvo yakasvinura, udzame hwekudzidza kwavo?

Naizvozvo, mukuona kwangu, hazvibviri kuzvidavirira pamusoro peizvi zvose pasina kushandisa mashoko atotaurwa, kuzadzikiswa kwawo kunowanikwa mavari chete: Et erit in novissimis diebus , nezvimwewo. Tagutsikana pakupedzisira, uye sokunge takundwa nechiedza chiri mubasa  iro rose rinoyemurika muzvinhu zvose, tinoshevedzera pamwe chete nemunyori weMapisarema: Que  les

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nzira dzaMwari hadzinzwisisike, uye anoshamisa sei muvatsvene vake!

Mirabilis Deus ari patsvene suis. ( Pis. 67,  36 . )

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UYE CHIRETITI CHEVAVIRI VAVIRI

Kubva kuHanzvadzi Yekuzvarwa kwaJesu.

Isu isu takasaina pasi, masisita enharaunda yeUrban Planners yeguta reFougères, tinopupurira kuti richave raani, 1 ° iyo yainzi Sisita Yekuzvarwa kwaJesu, makore mazhinji apfuura, yakazivisa uye kufanotaura nezve kuvhunduka uye kusagadzikana kwakange kwaitika. nokukurumidza kutanga muFrance, uye pashure pacho kukonzera nyongano huru muChechi nomuUnited States; kuti, pasinei nokuonekwa kuduku kwazvo panguva iyoyo, zvakanga zvaziviswa neHanzvadzi yakataurwa zvakanga zvaonekwa zvikuru uye zvaishamisa mukutonga kwevafundisi vakawanda vakanaka, zvokuti muprista akanga ari mutungamiriri weimba panguva iyoyo akachinjwa kuti anyore, uye kuti zvechokwadi akanyora rondedzero iyo kupokana nekusanzwisisana pamusoro penyaya yaSista yakanga yamusungirira kupisa sezvinei zvake.

2° Kuti Hanzvadzi yakataurwa yoKuberekwa kwaJesu, muna 1790, akapa basa, akamirira Mwari, M. Genet, mutungamiriri wokupedzisira weimba yedu, kumutsiridza basa rakanga raparadzwa; kuti akanga, nokuda kwechikonzero ichi, ataura kwaari manotsi ekuti aizoshanda muutapwa ayo aakazivisa kwaari kuti aizouya; kuti akataurwa M. Genet akanga adhirowa zvinyorwa izvi pasi pemaziso uye nechirevo che

Hanzvadzi yakataurwa, uye kuti akazvinyora kubva mukutapwa uku, achiwedzera kwavari zvatakatuma kwaari isu pachedu uye nokukumbira kwehanzvadzi yakataurwa.

3 ° Tinopupurira kuti mushure mokunge tanyatsoverenga muunganidzwa wakakwana weHupenyu neZvakazarurwa zveHanzvadzi yakataurwa , iyo yaakatipa pakudzoka kwake, hatina kuwana chinhu imomo chaisaratidzika kwatiri chakakodzera kutenda uye chinopindirana zvikuru nechokwadi. chechokwadi chatinoziva, sekutonga kwatingaite. Muuchapupu hwatakasaina chiitiko ichi tisingazezi, tichitowedzera kuti pachine mamwe mamiriro mune zvese izvi zvaakasiya, uye izvo zvingave zvisinganyanyi kuvaka muhupenyu hunoshamisa hwemufi anodiwa uye anoremekedzwa. chengetedza kodzero yekumuzivisa nezverufu, pamwe nekuwedzera kwaakatiraira kuti tiendese kwaari, uye zvichiri kunyorwa.

4° Pakupedzisira, tinopupura kuti tisingade kutaura pamusoro pezvinhu zvikuru izvo Mwari akaita kuti hanzvadzi iyi ione, kana pazviziviso zvake zvinonyatsosimbiswa, isu takanyaradzwa zvikuru, uye kunyange kusimbiswa zvikuru mumaonero akanaka atakamboita kare. , nokurava miitiro inobetsera zvikuru yamabhishopi, uye zvimwe zviedza zveChechi Dzvene izvo munyori akabvunza mukutapwa kwake.

PaFougères, zuva rechimakumi maviri nenhanhatu raGunyana chiuru nemazana masere nembiri yaJesu Kristu, uye gore regumi reFrench Republic.

Marie-Louise LEBRETON , akadana muchitendero hanzvadzi yaSainte-Madeleine, aimbova muchengeti wenharaunda, uye mukuru panguva ye1790, uye kusvika iyo yekuparadzwa kwedu.

Michelle-Pélagie BINEL , anozivikanwa muchitendero seHanzvadzi yeSeraphim, aimbova Mukuru uye mutariri wenharaunda panguva ye1790; pasina shanduko.

KUCHENGA

ZVIMWE ZVIREVO

UYE ZVINYORWA, ZVEHUPENYU NEZVIZARURWA ZVAKAZARURWA HANZVADZI,

NUN PACONVENT OF URBAN PLANNERS MUGUTA REFOUGÈRES, BISHOPRIC OF RENNES, IN BRITTANY.

KUVAVERENGI.

Charissimi, nolite omni Spiritui credere, sed probate spiritus si ex Deo sint. (Joan, 4, 1.)

Iko Kuunganidzwa kwatinokupa kwauri kwakaverengwa nekuongororwa muzvinyorwa nenhamba huru yevatongi vane hunyanzvi uye vakajekeswa, vane mitongo inobatsira yaizotora nguva yakareba kuti iburitse zvakadzama: kuti, uyezve, chimiro chekugadzirwa uku, chaizvo. zvinoshamisa, hazvina kumbovabvumira kuti vabvumire kuburitswa, kuitira kuti varege kuita chero nzira yekukanganisa kutonga kweChechi pane imwe pfungwa iyo iye ega ane kodzero yekusarudza.

Zvichakwana kukuudza kuti kubva pamabhishopi matanhatu kana kupfuura, kune vandakawana ruremekedzo rwekuiratidza muLondon uye munzvimbo dzakasiyana dzekutapwa kwangu, kubvira 1792 kusanganisira (1); kubva pavafundisi-vakuru makumi maviri kana makumi matatu nemakanoni emadhiocese akasiyana, vanachiremba gumi kana gumi nevaviri kana mapurofesa ezvidzidzo zvouMwari, mumayunivhesiti akasiyana; pavanyori vanoverengeka vanosanozivikanwa vamabhuku anoremekedzwa pamusoro penhau dzorudzidziso, uye vamwe vanosvika zana namakumi mashanu vamwe vafundisi, vafundisi, vaprista veparishi kana kuti vatungamiriri vamapurovhinzi akasiana-siana, vose vari vaviri vafundisi vechiFrench nechiNgezi, vose vanonamata zvakaenzana uye vakadzidza; Kashoma, ndinoti, kubva munhamba huru yakadai, munhu mumwe chete aikwanisa kutumidza vanhu vashanu kana vatanhatu vakanga vasina kumufarira muzvinhu zvose; uye tichiri tine zvikonzero zvakanaka zvokudavira kuti iyi nhamba duku haina akamisa kutonga nenjere bedzi, uye kwete nokuda kwechido chipi nechipi chakaipa; pane kujekesa chokwadi pane kuzvipikisa kana kurwisa pfungwa dziripo.

(1) Mabhishopi akabvunzurudzwa uye vanoverenga zvinyorwa zvine muunganidzwa uri kutaurwa, pakati pevamwe, Mgr. Bhishopi Mukuru weAix, zvino Bhishopi Mukuru weTours; Msgr. bhishopi weTréguier, uya weTroyes, uyo weNantes, uyo weMontpellier, uyo we

Lescar, nezvimwewo. Handitauri nezvevasiri vazhinji nemapoka ose, vakaaverenga nemhindu zhinji nekuvaka; nokuti, zvisinei kuti vazhinji vavo vakavhenekerwa sei, havangagamuchirwe sevatongi munyaya dzemhando idzi. Nokudaro kurumbidza kwavo kunodzokororwa kunorangarirwa pasina.

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Basa racho naizvozvo rakaombererwa pasi rose nevaverengi vemirairo yose yeChechi, ndingawedzera, vemapoka ose evagari vemo. Yakave  yakatongwa pamwe chete kwete yakanaka chete uye inobatsira mukati mayo , iyo yakanga iri pfungwa huru, kunyanya kufunga kuti mitemo yose yechokwadi yedzidziso uye tsika yakaonekwa mairi yakavharwa; asi zvakadaro ndinogona kukuvimbisai kuti voruzhinji zvikurusa vabvunzi navatongi vakaramba vakatsamira pakumupa kufuridzirwa kwakafanira kunonzi, uko kwairatidzika kwavari kusingarambiki: Digitus Dei est hic , vakadzokorora sokunge kuti vari konzati; uye, zvakanaka kuziva, kubvuma uku kwakaitwa kwandiri nevafundisi avo, vasati vaverenga chero chinhu nezvazvo, vakatanga nekureurura kwandiri kuvenga kwavo kusingakundiki, kufemerwa.

Saka, pasina kutaura kuti ndinozvibatsira munzira ipi neipi yekusawirirana kwekunzwa ndichifarira mubvunzo wausiri nenzira ipi zvayo kuti ndisarudze, uye wandinosiya zvachose kudare pazvinomuka, ndinogona kugumisa kuti , muzvinhu zvose, muunganidzwa, sezvauri, wakabatanidza zvisingapokanidzwi kuwanda kwemavhoti, mukuongororwa kwaitwa mavhoti kusvika zvino. Kwandinogona kuwedzera kuti, kusvika zvino, zvipikiso zvese zvakaitwa zvakaderedzwa kusvika pakushomeka kwekuravira uko vanhu vaifunga kuti vakawana mukunyora kwangu, uye pamusoro pazvo ndakaona kushorwa kwakawanda mu nzira dzakasiyana dzekuritonga, kuti zvainge zvakaita sezvisingabviri kuti ndipedzise chero chinhu kubva pazviri; kune mamwe maonero anokakavadzana muzvikoro, kunzwa, dzimwe nguva kunyange kutora nzira isiri iyo, sezvo zvaive nyore kwandiri kuratidza  .

Kune vamwe vose, ndinodzokorora, mumwe aizoita vhoriyamu, kana zvakakodzera kuunganidza pano zvose rumbidzo dzakataurirwa kwandiri, zvose zvipupuriro zvinobatsira zvandinazvo.

yakagamuchirwa nomuromo uye nekunyora, kubva kuvanhu vanoremekedzwa zvikuru uye vanokwanisa zvikuru kuvatonga. Vanoverengeka vevakanyanya kuzivikanwa pakati pevaverengi, maprelates pachavo, vakakumbira makopi, avakange vakasunga nemazvo, kuti vaachengetedze, vakandiudza, nekuchenjerera kukuru. Kunyange zvazvo mabhuku angu gumi namaviri akanga akareba sei, akanyorwa saizvozvo kanomwe kana kasere zvakasiyana muruzivo rwangu, uye angadai akanyanyowanda kudai, nokuda kwezvikonzero zveungwaru, ndakanga ndisina kuapikisa zviri pamutemo; izvo zvisina kutadzisa makopi akawanda akachekwa atinawo inokweverwa muchivande (1). Bhuku rakatoturikirwa muchirungu. Munhu ari wose airatidzika kuva aida kuti riziviswe: vanoverengeka vakakumbira kuzvinyoresa ndokubetsera kumari yokudhinda; izvo zvandagara ndichiramba, nekuda kwekutya chete kudzivirira nguva dzakaratidzwa neKupa kwaMwari  .

(1) Aya makopi akasiyana-siyana akaparadzira basa kure kure. Sezvo ndisina kumboverenga rimwe rawo, ndinovavimbisa zvishoma, sezvandinoziva kuti vamwe vakopi vakatora rusununguko rwokuchinja zvavaiona zvakakodzera, kuti vafadze pfungwa dzavo dzine chokuita nezvematongerwo enyika.

Ndinoda nemoyo wangu wose kumira ipapo pachinhu ichi; asi sezvo pangave nevaverengi avo uchapupu hwandiri nenzira imwe chete mutsigiri hunenge husingazoratidzike hwakakwana, ndichaedza kuvagutsa nechimwe chinhu chisinganyanyi kukosha uye chakanyatsojeka. Iri richange riri rondedzero yezvipupuriro zvemashoko uye zvinyorwa kubva mutsamba dzine mazita evanyori. Ndichawedzera mabhii mashoma akadhindwa pane ekutanga, ayo acharatidza zvese zvandichangobva kutaura. Izvo zvakarongeka mushure mezvose, zvinongori kupa kutenda kwakanaka kunotsvaka kuzvivhenekera nemasimba akakwana, zvikonzero pazvinogona kuzvisarudzira zvine musoro. Kana paine vanga vaine mukana wekufungira kutendeseka kwemakotesheni angu,

Zvidimbu kubva mumabhii akasiyana-siyana uye zvirevo zvemashoko zvakatumirwa kumupepeti.

Mushure mevafundisi vatichangotaura nezvavo, Baba Barruel vaive mumwe wevadzidzi vebhaibheri vandainyanya kuda kutaura magwaro angu. Achangoriongorora akabva anditi ndimupe kopi, akaridhinda

pachake. Kubva panguva iyoyo, haana kumborega kuratidza kutenda kwake kwandiri munzira dzose, kana kurumbidza basa racho, pasina kumbozvipikisa.

“Pandinowedzera kuriverenga, aindiudza uye achinyora kakawanda, ndipo pandinoona richivaka uye richiyemurika, uye ndinowedzera kuwana mariri chimwe chinhu chinopfuura vanhu. Ndinoona zviuru zvezvinhu mairi zvandisina kumboona chero kupi zvako: saka rinondibata kupfuura mamwe mabhuku. Ndinofungisisawo zvangu ipapo, uye ndinovimba kuti Mwari achashandisa iko kutendeuka kwangu uye kufambira mberi kwangu pakunamata. Ndinokumbira kuti mundirumbidze paminamato yemunun wenyu akanaka. Vamwe vakati wandei, kunyangwe mabhishopi, vakaita chikumbiro chimwechete kwandiri.

Baba Barruel vanoenderera mberi nemashoko aya:

"Ticharwisa basa remweya wakanaka uyu, asi isu hatisi kuzoriparadza: rakanyorwa pakona rinoita kuti rikunde pamusoro pekutsoropodzwa. Ndizivise chero chaungadzidza kubva kumusikana mutsvene uyu. Chinhu chipi nechipi pamusoro pake chichagara chichifadza zvikuru kwandiri. Zvaakadzokorora, sevamwe vakawanda, kuvanhu vakasiyana uye panguva dzakasiyana, asina kumbochinja maonero ake panyaya iyi. Akagara achitaura, nevamwe vakawanda, kuti "iri basa raikwanisa kuita zviratidzo zvinofadza zvikuru, uye kubereka mumweya michero inodiwa zvikuru yekutendeuka, kufambira mberi, uye ruponeso." »

Kwakadaro kwagara kuri kutonga kwemunyori akajaira kutsoropodza mabasa uye nekurukurirano yenyaya dzedzidziso yebhaibheri. Ngatienderere mberi kune vamwe.

M. Pons, muprista woruwa rweMazamet, mudhiocese yeLavaur, chiremba uye purofesa wefundo youmwari, akaita fariro imwe cheteyo mairi, uye akaita mutongo mumwe chetewo waro, pashure pokunge airava nokungwarira zvikuru. Heano mashoko ayo purofesa uyu, ane mukurumbira wakafanira, anovamba nawo kabhuku kaduku kenotsi kandakanga ndamukumbira kuti andigadzirire: “Basa romu<em>nun waFougères rakaratidzika kwandiri kuva rine dzidziso youmwari yakaisvonaka, yakapfava, yakareba uye ine dzidziso huru. mitemo yekutyaira yakajeka; uye chero rutongeso runotaura munhu pamusoro pekufemerwa kwayo, ndinofunga kuti kuiverenga kuchabatsira zvikuru kune vakatendeka, uye kuchavapa kuravira kukuru kwekunaka. »

Kune iyi eulogy iri nyore uye chaiyo, maererano nematauriro avo, Baba Pons vanowedzera kuti: "Kuti agutse chikumbiro chemupepeti, achaita basa rose, zvirevo zvishoma zvaasingatendi kuti hazvikoshi, uye izvo haanyanyi kukosha. Kubva panguva iyoyo, ave ari mumwe wevaya vakanyanya kundikurudzira kuti basa ridhindwe muLondon, kuitira kuti ndikwanise, akadaro, kuendesa mamwe makopi kunyika yake.

VaDouglas, Bhishopi weLondon, vasingazivi mutauro wechiFrench zvakakwana zvokuzvitongera pachavo, vakazviitira ivo, neimwe nzira, kutsiviwa nevamwe vavaprista vavo, pakati pevamwe naReverend Mr. Milner, vanonamatira kumaKatorike eWinchester; izvo zvakandiwanira tsamba nemunyori ane mukurumbira uyu izvo zvakandikudza zvikuru. Hezvino izvo zvaakandinyorera mumisangano yakasiyana; Ndichatora matauriro ake, ayo andichazoshandura, kuitira kurerukira avo vasinga zivi mumutauro wake. Mutsamba yavo yomusi waGunyana 13, 1800, VaMilner  vanondiudza kuti:

"Kugadzirwa pamusoro pese kunoratidzika kwandiri kunoshamisa kwazvo nekuda kwayo

sublimity, simba, copiousness, kudzidza, orthodoxy uye huMwari. Nokudaro handina kupokana pakuunza pundutso huru yemweya kumweya mizhinji, pese paunofunga kuti zvakakodzera kuzvipa kuruzhinji. ndinoramba,

“Dr Sir,

“Muranda wenyu wakasungwa

"John Milner. »

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Heino shanduro yacho:

.... Kugadzirwa uku kunoratidzika kwandiri, kazhinji, kushamisa zvikuru nehukuru hwayo, simba rayo, kuwanda kwemazano uye zvinhu, uye kudzika kwezvidzidzo zvebhaibheri zvinotonga ipapo, dzidziso dzayo uye mweya wehumwari iyo inofema. Ichi ndicho chikonzero ini ndisina kupokana kuti ichaburitsa mabhenefiti makuru uye mafaro emweya mizhinji, uyo anozobatsirikana kubva pazviri kana wafunga kuzvipa kune veruzhinji. ndinoramba,

Changamire wangu,

Muranda wenyu anozvininipisa zvikuru uye anoteerera. John Milner.

Mune yaakandinyorera musi waNovember 15 unotevera, anotaura seizvi: “Handikwanisi kutaura zvakanyanya pamusoro pehukukutu uye hune humwari hwezvakazarurwa izvi zvakazara. »

Ndiko kuti,

"Ndichitora zvakazarurwa izvi zvakazara, handikwanise kuzvisimudza zvakanyanya, kana kutaura chero chinhu chinopfuura pfungwa yakanaka yandakafunga nezvehukuru hwavo, kana

hunyoro uye hutsvene hune rudo hunoita kuti ifanane nemashure uye chimiro chakasiyana. »

Munyori mumwe cheteyo, achinyorera muprista wechiNgezi weshamwari dzake nedzangu, akamumaka, kuti: “Paunoona shamwari yedu yakanaka M. G*., ipa rumbidzo dzangu dzoruremekedzo kwaari uye muudze kuti ndaishuva sei kumuona pandaimuona. raive rimwe zuva kuSommerstown. Hakubviri kuti iwe, kana mumwe munhu upi noupi anofanira kuva noruremekedzo rukuru nokuda kwezvakazarurwa zvomwanasikana wake womudzimu, kupfuura ini; kana kuva neshungu huru yekuzviona muzvinyorwa, zvekuvaka vakanaka, nekutendeuka kwevakaipa. »

Ndiko kuti,

“Kana uine, kana kuti paunowana mukana wokuona shamwari yedu yepamwoyo M. G*., umupe tsika dzangu dzakanaka kana kuti kumurumbidza zvine ruremekedzo. Muudze kuti ndaida kumuona sei pandakapedzisira kuSommerstown. Hazvibviri kuti iwe kana chero munhu upi zvake angave neruremekedzo rukuru kupfuura ini nokuda kwezvakazarurwa zvemwanasikana wake wemweya. Hapana anoshuvira zvikuru kupfuura ini kuti ndizvione zvichidhindwa, kuitira kunyaradzwa nekuvaka kwevakanaka, sekutendeuka kwevakaipa. »

VaRayment, mumwe muprista wechiNgezi, akatanhamara zvikuru nokuda kworuzivo rwake rwoumwari, muruwa rweYork, akaita chinetso chokushandurira basa racho muchiNgezi, uye akandivimbisa kuti aisazopa shanduro yake nokuda kweraibhurari . VaHodgson, vicar-general waMgr. Douglas, akadana muunganidzwa wacho dzidziso yebhaibheri yakaisirwa: tlieologiu infusia . Ndinogona kutaura zvakafanana naReverend Dom Charoc, pamberi pemamongi echiRungu Benedictine, uye mukoma  waMgr. Bhishopi weBath; yaM. Lolimer, Benedictine yechiNgezi; yaReverend Baba Abbot veLa Trappe, avo vakaita kuti ikopirwe kune mamongi ake, uye nenhamba huru yevamwe varume vane hunhu uhu, vakaita nyaya imwe cheteyo, uye vakakwevera zvishoma zvidimbu kubva mairi. kunyanya kushandiswa  .

Iyo RP Bruning, muJesuit wechiRungu, anoita seanokunda zvese zvatakaona. Haangondipupurira chete, sezvakaita vamwe vakawanda, kuti haamboravi chinhu chipi nechipi chinokosha zvikuru kana kuti chinorayiridza zvikuru; asi anotosvika pakutaura kuti kana mabhuku ose akanaka akambonyorwa, pasina kusabvisa api naapi, akarasika, aigona kuwanwa ose, uye nebetsero, mune iri roga: “Ndingawedzerawo pa rose, akanga asisina magwaro uye zvisaririra zvose zvinokosha zvikuru zvesayenzi yetsika, dzidziso uye yezvoumwari hazvichawanikwizve mune mamwe mabhuku; vanogona kudzoserwa vese mune ino, uye nekufarira kupfuura. »

Izvi zvakakwana, ndinofunga, kunyengetedza pfungwa ipi neipi inobhadhara pachayo nechikonzero, kuti handisi ini ndoga wemaonero angu, maererano nebasa riri kutaurwa, uye kuti hazvisi pamwenje yangu isina simba, kana maererano nekutonga kwangu kwandinoita. , iyo inofanira kuverengerwa pasina, yandakatsunga kuipa kuvanhu (1). Pasina naizvozvo kuda kuwanza mashoko, ndandanda yawo yaizova inofinha nokudzokororwa kwerumbidzo dzimwe chetedzo nemifungo mimwecheteyo, ndakafunga kuti zvaizokwana kuti ndiwedzere pamwe chete mabhii mashoma ayo akanyorerwa kwandiri pamusoro peichi nhau. nemabhii akakosha zvekuti anofanirwa kutariswa.

(1) Nguva yekupedzisira pandakaona Mgr. Bhishopi weTréguer, asati afa, akandituka nokuda kwokusakarakadza kuzvinyoresa apo kwaiva navaFrench muEngland.

Tsamba yakabva kumupristi weFrance, mupoteri muPaderborn muWestphalia, yakanyorerwa mupepeti wenhau.

(Yakadhindwa pane yepakutanga.)

Changamire,

Pasina panikiro uchashamiswa kugamuchira tsamba inobva kumunhu wausingazivi; asi basa rinonakidza iro iwe uri mupepeti waro, rinopfuura kukwana kundikurudzira neruvimbo rwandinotaura neni pachangu kwauri. Sezvo ndave nemukana wekuverenga mamwe mabhuku ezvakazarurwa zveSista yeKuberekwa, pasina tariro yekuve nevamwe munyika yandinogara, ndinoshinga kuzvibata kumeso kuti uchada kufarira chishuwo chandinofanira kuita. muridzi webhuku rose. Zvisinei, handidi kukuremedzai, nokukumbira kopi kwamuri, iyo pamwe yamusingandiwanire.Ndosaka ndichikumbira Reverend Mai Augustin, Trapist, mupoteri pedyo neLondon, nyorai, kana zvichibvira, basa rataurwa, nokupa muripo wezvichadiwa, kunyange ndisina kupfuma, sezvakaita vaprista vazhinji vakatapwa. Asi kuti zvimwe uyu sisita akakodzera arege kukwanisa kugutsa zvishuvo zvangu, kana kunyange kuwana kopi nyore nyore, ndinokukumbirai nomwoyo wose kuti mumuitire nzira; uye kana akasawana vanhu vakakodzera kuti vanyore, ndinokukumbirai munyasha kuti muzvishandire mubasa iri rakanaka, uye ndichakupai zvamungazofanira kuripa nokuda kwechinangwa ichi.

Uyezve, Changamire, chinondisvitsa padanho iri hakusi kuda kuziva kwakarasika, ndoda mweya wekutsoropodza, asi chido chechokwadi chekuzvivaka. Uye kana, sezvandinodavira kungwara, hazvina kufanira

kutaurirana chete kune vashoma vashoma vakasarudzwa uye vanonyatsozivikanwa vanhu, ini ndinogona kukuvimbisa iwe kuti uchave mune ino kuremekedza iyo yakanyanya scrupulous reserve. Ndinoda kukwanisa kukupa kunyange vimbiso dzakanaka; asi ndinogona chete kukufumurai kuchena kwezvinangwa zvangu zvechitendero, uye zvandiri: Mupristi wechiFrench wedhiocese yeRouen, mutorwa nekuda kwechitendero cheCatholic, mupoteri muPaderborn muWestphalia, kwemakore anoda kusvika masere, kwandinoshandira zvechechi zvevatorwa, uye mureururi wenharaunda yeFrench Carmelites.

Ndinovimba, zvisinei, uye kushingairira kwako kuwana zvakanaka zvaunenge uine mugove wakadaro zvinokurudzira chivimbo mandiri, kuti iwe uchave wakanaka zvakakwana kuzadzisa zvandinoda.

Mukutarisira kwakanaka uku, ndine rukudzo rwekuva neruremekedzo neruremekedzo, Changamire, muranda wenyu akazvininipisa zvikuru uye anoteerera zvikuru,

J.-F. Vallée,

Mupristi wechiFrench, pamwe neBenedictine Ladies of Gokirchen, muPaderborn.

Paderborn, Westphalia, 6 Chikunguru 1801.

Tsamba yechipiri yakafanana. (Yakadhindwa pane yepakutanga.)

Changamire,

Ndine chikonzero chose chokutenda kuti tsamba yangu yakakumikidzwa kwamuri, mhinduro yamakanga muchida kundikudza nayo yakagamuchirwa; ndosaka ndichitora rusununguko rwekunyorera kwamuri zvakare nhasi kuti ndikukumbirei kuti mubvume kuchikumbiro changu, nepamunogona napo; nokuti, zvisinei nechishuvo chikuru chandinacho chokuva nebasa rakakosha riri kutaurwa, handidi kukufurira kuti utyore mitemo yeungwaru. Ndinonzwa kuti kungwarira kunofanira kutungamira kuratidzwa kwechimwe chinhu chechimiro ichi, uye icho

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kuchengetera kukuru kunofanira kushandiswa kuitira kuti kusadzivisa kana kuderedza kunaka kunofanira kubva mubasa iri mumarongerwo eKupa kwaMwari. Asi iwe unokwanisa zviri nani pane chero munhu kutonga zvine hungwaru zvakanakira nezvayakaipira; uye sezvo kutaurirana kwawakaita, kunyanya kune vamwe vanhu, nezvebasa rataurwa, kunoratidzika kunge kuri kuzivisa kuti nguva yasvika yekuriisa kune avo vanogona kubatsira, ndinodzokorora zvikumbiro zvangu kwamuri, kuti imi. ungava nomutsa wokukweretesa, kana uchikwanisa, kopi yakarurama kuvanhu vachakuendesa iyi kwauri kana kuti kuiendesa. Ini handidi kukukumbira kuti utore kunyorwa uye kururamisa basa iwe pachako, ndichikuvimbisa kuti mari dzese dzichadzoserwa, pamwe nekutumirwa kwakachengeteka kwechinyorwa, kuburikidza nechiteshi chemhuri inoremekedzwa yespencer,

Ini ndinongowedzera kwamuri kuti muve nechokwadi kuti ini ndichatevera mune zvechitendero mirairo yamuchave nekunaka kundipa kwandiri, uye kuti ndinoona sekuti ndine vavariro chete yekuvandudza chikumbiro changu kwamuri. Kana ukada kuzvigamuchira zvakanaka, uchandipa mufaro mukuru; uye ndichitaura kukutendai kwechokwadi kwamuri pachine nguva, ndine rukudzo rwekuva nemanzwiro ese eruremekedzo nekuremekedza,

Changamire, muranda wenyu anozvininipisa uye anoteerera zvikuru.

J.-F. Vallée,

Mupristi wechiFrench, pamwe neBenedictine Ladies of Gokirchen, muPaderborn, muWestphalia.

Paderborn, Nyamavhuvhu 25, 1801.

Tsamba yakabva kuna Baba de Cugnac, mutevedzeri mukuru wedhiocese yeAire, yakanyorerwa, yakamiririra bhishopi wavo, kumupepeti wemuunganidzwa.

(Yakadhindwa pane yepakutanga.)

Paderborn, Chikunguru 16, 1801.

Msgr. Bhishopi weAire, Monsieur, akanga aona, gore rakapera, mutsamba yakanyorwa kubva kuEngland, nhoroondo yakanaka yakapiwa yebhuku rinobata nezvezviono zvomumwe sisita waFougères. Rumbidzo iyo, maererano netsamba iyi, yakanga yapihwa kubasa nemamwe mabhishopi, pamwe neakadzidza uye akangwara Abbé Barruel, yakamutsa kuna Monseigneur chishuwo chekuda.

kuziva chinyorwa icho, maererano nouchapupu uhwu, chaisava nezvinhu zvinoshamisa chete uye chakaita kuti chinyanye kuda kuziva chisina maturo, asi icho chinopa zvinyorwa zvose, zvinobata sepamusoro-soro, zvezvakavanzika zvikuru uye hunhu hutsvene hwechitendero chedu chinoyevedza.

Saka akadzidza nemufaro kuti RP Abbé de la Trappe akanga aunza kubva kuEngland basa iri rinofadza, uye rakatokurudzirwa nechiremera chevanhu vanoremekedzwa. Akakasira kubvunza RP abbot, uyo akamukwereta chikamu chaaive abva aisa mumambure; ndiko kuti, hafu chete ye2nd. volume. Ichi chidimbu, chakatorwa pakati pebasa, hachikwanisi, sezvauri kuona, chichiri kuisa Monseigneur mukati mekuwana mutongo pamusoro pese; asi kuverenga kwechikamu chidiki ichi kwakaita kuti Monsignor abvume kuti basa rakadaro, kana nekukosha kwezvinhu zvarinobata, kana nechimiro chitsva charakanyorwa, kana nechiremera chinoisa icho munhu anotsigira zvese zviri mberi ipapo. , zvaida kutariswa zvakanyanya, zvaida izvozvo

Monsignor saka akashuvira kuti kopi itorwe kubva mukopi yeR.

Baba Abbot; asi wapashure wacho haana kuda kuzvibvumira, achitya kuputsa chivimbo chakanga chamupa aya manyoro kuti awane kopi. Kunaka uku kunogona kuremekedzwa; asi Monseigneur anonyengetedzwa kuti mabasa erudzi urwu anoitwa kuti ave mumaoko emabhishopi, pamberi pechimwe chikwata chevatendi; uye sezvo kunyora uku kwave kutozivikanwa, uye kwakaverengerwa pano nevanhu vakati wandei vemavara akasiyana uye akasiyana mastatus, pamberi paMonseigneur, uye kunyangwe kubva chikumbiro chaaive aita kuna RP abbot kuti amupe kuverenga, anotenda kuti anogona , anotofunga kuti anofanira kuva nekopi yezvinyorwa izvi, kuti agone kuiverenga, kuiverengazve, kuifungisisa nekufungisisa kwose uye kufungisisa kwaikodzera, uye kutwasanudza, pane dzimwe nguva,

Msgr. Bhishopi weAire saka anokukumbirai, Monsieur, kuti mumupe mvumo, nenzira yekubvisa zvakaipa zvese zvaBaba Abbé de la Trappe, kuti atore kopi kubva kukopi iyo yekupedzisira yakaunza kubva kuLondon.

Monsignor inongoratidza izvi zvinoreva sezviri nyore uye zvisingadhure; nokuti aizoda kudai kwaibvira, uye kana mari yacho yakanga isina kunyanyokurisa, kuzvichengetera umene kopi yakarurama zvikuru kupfuura iyo yaR.

P. abbot, uko zvikanganiso zvinowanziridzwa, uye dzimwe nguva zvechimiro chakadaro sekushandura revo kana kusapa chero zvachose. Monsignor aizobhadhara mutengo mukuru kuti ave neinoverengwa, inoongororwa uye kururamiswa nemunyori, kana, kutaura pasina kupokana.

zvakanaka, nemupepeti. Haaiti, zvisinei, anoomerera pane ichi chinyorwa, nokuti anomiswa nekutya, 1st, kuti ichakukonzera dambudziko rakawandisa uye kurasikirwa kwenguva; 2° kuti mari, ingave yekunyora, kana yekutumira, yakanga isingadhure. Anokukumbira kutanga kuti umutumire, nokukurumidza sezvinobvira, mvumo yaanokumbira kwauri, uye kuti umupe, mumhinduro yako, rondedzero yeizvo kopi ingada mari uye kutumira kuHamburg. Asi chekutanga chemamiriro ese ndechekuti marapirwo aya haafanire kunge akanyanya kukunetsa iwe. Monseigneur angade kuti iwe ukwanise kumupa chinyorwa chezvechokwadi chokwadi nezvemwanasikana mutsvene, Hanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu, uye nezvezvakazarurwa zvaakagamuchira. Anonyatsotarisira kuwana mumuviri webasa, uye kunyanya muhupenyu hwake, izvo zvakajairika izvo zvichaita kuti zvizivikanwe; asi dai waiziva vashoma vanomuratidza zviri nani, uye dai vaive vechimiro chekuwedzera humwe huchokwadi kune zvakazarurwa zvemusisita mutsvene uye nemvumo yebasa rinovazivisa, Monsignor aizodzidza kubva kwamuri, changamire. , nechido chikuru, uye waizongoishandisa sezvaunoona zvakakodzera.

