UJeanne le Royer / Udadewabo Wokuzalwa

IMPILO YANGANGAPHAKATHI YE

USISI WOKUZALWA,

Ukuze asebenze njengokulandelela Izambulo zakhe, ngoMhleli ofanayo.

ISINGENISO.

Ukuqiniseka engangikunikwe uDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu kwakungasakwazi ukuqhubeka, njengoba kumelwe ukuba umuntu waphawula endabeni engiye ngamnika yona ngezimfihlo zakhe nezindaba zakhe. Lokhu kuqiniseka kwase kukhule ngokulingana nesithakazelo le ntombazane engcwele eyasibona kimi ngithatha konke okuphathelene nonembeza nezindlela ezingavamile, eyayingangifihlelanga lutho kukho okungathakazelisa iBandla neBandla. Ngize ngivume ukuthi kwakuyoba nzima kakhulu kimina ukuthi ngingamfaki enhliziyweni, njengoba ngase ngikwazi kahle kokubili ulaka lwesimilo sakhe nokuqina kobuhle bakhe, ikakhulukazi umusa omkhulu izulu elimnike wona. kwagcwaliseka: kodwa angigcinanga lapho, futhi ngamane ngakholwa ukuthi uNkulunkulu, okwathi, naphezu kokungafaneleki kwami, nangenxa yezizathu ezaziwa nguye, wabonakala sengathi

Noma ngayiphi indlela leli bhizinisi lesibili elaphakanyiswa ngalo kimi, ngangikuthatha njengomsebenzi noma umsebenzi omusha engangibekwe wona, futhi okungenzeka ngelinye ilanga ngiyocelwa ukuba ngiziphendulele ngawo. Ngaphandle kwalokho, imiphefumulo yalo mlingiswa ayivamile, ubuhle bayo bungaphezu kwenhlamba, kangangokuthi umuntu angasho ngesibindi ukuthi akukho lutho oluncane kubo, nokuthi kuhlale kukhona okuzuzwayo kunoma yini engayenza yaziwe futhi yaziwe kangcono. Kulokhu kuncenga, ngamazisa ngesu enganginalo lokubhala impilo yakhe yangaphakathi, noma kunalokho ukuziphatha kwezulu kuye; enezela, ukuze agweme izaba zokuthobeka kwakhe, engangicabanga ukuthi ngilandela kulentando kaNkulunkulu, lowo, njengoba ngangithemba, wayengeke ehluleke ukwenza kanjalo. thola udumo kuyo ukuze kusindiswe imiphefumulo futhi mhlawumbe nokuguqulwa kwezoni. Kwakumthatha ngempela uDade ngobuthakathaka bakhe, nokho wacela isikhathi sokucabanga ngakho. Kwakudingekile ukuba abuyele ecaleni, ukuze ngimkhumbuze ngesithakazelo senkazimulo kaNkulunkulu nokusindiswa kwemiphefumulo ehlengiwe ngegazi lakhe, nokukhuluma naye ngalo lonke igunya engangingaba nalo phezu kwakhe; ngimyala ukuba angilalele kulokhu, ngobuhlungu bokungalaleli uNkulunkulu ongithumileyo, nasebandleni elamukela mina....

Ukhuluma nami, ekugcineni wathi, ngokuguqulwa  kwezoni Maye!

Baba, kungcono ngesabe ukuhlazisa abalungileyo, uma ukuphila kwami ​​kwangaphakathi bekwaziwa kakhulu yibo. Nokho, wanezela, Ngizokulalela, njengoba uyale. Sengathi izulu lingakusiza, njengoba usho! okungenani le ndaba, eyiqiniso ngangokunokwenzeka kimi, ngokungenza ngaziswe kini, iyosebenza ukwenza umusa wakhe unqobe phezu kwami; sizobona  lapho ukuthi ngangiwudinga kangakanani umusa wakhe okhethekile, angivimbe ngawo ngayo yonke indlela, nokuthi kungakanani okuhle kwakhe okungapheli okwakumelwe kwenziwe ukuze anqobe phezu kwenhliziyo yami embi; ukuthi ngamelana kanjani nothando lwakhe  lwaphezulu  . Ngalokho, Baba, enika uNkulunkulu  inkazimulo

izihe, mhlawumbe ngizofaka ithemba kuzoni ezinkulu kakhulu. Hhayi-ke, kusukela kuleli phuzu nakuleli themba, sizongena, lapho kujabulisa wena, emininingwaneni oyifunayo, futhi ngalokho sizoqeda izingxoxo ezisilahlekisele kakhulu ukukhathazeka nokunakekelwa okukhulu ngomunye wethu. komunye.

Isiqalo esinjalo, engangisilindele ngokugcwele, samemezela kimi lokho engangisazokulindela, nokuthi yini eyayizoyinikeza yonke indaba yokuphila kwakhe kwangaphakathi. Belandela isibonelo sabo bonke abangcwele abakhulumile

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ngokwabo; maduze nje sizombona eziveza ohlangothini olungathandeki, enza ihaba ngamaphutha akhe amancane; futhi uma ebophekile ukuba akhulume ngomusa owodwa kanye nezenzo ezinhle azitholile, njengezimfanelo ezinhle azizuzile, kuyoba nje, njengabo, ukuzithoba kakhulu, ngokuhlobanisa konke kulowo athole kuye konke. futhi okumelwe amcele ukuba aziphendulele ngakho konke.

Akunandaba, noma-ke lesi esinye isizathu, ngizozama, lapha njengakwezinye izindawo, ukungaphambuki emibonweni yakhe, ngisho nokusebenzisa imigomo yakhe njengoba ubuntekenteke bolimi buzongivumela. Ngithole ukungathí sina ngisho nasemaphusheni akhe, njengoba sesibonile kakade: ungamangali uma ngibika ezimbalwa ezengeziwe, kuze kufike lapho zingangena emininingwaneni okufanele ngiyinikeze. Yonke into empilweni emangalisa kangaka inesigxivizo sobunkulunkulu; ngaphezu kwalokho, imiBhalo Engcwele isinika izibonelo eziningi zamaphupho angokwesiprofetho nabalulekile, njengoba sesibonisile kakade, kangangokuthi kungase kubonakale okungenani kuwukuxhamazela okuncane ukwenqaba yonke leyo yomphefumulo ofana nalowo ozalwa kuwo. Ngisifanisa nesibani

silengiswa phakathi kwendlu engcwele ukuba sikhanyise lapho ubusuku nemini, sishiswa phambi kweWundlu elamukela ukukhulekela kwethu lapho. Sekuyisikhathi eside evutha lapho, ushiswa khona umlilo omuhle wothando lwakhe olungcwele, futhi amadoda, ahlala ephazamisekile futhi eyizimpumputhe, akakakuboni ukukhanya kwakhe. Iminyaka yakhe nobuthakathaka bakhe bungitshela ukuthi kuzofika isikhathi sokuthi ngimkhiphe ngaphansi kwebhantshi. Ngazikhandla ekuqoqeni yonke imisebe yayo ngaphambi kokuba ife ngenxa yethu, futhi saphucwa yona unomphela.

IMPILO YANGAKAPHAKATHI

WOKUZALWA UDADEWETHU.

Kwase kudlule izinsuku ezimbili noma ezintathu, uDade wasondela kimi futhi ngaleyo ndlela waqala indaba yempilo yakhe yangaphakathi:

“Egameni likaYise, neleNdodana, nelikaMoya oNgcwele; ngoJesu noMariya, futhi egameni likaZiqu-zintathu othandekayo, ngiyalalela. »

Indlela uDade engena ngayo odabeni.

Niyacela-ke, Baba, ukuba ngikhulume kini manje ngokwami; Lindela nakuba ungakaze ube nolwazi  lwe-a

ukuphila okungavamile, okungenakucatshangwa, noma ubugebengu obuningi njengale ekumele ngikutshele ngayo: kunoma iyiphi inkathi nanoma yimuphi umbono umuntu ayibheka ngayo, uyothola lapho into angayithanda futhi abubule ngayo. Sengathi isiphelo singaba ngokuzola futhi siqiniseke njengoba isikhathi sasisesincane! ngokuba, Baba, ukucabangela inkambo yempilo yami, bekulokhu, ukuyithatha kahle, futhi uzobona lapho kuphela ukulandelana okungaphazamiseki, kuphela ukushintshana okuqhubekayo kobumnyama nokukhanya, kwenjabulo nenduduzo ehlanganiswe nezomiso eziningi kanye ama-aridities. Ekugcineni, ngizokutshela? umusa uNkulunkulu athokozile ukunginika wona, ngaphezu kwakho konke okungashiwo, kuye kwaba, njengokuphila kwami, kwadabula futhi kwacwiliswa umunyu, ukukhandleka, nosizi, iziyaluyalu nosizi olungapheli: kanjalo, Baba, ukuthi akwenzeki ukuzichaza, nami angazi ukuthi ngingubani, ukuthi ngizoba yini, noma nginesizathu esiningi sokuziqinisa kunokwesaba; noma ukwesaba ngaphezu kokungiqinisekisa; Ngibona iphathi kuphela kwe

ngizilahle kuNkulunkulu omuhle owangikhipha ezeni, nongafuni ukulahlekelwa muntu. Kodwa sekuyisikhathi sokuthi siqale.

Kwenzekani kumama kaSister ngesikhathi ekhulelwe.

(1) Kubonakala sengathi, Baba, ngaphambi kokuzalwa kwami ​​uNkulunkulu nodeveli base bevele belwa ngesikhathi sami. Phakathi nesikhathi umama engithwele ngaso, wayechayeke ezingozini ezingaphezu kwalezo ayezigijime kukho konke ukuphila kwakhe: ukwesabeka, ukuwa, izingozi ezingalindelekile; wayengakwazi ukuthatha izinyathelo ezimbili ngaphandle kokujahwa izilo ezithukuthele noma ethuswe imibukwane. Ngobunye ubusuku, phakathi kokunye, lapho ephumele emnyango, isilwane esingaziwa savele sagxumela kuye, sinobuso obusabisayo ayenokwesaba okwakungase kubangele ukufa kwakhe. Le mibono eyingozi yaxhumana nami ngendlela engeke ichazwe kahle, kodwa engeyona engokoqobo, uma sizozivalela; kakhulu kuze kube

(1) Udade waqala ngokungitshela igama lakhe lokubhapathizwa nelomndeni, kanye nesikhathi nendawo azalelwa kuyo; kodwa angikubonanga kufanele ukuphinda lapha  lokho engakusho ekuqaleni kokuphila kwakhe kwangaphandle, ukuthi ngandulele umthamo wezambulo zakhe. Yile ndlela engizozama ngayo ukufushanisa yonke into osekuvele kuthintwa kuyo, futhi ngiphinde kancane ngangokunokwenzeka  .

Umusa wokuqala otholwa nguSista eNcasakazini  .

Abazali bami abampofu babethembele kuphela emandleni ezulu ukuze angivikele kuwo; bangifungisa eNcasakazini Engcwele, futhi bangithembisa uhambo, engalukhokhela ngemva kwalokho, lokuya eNotre-Dame de Pont-Aubré, eMaine. Kusukela lapho bangibeka ngaphansi kwesivikelo esinamandla salesi sitha samandla obumnyama, akugcini nje ngokuba ngingasenaso

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akukho ukwesaba, kodwa angikaze ngibe sengozini yokwesaba kobungane nokungenasisekelo. Umqondo wezipoki, izipoki, njll., owesabisayo

abanye abaningi kangaka, akuthinti nakancane kimi: Ngangihamba ngedwa imini nobusuku; Bengizobuka nabafileyo ngedwa; Ngangilala, uma kudingekile, phakathi kwezidumbu, ngaphandle kokwesaba; nokuthi ikakhulukazi kusukela ngineminyaka eyishumi nambili, lapho ngifeza isifiso enganginaso. “Ngabuza ngakho kusenesikhathi, nazo zonke izindela zanginika okufanayo

ubufakazi, enezela ukuthi uDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu wayesenesikhathi eside elele nogebhezi eduze komcamelo wakhe. Sibonile ngaphambilini ukuthi yini

wadlula, ebuka omunye wodadewabo abangasekho. »

Umusa owodwa awunikezwa ngu-J.-C. eneminyaka emibili nengxenye. Umbono wembulunga ekhanyayo.

Lomusa wokuqala ovela kuMariya kimi wawuwumzamo wokuqala kuphela wokuvikela izulu, owalandelwa eminye izibusiso eziningi okwakufanele ziwathene amandla ngokuphelele wonke amathemba esitha sami, uma sasingase sidikibale kokuthile. Ngangisemncane kakhulu, futhi ngangingakahlanganisi neminyaka emine noma emihlanu ubudala (wangibhalela kusukela eneminyaka emibili nengxenye kuphela, enezinsuku ezimbalwa emdala, ngokwalokho uJ.-C. . kuye), lapho kujabulisa uNkulunkulu ukungibonisa umusa ngenye indlela, kodwa okumangalisa kangangokuthi akukaze kushiye enkumbulweni yami futhi ngeke kuphinde kwenzeke.

Lesi sici, ngokubona kwami, asizange sibe nomthelela omncane kuyo yonke impilo yami, futhi ngisithatha njengomthombo wawo wonke umusa owalandela. Ngangikude, ikakhulukazi kuleyo minyaka, ukuthi ngikwazi ukungena kunoma yini; Ngangingakabi nalwazi ngoNkulunkulu, noma ngenkolo, noma ngokwami, ngingenawo nomncane umqondo wokuhle nokubi; Ngazijabulisa ngaleso sikhathi, njengabanye, ngakho konke okungalungisa ukuthambekela komcabango wami, ngaphandle kokukhathazeka, ngaphandle kokukhathazeka, futhi ngaphandle kwanoma yikuphi ukucabanga.

Nakhu-ke, Baba, isimilo esisodwa esangehlela ngelinye iSonto lapho ngizithola ngisendlini eduze kwaleyo eyayihlala ubaba, ngesikhathi abazali bami besehhovisi laphezulu. Ngikhumbula, kusukela esikhathini samanje, ukuthi phakathi kwabanye abantu bobulili obuhlukene ababekulo muzi, kwakuhlezi izinsizwa ezimbili noma ezintathu, ezaziphuza, zicula futhi zizijabulisa ngendlela ezazikwazi ngayo; Benginakho izandla zombili zihlezi ekugcineni kwetafula, futhi kulesi simo sengqondo ngababheka futhi ngabalalela ngokucophelela ngaphandle kokuqonda cishe noma yini noma yini yezenzo zabo noma ukucula kwabo. Omunye wabo wavele wababaza: Kudabukisa ukuthi umuntu kumelwe ashiye ukuphila futhi afe! besingajabula kanjani uma besihlala njalo lapha, futhi siphila phakade njengoba sinjalo manje! Bengingeke ngicele okunye, futhi bengizodela konke okunye... Kodwa ukufa.!... uma ucabanga  ngakho  !. njll

Lawa mazwi, ashayelwa ihlombe futhi aphindaphindwa ngamanye, angihlaba umxhwele. Baqonde ukuthini ngalokho, ngazicabangela mina? ngoba ngangingakaqondi ngokunye ukuphila noma ngesidingo sokufa. Ngithe ngizindla ngokohlu lwami oluncane, isibhakabhaka saqala ukungichazela le mfihlakalo, futhi lona umbono wokuqala owangivuza ngawo. Imbulunga ekhanyayo emise okweqanda, futhi cishe ubude bomuntu, yayibonakala kimi yehla isuka esibhakabhakeni ime ngaphansi kwesitezi sefulethi; umlilo wawo wawunayo yonke imithunzi yothingo, kodwa imibala yawo yayigqame kakhulu. Kule mbulunga ngibambe kancane, ngaphandle kokuhlukanisa ngokucacile, umfanekiso womuntu omile, owazenza wazwakala kimi ngala mazwi aphinyiswa ngokucace kakhulu, futhi engiwagcine kahle: “Uyabona mtanami lezi ziphukuphuku? uyabezwa ukuthi bathini kwezabo ubukhazikhazi? NginguNkulunkulu wezulu nomhlaba; yimina owadala konke, owazidala ngokwamandla ami. Ngakhipha umuntu ebuzeni kuphela ukuze ngizazi, ngizithande futhi ngibe neziqu zami phakade. Hhayi-ke, ngane yami, nawe ungathanda, njengabo, ukulahla indawo ephakeme kangaka, ukwabelana phakade lapha ngaphansi kwesiphetho kanye nendawo yokuhlala yezilwane ezinezilwane ezinezilwane ezihuquzelayo? ungathanda ukushintsha injabulo yezulu nezinsizi zomhlaba? awufuni yini ukuba ngowami, ube nami ngelinye ilanga, futhi ujabulele phakade injabulo engayithola futhi ngakulungiselela wena ngenani legazi lami lonke?  »

Kulamazwi Baba ngalezimemo zothando ingqondo yami yagcwala ulwazi lombhali wayo. Ngokuthola kuye ukuphelela okungapheli nokungachazeki, ngibona kuye ubuhle bami bobukhosi, ngezwa umphefumulo wami ubanjwa, ungenwa ubukhona bakhe, futhi inhliziyo yami ivutha umlilo wothando lwakhe, kanye nesifiso sokumdla ngokungapheli. Kusukela ngaleso sikhathi, engangijabule kakhulu ekuphileni kwami, ngamhlonipha ngobunjalo bami kanye nokuzidela komuntu wami wonke. Ngangifisa kakhulu ukufa ngaso leso sikhathi ukuze ngisibone futhi ngibe naso ngokushesha, noma ngiphilele ukusikhonza nokusithanda. Yebo, Nkulunkulu wami, ngithe kuye: Nkulunkulu wenhliziyo yami nawo wonke umphefumulo wami, uyazi  wena

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bhekani ukuthi ngifisa ukuba ngentshiseko engakanani; ngokuba nami ngizwa ukuthi inhliziyo yami, ewumsebenzi wakho, yenzelwe wena kuphela, nokuthi ayisoze yakuthola ukuphumula ngaphandle kwakho! Ukuthi umhlaba ukhohlakele futhi udelelekile,

ukuqhathaniswa kobuhle bakho kanye nokuphelela kwakho okungenakukhulumeka! Ngiyakulahla  kusukela kulesi sikhathi; Ngiyakulahla kuze kube phakade, ukuze ngicabange ngawe, Nkulunkulu wami; abayizimiso zami nesiphetho sami  .

Ngaso leso sikhathi umbono washabalala, futhi wangishiya ngisemizweni nasekucabangeni engangingenaso ngisho isilingo sokuzibonakalisa kunoma ubani: uNkulunkulu ubeke kimi, kuleli phuzu, ukuhlakanipha lapho abantwana balesi sikhathi abangakwazi ukukwenza. kimi emhlanganweni ongaphezu kowodwa lapho ngacasha khona (x), ngaphandle komzamo, kubazali bami, okwakufanele ngisheshe ngibatshele. Babengazi lutho; nokho, ngaso sonke isikhathi lapho bekhuluma nami ngoNkulunkulu ukuze angifundise imithandazo yami noma ikhathekizimu yami, njalo lapho bekhuluma nami ngoJ.-C. noma ngoZiqu-zintathu Ongcwele, ngangiwukhumbula njalo lowombono wokuqala. : Kumelwe nakanjani kube nguye lowo Nkulunkulu omuhle engambona, futhi ubani wakhuluma kanye kulomhlaba omuhle, owawukhanya futhi ukhazimula kakhulu. Ah! Yeka ukuthi bekungaba mnandi kangakanani ukulibona nokulizwa futhi! Yeka indlela engingathanda ngayo ukumazi ngokwengeziwe! kodwa ngaphezu kwakho konke injabulo engakanani, uma ngelinye ilanga ngingaba nayo! Ngakho ngi wakhuluma ngaphakathi; kodwa angizange ngikusho ngaphandle kimi ngokwami; abazali bami babengeke bakuqonde, futhi ngangingenaso nesincane isifiso sokuxoxa  nabo ngakho.

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Ukubukeka kwamalahle avuthayo, umfanekiso weBandla lezikhathi zokugcina.

Akusona isikhathi uNkulunkulu angenzela ngaso umusa ngale ndlela ngisemncane kangaka. Ngikholwa ukuthi ngangisenabo bonke ubumsulwa bami bokubhapathizwa, lapho ngiba nalo omunye umbono engikhulume ngawo kini kwenye indawo, futhi owawumelela amalahle avuthayo azungezwe isiyingi sokukhanya, isimo seBandla ekugcineni. izinsuku, ngokwencazelo engiyitholile kusukela ngaleso sikhathi, futhi engininike umbiko ngayo lapho ngikhuluma ngokushushiswa kweBandla. Mhlawumbe, uBaba wami, futhi mhlawumbe uNkulunkulu, wayeyoqhubeka nokunginika amamaki anengqondo okubikezela ngokukhululekile, ukuba ngasohlangothini lwami ngaqhubeka nokwethembeka kuye, ngigcina njalo umusa wokubhapathizwa kwami: Kodwa, maye! ingabe isono safika ngokungabonakali sizophazamisa uhwebo oluhle kangaka,

Ukunganaki nokungathembeki kukaSista; ukuvuma ukuthi wenza amaphutha kusukela ebuntwaneni bakhe.

Isidalwa esineshwa, ngasebenzisa kabi umusa wakhe! Ngakho izulu lazihoxisa izipho zalo njengoba ububi bubamba ingqondo yami futhi bonakalisa intando yami! kuyiqiniso kakhulu ukuthi ukubona kukaNkulunkulu kungenxa yokuhlanzeka kwenhliziyo kuphela, ukuthambekela kwakhe kuphela ekubeni msulwa, nokujwayelana kuphela nokwethembeka emiseni ubuhle bakhe obusixwayisa ngayo! Kude nokuthi ngenze, njengoba ayefuna kimi, ukusetshenziswa okungcwele nokufanelekile kwesizathu sami esakhula, nganganaki ukucabanga ngaye, ukumthanda, ukumthanda, ukuthandaza kuye, ukuguqula imicabango yami yokuqala kuye.ngokuzindla. emthethweni wawo kanye nokuphelela kwawo kobunkulunkulu, kanye nokungcwelisa kuwo ukunyakaza kokuqala kwenhliziyo yami. Ukunganaki okunecala nokubulalayo!... Ukungathembeki kokuqala, okungenzeka ukuthi umuntu uyokubheka njengokuncane, okuyizinto ezincane okungafanele ngisho akhulume ngazo, Kusukela ngaleso sikhathi ngiye ngafunda ukuthi lezi okuthiwa ama-minutiae kwakuwukungathembeki kwangempela, okwaheha abanye abaningi ngokupholisa inhliziyo yami ngoNkulunkulu, kwase kuba inhliziyo kaNkulunkulu ngami. Umsuka obulalayo! ukulandelana okudabukisayo!

Ngazizwa ngendlela engaqondakali ukuziqhenya okuthile kuthatha indawo yokungafihli nokulula; ngokushesha ububi baqala ukubamba incithakalo yobumsulwa bami kanye nenjabulo yami. Ngesikhashana nje ngaba nenkani, ngahlubuka, ngangalaleli izwi likamama, ngezinye izikhathi owayezibona ephoqelekile ukuba angijezise ngenhliziyo yakhe: Ngathatha iziqondiso zakhe kabi kangangokuthi, kude nokuzuza kuzo, angizange ngibe mubi kakhulu. ; Ngangifukamele amagqubu ngaye, namagqubu ngezingane zakwethu lapho zingithethisa. Ngaqamba amanga ukuze ngizithethelele, ngathi: Eqinisweni, kunembeza, lokhu kuyiqiniso, njengoba uNkulunkulu engibona, njll.

Lapho befuna ukungiwela futhi ikakhulukazi ukungijezisa, ngaba mnyama ngokucasuka; okwamphatha kabi umama wami ompofu kwaze kwaba sekugcineni, owayengazi ukuthi uzolungisa kanjani leli phutha elibi. Ngaqhubeka ngingaphansi kwakho kwaze kwaba yilapho isenzakalo uNkulunkulu, owazi ukuletha okuhle kokubi lapho ethanda, ngokungangabazeki asivumela ngomusa. Kwathi ngolunye usuku ngabona indoda ithukuthelwa intukuthelo, njengoba nami nganginjalo izikhathi eziningi; ubuso bakhe babuguqukile ngokwesabekayo; futhi eqinisweni kwangethusa kakhulu, kangangokuthi kusukela ngaleso sikhathi nganquma ukungalokothi ngizinikele kuleyo nkanuko evuthayo, engawufanelekeli umphefumulo, okufanele yonke indawo imele ubumnene nesithombe sika-J.-C., imodeli yakhe.

Ukuzisola kwakhe; ukwesaba kwakhe nokuzethemba kwakhe.

Naphezu kokuthambekela okungaka ebubini, ngangivame ukubhekana nezinkinga zangaphakathi, ukuyaluza okungahleliwe, okungangabazeki okwakuyimiphumela

(20-24)

umusa J.-C. angiphe wona: ukuzindla okuyinkulungwane kimi, ukunyakaza okuhle okuyinkulungwane kwangibiza ukuba ngibuyele kuNkulunkulu ngokungaphezi. Ngezinye izikhathi ngangizizwa ngigcwele ukwesaba ukumdumaza nokungamthandi njengoba ngangimthembisile, ngezinye izikhathi nokuhlukana naye ngelinye ilanga kuze kube phakade; Ngangesaba kwaze kwaba sekugcineni ukumangala ngokufa esimweni esibi, futhi lo mcabango wokufa nemiphumela yako engenakugwenywa, lokhu kwesaba okunethezeka kwezahlulelo zikaNkulunkulu kwaba indlela yokuqala ngayo lo Nkulunkulu wokulunga, onenqwaba yesikhathi eside kangaka. walwa nokumelana kwami, ukusebenzisele ukunqoba.

Yeka ukuthi zingaki ezinye izoni eziye zawabona amandla alesi sikhali sokunqoba esisesandleni sakhe!

Kulesi simo sokuphoxeka, yonke into yangethusa: umsindo, isiphepho, ukushaya izandla, ukukhanya kombani, kwangenza ngaqhaqhazela. Ngathuthumela lapho isahlulelo esijwayelekile sesizoqala ngaphambi kokuba ngibe nesikhathi sokusilungiselela; Ngezinye izikhathi ngangigijima ngiyocasha ekhoneni elicashile, ukuze ngigweme ukubizelwa lapho; Ngaba ndikindiki ngenxa yokwesaba ukuzibona ngigwetshiwe ngakho, futhi ngangingakwazi, ngaphandle kokuqhaqhazela, ukucabanga ngesiphetho somphefumulo oyoba neshwa lokulahlekelwa uNkulunkulu wawo unomphela. Iyiphi injabulo engatholwa isidalwa esinonembeza ophazamisekile? Kodwa ishwa likhulu kakhulu, umbuso udabukisa kakhulu, lapho umuntu ehlala embusweni kanye nomkhuba wobugebengu ngaphandle kokuzwa inkathazo noma ukuzisola: yilokhu okungaphezulu kokwesaba kumdobi.

Umcabango owodwa wangiqinisa idolo kancane: Ngazitshela ukuthi uNkulunkulu uSomandla owayevelile futhi wakhuluma nami emhlabeni wayemuhle kakhulu kuye futhi wayebonakala engithanda kakhulu ukuba afune ukungilahlekela naphakade.

Lapho ngiphambi kwakhe, ngokwahlulela kwakhe, ngathi, ngizomncenga ukuze avume ukugoba futhi kube sengathi uphoqelekile ukuba angixolele. Ngizokutshela  , Baba, ukuthi leli themba belilokhu lingisekela ngokumelene nanoma yikuphi ukwesaba obekungaba ngokwedlulele; yebo, yileli themba elihlangene nokwesaba elingenza ngibheke lombono wokuqala njengomusa oyigugu kakhulu wensindiso kimi, lowo oye waba nethonya elikhulu kuyo yonke impilo yami yangaphakathi, ngokuba njengomgomo wokuphila. zonke ezinye izibusiso ezivela ezulwini.

Ukukhanga kwakhe okukhethekile kusukela ebuntwaneni ekuzinikeleni eSakramenteni Elingcwele.

Kufanele kushiwo kuwe, ngokudlula, Baba, ukuthi uNkulunkulu waphefumulela kimi kusenesikhathi futhi kukho konke ukuphila kwami ​​ukukhangwa okukhethekile kakhulu ekuzinikeleni eSakramenteni Elibusisiwe Kunawo wonke e-altare; kusukela ebuntwaneni ngangizwa imizwa engavamile, kuze kube yileso sikhathi ngangingakwazi ukudlula phambi kwetabernakele lapho kwakuhlala khona ubukhona bangempela bomzimba ka-J. imfihlakalo ejulile. Izikhathi ezingaphezu kwesisodwa esontweni ngaziveza ekuhlekweni kwezingane, isibonelo sazo esasingiholele ekungahloniphiyo ngesikhathi ngilindele umpristi owayezosifundisa; Bahleka futhi bangihlekisa ngeze, kwadingeka ngibhekane nabo futhi ngokushesha ngilungise iphutha ababengenze ngalifaka,

Kwathi lapho unembeza wami ungisola ngokuthile okuncane, ngase ngizithola ngiboshiwe ethempelini elingcwele; amandla angenakunqotshwa abonakala enginqabela indawo engcwele futhi anginqabela ukusondela e-altare. Maye! Baba, zonke lezi zibonakaliso zomusa ezinikezwe abantu abambalwa, ukunaka okuphawuleka kahle ngokunikezwa okukhethekile, akufanelekile; zisiza kuphela ukunikeza ubugebengu obengeziwe kanye nokungabi nazaba nakakhulu kokubili ukungabongi kwami ​​kumsunguli wezenzo eziningi ezinhle, kanye nezono ezingenakubalwa engibe necala lazo ebukhoneni bangempela balo Msindisi othandekayo eSakramenteni Elibusisiwe kakhulu 'le-altare.

Kwangathi ukuvuma izono engikukweletayo ebusweni bomhlaba kungalungisa inkazimulo yawo ecasuliwe, ngokususa ukucasuka okutholwe kuwo! kwangathi iziNgelosi nabaNgcwele bangalungisa kuye, futhi bamnxephezele ngakho ngentshiseko yothando lwabo ingunaphakade!

Nakhu sekuvele kuningi, njengoba ubona, Baba, ngempilo yami ebuhlungu yangaphakathi; nansi izibusiso eziningi ezingavamile ezivela ohlangothini lukaNkulunkulu, ngaphandle kwanoma yiziphi izincwadi ezivela kimi. Ngakho-ke sekuvele kuningi ukungathembeki nokungabongi okuningi, kunezono eziningi ezenziwe, okuzodingeka ngiziphendulele ngazo kumahluleli wami. Kodwa asikabi ekupheleni kwalezi zigebengu kanye nalawa macala: maye! esikhathini eside esizayo bayoqhubeka banda. Njengoba unelukuluku lokuzwa yonke imininingwane, kusasa, uma ufuna, noma kusihlwa nje, sizoqhubeka nokuqhubeka; ngaphezu kwalokho umsebenzi wami ungibiza kwenye indawo ngalo mzuzu. Hamba kahle baba ngicela ungixolele ungikhulekele.

Iziphambeko zokuvuma kwakhe izono kanye nesidlo sakhe sokuqala. Imiphumela eyinhlekelele emphefumulweni wakhe.

“Egameni likaYise, neleNdodana nelikaMoya oNgcwele. NgoJesu noMariya,

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futhi egameni likaZiqu-zintathu othandekayo, ngiyalalela. »

Ubaba, umama wawuhlola unembeza wami wangiyisa ekuvumeni isono, kodwa ukwesaba enganginakho ukuthethiswa umngane wami wokuvuma kwangenza ngamfihlela ingxenye yamaphutha ami, ikakhulukazi ukungalaleli kwami ​​umama. Ngenziwa ukuba ngidle isidlo ngineminyaka eyisishiyagalolunye nengxenye. Kwakushesha kakhulu ngokombono wami, futhi ngaba nesizathu sokuzisola. Njengoba ngangingesabi lutho njengokuphoqeleka, ngokomkhuba ovamile, ukuba ngibeke izaba ngisho nokucela intethelelo kumama ngaphambi kokuba ngidle isidlo, kwakusasele inyanga eyodwa ngivume konke unembeza wami owawungisola ngakho ngaye; kodwa kulokhu ngangilindele engangifuna ukukugwema: UNkulunkulu wavumela isivunguvungu sami ukuba angivivinye futhi angiyala ukuba ngicele intethelelo futhi ngiguqule ukuziphatha kwami ​​kuye.

Yeka ukuthi umuntu oyimpumputhe futhi ongajabule kanjani ikakhulukazi kulesi sikhathi! Angisoze ngazitholela ukwaneliseka okufanele nokudingeka kangaka; nokwengeza amashwa ami, ukwesaba ukwenqaba, okwakufanele, kwangenza ngakufihla konke lokhu lapho ngithola ukukhululwa. Ngakho-ke ngaxhumana kulesi simo ngokumelene nokuzisola kukanembeza wami, okwathi kusukela ngaleso sikhathi waqala ukungihlupha. Isibhakabhaka! Ibuhlungu kanjani lenkumbulo! Ingabe ngizoba nezinyembezi ezanele, futhi ingabe ukuphila kwami ​​kuzokwazi ukwanela ukuzisola ngephutha elinjalo kanye nakho konke okwakuyimiphumela yalo eyinhlekelele?

Kusukela kulo mzuzu, Baba, akusekho umusa ovela ezulwini, akusekho ukududuzwa kwangaphakathi, ukuthula noma ukwaneliseka! Yonke injabulo yami yayishabalala ngenxa yesenzo okwakuwukuba ngiwuqedele futhi ngifake isandla kakhulu ekuwenzeni uhlale phakade. Yeka indlela esidabukisa ngayo lapho sithola ukufa emthonjeni wokuphila, futhi lapho okufanele kusingcwelise kumane kusenze sibe necala elikhulu kunangaphambili! Lesi simo esidabukisayo sathatha iminyaka engaphezu kwemihlanu yokufa, lapho ukusetshenziswa, inhlonipho yomuntu kanye nobuzalwane beRosari, engangibhaliswe kulo futhi engangiyihlukumeza, kwangenza ngenza iminikelo eminingi engiyithuthumela namanje, futhi enginayo. isizathu esihle sokuthuthumela.

Nokho, kude nokunciphisa ijubane, izinkanuko zami, njengoba kufanele ucabange, zazithola amandla amasha futhi zanda usuku nosuku. Idemoni lalinesizathu esihle sokushaya ihlombe nokunqoba. Mhlawumbe inhliziyo yami ngabe ekugcineni iwele ebulukhunini, ukube umusa okhethekile awuzange ungilondoloze kulomgodi ojulile ngokuzisola okukhulu engakuzwa naphezu kwami, futhi okunganginikanga ukuthula noma ukuthula. Kwakubonakala sengathi esinyathelweni ngasinye ngezwa ngaphakathi izwi lithi kimi ngezwi eliqinile: Wenzeni, wena wesifazane ongajabule, futhi ufuna ukuba yini? awuzange ulalele J.-C. noma umama; umkhohlisile okuvumayo; izivumo zenu azinalutho, izinhlanganyelo zenu zimbi; awunalo uthando luka-J.C.: ngemuva kokunaka okuningi nezinzuzo ezivela kuye, uhlala ehlazweni elivela kuNkulunkulu wakho; futhi uma uke waba neshwa lokufa kulesi simo, ungashonaphi, ngebhadi! Ah! isihogo besiyakuba yisabelo sakho kuze kube phakade. Kodwa ingabe yilokhu owakuthembisa uNkulunkulu wakho? ingabe yilokhu ayenelungelo lokukulindela ngemva kwezinzuzo eziningi kangaka ezivela kuye?

Imini nobusuku lezi zithuko ezesabekayo zazizwakala ekujuleni komphefumulo wami.

Kwangikhathaza kakhulu kangangokuthi, naphezu kokuziqhenya kwami, ngolunye usuku ngavele ngaguqa ezinyaweni zikamama, ngenjongo yokuzijezisa ngokungasheshi ngenze lokho. Umama wamangala ngalesi sinyathelo sami kangangokuthi, naphezu kwemizwelo engangimbeke kuyo ngokuphikisa kwami, wahlala ekhungathekile ukungibona kanjalo phambi kwakhe futhi engazi ukuthi kufanele athini...

Waguquka futhi wenza isivumo esivamile ngesikhathi sejubili noma ukuzitika ngobuningi. Izithelo azithola kuyo. Isivumo esithobekile sosizi lwakhe.

Lokhu kunqoba kokuqala phezu kwami ​​kwaqala ukungiqinisekisa kancane; kodwa konke akwenziwanga, phakathi naleso sikhathi ijubili elikhulu noma ukuxolelwa kweBandla okujwayelekile: kwakungomunye wabangane bami, owayeze ukuzosibona, owasimemezela ukuthi yayishicilelwe epherishi. Izindaba ezimnandi, ngababaza! Ah! ngilunge kanjani! Ngokungazelelwe ngizokwenza ukuvuma izono okuvamile futhi ngiziguqule ngokuphelele futhi ngokuphelele. Kulokhu kubabaza kwami ​​ubaba wavele waphela yinsini. Nakhu-ke, wababaza, futhi sizobona izinto ezinhle! indodakazi yethu uJeannette izoguqula futhi yenze  isivumo esijwayelekile. Notre-Dame, ngeke kube kancane, futhi abapristi kufanele bamangale nje; 

Ubaba wayengithanda eyedwa, futhi umqondo omuhle ayenawo ngami awuzange umvumele acabange ukuthi ngidinga ukuguqulwa noma

ukuvuma okuvamile. Maye! Ngazizwa kahle kakhulu iqiniso eligcwele lalesi sidingo. Yebo, baba, ngamphendula, ngifuna ukuguqulwa ngomusa kaNkulunkulu, futhi ngiyethemba ukuthi emva kwalokho ngizoba ngcono kakhulu kunalokho ebengiyikho kuze kube manje. Sizobona ukuthi kwenzekani, baphinde baqala kabusha abazali bami...

Lapho nje ijubhili livulwa, ngangingasenalutho enhliziyweni noma ngijahile njengokuhamba ngiyozilahla ezinyaweni zikamufi uM. Maillard, owayengumqondisi wesifunda sethu (isonto laseJanson).

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Baba ngithe kuye uma ngifika ngicela umusa ungenze ngivume impilo yami yonke ngoba angijabulile ngabo bonke esengibenze kuze kube manje...wangilalela ngokukhulu ukunaka futhi kwangisiza kakhulu. Lapho engibuza ukuthi kwakungenxa yokwesaba ukushaywa ngumama yini ukuthi ngenqabe ukulalela umlandu wami, ngamnika, nakuba ngibuthakathaka, impendulo eqinile eyayingakabi ngokweqiniso. Kwakuseyinto encane engangisaphendukile kukho, nakuba kwakungabalulekile kangako njengephutha lokuqala engangilenzile.

Ijubili lami lase liqalile ukungibuyisela kimina: Ngaleso sikhathi ngangineminyaka eyishumi nanhlanu noma eyishumi nesithupha ubudala (1).

Leli jubili uDade akhuluma ngalo, futhi aba nalo eneminyaka eyishumi nanhlanu noma eyishumi nesithupha, kumele ngabe lenzeka ngo-1746 noma 1747; ngoba wazalwa ngenyanga kaMasingana 1731. Siyazi ijubili lokukhethwa kukaBenedict XIV ngo-1740, elihambisana nesidlo sokuqala sikaSista eneminyaka eyisishiyagalolunye nengxenye, kanye nejubili elikhulu lezwe ngo-1751, okukhulunywa ngayo uDadewethu maduzane, nakwenza eseneminyaka engamashumi amabili. Lo akhuluma ngaye lapha asimazi. Ngakho-ke kufanele kushiwo ukuthi le ntombazane enhle ngokungazi kwayo yahlanganisa ijubili elikhulu nejubili elincane elinikezwe isifunda-bhishobhi saseRennes, nganoma yisiphi isikhathi esingasazi, noma mhlawumbe ngaphezulu. mhlawumbe nangaleyo ngqungquthela kanye nokunethezeka okunesizotha okuzuzwa ngendlela yejubili ekupheleni komsebenzi, futhi yiliphi izwe abantu abajwayele ukuqamba ngalo igama lejubili. Ngaphezu kwalokho, leli phutha, noma kunalokho lokhu kuntula inkulumo efanele kukaDade, akwenzi lutho phansi ezintweni asitshela zona ngobuwula nobulula obunjalo  .

Kusukela lapho kuqhubeke, uNkulunkulu wabonakala esondela kimi, ngokulingana nangokulingana njengoba ngisondela kuye, noma kunalokho, oh Nkulunkulu wami! nguwe owathatha isinyathelo sokuqala futhi owangifuna ngazo zonke izindlela ngokwedlulele kothando lwakho; owayenze konke okusemandleni ukuthi angibuyisele! Kodwa ngeshwa! O Nkulunkulu wobuhle! isikhathi sokuphenduka kwami ​​okuphelele sasingakafiki, futhi ube muhle ngokwanele ukukulinda ngesineke, futhi ubekezele kwaze kwaba yileso sikhathi ukungathembeki esengiba namahloni ngakho manje, kanye nokuziphatha okufanele ngabe wawungenakubekezelelwa. Yini okumelwe ukuba ilahle uthando lwakho phakathi nalokhu kubambezeleka okude nobugebengu!

Konke lokhu engikutshela khona Baba, kusho uDadewethu, nakho konke engisazokutshela kona, ngeke kusebenze kancane ukuze ngazise kuwe; sekuzoba yintuthuko enkulu ekuvumeni okuvamile engihlose ukukwenza kini, uma uNkulunkulu enginika isikhathi kanye nezindlela. Okwamanje, ngizizwa ngithambekele, ngokukulalela, ukuba ngilungise ukuziphatha kwami ​​kwesikhathi esidlule, ngangokusemandleni ami. Makwazeke, ngokuvuma kwami, ukuthi umusa kaNkulunkulu ube nakimi kangakanani, ukuthi umusa wakhe ungikhulule kuphi kwalasha, makwazeke ukuthi ngimkweleta kangakanani kukho konke. Ah! ngokungangabazeki, imiphefumulo ethembekile iyobona ngokumangala nangokuthakasela, ngakolunye uhlangothi, ukungathembeki okungaka, ukuvukela, ukungabongi kanye nosizi; ngakolunye, umusa ongaka, isineke, ucwaningo nobungane. Sengathi loNkulunkulu wothando usekhohliwe engizokutshela khona, futhi ungalokothi ungijezise ngakho! kwangathi, kunalokho, angazuza kuyo inkazimulo yakhe, nomakhelwane wakhe akheke! Ibekwe phakathi kokugabadela nokudelela, indaba yami mayigcine okungenani ubudedengu abazivezayo, futhi ivimbele ekulahleni ithemba labo abaye baba neshwa ukuwa!

Kuyisithelo esifiseleka kakhulu umuntu angathemba....

Iminyaka emibili yonke nganginambithe izithelo zokuvuma kwami ​​konke; ukuthula, ukuzola okumnandi kukanembeza wami, kwangivumela ukuba ngibuyele othandweni kuNkulunkulu futhi ngizindle ngokungathi sína ngami. Ngakuthanda kakhulu ukucula amaculo okomoya nokufunda izincwadi ezingcwele; ngoba ngangifunde ukufunda, njengoba kwenza umuntu ezweni, okusho ukuthi, okwanele kulolu hlobo lokufunda. Ngangikuthanda ukuba phakathi kwamantombazane anesimilo nezingxoxo eziphathelene  nengokomoya  . izinhlinzeko  okuyinto

kubonakala sengathi imemezela into ehluke kakhulu kulokho okwenzekile. Ngangithobeke kakhulu kumama, kodwa ngaphinde ngamelana naye, kodwa esimweni engikholelwa ukuthi, senza iphutha lami, uma likhona, lathethelelwa kakhulu kunangaphambili. Nakhu ukuthi lesi simo sasiyini, ukuze nahlulele:

Njengodadewethu omncane, ngangivame ukuba nobuthakathaka bokusiza umama ezenzweni zokukholelwa ezeni ezivame kakhulu phakathi

abantu bezwe. Kwakukhona ngisho nento embi ngayo, nakuba kwakungeyona inhloso kamama leyo. Ngolunye usuku kwafika ngokusobala kimi ukuthi kukhona ukucasula uNkulunkulu kulo mkhuba. Ngokushesha unembeza wami wangivukela, futhi ngenqaba ukuboleka kuwo. Ngamtshela kahle umama ukuthi ngeke ngimlalele, ngoba ngibona isono kuso.

; udadewethu walandela isibonelo sami. Ngangilindele ukuthola okungenani amazwi ambalwa aphilayo kumama. Lutho neze, wahlala ecabanga, futhi waneliseka ngokukhuluma kimi ngesineke: Nokho, ndodakazi yami, ngizokhuluma nomqondisi wami ngakho, futhi uma kukhona isono kulokho, ngeke siphinde. Wavuma kimina njengoba esevumile ukuthi wenzela ukuzisola. Ngakho-ke, uBaba, isisusa nomcimbi bekulokhu kungiduduza kulokhu kugcine kungalaleli umama.

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Ukufa kukayise; ukuphambuka kwasebusheni bakhe.

Ngalesi sikhathi kwenzeka ukufa kukababa ompofu, okwangizwisa ubuhlungu obukhulu futhi kwangenza ngakhala izinyembezi eziningi; ngoba ngangimthanda ngempela. Ngathatha ithuba lokubuyela kakhudlwana kimina futhi ngicabange ukuvikela insindiso yami yesikhathi esizayo. Ngakho, Baba wami, le minyaka emibili selokhu ngibuyele kuNkulunkulu, ngaphandle kokuphawulwa umusa ongaphezu kokuvamile, idlule kahle kakhulu futhi yanikeza ithemba elithile ngekusasa; okungenani, ayengekho amathuba okuthi lesi sikhathi sasizolandelwa ngokushesha ukuziphatha okwakuyongenza ngikhohlwe ngokuphelele uNkulunkulu wami kanye nezimo zami zokuqala ngakuye.

Cishe ngase ngisondela onyakeni wami wamashumi amabili, isikhathi esibucayi sobuhle, uma nje ngidalulwa; isikhathi esiyingozi lapho izinkanuko zizenza zizizwe ngamandla; futhi uNkulunkulu uyazi ukuthi ngokushesha ngavinjezelwa kanjani. Ngangimncane, nginamandla futhi ngineminyaka yokusebenza. Njengoba kwakungenakwenzeka ukuthi ngiphile ngaphandle kwalolu sizo, kwadingeka ngizithole ngisebenza emaphandleni nentsha yobulili bobubili, ekhululekile kakhulu ngezenzo futhi ikakhulukazi ngamazwi. Ngezinkanuko ezinjengezami, iyini intombazane yalesi sikhathi engavezwanga kulo msebenzi nokuzijabulisa, ikakhulukazi uma idemoni lokungcola lihileleka! futhi akwehluleki neze ukuba yiwo, ingxenye. Yeka ukuthi ziyingozi kangakanani izingxoxo zikaSathane! ukuthi  imidlalo

futhi ukuhleka abakwenzayo kuwubugebengu, nokuthi labo abafaka isandla kukho banecala cishe ngaphandle kokuqaphela!

Ngezwa ephindaphinda njalo ezindlebeni zami lawa magama angcolile anezincazelo ezimbili, lawa magama aluhlaza noma aphikisayo enza emcabangweni wami imibono eyinhlekelele kakhulu okwenzeka ngayo ukuthi yonke into ibe yingozi kimi, ngisho nezinto ezingenandaba kakhulu. Izindlebe zami zazihlale zishaqekile futhi zingcoliswe izinkulumo ezingcolile zalo lonke uhlobo. Ngezinye izikhathi amazwi ayinhlamba, ngezinye izikhathi ukunyundela, ngezinye izikhathi amazwi ahlabayo noma imibiko engamanga, futhi cishe njalo ukungcola kwakuvusa izingxoxo zalaba bantu abakhululekile. Yahlulela ukuthi udeveli wakusebenzisa kanjani kimi!

Ekuqaleni ngangifuna ukuma ngiqine; kodwa ukuqina kwami ​​akuzange kuhlale isikhathi eside ngokumelene nomfula wesibonelo esibi futhi ngaphezu kwakho konke ngokumelene nesifiso esithile sokujabulisa nokwamukeleka, inhlonipho yomuntu eyangenza ngesaba njengeshwa elikhulu ukubonwa ngeso elibi, ukubizwa ngokuthi umuntu ongenangqondo, oqotho, umzenzisi noma ozinikele ngamanga.

Ngakho, ukuziqhenya nokuhlonipha komuntu kwakuyizikhali ezimbili ezasetshenziswa idemoni ukucekela phansi cishe kusukela phezulu kuye phansi leli dumela lesizotha engangiziqhenye ngalo kuze kube yileso sikhathi. Kuqinisekile ukuthi ngokwemvelo asithandi ukuzibona silahlwa futhi sidelelwa yilabo esihlala nabo futhi okufanele siphile nabo. Kancane kancane izindlebe zami zase zijwayele ukuzwa amazwi ayihlazo nanamahloni aqale angenza ngibe namahloni. Umlomo wami waze wajwayela ukuwaphinda. Ngokuphawulekayo, ngaba nokubhuqa, umona, ukuhluleka, nakuba ngangisengabaza kanye nokulinganisela okuthile. Izinkanuko zaziphuphuthekise ukuqonda kwami ​​kangangokuthi angizange ngiyehlukanise imibono yokuqala yokholo, yokucabanga, nengqondo evamile. Ngacabanga, ngokwesibonelo, ukuthi yena kwakungekho okubi ekunyundeleni umakhelwane, inqobo nje uma kukhulunywa iqiniso kuphela. Ngakho, ngangesaba ukunyundela kuphela, futhi ngasusa ukunyundela enanini izono  Nokho amandla ami atholakala

wayethandeka kakhulu, ngoba wayengenalo ulaka, okusho ukuthi, esusiwe ebubini. Ngakho-ke, ngokusetshenziswa okuvamile kakhulu, kwakucatshangwa ukuthi ngilungile ngokwesilinganiso njengoba ngangingaphansi.

Ukuzisola kwakhe. Umdwebo ocacile wezingozi intsha engazi lutho evezwa kuzo, ikakhulukazi maqondana nobumsulwa.

Izulu elihle! yikuphi okwedlulele engingeke ngikunike, uma umusa ungishiyile ngokuphelele! futhi kusiphi isimo esesabekayo okufanele isidalwa singajabuli kangako phambi kukaNkulunkulu, unembeza ungaboni ngokwanele ukuba ubambelele ekukhululweni okuwukuphela kwengaphandle lobugebengu,

ingaphakathi (ngiqonde umcabango, mhlawumbe wentando), okwenza bonke ubukhulu phambi kwamehlo buhlanzeke kakhulu  kwaPhakade  !. Ungakukholwa  ,

uBaba, nalabo ikakhulukazi labo, emhlabeni, abasalilandela icebo elinjalo lokuziphatha, ngeke yini bakuthathe konke lokhu njengehaba likanembeza othuthumela ngokungafanele futhi ongenangozi! Ah! Ngiyabanxusa, ukuthi bayasiphika isikhashana lesi simiso esibi kangaka, ukuba bacabangele kanye nami lokho okudingekayo emphefumulweni womKrestu nesimilo sawo kanye nazo zonke izinzuzo ezikweletwa uthando lukaNkulunkulu wawo, futhi ngiyalokotha bakholelwa ukuthi ngeke bakwazi ukusiza ekuvumeni ukuthi ngiye ngaphila, njengoba nabo ngokwabo mhlawumbe bephila, ebumpumputheni obubulalayo kangangokuthi kungadingeka izinyembezi zegazi ukuyilila (1).

(1) Noma ngabe lesi simo sasiyingozi futhi silimaza kanjani kuNkulunkulu, uDadewethu azihlambalaza ngaso, futhi azisola ngakho lapha ngokuphenduka okungaka, uma sikunakisisa, sizobona ukuthi umusa nokwesaba. weNkosi njalo wamgcina phakathi kwemingcele ethile; kangangokuthi akazange anikeze, angisho kunoma yikuphi ukukhala ngokweqile, kodwa kunoma yiliphi iphutha noma isenzo sobugebengu esibizwa ngokufanele. Uyangabaza uma eke waba nesifiso sokucasula uNkulunkulu; singase sikungabaze njengaye. Okuqinisekile ukuthi lobu bumpumputhe obubulalayo, lawa maphutha angenacala, lawa maphutha, lokungabongi, lobu bugebengu.okuyinto enengekayo ngomunyu ongaka, ingacishe idlule ngenxa yobuhle emehlweni abantu abaningi emhlabeni abaphila ngokuthula futhi ngaphandle kokuzisola emikhubeni yobugebengu engapheli. Uvelaphi lo mehluko ? Kuwukuthi uthando nokwesaba uJehova kubona, ngesibani sokholo, ubugebengu obukhulu, ukungabongi okuvukelayo, lapho umoya wezwe uthola khona izinto ezincane nezimbi kuphela. Yikuphi okubili okungalungile?

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Yebo, Baba, ngiyaphinda, ubumpumputhe bami obubulalayo sebufinyelele ekuthini izono zangaphakathi ziyize. Ngokwesibonelo, ngangikholelwa ngempela ukuthi kwakuyoba nzima ukweba, ukuziphindiselela  . Ngacabanga ukuthi kunesono  phakathi

ukudakwa noma ukwenza ukungcola kunoma yisiphi isenzo; kodwa angizange ngikholelwe ukuthi kwakuyoba into embi ukukhuluma ngakho ngokuzithandela ngaphakathi kwakho, inqobo nje uma umuntu wayeka lapho, njengoba ngenzile, futhi engazange abulale lutho ngaphandle, njll....

Kuyini, ngiyaphinda ngibuze, okungavezwa nsuku zonke intombazane empofu engenalwazi, engenawo omunye umthetho wokuziphatha ngaphandle kwezimiso zamanga ezinjalo?

futhi kuyingozi? Yini azoyiphikisa ezingozini ezilethwa umhlaba ngaso sonke isikhathi? Ngoba zingaki izingibe ezibekelwe ubumsulwa bakhe! Zingaki izimpi okufanele zisekelwe! Zingaki izikhathi idemoni lokungcola elingazi ukuthi lingasebenzisa kanjani ithuba lokuhlasela amandla alo abuthakathaka!...

Izifebe, abasha nabadala, bayomhlasela ngazo zonke izindlela, futhi bayozulazula ngazo zonke izindlela ukunqoba ukuqina kwakhe futhi banqobe ukuthobeka kwakhe. Bayohlola ukunyakaza kwakhe namazwi akhe; bayofunda ukuthambekela kwakhe; bayokwenza sengathi bathatha uhlangothi lwakhe, ukungena kuyo yonke imibono yakhe, bathande amaphrojekthi akhe, futhi lokho kuphela ukuzenza kangcono ebunganeni bakhe, ngokuthatha indawo yakhe ebuthakathaka. Uma inobuhle, bayoboleka isifihla-buso sayo futhi bazame ukudlala indima yayo; uma ingamaki noma yikuphi, bazozibonakalisa bengenandaba nayo futhi bayothi wonke umuntu kufanele akhululeke kulesi sihloko futhi kungabikho muntu okufanele aphazamiseke. Uma kukhombisa ukwenyanya okuthile, ukwenyanya okuthile kokuhlonipha uNkulunkulu, ngeke behluleke ukutusa isimo esithandeka kakhulu kubo.

Yebo, Baba, futhi makungangabazi nakancane, abekho abalingiswa abaphikiswa futhi abaphikisana kangaka njengesifebe esingumakadebona. ezama ukuphumelela: uma eqaphela ngaphezu kwakho konke, njengoba ngishilo, ukuthi umuntu unesimo sokungakholwa, ngeke ehluleke ukufaka ukungabaza kuye, ngokuhlasela phambi kwakhe amaqiniso ayisisekelo okholo, izimfundiso inkolelo idingeka ngempela ukuze umuntu asindiswe: eqiniseka ngokuthi akanazo izindlela eziphumelelayo kunokususa nokuqothula izinto ezesabisayo ezingokwenkolo, uzoyihleka usulu kakhulu ngokwesaba isihogo noma izahlulelo zikaNkulunkulu; uyoba naye ongathi sína noma odlalayo, ongahlakaniphile noma ozenzisa, njengoba ebona kungcono kakhulu emiklamweni yakhe, futhi yilokhu okufanele kulindeleke kuwo wonke amadoda kulo msebenzi, maye! kuningi kakhulu kunomuntu ongacabanga enkathini yokungabi nalwazi nobumpumputhe.

Yebo, lezi zihlukumezi ziyakuhlukumeza kanyekanye, ukuze ziyengwe yena, indawo yakhe, ukungaqondi kwakhe, ukungazi, ukholo lwakhe, inkanuko yakhe, nobumpofu bakhe, ngokubeka insindiso yomphefumulo wakhe, kanye nonya. intengo yemali. Zingaki izibonelo umuntu angenakuzithola, futhi anginazo yini kimina! futhi nakuba, cishe, akekho noyedwa, ngibonga uNkulunkulu, oseke wahamba ibanga elide mayelana nami, ngizocaphuna isici esisodwa, esifakazela cishe konke engisanda kukusho. Kuyingozi esobala kakhulu udumo lwami olwake lwadalulwa kuyo. Ngimema intsha engakabi naso isipiliyoni ukuthi isizakale; bazobona ukuthi badinga  malini

ukuze baqaphe, uma befuna ukulondoloza ingcebo eyigugu yobumsulwa babo, nokuthi ngokuvamile kufanele bathembele kuphela, kuleli phuzu elibucayi, abantu abambalwa kakhulu, ngingasho cishe noyedwa. Kodwa, Baba, njengoba sekuhlwile namuhla, futhi sengikhulume ngokwanele, sizokuhlehlisa kuze kube yisikhathi esilandelayo, uma unganaki. Ngivumele ngikushiye.

Ubuhle bakhe buhlaselwa. Amandla abaleka ngawo futhi ebalekela ingozi.

“Egameni likaYise, neleNdodana nelikaMoya oNgcwele. NgoJesu, njll. »

Edolobhaneni lakithi kwakukhona umfelwa othile, oneminyaka engaphezu kwamashumi amahlanu ubudala, owayejabulela idumela elihle kakhulu lokuhlakanipha nokuhlakanipha; wayeyobhekwa ngokujabula njengendoda elungile futhi engumKristu ongcono kunabo bonke kulo lonke ibandla. Kwase kunesikhathi eside evakashela umuzi kababa, futhi cishe njalo lapho ngikhona; ngoba uma ngingekho,

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abavamile ukuma lapho. Ukunaka kwakhe akuzange kungicasule. Ngaleso sikhathi ngangineminyaka eyishumi nesishiyagalombili noma eyishumi nesishiyagalolunye ubudala, futhi ngidlala kakhulu. Ungasho ukuthi akufanele ngizonde inkampani ethembekile. Ngaphandle kokuhwamuka, le ndoda yayijabule kakhulu kunami; wangihlekisa ngemilingo nezindaba ezimfishane azaziyo ukuzixoxela ngesinongo esithize esinezela ubulawu, angaze adlulele eqophelweni lokuhlonipheka. Ngokuba, Baba, ikakhulukazi ngaleso sikhathi, inkululeko encane yokukhuluma yayiyongivukela; futhi uma kudingekile ukusho okuhle nokubi, kufanele ngivume iqiniso ukuthi, neze impilo yami, angizange ngihlupheke kunoma ubani isenzo esincane, kungakhathaliseki ukuthi sihlambalaza, inkululeko encane, kodwa ingcolile kancane. Yebo, ngingasho ukuthi ukujwayelana okuncane nje okungahlakaniphi kwakungase kubangele ukuba insizwa ixoshwe, okwakumelwe kungilahlekisele (1).

(1) Lesi sivumo esiqotho sikaDadewethu kwanele, ngokubona kwami, ukukhombisa ukuthi kumele sithathe kusiphi izinyawo zonke izinto ezimbi asesitshele zona ngaye, nalokhu asazositshela khona.

Lo mfelokazi wangibonisa ubungane bokulunga okumsulwa okungekho noyedwa owake wacabanga ukumphatha kabi ekhaya. Sonke sasijabule ngenkampani yakhe. Ubani obengathi, Baba, lendoda ekhohlakele, esebenzise ukugodla okungaka, yafaka ukwethembeka okungaka ekuqulweni kwayo, nokho yayinenhliziyo eyonakele; ukuthi ngaphansi komphefumulo wakhe wayenomklamo ophambene, engangingenawo nomncane umqondo wokuthi abazali bami babeyozihlambalaza ngokusola, futhi mhlawumbe, maye! ukuthi akaziboni yena? Ngoba ubani ongaqonda ubumpumputhe nosizi lomuntu kuleli phuzu, futhi kulula futhi kujwayelekile kangakanani kuye ukuzikhohlisa  ?...

Kukangaki ukungabi nangqondo kwethusa umlilo ebesingawazi, noma kuphinde kuvuse lowo ebesicabanga ukuthi ucishiwe; kwaqubuka, ekugcineni, imililo, lapho kwakungabonakali khona ukuthi kwakunesizathu sokwesaba okuthile! Kunzima kakhulu ukuzazi, futhi cishe ngaso sonke isikhathi umuntu uzibona enecala elincane kunalokho anakho ngempela.

Ngelinye ilanga wasebenzisa ithuba lokungabikho kukamama wahlebela endlebeni yami amagama athile engangingawaqondi nhlobo incazelo yawo, futhi wengeza nezimpawu ezithile engangiziqonda kancane, kangangokuthi ngasuswa kunoma yikuphi ukusola okubi. ngokumelene naye. ngihleke nokho, ngoba ngangihleka, futhi ngathatha konke ngalolo nyawo. Kube yiphutha engilenzile; kodwa iphutha lalibonakala kakhulu kimi. Kwaba lula noma ubuwula, njengoba uthanda; kodwa umzenzisi akabange esangifakazela ukuthi lolu daba wayeluthathe kwelinye icala, nokuthi wavele wahlulela ngami yedwa. Kusukela ngaleso sikhathi wamane walihlola ithuba lokungithola ngedwa; azethule. Umama wayengithume ngolunye usuku ekuseni ukuba ngiyokwelusa izinkomo zethu edlelweni eliseduze nomuzi womfelokazi wethu. Wafika wangithola khona, wabuza izindaba zami, wasondela kimi ngomoya wenjabulo. Wahlala ngokukhululeka eduze kwalapho engangihlezi khona. Ngaqaphela kuphela ukuthi wayebukeka futhi ekhuluma ngokukhululeka kakhulu kunokujwayelekile. Wayesafuna ukungicasula; kodwa ukuklabalasa kwakhe, okuhlangene namazwi athile okuhlambalaza, kwangenza ngaba nezinsolo futhi kwangenza ngisole izinhloso zakhe. Wayefuna ukunginika imali; wanginika izipho; Ngenqaba konke, ngithi akangikweleti lutho; ukuthi ngangingazidingi izipho zakhe, nokuthi ngangingazi ukuthi kungani wanginika zona. inikelwe.

Ngenkathi ngigwema indlela yakhe yokusondela, futhi ngixosha imidlalo yakhe yezandla, ngacabanga ukuthi ngezwa othile ethi kimi ngokuqinile : Phuma lapha, kungenjalo ngizokulahla; baleka, baleka, isikhathi siyahamba futhi ingozi inkulu ngobumsulwa bakho... Leli zwi, elizwakala ekujuleni komphefumulo wami, ngokuvula amehlo ami ngokuphelele maqondana nengozi, langinika ukuba ngigweme, ijubane elimangalisayo futhi amandla omzimba, engicabanga ukuthi, amadoda amathathu noma amane ayengenawo

angaphikiswa. Ngomzamo owodwa ngiphunyuke njengombani ezandleni zalelibhadi inhloso yalo yayingasekho, kwazise wayekubeke  kwacaca (1).

(1) Abanye abahloli bezincwadi zokubhalela bangitshele ukuthi bathole lesi sigameko sinemininingwane eminingi kakhulu, kanye nokunye ukulandisa kwezambulo ezithinta umthetho wesithupha, izingozi zomshado, njll. Ngenza ubulungisa ngobumsulwa bezinhloso zabo, futhi ngikude kakhulu nokudelela iseluleko sabo; kodwa bazongivumela ukuba ngibatshele ukuthi kwakungemina ngedwa engangicabanga ngendlela ehlukile kuwo wonke la maphuzu. Ngaze ngakholwa ukuthi uNkulunkulu wayevumele kuphela, mhlawumbe ngisho nokubizela le mininingwane kaDadewethu, ukuze kuzuze ngokomoya kuphela abantu abaningi abazithola bekulezi zikhundla ezihlukene, futhi abazokwazi ukuthola lapho imithetho, izixwayiso nezixwayiso, imodeli yokuziphatha. Khona-ke kufanele silinde, ukuze siqaphe, size senze ububi ngamava? futhi yini esingazifaka engozini ukuze siyithole Dlulisela phambili ukuhamba okuvamile nezihibe zedemoni lokungcola, ongalokothi anqobe kangcono kunalapho ethola ukuntula ulwazi kuhlangene nobulula? Ingabe sizobasola ngokwesaba ukubahlambalaza ngokubayala? Lokhu kuphinde kube wugibe lwalo moya ongcolile, lokhu kungazi okuwuthanda kakhulu kunalokho esikucabangayo. Ngaphandle kwalokhu, zingaki iziqephu eziphuma koFata beBandla, ezivela kubabhali abangcono kakhulu, ngisho nasemiBhalweni Engcwele, okungafanele sizinqamule? Isilingo sikaJoseph omsulwa, ukuhlaselwa uSuzanne omsulwa abhekana nakho kulawa madoda amabili amadala anedumela elibi, njll. UMoya oNgcwele wacabanga ngenye indlela lapha, njengalapho, singamlandela  .

Ngakho-ke, Baba, ukuthi ukungabi nangqondo kwami ​​kwadalula, njengoba sengishilo, udumo lwami engozini enkulu kunazo zonke engake ngazithola ngikuyo, futhi engasinda kuyo kuphela, njengoba ubona, ngosizo olukhethekile. , umusa ongajwayelekile ovela ezulwini. Sawubona! bangaki abantu abasha abaye baphahlazeka umkhumbi lapho

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kunalokhu kunganaki, okungayiboni ngokwanele ingozi, engathembi lutho? Bangaki abazilahlekele ngokungenakulungiseka kuphela ngenxa yokuthatha izinyathelo eziwubuwula, imidlalo ethile, abanye abantu abahlambalazayo bazenze abamsulwa, futhi ababahole ngokungaqondakali kusukela ekubhebhethekeni kuya kwenkululeko, kusukela kwenkululeko kuye kwenelayisense, kusukela kulayisensi.

kuya ebugebengwini, ebugebengwini, ebugebengwini, ebugebengwini, nasekubeni lukhuni, ekugcineni busuka ekubeni lukhuni buyeke ukulahla uNkulunkulu, okuholela enhlekeleleni enkulu!

Ngakho-ke kubaluleke kakhulu, Baba, ukuvimba konke ukungena esitheni esinobuqili obunje, ungasiniki lutho kukho konke umuntu angasenqaba. Ngaye, ngikholwe, akukho ukwenza ngamabomu noma ukugoqa, ngoba akazi ukugcina ukulinganisela. Uma umnika unyawo olulodwa lwezwe, uzothatha ezimbili, ezintathu, ezine, njll. Okokugcina, uma ungasheshe ulahlekelwe nguye, uzolahlekelwa nguwe, intombazane empofu izokwenzani ngaphandle kokungathembani, okukhona lapha, ngaphezu kwanoma yikuphi, umama wokuphepha? Ibophekile ukuhlala nezitha zayo ezifungelwe ubumsulwa bayo, kuzokwenzekani ngayo futhi, uma ingahlali iqaphela izinyathelo zayo; uma engaphezi ukuhlanganisa ukuhlakanipha kwenyoka ebululani bejuba? Ekugcineni, ngizokusho ngokungananazi, yiluphi usizo olungadingeki! Imiphi imisa engadingekile kuye ukuba abe msulwa, phakathi kweSodoma; Ngisho maphakathi nezwe elonakele, lapho yonke into iphefumula ubumnandi futhi ikwenza ugwinye ushevu; ikakhulukazi ezifundeni ezithile, lapho izingozi zisezinkulu kakhulu

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Ngenhlanhla ngasinda, futhi kwangathi ngesimangaliso, engozini enkulu kakhulu yokuphila kwami, ngangingasasesabi isitha sami, noma ngenxa yokuthi kwakudingeka ngigijime ngiyomhlasela noma ngizivikele. Ngase nginolaka engangingasazazi ngalo: ngokubona lokho, edidekile, wahlala endaweni eyodwa, ngaphandle kokulokotha ukungilandela, ngama ngezinyathelo eziyishumi nanhlanu noma ezingamashumi amabili ukuze ngimqede ngezinhlamba ngimtshele konke okufikayo. umlomo wami ngesikhathi sokufutheka kwami. Angikaze ngikhulume okungaka kunoma ubani; futhi ukube wayeke wazama ukusebenzisa ubudlova, ngikholelwa ukuthi ngangingaba nesibindi sokumkhipha, ngakho ngangimthukuthelele kakhulu. Ngamthembisa ukuthi angisoze ngamethemba lalutho emhlabeni, ngagcina isithembiso sami. Ucabangani Baba ngentukuthelo yami nokuncoma kwami?

Ngokubona ukuthi uDade wayelindele impendulo ngaphambi kokuba aqhubeke, ngacishe ngafaka le: Ngicabanga ndodakazi yami, ukuthi ngalesi sikhathi ulaka lwakho seluwumsebenzi obalulekile kuwe, ngenxa yezizathu osanda kungitshela zona.

Ngokuqondene nokuhlambalaza obungamyeka ngokuphelele, njengoba ukuziphatha kwakho kusho ngokwanele, ngikubheka njengesiyalo esinamandla, ukuqondisa okuhle, okwakumfanele kakhulu futhi okwakufanele asizakale. Bekuwubulungiswa obuncane ukuthi umkhokhele ngokufanele kakhulu, futhi okungase kumenze abuyele kuye, ngokuveza kuye ngendlela enamandla kakhulu konke ukwesaba owakuzwa ngomklamo wakhe omubi; Angicabangi ukuthi ungazigxeka ngakho. Kwesinye isikhathi siyakweleta lolu hlobo lwezipho kumakhelwane wethu, ikakhulukazi uma enesidingo esinjalo.

kubonakala sengathi lo ubenayo. Ngakho-ke, kuwumsebenzi, esikhundleni sesenzo sokuziphakamisa. Mangaki ama-libertines abengalungiswa ukube ayengakaze abe nalutho ngaphandle kokwamukela okunjalo! Kodwa ngeshwa kukhona abanye abazinikela kakhulu, futhi onembeza wabo untekenteke kakhulu ukuthi ungathukuthela  ezimweni ezinjalo. Lokhu akubavimbeli ekuhilelekeni kwezinye izikhathi eziningi, lapho bekuyodingeka ukubekezela kuphela; kodwa kulokhu intukuthelo eyodwa ibonakala  iyisono esikhulu kakhulu kubo.

Ake sibuyele kulokhu okungikhathazayo, aphazamise uDade; ngokuba, Baba, nginamaphutha amaningi kakhulu engingazihlambalaza ngawo ukuba ngiyeke lawo abanye abangaba nawo amacala, futhi kufanele nje ngicabange ukulethela icala kimi. Maye! Baba, impilo yami yenkululeko isekude ukuba iphele. Ngakho-ke ake siqhubeke nomlando omubi walo lapho esasikhona ngaphambi kokuhlehla okusanda kusithatha.

Amaphutha uDade azibeka icala ngawo: ize, ukuchithwa, njll.

Kwase kungasekho izimpi kimi ngaphandle kwezinkanuko ezahlukene. Nganginomona ngomcebo wamanye amantombazane nezingubo, futhi ngezinye izikhathi ngisho nomcabango omncane esasinawo ngawo. Angizange ngigweme ukuzihlanganisa namadoda ngaphandle nje kokwesaba ukuhlaziswa, okusho ukuthi ayeyokhuluma kabi ngawo njengoba ayenzile kwabanye, futhi ngaleyo ndlela ngangingeke ngilahlekelwe idumela elihle engangilithanda ngokukhethekile. ngizihlabe. Nakuba ngangikuthanda ukudansa, ngangingavamile ukudansa, ngoba mina

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ubuhlungu, futhi ngendlela yokuthi nginganelisi ubuwula bami obuncane, noma kunalokho okuyize kwami ​​okuwubuwula.

Kanjalo kwakuwukuzigqaja kanye nokuzithanda okwakuqondisa zonke izinyathelo zami, futhi ngangilwa nobubi obuthile obubodwa, njengoba kwenza bonke labo abangaluthathi ukholo lwesibani sabo, noma iVangeli. Ngezinye izikhathi ngangihlakazeka kuze kube sephuzwini lokugcina. Ngafunda izincwadi ezimbi, okungukuthi izincwadi zokuzijabulisa, ezaziphambene kunokuba zivune inkolo nokuziphatha. Ngisho nakanye ngiboleka omunye wabangane bami; ngalokho ngathukwa ngufakazi wami. ngeke

Cishe angizange nginake noma yimiphi imithetho. Isibhakabhaka esithandekayo! owayengathi, Baba, ngokubona konke okwenzeka kimi, ngalezo zikhathi ezingajabulisi, ukuthi ngenziwa indela; leyo kwakuyindawo uNkulunkulu ayengibekele yona

ephawuliwe, nokuthi inhliziyo efana neyami, ekude kangaka nokwesaba nothando lwakhe, kufanele nokho ithi ingeyakhe kuze kube phakade?... Umuhle kangakanani, uthandeka kangakanani, Nkulunkulu wokulunga! sengathi ngingahlabelela ingunaphakade umusa wakho ongapheli, lapho usuqedile izinzuzo zakho, ngokuthwesa izipho zakho! Kodwa asiqhubeke.

Sicabanga ukumshada. Ukucasuka kwakhe.

Uyazi baba ukuthi amantombazane asemakhaya ampofu, inqobo nje uma enamandla futhi ekwazi ukusebenza kahle, athole indlela yokushada masinyane kunalawo acebile, ngoba maningi amaphathi ahambisana nezinhlanhla zawo. Ngakho-ke akumangazi ukuthi abanye beza kimi, futhi abanye engangingenandaba nakho. Insizwa ethile, phakathi kwabanye, ehlakaniphe kakhulu, yayingifanela kangcono futhi yangijabulisa kakhulu, ingakaze ibe nezingxoxo eziqondile nayo ngalesihloko. Ngaba nomuzwa wokuthi ngimthanda ngaphezu kwabanye. Ngisho nangaphambi kokushona kukababa, sase senze izindlela ezihlukahlukene ukuze sikhulume nabazali bami. Kwakukhona izicelo, izicelo, izithembiso; kodwa yini okufanele uyiqaphele,

Kumele ngivume nakuwe Baba ukuthi phezu kwazo zonke izinhlupheko engizizwile abantu, njalo uma kuwumbuzo wokukhuluma nami sijule ngomshado, ngifikelwe umshikashika omubi ngaphakathi kimi, noma ngithi angi ngiyazi ukuthi yini engingakwazi ukuyilandisa, nokuthi akekho owayengakuqonda, nakuba wonke umuntu wayekubonile. Kwakuwukunengeka okuthile, njengokungathi kwakungenakunqotshwa, okwangibamba ngingazelele, futhi okwaze kwangisusa ukuphefumula nokukhuluma, kwangenza ngishintshe umbala, futhi kungigulise ngokwesaba nokwesaba  .

Ngakho-ke ngakhululeka ngibona yonke into ihluleka, futhi ngokungavamile kakhulu ngaba nomona, ngaze ngalahlekelwa ukuthula, ngabantu abasha abaphendukela kubo uma nginqaba. Ekugcineni, ngase ngivele ngaba yimpicabadala kimina ngendlela engachazeki kakhulu ngoba uNkulunkulu wayengakangazisi imiphumela yalokhu kulwa okuqhubekayo phakathi kwemvelo nomusa, okumenza azithole enjengamadoda amabili aphikisanayo.

kumuntu ofanayo, ikakhulukazi lapho ingelosi kaSathane ihlanganisa imvelo futhi isisebenzisa ukuze isishaye ngempama.

Kodwa, Baba, kungakhathaliseki ukuthi izibani uNkulunkulu anginike zona kusukela kukho konke lokhu, ngiyohlala ngiyimpicabadala kimi nakwabanye abaningi njengoba bengihlala nginjalo.

Angikuqondi, dadewethu , kusho omunye wabangivumayo kimi ngelinye ilanga, wakhuluma kimi ngoNkulunkulu njengengelosi, futhi ukhuluma kimi njengedimoni; Angiqondi  noma yikuphi  kwalokhu Ah  !

ukuthi lolu daba lwaluhluke kakhulu, nokuthi nhlangothi zombili ngazama ukulandela iqiniso engaliboniswa kimi; leyo kwakuyimfihlakalo yonke ayengayiqondi. Kodwa ake siphinde sithathe umucu wendaba yami edabukisayo; ngoba, awu! Baba, isikhathi sokuphenduka kwami ​​asikafiki, uma nokho ngingasho ukuthi kwake kwafika ngokuphelele, futhi uma ngingasabi ukuthi ngeke kuphinde kufike, okungenani njengoba bengihlale ngikufisa.

Imibono engamanga eyakha uDade esiphithiphithini sezinkanuko zakhe. Izinkanuko, ukuphela kwesithiyo ekukholweni.

Kulesi simo esidabukisayo, ngaba nombono oyiphutha kakhulu wezinto ezicace kakhulu  nezisobala kakhulu. Ngabe, ngomqondo ongokomfanekiso, ngangingayiqondi kahle imigomo yokuqala yomthetho wemvelo, kangangokuthi izinkanuko zami zaziphazamise wonke amandla omphefumulo wami; yebo, ngikusho ngehlazo futhi nasekuphendukeni kwami, ubumpumputhe bami babunjalo, kangangokuthi lapho ngineminyaka eyishumi nesishiyagalolunye ngaba nokukhanya okuncane kakhulu kokwehlukanisa okuhle nokubi, ingasaphathwa eyokuba nolwazi ngezinto zikaNkulunkulu kanye nensindiso, enganginalo. lapho ngineminyaka eyisikhombisa noma eyisishiyagalombili. Ingabe kufanele simangale, ngemva kwalokho, ngokuphambuka okungenakucatshangwa, ezindabeni zenkolelo, kwamadoda amaningi kangaka ahlukaniswa ngolwazi lwawo kuwo wonke amanye amaphuzu, lapho ake avumela ukubuswa izinkanuko zawo  ?

USobani-bani, kuthiwa, akakholwa, akanayo inkolo, nokho unolwazi: uhlakaniphile, ungungqondongqondo.

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Inqobo nje uma uthanda; kodwa ufuna ukuphetha ngokuthini? Yikuphi ukucabangela okuhle ongakuthola ekungakholwani kwakhe ngokumelene nenkolo noma inkolo ayinqabayo? Ukuze ahlulele kahle, ingqondo yakhe kufanele ibe njalo

bekhululekile kulelo cala futhi bekwazi ukubona izinto ngombono wabo weqiniso. Kodwa cha, uthando ngaye lufihla ukuqonda kanye nezibani zokucabanga; kucisha ingqondo, kuthuntubeze wonke amandla emvelo, kuthuntuthe umuntu, kumenze abe uhlobo lwesilwane esingazi lutho ngezinto zikaNkulunkulu noma zensindiso, njengoba kusho umBhalo. Engakwazi ukuphakama ngaphezu kokufinyelela kwezinzwa, uthanda kuphela futhi uqonde okuhlobene nakho. Izinto zokukholwa azijwayelekile kuye: ziyizimfihlakalo kuye acabanga ukuthi akaboni lutho kuzo kuphela izingxabano ezinengqondo. Lapho kuvame ukwenzeka ukuthi izingqondo ezinhle kakhulu kungabantu benkolelo, kodwa izingane eziningi kakhulu, masithi kangcono, abangenalwazi kakhulu kunalabo abangenalwazi ngokwabo. kwazise lokhu kungazi kuvamile kubo nabakuqala. Basaphikisana nakho konke ukungabaza kwezinkanuko zabo ukuvuma ukuthi yini ebacindezelayo nokuthi yisiphi isizathu esingenakusiqonda. Yebo, Baba, uqiniseke ngakho, susa izinkanuko enhliziyweni yomuntu, ususa zonke izithiyo zokukholwa, ulenze libe ngumKristu; nisusa ukuhuheka, nibasuse abangakholwayo, ngokuba izinkanuko kuphela umthombo wabo ukungakholwa.

Yilokhu engabhekana nakho okubuhlungu (1).

(1) Kubuye kube umcabango wenye yezimbongi zethu kulesi sigaba esihle, lapho isitshela khona: ... Ukuthi yonke inkululeko ihamba ngokuhleleka, kanye nesimilo sayo sangempela.

kuwukushelela, ngamazinga, ubuthi bayo busuka ezizweni buyiswe enhliziyweni, busuka enhliziyweni buyiswe ekucabangeni. (J.-B. Rouss., incwadi eya ku- M. Racine).

Ngakho-ke ngacabanga, Baba, futhi ingabe singakunyanya ngokwanele! Ngangicabanga ukuthi kwakuwukuthanda uNkulunkulu ngokwanele ukuba ngingamzondi; ukuthi umuntu unokholo ngaphandle kokuphoqeleka ukuba akholelwe wonke amaphuzu enkolelo iBandla eliwahlongoza kubantwana balo; ukuthi umuntu angazisindisa ngokukholwa okuvamile nokuqagelayo, ngaphandle

yenza kube nzima ukuyinciphisa ngokusebenza; ukuthi imisebenzi emihle, ngakho-ke, ayidingekile ekusindisweni; ukuthi kwanele ukukhonza uNkulunkulu enhliziyweni yomuntu, ngaphandle kokuzithoba kunoma yimuphi umkhuba wenkolo; ukuthi izifungo zobhapathizo zingaphoqi umuntu ukuba alahle izimiso zezwe; ukuthi abampofu nabahluphekayo abajabulile, nokuthi abacebile kuphela abajabulayo nabafanelwe umona; okuyinto umuntu angabuyela enyanyeni elandelayo ngenxa yenzondo, ukungabi nandaba nokunganaki, njll.

Noma kunalokho, ukukhuluma kahle kakhulu, angizange ngicabange ngakho konke lokho, futhi ngaphila ngokufanele, ngaphandle kokunaka cishe kancane. Kanjalo, ngazenza ngokwami ​​uhlobo lwevangeli elesabekayo, engalifaka esikhundleni seVangeli likaJ. ukholo. Ngakho

nokho bekuyini umthetho wami phakathi naso sonke lesi sikhathi esibi. Ngangingazi nhlobo ukuthi siyini isimo somphefumulo oye waba neshwa lokuvuma isono. Ngangingazi lutho ngesiphambeko sikaNkulunkulu, noma ngemiphumela yako maqondana nathi. Ngenza ukuziqhenya kuhlanganiswe nengcebo nobukhulu, ngingakwazi ukuqonda ukuthi abantu abampofu bangakwazi ukuziqhenya, nakuba ngangiyisibonelo nobufakazi obubonakalayo balokho kunoma ubani ngaphandle kwami; ngoba, Baba, ngicabanga ukuthi kwakuyimi ngedwa ongazange ukuqaphele lokhu kujula kokuzigqaja engangisengathi ngibunjiwe. Ngaphinde ngacabanga ukuthi kwakungabacebile kuphela ababenganamathisela izinhliziyo zabo empahleni yasemhlabeni, ukuthanda izwe nobuze. Yeka ukukhohlisa! Yeka amaphutha!...

Naphezu kokuzulazula kwakhe, wayifeza imisebenzi yakhe yenkolo, ethanda izwi likaNkulunkulu, futhi ehambela amasakramente ngemikhosi emikhulu.

Lobu bumpumputhe obuyinqaba bomqondo wami, lolu hlobo lokuqina kwenhliziyo yami ngokuzithandela, ngibabeka ngaphezu kwakho konke ukuziqhenya kwami ​​uNkulunkulu ayefuna ukukujezisa, ekusetshenzisweni kabi komusa, kanye nokuhlambalaza lokhu kuziqhenya okuyishwa okwangenza ngakwenza: ngokuba, uBaba, phakathi kokuzulazula kwami, ngangihlale ngiphethe isikhwama esithile senkolo, esavuswa ngaphezu kwakho konke ngemikhosi emikhulu. Ngangiyithanda imikhosi yeBandla, futhi ngaphezu kwawo wonke amazwi kaNkulunkulu. Kodwa ngeshwa! ukungaguquguquki kwentando yami kwenza kimi lokhu kunambitheka kwaba yinyumba, ngingasho ukuthi, kuyingozi. Umphefumulo wami, owawuhlala uzinikele ekubhujisweni, ezenzweni, ezintweni ezincane, wafana naleyo nsimu enamatshe futhi ngaphezu kwalokho uvulekele ekungeneni kwezitha zami, lapho le nzalo yaphezulu yayingakwazi ukuhluma, noma ukuphonsa izimpande ezijulile. Ngakho-ke yanyathelwa lapho futhi yachotshozwa ngaphansi kwezinyawo zabadlulayo, yathathwa ukuziqhenya kwami, yacindezelwa ukuthambekela kwami, yonakaliswa futhi yomiswa ngomlilo wezinkanuko zami. Isiphi isimo!..,.