Waisagona here kumupawo, ingangoita nguva iyo sisi veKuzvarwa vakaziva kuti basa rawanyora rinofanira kuoneka paruzhinji. Mumwe sisita akasvika achibva kuLondon anotivimbisa kuti hazvina kuvanzika muguta iroro, uye kuti akanzwa zvidimbu zvinoverengeka zvaro zvichiverengwa.

Monsignor anoda kuziva nguva chaiyo yekufa kweMukunda Mutsvene, anonzi pano aripo, izvo zvakaitika risati rapfuura gore. Dai waikwanisa kudzidza mamiriro akange apfuura, akamuperekedza uye nekumutevera, pamwe nekutaura kwaangadai akave nako kwekuda kwaMwari kubva pamakapedza basa reUpenyu hwake uye neZvaakazarurwa, uye kunyanya panguva rufu rwake, waizomanikidza Monseigneur kuti amuzivise nezvazvo; uye kazhinji chose chine chekuita nemuranda mutsvene waMwari, zviratidzo zvake, basa rinozvizivisa, uye nemupristi anoremekedzwa akazvinyora, zvine chekuita nemoyo wese kuna Monsinyori, saka anozvibata kumeso kuti uchagutsikana nemoyo wese sezvaunokwanisa. 

Ndine pfungwa huru uye chido chikuru chekukuzivai, Changamire,

Muranda wenyu akazvininipisa uye anoteerera zvikuru, Abbé De Cugnac,

Vicar General weAire, pakoreji yePaderborn muWestphalia.

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Tsamba yakabva kuna M. Martin, Vicar General weLisieux, kuna M. l'abbé Guillot, akanga amutumira mabhuku gumi namasere ane chinyorwa chokutanga chebasa, achimukumbira kuti amuudze manzwiro aaiita nezvazvo. VaMartin panguva iyoyo vakanga vari mukuru wevaprista veFrance vakanga vaendeswa kuimba yavose yeHeading, uye avo vakanga vatanga kupiwa basa rokutungamirira panhare yeWinchester.

(Yakadhindwa pamavambo.) Changamire,

Manotsi gumi nemasere andiri kukutumirai akatumirwa kwandiri naMademoiselle Magnarama. Ndingadai ndakada kuti munyori atange nekutaura chaiko zvinyorwa zveHanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu, zvakanyorwa zvakanaka kana zvakaipa, kwete kuti ndinokahadzika huchokwadi hwavo, kana kutendeka kwemunyori. Kana riri basa rinorangarirwa pacharo, kunze kwetsananguro shomanene nemifananidzo mishoma inoratidzika kwandiri senhetembo shoma yechidzidzo chakadaro, ndinoiona ichitekenyedza zvakaenzana mumutsa nerunako. Kazhinji, yakanyatsokodzera kuvhenekera pfungwa, kusimudzira mweya, kuibata nekuinyengetedza. Inopa zvikurukuru mifungo yakaisvonaka zvikurusa younhu hwoumwari neChechi yeKaturike. Pasina kupinda mune zvakadzama zvezvinhu zvakasiyana zvainazvo, iyo hapana isina kuratidzwa ipapo nenzira itsva, inokatyamadza, uye inonakidza kwazvo. Mune izwi, iri, mumaonero angu, homwe yakapfuma uye yakawanda, kubva kwaanogona kutora kwete chete pane izvo zvekuzvivaka iwe pachako nekuverenga nekufungisisa pazviri, asiwo pane zvekubatsira mukubatsira kwemweya kweinotevera. .

Heino, changamire, mhedziso yangu mushure mekuverenga nekukasira kwemabhuku aya akasvitswa kwandiri. Zvingave zvinoshuviwa kuti chinyorwa ichi chidhindwe, kuitira mbiri huru yaMwari uye kunaka kwechiverengero chikuru chemweya.

Ini, nekufunga zvine ruremekedzo, Changamire,

Muranda wenyu anozvininipisa uye anoteerera,

Martin, vic. gen.

Kuverenga, Kubvumbi 21, 1802.

Ndichazvibvumira kufungisisa pamusoro petsamba iyi: yakanga isiri Hanzvadzi Yokuzvarwa yakanga yandipa zvinyorwa, sekufunga kwaM. Martin; ndini, pane kudaro, ndakanga ndanyora zvinyorwa pane zvaakanga ataura kwandiri. Ndakanga ndanyora izvi zvinonyorwa kuti zviyamure kuyeuka kwangu, kuti ndisasiya chero chinhu chakakosha, chingave chehurongwa kana chechinhu chezvinhu. Aya manotsi, asina kukwana mazviri pachawo, angadai asina kunyatsonzwisisika kuvaverengi  .

Nokudaro, kuti ndizvitaure mukufamba uye pane dzimwe nguva, ndakanga ndisingakwanisi kubudisa zvinyorwa zvokutanga, izvo vakawanda vaiita sevanoshuva, pasina kukuvadza chisakiso chavose, uye kunyange donzo romunhu aindipomera kuinyora uye kuidudzira pashure pokunge ndapedza. akainzwa zvakanaka, uye kwete kuikopa, kunyange kushoma kuti abudisire veruzhinji izvo zvaizongove zvakamushamisa. Pashure pezvose, zvaiva zvaari kureva kwete mashoko ake zvandaifanira kupa.

Kana kuri kumwe kushorwa kunouya pamaitiro ekunyora, ini ndiri kure nokutenda kuti pane chakaipa pazviri; asi pakupedzisira, zvose izvi inyaya yakachena yekuravira, pamusoro pazvo ndakaona kupesana kwakawanda pakati pevaverengi vemabhuku ezvinyorwa, zvekuti handina kufunga kuti zvakakosha kuita shanduko dzakawanda mukunyora kwangu kwekupedzisira.

CHIREVO chemupepeti.

Vhoriyamu yechina ichapindura zvakakwana kune chishuwo chaVaMartin, sezvo ichidhindwa neshoko uye pasina chero shanduko pakopi yakarairwa naHanzvadzi pachayo, nehurongwa nemazita aakazvisimbisawo.

MACOMMENTS

Pamusoro peHupenyu neZvakazarurwa zvevanodanwa kuti Hanzvadzi yeKuberekwa kwaJesu, vanokurukura sisita pamusangano weUrbanists weFougères; zvichiteverwa nehupenyu hwake hwemukati,

zvakanyorwa kubva kwaari nekuchengeterwa kwezvakazarurwa zvake, uye akadhirowewa kumusoro muLondon, uye munzvimbo dzakasiyana dzekutapwa kwake, 1800.

“ Confiteor tibi, Pater, Domine cœli et terræ, quià abscondisti hœc à sapientibus et prudentibus, et revelasti ea parvulis. ( Mat. 11, 25; Ruka. 10, 21 ) Quæ stulta sunt mundi elegit Deus ut confundat sapientes. ( 1 VaK. 1, 27 . )

Ndiwo magumo echokwadi pasi pano, inofamba kwese-kwese ichiperekedzwa  nekukanganisa, kubva pane dzimwe nguva inoratidzika kunge nhanho chete kubva, uye kazhinji kubva kwazvinotonetsa kuisiyanisa. Chokwadi choruzivo rwokuzviwanira icho nyika yomuviri netsika, iyo rudzidziso rwayo pacharwo runotipa zvibvumikiso zvakawanda zvokuti kwaizova kusingabetseri kugara pairi. Asi kana Mwari, nokuda kwezvikonzero zvinofadza nguva dzose, akabvumira gorosi kusanganiswa nemasora mumunda make, akatipa zviratidzo zvakati kuti tizive chimwe kubva kune chimwe, uye kunaka kwake kunogona chete kubvumira mweya wakarurama unoratidzwa kuti utore nhema. nokuda kwechokwadi, uye pamusoro pezvose izvo zvinongove zvekutamba zvekukanganisa: probate spiritus si ex Deo  sint.

Hungu, uku ndiko kurongeka nourongwa hwokugovera kwake, kunouya kukubetsera utera hwomunhu, asi pasina kutongokuvadza kunaka kwokutenda. Kupfurikidza nomufambiro unoyemurika, Mwari anopa kuchinhu chimwe nechimwe mwero bedzi woufakazi hunokwana nokuda kwamadonzo ake, uye muuyu mwero woufakazi nguva dzose pane zvakakwana kugutsa nokusimbisa mweya wakarurama, unotsvaka zvokwadi nokutenda kwakanaka, sezvakune. nguva dzose zvakakwana kuti scandalize, bofu uye kuomesa ani nani anoda kuva. Qui quœrit legem, replebitur ab eâ, uye qui insidiosè agit scandalisabitur in eâ. ( Mup. 32, 19 ). Pascal anoti, “Muchinamato, zvakakwana

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» zviedza zvevanoshuva kuona chete, uye rima rakakwana kune avo vane pfungwa dzakapesana. Pane chiedza chakakwana kuvhenekera vasanangurwa, uye rima rakakwana kuti rivaninipise. Pane rima rinokwana kupofomadza vakarashwa, uye chiedza chakakwana chokuvapa mhosva nokuvaita kuti vasazvipembedza. ( Mifungo , p. 18, peji 97.)

The Church of J.-C., uye uku ndiko kutaura kwevanyori vayo vezvakaitika kare (somuenzaniso, M. de Bercastel), harina kumbozununguswa nekatyamadzo ipi neipi, zvisinei nechisimba, iyo isina kumboziviswa kare. nevamwe vanhu vatsvene, vane hunhu hunotsigirwa nenyasha, uye zviziviso zvinosimbiswa nechiitiko, nguva dzose zvakaumba musiano unoshamisa nomufambiro wakashata nomutauro wokunyengedzera wavanyengeri avo kazhinji kazhinji vakanyengera chisiko chapose pose. Quoniam akawanda ma pseudoprophetœ anowanikwa munyika.

Irwo, tinotsunga kutaura, betsero iyo muiyi migariro yakaoma runako rwoumwari runobva pakutenda kwavana varwo vanotambudzwa kana kuti papfundo rokutambudzwa. Kukatyamadzwa kwaichangobva kuitwa neChechi ino, uye kwaichiri kusangana nako, kwakanga kusiri kushamisa zvikuru mumusimboti wayo, kana kuita zvechisimba zvishoma mukuuraya kwayo, kana kusanyanya kuipa mumigumisiro yayo, kupfuura chero vakaitangira. Uyewo denga, iro rakabvumira dambudziko rekupedzisira iri, sezvarakabvumira mamwe ose, harina kukundikana kuuya pano zvakare kuzobatsira vakasarudzwa varo, nekuvapa mberi, uye ushingi hwekurwisana nechisimba. scandal,  zivisa.

Pakati pehuwandu hwevanhu avo, panguva dzakasiyana, vakataura nezvazvo nenzira inoita senge yakafuridzirwa, pane mumwe, pakati pevamwe, ane nhoroondo, nguva refu chiitiko ichi chisati chaitika, kwenguva  yakareba ngwariro yavose vakava noruzivo rwazvo, uye vakaratidzika kundangariro dzakangwara uye dzakasimba kuva dzorudzi rwokutsungirira marudzi ose emiedzo yakafanira, uye kuratidza mavara echokwadi anorayira ruremekedzo  .

Mutariri wezvaanovimba nazvo uye ane mutoro wekuzvitumira panguva yakatarwa, maiva kune imwe nyika, sezvaakanga azivisa, kuti ndakazvitaura kuvatungamiriri vakuru vechechi, ndichitevera kurudziro yaakandipa. uye zvaakanga asimbirira pazviri zvakanyanya....

Basa iri saka rakaverengwa nekuongororwa nenhamba huru yevatongi vane hunyanzvi uye vakajekeswa zvikuru avo mavhoti angatora nguva yakareba kuti ataure pano. Vanoverengeka vavo vakandivimbisa kuti vakarirava nomufaro mukurusa uye kuvakwa kukurusa, uye kuti vakaororwa naro kupfuura rimwe bhuku ripi neripi kana kuti kubudiswa kupi nokupi. Vakawanda vakandikumbira kopi, vakainyora pasi kana kuti vakaita kuti inyorwe kuti ishande sokufungisisa kwavo kwenguva dzose; vamwe vakatora zvinyorwa kubva mariri, uye vose vakaita sevanoda kuti ribudiswe, kunyange zvazvo chimiro chechiitiko ichi chinoshamisa chisina kuvabvumira kuwedzera kwairi mvumo yechiremera chavo nekubvumira mazita avo kuti abudiswe zvichienderana nemitongo yakanaka. kurumbidza kwakadzokororwa

zvavakaita nemuromo uye nekunyora. Isu tinogona chete kurumbidza ichi chekuchenjera chekucherechedza, icho chinotya chero nzira ipi neipi kudzivirira zvisarudzo zveChechi mune pfungwa iyo iye ega ane kodzero yekutaura, uye isu hatingaite zviri nani pane kugadzika pamuenzaniso uyu. isu nenhengo dzakatanhamara dzeChechi ino, ine kutonga kunoratidzika sekwakanaka sekunamatira kwavo pakutenda kusingazununguki, uye mufambiro wavo wemuenzaniso wakakodzera kuyemurwa mune zvese.

Nokudaro, kunyange zvazvo nhamba huru kwazvo yevaongorori, pakati pemabhishopi pachavo, yaiita seyakada kuziva kufemerwa naMwari nemunwe waMwari muunganidzwa uyu, digitus Dei est hic., sezvavakadzokorora kazhinji kazhinji, uye kuti, kwakanaka kucherekedza, uku kureurura kwakaitwa kwandiri navakuru vakuru navamwe vanachiremba vakanga vatanga nokureurura kwandiri ruvengo rwavo runodokuva rwusingakundiki rwokubvuma rudzi rupi norupi rwefuridziro itsva; kunyange zvazvo avo avo, avo vairatidzika sevasina kunaka kwairi, havana kumbounza zvinopfuura zvikonzero zvinonyatsoratidza kuti pazasi havana kufunga zvakasiyana, uye kuti vakaramba kujekesa pane kupokana, zvisinei, kuti vasatarisire chero chinhu pfungwa iyi delicate, ndinosiirawo mutongo waro kuvanhu, kusvikira Chechi yataura, kana ikamboita: Probate spiritus si ex Deo sint .

Naizvozvo ndinoganhurira pamvumo yepasi rose, uye pasina ganhuriro ipi neipi, iyo yakapiwa kune kunaka kwebasa mukati mayo, iyo yakatongwa inokwanisa kuita zvinofadza zvikurusa, uye kubereka mumweya zvibereko zvinodikanwa zvikurusa zvokutendeuka. , kufambira mberi noruponeso. Iyi ndiyo, mumaonero angu, iyo chete iyo yakakosha kuti veruzhinji vavimbiswe,  kunyanya tichifunga kuti kudivi redzidziso, semitemo yetsika, zvese zvaiita kunge zviri  kunze .

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kusvika uye nekunyanya kuomarara kwechokwadi. “Basa romu<em>nun waFougères, rakandinyorera misi ichangobva kupfuura iyi mumwe chiremba akakurumbira napurofesa worudzidziso (1), rakaratidzika kwandiri kuva rine dzidziso youmwari yakaisvonaka, tsika dzakapfava uye dzakachena, nheyo huru uye dzakajeka dzomufambiro, uye dzimwe nguva rutongeso. uyo anotaura pakufemerwa kwake; Ndinofunga kuti kuiverenga kuchabatsira zvikuru kune vakatendeka uye kuchavapa kuravira kukuru kwekunaka. »

(1) Baba Pons, mushumiri weparidzi yeMazamet, diocese yeLavaur.

Kutonga kwomumwe chiremba kunongova kutaura kwevamwe vose, uye kwakadzokororwa kwandiri panguva dzakasiyana-siyana uye nenzira dzakasiyana-siyana nenyanzvi dzezvechitendero dzinoziva zvikuru idzi nhau (1); razova kuchema kwapachena kwavese vafundisi, Chirungu nechiFrench zvakafanana, vakariverenga. Ngatiyeukei pano zviremera zvinoremekedzwa zvandadudza muchikamu chakapfuura.

(1) Pakati pevamwe naBaba Barruel.

Kusawirirana kwemavhoti uku, musangano uyu wepfungwa pamusoro penzvimbo huru unondipa chivimbo chakarurama chokuti kugadzirwa kwaidiwa zvikuru rimwe zuva, maererano neziviso yazvinoita, kunobatsira neimwe nzira kumbiri yaMwari uye kuruponeso. yemweya yavanofunga kuti yakatemerwa. Dai chiitiko chacho chisangana netarisiro yedu, uye tariro yedu irege kunyengerwa!

Naizvozvo zvingave, zvakare, zvisingabatsiri zvikuru kupinda muno mudissertation refu pamusoro pechiyero chekutenda icho munhu anofanira kupa kufemero yemusikana uyu anoshamisa (1), pazvikonzero izvo munhu anogona kupa kana kupokana, sepa. mikana yakawanda kana shoma yezvikonzero izvi. Mudzimu Mutsvene, tendai munyori, uchavhenekera mweya yezvakanaka zviri nani kupfuura chero ani zvake pamapfundo ese aya achaverenga, kwete nekuda kwekuda kuziva kuti averenga, achiri mashoma kuwana chimwe chinhu chekutsoropodza, asi nechinangwa chekudzidza, kuvaka, uye unakirwe. Hungu, tinotsunga kutarisira kuti, kungoravawo zvako kwebasa racho, kunoitwa nokururama kwakafanira nokuchena kwevavariro, kuchaita zvakawanda nokuda kwavaravi vakadaro kupfuura zvingataurwa nezvaro; uye nevaya vanoita kuverenga uku vangadai vasina kunyengetedzwa zvingava zvishoma neuchapupu hwavaisazokundikana kukwikwidza uye kunetesa munzira dzose. Nokuti murudzi urwu, uye kunyanya muzana remakore ratiri kurarama mariri, hazvingabviri kupwisa avo vakatsunga kusabvuma chinhu chitsva munhau yezvakazarurwa nezviporofita.

(1) Chokwadi chechakazarurwa chakati hachimbofa chaburitsa kutenda kwechiKatorike kunoda tsananguro, asi kutenda kwakasiyana kwemweya pauri; ndiyo dzidziso yevadzidzisi vose vechitendero, yakavakirwa pakunyora uye muenzaniso wevatsvene vakati wandei vekare uye vemutemo mutsva. Abrahama anorumbidzwa nokuda kwokutenda mukufuridzirwa kunokosha kwoumwari. Baba vaJohane mubhabhatidzi vakarangwa nokuda kwokusatenda shoko rengirozi, uye tinoona kuti Jesu Kristu akamuka kuvakafa anotsiura zvikuru vadzidzi vake nokuda kwokusatenda muuchapupu hwavakadzi vatsvene vakanga vaona mushure mokumuka kwake. Sulti uye tardi tambo ad credendum! (Ruka, ndima 24, 25).

MuKristu anonzwisisa uye akatendeka anofanira zvakadaro kufunga kuti zviporofita zvekare izvi zvinozivisa zvitsva kusvika nguva dzekupedzisira dzeChechi. Ivimbiso yakaitwa naMwari kwaari, uye chipo chokuprofita chakapiwa kwaari sezvishamiso, kwenguva isingaperi. Naizvozvo kunenge kuri kunyomba kune wekutanga kuramba vamwe pasina kuongorora. Simba roumwari harina kusungwa chero nguva ipi zvayo: zvose zvaraikwanisa kare, richiri kugona kuita; uye zvamazvirokwazvo hationi chikonzero nei, apo mamiriro mamwe chetewo anodzoka, Kugovera kwoumwari kusingafaniri kumutsidzira uporofita nezvishamiso zvenguva dzokutanga, apo pamberi pameso edu kunovandudza nenzira inokatyamadza kusimba kwose kwavareurura vokutanga noushingi hwose. uye kusatya kwevakafira kutenda kwekutanga. Asi kune pfungwa dzine rusaruro zvekuti vakatora chikamu chavo chisingachinjiki pane zvese izvi; hazvaigona kunyengedza, uye zvichida kune ngozi kuzviita; zviri nani kuvarega vachiwanda munzira yavo  .

Zvingava zvakadaro, kana basa riri kutaurwa richibva kuna Mwari, rinogona kuita zvachose pasina kutenderwa nevanhu uye richazvitsigira pacharo pasinei nezvose zvingaitwa kuti riparadzwe; nekuti ndiani angadzima mavara asingadzimiki ayo anodhindwa nemunwe waJehovha pane zvese zvaanoita? Ndiani angaisa chipingamupinyi pakuda kwake? Naizvozvo zviri pamusoro pake chete kuti tinofanira kuvimba, uye izvi ndizvo zvandiri kunyatso sarudza, ndisingadi kuraira kutonga kweumwe munhu, kana kuzvinetsa ini pachangu pamusoro pemafungiro asina kunaka anoratidzika kune imwe nzvimbo yakaoma kwazvo kuyananisa pakati pavo : necessariis unitas, in dubiis libertas, in omnibus charitas; anodaro Baba veChechi, Musande Augustine.

Ichokwadi, uye ichi chirambidzo icho pasina mubvunzo chichaitwa kwandiri, kuti munzvimbo dzakawanda fungidziro dzangu dzinoratidza nzira yangu yekufunga nezvechinyorwa, uye kuti iro iro musoro webasa, pamwe neiyo epigraph, zvichingodaro. , ratidza zvakakwana kuti handisi munhu asina basa nazvo, uye kuti ndinorangarira kufuridzirwa kwasisita sekwechokwadi.

Handidi kuzvivanza; hey! sei, shure kwezvose, ndisingafaniri kunakidzwa

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Pane rusununguko rupi norupi rwandakapiwa navatongi varwo vose here, uye rwandinosiira muravi mumwe nomumwe, kuti afunge nezvarwo sezvaanoda? Kwose kwose, ndinoreurura, ndakataura kubva mukunyengetedzwa kwepedyo uko ukama hwakandiisa uko vamwe vasina kuzviwana vamene mune izvi; asi sezvinobvira kuti ndakakanganisa, uye kuti ndiri kukanganisa pane izvi, handioni mune izvo kunyengetedza uku, izvo zvakanyanya kwandiri sevamwe vazhinji vane hunyanzvi, uye pasina izvo ndingadai ndisina kumboita basa rakadaro. , zvingamanikidza muravi musengwa wokufunga seni, kana asingazvifungi zvakakodzera, uye kana asingaoni  zvikonzero zvakakwana nazvo mune zvaanenge averenga. Wese munhu ane nzira yake yekufunga nekutora zvinhu, 

Nokudaro, mukupa nhoroondo dzeSista pamusoro pezvakazarurwa zvake, uye nekutarisa kwekufemerwa naMwari, handichatauri kuti ndinosarudza kutonga kweruzhinji pamubvunzo uyu kupfuura zvandinoreva kuti ndinodzivirira iyo yeChechi pahutsvene. uyu mweya wakanaka, uye kufanomuita mutsvene, pandinomuti Mukunda Mutsvene . Aya mazwi, sezvatinoziva, haafaniri kutorwa zvakasimba. Chii chiri chokwadi, ndechekuti ini handisi ndega wemafungiro angu pachinhu chiri mubvunzo, uye kuti maonero akapesana ari kure nekuve nemavhoti akafanana. . Hazvingambotaurwi kuti paiva nemafungiro mashomanana aipikisa pakati pevaongorori.

Ini ndinogona kutsoropodzwa nekuda kwenhepfenyuro, yakarebesa kunyanya mukutanga, kudzokorora, nezvimwe. Kune iyo heino mhinduro yangu, ndinoda kuti igutse pfungwa dzose: 1 ° handina mubvunzo kuti kunyora kwangu kuzere nezvikanganiso, izvo pamusoro pezvose zvandinazvo; 2 ° zvakakosha kuyeuka kuti haisi mubvunzo pano webasa rakaitwa kufadza pfungwa kuburikidza nekuziva uye nenyanzvi dissertations, inoumbwa maererano nemitemo yekuravira. Irwo rudzi rwechinyorwa chinoomerera uye chetsika, apo munhu anofungidzira, apo munhu anodavira kuti Mwari amene anorayiridza vanhu nezvokwadi dzakasimba, dzinoiswa mukati mokusvikwa navose uye dzakarongwa nenzira yakadaro kuti inobatwa navose. , kuvanyevera. pamusoro pezvikanganiso uye zvinonyadzisa zvenguva yekupedzisira, vari kuuya uye zvichida vasiri kure nesu sezvaungafungidzira; Apocalypse itsva, kana munhu achigona kutaura kudaro, umo, panguva yechimurenga cheFrance, J.-C. anozivisa, anofumura kumweya une ropafadzo, uye nokuda kwezvakanaka zvavose, zvinotangira uye migumisiro yokutonga kwaShe. muvengi wake mukuru, nenhevedzano yose yezvitambudzo nemadambudziko izvo zvinofanira kuvhiringa Chechi yake kusvika panguva dzekupedzisira dzenguva yayo; heino hurongwa hwatiri ipapo uye nenhevedzano yose yekutambudzwa nemadambudziko ayo anofanira kuvhiringa Chechi yake kusvika panguva dzekupedzisira dzenguva yayo; heino hurongwa hwatiri ipapo uye nenhevedzano yose yekutambudzwa nemadambudziko ayo anofanira kuvhiringa Chechi yake kusvika panguva dzekupedzisira dzenguva yayo; heino hurongwa hwatiri ipapo present.

Zvino, munhu anonzwa zvakajeka kuti basa remhando iyi haringave nechinhu chakafanana neinovhero yemweya, yakanyorerwa nyanzvi chete, kana ne

mitemo yedzidzo, yandisina tarenda kana kunyepedzera kutevedzera. Mwari paanoita zvakawanda zvokutaura nevanhu, ndizvo zvavanoda zvaanobvunza, uye kwete zvavanoda, zvinovafadza kana zvavanofarira. Anoratidza kuda kwake kwavari nenzira yaanoda uye iyo inonyanya kukosha kwavari, pasina kodzero yavo yekuzvitsvakira mhosva, kana kuda kuchinja chero chinhu.

Nokuda kwavamwe, kana tichida kuripa ngwariro, tichabvumirana nyore nyore, sezvakaita vanoverengeka, kuti harisati richitongoda rimwe bhuku zvichida zvimwe mavambo kuti anzwisiswe zvakanaka, uye kuti, kure nokundiita mhosva imwe, muravi anoda kuziva. kudzidza kubva pasi pechinhu ichi, ndinogona kungotenda kwandiri nekuisa pamberi pemeso ake nzira chete yekuitonga zvakanaka.

Kunze kwehupenyu hweHanzvadzi, iyo, kunyangwe yakapfupikiswa, yaifanira kunge ichitora imwe nzvimbo, kunze kwemamiriro asingadzivisike akaenzana ezvinyorwa zvekutanga zvakanyorwa makore anopfuura makumi matatu apfuura, ndaifanira, kumusimbisa, kukurukura nekugadzirisa. matambudziko ese eSista, kana kuti zvese zvipikiso nemakakatanwa ayo dhimoni rakaedza kumuvhiringidza nekumubvisa pachirongwa chake, sezvatichaona.

Zvaida kupfupisa zvese izvozvo, uchati? Kugona chose. Saka takazviita zvakanyanya sezvataifunga; asi iwe zvakare waifanira kungwarira kuti usapfupisa zvakanyanya, uye iwe unobvuma kana iwe uchida kuzviisa iwe pachako munzvimbo yangu kwekanguva uye kuona chinhu sezvachinofanira kutariswa. Nokuti, pakupedzisira, kana kuti ndaifanira kunyararidza

zvirambidzo kubva kuHanzvadzi, kana kubva kumuvengi wake, uko kwaizova kusavimbika kusingakanganwirwi; kana kuti ndinofanira, mukuvazivisa, nditaurewo nekururama kwakafanana mhinduro dzakapiwa kwavari, uye zvikonzero, zvinenge zvikuru, izvo pfungwa dzeSista dzakadzikamiswa nazvo. Anenge asiri iye ega mweya unozotaurirwa zvirambidzo zvakafanana, uye anogona kumiswa ipapo, sekuonekwa kwazvakaita kubva mukufunga kwakaitwa kwandiri, uye kwaingova kudzokorora kwadzo; zvikonzero zvakasarudza zvingangozvisarudzira, se

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zvaitika kanopfuura kamwe pakuziva kwangu.

Zvakare vatongi vakanaka vakatarisa pane ese aya ekutanga sedombo rinokosha uye rinokosha rechivako chose. Vakaita nyaya yacho mukuenzanisa

kuti vakazviita kubva pabasa racho pacharo. Ndinobvuma, zvisinei, kuti muzvinhu zvose kureba kwakanyanyisa uye kunonetesa kunofanira kudziviswa, zvose zvingava zvisina maturo kana zvakanyanyisa; asi hazvisi nenhamba yemapeji, tinofanira kutonga nezvinhu zvaari. Kutaura kwakareba zvikuru kungave kuchiri kupfupika, kungofanana nokupfupika zvikuru kungave kuchiri kurebesa. Zvisinei nekuti ndeipi nzira, chokwadi ndechekutaura zvinhu sezvazvaitika, uye kwete neimwe nzira. Kunze kwezvo, mubasa rakadai, handioni kuti chikonzero chechipiri kana chechitatu, kana chakanaka, chingakuvadza sei chokutanga chapiwa. Ndiwo muenzaniso uyo Mwari pachake anotipa munzvimbo dzine chiuru muMagwaro Matsvene,

Handizvo zvoga, uye handikwanisi kupedza nhaurirano iyi ndisati ndatsanangura kamwe chete uye zvachose, kuti ndisazodzokera kwairi, kuti manotsi emuunganidzwa akatorwa sei, uye kuti ndinonyora sei. Nekutsanangurirwa uku kwakapfava uye kusina maturo, ndichadzivirira churu chemibvunzo iyo munhu angabvunza, uye churu chemhedziso dzenhema dzinogona kutorwa nemunhu; Ndichapa kururamisira kwandinofanira kuita kuchokwadi icho Mwari anoziva, uye ndichaisa vese vakuru vechechi nevanhu vese vane vavariro dzakanaka kuti vakwanise kutonga zvine hungwaru pachinhu chakakosha kuchinhu chacho. Ichi ndicho chinangwa chandagara ndichizviitira.

Naizvozvo ndinotsinhira kuti nyaya dzinoumba muunganidzwa uyu dziri kure nekutaurirwa kwandiri shoko neshoko sedingindira remwana wechikoro. Kutarisira kwangu kwese, sekweHanzvadzi iyi, kwaive kuzviunza mune zvayaireva, kwete matauriro ake, ayo kazhinji aive asiri echiFrench.

Iwe unogara uchitaura zviri nani kupfuura ini, chero uchindinzwisisa , aigara achinditi: saka kune izvo zvakanyanya isu takazvishandisa pachedu mune mamwe ese ekubvunzurudza kwedu! uye akandipupurira kanopfuura kamwe kuti ndakabudirira mazviri, zvokuti hakuna munhu, pasina kunyange kunze kwaM. Audouin, akanga asina kumunzwisisa zvakanaka kudaro. Zvandinodzokorora chete kusimbisa zvishoma, kana zvichibvira, mweya inotya inobata kubvunda padanho rega rega randakatsauka kubva kune revo yechokwadi. Hapana chikonzero pano chekudzivirira, kana kutya kutya, kana kunyara zvakanyanya. Kana riri basa raMwari, ngativei nechokwadi chokuti Kugovera kwake kunenge kwagovera nokuda kwechinhu chiri chose.

Ichokwadi zvisinei kuti muzvinhu zvakawanda ndaive nezvakawanda zvekunyora pasi pechirevo cheSista, kana munhu achigona kutaura kudaro. Kunze kwekutaura kwaakashandisa sokunge kuti kunobva kuna Mwari, uye kwaakandirayira kuti ndishandise, ndaifanira kunyora chikamu chikuru kwazvo, uye sezvingabvira, chemashoko makuru aya ane chokuita nounhu hwoumwari, chisiko, Chechi, purigatori,

gehena, kuguma kwenyika, kuguma kwevana vaduku, chimurenga chedu, uye zviratidzo zvose izvo Mwari akanga amuratidza nazvo zvikonzero nemigumisiro....

Saka ndakanyora, nekuti ndinonzwa mushe kuti mune zvese izvi, kana nyasha kana mazwi aikwanisa kugadzirisa zvinhu zvikuru zvaakataura kwandiri, uye handina kuvimba nendangariro dzangu zvekuti ndakazvivimbisa kusasiya chero chinhu chakakosha. Saka ndaifanira kunyora; asi, kure nekukudza nzvimbo idzi chaidzo, sekufunga kungangoita munhu, munhu anoona, kana mumwe akange anzwa Hanzvadzi yacho pachayo, kuti ini handina kuita zvakawanda kupfuura kutora mamiriro uye quintessence yezvaaindiudza.