Ngalalela ngokuzimisela leli zwi likaNkulunkulu, langithinta okwamanje; kodwa ngomzuzu olandelayo angibange ngisacabanga ngawo. Ngakho, esikhundleni sokungithethelela, wangenza ngaba necala ngokwengeziwe; esikhundleni sokungiguqula, wangiqinisa nakakhulu; endaweni

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ukuletha insindiso yami, kwaba umthombo wokulahlwa kwami. Sizodatshukelwa kanjani, futhi, uma sisebenzisa isisa esinikezwa yiZulu! Iyiphi insiza esingabala kuyo, lapho izinsiza zokugcina zijikijelwa thina ngokuhlukumeza esizenza kuzo? O isimo esidabukisayo! O isimo esibi!

Kodwa-ke, uBaba wami, kanye nesimo kanye nesimo engidlule kuso isikhathi esingaphezu konyaka, ngihlale ngigcina ingaphandle kanye nedumela lentombazane elungile, engangincoma kakhulu: ukubeka konke ukuphelela kwami ​​​​ngaphandle ukuzinikela kokuhlonipha uNkulunkulu, nganginomona wokungaphuthelwa nesisodwa isidlo samadili amahle noma ubuzalwane, futhi ngathatha izinhlungu ezincane kakhulu ukuze ngizilungiselele kahle futhi ngithole izithelo kukho. Ngokuphuphutheka ngithatha isimangaliso njengeqiniso, ngazincoma ngaphakathi ukuthi ngizinikele futhi ngilungile, kuyilapho ekujuleni kwami ​​ngangingaphezudlwana komzenzisi kanye nethuna elicakiwe. Ngadlula kanjalo ngokuba ngiphila emehlweni abantu, ngifile emehlweni kaNkulunkulu. Sasinjalo isimo sami, Baba, lapho Providence, engayeki ukungibheka, wangivumela ukuba ngihlatshwe yisici okungenzeka ukuthi awukaze uzwe ngaso, futhi ongakaze usifunde noma usibone isibonelo noma kuphi. Kodwa njengoba sekuyisikhathi sokuqeda namuhla, sicela, sizoyibuyisela indaba, futhi sizoqala umhlangano wakusasa lapho. (1).

(1) Angazi ukuthi abantu bazocabangani ngakho, kodwa kimina kubonakala sengathi izithombe ezehlukene uDade asanda kusinika zona, zifana nabantu abaningi kunalokho esikucabangayo, futhi ngenxa yalokho abaningi bangakwazi ukufana nayo. futhi uzuze kuyo. Nomaphi lapho le mininingwane ivela khona, ibonakala ingenanjongo noma ingenamsebenzi.

Isici esiyingqayizivele sengane eneminyaka emithathu ubudala. I-Effect ikhiqiza kuSister.

“Egameni likaYise, neleNdodana nelikaMoya oNgcwele. NgoJesu, uMariya, njll. »

Ngelinye iSonto lapho umama engiphathise, ngenkathi esemiseni lesifunda, nginakekelwa abafowethu nodadewethu abancane, ngahamba nabo ngiyofuna ubuhlobo bomunye wabangane bami, owayeyindodakazi yesisebenzi sentela, indlu yayiseduze kweyethu. Wayenomthwalo wemfanelo wokugada umndeni wakhe omncane abazali bakhe bengekho. Sahlanganisa zonke izingane ukuze sizijabulise, futhi, sihlezi eduze komunye nomunye, sasicula ihubo ngothando lukaNkulunkulu. Udadewabo omncane womlingani wami, oneminyaka emithathu, wayeshiye ontanga yakhe ukuze beze bazosilalela eduze; wabamba isandla sakhe ehlombe lami, futhi walalela ukucula kwethu ngokunaka okumangalisayo kweminyaka yakhe, nomoya wenjabulo  ,

yokwaneliseka kanye nentshisekelo eyasenza saphila kakhulu, ngoba kwakungenakwenzeka ukungakunaki; isimo sakhe sengqondo, yonke into eyayikuye yayibonisa ukwaneliseka okukhulu.

Isinqandamathe esamjabulisa kangaka saphetha ngala mazwi: Uma simshisela kulezi zindawo, sizobaswa miphi imililo ezulwini? noma ngalawa amanye amavesi, ngokuba angiwakhumbuli kahle: Uma manje sivutha ngale mililo, siyoshisa ngamiphi imililo ezulwini? Kuhlala kuwumcabango ofanayo ngesizinda.

Into engezwakali futhi emangazayo, Baba wami! La mazwi okugcina evesi lokugcina ayengakaze aculwe kunalokho, phambi kwamehlo ethu, umntwana olalelayo waphakanyiswa phansi kathathu wafinyelela ukuphakama okungamamitha amathathu noma amane, ngaphandle kokwenza noma yimuphi umzamo wokugxuma, kodwa ebambelele ngomzimba oqondile  , izingalo eziluliwe, ubuso obuvuvukele namehlo aphakanyiselwe ezulwini. Kulesi simo sengqondo, njengokungathi siphendula ekupheleni kwevesi lethu lokugcina, wawasho ngokucace kakhulu nangamandla amakhulu la mazwi athinta inhliziyo kakhulu kimi, futhi ayewaphindaphinda njalo lapho ethunjwa: Du fire of love ! lomlilo wothando! lomlilo wothando!Ngakho-ke lapho ephindaphindwa la mazwi wayephakanyiswa futhi awele phansi ngobumnene izikhathi eziningi ngaphandle kokuzilimaza: lokhu kwenziwa ngokulandelana futhi isikhathi eside, okwathi ngemva kwalokho omncane, wabuyiselwa kuye, wagijima ukuze azijabulise futhi adlale. nabanye, ngaphandle kokuthi kuvele okuningi. Kungenzeka kakhulu ukuthi akakhumbuli  ngakho.

Mina nozakwethu sasishaqekile, sisadidekile, sisamangazwe yilokho esasisanda kukubona, saze sathula sahlukana ngaphandle kokucabanga nokuncane, ngaphandle kokusho nelilodwa izwi komunye nomunye. Ah! Baba wami, yeka ukubonakaliswa kwalesi senzakalo esisodwa esingenze ngazenza kimi, ngokungikhumbuza lokho engangikade ngiyikho!

Lokhu, ngazitshela, yindlela uNkulunkulu azibonakalisa ngayo ezinhliziyweni ezihlanzekile, kuyilapho abanye bephucwa umusa wakhe! Ngambona, lowo mphefumulo ongenacala ojabulisa kangaka emehlweni akhe, evutha ngamazwi angazange athinte nakancane kimi, angabuthinti ubulukhuni, ukungazweli kwenhliziyo yami. 0 ozongibuyisela ubumsulwa bami bokuqala! ozongibuyisela leso sikhathi esijabulisayo lapho nami ngizwa ubukhona bukaNkulunkulu wami, lapho uthando lwakhe luzwakala kimi, lapho ngijabulela kakhulu

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abasondelene nabo!  Isikhathi esiyigugu  , awusekho !. izinsuku  zenhlanhla ,

usuyini? ngibe yini mina? Awu mthombo wezinyembezi ezibuhlungu! O, isihloko esingapheli sokuluma futhi mhlawumbe nokuphenduka kwaphakade! iphutha lami ukuthi ngilahlekelwe yikho konke! Ngokufaka esikhundleni esifanele uNkulunkulu ususa umusa wakhe kulabo ababahlukumezayo, ukuze awunike abanye abangabeki isithiyo lapho....

Ngokuvamile, kuyiqiniso, ngizinikele kulokhu kucabanga okujabulisayo; kodwa kwakuseyizimo kuphela ezisondela kancane ekuguqukeni kwami ​​okuphelele, okungazange kufike kwaze kwaba yisikhathi esithile kamuva. Kwakudingeka okunye okwengeziwe ukuze kucekelwe phansi umbuso kadeveli futhi kulungiswe ukunqoba komusa enhliziyweni ecishe yahlukunyezwa yisono: yilokhu umusa waphezulu owawusebenza isikhathi eside, ngaphandle kokudumazeka ngenxa yokuphikiswa kwami, futhi isikhathi eside. isikhathi, futhi, umsebenzi ubulokhu uqhubeka njengokungathi ngaphandle kolwazi lwami, futhi, ngomqondo ongokomfanekiso, naphezu kwami. Ekugcineni kwafika leso sikhathi esijabulisayo lapho uNkulunkulu ekhuluma njengenkosi futhi wamemezela ngokucacile leyo ntando okungekho lutho olungamelana nayo; le ntando okuthi, ngaphandle kokuvimbela inkululeko yomuntu yokuzikhethela, isebenzisa zona kanye izithiyo ukuze ifike ekupheleni kwemiklamo yayo emikhulu.

Ukuguqulwa okusha kukaDade ngesikhathi sejubili elikhulu lika-1751. Wazinikela ngokuphelele kuNkulunkulu. Ukufa kukamama wakhe.

Kwaphinda futhi, Baba wami, unyaka wejubili elikhulu noma wokuzitika okujwayelekile, okwafaka isiphetho somsebenzi wokuguqulwa kwami ​​​​oqale ngalesi sikhathi, ngokusabalalisa lobuningi bomusa. lapho isono sande khona. Ngasizwa isidingo sami kunanini ngaphambili, futhi ngahlukunyezwa unembeza wami ompofu kakhulu ukuba ngingalibambi leli thuba elisha lokubuyela kuNkulunkulu: Ngakho-ke ngaphinda nganquma ukuzilungiselela ngakho konke ukunakeka okukhulu ukuze ngiwine ukuzitika kwejubili. . Sawubona! bekungomusa kangakanani lesi simo! Phakathi naso sonke isikhathi iziteshi zethu ezazihlala ngaso ngangiya ukuyovuma izono nsuku zonke, futhi kwase kusele izinsuku ezintathu ngaphambi kokuba ngiqedele ukubukeza kwami ​​lapho isibhakabhaka, ukuze ekugcineni sinqobe ukumelana kwami, sangishaya ngegalelo elimangalisayo elangiwisa, njengoSaint-Paul. , endleleni eya eDamaseku. Wathululela phezu kwami, ngaleso sikhathi esijabulisayo, umusa onamandla futhi ochichima kakhulu, kangangokuthi wanqoba phezu kwakho konke. Ngaso leso sikhathi zonke izithiyo zachithwa, bonke ubunzima bashabalala; kwakudingeka ukuthi kuzinikele kumnqobi owayengakwazi Okuningi

ukuhlupheka ukuphonselwa inselelo ukunqoba. Isikhathi senhlanhla, kungani ungezanga ngokushesha!

Ngaleso sikhathi ngangicishe ngibe neminyaka engamashumi amabili nengxenye ubudala, futhi lokhu kushaywa kwezulu okujabulisayo kwenzeka ngelinye ilanga ngimatasa, nomama nodadewethu, sikha i-hemp endaweni eyihlane noma engadini yezithelo, eduze kakhulu nendlu yethu futhi.

ukujoyina isibuya sethu. Kulapho, Baba, lapho ngavele ngezwa ngingena futhi ngagcwala ukukhanya okukhanyayo nokumnene okwakhanyisela ingqondo yami kwashintsha inhliziyo yami. Ekugcineni wakulungisa ukuntengantenga kwami ​​ngokungitshela ukuthi uNkulunkulu ufunani kimi, owayezongithethelela zonke izikhathi zami ezidlule futhi ekugcineni abuyisele zonke izihe zakhe ezinhle kimi.

Ngaphandle kokungabaza nakancane, ngathembisa ukuba ngowakhe kuze kube phakade futhi ngeke ngiphinde ngihlanganyele inhliziyo yami. Ngashaqeka ngokuziphatha kwami ​​kwesikhathi esidlule, futhi ngakhulelwa ukwethuka okukhulu nganoma yiluphi uhlobo lwesono kangangokuthi, ngaphandle kokulokotha ngicabange ukuba yindela (maye! Angibonanga ndlela yokwenza kanjalo), ngawulahla ngokushesha umhlaba nazo zonke izingozi. iyahlinzeka. Ngathembisa uNkulunkulu ukuthi ngizozihlukanisa nabo ngangokunokwenzeka; futhi ngenxa yalokho, ngaphakamisa ukuhlala nomama, ukuze ngimkhonze futhi ngimsize ngomsebenzi wami kuze kube sekupheleni kwezinsuku zakhe noma ezami; engayanga kude. Izulu, elingakaze lingivumele ukuba ngiphile ngaphandle kokuhlupheka, lalingigcinele okuzwela kakhulu kulesi simo: umama wami ompofu washona ngaso leso sikhathi ayenethemba laso. ukuze ajabule, nalapho ngahlongoza ukumduduza futhi ngimnxephezele ngalo lonke usizi nezinhlungu engangimzwise zona. Asethembe ukuthi iNkosi enhle izobe isizibophezele ekumduduzeni futhi imnxephezele ngakho, futhi ngeke alahlekelwe lutho.

Uziphoqelela ukuzila kanye nokunye ukuzithoba, futhi uthatha isifungo sobumsulwa obungapheli.

Ukuze nganelise ubulungisa bukaNkulunkulu futhi ngivimbele ukuhlubuka enyameni, ngathembisa ukuzila ukudla njalo ngoLwesihlanu nangoLwesithathu, futhi ngiyophinde ngizilolonge isonto ngalinye; kodwa, ukuze nginqobe kangcono idemoni lokungcola, ngahlongoza ukwenza isifungo sobumsulwa obungapheli, futhi ngangifuna ukukusho ngaphambi kwesithombe sikaNotre-Dame-des-Marais (1) ngosuku lwe-'Assumption. , okuyilapho kanye engahlongoza khona ukuthatha isidlo ukuze ngithole imali yami yejubili.

(1) Lona umfanekiso weNcasakazi Ebusisiwe, obekwe endlini yesonto, ngasemnyango oseceleni wesonto laseSaint-Sulpice de Fougères. Idume kakhulu ezweni ngezifungo nohambo olungcwele olwenziwa khona, induduzo nezibusiso ezitholwa  khona.

Ngaya lapho ngenxa yalenjongo, futhi ngalolo suku ngezwa izixuku ezimbili eSaint-Léonard nelilodwa eSaint-Sulpice, kimina elalibonakala lifushane kakhulu, ngiyaniqinisekisa. Akunakwenzeka ukuthi ngikutshele ukuthi yimalini, phakathi nalezi zixuku

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nesidlo sami, uNkulunkulu ungenze nganambitha amaswidi; zingaki induduzo yangaphakathi anginike yona ngesimo sami samanje nesedlule; yeka ukuthi kwangikhanyisela kangakanani ngezimfihlakalo zenkolo, futhi ngaphezu kwakho konke ukuba khona kwangempela kuka-J.-C. eSakramenteni Elingcwele le-altare! njll., njll.

Injabulo ayinambithayo enkonzweni kaNkulunkulu.

Ekugcineni, Baba, ngaqala ukuphefumula futhi ngaphila futhi, futhi ngaba nomuzwa wokuthi ayikho, ukuthi ngeke ibe khona injabulo yeqiniso, ngaphandle kokuthula kwangaphakathi komphefumulo,  nokuthi lokhu kuthula komphefumulo, okufiseleka kangaka, akusoze kwaba khona. kutholakale ngaphandle kukanembeza ongenaso isihlamba, emuzweni oseduze wenhliziyo enomuzwa wokuthi konke kungokukaNkulunkulu wayo, nokuthi uNkulunkulu wayo uyikho konke kuyo; ekugcineni inhliziyo evutha kuphela ngamalangabi othando lwakhe... Ngigxile kulo Nkulunkulu omuhle nonesihe ngaphezu kwakho konke okungashiwo nokucatshangwayo, ngezwa ubukhona bakhe bobunkulunkulu, futhi ngagcwaliswa ngokuphelele injabulo engenakuphinyiswa le nto yobukhona baphezulu eyakhuluma ngayo. kimi. O  injabulo  !.  unkulunkulu wami

ibuyiselwe kuwo wonke amalungelo ayo.  Ngajabula , ngoba ngangingowakhe, futhi wayengowami Wonke  Lapho ukufa kukamama kwakungeke kufike  

ukuphazamisa isimo esifiseleka kangaka, ngicabanga, Baba wami, ukuthi kwakungeke kuhlale isikhathi eside, ngoba akubangelwa abantu abafayo abaneshwa, abasabelo sabo siwukububula kulesi sigodi sezinyembezi; kungaba kuphela umvuzo kanye nelungelo lalabo abaye babafanele ngokusebenza kanzima, izimpi kanye nokunqoba; futhi lapho sekwamjabulisa uNkulunkulu ukungibonisa umusa ngakho, bengihlale ngikubheka  futhi ngakuthola kuye njengokuzitika kwangempela ngobuthakathaka bami, noma, uma uthanda, njengesikhuthazo sokuhlupheka kangcono iziphambano nezinsizi. ngobumpofu bami, futhi ubuhle bakhe obusangigcinele  ikusasa.

Ngemva kokulahla konke ukusungulwa, kodwa ngakolunye uhlangothi ngingenakho okwanele ukuba ngiphile ngaphandle kwesibopho sokukhonza, futhi ngenxa yalokho ngingena ezingozini engangifunge ngazo ukuqhela kuzo, umuntu kufanele acabange ukuthi iliphi igalelo elangilethela ukufa kukamama. . Ukube ngake ngakucabangela kulokhu kuphela, kwaba, njengoba besho, okwanele ukuba ngilahlekelwe ikhanda, ukube uNkulunkulu akazange abe nomusa wokulinganisa ubuhlungu bami ngendlela engishilo ngayo.

Isimo sakhe esidabukisayo ngemva kokushona kukanina; usephendukele eNcasakazini.

Njengoba ngangingazi ukuthi kufanele ngenze siphi isinyathelo, ngaqale ngathatha umhlalaphansi kanye nodadewethu omncane ku-anti owayesekhulile kakhulu, thina sobabili sasheshe samkhumbula. Ngakho-ke ngemva kokuba ukufa sekumthathile kithi, ngathola ukwethembela kulokho kuzo zonke izidalwa engangizethemba kakhulu: ngaya eSaint-Sulpice, futhi, ngaguqa phambi kwesithombe esingcwele seNkosazana Yethu -des-Marais, yathi kuye: “Ntombi eNgcwele, mama wami olungileyo nohloniphekileyo, ngokuba anginamuntu osele ngaphandle kwakho; Ngikwenze idiphozi yezifiso zami. Yebo, Ncasakazi engenakuqhathaniswa, kuphakathi kwezandla zakho nangaphansi kwakho lapho ngizehlukanisele khona eNdodaneni yakho yaphezulu; ngitholele-ke, ngomusa, indlela yokwethembeka ezinqumweni zami.

Nakekela leli bhizinisi, futhi ngizojabula; Angisoze ngakulahla, inqobo nje uma nginesizathu sokukholelwa ukuthi kusezandleni zakho. Ngizonezela kuphela ukuthi ngathola kusukela ngalo kanye lelo hora induduzo ethile eyabonakala kimi isibambiso sesivikelo sikaMariya, isiqinisekiso sokuthi wayewulalele kahle umthandazo wami, nokuthi ngangingethemba ngakho konke kuwo; okwangithulisa kakhulu.

Mina nodadewethu ababili sasivumelene ukuba sesikhundleni esingokomoya sePhentekoste, esasizoba seFaubourg Roger de Fougères. Saya lapho: kwakulapho, uma ngingasho njalo, lapho iNcasakazi eyayingilindile, ukuze inginike umbono ongcono womphumela womkhuleko wami kanye nemiklamo emikhulu uNkulunkulu ayengenzele yona.

Ukukhangwa kwakhe empilweni yenkolo. Cabanga ukuthi wayevame ukukhuluma ngakho.

Ukuzibona ngihlotshaniswa ukuphila kwami ​​nomphakathi othile wenkolo, ukuhlala lapho kude nezwe njengenceku, kwase kuyisikhathi eside kuyisifiso sami; kodwa ithemba elincane engalibona lokukwazi ukuphumelela kulo lalingakangivumeli ukuba ngitshele muntu ngakho; nokho-ke, ngazithola ngihlala ngidonswa kukho ukunambitheka okuthile nokuthambekela

engokwemvelo iphupho elithile engizokutshela lona, ​​futhi elase livele kimi izikhathi ezingaphezu kwekhulu, kusukela ngisemncane kakhulu, lalivuka njalo; nakhu, uzokwahlulela:

Kaningi, Baba, lapho ngilele, ngangizibona ngizungezwe futhi ngihlaselwa yizilwane ezinonya, ezazifuna ukungishwabadela  noma ukungenza ngiwele eweni; izitha ezibuhlungu, ezazifuna ukuphila kwami ​​okuncane kunobumsulwa bami nokusindiswa kwami. Kwakukhona insiza eyodwa kuphela eyayisele kimi ngokumelene nezinto zabo ezicindezelayo kanye nezingibe zabo eziphindaphindekayo, futhi lokho kwakuwukucela usizo lwezulu lapho yayingasekho enye indlela yokuphunyuka. Ngakwenza konke ngezinyembezi, kwathi-ke, Baba, ngezwa ngiphakanyiswa ngamaphiko amabili, ngaya phezulu lapho izitha zami zazingakwazi ukufinyelela khona; futhi, ngaphunyuka ekuthukutheleni kwabo, ngandiza emoyeni njengejuba; Ngaphathwa  ngengalo eyodwa

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engabonakali. Ngezinye izikhathi uhambo lwalulude kakhulu; kodwa okubaluleke kakhulu ukuthi ukuphela kohambo lwami, noma kunalokho ukundiza kwami, kwakuwukuwela ngobumnene emphakathini wamantombazane, futhi indawo lapho ngiqala ukubeka khona unyawo ngenkathi ngiwa kwakuhlale kuyisonto labo, lapho ngaguqa khona phambi kwabo. leSakramente Elingcwele, engaboniswa kimi njengesiphephelo esiqinisekisiwe kuzo zonke izitha zami, kanye netheku lapho okwakumelwe ngizimisele khona ngokungaphezi ukunqoba kuzo ngokuqinisekile  .

Cabanga ngaleli phupho, namanye amaningi afana nalo, konke okufunayo; ukuthi umuntu uzama, uma efuna, ukuzichaza ngezizathu ezingokwemvelo, angiphikisani nakho; kodwa okuyiqiniso, futhi okungabonakala kunzima kakhulu ukukufaka kulo mbono, ukuthi leli phupho lenzeke kimi izikhathi eziningana ngiseneminyaka lapho ngingenalo noma ngingenalo ulwazi lwesimo senkolo; yiqiniso lelo. Ngizosho nangokwengeziwe: ukuthi ngaleso sikhathi, ngiphupha ngake ngisesiphethoni esivamile sendiza yami, ngamangala kakhulu ukuzithola ngimude impela phambi kwe-altare, futhi ngigqoke kahle njengoba nginje manje, Mina engangingakaze ngibone izindela ngaphambili, okungenzeka ukuthi ngangingakaze ngizwe ngazo, futhi ngubani, ngokuqinisekile, namanje babengazi imvunulo yabo. Kodwa-ke, ngazibona ngimude njengami, ngigqoke njengami, njenge-Urbanist yenkolo,

ngikhothame phambi kwe-altare laleli bandla engangingakaze ngingene kulo. Ngangivele ngiyindodakazi kaSaint Francis kanye noSaint Clare. Lanqamuka leliphupho lapho nje ngiba nenjabulo yokwembeswa ngempela umkhuba ongcwele wenkolo; okusho ukuthi, ukukhuluma ngokwendlela yami yokuthatha izinto, lapho isibalo sesifezekile. Kodwa asikabi lapho.

Elinye iphupho, lapho uSaint Francis embiza khona e-oda lakhe.

Ngikhumbula futhi elinye iphupho elingase libe nencazelo efanayo, futhi engisenalo ngesikhathi esikhuluma ngalo; Ngicabanga ukuthi ngikutshele ngakho kwenye indawo. Ngacabanga ukuzwa izwi lomshumayeli omkhulu: njengoba ngangingaphandle kwesonto lapho ayeshumayela khona, ngagibela entweni ukuze ngimuzwe kangcono futhi ngimbone kancane ngefasitela elosiwe. NguBaba wethu oNgcwele uFrancis owashumayeza izindela nezindela zohlelo lwakhe ngenkani, wabasola ngokubanda kanye nokwephula kwabo umthetho. Umshumayeli ongcwele wangibona ngishumayela; futhi enza umnyakazo kimina, njengokungathi ungiphoxisa, ngamuzwa ethi kimi: “Njengoba kungasekho ukulalela noma ukwethembeka kweyami, awu! abezizwe mabathathe indawo yabo.woza ngokwethembeka kwakho uzongiduduza ngokungabongi kanye nokuba sivivi kwezingane zami. »

Ngakho ngathatha futhi njengophawu lobizo lawa mazwi  uFrancis oNgcwele awakhuluma kimi: Woza kimi,  ndodakazi  yaseGibhithe. Ngijabule  kakhulu

ngiqiniseka ngokuthi abanye abaningi bazocabanga njengami kulokhu; kodwa njengoba kuhlale kukhona abahlakaniphe kakhulu, futhi abazigqajayo ngokunikeza isizathu sayo yonke into ngaphandle kokudinga usizo lukaNkulunkulu, noma uhlelo lwamandla angaphezu kwawemvelo, ngiwushiya ngokuzithandela lo msebenzi kubo, uma ungabanelisa, futhi ngiyeza. ngibuyele emgomweni wami; ngoba, kungakhathaliseki ukuthi kwenzekani ngalawa maphupho, njengencazelo noma ithuba abakhetha ukuwanika lona, ​​lokho okwakungenalo ukubonakala kuye kwenzeka nokho, naphezu kwazo zonke izithiyo izwe, udeveli kanye nenyama engaziletha. . Kokunye, Baba, uzokwahlulela kangcono ngemininingwane umuntu okufanele athi ubizo lwami kuhulumeni wenkolo nokungena kwami ​​kulo mphakathi. Konke lokhu kwaba umphumela wokuthatha kwami ​​umhlalaphansi kuFaubourg Roger; kodwa ngicabanga ukuthi sizokwenza kahle ukuhlehlisa ukulandiswa kwakho kuze kube namuhla kusihlwa noma kwesinye isikhathi. Ucabangani Baba?

Wamukelwa emphakathini wabahleli basemadolobheni eFougères njengenceku yabahleli.

“ Egameni likaYise, leNdodana, njll. »

Baba, ngathululela konke lokhu kuM. Debrégel, owayephethe ngaleso sikhathi owayesethathe umhlalaphansi, engangimkhethile njengomqondisi wami: kwakulesi sisebenzi esishisekayo ngenxa yenkazimulo kaNkulunkulu nensindiso yemiphefumulo lapho uProvidence efuna ukukhuluma nami, ukuze ngimlandisele ngengaphakathi lami. M. Debregel akazange acabange ukuthi kufanele ukuba ngivume izono kuye, njengoba ngangifisa, ngithi akufanele zivuselelwe njalo; ngakho-ke wenelisa ukungibuza imibuzo efana nalena abona kufanele ukuze abe nombono olungile ngonembeza wami nesimo sami. Wabe esengithwesa icala, futhi ngathola kulendoda engumphostoli ubaba weqiniso, owathatha konke ukunakekela kwakhe wasekela imiklamo ye-Providence, yona ngokwakhe eyangimemezela yona ngendlela engaguquki. Wasebenza njengomqondisi wami kwaze kwaba sekufeni kwakhe,

Lo M. Debregel wayenethonya elikhulu emiqondweni yezindela zase-Urbanist, ayeqondise kuzo inombolo ethile; wangihlongoza ukuba ngingeniswe emphakathini njengenceku yabasebhodini: kwaba

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ngokunembile unyaka wokuqala abavunyelwe ukuba nawo, okusho ukuthi ngo-1752, ngokukhumbula kwami. Ngakho-ke kube ngesincomo sakhe ukuthi ngize lapha, okwesikhashana, ukuze ngikhonze abahlali, okokuqala ngaphandle, ngisalinde isahluko ukuthi sithathe isinqumo nge-akhawunti yami.

Phakathi namasonto ayisithupha ngihlezi ngaphandle, kwakunokukhathazeka okuningi ngaphakathi kimi; kwakubonakala sengathi yonke into yayiphikisana nenjabulo yami. Izindela zahlukene phakathi, ezinye zifuna ukungivuma, ezinye zala futhi zangixosha. Ukwamukela abagibeli, kusho okokugcina, kakade kuwukwephulwa komthetho wethu; ukuvuma omunye umuntu ukubakhonza kungaba ukuchezuka  nakakhulu  kubo.  izahluko ezine noma ezinhlanu

zabanjwa ngokulandelana, futhi ekugcineni kwafinyelelwa esiphethweni sokuthi u-Abbess angangivuma kuphela esimweni sokudlula njengodade.

ngaphezu kwalokho, noma kunalokho njengosizo oluvela kodade lokusebenzela umphakathi wonke. Yilokho kanye engangikufuna, futhi ngabona ngokumangala okujabulisayo ukuthi iNcasakazi Ebusisiwe yayisebenzise zona kanye izithiyo ukukhiqiza umphumela udeveli ayefuna ukuwuvimbela.

Ngemva kwamasonto ayisithupha, wawufaka njengodade ovamile.

Ngakho-ke ngangeniswa ngaphakathi njengoDade ophikisayo; kimi kwaba sengathi ngibona izulu livuleka, ngaqhaqhazela ngenjabulo, ngingabonisi lutho, futhi ngikholelwa ukuthi ngangingeke ngihluleke ukukuzwa, noma ngabe ngangikubone kusengaphambili konke engangiyoba nakho kulokho okwakuzokwenzeka ngemva kwalokho. , futhi zingaki izindlela idemoni okwadingeka lihambe ngazo linyakazisa ukuqina kwami, livimbele ukukhishwa kwezifungo zami, futhi licekele phansi ngokuphelele ubizo lwami, ukube bekusemandleni alo... Ngakho nakhu ekugcineni sengingenile kuleyondlu yenkolo enganginayo. engangikulangazelela kakhulu, futhi esimweni engangisilangazelela kangaka, ukuthi izulu lalingibonise ngezindlela eziningi kusukela ebuntwaneni  .

Okokuqala nje, umuntu angasho kahle ukuthi ngangiyimfundamakhwela ngomqondo ophelele waleli gama: ngisho nangaphambi kokuba ngibe sesikhundleni esiphakeme, ngiwile, ngomqondo ongokomfanekiso, ezweni elisha ngokuphelele, ngangimusha kakhulu, ngimusha kakhulu kubo bonke. amaphuzu, ukuthi amagama asetshenziswa kakhulu enkolweni kwakuyi-algebra kimi. Lapho abantu bekhuluma nami ngengokomoya, ngokucwaninga, noma ngokuzidela, ngokulahla uNkulunkulu.... nge-postulancy, ye-culpe, yokulalela, yokusebenza,  yokuvakashela  . kwe

i-guimpe yayisho ukukhuluma isiGreki noma isiHebheru; Ngangivame ukuphoqeleka ukuthi ngithule, ngezinye izikhathi ngingaphenduli, ngenxa yokwesaba ukulungela ukuhleka ukutolika okungeyikho okungase kwaze kwakha izihlubuki zezindela, ngenxa yokuntuleka kokwazi imigomo efanele yento ngayinye.

Ngezwa amanazaretha ekhuluma ngobizo lwami, angazi ukuthi asho ukuthini; Ngangizoqonda kangcono ukube babekhulume ngokunambitha noma ukuthambekela kokuba nenkolo, noma ngesifiso sokuba ngomunye. Ngolunye usuku I

Ngabuza omunye usisi ukuthi akuphi manje manazaretha. Waphendula wathi basemthandazweni ; Ngangicabanga ukuthi babefunda umthandazo ofana nalowo enganginawo emaHoreni ami; kodwa ngokushesha ngaba nethuba lokubabona lapho; Ngaqaphela ukuthi bonke babeguqe ngamadolo, bengasho lutho, amaningana bevale amehlo, benomoya wokucabanga nokucabanga. SO, Baba, ngangisola ukuthi imiqondo yabo yayigxile kokuthile okubalulekile; ukuthi mhlawumbe babecabanga ngoNkulunkulu; ukuthi babexoxa naye, nokuthi wayekhuluma nabo ngaleso sikhathi, njengoba wayekhulume nami izikhathi eziningi ekuphileni kwami, lapho ngangizithole khona nalapho ngangisazithola ngimatasa kakhulu naye. , ngaphandle kokukwazi ukuziphazamisa kuye noma ukucabanga nganoma yini enye. Ngokungangabazeki, ngazitshela ukuthi  likhona

lokho okubizwa ngokuthi umthandazo. Ngakho ngazahlulela mina ngokwami; ngoba uNkulunkulu naye wayenendlela yakhe yokungenza ngizindle, futhi le ndlela iyona engihlale ngiyilandela. Engangikudinga kwakuyisikhathi (1).

(1) Emva kwakho konke esesikubonile, ngibona sengathi umuntu angaqinisekisa, ngaphandle kokuqina okukhulu, ukuthi akukho noyedwa kulemiphefumulo emihle owenza imikhuleko ibe mikhulu, futhi ibe nenzuzo njengaleyo yale ntombazane empofu eyayingazi ngisho igama lomthandazo: kuyiqiniso kakhulu ukuthi ezindabeni zengokomoya ngaphezu kwakho konke, amagama, izincazelo, indlela, isayensi ayilutho, nokuthi umuzwa wodwa ovezwa uMoya oNgcwele, uyikho konke. Opto magis sente compunctionem quàm scire ejus definitionem. (Kusuka ku-Imitat., isiqephu 1).

Ukushisekela kwakhe imisebenzi enzima kakhulu.

Njengoba ngangijabule kakhulu ngesabelo sami, ngazinikela ngokuphelele ekukhonzeni oDadewethu kanye nomphakathi wonke. Ngaleso sikhathi, I

Angiswelanga amandla namnyakazo, nginganezela, noma umusa kukho konke okwakungumsebenzi wami. Izandla zami zaziqinile, izingalo zami zathambekela emsebenzini onzima wasemaphandleni, nomzimba wami wonke ujwayele ukuvivinya umzimba okubuhlungu. UNkulunkulu uyazi ukuthi sikujabulele kanjani! Ukuphila kwami ​​kwakungakaze kube nzima ukwedlula emphakathini: konke okwakunzima kakhulu ukukwenza kwakubekelwe mina kuphela; futhi, uma kwakukhona ukulalela okunzima, noma umthwalo othize osindayo ukuwuthwala, kungaba egcekeni noma ekhishini, uDadewethu ompofu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu kwakudingeka athathe ingxenye eyodwa noma enye. Ngingasho Baba ukuthi ngaya khona ngokukhululeka okwenza ijaji elilodwa kwaba yintokozo kimi ukubizwa khona.

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Ngokungagculisekile ngokukhulula odade abavamile, kuye ngokuthi ngiya kuphi, nganikela ngazo zonke izinkonzo engangingase ngizenze kumantombazane ekwaya, ayevame ukungisiza: okwakungakabi yisikhathi eside ngaheha isikhathi esinzima, ngoba kwakufanele ngivivinywe. ngezindlela eziningi.

Ushushiso abhekana nalo ngemva kwezinyanga eziyisithupha engenile, luvela kwabanye odadewabo. Ukubekezela kwakhe phakathi nalolu vivinyo olude.

Kwaphela izinyanga eziyisithupha ngijabulela ngalendlela, ngezikhali, uma umuntu engasho, ukuhlonishwa komphakathi wonke, lapho idemoni lisebenzisa umona woSista abathile ukuze livuse isiphepho kimi. lokho bekungaba bengikudinga. Ngikwazi kahle, Baba, ngikutshela ngokuzethemba. UNkulunkulu uyazi ukuthi angizange ngibacasuke ngalokho, nokuthi namuhla ngibacasukele  kancane kunangaphambili. Bonke bafile; ubungabazi, futhi angiyikuqamba namunye wabo. Ngakho-ke angicabangi ukuthi izinhlangano ezisiza abantulayo zingalinyazwa indaba engena ku-akhawunti engikukweleta yona.

Ngakho-ke uNkulunkulu wavumela, Baba wami, ngokungangabazeki ukuba angivivinye, ukuthi odade ababili abavamile, phakathi kwabanye, baba nomhawu omncane ngezinkonzo engangizinikeza.

ngabuyela kumasisizaretha ekwaya, kanye nobungane bonke omanazaretha ngisho no-Abbess ababubonisa ubuhle bami (1). Omunye wabo, phakathi kwabanye, ngaleso sikhathi owayengowokuchitha imali, ngase ngike ngatshelwa ukuthi, wayezibophezele ekuvivinyeni isineke sami nobizo lwami ngaso sonke isikhathi. Uma kunjalo, ngokuqinisekile wayefanelwe ukudunyiswa okukhulu, futhi ngimkweleta izibopho eziningi; ngoba isikhathi eside impela wayezikhulula kahle kakhulu emsebenzini wakhe. Ngemva kokuhlambalaza nosizi, omunye wahamba kwaze kwaba sokushushiswa: Ngangingakaze ngikhulume kahle, noma ngenze kahle; uma ngithule, bekuyihlaya; uma ngasho noma yini ukuze ngizithethelele, kwakuwukuzidla, noma okungenani ukuzethemba; uma ngenze icala lami ngokuvuma iphutha lami, kwakuwukuzenzisa; i kwe

iso elibi futhi kusukela ohlangothini olubi. Ekugcineni, zonke izindela zacishe zangiphikisa ngemva kwesikhashana.

(1) Sengike ngasho ukuthi isikhathi eside kakhulu ukuhlonishwa nokuhlonishwa kwezindelakazi kuye kwaqhubeka kwanda: Manje ngengeza, egameni labo bonke abasaphila, ukuthi, ngaso kanye isikhathi sikhuluma lapha uDade, wayethokozela ukuhlonishwa yibo bonke, ngaphandle kokushiya labo ababemhlukumeza.

Ngokumelene nokuhlaselwa okuningi kangaka kanye nokudumazeka okwakuzolandela ngokwemvelo, nganginokukhanya kwaphezulu kuphela kanye nenduduzo yangaphakathi, njengoba sizobona, okwakungeyona into encane, kanye neseluleko somqondisi wami ohlakaniphile nohloniphekile, owayevame ukufika. ukungibona ukungikhuthaza ukuthi ngibekezele futhi ngikhuthaze ukuthi nginganaki yonke into futhi ngihlupheke

yonke into ngokungaguquki nangokuyeka: engangizama ukukwenza ngenxa yokulalela nangenxa yothando ngoNkulunkulu.

Yadlula kanjalo-ke iminyaka yami emibili ye-postulancy; kodwa, Baba, ngikhohliwe ukuthi kufanele ngikhulume nawe lapha kuphela ngempilo yami yangaphakathi. Ngakho-ke ake sibuyele kukho futhi singabe sisacabanga ngalezi zithiyo ezincane, engikhulume ngazo kuphela nawe mayelana nazo. Ungacabangi ngakho, mina nawe, ngaphandle kokuthandazela labo ababengeyona imbangela kunezinsimbi, futhi nalapho ngaphandle kokukufuna ngokuphelele mhlawumbe, noma okungenani becabanga ukuthi benza into efanele kukho konke lokho. Masiphinde sivume, Baba, ukuthi bengikudinga, nokuthi mhlawumbe uNkulunkulu wakuvumela ngezizathu ezazizongisiza.

Uthandwa ngesipho sobukhona bukaNkulunkulu. Ukuvela kuka-J.-C.

Phakathi naso sonke lesi sikhathi, uBaba wami, ukuzinikela kwami ​​okuncane okumpofu kwahamba kahle ngangokunokwenzeka; naphezu kwazo zonke izinkinga umoya wami owazizwa, ngalahlekelwa ubukhona bukaNkulunkulu kancane ngangokunokwenzeka: ngoba kimi kubonakala sengathi uNkulunkulu wayefuna ukunginxephezela futhi angisekele ngokumelene nokuhlaselwa okwalethwa ngaso sonke isikhathi: ngangingakaze njalo ethandwa yiZulu. Ubukhona bukaNkulunkulu babenza bazwakala kimina phakathi kwemisebenzi ehlakaza kakhulu, futhi ezikhathini eziningi ngangifuna uNkulunkulu ngokuphelele, lapho abantu becabanga ukuthi ngizinikele ngokuphelele emsebenzini wami. Kukangaki ezenza ozwela umphefumulo wami! Kukangaki ekhuluma nenhliziyo yami!

Ngizothini kuwe Baba? futhi uzokholwa yini ukuthi izikhathi eziningana umsindisi wethu othandekayo uJesu Kristu wazivumela ukuba abonwe ngamehlo omzimba, ngikholwa ukuthi ngingakuqinisekisa; ngezinye izikhathi ngesimo somntwana omncane omuhle ngokuphelele, ukungithinta ngezinyembezi zakhe futhi anginqobe ngokumbambatha kwakhe; ngezinye izikhathi ithatha umoya nezwi lensizwa, yayingilandela esitokisini sethu, ingikhumbuza ngalokho eyayingenzele khona, futhi ngezinye izikhathi ingithuka ngenxa yokuntula kwami ​​ukubonga nokwethembeka. Wathi kimi: “Mingaki imiphefumulo esesihogweni, ebingazuza ubungcwele obuphakeme, ukube bengiyinikeze ingxenye yomusa engikuthulule ngayo, futhi engizolandisa ngayo! njll njll »

Ngase ngigcwala ukudideka, ukwesaba nothando, kangangokuthi angibanga nawo amandla okumphendula. Ngakho, ukuze angiqinisekise, wakhuluma nami ngomoya ophansi wobungane obuhle okwabuyisela ukuzethemba kwami; wangitshela, ngokwesibonelo, ukuthi kwakufanele ngiziduduze futhi ngingaphelelwa isibindi; ukuthi angangiquma

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umusa wakhe, ukuthi angeke ahoxise umusa wakhe kimi, uma ngifuna ukumthembisa ukuthi uzothembeka kakhulu esikhathini esizayo...

Amazwi amaningi, imisebe yokukhanya eminingi engangikhanyiselwe ngayo futhi sengathi ngikhungathekile; ukubheka ngakunye kwangena ekujuleni komphefumulo wami: ngididekile futhi ngiphuma kimi, kaningi ngangingazi ukuthi ngiba yini phambi kwakhe. Umahluleli wesikhundla lapho ukuziphatha kwakhe okumangazayo kwangibeka kuso! Ngakolunye uhlangothi ukwesaba inkohliso, ngakolunye ukuthi  ukungathembeki

ukuthuka, kwangifaka enkingeni nasemahloni ngezinye izikhathi okwakubonakala kumnandi. Ingabe nguwe ngempela, Nkulunkulu wami! Ingabe ngolunye usuku ngamtshela ukuthi wakhuluma nami ngendlela ethinta inhliziyo? nguwe, uMsindisi wami noNkulunkulu wami? ngoba uma kunguwe ngicela ungixolele ngokwesaba ukuthi ngizoba inkohliso. Ngakho, uBaba, welula isandla sakhe kimi, ekhuluma nami la mazwi awasho kubaphostoli bakhe, lapho bemthatha njengesipoki ngemva kokuvuka kwakhe: “Ningesabi, yimina. »

Ukuhlolwa kuka-confessor wakhe ukuze aziqinisekise ngeqiniso lalezi zibonakaliso.

Ngolunye usuku, ummeli wami, engazi ukuthi kufanele acabangeni ngakho konke engangimtshele khona ngale mibono ehlukahlukene, wangiyala ukuba ngimbuze okokuqala incazelo yendima ethile engacacile kakhulu yemiBhalo Engcwele. Angizange ngilokothe ​​ngizithathele lo msebenzi ngenxa yokwesaba ukungabi naso isibindi noma inkumbulo eyanele yokukhumbula amazwi. UJesu Kristu wayefuna ukuvala amahloni ami futhi abhekane novivinyo engangilufisa. Woza, ndodakazi yami, wathi kimi lapho esondela kimi, tshela umqondisi wakho ukuthi ingxenye yomBhalo afisa ukuyichaza isho into ethize naleyo, angitshela yona. Le ndima, kunezela uJesu Kristu, yalotshwa esimweni esinjalo, umlobi onjalo owabe esenombono onjalo  engqondweni yakhe  .

umqondisi wami konke okwakushiwo kimi, futhi ngalahlekelwa inkumbulo ngokushesha. Ngikhumbula iqiniso nje lilonke, nokuthi ufakazi wami wangitshela ngaleso sikhathi ukuthi le ncazelo yayimanelisa kakhulu ayengakayiboni noma yikuphi kule ndawo engacacile.

Maye! uBaba, yena lowo ovuma izono wayengenasizathu sokwaneliswa ngomunye umsebenzi engangithweswe wona ukuba ngiwufeze kuye. Kwakuyisiyalo esincane ukuthi kungidle imali eningi ukumazisa, ikakhulukazi njengoba ngabona kusengaphambili ukuthi kufanele amthukuthelise. Nokho, wathola iseluleko sami ngokuzithoba okukhulu entandweni yaphezulu. Yilokho kuphela engikukhumbulayo; ngoba masinyane ngemva kokwenziwa komsebenzi wami, uNkulunkulu waphinda wangiphuca inkumbulo yakho konke ayengiyale ngakho ukuba ngikukhulume kuye. Yilokho kuphela engingakufakazela kulokhu.

Kuyiqiniso, Baba, futhi uNkulunkulu wayengenze ngakuqonda ngokwanele, kwadingeka ngidlule ngokulandelana kokuthula ngiye enkingeni, futhi ngisuke esivunguvungwini ngiye ekuzoleni; kusukela ekukhanyeni kuye ebumnyameni, nokusuka ebumnyameni kuye ekukhanyeni; njengoba ifu eliwugqinsi lingasitha ilanga ngokwalo kuphela, ukukhanya okuthile noma umsebe ongena efwini wanele ukusincenga ngobukhona bawo, naphezu kobumnyama obusithekile emehlweni ethu. Awu! Baba, kufana ncamashi nelanga lemimoya njengelemizimba.

Umehluko phakathi kokusebenza kukaNkulunkulu nokukasathane. Imiphumela yobukhona bukaNkulunkulu emphefumulweni.

Yeka umehluko phakathi kokusebenza kukaNkulunkulu nomsebenzi kadeveli! nokuthi umphefumulo obhekana nazo uzithola uthinteke ngendlela ehlukile lapho usondela komunye nalapho usondela  komunye  ! Lokhu, Baba, yilokho esengivele ngaba  nakho

ukukukhomba izikhathi ezingaphezu kwesisodwa, futhi engingeke ngikwazi ukuyeka ukukutshela okunye okwengeziwe, ngikhuluma ngengaphakathi lami, njengoba ingelosi yobumnyama, njengoba sesichazile, izama kaningi ukungikhohlisa, ngokushintsha ingelosi. yokukhanya. Lapho idemoni lisondela, kuwukungabaza kuphela, izinkathazo, ubumnyama nokwesaba,

ukudangala, njll.; nasi isivunguvungu, kungumsebenzi womoya omubi othwala isiphithiphithi, ukudideka, izinkinga nesihogo yonke indawo.

Ngokuphambene, lapho kunguNkulunkulu osondelayo, umuntu uzizwa ezolile, ezolile ezimnandi, ukuthula okujulile okungavezwa yinkohliso, futhi odumo lwakhe alunakusondelwa ngisho nokusondela; ukukhanya okuthambile nokuphilayo okungena emphefumulweni ngaphandle kokuvinjelwa, kuthwala lapho ukuqiniseka ngobukhona bobuNkulunkulu, futhi kubonakala sengathi kusho ezinkanukweni eziyaluzayo: Thula, nansi iNkosi. Bese kuba khona ukuzola okujulile, ukuthula okungekho okungakuphazamisa, futhi kulokhu kuthula kwezinzwa lapho ukunambitheka nephunga lobunkulunkulu kuzwakala ngaphakathi komphefumulo, kodwa ngendlela engenakwenzeka ukuyinikeza kahle nganoma iyiphi indlela. ukuqhathanisa. Utshwala obuhle kakhulu, i

amakha amahle kakhulu, imibala egqame kakhulu, amakhonsathi amnandi kakhulu awasondeli lutho kuwo, ngoba uNkulunkulu akanabo ubudlelwano nezinzwa zomzimba.

Nokho, siyakuzwa, siyakuthinta, siyakuzwa, siyakuzwa; kodwa konke lokhu kwenzeka ekujuleni komqondo ojulile. UNkulunkulu uhlanganiswe ngokuseduze nomphefumulo; khona-ke ujabulela okuhle kobukhosi, okungokwempahla kaNkulunkulu wakhe.

Kuwukugeleza okuvela epharadesi. Ngitheni? thina ngokwethu siyipharadesi

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ephilayo futhi ephilayo. Umphefumulo uhlala kuNkulunkulu wawo, noNkulunkulu wawo uhlala kuwo; futhi lapha, ngamagama amabili, kukhona yonke intokozo yabangcwele, ngaphandle kwalokho okungenakucatshangwa.

Igama elilodwa elikhulunywa nguNkulunkulu emphefumulweni linezincazelo ezingapheli.

Ngalesi sikhathi esijabulisayo, Baba, umphefumulo uyazinikela ekuthuthweni okwenziwa ukuba khona kukaNkulunkulu wawo uzizwe, othatha wonke amandla awo, ukubahlanganisa ngokuseduze. Yeka ukuphakama kwenjabulo okungatholakali kulokhu kuhlangana okungenakuchazwa kwesidalwa esinalowoMuntu osezingeni eliphakeme oyisimiso saso nesiphetho saso sokugcina, esitholakala kuye ukuba khona kwaso okuphelele nokubusisekile, UKULUNGA kwaso kwaphakade nokunobukhosi  ! Ejabule ngenjabulo kaNkulunkulu wakhe, lo mphefumulo onenhlanhla unikeza indlebe yakhe ekukhulumeni okumnandi kwezwi lakhe elimloyayo; ubhukuda emfuleni we-voluptuousness ehlanzekile, njll.; futhi lapha futhi, Baba, yilapho okufanele uqale khona ukuze uqonde ngokugcwele amazwi engihlale ngiwaphindaphinda kuwena ekulandiseni engikunikeze kona:Ngibona kuNkulunkulu, ngibona ekukhanyeni kukaNkulunkulu, uNkulunkulu wangitshela. UNkulunkulu wangenza ngabona, njll .; ngoba zonke lezi zinkulumo ezehlukene zikhomba ukuthi lokhu engikushoyo kwenzeka kimi ngendlela engingeke ngikwazi ukuyichaza ngenye indlela, kodwa ngendlela eqephuzayo nekholisayo, ukuthi akukho lutho emhlabeni olungaqhathaniswa nobufakazi balo, nokuthi kunzima kokamoya. umuntu ukuthi azikhohlise lapho, njengoba kungenakwenzeka ukuthi umuntu wenyama aqonde noma yini ngakho. Igama elilodwa elishiwo kanjalo elivela kuNkulunkulu linezincazelo ezingapheli, futhi lisho okungenakulinganiswa emphefumulweni olizwayo, kunezinkulumo eziphelele zobuciko bomuntu ezingenza, futhi kunalokho okuyiqiniso ukusho, ukuthi lidlula ngokungenakulinganiswa ulimi lwezingelosi ngokwazo.  I

Ngizokucaphuna, uma uthanda, isici esincane esidlulayo, futhi ngenkathi sifika emqondweni wami (1).

(1) Ngivumele futhi ngibuze ukuthi kungokwemvelo yini, uma kunengqondo ukucabanga ukuthi umphefumulo okhuluma kanjalo ungaba ngaphansi kwenkohliso? Ingabe kukhona okungaphezu kolimi esisanda kuluzwa? Isiziba singayibamba kanjani? Uyise wamanga angamgqugquzela kanjani?... Kodwa ake siqhubeke sizwe  yena.

Ngobunye ubusuku lapho, ngesikhathi sokuqwasha, ngacabanga ngobubele bukaNkulunkulu kimi, leli gama elilodwa, ingane yami , angenze ngalizwa izikhathi eziningi, lase lifika emqondweni wami, futhi ngaleli gama elilodwa kuphela. ukukhanya kokukhanya kwangishaya, futhi nakhu empeleni okungenze ngakuqonda ku-

qwayiza.

Yebo, ndodakazi yami, ungumntwana wami, futhi unjalo ngezindlela eziningi kunoyedwa; bheka lokho engiyikho kuwe, lokho oyikho kowami; bhekani, enginenzele khona ngohlelo lwemvelo njengangomusa; ukuthi ulubize kangakanani uthando lwami, futhi wahlulele ngalokho ukuthi kufanele uthandeke kangakanani enhliziyweni yami; khumbula izinzuzo zokudalwa kwakho, ukuhlengwa kwakho, ukumiselwa kwakho kusengaphambili; ukhumbule umusa wokuzijwayeza, engikuxwayise ngakho, futhi ungitshele ukuthi nginalo yini ilungelo lokukubiza ngengane yami? ngitshele uma inhliziyo yami inamalungelo ngeyakho, futhi uma ingakhononda ngokunganaki kwakho? Ah! ungakungabazi, uBaba akakaze abe namalungelo afana nawami, futhi akakaze umntwana abe nezibopho ezingcwele noma ezibaluleke kakhulu kunezakho kimi  .

Yebo, ndodakazi yami, ungumntwana wami, futhi nakhu engikufuna ukubonga kwakho ngazo zonke izinzuzo zami; luthando lwami oluzonibekela  umthetho, niwulalelisise ukuze ningaphambuki kuwo. Ngifuna ukuthi uvumelanise intando yakho nentando yami kukho konke, ukuze ungabe usenza intando eyodwa futhi efanayo, ngoba umntwana kufanele afune lokho okufunwa nguYise kuphela. Ngendlela efanayo, ngifuna ukuthi uvale uthando lwakho othandweni lwami, wenze uthando olulodwa kuphela futhi olufanayo, futhi olungenalo phakathi, ngaphandle kokuhlukana nangaphandle  .

akukho ukugodla, njengoba inhliziyo yengane ihlanganiswe eduze naleyo yababhali bobukhona bayo; abameqa ngokunaka, ukunakekela okulangazela kanye nazo zonke izinhlobo zezinzuzo.

Kudingekile, ndodakazi yami, ukuthi unginikele konke uzifunele wena kanye nokuzithanda kwakho, uthando lwasemhlabeni, konke kubuyele esidalweni, ukuze ungafuni nokuthanda lutho emhlabeni ngaphandle kwami, kimi, futhi ngenxa yami Yilokhu okubizwa ngentombazane yangempela esabela ngokugcwele leli gama elihle, futhi nalokhu engifuna ukukuzwa ngaleli gama.

ingane engikunikeze yona izikhathi eziningi, nokuthi kufanele usebenzele ukuyifanelekela kakhulu kunangaphambili, ngobumnene, ubulula, ukuqashelwa kwengane, isisa, ukuzithoba kanye nothando olunothando, okufanele likubuyisele ngokufaneleka ngokwengeziwe.

Konke lokhu, uBaba, nokunye okuningi, kwafakwa kulowo msebe omncane wokukhanya owangikhanyisela ngokuphazima kweso, egameni elilodwa elithi “umntwana” elafika kuqala engqondweni yami; kodwa konke lokhu kwethulwa kimi, futhi njengoba kwanyatheliswa, ngokucacile nokujula okwangenza ngakubona ngazo zonke izindlela. Ah! Baba, yeka ukuthi ubugagu bomuntu bubuthakathaka futhi buncane kangakanani uma kuqhathaniswa! Ukuthi akanawo amandla okunikeza lokho uNkulunkulu akwenza kubonakale ngokucwayiza kanye nje emphefumulweni onenjabulo yokuba nakho.

! Ake siyihlehlise, ngiyacela, ukuqhubeka kuze kube yilolu suku kusihlwa, ngemva kokuba usubalandile isikhundla saphezulu.

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Umsebenzi kadade wokuzinikela. Ukukhangwa kwakhe ekuthobekeni, ukulahlwa kanye nokuzisola.

“Egameni likaBaba, njll. »

UBaba wami, ngaphandle kwalokhu kusebenza okuqhubekayo kobukhona bukaNkulunkulu, ngenza imikhuleko yami yakusihlwa neyasekuseni ngokunemba okukhulu ngangokunokwenzeka. Nakuba ngangiya kakhulu ekuvumeni izono masonto onke, kodwa ngangixhumana njalo, ngokweseluleko somqondisi wami. UMadame u-Abbess wayenomusa kimina angibonisa wona ezimpini eziyinkulungwane, ngaphezu kwakho konke ngenkululeko ephelele nephelele wangishiya ngokunganaki mayelana nakho konke okuphathelene nokuzinikela kwami.

Umbono engangiwuzwe ekuqaleni, futhi owawunginqumele ngokuphelele, wawungumbono owawulokhu ungiholela ekuzithobeni, ekuzilahleni, ekuphendukeni. Ngokuqhubekayo ngezwa ngicindezelwa ukuba ngidele kakhulu umhlaba, isono kanye nami. Ngafuna wonke amathuba ukuze nganelise uNkulunkulu ngokusebenzisa izinzwa ezidabukisayo. UGrace ungenze ngasebenzisa izindlela eziningi kulokhu, ezinye zazo abaqondisi bami abake bangiphuca zona: bekungeke kube usizo ukuchaza imininingwane.

Eminyakeni yami emibili ye-postulancy idemoni lalingishiye ngedwa impela. Ngangiqeqeshwe abantu abambalwa kuphela endlini; futhi uNkulunkulu, njengoba sesibonile, wayeqikelele ukungisekela nokungiduduza yedwa. Akuzange kuvele njalo ngokulandelana, lapho ukulwa kwakunzima nakakhulu futhi kuhluke ngokuphelele.

Ngemuva kweminyaka yakhe emibili ye-postulancy, ubumpofu bakhe obukhulu buyisithiyo ekwamukelweni kwakhe. Izinhlungu zakhe nemizamo yakhe yokuphumelela.

Isikhathi sokushiya ingubo yekhulu leminyaka sithathe eyenkolo sase sisondela, futhi lendlela yavusa isiphepho sohlobo olusha. Okokuqala, ukuze ngiqale i-novitiate yami, kwakudingeka nginikeze isamba esingamaphawundi angama-300. Ngacelwa bona, futhi nganginamakhilogremu angu-6 kuphela, ngingenathemba lokuthi ngiyoke ngibe nangaphezulu. Lesi sithiyo sokuqala, ebesiyobonakala sisincane kwabanye abaningi, besisikhulu maqondana nami, futhi singakwazi ngokwaso ukuphazamisa yonke into; ngoba phela zazidingeka, futhi zingazitholaphi? Bangivumela nokho, futhi yilokho kuphela ababenganginika khona, ukuba ngivakashele iJanson Chapel, ukuze ngizame ukuthi endaweni engazalelwa kuyo yayingekho yini imiphefumulo enikela ngokwanele futhi ikhululeke ukungisiza nganoma yini. Ukusesha kwami ​​bekungenamsebenzi. futhi ngakhathala kakhulu ngeze. Zonke izihlobo zami zazimpofu njengami; umfundisi wethu wayekhiphe ama-akhawunti akhe, futhi i-inventory yayinganele ukuyikhokhela izindleko zomthetho futhi usinikeze izidingo zokuphila. Imisebenzi yami yagcina iphumele ekubeni ngiveze ingozi yokugcina engayithola emhlabeni  .

Lapho ngibuya endaweni yakithi, ngahlaselwa indoda edakiwe, yakhuluma amazwi amabi kimi, okwakumelwe ngizivikele kuyo. Ukwesaba, kanye nemizwa enamandla okwangibangela yona, kwanginika umkhuhlane, nokwanda kokunengeka ngezwe elinginikeza izingozi kuphela ngaphandle kwenduduzo noma insiza. Yikho konke lokhu engakubuyisela emphakathini ngesikhathi ngibuya ukugula, ngemva kwezinsuku ezintathu ngihambile.

Kumelwe kuvunywe, Baba, ukuthi isikhundla sami sasidabukisa kakhulu, futhi isiphetho sami sasingaqiniseki neze, okungenani sicabangela ngasohlangothini lwezinto zomuntu kuphela. Umphakathi ngokwawo wawudinga usizo, futhi ngabona, ngaphandle kokwesaba okukhulu, abaphololo, abacebile kakhulu uma beqhathaniswa nami, bezethula ukuze bathathe indawo yami, namalobolo amaningi. Yeka ukwesaba

! usizi olungaka! Ngangiyokujabulela ukuya endlini ngendlu ukuze ngithakasele isihawu sezakhamuzi zaseFougères, ukuba zazifuna ukungivumela ukuba ngenze kanjalo, ngizame ukuthola kubo okwanele ukuze ngivunyelwe ukuba ngiwuthathe lomkhuba.

Uphendukela kuMariya, ekugcineni avunyelwe ku-novitiate, futhi athathe igama likaSister of the Nativity.

Ngokungazi, njengoba besho, ukuthi kukuphi ongcwele okufanele ngizinikele kuye, ngakhuluma nabaphathi bebhodi, ngibancenga ngomusa ukuba bangincome kubazali babo; kodwa angazi ukuthi kungani, ngemva kokuxoxa ngakho phakathi kwabo, baphendula ngokuthi babengathathi lutho futhi babengangitholi lutho. Yeka usizi! Ngazibona njalo ngosuku olwandulela ukuxoshwa, futhi kakade kwase kunenkulumo yokungibeka ekhaya lomhlalaphansi njengenceku  ! Ngangikhala ubusuku nemini, ngingaphumuli futhi  ngingaduduzeki.

Uzoba yini  ? Ngizibone ngilahliwe yibo bonke, ngaphendukela  kuye

UNkulunkulu, ngilandela umkhuba wami wokuthola kuye lokho engangingasenakukwazi ukuzithembisa kona ngezinto zomuntu, futhi ngaphinde ngazama ukuthakazelisa uMama waphezulu kaJ. nokho ukuthi wayeyikho ngempela, njengoba ebonise yonke imizwa nakho konke ukungikhathalela.

Ngakho ngaphinda ngayincenga iNcasakazi eBusisiwe ukuba ingikhiphe kulesi simo esibi, noma, uma uthanda kangcono, kulesi simo esingesihle. Ngamthembisa ukuthi uma efuna ukungitholela ukungena

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ukuthatha lo mkhuba, ngangishisa ikhandlela futhi ngenze imisa phambi kwesithombe sakhe sikaSaint-Sulpice, lapho ngenza khona izifungo zami zokuqala; ukuthi ngithathe umkhuba wezindela ngaphansi kwesisekelo sawo, kanye nomkhosi wokuZalwa kwegama lami lenkolo, ngokushesha ngemva kwalokho kwenzeka.

Akuzange kwenzeke kimi ukuthi ngikhulume neNcasakazi eBusisiwe ekucindezelekeni okungaka ngaphandle kokuthola ithemba nempumuzo ngasikhathi sinye. Ngemva kwalomthandazo, owangiduduza kakhulu, ngahamba ngayofuna uMama wethu; ngaleso sikhathi kwaba uMama oNgcwele uJoachim, futhi ngamncenga ukuba angibeke esahlukweni ukuze banqume isiphetho sami. umama wethu wayengithanda

ngobuqotho, futhi ubengeke angilahle ngeso elingenandaba. Ungangijahi, wangitshela; kufika umbono kimi: Ngifuna ukuthatha isikhathi sami nesami

izinyathelo; shiya kimi, ngizokwenza konke ukukugcina, uqiniseke ngakho. Ngakho nganquma ukulinda, ngethemba futhi ngithandaze, ngoba kakade ngangingadikibali lutho.

Ekugcineni uMadame the Abbess wahlanganisa lesi sahluko ngesikhathi sami, lapho, ngokunakekela kwakhe noma ngenye indlela, konke kwahamba ukuze, naphezu kwezithembiso eziningi zama-postulants acebile, naphezu kweseluleko sezindelakazi ngobuningi, ngathola injabulo yokuwina. . Ngangeniswa ku-novitiate, ngaphandle kokulobola, nangesiqu sodwa sobumpofu, okwakungeyona neze inkohliso noma ukucabanga. Ngakho ekugcineni ngathatha umkhuba ongcwele wenkolo, onegama likaDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu, ebengilokhu ngiwugqoka kusukela ngaleso sikhathi. Ah! Dadewethu ompofu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu, zingaki izimpi okusafanele uzibambe kanye nezingozi okufanele uzesabe ngensindiso yakho nokungcweliswa kwakho! Ungalindeli ukuthi idemoni lizokushiya  wedwa isikhathi eside kulesi simo esisha osanda kusamukela futhi obekuyinto oyisebenzele isikhathi eside kangaka  !

Isilingo esinobudlova sikadeveli ngokumelene nobizo lwakhe.

Kanjalo ukuzola kwaphumelela futhi esiphephweni Esinamandla; kodwa ngeshwa ! kwakuwukuvula indlela yengxabano eyayithukuthele kakhulu kunayo yonke yesikhathi esidlule; ngokuba, njengoba nginitshele izikhathi eziningi kangaka, ukuphila kwami ​​okumpofu kuze kube manje akubanga lutho ngaphandle kokulandelana kwezinhlungu nomunyu, kwenduduzo nosizi, kwenjabulo nokudabuka, kobumnyama nezinkanyiso, izilingo nomusa  . Kwangathi lingajabulisa iZulu, Baba, isiphetho makube okungenani sizolile futhi sizolile!

Idemoni, okwase kuyisikhathi eside lisebenzise izindlela zangaphandle kuphela ukuze lingiphazamise, labuyela ekuhlaseleni kwalo kokuqala. Izinyanga ezimbalwa ngangijabulela injabulo yokwembathiswa umkhuba ongcwele engangiwufisa, lapho evusa kimi ukunambitheka kwezwe engangilishiyile, kanye nezinkanuko engangizilahlile, ngisho nangaphambi kokuba ngingene. enkolweni Waphinda wangiphinda ngokusobala ukuthi njengoba ngangingazange ngibizelwe isimo esingcwele kangaka, lapho ngingena kuso, ngangithathe izinyathelo zokungahlakaniphi kakhulu futhi eziyingozi kakhulu esikhathini esizayo. izifungo, ngokusobala ngizodalula insindiso yami yaphakade; ukuthi lezi zifungo zokuxhamazela ezenziwa ngokumelene nentando kaNkulunkulu, ziyoba umthombo wami wokuphenduka, futhi ngizokhonza kuphela ukuze bangenze ngibe necala kakhulu, nokuthi ngokuqinisekile babeyoba yisizathu sokulahlwa kwami; ukuthi kwakufanele sicabange ngakho isikhathi sisekhona; ukuthi kwakungcono izikhathi eziyinkulungwane ukwedelela inhlonipho yomuntu ngokushiya umphakathi, kunokuzenza ungajabuli lapho unomphela ngokuzilungisa lapho ngokungaphenduki, njll., njll.

Le micabango enonya yangiphazamisa futhi yangicasula kakhulu kangangokuthi ngalahlekelwa ngokuphelele ukuthula nokuphumula kwami; akusekho ukuthula, ubuthongo abuzange buphazanyiswe amaphupho asabekayo. Ngangicabanga, ngangikhala, ngangikhuleka; ekugcineni, ngicishe nganqotshwa yilezi zinkathazo zasemhlabeni, ngacabanga ukuhoxa futhi ngiyeke. Ngolunye usuku lapho, ngixakeke ngokuphelele ngalezi zinxushunxushu ezidabukisayo nezikhungathekisayo, ngidlula phambi kwebandla, ngezwa ngokusobala kakhulu izwi elabonakala kimina liphuma ekujuleni kwendlu engcwele, futhi lathi kimi: Heyi ! ndodakazi yami, ungathanda ukungishiya? Cha, ngeke ungibalekele!

Leli zwi, engalibona njengelika-J.-C. uqobo, langigcwalisa ngokudideka lapho ngisembulela ugibe lwesitha sami, futhi isilingo sashabalala. Cha, Nkosi yami, Nkulunkulu wami, ngaphendula masinyane ngathi: Cha, nkosi yami enguNkulunkulu othandekayo, angiyikukushiya: uyasazi isifiso enginaso sokukukhetha ube yisabelo sami nokuba ngesakho ngokuphelele kuze kube phakade.

Ukuze ngiqiniseke ngokwengeziwe ngonembeza wami, ngahamba ngayofuna umqondisi wami, ngaleso sikhathi owayenguM. Duclos ongasekho. Wayengigqokise umkhuba ongcwele wenkolo. Ngakhuluma naye ngesilingo engangisizwile, waphumelela ukungiqinisa idolo futhi wasichitha. Ungagcini lapho, wangitshela, futhi ungatsheli muntu. Ukudikibala kwakho kungavela kudeveli kuphela; woza, Dadewethu, udelele isitha sakho; Okudingekayo kulokho yisibindi esincane: ngiphendula ubizo lwakho  (1).

(1) Lapho uDade ekhuluma nami ngalendlela, kwase kuyiminyaka emihlanu noma eyisithupha uM. Duclos ashona edolobheni laseParrigné, amaqembu amabili eqembu laseFougères. Ngaleso sikhathi wayeneminyaka engamashumi ayisikhombisa nanye ubudala, futhi wayesephathe lesi sifunda okungenani iminyaka engamashumi amabili. Kwase kuyiminyaka eyisishiyagalombili ngingumshumayeli wakhe wokugcina, futhi wafa ezandleni zami. Wayevame ukukhuluma nami ngezindela zase-Urbanist ayeziqondise isikhathi eside ngaphambi kokuba abe umfundisi, futhi phakathi kwabanye uDade wangibiza ngokuthi Ukuzalwa KukaJesu, njengentombazane engavamile ngenxa yokuqina kobuhle bayo, nango izibani uNkulunkulu ayemnike zona. Wangicaphuna ezinye izici zezambulo zakhe, ezasusa uthuthuva, futhi engazithola zihambisana ncamashi nendaba uDade anginike yona kusukela ngaleso sikhathi. Akukhona yena noma mina eyaziwayo.

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Ukuhlasela okwesabekayo okulethwe kuye idemoni ngesikhathi somsebenzi wakhe.

Kusukela ngaleso sikhathi, uBaba wami, idemoni labonakala lididekile futhi langishiya ngedwa impela, kwaze kwaba umzuzu wokwenza izifungo zami, lapho ebuyela ecaleni ngokufutheka okukhulu kunanini ngaphambili, futhi langinikeza ukuhlasela okunolaka okukhulu engangiphinde ngabhekana nakho. yena; ukuhlasela okungabalwa kalula phakathi kwezici zempilo yami abaningi abangeke bakholwe, nokuthi bazozithatha njengenye yezinto eziwubukhazikhazi abazozibiza ngezithelo noma ukuduka komcabango wami. Nokho basakuthatha lapha, nali iqiniso njengoba kwenzeka phambi kwamehlo ami:

Ngenkathi, ngokulandela umkhosi womsebenzi, omama

ngiholwa kusukela phansi kweqembu lomculo kuya phezulu, ukwemukela lapho iveyili, umqhele wameva, njll., njll., nokumemezela izifungo zami ezinkulu lapho, ngabona phambi kwami ​​ingwevu, inunu eyesabekayo esimo sayo sasithatha kakhulu. kusukela kwelebhere, nakuba lalisesabekayo kakhulu. Wakhuphuka ngokunqoba ekwayeni, ephendukela kimi ngezikhathi ezithile, ngendlela enyanyekayo kanye nengahloniphiyo; wayebonakala engcolile kangangokuthi wayesabisa umcabango wami. Wanginika ukuqonda ukuthi kwakungenxa yakhe yedwa ukuthi ngangizokwenza izifungo zami; ukuthi yonke inzuzo yayizonqwabelana kuye, nokuthi uma nginesibindi sokuthatha lesi sinyathelo sokugcina, ngeke lisaba khona ithemba lensindiso yami, njengoba izulu lalizongishiya phakade emandleni alo, njll., njll. , njll

Yahlulela, Baba wami, uma, enkathini ebucayi kangaka, lapho umuntu engakwazi ukuba yedwa, kufanele ngabe ngishaywe futhi nganyakaziswa yilombono ongavamile? Ngabe ngabe kwenzekani kimi, ngiyakubuza, ukube uNkulunkulu ubengakabi nawo umusa wokungisiza ngalesi sikhathi esibi, noma ukube usizo belungalingani nomusa kanye nesimo sokuhlasela? Ngakho-ke ngaphinde ngabalekela kuye yedwa futhi kule ngozi ecindezelayo, futhi wavumela wona kanye amazwi omkhosi ukuba anginike izikhali engangizidinga ukuze ngishaye isitha sami futhi ngizuze ukunqoba okuphelele phezu kwaso.

Njengoba ikhwaya iphakama, umkhosi ubeka ama-genuflection amathathu, ngayinye lapho ikhwaya icula amagama aqala ngoSuscipe ... , futhi incazelo yayo, engangiyifunde kahle, ithi: Yamukela, Nkosi, ukuzinikela kanye nokunikezela kwakho. sidalwa, futhi ungangivumeli ukuba ngidideke, ngoba kukuwe wedwa lapho ngibeka lonke ithemba lami. Incazelo yala mazwi amahle ayizange ifike ngokufaneleka ngokwengeziwe kuzo zonke izici.

UNkulunkulu neBandla bakufaka emlonyeni wami, kanjalo nokukhuluma esandleni sami, futhi ngazisebenzisa njengesikhali esihlaselayo nesivikelayo, engasigwaza ngaso isitha sami ngaleso sikhathi lapho sizincoma ngokunqoba, nalapho sihlasela khona. wanqoba ngokudelela okwengeziwe.

Ngakho ngawasho kathathu ngobuqotho benhliziyo yami, okungenani njengokwesaba engangikushiye ngikhululekile ukwenza kanjalo, futhi kathathu ngakhipha kubo amandla angaphakathi enganginomuzwa wokuthi ayelokhu anda njalo. Nkulunkulu wami, ngithe, ungangididili, ngokuba nginethemba

WENA. Thola, ngiyakuvusa, ukuhlonishwa kwezifiso zami kanye nomuntu wami! Ngikuthatha njengesabelo sami kuphela, futhi kukuwe wedwa lapho ngizinikela khona futhi engifuna ukuba khona isikhathi naphakade....

Kakade isilo sasesinyamalele ngomoya osabekayo nononya. Kepha ukwesaba kwami ​​​​kwakusele, futhi kwabonakala kuphindaphindeka njengoba isikhathi sisondela. Ngafika phezulu ekwayeni, ngenza umzamo kimina, futhi ngazimisela ukuba nethemba ngokumelene nalo lonke ithemba, uma kudingekile. Ngaziphonsa emadolweni nasezinyaweni zika-Abbess, ukuze ngimthembise ukulalela njengo-J.-C. ngokwakhe, futhi kusukela ngaleso sikhathi ngadlula esihogweni ngaya ezulwini. Ukuzola okujulile kwaphumelela isivunguvungu esasithukuthele kakhulu, futhi u-J.C. wezwa ekujuleni kwenhliziyo yami lawa mazwi aduduzayo aqeda yonke inkathazo nayo yonke isiyaluyalu: “Ngiyakwamukela, ndodakazi yami, ukuhlonishwa kwezifiso zakho kanye nentando yakho. umuntu; thembeka kimi ungesabi, ngizokwazi ukukuvikela ezitheni zakho. Yimi ongithathele ukwabelana kwakho, futhi yimina, uma usabela obizweni lwakho, oyoba isabelo sakho esikhathini naphakade. »

Kwake kwaba kanye, Baba, ngacabanga ukuthi injabulo yami isiqinisekisiwe, futhi kulokho ngangisazincoma kakhulu. Ngaleso sikhathi, ngazizwa ngijabule futhi ngizolile kangangokuthi ngangingalokotha ngiphikisane naso sonke isihogo. Bekungaba ukugabadela, futhi u-J.-C. akafuni ukuba sithembele kithi ngokwethu. Inunu, engangingasesabi, yayixakwe wusizo olulodwa lwezulu, kuyiqiniso; wayesebalekile ngisho; kodwa akubanga isikhathi eside, futhi nganginakho

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ziningi izimpi okusamele zilwe, maningi amaphutha okumele abekezelele kuye. Sizokhuluma ngalokho ngesinye isikhathi.

Umusa ongajwayelekile uthola ku-J.-C. Injabulo yakhe nezinto azijabulisayo.

“Egameni likaBaba, njll. »

Ekugcineni, Baba, izifungo zami eziqinile zenziwa, umsebenzi wami wenziwe, naphezu kwayo yonke imizamo yesihogo; Ekugcineni ngaba yindela kuze kube phakade, futhi u-J.-C. akabanga isikhathi eside ekungiboniseni ukwaneliseka kwakhe ngokuthanda izinto ezintsha ngokuphelele nezilinganiselayo; ngitheni? iphakeme kakhulu kunanoma yini engangimenzele yona. Ngike ngabizwa ezinyangeni ezimbalwa ngaphambi kokuba akhulume nami ngomusa nomusa ochichima kakhulu kunakuqala, futhi okwaba njengokujwayelekile kwaze kwaba yileso sikhathi, uzokholwa yini, Baba? imiphumela. Angilokothi ngikusho, ngenxa yokwesaba ukuthi zonke izinto ezibaluleke kakhulu engikwenze ukuba uzibhale zizobalelwa ebugqilini; ngokuba, Baba,

Ubungasho ukuthi uNkulunkulu ubophekile ukuba ame lapho, angabe esaqhubeka. Besekelwa isizathu esikhohlisayo njengoba sibuthakathaka, balokotha, ngomqondo ongokomfanekiso, ukumlandelela umugqa lapho, ngokusho kwabo, angakwazi ukuphambuka kuwo, futhi enqabe ngokuziqhenya nangokudelela, njengokungafaneleki kuye, konke akwenzayo. abavumelani nendlela yabo yokubona nokwahlulela. Mabazi, laba abanesibindi, ukuthi uNkulunkulu akanandaba nabo, nokuthi kungakhathaliseki ukuthi imiqondo yabo emincane kangakanani, wenza lokho okumjabulisayo, futhi ngendlela ayibona ifaneleka ngayo, ngenxa yenkazimulo yakhe siqu futhi sawubona kubo bonke abafuna ukwamukela  . inzuzo yayo...

Okokuqala, uBaba wami, u-J.-C. wangixhumanisa futhi wangenza ngathola ukukhanya okungavamile ngezinye izikhathi kuze kufike ngisho nasekukhipheni ukuncishwa ukusetshenziswa kwezinzwa, ukuhlwithwa, injabulo... Ngemva komsebenzi wami, angizange ngibe wenza iSidlo ngaphandle kokuzwa into efanayo. Insimbi yayikhala eduze kwami; sasicula; zangena izindela

ikhwaya, noma ngiphume kuyo, ngingayiboni nakancane. Ngahlwithwa kuNkulunkulu, kodwa ngisesendaweni yami, nginganyakazi futhi ngingenamizwa. Lapho ngibuyela kimi, ngangingakhumbuli njalo okwenzeka ngaphakathi kimi. Nazi, nokho, izici ezimbalwa engizikhumbule ngokucace kakhulu, futhi engizokutshela ngazo: ngakho-ke singacabanga ngazo zonke esizifunayo. Ekunikezeni lokhu kulandisa, ngisazolalela kuphela umyalo engiwutholile.

Uzithola esefana nengane encane egonelwe nguJ.-C.

Isikhathi sokuqala ukwenzeka into enje kimi kwakusesidlo, izinyanga ezine noma ezinhlanu ngemva kwezifungo zami eziqinile. Yeka ukumangala okujabulisayo, lapho ngiphakathi kokukhanya okugqamile nokunabile ngokwengeziwe, nalapho ubukhona bukaNkulunkulu buzenza babonakala kakhulu kunanini ngaphambili, ngazithola ngisesimo somntwana omncane ezingalweni zikaJ. , owayengazisa. Ngangisongwe ngamanabukeni, ngingenamandla, nginganyakazi; konke enganginakho ngaphezu kwezingane ezivamile kwakuwukuhlakanipha ukwazi umzuzi wami, kanye nesifiso sokumthanda, ukumbonga, ngaphandle kokukwazi ukwenza kanjalo ngobuthakathaka kakhulu. Ngikhumbula ukuthi wathi kimi lapho engiphulula: "Kunjalo, mtanami, ukuthi ukunakekela kwami ​​​​kuhlale kubhekile ukugcinwa kwakho, nokuthi ubulokhu usezandleni zothando lwami." Ngoba,

Ngakho-ke ngifuna, ndodakazi yami, qhubeka, ukuphendula ekunakekelweni kobubele bami, ukuthi, njengengane encane oyimele njengamanje, uvumelane nakho konke ngentando yami engcwele, ukwenza futhi ufuna kuphela lokho engizokufuna  .  yakho  .” Emva kwalokho, Baba, ngabuyiselwa kimi  futhi

ifomu lami elijwayelekile. Lesi sici kanye nezinye eziningi ezinjengaso kwakhumbuleka ngokucacile engqondweni yami lapho siqala ukubhala izambulo zami. J.-C. uthi kimi: Manje sekuyindodakazi yami, okumelwe ube sesimweni somntwana omncane, lowo, kude nokuletha noma yikuphi ukuphikiswa kwentando kanina, evumelana nayo ngaphandle kokuyiqonda. Lesi yisimo engisidinga kini.

Kwesinye isibonakaliso sika-J.-C., ufuna ngenxa yothando ukuba angene ezingalweni zakhe. Uzizwa enyanya. Amazwi awezwayo.

Esimeni esinjalo u-J.-C. wabonakala kimi: Ngajabula kakhulu ukumbona kangangokuthi ngangabaza phakathi kothando nenhlonipho. Ngezinye izikhathi ngangiguqa ezinyaweni zakhe ukuze ngimkhonze, futhi ngezinye izikhathi, ngingasakwazi ukumelana nokulangazelela kwami, ngangiziphonsa ezingalweni zakhe; kodwa ngazithola ngilokhu ngixosha esifubeni sayo, okwavele kwavutha isifiso engangishise ngaso ukuthi ngifinyelele kuyo ngiphumule khona. Ngenza umzamo ofanayo izikhathi eziningana futhi njalo kwaba yize. Kusenjalo kwezwakala izwi elikhulu kimi elingathi elomoya obusisiwe: Asikafiki isikhathi, wakhala kimi, lezi zomusa zithengwa kuphela ngezinsizi neziphambano ezihlushwa uthando lwakhe. Ngakho-ke ngazivalela ekuzifiseni, njengokuphela kwendlela yokujabula, futhi nami

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kwaba lula kimi, futhi kanjalo ukukhuluma ezandleni zami; ukuthi noma ngasiphi isikhathi ngingakwazi ukukusebenzisa futhi ngikusebenzise; ngoba, uyini umuntu emhlabeni ongenalo ithuba lokuhlupheka okuthile ngenxa yothando luka-J.-C.? futhi yiluphi usuku lwempilo yethu olungasiniki izindlela eziyinkulungwane zokuqhubekela phambili kanjalo emiseni yakhe emihle, futhi sithuthuke kulolo thando olungcwele olulodwa olungasenza sijabule isikhathi naphakade!...

Ubike umusa awuthola ku-J.-C. kwi-Ekaristi Engcwele.

Ngaphezu kwakho konke, Baba, mayelana ne-Ekaristi elingcwele nelithandekayo, uNkulunkulu abehlale enginika lona ukuzinikela okuzwela kakhulu, ukuthi kwenzeke izinto ezimangalisa kakhulu kimi, ngalokhu kukhanya kwaphezulu futhi okungavamile kakhulu esinakho  . wakhuluma kakhulu. Kumele nginazise ngakho, nginikhumbuze ezinye zezici eziyinhloko eziye zafana nomthombo kanye nemvelaphi yezibani eziningi, futhi ngesikhathi lapho ngazi khona izinto eziningi osuvele uzibhalile ukuze uzibhale. .

Lokhu kuhlangana kothando, uma umuntu engasho njalo, lokhu kujwayelana okuseduze nenkosi yami yobuNkulunkulu, uMsindisi wami noNkulunkulu wami, kwaqala ngosuku luka-Augustine oNgcwele, lapho ngiyokhonza u-J.-C. eSakramenteni Elingcwele. imizuzu embalwa. Kwaba, uma ngikhumbula kahle, okungenani eminyakeni emithathu noma emine ngemva komsebenzi wami. Kwangihlaba umxhwele kakhulu ukuba khona kwangempela kuka-J.-C., kwiSidlo saphezulu, kangangokuthi umuntu ubengasho ngaleso sikhathi ukuthi ubuqiniso balobu bukhona bungilandela yonke indawo, futhi yonke indawo bangenza ngazi ngokubhujiswa kukaNkulunkulu wami kule mfihlakalo. .iyathandeka. O uma labo abakungabazayo, uma abangakholwa abakuphikayo futhi behlambalaza, bengathola umusa onjalo; uma izinkanuko zabo, ukungakholwa kwabo, ukholo lwabo olubi, ubumpumputhe babo bangamabomu, ububi babo, bungabeki izithiyo lapho!... Kodwa ngeshwa!. UNkulunkulu ungumnikazi wezipho zakhe, futhi abangamhloniphi abazenzi nikela

abangafaneleki: ngakho-ke kukhona uNkulunkulu ofihlelwe kabili!....

Umqondo wami kanye nenhliziyo yami kwakuhlala kuqondiswe eSakramenteni eliNgcwele; Ngangihlale ngikubona, okungenani ngamehlo okholo, futhi ngendlela engenakuchazwa kahle, ngenxa yokuntula iziqhathaniso ezinikeza umbono oqondile ngakho.

Izikhathi eziyinkulungwane, futhi ikakhulukazi phakathi noMhlatshelo Ongcwele WeMisa, ngacabanga ukuthi ngabona uJ.

amehlo omzimba, ngingasho ukuthi ngawubona ngempela. Ekuphakameni kwezinhlobo ezingcwelisiwe, kimi kwakubonakala sengathi kusezandleni zompristi, kuzungezwe imbulunga yokukhanya, futhi konke kucwebezela ngenkazimulo nobukhosi. Ilanga alikhanyi kangako ngobuhle balo. Ngase ngimbona elele e-altare, esesimweni sokushiswa, efakaza kwabaningi ukulangazelela kwakhe ukwamukelwa kubo ngeSidlo esiNgcwele, nokunengeka kwakhe ukungena ezinhliziyweni zabanye.

Uthando lwakhe no-J.-C.

Ngabona itabernakele elingcwele izikhathi eziningana njengeziko lothando, uJ.-

C. phakathi kwawo amalangabi acwenge kakhulu angivumele ngibone ingane encane enobuhle obudlangile, ihlezi phezu kwezinhlobo ezigcinwa lapho, futhi eyayisebenza njengeveli elingekho emthethweni, elalimboza umzimba wakhe othandekayo futhi lithulisa ukukhazimula kobukhosi bakhe. ... Ngambona, ngamuzwa, walula izandla zakhe kimi wangibiza kuye. Yahlulela lokho okumelwe ukuba kwakuyimisebenzi yezifiso zami!

Kulapha, wangitshela, ukuthi ngiyisithunjwa sothando lwami!... Umpristi kanye nesisulu ngesikhathi esifanayo, kulapha lapho ngisagculisa khona ubulungisa bukaBaba wami waphezulu, futhi ukuthi ngisahlabela nsuku  zonke ukusindiswa kwabo bonke. Kulapha lapho ngilindele zonke izinhliziyo ukuba ngizihlabe kanye nami, ngizishise ngamalangabi angidlayo... Woza ndodakazi yami, woza uzihlanganise nenhliziyo yami engcwele ukuhlonipha umbhali wakho njengoba efanelwe ukuhlonishwa. ukuba!...  Sheshisa  !. Wozani,  singabi nakho

yinhliziyo eyodwa kuphela nothando olulodwa, futhi uzozwa ukukhululeka ezilingweni nasosizini olukuphethe! Le nhlangano engcwele, umthombo wenjabulo yakho  , izoqeda udlame lwezinkanuko zakho futhi ucime umlilo wenkanuko yakho  ....

Sawubona! bantwana babantu nihlupheka ngani? kungani uphikelela nokufuna ukubhubha ekubeni ikhambi lisezandleni  zakho! wozani  nonke,

futhi ungabe usamelana nokulangazela kothando lwami! Sawubona! Baba, kukangaki ngithola lesi simemo sothando nesicindezelayo esivela kuNkulunkulu wami! kukangaki ngiwabona amandla amakhulu aleli khambi laphezulu  !...

Ezinsukwini ezimbili noma ngaphezulu lezi zivumelwano zamathenda, lezi zimemo zothando azizange ziphele; kwakulandela ngisho nalezi zingxoxo ezithinta inhliziyo no-J.-C. lapho angibekela khona imikhuba eyisithupha engikhulume ngayo nawe kwenye indawo, futhi engakunikeza yona kuqala ngokubhala. Ngabona ngakho konke lokho ayekufuna kimi mayelana nalokhu, noma kunalokho nguye owangitshela izwi nezwi, njengoba uwafundile futhi wawabhala. Wangichazela incazelo yawo, futhi wafuna ukuba ngenze isifungo, enezela ngokuthi kwakuyindlela yokumjabulisa nokwanelisa ubulungisa bakhe.

ngenxa yezono zami nezabantu bonke. Nokho, wangitshela ukuthi wayengafuni ukungithwalisa kanzima unembeza wami

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ngendlela yokuthi ingenze ngibe necala, uma ngezinye izikhathi ngehluleka, inqobo nje uma bekungekhona ukudelela futhi ngaphandle kokudebesela ngami. Ekugcineni, Baba, wangiyala ngendlela efanayo nawe ongivumele ngayo ukuba ngivuselele isithembiso izinsuku zami ezisele. Ngakho wayefuna ngibikele abaqondisi bami.

Ngenxa yalokho, ngalinda unyaka ogcwele ngaphambi kokuba ngizibophezele kukho kwasekuqaleni, futhi ngakwenza kuphela ngemvume kamufi uM. Audouin, owayesanda kungena esikhundleni sika-M. Duclos. Kwakungosuku lweNhliziyo Engcwele, ngemva kwesidlo sami, lapho ngenza lesi sifungo sesikhathi esizayo. Njengamanje ngihlala eduze kwami ​​u-J.-C. obebonakala evumelana kakhulu nalokhu kuzibophezela. Wabe esevela ngaphansi komfanekiso wompristi ogqoke i-alb ecoleke kakhulu, kodwa ngaphezu kwakho konke ebumhlophe obukhazimulayo kangangokuthi amehlo ami acwebezela futhi kwakungenzeki ukuba ngimgqolozele.

Kweminye imihlangano eyinkulungwane, okunye engikubikele kona kwenye indawo, umoya wami waya ku-J.-C. eSakramenteni eliNgcwele lase-altare, ngalokho kukhanya okufanayo okungavamile; futhi mhlawumbe izinzwa zomzimba zathinteka yikho ngempela, njengoba bengivame ukukholelwa, noma konke kwenzeka engqondweni yami kuphela nangamehlo okholo, noma ngabe kwenzeka kanjani, ngingasho ngomqondo ongokoqobo, ukuthi ngabona uJ. .-C., ukuthi ngamuzwa, ukuthi ngaxoxa naye; futhi ukube bengisephutheni, njengoba umuntu engeke ahluleke ukukucabanga, okungenani amnandi kakhulu lapho umuntu angaba khona. Lezi zinto ezibizwa ngokuthi inkohliso bezilokhu zinginikeza injabulo ephelele neqiniso kakhulu engake nganambitha ngayo emhlabeni, kangangokuthi zonke ezinye izinjabulo ziye zashabalala ngaphambi kwalena. Yilokhu okuqinisekile, futhi yini inselele.

Izibusiso azitholela abanye. I-AD imenza aqaphele isimo sokwazi kwabanye abantu.

Kumelwe ngiphinde ngikutshele Baba ukuthi ngokwanda kobuhle, ngezinye izikhathi uNkulunkulu uye wafuna ukucabangela abanye kunami ngezinzuzo zakhe.

kwangixaka ngaphandle kokufaneleka ngami. Izikhathi ezingaphezu kwesisodwa wangenza ngaqaphela isimo sikanembeza, futhi imiphefumulo engaphezu kowodwa yazuza ngolwazi ayenginike lona. Ngakho ngabona konke okwenzeka emiqondweni nasezinhliziyweni zabantu abathile, izilingo ababebhekana nazo noma ababezobhekana nazo, izicupho udeveli ayebalungisela zona, futhi nganginomthwalo wemfanelo wokubaxwayisa, ngibabonisa ugibe. kusho ukuthola lezi zicupho kanye nokuphazamisa amacebo namaqhinga esitha sabo. Labo abalandela izixwayiso zami bakhohlisa ithemba lakhe elinonya; labo, ngokuphambene nalokho, abazihlekisa ngokungabaza nangokuphikisana, ngokuqinisekile bathathwa ukungakholwa kwabo, futhi ababanga isikhathi eside ekuphendukeni kukho.

Lokhu kungenzeki kimi, Baba, mayelana namakholwa ahlukene, abezenkolo, abezenkolo, ngezinye izikhathi nabaphathi bami, nabavuma izono zami, njengoba sengike ngasho kinina, engabanikeza izeluleko ezahlukene njengokusho kwabo. izidingo ezihlukene, futhi ngokokukhanya engakubona kuNkulunkulu, futhi ngakhuluma kubo kusukela ku-J.-C.; ekugcineni, Baba, ngezinye izikhathi ngiye ngikuxwayise ngokwakho, njengoba wazi.

(1) Ngike ngabika kwenye indawo izixwayiso ezahlukene uDade anginika zona.

Uma ngicabangela indela ngolunye usuku, ngangazi ukuthi wayelingeka kakhulu ukuqhosha. Ngabona ngendlela efanayo ukuthi inceku yasendlini yayingayazi nelilodwa izwi lenkolo yayo, okwaqinisekiswa ubuwula bezimpendulo eyayizinikeza emibuzweni elula yekhathekizimu. Maye! bangaki abanye, abanolwazi oluningi kunaye kuzo zonke ezinye izinto, abangazi okwengeziwe ngaleliphuzu elibalulekile! Nokho base beyifundile ikhathekhizima labo; kodwa abakaze bakubone kusukela ebuntwaneni, futhi ukukha phezulu ababenakho ngakho kuye kwasuswa ngokuphelele enkumbulweni yabo nasezingqondweni zabo.

Okwesikhathi esithile kwakukhona i-boarder lapha okwakukhulunywa ngayo kakhulu emphakathini: wayegqoka izinwele kanye ne-cilice, evame ukuthatha isiyalo, enza izinto ezingavamile, wonke umuntu azi ngazo. Ubezwakala ebubula ubusuku nemini ngendlela ephazamisa ukuthula kwabanye, ngisho nekhwaya yezindela. UNkulunkulu ungenze ngabona ukuthi ukhohliswe usathane. Ngaya egameni lakhe ukuze ngimazise ngakho: wazithola ekhungathekile ngokuthunywa kwami, futhi wamangazwa ubufakazi engamnika yona ngakho, waze wavuma ubuzenzisi bakhe nokuziqhenya kwakhe.

UM. Duclos, owaba umqondisi weParigné, waba neshwa lokukhahlela enye yezingane zesifunda sakhe ayefundisa kuzo ikhathekizimu. Ngakusasa, noma ngalolo suku, ingane yahlaselwa umkhuhlane omkhulu okwathi

wayisusa ngokushesha. Abazali bale ngane basola umphathi wabo ngokuthi nguyena obangele ukufa kwayo, ngalokho abakubiza ngesihluku sakhe. UM. Duclos wayenokuncane ayengakwenza ukuze azithethelele ngaphandle kokuthi isidumbu sengane simbiwe futhi sihlolwe. Abangane bakhe bamncenga ukuba enze kanjalo: yena ngokwakhe wayekholelwa ukuthi le nkambo iyadingeka ukuze agweme ukushaywa kwemicabango kanye nemiphumela engase ibe nayo; ngoba ihlazo elingaka

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Ipherishi, kanti kulukhuni futhi kuyichilo kangakanani ukuthi umfundisi athathwe njengombulali wengane abefuna ukuyala, futhi owayenikeze isiyalo sokuqondisa nje ukuze banake kakhulu?

Indaba yayiqhutshwa ngamandla, futhi uM. Duclos enamahloni amakhulu: wayeseqophelweni lokuthi isidumbu sikhishwe; kodwa uNkulunkulu wangiyala ukuba ngimlethe ukuze ngimxwayise ukuba angakwenzi lokho. Ngamtshela ukuthi lokhu kukhishwa kwesidumbu akukufakazeli lutho, futhi kunalokho kuzoshiya umbono ongemuhle ezingqondweni zamakholwa akho. Ubekezelele isikhashana, futhi uNkulunkulu uthembisa ukukuthethelela kangcono. M. Duclos wadlula kukho, futhi emasontweni ambalwa kamuva abamangaleli bakhe nofakazi bamanga bafika ngokuthanda kwabo ukuze bahoxise, futhi bamenze isinxephezelo somphakathi ekupheleni kwesixuku esikhulu (1).

(1) Lesi sici ngangisitshelwe ngesikhathi ngingumfundisi wesifunda esifanayo, lapho abantu abaningana babesazi khona.

Ngemva kokhetho olwenzekile emphakathini engingawusho ngamagama, uNkulunkulu wangenza ngabona ukuthi umphathi omusha wayengahambisani nokuzikhethela kwakhe, nokuthi izindlela ayezisebenzisile zazingenakumjabulisa. Okhethweni olulandelayo kwaqhutshekwa, futhi uNkulunkulu wathi kimi: Bekufuna, kodwa ngeke kube isikhathi eside. Ngempela washona ngokushesha

ngemva kokuba ababili bethu ababehlala nabo, ababengodade, babonakala  beswele

ngena nasenkolweni. ngababona bobabili ephusheni; kodwa omunye wayegqokiswe indela, omunye esanda kushada. Ngamemezela ngale ngxenye ukuthi ngamunye wabo wayezoyithatha, futhi isimemezelo sami saqinisekiswa umcimbi. Kodwa sizokhuluma kwenye indawo ngamaphupho ami angokwesiprofetho.

Uyazi futhi isiphetho sabanye abantu abangasekho.

Lapha, uBaba, kuyingxenye yalokho uNkulunkulu angenze ngakubona ngivuna abantu abathile, nokuthi ngesikhathi engiyala kakhulu ngesiphetho seBandla lilonke, kanye nelaseFrance. Cishe cishe akunakwenzeka ukukunikeza zonke izimo zalezi zambulo eziphathelene nalaba bantu, ngezinye izikhathi ezazifinyelela ezingeni lokungazisa  isiphetho sabantu abashonile; njengoba kwenzeka phakathi kwabanye ngokuphathelene noMama uSainte-Hyacinthe, ukungena kwakhe ezulwini ngafunda ngemva kwezinsuku ezimbalwa esihlanzweni. Ngangazi ngisho namaphutha ayewachithe  lapho.

Umbiko engawenza kuMama wethu wawuvumelana ngokuphelele nencwadi esayithola ivela kuBaba uCornillaye, umfowabo, owalandisa lokho okwashiwo kuye ngale ndaba umfelokazi waseNantes, uNkulunkulu ayemtshele khona ukukhanya okufanayo mayelana nalolu daba. isiphetho sikaMadame Sainte-Hyacinthe (1).

(1) Ngesikhathi ngibhala lendawo, ngangiyibeke phambi kwamehlo ami ikhophi yalencwadi uMphathi oMkhulu ayengitshele yona. Wathwala kanzima, ukuthi ngemva kwezinsuku ezimbalwa zemithandazo nokuzisola ukuze le ndela egulayo ikhululeke futhi ilulame, lomfelokazi omuhle nongcwele esembhedeni, wezwa izikhalazo nokububula ekamelweni lakhe, akubona kukhanyiswe ngokukhanya okungavamile  . Wathi esukuma ethandaza, wabona le ndela ethe  kuyo

ukuthi wayenguDade Sainte-Hyacinthe ayemkhulekele kakhulu, ngokweseluleko somqondisi wakhe, kodwa ukuthi wayehlushwe isiphetho sabo bonke abantu; ukuthi wamncenga ukuba aqedele i-novena ayeyiqalile, futhi akhokhwe insalela ayenayo umnikelo wokumthembisa yona. Ngosuku olulandelayo imisa lashiwo entathakusa nguFather Cornillaye, umfowabo kamufi. Umfelokazi ongcwele wayekhona, futhi wabona, sonke isikhathi somhlatshelo, indela kaClare oNgcwele iguqe esinyathelweni sokuqala se-altare. Wanyamalala ngemva kokubusiswa, futhi umfelokazi wambona ephakama ebheke esibhakabhakeni, egqoke uhlobo lwezinkanyezi ezingutsheni zakhe. Wancoma umzukulu wakhe, owayephethwe yilesi sifo, wazithola eselapheka khona lapho. Naphezu kokuphela kwesikhathi, thina wayikhumbula futhi sisaxoxa ngayo. Kubonakala, ngobufakazi bezindela, ukuthi iqiniso laliqinisekisiwe, kanye nokuhambisana kwalo nesitatimende sikaSista, owayengakaze abe nobuhlobo obuncane nomfelokazi waseNantes. Siyazi ukuthi kwenzekani kuDade ngemuva kokushona kukaMadame Saint-Benoît.

Muva nje, Baba wami, uNkulunkulu ungenze ngabona isiphetho esibi sesinye sezitha zakhe ezinkulu, avele abizela enkantolo yakhe, nokufa kwakhe ngokuxhamazela kwavusa umunyu. Uyanginqabela ukuba ngimqambe igama: ufuna ngisho ukuthi, ngokujwayelekile, ngigweme ukwahlulela kwami ​​labo abahlulele, noma ngabe babeyizitha zakhe ezimenyezelwe kakhulu. Ngokuqondene nalabo abasaphila, ungenza ngiqonde ukuthi kufanele ngibathandazele futhi ngibahawukele; ukuthi umusa wakhe uyakuba kwabaningi, naye

akekho noyedwa ongafanelwe intethelelo yakhe. Ngakho-ke, Baba wami, asishiye konke ebuhleni bakhe, futhi sibeke eceleni kuze kube ngokuzayo ukuqhubeka kwempilo yami yangaphakathi; futhi lokho kuzoba okwakamuva, uma uthanda.

Ukuhlasela okusha kwedimoni kuSista. Egameni likaYise, leNdodana, njll.

Kwakungenakwenzeka ukuthi nginikezwe umusa ongaka nokungavamile ngaphandle kokuba idemoni libe nomona futhi lisebenzise ithuba lokuhlasela ukuthobeka kwami ​​ngokuziqhenya, ukuthi layazi kahle kakhulu ukuthi ngiyakhuthaza, futhi okungenzeka ukuthi, yaba nesandla esikhulu ekuhlulekeni kwephrojekthi yokuqala ukubhalwa, njengoba sizobona maduze. Yebo, kufanele ngivume, uma le nto ingaphumelelanga ekuqaleni, njengoba abantu abangcwele nabafundile babefisa, ngikusho ngehlazo nokudideka kwami,

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ikakhulukazi ukuziqhenya kwami ​​okumele kuhlaselwe. Yebo, kungenxa yokuziqhenya kwami ​​kobuSathane, uNkulunkulu ayefuna ukukululaza nokujezisa, lapho kufanele ngaphezu kwakho konke siveze leli phutha elibi (1).

(1) Siyabona ngalokhu nangezinkulungwane zezinsolo ezifanayo, ukuthi uDade akazigodli futhi akakhohliswa. Labo ababeyolingeka ukuba bambheke njengomzenzisi kumelwe okungenani bavume ukuthi wayeyoba umzenzisi ohluke ngokuphelele, nokuthi kungaba nzima ukuthola umuntu ongamqhathanisa naye.

Ngakho-ke idemoni alizange lehluleke ukungilinga ngaleyo ndlela, futhi umuntu angathi ufaka wonke ubuqili nekhono lakhe kukho. Ngakho-ke waqala, ekugcineni, ngokusakaza emphefumulweni wami imbewu yalokhu kuzikhukhumeza okungajabulisi, ngokufuna kuzo zonke izenzo zami indlela yokondla nokugcina ukuzethemba obelokhu kugcwaliswe ngakho inhliziyo yami embi. Waveza ubuhle bami obuncane ngokucophelela okukhulu, futhi wanginika, naphezu kwami, imizwa yokukhetha ngaphezu kwabanye. Wangiqhathanisa nabangcwele abakhulu kunabo bonke, futhi wasebenzisa wonke amathuba ukuze angibonise ukuthi ngangimjabulisa kangakanani uNkulunkulu ngokuthobeka kwami, ukubekezela kwami, kanye nokuthi kungakanani uNkulunkulu angibekele khona umusa nomusa ayengenawo. kusavunyelwe

umuntu; nokuthi ekugcineni ngolunye usuku ngiyoba phezulu kakhulu ezulwini kunabanye abaningi, wathi, iBandla elalibabeke lapho. Wayehlale  engikhumbuza ngale  mibono ekhangayo neyihaba ngempela.

Waqhubeka futhi, futhi waguqulwa waba ingelosi yokukhanya; walwela ukukhohlisa umsebenzi kaNkulunkulu ngokubonakala kwakhe. Kwakuyizinhlobo zezibani ngezinye izikhathi ezazishaya ingqondo ngokucace kakhulu, kodwa ezazisebenza nje ukuyikhazimulisa noma ukuyicasula, kunokuba ziyikhanyisele. Ngakho-ke, izibani zamanga ezingakaze zithinte ukujula komphefumulo ngendlela engangikhulume ngayo ngaphambili. Kunokuba waneliseke futhi ukhanyiselwe, umphefumulo wahlala ukudideka okukhulu nobumnyama obukhulu. Ngakho-ke yonke into yayilinganiselwe ekukhohliseni ingqondo, futhi ngezinye izikhathi izinzwa, ezaziphazamiseka futhi zithinteke. Inhliziyo yahlala ingezwakali, noma okungenani kwasala ukuvuvukala okuthile, okuhluke kakhulu kumbono we

Ngiyakhumbula, ngale ndaba, ukuthi ngolunye usuku lapho ukulalela kungibiza ukuba ngisebenze endaweni engcolile nevukelayo, idemoni langenza ngezwa iphunga elimnandi nelithandekayo, imbangela yalo engangingenakuyiqagela. kwangikhuthaza ukuthi kwakunguNkulunkulu owayikhiqiza ngenxa yobungcwele bami obukhulu. Bheka, wathi kimi, ukuthi uyakuthanda futhi uyakuthanda kanjani. Kusukela ngaleso sikhathi kwatholakala isicupho esasisethiwe, futhi konke kwanyamalala. Ngakho ngahlala ephunga elaliphuma ngokwemvelo endaweni engangizosebenza kuyo.

Kanjalo, uBaba, ngezikhathi ezithile, lesi sitha sasiba namahloni ukuzithola  sibanjwe amanetha aso; kodwa ongakhathali wakwenza kuphela ngekhono elengeziwe kamuva; futhi kunokuba adideke, wayazi ukuthi angalisebenzisa kanjani ithuba lokuhlulwa kwakhe, futhi njalo wabuyela ecaleni enolaka olusha. Wathatha izinhlungu ezinkulu ukuze athole udumo olunyantisayo yonke indawo ngami kanye nemikhuba yami yokuzinikela. Ngezwa kuthiwa ngihlongozwa ukuba ngibe yisibonelo sobuhle. UDadewethu ungoNgcwele , bathi; ungumbungazi  ovelele  . Ngenza sengathi angikholwa,  futhi

ngisho nokungayizwa; kodwa ngenza ize, naphezu kwami ​​okuthile okwakungitshela ngaphakathi: Kwakungeke kube ngenye indlela.

Abavuma izono zami ngokwabo abazange bahluleke ukufaka isandla kukho, bengazi, ngokucabangela okuncane ababengibonisa ngezinye izikhathi: ngoba udeveli wayekwazi ukusizakala ngakho konke. Omunye wabo ngokunganaki wathi kimi ngolunye usuku: Dadewethu, manje ucashile endlini engcwele; ngelinye ilanga uyobekwa othini  lwezibani  O zulu! yini igalelo ekuthobekeni kwami, nokuthi  lokhu

izwi wanginika ukuba ngenze! Ngenhlanhla, uNkulunkulu, ngokungangabazeki ukungijezisa ngakho, uye wangilulaza kusukela ngabavuma izono zami. Mayelana nami angazi

Yimaphi amahlebezi ayesabalele ngaphandle, abantu bomhlaba bafika bezongibona ngamabomu, bangicela egunjini lokuphumula ukuba bangibonise. Ngathi ngiyibona, ngabaxosha. Kwesinye isikhathi ngize ngibaphuthume noma ngingabaphenduli. Ukuze ngiqede konke lokhu kuvakasha okuyingozi nokucasulayo, ngayeka ngokuphelele ukuvakashela le ndawo, futhi angikaze ngiye lapho kusukela ngaleso sikhathi.

Mhlawumbe (1) Ngangingazikhukhumezi ngokugcwele; kodwa idemoni elithulile lihlehla ekujuleni kwenhliziyo yami, lalihlale linengxenye yalo kuzo zonke izenzo zami, ngisho nasemisebenzini yami engcono kakhulu. Okungenani yilokho engakuqonda, lapho kufika kimi ngolunye usuku ukuthi ngase ngizokwenza isibuyekezo esijwayelekile. Wayematasa ebopha futhi enza iphasela elakhiwe yikho konke ayekuqoqile, futhi njengoba lalikhothozwa, kuyo yonke imisebenzi emihle yokuphila kwami. Umoya wakhe omubi, uhleko lwakhe lokubhuqa kwakubonakala sengathi uthi kimi: noma yini oyenzayo, ngizoba nesabelo sami kukho konke, futhi konke lokhu kungokwami ​​kusukela kubuhle bakho ocabanga ukuthi. Futhi ngempela, ukuziqhenya kwakungiphuphuthekisile ezintweni eziningi engangihlale ngizifihla, ngingakholelwa esonweni.

(1) Lokhu mhlawumbe, emlonyeni kaDadewethu, ikakhulukazi uma kwenezelwa ekuziphatheni kwakhe, okuwukuphela komhumushi wemizwa yeqiniso, ngokubona kwami, kuwubufakazi obuhle bokuthi akazange anikeze nhlobo, noma okungenani. ngokuphelele, futhi lokho kuhle kakhulu konke kwaphelela ezilingweni nasekulweni.

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Kodwa, Baba wami, okwangibamba kakhulu lesi silingo sokuziqhenya esiyingozi nesiqalekisiweyo kwakuyimibono nemibono, umusa ongavamile izulu elangivuza ngawo. Akungabazeki ukuthi isitha sami ngabe sasisebenzisa ukungimosha ngokuphelele ngokuzidla, ukube uNkulunkulu akazange asebenzise yona ukuze angithobise, edweba, njengoba enza, ukuhlasela okuphikisayo. ushevu uqobo lwawo.

Imibono kanye nezambulo ezithinta iBandla, futhi azibhale nguM  . Audouin,  umqondisi wakhe.

Kwaba ngenkathi uNkulunkulu ejabulela ukunginxephezela ngezinhlungu zami ngezikhathi ezithile zenduduzo yangaphakathi, lapho ngathola khona imibono eminingi  nezambulo ezisixake kakhulu ngesiphetho seBandla. Ngikhulume  naye

abantu abambalwa abahlabeke kakhulu ngalokho engibatshele khona. Okuncane okwenzeka kwabanga umsindo omkhulu. Abapristi abalungile, izazi zenkolo ezinekhono, babuthana ukuze baxoxe ngakho. Kwaxazululwa phakathi kwabo ukuthi ngabe ngiqhubeka nokubhala izambulo engangibatshele okuthile ngazo. M. Audouin, ngaleso sikhathi umqondisi wethu, engangimethemba kakhulu, wenza lomsebenzi obuhlungu, awufeza ngentshiseko enkulu nangokucophelela okukhulu. Kodwa-ke Baba idimoni lalikwazi ukudlala indima yalo laze lathola ithuba lokususa uthuthuva emphakathini owahlukana kabili. Wasebenzisa izimo zami ezimbi, futhi mhlawumbe nezabanye, ukuze avuse intukuthelo enkulu ngokumelene nami, njengesiphepho eside kunazo zonke engangingakaze ngibhekane nazo.

UMnu Audoin. Kodwa, Baba, lokhu kuhlukaniswa kweza kuphela ngemva kwezigcawu eziningi, konke okuphambene kakhulu nokululaza kakhulu kimi.

Imibhalo yakhe iyashiswa. Ukululazeka kwakhe okukhulu ngakho. Uphasa ngohlanya nombono.

Ekuqaleni, Baba, izinto azizange zenzeke ngasese njengoba zenzeka phakathi kwami ​​nawe. Izingxoxo zami eziyimfihlo noM. Audouin zasheshe zatholakala. Ngokushesha babangela ukusola nokuthuka; baqaphela izinyathelo zami, beza ukuze basilalele futhi basihlole. Kwaze kwazwakala ukuthi ngike ngezwa ngikhuluma izinto eziwubukhazikhazi kuM. Audouin, ngithinta amashwa okwakumelwe kuhileleke kuwo abefundisi, izicukuthwane ngisho nomkhaya wasebukhosini. Ngenziwa ukuthi ngiphumelele kumbono, ubuchopho obungahlelekile ngempela: M. Audouin wahlanjalazwa ngokungigcina emicabangweni yami ekhohlisayo. Saze sabhalela abaphathi, futhi indlu encane yasenqatshelwe kithi.

(1) Nokho, kungenxa yale ndlu encane, eyayingavunyelwe ngaphambili, lapho amanothi okugcina ayesabhalwa khona, nokuthi sisadlula futhi sathola izinsiza zomsebenzi omusha. UNkulunkulu angalibala futhi akhethe izikhathi zakhe; kodwa, lapho ethanda, akukho okungabeka isithiyo emiklamo yakhe.

Mahluleli, Baba, ngabe konke lokhu kwangilimaza kangakanani; ukwenza izinto zibe zimbi nakakhulu, uM. Larticle noM. Audouin bawa kancane ngesikhathi salokho  engangikubhalile. Ekugcineni, konke kwaphela njengoba bese ngishilo  .

Kubuphi ubuhlungu, yikuphi ukululazeka okufanele lokhu kubuyela emuva okucasulayo kungiphonse? Futhi yini okufanele ilahle ukuzihlonipha kwami ​​okumpofu! Maye! Baba, ngaleyondlela ngazuza ngaphezu kwalokho engangikucabanga;

izinhlungu, imizabalazo kanye nezilingo ezimelene nesisa ngenxa yokucasuka kanye nenzondo engaba nayo kulabo boDadewethu ababenokuningi

kwaba nesandla osizini lwami. Yeka ukuthi kwangibiza kangakanani umzamo ukuze nginqobe lokhu kuphikisa okwakungasoze kwangivumela, ngaphandle komusa okhethekile

ukubabona ngeso elihle, noma ngaphezu kwakho konke ukubathanda ngokusuka ekujuleni kwenhliziyo, njengoba uNkulunkulu eyala ngokuphathelene nabo bonke ngaphandle kokuhlukanisa! Ngigajwe amahloni, ukudideka nokungaboni ngaso linye, ngazibona ngichayeka ezintweni ezixakayo okuthi ngaso sonke isikhathi banelise umona wabo oyimfihlo. Ngaba yinganekwane  yomphakathi; kodwa uNkulunkulu wangisiza kwaze kwaba seqophelweni lokuthola injabulo ekuziboneni ngithotshiswe kanjalo, nakuba ngaphandle kwalezi zilingo ezihlukahlukene nosizi lomoya empeleni kwakuwukuhlushwa ukuphila kwami  .

Izilingo zakhe ngokumelene nokholo nezimfihlakalo.

Imizabalazo, izilingo kanye nosizi lwengqondo phezu kwento engiyikholelwayo; ngoba idimoni lingihlasele ngaziphi izindlela? Uzokholwa, Baba, emva kwakho konke engikutshelile na? waze wazama nokuzamazamisa ukholo lwami ezimfihlakalweni eziyinhloko zenkolo yethu; wangifaka ugqozi ngokungabaza ngemfihlakalo enkulu kaZiqu-zintathu Ongcwele, eyokuba sesimweni somuntu kweZwi, nangokuphathelene nobuntombi obungapheli bukamama kaJ. Isikhathi eside ngaba nenkinga enkulu mayelana nokuba semthethweni kokubhapathizwa kwami; ukuvuma izono zami nokufunda kwakubangele ukuba kube khona. Idemoni, elalikwazi ukusizakala ngakho konke, lalilokhu lingitshela ukuthi ngangingakabhapathizwa ngendlela efanele. Wapenda ngokucace kangaka emcabangweni wami imiphumela yalesi sici sokuqala senhloko-dolobha, lokho

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ukuthi ngase ngibhapathiziwe ngempela, nokuthi, noma ngabe ngangingabhapathizwa ngamanzi, ngangisenobhapathizo lwesifiso sokulungisa lokho. Kwakubonakala ngisho kimina ukuthi ukuze angiqinisekise ngokwengeziwe, wangenza ngabona umfanekiso kaZiqu-zintathu Ongcwelengcwele uqoshwe ekujuleni komphefumulo wami. Angikaze ngizwe ubuhlungu obuncane ngakho.

Esinye isilingo udeveli ayenaso engqondweni yami isikhathi eside kwakuwukukholelwa, noma okungenani ukucabanga, ukuthi abalahliwe bagwetshelwe esihogweni ngaphandle kwephutha labo, nangenxa yezimiso kuphela ezazizinqumele ngokungenakuguquleka lapho. UNkulunkulu, wathi udeveli kimi, uziphatha kubo njengendlovukazi enomona ngenkazimulo yakhe, futhi ezibona ehlonishwa ngokulinganayo, nangeshwa  lezigqila ezibubula etilongweni, nangokujabula kwabasebenzi benkantolo nabathandwayo abahlonishwayo. igcwalisa izinzuzo zayo, ngaphandle kokuba nokufaneleka okwengeziwe kokunye kunephutha kwabanye. Niyazi, futhi niyibhale, ukuthi uNkulunkulu wangenza ngabona ukuthi lokhu kwakuyoba enye yezihlubuki zokugcina okumelwe zichithe ibandla elingcwele lika-  J.

Ngakho-ke, Baba, njengoba wangitshela ngesinye isikhathi, ngaleso sikhathi ngangingowaseJanseni, umbulali, umkholelwa ekunqunyelwe kusengaphambili. Isibhakabhaka! Ngisathuthumela; kodwa ungiqinise idolo ngokwengeza ukuthi konke lokho kwakusemcabangweni wami kuphela, noma kunalokho kuziphakamiso zesitha sami. Ngama lapho.

Ngangihlale ngizibona ngilenga ngomucu eweni elesabekayo. Ake sihlupheke kulesi simo, Baba! kwanele ukufa ngenxa yokwesaba. Ngakhululwa kuso ngokuzumayo ngokwenza izenzo zethemba kanye nokwesula, futhi ngaphezu kwakho konke ngesenzo esilulazayo engasenza ngokuziphonsa ezinyaweni zendela ngokumelene nokunengwa kwami ​​okungokwemvelo, noma kunalokho ngokumelene nentukuthelo yami ethile. UNkulunkulu wayefuna ukunginika ukuthula, ngokucabangela lokhu kunqoba okuncane phezu  kwami.

Izilingo zakhe ngokumelene nobumsulwa.

Izimpi kanye nezilingo ngokumelene nesifungo sami sobumsulwa, esavuka ngalesi sikhathi futhi sathukuthela kakhulu kunangaphambili. Ubani ongakutshela Baba ngezimpama nezithuko engazithola engelosini kaSathane, esitheni senhlanzeko, esahlomisa ubuthakathaka bami bemvelo ukungishaya ngezimpama nokungilulaza ngayo yonke indlela? Kufanele ube khona ukuze ukuqonde. Emini, ebusuku, ngiphapheme noma ngilele, kukangaki lo moya ongcolile uphakamisa emcabangweni wami izethulo ezingcolile nezinedumela elibi! Kukangaki ephazamisa ubuthongo bami ngemibono engcolile, ngemibono engcolile, ukuze avuse kimi ukuvukela engingakholwa ukuthi, ngomusa kaNkulunkulu wami, ngivumile, ngisho nalapho ngilele  !

(1) Ngempela akanakusho, njengomphostoli : “Nesambulo esikhulu siyangidumisa, datus est mihi stimulus carnis meae angelus Satane, qui me colaphizet, propter quod ter Dominum rogavi ut disdederet à me; kanye ne-dixit mihi: sufficit tibi gratia mea, nam virtus in firmitate perficitur. ( 2 Kor. 12, 7 ).

Iphupho lapho elandelwa inunu, futhi ethola umnduze ukuze azivikele.

Njengoba ngingakufihleli lutho mayelana nesimo somphefumulo wami, ngizokuxoxela wena Baba ngalesi sikhathi, iphupho engingakaze ngilazise muntu. Uzoyisebenzisa ngokuthanda kwakho. Ngiphuphe ngobunye ubusuku ngijahwa uhlobo lwendoda esabekayo emklamo wayo wawunenundu kakhulu kunobuso bayo; Ngabaleka ngawo wonke amandla ami ukuze ngigweme ukuphishekela kwakhe, futhi, ekubalekeni, ngabalekela kuNkulunkulu, eNcasakazini Engcwele nasengelosini yami enhle engangiyincenga. Manje, lapho ngigijima, unyawo lwami luyashelela. O uvalo! Kodwa ngisawa ngizobanjwa inunu, ngibona insizwa ebukekayo ingamukela ngezandla zayo ingivimbe ukuthi ngingawi. Ngesikhathi esifanayo uphonsa esitheni sami ukubukeka okwesabekayo nokwesabekayo;

Ungesabi, isho lensizwa ingibheka ngobuso obuzethembayo, ihleka futhi inomusa; ungesabi: angakwethusa, kodwa futhi ungacindezela imizamo yakhe. Wayephethe esandleni sakhe umnduze othandekayo onephunga elimnandi kakhulu. Igcine kahle, esho enginika, uJ.-C. ehlala eyithwele esifubeni sakhe. Okunye sizokubona kusasa; lokho kwanele, ngiyacabanga, okwanamuhla.

Ngalamazwi Baba ngivuka ngikhangwe yisipho esihle, ngithuthwe kokubili ngokubonga kuMsizi wami, nokucasuka ngale nunu eyisinengiso eyanyamalala ngaphandle kokuzama ukuvela kusukela ngaleso sikhathi. Ngisho cishe, ngoba namanje kuye kwafika kimi ngezinye izikhathi, kodwa njalo kusukela kude, futhi nje ukungihlambalaza ngomkhuba engawenza eminyakeni eminingi edlule, nokuwukufafaza umbhede wami njalo kusihlwa ngamanzi angcwele, ngaphambi kokulala. kuyo, kanye nokwenza izimpawu zesiphambano phezu kwami.

Lo moya omubi nomona, obonakala ungakubekezeleli, ungathanda ukungethusa ngokusabisa. Ungu

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uthi uma ngiqhubeka nale mikhuba ayibiza ngokuthi yizinkolelo-ze, inhlekisa futhi iyadelela, uyothola indlela yokuziphindiselela, ngokuphinde abangele ukubhuntsha kwebhizinisi esiliqalile. Akumelwe uzidelele ngokuphelele izinsongo zakhe, uNkulunkulu ungenze ngabona, futhi isipiliyoni singifundise kahle kakhulu ukuthi kufanele kube esinye isizathu sokuba ngiqaphe. Ngiye ngaqaphela kaningi ukuthi amaphupho asongelayo ngokuvamile ayizimemezelo zezilingo ezinzima ngasohlangothini lwesitha sami, futhi ngokuvamile kakhulu ukwehluleka nokuwa ngakimi, okuyinto ngezinye izikhathi engingayiboni nakancane, ngenxa yokususwa okuzwela kakhulu noma okuncane umusa wezulu; ngokuba, Baba wami, njalo kuwukunganaki kwami ​​kanye namaphutha ami acishe abe uphawu oluncane okwakha ifu phakathi kukaNkulunkulu nami; kodwa, uma ubona kukuhle baba sizobhala enye indaba ngamaphupho ami amnandi noma asabekayo, engizimisele ukukubikela wona ngenxa yobudlelwano abanabo nempilo yami yangaphakathi, nezifunda ezahlukene engizithole ngihlobene nazo. kuNkulunkulu; ngoba, Baba, ngilele noma ngiphapheme, ngiyohlala ngiyimpicabadala engaqondakali kwabanye nakimi.

Iphupho elingaqondakali, lapho eqonda khona ubunzima bokusiphula ukuzethemba.

Akufanele ngesabe ukukuphinda, ngemva kwezilingo eziningi kangaka zazo zonke izifo zomphefumulo wami, akekho mhlawumbe oke wakuveza ezingozini eziningi njengokuzithanda, okwakufana nesisekelo sobuntu bami. akekho oye waba nzima kangaka ukumsiphula; akekho omlimaze ngokujulile nangokuyingozi njengalolu thando olungajabulisi, lesi sitha sasekhaya uNkulunkulu asivumela ukuba sisithwale ngaphakathi kwethu. Yilokhu angenze ngakuqonda ngephupho elingaqondakali, lapho ngazibona ngibophekile ukulwa futhi ngilwe nezilo ezihlukahlukene ezimbi kakhulu noma ezincane ezimelela izono ezinkulu. Owayebonakala kimi eyinkani kakhulu, futhi okwakunzima kakhulu kimi ukuba nginqobe futhi ngimnqobe, kwakuyi-coquette encane, ehlanzeke ngokwedlulele, ethambile futhi eqaphile. amaphupho.

Enganelisekile ngokuzilinganisa yedwa nami, wayehlale enento yokwenza nokulwa okwakumelwe ngiqhubeke ngibhekene nomunye nomunye. Wabonakala ezelwe kabusha ngenxa yokuhlulwa kwakhe, futhi, njengoProteus, waqhubeka ebuyela ekuphathweni ngezindlela ezahlukene. Umoya we

UNkulunkulu wangenza ngaqonda ukuthi lesi silo, esinyanyekayo kunazo zonke, esithandeka ngisho nangendlela ebukeka ngayo, sasizithanda, ubaba wokuziqhenya, isitha esikhulu sikaNkulunkulu nabantu, futhi engangikhathazeke kakhulu ngaso. futhi okwakudingeka ngithathe izinyathelo zokuqapha kakhulu, uma ngifuna ukuvikela  insindiso yami, njengoba ngiye ngabhekana izikhathi eziningi kangaka phakathi nempilo yami  .

Amakhambi awasebenzisayo ezilingweni zakhe. Ukuthotshiswa kanye nama-macerations

Ukuze ngizivikele ke kulesi sitha esifayo, ngisho nangokwengeziwe, uma umuntu engasho kanjalo, kunokuba kusukela ezilingweni ezingcolile kanye nezinye izinsizi engangivinjezelwe ngazo, ngezwa isidingo sokululazeka kanye nobulukhuni; Ngakho-ke ngasebenzisa ama-maceration, ukuzila ukudla, imilindelo, iziyalo nemithandazo, okwaba usizo olukhulu kimi. Ngaleso sikhathi, ummeli wami wayengivumele ukuba ngifake ibhande lensimbi; Ngayigqoka; kodwa u-J.-C. wangitshela ukuthi le ndlela akufanele isetshenziswe, nokuthi yayiyohlale inginikeza ephumelela kakhudlwana; ukuthi leli bhande engangifuna ukuligqoka lizothathelwa indawo elinye, nokuthi ukuhlupheka engangizongibangela kuzo kwakuzothandeka kakhulu kuye, njengoba kwakuyoba ngentando yakhe hhayi eyami.

Inguquko eyenzeka eMphakathini ngomyalo kaNkulunkulu.

Kungalesi sikhathi, Baba, lapho uNkulunkulu wangiyala ukuba ngitshele u-Abbess ukuthi oSista kufanele bashiye amahembe elineni,

ababegqoke isikhathi eside, ukuze bathathe ingubo yoboya yangaphakathi ababeyishiye ngokuphambene nomthetho. Lokhu kwenziwa ngisho nangomyalelo womphathi (1).

(1) Lolu shintsho lwenzeka ngokobufakazi bezinye izindelakazi, ngesikhathi uMbhishobhi waseRennes evakashele; kodwa angisakhumbuli ukuthi kwakungaleso  sikhathi

M. de Girac noma uM. Desnos, umanduleli wakhe. Lokhu akubalulekile.

Ucela izifo eNkosini Yethu; unikiwe. Ukuhlupheka kwakhe okude nonya.

Ukucima kanyekanye lomlilo wokungcola, futhi wehlise lokhu kuziqhenya

okufihliwe, okufihliwe, okushoyo, ekujuleni kwenhliziyo yami ngingazi, ngamncenga uJ.-C. ukuba angithumele ngomusa amandla, ngizithobe emehlweni oDadewethu kanye nakwawami. J.-C. wayesazi isidingo sami kangcono kunami, futhi umusa wakhe awuzange wehluleke ukusilungisa. Ngokushesha omunye ubeyokusho lokho konke

ubuthakathaka bomzimba bebungaza ukuzoqhuma phezu kwami ​​ngokulandelana, nokuthi ngesikhathi sokukhanya okukhulu engikhulume ngakho. Lesi ngokusobala kwakuyisimo lapho engangisidinga khona kakhulu. I-Quoniam yamukela izinkathi zika-Deo, necesse fuit ut ut isilingo probaret te. (Thobile.)

Okokuqala ngahlaselwa imfiva ehamba kancane, okwathi iminyaka eminingana, yanciphisa amandla ami kwaze kwaba seqophelweni lokusabela ukuphila kwami. Lomkhuhlane oqhubekayo waphonsa ekhanda lami izinhlungu ezingabekezeleleki neziyinkani kakhulu; isifuba sathinteka ngendlela yokuthi kwadingeka ngelashwe ipulmonia. Ngemva kwesikhathi esithile, edolweni lami lesokunxele kwavela isimila esikhulu okwadingeka ukuba sinqanyulwe ngokusikwa.

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kubuhlungu kakhulu; kodwa uNkulunkulu, ngenxa yokuzeyisa ngenxa yobuthakathaka bami, wayefuna ngizizwele ngalesi sikhathi isibonelo salokho okwenzeka kubafel’ ukholo abamangaza umhlaba ngokungaguquki ekuhluphekeni kwabo okucabanga kwabo nje kusathuthumela. Ngakho-ke walenga kimi ukuqonda kwemvelo; futhi kuwukuthi, lapho efuna, aphakamise indoda ngaphezu kwakhe, nokuthi, phakathi kweyakhe, abesifazane, amakhehla, izingane ezijwayelekile zimthathe ngesibindi sabo. lokho kuyamangaza kakhulu phakathi kwabezizwe.

Esikhundleni sokuvala, isilonda sawohloka saba ihlaya lomdlavuza lapho ukukhubazeka kwaziphonsela khona. Lesi sitho sakhubazeka, ngase ngincipha ngakwazi ukuhamba ngezinduku ezimbili kuphela. Udokotela nodokotela ohlinzayo abangibona baze basho nokuthi ngangingeke ngikwazi ukuhamba ngenye indlela, njengoba umlenze wami wawuqhuma futhi ukhubazekile, kwakungenakwenzeka ukuba ngiwusebenzise. Kodwa-ke, Baba, angizange ngithathe isikhathi eside ukuyisebenzisa, naphezu kwesinqumo sabo; futhi babe ngabokuqala ukumemezela futhi basho kakhulu ukuthi leli khambi lalingaphezu kobuciko babo, ngaphezu kwamandla emvelo, futhi liyisimangaliso impela.

Ukuphulukiswa kwakhe ngokushesha ngemva kweMisa yokuhlonipha Ukuhlushwa kukaJesu Kristu kanye Nosizi lukaMariya.

Ngangicele nje umphakathi ukuthi wenze i-novena yokuhlonipha abafel 'ukholo abangcwele, futhi kwakungale-novena engabhekana nayo empilweni yami.

idolo laliphawuleka kangangokuthi nami ngamangala; kodwa ukuphulukiswa okuphelele akuzange kwenzeke kwaze kwaba usuku uM. Audouin angikhulula ngalo uquqaba lokuhlonipha uthando luka-J.-C, nosizi lukanina ongcwele phansi kwesiphambano; futhi lesi sikhathi sasifushane kangangokuthi akekho owayengabaza ukubona kuso isimangaliso sangempela, futhi umbiko ngokushesha wasakazeka. Mina-ke, engingenesibindi kangako kulezi zindaba, angilokothi ngikuqinisekise, nakuba ngingangabazi ukuthi kwakukhona usizo oluthile oluvela ezulwini, nokuthi iNcasakazi eBusisiwe ayizange iphinde ingenelele amandla ayo ngokunikela okwamanje. obunye ubufakazi bentando yakhe enhle ngami.

Umzamo emsebenzini, okumdalela ingozi ebuhlungu kakhulu nengelapheki.

Akwenzekanga, noma iminyaka embalwa kakhulu, ukuthi ngaphathwa ukugula okubi kakhulu noma okuncane kakhulu, okwacishe kwangiholela njalo emasangweni okufa; futhi ngaphezu kwalokho, ukuzikhandla emsebenzini kwangibangela ingozi okwathi iminyaka eyishumi nesikhombisa noma eyishumi nesishiyagalombili yaba isiphambano sami esinzima kakhulu, isiphambano okuyodingeka ngisithwale ngiye ethuneni. Le ngozi kimi ekuqaleni yayibonakala iwukugula okudlulayo engangingafuni nokukunaka nokuncane; izizathu eziyinkulungwane zangivimbela, izinyanga eziyisithupha, ukuba ngimemezele kunoma ubani; kodwa i-colic eyesabekayo, izinhlungu ezibukhali engazizwa kuyo ekugcineni kwangiphoqa ukuba ngifinyelele kulokho. Umama wethu wathintana nodokotela, abamemezela ukuthi ngesitha esinjalo umzuzu ngamunye wawungaba owokugcina ekuphileni kwami. Babefuna, ngandlela thize, ukungiphoqa ukuba ngimxwayise, ngokuvuma izindlela engingakwazi ukubekezelela umqondo nje. Ngaphendula uMama wethu ngokuthi ngincamela ukufa, uma kunesidingo; ukuthi ngokunye, ngabeka ithemba lami kuNkulunkulu kuphela owazi izizathu zami nesidingo sami, nokuthi kulokhu angisoze ngaba nomunye udokotela ngaphandle kwakhe. Umama wethu waphathisa unembeza wami kuwo; waze wangiyala ukuba ngenze kanjalo ngenxa yobuhlungu bokungalaleli, futhi lapha ngiphinde ngiphoxeke kakhulu ngakulo hlangothi; ngoba, ukwenzani? yiliphi iqembu engingalithatha phakathi kokubi okubili engangikwesaba futhi? Umama wethu waphathisa unembeza wami kuwo; waze wangiyala ukuba ngenze kanjalo ngenxa yobuhlungu bokungalaleli, futhi lapha ngiphinde ngiphoxeke kakhulu ngakulo hlangothi; ngoba, ukwenzani? yiliphi iqembu engingalithatha phakathi kokubi okubili engangikwesaba futhi? Umama wethu waphathisa unembeza wami kuwo; waze wangiyala ukuba ngenze kanjalo ngenxa yobuhlungu bokungalaleli, futhi lapha ngiphinde ngiphoxeke kakhulu ngakulo hlangothi; ngoba, ukwenzani? yiliphi iqembu engingalithatha phakathi kokubi okubili engangikwesaba futhi?

Nokho, uNkulunkulu wavumela abapristi abalungile ukuba beze lapha ukuze bangisize; batshela abakwa-Abbes, ngokwemfundiso yabo yenkolo, ukuthi ngaleliphuzu elibucayi akufanele banqume ngokushesha kangaka mayelana nami. Baze babhalela ngisho naseParis, futhi impendulo abayithola esikoleni esikhulu yayiwukuthi indela ngokukhethekile, ngonembeza, yayingakhetha ukufa futhi ikuthole, kunokuba ihlinzwe noma ikuphi ukuhlinzwa esimweni esinjalo. Ngakho-ke bheka ngikhululekile; Ngehla ngokusebenzisa ukuqapha okuncane, nokusebenzisa  okuthile

ibhandishi engilithatha njengebhande uNkulunkulu ayengithembise lona ukuthi ngizokwengeza kuleli engangifuna ukuligqoka. Kumelwe kuvunywe, Baba, ukuthi ngokwami ​​ngangingeke ngincike kulolu hlobo lokuhlupheka; kodwa ekugcineni kufanele kungithokozise, ​​ngoba nguNkulunkulu okumisile. Akusikho okwethu izoni, kodwa kungokwakhe ukusikhethela iziphambano; futhi leli bhande, elibuhlungu, elibuhlungu futhi lilulaza njengoba linjalo, kumelwe ukuba ngilithandeka kakhulu, njengoba lingelika-J.-C. azikhethele yena, owayengithembise lona  .

Konke kwangijikela, konke kwaba nesandla ekungenzeni ngihlupheke futhi ngilulaze ezindaweni ezibucayi kakhulu. Ukuziqhenya kufanele, Baba,  kube okungabekezeleleki nhlobo kuNkulunkulu, njengoba ekuphishekela futhi akushaye ngamandla noma kuphi lapho ethola khona nomkhondo omncane wakho; ngoba ngingasho ukuthi wayilandela mayelana nami kwaze kwaba sekugcineni kwayo, futhi angizimisele ngokukhononda ngayo. Ngokumelene nosizi kanye nezinsizi  engangikuzo

ngivinjezelwe, nganginomngane oyedwa kuphela engangimvulela inhliziyo yami ngokuzethemba,  futhi ezinyaweni zakhe ngangiqinisekile ukuthi ngizothola isibindi nenduduzo, okuwukuphela  kwakhe

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kuze kube yileso sikhathi ingenile emibonweni yami nakuleyo kaNkulunkulu, ahlala emsiza ngokusemandleni akhe. Ubani owayengangitshela ukuthi kwakungafanele ngibe nokuzethemba okufanayo, okungenani? Kuhle ! uBaba, lomngane, maye! yini engingazange ngihlupheke ngayo ngesikhathi sayo! ngoba nakulokhu konke bekumele kufake isandla kukho.

Okokuqala, ngaba nobuhlungu bokubona ingxenye yosizi lwami ibonakala kuye, njengoba ubonile; ngokushesha ngemva kokuba esusiwe kimi lapho ngangidinga usizo lwakhe kakhulu.Ummpofu uM. Audouin wafa, futhi kwaba yimi futhi engathweswa icala lokumemezela ukufa kwakhe kuye okuvela kuNkulunkulu. Ngakho-ke ngamtshela ukuthi ngangimbonile esohlwini lokuhlupheka, futhi njengokungathi uboshelwe esiphambanweni sika-J.-C., lapho ayezofela khona; okwenzeka ezinsukwini ezimbalwa kamuva...

Yeka igalelo kimi!... Akungabazeki ukuthi kwaba ukungiduduza ngakho ukuthi uNkulunkulu wangibonisa yena, ezinsukwini ezimbalwa ngemva kokufa kwakhe, ephuma esihlanzweni, futhi ehlezi ohlwini lwababusisiwe esihlalweni esihlotshiswe ngezimbali, amasundu. futhi

izimbali. Ekuqinisekiseni ubuhlungu bakhe, nganxusa kakhulu izindela ukuba zihlanganyele nami ekusheshiseni ukukhululwa kwakhe ngemikhuleko yethu: abayenza ngentshiseko enkulu nangomdlandla; kanye nesimemezelo sokwamukelwa kwakhe ezulwini nakho kwabajabulisa kakhulu (1).

(1) Ngikhumbula kahle ukuthi izintokazi eziphakeme kanye nomphathiswa bakhuluma nami ngale ndaba ephathelene nokukhululwa kuka-M. Audouin ongasekho, benezela ukuthi esimemezelweni sikaDade izindela abazange bakungabaze ngakho.

Angikwazi, kulesi senzakalo, ukushiya isici esisodwa esenzeke kimi ezinyangeni ezimbalwa ngemva kwalesi. Kwakuyisikhathi kanye lapho ukushushiswa kwakunonya kakhulu kimi. Iqembu lamadimoni lanqoba, uma ngingasho njalo.

Ngashaqeka, kodwa nokho, uma kufanele kuvunywe, ngangenza imizamo eyize ukuze ngizikhohlise ngokuthi bengilokhu ngidlala iphutha. UNkulunkulu, phezu kwami, wazenza wazwakala phakathi kwami. Nkulunkulu wami, bengithi kuye kwesinye isikhathi, deign ukungiyala, ungikhanyisele, uqede ukudideka kwami. Ah! ukube ngisenaye uM. Audouin, okungenani ubezongiduduza!  I-WHO

nginike ukwazi ukuthi ucabangani ngakho manje? Ngaphambili wayenombono wami, futhi uma ngisephutheni, wayekhona futhi; kodwa uyibona ngaliphi ilihlo le nto kusukela ebonakele phambi kukaNkulunkulu? Lokho, uma bengikwazi, yikho okunganginquma; kodwa kuyize ukuthi ngimfisa, futhi uNkulunkulu ngeke amvumele ukuba aphume, ukuze angifundise, ekujuleni kwethuna lakhe.

Ngakho, Baba, ngangibonisana nami ngobunye ubusuku njengoba ngiyolala. Ngangingakalali lapho, futhi ukukhanya kwethu kwacima, njengoba ngezwa ngemva kwekhethini izwi elihluke kakhulu, engalibona njengelikamufi uM. Audouin; kangangokuthi angicabangi ukuthi kwakungenzeka nganoma ubani, ngokuphambene nakho konke ukubonakala, ukuba acabange ukuthi ungene esitokisini sethu, akwazi, kuze kube yileso sikhathi, ukwenza umgunyathi noma ukulingisa indlela yakhe yokuphimisela  .

Izwi lathi kimi, likhulumela phansi, nangephimbo elifana nalo enkantolo: Dadewethu, landela ukukhanya kwezulu okukhanyiselayo, futhi ungami ekukhulumeni okuyize kwalabo abangakuqondi.

Ngamangala kwaze kwaba sezingeni lokugcina, ngaphandle kokuba novalo oluncane; kunalokho, bengingathanda kakhulu ukuba nengxoxo ende naye, nakuba ayekhulume okuningi kimi kulawa mazwi ambalwa. Kwakuwumongo wakho konke engangifuna ukukwazi, futhi ngangifuna nje ukuqinisekiswa kancane kunalokho engangikuqinisekile ngobuqiniso baleyo nto. UNkulunkulu akakuvumelanga, futhi kufanele ngisho lokho okwenzekile, ngokuvumelana neqiniso eliqondile leqiniso. Nguwe,

M.  Audouin,  ngababaza. Noma ngikhuluma ngibuka  ekukhanyeni

kusukela enyangeni, angizange ngizwe lutho, futhi angizange ngibone umkhathi; lapho akulula, ngokombono wami, ukuchaza ukuthi, uma izindlebe zami zazikhohlisiwe, amehlo ami ayengeke athinteke ngokukhohlisa okufanayo (1). Ake silandele izinyathelo zethu kancane.

Kwakulapha ngempela, noma kwakungakaze kwenzeke, indawo kanye nesikhathi sokubona noma sokukholwa ukubona isipoki, uma kuyiqiniso ukuthi umcabango ungaveza oyedwa, njengoba sithanda ukuphindaphinda  kakhulu  .

UMnu Le Marié, umqondisi omusha, uyaxwayiswa ngakho. Yini okufanele ahlupheke ngayo.

U-M. Audouin wayethathelwe indawo uM. Le Marié, okwaqashwa ngokucophelela okukhulu ukuze axwayise ngalokho okwakubizwa ngokuthi amaqili ami, imihuzuko yami, ukuxokozela kwami ​​. (2). Baphinde batshela uM. Larticle, umqondisi wezintokazi zase-Ursuline, engangimethemba kakhulu. Ngangilandelwa futhi ngibhekwe yonke indawo ngokucophelela okukhulu, ngisho nasenkantolo yokuzisola, lapho, uma ukuvuma kwami ​​​​kwakude kunokuvamile, kwakungekho ukwesaba ukungixwayisa ukuba ngiqede, ngokuzibuza ngokuzwakalayo ukuthi ngangizophinda yini endala yami. amaphutha, futhi ngibuyele emaphusheni ami asemini.

M. Le Marié waba umqondisi wesifunda saseBalazé, eduze nedolobha laseVitré. Ngixoshwe emphakathini, ngahamba ngayombona; kodwa ngafika emzini wakhe ngalo lolo suku kusihlwa waphoqeleka ukuba ahambe ebalekela ukushushiswa. Kimina kubonakala sengathi ubonile ukuthi izimemezelo zikaDadewethu bezingezona ezicatshangelwayo njengoba ancengwe. Angazi ukuthi kwenzekeni ngalo  mphathi ophambili.

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Ngikhumbula, phakathi kwezinye izinto, ukuthi ngolunye usuku kwafika umgibeli endaweni yokuvuma izono, wangiphoxa ngendlela enonya kakhulu, engibiza ngesikhonzi samanga, esihlanyayo, esiyisiphukuphuku, esiphambene, nobunye umusa ofanayo. ukunginikeza ukukhululwa, engakuthola ngokuzola okukhulu. Ngiphume lapho, ngicishe ngafuna ukuvele ngiphele yinsini, ngicabanga

ukuthi ngangisanda kubusiswa futhi ngakhululwa ngakolunye uhlangothi, kuyilapho kolunye ngathola ukuthukwa neziqalekiso kuphela; kodwa into yayibucayi kakhulu ukuthi ingangihlekisa ngayo; ngakho nganeliseka ngokumthandazela ngingatsheli muntu.

UMonsieur Larticle umtshela ukuthi ukhohlisiwe, futhi uyamkholelwa.

UNkulunkulu, okwesikhashana, wangenza ngangaboni lutho; Akukho okunye engangingakusho kwabavuma izono zami ngaphandle kwezinto ezivamile nezinsizi zabantu. Babe sebecabanga ukuthi banelungelo lokungithuka bona, bemelela kimi ukuthi abaningi bakhohliswe udeveli, ukuthi ngokushesha noma kamuva iphutha liyatholakala, njll. M. Larticle wangitshela ngokucacile ngolunye usuku ukuthi sasikhona, uM. Audouin kanye nami; ukuthi wayenolwazi oluncane kakhulu lwalezi zinhlobo zezinto; ukuthi ngangizifaka engozini enkulu yokulahlekelwa yimina... Bangiqambela ngokuthi ngangingase ngiwele ogibeni lwehlelo abalibiza ngokuthi ama- convulsionnaire , nalapho ngangingazi lutho ngaphezu kwayo yonke imicabango yabo (1).

(1) Yonke imibono nezimiso zabo zazintula ngempela isisekelo nokusebenza. Ngaphezu kwalokho, labo abaye bafunda Ukuphila Kwabangcwele bayazi ukuthi lesi akusona esokuqala uNkulunkulu asivivinya salolu hlobo, evumela isikhathi lapho abaqondisi babo bathi ngenxa yokusebenza kukadeveli kwaba umphumela wokuziphatha okungavamile kwethempeli. isibhakabhaka; kodwa uNkulunkulu akazange avumele imiphefumulo ethobekile ukuba ilahlwe yibo bonke abaqondisi bayo; bebelokhu benokwanele ukubaqinisekisa. Impilo kaSaint Thérèse iyodwa yanele ukuqinisekisa konke engikushoyo.

Konke lokhu, kwenezela ekwesabeni enganginakho kokukhohliswa, kwaphumelela ukungincenga ngakho; futhi kulokho, ngikhohliswe kakhulu kunanini ngaphambili, ngabonga uNkulunkulu ngokuthi ekugcineni wangikhulula ephutheni lami, kuyilapho ayengelapha kuphela ekuziqhenyeni kwami. Ngibe nephutha futhi, Baba, angilaphekanga ngokuphelele kukho; kodwa nali igalelo, ngomqondo ongokomfanekiso, elaqeda ukulichoboza: igalelo lenjabulo elagcina libangele ukuba lesi sihlubuki esidala siqhume, lesi silonda esiyimfihlo nesinobuthi engangisondla ngaso sonke isikhathi, futhi uNkulunkulu ngaso sonke isikhathi esebenza ukuze asihlanze futhi asibhubhise ngayo yonke indlela. futhi ngaphandle kokwazi kwami. Kufanele, yebo, kufanele kube ukuthi lokhu kuziqhenya okungajabulisi akubekezeleleki kuye, nokuthi kugxilile enhliziyweni yami enecala, ngoba kwathatha amagalelo amaningi futhi azwela kakhulu ukukuqeda, uma ngingasho ukuthi ' usekhona; kodwa bekulokhu kunomehluko omkhulu kimi kulokhu, kusukela ezinsukwini lapho nakhu.

Uzizwa ethambekele ekumemezeleni kuM. Larticle ngokushushiswa kweBandla. Umbiza ngohlanya noma ngembuka.

Ngazizwa ngithambekele kakhulu ekutsheleni umufi uM. Larticle ukuthi uNkulunkulu wayengiboniseni ngokushushiswa kweBandla, ukuqhwagwa kwempahla yabefundisi? ukwedelelwa kwamandla kapapa, ukushushiswa kwabefundisi  , nobungozi benkolo, ngamandla aqhoshayo engawabona eqhubekela phambili  ngokumelene  nawo. Nganginjengohlanya, futhi  ngakhuluma naye

kanjalo ngaphandle kokungiqonda. Yima uqine, Baba, ngithe kuye, qina; Ngibona ibandla elingcwele lizamazama lapho libona lamandla asabekayo ephakama amelane nalo.... Eziningi zezinsika zalo  ziyawa  .

ngithuthumele ngenxa yakhe. Yima uqine, Baba; Ngitshela wonke umuntu, bambelelani niqinise.

Kulezi zinkulumo, ayengaziqondi, uM. Larticle wacabanga ukuthi kumelwe azame ukucisha kimi ngisho nenkumbulo yalokho akubiza ngokuthi amaphutha ami angaphambili. Uthini lapho dadewethu, wakhala isigubhukane? uqonde ukuthini? ngoba ngiyavuma kuwe ukuthi angikuqondi nhlobo.... Ungumprofethi  wamashwa  ? (Kucace  bha

namuhla kunokuba kuningi nje.) Umemezela izinto ezimbi nezingathembeki kithi. ULuther naye wabikezela ukuwa kweBandla, kodwa iBandla akufanele neze liwe. Nakekela Dadewethu noma uyimbuka noma uyahlanya akukho okuphakathi. Kimina, angiqondi lutho (1). Nokho kwakukhona indawo ephakathi.

(1) Kimina, angiqondi lutho ngakho. Lokhu, ngokubona kwami, yikho konke okwakuyiqiniso ekucabangeni kwakhe, futhi kulokhu kwakungafanele aqinisekise ngokuqiniseka ukuthi kwakukhona ukuhlubuka noma ukweqisa entweni ayengayiqondi lutho. Sesike sabona kwenye indawo ukuthi nguyena uqobo owayenephutha ngenxa yokwesaba ukuwela kulo, futhi konke lokhu akushoyo lapha kuqinisekisa kuphela. Kuyingozi kakhulu ukunquma ngokuxhamazela, futhi ikakhulukazi ngokubandlulula, ngalezi zinhlobo zezindaba.

Uyazithoba esinqumweni sakhe, ahoxise amaphutha akhe asolwayo, futhi avume izono obala.

Umbono nje wokuhlubuka wangiphazamisa. Ngegama elithi sinister ayelisebenzisa, ngaqonda ukuthi wayekholelwa ukuthi ngingumJansenist . Nkosi, Nkulunkulu wami, ngakhala, mina Jansenist! Ah! Baba kungcono ufe kunokuthi ube imbuka. Ngiyamemezela kini ukuthi ngifuna ukukholwa kuphela lokho iBandla elikukholelwayo. Awu! uBaba wami, njengoba iBandla lingilahla, ngiyahoxisa futhi ngilahla ngakho konke umcabango wami ongibonise kona. (Siyabona lapha ukuthi uDade ompofu wayenokholo

elula kangangokuthi wathatha umpristi weBandla, kanye nempilo encane kuye ukuze enze isinqumo esiqinile. Kukhona, nokho, umehluko omkhulu kukho konke lokhu kusuka kokunye kuya kokunye.) Angiphinde ngifune ukugxila ezintweni ezikhohlisayo zomqondo wami; ngoba kusukela

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iBandla liyanquma, akusekho ukungabaza. Yebo, ngaba nebhadi lokuba  idemoni  Nkulunkulu Wami, ungangenzi icala, noma ungidelele  .

thethelela; Ngaphezu kwakho konke, ngilondoloze ekuhlubukeni, engikwesaba ngaphezu kokufa. Engifuna ukucabanga ngakho ukwenza inhlawulo.

Futhi angigcinanga lapho, ngoba ngenza isivumo esiphelele nesigcwele kakhulu ngakho, lapho ngazisola ngakho konke okwakwenzekile, okungenani njengoba ngangikholelwa ukuthi ngingakwazi; Ngazenza kabusha zonke izivumo zami zangaphambili, engangizibheka njengezingenamsebenzi okungenani; Ngaze ngakhala njengobugebengu obuningi imibono nezambulo engangizithole ezulwini kuphela.

Ngakho-ke, ngiyakuphinda, ngoba sengiqiniseka ngakho manje, ngikhohliswe kakhulu kunanini ngaphambili, ngabonga uNkulunkulu ngokungiphulukisa ekukhohlisweni kukasathane, futhi wangiphulukisa kuphela ekudukeni kwengqondo yami nasekuvuvukeni komphefumulo. inhliziyo yami.

Ngangihlale ngilungile uma ngimbonga, kodwa ngangingazi uhlobo lwenkonzo ayengenzele yona; Bengithembele ekulahlekelweni yikho konke okusohlangothini lwesu lokushicilela lokho ayengazise kimi, nokho wayengenze ngalungela ukuqaliswa kwalolu hlelo. Wayesebenze lapho isikhathi eside ngazo zonke izindlela, ngokululazeka okuhlukene; kodwa akakaze angilahle ngokuphelele, uthando lwakhe olungcwele lwavala zonke izinto engangiswele, futhi yedwa owayengangisekela phakathi kokuhlupheka nobuhlungu obungaka.

UNkulunkulu uyaliduduza ezinsizini zalo, alibeka ngobukhulu bokuziqhenya kwalo.

Ngezwa induduzo yangaphakathi ukuthi bekungeke kube usizo ukuzama ukuchaza, ngangiba nezikhawu lapho uNkulunkulu ebonakala ejabulela ukunginxephezela kukho konke ngokukhanya nangesisa esingajwayelekile emaphuzwini ahlukene enkolo yethu engcwele, nokuthi ngokuhamba kwesikhathi.

wabhekana namagalelo anzima kakhulu ekuziqhenyeni kwami. Baba, yeka ukulunga kukaNkulunkulu, futhi sibi kangakanani ukukhononda ngobunzima bakhe, njengoba eshaya labo abathandayo kuphela, futhi uyabalimaza ukuze belaphe! Lapho engehlisa kakhulu ngakolunye uhlangothi, kwaba yilapho ebonakala efuna ukungikhulisa ngakolunye; wabonakala ngesandla esisodwa engikhombisa imivuzo nemiqhele, futhi ngesinye izimpi neziphambano ezingangifanelekela zona. Wabonakala ethi kimi ngokuziphatha kwakhe: Uyokwazi ukunqoba izitha zakho zangaphandle kuphela ngemva kokuba usuzinqobile, ngokunyathela phansi kwezinyawo zakho zonke izifiso zemvelo. Kusemanxiweni ayo lapho kufanele kwakhiwe isakhiwo sokuphelela. Kufanele uhlale usebenza ukubethela umuntu omdala ongaphakathi kuwe, unikeze ukuphila kumuntu omusha. Ngakho, uBaba wami, ngizungezwe iziphambano, ngathola usizo lwesisebenzi esithandekayo uNkulunkulu angibonisa sona ephusheni, ngisho uthando lwaphezulu, olwalumatasa njalo luzenza zibe lula futhi zibekezeleleke kimi, ngokuzithambisa. ngiyakutshela uzokhuluma kwenye indawo; lokho kuningi  okwanamuhla.

Ukugula okubi okumholela emasangweni okufa. Ukuhlasela kwedemoni okubi.

“Egameni likaYise, leNdodana, njll. »

Ngaphambi kokugula okubi kakhulu engake ngaba nakho, uJ.-C. wabonakala kimi esesimweni selanga elihle, ukukhanya kwalo okuthambile nokupholile kwangenza ngaqonda ukuthi kufanele ngizihlomise ngesineke ngokumelene nokuhlasela kwedemoni; ukuthi ngenxa yalokhu kwadingeka ngithobeke kakhulu futhi ngizithobe ngokuphelele entandweni yaphezulu, ukuze ngizilahlele kuyo ngaphandle kokugodla umphefumulo nomzimba, futhi ekugcineni ngizinikele ekuzinikeleni kukho konke uNkulunkulu ayeyobonakala ekudinga kimi. . Engakwenza kusukela ngalo kanye ihora, ngokuzithandela ngimnike umhlatshelo wempilo yami lapho ethanda ukukulahla.

Kusukela lapho, Baba, lesi sifo esibucayi sazimemezela ngokushesha okwahlulelwa ngaso ukuthi kufanele kube esokugcina: odokotela base bezichazile ngaso; kodwa lowo owayekuvumele, futhi oyinkosi ebusayo yokuphila nokufa, akazange ahlulele ngakho njengodokotela: wayeze wayala ngenye indlela, kodwa kwadingeka ukuba ngiphinde ngibhekane nalolu vivinyo ukuze ngiqede inkomishi ebabayo enganginayo. wayenginike umusa wokuzilahla. Ngihlonyiswe ngamasakramente okugcina, ngase ngisele nomoya wokuphila; ebesilindele ukuyibona icinywa noma yinini. Odadewethu bonke emthandazweni

bengilindele ukwamukela umoya wami wokugcina; ikhandlela elibusisiwe lakhanyiswa lomkhosi odabukisayo; Bengicabanga ukuthi ngibone phambi kwamehlo ami i-reliquary noma ibhokisi lomngcwabo elimiselwe

ukungingcwaba. Ngagwetshwa ngiqulekile. Maye! Baba, kwakusekuningi okwakusele engqondweni yami!

Kwathi sebeqede yonke imithandazo yokuncoma komphefumulo wami, bebona ukuthi angikaphumi, amanazaretha athatha umhlalaphansi angishiya cishe ngedwa. Kwakuyisikhathi lapho idemoni lalingilindile, nalapho uNkulunkulu emvumela ukuba enze ukuhlasela okunonya kimi  . behlome ngezimfologo, bathi ngokuthuka: Silindele umphefumulo wakho ukuba uwubambe, simiselwe ukunivuza esihogweni ngokuzidla kwenu, ukuzenzisa kwenu namacala enu  Phumani  masinyane  ,

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umphefumulo oneshwa, futhi sisemililweni yethu.

Bengizoba yini kimi, ngiyakubuza baba, ukube uNkulunkulu akangivimbanga kwalasha wokuphelelwa ithemba, futhi ukube akazange angisekele ngedwa kulokhu kuhlasela okubi abekuvumela? Engangikwazi ukukwenza esimweni sokulahlwa engangikuso kwakuwukuphendukela kuye ngokukhulu ukuzethemba ngangokunokwenzeka, futhi ngimthembise ukuthi uzokwenza inhlawulo, uma engibuyisela.impilo; okwathi ngemva kwalokho ama-specter amabili kimi kwabonakala sengathi aphinde angena kwalasha ayephume kuwo.

Ngithuthumela futhi ngithuswa yilo mbono owesabekayo, umoya wami wawuthobeke njengoba umzimba wami udangele; futhi uNkulunkulu, njengoba uzobona, kusukela ngaleso sikhathi usebenze kanzima ukugcina kimi, ngendlela entsha ngokuphelele, leso simo sokuthobeka ayesimise lapho ngendlela ebiza kakhulu futhi enokhahlo emvelweni. Kancane kancane ngezwa amandla ami ebuya: isifiso sami sokudla samemezela ukubuya kwempilo yami, kwathi lapho nje sengiluleme, ngahamba ngayobika konke okwakwenzekile ku-M. Le Marié, owayengaqondi lutho kukho konke lokhu.

Shintsha phakathi kwaSister. Izibusiso ezinengqondo nezingavamile ziyaphela. Ingena olwazini ngoBuyena bukaNkulunkulu kanye nokungabi nalutho kwabo.

Amahlazo, ukushushiswa kwawululazile umoya wami, izifo nezinhlungu zaziwuchobozile umzimba wami futhi kwacindezela ukuhlubuka kwenyama. Lapho

ukuhlambalaza akuzange kubambe, futhi idemoni ngokwalo lalibonakala lingasenasibindi; futhi kwaba, uBaba, kulokhu kuthula okuhle kwemizwa nezinkanuko, kulokhu kuvumelana kwazo zonke izitha zami, lapho uNkulunkulu wazenza wazwakala kimi ukuba angihole endleleni entsha ngokuphelele ayengihlosele yona. .

Imibono, ukuthokoza, izinkanyiso zikaNkulunkulu, induduzo enengqondo konke kuyingozi kakhulu kulabo uNkulunkulu abanikeza bona, njengoba kuhlale kulula ngodeveli ukuba azenzise aze afike endaweni ethile, futhi enze okungenani ukudla okuzidlayo, okuhlala kudla ngakho, ngaphandle uma uNkulunkulu epha ngesikhathi esifanayo, njengoba enza kwabangcwele ayebathanda, umusa olinganiselayo, ukulingwa, izilingo, iziphambano ezikwazi ukumelana nazo, nokugcina umoya uthobekile njalo, ngaphandle kwalokho umuntu usengawa njengoSathane, kusukela phezulu kwezulu kuze kufike phansi esihogweni.

Ngakho-ke uNkulunkulu walengiswa kimi, waze wabangela ukuba izinkanyiso ezingavamile, ukujabula, ukuhlwithwa, imibono yangaphandle kuphele ngokuphelele, esikhundleni salokho udeveli angakwazi ukuwenza ngokungavamile futhi okunzima kakhulu ukuba mbumbulu, ngoba cishe azinabudlelwane. emizweni yangaphandle; Ngiqonde, Baba, ulwazi ngoNkulunkulu nangami ngokwami, okuyizwi eliqinisekile lokusindiswa.

Ngakho-ke uNkulunkulu waqala ngokungilahlekela embonweni ohlale ukhona wobukhulu bakhe, owathatha indawo yayo yonke induduzo yangaphakathi. Ngabona uNkulunkulu kukho konke nasezindaweni zonke; zonke izidalwa kimi zazibonakala zimuncekile futhi zicwile ebukhulwini bakhe: kwakuyimiphumela eminingi kakhulu yokuba namandla onke kwakhe, imifudlana eminingi eyaqala ebunkulunkulu bakhe futhi yabuyela emthonjeni wayo ovamile: nguye yedwa owayemkhulu, enamandla, engunaphakade, engaguquki. Kwakuyisidalwa esidingekayo nesisezingeni eliphakeme, njengoba zonke ezinye zazikhona kuso kuphela nangaso, ngaphandle kokuba, ngomqondo ongokomfanekiso, ukuba khona kwazo siqu. Ngakho konke ngaphandle kukaNkulunkulu kwangilethela igebe elesabekayo, into engelutho, lapho mina ngokwami ​​ngangicwile khona, noma kunalokho mina ngokwami ​​ngangiyigede elibi engangilithola yonke indawo. Ngathwala ngaphakathi kimi le nto emsulwa engangiyizonda.

Yilapho uNkulunkulu angenze ngabuyela khona ukuze ngibone usizi lwami lapho futhi ngidwebe izimo azidingayo emsebenzini esisebenza kuwo mina nawe namuhla. Lo mqondo wokungabi nalutho kwami, angenza ngawo ukuthi ngiqale lokho obuzokubhala, wawugxilisa kakhulu ekujuleni komphefumulo wami kanye nomphefumulo wami wonke, kangangokuthi ngezinye izikhathi kwakubonakala kimi ukuthi ekugcineni komile kuze kube sekugcineni  . impande yokuziqhenya. Kwangathi ezulwini!  uBaba wami  . Kunjalo, wangitshela ngelinye  ilanga,

emva kweSidlo sami, manje engifuna ukusisebenza kini, ngaphandle kosizo lwenu noma ukungenelela kwemizwa yomzimba.

Impilo yakhe yonke ibonakala kuye iyinqwaba yamaphutha, wenza isivumo esisha esijwayelekile ku-M. Lesne.

Kulesi simo esisha, Baba, impilo yami yonke edlule kimi yabonakala njengenqwaba yamaphutha angenakubalwa, yokungapheleli okukhulu kanye nezono, uquqaba lwazo olwangiququda ngokwesaba; ukuze ngiziqinisekise kancane futhi ngiziqinisekise, ngangifuna ukwenza okunye ukuvuma izono okuvamile, futhi kuze kube manje kwakuyiyona ndlela enembayo futhi enemininingwane eminingi yokuphila kwami. Ngayinika uM. Lesné de Montaubert, owayesanda kungena esikhundleni sika-M. Le Marié, owayebe umqondisi wesifunda saseBalazé. Wangisiza kakhulu; futhi njengoba ngangethuswa isibalo esingapheli samaphutha ami azo zonke izinhlobo, wathi kimi: Dadewethu, uma uNkulunkulu ekunika ulwazi olugcwele ngawo, uzobona ukuthi ushiya mhlawumbe ngisho nangokwengeziwe ukuze uthathe impilo yakho ngokujwayelekile.

Akazange enze iphutha, futhi, ukuze ngiqiniseke ngakho, ngokushesha uNkulunkulu wabeka emehlweni omphefumulo wami isibuko esithembekile sikanembeza wami. O zulu! Yeka ukubukeka! Ngabona lapho ubuningi obushaqisayo bokushiyeka, ubudedengu, ukungathembeki kwazo zonke izinhlobo, engazibona njengokuthi

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ukuba ngowami, kodwa engangingakaze ngicabange ukuzibeka icala ekuvumeni izono. Njengoba lalingekho iphutha lami kulokhu okweqiwayo, ngaphinda ngalahlekelwa yinkumbulo ngakho lapho nje isibuko sisusiwe kimi. Ngakho-ke nganeliseka ngokuzibeka icala kubo ngokujwayelekile, njengoba ngangibabonile, futhi ngithambekele kakhulu ekuzithobiseni nokuzibhubhisa.

Lokhu kungabi nalutho okukhulu engangihlala ngikubona ngaphandle kwami ​​nangaphakathi kimina, kuhlangene nalombono ocindezelayo noqhubekayo wesimo sikanembeza wami, ekugcineni umuzwa ojulile wosizi nobukhulu bukaNkulunkulu, wangidlulisela kukho. ukuzethemba okumnandi ebuhleni bombhali wami. Ngabe sengiziphonsa kuye ngokuphelele ukuze ngithole ukusekela kwami, amandla ami, nayo yonke induduzo yami. Le mibono yangigcina ngisenkabeni yami, futhi kwakungafanele neze ingikhathaze nganoma iyiphi indlela; nokho, ngabona ukuthi izikhathi ezingaphezu kwesisodwa udeveli wazama ukusizakala ngalokhu ukuze angidabukise ngokweqile, futhi angifake ugqozi lokungabuthembi ubuhle baphezulu.

Uyamangala lapho ebona ukungathembeki kwakhe. U-J.-C. uyamqinisekisa.

Ngazizwa ngizalwa kimi ngokwesaba okuthile okwedlulele kokuthi uNkulunkulu uzongilahla, noma kufanele angilahle ngelinye ilanga ngenxa yokungathembeki kwami. Leli themba elesabekayo mhlawumbe laliyongifaka ohlotsheni lwesimo esiyinhlekelele, ukube u-J.-C. wayengakalivimbi leli qhinga lomlingi. Kwabonakala kimi ngolunye usuku ukuthi ngangikhathazeke kakhulu ngokungabi nalutho okukhulu kwezidalwa kanye nami ngokwami.

Wesabani, wathi kimi? angenele yini ukugcwalisa inhliziyo? lahlani konke okunye, niyakufumana konke kimi; zilahle entandweni yami, futhi ngizokwazi ukubuyisela ithemba lakho, ngizokwazi ukukunxephezela ngeminikelo oyoyenzela kimi. Ngiyikho konke kulabo abangasabambi lutho. Nakhu, ndodakazi yami, wanezela, yilokho engifuna ukukuqonde ngalokhu kuziphatha okusha.

Lokhu kungabi nalutho okukhulu kwendawo yonke, lokhu ukungabi nalutho kwesidalwa, lokhu kufa kuwe nakuzo zonke izinto ezidaliwe, kuwumfanekiso omangalisayo walokho okwenzeka ekufeni. Umphefumulo, okhululiwe ezinzwa ngalokhu kuhlukaniswa kuzo zonke izinto ezinengqondo, uwela kulokhu kubhujiswa okuphelele kwayo yonke imvelo. Konke kunyamalele, konke kushabalele, konke kufile kuye: izwe alisekho; akasaboni, akasathinti lutho ngaphandle kukaNkulunkulu; futhi kusukela ngaleso sikhathi izibona icwila ngokuphelele ebukhulu bayo, njengeconsi lamanzi eliwela esifubeni solwandle, lapho limuncwa khona ngokushesha ngaphandle kokulahlekelwa ubukhona balo.

Kulapho-ke igebe ligcwaliswa ngokuphelele, ngoba isidalwa esidaliwe bese siphakathi nendawo; uwufinyelele umgomo wakhe, ujabulela isiphetho sakhe sokugcina nobuhle bakhe bobukhosi. Kulapho, ndodakazi yami, lapho engikulindele khona ngolunye usuku, futhi kungenxa yalokhu engifuna ukukulungiselela khona kusenesikhathi; ngoba ngeke kube khona ukutholwa kulolu lwandle lwenjabulo ngaphandle kwalabo abaye bacwila kulo ngesikhathi sokuphila kwabo, belahla yonke into ukuze bazilahle ngaphandle kokugodla esifubeni sikayise esibadalele yena. Lona ngumthombo abaqala kuwo, okumele bahlale kuwo njalo, ngoba ukuphela kwesikhungo sokuphumula kwabo.

Ishwa lomphefumulo elibeke injabulo yawo ezintweni ezidaliwe.