Ndine zvakatowanda zvaakandiita kuti ndinyore mushure naSuperior (1), nekuti aingoda kuzvitorera dambudziko, aisungirwa kunyora zvese zvaitaurwa nasisi kuti vanzwikwe navo, uye akandipinza mukati. kusvika pakumutenda mukunyora kwangu: izvo zvakabvisa mazwi mazhinji andaifanira kupfupisa. Asi ruzivo rweSista, kunyangwe dzimwe nguva rwakareba zvishoma, rwagara ruchiratidzika kwandiri serunonakidza kumamiriro ezvinhu, uye dzimwe nguva kunyangwe nemaitiro, zvekuti mune zvakawanda ndinotya kunge ndaita zvakawandisa pane zvakawandisa. cuts. Zvakadaro, aya ndiwo maitikiro azvakaita zvese, kunyanya zvine chekuita neruzivo rwaiita serunoda kushomeka,

(1) Hakusi kurova kweProvidence here kuti handisi ndega ndakatora zvinyorwa zvekutanga? Mwari akachibvumira, pasina panikiro, kugovera hunenge humwezve uchapupu kuzvokwadi inokosha yebasa raakadeya kuona raizofanira kurwiswa kubva pahwaro chaihwo. Izvi zvakakwana kubvisa kusava nechokwadi kwekutenda kwakanaka; zvakakwana, uye kunaka kwaMwari hakuna chimwezve chikwereti.

Hanzvadzi iyi dzimwe nguva yaitaura kwenguva refu ndisina chandaiita kunze kwekunyatsoteerera, sezvavaikurudzira. Zvino, mushure memaminetsi matanhatu kana masere apedzerwa nenzira iyi, ndiko kuti, mushure mekunge chidzidzo chacho chave chakanyatsogadziriswa nenzira yaro, ipapo ndikamukumbira kuti amire, kana kuti akandibvunza kana ndaiva nezvakanaka.

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Tarirai , Baba vangu , vati kwandiri, Ndizvo zvinondiratidza Mwari, kuti imwi munzwisise zvazvinoreva. Pamusoro peizvi ndakanyora mitsetse misere kana gumi mumanotsi

yakapfupikiswa, yandakazoverengera zvishoma nezvishoma kuna Hanzvadzi, vakateerera kwandiri nokungwarira; akandifungira ipapo: Zvakanaka, zvakanaka, Baba , vaiwanzonditi, muripo , mataura zviri nani kupfuura zvandaita; asi pamusoro pezvose ndinoona kuti muri mupfungwa yechokwadi yechiedza chinondivhenekera uye chinonditungamirira... Bata zvakasimba, uye usabuda mazviri paunenge uchishanda pane zvinyorwa zvako....

Pane dzimwe nguva aindiudza kuti ndakanga ndisati ndasvika, uye kuti akaona musiyano pakati pezvinoreva chokwadi nenzira yangu yokuchidudzira nayo; asi handirangariri kuti akambondiudza kuti ndakanga ndaenda nenzira yaipesana nerake. Zvisinei, chinhu chiri chose chaigadziridzwa kazhinji kazhinji nokuchinja kwetemu imwe chete, uye ndakarega bedzi pashure pokunge andibvumira, achindiudza kuti ndakanga ndiri mupfungwa yechokwadi yaakapiwa naMwari. Akandiudzawo, pane dzimwe nguva, kuti zvaakaona zvaive zvakangofanana nezvandakanga ndataura pazuva rakadaro panzvimbo yakadaro mukuraira kwangu nezvenyaya yakadai, uye kuti ndingadai ndakatora mukana iwoyo. mazano mukunyora kwangu, nezvimwe ....

Saka zvese zvaive pakati peSista neni mune kumwe kutengeserana kwemifungo kudivi ravo, nematauriro pane angu; mutsamba dzakadaro, ndaisafanira, ndingadai ndisina kuda kufunga pasina iye, uye kwaiwanzoratidzika kwandiri kuti angadai akava nechinetso chikuru mukutaura mifungo yake ndisipo. Zvitore sezvaunoda, Mwari vangangove vaine zvikonzero zvavo zvekuraira kuti zvidaro, kana kungonyadzisa vese vari vaviri. Asi dzimwe nguva aimukurudzira kutaura chaiko, uye pakanga pasisina tsvakiridzo yaifanira kuitwa, aitofanira kusiyana nazvo. namatira kunguva yakatarwa, iyo yaigara yakachena uye yakanakisisa yaigona kushandiswa. Kazhinji aifunga pasina kutaura; asi chinoshamisa ndechekuti dzimwe nguva zvaiitika kuti aite matauriro nepfungwa iyi asina kufanira. Aya ndiwo chaiwo mabudiro akaita zvinyorwa zvekutanga izvo vamwe vaverengi vaiita sevanoshuva; asi zviri pachena kuti kwaizova kusina maturo kuabudisa, achiripo; uye chikonzero chacho ndechokuti kwaizova kusingabviri kuaverenga, uyezve zvikuru kuona mazviri nhevedzano yakati, iyo inongowanikwa bedzi mukunyora. Naizvozvo zvingava nyore kufungidzira kuti pane zvese izvo munhu aida, kuti asatenda chero chinhu icho munhu aisatombogona kududzira. born

hunogona kupa humbowo hupi nohupi hwouchapupu, uye kudiwa kwokusindimara kwahwo kungaratidzika kuva mugumisiro wenzira yokuzvidzivirira ine vavariro yakaipa zvikuru kupfuura yokungwarira.

Zvino tinofanira kufungidzira kuti kunyora kunofanira kunge kwakaitwa mumweya mumwechete uye kutya kumwe chete kwekutsauka kubva pachirongwa uye pfungwa dzechokwadi dzeSista; asi kana, mukunyora, dzimwe nguva ndakatora kubva kumisimboti yedzidziso yebhaibheri, kana kunyange kubva kumamiriro angu chaiwo, zvakakwana kutsiva zvaakanga andiudza uye zvandisina kukwanisa kunyora, neshoko rimwe chete, zvokumupa. pfungwa dzakakwana uye budiriro inodiwa yaakandiraira kuti ndivape, nguva dzose ndichitevera gwara rimwe chete, ndinotenda kuti mune izvi ndangozadzisa basa rangu, kure nekutsauka kubva pazviri. uye kunyangwe zvese izvo zvisina kuverengerwa mune iyo pfungwa yekuzvinyora, ndine chokwadi, pasina kupokana, kuti zvese izvo zvakabatanidzwa mune pfungwa yemunhu akandiraira kuti ndinyore. Saka kuunganidza, sezvazviri, maonero echokwadi, chero kusvika pandaikwanisa; zvinyorwa zvekutanga zvaizovakanganisa chete  .

Naizvozvo, mukutaura kwechimiro namashoko, zvinhu zvitatu zvokurangarira mumuunganidzwa: 1° kutaura kunonzi kuna Mwari amene, kana kuti kunoshandiswa sokunobva kuna J.-C.; 2* mashoko eHanzvadzi, pandinowedzera zvose zvandakamuverengera, nezvaakatendera; 3° zvese zvangu, ndinoreva zvese zvandaifunga kuti zvakakosha kuti ndipe iyo yese kurongeka uye kumwero wakati munzira imwe chete; asi zvose izvi zvakapindirana mubasa zvokuti muzvinhu zvizhinji ndaizozviwana zvakaoma kuzvinzwisisa pachangu, uye ndinofunga kuti zvingava nyore kuti mumwe munhu upi noupi akanganisa. Avo, naizvozvo, avo vakacherekedza uye vachipokana kuti kwakanga kuri kwese kwese chimiro chimwe chete uye kutendeuka kwakafanana, havana kuwana chikuru kuwana mune izvi, uye munhu haaone kuti ndeipi fungidziro isingafadzi inogona kutora kubva pairi. Ndiwo maitiro akafanana kwese kwese, ndeemuzvarirwo uye hazvigone kuitika neimwe nzira; nokuti chokwadi ndimo mune mudzimu mumwe chetewo unotaura nomutezo mumwe chetewo; kwose kwose murume mumwe cheteyo anonyora, uye pakanga pasisina chikonzero chokuchinja chimiro kupfuura kuchinja ruoko.

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Naizvozvo poindi yaizova, kutaura chimwe chinhu, kuratidza kuti ndakanga ndisina kunyatsobata kana kupa pfungwa dzake, kuti mumisangano yakawanda ndakanga ndatsauka kubva pamaonero ake uye magadzirirwo ake. Zvose izvi, pasina kupokana, zvinogoneka; asi kuti uzviratidze waizofanira kutanga wazvinzwa iwe pachako: chechipiri, unotofanira kuratidza kuti ungadai wakainzwisisa kupfuura zvandaikwanisa; kusvika ipapo njere dzinofunga kuti tinofanira kunamatira kune yangu

uchapupu sehuya hweHanzvadzi, nokuti kufungidzira kwose kuri maererano neuyo asiri iye ega aizvinzwa, asiwo akanga asingakwanisi kubva kwaari, uye akazvipa mhosva pachake kududzira uye kuita kuti ataure kune vanozotevera. . Naizvozvo hakuna imwe nzira yokudenha chipupuriro chake kunze kwokuratidza kuti anohukweretesa mutauro unopokanidzana, unorwisana nezvishuvo zvoumwari, kumitemo nezvisarudzo zveChechi; pakupedzisira haana kufanira iye anozviita kuti ataure. Izvi, ndinotenda, ndizvo izvo murume ane njere anofanirwa kufunga nezvake uyo anoda kuzvidzidzisa uye kwete  kuita nharo.

Zvinenge zvichitevera, zvinogona kutaurwa, kuti iwe pachako wakafuridzirwa, kana kuti wakagamuchira rudzi rwekusakanganisa kwekunyora uku, pamwe chete nemhinduro dzako kune  Chitendero  . Iye

zvose zvinotevera zvichatevera: nokuti ini handidi kupinda mumifungo inogona kuitwa, kana mumigumisiro inogona kukweverwa. Ndinongotaura chete kuti, kure nekuva nekodzero ipi zvayo kwazviri, ndinozviona kuti handikodzeri kuitirwa nyasha dzakadaro; asi zvakare, ini ndichawedzera pamwe chete kutendeseka uye chete naivete, kuti panguva yakaipisisa, kana kamwe isu kufungidzira kuti denga akavapa mweya uyu wakanaka nokuda zvakanaka Chechi, sei, nokuda kwezvikonzero zvakafanana, taisagona kufungidzira kuti angadai akapawo rubatsiro rwakati pasina, zvikurukuru, kubasa duku reuyo waakadana kuti aribetsere? Zvinoita sendiri kuona zvakafanira mariri; uye kana ndichinge ndaratidza chiridzwa chakashata, chisina simba, uye chinoshoreka mazviri. ndizvo chaizvo izvo Mwari anowanzo shandisa mumamiriro ezvinhu akadaro, izvo zvaanoda kune vamwe vese, zvinoratidzika kwandiri kuti munhu anogona kuzvitenda kwandiri kupfuura chero ani zvake. Ndiro chete zita randinaro rechinhu ichi, zita rekuti zvingave zvakaipa chaizvo kundikwikwidza, uye kuti hapana anozofunga kundiitira shanje. Ndiyo yese mhinduro yangu pachinhu ichi.

Handisi kuziva, uyezve, kuti kuzivisa basa rakafuridzirwa naMwari, kana kuti somuuyo wezvakavanzika zvomweya uyo denga rinorairidza uye rinofarira, kwakafanana nokuzvipa umene kutsigira zvose izvo iri zita rinoorora. Sezvo pasina, uye hapangavi nechiremera chitsvene kupfuura icho chaMwari, kana chero mvumo inoyera kupfuura iyo inobva

chiremera ichi, hapana zvakare apo munhu ane kodzero yekukumbira humbowo hwakaomarara asati akanda mapfumo pasi: hapana kana imwe iyo munhu anofanira kungwarira kushamisika; zvimwe ndizvo zvatisingazopotsa, tinofanira kuzvitarisira, uye tinozvitarisira, kunyanya kune rimwe boka revaverengi, avo, pasina kuva nechitendero chakawanda zvichida, havazombofi vakakanganisa kutenda chikonzero Mwari vakakanganisa nekugadzirwa kwerudzi urwu, uye vanozotakura hupofu kusvika pakuzvinyengetedza kuti varwire kufunga uye kutenda, ivo vachingodzivirira zvido zvekusatenda uye zvishuwo, izvo basa rinorwisa nekuparadza mune zvese. nzira.

Mamiriro ekutanga ayo pasina mubvunzo achadikanwa usati watenda mukufemerwa uku ichava ruzivo rwemutemo, kana nzira yepamutemo, inosimbisa chokwadi chayo. At least ndozvandabvunzwa. Kune izvi ndinopindura kuti, muchiitiko chakadaro, hazvina kumboshandiswa zvakadaro, izvo zvaisagona kuratidza chinhu, sezvo chinoitika pakati pemweya naMwari chisingagoni kuva mutoro weuchapupu hwekunze, kana yehukama hwepfungwa dzemuviri. Nokudaro mhemberero iyi inenge isina maturo; havana kumbobvira vafemerwa vanhu vakaunza humwe huchokwadi hwemashoko avo kunze kwemazwi avo chaiwo, kana chero mumwe mutsigiri wezviporofita zvavo kunze kwekuita kwavo. Kunoratidzika, zvamazvirokwazvo, kuti izvi ndizvo izvo Mwari amene anoderedza ufakazi hwose hwatinofanira kurayira.Propheta qui vaticinatus est pacem, cùm venerit verbum ejus, sawtur propheta quem misit Dominus in veritate. ( Jer. 28 ) Zvino ngatinzverei, uye toenzanisa zvinoziviswa nezvatakaona nezvatinoona, handidaviri kuti pfundo riri kutaurwa rinogona kubvumikiswa zviri nani.

Kana iri vimbiso ichange ichiri kudiwa, kuti zviziviso zviri kutaurwa zvakaziviswa kwandiri ndisati ndaenda, hapana chandaikwanisa kuunza pano kupfuura uchapupu hwevaongorori vandakataura kwavari pakutanga kwekutapwa kwangu, uye vanogona kupupura kuti vakaverenga muJersey zviziviso zvimwe chete izvi kubva pakutanga kwa1792; saka dzinofanira kunge dzakaitwa kare. Kana vari vamwe, kana Ruvimbo akasanditendera kuwana ndiri mupenyu, kana hanzvadzi, kana mumwe wavanhu vaiva naye.

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ruzivo rwechokwadi chataurwa, pane chikonzero chekufungidzira kuti hauzove nechimwe chinhu chine chokwadi pachinhu ichi kunze kweuchapupu hwangu, uhwo huchagara huri sezvandakahuisa. Zvichava kwauri kuona kana zvakafanira, kana kuti kwete, zvengwariro yako, usingatarisiri, kuti utore rutivi, chizaruro chitsva, chizaruro chomunhu oga chokuti Mwari haana mungava newe, uye kuti zvimwe haangadaro . hazvibvumire.

Naizvozvo ucharambira here, nokuda kwechikonzero ichocho, usina vavariro ipi neipi inokwanisa kukusarudzira, sokunge kuti chinhu chiri chose chaifanira kutsamira pamamiriro ezvinhu chaiwoiwo chaiwo, asingawanzozivikanwi kuzvokwadi yezvinhu, uye izvo zvisingagoni kuunza chinjo ipi neipi mazviri? Funga zvakare, muverengi, uye uve nechokwadi chokuti Mwari, uyo ane nzira inopfuura imwe yokusimbisa nayo basa rake, achave akarigovera, kupfurikidza nokugovera kushaikwa kwechokwadi chokunze nezvibvumikiso zvakatorwa muchinhu icho chimene. Hongu, ndinoshinga kukuvimbisai, kana ndine pfungwa yakanaka pamusoro pazvo, zviri mubasa racho pacharo umo munhu achawana humbowo uhwu huri kunze kwemaitiro ese ekunze, humbowo uhwu husingagoni kuchinjwa kana kunyengedzwa; Ndinogona kutaura kuti chiratidzo chehuMwari, nguva dzose yakakwana kugadzirisa pfungwa dzakarurama, mweya wakarurama, unotsvaka chokwadi nekutenda kwakanaka,Rationabile obsequium vestrum. (VaR. 12, 1.)

Tatozvitaura, chero bhuku rinozvizivisa pacharo pasi pechiratidzo rine ngozi yokufemerwa, inofanira kunge, pakurwadziwa kwokuzvidzwa nevoruzhinji, kupa ufakazi hunotsigira hune chikonzero chakanaka chinogona kuzivisa. Hapana chinhu chakanaka kupfuura chikumbiro chinoitwa nemunhu pazviri: zvakare, ndinochidzokorora, ndinoshinga kukuvimbisa kuti munhu achagutsikana nedivi rino, nekuverenga basa racho pacharo, kunyanya kana, pachinzvimbo che s Kumira pane vashoma vari voga. ruzivo, pamaminetsi mashoma uye mamiriro ekuwedzera, apo kupokana nemhinduro kwaisazombopera, tinozviona mumamiriro ezvinhu uye kubva pakuona kwazvinofanira kutariswa. Kana, takavhara maziso, tinoongorora kuti zvinhu zvikuru zvinotaurwa ipapo zvinobva kupi, uye izwi rokuti zvinopera, chii chiri hunhu hwemunhu anotaura, hasha dzeunhu hwake, matauriro aanoita, furemu yaanopa. , kusiyana-siyana uye kukwidziridzwa kwezvinhu zvarinombundira, mabatiro azvinoita, uye pamusoro pemagumo ose arinoronga mazviri, zvichabva zvaita sezvakanaka uye zvine musoro here? Zvichaita sezvinogoneka here kufunga kuti kugadzirwa kwakadai kungave mhedzisiro yemafungiro asina kurongeka, zvisingaite, asina simba, asina chokwadi, uye anowanzo kupesana, yeasingazivi akasiiwa ari oga, uye asingakwanisi kuzviwanira pachake pasina nzira yakakwana, pasina chikonzero chakafanana. mhedzisiro yakadaro; nokuti shure kwezvose, haisi nyaya yekufungidzira kusina maturo, kana kubhadhara nemashoko kugadzirwa kwakadaro kunogona kuva mugumisiro wezvisingabatanidzi, zvisingakoshi, zvisina simba, zvisinganyatsozivikanwi, uye zvinowanzopokana pfungwa, yeasingazivi akasiiwa ari oga, uye asingakwanisi kuzviwanira pachake chero nzira yakakwana, chero chikonzero chinoenderana nekuita kwakadaro; nokuti shure kwezvose, haisi nyaya yekufungidzira kusina maturo, kana kubhadhara nemashoko kugadzirwa kwakadaro kunogona kuva mugumisiro wezvisingabatanidzi, zvisingakoshi, zvisina simba, zvisinganyatsozivikanwi, uye zvinowanzopokana pfungwa, yeasingazivi akasiiwa ari oga, uye asingakwanisi kuzviwanira pachake chero nzira yakakwana, chero chikonzero chinoenderana nekuita kwakadaro; nokuti shure kwezvose, haisi nyaya yekufungidzira kusina maturo, kana kubhadhara nemashoko kusakosha.

Kana mweya wakanaka uyu waizova neshungu sezvaanozvininipisa uye anonyara; apo anenge aine hunyanzvi sezvaanozvininipisa uye ari kure nekunyepedzera kwese; pakupedzisira, pazvinenge zvichikwanisika kusanganisa pamwe chete, uye mumunhu mumwechete, hunhu uye hunhu sezvisingawirirane uye zvinopokana sezviri pachena seizvo izvo munhu angazomufungira, ndinobvunza kana iri gungano rinoshamisa, iro pamwe munhu asati amboona. semuenzaniso, waizomupa ruzivo rwaasingakwanise kuva narwo, uye hudzamu hwezvidzidzo zvouMwari zvaasingakwanisi. Ngatipindurei; zvakakwana here kuva nechido chekutsausa veruzhinji kuti vabudirire mazviri kusvika pakadai?

Mwari angazvibvumira here, uye pane humbowo here? Ngatitsvagei pakati pevanyengeri nevanyengeri avo nyika yakanyengerwa nezvavo, mumwe munhu, pasina dzimwe nzira dzevanhu, akagadzira mumhando imwe chete basa rinogona kufananidzwa neiri, uye nhevedzano yeumbowo hunogona kupinda mukati. parallel... Chii chiri chokwadi ndechekuti ini hapana chandinoziva, uye kuti vaongorori vakabvuma kwandiri kanopfuura kamwe kusakwanisa kuiwana. Ava vanyengeri, ndinobvuma, zvisinei, vakazvipa senhume dzaMwari. Kusvikira panguva iyoyo, hapana chingave chiri nyore, uye zvinhu zvose zvakaenzana kumativi ose; asi humbowo hupi hwavakatisiira hwebasa ravo? Iyi ndiyo chaiyo pfungwa inosarudza uye inofanira kuongororwa,

Tichava nerubatsiro here, kutsanangura chinhu, kumoyo munyoro unodziyirwa nemuto werudo rwehumwari, kufungidziro ine upenyu uye nekusimudzirwa nekufungisisa kwakadzama pachokwadi chikuru chechitendero?... Asi pane Pane aifunga chaizvo pa akaita fungidziro yakadaro kwandiri? Pamwe kukwidziridzwa uku kunobva kumasimba echisikigo, kana kunobva kuna Mwari, kana kunobva kuna dhiabhorosi: hapana nzvimbo yepakati. Kana ichibva kumasimba echisikigo chete, tinotsigira kusakwana kwayo nokuda kwezvikonzero zvakatopiwa. Kana riri iro basa remaoko aMwari rinorinakidza uye rinorifambisa, ndiko kungofungidzira kwatinoita isu pachedu. Kana zvichibva kuna dhiabhorosi, tinokumbira avo vanofunga kudaro kuti vatiudze: 1° sei Mwari, asina kumbobvumira kukanganisa kukunda chokwadi kune

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bvumira mweya uyu wakanaka kuve wakagara nguva dzose, uye pasina mhosva yake, akanyengedzwa nekunyengera kunoparadza uye kutamba kwemuvengi ane hutsinye sezvaanonyengera; Hazvingavi zvakadaro here kutaura kwaari pano nemudzidzi webhaibheri akadzidza: Ishe, kana ndichikanganisa, ndimi makandiisa ipapo; hungu, nyengedzo yangu inobva kwamuri, sezvo makaibvumira, muchiziva kuti ndoga ndaisagona kuinzvenga: Domine, si error est, à te decepti sumus .

2 Tinomukumbira kuti atiudze kuti dhiabhorosi, uyo anoda kwazvo kutinyengera uye kutichengeta mumisungo yaakatipinza mairi, akatora sei chaizvoizvo zvinopesana netsika yake, nokutiratidza nzira dzechokwadi dzekuwana misungo, yekuzvichengetedza kubva mumisungo yayo uye kubva murima rose uye nemanomano ezvirongwa zvayo. Ikoko kungadai kusiri kushanda kuparadza basa rake ndokupidigura umambo hwake amene here, sokutaura kwakaita J.-C. kuvaFarise vasingadaviri: Satanis Satanum ejecit adversùs se divisus est, quomodò ergò stabit regnum ejus?( Mat. 12, 26 ) Zvakare, zviri kwavari kutitsanangurira zvose izvi. Kana ndirini, ndinobvuma kuti tsananguro iyi ndingadai ndisina kuiwana zvachose. Zvakawanikwa zvakadai zvinoda kuedza kwehungwaru izvo zvisiri zverudzi rwangu kana simba rangu. Asi izvo zvinopedzisa kuratidza kusagoneka kana kuti kusagoneka kwemafungiro ayo aiita seasingatenderwe mukati mawo kana mumhedzisiro yawo, izvo zvingave zvinotyisa, sezvatinofanira kunge takanzwa, iko kuratidzwa kunogona kuitwa pazvinzvimbo zvakasiyana mu. izvo Sista akazviwanira, uye nerudo rwakasiyana rwaakasangana narwo, uye izvo zvese

zvinoita sezvisingaenderane nekukwidziridzwa kwemoyo kana kwekufungidzira uko munhu angada kufungidzira.

Nokuti, 1° kubvira pakutanga kwoupenyu hwake hwomukati, Hanzvadzi inotipupurira, uye izvi maererano naJ.-C. pachake, kuti aingova nemakore maviri nehafu okukura, mazuva mashoma okukura, paakadiwa. chiratidzo chake chekutanga. Zvisinei, hazvizotaurwi kuti pazera rino kunzwisisa kwake, kana api neapi ehungwaru hwake aikwanisa nenzira yomuzvarirwo kukwidziridzwa kana kukwidziridzwa, sezvo akanga asati avapo uye wakanga uri mubvunzo wechimiro panzvimbo pokuvakwidziridza. Mwana, pazera rino, ane pfungwa yakavhiringidzika yekuvapo kwake, haatombofungi kuti kuna Mwari: tichabvumirana nyore nyore.

2° Anopupurira kwatiri kuti muzvinhu zvizhinji anotaura asingazvinzwisisi iye amene, uye anotozviona seanomanikidzirwa kushandisa mashoko ane revo yaasinganzwisisi, kunyange zvazvo nguva dzose ari akanakisisa. Ndinobvunza zvakare kana kukwidziridzwa kwakamboita  mhedzisiro yakadai.

3° Anotiudza kuti kakawanda akaedza kana ari ega aisakwanisa kuwana rudo rwakadaro, nokuedza kumurera.

mwoyo kana fungidziro, pasina kuedza kwake kubudirira kuratidza kusasimba kwake.

4° Mwari akamuita kuti arasikirwe kamwe kamwe nendangariro yake yezvinhu zvaaifanira kukanganwa, nepo zvinhu zvakanga zvakanganwika zvakadzokera kwaari mukuronga panguva yokuita kuti zvinyorwe, sezvatichaona.

Wedzera kuna ikoku kwose mutoo unoyemurika waanotaura nawo pamusoro pekushanda  kwaMwari pamasimba omweya womunhu, somutoo wokuuziva nawo munhamburiko dzisina maturo iyo dhimoni rinoedza dzimwe nguva kukunyepedzera naro, uye ngatiudzwe. zvese izvi zvinogona kusiyana sei kubva kufemero inodaidzwa kudaro, uye pane chingave chakavakirwa avo vangangoramba vachiona mune zvese izvi chete mhedzisiro yekufungidzira  .

akazvikudza here kana kuti nemoyo unonyengedzera utsvene hwake? Zvakanaka, zvinorumbidzwa, zvinotodiwa kuti uchenjere kunyengedzwa; asi munhu haafaniri, pasi pechikonzero ichi, kupa kune pyrrhonism isina musoro, iyo inoramba chokwadi kana ichizviratidza uye inozviita kuti inzwe: kazhinji inoseka pyrrhonism, iyo inonyengera, kwete kutaura quibbles, haingagutsi munhu, uye inogona kuitika zvikuru. kuvhiringidza pfungwa dzakarurama uye dzakarurama, iyo inoona mairi zvishoma kudarika imwe nheyo yekutenda kwakashata, inogara ichityisa mumeso ehuenzanisi.

Naizvozvo tinofanira kuyerawo zvazvakanakira nezvazvakaipira; uye usaende, uchitya kunyanyisa pane imwe pfungwa, kuenda kune yakatarisana yakawandisa, nekumbundikira fungidziro isingagoneke, kubva kwairi hazvigoneke kuti uzvibvise iwe, uye izvo zvinoda kuramba uchitenda kupfuura izvo zvakapesana. party.

Uyewo, nhamba huru zvikuru yevaongorori yakaororwa kwazvo nokufunga kwose uku, zvokuti vakafunga, kufanana neni, kuti basa racho, rakatorwa rose zvaro, rakapa ufakazi hworubatsiro rwoumwari, rwakasimba zvikuru kupfuura zvaizova zvipupuriro zvose nouchokwadi. iyo yaigona kupiwa kwairi; nokuti simba revanhu rinogona kuwedzera uremu hupi kune hwaMwari, kana richizviratidza? Naizvozvo vakatenda, seni, 1 ° kuti munhu aisakwanisa kuenzanisa zvakakomba nzira inorova uye

tsananguro yakadzama iyo Sista vakanga vazivisa nayo chimurenga chedu nemigumisiro yacho, kupfuura

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makore makumi maviri pamberi pokuva nokuoneka kupi nokupi kwaro, nefungidziro dzavose uye dzine ngozi nguva dzose, kuti matongerwe enyika avanhu akanga akwanisa kuzviita pamamwe indices akatorwa kubva mukuperevedza kwemari, kana kuti kubva mukufambira mberi kwokusanamata noutere. 2 Vakatenda, seni, kuti munhu aigona kungofungidzira zvakakomba kuti munhu asingazivi achizvitaurira pachake, kana maererano nemashoko mashoma asina kutevedzana, kubva muMagwaro Matsvene, kuti angadai akanzwa. uye akafungisisa pakuzorora, angadai akakwanisa kupa, pasina rubatsiro kubva kumusoro, nhevedzano yezvikumbiro sezvakangoita uye zvakabudirira zvezvinyorwa zvaasina kana kuverenga, uye izvo pasina kuwira mukutsauka kupi, uko kwakanyanya. vatauri vane hunyanzvi havawanzo kuregererwa, uye izvo zvingave zvichipa zvakanyanya kumusikana, zvisinei nekuti angave achifanirwa kudaro. Basa rake, vakati, raizoshamisa zvikuru rakanga risati raonekwa mumhando iyi  .

3°. Pakupedzisira vakatenda seni kuti kufanotaura uye kuzivisa zvinhu zvakawanda kwazvo, uye nguva refu chiitiko ichi chisati chaitika, raive zita rakakwana rekutendwa pazviitiko izvo zvichiri kuzivisa neruzivo rumwe chete, kwete kuve kwakaoma zvakanyanya kuona ramangwana. munguva ino, pane kuona zviripo munguva yakapfuura ... Zvisinei, kutonga basa rose, kwete nemashoko mashomanana ega, vakafunga, kufanana neni, kuti nzira yakasiyana uye inopenya iyo nyaya dzakawanda dzakasiyana. , uye vose  vaiva neminzwa sezvavaiva vakatanhamara, vaibatwa nouyu kusaziva, kungasanoumba vavariro yakakwana yokudavira kufuridzirwa kwake, pasina kumwe kufunga kupi nokupi; uye vanoverengeka vavo havana kutya kufambisira mberi izvozvoMushoko rimwe chete, vaiona muunganidzwa ringava basa raMwari kana kuti  chirango.

Uye zvechokwadi, kana zvakazarurwa zvaSaint Bridget zvaionekwa sechokwadi nemapope makuru akati wandei (1) nedare rose, nekuda kwekuzivisa pamberi pechiitiko chirango chevaGiriki nevaTurkey, hatingagone here chokwadi chiziviso chakasimbiswa chechimwe chiitiko. zvemhando imwe chete uye zveukoshi hwakafanana? Uye kana taifunga kuti taifanira kuwana rubatsiro rwoumwari kuti titsanangure mabasa aMadeleine de Pazzi, Catherine de Siena, Thérèse, Gertrude, nezvimwewo, pasinei nedzidzo yokungwarira yavakanga vagamuchira nokuda kwechikamu chikuru, kuti tingafungidzira sei kuti murombo. vasingazivi vangadai vakabudisa chimwe chinhu chinotoyemurika, pasina rubatsiro runobva kumusoro?... Enigma isingatsananguriki, uye vakabvuma, seni, kuitora seApocalypse itsva ., uye munyori semunhu akasimuka zvinoshamisa kubva kuna Mwari kuti azivise kuvanhu kuguma kweChechi kusvika panguva dzekupedzisira dzenguva yayo, uye kuvadzivirira pakukanganisa uye zvinonyadzisa zvenguva dzino dzekupedzisira. Ndiwo zvakare zita rakanaka randakaripa pakutanga.

(1) Gregory XI, Urban VI, Dare reConstance, nevamwe vanapapa vakati wandei, makadhinari nemabhishopi.

Ndichataura zvakawanda, uye zvasvika pakuti uyo pakati pavo akanga agara achiita seasina kunaka kwazviri, uye uyo pamusoro pezvose akanga atanga nekuratidza kupokana nazvo, aisakwanisa kuita kunze kwekuona mariri inokosha . kubatira pamwe, inyasha dzakati, dzaaifunga nadzo kuti Mwari angadai akasimudza nzwisiso namano ose enjere euyu musikana akanaka kusvikira kumwero mukuru kupfuura nhevedzano nesimba romudzimu womunhu;uye kuti usabvume kufemerwa chaiko. Asi taisagona here kubvunza kana uku kunenge kusiri kureurura zvakanyanya kana zvishoma chinhu chimwe chete mumashoko akati siyanei? Vanoverengeka, kanenge, vaizvitenda uye vakazvitaura pasina mhemberero; uye ndinofunga, saivo, kuti, mukufungidzira uku, mutsauko pakati peHanzvadzi nevarume vakafemerwa zvechokwadi ungangove wemetaphysical. Isu tinonzwa zvakakwana, uyezve, kuti kwaizongove kumisa dambudziko uye kusarigadzirisa, kupa kune chero munhu kunze kwemwanasikana uyu mutsvene basa riri kutaurwa. Nokuti pakupedzisira, chero mumwe, mutungamiriri wayo, semuenzaniso, haachazovizve nerubatsiro urwu rwakakosha, idzi nyasha dzaMwari., izvo zvatinomanikidzwa kuziva. Ah! kudai aikwanisa kubudirira kusvika panguva ino ari oga, ichocho chingava chikonzero chokufunga kudaro here? Ndinofunga kuti munhu anogona kuda uye kuita zvakanaka nokuda kwake; asi mhosva ndechimwe chinhu, uye handifungi kuti zvakamboonekwa. Ikozvino, ini handitomboziva kuti imhando ipi yekufarira iyo mutungamiri angave akawana mukugadzira hunyengeri hwakakodzera kutsauswa kwemitemo yese, uye yaanogona kuvimbisa kuti, tenda Mwari, haanzwe achikwanisa. . Naizvozvo unongove mubvunzo wekuona kuti ndeupi, weHanzvadzi kana ini, mumwe angada kufungidzira kuti akafemerwa; kuti  tinosarudza.