Yeka umehluko, Baba wami, phakathi kwalomphefumulo onenhlanhla kanye nalowo wesoni esiyobe sesibeke injabulo yaso kanye nobukhazikhazi baso esidalweni, injabulo yenyama kanye nezifiso zemvelo eyonakele! Lapho izibopho ezimbophele ukuphila kanye nokujabulela leli zwe elikhohlisayo zinqamuka, uyophinde ezwe ubukhona bukaNkulunkulu, kodwa uyombona kuphela njengomahluleli ongaguquki.

futhi engenakuguqulwa. Ukunyakaza ngamawala kuzomyisa kuye; naye uzofuna ukuziphonsa esifubeni sakhe; ngokuba kuwukuthambekela kwemvelo nokudingekile kwayo yonke ingqondo edaliwe; kodwa uyohlale ephikiswa kuwo ngamandla angabonakali, isandla esiyoyihlwitha ngaphandle kwesihawu, isahlulelo esisabekayo angeke akwazi ukusigoba, futhi esiyohlala sifezwa. Izwi elinamandla liyonkeneneza ngokungapheli ekujuleni konembeza wakhe wobugebengu ngala mazwi aqeda ithemba: Hoxa, awusiye owami; Angikwazi.

Ngakho-ke uyohlala ekhungathekiswa yisisindo salokhu engelutho azohamba nakho yonke indawo; ukungabi nalutho kwakhe kanye nezidalwa ayebeke ithemba lakhe kuzo kanye nenjabulo yakhe; okuyize okwesabisayo, ngeke athole lutho lwangempela lapho ngaphandle kwenkohliso emyengayo, izono ayobe ezenzile, futhi ezingasoze zayeka ukumhlupha. Yeka isiphetho somphefumulo ongafi! Yeka isiphetho saphakade! Zizoni ezineshwa, ngabe nanizalelwa ishwa elikhulu kangaka eningafuni ukuligwema, futhi eningazihluphi nokulicabanga?

Ngakho-ke lolu lwazi ngami, Baba, kwakuyisimo uNkulunkulu ayengifuna ngaso, futhi ayekade engihola ngaso isikhathi eside, njengoba ayenomusa ngokwanele ukuba angazise; kodwa kwakungeyona idemoni elaliyoyifuna, ngakho alizange liyeke ukungikhathaza ngaleli phuzu, njengoba lenza kwamanye, limelela kimi ukuthi ukube ngangiphefumulelwe uNkulunkulu ngempela, ngabe ngahlwithwa. kwaze kwaba kwelesithathu izulu futhi ngokuphelele ngithuthelwe ngaphandle kwami; ekugcineni zonke impertinences engikubuyisele kini

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ukulandisa, futhi okwadala izimpi ezimbi esaqala ngazo ukubhala; ngoba, ngesikhathi ephindaphinda imizamo yakhe, uNkulunkulu wavuselela futhi waphinda kimi imibono yokuqala eyayihlulekile.

Ukungakwazi kwakhe ukuvula isifuba noMnu. Lesné. Ukukhululeka kwakhe okukhulu ekwenzeni kanjalo nomhleli, uNkulunkulu ayemyale ukuba akuphinde njengenanela konke ayemazise khona.

Ngangimethemba kakhulu uM. Lesne ukuthi ngizokwenza izivumo zami ezijwayelekile kuye; kodwa kufanele kuvunywe, ngezwa nginokunengeka okungenakunqotshwa ukumazisa ingaphakathi lami, mayelana nezinto ezingavamile uNkulunkulu ayesebenza lapho. Lokhu kwenyanya kwaqiniswa nakakhulu izinqumo nezimpendulo ezithile ezicashile ayekwazi ngazo ukugwema zonke izingxoxo ezazingase zibe nokubukeka kokubuyela esikhathini esidlule. Kuphakathi kwakuwukungivivinya, noma kwakungokwakhe ukucwasa okuthile okwakukhulunywe kuye, njengoba ngicabanga, umuntu angase acabange; noma ekugcineni, ukuthi uNkulunkulu wayengamnqumele lokhu, njengoba umuntu engase akholelwe, nganoma iyiphi indlela le nto yenzeka ngayo, angizange ngibe nesibopho esincane sokugxilisa ubuhlungu bami kimi ngaphandle kokulokotha ngikhathazeke ngakho. Ngakho-ke ngathatha isinqumo sokulinda iZulu ukuba lizichaze kabanzi ngokwalo ngokunginikeza isikhathi kanye nezindlela zokwenza lokho okwakubonakala lisakudinga  .

Ekugcineni, Baba wami, ngalesi sikhathi kanye nalezi zindlela bezingekho kude, ukuPhathwa kwaphezulu kukuholele lapha ukuze ususe ukungabaza kwami, ulungise izinkathazo zami, uthulise ingqondo yami, futhi ubeke esikhundleni sakho konke engangikulahlekele kuMnumzane Audouin ongasekho, njengoba ngithemba, isiphetho sithinta umsebenzi awenzile nawuqalile. Lesisethulo baba nganginaso ngawe kudala ngingakakuboni, futhi kungakenzeki ukuthi uzoba umqondisi wethu endaweni kaM. Lesne. Ngikutshela lokhu, Baba, ngobuwula engikutshele ngakho konke okunye (1). Kusukela ekuqaleni benginokuthembela kini okungazange kuphikiswe, futhi engithemba ukuthi akusoze kwaphikiswa. Ngakho nginitshele izinto eziningi kunanoma ubani omunye, futhi ngingakuqinisekisa ukuthi akekho umqondisi waziwa njengoba ungazi. Ngifisa ukuthi ube ngowokugcina, futhi ungisize ngehora lokufa ukuze ungikhuthaze ngokuzethemba kulesi siqephu sokugcina, nginesizathu esikhulu sokusibamba ngenxa yemizamo engeke yehluleke ukungadlali usathane futhi. , uma uNkulunkulu emnika imvume.

(1) Ngingakusho njengoDadewethu, ngibhale konke angitshela khona, ngizama ukungashintshi lutho, ngisho nalokho okungaba nobuhlobo obuthile nami, ngobuwula obufanayo engibhale ngabo bonke abanye. UNkulunkulu uyinkosi yokusebenzisa noma ubani amthandayo, futhi amathuluzi abuthakathaka ahlala engcono kakhulu ezandleni zakhe, njengoba ngishilo kwenye indawo.

Lokhu kuthemba engikubeke kuwe Baba, ngakuyalwa yimi, futhi akuzange kungilahlekele. Yebo, ngiyaphinda, ngaba nemiyalo yokunenza nibhale phansi konke okwenzeka kimi ngezindawo, izikhathi nokunye

izimo. UNkulunkulu ungituse izikhathi ezingaphezu kwesisodwa ukuthi ngiphinde kini njengenanela lokho ayekushilo kimi noma angenze ngabona, ngoba wayezokhipha kuyo inkazimulo yakhe nokulunga kwebandla lakhe. Ngakwenu, Baba, nifuna ukuba nginiphendule ngakho; ngalokho ngakwenza ukulalela uNkulunkulu nani; ngakho ngaqala zonke izindaba zami ngokuzikhumbuza ngesibopho enganginaso sokulalela. NguNkulunkulu futhi, uBaba, ofuna ngiqede umlando omude wempilo yami yangaphakathi, ngokukunikeza umbono ojwayelekile mayelana nezimo ezahlukene engizithole ngikuzo, kanye nezibani ezahlukene engizithole ezulwini. Kodwa lokho kwanele okwanamuhla, sekuyisikhathi sokuphumula. Hamba kahle Baba, ungikhulekele.

Indlela uNkulunkulu amazisa ngayo lokho abangela ukuba kulotshwe.

“Egameni likaYise, leNdodana, njll. »

Baba wami, mayelana nemibono kanye nendlela uNkulunkulu angazisa ngayo kimi izinto ezehlukene engikhulume ngazo kini, iBandla nokushushiswa kwalo, ukwahlulelwa, ipharadesi, isihogo, isihlanzo, njll., njll. Ngakutshela ngezindawo lapho izinto zazibonakala zenzeka phambi kwami, ngezinye izikhathi indawo eyodwa, ngezinye izikhathi kwenye, cishe njalo ezintabeni. Nginitshelile ukuthi uJ.-C. wabonakala kimi lapho, njengasebandleni, ngisho nasesitokisini sethu, esesimweni somuntu, futhi njengoba ayenjalo phakathi nokuphila kwakhe kwasemhlabeni; ngezinye izikhathi wayezenza azwiwe, noma ngamazwi noma ngokukhanya kwangaphakathi, ngaphandle kokuzenza abonakale.

Sengikuchazele konke lokhu ngokusemandleni ami; kodwa uma ungibuza, isibonelo, ukuthi ngizithole kanjani ezindaweni ezahlukene, ngizokuphendula engingazi. Engingakufakazela kona ngokuqiniseka ngokwengeziwe ukuthi, lapho ubukhona bukaNkulunkulu bubonakaliswa kimi ngendlela enengqondo ngalokhu kukhanya, ngokushesha, futhi ngaso leso sikhathi, ngazithola ngithuthelwa endaweni lapho uNkulunkulu ayengifuna khona, futhi okwakuzoba indawo yezigcawu ayeyeke ukungenza ngibe yisibukeli; bese kuthi-ke, kungakhathaliseki ukuthi wasondela kimi ezintweni noma ukuthi wasondela ezintweni kimi, engingakwazi ukuhlukanisa kahle, futhi engicabanga ukuthi,

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akunandaba, kuqinisekile ukuthi ngawabona, okungenani, ngamehlo engqondo. Nakuba ngachitha isikhathi esiningi ngicabanga ngezinto ezihlukahlukene engangiziboniswa, umnyakazo wokuqala owangihambisa lapho wawuhlala wenziwe ngokuphazima kweso; okwenzeka ngezinye izikhathi, nakuba kungavamile kakhulu. Ngiyabona, ngiyathinta, ngiyezwa, nakuba ukusetshenziswa kwezinzwa kuphazanyiswa ngokuphelele noma ingxenye, njengoba nginitshelile ngaphambili.

Ukuze ukuqonde kahle lokhu, Baba, kuyokwanela ukuphinde ngikukhumbuze okwenzeka ngaphakathi kimi ngesikhathi kuculwa i-prose yabafileyo ngoSuku Lwabangcwele Bonke. Ngazizwa futhi ngazibona ngokuzumayo ngithuthelwa esihogweni; kodwa, njengoba nazi, ngangingesabi lutho, njengoba mina Ngangino-J.-C. Lapho, ngabona, ngahlola zonke izinto ezesabekayo engakhuluma ngazo kuwe ngemininingwane engazenza ngazo kuwe. Ngesikhathi ingqondo yami imatasa ngakho, ngezwa izindela zicula eceleni kwami; kodwa amazwi abo ahlangene akha umsindo ocishe ungezwakali nongezwakali ezindlebeni zami. Ngathi ngasemaphethelweni e-prose, ngaphuma kulobu buthaka, ngaphinda ngaqala ukusebenzisa izinzwa okomuntu ovuswa ubuthongo obunzima, lapho ayekade ecabanga ukuthi wezwa umsindo othile owawumphazamise kancane.

Lokhu kuhlwithwa okwenzeka kimi kaningi esikhathini esidlule kusangenzeka kimi ngezikhathi ezithile; bese kuthi noma ngizindla e

ikhwaya, esitokisini sami, noma ngisho nangesikhathi sokungcebeleka, ngilapho uNkulunkulu ehambisa umoya wami kakhulu, kunasendaweni lapho umzimba wami uphumule khona. Yikho-ke lokhu okungenza ngesabe ikhefu, njengoba ngike ngakutshela kwenye indawo, ngoba liyihlazo kimina.

Ukudebesela okuncane nje kwakhe kuvimbela umusa  kaNkulunkulu.

Ubudedengu obuncane ngasohlangothini lwami, iphutha elincane lihlala libeka izithiyo eziningi noma ezincane emiseni yezulu. Iphutha elibi kakhulu lingangiphuca lona ngokuphelele, futhi uma leli phutha liye kumuntu ofayo, lingabeka udonga  lokuhlukanisa phakathi kukaNkulunkulu nami. Ube esehoxisa umusa wakhe futhi azihoxise; kodwa emaphutheni ajwayelekile, uyenelisa ukungihlambalaza kakhulu noma kancane: ngezinye izikhathi kumane kuyizihlamba zobubele; ungathi indoda ecasukile ikhala ngokubanda komfazi osathandwa, nokho isabisa ngokumlahla. Kwesinye isikhathi kungemuva kokuxolelwa kanye nenhlanganyelo eminingi lapho ebonakala kimina ukuthi angishiye isikhathi sokumfisa kanye nobuhlungu bokumdabukisa.  I

bese wesaba ukusondela kwakhe kanye nokubuka kwakhe kokuqala; kodwa ngisawafisa kakhulu kunokuba ngibesaba.

Imibono yomusa ayithola ezambulweni uNkulunkulu amenzela zona umusa. Umbono onamandla wenzondo yesono.

Kulezi zikhathi zokubukeka, ngazithola ngishaywe izinto ezinhle noma ezimbi ezangithinta ngokushintshana ngokwesaba, ithemba noma uthando, futhi le mibono yayihlobene nezinto ezahlukene. Uma ngicabangela ukuhlushwa esihogweni, ngokwesibonelo, ngangizwa  imibono iwusizo njengoba yayicacile, eyangenza ngithuthumele ngami kanye nokungaqiniseki kwesiphetho sami saphakade. Kwakunjalo nangesihlanzo ngokulingana  .

Ngokubona injabulo yabangcwele, ngazizwa ngithambekele ekuzameni ukuyifanelekela ngemisebenzi emihle; njengokubona amashwa nokuhlushwa kwabalahliwe, ngazizwa ngithambekele kakhulu ekwenzeni konke ukuze ngibagweme. Lezi zimo ezimbili ezeqisayo zangenza ngazizwa, futhi zathinta emunweni wami, ngokushintshana kwazo okwesabekayo nokungenakugwemeka, lonke inani lomphefumulo wami kanye nakho konke ukubaluleka kwesiphetho sawo saphakade. Ngaqonda ngaleso sikhathi wonke amandla kanye nawo wonke amaqiniso ala mazwi eVangeli: Kunanzuzoni yomuntu ukuba azuze wonke umhlaba, uma eza ezolahlekelwa umphefumulo wakhe? Ubani ongamnxephezela ngalokhu  kulahlekelwa okungenakulungiseka?

Lokhu ukubaluleka kwensindiso. Ngantanta kanjalo phakathi kwethemba lezulu kanye nokwesaba isihogo, futhi ngathuthumela ngenxa yokungaqiniseki kwephakade lami; isimo udeveli angakaze asidale, angazami ngisho nokusenza umgunyathi, futhi angeke akwazi ukusilingisa kahle.

Ngokucabangela, phakathi kokunye, ukuhlushwa okuthile kwabalahliwe, ngezwa unembeza wami ungitshela ukuthi kwakungifanele. Yeka ukwesaba! Ngakhulelwa ngaleso sikhathi inzondo enkulu kangaka ngesono esingesihle esangenza ngafaneleka isijeziso esinjalo, kangangokuthi yayidlula inzondo enganginayo ngedemoni elalingithwale lapho, ngisho nokwesaba lokhu kuhlushwa: ukuhlukana kanye nokwesaba. ukulahlekelwa okuvela kuNkulunkulu, okungabekezeleleki njengoba kwakunjalo ngokwako, ngaleso sikhathi kimi kwakubonakala kuncane ngomqondo othile; akukho okwakungaphezu kokwesaba engangikucabanga ukuthi ngingundabamlonyeni wenunu eyamcasula ingunaphakade; ukuba nenhliziyo yaphakade amacala angeke axolelwe, athethelelwe, akhohlwe, futhi ayoba khona ngokungapheli ngenxa yeshwa.

yesidalwa esingabhubhi, ababeyomenza isitha sikaNkulunkulu waso kuze kube phakade, noNkulunkulu ababeyomhlomela kuze kube phakade.

Ngabe sengingena kakhulu enzondweni engenakulungiseka uNkulunkulu anayo ngalesi sitha esifayo, esizwa isigwebo.

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owakhuluma ngokumelene naye ngesahlulelo afakaza ngaso kimi, ngathi kuye: Yebo, Nkulunkulu wami! uma kwenzeka ngiba neshwa lokusolwa njengalabo abampofu abaneshwa enibalahla ngokuba nesono ezinhliziyweni zabo, ngiyasiqinisekisa ngaphambili lesi sigwebo eninginikeza sona, njengoba nisithwala ngokumelene nabo. Noma ngabe kwesabeka kangakanani, ngiyakwamukela futhi ngiyakuqinisekisa; Ngiyazilahla ekuhlushweni esihogweni, ukuze ngikuphindisele ngenxa yentukuthelo enyantisayo eyenziwe kuwe yisilo esibi. O Baba wami! uma abantu benombono nje ngakho; ukube bebebazi ububi bayo; ukube babazi ukuthi ikuphi inzondo okumfanele, bebezomjezisa kanjani futhi bambhubhise kubo ngokwabo ngokujeziswa okunenhlinzeko okwakuyovimbela ukuqina kobulungisa bukaNkulunkulu!

Ingabe umphefumulo, ukube wawubuyile ezulwini lesithathu, njengomphostoli uPawulu oNgcwele ngokwakhe, ungake ucabange ngokuziqhenya, lapho sewenziwe ukuba ubone kokubili ukungabi nalutho kwawo, nobukhulu, nobubi bezono ozenzile. noma ayengazenza, kanye nezinhlupheko ezimbi ezimfanele, futhi okungenzeka ukuthi zimlindile ekupheleni komsebenzi wakhe; ngoba ngubani owaziyo uma kufanele ukuthandwa noma ukuzondwa? Lo muntu, ekude nokusebenzisa kabi umusa wezulu, ngokuziqinisekisa ngokungaqiniseki kwensindiso yakhe, ngeke yini azimisele nakakhulu ukusebenza kule ndaba enkulu ngakho konke ukunakekela okudingekayo ngokubaluleka kwayo nesidingo sayo, ukuze siphumelele ukusisebenzisa ngokwesaba nangokuthuthumela uMoya oNgcwele asibuza ngomlomo walo mphostoli engiqeda ukumqamba igama?

Lesi, uBaba wami, isimo engizithola ngikuso njengamanje, futhi uNkulunkulu abelokhu engicela ngaso sonke isikhathi, njengoba ezama njalo ukukuletha; kodwa lesi simo senjabulo sisekude ukuthi sifike kimi ngokuzuma, noma kusukela ekuqaleni kwezambulo zami. Umusa kufanele ukuthi ungibeke kukho ngazo zonke izindlela, njengoba ubonile, nangezindlela ezingavamile okuyisihloko esisha sokuthuthumela kimi nge-akhawunti engizoyikhipha.

Yebo, Baba, futhi uyazi ukuthi ngangikade ngikude  nalapho, ngomusa kaNkulunkulu, manje. Kwakunokungapheleli okuningi kokuncane engangikwenza; imvelo yazithola kaninginingi; idemoni lalizenzela yonke indawo. Ngakho, ngiyaphinda futhi, futhi ngikhuluma ngendlela engithinteka ngayo, uma konke kubhuntshile esikhathini esidlule, kuwukuziqhenya kwami ​​kanye nezimo zami ezimbi kuphela okufanele kusolwe: bekuzokwenzekani ngokungenaphutha ukube uNkulunkulu akazenzanga zonke izindleko. ngokubhubhisa zonke izithiyo; ngoba, ngokuqondene nami, ngingakwazi, ngaphandle kokudinga ukuthobeka, ukuniqinisekisa ukuthi nginamandla okonakalisa umsebenzi kaNkulunkulu futhi ngilimaze amacebo akhe amakhulu: yilokho nami engisuka kukho.

Ingozi yomusa ongajwayelekile. Kwabangcwele bahambisana nokuhlupheka nokululazeka okukhulu.

Ngokuqondene nokuthakazelelwa okunengqondo, nezibani eziveza injabulo nokuhlwithwa, noma umphumela wazo ophela ngaphandle kwemibono nezinto ezingajwayelekile, akungabazeki ukuthi, ngomqondo ongokoqobo, zifanele ukwesatshwa kakhulu kunokufiswa, ngoba kuhlale kuvumela abanye ukuthi banikezwe, futhi bayingozi kulabo okwenzeka kubo, uma bengalingani lapho ngendlela engabhubhisa ngokuphumelelayo lokho okungalimaza ubuhle besifundo ezitholakala kuso. .

Ngakho-ke, uBaba, uNkulunkulu wangenza ngazi ukuthi noma nini lapho ezisebenzisa ukuze kuzuze ibandla lakhe kanye nensindiso yemiphefumulo, wayehlale enikeza labo ababengamathuluzi alo ukuthotshiswa, ukuhlupheka, umusa ekugcineni wokubikezela okwabaphoqa, ukuze bakhulume, babuyele kubo, futhi bahlale bengenalutho lwabo. Futhi siyabona ukuthi labo uNkulunkulu abasebenzisa ukuba babe amathuluzi omusa wakhe, ukuze abuyisele abantu emsebenzini wabo, cishe bonke babengabangcwele bokufa okuphelele nokuphelele, kanye nokuthobeka okujule kakhulu.

Ukuthobeka okukhulu kwamadoda abizelwe ukwenza izimanga eBandleni.

Yebo, Baba, laba bantu abangavamile futhi abafaneleka kakhulu okokuqala, laba abangcwele abanezimangaliso, futhi labo ama-prodigies ababesebenza kuzo zonke izinhlobo ngokuvamile baqamba igama lama-thaumaturges, uNkulunkulu wangenza ngabona ukuthi abaphephile . , phakathi kokuhlonishwa kwabo.

ukuthi izinkanuko zabo zacima futhi zafa ezinhliziyweni zabo, njengoba nje benza egameni likaNkulunkulu, futhi ngaphandle kokubuyela kubo. Ukuziqhenya kwakusaziveza: kodwa eningini wathola inhliziyo engafinyeleleki ekuhlaseleni kwakhe, nezinkanuko ezingasaphefumuli. Udeveli nemvelo kwanqotshwa futhi kwaphoqeleka ukuthi kuthule, futhi yilokho okwabenza balondeka.

Yebo, Baba, ngiyabona ukuthi lababantu abangcwele babephila ngothando lukaNkulunkulu kuphela, udumo lwakhe ababelufuna kukho konke nakuyo yonke indawo; ukusebenzisa  isidalwa kuphela  ukuphakama

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Umdali; ngezwi, babefile kubo, emhlabeni, nasezintokozweni zemizwa; babefuna kuphela ukuphendula emseni wakhe, ukulwa nezinkanuko zabo, ukunqoba izilingo zabo, kanye nokunqoba ngokuphelele umuntu omdala. Kube khona abanye, futhi kusekhona abanye abangakakhululwa ngokuphelele embusweni wezinzwa nezinkanuko, abasagcwele ukubuyisela kubo, ukungapheleli ngisho namaphutha. Laba bantu abazona izigebengu ezimbi kakhulu, kodwa bangakwazi futhi baba njalo kaningi, noma okungenani ukunamathela kwabo esidalweni kubanikeza izikhathi eziningi kakhulu zokuwa nokungathembeki. Ikakhulukazi kubo ukuthi umusa ozwelayo futhi ongajwayelekile uyingozi, ngoba njengoba sesichazile,

Indlela uNkulunkulu avikela ngayo uDadekazi ekuziqhenyeni ngomusa  ongavamile akhuluma naye ukuze asindise  imiphefumulo.

Futhi, uBaba wami, kule misa engajwayelekile axhumane  nami ukuze kusindiswe abanye, ungenze ngabona ukuthi ukulunga kwakhe kwasindisa ubuthakathaka bami kakhulu. Ukuzethemba kwami ​​kwakuzwela kakhulu, inkanuko yami idlangile, nokuziqhenya kwami ​​kulunge kakhulu ukuthi kungashiswa. Wangenza ngaqonda ukuthi  nginjalo

elahlekile ngaphandle kwensiza, ukube akazange awuthuntubeze umusa awubeke kimi ngesihle nakwabanye, ngalezo azibekele mina kuphela. Unjalo umbono ocacile wobukhulu bakhe, ukungabi nalutho kwami, nezono zami, nokwesaba izahlulelo zakhe, kanye nokukhohlwa okuphelele nokuphelele kwezinto eziyinkulungwane angazisa zona, angakhulumanga ngazo. ngikhumbule inkumbulo ukuze ngikwenze ukuthi uzibhale, ngaphandle kokuthi ngikwazi, umzuzwana olandelayo, ukuzisebenzisa. Ubufakazi obuhle, ngokubona kwami, ukuthi imibono ayifiki kimi, ngoba angikwazi ukuba nayo ngedwa, noma ngiyigweme lapho uNkulunkulu enginika yona, noma ngiyithathe noma ngiyigcine lapho engisusa kimi. Ingabe umuntu usengakwazi ukuqhosha lapho ehlangabezane nokuntula amandla nobumpofu okungaka, lapho ekugcineni esenezifundo eziningi kangaka

Ngakho-ke uNkulunkulu ungenze ngabona, Baba, ukuthi udeveli angahlaba umxhwele, ngokwesibonelo, ngomthandazo, izibani ezingavamile, ubumnandi bokunambitha okubucayi, okuhlangene nokukholisa ukuthobeka okuwukuphela kwemicabango, njengabo bonke abanye. imiphefumulo ebhekana nakho ngenxa yeshwa labo ikholelwa ukuthi iyamjabulisa uNkulunkulu, nokuthi akukho okunye okumele kusesabe ngabo; ugibe oluyingozi kakhulu ngoba kunzima kakhulu kubo ukulugwema, ngisho nokulubona, nakuba abantu abanolwazi olunzulu ngengokomoya leqiniso kanye nempilo yangaphakathi bazi ukuthi bangazivikela kanjani kulo. Okufanele bakwenze nje ukuqhathanisa ndawonye imizwa ehlukene abazizwayo ngezikhathi ezithile ukuze babone inkohliso futhi baxazulule umsebenzi kaNkulunkulu ovela emsebenzini kadeveli. Kodwa sizobuyela kukho futhi uma ubona kufanelekile. Ngakho asiyishiye lapho kulokhu ukusa; futhi kulobu busuku, ngemva kokuphindwa kwencwadi yakho yesikhashana, sizothatha imininingwane yempilo yami embi yangaphakathi. UNkulunkulu esiza, ekugcineni sizozama ukukuqeda. Ngikhulekele....

Inkohliso yedemoni kwezinye izinto ezingavamile angakwazi ukuzenza mbumbulu. Umphumela wabo uhlala ukuvuvukala kwenhliziyo.

“Egameni likaBaba, njll. »

Baba, umphumela ohlale uveza inkohliso kasathane, angikwazi ukuwuphinda kaningi, uqukethe ukwaneliseka okuyize okuvela ekuzethembeni okukhulu, ukuvuvukala kwenhliziyo okuhlala kuholela ekuzikholweni kangcono. abanye. Lo mbono, njengoba ngike ngasho, awukaze udidwe imiphefumulo engaphakathi ngempela naleyo ebangelwa ukubona ubukhona bukaNkulunkulu, futhi akukho iphutha lapho sesike sabhekana nakho kokubili. Omunye uthinta ingaphakathi lomphefumulo, owenelisa futhi uwuthulise ngokuwululaza; omunye ubamba umcabango futhi

okusho ukuthi liyabakhohlisa ngokubadida. UNkulunkulu kuphela ongaphulukisa inhliziyo yomuntu, njengoba nguye yedwa ongayenelisa futhi ayigcwalise; nguye yedwa ongabuyisela ukuthula lapho ngokuchitha izinkanuko eziphikisana nakho. Idemoni likhiqiza ukubonakala kwalo kuphela ngokubeka umzukwane endaweni yeqiniso; ilwa nentshiseko eyodwa nenye inkanuko, ububi obuthile nomunye ububi obufihleke kakhulu, futhi isenza kuphela sigweme kwalasha wokusenza siwele komunye ngokuvamile ojule kakhulu. Yebo, Baba, lapho yonke imikhuba emibi isichithiwe, idemoni liyobe lisajabula, inqobo nje uma lingavuselela ukuziqhenya ezinsalela zabo. Kanjalo, esiphonsa kokunye ukudlulela kokunye, ubhebhezela yonke imikhuba emibi nezinkanuko zonke, nokuthambekela okubi kwemvelo eyonakele; futhi ulungiselela ekujuleni kwenhliziyo impi enonya kakhulu ngaphansi kokubonakala kokuthula. Ungumlilo ocashe ngaphansi komlotha obangela ukuqubuka komlilo, ukuzola okukhohlisayo omemezela isiphepho futhi udalule ongenangqondo ongazi ukuthi angakugwema kanjani ekulahlekelweni okungenakulungiseka.

ngiyazimela mina, Baba wami

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impi kaMose nezanusi zikaFaro. Impela nguNkulunkulu nedemoni ababambe iqhaza. Ngobuciko bedemoni nokuhlangana kwabo nesihogo, izanusi ziphumelela ekwenzeni umgunyathi, kuze kube seqophelweni elithile, lokho okwenziwa umsha-mthetho ongcwele wamaHeberu: baphikisana nenkohliso nemilingo ezintweni ezimangalisayo; kodwa kunesikhathi lapho bezithola benesibopho sokuvuma ukungabi namandla kwabo kanye nokunqotshwa kwabo, kanye nokuphakama komphikisi wabo, futhi yileli phuzu lapho ubuNkulunkulu bubalindile khona ukuze babubone ngokusebenza kwabo, ngokuthi: Umunwe kaNkulunkulu ukhona . Ngakho wayengekho ngasohlangothini lwabo.

Kungakho ngaso sonke isikhathi inkawu yobunkulunkulu ibifuna ukugxambukela emsebenzini wayo; kodwa kwakuwukumehlisa isithunzi nje. Kungakho wamelana neziprofetho, nokukhulekelwa konkulunkulu bamanga kwabaqinisileyo. Nguye lowo, ngendlela efanayo nangenhloso efanayo, waveza ukuhlukana nokuhlubuka, ngaphansi kwezaba lenguquko, futhi wenza sengathi umisa kabusha inkolo neBandla, lapho esebenzela ukubhujiswa kwayo ngokuphelele. Yiziphi izingibe angazibeki nsuku zonke ukuze kube lula lokholo nokungabi nacala, emikhiqizweni yakhe ecashile lapho inyoka icasha ngaphansi kwezimbali, lapho

ubuthi obufayo benziwa ukuba bugwinywe ophuzweni olumnandi, futhi lapho amanga enkohliso eshabalala ngaphansi kokubonakala kweqiniso!

Imithetho yokwehlukanisa izibani zamanga ezivela edemoni.

Kodwa, Baba, kuphezu kwakho konke ohlotsheni lomoya ukuthi leli khono likhona

u-charlatan wenza yonke imizamo yokwenza ushintsho. Kulapho ngaphezu kwakho konke ahamba ngakho ngazo zonke izindlela ukukhohlisa umphefumulo, ngaphansi kwezaba lokupheleliswa, njengoba ngishilo. Sibonile, Baba, kulula ngaso sonke isikhathi emiphefumulweni enolwazi ngengokomoya leqiniso ukuthola izingibe zayo futhi ibone izibani zayo ezingamanga; kepha labo abanganambitheki okumnandi kangaka kubo, ukuqonda okuqinisekile ngezindlela zikaNkulunkulu, kufanele bakhuthale ekucabangeni ngokwezimiso zokukholwa;

1° lokho udeveli angakwazi nangakwazi;

(2) indlela asebenza ngayo, ngokuphambene nekaNkulunkulu, njengoba siye sathuthuka ngezikhathi ezihlukahlukene; ekugcineni, ngaphezu kwakho konke, umgomo awuphakamisayo, okuwukulwa njalo nemiklamo kaNkulunkulu, nokuphonsa noma ukugcina imiphefumulo ekukhohliseni, kanye nokuqinisa inkosi eneshwa yaseGibhithe ebumpumputheni uNkulunkulu ayezama ukuyithola kubo. ngaphandle ngayo yonke indlela. Ngokwale mithetho esekelwe phezu kwayo yonke ukukhanya kwaphezulu, kuyobonakala ngokucacile ukuthi kuzo zonke izinhlobo zomculo afisa ukuzigaxa kuzo, kunephuzu udeveli angeke akwazi ukulikhohlisa, noma lapho kuhlale kulula ukuhlukanisa iqiniso. kusukela kumgunyathi. Leli phuzu, Baba wami, uNkulunkulu ukweleta umsebenzi wakhe, isidalwa sakhe nakuye uqobo, futhi lelitshe lokuhlola kufanele lifinyelele wonke umuntu,

Indlela enhle yokuthola iphutha leziphakamiso zakhe, lapho eziveza emphefumulweni, ukungavumi lutho oluphambene nokholo, embhalweni, noma izinqumo zeBandla. Kukhulu kakhulu ngokusikisela okuhlukahlukene okuthathwe ikakhulukazi, inkomba yeqiniso. Akunakwenzeka ukuthi uYise wamanga angasheshi aphambuke kuyo, futhi ngeke azame ukuphambuka kuyo kanye naye, ngoba umgomo wakhe omkhulu uwukulwa nokubhubhisa, njengoba kukhona kuye, ukuzithoba kwethu eBandleni. kanye nokholo lwethu emaqinisweni anesibopho sokusiphakamisa; kodwa, njengoba ngishilo, ngokwalokho uNkulunkulu angazisa ngakho kimi, akwenzeki ukuthi ubuwula bungaziphikisani, kufanele ngempela buzikhaphele endaweni ethile.

Yebo, Baba, futhi thatha lokhu njengeqiniso elingenakuphikiswa: noma yiluphi ulwazi oluhle udeveli athi usinikeza lona endabeni engokomoya, akunakwenzeka ukuthi angachezuki kokuthile okholweni nasekulaleleni iBandla. inzondo neyakhe

ukuziqhenya. Kodwa enye indlela, futhi iseyinhle kakhulu, yokuthola iqhinga lalomoya wephutha, ukuhlanganisa kulokhu kuzinikela okholweni intando eqinile nengapheli yokulandela intando yaphezulu kukho konke futhi ungasuki kuyo. ngaphandle lutho. Lesi simo, esijabulisa ngokungenamkhawulo uNkulunkulu, asimjabulisi, ungangabazi, isitha Sakhe ngokwedlulele, futhi kusengenzeka ukuthi inhliziyo etholakala kuyo kufanele ibe yinto yokudlala yamaphutha isikhathi eside; isibani sokukholwa esimholela endleleni yokulalela nothando sizobe sesikuchithile lokhu kukhanya okungamanga okumdukisayo.

Okuhluke kakhulu kulobu buqili obungokomoya, kulokhu kukhanya okukhohlisayo nokwesikhashana, okungakhazimula isikhashana nje futhi kunyamalale umzuzwana  ngemva kokukhanya okukhanyayo nokuthambile okuvela ku-J.-C, kuyanda futhi kwande lapho kusondela lesi sibani saphezulu. lokukholwa. Kungumlilo owengezwe komunye umlilo wemvelo efanayo, futhi ovutha kakhulu yile nyunyana; kuyilapho udumo lwedemoni lunyamalala njenge-will-o'-the-wisps noma i-phosphors yasebusuku, ngaphambi kwenkanyezi ekhanyisa umhlaba ngamandla emisebe yayo emihle. Kusuka lapho kufanele kuphethwe ukuthi zonke lezi  zinsolo

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ugqozi oluvela emhlabeni, uma ukuthathe kahle, kuphela ukukhohlisa kweqili elinekhono eliphila kuphela ngezindleko zalabo abenza ama-dupe of charlatanism yakhe; kodwa nokho, uBaba, noma amanga alomkhohlisi ayemabi kangakanani, uNkulunkulu wangenza ngazi ukuthi ngangiyokhohliswa yibona ngokungenaphutha mina ngokwami ​​ezimpini eziningi, ukuba wayenganginikezanga usizo lokuhoxa ephutheni noma ngizisindise emaphutheni. ewela kuyo.

Omunye wabavuma izono zikaDadewethu ubuza uNkulunkulu ngendlela okufanele amhole ngayo. Impendulo ka-J.-C. kuDadewethu ngale ndaba.

Omunye wabavuma izono zami ongavamile wayebuze kuNkulunkulu ngendlela okufanele angihole ngayo (1). “Indodakazi yami, u-J.-C. ngoba, wengeza, ngiyathanda

(1) Kwakungongasekho uM. Beurier, isithunywa sevangeli esikhulu seBandla Lama-Eudists, esazi kahle isiqondiso semiphefumulo, umbhali womsebenzi ohlonishwayo, Conferences on the Faith , owafa ekugcineni enephunga lobungcwele. Njengabanye abaningi, wayenombono wokuthi uDade kwakufanele abhale uM. Audouin, njengoba sibonile ekuqaleni.

ukuhola imiphefumulo ngezindlela ezahlukene ngezinye izikhathi ezingaziwa ngisho nakumqondisi wayo uqobo, kanye nakuwo uqobo. Njengoba udeveli enamaqhinga akhe ayimfihlo kanye nokuphambuka kwakhe okucashile, kanye nezaga zabo zamanga ukuze abakhohlise nokubayenga, nami nginakho, ukubasekela nokubhubhisa amaqhinga edemoni nawezwe, ikakhulukazi izindlela zokuhlakanipha komuntu noma ezobuSathane. angaqonda. Ngivame ukuvumela izilingo zabo kanye nobunzima babo bangaphakathi, ukulinganisa okuhle kubo, futhi ngigcine umusa wami uvikelekile ekuzithandeni okufuna ukubasusa kuphela. Uma kwenzeka ukuthi idemoni linqoba okuthile phezu kwentando yabo, ezimpini engimvumela ukuba alwe nazo, khona-ke ngisebenzisa ukunqoba kwakhe ukulwa naye ngenzuzo eyengeziwe, ngimehlule ngokumbhoboza ngemicibisholo yakhe. Ngakho, ngemfihlo udeveli ayesabayo, futhi engaphezu kwalokho okungashiwo, ngiphikisana nomphumela wesizathu, futhi ngisebenzisa ubugebengu obenziwe ukuze ngiqede ukuzidla okubakhiqizile. Ngalokhu ngichoboza ikhanda lenyoka ngokuluma kwayo ukuze ngenze umuthi wokugcoba okwaziyo philisa."

Umusa wokubhujiswa osungulwe ukuhlupheka enhliziyweni kaDadewethu. Ukuhlangana kwakhe no-J.-C. ehlupheka futhi abhujiswe, ikakhulukazi eSakramente Elingcwele le-altare.

Kukangaki, Baba, ngingazange ngibe nenjabulo yokuzwa lokhu kuziphatha kokupha okuvela kuNkulunkulu wami! Yeka ukuthi ngimbonga kangakanani ngokungigcina ngiseduze naye ngokuzinamathisela esiphambanweni! Ngokungangabazeki wayenamacebo akhe esihe, ngokungiphonsa olwandle lokuthotshiswa nokuhlupheka. Ah! Makabusiswe kuze kube phakade. Udeveli wayesebenzise zona kanye izibani zikaNkulunkulu ukuletha ukuziqhenya engqondweni yami; ngakho-ke kwakudingeka ukuba, ukuze abhuntshise amaqhinga akhe, akhohlise amathemba akhe futhi anqobe impumelelo yakhe, uNkulunkulu kwadingeka enze ngazo zonke izindlela ezingaziwa ngobubi bedemoni mayelana nakho konke ubuhlakani bomuntu.

Isitha sakhe sasithembele ekucekeleni phansi kusukela phezulu kuye phansi iphrojekthi okwakumele yesabe, futhi le phrojekthi yayingakaze isondele kakhulu ekuphumeleleni njengalapho yayizibongela ngokunqoba kwayo, nalapho nami ngangizikholelwa.

ukuthi yonke into yayishoda. Kodwa, ngiyaphinda, ngiyaqaphela ukuthi ngangingeke ngikhohliswe ngenjabulo njengalapho ngibonga uNkulunkulu ngokungikhulula emaphutheni.

Kungalesi sikhathi futhi lapho umusa omusha nokukhanya okusha kwaqala ukungehlisela kwalasha wokungabi nalutho kwami; isibuko esithembekile engithatha kuso ngokukhululeka ulwazi ngoNkulunkulu nangami ngokwami. Ngikubona kuyiziphetho ezimbili eziphikisanayo, amandla ohlangothini olulodwa, ubuthakathaka kolunye, noSathane njengoba ebekwe phakathi kwakho kokubili, ehlale ebheke ukulimaza oyedwa noma omunye, efunda ngokungaphezi ukusizakala ngazo zonke izikhathi nangawo wonke umzuzu. ukuvusa, ukuhlomisa inkanuko ngokumelene nobuthakathaka bemvelo obungenakukwazi ukwenza lutho ngaphandle komusa; kodwa okududuzayo, ngiyabona kulesi sibuko ukuthi uNkulunkulu akalokothi akwenqabe lapho kudingeka, ikakhulukazi kulabo abacela ngokufanelekile, futhi benze konke abangakwenza ukuze bazuze kukho.

Kumele ngikutshele futhi, Baba, ukuthi ngokudonswa kwalomusa wokubhujiswa kanye nokuhlangana noMsindisi wami, ngizithola ngihlala njalo ngihlanganisa iziphambano zami nesiphambano sika-J.-C. ukuhlupheka kwakhe, ukufa kwami ​​kuze kube sekufeni kwakhe nasekushisekeni kwakhe, ukuze ngihloniphe izimo ezibuhlungu, futhi ngenze ngalendlela ukuphenduka kuzo zonke izono zami nezabantu bonke, njengokusho kwakhe kimi, njengoba nje nginitshele kwenye indawo.

Ngisazithola, ngalokhu kukhangwa okungaphakathi, ngithambekele kakhulu ekuzihlanganiseni no-J.-C. eSakramenteni Elingcwele le-altare, ngemfihlakalo yokuphila kwakhe nokufa kwakhe, nangokubhujiswa kwakhe nezihlamba zakhe. Ngizizwa njengendlala nokomela ukulahlekelwa mina esakramenteni saphezulu, njengethonsi lamanzi elilahlekayo futhi lihlangane emkhathini omkhulu wolwandle lapho liwele khona  .

Lokhu, Baba, yilokho akuloba kimi ekujuleni komphefumulo wami esimweni engikulandisa ngaso, nalapho, ekhononda kimi, futhi

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ngezono zami nezabantu bonke, wathi kimi: “Ndodakazi yami, uma uthanda ukungithokozisa, uzenze ufaneleke ukwenza intando yami, ukwenza icebo engikubekele lona, ​​kungukuthi kimi ihora ngalinye losuku ukufaneleka kwentshiseko yami, ngokwezimfihlakalo ezihlukene eziyiqambayo, kanye

lokhu kubunye besimo somthandazo nomhlatshelo engizithola kuso nginesakramente laphezulu lama-altare ami, okuyisikhumbuzo saphakade sothando lwami, ngesikhathi esifanayo njengesihlalo sobukhosi sothando  lwami  . “Lapha, uyazi,  mina

Baba, umsuka wemikhuba ongivumele ukuba ngivuselele isifungo  .

Kungaba nemiqulu eminingi engizoyibhala ngalokho uJ.-C. angenze ngakubona futhi ngabhekana nakho kulesi senzakalo, ngesidingo sokuba sonke sihlangane naye ekuhluphekeni kwethu, nasekungabi nalusizo kwezinzuzo zethu ngaphandle kwale nyunyana. “Qaphelani, nikhuleke,” esho kimi, “nimelane nesilingo; funani kukho konke kuphela inkazimulo yami emsulwa kanye nothando lwami olumsulwa; Zihlukanise nesidalwa nakuwe ukuze uzinamathisele kimi kuphela, futhi ngizoba ukusekelwa kwakho nokukhanya kwakho. Kukimi kuphela nangami ukuthi ungakwazi ukulwa futhi ufanelwe, njll, njll. »

Kudingeka sihlanganiswe nokuhlupheka kuka-J.-C., futhi sihlale silwa nokuzikhukhumeza, okuvela ekujuleni kwemvelo yethu eyonakele, njengokuvela kudeveli.

Okunye, Baba, ngokunenza, ngokulalela, nazi ukukhangwa kwalomusa ongiholela ekubhujisweni kwakho konke, angisho ukuthi ngenxa yaleso sizathu ngikhululiwe ekuziqhenyeni noma kokunye ububi bemvelo yomuntu. Ah! Ngilindele ngokugcwele, ngokuphambene nalokho, ukuthi kuzodingeka ngilwe nabo kaningi noma kancane kuze kube sekugcineni. Owokuqala, ikakhulukazi, yisitha esinobuqili, esihoxisa isikhathi esithile ukuze simangale kangcono, sibuyela ekukhokhiseni lapho singalindelekile kancane. Yebo, ngibona kuNkulunkulu ukuthi kwabangcwele abakhulu kunabo bonke lesi silo esingapheli singazalwa kabusha emlotheni waso futhi sibangele ukulahlekelwa yilowo owanqoba ukwehlulwa kwakhe. Ah! Yeka ukuthi kubi kangakanani ukuhlala ubambene nesitha esicashile nesiyingozi kangaka! Ukuthi usathane kufanele esatshwe ngenxa yethu,

Kodwa, Baba, kungani ngihlale ngisola idimoni ngosizi lwami? Kungani ngimenza yena yedwa onecala ngobubi bami, ukuzigqaja kwami? Maye! kungakhathaliseki ukuthi ngiphenya inhliziyo yami kuncane kangakanani, ngizwa ukuthi imvelo yami isithelelekile futhi yonakaliswa isono sokuqala, mina ngokwami ​​ngigcwele ize, ukuzidla kanye namanga; inhlanganisela yosizi futhi ona kakhulu ukwesabe ngenxa yami, cishe ngingasho kunabo bonke abantu ndawonye. Ngangingaba yini, uma u-J.-C. enganginikezanga lapho kuvulwa amanxeba akhe indawo yokukhosela esihogweni naphezu kwami? Futhi kuba itheku ethule, futhi njengoba term lapho njalo wangibiza  ukugwema

ngeshwa ukuphahlazeka komkhumbi okungangenza ngingabi nalusizo futhi kungenze ngilahlekelwe unomphela isithelo somusa ongaka nemisebenzi eminingi.

Iqiniso elethusa kakhulu, Baba, futhi abuya ngalo futhi, ngomqondo ongokomfanekiso, ukuze aphinde aqoshwe engqondweni yami ngendlela enamandla kakhulu futhi ekwazi ukwenza umbono ongapheli. Njengoba kubonakala kimina ukuza lapha ngesikhathi esifanele, futhi njengoba ngokungangabazeki uNkulunkulu wayenezizathu zakhe zokukhetha lesi simo ukuze asilandelele kimi, ngizokutshela ngaso ekuphetheni.

Isici esimangalisayo sokuphahlazeka komkhumbi, uNkulunkulu asisebenzisa ngaphakathi kuDadewethu. Imizwa yakhe yokuthobeka.

Indelakazi yabuyiswa ngolunye usuku, ngesikhathi sokungcebeleka, isici eyayifunde ngaphambili, noma yezwa ifundwa angazi ukuthi yimaphi amaphepha omphakathi. Kwakumayelana nomthengisi ocebile noma umhwebi owayebuya ohambweni olunzima nolunzima, esemkhunjini othwele ingcebo eningi futhi eningi okwakuzoqinisekisa ingcebo yakhe nesiphetho somndeni wakhe.

Ephelelwe isineke sokumbona, futhi aziswe ngosuku azofika ngalo, umkakhe, izingane zakhe, bonke abangani bakhe base beye ogwini, lapho babonakala, ngokukhala kwabo kwenjabulo, ukusheshisa imashi ehamba kancane, ukuthanda kwabo, komkhumbi abawuthola olwandle oluvulekile Lo mbono ubenza bajabulele injabulo; kodwa ngeshwa! akubanga isikhathi eside. Lokhu kujabulela ngaphambi kwesikhathi kubalethele injabulo yesikhashana eyalandelwa izinyembezi eziningi.

Umkhumbi kade wawufiswa uyasondela, uyafika, sicishe siwuthinte. Inkosi iyavela, iyawazi umndeni wayo othandekayo, futhi iyawubingelela, nakuba ukude; futhi umzuzwana olandelayo, ngaphansi kwamehlo alo mndeni ofanayo, umkhumbi ufika ukuze uphahlazeke futhi uphahlazeke umkhumbi, ukuze yonke into ibhubhe ngaphandle kwanoma yini ekwazi ukusindiswa noma ukugcinwa.

Ngenkathi ngikanye nezinye izindela ngilalele ngokucophelela le ndaba ebuhlungu, ngokuqinisekile eyayingenalutho ngaphandle kokucacisa kakhulu ukusenza sizwe ukuguquguquka kanye nokuphelelwa yisikhathi kwezimpahla ezingamanga lapha ngezansi, uNkulunkulu wangenza ngaqiniseka ukuthi -le-champ isicelo esimangalisa kakhulu , futhi wawuqopha wajula emphefumulweni wami, kangangokuthi akukho ukwesaba ukuthi ungase uphele....

"Ilokho umphefumulo uvezwa kuze kube umzuzu wokugcina," esho kimi ngaphakathi. Ngemva kokuthola enkulu; ingcebo engokomoya, yagwema zonke izingibe zensindiso, yaphunyuka kuzo zonke izingozi, yaze yanqoba zonke

izitha, ngeshwa angaphukelwa umkhumbi njengalapho ebona ichweba futhi esezokwamukela

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umvuzo waphakade ngemisebenzi yakhe emihle.  »

Ah! Baba, uma isiphetho esibuhlungu kanjena, uma isiphetho esidabukisa kangaka  singaba esomphefumulo ogcwele ubuhle nobuhle obuthweswe yonke inhlobo yemisebenzi emihle njengoba ngikuzwisisile, yini engingeke ngesabe na? akenzanga lutho olubi kuphela, futhi wazenza wafaneleka kuphela ukujeziswa? Umcabango ongesabekayo kimi, Baba; UNkulunkulu ungenze ngabona ukuthi ngikude kangakanani nenkolo ephelele, nokuthi kungakanani okusamelwe ngikwenzele ikusasa. Sekuyisikhathi sokuthi ngisebenzise okuncane engisele ukuze ngiphile, ukuqinisekisa insindiso yami njengoba izoncika kimi, funa ngithole izijeziso kuphela esikhundleni semivuzo ekupheleni komsebenzi wami engizizwa ngisondela. ngosuku  .

Ukubonga kuDade kumqondisi wakhe. Izibikezelo nezincomo azenzayo kuye.

Ungikhululile, Baba, emithwalweni emibili enzima;

1 ukuthi kufanele ngenze kini ngezinkanyiso uNkulunkulu anginika zona, engiyala ngakho manje unembeza wenu; idiphozithi akuseyona eyami, futhi oyoziphendulela ngayo; ngoba ngiyakubona lokho uNkulunkulu akufunayo kini ngale ndaba, futhi sengikwazisile kakade ngaphandle kokuba kube khona isidingo sokukuphinda lapha; okwesibili wangikhulula esisindweni sezono zami, ezonweni zempilo yami yonke, ngokuthethelelwa onginike kona emva kokuvuma okujwayelekile nokugcwele kakhulu engakwenza kuwe, futhi okuthi, Ngiyabonga uNkulunkulu, 'ngijabule kakhulu. Nokho, ngiyethemba, kuzoba isivumo sokugcina sempilo yami, ngoba ngenze isinqumo sokuthi ngingabe ngisakwenza, futhi ngishiye konke emuseni waphezulu, njengoba ungeluleka ukuba ngenze.

Baba ungivale amehlo ngoba ngiyaphinda futhi kuwe ngingajabula ukufela phakathi kwezandla zakho nokuthi ungumqondisi wami wokugcina njengoba ungowokugcina emphakathini  kodwa uNkulunkulu yedwa owaziyo. kuzokwenzekani kuyo; ngokuba, Baba, ngiyakuphinda, ngiyakumemezela kuwe ngezinyembezi, ngibona isivunguvungu esesabekayo. Isikhathi siyeza lapho nizophoqeleka ukuba nisishiye nibaleke; awukwazi ukwenza ngenye indlela, kufanele uzithobe kukho konke. UNkulunkulu uyazi ukuthi siyophinde sibonane yini; kodwa ngikufisa kakhulu kunalokho engikuthembayo  .

Kukhona okwenzekayo Baba ngiyakucela ungangikhohlwa ngoba ngizoludinga kakhulu usizo lwemikhuleko yakho; Kanjalo uvame ukukhumbula uDadewenu ompofu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu, okumele akubangele izinkinga nomsebenzi ongaka. Noma uNkulunkulu uyasivumela ukuba sijabulele ukuphila isikhashana, noma usiphuca ngokufa, masithembisane ukuthi singakhohlwana; ngoba ngakimi, Baba, ngizimisele, ngifile kumbe ngiphilayo, ukuthi ngikukhulekele; Ngikukweleta ngenxa yazo zonke izinhlobo zezizathu, futhi angisoze ngakukhohlwa phambi kukaNkulunkulu; ngicela ungithembise okufanayo.

Sengiyahamba manje, Baba, ngikhohlwe konke okunye, ngizibambele mathupha kuphela ngensindiso yomphefumulo wami ompofu, nangezindlela zokuwungcwelisa ngomusa ukuze ngiwulahle ukuba uvele phambi komahluleli wawo. Kubo bonke abanye, ngiyazinikela ekunakekelweni koBulungiseleli bukaNkulunkulu, futhi ngizithoba kunoma yiziphi izenzakalo engifuna ukuziyala. Ngiyakucela Baba, sihlangane njalo engcweleni

inhliziyo ka-J.-C. phakathi nalokhu kuphila okufushane nokungajabulisi, ukuze sibe usuku olulodwa ephakadeni elibusisekile. Makube njalo.

Ukuphela kwempilo yangaphakathi kaDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu.

IZIMBONO.

Ngemva kwakho konke lokhu esikubonile, ikakhulukazi ngemva kokufunda lezi zigaba ezimbili noma ezintathu zokugcina, akungabazeki ukuthi kuzovunyelwana, ngiyethemba, ukuthi imininingwane yale mpilo yangaphakathi, njengoba isidalulwe lapha, ngeke ivele ngaphandle kwe umuntu oyisihloko sawo, noma kunalokho womoya ofanayo oye washo umthamo wezambulo zawo. Ngakho-ke lo mkhiqizo omusha kufanele wamukelwe futhi uthathwe njengobufakazi obusha obusekelayo

ngakolunye, futhi okuqinisekisa ngesikhathi esifanayo ukuthi nganginephutha ukuthatha le ntombazane engavamile njengesenzakalo sekhulu lakhe leminyaka, i-prodigy yesandla sikaSomandla, okungenakwenzeka ukuchaza lokho ngokuvuma mayelana nayo. ukuziphatha kukaNkulunkulu phezu kwakhe, okumsusa ngokuphelele ekuhleleni okufanayo, futhi lokho futhi evuna umphakathi wabantwana beBandla; ngoba ngubani ongaboni ukuthi lesi siphukuphuku esijabulisayo sesikhanyiselwe kuphela kuze kube manje emthonjeni wezinkanyiso zeqiniso, ukuze zidlulisele kwabanye, bese zikhanyisela iBandla lonke ngesiphetho salo, kanye nengane yakhe ngayinye endleleni. kanye nokuziphatha okumele bakuthathe ezifundeni ezahlukene abangazithola bekuzo ngokuphathelene nendaba enkulu yensindiso yabo.

Nokho, uma kwakukhona umfundi othile okwathi ngemva kwalokhu kuhlolwa, wazimisela ukugcina ukungabaza kwakhe ngale ndaba, noma ngisho nokwenqaba ukuvuma kwakhe, ngangiyomemezela kuye ukuthi angikabi nalungelo lokuphoqelela umbono wakhe; kodwa ngesikhathi esifanayo mina

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Bengizocela usitshele ukuthi ukhona yini umbhali oke wafunda ohlotsheni lwezomoya ongaphezu kwalona, ​​simqambe igama. Makasiqambe igama lesiwula, okwathi, ngaphandle kokunye insiza ngaphandle kokukhanyiselwa kwaso, sakhuluma ngoNkulunkulu lapho ngobukhazikhazi nobukhulu obungaka, saxoxa ngalezi zindaba ezingacacile nezinameva ngokucacile, ngokunemba, nokunemba nokujula. Kwangathi angasibonisa ngokujwayelekile ukuhleleka okwengeziwe, ukuhlakanipha, isithunzi, kunoma yimuphi umsebenzi noma yini evela esandleni sabantu, futhi ngaphezu kwakho konke asenze sibone kumbhali kakhulu walomoya wokukholwa nokuthobeka, kungabe kusaba khona lokhu. ukwesaba ukukhohlisa, ngeke kusaba nalokhu kuthobela izinqumo zeBandla ngobumpumputhe, ngeke kusaba nalokhu kwesaba kwezahlulelo zikaNkulunkulu,

Yebo, makasibonise konke lokho, noma athule; kodwa ngithini? uma ephoqeleka ukuthi avume ukuthi akukho okugculisayo angasiphikisa ngakho-ke akavume nathi ukuthi akukho nokuncane ukubukeka umuntu angakucabanga ekukhohlisweni kwedimoni indela eyisibonelo elwa

idemoni eliphumelele kakhulu, futhi liyazi kahle ukuthi lingawathola kanjani amaqhinga akhe ukuze asivikele kulo. Ake siqedele ngeqoqo lamaphupho ayewathembisile.

Amaphupho angaqondakali nangokwesiprofetho kaDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu.

Si quis fuerit inter vos propheta Domini in visione apparebo ei, vel per visionem loqnar ad illum. (Num., 12.6.)

“Egameni likaYise neleNdodana, nelikaMoya oNgcwele, ngoJesu noMariya ngiyalalela. »

Ngokungangabazeki uyasikhumbula, Baba, isiprofetho sika-J.-C.” esasiyonikezwa yonke inyama; ukuthi izinsizwa nezintombi ziprofethe, abanye abasha babe nemibono, amaxhegu aphuphe amaphupho angaqondakaliyo nangokwesiprofetho (1). Okubalulekile ukuthi wathola kimi ngedwa incazelo yohlamvu oluthathwe ngobungako bayo; ngoba, njengoba nginitshela ke, ngokwencazelo yakhe, umuntu angakubona kalula konke lokhu kimi ngedwa.

Ngimdala namuhla, kodwa ngangimncane, futhi ngisho nengane esikhathini esidlule, futhi umuntu angasho ukuthi ngisenjalo ezicini eziningi, futhi mayelana nezinto eziningi akuwona umbuzo wokuchaza imininingwane.lapha; ngakho-ke umuntu angathola kimi ngedwa, njengoba uNkulunkulu angenze ngaqonda, ukugcwaliseka kwaso sonke isiprofetho okukhulunywa ngaso.

(1) Itholakala ku-novissimis diebus, dicit Dominus, effundam de spiritu meo super omnem carnem, et prophetabunt filii vestri, et filia vestrae, et juvenes vestri visiones videbunt, and seniores vestri soninia somniabunt. (IzEnzo 2:17)

Futhi ngempela, Baba, angigcinanga nje ngokuba nezambulo ezibizwa ngokufanelekile, futhi ngimemezele izehlakalo ezizayo, kodwa ngibe namaphupho engikholwa ukuthi ayimfihlakalo futhi ayisiprofetho, kuzo zonke izikhathi nakuzo zonke izinkathi zokuphila kwami, njengoba ubonile. Yilokhu okudingeka sizixake ngakho isikhathi eside, njengoba nicabanga ukuthi kufanelekile. Ngeke ukhononde ngami, njengoba ukulalela kwami ​​kuzoba okuphelele njengoba kungaba kukho konke okuthinta ingaphakathi lami kanye ne-akhawunti engikukweleta yona.

Ngakho-ke, Baba, ngiye ngibe nomuzwa wokuthi amaphupho ami ayehlobene kakhulu nalokho okwakungixake kakhulu futhi kwashaya ingqondo yami.

Kuze kube yileso sikhathi, ngokungangabazeki, ngeke sibone lutho ngaphandle kokulula kakhulu futhi okungokwemvelo kakhulu kuyo, futhi yilokho futhi engikucabanga ngakho mina ngokwami; kodwa kukhona okungaphezu kwalokho, uma ngingaphosisi ngakho. Kimina kubonakala sengathi uNkulunkulu wakusebenzisa izikhathi ezingaphezu kwesisodwa ukuze athole mina kanye nesimo samanje sikanembeza wami, nezingibe idemoni elingibekele zona, nakho konke okwakumelwe ngesabe noma ukuzethemba mina ngokwami ​​noma kwabanye. Izilingo zami ezinodlame kakhulu, kanye nezigameko umuntu  ayengazibona kusengaphambili, cishe njalo zandulelwa amaphupho ashaqisayo ayewamemezela, ngokungibonisa ukuziphatha okwakufanele ngikwenze ukuze ngigweme izingozi noma nginqobe izithiyo.  Lokhu kubonakala kufanele ukunakwa kimi .

Uyangiqinisekisa ngaphezu kwalokho, Baba, futhi wakufakazela lokho kimi kusukela ekuqaleni, ngokuphikisa imibhalo engokomthetho ekuphikiseni idemoni elakwenza kimi kulesi sihloko; uyangiqinisekisa, ngithi, umbhalo ongcwele usinikeza izibonelo eziningi zamaphupho abalulekile nangokwesiprofetho aqukethe izixwayiso ezinjalo ezivela kuNkulunkulu. Ungeza ukuthi umuntu usengakwazi nanamuhla, ngaphandle kwenkolelo-ze noma ukugcinwa okuyize, engeze inkolelo ethile kulabo ababezophawulwa ngezinhlamvu ezithile, futhi ngaphandle

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ukuzihlupha ngezindlela ezithile zokucabanga ngakho konke lokhu. Hhayi-ke Baba ngizonenza nihlulele laba balingisi, kuzoba kinina ukuthi nizihlele ngendlela enithanda ngayo ninezingqondo eziqinile, okungenzeka ukuthi ngeke zicabange njengani kukho konke enginitshele khona.

Njengoba ngiqiniseka ukuthi nawe, njengami, uzimisele kakhulu ukuvuma nokulandela kuphela lokho okukholelwayo okuvumelana nokwahlulela kweBandla Elingcwele, kwanele kimina ukuthi unembeza wami uphephe, futhi ungafisi ukudukisa noma ukudalula noma ubani, ngimemezela ukuthi ngokuphelele nginikeza amaphupho ami kuphela ngalokho ayikho, ngishiya wonke umuntu inkululeko yokuwalahla noma ukuwavuma, ngokuya ngokuthi bayawahlulela kakhulu noma ngaphansi ngokuhambisana nemithetho yencazelo enhle nesizathu.

Ngokwami ​​uhlangothi, ngizomane nginibikele, ngokusemandleni ami, okunye kwalokhu okungishaye kakhulu; ngoba kuzothatha amavolumu uma sifuna ukusho yonke into ngemininingwane ethile. Ngakho-ke sizozivalela kulezo ezibonakala zinemiphumela eminingi kanye nokusebenza. Ukuze ngizihlele kahle, ngizozenza zibe amaphupho asabekayo namaphupho ajabulisayo. Ake siqale ngezokuqala, sibhekisise ukuthi singacindezeli kakhulu lezo osekukhulunywe ngazo phambilini.

Amaphupho athusayo.

Amaphupho ezingane zakhe mayelana nobizo lwakhe empilweni yezenkolo. Usizi nokuzabalaza kwakhe.

Kusukela ebuntwaneni bami, ngingakaze ngibe neminyaka emihlanu noma eyisithupha ubudala, ngaba namaphupho, engikholelwa ukuthi, ayeyizinkomba zobizo lwami kanye nomusa uNkulunkulu ayezonginika wona, kanye nezimpi okwakuzodingeka ngizisekele. Ngakholwa izikhathi eziyinkulungwane, lapho ngilele, ukungibona ngizungezwe izitha ezazingijaha zingisongela nobuso obusabekayo. Kwadingeka ngilwe nabo ngawo wonke amandla ami nangawo wonke amandla ami; Angizange ngibaphunyuke ngaphandle kosizo lukaNkulunkulu, lapho ngiqikelela ukuthi ngimbize ukuze angisize. Kwesinye isikhathi  izitha zami zazingihlula, futhi zingenze ngiwele kwalasha okungangabazeki ukuthi zazimelela izono engaba neshwa lokuzenza kusukela ngalezo zikhathi ezimnandi.

Ngikulesisimo Baba ngakhala kuNkulunkulu owelulela isandla sakhe kimi ukuthi angikhiphe eweni, kwabe sekubonakala kimina ukuthi ngamukele amaphiko amabili ngaphakama ngaphakama izitha zami ezingenakukwazi. finyelela . Ngabe sengindiza emoyeni njengejuba, futhi ngangihlale ngiwa kancane phansi kwe-altare eliphakeme lomphakathi wamantombazane, lapho ngathola khona intokozo engenakuvezwa: kanye, ikakhulukazi, ngazithola ngilapho futhi ngigqoke njenge Mina, njengomhleli wedolobha oyindela, futhi eminyakeni lapho ngangingenawo nomncane umqondo wombuso noma imvunulo yezenkolo; yilokhu esengikwazisile kakade. Kamuva, lokhu kukhululeka ekukhuphukeni emoyeni, emaphusheni ami, kwanda noma kwancipha ngokulingana nokwethembeka noma ukungathembeki kwami ​​mayelana noNkulunkulu;

Ukulwa kwakhe ephusheni ngokumelene nezilo ezazimelela izono. Inkani eyengeziwe yokulwa nokuzithanda.

Lapho ngimdala, ngangivame ukucabanga, lapho ngilele, ukuthi ngangilwa namademoni anezimo ezihlukahlukene kanye nobubi. Ngesinye isikhathi, phakathi kwezinye izinto, kwadingeka ngizilinganise ngokushintshana nezilo eziyisikhombisa, ngasinye sazo esasimelelwe, ngezimpawu ezesabekayo nezesabekayo, esinye sezono eziyisikhombisa ezibulalayo. Ngaba nobunzima obungapheli ekubhekaneni nakho; Ngangingakawisi nokukodwa kunalokho kwadingeka ngiqale phansi ngenye ngaphandle kokuphazamiseka, futhi ngezinye izikhathi kwakudingeka ngiwiswe abaningana. Ngomusa kaNkulunkulu ekugcineni ngaphuma nginqobile; kodwa enye yazo zonke eyangizwisa ubuhlungu obukhulu yileya nkomo encane engajabulile engakhuluma ngayo kuwe. Ngisho, lesi silo esibi kancane, futhi esasigqoke isimo sowesifazane ogqoke kahle. anganeliswa ukulwa nami ngedwa, njengokuba nganitshela; kwakuhlale kunokuthile okuphathelene nezimpi ezehlukene okwakumelwe ngizilwe noma ngizisekele ngokudedelana ngazo zonke ezinye; futhi lapho ngicabanga ukuthi ngiyinqobile ngokuphelele futhi ngayikhipha ekusebenzeni, ngokushesha yabonakala sengathi izelwe kabusha ekwehlulweni kwayo ukuze ibuyele ekubekweni icala ngokufutheka okukhulu kunanini ngaphambili, futhi ngokuvamile isesimweni esisha. Uyazi ukuthi uNkulunkulu wangiyala ngaleli phupho, nokuthi ngaqonda ngencazelo anginika yona, ukuthi ukuziqhenya kwakuzo zonke izitha zami okwakumelwe ngizesabe kakhulu, noma okungenani ukuzithanda kwakumelela. ngale coquette enenkani, kufanele esatshwe nakakhulu njengoba ayebonakala esenqobe ngokuphelele futhi engasasebenzi, ngokushesha wabonakala ezelwe kabusha ekwehlulweni kwakhe ukuze abuyele ekubekweni icala ngokufutheka okukhulu kunangaphambili, futhi ezikhathini eziningi esesimweni esisha. Uyazi ukuthi uNkulunkulu wangiyala ngaleli phupho, nokuthi ngaqonda ngencazelo anginika yona, ukuthi ukuziqhenya kwakuzo zonke izitha zami okwakumelwe ngizesabe kakhulu, noma okungenani ukuzithanda kwakumelela. ngale coquette enenkani, kufanele esatshwe nakakhulu njengoba ayebonakala esenqobe ngokuphelele futhi engasasebenzi, ngokushesha wabonakala ezelwe kabusha ekwehlulweni kwakhe ukuze abuyele ekubekweni icala ngokufutheka okukhulu kunangaphambili, futhi ezikhathini eziningi esesimweni esisha. Uyazi ukuthi uNkulunkulu wangiyala ngaleli phupho, nokuthi ngaqonda ngencazelo anginika yona, ukuthi ukuziqhenya kwakuzo zonke izitha zami okwakumelwe ngizesabe kakhulu, noma okungenani ukuzithanda kwakumelela. ngale coquette enenkani, kufanele esatshwe nakakhulu njengoba ayebonakala Ngaphansi.

Umfanekiso womhlaba. Umthambeka wentaba.

Ngikhumbula iphupho elangethusa kakhulu: umhlaba wawumelwe kimi usesimweni somqansa wentaba enkulu, phansi kwawo kwakunewa elijulile nelibanzi. Sonke isigodi, noma umthambeka wentaba, wawumbozwe abantu bazo zonke izinhlobo zobulili, bonke ubudala nazo zonke izimo, behlangene namademoni okwakumelwe balwe nawo njalo. Kwakuwumzabalazo oqhubekayo kanye nezinxushunxushu; cishe bonke abantu babenza okwengeziwe noma

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umzamo omncane wokufinyelela esiqongweni sentaba, futhi amademoni enza yonke imizamo ukuwadonsela phansi: Mina ngokwami ​​ngaphoqeleka ukuba ngizabalaze futhi ngilwe.

Okwangethusa kakhulu kwakuyisibalo esincane salabo abaqhubekela phambili bebheke engqungqutheleni yayo, noma okungenani babambelele ngokuqinile ezikhundleni zabo, kuyilapho isibalo esingapheli savuma ngemva kwemizamo embalwa emincane; bafika ezansi kwesigodi, baphonswa bagxumela phakathi nentaba, okwawahlekisa kakhulu amademoni abewaphonsa lapho. Khona-ke, Baba, abaneshwa abasenawo amandla nesibindi sokuzivikela; Ngabona ukuthi babeboshwe ngamaketanga ezandleni nasezinyaweni zabo; amademoni abaphatha njengezigqila, noma kunalokho njengezilwane, noma ayehamba emakhanda abo kanye nemizimba yabo yonke njengotshani noma ubulongwe.

Kodwa yeka ukuzumeka kimi, Baba! uvalo lwaphinde lwaphindeka kabili lapho ngibona omunye wezihlobo zami eziseduze lapho! Maye! Ngangazi kahle kamhlophe ukunamathela kwakhe ebubini nasezimisweni ezilahlwa iVangeli ngendlela izwe elizigunyaza ngayo. Isibhakabhaka! wayesezowela kuwo njengabanye abaningi, lapho ngikhalela umusa ngaye; Ngancenga izulu ukuthi libe lesihawu kuye, futhi masinyane isandla sikaJehova samvimba onqenqemeni lomgodi wakwalasha. UNkulunkulu akazange akuvumele ukulahlekelwa kwakhe, futhi ngempela ngafunda ngokushesha ngemva kokuba isihlobo sami sase siphendukile, ngalokho ngayidumisa kakhulu futhi ngayibonga iNkosi. Yimiphi imicabango ongayenza, Baba wami? nokuthi leliphupho, njengoba linjalo, lalibonakala kimi lihambisana namaqiniso evangeli! futhi kuwumqondo uNkulunkulu angibonise wona lapho, njengoba uzobona maduze;

Udade uzama ukugibela intaba, agweme ummango wesihogo, futhi ekugcineni ufika phezulu. Incazelo yentaba yokuphumula nokuthula , kanye neyokunqoba .

Ukuze ngibaleke engozini eyayingihaqile, ngenza imizamo emikhulu, ngilwa njalo, ukuze ngifinyelele ohlangothini lwesiqongo sentaba, lapho nganginethemba lokuthola ukuphepha nokuphumula. Ngahamba ezindaweni zokuqamekela eziyinkulungwane nezihibe eziyinkulungwane ezazibekwe endleleni yami, futhi lapho amademoni ayebala ngaso sonke isikhathi ukungimisa nokungibamba; ekugcineni, Baba, ngiza endleleni ewumngcingo, ekugcineni okwakuwukuvuleka kwesihogo. Zingaki izinyathelo

eshelelayo futhi kunzima kwadingeka ngiwele ukuze ngiyigweme! Kumele ngikutshele ukuthi lombukwane osabekayo wawunginike ukwesaba okukhulu komhlaba kanye nezingozi zawo, kangangokuthi ngangingathanda cishe kakhulu ukuwela esihogweni ngokushesha ukuze ngibuyele kule mpi eneshwa, ukuya lapho. ngifanele ukujeziswa kakhulu emva kokufa kwami. Pho yini okumele uyenze? Uzoba yini? Iluphi uhlangothi okufanele uluthathe? Ngaqhaqhazela ngilindele ukubhubha.

Ngithe ngisantanta kulesi simo esinonya, inyoni enjengejuba, ihlezi esihlahleni esiseduze, yazwakala futhi yathi kimi ngenkani: “Dadewethu, Dadewethu, yilapho kudingeka khona isibindi nesibindi. ungaphuma kukho kuphela ngokuzinikela emseni kaNkulunkulu, nangokuzenzela udlame. Uyayibona le ntaba? yintaba yokuphumula nokuthula, okuhlalwa kuyo kuphela labo asebenqobe izinkanuko zabo, umhlaba, kanye nezingozi zawo. Lona umgomo okufanele ugxile kuwo.”

Maye! Baba, futhi kwakuyisifiso sami esikhulu kunazo zonke; kodwa indlela yokufika lapho futhi ngibalekele lesi simo esibi engizithole sengithembisene kuso! Ekugcineni ngenza umzamo kimi, futhi ngazidela kuze kube phakade esifubeni sikayise somusa kaNkulunkulu wami engangimncenga ukuba angisize.

Masinyane ngazibona ngiphakanyiswa emhlabeni, futhi ngayiswa endaweni ephakemeyo eyayiyingxenye yentaba enhle yokuphumula okunokuthula, ngafika esiqongweni lapho ngangingeke ngifinyelele khona ngaphandle kokukhathala nemisebenzi eminingi.

Ekugcineni ngifika lapho futhi ngiqala ukuphefumula futhi ngilulame ekwesabeni kwami. Umoya walapho wawunempilo futhi uhlanzekile, yonke into eyayilapho yamemezela isiphethu saphakade nendawo yokuhlala yeqiniso yenjabulo. Izakhamuzi zale ndawo yokuhlala ejabulisayo zazimbalwa kakhulu ngenani, kodwa zangijabulisa ngokungenamkhawulo ngokuhlanzeka kokuziphatha kwazo, ukuvuvukala kokholo lwabo, ubumnene besimilo sabo, imikhuba yabo elula, eqotho necabangelayo, ekugcineni ukulunga kwezinhloso zabo. .nobuqotho  bothando lwabo ngoNkulunkulu nangomakhelwane. Bematasa kakhulu ekudumiseni nasekubusiseni umsunguli wenhlalakahle yabo, babonakala bengenandaba nemizimba yabo, futhi becabanga ngomhlaba ukuze nje bazonde izimiso zawo futhi bahawukele izigqila zawo ezineshwa.

Eduze kwayo kwaphakama enye intaba, ethe ukuphakama kancane, lapho ilanga lalikhipha yonke imisebe yayo egqame kakhulu; yayixhumanisa ukuphumula nokuthula entabeni , futhi kwakungalokhu lapho umuntu okwakudingeka adlule khona ukuze afinyelele kuyo.

Ngaso sonke isikhathi izikhali ziphethe, izakhamuzi zakhona, ezinamandla, ezinamandla nezinesibindi, zazibonakala njalo zilwa futhi zisebenza; Ngabizwa ngokuthi intaba yokunqoba , futhi ngatshelwa ukuthi kwakudingekile ukuba ngihlale ngimatasa lapho ekulweni nemikhuba emibi ukuze ngibanqobe futhi ngibabhubhise, futhi ngaphezu kwakho konke okwakukhona.

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kwakufanele athembeke kakhulu kwabangcono kakhulu. Lapha, ngitshelwa, ekuphetheni, yilapho ungafinyelela khona esicongweni sokuphumula nokuthula .

Kulokhu, Baba wami, ngaphaphama, futhi uNkulunkulu wangenza ngaqonda masinyane ukuthi leli phupho elangifikela kakhulu lalingelona ithonya lenhlanhla, kodwa laliyimbangela ehlakaniphile, futhi laligcwele ukunemba, imfihlakalo namaqiniso. Ngakho-ke ngabona, encazelweni uNkulunkulu anginika yona, ukuthi igquma elalisebenza njengenkundla yempi lalimelela ngokwemvelo ukuthambekela kwemvelo eyonakele, okunikeza udeveli ithuba elikhulu, lokuhola abantu kwalasha; okusho ukuthi kudinga amandla amakhulu, isixazululo kanye nesibindi, nomsebenzi ongaka ukunqoba isibhakabhaka. Ngaphetha ngokuthi kwakufanele ngizihlomise ngokuqiniseka nangokuqina kunanini ngaphambili ngokumelene nokuthambekela kwami ​​okubi, futhi ngezwa ihlazo lami likhula ngokumelene nokusikisela kukadeveli, izingozi kanye nenkohlakalo yezwe, engingacabanga nje ngokuthuthumela. Lokhu, ngicabanga, yilokho uNkulunkulu ayekuhlosile.

UDade ejahwa amasela amele izinkanuko kanye nezitha zensindiso. Isimo esijabulisayo somphefumulo ophakeme ngaphezu kwemvelo kanye nezinzwa.

Ngesinye isikhathi, Baba, ngaphupha ngijahwa amasela nezigebengu, ezazifuna kokubili ubumsulwa bami nokuphila kwami; Ngabe sengifunda ukuthi lezi zigebengu namasela ezicatshangelwayo nokho zaziyisibalo sangempela sezifiso, izilingo kanye nezikhathi zesono, ezinye zazo ezisukela imiphefumulo ngezinhloso zobugebengu nezokubulala, kanti ezinye zizibeka eziqamelweni ukuze ziyilinde lapho zidlula. futhi ubanike igalelo lokufa.

Ukubalekela ukujaha la masela noma abaphangi ababengethuse kakhulu, ngaba nokusabela kuNkulunkulu, futhi ngazizwa ngithuthelwa futhi entabeni efanayo engakhuluma ngayo kini ephusheni elandulelayo. Lapho, ngezwa izakhamuzi zimemeza kanyekanye zithi: “Masijabule! jabulani! nansi uJehova, nalu usuku uJehova alwenzileyo; izitha eziningi, ngaphezulu

izimpi, izilingo azisekho, azisekho izingozi, isikhathi sokulingwa sesidlulile, uNkulunkulu yedwa ongumvuzo waphakade nesiphetho semisebenzi yethu.”

Ngaqonda, ngencazelo yala mazwi engawabona ekukhanyeni kokholo, ukuthi amasela nabaphangi ngokuvamile bamelela zonke izitha zensindiso yomuntu, nokuthi ngentaba yokuphumula nokuthula akufanele kuqondwe kakhulu njengesimo esithile. lokupheleliswa ukuze kufinyelelwe enjabulweni yasezulwini, ukuthi kwakungeke futhi kubonise injabulo ngokwayo, okuyisiphetho sangempela sokuhlupheka kwethu kanye nendawo yokuphumula kwethu kwaphakade. Masivume nokho ukuthi isimo somphefumulo ophelele lapha ngezansi sihlobene kakhulu nakho. Ngisho lokhu kulahla okujabulisayo kwezwe kanye nobuwena, lapho yonke into ishabalalisa ukuhlonipha ubuhle bobuNkulunkulu.

Kulesi simo esijabulisayo sokuqothulwa kwemvelo, umphefumulo uphakama ngaphezu kwawo, ngoba awusaboni lutho ngaphandle kukaNkulunkulu, okumele unamathele kuye kuphela. Onke amandla ke anjengokungathi enziwa ubunkulunkulu yilokuhlangana kwaphezulu; okumbeka ngaphezu kwakho konke ukuhlasela kukadeveli, izwe nenyama. Okuhlehlayo lapha ngezansi akulutho kuye; akaziboni izidingo zomzimba, akhathazeke kancane kakhulu ngokuzanelisa, ngaphandle kwezidingo ezibalulekile; kuyobe sekuthiwa umzimba usebenza ngomshini kuphela: usebenza, uhamba, uyaphuza, uyadla, uyalala, njll. Kodwa umphefumulo awuhlanganyeli nakancane kulezi zilwane nemisebenzi engokwemvelo nje, uyandiza, ngomqondo ongokomfanekiso, ngaphezu kwenyama nezinzwa, umusa ongaka uwunike.

Amanye amaphupho achaza usizi nokuzabalaza kukaSister.

UNkulunkulu, uBaba wami, ngesinye isikhathi ubefuna, njengoba nazi, ukungenza ngihlangabezane nokuthile okusondelayo. Kuyaye kwenzeke, ikakhulukazi ngemva kweSidlo sami, ukuthi angisenandaba nezinzwa noma izitho zokuzwa. Ngizithola nginamahloni okuphendula imibuzo elula; ngokuvamile kuyadingeka ukuba uNkulunkulu ngokwakhe angisikisele izimpendulo okumelwe ngizenze, ukuze kungabonakali kuningi kakhulu lapho. Ngibukeka njengomuntu oyisiphukuphuku, noma, uma uthanda, ngibukeka njengomuntu othi, egqolozele ilanga, agcine ukukhanya okuthile, okumvimbela ukuba abuke noma iyiphi enye into: umphefumulo wami usemhlabeni. nasemzimbeni wami ngaphandle kokuba khona, futhi kungenxa yalesi simo lapho umuntu ebheka yonke into ethinta izinzwa nemvelo. Sisentabeni yokuphumula, sijabulela ukuthula kuNkulunkulu, nokutholwa okusha njalo kwenziwa ngosizo lwezibani ezinikezayo. Kuyoba yini ukumbona ngokwakhe, futhi ngaphandle kwesihenqo, futhi engamboziwe!

kuyoba njani ukulidla ngaphandle kwesithiyo futhi ngaphandle kokwesaba ukuthi liyoke lilahlekelwe

!... Kodwa ngibuyela lapho engangikhona; kusuke lapho, Baba wami,  kwaqala khona izinto eziningi engikwenze ukuba uzibhale... Ake siqhubeke nokuqhubeka kwamaphupho ami (1).

(1) Kungakho, njalo efana naye, uDadewethu ubuyela, ngaso sonke isikhathi, ohlelweni olungaphezu kwemvelo olufana nesici sakhe. Umphefumulo wakhe omkhulu uyaziphakamisa ngaso sonke isikhathi, futhi usithatha ukhuphuke naye ngisho nasesifubeni soBunkulunkulu, obumkhuthazayo futhi bumenze akhulume. Konke okunye akubonakali lutho kuye; usizakala ngakho konke ukuze abuyele kulokho; iyisikhungo sayo kanye nomgomo wayo kuphela: futhi, kuleli phuzu, ihlale ifana, futhi umuntu angasho ukuthi uyayithola ngokuphelele ngisho nasemaphusheni ayo.

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Amanye amaphupho achaza usizi nokuzabalaza kukaSister.

Izikhathi ezihlukene ngangizibona ngisemazweni angaziwa, ngezinye izikhathi ngiwele phansi komthombo, ngezinye izikhathi ngichayeka emapulangweni amancane futhi abuthakathaka kakhulu ayengangisekela kwalasha engangilungele ukuwela kuwo, futhi njalo kwakudingeka ngisize kusukela phezulu ukuze Phuma. Kamuva nje ngiphuphe ngijahwa umgibeli wesayizi nobuso obusabekayo, wangibuka ngeso elibi futhi elisongelayo ngaze ngaquleka; ebona ukuthi akakwazanga ukufika kimi, wahamba ngokucasuka futhi walihamba lonke izwe. Ngangazi esidlweni sami sokugcina, ukuthi kwakuyisimemezelo semizamo yedemoni ngokumelene nathi kanye nomsebenzi omncane esiwuzindlayo, nokuthi uyazama futhi uzozama ukuphinda ahluleke. Ningasishayi indiva lesi sixwayiso, ngokuba ngiyaphinda ngithi kini:

Kodwa, Baba, nanku umbukwane ofanele ukuba nendawo phakathi kwamaphupho ami asabekayo.

Izimemezelo zokuphela komhlaba.

Ngobunye ubusuku lapho ngilele, ngizicabangela ngisentabeni lapho engangisanda kufika khona ngisabalekela inunu, ngabona kuqala isibhakabhaka esihle futhi

okunenkanyezi kahle; kodwa ngokushesha ngemva kokuba ngabona izimpawu ezesabekayo ohlangothini olungasentshonalanga, ngabona indawo enkulukazi egcwele amabhokisi, izindawo ezingcwele, amakhanda namathambo abafileyo, izinti zamakhandlela, izigwebo zemingcwabo; ngamafuphi, yonke le ndawo yayifana ne-pall enkulu.

Ohlangothini oluseningizimu kwavela iNgelosi Enkulu uMikayeli ngohlangothi, futhi embozwe ngesambatho esesabekayo; inkemba ebenyezelayo esandleni sakhe sokunene, wayephethe ezinye izikali ezinkulu azidedela zehlela emhlabeni, futhi ngaqonda ukuthi kwakuyizinto ezisetshenziswayo kanye namalungiselelo okwahlulela kokugcina okuso isikhathi saso esisondelayo... .