Saka zvakatove zvakasimbiswa kune tsamba, uye munzvimbo yekudzingwa kwangu, ichi chiziviso cheSista, kuti basa rake raive rekukonzera hondo.

maonero pakati pevadzidzisi. Asi zvese zvinogona kupedzwa kubva mukupikisa uku kwemanzwiro pane imwe pfungwa yekufemerwa,

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mukuona kwangu, ichokwadi ichi chinokosha, kuti Mwari akagovera zvakakwana kune rumwe rutivi zvinoshaikwa kune rumwe: ndinoreva kuti akatsigira zvakasimba nezvikonzero zvomukati uye akatora kubva muudzame hwezvinhu, basa raakadeya kuona. aizoshaya chero mvumo. Kure nokunyunyuta pamusoro pomunhu upi noupi, kure nokuwana mhosho pauyu mufambiro woKugovera kwoumwari, ndinouwana, pane kudaro, wakafanira zvikuru uyo ​​ane mabasa anogara achitsigirwa naamene, pasina kudikanwa kana kuti kurumbidza, kana kuti ipi neipi yenzira dzavanhu.

Kune zvimwe zvose, ndibvumirei kuti ndizvidzokorore pakupedzisira: Handina kukwanisa kuravira pfungwa yevaongorori vanondiudza kuti pese apo Mwari haana kusundira humbowo hwehumbowo kusvika pahunogona  kuenda, ndeyekuti akazviita. asingadi kuti titende (1). Kuwanda kwechikumbiro ichi kwakaita kuti ndifungidzire, uye kunyange kuve nengozi, mune zvakawanda izvo zvisina chikonzero chekutsanangura pano; nokuti zvinhu zvingani zvatinofanira kutenda uye zvine humbowo husingasundirwi kusvika paunogona  kuenda!

(1) Uye zvakare, kuti humbowo hwakasimba hunodiwa pachinhu chinoshamisa pane chimwe chokwadi; kuti hazvibviri kuzviratidza, nekuti zvingada humbowo hwechimiro chimwe chete, nezvimwe, nezvimwe. Migumisiro yezvirevo izvi zvose zvinotyisa.

Ndagara ndichidavira kuti maererano nezvikonzero zvokuvimbika, kana tichitaura nezvorumwe rudzi rwokutenda, panogona kuva nezvakawanda kana kuti zvishoma, uye kuti mwero wouchapupu nouchokwadi hunokwana nokuda kwouchenjeri hwoumwari hunofanira kukwana nokuda kwouchenjeri hwomunhu. Chikonzero chinogara chisingaongi uye chine manyawi kana chichida kubvunza munyori wacho zvakawanda kupfuura zvaanoda kuzvipa. Izvi ndizvo zvandakamboratidza, kunze kwekunge paine mhedzisiro isingagone kunzi kune chimwe chikonzero kunze kwaMwari, pasina kuwira mulabyrinth yezvipingamupinyi izvo munhu asingagoni kuzvibvisa. Zvose zvinoratidzwa ipapo. Mwari angave ane zvikonzero zvake zvekusaenda mberi, zviri kwatiri kuti tirambe tiri mazviri. Anobva aratidza mumwe wemunwe wake kune ziso rakangwara uye rakapfava; izvo zvakakwana kuziva ruoko rwose,Digitus Dei ndiyo iyi. Mwaranzi imwe chete inobuda mugore inokwana kuratidza zuva, pasina iyo inoda kuoneka mukupenya kwayo kose uye mukubwinya kwaro kose.

Asi nezvose izvi zvicharamba zvichinzi, Wakaipa haangatongotendi chinhu chazvo.

Vasingadi Mwari! Mwari akanaka! vanhu vapi  vamuri kundidaidza ikoko? Asi  ivo

kuitwa kuti vatende chimwe chinhu chakadai, uye basa rakadaro rakaitirwa  ivo here? Vanotodavira kuti kuna Mwari, vasingadi Mwari here?  Zvichatora here

Mwari ngaarege kuitazve zviratidzo, nokuti hazvifadzi vakaipa

kuzvitenda kana  kuzvigamuchira  ? uye tichamirira, kuti tizvione, kuti  tione

kuzarurirwa kwemusikana murombo asingazivi uye, chii chakaipisisa, chechitendero, chakatevedzwa uye chakabvumirwa pakati pevarume vasina kumbokwanisa kutenda muzvishamiso kana mukumuka kweJC?

Kwete, haungazvitarisire, muverengi ane njere uye wechiKristu; Ndaizokutukai mufunge. Zvinhu zvose ivimbiso yangu kwandiri kuti iwe uchatendera vakaipa kuti vatore mugove wake, uye iwe uchatora zvako. Uchibatanidza kungwara kune kureruka, uchitevera kuraira kweVhangeri, unozopa kukuverenga nyaya idzi mwero wekutenda unoenderana nefungidziro yauchave wagamuchira kubva kwavari, uye nguva dzose uchizviisa pasi pesimba rinorarama iro roga rine kodzero yekutonga. kutenda kwako. Iri ndiro danho rauchatora, usingade kudzivirira kana kuraira kutonga  kwevamwe.

Unotya kukanganisa: wakarurama. Imhaka yekuti ndinotyira iwe neni pachangu kuti, ndichimirira mutongo wedare risingakanganisi, ndinoda kukwanisa kupindura pachine nguva kune kufunga kwenhema uko kwagara kuchishorwa basa raMwari, uye nepandinofanotaura kuti tichiri kufanira kubata iyi. Imhaka yokuti ndinotsvaka fariro yenyu hurusa yandinotaura kwamuri, mukuvhara, iri zano rinokosha roMweya Mutsvene: Akaropafadzwa uyo anoverenga nokunzwa mashoko ouhu uporofita, uye anochengeta nokutendeka zvakanyorwa mahuri. ipfupi, uye tave pedyo nekubudirira. Beatus anotendesa uye anoongorora

verba prophecies hujus, et servat ea quœ in ea scripta sunt; tempus enim prope est. (Zvakazarurwa, 1, 3.)

Muchidimbu:

Ndakanzwa munhu anoshamisa wandine chikonzero chokutenda anoshandiswa naMwari kukurayirai, uye ane zvakavanzika nengano dzandinokupai: Ndakafunga kuti ndaimunzwisisa zvakakwana kuti ndirege kutsauka kubva kwaari. Akandiudza kuti Mwari andipa basa iri; Ndakashanda pairi nepandinogona napo, uye sokunge ndaifanira kupa nhoroondo yayo. Pakupedzisira, ndakabvunza vafundisi veChechi maererano nezvandakapiwa kuti ndidaro; uye kuti musapotsa chero chinhu maererano nemi, ndangotsanangura kwamuri mavhoti andakaunganidza nokutendeka. Zvava kwauri

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kuti uone uye uongorore kutonga kwaunofanira kuita pamusoro payo, uye kuti ndeupi mufambiro waunofanira kutevera: nokuti uyu mufambiro waMwari hausi usina kurongwa, uye sezvingabvira zvikuru miuyo ichava inokosha zvikuru kwauri kupfuura zvatingafungidzira.

END.

MAKORE masere Apfuura

YEKUBEREKWA HANZVADZI.

Wechitendero Urbanist weFougères,

Kushanda seChiwedzerwa kuHupenyu Hwake uye Zvakazarurwa. (Nemupepeti mumwe chete, 18o3.)

“Deus docuisti me a juventute mea, et nunc pronunciabo mirabilia tua.

(Pis. 70:18.)

QUALIS VITA, TALIS MORS.

NHUNGAMIDZO.

Takaona mune mamwe manyoro andakapedzisa nawo kuunganidzwa kweHupenyu neZvazarurwa zveainzi Hanzvadzi Yekuzvarwa, kuti rufu rwemusikana mutsvene uyu, uyo wandakanga ndanyora hupenyu hwake kusvika pakusimuka kwangu, rwakanga rwaziviswa muLondon. kusvika pakupera kwa1800, kana kuti pakutanga kwa1801, netsamba

kuti mumwe munhu wokuSaint-James, muNormandy, akanyora nezvazvo kumuprista woruwa rwetaundi rimwe chetero, aigara kuChelsé, pedyo neguta guru reEngland.

Pakanga pave patova nemakore akawanda kubvira pandakagamuchira mashoko api naapi kubva kumasisita enzanga yeFougères, yandakanga ndaronzeswa. Kunyarara kwaivhiringidza uku, mushure metsamba zhinji dzandainge ndanyora, kwakaita kuti nditye zvikuru kuti vaviri vakanga vapinda muchivande cheSister vakanga vawedzerwa nhamba yevaya vandakanga ndadzidza nezverufu kubva pandakaenda uye kuti, naizvozvo, handidi. vakatorerwa zvachose uchapupu hwevanhu vaviri avo voga vaigona kupupurira kuruzhinji uye chokwadi chechokwadi chezvandakanga ndaisa pamberi pemuunganidzwa, uye zvese izvo, nemvumo yavo uye neminyengetero yavo, zvakapfuura pakati peSista. Neniwo.

Kutya kwangu kwakabva kwatanga zviri nani, sezvo utano hwemasisita maviri aya hwakanga hwagara huchiita sehusina simba kwandiri kunyange vasati vambodya zvipingamupinyi uye kusuwa izvo zvaigona kutowedzera kupera simba, uye pamwe nokuzviparadza zvachose. Mune iyi nzvimbo, chakanga changosara kwandiri, ndichivanyengeterera, kwaiva kumirira murugare kuti Mwari pachake awedzere neimwe nzira iyi nzira yomusikirwo zvikuru yokusimbisa chikonzero chandakanga ndagara ndichidavira kuti ndechake, uye zvikurukuru kubvira ipapo. mavhoti akanaka uye akawanda akandisimbisa zvakasimba mumaonero angu ekutanga.

Pakupedzisira, pakupera kwaFebruary 1802, ndakagamuchira kubva kuna Madam Superior tsamba inotevera, iyo yakandiita kuti ndinzwisise kuti Mwari, ane gadziriro anoona.

asingaregi kuzviitiko zvose uye kumashoko madukusa ebasa rake, pasina panikiro akanga ane zvikonzero zvake zvokuchengeta nokuda kwangu masisita anoziviswa zvikurusa pamusoro penhau yacho yose, uye zvikurukuru zvapupu zviviri izvo varavi vebhuku racho vakanga vaona sezvinokosha zvikurusa. Heino chidimbu chetsamba iyi, yakaverengwa, uye yakakopwa nenhamba yakanaka pakati pevanoyemura muunganidzwa:

Fougères, Ndira 29, 1802.

"Changamire,

Ndakazongogamuchira mashoko akanaka kubva kwauri nemumwe wevaunoshanda navo achangosvika kubva kunyika yaunogara, uye akazvitakura kuti akupfuure kubva kwatiri sezvaunoda. Ndinotora mukana uyu kukunyorerai noruoko rune chokwadi, uye ndingadai ndakakurumidza kukutsvaka, dai ndisina kutya kuzivisa rufu rwomunhu wandinoziva kuti munomufarira kwazvo. Ndirikuda kutaura nezve Hanzvadzi yemurombo yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu.

Musikana mutsvene uyu akafa paAssumption Day 1798, masikati. Aive neruzivo rwake kusvika panguva yekupedzisira, uye zvinhu zvakawanda zvinoita kuti nditende kuti aive nezaruro yezuva nenguva yekufa kwake. Mavhiki ekupedzisira ehupenyu hwake Mwari akamuraira kuti ataure, kubva kune zvake

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goverana, nevanhu vanoverengeka, nezvezvinhu chaizvo zvinobata hana dzavo, uye vanhu ava vakabatsirwa nazvo zvakanaka. Akandiudzawo kwandiri, neruzivo rwakadzama rwaigona kubva kuna Mwari chete. Haugoni kufungidzira kundiona kwaakaita pandiri. Kunyanya, inofanotaura zvinhu zvakawanda kwandiri, zvimwe zvacho zvakatozadzikiswa kune tsamba, uye zvinondiita kuti ndive netariro yevamwe munguva yakafanira. Ndinogona kukuvimbisai kuti zvaakandiudza zvakandipa kugutsikana kukuru uye rugare mumwoyo mangu.

Asati arwara akanga anyora zvakawanda. Pamazuva okupedzisira  okurwara kwake akakumbira nechido mapepa ake ose aakanga aisa mumaoko emufundisi uyo akanga aratidzwa naMwari kwaari kuti amutungamirire munzira dzake dzinoshamisa. Muchinda uyu akanga avimbisa kuti achazvipfuudza kwauri, uye nokuda kwekushaya mukana wechokwadi, akanga agara akazvichengeta. Akavatumira, pekupedzisira, neimwe yenyika kune confessor wake. Handizivi kuti chii chakaita kuti vamhanye vasina kushandirwa uye kuiswa muhurongwa huri nani. Chiri chokwadi ndechekuti akaverengwa sezvaanoverengwa nevanhu vakawanda, uye kunyange kubva kumapurovhinzi akasiyana. Nokudaro aya manyoro okupedzisira akapararira kure nokure, pamwe chete nomushumo woutsvene hwake  .

Saka ndakabvunzwa zvakawanda pamusoro pemaeffects mashoma aive ake. Ndichifunga kuti uchafarawo kuva neimwe, ndakakuchengetera mhete yemuchato, iyo yaakafa nayo. Handisi kuutumira kwamuri, kuti chirege kurashika; asi kana ndangova nerukudzo nemufaro wekukuonai zvakare, ndichakupai, nezvimwe zvinhu zvishoma zverudzi urwu zvingakufadzai.

(1) Madam Superior vakawedzera chifukidziro chavo chechirairo, nevhudzi ravo shoma, nezvimwe. Ndakagamuchirawo kabhuku kekunamata kwaaigara achiraira vana vehanzvadzi yake panguva yaaigara nemunin'ina wake, sezvataiita.

ngatitii: ivhoriyamu diki rekare, rine tsamba nemavhangeri egore, muchiFrench, neminamato. Ndichazvikoshesa zvose.

Ndinokukumbirisaiwo kuti munditengerewo basa rake ne renyu, kana zvichibvira; hanzvadzi dzedu dzinotarisirawo kuitirwa nyasha. Kana rikadhindwa, uye Chechi richibvumira kuti riverengwe, unoita zvakanaka kuunza mamwe makopi kana wapfuura pano; zvirokwazvo pachava nechikwereti chakawanda. Dzoka nekukasira, tese tinoida....

PS Ndakanganwa kukuratidzai kuti Hanzvadzi yakandiudza kakawanda, munguva dzayo dzekupedzisira, kuti akanga achifa nemarwadzo ekusakwanisa kutaura zvinhu zvainyaradza zvikuru kune ani zvake kuChechi.

» Ndine rukudzo rwekuva, etc. »

Tsamba iyi, iyo yairatidzika kuva yakauya kutsigira iya yeNormandy, yaisagona kuuya panguva yakafanira kuti idzivirire kuunganidzwa nokunditsigira ndimene parudzi rwakanga rwavamba kuputika panzvimbo yokudzingwa kwangu. Pakati penhamba huru yevanoyemura zvinyorwa, zvakawanikwa muLondon vanhu vashoma vasina kutora nyaya yacho kubva kudivi rimwe chete.

Pashure pezvirambidzo zvavose izvo sezviri pachena zvakanga zvisina kubudirira kwose kwakanga kwavimbiswa, kuedza kwakaitwa kumutsa kusava nechokwadi pamusoro pouchokwadi hwemishumo yangu; vakatosvika pakutaura kuti Hanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaingove munhu aingonzi munhu, wandaiti nditaure chero zvandinoda; kuti, kuti ndiseke kutandara kwandainge ndave pamudyandigere, ndakanga ndanyora rudo rwounyanzvi ndichishandisa zita romumwe sisita uyo zvimwe akanga asati ambovapo.

Mufungidziro waive wakapusa semusungo wandingadai ndakateya kuti veruzhinji vatenderwe; uye sezvo rwendo rupfupi kuenda kuFrance rwaizove rwakafanira kuwana kubiridzira kwemusungo, mumwe aifanirawo kufunga kuti rwendo rumwe chete, nerutsigiro rwemunharaunda, rwaigona kukwana kururamisa maitiro angu uye kunditsivira zvizere kupomerwa . Naizvozvo pomero iyi yairatidzika kuva yakakomba zvikuru zvokusafanira kurumbidzwa kupi nokupi navanhu vanonzwisisa uye vakatendeseka; asi zvakare ndinofanira kubvuma kuti muvengi webasa akabva amuka uyo, asina chinangwa chakaipa uye achitenda kuita zvakanaka (1), akaita seanoisa chipingamupinyi chakakomba kupararira kwaro, uye chandisingafaniri kufuratira. tichaona.

(1) Kutenda kuita zvakanaka . Chokwadi chinofanira kurwiwa, nekuti chinofanira kuyedzwa. Mabasa erudzi urwu haagone kugashirwa pasina kuongororwa, uye ndinobvuma kuti vakuru, kunyanya, havagone kutarisisa zvakanyanya kwavari.

Baba de Fajole, muvicar general wedhiocese yeRennes, vakanga vari mumwe wevokutanga kurava mabhuku angu. Ndakanga ndava neropafadzo yokudzipa kwaari (panguva iyoyo yakanga iri nguva yangu yokutanga kupinda muchiuto) pachitsuwa cheJersey, muna 1792; kunze kwekutaura zvishoma, akanga awana zvose zvinoyemurika; akanga akatondikurudzira kuti ndizvichengete nokuda kwenguva yemberi; asi zvakabva zvaratidza kuti akanga achinja zvachose pfungwa dzake panyaya iyi, pasina ari kukwanisa kufungidzira kuti nei.

Nechokunopera kwa1799, M. l'Abbé akaenda

(385-389)

kubva kuScarborow, kwaakanga atakurwa, achienda kuLondon; pakusvika kwake muguta guru rino, ndakafunga kumusungirira kupfurikidza nokumupa muunganidzwa wamanyoro wamavhoti avakuru vakuru navamwe vafundisi vandakanga ndabvunza ipapo ipapo, mukati mokugara kwandakanga ndaita ikoko. Ini handina kumbotarisira zvakaitika, uye handina kumbove nekushamisika kukuru kupfuura pandakazviwana, pandakanzwa Abbé de Fajole achindiudza kuti, maererano nekufunga kwake, tsvakiridzo yake nemazano aakange agamuchira, nezvimwewo, akange achinja zvachose. maonero ake panyaya iri kutaurwa; kuti ndakanga ndakanganisa zvikuru kuratidza munhu upi noupi zvinyorwa zvaakanga andirayira kuti ndichengete; kuti havazombofa vakabvumidzwa nabhishopi weRennes, apo anenge ari mutevedzeri mukuru; Pakupedzisira,, yaakadzokorora kwandiri uye akaita kuti ndirayiridzwe nomupristi weshamwari dzangu dzandakanga  ndabvunza.

Ndakagutsikana nokupindura vose vari vaviri kuti ndaizongwarira zvikuru kuti ndisateerere murayiro wairatidzika kwandiri kuva wakavakirwa pachikonzero chisingagoni kundifurira kuita kudaro; kuti ndairemekedza zvikuru kuvhenekerwa nechiremera cheavo vakanga vatonga neimwe nzira, uye avo vaifanirwawo zvakanaka kuteererwa;  kuti

M. de Fajole akanga asina kumbova nekodzero yokundirambidza kukurukura basa iro mabhishopi oga ari vatongi vakaberekwa, uye randakanga ndaita kuti ndivaratidze; Naizvozvo ndakanga ndisingakwanisi kupa chivimbiso chavaifunga kuti ndakanga ndapa, ndisina kutyora shoko rangu uye nokupandukira chikonzero nechivimbo chandakapiwa. Ndizvo zvakanga zviri zvisungo zvangu nemhinduro dzangu, izvo zvakasimbiswa zvikuru nemirangariro yavanachiremba vakabvunzwa vakanga vaverenga kugadzirwa kweSista.

Zvinofanira kureurura, zvisinei, kuti ndakagamuchira kurwadziwa kukuru uye kusuwa kubva mukudzokera shure kwandakanga ndisingatarisiri, uye pasina kupokana kwaive kuzvisimbisa ndimene uye kubuda mukunyara kwangu kuti Ruponeso rwaMwari rwakabvumira kuti ndigamuchire, chaizvo. panguva ino, tsamba dzandakapa nhoroondo, uye dzakandidzidzisa zvandinofanira kufunga nezverusaruro rusina kunaka kana nhau dzenhema dzavaivimba nadzo pasina mubvunzo.

Ndakayemura mandiri maitiro eiyi Providence inoyemurika zvechokwadi maererano neavo vanozvisiya mukutarisira kwayo. Ko murombo Hanzvadzi yeNativity yaizovei, ndakati nechemumoyo? Naizvozvo anofanira kugara achipiswa nezano romurume mumwe pamusoro pavose here? Uyo aive wekutanga kudzikisa kugadzirwa kwake kuita madota akapfidza zvakanyanya kukurumidza kwake uye nemafungiro emumwe wake; Ndinogona here, nezano remurume asina kuroora, ndichiri kuzviratidzira ndimene kumarwadzo mamwe chetewo, mushure mekuita, kuoneka zvikuru, kwezvose zvaakanga azivisa? Hakuzove, ndinovimba, kana kuti Chechi chete ndiyo ichasarudza, nokuti ndiko kwaari chete kwandinokwidza  .

Nokudaro ndakafunga mumwoyo mangu, uye ndakanzwa kusimbiswa zvikuru nokuraviwa kwemabhuku mamwe chete iwayo ayo chibayiro chaidiwa. Zvose zvandaifanira kuita kwaiva kukandira maziso angu pamusoro payo kwechinguva kuti ndinzwe chimwe chinhu chichindiudza mukati: Chenjerera, izvi hazviiti kuti zvipiswe ... ndive munyori wayo.

Tichatenda here iye zvino kuti Hanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu yakanga yatarisira ruzivo rwezvese zvatichangobva kutaura, uye kuti akange azvizivisa makore anenge matatu chiitiko ichi chisati chaitika, kusvika pakudoma, mukutaura chaiko, mutambi mukuru, waakange ataura. handisati ndamboona kana kuziva?

Akanga ane masisita maviri akanyorwa pasi, muna 1797, nyevero yaakanga agamuchira kubva mairi. Chinyorwa ichi chakanyorerwa M. Leroi, dhipatimendi weLa Pellerine, diocese yeMaine, ipapo mutungamiriri wayo, uyo akandipa muna 1802, uye uyo akashamiswa sezvandakaita apo akanzwa nhau yacho kubva mumuromo mangu. tsananguro. Tichataura, gare gare, pamusoro pekunyora uku, kunopedzisa kupwiswa kwangu kuti ndakanga ndakarurama kumira zvakasimba ndichipesana nemurairo ungadai wakakonzera kupfidza kwakawanda, dai ndaiva nekupfava kwekuitevedzera.

Izvi zvechokwadi pfuti muchimiro chemusikana uyu anoshamisa, kana kuti pane uyo akamushandisa kutibatsira. Zviri nenzira iyi, paanenge achida, kuti anokanganisa zvose zvinopikisa mazano ake uye basa rake, kuburikidza nekutaura kune avo vaanoita kuti vataure nezvezviedza izvo zvematongerwo enyika evanhu zvisingagoni kusvika kwazviri, izvo kunyange zvisingakwanisi. chero chinhu.

Kuti musikana murombo, mutorwa zvachose kune zvese zvinoitika munyika, mukadzi murombo asingazivi anofunga kungozvigadzirira rufu,

asi ziva zvinoitika, kana kuti anofanira kuita kunze, maererano nebasa rake, mhiri kwemakungwa uye munzvimbo iri kure uko kwaasina kubatana; ngaaziviswe mutongo uyo waanotumidza murume asingamuzivi, uye ari muLondon kana Scarborow, achapfuura; kuti inozvizivisa makore apfuura, pasina kutya kupikiswa, uye izvo

(390-394)

chiitiko chinopindura nyevero yainowana kubva kwairi, muverengi, unofungei? Kusatenda kunozopera seiko? uye tichakanganisa here kuona mamiriro ezvinhu aya sehumbowo hutsva hunopedzisa kuratidzwa kwechokwadi chekufemerwa kwake?....

Ndasvika paFougères kumavambo kwaAugust 1802, ndakatanga nokuverenga uye nokuverenga basa riri mubvunzo kune vose vakanga vasara vevasisita veUrbanist, uye pashure pokuverengwa uku vakandipa, pazvose zvakataurwa imomo, uchapupu hwatinoverenga. ikoko. Vakabva vanditambidza maviri makuru

kuwedzera zvinyorwa zvatichiri kunyora, uye izvo Sista vakanga vanyora kuti ndipiwe kana ndadzoka.

Asati asvika kune izvozvo, zvakaratidzika zvakakodzera kupa makore ekupedzisira emunyori, kuti agutsikane avo vose vanovafarira, uye kunyanya nokuda kwekuvakwa kwevanhu. Ndichaita kudaro muchidimbu sezvinobvira, nguva dzose ndichitaura kubva pauchapupu hunonyatsoziva hweavo vaigara kana kuti vaiva noukama hunokosha naye, hwemasisita akamubatsira munguva dzake dzokupedzisira, uye nezvemhuri inoremekedzwa yaakamugumisa nayo. basa. Hazvina kufanira kunyevera kuti ndinonyora pamusoro pazvo pasi pemaziso avo chete mushure mokunge ndave panzvimbo uye ndanyatsounganidza uye ndichienzanisa manzwi avo pane chimwe chinhu. Izvo zvakagadzirisa, heino hurongwa hwandiri kudhirowa kuti ndifambe nekurongeka kwakawanda.

PLANI.

Masisita ekuronga mataundi akagara anenge makore maviri mune yavo

munharaunda, mushure mekunge ndadzingwa mairi. Pashure pokuenda kwavo, Hanzvadzi yoKuberekwa kwaJesu yakaramba ingoti pfuurei gore mutaundi reFougères; kubva ipapo akaendeswa kumba kwehanzvadzi yake, kuLa Chapelle-Janson, kwaakasara

makore asingasviki maviri; pakupedzisira akadzorerwa kuFougères, kwaakagara mamwe makore matatu nemwedzi mishomanana. Pari pasi peaya mamiriro ezvinhu mana apo isu zvino tichamutevera ndokumurangarira, kuti tipe muuyo wamakore masere okupedzisira oupenyu hwake, ayo akapfuura kubvira panguva yokubva kwangu kusvikira pazuva rapakati paAugust, 1798. , nguva yake yokupedzisira. rufu. Mufananidzo wakatendeka unozobva paurongwa uhwu hwechisikigo uchapa chero chinhu chinonakidza kune avo vanotonga vanhu nezviitiko chete; asi zvichava zvamazvirokwazvo kufarikanya avo vose vanotonga zviitiko navanhu  vanovatonga  .

FIRST ERA.

Sisi vacho vachiri munharaunda.

Zvakanga zviri, sezvandambotaura kumwewo, pakati peKukwira kudenga nePendekosti ya1790, kuti ndakanga ndasungirwa kutiza masisita angu pakubva pamba pavo, uye waiva musi waGunyana 27, 1792 kuti ivo vamene. gore rinotevera. Mukati memakore maviri ayo Hanzvadzi ichiri kugara munharaunda mavo, haana kuita seakasiyana naiye pachake, kunze kwekungopeta patsva kwemweya wemukati, wekurangarira, wekunyarara nekuzviisa pasi, unova mweya wechitendero, uye iyo yakaumba hwaro hwehumwe hunhu hwayo.

Mushure mekufarirwa kwaakaitwa nedenga, kunyanya mushure mekuziva kuti rakanga ramupa zvinhu zvaraivanzira vamwe vanhu venyama, munhu anogona kuenderera mberi zvekuti hapana aive nechikonzero chishoma kumupfuura chekushamisika. zvikaitika panguva iyoyo, pamwe chete naizvo zvaakanga achiri kuona, zvaakazivisa asingamiri, uye kuti akanga azvizivisa kwenguva refu kwazvo: saka haana kuita sokushamiswa kana kuzununguswa. Zvakasiyana nemweya iyo iri nyore kugumbura sezvavasina kusimba mukutenda, kana kuti vakagadzirira kugunun'una pamusoro pezvese zvinovapikisa, nekuti chete havambooni zvinhu zvese uye havambopindi mune zvakakura.

magadzirirwo eProvidence yavanofanira kunamata. Hanzvadzi yoKuberekwa kwaJesu yakanga iri pamusoro zvikuru mirangariro miduku yavanhu iyo inoganhurirwa kuudyire  uye inobatanidza chinhu chiri chose nezvido zvake  .

Uyo anotonga pasi rose uye akabata muruoko maketani ezviitiko zvikuru zvinoumba nhoroondo yaro, akanga amuratidza, kubva pauduku, Chimurenga cheFrance muzvikonzero zvaro zvakavanzika zvikuru, mumigumisiro yaro inotyisa zvikuru.

uye mumasutu ayo ari kure zvikuru. Pakanga pari kubva pakuona uku,  uko mweya wake mukuru wakambundikira, apo sisi vakafunga zvose zvakanga zvichiitika uye vakanga vachiri kugadzirira vakamupoteredza. Naizvozvo zvichida hatisati tamboona mweya unozvininipisa zvikuru, unopfidza zvikuru, unozviisa pasi zvikuru, kana kuti wakarega zvikuru kune zvose izvo zvaida Mwari kugadza kana kuti kubvumidza. Haana kumbotaura nezvazvo kunze kwekutya kwechokwadi kwechitendero uko, kunobatanidza zvese nechikonzero chemweya, kutyisa kunyange mumvuri wekugunun'una kana kusateerera. Ngatitii zviri nani, akataura zvakawanda pamusoro pazvo kuna Mwari, zvisingaite kuvanhu; kana kuti dzimwe nguva aizviona achimanikidzwa kupinda mazviri, aigarozviita neruremekedzo rukuru, nengwariro huru. Yakarohwa kupfuura zvimwe zvese  neizvi

(395-399)

pfungwa yechokwadi zvekuti zvakaipa zvedu hazvimbofi zvakamboitika kunze kwemhedzisiro uye kurangwa kwemhosva dzedu, aingoona avo vaaichema pasina kukanganisa sekurova kwakanaka kwaMwari uyo akatsvaga mumamiriyoni makumi matatu evapari mhosva kukanganwa nekuzvidza kwevatsvene vake. mitemo. Mukunyengetedza uku, aizviona semurwi akazvipira kuhasha dzekudenga, izvo iye ega angadai akada kupedza zvinhu zvese kuti asunungure hama dzake pazviri.

Mweya yakashata isina hunhu inotarisira zviwanikwa, apo nhamo inovatevera, kubva parufu rwavanorangarira semagumo arwo; uye uzivi hwenhema nehunyengeri huchiri kuzvitutumadza pakuzvidza uku kwakaipa uye kusina musoro kwehupenyu hwahusina hushingi hwekutakura. Hazvina kudaro nevashumiri vaMwari vechokwadi; vazere nezvidzidzo zvepamusoro-soro zvavakatora pachikoro chatenzi wavo woumwari, vanosimuka, nokutenda, kunyange kurudo rwekutambudzika kunosemeswa nomusikirwo, uye kunongova bedzi nevavariro dziri pachena zvikurusa. vanozvidza rufu.

Zvakadaro zvakaonekwa Hanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu mukati mehupenyu hwake hwose, uye ichi chimiro chepamusoro chaaigara machiri, tinogona, tinofanira kutenda kuti akangokura nekucheneswa sezvo magumo ake aiswedera. . Kure nekunyunyuta kuti denga raita kuti atambure sei, aigarobvunza nezvayo kutambudzika kutsva, senyasha dzinopfuura mafaro ese aaive awana kubva kwairi. Semumwe uyu gamba rechiKristu rakakodzera kufananidzwa naye, sezvo aivewo gamba rake

zana remakore, mutsvene wedu wepanguva ino akakumbira mukwanyina wake woumwari zvishoma kuti afe kuti agumise kurwara kwake, pane kuti ararame achitambura nguva dzose; ndoda kusiya nyika kuti tibatane naye, pane kuramba uripo uchikodzera mufaro wakadaro. Non mori, sed pati.

Ngakurege kuva nemunhu anotora izvi sekuwedzeredza kweumwari kwemunyori wepanegyrist; apa mabasa ake ndeechokwadi uye akakodzera kutendwa. Nguva zhinji mupfidzi akazvininipisa uyu, mwanasikana akakodzera waMusande Francis, akange akumbira Mwari wake kutambudzika zvekuti munhu haangapokane kuti zvese izvo zvakazadza nekugumisa hupenyu hwake zvaive mhedzisiro yemunamato wake uye yezvishuwo zvake zvemoyo. Icho chiri chete mumuchinjikwa wekutambudzika kunonatswa uye

anoruramisa kunaka kwevakarurama; ndipo apo mwoyo wake unotora chimiro ichocho chinofadza chinomuita kuti afadze kwazvo mumeso aMwari wake. Mudzidzi waJ.-C. anofanira kufanana natenzi wake muzvinhu zvose; kufanorongerwa kwake kwakavakirwa chose chose pakufanana uku; uye sezvo asina kodzero yokuenda kudenga kunze kwemuchinjiko weMudzikinuri wake, pamuchinjikwawo ndipo panofanira kupedzwa basa guru rokudzikinura kwake.

Chokwadi chakakosha chechiKristu icho Sista vakanga vanzwisisa zvakakwana. Izvi ndizvo zvese zvaaishuvira, zvaaitarisira, zvaaisimbirira pazviri, nezvaakasangana nazvo kusvika pakuguma kwehupenyu hwaingova hwenhamo dzakatevedzana.nemichinjikwa; kusvika pakuti zvinhu zvose zvatichaona zvinongova kukwana kwebasa guru iri, uye zvinongowedzera kune zvose zvatakaona. Murangariro usingafaniri kukanganwa pano ndewokuti Mwari uyo akanga amupa kutambura kwakawanda kudaro, uye uyo, kunyanya kumagumo eupenyu hwake, akamufumura mukushayiwa kwakawanda kwazvo, kupokanidzana kwakawanda nemiedzo yakawanda, akanga agarawo achinyaradza. uye akamutsigira nenyasha dzinoshamisa, uye pamusoro pezvoseakanga amurongera pakupedzisira nyaradzo dzinoshamisa uye dzisingatarisirwi, zvokuti iye pachake akanga ari mukuyemura uye akazadzwa nekutenda kunofadza zvikuru , sezvaakareurura kanopfuura kamwe chete, maererano noMukuru wake uye mamwe masisita aigara naye. Ndinotaura pano mazwi akakodzera etsamba dzandakanyorera panguva dzakasiyana. Pasinei nezvipingamupinyi izvo zviitiko zvinowedzera dutu zvaiita  sezviri

kuitwa kwechirongwa chake, Hanzvadzi haina kumbomukanganwa. Ane chokwadi kupfuura chero ani zvake kuti Mwari, paanoda, anoziva mashandisiro aangaita zvinhu zvose kuti aite zvaanoda; Achitsigirwa nekuchengetedza kwaProvidence anotarisa pamusoro pezvidiki-diki zvebasa rake, akange asina zvachose, kana zvishoma, kunetseka nezvipingamupinyi izvo zvingadai zvakavhiringidza chero munhu kunze kwake.

Denga rakanga risati rangomuzivisa zvakadzama uye zvakadzama zviitiko zvikuru zvaakanga achizivisa kwenguva yakareba, uye izvo zvematongerwo enyika.

munhu akanga asingagoni kufanoona, akanga awanawo kwaari zvikurukuru nzira dzakasiyana-siyana dzinofanira kushandiswa nedhimoni kuedza kuita kuti zvinhu zvose zvikundikane, dzimwe nguva richishandisa manomano, dzimwe nguva simba rakazaruka; dzimwe nguva kubva mukukasira, zvakanaka kana kuva nevavariro dzakaipa, kwevamwe vanhu, uye pasina kupokana zvakare kubva mukusachenjera nekusagona kwemupepeti pachake; asi akanga aitawo kuti aone, nokuda kwake, chishuvo chinopfuura zvinhu zvose, chinogona kutadzira chinhu chose; uyo, nematanho ekupikisa ayo muvengi wake asingazivi, anoziva nzira yekudzivisa misungo yake yakateyiwa zvine hungwaru, uye kubata dhimoni pacharo mumambure ake.

Zvaienderana nezviedza zvemukati izvi

(400-404)

kuti akashanda asingamiri kuti bhizinesi ribudirire pasina chaigona kumubvisa kubva panguva yaaifunga kuti aive nechokwadi chekuda kwaMwari. Akanga atora mukana wenguva dzangu dzose dzandakasununguka, pandakanga ndiinaye, kuti andiite kuti ndinyatsopinda mumaonero ake, nokunditsanangurira hurongwa hwake uye nzira dzake dzokuzviita nadzo. Paakangoziva kuti ndakanga ndakachengeteka nemashoko ake, uye kuti ndakanga ndichiachengeta mhiri kwemakungwa, sezvaainge agara afanonditaurira, akabva atora mukana wenguva yega yega iyo yaipfuurawo munharaunda, uye kubva. chido chakanaka chemasisita maviri aakanga aisa muchivande chake, kunditumira zvakatevedzana zvinyorwa zvine kupepeta kunogovera chikamu chose chechipiri chebasa rake, sezvatinoziva.

Manotibook ese aya ndakapihwa rimwe nerimwe nenguva yaro, kunze kwerimwe chete rakashaikwa pakuunganidzwa, pasina kutadza kuziva kuti chii chakaitika.

Iri bhuku rakarasika, randisingakwanise kushandisa, rine, pakati pezvimwe  zvinhu, hunhu hunokatyamadza, hwandinofunga kuti ndinofanira kuyeuka, nekuda kweruzivo rwekuti masisita anarwo, uye nekuyeuka kwakanyanya kweuyo akanga anyora  .

Hanzvadzi iyi yakataura ipapo kuti pane imwe nguva muupenyu hwavo, Mwari akanga aita kuti aone diocese yeRennes, ine vafundisi vayo, iri munda wemichero wakaisvonaka wakasimwa nemiti yakaorera yehukuru hwakasiyana uye makuriro. Akacherechedza ipapo, pakati pezvimwe zvinhu, miti miviri yechinyakare, iri pedyo zvikuru nomumwe nomumwe, iyo yairatidzika kwaari yakakotama pasi pehuremu hwemichero yayo sepasi peiyo miti.

makore. Akanga achivayemura vari vaviri, apo mhepo imwe cheteyo yakangoerekana yavadzura pamberi pameso ake, ndokuvawisira pasi, kukusafara kwake kukuru.

Zvimwe akanga asingazivi zvino zvinoreva chiratidzo; asi nokukurumidza pashure, chiitiko chinoorora chakauya kuzochitsanangura kwaari; kwaiva kufa kwevaviri vaichimbova vaprista vedhiocese imwe cheteyo yeRennes, mumwe wavo akanga ari mutungamiriri kwenguva refu weUrbanists of Fougères. Nguva dzose vakanga vari shamwari dzakanaka, uye dzinenge nguva dzose vakabatana nebasa roushumiri hwavo. Vaive MM. Duclos uye Pothin. Vakafa kamwe kamwe, zuva rimwe chetero; wekutanga aive rector weparamende yeParigné, zvikwata zviviri kubva kuFougères; wechipiri, aimbova mutungamiriri weLadies Hospitallers, aimbova rector weSaint-Aubert chapel, iyo isiri kure nazvo. Hanzvadzi pachayo yakaona pachiitiko ichi kuzadzikiswa kwechiratidzo chakashumwa, uye nezvacho kanopfuura kamwe chete kutaura kuHanzvadzi dzake.

YECHIPIRI ERA.

Sister kunze kweKumusha.

Ndizvo zvakanga zvapfuura makore maviri okutanga kubva pandakasunungurwa, akanga ari maviri asati asvika eHanzvadzi yacho. Munamato, kufungisisa, kurangarira, kupfidza, zvakanga zvagoverana nhambo dzose idzo kutaura kwake kwakanga kuchiri kumusiya, uye kurega kwake basa kwakakwana kwakamusiya rusununguko rwakakwana rwokukwanisa kurangarira, norunyararo rwose urwo rudzidziso runopa kumweya iyo Denga rinowana zvisingadzivisiki. kuparadzana uko masisita akanga atyisidzirwa nako kwenguva yakareba, uye akanga aita kuti vafanoona kwenguva refu zvikuru.

Pakupedzisira, kwakauya zuva rinouraya uye risingakanganwiki apo, maererano nehurongwa nemitemo yeungano inomiririra, mutemo wechipiri kana wechitatu wakapa kuEurope yose, uye kunyika yose yechiKristu, chiitiko chinotyisa kune mweya inonamata zvokuti kwaifadza vavengi vose venhevedzano, ruramisiro, rudzidziso norudzi rwomunhu, izvo zvamasisita anopfuura zviuru zana akabvamburwa muzvitokisi zvavo ndokumanikidzirwa kudzokera kunyika yavakanga vaonekana nayo nokusingaperi. Kurova kwakadini! Ndinoti kuratidzwa kwakadai kwakafadza varume vandaratidza; asi, chero bedzi tichiriteerera, tichabvumirana kuti chaizvoizvo kukunda kwavo kunofanira kunge kwaisaratidzika kuva kunobwinya zvikuru kwavari, uye kuti mweya wavo, kana wakachengeta.

zvichiri imwe pfungwa yechokwadi, pakanga paine chikonzero chidiki chekuchirumbidza nechomukati.

Kwenguva refu vanhu vechitambi ichi vakanga vazvibata kumeso nebudiriro yakakwana mumhiko dzechitendero. Vakanga vaedza, munzira dzese, kuratidza mavhavha nemamongi semajeri eruzhinji nemajeri, akazadzwa nevanosiririsa vakawirwa neshungu dzisina kungwara uye nehudzvinyiriri hwemashura, zvakasiyana, vakadaro. , kune zvakanaka munharaunda zvakare. maererano nezvido zvechisikigo. Vakanga, naizvozvo, vanyora uye vakaedza kunyengetedza kuti, kudai idzi dzokudzokera dzokumanikidzira dzakanga dzazarurwa zvishomanene, masisita angadai akaonekwa achipukunyuka mavari mumafungu makuru. Ikoko kwakadini, ipapoka, uye ruvengo rwakadini rwakavanzika, apo, pashure pokunge vaedza zvisina maturo nzira dzose, vakazviwana vamene vachisungirwa kuita chisimba chinonyadzisa zvakaenzana uye chinokatyamadza, kuwana zvisina kumbokwanisa kuwana kunyengetedza kana zvipikirwa! Zvinonzi chii

(405-409)

Idivi ripi kukunda kana kukundwa, uye nderipi remapato maviri aive nechikonzero chekukunda!

Kare muna 1790, manisiparati akanga avazivisa nezvechishuvo chegungano chokudzorera kwavari rusununguko rwavaifanira kuzvidemba zvikuru.

Calumnious supposition; uyewo chikumbiro chakaitwa kwavari chakatorwa pasi rose uye chakagamuchirwa sekutuka, uye mhinduro yakajairika yemasisita eFrance yakanga isina kunaka uye yakasimba kwazvo, zvekuti yakavatsividza zvizere nekuda kwehuori, uye yakaita zvematongerwo enyika zvakanyanya paungano. kuti masisita akanga asiri izvo zvakanga zvadavirwa, uye kuti tsigiro yavo, yakabatanidzwa mukudzivisa mhiko yavaprista vanoramba kuita mhiko, uye kubumbiro remitemo yavagari vemo revafundisi, nokukurumidza kana kuti gare gare yaigona kuita denho inouraya kumabasa ose oufundisi. zuva, nekupidigura hurongwa hwese hwechimurenga. Somugumisiro, vasingachatarisiri chinhu chipi nechipi kubva kumasisita kana kuti  vapristi, vakarega kuomerera kumakwara outsinye, nzira bedzi yokubudirira nayo uye kuvakunda.

Saka waive musi waGunyana 27, 1792 apo chirevo chinoparadza chakaitwa kune varongi vedhorobha reFougères. Pachiziviso chokutanga

vakanga vaitwa, vakanga vaita kuti vose, vapenyu pamusoro pazvose nezano reHanzvadzi yoKuberekwa kwaJesu, iyo yakataura yakamirira Mwari, yakaratidzira ruvengo rwavo rusingakundiki rwokuti vateerere mutemo unopesana zvikuru nezvishuvo zvavo negadziriro dzavo; Zvino panguva yokurovererwa, vose vaduku navakuru vakaenda kundorongedza kwaya, mumwe nomumwe panzvimbo yake, vachinyengetera kuti panzvimbo yavanoda kufira, vaurayiwe. Hasha dzimene dzakasundwa misodzi nazvo; vanhu vakatumwa vakavapindura, kuti havangavaiti zvakaipa; asi kuti vaienda, vachida kana nechisimba, kuvatungamirira vose kumotokari dzakanga dzakavamirira pachivanze kuti dzivaendese kwavaienda. Ipapo pakanga pasina chimwe chinhu mukwaya kunze kwekugomera, misodzi, kuchema, kuchema uye kugomera. Mumwe nemumwe, ave kunyara, seizvo munhu angasanofungidzira, mu<em>nun zvikurukuru anogona kuva akadaro zvishoma, asingatyi chinhu zvikuru zvokutozviona amene akabatwa, uye zvichida kubatwa noutsinye navarume vasingagoni kurangarira; naizvozvo kwakanga kuri madikanwa kusarudza uye kutora rutivi rwesimba rokuteerera.

Vakasimuka vakafa kupfuura vapenyu, uye pakushevedzwa kwemazita, kufanana nemukuru wavo, vakachema kuti vabatane nemotokari. Zvese izvi zvainge zvaitika mumba zvekuti mhomho yevanhu vainge vazara pachivanze vainge vazviona uye hapana chavakanzwa. Zvaienderana nembiri yaJ.-C. kuti zvapupu zvekupambwa kwevadzimai vake zvinofanirawo kuva zvapupu zvechisimba chakaitwa kumanzwiro avo echokwadi. Vasvika pamusuwo wengoro mavakabuda napo, Hanzvadzi yoKuzvarwa kwaJesu yaitevera chinyararire, yakatendeukira kuvarindi nevemunisiparati vachivakumbira, nokuda kwaMwari, mvumo yokutaura: pakava nokunyarara kukuru. ; Hanzvadzi yakavatarira, ndokuti kwavari nenzwi guru uye rinonzwisisika, ichitaura muzita remasisita ose: “Varume Mwari vanondiraira kuti ndikuzivise kuti tingasarudza kufa pane kutyora zvakakomberedzwa zvedu, kana zvibvumirano zvedu zvitsvene; asi sezvo tichifanira kukuteererai nechokunze, tinotsutsumwa pamusoro pechisimba chatiri kuitirwa, uye tinokuzivisai kuti tinodana denga kuti rizvipupurire. Vose vakamunzwa, vazhinji vakachema, uye hapana akapindura.

Mushure memashoko mapfupi aya asi ane simba, akataurwa nenzwi rakasimba uye rakatsunga iro, zvisinei nezera ravo, Sista yaiziva kutora paidiwa, yakasundira kure ruoko rwaakapiwa, ndokupinda mungoro yaizomuendesa kuna M. Binel de la Jannière, uyo, maererano nomukurumbira wake, akanga akumbira ndokuwana kuti amugarise pamba pake nehanzvadzi dzake mbiri, masisita omunharaunda imwe cheteyo.

Madame la Supérieure vakaendeswa kuna M. Bochin, muramu wake, uye vamwe, kana kuti kuvabereki vavo, kana kuti kune vamwe vagari vemo vakanga vakanaka zvakakwana kuvatarisira vachimirira murayiro mutsva wokuti vasarudze mugumo wavo; nekuti,

pamberi pegadziriro ipi neipi, kwakanga kwarangarirwa kuva kwakafanira kuvabvisa kwechinguvana mudzimba dzavo, kuaisa panzira yakarongwa. Rupo rworudzi rusati rwaronga nzira yokugovera nayo chokurarama nacho, kwaifungwa kuva kune mufungo kubvisa denga ravo, chingwa chavo, uye nokukurumidza pashure pacho kunyange zvipfeko zvavo.

Yakanakisa nzira yekubvisa matambudziko ese.

Vakasvika pamba paM. Binel, vanasisi vatatu vakatungamirirwa nemhuri, vachifara uye vachichema panguva imwe chete, kuimba yavakarongerwa. Ikoko, vakapfugama pamberi pechipiyaniso chakanga chaiswa patafura nokuda kwechinangwa, vakanyengetera kwenguva refu, uye nemisodzi mizhinji nokuchema, kuna Mwari Muponesi kuti agamuchire chibairo chaaida kwavari, uye icho ivo vakabatanidza kune uyo iye pachake akazvigadzira pamuchinjikwa kuti vanhu vaponeswe. Vese  vaiona chiitiko ichi chaishamisa vakabatwa-batwa ndokupfaviswa zvekusvika pakusanganisa misodzi yavo nevaiona ichibuda. Guta rose rakanga rava nenyonganyonga; moyo yakanaka yese  ipapo

(410-414)

vaiva nehanya, mweya yose yainamata yainzwa kuvhiringidzika uye kurwadziwa. Rukudzo nekuda kwehugamba hwekudzvanyirirwa kwakanaka. Murangariro uyu wairatidzika kuva wakarurama uye womuzvarirwo kwazvo, zvokuti wakatenderwa nokunyarara kwechinguvana kwavakaipa vamene, avo vairatidzika neimwe nzira yokugoverana nawo.

Saka heunoi pakupedzisira, mweya uyu unonamata kwazvo, musikana uyu anoshamisa kwazvo, akatorwa kubva muurombo uhwu hunodiwa hwaakanga agomera zvikuru! Heunoi, kufanana nehanzvadzi dzake dzose, adzingwa uye akaraswa nokusingaperi mumba umo, kubvira pauduku, Mwari akanga amupa kuravidza kwakadaro kwakasarudzwa, kukwezvwa kukuru, kudanwa kwakajeka kwakadaro! Saka zvinongozvizadzisa.

uku kufanotaura kwaaifanira kutamburira zvakanyanya! SaJérémie, Hanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu nhasi ndiye nyajambwa wenhamo dzaakanga azivisa. Vasingatendi, ndeupi uchapupu hwamunobvunza pamusoro pekufemerwa kwake?

Kana Mwari achibvumira avo vakatemerwa kare kuti vaonekwe kumiedzo inoshamisa, panguva imwe cheteyo anovavakira nyasha dzakaenzana, dzinokwanisa, kunyange, kudzikamisa muedzo wacho. Ane ngava nazvo

kushaya simba kwechisikwa chake, kukutya kwaanako kusamufadza, zvakanyanya kukuvimbika kwechipikirwa chake, uye kune iyo yakanaka kunaka iyo isingatenderi chero munhu kuedzwa kupfuura simba rake. Iyi ndiyo dzidziso yaMusande Pauro: Fidelis est Deus qui non patietur vos tentari suprà id quod poteslis. ( 1 VaK. 10, 13 ) Anoti, “Achaenda mberi, kunyanya nezvevasanangurwa vake, nokuti achashandisa muedzo wacho kuvaita kuti vakunde muedzi, uye muedzo wacho kuti aite kuti vapfuurire mberi. kukwana kwemamiriro avo ezvinhu: sed faciet eum temptatione proventum. (ibid.)Izvi ndizvo zvakasangana nevatsvene vose maererano nekutendeka kwavo kunyasha; ndizvo zvakare zvainzwikwa naSista weKuzvarwa kwaJesu panguva dzese dzehupenyu hwake, asi kunyanya mumamiriro ezvinhu akanyanya kuoma nekuda kwekunaka kwake, uye nedutu rakanyanya kusimba rake, maererano nekubvuma kwaakaita. sezvataona.

Hey! Mwari angagona sei, handiti kusiya, asi kuregeredza mweya unozviisa pasi pemirairo yake yose, akatendeka kumabasa ake ose, anoramba achiita zvakanaka zvose? mweya unoziva kutakura muedzo neushingi hukuru, uye unozviratidza sewakasimba mukukwirira kwematambudziko uye zvinonyadzisa, sezvo waive wakazvininipisa uye unotya mukukwirira kwenyasha; ngatitaure zviri nani, mweya waigaro funga nyasha semiidzo, nemiedzo senyasha. Zvakadaro nguva dzose zvaiita semukadzi akasimba zvechokwadi uyu, uye haana kumbobvira aita seari nani kupfuura mumakore ekupedzisira ehupenyu hwaingova humbowo hunoramba huripo hwezvatiri kufambira mberi.

Kure kure naaya masisita akadekara, anodziya uye asina kukwana, kubva kuvakadzi ava vaigona kunzi vasingatendi nemhombwe, vangadai vakarangarira  nyika yavakaderedzwa kwairi senguva yakanyarara kubva  pakutanga kwavo.

Zvisungo, Hanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu yakaona mazviri, pane kudaro, kwaari uye nevamwe, chikonzero chakanyanya kumanikidza, vavariro yakanyanyisa yekuva akatendeka kwavari kupfuura nakare kose; aidavira kuti sisita akasiya chigaro chake nenhamo yenguva yacho anofanira kuva anoshingaira zvikuru kupfuura nakare kose mukuzadzika mhiko dzake nemirau, zvikuru sezvinobvumira migariro. Asisadzivirirwe nemadziro akamuparadzanisa nenyika, anofanira kuatsiva. nokungwarira kwake, kuti awedzere kaviri kurinda pfungwa dzake mukufunga uye mukuwirirana nezvinonyadzisa nengozi zvakamupoteredza, kuti arege kuzviratidzira amene kuva pfambi kumudzimu wenyika mwoyo wakatsaurirwa kuna J.-C., uye anofanira kumutsva chete. Pakupedzisira, kunyange zvazvo aiva nemakore anopfuura makumi matanhatu nemashanu, akatenda kuti kunyatsongwarira chete kwaigona kumudzivirira kubva pakutapukira  kwechirwere .

muenzaniso wakaipa uye uori hwetsika.

Kwakanga kuri kutsinhirana nenheyo idzodzo huru dzetsika dzechiKristu, mitemo iyoyo youpenyu hwemamongi iyo akanga atora zvikuru kwazvo pachikoro chaJ.

kuti mukuita kwemabasa ake, kuti Hanzvadzi yoKuberekwa kwaJesu, isingagutsikani nokuidzokorora kuna vamwe panguva iri yose, yakazvishandisa munzira iri yose kutsiva mukati nokunze kuva yoga kwaakanga achangobva kunyimwa. Akazvivharira mukaimba kadiki kemudenga kaingobuda kana pasina nzira. Iri kamuri nhete, raakaita sero rake, rakatora nzvimbo yeyaakanga asiya, uye rakava, sokunge zvakadaro, guva rake, sezvo rakanga riripo iro raakauya kuzofa, makore mashomanene gare gare, sesu. saka. Ikoko ndiko, akapfeka uye akafukidzwa mumasara ezvipfeko zvake zvechitendero zvisina kunaka, akagovera nguva yake yose pakati pemunamato, kufungisisa, kuverenga mabhuku ehuMwari, mazano vanhu vakauya kuzomubvunza, kuhanzvadzi dzake kana kumhuri yakatendeka yaimupa zvokudya nepokugara.

“Unotya kuti hauna pekugara,

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akanga amboti kwaari kare J.-C., achizivisa kuenda kwake, pinda mumwoyo mangu  uye ini ndichatora nzvimbo  yezvose  nokuda kwako ini ndiri zvose kwaari iye zvinhu zvose zvisina chinhu,  uye

uyo anosiya zvose kuti andiwane; Providence wangu haambosiyi iye anovimba neni ndoga, nezvimwe. Zvinoshamisa here kuti Hanzvadzi yakasiya basa, uye kunyange kufara zvakanyanya mumamiriro ayo matsva? Tinofanira kushamisika here kana akafunga kuti hapana chaaishaya apo vamwe vakawanda vaizofunga kuti vaishaya zvose; kana akazviwana achinetswa netarisiro duku yaitorwa pazvose zvaiva nechokuita naye? Sekutaura kwake, vaigara vachimuitira zvakawanda, uye aisaratidzika kuva akasununguka sezvaiita vanhu vakanga vasina basa naye. Chinhu chipi nechipi chairatidzika kuva chokurangarira chaimurwadza; kurumbidza kuduku kwakamurwadza, uye nzira yechokwadi yokuva nechido muushamwari hwake yakanga iri yokuratidzika kuva inomuzvidza;

Vachitevera muenzaniso, uye nemutsoka dzevatsvene vazhinji avo, kuti vanyaradze kutsamwa kwaMwari, sekudzivirira kusasimba kwavo, vakawedzera kaviri kupfidza kwavo nekuoma kwavo munguva dzezviedzo nekutambudzwa apo Chechi yakafumurwa, Sista. yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu yakapinda mumaonero mamwe chete, uye nguva dzose yainzwa kumutswa nemweya mumwe chete. Kare kare

kuti akanamata uye akashanda kudzivirira njodzi dzaakanga afanotaura; munhu anogona kutotaura kuti upenyu hwake hwose akanga apedzera ikoko; asi nguva yaakaona kubudirira kwayo kuchizadzikiswa maari, akatsunga kupfuura nakare kose kupa upenyu hwake hwose kwairi, achipira pfungwa dzake mukuzvininipisa, mwoyo wake kumarwadzo, uye muviri wake wose mukutambura, asingambonyunyuti pamusoro pechimwe chinhu.

Achisiya nharaunda yake, akatora, nokuraira kwaMwari, uyo aida kutenderwa nomukuru wake, gore rokutsanya pamusoro pechingwa nemvura, uye akatsungirira mariri, chero chipi zvacho chaigona kutaura kana kuita munhu kuti azvidzivise. Zvaitoda kumunyengedza kuti aise bota diki mumuto waaive apihwa akabvumirwa uye kuti akamanikidzwa kutora, iyo, uyezve, yaingova nemvura chete nemuriwo muduku uye munyu. Paakaona kunyengera kwacho, akagunun’una nezvazvo, achiti vaida kumukanganisa uye aitya migumisiro yacho. Zvichida vaifanira kutyiwa zvikuru kwatiri kupfuura zvingafungwa nomunhu. Ndiani anoziva zvatisina chikwereti kuupenyu hwakadaro? Zvinowanzoitika nekuda kwemweya yehunhu uhu kuti Mwari vanopa nyasha kune vamwe vazhinji, kumaguta, kuumambo, kune nyika yese. Kungave kutaura zvakawandisa here, kungave kunyarara here, kutaura kuti uyu angangove akabatsira kupfuura chero ipi zvayo kuti pakupedzisira atiwanire nguva dzinofadza dzaasina kunakidzwa nazvo, asi dzaakanga azivisa kwatiri kakawanda kubva kudenga? ... utera?

Akakomba uye achifunga sezvaaigara ari, zvisinei aiziva kuzvichinjisa kumamiriro ezvinhu, sezvatatoona; ainzwira tsitsi kushayiwa kwevamwe, uye hunhu hwake hwakanga husina kuoma kunze kwake. Pasina kumbobviswa, kutandara kwake dzimwe nguva kwainakidza zvikuru kune mweya yainamata yaaigara nayo. Ichokwadi kuti munhaurirano dzake akarangarira chinhu chiri chose kumazano ake makuru pamusoro paMwari nokunaka; asi se

Aiva nepfungwa dzakangoita sokunge mwoyo wake wakanga wakanaka uye wakanaka, aiisa mune zvose zvaaitaura kururama nokururama izvo zvaifadza kufarira kukuru. Kunyange zvazvo akanga akati rebei munzira yake yokurondedzera, vanhu vaigara vachida kumunzwa kusvikira kumugumo, uye taiwanzomubvunza zvakawanda kupfuura zvaaida kutaura.

Kubva pakusunungurwa kwemasisita, hurukuro dzake hadzina kutenderera pane chero chinhu kunze kwemaitiro aifanira kuita sisita munyika kuti agaremo.

isa ruponeso rwake nemhiko dzake mukuchengeteka, uye kufunganya uku kunoguma chete noupenyu hwake. Kane chiuru akadzokorora kwavari kuti hwaizova maitiro avo

pashure pokudzingwa kwavo, kuti J.-C. rimwe zuva aizoziva vadzimai vake vechokwadi kubva kune avo vaizova netsika bedzi. Akaramba achidzokera kunyaya iyi, iyo yaakashandura nenzira dzine chiuru, kunyanya apo kuvhiringidzika kwavo kwakasvika, kwakaitika musi waSeptember 14, 1793, haana kumbomira kutaura nezvazvo, kana kurayira masisita nzira yavanofanira kupfeka nayo. iwe pachako. Hakusi kuti akanga asingazivi kuti haisi nzvimbo yacho kana kuti tsika inoita sisita; asi akaomerera pakuti sisita akanga asina kupfeka aifanira kuramba, sezviri maari, kuoneka zvaari, uye kudzivisa, nokungwarira kwose kunobvira, rudzi rwupi norwupi rwomupfekero rungagona kumuita kuti avhiringidzwe navanhu venyika.

Rimwe zuva, pakati pezvimwe zvinhu, akapedza inopfuura awa yakanaka achitaura kwavari, nenzira yake amene, mufananidzo wemhandara.

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mhandara dzakapusa uye dzakachenjera, uye anovaudza zvinhu zvinoshamisa uye zvinoshamisa pamusoro pazvo kusvikira pakupedzisira. Imwe nguva, akaudza Sabhuku kuti munguva pfupi paizova nekurwisana kwaaizonzwa kurwadziwa kukuru; iyo yakasimbiswa nokumwe kutsauka pakati pemasisita pachavo. Aiwanzodzokorora kwaari kuti aizova nemarwadzo mazhinji mumuviri nomupfungwa; asi kuti Mwari akanga anewo kunyaradzwa kwakawanda kwaakachengetera. Akaita, mune mamwe mamiriro ezvinhu, zviziviso zvakafanana nevamwe vanhu vakawanda vainzwa chokwadi.

YECHITATU ERA.

Sister nemunin'ina wavo.

Nokukurumidza pashure pokunge masisita adzingwa munharaunda yavo, ivo vakamanikidzwa, nomutemo, kusiya zvipfeko zvavo zvorudzidziso; zvino pasina nguva wakaonekwa mumwe mutemo wakavasungira kudzokera kumhuri dzavo uye kugara panzvimbo yavakaberekerwa. Nokudaro Hanzvadzi yoKuberekwa kwaJesu, yakamanikidzirwa kuteerera, kufanana navamwe, iyi nhevedzano itsva, yakaparadzana nokurwadziwa namasisita maviri ayo, pakusiya nzanga yavo, akanga

naye mumba memukoma wavo, kuFougères, uye vakabva vademba mhuri inoremekedzwa yaM. Binel, kuenda kuna Guillaume le Royer, mukoma wake, uyo akazobata purazi reMontigny, riri muChapelle-Janson, chaizvo. padyo nemusha weLa Pellerine, paramende yeMaine. Vakamutora vakaenda naye ikoko; asi akayeredza misodzi achisiya hanzvadzi dzake dzainge dzave pedyo nekuvharirwa sezvaainge avaudza. Akatomboreurura kwavari kuti kuparadzana uku kwakamutorera zvakati wandei, sekusiya kwavo nharaunda. Pasina kupokana tichaona magadzirirwo akaitwa naMwari mushanduro iyi yeHanzvadzi kunyika yaakaberekerwa, kana taona mabasa aakaita kumunun’una wake, uye kubatsira kwaakaita mhuri yake mumamiriro ezvinhu akaoma kudaro, mudutu rakadaro. weather.

Dzvinyiriro dzinotyisa dzakanga dzatanga gore rakanga rapfuura uye dzisina kunyaradzwa kusvikira gore rakatevera, dzakanga dzava paurefu hwadzo muFougères, semumamwe maguta ose. Pakanga pari panguva iyeyo kutonga kwokutyisa: zvikumbiro, vatapi, zvirambidzo, zvirambidzo, kupfigira mutorongo, kuuraya, mitemo yose yeropa, mitemo yose youtsinye yakanga yakarongeka; gumi, gumi nevaviri, gumi nevashanu, uye vagari vangangosvika gumi nevapfumbamwe vaipfuura zuva nezuva pasi pechidziyo chinotyisa cherufu, iro zita chairo rinoita kuti vanhu vadedere. Zvakanga zvakakwana kuva nechimwe chinhu, kubatanidzwa kune nheyo dzomunhu, kana kuti kuva nomumwe muvengi wakavanzika, kuti ashorwe, uye zvakanga zvakakwana kuti anzi ane mhosva: kubva ipapo kuenda kugurokuro kwaingova ‘nhanho.

Pane chikonzero chipi nechipi chokushamiswa here kuti zvinotyisa zvakadaro zvakaparira kumukira mumatunhu akawanda kudaro? Fougères yakava chiitiko chinosuruvarisa, semamwe mataundi mazhinji. Yakatorwa zvakatevedzana uye yakatorwazve nevaVende, neBlues uye nemaChouans: kanopfuura kamwe chete ivo vanga vari padanho rekuipisa. Dzimwe nguva mureza muchena waionekwa uchiyangarara ipapo, dzimwe nguva tricolor; dzimwe nguva vainzwa vachidaidzira Vive le Roi! uye dzimwe nguva Raramai maSans-Culottes! uye iyo yose, maererano nekubudirira kwechinguva kune rimwe nerimwe bato: mushoko, mumwe akaona ipapo zvose zvinotyisa zvehondo dzevagari vemo. Ropa romunhu rakayerera richibva kumativi ose. Mune dzimwe nzvimbo kunyanya, migwagwa yakanga yakazara nezvitunha zvokuti zvakanga zvisingaiti

Huipi hwakanga hwakunda nguva refu pamusoro pemirairo yose hwakanga hwapararira mumaruwa, umo utsinye hwairamba huchiitwa hunonetsa kutsanangura. Vapristi vemapato maviri aya ndivo vaingofanana nekurova kwebato raipikisa. Avo vebato chairo ndivo vakanyanya kufumurwa pakuti, kuva nemasimba aipikisana navo, ndivo vaive ivo

ivo voga vane vanhu vaida hushumiri: uyewo mapoka maviri akavatsvaka siku nesikati, asi nevavariro yakasiyana zvikuru (1).

(1) Vapristi vakanaka vaisungirwa kuramba vakahwanda pasi pevhu, pakati peminda kana kuti mumamongi, mavaibuda usiku chete, kuti vaende kuvarwere. Kashoma kuti vadzoke vasina kumbopfura zvishoma, vagamuchira mabara mashomanana, kana kuti vapinda mungozi.

Vamwe, vadzivirirwa neuto guru, vakanga vasina imwe hanya kunze kwokuvanda zvakanaka kubva kuvapanduki. Avo vakanga kwose kwose vainzi maKatorike uye vaprista vakanaka vaigara vachitsvakwa uye vachiurayiwa pasina tsitsi nevaBlues, avo kazhinji kazhinji vaisarega vatsigiri veBumbiro reMitemo. Iwaya aitsvakwa navaChouan, avo vasina kuashandisa zviri nani kupi nokupi kwavaigona kuvawana (1).

(1) M. Duval, mutungamiriri weLaignelet, uye M. Sorette, muprista weparishi yeChatellier, zvidzidzo zviviri zvakaisvonaka, vakanga, munenge mumabasa avo, vakapondwa nevaBlues. M. de Lesquin, mutungamiriri weBazonge, M. Porée, muprista weruwa rweSilly, M. Larcher, mutungamiriri webumbiro remitemo weMelle, vakasarudzwa navaChouan. Ini ndinongotaura iyi chete mienzaniso yehasha dzemapato maviri, uye ndinozvitaura nekuti zvakaitika zvakatenderedza Fougeres, uye vane hukama hwakawanda nezvechokwadi chandinofanira kutaura.