Kwelinye iphupho, lapho ngangicabanga ukuthi ngisesentabeni efanayo, ngabona emkhathini uthingo olukhulu oluvundlile, oluyisiyingi salo lwafinyelela lapho ngingabona khona. Kwabe sekuvela esiyingini esikhulu amajuba amancane namajuba amancane ayendiza ngapha nangapha, ngaphandle kokushiya umugqa oyindilinga owawukuqukethe. Ngemva kwalokho ngabona amagwababa nezinye izinyoni ezidla inyama ezulazula phezu kwamajuba amancane namajuba, ewasukela futhi ewahlakaza; abaningi bagijimela phansi, lapho badwengulwa khona izinyoni ezidla inyama, naphezu kwamajuba esiliva avela ezulwini ezowavikela. Ukulwa kwaba yaqhubeka yaze yafika uMikayeli oNgcwele, owanquma ukunqoba evuna amajuba namajuba.'

UJesu Kristu ehlupheka futhi engaziwa.

Ngesinye isikhathi ngabona entshonalanga isithombe esikhulu okwakudwetshwe kuso ubuso obungcwele beNkosi yethu; wayebonakala ephila egcwele igazi eliphilayo elaligobhoza ligobhoza liphuma ekhanda lakhe laphezulu elihlotshiswe ngameva. Amehlo akhe aphakama ngokudabukisayo abheke esibhakabhakeni, futhi ngabona izinyembezi eziningi zehla kuwo. Ngathi ngimbuka ngobubele nangesisa, ngezwa izwi lithi kimi: Ubona ilanga lisitheka.

Amaphupho aphathelene neNguquko YaseFrance, uqhekeko eBandleni kanye nemiphumela yako emibi. Oda ukubalekela i-schismatics.

Kufanele futhi, Baba wami, ngifake phakathi kwamaphupho ami asabekayo lawo ahlobene nenguquko edabukisayo engathweswa icala lokuyimemezela. Ngakho-ke asikwazi ukukuchitha ukwengeza ezinye zazo eziyinhloko kulabo esesike sakhuluma ngazo ngezikhathi lapho beza kakhulu

mayelana, nalapho bekubalulekile ukubangenisa. Kulabo, ngeke sibakhumbule, noma sizokwenza lokho kalula nje.

Ngobunye ubusuku ngacabanga ukuthi ngabona abefundisi abaningana begqoke izingubo zabo ze-sacerdotal, bephethe umbhishobhi emsebenzini wakhe wobufundisi. Umoya wabo olukhuni nowokuzidla, amazwi abo anokhahlo, ukubukeka kwabo okusongelayo kwakubonakala kufuna ukuhlonishwa nokuhlonishwa yibo bonke; baphoqelela abathembekileyo ukuba babalandele, babalalele futhi babalalele. uNkulunkulu uyala ukuba ngimelane nabo ubuso nobuso; wangitshela ukuthi abasenalungelo lokukhuluma egameni lami, futhi abasenalungelo lokuzithoba kwabathembekile, njengoba bekhaphele izithakazelo zeBandla lami, futhi abathembekile okholweni. Kuphambene nentando yami, futhi ngokucasuka kwami, ukuthi basasebenzisa imisebenzi abangasayifanele; kude nokungangijabulisi, uyangidumisa ngokungalaleli; into abafuna ukuyifuna kuwe, ungabalaleli, hlukana nayo, engikwenzile njengabanye abaningi. Iphupho elilandelayo lisabisa nakakhulu.

Cishe eminyakeni engamashumi amathathu noma engamashumi amane edlule iFrance yamelwa kimi njengogwadule olukhulu, ukuba sodwa okwesabekayo; isifunda ngasinye sasifana nomhume lapho abadlula ngendlela babephanga futhi bacekele phansi konke ababekuthola. Ngokushesha, kwabacasula abathembekile beqiniso, abefundisi bethu nabefundisi babo, abashumayeli bethu nabaqondisi bethu, izithunywa zevangeli zethu zanyamalala, kwathatha izikhonzi ezintsha esasingazi,

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bathi basebenzisa imisebenzi efanayo futhi banamalungelo afanayo. Ngokungazweli kwaba noshintsho olukhulu endleleni yokwenza nokucabanga kwezakhamuzi zakithi, kangangokuthi angikwazanga ukuqaphela izwe lami siqu. Nokho, lolu shintsho lwalusekude ukuba lube luphelele, ngabona ukuthi ukwehlukahlukana kwemibono kwakha amaqembu amabili lapho, okwadala izinkinga neziyaluyalu ezimbi nhlangothi zonke. Kodwa nakhu okwangethusa kakhulu, kwangethusa kulombono wasebusuku. Ngabona ngaphansi kwalolugwadule olwesabekayo kunemihlambi ehlukahlukene yezimvu exutshwe nezimbuzi nezimbuzi, izinkawu, nezinye izinhlobo eziningana zezilwane ezesabekayo.

ukuthi bengingazi nokuthi; abelusi ababezihola babe izilo eziningi ezesabekayo kude; amademoni, ngicabanga, awanazo ezinye izibalo. Futhi, ngabona izixuku zabantu zibaleka eduze kwazo, futhi zicasha ngokwesaba nangokushesha ukuze zingahlukaniseki phakathi kwemihlambi yazo, ezesaba ngisho nokuyibona. Ngethukile, ngabuza ukuthi baphi abefundisi babo, abaholi bangempela balezi zizwe ezizulazulayo; Ngatshelwa: Baphoqeleka ukuba babaleke, basekudingisweni.

Manje, khumbula, Baba, imibono engashiwonga engakutshela ngayo ukuthi uNkulunkulu wangenza kaningi ukuba ngibone kusengaphambili futhi sengathi ngithinta emunweni ukushushiswa okuyiqiniso kakhulu namuhla, nakuba umuntu ekubheka ngaleso sikhathi njengokungathi kubuhlungu,  futhi izimemezelo engazenza ngazo njengokuwubukhazikhazi okumsulwa, inkohliso yangempela  yomcabango.

Khumbula, ngithi, izigcawu ezehlukene ezesabekayo; ngokwesibonelo, isivini sagetshengwa izigebengu, izihlahla ezimbili ezinhle ezishaywe isihlahla esivele savuka phakathi kwalezi ezimbili; udrako engambona ezikhipha efwini elinesivunguvungu ukuze ashwabadele bonke ababesendlini enhle, futhi uyoba nakho konke lokho, ngento efanayo, okuwukhathaze kakhulu umqondo wami futhi kwangethusa ukucabanga kwami. Kuhle ukunitshela futhi ukuthi kulawa maphupho ahlukene, ahlobene nenguquko yethu, ngangizithola ngezinye izikhathi ngithuthwa ngokushisekela ubuKhatholika, futhi ngezinye izikhathi ngithuthumela ngenxa yokwehlukana nokuhlubuka, engangikubona kusengaphambili nengisakubona kusengaphambili; khuleka ezulwini ukuthi sehle ngokwesaba!

Kodwa ngemva kokukhuluma ngamaphupho amabi, kubonakala kufanele ukudalula manje lawo engiwabiza ngokuthi amnandi, anomusa futhi aduduza, ngoba ngiye ngaba nawo azo zonke izinhlobo. Lokhu okungenani kuzofaneleka kangcono ukujabulisa nokududuza umfundi, uma, nokho, ekhona ofuna ukuzixaka ngamaphupho ami. Kuzoba okwakusasa, jabulisa uNkulunkulu.

Amaphupho amnandi.

Ukuchazwa okujwayelekile kwamaphupho kaDadewethu, kanye nemiphumela yawo, angakholelwa ukuthi ingachazwa ngokwemvelo.

Injabulo kanembeza omuhle, indlela yokungcweliswa, injabulo yokuba ngokaNkulunkulu ngokuphelele nokuba naye ngothando nangesifiso, kuyilapho kulindele.

ukuba neqiniso lokunqoba kweBandla elingcwele, inkazimulo yabangcwele, umuntu othandekayo ka-J.-C. Baba, kube yiziphi izinto ezivame kakhulu engizibiza ngamaphupho ami anomusa noma amnandi, ngisho neningi lemibono yami. kanye nemibono. Ngendlela efanayo nokwesaba isono, isihogo nokwahlulelwa kukaNkulunkulu, izinkathazo kanye nokushushiswa kweBandla bekulokhu kungenze ngiphambana futhi ngivumelane nemibono yokwesaba izinto ezesabekayo ezithwala ngokwemvelo. Lokhu kufaniswa phakathi kwemicabango yasebusuku, uma umuntu ekwazi ukukhuluma kanjalo, naleyo yosuku eyandulele, kimina kubonakala kulula futhi kuyimvelo impela. Nokho lokho akwenzeki ngingavimbeli ukuthi labo abathi badinga lezi zimo zemvelo zomqondo wami noma umcabango wami kuphela, ukuchaza yonke into, ngiqonde ukuchaza kokubili izambulo zami namaphupho ami, babeyoba, ngokubona kwami, babe sephutheni elibi kakhulu elingababangela. ukudida umphumela nembangela. UNkulunkulu, ngokungangabazeki, angakwazi ukusizakala ngalezi zimo azizala ngokwakhe; kodwa bengilokhu ngizwa, ngiphapheme futhi ngilele, ukuthi lezi zimo azinakuvela kimi, noma ziveze ngokwazo noma yimiphi imiphumela ezingenza ngizizwe. Ngakho-ke ngithanda ukuchaza amaphupho ami njengezambulo zami, ngazwi linye, konke engikubone kuNkulunkulu ngemvelo yami, noma ngokuthungatha kwengqondo yami noma umzimba wami wenyama, kungaba sengathi sithatha isinyathelo sokuchaza ukuhleleka okumangalisayo komhlaba ngokuhamba kwemvelo, ukuchaza ukwehla nokugeleza kolwandle ngokuzamazama kwamagagasi, noma imfiva ngokujabula olukutholayo. Kukho konke lokhu, ukukhombisa umphumela kwakungekona neze ukuchaza imbangela, futhi izimbangela zesibili azisoze zaqondwa ngaphandle nje kokuthi sibuyela emuva kusizathu sokuqala, ngaphandle kwalokho ezinye bezingeke zibe khona. Ngaphandle kwalokho asisho lutho, nakuba sikhulume kakhulu, noma, uma uthanda, sikhulume ngefilosofi. futhi izimbangela zesibili azisoze zaqondwa ngaphandle kokuthi sibuyele emuva esisusaneni, ngaphandle kwalokho ezinye bezingeke zibe khona. Ngaphandle kwalokho asisho lutho, nakuba sikhulume kakhulu, noma, uma uthanda, sikhulume ngefilosofi. futhi izimbangela zesibili azisoze zaqondwa ngaphandle kokuthi sibuyele emuva esisusaneni, ngaphandle kwalokho ezinye bezingeke zibe khona. Ngaphandle kwalokho asisho lutho, nakuba sikhulume kakhulu, noma, uma uthanda, sikhulume ngefilosofi.

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inqobo nje uma uthanda; kodwa akukhulunywanga sizathu. Ngakho-ke asishiye izazi zefilosofi ziphikisana, size emaphusheni ami omusa.

Inkazimulo kaSaint Francis. Ubumpofu nokuthobeka, izisekelo zokuhleleka kwakhe.

Ngisekulentaba ephakeme lapho enginitshele khona ukuthi ngizibonile izinto zokuzilungiselela zesahlulelo sokugcina, ngabuka phakathi kwenyakatho nempumalanga, futhi ngabona iviyo elikhulu lezindela zohlelo lwethu ezazimasha zikhazimula futhi zinqoba; emakhanda abo kwabonakala umuntu ethuneni nohloniphekile, embethe ingubo ekhazimulayo futhi egcwele amatshe ayigugu nengcebo enkulu. Wayethwele ekhanda lakhe  umqhele ocwebezelayo, izinyawo zakhe nezandla zagwazwa; ekugcineni, ngamthathela yena uJ.-C., futhi ngangizokhothama phambi kwakhe ukuze ngimkhonze. Qaphela, kusho izwi elikhulu kimi, lona yindoda kuphela, futhi nguyihlo  uSaint-François....

Ini ! Ngaphendula, ubaba wethu oNgcwele uFrancis! hey! kungenzeka kanjani ukuthi abenyezela kangaka ezulwini, lowo owayehlale ethobeke kangaka emhlabeni, owayejabulela ukudelelwa nobumpofu  okungaka  ? Kuyiqiniso,  ngatshelwa,

yini eyamenza wakhazimula kangaka, futhi yini futhi okufanele ngelinye ilanga enze inkazimulo yabantwana bakhe, uma bethembekile ukuhamba ezinyathelweni zakhe, ngoba ubumpofu kanye nokuthobeka kuwubufakazi abanikeze bona bodwa; futhi umoya wohlelo lwakhe uqukethe ngaphezu kwakho konke ukwenza lezi zimfanelo ezimbili, eziyisisekelo nesisekelo sesakhiwo sakhe. Ngakho-ke kuyadingeka ukuzenza ukuze ufaneleke ukuzihlanganisa nazo. Leliphupho Baba langinika induduzo nenjabulo enkulu.

UDadewethu uzithola ephusheni endlini encane yaseNazaretha  . Incazelo ethinta inhliziyo ayenzayo. Isifundo  asitholayo.

Njengoba ngangisemncane kakhulu, ngacabanga ukuthi, njengoba ngizulazula ngedwa endaweni yasemaphandleni eyihlane neyizodwa, ngangena njengokungathi ngenhlanhla ukhuni oluncane olusimo saso esinokuthula sasibonakala sithanda kakhulu ukuzindla. Kulapho sijabula khona kude nesiyaluyalu, uma kukhona ukujabula emhlabeni, njengoba sizijabulisa thina noNkulunkulu wethu, omqondo wakhe omnandi sikhunjulwa njalo ngokubona okukhanga kangaka kwazo zonke izinto ezisizungezile. Kwakuwusuku oluhle lwasentwasahlobo, umoya wawucwebile futhi uzolile, ukuthula kwalesi sizungu esimnandi kwaphazanyiswa kuphela ukuhlabelela kwezinyoni ezihlala ezihlahleni eziluhlaza ezazigubuzele lokhu kuhlala ngokuthula. Yeka ukuthi kuhle kanjani yonke into emvelweni, ngazitshela! kuyoba njani ngendawo yokuhlala yababusisiwe, uma indawo yethu yokudingiswa ikhanga kangaka! kuzoba njani ezweni lakithi! Futhi uma uNkulunkulu emuhle kakhulu, ekhululekile futhi emuhle kakhulu kubenzi bobubi abakweleta kuphela izijeziso lapha ngezansi, yini azoyenzela abangani bakhe, lapho esefuna ukubavuza kuNkulunkulu nangabo bonke ubungako bokukhululeka kwakhe, ubukhosi bakhe nothando lwakhe  ?

Kanjalo ngazindla ngaphakathi kwami; futhi ngenkathi ngicabanga ngale ndlela, ngalandela phakathi kwezihlahla ezinhle umhume omncane ekugcineni lapho ngabona indlu ihoxisiwe, noma kunalokho yakhiwe yodwa phansi kokhuni, njengohlobo lwe-grotto encane noma iqhugwane, engangilithanda kakhulu. umoya walo kanye nesimo sawo esimnandi, futhi ikakhulukazi ngokuthula okukhulu okwakubusa lapho, ngoba umuntu akezwanga msindo lapho, ngaphandle kwalowo owake wawenza isisebenzi ngenkathi sisebenza....

Ngingena kule ndlu ukuze ngithole ukuthi ngangikuphi; Ngabona kungena ikhehla elihle nelihloniphekile, elalisebenza ukupholisha nokubumba izingcezu namapulangwe ngokucophelela nangokunaka  okukhulu  kwelinye  .

eduze kwefulethi, ngabona insizwa eyayibonakala sengathi ingumfazi wayo, futhi ubumnandi bayo nesizotha zilingana nobuhle bayo; Eceleni kwakhe kwavela insizwa ecishe ibe neminyaka eyishumi noma eyishumi nambili okungenani, kodwa enobuso obumnene, emuhle futhi ethandeka kakhulu, kangangokuthi kwanele ukumbona isikhashana nje ukuba athandane nayo.

Futhi, Baba, noma yikuphi ukuthakasela enganginakho ngekhehla elihle, futhi ikakhulukazi kunkosikazi walo omncane owangijabulisa ngokungenamkhawulo, enhliziyweni yami ngezwa okuthile okuphilayo nakakhulu ngale nsizwa; amehlo ami ayekwazi ukumshiya isikhathi esifushane nangezikhathi zokuphazamiseka  ....

Bobathathu bazixaka ngokuthula okunokuthula okungaphazanyiswanga nayindlela yabo yokwethembeka yokungamukela. Angizange ngiqaphele emsebenzini wabo kanye nasezindleleni zabo, noma ubudlabha, noma ukulangazela, noma ukukhathazeka, nanoma yiluphi uhlobo lokuphoxeka noma ukuvinjelwa; yonke into yamemezela ukwaneliseka, ukuthula nenjabulo yomphefumulo ozithokozisayo futhi ongakhathazeki ngalutho. Ngezinye izikhathi ngangingazi ukuthi yini okufanele ngiyithande kakhulu, kungaba ukunakekelwa nokunakwa kwabazali, noma ukulalela kwendodana eyenza konke engakwenza ukuze isabele kukho ngokunaka kwayo, izama ukubajabulisa, kanye nezinkonzo engangizithola. .wabuyela kubo bobabili. Kwakuwukuthandana, ububele obufanayo, kodwa njengenhlonipho njengoba kwakubonakala kumnandi futhi kuqotho. ngabe ngachitha izinsuku zami ngibabona; kodwa ekugcineni kwadingeka ukuba kuqedwe lombukwane otusekayo: Ngakho-ke ngavalelisa lomndeni obukekayo; Ngayishiya le ndlu emnandi, nakuba ngokunqikaza, futhi lapho ngihamba ngangisabhekise amehlo ami ensizweni yami, ehamba nami

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Ngaba nesifiso esakheke kahle sokuphinde ngimbone ngokushesha ngangokunokwenzeka, injabulo enkulu engangiyithola ngale ngxoxo yokuqala.

Inkosikazi ejabule! yeka umama ojabule lowomuntu osemusha ngasho ngenhliziyo  ngiphenduka! Ikhehla elihloniphekile leli eliphethe  lokhu

indlu encane! Yeka ukuthi umuhle futhi ungcwele kanjani umkakhe omncane! Kodwa, ngaphezu kwakho konke, umntwana othandekayo, lensizwa ebukekayo ebonakala ingeyabo, futhi ebonisa kahle ukuthi iyindodana yabo ngokuziphatha kwayo kubo! Yeka isizotha, yeka ukulula ezimpahleni zabo! yeka ukuhluzeka ekudleni kwabo! Yeka ukuhleleka okuhle, ukuhlanzeka, ukuthula, ubunye kule ndawo yokuhlala! Yeka ukuthi yonke into elapho iphefumula ngesizotha kanye nephunga lawo wonke amasiko! Kumelwe ukuba siye salinda isikhathi eside kangaka ukuze sihlangane nalo mkhaya onothando! Ah! uma ukujabula kungekho, akukho emhlabeni, nasemhlabeni wonke...

Ngithe ngihamba ngedwa ngikhuluma ngalenkumbulo emnandi, ngabona indoda ebukekayo kimi engathi yisakhamuzi kuleyondawo; Ngambuza ukuthi yini le ndlu encane engingene kuyo. Kufanele ukwazi, ephendula, kanye nalabo abahlala lapho; uphuma esikoleni sokuhlakanipha nobuhle. Yisikole samaNazaretha, yindlu lapho uLizwi Osenyameni achitha khona iminyaka engamashumi amathathu esebenza, elalela futhi ezithoba. Wanezela, lokhu kuphila okucashile, okuthobekile nokukhandlayo kukaNkulunkulu wenu, afuna ukuba nizinikele nina njengesibonelo, uma nifuna ukumjabulisa futhi nisebenzele impumelelo yokuphelela kwenu. Kungakho kufanele nizifihle ezweni, ukuze niphile ngokukaNkulunkulu kuphela noNkulunkulu ngo-J.-C.; vs' yikho ekugcineni okumake lokhu kuthula owakubona kubo. Lapho umuntu njalo, njengoba enjalo, emehlweni nasekucabangeni kukaNkulunkulu ekhona, ingabe umuntu udinga ukwanda ngaphandle ngokunaka izinto zangaphandle kanye nengxoxo nesidalwa? Asizitholi yini kithina umthombo wenjabulo ephelele kakhulu? Zindla ngokuqhubekayo, futhi ulwele ukulingisa lokho okubonile.

Udade ocebile ebuthongweni bakhe, ompofu lapho evuka; umfanekiso wokungabi nalutho kwezinto zomuntu.

Ngobunye ubusuku ngazibona ngeso lengqondo ngikhuluma nomdayisi owayebukisa ngezimpahla zakhe kimi ngokukhululeka okwangishaya; okwakuthandeka nakakhulu futhi kunganakwa ngaye ukuthi wanginika konke okwakubonakala kungijabulisa; kwanele ukuba ngimbonise isifiso sami, waze wangincenga kakhulu ukuba ngithathe ucezu lwempahla  engiyithengiselayo.

yayingithokozisile. Ngimangele futhi ngijatshuliswa ukwethembeka okunjalo, ngangingazi ukuthi ngingamtshela kanjani ukubonga kwami. Wangitshela ukuthi unjengabantu abazihlanganisa nesiyaluyalu empahleni yamanga yomhlaba, futhi wena ufana ncamashí; yazi-ke ukuthi njengamanje ulele, nokuthi maduzane uzoba, njengabo, i-dupe yenkohliso yakho. Manje inhlanhla iyanithanda, imvuselelo izoniphuca konke eninakho, ukuze ningabe nisaba nalutho; futhi lokhu kuvuka okuyokukhohlisa kuwumfanekiso wokufa kwalabo ababethembele ezintweni zasemhlabeni nasezimpahleni zamanga lapha ngezansi.

Ngala mazwi ngiyaphaphama, futhi lapho ngiphaphama ngibona eshabalala futhi eshabalala njengentuthu yaleyo nhlanhla yamanga eyayingihlekise isikhashana. Ngabe sengicabangisisa kakhulu ngokungabi bikho nokungabi nalutho kwezinto zomuntu. Ngacabanga ukuthi ngijabule, ngazitshela ukuthi, yini engisele nayo manje? Ubusisiwe, Nkulunkulu wami, othembela kuwe wedwa! akakhohliswa ekubhekeni kwakhe; uyakuthola usufile ngemva kokukufuna ngesikhathi sokuphila; uhlala naye uma konke okunye sekungasekho; futhi uhlala kuye, O Nkulunkulu wami, ukuze wenze injabulo yakhe ehlala njalo ngaphandle kokuthi akwazi ukwesaba ukulahlekelwa nguwe!

UJesu Kristu ubonakala egcwele ingcebo enkulu, okungekho muntu ofuna ukuyithola.

Ngake ngacabanga ukuthi ngabona, lapho ngilele, u-J.-C. ephethe ingcebo enkulu ngezandla zombili; wangibuka kalusizi, ngambuza ukuthi kungani. Yathi kimina indodakazi yami ibubula, ngiza nezandla zigcwele izipho, nginomcebo omkhulu engiwuhlosele izidalwa zami, ngifike ngizicebise ngokuzabela, ngingamtholi ocelayo. noma ngubani ozifisayo, noma ozenza ufanele ukukwamukela. Ngakho-ke angazi ukuthi ngizodlulisela kubani izipho zami, ngaphandle kwesidingo esinazo. Mahluleli ngobuhlungu obubangelwa ukunganaki okunjena!

Ingane enguJesu ezandleni zikaMariya, enesiphambano esincane.

Ngacabanga ukuthi ngiphinde ngabona, kwesinye isimo, iNcasakazi eBusisiwe ibambe amadolo uMntwana uJesu, okubonakala sengathi ujabule ngesiphambano eside, esibambe ngezandla zakhe. Ngalo mbono ngaguqa ezinyaweni zikamama wami olungileyo, ngamncenga ukuba angishiye kancane

umzuzu wokubamba indodana yakhe yaphezulu. Ngiyayifuna, ephendula. Ngelula izingalo zami ukuze ngimamukele; kodwa esikhundleni somntwana wanginika isiphambano sakhe kuphela engangingasifuni; ayiphinda izikhathi ezahlukene; nami sengizikhalela ukuthi ulikhohlisile ithemba lami ndodakazi, wangiphendula serious, uma ufuna uMntwana kumele uqale wamukele.

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isiphambano alethula kuwe ngezandla zami, awukwazi ukuphatha esinye ngaphandle kwesinye. Ngalo mzuzu uBaba wethu u-S. François uyadlula elandela isibhengezo lapho kwakukhona isiphambano esikhulu. Nansi, yasho kimina iNcasakazi, ingikhombisa, nali udwendwe okufanele ululandele ungake ulishiye... Kulokhu, ngavuka  .

UJesu Kristu umema uDadewethu ukuba amlandele eKalvari, futhi amenze isipho sesiphambano sakhe.

Ezinsukwini ezimbalwa ngaphambi kwengozi engakhuluma ngayo kuwe, futhi okufanele ibe nemiphumela kuze kube sekufeni kwami, ngiphuphe ngikhona odwendweni olwalubanjelwe ukunethezeka kwejubili elikhulu. Ngenkathi sihamba endleleni eqonde kakhulu futhi enethezeke kakhulu, ngaphonsa amehlo ami endleleni ewumngcingo kakhulu futhi embi kakhulu eyayingakwesokudla sethu, ngabona u-J.-C. waseKalvari. Ngilandeleni, yakhala emva kodwendwe, landelani ezinyathelweni zami, nansi isiteshi sokukhulu ukuzithoba, nonke wozani ningisize ngithwale isiphambano engisithwala kubo bonke  .

Ngokubona ukuthi akekho owayefuna ukushiya umgwaqo olula ukuze ngimlandele endleleni embi lapho ayehamba khona, ngagijima ngamlandela. Wakhononda kimi ngokunganaki kanye nokhahlo lwamadoda kuye, futhi wakhuluma nami ngezinhlungu zothando lwakhe ngendlela ethinta inhliziyo.

Kwesinye isimo sangaso leso sikhathi, ngazizwa izikhalo zakhe, futhi ngangisambona ebuthongweni, ethwele kanzima futhi engathi ugajwe isiphambano sakhe.

: bekusendaweni yethu. Wabiza amanazaretha wonke ukuba amlandele, ngabalekela khona wanqaba. Akuwena, wathi kimi, hamba utshele oDadewenu

iba; ngawe, hlala esitokisini sakho. Yeka usizi! Ngiyalalela ngenkathi ngikhala; kodwa ngemva kwesikhathi esithile wangena esitokisini sami kanye loMkhulu: Khangela, ndodakazi yami, wathi kimi: Ungazikhathazi, nasi isabelo sakho lesabelo sakho. Abanye bangibalekela, mina ngikushiyela isiphambano sami, ungasishiyi. Lalihlotshiswe ngezinsalela ezihlukahlukene zabangcwele, ikakhulukazi zabafel’ ukholo. Ngikhothame ngibhekise ubuso bami phansi ngenkathi ngiyithola, futhi  u-J.-C.  unyamalala  kancane Kakhulu

Ngemva nje kwephupho uMadam l'Abbess wagula ephethwe yisifo esimholele ethuneni, ngathola ingozi okumele ingiholele lapho ingiphelezele khona. UNkulunkulu abusiswe kukho konke.

Udade uyiswa phansi ogwadule, athole incwadi encane azindle ngayo.

Ngikhumbula ukuthi ngobunye ubusuku ngacabanga ukuthi ngihamba nengelosi yami enhle, ebusweni bensizwa ebukekayo, ngokusobala efana naleyo eyayishayela uTobie. Wangitshela ukuthi uzongiholela lapho uNkulunkulu ayengifuna khona; endleleni, wakhuluma nami kuphela ngezindlela zokupheleliswa kanye nokufeza intando kaNkulunkulu kukho konke. Sathi sihamba sathola ama-oratories noma ama-chapels amancane angasese lapho ngangifuna ukuya khona futhi ngikhuleke nabanye: Dlula lokho, wathi kimi: "Ziyizimvu ezilahlekile, izintombi eziyiziwula." Ngakho wangiholela ekujuleni kogwadule. Kulapha, wathi kimi  ngaleso sikhathi,

ukuthi uNkulunkulu uyakubiza, nokuthi kufanele nenze ikhaya lakho; ngemva kwalokho wanginika incwadi encane wanyamalala. Ngivula lencwadi ngokulangazela, ngoba kwakuzoba ukuzindla kwami ​​okuvamile; kodwa ngamangala kakhulu, lapho ngiyiphenya, ngibona futhi ngafunda ekhasini ngalinye lamagama amabili kuphela: UNkulunkulu yedwa.

Inhliziyo yomphefumulo othembekile, indawo engcwele eyimfihlo lapho uMlingane waphezulu ezivalela khona.

Ngemva kwesikhathi eside ngibabaza izimbali ezincane ezimhlophe zensimu yomyeni nekamakoti engikhulume ngazo kini kwenye indawo, ngabona kwelinye iphupho isonto elithempeli lalo lihluthulelwe kanye neminyango. Intombi ethobekile futhi ethobekile kakhulu yavela ngaphansi komfanekiso wendela; wangena esontweni, wavala ngaphakathi; wangena endlini engcwele, naye wayivala emva kwakhe. Ngaso leso sikhathi, uJ.C. wazenza wabonakala kuye esesimweni somuntu, wamnika izihluthulelo,  ethi kuye: Nkosi yami nomyeni wami, ngikunika ithuba lokungena enhliziyweni yami nakubo bonke  .

amandla ami, futhi kuze kube phakade. U-J.-C. wamukela isipho sakhe ngothando nokwaneliseka, ethembisa ukuba isabelo sakhe phakade.

Lapho ngilishiya leli bandla, ngabona phezulu isiphambano siphakanyiswa nazo zonke izinsimbi zothando loMsindisi; kwakukhona endaweni yamabutho esonto amasosha ayelandelana, kodwa enganyakazi, lapho amagxathu amabili ukude ngabona abaqaphi bematasa beyaluza, ngenxa yokwesaba ukuthi isitha singasondela kunogada. Nansi incazelo engaqondakali yalo  mbono wasebusuku:

Inhliziyo yomphefumulo othembekile iyindawo engcwele lapho umngane womshado ongcwele ethanda ukuzivala naye ukuze azenze umphathi wawo wonke amandla akhe, aphathiswe wona ukuba awagcine: 1° lo mphefumulo uhlanganiswe no-J.-C. kuqala ubhubhisa zonke izinkanuko zakhe ngokwenza izivivinyo zokuzisola nokuzisola; 2° kumele ngabe ivalile, ngokuzinaka njalo, yonke iminyango kanye nezindlela ezinganika isitha ukungena; 3° ngenkathi izinzwa zangaphakathi nezangaphandle zithulile, ukuqapha, njengomlindi okhuthele futhi ongakhathali, kufanele ngaso sonke isikhathi kube sendleleni ukuthola amaqhinga futhi kuvimbele ukuhlasela kwesitha, ngokufa kanye nokuhlupheka okumelelwe isiphambano kanye izinsimbi zothando,

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ngezwi nje, ngokufa kwekhehla uNkulunkulu angiyala ngalo ngelinye ilanga ukuba ngilibulale, lingitshela ukuthi imbuzi ka-Azazele kufanele ixoshwe kude uma ngifuna ukuyijabulisa esikhathini esizayo.

Ukuvela kwentombi nto ethuka uSister ngobudedengu nokungazithembi.

Nansi enye, Baba wami, eyenzeka kimina esikhathini esingeside esidlule, futhi eyangihlaba umxhwele ngendlela eyayijabulisa ngayo. Ngabonisa ukuthi esitokisini sami ngangifuna ukuzinikela kuNkulunkulu, futhi angikwazanga ukuphumelela lapho, njengoba ngangifisa; Ngangingazi ukuthi lobu bunzima buvelaphi. Ngisakwenza

imizamo engenamsebenzi, ngibona ingena futhi iza kimi intombazanyana eneminyaka eyishumi nanhlanu noma eyishumi nesishiyagalombili kakhulu; Ngacabanga ukuthi ngimazi ngoba sengike ngambona kwesinye isimo okwakuzothatha isikhathi eside ukusilandisa. Le ntombi esencane, ngoba yayinazo zonke izici zomuntu oyedwa, ngokombono wami yayingumuntu omuhle kakhulu okwakungenzeka ukumbona; ukuhamba okuhle nokunesizotha ngaphandle kokuthinta, izici ezikhangayo, umoya wolula nobuqotho obunikeza ubumsulwa, ubuso obumomothekayo nobunesizotha, amehlo acwebezela umlilo omuhle kakhulu; Ekugcineni, yini enye engingakutshela yona? Angazi ukuthi yini lena eyayimjabulisa kangaka ukuthi uze umbone ethandana naye. Futhi, Baba, ngiyavuma kuwe ukuthi angikwazanga ukuzibamba, nokuthi ngamthanda ekuqaleni ....

Uza kimi, abambe isandla sami, futhi angigqolozele ngomoya womusa nesithakazelo esicacile kakhulu kunalokho okushiwo, ngiyeza, mngane wami omuhle, uthi kimi, ngikunikeze ihlazo elincane, bese-ke isiphakamiso esivela ku-J.- C.; ngoba nguye ongithuma kini. Yeka indlela ojabula ngayo, mngane wami omuhle, ngaphendula, ngokwazi u-J.-C. nokuba ngowakhe! Ah! ngiyakwamukela, lokhu niza ukungibona esikhundleni sakhe; Ngizokulalela ngenhliziyo yami yonke, ngingakungabazi.

Nakhu-ke akuthuka ngakho, wangiphendula wathi: Awumthandi ngokwanele, uhlanganyela inhliziyo yakho, futhi awuthembeki kuye ngezindlela eziningi.

izinto, nivame kakhulu ukuzichaya ekuphucweni umusa wakhe nomusa wakhe, kwesinye isikhathi niyakhohlwa ukuthi nimkweleta kangakanani. Lokhu akucelayo kuwe ngomlomo wami yikuthi uqinise intshiseko yakho, ufunde ukumthokozisa kukho konke, ungasusi ubungcwele bakhe, ube laye.

njalo engqondweni nasenhliziyweni, ukwenza ngokubona kwakhe kuphela, ukuphilela yena kuphela; ngoba, umngane wami omuhle, ukunikeze konke, ufuna ukuba nakho konke. Unomona wokuba nenhliziyo yakho yonke nengahlukene phakathi; futhi ngikholwe sthandwa sami inhliziyo efana neyakho ayimningi umnikazi onjengaye.

Ukuncenga kwakugeleza ezindebeni zakhe, amazwi akhe ayengihlabe umxhwele kangangokuthi ngacabanga ukuvuma icala lami kuphela; futhi okuhle ukukuqaphela ukuthi angizange ngizwe ubuhlungu ngokusola kwakhe; kodwa ngokuphambene nalokho, ngathola injabulo enkulu kubo, ngisho nangaphezu kokuncoma okuthophayo nokutusa kakhulu. Bengingathanda ukuchitha impilo yami ngibalalele, ngoba wayekwazi ukungikhuthaza ngothando ayengibonise lona. Ah! ukuthi u-J.-C. uqala kabusha ngobumnene kanjani! Hhayi-ke ngathi kuye ngikhala, konke ongitshela khona kulungile, kuyiqiniso uqobo lwalo, ngiyalibona. Ngithole ke ngithembeke kakhulu esikhathini esizayo, futhi ngisebenzise isixwayiso sakho somusa, futhi ngizosebenza kukho ngawo wonke amandla ami othando luka-J.-C.

Kulawa mazwi, intombi ethandekayo iziphonse ezingalweni zami, sibambene siqinise; ulapho, washo kimi, engiqabula, ukuthi ngifuna ukukuhlanganisa kanjani no-J.-C., ngoba ngiwuthando lwakhe emadodeni; Ngithatha zonke izindlela  ukuze ngikuzuze  kuye  O Baba wami, yeka indlela  engangijabule ngayo!

Njengoba ngangimbuzile ukuthi angangenza kanjani ngethembeke kakhudlwana ku-J.-C, ngangibheke ukuthi angikhanyisele kakhudlwana kuleli phuzu, lapho ngimbona ekhothame ibangana nje, izandla zakhe zahlangana, ekukhulekeleni okujulile kanye nasebusweni. umthandazo oqotho kakhulu; lokho engangikuthatha ngendlela ayengibonise yona....

Ngemva kwalokho ngiphaphama, ngabuyekeza izimo zaleli  phupho elimangalisayo, futhi ngathola ukuthi zonke zihambisana nezidingo zami kanye nesimo sami. Kwase kusele izinsuku ezimbalwa ngingene ekuhlakazweni okuthile okwadala ukuthi ngikhulume amagama angathi shu, izinhlamba ezincane, ihlaya namanye amaphutha alolu hlobo, ayengidonse kancane. yesikhungo sami, ngisho, sobukhona bukaNkulunkulu. Ngangibe yigwala ekukhipheni iziphazamiso ezazivela emithandazweni yami: ISidlo sami sokugcina sasingenamandla kangako, futhi uNkulunkulu wayengashongo lutho enhliziyweni yami  ngakho  . Ngavele ngacabanga  ukuthi kunjalo

into yenxusa engayithola ngesikhathi ngilele, ngiyakucela baba ungitshele ukuthi ucabangani ngayo.

Sengikubonisile ndodakazi, ngimphendule uDade ukuthi uNkulunkulu angasebenzisa indlela yamaphupho ukunikeza izixwayiso ezinempilo kubantu. Ngiyabubona ubufakazi bakho emiBhalweni Engcwele, obungasivumeli ukuba sikungabaze; Ngiyabona, ngaphezu kwalokho, emicimbini yakho, izivumelwano, amathuba aqine kangaka,

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ukuthi kubonakala kunzima kimi ukwenqaba... Kodwa, Dadewethu, unginike ukuqonda, uma ngikukhumbula kahle, ukuthi bekungekhona okokuqala ukuba ube nesikhathi sokubona lowo muntu othandekayo ngikhulume kahle nje. Ngicela ungitshele manje,  yiziphi ezinye izimo osuvele uhlangane naye kuzo?  ngoba

ungenze ngaba nelukuluku lokumazi kangcono nami, futhi ngicabanga ukuthi kuningi okusazozuzwa kimi, futhi mhlawumbe nakwabanye namanje.

Lesi sifiso sokuzwa ngakho Baba, siwubufakazi bokuthi usuyazi, kuphendula uDade; kodwa sekuhlwile namuhla, futhi iseshini beyinde impela, ngoba ngikhulume ngamaphupho kuphela. Uma ngiyifakile lena ongibuza yona, ingahlala okungenani ikota

isikhathi eside, futhi nginovalo lokuthi nizophazamiseka; ngakho-ke Baba uma ubona kukuhle sizogcina lapha indaba yamaphupho ami. Lutho neze, Dadewethu, ngifuna okungenani lowo futhi kulokhu kusihlwa; uma ithatha ingxenye yesine yehora, kuhle, izoba yikota yehora ubude, ngingakunika ngisho nengxenye yehora elihle; ngakho-ke, uma ungakhathazeki ngokukhuluma, ngeke ngiphazamiseke ukuzwa; kodwa uma ungangigculisi ngalobu busuku, kuzoba okwakusasa, khetha, ngoba angikuvumeli ukuba ukhululeke esimweni engikucela kuwe. kwanele ukuthi kuyakubophezela. Ngakho-ke ngizoqhubeka  isikhathi eside, futhi nizozisebenzisa zonke izindaba zami ngendlela enithanda ngayo ezincwadini zenu  zokubhalela.

UJesu Kristu umethula emhlabeni  .

Ngesikhathi ungena endlini yethu uzosiqondisa, uJ.-C. wabonakala kimi ephusheni, wathi kimi: Ngilandele, ngizokufundisa ukuthi umhlaba uyini. ngingu; futhi sobabili sihamba ngesivinini esimangalisayo, sinqamula amazwe amakhulukazi; ngokushesha sifika emazweni akude kakhulu. Okwakulula kakhulu  ukuthi sasibona yonke into ngaphandle kokubonwa muntu: yonke indawo J.-C. . Uyabona, wathi kimi, ukuthi kuzo zonke izinyathelo sithola abantu abalangazelela izindaba zesikhashana eziyinkulungwane; kodwa baphi labo abaphuthuma ibhizinisi lensindiso yabo  ?...

Nanku umshado, kukhona okungenzeleli noma imakethe, ngaphezu kwalokho kukhona umcimbi ohlekisayo noma odabukisayo... Engeza kuwo ezinye izinto ezincane ezimbalwa zemvelo efanayo; yilokhu okwenza umbuthano wempilo yomuntu. Amabhizinisi abizayo, amaphrojekthi enhlanhla, izingxabano zekhabhinethi zithatha abantu ezinkantolo kanye nezikhulu zomhlaba; ukuhlasela nokuzivikela, ukuvinjezelwa nezimpi kuhlala abantu bempi; imicikilisho kanye namacala athatha amalungu ebha; ukulima, ukunakekelwa kwezinkomo kuthatha abantu bezwe; izifundo ezijulile, ukuqagela okukhulu kuthatha abantu

zezincwadi kanye nososayensi bezepolitiki: uhwebo luhlala abathengisi; kodwa baphi, phakathi kwabo bonke laba, labo abazikhathazayo, njengoba kufanele, ngonembeza wabo kanye noNkulunkulu wabo? obani labo abenza okungenani ibe yindaba esemqoka nebucayi yensindiso yabo, okungeyokuqala nebaluleke kakhulu kuzo zonke?...

Ubumsulwa buholela ebuntwaneni, ukuhlakazeka kuholela ebudodeni, ukuzicabangela kuholela ekuvuthweni, ukuhaha kuholela ekugugeni, futhi ukholo nesisa akuholeli cishe inkathi yokuphila. Abakhulu bazinikele futhi njengokungathi bathengiselwe ize, ukuzigqaja kanye nokuzikhukhumeza; abancane bangaphansi kokububula, ukungazi, ububi nokungabi nabulungisa. Baphi labo abazinikela ekuthobekeni, ekuzithobeni nasekuziphatheni okuhle? Siyacula, siyaphuza, siyahleka, noma siyaphikisana, siyajabula, siyadabukisa, kodwa njalo okwesikhashana. Wonke umuntu ufuna isithakazelo somzimba, cishe akekho ofuna lokho komphefumulo; umuntu usebenza kakhulu isikhathi, cishe akasoze aphela phakade; sizenzela konke, asilutho kuNkulunkulu: umhlaba lo....

Ngakho uyabona, waqhubeka u-J.-C., ukuthi bonke laba bantu akubona abami, bonke bamayelana nezinkanuko zabo, hhayi ezami; bangabedemoni isitha sami; lokhu akuwona umbuso wami nezikhonzi zami; kunalokho, balwa nami neyami. Kubo bonke enibabonayo, akukho namunye ocabanga ngami neVangeli lami, ukuze avumelane nokuziphatha kwabo kulo; uma bekwenza ngezinye izikhathi, kuwubuwula kangangokuthi ubuKristu babo bungancamela ukuba yisihlamba kimi kunokudumisa okunikezwa ubunkulunkulu bami. Bangaki phakathi kwabo abaze baze bahlazeke ngegama lami phambi kwabantu, futhi okwathi ngemva kwezenzo ezimbalwa zenkolo babuyela esimweni esifanele, bagijima masinyane emibuthanweni yezwe ukuze bahoxise futhi benze isifungo sobhapathizo lwabo, nezithembiso abazenzayo. kimi

! Akukho ukuhlanzeka kwenhloso emishadweni, akukho ukwethembeka kwezentengiselwano, akukho bizo ngezabelo, akukho ubulungisa phakathi kwabantu; nanku umhlaba. Ingabe kufanele simangale uma elahlwa eVangelini, njengoba egcwele amahlazo, ukungabi nabulungisa nezono?

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Umthuma ukuthi ayoshumayela izindaba zokuzisola edolobheni elikhulu. Ulalela ngobunzima, futhi akasamtholi u-J.-C. lapho ebuya.

Sisakhuluma kanjalo, safika entabeni ende, lapho kwakulula khona ukuthola lonke izwe elizungezile; phakathi kokunye, sabona eduze impela nomhlangano omkhulu onesiyaluyalu; kwakungumbukiso owawubanjelwe eduze nedolobha lezentengiselwano kakhulu... Uyalibona lelidolobha kanye nalomhlangano, kusho uJ.-C. kimi; lesi sixuku samadoda simatasatasa kuphela nezindaba zesikhashana kanye namaphrojekthi amabi ingxenye enkulu. Inani elikhulu kakhulu lalabo obabonayo bangene shí emikhubeni yobugebengu, okwenza ukusindiswa kwabo kube nzima kakhulu, futhi kube nzima nakakhulu ngoba kuwukuphela kwebhizinisi abangazikhathazi ngalo, abangazikhathazi ngalo. ngize ngicabange. Yeka ubumpumputhe obudabukisayo! Hamba, ndodakazi yami, hamba ubafunele bona, ubatshele ukuthi, uma bengakwenzi ukuphenduka, ngizabajezisa ngendlela eyesabekayo; ukuthi impilo yobuqaba, yezwe kanye nenkululeko ihlale ilandelwa ukufa okubulalayo kanye namashwa angunaphakade; batshele ukuthi baguqukile futhi bayeke ukona, ukuze bangabeki ukuphakama kokusolwa kwabo....

Ngiyaqhaqhazela ngenxa yalesi simiso, kancane kancane ngenxa yokwesaba ingozi engibeke kuyo, kunokwesaba ukulahlekelwa yilowo onginike yona. Angizange ngilokothe ​​ngimtshele ngokuphoxeka kwami, ngokungangabazeki ayekuqonda; Ngamncenga kuphela ukuthi angilinde endaweni efanayo, lapho ngangihlose ukumjoyina khona maduze. Ngiyahamba ngigijima ngawo wonke amandla ami; ngafika endaweni efanele ukuba ngibe phakathi kobubanzi bokwenza ngizwiwe yilesi sixuku, ngamemeza kuso kakhulu ngangokunokwenzeka konke engangikuyale ukukusho kubo; Nganezela ukuthi kwakunguJ.-C. ngokwakhe owayengithumele kubo, futhi ngabasongela ngolaka lwakhe uma bengalilaleli izwi lami, njengoba nje abaseNineve balalela elikaJona. amagama; kodwa inani elikhulu kakhulu alikwenzi ningazihluphi. Ngibabone abanye bengihleka, abanye bephelelwa yintukuthelo, angazi-ke ukuthi bekuzokwenzekani ukube ngibalekele ukujaha kwabo, angibalekanga masinyane, ngiyofuna umkhombandlela wami lapho ngimshiye khona. Kodwa, oh incithakalo! wayengasekho, futhi lokho engangikwesaba kwase kwenzekile, wayesenyamalele. Okufanele ngikwenze ? yini okumele ngiyenze kwelinye izwe eselivele lingithatha njengesitha, ngoba bengifuna ukulikhanyisela ngeqiniso lalo futhi lokho engangikwesaba kwase kwenzekile, kwase kunyamalele. Okufanele ngikwenze ? yini okumele ngiyenze kwelinye izwe eselivele lingithatha njengesitha, ngoba bengifuna ukulikhanyisela ngeqiniso lalo futhi lokho engangikwesaba kwase kwenzekile, kwase kunyamalele. Okufanele ngikwenze ? yini okumele ngiyenze kwelinye izwe eselivele lingithatha njengesitha, ngoba bengifuna ukulikhanyisela ngeqiniso lalo izithakazelo?

Ngenkathi ethungatha u-J.-C. ngobuhlungu, uhlangana nomphefumulo ongenalutho azama ukuwududuza.

Kwathi lapho ukuze ngimthole, ngadabula amasimu nezindawo ezingomakhelwane ngokukhathazeka, ngimbiza ngokuzwakalayo futhi ngimbuza kubo bonke engangihlangana nabo, ngezwa konke eceleni kwami, ngemva komuzi.

ihlathi, ukukhala okudabukisayo, izikhalazo ezithinta inhliziyo; Ngasondela kuleyondawo, ngabona ilele phansi intombazane cishe eneminyaka engamashumi amabili ubudala, ikhala ngendlela edabukisayo; Nganginozwelo kuye, futhi ngangifuna ukumduduza. Ah! wathi kimi, ekhala, akusekho ukududuzeka kimi, ngilahlekelwe ubukhona obuzwelayo bomlingani womphefumulo wami, nginqotshwa usizi lwami; ngitshele ukuthi kwenzekani kuye, kungenjalo ngizobulawa yizinhlungu...

Isimo sakhe esidabukisayo saqala ukungenza ngikhohlwe ngesami; kwakubonakala sengathi wayehlanganyela ukuhlupheka kwami ​​ngokufana nosizi lwethu; Ngakho-ke ngazazi ngomfanekiso wakhe; futhi ngaphandle kokufuna ukuzethula kuye, ngathatha isinyathelo sokumduduza, mina engangidinga ngaphezu kwakhe. ngiyamtshela phakathi kwezinye izinto ukuthi ukuzwela kwakhe ngokweqile kwakungasekelwe emithethweni yokuzinikela kweqiniso, okungase kudumaze ngisho noNkulunkulu, ofuna ukuzithoba okwengeziwe entandweni yakhe. Ukuba khona kwakhe okunengqondo, ngithe, kungumusa ongamkweleti muntu, futhi ukuswela kwakhe kumele sazi ukuhlupheka lapho ethanda, futhi ngaphandle kokumcasula ngalokho, sijabulisa kakhulu kuye ngokuzithoba kwethu. uma sike sabhekana nalolu thando lwamanje lukaNkulunkulu, lokhu kuzwela imvelo ehlala ikufuna, futhi mhlawumbe kuphela okwanelisa  ukuzithanda...

Ngakho-ke, umngane wami omuhle, ngathi kuye, qaphela ukuthi ungadabuki kakhulu, ukweqisa kukho konke kuyingozi. Kholwa sthandwa sami, nguNkulunkulu okuvivinyayo; kodwa isikhathi sokulingwa siyophela ukuze sivule ithuba lezikhathi ezijabulisayo: ukuba khona okunengqondo kothando lwakhe noma kobuntu bakhe akukhona lokho akufunayo kithi; ufuna ukuqina kokuhlonipha uNkulunkulu, okuhlanganisa ngaphezu kwakho konke ukulalela nokuzithoba entandweni yakhe engcwele....

Ngenkathi ngikhuluma kanjena, ngabheka nhlangothi zonke ukuze ngizame ukuthola lowo mina ngokwami ​​engangimfuna ngokukhathazeka okukhulu, ukwesaba nokudabuka; kuyiqiniso kakhulu ukuthi kulula kakhulu ukukhuluma kahle kunokwenza kahle, ukududuza abanye kunokuziduduza; futhi nokho, Baba, ngezwa ukuthi ngithole induduzo ngokukhuluma kanjena kulo ohluphekile; ngoba ngangizitshela ngaphakathi ukuthi mhlawumbe ngiyasidinga izeluleko ezinhle engangimnike zona kakhulu kunaye, futhi kwakufanele ngizisebenzise kimina, njengoba yena ngokwakhe wakubeka kwacaca ngamagama ambalwa, nokuthi angikhokhele isenzo somusa engangisenze kuye.

Uyaqhubeka efuna u-J.-C., futhi ufika entabeni yaseKalvari, lapho ethola khona iziphambano eziningi ezimbi kakhulu nezisinda kakhulu.

Ekugcineni, ngiyayishiya, futhi ibanga elithile ukusuka lapho ngithola indawo yami ephakeme

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intaba ngaphansi okwakuhlezi umuntu; Ngiyambuza ukuthi akakamboni uJ.-C. edlula: Yebo , waphendula, usanda kufika esicongweni sentaba oyibonayo, futhi ngikholwa ukuthi wama lapho.. ukukulinda, ngoba yilapho elinde kubangane bakhe bonke . Ngala mazwi, ngaqala njengokuphazima kweso ngaphandle kokucela okwengeziwe, futhi ngagijima ngokushesha ngaze ngafika phezulu ngiphelelwa umoya; futhi ngemva kokuma isikhashana, ngabheka yonke indawo, ngabiza ngokuzwakalayo; kodwa ngabona isiphambano esikhulu kuphela sibekwe siqonde esiqongweni sentaba, futhi nxazonke zalesisiphambano izisebenzi ezithile ezazisebenza ukwenza ezinye emfanekisweni ofanayo; Ngabona eziyishumi noma eziyishumi nambili ezintsha sha ezinosayizi abahlukene nezisindo ezihlukene...

Bangane bami abahle, ngathi kubo, ngihlezi kancane ngiphumule, niyibiza ngani le ntaba edabukisayo? Kufanele ukwazi, bangiphendula, yintaba yaseKalvari, lapho kufanele wenze ikhaya lakho kuze kube sekufeni. Sawubona! ngicela, wenzela bani lezi ziphambano ezahlukene? Ngokwakho. Ngaqhaqhazela, ngase ngiyowazama; kodwa ngawathola emaholoholo futhi esinda kangangokuthi angikwazanga ukuwaphakamisa. Sawubona! ngakhala bakwethu aniboni ukuthi ngeke ngize ngigqoke eyodwa? Uzozithwala zonke kanyekanye, ngatshelwa; kodwa bayobe sebelahlekelwe kakhulu esisindweni sabo kanye nokuba lukhuni kwabo; ngokuba azikaqedwa, nokho asisayikwenza lutho ngazo. Njengoba ngingayiqondi incazelo yala mazwi okugcina, Ngashiya lezi zisebenzi nempicabadala yazo ukuze ngizixake ngokufuna umhlahlandlela wami waphezulu; ngoba ngangingenandaba neziphambano, inqobo nje uma ngizithola...

Uthola umhume lapho athola khona intombi esencane akhuluma ngayo, epholisha iziphambano, ibuze igama layo.

Ngakho-ke ngenxa yale njongo ngangidabula kuzo zonke izinkalo kanye nemihume yesiqongo sentaba, futhi kungazelelwe ngangena ohlotsheni lomgede noma indawo ehlelwe phakathi kwamatshe, futhi ngabona ekucindezelekeni kwami ​​intombi esencane yobuhle obuhlasimulisayo, munye, uBaba, owanithanda kangaka

ngikujabulele okokuqala ngikutshela ngakho. Ngakho ngajabula futhi enchanted nalo kusukela nqala, futhi ngicabanga ukuthi akunakwenzeka for a

inhliziyo ukulwa emuva. Yebo, kwakuwukuthwala okufanayo ncamashi, ukuphakama okufanayo, ubuso obufanayo, izici ezifanayo, umoya ofanayo, inkulumo efanayo, ngamafuphi umuntu ofanayo engimbonile kusukela ngaleso sikhathi, futhi okukhulunywe ngaye okuningi encwadini. iphupho langaphambilini.

Lapha, uBaba, ephethe indiza, wayematasa egawula futhi epholisha iziphambano ezazenziwe ngabasebenzi, futhi igrotto yayigcwele. Ngemva kokuwanciphisa futhi wawapholisha, wasakaza lapho ugcobo oluthile olwenze ukuba lukhuni kwawo luphele, wasebenza khona ngokushesha, ikheli kanye nomusa omangalisayo nomangalisayo. Bonke ababedlule ngaphansi kwesandla sakhe base bethambile futhi balula, angibonanga lutho oluthusayo kubo. Esikhundleni sokwethuka enganginakho ngokwemvelo ngeziphambano zokuqala, ngezwa intshiseko ethile ngabo, futhi ngezwa sengathi le ntshiseko iyanda njengoba ngikhuluma nesisebenzi esithandekayo, kangangokuthi lapho ngiqeda ngangiyoba nesibindi sokuzithatha. futhi bathwale bonke kanyekanye.

Kwangimangaza ukuguquka okungaka kungazelelwe nokungekona okwemvelo, futhi mhlawumbe ngangingeke ngikwazi imbangela yako ukube angizange ngizame ukubuza igama lalo muntu onothando. Khona-ke, ukuze anganelise, wangibuka ngobuso obuhlekayo namehlo agcwele umlilo omsulwa; futhi engibonisa isiphambano ayesipholisha, wathi ngomusa: "Ngiwuthando lwalowo owakuthwalela lona, ​​futhi kungenxa yothando lwakho nolwabantu bonke ukuthi ngisebenza." U-J.-C. ufuna bonke abantwana bakhe bahambe ezinyathelweni zakhe bethwele isiphambano sabo, ngoba iwukuphela kwendlela eya ekuphileni okuphakade nenjabulo engapheli ababizela kuyo futhi ebafanele; kodwa ufuna bawagqoke ngaphandle kokusindwa yiwo. Ekugcineni, ufuna bagqokiswe uthando, hhayi ukuphoqelelwa, yingakho engicela ukuba ngibenze bathambe futhi balula, futhi kuwumsebenzi omnandi kakhulu kimina, njengoba kungenakwenzeka ukuba ngingabathandi labo uJ.-C. ayebathanda kakhulu. »

Ngemva kwale nkulumo, ngavuka ngigcwele isifiso sokuthwala zonke  iziphambano uthando lukaJ  .

Lapha, Baba, njengoba ubufuna ngempela ukwazi, yizimo ezimbili zamaphupho ami, lapho ngabona khona lo muntu othandekayo, lesi sisebenzi esithandekayo owawubonakala kimi ukuthi unesithakazelo esikhulu kuso. Kodwa njengoba sikulesi sihloko, futhi indaba yami yahlala kancane kunalokho engangikucabanga, ngizophela, uma ufuna, ngombono mina ngokwami.

ngiyakhumbula, futhi okwenzeka kimi nokho, hhayi ngilele, njengabandulele, kodwa emkhulekweni wami, eminyakeni emine noma emihlanu edlule. Into, ngokubona kwami, isafanelwe ukunakwa.

Umbono kaDade ngesikhathi ethandaza. Isihlahla sothando.

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lapho iNkosi yethu yabonakala kimi isesimweni somuntu, yangiholela ensimini enkulu egcwele izihlahla nezitshalo ngezinhlobo ezahlukene; Ngabona phakathi kwezinye izinto isihlahla esikhulu futhi esihle kakhulu, esisithelo saso sasisikhulu futhi sinesici esithandekayo, futhi esihle kakhulu esingase sikucabange. Isithelo ngasinye salesi sihlahla sasimhlophe ngalapha, sibomvu kolunye; isihlahla nesithelo saso kwakubizwa ngokuthi isihlahla nesithelo sothando, umuthi wokuphila, isihlahla sothando olukhulu olwaletha ukuhlengwa kwesintu. Ezinye izihlahla, uma ziqhathaniswa, njengezilwane zasendle, zazithela izithelo ezihlulekayo neziyizimpethu...

J.-C. wayenomusa ngokwanele ukuba angichazele incazelo yangempela yalo mbono, ewusebenzisa kimina. "Kukangaki," esho kimi, "ngenxa yokuntula ukuncika ekuthandeni kwami ​​​​awuzange uthele izithelo eziyisigwegwe, ezonakele nezikhohlakele?" “Kulesi senzakalo, wangenza ngazi ukuthi izigidi zemiphefumulo zazilapho, futhi azizange zithele izithelo eziqinile neziyiqiniso, ngoba nje zitholakala ngokuthanda kwazo, izilwane zasendle, ezingaxhunyelelwanga emthini omuhle wothando. kaNkulunkulu, noma ngenxa yenkanuko yoMsindisi, ngaphandle kwalokho konke umuntu angakwenza kuyize ezulwini. Kodwa sekwanele Baba sekuyisikhathi sokuthi siphele. Uma usebenzisa amaphupho ami ezincwadini zakho, abantu abanengqondo nabangamaKrestu abazowafunda bayothola kuwo amaqiniso aqine kakhulu esesimweni esidelelekile ngokwaso; kodwa abafundi abakha phezulu abangeke bangene emagxolweni alo, ikakhulukazi labo abazofuna izindlela zokwanelisa ilukuluku elingakholelwa, ah! Ngiyabesaba ukuthi bazothatha ithuba lokudelela konke engikutshele khona. Thandazela Mina.

Ukuphela kwamaphupho.

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IZIMBONO ZOMLOBI.

Ngabe nginephutha yini, mfundi, ngombono omuhle engawenza ngamaphupho engisanda kuwalandisa, nangesahlulelo esihle engangisidlulisele kubo kwenye indawo? Manje kukuwe ukuthi uhlulele, futhi usitshele ukuthi ngabe ukubonile ukusebenza okwengeziwe kokuziphatha, ukunemba okwengeziwe kanye neqiniso kunoma yisiphi isibikezelo esinjalo osaziyo.

Masifunde amanoveli okomoya lapho kuhlongozwe khona ukufundisa ingqondo futhi sakhe inhliziyo ebuhleni bobuKristu ngokuhlekisa umcabango womfundi, bese sitshelwa uma sesitholile lapho, ngokuziphatha okuhlanzekile nokuphakeme kakhulu, indaba ebaluleke kakhulu, intshisekelo ephilayo, ukulandisa okulula nokungenangqondo; ekugcineni, akusekho lokho kuhlaba okuphakamisa futhi kuthuthe ngokulandelana kwamaqiniso amnandi noma asabekayo. Ingabe kukhona okuke kwabhalwa okuhambisana kakhulu nomoya weVangeli, noma okuvumelana kakhulu nokuphelela komKristu? Ngakho-ke, yini engaba yiqiniso nakakhulu? Yini engase ifane nokuphefumulelwa ukukhuluma ngokufanele kunalokho okuyinhloso yamaphupho ayo ahlukahlukene, uma singabanika lelo gama?

Ngempela, kungakhathaliseki ukuthi uMoya oNgcwele wasebenza emoyeni wale ntombazane engcwele ngesikhathi ilele, lokho akwenza ngokuphathelene nabanye abaningi; noma, njengoba umuntu engase acabange, ukuthi ingqondo yakhe yayisalondoloza iminonjana yemibono uNkulunkulu ayeyenze kubo emini; okuzobonakala kungokwemvelo, nakuba kunganele, ukulandisa ngokuhleleka okutusekayo okubusa lapho, kanye nomklamo ozibonakalisa lapho yonke indawo; Nokho-ke lawa maphupho enzeke, ayamangaza ngokwawo, futhi ayamangaza ngokuba ngokwemvelo kwezindaba, ubulula kanye nokuba yiqiniso kwezibalo, futhi lokhu kuhlanganisa kulandele kude kakhulu nokungahambisani  . .

Yini emangazayo, futhi, yini engaqondakali ngaphezu kokubona ukuthi isiwula esimpofu, silele phezu kombhede weseli laso, sisenayo, silele njengoba sinjalo, imibono eminingi enobulungisa neyokuziphatha, futhi iphakeme kakhulu kunabaningi. izingqondo zethu ezinhle ezincwadini zabo zibukwa kakhulu futhi zakhiwe ngobuciko obuningi, ukutadisha nosizo! futhi uma ngingase ngivunyelwe ukusebenzisa le nkulumo, akukhona yini ebunyeni ukuthi omunye waleyo miphefumulo emihle eye yadelelwa kangaka, uye wathola indlela yokuphupha kangcono lapho elele, kunokuba engavamile ukwenza kanjalo, nakuba ephapheme kakhulu, ukujula kokufunda kwabo?

Ngakho-ke, ngokombono wami, akunakwenzeka ukulandisa ngakho konke lokhu ngaphandle kokuthatha amazwi acashuniwe kakade, ukugcwaliseka kwawo okutholakala kuwo kuphela: Et erit in novissimis diebus , njll. Sesikholisekile ekugcineni, futhi njengokungathi sigajwe ukukhanya okuqukethwe emsebenzini  oncomeka kakhulu kukho konke, sibabaza okungenani kanye nomhubi: Que  les

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izindlela zikaNkulunkulu aziqondakali, futhi yeka ukuthi umangalisa ngokwedlulele kwabangcwele bakhe!

U-Mirabilis Deus ku-sanctis suis. ( IHu. 67,  36 . )

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STATEMENT

KANYE NESItifiketi SABAPHATHI ABABILI

Kusuka Kusisi Wokuzalwa KukaJesu.

Thina esisayinwe ngezansi, izindela zomphakathi wase-Urban Planners wedolobha laseFougères, siyafakaza ukuthi kuzoba ngekabani, 1° ukuthi lowo obizwa ngokuthi uDadewethu Wokuzalwa KwaJesu, eminyakeni eminingi edlule, wenza izimemezelo nezibikezelo mayelana nokushaqeka kanye nesiphithiphithi esasikhona. maduzane kuzoqala eFrance, futhi kamuva kubangele iziyaluyalu ezinkulu eBandleni kanye nasezifundazweni; ukuthi, naphezu kokubonakala okuncane kwakho ngaleso sikhathi, lokho uDade oshiwo ayekumemezele kwabonakala kukhulu futhi kumangalisa kakhulu ekwahluleleni kwabefundisi abalungile abambalwa, kangangokuthi umpristi owayengumqondisi wendlu ngaleso sikhathi, waguqulwa ukuba abhale, futhi ukuthi ngempela wabhala i-eseyi lapho ukungqubuzana nokungaqondi mayelana nendaba kaSista kwakumphoqe ukuba ayishise naphezu kwakhe.

2° Ukuthi uDadewethu oshiwo woZalo, ngo-1790, wayala, egameni likaNkulunkulu, uM. Genet, umqondisi wokugcina wendlu yethu, ukuba avuse umsebenzi owawuchithiwe; ukuthi, ngenxa yale njongo, wayemtshele ukuthi wayezosebenza ekudingisweni ammemezele ukuthi uyeza; ukuthi u-M. Genet oshiwo wayedwebe la manothi ngaphansi kwamehlo kanye nokubizelwa

uDade oshiwoyo, nokuthi usewalobile kusukela kulokhu kudingiswa, enezele nalawo esawathumela kuye ngokwethu nangesicelo sikaDade oshiwo.

3° Siyaqinisekisa ukuthi ngemva kokufunda ngokucophelela iqoqo eliphelele le-Life Nezambulo zikaDade oshiwo , ayethule kithi lapho ebuya, asitholanga lutho lapho okwakubonakala kungakufanelekele ukukholwa futhi kuhambisana kakhulu neqiniso. amaqiniso awaziyo kithi, njengoba singakwazi ukwahlulela. Ngofakazi balokho esisayine lesi senzo ngaphandle kokungabaza, sengeza nokuthi kusenezimo ezithile kukho konke lokhu azishiyile, futhi ezingeke zibe nokwakha kancane empilweni engavamile ngempela yalo mufi othandekayo nohloniphekile. uyaligodla ilungelo lokumazisa ngokufa, kanye nesengezo asikhokhise ukuba simlethele sona, futhi okusamele sibhalwe.

4° Okokugcina, siyafakaza ukuthi ngaphandle kokufuna ukusho izinto ezinkulu uNkulunkulu amenze ukuba azibone uDade oshiwoyo, noma ngezimemezelo zakhe eziqinisekiswa kakhulu, siye saduduzeka kakhulu, futhi saqiniswa kakhulu embonweni omuhle esasinawo ngaphambili. , ngokufunda izaphulelo ezizuzisa kakhulu zababhishobhi, nezinye izibani zeSonto Elingcwele umlobi akhuluma ngazo ekudingisweni kwakhe.

E-Fougères, usuku lwamashumi amabili nesithupha lukaSepthemba wenkulungwane namakhulu ayisishiyagalombili nambili lukaJesu Kristu, kanye nonyaka weshumi weRiphabhulikhi yaseFrance.

UMarie-Louise LEBRETON , wabiza udadewabo kaSainte-Madeleine, owayengumgcini womphakathi, futhi owayephakeme ngesikhathi sika-1790, kuze kube yileso sokubhujiswa kwethu.

Michelle-Pélagie BINEL , enkolweni eyaziwa ngokuthi uDade wamaSeraphim, owayenguMphathi Omkhulu nomphathi womphakathi ngesikhathi sika-1790; ngaphandle koshintsho.

IQOQO

IZIPHATHIMANDLA EZIPHILAYO

KANYE AMADOKHUMENTI, MAYELANA NEMPILO NEZAMBULO ZIKADADE WOKUZALWA,

I-NUN EMHLANGANWENI WABAHLELI BAMADOLOBHA EDOLOBHENI LASE-FOUGÈRES, UMbhishobhi WASE-RENNES, E-BRITTANY.

KUBAFUNDI.

Charissimi, nolite omni Spiritui credere, sed probate spiritus si ex Deo sint. (UJoan, 4, 1.)

Iqoqo esilethula kini lifundiwe futhi lahlolisiswa embhalweni wesandla inani elikhulu lamajaji anekhono futhi akhanyiselwe kakhulu, okungathatha isikhathi eside kakhulu ukuveza ngokuningiliziwe ukwahlulela kwawo okuhle: ukuthi, ngaphezu kwalokho, uhlobo lwalokhu kukhiqizwa, ngempela. okungavamile, abavumelanga neze ukuba bavumele ukushicilelwa, ukuze kungabonakali nganoma iyiphi indlela ukubandlulula ukwahlulela kweBandla iphuzu yena yedwa elinelungelo lokunquma.

Kuyokwanela ukukutshela ukuthi nakubabhishobhi abayisithupha noma ngaphezulu, engaba nelungelo lokuyethula eLondon nasezindaweni ezihlukahlukene zokudingiswa kwami, kusukela ngo-1792 kuhlanganisa (1); kubefundisi-jikelele abangamashumi amabili noma amashumi amathathu kanye nezincwadi zezifunda ezihlukene, odokotela abayishumi noma abayishumi nambili noma osolwazi bezenkolo, emanyuvesi ahlukene; kubabhali abaningana abaziwayo bezincwadi ezihlonishwayo ezindabeni zenkolo, kanye nabanye okungenani abayikhulu namashumi amahlanu abanye abefundisi, abefundisi, abapristi besifunda noma abaphathi bezifundazwe ezihlukahlukene, abefundisi baseFulentshi namaNgisi, bonke abangcwele nabafundile ngokulinganayo; Kancane kancane, ngithi esibalweni esingaka, oyedwa wayengasho abantu abahlanu noma abayisithupha ababengeke bamthande ngazo zonke izindlela; futhi sisenezizathu ezinhle zokukholelwa ukuthi leli nani elincane alinalo umise ukwahlulela ngobuhlakani kuphela, futhi hhayi nganoma iyiphi inhloso embi; kunalokho ukucacisa amaqiniso kunokuwaphikisa noma ukulwa nombono okhona.

(1) Ababhishobhi ababonisana nabo futhi abafunda izincwadi zokubhalela eziqukethe iqoqo okukhulunywa ngalo, phakathi kwabanye, uMnu. uMbhishobhi Omkhulu wase-Aix, manje uMbhishobhi Omkhulu waseTours; Nkz. umbhishobhi waseTréguier, owaseTroyes, owaseNantes, owaseMontpellier, lowo

Lescar, njll., njll. Angiphathi-ke ngabantu abavamile abanenani elikhulu nezigaba zonke, abaye bazifunda ngenzuzo enkulu futhi babakha; ngokuba, kungakhathaliseki ukuthi abaningi babo bakhanyiselwe kangakanani, abanakuvunyelwa njengamajaji kulezi zinhlobo zezindaba. Kanjalo ukutuswa kwabo okuphindaphindiwe lapha kubalwa ize.

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Ngakho-ke umsebenzi uye washayelwa ihlombe emhlabeni wonke ngabafundi bazo zonke iziyalezo zeBandla, ngingase ngengeze, bazo zonke izigaba zezakhamizi. Kuye  kwahlulelwa ngokuvumelanayo hhayi kuphela okuhle futhi okuwusizo ngokwayo , okwakuyiphuzu eliyinhloko, ikakhulukazi uma kucatshangelwa ukuthi zonke izimiso zeqiniso zemfundiso nokuziphatha ziye zavela kuwo zimbozwe; kodwa noma kunjalo ngingakuqinisekisa ukuthi iningi kakhulu labahloli namajaji belilokhu lincike njalo ekumnikeni ugqozi olubizwa ngendlela efanele, okwakubonakala kungenakuphikiswa kubo: Digitus Dei est hic , babephindaphinda njengokungathi ekhonsathini; futhi, okuhle ukukuphawula, lokhu kuvuma kwenziwa kimi izazi zenkolo ezaziqale, ngaphambi kokufunda noma yini ngakho, ngokuvuma kimi ukunengwa kwazo okucishe kungenakunqotshwa, ugqozi.

Ngakho-ke, ngaphandle kokuthi ngizizuzise nganoma iyiphi indlela yalokhu kuvumelana kwemizwa evuna umbuzo okungeyona nganoma iyiphi indlela ukuba ngiwunqume, futhi engiwushiya ngokuphelele enkantolo lapho uvela khona, ngingaphetha ngokuthi okungenani , kuzo zonke izici, iqoqo, njengoba linjalo, ngokungangabazeki lihlangabezane nobuningi bamavoti, ekuhlolweni okwenziwe ngawo kuze kube manje. Engingangeza kukho ukuthi, kuze kube manje, konke ukuphikisa okwenziwe kuye kwancishiswa kwaba nokuntula ukunambitheka okuthe xaxa noma okuncane umuntu akholelwa ukuthi angakuthola ekubhaleni kwami, futhi engibone kukho ukuphikiswa okuningi kakhulu izindlela ezihlukene zokuyihlulela, ukuthi kwakunjengokungathi akunakwenzeka kimi ukuphetha ngokuthile ngakho; emibonweni ephikisanayo ezikoleni, wezwa, ngezinye izikhathi ngisho kuthathwa ngendlela engafanele, njengoba kwakulula kimi ukukhombisa  .

Kokunye, ngiyaphinda, omunye uzokwenza ivolumu, uma kudingekile ukuqoqa lapha zonke izindumiso eziye zaqondiswa kimi, zonke izifakazo ezinenzuzo enginazo.

atholwe ngomlomo nangokubhaliwe, kubantu abahlonishwa kakhulu nabakwaziyo ukwehlulela. Abaningana abavelele kakhulu phakathi kwabafundi, ababhishobhi ngokwabo, baye bacela amakhophi, ababewabophe ngokufanelekile, ukuze bawalondoloze, bangitshela, ngokucophelela okukhulu. Noma zazizinde kangakanani izincwadi zami zokubhalela eziyishumi nambili, zabhalwa kanjalo izikhathi eziyisikhombisa noma eziyisishiyagalombili ezihlukene ngokwazi kwami, futhi zaziyoba njalo kakhulu ukuba, ngenxa yezizathu zokuhlakanipha, angizange ngiziphikise ngokusemthethweni; okungavimbeli amakhophi amaningi ancishisiwe esinawo abadwetshwe ekusithekeni (1). Incwadi isihunyushelwe nangesiNgisi. Wonke umuntu wayebonakala efuna ukuba isakazwe: abaningana bacela ukuyibhalisela futhi banikele ezindlekweni zokunyathelisa; ebengilokhu ngikwenqaba, ngenxa nje yokwesaba ukuvimbela izikhathi eziphawulwe ngoKuhlinzeka ngokwaphezulu  .

(1) La makhophi ahlukahlukene asakaza umsebenzi ezindaweni ezikude. Njengoba ngingakaze ngifunde noma iyiphi yazo, ngibaqinisekisa kancane, njengoba ngangazi ukuthi abanye abakopishi baye bathatha inkululeko yokwenza izinguquko ababecabanga ukuthi zifanelekile, ukuze bavune imibono yabo ethile ethinta ezombangazwe, noma ezinye izinto.

Ngingathanda ngenhliziyo yami yonke ukuma lapho kuleliphuzu; kodwa njengoba kungase kube nabafundi okuyothi ubufakazi engiwukuphela kwabo okuwukuphela kwabo kubonakale bunganele ngokwanele, ngizozama ukubanelisa ngokuthile okungajwayelekile kancane futhi kunembe kakhudlwana. Lolu kuzoba uhlu lobufakazi bomlomo kanye nezingcaphuno ezivela ezincwadini ezinamagama ababhali. Ngizokwengeza izinhlamvu ezimbalwa ngisho eziphrintiwe kwezangempela, ezizofakazela konke engisanda kukusho. Ihlelekile phela, iwukunikeza nje ukholo oluhle olufuna ukuzikhanyisela ngeziphathimandla ezanele, izizathu engazinquma ngazo ngokunengqondo. Uma kungaba khona ababengasola ubuqotho bezingcaphuno zami,

Izingcaphuno ezivela ezincwadini ezihlukahlukene nezitatimende zomlomo ezibhekiswe kumhleli.

Emuva kwabefundisi esisanda kukhuluma ngabo, ubaba uBarruel wayengomunye wosolwazi engangifisa kakhulu ukubadlulisela kubo umbhalo wami wesandla. Ngemva nje kokuyihlola, wangikhuthaza ukuba ngimnike ikhophi, wayinyathelisa

yena. Kusukela ngaleso sikhathi, akakaze ayeke ukubonga kimi ngazo zonke izindlela, noma ukudumisa umsebenzi, ngaphandle kokuziphikisa.

“Lapho ngiqhubeka ngiyifunda, wangitshela futhi ebhala njalo, kulapho ngikuthola kuyakha futhi kuthandeka, futhi kulapho ngithola khona okuthile okungaphezu komuntu. Ngibona izinto eziyinkulungwane kuyo engangingakaziboni ndawo: ngakho ingithinta kakhulu kunanoma iyiphi enye incwadi. Ngenza ukuzindla kwami ​​okuvamile lapho, futhi ngethemba ukuthi uNkulunkulu uzokusebenzisa ekuguquleni kwami ​​nasekuthuthukeni kwami ​​ngokomoya. Ngicela ungibonge emithandazweni yenunu yakho enhle. Abanye abaningana, ngisho nababhishobhi, benze isicelo esifanayo kimi.

Ubaba uBarruel uyaqhubeka ngale mibandela:

“Sizowuhlasela umsebenzi walo mphefumulo omuhle, kodwa ngeke siwubhubhise: ubhalwe ekhoneni elizokwenza unqobe ukugxekwa. Ngazise noma yini ongayifunda kule ntombazane engcwele. Noma yini ngaye iyohlale inesithakazelo esikhulu kimi. Lokho akuphinda, njengabanye abaningi, kubantu abahlukene nangezikhathi ezahlukene, ngaphandle kokushintsha umbono wakhe ngaleli phuzu. Uvame ukusho, nabanye abaningi, ukuthi "lo msebenzi wawukwazi ukwenza umbono ojabulisayo, futhi ukhiqize emiphefumulweni izithelo ezifiseleka kakhulu zokuguqulwa, intuthuko, nensindiso." »

Lokhu bekulokhu kuwukwahlulela komlobi ojwayele ukugxekwa kwemisebenzi kanye nengxoxo yezindaba zenkolo. Asidlulele kwabanye.

M. Pons, umpristi wesifunda saseMazamet, esifundeni saseLavaur, udokotela noprofesa wemfundiso yenkolo, waba nesithakazelo esifanayo kuyo, futhi wenza ukwahlulela okufanayo kwayo, ngemva kokuyifunda ngokucophelela okukhulu. Nanka amagama lo profesa, owayedume ngokufanele, eqala ngawo incwadi encane yamanothi engangimcelile ukuba angenzele yona: “Umsebenzi wendela kaFougères kimi wawubonakala uqukethe imfundiso yenkolo ephakeme kakhulu, emnene, emide futhi emnene. izimiso zokushayela ezikhanyayo; futhi noma isiphi isahlulelo umuntu asikhiphayo ngokuphefumulelwa kwayo, ngicabanga ukuthi ukuyifunda kuyoba usizo kakhulu kwabathembekile, futhi kuzobanikeza ukunambitheka okukhulu kobuhle. »

Kulokhu kudumisa okulula nokunembayo, ngokwendlela yakhe yokusho, uBaba uPons wengeza ngokuthi: "Ukwanelisa isicelo somhleli, uzozama kuwo wonke umsebenzi, amazwi ambalwa angakholelwa ukuthi awabalulekile, futhi akafaki ukubaluleka okukhulu. Kusukela ngaleso sikhathi, uye waba ngomunye walabo abaye banginxusa kakhulu ukuba nginyathelise umsebenzi eLondon, ukuze ngikwazi ukuthatha amakhophi ngiwayise ezweni lakubo.

UMnu. Douglas, uMbhishobhi waseLondon, engalwazi kahle ulimi lwesiFulentshi ngokwanele ukuba azehlulele, wazenza yena, ngandlela thize, esikhundleni sabanye babapristi bakhe, phakathi kwabanye uMfundisi uMnu. Milner, wanamathela kumaKhatholika aseWinchester; okwangithengela ukubhalelana nalo mbhali odumile okwangihlonipha kakhulu. Nakhu angibhalela khona emihlanganweni eyahlukene; Ngizocaphuna ezakhe izinkulumo, engizobuye ngizihumushe, ukuze kube lula kulabo abangalwazi kahle ulimi lwakhe. Encwadini yakhe yangoSepthemba 13, 1800, uMnu. Milner  uyangitshela:

"Ukukhiqizwa kukho konke kubonakala kumangalisa kakhulu ngakho

sublimity, amandla, copiousness, ukufunda, orthodoxy kanye nenkolo. Ngakho-ke angingabazi ukuthi ikhiqiza inzuzo enkulu engokomoya emiphefumulweni eminingi, noma nini lapho ucabanga ukuthi kufanelekile ukuyinikeza umphakathi. ngiyasala,

“Dr Sir,

“Inceku yakho eyisibopho

"UJohn Milner. »

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Nansi ukuhumusha:

.... Lokhu kukhiqizwa kimi kubonakala kumangalisa kakhulu ngokungabi namandla kwawo, amandla awo, ukuchichima kwemibono nezinto, kanye nokujula kwemfundiso yenkolo ebusa lapho, inkolelo yayo kanye nomoya wobungcwele ewuphefumulayo. Yingakho ngingangabazi ukuthi kuzokhiqiza izinzuzo ezinkulu kakhulu kanye nemibono ejabulisayo emiphefumulweni eminingi, ezozuza kuyo lapho unquma ukuyinika umphakathi. ngiyasala,

Mnumzane wami othandekayo,

Inceku yakho ezithobe kakhulu futhi elalelayo. UJohn Milner.

Kuleyo angibhalela yona ngoNovemba 15 olandelayo, ukhuluma kanjena: “Angikwazi ukukhuluma kakhulu ngobucwebe futhi obuthinta ubungcwele balezi zambulo zizonke. »

Lokho kusho ukuthi,

“Uma ngithatha lezi zambulo zizonke, angikwazanga ukuziphakamisa kakhulu, noma ngisho noma yini eyeqa umqondo ozuzisayo engiwucabangile ngokuphakama kwazo, noma

ukuzinikela okunesisa nokunothando okwenza kufane nesizinda kanye nomlingiswa ohlukile. »

Yena lo mbhali, ebhalela umpristi oyiNgisi wabangane bakhe nabami, wamphawula: “Lapho ubona umngane wethu omkhulu uM. G*., mnike izincomo zenhlonipho futhi umtshele indlela engangifisa ngayo ukumbona lapho ngimbona. kwakungolunye usuku eSommerstown. Akunakwenzeka ukuthi wena, noma yimuphi omunye umuntu kufanele ahloniphe kakhulu izambulo zendodakazi yakhe yokomoya, kunami; noma ukhathazeke kakhulu ukuzibona zibhaliwe, ukuze kwakhiwe abahle, kanye nokuguqulwa kwababi. »

Lokho kusho ukuthi,

“Uma ninethuba, noma nithola ithuba lokubona umngane wethu omkhulu uM. G*., mnikeni imikhuba yami emihle noma nimtuse ngenhlonipho. Mtshele ukuthi ngangifuna kangakanani ukumbona okokugcina ngiseSommerstown. Akunakwenzeka ukuthi wena noma omunye umuntu angaba nenhlonipho enkulu kuneyami ngezambulo zendodakazi yakhe yomoya. Akekho ofisa ukulangazelela ukwedlula mina ukuzibona zinyatheliswa, ukuze kududuzwe futhi kwakhiwe abahle, njengokuguqulwa kwababi. »

UMnu. Rayment, omunye umpristi wesiNgisi, owayevelele kakhulu ngolwazi lwakhe lwezenkolo, esifundazweni saseYork, wazithatha kanzima ukuze ahumushele umsebenzi esiNgisini, futhi wangiqinisekisa ukuthi wayengeke anikele inguqulo yakhe emtatsheni wezincwadi . UMnu. Hodgson, usekela-jikelele kaMg. Douglas, wabiza leli qoqo ngemfundiso yenkolo egxilile: tlieologiu infusia . Ngingasho okufanayo ngoMfundisi u-Dom Charoc, ngaphambi kwezindela zama-Benedictine zamaNgisi, kanye nomfowabo  kaMgr. uMbhishobhi waseBath; kaM. Lolimer, iBenedictine yesiNgisi; kaMfundisi uBaba u-Abbot waseLa Trappe, owakopishela izindela zakhe, kanye nenani elikhulu lamanye amadoda alobu buhle, abenze okufanayo kuwo, futhi akhiphe okungenani izingcezu ezimbalwa kuwo ukusetshenziswa ngokukhethekile  .