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Musiyano wose ndewokuti vanhu vakanaka vakademba vokutanga, vakakomborera ndangariro dzavo, vakakoshesa zvisaririra zvavo. Hapana akafunga nezvekupedzisira (1).

(1) Denga, iro nokuda kwezvikonzero zvatinofanira kunamata, rakabvumira utsinye hwakadaro, dzimwe nguva rairatidzikawo kushatirwa. Taizonyora mavhoriyamu kana tichida kuunganidza hunhu hunokatyamadza hwouku kutsamwa kunooneka, handisi kutaura bedzi kumuKristu upi noupi anonzwisisa asina kurasikirwa nokutenda, asiwo kumunhu upi noupi asingafariri kuzvipofumadza amene. Ndichataura vaviri kana vatatu vane mukurumbira wakakwana kuti vasapokane.

Zuva rakatevera M. Duval, mutungamiriri weLaignelet, aurayirwa pedyo neFougères, moto wakabva kudenga wakawira pashongwe yeSt.-Léonard muguta rimwe chetero, uye chiitiko ichi chakaperekedzwa nokutinhira, mheni, chimvuramabwe, aizi uye mhute, pakupedzisira yemamiriro ezvinhu ane chisimba uye kunyange achipokanidzana, zvokuti vakanga vasingatyi zvikuru vakatyiswa navo, uye kuti vaingonzi vaiita chirango chakabva kuna Mwari. Ichi ichokwadi chinopupurirwa neguta rose.

Izvi zvichangoitika, muparidzi wepamusha mumwe chete uyu akafa achichema kuti ari kuwira mugomba . Ichokwadi kuti nguva pfupi asati afa, akapupura zvakare kuti aizofira mumitemo yechimurenga; asi ichokwadiwo kuti akatangazve, nguva yakatevera, kushevedzera kuti: Ndibudisei mugomba rakadzikadzika! Ndiponesei pagomba rakadzika-dzika! Ndinowira mugomba rakadzika-dzika! uye kuti akaramba achidaro, pasina vanhu vaimubatsira vakakwanisa kumudzivisa.

Denga nechechi yeSt. Aubin-Tergate, muNormandy, zvakapiswawo nemoto wakabva kudenga, paaiva mune mbavha. Handisi kutaura nezvevose vakapiswa nevaChou pachiitiko chimwe chetecho.

Mune imwe paramende iri pedyo neFougères, chamupupuri chimwe chetecho chakadonhedza machimuni edzimba mbiri dzevapanduki, uye hachina kukuvadza kune yemumwe muKristu weumambo aive pakati pevaviri ava.

Mumwe murume akanga akaipa, aibva kunyika yeVitre akazora shangu dzake mafuta matsvene, asi akanga ari chirema. Chokwadi chinotevera hachina kuita ruzha rushoma; Ndine kubva kumhuri inoremekedzwa yakabva kunzvimbo uye yakandiudza mamiriro makuru. Yakanga iri muBrest iyo chinhu chakaitika:

Panguva iyo upfumi hwemaChechi hwainge hwabatwa, mumwe murume ane rombo rakanaka uyo akanga ari mukongiresi nevaJesuit akatakura pamapfudzi ake, ane mhosva dzakawanda uye kumhura, mufananidzo mumwe chete wesirivha waamai vaMwari, waakanga ambotakura. pamibhedha neruremekedzo rukuru neruremekedzo. Mumwe weshamwari dzake akamunzwa akamuyeuchidza nezvemazuva iwayo ekare. Iyi ndangariro, iyo yaifanira kunge yakadzora kuputika kwake uye kusaipa kwake, yakashanda chete kuzvipamhidzira. Akataura zvinotyisa pamusoro peMhandara iyi yakanga yadzidziswa navatenzi vokutanga kuimba nziyo dzokurumbidza. Pakarepo, vakashamisika vaoni, muromo wake wakashanduka, chiso chake chikatyisa, akazvitya; uye ndakavimbiswa kuti kusvika parizvino zvinoita hapana imwe nzira yaigona kuzogadzirisa mamiriro ake ezvinhu akaipa kunze kwekuzvibvisa munzanga. Akasiya kumusha kwake, mapoka mashomanana kubva kuBrest, kwaanongoona sevanhu vashomanana sezvinobvira, asi nguva dzose zvakakwana kuti ape zvapupu zvisingafungidziri uye mune nhamba dzakakodzera.

Hechino chimwe chisina chokwadi zvishoma, kunyangwe chave neruzhinji zvishoma. Panguva apo zvishongo zveatari zvaitengeswa pachena, apo makope nechasubles zvaishandiswa kugadzira zvifukidzo zvamabhiza, apo maarubhi akaisvonaka zvikurusa nedzimwe nguvo dzavaprista; pakupedzisira, apo zvinhu zvitsvene-tsvene zvaishumirwa nokuda kwezvinhu zvitsvene zvikurusa, makanga mune mutaundi reFougères, panzvimbo yeLa Fourchette, kana kuti Quatre-Moulins, mupengo uyo, kupfurikidza nokunatsa kwoushati nehasha, akazviisa mumaoko ake. musoro kupfekedza imbwa yake hombe semupristi aiti misa. Hapana chaishaikwa mukumuka kunotyisa kwaakanga aita kuti ave nani kuseka chiito chinoremekedzwa zvikuru chechitendero.

Mumamiriro ezvinhu aya, akaigadzira pamberi pegonhi rake, achidana vapfuuri kuti vauye kuzoungana mukepisi yake , iyo yaakaita kuti iite mafambiro aakange aidzidzira. Pasinei zvapo nehasha dzokusanamata umo vazhinji vakatakurwa nadzo panguva iyoyo, ichi chiono chakaratidzika kuva chinokuvadza meso, uye vazhinji vakapanduka. Jacobins akamuyambira nezvake

achisimudza mhuka yake, achitaura kuti mutambo uyu wakanga usiri panzvimbo yake, kana kuti wakakodzera. Naizvozvo aifanira kuendako; asi uyo asingasekwe pasina kurangwa ane nyevero yakakomba yokumupa.

Zuva rimwe chetero akabva apinda mukupenga kwaityisa, kwakabva kwaita hasha dzisingaite. Akachema zvikuru; chiso chake chaicho chaiva nechimwe chinhu chembwa; pakupedzisira, pakupera kwemaawa makumi maviri nemana, murume anosuruvarisa akaparara mukudengenyeka uye marwadzo mumatumbo izvo zvisingabviri kutsanangura. Ini ndinazvo kubva kuvanhu vakaona zvese, uye humbowo hwandakatsvaga ipapo pachezvacho hahuna kupokana neimwe nzira zvandichangobva kutaura.

KUFUNGA.

Mumwe anobvunza zuva nezuva kuti zvinogoneka sei kuti Mwari atambura zvakaipa zvakawanda, kunyomba kwakawanda, kushora kwakawanda, kutyisa kukuru kwaave akashatirwa nazvo pachena, pasina kupa chero humbowo hwesimba iri ratakatsunga kupikisa  . Tinotoita setiri kusvotwa nekunyarara kwaDivinity uku. Ungati kutenda kweimwe mweya kunopera simba, uye kuti dhimoni rekusanamata rinotora nzvimbo yekukunda  .

Nekudaro, zviri nyore kuparadza nyonganiso iyi nekupindura zvinhu zvitatu:

: 1° Mwari haasungirwi kuita zvishamiso nguva imwe neimwe munhu asina umwari paanoita seanomupikisa. Uchenjeri hwaChangamire hunodzongonyedza hurongwa hwakagadzwa nekuda kwezvikonzero zvinokwanisa kuzvitema ipapo. Iye Anodikamwa ane Kusingaperi kudivi rake haana chikonzero chekupindura ipapo kumunhu mudiki anoshinga kumupikisa. Varwere est quia œternus.

2. Hazvina kufanira uye hazvina kukodzera kuti Mwari aite minana nokukurumidza kana vanhu vaakuda. Mufambiro wakadaro, kunze kwokunyima kumwe kwokunaka kwokutenda, ungakuvadza rusununguko rwavakaipa. Kudai vose vasingadi Mwari navatadzi vakarangwa nokukurumidza sezvavakakodzera, chii chaizoitika kuurwu rusununguko rwokuita zvakanaka kana kuti zvakaipa? Munhu wese anofanira kuva nenguva yekuzviita akakodzera mibairo kana kurangwa.

3. Zvinokwana pakunaka kwaMwari kuti mweya yezvakanaka inogashira nguva nenguva umbowo hune musoro hwechokwadi hwavanotenda, uye nerubatsiro rwaMwari wavanovimba naye uye anovatsigira. Zvino, kune vakawanda kwazvo vorudzi urwu zvokuti hapana ane kodzero yokunyadziswa nomufambiro waMwari anoshivirira, uyo anoita nouremu nechiyero chete, uye ane kutungamirira kunotungamirira zvinhu zvose kumugumo wakafanira kwaari. zvakavanzwa kwatiri.

Genet,

kushanda Saint-Sauveur-des-Landes.

Mbudzi 5, 1803.

Apo zviitiko zvinotyisa kudaro zvakanga zvichiitika kumativi ake, Hanzvadzi, akaenda kumba kwemukoma wake papurazi duku muMontigny, akararama upenyu hune runyararo imomo.

achiri kupfidza kupfuura kuFougères kana munharaunda yake: aipedza mazuva nechikamu cheusiku achinyengetera. Mupristi, muprista weruwa rweLa Chapelle-Janson, aibuda kamwe kana kaviri pavhiki kubva muimba yake yepasi kuuya kuzomupa chirairo (M. Jambin), akanditungamirira kukamuri raaigara, uye, achindiratidza nzvimbo duku parutivi. mubhedha wake: Heino, akati kwandiri, ndiyo nzvimbo yandakamuwana, nenguva imwe kana mbiri mangwanani, achigadzirira, akapfugama, kuti areurure uye kugamuchira Chirairo Chitsvene chandakamuunzira. Apedza kutenda akabva aenda kunorara kuti azorore zvishoma...

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Vachipinda mumba mehanzvadzi yavo, Hanzvadzi yacho yakapfeka hembe dzechitendero sezvaibvira. Akazviitira karuzhowa kaitenderedza imba, nhete kupfuura gadheni, kuti awane mhepo yakachena kweawa. Haana kumbobvira abuda kunze kwekungoenda kumisa tsvene nguva zhinji sezvaaigona, zvisinei neutera hwake izvo zvakaita kuti rwendo urwu netsoka nguva dzose rurwadze zvikuru. Manheru ake nezvokudya zvake zvapashure pechisvusvuro chaiwanzoshandiswa mukurairidza vana vomumusha, zvikurukuru vazukuru vake navanun’una vake, avo akavaita kuti vaverenge katekisimo yavo neminyengetero yavo, iyo yaakatsanangura kwavari, achiwedzera kwavari Evhangeri ya Svondo yoga-yoga, uye achizviisa musimba ravo mune zvose zvaaitaura  kwavari.

Pakupinda mumba memukoma wake, akanga asarudza kushandisa mukana woukuru hwakamuvimbisa norudo noruremekedzo zveiyi mhuri yose yevarombo uye yakatendeseka, ndokuzongovarambidza rudzi rwupi norwupi rwemari pachiitiko chake. Chingwa chakaomarara, chitema chekumaruwa, muto wakadai sevashandi vanoudya, paniki yebhakkwheat yakagadzirwa nenzira yevarimi, midzi kana miriwo, isina chero muto, izvi ndizvo chikafu chake chekusarudza uye kufanosarudzira, izvo zvaanoda. akadya ane appetite yakanaka kwazvo. Akatsiura mukoma wake paakawana chimwe chinhu chisinganyanyi kukosha, achiti aingofara zvokusagona kurarama saivo, uye kuti kwaiva nevanhu vakawanda vari nani pane iye vasina. kuti zvakafanira kufunga kuita kutendeuka, uye kuti vatsvene vanga vasina kutetereka kudivi iro. Pavakanwa cider, akanwa pamwe nekudya kwake. Nekuravira, akaifarira pane chimwe chinwiwa chipi nechipi, asi nechitendero aipa mvura

zviri nani kupfuura chero doro ripi zvaro. Hwakanga huchiri rudzi rumwe cheterwo rwoupenyu, uye mudyandigere wake wakanga usingadhuri mukurwara kupfuura utano. Hapana kana munhu akashinga kumumiririra.

Vachati kudini avo vane uremekedzo husingagoni kugutswa neunyanzvi hwose hwevabiki, vachiona musikana achikurira kuzvidemba kunyange kweavo vane mazuva okufara nokufara kwaizova kupfidza kusingatsungiririki kwavari? Kufanana kwakadaro kunofanira kuonekwa kunonyadzisa sei kwavari, kana vachiri vaKristu!...

Kwakanga kusiri kungomununura kubva kumatambudziko nenjodzi dzeguta iro Providence akanga amurongera runyararo munyika. Masevhisi makuru aakapa ipapo kumhuri yake anoratidza zvakajeka imwe dhizaini maari anoziva kutora mukana wezviitiko zvidiki. Munun'una weHanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu akazviwana, kunyangwe iye pachake, apinzwa mumutumbi wekanzuru yeparamende yake, nzvimbo ine njodzi panguva iyoyo kune murume aive nehunyanzvi hwaisagona kukanganwa nheyo dzake dzekutanga, kana kukweretesa kune ese mamiriro ezvinhu. zvaiita sezvaida. Le Royer akange aita vavengi mumapato ese ari maviri, aaizoda kuyananisa, uye vavengi vane simba rakakwana kana hutsinye hwakakwana, kuti pave nechikonzero chekutya zvese kubva kwavari, kunyanya panguva yataigona kushinga zvese, uye uko rezinesi raipikisa bato rakaramba raive nechokwadi chekusarangwa. Zvingangodaro angadai akabatwa, sevamwe vakawanda, dai Mwari asina kumupa, muHanzvadzi yake, nechinhu icho pasina munhu aigona kuvimba, chombo chekudzivirira icho kuedza kwavo kwose kwakaputsika. Angadai asina kusvika panguva yakakodzera kupfuura paakauya kuzogara nemurimi akanaka uyu.

Imba yaLe Royer yakanga yakaita seimba yekuchengetera zvinhu yemapato maviri aipikisana, ane makambani aifamba achitevedzana munzvimbo yese. MaBlues aimuona seaive aristocrat akazvivanza uye muvanzeri wemachouans; vakamutora somunhu waJakobhoni, mutengesi weboka ravo; naizvozvo vose vari vaviri vakamutsamwira. Hanzvadzi yoKuberekwa kwaJesu, iyo yaitya miuyo, yakamurambidza kuva navo, uye akatanga kushanda ari oga kuti avaite kuti vose vari vaviri vateerere kufunga, uye kuita rugare rwehanzvadzi yake navo. Akazvishandisa amene kwairi mumisangano yose uye pakupedzisira akakwanisa kuyananisa.

Kuti abudirire mune izvi, akazvifumura kanopfuura kamwe; asi nguva dzose airatidzira kusava nehanya zvikuru noupenyu hwake amene sezvaakaratidza shingairo nokuda kwouyo waakanga aita kudzivirira. Mukuru wevaChouan akanga ari jaya romunyika yacho (1); akamubata pakati peboka rake, akataura naye neshungu zhinji, nechido, uye nepfungwa dzakanaka, zvokuti akapinda mundangariro  dzake dzose.

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zvikonzero, uye akamuvimbisa, kutenda kwemunhu akatendeka, kuti hama yake haizombovi nekutambura kubva kune chero upi zvake weavo vaakaraira; akachengeta shoko rake kwaari.

Pakati peBlues aive neruvengo kuna Le Royer, uye uyo hanzvadzi yake yaifanira kudzivirira uye kuhwina, pakanga paine mumwe, pakati pevamwe, vakamupomera mhosva yekushora imwe yeshamwari dzake dzakange dzichangobva kuita mabasa ake.

Mhosva iyi yaive yenhema, asi Beux-neux (ndiro raive zita rake) haana kushatirwa zvakanyanya neaipomerwa. Akanga apika kuparadza kwake, uye akavimbisa kuti haaizofa kunze kwemaoko ake. Chipikirwa chacho chaifanira kutyiwa zvikuru,  sezvo kuurayiwa kwacho kwakanga kusiri kuedza kwokutanga kwaiye akazviita. Aizivikanwa munyika yacho, uye zvinosuruvarisa kuti taingonyatsoziva zvaaigona kuita. Kubva panguva iyo wakatsvaka mukana wakafanira pazano rake; asi Hanzvadzi iyi, nokunzwa kwakapesana zvikuru, haina kumukanganwa sezvaakanga akanganwa uyo waaiti muvengi wake  .

Rimwe zuva Beux-neux anopinda muLe Royer, anobvunza kana aripo, maoko ari muruoko, kutsamwa mumaziso ake uye kukanganiswa mumuromo make. Hanzvadzi yaakanga amuona ari paburiro, yakamuyambira nokumanikidza mukoma wake kuti akwire kuchitokisi chake: akazviratidza ega kumhondi, akashinga kumuudza zvakaipa zvaakanga achizviitira  . asina kumbomushuva kana kumuitira chakaipa; kuti mukoma wake haana mhosva pane zvaanomupomera. Ipapo anozviwisira pamabvi ake pamberi pake, achimunyengedza, kana  achida

kushaya hanya nazvo, kuti azvitore semunhu akabatwa, uye anoda chaizvo kumuregerera  rufu rwake  . 

kuti haatsamwirwi naye: Hanzvadzi ine ushingi inomupikisa  kuti hapana chaachaita pamusoro pazvo, uye kuti anofanira kubva angotora hupenyu hwake, kana kuti amupe yehama yake  . Achitaura naye kudaro,  anomutyisidzira

matsive okudenga nenzira yakasimba zvokuti zvombo zvakadonha kubva mumaoko ake. Anova anonetseka, anove nehanya uye anonzwa, sekunge kunyangwe iye pachake, kutya Mwari kunozvarwa patsva mumoyo uyo waive wadzima kunyangwe pfungwa yekuvapo kwake. “Simuka, sisita akanaka,” akadaro kwaari, “unyarare  ;

unogona kuvimbisa mukoma wako kuti hapana chaanotya kwandiri. ini handimudaro

hazvingamboiti zvakaipa. Izvozvo zvakati, anobuda uye haasati adzoka zvakare. Iyi yaive nguva yakanaka yekutendeuka kwake; akafara kana atora mukana, nekuti zvinonzi akaripa nerufu rwake ropa raakateura, akazorohwa nesimbi yaakanga arova nayo vamwe vakawanda. Haasi iye ega muenzaniso unogona kutaurwa: Qui percusserit gladio, gladio peribit.

Uhwu hushingi hunokatyamadza mumusikana, uku kusatya uko varume vazhinji vaisazokwanisa, Hanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu yakapa humbowo husina kujeka hwahwo, mune mamwe mamiriro mazhinji,

panguva yekugara kwake kuMontigny, iyo, sezvandambotaura, yaigara ichizadzwa dzimwe nguva nemapoka eBlues, dzimwe nguva nemakambani eChouans, avo vaidzingirirana. Rimwe zuva akazvikanda pakati pemunin'ina wake nepfuti yeBlue yaimutyisidzira; aizviona zuva nezuva achinetsana nezvikara zvakawanda zvinotyisa, izvo zvaizove zvakafanira kuzviona sevanhu nekuvadzivirira vasati vafunga kuzvishandura. Vakauya pedyo naye vachida kumuona uye kumuteerera. Vakamubvunza mibvunzo inobvunzurudza kuti vamuongorore nezvezvinhu zvenguva iyoyo kana kuti nezvechitendero. Hanzvadzi yakapindura kune zvese neunyoro uye nehungwaru, asi nguva dzose nekusimba kwakadaro padanho remisimboti yekare munhau dzechitendero, zvekuti yakadzirangarira ipapo ivo vasingazvizivi: zvinotosimbiswa kuti. akatendeutsa vamwe vavo. Vakamupikisa vachipesana nekutenda, kwaakapindura mune yavo vachizivisa kwavari ndima dzeVhangeri dzakavashora  .

Kazhinji vaibvuma kukundwa kwavo.

Dzimwe nguva kukakavadzana kwaimuka pakati pavo panguva yake, vamwe vachitora, uye vamwe vachipikisana naye. “Iye mushori,” vamwe vakadaro, “iye mukuru wekare anofanira kubviswa; ichembere inopenga, mukadzi anopenga asingazivi zvaanotaura; tikamurega achitaura anonyengerera vamwe.Chinyararai vakapindura vamwe munotofara  henyu

to be worth; ari nani pane isu chero tiripo, isu hatimuzivi  . Quidam enim dicebant: quia bonus est.  Alii

dicebant: kwete, sed seducit turbas. (Joan. 7:12).

“Ndine chishuvo chikuru,” akadaro mumwe, “kumutuma kune imwe nyika kuti ave mudzidzi webhaibheri, uye kudzidzisa katekisimo kuvana. Kana wakashinga, wakatangazve mumwe, kumutuka zvachose, unotofanira kubata neni,  ndichakudzidzisa kuremekedza  vanhu vakatendeseka.Impertinent !  ungaita  zvakanaka

zviri nani kuiteerera uye kuti ubatsirwe nayo, nokuti unoida zvikuru, hauna kumboziva shoko rechitendero chako  !. »

Sisi vakazviona nekuteerera zvese izvi nemweya werunyararo nerunyararo zvakavafadza, chero zvavaive nazvo, zvichivaratidza kuti aive

vakatya kutyisidzira kwavo, kana kubatwa kumeso nerumbidzo yavo, uye vavasina kuita

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mutsitsi dzake chete nekunzwira tsitsi kwaakavaona vari.

Pashure pokunge adzienzanisa nounyoro hwemimiririro yake, uye pfungwa yakanaka yaakaisa mukutsiura kwake, iye nounyanzvi akatora nguva apo kufunga kwakanga kwakadzikama pakati pavo, kuvashora nokuda kwokumhura kwavo netsika dzavo dzakaipa. Akanga asingatyi kuvatyisidzira nehasha dzoumwari, achivaudza kuti kana vakasatendeuka, vaifanira kutya chose kuwira muhero; kuti kutonga kwaMwari kwaizova kunotyisa pavari; kuti akanga asingadi kuva panzvimbo yavo. Pane dzimwe nguva vaiororwa kwazvo nezvaakataura kwavari zvokuti vazhinji vavo vakatsvaka nzira dzokumunyaradza nokumuvimbisa kuti nokukurumidza kana kuti gare gare vaizotendeuka ndokutevera zano rake.

Mumwe wevakashata zvikuru akamunangidzira rimwe zuva nechombo chake, achiti aingova chouan akavanzika, musori webato ravo, uyo aifanira kuurawa: kunodavirwa kuti akanga achiita zvakakomba zvikuru; asi, dai aingoita zvejee, pfuti iri mumaoko emurume ane hunhu uhwu, anozvipinza mugwara rekuda kuibvisa, inokwana kuvhundutsa wainonangidzirwa. Hanzvadzi yacho yaingorwarawo pamubhedha sezvayakanga yakaita panguva iyoyo, yakamutarisa ichimuudza kuti aigona kupfura kana achida, uye kuti upenyu hwake hwaiva mumaoko aMwari. Hatizivi kuti nei akagutsikana nemhinduro iyi, pasina kuita chimwe chinhu kunze kwekugadzirisa. Hanzvadzi yakazviwana yave kanopfuura kamwe mumamiriro ezvinhu ekudzokorora chinhu chimwe chete, uye munhu anogona kunyatsotaura nezvazvo

Vakadaro Hanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu nguva yese yaaigara nemukoma wake; airatidza ipapo, sedzimwe nzvimbo, mweya wegamba mumuviri wemusikana. Zvishoma kutaura; muhutano hwakanga husati hwavapo, akaratidza, maererano nemamiriro ezvinhu, zvose izvo kukwana kwerudo, zvose izvo hugamba hwekunaka hunogona kukurudzira zvikuru mumweya.

Mukristu wechokwadi. Hapana mubvunzo kuti havazotendi chimwe chinhu pazviri, avo vanorambira mukuona mune vanozvipira chimwe chinhu kunze kwemoyo yakaderera uye ine utsinye, uye vanoramba kusingaperi kudzokorora kuti masisita pamusoro pezvose haana chaakanakira. Ndichavabvunza chete kuti vangadai vakatsungirira sei matambudziko akadai; nokuti, kana zvichitenderwa kutonga neavo vakaenzana navo vaivepo, pane zvakawanda zvekutenda kuti mwoyo yavo mikuru ingadai yakazvipikisa. Mashoko haasi chinhu; ndiwo mufambiro unoratidza zvinhu zvose: Hanzvadzi yakazviratidza munzira dzose. Nguva bedzi yaakanzwa kupera simba nokuda kwokutya ndipo paakazviisa pakati pehanzvadzi yake nepfuti yaimutyisidzira; mumwe anogona kutaura kuti akanga asingatyi nokuda kwake;

Apo hanzvadzi yake pachake akandipa, pamberi pemhuri yake yose, tsanangudzo dzandichangobva kuita pfupiso, akagara zvakanyanya pamusoro pezvakanaka uye unhu hwakanaka hwakanga hwapenya maari kubva paudiki, nguva dzose achiwedzera naYe. Kungwara kwaaiita pakupa zano, kuzvibata kwake munyoro, kwakamuita kuti ave semuroyi uye musoro wemhuri. Baba naamai vaitsamira paari pazvinhu zvose, uye vamwe vana vose, vaakanga ari mukuru wavo, vaimuteerera zvikuru uye kazhinji kazhinji nyore zvikuru kupfuura baba naamai, zvikurukuru sezvo hurumende yavo yakanga yakapfava zvikuru, uye kuti. akavakurudzira zvikuru nekuita pane kutaura, kuti vape vabereki vavo kuteerera noruremekedzo zvavaivafanira kuvaitira. Jeannette, akandiudza, aigarobvunzwa; vs'

Nepo musikana mutsvene uyu aive neni, akaenderera mberi Le Royer, zvinoita sekunge akakwevera maropafadzo aMwari pamhuri yangu, zvekuti zvese, kunyangwe zviitiko zvinouraya zvakanyanya, zvakatendeukira kwandiri. Ehe,

iye akawedzera, kana migariro inosuruvarisa yandakapfuura nomairi isina kundiparadza kubva kumusoro kusvikira pasi, kuri kuminyengetero yake mitsvene yandinofanira kuita; hapana chinogona kunditadzisa. Pane izvi, akandidzokorora hunhu hwakasiyana, hwandichatora chimwe chete chaakandirondedzera zvakanyanya kana zvishoma nenzira iyi:

Kurasikirwa kwandakanga ndatambura mukati memakore asingafadzi apfuura kwakandimanikidza kusiya purazi reMontigny (zvechokwadi, akanga asipo kwenguva refu apo ndakataura naye; iye zvino akanga achigara mumusha uri pedyo noku musha weLa Pellerine) uye kutengesa mombe dzangu mbiri kuti ndibhadhare, zvokuti ndakanga ndasara nepeya imwe chete, yandichiri nayo nanhasi; zvakanaka, changamire, izvi ndizvo zvakaitika: rimwe zuva apo ini

ngoro nemombe dzangu mbiri, ndakasvika pakudzika zvekuti mombe dzakatadza kumisa ngoro iyo yakapfuura nepamusoro pevaviri vakanga

ndakavhunduka ndichifamba: Ndakanzwa, nenzeve dzangu mbiri, rwonzi rwevhiri kuita ruzha rwakafanana sokunge rwapfuura.

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chipingamupinyi chaangadai akadambura mazariro. Kutsemuka uku kwakaita kuti nditende kuti nyama yemombe yangu yakanga yatyoka mbabvu uye muviri wayo wose wakapwanyika; ini ndichachema, Mwari wangu, ndakachema; Pano ndaparara ndisina zviwanikwa: chii chichaitika kwandiri mushure menjodzi inosuwisa iyi?....

Chii chakandishamisa changamire, apo, pashure pokuchema kwangu, ndakadzorera maziso angu kumhuka yangu ine murombo, yandaidavira kuva zvidimbu, ndikaona ichisimuka zvayo, isina kana chinhu chakambooneka! Chinhu chinoshamisa, uye chandaisazombotenda, dai ndisina kuchiona! Hapana chakadamburwa, kunyangwe tambo yaisunga joko panyanga dzenzombe; yakanga yasununguka, handizivi kuti panguva yokudonha kwayo, yaizosunungura sei mhuka, iyo yakawanikwa yaiswa pakati pezviviri. mavhiri, pasina kukwanisa kwangu kunzwisisa kuti zvakaitika sei, kana kwakabva kurira kwandakanga ndanzwa Tichafunga zvatinoda, asi ndinobheja  pazana

taisazoita zvimwe chetezvo. Ndinozvisiira ani nani anoda kusangana nazvo.

Hanzvadzi iyi yaitambura hundonda hukuru uye kazhinji kazhinji kubva  kumunin'ina wake.

Iyo yaaigara achinetseka nayo yakamukonzera colic yakanyanya iyo yaiwanzomumanikidza kugara pamubhedha; dysentery iyo yakapfuura yakamupinza muchirwere chakakomba chaakanetseka pakuzvibvisa. Zvisinei, aingokwanisa kurapwa nechisimba; haana kunyunyuta, kana kutendera vanhu veimba kudzongonyedza basa ravo rokumubatsira; zvakamukwanira kuti vasati vabuda vaise zvose zvaaida kwaari. Mumwe mukadzi wechidiki ane rudo akanga auya kuzomuona  akamirira Doyen de la Pellerine akamuwana rimwe zuva ari muchimiro ichi; uye sezvaaimunzwira tsitsi pamusoro pemarwadzo uye kuraswa kwaakamuona maari:  Iwe

une rudo rwakawandisa, musikana wangu akanaka, vakapindura Sisi; Handifaniri kunzwirwa tsitsi; Ini handina chandinoshaya, ndine zvese zvandinoda: zana revanhu rakandikomberedza havanganditadzise kutakura muchinjikwa wangu, uye unoona kuti vakapa zvese, vachindipa zvese zvandinoda. Musikana wechidiki akatarisa padivi pake, ndokuona pachigaro chimedu chechingwa chihombe chakaoma chine mvura shoma shoma mundiro yevhu: ndiko kwaiva kunakidza kwake.

zvakajairika, uye ndiko kwaaiti kuda pasina. Munhu angawana here muzvipatara zvevarombo varwere vazhinji zviri nyore kufadza?...

Pakupedzisira zvisikwa zvakare zvakatora ruoko rwepamusoro, uye ani naani aida kuishandisa zvakare nokuda kwembiri yake, akaidzorera kune iyo yaidiwa pazvinangwa zvake.

Kwemwedzi yakati wandei masisita eUrbanist akange asunungurwa, uye Hanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu yakanga yashuva, kwenguva yakareba, mushure menguva yekudzoserwa kwavari, kuti vawane nyaradzo yekufa mumaoko avo: akataura nezvazvo nguva dzese. . Nguva yandaishuvira iyi yasvika. Anoti, achichema, aonekana nekusingaperi kumhuri yake, achidedera nefivha, achitaridzika kunge skeleton pane munhu mupenyu. Akapinda mungoro,1 iyo yakadzokera naye kuM. de la Jannière, kwaakatora nzvimbo yake yokugara yokupedzisira, uye kwavakafara zvikuru kumuonazve pashure pegore rakanga raita serakarebesa uye richifinha zvikuru.

(1) Pakanga pari pasinei zvapo nechishoro chomukoma wake kuti vaChouan vakamutorera chingoro chacho, icho chakachidzorera kumasisita akanga ave achikumbira kwenguva refu.

NGUVA YECHINA NEKUPEDZISIRA.

Mabasa Ekupedzisira uye Rufu rweHanzvadzi.

Mushure mekunge azadzisa nepaaigona napo, uye sezvataona, basa iro Mwari raakange araira paari, Hanzvadzi iyi yaingofunga nezvayo chete, uye yakanga yafara kusaona chimwe chinhu kunze kwebasa guru reruponeso, kugadzirira basa. rufu rwaakanga afanoona rwaisazova kure.

Paakapedza kundipa nhoroondo dzake, akandiudza, sezvatinoziva, kuti chakanga changosara ndechokuti azvirumbidze kuminamato yangu, kana kune yevaverengi vose vemabhuku ake, achiramba, uyezve, zvose zvaidiwa pamagwaro. kuremekedzwa kana kuyemurwa neruzhinji, zvaasina kufanirwa nazvo. "Zvangosara kwandiri," akadaro, "kuchema kusatendeka kwangu kunoramba kuripo, zvivi zvangu zvisingaverengeki, uye kuzvikanda mutsitsi dzaMwari akanyanya kunaka zvekuda kurasikirwa kusingaperi, kana kubvumira kukanganisa kusingaite kwemunhu. chisikwa murombo icho, shure kwezvose, chisina kumbotsvaga chero chinhu kunze kwekuziva kuda kwake kutsvene uye kuenderana nako. »

Ndizvo zvakanga zviri, chaizvoizvo, maitiro ake; asi Mwari, uyo anofarira kuona mumweya ine ropafadzo manzwiro ekutya uye rudo ayo anomutsa  ipapo, haasungirwi, nokuti, kuti aenderane muzvinhu zvose nemitemo iyo kuzvininipisa kwavo, nguva dzose anotya anoita seanoda kumuraira iye pachake  . .

Pasinei nezvose izvi, kuda kwake kunofanira kukunda kwedu,  uye mudziyo waanoda kushandisa unofanira kuteerera ruoko rwaanoshandisa. Mosesi naJeremia vangakumbira ruregerero nokuda kwekusakwanisa kwavo, Jona angatiza  ;

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vanhu vanoera zvikurusa veChechi vakanzvenga zviremerera, zvinzvimbo nerukudzo zvakavamirira pasina, zvakanga zvakafanira kutera kuhurongwa hwaivadana; hapana chaigona kuvaponesa pazviri: nokuzvidira, Mosesi anofanira kurwira vanhu vake; Jeremia ngaamudane, achichema pamusoro pezvakaipa zvake, uye Jona ngaazivise mhaka dzake kuNinevhe, kuti adzivise kurangwa.