I-RP Bruning, umJesuit wamaNgisi, ibonakala idlula yonke into esiyibonile. Akagcini nje ngokufakaza kimi, njengoba abanye abaningi benzile, ukuthi akakaze afunde noma yini ebaluleke kakhulu noma efundisa ngaphezu kwalokho; kodwa ufinyelela eqophelweni lokuthi uma zonke izincwadi ezinhle ezake zabhalwa, ngaphandle kokushiya noma iyiphi, bezilahleka, zingatholakala zonke, futhi ngokunenzuzo, kulena yodwa: “Ngingeza yonke, yayingasekho imibhalo futhi yonke imikhondo ebaluleke kakhulu yesayensi yokuziphatha, izimfundiso kanye nesayense yezenkolo yayingasenakuhlangatshezwana nayo kwezinye izincwadi; bangase balulame bonke kulokhu, futhi ngesithakazelo nangale. »

Lokhu kwanele, ngicabanga, ukukholisa noma yimuphi umqondo ozikhokhela ngokucabanga, ukuthi akumina ngedwa umbono wami, mayelana nomsebenzi okukhulunywa ngawo, futhi ukuthi akukho ukukhanya kwami ​​​​okubuthakathaka, noma ngokuvumelana nokwahlulela kwami ​​kwangasese. , okumele ibalwe ize, engizimisele ukuyinikeza umphakathi (1). Ngakho-ke ngaphandle kokufisa ukuphindaphinda izingcaphuno, uhlu lwazo olungaba yisicefe ngokuphindaphinda izindumiso ezifanayo nemibono efanayo, ngicabange ukuthi kwakuyokwanela ukwengeza sezizonke izincwadi ezimbalwa eziqondiswe kimi ngale ndaba. .ngezinhlamvu ezibaluleke ngokwanele ukuba zifanelwe ukunakwa.

(1) Ngesikhathi sokugcina ngibona uMgr. umbhishobhi waseTréguer, ngaphambi kokufa kwakhe, wangisola ngokungasikiseli isikhokhelo kuyilapho kwakunamaFulentshi eNgilandi.

Incwadi evela kumpristi ongumFulentshi, umbaleki ePaderborn eWestphalia, eya kumhleli.

(Iphrintwe kweyokuqala.)

Mnumzane,

Ngokungangabazeki uyomangala lapho uthola incwadi evela kumuntu ongamazi; kodwa umsebenzi othokozisayo ongumhleli wawo wanele ukungikhuthaza ngokuzethemba engikhuluma ngakho nawe ngqo. Njengoba ngibe nenzuzo yokufunda izincwadi ezithile zezambulo zikaDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu, ngaphandle kwethemba lokuba nabanye ezweni engihlala kulo, nginesibindi sokuzincoma ukuthi uzovuma ukwamukela isifiso esinamandla engifanele ungumnikazi wawo wonke umsebenzi. Kodwa-ke angifuni ukunithwalisa kanzima ngokucela ikhophi kini, mhlawumbe eningakwazi ukungitholela yona.Yingakho ngicela umfundisi uMama Augustin, Trapist, obhacile ngaseLondon, abhale, uma kungenzeka. , umsebenzi oshiwo, ngokunikela ngenkokhelo yalokho okuyofunwa, nakuba ngingacebile, njengabaningi abapristi abadingisiwe. Kodwa funa lendelakazi efanelekayo ingakwazi ukwanelisa izifiso zami, noma ngisho nokuzitholela ikhophi kalula, ngiyanincenga ngobuqotho ukuba niyenzele izindlela zayo; futhi uma engakwazi ukuthola abantu abafanelekayo ukuba abhale, ngiyakuncenga ngomusa ukuba uzisebenzise kulo msebenzi omuhle, futhi ngizodlulisela kuwe lokho obekungadingeka ukukukhokhela le njongo.

Ngaphezu kwalokho, Mnumzane, okungiholela kulesi sinyathelo akukona ilukuluku elibekwe kabi, ingasaphathwa eyokuthi ngigxeke, kodwa isifiso esiqotho sokuzakha mina. Futhi uma, njengoba ngikholelwa ukuhlakanipha, akudingekile

xhumana kuphela nenani elincane kakhulu labantu abakhethiwe nabaziwayo ngokuphelele, ngingakuthembisa ukuthi uzoba kulesi sici sokulondolozwa okucophelela kakhulu. Ngingathanda ukukwazi ukukunikeza iziqinisekiso ezinhle kakhulu; kodwa ngingadalula kuphela kuwe ukuhlanzeka kwezisusa zami zenkolo, kanye nalokho engiyikho: umpristi ongumFulentshi wesifundabhishobhi saseRouen, ongowakwamanye amazwe ngenxa yenkolo yobuKatolika, umbaleki ePaderborn eWestphalia, cishe iminyaka eyisishiyagalombili, lapho ngisebenzela khona izindaba zesonto labezinye izizwe, kanye nomgqugquzeli womphakathi wamaCarmelites aseFrance.

Ngiyethemba nokho, nokushisekela kwenu ukuthola okuhle eninesabelo esikhulu kukho kwenza ngibe nethemba kimi, ukuthi nizoba muhle ngokwanele ukufeza izifiso zami.

Kulokhu okulindelwe okumnandi, nginelungelo lokuba ngenhlonipho nangenhlonipho, Mnumzane, inceku yakho ethobeke kakhulu futhi elalela kakhulu,

J.-F. Vallée,

Umpristi waseFrance, kanye namaBenedictine Ladies of Gokirchen, ePaderborn.

Paderborn, Westphalia, 6 July 1801.

Incwadi yesibili efanayo. (Iphrintwe kweyokuqala.)

Mnumzane,

Ngilakho ukukholwa ukuthi incwadi yami idluliselwe kini, lempendulo ebenifuna ukungidumisa ngayo iye yamukelwa; yingakho ngithatha inkululeko yokunibhalela futhi namuhla ngicela ukuba nemukele isicelo sami, ngokusemandleni enu; ngoba, naphezu kwesifiso esidlulele enginaso sokuba nomsebenzi oyigugu okukhulunywa ngawo, angithandi ukukunxenxa ukuba wephule imithetho yokuhlakanipha. Nginomuzwa wokuthi ukuqapha kufanele kwengamele ukubonakaliswa kwento yalolu hlobo, kanye nokuthi

(315-319)

ukugodla okukhulu kufanele kusetshenziswe ukuze kungavinjwa noma kuncishiswe okuhle okumele kube umphumela walo msebenzi emiklameni yoBulungisa bukaNkulunkulu. Kodwa ukwazi kangcono kunanoma ubani ukwahlulela ngokunengqondo okuhle nokubi; futhi njengoba ukuxhumana enikwenzile, okungenani kwabanye abantu, ngomsebenzi oshiwoyo, kubonakala sengathi kumemezela ukuthi sesifikile isikhathi sokuwuphathisa labo okungaba usizo kubo, ngiyaphinda ngiyaninxusa, ukuze nina ungase ube nomusa wokuboleka, uma ungakwazi, ikhophi efanele kubantu abazokulethela lokhu noma balethe. Angilokothi ngikucele ukuthi ubhale futhi ulungise umsebenzi ngokwakho, ngikuqinisekisa ukuthi zonke izindleko zizobuyiselwa, kanye nokuthunyelwa okuphephile kombhalo wesandla, ngesiteshi somndeni ohloniphekile wakwa-spencer,

Ngengeza kuphela kuwe ukuthi ungaba nesiqiniseko sokuthi ngizoyilandela ngokwenkolo imithetho enizoba nakho okuhle onginika yona, nokuthi kimina kubonakala sengathi nginezinhloso zokuvuselela isicelo sami kini. Uma uvuma ukukwamukela kahle, uzongijabulisa kakhulu; futhi ngizwakalisa ukubonga kwami ​​okuqotho kuwe kusengaphambili, nginelungelo lokuba nayo yonke imizwa yenhlonipho nenhlonipho,

Mnumzane, inceku yakho ethobekile futhi elalela kakhulu,

J.-F. Vallée,

Umpristi waseFrance, kanye namaBenedictine Ladies of Gokirchen, ePaderborn, eWestphalia.

Paderborn, Agasti 25, 1801.

Incwadi evela kuBaba u-de Cugnac, usekela-jikelele wesifunda-bhishobhi sase-Aire, eqondiswe, egameni lombhishobhi wakhe, kumhleli weqoqo.

(Iphrintwe kweyokuqala.)

Paderborn, ngoJulayi 16, 1801.

Nkz. Umbhishobhi wase-Aire, Monsieur, wayebone, ngonyaka odlule, encwadini eyayibhalwe evela eNgilandi, ukulandisa okuhle okunikezwe ngombhalo wesandla okhuluma ngemibono yendela likaFougères. Udumo, ngokwale ncwadi, olwanikezwa abanye ababhishobhi emsebenzini, kanye nomfundi ofundile nohlakaniphile u-Abbé Barruel, lwavusa isifiso kuMonseigneur

ukwazi umbhalo, ngokwalobu bufakazi, obungaqukethe izinto ezingavamile kuphela futhi owenziwe ukuba uvuse ilukuluku eliyize, kodwa owawunikeza imibhalo yonke, ethinta inhliziyo, yezimfihlakalo ezinkulu kanye nokuziphatha okungcwele kwenkolo yethu ethandekayo.

Ngakho wafunda ngenjabulo ukuthi u-RP Abbé de la Trappe wayelethe lo msebenzi othakazelisayo ovela eNgilandi, futhi kakade utuswe igunya labantu abahloniphekile. Washesha wabuza ku-RP abbot, owamboleka ingxenye abeyifake enethini; okusho ukuthi, ingxenye kuphela yesi-2. umthamo. Lokhu okuncane, okuthathwe phakathi nomsebenzi, akukwazanga, njengoba ubona, kusabeka uMonseigneur ekufinyeleleni ekumiseni isahlulelo kuwo wonke; kodwa ukufundwa kwale ngxenye encane kwamqinisekisa uMonsignor ukuthi umsebenzi onjalo, noma ngokubaluleka kwezindaba eziphathwayo, noma ngohlobo olusha obhalwe ngalo, noma ngegunya elimisiwe lapho umuntu asekela khona konke okuthuthukisiwe lapho. , okwakufanele ukunakwa ngokukhethekile, kwakudinga lokho

Ngakho-ke uMonsignor ufisa ukuba ikhophi ithathwe ekhophi ka-R.

Ubaba u-Abbot; kodwa lona wakamuva akafunanga ukukuvumela, ngenxa yokwesaba ukwephula ithemba ayemlethele lona lombhalo wesandla ukuze athole ikhophi. Lokhu kudla okumnandi kungahlonipheka; kodwa uMonseigneur uyakholwa ukuthi imisebenzi yalolu hlobo yenziwe ukuthi ibe sezandleni zababhishobhi, ngaphambi kwanoma yisiphi esinye isigaba sabathembekile; futhi njengoba lokhu kubhala sekuvele kwaziwa, futhi sekufundwe lapha ngabantu abaningana bezinhlamvu ezihlukahlukene nezimo ezihlukahlukene, ngaphambi kukaMonseigneur, futhi ngisho nangesicelo ayesenze ku-abbot we-RP ukuze amnikeze ukufunda, ukholelwa ukuthi angakwazi, aze acabange ukuthi kufanele abe nekhophi yalo mbhalo, ukuze akwazi ukuyifunda, ukuphinda ayifunde, azindle ngayo ngakho konke ukunaka nokuzindla okufanele, futhi aqondise, ngezikhathi ezithile,

Nkz. ngakho-ke umbhishobhi wase-Aire unxusa wena, Monsieur, ukuba umgunyaze, ngendlela yokususa zonke izigwegwe zikaBaba u-Abbé de la Trappe, ukuba athathe ikhophi ekhophini eyafika nalo eLondon.

I-Monsignor ikhombisa kuphela le ndlela njengendlela elula futhi engabizi kakhulu; ngoba ubengathanda ukuba uma kungenzeka, futhi uma izindleko zingezinkulu kakhulu, ukuba uzigcinele ikhophi enembile kunaleyo kaR.

P. abbot, lapho amaphutha ephindaphindeka khona, futhi ngezinye izikhathi esesimweni esinjengokushintsha incazelo noma ukwethulwa nhlobo. I-Monsignor izokhokha inani elikhulu ukuze ibe nefundekayo, ibuyekezwe futhi ilungiswe umlobi, noma, ukukhuluma ngokungangabazeki.

kahle, ngomhleli. Nokho, akaphikeli kulesi sihloko, ngoba umiswa ukwesaba, i-1 ° ukuthi kuzokubangela inkathazo enkulu nokulahlekelwa isikhathi; 2° ukuthi izindleko, zokubhala, noma zokuposa, bezingabizi kakhulu. Uyakuncenga kuqala ukuba umthumelele, ngokushesha ngangokunokwenzeka, igunya alicela kuwe, futhi umnike, empendulweni yakho, uhlaka lwalokho okungabiza ikhophi kanye neposi eliya eHamburg. Kodwa okokuqala kuzo zonke izimo ukuthi lezi zindlela zokwelapha akufanele zibe nzima kakhulu kuwe. UMonsignor angathanda ukuthi ukwazi ukumnikeza inothi lamaqiniso angavamile kakhulu endodakazini engcwele, uDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu, kanye nezambulo azitholile. Ulindele ngokugcwele ukuthola emzimbeni womsebenzi, futhi ikakhulukazi empilweni yakhe, izici ezijwayelekile ezizokwenza yaziwe; kodwa ukube ubuwazi abambalwa abamchaza kangcono, futhi uma bekungokwemvelo yokwengeza izinga elithile lobuqiniso ezambulweni zendela engcwele kanye negunya lomsebenzi ozibikayo, Monsinyori ubeyofunda kuwe, mnumzane. , ngentshisekelo enkulu, futhi ungayisebenzisa ngendlela obona kufanele ngayo.

Ubungeke yini futhi umabele, cishe ngesikhathi uDadewethu Wokuzalwa azi ukuthi umsebenzi owubhalile kufanele uvele emphakathini. Indelakazi eyafika ivela eLondon iyasiqinisekisa ukuthi akuyona imfihlo kulelo dolobha, nokuthi ike yezwa izingcezu ezimbalwa zayo ifundwa.

UMonsignor uthanda ukwazi isikhathi esiqondile sokushona kweNdodakazi Engcwele, okuthiwa lapha, okwenzeka esikhathini esingakafiki unyaka. Uma ukwazile ukufunda izimo ezandulelayo, wamphelezela futhi wamlandela, kanye nokuxhumana ayengaba nakho ngentando kaNkulunkulu selokhu naqeda umsebenzi wokuPhila kwakhe kanye noweSambulo sakhe, futhi ikakhulukazi ngesikhathi ukufa kwakhe, ubungaphoqa uMonseigneur ukuthi amazise ngakho; futhi ngokujwayelekile yonke into ethinta inceku kaNkulunkulu engcwele, imibono yayo, umsebenzi oyibikayo, kanye nompristi ohloniphekile owayibhalayo, kunesithakazelo esikhulu kuMonsignor, ngakho uyazincoma ukuthi uzokwanelisa ngomusa ngangokunokwenzeka. 

Ngikucabangela kakhulu futhi ngifisa kakhulu ukukwazi, Mnumzane,

Inceku yakho ethobeke kakhulu futhi elalela kakhulu, u-Abbé De Cugnac,

UVicar General of Aire, ekolishi lasePaderborn eWestphalia.

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Incwadi evela ku-M. Martin, uVicar General waseLisieux, eya ku-M. l'abbé Guillot, owayemthumelele izincwadi zokubhalela eziyishumi nesishiyagalombili ezinohlaka lokuqala lomsebenzi, emcela ukuba amtshele ukuthi uzizwa kanjani ngakho. UMnu. Martin ngaleso sikhathi wayesenhloko yabapristi baseFrance ababedluliselwe endlini evamile yaseHeading, futhi ayeqale wanikezwa icala lokwengamela enqabeni yaseWinchester.

(Iphrintwe kweyokuqala.) Mnumzane,

Izincwadi zokubhalela eziyishumi nesishiyagalombili engizibuyisela kuwe zithunyelwe kimi nguMademoiselle Magnarama. Bengingathanda ukuba umbhali aqale ngokubika ngokwezwi nezwi amanothi kaSista Wokuzalwa, abhalwe kahle noma kabi, hhayi ukuthi ngiyangabaza ubuqiniso bawo, noma ukwethembeka komhleli. Ngokuqondene nomsebenzi ocatshangelwa ngokwawo, ngaphandle kwezincazelo ezimbalwa kanye nezithombe ezimbalwa ezibonakala kimina njengezinkondlo kakhulu ngesihloko esinjalo, ngikuthola kujabulisa ngokulinganayo ngomusa nobuhle. Ngokuvamile, kufaneleka kakhulu ukukhanyisa ingqondo, ukuphakamisa umphefumulo, ukuwuthinta nokuwuncenga. Inikeza ikakhulukazi imibono emihle kakhulu yezimfanelo zaphezulu neyeSonto LamaKatolika. Ngaphandle kokungena emininingwaneni yezinto ezihlukene eziqukethe, yona akukho okungavezwanga lapho ngendlela entsha, emangazayo, nethakasela kakhulu. Ngamafuphi nje, ngokombono wami, isikhwama esicebile nesichichimayo, lapho umuntu angadonsela khona hhayi kuphela kulokho okumele azakhe ngakho mathupha ngokufunda nokuzindla ngakho, kodwa nokuthi yini okufanele afake isandla ekusizeni okungokomoya okulandelayo. .

Nansi-ke mnumzane isifinyezo sami emva kokufunda ngokushesha lezi zincwadi engiziswe kimi. Kungaba okufiselekayo ukuthi lo mbhalo unyatheliswe, ngenxa yenkazimulo enkulu kaNkulunkulu kanye nokuhle kwenani elikhulu lemiphefumulo.

Mina, ngokucabangela ngenhlonipho, Mnumzane,

Inceku yakho ethobekile futhi elalelayo kakhulu,

Martin, vic. uhlobo.

Ukufundwa, ngo-Ephreli 21, 1802.

Ngizozivumela ukuba ngicabange ngale ncwadi: kwakungeyena uDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu owayenginikeze amanothi, njengoba kubonakala sengathi uM. Martin ecabanga; kwakuyimina, ngokuphambene, owayebhale amaphuzu ngalokho ayekushilo kimi. Ngangiwenze la manothi ukuze nje ngisize inkumbulo yami, ukuze ngingashiyi lutho olubalulekile, kungaba ukuhleleka noma ingqikithi yezinto. Lawa manothi, awanele ngokwawo, abengaqondakala neze kubafundi  .

Ngakho-ke, ukukusho ngokudlula nangezikhathi ezithile, angikwazanga ukuveza amanothi okuqala, okuthi noma kunjalo amaningana ayebonakala ewafisa, ngaphandle kokulimaza imbangela evamile, ngisho nenhloso yomuntu ongithwese icala lokuyibhala nokuyichaza ngemva kwalokho. eseyizwile kahle, angayikopishi, ngisho nokuncane ukuvezela umphakathi lokho okwakungaba yimpicabadala kuye. Phela kwakudingeka nginikeze incazelo yakhe kunamazwi akhe.

Ngokuqondene nesinye isihlamba, esiwela endleleni yokubhala, angikude nokukholelwa ukuthi kukhona iphutha kukho; kodwa ekugcineni, konke lokhu kuyindaba emsulwa yokunambitheka, phezu kwalokho ngiye ngabona ukuphikisana okuningi phakathi kwabafundi bezincwadi zokubhalela, kangangokuthi angizange ngicabange ukuthi kudingekile ukwenza izinguquko eziningi kuhlaka lwami lokugcina.

INOTHI LOMHLELI.

Umqulu wesine uzosabela kahle esifisweni sikaMnu. Martin, njengoba unyatheliswa izwi nezwi futhi ngaphandle koshintsho ekhophini eyashiwo uDadewethu ngokwakhe, ngokuhleleka kanye nezihloko azisungula yena.

IMIBONO

Ekuphileni Nezambulo zalowo obizwa ngokuthi uDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu, uxoxa nendela esigodlweni sama-Urbanists aseFougères; kulandelwa impilo yakhe yangaphakathi,

eyabhalwa ngemva kwakhe ngokugcinwa kwezambulo zakhe, futhi zadwetshwa eLondon, nasezindaweni ezihlukahlukene zokudingiswa kwakhe, ngo-1800.

“ Confiteor tibi, Pater, Domine cœli et terræ, quià abscondisti hœc à sapientibus et prudentibus, et revelasti ea parvulis. ( Math. 11, 25; Luka. 10, 21 ) Funda kabanzi mayelana no Deus ut confundat sapientes. ( 1 Kor. 1, 27 . )

Sinjalo isiphetho seqiniso emhlabeni, lihamba yonke indawo lihambisana  nephutha, ngezinye izikhathi libukeka liyisinyathelo nje kuphela, futhi ngokuvamile okunzima ngisho ukulihlukanisa. Iqiniso lesipiliyoni izwe elingokomzimba nelokuziphatha, inkolo ngokwalo elisinikeza ubufakazi obuningi kangangokuthi bekungaba yize ukuhlala kulo. Kodwa uma uNkulunkulu, ngenxa yezizathu ezithandekayo ngaso sonke isikhathi, evumele ukolweni ukuba uxutshwe nokhula ensimini yakhe, usinike izibonakaliso ezithile ukuze sihlukanise omunye komunye, futhi ubuhle bakhe buvumela kuphela umphefumulo oqotho ukuba udalulwe ukuba uthathe amanga. okweqiniso, futhi ngaphezu kwakho konke lokho nakanjani kuba yinto yokudlala yephutha: probate spiritus si ex Deo  sint.

Yebo, injalo ukuhleleka nokuklama kokuqondisa kwakhe, kuya ekusizeni ubuthakathaka bomuntu, kodwa ngaphandle kokulimaza ukufaneleka kokholo. Ngokuziphatha okutusekayo, uNkulunkulu unikeza into ngayinye kuphela izinga lobufakazi obanele ngezinjongo zakhe, futhi kuleli zinga lobufakazi kuhlale kunokwanele ukwanelisa nokuqinisekisa umphefumulo onobulungisa, ofuna iqiniso ngokwethembeka, njengoba kukhona. njalo ngokwanele ukuba scandalize, izimpumputhe futhi lukhuni noma ubani ofuna ukuba. Qui quœrit legem, replebitur ab eâ, and qui insidiosè agit scanndalisabitur in eâ. ( UmSh. 32, 19 ). “Kukhona enkolweni,” kusho uPascal, “kwanele

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» izibani kulabo abafisa ukubona kuphela, nobumnyama obanele kulabo abanokuthambekela okuphambene. Kunokukhanya okwanele ukukhanyisela abakhethiweyo, nobumnyama obanele ukubathobisa. Kunobumnyama obanele bokuphuphuthekisa abalahliwe, nokukhanya okwanele ukubalahla ngecala futhi kubenze bangabi nazaba. ( Imicabango , isahluko 18, ikhasi 97.)

I-Church of J.-C., futhi lokhu ukuphawula kwezazi-mlando zalo (ngokwesibonelo, uM. de Bercastel), alikaze linyakaziswe yinoma yikuphi ukushaqeka, kungakhathaliseki ukuthi kunobudlova kangakanani, obungakamenyezelwa ngaphambili. ngabanye abantu abangcwele, obuhle bayo obusekelwa umusa, nezimemezelo eziqinisekiswa isenzakalo, ngaso sonke isikhathi ziye zakha umehluko ophawulekayo nokuziphatha okuxekethile nolimi olukhohlisayo lwabakhohlisi abavame ukukhohlisa indawo yonke. I-Quoniam multi pseudoprophetœ exierunt in mundum.

Singalokotha sithi, kuwusizo, kulezi zimo ezibucayi ubuhle baphezulu oluluthola okholweni lwezingane zabo ezishushiswayo noma eziseqophelweni lokushushiswa. Ukushaqeka leli Bandla elisanda kubhekana nakho, futhi elisabhekana nakho, ngokuqinisekile kwakungethusi kangako esimisweni salo, futhi kwakungeyona inturhu ekubulaweni kwalo, futhi kwakungeyona inhlekelele emiphumeleni yalo, kunanoma yimuphi walabo abalandulele. Futhi isibhakabhaka, esavumela lesi sishayo sokugcina, njengoba savumela zonke ezinye, asizange sehluleke ukuza lapha futhi ukuze sisize abakhethiweyo baso, ngokubanikeza kusengaphambili, nesibindi sokulwa nobudlova. , namakhondomu ngokumelene nesimanje nekusasa. ihlazo,  memezela.

Phakathi kwenani labantu, ngezikhathi ezihlukene, abaye bakhuluma ngakho ngendlela ebonakala okungenani iphefumulelwe, kukhona oyedwa, phakathi kwabanye, ama-akhawunti akhe, isikhathi eside ngaphambi komcimbi, aye alungisa isikhathi eside  . ukunaka kwabo bonke abaye baba nolwazi ngazo, futhi baye babonakala emiqondweni ehlakaniphile neqinile beyimvelo yokumelana nazo zonke izinhlobo zezilingo ezifanele, futhi babonise abalingiswa beqiniso abayala inhlonipho  .

Umgadi wezithenjwa zakhe nonomthwalo wemfanelo wokuzidlulisela ngesikhathi esinqunyiwe, kwakukwelinye izwe, njengoba ayememezele, lapho ngakhuluma khona ngokwami ​​kubaholi abakhulu bebandla, ngokulandela isincomo ayenginike sona. futhi ayekugcizelele kakhulu....

Ngakho-ke umsebenzi usufundiwe futhi wahlolisiswa inqwaba yamajaji anekhono futhi akhanyiselwe kakhulu amavoti awo okuzothatha isikhathi eside kakhulu ukucacisa lapha. Eziningana zazo ziye zangiqinisekisa ukuthi ziye zayifunda ngenjabulo enkulu futhi zakha kakhulu, nokuthi ziye zathintwa yiyo ngaphezu kwanoma iyiphi enye incwadi noma ukukhiqizwa kwanoma yini. Abaningi baye bangicela ikhophi, bayibhala phansi noma bayibhala phansi ukuze ibe ukuzindla kwabo okuvamile; abanye bathatha okucashuniwe kuyo, futhi bonke babonakala befuna ukuthi ishicilelwe, nakuba uhlobo lwalo mkhiqizo ongavamile ungabavumelanga ukuba banezele kuso isijeziso segunya labo ngokuvumela amagama abo ukuba ashicilelwe ngokulandela izahlulelo ezivumayo. ukudumisa okuphindaphindiwe

abazenza ngomlomo nangokubhala. Ngokuqinisekile singasishayela ihlombe lokhu kuqapha okuhlakaniphile, okwesabi nakancane ukuvimbela izinqumo zeBandla emaphuzwini lapho yena yedwa enelungelo lokuphimisela khona, futhi asikwazi ukwenza kangcono kunokuba sizinze kulo mfanekiso. thina ngamalungu agqame kakhulu aleliBandla, ukwahlulela kwawo kubonakala kuzwakala njengokunamathela kwawo okholweni kungenakunyakaziswa, futhi ukuziphatha kwawo okuyisibonelo kufanele ukutuswa ngazo zonke izindlela.

Ngenxa yalokho, nakuba inani elikhulu kakhulu labahloli, phakathi kwababhishobhi ngokwabo, lalibonakala lithambekele ekuboneni ukuphefumlelwa kwaphezulu nomunwe kaNkulunkulu kuleli qoqo, digitus Dei est hic, njengoba beye baphindaphinda kaningi, nokuthi, kuhle ukukuqaphela, lokhu kuvuma kwenziwa kimi ngababhishobhi nabanye odokotela ababeqale ngokuvuma kimi ukunengeka kwabo okucishe kunqobe ukuvuma noma yiluphi uhlobo logqozi olusha; nakuba labo, ababebonakala bengakuthandi kangako, abazange balethe okungaphezu kwezizathu ezifakazela ngokwanele ukuthi ekugcineni babengacabangi ngendlela ehlukile, nokuthi baphikisa kunalokho bacacise kunokuba baphikise, nokho, ukuze bangalindeli lutho leli phuzu elibucayi, futhi ngishiya isahlulelo salo emphakathini, kuze kube yilapho iBandla selikhulumile, uma kwenzeka likhuluma: Probate spiritus si ex Deo sint .

Ngakho-ke ngizikhawulela ekuvunyweni komhlaba wonke, futhi ngaphandle kokuvinjelwa, okunikezwe ebuhleni bomsebenzi ngokwawo, oye wahlulelwa ukuthi uyakwazi ukwenza umbono ojabulisayo, futhi ukhiqize emiphefumulweni izithelo ezifiseleka kakhulu zokuguqulwa. , intuthuko nensindiso. Lokhu, ngokubona kwami, ukuphela kwephuzu okubalulekile ukuthi umphakathi uqinisekiswe kahle,  ikakhulukazi uma kubhekwa ukuthi ohlangothini lwemfundiso, njengezimiso zokuziphatha, konke okwakubonakala kungaphandle  .

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ukufinyelela futhi ngokunemba okunzima kakhulu. “Umsebenzi wendela kaFougères, engibhalele wona muva nje udokotela odumile noprofesa wemfundiso yenkolo (1), kimi wabonakala uqukethe imfundiso yenkolo ephakeme kakhulu, ukuziphatha okumnene nokumsulwa, izimiso zokuziphatha ezinkulu nezikhanyayo, futhi ngezinye izikhathi ukwahlulela. lowo ukhuluma ngokuphefumulelwa kwakhe; Ngicabanga ukuthi ukuyifunda kuzoba usizo kakhulu kwabathembekile futhi kuzobanikeza ukunambitheka okuhle kobuhle. »

(1) UBaba uPons, umpristi wesifunda saseMazamet, wesifundabhishobhi saseLavaur.

Ukwahlulela kukadokotela othile kuwukubonakaliswa kwabo bonke abanye, futhi kuye kwaphindwa kimi ngezikhathi ezihlukene nangezindlela ezihlukahlukene izazi zemfundiso yenkolo ezizazi kakhulu lezi zinhlobo zezindaba (1); isibe isikhalo sawo wonke abefundisi, isiNgisi nesiFulentshi ngokufanayo, asebeyifundile. Ake sikhumbule lapha iziphathimandla ezihloniphekile engizibalule eqoqweni elandulelayo.

(1) Phakathi kwabanye nguBaba uBarruel.

Lokhu kuhlanganiswa kwamavoti emhlabeni wonke, lo mhlangano wemibono mayelana nenhloko-dolobha kunginikeza ithemba eliqinisekile lokuthi ukukhiqizwa okufiswa kangaka kungase ngolunye usuku, ngokwesimemezelo esikwenzayo, kube nengxenye ngandlela thize enkazimulweni kaNkulunkulu nasesisindisweni. lemiphefumulo okubonakala imiselwe yona. Kwangathi umcimbi ungafinyelela esikulindele, futhi ithemba lethu lingakhohliswa!

Ngakho-ke, futhi, kungaba yize kakhulu ukungena lapha encwadini ende ngezinga lokholo okufanele umuntu anikeze ugqozi lwale ntombazane engajwayelekile (1), ngezizathu umuntu angazinikeza noma aziphikise, njengalokhu amathuba amaningi noma amancane alezi zizathu. UMoya oNgcwele, kholwa ngumbhali, uzokhanyisela imiphefumulo enenhliziyo enhle ngaphezu kwanoma ubani kuwo wonke lamaphuzu ozowafunda, hhayi ngenxa yelukuluku lokufunda, noma kancane ukuthola okuthile okugxekayo, kodwa ngenhloso yokufunda, ukwakha, futhi ujabulele. Yebo, siyalokotha sithembe ukuthi, ukufunda nje umsebenzi, owenziwe ngobuqotho obufanele kanye nobumsulwa benhloso, kuyokwenzela abafundi abanjalo okungaphezu kwalokho okungashiwo ngakho; nalabo okwenziwa yilesi sifundo bebengeke bancengwe bekuyoba kuncane nakakhulu ngobufakazi abebengeke behluleke ukubuphikisa futhi bube buthaka ngazo zonke izindlela. Ngoba kulolu hlobo, futhi ikakhulukazi ekhulwini esiphila kulo, bekungeke kwenzeke ukukholisa labo abazimisele ukungavumi lutho olusha endabeni ethile yezambulo neziprofetho.

(1) Ukuqiniseka kwesambulo esithile akusoze kwaveza inkolo yobuKatolika edinga incazelo, kodwa kunalokho ukholo oluthile lomphefumulo lapho ukhona; iyimfundiso yazo zonke izazi zenkolo, esekelwe ekulobeni nasesiboneloni sabangcwele abaningana bomthetho omdala nomusha. U-Abrahama udunyiswa ngokukholelwa ekuphefumulelweni okukhethekile kwaphezulu. Uyise kaJohane oNgcwele uMbhapathizi wajeziswa ngokungakholwa yizwi lengelosi, futhi siyabona ukuthi uJesu Kristu ovukile ubasola kakhulu abafundi bakhe ngokungakholwa ebufakazini babesifazane abangcwele ababebubonile ngemva kokuvuka kwakhe. Intambo ye-Sulti ne-tardi ad credendum! (Luka, 24, 25).

UmKristu onengqondo nothembekile kufanele nokho acabangele ukuthi lezi ziprofetho ezindala zimemezela ezintsha kuze kube izikhathi zokugcina zeBandla. Kuyisithembiso uNkulunkulu asenza kuye, nesipho sokuprofetha saphiwa kuye njengesimangaliso, kuze kube phakade. Ngakho-ke okungenani kungaba yinhlamba kowokuqala ukwenqaba abanye ngaphandle kokuhlolwa. Amandla angcwele akaboshiwe nganoma isiphi isikhathi: konke ayekwazi esikhathini esidlule, asengakwenza; futhi ngokuqinisekile asiboni ukuthi kungani, lapho izimo ezifanayo zibuya, ukuBuyisa kwaphezulu kungafanele kuvuselele iziprofetho nezimangaliso zezikhathi zokuqala, lapho phambi kwamehlo ethu kuvuselela ngendlela emangalisa kangaka konke ukuqina kwabavuma izono zokuqala kanye naso sonke isibindi. kanye ne ukungesabi kwabafel’ ukholo bokuqala. Kodwa kunezingqondo ezibandlulula kangangokuthi bathathe ingxenye yabo ngokungenakuguquleka kukho konke lokhu; bekungeke kwenzeke ukukhohlisa, futhi mhlawumbe kuyingozi ukuwenza; kungcono ukuwayeka avame ekuqondeni kwawo  .

Noma ngabe kunjalo, uma umsebenzi okukhulunywa ngawo uvela kuNkulunkulu, ungakwenza ngokuphelele ngaphandle kokuvunyelwa abantu futhi uzozisekela naphezu kwakho konke obekungenziwa ukuze uwubhubhise; ngoba ngubani ongesula izinhlamvu ezingacimeki umunwe weNkosi ozifaka kukho konke akwenzayo? Ubani ongabeka isithiyo entandweni yakhe emisiwe? Ngakho-ke kufanele sithembele kuye yedwa, futhi yilokhu enginqume ngakho, ngaphandle kokufuna ukuyala isahlulelo sanoma ubani, noma ngikhathazeke kakhulu ngemibono ephikisanayo okubonakala sengathi kwenye indawo kunzima kakhulu ukubuyisana phakathi kwabo : necessariis unitas, in dubiis libertas, kuma-omnibus charitas; kusho uBaba weBandla, uAugustine oNgcwele.

Kuyiqiniso, futhi lokhu kuwukuphikisa ngokungangabazeki okuyokwenziwa kimi, ukuthi ezindaweni eziningi ukucabanga kwami ​​kwembula indlela yami yokucabanga ngalesi sihloko, nokuthi sona kanye isihloko somsebenzi, kanye ne-epigraph, njll. , ngibonise ngokwanele ukuthi anginandaba nayo, nokuthi ukuphefumlelwa kwendela ngikubheka njengokuqinisekile.

angifuni ukukufihla; hey! kungani, phela, akufanele ngijabulele

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Ingabe ikhona inkululeko engiyinikezwe yibo bonke abahluleli bayo, futhi mina ngokwami ​​ngiyishiyela kumfundi ngamunye, ukuba acabange ngakho lokho akuthandayo? Kuyo yonke indawo, ngiyavuma, ngikhulume ngokuncenga okujulile lapho ubudlelwano bungibeke lapho abanye bengazitholanga bekulokhu; kodwa njengoba kungenzeka ukuthi ngenza iphutha, futhi nginephutha kulokhu, angiboni kulokho lokhu kuncenga, okukhethekile kimi njengabanye abaningi abanekhono kakhulu, futhi ngaphandle kwalokho bengingeke ngenze umsebenzi onjalo. , kungase kubeke kumfundi isibopho sokucabanga njengami, uma engakwehluleli kufanelekile, futhi uma engaziboni  izizathu ezanele zako kulokho akufundile. Wonke umuntu unendlela yakhe yokucabanga nokuthatha izinto, 

Ngakho-ke, ekunikezeni izindaba zikaDade ngomphumela wezambulo zakhe, nangaphansi kokubheka ukuphefumlelwa kwaphezulu, angisasho ukuthi nginqume ukwahlulela komphakathi ngalombuzo kunokuba ngithi ngivimba oweBandla ngobungcwele. walomphefumulo omuhle, nokumgcoba kusengaphambili, lapho ngimbiza ngeNdodakazi Engcwele . Lezi zinkulumo, njengoba sazi, akufanele zithathwe ngokuqinile. Kuyini-ke, ukuthi akumina ngedwa umbono wami ephuzwini okukhulunywa ngalo, nokuthi umbono ophambene usekude nokuba nenani elifanayo lamavoti. . Angeke kushiwo ukuthi kwaba nemibono embalwa ephikisanayo phakathi kwabahloli.

Ngingahle ngigxekwe ngokusakaza, isikhathi eside kakhulu ikakhulukazi kuzethulo, izimpinda, njll. Kulokho nansi impendulo yami, ngifuna ukuthi yenelise zonke izingqondo: 1° Angingabazi ukuthi ukubhala kwami ​​kugcwele amaphutha, okumayelana nakho konke okungokwami; I-2 ° kuyadingeka ukukhumbula ukuthi akuwona umbuzo lapha womsebenzi owenzelwe ukujabulisa ingqondo ngama-dissertations anelukuluku nolwazi, ahlanganiswe ngokuvumelana nemithetho yokunambitha. Kuwuhlobo lwemibhalo eqinile nengokokuziphatha, lapho umuntu ecabanga ukuthi, lapho umuntu ekholelwa ukuthi uNkulunkulu ngokwakhe ufundisa abantu ngamaqiniso aqinile, abekwe lapho wonke umuntu angawafinyelela futhi abekwe ngendlela yokuba athathwe yibo bonke. , ukuze abaxwayise. ngokumelene namaphutha namahlazo ezikhathi zokugcina, abasondelayo futhi okungenzeka ukuthi abakude kakhulu nathi njengoba umuntu engase akucabange; i-Apocalypse entsha, uma umuntu engasho kanjalo, lapho, ngesikhathi sokuvukela kweFrance, uJ. isitha sakhe esikhulu kunazo zonke, kanye nalo lonke uchungechunge lokushushiswa nezinhlupho okufanele luphazamise iBandla lakhe kuze kube izikhathi zokugcina zesikhathi salo; nali uhlaka esikhona kanye nalo lonke uchungechunge lokushushiswa nezinhlupho okufanele lunyakazise iBandla lakhe kuze kube yizikhathi zokugcina zesikhathi salo; nali uhlaka esikhona kanye nalo lonke uchungechunge lokushushiswa nezinhlupho okufanele lunyakazise iBandla lakhe kuze kube yizikhathi zokugcina zesikhathi salo; nali uhlaka esikhona samanje.

Manje, umuntu uzizwa ngokusobala ukuthi umsebenzi walolu hlobo awunakuhlangana ngalutho nenoveli engokomoya, ebhalelwe izazi kuphela, noma

imithetho yezemfundo, engingenalo ithalente noma ukuzenzisa ukuhambisana nayo. Lapho uNkulunkulu enza okungangokuthi akhulume nabantu, yizidingo zabo azibuzayo, hhayi izinkanuko zabo, izinjabulo zabo noma abakuthandayo. Ubonakalisa intando yakhe kubo ngendlela ayifunayo futhi ewusizo kakhulu kubo, ngaphandle kokuba nelungelo labo lokuthola iphutha kuyo, noma lokufuna ukushintsha noma yini.

Kokunye, uma sifuna ukukunaka, sizovuma kalula, njengoba abaningi benzile, ukuthi akukaze kube nencwadi edinga ezinye izandulela ukuze ziqondwe kahle, nokuthi, kude nokungenza ngibe icala elilodwa, umfundi unelukuluku lokwazi. ukufunda kusukela ekujuleni kwento, ngingabonga kuphela kimi ngokubeka phambi kwamehlo akhe okuwukuphela kwendlela yokwahlulela kahle.

Ngaphandle kwempilo kaDadewethu, noma ngabe yayifushanisiwe kangakanani, kufanele ngempela ithathe indawo ethile, ngaphandle kwezimo ezingenakugwemeka zemibhalo yokuqala eyabhalwa eminyakeni engaphezu kwamashumi amathathu edlule, kwadingeka, ngimqinisekise, ngixoxe futhi ngixazulule. bonke ubunzima bukaDadewethu, noma kunalokho konke ukuphikisa kanye nezingxabano idemoni elizame ngazo ukumdida nokumphambukisa kuphrojekthi yakhe, njengoba sizobona.

Kwakudingekile ukufushanisa konke lokho, uzosho? Kuhle kakhulu. Ngakho sakwenza njengoba sasicabanga ukuthi singakwazi; kodwa futhi bekufanele uqaphele ukuthi ungafinyezi kakhulu, futhi uzovuma uma ufuna ukuzifaka ezicathulweni zami isikhashana futhi ubone into ngendlela okufanele icatshangelwe ngayo. Ngoba, ekugcineni, noma kwadingeka ngithule

ukuphikisa okuvela kuDadewethu, noma okuvela esitheni sakhe, okwakungaba ukungathembeki okungenakuthethelelwa; noma kufanele, ekuzibikeleni, futhi ngibike ngokunemba okufanayo izimpendulo ezanikezwa kubo, nezizathu, okungenani eziyinhloko, lapho ingqondo kaDade eyathuliswa ngayo. Cishe ngeke kube nguyena yedwa umphefumulo okuzosikiselwa kuye ukuphikisa okufanayo, futhi ongamiswa lapho, njengoba kwavela emicabangweni eyenziwa kimi, futhi okwakuyizimpinda kuphela zakho; izizathu ezanquma ukuthi mhlawumbe nazo zingazinquma, njenge

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sekwenzekile izikhathi ezingaphezu kwesisodwa ngokwazi kwami.

Futhi amajaji alungile abheke zonke lezi izethulo njengetshe elibalulekile neliyisisekelo laso sonke isakhiwo. Benza icala layo ngokulingana

ukuthi bawenza ngomsebenzi ngokwawo. Nokho, ngizovuma ukuthi kukho konke ubude obudlulele nobukhathazayo kufanele bugwenywe, konke obekuyoba yize noma okungadingekile; kodwa akusikho ngenani lamakhasi, kungenxa yezinto eziqukethwe okufanele sahlulele. Inkulumo ende kakhulu ingase ibe mfushane kakhulu, njengoba nje nencane ingase ibe yinde kakhulu. Kungakhathaliseki ukuthi iyiphi indlela, iqiniso lihlala liwukutshela izinto njengoba zenzekile, hhayi ngenye indlela. Ngaphandle kwalokho, emsebenzini ofana nalona, ​​angiboni ukuthi isizathu sesibili noma sesithathu, lapho sisihle, singalimaza kanjani esokuqala. Kuyisibonelo uNkulunkulu ngokwakhe asinika sona ezindaweni eziyinkulungwane emiBhalweni Engcwele,

Akugcini lapho, futhi angikwazi ukuqeda le ngxoxo ngaphambi kokuba ngichaze unomphela, ukuze ngingabuyeli kuyo, ukuthi amanothi eqoqo athathwe kanjani, nokuthi ngibhala kanjani. Ngalokhu kuchazwa okulula nokungenangqondo, ngizovimba imibuzo eyinkulungwane umuntu angazibuza, kanye neziphetho eziyinkulungwane ezingamanga umuntu angazifinyelela; Ngizonikeza ubulungisa engibukweleta iqiniso uNkulunkulu alaziyo, futhi ngizobeka bonke abaphathi besonto nabo bonke abantu abanezisusa ezinhle ukuze bafinyelele ukwahlulela ngokuhluzekile ephuzwini elibaluleke kakhulu entweni. Lona umgomo engihlale ngizibekela wona.

Ngakho-ke ngiyamemezela ukuthi izindaba ezakha leli qoqo zisekude ukuthi ngitshelwe igama nezwi njengendikimba yomfana wesikole. Konke ukunakekela kwami, njengokukaDadewethu, kwakuwukuziletha encazelweni yakhe, esikhundleni sokukhuluma kwakhe, ngokuvamile okwakungesona isiFulentshi.

Uyohlale usho kangcono kunami, inqobo nje uma uyangiqonda , wayevame ukuthi kimi: Ngakho-ke yilokho esikusebenzise ngokukhethekile kuzo zonke ezinye izingxoxo zethu! futhi wafakaza kimi izikhathi ezingaphezu kwesisodwa ukuthi ngaphumelela kukho, kangangokuthi akekho noyedwa, ngaphandle ngisho nangaphandle kukaM. Audouin, owayengamqondi kahle kangaka. Engikuphindayo kuphela ukuze ngiqinisekise kancane, uma kungenzeka, imiphefumulo enamahloni ethinta ukuthuthumela esinyathelweni ngasinye engisiphambukile encazelweni yeqiniso. Asikho isidingo lapha sokuvimbela, noma ukwethuka, noma amahloni amaningi. Uma kuwumsebenzi kaNkulunkulu, masiqiniseke ukuthi ukuPhatha kwakhe kuyobe kukuhlinzekele konke.

Kuliqiniso nokho ukuthi ezintweni eziningi kuningi engikubhale ngaphansi komyalelo kaSister, uma umuntu engasho njalo. Ngaphandle kwamazwi awasebenzisa njengokungathi avela kuNkulunkulu, futhi angiyala ukuba ngiwasebenzise, ​​kwadingeka ngibhale ingxenye enkulu kakhulu, futhi ngangokunokwenzeka, yayo yonke lemininingwane emikhulu ethinta izimfanelo zaphezulu, indalo, iBandla, isihlanzo,

isihogo, ukuphela komhlaba, isiphetho sezingane ezincane, ukuvukela kwethu, nayo yonke imibono uNkulunkulu ayembonise ngayo izimbangela nemiphumela....

Ngakho-ke ngabhala, ngoba ngizizwa kahle ukuthi kukho konke lokhu, umusa noma amazwi ayengakwazi ukuvala izinto ezinkulu azisho kimi, futhi angizange ngithembele inkumbulo yami ngokwanele ukuba ngizame ukuzithembisa ukuthi ngeke ngishiye noma yini ebalulekile. Ngakho kwadingeka ngibhale; kodwa, kude nokukhulisa zona lezi zindawo, njengoba umuntu engase acabange, umuntu angabona, uma umuntu emzwile uDadewethu, ukuthi angenzanga okungaphezu kokuthatha isizinda kanye nobuncane bezinto abengitshela zona.

Nginokuningi kakhulu lokho angenze ngakubhala ngemuva kwalokho nguMphathi (1), ngoba wayefuna nje ukuzifaka enkingeni, waphoqeleka ukuthi abhale konke uDade akushoyo ukuze azwakale kuye, futhi wangifaka ngaphakathi. ukufinyelela ekumaziseni ngendlela efanele ekubhaleni kwami: okwasusa amagama amaningi obekufanele ngiwafinyeze. Kodwa imininingwane kaDadewethu, nakuba ngezinye izikhathi iba yinde kancane, ibilokhu ibonakala ithakazelisa kakhulu kimina ngengqikithi yezinto, futhi ngezinye izikhathi ngisho nangendlela, kangangokuthi emaphuzwini amaningi ngincamela ukwesaba ukuthi ngenze okuningi kakhulu kunokuningi kakhulu. ukusikeka. Noma kunjalo, lena ngokuvamile indlela yonke into eyenzekayo, ikakhulukazi mayelana nemininingwane ebibonakala idinga ukunemba okuncane,

(1) Ingabe akusona isiqephu se-Providence ukuthi kwakungemina ngedwa othathe amanothi okuqala? Ngokungangabazeki uNkulunkulu wayivumela ukuba inikeze okungenani ubufakazi obubodwa beqiniso eliyisisekelo lomsebenzi abona kusengaphambili ukuthi kwakuyodingeka uhlaselwe kusukela kuso kanye isisekelo. Lokhu kwanele ukususa ukungabaza kokholo oluhle; lokho kwanele, futhi ubuhle bukaNkulunkulu abunalutho.

Udade ngezinye izikhathi wayekhuluma isikhathi eside ngingenzi lutho ngaphandle kokumlalela ngokucophelela, njengoba ayencoma. Khona-ke, ngemva kwemizuzu eyisithupha noma eyisishiyagalombili echithwe ngale ndlela, okungukuthi, ngemva kokuba isihloko sesithuthukiswe ngokwanele ngendlela yaso, ngabe sengimcela ukuba ayeke, noma wangibuza ukuthi nginakho yini okuhle.

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waqonda: Bheka, uBaba , wathi kimi, yilokho uNkulunkulu angibonisa khona, ukuze ubambe ingqikithi yakho. Kulokhu ngibhale imigqa eyisishiyagalombili noma eyishumi kumanothi

kafushanisiwe, ngase ngiyifunda kancane kancane kuDade, wangilalela ngokukhulu ukucophelela; wacabanga ngami lapho: Kuhle, kuhle, Baba , wayevame ukuthi kimi, uhlezi kahle lapho, ukhulume kangcono kunami; kodwa ngaphezu kwakho konke ngiyabona ukuthi usemqondweni weqiniso wokukhanya okungikhanyiselayo nokungiholayo... Bambelela, futhi ungaphumi kukho lapho usebenza ngamanothi akho....

Ngezinye izikhathi wayengitshela ukuthi ngangingakafiki, nokuthi wayebona umehluko phakathi kwencazelo yeqiniso nendlela yami yokuyichaza; kodwa angikhumbuli ukuthi wake wangitshela ukuthi ngihambe ngendlela ephambene neyakhe. Noma kunjalo, yonke into yayilungiswa kaningi ngokushintshwa kwetemu elilodwa, futhi ngadedela ngemva kokuba esengivume, engitshela ukuthi ngangisemqondweni weqiniso uNkulunkulu amnike wona. Wabuye wangitshela, ngezinye izikhathi, ukuthi lokho akubona kwakuhambisana ncamashi nalokho engangikushilo ngosuku olunjalo endaweni engifundisa ngayo ngendaba enjalo, nokuthi ngangingase ngisebenzise ithuba elifanayo. imibono ekubhaleni kwami, njll ....

Ngakho-ke yonke into yayihlanganisa phakathi kwami ​​noDade ekuhwebeni okuthile kwemicabango ohlangothini lwakhe, kanye nezinkulumo ezikweyami; ezincwadini ezinjalo, kwakungafanele, ngangingeke ngifune ukucabanga ngaphandle kwakhe, futhi ngokuvamile kimi kwakubonakala sengathi wayeyoba nobunzima obukhulu ekuvezeni imicabango yakhe ngaphandle kwami. Kuthathe ngendlela othanda ngayo, mhlawumbe uNkulunkulu wayenezizathu zakhe zokuyala kanjalo, uma nje ebahlazisa bobabili. Nokho ngesinye isikhathi wayeyiphakamisa yona kanye leyo nkulumo kuye, bese lungasekho ucwaningo okufanele lwenziwe, kwakumele ahlukane nalo. namathela ethemini elinqunyiwe, elalihlala lihlanzekile futhi lingcono kakhulu elingasetshenziswa. Ngokuvamile wayeba nombono ngaphandle kwenkulumo; kodwa okumangazayo ukuthi ngezinye izikhathi kwakwenzeka ukuthi abe nenkulumo nombono ngaphandle kokuba nokufaneleka. Yile ndlela kanye amanothi okuqala abanye abafundi ababebonakala bewafisa ngayo avela ngayo; kodwa kusobala ukuthi bekungaba yize kakhulu ukuzikhiqiza, ngenkathi zisekhona; futhi isizathu siwukuthi bekungeke kwenzeke ukuzifunda, futhi nakakhulu ukubona kuzo ukulandelana okuthile, okungatholakala kuphela ekubhalweni. Ngakho-ke kungaba lula kakhulu ukucabanga ukuthi kukhona konke lokho umuntu ayekufuna, ukuze angakholelwa noma yini umuntu angakwazi ngisho ukuyichaza. wazalwa

inganikeza noma yiluphi uhlobo lobufakazi, futhi ukufunwa okuqinile kwabo kungase kubonakale kuwumphumela wesinyathelo sokuqapha sinenhloso embi kakhulu kunobuhlakani.

Manje kufanele sicabange ukuthi ukubhala kufanele ukuthi kwenziwe ngomoya ofanayo kanye nokwesaba okufanayo ukuchezuka ohlelweni kanye nemibono yeqiniso kaDadewethu; kodwa uma, ngokubhala, ngezinye izikhathi ngiye ngathatha ezimisweni zemfundiso yenkolo, noma ngisho nasemuva lami siqu, ngokwanele ukuba ngithathe indawo yalokho ayengitshele khona futhi engangingakwazi ukukubhala, ngazwi linye, lokho engangizomnika kona. imibono yobubanzi obufanele kanye nentuthuko edingekayo yena ngokwakhe angikhokhise ukuba ngibanike yona, njalo ngilandela isiqondiso esifanayo, ngikholelwa ukuthi kulokhu ngifeze umsebenzi wami kuphela, kude nokuchezuka kuwo. futhi noma ngabe konke lokho bekungafakiwe emqondweni wokukubhala, ngiqinisekile, ngaphandle kokungabaza, ukuthi konke lokho kwakufakwe embonweni womuntu owangiyala ukuba ngikubhale. Ngakho iqoqo, njengoba linjalo, umbono weqiniso, okungenani njengoba ngikwazile; amanothi okuqala ayezobakhubaza kuphela  .

Ngakho-ke, ngokwendlela yokubhala namagama, kunezinto ezintathu okufanele zicatshangelwe eqoqweni: 1° izinkulumo okuthiwa zibhekiselwe kuNkulunkulu ngokwakhe, noma ezisetshenziswa njengezivela ku-J.-C.; 2° izinkulumo zikaDadewethu, engingeza kukho konke engimfundele kona, nakwamukele; 3° yonke into eyami, ngiqonde konke ebengicabanga ukuthi kudingekile ukuze nginikeze lonke uhlelo oluthile kanye nezinga elithile ohlangothini olufanayo; kodwa konke lokhu kuxhumene kakhulu nomsebenzi kangangokuthi ezintweni eziningi bengingakuthola kunzima ukukubona ngokwami, futhi ngicabanga ukuthi kungaba lula nakakhulu kunoma ubani omunye ukuba enze iphutha. Ngakho-ke, labo abaye baqaphela futhi baphikisa ukuthi kwakukhona yonke indawo isitayela esifanayo nokujika okufanayo, abazange bathole ukutholakala okukhulu kulokhu, futhi umuntu akaboni ukuthi isiphi isiphetho esingesihle umuntu angasithatha kuso. Kuyisitayela esifanayo yonke indawo, lokho kungokwemvelo futhi ngeke kwenzeke ngenye indlela; ngoba eqinisweni kukhona yonke indawo umoya ofanayo okhuluma ngesitho esifanayo; yonke indawo indoda efanayo ibhala, futhi sasingekho isizathu sokushintsha isitayela kunokushintsha isandla.

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Ngakho-ke iphuzu liyoba, ukusho okuthile, ukukhombisa ukuthi angizange ngiyibambe noma ngiyinikeze imibono yakhe, ukuthi ezingxoxweni eziningi ngangiphambukile emibonweni yakhe nasekwakhiweni kwakhe. Konke lokhu, ngaphandle kokungabaza, kungenzeka kakhulu; kodwa ukukubonisa kwakuzodingeka ukuthi uzizwele wena kuqala: okwesibili, kwakuzodingeka ubonise ukuthi wawuyokuqonda kangcono kunami; kuze kube yilapho ingqondo ephusile inquma ukuthi kufanele sinamathele kimi

ubufakazi obunjengobukaDadewethu, ngoba konke ukugabadela kuvumelana nalowo okwakungeyena yedwa kuphela owakuzwayo, kodwa futhi owayengase afinyelele kuye, futhi wathweswa icala yedwa ngokutolika futhi akhulume nesizukulwane esizayo. . Ngakho-ke ayikho enye indlela yokubekela ubufakazi bakhe inselele ngaphandle kokukhombisa ukuthi uboleka ulimi oluphikisanayo, oluphambene neziprofetho zaphezulu, nemithetho nezinqumo zeBandla; ekugcineni ayimfanele lowo oyenza ikhulume. Lokhu, ngikholwa ukuthi, yikho umuntu ophusile okufanele akucabange ngokwemvelo ofisa ukuzifundisa hhayi  ukuphikisana.

Cishe kuzolandela, mhlawumbe kuzothiwa wena ngokwakho uphefumulelwe, noma okungenani uthole uhlobo oluthile lokungaphambuki kulokhu kubhala, kanye nezimpendulo zakho  kwezeNkolo  . Yena

noma yini elandelayo izolandela: ngokuba angifuni ukungena emicabangweni engenziwa, noma emiphumeleni engadonswa. Ngimemezela kuphela ukuthi, ngaphandle kokuba nanoma yiluphi uhlobo lwelungelo kukho, ngiyazibona ukuthi angikufanele neze ukuthola umusa onjalo; kodwa futhi, ngizonezela ngobuqotho obufanayo kanye ne-naivete efanayo, ukuthi okubi kakhulu, uma sicabanga ukuthi izulu libanikeze kulo mphefumulo omuhle ukuze kuzuze iBandla, kungani, ngenxa yezizathu ezifanayo, sasingeke yini sicabange ukuthi ingabe futhi wayeyonikeza usizo oluthile ngesihle, ikakhulukazi, emsebenzini omncane walowo ayembizile ukuba amsize? Kubonakala kimina okungenani ukubona ukufaneleka okuthile kuyo; futhi uma ngibonisa ukuthi amathuluzi abi kakhulu, abuthakathaka, futhi adelelekile kakhulu ngokwawo, yilawo kanye lawo uNkulunkulu ajwayele ukuwasebenzisa ezimweni ezinjalo, lawo athanda kakhulu kunabo bonke abanye, kimina-ke kubonakala sengathi umuntu angakukholelwa kimi ngaphezu kwanoma ubani. Yisona kuphela lesi sihloko enginaso sale nto, okuyisihloko okungaba yiphutha kakhulu ukungiqhudelana naye, futhi akekho noyedwa ozocabanga ukungifela umona. Yileyo yonke impendulo yami kule nto.

Angazi, ngaphezu kwalokho, ukuthi ukumemezela umsebenzi njengoba uphefumulelwe uNkulunkulu, noma okungenani njengomphumela wezinto ezithenjwayo zomphefumulo izulu eliwufundisayo futhi eliwuthandayo, kufana nokuzibophezela ekusekeleni konke lokhu okuhlaba umxhwele lesi sihloko. Njengoba lingekho, futhi angeke kube khona igunya elingcwele ukwedlula elikaNkulunkulu, nanoma yikuphi ukugunyazwa okungcwele ukwedlula lokho okuvela

leli gunya, alikho futhi lapho umuntu onelungelo lokufuna ubufakazi obuqinile ngaphambi kokuzinikela: akukho ngisho nalapho umuntu okumele aqaphele kakhulu ukuthi angamangali; cishe yilokho esingeke sikuphuthe, kufanele sikulindele, futhi sikulindele, ikakhulukazi engxenyeni ethile yabafundi, okuthi, ngaphandle kokuba nenkolo eningi mhlawumbe, ngeke kube nomthelela omncane ekukholelweni imbangela UNkulunkulu wayekethisa ngokukhiqizwa kwalolu hlobo, futhi oyothwala ngisho nobumpumputhe aze azincenge ukuba alwele ukucabanga nokholo, kuyilapho bezovikela kuphela izithakazelo zokungabi nankolo kanye nezifiso, ezihlaselwa umsebenzi futhi zibhubhise kukho konke. indlela.

Umbandela wokuqala ngokungangabazeki oyodingeka ngaphambi kokukholelwa kulokhu kuphefumulelwa kuyoba ulwazi olungokomthetho, noma inqubo ye-canonical, esungula iqiniso lakho. Okungenani yilokho engangibuzwa. Kulokhu ngiphendula ngokuthi, esimweni esinjalo, akukaze kusetshenziswe usizo olunjalo, olungafakazeli lutho, ngoba okwenzeka phakathi komphefumulo noNkulunkulu angeke kube umthwalo wobufakazi bangaphandle, noma ubuhlobo bemizwa yomzimba. Kanjalo lomkhosi ubungeke ube nalusizo lwalutho; abakaze abantu abaphefumulelwe balethe obunye ubuqiniso beqiniso lamazwi abo ngaphandle kwamazwi abo, nanoma yimuphi omunye umqinisekisi weziprofetho zabo ngaphandle kokufezwa kwabo. Ngempela, kubonakala sengathi yilokhu uNkulunkulu ngokwakhe anciphisa bonke ubufakazi esinelungelo lokubufuna.Propheta qui vaticinatus est pacem, cùm venerit verbum ejus, sawtur propheta quem misit Dominus in veritating. (Jerem. 28.) Manje ake sihlole, futhi siqhathanise lokho okumenyezelwayo nalokho esikubonile nesikubonayo, angikholelwa ukuthi iphuzu okukhulunywa ngalo lingafakazelwa kangcono.

Mayelana nesiqiniseko esisazodingeka, sokuthi izimemezelo okukhulunywa ngazo nganikezwa zona ngaphambi kokuhamba kwami, ngangingeke ngikwazi ukuletha lapha ngaphezu kobufakazi babahloli engangizibhekise kubo ekuqaleni kokudingiswa kwami, nokuthi bangafakaza ukuthi bafunda eJersey lezi zimemezelo ezifanayo kusukela ekuqaleni kuka-1792; ngakho-ke kufanele ngabe zenziwe ngaphambili. Ngokuqondene nabanye, uma iProvidence ingangivumeli ukuba ngimthole ephila, noma uDadewethu, nanoma yimuphi wabantu ababenabo.

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ulwazi lwamaqiniso ashiwo, kukhona zonke izizathu zokuthatha ngokuthi ngeke ube nalutho oluqinisekile ngaleli phuzu kunobufakazi bami, obuyohlale bunjengoba ngibufakile. Kuyoba kuwena ukubona ukuthi kufanele yini, noma cha, ukunakwa kwakho, ngaphandle kokulindela , ukuze uthathe uhlangothi, isambulo esisha, isambulo somuntu siqu sokuthi uNkulunkulu akakukweleti, nokuthi cishe ngeke ngeke inikeze.

Ngakho-ke ingabe uyohlala, ngenxa yaso kanye leso sizathu, ngaphandle kwanoma yisiphi isisusa esikwazi ukukunquma, njengokungathi yonke into kufanele incike esimweni esivele nje, esingaziwa ngokuphelele eqinisweni lezinto, futhi esingenakuletha noma yiluphi ushintsho kuzo? Cabanga futhi, mfundi, futhi uqiniseke ukuthi uNkulunkulu, onezindlela ezingaphezu kweyodwa zokuqinisa umsebenzi wakhe, uyobe ewuhlinzekele, ngokunikeza ukuntula ubuqiniso bangaphandle ubufakazi obuthathwe entweni ngokwayo. Yebo, ngiyalokotha ukukuqinisekisa, uma nginombono omuhle ngakho, kusemsebenzini ngokwawo lapho umuntu ezothola khona lobu bufakazi buzimele kuzo zonke izinkambiso zangaphandle, lobu bufakazi obungeke buguqulwe noma bube mbumbulu; Ngingasho ukuthi umfanekiso wobuNkulunkulu, owanele ngaso sonke isikhathi ukulungisa ingqondo elungile, umphefumulo oqotho, ofuna iqiniso ngokwethembeka,I-Rationalabile obsequium vestrum. (Roma 12, 1.)

Sesikushilo kakade, noma iyiphi incwadi ezimemezelayo ngaphansi kophawu iyingozi ugqozi, kufanele okungenani, ngobuhlungu bokudelelwa ngumphakathi, anikeze ubufakazi obusekelayo obungavuma isizathu esizwakalayo. Akukho lutho olungcono kunesicelo umuntu asenza kuso: futhi, ngiyaphinda, ngiyazama ukukuqinisekisa ukuthi umuntu uzokwaneliseka kulolu hlangothi, ngokufunda umsebenzi ngokwawo, ikakhulukazi uma, esikhundleni se-s Ukuma endaweni embalwa engabodwa. imininingwane, emizuzwini embalwa kanye nezimo zokufinyelela kuphela, lapho ukuphikisa nezimpendulo bekungeke kuphele khona, sikubheka ngezimo futhi ngokombono okufanele kucatshangelwe kuwo. Uma, kuvalwe amehlo, sihlola ukuthi izinto ezinkulu ezishiwo lapho zivelaphi, negama lapho ziphetha khona, uyini isimilo somuntu okhulumayo, isimilo sobuhle bakhe, iphimbo elithathwayo, uhlaka aluvezayo. , ukuhlukahluka kanye nokuphakama kwezinto ezamukelayo, indlela eziphatha ngayo, futhi ngaphezu kwakho konke isiphetho elisiphakamisayo lapho, ingabe-ke kuyovela kungokwemvelo futhi kunengqondo? Kuyobonakala kungenzeka yini ukucabanga ukuthi ukukhiqizwa okunjalo kungaba umphumela wemibono engahlangani, engahlangani, ebuthakathaka, engaqiniseki, futhi evame ukuphikisana, yomuntu ongenalwazi oshiywe yedwa, futhi engakwazi ukuzitholela ngokwakho kungenandlela eyanele, asikho isizathu esilinganayo umphumela onjalo; ngoba phela akusiwo umbuzo wokucabanga okuyize, noma ukukhokha ngamazwi ukukhiqizwa okunjalo kungaba umphumela wemibono engahlangani, engahlangani, ebuthakathaka, engaqinisekile, futhi evame ukuphikisana, yomuntu ongenalwazi oshiywe yedwa, futhi engakwazi ukuzitholela kuye noma iyiphi indlela eyanele, noma yisiphi isizathu esihambisana nomphumela onjalo; ngoba phela akusiwo umbuzo wokucabanga okuyize, noma ukukhokha ngamazwi ukukhiqizwa okunjalo kungaba umphumela wemibono engahlangani, engahlangani, ebuthakathaka, engaqinisekile, futhi evame ukuphikisana, yomuntu ongenalwazi oshiywe yedwa, futhi engakwazi ukuzitholela kuye noma iyiphi indlela eyanele, noma yisiphi isizathu esihambisana nomphumela onjalo; ngoba phela akusiwo umbuzo wokucabanga okuyize, noma ukukhokha ngamazwi okungabalulekile.

Lapho lo mphefumulo omuhle uzoba nesifiso sokuvelela njengoba enesizotha futhi enamahloni; lapho ezoba nekhono njengoba ethobekile futhi ekude nakho konke ukukopisha; ekugcineni, lapho kungenzeka ukuthi kuhlanganiswe ndawonye, ​​futhi kumuntu ofanayo, izimfanelo kanye nezimo njengokungavumelani futhi ngokusobala eziphikisanayo njengalezo okufanele umuntu azicabangele yena, ngiyabuza ukuthi ngabe lo mhlangano oyinqaba, okungenzeka ukuthi umuntu akakaze awubone. isibonelo, singamnika ulwazi angeke abe nalo, kanye nokujula kwezenkolo okungaphezu kwamandla akhe. Ake siphendule; ingabe kwanele ukuba nesifiso sokudukisa umphakathi ukuze uphumelele kuwo kuze kube manje?

Ingabe uNkulunkulu angakuvumela, futhi ingabe bukhona ubufakazi? Masifune phakathi kwabakhohlisi nabakhohlisayo izwe elikhohliswe ngabo, othile, ngaphandle kwezinye izindlela zomuntu, okhiqize umsebenzi ofanayo ongaqhathaniswa nalona, ​​kanye nochungechunge lobufakazi obungangena kulo. parallel... Okuqinisekile ukuthi akukho engikwaziyo, nokuthi abahloli baye bavuma kimi izikhathi ezingaphezu kwesisodwa ukuthi akunakwenzeka ukuyithola. Labakhohlisi, ngiyavuma, nokho bazinikela njengezithunywa zikaNkulunkulu. Kuze kube yileso sikhathi, akukho okungaba lula, futhi konke kuyalingana nhlangothi zombili; kodwa yibuphi ubufakazi abasishiyele bona bomsebenzi wabo? Yilo kanye iphuzu elinqumayo futhi okufanele lihlolwe,

Sizoba nokusabela, ukuchaza into, enhliziyweni ethambile efudunyezwe ujusi wothando lwaphezulu, emcabangweni ophilayo futhi ophakanyiswe ngokuzindla okujulile ngamaqiniso amakhulu enkolo?... Kodwa ukhona wenza umbono onjalo kimi? Kuphakathi kokuthi lokhu kuphakanyiswa kuvela emandleni emvelo, noma kuvela kuNkulunkulu, noma kuvela kudeveli: akukho okuphakathi nendawo. Uma ivela emandleni emvelo yodwa, sisekela ukuntuleka kwayo ngenxa yezizathu esezinikeziwe. Uma kuwumsebenzi wezandla zikaNkulunkulu owuthokozisayo futhi owuqhubayo, lokho kuwukuqagela thina ngokwethu esikwenzayo. Uma livela kuSathane, sicela labo abacabanga kanjalo basitshele: 1 ° kanjani uNkulunkulu, ongazange avumele iphutha ukuba linqobe iqiniso ngenxa yeqiniso.

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vumela lo mphefumulo omuhle ukuba ube njalo, futhi ngaphandle kwephutha lakhe, ukhohliswe inkohliso elahlayo kanye nokudlalwa kwesitha esinonya njengoba sinobuqili; bekungeke yini kube njalo ukuthi kuye lapha ngesazi sezenkolo esifundile: Nkosi, uma ngisephutheni, nguwe ongibeke lapho; yebo, inkohliso yami ivela kuwe, njengoba ukuvumele, wazi ukuthi ngokwami ​​ngangingenakukubalekela: Domine, si error est, à te decepti sumus .

2 Siyamncenga ukuba asitshele ukuthi uSathane, onesithakazelo esingaka sokusikhohlisa nokusigcina ezihibeni asenze ukuba siwele kuzo, uye wathatha lapha ngokuqondile okuphambene nenkambo yakhe evamile, ngokusibonisa indlela yokuphila. izindlela eziqinisekile zokuthola izicupho, ukuze sizivikele ezingibeni zayo nakubo bonke ubumnyama nobuqili bemiklamo yayo. Ingabe lokho bekungeke kube ukusebenzela ukucekela phansi umsebenzi wakhe nokuketula umbuso wakhe siqu, njengoba u-J.-C. asho kubaFarisi abangakholwa: SiSathanes Satanum ejecit adversùs se divisus est, quomodò ergò stabit regnum ejus?( Math. 12, 26 ) Nalapha futhi, kukubo ukuba basichazele konke lokhu. Mina-ke, ngiyavuma ukuthi le ncazelo ngeke ngikwazi ukuyifinyelela. Ukutholwa okunjalo kudinga umzamo wobuhlakani obungewona owami noma amandla ami. Kodwa okuqedayo ukukhombisa ukuthi akunakwenzeka noma kunalokho ukungenzeki kombono ongazange ubonakale uvumelekile ngokwawo noma emiphumeleni yawo, okungaba kubi, njengoba kufanele ngabe sazizwa, ukubonakaliswa okungenziwa ezikhundleni ezahlukene uDade azithola ekuyena, kanye nokuthandwa okwehlukene ahlangabezana nakho, nakho konke

kubonakala kungahambisani nalokho kuphakanyiswa kwenhliziyo noma umcabango umuntu angathanda ukuwucabanga.

Ngoba, u-1° kusukela ekuqaleni kwempilo yakhe yangaphakathi, uDadewethu uyasifakazela, futhi lokhu ngokuka-J.-C. ngokwakhe, ukuthi wayeneminyaka emibili nengxenye kuphela ubudala, enezinsuku ezimbalwa ubudala, lapho ethandwa. umbono wakhe wokuqala. Nokho, ngeke kushiwo ukuthi kulenkathi ukuqonda kwakhe, nanoma yimaphi amandla akhe obuhlakani ngokwemvelo ayekwazi ukuphakama noma ukuphakama, njengoba ayengakakabi khona futhi kunalokho kwakuwumbuzo wesimo kunokuwaphakamisa. Ingane, kule minyaka, inombono odidekile wokuphila kwayo, ayifuni ngisho nokusola ukuthi uNkulunkulu: sizovumelana kalula.

2° Uyasifakazela ukuthi ezintweni eziningi ukhuluma engaziqondi, aze azibone ephoqwa ukuthi asebenzise izinkulumo ezingazwisisi incazelo yazo, nakuba zihlale zingcono kakhulu. Ngiyaphinda ngiyabuza ukuthi ukuphakanyiswa sekuke kwaveza yini  umphumela onjalo.

3° Usitshela ukuthi izikhathi eziningana wazama ukube eyedwa wayengakwazi ukuthola uthando olunjalo, ngokuzama ukumkhwelisa.

inhliziyo noma umcabango wakhe, ngaphandle kokuthi imizamo yakhe iphumelele ukukhombisa ukungabi namandla kwakhe.

4° UNkulunkulu wamenza walahlekelwa ngokuzumayo inkumbulo yakhe yezinto okwakufanele azikhohlwe, kuyilapho izinto ezazikhohliwe kudala zabuyela kuye ngokulandelana kwazo ngesikhathi sokuloba, njengoba sizobona.

Ngaphezu kwakho konke lokhu indlela ebabazekayo akhuluma ngayo ngokusebenza  kukaNkulunkulu emandleni omphefumulo womuntu, njengendlela yokuwuhlukanisa nemizamo eyize idemoni ngezinye izikhathi elizama ngayo ukuwenza umgunyathi, futhi masitshelwe. kungahluka ngayiphi indlela konke lokhu kugqozi olubizwa ngokufanelekile, futhi kulokho okungase kusekelwe kulabo abasazoqhubeka nokubona kukho konke lokhu kuphela umphumela  womcabango

ephakanyiswe noma ngenhliziyo ekhohlisayo yobungcwele bakhe? Kuhle, kuyancomeka, kudingekile ngisho nokuqapha ekukhohlisweni; kodwa umuntu akufanele, ngaphansi kwalesi sizathu, anikeze i-pyrrhonism engenangqondo, eyenqaba iqiniso lapho liziveza futhi lizenza lizizwe: i-pyrrhonism engavamile, ubuqili bayo, hhayi ukusho ama-quibbles, ngeke banelise muntu, futhi kungenzeka kakhulu. ukucasula ingqondo elungile futhi eqotho, ebona kukho okungaphezudlwana kwesisekelo esithile sokukholwa okubi, okuhlale kuhlasimulisa emehlweni okulingana.

Ngakho-ke kufanele futhi sihlole ubuhle nobubi; futhi ungahambi, ngenxa yokwesaba ukukholelwa kakhulu ephuzwini elilodwa, ukuya kokunye okweqile, ngokwamukele umbono ongenakwenzeka kakhulu, ongeke ukwazi ukuzikhipha kuwo, futhi okuzodinga ukuthatheka okwengeziwe kunokuphambene nalokho. iphathi.

Futhi, inani elikhulu kakhulu labahloli lahlabeka umxhwele ngakho konke lokhu kucatshangelwa, kangangokuthi lacabanga, njengami, ukuthi umsebenzi, owathathwa uwonke, wethula ubufakazi bosizo lwaphezulu, olunamandla angenakulinganiswa kunabo bonke ubufakazi nobuqiniso. enganikezwa yona; ngoba isiphi isisindo esingenezelwa igunya labantu kokukaNkulunkulu, lapho lizibonakalisa? Ngakho-ke bakholelwa, njengami, i-1 ° ukuthi umuntu akakwazi ukuqhathanisa ngokungathí sina indlela eshayayo futhi

incazelo eningiliziwe uDade ayememezele ngayo inguquko yethu kanye nemiphumela yako, ngaphezu kwalokho

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eminyakeni engamashumi amabili ngaphambi kokuba kubonakale, kunemibono evamile nehlale iyingozi yokuthi ezombangazwe zabantu ziye zakwazi ukukuqeda kwezinye izinkomba ezithathwe ekuntulekeni kwezimali, noma ekuqhubekeleni phambili kokungahloniphi nenkolo nokuziphatha okubi . 2. Babekholelwa, njengami, ukuthi umuntu wayengacabanga nje ngokungathí sina ukuthi umuntu ongenalwazi wayezikhulumela yena, noma ngokusho kwezingcaphuno ezimbalwa ngaphandle kokulandelana, okuvela emiBhalweni eNgcwele, ukuthi ngabe wayezwile. futhi azindle ngokungcebeleka, ubenganikeza, ngaphandle kosizo oluvela phezulu, uchungechunge lwezicelo ezilungile nanjengeziyimpumelelo zemibhalo angakaze ayifunde ngisho nokuyifunda, futhi ngaphandle kokuwela kunoma yikuphi ukuchezuka, abahlaziyi abanekhono kakhulu bakhona. akulula ngaso sonke isikhathi, futhi lokho kungaba ukunikeza intombazane okuningi kakhulu, noma ngabe ifundeka kanjani ukuthi kufanele ibe njalo. Umsebenzi wakhe, bathi uzomangaza kunabo bonke obungakaveli kulolu  hlobo lomculo.

3°. Ekugcineni bakholwa njengami ukuthi ukubikezela nokumemezela izinto eziningi kangaka, futhi isikhathi eside ngaphambi komcimbi, kwakuyisihloko esanele sokukholelwa ezenzakalweni esazimemezela ngolwazi olufanayo, kungabi nzima kakhulu ukubona ikusasa. esikhathini samanje, kunokuba ngibone isikhathi samanje esikhathini esidlule... Nokho, ukwahlulela umsebenzi uwonke, hhayi ngemininingwane embalwa engawodwa, bacabanga , njengami, ukuthi indlela eyingqayizivele nekhanyayo lapho izindaba eziningi kangaka ezahlukene. , futhi bonke  ababenameva ngendlela ababephakeme ngayo, baphathwa yilesi siwula, sasingase sakhe isisusa esanele sokukholelwa ekuphefumuleni kwakhe, ngaphandle kwanoma yikuphi okunye ukucatshangelwa; futhi abaningana babo abazange besabe ukuqhubekisela phambili lokhoNgamafuphi nje, babona eqoqweni umsebenzi kaNkulunkulu noma  indida.

Futhi ngempela, uma izambulo zikaSaint Bridget zazibhekwa njengeziyiqiniso opapa abakhulu abambalwa (1) kanye nomkhandlu wonke, ngokumemezela ngaphambi komcimbi ukujeziswa kwamaGreki ngamaTurkey, ngeke yini sibe iqiniso isimemezelo esiqinisekisiwe somunye umcimbi? zohlobo olufanayo futhi zinokubaluleka okufanayo? Futhi uma sasicabanga ukuthi kufanele sithole usizo lwaphezulu ukuze sichaze imisebenzi kaMadeleine de Pazzi, uCatherine de Siena, uThérèse, uGertrude, njll., naphezu kwemfundo ecophelelayo ababeyitholile ingxenye enkulu, indlela yokucabanga ukuthi umuntu ompofu. ignoramus ngabe ikhiqize okuthile okusancomeka kakhulu, ngaphandle kosizo oluvela phezulu?... Impicabadala engaqondakali, futhi bavuma, njengami, ukuyibheka njenge- Apocalypse entsha., futhi umbhali njengomuntu ophakanyiswe uNkulunkulu ngokungavamile ukuba amemezele kubantu isiphetho seBandla kuze kube izikhathi zokugcina zesikhathi salo, futhi abaxwayise emaphutheni namahlazo alezi zikhathi zokugcina. Leso futhi yisihloko engisinikeze sona kwasekuqaleni.

(1) uGregory XI, u-Urban VI, uMkhandlu waseConstance, nabanye opapa abaningana, okhadinali nababhishobhi.

Ngizosho okwengeziwe, futhi sekufinyelele eqophelweni lokuthi lowo phakathi kwabo owayehlale ebonakala engathandeki kakhulu kukho, futhi owayeqale ngokubonisa ukuphikisa okwengeziwe kukho, akakwazanga ukuzibamba ngaphandle kokubona okuthile okukhethekile kukho . ukubambisana, umusa okhethekile, ayecabanga ngawo ukuthi uNkulunkulu wayeyophakamisa ukuqonda nawo wonke amakhono obuhlakani ale ntombazane enhle ngezinga eliphakeme kunawo wonke kanye namandla omoya womuntu;nokuthi ukuze ungaluvumi ugqozi uqobo. Kodwa besingeke yini sibuze ukuthi lokhu bekungeke yini kube ukuvuma into efanayo ngamagama ahluke kancane? Abaningana, okungenani, bakukholwa futhi bakusho ngaphandle komkhosi; futhi ngicabanga, njengabo, ukuthi, kulokhu kucatshangelwa, umehluko phakathi kukaDadewethu namadoda aphefumulelwe ngokweqiniso ungaba ngokoqobo kancane. Kucace bha, ngaphezu kwalokho, ukuthi kuyobe kuwukuhlehlisa lobo bunzima kuphela futhi singabuxazululi, ukuze kunikezwe omunye umuntu ngaphandle kwale ndodakazi engcwele umsebenzi okukhulunywa ngawo. Ngoba ekugcineni, noma yimuphi omunye, umqondisi wakhe, ngokwesibonelo, ngeke esaba nalo lolu sizo olukhethekile, lomusa othile kaNkulunkulu., esiphoqeleka ukuba sikuqaphele. Ah! uma ubekwazile ukuphumelela kuze kube manje eyedwa, ingabe lokho bekuyoba isizathu sokucabanga kanjalo? Ngicabanga ukuthi umuntu angakwazi ukuthanda futhi enze ubuhle ngenxa yakhe; kodwa ubugebengu bungokunye, futhi angicabangi ukuthi sekuke kwabonwa ngaphambili. Manje, angazi nhlobo ukuthi hlobo luni lwesithakazelo lo mqondisi abengaluthola ekwakhiweni kwenkohliso efanele ukudunyiswa kwayo yonke imithetho, futhi angaqinisekisa ngayo ukuthi, ngibonga uNkulunkulu, akazizwa enekhono. . Ngakho-ke kungaba umbuzo kuphela wokubona ukuthi yimuphi, kuDadewethu noma kimi, umuntu angathanda ukuthi acabange ukuthi ukhuthazwe; esikukhethayo  .

Kanjalo kakade sekuqinisekisiwe encwadini, futhi endaweni yokudingiswa kwami, lesi simemezelo sikaDadewethu, ukuthi umsebenzi wakhe kwakuwukubangela izimpi.

imibono phakathi kwezazi. Kodwa konke lokho kungaphethwa kulokhu kuphikiswa kwemizwa ngephuzu elilodwa lokuphefumulelwa,

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, ngokubona kwami, yilo leli qiniso eliyisisekelo, ukuthi uNkulunkulu unikeze ngokwanele ngakolunye uhlangothi lokho okushodayo ngakolunye: Ngisho ukuthi uye wasekelwa ngokuqinile yizizathu ezijulile futhi wakhipha ekujuleni kwezinto, umsebenzi awubona kusengaphambili. uzontula noma yiluphi uhlobo lokugunyazwa. Ngaphandle kokukhononda nganoma ubani, kude nokuthola iphutha kulokhu kuziphatha koBulungiseleli bukaNkulunkulu, ngikuthola, ngokuphambene nalokho, kumfanele kakhulu lowo omisebenzi yakhe ihlale isekelwa yiyona, ngaphandle kwesidingo noma izincomo, noma iyiphi yezindlela zomuntu.

Kokunye, ngivumele ngikuphinde ekugcineni: Angikwazanga ukunambitha umbono walowo wabahloli ongitshela ukuthi noma nini lapho uNkulunkulu engazange asunduze ubufakazi bobufakazi kuze kube iphuzu lapho bungaya  khona , ukuthi wakwenza. akafuni sikholwe (1). Ukuvama kwalesi siphakamiso kusenze ngisisole, futhi sibe yingozi, ezicini eziningi okungekho sidingo sokuchaza kabanzi lapha; ngoba zingaki izinto okufanele sikholwe futhi ubufakazi bazo abuphushwa lapho umuntu engakwazi  ukuya khona!

(1) Futhi, ukuthi ubufakazi obunamandla buyadingeka ngeqiniso eliyisimangaliso kunelinye iqiniso; ukuthi akunakwenzeka ukukufakazela, ngoba kungadinga ubufakazi bemvelo efanayo, njll, njll. Imiphumela yazo zonke lezi zisho imbi kakhulu.