Zvinoenderana nemutemo uyu, hazvina maturo kuti Hanzvadzi yeKuberekwa anotsvaga kuzviviga ari mupenyu mukati mehusina maturo hwake, zvakakosha kuti echo iite ruzha, nepo izwi richinzwika, uye kuti anodzokorora zvaanenge anazvo. akati: Deus, docuisti me a juventute mea, et usque nunc pronuntiabo mirabilia tua. ( Pis. 70, 17 ) Iyi ndiyo nzvimbo yake.

Kubvira pauduku hwake, kufanana naIsaya, akanga anzwa murayiro uyu uchibva kudenga wokuti: “Muprofita, usachema; inzwi rako ngarisimuke nguva dzose sehwamanda, kuti utsiure vanhu vangu pamusoro pezvakaipa zvavo, nezvakaipa zvavo pamusoro peimba yaJakove. Clam, usamire; quasi tuba exalta vocem tuam, et annuntia populo meo scelera eorum, et domui Jacob peccata eorum.( Isaya 58:1 ) Ndicho chikonzero nei, akatendeka nguva dzose kuushumiri hwake, airatidzira shingairo huru mukurwisana nenyongano dzakagumbura Mwari wake uye dzakaparira kurasikirwa nenyika yake. Harina kubata chokwadi senhapwa; kana asina kunyora nguva dzose, haana kumborega kuongorora zvakaipa; akazviita neshoko nemuenzaniso kusvika pakufema kwekupedzisira, uye mumwe anogona kutaura nezvake saiye uyo Mutsvene Pauro anoita rukudzo rwakadai: Haana kungotaura chete kusvika pakufa kwake; asi zvaafa hake, uchiri kutaura, uchataura kana mabasa ake asingafi achiripo; et defunctus adhuc loquitur. (VaHebheru, 11:4.)

Asati atombodzokera kuHanzvadzi dzake, akanzwa achida zvikuru kukumbira mvumo yokuenda kuEngland kunotsvaka mutungamiriri, waakaenda kwaari.

akataura panguva dzakasiyana-siyana kuti akanga achine zvakawanda zvokutaura zvaaisakwanisa kuzivisa kune mumwe munhu kunze kwake. Zera rake guru, uye hundonda hwake huchiwedzera, hwakamuita kuti arambe achiramba ruregerero rwaaikumbira nomwoyo wose; achiona kuti akanga asingagoni kubudirira muiri basa, akawana nyore nyore kuritsiva nepaaigona napo kupfurikidza nokuita kuti mumwe wedzero anyorwe nokuda kwokuendeswa kwandiri, achidzokorora kuti aitya zvikuru kwazvo kuti kuda kwaMwari; zvaakanga aisa muwedzero yake, uye chii chakandisimbisa, zvikurukuru, pamusoro pavanhu vakanga varonzeswa kwaari parutivi rwake.

Saka Sister of the Nativity akatorazve chinyoreso chake asati afa, ndinoreva kuti akatora mukana wepashoma yaakanga asara kuti ararame, kutaurira masisita maviri akanga achiri muchivande, basa rekupedzisira rasara kwatiri. pakunyora. Imhando yeDhuteronomi, mumabhuku maviri ezvinyorwa, kwaanoenda pamusoro pezvinhu zvakawanda zvaakanga atotaura, uye nekudaro ndichave ndinosungirwa kupfupisa zvakawanda, ndichichengeta zvakadaro mazano matsva nebudiriro yaita seyakanyanya kukodzera. chekuchengetedza. Aya manotsi maviri aifanira kupiwa kwandiri pashure porufu rwake, nokuti ndine chikonzero chokudavira kuti kwenguva refu akanga asingatarisiri kundiona zvakare. Mufambiro wake unosiya mukana muduku wokusava nechokwadi.

Maonero aiitwa nekambani iyi itsva, kure nekuderedza shungu dzake, asi, aingowedzera zuva nezuva; zviitwa zvake zvekunamata zvakangowedzera uye zvakareba, kushingaira kwake kwakawedzera, kuzvipira kwake kwakawedzera kunyoro. Kure nokuderedza chipi nechipi chezvirango zvake, aingowedzera kwazviri, pasinei noundonda hwairamba huchiwedzera kurema kwezera nokusuwa. Pakupedzisira, achitevera muenzaniso wavasande vose avo Mwari akada nenzira inokosha zvikuru, iye akaratidza kuti akanga angogamuchira bedzi fariro yakadaro muizvo akanga achiri kuronda nokutsunga kwakadaro, kupfurikidza nekutya kuti akanga ari kupi nokuda kwenhauro yokuti akanga ane mungava kuna Mwari. .

Yakanga yave mwedzi mishomanana kubva paakapedza kutaura kwake kwekupedzisira, paakava nechiratidzo ichi chekupedzisira chandicharondedzera icho chandakavimbisa, nekuti chinouya pano sega, uye chinowana nzvimbo yacho ipapo. . Akaita kuti chiratidzo chousiku ichi chinyorwe pasi, sokunge kuti aipedzisa zvose zvaakanga ataura, achipa uchapupu hwaizovhara miromo yevashori vake vose. Tsamba yechokwadi yaakatumira kumukuru wechechi yeLa Pellerine, uye yaakandipa (tinoziva kuti akanga ari mutungamiriri wake kwenguva yakati), tsamba iyi yandinochengeta yakasimbiswa yepakutanga naDean akadaro; tsamba imwe chete iyi, ndinoti, Providence yakabvumira kuti itange naMadame la Supérieure, uye yakapedzwa naMadame la Custodian,

uunganidze zvapupu zviviri nemaoko maviri akanga aona nokunyora zvose muchiito chimwe. Hezvino zviri mutsamba iyi; Ini handicha shandure chero chinhu chakakosha, asi ini ndichawedzera mashoma mashoma zvirevo kune chinyorwa, mune akasiyana mavara:

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Fougeres, Gumiguru 16, 1797.

Baba vangu,

Ndichakugoverai hope dzinokosha dzakabvumirwa naMwari maererano nezvinyorwa zvangu. Ndinofunga kuti dhimoni racho rakazviratidza kwandiri riri muchimiro chomunun akanga anonoka wandakanga ndaziva, uyo akandiudza kuti akanga ari mupurigatori umo akanga achirwadziwa zvikuru; izvo zvakandifadza netsitsi huru netsitsi. Pachikumbiro chake, ndakamuvimbisa kuti aizonyengetera kuna Mwari kuti amununure, uye ndakamukumbira kuti apo akanga ari muparadhiso, kana aiziva kuti mukati mangu maiva nechimwe chinhu chaipesana noruponeso rwangu, anyengetere kuna Mwari kuti amuitire nomutsa. ndizivise, kuti ndizviruramise ndisati ndamira pakutonga kwake. Akapindura kuti, kubva panguva ino, akaona chipingamupinyi chikuru kuruponeso rwangu, kuti ndicho chikonzero chaakazviratidza kwandiri. (Izvi hazvisi Akawedzera kuti kunyangwe akazviratidza kwandiri kuhope, handifanire kutora zvaakataura kwandiri sereveri, uye kuti kudanana kwacho kwaive nemhedzisiro. Hey! chii? ndakamubvunza.

Ndizvo, akandipindura, maererano nezvinyorwa zvamakaita, uye kuti inyaya yekudzvanyirira nekudzima. Zvinhu zvinotora chimiro chakaipa kwazvo. ( Yaive nguva iyo mabhishopi akandipa mvumo yavo...

) Izvo zvinodikanwa nekukurumidza sezvinobvira kutumira meseji yekutaura kuna M. de Fajole, nekudzokorora kwako  , kuitira kuti zvese zvawataura (1) zvionekwe sezvisina maturo uye zvakatsakatiswa zvachose. Ndakamuratidza kuti ndakaita zvose izvi chete zvandakanga ndarayirwa naMwari. Aiwa Mwari havana kukubvunza izvozvo, vakapindura vachiratidza kunditsamwira. ( Mweya iri mupurigatori haitsamwi. ) Akandiudza kuti ndakanyengerwa nekuteerera vareurura vangu Mweya uyu uri mupurigatori waingodzokorora pano  izvo

dhimoni rakanga raudza Hanzvadzi yacho kuti isainyore; pano patova nemaitiro mazhinji ekufanana nemweya uyo, zviri nani kugadzira fungidziro, unoshandurwa kuita ngirozi yechiedza (2); asi ngatienderere mberi.)

Sei kuna M. de Fajole? Ikodzero yei iye asina kodzero  yekuziva kukanzura?

Sezvineiwo, Sisi vacho vaisave vatsva pahunyanzvi hwekurwa nazvo nekufembera  .

Nemashoko aya ndakabva ndaziva kuti dhiyabhorosi ndiye akashandisa uhwu kunetsa pfungwa dzangu nekuvhiringa hana yangu; uye panguva yandakasimudzira moyo wangu kuna Mwari, ndichinyengetera kuti andinzwire tsitsi; uye nekumutswa neMweya Mutsvene, ndakapindura kukufungidzira kuti ndakanga ndiri moto nemurazvo pakarepo pawakanga uri mubvunzo wekuteerera Mwari kuburikidza nekuwana mbiri yake. Kunzwisisa kwangu kwaiva kuti pandakateerera avo vanotora nzvimbo yaMwari nokuda kwangu, ndaidavira kuti ndakanga ndateerera Mwari amene. Panguva imwe cheteyo, ndakaita chiratidzo chomuchinjikwa pamusoro pangu. Pachiratidzo ichi, chisina kumufadza, ainyepedzera kutiza; asi Mweya waMwari wakandimhanyisa shure kwake, ndikamuteverera, ndikamumisa, ndikamubata pachifukidzo chake; muchinjikwa neni, uye muremekedze iye wakakutumai; ipai mbiri kuTiriniti inoyevedza... Ndakamukurudzira pasina uye ndikamupa muenzaniso; apo ndakadzokorora chiratidzo changu chemuchinjikwa phantom yakanyangarika uye yakanyangarika pakati pemaoko angu, semhute yakasviba uye yakasviba, pasina kukwanisa kwangu kutaura kana yakadzokera panyika kana kuti yakave chii.

Pamusoro paizvozvi, Baba vangu, ndichataura zvishoma kwamuri. Paaizviti sisita uyu paakatanga kutaura neni nezvekunyora kwangu, ndisina kumbova nenguva yekufungira chinangwa chake, ndakamubvunza kana kunyora kwaaitaura kwaizobudirira. Akandipindura hongu neruvengo, uye ndipo paakawedzera, nemweya wehasha, kuti akange ave kutora shanduko yakaipa; asi izvi hazvina kuzondinetsa, pandakangoziva zano radhiabhorosi. Chakandishamisa zvikuru kwaiva kumunzwa achindiudza kuti ndaifanira kushuma kuna M. de Fajole, uye kutaura ndimene kwaari kuti basa riparadzwe: nokuti ndinogona kukuvimbisai kuti handina kutongoziva zita kana kuti munhu wacho. uyu M. de Fajole, uye akanga asingazivi kana akanga ari muprista kana kuti munhu wenyika. Saka handina kumbozvinetsa nokutsvaka, ndikanyatsotsunga kusateerera zano randakapiwa.

Ndichakuudzai zvakare baba kuti pandakamhanya ndichitevera chipoko ndikachimisa mweya washe waita kuti ndinyatso ziva kuti ndiro dhimoni uye kuti zvese zvandaudzwa nababa ava.

kunyepa, uye urege kuzvibata mupfungwa dzangu. Sisi vakaenderera mberi nekuchinja nyaya.

Baba, ndinonetsekana kana makagamuchira tsamba iyo Mufundisi Amai vedu vakakuzivisai kubva kwandiri, semwedzi wapfuura, kuti zvakanga zvakakodzera kutumira, nokukurumidza sezvinobvira, kuna M. Genet, zvinyorwa zvose Unoitei? ziva. Unozondisungisa zvachose kuti undiudze kana vakapasa, kana kana ukaronga kutsvaga nzira dzakachengetedzeka dzekuvabata kwaanogara....

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( Aya manyoro anotaura nezvawo Hanzvadzi haana kutumirwa kwandiri muEngland; asi akapiwa kwandiri kuno makore mana pashure porufu rwake. )

Ndichakuudzaiwo Baba vangu kuti Mwari akanaka akandipa nyasha dzekuti ndisandisiye ndisina muchinjikwa; Sezvineiwo, handina kupfeka zvakanaka. Zvisikwa uye dhiabhorosi, anogara achiitora neimwe magumo kana imwe, anogara achiedza kuibvuta kubva kwandiri nekuita kuti iwire pasi, uye kazhinji inondiita kuti nditakure zvese. Munogona kundinzwa, Baba; Ndinoda neizvi kuti munzwisise kuti dhiabhorosi nehunhu hwakaora zvinogara zvichindirwisa, dzimwe nguva neimwe nzira, dzimwe nguva neimwe, uye kunyanya munguva yekurwara. Iye zvino ndichiri kurara nefivha inopfuurira; asi kutambudzika kwemuviri hachisi chinhu kwandiri, kunze kwekunge Ishe vakanaka vakanzwira tsitsi mweya wangu unotambura, uye vaununura kubva mumakumbo eshato. Ndezvenyaya iyi, Baba vangu, ndinokukumbirisai nekuzvininipisa kuti mundirangarire pamberi paIshe; Ndinonyengetererawo kuti muchengetedzwe; asi ndinoda minamato yenyu kupfuura imi yangu.

Musashamisika Baba kana muchiona maoko maviri akanyorwa mutsamba iyi; ko Mai vedu vanga vazvitanga vakatadza kuzvipedza

chikonzero chezviitiko zvake; hanzvadzi yavaSerafimi yakazvigadzirira. Ivo vese vanokuvimbisa iwe nezve ruremekedzo rwavo rwakadzama, pamwe naSaint Elisabeth. Kwandiri, Baba vangu, ndiri, neruremekedzo rwakadzama uye nekuzviisa pasi kwakakwana, muranda wenyu anozvininipisa uye anoteerera.

Hanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu.

Yekutanga yeichi chidimbu chinoshamisa, chandinochengeta, chine mazwi aya akanyorwa neruoko rwemuchengetedzi wekutanga: "Ndakagamuchira sezvazviri, uye panguva yezuva rayo, tsamba iripo kubva kuHanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu, Nan weUrbanist weFougères, uye ndakaripa, muna 1802, kumutungamiriri” weiyi nzanga. »

Akasaina Leroy, achishandira La Pellerine

Pakanga pari pana July 6, 1803, apo M. Leroy akandipa ichi chitupa kumba kwake; uye musi wa27 womwedzi iwoyo uye wegore rimwe chetero, masisita maviri akanga anyora akasaina chipupuriro chinotevera kwandiri, achibata kopi yatichangobva kuona:

Isu, vakasaina pasi apa, tinopupurira kuti ichava yaani, kuti Mr. Genet vakakopa nokutendeka tsamba yatakanga tanyora, muna 1797, kuna Mr. Dean weLa Pellerine, vakamirira Hanzvadzi yedu inodiwa uye inoremekedzwa mushakabvu yoKuberekwa kwaJesu. Shanduko yese yatakaona, nekuenzanisa imwe kune imwe, inosanganisira kugadzira mimwe mitsara yechiFrench yaive isiri. Zvazvinoreva zvakafanana kwose kwose, pamwe chete nokurongeka kwezvinhu.

Marie L. Le Breton Hanzvadzi Sainte-Magdeleine, Sup., Michelle Pel. Binel des Séraphins, dhipoziti, Blanche Binel de Sainte-Elisabeth.

Nditendereiwo kufunga pamusoro pekunyora kwekupedzisira kweSista, kwatichangobva kuona. Handisi kuzodzokorora pano zvandakataura kune imwe nzvimbo pamusoro pezviroto zvisinganzwisisike uye zvinokosha idzo Magwaro Matsvene anotipa mienzaniso yakawanda kwazvo yakadaro. Ini ndichagutsikana nekutaura kuti zvinoratidzika kwandiri zvisingabviri kubvunza zvakakomba chokwadi chekuonekwa muhope ichangobva kutaurwa. Nokuti pakupedzisira, kunze kwekuti mweya wekufungidzira ungadai usina kumuratidza zita uye munhu waakanga asina ruzivo, sei kurota mumhepo, uye izvo zvisingagoni kuva nemhando ipi zvayo yekushandisa, tsvaga. nhasi zvinonyatsoenderana nezita, maonero uye mazwi emunhu anoratidzwa, uye nenzira yakadaro nekuunza pamwe chete nguva nemazuva, hazvigoneke kufunga chero rudzi rwekubatana pakati peSista neni, kana kusavimba kana kufungidzira kweSista, zvichienzaniswa nemurume waasina kana pfungwa dzake? Mukana chaiwo, kana kuti kusanzwisiswa kwechirotowo zvacho, vakambobudisa migumisiro yakadaro here? Izvi ndizvo zvatinofanira kuratidza, kana tichida kutaura chimwe chinhu chakakodzera; nokuti hakuna chinhu chichafambiswa namashoko asina maturo. kana tichida kutaura chimwe chinhu chakakodzera; nokuti hakuna chinhu chichafambiswa namashoko asina maturo. kana tichida kutaura chimwe chinhu chakakodzera; nokuti hakuna chinhu chichafambiswa namashoko asina maturo.

Chechipiri, ndingada kuziva kuti sei uye nenzira ipi iyo Abbé de Fajole akanga agamuchira ruzivo rwakavanzika uye ruzivo rwakakosha rwaakandiraira, muLondon, muna 1800, kuti ndipise mabhuku ekunyora aaiyemura muIsle of Jersey. muna 1792. Pasinei nokuti  fungidziro dzakanga dzatuswa maari kubvira dzakanga dzawira pabasa, paHanzvadzi, kana kuti pandiri, ndinozvitenda kuti inhema zvakaenzana; asi vakauya sei kwaari? Iri ndiro dambudziko randisingagoni kugadzirisa. Aizviti sisita uyo, nehasha, akarayira Hanzvadzi, sokunge kuti yaibva kuna Mwari, kuti imutumire shoko rakananga kuti aparadze basa, angadai asina here  ?

kusvika pakuramba kwaHanzvadzi, ivo pachavo vaitungamirira basa racho? Zvingava kuna abhi kutiudza nezvazvo; chokwadi ndechekuti aitaura neni anenge manzwi akafanana neainge ataurwa nasisi vaya. Mune iyi fungidziro, Abbe aifanira kunge akazviona saiye, nekuda kwaMwari, sarudzo yevakuru muChechi uye chiratidzo chemuchinjikwa: ipapo mumwe.

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anogona kutenda kuti angadai akamuonawo achinyangarika muutsi dema, uye naye zvese zvaaifungira zvingadai zvakapera.

Chii chine chokwadi ndechekuti baba venhema vanoshanda munzira dzakawanda munyika: ane vamiririri vazhinji vanogara vakagadzirira kufarira manyepo ake nemisungo yake. Baba de Fajole, vandinoremekedza, havana kumbova nechinhu chipi nechipi kunze kwemaonero akanaka muna ikoku, ndinopwiswa zvikuru pamusoro paikoku; asi haasati aizove munhu wokutanga akagadzwa zvakanaka uyo akanga anyengedzwa pazvizhinji namanongedzero omurume akanga akapfeka sonuni zviri nani kushamisa umwari hwomusande, waakanga akundikana kwaari kazhinji kazhinji. Baba vanotsvaka chokwadi chete havangawani chakaipa kuti murume, ane mhosva yemusikana anenge aitwa mutsvene nezvose, ava kushandisa mari yechokwadi yaanoisa paari.pakati pemaoko kuparadza. the disadvantageous effect iyo angadai akaita kuti ape simba remafungiro ake. Akafunga, pasina kupokana, kuti akanga achiita basa rake; pachinhu ichi handingagoni kumuramba; asi iniwo ndakafunga kuti ndichiri kuita zvangu, uye ndaitarisira kururamisira kumwe chete kubva kwaari.

Ngatidzokei kuna Hanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu.

Mushure mekunyora kwekupedzisira uku, kusiri kunyanyo kunakidza, Hanzvadzi yakazvitenda pakupedzisira yakasununguka pane izvo Mwari vaikumbira kwaari. Akangofunga kumukumbira kuti abudirire, achizvigadzirira kupfuura nakare kose kufa kwaaiona sekukurumidza, uye nezvenhoroondo yaaifanira kupa nezveupenyu hwake nezvose zvaakanyora. Asununguka pabasa rake, akazvishandisa amene bedzi kukuisa hana yake nomweya wake munhevedzano, kupfurikidza nokupetazve minyengetero, kupfidza uye kushingaira. Hurwere hwake hwaiwedzerawo zuva nezuva zvekuti aingofamba akakotama nekuda kwemarwadzo aainzwa. Aingobuda achienda kuhofisi yevoruzhinji paSvondo payakatanga kupembererwa nevaKatorike;

Aive nekurukurirano zhinji uye dzimwe nguva refu kwazvo nemasisita nevanhu venzanga, vaiuya kuzomubvunza nezvematambudziko akasiyana aikonzeresa nguva dzese. Zvakanga zvakaipa uye zvisingagoneki kune vamwe uye kune vamwe pane zvese zvine chekuita nekutenda netsika. Yakarambidza pasina tsitsi uye pasina mutsauko kurukurirano dzose dzemweya nevanopikisa, vanopika, nevapambi, kusvikira Chechi yazvitaura; nokuti kwakanga kusisina munhu akanga azviisa pasi pezvose zvakanga zvasarudzwa neChechi. Akati, ikambasi yomuKristu wechokwadi, ndiwo mutemo usingakanganisi waanopiwa naMwari, haagoni kutsauka nokuutevera. Uyo anomutevera anopindura pasina; uyo anotsauka pairi achazvidavirira pazvose. Hey! account ipi,

Kana dziri dzetsika, akataura kuti sisita, kunze kwekamuri rake remukati, aifanira kuoneka sezvaari mumeso enyika, nomufambiro wake wakanaka, kuzvidzora kwake kune mwero, uye kunyange nechitarisiko chembatya dzake, idzo akadzirayira zvikuru. hanya uye huchokwadi, dzimwe nguva kuongorora kune avo vakaratidza kusava nehanya, kuvatyisidzira nehasha dzaJ-C., nezvimwe, nezvimwe.

Tsika dzake dzakanga dzisina kuderera, zvichienzaniswa nevanhu venyika, pane zvose zvine chokuita nokubatanidzwa kwavo. Kana vasina kusungwa nemhiko dzevechitendero, akadaro, ivo havana kusungirwa zvishoma kune avo verubhabhatidzo rwavo, pasi pechirango chekurangwa. Chinhu chipi nechipi chinotsauka kubva pairi zvishoma chinofanirwa kuita sechifungira uye chine ngozi kwavari. Ipapo akashora, sebasa radhiabhorosi, kwete bhora chete, kutamba, mutambo, komedhi, zviratidziro, kuverengwa kwemanovhero, nhunzi, make-up, uye zvese zvekushandisa coquetry,

asi zvakadaro zvese izvo, mumafashoni akagamuchirwa, zvaiita sekunge zvasvika pedyo nazvo. Ivo havatenderi vakadzi kana vakadzi vadiki kupfeka vhudzi renhema, vachiti, zvakasiyana kwazvo nevarume vanosungirwa kuti kazhinji vafukurwe, vhudzi ravo rinogona kugara richigadzirisa kushaikwa kwebvudzi rechisikigo, uye kuti, zvichienzaniswa navo, unyanzvi hwaigona bedzi kugutsa chishuvo chokufadza vanhu, uye kwete Mwari, kupfurikidza nokunatsiridza runako rwaitova runonyengera zvikuru. Kwaiva, maererano naye, kusavimbika kumhiko dzerubhabhatidzo, rudzi rwekurasika kunofanira kutsamwisa Mwari zvikuru. Aida kuti pini yehengechefu iiswe nenzira yekudzivisa izvo zvakarongwa uye zvekuregeredza nemaune, zvakajairika sezvo zvinopesana nekuzvininipisa kwechokwadi. Handizivi kuti vamwe vanhu vanotora sei tsika dzake, vasingadaro ndeyaMadzibaba eChechi; asi ndinoziva kuti akavaita kuti vadedere pamusoro pezvose izvozvo, zvokusvika pakuvarasa zvachose.

Apo Vatendi pavanopinda muhurukuro pamusoro pezvinhu zvikuru zveKutenda, isu

(470-474)

vanoziva mumutauro wavo kuti vanonzwa kukosha kwayo uye chokwadi. Vanowanzo kuve, mukutaura nezvazvo, kwete chete mataurirwo uye kutendeuka kwemutsara izvo ndezvavo, asiwo matauriro asina kujairika, simba remanzwiro rinotaura zvakawanda kupfuura mazwi. Saka zvinobvepi kuti vawedzere kudarika kwavo kuduku? Zvakadai, kunyanya kumagumo ehupenyu hwake, zvaigara zvichiratidzika seHanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu. Paakataura nezvaMwari, nezveruponeso, zvakaipa, kana kuti kunaka, akazviita nesimba neruremekedzo zvakakodzera vanhu vakuru ava; uye pasinei nekureruka kwematauriro ake, ayo aiwanzoita seanoseka mumuromo chero upi zvake kunze kwewake, aiziva kuisa kufarira kukuru mune zvese zvaaitaura, zvekuti vanhu vakadzidza zvakanyanya vakauya kuzomubvunza uye. akateerera nokungwarira zvikuru. Hapana aikwanisa kupfuura iye kupa kukosha kuchokwadi chikuru chechitendero. Ndezvokuti chokwadi ichi, chaakanzwa zvakakwana, chikuru mazviri, uye kuti kutaura.

Pakupedzisira Hanzvadzi yoKuberekwa yakanga yava kusvika kumugumo unofadza webasa rayo. Apera simba nezera, akaneta nehurwere, kusuwa kwemarudzi ese, kuomerwa uye kutambura kwaakange aita hupenyu hwake hwehurombo, haana.

inotsigirwa kupfuura nechishamiso; yakanga isiri marangwanda ane upenyu. Asemburwa nenyika yaaive asati amboona chimwe chinhu kunze kwenyaya dzekutambudzika nemisodzi, uye kwaaive achiri kuona kupfuura nakare kose, mweya wake kwenguva yakareba waiita sewayangarara pakati perudo rwunoda kusiya hupenyu kuti abatanidze kuna Mwari wake, uye kuzviisa pasi kunoda kutambura zvakanyanya kuitira kuti uwane mufaro uyu zvakanyanya. Non mori sed pati.

Yakanga yangove nguva pfupi zvikuru kubva paakatambura, mushure mevamwe vazhinji, chirwere chakakomba icho chaitongwa kuti aisafanira kurarama. Yakanga iri rudzi rwekudonha kwechipfuva, kubva kwaakazonunurwa nekushandisa stislitic waini (x) inovava kwazvo uye inosemesa mukuravira. Kupora kwake hakuna kutora nguva refu, uye sisi vakazvitarisira. Kudonha, kwechokwadi kana kwenhema, kwaaidavirwa kuti kwakaporeswa, kwakakurumidza kuderera kuva ronda rechiropa, iro rakamutakura pashure pemavhiki matanhatu kana manomwe emushonga, izvo zvakangobatsira kuwedzera kutambura kwake zvishoma, uye zvichida. -Kuvaita kuti vararame zvakanyanya uye zvakanyanya kunaka.

silica  (?)

Munguva iyi akagamuchira Chirairo Chitsvene kakawanda nokutenda nokuzvipira kwaitarisirwa kwaari. Pasinei zvapo nechisimba chemarwadzo ake, akaramba ari pamubhedha zvishoma sezvaaigona, uye kunyange ipapo aingoda bedzi kumuka usiku huviri kana kuti hutatu hwokupedzisira, achichengeta ndangariro yake yakanaka uye yakakwana kusvikira panguva yokupedzisira, uye kazhinji kazhinji kuchengeta. nekutonga kukuru uye kuvapo kwepfungwa nevanhu vaimubatsira. Vanhu vaiuya kuzoishanyira (1); kurukurirano dzake dzaiwanzobatanidza nhau dzoumwari. Aigara achiisa mweya mairi waipa kune vamwe, uye kazhinji angadai akaenda kusvika pakuzvipedza simba, iye asina kuzviona, aive ajaira kwazviri. Akatotaura nemoto wakawanda, pane imwe nguva, kumunhu waakataura aida kuyeuchidzwa nezvebasa rake. Achiona kuti munhu akaomesa musoro uyu akanga achiri kuda kudzoka kumhosva, akaita kuti muchengeti wake amuudze kuti akanga amuudza zvose:Ini , akadaro, ndarovera pini mumusoro. Kana pasina chaanzwa, airamba pandakataura naye zvakare.

Mumwe mukadzi womutaundi akauya rimwe zuva kuzomukumbira minyengetero yake nechikomborero chake nokuda kwake iye nomwana wake muduku, waakamupa kwaari: “Haiwa! Mai vangu vakanaka, vakadaro  sisi, ko minamato yangu isina kunaka ingaite sei? Zviri kuChechi inoera kuropafadza vana vako. Zvisinei, anovakomborera nokuvashuvira makomborero edenga  .

Kunyange zvazvo asina kumbotaura zvakanaka kuti akanga awana chizaruro cheawa nenguva yekufa kwake, pane chikonzero chakanaka chokufunga kuti akanga ane chiratidziro chakasimba kwazvo pamusoro pacho, pasina chimwe chaakataura. Aigara aine

akakumbira Mwari kuti afe zuva neawa paakanga aita mhiko yake yekutanga yekusagadzikana, achizvitsaurira kuMhandara Yakaropafadzwa pamberi pechifananidzo cheMukadzi Wedu weMarshes. (Akanga ari anenge masikati pazuva roKukwira Kudenga.) Nokukurumidza apo hosha yake yokupedzisira yakatanga, akagerwa bvudzi rake pfupi zvikuru. bvudzi rake uye kunyange zvigunwe zvake, uye ndicho chikonzero izvo zvatinazvo zvakapfupika: kubva pakutanga kwaAugust, iye akakumbira kakawanda zuva remwedzi iwoyo; Vakati vamupindura kuti rakanga riri regumi nerimwe romwedzi, iye akapindura akati, "Neregumi nerimwe chete; Kusvika papi! Paakaudzwa kuti dzakanga dzava 8:00 paZuva Rokufungidzira, akapindura nenzira yokuti anzwisise kuti dai akanga anonoka. Uye pazuva regumi neshanu, iro rakanga riri zuva rokufa kwake, aiwanzobvunza nezvenguva, achipupura kuti aida hafu yezuva, pasina kutaura zvakawanda. Aida kusvikako, waiti akapomera zuva kuti rinorebesa nekunonoka kwaro zuva raaisazopera, kana kuti raizove kwaari mambakwedza ezuva risingaperi.

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kuzarura musuwo wekusingaperi kukuru uye kunofadza.

Kunyanya sezvo chifuva chake chakava chakazara neaya majee ezvironda ayo akanga achimudzipa, aigaroarega, kunhuwa kwawo bedzi kwakanga kusingatsungiririki kuna vose vaivapo; Aya majee, ayo akazivisa kunyura kwemuviri wake, zvakamukurira, zvakanyanya neacrid fetidity sekuyedza kwaaifanira kuita kuti azvifungire; dzimwe nguva aingoshuva kuti zvipere, kunyange zvazvo akanga asinganyunyuti nezvazvo. Hanzvadzi yangu, nun aimubatsira akati kwaari rimwe zuva, iyezvino tenzi wamwari anokumwisa mumukombe wake unovava. Ah! amai vangu, vakatangazve Hanzvadzi, ndinofunga kuti nduru nevhiniga zvingaita zvishoma;... asi zvakakosha uye ndinorumbidza Mwari nokuda kwazvo...

Munguva yehurwere hwake, akange apa yambiro inofadza kune vanhu vakasiyana-siyana munyika uye munzvimbo yekuvhara, iyo yakawanda yaiwana pundutso. Idzi nyevero dzakashandura chimiro chehana dzavo nemurairo wavaifanira kuisa mairi kuti vagadzirise izvo Mwari akavazvidza nazvo; akaudza mumwe mu<em>nun kuti aida kudzokororwa kwehana, akatsanangura kwaari chikonzero nei uye kubvira rini; akanongedzera mutungamiriri waakanga aenda

aizvitaura, uye kunyange kutendeuka kwaaizogamuchira kubva kwazviri; iyo yakawanwa kuva yechokwadi mumativi ose. Akaudza vamwe vaviri kuti vanofanira kunge vaitya zvikuru uye vakashanda nesimba kuti vagadzirise basa ravo. Akanyevera Madame la Supérieure kuti aizova nezvakawanda zvokutambura; kuti Mwari vakanga vane michinjikwa yesimbi vakamuchengetera, asi kuti kupera kwematambudziko kwaizomupa kunyaradzwa kwakawanda.

Achiona kuti magumo ake akanga ava kusvika, akazvigadzirira nepaaigona napo kuti agamuchire masakaramende ekupedzisira eChechi, uye kuti azvigadzirire zvirinani akanamata kuti vapirisita, masisita nevanhu chete vabvumidzwe kupinda mukamuri rake. izvo zvaangade. Akagamuchira, neshungu dzakapetwa kaviri, iyo tsvene viaticum, kunyura kwakanyanya, uye kufarirwa kwerufu rwakanaka maererano nekuraira kwemamongi eFrancisca. Akazvikurudzira, uye akataura mumamiriro ezvinhu aya, pakati pezvimwe zvinhu, chiito chekuzvidemba icho vabatsiri vese vakanzwa misodzi.  Muprista akamutungamirira akaenda achigutsikana kupfuura nakare kose pamusoro pezvaakanga ambotaura pamusoro pake: iye mutsvene. Akanga azvitaura chinyararire kune vanhu vasingadaro kunyengetedzwa.