Bengilokhu ngikholelwa ukuthi ngokwezizathu zokwethembeka, okungenani ngokohlobo oluthile lokholo, kungaba khona okungaphezulu noma okuncane, nokuthi izinga lobufakazi nokuqiniseka okwanele ukuhlakanipha kwaphezulu kufanele kwanele ukuhlakanipha komuntu. Isizathu sihlala singabongi futhi siyadelela uma silokotha sibuze umbhali waso okungaphezu kwalokho afisa ukusinika sona. Yilokhu esengikufakazele kakade, inqobo nje uma kuvela umphumela ongeke wabangelwa noma iyiphi enye imbangela ngaphandle kukaNkulunkulu, ngaphandle kokuwela obishini lwezinkinga umuntu angenakuzikhipha kuzo. Konke kufakazelwa lapho. UNkulunkulu angase abe nezizathu zakhe zokungaqhubeki phambili, okwethu ukunamathela kuzo. Ube esekhombisa omunye weminwe yakhe esweni elihlakaniphile nelithambile; okwanele ukubona isandla sonke,I-Digitus Dei yiyona. Umsebe owodwa ophuma efwini wanele ukubonisa ilanga, ngaphandle kokuba udinge ukuvela kukho konke ukukhazimula kwawo kanye nabo bonke ubukhazikhazi bawo.

Kodwa kukho konke lokhu, kusazoshiwo ukuthi, abangenanhlonipho abasoze bakholwa lutho ngakho.

Abangamhloniphi uNkulunkulu! Nkulunkulu omuhle!  ungiqamba  bani abantu lapho? Kodwa bakhona

benziwe ukuba bakholwe into efana nale, futhi ingabe umsebenzi onjalo wenzelwe  bona? Ingabe bakholelwa ngisho nokuthi ukhona uNkulunkulu, abangamhloniphi uNkulunkulu?  Ingabe kuzothatha

kwangathi uNkulunkulu angabe esenza izimangaliso, ngoba akubathokozisi abangamhloniphiyo

ukukholwa noma  ukukwamukela  ? futhi sizolinda, ukuze sizinqumele, ukuze  sibone

izambulo zentombazane empofu engazi lutho futhi, yini okubi nakakhulu, inkolo, elandelwa futhi egunyaziwe phakathi kwamadoda angakaze akwazi ukukholelwa ezimangalisweni noma ekuvukeni kukaJC?

Cha, ngeke ukulindele, mfundi ohlakaniphile futhi ongumKristu; Ngingakuthuka uma ucabanga kanjalo. Konke kuyisiqiniseko esiqinisekile kimi sokuthi uzovumela ongamhloniphi athathe ingxenye yakhe, futhi uzothatha eyakho. Ngokuhlanganisa ubuhlakani nobulula, ulandela iseluleko seVangeli, uzonikeza ukufundwa kwalezi zindaba izinga lenkolelo elihambisana nombono oyobe uwutholile kubo, futhi uhlale ungaphansi kwegunya eliphilayo okuyilona lodwa elinelungelo lokulawula. ukholo lwakho. Lesi isinyathelo ozosithatha, ngaphandle kokufuna ukuvimbela noma ukuyala ukwahlulela  kwabanye.

Uyesaba ukwenza iphutha: uqinisile. Yingoba futhi ngiyakwesabela mina ngokwami ​​ukuthi, ngesikhathi ngisalinde isinqumo senkantolo engenaphutha, ngithanda ukukwazi ukuphendula kusenesikhathi kuyo yonke imicabango engamanga umsebenzi kaNkulunkulu obulokhu uphikiswa ngayo, futhi lapho ngibikezela ukuthi kusafanele sibhekane nalokhu. Kungenxa yokuthi ngifuna isithakazelo senu esikhulu kunazo zonke ukuthi ngikhuluma kini, lapho sengiphetha, lesi seluleko esibalulekile sikaMoya oNgcwele: Ubusisiwe ofunda futhi ezwe amazwi alesi siprofetho, futhi ogcina ngokwethembeka okulotshwe kuso. , ngoba isikhathi mfushane, futhi sesiseduze nokufeza. Beatus owenza ngokusemthethweni futhi acwaninge

iziprofetho ze-verba hujus, et servat ea quœ in ea scripta sunt; tempus enim prope est. (IsAmbulo, 1, 3.)

Ukuze uthole isifinyezo:

Ngizwile umuntu ongavamile enginesizathu sokukholelwa ukuthi uNkulunkulu uyamsebenzisa ukuze akufundise, futhi engikunikeza izimfihlo zakhe nezindaba zakhe: Ngacabanga ukuthi ngangimqonda kahle ngokwanele ukuba angaduki kuye. Wangitshela ukuthi uNkulunkulu unginike lo msebenzi; Ngasebenza ngakho konke okusemandleni ami, futhi njengokungathi kufanele ngizilandisele ngakho. Ekugcineni, ngabonisana nabefundisi beBandla ngokwalokho engangithweswe ngakho; futhi ukuze ungaphuthelwa lutho mayelana nawe, ngisanda kukuchazela amavoti engiwaqoqile ngokwethembeka. Kukuwe manje

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ukubona nokuhlola ukuthi isiphi isahlulelo okumelwe usenze kuso, nokuthi ikuphi ukuziphatha okufanele ukulandele: ngoba lokhu kuziphatha kukaNkulunkulu akuwona neze umklamo, futhi cishe imiphumela iyoba ebaluleke kakhulu kuwe kunalokho esingakucabanga.

PHELA.

EMINYAKENI ESISHIYAGALOMBILI ESIDLULE

WOKUZALWA UDADEWETHU.

Isazi sezenkolo sase-Fougères,

Ukuze asebenze njengesengezo Ezimpilweni Zakhe Nezambulo. (Ngomhleli ofanayo, 18o3.)

“Deus docuisti me a juventute mea, et nunc pronunciabo mirabilia tua.

(IHu. 70:18.)

I-QUALIS VITA, TALIS MORS.

ISINGENISO.

Sibonile ezincwadini ezengeziwe engiqede ngazo iqoqo le-Life and Revelations of the okuthiwa uDadewethu Wokuzalwa, ukuthi kwakumenyezelwe eLondon ukushona kwale ntombazane engcwele, engangiyibhalele kwaze kwaba ngiyahamba. ngasekupheleni kuka-1800, noma ekuqaleni kuka-1801, ngencwadi

ukuthi othile waseSaint-James, eNormandy, wabhala ngakho kumfundisi wesifunda salelo dolobhana, ngaleso sikhathi owayehlala eChelsé, eduze nenhloko-dolobha yaseNgilandi.

Kwase kuyiminyaka eminingana ngathola noma yiziphi izindaba ezivela ezindela zomphakathi waseFougères, engangiphathiswe wona. Lokhu kuthula okuphazamisayo, ngemva kwezincwadi eziningi kangaka ezivela kimi, kwangenza ngesaba ngaphezu kwakho konke ukuthi laba ababili ababengene emfihlweni kaDade base bengezwe enanini lalabo engangikufundile ukufa kusukela ekuhambeni kwami ​​nokuthi, ngalokho, ngangingeke. baye baphucwa unomphela ubufakazi babantu ababili bodwa ababengafakazela umphakathi kanye neqiniso lamaqiniso engangiwabeke eqoqweni, futhi konke lokho, ngemvume yabo kanye nemikhuleko yabo, kwadlula phakathi kukaDade. futhi mina.

Ukwesaba kwami ​​kwase kusekelwe kangcono, njengoba impilo yalezi zindela ezimbili yayihlale ibonakala ibuthakathaka kakhulu kimi ngisho nangaphambi kokuba kudingeke ukuba ishwabadele izithiyo nosizi okwakungase kukwenze buthaka nakakhulu, futhi mhlawumbe ikubhubhise. Kulesi sikhundla, okwasala kimina, ngenkathi ngibathandazela, kwakuwukulinda ngokuthula uNkulunkulu ngokwakhe ukuba enezele ngandlela thize lendlela engokwemvelo kakhulu yokuqinisekisa imbangela engangihlale ngikholelwa ukuthi ingeyakhe, futhi ikakhulukazi kusukela ngaleso sikhathi. amavoti anenzuzo futhi amaningi angiqinisekise kakhulu ngokombono wami wokuqala.

Ekugcineni, ngasekupheleni kukaFebruary 1802, ngathola incwadi elandelayo evela kuMadam Superior, eyangenza ngaqonda ukuthi uNkulunkulu, onakekelayo ukubheka.

ngokungaphezi kuzo zonke izenzakalo kanye nemininingwane emincane kakhulu yomsebenzi wakhe, ngokungangabazeki wayenezizathu zakhe zokungigcinela izindelakazi ukwaziswa okwengeziwe ngalo lonke udaba, futhi ikakhulukazi ofakazi ababili abafundi bomsebenzi ababebahlulele njengababaluleke kakhulu. . Nansi i-abstract yale ncwadi, eyafundwa, yaze yakopishwa inombolo enhle phakathi kwabathandi beqoqo:

Fougeres, January 29, 1802.

"Mnumzane,

Ekugcineni ngisanda kuthola izindaba ezinhle kuwena ngomunye wozakwenu osanda kufika evela ezweni ohlala kulo, osezibophezele ekukwenzeni udlule kwelakithi njengokufisa kwakho. Ngilibambe ngokulangazela leli thuba ukuba nginibhalele ngesandla esiqinisekile, futhi bengizosheshe ngilifune, ukube bengingesabi ukumemezela ngokufa komuntu engazi ukuthi ninesithakazelo esikhethekile kuye. Ngifuna ukukhuluma ngoDadewethu ompofu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu.

Le ntombazane engcwele yafa ngoSuku Lokucabangela 1798, emini. Wayenolwazi lwakhe kwaze kwaba umzuzu wokugcina, futhi izinto eziningi zingenza ngikholwe ukuthi wayenesambulo sosuku nehora lokufa kwakhe. Emavikini okugcina empilo yakhe uNkulunkulu wamyala ukuthi athi, kweyakhe

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ukwabelana, nabantu abambalwa, ngezinto ezithile ezithinta onembeza babo, futhi laba bantu bazuza kahle kukho. Wangitshela nami, ngolwazi olujulile olwalungavela kuNkulunkulu kuphela. Awukwazi ukucabanga ukuthi wangithinta kanjani. Ikakhulukazi, ibikezela izinto ezimbalwa kimi, ezinye zazo esezigcwaliseke ngokuphelele, futhi zingenza ngibe nethemba lokunye ngokuhamba kwesikhathi. Ngingakuqinisekisa ukuthi lokho angitshela khona kwanginikeza ukwaneliseka okukhulu nokuthula emphefumulweni wami.

Ngaphambi kokugula wayebhale okuningi. Ezinsukwini zokugcina  zokugula kwakhe wawacela ngokulangazela wonke amaphepha akhe ayewabeke ezandleni zesonto uNkulunkulu ayembonise lona ukuba amqondise ezindleleni zakhe ezingavamile. Lo mnumzane ubethembise ukuthi uzokudlulisela kuwena, ngenxa yokungabi nalo ithuba eliqinisekile, ubelokhu ezigcinile. Ekugcineni, wawathumela ngomfundisi wakhe. Angazi ukuthi yini eyabenza bagijima bengasetshenzwa futhi babekwe ngendlela engcono. Okuqinisekile ukuthi zifundwe njengoba zifundwa yinqwaba yabantu, ngisho nabaqhamuka ezifundazweni ezahlukene. Ngakho-ke lemibhalo yakamuva iye yasabalala yonke indawo, kanye nombiko wobungcwele bakhe  .

Ngakho-ke ngike ngabuzwa okuningi mayelana nemiphumela emincane okwakungeyakhe. Ngicabanga ukuthi nawe ungajabula ngokuba nayo, ngakugcinela indandatho yakhe yomshado, ashona ngayo. Kangiyithumeli kini, hlezi ilahleke; kodwa uma nje ngiba nodumo kanye nenjabulo yokuphinde ngikubone, ngizokunika, nezinye izinto ezimbalwa zalolu hlobo ezingase zikujabulise.

(1) U-Mam Superior wengeza iveyili yakhe yesidlo, nencane yezinwele zakhe, njll. Ngathola nencwadi encane yokuhlonipha uNkulunkulu ayefundisa abashana bakhe ngesikhathi ehlala nomfowabo, njengoba sasihlala.

ake sithi: ivolumu encane endala, equkethe izincwadi namavangeli onyaka, ngesiFulentshi, nemithandazo. Ngizokwazisa konke.

ngiyakuncenga futhi ukuba ungithengele umsebenzi wakhe nowenu, uma kungenzeka; odadewethu nabo banethemba lokufaniswa okufanayo. Uma iphrintiwe, futhi iBandla likuvumela ukuba ifundwe, uyobe wenza kahle ngokuletha amakhophi amaningi uma udlula lapha; ngokuqinisekile kuzoba nenani elikhulu lesikweletu. Buya ngokushesha okukhulu, sonke siyakufuna....

PS Ngikhohliwe ukukukhomba ukuthi uDade wangitshela izikhathi eziningi, ezikhathini zakhe zokugcina, ukuthi wayefa ngobuhlungu bokungakwazi ukusho izinto eziduduza kakhulu kunoma ubani eBandleni.

»Nginelungelo lokuba, njll. »

Le ncwadi, eyayibonakala isekela leyo yaseNormandy, yayingeke ifike ngesikhathi ukuze ivikele iqoqo futhi ingisekele ohlotsheni lwe-cabal olwaluqala ukugqashuka endaweni yokudingiswa kwami. Phakathi kwenani elikhulu labathandi bezincwadi zokubhalela, kwatholakala eLondon abantu abambalwa abangazange bathathe lolu daba ohlangothini olufanayo.

Emuva kokuphikisa okujwayelekile obekubonakala kungenayo yonke impumelelo ebithenjisiwe, kwenziwa umzamo wokuveza ukungabaza ngobuqotho bemibiko yami; bahamba baze bathi uDadewethu woMzalo kwakungumuntu okuthiwa nje, engangimenza asho noma yini engiyithandayo; ukuthi, ukuze ngijabulele ukuzilibazisa kwami ​​kokuthatha umhlalaphansi, ngangiqambe uthando oluhlakaniphile ngisebenzisa igama lendela okungenzeka yayingakaze ibe khona.

Lesi siphakamiso sasishubile njengogibe engangingalubeka ukuze umphakathi ube nokuthatheka; futhi njengoba uhambo olufushane nje oluya eFrance lwaluzodingeka ukuze kutholwe ukukhwabanisa kogibe, umuntu kufanele futhi acabange ukuthi uhambo olufanayo, olunokuqinisekiswa kwendawo, lwalunganele ukuthethelela ukuziphatha kwami ​​futhi angiphindiselele ngokugcwele ngecala . Ngakho-ke lokhu kusolwa kwakubonakala kuwukuvukela kakhulu ukuba kungafanelana nanoma yiluphi udumo kubantu abanengqondo nabathembekile; kodwa futhi kufanele ngivume ukuthi kwabe sekuvela isitha somsebenzi okwathi, ngaphandle kwenhloso embi futhi sikholelwa ukuthi senza kahle (1), sabonakala sibeka isithiyo esingathi sína ekusakazeni kwawo, futhi okungafanele ngikushaye indiva. sizobona.

(1) Ukukholelwa ukwenza kahle . Iqiniso kumele lilwe, ngoba kumele lihlolwe. Imisebenzi yalolu hlobo ayinakwamukelwa ngaphandle kokuhlolwa, futhi ngiyavuma ukuthi abaphathi, ikakhulukazi, abakwazi ukuyinaka kakhulu.

Ubaba u-de Fajole, umfundisi-jikelele wesifunda-bhishobhi saseRennes, wayengomunye wabokuqala abafunda izincwadi zami zokubhalela. Ngaba nelungelo lokuzethula kuye (ngaleso sikhathi ngangiqala ukubuthela empini) esiqhingini saseJersey, ngo-1792; ngaphandle kwamazwi ambalwa, wayethole yonke into encomekayo; wayeze wanginxusa ukuba ngizigcinele ikusasa; kodwa kusukela ngaleso sikhathi kuye kwavela ukuthi wawushintshe ngokuphelele umqondo wakhe ngalesi sihloko, kungekho muntu okwazi ukuqagela ukuthi kungani.

Ngasekupheleni kuka-1799, uM. l'Abbé wahamba

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esuka eScarborow, lapho ayehanjiswe khona, eya eLondon; ekufikeni kwakhe kule nhloko-dolobha, ngacabanga ukumbopha ngokumnika iqoqo lemibhalo yesandla yamavoti ababhishobhi nezinye izazi zemfundiso yenkolo engabonisana naye ngaso leso sikhathi, ngesikhathi ngihlala lapho. Ngangingakulindele neze okwenzekile, futhi akuzange kube nokumangala okukhulu kunalokho lapho ngizithola, lapho ngizwa u-Abbé de Fajole engitshela ukuthi, ngokucabanga kwakhe, ucwaningo lwakhe nezeluleko ayezitholile, njll., wayeseshintshe ngokuphelele. umbono wakhe ngephuzu okukhulunywa ngalo; ukuthi nganginephutha kakhulu ngokubonisa noma ubani izincwadi ayengiyale ukuba ngizifihle; ukuthi abasoze bagunyazwa umbhishobhi waseRennes, ngenkathi ezoba usekela-jikelele; Ekugcineni,, ayiphinda kimi futhi wangeluleka umpristi wabangane bami engangiye  ngabonisana naye.

Ngazanelisa ngokubaphendula bobabili ngokuthi ngizoqikelela kakhulu ukuthi ngingawulaleli umyalo okubonakala kimina njengongasekelwe phezu kwesizathu esingangiheha ukuba ngenze njalo; ukuthi ngangikuhlonipha kakhulu ukukhanyiselwa kanye negunya lalabo ababehlulele ngenye indlela, futhi ababekufanelekele ukulalelwa;  lokho

M. de Fajole wayengakaze abe nelungelo lokungenqabela ukuba ngikhulume ngomsebenzi ababhishobhi bodwa abangabehluleli abazalwa ngawo, futhi engangizimisele ukubabonisa; Ngakho-ke ngangingakwazi ukunikeza isithembiso ababecabanga ukuthi ngisinikeze, ngaphandle kokwephula izwi lami nokukhaphela isizathu kanye nokwethenjwa engangikuphathisiwe. Zaba kanjalo-ke izinqumo zami nezimpendulo zami, ezaqiniswa kakhulu imibono yodokotela abathintwayo ababefunde ukukhiqizwa kukaDade.

Kumelwe kuvunywe, nokho, ukuthi ngathola ubuhlungu nosizi olukhulu ngenxa yalokhu kuvinjelwa engangingakulindele, futhi ngokungangabazeki kwakuwukuqhubeka ngiziqinisa futhi ngiphume ekuphoxekeni kwami ​​ukuthi ukuPhathwa kwaphezulu kwangivumela ukuba ngithole, ngokunembile. ngalesi sikhathi, izincwadi enginikeze umbiko ngazo, futhi ezingifundise lokho okufanele ngikucabange ngobandlululo olungalungile noma izindaba ezingamanga ngokungangabazeki ababethembele kuzo.

Ngakuthanda kimi ukuziphatha kwalesi Sibonelelo esitusekayo ngempela mayelana nalabo abazidelayo ekunakekelweni yiso. Kungaba yini isiphetho sikaDadewethu ompofu wokuzalwa, ngazitshela? Ngakho-ke kufanele ahlale eshiswa iseluleko sendoda eyodwa ngokumelene nabo bonke? Lowo owaba ngowokuqala ukunciphisa umkhiqizo wakhe waba umlotha waphenduka ngokujulile ngokusheshisa kwakhe kanye nombono wozakwabo; Ngingakwazi yini, ngokweseluleko sendoda engashadile, ngisazichaya ebuhlungwini obufanayo, ngemva kokufezwa okubonakalayo kwakho konke ayekumemezele? Ngeke kube, ngithemba, noma okungenani iBandla kuphela eliyonquma, ngoba ngikhala kuye yedwa  .

Kanjalo ngacabanga ngaphakathi kimina, futhi ngazizwa ngiqiniswa nakakhulu ukufunda lezo zincwadi zokubhalela okwakudingeka ukuzidela kwazo. Okwadingeka ngikwenze kwakuwukuphonsa amehlo ami phezu kwayo isikhashana ukuze ngizwe okuthile okungitshela ngaphakathi: Qaphela, lokhu akwenziwa ukuba kushiswe ... Ngilindele yonke impumelelo yaleli bhizinisi kuye yedwa ohlale ebonakala sengathi mina ngibe umbhali wayo.

Ngabe sizokholwa manje ukuthi uDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu wayelindele ukwazi konke esisanda kukusho, nokuthi wayekumemezele cishe eminyakeni emithathu ngaphambi komcimbi, waze wadalula, ngokwezwi nezwi, umlingisi ophambili, wayengakaze abone noma azi?

Wayebhale izindela ezimbili, ngo-1797, isexwayiso ayesithole kuso. Lo mbhalo wawubhekiswe ku-M. Leroi, umfundisi wesifunda-bhishobhi saseMaine, ngaleso sikhathi owayengumqondisi waso, owanginika wona ngo-1802, futhi owamangala njengami lapho ezwa indaba emlonyeni wami. incazelo. Sizokhuluma, kamuva, ngalokhu kubhala, okuqedela ukuqiniseka kwami ​​​​kokuthi ngangilungile ukuma ngiqine ngimelane nomyalelo owawungangenza ngiphenduke kaningi, uma ngibe nobulula bokuhambisana nawo.

Lokhu ngokuqinisekile kuyisithombe sesitayela sale ntombazane engavamile, noma esikhundleni salowo owayisebenzisa ukuze sizuze. Kungale ndlela, lapho ethanda, lapho ebhuntshisa yonke into ephikisana nemiklamo yakhe nomsebenzi wakhe, ngokuxhumana nalabo abenza bakhulume ngezibani ipolitiki yabantu engeke ifinyelele kuzo, engakwazi ngisho ukuyiphendula. noma yini.

Ukuthi intombazane empofu, engaziwa ngokuphelele kukho konke okwenzeka emhlabeni, owesifazane ompofu ongenalwazi ocabanga kuphela ukuzilungiselela ukufa,

nokho azi ukuthi kwenzekani, noma kunalokho kumele akwenze ngaphandle, ngokuphathelene nomsebenzi wakhe, ngaphesheya kwezilwandle nasendaweni ekude lapho engenakho ukuxhumana; makabikelwe ngesahlulelo esizodlula owesilisa amqamba ngaphandle kokumazi, futhi oseLondon noma eScarborow; ukuthi iyakumemezela eminyakeni edlule, ngaphandle kokwesaba ukuthi izophikiswa, nokuthi

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umcimbi uphendula isexwayiso esisithola kuwo mfundi ucabangani? Ukungakholwa kuzophela kanjani nakho na? futhi ingabe siyobe senza iphutha ngokubheka lesi simo njengobufakazi obusha obuphelelisa ukubonakaliswa kweqiniso lokuphefumlelwa kwakhe?....

Ngafika eFougères ngasekuqaleni kuka-August 1802, ngaqala ngokufunda futhi sengifunde umsebenzi okukhulunywa ngawo kubo bonke ababesele ezindela zase-Urbanist, futhi ngemva kwalokhu kufundwa banginikeza, kuwo wonke amaqiniso ashiwo lapho, ubufakazi esibufundayo. Lapho. Babe sebenginika ezimbili ezinkulu

sengezelele izincwadi okusamele sizibhale, engangibhalele uDade ukuthi ngizinikwe uma ngibuya.

Ngaphambi kokufika kulokho, kwabonakala kufanele ukwethula iminyaka yokugcina yombhali, ukuze kwaneliseke bonke abanesithakazelo kubo, ngisho nangokwengeziwe ukuze kwakhiwe umphakathi. Ngizokwenza lokho kafushane ngangokunokwenzeka, ngihlale ngikhuluma ngobufakazi obaziswa kahle balabo ababehlala noma ababenobuhlobo obukhethekile naye, izindelakazi ezamsiza ngezikhathi zakhe zokugcina, kanye nomndeni ohloniphekile amqeda ngawo. umsebenzi. Akudingekile ukuxwayisa ukuthi ngibhala ngakho phambi kwamehlo abo kuphela ngemva kokuba ngibe khona futhi ngiqoqe ncamashi futhi ngiqhathanise amazwi abo entweni ngayinye. Lokho kuxazululekile, nali icebo engizidwebela lona lokuthi ngimashe ngokuhleleka okwengeziwe.

HLELA.

Izindela zokuhlela idolobha zahlala cishe iminyaka emibili kwezazo

umphakathi, ngemva kokuba ngixoshiwe kuwo. Ngemva kokuhamba kwabo, uDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu wahlala isikhathi esingaphezudlwana konyaka edolobheni laseFougères; ukusuka lapho wayiswa emzini womfowabo, eLa Chapelle-Janson, lapho ahlala khona

ngaphansi kweminyaka emibili; ekugcineni wabuyiselwa eFougeres, lapho ahlala khona eminye iminyaka emithathu nezinyanga ezimbalwa. Kungaphansi kwalezi zimo ezine lapho manje sizomlandela futhi simcabangele khona, ukuze sethule umphumela weminyaka eyisishiyagalombili yokugcina yokuphila kwakhe, eyadlula kusukela ngesikhathi sokuhamba kwami ​​kwaze kwaba usuku phakathi no-August, 1798. ukufa. Isithombe esithembekile esizovela kulolu hlelo lwemvelo ngokuphelele ngeke sinikeze cishe lutho oluthakazelisayo kulabo abahlulela abantu ngezenzakalo kuphela; kodwa ngokuqinisekile kuyobathakazelisa bonke labo abahlulela izenzakalo ngabantu  okukhulunywa  ngabo.

I-ERA YOKUQALA.

UDade usesemphakathini.

Kwaba, njengoba ngike ngasho kwenye indawo, phakathi koKuphakama kanye nePhentekoste lika-1790, lapho ngaphoqeleka ukuba ngibaleke izindela zami lapho ngiphuma endlini yazo, futhi kwakungomhla zingama-27 kuMandulo 1792 ukuthi zazingokwazo. ngonyaka olandelayo. Phakathi neminyaka emibili uDade asayichitha emphakathini wakubo, wayebonakala engehlukile neze kuye, ngaphandle kokuthi mhlawumbe ngokuphindaphindeka komoya wangaphakathi, wokukhumbula, ukuthula nokuzithoba, okungumphefumulo wezwe lenkolo, futhi eyakha isisekelo somlingiswa wayo othize.

Ngemva komusa izulu elalimthele ngakho, ikakhulukazi ngemva kokwazi ukuthi lalimnike izinto elalifihlela abanye abantu abafayo, umuntu angaqhubekela phambili ngokuthi akekho owayenesizathu esingaphansi kwakhe sokumangala. okwenzeka ngaleso sikhathi, kanye nalezo ayesazibona ngaphambili, azimemezela ngokungaphezi, nokuthi wayesekumemezele isikhathi eside kangaka: ngakho akazange abonakale emangele noma enyakaziswa. Ihluke kakhulu kuleyo miphefumulo okulula ukuyihlazisa njengoba ibuthakathaka ekukholweni, noma kunalokho ekulungele ukukhononda ngakho konke okuphikisayo, kuphela ngoba ayiboni zonke izinto futhi ayisoze yangena kwezinkulu.

imiklamo ye-Providence okufanele bayikhonze. UDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu wayengaphezu kwaleyo mibono yabantu encane elinganiselwe ebugovu  futhi ehlobanisa yonke into nezithakazelo zomuntu siqu  .

Lowo obusa umhlaba futhi ophethe uchungechunge lwezenzakalo ezinkulu ezakha umlando wawo, wayembonise kusukela ebuntwaneni, iNguquko yaseFrance ngezimbangela zayo eziyimfihlo kakhulu, emiphumeleni yayo embi kakhulu,

nakumasuite ayo akude kakhulu. Kwaba ngalo mbono,  umphefumulo wakhe omkhulu owawemukela, lapho uDade ecabanga ngakho konke okwenzekayo futhi wayesalungiselela eduze kwakhe. Ngakho mhlawumbe asikaze siwubone umphefumulo othobeke kakhulu, ozisola kakhulu, ozithoba kakhulu, noma oye wahoxa kukho konke okwakujabulisa uNkulunkulu ukuba akumise noma akuvumele. Akazange akhulume ngakho ngaphandle kwalokho kwesaba okungokwenkolo ngempela, okuthi, okuhlobanisa yonke into nesizathu esingaphezu kwemvelo, kwesabe ngisho nesithunzi sokububula noma sokungathobeli. Ake sithi okungcono, wakhuluma kakhulu ngakho kuNkulunkulu, cishe akazange neze kubantu; noma uma ngezinye izikhathi wayezibona ephoqelekile kukho, wayekwenza ngenhlonipho enkulu kakhulu, ngokuqaphela okukhulu kakhulu. Washaywa kakhulu kunanoma yimuphi omunye  ngalokhu

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umbono oyiqiniso kangangokuthi izinkinga zethu cishe azilutho ngaphandle komphumela kanye nokujeziswa kwamacala ethu, wabona kuphela labo ayebakhalela ngaphandle kokuphazamiseka njengamagalelo akhazimulayo kaNkulunkulu owayefuna ezigidini ezingamashumi amathathu zamacala ukukhohlwa nokudelelwa kwengcwele yakhe engcwele. imithetho. Kulokhu kuncenga, wayezibheka njengesisulu esizinikele olakeni lwasezulwini, okunguye yedwa owayengathanda ukuqeda zonke izici ukuze akhulule abafowabo kukho.

Imiphefumulo engcolile engenazo izimfanelo ezinhle ilindele izinsiza, lapho ishwa liyilandela, kuphela ekufeni okubheka njengokuphela kwakho; futhi ifilosofi engamanga nekhohlisayo isaziqhenya ngalokhu kudelela okunonya nokungenangqondo kwempilo engasenaso isibindi sokukuthwala. Akunjalo ngezinceku zikaNkulunkulu zeqiniso; begcwele izifundo eziphakeme abazithathile esikoleni senkosi yabo yobuNkulunkulu, bavuka, ngokukholwa, ngisho nasothandweni lwezinhlupheko ezenyanyekayo imvelo, futhi kungenxa yezisusa ezisobala kuphela. kudelele ukufa.

Kwavela kanjalo uDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu phakathi nokuphila kwakhe, futhi lesi simo esihle ayephila kuso sonke isikhathi, singase sikholelwe ukuthi wakhula futhi wacwengwa njengoba ukuphela kwakhe kusondela. . Kunokuba akhononde ngokuthi izulu lalimhluphelani, wayehlala ebuza ukuhlupheka okusha, njengezibonakaliso zomusa ezingaphezu kwazo zonke izinzuzo ayezithole kulo. Njengaleli elinye iqhawekazi elingumKrestu elifanele ukuqhathaniswa nalo, njengoba nalo laliyimpatho yalo

ngekhulu leminyaka, usanta wethu owayephila ngaleso sikhathi wacela umngane wakhe womshado waphezulu ukuba afe ukuze aqede izifo zakhe, kunokuba aphile ukuze ahlupheke njalo; kancane kakhulu ukushiya umhlaba ukuze uhlangane naye, kunokuhlala lapho ukuze ufanelwe injabulo eyengeziwe enjalo: Non mori, sed pati.

Makungabikho muntu othatha lokhu njengehaba elingcwele lombhali we-panegyrist; lapha imisebenzi yakhe iyiqiniso futhi ifanele ukukholwa. Izikhathi eziningi lona ozisolayo othobekile, lendodakazi efanelekile kaSanta Francis, wayecele ukuhlupheka kuNkulunkulu wakhe kangangokuthi umuntu akanakungabaza ukuthi zonke lezo ezagcwalisa futhi zaqeda ukuphila kwakhe kwakuwumphumela womkhuleko wakhe kanye nezifiso zakhe ezishisekayo. Kusesiphambanweni sosizi kuphela esihlanziwe futhi

uphelelisa ukulunga kwabalungileyo; yilapho inhliziyo yakhe ithatha khona leso simo esijabulisayo esimenza athandeke kakhulu emehlweni kaNkulunkulu wakhe. Umfundi ka-J.-C. kumele afane nenkosi yakhe kukho konke; ukumiselwa kwakhe kusengaphambili kusekelwe ngokuphelele kulokhu kufana; futhi njengoba engenalo ilungelo lokuya ezulwini ngaphandle kwesiphambano soMhlengi wakhe, kusesiphambanweni futhi lapho umsebenzi omkhulu wokuhlengwa kwakhe kufanele upheleliswe.

Iqiniso eliyisisekelo lobuKristu uDade ayelazi kahle. Yilokhu kuphela ayekulangazelela, lokho ayekulindele, lokho ayephikelela kukho, nalokho abhekana nakho kwaze kwaba sekugcineni kwempilo eyayiwuchungechunge nje lwezinhlupheko kanye neziphambano; kuze kufike ephuzwini lokuthi konke esizokubona kuwukupheleliswa kwalo msebenzi omkhulu kuphela, futhi kwenezela kukho konke esikubonile. Ukucabanga okungafanele kukhohlakale lapha ukuthi uNkulunkulu owayemnike ukuhlupheka okungaka, futhi okwathi, ikakhulukazi ngasekupheleni kokuphila kwakhe, wamdalula ekusweleni okuningi, ukuphikiswana okuningi kanye nezilingo eziningi, naye wayehlale emduduza. futhi wameseka ngomusa omkhulu kangaka, futhi ngaphezu kwakho konkewayemhlelele ekugcineni induduzo emangazayo nengalindelekile, kangangokuthi yena ngokwakhe wayebabaza futhi egcwele ukubonga okujabulisayo , njengoba evume izikhathi ezingaphezu kwesisodwa, ngokuphathelene noMphathi wakhe kanye nezinye izindela ezazihlala naye. Ngicaphuna lapha imigomo efanele yezincwadi engibhalelwe zona ngezikhathi ezahlukene. Naphezu kwezithiyo ezazibonakala ziba nezivunguvungu  ngokwandayo

ukwenziwa komsebenzi wakhe, uDadewethu akazange amkhohlwe. Eqiniseka kakhulu kunanoma ubani ukuthi uNkulunkulu, lapho efuna, uyakwazi ukusizakala ngakho konke ukuze afeze izinjongo zakhe; Esekelwa ukunakekelwa kwe-Providence ebheka imininingwane emincane kakhulu yomsebenzi wakhe, akazange, noma kancane, akhathazwe yizithiyo ebezingaphazamisa noma ubani ngaphandle kwakhe.

Akugcinanga ngokuthi izulu limazise kabanzi nangemininingwane ngezigigaba ezinkulu abesenesikhathi eside ezimemezela, nokuthi yiziphi ipolitiki.

umuntu wayengakwazi ukubona kusengaphambili, wayesemtholile futhi ikakhulukazi izindlela ezihlukahlukene idemoni okufanele lizisebenzise ukuze lenze yonke into ihluleke, ngokusebenzisa ngezinye izikhathi ubuqili, ngezinye izikhathi amandla avulekile; ngezinye izikhathi ngenxa yokuxhamazela, okuhle noma okungenhloso, kwabantu abathile, futhi ngokungangabazeki nangenxa yokungabi nangqondo nokungakwazi kombhali ngokwakhe; kodwa futhi wayemenze ukuthi abone, kuye, intando ephakeme kunazo zonke, engazuza ngakho konke; okuthi, ngokuphikisana nezinyathelo isitha sakhe esingazi ngazo, azi ukuthi angavimba kanjani izicupho zakhe ezicushwe ngobuchule, futhi alibambe idemoni ngokwalo amanetha alo.

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ukuthi usebenze ngokungaphezi empumelelweni yebhizinisi okungekho lutho olwalungamphambukisa kulo kusukela esikhathini lapho ayecabanga ukuthi wayeqinisekile ngentando kaNkulunkulu. Wayesebenzise zonke izikhathi zami zokuphumula, ngenkathi nginaye, ukuze angenze ngingene ngokugcwele emibonweni yakhe, ngokungichazela icebo lakhe nezindlela zakhe zokulenza. Ngokushesha nje lapho ezwa ukuthi ngiphephile ngamanothi akhe, nokuthi ngangiwanakekela ngaphesheya kolwandle, njengoba ayengibikezele kuqala, wasebenzisa wonke umzuzu owawudlula emphakathini, futhi kusukela. isifiso esihle sezindela ezimbili ayezibeke emfihlakalweni yakhe, yokungithumelela imibhalo ngokulandelana kwayo ukuhlelwa kwayo kunikeza yonke ingxenye yesibili yomsebenzi wayo, njengoba sazi.

Wonke lawa mabhukwana ngawanikwa yilelo nalelo ngesikhathi salo, ngaphandle kweyodwa eshodayo eqoqweni, ngaphandle kokwazi ukuthi kwenzekeni ngayo.

Le ncwajana elahlekile, engingeke ngikwazi ukuyisebenzisa, iqukethe, phakathi kwezinye  izinto, imfanelo emangalisa kakhulu, engicabanga ukuthi kufanele ngiyikhumbule, ngenxa yolwazi oluthile izindela ezinalo ngayo, kanye nenkumbulo ephawuleka kakhulu yalowo wayeyibhalile  .

UDade wathi ngesikhathi esithile ekuphileni kwakhe, uNkulunkulu wamenza wabona isifunda-bhishobhi saseRennes, nabefundisi baso, sisesimweni sengadi yezithelo enhle etshalwe nezihlahla ezivundile ezinobukhulu nobukhulu obuhlukahlukene. Waqaphela lapho, phakathi kwezinye izinto, izihlahla ezimbili ezindala, ezisondelene kakhulu, kuye ezazibonakala zigobile ngaphansi kwesisindo sezithelo zazo nangaphansi kwezihlahla.

iminyaka. Wayebabaza bobabili, lapho umoya ofanayo uvele wabasiphula phambi kwamehlo akhe, wabawisa phansi, okwamcasula kakhulu.

Cishe wayengazi ngaleso sikhathi incazelo yalo mbono; kodwa ngokushesha ngemva kwalokho, kwafika isenzakalo esiphawulekayo ukumchazela; kwaba ukufa kwababili bangaphambili babapristi besifunda-bhishobhi esisodwa saseRennes, omunye wabo osekuyisikhathi eside engumqondisi we-Urbanists of Fougères. Babekade bengabangane abakhulu, futhi cishe njalo behlanganiswa umsebenzi wenkonzo yabo. BabenguMM. I-Duclos ne-Pothin. Bafa, sengathi ngokuzumayo, ngalo lolo suku; owokuqala wayengumqondisi wesifunda saseParigné, amaligi amabili aseFougères; owesibili, owayengumqondisi weLadies Hospitallers, owayengumphathi we-Saint-Aubert chapel, engekude kangako nayo. UDadewethu ngokwakhe wabona kulesi senzakalo ukugcwaliseka kombono obikiwe, futhi ayekhulume ngawo izikhathi ezingaphezu kwesisodwa nodadewabo.

ISIKHATHI SESIBILI.

Usisi ongaphandle koMphakathi.

Kwase kudlule kanjalo iminyaka emibili yokuqala selokhu ngakhululwa, okwakuyiminyaka emibili ngaphambi kwaleyo kaDade. Umkhuleko, ukuzindla, ukukhumbula, ukuzisola, kwase kuhlanganyele zonke izikhathi lapho amazwi akhe ayesamshiyile, futhi ukwesula kwakhe okuphelele kwamshiyela inkululeko eyanele yokuba akwazi ukukucabangela, nakho konke ukuthula inkolo ekunikeza imiphefumulo iZulu elibhekana nayo ngokungenakugwemeka. ukwehlukana izindelakazi ezase zisongelwa ngakho isikhathi eside kangaka, futhi ayezenze zakubona kusenesikhathi eside.

Ekugcineni, kwafika usuku olubulalayo nolukhumbuleka kakhulu lapho, ngokohlelo nezinqumo zomhlangano omisiwe, umthetho wesibili noma wesithathu wanikeza lonke elaseYurophu, nakulo lonke izwe lobuKristu, umbukwane odabukisa kangaka wemiphefumulo eqotho kangangokuba kwakujabulisa kuzo zonke izitha zokuhleleka, ubulungisa, inkolo nobuntu, lokho kuzindelakazi ezingaphezu kwezinkulungwane eziyikhulu ezadatshulwa ezitokisini zazo futhi zaphoqeleka ukuba zibuyele ezweni ezazivalelise kulo phakade. Yeka igalelo! Ngithi umbukwane onjalo wawuthandeka kumadoda engiwafanekisile; kodwa, uma sikunaka, sizovuma ukuthi ngokuyisisekelo ukunqoba kwabo kwakungafanele kubonakale kunenkazimulo kakhulu kubo, nokuthi umphefumulo wabo, uma ulondoloza.

nombono othile weqiniso, sasingekho isizathu sokulishayela ihlombe ngaphakathi.

Kwase kuyisikhathi eside abantu balesi sitembu bezithopha ngokuphumelela okuphelele ezifungweni zenkolo. Babezame ngazo zonke izindlela ukukhombisa ama-cloister nezindela njengamajele amaningi omphakathi namajele, agcwele izisulu ezineshwa zentshiseko engenangqondo kanye nobushiqela benkolelo-ze, ngokuphambene nalokho, basho. , ukuze kuzuze umphakathi futhi. mayelana nezifiso zemvelo. Ngenxa yalokho, babhala futhi bazama ukuncenga ukuthi, ukube lezi zindawo zokuhlehla ngenkani zazivulwe kancane, izindela zaziyobonakala zibaleka kuzo ngamagagasi amakhulu. Yeka ukuthi isiphithiphithi esingakanani, futhi yeka inzondo eyimfihlo, lapho, ngemva kokuzama zonke izindlela ngeze, bazithola benesibopho sokusabela odlameni oluyihlazo nolunyantisayo ngendlela efanayo, ukuthola lokho ukuncenga noma izithembiso okungakaze kuzuzwe! Kuthiwani

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iluphi uhlangothi oluwukunqoba noma ukunqotshwa, futhi iyiphi kumaqembu amabili eyayinesizathu sokunqoba!

Kusukela ngo-1790, omasipala babazisa ngesifiso somhlangano wokubabuyisela inkululeko okwakufanele bazisole ngayo.

Ukucatshangelwa kwe-calumnious; futhi isiphakamiso esasenziwe kubo sathathwa emhlabeni wonke futhi samukelwa njengenhlamba, futhi impendulo evamile yezindela zaseFrance yayingeyinhle futhi iqinile, kangangokuthi yabaphindisela ngokugcwele ngenxa ye-calumny, futhi yenza ipolitiki kakhulu yomhlangano. ukuthi izindela zazingeyona into eyayikholelwa kuyo, nokuthi ukungaguquguquki kwazo, okuhlangene nokumelana kwabapristi abangakholelwa esifungweni, kanye nomthetho-sisekelo wezwe wabefundisi, kwakungase ngokushesha noma kamuva kubangele igalelo elibulalayo kuyo yonke imisebenzi yebandla. usuku, nokuketula lonke icebo lenguquko. Ngenxa yalokho, bengasathembi lutho ezindela noma  kubapristi, bayeka ukunamathela ezindleleni ezinonya, okuwukuphela kwendlela yokuphumelela nokubanqoba.

Ngakho-ke kwaba ngo-September 27, 1792 lapho lesi simemezelo esibhubhisayo saqala ukukhishwa kubahleli bedolobha lezindela baseFougères. Esimemezelweni sokuqala

ayenziwe kubo, bonke, ngaphezu kwakho konke, bavuswa umbono kaDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu, owakhulumela uNkulunkulu, baphikisana nenzondo yabo engenakunqotshwa ukuba bahlale belalela umthetho ophambene nezifiso zabo kanye namalungiselelo abo; futhi, ngesikhathi sokubulawa, bonke bahamba, abancane nabadala, ukuze bazihlelele ekwayeni, yilowo nalowo endaweni yakhe ayijwayele, bethandazela ukuthi babulawelwe endaweni lapho ababefisa ukufela khona. Intukuthelo ngokwayo yafikelwa izinyembezi ngakho; abantu abathunyiweyo babaphendula ngokuthi abayikwenziwa okubi; kodwa ukuthi babehamba ngokuthanda noma ngenkani, babaholele bonke ezimotweni ezazibalindile egcekeni ukuthi zibayise lapho beya khona. Kwase kungasekho okunye ekwayeni ukububula, izinyembezi, ukukhala, ukububula. Ngamunye waba namahloni, njengoba umuntu engacabanga, indela ikakhulukazi ingaba njalo ngokuncane, ingesabi lutho kangangokuthi izibona ibanjwe, futhi mhlawumbe ihlukunyezwa amadoda angenakuboshwa; ngakho-ke kwakudingekile ukuba kunqunywe futhi kuthathwe ingxenye yokulalela amandla.

Bavuka sebefile kakhulu kunabaphilayo, kwathi ekubizweni kwamagama, belandela isibonelo somphathi wabo, bakhala bangena ezimotweni. Konke lokhu kwakwenzeke ngaphakathi endlini, kangangokuthi isixuku sabantu esasigcwele igceke sasingaboni lutho futhi singezwa lutho ngakho. Kwafanelana nenkazimulo ka-J.-C. ukuthi ofakazi bokuthunjwa kwamakhosikazi akhe nabo kufanele babe ofakazi bobudlova obenzeka emizweni yabo yangempela. Bafika esangweni lenqola abakhishwa ngalo, uSister Wokuzalwa owayelandela ethule, waphendukela konogada nomasipala ebacela egameni likaNkulunkulu ukuthi bakhulume: kwathuleka kakhulu. ; wabe esebabuka uSister, wathi kubo ngezwi elikhulu nelizwakalayo, ekhuluma egameni lazo zonke izindela: “Madoda. UNkulunkulu uyangiyala ukuba ngikwazise ukuthi singakhetha ukufa kunokuba sephule indawo esivalekile, nanoma yiziphi izivumelwano zethu ezingcwele; kodwa njengoba kufanele ekugcineni sikulalele ngaphandle, siphikisana nobudlova okwenziwa kithi, futhi simemezela kini ukuthi sibiza iZulu ukuba lifakaze ngakho. Bonke bamuzwa, bakhala abaningi, akwaphendula muntu.

Ngemva kwalawa mazwi amafushane kodwa anamandla, ephinyiswa ngalelophimbo eliqinile neliqinile, okuthi, naphezu kweminyaka yakhe, uDade azi ukuthi angathatha kanjani lapho kudingeka, waphusha ingalo ayeyinikiwe, wangena enqoleni eyayizomyisa kwa-M. UBinel de la Jannière, ngenxa yegama lakhe, owacela futhi wathola ukumhlalisa emzini wakhe nodadewabo ababili, izindelakazi zomphakathi ofanayo.

UMadame la Supérieure wayiswa kuM. Bochin, ekhweni lakhe, nabanye, noma kubazali babo, noma kwezinye izakhamuzi ezazifaneleka ngokwanele ukuba zibaphathe ngesikhathi zilindele umyalelo omusha wokunquma isiphetho sazo; ngoba,

ngaphambi kwanoma yiliphi ilungiselelo, kwakubonakale kufaneleka ukuwasusa okwesikhashana ezindlini zawo, kubekwe endaweni egandaywe ngamatshe. Ngaphambi kokuba ukuphana kwesizwe kusungule izindlela zokuziphilisa, kwakucatshangwa ukuthi kuwukuhlakanipha ukubaphuca uphahla lwabo, isinkwa sabo, futhi ngokushesha ngemva kwalokho ngisho nezingubo zabo.

Indlela enhle yokuqeda bonke ubunzima.

Bafika endlini kaM. Binel, izindelakazi ezintathu zaholwa umndeni, zijabule futhi zichiphiza kanyekanye, ziye endlini eyayihloselwe zona. Lapho, beguqe phambi kwesiphambano esasibekwe phezu kwetafula ngenjongo, bakhuleka isikhathi eside, futhi ngezinyembezi eziningi nokukhala, kuNkulunkulu uMsindisi ukuba amukele umnikelo ayewufuna kubo, futhi abawuhlanganisa nalowo ayemthembise wona. wazenza esiphambanweni ukuze kusindiswe abantu. Bonke  ababona lesi sigameko esimangalisa kangaka bathinteka futhi bathamba baze bahlanganisa izinyembezi zabo nalabo ababebabona bechiphiza. Umuzi wonke wawunesiphithiphithi; zonke izinhliziyo ezinhle  lapho

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babezwela, yonke imiphefumulo eqotho yezwa ukukhungatheka nobuhlungu. Inhlonipho ngenxa yobuqhawe bobuhle obucindezelwe. Lo mbono wabonakala ulungile futhi ungokwemvelo, kangangokuthi wavunywa ukuthula kwesikhashana kwababi ngokwabo, ababebonakala ngandlela thize behlanganyela ngakho.

Ngakho nangu ekugcineni, lo mphefumulo okholwa kakhulu, le ntombazane imangalisa kakhulu, ethathwe kulobu sodwa obuthandekayo eyayibubule kakhulu ngabo! Nangu, njengabo bonke odadewabo, exoshiwe futhi engabandakanywa unomphela endlini uNkulunkulu ayemnike yona kusukela ebuntwaneni, ukukhangwa okubukhali, ubizo oluphawuleka ngokusobala! Ngakho-ke kuyagcwaliseka.

lesi sibikezelo okwakudingeka ahlupheke kakhulu ngaso! NjengoJérémie, uDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu namuhla uyisisulu samashwa ayewamemezele. Eningakholwa, yibuphi ubufakazi enibubuza ngokuphefumulelwa kwakhe emva kwalokho na?

Lapho uNkulunkulu evumela abamiselwe kusengaphambili ukuba babhekane nezilingo ezingavamile, ngesikhathi esifanayo ubahlosela umusa olinganiselayo, okungenani, okwaziyo ukumelana nesilingo. Uyakweleta

ubuthakathaka besidalwa sakhe, ekwesabeni ukumdumaza, nakakhulu ekuthembekeni kwesithembiso sakhe, nakulokho kulunga okubalulekile okungeke kuvumele noma ubani ukuba alingwe ngaphezu kwamandla akhe. Lena imfundiso kaSaint Paul: Fidelis est Deus qui non patietur vos tentari suprà id quod poteslis. ( 1 Khor. 10, 13 ) Uzaqhubekela phambili, esitsho, ikakhulu mayelana labakhethiweyo bakhe, ngoba uzazuza isilingo ngokwaso ukuze abenze banqobe umlingi, lokulingwa ukuze abenze baqhubekele phambili. ukuphelela kwesimo sabo: sed faciet eum temptatione proventum. (ibid.)Yilokhu bonke abangcwele abaye babhekana nakho ngokulingana nokwethembeka kwabo emseni; futhi yilokho uDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaKristu ayekuzwa kuzo zonke izikhathi zokuphila kwakhe, kodwa ikakhulukazi ezimweni ezibucayi kakhulu zobuhle bakhe, kanye nesivunguvungu esikhulu sokungaguquguquki kwakhe, ngokuvumelana nokuvuma ayenzile. njengoba sesibonile.

Sawubona! kungenzeka kanjani ukuthi uNkulunkulu, angisho ukuthi alahle, kodwa angawunaki umphefumulo othobela yonke imiyalo yakhe, ethembekile kuyo yonke imisebenzi yakhe, ehlala njalo ekwenzeni zonke izici ezinhle? umphefumulo okwaziyo ukubekezelela uvivinyo ngesibindi esingaka, futhi uzibonakalisa uqinile ekuphakameni kobunzima namahlazo, njengoba wawuthobekile futhi unamahloni ekuphakameni komusa; ake sithi okungcono kakhulu, umphefumulo ohlale ubheka umusa njengokuvivinywa, nokulingwa njengokunomusa. Lokhu kwakuhlale kubonakala lona wesifazane onamandla ngempela, futhi akazange abonakale engcono kunaseminyakeni yokugcina yokuphila okwakuwubufakazi obuqhubekayo balokho esithuthuke ngakho.

Kude kakhulu nalezi zindelakazi ezikhululekile, ezisivivi futhi ezingaphelele, kulaba bafazi ababengabizwa ngamakholwa neziphingi, ababengabheka  isimo abancishiselwa kuso njengenkathi ethule kusukela  ekuqaleni kwabo.

izibopho, uDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu wabona kuzo, ngokuphambene nalokho, yena kanye nabanye, isizathu esicindezela kakhulu, isisusa esibaluleke kakhulu sokwethembeka kubo kunanini ngaphambili; wayekholelwa ukuthi indela yamshiya ngenxa yeshwa lezikhathi kufanele ikhuthale kunanini ngaphambili ekugcwaliseni izifungo nezimiso zayo, ngokusemandleni izimo ezimvumelayo. Engasavikelwa yizindonga ezamhlukanisa nezwe, kumele azithathele indawo. ngokuqapha kwakhe, ukuze aphinde aqaphe izinzwa zakhe ngokucabanga nangokulingana namahlazo nezingozi ezimzungezile, ukuze angazichayeli ekufebeni emoyeni wezwe inhliziyo enikezelwe kuJ. okumele ashise yena kuphela. Ekugcineni, nakuba ayeneminyaka engaphezu kwamashumi ayisithupha nanhlanu ubudala, wayekholelwa ukuthi ukuqapha okunembile kukodwa kungamvikela ekuthelelekeni  kwalesi sifo.

isibonelo esibi nokonakala kokuziphatha.

Kwakuwukuhambisana nalezo zimiso ezinkulu zokuziphatha kobuKristu, leyo mithetho yokuphila kwezindela ayeyithathe kakhulu esikoleni sika-J.

ukuthi ekwenzeni imisebenzi yakhe, ukuthi uDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu, enganelisekile ngokuphindaphinda kwabanye ngaso sonke isikhathi, wazisebenzisa ngayo yonke indlela ukuze athathele indawo yangaphakathi nangaphandle yobubodwa ayesanda kuncishwa yona. Wazivalela ekamelweni elincane aphuma kulo kuphela lapho ingekho enye indlela. Lelikamelo elincane, alenza isitokisi sakhe, lathatha indawo yalelo ayelishiyile, futhi laba, ngomqondo ongokomfanekiso, ithuna lakhe, njengoba lalikhona lapho ayeza ukuzofela khona, eminyakeni embalwa kamuva, njengathi. ngakho. Yilapho, egqoke futhi embozwe izinsalela zezingubo zakhe zenkolo ezimpofu, wahlukanisa sonke isikhathi sakhe phakathi kokuthandaza, ukuzindla, ukufunda izincwadi zokuhlonipha uNkulunkulu, iseluleko abantu ababeza ukuzombuza kuye, kodadewabo noma emndenini othembekile owawumnikeza ukudla nendawo yokuhlala.

"Usaba ukuthi awunayo indawo yokuhlala,

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wayethe kuye ngaphambili J.-C., ememezela ukuhamba kwakhe, ngena enhliziyweni yami  futhi ngizothatha indawo  yakho  konke ngiyikho konke kuye okungekho lutho kuye,  futhi

odela konke ukuze angithole; uMphathi wami akalokothi amlahle lowo obeka ithemba lakhe kimi ngedwa, njll. Kuyamangaza yini ukuthi uDade wesula kangaka, futhi ejabule kangaka esimweni sakhe esisha? Ingabe kufanele simangale uma ecabanga ukuthi akantuli lapho abanye abaningi bengacabanga ukuthi bantula yonke into; uma ezithola ekhathazwa ukunakwa okuncane kwakho konke okwakumthinta? Ngokusho kwakhe, babehlale bemenzela izinto eziningi kakhulu, futhi wayengakaze abonakale ekhululekile njengabantu abangenandaba naye. Noma yini eyayibukeka njengokucabangela yayimzwisa ubuhlungu; ukunconywa okuncane kwamphatha kabi, futhi indlela eqinisekile yokukhetha ubungane bakhe kwakuwukubonakala sengathi uyamdelela;

Ngokulandela isibonelo, nasezinyathelweni zabangcwele abaningi, okwathi, ukudambisa ulaka lukaNkulunkulu, kwaze kwavimbela ubuthakathaka babo, bakuphinda kabili ukuzisola kwabo kanye nobunzima babo ngezikhathi zokulingwa nokushushiswa lapho iBandla lembulwa obala, uDade. Yokuzalwa KukaJesu yangena emibonweni efanayo, futhi yayihlale izwa umoya ofanayo. Kudala

ukuthi wathandaza futhi wasebenza ukuvimbela amashwa ayewabikezele; umuntu angasho ngisho ukuthi impilo yakhe yonke wayezinikele kuyo; kodwa ngesikhathi ebona ukufeza kwakho kugcwaliseka kuye, wanquma kunanini ngaphambili ukudela ukuphila kwakhe konke kukho, wanikela ingqondo yakhe ekuthobekeni, inhliziyo yakhe ebuhlungwini, nawo wonke umzimba wakhe ekuhluphekeni, ngaphandle kokukhononda nganoma yini.

Eshiya umphakathi wakubo, wathatha, ngomyalo kaNkulunkulu, owayedinga imvume yomphathi wakhe, unyaka wokuzila ukudla nesinkwa namanzi, futhi waphikelela kukho, noma yini umuntu ayengayisho noma ayenze ukuze akuvimbele. Kwakudingekile ukumkhohlisa ukuba afake ibhotela elincane esobhoni ayenikezwe lona kuvunyelwe nokuthi waphoqeleka ukuba athathe, okuyinto, ngaphezu kwalokho, yayinamanzi kuphela ngemifino encane nosawoti. Lapho ebona ukukhohliswa kwakhe, wakhononda ngakho, ethi bafuna ukumosha futhi wesaba imiphumela. Mhlawumbe kwakufanele esatshwe ngaphezu kwethu kunalokho umuntu angakucabanga. Ubani owaziyo ukuthi yini esingakukweleta ukuphila okubuhlungu kangaka? Ngokujwayelekile kungenxa yemiphefumulo yalesi similo lapho uNkulunkulu enikeza umusa kwabanye abaningi, emadolobheni, emibusweni, emhlabeni wonke. Kungaba ukusho kakhulu, kungaba ukubekezela, ukusikisela ukuthi lena cishe yanikela ngaphezu kwanoma yiziphi ezinye ekugcineni ukuze isitholele lezo zikhathi ezijabulisayo eyayingazijabuleli, kodwa eyayisimemezele izikhathi eziningi kangaka ivela ezulwini? ... ubuthakathaka?

Ezimisele futhi ecabanga njengoba kade enza, nokho wayazi ukuthi azivumelanisa kanjani nezimo, njengoba sesibonile; wayezwelana nesidingo sabanye, futhi ubuhle bakhe babungenzima neze ngaphandle kwakhe. Ngaphandle kokuchithwa, ukuzijabulisa kwakhe ngezinye izikhathi kwakuhlekisa kakhulu emiphefumulweni eqotho ayehlala nayo. Kuyiqiniso ukuthi ezingxoxweni zakhe wakhumbula yonke into emibonweni yakhe emikhulu ngoNkulunkulu nobuhle; kodwa njengoba

ngokwemvelo wayenengqondo njengoba nje inhliziyo yakhe yayiyinhle futhi ilungile, wayefaka kukho konke ayekusho ukulunga nobuqotho okwakuvusa isithakazelo esikhulu. Nakuba ayemude kancane endleleni yakhe yokulandisa, abantu babehlale befuna ukumuzwa kuze kube sekugcineni, futhi sasivame ukumbuza okungaphezu kwalokho ayefuna ukukusho.

Selokhu kwakhululwa izindelakazi, izinkulumo zakhe azizange zigxile kunoma yini ngaphandle kokuthi indela kufanele iziphathe kanjani emhlabeni ukuze ihlale lapho.

beka insindiso yakhe nezifungo zakhe endaweni ephephile, futhi lokhu kukhathazeka kuphela kuphela ngokuphila kwakhe. Izikhathi eziyinkulungwane waphinda kubo ukuthi kuzoba ukuziphatha kwabo

ngemva kokuxoshwa kwabo, ukuthi ngolunye usuku uJ. Wayelokhu ebuyela kulolu daba, aluphendule ngezindlela eziyinkulungwane, ikakhulukazi njengoba kusondela ukudangala kwabo, okwenzeka ngo-September 14, 1793, akazange ayeke ukukhuluma ngakho, noma ukubekela izindela indlela okufanele bagqoke ngayo. ngokwakho. Akukhona ukuthi wayengazi ukuthi akuyona indawo noma umkhuba owenza indela; kodwa wamema ngokuthi indelakazi efihle ubuso kufanele, ngokusemandleni akhe, ivele lokho ayikho, futhi igweme, ngakho konke ukunakekela okungenzeka, noma iyiphi indlela yokugqoka engase imenze adideke nabantu bezwe.

Ngolunye usuku, phakathi kwezinye izinto, wachitha isikhathi esingaphezu kwehora elihle ewubeka ngamazwi akhe, ngendlela yakhe, umfanekiso wezintombi.

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izintombi eziyiziwula nezihlakaniphile, futhi uzitshela izinto ezimangalisayo nezimangalisayo ngakho kuze kube sekugcineni. Ngesinye isikhathi, watshela iSikhulu ukuthi maduze nje kuzoba nokungqubuzana lapho azothola khona usizi olukhulu; okwaqinisekiswa ukuhlubuka okuthile phakathi kwezindela ngokwazo. Wayevame ukumtshela ukuthi uzoba nezinhlungu eziningi emzimbeni nasengqondweni; kodwa ukuthi uNkulunkulu futhi wayembekele induduzo eminingi. Kwezinye izimo, wenza izimemezelo ezifanayo nezabanye abantu abaningi abalizwa iqiniso.

ISIKHATHI SESITHATHU.

Usisi nomfowabo.

Ngokushesha ngemva kokuba izindelakazi sezixoshiwe emphakathini wazo, zaphoqwa, ngokomthetho, ukuba zishiye imvunulo yazo yenkolo; ngokushesha kwavela omunye umthetho owawubabopha ukuba babuyele emindenini yabo futhi bayohlala endaweni abazalelwa kuyo. Ngakho uDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu, waphoqeleka ukuba alalele, njengabanye, loluhlelo olusha, lwahlukana nobuhlungu obuvela ezindelakazini, okwathi lapho zishiya umphakathi wazo,

naye endlini yomfowabo, eFougères, futhi wahamba ngokuzisola umndeni ohloniphekile kaM. Binel, waya kuGuillaume le Royer, umfowabo, owabe ebambe ipulazi laseMontigny, elise-Chapelle-Janson, impela eduze kwedolobhana laseLa Pellerine, isifunda saseMaine. Bamyisa khona; kodwa wahlengezela izinyembezi eshiya oDadewabo ababezoboshwa njengoba ebatshelile. Uze wavuma kubo ukuthi lokhu kuhlukana kwamlahlekisela ngokushiya kwabo umphakathi. Ngokungangabazeki sizobona imiklamo kaNkulunkulu kulokhu kuhunyushelwa kukaDade ezweni lakubo, lapho sesibonile izinkonzo azenza kumfowabo siqu, nokuthi waba usizo kangakanani emndenini wakhe esimweni esibucayi kangaka, kulesi siphepho esinje. isimo sezulu.

Iziyaluyalu ezesabekayo ezaqala ngonyaka owandulele futhi azizange zishwelezwe kwaze kwaba unyaka owalandela, ngaleso sikhathi zase ziphakeme kakhulu eFougères, njengakuwo wonke amanye amadolobha. Ngaleso sikhathi kwaba ukubusa kokwesaba: ukunxeshezelwa, abathunjwa, ukulahlwa, ukuvinjelwa, ukuboshwa, ukubulawa, yonke imithetho yegazi, yonke imithetho engenabuntu yayihambisana nosuku; eziyishumi, eziyishumi nambili, eziyishumi nanhlanu, kanye neziningi ezifinyelela kweshumi nesishiyagalolunye izakhamizi ezazidlula nsuku zonke ngaphansi kwethuluzi lokufa elesabekayo, lona kanye igama lalo elisathuthumela isintu. Kwakwanele ukuba nempahla ethile, ukunamathela ezimisweni zomuntu, noma ukuba nesitha esithile esiyimfihlo, ukulahlwa, futhi kwakwanele ukulahlwa ngecala: ukusuka lapho kuya ku-guillotine kwakukhona 'isinyathelo kuphela.

Ingabe sikhona isizathu sokumangala ngokuthi izinto ezesabekayo ezinjalo ziye zabangela ukuvukela umbuso ezifundazweni eziningi kangaka? I-Fougères yaba isigameko esingesihle, njengamanye amadolobha amaningi. Yathathwa ngokulandelana futhi yaphinde yathathwa amaVende, amaBlues namaChouan: ngaphezu kokukodwa ayesethubeni lokuyithungela ngomlilo. Ngezinye izikhathi ifulege elimhlophe lalibonakala lintanta lapho, ngezinye izikhathi i-tricolor; ngezinye izikhathi bezwa bememeza Vive le Roi! futhi ngezinye izikhathi Uphile isikhathi eside amaSans-Culottes! futhi konke, ngokuvumelana nempumelelo yesikhathi seqembu ngalinye: ngezwi, omunye wabona lapho zonke izinto ezesabekayo zezimpi zombango. Igazi lomuntu lagobhoza lapho nhlangothi zonke. Kwezinye izindawo ikakhulukazi, imigwaqo yayigcwele izidumbu kangangokuthi kwakungenakwenzeka

Ububi obesekunesikhathi eside bunqobile phezu kwayo yonke imiyalo base busabalele emaphandleni, lapho ubulwane bebulokhu buqhubeka nokuyinto okunzima ukuyichaza. Abefundisi bamaqembu womabili babeyizinqamu zeqembu elaliphikisana nabo. Labo beqembu elilungile ikakhulukazi bavezwa kakhulu kulokho, babe namandla amakhulu ngokumelene nabo, kwakuyibo

abantu babo kuphela ababedinga inkonzo: futhi amaqembu amabili ayebafuna imini nobusuku, kodwa ngezinjongo ezihluke kakhulu (1).

(1) Abapristi abalungile babebophekile ukuba bahlale becashile ngaphansi komhlaba, phakathi kwamasimu noma ama-moor, ababephuma kuwo ebusuku kuphela, ukuze baye kwabagulayo. Ayengavamile ukubuya engazange adubuleke kambalwa, athole izinhlamvu ezimbalwa, noma ahlangabezane nengozi ethile.

Abanye, bevikelwe amandla amakhulu, babengenakho okunye ukunakekela ngaphandle kokucasha kahle kubavukeli. Labo ababekhona yonke indawo ababebizwa ngokuthi amaKhatholika nabapristi abalungile babehlale befunwa futhi bebulawa ngaphandle kwesihe ngabakwaBlues, ababevame ukungabagodli abomthethosisekelo. Lawa ayefunwa amaChouan, awazange awasebenzise kangcono nomaphi lapho ayengawathola khona (1).

(1) M. Duval, umqondisi weLaignelet, kanye noM. Sorette, umpristi wesifunda saseChatellier, izifundo ezimbili ezinhle kakhulu, cishe emisebenzini yabo, babulawa amaBlues. M. de Lesquin, umqondisi weBazonge, M. Porée, umfundisi wesifunda saseSilly, M. Larcher, umqondisi womthethosisekelo waseMelle, bakhethwa amaChouan. Ngibala lezi zibonelo kuphela zokucasuka kwamaqembu amabili, futhi ngiyazicaphuna ngoba zenzeke ngaseFougeres, futhi zinokuxhumana okwengeziwe namaqiniso okufanele ngiwasho.

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Umehluko wonke ukuthi abantu abalungile bazisola okokuqala, babusisa inkumbulo yabo, bazisa izinsalela zabo. Akekho owacabanga ngalokhu kwakamuva (1).

(1) Izulu, ngenxa yezizathu okumelwe silikhulekele, lalivumela izenzo zonya ezinjalo, nalo ngezinye izikhathi lalibonakala lithukuthele. Besingabhala imiqulu uma sifuna ukuqoqa izici eziphawulekayo zalentukuthelo ebonakalayo, angisho nje kunoma yimuphi umKristu onengqondo ongalahli ukholo, kodwa nanoma ubani ongenasithakazelo sokuziphuphuthekisa. Ngizobala ababili noma abathathu ababe nodumo olwanele ukuba bangangabazeki.

Ngosuku olwalandela uM. Duval, umqondisi waseLaignelet, ebulawa endaweni yaseFougères, umlilo ovela ezulwini wehlela phezu komqansa waseSt.-Léonard edolobheni elifanayo, futhi lesi senzakalo sasihambisana nokuduma, umbani, isichotho, iqhwa. kanye nenkungu, ekugcineni yezimo ezazinodlame futhi eziphikisana kakhulu, kangangokuthi ababengesabi kakhulu babesaba, futhi kuthiwa babenesijeziso esivela kuNkulunkulu kuphela. Leli yiqiniso elifakazelwa yidolobha lonke.

Kuthe kusanda kudlula lo mcimbi isigebengu sakuleso sifunda sesifunda sashona sikhala ngokuthi siwela kwalasha . Kuyiqiniso ukuthi ngaphambi nje kokufa, waphinde wafakaza ukuthi wayezofela ezimisweni zokuvukela umbuso; kodwa futhi kuyiqiniso ukuthi waqala futhi, ngomzuzwana olandelayo, ukumemeza: Ngikhiphe kwalasha! Ngisindise kwalasha! Ngiwela kwalasha! nokuthi waqhubeka kanjalo, ngaphandle kokuba abantu ababemsiza bakwazi ukumyekisa.

Umqansa nesonto laseSt. Aubin-Tergate, eNormandy, nakho kushiswe umlilo ovela ezulwini, ngesikhathi kubanjwe umhlaseli. Angikhulumi ngabo bonke abashiswa amaChouan ngasikhathi sinye.

Kwesinye isifunda esiseduze kwaseFougères, sona leso sivunguvungu sawisa oshimula bezindlu ezimbili zamavukela-mbuso, futhi asilimazanga leso somzalwane wasebukhosini ongumKristu owayephakathi kwalaba ababili.

Umuntu omubi wasezweni laseVitré wagcoba amabhuzu akhe ngamafutha angcwele, kepha wawabamba kalukhuni emilenzeni yomibili. Iqiniso elilandelayo alibanga nomsindo omncane; Nginayo emndenini ohloniphekile ovela endaweni futhi wangitshela izimo eziyinhloko. KwakuseBrest lapho le nto yenzeka khona:

Ngesikhathi lapho ingcebo yamabandla ibanjwa, indoda enebhadi eyayikade ingumhlanganyeli namaJesuit ithwala emahlombe akhe, nokuhlambalaza okuningi nokuhlambalaza, lesi sithombe esifanayo sesiliva sikanina kaNkulunkulu, ayesiphethe. ezinkundleni ngenhlonipho enkulu nangokuhlonishwa. Omunye umngane wakhe owamuzwa wamkhumbuza ngalezo zinsuku zakuqala. Le nkumbulo, obekufanele okungenani ilinganise ukuqubuka kwakhe nokubi, isebenzele ukukuphinda kabili. Washo izinto ezesabekayo kuyona le Ncasakazi eyafundiswa ngabaphathi bayo bokuqala ukucula izindumiso. Khonokho nje, kwamangala izibukeli, umlomo wakhe waphenduka waba lifinyila, ubuso bakhe bubesabeka, wethuka; futhi ngiqinisekisiwe ukuthi kuze kube manje alikho elinye ikhambi lesimo sakhe esinyanyekayo ngaphandle kokuzixosha emphakathini. Uthathe umhlalaphansi endlini yakhe yezwe, ama-league ambalwa avela e-Brest, lapho ebona khona abantu abambalwa ngangokunokwenzeka, kodwa njalo ngokwanele ukunikeza ofakazi abangasoli futhi abanamanani afanelekayo.

Nansi enye engaqinisekiswanga kangako, nakuba mhlawumbe ike yabonakala kancane kancane. Ngesikhathi lapho imihlobiso yama-altare idayiswa obala, lapho ama-cope nama-chasubles asetshenziselwa ukwenza izembozo zamahhashi, lapho ama-albs amahle kakhulu nezinye izingubo zabapristi; Ekugcineni, lapho izinto ezingcwele kakhulu zazisetshenziselwa ukusetshenziswa okungcolile kakhulu, kwakukhona edolobheni laseFougères, endaweni yaseLa Fourchette, noma iQuatre-Moulins, uhlanya olwathi, ngokucwengisiswa kokungahloniphi nokufutheka, laluyisa esandleni salo. ikhanda ukugqokisa inja yakhe enkulu njengomfundisi owasho imisa. Kwakungekho lutho olwaluntuleka ekuvukeni okunyantisayo ayemenze waba ngcono ukudelela isenzo senkolo esihlonipheke kakhulu.

Kulesi simo, uyikhiqize phambi komnyango wakhe, ebiza abadlulayo ukuthi beze emsileni ngekepisi lakhe , alenza umnyakazo ayewuqeqeshele wona. Naphezu kokucasuka okungafanele kwenkolo okwathuthwa abaningi ngaleso sikhathi, lo mbono wabonakala ulimaza amehlo, futhi abaningi bavukela. UJacobins wamxwayisa

ephakamisa isilwane sakhe, ethi lokhu kuzijabulisa kwakungekho ngempela endaweni yakhe, futhi akufanele. Ngakho-ke kwadingeka aye khona; kodwa ongahlekwayo angajeziswa wayenesexwayiso esinzima kakhulu ukuba amnike sona.

Ngalo lolo suku wawela obishini olubi, lwashintsha lwaba nentukuthelo engelakhambi. Wahayiza kabi; ubuso bakhe bube nokuthile okwenja; ekugcineni, ekupheleni kwamahora angamashumi amabili nane, indoda eneshwa yashona ngokudlikiza kanye nezinhlungu emathunjini okungenakwenzeka ukuzichaza. Ngiwuthola kubantu asebebone yonke into, nobufakazi engibufune khona lapho abuzange buphikisane nangayiphi indlela nalokhu engisanda kubika.

UKUZINDLA.

Umuntu ubuza nsuku zonke ukuthi kungenzeka kanjani ukuthi uNkulunkulu ahlupheke ngenxa yobubi obungaka, amahlazo angaka, ukuhlambalaza okungaka, ukwesaba okungaka acasulwe ngakho obala, ngaphandle kokunikeza noma yibuphi ubufakazi bala mandla esibe nesibindi sokuwabekela inselele  . Size sibonakale sikhungathekile ngalokhu kuthula koBunkulunkulu. Ubungathi ukukholwa kwemiphefumulo ethile kuba buthaka, bese kuthi idimoni lokungakholwa lithatha indawo yokunqoba  .

Nokho, kulula ukucekela phansi lesi sihlava ngokuphendula izinto ezintathu:

: 1° UNkulunkulu akaphoqelekile ukuba enze izimangaliso isikhathi ngasinye lapho umuntu ongahloniphi ebonakala embekela inselele. Ukuhlakanipha okubusayo kuphazamisa isimiso esimisiwe ngenxa yezizathu ezikwazi ukukunquma lapho. UMuntu Odingekayo onoPhakade ohlangothini lwakhe akanaso isizathu sokuphendula ngaso leso sikhathi kumuntu omncane onesibindi sokumphikisa. Iziguli zithola i-ternus.

2. Akufanelekile noma ukuthi uNkulunkulu enze izimangaliso ngokushesha lapho abantu bezifisa. Ukuziphatha okunjalo, ngaphandle kokuphuca ukholo oluthile, kungalimaza inkululeko yababi. Nangabe bonkhe bantfu labangamesabi Nkulunkulu kanye netoni bebajeziswa ngekushesha ngendlela lebekufanele bajeziswe ngayo, bekungaba njani ngalenkhululeko yekwenta lokuhle nobe lokubi? Wonke umuntu kufanele abe nesikhathi sokuzenza afanelekele imivuzo noma izijeziso.

3. Kwanele ngobuhle bukaNkulunkulu ukuthi imiphefumulo yokuhle izothola izikhathi ngezikhathi ubufakazi obunengqondo bamaqiniso abawakholelwayo, nosizo lukaNkulunkulu abathembele kuye futhi obasekelayo. Manje, ziningi kakhulu zalolu hlobo kangangokuthi akekho onelungelo lokuhlanjalazwa ukuziphatha kukaNkulunkulu onesineke, owenza kuphela ngesisindo nangesilinganiso, futhi okuphatha kwakhe kuholela yonke into esiphethweni esimfanele. zifihliwe kithi.

Genet,

ukukhonza iSaint-Sauveur-des-Landes.

Novemba 5, 1803.

Ngenkathi lezi zigcawu ezinyantisayo zisenzeka eduze kwakhe, uDade, waya emzini kamfowabo epulazini elincane e-Montigny, waphila impilo enokuthula lapho.

usengumuntu ophendukile kunaseFougères noma emphakathini wakubo: wayechitha izinsuku nengxenye yobusuku ethandaza. Umpristi, umpristi wesifunda saseChapelle-Janson, owayephuma kanye noma kabili ngesonto endlini yakhe engaphansi ezomnika isidlo (uM. Jambin), wangiyisa ekamelweni ayehlala kulo, futhi, engibonisa indawo encane eduze kwakhe. umbhede: Nansi, wathi kimi, yindawo lapho ngamthola khona, ngehora lokuqala noma lesibili ekuseni, ezilungiselela, eguqe ngamadolo, ukuvuma izono nokwamukela iSidlo esiNgcwele engamlethela sona. Ngemva kokubonga, walala ukuze aphumule kancane...

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Lapho engena endlini yomfowabo, uDade wagqoka imvunulo yenkolo ngangokunokwenzeka. Wazenzela indawo ebiyelwe endlini, encane kakhulu kunengadi, ukuze athole umoya ohlanzekile ihora. Akazange aphume ngaphandle kokuthi aye eMiseni elingcwele kaningi ngangokunokwenzeka, naphezu kobuthakathaka bakhe obenze lolu hambo lwezinyawo luhlale lubuhlungu kakhulu. Izikhathi zakhe zakusihlwa nezakusihlwa zazivame ukufundisa abantwana balowo muzi, ikakhulukazi abashana bakhe kanye nabashana bakhe, ayebenza bafunde ikhathekizimu nemithandazo yabo, ayebachazela yona, enezela kubo iVangeli njalo ngeSonto, futhi ezibeka ekufinyeleleni kwabo kukho konke ayekusho  kubo.

Lapho engena endlini yomfowabo, wayesenqumile ukusebenzisa ithuba lokukhuphuka amqinisekisa ngothando nenhlonipho yawo wonke lo mndeni ompofu nothembekile, kodwa wabenqabela noma yiziphi izindleko ngesikhathi sakhe. Isinkwa esimahhadla, esimnyama sasemaphandleni, isobho elifana nabasebenzi bayalidla, ikhekhe lika-buckwheat elenziwe ngendlela yabalimi, izimpande noma imifino, cishe engenazo izinongo, lokhu kungukudla kwakhe okukhethayo nokukhetha, akwenzile. wadla ngokudla okumnandi kakhulu. Wathethisa umfowabo lapho emtholela okuthile okungajwayelekile, ethi wayejabule kakhulu ukuphila njengabo, nokuthi baningi abangcono kunaye abangenakho. ukuthi kwakudingekile ukuba ucabange ukwenza ukuphenduka, nokuthi abangcwele bezingathambile kangako ngalelo cala. Lapho sebephuzile, waphuza kanye nokudla kwakhe. Ngokunambitha, wakhetha ukuyiphuza kunanoma yisiphi esinye isiphuzo, kodwa ngenkolo wamnika amanzi

okungcono kunanoma ibuphi obunye utshwala. Kwakuseyimpilo efanayo, futhi impesheni yakhe yayingabizi kakhulu ekuguleni kunezempilo. Akekho noyedwa owaba nesibindi sokummelela.

Bazothini labo abankanuko yabo engeke yaneliswa yibo bonke ubuciko babapheki, bebona intombazane idlula ukuthotshiswa ngisho nalabo izinsuku zabo zenjabulo nokujabula kungaba ukuzisola okungabekezeleleki kubo? Yeka ukuthi ukufana okunjalo kufanele kubonakale kuyihlazo kangakanani kubo, uma besengamaKristu!...

Kwakungekhona nje ukumsindisa ezinkingeni nasezingozini zedolobha iProvidence eyayimhlelele ukuhlehla ezweni. Izinkonzo ezinhle azinikeze lapho emndenini wakhe zibonisa ngokusobala omunye umklamo kuye owazi ukusizakala ngemicimbi emincane kakhulu. Umfowabo kaDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu wazithola, naphezu kwakhe, efakwe esigungwini sikamasipala wesifunda sakhe, isikhundla esiyingozi ngaleso sikhathi somuntu owayengakwazi ukukhohlwa izimiso zakhe zokuqala, noma aziboleke kuzo zonke lezo zimo. kwakubonakala kudinga. Ngakho-ke uLe Royer wayenze izitha kuzo zombili izinhlangothi, ayengathanda ukuzibuyisa, kanye nezitha ezinamandla ngokwanele noma ezinonya ngokwanele, ukuze kube nesizathu sokwesaba konke okuvela kubo, ikakhulukazi ngesikhathi lapho singaba nesibindi ngakho konke, futhi lapho ilayisensi ngokumelene neqembu eliphikisayo laliqinisekile ngokungajeziswa. Cishe wayeyoba yisisulu, njengabanye abaningi, ukube uNkulunkulu akazange amnikeze, kuDadewabo, insiza okungekho muntu owayengayethemba, isikhali sokuzivikela okwabhidlizwa yonke imizamo yabo. Wayengeke afike ngesikhathi esifanele kunangesikhathi efika ezohlala nalo mlimi onekhono.

Indlu kaLe Royer yayifana nendlu yokugcina izimpahla yamaqembu amabili aphikisanayo, izinkampani zawo ezazihamba zilandelana kulo lonke leli dolobha. I-Blues yayimbheka njenge-aristocrat efihliwe futhi efihla ama-chouan; bamthatha njengoJakobein oncishisiwe, imbuka eqenjini labo; ngakho bobabili bamthukuthelela ngokulinganayo. UDadewethu Wokuzalwa, owayesaba imiphumela, wamenqabela ukuba abe nabo, futhi wazibophezela ukusebenza yedwa ukuze abenze bobabili balalele ukucabanga, futhi enze ukuthula komfowabo nabo ngaphandle kokuyekethisa. Wazikhandla kukho kuyo yonke imihlangano futhi wagcina ekwazile ukuyibuyisana.

Ukuze aphumelele kulokhu, waziveza izikhathi ezingaphezu kwesisodwa; kodwa ngaso sonke isikhathi wayebonisa ukungabi nandaba nokuphila kwakhe njengoba ayebonisa intshiseko ngaleyo ayezimisele ukuyivikela. Inkosi yamaChouan kwakuyinsizwa yezwe (1); wamhlangabeza phakathi kweqembu lakhe, wakhuluma naye ngentshiseko enkulu, isithakazelo, nengqondo enhle, waze wangena kukho  konke

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izizathu, futhi wamethembisa, ukholo lwendoda eqotho, ukuthi umfowabo akasoze abe nalutho lokuhlupheka kunoma yimuphi walabo abayalile; waligcina izwi lakhe kuye.

Phakathi kweBlues eyayinenzondo noLe Royer, okwakufanele udadewabo amvimbe futhi amnqobe, kwakukhona, phakathi kwabanye, ababemsola ngokugxeka omunye wabangane bakhe owayesanda kwenzelwa izenzo zakhe.

Icala lalingamanga, kodwa u-Beux-neux (lelo kwakuyigama lakhe) wayethukuthele kakhulu nomsolwa. Wayefungile incithakalo yakhe, futhi wathembisa ukuthi akasoze afe ngaphandle kwezandla zakhe. Isithembiso kwakufanele sesatshwe nakakhulu,  njengoba ukubulawa kwaso kwakungewona umzamo wokuqala walowo owasenza. Wayaziwa ezweni, futhi ngeshwa sasazi kahle ukuthi yini akwazi ukuyenza. Kusukela ngaleso sikhathi wabheka ithuba elihle emklamweni wakhe; kodwa uDadewethu ngokuzizwa ephambene kakhulu, akazange amkhohlwe njengoba engazange amkhohlwe lowo ayemthatha njengesitha sakhe  .

Ngolunye usuku u-Beux-neux ungena kwa-Le Royer, ebuza ukuthi ukhona yini, ephethe izingalo, intukuthelo emehlweni akhe kanye nokuthinteka emlonyeni wakhe. UDade owambona esibuyeni wamxwayisa ngokuphoqa umfowabo ukuthi akhuphukele esitokisini sakhe: waziveza yedwa kumbulali, wamtshela ngesibindi ububi abenza kuyena ngisho nokujaha indoda  . ongazange amfise noma amenze lutho olubi; ukuthi umfowabo umsulwa kulokho amsola ngakho. Bese eguqa ngamadolo phambi kwakhe, amkhohlise uma  ethanda

anganaki, azithathe yena njengesisulu, futhi uzimisele kakhulu ukumxolela ukufa  kwakhe  . Uthukuthele ufuna ukumkhulisa,  ethi

ukuthi akuyena ukuthi uthukuthele: uDade onesibindi uyamphikisa  ukuthi angeke enze lutho ngakho, nokuthi kufanele ngokushesha, noma athathe impilo yakhe, noma ukuthi amnikeze okukamfowabo  . Ekhuluma naye kanjalo,  uyamsongela

impindiselo yasezulwini ngendlela eqinile kangangokuthi izikhali zawa ezandleni zakhe. Uyakhathazeka, azwele futhi azizwe, njengokungathi naphezu kwakhe, ukwesaba uNkulunkulu kuzalwa kabusha enhliziyweni okungenzeka ukuthi yacisha ngisho nomqondo wokuba khona kwakhe. “Sukuma, manazaretha,” esho kuye, “uthule  ;

ungaqinisekisa umfowenu ukuthi akasabi lutho kimi. Angimthandi

ayisoze yenza noma yimuphi umonakalo. Lokho kusho, uyaphuma futhi akakaze aphinde avele. Lesi kwaba yisikhathi esihle sokuguquka kwakhe; ujabule uma esesizakala ngoba kuthiwa wakhokha ngokufa kwakhe igazi alichithile, wagcina eshaywe ngensimbi ayegadle ngayo abanye abaningi. Akusona kuphela isibonelo esingashiwo: Qui percusserit gladio, gladio peribit.

Lesi sibindi esimangalisayo entombazaneni, lokhu kungesabi amadoda amaningi ayengeke akwazi ukukwenza, uDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu unikeze ubufakazi obuncane obungalingani bayo, kwezinye izimo eziningi,

ngesikhathi ehlala eMontigny, njengoba ngishilo, yayihlala igcwaliswa ngezinye izikhathi ngamaqembu aseBlues, ngezinye izikhathi izinkampani zamaChouans, ezazixoshana. Ngelinye ilanga waziphonsa phakathi kukamfowabo nesibhamu sikaBlue owayemsabisa; wayezibona nsuku zonke elwa nezilwane eziningi ezinonya, okwakuzodingeka ukuba zizenze zibe ubuntu ngokuzisindisa ngaphambi kokucabanga ukuziguqula. Bamzungezile ngamabomu ukuze bambone futhi bamlalele. Bambuza imibuzo ephenyayo ukuze bamphenye ngezindaba zangaleso sikhathi noma ngenkolo. UDade waphendula yonke into ngobumnene nangobuhlakani, kodwa eqinile njalo ephuzwini lezimiso zasendulo ezindabeni zezenkolo, waze wazikhumbula lapho benganakile: kuze kugcizelelwe ukuthi waguqula abanye babo. Bamphikisa ngokumelene nokholo, okuyinto waphendula kubo bezazisa iziqephu zeVangeli ezazibalahla  .

Ngokuvamile babevuma ukunqotshwa kwabo.

Kwesinye isikhathi kwakuba nezingxabano phakathi kwabo ngesikhathi sakhe, abanye bemlwela, abanye bemelene naye. “Uyinhloli,” kusho abanye, “uyisikhulu esidala okumelwe sixoshwe; yisalukazi esihlanyayo, isalukazi esigangile esingazi ukuthi sithini; uma simyeka akhulume uzoyenga abanye thula baphendule abanye ungajabula  kakhulu

ukuba yinzuzo; ungcono kunathi uma nje sikhona, asimazi nje  . Quidam enim dicebant: quia bonus est.  Alii

dicebant: cha, sed seducit turbas. (Joan. 7.12).

“Nginesifiso esikhulu,” kusho omunye, “ukumthumela kwelinye izwe ukuba abe yisazi sezenkolo, futhi afundise ikhathekizimu ezinganeni. Uma unesibindi, waqala kabusha omunye, ukumthuka nhlobo, kuzomele ubhekane nami,  ngizokufundisa ukuhlonipha abantu  abaqotho  Impertinent! ungenza  kahle

kangcono ukuyilalela futhi uzuze kuyo, ngoba uyidinga kakhulu, awukaze wazi nezwi lenkolo yakho  !. »

UDade wakubona futhi wakulalela konke lokhu ngomoya wokuthula nokuthula okwabahlaba umxhwele, noma ngabe yini ababenayo, ebabonisa ukuthi wayengekho.

bethuswa yizinsongo zabo, noma bathophazwe yizincomo zabo, futhi abangazange bakwenze

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ngobubele bakhe kuphela kanye nesihawu ngesimo ayebabona ekuso.

Ngemva kokuzilinganisa ngobumnene bezethulo zakhe, nomqondo omuhle awubeka ekusoleni kwakhe, wasebenzisa ngokuhlakanipha isikhathi lapho ukucabanga kwakuzolile phakathi kwabo, ukuze abasole ngokuhlambalaza kwabo nezimo zabo ezimbi. Wayengesabi ukubasongela ngolaka lwaphezulu, ebatshela ukuthi uma bengaphenduki, kwakufanele besabe ngokuwela esihogweni; ukuthi izahlulelo zikaNkulunkulu zibe zimbi phezu kwabo; ukuthi wayengafuni ukuba sendaweni yabo. Ngezinye izikhathi kwakubahlaba umxhwele lokho ayekusho kubo kangangokuthi abaningi babo babefuna izindlela zokumthulisa ngokumthembisa ukuthi ngokushesha noma kamuva babezoguquka futhi balandele iseluleko sakhe.

Omunye wababi kakhulu wamkhomba ngolunye usuku ngesikhali sakhe, ethi wayeyi-chouan ecashile nje, inhloli yeqembu labo, okwakumelwe abulawe: kukholakala ukuthi wayethatha isinyathelo esibucayi kakhulu; kodwa, ukube ubezincokolela nje, isibhamu esisezandleni zendoda yalolu hlobo, ezibeka ethubeni lokusikhipha, sanele ukwesabisa lowo esiqondiswe kuye. Nokho uDade egula elele embhedeni njengoba enjalo, wamgqolozela emtshela ukuthi angadubula uma ethanda, impilo yakhe isezandleni zikaNkulunkulu. Asazi ukuthi kungani eneliseke ngalempendulo, ngaphandle kokwenza okunye ngaphandle kokulungisa. UDade wazithola esesimweni sokuphindaphinda into eyodwa, futhi umuntu angasho kahle

Wavela kanjalo uDadewethu woZalo ngaso sonke isikhathi lapho ehlala nomfowabo; wabonisa lapho, njengazo zonke izindawo, umphefumulo weqhawe emzimbeni wentombazane. Kuncane kakhulu ukukusho; empilweni eyayingekho, wabonisa, ngokwezimo, konke ukuphelela kwesisa, konke ubuqhawe bokulunga obungakukhuthaza ngokumangalisayo emiphefumulweni.

ngumKristu ngokweqiniso. Ngokungangabazeki ngeke bakholwe lutho ngakho, labo abaphikelelayo ekungabonini lutho kwabazinikele ngaphandle kwezinhliziyo eziphansi nezingenangqondo, futhi ukugodla kwabo kwaphakade kuwukuphinda ukuthi izindela ngaphezu kwakho konke azilungele ize. Ngizobabuza kuphela ukuthi ngabe bazibekezelela kanjani izinsizi ezinjalo; ngokuba, uma kuvunyelwe ukwahlulela ngalabo abalingana nabo ababelapho, kuningi okumele bakholwe ukuthi izinhliziyo zabo ezinkulu beziyoziphikisa. Amazwi ayilutho; kungukuziphatha okufakazela konke: uDade ukufakazile ngazo zonke izindlela. Ukuphela kwesikhathi azizwa equleka ngenxa yokwesaba yilapho ezibeka phakathi kukamfowabo nesibhamu esasimsabisa; umuntu angathi kwakungezona ezesabayo;

Lapho umfowabo ngokwakhe enginika, phambi kwawo wonke umndeni wakhe, imininingwane engisanda kwenza isifinyezo sayo, wahlala kakhulu ebuhleni nasezimfanelo ezinhle ezazikhanya kuye kusukela ebuntwaneni, ehlala ekhula naye. Ukuhlakanipha kwakhe ekunikezeni iseluleko, ukuziphatha kwakhe okumnene, kwamenza wathanda umphrofethi nenhloko yomkhaya. Ubaba nomama babethembele kuye kuwo wonke amaphuzu, futhi zonke ezinye izingane, okwakuyizibulo lakhe, zazimlalela kakhulu futhi ngokuvamile kalula ngaphezu kukayise nomama, ikakhulukazi njengoba uhulumeni wakhe wayemnene kakhulu, futhi wabathwala kakhulu ngokwenza kunokukhuluma, ukuze anikeze abazali babo ukulalela nenhlonipho ababebakweleta kona. UJeannette, wangitshela, kwakuthintwa ngaso sonke isikhathi; vs'

Ngenkathi le ntombazane engcwele inami, waqhubeka u-Le Royer, kubonakala sengathi wadonsela isibusiso sikaNkulunkulu emndenini wami, kangangokuthi yonke into, ngisho nezenzakalo ezibulala kakhulu, zaphendukela kimi. Yebo,

wanezela, uma izimo ezidabukisayo engidlule kuzo zingazange zingonakalise kusukela phezulu kuye phansi, kungenxa yemithandazo yakhe engcwele engiyikweletayo; akukho okungangiphazamisa. Kulokhu, wangicaphuna izici ezihlukahlukene, engizothatha kuzo eyodwa kuphela angixoxela yona kakhulu noma ngaphansi ngale ndlela:

Ukulahlekelwa engabhekana nakho phakathi neminyaka yokungajabuli edlule kwangiphoqa ukuba ngishiye ipulazi laseMontigny (empeleni, wayengekho isikhathi eside lapho ngikhuluma naye; ngaleso sikhathi wayehlala edolobhaneni eliseduze nedolobha. edolobhaneni laseLa Pellerine) nokudayisa izinkabi zami ezimbili ukuze ngikhokhe, ngaze ngasala nepheya elilodwa, engisenalo nanamuhla; kahle, mnumzane, nakhu okwenzeka: ngolunye usuku lapho ngi

nenqola nezinkabi zami ezimbili, ngafika ekwehleni kwaze kwahluleka izinkabi ukubamba inqola, yadlula enye yalaba ababili ababeyigibele.

ngaqhaqhazela ngenkathi ngihamba: Ngezwa, ngezindlebe zami ezimbili, intambo yesondo yenza umsindo ofanayo njengokuthi idlulile.

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isithiyo ebengabe wephula imigoqo. Lo msindo oqhekekayo wangenza ngikholwe ukuthi inyama yenkomo yami yaphuka izimbambo nomzimba wayo wonke; mina, ngikhala: Nkulunkulu wami, ngakhala. Lapha ngimosheka ngingenazo izinsiza: ngizoba yini kimina emva kwale ngozi ebuhlungu?....

Ngamangala ngani mnumzane lapho ngemva kokukhala kwami ​​ngibuyisela amehlo esilwaneni sami esimpofu engangikholelwa ukuthi sasiyizicucu, ngasibona sisukuma ngokwaso singasaveli lutho! Into emangazayo, futhi engingeke ngikholwe, ukube angizange ngiyibone! Akwaphukanga lutho, ngisho nomchilo owabophela ijoka ezimpondweni zenkabi: lase lixegekile, angazi kanjani, ngesikhathi sokuwa, ukusikhulula isilwane, esizithole sesimi phakathi kwalezi zibili. amasondo, ngaphandle kokuthi ngikwazi ukuqonda ukuthi kwenzeke kanjani, noma ukuthi umsindo engangiwuzwile uvelaphi Sizocabanga esikufunayo, kodwa ngibheja lokho  ngekhulu

besingeke senze okufanayo. Ngiyishiya kunoma ubani ofuna ukuzibonela.

UDade wabhekana nobuthakathaka obukhulu futhi obuvame ukuvela kumfowabo  .

Leyo ayevame ukuhlushwa yiyo yayimbangela ukuquleka okuqinile okwakuvame ukumphoqa ukuba ahlale embhedeni; isifo sohudo esadlula samfaka esifweni esinzima akuthola kunzima ukuzikhipha kuso. Nokho, wathola amakhambi ngenkani kuphela; akazange akhononde, futhi akabavumelanga abantu bendlu ukuba baphazamise umsebenzi wabo ukuze bamsize: kwakwanele kuye ukuthi ngaphambi kokuba ahambe babeke noma yini ayengase ayidinge eceleni kwakhe. Intokazi enothando eyayize ukuzombona  egameni le-Doyen de la Pellerine yamthola ngolunye usuku ekulesi sifunda; futhi lapho emhawukela ngenxa yobuhlungu kanye nokushiywa lapho ambona khona:  Wena

unothando oluningi, ntokazi yami enhle, kuphendula uDadewethu; Angiyena owokuhawukelwa; Angintuli lutho, nginakho konke engikudingayo: abantu abayikhulu abangizungezile bebengeke bangivimbele ukuba ngithwale isiphambano sami, futhi uyabona ukuthi bangihlinzeke ngakho konke, banginika konke engikudingayo. Intokazi yabheka eceleni kwayo, futhi yabona esihlalweni ucezu lwesinkwa esikhulu esomile namanzi amancane acwengekile endishini yomhlabathi: kwakuyinto emnandi ngayo.

evamile, futhi yilokho akubiza ngokufuna ize. Ingabe umuntu angathola ezibhedlela ezimpofu kakhulu iziguli eziningi kulula ukuzijabulisa?...

Ekugcineni imvelo yaphinde yathatha isandla esiphezulu, futhi noma ubani owayefuna ukuyisebenzisela udumo lwakhe futhi, wayibuyisela esimweni eyayisidinga ngezinjongo zakhe.

Kwaphela izinyanga ezimbalwa izindela zase-Urbanist zikhululiwe, futhi uDadewethu wokuzalwa kukaJesu wayelangazelela, isikhathi eside, ngemva komzuzu wokubuyiselwa kubo, ukuba abe nenduduzo yokufa ezandleni zabo: wayekhuluma ngakho ngaso sonke isikhathi. . Lo mzuzu okade ulindelwe usufikile. Uthi, ekhala, evalelisa unomphela emndenini wakhe, evevezela umkhuhlane, ebukeka njengohlaka lwamathambo kunomuntu ophilayo. Wagibela inqola,1 eyambuyisela kwa-M. de la Jannière, lapho athatha khona izindawo zakhe zokugcina, nalapho bajabula kakhulu ngokumbona futhi ngemva konyaka owawubonakala umude kakhulu futhi unesicefe.

(1) Kwaba naphezu kokuphikisa komfowabo lapho amaChouan amtholela khona inqola, ayibuyisela ezindelakazi okwase kuyisikhathi eside ziyicela.

ISIKHATHI SESINE NESOkugcina.

Imisebenzi Yokugcina kanye Nokufa kukaDadewethu.

Ngemva kokufeza konke okusemandleni akhe, futhi njengoba sesibonile, umsebenzi uNkulunkulu ayemnike wona, uDade wayengasacabangi lutho ngaphandle kwakhe, futhi wayesejabule ngokuba nombono ongaphezu komsebenzi omkhulu wensindiso yakhe, elungiselela ukufa ayekubone kudala ukuthi kwakungeke kube kude.

Lapho eseqedile ukunginika ama-akhawunti akhe, wangitshela, njengoba sazi, ukuthi osekusele kwakuwukuba azituse emithandazweni yami, njengakubo bonke abafundi beqoqo lakhe, elahla, ngaphezu kwalokho, konke ukucela emikhulekweni yami. ukuhlonishwa noma ukuhlonishwa komphakathi, okuyinto ayengamfanele neze. “Kusele kimina kuphela,” esho, “ukukhalela ukungathembeki kwami ​​okuqhubekayo, izono zami ezingenakubalwa, futhi ngiziphonse ngamabomu emseni kaNkulunkulu omuhle kakhulu ukuba afune ukulahlekelwa okuphakade, noma ngisho nokuvumela iphutha lokuzenzela umathanda. isidalwa esimpofu, esingakaze sifune lutho ngaphandle kokwazi intando yakhe engcwele nokuzivumelanisa nayo. »

Lezo, eqinisweni, kwakuyizimo zakhe; kodwa uNkulunkulu, ojabulela ukubona emiphefumulweni enelungelo imizwa yokwesaba nothando ayivusayo  lapho, akaphoqelekile, ngoba lokho, ukuvumelanisa kukho konke nemithetho ukuthobeka kwabo, njalo enamahloni kubonakala sengathi ufuna ukumnqumela yena  . .

Kungakhathaliseki ukuthi konke lokhu, intando yakhe kumelwe inqobe eyethu,  futhi ithuluzi afuna ukulisebenzisa kumelwe lilalele isandla asisebenzisayo. UMose noJeremiya bangase baxolise ngokungakwazi kwabo, uJona angase  abaleke;

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abantu abangcwele kakhulu beBandla bazigweme ize inhlonipho, izikhundla kanye nokuhlonishwa okwakubalindile, kwakudingekile ukuba bathobele umyalelo owawubabiza; akukho okwakungabasindisa kukho: ngokuzithandela, uMose kufanele akhulule abantu bakhe; uJeremiya makambize, akhale ngezinhlupheko zakhe, futhi uJona amemezele amacala akhe eNineve, ukuze amenze agweme isijeziso.

Ngokwalo mthetho, kuyize ukuthi uDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu uzama ukuzingcwaba ephila ekujuleni kokungabi nalutho kwakhe, kuyadingeka ngempela ukuthi i-echo izwakale, kuyilapho izwi lizwakala, nokuthi uphinda lokho akushilo. : Deus, ungifundise i-juventute mea, kanye ne-usque nunc pronuntiabo mirabilia tua. ( IHu. 70, 17 ) Lena indawo aya kuyo.

Kusukela ebuntwaneni bakhe, njengo-Isaya, wezwa lomyalo ovela ezulwini: “Mprofethi, ungayeki ukukhala; izwi lakho malikhuphuke njalo njengecilongo, ukusola abantu bami ngobubi babo, namacala abo phezu kwendlu kaJakobe. Clam, ungayeki; quasi tuba exalta vocem tuam, et annuntia populo meo scelera eorum, et domui Jacob peccata eorum.( Isaya 58:1 ) Yingakho, ethembekile njalo emsebenzini wakhe, abonisa intshiseko enkulu ngokumelene neziyaluyalu ezacasula uNkulunkulu wakhe futhi zabangela ukulahlekelwa kwezwe lakhe. Akazange alibambe iqiniso; uma engabhalanga ngaso sonke isikhathi, akazange ayeke ukuphenya ngokumelene nobubi; wakwenza lokho ngezwi nangesibonelo kwaze kwaba sekufeni kwakhe, futhi omunye angasho ngaye njengaye uPawule oNgcwele enza isihlabelelo esihle kangaka: Akazange nje akhulume kwaze kwaba sekufeni kwakhe; kepha usakhuluma, efile nje, usakhuluma, kusasekhona imisebenzi yakhe engafiyo: et defunctus adhuc loquitur. (Heb., 11:4.)

Engakabuyeli kodadewabo, wazizwa ethambekele kakhulu ekuceleni imvume yokuya eNgilandi ayofuna umqondisi, aye kuye.

ezikhathini ezahlukene uveze ukuthi usenezinto eziningi angeke azisho komunye umuntu ngaphandle kwakhe. Ubudala bakhe, kanye nobuthakathaka bakhe obengeziwe, kwamenza wenqaba njalo ukuxolelwa ayekucelile ngobuqotho; ebona ukuthi wayengeke aphumelele kulo msebenzi, wakuthola kalula ukuwuvala ngokusemandleni akhe ngokubhalelwa esinye isithasiselo ukuze silethwe kimi, ephinda nokuthi wayesaba kakhulu ukuthi intando kaNkulunkulu; lokho ayekufake esithasiselweni sakhe, nalokho okwangiqinisekisa, ikakhulukazi, ngabantu ababephathiswe kona.

Ngakho-ke uSister of the Nativity waphinda futhi wathatha ipeni lakhe ngaphambi kokuba afe, ngisho ukuthi wasebenzisa ithuba elincane ayesele ukuba aphile, ukuze atshele izindelakazi ezimbili ezazisemfihlweni wakhe, umsebenzi wokugcina osasele kithi. ekubhaleni. Kuwuhlobo lukaDuteronomi, ezincwadini ezimbili zokubhalela, lapho edlula khona izinto eziningi abezishilo, futhi ngenxa yalokho ngizophoqeleka ukuthi ngifinyeze okuningi, ngigcine nokho imibono emisha ngentuthuko ebonakale ifaneleka kakhulu. lokulondolozwa. Lezi zincwadi ezimbili zokubhalela kwakufanele ngizinikwe ngemva kokufa kwakhe, ngoba nginesizathu sokukholelwa ukuthi kwase kuyisikhathi eside engalindele ukuphinde angibone. Ukuziphatha kwakhe kushiya indawo yokungabaza.

Ukunaka okwalethwa yile nkampani entsha, kude nokunciphisa intshiseko yakhe, kunalokho, kwakwandisa usuku nosuku; izenzo zakhe zokuhlonipha uNkulunkulu zaba ziningi futhi isikhathi eside, intshiseko yakhe yaba nentshiseko, ukuzinikela kwakhe kwaba mnene kakhulu. Kunokuba anciphise noma yiziphi izijeziso zakhe, wayenezela kuphela, naphezu kobuthakathaka okwakulokhu kukhuphuka isisindo sobudala nosizi. Ekugcineni, elandela isibonelo sabo bonke abangcwele uNkulunkulu ayebabonise umusa ngendlela ekhetheke kakhulu, wabonisa ukuthi wayenesithakazelo esinjalo kulokho ayesakuphishekela ngokungananazi, ngokwesaba ukuthi wayekuphi ukulandisa ukuthi wayekukweleta uNkulunkulu. .

Kwase kuphele izinyanga ezimbalwa eqedile ukusho amazwi akhe okugcina, lapho eba nalombono wokugcina engizolandisa ngawo manje engawethembisa, ngoba ufika lapha ngokwemvelo, futhi uyithola indawo yawo lapho. , ngokulandelana kwesikhathi. . Lo mbono wasebusuku wawubhalwe phansi, njengokungathi uzophetha ngakho konke ayekushilo, enikeza ubufakazi obuzovala imilomo yabo bonke abamelene naye. Incwadi eyiqiniso ayithumele kumphathi wesifunda saseLa Pellerine, futhi anginikeza yona (siyazi ukuthi wayesengumqondisi wayo isikhathi esithile), le ncwadi engigcina ngayo eyokuqala eqinisekisiwe nguDean; yona le ncwadi, ngithi, Providence wayivumela ukuba iqalwe nguMadame la Supérieure, futhi yaqedwa nguMadame la Custodian,

hlanganisa ndawonye ofakazi ababili nezandla zombili ezazibonile nezilobe konke. Nakhu okuqukethwe yile ncwadi; Ngeke ngishintshe lutho olubalulekile, kodwa ngizongeza amazwana amancane ambalwa embhalweni, ngezinhlamvu ezahlukene:

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Fougeres, Okthoba 16, 1797.

Ubaba wami,

Ngizokwabelana nawe ngephupho elibalulekile uNkulunkulu alivumele ngokuphathelene nemibhalo yami. Ngicabanga ukuthi idemoni labonakala kimi lisesimweni sendela engasekho engangiyazi, eyangitshela ukuthi isesihlanzweni lapho yayihlushwa khona ubuhlungu obukhulu; okwangijabulisa ngesihawu esikhulu nesihawu. Ngesicelo sakhe, ngamthembisa ukuthandaza kuNkulunkulu ukuba amkhulule, futhi ngamcela ukuthi lapho esepharadesi, uma azi ukuthi kukhona okuthile kimi okuphambene nensindiso yami, athandaze kuNkulunkulu ukuba amenzele umusa. ngazise, ​​ukuze ngizilungise ngaphambi kokuvela ekwahluleleni kwakhe. Waphendula ngokuthi, kusukela manje, wabona isithiyo esikhulu ensindisweni yami, ukuthi kungenxa yalesi sizathu ukuthi wabonakala kimi. (Akunjalo Wengeze ngokuthi nakuba ebonakale kimi ephusheni, akufanele ngithathe lokho ayekushilo kimina, nokuthi ukujola kwaba nomphumela. Sawubona! ini? Ngambuza.

Kungukuthi, ungiphendule, mayelana nemibhalo oyenzile, nokuthi kungumbuzo wokucindezelwa nokuchithwa. Izinto ziba mbi kakhulu. ( Kwakuyisikhathi lapho ababhishobhi benginikeza imvume yabo...

) Kudingeka ngokushesha ngangokunokwenzeka ukuthumela i-express ku-M. de Fajole, ngokuhoxiswa kwakho  , ukuze konke okushilo (1) kuthathwe njengokungenalutho futhi kubhujiswe ngokuphelele. Ngambonisa ukuthi ngenzile kukho konke lokho kuphela lokho uNkulunkulu ayengiyale ngakho. Cha, uNkulunkulu akakubuzanga lokho, waphendula, ebonakala ethukuthele kakhulu. ( Imiphefumulo esesihlanzweni ayithukutheli. ) Wangitshela ukuthi ngikhohlisiwe ngokulalela abavuma izono zami Lo mphefumulo osesihlanzweni wawuphindaphinda kuphela  lokho

idemoni lalitshele uDade ukuthi limvimbe ekulotshweni kwalo; nazi kakade izici eziningi zokufana nomoya, okuthi, okungcono kakhulu ukwenza inkohliso, uguqulwe isimo ube ingelosi yokukhanya (2); kodwa asiqhubeke.)

Kungani ku-M. de Fajole? Iliphi ilungelo ongenalo ilungelo  lokwazi ukulikhansela?

Ngenhlanhla, uDade wayengemusha ecikweni lokulwa nakho nokuqagela  .

Kula mazwi ngabona ukuthi ngusathane owasebenzisa leli qhinga ukuze aphazamise ingqondo yami futhi aphazamise unembeza wami; futhi ngesikhathi ngiphakamisela inhliziyo yami kuNkulunkulu, ngithandazela ukuthi abe nomusa kimi; futhi ngivuswa uMoya oNgcwele, ngaphendula kumbono wokuthi ngangiwumlilo nelangabi ngokushesha nje lapho kuwumbuzo wokulalela uNkulunkulu ngokuzuza inkazimulo yakhe. Ukuqonda kwami ​​kwakuwukuthi lapho sengilalele labo abathatha indawo kaNkulunkulu ngenxa yami, ngangikholelwa ukuthi ngangimlalele uNkulunkulu uqobo. Ngesikhathi esifanayo, ngenza uphawu lwesiphambano phezu kwami. Ngalesi sibonakaliso, esingamjabulisi, indela ezenza indela yabaleka; kepha uMoya kaNkulunkulu wangigijimisa emva kwakhe, ngamxosha, ngamvimba, ngambamba ngesihenqo sakhe; isiphambano nami, nimdumise lowo onithumileyo; nika udumo kuZiqu-zintathu othandekayo... Ngamncenga ize ukuba enze kanjalo futhi ngimnike isibonelo; ngenkathi ngiphindaphinda uphawu lwami lwesiphambano i-phantom yanyamalala futhi yanyamalala phakathi kwezandla zami, njengomhwamuko omnyama nongcolile, ngaphandle kokukwazi ukusho ukuthi ibuyele emhlabeni noma yaba yini.

Kulokhu, Baba, ngizokwethula amazwi ambalwa kuwe. Kuthe uma lo owayezibiza ngendela eqala ukukhuluma nami ngokubhala kwami, ngingakabi naso isikhathi sokusola inhloso yakhe, ngambuza ukuthi lo mbhalo akhuluma ngawo uzophumelela yini. Wangiphendula ngokuthi yebo ngentukuthelo, futhi kulapho angeza khona, ngomoya othukuthele, ukuthi wayethatha ijika elibi; kodwa lokhu akuzange kuphinde kungikhathaze, lapho nje sengilazi iqhinga ledemoni. Okwangimangaza kakhulu ukumuzwa engitshela ukuthi kwakufanele ngibikele uM. de Fajole, futhi ngizikhulumele kuye ukuze umsebenzi ubhujiswe: ngoba ngingakuqinisekisa ukuthi angikaze ngilazi igama noma umuntu lo M. de Fajole, futhi wayengazi noma wayengumpristi noma wezwe. Ngakho angizange ngizihluphe ngokuthola, ngizimisele ngokugcwele ukungasinaki iseluleko engangisinikezwa.

Ngizophinda ngikutshele baba ukuthi ngathi ngigijimisa isipoki, ngisimisa, uMoya weNkosi wangenza ngazi kahle ukuthi idimoni, nokuthi konke okwakuyilobaba wangitshela khona.

qamba amanga, futhi ungakunaki engqondweni yami. Aqhubeke uSister ngokushintsha inkulumo.

Baba, ngikhathazekile uma uyitholile incwadi uMama wethu uMfundisi akwazise ngayo evela kimi, njengenyanga edlule, ukuthi bekudingekile ukuthumela, ngokushesha ngangokunokwenzeka, ku-M. Genet, yonke imibhalo Wenzani? yazi. Uzongibophezela ngokuphelele ukuthi ungitshele uma sebephasile, noma uma uhlela ukuthola izindlela eziphephile zokubabamba lapho ehlala khona....

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( Lemibhalo uDade akhuluma ngayo ayithunyelwanga kimi eNgilandi; kodwa nganikezwa yona lapha ngemva kweminyaka emine efile. )

Ngizokutshela futhi Baba ukuthi uNkulunkulu omuhle ungiphe umusa wokungangishiyi ngingenasiphambano; Ngeshwa, angiyigqoki kahle. Imvelo kanye nodeveli, ohlala eyithatha ngenye indlela noma kwesinye, njalo ezama ukungihlwitha ngokuyenza iwele phansi, futhi kaningi ingenza ngithwale yonke into engafanele. Akungabazeki ukuthi uyangizwa, Baba; Ngifuna ngalokhu ukunenza niqonde ukuthi udeveli nemvelo eyonakele bahlale belwa nami, ngezinye izikhathi ngendlela eyodwa, ngezinye izikhathi kwenye, futhi ikakhulukazi ngesikhathi sokugula. Njengamanje ngisembhedeni nginomkhuhlane ongapheli; kodwa ukuhlupheka komzimba akulutho kimi, inqobo nje uma iNkosi elungile ihawukela umphefumulo wami ompofu, futhi iwukhulule ezinzipho zikadrako ongapheli. Kungenxa yalesi sihloko, Baba, ukuthi ngiyanincenga ngokuzithoba okukhulu ukuba ningikhumbule phambi kweNkosi; Ngiyakhuleka futhi ukuba ulondolozwe; kodwa ngidinga imikhuleko yenu ukwedlula nina okwami.

Ungamangali, Baba, uma ubona izandla zombili zilotshiwe kulencwadi; ukuthi uMama wethu, owayeyiqalile, akakwazanga ukuyiqeda

imbangela yezindaba zakhe; udadewabo wamaSeraphim wayilungisa. Bobabili bakuqinisekisa ngenhlonipho yabo enkulu, kanye noSaint Elisabeth. Kimi, Baba wami, nginenhlonipho ejulile nokuzithoba okuphelele, inceku yakho ethobeke kakhulu futhi elalelayo.

Sister of the Nativity.

I-original yalesi siqeshana esingavamile, engiyigcinayo, sinalawa mazwi abhalwe ngesandla se-depository yokuqala: "Ngithole njengoba kunjalo, futhi ngesikhathi sosuku lwaso, incwadi yamanje evela kuDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu, Indela yasemadolobheni yaseFougères, futhi ngayidlulisela, ngo-1802, kumqondisi” walomphakathi. »

Usayine u-Leroy, okhonza e-La Pellerine

Kwakungo-July 6, 1803, lapho uM. Leroy enginika khona lesi sitifiketi emzini wakhe; kwathi mhla zingama-27 kuleyo nyanga nangawo lowo nyaka, izindela ezimbili ezaziyibhalile zangisayina lobu bufakazi obulandelayo, zithinta ikhophi esisanda kuyibona:

Thina, esisayinwe ngezansi, siyaqinisekisa ukuthi kuzoba ekabani, ukuthi uMnu. Genet wayikopisha ngokwethembeka incwadi esasiyibhalele, ngo-1797, eya kuMnu. IDini LaseLa Pellerine, egameni likaDadewethu othandekayo nohloniphekile ongasekho Wokuzalwa KukaJesu. Lonke ushintsho esilubonile, ngokuqhathanisa olunye nolunye, luhlanganisa ukwenza imisho ethile yesiFulentshi eyayingekho. Incazelo iyafana yonke indawo, kanye nokuhleleka kwezinto.

UMarie L. Le Breton Udadewabo uSainte-Magdeleine, Sup., Michelle Pel. Binel des Séraphins, idiphozithi, uBlanche Binel de Sainte-Elisabeth.

Ngivumele manje ukuthi ngicabange ngokubhala kokugcina kukaDade, esisanda kukubona. Ngeke ngikuphinde lapha engikushilo kwenye indawo ngamaphupho angaqondakali nabalulekile imiBhalo Engcwele esinikeza ngawo izibonelo eziningi nezimangalisa kangaka. Ngizokwanelisa ngokuthi kimi kubonakala kungenakwenzeka ukubuza ngokungathí sina iqiniso lokuvela ephusheni elisanda kubikwa. Ngoba ekugcineni, ngaphandle kweqiniso lokuthi isipoki esicatshangelwayo sasingeke simbonise igama nomuntu ayengenalo ulwazi ngaye, ukuthi iphupho kanjani emoyeni, futhi elingeke libe nanoma yiluphi uhlobo lwesicelo, thola. namuhla kufanelana ngokuphelele negama, umbono kanye namagama omuntu obonisiwe, futhi ngaleyo ndlela ngokuhlanganisa izikhathi nezinsuku, akunakwenzeka ukuthi sicabange noma yiluphi uhlobo lokusebenzisana phakathi kwami ​​noDadewethu, ngisho nokungethembi noma ukusola kukaDadewethu, uma kuqhathaniswa nendoda ayengenakho nokuncane umqondo ngayo? Inhlanhla, noma iphupho elivamile, ingabe ziye zaveza imiphumela enjalo? Yilokhu okufanele sikuqinisekise, uma sifuna ukusho okuthile okubalulekile; ngoba akukho okuyoke kuthuthukiswe ngamazwi angasho lutho. uma sifuna ukusho okuthile okuzuzisayo; ngoba akukho okuyoke kuthuthukiswe ngamazwi angasho lutho. uma sifuna ukusho okuthile okuzuzisayo; ngoba akukho okuyoke kuthuthukiswe ngamazwi angasho lutho.

Okwesibili, ngingaba nelukuluku lokwazi ukuthi u-Abbé de Fajole waluthola kanjani ulwazi oluyimfihlo nolwazi olukhethekile angiyala ngalo, eLondon, ngo-1800, ukuba ngishise izincwadi zokubhalela ayezikhonzile e-Isle of Jersey. ngo-1792. Kungakhathaliseki ukuthi  izinsolo ezaziphefumulelwe kuye kusukela zawela emsebenzini, kuDadewethu, noma kimi, ngikholelwa ukuthi zingamanga ngokufanayo; kodwa beze kanjani kuye? Lena inkinga engingakwazi ukuyixazulula. Lowo owayezibiza ngendela, okwathi ngokuthukuthela, wayala uDadewethu, njengokungathi uvela kuNkulunkulu, ukuba amthumelele umlayezo ukuze aqede umsebenzi, wayengeke  yini

ekwenqabeni kukaDadewethu, yena ophethe ikhomishini? Kungaba ku-abbé ukusitshela ngakho; okuqinisekile ukuthi wakhuluma nami cishe ngendlela efanayo naleyo okuthiwa indela ayekhulume ngayo noDade. Kulo mbono, u-Abbé mhlawumbe kufanele ngabe wabhekana nakho njengaye, ngentando kaNkulunkulu, isinqumo sabaphathi eBandleni kanye nophawu lwesiphambano:

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angakholwa ukuthi naye ubezombona enyamalala entuthu emnyama, futhi naye zonke izinsolo zakhe bezizoshabalala.

Okuqinisekile ukuthi ubaba wamanga usebenza ngezindlela eziningi emhlabeni: unama-ejenti amaningi ahlala elungele ukuthanda amanga akhe nezicupho zakhe. Ubaba u-de Fajole, engimhloniphayo, akakaze abe nemibono emihle kulokhu, ngiqiniseka kakhulu ngalokho; kodwa wayengeke abe ngumuntu wokuqala obekwe endaweni enhle owakhohliswa amaphuzu amaningi ngamasu alendoda eyayigqoke njengendelakazi ukuze imangaze ukuzinikela kukasanta ayehluleke kuye izikhathi eziningi kangaka. Ubaba ofuna iqiniso kuphela, akanakukuthola kubi ukuthi indoda, ephethe udaba lwentombazane egcotshwe yikho konke, usesebenzisa uhlamvu lwemali lwangempela alufaka phakathi kwezandla ukucekela phansi. umphumela omubi lokho yayingase iveze ngokumelene naye igunya lombono wakhe. Wacabanga, ngokungangabazeki, ukuthi wayenza umsebenzi wakhe; kulokhu anginakumphika; kodwa futhi ngacabanga ukuthi ngisakwenza okwami, futhi ngilindele ubulungisa obufanayo kuye.

Ake sibuyele kuSisi Wokuzalwa.

Ngemva kwalokhu kubhala kokugcina, okungathakazelisi nakancane, uDade wakholelwa ukuthi ekugcineni usekhululekile kulokho uNkulunkulu ayekucela kuye. Wacabanga nje ukumcela ukuba aphumelele, ezilungiselela kakhulu kunanini ngaphambili ukufa ayekubheka njengokuseduze kakhulu, kanye ne-akhawunti okwakumelwe ayinikeze ngokuphila kwakhe nayo yonke imibhalo yakhe. Ekhululiwe emsebenzini wakhe, wazikhandla kuphela ekubekeni unembeza wakhe nomphefumulo wakhe ngokuhlelekile, ngokuphindaphinda imithandazo, ukuzisola nentshiseko. Ukugula kwakhe kwanda usuku nosuku, kangangokuthi wayekwazi ukuhamba egobile ngenxa yobuhlungu ayebuzwa. Wayephuma nje aye ehhovisi lomphakathi ngamaSonto lapho nje liqala ukugujwa kumaKatolika;

Wayenezingxoxo ezivamile futhi ngezinye izikhathi ezinde kakhulu nezindela kanye nabantu bomphakathi, ababefika bezobonisana naye ngobunzima obuhlukahlukene izimo ezibangela ngaso sonke isikhathi. Kwakukubi futhi kungenakugwenywa kwabanye nakwabanye kukho konke okuphathelene nokholo nokuziphatha. Wenqabela ngaphandle kwesihe futhi ngaphandle kokuhlukanisa konke ukukhulumisana okungokomoya nama-schismatics, inhlamba, nabangeneleli, kuze kube yilapho iBandla selikuphimisile; ngoba akekho owayesengaphansi kwakho konke okwanqunywa yiBandla. Wathi, ikhampasi yomKristu weqiniso, kuwumthetho ongenaphutha uNkulunkulu amnika wona, akanakuduka ngokuwulandela. Omlandelayo uphendula ize; ophambukayo kuyo uyakuba necala ngakho konke. Sawubona! iyiphi i-akhawunti,

Ngokuqondene nokuziphatha, wathi indela, ngaphandle kwendlu yendlu yayo, kufanele ibonakale lokho eyikho emehlweni ezwe, ngokuziphatha kwayo okuhle, ukuzithiba kwayo okunesizotha, ngisho nangendlela izingubo zayo ezibukeka ngayo, eyayizinqumela yona ngobuhle bayo. ukunakekela kanye nokunemba, ngezinye izikhathi ukuhlola ngokumelene nalabo ababonisa ukunganaki, besabisa ngolaka luka-J.-C., njll., njll.

Izimilo zakhe bezingezimbi kangako, uma ziqhathaniswa nabantu bomhlaba, kukho konke okuthinta umshado wabo. Wathi uma bengaboshiwe yizifungo zenkolo, abaphoqelekile kangako kulezo zobhapathizo lwabo, ngaphansi kwesijeziso sokulahlwa. Noma yini echezuka kuyo kancane kufanele ibonakale isolisa futhi iyingozi kubo. Khona-ke walahla, njengomsebenzi kadeveli, hhayi kuphela ibhola, umdanso, umdlalo, amahlaya, izibuko, ukufundwa kwamanoveli, izimpukane, ukwakheka, nazo zonke izici ze-coquetry,

kodwa noma kunjalo yonke into, emfashinini eyamukelwe, yayibonakala isondela kukho. Abavumeli izintokazi noma izintombi ukuba zigqoke izinwele ezingamanga, zithi, zihluke kakhulu kwabesilisa abaphoqelekile ukuthi bavame ukwembulwa, izinwele zabo zingase zenze njalo ukuntuleka kwezinwele zemvelo, nokuthi, uma ziqhathaniswa nazo, ubuciko babungase kuphela ukwanelisa isifiso sokujabulisa abantu, hhayi uNkulunkulu, ngokuthuthukisa ubuhle obabuvele buheha kakhulu. Ngokusho kwakhe, kwakuwukungathembeki ezifungweni zobhapathizo, uhlobo lokuhlubuka okufanele kumcasule kakhulu uNkulunkulu. Ubefuna ukuthi iphinikhodi yeduku libekwe ngendlela ezogwema lokho kunganakwa okuhleliwe nokungamabomu, okuvamile njengoba kuphambene nesizotha sangempela. Angazi ukuthi abanye abantu bazoyithatha kanjani isimilo sakhe, abangakwenzi lokho ngowoBaba beBandla; kodwa ngiyazi ukuthi wabenza bathuthumela ngaphezu kwakho konke lokho, kwaze kwaba seqophelweni lokuba balahle unomphela.

Lapho abaNgcwele bengena enkulumweni ngezinto ezinkulu zoKholo, thina

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bayaqaphela ngolimi lwabo ukuthi bazwa konke ukubaluleka kwalo kanye neqiniso. Ngokuvamile, lapho bekhuluma ngakho, abagcini nje ngokukhuluma nokuphenduka kwebinzana okungezabo, kodwa futhi nephimbo elingajwayelekile, amandla omzwelo asho okungaphezu kwamagama. Ngakho kuvelaphi ukuthi benze ihaba ngamaphutha abo amancane na? Okunjalo, ikakhulukazi ngasekupheleni kwempilo yakhe, kwakubonakala sengathi uDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu. Lapho ekhuluma ngoNkulunkulu, ngensindiso, ngobubi, noma ngobuhle, wakwenza lokho ngamandla nesithunzi esifanele lezi zihloko ezinkulu; futhi naphezu kokulula kokukhuluma kwakhe, okwakuvame ukubonakala kuhlekwa kunoma yimuphi omunye umlomo ngaphandle kowakhe, wayazi indlela yokubeka isithakazelo esikhulu kukho konke ayekusho, kangangokuthi abantu abafundile kakhulu beza bezobonisana naye futhi. walalela ngokukhulu ukunaka. Akekho owayefaneleka ukwedlula yena ukunikeza ukubaluleka kwamaqiniso amakhulu enkolo. Kungenxa yokuthi lawa maqiniso, ayewazwa ngokuphelele, mahle ngokwawo, nokuthi inkulumo.

Ekugcineni uDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu wayesesondela esiphethweni esijabulisayo somsebenzi wakhe. Ebuthakathaka ngenxa yokuguga, ekhathele ukugula, usizi lwalo lonke uhlobo, ubunzima nokuhlupheka ukuphila kwakhe okumpofu okwabhekana nakho, akazange.

kusekelwa ngaphezu kwesimangaliso; kwakungengaphezu kohlaka lwamathambo oluphilayo. Enengekile izwe lapho engakaze abone lutho ngaphandle kwezihloko zokuhlupheka nezinyembezi, nalapho ayesabona khona kunanini ngaphambili, umphefumulo wakhe ubonakala sengathi untanta phakathi kothando olufuna ukushiya impilo ukuze uhlangane noNkulunkulu wakhe, futhi ukuzithoba okufuna ukuhlupheka nakakhulu ukuze kufanele le njabulo nakakhulu. Non mori sed pati.

Kwase kuphele isikhathi esifushane kakhulu kusukela ahlupheka, ngemva kokugula okuningi, okwakucatshangwa ukuthi akufanele aphile. Kwakuwuhlobo lwamaconsi esifubeni, lapho agcina etakulwe khona ngokusetshenziswa kwewayini le-stislitic (x) elibaba kakhulu futhi elinengekayo kakhulu ekunambithekeni. Ukuphila kwakhe akuzange kube yisikhathi eside, futhi uDade wayekulindele. I-dropsy, eyiqiniso noma engamanga, okwakukholelwa ukuthi welaphekile kuyo, ngokushesha yaphenduka isilonda esibindini, eyamthwala ngemva kwamasonto ayisithupha noma ayisikhombisa emithi, eyasiza nje ukwandisa ukuhlupheka kwakhe kancane, futhi mhlawumbe -ukubenza baphile kakhudlwana futhi bafaneleke kakhulu.

i-silica  (?)

Ngalesi sikhathi wathola iSidlo esiNgcwele izikhathi eziningana ngokholo nokuzinikela okwakulindelwe kuye. Naphezu kobudlova bezinhlungu zakhe, wahlala embhedeni ngokuncane ngangokunokwenzeka, futhi nangaleso sikhathi wayefuna nje ukuhlala ephapheme ubusuku obubili noma obuthathu bokugcina, egcina ingqondo yakhe iphilile futhi iphilile kuze kube umzuzu wokugcina, futhi ngokuvamile egcina ingqondo yakhe iphilile. ngokwahlulela okukhulu kanye nokuba khona kwengqondo nabantu ababemsiza. Abantu babefika bezoyivakashela (1); izingxoxo zakhe ngokuvamile zazigxile ezindabeni zokuhlonipha uNkulunkulu. Wayehlala efaka umphefumulo kuwo owawunikeza abanye, futhi wayevame ukuhamba aze awenze buthaka yena, ngaphandle kokuqaphela kwakhe, wayekujwayele kakhulu. Waze wakhuluma ngomlilo omningi, ngesinye isikhathi, nomuntu owake wakhuluma naye wayefuna ukukhunjuzwa ngomsebenzi wakhe. Ngokubona ukuthi lo muntu onenkani usafuna ukuphinde abhekane necala, watshela umqaphi wakhe ukuthi umtshele konke:Esho ngishayele iphinikhodi ekhanda. Uma engazwanga lutho, wayengeke aphinde lapho ngikhuluma naye.

Ngolunye usuku kwafika owesifazane othile edolobheni ezocela imithandazo yakhe nesibusiso sakhe ngenxa yakhe nengane yakhe encane, eyamethula kuye: “Awu! Nkosikazi wami, kusho  uDadewethu, imikhuleko yami ingenzani? KuseBandleni Elingcwele ukubusisa izingane zakho. Nokho, uyababusisa ngokubafisela isibusiso sasezulwini  .

Nakuba engazange asho ngokuqinisekile ukuthi wayenesambulo sehora nomzuzu wokufa kwakhe, kunesizathu esihle sokucabanga ukuthi wayenesethulo esinamandla ngakho, singasasho lutho. Wayevame ukuba nakho

wacela uNkulunkulu ukuba afe ngosuku nehora enza ngalo isifungo sakhe sokuqala sokuzibusa, ezinikezela eNcasakazini Engcwele ngaphambi komfanekiso weNkosikazi Yethu YaseMarshes. (Kwakungaba yimini emini ngosuku Lokwenyuka.) Ngokushesha nje lapho kuqala ukugula kwakhe kokugcina, wagunda izinwele zaba mfishane kakhulu. izinwele zakhe ngisho nezinzipho zakhe, futhi yingakho lezi esinazo zimfushane kakhulu: kusukela ngosuku lokuqala luka-August, uye wacela ngokuphindaphindiwe usuku lwaleyo nyanga; sebemphendulile ukuthi kwakungolweshumi nanye lwenyanga, wathi: "Kusengolweshumi nanye kuphela." Isikhathi eside kangakanani! Lapho etshelwa ukuthi ihora lesishiyagalombili ngoSuku Lokubikezela, waphendula ngendlela ezokwenza kucace ukuthi wayefisa sengathi ngabe sekuhlwile. Futhi ngosuku lweshumi nanhlanu, okwakuwusuku lokufa kwakhe, wayevame ukubuza mayelana nesikhathi, efakaza ukuthi wayefuna ingxenye yosuku, ngaphandle kokusho okwengeziwe. Wayefisa ukufika lapho, wawuzothi usola ilanga ngokunensa kwalo usuku angeke aluqede, noma kunalokho okwakuzoba kuye ukusa kwemini engapheli.

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ukuvula umnyango wephakade elikhulu nelijabulisayo.

Ikakhulukazi njengoba isifuba sakhe sasigcwele lawa amahlaya anezilonda ayemncisha umoya, wayevame ukuwayeka, iphunga lawo lodwa elalingabekezeleleki kubo bonke ababekhona; Lawa amahlaya, amemezela ukuhlakazeka komzimba wakhe, amxakile, kakhulu ngenxa yobugqila bawo njengemizamo okumele ayenze ukuze alindele; ngezinye izikhathi wayengakwazi ukuzibamba efisa ukuphela kwayo, nakuba ayengakhonondi ngakho. Dadewethu, inazaretha eyayimsiza yathi kuye ngelinye ilanga, manje inkosi yaphezulu ikuphuzisa indebe yayo yomunyu.. Ah! umama, waqala kabusha uDade, ngicabanga ukuthi inyongo noviniga kuzoncipha;... kodwa kuyadingeka futhi ngiyambonga uNkulunkulu ngakho...

Phakathi nezikhawu zokugula kwakhe, wayenikeze izixwayiso ezinempilo kubantu abahlukahlukene emhlabeni nase-cloister, abaningi ababezuza kuzo. Lezi zixwayiso zashintsha isimo sikanembeza wabo kanye nomyalelo okwakumelwe bawufake kuwo ukuze balungise lokho uNkulunkulu abasola ngakho; watshela indela ukuthi udinga ukubukezwa unembeza, wayichazela ukuthi kungani futhi kusukela nini; ekhomba umqondisi ayembona

wayezikhuluma, ngisho nenhlawulo ayeyithola kuyo; okwatholakala kuyiqiniso kuzo zonke izici. Utshele abanye ababili ukuthi kumelwe ukuba babesaba kakhulu futhi bazikhandla ekulungiseni umsebenzi wabo. Waxwayisa uMadame la Supérieure ukuthi uzohlupheka kakhulu; ukuthi uNkulunkulu wayeneziphambano zensimbi amgcinele zona, kodwa ukuthi ukuphela kwezinkathazo kwakuyomnika induduzo eminingi.

Ngokubona ukuthi isiphetho sakhe sase sisondela, wazilungiselela ngokusemandleni akhe ukuze athole amasakramente okugcina eBandla, futhi ukuze azilungiselele kangcono wona wathandazela ukuba kungene abapristi, izindela kanye nabantu kuphela ekamelweni lakhe. angase akudinge. Wathola, ngentshiseko ephindwe kabili, i-viaticum engcwele, ukugcotshwa okwedlulele, kanye nokuzitika ngokufa okuhle okuhambisana nomyalelo wezindela zaseFrancisca. Wazikhuthaza, futhi kulesi simo, phakathi kokunye, washo isenzo sokuzisola lapho bonke abasizi bakhala izinyembezi.  Umpristi owayemphethe wahamba eqiniseka kakhulu kunakuqala ngalokho ayesekushilo lapho ekhuluma ngaye: ungcwele. Wayekusho buthule kubantu abangafuni kholisa.

Ngemva kwalesi senzo senkolo, wabonga wonke umuntu, futhi wathandazela ukuba amshiye yedwa noNkulunkulu wakhe, ayesanda kumamukela okokugcina. Ukubonga kwakhe, wathi kusukela manje kuqhubeke singavumela noma ubani ofuna, njengoba ukubona owesifazane ofayo kungaba nemiphumela emihle: “Umbukwane wokufa neziphetho zethu zokugcina, wathi, uhlale unenzuzo kwabaphilayo. Akubonakali ukuthi idemoni lamkhathaza njengoba kusondela isiphetho sakhe: lelo kwakuyithemba engangimenze wakhulelwa ngalo, ngokumqinisekisa ngezinsongo ayezenze kuye esikhathini esidlule zokumvimbela ukuthi angenze ngibhale lokho uNkulunkulu ayekukhulume kuye. yena (1). Bambhekisisa ubusuku obuthathu kuphela kukho konke, futhi nalapho wabekezelela kanzima. Wayethanda ukukhulunywa naye ngoNkulunkulu,

(1) Singakholelwa ukuthi uNkulunkulu wamnika lokho ayekucelile kuye izikhathi eziningi ngala mazwi: Sengathi eZulwini ngabe isiphetho sempilo yami sibe nokuthula njengesiqalo futhi isiqephu esilandelayo sasimbalwa!

Ekugcineni, umhla weshumi nanhlanu ka-Agasti 1798, usuku lokuQothulwa komvikeli wakhe omkhulu, lufika. Kuwusuku lapho elindele ukuhlanganyela ukunqoba kwakhe osekunqobe ngakho izikhathi eziningi phezu kwezitha zakhe. Wajabula uDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu; kodwa akazi lutho ngakho, kakhulu kakhulu

unkosikazi wakhe, futhi wesaba kakhulu ukushiya ngemuva noma yimuphi umbono ongaba nenzuzo kuye. Uyabuza ukuthi yisiphi isikhathi ekuseni, abese ekhuluma ngoNkulunkulu kubantu abahlukene, futhi akhulume nabo ngakho ngobuso nangephimbo elimemezela ukwaneliseka. Base bengenisa umalukazana wakhe owayeze ukuzombona; waba nengxoxo naye ngasese, yathatha isikhathi eside impela. Ngemvume ayeyitholile, walahla isondo lakhe lokuphotha kanye neminye imiphumela emincane evuna yena, futhi lo mlimi omuhle wamshiya ehlengezela izinyembezi.

UDadewethu Wokuzalwa KwaJesu wabe esekhuluma kanzima kunanini ngaphambili, futhi kwakunzima kakhulu ukumuzwa, ngakho isifuba sakhe sasicindezelwe. Kwakuyihora leshumi noma leshumi nanye, futhi yonke into eyayikuyo yamemezela umphumela ovamile wokuguquguquka, ukushabalala okuphelele: kwakulindeleke kahle ukuthi isikhundla sakhe sasingeke sihlale isikhathi eside, futhi wayekulindele ngaphezu kwanoma ubani. Elele embhedeni wobuhlungu, enomfanekiso kaNkulunkulu wakhe ofayo phambi kwakhe, phezu kwakhe indlela yezifungo zakhe, nangaseceleni kwamanzi angcwele ayevame ukufisa ukuchelwa ngawo; ebambe wonke umoya wakhe nakho konke ukuzola komphefumulo wakhe, yena

wagqolozela ukufa ngeso eliqinisekile, wakucabanga ngomoya opholile,

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wambona eza ngaphandle kokwesaba nokuncane. Yebo, eqiniseka ngomvuzo wakhe, wabona ngenjabulo esondela esiphethweni esijabulisayo sokukhandleka kwakhe, futhi wabonakala edelela, ngokuqiniseka kwakhe okuqinile, konke lokho umqondo wephakade ongakunikeza okwesabisa kakhulu kubo bonke abanye abantu.

Ligamenxe ihora leshumi nanye wayesesalelwe wumoya owodwa kuphela, okwakunzima ukuwuzwa; kodwa ukunyakaza kwezindebe zakhe, ukubonakala kobuso bakhe, nezibonakaliso ayesazenza, wathi, esafa, ukuthi wayenawo wonke umoya wakhe. Amehlo akhe, ngezinye izikhathi ayebheke ezulwini, futhi ngezinye izikhathi ayegxile esiphambanweni sakhe, ayekhomba kokubili umgomo ayebheke kuwo, into yothando lwakhe, kanye nesisusa sethemba lakhe. Ngesicelo sakhe, isandla sakhe sasivame ukuthathwa ukuze simsize enze uphawu lwesiphambano aqiniseke, noma ukumenza aqabule izinyawo zesibethelo sakhe. Wayesazama ukuphinda amagama angcwele kaJesu noMariya, noma izenzo ezithile zokholo, zethemba, noma zothando, ezashiwo kuye, futhi ayethanda kakhulu ukuzizwa. Isikhathi sokugcina

ngokuvamile lezi zinkonzo zokuhlonipha uNkulunkulu, owakamuva, esikhundleni sokuthatha isandla sakhe, yena ngokwakhe wenza uphawu olungcwele ebusweni bakhe ngamanzi angcwele, futhi uDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu wabonisa ukubonga kwakhe ngokumamatheka okumomotheka kakhulu. Kwase kusemini yashaya iwashi ledolobha. Emizuzwini embalwa kamuva, labo ababesele eduze kwakhe babona ukuthi wayengasabaniki noma yiluphi uphawu lolwazi, nokuthi ubuso bakhe baba noshintsho oluthile. Baguqa, kwathi besamkhulekela lentombazane engcwele yanikela ngokuthula umphefumulo wayo kuNkulunkulu wayo. Sic moritur justus . Umlindo wantambama washaya imizuzu emihlanu noma eyisithupha ngemva kokufa kwakhe.

Yafa kanjalo-ke, onyakeni wayo wamashumi ayisithupha nesishiyagalombili, le ntombazane engajwayelekile, umuntu, ngokucabanga, angayibheka njengenganekwane yekhulu leminyaka yayo, ifaneleka ngazo zonke izindlela ukuqhathaniswa nakho konke lokho iBandla elikuhloniphayo njengokukhulu nokungavamile phakathi kwabantu. ubulili bakhe, anganikeli kuye nangayiphi indlela ohlangothini lobuhle, noma ukuqina kokuziphatha; Okumangalisa nakakhulu ukuthi, ngaphandle kwezinhlamvu, ngaphandle kwemfundo, cishe ngaphandle kokukwazi ukuziveza, enesibopho sokusebenzisa isandla sangaphandle, wayelingana, mhlawumbe ngisho nokudlula emibhalweni yakhe, konke abanye ababekwenzile ngendlela encomekayo ngendlela ekhuthazayo. noma ingokomoya. Uma umsebenzi wakhe, njengoba unjalo, ubonakala ezazini eziningana ukuthi unamandla ngaphezu kwakho konke okubhalwe nguSaint Thérèse ngokumangazayo, bekungaba yini uma, Umoya nesiko lakamuva, ubengakwazi, ngokwakhe, ukuthuthukisa futhi ethule imibono yakhe emihle, umhleli wakhe ayobe eyenze buthaka kakhulu? Ngakho ake sikusho ngaphandle

ukwesaba, uDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu waphakanyiswa osukwini lwethu ukuze abonise, ngokwakhe, ukuthi ingalo kaNkulunkulu ayifinyeziwe, nokuthi, ngasekupheleni kwamakhulu eminyaka, angenza eBandleni lakhe izimangaliso ezifanele labo. ezikhombe iziqalo zayo, nezingasoze zakwazi ukusho amahlelo ezivuna zona.

Kuthe uma esephelelwe yisikhathi izwi lomphakathi lamgcoba ngeziqu ezingezona kuphela labo iBandla elibaziyo futhi labamemezela ubungcwele babo. Indela engcwele isanda kushona . Kwafika izixuku zabantu zicela ukubona isidumbu sikangcwele.. Wabukiswa isikhathi eside, egqokiswe umkhuba wakhe wenkolo, embuliwe ubuso, izandla nezinyawo, ukuze anelise ukulangazela kwalabo ababezinikele ekumdumiseni ngenxa yobuhle bezinceku ezinkulu zikaNkulunkulu. Ngokushesha umbhede wakhe wawumbozwa izincwadi, amarosari, izinsalela nezinye izinsimbi zokukhulekela ababefuna ukuzithinta. Sabuza ngobuqotho, sabelana ngokulangazela ngezinto ezincane okungenzeka ukuthi zingezakhe. Besifuna ukuba nezinwele zakhe, yena

iveli, lentambo yalo, lobuhlalu berosari layo; kwaze kwahlukaniswa amanikiniki akhe. Batusa omunye nomunye kakhulu emithandazweni yakhe, futhi ngisho nanamuhla, akukho okuvamile emadolobheni nasemaphandleni angomakhelwane, kunokuthandaza nokwenza izifungo zokudumisa uKuzalwa Okungcwele .

Wayecele uMnu. Duval, umqondisi waseLaignelet, ukuba angcwatshwe emathuneni esifunda. Kunokuba akuphikise, uMnu. Duval wayembonge ngokukhetha amenzele kona, wenezela ngokuthi izinsalela zakhe zazizolethela isibusiso sikaNkulunkulu kuye nakumakholwa akhe. UDade wathatha lokhu kwenezela njengehlaya kuye, enqaba ukuphendula, ngenxa yenhlonipho ngompristi omuhle; kodwa ngemva kokuba esehambile, wayetshele izindela ukuthi umfundisi wayefuna ukuhlekisa ngaye . Nokho, wayekhulume kanzima, futhi wayengalindele, lapho ekhuluma naye kanjalo, ukuthi wayezongcwatshwa eduze kwakhe, ngemva kokubulawa ngokungenabuntu cishe emisebenzini yakhe yizitha ze

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Ngakho-ke uDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu wangcwatshwa emathuneni akhe, phambi komnyango omkhulu wesonto, futhi, kukholelwa ukuthi, ohlangothini oluseningizimu; UMadame Sainte-Reine, naye ongumhleli wedolobha wezenkolo, ubambe uhlangothi oluphambene nomnyango ofanayo, futhi

UMnu. Duval uphakathi kwalaba ababili. Noma ngabe yikuphi ukuhlonishwa esinakho ngenkumbulo yakhe, kanye naleyo kaMadame Sainte-Reine, besilokhu sihlukanisa okukaDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu. Ithuna lakhe lodwa selidumile. Abantu baya lapho njalo ukuze bazituse emithandazweni yabo. Kulesi senzakalo, amaqiniso angajwayelekile aphinde alandwe okuyinto okungeyona eyami ukwehlulela. Ake sicabange esikuthandayo; Kimina, angidingi ukuthi uNkulunkulu enze izimangaliso ezintsha ukuze ngikholwe, okungenani okwesikhashana, enjabulweni yomphefumulo obuhle bayo, imibhalo, ukuphila nokufa kubonakala kimi uchungechunge lwamaqiniso ayisimangaliso okuthi, ukudonsa ekuhlelweni okuvamile, ungangivumeli ngingabaze nakancane ubungcwele bayo.

Ngakho, encomeka njalo kwabangcwele bakhe, uNkulunkulu uyasivumela ukuba sibavivinye; uyabahlola ngesikhathi besaphila, futhi abakhazimulise kabili emva kokufa kwabo. Enganelisekile ngokubanika umvuzo ezulwini owathenjiswa ukwethembeka kwabo, usababuyisela emhlabeni ngokubenza baphile.

kuze kube phakade enkumbulweni yabantu, ngaphandle kokuthi kusukela manje kuqhubeke basaba ngenxa yenkohliso yababi: In memoria œterna erit justus, ab auditione mala non timebit. ( IHu. 111, 8,7 kodwa awazange asheshe anyamalale emehlweni akhe kunalokho, ngokumkhulekela ngokungathandi, enikeza, naphezu kwakhe, ubulungisa ebuhleni ayebudelele ekuqaleni, futhi nakuba kunjalo abuncomayo ekusithekeni. Akasakhulumi ngaphandle kokuncoma laba bantu abangajwayelekile abangenaso isibindi sokulandela noma sokusilingisa izibonelo zabo.

Ngakho, nakuba idumela lalabo ababizwa ngokuthi izazi zenkathi, kuyilapho elamakhosi nabanqobi linyamalala njengothuli olupheshulwa ngumoya; kuyilapho igama labo liwela ngokuphahlazeka ekukhohlweni, futhi lingcwatshwa kanye nabo ethuneni elifanayo, olungileyo, onqobayo phezu komhawu nesikhathi, akasenavalo ngokushushiswa. Udunyiswa yizitha zakhe uqobo, futhi uphila phakade enkumbulweni yabantu: Esikhumbuzweni

i-aeterna erit justus. Igama lakhe liya liqina phakathi namakhulu eminyaka, futhi inkazimulo yakhe ngokuvamile iqala lapho eyezitha zakhe ngokuvamile iphelela khona.

Ngemva kokufunda indaba yeminyaka eyisishiyagalombili yokugcina kaSister of the Nativity ongasekho, eyabhalwa uM. Genet, asibonanga lutho kuyo eyayibonakala ingavumelani kakhulu nakho konke esikwaziyo ngakho, njengoba singofakazi. kuyo eFerns. July 27, 1803. UMarie Louise Le Breton, uDade Sainte-Madeleine, ophakeme; UMichelle Pel. Binel des Séraphins, idiphozithi; uBlanche Binel waseSaint Elizabeth; L. Binel, imeya; UCatherine Prime Binel; Louise Binel; U-Anne Binel; I-White Binel Hallmark.

IZINCWADI

KANYE nezingcaphuno zezincwadi

Ibhekiswe kuMhleli ngesikhathi sohlelo lokuqala lwalo msebenzi, futhi kusukela lapho.

Ku-M. Beaucé, Umthengisi wezincwadi.

Mnumzane,

Ngenkathi ngibhalela uM. l'abbé Genet ukuze ngifakaze kuye lonke ukwaneliseka engangikunikwe ukufundwa komsebenzi wakhe ngoDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu, ngangingalindele ukuthi anganamathisela kulesi sikhundla inani elikhulu ngokwanele ukuze alenze obala, ngakho konke ukugunyazwa akuthola. noma odokotela abasezingeni eliphakeme kakhulu. Kodwa-ke, angikude nokuhoxisa noma yini kukho konke engikushilo kuye mayelana nalokhu kukhiqizwa, okungenzeka, kuyiqiniso, ukuzwa ukuphikisana okuningi, kodwa okuvumelana kahle nemizwa yami ngembangela enkulu yazo zonke izinhlekelele zenguquko yethu, okusho ukuthi, kukho konke ukungahloniphi kwekhulunyaka okwadedelwa, ngandlela thile, ngokumelene nenkolo kaJesu Kristu; saloNkulunkulu asinika ngaye  imibono emihle kangaka, enhle kangaka, elungile.

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Ngicela nje ukuthi wengeze kulokho uBaba uGenet ayefuna ukukuloba encwadini yami engangiyiqaphelise okuthile kuye ngezinto ezithile, athembisa ukuyisusa noma ukuyishintsha; okungangabazeki ukuthi uzobe ekwenzile ekhophi onayo. Ngazi kahle kamhlophe ukuthi akukona okwami ​​ukuzibeka njengejaji ngezambulo nezibikezelo eziqukethwe kulo msebenzi, ngathatha ithuba lokufika kukaPius VII eParis ukuze nginikeze ubuNgcwele Bakhe ikhophi engangiyithole ngediphozithi evela ku-Pius VII eParis. M. Genet ngokwakhe. Ngase ngithemba ukuthi lo msebenzi wawungeke unyatheliswe kuze kube yilapho usuhlolisiswe amajaji anekhono kunawo wonke. Ngiyazi ukuthi leso kwakuyisifiso sikaDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu, owayesaba kakhulu ukuziqhelelanisa nakancane ekukholweni kweBandla. umhleli.

Nginelungelo lokuba,

Inceku yakho, Abbé Barruel.

Lokhu ngoFebhuwari 10  , 1818.

Izingcaphuno ezivela ezincwadini ezivela ku-Madame Le Breton, owaziwa ngokuthi ngu-de Sainte-Madeleine, ophakeme kuSista Wokuzalwa KukaJesu.

Mnumzane,

Ngemva kokuthola ukuthi awusitholanga isithasiselo (1), nganquma ukuba sikopishwe ukuze sikuthumelele sona. Umsebenzi wawunamandla futhi ubuhlungu; ngoba ngikholwa ukuthi izoqukatha ivolumu yonke...; kodwa, mnumzane, ngaphambi kokuyinyathelisa, kudingekile ngempela ukuba idwetshwe umfundisi onolwazi oluningi; ngoba manje kimi kubonakala sengathi zonke lezi zinto ezinhle zifana namadayimane abekwe umthofu. Kukhona inqwaba yokuphindaphinda ... ngingakuqinisekisa ukuthi akukho okushintshiwe noma okungeziwe kukho. Unjengoba simtholile, esinika kuphela inkazimulo kaNkulunkulu nensindiso yemiphefumulo...

(1) Isengezo uMphathi akhuluma ngaso lapha, futhi engangikucelile kuye, siqukethe konke uDadewethu woZalo ayekushilo ngaphambi nje kokufa kwakhe; lezi zincwadi zokubhalela zakha isihloko somqulu wesine. Zazinikwa mina yindlalifa kaMnu. Genet.

Le Breton, ebizwa ngokuthi iSainte-Magdeleine.

St. James, May 13, 1818.

Qaphela . Izindelakazi ezihlela idolobha ezasala emphakathini waseFougères zahlala eSaint-James, nomphathi wazo.

Mnumzane,

Yamukela ukubonga kwami ​​ngamakhophi amathathu owangithumelela wona ngabashana bami. Ngokushesha nje lapho sengiwatholile, ngawafunda, ukuze nginazise engikholelwa ukuthi akulungile neze; kodwa kumele kuvunywe ukuthi lokhu kuncane kakhulu. Ngizokubhalela, futhi ngikunike amagama afanele angalotshiwe kahle: Maye! ukuthi konke akusho kimi kusekude nokubhalwa!... Nokho, kuningi okuzuzayo kuzo zonke izifundazwe. Ngibona ngenjabulo ukuthi abantu ababephawule ukuphikisa kwami ​​lo msebenzi, manje sebefuna ukuwufunda. Ukuyithatha ngaphandle kokubandlulula, angingabazi ukuthi kuyoba mnandi kakhulu, futhi

yilokho kuphela engikufisayo kube inkazimulo kaNkulunkulu nensindiso yemiphefumulo, futhi kube  yinzuzo yenu. Kufanele ukuthi usitholile isithasiselo  sakho

bebuza. kuyathakazelisa njengencwadi yonke, ukuthi  angikhathali

iphuzu lokufunda, nokuthi ngicelwa kakhulu ukuba ngiboleke, kangangokuthi ngikuthola kunzima ukwanelisa wonke umuntu. Ngethemba ukuthi lokhu kuzosakaza kabanzi, ikakhulukazi oshicilelo lwesibili oluzoba neqiniso, futhi oluzoba nomfanekiso wale Ndodakazi engcwele. Thola futhi isiqinisekiso sokubonga kwami ​​kanye nenhlonipho engihlonipheke ngayo, Ezinhliziyweni Ezingcwele zikaJesu noMariya,

Mnumzane,

Inceku yakho ethobeke kakhulu, u-Le Breton, obize uSainte-Magdeleine.

James, Juni 20, 1818.

Mnumzane,

Manje usunakho konke okuyalelwe u-Sister of the Nativity. Wayehlale egcina yonke into engavamile, kangangokuthi iningi lezindela ezazihlala naye zazingenalo ulwazi ngakho. Abanye basola kuphela; kodwa wangitshela izikhathi eziningi ukuthi wayencamele ukumemezela zonke izono zakhe kunokuvuma nokuncane. Sekukaningi engicela ukuba ngimehlise ezingqondweni zabantu ababonakala bemazisa; waze wavumela ukuba kukholakale ukuthi wakhulela ebuntwaneni ngemva kokugula okungathi sína, ukuze achithe umbono omuhle awuboniswa. Uma enganginika ukuzethemba okuphelele, kwakungenxa yokuthi uM. Genet wayengekho. Ngaleso sikhathi wayeseMkhulu, wangitshela lokho iNkosi yethu emazise kuye, ngaphambi kokuba ibhalwe, ukuze ngithole ukuthi ngizoyithola ifanelekile yini, futhi ngiye ngagunyaza ngaso sonke isikhathi, ngingakwazi ukuzibhala mina, ngenxa yokwesaba ukuqashelwa. UMadame Michelle Pélagie Binel, owaziwa ngokuthi Les Séraphins, eyedwa ngasese nami, futhi wafa ngo-1817, wanikwa umsebenzi wokuba abhale. Zonke ezinye izindelakazi zingase zibe nezicucu zalokho eninakho, kodwa eziningi zingakutshela ukuthi zakhiwa ukuziphatha kwakhe ngazo zonke izindlela, kanye nabantu bezwe aphila nabo eminyakeni yokugcina yokuphila kwakhe. Indela eyayimlalele endaweni yokuvuma izono, futhi eyayibonakala imphikisa, yangitshela ukuthi yayingakaze imbone enza iphutha ngokuzithandela. Yaziveza (x) kuphela ngokukhuluma ngothando lwaphezulu. Ubuso bakhe baphila, futhi izwi likaNkulunkulu, eshiwo nguye, kwangena ekujuleni komphefumulo: akaze abekho umuntu owake waba nombono onjalo kimi; abanye bake babhekana nakho njengami. Noma ngabe imihle kangakanani imibhalo yakhe, inamandla amancane kakhulu kuneyakhe kuvinjiwe.

(x) kutholiwe (???) kutholiwe (?)

Kwalahleka umkhumbi othakazelisa kakhulu olwandle, esingagcinanga nocezwana lwawo. Wayehlale esitshela ukuthi uNkulunkulu wamvikela. Ngokusho kwalokhu akukho neyodwa esiyigcinile. Isengezo engakuthumelela sona, ekufeni kwakhe, sasisezandleni zika-M. le Saunier, owayengumpristi wesifunda saseParcé, umvumi wakhe ngaleso sikhathi owayesihlole uM. Vafral, umpristi nomfundisi omkhulu, ohlala eSaint-James. , ehlukaniswa ngesayensi yakhe nobuhle bakhe. Lesi sakamuva sayiphathisa uMademoiselle Beaumond, umthengisi wakuyo le ndawo, owathatha le khophi engabhalwanga, ngayibhala phezu kwayo, le ntokazi engafuni ukuhlukana nayo. Laba banumzane ababili bashona eminyakeni  embalwa edlule.

iminyaka; futhi uDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu wafa eminyakeni emine ngaphambi kokuba uM. Genet abuyele eFrance. Kade ngahamba naye. Angazi ukuthi kwenzeka kanjani ukuthi emva kokusebenza kulawa maphepha okugcina, alahlekelwe; Ngizwe nje ukuthi ubebabolekile ukuthi bakope, bagijinywe, angazi kuphi. Lawa wodwa ayedwetshwe eFrance: konke owakunyathelisa kwakuseNgilandi. Abanye bafisa lokho

M. Genet ukuze lo msebenzi unyatheliswe, bekulokhu kunezithiyo.

Lokho, mnumzane, yilo lonke ulwazi engingakunikeza lona, ​​sengathi lunganele.

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ukuphelelisa umsebenzi futhi ngikufakazele umusa wami.

Thola isiqiniseko senhlonipho engihloniphe ngayo ukuba seZinhliziyo Ezingcwele zikaJesu noMariya.

Mnumzane, inceku yakho ethobeke kakhulu, uDe Sainte Magdelaine.

James, Juni 28, 1818.

PS Wayengenaye umuntu obhalayo ngaphandle kuka-M. le Dean de la Pellerine kanye

UMnu Genet. Unazo izincwadi zakhe.

Izingcaphuno ezivela ezincwadini zika-Miss Louise Binel.

(uMademoiselle uLouise Binel, indodakazi kaM. Binel, iMeya yaseFougères, kanye nomshana wezindelakazi ezimbili zase-Urbanists eziyimfihlo zikaSister of the Nativity; okungukuthi: Madame des Séraphins (Michelle-Pélagie Binel), kanye noMadame de Sainte-Elisabeth (Blanche Binel ), wayenobudlelwane obukhethekile nobusondelene kakhulu noDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu.Ababekazi bakhe ababili, abaphoqeleka ukuba babuyele emindenini yabo lapho beshiya umphakathi wakubo, babeqoqe kubo le ngxoxo engcwele, futhi kungaphakathi kwalo mndeni ohloniphekile lapho ekhona. wafa.)

Fougeres, Juni 12, 1818.

Mnumzane,

... Ngibonga kakhulu ngokungitshela ukuthi kuzoba nohlelo lwesibili; ngokuba ngaze ngaphenya eyokuqala, kodwa angitholanga isengezo uM. Genet yedwa ayenaso. Yayinamakhasi angamakhulu amabili, futhi yayibhalwe ngesandla sika-anti ephuma kumaSeraphim. M. Genet wayeyibhale ngaphambi nje kokufa kwakhe. Ngaba nomsebenzi wokumthumelela inothi elincane le-athikili, elingahambisani nomcimbi. Ngafunda ngokuhamba kwesikhathi ukuthi sasisanda kulahlekelwa nguye.

Ngikhuluma nawe mnumzane....

Louise Binel.

Fougères, ngoJulayi 5, 1818.

Mnumzane,

.... Ukukubeka endaweni ukuze uqiniseke ukuthi unawo yini amanothi

iqiniso, elibhalwe ngaphansi kwesiyalezo sikaDadewethu Wokuzalwa kukaMadame des Séraphins, ongubabekazi wami, ngacabanga, mnumzane, ukuthi ngeke ngenze kangcono kunokudlulisela kuwe ngesandla sakhe. Ngakho-ke uyothola  evalelwe incwadi angibhalela yona ngonyaka owandulela ukufa kwakhe; ngoba ngaba nobuhlungu bokulahlekelwa nguye ngonyaka odlule, ngePhasika. Ngingakutshela futhi ukuthi wayengusanta, njengodadewabo uMadame de Sainte-Élisabeth. Udadewabo Wokuzalwa Wakwenza okukhulu. Bekungaba induduzo enkulu kobabakazi ukubona imisebenzi yakhe ibhaliwe. Sibe nenhlanhla yokuba ngabanikazi bazo bobathathu kusukela sashiya indawo yangakubo. Basishiya eminyakeni embalwa ngemva kokufa kukaDade, ukuze bangene emphakathini omusha, owasungulwa eSaint-James, UNksz

kaSainte-Magdeleine, owayengumlandu wabo, nokuthi bawushiye umhlaba futhi bafele e-cloister. Uxolo, mnumzane, ngiphume kancane esihlokweni. Ngikhethe le ncwadi kumalumekazi, ngoba ungitshela ngezethu

Dadewethu othandekayo, futhi ungazise ukuthi uBaba uBarruel wathumela ikhophi yemibhalo yakhe kubaba wethu ongcwele uPapa. Njengoba u-anti wayevele egula ngesikhathi engibhalela, isandla sakhe sishintshile kancane. Kodwa-ke, ngikholwa ukuthi uzobona ukuthi izincwadi onazo zingezakhe yini; futhi uma zikhona, ungaqiniseka ukuthi azidwetshwanga nguM. Genet, owashona ngokuzuma, angeke akwazi ukuzisebenza; ngokuba ukuba wayewalobile, wayengeke awagcine amanothi ka-anti wami, okwakungafanele avele njengoba enjalo, kodwa ayebhalwe futhi asetshenziswe nguM. umoya ofanayo, njengoba uzobona ngezifiso zokugcina zikaDade, engibe nenhlanhla yokuyithola,

(1) Ziyotholakala ekuqaleni komqulu wesine, esixwayisweni.

Umamncane wamaSeraphim wayengumgcini walezi zincwadi, kanye nomunye wabangane bami owayemethemba uDadewethu othandekayo, ngenxa yobuhle bakhe, ukuhlakanipha kwakhe nezinkonzo ezibalulekile ayemenzele zona. Le ntokazi elungile yaze yaziveza ukuthi igcina lezi zincwadi ngesikhathi esibi kakhulu somzabalazo, uhulumeni waze wawafuna ngenxa yesiqu esaqhamuka eNgilandi, esingabashumayeli abadlula ngasese: yabanjwa, lapho. kwatholakala ezinye izincwadi zokubhalela ezazikopishwe kwekaM. Genet, ngaleso sikhathi eyayiseLondon. Njengoba kwakumayelana nenguquko, kwenziwa ucwaningo ukuzama ukuthola ukuthi kwenzekani ngokulandelayo. Lapho uM. Genet ebuya, umngane wami kanye nomamncane wami babuyisela izincwadi kuye, bemtshela ngezifiso zokugcina zikaDade. Angicabangi, ngokwalokhu, ukuthi uM. Genet wadebeselela kanjani lamagama; ngoba lezi zincwadi akumele zivele njengoba zinjalo. Izindela ezimbili eziyizithenjwa azizange zikhathazeke ngakho, konke kwakusezandleni zomhleli, ziqiniseka kahle ukuthi yonke into yayibhalwe phansi, futhi, uma kwenzeka ukufa, inikezwa othile ezimethembayo. Ekugcineni, mnumzane, engingakuqinisekisa nje ukuthi uM. Genet yedwa owayenomsebenzi ophelele. Maningi amakhophi, kodwa awekho anezincwadi zokubhalela zika-anti; yena kanye nezinye izindela babengawagcini amakhophi ezimpahla ezazikhona konke kusezandleni zomhleli, waqiniseka ukuthi konke kwabhalwa, futhi, uma kwenzeka ukufa, kunikezwe othile amethembayo. Ekugcineni, mnumzane, engingakuqinisekisa nje ukuthi uM. Genet yedwa owayenomsebenzi ophelele. Maningi amakhophi, kodwa awekho anezincwadi zokubhalela zika-anti; yena kanye nezinye izindela babengawagcini amakhophi ezimpahla ezazikhona konke kusezandleni zomhleli, waqiniseka ukuthi konke kwabhalwa, futhi, uma kwenzeka ukufa, kunikezwe othile amethembayo. Ekugcineni, mnumzane, engingakuqinisekisa nje ukuthi uM. Genet yedwa owayenomsebenzi ophelele. Maningi amakhophi, kodwa awekho anezincwadi zokubhalela zika-anti; yena kanye nezinye izindela babengawagcini amakhophi ezimpahla ezazikhona amaqiniso....

Lokho, mnumzane, yilo lonke ulwazi engingakunikeza lona; ngiyajabula uma ngingafaka isandla kokuthile okuhle ukuthi lokhu

umsebenzi oyigugu, ngijabula nakakhulu uma ngizuza kuwo ngokwami, kanye nezeluleko zomusa le ndodakazi engcwele enginikeze yona ngokwayo egameni likaNkulunkulu; ngokuba nguye yedwa owayekwazile ukumnika ulwazi lwalokho okwakwenzeka kimi, njengoba angitshela, nokuthi ngaphambi nje kokufa kwakhe, kanjalo nakubaba wami, umama kanye nodadewethu omncane. Lo Dade ohluphekile wayengithanda kakhulu, ngabuyisela umusa kuye....

Uxolo, mnumzane, ngobude bale ncwadi; uma ngesinye isikhathi ngike ngaphambuka esihlokweni sami, kufanele nikubalule kuphela ububele bami obukhulu ngendodakazi yethu engcwele, ekwaziyo ukuthi ngiyakhohlwa uma ngikhuluma ngayo.

Nginelungelo lokuba nenhlonipho, Mnumzane,

Inceku yakho ethobeke kakhulu, uLouise Binel.

Sizonamathisela lapha incwadi evela ku-M. Le Roy, iDini laseLa Pellerine, ovuma izono zikaDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu ngesikhathi engekho uM. Genet.

Nakhu akubhalela omunye wozakwabo ngo-1799; Le ncwadi iqukethe umkhuba wokuzinikela ophumelela kakhulu wokukhulula imiphefumulo ePurigatory.

Mnumzane,

Kunezinto ezitusekayo ongazisho ngoDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu, ezingashiyi indawo yokungabaza injabulo yakhe, futhi zimemezele ukuthi mkhulu kakhulu phambi kukaNkulunkulu. Kusukela eneminyaka emibili nengxenye kuze kufike isikhathi lapho wazi ukuthi wafa, uNkulunkulu, ngezikhathi ezithile, wayekhuluma naye, ikakhulukazi kusukela ekuqaleni kwenguquko; wamembulela izinto eziningi esezenzekile, ikakhulukazi ukufa kukaLouis XVI, ukugcotshwa kwakhe eZulwini, ukubhujiswa kwemiphakathi, ukushushiswa okusha esibhekene nakho, njll.; okwesikhathi esizayo, ukuphela kwamashwa aseFrance, ukunqoba kweBandla, ukusungulwa kabusha kwenkolo, ukwakhiwa kwemiphakathi emisha, ingxenye yokushushiswa iBandla okumelwe likuhluphe kuze kube sekupheleni kwamakhulu eminyaka  . 

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uvuko luka-J.-C., imimoya yasezulwini eyayingofakazi.

Wamazisa ukuthi indlela yokukhulula imiphefumulo eSihlanzweni, ephumelela kakhulu, futhi evumelana kakhulu naye, iwukumnikela ngale njongo, ngokuhlukana, izinhlupho ezihlukahlukene uJ.-C. wenkambo yothando lwakhe olubuhlungu.

Masibusise izikhathi eziyinkulungwane, Mnumzane, futhi singaphezi ukubonga umbhali ngazo zonke izibusiso ezingavamile azinikeze lo mphefumulo olula, futhi sicabange ngokumangala ukuthi ukujabulela kanjani ukusebenzisa izinsimbi ezibuthakathaka kakhulu ezintweni ezinkulu kakhulu. , nezimangaliso zakhe umusa nesihawu esingapheli kubantu; ngoba akusikho okwakhe, kodwa kungenxa yethu ukuthi uyinike ukukhanya okungaka. Ngakho-ke masizame ukukuchaza, futhi ngaphezu kwakho konke sifanele ukuphinde sihlanganiswe ngolunye usuku nale Ndodakazi engcwele ingunaphakade.

Nginelungelo lokuba,

Mnumzane, inceku yakho ethobeke kakhulu, Le Roy, iDini laseLa Pellerine.

Sibona kulencwadi ukuthi uM. Le Roy, njengomvumuli wezivumo zeSister of the Nativity, wayenolwazi ngemibhalo yakhe yokugcina, okuzoba isihloko somqulu olandelayo.

Ukuphela kwevolumu yesithathu.

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Isingeniso Ikhasi. 1 

Impilo yangaphakathi kaDadewethu  Wokuzalwa KukaJesu  6

Imicabango 228

Amaphupho angaqondakali nangokwesiprofetho kaDadewethu Wokuzalwa KukaJesu

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amaphupho ethusayo 236

Amaphupho  amnandi 257

Imicabango  yombhali 297