Pashure peichi chiito chorudzidziso, akatenda munhu ari wose, uye akanyengetera kuti vamusiye ari oga naMwari wake, uyo akanga achangobva kugamuchira kwenguva yokupedzisira. Kuonga kwake, akataura kuti kubva zvino zvichienda mberi taigona kupinza munhu upi noupi aida kudaro, sezvo kuona mukadzi ari kufa kwaigona kuva nemigumisiro yakanaka: “Chiono chorufu nemhedziso yedu yokupedzisira, iye akadaro, inobetsera nguva dzose kuvapenyu. Hazviratidzike kuti dhimoni rakamunetsa sezvo magumo ake akasvika: ndiyo tariro yandakanga ndaita kuti abate pamuviri, nekumusimbisa pamusoro pekutyisidzira kwaakanga amboita kwaari munguva yakapfuura kuti amudzivise kundiita kuti ndinyore izvo Mwari akanga ataura kwaari. iye (1). Vaingomutarisa husiku hutatu pachinhu chiri chose, uye kunyange ipapo akatsungirira zvakaoma. Aifarira kuudzwa nezvaMwari,

(1) Tinogona kudavira kuti Mwari akamupa zvaakanga amukumbira kakawanda nemashoko aya: Dai Kudenga kuti kuguma kwoupenyu hwangu kwaizova norugare sepakutanga uye kunotevera kwacho kwaiva kushoma!

Pakupedzisira, zuva regumi neshanu raAugust 1798, zuva reAssumption yemudziviriri wake mukuru, rinosvika. Ndiro zuva raanotarisira kugovera kukunda kwaakambokunda nako kakawanda pamusoro pevavengi vake. Hanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu yakafara; asi hapana chaanoziva nezvazvo, ndizvo zvaari

tenzikadzi wake, uye anotya zvakanyanya kusiya chero pfungwa yaizomubatsira. Anobvunza kuti inguvai mumangwanani, ipapo anotaura pamusoro paMwari kuvanhu vakasiana-siana, uye anotaura kwavari pamusoro pazvo nechiso nenzwi zvinozivisa kugutsikana. Vakapindawo nomukadzi womukadzi wake, akanga auya kuzomuona; akagara naye nguva refu. Pamvumo yaakanga awana, akarasa vhiri rake rinotenderera uye zvimwe zviduku zvaimufarira, uye murimi akanaka uyu akamusiya aine misodzi mumaziso ake.

Hanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu yakabva yataura zvakaoma kudarika kare, uye zvakanga zvakaoma zvikuru kumunzwa, saka chipfuva chake chakanga chakadzvinyirirwa. Yakanga iri nguva yegumi kana yegumi neimwe o'clock, uye zvese zvaive maari zvakazivisa zvakajairika mhedzisiro yekuyerera, kupera zvachose: zvaitarisirwa kuti chinzvimbo chake hachigone kugara kwenguva refu, uye aitarisira kupfuura chero munhu. Avete pamubhedha wake wokurwadziwa, aine pamberi pake mufananidzo waMwari wake ari kufa, paari nzira yemhiko dzake, uye padivi pemvura tsvene yaaiwanzoda kusaswa nayo; akachengeta mweya wake wose nekugadzikana kwese kwemweya wake, iye

akatarisa rufu neziso rechokwadi, akafunga nezvazvo nemhepo yakadzikama,

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ndokuona achiuya asina kana kakutya. Hongu, aine chokwadi chemubairo wake, akaona nemufaro uchisvika kumagumo anofadza ekushanda kwake, uye aiita seasingateereri, nechivimbo chake chakasimba, zvese izvo pfungwa yekusingaperi inogona kupa zvinotyisa kune vamwe vese vanofa.

Nguva dzava kuma past eleven akanga angosara nemweya mumwe chete, izvo zvaisaita kuti anzwe; asi kufamba kwemiromo yake, kutaridzika kwechiso chake, nezviratidzo zvaakanga achiri kuita, akati, paakanga ava kufa, mweya wake uripo. Maziso ake, dzimwe nguva aisimudza akananga kudenga, uye dzimwe nguva akatarisa pamuchinjikwa wake, airatidza zvose chinangwa chaaivavarira, chinangwa cherudo rwake, uye chinangwa chetariro yake. Pakukumbira kwake, ruoko rwake rwaiwanzotorwa kumubatsira kuti chiratidzo chemuchinjikwa ave nechokwadi, kana kuti kumutsvoda tsoka dzechipiyaniso chake. Akanga achiri kuedza kudzokorora mazita matsvene aJesu naMaria, kana kuti mamwe mabasa okutenda, etariro, kana kuti orudo, ayo akataurwa kwaari, uye aaida zvikuru kunzwa. Kekupedzisira

kazhinji aya mabasa oumwari, wepashure, panzvimbo pokubata ruoko rwake, iye amene akaita chiratidzo chinoyera pachiso chake nemvura tsvene, uye Hanzvadzi yoKuberekwa kwaJesu yakaratidza kuonga kwayo kupfurikidza nokunyemwerera kwokunyemwerera zvikuru.” Nenyasha akadzokororwa kaviri noungwaru hukuru. Masikati akabva arova wachi yedhorobha. Maminitsi mashomanana gare gare, avo vakanga varamba vari pedyo naye vakanzwisisa kuti akanga asisavapi chiratidzo chipi nechipi chezivo, uye kuti chiso chake chakava neshanduko yakati. Vakapfugama, uye pavakanga vachimunamatira, musikana mutsvene uyu akapa mweya wake murugare kuna Mwari wake. Sic moritur justus . Nguva yemasikati yakatanga maminitsi mashanu kana matanhatu pashure pokunge afa.

Saka akafa, mugore rake rechimakumi matanhatu nemasere, musikana uyu anoshamisa, uyo munhu anogona, nechikonzero, kumutora soumbwende hwezera rake, akakodzera muzvinhu zvose kuenzaniswa nezvose zvinokudzwa neChechi sezvikuru uye zvinoshamisa pakati pavanhu ukadzi hwake, waasingapiwi nedivi rekunaka, kana nekuoma kwetsika; zvinotonyanya kushamisa kuti, asina mabhii, asina dzidzo, asingakwanisi kutaura zvaanofunga, anosungirwa kushandisa ruoko rwokumwe, akaenzana, zvichida kunyange kupfuura muzvinyorwa zvake, zvose izvo vamwe vakanga vaita nenzira inoyemurika zvikuru murudzi rwekurudziro. kana kunamata. Kana basa rake, sezvariri, rairatidzika kune nyanzvi dzinoverengeka kukunda zvese zvakanyorwa naSaint Thérèse zvakanyanya, chingave chii kana, mweya netsika zveyekupedzisira, aikwanisa, ari ega, kukudziridza uye kupa mazano ake makuru, ayo mupepeti wake anongove anetesa zvakanyanya? Saka ngatizvitaure pasina

kutya, Hanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu yakasimudzwa muzuva redu kuratidza, mumunhu wake, kuti ruoko rwaMwari haruna kupfupiswa, uye kuti anogona, mukupera kwemazana emakore, kuunza muChechi yake zvinoshamisa zvakafanira izvo. idzo dzakaratidza matangiro azvo, uye izvo zvikwata zvisingambo kwanisa kutaura mukuda kwavo.

Pasina nguva apedza nguva, izwi reruzhinji rakamuita kuti ave mutsvene nezviyero zvinongova zveavo chete vane hutsvene hunocherechedzwa neChechi. Mutsvene achangofa , vakadaro. Vanhu vazhinji zhinji vakauya vachikumbira kuona mutumbi womutsvene.. Akaratidzwa kwenguva refu, akapfeka tsika yake yechitendero, chiso chake, maoko netsoka zvakafukurwa, kuti agutse chido cheavo vaiva nekuzvipira kumupa rukudzo rwekunaka kwevaranda vakuru vaMwari. Nenguva isipi mubhedha wake waive wafukidzwa nemabhuku, marozari, zvisaririra nezvimwe zviridzwa zvehumwari zvavaida kubata. Takabvunza nemoyo wese, tichida kugoverana zvinhu zvidiki-diki zvingave zvaiva zvake. Taida kuva nevhudzi rake, iye

chidzitiro chetambo yayo, nembeva dzerosari yayo; kusvikira mamvemve aro aparadzaniswa. Vakarumbidza mumwe nomumwe zvikuru kuminyengetero yake, uye kunyange nhasi, hapana chinhu chinozivikanwa zvikuru mumataundi akapoteredza nomumaruwa, kupfuura kunyengetera nokuita mhiko dzokukudza Kuberekwa Kutsvene .

Akanga akumbira VaDuval, sabhuku weLaignelet, kuti vavigwe mumakuva eparish. Pane kuti vazvipikisa, VaDuval vakanga vavatenda nokuda kwechido chavakavaita, uye vakati zvisaririra zvavo zvaizoita kuti vakomborerwe naMwari uye nevaainamata navo. Hanzvadzi yacho yakanga yatora iyi wedzero sejee pairi, iyo yakanga yaramba kupindura, nemhaka yokuremekedza muprista akanaka; asi pashure pokunge aenda, akanga audza masisita kuti sabhuku akanga achida kumuseka . Zvisinei, akanga ataura zvakanyanya, uye akanga asingatarisiri, mukutaura naye saizvozvo, kuti aizovigwa pedyo naye, mushure mokunge aurayiwa zvisina utsinye mumabasa ake nevavengi ve.

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Hanzvadzi yoKuberekwa kwaJesu naizvozvo yakavigwa muguva rake, pamberi pomukova mukuru wechechi, uye, kunodavirwa, kurutivi rwokumaodzanyemba; Madame Sainte-Reine, zvakare murongi wedhorobha rechitendero, anobata divi rakatarisana nemusuwo mumwe chete, uye

VaDuval vari pakati pevaviri ava. Chero rukudzo rwatinarwo rwendangariro yake, pamwe nerweMadam Sainte-Reine, tagara tichisiyanisa iyo yeHanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu. Guva rake roga rave nemukurumbira. Vanhu vanoenda ikoko kakawanda kuti vazvirumbidze kuminamato yavo. Pachiitiko ichi, zvinhu zvinoshamisa zvinototaurwa izvo zvisiri zvangu kutonga. Ngatifungei zvatinoda; Kwandiri, handidi kuti Mwari aite zvishamiso zvitsva kuti nditende, kwechinguvana, mune mufaro wemweya uyo hunhu, zvinyorwa, hupenyu uye rufu zvinoratidzika kwandiri nhevedzano yechokwadi chezvishamiso izvo, zvichitora kubva mukurongeka kwakafanana, musanditendera kukahadzika kwechinguvana utsvene hwayo.

Nokudaro, vanoyemurwa nguva dzose muvatsvene vake, Mwari anotibvumira kuti tivaedze; anovaedza iye pachake munguva yeupenyu hwavo, uye anovakudza kaviri mushure mekufa kwavo. Asingagutsikani nokuvapa kudenga mubayiro wakapikirwa kutendeka kwavo, anoramba aripa pasi pano nokuvaita kuti vararame.

nekusingaperi mundangariro dzavanhu, pasina kuva kwavo nechimwe chinhu chekutya kubva mukunyomba kwevakaipa: In memoria œterna erit justus, ab auditione mala non timebit. ( Pis. 111, 8, 7 . ) Muupenyu hwavo, nyika inovazvidza uye inovatambudza, nokuti haigoni kutsungirira chirango chakavanzika chavanoita pamusoro pomufambiro wayo; asi ivo havasati vanyangarika kubva mumeso ake kunze kwekuti, neruremekedzo rwekuzvidira, anopa, kunyangwe iye pachake, kururamisira kune hunhu hwaaive azvidza pakutanga, uye hwaanoyemura zvakadaro muchivande. Haachatauri kunze kwekurumbidza vanhu vakatanhamara ava vane mienzaniso yaasina ushingi hwekutevedzera kana kutevedzera.

Nokudaro, nepo mukurumbira wavanonzi vachenjeri venguva, nepo uyo wamadzimambo navakundi unonyangarika seguruva rinopeperetswa nemhepo; nepo zita ravo richiwira mukuputsika mukukanganwa, uye rinovigwa pamwe chete navo muguva rimwechete, vakarurama, vanokunda pashanje nenguva, havachina chimwe chekutya kubva mukutambudzwa. Anorumbidzwa nevavengi vake pachavo, uye anorarama nekusingaperi mundangariro dzevanhu: Mundangariro

aeterna erit justus. Zita rake rinowedzera kusimba nemazana emakore, uye mbiri yake inowanzotangira painowanzoguma iya yevavengi vake.

Mushure mekunge taverenga nhoroondo yemakore masere ekupedzisira emushakabvu Hanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu, yakanyorwa naM. Genet, hapana chataona ipapo chaisaratidzika kwatiri sechinonyatsoenderana nezvese zvatinoziva kubva mukuve zvapupu kwazviri panguva. Ferns. July 27, 1803. Marie Louise Le Breton, Hanzvadzi Sainte-Madeleine, mukuru; Michelle Pel. Binel des Séraphins, depositary; Blanche Binel weSaint Elizabeth; L. Binel, meya; Catherine Prime Binel; Louise Binel; Anne Binel; White Binel Hallmark.

TSAMBA

UYE MADUKURU EMATEU

Yakanyorerwa kuMharidzo panguva yekutanga edition yebasa iri, uye kubvira.

Kuna M. Beaucé, Mutengesi weMabhuku.

Changamire,

Pandakanyorera M. l'abbé Genet kuti ndipupure kwaari zvese kugutsikana kwandakapiwa nokuverengwa kwebasa rake pamusoro peHanzvadzi yoKuberekwa kwaJesu, ndakanga ndisingatarisiri kuti aigona kubatanidza nekodzero iyi inokosha zvakakwana kuti iite pachena, nemvumo dzose dzaakagamuchira. vanachiremba vane ruzivo rwakasiyana. Nekudaro, ini ndiri kure nekudzosa chero chinhu kubva pane zvese zvandakamuudza nezve kugadzirwa uku, izvo zvinogona, ichokwadi, kusangana nekupokana kwakawanda, asi izvo zvinobvumirana zvakanyanya nemanzwiro angu pamusoro pechikonzero chikuru chenjodzi dzese dzekuchinja kwedu, ndiko kuti, pamusoro pokuipa kwose kwezana ramakore kwakasunungurwa, neimwe nzira, mukurwisana nechitendero chaJesu Kristu; zvaMwari uyu waanotipa  pfungwa huru, dzakanaka, dzakarurama.

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Ndinokukumbirai chete kuti muwedzere kune izvo Baba Genet vaida kunyora kubva mutsamba yangu yandakanga ndaita ongororo kwavari pane zvimwe zvinhu, zvavakavimbisa kubvisa kana kushandura; izvo pasina mubvunzo achange aita mukopi yaunayo. Ndichiziva kwazvo kuti hazvisi zvangu kuti ndizvimise semutongi wezvakazarurwa uye kufanotaura kuri mubasa iri, ndakatora mukana wekuuya kwaPius VII muParis kuti ndipe Hutsvene Hwake kopi yandakanga ndagamuchira kubva M. Genet pachake. Ndaitarisira kuti basa iri raisazodhindwa kutozosvikira raongororwa nevatongi vaikwanisa kupfuura vose. Ndinoziva kuti ndicho chaive chishuwo cheSister of the Nativity, kutya kukuru kwaive kuzvibvisa pane zvishoma kubva pakutenda kweChechi. mupepeti.

Ndine rukudzo rwekuva,

Muranda wenyu, Abbé Barruel.

Kukadzi 10  , 1818.

Zvinyorwa kubva mutsamba kubva kuna Madame Le Breton, anozivikanwa saSainte-Madeleine, mukuru weHanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu.

Changamire,

Sezvo ndaziva kuti waisawana wedzero (1), ndakasarudza kuita kuti akope kuti nditumire kwauri. Basa racho rakanga rakasimba uye richirwadza; nokuti ndinotenda kuti ichange iine vhoriyamu yose...; asi, changamire, usati waridhinda, zvakafanira chose kuti riitwe nomufundisi ane ruzivo rwakakwana; nokuti zvino zvinoratidzika kwandiri kuti zvinhu zvose izvi zvakanaka zvakafanana nemadhaimani akaiswa mutobvu. Kune kuwanda kwekudzokorora ... Ndinogona kukuvimbisa kuti hapana chakashandurwa kana kuwedzerwa pairi. Akaita sezvatakamuwana, achitipa chete kubwinya kwaMwari neruponeso rwemweya...

(1) Wedzero iyo Mukuru anotaura nezvayo pano, uye yandakanga ndakumbira kwaari, ine zvose izvo Hanzvadzi yoKuberekwa kwaJesu yakanga yataura nguva pfupi asati afa; mabhuku aya anoumba musoro wevhoriyamu yechina. Vakapiwa kwandiri nemudyi wenhaka yaVaGenet.

Le Breton, anonzi Sainte-Magdeleine.

St. James, Chivabvu 13, 1818.

Cherechedza . Masisita ekuronga mataundi akasara kubva munharaunda yeFougères akaenda kuSaint-James, nemukuru wavo.

Changamire,

Gamuchira kutenda kwangu nemakopi matatu amakaita zvakanaka kunditumira nevanin'ina vangu. Pandakangoawana, ndakaaverenga, kuti ndikuzivise zvandinotenda kuti hazvina kunyatsokwana; asi zvinofanira kubvumwa kuti izvi zvishoma. Ndichakunyorerai, uye ndikupei mazita akafanira asina kunyorwa zvakanaka: Maiwe! kuti zvese zvaakandiudza zvichiri kure kuti zvinyorwe! Ndinoona nomufaro kuti vanhu vakanga varatidza kushora kwangu basa iri, zvino vanoda kuriverenga. Kuitora pasina rusaruro, handina mubvunzo kuti ichava inonaka kwazvo, uye

ndizvo chete zvandinoshuva kuti kubwinya kwaMwari kuponeswe uye nokuponeswa kwemweya uye nokuda kwenyu  . Iwe unofanirwa kunge wakagamuchira chekuwedzera  iwe

vaibvunza. rinonakidza sebhuku rose, zvekuti  handineti

kunongedza kurava, uye kuti ndinokumbirwa zvikuru kwazvo kukwereta, zvokuti ndinokuwana kwakaoma kugutsa munhu ari wose. Izvi, ndinovimba, zvichapa kuparadzirwa kukuru, kunyanya kwechinyorwa chechipiri icho chichave chakarurama, uye icho chichava nemufananidzo weuyu Mwanasikana mutsvene. Gashirai zvakare vimbiso yekutenda kwangu uye neruremekedzo rwandine rukudzo rwekuva, muMwoyo Inoyera yaJesu naMaria,

Changamire,

Muranda wenyu akazvininipisa zvikuru, Le Breton, anonzi Sainte-Magdeleine.

St. James, Chikumi 20, 1818.

Changamire,

Iwe zvino une zvese zvakarairwa naSister of the Nativity. Nguva dzose aichengeta chinhu chiri chose chinoshamisa, zvokuti vazhinji vasisita vaaigara navo vakanga vasingazvizivi. Vamwe vaingozvifungira; asi akandiudza kakawanda kuti angadai akasarudza kutaura zvitadzo zvake zvose pane kureurura chinhu chidiki. Agara achindikumbira kuti ndimuderedze mundangariro dzevanhu vanoita sevanomuremekedza; akatoita kuti zvidavirwe kuti akanga apinda muuduku pashure pokunge arwara zvakakomba, kuti aparadze pfungwa yakanaka yaakaratidzwa. Kana akandipa chivimbo chakazara, kwaingova kusavapo kwaM. Genet. Zvaakanga ari mukuru panguva iyoyo, akandiudza zvaakaziviswa naShe wedu kwaari, ndisati ndachinyora, kuti ndione kana ndaizochiwana chakakodzera, uye ndagara ndichichibvumira, ndisingakwanisi kuzvinyora pachangu, ndichitya kuonekwa. Madame Michelle Pélagie Binel, anozivikanwa saLes Séraphins, ari ega muchivande neni, uye akafa muna 1817, akapiwa basa rokunyora. Mamwe masisita ose angangova nezvidimbu zvezvaunazvo, asi vazhinji vangakuudza kuti vakavakwa nomufambiro wake munzira dzose, pamwe chete navanhu venyika vaakararama navo mumakore okupedzisira oupenyu hwake. Mu<em>nun akanga amuteerera mureururo, uye airatidzika kuva aimushora, akandiudza kuti akanga asati ambomuona achiita chikanganiso chokuzvidira. Zvakazviratidza (x) nokungotaura nezverudo rwehumwari. Chiso chake chikava mhenyu, uye shoko raMwari rakataurwa naye. rakapinda mukati-kati memweya: hakuna kumbova nomumwe akaita fungidziro yakadai pandiri; vamwe vakasangana nazvo seni. Zvisinei kuti manyoro ake akanaka sei, ane simba shoma pane rake yakavharwa.

(x) yaonekwa (???) yaonekwa (?)

Chinhu chinofadza zvikuru chakatumirwa mugungwa, chatakanga tisina kuchengeta chidimbu chacho. Aigara achitiudza kuti Mwari aimudzivirira. Maererano neizvi hapana chatakachengeta. Wedzero yandakakutumirai, parufu rwake, yakanga iri mumaoko aM. le Saunier, aichimbova muprista weruwa rweParcé, mureururi wake panguva iyoyo akanga aita kuti iongororwe naM. Vafral, muprista uye mukuru mufundisi, aigara muSaint-James. , anosiyaniswa nesayenzi yake nokunaka kwake. Wekupedzisira akaripa kuna Mademoiselle Beaumond, mutengesi munzvimbo imwe cheteyo, akatora iyi kopi isina kunyorwa, yandakanyora pairi, mukadzi wechidiki uyu asingadi kusiyana nayo. Varume vaviri ava vakafa makore  mazhinji apfuura.

makore; uye Hanzvadzi yeKuberekwa kwaJesu vakafa makore mana M. Genet asati adzokera kuFrance. Ndakange ndave nenguva refu ndisiri paari. Handizivi kuti zvakaitika sei kuti mushure mekushanda pamapepa ekupedzisira aya, akarasika; Ndakazongonzwa kuti avakweretesa kuti vakope, uye kuti vakakorokoza, handizivi kuti kupi. Aya oga akanga agadzirwa muFrance: zvose zvawakadhinda zvakanga zviri muEngland. Vamwe vanoda izvozvo

M. Genet kuti basa iri ridhindwe, kwagara kune zvipingamupinyi.

Ndiwo, changamire, ruzivo rwese rwandinogona kukupai, dai ruchikwana.

(495-499)

kuti basa ripere uye ndiratidze kwamuri kufarirwa kwangu.

Gamuchira kuvimbiswa kweruremekedzo rwandine rukudzo rwekuva muMwoyo Inoyera yaJesu naMaria.

Changamire, muranda wenyu akazvininipisa zvikuru, De Sainte Magdelaine.

St. James, Chikumi 28, 1818.

PS Akanga asina mumwe munhu ainyora kunze kwaM. le Dean de la Pellerine uye

Mr Genet. Une tsamba dzake.

Zvinyorwa kubva mutsamba dzaMuzvare Louise Binel.

(Mademoiselle Louise Binel, mwanasikana waM. Binel, Mayor weFougères, uye muzukuru wemasisita maviri eUrbanists anovimbika eHanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu; zvinoti: Madame des Séraphins (Michelle-Pélagie Binel), uye Madame de Sainte-Elisabeth (Blanche Binel ), aive nehukama hwakakosha uye hwepedyo neSister of the Nativity. Mainini vake vaviri, vakamanikidzwa kudzokera kumhuri dzavo pakusiya nharaunda yavo, vaive vatora kubva kwavari iyi tsvene Converse, uye mukati memhuri inoremekedzeka iyi ndimo mandiri. akafa.)

Fougeres, Chikumi 12, 1818.

Changamire,

... Ndinokutendai zvikuru nekundiudza kuti kuchava neshanduro yechipiri; nokuti handina kunzvera pekutanga, asi handina kuwana chekuwedzera icho M. Genet oga aiva nacho. Yaiva nemapeji mazana maviri, uye yakanga iri murunyoro rwatete vangu kubva kuSeraphim. M. Genet akanga ainyora nguva pfupi asati afa. Ndakanga ndine chirongwa chekumutumira katsamba kadiki kechinyorwa, chisingaenderane nechiitiko. Ndakaziva nekufamba kwenguva kuti takanga tichangobva kurasikirwa naye.

Ndinozvitaura kwamuri, changamire....

Louise Binel.

Fougeres, Chikunguru 5, 1818.

Changamire,

.... Kuti ndikuise panzvimbo yekuona kuti une zvinyorwa here

chokwadi, chakanyorwa pasi pechirevo cheHanzvadzi yeKuberekwa naMadame des Séraphins, amainini vangu, ndakafunga, changamire, kuti handingaite zvirinani pane kupfuudza kwamuri kubva murunyoro rwavo. Naizvozvo uchawana  yakapoteredzwa tsamba yaakandinyorera gore risati rafa; nekuti ndakava nemarwadzo ekurasikirwa naye gore rapfuura, paEaster. Ndinogonawo kukuudza kuti aive musande, sehanzvadzi yake Madame de Sainte-Élisabeth. Hanzvadzi yeKuzvarwa yakaitwa hombe nazvo. Zvaiva nyaradzo huru kuna mainini kuona mabasa ake akadhindwa. Takaita rombo rakanaka kuvatora vari vatatu kubva pavakabva munharaunda yavo. Vakatisiya makore akati kuti mushure mekufa kweSista, kuti tipinde munharaunda itsva, yakatangwa muSaint-James. Ms

weSainte-Magdeleine, uyo aive abiss yavo, uye kuti kusiya nyika uye kufa muvharobe. Ndine urombo, changamire, ndasiya nyaya. Ndasarudza tsamba iyi kubva kuna mainini, nekuti vanondiudza nezvedu

Hanzvadzi inodiwa, uye ndizivise kuti Baba Barruel vakatumira kopi yezvinyorwa zvavo kuna baba vedu vatsvene Pope. Sezvo mainini vainge vatorwara pavakandinyorera, handwriting yavo inenge yachinja. Zvisinei, ndinotenda kuti uchaona kana zvinyorwa zvaunazvo zviri kwaari; uye kana vakadaro, munogona kuva nechokwadi kuti havana kudhonzwa naM. Genet, avo, vafa kamwe kamwe, vangadai vasina kukwanisa kushanda pazviri; nokuti dai akanga azvinyora, angadai asina kuchengeta zvinyorwa zvatete vangu, izvo zvaisafanira kuonekwa sezvazviri, asi kuti zvakanyorwa nokushandirwa naM. mweya mumwe chete, sezvamuchaona nezvishuwo zvekupedzisira zveSista, zvandakava nerombo rakanaka kuwana,

(1) Iwo achawanwa pakutanga kwevhoriyamu yechina, munyevero.

Tete vangu vaSeraphim ndivo vaiva mutarisiri wemabhuku aya, uyewo imwe yeshamwari dzangu yaivimbwa neHanzvadzi yedu inodiwa, nemhaka yokunaka kwayo, kungwara kwayo uye mabasa anokosha aakanga aita kwaari. Musikana akanaka uyu akatozvifumura kuti achengete magwaro aya munguva yaityisa zvikuru yechimurenga, hurumende yaitovatsvaga nekuda kwehunde yaibva kuEngland, yevafundisi vaipfuura muchivande: yakabatwa, ikoko. akawanikwa mamwe mabhuku ekunyorera akakopwa kubva kuaya aM. Genet, panguva iyoyo aiva muLondon. Sezvazvaive pamusoro pechimurenga, tsvakiridzo yakaitwa kuedza kutsvaga zvakazoitika. Pakadzoka M. Genet, sahwira wangu naamainini vangu vakadzorera zvinyorwa kwaari, vachimuudza nezvezvishuwo zvekupedzisira zveSista. Handifungi, maererano neizvi, kuti M. Genet akaregeredza sei mazwi aya; nekuti mabhuku ekunyorera aya haafanire kuoneka sezvaari. Masisita maviri aaivimba nawo haana kunetseka nezvazvo, chinhu chiri chose chiri mumaoko omupepeti wenhau, achipwiswa kuti chinhu chiri chose chakanyorwa, uye, kana afa, akapiwa mumwe munhu wavaivimba naye. Chekupedzisira, changamire, chandinokuvimbisai ndechekuti M. Genet ega ndiye aiva nebasa rakakwana. Makopi akawanda, asi hapana ane zvinyorwa zvamainini; iye kana mamwe masisita haana kuchengeta chero makopi ezvakatumirwa zvaive chinhu chose chiri mumaoko omunyori, achinyatsopwiswa kuti zvinhu zvose zvakanyorwa, uye, kana afa, akapiwa mumwe munhu waaivimba naye. Chekupedzisira, changamire, chandinokuvimbisai ndechekuti M. Genet ega ndiye aiva nebasa rakakwana. Makopi akawanda, asi hapana ane zvinyorwa zvamainini; iye kana mamwe masisita haana kuchengeta chero makopi ezvakatumirwa zvaive chinhu chose chiri mumaoko omunyori, achinyatsopwiswa kuti zvinhu zvose zvakanyorwa, uye, kana afa, akapiwa mumwe munhu waaivimba naye. Chekupedzisira, changamire, chandinokuvimbisai ndechekuti M. Genet ega ndiye aiva nebasa rakakwana. Makopi akawanda, asi hapana ane zvinyorwa zvamainini; iye kana mamwe masisita haana kuchengeta chero makopi ezvakatumirwa zvaive chokwadi....

Ndiwo, changamire, ndiwo mashoko ose andinogona kukupa; ndinofara kana ndikakwanisa kupa chimwe chinhu kune zvakanaka izvo izvi

basa rakakosha, rinonyanya kufara kana ndikabatsirika kubva mariri pachangu, pamwe nekuraira kwerudo kwandakapihwa nemwanasikana mutsvene uyu akamiririra Mwari; nokuti ndiye ega akanga akwanisa kumupa ruzivo rwezvaiitika mandiri, sokundiudza kwaakaita, uye kuti nguva pfupi asati afa, uyewo kuna baba vangu, amai vangu nehanzvadzi yangu yechidiki. Sisi varombo ava vaindida zvinyoro nyoro, ndakamudzorera favour....

Pamusoroi, changamire, nekureba kwetsamba iyi; kana pane dzimwe nguva ndakatsauka kubva pachidzidzo changu, munofanira kuzvitaura chete netsitsi dzangu huru kumwanasikana wedu mutsvene, uyo anoziva kuti ndinozvikanganwa pandinotaura nezvake.

Ndine rukudzo rwekuva neruremekedzo, Changamire,

Muranda wenyu akazvininipisa zvikuru, Louise Binel.

Tichabatanidza pano tsamba kubva kuna M. Le Roy, Dean weLa Pellerine, mureururi weHanzvadzi yeKuberekwa kwaJesu panguva yekusavapo kwaM. Genet.

Hezvino izvo zvaakanyorera mumwe wevaaishanda navo muna 1799; Tsamba iyi ine tsika yekunamata inoshanda kwazvo yekuyamura mweya muPurigatori.

Changamire,

Pane zvinhu zvinoyemurika zvokutaura pamusoro peHanzvadzi yoKuberekwa kwaJesu, izvo zvisingasiyi nzvimbo yokusava nechokwadi nomufaro wake, uye zvinozivisa kuti mukuru zvikuru pamberi paMwari. Kubva pamakore maviri nehafu kusvika maziva kuti akafa, Mwari, nguva nenguva, vaitaura naye, kunyanya kubva pakatanga chimurenga; akamuratidza zvinhu zvakawanda zvakatoitika, kunyanya kufa kwaLouis XVI, kugadzwa kwake kuDenga, kuparadzwa kwenharaunda, kutambudzwa kutsva kwatiri kuona, nezvimwewo; nokuda kwenguva yemberi, kuguma kwenhamo dzeFrance, kukunda kweChechi, kugadzwazve kwechitendero, kusikwa kwenzanga itsva, rutivi rwezvitambudzo izvo Chechi inofanira kutambura kutozosvikira pakupera kwamazana amakore  . 

(500-503)

rumuko rwaJ.-C., midzimu yokudenga yakanga iri zvapupu.

Akazivisa kwaari kuti nzira yokusunungura nayo mweya muPurigatori, inoshanda zvikuru, uye inogamuchirika zvikuru kwaari, ndeyokumupa nokuda kweichi vavariro, zvakaparadzana, kurwadzisa kwakasiana uko J.-C. kosi yechishuvo chake chinorwadza.

Ngatikomborerei kane chiuru, Changamire, uye tisingaregi kutenda munyori nekuda kwenyasha dzese dzinoshamisa dzaakapa kumweya wakapfava uyu, tofunga nekukatyamadzwa kuti anofarira sei kushandisa zviridzwa zvisina simba pazvinhu zvikuru kwazvo. , uye nezvishamiso zvake. nyasha netsitsi dzisingaperi kuvanhu; nokuti haazi yake, asi nokuda kwedu, kuti amupe chiedza chakadai. Naizvozvo ngatiedzei kuirondedzera, uye pamusoro pazvose kuti tikodzere kubatanidzwazve rimwe zuva neMukunda mutsvene uyu nekusingaperi.

Ndine rukudzo rwekuva,

Changamire, muranda wenyu akazvininipisa zvikuru, Le Roy, Dean weLa Pellerine.

Tinoona kubva mutsamba iyi kuti M. Le Roy, somureururi weHanzvadzi yoKuberekwa kwaJesu, akanga ane ruzivo rwezvinyorwa zvake zvokupedzisira, izvo zvichava musoro wevhoriyamu inotevera.

Kupera kwevhoriyamu yechitatu.

ZVIRI MUKATI

iri muvhoriyamu yechitatu.

Nhanganyaya Peg. 1 

Hupenyu hwemukati hweHanzvadzi  yeKuzvarwa kwaJesu  6

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